CHAPTER
ONE
Behind
his walls of demon-polished bronze, behind his windows so closely shuttered
with copper scales that no sunlight penetrated, Smada Rezhyk brooded over a
leaf. It was a bit of ivy, small enough to fit within the palm of his hand, and
written upon it in letters spun of gray spidersilk was the single word,
"No." A snake had deposited the leaf at the gate of Rezhyk's castle,
and he needed no signature upon the smooth green surface to tell him who had
sent the message.
His
footsteps rang against the floor—studded boots upon the mirror-bright metal—as
he strode to the workshop, to the brazier that had never cooled since the
instant Castle Ringforge had been completed. His band passed above the flames,
let go the leaf, which danced briefly in the upwelling heat until the fire
caught it, curled it, shriveled it to ash. In the flickering light, the jewels
upon his fingers sparkled, the plainer bands gleamed warm; each ring was a
demon at his command—a demon of fire, a demon to build or destroy at his whim.
He tallied them slowly, his only friends in the universe. Then he summoned one,
the first and best of them all, faithful companion since his youth; the
simplest ring, red gold, was inscribed with that demon's secret name: Gildrum.
From
some other part of Ringforge, Gildrum came in human guise, entering by the door
as a human would. In appearance, the demon was a fourteen-year-old girl, slight
and pretty, with long blond braids. Rezhyk had given her that semblance when
they were
both
young, and only he had changed with the passage of the years. He kept her near
him most of the time and spoke his heart to her. She climbed atop a high stool
by the brazier and waited for him to begin the conversation.
He was
toying with glassware, with notebooks and pens and ink. He had not yet glanced
up at her when he said, "She refused me."
In a
high, fluty voice, Gildrum said, "Please accept my sympathy, lord.*'
"She
refused me, Gildrum!" He turned to face the demon-girl, lines of anger set
around his mouth. "I made her an honorable offer!" "You did, my
lord."
"Am
I ugly? Are my manners churlish? Is my home unfit for such as she?"
"None of that, my lord.**
"What
have I done, then? How have I offended her? When? Where?"
uMy
lord," said Gildrum, "I do not profess to understand humans
completely, but perhaps she is merely disinclined to marry anyone.9'
"You
are too soft, my Gildrum." He leaned on a stack of notebooks, forehead
braced against his interlaced fingers. "She hates me, I know it. It was a
cold reply, brought by a cold creature. She meant to wound me.**
"And
ha* succeeded."
"For
a moment only! Now I know my enemy. We most take precautions, my Gildrum, to
make certain sh« never can wound me again."
The
demon shrugged. "Never again ask her to marry you.*'
"Not
enough! Who knows what evil she fancies I have done her? I must protect
myself."
"I
would think you are well protected in Ringforge." "How?" He
clutched a length of his dark cape in both fists, "I wear woven cloth; she
could turn my very clothes against me." "Inside your own
castle?"
"Am
I never to set foot outside again, then? Must I wear plate armor every time I
walk abroad? Or felted garments hung together with bolts and glue? She rules
too
much, her hand is everywhere. What can I do, Gildrum?*'
She
smiled. "A fire demon could keep you warm enough if your vanity would
permit you to walk the world naked, my lord."
"A
sorcerer naked as a beggar? Hardly!"
"A
beggar would not wear rings of power on all his fingers. People would know your
rank."
"Don't
try my patience so, Gildrum."
'Then I
must think a moment, lord.** Pursing her lips, crossing her arms over her
bosom, she looked up at the ceiling. Just visible beneath the hem of her blue
gown, her feet swung slow arcs between the legs of the stool, pendulums
measuring the time of her thought "My lord," she said at last,
"if you are truly concerned about some danger from the lady, then I would
advise you to construct a cloth-of-gold shut, a fine mesh garment, supple
enough to wear next to your skin. It must be made of virgin ring-metal, and you
must draw and weave the strands yourself, without demonic help. Such a
combination of your province and hers would be impervious to her spells and to
any of your own that she might try to turn against you."
Rezhyk
poked the coals in the brazier. "A fine notion, Gildrum, but what is to
keep her from discovering that the shirt is being made long before I finish it?
I am no weaver, after all; it would be a slow process."
"How
will she discover ft? You will do it here in Ringforge."
"How
does she discover anything? Every spider is her spy."
"Even
here in your own castle?"
"Even
my own castle is not proof against vermin. They come and go as they
please." He glanced about nervously. "There are none here now, but
they might get in at any time.**
"Well,
then, you must do something about them. Post a watch of fire demons to burn
every spider that approaches the outer wall."
"She
will take that as an affront!"
Gildrum
sighed. "Worse and worse. Perhaps if you just sent her a vase of flowers
and begged her forgiveness ,..?**
Rezhyk
paced a slow circle about the brazier. "H only we could arrange for her to
take a long sea voyage, or to go into seclusion hi some distant cave for a
while. How much time do you think the making of the shirt would require?"
"As
yon said, you are no weaver. Perhaps a month. Perhaps two. No more than that, I
think, if I show you exactly what to do.** She held up a hand to stop his
pacing. "There is a way to weaken her powers for a month or two, my
lord.**
"Yes?"
"If
she conceived a chfld, the child*s aura would interfere with her own. She would
be limited, severely limited."
"Enough...
?**
"Enough
that she could hardly speak to a creature beyond her own castle walls."
Rezhyk
shook his head. "She would abort the child. She would abort it as soon as
she realized it existed. She could not allow that kind of vulnerability."
"A
month or two, I said, my lord. Until she noticed the pregnancy. Until she
noticed the curtailing of her powers.*'
"She
might notice immediately.**
Gildrum
spread her hands, palms upward. "I have no other suggestions."
"We
would have to work quickly. A month is too long. Could I do it in a week?**
"Working
night and day, my lord, working with perfect efficiency, you might possibly do
it in a week. At the end, you would be exhausted."
"I
have no choice." He opened the drawer where he kept his stock of
ring-metal. Gold lay within, and silver, copper, iron—wooden boxes held chips
and chunks of each, surplus from old rings, and a few small ingots. "I
have a gold bar, never used. Will that be enough?"
"Yes."
He
hefted the bar in one hand. 'This will be a heavy garment."
"You
will grow strong wearing it"
He set
the mefel on his workbench. "We have only
one
problem, my Gildrum.** He glanced up at her. "How to bring about this
pregnancy."
Gildrum
smiled. "Leave that to me."
Rezhyk's
gaze traveled the length of the demon's girl-body. "You suit me well; but
for her ... for her we must give you another form.'*
"Tall,"
said Gildrum. Tall and lean and just past the first flush of youth."
Rezhyk
worked two days and two nights to model Gildrum's new form in terra-cotta.
Life-sized he made it, strong of arm and broad of shoulder, sinewy and lithe,
the essence of young manhood. Other sorcerers, when they gave then* servants
palpable forms, made monsters, misshapen either by device or through lack of
skill, but Rezhyk molded his to look as if they had been born of human women.
Complete, the figure seemed almost to breathe in the flickering light of the
brazier.
Satisfied
with his work, Rezhyk set his seal upon it: an arm ring clasped above the left
elbow, a band of plain red gold, twin to the one he wore on his finger, incised
with Gildrum's name. Gently, but with a strength that would seem uncanny in so
slight a body, were it truly human, Gildrum lifted the new-made figure hi her
arms and carried it across the workshop to a large kiln whose top and front
stood open. She set the clay statue inside, upon a coarse grate.
Rezhyk
nodded. "Enter now, my Gildrum."
The
demon-as-girl smiled once at her lord's handiwork, and then she burst into
flame, her body consumed in an instant, leaving only the flames themselves to
dance in a wild torrent of light. Billowing, the fire rose toward the high
ceiling, poised above the kiln and, like molten metal pouring into a mold, sank
into the terra-cotta figure and disappeared. The clay glowed red and redder,
then yellow, then white-hot
Rezhyk
turned away from the heat; by the tight of the figure itself he entered its
existence, the hour, and the date hi the notebook marked with Gildrum's name.
By the time he looked back, the clay was cooling rapidly. When it reached the
color of ruddy human flesh, a dim glow compared to the yellow of the brazier,
if began to crumble. First from the head, and
then
from every part, fine powder sifted, falling through the grate at its feet to
form a mound in the bottom of the kiln. Yet the figure remained, though after
some minutes every ounce of terra-cotta had been shed—the figure that was the
demon, molded within the clay, remained, translucent DOW, still glowing faintly
from the heat of its birth. The ring that had been set upon the clay now
clasped the arm of the demon, its entire circle viable through the ghostly
flesh. Then the last vestige of internal radiance faded, the form solidified,
and the man that was Gildrum stepped forth from the kiln.
He
stretched his new muscles, ran his fingers through his newly dark hair.
"As always, my lord," he said hi a clear tenor voice, "you have
done well."
**I
hope she thinks as much." He slipped the ring from Gildrum's arm and
tossed it into the drawer from which he had taken the gold bar. "There
must be nothing that smells of magic about you—above all, nothing to link you
with me."
Gildrum
nodded. "I shall steal human trappings, I know of a good source."
"You
must not fail."
"Have
I ever failed yon, lord?"
"No,
my Gildrum. Not yet."
"And
not now." His form wavered, shrank, altered to that of thb
fourteen-year-old girl, naked in the light of the brazier. "Will you give
me the seed for the child, my lord? Or must I find some beggar on the
road?"
He took
her hand. Til give it"
Rain
poured down upon the forest from clouds crowded close above the treetops. On
the muddy track below, a large black horse, tail and mane matted with wet and
filth, trudged toward the nearest sign of life, a high-spired castle overgrown
with ivy. The horse's rider slumped forward over the pommel of the saddle, one
arm hanging limp on either side of his steed's drooping neck. He was dressed hi
chain mail, a mud-spattered surcoat plastered atop the links; he had no helm,
and his shield hung by a loose strap, bouncing against his leg in the slow
rhythm of the
horse's
walk. On his left side, where the surcoat was ripped and the chain snapped to
make a hole a hand-span wide, blood seeped out sluggishly, easing down his
thigh in a rain-diluted wash.
As they
neared the castle, the horse picked up its pace, sensing the shelter ahead. The
storm drove from beyond the fortress, and so there was respite from both wind
and wet in its lee. Almost at the arch of the gate, the animal stopped and bent
to drink from a puddle and to crop a bit of soaked grass; its rider fell then,
slid silently off its back and dropped to the mud in an awkward heap.
Inside,
warm and dry and surrounded by the things she loved, was Detivev Ormoru,
mistress of Castle Spinweb. She expected no visitors, neither on a stormy night
nor a clear one; no one had knocked at the gates of Spinweb in many years, and
she was pleased with that state of affairs. But when the ivy curled in her
bedroom window, when a small brown spider scurried across its tendrils to
report a stranger outside, she was curious. The stranger had not requested
entry, had not pounded on the heavy wooden gate or shouted or beat sword upon
shield to attract attention through the noise of the storm, yet why would he be
there but to enter? She looked out her. window, but the outer wall was too high
for her to see anything close beneath it. She could have spun a web to view
there, but walking would take no greater time, so she went.
The
gateroom was wide, floored with polished stone, and hung with thick tapestries
against drafts. Even so, she felt the storm there. Through a peephole hi the
carven portal, she saw darkness, streaming rain, and then, by a flash of
lightning, him lying on the ground, the horse grazing nearby. She opened the
door. Her first impulse was to step outside and turn him over with her own
hands to see if he were dead, but she stifled that and sent a few snakes
instead, in case he should be shamming with evil intent The snakes were not
happy to be out in the wet, but they obeyed. They nosed about the body, which
did not move, and they reported it warm and breathing and leaking blood. She
waved an arm, and they wriggled under him, a living mattress, living rollers to
move him over the
rain-slick
grass. They conveyed him through the door. The horse shied at the snakes,
rearing wide-eyed and snorting, and Delivev had to grasp its bridle in her
hands and murmur many calming words before she could coax it inside. She locked
the gate behind it then, locked the storm out and the stranger and his horse in
her home.
She led
the animal to the roofed-over courtyard that sheltered many of her own pets and
left it there with a mound of towels rubbing it down sans human assistance. She
returned to the gateroom to find the snakes arrayed in.a ring about the injured
knight, who lay unmoving upon the floor, his limbs at odd angles, water
dripping from his flesh and clothing. A red stain was forming at his left side.
Delivev found the wound quickly, guessed it a mighty sword cut so to cleave
through heavy chain mail, and wondered why the young knight's opponent had not
finished him. Because the miking pattern of the chain lay within the province
of her magic, though the metal itself did not, she scattered it with a nod. His
clothing parted as well, exposing him naked to her ministrations, and while she
bound his side she could not help admiring his youthful beauty. She felt of his
head for fever and found none, though her fingers lingered long upon his
cheeks. She leaned her ear against his chest and heard his heart beat strong
and steady beneath the smooth skin, beneath the firm muscle. She chafed his
wrists and spoke softly to him, and at last his eyelids flickered.
His
eyes were the deepest blue she had ever seen.
"Who
are you?" he whispered.
"I
am Deh'vev Ormoru. Your horse brought you to my home."
"You
are kind to take me hi."
"I
could not leave a wounded man to the storm."
"My
name is Mellor," he said, and then he gasped and clutched with weak hands
at his side.
"You
must not speak. There will be time for that later." She summoned a
blanket, wrapped him in it, motioned the snakes to crawl under him once more
and transport him to an inner room and a couch. His eyes widened at the sight
of the snakes, at their uu-
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dulating
touch, but he said nothing. "I am a sorceress," she said. "These
are my servants, and they will not harm you."
He
smiled his trust, and she smiled back, and as the snakes bore him into the
heart of her castle, he found himself staring at her. She walked beside him,
her gown of green feathers swaying with each step. She wore feathers, he knew,
so that no one could turn her magic back upon her person, and even her hair,
cut to many lengths, seemed like a crown of brown feathers on her head. How
beautiful she is, thought Gildrum, who called himself Mellor.
"*
CHAPTER TWO
She
found him walking in the small garden that her castle walls enclosed. The day
was sunny and warm, the climbing roses were in full bloom, the morning glories
just closing their, petals to the noon light
"Don't
you think it too soon to be so far from your bed?" she asked, stepping close
to take his arm and support him.
"I
was feeling well. I heard the birds singing and I couldn't lie still any
longer." He wore the robe of blue silk she had woven for him, to match his
eyes.
"You
look well," she said. "You heal quickly. Youth always heals
quickly." She smiled. "Come, sit down with me. Don't push yourself
too far; a wound like that needs gentle care."
"I
can never thank you enough for your gentle care, Delivev." Stiffly, he
eased himself to the sun-warmed
stone
bench. "I would have died that night if not for ^ you." ^
"It
was a foul night for swordplay."
"The
swordplay was in the daytime, under a clear sky. It was quite finished when the
storm began.'*
From
the lush growth at her feet, she plucked a handful of varicolored flowers and
began to twine their stems together in a wreath. "You have not told me
your tale yet—where you come from, how you received that wound, what happened
to your adversary. I have waited patiently while you slept the days away and
drank my soup. I hope I won't have to wait any longer.**
"I
don't consider it a very interesting tale.**
"Let
me judge it"
"Very
well. I am the younger son of a younger son, so far removed from nobility that
I inherited nothing but the right to become a knight. When I gained my arms, I
left home to travel the wide world. Since then, I have roamed far, serving
petty men in their personal wars, surviving partly through skill and partly
through luck. Most recently, I swore two years' allegiance to the Lord of the
East March, a better man than some. I had been with him almost a year when he
entrusted me with a message to his cousin at Falconhill—I was on my way there
when I was stopped on the road and challenged by a rather large and
angry-looking knight. I don't know what I did to provoke him; perhaps his teeth
hurt and he was trying to find something to take his mind off the pain. We
fought on foot, sword to sword, and he was a good fighter, but I was better. He
did catch me in the side, but it was too late for him: at almost the same instant
I struck him a mortal blow. At first, I hardly noticed that I had been touched,
but when I tried to dig a grave for him, I almost fainted. I knew then that he
would have to remain unburied, and I climbed on my horse and started out to
look for help. I remember the sky darkening and the rain wetting me, but no
more until I woke in your castle."
Delivev
settled the wreath on her hair. "Knighthood," she said. "You
like it?"
"I
know nothing else."
"There
are other trades. Safer trades."
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"My
father was a knight; I have no entry to another trade. Nor do I know of one
that pleases me as well. Would I wish to be a tinker or a smith? I think
not."
"You
enjoy risking your life for petty men? You yourself called them petty."
He
plucked a single blossom and held it cupped in his hand, looking down at its
pale yellow against his ruddy flesh. "Someday I will find a lord I can
love, and him I will serve without complaint." He glanced up at Delivev.
"Shall I hear your tale now, my lady?"
"Mine?"
She shook her head. "I ifcve none to tell."
"What,
a sorceress all alone in this," he waved an arm to include the whole of
Castle Spinweb, "and no tale at all? Do you expect me to believe
that?"
"I
am a sorceress. They call me the Weaver sometimes. The castle was my mother's,
and her mother's before her. None but my family have ever lived here, and I
seldom leave. I lead a quiet life—you see all my world around you."
"The
Weaver. What does that name mean?"
She
pointed to a nearby trellis, cloaked with climbing roses. "You see the
pattern there, the interlacing tendrils, the stems weaving in and out of the
wooden support? TTiose roses are mine because of the way they grow. I could
make them climb to my topmost tower in a few moments, or I could make them reach
out to you, envelop you in their thorns, scratch your life away. Birds are
mine, too, if they weave their nests, and snakes because they twine like living
threads, and spiders that make webs—you'll find them in every room of Castle
Spinweb."
"And
cloth?" asked Gildrum.
"Cloth
of course," and she nodded toward him, causing his silken robe to tighten
in a brief embrace.
He
laughed. "Do your guests ever worry that the blankets on their beds might
turn against them?"
"If
my guests meant me harm, they would do well to worry so. But I rarely have
guests. You are the first... in a long time."
Softly,
he said, "Is that your choice, my lady?"
"I
have no need of human companionship. I have my plants, my pets." She gazed
about her garden, stretched to pluck a rose from the trellis; carefully,
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she
stripped the thorns from its stem and then presented it to Gildrum.
"Perhaps you would be surprised at how all this fills my life."
He
accepted the rose and twined its stem with that of the yellow bloom he had
plucked himself. "I wonder that you shun human society. Ordinary mortals,
yes, I can comprehend how they might bore you, but there are other sorcerers—I
know of several, at least by reputation, and once I even saw one from afar,
casting a spell for the lord I served at the time/'
"We
know each other, we sorcerers, but we do not keep company. It is better so.
Such powers would make for wild arguments, would they not, for even friends
argue sometimes, and surely married couples do so. An argument over the
seasoning of the soup might light the sky for miles, uproot trees, flood the
land, destroy all that both of them held dear. Of what use would such a match
be?"
"If
that is your view of marriage, kind Delivev,
then I,
who have never married, cannot disagree."
"Between
sorcerers, yes. The sorcerous breed have
quick
tempers, Mellor. They are happier solitary."
"You
speak as if from experience. Forgive me if I
pry, my
lady, but... did you ever marry?"
She
shook her head. "My mother married, to her sorrow. I saw, for a few years
when I was very young, what life could be like for a sorcerous couple. We were
better off, she and I, after my father died."
"And
your mother? AWiat happened to her?H "She died, too. She was very old when
I was born, though of course you could not tell from looking at her." She
looked into Gildrum's eyes. "I am old, too, Mellor. Much older than you
imagine. We sorcerers are a long-lived stock."
He held
the flowers out to her on his open palm. "You are younger than these
blossoms in my sight And far more beautiful."
She
took the blooms from his hand, her fingers resting warm against his flesh for a
moment "Is a flattering tongue part of your knight's weaponry,
Mellor?"
"One
learns soft words when the object is worthy of them, my lady."
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"You
should be a troubadour, then, instead of a knight, and spread soft words about
the world instead of blood."
"What
do you know of troubadours, my lady who rarely shelters a guest in her home?
Are troubadours the lone exception to your aversion to humanity? If so, I might
consider the change."
"I
need not let the world into my castle; I can see it well enough if I wish, and
hear it, too. Shall I show you a marvel?"
"Yes.
I havent seen many true marvels hi my travels."
She
rose. "Can you walk now?" "I think so." He stood shakily.
"Lean upon my shoulder."
"With
pleasure." He let his weight fall lightly upon her, just enough to let her
feel that she was helping him. They moved slowly through the nearest doorway,
down a corridor, and into a large room. Light spilling through a high window
revealed the walls of the room to be festooned with spiderwebs. Gildrum
hesitated at the threshold. "How long has it been since you last visited
this place?"
"A
few weeks," she said. "These webs are not signs of abandonment,
merely of busy spiders. They do men* best to satisfy my needs."
"How
do spiderwebs satisfy your needs?" "In many ways. You shall see one
of them shortly. Come, sit down; you must be exhausted from that walk."
"Somewhat
exhausted," he said. The center of the room was occupied by « wide bed
with thick velvet coverlet and mounds of cushions. Delivev seated Gildrum and
herself upon it, and all around them the webs formed gossamer curtains. She
pointed out one of the spiders, a tiny black creature sitting in the center of
a web. At a gesture from its mistress, it scurried down a strand to spin a
patch in a large open section of the net.
"Breezes
sometimes break the silk," said Delivev, "or a bird or a snake will
wander in here."
"Why
don't you close off the room, then, and seal the window?"
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"How
would insects enter if I did that? My spider* ?? have to eat, Mellor." She
pressed him back against the cushions. "Relax now, and watch that
web." She pointed to a fairly symmetrical segment of the drapery, eight
strands radiating from a central point, joined by a myriad of closely spaced
concentric rings. She stretched her hand out toward it, fingers splayed, palm
parallel to the flat of the web, though many feet from it. Her hand moved
slowly in a circular pattern, as if wiping a vertical surface with an invisible
cloth. The center of the web became hazy, the strands blurring together into a
uniform gray sheen, and upon that sheen dim shapes began to coalesce. As from a
great distance, voices sounded hi the web-draped room, then- words indistinct
at first but growing clearer, as if the speakers approached. The dun shapes
turned into men, and their lips moved to match then1 voices. Gildrum and
Delivev viewed a scene in the main hall of some castle as they would see
through a window into the courtyard of Castle Spinweb.
"Pay
no attention to their conversation," said Delivev. "Those two never
discuss anything interesting. But there in the back—" One slim finger
pointed to the left side of the scene. "There is the troubadour who is
spending this season at the Castle of Three Towers. He will sing soon; it is
almost time for dinner there.**
"How
are we seeing him?" asked Gildrum.
"There
is a spiderweb on the wall beside the fireplace. The scullery maid cleans it off
occasionally, but the spider keeps spinning afresh. It is a very industrious
spider. The troubadour doesn't know that ft hides in his pack every time he
travels to a new castle."
"We
are seeing this through that spiderweb?"
"Yes.
And hearing, too. Ah, listen now; he is really ' quite a good singer." She
leaned back on the cushions beside him and closed her eyes for the music.
"You see," she said between songs, "I am not so isolated as you
thought."
"Can
you see anywhere in the world?"
"Oh,
there are limits. I must know where to look, I must be interested hi looking
there. I know of many places that I could look, but I wouldn't want to bother.
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There
must be spiders, of course. I will never see the kitchens of certain very
cleanly cooks because they don't give spiders a chance to spin more than a
strand or two before they kill them. My curiosity is not piqued by such
kitchens. And then there are the homes of other sorcerers—we respect each
others' privacy, although I could look in on them if I wished to be rude."
"I
can't imagine you being rude, my lady."
"Ssh.
He sings again." He sang of love, as he had before, most plaintively. **I
will weave a tapestry for that song someday," she murmured. "I see it
as red and gold and brown—autumn colors."
"And
send it to him?"
"Send
it? Why should I? What would he do with h, a troubadour? Carry it on his
shoulder from castle to castle?"
"Give
it to someone, I suppose, to display for him. To insure that his memory
outlives him."
"I
shall remember him after he is dead. I don't care beyond that." She
propped herself up on one elbow. "There are others, some better even than
he."
"You
have spiders traveling with them, too?"
"Yes.
Though there is one of them that keeps finding the creatures, and they don't
all escape his foot."
"How
did you find them all?"
"With
difficulty. The first was an accident: I was watching court politics in the
bedchamber of a certain king, and he summoned a troubadour for diversion. I,
too, was diverted, and I gave the singer a tiny companion for his travels.
After that, I began to look for them. Now, through them, I see more of the
world than ever before. Troubadours know no boundaries, after all, no politics,
no loyalties, not if they wish to continue their travels. And none of them ever
know that I am riding with them."
He
gazed up at her face, so near his own, leaning upon the open palm of her hand.
Her hair almost brushed bis shoulder. "You cannot touch them, my lady
Delivev. They are like images in a mirror; you reach out, but the surface is
flat and it gives back no warmth. Nor will they speak to you, for you are like
a ghost among them—less than a ghost if they never
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sense
you at afl, not even by some inexplicable shiver running down their
spines."
"So
much the better," she replied. "I see and hear them, yet I need not
tolerate their presence."
"I
cannot believe that you so despise all other people."
"I
despise no one. But I do not care to share my life with anyone I have ever seen
in the web."
"Hosting
a troubadour would hardly be sharing your life."
"A
small part of my life.**
"And
yet, you took me in, a stranger, knowing that you would be sharing your life
with me until I healed."
"I
would have done the same for a wounded dog."
Lightly,
he laid one hand upon her shoulder. "You are not as chill as you wish to
seem. Your parents gave you an ugly view of life, but you know that what they
had was not what might have been. Two people mismatched, nothing more. How can
you judge all the world by them?"
"I
have seen more than you suppose in my webs. I have seen great lords and their
ladies, and they were different from my parents only in the limits of their
powers—dishes thrown instead of lightning.**
"And
you must also have heard songs of great love from troubadours."
"Great
loves that ended tragically, yes. Great lovers that died before they could
drive each other mad."
He
shook his head. "If your view of life were true, then no one would ever
marry."
"I
am not responsible for the mistakes of others. Only for my own. You are very
young, Mellor. I would expect you to believe in many things that 2 have
outgrown."
"I
believe that individuals may love each other." He turned on his side to
face her, very close, and she did not draw away. "I believe that I could
love the kindest and most beautiful lady I have ever met."
"Mellor,
what a foolish thing to say.**
"And
I believe that she could love me in return.** His arms slid around her, and he
pulled her to him. Her mouth was warm and yielding, and the cushions were soft
beneath then- bodies, the velvet coverlet
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voluptuous
against then- flesh. She whispered concern for his wound, that it might open
from such exertion, but he sealed her mouth with his own and nothing more was
said. Afterward, they slept in each other's arms on the bed surrounded by
spiderweb draperies, and above them a troubadour hi a distant castle sang of
love.
From
the balcony of the highest spire of Castle Spinweb, the stars seemed bright and
hard and close enough to touch. Gildrum watched for hours as they wheeled about
the Northern Star, as Delivev lay sleeping so far below in the bed they had
shared this score of nights. Gildrum needed no sleep, of course, but he could
feign well enough, and he had found great pleasure in holding her in his arms
each night. Now he denied himself that pleasure. Now he found something inside
himself griping like acid, like a small animal with sharp claws. His task was
completed, and the will of his lord demanded his return to Ringforge. Not that
Rezhyk knew what his servant had done—there was no communication between them
while Gildrum was inside the walls of Spinweb—but that did not matter. The
imperative was within Gildrum himself, the imperative of the ring, and he had
no choice but to obey.
He did
not wish to leave. In all the years he had been slave to a sorcerer, he had
seen the human world, he had dealt with men and women in human guise; he
thought he understood them better than any demon he knew. Sometimes he wondered
if he no longer understood his own kind quite so well, for he had rarely been
among them since he was captured by the power of the ring. He knew Rezhyk best,
of course, through long contact, and he had puzzled over the sorcerer's
proposal of marriage to Delivev the Weaver when first it was made. Rezbyk was a
somber man, given to long nights alone in his workshop, poring over books
brought him by his demons from the hidden corners of the world. He sought
knowledge; material things meant little to him, except as the necessary
comforts of life. Gildrum had thought a demon consort was the only sort that
could please hint, avail-
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able
when desired, in precisely the form that hfe mind could envision and his hands
mold, never making demands, never impinging upon his life as a mortal woman
would. And yet, the moment he had opened his eyes to Delivev, Gildrum had
understood her attraction, compounded of cool serenity, beauty, kindness, and
more than a touch of melancholy. He had never thought that a demon could love a
human being, and though he spoke of it eloquently—for he, too, had listened to
troubadours' songs, and to other things, in his travels about the earth—he was
not sure that he knew at all what love was. He had never thought that a demon
could want to be a man and stay forever with a human woman. He wanted that now,
and if that was love, then he was a lover.
In the
morning, he thought, / shall use my well-planned excuse.
He
wished upon the fading stars that morning would never come, but the sky
continued to brighten in spite of him.
"I
understand/* she said, but she sighed anyway. "You pledged yourself to
carry the message to Falcon-hill, and you must go. I will not try to keep you
against that pledge."
He took
her hands between his own. "Never doubt that I love you, sweet
Delivev."
"I
have no doubts.*'
"I
shall return as soon as my duty is done. I would that were tomorrow, believe
me." He pressed her close against his heart "I would not leave you
out of choice, my love."
"I
will be here tomorrow, and the next day," she murmured. "Whenever you
return, I shall rejoice."
He
kissed her lips one last time, and then they parted. His horse was ready,
shuffling from hoof to hoof in animal impatience to be moving. He led it out
the gate and mounted. His cleaned and mended sur-coat rippled about his thighs
in the fresh morning breeze, and his remade chain mail rustled at every move of
his body. He lifted a hand in farewell, then wheeled and rode off into the
forest. He did not look
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back.
He did not see the tears that welled up in Delivev's eyes as the forest
swallowed him.
She
turned back to her home, bolted the door to shut the world away once more.
Slowly she climbed the narrow flight of steps to the topmost tower, and there
she set up her loom, to begin a tapestry to while away the days till he should
return. She chose her colors carefully: pure black for the horse, white and red
for the surcoat, and the deepest blue she had ever seen for his eyes. It would
be a large tapestry, a long time hi the finishing.
She did
not discover her pregnancy very soon, for the tapestry held her attention and
she lost track of time. One day, however, her stomach bothered her and she
decided to lie down instead of working, to listen afar instead of dreaming
along with her fingers. She lay down hi the web-draped room, gestured with her
hand, and the web she sought to transform into a window remained as it was. At
first she thought the web at the other end of the rapport had been broken, and
she tried another, and then another, but none responded. A little more testing
showed her the newly circumscribed limits of her power, and then the roiling of
her stomach and a swift count of days revealed the cause.
From
the balcony of the highest spire of Castle Spinweb, she could see the tapestry
if she turned toward the room—the horse's legs were complete, and the grass
beneath and behind them; she would not reach the face for some time, though she
could see it every moment in her mind's eye. K she turned away from the room,
she could see the forest, and the path he would take returning to her. She had
chosen the tower room because of that view. As he was leaving, she had thought
of sending spiders with him but decided against it; she could not hang such
chains upon her love, could not bear to torture herself with looking over his
shoulder but never being able to touch him. The tapestry, an instant of his
life frozen upon the threads, suited her better.
And now
she carried his child. She pressed her hands against the flesh of her belly, as
if she could fee] the burgeoning life within. Her mother had told her
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j
how it
was—the blindness to the outside world, the sense of being cut off from the
creatures that had been her own, like losing the use of arms and legs for nine
months. Her mother had accepted the experience once, for love, but never again,
not though her father raged for a son to match their daughter.
She
could rid herself of the child now. That was a simple matter. She could abort
it and return to her usual life, and the feeling in her stomach would be gone.
Instead, she sat down before the tapestry and began to weave. She touched his
spurs today, twining her woollen strands with silk to give the metal silver
highlights. The tapestry would be finished when her time came, she thought, and
then she would have flesh of his flesh as well as the portrait.
Summer
passed, and winter, and she was still alone when she bore the child.
"Good
work, my Gildrnm, is it not?** said Rezhyk, admiring the cloth-of-gold shirt
one last time before slipping it over his head. It was supple, finely wovea,
and lighter than he bad expected—a piece of the gold bar remained unused.
"I have never known such exhaustion.1* His cheeks were sunken, his eyes
circled and pouchy, his beard grown out in disarray. He had paused from his
weaving only to bolt the bare mh> imum of food that would sustain his
strength. He had not slept at all hi eleven days.
"Good
work, my lord," said Gildrum. '"You would make an excellent
weaver."
"Bah!
A tedious vocation, and I am glad to be rid of it How long shall I sleep now?
Three days?" He blinked and rubbed his eyes. By magic he had stayed awake
so long, but still he was unsteady on his feet, and his hands shook. "Help
me to my bed."
"Yes,
my lord." Gadrum, as the fourteen-year-old girl, climbed down from the
high stool from which she had guided her lord's activities. "Shall I carry
you?"
"No,
I can walk."
She
took his arm and laid it across her shoulders and bore most of his- weight as
they moved from the workshop to his bedroom. She eased him to the wide
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bed and
stripped off his clothes, save for the new shut and the thin overshirt that
concealed it.
Rezhyk
drew the covers up to his chin. "Wake me tomorrow for dinner."
"My
lord," said Gildrum, leaning over him. "I would ask a favor of
you."
"A
favor?" He opened one bloodshot eye. "What?"
"Let
me go home for a little while. I need to get away from humans—I have been among
them too much lately."
Yawning,
Rezhyk shook his head, burrowing deep into the pillow. "I cannot do
without you, my Gildrum. Not now. I need you to watch over me."
"You
have other servants who can do that.**
**Not
like you. You always know what I want. We've been together so long."
She
blew out the candle that illuminated the room. "Yes, my lord," she
said. "I will be near if you need me." Silently, she glided from the
room. She had a chamber of her own, on an. upper floor, where she sometimes sat
to watch the sky and wait for Rezhyk to summon her. She went there now. There
were tasks to be done around the castle—there were always tasks —but she did
not feel like doing any of them at this moment
CHAPTER
THREE
She
called him Cray. She bore him without another human hand to help, while her
animals looked on from a ring about her bed. When he was free of | her body,
cloths washed and swaddled him and laid him upon her breast, and the soiled
bedding eased
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itself
away from her, rolled into a ball, and tumbled away to burn itself in the
fireplace while fresh sheets crept beneath her and fresh blankets tucked
themselves about her and her new son. She slept then.
He was
a happy child, laughing early, reaching out with curious but gentle fingers for
the brightly colored flowers and birds of the garden. He grew fast and sturdy,
with his mother's eyes and hair, with no hint of the young knight about him
save for a love of fighting men. He would sit before the webs for hours to
watch armored warriors strut across the view, to glimpse a sword and shield. He
begged his mother to make her spiders move their webs outdoors, where he could
watch sword practice and jousting, and she indulged him, as she did in most
things. When he asked for a toy sword, she made it with her own hands, of a
straight branch with a guard of twigs lashed to one end. She made a shield,
too, a light frame covered with cloth, and she embroidered his father's arms
upon the cloth—three red lances interlocked on a white field, just as they were
upon the tapestry.
The
tapestry was long completed. It hung in the room of its manufacture, the room
from which the empty forest track could be seen. Delivev no longer climbed the
stairs every day to look at either. But sometimes, late at night, after Cray
was supposed to be asleep, she would visit the tower room and weep before the
portrait. On those nights, she remembered the songs of troubadours too well.
She listened to them less often these days, preferring to find absorption in
her plants, her animals, and her son.
Cray
had followed her to the tower a few times and crouched outside to hear her
tears. He knew why she wept, and even when he was very young he wondered why
any man would leave a woman to-do that
"He
had pledged himself," his mother explained. "When a person makes a
promise, he must fulfill it"
"Even
if it means hurting someone?" Cray asked*.
"Even
so. That is the nature of a promise, Cray."
When he
was older, he said, "He must have found Falconhiil by now, Mother. He must
have given his message. Why hasn't he returned? He promised you, too, after
all."
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"He
did. He said, when his duty was done. Perhaps there was more than just the
message itself. He never wished to speak of it, and I didn't press him."
She Was working on another tapestry now, with Cray as its central figure, but
he was growing so fast that it no longer portrayed the Cray standing before
her. "I will wait here and raise you, my son, waiting." She smiled
sadly. "I never had better plans, before he came to me."
In a
small voice, Cray said, "Do you think he's dead, Mother?"
She
sighed. "I don't want to think that, Cray."
"Well,
what else could have happened to him?*'
'Terhaps
he found some other woman he could love more than he loved me."
"More
than you?" He threw his arms around her and hugged her tight. "How
could anyone love someone else more than you?"
She
kissed her son. "Someday, you may love someone more than you love me, and
you will understand."
"Never!"
"Don't
say never, Cray, not with a long life ahead of you."
He
looked into her eyes. "Why don't you try to find him, Mother?"
"It
would be difficult after so many years.**
"You
could tryf"
She
shook her head. "No. I told myself once that I wouldn't do that, and I
have not changed my mind. He has some good reason for not returning; whether it
be death or another woman, I have no desire to know.*1
With a
new and heavier wooden blade, Cray practiced swordplay against a tree in the
garden and then, when he learned a few of his mother's tricks, against a
moving, man-shaped bundle of cloth. It dodged and ducked among the flowers,
bucking a latticework wooden shield against him, occasionally tapping at him
with a branch covered in leather braid. He had some trouble controlling its
movements, but that was to the good, to his mind, because it made the bundle an
unpredictable adversary. Unfortunately,' it bad a tendency to fall limp to the
ground during Cray's moments of intense concentration on his own swords-
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manship;
when that happened too often, he went back to the tree.
He
practiced riding, too, on a pony his mother acquired from another sorcerer
whose passion was four-footed creatures; she traded a fine tapestry that her
son might gallop about the forest with only a few spiders to keep watch over
him. With a willow withe as a lance, he charged imaginary foes, and when he
returned to Spinweb's sanctuary, he was as sweat-cloaked as his steed.
In time
he asked for a real sword and a real shield, a helm, chain mail, and a man's
horse. He was twelve years old.
His
mother rose from her weaving, hands on her hips. "Don't you think, Cray,
that you have played this game long enough? It is time for you to settle down
to sorcery."
He
leaned upon the stick that served him as sword, both hands upon its wooden
hilt. "It is no game. Mother. I wish to be a knight.**
Her
mouth hardened into a white line. "I have indulged yon out of love. I
thought that while you played childish games your body would grow strong and
straight; And it has. I never dreamed that your mind would not do the
same." '
"Mother,
there is no shame in being a knight."
"There
is death! If your father is dead, then Imight-hood was his killer!*' •
"Mother,
I am not suited to the sorcerous life.**
"Why
not? You do it well, the little you have learned. There is far more to know.*'
He
looked down at his hands and shook his head. "It holds no interest for
me."
"You
will grow to love it, as I have.**
"I
would rather go out in the world and earn my bread with strength of arms than
conjure it by magic.*'
"You
think you are ready to go out in the world as a knight? Oh, my son, don't think
your prowess with a wooden sword and a tree make you ready to face a real
opponent!"
Again
he shook his head. "I know I am not ready. But I would practice here in
Spinweb with a real sword, and then I would go out to seek a teacher to better
my
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skills."
He raised bis eyes to hers, and his gaze was level with her own though he had
not yet reached his-full growth. "Mother, this is truly what I want If you
love me, you will help me to be the kind of man I must be.**
She
turned away from him. "If I love you, I must lose you—is that what you
say? How can you ask it of me?"
"I
must go out in the world and meet other human beings."
"You
can see them hi the webs.'*
"I
can see them, but 1 can't speak to them. I can't touch them."
"You
are so young!"
He laid
the wooden sword down and stepped close to her to wrap his arms about her.
"I will make this promise," he said. "Give me the sword and the
horse and the armor, and I will not leave you for another two years. I will
stay here and laugh with you and be a loving son for another two years.**
She
leaned against him. "I have no sword and armor. I might find a horse that
would suit you, but the choosing of arms should be up to you. I know too little
of the matter. All sorcerers know too little of arms.** She hugged bun tight.
"Oh, my son, you must go to a town where merchants deal in swords and
shields, you must ask for advice from men who understand such things. If you
had a father, he would instruct you, of course... if you had a father."
Her voice broke and she clasped him ever more fiercely. "How can I bear to
lose you, too?**
"Mother,
every fledgling must fly from the nest at last."
"I
never flew, not I!**
"Well,
this one will."
She
nodded, and tears leaked from her eyes.
Some
days later, a vast dark cloud swept out of the east, blocked the sun above
Castle Spinweb briefly, then descended, condensing, to the ground before the
gate. By the time Cray and Delivev opened the portal, the dark and roiling mist
was a sphere no more than ten feet in diameter. At their approach, it oozed
back against the nearest trees, exposing the great horse that
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had
been hidden in hs depths. The hone whinnied and tossed its head, dancing
restlessly on hooves as big as dinner plates, but it allowed the humans to
touch it— indeed, it relaxed as their hands moved upon its sleek gray flanks.
"Very
good,** Deliver said to the cloud. She nodded toward the open castle gate, and
a pair of rolled tapestries cartwheeled out to the grass. They spread
themselves flat for the cloud's inspection, and it seemed satisfied, for it
covered them and rose skyward with its new and lighter burden. ^
"I
have never seen a demon yet that would say thank you,'* muttered Delivev.
"Well, what are yoa waiting for? This is your horse—take it inside.**
"I
had not expected it to be... so large," said Cray.
"You
will be heavy in your armor, my son; it must be large to bear your weight.**
Cray
stroked the horse's neck. "I shall call him Gallant.**
In the
misty dawn of a spring day, he saddled Gallant for the journey to the nearest
town.
Delivev
pressed silver money into his hands, to pay for the arms he wished to buy.
"Don't flash the coins about,** she warned nun. 'There are some men who
would try to take it from you."
"I
shall be careful, Mother. I've seen a few things in the webs, after all; I know
there are evil folk out there. FU have my knife and a stout staff, and no fear
of using them.**
"And
don*t worry about finding a chain shirt of perfect size; buy one too large and
I'll refit the links to you better than any tailor could.*'
"I
don't doubt it." He kissed her quickly, then grasped his horse's mane and
pulled himself into the saddle.
"I
want to hear from you, my son. Let one of the spiders spin a web each night
just before sunset so that we may speak to one another."
"I
will try, Mother. But if I am among ordinary people, it might be better that I
avoid such sorcery.**
"It
might I would worry ... but you must do as you see fit. You have my love
always. Hurry back.'* She waved till he disappeared down the forest track.
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At
first Cray traversed ground that he knew as well as his mother's castle, but
soon he passed into unfamiliar territory. The nature of the forest did not
change—it grew no denser, no darker, the trees did not bend over to clutch at
him as, in younger days, he had thought they might. Smiling, he recalled other
childV hood fancies: that there was no world beyond a narrow stretch of
woodland ringing Castle Spinweb; that the castle stood upon a disk of earth
whose edge was the horizon, a cliff overlooking infinite depths. He had thought
the scenes of the webs to be conjured from his mother's imagination, stories
told for his sole benefit He had assumed his mother and himself to be the only
human beings hi the universe, and when he viewed the tapestry portrait of his
father, he thought that the handsome young knight had ridden too close to the
edge of the disk and fallen into the vast nothing. When he finally spoke of
these notions to his mother, she laughed and began to instruct him otherwise.
Yet still, in his dreams, he sometimes peered over the edge of the world, and
trees swayed dose behind him, urging him to jump. In his dreams, he knew that
his father was waiting, whole and strong, somewhere below.
He
thought about his father more often than he would confess to Delivev. They had
a tacit agreement between them that this one topic was not to be examined
closely, but Cray could not help speculating, could not help measuring his life
against the one he imagined his father had known. He could not remember when he
had first vowed to be of his father's kind and not his mother's. He could not
remember when he had first realized that he wanted his father to be proud of
him.
The
forest around Spinweb had few visitors. Its only hunters were Cray and his
mother, and because they used magical nets that captured prey and carried it to
the castle without human help, the forest dwellers had no fear of human beings.
In Ms rambles, Cray had found deer to eat from his hands, and squirrels and
rabbits to climb upon his lap and nuzzle him. His pony, too, had never
frightened them, but before his great gray horse they now scattered, and all he
saw of woodland creatures was an occasional rustle of leaves
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in the
undergrowth. He had no hunting plans, for his saddlebags held food enough and
more for the whole round trip of six days, but he would have liked the
companionship, however brief, of a deer or two. Instead, he had only a pack of
spiders, and they were scant company, hiding in his boots, beneath his collar,
behind the rolled brim of his hat He held one on his finger for a time, but it
didn't care for the breeze of his horse's motion and soon scuttled to the
shelter of his sleeve. A couple of birds had followed him at first, flying
around his head, lighting on his shoulder, but they had turned back before the
morning was half gone. At noon he stopped at a spring, letting Gallant drink
while he filled his flask; then he climbed the tallest tree he could find, to
search behind him for Castle Spinweb. But it was gone, even its highest spire swallowed
by the forest, which seemed to spread oat in every direction, unbroken. Cray
had never felt so alone in his life. He felt frightened by that, and elated,
all at once.
That
night, he camped in a grassy glade, and he set a spider to spin in a clump of
rocks. Almost as soon as the web was done, its center blurred, and his mother's
features coalesced upon the silk. They spoke briefly, she wished him good
weather and a good night's sleep, and as her image faded, he caught the glitter
of tears upon her lashes. He sniffled a bit himself, but only after she was
gone. He missed her as much as she missed him, but not enough to turn him back.
On the
third day, the forest track merged with another, wider one, and he began to
encounter signs of humanity: an axe-cut tree stump, an abandoned shelter made
of stout branches, rusted horseshoes, a lone, cracked wagon wheel. Soon the
road acquired twin ruts where carts frequented it At midafternoon he passed a
hunter, the first human being he had ever seen face to face save his mother.
The man wore deerskin leggings and a woollen shirt; he carried a longbow slung
over his shoulder, and a quiver of arrows fletched with white goose feathers.
Cray
meant to hail him politely, but his tongue clove to the roof of his mouth. He
wanted to ask the distance to the town. He wanted to exchange civilized
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pleasantries.
Instead, he could only wave and ride on quickly. The man watched in silence as
he passed.
The
reins felt suddenly slippery in Cray's hands, the leather wet with the new
sweat on his palms, and he tightened his grip. Gallant felt the change in touch
and tossed its head. He halted the animal, then turned in the saddle to see if
the bowman were staring after him. He was not. He was walking the other way. He
had seen nothing worth staring after in a boy on a large horse.
Cray
kicked his mount to a trot. He was ashamed of himself. He had assumed that
seeing a human being in the flesh would be no different from seeing him in a
web. He had never thought to practice greeting as he had practiced fighting.
Now he whispered as he rode: "Good morning, friend. How far is the town,
good sir? Fare you well on this fine day, good wife." He hoped his heart
would ease its clamor before his next encounter on the road.
The
forest gave way to barley fields. Cray thought he saw a man standing among the
grain, but on closer inspection the figure turned put to be a scarecrow. The
afternoon was waning by the time he saw another human being—three of them at
once, walking single file at the side of the track, bent-backed under huge
bundles of wood. By that time he did not need to ask how far the town might be;
he could see its walls hi the distance, on high ground.
"Good
morrow," he said as he trotted past them. They made some sort of reply,
but he scarcely heard h, could not have said whether it was greeting or curse.
He only knew that he had spoken to them, and with those two small words he felt
some barrier dissolve within himself. He sat straighter on his horse after
that, though he was tired from the day's riding, and he whistled a cheerful
series of bird calls. As the road approached the town, other paths converged on
it, and foot traffic from these—as well as that he had ,-caught up
with—enveloped him. He smiled and : nodded at one and all, guiding bis horse
carefully
oflg
them, and when someone nodded tentatively
return,
Cray made a verbal greeting. Soon he was speaking to everyone he passed, and if
only a few
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answered
with more than a tilt of die head, he was content
The
town gates were open; his horse was so tall that Cray had to bend at the waist
to pass beneath their arch. Immediately within was the marketplace. It was
quiet so late in the day, only a few woodcutters hawking their wares against
the cool of the coming night Cray dismounted near one of them.
"Good
even, sir," he said. "Can you tefl me where I might buy a
sword?"
The
woodcutter looked Cray up and down. "A bit young for a sword, aren't
you?"
"Perhaps
now," said Cray, "but the years wul mend that. Can you direct
me?"
The man
shrugged, "The smith might know. Up that street." He gestured with a
thumb. "You'll see the forge." He eyed Gallant 'Tine-looking horse
you have there. Very fine—for such a young lad."
Cray
smiled. "He has a vile temper, though. Watch you stay clear—he might
kick."
The man
stepped back, heels nudging the bundle of faggots behind nun. "If he kicks
me, I'll have your hide, lad."
"If
he kicks you, you won't have anything, good sir." He waved a farewell and
walked up the indicated street, Gallant ambling docilely after.
He
found the smithy without any trouble. The smith, finished with his work for the
day, was sitting in a large chair in front of the forge, watching the fire burn
low.
"May
I tie my horse to your rail and speak a moment with you, sir?" asked Cray.
The
smith nodded. He was a short man but very broad of shoulder, with muscles
hardened by metal-work. He looked at Cray only briefly, reserving the majority
of his attention for Gallant. "That's a well-made animal,** he said.
"I
have been told so, sir, but I am no judge of horseflesh."
"He
is well-shod, too, so what might you need of me?"
"I
am looking for a sword, sir. And a shield and
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helm
and chain mail as well, but the sfworfl comes first."
The
smith shook his head. "I cannot help you, boy. Ask me to shoe your horse
or mend your wagon, and I will do it easily. But I am no sword-maker."
"Where
might I find one, then?"
"Not
in this town.'1 He frowned, fingering hi* chin. *The lord buys his weapons from
a merchant of the south, and good weapons they are, so I hear. You might go up
to the Great House and ask if they would sell you one."
*Thank
you, sir." Cray bowed. **Will you direct me to the Great House?"
The
smith waved one hand. "Follow this street to the wall, then take the east
gate road. You will come to it shortly."
"Good
day to you."
Beyond
the wall, Cray saw the Great House immediately—a stone fortress that had been
hidden from his sight previously by the bulk of the town itself. A wide,
tree-lined road ran between cultivated fields from town to castle, and upon
that rutted surface, a few late stragglers trudged townward. Cray guided
Gallant past them, then allowed the impatient beast to trot, as if it were
trying to overtake the long shadow that stretched like a herald before it.
Summer twilight was settling slowly over the land as they drew up before the
castle entry.
Two
guards in studded leather jerkins challenged Cray. **You are not of this
town," said one of them.
"Indeed,
I am a stranger," he replied. "I seek a sword and armor and was told
that I might be able to purchase them here."
The
guard who had spoken studied him a moment, and then studied Gallant for
another. He turned to his mate. "Who would we ask about such a
thing?"
The
other shrugged. "The captain might know." : He, top, eyed Cray and
the horse.
"Will
you direct me to the captain, then?" asked Cray.
"I'll
call him," said the first guard, and he stepped back through the gate and
beckoned to someone inside the courtyard. In a few moments a very stocky man
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joined
the guards; he wore a green leather badge on one shoulder to denote his rank.
"For
whom do you wish to buy this sword and armor?** he asked.
"For
myself," said Cray.
"Are
you a knight, that you need such things?**
"I
will be a knight, sir, like my father."
"Why
does your father not supply you with a sword and armor, if he is a knight? Why
does he let a lad so young rove the world alone in search of a knight's
trappings?"
Cray
had long since devised his explanation. "My. father was killed far from
home many years ago. His own armor was never recovered."
"You
must have uncles,* cousins to help you."
"I
have no one but my mother, sir." ,;
The
captain squinted at Gallant. "There's a fine horse, I think. Your mother
must be rich to buy him for you. Who is she?" .,
"Delivev
Ormoru of Castle Spinweb."
The
stocky man's florid complexion washed When he spoke next, his voice was very
soft, mother is the sorceress called the Weaver?"
"She
is."
He
bowed low. "If you will dismount, young you may enter the Great House. The
supper is being served even now hi the main hall, and I am surejfcie lord will
be pleased to seat you there. We will seijj|$D your horse." *'""'
Cray
found himself surprised by the sudden respect engendered by his mother's name,
but then he chided himself for that surprise. This town and this fortress were
his mother's nearest neighbors, the ordinary mortals most likely to know of
her. And obviously they feared her. He wondered what his sweet and g(ia-tle
mother might have done that could make them fear her.
He slid
from the saddle and banded Gallant's reins to the captain. "You are very
kind,-sir,M he said.
"Please
come this way," said the captain. He led Cray and the horse into the
courtyard, where he passed the horse to the first subordinate he encoua-
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tered,
cautioning him to care well for the animal. Cray be conducted to the keep.
Inside
the stone tower, a short corridor gave into a large, open room filled with
people eating the evening meal. Tall slit windows admitted the last rays of the
sun, and torches at short intervals along the walls added their flickering
yellow to the scene. Upon a dais at the far end of the room, a small knot of
talkers waved fowl joints to emphasize their words. One of the men was clothed
in deep blue, with a gold necklet at his throat; the captain approached him,
bowed low, and whispered in his ear. The man's bushy eyebrows rose as he
listened, and the eyes that looked out at Cray from beneath those brows held
both awe and disbelief. His hands tightened upon the _ arms of his chair, as if
he felt he might be dragged from the seat at any moment.
"You
say ... you are the son of the Weaver of Spinweb," he said.
Cray
bowed. "I am that, my lord. My name is Cray."
"You
have come to buy . . . arms and armor—is that it?"
"Yes,
my lord."
"There
is no other reason? Your mother is not. .. displeased with us, I hope?"
"Not
to my knowledge, my lord.**
He
spoke very quickly. "I know that a few of my people have been hunting in
the forest that separates her hud from mine. They have not trespassed, have
they? I will punish any that do, I swear it. Or she may punish them herself, as
she wishes, I will not say her nay."
**I
know of no trespassers, my lord,"
The man
in blue relaxed visibly. "I wish to stay on good terms with her. You can
understand that, Tmsure."
"Of
course, my lord.**
; "Now . . . arms." He frowned.
"Why would the child of a sorceress desire such things?" : "I intend to be a knight, as my
father was.** ; "Your father was
not a sorcerer?"
"No,
my lord."
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"Who
was he, then?"
"His
name was Mellor, and his device was three red lances interlocked on a white
field.**
The man
in blue shook his head. "I do not recognize either."
"I
would not expect it, my lord. My mother told me he was sworn to the Lord of the
East March, and that is very far away for any of its,knights to be known in
these lands.**
"Far
indeed." His hands left the arms of his chair and came together, the palm
of one slowly stroking the knuckles of the other. "Arms,** he murmured.
"I can pay for them, my lord.'*
**Oh, I
would sell diem to the son of the Weaver for a fair price. But not to just
anyone who came asking for them. Not, I think, to a boy who offered payment
with stolen silver, for example.** He leaned forward. "After all, how can
I be sure you are who you say you arer
Cray
smiled. "I can prove it, my lord, if I must."
The man
straightened, his shoulders striking the back of his chair with an audible
thump. "How would you prove it, if I asked for proof?**
"You
wear long sleeves, my lord. I could roll them to your elbows."
"Well,
and so could I."
"But
/ would not touch them while doing so.**
The
lord set his palms flat on his thighs. "You may do so," he said.
Cray
gestured with one outstretched hand, and the lord's left sleeve began to roll
itself up his arm. All around him, people ceased their conversations and turned
to look, and many of them stepped back, clutching their own sleeves, as if
afraid they, too, might begin to move of their own volition.
"Enough!"
shouted the lord of the fortress, and he stood up suddenly, brushing his sleeve
down with the opposite hand as he might brush at an insect crawling on his
skin.
"I
can do more than that," said Cray, "but I would not wish to damage
your property, my lord."
"No
more is necessary, my curiosity is satisfied.** He called over his shoulder,
"Steward!"
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The
steward, who was among those who had reeled back from the magic of the sleeve,
skittered to his liege's side. He was a small, slight man with a spade beard,
and he held his hands curled to his chest as if protecting some treasure that
lay within. "My lord?*'
"Serve
this young man supper, and then give him whatever arms and armor he requires.
As a personal gift from me."
Cray bowed.
"My lord, I have silver enough to
pay."
The
lord bowed in return. "As you wish. Let the price be a fair one, steward.
And Master Cray—please convey my best wishes to your mother."
"I
will, my lord."
"This
way, sir,'* said the steward.
Cray
bolted a quick supper, then followed the steward to the armory, which was a
long narrow room with hundreds of steel pegs driven into its stone walls and
all the trappings of combat hung upon those pegs. With the steward's help, Cray
selected a blank shield, a simple bowl-shaped helm with movable visor, a shirt
and hood and leg harnesses of chain, and a sword in a plain scabbard. All were
in good condition, though all had seen use. The sword was nicked in two places;
the steward offered to have the nicks ground out, but Cray refused.
"It
will only get nicked again when I use it," he Said. He tested the balance
of the blade, swinging at an imaginary foe. His wooden sword had not been
light, but steel was heavier, and he knew that the muscles in his arms were not
yet strong enough to wield it for long. Yet its haft fit his grip well, for
though his body was not full grown, his hands were already man-sized.
v **It is large for you," said the
steward. ",•. ^Not for the man I will be." He slid the blade into its
scabbard and set the two atop the blank shield. ^Steward, how
long have you
been with this
juse?"
"All
my life, young sir. And my father before me."
Cray
folded the chain mail into
a manageable idle, and the links
chinked softly under his bands. :een years ago, my father may have stopped at
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this
fortress. He was perhaps twenty years in age, and the device on his shield was
three red lances interlocked upon a white field. Do you remember him?"
"You
spoke of him to my lord, did you not? My lord did not recall him."
"Your
lord is a man whose attention must be consumed by greater things. A steward,
though, might notice one insignificant traveler."
Hie
steward plucked thoughtfully at his beard. "We have tew visitors. But,
no." He shook his head. **I have no memory of such a one. Are you certain
he came this way?"
Cray
sighed. "No.**
"Perhaps
he passed us, not wishing to stop with strangers."
'Terhaps.**
"If
you wish, I will ask a few others who were here at that time. There may be someone
who remembers him."
Cray
smiled. "That would be kind of you.**
The
steward signaled one of the armory guards to come over and pick up Cray's
bundle of knightly accoutrements. "We will pack these hi your saddlebags,
if there is nothing more you desire from this room.**
"These
are sufficient,** said Cray.
"I
have ordered a pallet laid for you in the main hall, that you may have a good
sleep before you leave us."
"I
thank you, steward. Now all we are left with is the matter of price."
"Ah
. . . price.'* He waved the guard away, with instructions to ask the captain of
the guard which animal was Cray's. "My lord said a fair price, but in
truth I don't know what a fair price would be for these things. They are not
new. And their loss is not significant to us, as you can easily see. I might
say ... six pieces of silver for the lot."
"That
seems a small price," said Cray.
"Ah,
doubtless you could conjure up whatever amount I asked. I hope it would not
turn to ash as soon as you passed beyond the horizon."
Cray
pulled the purse from his belt and spilled six silver pieces into his hand.
"My mother does not
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deal in
magic metals," he said, "else I would not need to buy my armor from
you, steward."
The
steward nodded once. "A good point indeed."
"The
money is real, I promise you.'* Cray oSered the coins on his open palm.
"You have set the price, sir. Take it.'*
Gingerly,
the steward took it. After he had closed the money in his fist, he said,
"I must confess, young sir, that I have never trafficked with a sorcerer
before.*'
Cray
smiled to hear himself so described, but he made no attempt to explain that he
scarcely knew a hundredth of bis mother's magic. "I will not harm you. You
have dealt fairly with me. More than fairly."
The
steward turned toward the door. "If you will follow me, then, I will show
you to your bed."
The
pallet was not as comfortable as bis bed at home, but it was softer than a
mossy pad under a tree. Cray was tired, and not even the snoring of other
sleepers in the hall or the occasional bark of a restless dog could keep him
awake. He roused at last to morning streaming through the high windows and a
group of pages walking among the sleepers to announce breakfast and to clear
the floor of pallets. The page who dragged Cray's pallet to a storage place in
a far corner was not much younger than Cray himself. Cray wondered if the boy
were bound to be a knight or if, like the steward, he would always remain a
servant of the House. The boy was slight. If he planned to be a knight, he had
not yet started training. Cray compared his own youthful muscles to the page's
slenderness, and he felt he was well-begun in his life's goal. His father, he
thought, would be proud of him.
A
breakfast of bread and cheese and milk was set out on a long table below the
dais, and as Cray was eating his share, the steward approached and motioned him
aside.
"I
have inquired, young sir, but there is none here
who
remembers your father. I am sorry."
:• Cray swallowed his milk at a draft.
"I thank you
,for
your efforts, good steward. Truthfully, I had no
great
hope of finding any trace of him here. But I
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could
not visit without asking. Is my horse saddled and ready?"
"It
is.**
Scanning
the room, Cray said, "I see your lord is not about. You will have to give
him my farewell."
"I
will do that, young sir."
They
walked together to the stables and then with Gallant to the gate. While the
steward stood beneath the arch, flanked by the men who guarded the entry to
their fortress, Cray led his horse out Into the open sunlight and mounted.
"Good
luck with your quest," said the steward. "There is a quest, is there
not?"
"There
is," said Cray. He raised a hand hi salute and wheeled his horse about
Before him, the road between the fortress and the town stretched out full of
foot traffic even so early in the day. He rode toward the town, but at the east
gate, from which he had first seen the Great House, he turned Gallant aside and
followed the wall around the settlement, to the track that had brought him there.
He could not see the forest save in his mind's eye, but he knew that afternoon
would bring him to it. He would have one of his spiders spin a web then,
between two trees, and he would tell his mother of his success. He hoped she
had not waited up all night, worrying about him white her webs remained blank.
The
chain mail in his saddlebags rustled to the rhythm of Gallant's pace, a
metallic lullaby for a boy who yearned for knighthood. He daydreamed as he
rode, of the years that lay ahead, of the feel of chain upon his body, of the
heft of sword and shield. He would work hard and grow strong and sure, and then
he would leave Spinweb for the wide world. Somewhere put there was his father,
perhaps dead, perhaps alive and imprisoned by some enemy or enthralled by
another woman—Cray would follow the trail to Falconhill, to die East March, to
wherever it might lead. His mother had said she did not wish to know his
father's fate, but Cray could not rest so. He had to know the truth, no matter
how painful.
He did
not plan to tell her of his quest, only that he
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intended
to search for a teacher to help him be the best knight he could. She would weep
anyway, when they bade each other farewell. He thought it better not to burden
her more than that
<•*
CHAPTER FOUR
From
the shelter of a tree hollow, a gray squirrel watched Cray practice combat
against empty air. Its small head was turned sideways, one lustrous eye
following the glint of the sword, both ears pricked to the sound of swinging
chain mail. Its tiny paws balanced, humanlike, on the crumbling bark that
rimmed its hiding place, and its broad, fluffy tail twitched over its back in
rhythm to the boy's movements. The squirrel came often to that tree, and to
others nearby, to watch Cray fight imaginary foes hi the dappled sunlight of
the forest outside Spinweb. It would have come more often yet, but it had a
master who required its frequent presence at bis castle, in the form of a
young, blond girl.
Gildrum
could see Spinweb's walls from that perch. It had come to the forest to see
them, to catch a glimpse of her standing at the gate or the parapet or leaning
from a window. It had come as a squirrel, many months after leaving as a man.
In those intervening months, the demon had sought to drown itself in work, to
fill its days and nights with fetching and carrying and traveling to the far
corners of the world, to blot her face from its consciousness. It had even
taken over tasks that would normally be assigned to lesser demons, on the
pretense that Gildrum could do them better, faster, more precisely the way the
master
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wished
them done. Yet her face had been with it always, and at last it succumbed to
her lure. Rezhyk never knew that there was a day after which every errand that
took his faithful Gildrum from the confines of Castle Ringfoxge included a
brief stop outside Spin-web.
It
could not enter, not as squirrel nor as flame. No demon could enter a
sorcerer's home without the owner's invitation, unless its own master were
within. The knight could have gained admittance, of course, but Gildrum could
not face the elaborate fabric of lies that would be necessary to explain visits
only long enough ftor a greeting and a kiss. Rezhyk's command of secrecy still
held; his servant could not reveal its true identity.
Rezhyk
had given Gildrum the squirrel form once, that the demon might move among
humans unobtrusively, and never had it used that shape so much as in the forest
about Spinweb. It learned to know the other squirrels, the deer, the rabbits,
the wind that whipped the castle walls and the rams that drenched them. It saw
Spinweb in moonlight and in moonless starlight, in sunlight and storm, and at
last that intermittent vigil was rewarded, on a bright spring morning when the
dew was still fresh on the grass, shining like diamonds scattered beneath the
trees: she stepped from the castle gate, the feathers of her dress rippling in
the light breeze, a small child clinging to her hand.
Gildrum
gazed long at the child, a brown-haired boy so like Delivev that he could be
none other than her son—a sturdy, laughing boy who let go her hand to run
barefoot through the wet grass. Cray, she called bun, and she told him not to
run out of sight. The gray squirrel cluttered as they passed by its tree, and
the child looked up eagerly and began to make small cluttering noises of his
own, holding his hand out to lure the squirrel closer. Gildrum was tempted for
a moment to go to him, to be cuddled against that small breast, perchance to be
touched as well by Delivev herself, but time weighed heavily against the demon;
it had watched as long as it dared, and now it had to turn, to scamper back
along the branch and
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dive
into a hollow of the tree, to transform utto something else, somewhere else.
It did
not tell Rezhyk where it had been, what it had seen. Rezhyk, never dreaming
thai Deliver would bear the babe they had given her, never asked. He had other
interests now that he was safe within his shut of gold, and he had put her out
of his mind.
Cray
grew straight and strong and more interested in the world beyond Spinweb's
walls than his mother was, and the gray squirrel saw her seldom and him often,
if fleetingly. It saw him feed deer from his bare hands and tumble on the moss
with wild rabbits. It saw him ride his pony through the dense woods, ducking
low in the saddle to keep from being swept off by overhanging boughs. It saw
him take up arms, first wooden ones and then steel, stalking the forest as a
battlefield, slashing at the trees as if they were his mortal enemies. It saw .
. . and Gildrum the demon found itself proud of Cray's accomplishments,-as if
the boy were its own child.
Gildrum
knew other demons would laugh at that notion, as they would surely laugh at its
love for a human woman; they would say Gildrum had lived too long among humans,
that h had absorbed some of their madness. Yet Gildrum wondered why Rezhyk
should be any more a father for giving the seed than a demon was for planting
it.
My son,
it thought, watching with dark, squirrel eyes as Cray rode his great gray horse
away from Spinweb.
"I
would not wish you to think that I am spying on you," said Delivev.
Cray
sat patiently while she bound his hands to the loom with threads of many
colors. "I understand, Mother. You have a right to know where I go."
"I
don't care where you go, only that you are safe there. The tapestry will trace
you like a map, recording not just the motion of your body but that of your
heart as well It will show me your joy and your anguish; it will let me share
your triumph and your danger. And should you forget your poor mother fox
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too
long, it will show me where to send reminders of my love for you."
"I
will try not to forget you, Mother," said Cray, She kissed his forehead,
then wrapped the threads about his temples, his eyes, his ears, his lips. In
two years she had spun spool after spool from virgin wool, dyed with her own
hands rather than by disembodied magic, and now she imbued the thread and the
loom with Cray's aura by wrapping them together.
The
loom was small, never before used. She had made it recently, felled the young
tree with a stone axe, carved the straight-grained walnut with a blade of sharp
obsidian, rubbed it smooth with fine sand, pegged it together lovingly. Metal
had never touched it, nor was there a nail or a screw needed to hold it
together. It lay wholly within her domain, responsive only to her will. She
would command, and it would weave the thread into a tapestry of her son's
travels.
She
freed him slowly, one color at a time, winding the threads back onto the spools
that were racked above the loom; only the uttermost end of each spool had
participated directly in the magical process, yet the whole was affected, his
aura seeping into the rest like oil penetrating silk. By the time he had ridden
out of sight, the thread would be ready for weaving.
He
stood up and drew on the gauntlets that had hung at bis belt during the
spell-making.
"Well,"
she said, "I can keep you no longer."
He
kissed her cheek. "Be of good cheer, Mother. Think of the wonderful
adventures that lie ahead of me. Don't weep.**
"I
lost you two years ago," she said, her hands flitting lightly over the
sleeves of his surcoat, smoothing them against the chain mail beneath.
"Why should I weep at losing you now?" Still, her eyes glittered, and
her lips trembled as she spoke.
"The
spiders will be with me, Mother. m talk to you often through the webs."
Two years of growth had given him his full height, and now he looked down upon
the top of her head when she stood so close to him. Two years of exercise with
sword and shield and forty pounds of chain on his body had deepened his chest
and filled out his limbs. He could lift her in
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the
crook of one arm. He could swing the sword tirelessly, blow after blow; there
were trees in the forest deeply gouged by his blade.
"Wfll
you go to the Great House you visited be-forer
He
shook his head. "I think they fear me too much there. Almost as much as
they fear you." .
"I
don't know why they should fear me. Except that all ordinary mortals fear our
kind."
"They
fear what they cannot understand."
She
smiled sadly. "They would never fear you, then. You a.re one of them. Oh,
my son, I would call you back to sorcery if I could!'*
He took
her hands in his own. "I am half of their kind. And that half is the
stronger, Mother. I can't help it."
• She
pulled away. "No, Cray. It is the strangeness of that life that draws you,
not your father's blood. And the first time you cross swords with another human
being, you may wish you were here, safe in sorcery."
"I
think not. I think I have the courage to face an armed adversary. And perhaps a
fraction of the skill, too."
She
turned from him. "Go then. I have my pets, still, to love; at least they
will never take up arms and leave me."
"I
must do what I must do." He touched her shoulder. "You were alone
before my father came to you. You were alone for a very long time."
"And
I was content I will be content again, Cray. We have nothing to gain from
further farewells,"
He
passed through the arch of the gate to where Gallant waited, cropping spring
grass. Cray mounted easily, remembering how arduous that simple action had
seemed when first he donned the chain. Now he wore at least the shirt almost
all the time, unless the day was very hot and the padding that separated the
chain from his skin made him sweat too much. Shield and helm hung at his
saddle, the sword was buckled at his waist, the saddlebags were full of
provisions; nothing remained to keep him at Spinweb. He lifted a hand in final
good-bye, but his mother was not there to see it, she had not followed him out.
Only a
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gray
squirrel saw his farewell from a branch high above the forest track; he
chirruped at it as he passed, but it scrambled away from him, claws clicking
against the bark.
His
first goal was Falconhill, to ask the lord what had become of a young knight
named Mellor. He had only a vague notion of where it lay: to the west, bis
mother had told him when his was only a child's cariosity; some leagues to the
west. He had hesitated to question her more recently, fearing that she might
guess his motive. He had not reckoned on the tapestry tracking him, had not
realized the extent of her power, though he had lived so close to it all his
life. Yet he could not deny her the peace of mind she craved. And so she would
see his route, know his destination, and when they spoke through the webs he
would have to say that Falconhill was the nearest great holding he could find,
where a youth might train under masters to be a knight He thought she would want
to believe that
Westward
he rode, opposite the direction he had taken two years before, and the forest
stretched out before him as if there were nothing else In the world. The track
narrowed for a time to an animal trail, but on the sixth day of his travels it
widened abruptly, scattered with hacked-off trunks and the mushrooms that fed
on their dead roots, and he knew that he was approaching the realms of men. The
sun was high when he came upon the inn.
It was
a rambling structure of weathered stone, with wooden cross braces bleached gray
by many summers. Carven shutters flanked its many windows, open wide to the
warm air, with white curtains fluttering gently. The inn stood in a narrow
cleared space, great trees bending close to it, their leafy boughs brushing
against the shingled roof, and among that greenery Cray could make out the thin
plume of smoke spouting from the chimney.
A man
labored In the yard before the building, cutting back grass with a scythe. He
was a tall man, broad in girth, his face and bald pate red with exertion,
framed by a peppery fringe of beard and hah*.
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When he
saw Cray, he straightened slowly. "May I serve you, sir?"
Cray
drew his horse up and smiled at the man. "Are you the landlord?"
He
bowed. "I am, sir, and I welcome you to the Sign of the Partridge, We have
a fine dinner this day, if you care to stop with us.*'
Cray
eyed the yard, and the grass that was trimmed short into a fine lawn. Few
horses, he guessed, had trampled that carpet in recent times. "Business has
been poor lately, has it not?"
The
landlord shrugged. "There have been better seasons. But truly, the food
excels. I should know, for I am the cook."
"The
cook would hardly be the first to admit that he lacks skill."
"No
one has ever complained of my cooking, sir.*1 He grinned. "And if you do
not like it, you need not pay."
"In
that case, ni dine,** said Cray, and he dismounted. He led Gallant across the
grass to the front wall of the inn and threaded the reins loosely through an
iron ring set in the stonework there. He gave the horse a quick pat, muttered
some soothing nonsense In its ear and turned to find the landlord at the door,
holding it open that Cray might enter.
Within
was a single large room with high rafters and walls hung with hunting trophies.
A long table occupied its center, with benches set in either side, and in the
vast fireplace beyond, a brace of ducks was roasting, spitted, above a cheerful
blaze.
"How
many guests have you today?" asked Cray.
Toe
landlord, who walked close behind him, said, "Only one,
sir—yourself."
Cray
gestured toward the hearth. "Then that is your dinner, and your wife's?**
He
shook his head. "Mine alone, sir ... or so it would have been had you not
arrived. I have no wife, and no servants, either, just myself.** He chuckled, a
sound that seemed to emanate from the depths of his ample belly. "Do not
underestimate the appetite of a ; man my size, young sir."
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"I
would not wish to eat your dinner," Cray said hesitantly.
The
landlord placed his hands on Cray's shoulders and gently but firmly pushed him
to a place on one of the benches. "The dinner-is for my guests," he
said, "and only for me when my guests have done with it What landlord have
you ever known who ate before his patrons?"
Cray
shrugged. *Tve never known any landlords but you. I have never visited an inn
before."
"Never?"
The man swung a leg over the bench and sat down facing Cray; seated, he was a
head taller than the boy. "You mean you camp under the trees and cook your
food over an open fire?"
"Yes.
I cook quite well, too, or at least to my own taste."
"Pleasant
enough for one night, perhaps, or two, but not for a long journey." He
laughed again. "Els» men tike me would be hard pressed to earn a
living."
"This
is my first long journey," said Cray.,
"Ah."
The landlord lifted a quizzical eyebrow. "And how far have you to
go?"
'To
Falconhill."
"Falconhill?
A fan* distance, young sir. A fair distance indeed."
"Do
you know it?"
"I
have never been there, but travelers have spoken to me of the place. A mighty
stronghold, they say." He nodded slowly. "And rich as well."
Cray
interlaced his fingers and leaned forward, his elbows on the table. "Will
this road take me there?"
"It
will, yes, but... have you no map?"
"No."
"This
road joins another, and then it forks and forks again . . . How is it that you
journey to Falcon-hill without knowing how to find it?"
"I
heard it was to the west," said Cray, "and I thought if I traveled
far enough someone could advise me onward."
"I
can advise you well enough, I think, at least to take you to the land it rules,
and then you will surely have no further difficulty ... but ..." He
grinned. "No, it would be unmannerly for me to ask what
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business
takes you there." But he waited, expectantly, for Cray to respond to his
prompting.
"I
will find a master there," said the boy, "to train me in
knighthood." He sniffed at the air, now redolent with the aroma of fowl
juices. "Should you not be seeing to the ducks?" he asked.
The
landlord rose unhurriedly. "I have not forgotten. They will be ready
soon." He strode to the fireplace, a few paces for his long legs. He
prodded the ducks with a long two-tined fork till the juices dripped into the
flames, sputtering, and then he turned the spit halfway around. "They will
be ready soon indeed," he called, and then he donned a thick gauntlet and
reached into the flames, where a heavy, tightly covered iron pot rested on a
grate; he pulled the pot out, setting it on the hearthstone. "I hope you
tike onions," he said.
"I
tike onions very much," replied Cray. He could feel his stomach roiling
with hunger in response to the savory scent of the duck, and to take his mind
off it, he stood up and made a circuit of the room, examining the
trophies—antlers, tusks, claws, teeth, even a bear's skull, yellowed and
cracked with age, the lower jaw fixed to the upper with wire. "Did you
take these trophies?" he inquired.
Me? Oh,
no, young sir, except for a few of the very small ones. We used to have an
excellent huntsman in these parts, in the days when this was a main trade route
to the east and this inn was bursting every night with travelers. He hunted
game for the table then, for my father, who was landlord here before me, and we
thought the trophies gave the walls a friendly look. And something to keep the
guests busy while they waited for their food."
"What
happened to him?" asked Cray.
"Oh,
that was many years ago, young sir. He is long dead. Nor have I any need for
another tike him in these times. I, poor hunter though I am, can take enough
game to fill the pot, and there is a duck pood behind the inn, with more than
enough birds for my needs. And flavorsome creatures they are, as you wUt soon
discover. Will you take a cup of wine with your meal, young sir?"
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•*Yes,
thank you."
A
flagon hung on a hook in the wall some distance from the heat of the fireplace;
the landlord took the vessel down, and one of the cups that hung nearby as
well, and Be poured red wine for Cray, setting both cup and flagon on the
table. Then he returned to the roasting birds, sliding each off the spit onto
one of tfce broad wooden trenchers that lay stacked on the floor beside the
hearthstone. He opened the iron pot next, and the sweet aroma of onions cooked
in butter rose from it in a moist cloud; he scooped golden onion slices up with
a ladle and mounded them about one of the ducks like a nest, and this trencher
he brought to Cray, leaving the other, onionless, close before the fire.
"YouTl
not need a knife to disjoint this bird, I promise you," he said. 'The
flesh will be as tender as the onions."
Cray's
mouth watered as he plucked gingerly at one of the drumsticks; he could
scarcely touch it, it was still so hot. He looked up at the landlord.
"What of yoUr own dinner?" He nodded toward the remaining duck.
"It will dry out sitting there."
"It
will keep well enough for a short time. And you might want more."
Cray
freed the leg and took a small bite of the steaming meat. Warm juices invaded
his mouth and dripped down his dun. The landlord proffered a kerchief.
"It
is delicious," Cray said, somewhat indistinctly, as he chewed. "But I
cannot eat more than one duck, I'm sure. You take the other." Til
wait."
'Truly,
I know my own capacity. I am half your size, and so I have only half of your
appetite, good landlord."
"Fine
food sometimes increases the appetite," the man said, and he folded his
arms across his breast and rocked forward and back as he watched Cray eat. When
Cray's cup emptied, he poured another measure of wine. When Cray looked for
salt, he fetched a cellar from the mantelpiece. "I have honeycakes to
finish
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the
meal," he said when only the clean-picked carcase lay on Cray's trencher.
Cray
shook his head. "I could eat neither a honey-cake nor a single extra scrap
of duck. Have your dinner, landlord, and I hope that waiting before the fire
has not damped its flavor. You spoke truly when you called yourself a good
cook. Even my mother does not excel you."
The
landlord bowed. Then he brought out the honeycakes from their cupboard by the
hearth and set them in front of Cray before bringing his own meal to the table.
"In case you change your mind, young sir," he said.
After
some moments, Cray did change his mind, and he found the cakes excellent. By
the time he had eaten a few of them and the food had settled deep enough in his
stomach that he felt like riding again, the landlord had finished his meal and
complimented his own cooking.
Cray
stood up. "Now you can tell me of the route to Falconhill. You said the
road forks more than once., .H
"Considerably
more. But if you follow the left-hand fork three times, twice west and the last
time south, you'll find yourself among folk who can direct you more precisely.
Falconhill rules that land, and the inhabitants surely know where to pay their taxes."
"Left
three times. That sounds simple enough. And now, what is the charge for the
fine meal I have just eaten?" He reached for the purse that hung at his
belt
"Two
coppers, young sir."
"Two
coppers," said Cray. He found a few of that sort of coin among his silver
and passed two of them to the landlord. "And a good season to you. If I
come .back this way, 111 be sure to stop for another meal."
Thank
you, sir."
Gallant
was waiting patiently at its tether on the wall, but as soon as Cray swung into
the saddle, the horse began to toss its head and to dance from hoof fo hoof, as
if eager to continue their journey. The boy |liad only to twitch the reins, and
his mount trotted the grass to the road and headed west upon it.
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"Farewell,"
called the landlord, walking a few paces down the path behind them. "And
good luck.'*
Cray
glanced over his shoulder once and lifted Ms arm in salute; the second time he
looked back, the trees that overhung the road on either side had already closed
in upon the inn and its proprietor, and all Cray could see was forest.
Behind,
the landlord watched till the boy was out of sight, till the echo of his
horse's hooves upon the hard ground faded to nothing, till there was no longer
any likelihood that he would turn about. Then the big man's shoulders slumped,
and he seemed to fall in upon himself, shrinking, shriveling, his clothes
fading, his flesh melting, until all that stood where the burly landlord had
been was a small gray squirrel. Gildrum scampered across the grass and up a
tree. Beneath that perch, the inn resumed its normal appearance, great cracks
showing in the stone walls, mortar crumbled, gaping holes where shingles had
rested, wooden braces chipped and splintered with neglect. Inside, the demon
knew, the fire had gone out, the flagon and cups crumbled, the table and
benches rotted with damp, the floor overgrown with weeds. Before the front
door, the lawn had sprung to its full length, knee-high coarse grass, seed tops
waving hi the gentle breeze.
Magically,
Gildrum flitted to another tree, farther along the road, and watched Cray pass
beneath, then went to a third and did the same. After that, though it wished
otherwise, it had to return to the errand its master had set it—an errand that
should have taken a much smaller fraction of the day, although Rezhyk was hot
aware of that.
On its
way, the demon stopped at Spinweb briefly. But Delivev did not show herself.
The
tapestry drew a narrow line westward, with a stop every night and a few during
the daytime, when she guessed he found game and paused to cook it, or to water
his bars*, or to admire wild flowers. He spoke to her occasionally, through the
webs, perhaps two nights out of five, but he had little to say, only terse
accounts of the vast forest, the birds, the beasts, the sun, the rain. She
could see in the tapestry that he was
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making
his slow way to Falconhill, tout she never mentioned that to him. She had known
for some time that his goal would be either Falconhill or the East March. He
had seen other holdings in the webs, richer ones, more powerful ones, no more
distant than those two. But his father's name was not linked to any of them.
Spinweb
seemed large and empty without Cray. Delivev had not realized, before he left,
how much she depended on his voice, his smile, the clatter of his arms to fill
her life, nor how much time she devoted to caring for him. Without his meals to
prepare, his clothes to mend, his questions to answer, she felt incomplete. For
days she wandered the halls of Spinweb, trying to recapture the life she had
known before his birth, lavishing her love on plants and animals. She had
thought herself lonely when Mellor left, but now she knew that had been
nothing; Mellor, though she loved hng, had only been with her a short time, like
a dream, vanishing with the morn. Cray she had carried beneath her heart for
nine months and kept at her knee for as many years and more; now, he was gone
and she felt that part of her was gone as well.
/ am
getting old, she thought, though in sorcerous terms that was a lie.
She
touched the tapestry as a few more threads were adding themselves to the weft;
they moved under her fingers like snakes sliding under a door. Cray was
probably camping for the night. She let a little time pass and then went to the
chamber of the webs, in case he decided to speak to her.
He did
not
She lay
sprawled upon the velvet-covered bed for a long while, staring up at the high,
dark ceiling, and at last the thought came to her that she needed something new
to take her mind off her son. She needed to see a new face, alive, not just in
the webs. Castle Spinweb needed a guest. She stretched both hands out, and all
around her, concentric rings of spider silk began to glow softly, their
patterns blurring to grayness, to windows upon other climes. And all about
Delivev the ; Weaver, people played out some moments of their } fives, never
knowing that she was picking and choos-ing among them.
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The
process took considerable thought and was diverting enough in itself that she hardly
noticed how much time passed while she sought an appropriate selection. She
weighed men against women, old against young, rich against poor. She rejected
this one for being too ugly, this one for talking too much, this one because
too many small children required her presence, this one because he had just
married a passionate young wife. In the end, her choice narrowed to three
footloose younger sons and a handful of troubadours; no one else was free to go
wherever he wished without being missed by someone, and Delivev had no desire
to cause another person the pain of loss that she herself knew so well, even if
it was only for a short time. Of the younger sons, one was a fool, one had
disgusting table manners, and one resembled Cray too closely for Delivev's
peace of mind. The troubadours seemed equally witty, talented, and charming; it
was their business to be so. Delivev chose the nearest one.
He was
a man of middling years, tall and lean, his face craggy and weather-beaten by
much outdoor living. His voice was low and full, his fingers nimble upon the
strings of his lute, and he wore gold rings and bracelets when he stayed hi
places where they would not likely be stolen, gifts of wealthy patrons. At the
moment Delivev selected him, he was reclining beside a garden pond, watching a
king's young daughters play hide-and-seek. Occasionally, he tore crumbs from a
loaf of stale bread and tossed them into the pond, and watched the fish glide
to the surface to nibble.
The
garden was full of spiders. A person who was not looking for them would
scarcely see them, except perhaps for the black speck in the large web where
two walls met Delivev saw the garden from there, but there were other webs,
small ones, scattered among the flowers, in the trees, and webless spiders as
well, though Delivev had far less control over them. She prodded a small brown
spider, and it came out of its hiding place between two stones and began to
spin on a bush beside the pond. The troubadour's eyes had swept past that very
bush
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a
hundred times, but never before had he seen a message there, crude letters of
spider silk, and the spider still spinning on the last of them:
TAEB
THE NORTH ROAD
He
stared long at those words, so long that Delivev began to wonder if he knew how
to read, despite the movement of his eyes.
A
second spider joined the first and added its share while he watched:
GO
TONIGHT
He
jumped to his feet, staring down at the two spiders. Then he called out
hoarsely the names of all the king's daughters, and he called again and again
until, reluctantly, they gave over their game and joined him at the bush. By
that time, though, the spiders had been joined by others of their kind that
pulled the strands of web loose and pushed them together into a formless
tangle. The king's daughters were annoyed that their game had been interrupted
by a few spiders, and they did not forgive the troubadour for the rest of the
afternoon.
Delivev
watched through the evening as the troubadour sang for the king and his court,
and she thought he sang more poorly than usual, as if he were preoccupied. The
king sensed something amiss, too, and asked if the troubadour were feeling ill,
but the man denied it He sang another song and then he sat by the fire with his
lute, quite near the spiderweb at the corner of the mantelpiece; he sat hunched
over, his eyes on the floor, or on some inner scene. At last, quite late, when
the king was about to retire to his chambers, the troubadour approached him and
sank to one knee.
"Your
Majesty,** he said, "I have a need for air, for the free moonlight and the
open road. I would go out tonight, perhaps for a day or two; I have certain
matters to think on."
"I
had not expected you to leave us for a fortnight j;yet," said the king.
"What makes you change your mind so suddenly?"
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"Majesty,
if you command me to speak of it, I wuV but it is a personal matter."
Delivev
smiled. It was a wise man, she thought, that kept the evidence of magic, or of
the tricks of his own mind, to himself.
The
king waved a hand. "No, I would not press you. Go, if you wish, but I pray
you, do not stay away so long this tune as last."
The
troubadour bowed low. "I shall not, Majesty.**
Wrapped
in a billowing cloak, lute slung over his shoulder, he crossed the drawbridge
and bade the sleepy sentries goodnight. The north road was deserted, the
travelers that used it during the day bedded down, perhaps even dreaming of the
next day's journey already. The troubadour did not see, as he walked, the webs
that hung in the trees on either side of the road, nor did he know of the
spiders that hid in the folds of his cloak, but before the castle had slipped
full out of sight, he became aware of other spiders and other webs. Where the
road curved, a curtain of gossamer strands enveloped him—a net, light as air,
strung from one tree to another, across the road. It clung to his flesh and
clothing a moment, and then he brushed it away. Another moment passed before he
resumed his stride, and in that moment, something stepped into his path.
By
moonlight, it had the form of a war horse, standing still, blocking the road
with its great body. It dipped its head toward him. It bore no saddle, only
fringed reins hanging loose. He moved closer slowly.
'1 am
Lorien the troubadour," he said softly. "Is it you that I seek on the
north road?"
The
creature dipped its head again and closed the distance between them with one
stride of its long legs. Now he could see that though it had a horse's shape,
it was made of vines so tightly interlaced that they formed a solid mass; the
reins were plaited leaves. Hesitantly, he touched the creature's neck with one
hand, and the tendrils that immediately curled about his fingers made him jerk
back as if he had thrust his arm into a fire.
"What
power has sent this thing to me?" he asked loudly.
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In
answer, the creature knelt before bun and bent its head to the ground at his
feet.
"I
am not afraid of you," he said, and he climbed onto its back. Tendrils
clasped his hips and thighs, his knees, his ankles, held them close to the
creature's body as it rose to its feet. He laid a hand on its neck, then pulled
his fingers free of the clinging tendrils; his legs came free as well, with a
sharp tug, but as soon as they touched the creature's sides again, they were
claimed. He sat stiff at first, but when nothing further happened, he slumped
and kicked impatiently with one foot. "Well?" he said. "Will you
take me somewhere or not?"
The
creature tossed its head and, turning, began to move northward along the
moonlit road. It had a smooth and sinuous gait, not like a real horse at all,
and it rustled as it went, like wind soughing through a hedge. It sped like the
wind as well, as fast as a real horse could gallop, untiring through the night,
its rider secured without benefit of saddle. The moon set, and first light
dimmed the stars. Just after dawn the creature slowed, left the path to slide
among the trees until it found a sunny, dew-decked glen, where it sank to the
earth and fell apart, and he was left kneeling astride a pile of vines. He
stood awkwardly and looked around, yawning and nibbing at his eyes with both
hands. After a brief circuit of the open space, in which he saw no sign of
human habitation, he eased his lute to the grass and himself after it, wrapping
his body in his cloak as in a blanket His eyelids sagged, though he had only a
stone for a pillow, and then they parted abruptly, wide, as he saw the vines
take root in the grassy soil and slim, pointed wands nose out from among the
stalks, unrolling themselves into leaves that spread, broad and green, in the
morning sunlight The troubadour slipped one hand under his cheek and waited,
and when nothing further happened, he finally fell asleep.
He woke
late in the afternoon, found a brook in a dip at the far side of the glen,
drank deep and splashed cold water on his face and neck. Then he paced a circle
about the vines, which sprawled across the ground beneath their coat of leaves
like any innocent plant,
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and he
spoke to them: "Is this the end of the journey?" They rustled
in'answer, lifted toward him briefly, as if blown by a gust of air that he
could no.t feel, and he stepped back hastily. He sat down then, some distance
from the vines, and drew from the pouch at his belt ft chunk of hard cheese; he
sliced a piece off with his dagger and began to chew it.
Another
rustling sound, much nearer than the vines, made him turn sharply to his left.
Seeing the source of the noise, he froze in place, knife still poised over the
cheese. A large snake approached him, sliding through rank grass and over
stones, its body almost the thickness of his wrist A loop of its heavy tail
encircled a limp rabbit, which it dragged along the ground. The snake came to
rest beside the troubadour's knee, and it lifted its head till its darting tongue
was level with his throat Still, he did not move, only stared back into the
lidless eyes, and at last the snake swayed, dipped to the ground, and slithered
away. It left the rabbit behind.
Lorien
waited until spiders had gathered about the rabbit and spun a web on the grass,
with one word upon it in many thicknesses of silk:
EAT
He
built a fire and cooked and ate.
At
sunset, the vines began to move. Their leaves rolled themselves into thin
cylinders and dived beneath the stalks, which humped up and formed a familiar
shape. The vine-horse tossed its head and knelt that the troubadour might
mount. He did .so, and they returned to the road and the ride.
Days
passed in this manner—the vines a steed by •night and a cluster of plants by
day, snakes bearing small game for Lorien's meals each afternoon. Soon he was
moving through lands he had never seen before, and one night, when the moon was
on the wane, the road curved but the vine-horse did not. Into the trackless
forest it galloped, and its rider was forced to duck low upon its back to avoid
being swept off by hanging branches. The wide road had been faintly lit by moon
and starlight, but the depths of the forest were dark, even the trees less
individual shadows than a continu-
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ous
gloom, yet the vine-steed galloped a sure course among them. In the morning,
instead of stopping, it sped on, and before the sun had reached the zenith, it
stood before Castle Spinweb.
The
vines slumped below Lorien, and as he watched they slithered across the ground
to the green-clad castle wall, rooted, unfurled their leaves, and blended among
the other vines clinging there so perfectly that no one could have picked them
out as having led a mobile, magical life.
Lorien
knocked boldly at the castle gate, and the third time his fists struck the
carven panel, it swung smoothly open. Sunlight streamed past him, washing out
the radiance of many flambeaux within, illuminating a tapestry-hung room with
floor of polished stone. He entered, and the door closed silently behind him.
Turning about, he found himself facing a figure so cloaked and deeply hooded
that no trace of human flesh showed anywhere upon it. Lorien inclined his head.
"You
may tell your master that Lorien the troubadour is here."
The
figure made no reply, only glided silently past him, moving as bonelessly as if
it slid across an ice-covered pond, and it beckoned with one gloved hand that
he should follow. He did so. Some distance down the curving corridor from the
gateroom was a stairway, which they climbed. At the top, the figure paused at
the first of two doors, opened it, and gestured for the troubadour to enter.
Inside was a pleasant room, lit by the sun shining through tall windows.
Tapestries covered two of the walls, and a third bore the windows, a cold fireplace
between them. In one comer was a velvet-draped bed, in another a heavy table
and two chairs; the table was set with wine flask and cup, saltcellar, and a
platter bearing a whole roasted fowl.
"My
dinner?" asked Lorien.
The
cloaked figure bowed.
"I
see two chairs. Will your master be joining me?'*
For
answer, the figure glided through the doorway and pulled the door shut behind
it. Lorien strode to the door, found it unlocked, and pulled it ajar. Then,
tossing his lute to the bed and seating himself hi the
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chair
that faced the entrance, he consumed his meal. He had scarcely finished when
the cloaked figure returned with a tray and bore away the scraps and tableware.
After
it had gone, he went to the window and looked out upon the forest. His eyes
were level with the tops of the shortest trees. Leaning out, he could see that
he was in one of the castle's towers; above was another pair of windows, and
beyond them a parapet. Below, too far to leap without breaking a leg, was the
banquette, the narrow walkway just behind the outer wall.
He
faced the room once more. "Am I a prisoner here?" he asked of
tapestries red and gold and brown. They did not reply. One by one he turned
them back, but he found nothing behind them save blank stone walls and cobwebs.
He walked out the door then, and down a few steps; there was no sound from
below, nor did he see any motion. The upper staircase was silent as well. On
the landing once more, he hesitated a moment and reached for the handle of the
second door.
He
found himself in a room of mock weapons, wooden sword and shield, wooden mace
and axe— they hung on the walls like hunting trophies. Beneath them stood
chests, table, chair, all covered with a fine layer of dust. He opened one of
the chests and found a boy's clothing laid neatly away, shirts and trews too
small for a grown man, and tucked among them a stuffed animal so bedraggled
that its identity was impossible to determine. He shut the chest, tried
another, and found clothing more suitable to a man. He shut that, too, and
having exhausted the room's secrets, he went out.
He
yawned. "If no one objects," he said loudly, "I shall try the
bed."
He
slept soundly beneath the velvet cover.
The
cloaked figure woke him. He had slept through the night, and morning light upon
the tapestries made the room seem warm. Warm, too, was the glow of a small fire
upon the hearth grate, and the room was filled with the rich scent of eggs
frying in butter. The figure slipped away from the bed and bent to remove a pan
from the flames. The table had already been set
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with
bread and milk. Lorieu pulled on his boots and shirt and sat down to eat.
"Your
master is very generous," he said to the figure. "The bed is soft,
the food is excellent. Shall I meet my host this day?" When the figure
remained silent, he caught at its sleeve. "Can't you speak?" he
asked.
The
figure bowed to him and tried to pull the sleeve away, but his grip was too
firm.
"Look
at me!" he said sharply.
The
hood turned to him, its rim hanging so low that it touched the front of the
cloak.
"How
can you see with that hood?" he asked, and with a swift movement of his
free hand, he threw it back.
Beneath,
the figure's head was a swaddle of cloth, lumpy, misshapen. There were no slits
for eyes or nose or mouth.
Lorien
stared, and his fingers loosened their hold on the sleeve and the figure pulled
away, but not completely, not before he grasped at its gloved hand. The glove
came off in his fist, revealing that the figure had no hand. The glove, which
had picked a pan out of the fire and set it upon a trivet on the table, had
been empty. He dropped the glove, now quite limp, as if it were a severed hand.
The figure retrieved it with its other gloved hand, and in a moment it had two,
as mobile as before. It used both to pull its hood up. Then •it bowed and left
Lorien to his breakfast. He ate slowly, his eyes upon the door, but no one
entered as long as he was at the table.
Afterward,
he sat on the bed, the lute cradled in his lap, and he plucked aimlessly at the
strings. "You called me here," he said at last, no more loudly than
if he were speaking to a person in the very same room. "Won't you show
yourself?"
Long
moments passed, and when no one came he began to relax, to stroke runs of
melody from the lute, to hum with them. He was looking down at the strings when
he heard the voice.
"Good
morning. Welcome to Castle Spinweb." His head jerked up, and he saw a
woman standing in the doorway, a brown-haired woman in a long dress made of
white feathers. He tossed the lute aside and
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scrambled
to his feet. He bowed. "You are the lady of the castle?" he inquired.
"Spinweb
is mine," Delivev said, smiling. "I hope you enjoyed your
breakfast."
"It
was excellent, my lady, most excellent."
"I
trust your journey was not too arduous?"
"It
was most interesting. I have never ridden such a steed before."
She
laughed lightly. "I suspect that no one has. I hadn't thought of making
one before." She half-turned, lifting one hand toward him. "Come see
the garden, Master Lorien." He moved to obey, and she added, "And
bring your lute, of course. What is a troubadour without his music?"
"Yes,
yes, my lady. On the instant." He clutched the instrument by its short
neck and followed her down the stairs. "I think you must be a mighty
wizard," he said as they descended.
"I
am." She glanced at him over one shoulder. "But I mean you no
harm."
"I
am glad to hear it."
"Have
you never visited a sorcerer's castle, Master Lorien?"
"Never.
I understood that they care little for music."
"Who
told you that?"
"Why
... I don't know. It's common knowledge, isn't it?"
"Common
knowledge among ignorant folk, perhaps. We like music as well as ordinary
mortals do."
"You
have no other purpose in bringing me here ... than to listen to my music?"
"What
other purpose do you think I might have?"
He
hesitated, lagging a little behind her. "I am only a troubadour," he
said. "My imagination does not stretch so far."
She
laughed again. "Oh, come along, don't be afraid."
"I
am not afraid," he said staunchly, "else I would never have heeded
your call."
On the
ground floor they crossed the main corridor, passed through a series of arching
portals, and stepped into the garden. Early sunlight splashed one corner of the
open area; the rest was still shaded by the sur-
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rounding
castle walls, cool and dew-decked. Delivev went to a pair of pale stone benches
set in the sunshine, and she seated herself on one of them, gesturing him to
the other.
"Play
something for me," she said.
He laid
the lute upon his lap. "Have you some preference?"
"Do
you have a song of travel to far lands? Of eternal wandering? Of impossible
quests?"
He
thought for a moment. "Well, something of the sort, my lady."
"I
will listen."
He
strummed a chord, and then he smiled a little. "This seems so strange ...
I am not accustomed to playing for an audience of one, unless that audience
were myself alone."
"There
are others listening," she said.
He
looked around. "I see no one. Do you mean behind those windows?" He
pointed to slits in the masonry of the keep.
"There
are birds," she said, and a small blue one landed on her shoulder and
pecked gently at her ear-lobe. "And one of my dearest friends will be
pleased to listen." The quick sound of horseshoes on the flagstones made
Lorien turn about as a shaggy pony ambled from an open doorway on the shaded
side of the garden and went straight to Delivev, nuzzling at her neck and
displacing the bird, which jumped down to the bench beside her. She caressed
the pony's face with one hand. "Do you like this audience better?"
she asked.
"Is
there no one hi this castle but you and these animals ... and that . . .
servant who let me in yesterday?"
"Spinweb
is full of life," she said, "of various kinds. You shall meet them
all if you stay long."
"How
long, fair lady, were you planning on having me here?"
She
shrugged. "How long would you stay at any castle?"
"As
long as the master let me."
"And
at a wizard's castle? Not quite so long, yes? Not quite?"
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"I
don't know. This is a new experience for me, my lady."
The
pony started toward Lorien and snorted, stretching its neck to reach the
troubadour, to nose past the lute to a pouch at his belt. Lorien edged away,
down the length of the bench, and the pony followed.
"Are
you afraid of a pony?" Delivev asked, smiling at his discomfiture.
"What
does he want?"
"An
apple, I think, or a carrot. My son always kept something for him in a pouch on
his belt. Come, Gray-legs, come!" She slapped the pony's rump, and it
lifted its head and looked back at her a moment, then turned about and walked
slowly to her. She circled its neck with one arm. "We'll find you a tasty
morsel, my darling, don't worry," she murmured. "Just stay here by me
and leave the troubadour alone." To Lorien, she said, "He's an ordinary
pony, I promise you. There's no magic in him at all. I merely caused the gate
of his stall to unlatch, and so he came to me."
Lorien
grinned sheepishly. "I don't know what to expect in this castle ... after
this morning's meal."
"Oh?
Was something wrong with it?"
"No,
no, it was excellent. But the servant who brought it... was rather
peculiar."
"Really?
I hadn't noticed."
"Her
face . . . was all covered with cloths. I can't guess how she was able to see
or even to breathe. And her hand . . ." His voice faded away as bis gaze,
which had been concentrating on Delivev, shifted to a spot beyond her shoulder.
A snake
was slithering across the flags, bearing in its open jaws a large, rosy apple.
It presented this apple to Delivev, rising to knee level to drop it in her lap.
The pony did not startle at this apparition but rather dipped its head to take
the fruit before Delivev could lay a finger on it.
"Greedy
creature," she whispered as it crunched the apple loudly, and she stroked
its shaggy mane. When the chewing noises had subsided, she said, "Play,
Master Lorien. Play." She glanced sidelong at him, then down toward her
knee, the direction of his gaze. The
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snake
was still there, swaying slightly, looking up at her. "Does she disturb
you?" she asked. "She isn't venomous. Ah, but she's quite deaf, so
there's little for her to gain by staying. Be off with you, my pet." The
snake's head dropped to the ground, and the animal slipped into the bushes.
"I promise you," Delivev said to Lorien, "none of my creatures
shall harm you as long as you conduct yourself as a proper guest."
"I
am grateful for that promise, fair lady, but can you be certain ... ?"
"I
control them completely, I assure you. There is nothing in this castle that
lies beyond my will. Except perhaps the pony." She smiled at it. "And
you, of course, Master Lorien."
He
inclined his head. "I, too, am yours to command."
"Then
ply your trade, troubadour. Sing!"
He sang
the tale of an endless quest through summer heat and winter frost, from one end
of the world to the other. She had heard 'the song before, at a distant hearth,
though not by him. She had heard it, she thought, before he was born. She sat
in the sunlight and she listened, and she could almost imagine that he sang
from a web spun in the garden, save that he looked at her as the music flowed
from his lips.
When he
was finished, she said, "Yes, I have always thought you sang quite
well."
He laid
the lute on the bench beside him. "Your pardon, lady... but we have never
met before."
"No,
we have not, but I have heard you."
"Ah...
magic."
"Sing
again."
"My
lady ... I would know for whom it is that I sing. You have a name,
surely?"
"Surely.
I am Delivev Onnoru, sometimes called the Weaver. Have you heard that
name?"
He
shook his head.
She
smiled. "I have some local reputation. All undeserved. After you leave
Spinweb, you may hear some people speak of me with fear. I hope the impression
you carry with you will give you cause to discount their views."
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"You
have been only too kind to me, my lady, so far." He rubbed with two
fingers at the varnished surface of his lute. "And I am reassured when I
hear you refer to experiences I might have after leaving your castle. In truth,
I was not sure that you intended for
me to
leave."
"I
have no spells that require a troubadour's entrails, Master Lorien. I deal in
quite a different sort of sorcery. Sing again; it's a beautiful day for
singing, is
it
not?"
"It
is a beautiful day," said Lorien, and he sang.
Outside
the castle walls, the gray squirrel heard music rising from the garden. Gildrum
had not seen the arrival of the vine-steed and its rider, and now the demon
wondered if Delivev's spiders had spun a web in the garden instead of the web
chamber, for her to view some distant scene. It wished it had a bird's form, to
fly with seeming innocence close above the castle. But Rezhyk had never given
it wings, and it could only fly in its true -form. It looked up at the sky; a
few clouds floated near the sun, but none across. The squirrel vanished as
Gildrum passed from the human to the demon world, its normal mode of travel
over long distances; it re-emerged as a flame against the sun, a bright spot
invisible in the glow of that brilliant disk. It hung above the castle, far
higher than the tallest trees, and below it Spinweb was laid out like a child's
toy fortress. It could see Delivev, a doll-figure seated on a garden bench, and
Cray's1 old pony stood close beside her. On another bench was a man, a lute
cradled hi his lap; from this height the music of both voice and strings was
lost.
A man.
Gildrum
perceived he was an ordinary mortal with an ordinary aura, no sorcerer. The
flame that was Gildrum grew hotter, whiter even than the sun, and some moments
slipped by before it recognized the emotion it was feeling.
Jealousy.
Gildrum
returned to Ringforge, to the tower room that was its own, to the form of the
girl with blond
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-it-
braids.
She threw herself on the cold stone floor and wept hot, human tears.
What
right have I to deny her a human lover? she asked herself. None. None.
Still,
she wept. Gildrum had never wept before.
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CHAPTER FIVE
The
ochre beeswax had all run out of the clay mold, which was now ready to receive
molten metal. Rezhyk drew the long-handled cup from its small oven and tilted
it carefully above the clay; liquid gold spilled in a thin, steady stream from
the spout, filling the channels that led to the ring form. The air above the
flow shimmered with its heat.
"This
will be a fine one," said Rezhyk. "I can feel it in the smoothness of
the pour."
"You
have a steady hand," said Gildrum. She sat on
:.,-
the high stool by the brazier, holding the cloth with
which
he would wipe his sweating face when he was
finished.
"Have there been any but fine ones in the
last
dozen years?"
"There
was the one we did the night of the storm." "I don't count that one.
Even / was startled by that clap of thunder."
"I
count it," said Rezhyk, setting the spoon on a trivet and reaching for the
cloth. "Many a good hour of spell-casting was wasted on that
monstrosity."
"You
could have used it still. You could have ! trimmed and polished it and set the
stone in it. Only |your own desire for perfection made you destroy it."
Rezhyk shook his head. "Even with your great ex-Iperience, my Gildrum, you
don't know everything. Nor
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do I, I
confess it. I could not take the chance that the slave might use the
imperfection to break free and do me some mischief. Not with that one. He was
too powerful. And too angry at being caught."
"We
are all angry at first," said Gildrum. "It fades."
"Does it? Well,
perhaps with some.
You, my Gildrum—you are not
angry with me any more, are you?"
"You
know the answer to that, my lord, or you would not care to keep me by your
side."
"Not
even a little?"
Her
clear blue eyes gazed straight into his. "I bear you no grudge for
summoning me. You have given me an interesting life in the human world, and I
have learned much from it and from you."
Rezhyk
turned his back to her. "Yet, when first I summoned you—how you raged! You
would have liked to burn me to a cinder on the spot."
"Wouldn't
you have felt the same, my lord, in my position? Stolen from home and friends,
enslaved? I would have burned you. Truly, I would have, save for that ring on
your finger."
He
faced her. "The ring, yes! Can you doubt that it must be flawless?"
"Like
all sorcerers," said Gildrum, "you know less about demons than you
suppose. There are flaws and flaws. As long as the ring remains unbroken, minor
imperfections are unimportant."
He
circled the stool on which she sat and then, from behind, he fingered one of
her blond braids. "I think not, my Gildrum. I think these things are
subtler than you know. Or than you will admit. I have never asked your advice
on ring-making, though you give it freely enough. As well ask a wild beast the
best sort of trap to build for its littermates."
"Don't
you trust me, lord?" asked Gildrum; her lips quirking in a smile.
"I
trust you in many things. Other things, my Gildrum.. We have been together many
years, and I think I know you well enough by now."
"Do
you, lord?"
"You
think not? You think you can surprise me?"
She
turned toward him and laid her hand lightly on
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his
shoulder. Her fingers perceived the golden shirt that lay beneath his tunic,
though no human skin would have been so sensitive. "Would you be surprised
to know that I wish my freedom?"
"So."
He slid his arms about her waist. "My Gildrum wishes to be free of
me."
"We
have been together many years, lord. But you have better servants than I."
"None."
She
nodded vehemently and grasped his ring-laden hands. "You have not fingers
enough to wear all your servants. Where will you put this new ring? In the
drawer with the others?"
"You
are the first and the best," he said, drawing her down from the stool. She
stood still in his embrace, her head against his chest, and she could hear his
heart beat slow and steady in his breast. "What would I do without you, my
Gildrum?"
"You
could give another this form."
"But
another would not be you."
She
pushed away from him gently. "After all these years, my lord, have we not,
in some sense, become friends?"
"Of
course we have."
"And
would you deny a friend freedom?"
Rezhyk
shook his head slowly and, clasping his hands behind his back, walked a few
steps away from her. "It would not surprise me, my Gildrum, if a human
slave wanted freedom. Humans always want all manner of ridiculous things. But
what would you do if you were free? You find the human world interesting, yet
without me you would have no place in it, nothing to do, nowhere to go, no
reason for being here. And if you went back to your own world, you would find
it much changed, I promise you. Many of your old friends would be gone, claimed
by other sorcerers, and to those who were left, you would be a stranger. You
have lived long among us; you are almost human in many ways." He looked
sidelong at her. "You are neither human nor demon now, my Gildrum. What
else could you be but a sorcerer's servant? Where else would you be content?"
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"I
would find some place for myself, somehow, somewhere, my lord."
He
stretched his arms out to her. "Have I not been good to you, my
Gildrum?"
"You
have, my lord, but still... I have served your will, not my own."
"I
need you, Gildrum.** "I think not, lord."
"I
must be judge of that."
Gildrum
looked down at the floor. "You fashioned the rings. You may dispose of me
as you will."
"Perhaps
I have heaped too much upon you these last years," he said. "Perhaps
you feel you have no time to yourself." He took her shoulders in his
hands. "Perhaps you need a holiday—a return to your own world for a little
time. You'd see, then, that there is nothing for you there. Would that please
you—a holiday?"
She
lifted her eyes to his. "How long a holiday?"
"I
don't know. A few days? A little longer, maybe."
"When?
Now?"
He
frowned. "No, not now, that's not possible. I have the ring to finish^ and
you must fetch me the proper gem for it from one of the deposits in the south.
And then there are those books buried in the ruins of ancient Ushar—I know they
must be there, even though you haven't found them yet—"
"You
have other demons that could look for them as well as I."
"They
haven't your fine touch, my Gildrum. I couldn't trust any of them to bring the
books undamaged. And you know so well precisely, what to look for. How long
would it take me to teach that ignorant rabble to tell one volume of ancient
lore from another? They would have me knee deep in genealogies and herbals,
wasting my time with nonsense."
Gildrum
let her shoulders slump. "I see I have served you too long. I have become
. . . indispensable."
He
shook her gently. "You shall have your holiday, my Gildrum. You shall. But
not now. Later, when I have not so many projects in need of completion."
"That
will be never," said Gildrum.
"Don't
say that."
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She
bowed her head. "Yes, my lord."
"Come,
I want you to find that gem now, that I may begin the polishing. A fine, pale
yellow topaz it must be, the color of that wine we had with dinner a few nights
since—you recall I remarked on the color."
"I
recall, my lord. I recall."
Gallant
trotted easily in the morning light, its hooves making a fine rhythm on the
hard-packed earth, its trappings jingling as if taking joy from the sunshine.
The forest lay behind, with its leaf-shaded daylight, and now horse and rider
moved beneath the open sky, between fields of nodding, golden grain. The road
had forked once, and they had borne left, according to the innkeeper's
directions. Ahead lay a village, a cluster of huts on the north side of the
path; Cray could just make them out in the distance.
He sat
straight in the saddle, even after so many days of unremitting travel, even
with the weight of chain mail pulling continually at his shoulders. On his head
was a wide-brimmed hat, plaited this very morning of coarse grasses that grew
by the side of the road —plaited to shield his eyes from the glare of full
sunlight. He thought he must look an odd sight in surcoat and mail and straw
hat. Thus far, though, he had not encountered anyone on the road to tell him
so.
Suddenly,
not hah* a dozen paces ahead, a figure emerged from the grain, a small, hunched
figure that stepped into the center of the road and halted there, lifting an
arm toward Cray. The boy had to jerk Gallant's reins sharply to keep from
running the person down. The horse took a few uneven strides beyond the figure
before turning back in response to its master's touch.
"Don't
you know better than to jump out in front of a running horse?" Cray shouted.
"You could have been killed!"
The
figure was cloaked and hooded in spite of the pleasant warmth of the day. It
cowered before Cray, falling to its knees in the dust of the road, and in a
youthful masculine voice it begged his pardon. "I did not mean to frighten
your horse, my lord! But you are the first person to come along this road
today, and I
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am just
a poor starving beggar with no one and nothing to call his own. I implore you,
my lord—alms. Alms, to swell your heart and my belly. Good my lord, save me
from starvation!" He looked up at last, and his hood fell back, revealing
the gaunt and sun-browned face of a lad not much different in age from Cray. A
length of filthy rag was tied about his head so as to cover bis left eye.
Cray
surveyed the youth's torn and dirty cloak, the worn wrappings on his feet.
"Is it food you want, beggar, or money?"
"Food
first, good my lord, or I shall not live long enough to reach yonder village.
And after . . . whatever small coins you might be able to spare." He
clasped bis hands and raised them toward Cray. "Anything, my lord. A crust
of bread. A rind of cheese. Anything."
Cray
squinted up at the sun. "It may be ajittle early in the day for a noon
meal, but I shall eat anyway. And you shall share it." He glanced down the
road, gestured with one hand. "I see a likely shade tree; shall we sit
there?"
The
beggar nodded eagerly, and he ran beside Gallant as the horse took its rider to
the designated place.
Cray
dismounted and tied Gallant's reins to the tree. Then he drew bread and cheese
from his saddlebags, and cold rabbit and a flask of water. He laid them on the
shield as on a table, to keep them from the dust of the road.
Cray
had seen cripples before, in the webs of his mother's castle, but in bis brief
travels away from home, he had never encountered one hi the flesh. As he
divided the food with his knife and watched his companion wolf that allotted
him, he could not help wondering what lay under the rag bandage. At last, as
they licked the last traces of grease from their fingers, he said, "How
did it happen?" .
The
other peered at him through one narrowed brown eye. "How did what happen,
my lord?"
"Your
eye."
The
beggar touched the rag with one hand, protectively. "I was born this
way."
"You
can't see with it?"
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"I
can see ... a little. But it isn't pretty. People don't like to look at it. So
I keep it covered."
"What's
your name?"
"Feldar
Sepwin, my lord."
Cray
grinned. "I'm not your lord. I'm not anybody's lord. My name is Cray
Ormoru."
Sepwin
bobbed his head. "Pleased to make your acquaintance, sir."
"And
you needn't call me sir."
"I
call everyone sir. A beggar must."
"Ah
... or there wouldn't be any alms."
"You
have it, young sir."
"Have
you no family, Master Feldar?"
"They
tossed me out, sir. Because of my eye."
"What
sort of family would do that?" Cray asked.
"Farmers,
sir. Plain peasant farmers."
"They
tossed out a good pair of hands. Unless . . . there is something else amiss
with you."
Sepwin
shook his head. "Just the eye, sir. Folks don't like to look at it. Folks
don't like to think about it."
"Can
it be so ugly?"
Sepwin
looked away. "You would think so, I'm sure."
Cray
picked up his shield and hung it at its place on the saddle. "Where are
you bound, Master Feldar?"
He shrugged.
"Anywhere, sir. It doesn't matter."
"Would
you care to ride behind me to the village? Gallant can easily carry both of us
that far."
"My
lord, that would be more than kind."
"Not
'my lord.* Just Cray." He mounted lightly. "Now up with you. Take my
hand and put your foot in the stirrup there."
^
Awkwardly, Sepwin clambered upon the saddle, settling himself behind Cray. He
was there only a moment when he pushed away and slid over Gallant's rump,
landing heavily on the dusty road. He scrambled to his feet, one hand pressed
to his right hip, which had taken the brunt of the fall. My lord," he said
hastily, "the back of your neck is covered with spiders!"
Cray
felt of his neck with gentle fingers, and the spiders crawled onto his hand and
scurried up his sleeve. "They won't hurt you," he said.
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Sepwin's
single eye was wide. "You knew they were there?"
'They've
been there ever since I left my home. They are my friends."
"Strange
friends you have, my lord." Sepwin backed away, one limping step. "I was
born a farmer, and I don't fear spiders, but I have never seen so many in one
place at one time. And what a place!" *
"They cling wherever they can," said Cray. "Usually, most of
them are in my sleeve." He coaxed one brown-and-white mite onto his open palm
and held it out to Sepwin. "You see?"
"Do
they never bite you?" Sepwin asked. "Never."
Slowly,
Sepwin sank to his knees. "My lord," he murmured, "are you some
sort of wizard?"
Cray
smiled. "I know a few things, especially about spiders. That doesn't make
me a wizard." He leaned down and extended his hand. "If you're not
afraid of a few spiders, you can still have a ride to the village. 1 think
after that fall you'd rather not walk."
Sepwin
looked up and swallowed hard, his Adam's apple bobbing. "I am not
afraid," he said, and he took Cray's hand and mounted Gallant.
"I
haven't much silver," Cray said, kicking his horse to a slow walk,
"but you're welcome to a piece of it." "Where are you bound, my
lord? I mean, Master Cray?"
"For
Falconhill, Master Feldar.** "Where would that be?" "You don't
know?" "No."
"Well,
neither do I, precisely. It's in the west somewhere."
"I
am from the south. Somewhere. Have you some business at this Falconhill?"
"Yes,
Master Feldar. I seek word of my father, who went to Falconhill once and never
returned." "Perhaps it is a dangerous place." "Perhaps.
Would you care to go there?*' "I, sir? Not if it is dangerous."
"I have been traveling alone for a long time," said Cray, "and I
was thinking that it's a dull journey with-
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out
other ears than my horse's to talk to. And you have no pressing
destination."
"True
enough, Master Cray."
"And
you would never go hungry as my companion."
"You
have a compelling argument, young sir. But why would you wisji to burden
yourself and your horse with a cripple?"
"Are
you so different from other men, Master Feldar?"
He was
silent a moment, and then he said resolutely, "No, I am not."
"Then
perhaps we will find you a horse for yourself in this village. Gallant would
tire carrying both of us all the time."
"You
would buy me a horse?"
"Don't
expect another like Gallant, though.**
"Master
Cray, you are mad to treat a stranger so!"
"You
asked for alms, did you not?" He shrugged. "Besides,we may find you
some useful work at Falcon-hill. I have heard that it is a great holding."
'
"But
your father—the danger—"
"You
can always tell them you met me on the road and hardly know me at all." He
kicked Gallant to a faster pace. "There is the village already. We can
stop and fill our flasks at their well."
Small,
dirty children ceased their play to point and exclaim at the beautiful horse as
Gallant walked slowly past the low wall that marked the village boundary. The
well was in the center of the enclosed space, and when Cray and Sepwin dismounted
there, the children crowded around them, stroking the horse's legs and flanks,
as high as they could reach. Although Gallant tolerated this attention quietly
enough, with Cray standing at its head muttering soothing nonsense, a woman ran
from one of the huts and pulled the children away one by one, scolding sharply.
"An
animal that large,*' she said, her voice pitched to rise above the tumult of
their complaints. "You don't know what he'll do, you little fools. Get
away now, get away from him!"
"A
fair morning to you, good wife," Cray said,
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smiling
broadly. "It's a wise mother that looks after her young ones so
well."
She
glared at him. "Who are you, stranger, and what do you want?"
"My
friend and I have been long upon the road, good lady, and we came to ask if we
might fill our flasks and water our horse at your well."
"I
suppose you may. There's a trough for the horse." She flicked a thumb
toward a low wooden basin some paces from the well. "Fill it at your
pleasure." She walked away.
Cray
smiled again and nodded at her retreating back, and then he dropped the bucket
into the well and began hauling water up. He had scarcely splashed the first
measure into the trough when he felt a small hand tugging at his surcoat. He
looked down at a tow-headed child of six or seven summers. "Yes?"
"May I ride the horse?"
Cray
squatted beside her. "It's a very big horse, child."
"I
wouldn't fall off."
"Well,
what would your mother say to that?** "You could walk beside me."
"And what if you fell off on the other side?" "Your friend could
walk there." Cray had to smile. "If you'll wait till my horse has had
a drink, I'll let you ride him, but just for a little time, because we have a
long journey ahead of us."
The
child nodded and sat down with her back against the stones of the well. In the
shade of the nearest hut, hah* a dozen paces away, her playmates whispered and
giggled among themselves, but none dared join her.
Cray
filled the trough and stood by while Gallant drank and Sepwin drew another
bucket to replenish the flasks. Before long, three more villagers, men this
time, approached the strangers, walking a wide circle about the well. Cray
smiled at each of them in turn, and when he judged they had looked their fill,
he hailed the brawniest of the lot. "Would you have a horse for sale, good
sir?"
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The man
crossed his arms upon a massive chest and said, "You have a horse, I
see."
"But
none for my friend," Cray replied. "His mount died some days ago, and
we have not found another for him yet. We thought you might have an extra
animal here."
"How
did his horse die?" asked the man. "A misstep upon the road. The poor
creature broke its leg and we were forced to destroy it."
The man
glanced at his fellows. "There might be an extra horse in the village."
He beckoned to the others, and they moved together, speaking softly. After a
time, one of them looked back to Cray.
"What
can you pay?" he asked.
"I
have a piece of silver," said Cray.
The
villagers' conversation resumed, more loudly this time, and at last the brawny
man broke away from the other two and said to Cray, "We seem to have three
extra horses in this village."
"I
need only one," said Cray.
"You
may choose the best of the three, if you wish."
Cray
nodded.
The men
separated, and while each went in search of his horse, Cray lifted the little
girl into Gallant's saddle and walked her around the well. She was very quiet
on top of the horse, very wide-eyed, and she clung to its mane with both hands.
"Have
you ever ridden a horse before?" Cray asked her.
"Yes,
but not such a big one. It's so high!" And she loosed one hand for only a
moment, to wave quickly at her playmates, who stared from the shade with
envious eyes. "Does he have a name?" she asked Cray.
"I
call him Gallant."
At the
sound of its name, Gallant halted and turned its head inquiringly. Cray stroked
its neck once and urged it forward.
"He's
a good horse," said the girl.
"Oh,
yes, a very good horse," agreed Cray.
"Are
you a knight?"
Cray
smiled. "Not yet. But I will be."
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"I
saw a knight once. He had a big horse, too." She turned to Sepwin, walking
on the other side of Gallant. "You're not a knight."
"No,
no, not I," replied the beggar.
"What's
wrong with your eye?"
Sepwin
hesitated, then said, "I hurt it.**
"If
you hurt it, where is the blood?"
"I
hurt it a long time ago."
"If
it was a long time ago, why do you need that bandage?"
"Because
it doesn't look nice."
"It
doesn't?" The child leaned toward him. "Can I see it?"
"Careful—you'll
fall off if you lean like that!'*
Even as
he spoke, she began to slip sideways. Cray called a warning and clutched at her
leg as it went over the top of the saddle, but he missed it. He halted Gallant
with a tug of the reins, then ducked under the horse's neck to see what had
happened. Sepwin was just setting the child down on the ground. She was
gripping his rag bandage in one dirty hand.
"You
said,it didn't look nice," she said in an accusatory tone.
"Don't
you think so?" he muttered, jerking the rag away from her. He kept his left
eye tightly closed as he swiftly fastened the rag in place once more.
"No,"
she replied. She looked up at Cray. "Thank you for the ride," she
said, making a little curtsey, and then she ran to join her playmates, to
whisper and giggle with them.
The brawny
man returned with a small brown horse, which he displayed to Cray proudly.
"Not old at all," he said, prying the animal's mouth open to show the
teeth.
Cray,
to whom the horse's teeth meant nothing, surveyed the animal and found nothing
particularly wrong with it. "This looks to be a reasonably good
animal."
Sepwin
tugged at his sleeve. "This animal is older than you are, Master
Cray."
"Oh?
How can you tell?"
"The
teeth. The pattern of the teeth.'*
Cray
looked at his companion. "So you know horseflesh?"
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"A
little, sir. My father raised some,"
"Good,
then you can pick your own mount. Here comes another offer, if I'm not
mistaken."
A
second man approached, the tallest of the three, leading a horse whose dark
coat was flecked with gray. Sepwin walked all around the animal, looked into
its mouth, picked up its hooves one at a time and examined them. "Not
bad," he said.
The
third animal arrived shortly, a dark one with a white blaze on the forehead.
Its back had a distinct slump in the middle. Sepwin looked it over, then looked
at the others again. "Take the roan," he said at last, indicating the
second animal.
Cray
nodded. "Have you a saddle for it?" he asked its owner.
"This
is a plowhorse," the man told him. "She's never known a saddle."
"Has
she ever been ridden?" asked Sepwin.
"Oh,
the children ride her all the time. And I have, too. She's gentle as a Iamb,
you'll see. She won't give you any trouble.**
"Give
me a blanket to throw over her back and I'll ride her," said Sepwin.
"The
blanket will cost you extra," said the man.
Cray
laughed. "I'll give you a copper penny besides the silver, if it's a good
blanket."
"Oh,
the best, my lord, the very best,*' he said, and he called a name toward the
group of children who were whispering nearby. A small boy answered, whom Cray
guessed was his son, ran to him, received orders to fetch a particular gray
blanket, and scampered off to obey. The lad returned in a few moments with a
heavy woollen bundle which his father unrolled and threw over the horse's back.
In return for a silver coin and a copper one, the man handed the animal's reins
over to Cray, who passed them on to Sepwin.
As they
were preparing to mount, the small boy piped, "Before you leave, sir, may
I see your eye?"
Sepwin
looked at him, and with his free hand he pulled his cloak tighter about his
shoulders. He said nothing.
The
father cuffed his son. "What sort of question
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is
that?" To Sepwin he said, "Forgive the boy, sir. He's very young and
full of curiosity."
His
hand covering the cheek that bad been struck, the boy said in somewhat muffled
tones, "Eda says his eyes aren't both the same color, Father, and I don't
believe her."
"What
nonsense!" said his father. The girl who had ridden Gallant ran to join
them, "It's true—one is brown and (he other is blue. Isn't it true,
stranger?"
Sepwin
shook his head. "The child is imagining things."
"The
covered eye is blue, it really is! I saw it!" "It is an empty
socket," said Sepwin, and he grasped his horse's mane to pull himself up.
"Your
father will beat you for lying when he comes home!" the boy shouted at his
playmate. "It's true!" she said.
The
boy's father laid a hand on Sepwin's arm, kept him from mounting. "Is-it
true?" he asked.
Sepwin
faced him. "What if it were?" he demanded. The man opened his hand,
showed the silver and copper. "I could not bargain with such a one."
"You
have bargained with me," said Cray, one hand on the cantle of Gallant's
saddle. "There is nothing wrong with my eyes."
"But
the horse is for him," the man said, nodding toward Sepwin. "Let him
show his eye." "It is an ugly wound," said Sepwin. "I have
a strong stomach." He glanced at the boy and girl. "Go, children.
There is nothing here for you to see."
"But
father—" the boy began. "1 said go."
Reluctantly,
the lad moved off, and at another glance from his father, the girl followed,
casting many a backward look as she went.
"What
nonsense is this?" asked Cray. "Take off the bandage," said the
man to Sepwin, "or you will not ride my horse beyond these ^alls."
The other men, who had drawn back when Sepwin chose his horse, crowded close
now, their own horses forgotten and ambling loose toward the water trough.
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The men
nodded to their fellow's demand. "Take oft the barMage."
Sepwin
stood with his back against his mount's flank, one hand clutching the crude
rein that hung from its rope halter. His lips were tight, his face pale in
spite of its tan. "Leave me alone," he said.
The
boy's father threw the coins down into the dust. "I don't want a monster's
money." Then he reached out slowly and pulled the rag from Sepwin's head.
"Open your eye."
Blinking
against the sunlight, the beggar obeyed.
Cray
was too far away to see the color of the eye, but when the tall villager lunged
forward to close his hands about Sepwin's throat, he could guess it. With one
quick motion he jerked his sword from its scabbard at Gallant's saddle and,
shouting, raised it high. All three villagers had fallen upon Sepwin by then
and borne him to the ground under his horse's agitated feet; if they heard
Cray's voice above their own wild cries, they paid it no attention. Cray kicked
the nearest man with one booted foot and then, swinging the sword once above
his head, he brought the flat of the blade down on the fellow's buttocks. The
villager let go of Sepwin immediately and rolled over, scrambling away on his
hands and knees, his terrified gaze on the sword. Cray brought it down again,
and yet again, and added a few more judicious kicks, and Sepwin's attackers
backed off.
"I'll
kill the first one who lays another hand on him!" Cray shouted. With his
free hand, he pulled Sepwin to his feet. "Get on that horse," he
hissed, pushing the beggar toward the nervously dancing animal.
Sepwin
staggered and coughed, clutching his throat, but he managed to mount, and he
did not need another order from Cray to kick his horse to a gallop. By the time
Cray vaulted into his saddle, Sepwin's horse was leaping the low wall at the
edge of the village and speeding west along the road. Cray followed. He glanced
back only once, to see the three villagers standing behind the wall, shaking
their fists at the departing strangers. The children and a few other
inhabitants of the settlement had joined them, and they
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all
clustered close together, as if hemmed in by invisible boundaries. No one
stepped beyond the wall.
Sepwin
rode, his body bent low to his horse's back. Cray caught up and pulled abreast,
calling for him to slow down, but Sepwin paid no attention. Soon his horse's
sides were covered with white foam, and Gallant, too, had begun to sweat.
"You'll
kill your horse!" shouted Cray.
Sepwin
looked at him with wild eyes, and from this distance Cray could see the
difference in color, the darkness of the right and the paleness of the left.
"They'll
never catch us!" shouted Cray. "You must stop!"
Sepwin
shook his head.
"You're
safe!" Cray screamed, and then he eased back on his own reins, slowing
Gallant to a prancing, snorting stop. He sat still in the middle of the road
while Sepwin disappeared in the distance ahead.
"I
didn't buy that horse to have you kill it!" he shouted, but he knew that
the beggar was too far away to hear. '
He let
Gallant walk then and cool off, and he looked back occasionally, even though he
was sure that no one was following. The afternoon had waned considerably when
he came upon Sepwin and his horse in a stand of trees that marked the edge of
the cultivated fields. The road forked there, the northerly path skirting the
grain, the westerly leading into rolling land of intermittent forest and tall,
wild grasses. Sepwin was rubbing his mount down vigorously with the gray
blanket. Both of his eyes were uncovered, the rag bandage left behind in the
village. At Cray's approach he moved behind his horse, placing it between them
like a wall. Gallant, though, was so much taller than the village nag that Cray
could look over the latter at Sepwin.
"Good
evening," said Cray. "I trust you had a pleasant ride."
"You
may jest,** muttered Sepwin, "you with two eyes of the same color."
"You
won't run away from me, will you, Master Feldar?"
"Should
I?"
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"I
don't care about your eyes." Sepwin leaned against his horse, arms crossed
Jpon its back. "Everyone cares," he said. "This was not the
first time that I've run from folk. Sometimes they throw stones instead of
attacking me with their hands." "But why?"
Sepwin
closed the brown eye, then opened it and closed the blue. "Which one do
you think is the evil eye?"
Cray
shrugged. "Why don't you tell me?"
"Neither!"
shouted Sepwin, and his horse started and tossed its head, and he had to soothe
it with stroking hands. "Neither," he said more quietly. "Yet I
have been driven from every human settlement where I've shown both of them.
I've been stoned, spat upon, kicked, flogged. No honest work for me, no
friends; even my parents finally cast me out!"
"I
don't understand," said Cray.
"Don't
you know what the evil eye means?"
"No."
"Have
you led such a sheltered life, Master Cray?"
"I
suppose so. Tell me."
Sepwin
clasped his hands behind his back. "A cow dies, it's my fault. A horse
goes lame, a plow breaks, the children sicken, everyone blames me. They say
I've gazed upon them with evil intent."
"And
have you?"
He
looked up into Cray's face. "I have willed evil a few times, for revenge. I
have willed it with all my heart . . . and nothing has happened. The cows die
and the children sicken and. all the other unhappy things run their course
without any help from me. These eyes lie, Master Cray. They have no
power."
"Very
well," said Cray, and he swung a leg over his saddle and jumped to the
ground. He tethered Gallant to the nearest tree. "Now that we have settled
that, Master Feldar, what do you say to a cheery fire and a hot supper? I
stopped off some distance back and netted a fine pheasant among the grain. I'm
sure that between the two of us we can pluck and dress it in a very short
time."
Sepwin
took a single step toward him. "You are not an ordinary person."
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Cray
pulled the bird out of one of his leather saddlebags. "Why? Because I
believe you when you say you don't have the evil eye?"
"An
ordinary person would have left me to my fate back there in the village. After
all, you don't owe me anything."
"I've
vowed to be a knight," said Cray. "How could I stand by and watch an
innocent person killed?"
"I've
been spat upon by knights."
"Then
they were not proper knights."
"Who
are you, Master Cray?"
Cray
smiled. "No more than I seem—a boy looking to be a knight."
"You
are more than that."
"Start
the fire, Master Feldar, and I'll begin the plucking."
Sepwin
stood motionless. "I've told you the truth about myself. Won't you do as
much?"
"What
do you think I am?"
"A
wizard of some sort."
"Would
you be frightened if I were?"
"Not
now, my lord. Not now that I owe you my life."
"You
owe me nothing," said Cray, "except the proper form of address.''
"As
you wish, Master Cray," said Sepwin. "I have never met a wizard
before."
"I
am not a wizard."
"Those
spiders tell me you are. I see one on your hand right now."
Cray
glanced down and saw a black mite gingerly investigating the pheasant feathers
that brushed his right wrist. He blew on the creature gently, and it retreated
up his sleeve. "I shall have to hide them better," Cray said,
"if I want to move freely among ordinary mortals." He laid his hand
on a branch of the tree where Gallant was tied, gave his elbow a sharp jerk,
and a line of spiders trooped from his body to the wood; they began to spin
immediately, anchoring lines to various twigs for a rough, radial pattern. "My
mother is a sorceress," said Cray, "so don't be surprised by what you
see next. She'll be interested to
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know
that Fve found a traveling
companion." He gazed sidelong at Sepwin. "I have, haven't I?"
"You
have," said Sepwin, and he bent to gather tinder for the fire. But his
eyes never left the spiders and the web that they fashioned together in the
trees.
The
tapestry had woven the semblance of a sword upon the road that Cray traveled,
and when Delivev laid her fingers upon it, she felt the heart thunder hi her
breast. Her son had drawn his sword, she knew, and used it for the first time
against human beings. Yet there was no blood upon the cloth, and his path
continued past the symbol; he had fought and run, unharmed, slaying no one.
Delivev relaxed as she comprehended that, and then she smiled as she touched
the sword again and found no fear there, only excitement. If he had to be a
knight—and she still felt pain at that thought—he would at least be a properly
brave one.
She
turned away from the tapestry. Down the corridor, up the stairs, Lorien was
waiting for his evening meal to arrive, expecting her to join him for it, but
she felt no hunger now. Instead, she went to the web chamber and sought her
son. The webs hung dark around her as she reached for the spiders that rode
with him, willed them to find a place for spinning, even ft it were the pommel
of his saddle. They were not her spiders but his, raised hi the influence of
his aura, obedient to his will; yet they were spiders still, and her power over
their kind was great. At last a small, bright spot appeared in the center of a
web: Cray's chin and mouth, seen from below, swaying in and out of view with
the rhythm of his steed's gait. Then the image crumpled, swept away by wind or
a sleeve or a flick of the reins.
Delivev
rose from the velvet-covered bed with a sigh. The moving horse was too chancy a
support for spiderwebs; she would have to wait until Cray stopped for the
night. Yet, having seen him with her own eyes, even the fraction of his face shown
in the tiny web, she felt easier somehow; he was all right, the tapestry did
not lie. Abruptly, she realized she was hungry.
In the
kitchen, a bundle of cloth in the shape of a human being bent close to the
hearth, turning the spit
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that
bore a roasting joint of venison. At Delivev's signal, the cloth-servant
removed the meat from the fire and set it on a platter; its glove-hands picked
up an obsidian knife and began to carve the roast, heaping two trenchers"
with the steaming, fragrant slices. Delivev took one of the trenchers and ate,
sitting on a stool by the table while the cloth-servant set the other on a tray
with saltcellar and wine cup—that was Lorien's meal. Delivev hoped he did not
mind eating alone. The only person she wished to see right now was Cray.
She had
scarcely finished her meal when a spider descended from the ceiling on a long
strand of silk, landing on her shoulder, scurrying to her neck to tickle her
with tiny mandibles. She threw the trencher down and fairly ran to the web room.
The largest web showed Cray against a vista of grain fields golden brown in low
sunlight. He raised his arm in greeting when he saw her enter the room.
"I
had an adventure today, Mother," he said, "at long last."
"You
aren't hurt, are you?"
"Oh,
no, not a scratch. And I want you to meet my new friend, Feldar Sepwin."
He gestured to someone out of sight, once, and then more vehemently. "Come
on, Master Feldar, let my mother take a look at you." A thin lad of about
Cray's age edged into view of the web, his eyes downcast. Slowly, he sank to
his knees, his hands clasped at the level of his waist. "Good ... good
health to you, my lady," he said.
Delivev
eyed his ragged, filthy clothing and said, "Good health to you, Feldar
Sepwin. And good fortune to you—you seem to need some."
"Master
Feldar has had considerable trouble in his life, Mother," said Cray,
"because his eyes are two different colors. Show her your eyes, that's a
good fellow."
Sepwin
glanced up furtively. "I mean your son no harm, my lady,"
She
leaned close to the web. "Two different colors indeed. How unusual. What
sort of trouble does Cray speak of?"
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"Folk
say I have the evil eye, my lady," Sepwin replied. "But it isn't
true."
"The
evil eye? You mean, blighting crops, bringing disease—that sort of thing?" *
He
nodded, and then he shook his head violently. "It isn't true, really it
isn't!"
"Where
are you supposed to have learned this power?"
"Learned?
My lady, they say I was born with it. My parents cast me out from fear of
it."
"Merely
because of your eyes? What ignorance!"
Sepwin
looked at the ground. "It is widespread ignorance, my lady. I have met it
everywhere."
Delivev
placed her hands on her hips and half-turned from the web. "Cray,"
she said, "when I hear such foolishness, I am doubly saddened that you
have forsaken the sorcerous life. Ordinary mortals know nothing of us. To think
that a sorcerer would be marked with some physical sign, that he would have
power from birth .. ."
"I
am not a sorcerer!" said Sepwin.
"Of
course not. Sorcery is not inborn; it is learned, and the learning takes more
years than you have been alive. Accusing a child of sorcery is like accusing a
cow."
"Well,
Mother," said Cray, "I do know a few tricks."
"Children's
games, my son. The evil eye is not acquired in a few summers of play. I knew of
one who had it, and she worked long and hard."
"Why
would anyone want such a power?"
Delivev
shrugged. "One who finds happiness in the misery of others . . . The one I
mentioned, though, had another reason. She wanted silver and gold. She
threatened her neighbors with her evil eye, and they paid, lord and peasant
alike—they paid whatever she asked, to keep their lands and families
secure."
Cray
nudged Sepwin. "See how you could have become rich, Master Feldar? You
could have promised to keep your evil eye closed and wrung money from folk
instead of beatings."
"And
when the promises were not kept, Master Cray? When the cows died anyway?"
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"You
would have had to move on quickly." "I would be homeless and
friendless as I am now. But well-dressed."
Cray
laid a hand on Sepwin's shoulder. "You are not friendless anymore,"
Sepwin
looked up at him for a long moment, then at Delivev. "You don't mind, my
lady," he said, "that your son has a beggar as a friend?"
"You'll
not have to beg while you're with me," said Cray.
"I'm
sure he's been lonely since he left our home," said Delivev. "I know
I have."
"I
was lonely, Mother."
She
smiled at him, a very small, sad smile. "But not so lonely that you wanted
to turn back."
"No,
not so lonely."
"And
now you have a companion. That's well enough. I have one, too ... or at least,
Spinweb has a guest."
Cray
cocked his head to one side. "A guest?"
"You
would know him—Lorien the troubadour."
"Lorien?"
Cray frowned. "Didn't he sing at High-mount last winter?"
"The
same. He happened to be passing Spinweb, and I invited him to stay a
while."
"A
troubadour in Spinweb! I'm sorry I can't be there to hear him, Mother."
"You
could be."
Cray
shook his head. "You'll not lure me back with that sort of bait. I'll
surely hear troubadours a-plenty on my journey."
"Perhaps
not."
"Then
I'll still have the memory of hearing them through the webs. Mother, this is
hardly worthy of you."
She
laughed softly. "Can you blame me if I would rather have you here than
him?"
"Even
though I don't sing at all well?"
"Even
so."
"I
love you, Mother. You know that."
For a
moment she could not reply, her voice trapped by teeth clenched to hold back
tears. Then, very low, she said, "Tell me about your adventure."
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He
waved it away with an open hand. "It was really nothing, Mother, though
exciting enough for a journey as dull as this one. Some ignorant louts were
trying to do mischief to Master Feldar, and I taught them a lesson."
"He
saved my life, my lady," Sepwin said. "They would have killed
me."
"What
did you do to them?" she asked him.
"I
showed them my eyes."
She
wagged her head sadly. "Have you thought of wearing a patch over one
eye?"
"I
have done so, my lady."
"You
move in the wrong world, Master Feldar. The sorcerous society would not treat
you so poorly. You should have been born to us."
• He
bowed his head. "One is born as he is born. We cannot change ourselves to
something else."
Delivev
looked at her son. "I know one who thinks otherwise."
"I
was born of two worlds, Mother," he said, "and I made my
choice."
"Your
choice, yes. Your free choice."
From
behind her, Lorien said, "I thought I heard voices down here."
She
whirled to face him, one arm stretched out to keep him from the room. His own
clothing became his prison, frozen in the doorway, and he could not move
against it.
"That
is Lorien," Cray whispered to Sepwin. They had,to look over Delivev's
shoulder, for she stood in front of the web, barring it from the troubadour's
view.
"You
are not welcome in this room," she said. *'Turn around and go back to your
tower. I will call you when I want you."
Stiffly,
without his volition, Lorien's clothing turned him about and walked him away.
"That
was hardly a proper way to treat a guest, Mother," Cray said when the
troubadour was gone.
"I
will not share this room with him." She crossed her arms over her breasts
and clutched her shoulders, as if feeling a sudden chill. "Only those I
love may come here. Let him find some other entertainment for
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himself
in Spinweb. Let him play his lute and divert me. The webs are not for
him."
Cray
bent and picked up a half-plucked pheasant from somewhere below the web's view.
"We're about to prepare supper now, Mother. And soon the light will
fail."
"I
can watch you by fireglow," she said. "Make your supper. I'll just
sit here by the web, asx if I were with , you."
"As
you wish."
"Just
for a little while."
The
velvet coverlet was too smooth for her imagination to transform into the coarse
grass she saw all about them, the air of the chamber too close to pass for
night-damp. Nor could she reach out to touch her son as he readied for bed, to
kiss his forehead as she -had for so many evenings through his life. He gave a
last wave in her direction and rolled in his blanket by the fire. He slept
quickly, she knew, and deeply. Sepwin seemed to do the same.
A
gesture of her hand made the web opaque. She rose from the wide bed and made
her way to the corridor. She paused at the foot of the stairway to the tower
where the troubadour waited. Almost, she walked on, her mood too heavy for
music, but after much hesitation, she climbed instead.
He lay
upon his bed, the lute at his side, slow, mournful notes rising from it
At the
doorway, she said, "Please accept my apology for treating you roughly,
Master Lorien.'*
He sat
up. "Will you come in?" he said.
She
inclined her head, entered, and seated herself at the table. "You
interrupted a conversation with my son. He has been gone some time now, and I
don't speak to him often."
"Please
accept my apology for interrupting," said Lorien. "Had I known, I
would never have done so."
"That
is a private room. I do not wish you to enter it"
"Whatever
you say, my lady." He pulled the lute to his lap. "Shall I play for
you?"
"No."
She looked down at the thick rug upon the stone floor, at its bold pattern of
green and gold. She
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had
knotted it with her own hands, and a little magic, after weaving the open
canvas backing on her largest loom. She had crafted many such beautiful things
in her long lifetime; Spinweb was full of them. Yet in her heart she felt no
beauty now, only emptiness.
"Sing,"
she said at last. "Sing to me of love."
He sang
a plaintive melody, his voice deep and mellow, his eyes never leaving her face.
He sang, and after some verses he rose from the bed and moved closer to her,
still singing, till he stood above her, and his music fell upon her hair like a
coronet. He sang, and his fingers left the strings of the lute and reached out for
her, gently, as for a wild bird. Almost, he touched her cheek. And then his
sleeve tightened about his- wrist and held it back.
She
looked up at him. "No/' she said, and she rushed from the room.
When he
was able to move once more, he went to the door and found strands of spidersilk
hung across it, strong and immovable as bars of steel. He could not leave his
room. He could not follow her to another tower, to the chamber overlooking the
forest track, to the tapestry that showed the face of a man he did not know.
She
wept there, alone, as on many another night.
CHAPTER
SIX
A'ter
breakfast, she bade the troubadour leave. He fell on his knees before her.
"My lady, if my behavior last night offended you, believe me, I am most
heartily sorry. When you asked to hear of love, in such a melancholy voice, I
allowed myself to
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think .
. . perhaps . . ." He smiled up at her, a sunny smile that transformed his
rugged features almost to youth, and Delivev thought that many women must have
been won with it. "You are so beautiful," he said. "Can you
blame any man for wanting to cherish you?"
"Rise,
Master Lorien. I am not offended. But I did call you most unexpectedly from a
king's home, and I know the king was loath to let you go. He will be cheered to
have you back."
"I
have been here so brief a time," he said, standing straight once more, a
head taller than she. "Do you really wish me to go?"
She
turned away from him, toward the window of his room, and she looked out over
the forest canopy as she fancied Cray must have done many times. This was his
room, and she felt now that she had made a mistake in giving it over to a
stranger. "You've changed your feelings in these few days, Master Lorien.
You're no longer afraid of me."
"You
are a kind and generous lady," he said, "You would grace any castle,
magical or otherwise. And I was never afraid, only uncertain."
"You
were afraid. I could see it in your eyes. You only came to Spinweb because you
feared the consequences of disobedience to my command."
"I
came out of curiosity, my lady."
She
glanced back at him. "I think neither of us will convince the other. Fear
or uncertainty—call it what you will; you'll have no more of it now. A steed
will be waiting for you outside the gate." She gestured toward the door, and
the cloth-servant entered, bearing a large, wool-wrapped bundle in its
outstretched arms. "Here is some payment for your services."
The
servant laid the package on the table and opened it. The wool wrapping was a
mantle, its lining brown plush, and folded neatly inside were a fine brocade
shirt, velvet trews, and knitted gloves.
"These
are fine things, my lady," said the troubadour, "for such a short
stay as mine."
"It
was a long ride, was it not? The return will be no less." She waved, and
the servant rewrapped the bundle and bore it away. "They will be waiting
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you
with your mount. And you will be cared for on your return journey as you were
before."
He
bowed. "I am grateful for your hospitality, both here and on the
road."
"I
would give you silver as well, but I have little use for it and so acquire it
seldom."
"There
is no need for silver, my lady. There is no need for payment of any kind. I
will profit from this visit with you for many years to come."
"How
so?"
He
smiled again. "In the telling of the tale, of course. I warrant it will
bring me silver enough for ten men. I have sung for a beautiful sorceress,
ridden magical steeds, been served by all manner of wondrous creatures. This is
a great gift you have given me, my lady. Far more than I have given you."
He looked into her eyes. "I would that there were something I could give
you, besides a few songs."
She
shook her head. "Nothing that I want is within your power to give. Go now,
Master Lorien. Spinweb is too lonely for one of your kind."
"Not
too lonely for you, my lady?"
"No.
Not for me."
He
bowed once more. "As you wish."
The
vine-steed waited in the warm morning air, the package of clothing like a
pillow upon its back. Lorien mounted, and the tendrils clutched him and his reward
alike.
"Will
I ever see you again?" he asked of Delivev, standing before the gate of
her home.
"No,
never. But I will see you."
"As
you saw your son last night?"
"Just
so."
"Then
.. . sometimes . . . should I seem to smile for no reason, you'll know that I
smile for you."
"Thank
you, Master Lorien. And farewell." She raised an arm, and the vine-steed
wheeled and broke into a gallop.
Lorien
waved once before the forest swallowed him up.
She
stood there a moment, her back to the gate, her mind following the trail of bis
mount among the trees. A breeze stirred her hair, cool and damp, smell-
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ing of
rain. She would make a shelter for him whefl it came, of interlaced branches
and broad leaves.
"Yea,
I am lonely, Master Lorien," she said, though he could not hear. "But
not for you."
She
went inside, and the gate barred itself behind her.
Gildrum
passed briefly through the demon world, as it always did when leaving
Ringforge; space lay differently there, and travel was faster than in the human
world, and invisible to mortal eyes. Every demon had a personal portal there
that only it could use; Gildrum's opened into its private dwelling, the place
it had spent its time before answering the summons of the rings. To mortal
perception, the place would seem a sea of blinding light, without visible
boundaries, without furnishings. To Gildrum, it was comfort and quiet and the
dream of freedom. The demon yearned to stop there and nevermore return to its
master's demands. There had been a time when it had not felt so, when its home
had merely been a way station for its travels, a convenience. It had found
fascination in the ways of humans then, and in its work for Rezhyk, even in
Rezhyk himself. It had been young then, though not in human terms. Now, with a
long life yet stretching before it, Gildrum felt old and weary. It wanted to
rest in its home. But it could not, for Rezhyk had commanded, and though the
command might be delayed, it could not be denied.
Gildrum
emerged into the human world at the ruins of Ushar.
Ushar
was a city from the morning of time. Its people had been the first to find ways
of enslaving demons, and thereby they had become a race of mighty sorcerers.
But their petty jealousies, their rivalries in love and power, their greed,
undid them at last: a war erupted among them, a conflict with no sides, with
every combatant for himself, brother against brother, mother against son. When
it was over, their civilization lay in rums, their wealth and knowledge buried
in the rubble, and their bodies, too. A few survivors, ringless, crippled,
blind, scattered to tell the tale of their lost greatness. Generations passed
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before
a new breed of sorcerer uncovered the keys to the demon world, and by then the
lost knowledge of Ushar was legend only, a myth to frighten children when
thunder rolled in the skies. Ultimately, through the demons themselves, the
ruins were found. But excavation proved frustratingly difficult, and few
sorcerers had gleaned more for their labors than a clay tablet or two, tallying
herds of sheep and goats.
Rezhyk
sought something greater.
He was
a methodical man, and patient While other sorcerers had dipped into the ruins,
found nothing, and lost interest, he had spent the greater part of his life
studying them. On one wall of his workshop hung a map of the city, showing
squares, streets, buildings, even fountains, all located by his prying demons.
He had even visited the site himself, though he had seen only the mound of
grassy earth that marked it, that no demon had disturbed. A shepherd, chasing
his unruly flock above the bones of Ushar, would never have suspected its
existence.
Gildrum
had been there many times and was responsible for large portions of the map.
The demon slipped into the earth at its usual place, where a small patch of
soil was baked and cracked from its entry, as by the desert sun. Beneath the
soil lay hardened lava that glowed at its passage. Beneath that was the
rubble—stone blackened by fire, cracked, crushed, pillars sifted with walls and
floors, as if they had never seen separate existence. Gildrum followed a trail
of lava around and among the debris of Ushar; though a boulevard was filled
with broken buildings like fruit in a pie, the demon traversed it as easily as
a human being would cross his bedroom. Yet the map was unfinished, even after
so many years, and at last Gildrum came to the end of its own and others'
explorations. Before it lay the remnants of a house, fallen pillars blocking
the doorway, walls leaning inward, roof collapsed. The insignia of the resident
was visible upon the brass fittings from the door, which lay upon the
threshold, the wooden panel having burnt completely. Three interlocked rings
marked the owner of the house as a member of the highest class of citizen, a
most powerful sorcerer. As Gildrum entered through cracks
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the
lava had filled, it wondered if this sorcerer had escaped the doom of his
fellows.
Inside,
the wooden floors had not survived the heat of entombment, and the roof had
fallen all the way to the cellar in several pieces—Gildrum encountered that
rubble there when, descending to the foundation, it began its search. In the
darkness of solid rock, no eyes could see, no fingers "trace the outlines
of objects; the demon's perceptions were limited to the tactile sensations of
its flame, to the material warmed by it, and its progress was as slow as that
of a man plowing a field without a horse. Under the debris of the roof it
discovered smashed ceramic pots and bronze boxes crushed flat, their contents
forever unidentifiable. It found jewelry, too—gold and silver chain distorted
by melting, cabochon gems cracked by heat, lumps that must have been brooches,
pendants, diadems.
And a
demon-master's ring.
It was
a delicately crafted piece, the modeling of tiny leaves on the golden surface
still perceptible in spite of the melting that had given the band an oval
shape. There, had been a gem once, but the prongs that had held it were mere
nubbins now, the gem itself lost somewhere among the many others embedded in the
lava. The ring encircled a small, charred finger bone, frozen there by the
stone that had replaced the flesh. The rest of the skeleton huddled about it,
as if the ring had been the center of the wearer's being, to be protected like
a child in the womb. The whole skeleton lay beneath a rectangular slab of
fine-grained marble that Gildrum guessed had been a tabletop.
The
demon left the ring where it was. Crushed, broken, its maker dead, the circlet
no longer had any power. To a living sorcerer, Ushaf could offer only knowledge
of the techniques of enslavement, never the slaves themselves. And so Gildrum
searched for the ancient books that dealt with that knowledge, though it felt
like a traitor to its race.
In a
corner of the cellar, where the flags that lined the floor had buckled, it
found the vault. Once, that hiding place had been well sealed with dressed
stone and mortar, contents wrapped in greased oxhide against the damp. But lava
had reached it in the final
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cataclysm
and within a jacket of stone, the oxhide was only a black and crumbly crust.
With the most tenuous of fiery tendrils, Gildrum probed within the crust and
found a stack of steel sheets. The folk of Ushar recorded their most important
matters on demon-made steel, although to them herbals and genealogies were just
as important as sorcerous lore. Still, Gildnun thought, in a home marked by
three rings, a book of steel was likely to be what Rezhyk desired.
The
demon withdrew from the steel and expanded to envelop the whole vault within its
flame-body. It increased its heat then, till a sphere of rock containing its
discovery floated free in a bed of molten lava, like a pebble in hot grease. It
could cross to the demon world at that, and leave a hole, like a giant gas
bubble, deep in the ruins of Ushar.
Gildrum
left the sphere suspended in the brilliance of its home for a time, cooling,
and when it judged that human flesh could touch the stone without damage, it
delivered the dark mass to the workshop at Ringforge. Rezhyk hastened to examine
the treasure while Gildrum, taking the form of the girl with blond braids,
leaned against it to keep it from rolling across the polished floor.
"You
could have made it a little smaller," said Rezhyk, tapping at the surface
with hammer and chisel. The sphere stood only a head shorter than he did.
"There's
a stone vault inside, with a melting point higher than lava. I was afraid the
extra heat so close might damage the book beyond salvage."
Rezhyk
grunted agreement. Dark flakes sprayed about him with every stroke of the
hammer, and soon he had formed a broad, flat space on the sphere. Gildrum then
rolled the rock mass over to rest on that surface, took the tools from her
master, and set to work in his stead. She was quicker than he, her blows
harder, because she did not worry about being injured by flying fragments. When
the gray of the vault began to show, though, her progress slowed, for the
harder, less porous rock of the vault yielded to force more reluctantly.
Rezhyk
watched for a time, and then he turned to
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other
endeavors. Gildrum had been gone hi the ruins many days, and her master had
used that time for the final polishing of his new ring, and for the setting of
its stone, the topaz pale as white wine that Gildrum had brought him. The ring
lay on his workbench, and beside it was its larger counterpart, a plain circlet
with the same metal content. Rezhyk set the large ring on the brazier, upon the
coals that carried forth the low flame that had never died in Ringforge, and he
set the other ring upon his own left index finger. As he began the chant that
would call his new slave, the tapping of Gildrum's hammer behind his back fell
into the rhythm of his voice.
In the
center of the brazier, hi the center of the ring, the reddish glow of a coal turned
white-hot. Rezhyk chanted on, demanding, insisting, compelling. Abruptly, a
pillar of flame roared from the brazier, rising through the ring, constricted
there like sheaves of wheat clutched in a fist, but billowing above into a
mushroom of fire. Over the roaring, whipping blaze, a voice shouted, "No!
No!"
"Take
your earthly form!" said Rezhyk. "I command it!"
The
flames flickered against the ceiling, and in them a thousand shapes danced that
might have been men, women, animals, creatures real and fantastical, all
translucent, insubstantial. Flamelets broke away, skittered about the walls Uke
leaves fluttering in an autumn wind, like butterflies about a tree in blossom,
and then they swooped back into the pillar of fire, moths seeking death.
"Take
your earthly form!" Rezhyk said again. "I command you!" He held
his left hand out toward the flames, showing the ring, and the firelight
glanced off the stone, bursting into a thousand rainbows. A limb of fire
reached out for the gem, stopped short, played above it, throwing coruscations
across the walk and floor, looped, spun, then dived back into the main body.
"Three
times I command you to take your earthly form!" said Rezhyk.
The
blaze shrank and coalesced into a creature no larger than a cat. It settled
among the glowing coals
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of the
brazier, the loose folds of its belly skin completely engulfing the large ring
that lay there. It was an ugly and ungainly chimera, part scaly, part hairy,
with long snout, great ears, and too many legs. Its tail, which roved
restlessly among the coals, was studded with winking eyes. Its mouth was a
wide, drooling slash across the top of its head.
It
said, "My lord."
"Inscribe
your name upon the ring," commanded Rezhyk.
The
creature drooled. "It is done." Its voice was harsh and grating, as
if torn from a throat that had not known speech in many years.
Rezhyk
pulled the ring from his finger. On the inner surface of the band, the name
Harolando now appeared. "Welcome to Ringforge, Harolando," he said.
"You may go now, until I have had time to make a more pleasing form for
you."
"As
you wish, my lord," said Harolando. And then its head lifted and its tail
twitched, and all of its many eyes gazed past Rezhyk's shoulder, to Gildrum,
who still labored with hammer and chisel on the stone vault. "Greetings to
you, cousin," the new demon said. There was no trace of cheer in its
voice.
Gildrum,
who had averted her eyes during the conjuring process, looked toward the
brazier now, briefly. She did not know this demon. She guessed that it had not
existed when she herself had been caught. Still, she said, "Greetings,
cousin."
The new
demon flared into flame and vanished. It left the coals glowing behind it, and
Rezhyk had to remove the large ring from them with tongs. The name Harolando
was inscribed on its inner surface.
He
turned to Gildrum. "Are you finished with that yet, my Gildrum?"
"Almost,
my lord." And she struck the chisel so hard that the remaining vertical
section of the vault sheared away clean, leaving the small mass of lava that
directly encased the sheets standing exposed on a dark stone pedestal.
"Just a little more," she said.
She
found herself remembering what her own first call had been Uke, so long ago,
the summons that had cut her off from the other free demons forever. Be-
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fore
that moment, she and they had scorned the slaves; afterward, she had never
looked at them without seeing their scorn. She pitied Harolando—the adjustment
to captivity was not an easy one. But at least Harolando had demon companions
about Ringforge. There had been no cousin slave to greet Gildrum, just Rezhyk
himself, standing hi a glade in the woods where Ringforge was to be built.
She
could scarcely remember her own earthly form, save that it had been large and
many-limbed. She had never used it beyond that once, the first time she had
ever visited the human world. It must have been ugly, for Rezhyk had bade her
stay in the flame-body until he could fashion a more pleasing one. By the time
Ringforge was finished, he had given her the form she wore now, the first of
many.
Already,
he was molding clay for the new demon's first human semblance.
Delicately,
Gildrum chipped at the dark stone. She had discarded the large hammer and
chisel hi favor of a very small pah", and with these she reached the thin
layer of black that had been oxhide and then the metallic surface itself. As
the lava crumbled under her taps, she perceived a pattern of markings incised
on the steel.
"Ah,"
she said, and instantly Rezhyk was at her shoulder, brushing powdered lava from
her work space with a tuft of camel's hair, reading the ancient words as she
uncovered them. The first sheet was the hardest to clean; the rest were nested
so snugly against it and each other that no lava had seeped between them —only
then- edges were sealed with once-hot stone.
"Gently,
my Gildrum, gently," said Rezhyk. "The metal surely lost its temper
during the slow cooling, and a sharp blow might crack it."
"I
know, my lord."
"They
are not... welded together, are they?'*
"I
think not," the demon replied, easing a thin blade between the top two
sheets. "The lava was cooling by the time it reached the vault, and I
suspect that it was never hot enough to weld steel. There!" The top plate
separated from the others as the last bits of adhering rock broke.
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Rezhyk
snatched the freed sheet away, to examine it under the strong light of an oil
lamp. "Fortunately," he said, "the sorcerers of Ushar recorded
their wisdom on the most durable material they could find. If they had chosen copper
instead of steel, this book would be a solid block of metal instead of
individual, still legible pages."
Gildrum
pulled the other sheets apart with little difficulty, passing them to Rezhyk
one at a time until there were no more, and then she went to look over her
master's shoulder.
"I'll
be many months in deciphering all this," said the sorcerer. "But it
appears, from the little I can make out, to be exactly what I was
seeking." He smiied at the demon. "Once again you have served me
well, my Gildrum."
"I
made certain assumptions from my knowledge of Ushar as to the most likely
locations for such books. We have legends of the city, too, we demons, and they
are perhaps not so garbled as human legends, for they have not passed through
so many generations."
"Ah,
you would be perfect if only you could read these inscriptions as well as bring
them to me."
She
bowed her head. "I am sorry, my lord, but they who could have read those
words are gone, every one of them. Even demons die at last." She peered up
at Rezhyk through lowered lashes. "Nor do I think, were they alive yet,
that they would reveal this ancient and powerful language to one who served a
sorcerer. Freed by the destruction of Ushar, they would not wish to chance
being enslaved again."
"Well,
you and I shall puzzle this out." He brushed a trace of clinging powder
from one of the sheets. "Look here—these are familiar lines: the
conjuration of a minor fire demon, if I am not mistaken. Yes, yes." He
bent close to make out a portion of the inscription that was not engraved as
deeply as the rest. "But here he recommends a far greater proportion of
nickel to gold than I have ever attempted. And this symbol here ... do you
think it might stand for jade? Could the sorcerers of Ushar have conjured demons
with opaque stones as well as- translucent? Bring me my notebook, Gildrum, and
those sheets I
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bought
from Klarinn. He may have thought ancient history useless, but I suspect it
shall aid me in this translation."
"Yes,
my lord," said Gildrum, and after she got the notebook she pulled up the
tall stool, foreseeing a long session ahead. She sighed. Rezhyk found the
deciphering of ancient lore fascinating, but she found it tedious; she had no
talent for such things, and her contribution was usually limited to a nod of
her head or murmur of agreement or, at most, a reminder to the sorcerer of
something he had already said. Rezhyk insisted this was all useful, and so he
bade her sit by while he worked.
She
sat, and if her mind was elsewhere, he did not notice. She thought of the
skeleton in the lava—a woman's skeleton, she decided, too delicate for a man's,
the hips too broad in proportion to the shoulders and rib cage. Many women had
died with Ushar. Gildrum wondered if this one had been old or young, dark or
fair, ugly or beautiful: Beautiful, she resolved, as all women should be—tall
and brown-haired and beautiful. Unbidden, the image of Delivev rose in the
demon's mind—beautiful and melancholy enough to tear the heart from any man's
breast. Heartless in any anatomical sense, Gildrum still felt a pang deep
within her being—not the human form worn like a mask upon the truth, but the
demon essence, the intangible, inhuman reality. As her eyes could almost see
Delivev, so her ears could almost hear the music drifting upward from Spinweb's
garden. Her fingers interlaced tightly upon her lap, as if that tension could
drive the memories from her. Resolutely, she turned her mind to thoughts of
Cray, upon the road to Falconhill. Upon his quest for a knight who never
existed.
Cray
and Feldar Sepwin arrived at the third fork in the road.
"We're
to turn south here," said Cray, "and then we must ask directions of
some local, for I have no further knowledge of the route."
Sepwin
nodded, squinting up at the sky. "Does it look like rain to you? Perhaps
we should seek shelter."
Cray
glanced up at the clouds bunched gray about
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the
sun. "No rain for a few hours yet, I'd say. Let's go on."
The sky
grew no darker, but in a short time they were forced to stop anyway because
Gallant began to limp. Sepwin examined the favored hoof, found a sharp stone
lodged there, and carefully removed it with the point of Cray's knife. He said,
"He shouldn't walk on this foot anymore today."
"There's
a hut up ahead," Cray said, gesturing with one hand. "I saw it from
the last rise. We can stop there and be sheltered if the rain comes."
"Unless
it's abandoned and has no roof," said Sepwin.
"Do
you always think of the worst possible eventuality, Master Feldar?"
"For
beggars, that is the usual one," Sepwin replied.
"But
you are not a beggar any more. Come along. I predict that not only does the hut
have a sturdy and weatherproof roof, but it is inhabited and we will find a hot
supper there." He took Gallant's reins and walked ahead, the horse
trailing after, still limping.
Pulling
his own mount along, Sepwin fell into stride with Cray. "What is the
source of this prediction, Master Cray? Wishful thinking?" -
"Look
at the grass encroaching on the road. Someone has cut it back recently, someone
uses this road. Who more likely than the folk who live in yonder hut? We've
seen no other dwelling in many miles."
"Perhaps
the lord of .this land sends his men to keep the roads clear," said
Sepwin.
"Always
the worst possible eventuality, as I said. Would you care to wager on it?"
"With
what, Master Cray? My rags?" He halted abruptly. "Wait—I see smoke
rising from that hut. Perhaps you are right after all." He lifted one hand
to his face, covered his right eye with it. "Have you a rag, Master Cray?
A scrap of something?"
"I
have a kerchief. I'm sure that will do."
Sepwin
nodded. "Quickly, before someone sees us."
Cray
found the fine linen square in one of his saddlebags. It was embroidered with
his initials.
"Rather
an elegant eye patch," said Sepwin, folding
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it into
a bandage and tying it at the back of his head.
"It
does make a bit of a contrast with your other clothing," remarked Cray.
"For one thing, it's clean, Well, perhaps we can do something about that
while we wait for Gallant's hoof to heal."
"My
clothes have lasted me a long time, Master Cray. They may fall apart if
washed."
"I
have extra clothing in my saddlebags. It will fit you well enough, I think, if
you need it."
Sepwin
stared at him, one-eyed. "Why do you offer me such favors, Master Cray?
First the horse, now clothing ..."
"I
have plenty of clothing, Master Feldar. And you could not travel with me on
foot, after all."
"I
don't understand."
Cray
shrugged. "I grew up ... alone . . . except for my mother. I had all the
clothing I wanted, all the food, all the toys. There was a pony when I was old
enough to ride it, and later Gallant here. My mother never denied me. But I
never had a human friend. It was a long tune before I realized that I wanted
one." He smiled afSepwin. "Now you are my friend. If I can give you a
few small presents, what is the harm in that? It is no sacrifice for me to give
you a horse and clothing. I can hunt excellently, I can weave a shelter from
the weather if I must; I have no real need of my little silver save for
luxuries. So I choose the luxury of a friend."
"I
nevej had a friend either," said Sepwin, and his fingers brushed the
bandage over his eye.
Cray's
brows knit, and then he pointed to Sepwin's face. "Didn't you have the
other eye covered before?"
"Does
it matter?"
"No,
I suppose not. But . . , isn't that patch uncomfortable?"
"I
am used to it, Master Cray."
"But
you must be frequently among people, and half blind. Do you never tire of
having one eye covered? Do you never peek out from under the bandage, to see
with both eyes?"
"I
try not to, Master Cray. A one-eyed beggar, even if both of his eyes are the
same color, dares not be seen as a fraud. This is my livelihood, or was until
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, I met
you. People haven't near so much pity for a beggar without ills."
Cray
nodded slowly.
"I
am ready now; shall we go on?"
The
thin plume of smoke they had seen rising from the hut actually came from a
small fire built behind the structure. An old man sat close by the flames,
feeding small twigs to them while a pot of porridge bubbled in the heat. He
seemed not to notice his visitors until they came quite close, - and then he
jumped up and backed a few steps away, bowing jerkily.
"Your
pardon, sirs," he said in a loud voice. "I did not hear you approach.
Your pardon!"
"Good
day," said Cray. "We are travelers on the road with a long journey
both behind and ahead of us, and one of our horses has gone lame. We were
wondering if we might stay here today and perhaps tomorrow, until he is fit to
travel again."
"Eh?"
said the old man. He cupped a hand to his right ear. "My hearing isn't
what it used to be. You must speak loudly."
Cray
repeated his request, and the man bobbed another bow. "Oh, stay, stay if
you like," he said. "I haven't guested a traveler in many a year.
Many, many a year. You're more than welcome to share my poor fare, though it is
only yesterday's porridge." He smiled, showing a toothless jaw.
"A
hot meal," muttered Sepwin.
"I'll
hunt," said Cray softly. "The rain will hold off for a while yet. He
probably doesn't eat meat very often."
"Meat?
He can't chew meat without teeth."
"We
can make soup from some of it for him then. Or do you want porridge?"
"I've
eaten worse in my life."
"I'll
hunt," Cray repeated firmly. "Take care of Gallant for me?" He
took one of his magic nets from a saddlebag. "I won't be long."
"Can
you hunt without that?" asked Sepwin.
Cray
looked down at the gossamer-fine spidersilk hi his hands. He hardly felt its
weight, and in all but the brightest sunlight it was nigh invisible. "Why
would I need to?"
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"In
case you lost it, of course."
Cray
shrugged. "They are easy enough to make. My mother taught me when I was
very young. You could learn the process without any difficulty, I am
sure."
"Me?"
said Sepwin.
"There's
a little trick to it, but nothing a diligent student could not master."
"But
I am not a sorcerer, nor even a sorcerer's child. How could an ordinary mortal
learn something- like
that?"
"Sorcerers
were once ordinary mortals," said Cray. "Or didn't you know
that?" »
"But
they live so much longer . . ."
"They
became sorcerers through knowledge," Cray told him. "Knowledge
extended their lives as well as giving them power."
Sepwin
cocked his head to one side and regarded Cray with his one uncovered eye.
"And you? Half of one sort, half of another—which life span will you
have?"
Cray
fingered the gossamer net. "F don't know," he said slowly. "I
don't know of any others like me, so ... I don't know." He laughed then.
"We're both a trifle young to be talking of death, don't you think?"
Sepwin
took up Gallant's reins and those of his own mount. "I have thought about
it," he said. "Someone like me ... thinks about it often."
Cray
clapped him on the shoulder. "Well, not now, Master Feldar. Not even
though the day be cloudy and promising rain." He grinned. "And on
such a day, I must be off to the hunt without further delay." With a last
glance at the sky, he turned and jogged off into the trees.
As soon
as he had passed well out of sight of the hut, Cray spread out his magic net.
He laid it at the foot of a tall and gnarly oak, between mighty arching roots,
where mushrooms sprouted. He baited the net with herbs from the woodland
floor—thyme and marjoram sprigs elaborately knotted together. Then he climbed
another tree and hid himself among its leaves to sit, quiet as a bluebird
hiding hi its nest from hunting hawks. Shortly, a pair of rabbits approached
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the oak
roots; they circled the tree, nibbling bits of greenery that grew around it,
sitting up sometimes, their pink noses twitching as they sniffed the air. First
one, then the other edged toward the net, and neither seemed to notice it, even
when they stepped upon the fine strands. When they stood head to head, their
noses nudging the aromatic bait, Cray gestured with one finger, and the net
wrapped about its quarry, enfolding them in webbing light as air but strong as
steel. Again, the rabbits seemed unconcerned. Cray descended from his tree and
dispatched them with his knife.
Back at
the hut, Sepwin and the old man were getting on well, though Sepwin was swiftly
becoming hoarse from so much shouting.
"His
family is all gone," said Sepwin, helping Cray to skin and dress out the
two rabbits as their host looked on. "The oldest son died of fever, the
youngest ran off to be a tinker, the daughters married away, and his wife died
in childbirth with her eighth. He's lived here alone for the past few years,
and he wants us to stay for a month or two to keep him company."
Cray
grinned. "We thank you for such a kind offer of hospitality, good
sir," he said loudly, "but we cannot stay longer than it takes for
the big horse to mend. We have a long journey ahead of us."
"A
few days then, young sir," said the old man. "Just a few days. I
haven't seen a human soul since the last daughter left. Too lonely here, she
said. She met a man when we took a bull calf to market in the town, and she
would marry him, no matter that it meant her old father would be left
alone." He plucked at his short, scraggly white beard with fleshless
fingers. "She waved all the way down the road, waved and waved, and then
she turned her back and never waved again. I have been lonely, I can tell
you."
"Why
not go to one of your daughters, then, good sir?" said Cray. "Live with
one of them, with your grandchildren about you."
The old
man gazed at Cray with startled eyes. "And leave my home?"
"If
you are so lonely .. .'*
"I
built this house with my own hands. I cleared my own fields, planted,
cultivated, weeded, and when the
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horse
died I pulled the plow myself, and one of the
boys
walked behind to guide it. My children were born
here,
and I will be buried here!"
Cray
shrugged. "Then you must resign yourself to
loneliness,
I suppose. You can't force your children to
come
back."
The old
man nodded. "I let them go. How could I
stop
them? Pen them like goats? Tie them to the trees? I let them go. Still ... it
is a lonely place." He looked out over his land, which stretched in the
shape
of a
triangle with apex at the hut and base against distant trees. At one time, when
it supported a large family, it must have been planted with neat, parallel rows
of tall grain and low vegetables. Now all but the portion closest to the hut
was overgrown with weeds, and here and there a spindly sapling showed above the
scrub, the forest reclaiming its loss. "I am the farthest settler from the
town," he said, his voice and his face suffused with pride in those words.
"My father said that bandits would raid us, that wild boars would eat the
grain, that wolves would kill my children; but none of that happened. We were
too lonely even for those things. Certainly too lonely to guest many
travelers." He smiled at Cray. "But I have tried to keep the road
clear for any who might pass. I knew they would be grateful."
"Indeed
we are," said Cray. "And I hope that the fine soup we will make from
this rabbit will be some small recompense for your labors. Have you a pot, good
sir? One without porridge in it?"
"A
pot? Oh yes. A pot." He scrambled to his feet and ducked inside the hut to
return in a moment with the twin to the porridge container. "This will do,
won't it?"
"Admirably,"
said Cray, and he dumped bones and finely cut scraps into it, along with the
herbs that he had used to bait his net. The old man added onions and carrots
from his fields, salt from a small bag hung just inside the door of his hut,
and water from his well, and they set the pot on the fire to boil. Cray was
left with boneless rabbit steaks, which he wrapped in a cloth and stowed inside
one of his saddle bags; they would be safe there, hi case the old man had a dog
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two
about his place, in case there were weasels in the fields. Later, when the soup
was done, Cray would broil the meat over open flames, and all three of them
would share the evening meal.
When he
turned back to the fire, the old man still sat there, stirring it and musing on
the past, and Sepwin sat happily enough beside him, a green twig between his
teeth. Cray settled beside them, lying down on his back on the bare,
fire-warmed earth, arms behind bis head, and he looked up at the sky, where the
clouds had finally cleared away without loosing any rain at all.
"In
twenty years," the old man was saying, "I have had only four guests.
Others have passed on the road and, I suppose, found my hut too poor to stop
at; one even waved to me as he galloped by. He bore a blue standard in his
hand, and I always wondered where he came from, where he was going hi such a
hurry." He nodded, more to himself than to Cray or Sepwin. "Yes, some
few have passed, but only four have stopped. You are two." He counted them
off on the index and middle finger of his left hand. "And the other two—
they were here together, too, but not together, not companions like you. The
one came first. He was a pleasant young fellow. My wife liked him. She was
alive then, and some of the children were still here, the three younger ones, I
think. She wanted to know if I thought him handsome, I remember. Oh, quite
handsome, quite. And he chopped enough wood to last us the rest of the year.
The other came later. I never saw his face at all—he kept his visor down, just
shouted a challenge to the first. They fought on the road, right out in front
of the hut. I never found out exactly what it was they fought about. The second
one —he rode away right after it was finished, didn't say another word. I had
to bury the other one myself."
"They
were knights?" asked Cray.
"They
wore armor. I suppose they were knights. It was some private feud. I kept the
children away after the fighting began, though they wanted to watch. Two wild
men they were, with their swords in their hands, and I thought it would be easy
for a watcher to be killed."
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"Did
they use only swords?'*
"Yes,
swords. And shields. And a mighty racket they made, too, bashing metal against
metal. The loser's sword was all notched, and the edges of his shield were
bent. Every time I look at them, I wonder how a man's arms can stand all that
battering."
"You
have the shield and sword of the man who was killed?"
"Oh,
yes, yes." The old man bobbed his head. "I had his horse, too, to
pull my plow until it died. The winner, he just rode off, never saying a word,
leaving the dead body in the middle of the road. The bloodstains were there
until the next rain."
Cray
frowned. "He should have taken the shield, at least, to send to his
opponent's lord. That would have been only courtesy. They did seem to know each
other, did they not?"
"They
knew each other well, I thought. Certainly, there was no time for them to argue
before they met here and the fight began."
"It
was wrong to leave the arms behind them. And wrong not to bury the body as
well."
"Right
or wrong," said the old man, "I would not have stopped him to demand
either. He was a big man on a big horse, and his armor was black as pitch, with
no device, without a scratch upon it. He had never lost a fight, I knew that. I
let him go, and I thanked good fortune that he had no quarrel with me. My wife
cried when we buried the other. She said he was too young to die." He
shrugged, "Well, and so was she, and my eldest son. We all die, sooner or
later. I think on that when I look on their graves, and I wonder why I have
been spared so long. A grave is an excellent thing, to give a man pause in a
long day, to remind him to be grateful for the Uttle life given him. Don't you
think so?"
"I
don't know," said Cray. "I've never seen a grave." "Never
seen a grave?" The old man looked at him with bright, incredulous eyes.
"Where have you lived that no one dies, young sir?"
"I
have lived with my mother," said Cray. "Just the two of us, and I
have never known anyone who died."
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"But
graves . . . surely the graves of your ancestors were somewhere nearby."
"None
that I knew of, good sir." He did not mention that sorcerers, unless
killed considerably before the normal span of their long lives, merely crumbled
to dust and blew away at death. His grandmother, dead more than half a century,
was part of the forest soil, and when Cray was a child one of his fancies was
that she lived in every tree, in every herb, in every mushroom that sprouted
there. His mother spoke of her sometimes, and Cray knew what she looked like
from a tapestry that Delivev had woven before he was born.
Nor had
he ever seen a grave in the webs. Delivev had no interest in graveyards.
"You
may see a few this day then," said the old man. "And every one dug by
these hands." He held them up, and they were knobby with age but still
calloused. He rose. "Come. Come along."
Cray
shrugged and followed him, glancing back once at Sepwin, who stayed still by
the fire.
"I've
seen enough graves for my taste," said Sepwin, and he stirred the soup
with a clean stick.
Cray
and the old man walked through the untended field, wading through coarse grass
and grain gone wild that reached their waists and higher. Almost at the trees
on the far side, they emerged from the tangle to a small open space, where the
greenery was clipped short and scattered with wild flowers. Here were three
graves, neatly mounded hillocks of earth side by side. The first was marked by
a large stone cut into a rough slab, with symbols against evil incised deeply
in the weathered surface.
"My
eldest son," the old man said.
The
second grave had two stones at its head, one large, one small, with carvings in
proportion.
"My
wife is there," said the old man, pointing. "And the baby, too. I
thought she would not like to be separated from him."
But
Cray's eyes tracked quickly past the first two graves, to the third. Its marker
stone was rougher hewn than the others, rounded, more like an ordinary boulder.
And tilted against it, their lower parts buried,
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anchored
in the grass-grown earth, were a sword and shield. Both were rusty from long
exposure to the elements, and much of the shield's paint had weathered away,
but still there was enough left upon it that Cray could make out the bearings
of its owner: three red lances interlocked on a white field. He stood before
the grave and stared down at that shield, and the old man babbled behind him,
unheeded.
"It
is a moving experience, is it not?" the old man was saying when Cray could
hear his words once more. "I weep, too, every time I come to tend them. I
miss her, though she's been gone so long."
Cray
blinked and realized that his cheeks and lashes were wet with salty tears.
"His name," he said slowly, "was Mellor."
The old
man came close to him. "You knew the man? But this happened many years
ago, and you are very young."
"Fifteen
years ago."
"Fifteen?"
He rubbed at his bearded chin with one hand, then ticked off the years on those
fingers. "Perhaps fifteen,"'he said after some moments. "Or
fourteen. Since my last daughter left my house, I have not kept a careful count
of the passing years."
'*He
was bound south for Falconhill from the East March."
"He
was indeed! Bound for the hold of our very own lord with some business from the
East Marchl" Cray knelt by the grave and laid his hands upon it, as if
some essence could pass from the corpse resting within to himself. He felt only
grass beneath his palms, and the coarser texture of herbs scattered among the
shorter growth. He touched the shield, the sword, and flakes of rust came away
in his hand.
"He
was my father," Cray said, and he closed his eyes and curled his fingers
into the grave mound, into the rich black soil beneath the grass. Of a sudden,
the chain was heavy on his body, and he could not rise against its weight for a
long, long time.
Beside
him, Gildrum stood silent, his lips closed over toothless gums. He wanted to
touch the kneeling youth; he wanted to take him in his arms and hold him
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close,
but he held himself aloof instead, as a stranger would, leaving Cray alone in
grief over a lie.
The
demon had planned the simulated death well, thinking that Delivev would find
some way to track her lover when he did not return. The victorious foe, a
hulking knight in black armor, had been an illusion, the battle realistically
wild, the witnesses frightened flesh and blood. But Delivev had not traced her
lover, and hi the years that followed the event, the witnesses had trickled
away through marriage and death, until the hut lay abandoned, the fields
overgrown, the graves lost hi weeds and wild flowers.
Sitting
on the high stool in Rezhyk's workshop, Gil-drum had known that Cray was approaching
the place, following the innkeeper's directions. With little time to spare, she
had begun to voice a certain personal dissatisfaction to her master, a certain
discontent with her own accomplishments. The steel plates, she had said, would
be more easily translated if there were more of them, and so she offered to
return to Ushar and search onward. She hinted, even, that she could almost
guess where others might be found, and her arguments were so earnest and
persuasive that Rezhyk agreed and gave the command she sought.
Gildrum
had not lied to its master—the demon fully intended to return to Ushar, and it
did have a notion of where to search next. But knowing that it would not be
expected back at Ringforge soon, it went elsewhere first. It transformed the
abandoned homestead into a place where an elderly man might live, for Rezhyfc
had given his servant that form once. If repaired the hut and cleared a patch
around the structure, trimmed the sides of the road and tended the graves. Then
it caused Cray's horse to go lame. If Cray had not stopped at the hut of his
own volition, Gildrum would have contrived to go out into the road after him,
Cray
stood up at last, and he gathered the shield and sword in his arms, wrenching
them from the earth that anchored them. "These belong to me now," he
said.
"I
understand, young sir," said Gildrum. "It is only right that his kin
should know what became of him.**
Ill
And to
himself, he said, Tell her, my son. Tell her, and both of you will be free of
someone who never existed. He watched "Cray walk stiffly through the tall
wild grain, toward the hut, and before he followed he allowed himself to sigh
so quietly that the youth could not hear. But I, he thought, / shall never be
free of you.
"Master
Feldar," Cray called hoarsely, "we shall not be going to Falconhill
after all."
She
knew something was wrong when she stepped past the threshold of the chamber
where the tapestry wove itself.. The whole room was dun, as if curtains of
thick gauze veiled the bare windows, and the air was a heavy miasma that seemed
to roll into the lungs like syrup. A thousand terrible thoughts filled her
brain as she crossed the floor, images of Cray lying broken in some foreign
land, robbed, tortured, dead. Even as she touched the cloth, tears were
streaming from her eyes, and she could hear the blood of fear rushing in her
ears. As her fingers met the threads, the shock of grief invaded her flesh,
rising in her arms like poison from a snakebite. She shivered with ague and
fell to the floor, powerless to move, her hands still clutching the cloth. She
scarcely needed to see the bearings that the tapestry had pictured, the lances
interlocked; she knew her son too well to doubt the source of that emotion. The
knowledge she had never wanted was hers now, and the pain that it brought was
fiercer by far than any she had ever known in so many years of uncertainty. She
keened, harshly, brokenly, until her throat was afire, and even then she did
not cease.
Slowly,
her creatures joined her, the spiders and snakes creeping close to her
prostrate form, the vines sliding in the window, the birds lighting on her
shoulders and hips to peck at the feathers of her clothing, at her hair, her
ears. Only the pony did not come, locked in its stall near the garden, but it
sensed the pall that flowed from that room, and it whinnied its uneasiness.
After a long time, she heard it, and she rose, heavy with the age she had never
felt before, and went out to comfort it.
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CHAPTER SEVEN
When he
saw her in the web, Cray perceived some change in his mother. The soft, pale
plumage she had always favored for her garments had been replaced by glossy
raven feathers, and in contrast her skin seemed ashen. She sat too still and
straight upon the velvet coverlet, only her fingers moving, the slender needles
poised in their grasp twitching rhythmically upon some half-completed knitting.
She did not smile, not even the sad smile that he knew so well, and there were
dark circles beneath her eyes, as if she had been awake far too long.
"I
know what you found, my son," she said. "You need not speak the
words. What will you do now?"
"I'll
go to the East March, Mother. He swore fealty to its lord, and I shall do the
same. Surely they will accept his son."
"I
don't know what ordinary mortals will accept," she said.
"Well,
there's no point in going on to Falconhill now."
"No.
No point. But the East March is far."
"Other
places are farther."
She
looked down at her knitting. "I suppose it is your proper destination
now."
"I
don't know of another."
"You
can stop at home on your way. Rest. Replenish yourself. I can think of a few
favorite foods you can't have tasted in quite some time. I'll even welcome your
friend, if he's still with you by then."
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Cray
shook his head. 'Tm not coming home, Mother. I'll take a different route."
She
looked up at him. "Another route? But any other route would be
longer."
"Once
at home," he said, "it would be very hard to leave again. Even if you
didn't cook any of my favorite foods." He smiled, hoping the expression
would prompt an answer from her lips, but it did not. "I know you
understand, Mother."
She
lowered her eyes once more. "I understand. Do you plan to pass north or
south of Spinweb?"
"South,
I think. We have come some distance south already, and we can strike directly
east from here."
"To
the south, where the forest thins, there is a great swamp. Both men and roads
have entered and never emerged. You must detour far around it, unless you have
an excellent map."
"I
have no map at all," said Cray. "I was hoping that you could provide
me with one."
"I
am no mapmaker," she said.
"Perhaps
not, but I'd guess you know one."
Her
fingers paused, stilling the needles. "Human roads and settlements have
little interest for a sorcerer. And demons need no maps."
"A
demon of the air could easily make a map,** said Cray. "What of the
sorcerer who sent Gallant for me? He has many such demons, and he has dealt
fairly with you before."
"He
has. But he does no favors. He would have to be paid."
"Give
him something that belongs to me, then. Tapestries from my room, the rug, the
coverlet. I don't care."
"You
don*t care," she murmured. "Because you'll not be using any of it
again.**
"Please,
Mother. Do this for me." He reached out toward her with an open, pleading
hand.
She
sighed heavily. "Of course. Have I ever denied you anything?**
"Thank
you, Mother.*'
"Stay
where you are a day or two. The map shall come to you." Her image faded
away, and the web
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became
just a web strung between two bushes, bellying gently in the morning breeze.
Cray
fumed to Sepwin. "I have hurt her terribly," he said. "After so
many years, she was still hoping that he might be alive."
"As
you were," replied Sepwin.
Cray
nodded. "At the very least, I never expected the trail to be so
short."
Sepwin
shrugged. "He was young, and youth usually means inexperience. He was
pitted against a better man. And an angrier one, if we can believe the old
man's tale."
Cray
glanced down the road. They were some hours* travel from the hut, from the
grave, and they had passed two other homesteads, both abandoned and overgrown
with weeds, before stopping in a grove of trees. He had not wanted to speak to
his mother where the old man might overhear, and then he had not found the heart
to set his spiders spinning until the hot morning sun had burned some of the
tears from his eyes. The corroded shield hung on Gallant's saddle behind his
own, and the sword was wrapped in a linen shirt and thrust into one of the
saddlebags; he could not look at his father's arms without feeling his heart
tighten in his breast.
"He
was young," Cray said at last. "Even by mortal standards."
"Not
younger than you are, though, I'll warrant."
"Than
I? No. But he was a knight, of course. If I started my training tomorrow, it
would be years before I could be knighted."
"To
me, Master Cray, you are already a knight. And a better one than most."
"Nonsense,
Master Feldar. How many knights have you known?"
"I
have never known one before, but I have encountered them a-plenty, thank you.
Big, fierce men, without a care for anything but themselves. I once saw one
trample a small child that happened to be playing hi the road. He just rode
over it, as if it had been a weed."
"He
must not have seen it. Those visors, you know —sometimes they obscure the
vision enormously."
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"He
saw it. But he didn't care. The mother cared, though. She screamed loud enough.
But he rode on."
"Well,
I suppose there must be evil knights as well as good ones, as there are of
other men. You must not judge them all by the actions of a few. In the webs I
have seen them courteous and kind, helping ladies with their knitting, playing
with children, laughing, joking. The oath of knighthood demands that they be
good and true to their friends. In battle, of course, to=-ward their enemies,
that is something quite different.'*
"Where
did you see these knights?" Sepwin wondered.
"As
I told you... in the webs.*'
"No,
I mean where were they?"
"In
various castles. Perhaps a dozen hi all. So you see, I have seen a goodly
number of knights."
"Well,
I have never been in a castle, Master Cray. I only know the knights who have
passed me on the road or in villages. Perhaps they are as you say among their
own. A man would hardly do evil to the lady or children of his host, or to the
man who might guard his back in battle. But among the peasants, among the
people who are of no consequence, these knights are not so kind and courteous.
I will not go so far as to say they are evil, no. But they are selfish and
uncaring, and we who do not belong hi castles, hi fine clothes and jewels, we
do not matter to them an eye blink,"
"They
protect you," said Cray.
"They
protect themselves. We work the land to make them rich. Well... my father does.
He pays his taxes promptly each year. I am not in a position to make anyone
rich. Perhaps that is why they spit on me. A beggar pays no taxes. He is worth
less than the poorest peasant."
Cray
said, "You have had some bad experiences, Master Feldar. You see the world
in a twisted way."
"Ah,
no, Master Cray. It is you that sees the world twisted. The webs have limited
your vision to the best side of these men, and you know nothing of the rest.*'
"You
are wrong, Master Feldar," said Cray. "I know that evil exists in
them; I do not delude myself on that score. The webs have shown me ugly things
as
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well as
beautiful—theft and betrayal and even murder. Yes, murder. Still, I don't
believe that every knight would ride down a child playing hi the road. Perhaps
if you did not have eyes of two different colors, you would see a more balanced
version of the world."
Sepwin
fingered the kerchief which had served as an eye patch; he had worn it about
his throat since they had left the old man behind. "Perhaps because I have
eyes of two different colors, I have seen things that you have not."
"I
don't doubt it. Fear, I'm sure, is a potent force for evil."
"I
am fortunate, then," Sepwin said, a slow grin curving his mouth,
"that you have no fear." He touched the shoulder of his shirt, one of
Cray's clean linen shirts. His trews, too, were Cray's. His old clothes, save
for the worn cloak and sandals, had been thrown away; as predicted, they had
not survived washing.
Cray
folded his arms across his chest. "I have fears, Master Feldar, but I
don't fear nonsense. And I don't fear magic, as you should not."
"It's
easy to fear what one doesn't understand," said Sepwin.
Cray
gestured up at the sky. "Do you fear the sun because you don't understand
what keeps it aloft? Do you fear clouds, rain, the moon and stars?"
"But
these are natural things," said Sepwin.
"As
is magic."
"Not
to me. I know that the sun will rise in the east and set in the west, and the
moon and stars, too. I know that clouds float across the sky and sometimes
loose rain, which falls down and makes me wet. But magic..."
"Magic
is a tool," said Cray. "Like fire. Human beings make fire serve them,
and they do the same with magic. One must treat the sorcerer with respect, as
one would a man with a blazing torch in his hands. Each is hi a position to do
harm, but neither will attack the innocent." He frowned slightly, then
added, "Unless, of course, he is mad."
"Of
course," echoed Sepwin. "Tell me, Master Cray .,. are there many mad
sorcerers about in the world?1'
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"I've
heard of one or two."
"Only
one or two?"
"How
many would you expect? How many mad ordinary mortals do you know of?"
"Quite
a few, Master Cray. Quite a few. There was a whole village went mad some years
back, joined hands and went dancing across the countryside, every man, woman,
and child. Except the youngest, who stayed behind in their cradles."
"What
happened to them?"
"The
babies? They starved, for their parents never came back."
"And
the others?"
"They
danced till they dropped," said Sepwin. "It took days, and whether it
was hunger, thirst, or exhaustion that finally ended them all, I don't know.
There's a road south of here lined with their graves— the local inhabitants
buried each dancer where he or she died and marked their headstones with a sign
to ward off evil. They said it was sorcery."
Cray
shook his head slowly. "I don't know. I don't know what sort of magic
could do that."
"There
was an old woman they offended," said Sepwin. "She passed through
their village and no one would give her hospitality because she was so very
ugly. It's said that she laid a curse on them."
"Who
said it?"
"Who?"
Sepwin pursed his lips. "Well ... I don't know. Someone from the village,
I suppose, before he died. I heard the tale from a blacksmith."
"You
never saw any of the dancers?"
"No,
it happened a long time ago. Maybe before I was born."
Cray
raised one eyebrow. "Are you sure it happened?"
"Well...
no. But what reason would the blacksmith have to lie to me?"
"I
have no idea. Perhaps he was merely passing on a diverting tale he'd heard from
someone else. Do you always believe everything that people tell you, no matter
how outlandish?"
"I
don't know what is outlandish, Master Cray. I've
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seen
things on my journey with you that I would have thought outlandish before we
met."
Cray
inclined his head. "True enough, Master Feldar. I should not belittle your
gullibility. I'm sure I could show you more marvels yet. Though nothing as
wonderful as making a whole village dance." He rubbed at the side of his nose
with an index finger. "Perhaps ... if there were vermin in their clothes,
biting them constantly, they might appear to be dancing ... or flying insects
buzzing around them, stinging them . . . But if the old woman were truly one of
the sorcerous breed, she would hardly need their hospitality, she would be
quite capable of looking after her own requirements. I wonder what they really
did to her."
"You
see," said Sepwin, "you accept it as magic."
"I
accept it as a strange puzzle," Cray replied, "that may or may not
have some basis in fact."
"Some
basis, I think, or I wouldn't know so many similar stories."
"Of
whole villages going mad?"
"Not
quite that, no, but I know of crops that failed for no reason, wives and
children who disappeared, homes that burned when there was no flame to touch
them off—oh, we beggars pick up stories in our travels."
"I
look forward to hearing them all," said Cray. "The road to the East
March is a long one."
"Did
your mother never tell you such stories when you were a child? Mine did."
"No,
my mother's stories dealt with the natural world, with animals and plants and
rivers and mountains. They didn't often include people or the things that
concern people."
"Then
you will have a few tales to tell me on our journey, too," said Sepwin.
"Though I suspect we witl run out of stories before we reach our
destination."
"I
am grateful for your companionship, Master Feldar."
Sepwin
shrugged. "Falconhill or East March—it makes no difference to me where I
go. But ... do you think the second knight could have been from the East
March?"
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"What?
And followed my father all that way? I doubt it greatly. If it were true, he
would have been waiting outside Spinweb, surely, when my father left; he was
inside quite long enough for anyone to catch up with him."
"Not
if the pursuer left the East March much, much later than he."
"Are
you seeking some danger at the East March, Master Feldar?"
"I
am only being cautious."
"Well,
I respect your caution," Cray said, "but I think it is misplaced in
this instance. My own feeling is that my father and this other knight had some
quarrel earlier upon the road. Perhaps they even clashed then, and the fight
was indecisive. Perhaps the other knight was dazed, or perhaps he pretended to
give over the fight and go another way and then, when my father arrived at the
old man's hut, his enemy rushed after him, to surprise him."
"You
spin a fine tale, Master Cray."
"Do
I?" Cray sighed. "Well, I confess, it is only a tale, I won't try to
make myself think otherwise. But it makes neither more nor less sense than an
old enemy come from the East March to settle an old quarrel. Why journey so far
from home to kill a man? And if the East March were not the other knight's home
. . . then, Master Feldar, we have nothing to fear by going there and claiming
my father's place."
"Perhaps
he didn't want word of the deed to get back to the East March ..."
"And
if that is the case, and he is there, he won't dare to expose himself, and we
will still be safe."
"Until
you win your knighthood and leave on some quest..."
Cray
half-turned fcway from him, arms akimbo. "All right, Master Feldar, we
will be careful. With you to remind me of such dangers, I'll be jumping at
every shadow in the East March. And I don't even know who he is."
"He
wore black armor, you know that."
"With
no device on his shield. That was a disguise, Fm sure. But if I should happen
to encounter a black knight, I'll certainly be wary."
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"You'll
kill him, won*t you?" asked Sepwin.
"I
think he'd be more likely, just now, to kill me," replied Cray.
"He's
fifteen years older."
"And
fifteen years cannier. Don't let our little adventure at the village give you
an exaggerated notion of my knightly prowess. I'd be no match for a real
knight. I don't intend to throw my life away fox vengeance."
"It's
a better motive than some I could think of."
Cray
gazed at him sidelong. "It wouldn't bring my father back."
Sepwin
stared down at the ground. "I don't suppose there's any magical way
..." he murmured.
"He's
dead. Nothing can change that. Not even sorcery."
"I'm
sorry, Cray. Truly I am.**
Cray
made no reply, only stood still and looked past Sepwin, at his horse, at the
shield, half hidden behind his own; and the silence that had suddenly descended
between the would-be knight and the former beggar stretched and stretched until
it was broken by a powerful blast of wind.
**What*s
happening?" cried Sepwin, and he stumbled sideways, clutching at the
branches of the nearest tree to keep from being knocked over.
"The
map!" shouted Cray, and his voice could hardly be heard above the roaring
that bad risen from nowhere. Tree limbs swayed around him, branches dipping and
crackling in the blow, leaves rattling wildly. Dust from the road kicked up,
whipping against his skin like shards of glass, and he covered his eyes and
nose and mouth against them with both hands.
The
branch that Sepwin grasped broke with a loud snap, and he fell, rolling, till
he fetched up against a tree trunk, and he huddled there, white-knuckled hands
scrabbling for purchase on the rough bark.
**You
wouldn't do this if my mother were here!" Cray shouted to no one visible,
and then he was pushed against a tree and pinned there by empty air while
leaves slapped him like so many hands.
Abruptly
as it had begun, the wind ceased, and in
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its
wake floated light laughter, receding, ever receding into the dim distance.
At
Cray's feet lay a roll of parchment. He bent to pick it up, to unroll it
carefully. "The map,'* he said, turning it so that Sepwin could see their
route laid out on the pale surface.
Sepwin
was rising gingerly to his feet. He said, "Is it over?"
"I
should think so. Look here—an excellent map."
"I
... I think I'll bathe my hands first. They're pretty badly scraped.** He edged
to where the horses stood, his eyes never ceasing their search to one side and
another, as if he thought he would see another wind coming. The horses stood
unconcerned where they had been tied, not a hair of their manes or tails
disheveled. "I wish I could be as calm as these two,** said Sepwin,
reaching for a water flask.
"They
were beyond the range of the effect," said Cray. He sat on the ground now,
the parchment spread across his knees as he studied it
"Effect?"
"The
demon's effect." Cray looked up at him. "That was an ait demon. It
was just having some fun with us."
"My
hands don't think it was fun.**
Cray
tossed the parchment aside immediately and strode to where Sepwin was fumbling
with the water. "Let me see." He scrutinized his companion's palms,
found them abraded and bloody. "You shouldn't have tried to hold on to
anything."
"Should
I have let myself be blown away?**
"You
wouldn't have gone far." He pulled the kerchief from Sepwin's neck and,
wetting it, dabbed a{ the wounds, which were superficial and soon stopped
bleeding.
"Next
time you expect something like that,'* said Sepwin, "please warn me.
Remember, I'm not as accustomed to magic as you are.**
"I
didn't expect such a playful demon.**
"Playful?"
"We're
neither of us really injured, so that was play. Air demons can be rough, but
it's all innocent enough, if you're not an enemy. Be glad it wasn't a fire
demon
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—one
visited my mother's castle once, and when it left, all the leaves within ten
paces of where it had stood were singed. She had a word with its master for
that, I'll tell you.'*
"Dangerous
creatures, these demons."
"They
have moods."
"Like
human beings,** said Sepwin.
"You
might say that. Now come here and look at the map." He spread it out upon
the grass and pointed with an index finger to a meandering line on the left
side of the sheet. "This is the road we're on now. Here we are, you see,
there's my name, and two horses to show both of us. The road goes south to
FalconhiU, down here, you see?"
"Certainly
looks like a castle to me. I suppose those symbols say Falconhill."
"Yes."
He looked at Sepwin sharply. "You can*t read?"
"Not
many people can, Master Cray. You don't need letters for farming."
"Hmm.
Well, yes, that says Falconhill. Now, before then, you see there's a road
crosses this one, and its eastward branch passes through the swamp and
eventually meets another road here that veers northeast to our
destination."
Sepwin's
eyes tracked the route that Cray's ringer had indicated. "How far would
you say that is, Master Cray?"
"WcBl...
judging from the distance to my mother's castle from where we are now ... if
the map is to scale... I'd say three months and more."
"Summer
will be gone by the time we arrive."
"Nearly,
yes."
"It
might be a good place to winter, the East March."
"It
might," said Cray. "Warm and dry, at any rate."
Sepwin
peered at the parchment. "Where is youi mother's castle?"
Cray
smiled slightly. "You will not find it marked on any map. Sorcerers do not
reveal their homes so. And I have no need of a map to find the place where I
was born."
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"I
didn't mean to pry," said Sepwin. "I was only curious."
Cray
clapped him on the back. "I understand, Master Sepwin. Now shall we find
ourselves some lunch and then get on with our journey while the sky is still
light?"
"By
all means," replied his friend. "All this talk of traveling has given
me a considerable appetite."
Eastward
they rode, through the hot days of summer, and every cultivated field they
passed bore grain stalks taller than the last. Some days it rained, and they
sheltered with peasants, returning labor for hospitality, chopping wood or
milking goats; or, if no humans lived nearby, Cray fashioned a lean-to of leafy
branches woven so tightly together that the wet could not penetrate. On those
rainy days in the lean-to, they played games with pebbles Cray had gathered,
games ranging from the simplest of children's diversions to the most complex
contests of strategy that Delivev had ever taught her son. Sepwin proved an apt
pupil, and soon he and Cray were so evenly matched that one game could
encompass an entire rainstorm. And sometimes the two players remained hunched
over the pieces long after the rain had done.
"So
this is how sorcerers amuse themselves when they don't feel like moving
mountains," said Sepwin one gloomy afternoon.
"Not
sorcerers, Master Feldar," said Cray. "Kings and queens. I have seen
them in the webs, and learned some of my own strategy from them. Sometimes they
even wager on the outcome."
"Well,
I think I shall pass that opportunity, unless you'll accept a few leaves as a
decent wager."
Cray
laughed. "I've no doubt we'll see such wagering at the East March castle.
My mother said it was a great holding, and I have noticed that the great
holdings are always wealthy places indeed." He weighed a pebble in his
hand before adding it to a half-finished pattern. "I think I'm a rather
good player; I might be tempted. I have a little silver.*'
"You
might have less after such wagering."
"I
used to win sweets from my mother."
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"And
what did you offer on your side of the wager?" asked Sepwin.
"Kisses."
Sepwin
laughed then. "Didn't you like kissing youi mother?"
"Oh,
I liked it very much. Sometimes I kissed her even if I won. Have you ever made
a wager, Master Feldar?"
"Only
once. I lost. I had to spread manure on the fields for days afterward. I have
had no great desire to wager since then."
"But
you play quite well."
"So
you say, Master Cray. But perhaps if I played someone else, I would learn
otherwise."
They
passed through several villages and then, at the very edge of the great swamp,
through a market town. At midafternoon, the market was bustling, men and women
hawking everything from pigs to pots, cloth to cough remedies, and everywhere
they offered the flapping, clip-winged waterfowl of the swamp. Cray and Sepwin
stopped to buy a little wine to cheer their journey, but not the birds, which
Cray thought he would be able to net easily enough once they were inside the
swamp. As they stood sipping their first measure of wine, a vendor approached
them, a bolt of fine, white gauze slung over his shoulder.
"Netting,"
he chanted. "Netting for the night, netting for travelers sleeping under
the stars. Netting." He measured Cray and Sepwin with a glance. "I
have enough here for a fine tent, young sirs, for you and your horses. Only two
silver pieces."
Cray
waved him away. "We've no need of a tent."
"If
you plan to sleep in the open anywhere near this market, you'll need one. And
after sunset, there won't be anyplace to buy it."
"Why
not?"
**Because
we all go to bed at sunset, when the insects come out," he said, "and
we won't come out from behind our nets just to keep strangers from being
bitten."
"Bitten?
Well, what are a few insect bites? I've had my share."
"A
few, young sir?" He smiled and wagged his head.
12*
"They
rise from the swamp by night, in their millions, hungry for blood. Why ... a
man was found dead in the swamp only last month. Stayed out past dark, hunting
birds. He didn't take any netting at all, poo'r fellow. His wife said he must
have gotten lost." He lifted the bundle of gauze from his shoulder and
held it out to Cray. "You'd best buy, young sir, or else ride west past
the hills to be safe; they don't fly that far."
"We
came from those hills this morning," said Cray, "so we know they
don't fly that far. Now we are east-bound, but we won't need your netting,
thank you."
"If
you're taking the road into the swamp, you will surely need it."
"Again,
I thank you, but we won't need it." "Reconsider, young sir! The
biting will drive your horses mad! And if you should escape the swamp before
succumbing, the ride to the hills would be a long and terrible one. Or *he
walk! If your horses should bolt from their agony and leave you behind ... I
Reconsider, I beg you!"
Cray
drained his wine cup, and set it on the counter of the wine stall. He bowed
formally to the vendor and said, "Good day to you, sir," then walked
away. Sepwin scuttled after.
At the
horses, as Cray was preparing to mount, Sepwin whispered, "Don't you
believe him?" "About the man found dead in the swamp?** "Well,
yes, that and the insects." Cray swung into the saddle. "There may
have been a man found dead in the swamp, though possibly not from insect bites.
I'm sure there are any number of deadly things in the swamp.'* "And we are
going into the swamp?" "The road crosses it. We can, too."
Sepwin looked up at him anxiously. "Master Cray, I fear my heart fails me.
At least . . . buy some netting!"
Cray
stared down at his companion. "Do you really believe I need some of his
netting to keep me safe?*' "But... what about me?"
"Master
Feldar, you know that spiders eat insects." "Y-yes." "Then
why are you worrying? Get oh your horse."
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After
one more moment's hesitation, Sepwin mounted, and his horse followed Gallant's
easy pace out of the market, eastward.
There
was no obvious dividing line between the ordinary land and the swamp. The
cultivated fields about the market gave way to a wild growth of grass pocked by
occasional trees, and finally wet patches appeared, sparkling in the sunlight,
ponds choked by cattails, streamlets sluggishly winding. The road turned muddy;
in some places it disappeared entirely, drowned, only to reappear a few paces
farther on. For a time, the way was well churned by hooves and the feet of
human beings, but the longer they rode the less traveled the path became, until
there were no marks at all of anyone else's recent passage.
"You're
sure this road goes all the way through the swamp?" said Sepwin. "The
map shows it so.**
"You're
sure the mapmaker was telling the truth when he drew that? He wasn't just . . .
being playful?" "My mother is following my course, Master Feldar. If
anything happens to me while I use this map, the sorcerer who had it made will
be the first target of her anger." He looked down at Sepwin from the
vantage of Gallant's height. "My mother would be a very dangerous person,
angry. He would not dare to give her or her son anything but an accurate map.'*
"I
am reassured," said Sepwin. "Now we only have io worry about the
insects."
"Come,"
said Cray. "It's late enough to stop for the night already, and our
sleeping preparations will take a little longer than usual." "Will
they?" asked Sepwin. "You'll see."
They
dismounted where a large tree overhung the road and the ground was reasonably
dry, and Cray tethered the horses there. He climbed the tree then, and cracked
the first broad bough so that it dipped to the ground while still partially
attached to the trunk, forming a support for a lean-to large enough for two
young men and their horses. He climbed higher after that, to break off leafy
branches for the walls, and back on the ground he wove them together half
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by
magic and half by the dexterity of his hands. Wefl before sunset he had completed
the latticework structure and led the horses inside through an opening barely
large enough to admit them. His final task was to plait a door for that
aperture, and when that was ready to set in place, he turned to Sepwin with a
smile. "Will you step inside, Master Feldar?" Sepwin eyed the lean-to
uncertainly. "I know excellently well that this will keep the rain Off,
but. . . what spell have you woven into it to keep the insects away?"
"None,"
said Cray.
"I
shall smother if I must sleep wrapped in my cloak from head to toe," said
Sepwin.
"You
shall not smother. Enter. The sky is fading."
With a
last furtive glance at the setting sun, Sepwin obeyed.
Inside,
Cray set the door securely in place, then laid both of his hands against it and
dosed his eyes. From his sleeves, the spiders scuttled, more than a score of
them, all colors and sizes. They swarmed over the branches and immediately
began spuming. Slowly, a fine net, layer upon layer of silk, spread over the
walls and floor until a gray cocoon surrounded Cray and Sepwin and the horses.
Gallant was not disturbed by the spuming, but Sepwin's horse swayed nervously
from foot to foot, and its master had to soothe it until the last rays of
sunlight had ceased filtering through the gray curtain and it could no longer
see the moving spiders.
"I've
slept hi rooms this small," said Sepwin, "but never before with such
a feeling of imprisonment." He laughed nervously. "But of course,
this is hardly a prison; I could tear these walls apart with my hands, after
all."
"Not
these walls," said Cray. "No?"
"Not
even the horses could break down these walls, Master Feldar."
"I
see." He was silent a moment, in the darkness, then he said, "What if
I wanted to get out?"
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"And
face the insects? I can hear them humming already. Listen."
The
sound was soft, but increasing, a high-pitched buzz rising all about them, and
once more Sepwin's horse shifted uneasily and had to be soothed.
"Well,
I don't want to go out now, of course," said Sepwin, "but just for
the sake of argument, if I wanted for some reason to go out, how would I do
it?"
"I
thought you weren't afraid of spiders, Master Feldar. Or have you decided
you're afraid of me?'*
"Oh,
no ... but if something should happen to you. To be quite blunt, Master Cray, I
don't fancy being locked in here forever."
Cray
laughed. "Always worrying, Master Feldar. Well, let me assure you that
even magic webs don't last forever. Especially my magic, which is of a very
inferior kind. It would fall apart within a few days, and you would emerge none
the worse except for a bit of hunger." He yawned. "But I don't plan
to die or desert you right now, so why don't you go to sleep? We'll want an
early start in the morning. I don't want to spend more time than absolutely
necessary in this swamp."
In the
morning, he gathered the spiders into his sleeves, and the webs broke apart at
bis touch, like any spiderwebs, letting the companions out into the sunshine.
After a quick breakfast, they rode on. Deeper in the swamp, there were ever
fewer trees and more coarse grass, more open water, and ever more waterfowl;
about noon Cray netted a brace of ducks and hung them from his saddle for
later. Shortly after that, the companions found themselves facing a wide sheet
of water. They could see the road continuing on the far side, but on the near
it ended at a pair of wooden posts.
"So
much for the accuracy of the map," said Sepwin.
Cray
dismounted to examine the wood, to pick at it with his fingers. "There was
a bridge here. A fairly old bridge. I'd like to think that it washed away since
the map was made."
"If
there was a bridge," said Sepwin, "then the water is too deep to
wade."
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"I
would presume so. We'll have to swim it." "Swim? I don't know how to
swim." "Neither do I, but the horses probably do."
"Probablyr
"It
should be easy. The current looks slow enough. You won't be swept away. Just
hang on tight." "Not I," said Sepwin. "Don't be
afraid." "Easy for you to say.**
Cray
shook bis head. "Have we come all this way to balk at a little
water?" "Can't we go around it?"
"If
there had been an easy route around it, the road would go that way instead of
crossing. Come along now. Or shall I leave you here to face the insects alone
tonight?"
Sepwin
stared at the water. "I'm really frightened.* Master Cray. We don't know
how deep the water is." Cray looked all around. "I would build a raft
for us," he said, "but there aren't enough trees around here."
He rubbed at his cheek with one finger, frown-nig, and finally he said,
"There may be another way, Master Feldar. A way you won't have to get wet.
It you'll trust me." "What way?"
"My
mother could build us a raft of snakes. There must be enough snakes in these
waters for that."
"Snakes?"
He leaned forward on his horse's neck and peered at the water. "I haven't
seen any snakes yet, have you?"
"A
few." He grinned. "But don't worry about that No snake will harm you
as long as you're with me." "You control snakes as well as
spiders?" "No, nothing like that They just stay away from me unless I
call them. Another trick my mother taught me, useful to a child growing up in a
castle full of snakes."
"Your
castle is full of snakes?** "Oh, yes, and spiders, too.**
"Then
I'm glad we didn't stop there," said Sepwio.
"You
would soon grow accustomed to it, Master
Feldar.
Now, what do you say to a raft of snakes?
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I fear
your horse will have to swim, though; snakes might be too much for her."
"We'll
both swim," Sepwin said firmly.
"You're
sure?"
"Let's
do it already!'*
Cray
nodded, mounted, and guided Gallant into the stream. The water rose swiftly to
the horse's knees, its chest, its neck, and then the sudden fluid motion of its
limbs indicated to Cray that it was swimming. In midstream, Cray glanced back,
saw Sepwin still on the bank. "Come along!" he called.
Clinging
to his mount's neck with both arms, Sepwin spurred it into the river with a
kick.
Gallant
was already climbing the opposite bank when Cray realized that he should have
taken his chain mail off before making the crossing, at least the leg
harnesses, for they, like everything else he wore below the hips, were now very
wet. He dismounted immediately, stripped off his surcoat and the leg sections
of his chain and wrapped the wet metal in the dry cloth. While he was doing
this, Sepwin emerged from the river and slipped off his horse to sit wearily on
the ground. He watched Cray handle the chinking metal.
"I
have never seen you take that off before," he said. "Do you really
wear it all the time?"
"As
often as I can." He unsheathed his sword then, and dried it on a patch of
grass, leaving the scabbard propped upside down, dripping.
"You
know ... if you had fallen off your horse, it would have dragged you straight
to the bottom."
"I
doubt that. It's not really so heavy.**
"Steel?
Not heavy?**
Tin
accustomed to it."
Sepwin
wriggled his shoulders. Tm glad I don't want to be a knight. Too much weight
for me.**
"Far
too much,** said Cray, "for such a skinny frame. It's handy stuff, though,
if someone goes at you with a blade."
"Well,
I promise not to do that, so you can take ft off if you like."
Cray
shook his head. "One can never tell when it might be needed. Some enemies
don't give warning of their attacks. In the village, for example, if I hadn't
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been
wearing my chain, if someone had gone after you with a blade instead of bare
hands . . . where would we be? My Gallant would be pulling a plow, and you and
I would be fertilizer for the crops. Thank you, but I'll continue to wear my
chain. Truth to tell, I'd feel strange without the shirt at least."
"Not comfortable for sleeping, is it?" "The quilting beneath
keeps it from annoying me.** "Hot in the summer sun, I'U warrant."
"Sometimes."
"I
was thinking about last night's shelter... couldn't you have your spiders spin
a suit of chain that would be just as strong as steel but far lighter?'* Cray
smiled. "I suppose I could, though it would have to be spun fresh every
few days as the spell wore away. And I'm not sure I could find a lord to accept
the service of a man who wore magical armor. I have seen how little ordinary
mortals care for being near the sorcerous breed, and I think I would do better
to keep that part of my heritage a secret."
"You'll
have to get rid of those spiders, then." Cray lifted one of his arms to
inspect the score of tiny bodies that clung to its inner surface, hiding
themselves among the links of chain. "Perhaps," he said. "But
for now, and until my future has some pattern to it, 111 keep them. They still
disturb you?"
"Somewhat.
But as long as they don't crawl over me, I can stand them."
"You'd
hardly feel them. They won't bite you unless I order it. Not like lice."
"I haven't any lice!"
"I
presume not, since I haven't seen you scratch." He clapped Sepwin on one
shoulder. "Come along now, let's ride on. You've recovered from your
swim." "I'm still wet."
**WelI,
so am I. The sun will dry us." "Will there be any other rivers to
cross?" Cray unrolled the map, which he^had been wearing like a huge and
unwieldy pendant on a thong about his neck. '"The swamp is swampy,"
he said, peering at the parchment. 'This is the only major river, but there's a
lot of water still ahead of us. But the road is shown as unbroken all the way
to the other side." He
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grinned
at his companion. "And we can always turn back if it becomes
impassable."
Sepwin
grimaced. "If we turn back, I might take you up on that raft idea."
He pulled himself up onto his horse. "I'm ready."
The sun
soon dried their wet clothing, and Cray was able to slip the chain harnesses
back into place over the quilting on his legs. His saddlebags, made of oiled
leather., had scarcely been penetrated by their brief exposure to the river,
and so the rest of his gear was virtually dry. The two ducks hanging from his
saddle had shed water as if they were alive. Late in the afternoon, Cray and
Sepwin stopped to build a fire and enjoy the birds for their evening meal.
"No
trees this time," said Sepwin, looking around nervously. "Shouldn't
we keep going until we find one for our shelter?"
"I
don't think we will,'* replied Cray. "I haven't seen a tree in a good
while, except for a couple growing right out of the water, and I won't spend my
night bailing out the tent, thank you."
"What
will we do then?"
"We
don't need a tree, though it would make things simpler." He tossed the
last of the duck bones aside, stood up, and walked over to where Gallant,
tethered to a low bush, was peacefully cropping the coarse swamp grass. The
animal nickered softly at his approach, and he stroked its neck and face,
crooning softly. Then he dipped into one of the saddlebags and found a
kerchief. He folded it into a bandage and tied it over Gallant's face as a
blindfold. "Use that eye patch that you don't need here in the
swamp," he said to Sepwin, "and do as I am doing to your own
mount"
Sepwin
obeyed, and while he stood by his blindfolded horse, he watched Cray climb into
his own saddle and lean forward, stretching both arms out over Gallant's head.
Spiders crept from his sleeves then and spun then: strands, anchoring at their
master's limbs and leaping to the ground on either side of Gallant's unseeing
eyes, playing thread from their descending bodies. Soon two parallel sets of
ribbons had formed from Cray's arms, and the spiders had begun to climb
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back
up, swiftly weaving cross strands till the webwork was nigh opaque. Cray peeled
the web from himself then, letting it settle upon Gallant's head, and he eased
backward hi the saddle. The spiders followed his movements, spuming from the
saddle now and returning to his arms when sheets of webbing hung from that.
Cray guided the final webwork to fall upon his horse's rump and then he slipped
off over the tail. Gallant stood still, covered with a close-fitting tent of
spidersilk.
"Your
horse's turn now,** said Cray, and he mounted that animal.
"Must
you sit there and let them spin all over you?" asked Sepwin. "Can't
they just spin directly on the horses themselves, as they did on the inside of
last night's shelter?"
Cray
nodded. "They could. But horses are skittish beasts. How would you like to
feel a score of spiders crawling over your skin?"
Sepwin
backed off. "No. No." He watched the tent-making process repeated on
his own mount, and after a time he said, "You're not going to do the same
thing for the two of us, are you?"
"I
could," said Cray, "but somehow I don't think you'd care to spend the
night quite so closely draped in spiderwebs. The horses won't mind—to them the
webs are just blankets, but to you . . ." He smiled. "Well, the webs
are just blankets, you know." "Isn't there some other way?"
"Don't worry."
When he
was done with Sepwin's horse, Cray took up his sword and shield, which he had
removed from Gallant's saddle before the web-making. He thrust the sword
point-first into the ground, and a body's length away, he hammered the shield
into the ground, also point-first. The ground was soft enough to yield to them
but hard enough that they remained upright, and he braced them with stones to
insure that they would not tip over. Then he marked a perimeter about them with
other stones and set his spiders free upon that frame. Soon they had fashioned
a small tent, with the sword and shield as its supports and the perimeter
stones anchoring their silk to the ground. The tent was
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large
enough for two people to crawl inside and lie down.
"Not
quite as roomy as last night," said Cray, "but at least we won't have
to share it with the horses."
"You're
sure they'll be all right?" Sepwin asked. "Those webs are so
close-fitting .. . might not an insect be able to bite through to flesh without
actually passing through the weave?"
"Not
those webs. And now I think we should enter our own armor; I can hear the
buzzing already."
Sepwin
clutched at his own arms and looked about. "I wonder how big they
are."
"I
don't think I care to find out. Come on.'*
In the
morning, Sepwin peered at the map. "How much farther does this swamp go
on?"
Cray
traced the road with one finger. "I think we're about here now, which
means another day or two. The end of the swamp isn't clearly marked, but
there's a town over here, and surely thafs beyond the swamp."
Sepwin
sighed. "Well, now we know why your father took the northern route."
"Oh,
we're halfway through. We can last another two days, can't we, Master
Feldar?"
Sepwin
mounted his horse. About its feet, like a scatter of gray dust, lay the remains
of the spidersilk netting; at Cray's touch it had fallen apart, freeing the
animal, which appeared unperturbed by the night's shelter. "I only wish I
knew," said Sepwin, "if the worst was behind us."
"I
suspect every human being would wish to know that," Cray said, climbing
onto Gallant's back. "And since we have no way of acquiring that
knowledge, let us assume it. I don't feel in any mood to spend my time worrying
about the future." He grinned at his companion. "I'm sure you'll
worry enough for both of us."
The
morning passed uneventfully, the road alternately dry and mucky; occasionally
the horses splashed through water to their knees. It was in one of these
stretches, where the exact location of the road was unclear, although it could
be seen to continue some distance ahead in a drier condition, that Gallant
tossed its head, whinnied loudly, and began to thrash. Cray
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perceived
immediately that his mount was stuck in the mud that lay beneath the water. He
turned in the saddle and shouted for Sepwin, who lagged a dozen strides behind,
to stop. Even as he did so, he realized that he and Gallant were sinking.
"What's
happening?" cried Sepwin.
"We're
stuck! Stay where you are and keep your horse calm. I'm sending you spiders—use
their silk as a rope to pull us out!" As if throwing invisible stones, his
hands shot out, and spiders poured from his sleeves, struck the water, and
danced lightly over the surface, laying down silk behind them. Some stayed by
Gallant, weaving a net about the horse, and the rest raced for Sepwin, swarmed
up his mount's legs and began to fashion a net about both steed and rider.
Sepwin shuddered once as they arrived, but he had no tune for more than that,
for his shying horse required every scrap of his attention; he soothed the
animal at last when the spiders had done and had gathered to rest upon his
shoulders, like dark snowflakes. He moaned softly but did not try to brush them
off.
"I
can't pull you both out!" Sepwin said. "You weigh too much—you'll
pull us in instead!"
"I'll
come fiast," said Cray. Already the water was at his thighs, and he could
feel the muck beneath, sucking at his feet. He slipped into the water as flat
and gently as possible, clutching the filmy spider strands with both hands and
crossing his ankles over them. His lifeline sagged under his weight and the
weight of his chain, and he shouted, "Move back!" just before water
filled his mouth. A moment later, as Sepwin obeyed, the silken rope drew taut,
rising a hands-breadth above the surface. Cray shook the water from his eyes,
spat, and breathed deep; then he began to crawl, slowly, his body almost
completely immersed. Gallant, sinking, pulled the rope that was anchored to it
ever deeper; the horse had ceased to whinny now, and to struggle, but its
terrified panting carried across the water like the breath of a blacksmith's
bellows. Cray heard it when his ears cleared the surface, and though the time
after that seemed to stretch endlessly for him, it was actually only a few
moments until he was able to stand up beside Sepwin's mount. The wa-
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ter was
at his knees in that spot, but there were rocks beneath his feet, hard and
unyielding. He turned to look at Gallant and saw only the horse's head and neck
projecting above the water.
"We'll
never get him out," said Sepwin.
"I
won't let him die! Get off your horse—you can't use your own strength from up
there!" He touched the spidersilk webbing that encompassed his companion's
steed, and where his flesh passed, the silk parted, freeing Sepwin's legs and
enabling him to dismount. The spiders leaped from his shoulders to the horse
then, to spin again and repair their netting.
"Come
now, pull with me," said Cray, and he grasped the silken line just hi
front of Sepwin's horse. Sepwin joined him, tugging and urging his horse
backward in the water. "Come now, we can do it," Cray gasped.
"He's just a dead weight, not working against us. Pull!"
"We're
not strong enough," moaned Sepwin.
"Your
horse has pulled a plow through stony earth. She can do this! Back, plowhorse,
back!" Gritting his teeth, Cray added every fragment of his strength to
the horse's effort.
"We'll
never do it," gasped Sepwin, his voice harsh and strained.
"Pull!"
So
gradual was their success that they did not realize it until Gallant began to
thrash. The horse stumbled then, as the muck gave it up, and stood muddy and
shivering upon the rocks beside its master.
Cray
let go the silken rope and threw his arms around his horse's neck, stroking and
murmuring to it until the shivering ceased and its breath settled down to a
semblance of normalcy.
"We'll
have to stop now," said Cray. "He needs a rest and a good rubdown.
Poor Gallant—you'll be all right, old fellow, I promise."
"I
could use a rest, too," said Sepwin, leaning against his own steed. Sweat
was rolling down his face and neck, and his arms were shaking with the effort
he had expended.
"Yes,
yes, all of us." Cray laid a hand on Sep-
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win's
horse, and all the spiders skittered to his dripping sleeve. "Let's find a
dry piece of road and set up a camp." He pulled his sword from its sheath.
Mud clung to the pommel, and he rinsed it in the water at his knees. Then,
using the blade as a staff, he tested the hidden ground all around, found rocks
to walk safely upon, and led his horse a long and circuitous route toward the
nearest visible section of the road. Sepwin followed almost precisely in his
footsteps.
They
staggered out of the water, horses and humans, dripping, muddy, exhausted.
Sepwin collapsed upon the dry ground, but Cray pulled up some handfuls of dry
grass and began to rub his horse down with them.
"Where
do you find the strength for that?" Sepwin muttered. "It must be
magical."
"I
wish it were," said Cray, and doggedly he rubbed on, until Gallant was
dry. Then he leaned against the animal and closed his eyes. When he felt
himself slipping, his legs giving way, he shook his head sharply and
straightened. Sepwin was asleep curled hi a patch of grass; his horse stood
beside him, nibbling at his green mattress. Cray wanted to lie down, too, but
he did not. The sun was still high, but if he slept they might be caught
unprepared by night. With heavy limbs, he took up his sword and shield and set
them as tent posts on either side of his sleeping friend. He set the spiders to
spinning then, and they spun the tent with a human being already inside. He
blindfolded the horses next, and made their shelters, and at last he was free
to strip off his clothes and chain and to lie down beside Sepwin and sleep.
He
awoke to find his mother's face looking down at him from one wall of the tent.
He blinked and rubbed at his eyes. Gray light filtered through the dense
webbing. "Is it morning?" he asked her.
"Late
afternoon," she said, "and cloudy where you are. I saw that you were
safe and decided not to wake you. I saw water danger in the tapestry. What
happened?'*
Briefly,
he told her.
Her
eyes narrowed. "Someone shall hear about
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this. I
asked for a good map; I did not expect one that neglected the dangers of the
road."
Cray
stretched, yawning. "Would a demon of the air have seen such danger from
above?"
She
pursed her lips. "Perhaps not."
"And
I really should have known better 4han to walk right into the water without a
thought. I shan't do that again, I promise you."
"I
hope not." She sighed softly. "Oh, my son, the journey is not so easy
as you thought it would be."
He
grinned. "I'm learning a great deal, Mother. And think of the stories I'll
have to tell to the lord of the East March. Surely he'll look favorably upon me
for not being turned back by these things."
"There
will be adventures enough, I'm sure, after you are a knight, Cray. Adventures
and to spare."
"Yes,"
he said, and he lay back, interlacing his hands beneath his head. "Just
think, Mother . . . someday a troubadour like Lorien might set my adventures to
music. How wonderful that would be!"
"Wonderful
indeed, Cray. And the adventures set to music might be considerably more
wonderful than the adventures really were."
He tilted
his head to look at her. "Are you saying that troubadours tend to
exaggerate the deeds they sing of?"
"Lorien
admitted as much to me."
Cray
chuckled quietly. "Well, Mother, I never did believe that one man could
slay a dozen lions single-handed."
"Lesser
things than that."
He
nodded. "But I shall have to do great things if I want songs composed
about me. Those are the only kind that ever become songs. Great accomplishments
and great failures. I know which of those two I'd select"
"I
suggest you start small, my son." "I have, Mother. I have. And now I
must leave you to catch our dinner before the sun sets."
"Of
course," she said, and her image faded from the web.
Cray
rolled over and nudged Sepwin. "Wake up, Master Stayabed."
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The
former beggar opened one eye, the blue one. "You know, I've never heard a
troubadour sing." "You were awake all the time!" "Most of
the time, yes. But I thought it best not to interrupt your conversation. And I
couldn't quite figure out how to bow while lying down."
'Tm
sure my mother would have forgiven your discourtesy, under the
circumstances." He threw open the tent flap. "Come on, let's find
something to eat before the insects rise."
Sepwin
clutched at Cray's elbow. *Td be perfectly willing to go without supper if the
day is almost spent. I'm quite used to that sort of thing, you know."
"We
have some time yet," said Cray. ^And the horses will be hungry, too. I
don't think they eat much while they're blindfolded."
"Oh,
the horses. Yes, can't let them starve. They've got to carry us out of this
terrible place." He crawled into the daylight behin^ Cray, glanced up at
the sky nervously. "I can't tell how high the sun is; it's too
cloudy."
"Your
ears will tell you quickly enough—when it*s low," said Cray, slipping into
his clothing and chain, now dry. His saddlebags, however, had not withstood
then- long drenching, and everything inside their oiled leather was wet. After
setting out his nets for fish, Cray draped his belongings on low bushes to dry.
They ate broiled fish and returned to their shelter just as the nightly humming
began.
A
squirrel watched hi the night, the only squirrel in the whole swamp. It heard
the humming but cared nothing for that; no blood-lusting insects would touch
it, no water could drown it, no mud could suck it down to dark death. By the
faint light of the cloud-strewn sky, Gildrum watched over the webwork tent that
wrapped the two young travelers. It had only a moment to stand in the tall
grass, a moment between Ringforge and its master's bidding. It chittered softly
to itself, feeling much as it always did outside Spin-web's walls—seeing
nothing, unseen, powerless. Cray was bound for the East March; Gildrum had
heard the youths speak of that, had realized that it could only
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delay,
never prevent, the journey. Cray was too strong-willed to be turned aside from
his goal.
I'm
sorry, my son.
And
then there were no squirrels at all in the swamp.
CHAPTER
EIGHT
They
had passed through many towns, and Sepwin had worn his eye patch continuously,
by the time they reached the fortress of the lord of the East March. The
structure had no name of its own; the local folk merely called it The Castle,
for it was the only fortification within many days' ride, and most of them had
never seen another. It was an imposing stronghold, with thick, multiple walls
sprawling over the sides of the broad, low hilltop it commanded. All around it,
spreading from the walls to the river at the base of the hill, and across to
the far bank, linked to the near by many bridges, were buildings of every size
and shape. Lining winding streets, stone cottages jostled thatched huts and
plank cabins; and open stalls, their owners crying their wares, were frequent
among them. The fortress itself was a town within that town, with dwellings
along the inside walls and a marketplace in the vast courtyard, where all the
goods and services of life were loudly available. The gates stood wide open,
though guarded by rows of pikemen, and people passed in and out freely. Cray
and Sepwin were paid little heed by the guards; they let themselves be swept
inside with the foot and horse and donkey traffic, until they reached a
wineshop hung with earthen jars of drink. Cray signaled to his friend to
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halt
there. They tethered their mounts in an alcove beside the shop, next to a pair
of wooden carts.
*Tve
never drunk so much wine before as with you, Master Cray," said Sepwin,
raising a mug to his companion's health.
Cray
smiled. "You've never drunk wine at all, then."
"True
enough.** He drained the vessel. "I'll wager you drank wine every night at
home."
"Only
on special occasions,*' said Cray. He looked down at the blood-dark fluid in
his own cup. "And I see this whole journey as a special occasion." He
finished the drink and returned the container to the shop-keeper. "Come,
Master Feldar, let*s see what the possibility of an audience with the lord may
be.*'
Sepwin
scanned the courtyard. "He must be a busy man, with so many subjects. The
justice alone for this lot would take most of a man's day."
"Perhaps
they don't quarrel as much as you suppose."
"Impossible."
They
approached the gate of the keep, a fat cylindrical tower in the very center of
the compound. This gate was closed, the massive iron-bound panel guarded by a
double row of pikemen.
"Hallo,"
said Cray. "How may I arrange to see your master, the lord of the East
March?"
"It
is too late," said one of the pikemen, distinguished from the others by
the device on his helm. "The lord sees no one after midday.*'
"Well,
tomorrow, then, or the next day. I come on important business."
"Important to whom?" "To me," said Cray.
The
pikeman looked him up and down. "What is the nature of this business?'*
"Forgive
me," said Cray, bowing stiffly, "but it is personal."
The
pikeman's lip curled. "Come back at dawn and wait your turn then, with
everyone else."
"Thank
you." Cray started to turn away, hesitated, and looked back at the
pikeman. He saw a middle-aged man, beard grizzled and going gray, mouth
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flanked
by deep creases—a man old enough and more to be his father. "Sir," he
said, "how long has the present lord of the East March ruled here?"
"More
years than you've been alive, boy," replied the man. "Thirty years it
might be by now, and years left ahead of him, for he was young when he came
into his own.*' He smiled, and an old scar on his cheek pulled his mouth to one
side. "Were you hoping he had died lately and a new lord taken his
place?"
Cray
smiled back, as disarming a smile as he knew how to show. "Quite the
contrary, good sir. And I thank you once more." He took Sepwin's arm and
guided him away. "That was my one fear," he muttered. "That a
new lord would have the seat and know nothing of him."
The
proprietor of the wineshop was able to direct them to lodgings in the outer town,
and they spent the night in a small hostel on pallets so hard that they might
as well have been sleeping on the ground. It rained that night, though, and for
the first time in many a day, they had no need of Cray's skills to keep them
dry. Sepwin slept soundly, as always, but Cray tossed and turned and greeted
first light at last with red eyes and a glad heart. He woke his companion, they
bolted the bread and cheese they had bought the previous evening, and went out
to The Castle, Cray carrying his father's shield.
At dawn
the inner town was bustling, and a crowd had already gathered in the courtyard
before the gate of the keep. They were a noisy crowd, chattering and arguing
among themselves, jostling one another for places closer to the gate, elbows banging
against ribs, feet stepping on other feet, and many a fistfight broke out while
they waited to see their lord. Cray and Sepwin found themselves at the fringe,
hardly able to see the iron-bound door for the press of bodies ahead of them.
"I
wonder how many broken heads this crush will yield," muttered Sepwin.
At the
front of the crowd, a pike was raised, a blue banner hanging limp from its tip,
and a stentorian voice demanded silence. The clamor faded somewhat
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'The
lord of the East March will hear his subjects now!" shouted the voice.
Cray thought it might belong to the man he had spoken with the previous day. He
could not see him, nor any of the other guards; only their pikes showed above
the heads of the crowd.
The
gate opened a crack; Cray could see a sliver of light, from a torch within. The
crowd surged forward. Someone elbowed Cray to squeeze ahead of him, but he
pushed the elbow aside and stood his ground, and the fellow merely glared at
him. The gate closed. "Did they let someone hi?" wondered Sepwin.
"I couldn't tell," said Cray. "It opened wide enough for a body
to pass through, so I suppose one did."
Sepwin
looked around. "There are a lot of bodies here, eager bodies, and a very
small opening. Is there no system for orderly admittance?"
A
nearby woman turned to Sepwin and said, "You must come here early.
Early!" She frowned. "Too late now—well never get in," She
turned away, shaking her head, and plowed outward, pushing past the people who
had arrived even later than Cray and Sepwin; they moved. forward, eagerly
closing up the small space the woman had left.
"If
we're too late," said Sepwin, '*why are so many people standing behind
us?"
Cray
cast him a sidelong glance. "Perhaps they are hoping that others ahead of
them, like that woman, will give up and let them move forward.'*
The
gate opened again, and this time Cray thought he saw a head pass through the
aperture before it shut. "They must come out some other way. No one could
push back through this crowd from up there."
Sepwin
glanced over his shoulder. "It isn't easy to do it from here. I'd hate to
fall down in this mob. You'd have to scrape me off the cobblestones."
"I dotf t think you could fall." The gate opened again.
"He
seems to be dealing with them quickly at least," said Sepwin. "Maybe
we will get in."
The
morning passed like an eternity, each movement of the gate bringing Cray and
Sepwin fractionally closer to itself, while behind them the crowd deepened. At
last the two companions could actually see the pike-
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men who
guarded the door, standing with their pikes crossed before it, a latticework of
steel that lifted every time the door opened. The head pikeman, the same man
Cray had talked to, would seize a person from the crowd by an arm or an ear or
a sleeve, and when the gate opened would thrust him or her through the opening.
The choice of who entered was his, and the people nearest him held out their
hands with, corns of copper and silver to attract his attention. He gave most
of his heed to the silver coins, but occasionally he would select someone with
less of an offer, an attractive woman or a cripple, or a very old person. Once
he accepted a chicken, which he passed inside when the gate opened.
Cray
had a silver coin ready, glinting between thumb and forefinger, thrust toward
the pikeman's face, over the shoulders of the people in front of him, when the
gate closed for the last time.
"The
lord is finished for today!" shouted the head pikeman. "Come back
tomorrow if you wish!"
The
crowd dispersed so swiftly that Cray and Sepwin were carried some distance from
the gate in spite of their efforts to stand still. When the area before the
gate had cleared completely, save for the guards, Cray returned, silver in
hand, but he was turned away curtly.
"Come-earlier
tomorrow,** said the head pikeman.
"Earlier
indeed," said Sepwin, when they had walked back to the wineshop where
their horses waited. "We shall have to arrive at dusk the night before to
be early enough for that crowd."
'Then
we shall do exactly that," said Cray.
"Stand
all night in the courtyard?"
"You
needn't keep me company, Feldar."
"Now,
what sort of talk is that, Master Cray? I've come this far with you, and I
shall go the rest of the way, too!'*
Cray
stretched his limbs, which were stiff from the long, cramped wait. "Then
we should return to the hostel and sleep now, don't you think?"
Glumly,
Sepwin nodded.
Waking
near sunset, they made a swift meal of bread and cheese and then set out for
the Castle, Cray
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carrying
las father's shield on one arm as before. Although the sky was dark, torches
had been lit inside the courtyard, and activity continued there little abated
from the daytime. At the gate, six or seven people already clustered, sitting
close to the pikemen on small stools. When Cray and Sepwin approached, the
seated people tried to move even closer to the iron-bound portal, but the
pikemen pushed them back. The head of the guards, not the same one Cray had
seen before, looked him up and down and then thrust out his hand.
"To
stay here the night, you must pay me," he said.
"I
have a few coppers," said Cray. "You're welcome to them." He
dipped two fingers into his pouch.
"Silver
for me," said the guard. "You think I'd take less than the day
guard?"
Cray
indicated the people on the stools. "These others all paid you
silver?"
"They
did. And if you have no silver, you won't find this door so near."
Cray
shrugged and handed over a silver piece.
"What
about this one?" said the pikeman, pointing to Sepwin.
"He's
with me," said Cray.
"He
must pay, too."
Sepwin
bowed low. "I was just about to say goodnight, sir." He bowed to
Cray. "No need to waste silver on me. I'll be with the horses."
Cray
sat down cross-legged on the cold cobbles, the shield upon his lap. The people
on the stools paid scant attention to him, and scant attention to each other.
As the evening waned, a few more individuals joined the group, paid their
silver, and sat down to stare at the door. The bustle of the market thinned,
torches guttered and were replaced, stalls closed, and the last drunken man lay
down upon the street to sleep where passing horses could step on him. Cray
found himself dozing, more from boredom than from fatigue; he stood up and
stamped his feet and paced a small circle behind the first row of stools. The
seated people looked up at him, annoyed, and several of them who had arrived
after him took the opportunity to move closer to the gate, hemming him in on
one side. He
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glared
at them for a moment and then very deliberately pushed the nearest out of his
way. The man stood up, the stool between his legs, and he was taller than Cray,
but thinner. His hands curled into fists, and he would have rammed one into
Cray's stomach, but the youth saw it coming and parried the blow with the
shield. Then he struck the fellow across the face with one chain-clad forearm,
knocking him to the ground.
"Will
you take another?" demanded Cray, standing over the prone man. "I've
swung a sword these two years, and I promise you that I'm the stronger of
us."
The man
made no reply, only pulled his legs up to protect his belly, as if expecting a
kick. But Cray only nudged the stool aside. The other people looked up at him
apprehensively, and those who had moved to take his place eased their seats
back and let him return to his original position.
The
pikemen had watched and made no move to interfere.
The sky
grew gray with dawn twilight, and the crowd thickened, pushing from the rear;
and the more folk who arrived, the more blows were exchanged among them, until
at last dawn came and the guard changed and the pikeman that Cray knew
announced that the lord of the East March was ready to receive. Cray's silver
was ready to be given, too, and he was the eighth person admitted to the keep.
The
corridor beyond the gate was long and torchlit, for the slit window high above
the door admitted but little sunlight at that hour. The way curved before Cray
and the scarlet-garbed steward who conducted him, until it gave at last into a
small, high-ceilinged room. There, the lord of the East March sat, in a
high-backed, intricately carven chair behind a plain bare table. He was a big
man, broad of shoulder, thick of arm, and the shaggy hair that spilled over his
shoulders was Iron-gray. His garment was dark velvet, a silken scarf at the
throat against the cool of the stone building, and his hands were ringed hi
gold and silver. At either of his ears stood a man of his age, well-dressed in
light woollens, holding parchment and quills, ink and sand, ready for use.
"Your
name, young man," said the steward
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"I
am Cray Ormoru of Castle Spinweb. My father, Mellor, served the lord of the
East March before I was born; these are his bearings." He turned the
shield to face the lord. "Three red lances interlocked on a field of
white. They are mine now, and I would beg that you take me into your service in
his stead, for he is dead."
The
lord leaned forward, one elbow on the table, his fingers playing at his neck
below the clean-shaven chin. "Three red lances on a white field, you say?
One can hardly see them."
Cray
traced the lines with one hand. **I found this shield on his grave. It has seen
much weather, my lord. Fifteen years of weather."
"Fifteen
years dead, hmm? What did you say his name was?"
"Mellor,
my lord."
"I
don't know the name. Or the arms."
"He
had served you a year, my lord, when you sent him to Falconhill with a message
for your cousin there. He never delivered that message, for he was killed along
the way. Shortly before that, he met my mother and engendered me."
The lord
of the East March shook his head. "I recall no such messenger, nor any
such errand from that period." He glanced to left and right, at the two
men who stood near. "Is my memory failing so soon, gentlemen? Do you know
the name . . . Mellor? The arms? The event?"
Both
shook their heads.
"He
was very young," said Cray. "Perhaps the least of your knights, my
lord."
"I
know every one of my knights, young man, by name and bearings, from the
greatest to the least. Your father has never been among them."
"Are
you sure, my lord? He was not with you long."
"He
was not with me at all." He waved one hand in dismissal. "Next
case!"
"My
lord!" Cray fell to his knees and raised his hands in supplication.
"I beg you to inquire more closely into this matter!"
The
lord of the East March looked down at the kneeling youth. "You are not
much more than fifteen
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years
old, lad. If your father is fifteen years dead, who told you he was my
man?"
"My
mother, my lord, who heard it from his own lips."
"May
I suggest, then, that he lied to your mother?"
Cray
swallowed with difficulty. "I can't believe that, my lord," he said.
"Perhaps
you had best discuss it with your mother, then. Steward, show him out."
The
steward hooked a hand under Cray's armpit and hauled him to his feet. In a
daze, Cray allowed himself to be escorted from the room, down another corridor
and out into the morning sunlight. Even after the rear gate of the keep had
been shut behind him, even after the man who had followed him inside had been
dismissed, jostling past him roughly, Cray still stood, leaning on the battered
shield as a cripple might lean on a low chair. In the bright morning sunlight,
tears coursed down his cheeks.
Sepwin
found him there, directed to the rear gate by someone on the fringe of the
waiting crowd. When he saw his friend, he said nothing, only took his arm
gently and guided him to the alcove where the horses were tied. There, Cray let
go the shield, which clattered to the ground, and he swayed against Gallant's
great gray side.
"What
shall I do now?" he whispered hoarsely.
"What
did he say?" asked Sepwin.
Cray
choked the story out, his fingers twining in Gallant's pale mane. "Never
here, Feldar! Never here!" he said at the end. "Why would he have
lied so to my mother?"
"He
must have had a good reason," Sepwin said softly.
"A
good reason?" Cray closed his eyes. "What reason would be good enough
for such a lie? Was he a king-slayer running from justice?"
"Must
you think of the worst possible reason first?"
"Is
that the worst? No, I can think of worse yet. I could make you shudder Feldar,
with my imaginings." He looked at his friend, red-eyed. "But I must
know. I must."
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Sepwin
met his gaze. "Perhaps you are happier not knowing."
"Never.
Whatever he was ... I am his son. I must know."
"But
. . . how will you find out? We've come to a dead end here at the East
March."
Cray
shook his head. "There is a way, I think. My mother shall advise me."
"And
if he lied," said Delivev, "does that matter? Will the truth give him
life again?" Her fingers moved swiftly, guiding a slender silver .needle
in embroidery upon white satin. "Since you showed me his grave, he has
faded in my memory, like a dream, ill-remembered on waking. A dream is nothing,
my son, no matter how lovely. You are my reality now."
"For
my sake, then, Mother, not his, help me."
"Let
him go, Cray. Let him rest in death. If he had wanted me to know the truth, he
would have told it."
"Mother,
you may be content with that attitude, but I am not."
She
looked, up at him through the web. "Will you take away the dream, too,
Cray? Will you trade me something less for it? Do you think I want to know what
crimes he committed?"
He gave
her back stare for stare, "I can never hold my head up among other knights
if I don't know who my father was." s
"I
loved him," she said. "Is that not enough?"
"No.
Not for me."
"And
will you hold your head up if the truth is something terrible?"
"I
will deal with that when the time comes."
The
needle flashed in her fingers, and she bent over the work once more, seeming to
be speaking to it rather than to her son, very softly. "If the truth is
something terrible . . . Cray . . . will you still wish to be a knight like
your father? Or ... will you come home to sorcery at last?"
He turned
his face away from her. "I can't answer that now." He crossed his
arms over his chest, felt of the hard chain beneath the surcoat. "You
think too fast, Mother. You hope too hard. Let me find the
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truth,
and then I will make some decision." He looked down to his feet, where the
battered shield lay, painted side up, its markings barely visible in the
dappled, late-afternoon sunlight. Cray's spiders had spun their web hi a copse
of trees a day's ride from the castle of the East March, where no stranger
would see it. Delivev sighed deeply. "There is a Seer," she said,
**not far from you. Bring her the shield, and she will tell you its source. She
will send you to your uncles, your grandfather, your cousins—whoever lives now
at the home he left. I hope ... they will welcome you.'* 'That depends on why
he left, doesn't it?" "The Seer's dwelling is not marked on the
map,** said Deh'vev, "but if you follow the southward road to the first
fork, then bear west, you'll find it. She lives in a cave, and the entrance"
is through a great tree growing hard against the hillside. You won't have to
tell her who you are. She will know."
Enough,
thought Gildrum, sitting on the high stool by the brazier. Across the table.
Rezhyk pored over the new marvels his demon had fetched from Ushar— stone
tablets cracked from the heat, fragments from tombs of that lost civilization,
their inscriptions in praise of the dead an aid to translation of the steel
sheets. And on a piece of parchment, copies of other carvings, too damaged to
remove from the ruins, faithfully reproduced by the demon's own hand, unto
every ornamental serif.
"Ah,
here is the word I was seeking, here precisely," said Rezhyk. "The
writer was too careless on some of these sheets, too heavy-handed with the
stylus, and the result is that some lines are punched through and those words
nearly obliterated."
"Writing
on steel is not so easy, my lord."
"So
I would suppose. Parchment suits me well enough, even if it does burn.*'
"Had
the folk of Ushar used parchment, my lord, you would not be reading their
records now."
Rezhyk
smiled. "How fortunate for me, then, that they did not. And how sad for
other sorcerers to come that I have no wish to pass my knowledge on to
posterity." He made a note on the sheet of parchment at his
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elbow,
one of many awaiting his hand. "What flowery sentiments these are; they
loved each other well enough, these folk, after death. You know, my Gildrum, I
have always thought that their greatest mistake lay in banding together as a
city. They should have separated instead. We are so much safer these days, and
happier, too, each of us alone in his holding. We don't rub elbows and we don't
prey upon each other's nerves."
"You
may be right, my lord. Human beings have always seemed to me to be a source of
endless irritation to each other. That is why so many of them make war."
Rezhyk
looked up at his servant "Are demons any better, my Gildrum?"
"We
live in greater harmony, I think."
"Perhaps
it only seems greater to you, because you are one of the stronger demons. The
others defer to you, so of course there is harmony between you and them."
"Life
is different among us, my lord. Our passions are not yours. Our desires are not
as human desires."
'That
is well," Rezhyk said, nodding, "else you would have stolen our world
from us long ago."
Gildrum
fingered one blond braid, remembering the texture of other hair, soft, brown,
like a crown of downy feathers. Our passions are not yours, she thought, except
for mine. She slipped off the stool and paced the length of the workshop.
"Gildrum?"
said Rezhyk, glancing up from his work.
"Here,
my lord. Just restless."
"I
would think you'd want a bit of quiet after all your labors."
"No,
my lord, for I feel that there is more yet to be done."
"I
have all I can manage here; bring me no more for now, or I shall feel myself
drowning."
"As
you wish, my lord." She gazed at her image in the polished wall—small,
slight, insignificant. He liked her thus near him, she thought, because the
form befit a slave. "Shall I fetch some wine, my lord?"
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"An
excellent suggestion, my Gildrum. You know my mind well. Wine, indeed/'
"I
return in a moment, my lord."
Enough,
she told herself, descending the bronze staircase to the cellar, where the wine
lay cool and mellow in oaken casks. In an ordinary mortal's castle, bronze
stairs would be long since corroded from the damp, but in Ringforge they were
clean and smooth and shining; three of the rings on Rezhyk's hands called forth
demons whose only task was the maintenance of the bright metal in its
unblemished state. Rezhyk's own steps would have rung on this stairway, but
Gildrum's were silent, her feet bare. The stairs were warm and dry beneath her
tread, though she would not have cared if they were made of ice and slippery
with slime. Ringforge awaited Rezhyk's pleasure, every room, every corner,
ready for his visitation. Save for a special antechamber at the front gate,
reserved for strangers, no other human being had ever been inside the castle.
Only demons.
Would I
have loved her if she had come here as the mistress of Ringforge?
Gildrum
knew the answer was yes.
"Enough!"
she shouted to the silent cellar, and her voice echoed off the metal walls and
ceiling. In the cellar, with no one to see, Gildrum changed shape, became the
dark-haired young knight and the bearded old man and the full-bodied landlord
and the other shapes that Rezhyk's hands had formed—animal, plant, whatever had
suited his purposes through the years. And when all had come and gone, the
living flame was left in their place, cold now, dancing among the casks and
never scorching any, growing, shrinking, dividing into a hundred flamelets and
coalescing into a spark, a brilliant spark as blue as a young knight's eyes.
Then, from the spark, there bloomed a body, tiny as a flea at first, but
expanding like rising dough. It was black as coal and many-limbed, hairy,
grotesque. It opened a dozen- eyes and saw itself re-• fleeted in the ceiling,
though there was no light for any human eye to see by.
This is
myself, Gildrum thought. This is my earthly form. A shudder passed through it,
and it remembered
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the
other time it had used this body, so long ago in the woodland glade. Rezhyk had
made the small blond girl that very day, while the flame of Gildrum hovered
over his shoulder; Gildrum could not blame him for wanting something less
horrible as his servant. / am not human. I never was human, I can love no human
woman. I can have no human son.
The many-limbed
body burst into
clean, bright flame.
Enough,
thought Gildrum. / must leave them alone. The flame dimmed, became the blond
servant girl once more. With shaking hands she filled a carafe at the nearest
cask. Resolve had left her weak, despite her demon strength, and she felt a
great need to sink down on the floor beside the cask, to rest in the cool
cellar another moment before returning to her master. She thought of Cray,
seeking the heritage that did not exist, anguished, thwarted. She had tortured
herself with watching him; she would watch no more. He was a resourceful lad.
He would find his own destiny. A demon slave had none to give him.
And the
-branches outside Spinweb's walls would never again bear the weight of a
particular gray squirrel.
After
all, she thought, closing her eyes and leaning her face against the cool cask.
It ended long ago.
The
Seer's home was easy to find. Not only was it marked by the tallest, broadest
tree that Cray had ever seen, a great arching hole cut through its heart to
form the entrance, but the Seer herself was waiting for him by the side of the
road. She was a very tall, ,thin woman, straight of bearing, wearing a long
black robe. Her skin was pale, and her hair was white as new-fallen snow, worn
in a single braid that hung over her left shoulder, sweeping down the length of
her body to brush the ground. She lifted a hand in greeting as Cray pulled
Gallant up before her.
"You
are Cray Ormoru," she said.
"Good
day, lady."
"And
your friend Feldar Sepwin." She turned her gaze upon the former beggar.
"No need for that eye patch in my presence, young man. Take it off."
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He
pulled the bandage from his face, stammering an apology.
"I
am called Helaine," said the Seer. "You may enter my house."
The
companions murmured their thanks, dismounted, and tied their horses to metal
rings set in the vast trunk of the tree. Then they followed the Seer through
the arch and into a torchlit stone corridor that stretched deep and cool into
the hillside. At the end of the corridor was a large* almost circular room with
a ceiling so high that torches at shoulder level could not illuminate it. The
walls were dark stone, scattered everywhere with crystals that flashed and
glittered in the flamelight. The floor was strewn with a pure white sand fine
as flour, save at the center, where a raised rim encircled a pool of water no
wider than the reach of a man's two arms. The Seer sat down on this rim and
dabbled her fingers in the black water.
"Give
me the shield," she said, and Cray, who had carried it slung over one arm,
passed it to her. She touched its battered face, tracing the design with wet
fingers. Her eyes closed, and the corners of her mouth drooped as she sought
the metal's essence with her flesh. Watching her, Cray perceived her age for
the first time. She had seemed neither old nor young in the sunlight, only
timeless, in spite of the color of her hair. Now, from the transparency of her
skin, from the fine lines that appeared with her concentration, he knew that
she was old—older than Delivev; older than anyone he had ever seen, in web or
in person.
"Cray
Ormoru," the Seer said at last, eyes opening. Her irises were pale, like
the rest of her, pale as brook water. "These arms are of the House of
Ballat at Castle Mistwell, in the south.'*
"Can
you direct me there, lady?"
"It
is a long and hazardous journey."
"I
care nothing for that. Only show me the way."
She
pointed a slim finger at him. "For you, Cray Ormoru, there is sorrow at
the end of this journey."
Sepwin
leaned forward. "Death?" he whispered.
"No,"
said the Seer. "Not death."
"What
sort of sorrow, then," said Cray, "beyond that which I have already
known?" He touched the
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rim of
the shield with hesitant fingers. "What do you see here, lady, that I
cannot see?"
She
shook her head slowly. "Not in the shield, Cray, but in yourself. There, I
see anguish and despair."
"I
have known both,"
"You
shall know them again."
"For
what cause?"
She
gazed down at the shield. "I can tell you of the house that bears these
arms: an old house, and strong. But the shield has passed through too many
hands, has too many lives bound up in it They call to me, a dozen voices, and I
cannot tell which one is your father's. I would need a relic that belonged to
him alone, or at least for the greater part of its existence, in order to tell
you his tale."
"I
have his sword,"
"Give
it to me."
Cray
ran out to the horses and returned with the rusted blade. The Seer ran her wet
fingers over the pitted surface, grasped the pommel, bent her forehead to the
hilt. Then she thrust the sword into the white sand at her feet to dry it
"It
is the\same," she said. "This has been used by many men."
Cray
took the sword and shield from her. "Then I shall go to Castle
Mistwell."
"You
will find no happiness there."
"I
don't expect happiness, lady. Only truth."
She
smiled gently. "I give you the advice I would give a child of my own,
Cray: you have a talent for sorcery; train it, and give over this desire to be
a knight"
He
bowed stiffly. "I thank you for your advice, lady. And now I ask only one more
favor of you: guidance to Castle Mistwell."
"As
you will." She rose. "I will give you a map." At the opposite
end of the room from the corridor that led to the outside was a heavy wooden
door. She opened it easily, slipped through the aperture, and returned a moment
later with parchment and quill and ink. These she set down on the rim of the
pool.
"Lady,
this parchment is blank," said Cray.
"Hush.
Have you no patience at all?" She gazed into
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the
pool a long moment, and then she took up the quill, dipped it in the ink and
began drawing on the unmarred white surface. Never once did she look at what
she drew, only into the pool, as if copying something from its dark surface.
The map formed under her hand, cardinal points marked, major towns and castles
named, the road curving this way and that, ever southward until it ended in a
circle. She blinked then, and focused on her handiwork. "Here we are,
here." She placed a star to locate her home; the road between it and the
circle stretched the length of the sheet.
Cray
looked at the map. "How far would you say that is, lady?"
"If
you leave tomorrow, if you encounter no mishaps on the way, you may reach it
before the snow flies."
"So
far? Then we shall leave today and gain a few hours on winter. Now, lady, there
is the matter of your fee. I have some silver with me, and if that is not
enough, my mother can provide other payment. . . ."
"Keep
your silver, young Cray," said the Seer. "We shall meet again, and
then we will decide a proper fee."
"We
shall meet again?"
"Yes.
You think I don't know my own future?**
"As
you say, lady. I do not doubt you."
She
walked with them to their horses and stood silent while Cray secured the
battered sword and shield to Gallant's saddle. When he had mounted, when he
towered above her and raised his hand in salute, she said, "Watch for four
men on horseback. Three will have beards. They are bandits."
"Where?"
"Eighteen
days south of here."
He
inclined his head. "Thank you.**
"Don't
be afraid to deal harshly with them. They have killed their share of
travelers.*'
Sepwin
leaned forward, grasping his horse's mane with both hands. "Perhaps you
should have drawn us some other route, my lady."
"Any
other would be so much longer that you would be stranded in the mountains for
the winter. You might freeze to death. Would you prefer to chance that?"
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"Mountains?"
muttered Sepwin. "Can't we go around them?"
"You
can ... if you wish to measure your travel in years.'*
"Enough,"
said Cray. **We will follow your map. Farewell."
She
lifted one pale hand. "Until next time, Cray Onnoru."
That
night, Cray and Sepwin compared their two maps. They overlapped, though from
the Seer's estimate of the distance covered by hers, they were not to the same
scale.
"Do
you think she was just trying to frighten us with the warning about the
bandits?" said Sepwin. "After all, she said she'd see us again."
"Possibly,"
said Cray, tracing with two fingers the route they would be taking.
"She
didn't say we would meet them. Maybe she meant only that we might meet
them."
"I'm
going to assume that we will. It would be foolish not to be prepared for such a
thing after being warned."
Sepwin
drew his knees up and clasped them with his arms, as if he were cold, though
the nights were still pleasant enough, and they had a cheery fire. "Or . .
. she said she'd see you again. Maybe . . . maybe something will happen to me
when we meet the bandits."
Cray
glanced at him sidelong. "Are you going to worry about that for the next
eighteen days?"
"It
seems like a reasonable thing to worry about."
"Perhaps
you should stay behind, then."
Sepwin
frowned. "And leave you to wander alone in dangerous territory?"
"Well,
what use would you be in a fight, Feldar? You couldn't even defend yourself
against a handful of unarmed men back in that village. What would you do
against horsemen who would surely be armed with something?"
"You
could teach me."
*Teach
you what? We've only one sword. You can't count my father's blade—one solid
blow and it would fly to pieces."
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Sepwin
pursed his lips. "She never said they would be armored men, did she?"
"No."
'Teach
me to use a cudgel like a sword, then. HI bash their heads in if they try to
touch us."
Cray
smiled. "You think you have the strength for that, Feldar?"
"Since
I've been with you and eaten well, I've more strength than I ever thought
possible."
"Eighteen
days is not much for training a fighting man."
"Then
we should begin at once!"
"We'll
travel slower if we stop to practice combat."
"A
small time every day, Cray. We can shorten our evening's rest."
Cray
shook his head. "Well need it more than ever after hacking at each other.
Oh, very well, Feldar, I'll show you a thing or two. Come, cut yourself a staff
from that tree over there, and I will do the same, and we'll see how well you
take to swordplay."
When
the cudgels were ready, Cray wove his friend a light, square shield of supple
branches and spider-silk, as proof against sword and staff as his own metallic
shield. Then they faced off, armed and armored .alike. Cray tried not to strike
too hard during this first session, but by the time Sepwin was winded and
called for a halt, the former beggar was bruised and battered, red welts rising
on his sword arm and the shoulder above his shield.
"The
shield is a weapon, too," said Cray. "You must move it to deflect the
other man's blows, not just hold it still before you."
"I'll
remember," said Sepwin, dropping his battle array and rubbing his swollen
arm with the hand that had gripped the shield.
**Not so
easy as you thought, is it?"
"I
never thought it would be easy. Just necessary, m be ready for more
tomorrow."
"We'll
see about that,*' said Cray. "You'll ache tomorrow, far more than you do
today."
Sepwin
resumed his place by the fire. "How do you know so much about fighting,
Cray? Shut up in your
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mother's
castle, you never had another human being to fight with, did you?"
"Never,"
said Cray, sitting down beside him. "But I watched the webs. I imitated
the swordsmen who were praised by their fellows. I didn't want to come to my
training a complete novice.**
"You
handle the staff as if it were your arm. Are you as good with the sword?**
"Better."
"It's
heavier."
"But
it has a good grip, and balance. It has a different feel from a cudgel."
He smiled. "I am very good with opponents who stand quite still. Like
trees. You know, I never struck another human being till that day hi the
village. And now, with you, I really should be grateful for the practice.*'
"Well,
I won't stand still, I promise that."
"Oh,
you're much better than a tree." He looked into the fire, stirred it with
a slender twig until the twig caught and he had to drop it into the flames.
"The day after tomorrow, if you're feeling well enough, we'll try
exchanging a few blows on horseback. We'll have to be very careful, though; we
don't want to hurt the horses.*' He glanced at Sepwin. "The bandits'
horses, of course, would be fair targets. If you aim for the face, I think even
one of your blows would bring a horse down."
"They
weren't very good, were they?"
"You
strike too wild. You're too eager, and you tire quickly. These faults could be
overcome, given time and dedication."
"I
have dedication," said Sepwin.
Cray
touched his shoulder lightly. "Listen, my friend: if the bandits do
strike, ride away as fast as you can. Your plowhorse is swift—I know that well
enough."
"I
couldn't leave you!"
"When
the time comes, you may find it easier than you think."
"No!"
"Well,
this is a different Feldar Sepwin than I picked up on the road so long ago.
Where have you found your courage?"
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Sepwin
shook his head. "It's not courage. It's madness. Your madness, Cray. But
you saved my life back there in the village, and I owe you something for
that."
"You
owe me nothing."
"And
if I ride away and leave you to die at the hands of bandits, I'll have no one,
just as before. I'll be a beggar again." He gripped Cray's arm. "When
you are a knight, will you let me be your squire?"
"You
think too far ahead, Feldar. Right now, I am only concerned with arriving at
Mistwell. Let us leave the rest for later." He smiled at Sepwin. "And
there will be a later, for both of us, I promise you."
The
next day they rode and then they slept; Sepwin was indeed too sore and too
tired to lift staff or shield. The following day, though, they spent a little
time in a clearing off the road, on horseback, sparring. Cray taught his
companion to dodge and duck and still keep his seat, to swipe at the opposing
horse's legs and neck. Having been raised among horses, Sepwin rode well and
had hardly more trouble manipulating the staff and shield while mounted than he
had while on his own feet. His motions were slow, though, his muscles still
being sore, and Cray was careful to avoid hitting him with any real force.
Still, he groaned considerably from his own exertion, and when they were
finished he only wanted to lie down and be quiet.
He was
better the next day.
And the
next.
"I
make a poor warrior, don't I?" he said on the tenth afternoon, nursing his
newest bruises by the fire. That day they had seen the mountains for the first
time, like blue clouds on the horizon.
"You
haven't the brawn for it," said Cray. "That takes more than a few
days."
"So
we're left with one of us, and perhaps a small fraction added for me, against
the four of them. And you don't seem worried at all.*' He frowned into the
flames. "She didn't say we'd come back with all our arms and legs intact.
Remember, she prophesied anguish and despair."
"I
don't think that had anything to do with the bandits, Feldar.**
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"I
wish I were as confident."
Cray
nudged him in the ribs. "Listen, my friend— knowing how to defend yourself
with a good, stout staff is an excellent thing. You could have used such
knowledge, I think, in the past. But you probably won't need it when we meet
the bandits."
"Why
not?"'
"Because
I have my spiders.**
"What
good will they be?" demanded Sepwin. "Except perhaps to frighten the
bandits to death by crawling all over them."
"You
ask that after seeing them spin silk as strong as steel?"
Sepwin
looked at him with knitted brows. "Will you make us armor .out of
it?"
"I'll
make us weapons out of it."
"What—swords?
That won't be much help to me."
Cray
smiled. "How good is your aim, Feldar?"
"My
aim? What do you mean?"
"Can
you hit a target with a stone?**
Sepwin
shrugged. "As well as anyone else can, I suppose. We -used to amuse
ourselves by throwing stones at rabbits, back at the village where I was
born."
"Show
me." He pointed to a tree hah* a dozen paces away. 'The knot on the trunk,
the one at about a man's height—hit it with a couple of pebbles. Here . .
." He scratched at the ground, uncovered several stones no larger than the
nail of his little finger. "Use these."
Sepwin
weighed the pebbles in his hand. 'These are hardly deadly missiles."
"Go
on."
"Well,
you've picked an easy enough target.** He tossed one stone, overhand, hard, and
it ricocheted off the knot with a sharp cracking noise. He threw two more, and
both struck the target, which was quite large. "Shall I cany a bag of
stones with me from now on?*'
Cray
stood up and walked to the tree. "Throw one at me now. Aim at my shoulder.
And throw softly, Feldar, as if you wanted the pebble to come to rest where it
struck, not punch a hole there."
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Sepwin
obeyed, tossing the pebble lightly, underhand, and it touched Cray's shoulder
gently and tumbled off, to drop at his feet.
"Now,
can you do that to a moving target?" He dodged to one side, bouncing up
and down on the balls of his feet, weaving, bobbing. "Come on, come
on."
Sepwin
scratched up more pebbles and threw them, and in spite of Cray's maneuverings,
most of the stones found a mark somewhere on his body.
Cray
called a halt. "You've done well so far," he said, nodding.
"We'll try it with spiders next."
"Spiders?"
"Do
you think I mean you to throw pebbles at the bandits?"
"I
don't know what to think.*'
"Stand
still and watch." He lifted his hand, cupped the palm, and a spider
crawled out of his sleeve to crouch upon his bare flesh. Then, as if it were a
stone, he tossed it at Sepwin. He tossed it in a high arc, and it spun as it
sailed toward its target, a trail of fine silk playing out behind it. It landed
on Sepwin's arm and scurried across his chest to the other arm and behind his
back, laying down silk that clung to him; when it reached its landing point
once more, the strand drew snug about him, pinning his arms to his sides.
"Three
or four spiders," said Cray, "and you would be netted as surely as
any animal I ever hunted." He touched the silk lightly and it fell away to
nothing. The spider jumped back to his sleeve.
"But
... I can't do that," said Sepwin, massaging his arms where the silk had
pinched.
"Of
course you can."
"You
mean they'll spin like that for me?'*
"If
I want them to. Will you try it?"
Sepwin
grimaced. "I don't like the idea of carrying spiders up my sleeve."
"You
didn't mind them sitting on your shoulders.'*
"Just
at the moment I was too busy trying to save your life to care."
"Well,
this is the same sort of thing, isn't it? The bandits won't be playing games
with us." He crossed his arms over his chest. "Or would you rather
try to
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bash
their heads with your cudgel? I guarantee you, this is more likely to
succeed."
Sepwin
chewed at his lower lip.
"And
you won't get sore muscles from this, either,** said Cray.
"Let
me think about it.**
"Hold
out your hand, Feldar.**
"What
are you going to do?"
"I'm
going to give you a spider. Hold out your hand. I swear you'll not be
bitten."
"Will
the spider swear, too?'*
"I've
never been bitten."
"I
didn't have your mother.*'
"Hold
out your hand!"
His
face grim, Sepwin obeyed. His hand was steady, palm upward, fingers cupped, and
he stared at it as if he had never seen it before.
Cray
grasped Sepwin's wrist tightly with his own left hand, and with his right he
dropped a small black spider into his friend's open palm. The spider froze upon
the pale flesh, resembling nothing so much as a small, dark pebble.
"You
see, it won't do anything I don't want it to do,*' said Cray.
"I
don't mind it on my hand,** said Sepwin. "But in my clothes, hiding,
crawling all over my body—how can you bear it, Cray?"
Cray
shrugged. "I have difficulty understanding why it should bother you.'*
"They're
ugly, filthy, evil—"
"Nonsense!
They are as evil as your eye, Feldar! 1 would have thought that you, above all
people, would not harbor silly superstitions. And they are clean, too, and—hi
their way—quite beautiful. There is grace in their movements, smooth as the
sweep of a lady's skirt in the pavane. And they create beauty as well: I have
never seen a lovelier sight than a 'dew-drenched web, sparkling in the morning
sun like strands of pearls. Now let's have no more 'foolishness, Feldar. You
can carry a dozen spiders, and if you don't think about that, you'll never be
aware that they ride with you."
"I'll
feel them," said Sepwin.
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"Only
when they walk to your hands to be tossed. I'll command them to be still
otherwise. Observe." He pointed at the spider in his friend's hand, and it
un-fr&ze, moving slowly over his palm, across the wrist, up the forearm, to
disappear in his sleeve. "It's stopped now, and there it will stay until I
tell it to move again."
"I
feel it there. I feel it standing on my gooseflesh."
"You'll
soon forget about it."
"I
don't think so," said Sepwin. He flexed his elbow hesitantly. "Won't
I crush it accidentally?"
"They
aren't easy to crush . .. accidentally. Bending your elbow won't do it. They
have hard shells, after all."
Sepwin
stared at his arm, as if he could see the spider through his clothing.
"Must I carry this creature until we meet the bandits?"
"Carry
it a while today," said Cray, "to become accustomed to it. I'll take
it back before we sleep. Tomorrow we'll try you with several spiders. Then
you'll practice throwing them. By the time we meet the bandits, you'll be
comfortable with them."
"I
find that hard to imagine."
That
evening, as Cray spoke with his mother, Sepwin watched the fringe of the web
instead of its heart; he watched the spiders that had spun it waiting for
flying insects to blunder into the sticky strands. They fed each night like
that, sharing the one large web, their bodies scattered like raisins on the
gossamer surface. When a struggling insect became entangled hi the silk, some
spider would scurry to the spot, walking on the few strands that would not
cling to its legs, to spin a cocoon about the prey. When all the spiders had
done with their meals, the cocoons were left hanging in the silk, to be blown
away with the web by the next day's wind, after Sepwin and Cray had resumed
their journey.
"How
glad I am that I am not a fly," Sepwin said before they went to sleep.
"If
you don't learn to use those spiders,** replied Cray, "you will be a fly,
to the bandits."
The
following day, Sepwin carried two spiders. But after he had practiced throwing
them, in the evening,
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he
still insisted on a sparring match with staves and shields. "In case I
miss," he said.
The
land began to rise, the trail to become rockier and more difficult to
negotiate. The mountains loomed close, seeming every morning taller than the
night before, and every day's progress was slower than the last. On the
sixteenth evening, they halted in a copse of oaks, a level place beside the
steeply climbing road. After dinner, Cray set all his spiders to forming a
fence of fine netting to enclose the trees.
"I
think we should start to take turns standing watch tonight,*' he said, "in
the event that the bandits are not completely obedient to the Seer's prophecy.
Ill take the first watch.**
"Do
you really think they might strike early? In the night?"
"No,
but why be unprepared?" He strolled along the silken fence, which was
almost invisible in the moonlight. "This will keep them out if they do, at
least until they decide to climb it. And by that time, we'll both be roused and
ready to deal with them.** He glanced at Sepwin. "Which means, my friend,
that you'll be sleeping with spiders from now on." Sepwin sighed. "I
suppose that's for the best." "Kneel down and put your hands on the ground.
They're waiting to climb into your sleeves."
"Very
well." He knelt. "You know, if I close my eyes and pretend hard
enough, they feel like dry leaves brushing my skin instead of spiders."
"Think
of them that way, if it makes you feel better."
Sepwin
lay down, wrapped in bis cloak. "I wish you had some other animal to
follow your magical orders. I wouldn't mind sleeping with a cat or a dog or any
number of other creatures."
"I
don't think Gallant would care much for carrying a pack of dogs about" "One
dog."
"What
good would one dog be?" "A magic dog."
"I
suspect spiders are much more useful than any magic dog."
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"If
I were a sorcerer," said Sepwin, "I'd think of some use for a magic
dog."
"I
thought you liked horses best." - "A magic horse, then. It wouldn't
matter to me. Just so it was something pleasing to look at."
"Spiders
are pleasing to look at!"
"I
will never understand sorcerers," muttered Sepwin, and he rolled over and
went to sleep.
During
the next day, he was nervous, always looking back over his shoulder, to one
side or the other, peering ahead. He used any excuse to halt and listen for the
sounds of horses other than their own. But there were none, only the whistling
of the wind among the trees, and an occasional fall of loose stones somewhere
out of sight.
That
night they slept surrounded by silk again, though Sepwin hardly slept at all;
he rose at last and took the watch far earlier than midnight. Cray did not
argue with him over it, merely rolled in his blanket and went to sleep, leaving
Sepwin to start at every hooting owl, at every cricket chirp, at every
unidentifiable rustle. In the morning he was red-eyed, and his limbs shook.
"You
haven't slept enough," said Cray. 'Take a nap; we'll start out later in
the day."
Sepwin
shook his head violently. "I'd rather ride now, and get it over with.**
"Well,
today is the eighteenth day, isn't it?" Cray looked his friend over.
"You won't be much use to me in this state."
"I'll
be all right. Let's be off,"
*'Have
something to eat. Here's cold pheasant from last night's dinner."
"I
couldn't eat."
"Where
will you find strength for your defense, Feldar, if you don't eat?"
"I'll
eat afterward. I don't think it would stay with me right now."
"As
you will." Cray made his own breakfast without haste, then tore down the
webs that had surrounded their camp. When he mounted Gallant, Sepwin was
already astride his own animal, waiting, and his anxiety had communicated
itself to his mount, which
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rocked
from leg to leg and snorted with flaring nostrils at every whisper of wind.
They
were high in the mountains now, and the trail swung back and forth,
transforming steep ascents into gentle but interminable inclines. The peaks
were all about them, treeless and wind-scoured. Frequently, the path narrowed
to a mere ledge, with granite wall rising on one side and sheer drop falling
away on the other. At these places, Cray rode first, and Sepwin followed,
always looking behind him for pursuit It was Cray who called a halt at the
barrier. Sepwin pulled up beside him; the road was wide enough for both of them
here, and neither cliff nor rock wall hemmed them in, though the slopes to
either side looked to be rough climbing for horses. The barrier was a gate of
logs laid across the road. Beyond it, two men waited. Their mounts were small
compared to Gallant.
"Good
day!** shouted one of the men. Cray leaned forward hi his saddle. "Good
day to you, sir. Is there some danger ahead, that you've put up this
obstruction?"
"This
is a toll gate," said the man. "You must pay the toll to pass."
"And
what is the toll, sir?** asked Cray. "How much silver do you have?"
"Very little, I'm afraid. No more than a piece or two."
The man
smiled. He wore a dark beard, and his teeth were very white within its compass.
His clothing was leather, as was his companion's, and he wore several knives
about his person. In a sling attached to his saddle, just brushing his right
knee, was a heavy club. "Only a piece or two?" he said. "Are you
sure?'* "Quite sure," said Cray. "We live off the land and have
little use for money."
"What
a pity," said the man. "In that case, you will have to pay with your
horses."
Cray's
fingers tightened on the reins. "Our horses? Good sir, my horse has been
my friend for a considerable time. I could not give him up. And how would we
pass through the rest of the mountains without horses?"
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"You
have sturdy enough legs, lad. You can walk."
"You
ask a high toll, sir."
The man
shrugged. "Not higher than you can pay."
*I
think it is," said Cray. A sharp tap on the knee caused him to turn to
Sepwin, who had struck the blow and was now looking back at the road behind
them. A dozen strides away, a pair of riders moved toward the young companions;
Cray knew they must have come from nearby concealment, else he and Sepwin would
have heard their horses' hoofbeats before this. Two of them wore beards, making
a total of three bearded men among the four mounted strangers, just as the Seer
had predicted.
"You
will pay the toll,'* said the spokesman for the group.
Cray
looked at him. "Are you the lord of this land?"
"There
is no lord here."
"Then
what right have you to collect a toll?"
"The
right of strength, lad. What other right is there?"
Cray
sought Sepwin's eye, caught it briefly and tilted his head toward the men on
the far side of the gate. He could see his friend's hands clenching and
unclenching in his horse's mane, and as soon as their mutual gaze broke,
Sepwin's eyes returned to a restless search to left and right. He seemed to be
looking for a way out.
"Off
your horses, lads," said the spokesman of the bandits, "and be
grateful we haven't asked for more than that."
Cray
wheeled Gallant about, till he was facing the other two men. "The toll is
too high," he said. "We'll turn back."
"You
may do whatever you wish," said the man, "after paying the
toll."
"Now,
Feldar!" shouted Cray, and his arms shot out toward the two rear bandits,
spraying spiders like fistfuls of grain. The men were startled and raised their
hands to fend the tiny creatures off, but those gestures only gave the spiders
easier targets; they spun their first silk about the very fingers that tried to
brush them away, binding flailing hands with unbreakable wrappings, like steel
mittens. Then the spiders
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began
to bind the mittens to the nearest anchor points —the men's own bodies, their
saddles, their horses. The horses reared and struggled at the touch of the
spidersilk, and one of the men fell, thrashing, hanging from his saddle by a
few near-invisible strands while his terrified mount kicked at him.
Cray
turned to Sepwin as soon as he had loosed his spiders, and it was barely soon
enough. Either Sepwin had been too far from his quarry or he had failed to use
the proper strength in his toss, for most of his spiders fell short, landing on
the gate, where they were busily spinning useless silk. The few that had found
their human targets could not fashion enough silk to bind the men before both
could charge their horses through the gate. The swinging gate had caught
Sepwin's horse in the chest and forelegs, knocking it aside and tumbling Sepwin
to the ground. When Cray turned to his friend's assistance, Sepwin was
scrambling to his feet, trying to dodge the milling, whinnying horses and the
two riders with heavy clubs hi their hands. Cray drew his sword and, shouting,
charged the pair.
The
odds were two to one, but neither of the bandits was armed with a sword,
neither with a shield, and neither with the anger that Cray felt rising in
himself. He laid into them with a will, swinging his blade effortlessly, as
when his only targets had been trees. The blade clove human flesh with greater
ease than it had ever sliced bark. One man rode away, a deep cut in his
shoulder, and the spokesman of the group fell, to dampen the ground with his
blood. His frightened horse stepped on him twice, but he was already dead when
that happened.
Sepwin
watched the final fight from one of the slopes that flanked the road, where he
had clambered when Cray distracted his pursuers. He still stood there as Cray
dismounted and began to move among the frightened horses, trying to soothe them
with soft words and caresses. Of the five horses clustered by the open gate,
only Gallant stood calm and silent, as if all this had happened to it before.
One
horse, still bore a rider, upon whom Cray's spiders had spun their steely
cords; he slumped for-
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ward
over his mount's neck, motionless. When Cray touched him, turning steel to
ordinary silk, he slid sideways, limply, and struck the ground like a sack of
ston.es. Cray also touched the man who still hung from webbing attached to his
mount, the man whose own animal had kicked him to death in its terror; that
body had not so far to fall. Cray tied all the horses to the gate, and they
were quiet enough at last, except that their occasionally flaring nostrils
showed that they could smell the blood spilled on the road.
Sepwin
descended the slope slowly, and he stopped some distance from his companion.
"You didn't need me," he said. "You did it all yourself."
He looked down at the ground. "I'm sorry I failed you."
"You
did your best," said Cray. "I know that."
Sepwin
shook his head. "I knew I was too far away. But I was afraid to go closer.
I was afraid they would throw their knives."
"And
chance harming good horseflesh? Hardly.'* Cray crossed the space that separated
them and clapped his friend on the back. "Never mind. It's all over
now." He stooped to pick up his sword, which lay upon a patch of coarse
mountain grass, where he had set it before trying to calm the horses. The blade
was bloody more than halfway to the hilt. He wiped it on the grass, back and
forth, over and over again, until the red was gone. "My first man,"
he said, gripping the pommel hi both hands so that the tip of the blade lightly
touched the ground. His back was to the dead men. "I should feel different
somehow, now. But I don't. It was like striking a tree, only easier. Flesh is
soft, bone is hard, but not so hard as wood. I could have cut him hi two
without much more effort. He wore •no armor." He leaned on the blade,
letting it dig into the ground. "I never expected my first fight to be
like that."
"Not
your first," said Sepwin. *There was the village."
Cray
shook his head. "They were unarmed. Not even a knife among them."
*They
were armed enough for me," said Sepwin.
Cray
looked at him. "You've been close to death before. This was my first
time."
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"The
village
"They
wouldn't have touched me. They were afraid of the sword. These men
weren't." He turned away from the sword, leaving it to stand upright by
itself. "Let's bury the bodies."
"We
haven't a spade, have we?" said Sepwin.
"No,
but we can pile rocks on top of them. Plenty of rocks around here."
"You
think they deserve such decent treatment?"
"I
think the next travelers who use this route deserve to be safe from the wild
animals that would come to pick the carcasses. Come, there's a gully beyond
that rise; we can throw them into it and then roll the rocks after." He
bent over the man his blade had slain. "Take the feet, Feldar."
"What
about the other man? The one who "rode away."
"Well,
I don't see how we'll be able to bury him. He's pretty far away by now."
"I
mean, what if he comes back?"
"He
won't come back."
"He
might, come back with friends.**
Cray
shook his head. *Two spiders went with him. He was riding too fast to notice
their work. I've lost them forever, now, but he won't come back." He
gestured toward the man who had been dead on his horse, wrapped in silk.
"As with that one, a few strands looped about the throat, pulled tight.
Even a very strong man could not break them without magic. I don't want to meet
any bandits on this road when we come back. If we come back." He frowned.
"I wouldn't have used the spiders in a fair fight."
Sepwin's
right hand crept up to his own throat, rubbed slowly at the collarbone.
"You'll be a very unusual sort of knight, I think," he murmured,
"commanding an army of spiders.**
Cray
shook his head. "I don't have an army, just the few I carry with me, my
own personal spiders. I can't command any others, not like my mother, who has
sovereignty over all the spiders of the world. And I intend to put these aside,
if there are any of them left, when I'm a knight. They don't belong with sword
and shield."
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"But
they give you such an advantage!"
"A
short-Uved advantage, Feldar. I've lost a dozen in this fight—the bandits
crushed them. How long would the rest last if I used them so again and
again?"
"Can't
you get replacements?"
"I
could . . . with my mother's help. But I won't. They would keep me from
acquiring the proper skills of knighthood; I would depend on them, and not on
my good right arm, and so I would be an inferior knight. Besides ..." His
lips quirked in a small smile. "My fellow knights might not care for such
a hybrid in their midst. I have noticed, in my travels, that the two worlds do
not mix well. Eh, Feldar of the strange eyes?"
"You
have a point there. I was only thinking that you should use all of your
resources to stay alive. The spiders would be a handy reserve."
"Sword
and shield shall be resources enough, when I am trained. I'll need no spiders
then."
Sepwin
shrugged. "As you will."
"Come
now, hit the legs. I want to ride on before the sun sets.*'
They
rode on, but not far; building a cairn of rocks over the three bodies had taken
most of the afternoon. Cray and Sepwin camped that night between two peaks, and
the next day the path took them upward, toward the farther of the pair. The
wind cooled about them as they climbed, increasing in strength until it beat at
them tike icy cudgels and they had to lean into their horses* manes to remain
mounted. All around, the trees and bushes grew smaller, stunted and gnarled,
clinging close to the ground beneath the blasting wind. In Cray's sleeves,
where he carried all the surviving spiders, the creatures retreated from the
wrist openings to the upper arms, where the cold gusts could not reach them. On
the plains, the trees had not yet begun to shed then* leaves, but in the
highest mountains, the breath of whiter was already touching the land.
The
first snowflakes had begun to fall by the time the two companions found
themselves descending, ever descending, with only foothills still before them.
Since dealing with the bandits, they had met no
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travelers
upon the road and had begun to suspect that they were the last to pass that way
for the season. Ahead, misty as its name, lay the hold that the Seer had sent
them to. As they approached it, the peaks behind them whitened, barring their
return.
It was
a quiet time at MistweH. The harvest was done, the grains stored away, the
cellars full of apples, the animals fattening for cold-weather feasting.
Mist-well was at peace, and the knights of the hold had gathered for the
winter, to joust and gamble and drink the lengthening evenings away. The main
hall of the keep was a noisy place and bright, full of rich velvets and
brocades, of silk, satin, and gold. It smelled good, too—with well-spiced meat
roasting in each of the two large fireplaces. Cray and Sepwin, having left their
horses in the care of a servant, entered, conducted by a man who wore a white
surcoat over his armor; upon his chest were figured the same bearings that Cray
knew so well, the same interlocked red lances that the battered shield under
his arm bore. The symbols were everywhere here, upon the outer gate, upon the
men-at-arms, upon shields ranked along one wall of the hall. Cray felt that at
last he had come home. The lord of the hold, Fayr Ballat, was a man of middle
age, blond and bearded, tall and loose-limbed. He received the travelers
cordially and listened to Cray's tale, from which the youth excised all mention
of sorcery. At the end, he examined the sword and shield, turning them over and
over in his hands.
"These
are my House's arms," he said at last. "This sword was made within
these walls, and this shield, too. Here are the maker's marks." He
indicated an intricate symbol pressed into the rear of the shield and the end
of the sword's pommel. "Yet, who could have carried them ... ? You are
sure he was a knight?" Cray frowned. "So he told my mother, my
lord." Fayr Ballat peered closely at the battered shield, not at the faded
design but at other parts of the face, the top, the bottom, the edges. "I
say that because this seems to be the sort of shield used by my foot soldiers.
It is simply the shield of the House, without any ar> parent personal symbol
upon it. My own shield is like this, but with the addition of a blue canton.
The
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other
knights of my family, my brothers and cousins, all have their own individual
emblems added to the basic design. So you see, this does not seem to be a
knight's shield at all."
"He
said he was the younger son of a younger son..."
"Still,"
said Fayr Ballat. "He would have some mark to set him off from others of
the House. Can you see one?"
"There
is none," said Cray. "My mother made a tapestry with his shield upon
it, and if there had been some other device, she would have shown it."
Fayr
Ballat reached out to Cray with one band, laid it lightly on the youth's shoulder.
"I will ask among my men. I don't know the name you gave, or the face you
described, but perhaps there is someone here who will remember him. He must
have left a long time ago, and if he was one of the foot soldiers, I'd not
likely recall him."
"A
foot soldier," muttered Cray.
"For
now . . . consider yourself a guest of the House of Ballat. Both of you, of
course. It was a good harvest, and we've food and to spare for the
winter."
Cray
bowed. "Thank you, my lord. We appreciate such hospitality."
Dinner
was excellent, and the lord of Mistwell was as kind and solicitous as the lord
of the East March had been cold and abrupt. This was a smaller hold, tucked
away in the foothills of the great mountains, a realm of red-cheeked,
fair-haired people who loved laughter and gaiety. Sepwin was early drawn into
their dancing, and at his urging Cray at last left the cup of dark wine that
had been the mirror of Ms soul and joined the ring. He was light on his feet,
for a youth wearing a suit of chain and a heavy heart. Later, he lay down on a
pallet in a quiet corner of the hall, while members of the household remained
by the fire, talking in low voices, their cheer noj yet ready to dissipate in
slumber. He lay on his back, staring up at the shadowed ceiling. Sepwin snored
gently beside him, having no unknown father to haunt his night. But the
darkness was long, with winter approaching, and the late dawnlight found Cray
finally overtaken by sleep.
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At
midday, Fayr Ballat came into the hall. Cray, awakened by the burgeoning
activity of the chamber, red-eyed and groggy, watched his host walk with bis
councillors, speak with the ladies of the castle, bend near the hearth where
the meal was being prepared by fat cooks. The youth waited, sitting at the far
end of a long bench, while Sepwin nosed about the room, telling extravagant
tales of the loss of his eye. He had the blue one covered for their stay at
Mistwell, and bis brown eye was being well received by pages and women and the
kitchen staff> which was moved to give him a taste of hot food before anyone
else had any.
"Pity,"
said Sepwin, when he returned to Cray's side with a trencher of meat big enough
for both of them, "can be a wonderful thing.**
"You
should know," said Cray. "You traded on it long enough."
"And
the pity of a rich house," Sepwin continued, "is clearly superior to
that of a hovel. I never begged food like this when I was alone on the road. I
can think of a peasant or two who would envy me this meal.** He grinned.
"We could do worse than winter here."
Cray
looked down at his hands, fingers interlaced upon his knee. His shoulders were
hunched, his whole body bent forward, as if the chain were unusually heavy this
day. "He has looked at me several times,*' he said. "But he chooses
not to speak. That promises ill."
"The
Seer promised ill, Cray. Why don't you ask him what he hesitates to tell you?**
"That
would be rude, Feldar. He has his House's business to attend to. I am not so
important that he would leave off his own affairs to deal with me."
"I
think he would. He seems to have a kind heart. The way he spoke to you last
night—it pained him to tell you about the shield, I could see mat plainly.**
Cray
closed his eyes. "I am of two minds on the matter. I want to know, yet I
dread the knowledge. This is the end of the road, Feldar. What he tells me will
color my whole life."
Sepwin
laid an arm across his friend's shoulders.
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*TBat
something,** he advised. "The world always looks cheerier on a full
stomach."
Cray
shook bis head. "It would be like lead inside me.*'
"Better
lead than nothing." Sepwin thrust the trencher at him. "You didn't
sleep well, I can see that At least eat."
Cray
sighed and took a morsel. He chewed without relish. "It's like dust in my
mouth.*'
"Your
stomach won't think it's dust."
The
midday meal had ended for everyone in the hall before Fayr Ballat sent a page
to fetch Cray to him.
"I
hardly know what to tell you, Master Cray," he said. "The name Mellor
means nothing to my house-* hold, nor does your description of him stir any
memories, though a description secondhand, as yours, carries no great weight
behind it. Still, the time, near sixteen years ago, proves to have some
significance— the old steward tells me that a sword and shield and suit of
chain were taken from the armory, and a horse from the stables, at about that
time. Spring it was, he said. He remembers it because he was beaten for
allowing such a thing to happen. The armory guards and the stableboys were
punished severely, but the thief was never identified. Nor did anyone ever
determine where the stolen items went."
Cray
stared at him. "Thief?"
"I
know nothing of this myself," said Fayr Ballat. tfl was just a stripling
then, my father was lord, and I paid no attention to household details. But I have
no reason to doubt the old steward's memory. I think that sword and shield must
be the ones you brought with you."
Cray's
gaze drifted from his host's face to the floor at bis feet, his head bowing as
if the ceiling were pressing down on him. At last he laughed a dry, humorless
laugh. "I was prepared to hear almost anything when I came here. I was
prepared to discover that he had been driven away from his home for some
terrible crime. Now I find the crime was real but petty. And I still don't know
who he was."
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"You
have come a long way,** said Fayr Ballat, "for so little. I am sorry
indeed."
"I
thank you for your sympathy, my lord. I will trouble you no more.'* He began to
turn away, but Fayr Ballat's strong arm stayed him. "What will you do now,
Master Cray?** "I don't know."
"You
can't return over the mountains—winter has already closed the passes. Stay here
the season. Begin your training with us; my knights are well versed in their
arts.'*
"I
have no claim on you, my lord,** said Cray. "As my father appears to have
been no one, so I am no one as well."
' "You have a strong heart,'* said Fayr
Ballat. "And, from what the stablemaster tells me, a fine horse. Sword,
shield, chain—what more could an aspiring knight need? I care less for bloodlines
than for determination and skill. You seem to have the one; we can try to give
you the other here at Mistwell. We've a long winter ahead of us and only a few
young men to train. Another mouth and another arm won't strain us." He
glanced at Sepwin, sitting on the bench across the room. "Even two
mouths.**
"We
travel together," said Cray. "Does your friend wish to be a knight,
too?" "No, my lord."
"That's
as well, I think. He hasn't the shoulders for it You have. Will you accept
MistwelTs hospitality?" "You are very kind to offer it I shall
accept" "Good lad."
As Cray
crossed the room to tell Sepwin the news, he could not help feeling that
something had died inside him this day. He wondered how much his mother could
sense through her tapestry—the emptiness in the pit of the stomach, the
heaviness of limbs and head, the world as gray as if the very color had drained
away from it? There were spiders in his clothing, waiting for the command to
spin a web in some secluded place, that he. and she could talk, but somehow he
could not bring himself to face her just now. Maybe not for a long time.
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CHAPTER
NINE
Winter
was gone, and the snows that still clung to the heights beneath the spring sun
were fast melting into icy, rushing rivulets. On every slope, new green was
burgeoning, thrusting up through the wet mulch of last year's growth, and the
hares that frequented the passes were shedding their white coats for summer's
brown. Cray and Sepwin had been picking their way northward for some days,
moving slowly on a path treacherous with chilly mud. Pebbles rolled under their
horses' steps, loosened by freeze and thaw and flowing water. Once, they
encountered a section of the road sunk more than a man's reach below its former
level, and they had to dismount and lead their steeds a precarious, tilting
scramble around the hole. Shortly after this, they fomwLa small cave which
opened from a cul-de-sac off the road, and they halted there for the night,
though the sun was still high. The cave smelled of wolves, but it contained
none. The companions built a bright blaze in its entrance, in case any former
occupants tried to return. It was their first dry camp since leaving Mistwell.
"I
would have waited till a bit later in the season," said Sepwin, "if
the decision had been mine."
Cray
shook his head. He was watching his spiders spin a large web against the cave
wall. "I had no patience for waiting. She said we would be back, so let it
be soon."
Sepwin
lay with his feet toward the fire, and the mud that encrusted his footgear
steamed in the radiant heat, turning slowly to hard clay. "I could wish
you
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weren't
so eager to prove her power,** he muttered. The spiders had done, and even as
they scuttled from the web it began to flow gray and opaque. From the silk-covered
cave wall, as if from a window cut through the mountainside, light spilled. At
Castle Spinweb, too, the sun was high, and the web chamber was brightly lit. A
bluebird perched, twittering, on the velvet coverlet; as Cray and Sepwin
watched, it took wing and flashed through the high window, into the garden. Not
long after that, Delivev came into the room.
She
wore black feathers still. Cray had seen her in nothing else all winter, the
few times he had crept away from other humans and spun a web where there were
no witnesses. She was still beautiful, he thought, but thinner now than when he
had left her, and paler than ever from the wan winter sunshine. "Where are
you, Cray?*' she asked. "In a cave some days* ride north of Mistwell,
Mother.'*
"A
cave? Are you on some quest for your lord?" Cray shook his head.
"I've left Mistwell, Mother. I'm going back to the Seer."
"The
Seer ...?*' Delivev looked at his eyes. "I thought you were happy with the
House of Ballat. I thought... that you would stay and find your knighthood
among them. They want you, don't they?"
"They
want me," said Cray. "And they have been more than kind. I have
learned so much this wintei that I can scarcely believe I knew so little
before. And above all, at Mistwell I fought real men, not bundles of cloth or
trees, but men who could dodge and strike back, men with far more skill than I.
Though I gave a good account of myself, I think. I shall always be grateful to
the House of Ballat for this winter's experience." He broke the line of their
gaze and looked to the ground. "But I had a question when I arrived at
Mistwell, and I found no answer there. I don't know where that answer lies, but
I do know that the Seer foresaw my return to her home, and so I will go there
because I can't think where else would be a better place."
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Softly,
his mother said, "You could come back to Spinweb."
He
sighed heavily. "I don't doubt that she will advise me so. But perhaps she
will have some other thought as well. I can only hope so." He lifted his
gaze to hers, and there was pain in his face. "Mother, I must know. If
there is any way in the world, I must know!"
Her
features mirrored his. "And if there is no way, my son?"
He bit
his lip very hard, tasted the blood, warm and metallic, on his tongue. "Then
I will come home," he said at last, and his voice broke on the final word.
His eyes brimmed suddenly. "Oh, how could he have done this to us?"
he blurted.
"I
respect his reasons," Delivev said. "Whatever they were."
Cray
shook his head violently.
"I
only wish," she went on, "that he could have known we had a son. You
look very well, Cray. You look strong and hard." She paused, watching the
silent tears streak his face. "Now is not the time for us to talk, I
think. Take care of yourself. I love you always. Farewell."
As the
web blanked itself, Cray covered his reddened eyes with both hands. "What
shall I do, Feldar?" he whispered. "What shall I do if the Seer has
nothing left to offer me?"
Sepwin
looked out through the cave mouth, at the mountains which lay all about them.
"It's a hard road back to Mistwell, but we know it, and we know what lies
at its end."
Slowly,
Cray held his palms out to the fire. He felt the warmth beat against his skin,
but i{ did not seem to penetrate; his whole body felt cold and stiff. "My
body may take that road," he murmured at last. "But where will my
heart go?"
Sepwin,
watching him stare into the flames, had no reply.
Delivev
sat by the tapestry of Cray's travels. It made a strange map, his route picked
out in crimson threads against the earthy colors representing moun-
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tain,
meadow, forest, and swamp. As he retraced his steps northward, the fresh
crimson squeezed among darker threads laid down when first he passed that way,
paralleling his old path; if anything significant happened on that second
passage, threads of the weft would unravel on the spot, pull behind the warp,
and knot themselves, leaving room for some fresh symbol to take shape and hint
at the event. Such symbols were scattered about the design: here was his
father's grave, here the swamp where he might have drowned, here the bandits he
slew, here the terrible disappointment of Mistwell. Each even had its own aura,
faded now, yet easy enough to recapture if she but placed her hand upon the
threads there. Delivev never did so, for there was only grief to be gained from
that. The tapestry carried no joy in its threads; Cray, who had been a joyful
child, had shed that quality like a broken toy when he left Spinweb. Often,
contemplating the tapestry as she did this day, Delivev wondered how he could
bear to wander the world when he knew that nothing but misery awaited him. You
are braver than I, my son, she said to the tapestry.
But she
was not sure that even joy would take her out of Spinweb. She, who could have
the world in her web chamber, had always preferred that to meeting it in the
flesh. She had ventured away from Spinweb only three or four times in her long
life, and none of those recently. Save for her son, all she desired lay within
easy reach of these castle walls—all she desired, at least, that could be gamed
by mortal flesh. Often, she pitied the ordinary people she saw hi the webs, who
strove to gain that which was so far beyond their reach that they used a
lifetime in pursuit, of gold, of glory, of power. Some of them wandered far in
the chase, as Cray did. Thinking about such wanderings, she could not help but
recall the greatest wanderers of all, the troubadours, and the one she had once
singled out, Lorien.
She did
not smile at that memory. She thought now that she had given him too much in
exchange for his songs, not just of fine clothing but of herself. She had made
the gifts of cloth to salve her conscience, to
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recompense
him for the shabby treatment he had seen at her hands and for the false
impression he had gained from her behavior—that she wanted more of him than
music. The gifts of herself she had not given freely, her words, her demeanor,
her solitude that be had woven already into the cloth of songs, with the magic
of his voice. She had heard him in the webs, and she knew when he sang of her,
though he embellished her mystery into a tale with beginning and end that bore
no resemblance to reality. Now part of her would always be hi the world beyond
Spinweb, though her body stayed within these walls, and she would never look
into a distant castle through the webs without wondering what was known of her
there.
He knew
she watched him sometimes; she could see that knowledge in his eyes. And
spiderwebs drew his gaze, so that be occasionally appeared to be looking
straight at her, and she had the haunting sensation that he could see her face.
He had found her spiders riding in his clothing, but he had made no attempt to
destroy them. They had an unspoken agreement, he and she, and both had paid for
it with fragments of then- privacy.
She
went to the web chamber and conjured his image on one gossamer curtain. Far
away, he sat on a fine-carved chair with velvet upholstery and gilded lions'
feet for legs. A rich house: he had been there some months already, and his
hosts showed no sign of tiring of his company. At this moment, he sang in an
upper room of the great keep, and hah* a dozen young women sat on cushions at
his feet, enthralled by his music. His song was not of Deh'vev, however
transmogrified, but of dragons and knights and brave deeds, and the listeners
were flame-cheeked with the excitement of the tale. When the last note died
away, they clapped their hands in delight, and when the delight wore off they
sighed all around and complained of having to leave his music so early in the
day. They shuffled out of his chamber with many a backward glance, many a
maidenly blush at the smile he gave them all.
One
stayed behind. She had wrapped herself in the arras as her sisters drifted out.
So quiet she stood there
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that
they never noticed she was not among them, or perhaps they did notice, but only
after the door had shut firmly behind them. Their voices receded quickly beyond
the heavy door, and Lorien turned away from it, laying his lute on the table as
he often did. While his back was turned, she thrust the drapery aside and
stepped toward him. The rustle of her skirts was loud in the new stillness of
the room, and Lorien looked over his shoulder. She smiled at him then and held her
arms out to him, and he moved toward her hi a way that showed he had touched
her before. They kissed and then he broke away from her, and his image loomed
large in the web as he walked to it, bent close, and brushed it aside with a
hand. The view of his room vanished as the silken latticework crumpled.
Delivev
could have had her spiders spin afresh, but she did not. Let them have their
rendezvous if they wish, alone. She found herself wondering what the young
woman thought of her lover's action—perhaps that it was just a little quirk of
his that he could not bear cobwebs in the comers of his room, nothing to pay
any heed,, even if it did seem to come over him at times when bis mind should
have been otherwise occupied. Delivev smiled sadly. In her observations of
troubadours, she had noted that they never had any trouble finding love, no
matter what their personal oddities, the ugly face, the crippled leg, the
youth, the age; it was the music, she thought, and the tales they brought to
women whose sole contact with the greater world they were. Only she, Delivev,
with her silken windows to everywhere, was immune to the lure of the
troubadour. She could hardly blame Lorien for thinking that she was the same as
all the others, that she had brought him to her by magic for love. / am too
old, she thought, for love. She raised an arm clad in black feathers and
conjured a different castle upon the web, different faces, different voices. A
piece of needlecraft rolled through the doorway of the web chamber and scrambled
up the coverlet like a live creature, to give her hands something to work upon.
In the web scene, too, a woman sat quiet in a high-backed chair, fingers busy
with embroidery. But her clothing was bright, her smile
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as
sunny as the spring afternoon that entered her home through slitted windows. At
her feet, two small boys were tumbling with a pair of dogs, laughing, squealing
in their pleasure. Occasionally, their mother cautioned them not to be too
rough with the animals.
Delivev
thought of Cray, of course. She wished that she could hear him laugh once more.
The sun
shone bright and dusty on the waxy leaves of the Seer's tree. Cray and Sepwin
were dusty, too, from the long, dry ride. Gone were the chill, fast-flowing
streams of the mountains, gone the muck that slowed their horses* steps, gone
the pale green of spring's first growth, all far behind them. Summer had begun,
hot, merciless, and the intermittent shade of the trees that overhung the road
could scarcely moderate it.
In the
entry to her home, she was waiting for them, a carafe of cool wine in her
hands. "I knew you would come today."
They
drank gratefully, then followed her inside to the room of the dark pool and the
sandy Moor, where the sun never penetrated. It was cold there, by contrast with
the blazing summer outside, and within moments Cray's and Sepwin's sweat-soaked
clothing was chill and clammy against their skin. Seeing them shiver, the Seer
brought blankets from behind the door at the far end of the room, and they
wrapped themselves snugly.
"You
have had the bad news,'* said the Seer.
"I
have," replied Cray, "and it was full as terrible as you foresaw. Now
I hope you can tell me what to do next."
She sat
him down on the rim of the pool, and seated herself beside him. With one hand
she touched his forehead, where the sweat-damp hair clung in ringlets; with the
other she caressed the surface of the water, as if it were a living creature to
be petted. "How disappointing it was for you," she murmured.
"And yet you put your time at Mistwell to good use."
"I
took what I was offered, my lady. It was considerable."
"And
you paid the price that was asked. You pol-
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ished
armor and chopped wood and fetched water and even hurled offal in the frozen
ground. And you did all these things without a word of complaint, without a
surly glance, yes, with a smile and a cheerful word, though your heart ached
within you. You are a good lad, Cray; I have seen that from the moment you
first entered my house."
Cray
shrugged. "They were kind to me. I did not want to seem ungrateful."
The
Seer nodded at Sepwin, who sat huddled in his blanket on the sand at Cray's
feet. "And your friend worked as well, though not without complaint;
still, he did his share."
Sepwin
looked up at her hesitantly. "He has muscles from swinging his sword, and
I have none. It was harder for me. Still . . . I'd swear that both fireplaces
in the main hall burned my choppings all winter. And not once did anyone kick
me or spit on me for being a beggar. I'm not a beggar anymore. That's Cray's
doing. What's a little wood-chopping in return for that? Even if I did
complain."
Cray's
hand snaked out of his blanket and delivered a playful cuff to Sepwin's ear.
"You wouldn't be yourself if you didn't complain a bit."
"They
would have you back at Mistwell," said the Seer. "Whenever you chose
to go back, they would welcome both of you."
Cray
looked at her steadily. "And will we go back?" She dipped her hand
into the water and lifted a cupped handful of it. Though the pool was night-dark,
the liquid in her hand was clear and colorless, and it sparkled in the
torchlight as she flattened her palm and let it dribble away. "Do you want
to go back?" she said.
"I
don't know."
"It
would be a good place for you. You would make a name for yourself in service to
the House of Ballat."
"Will
I?"
She
gazed at him sidelong, her hand uplifted, droplets of water still falling from
her pale skin, like teardrop gemstones. "You still want to find your
father. You would not have returned to me if the House of Ballat had been
enough for you."
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"Yes.
Of course. Tell me what to do! You are my last hope. I have nowhere left to
turn, my lady!"
"I
could say ... turn home. Or turn to Mistwell. But I know those are not the
answers you seek." Her hand on his forehead moved down his face, to his
cheek, to the line of his jaw, across his throat to the back of his neck. She
cradled his head in her hand. "You have courage, lad. Courage must cany
you to the only other means of answering your question."
"Tell
me!"
Her wet
hand touched his blanket-covered shoulder and gripped hard—through wool and
chain and quilting he could feel the pressure. "You must go back to his
grave," she said. "And you must dig up his bones and bring them to
me. Every one of them. I need them all, don't leave a single bone behind."
He
started, shrank away from her, but only a hairs-breadth, for she held him,
"His bones?"
"I
must have them. Then I can tell you where he was born, where raised. And you
will go there and seek yourself. I can do no more than that."
"His
bones," Cray whispered. He looked down at the pool, where the surface
still rippled gently from the drops that had fallen from her hand. "I must
disturb his bones?"
"There
is no other way. His sword and shield have told us nothing. What else
remains?"
"My
lady ... this is a hard request.**
"I
know."
"To
tear him from the peace of the earth like a weed from a field of gram, to
bundle his poor bones in a sack as if they were no more than billets of wood .
. ." He swallowed against a thickness in his throat. "And ... to
expose to the light of day that which no longer belongs in it, wormy, rotting .
. ." He closed his eyes against the vision that his words conjured.
"I
promise you," the Seer said softly, "that after so many years hi the
earth there will be no worms. Just bones, clean bones. But you are the only one
who can decide if your quest is important enough for this last effort."
Her hands fell away from him.
Cray
looked into her compassionate face, into her pale eyes that seemed to hold all
the sorrows of the
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world
in their depths ... or at least all the sorrows of his own world. At that
moment, she made him think of his mother, though it was only the expression and
not the face itself that called that memory. He thought of his mother, and of
all the nights of weeping that he knew, and all the nights there must have been
before he was old enough to notice. Then he looked at Sepwin, companion of so
many travels. "Feldar?" he said.
Wide-eyed,
Sepwin returned his gaze. "What do you want me to say?"
"Will
you come with me?"
Sepwin
glanced from his friend to the Seer and back. "It's evil luck to dig up a
grave. What has been buried must remain so, or the bones will curse you."
"I
don't believe that," Cray said firmly. "I do believe that it is the
ultimate disrespect to disturb a grave." He took a deep breath. "But
he would understand that I have no other choice. I am too far along the trail
to shirk now—I must follow it to the end, to whatever end."
"Well,
he was your father," Sepwin said slowly. "I suppose if anyone has a
right to disturb the grave, you have."
"You
needn't come along if the prospect frightens you."
Sepwin's
lips tightened. "I am not afraid. I, who have one eye blue and the other
brown, am not afraid of silly superstitions! I'll go with you."
"Thank
you, my friend." Cray's hand snaked out from beneath his blanket and met
Sepwin's in midair, clasped tightly. "I will never forget this." He
turned his face to the Seer. "What do you see now, lady, in my
future?"
"I
see a good friend," she replied, smiling. "And what else? More
misery?" She touched his hand, their two hands, lightly. "I see
considerable travel yet ahead of you; though you have journeyed far already,
your quest has scarcely begun. There is misery, yes; how not? You are
unraveling a lie, and therein dwells much misery. But I will not give you the
advice I gave you once before; I know
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you
will not take it. A good journey to you, Cray. I think I need not say... have
courage."
Cray
rose, throwing off the blanket, and he bowed to her. "I will see you again
soon, my lady. Fare you well."
The
summer sun seemed pleasantly warm after the chill of the cave. The two
companions had ridden some distance, and their clothing had dried in the warm
air and begun to dampen again with their sweat when Sepwin cleared his throat
to speak.
"Will
you tell your mother about this part of the quest?"
"No.
She'd only try to talk me out of it. She'd have good reasons, too—all the
reasons I've already thought of and rejected. Truly, though, she doesn't want
to know who he was, nor anything about him. He was like a dream for her, and
she doesn't want reality to spoil the dream. Perhaps if I had known him, I
might feel the same." He shrugged. "But she will know, of course. The
longer I am on this quest, the more I wish she were only an ordinary mortal,
with no power to look over my shoulder, to know everything I do, everywhere I
go. She will know, through her tapestry, but not until the deed is done."
"What
will you tell her, then, when she asks what we're doing now?"
"I.think
. . . that the Seer asked for some soil from the grave to divine from. That I
should have brought that before, along with the sword and shield, but I didn't
know, of course, that it might be needed."
"You
think she'll believe that?"
"Why
not?"
"She
might ask the Seer herself what you had been sent for."
"Only
if the expression on your face is as it is now when next she sees you, Feldar.
Perhaps you had best practice an innocent gaze until then."
"Innocent?"
"Yes.
Just now you look like you've stolen a handful of gems and are afraid their
owner is coming after you."
Sepwin
looked down at his horse's mane, "ni do my best."
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"I,
too," said Cray.
"You
know," Sepwin murmured, after they had ridden on a bit, "we don't
have a spade.'*
"We'll
buy one along the way somewhere. There will be towns, Feldar, and wine and food
and many a campsite between here and there." Cray sighed. "Foi once,
I could wish to be a sorcerer and have the power to fly where I would instead
of this endless riding."
*Td
rather ride," said Sepwin. "The fall from a
horse
is considerably less than the fall from the sky."
Cray
smiled. "If I were a sorcerer, my friend, you
would
never fall. But I'd wager you'd keep your eyes
closed
the whole trip."
"What—these
eyes closed to sorcery? After the things they have seen already?"
"They've
seen precious little, Feldar." "More than most mortal eyes." He
grinned at his companion. "There aren't many ordinary folk who've had the
chance to travel with such as you, Cray. You often say you're not a sorcerer,
but you are sorcerer enough for me, believe me, or for anyone who has only a
mortal's power over the world. When I tossed your spiders at those bandits, I
felt your power, Cray, and though to you it is nothing, to me it was wondrous.
Why you would give it up to be a mere knight is beyond my comprehension."
Cray
regarded him sidelong. "If you had grown up with my paltry skills at
sorcery, if you knew the greater powers that exist that are so far beyond me
that they would take an ordinary mortal lifetime to learn properly, you would
not think my few skills so wondrous." "But you would have a longer
life, as well, in which to learn them."
"What
is that to me," asked Cray, "if I must spend that life in a way that
gives me no contentment?" "I could be content so, I think."
"You know who your father was." "You care too much, Cray, about
that. Yon are yourself, not him."
Cray
shook his head. "I am not myself until I know who he was. I am no one
without that knowledge." In his mind, he could hear his mother's soft
weeping. "I don't expect you to understand, Feldar.'*
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"I
don't," said his friend. "But I will follow anyway, and hope for your
sake that we will find an answer this time."
The hut
was deserted. Its thatched roof had caved in since their visit the previous
year, and the few pieces of simple furniture inside were ruined by snow and
rain. Behind the hut, where the old man had kept his fire, where he had
cultivated his grain and vegetables, was a tangle of weeds like the rest of the
abandoned fields. .
"He
must have died this winter," said Sepwin.
"Or
perhaps one of his children came back and took him away to a cheerier
home," said Cray. He stood hi the doorway, contemplating the ruined
interior, lit by bright sunlight through the rent roof. "I don't see any
body. There is his bed ... empty."
"Some
passerby may have buried him. Or he may lie hi the fields somewhere."
"We'll
look for him," said Cray. "We owe him a burial, surely."
They
searched the overgrown fields and the woods nearby, but they found no trace of
the old man, and at last they were forced to give up by the setting sun. In the
twilight, they cleared the hut of its fallen roof, and Cray set his spiders to
spin a new one of silk, to shelter them for the night.
Neither
slept well, thinking of the task that awaited dawn light.
They
had some small difficulty in finding the grave patch, so overgrown was it with
weeds and grain gone wild. The three marker stones seemed like so many boulders
among the tares, the mounds of the graves themselves like mere hummocks of the
earth. The wild flowers that had decked them were lost now, in the rank
greenery. Pulling tough stems out by the roots, Cray cleared the tangle from
the third grave, the one with the roughest marker. Then he began to dig. The
two companions only had one spade between them; when Cray tired of chopping at
earth hardened with years of repose, Sepwin took over. They had burrowed almost
the height of a man into the earth, marveling at
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the
diligent gravedigging of an old man, when Sepwin struck metal. Something
chinked beneath the spade.
"Stop,"
said Cray, jumping down into the hole with his friend. "We'll damage them
if we dig farther with that," He stooped and began to scrabble at the dirt
with his knife and his bare hands. Sepwin tossed the spade up to the rim of the
excavation and knelt to help him.
The sun
was at its zenith, its rays Ruminating as much of the bottom of the hole as
they could at this season, by the time Cray and Sepwin had uncovered the entire
suit of chain mail. The badly rusted chain was laid out flat, as if upon the
body of a man; the rotted remnants of a surcoat covered the links, and the
quilted padding was inside, brown and delicate, shredding at the lightest
touch. Leather gloves and boots, half disintegrated, rested where hands and
feet would have been.
There
were no bones.
Cray
dug on, after sending Sepwin to the surface with chain and cloth and leather.
He dug on alone, with knife and bare hands, till the hole was too deep for him
to climb from without a rope, till he needed a torch to show him the bottom,
far from sunlight, far from the heat of the afternoon. He paid no heed to his
friend's voice, falling continuously from above, begging him to come back to
the daylight, pleading that no man, young or old, would dig a grave so deep. He
dug on, till almost half of every clod he tossed upward to the rim fell back
upon him, till water began to seep into his work and collapse the walls as
quickly as he could dig out the floor. Only then, at last, did he rise to
unsteady legs, fingers numb from the chilling mud, and allow his spiders to
spin bun a silken ladder for ascent to the realms of the living. Halfway up, he
dropped the torch behind him, and it snuffed itself out in the wetness below.
Black with muck, his hands bloody from long scrabbling, he clambered to the
surface. He had found only stones.
Sepwin
made him sit by their campfire, where a pot of stew was bubbling for the
evening meal. The sun was low and red hi the west, and already the summer air
was beginning to cool. Cray could hardly believe
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he had
been digging for so long. He stretched his hands out to the flames, and the
numbness began to drain from them with that warmth, but they shook—his whole
body shook, muscles overstrained, as if he had been swinging a sword all day.
Sepwin brought a cloth and water and began to clean the dirt and blood from his
companion's skin, from gouges and scrapes that bled afresh with the rubbing.
Cray tried to help him, awkwardly, but his fingers were too weary, too leaden
to grasp the cloth, so he gave up and merely sat still, letting Sepwin tend
him.
"You'll
hardly be able to move tomorrow," said Sepwin.
"I'll
be all right." He stared down at the damp and rusty pile of chain near his
feet. Earth still clung to it, and the scent of the earth as well, dank and
moldy. "What reason could there be in the world, Feldar," he
murmured, "for burying the armor without the man who wore it?"
Sepwin
poured more water on the cloth and gently swabbed at his friend's face.
"He said he buried the man."
"He
couldn't have!"
Sepwin
shrugged. "What motive would he have for lying, Cray? He didn't know who
you were."
Cray's
head drooped low. "Then the body must have been dug up since it was
buried."
"The
old man would have known about that, surely."
"Not
if it happened after he was gone."
"The
ground was hard," said Sepwin. "Too hard to have been disturbed so
recently."
"You
think so?"
"I've
handled a plow. I know virgin soil. Fifteen years is time enough for a grave to
become as firm."
"Then
he was never there at all. We come back to a lie, the old man's lie."
"I
think he spoke the truth," said Sepwin. "He buried a body there. It
wore this suit of chain, the clothing."
Cray
squinted at him in the fading light. "How do you explain the lack of
bones, then, Master Feldar?"
Sepwin
reached for the stew pot, poured a share into the bowl Cray used and another
into his own. "I ex-
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plain
it as you would, if you were thinking properly, if you weren't so tired that
you'll fall asleep before you've had dinner if you don't eat quickly. I explain
it by magic."
"Magic?"
Sepwin
nodded. "Where you are involved, my friend, I always suspect magic."
"But
there was no magic involved in his death.'*
"No?
Well, perhaps not, but ... were you there to judge it?"
Cray
frowned. "You think the old man was deceived somehow?"
"I
don't know what to think. Only that there is no other explanation at all. How else
would one draw a body out of its grave without disturbing the wrappings or the
grave?"
Cray
closed his eyes, let the savory smell from the bowl hi his hands fiU his
nostrils. "How else indeed?" he murmured.
Sepwin
poked him in the shoulder. "Eat now. We can talk about it tomorrow."
Cray
ate.
In the
morning, they gathered up the chain and the rotted cloth and a spiderweb sack
full of the soil from the grave, to take back to the Seer with them.
"I
seem to have told my mother the truth after all," Cray said, loading the
parcel of earth into one of his saddlebags..
"Do
you think the Seer will be able to see anything in that dirt?"
"I
don't know. That's why we'll bring all of this." He shrugged. "I even
have a few of the wild flowers here. The old man must have planted them years
ago. Maybe they'll help."
"Something
will help/* said Sepwin. "Remember the lady Helaine said that you had a
long journey still ahead of you, that your quest had barely begun."
"Yes,"
said Cray, mounting Gallant. "I take heart from that, from knowing that
however bleak things look right now, this isn't the end. Come on now, this
looks-like a good day for traveling."
The
Seer shook her head slowly. "None of this tells 194
me
anything, Cray. The chain, the clothing, comes from the same place the sword
and shield did. Nor have these any more identity than those had. The earth and
flowers . . ." She gazed at him sadly. "They are empty. There was
never a human body buried in that earth; human flesh never nourished these
flowers. I know nothing more about him now than I did the last time you saw me,
Cray." She reached out for him, to touch his shoulders lightly with both
her hands. "I am sorry."
"It
can't be true." He searched her pale eyes. "There must be more."
"There
is nothing."
Cray
covered his face with his hands. **What shall I do now?"
Sepwin,
who had stood behind his friend while they spoke to the Seer, now fell to his
knees before her in the sand. "Kind lady," he said, "if it be
true that no human flesh was ever buried hi this earth, then what was it that
the old man saw and spoke to and buried? What was it that chopped his wood for
the winter, if it was not a human being?"
The
Seer gazed down at him, a frown marring the smooth whiteness of her forehead.
"I don't know. An illusion, perhaps."
"Wearing
real armor?**
"Even
so."
"Then
... if Cray's father was an illusion . . . who was his father?"
The
Seer dipped one hand into her pool. "You must understand something about
the limits of my power, Feldar Sepwin," she said. "Ordinary human
beings are as books to me, the pages of the past transparent and full of bold,
black writing, the pages of the future blurred and shadowy—yet I am accustomed
to interpreting shadows. You are such a book, and you cannot close yourself to
me. But Cray ... Cray has lived most of his life within the walls of Castle
Spinweb, and there I cannot see, nor into any sorcerer's home. I read only the
pages of his book that were written beyond Spin-web's confines; there are
enough of them, though, to show me the important facts of his life. Of his
mother, I can see nothing; she and all the others of the sor-
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cerous
breed have lives forever beyond me." She nodded slowly. "There is
sorcery at work here, and not just on Cray's mother's side. But I can give no
aid in puzzling it out."
Cray
gripped her arm. "Who can?"
"Oh,
there are those who can, I am sure, but none who will."
"What
do you mean?'*
"Whoever
your father is, he has gone to great lengths to hide his identity, or someone
has done so for him. There are sorcerers who can ferret out such information,
they who command demons, but none of them would betray a fellow by giving it to
you. They leave each other alone—you know that, Cray; they keep uneasy truces
among themselves, and none will chance another's wrath by revealing his
secrets,"
"Not
even for a price?"
She
flicked her fingers against the water, making it ripple hi overlapping circles.
"You don't have that kind of price."
"I
could earn it. Even if it took me years."
"It
wouldn't be gold, Cray. A demon can find its master all the gold he
needs."
"What
then?"
"Knowledge.
Power."
Cray
bowed his head.
"I
know this is a hard end for you, lad," she said softly.
He
clasped his hands and, elbows on his knees, leaned forward to rest his brow on
the interlaced fingers. "Where is the long quest you prophesied? Where is
the journey scarcely begun? Am I to rush away from here to search aimlessly
through the world, asking at every door for my father? Am I to ride on until I
drop, without plan or hope?"
She
touched his hair with her wet ringers. "There is another way."
His
head snapped up. "Tell me."
"I
don't think you'll like it."
"Let
me judge."
"The
secrets of this world, even sorcerers* secrete, are available to the demons.
They pass human information freely among them, like so much gossip, and
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they
will give it to the person who knows how to ask for it. Learn to summon such a
creature yourself, and it will answer your questions."
Cray's
lips pursed whitely. "Become a sorcerer, you mean."
"Yes."
"And
put aside all I have learned, all I have striven for, all I have been for my
whole life?"
"If
you would know your father's name, yes."
Cray
rose heavily and turned away from her. The white sand yielded under his feet as
he walked slowly from the pool. "My lady," he murmured, "that is
a heavier price than gold." He lifted his eyes to the walls, to their
flashing specks of crystal, like stars in a firmament of black rock. Wavering
torchlight gave them the illusion of motion, and that made him feel dizzy. A
whirlpool seemed to yawn beneath his feet, sucking at him like the muck of the
swamp, and he reached out for some support to keep him from falling in, but
there was none. And then, suddenly, there was: Sepwin, gripping his friend's arm
with surprising strength.
"You
have the courage," Sepwin said, "to do as the lady Helaine says, and
afterward to go back to knighthood."
"I
wanted him to be proud of me," Cray muttered. "What is knighthood to
me now that I know he wasn't a knight?"
"You
don't know anything of the sort.**
"He
was not a knight!" Cray said loudly, and his voice echoed from the walls.
"No proper knight would have been involved in such a lie!"
"Perhaps
not a proper knight. . .**
"Beggar
or sorcerer, sage or fool—he could have been anyone!" He patted Sepwin's
hand that clutched his arm. "Ah, Feldar, I thought it could be no worse
than on that day at Mistwell. How wrong I was! And how right the lady Helaine .
. . The apprenticeship will be long, a long journey indeed. But my mother will
be pleased."
"What
will you tell her?" asked Sepwin.
Cray
looked at his free arm, slipped the sleeve up to expose the chain he had worn
so long. Spiders rested
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within
some of the links, as if in tiny nests. "I shall tell her that I have
changed my mind. No more than that. No more."
"Will
she believe that, after all this time?**
"She'U
want to believe it. And it's true enough." Without looking back at her, he
said to the Seer, "Tell me how I may apprentice myself to the proper sort of
sorcerer, my lady. I would do so as soon as possible.*'
"I
can communicate your desire to the sorcerous community. Surely there will be
some few who wish apprentices but have no children of their own. You are
welcome to stay here, Cray, until one is found."
'Thank
you, lady. You are very kind. But I cannot impose. I have not even paid your
fee."
"There
will be time for that, when you are a sorcerer and have something worth paying
with."
He
glanced back at her sharply. "You knew. You knew all the time that this
would happen."
She
smiled at him. "I knew that, one way or another, you would return to
sorcery. I knew, because I could not see anything after this last journey of
yours. But what sort .of sorcery you would choose ... I could only guess that. Don't
be angry with me, Cray. I have given you choices, not made them for you.** She
rose from the rim of the pool and stretched a hand out to him. "Come.
There are rooms and rooms beyond this one, and soft beds and every comfort of
the finest castle. Accept my hospitality."
Stiffly,
he bowed. "As you wish, my lady. But first, Master Feldar, will you help
me shed (his suit of chain? I haven't any further need for it.*'
Sepwin
helped him, and so did the Seer, and both pretended not to notice the tears
that streamed down his cheeks as the links rattled and chinked and dropped
finally to the pure white sand.
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CHAPTER
TEN
Rezhyk
stormed across the workshop, his metal-studded boots ringing like bronze bells
upon the polished floor. All around him, the minor demons that lit the chamber
cringed in response to his anger, their flames burning low in the sconces that
had never held candles. Then- master hardly noticed. "Why did you not tell
me about the child?" he shouted.
Gildrum
sat on her high stool, twisting one blond braid slowly hi her hands. "We
always assumed there would be no child," she said softly. "We were so
certain, I never thought to question that certainty." From the corner of
her eye, she watched him pace the confines of the room. Rarely had she seen him
in such a rage, not since the day Delivev Ormoru spurned nun. "You never
sent any of us to find out if there was a child."
He
shook a finger at her, sharply., as if he could spray lightning bolts from the
tip, and gems and gold flashed on his rigid hand. "This is your fault!
Your advice has brought us to this pass!"
Gildrum
dipped her head meekly and stared down at the pale blue fabric that covered her
knees. "As you say, my lord."
"Would
that I had never listened to you!" His hand curled into a fist and then
opened, to clutch at his own chest and the heavy brocade that cloaked the
cloth~o£-gold shirt. "A child,*' he muttered. "What sane woman,
sorceress or no, would want to keep a stranger's child?" His free hand
struck the workbench a resounding blow, and the brazier jumped with its force,
scattering
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some of
the coals upon the smooth work surface. Heedless of their heat, Rezhyk swept
the embers to the floor with a bare palm and crushed them under his foot.
"A momentary diversion—of course I can understand that, as who would not?
But to keep the fruit of a few night's pleasure, to throw away a portion of
one's life hi raising the by-blow of an ordinary mortal—it is beyond belief!
What can I think of a woman who would do such a thing?"
"That
she is very different from yourself," Gildrum murmured.
"Unless—she
suspects!"
"Suspects
what, my lord?"
"That
you were something more than a mere knight."
"I
never gave cause for any such impression, my lord. I obeyed your command and
used no magic near her. Nor did she ever demonstrate any suspicion . . ."
"Afterward,
my Gildrum, when you were gone, when she had plenty of time to think,
alone."
"To
think on what, my lord? There was no evidence."
Rezhyk
leaned over the brazier, where the few remaining coals barely glowed deep red.
He picked up a glass rod which lay nearby and stirred the embers with it,
prodding thin yellow flames from them before they crumbled to ash. "She
has some motive here," he said. "She is a wily woman. Her hand is hi
his request for apprenticeship, I know it. What would the boy want with another
sort of magic than his mother's, after all? He knows nothing of demons; why
should he want to master them?"
"Do
you find that so hard to understand, my lord?" asked Gildrum. "You chose
them yourself."
"Both
my parents were demon-masters; I never thought to be anything else. But his
mother has power over creatures of the earth—spiders and snakes and other such
low life. She thinks that a superior form of sorcery, deluded woman; she is too
proud to consider that something else might be greater. She scorned my demon
mastery. Why^then would she advise a child of hers to apprentice to it?"
"Perhaps
she did not advise him so, my lord. Per-
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haps he
has chosen to ignore whatever advice she gave him. I have observed, in my
travels among human beings, that children do not always listen to their
parents' advice."
"I
wish I dared believe that." He gripped the glass rod tightly, his eyes
staring off into nothing.
Gildrum
wound the curling end of one braid about her fingers, like ribbon around a
spindle, waiting for her master's next statement, and when some moments had
passed in silence, she murmured, "What else might you believe, my
lord?"
His
voice was low and distant. "That she has changed her mind. That she has
decided Jo add the powers of a demon-master to her strength."
"But
my lord, if she scorns them as inferior . . . ?"
"She
scorns them, my Gildrum, but even she could not deny that they have their uses.
With two kinds of sorcery at her command, she would be a formidable power
indeed among sorcerers. Her enemies would lie awake at night, wondering how
they could defend themselves, while she slept easy." He turned his head,
and his eyes focused on the demon, a baleful stare. "I am her enemy, my
Gildrum." His hand, which gripped the rod so tensely that the knuckles
showed white, jerked convulsively, and the glass snapped between his thumb and
forefinger. The broken end struck the workbench with a high, musical sound and
rolled back across the smooth surface to the edge, over the edge, and shattered
on the floor.
Gildrum
slid off the stool. "Are you hurt, my lord?" she asked, reaching for
his hand with both of hers.
He
lowered his gaze to his hand then, as if only just realizing what he had done,
and he opened his fingers. A bright bead of blood was collecting on the first
knuckle. "It's nothing," he said.
Gildrum
peered close at the injured flesh, found no glass in the wound, then knelt to
gather the glittering fragments that lay at her master's feet. She swept them
together as if they were crumbs of bread fallen from the dinner table, with
hands that could not be cut "You have your shirt, my lord," she said,
"and your own demons. Why do you worry so?"
"I
know the limits of her power now, and I am safe
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from
them," he replied. "But afterward, when she has control of rings
..." He shook his head. "It won't be her control," said Gildrum.
"No? He is her son, is he not, my Gildrum? He sees the world as she has
taught him to see it. His enemies are her enemies. Will you tell me such a
mother and son would not work together for then1 ends?**
"I
don't know, my lord. Still, they are two separate people; their desires cannot
be identical.1*
Rezhyk
flicked the drop of blood from his finger into the embers of the brazier, where
it hissed softly and was gone. "Of course she would do better to gain
power by apprenticing herself,*1 he muttered. "But what sorcerer would be
mad enough to take her on? Or even to let her step inside the confines of his
home? Even the most foolish of us—even one . . . besotted with love of her . .
." He grimaced, as if something bitter had just touched his tongue.
"Well, such a one might let her in, but even he would never show her the
secrets of his art." He turned his back to the workbench and leaned
against it, crooking his elbows to rest them upon it. "Her unschooled
child, though, is a different matter. Innocent. Unformed. There are those among
us who would see no harm in his apprenticeship."
Gildrum
dusted the glass particles from her hands into the bin that normally received
ashes and discarded metal fragments. "You think someone will take him on,
my lord?"
"Eventually,
yes." He sighed. "And then I shall have seven years, or perhaps ten,
in which to wonder what will happen when he is mature."
"She
has never tried to do you any harm, my lord, in all the years you have been
proof against her."
"It
has not been so many years, my Gildrum. And perhaps she has only been waiting
... until her partner was ready." He touched his chest with both palms.
"Will this be enough then? Or must I spend the next seven years rinding
some better protection?" He bowed his head, and his eyes closed.
"What shall I do, my Gildrum? What can I do?"
The
demon climbed back onto the high stool and
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swung
her legs in the space below the seat. "My lord, you regretted taking the
last advice I offered."
He
raised his head to glare at her. "Have you a suggestion? Speak!"
Gildrum
shrugged. "Become her friend."
Color
rushed to Rezhyk's cheeks. "I expect no such nonsense from you."
"Then
trust the strength you have, my lord. Ring-forge is solid; I built it as well
as fortress could be built. Add in the shirt you wear, and what more defense
could be devised?"
Rezhyk's
lips tightened. "Well, I must know, at least, to whom he goes. You will
discover that for me, my Gildrum."
"Yes,
my lord; nothing easier.**
"I
must know the range available to him, how many and what sort of demons his
master—when he has one —commands."
"Such
information can be obtained, my lord," said Gildrum, "if you will
give me leave to spend some time hi my own world."
"Yes.
Yes, I shall. I need you for many things, but this is more important than any
of them." His hands closed into fists. "If only there were some way
to steer him to a lesser sorcerer, to one whose powers were so circumscribed
that I would have no need to worry. To trick him, somehow, into making a poor
choice." He frowned mightily. **No, to convince some sorcerer of little
skill to ask for him before a better one does— therms the nut. What does the
boy know, after all? He'll probably go with the first to make an offer. Who
could I ask, my Gildrum? Whose powers are so insignificant that I need not fear
them?'*
"I
can think of one or two, my lord, but they owe you no favors."
"No
one owes me favors, my Gildrum; But they fear me."
Gildrum
shrugged. "Do they fear you enough to train a person they know nothing
about, that they may have to fear as weU someday?"
"No
sorcerer need fear his own apprentice."
"The
apprentice is usually one's flesh and blood, my
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lord,
and such a tie makes a good reason for that lack of fear. But in this case
..."
"You
think the teacher fears the pupil, my Gildrum? Hardly. Who is better suited to
combat the student's sorcery than the one who taught it to him?"
Gildrum
smiled. "Just so, my lord. That leaves a clear choice. There is a person
to apprentice Delivev Ormoru's child in a way which will suit you."
"Who?"
"Don't
you know, my lord?"
"Speak,
demon!"
She
laughed. "Why look in any mirror, my lord. Look to the bronze of yonder
wall, and you shall see his face."
Cray
and Sepwin listened at the door, held barely ajar by a dagger's blade. Beyond
the panel lay the chamber of the pool, and the Seer, speaking softly to a great
prince of the ordinary world. The youths had been in her house many days
already, and this was .the first visitation in that time, an old man seeking
the future of his line. He wore much gold and heavy brocade, but his shoulders
seemed to stoop under more than the load of garments.
"There
will be sons yet, with a new wife,** the Seer was telling hin^ "but you
will see none of them grown."
Sepwin
nudged Cray. "I could have told him that," he whispered. His eye to
the aperture, he could see a sliver of the room—the Seer's black-clad back and
her questioner, seated on the rim of the pool, his eyes magnetized by her
fingers trailing in the water, "You don't need to be a Seer to know that
one won't last another ten years."
"Hush,"
said Cray. "He'll hear you."
"Will
my nephew inherit then?" asked the prince. His voice was thin and reedy,
and staccato with his
anxiety.
"There
will be a joint regency," the Seer replied. "Your wife and her
father, till her eldest by you comes of age. So choose her well, O prince; your
people will suffer otherwise."
"Choose
her and choose her father, too, you mean,"
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he
muttered. He shook his head. "Tell me whom it shall be!"
The
Seer's fingers splashed in the pool. "Are you no judge of women that I
must select your bride? Or of men? Go home and look around you. You are no
beardless boy ruled by your heart alone."
"Tell
me," he said again. "I've paid you well to read my future."
"Have
you paid me also to govern your land? For that is what I do if I choose your
wife for you.'*
"But
you know the future.. ."
"I
do. And if I should tell you, O prince . . . ever after you will wonder, I
promise you, if you married her because it was wise or because I told you
to."
The old
man was silent for a long time, staring into the pool as if he could see more
than blackness there. At last he stood up stiffly. "I thank you, lady, for
your words. I must return to my country now; I have been gone too long
already."
"You
will find your people safe and happy and eager to greet you."
"And
the fathers of the eligible girls the most eager of all?"
"Undoubtedly."
He
bowed. "Well, I know, at least, which ones will be disappointed."
The
Seer inclined her head. "That is the first step, O prince."
He
turned and strode down the tunnel that led to sunlight, his step firmer than
his voice and bearing would have suggested. Outside, his train waited, horses
and men sweating in the heat of the day; the caravan was lighter by a chest of
gold 'than when it had arrived. The chest lay at the Seer's feet, half buried
in the sand. She had not bothered to open it and verify the contents—she needed
neither sight nor smell nor touch of the coins to know they were sufficient.
"You
may come out from behind the door now, lads," she said.
Rather
sheepishly, they emerged. "We meant no discourtesy," Cray began.
"We were only very curious, lady."
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"And
who would not be?" she said, smiling at them. "You think I took no
account of that when I offered you my hospitality? Youth is all curiosity, is
it not, Cray?"
"I
suppose that must be true ... if I am any sample, lady."
"And
from your listening at the door, Cray—what have you learned?"
"That
you are wise as well as skilled in your art But I think I knew that
already."
One of
her eyebrows arched, white against her pale flesh. "At my age, I take that
as my due, not as flattery. And you, Master Feldar—what say you?"
Sepwin
grinned. "That a Seer must know which questions to answer and which to
turn aside with a deft hand."
She
trailed four fingers in the water, and ripples spread outward from them on the
dark surface. "A Seer must know which are the true questions," she
said, "and which are those best left unanswered. I gave the prince what he
needed, no more."
"You
gave him advice," insisted Sepwin, "that he could have found closer
to home, and for less gold."
She
fixed him with her eyes, a strong, steady gaze. **Do you think he would have
listened, closer to home? He will choose well enough without my help. He is a
lucky man, leaving his people in good hands. I have read other futures that
were not so bright."
"I
wouldn't call his future bright—to die before his children are grown."
"But
now," said Cray, "at least he knows he'll live to beget them."
"Just
so," said the Seer.
Sepwin
shivered suddenly. "Death," he said. "That's what you see in
every person who comes to you. At the end of the path, after all the twists and
turns, the good fortune and bad—death."
"Everyone
dies."
"And
for yourself, lady?"
"I
see my death, yes. At the moment, it is comfortably far away."
"And...
mine?"
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"Do
you really want to know, Master Feldar? 1 think not."
"Is
it by stoning? Hanging? Fire?"
The
Seer shook her head slowly. "Where is the gold to pay me for this answer,
Master Feldar? I give no free gift of the future."
"Are
you saying I will never be able to pay you?"
"Lad,
these are foolish questions. Why so concerned with death, when you have
scarcely begun to live?"
"I
don't know," he said, and his arms crossed over his chest, and his hands
gripped his own shoulders. He stared into the pool. "Of a sudden, I feel
uncertain. What will I do when Cray apprentices to sorcery? Where will I
go?"
"Why,
with me, of course,** said Cray. Then he added, hesitantly, "If ... that
is your wish."
"Go
with you as what? Your servant? You think a sorcerous household would even let
such as me in the door? There isn't a scrap of magic about me—you've said that
often enough yourself."
Cray
frowned. "I hadn't thought about it.**
"Well,
I have. Oh, yes, I have indeed. And so I ask the future, to know if the old,
beggar's life lies ahead of me, but my lady Seer tells me nothing."
"You
worry too soon, Master Feldar," said the Seer.
"I
have worried all my life," he replied. "Why leave off now? While I
have been with you, Cray, I have looked out at the world with both eyes, I have
talked freely, I have known friendship for the first tune in my fife. Now I
must give it all up. I must go back to jeers and terror and loneliness."
Cray
caught his shoulder. "Feldar, perhaps no one will take me as an
apprentice."
"Someone
will," said Sepwin. "You are one of them."
"Then
. . ." He looked to the Seer. "My lady, what is the chance of finding
a sorcerer to change one of Feldar's eyes to match the other?"
Sepwin's
head snapped up. "I have nothing to pay such a sorcerer with."
"I
will pay," said Cray.
"Cray..."
"Whatever
the price. Well, lady, what say you?"
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"I
will search," she said.
"Diligently,"
said Cray.
"Of
course."
Cray
grinned at his friend. "Come, Feldar, we need a good gallop to stretch our
bones. We've been underground too long. I feel my skin paling by the
hour." When Sepwin nodded, wordless, Cray linked an arm with his and drew
him down die tunnel toward the sunshine. '*We'U be back for supper," he
called to the Seer.
"I
know," she said, but so softly that they did not hear her. She turned to
the pool then and stroked the cool surface with the flat of both hands,
crooning a tuneless lullaby, as if to a sleeping babe. Presently, the water
cleared, to her eyes alone, and showed other times and other places, all
scattered with the pinpoint reflections of the crystals set in the chamber
walls. She was still there, watching distant events without much interest, when
a flash of light in the depths of the pool heralded a change in the view it
showed. Abruptly, the water was a cloud-flecked blue—the image of the sky just
outside the entrance to the Seer's home. Through the clear air fell an object
like a sheet of parchment, its edges curling slightly as it wafted downward;
but sunlight glanced from its surface as from polished metal, flashing about
the cave again and again. The lady Helaine rose slowly from her perch on the
pool's rim and walked down the tunnel and through the tree trunk, arriving hi
real sunshine just as the object fluttered to earth at her feet. She stooped to
pick it up, a sheet of the thinnest bronze foil, light as parchment, inscribed
with a sorcerous message.
For
Cray.
The
lads returned with a kerchief full of mushrooms, a surprise for their hostess,
gathered in the shady woods where they had rested after racing their mismatched
steeds. But when they entered her kitchen, it was their own surprise that had
to be smiled away, amid jesting on the futility of keeping secrets from a Seer,
for she was waiting by the kitchen fire, with a pot of pale butter already
melted for their forest bounty. Supper proved a simple meal, but Cray and
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Sepwin
ate with good appetite after their afternoon's exercise. When they had done,
the lady Helaine brought out the message.
SMADA
REZHYK DESIRES TO INTERVIEW CRAY OR-MORU FOR APPRENTICESHIP. TRANSPORTATION
WILL BE PROVIDED AT DAWN.
Cray
fingered the foil. "What does he mean—transportation will be
provided?"
"I
presume hell send a demon for you," said the Seer. "He's master to
any number of them and can surely spare one for this service."
"Does
he live so far away that I can't ride my Gallant there?"
"Far
enough. And why should he wait all those days for you to ride to him when his
own devices can bring you there as swift as the wind?"
"But
if he decides he doesn't want me ... ?"
"Hell
return you here, I'm sure. Then you can wait for the next offer." She
leaned closer to him, across the supper table. "But you would be well
advised, Cray, to be on your best behavior for Smada Rezhyk. Who knows how many
other sorcerers will be in the market for apprentices in the near future?"
Cray
smoothed the foil on the tabletop, ran his palm over the embossed writing in
the mirrorlike surface. Among the words, he could see his own reflection,
bronze-tinted. "What is he like, this Smada Rezhyk?"
The
Seer shrugged. "Like most of the sorcerous breed, he avoids revealing much
of himself to others. He is no longer young, I know. And he has considerable
power. You could do far worse than becoming his apprentice."
**But
is he ... pleasant?"
"As
to that, I cannot say. But you shall meet him yourself and be hi a better
position to judge than I. And if he should prove too unpleasant . . . well, he
will not force you to stay with him, I am sure."
"I
have never known- any sorcerer but my mother."
She
touched his hand. "Are you afraid to meet him, Cray?"
"Not
afraid. Just . . . uneasy." He glanced at Sep-
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win.
"I would feel more comfortable if Feldar could come along."
"The
invitation did not include me," said Sepwin. "Fd rather not presume
on a sorcerer's hospitality." "He is wise," said the Seer.
"Careful. I've always tried to be careful." "Listen,
Feldar," said Cray. "If things don't work out ... if you can't come
with me on my apprenticeship, and if ... if the lady Helaine can't find someone
to make your eyes better, or if you decide you don't want that ... I'm sure my
mother would take you in. You could learn weaving magic and be one of us, and
your eyes would never matter again."
"You
mean, I should take your place back at Spin-web?" asked Sepwin.
"Yes,
that's it. She's been lonely since I left, you know that"
"She's
been lonely, but not for me, Cray." "It would be good for both of
you, I know it." Sepwin looked away from his friend. "You want me to
go and live in a castle full of spiders . . . and worse. If you were going
there, I would consider it, but . . ." "You don't hate spiders any
more, Feldar." "No, but I don't love them either. Or snakes." He
shook his head. "That sort of magic is not for me, Cray."
Cray
looked long at the Seer. "You must help him," he said at last.
"I
will do my best," said the Seer. "But ultimately, the choice of his
future lies with him."
Cray
rose from the bench. He rolled the bronze foil into a thin cylinder and tucked
it inside his shirt. "Dawn comes early, and I'll have to be ready for it.
Therefore I must take my leave of you." He turned toward the door that
opened on the outer chambers, the opposite direction from his sleeping place. "Where
are you going?" asked Sepwin. "Outside. To spin a web and speak to my
mother. It's time I did that. Past time."
"You
can spin it here," said the Seer.
"Thank
you, but... Fd rather be alone."
As Cray
opened the door, he heard Sepwin remark
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to the
Seer, "You know, he walks different now^lhat he doesn't wear the chain
anymore."
"And
he speaks of the sorcerous kind as 'us,'" she replied.
He shut
the door firmly behind him.
In the
first instant she saw him, Delivev wanted to reach out to her son and feel of his
forehead. "You don't look well," she said. "Is that cave too
damp for you?"
He
shook his head. *Tm just tired. Mother ... I have made a decision."
"Yes?"
"Fm
going to apprentice myself to a sorcerer."
Her
mouth twitched, and she folded her hands tightly in her lap. "Have you met
one, in your travels, that you have some special feeling for?"
"No.
The Seer has cast about for me, and one has answered her call. I speak to him
tomorrow about taking me on."
"Who
would this sorcerer be?"
"Smada
Rezhyk."
"Rezhyk?
That slave master?" She frowned. "Why in the world would you want to
apprentice to him, my son?"
"He
wants an apprentice. He is willing to interview me."
"Rezhyk!"
She pursed her lips and stared out at Cray through the web. "And what is
wrong with weaving, now that you've decided to come back to sorcery? And why?
Why do you change your mind now, Cray? What happened to your quest for
knighthood? I thought you enjoyed your whiter at Mistwell." Her knuckles
were white with the strain of clasping her own flesh, and she sat at the very
edge of the velvet coverlet, leaning toward the web as if she could thereby
come closer to her child. "You have kept yourself from me these last
months, my son. This winter you used the webs little, and I thought I understood
that, for you were surrounded by ordinary mortals. But since you left the Seer
on your quest to fetch ... to fetch soil . . . you have been vague. And the
tapestry, too, has been vague, as if you were walking through
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a fog,
with nothing of any consequence going on about you. Only sorrow and more
sorrow. I can hardly bring myself to look at the tapestry these days. I know
what it will show me. I only glance ... to know that you are alive. And now you
tell me that you've changed your mind...."
"Mother,
I have sufficient reason. The quest for knighthood has not brought me
happiness. Perhaps I can find it in sorcery."
,
"Of course you can. But . . . why choose Rezhyk's kind of sorcery? You
know nothing of it.'* "Perhaps that is why it lures me." "You
have talent; I don't doubt youll do well, Cray, but the demon-masters are cold
creatures. They deal in metal and gems, lifeless things, and creatures as
different from the flesh we know as stones are from butterflies. More so! You
know something about the natural world; it is a healthier one, warmer, more
real. If you want sorcery, my son, come home and I shall teach you marvels
you've never dreamed of. There is so much to learn—"
"I
have decided, Mother. I will be master to demons. Some of them are made of
flame—surely they are warm enough."
"It
is the heart that is cold, my son,
not the
demons."
"Do
you know Smada Rezhyk?"
She
nodded. "I knew him once, long ago. He is a hard and selfish man, and vain
as well."
"All
sorcerers are selfish—you told me that yourself. As for vanity ... the Seer
tells me he has great power, and a man of such power comes by his vanity
honestly."
"I
would be a more congenial teacher, I promise
you."
"I
think I will work harder for a stranger." "Do you think, perhaps,
that there is more power to be had in the mastering of demons than in the
natural world? Is that the reason you choose this sort of sorcery, my son? It
is not true."
Cray
reached out toward her with one hand. "Don't think, Mother, that I love
you any less because I have chosen another kind of magic than your own. But it
is
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what I
shall have, if he will take me, and you know you cannot change my mind."
"I
know." She bowed her head. "Very well, Cray; if this is what you must
do, I can't say I understand it, but I accept it If you have found your future
... I accept it" She loosed her hands, let them fall limp apart "His
castle's name is Ringforge; it is a vast place, far more impressive than
Spinweb. If polished metal impresses you. The tapestry will cease the instant
you step inside its walls. I won't know . . . but then, what can happen to you
there? You'll be safer with him than out in the wide world as a knight. You'll
be safe. But... I won't know what is happening to you."
"I'll
try to speak to you as often as possible, Mother."
She
looked up at him, and her lips twisted into a sad smile. "He won't want
that, Cray. He knows, I suppose, that you are my son."
Cray
nodded.
"Then
he'll lock you fast away within his walls. He won't want you giving away his
secrets to another sorcerer. Even if she be your mother."
"Well,
if I must, I'll call you only in his presence, so that he'll see I give away no
secrets. Surely he won't deny me contact with my only family!"
"No?
He has no family. Why should he care for yours?"
Cray
frowned. "I'll speak to him about it. And . . . if he is adamant . . .
perhaps I shall seek some other, more lenient master."
Delivev
shook her head gently. "I have shielded you, Cray. Or perhaps it is that
you have shielded yourself, with all those dreams of knighthood. You never gave
yourself time to understand the sorcerous community, never wanting to be part
of it You'll find no more lenient master. Oh, Rezhyk will be harder than some,
I don't doubt it. I never cared much for the man—he wears a shell of bronze
around his heart as well as his body. But you won't find a master who'll let an
apprentice communicate with another sorcerer. Not and allow him to remain an
apprentice. You must give up, you see, or else come home and learn from me as
your teacher. Otherwise, we part now, my son, until
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you are
a full-fledged sorcerer. And then . . . you may not want to associate with me,
even though I am your mother. You may be as selfish as the rest of us."
"Not I!" said Cray.
"When
you have power, you may think differently. Especially when it is a different
kind of power than your mother's. You may even learn to look down on me as a
lesser sort of creature who only manipulates the natural world and has no power
over .. . what you may consider greater things. You will be wrong, of course,
but you may think so anyway."
"Mother,
I would never look down upon your sort of sorcery. Nor any sort. I would not
pretend to compare your sphere with any other, any more than I would compare
horses to flowers." "I hope it will be so." "It shall
be."
"And
Cray—I will always be your friend, I promise you."
"Motherl
You have no need to say such a thing." "Other parents and children have not remained friends in
our .art, Cray, when they separated as you and I are about to do."
"I
shall always be your friend, Mother, no matter what happens."
"I
am glad to hear it. Take care of yourself, my dear." Her voice cracked on
the final word, and she could not help lifting her hand to her throat, to
soothe the pain that was building there. "You must forgive me," she
whispered. "I can say no more.**
"I'll
speak to you soon, Mother, to tell you how the interview was."
She
nodded. "Good night.** "Good night."
The web
darkened, but Delivev was no longer looking at it. Her sight turned inward, her
eyes seeing her son as a babe, as a child, as a youth on his great gray horse.
And she marveled that she could be losing him a second time. His father, at
least, she thought, / only lost once.
The
eagle swooped down out of the sky, its feathers glinting bronze in the
dawnlight. Had it been a true bird
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it
could have perched in the branches of the great tree that was the entrance to
the Seer's home; but it was huge, vaster than fifty eagles rolled together, and
its feathers were truly bronze, not merely the color of the metal. It landed on
the road instead, then, and its enormous wings brushed the dewy grass on either
side of the path before they folded at its sides. It opened its beak, but
instead of emitting a bird's cry, it called Cray's name in thundering tones.
The
Seer and Cray and Sepwin had been waiting just inside the arch in the tree
trunk, wondering what form Rezhyk's demon transportation would take. Now Cray
emerged and announced that he was ready, and the lady Helaine and his companion
of so many months stayed within the shady shelter of the tree, peering out
"You
will take care of Gallant while I am gone," he had said to Sepwin,
"As
if he were my own."
They
had shaken hands then. "HI ask him if I can bring you with me. I'm not
afraid to ask. Do you truly want to come?**
"Yes,
of course. But he won't—**
"Hush,
Feldar. I will do my best to convince him.**
Sepwin
looked into his eyes. "I fear I will not see you for a long time, my
friend."
"I'll
see you after the interview,'* said Cray, and he walked out to the dawnlight.
The
great eagle dipped its head toward Cray, turning first one dark eye upon the
lad and then the other. When he was close beside it, Cray perceived that there
were handholds among the metal feathers of its back, and straps to fasten the
passenger securely aboard.
"I
am ready," said Cray. "How shall I mount, O bird?"
"You
may not mount,'* replied the bird, and its voice stirred the leaves on the
Seer's tree and made the dew shake loose of the grass at the roadside.
"How
not?" inquired Cray. "Have you not been sent for me by the sorcerer
Smada Rezhyk?"
"For
you," rumbled the bird, "but not for those others.*'
Cray
flicked a thumb in the direction of the tree entrance. "They are not
coming with me, O bird."
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"Not
those humans. But the others." Cray frowned. "What do you mean?"
"Those that ride your arms and chest, that hide in your collar and huddle
hi your sleeves. They may not mount me, nor enter Castle Ringforge. None but you
may enter, Cray Onnoru, so leave them behind or stay yourself.**
Then
Cray knew that the eagle meant his spiders, those other companions of his
travels, that he carried without any thought. "Very well," he said,
and he knelt upon the ground, placing his hands flat on the hard-trodden road,
and from his sleeves the spiders scuttled. They paused a moment at his splayed
fingertips, but when he rose to his feet once more, they scattered into the
grass. "Wait for me here,*' he murmured. He felt twice naked now, without
either spiders or chain mail. He gazed into one of the bird's great eyes.
"I am ready now. Will you take me?**
In
answer, the eagle sank to the ground, its bronze breast upon the rutted road.
One wing stretched halfway out, and wide-placed metal feathers rose upon that
surface, a crude ladder. "Climb,*' intoned the bird. Grasping the upraised
metal struts, warm with morning sunlight, Cray scrambled to the eagle's back.
"Fasten
yourself tight," said the bird. "We will be flying high and
swift."
Cray
buckled the straps about his legs and torso and clasped the handholds firmly.
When he was settled thus, the huge bird spread both wings to their fullest,
lifted them once, and with a powerful down-stroke was airborne. Cray was
pressed against the bronze feathers and buffeted by a great wind; his stomach
felt as if it had been left behind on the ground, and bis cheek, where the
metal feathers lay hard against his flesh, ached from their blunt edges. The
tallest of the forest trees dropped away from his sight as if yanked by the
hand of a giant Blue sky rushed close, and then clouds engulfed him, their
moisture instantly soaking his clothing, their whiteness blinding him to his
own movement.
Once
within the clouds, the eagle rose no longer but soared on almost motionless
pinions. With difficulty, Cray lifted his head. The wind was a hammer against
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him,
from the front now, rather than above; he could scarcely keep his eyes open
against it, and he could see nothing but whiteness, parting before him to
reveal yet more whiteness waiting. He laid his face down again and closed his
eyes. He spoke: "How long will we fly?" But the rushing wind whipped
his voice away, drowning the words from even his own ears, and if the metal
bird heard him, it did not deign to answer. "I would rather ride
Gallant," he muttered, "no matter how long the journey."
He
shivered, and not just with the chill of the clouds. He had never felt so alone
before in his life.
<•*
CHAPTER ELEVEN
He
caught his first glimpse of Ringforge when the great bronze bird tilted one
wing down and slipped sideways through the air, describing a wide, swooping
rum. Cray saw the ground then, tipped crazily to his eyes, roaring toward him
with terrifying speed; he saw a broad, flat, circular open space, fringed by
trees, and in the precise center of the circle was a huge building made of
metal so highly polished that it flashed the sun back skyward from a dozen
surfaces. A glimpse was all Cray managed at that moment; he could never have
counted the turrets or walls, or even guessed the nature of that metal from its
brilliant hue, for he was busy holding his breakfast behind his teeth. He
closed his eyes as tight as the muscles of the lids would allow, but he could
not shut out the vertigo that claimed him, that throbbed through his ears, his
head, his throat. Every sinew of his body ached with the agony of that effort
by the time a
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tremor,
like the touch of a dinner dish on the smooth wooden surface of a table, marked
the end of his journey. Shaking, sweating, still engulfed by the misery of
motion sickness, Cray did not realize that his steed had ceased to move until
he heard a voice. While his stomach still churned, some small portion of his
mind marveled that he could hear anything above the rush of the wind. And then
he realized that the wind no longer rushed. He opened his eyes and beheld a
steady world, distant trees whose leaves seemed scarcely to move under the
impetus of the mildest of summer breezes. Closer, the ground was yellow and
sunbaked, just as it had been outside the Seer's home.
"Master
Cray?" came the voice again. It was a young voice, feminine, light, high.
Cray
turned his head slowly, and the air seemed to spin about him. He groaned. His
breakfast, which had not settled back to his stomach since the bronze bird
began its descent, pushed at the back of his throat once more, and he tasted
the bitter acid of it before he swallowed thickly. He laid his cheek against
the metal feathers, gasping, and when his vision ceased its rocking, he found
himself looking down on the bronze wing, extended in a ramp for his descent,
and at its far end waited a girl in a long blue gown.
"Are
you injured, Master Cray?" she inquired hi her high, musical voice. She
was small in stature, with blond hair plaited in two braids that fell forward
upon her bosom. She appeared to be quite young, younger even than Cray himself,
and he wondered who she might be. Rezhyk's daughter was the first answer that
leaped to his mind, but it only raised another question in its wake—if Rezhyk
had a child, why would he ofEer someone else's child apprenticeship?
"Master
Cray?" she said again, stepping forward to poise on the endmost feathers
of the wing. "Shall I help you down?"
He took
a deep breath. "I'm a little dizzy," he confessed.
She
climbed the ladder of bronze feathers and bent to unstrap him. "This one
is not accustomed to bearing human cargo," she said, nodding toward the
bronze bird's head.
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The
creature turned its gaze upon them, and the feathers of its neck squeaked
loudly as they scraped against each other for that contortion. "The human
is not injured," it thundered.
"No,
no, I'm all right," said Cray, holding the girl's arm to rise from his
bronze perch. "Just a little shaky." He wobbled down the ramp and
stepped heavily upon the solid yellow earth. "I've never flown
before," he muttered, trying to smile.
"I
would think not," she said. "Shall I fetch you some tea?"
He
shook his head, grimacing as the motion set the world a-sway once more.
"No, nothing, thank you. I'll just sit down here for a few moments."
He sank, cross-legged, to the dust and held his head in his hands.
As if
from a great distance, he heard the girl scolding the bronze bird for giving
its passenger too rough a ride, he heard it answer in low rumbling tones, heard
the vast pinions shift and shuffle, smelled the flicking clouds of dust raised
by those gestures. Still caught up in his own misery, he marveled at the
temerity of a puny human being raising her fragile voice to a monster that
could slash her in two with one stroke of its beak; he marveled that she was
master of the situation, that the bird sulked apologetically. Presently the
voices fell silent, and soon after that the universe righted itself, leaving
Cray able to look up, wan but steady.
The
bronze eagle had vanished. Cray had not heard its wings surge in flight, had
not felt the gust of wind that must have marked such an exit. The girl merely
stood alone where the eagle had once rested, and she watched Cray.
"Where
did it go?" asked Cray.
"Where
demons go." She walked forward till she stood above him, and then she
stretched out her hand. "Are you well enough to rise?"
"Yes."
He took her hand and scrambled to his feet
'•Welcome
to Castle Ringforge, Master Cray."
'Thank
you. And what might your name be?"
"Gildrum."
He
smiled. "A pretty name."
"Is
it? I hadn't thought it so."
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"A
pretty name for a pretty girl."
Gildrum
smiled then, but she only said, "Come. My lord awaits us inside."
And
Cray thought that she could not be Rezhyk's daughter after all, for she would
not call her father lord.
Ringforge
towered skyward behind them, sheets of bronze vying with the sun for
brilliance, crenelations sharp as if cut with a diamond blade, like teeth
biting at the birds that passed in the summer sky. Cray could not resist
touching the clean, bright line where two faces of a rampart met, to see if it
would slice his flesh, and he scarcely felt the stroke, until dark, seeping
blood began to sting the wound.
"What
a surprise is this for an enemy," he murmured.
Gildrum
drew him away from the knife-edge juncture. "There are no such dangers
inside," she explained. "Your place is there, after all, Master
Cray."
"So
I hope,*' he said, and he let himself be ushered through the massive portal.
Gildrum closed it silently behind him.
Within
was mellow dunness. The room was small, the walls made of brushed metal that
scattered the light of a few sconced candles as clouds scatter moonlight. Two
chairs faced each other across the width of the chamber—plain, straight-backed
chairs of ordinary wood; Gildrum bade Cray take one.
When he
had sat for some few moments, his eyes gradually becoming accustomed to the low
illumination, his body beginning to squirm on the hard, flat, unyielding seat
of the chair, he turned to Gildrum, who stood nearby, her hands clasped upon
the girdle of her gown, her eyes downcast. As if sensing his gaze, she raised
her eyes to his at the instant he looked at her face, and for a moment, hi his
surprise, he lost the words he had been about to utter. They both smiled at the
seeming coincidence. Then she broke the silence.
"Shall
I fetch you something now, Master Cray? Some wine? Or even a cup of pure, sweet
water? I think you must have had a thirsty journey."
He shook
his head. His throat was thick and his mouth dry, but he did not wish to be
left alone in the
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$mall,
bare room. "Where is the master of the house?"
"He
will come."
"Is
he watching me, perhaps, by his magic?"
Gildrum
shrugged. "You are of the sorcerous breed, Master Cray. You know how they
are."
"Are
you not one of them?"
"I?
No, I am just a servant.**
Cray
looked all around him, even to the ceiling, which was as softly brushed as
walls and floor and suffused with the same pale glow. "What a strange
place this is. Are there always these two chairs here, or have they been set
here specially for the occasion?"
"Sometimes
there are more than two," said Gil-drum. "This is the only room of
Ringforge that visitors may enter."
"How
many of them have come here?**
"A
few."
"Sorcerers?
Or ordinary mortals?"
"A
few of each sort. A great king once sat where you are sitting now. In that very
chair."
"Did
he bring his own cushion?"
Gildrum
smiled more broadly. "No, and his rump was soon as stiff and sore as yours
will be."
"Well,"
said Cray, "it will make a good match for my arms, which are stiff and
sore already, from clutching at your master's bronze steed."
Opposite
his seat, behind the chair that faced him, a section of the wall swung inward
on hidden'hinges, and a man strode into the tiny room. He was a tall man, thin
and dark, with creases in his cheeks as if they had been grooved by a
sculptor's tool. His eyes, set deep in his head, reflected pinpoints of
candlelight, and the black brocade in which he was clad glistened like scale
armor. With each stride of his booted feet, the floor chimed beneath him like a
great bronze bell.
"I
am the lord of Ringforge," he said, and he halted beside the empty chair
and rested one hand on its wooden back as he stared at Cray.
Cray
bounced to his feet and made a low bow. "My lord," he said, "I
am Cray Ormoru."
"Turn
around and let me see you from all sides," said Rezhyk.
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Cray
obeyed, slowly, feeling akin to a horse being put up for auction in a marketplace.
"You
look to be a sturdy lad."
"I
am strong and healthy, my lord. I can lift my own weight without strain and
ride all day before I tire. I can scarcely remember the last time I was
sick."
Rezhyk
stroked the side of his jaw with one finger. "You resemble your
mother."
"I
have thought so, my lord."
"She
is a great sorceress in her own right. Why are you not her apprentice?"
"I
wish to conjure demons, my lord, and she knows nothing of that art."
Rezhyk
slipped into his chair and leaned against the high back, his arms folded upon
his chest. "And why, Cray Ormoru, do you wish to conjure demons?"
Cray
looked at him levelly and then decided that dissembling with this cool, dark
figure would be a mistake; if he were to apprentice himself to this man, it
must be on honest terms from the beginning, for he felt sure that if once he
were caught in a lie, Rezhyk would never trust him again. "I never knew my
father," he said. "He disappeared before I was born. I want to find
him, or at least learn his name, his house, his history. I have followed his
trail for many months without success, and now the only means left to me is
through the conjuration of demons."
Rezhyk
frowned, and his eyes narrowed as he gazed upon the lad. "A unique
reason," he said at last.
"I
will work hard, my lord. I am not afraid of effort. You will find me a willing
student, and not without a certain talent, at least so my mother judged."
In a
low voice, Rezhyk replied, "Your mother is not the best judge of these
things. The talent that may suit her sort of sorcery may be totally at odds
with mine." He rose abruptly. "I must consider your request, Cray
Ormoru. I must consider if your mother's son is the sort of apprentice I would
wish."
"I
have great hopes that you will take me on, my lord. I know that I could hardly
find a better teacher."
Rezhyk's
eyes seemed to flare in the dim room, or perhaps, Cray thought, it was the way
he turned toward the candlelight. "Flattery means nothing to me,"
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he
said. He wheeled about and stalked to the opening in the wall. Within its
compass, he glanced over his shoulder. "Gildrum will fetch whatever you
may need for your refreshment and then join me in the workshop. I will weigh
your suit there and return with a decision quite soon."
"I
need nothing," said Cray. "Only your consent, my lord."
"To
me, then, my Gildrum."
With a
swift smile for Cray, Gildrum scurried to join her master, and the waU sealed
behind them, leaving a surface so smooth that even when he examined it from a
finger's breadth distance, Cray could not see the juncture. He sat down again
then, trying not to feel as if he had been sealed in a tomb. The candles burned
low, lower, but somehow they never guttered.
Rezhyk
leaned against the bench where the brazier burned, his hands fiat on the smooth
work surface, fingers spread stiffly, pressing until the flesh whitened and the
fingernails blushed deep pink with trapped blood. By the ruddy light of lazily
burning coals, his face was pale in spite of its olive tint, ghastly, as if he
had been ill for months. His eyes were wide, the whites showing beneath the
dark irises, tiny vessels webbing that whiteness with red.
"I
saw her, my Gildrum," he whispered, his voice rasping, as from a throat
choked with phlegm. "I saw her staring at me through his eyes."
"An
illusion, my lord," said Gildrum, touching his arm gently. "Surely
her powers do not extend to human beings."
He
turned a baleful stare upon the demon. "Don't be foolish; I know that well
enough." He closed his eyes a moment, squeezing them shut with brows
knitted so tight they seemed to merge into one line of darkness across his
forehead. "Yet, he is her flesh and blood. It was ... almost as if she
were here herself."
"He
is your flesh and blood, too.**
Rezhyk's
eyes snapped open, and he pulled away from the demon's touch. "Mine? Oh
no, not mine, not of my desire!"
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'The
seed was yours, my lord. You cannot deny him."
"I
can! I never asked for a child, my Gildiuml"
"Still,
you have one."
"Oh,
I have one; I have one indeed." He locked his hands together behind his
back and began to pace, marking the length of the workshop with long-legged
strides. "This game is not so simple as it looked some days since, my
Gildrum. Oh, now how I wish it were as uncomplicated as I guessed. If only it
were merely a bid for power by my enemy Delivev. If only she merely wished to
increase her strength through alliance with another sort of magic."
"That
never seemed uncomplicated to me, my lord," said Gildrum.
"You
think not? Well, what have we here, then? He comes to me, my Gildrum, to find
me out! She has sent •him, I know it. She suspects, and now I have only to wait
a few years before the truth is revealed to her. What will happen then, my
Gildrum? When she knows the truth . . . will it be war between us? Will she
find herself allies among my other enemies, perhaps, so that the shirt will not
be enough to protect me? I could defeat her alone, I trust I could. Perhaps it
would not be easy, but it could be done. But if her hate is strong enough . . .
who will she find to help her? I have no friends, my Gildrum. I have no one to
turn to for aid!"
Gildrum
followed his progress with her eyes, while her body remained still. Softly, she
said, "Has the lady Delivev any friends, my lord?"
"What?
Friends? I suppose she must, somewhere. She will buy them if she must; her
works are always in demand, those tapestries, those fine fabrics she makes. Oh,
she'll have friends. She'll be ready for me. What shall I do, my Gildrum? What
shall I do?"
Gildrum
eased herself up onto the tall stool. "Are you sure my lord," she
said slowly, "that she will hate you?"
"How
not? After what I have done to her?"
"Perhaps
she would not consider your actions so hateful. She raised the boy, after all;
she must have
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some
feeling for him. She must love him. And you gave him to her."
He
glared at the demon. "Were I Delivev, I would not love the one who did
such a thing to me. It was not done out of love,"
"You
need not tell her that, my lord.*'
His.gaze
softened a bit. "What would I tell her, theo, my GUdrum?"
"That
you did it from love of her. That you gave her the child you wanted."
"You
tell me to lie, my Gildrum.**
"Yes,
my lord. Lie, if you fear her so. Lie to save yourself."
Rezhyk
stalked to the workbench, and with one slashing gesture knocked the brazier
across the smooth surface, scattering flaming coals in a wide arc; most of them
struck Gildrum, who did not even flinch but merely began methodically to snuff
with bare hands the smoldering spots on her blue gown.
"No!"
said Rezhyk. "I will not lie. I will not spout love at that cunning enemy.
You think she'd believe for a single moment? No! I'd abase myself for nothing.
And she would realize exactly how weak I must be. Better that she never knows, my
Gildrum! Better that you and I hold the secret still inside us!"
"But
what will you do then, my lord? If the boy stays and learns* your sorcery, he
will find out, he must."
"He
,must," echoed Rezhyk. "Yet I dare not turn him away. Ajiother master
would teach him as well as I, well enough to find the truth. Any demon-master
would do for that." He shook his head violently, as if to rid himself of
some unpleasant substance clinging to it. "What can I do indeed, my
Gildrum? What is there to do that can prevent him ... ?"
GUdrum
spread her hands in a gesture of perplexity. "My lord, I know not."
Rezhyk
looked down at the floor, where the polished bronze threw his own brocade-clad
reflection back at him, foreshortened and squat, like some inhuman creature,
scaly, wet, risen from the depths of the sea. "I can kill him," he
said softly.
Gildrum
stared at his bent head a moment and then
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down at
her hands, ashy gray from the crushing of embers. Her dress was speckled with
char, and here and there a hole had burned through well enough to show the
human-seeming flesh beneath. She caught up the hem, where fewer coals had
struck, and wiped her palms upon the fabric.
"I
can kill him," Rezhyk repeated.
She
murmured. "Do you mink that wise, my lord?"
"Wise?"
He raised one clenched fist, shaking it at bis reflection. "There is no
wise course now. There is only swift action! If the boy is dead, then he can't
discover the truth!"
Gildrum
slipped off the stool and reached to the workbench to right the brazier.
"And what will the lady Delivev do if the boy dies at your hand, my
lord?"
"Not
at my hand!"
"How
then?"
Rezhyk
dropped his fist to his side. "I will send him on a quest to fetch certain
materials for me; he will have to pass through dangerous territory. It will not
be my fault if he is killed."
"No?"
"No!"
"On
your errand, my lord? On an errand that could surely be accomplished by any one
of your demons?"
"One
which requires human hands alone."
Gildrum
stooped to gather up the coals that had fallen to the floor, the ones which
still glowed cherry-red beneath a thin film of ash. These she poured back into
the brazier. Then she opened a bin under the workbench and drew from its
substantial supply a handful of the small, hard briquets that fueled the
brazier's flames, and she stacked them atop the live coals. Their slate-smooth
surfaces caught quickly, with little flamelets licking all around them; like
flowers tossing hi a high wind. Gazing into those flames, Gildrum said,
"Somehow I feel that the lady Delivev will question the necessity of
sending the new apprentice on an errand that some other human being could
perform as well. Some other human being not'her child."
"An
accident then!" shouted Rezhyk. "Something caused by his own
stupidity. He can lock himself in the kiln and burn to death!"
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"In
your house,'* murmured Gildrum.
"Yes,
but an accident nevertheless. There must be a hundred ways of being killed
beneath this roof!"
"Beneath
this roof."
"Don't
echo me, demon!"
Their
eyes met. His face was red, veins standing out on his forehead, lips compressed
to whiteness; her face was pale, guileless. She lifted one hand toward him, in
supplication, hi apology.
"My
lord," she said, "your fear blinds you. If the lady is truly your
implacable enemy, then she will not believe in any accident that claims her
child's life. She will blame you, even though you be innocent as a virgin girl.
You will have brought her wrath upon yourself, not seven or ten years hence,
but now, when you have not yet the means to deal with it."
He tore
his gaze away from her, and when he spoke, his voice had lost its 'edge of
anger and was bleak instead, and hollow with despair. "You are right, my
Gildrum. You see clearly. Human emotions do not cloud your vision."
"There
must be another course, my lord."
"Must
there? I know it not. There is no course at all, it seems. No matter what I do,
I can only stave off the final conflict. It was inevitable. It has been coming
for sixteen years now, and I have closed my eyes and trusted this shirt when I
should have been preparing. Has she been preparing, I wonder? Surely. Perhaps
the shirt is already nothing to her. Perhaps she knows of it and scorns it as
she scorns me."
"She
cannot know, my lord. We were too careful for that."
"She
is clever, my Gildrum. Perhaps she has guessed all and merely wants . . .
confirmation." He took a deep, shaky breath. "And he will give it to
her, won't he." It was not a question, but a statement, and the voice that
uttered it was tired, weak, as if its owner had run hours before speaking that
sentence. Rezhyk looked behind himself for a stool, found one against the
nearest wall, and sat down heavily, as if Ms bones were tired of carrying his
flesh about • "Perhaps not," said Gildrum.
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Rezhyk
looked up at her, his face grooved deep with lines of pain. "Perhaps not
what?"
"Perhaps
he won't be able to give her confirmation."
"What
nonsense are you spouting?"
She
leaned her elbows on the workbench, interlacing her fingers beneath her chin.
"He said he had talent. What if he has not?"
"His
mother said it, so he said. She would know.**
**But
she was wrong.'*
Rezhyk
frowned. "How can you know?"
"My
lord, he has no talent at all, for sorcery. He
cannot
learn the simplest conjuration. He will never
become
a demon-master."
**What
are you saying, my Gildrum? Where have you found this knowledge?"
"I
have invented it, my lord. And you will demonstrate its truth. You will teach
him, but he will not learn."
"I
doubt that. Delivev's child ... and mine ... I would think he would learn well
enough."
"He
will learn nothing." She nodded slowly, her chin brushing the backs of her
fingers. "You will teach him nonsense, and when, after some reasonable
time, he is totally unable to conjure the meanest demon, you will declare him
incapable of mastering the art He will go home then, or at least he will go
away, and he will know nothing of his father—or of the trick you played on his
mother."
Rezhyk
clasped one hand over the other fist. "But ... he will suspect. She will
suspect."
"How,
my lord? Neither knows anything of your art. How will they judge between true
and false training?" She pointed one slim finger at him. "You are the
master; they will accept your word that the lad is a failure."
"He
will go to another master then."
"After
seven years? Or ten? Or whatever limit you may set? He is a human being, my
lord. He will run home to his mother and surrender himself to her tutelage, I
think, when he has failed at yours."
Rezhyk
covered his face with his hands. "Perhaps you are right," he said
between his fingers. He nodded.
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"Yes,
it is a good plan, my Gildrum. I cannot think of a better.*'
"And
it gives you time, my lord."
"Yes.
Time. To prepare ... for whatever lies ahead. For her.** He rubbed at his eyes,
grinding the pads of his fingers against them as if they were full of grit, as
if he were just rising from a deep sleep, or had been awake too long. "I
feel," he murmured, "like a man standing at the brink of an abyss. I
see doom before me, my Gildrum. We should never have done it. Never. I should
have searched further for a way to deal with her." He sighed. "No, I
can't blame you. I grasped at it myself. It seemed ... so likely at the time.
Not your fault, my Gildrum. You have always given me the best advice you knew.
It is my choice, after all, whether to take it or no." He heaved himself
to his feet. "I suppose we must tell him the good news."
"Yes,
my lord,** said Gildrum, and she followed her master's slow and heavy step out
of the workshop.
Rezhyk
let the wall swing aside for him, but he did not enter the tiny, dun chamber.
"Well, Cray Ormoru," he said quite loudly, "there is room for
you at Ring-forge, if your mind is still bent toward apprenticing to me."
Cray
bowed low, smiling a trifle. "It is, my lord."
"Then
there are certain rules that you must know. First among them is that no other
sort of magic than my own may be practiced within these walls. If ever I catch
you using any tricks your mother might have taught you, your time at Ringforge
will be ended. Second, you must obey me in all things, without question and
without quibbling; I know far better than you do what you must learn and how
you must learn it. Third, there are chambers in this castle that you may not
enter; their doors will not open for you, so do not attempt to force them or
find some other means of entry—if I find you prowling about them, I shall mete
out proper punishment. If any of these rules seems unjust or overly harsh to
you, speak now.**
"My
lord, this is your home, and I am your guest. I would not abuse your
hospitality."
Rezhyk
nodded stiffly. "Gildrum will show you to
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your
quarters, then, and all the other places hi my castle where you may roam
freely. I leave you to her mercies." He turned abruptly and took one quick
step away before Cray's voice halted him.
"A
moment, my lord?"
Rezhyk
glanced back over his shoulder. "What is it?"
"I
have a friend, my lord,*' Cray said. "He and I have been together for many
months now, shared many adventures, and we would share this one as well."
The
sorcere.r gazed at Cray with narrowed eyes. "I take only one apprentice,
Cray Ormoru."
"Not
as an apprentice, sir, he would never expect that. But he would serve willingly
in the castle, I know. And he has no family, nowhere to go save with me."
"He
will have to find somewhere then," Rezhyk replied. "He shall not come
here. One outsider is enough."
"He
is a most unusual fellow, my lord—diligent, faithful, and he is accustomed to
sorcery now."
"An
ordinary mortal, is he?"
"Yes."
"Then
all the more reason to bar him from my home."
*Not
even... as my own personal servant?"
"We
have plenty of servants here, Cray Ormoru, and none of them with weak, human
limitations."
"My
lord, he is like a brother to me."
Rezhyk
scowled at Cray, his lips pursed to whiteness in his dark face. "Would you
prefer to find some other master who will take you both?"
Cray
bowed again. "No, my lord. It shall be as you say."
"Very
well." Rezhyk stalked away, leaving the wall open for Cray and Gildrum to
follow.
Gildnun
waited until Rezhyk was well gone, and then she turned to Cray and said,
"His anger can be bitter. You would do well to keep silence when he is
displeased. It passes then, more quickly than if you continue to speak."
"I
had to ask," replied Cray. "I promised.**
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"Your
friend will simply have to find his own way in the world from now on.**
"He
predicted it would be so. He was wiser than I in this." He looked
questioningly at the demon. "What of my possessions, the things that I
left behind me with the lady Helaine? I have a pair of saddlebags full of
clothing."
"We
shall send for them, never fear. The bird can carry saddlebags as well as a
human being. Better, since they don't become ill on the way.*'
"I
have a horse, too."
"Ah,
a horse.*' Gildrum touched one finger to her lips. "We haven't any stable
for a horse here at Ring-forge. My lord never uses the creatures."
"I
can build a shelter for him just outside the walls.'*
Gildrum
shook her head.
"Is
there some spot inside, then?'*
"I
fear you will have to give up the horse, Master Cray."
Cray
started back one step, as if physically repelled. "Give up Gallant?
No!"
"Yes."
"Never.
He has been my constant companion for years.*'
"You
will have no tune for him here."
"I
will make the time."
Gildrum
shook her head again. "You have no concept of the sort of work that awaits
you, Master Cray. It leaves no room for the exercise that a horse requires, for
the grooming and feeding."
"Will
he forbid me to have the horse here?"
"He
will forbid you to waste your time caring for it." Gildrum glanced at the
opening in the wall. "As you have seen, he is a severe master. You would
be wise to bend with him instead of trying to stand firm. A horse is such a
little thing to give up, if it makes your life smoother."
Cray
eyed Gildrum, eyed the slight, fair form that appeared even younger than
himself. "Have you served him long that you know him so well?"
She
nodded.
"Are
you ... related to him somehow?"
"No."
She smiled at Cray. "I am a demon, like all
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the
other servants you will meet in Ringforge. There are only two human beings
here—you and my lord Rezhyk."
"A
demon?*' Cray found himself peering at her more closely, searching for some
sign of her origin in the form or texture of her body. "You look . . .
completely human."
"My
lord gave me this shape. He is very good at such things.'*
"May
I ... may I touch you?" Cray lifted his hand toward her, halting the
gesture in mid-air, an arm's length away from her face.
"If
you wish." She stepped forward, took his hand In her own and laid the palm
flat against her cheek. "I am not cold and slimy, I promise you.'* She
smiled. "Fire demons rarely are."
Cray
traced the line of her jaw and then drew his hand away slowly. "It feels
like human flesh."
"Of
course. My lord is master of his art."
"But
are you not... made of fire?"
"Yes.
Sometimes. I am sure you will learn about me hi the course of your
apprenticeship. Eventually, you will be able to conjure others of my kind
yourself. That is what you wish, is it not?"
"Yes.
That is what I wish."
"I
will show you to your room, if you will follow me, Master Cray, and after that
I shall send the bronze bird for your saddlebags.'*
Cray
sighed. "But not... my horse.**
Gildrum's
voice softened. "Will he be well cared for, do you think, at the lady
Helaine's home?*'
Cray
nodded. "My friend will look after him." He hesitated a moment.
"Can I send a message with the bird?"
"Instructions
for the care of the horse? And ... a farewell to your friend?"
"Yes.
And my thanks to the lady for all her help. And one other thing: a request to
tell my mother that I am here, well, and accepted for apprenticeship."
"Ah,
yes," said Gildrum. "Your mother would certainly want to know."
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tapestry ended abruptly at Castle Ringforge,
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that
many-turreted structure represented by a simple brown-edged rectangle, empty in
the center, the pale warp strands untouched by weft. As long as he stayed
within those sorcerous walls, she would know nothing of his life, his health, his
hazards: He might even die, and no sign would mark the cloth. The weft threads
hung loose, the bobbins dangling beneath the fabric like spiders hanging from
their own silk, swaying gently in the breeze created by her passage.
In the
garden, his pony waited for the touch of her hands. Its head came up at the
sound of her step, and flower petals dripped from its slowly moving jaws. She
had begun to reprimand it, gently, for eating these small, immobile companions
of her loneliness when a scurrying spider apprised her of a message hi the
chamber of webs. She bolted from the garden, startling the pony, flowers
forgotten.
The
image in the web was dim, and it rippled constantly, like a reflection in
restless water. The face was pale, the hair pulled back in a tight, white
braid. The mouth was motionless, transfixed tunelessly upon the web until a
listener should arrive and bid it speak. Delivev recognized the lady Helaine
and gestured that the message might begin.
"Lord
Rezhyk has accepted him," said the Seer, her eyes staring out of the web,
seeing nothing, attempting to see nothing. "He sends you his love. He is a
good lad and has much enterprise. I think he will do well." The eyes
closed, and the image faded away, leaving only blank strands of gossamer behind.
Delivev
bowed her head. Then I will hear nothing more, she thought, and the finality of
those words, silent as they were, brought the tears to her cheeks that she
thought had been all spent on Cray's behalf. She realized then that she had
been hoping against hope that Rezhyk would reject him, that all demon-masters
would find him somehow unfit for their service, that he would be forced by that
to come home at last and give himself back to her. Now she had to put that hope
aside, once and for all; and with that final inward gesture, instead of finding
the bleak agony that she had feared, she found a faint pride: pride in her son,
that she had borne and raised alone, who had until
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recently
known no other sources of instruction than herself and the images she conjured
for him in the webs—pride that such a child could be considered worthy by one
so different from herself as Smada Rezhyk.
He will
be a man of power, my son, she thought. She reached out to the nearest web,
grazed the silk with her fingertips, and it clung, nigh weightless, to her
flesh. A spider skittered across the lattice, a brown-and-white mite no larger
than her smallest fingernail; it came to rest on her upturned palm, and it,
too, was as light as air, its tiny legs tickling at her skin like the merest
puffs of air. She regarded it with tender eyes, with softly curving lips.
"You must be my child now," she whispered. "You must all be my
children, as before."
She
tipped the creature back onto the web, then crossed her arms over her bosom.
She thought of her own mother, dead so many years, dead so soon after passing
the last of her knowledge to her daughter. Delivev was young; her life and her
son's would overlap for a long time. When he is a man of power, she wondered,
will he still know me?
Walking
the central corridor of Castle Ringforge, Cray knew that he would be slow in
adjusting to his new surroundings. His eyes were already baffled by the soft
illumination from sconces that bore no candles and from the reflections of
those sconces hi many a polished wall. He thought himself in a maze of
intersecting hallways, until he perceived his own image and Gildrum's walking
among them and understood that most of them were phantoms in the flawless
bronze, ruddy and dim as his own flesh was ruddy and dim when he raised a hand
before his eyes.
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soon tire of the sight of my own face," he remarked to Gildrum, who guided
him to a staircase where they climbed close beside their reflections. The
staircase was long, requiring half the length of the corridor to rise to the
second story, and its steps were shallow, ridged with a bold pattern of
parallel lines that provided a better purchase for booted feet than the smooth,
level floor.
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"You'll
stop noticing it after a time,** said Gildrum. She seemed to glide up the
stairway, her skirt sweeping lightly behind her—it would have stirred up dust
on a less perfectly clean surface. Cray suddenly felt dirty hi his shirt and
trews, his worn boots, and he wondered at the enormous effort of scrubbing and
polishing that must be expended in the keeping of Ringforge.
"I
have never seen bronze so bright," he said. "Almost like pale gold.
How long has Ringforge stood, that it has not yet begun to darken with
age?"
"A
long time, Master Cray. My lord prefers it bright, and so his servants keep it
for him.'*
"I
feel as if I'm walking inside some great jewel.'*
She
smiled back at him over one shoulder. "You may have divined my lord's
intention, Master Cray. Of all the substances of the earth, he loves gems best."
"I
saw—on his hands."
At the
top of the stairs they turned left sharply, into the corridor that lay directly
above that on the first floor. Gildrum paused after a few paces. "Here is
your room," she said, pointing to the bare, smooth wall with one index
finger. A section of the surface, rectangular, taller and broader than the
biggest man, swung aside to reveal a dark interior.
Cray
glanced from the aperture to Gildrum. "Are there no ordinary doors in this
castle?"
"None
with knobs and locks, Master Cray. My lord says such would mar the symmetry of
the place." She gestured toward darkness. "Will you go in?"
"Have
you a candle?"
"We
need no candle. Step across the threshold."
He did
as she bade, and the instant that he entered the chamber, sconces on every wall
came alight, their images multiplied in polished bronze on every side, above
and below. He squinted at the nearest sconce. "What is the source of that
light?"
"Fire
demons."
"I
would rather have a candle."
*'We
don't use candles in Ringforge."
"There
were candles in the room where I spoke to Lord Rezhyk."
"Were
there?"
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"Of
course. I saw them."
"You
saw what outsiders see, Master Cray." Standing beneath the light, she
stretched up on her toes and passed her hand through the flame; when she pulled
back, the fire was on her fingertips instead of in the sconce, and it played
there, bouncing from one finger to another as she held her hand before bis
eyes. *'A very minor demon," she said. "It can look like a candle if
it so desires. It has a few other little tricks, too. Not much. My lord has any
number of such creatures."
"Wouldn't
candles be simpler?" said Cray, watching her flaming fingers with
fascination.
She
shrugged and flipped the fire away as if it were water dripping from her hand;
it sailed in a smooth arc to the sconce and settled there, burning without ash,
without soot. "When one is a demon-master," she said, "demons
are simpler than anything else. My lord has no desire to waste his time in the
making of candles. We would use quite a lot of them, you know."
"The
demons could make candles." Gildrum. laughed softly. "Why make flames
when you are a flame?"
Cray
peered at the sconce, at the warm, steady flame, yellow as butter, and then his
gaze shifted to Gildrum, whose hair matched the flame. "You . . . really
look like that?"
"Not
quite like that, Master Cray. I am rather grander than that."
"Larger?" "If I wish to be."
"Can
I... can I see you as a flame?" "That is for my lord to say, not
me." She turned away from him, crossed the room to open a cabinet taller
than herself. Inside were deep shelves, empty save for bed linens. "When
your belongings arrive, you can put them in here. If this is not enough room,
we can easily provide another cabinet."
"I'm
sure it will be enough." He looked about the room, trying to ignore the
walls. It was a large room, seeming larger with the multiple reflections, and
it was sparsely furnished. Aside from the cabinet, there was
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a
bedstead in one corner, a desk and chair in another, a washstand with pitcher
and bowl in the third. All the furniture was of brass, save the mattress and
the cushions of the chair; even the pitcher was shining yellow brass, a harsh
hue beside the mellow walls. Cray strolled over to the desk and chair. "I
have never seen furniture made of brass before."
"We
had quite a lot of brass," said Gildrum, "and my lord directed that
the apprentice's furniture be made from' it, rather than bronze, which he
reserves for himself."
*There*s
quite enough bronze in this room already. Quite enough metal of any kind, in
fact. Is there no possibility of something ... softer-looking? Wood, perhaps? A
wooden chair and desk?"
Gildrum
closed the cabinet. "Fire demons do not get on well with wood, Master
Cray."
"There
are wooden chairs in this castle. I sat on one today."
"They
are reserved for that room. They are not used elsewhere in Ringforge."
Cray
eased himself onto the desk. "What of tapestries, then? To cover these
bare walls and keep out the winter drafts?"
"There
are no winter drafts in Ringforge. I built it stout, and it does not
leak."
"You
built it?"
Gildrum
straightened her back and set her fists on her hips. "I did, and there is
no fault to be found in it. Don't let this human frame deceive you, Master
Cray. I am a powerful creature, the greatest my lord commands.*'
Cray
shook his head slowly. "He chose an unlikely vessel for those
powers."
"That
is something you must discuss with him." And in a lower voice, she added,
"But I would suggest that you wait until you know him better before you
broach the subject."
Cray
pushed away from the desk and stood in the center of the room, looking down at
his image in the floor. "That still leaves us with the question of
tapestries for the walls, and a rug to hide this mirror floor." -
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"We
have nothing of the kind in Ringforge.**
He
tilted his head sidewise to look up at her. "My mother could provide
them.**
"No."
"There
would be no cost, not for her own son,"
"Again,
no. I'm surprised you dare ask that."
"Ordinary
tapestries. Nothing magical about them."
"My
lord would never allow them in his home. Other sorcerers may take in magics not
their own, but he does not."
"Not
magic, I said.**
"You
won't be able to convince him of that, Master Gay.**
He
spread his hands in helplessness. "I haven't enough money left to go to a
town and buy them of an ordinary weaver.*'
"That
hardly matters," said Gildrum. "Even if you had the money, he would
not allow it. With your background, he could not be sure that you would not use
ordinary weaving magically."
"I
wouldn't. I said I would never use my mother's powers inside these walls,"
"Best
you not be tempted.'*
"Tempted?
With tapestries? As well I might be tempted with my own garments. Tempted to do
what?"
"I
don't know, Master Cray. Neither does my lord. Still, he would not understand
the hanging of tapestries."
"I
shall not be able to sleep hi this room.*'
Gildrum
smiled. "Of course you shall, with the lights out. They'll obey your
commands, you know, individually or in concert. Try it. Speak, or just point.
These demons understand language quite well.**
"I
believe you.'* He ambled over to the bed, sat down, sinking deep into the
feather comforter. He punched the pillow. "You have woven things
everywhere here, you know. Even your own clothes. I would not have your master
suspecting I would use them for sorcerous purposes." He curled his fingers
about the closest bedpost. "Perhaps I am the wrong sort of apprentice'for
him."
"He
wUl be watching you,*' acknowledged Gildrum. "All of us will be watching
you."
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Cray
pointed to the wall opposite the bed. "Even those demon lights?"
"Even they." "Everything I do?*'
Gildrum
smiled with one corner of her mouth. "Only my lord has privacy in his own
home."
Cray
sighed. "Well, then, I shall have to show him what a fine apprentice I can
be. I mean to work hard, Gildrum. I mean to make him proud of me, proud that he
chose to take me in."
"I
wish you luck, Master Cray. And now, if you wish, you may rest here, sleep,
wash, whatever you like, until the midday meal. Afterward, you shall see more
of Ringforge. If you should need anything while I am gone, call my name, or
simply ask the air for assistance; I will come." She moved toward the
doorway, open all this time to the tight of the corridor.
"Don't
close it behind you!" he called out sharply. "I don't know how to
open it!**
She
glided across the threshold. "The door will do your bidding, Master Cray,
If you wish it closed, you must command it so." She passed beyond the
aperture and beyond his sight, though her image in the opposite wall remained
visible for another moment. Cray leaned sideways to follow it, wondering if she
would transform into a flame outside the room, but the image was only that of a
human girl, and it slipped away as a human reflection would, as the original
walked on. He decided against running to the door to watch her longer.
"The
door may close," he said, and it obeyed silently. When it was sealed, he
could not see the line of its juncture with the wall.
He kicked
his boots off and lay back on the bed. He saw his own image in the ceiling,
encased in the billowing comforter. "Let all the lights go out but one,**
he said, and the sconces darkened obediently, except for the nearest to him. He
could no longer make out his reflection, save as an indistinct shape above him.
But all about him, that single flame shone ghostly upon every surface.
"That final light," he said at last, "out" The blackness
was profound. Cray knew that beyond the walls of Ringforge, bright summer
scorched
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the
land, the high sun dazzling the eyes of travelers. Yet inside his room was
moonless, starless night. He listened, straining for the sounds that moved
commonly throughout the rest of the world—rustlings of vermin, birdsong, wind,
waving grass and trees. He heard none. Ringforge was silent. The very air was
still. Cray found his breaths deepening, as if his hings could not fill, as if
the cool air were close and hot and palpably thick. He felt the room crowd in
about him, the walls bending inward, the ceiling looming till it hovered just
above his face. He reached out to push it away, feeling foolish with the
gesture, for there was nothing but emptiness as far as his arms could stretch.
Yet, lying there enveloped in the comforter, he found himself smothering.
He sat
up abruptly and called for light Flames sprang into existence in every sconce,
brilliant to his dark-widened eyes, each doubled by its nearby reflection in
the bronze, and tripled, quadrupled in the other mirrored surfaces. Cray
clutched at his throat, which was constricted, squeezing his voice like a pair
of strong, evil hands. "Are there no windows in this room?" he
demanded of the empty air. "Open the door! Open the windows!"
The
door gaped, but none of the other walls was breached. Cray rolled from the bed,
padded barefoot to the aperture and looked out into the corridor. Nothing
stirred there; in all the expanse of uninterrupted mirror, there was no motion
save that of his own miage. "Oildrum!" he shouted. "Gildrum,
where are you?" He strode down the hall, started down the staircase, and
had nearly descended the entire flight when she turned in at the foot.
"Why
do you shout, Master Cray?" she asked, climbing four steps to meet him.
She caught his arm. "I can hear your normal tone well enough when you
speak my name, no matter where I am hi Ringforge."
"I
would have a room with windows," he said. "I'm not... accustomed to
being so closed in.**
"You
are not closed in. The room is large. There are larger still; I can speak to my
lord for you and perhaps change you to one of those, if you wish.'*
"If
it has a window. I feel in need of air."
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She
tightened her grip on his arm. "Are you ill?**
"No
. . ." He hesitated, not quite able to express the sensations that had
overwhelmed hun inside the darkened room, nor willing to admit to a fear that,
in retrospect, seemed childish. At last, he sat down on the steps, perforce
pulling her with hun, for she would not relinquish her hold. "I have lived
a great part of my life outdoors," he said. "And my mother's castle
has many windows. The prospect of being sealed into that room every night ...
it seems unnatural to me. I would prefer to be able to look out at the sky and
the trees, to breathe fresh air and not be trapped into staring at myself
repeated in all the walls." He smiled thinly. "A window instead of a
tapestry—is that a fair enough exchange?"
"The
air in Ringforge is fresh, Master Cray. We demons keep it so."
"I
don*t doubt that. Still... I would prefer sunlight and starlight to
flaraelight."
She let
go his arm,'dropping her hand to the step, palm flat on the metal, and she
leaned there, looking down, not at his face. "I am sorry. It is
impossible.**
"How
so? There are windows in Castle Ringforge. I saw them myself, high up along the
walls."
"They
are closely shuttered.*'
"Surely
the shutters will open.**
"Only
to my lord's command, and he prefers that they be closed.**
Cray
stared at her. "One small window..."
"No."
"But
why not?"
Gildrum
shrugged. "My lord commands, and I obey. I know no more than that"
"Does
he never open them?"
"He
did, many years ago. Not lately. Not for a long tune. He has no need of the
outside, save what we demons bring hun of it."
Cray's
brow creased in puzzlement "Do you mean ... that he never goes out?"
"He
has set no foot beyond the walls of Ringforge in some time."
"He
stays inside all day, all night? He never opens
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a
window? He never sees anything but himself reflected a million times in these
walls?"
Gildrum's
lips quirked in a brief smile. "I doubt that he notices those reflections,
Master Cray. He has too much to keep him busy." She rose from the step on
which he sat, and she lifted one foot to the next, her blue-covered knee close
beside 4us face. "As you will, Master Cray, I promise you. You will be too
busy to look at yourself in these walls, and too tired as well, when you go to
bed at night. Your apprenticeship will not be an easy time. Remember, I said
you would not have time to spare on a horse. Nor, I think, will there be much
to spare for lying on your back under an open sky. Today, you may dwell on such
notions; tomorrow they will be pushed out of your mind by work. Come now; if we
return to your room, the meal will still be hot." She offered her hand to
help him up, and he took it, marveling at the strength that was in that
frail-seeming girl's hand.
They
climbed the stairs, and dnly then, though he had been walking on the bronze
some time in his bare feet, did he realize that the metal floor was warm to his
skin, not cold as he had expected.
In his
room, the lights blazed brightly, and the brightest were above bis desk, almost
as glaring as sunshine, accenting the tray that waited there— bronze, crowded
with bronze-domed dishes. He lifted one of the covers, found a broiled fish
beneath it, a fat fish with four large fins; he did not recognize the variety,
but its sweet aroma brought saliva to his mouth and a sharp rumbling to his
stomach. He pulled the knife from his belt and fell to.
Gildrum
seated herself on the desk beside the tray and pulled the lids from the other
dishes, revealing steaming vegetables drenched in butter, new-baked bread, and
fruit preserves. She poured white wine from a sum carafe and offered Cray salt
from a crystal bowl.
"Will
you join me?" Cray asked between mouthfuls. **There seems to be plenty
here."
"Demons
don't usually eat this sort of food," she replied.
"Oh?
What do demons usually eat?**
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She
handed him the wine cup. "It isn't precisely 'eating,' Master Cray. We
absorb certain" forces from all around us. Beyond that, I don't really
think I can explain it to you."
"Do
you like ... human food?'*
"I
like my own cooking. In my travels about the world, I have been able to observe
human beings considerably, fine cooks among them. My "lord says I cook
well, so there are two of us of that opinion."
"Did
you cook this?"
"Not
directly, but I taught the kitchen staff most of what it knows."
"The
kitchen staff?"
Gildrum
nodded. "Demons, of course. Cooking comes easy to fire demons. And why
should it not?"
"This
fish is excellent," said Cray. "I have never tasted fish quite like
it before. Nor seen any. Where did it come from?"
"From
the tropic ocean," said Gildrum, "where it spent its days flying over
the waves like a bird. Almost lie a bird. It splashed into the water
occasionally. An easy fish to catch, for a demon fisher, and my lord relishes
it."
Cray
looked down at his plate with skeptical eyes. "A fish that flies? I can
hardly believe that.*'
"It's
true enough. I have seen it myself."
"A
magical fish?'*
She
smiled. "Not at all. Merely one of the small marvels of the ordinary
world. If you were a seafarer, Master Cray, it would not seem unusual to you.*'
He
finished the last morsel of fish and pushed his chair away from the desk,
leaning back against the cushioned bronze. "Well, I suppose I will have to
accustom myself to the unusual here in Castle Ring-forge."
"To'more
unusual things than a meal of strange fish," Gildrum said. "Now, if
you have quite done with eating, I will take you on a tour of the fortress, and
of the doors that will open to you when you ask, and when my lord bids them
so."
Cray
tipped a last measure of wine into his cup and gulped it down before rising.
Then he went to the bed to retrieve his boots. "Tell me, Gildrum,'* he
said,
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easing
the stiff leather over his heels, "if you are Lord Rezhyk's greatest
demon, why are you spending your valuable time on his apprentice? Surely you
have other,, more important tasks to perform for him."
She
slipped off the desk and stood by the open door. **Nothing is more important
than his apprentice,*' she said, raising one hand to touch the slab of bronze,
leaning lightly upon it; the door did not move beneath her touch. "You are
the first human being besides my lord to walk the halls of Ringforge. Until
this day, the visitors' room was the only one in which other people had stood.
You are the first for whom doors will open, lights will blaze and snuff, meals
will be prepared. You are not a guest but a resident. Of course you are
important, Master Cray. That is why you are my charge. My lord desires you to
be properly instructed in the ways of Ringforge, and there is no better and
more trustworthy teacher here than I." ^ Cray joined her at the door.
"Trustworthy?*' he echoed. "Does that mean, perhaps, that you are as
much my keeper as my teacher?"
"You
might consider me so," she said, leading him into the corridor.
"After all, you are a stranger to him."
"Well,
I hope to prove myself a diligent and trustworthy apprentice so that you may
soon leave off teaching me and return to Lord Rezhyk's other business."
Gildrum
glanced at him with one eyebrow raised. "You dislike my company, Master
Cray?"
"Oh
no, not at all," he blurted, grinning sheepishly in his embarrassment.
"Indeed, I feel that you are my one friend, so far, in all of
Ringforge."
She
halted abruptly, her eyes seeking his, holding them in an unwinking gaze.
"Master Cray, I am a demon," she said. "You must not assume that
I am able to be your friend, as a human would be your friend. I am my lord's
slave, first, always, and his word directs my actions."
He
frowned. "Can you not be my friend and Lord Rezhyk's servant at the same
time?"
"I
can, so long as the two are not in conflict."
"Well,
I hope that they never shall be. I will do my
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best to
stay on good terms with your master, as a proper apprentice should."
"Remember,**
she said, "only remember. Now look—" She pointed down the corridor,
where two doors were opening in the mirror-smooth walls. "These are
storerooms, Master Cray, where you will be sent frequently, to fetch materials
for my lord. Gauge their locations by the distance from the head of the
stairway, and when you stand before them and command, they will open for
you."
She
watched Cray stride forward to look inside the nearest aperture. He walked, she
thought, with a sense of power about him, as if still carrying sword and shield
and chain mail. Youth was in his tread, vital but controlled. Gildrum could not
help comparing his sure step with Rezhyk's habitual nervous pacing. Would the
one metamorphose into the other, she wondered, after a few years of
apprenticeship?
Or is
there too much of his mother in him for that?
She
thought of Delivev with a pang, as if the human heart that she did not possess
were being squeezed by a cruel fist; and she realized that she would always
think of Delivev now, every time she looked at Cray.
Our
son.
CHAPTER
TWELVE
Cray
was awakened by the simultaneous flashing on of all the lights in his room, and
by a loud knocking at the door. He stretched,
rubbed knuckles into both eyes, and assumed by his easy : Vakefulness
that it was morning, though all times of 'day seemed equal inside Castle
Ringforge.
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"Let
the door open," he said loudly.
The
panel swung aside, admitting Gildrum, who carried a tray hi her arms. "I
think youll like to break fast with this," she said. "You slept
well?"
"Well
enough, even though I lacked a window. All that tramping about yesterday, up
and down the stairs, tired me out, as I suppose you intended." He rolled
out of bed and padded barefoot, clad only in a long shut, to the desk, where
she had set the tray. The covered dishes yielded hot buttered porridge, bacon
crisp-fried, soft-boiled eggs, and fresh bread. "Looking at your wand-slim
lord, I would never have expected the lavish food that has been served me. I'll
have a belly big as a washtub before I've been here a year."
"My
lord will keep you running, I think. As for himself—he eats well and never
gains weight. He is a man of considerable energy. He will require that you
match him in that."
"I
shall do my best."
"He
awaits you in the workshop. As soon as you have done with the meal, dress
quickly and descend the stairs. I will be waiting for you at the bottom."
She smiled at him and-glided out the door.
He
found his gear hi the cabinet, and in addition to his own clothing, which had
been cleaned and neatly stacked on one of the lower shelves, there were fresh
garments of similar cut—tunics and trews and hose, and even a pair of boots
made to his measure, the leather smooth and unscuffed, even the heels. He chose
from the new apparel, which felt crisp against his skin, not worn soft like his
old things, which shredded at a touch too violent. He gazed at himself in the wall,
purposely for the first time in his stay at Ringforge, and he turned this way
and that to see himself from all angles, all around the room. He thought he
looked different from the would-be knight who had traveled so far in a quest
without a resolution. He had been as worn as his clothing, and now the fresh
garments gave his body a fresh posture, his face a fresh expression. Now he
felt ready to begin his new life as apprentice to Lord Rezhyk the sorcerer.
He
galloped down the stairs, and at the bottom
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he
grinned at Gildrum and linked his arm with hers to go to the workshop.
The
entry was at a location along the mirrored wall of the ground floor, and like
all the other doors, it was not marked in any special way, save that it opened
to Gildrum's voice.
"It
will open to you, too," she told Cray, "when my lord wishes you to
enter."
Rezhyk
stood in the center of the huge room, at a long table; he leaned upon it with
both elbows, his hands interlaced as a support for his forehead, and between
his elbows rested a thick book, open. He did not look at Cray and Gildrum as
they approached him.
Cray
loosed his hold on the demon and bowed from the waist. "My lord, I am here
as you called."
Rezhyk
did not bother to look up. "Clean out the kiln."
"Come,*1
whispered Gildrum, plucking at Cray's arm. 'Til show you how."
The
kiln was large enough to house a man, its walls made of double layers of red
brick. In its lowest section, beneath a coarse steel grate, was a mound of
fine-sifted powder, ruddy as terra-cotta, dry as desert sand.
From a
nearby cabinet, Gildrum drew a wide-mouthed leather sack, a bronze trowel, and
a horsehair brush, and she bade Cray scoop and sweep the powder into the sack.
"Even the last faint film of dust must be removed, if you have to use your
bare hands to gather it up; the kiln must be clean for the next firing."
"What
is this?" he wondered, filling the sack carefully. "Smashed
pottery?"
"Something
of the sort," said Gildrum,
*TJut
where are the ashes?"
"Fire
demons produce no ash, Master Cray." She directed him to tie the sack up
tightly with a thong, leaving a long, loose end hanging, and then she looked
back to Rezhyk. "Is the label ready, my lord?"
He
nodded without raising his head, his hand pushing something small and fiat
across the table toward her. '•••- Cray retrieved the object, a palm-sized
square of
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bronze
incised with symbols meaningless to his eyes. In one corner of the metal wafer,
a small hole had been punched, and through this he threaded the end of the thone,
knotting it securely at Gildrum's instruction. He lifted the sack in his arms.
"Lead," he said to Gildrum. "I will follow."
The
sack's destination was immediately next to the workshop, a long narrow room
lined with shelves, that Cray had not seen the day before. The shelves were
deep, row on row, and the lowest were stepped, one above the other, so that a
person could climb them like stairs to reach the highest. Sacks lay upon the
shelves, most of them singly, with wide intervals between neighbors, a few
clumped together like sheep huddling against the cold. Some of the shelves were
entirely empty: Gildrum led Cray to one of these and had him deposit his burden
there.
"What
is all of this?" he asked. He peered at the labels of several of the
closest sacks but could read none of them any better than that of the one he
had delivered. "How does Lord Rezhyk use this powder, and why does he save
it? And why could it not be gathered up by the lowest of his demons?"
"It
may not be contaminated," said Gildrum. "You will find, Master Cray,
that there are certain things in Ringforge that no demon may touch, certain
procedures that must be carried out by human hands alone. Until now, my lord
has handled all these matters himself, low and tune-consuming as some of them
may be. His apprentice can do many of them just as well, and I presume that he
will delegate those to you."
"Gathering
up dust?"
"These
are demon residues, not ordinary dust. As long as my lord has any use for the
conterits of one of these sacks, it may not be touched by any demon save that
one it represents. And this particular demon is away on my lord's business
right now."
Cray
looked all about him, wide-eyed. "These are demons? These ... flour
sacks?"
"No,
only demon residues. These are the bodies that my lord has fashioned for his
servants, but not the servants themselves." At his puzzled expression,
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she
added, "You will understand better
when my lord shows you the process."
"And
you can't touch any of them, not even the outsides of the sacks?"
She
smiled. "Well, I could have carried the sealed sack in here, Master Cray,
but you were so eager to do it yourself..."
"It
was a heavy load for a slight thing like you, Gildrum. I assumed you meant me
to take it."
"I
am stronger than I appear," she said, and wrapping one hand about the
thong-tied neck of the sack, she lifted the great weight without strain and
held it steadily at arm's length. 'Tm sure you would become quite bored in the
time that I could stand here like this. And my lord would surely wonder what
had become of us." She set it down carefully. "He will have more work
for you. Come."
Rezhyk
had begun to wonder already. He straightened as they re-entered the workshop.
"I expect your tasks to be accomplished a bit more swiftly in the future,
Cray Ormoru. You have much work ahead of you and little time for
dawdling."
"My
fault, my lord," said Gildrum. "I was convincing him that he cannot
judge demons by human standards."
"Come
over here, lad," said Rezhyk. "I want to teach you the first thing
you must know about sorcery." Cray approached him.
Rezhyk
slapped the open book that lay on the table before him. "This is the
source of all knowledge, lad. Look well, and understand what you see." He
pushed the book at Cray. "Tell me what it is."
The
volume was larger than any Cray had ever seen, either in the webs or with his
own eyes—as tall as his forearm and equally broad, and thick as his four
fingers together. The pages were heavy vellum, covered with close, crabbed
writing, some of it in plain language, some in incomprehensible symbols.
Occasionally, as he turned the sheets, he saw diagrams, but what they signified
he could not guess. He tipped the book shut to examine the cover—it was rich
red leather, emblazoned with the large numerals "54" tooled deep in
the surface and embellished with bronze
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leaf.
He opened to the first page and found that empty save for the numerals repeated
in black ink and Rezhyk's name writ in large letters at the bottom, followed by
a date several years gone.
He
peered at the name and then at the first page which was filled with words.
"My lord," he said, "is this perhaps your own handwriting?"
"It
is."
He
turned a few more pages, noting that each had a date written at its head, and
not all were completely filled; some had blank space at the bottom, though
nowhere else. He skipped through the sheets more quickly and found the final
entry, dated the previous day, followed by a score or more of unused pages. He
closed the book once more.
"These
are your records," Cray said. "This is the fifty-fourth volume to
record your work."
Rezhyk
pulled the book back close to himself, laying one arm across it in almost a
protective gesture. "You are near it, lad. Not precise, but near. This is
indeed a record of my work, but only of a particular project, the fifty-fourth
I have undertaken. There are other volumes and other projects, more of them
than I think you could guess. This is not the most recent I have begun. I am
careful to keep them separate and detailed. That is the first lesson you must
learn, Cray Ormoru—careful record-keeping. You must never lose track of where
you are." He pulled open one of the many drawers beneath the table; inside
lay a volume of similar size and appearance, but plainer, in black, and without
a number on the cover. He drew it out of the drawer and proffered it to Cray.
"This will be yours. In it, you will record everything you learn, every
sor-cerous move you make, every lesson, every drill. I will examine it from
time to time to make certain it is properly done. I expect you to write legibly
and to draw clearly."
Cray
hefted the tome, then swung it under his arm. "This is a different sorcery
indeed," he said, "from that I know. My mother keeps no books of this
kind."
"I
have my methods," Rezhyk replied sharply. "If you will learn from me,
you must use them."
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**I
understand, my lord. I only meant that I am more ignorant than I thought."
"You
are entirely ignorant. I can't even guess if you are fit to become a
demon-master; but I suppose we shall determine that soon enough. Come
along." He made a peremptory gesture with the same hand that had given
Cray the book, then he wheeled about and walked swiftly to the door. Cray
hurried after.
They
walked far—as far as one could walk in Castle Ringforge—and at the end of a
mirrored corridor, Rezhyk called for a door to open on a small, brightly lit
room. He entered, Cray close behind, and he went to a long table that occupied
the center of the floor. There were drawers beneath it and an open brazier atop
the smooth black slate of the work surface. It was a duplicate, though smaller,
of the table in his own workshop.
"This
will be yours," said Rezhyk, waving to encompass the whole chamber.
"You will bring my instructions here and practice the arts I give you.
Gildrum!"
The
demon, who had followed their trek unobtrusively, glided up to the table.
"My lord?" "Light the fire."
She
removed coal briquets from a low drawer, heaped them expertly, with air spaces
properly distributed, and then she applied her finger to the center of the
pile. Flame leaped from her fingertip, licking up over the black lumps,
fluttering hi yellow ribbons above them. In a moment, their edges caught,
graying quickly with superficial ash, reddening with the heat of their own
combustion. Gildrum drew back, and the flames sank, leaving glowing coals that
made the air above the brazier shimmer.
"If
you are wise," Rezhyk said to Cray, "you will |; feed this fire
regularly and never let it die. Gildrum will show you how to bank it for the
night."
"Could
I not relight it from one of the sconces?" Cray inquired.
"You
can answer that question yourself by passing your hand through one of the
sconce flames. Go ahead. Do it."
"My
lord?1*
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"You
won't be injured. Go on.**
Cray
went to the wall and lifted his hand to the sconce. Even a finger's breadth
away from the flame, he could feel no heat. He swept his thumb through the fire
quickly, once, then again, then settled it there, and the blaze, bright as a
beeswax candle, bright enough to read fine print by, engulfed his flesh to the
knuckle. He felt only cool air, though his eyes told him that he should be
screaming hi pain. He drew his hand back slowly, and by that same light he
inspected the thumb; it was not even soot-blackened.
Rezhyk
said, "I advise you not to try that with the coals of the brazier, or with
any other flame than these on the walls."
"Yes,
my lord." Cray returned to the table. "I will take good care of this
fire, I promise you."
"Very
well. You will find various materials in the drawers appropriately marked. You
may examine them at your leisure. Do not use them except at my direction. You
will learn all their properties soon enough. Every morning, I will expect you
to come to my workshop first, immediately after your breakfast, and there I
will set you the day's tasks. When you have finished my work, then you may
retire up here to pursue your own. I do not require you to go to bed at any
specific time, but I suggest that you do so early, for I shall have you called
early every morning, and I shall accept no excuses for tardiness save dire
illness."
"I
have never had a dire illness, my lord."
"I
am glad to hear it. I trust you shall not begin now." He pulled open a
drawer at the far end of the table. "You will find sundries in here—pen
and ink and blotting sand, straightedge and compass and so forth. I suggest you
mark your notebook with your name and today's date and all that I have told you
already."
Cray
dipped the quill and inscribed the first page of his book, dutifully noting:
Never let the fire in the brazier go out.
"Now,"
said Rezhyk, "the kiln must be scrubbed with soap and water before I can
use it again, and there are other matters about my workshop that re-
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quire
your hand, so we shall return there, Cray Ormoru, apprentice."
As they
passed through the doorway, the lights in Cray's new workroom dimmed, leaving
only the glow of the brazier, ruddy and flickering, to be reflected in the
walls. Cray bade the door close and hurried after his master, who was already
several paces down the corridor.
In the
following months, Cray learned that Rezhyk rushed everywhere, that he could not
sit still for more than a moment save when engrossed in reading or writing. He
expected Cray to be the same and set him endless tasks to fill up his
time—cleaning, polishing, removing ashes, fetching stores from every part of
Ringforge. And every time Cray wondered if all these things had to be done by
human hands, his master would nod and say that he had done them before Cray's
arrival. The lad marveled, then, that the man had had any time for sorcery.
"I
was more efficient than you are, apprentice," Rezhyk told him.
Between
chores, Rezhyk instructed Cray in certain basic sorcerous techniques: the
crushing and smelting of ores, the assaying of alloys, the making of molds, and
the passes to be performed and words uttered at every step of each process to
insure safety and success. All these things he demonstrated in Cray's workroom,
with Cray's allotted materials; rarely did he allow the youth to observe him
with his own* projects, and then only for the most trivial procedures. Cray
took dutiful uotes, and in the limited span of time left after all of this, he
practiced his lessons over and over again. Some nights he crawled to bed long
past the time his eyelids began to feel heavy, long past the time that flashing
sconces warned him of a reasonable hour of retirement. Sometimes Gildrum would
come up to his workroom on those late nights, bearing a tray of cheese and mulled
wine.
"You
work too hard, too late," she would say.
And he
would reply, "I must."
One
night the demon was standing by, watching him weigh a quantity of greenish
powder. She leafed
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through
his notebook- "He can find no fault with this," she said, scanning
page after page.
"He
has found fault," replied Cray. "With my handwriting, which he says
is none too clear, 'with my addition and subtraction, which he says are
frequently wrong, and with my lack of organization."
"As
to the figuring . . - well, you must do better there, of course. But if you can
read your handwriting, and if you can understand your organization, what fault
lies there?"
Using a
fine, camel's hair brush, Gray swept another pinch of powder into the left-hand
balance pan. "He says I may not be able to read my own handwriting years
from now."
"Ah."
She squinted at the page that lay beneath her fingers. "It seems not so
bad to me. And how much will you need these early lessons, anyway, later in
your career?"
He
grinned at her. "Are you suggesting that I slough your master's
instructions, Gildram?"
"No,
no—you do well to follow them to the letter. He is a stern master,"
With
one more breath of powder, the two sides of the scales matched exactly.
Carefully, Cray emptied the weighed substance into a small stone crucible that
already contained a heap of black dust and one of white, side by side. With the
green added, Cray stirred the three together with a glass rod, until the mix
was a sickly gray.
"What
are you making now, Master Cray?**
"Brass.
Again. I swear there are as many different kinds of brasses as there are
flowers in a meadow. And I have made none of them properly yet. I will never
reach gold at this rate." He carried the crucible to the far end of the
workroom, where a small oven stood hard against the wall. In the bottom of the
oven a bright blaze, lit from a coal of the ever-burning brazier, was roaring;
the coals glowed uniformly orange, with yellow flames dancing all about them,
and the heat that spilled from the opened door was greater than any needed to
roast a haunch of boar. Cray set the crucible in the claw of a pair of tongs
and maneuvered it into the oven, loosing the tongs with a tiny shake and draw-
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ing
them back. He closed the oven door and stepped away, his face red with the
heat, perspiration popping out on his cheeks and forehead.
"Every
time, I have done something wrong," he said. "Either the zinc ore was
ill-roasted or the copper ore not pulverized fine enough, or there was too much
charcoal or too little, or the additional trace materials were measured out
wrong. ... I have tried to be careful, but when Lord Rezhyk examines my work,
he finds a thousand faults." He began to work the bellows attached to the
side of the oven, to inject air into the heating mixture.
"You
need more practice in these techniques," said Gildrum. "I am sure
they did not come easy to hi™, either.**
Cray
sighed. "I suppose not. Fve scarcely been here two months—how can I expect
to master the art so quickly, even a small fraction of it? There is far more to
learn than I ever dreamed. Still... I thought myself a better student than I
have proved. Perhaps I am just better adapted to the other things that I have
learned.*'
Gildrum
pulled herself up onto the table. "Are you sorry that you chose this sort
of sorcery?" she inquired, nodding slightly to the steady rhythm of the
bellows.
"No.
My reasons are as good as ever." He opened the oven door a crack, peered
hi, shut it again, and kept the bellows going. "And it is interesting of
itself. Haven't you found it so, Gildrum?*'
"I?*'
"You
must have learned a great deal over the years you've been associated with Lord
Rezhyk. Enough to be a sorcerer yourself, I'll wager.'*
Gildrum
crossed her legs tailor-fashion, smoothing her long skirt over them. "I
suppose I have. Though I would never practice it, if I were free to do so. No
demon would ever attempt to enslave another.**
"No?"
"There
would be no reason for it."
"No
greed among demons? No lust for control over the world?"
"I've
told you before, Master Cray—you cannot judge us by human standards.**
Cray
opened the oven again, and this time he was
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satisfied
with what he saw and let the door gape wide. He eased the tongs about the
crucible and drew it out as gently as he might lift a newborn babe. The powders
had fused into a glowing yellow bubble of liquid brass. Atop the oven lay a
shallow clay mold, a featureless rectangle; Cray filled it with the molten
metal.
"How
glad I am," he said, wiping his sweaty brow with one sleeve, "that
demons are drawing most of the fumes and heat away from this work. I'd have
suffocated long since without them . . . without a window."
"Still
thinking about windows, Master Cray? Even now that you know how little
Ringforge needs them?"
"Yes,
I still think about them. My mind knows that the demons supply better
ventilation than any window, but my heart still yearns." He glanced back
at her. *'How many demons are there watching over me?"
"Oh,
quite a number."
"Yet
since the bronze bird brought me here, I have seen only you."
Gildrum
made a sweeping gesture with one hand that included all the sconces on the
walls. "You see a dozen or more, of them every day, Master Cray."
"I
mean in human form."
"Ah.
Well, my lord has not given all his servants human forms."
"Why
not?"
"Because
the human form does not serve all par-poses. It catches ocean fish poorly. It
delves for gems poorly. It flies to the far corners of the world quite
poorly."
"Yet,"
said Cray, "it serves well enough for Lord Rezhyk's greatest demon."
**I
have other forms as well. But I wear this one most because my lord so bids
me."
Cray
sauntered over to the table, set the tongs beside the brazier and leaned on the
warm slate, looking up at her curiously, as if searching for the telltale clue
that would betray her inhumanity. "You seem quite human to me. A little
cool, perhaps, and aloof, but I have met cooler. From your example, I can
hardly believe that demons are so different from us."
"I
have been among your kind a long time/' she re-
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plied.
"My lord says that has made me a misfit among my fellows."
"Do
you like it—being among us?"
She
stared down at him, that penetrating, unwinking stare, and after a long moment
she said, "It does not matter whether I like it or no. A slave must accept
the master's orders."
"But
if you had a choice," Cray persisted, "would you choose to stay among
humans, in human form?"
"It
serves no purpose to consider such questions," Gildrum said, and she
punctuated the remark by sliding off the table. "The hour is late, Master
Cray, and your mold will not be cool for some time. Should you not seek your
bed now?"
"I
have a few other things to do." He glanced down at his feet. "If I
have offended you, I apologize, Gildrum; I did not mean to do so."
"You
cannot offend a slave," said Gildrum. "We are not allowed to be
offended. Good night, Master Cray."
He
weighed and measured and sealed powders into boxes for a time after she had
gone, and he thought about the pain that bad been so evident in her voice. He
had encountered that tone before, that strained, hard-edged betrayal of grief.
He had heard it from his mother and from Sepwin and—he realized suddenly— from
himself. How harsh was slavery for a demon, he wondered, that it brought such
sorrow? Was there home and family somewhere that mourned for Gildrum and she
for them? Were there dreams unattainable, valuables lost, because Rezhyk
required her presence?
Cray
had never thought of demons being other than mindless forces, mere things
without any real will or action of their own, until he met Gildrum. She was
flesh and blood, or at least the semblance of flesh and blood, warm and
palpable and human-seeming as anyone he bad ever met. More human, he thought
wryly, than some. Were all demons like her? He glanced about the room, and he
could not will himself to believe that the flames that lit his work could
change themselves into people and speak to him as equals.
Nor
that she could turn into a flame like them.
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He
shook his head, then set about banking the brazier fire for the night, as she
had taught him.
In the
morning, he broke the wafer of brass out of its mold and presented it for
Rezhyk's inspection. Rezhyk turned it over in his hands, peering close by the
light of the brazier in his own workshop. Then he licked it with the tip of his
tongue.,
"Not
quite right," 4ie said. "Too much copper." He glared at Cray.
"How many times must I tell you to be more careful?"
Cray
sighed. "My lord, I am sorry. I will try again.**
And so
the first months of his apprenticeship passed, with Cray studying much but
rarely completing his lessons to his master's satisfaction.
"Am
I so incompetent, Gildrum?" he asked her. He sat on the floor of his
workroom, a brick of the inevitable brass on the floor in front of him. He
leaned forward and nudged it with one finger. His hands were red and raw from
scrubbing the kiln that afternoon; Rezhyk had been sharper with him than usual
after examining the latest piece of brass and had found fault even with his
scrubbing, making him do it twice over for good measure.
Gildrum
had just entered the room; he had seen her image in the bronze, a small,
light-footed form poised at the open door, and he had bid her enter before she
had a chance to ask. Even then, he did not look directly at her but stared
glumly into the space between the brass brick and the near wall.
"This
is not an easy art you seek to master," she said, standing behind him.
"You cannot expect to learn everything in a few short months.*'
"I
expect to learn something. I thought that I had. But no. Nothing comes out
right for me. Yet ... I don't know what greater care I can take. Perhaps I
should give up," He frowned painfully. "He is a harsh man, your
master, and I know he is not well pleased with me."
"He
is harsh," said Gildrum.
"I
can see the contempt on his face. Contempt for me and my failure. Sometimes I
think he wants me to admit defeat and give up, stop wasting his time.**
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She
sank to the floor beside him. "Do you want to give up?"
"I
can't. There is no other way to find the answer I must have. But it seems
farther away than ever." He gazed sidelong at her. "What shall I do,
Gildrum?"
Gildrum
drew her knees up and clasped her hands about them. Softly, she said, "How
can I give you advice, Master Cray? To tell you to give up would be to
contradict your own desires, and to tell you to persevere would be a betrayal
of my own kind." She bent forward to rest her forehead on her knees.
"I know what you want me to say, but do you really expect me to encourage
you to enslave other demons?"
Cray
sighed deeply. "I haven't any interest hi enslaving demons. I only want an
answer. One answer."
"It
will not stop there, Master Cray. Power will awaken greed in your heart. After
the question is answered, you will find other desires that demons can
fulfill."
"No."
"You
are young to be so sure.**
"I
have no other reason for apprenticing to Lord Rezhyk. Afterward ... I don't
know. That depends on the answer. But I never wanted power, Gildrum, I swear
it."
"My
lord was something of that sort once. He only wanted knowledge. Still, he only
wants knowledge. But he has needed demons to gather it for him. There are
scores of us in this fortress, slaves to him. We had lives of our own, before.
Now we live for him alone, at his whim every hour of the day. Some he lets go
back to the ,world we came from for shorter or longer visits, but the rings
always call them back eventually. Some, like the demon-lights, never leave the
human world."
"Like
you."
She
nodded, her forehead rubbing against her cloth-covered knees. "I have seen
very little of my home since he called me to him."
"Do
you miss it, Gildrum?"
Her
face turned toward him, and one long braid slid over her shoulder to drape
against her neck. "There are things that I miss. Home is one of them.*'
"And
what are the others?"
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"While
I serve my lord," she said, "they do not exist."
"I
pity you, Gildrum."
She
smiled a trifle. "No more than I do myself, Tm sure."
"You
know, Gildrum, if it were not for you, I would be tempted to leave here. You
are my only friend in Ringforge. You are more human than he is."
Gildrum
straightened. "I'm sure my lord would disagree with you on that."
"In
your heart."
"Well,
I haven't any heart, Master Cray. Don't forget that. It is this young and
pretty body that charms you. If I had the semblance of an ugly old crone, you
would undoubtedly rush me off quickly every time I came near you."
"No,
I would not, for the Gildrum inside would be the same. But perhaps I would
treat you with more deference, as befits a grandmother."
"I
am old enough to be your grandmother and more."
Cray
looked at her closely, as he always seemed to be looking at her, every time she
reminded him that she was something other than human. And as before, he found
no flaw hi her appearance; he saw beside him only a girl several years younger
than himself, just barely beyond childhood. "How long have you served
him?"
"Since
the beginning. I was the first. He worked seven years on the rings that
captured me."
"And
you have not aged."
"He
would not allow this form to age. And, in demon terms, I am still young."
"How
long do demons usually live?'*
'Tar
longer than human beings, even sorcerers."
"Then
you will outlive Lord Rezhyk?"
"I
don't doubt it"
"And
after he dies . . . will you be free, or will you pass to the next owner of the
rings?"
"I'll
be free, at least until some other sorcerer claims me as Lord Rezhyk did."
"Is
that likely?"
Gildrum
shrugged. "I'll be free for a time; who can
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say how
long? Perhaps the rest of my life. Perhaps not."
"But
you'll be able to go home then. For a while, anyway."
"Yes,"
she said hollowly. "Home will be there, waiting for me."
"And
... the other things?"
"I
have no hope on that account."
Hesitantly,
he touched her shoulder. "Poor Gil-drum," he murmured. "Is it
some demon lover who won't wait for you?"
She
raised her head slowly, and he was startled to see a tear in her eye.
"Master Cray," she said, "let us speak no further on these
matters."
"So
demons cry," he whispered.
"This
demon cries. It has been too long among you." She scrambled to her feet,
wiping away that single tear with the back of her hand. "I ask you not to
tell my lord that you have seen me weep, Master Cray. I know he would not wish
to think his most powerful demon as weak as a real human being."
"I
won't tell him."
She
bent to grasp his shoulder with one tense hand. "I wish you luck, Master
Cray. With everything."
"I'll
need some," he replied.
Rezhyk
examined the rough-cast ring closely, holding it up to his eye with two
fingers; the unpolished surface appeared to be covered with a fine yellow
powder. "It goes well indeed, my Gildrum," he said. "Another
year, I think, with this one, and we'll be ready to conjure." He waved at
the demon with his free hand. "You'd better make some more entries for me
in the false notebook. Something about lead."
Gildrum
fetched the volume marked "54" from its
special
drawer and set it on the end of the worktable,
open to
the first Wank sheet. From another drawer she
took a
quill and inkpot that her master did not need
Jfor
his real work, then climbed onto her stool and
piunched
over the book to inscribe it with a perfect
imitation
of Rezhyk's crabbed script. "What shall I say
(about
lead?"
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"Add
a little to the ring that's described there. As much as you like, it doesn't
really matter."
"You've
never added lead to your gold."
"So
much the better. We've concocted a truly creative ring in those pages. What a
pity it's so useless."
"You
know, my lord, you needn't bother to keep this notebook anymore," she
said, writing more quickly than her master would. "He'll believe whatever
you tell him."
"I
want to stay consistent, my Gildrum. His lessons may be a sham, but they are a
logical sham. What do you have there?" He peered over her shoulder.
"Good. Good. It certainly sounds likely. Very good." He picked up a
round steel file and began to stroke the inner curve of the ring. "Do you
think he is beginning to feel discouraged?'*
"He
has expressed his self-doubts to me several times, my lord, but he always finds
the strength to continue." She waved her hand above the page, shedding
enough mild warmth upon it to dry the ink without need for sand. She closed the
book. "He has a strong will, that lad."
"This
last task I set him—he did very well with it, my Gildrum. He has the touch, the
exactitude the art requires. He could do well as a demon-master. I expressed my
disappointment most strongly."
"He
told me, my lord," she said, leaning her elbows on the red leather cover
of the volume.
"Perhaps
this should be the last chance I give him. I can tell him that he'll never do
any better than with this most recent work." His lips tightened into a
travesty of a smile. "And it will be true, certainly." He fell silent,
and for a long time the only sound in the room was the rasping of the file
against the gold of the ring. Soon fine golden dust speckled Rezhyk's hands and
the slate surface over which he worked.
"No,
my lord," Gildrum said at last. "It is too soon to turn him
out."
"Too
soon, my Gildrum? Almost a year already. The weather has come around pleasant
again, good traveling weather. It would be no cruelty to send him on his way
now."
"I
said too soon, my lord. What is a year in a sor-
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cerer's
apprenticeship? If he does not object, his mother surely will. She will say
that you have hardly given him a chance."
Rezhyk
sighed over his filing. "You are right, of course, my Gildrum. He has
barely begun his apprenticeship." He frowned. "But I cannot be comfortable
while he is near me. It is as if she were here. My flesh crawls when I see him,
and I want to shut him away and be done with him."
"I
shall endeavor to keep him out of your sight, my lord, if you wish it I can
even oversee most of bis lessons."
"Yes.
Yes, do that."
**You
have been with us a year today,"1 said Gildrum, leaning close to Cray's
elbow to watch him write. His script had shrunk hi the time he had been keeping
the notebook, and each day's work required less space than the previous, though
it was no less lengthy. He had nearly filled the volume Rezhyk had given him.
"Has
it been so long?" he muttered. "Without the passage of the seasons to
gauge time by, I have lost track."
"You
have the date on every page.**
"That
is just a number. Winter has come and gone, it tells me, but my body still
lives in the summer of my arrival. Ringforge is always the same, summer and
winter. I might have been here a year or a hundred years." He measured the
thickness of the used pages with a finger and thumb. "Sometimes it seems
like a hundred."
*'A
year only, and it is summer again.**
Cray
blew on the writing to dry it. "A whole year— and I have not once been
outside these walls. I, who used to spend my days in the open air." He
shook his head ruefully. "I have grown pale."
She
peered into his face. "Your cheeks are pale," she agreed.
"My
heart, too."
She
cocked her head to one side. "Well, I think my lord might agree to a brief
holiday, for this anniversary afternoon, if you are so inclined."
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He
smiled at her. "I am inclined, but I have too much work to do. I have this
batch right at last, I'm sure; he'll find no fault this time. If I can persuade
him to look at it."
"Oh,
he'll look at it, no doubt about that, Master Cray. I'll take it to him myself
as soon as it's cool."
"He
must be quite disgusted with me, to avoid me as he has lately."
"He
has been very busy."
"So
busy that he stays away from his own workshop when I am there?"
"There
are other rooms in Castle Ringforge, Master Cray. He does not spend every
waking hour in the workshop."
"And
he takes care that my work there shall be completed in those hours that he is
absent." Cray tipped his book shut. "Well, I find I cannot blame him.
I have hardly become the sort of apprentice that would make him proud."
Gildrum
turned to saunter away from him, around the table, one small hand brushing
lightly along the smooth surface. She turned two corners and came to a halt
directly opposite him; she leaned toward him, arms crossed upon the table, her
eyes following the motions of his hands as he scrubbed the top clean of
many-hued powders. "He hasn't given you much help," she murmured.
"Apprenticeship
has been a trifle lonelier than I expected." He grinned at her.
"Which has made me more grateful for your visits, Gildrum."
"You
will get no more personal attention from him in the future than you have in the
past. Less."
"Oh,
after he sees this batch of brass, I think his attitude will change."
"Are
you so poor a judge of human beings, Master Cray?"
He laid
his hands upon the book. "A little success ..."
"He
is a harsh man. You think your success will make him less so?"
"Well.
. . yes, of course." His brow knit quizzically. "Why take an
apprentice if you find no joy in his successes?"
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With one
slim finger, she swiped at a speck of dust, giving the gesture a long moment of
her attention, as if it were intrinsically fascinating. Then quietly, she said,
"You think my lord took an apprentice to build himself a rival?"
Cray
stared at the top of her blond head. "Well . . . no, perhaps not. Perhaps
just to sweat for him at tasks he no longer wishes to do himself. Still, he is
bound by custom to teach me his art in return for my labor."
"Is
he?"
"Of
course."
"You
say that so easily, Master Cray. Have you learned nothing in this year?"
"What
are you saying, Gildrum? That he cares nothing about teaching me sorcery? That
he apprenticed me ... as a human slave to do the things that his demon slaves
must not?"
She
gazed at him from beneath raised eyebrows. "Can you bear to think
that?"
Cray
shook his head sharply. "He wouldn't do that It's ... it's
dishonorable."
"Is
the sorcerous breed such an honorable one?"
"Why
are you saying such things, Gildrum? What trick are you trying to play on
me?"
"No
trick, Master Cray. I only wonder how you have lived in Ringforge a year now
with your eyes tight shut."
He
wheeled away from her but was confronted with her image and his own in the
wail. He looked down at the floor, where only his own foreshortened self stared
back. "You are his' creature, Gildrum. Why are you trying to turn me
against him?"
Her
voice was high, light, piercing. "I do his bidding, Master Cray, but I
think my own thoughts. You think I love the one who has power over me?"
"Can
you speak such words within the very walls of his own fortress?"
"I
spy for my lord, Master Cray; he does not spy on me. He trusts me completely.
Yet, the slaves may mutter when the master is out of earshot, even though they
grovel to kiss his feet when he is near."
Cray
eyed her over one shoulder. "So I should believe you when you say that I
am a fellow slave . . .
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and
nothing more." He gestured abruptly at the book, his arm rigid, fingers
splayed. "What is this then? Nonsense?"
Gildrum
said, "What do you think it must be?"
"He
wouldn't dare!" cried Cray. "He wouldn't dare treat me so shabbily.
If my mother found out, she would be furious; and her fury is a force to be
reckoned with—he must know that."
"Your
mother's fury does not concern him."
"Well,
it should! She is no weakling to be disregarded!"
"He
does not fear her." Gildrum straightened up stiffly. "Master Cray, I
told you that my lord trusts me, and that is true enough. Yet when it was
decided that you come here, he gave me certain instructions ... he forbade me
to speak of certain matters. One of these matters is a thing which would, I
think, prove to you the truth of everything I have said today. If you could
only see that thing, you would no longer doubt me."
"Show
it to me then."
"Ah—that
will be no simple task. It will require that you disobey my lord's command and
enter where he has not sent you . . . where he would never send you."
"Where?"
"His
bedroom."
"He
keeps this . .. thing there?"
"Sometimes.
That is the place where you may see it most readily."
Cray's
lips tightened. "Do you swear to me, Gildrum, that this thing is
proof?"
"I
know of no better, Master Cray. Believe me, your eyes and your understanding
will open when you see it."
Beside
his thigh, Cray's right hand clenched into a fist. "Very well. How may I
enter his bedroom if he gives me no permission?"
Gildrum
smiled slightly. "I can arrange that. But there is a complicating
condition."
"Yes?"
'The
thing to which I refer is only there when my lord is there, and only readily
visible when,he is about to retire. We must hide you, therefore, somewhere in
the room before he enters. You will have to stay the
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whole
night, utterly silent, closed up in one of the cabinets, with only a hinge
crack for light and air. I will make certain that the thing will be visible to
you from your vantage."
"A
complicating condition indeed," said Cray. "You ask quite a bit of
me. What if I am discovered?"
Giidrum
inclined her head. "There is that chance. But the cabinet is the likeliest
hiding place—better than under the bed. I will contrive to cover any noises you
make, as long as I am there. After I leave . . . well, he sleeps soundly."
"You
are asking me to risk my apprenticeship, Gildrum. If he discovers me, that will
be the end of it."
She
shrugged. "You have nothing now. You risk nothing."
"So
you say."
"Do
you wish to wait until he rejects your latest bar of brass? Will my words seem
more likely then?"
Cray
glanced toward the oven, where the metal lay cooling, almost cool enough to
break out of the mold. "I don't want to believe you, Gildrum. But ... if
he rejects this one . . . Well, 1 can do no better than it. I would feel
obliged to leave anyway; he wouldn't have to throw me out." His gaze
swerved to her face, so childlike and innocent to belong to an inhuman
creature. "And if there is proof—what then? What shall I do?"
"We
can discuss that afterward, Master Cray. I have a suggestion for you, when the
time comes."
"You
want something from me."
She
nodded. "I only hope it may He within your power."
"I
have no power. And you have said that your lord will give me none."
She
smiled. "Let us discuss that later."
"I
can make no promises, Gildrum; not till I've seen what you would show me."
„ "Well enough."
"And
Til take this brass bar to him myself, if you don't mind."
"It
will not do!" raged the sorcerer Rezhyk. "Is it 267
that
your hand is so unsteady, boy? Or is your eye so blind that you cannot see the
scales balance?"
Cray
stood quiet under his wrath, his eyes fixed on the brass ingot that lay before
-the brazier on his master's workbench. One edge of the bar had been scraped,
and the fragments of metal so removed dissolved into tinted liquids in several
flasks. Rezhyk clutched one in his hands, his fingers wound so tight about its
narrow neck that they seemed likely to snap it any moment.
"Am
1 close, my lord?" Cray inquired.
"Close?
Close will not do, lad! You must learn to be exact! Have you been here so many
months and still not learned how to measure?"
Cray
hung his head. "I thought I had learned, my -lord."
Rezhyk
set the flask down heavily. "I waste materials on you, Cray Ormoru. I
might as well be throwing them to the wind."
"I
will try harder, my lord," Cray whispered.
"You
must! Or I shall find myself another apprentice! Out of my sight now!
Out!"
As soon
as he stepped into his workroom and closed the door, Cray heaved the brass bar
the length of the chamber; it struck the far wall, clanging against the bronze
like a clapper in a bell, and the whole room reverberated with the note.
"You
wanted to see him yourself," said Gildrum, watching Cray as he stood in
the center of the floor, his arms tight against his sides, his fists
white-knuckled. "I have not lied to you on that."
"No,"
he replied- "And now I shall see what comes next. When does Lord Rezhyk
retire?"
"We
have plenty of time. No need to hasten to make yourself uncomfortable."
"I
won't be uncomfortable," said Cray.
"Perhaps
not at first, but toward dawn you'll find yourself cramped. And in need of facilities
that will not be inside the cabinet."
"I
don't intend to be inside the cabinet. I don't like your plan, Gildrum. I have
a better one: a little trick my mother taught me."
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"Sorcery?"
"Won't
my mother's sorcery work inside Ring-forge?"
"Of
course it will. That is why my lord forbids it."
"Good.
As well disobey one way as another." Slowly, he turned to look at her.
"Unless you choose to expose me."
"Not
I."
"And
you have control over these others, I perceive, or you would never have spoken so
freely to me in front of them." He opened one fist to wave at shoulder
level, at the sconces, and on the palm of his hand were the imprints of his
fingernails.
"I
have a certain hegemony here, Master Cray," said GiMrum, "when my
lord makes no demands. He gave you into my care some time ago, and so what he
knows of you is now entirely filterexfthrough me."
"Well
enough. We are conspirators now, Gildrum. You have knowledge of my
disobedience, and I have knowledge of yours. I know that discovery means I will
be cast out. What will it mean to you?"
Gildrum
lowered her eyes. "He will not discover anything ... if you are not
foolish."
"But
if . . ."
"There
are punishments that I would prefer not to contemplate. Being sealed in solid
rock until my lord dies is perhaps the least of them."
"Yet
you dare this punishment." Cray frowned mightily. "Why?"
She
raised her gaze to him, and in the liquid depths of her eyes he saw beyond the
guileless youth of her body; he saw a darkness like the still, cold waters of
the lady Helaine's pool, and he shivered with a sudden chill. She seemed to
look into his heart with those eyes, into his marrow.
"You
are my friend," she said.
He
shook his head. "You told me, once, that we could not be friends if it
conflicted with your lord's commands. Have you changed your mind on that?"
"I
told you that I could not be your friend, not that -you could not be
mine." She rubbed her palms together, as if human sweat had accumulated
there, sweat of nervous anticipation, and Cray found himself
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wishing
to touch her hands to see if it were really there. But he stood where he was,
not even reaching out across the small space that separated them,
"I
tread a narrow path, Master Cray," she continued. "Narrower than any
demon before me. I have not lied to my master, but I have . . . avoided
speaking of certain matters. So long as he does not ask, I can go on as I
have." Her lips tightened briefly. "You must not cause him to ask,
Master Cray. My fate is in your hands. And now we must be on our way. I will
guide you to his chamber."
"Carry
me instead," said Cray. "I'll hide up your sleeve, and he won't even
see me in a suspicious corridor. You can bring me back here, too,
afterward."
"Up
my sleeve?" said Gildrum.
Cray
nodded. "I'll be ready in just a moment."
Swiftly,
he stripped off his clothes and shut them in a drawer. Then, standing naked and
pale on the mirrored floor, he bent forward from the waist, slowly, reaching
with outstretched fingertips for the reflection beneath his feet. He murmured
softly, unintelligibly, and the skin all over his body began to shudder, as if
a thousand snakes were crawling just beneath the surface. His paleness flushed
and darkened, tanning as under a hundred afternoons of sunshine, and as the
pigment intensified, his body contours began to alter. His limbs shortened, his
head absorbed his neck and pulled tight against his shoulders, his torso
compressed into his abdomen, and all the time his entire frame was shriveling
and shrinking, like a wineskin spilling its contents. He sprouted dark hair and
strange mandibles, and his fingers and toes turned spindly as straw till they
were his legs, eight fragile legs supporting the diminishing weight of his
bulbous abdomen and tiny head. Within the space of a score of heartbeats, he
had transformed himself into a spider no larger than the last joint of a grown
man's thumb.
Gildrum
stared down at him. "A wonderful little trick," she said. "Can
you speak?"
Silence
answered her question. She scooped him up, and he scuttled into her sleeve,
just as his own spiders had done with his own sleeve, so many months before.
As a
spider, Cray's viewpoint was limited. His eyes
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and
ears were sharp, still human, though altered in appearance and proportion to
his body and veiled by his dark hair; no natural spider had ever borne the
senses with which Cray contemplated his environment, But the world was a vaster
place to him in that guise —human works were like nature's monuments to him,
human sounds like nature's thunder. And, as a spider, he always found himself
extraordinarily attracted to flies. He could hear three of them buzzing about
the corridors of Ringforge now, as if they were the castle's only occupants,
and he yearned to settle himself in some dark corner and spin a web to catch
them. He had never eaten a fly—his mother had frowned upon such indulgence in
the course of magic—and he wondered what they tasted like.
Gildrum
carried her arm stiffly, unaccustomed to bearing a spider, but to her passenger
the ride was a bad voyage through stormy seas, and he was relieved when it
ended at last. Peeking out of her cuff, he watched a section of the wall open
to her and reveal Rezhyk's private chamber. It was furnished simply, not unlike
his own, except all the furniture was of bronze, with black cushioning. Gildrum
set Cray in the shadow beneath a bar of the bedstead and bade him stay there
without stirring, Rezhyk, she said, did not like spiders and might do something
unpleasant if he noticed one crawling on his bed. Cray laid a tiny ring of
sticky web to the underside of the bar and clung there comfortably, dark hidden
by dark.
Shortly,
Rezhyk retired. He came in with Gildrum, who had gone out of the room as soon
as she had seen Cray settled, and now she helped him undress, slipping the
mantle from bis shoulders and hanging it in the nearest cabinet, pulling off
his bronze-studded boots, his silken hose, his linen shirt.
And
Cray saw what he was meant to see.
The
light from many sconces glinted from the threads of Rezhyk's cloth-of-gold
shirt, and beside the pure glory of that lustrous garment, the bronze walls
dimmed to dross. Mirrors they were, only mirrors on every wall, and cold metal,
cold as a winter's night behind the sunny cheer of yellow gold. Cray could make
out the delicate weaving that had shaped the garment,
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the
flaws that marred it here and there, betraying
an
amateur's hand. And hot fury grew in his frail spider's body, for he perceived
that a garment woven of metal was a trespass upon his mother's province and an
insult to her—all the more so because Rezhyk wore it hidden beneath his other
clothing, next to the warm skin that enveloped his heart. He was not at all
surprised that he had never seen the shirt before; he understood that Rezhyk
would never dare to show it to Delivev Ormoru's son.
Gildrum
slipped a nightshirt over her master's head, and the gleam of gold disappeared
beneath ordinary fabric. Then she stepped back, easing toward the foot of the
bed as she bid him good night, and her hands trailed lightly over the bedstead;
when they passed Cray's hiding place, he leaped to her cuff. Rezhyk had already
turned over and pulled the blankets up to his chin; he did not bother to watch
his oldest slave leave the room.
In his
own workshop, Cray regained his human form as easily as he had shed it, and he
stretched and flexed his muscles, which had cramped up with the transformation.
To Gildrum, who watched him with impassive eyes, he said, "The shirt seems
fairly well made. Is it his own work?"
"He
is a diligent worker and independent."
"And
what purpose does it serve?"
"Can't
you guess, Master Cray?"
"Armor?"
He regarded her skeptically. "How can he need armor when he is surrounded
by demons? Surely they are better protection than any golden shirt, no matter
what spells are impressed upon it."
Gildrum
shrugged. "He had certain fears, Master Cray, at one time."
"What
did he fear?"
'^Not
what. Whom."
"Whom,
then?"
"Don't
you know?"
"My
mother is not his enemy!" Cray sputtered, "She doesn't care about him
one way or the other!"
"Are
you quite sure about that?"
"In
all the years I lived with her, I don't remember her mentioning his name once.
If she had had any
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feelings
about him at all, surely I would have heard
something."
Gildrum
clasped her hands behind her back, tightly. "The events which caused my
lord to make what you have just seen happened before you were born, Master
Cray, and I fear I cannot discuss them with you. Suffice it to say that my lord
had his feelings, no matter what your mother's may have been. And so the thing
was made. And so, I hope, you now understand why it is that my lord treats you
as he does."
Cray
shook his head and heaved a loud sigh. "I do not understand at all, but I
do perceive that my apprenticeship in Ringforge will never give me what I
want." His hands flexed into fists. "I must leave, then, Gildrum, and
find some other, more honest master. I have wasted a year; there's little point
in wasting another day. I snail leave tomorrow,"
"You
needn't leave, Master Cray," said Gildrum.
"I
will miss you, I know."
"You
can stay and learn."
"Learn
what? How to scrub out a kiln? I know that already, thank you."
"I
will be your teacher."
Cray
looked at her speculatively. "Is it possible?"
"I
know everything my master knows. I could conjure demons if I wished, if the
very thought did not repel me. I will teach you."
"Teach
me to enslave your kind? When the very thought of it repels you? Would you
really do that?"
"For
a price."
Cray
rocked back on his heels. "Ah ... a price."
"I
will teach you," said Gildrum, "in return for my freedom."
They
stared at each other for a long moment then, he with brows knit tight above
questioning eyes, she with a bland, steady expression. At last he said,
"How could I give you your freedom when you belong to Lord Rezhyk?"
"When
I have done teaching you, you will know how."
,
"And ... he will be my enemy."
"If
he is still alive."
"Will
I have to kill him to free you?"
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"Not
necessarily."
"But...
perhaps?"
"Not
if you don't want to."
"What
would he do afterward, though—after I have stolen away his oldest and best
demon?"
"You
will not be without resources—I will see to that." She stepped toward him,
one^ hand outstretched, as if offering the future on a platter of flesh. "I
can teach you his art and more. He has spent years seeking knowledge; I will
give you what he knows and what he has not found yet. You will be greater than
he is, in a fraction of the time. He will not be able to stand against
you." Her hand reached for him, hovering just below his face, and he could
not'help staring down at it, though it held nothing but invisible promises.
"Live here in Ringforge," she said. "Feign my lord's
apprenticeship while you serve a truer one to me. I promise you, you shall riot
regret it."
He
lifted his gaze from her soft pink palm to her eyes. "You would betray
your kind to me ... for your own freedom?"
"If
you . find another master, we are as well betrayed. This, at least, will profit
one of us." Her dark eyes narrowed. "And did you not tell me that you
would be different from him? That you were not interested in demon-mastery but
in something else?"
"You
know what I want," said Cray.
"Then
we shall both have what we want. Will you stay?"
"Won't
Lord Rezhyk find out?"
"Not
if you are circumspect. You will have to continue to scrub the kiln and other
such drudgery, but you needn't waste your time with the lessons he sets you. I
will report to him on your progress, and you can keep a book of nonsense to
show him whenever he visits. That will not be often."
"Shall
I believe you, Gildrum? Or are you tricking me as much as he is?"
Her
hand dropped slowly away from his face. "Believe me," she said,
"I want my freedom more than I can tell you. Without you, I have no
hope."
Cray
bowed his head. "I don't know what to say, Gildrum. I want an answer, not
a war with another
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sorcerer.
The answer may determine the course of the rest of my life. Or it may do
nothing at all. I don't know. I can't make you any kind of promise with a good
conscience. Perhaps I should just find another master."
"No!"
"You'd
be no worse off than you are now.**
"Master
Cray—I beg you . . ."
"And
I don't know if I want to learn that much sorcery. I only want ... an answer.
If you could give me that answer, I'd leave Ringforge now."
Gildrum
stood silent.
Cray
gazed at her through lowered lashes. "If you were my slave, you'd find
that answer for me."
"I
can show you how to conjure a slave that will."
"Will
you show me that, then, Gildrum? Only that? I don't want the rest."
"You
might decide you do want it. Later."
"That
would be later. For now . . ." He shook his head. "I can't make you a
promise, Gildrum. I'm sorry."
She
turned away from him. "I will teach you then," she said heavily,
"in hope that later your heart will soften toward me."
"Gildrum!
I don't mean to hurt you, but . . ." He waved his hands uncomfortably.
"Gildrum, I am very ;young. I don't really know what it is that you're
offering me, nor if I want it, nor if I ought to have it. My life is too much
of a turmoil for that sort of decision here and now. You ask a great deal of
me, and I am not even prepared to contemplate it."
She
cast a glance back over her shoulder. "There will be time for
contemplation if you stay."
He took
a deep breath. "Then I will stay. Until I find my answer. Beyond
that..." He shrugged.
"I
accept that," said Gildrum. "You are young. I •'forget sometimes how
very young you are." She : smiled, tentatively. "You're a good lad,
Master Cray. yAnother might have given me his promise without ever '.intending
to keep it."
"We
must be honest with each other," said Cray, !'*if we are to work
together."
She
looked away from him. "I am limited in my
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honesty,
Master Cray. My lord commands, and so there are things I must keep from you. I
hope you will forgive me for them."
"As
long as you do not lead me astray, Gildnun."
"I
shall endeavor not to."
"Then
there is something I must ask of you, to seal our bargain. But perhaps Lord
Rezhyk has commanded you to keep it from me."
"What?"
"Your
true form."
She
threw her head back, lifting her gaze to the ceiling, and her long yellow
plaits swung behind her, brushing the blue fabric of her skirt. "My true
form," she echoed. "No, he has not forbidden it. But this is the
shape I wear in his presence. You would prefer it, I know, to my true
form."
"Still,"
said Cray. "I would see it."
"Very
well, Master Cray. I suggest you step back from me. My flame shall be cool and
shall not sear your flesh, but it will be bright."
He saw
her watching his reflection in the far wall as he backed off. When another wall
prevented him from moving further, she nodded once. Then, in a single instant,
between one heartbeat and the next, blond girl and blue dress vanished in a
burst of flame.
Cray
started violently, clutching at the smooth surface behind him as if it were his
mother's skirts. His mind could hardly fathom what he had seen, and his eyes
could only stare glassily, unblinking at the fire that spilled about the room,
bounced off the walls and was multiplied a hundredfold in polished bronze.
Her
voice, when it' came at last, was whispery, crackling, like damp logs burning
on a hearthfire—not the girl's voice but something inhuman and unknown.
"Are you satisfied, Cray Ormoru?"
He pressed
hard against the wall, and then the flames splashed toward him, engulfing him
in yellow light. He started again and closed his eyes involuntarily, and when
they were closed he could still see the light, blood red, beyond his eyelids.
But he felt nothing. He opened his eyes again and found himself still
enveloped, flame like a robe about him, dancing oh his arms and legs, veiling
the room from his sight like a
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tenuous
yellow curtain. He raised a hand before his face, and it was alight, a living
wick. He looked past his hand, to the far wall, and he saw his whole body
blazing.
In
another moment, the flame had drawn away from him, was flowing toward a corner
of the room, coalescing into a small, bright ball, pinching into an elliptical
shape. The fire dimmed then and solidified into a small, blond girl. "You
have seen," she said in her human voice. "And now, I think, our
friendship will never be the same."
Cray
tried to swallow, but his throat was desert-dry. He whispered, "Now I know
why the ancients
-worshiped
fire."
Slowly,
she walked toward him. "Are you afraid of
•me?"
she asked.
He
pushed himself away from the wall with one aand. "No!" he said
loudly. "Are you quite certain?"
They
met at the center of the room, halting when Ithere was a single arm's length between them. He Booked down at her. "I feel like a
fool," he said. "I, ithe child of a sorcerer, and an apprentice in my
own ight—I cringed from
a show of
sorcery. I am 'shamed of myself, and I ask you to
excuse my be-jvior."
"Your
mind knew I was a demon," said Gildrum. low your heart knows, too."
He
offered her his hand. "I reaffirm our friendship, Hldrum."
She
gazed at his extended hand a time, and then ic took it firmly. "Our
friendship," she said. "As liich as it can be."
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CHAPTER
THIRTEEN
A; the
years passed, Cray's features hardened. He had been a boy when he set out on
his quest, no matter what his mother thought, or what he thought himself. He
had had his full stature and his adult strength, but his face had been still
soft and rounded, his cheeks full, his chin downy. Now the subtle changes of
maturity crept upon him, hollowing the spaces beneath his cheekbones, narrowing
his once-wide eyes and etching them with shadows. He grew a pale beard and a
mustache that veiled his upper lip like dandelion fluff. In the mirror of his
walls, he saw himself every day and was not startled by the gradual alteration
in his appearance, but on each anniversary of his arrival at Ringforge he
paused to stare at himself and wonder what his mother would say if she could
see him.
"I
look more like her now than ever before," he mused one time. "Except
for the beard, of course."
At his
shoulder, Gildrum looked at his reflection and then away, saying nothing.
He was
an excellent student. He found that sorcery could be fascinating if the
frustration of constant failure were removed. His workroom was alight through
more nights than not, as he strove to master Gildrum's instructions, as he
smelted brass and bronze and silver, as he practiced the gestures and
intonations that would bring him his goal. He hardly saw Rezhyk anymore;
Gildrum was their go-between, relaying even the orders to perform menial tasks
and reporting fraudulent training and results to her master. Cray
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kept
his notebook of nonsense, though Rezhyk rarely looked at it, and in the
meantime his true notebooks multiplied with the intensity of his concentration.
Occasionally,
after he had grown the beard, after he realized his talents truly lay in the
direction of sorcery, he would think about his life as it had been. In the
moments while the oven was baking ores, while a new mold was cooling, or while
he was scrubbing the kiln for Rezhyk, his mind would drift back and he would
feel an ache deep inside himself, a loss, an emptiness. At last, he succumbed
to these feelings, one night when a new alloy lay cooling atop the oven; he
opened the cabinet where his old gear had lain untouched for so long. His sword
was there, his shield, his chain mail. There was no dust upon them, no dust
anywhere in Castle Ringforge, thanks to the diligent demons. He drew the sword
from its scabbard, slowly, and the steel blade seemed a cold thing in the warm
bronze light of the room. It seemed heavy, too, to his muscles long unaccustomed
to hefting its weight. He took up the shield then, and his left arm sagged,
tendons protesting sharply below the elbow. Has it been so long? he wondered.
He swung the sword experimentally, and he felt his joints creak, like those of
an arthritic old man trying to rise in the morning. He let the tip of the blade
dip till it touched the floor. His hand
clasped the hilt tightly. He
felt shame rise within him, for his body no longer obeyed him with the ease of
yesterday.
From
that day on, he began to exercise. He had J
little enough time for such things, yet he found some it opportunities,
which otherwise he might have spent
^ in reverie. In the workroom, he
stretched, he tumbled, * he ran in
place, he lifted bars of metal over and over again. And in his
bedchamber, each night
before sleeping, he swung his sword at the reflections in the walls.
There was no opponent with unanticipated re-|
flexes, nor even a tree to beat at, yet Cray found \ himself enjoying the activity. The skills came back |. quickly, the stamina followed.
Soon Cray carried the it shield and swung the sword with the old ease, as if |!
they were extensions of his body, and
if he never
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struck
a solid target, at least he never ran any risk of shattering his weapon from
the impact.
He
never wore the chain.
Gildrum
found him feinting at his reflection one evening. She said nothing, but her
quizzical expression prompted him to offer an explanation.
''I've
grown soft here in Ringforge," he said. "The exercise is good for
me."
She
said nothing. She was frequently silent these days, except during the lessons.
Cray had begun to work with gold already, and they both knew that the time of
his first conjuration was fast approaching. Though Gildrum had vowed to speak
of the future to him, she had not done so, had shied away .when the topic came
up between them, as if she were afraid that the mere mention of what could be
would make him reject it.
"I
suppose I can't forget completely," Cray said, gazing at his reflection.
"This is what I was for so very long. I look more the part now, with the
beard, don't you think?" He smiled with one side of his mouth. "No
more the stripling, Gildrum. There's none could deny I'm a man now."
"You
are still young," she murmured.
"I'll
be twenty soon enough. Not young anymore."
She
shook her head. "Still."
She was
not with him when he conjured the demon.
The
rings had taken him more than a month to make, simple bands, smooth and slim,
one fitting the little finger of his left hand, the other larger, an armlet for
the slave. They bore no stones, no figured devices, and Cray knew that whatever
demon would be drawn to them would be scarcely greater than one of Rezhyk's
sconce lights. Yet Gildrum had assured him that his answer could be extracted
even from such a one.
He had
begun with virgin ore, the greater part gold, with a small admixture of silver
for hardness. He had smelted the two together, poured the molten metal into a
pair of clay molds and then soaked the resulting circlets in an acid bath
before filing, polishing, and buffing them to a mellow luster. His meticulous
notes showed the painstaking precision of the process, and
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the
magical essence which had been imbued at every stage, with words and gestures
and particularly with every stroke of file, emery, and rouge.
His
brazier was ready, packed with coals glowing fitfully with ruddy light. At
Gildrum's instruction, he had put out the original fire lit by her finger and
started a fresh, unmagical one with flint and steel. He set the arm ring upon
it and the finger ring on his own hand. He had never worn a ring before, and
the tiny weight felt odd to him, as if some small animal clutched at his
finger, a spider sitting there with legs clasping his flesh. He covered the
ring-bearing finger with his other hand and began the chant that would summon
his servant.
So
hypnotized was he by the steady rhythm of his own words that he did not notice
at first that the flames of the brazier leaped yellow before him, sputtering in
a column that rose a full arm's length from the center of the arm ring. He had
expected more, a pillar that would brush the ceiling at least, but when it
remained diminutive, pulsing like a living heart caught fast by the circle of
the ring, he ceased his chant, and with his arms outflung, he cried, "Take
your earthly form! I command it!"
The
flame wavered and shrank till it seemed no more than a burning twig lying upon
the coals, and then it solidified into a creature no larger than a twig, than a
flower stem. It stood upright within the ring, mantislike with jointed limbs
and large-eyed head; its gre'enish skin was covered with stubby thorns. Beneath
its feet, the coals glowed red and flameless. It said, "My lord."
"Inscribe
your name upon the ring," commanded Cray.
In a
tiny, crackling voice, the creature said, "It is done."
Among
the coals, Cray could see the spidery script taking form upon the inner surface
of the armlet. He pulled his own ring off to confirm that it was there, too. He
read the name Yra. He slipped the ring back on. "Welcome to Ringforge,
Yra," he said. "Now I have a question for you, and you must not rest
until you have found me the answer."
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"Speak,
my lord," it said, and Cray wondered if the sound came from the tiny
throat or from the movement of the serrated legs, like insect chirping.
"You
must discover me the name and house of my father, whether he is alive now, and
where I may find him."
"It
shall be done, my lord."
"Go."
The
creature turned back to flame and melted to nothing like golden sunlight before
a cloud.
With a
long-handled pair of tongs, Cray removed the armlet from the brazier and set it
upon the slate surface of the table. He passed his hand above it, and when he
felt no radiant heat, he touched the metal and found it merely warm. After
inscribing Yra's name in the appropriate notebook, he dropped the arm ring into
a drawer; he contemplated it there, before shutting it away from his sight,
wondering if any other ring would ever lie beside it. He felt that the end of
his quest—and a portion of his life—was imminent, and though he had felt that
way before and been disappointed, he could not resist the sense of elation that
made his heart beat hard in his breast and his hand shake a trifle where it
rested on the lip of the drawer.
Gildrum
brought him dinner, and he said nothing to her of his afternoon's work. Nor did
she ask, but he guessed that she could read excitement in his eyes and that she
must know what had transpired; the sconce-demons, at least, would have told her
what they had seen.
Later,
Cray lay upon his bed, sleepless, staring at his reflection in the ceiling. He
watched himself finger his beard, toss his head from side to side, twist and
turn upon the sheets, seeking some comfortable position. At last he arose, and
there in his bedchamber he commanded his servant to appear.
It came
as a flame again, a yellow teardrop shape, burning silently in the middle of
the air, shedding no heat. Even the sconces seemed brighter.
"Have
you found my answer yet, Yra?" Cray demanded.
In the
crackling whisper of flame, it replied, "My
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lord, I
am small and weak. The task you have set me will take time."
"How
much time?"
"I
cannot say, my lord. I am doing my best."
"Of
course you are. Continue, Yra, and report to me the instant you have the
information."
"Yes,
my lord." The flame shrank immediately to a pinpoint and vanished.
Still,
Cray could not sleep, so he fetched the sword and shield from their cabinet and
spent the remainder of the night beheading invisible enemies. Gi'drum found him
so, sweating and panting, when she brought him breakfast. She stood -by while
he ate, and more than once he fancied she was about to speak, but apparently
she thought better of it and held off. She left, as she had come, in silence,
and for all the rest of that long day she did not come near him save to bring
him food. He could not have spoken to her if she had, for his mind was a-rush
with anxiety, and everv beat of his heart was a club striking his flesh, every
flicker of sconce-flame a knife blade feinting toward his throat. He could not
sit still, he could not pace the floor. He began a thousand tasks and put each
aside unfinished. Even sword and shield could not divert him now, as he marked
endless time with the singing of his nerves.
That
night, haggard and red-eyed, he hunched over his desk, scribbling aimlessly,
correcting notes that were already accurate, elaborating drawings that were
already sufficient. His hand could hardly hold th'e pen, his script was nigh
illegible and the drawing no better, but he could hardly tell, for his vision
swam with the light and dark of exhaustion. Once, he looked at himself in the
mirrored wall, and the face he saw so close to his own was alien to him, tired,
old. He shook his head sharply to clear the vision, but the image remained, for
it was a true picture of himself. He shut his eyes to blot it out, and he could
scarcely open them again; he felt heavy with years, with hope, with
desperation. The sconce lights danced about him, and he found himself peering
from one to another, trying to determine which was the creature he commanded.
He asked his question of them, his voice slurred be-
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yond
comprehensibility, and when none answered, he shouleH and slammed Ms fist
??ainst the -'psk. He rose, tumbling the chair backward, and staggered to the
center of the room and ^tood there, surrounded by all his selves. He raised his
arms above his head, though they seemed weighted with steel.
"Tell
me!" he'shouted. "Tell me!"
And
then the steel was too much for him, and he sagged beneath it. The floor was
hard against his knees, his hip, his shoulder. His hand struck the floor with a
loud clack—the ring, gold against bronze. He rolled over onto his back, crusty
eyes blinking dn-ly. At last even that effort was too great, and he let his
lids shut. He slept.
He woke
in bed and knew that Gildrum had carried him there. A covered meal waited on
the desk; a bowl of rich stew, fresh bread and butter—it had the look of
supper. By that and the emptiness of his stomach, he guessed that he had slept
till evening, though without a window he could not confirm that guess with a
glance at the sky. Nor did he care. Whatever the time might be beyond the walls
of Ringforge, his morning would come with his demon.
As the
stew soothed his growling stomach, he realized that his anxiety was gone. He
felt himself suspended in time and space, without future or past, only an
unpredictable present; he existed only to see the yellow flame of his servant,
nothing else mattered. He had no responsibilities, no desires, no thoughts
until that moment. He could not even summon the concentration to call the demon
to him; he could only wait. He lay down after eating, and he floated like a
leaf upon the sea, bobbing in and out of shallow slumber, thinking nothing.
And his
calm was rewarded.
The
crackling whisper brought him to full consciousness.
"My
lord, I have your answer."
Cray
sat up slowly, staring at the butter-yellow flame of his servant. The words he
had Inneed to hear fell on his ears like the tolling of a huge bell. He
shivered suddenly, feeling a wild impulse to flee. Confronted with the
imminence of truth, he found himself
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shrinking
from it. Too many years had passed, too much effort, too much sorrow. Abruptly,
he saw the truth as a burden. He had always thought it would free him; now he
realized that it would bind him instead. Deep within his breast a voice cried
out that as long as he didn't know, he couldn't suffer more than he had
already.
He bent
his knees up to his chest and clasped them with both arms. He wished, for a
moment, that his mother could be near to hold him tight. He dug his fingers
into the flesh of his own arms to reassure himself that he was truly awake,
that this experience, that these feelings were not simply part of a nightmare.
His voice was very low when he said, "Tell me."
The
demon replied, "Your father is Lord Smada Rezhyk of Ringforge."
Cray
felt himself blanch. "What?"
"Smada
Rezhyk, master of Ringforge, my lord."
"That's
not possible."
"Yes,
it is, my lord. There is no doubt. You are flesh of his flesh."
"But
how can it be?" He stared through the flame, eyes focused on nothing.
"Rezhyk, the handsome young knight my mother loved? Never! He might have
disguised his body, but never his heart. She knew him from years past; she
would have recognized his coldness, his bleakness. She wouldn't have let his
outward appearance sway her. . . ." His gaze was stark, and he shivered as
he began to wonder how well he knew tiis mother affer all. "Surely, she
would have sensed magic in his semblance. Surely . . ." He turned to the
nearest wall, focused on his own face, searched it for some aspect of Rezhyk.
He had his mother's features, chiseled to manhood but unmistakable. Of either
Rezhyk or the young knight, there was no trace.
He
looked back at the demon's steady yellow flame. "There is no doubt at
all?"
"None,
my lord."
"Why,
then? Why did he father me?"
The
flame fluttered at the edges, wisps dancing as on a ball of pitch alight.
"My lord, the demon world is
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full of
facts, and if one searches far enough, one can find them all. But motives are
another thing apart. I cannot search inside a human heart."
"Go
then. T need you no longer." And when the flame had winked out, Cray raised
his voice to a shout: "Gildrum!"
She
came too swiftly, as if she had been waiting nearby for his summons.
He
directed the door to close behind her, sealing them alone together with their
multitudinous reflections. "You knew," he said tightly. "You knew
all the time."
She
looked down at the floor and made no reply.
"No
need to shrink from speaking, Gildrum. I have the truth now. I made my
conjuration and foimd a servant to bring me my answer." He slid off the
bed and padded, barefoot, to her, and he took her slim shoulders between his
hands, as if she were a human girl, and he shook her hard. "Why did he do
it, Gil-drum? Why did he want a child0 He hates me, T know it well; he has used
me ill, Gildrum, not as the child of his flesh should be treated, and he has
taught me nonsense and tried to divert me from a proper master to prevent me
from knowing the truth. He will never claim me. Why do I exist, then?"
She let
him shake her with a tightening grip that would at last have made a real human
girl scream in pain. "Master Cray," she murmured, "this is a
subject which I may not discuss."
"I
would think not, Gildrum! It wasn't me he wanted, was it? It was my mother. And
the coward had to go to her disguised. Was he afraid to try in his own form,
afraid she'd spurn him for the cold, unfeeling man he is? And so I am the fruit
of his vile deception. When did he make the shirt, Gildrum—before or after lie
deceived her? After, was it? In case she should discover him and vent her
anger?"
"Ma^te;-
Oay, I can tell you nothing." He pushed her away, and a real girl would
have staggered and fallen from the force of the gesture, but Gildrum only
stepped back lightly. Cray's hands curled into fists, as if he would strike
her, but he wheeled away instead, took two long strides, and stood
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rigid
before the cabinet that held his belongings. In its bright surface, he saw his
face, saw swfcat streaming from his forehead, though the room was pleasantly
cool. To the bearded man who was his weary self, he said, "And after Lord
Rezhyk had slaked his passion with my mother, he left her, and left a false
trail of death for her to find, just one more lie among the many he had given
her. Perhaps he thought he was being kind." He spat the words out now,
like the bitter kernels that hid in the pits of sweet apricots. "Of course
he dared not train me. He dared not let me learn the truth." He raised his
fists to the cabinet door and leaned his forehead upon them. "And you
knew, Gildrum," he rasped.
"You knew. All these years, what have you thought of me?"
Very
softly, she said, "I have thought that someday perhaps you would hate him
as much as I do."
He took
a deep breath. "Hate? No. I am too empty for hate. I thought someday to
give my mother the gift of her lover's identity. But now . . ." He shook
his head, eyes closed. "How can I give her this? How can I sully her
memories with truth?" His fists loosened, and the fingers interlaced upon
the brass. "Does he love her, Gildrum? Did he ever love her?"
She was
silent a moment, and he thought that his question had trespassed on forbidden
territory, but she answered at last: "I don't know, Master Cray. I don't
think I understand human love."
"You
were his servant . . . when it happened. His oldest, his best.. ."
"Master
Cray," she said, "there is only one way you can find out what I know
of those events. Give me my freedom, and I promise you I shall not keep
anything from you."
- His
arms fell limp at his sides. "I cannot blame you for hiding the truth. You
are only his slave." He shook his head. "Keep your knowledge,
Gildrum. I want no more. I have stayed overlong in Ringforge already." He
pulled the cabinet doors open and clawed at his belongings. The sword and
shield clattered to the floor, the mail spilled after like water tumbling over
a precipice.
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The
demon took a single step toward him. "You're
leaving?"
He drew
on his boots, then knelt to pack his saddlebags, empty save for that other,
rusted sword and shield, wraoped in soft linen during the years of his
apprenticeship. The garments he had been given in that time filled the
remaining space. "If you would be so kind as to summon the bronze bird, I
would appreciate it. Or if I must, I shall walk away from Ring-forge."
She ran
to him, long skirts swirling about her legs, and she fell on her knees beside
him, halting his hands with her own. "Mo, please. Master Cray. You have so
much more to learn. You are such an apt pupil. In a few short vears more you
could free me, I know it!"
He
shook his head. "You will be no more worse off than when I came."
"Oh.
yes, much worse. When you came, I saw hope. Now you'll take it away with you.
Master Cray, you know what hope is!"
"And
I know what sorrow is, too." In spite of her clutching hands, he finished
packing and strapped the bags shut. "I cannot stay here, Gildrum. Not even
to help you. You'll have to find someone else for that."
"Who
will help a demon, Master Cray?" She caught at his head, one hand on
either cheek, and she held it tight so that he was forced to look at her. The expression
on her face was one that he had seen on his own in the mirror-bright bronze.
"I have nowhere else to turn."
He
pulled away from her. "I can't think now, Gildrum. I only know I must
leave. How much longer would Lord Rezhyk keep me, anyhow? We have stretched
this failed apprenticeship further than I thought possible. I must leave. I
must get out from behind these walls, to the open sunlight, and think." He
cast her a stricken glance. "I never promised, Gildrum. Remember?"
Still
kneeling, she murmured, "No." Her body sagged, until she lay prone.
"I remember."
He
swallowed with difficulty, clutching the saddlebags, the sword and shield in
his arms. "I must think," he repeated. "Afterward . . . perhaps
I will come
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back .
, .*' He felt his eyes brimming. "Gildrum, I must think."
She did
not rise. "Go," she said. "Go now. The walls will not keep you
in. You'll find the bird waiting to take you back to the lady Helaine. You need
not even say good-bye to Lord Rezhyk, He will understand." There was a
catch in her voice, as if she, too, were weeping, but she did not look up at
him, so he could not see any tears on her cheeks. "Go," she said.
"I cannot hold you."
"You
have been a good friend to me, Gildrum.'* "Go."
The
door opened for him, and he raced down the half, down the stairs. At the end of
the first-floor corridor he could see the entry to the antechamber waiting ajar
for him, and as he passed through the tiny room, he saw that the two chairs
were still there, still facing each other as they had on his very first day in
Ringforge. In the farther wall was the only ordinary portal in the castle, a
massive door of bronze, studded and figured in high relief; it swung wide at
his approach, and a brisk, damp wind entered through the opening, engulfing
Cray in its tenuous embrace. He welcomed it and welcomed the dank, gray sky of
morning twilight. The instant he stepped beyond the threshold, the gate of
Castle Ringforge clanged shut behind him.
The
bird was waiting. It took his baggage in its cavernous beak and raised its
hackles for Cray to mount. When he was settled in the straps, it swooped into
the dawn, feathers rustling in flight like coins jingiing against one another
in a heavy purse. Cray closed his eyes and Jet his tears of anguish mix with the
mist of the sky, knowing that they could never corrode that shining plumage.
When
Rezhyk woke, he found Gildrum standing by his bed, as on many another morning,
holding a breakfast tray. He sat up, accepting the meal onto his -lap, eating
swiftly. Between bites, he said, "I need a piece of cinnabar today, my
Gildrum; there's a fine deposit of it in the west, not far from the falls of
the
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J
river
Beorn. The vein runs deep, though—it may give you a bit of trouble."
Gildrum
focused her gaze on the foot of the bed, on the bar where Cray had once hidden
in spider guise. "He is gone," she said.
Rezhyk
looked up at her. "Gone? Who? Where?"
"Cray
Ormoru gave up his apprenticeship this morning. I have sent him back whence he
came."
"The
bov? Gave up?" He pushed the tray aside and rose from the bed, flinging a
light mantle over his shoulders. "How did it happen? Why?"
Gildrum
transferred her gaze to his face. "Why not, my lord?" she murmured.
"After so long? He was unhappy when I saw him this morning. He felt he
could no longer stay in Ringforge. He said ... he wanted sunlight."
Rezhyk
clasped himself with arms crossed over his chest. "Good enough. Better
this way, by his own choice, than if I had dismissed him. I did wonder when the
years of failure would begin to tell on him." He smiled, showing his teeth
like an animal snarling. "There has been a pall hanging over Castle
Ringforge these years. Now it has lifted. We can resume our normal life, my
Gildrum." He turned away from her slowly, toward the cabinet which held
his clothing. "Still," he said, "I shall miss another set of
human hands about the place. I have grown lazy these years, not needing to do
certain things myself."
Gildrum
leaned against the bedstead. "You could take another apprentice."
His
head jerked around, and the eyes that glared at his servant from that swarthy
face were ice and molten steel at the same instant. "No more
apprentices," he said. "Never again."
"As
you say, my lord."
Rezhyk
dropped'his mantle and slipped off the light nightshirt he had worn to bed.
Against his naked skin, the cloth-of-gold shirt gleamed warm; he looked down at
it for a moment, the tunic that would cover it clutched in one hand. He looked
down, and then his free fingers touched the golden threads lightly, over his
heart. "Where have you sent him?" he said.
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"Back
to the lady Helaine, from whom he came, my lord."
"The
Seer. What will he tell her, I wonder? And what will she tell him?" He
glanced sidelong at the demon. "Do you think he suspected what we were
doing, my Gildrum?"
Gildrum
replied, "I am sure that he thought he was being taught proper sorcery, my
lord. I did my best to convince him so."
Rezhyk
shrugged the tunic over his head. "Still, perhaps he thinks another
sorcerer might be a bettei teacher."
"I
don't know, my lord. He said nothing about seeking one."
"He's
a stubborn lad. Only a stubborn one would
have
stayed so long in the face of so much failure."
.He
pulled on trews and hose and stepped
into his
boots. "I think she might tell
him to try another
.teacher."
"My
lord, how will she be able to find him a better one than yourself? Surely she
will tell him there is no hope for him."
"Surely?"
Rezhyk belted his tunic. "Are you so relieved at his departure that your reason no longer functions, my Gildrum? There is. nothing sure in this
iworld. The.longer I live, the more uncertain I grow. ||Except of one
thing."
Gildrum
frowned. "My lord?"
His
thumbs hooked over his belt on either side of |the bronze buckle, and his fingers
tightened on the |leather till the knuckles showed white.
"Death, my "ildrum,"
he said coldiy. "We all die. Even you. Even |t Even Master Cray
Ormoru." He turned his face to-|ward her, and his expression was hard.
"Kill him for ae, my Gildrum, before he finds a new master, and lake sure
the deed hasn't any look of sorcery about
k She met his eyes, and softly she said,
"My lord, do ^ >u think that's wise?"
"Do
you think not? No one will suspect me. I have 3ne my best over these years to
teaHi tlie boy my art. I hari faith in him. I was sorry to see him go. Whv I
kill him?"
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Giidrum
inclined her head. "As you will, my lord. He is with the lady Helaine
already; I presume you do not wish the deed done in her home."
"No.
She would sense your presence, you mustn't enter there. But you said he wanted
sunlight."
"Yes,
my lord, he told me that."
"Then
he won't be spending much time inside her cave. She won't find him a new
teacher tomorrow or the next day; there will be time for him to roam outdoors,
and he'll be restless enough for it, with nothing to do but wait. Go there, my
Giidrum. Find yourself a hiding place nearby and watch for your
opportunity."
"And
... if there is no opportunity?"
"Then
you must make one."
She
vanished, and in her own bright home in the demon world she paused, an inhuman
flame blazing anger, hate, and helplessness. / 'am only a slave, my son. Only a
slave.
A
moment later, high in the tree that was the entrance to the Seer's cave, a
squirrel leaped among the branches, chittering in the sunshine.
CHAPTER
FOURTEEN
The
great bronze bird shrugged him off and spat out his possessions, and then,
without a word of farewell, it rose again on flashing pinions, swooping upward
into the sun. He watched it dwindle in the distance, one hand shading his eyes
from the glare of day, and it had disappeared before the dust stirred by its
passage had cleared from the summer air. Cray coughed, scrambling to his feet,
slapping the yellow powder from his hands and clothes. The giddiness ot
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flight
ebbed as he stood there, swaying, and he was soon sure enough of his balance
that he could scoop the saddlebags into his arms and start for the nearby
.entry to the Seer's cave. The tree was in full leaf, as when he had left, and
if it had added some feet to its prodigious height in the time he had been
gone, he could not tell. He stepped through the arch in the trunk, into the
light, cool breath of the cave.
She was
waiting by the pool, looking toward the corridor from which he emerged, and he
knew at once that she had been expecting him.
"It
is not good news, I see," she said, "that brings tyou back to
me." -
"Has
the pool told you that?" he asked, letting his mrdens slip to the pale
sand.
'I need
no pool to tell me; it's written on your face, ^ome, sit down, Cray Ormoru, and
share some wine rith me."
"Gladly,"
he said, and he perched on the rim of the >ool facing her. Involuntarily, he
glanced at the dark raters, and he saw his own reflection there, but it loved
with him, not magical at all. f; The far door opened, and Feldar Sepwin
entered, saring a carafe and cups. He was taller than Cray smembered, and
better fleshed out, and a drooping Mustache hid his upper lip. He grinned at
his old irade and poured wine redder than blood into a mug.
"Welcome," he said, offering the cup. "Wel-ic indeed."
I?:
Ignoring the wine, Cray threw his arms around Sep-and gave him a
bone-crushing hug. "Feldar, m'rehere!"
MI
never left," Sepwin replied, laughing. "Here now, go before we dye
the sand red." He stepped back lifted the full mug up to Cray's face.
"Take it, idee it; you don't expect me to hold it forever, do
i?"
|; Cray
seized the mug and drained it, and while he so, Sepwin poured other mugs for
himself and the |cr, which they raised in silent toasting. |<;When Cray
caught his breath, he said, "What do mean, you never left?"
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"I
am apprenticed to the lady Helaine," Sepwin replied, nodding toward her.
"And
a good apprentice he is," she added. "I saw it in him before you
left, Cray. I thank you for bringing him to me."
Cray
looked into his friend's face. "Your eyes— they're as they were."
"We
never found a sorcerer to make them match," said Sepwin. "But that
doesn't matter anymore. People expect stranger things of a Seer than mismated
eyes."
Cray
set the cup down on the pool rim and took his friend's shoulders between his
hands. "You're happy here?"
"Yes."
"Then
some good came of our quest after all."
Sepwin's
grin softened to sympathy. "Not for you?"
^'1
came to the end of it." His hands dropped to his sides, suddenly heavy.
"I found my father."
"That
was what you wanted."
"Yes."
He turned to the Seer, and his smile had pain in it. "But you were right.
It didn't make me happy."
"Knowledge
seldom does," she said. She swept two fingers across the dark surface of
the pool. "They come to me in fear, Cray, to hear me say that what they
fear is false. Most of them don't even look for happiness, only relief."
Cray
sighed. "I did not even find that, lady. I could almost wish that I had never
discovered the truth." He sank down upon the sand at her knees and leaned
his head against the cool rocks that restrained the pool. His grip on the cup
loosened by degrees, and at last the vessel tipped over, shedding one drop of
red wine, like blood, upon the pure white powder. "I have more questions
than I had before, more doubts, more confusion. Now I have truly come to a dead
end, and I don't know where to turn. I only know that I can't tell my mother
who he was."
"Do
you want to tell us?" asked the Seer.
Cray
pulled his knees up, clasping them with both arms, and he did not look anywhere
but at the sand between his feet when he spoke. "Lord Rezhyk is my
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father,*'
he said. "Lord Rezhyk himself."- His voice broke on the last word,
and then the whole tale of his strange apprenticeship poured out of him in a
wild, disjointed torrent—demons, ores, mirrored walls, failure, success, all,
until Cray was clutching at the sand as at a spar floating in the open sea. But
the sand ran through his fingers, and he was left only with his own flesh, and
his nails bit deep into the calluses of his palms. When he gave over speaking
at last, he slumped, head falling forward to his knees, exhausted -by the very
telling of the tale.
The
lady Helaine let a soothing silence cloak the three of them for a moment, and
then she said, "And you did not confront Lord Rezhyk with your knowl-£
edge?"
Cray
shook his head. "Were you afraid?"
Cray shook
his head again.
"I couldn't betray Gildrum. It would have gone hard with
her."
"Noble
sentiments, Cray; but now you will never know why."
"I
don't think I want to know." "Oh, come—:that is precisely what you
want to ijpiow. And you could know ... by continuing your ^apprenticeship under
the demon until you were strong Icnough to free her from her silence.
Obviously, she tknows everything you want to know; she is the key. |Why have
you run away from her, then?"
He
raised his head to gaze at her. "How could I ay? How could I spend another
night under the same iroof with him? I am not a son to him. I am not even
ianother human being to him. I am a slave for his con-^yenience. How could I
work for him and know that he vould never claim me, never show a spark of
fa-[iher's love?"
She
bent to lay a pale hand on his shoulder. "But,
§ay,
you knew that if your father were alive he »uld not acknowledge you. He had
years for that d never did it; why would he suddenly change his nd?"
"Lady, I thought that if I
showed myself wor-
jy..."
Her eyes were sad and infinitely old in her pale
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face.
"And so, when you thought him a knight, you trained yourself for
knighthood. And when you thought him a sorcerer, you found yourself an
apprenticeship for that. What if he had been a merchant, Cray? Or a peasant? Or
a beggar? What would you have done then?"
"What
shall I do now, lady?" he whispered. "Tell me. Give me the good
advice that you give to others."
"I
gave it once, and you would not take it then."
"Go
back to Mistwell? Or ... home?"
"You
must decide what you want from life, Cray. And what you have the courage to
pursue."
"Look
into the pool, my lady, and tell me what lies ahead."
Her
hand slipped from his shoulder to his cheek. "No,*' she said. "I will
not read the waters for you again." * ,
"Why
not? Is it because Fve never paid you? Yet you yourself always said to wait, to
pay later, always later. Name''your price, lady, and I will bring it to
you."
"You
have paid me well," she said, and she glanced at Sepwin, still standing
with the carate and an empty mug in his hands. "You1 have paid me for a
thousand futures."
Cray
rose to his knees before her. "Then why will you not give me one
more?"
Her
hand pressed his cheek, her fingers curling under the curve of his jaw, hooking
there, holding his head as if it were a naked skull. "Listen to me, Cray
Ormoru: you are too young to let an old woman command your actions. How many
men have come here for cheer and left wishing they had never asked their
questions? How many have given up their fight in life because of a few moments
by this pool? I was young once, and I would have,given you what you ask then.
But not now. Through me you have found your father, and that is the end of my
work for you. Leave here, and' make your future what you will, not what 7
say." She loosed his head suddenly, and he rocked back in reaction,
catching himself with one outstretched hand before he could tumble over on the
pale sand.
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Sepwin
set the carafe down and extended a wiry arm to help his old comrade up. For a
moment, the two young men stood eye to eye, regarding each other over the
handsbreadth that separated them, and the years.
"I
suppose I can't ask you to come along," said Cray.
"No.
I have my place here. I am content."
Cray
dusted his tunic and trews of the clinging white powder. "Can you find me
a horse, since I haven't magical transportation anymore?"
"There's
Gallant," said Sepwin. "I have kept him trim for you, ridden him
every day."
"I
gave him to you, Feldar."
"And
now I give him back. I have the other horse, if I should need a mount. But I
don't foresee leaving here."
Cray
gripped Sepwin's arm. "You are a good friend, Feldar. Better than I have
been."
"You
did your best, Cray."
"Perhaps
... for you." He turned away. "I'll leave now, my lady, if that is
well with you."
"It
is best, I think." She transferred her gaze to her apprentice.
"Feldar, get the packet of food for his journey."
He went
through the far door and returned in a moment. The parcel was a large one,
provisions for many days.
"You
knew I would be leaving immediately," Cray said, tucking it under his arm.
He reached for the saddlebags, but Sepwin hefted them first. Cray was left with
only his sword and shield in addition to the food.
"I
know what happens in my own home," said the Seer. She followed the two
young men down the corridor and out into the morning sunshine.
Sepwin
set the saddlebags down. "I'll fetch Gallant I built him a stout shelter
among the trees; it isn't far." He crossed the road and entered the forest
that grew thick on the other side. Shortly, he returned, with Gallant saddled
for the trip, though there had not been time for the saddling.
Cray
stroked the horse's neck and murmured, "Do
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you
remember me, I wonder, my good old Gallant?'* Sepwin had a carrot in his
pocket, and he gave it to Cray to feed to the animal. "I've changed with
the years, haven't I?" Cray whispered, as Gallant's warm, soft lips moved
against his palm, his strong teeth grinding the hard carrot to mush. "But
you haven't changed at all. It might have been yesterday that I left you here.
So, Gallant, my old friend, we travel together once more, just you and I."
He
strapped the saddlebags in place, the sword and shield. He grasped the pommel
of the saddle in one hand and the cantle in the other and was about to mount
when he thought better of it and let his arms fall to his sides. He looked down
then, at his horse's feet, peering at the bare earth of the road. After a few
heartbeats, he moved half a dozen paces away, into the grass, and he stooped
there, squatting on his heels, touching his fingertips to the moister,
green-cloaked soil. He closed his eyes. Nearby, he could hear Gallant snorting
and easing from foot to foot, as if impatient to be off. He heard the. soft
breeze rustling the leaves all around him, and the creak of branches swaying
before the force of mere air. He heard a squirrel chittering far away,
Before
long, a tickle on his right index finger advised him of a new presence: a small
spider. Of all the spiders he had discharged in the road before the Seer's
home, only this one had been near enough and long-lived enough to hear his
call. As he straightened, it scuttled up his sleeve. He turned back to Gallant.
"Now there are three of us," he said.
Sepwin
watched him vault into the saddle. "I would you had stayed with us a
while," he said.
Cray
gazed at him from the great height of Gallant's back. "But you knew I
would not."
"She
knew. My skills are still quite limited."
"He
does well," said the Seer. "As well as any apprentice I've ever heard
of." She smiled at Sepwin, who smiled in return.
"I
owe my life to you, Cray," he said, his hand resting lightly on Gallant's
reins, on the pommel of the saddle. "I'd still be a beggar if not for you.
A beggar
or
worse.
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"You
don't owe me anything," said Cray. "You kept faith. I couldn't ask
more."
"I
looked into the pool for you, Cray. I'm not very good at it yet, but I saw
danger ahead."
"What
sort of danger?"
"I
don't know, but you'll raise your sword and shield to it."
"Well
... a bandit perhaps. Or a wild animal." He shrugged. "I haven't
forgotten how to use the sword."
"Be
careful."
"I
shall."
"Where
will you go now?"
"I
don't know. Ask her, after I'm gone. Take care of yourself, Feldar. Perhaps
we'll meet again."
"Good
luck to you, my friend. I have never stopped thinking of you. I never
shall."
"And
good-bye to you, my lady. And thank you." Cray wheeled Gallant about and
guided him westward, away from the golden morning sun. He looked back twice,
and both tunes Sepwin and the lady Helaine still stood in the road, their arms
upraised in farewell. The third time, the road had bent, and they were beyond
his sight.
The
horse felt strange to him, after so many years of sitting on chairs and stools,
and he knew that on the morrow the muscles of his thighs would protest the
unaccustomed exercise; still, he did not cut his day's travel short because of
that. He ached already, as he stopped with the advent of twilight, but he
welcomed the ache, as he had welcomed the steed—a sign of the end of the apprentice
life and the beginning of the unknown. His route led toward Spinweb, but he
could as well have turned south to Mistwell from that road, or to somewhere
new. He had passed the day without thinking beyond it, without thinking of more
than the next five strides of his horse. Now, as he gathered dry twigs and
struck sparks to kindle a small fire, he found himself contemplating other
fires that burned only in his mind's eye, until a tickle at his wrist reminded
him that with his freedom from Ringforce came other responsibilities. He
dropped his tiny passenger at the fork of two branches on a drooping oak limb,
and he
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watched
for a time while it anchored its web among the surrounding twigs. When he
turned away to eat his dinner, the sun had set completely, and the spider had
only finished the radiant strands that would support its close spiral; alone,
though it spun swiftly, it could not finish before Cray settled for sleep. He
ate his dinner and left the mite working, left his use of the fruit of its
labor for morning.
When he
woke, he ached, but he ignored that. The web hung above his sleeping place,
glistening with a myriad of dewdrops. The spider rested in its center, a black
spot, with dew glinting, too, on legs and back. Cray took it up in his sleeve,
dampness and all, and then he stretched his hand to the web, palm parallel to
the plane of the spiral, halting just a finger's width away from the
diamond-speckled surface. Silently, he called to her.
Time
passed while he stood stiff, his arm upraised, and at last the web turned misty
gray, opaque, and a familiar image coalesced upon it. The first thing that Cray
noticed was that she still wore black.
"Where
are you, my son?" she said. "Is something wrong?"
He
looked at her across the vast distance that separated them—a distance not of
space but of knowledge. He said, "I've left Ringforge, Mother. I've ended
my apprenticeship with Lord Rezhyk."
A frown
creased her brow. "Did you quarrel?"
"No.
But ... as master and apprentice, we were not suited to each other. He was . .
. too chill for me."
She
nodded. "Chill indeed, in spite of his mastery of fire demons. They don't
warm the heart, Cray; you understand that now."
"I
don't think he liked me, either."
"Did
you behave ill to him, my son?"
"No.
I tried very hard to be useful and obedient and friendly. But ... he was cold
from the first. Mother . . . did you and he have some sort of conflict years
ago, perhaps even before I was born, that he would be so cold to your
son?"
"We
knew each other, years ago." She shrugged. "I never cared much for
him, but I was civil. He took that civility for friendship, at one time,
knowing noth-
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ing
wanner himself. He even proposed marriage. I refused. I didn't want to marry
anyone then." She looked down into her lap, where her hands clasped each
other. "That was before I met your father." "You never told
me," said Cray. "It never seemed important." She lifted her head
again. "Oh, when you said he had accepted your apprenticeship, I thought
perhaps there was some remnant of his feeling for me after all these years,
that he was doing it to show his good will—such good will as a man like him
might have. It's a rare sorcerer who takes on another's child for
apprenticeship." She shrugged. "I suppose he changed his mind after
you had been with him a while. I suppose he decided that the gesture was too
much for him—"
"I
suppose so."
"What
will you do now? Find another master?"
Cray
shook his head. "I don't know yet. I thought ... I might come home for a
while."
Delivev
smiled. "I would be very happy to welcome you."
"I'm
not sure, Mother. I want to travel a time yet. I want to ... to think out my
life."
"I
understand, my son. I am grateful that you called me. If you want to come home
. . . well, it is always open to you. And I will teach you sorcery, if you wish
it."
"I
know, Mother."
"And
Cray ... I like the beard."
He
grinned at her. "It makes me feel full-grown."
"Yes,"
she said. "I'm sure it does."
"You
look well, Mother."
"I
am well. You look like you could do with a bit of sunshine."
"I'll
get it now," said Cray. "Good-bye, Mother. ;pon*t worry about me. I
love you."
"And
I love you."
Her
face faded, and the web was just a web, dew-;jjrops shrinking in the gathering
sunlight. Cray left J?it on the tree for the wind to tear apart, and he
re-faumed his westward travel. He walked for a time,
iding
Gallant, until his legs had limbered enough for to climb into the saddle
without gritting his teeth.
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Afternoon
shadows were long across the road when he met the stranger. He had seen no
human beings since leaving the Seer's home, save his mother; only a few rabbits
and squirrels and a flock of calling birds had crossed his path. On a stretch
of road no different from any other, the stranger moved out from behind a
thick-boled oak to block the way: a tall, broad person in night-black plate
armor, riding a horse of the same hue, so that Cray could scarcely discern
where rider ended and horse began. The stranger carried a blank black shield.
"Hold!"
he said in a deep, rumbling voice,
Cray
pulled Gallant up short.
"No
one passes this way without facing me," shouted the stranger.
"Good
sir," said Cray, "I know I am no match for you. I am a man of peace.
Let me pass, I beg you; I have no wish or skill for a fight."
"Draw
your sword or I strike you down where you sit, and that fine horse, too!"
"Sir,
I wear no armor! Hold off!"
The
black knight spurred his mount, which launched itself as if from a crossbow,
nostrils flaring, teeth bared. Cray twitched his reins, and Gallant stepped
aside, letting the black knight thunder past. And then the chase began, as Cray
raced westward with the black knight, wheeling quickly, hi hot pursuit. Their
horses were well matched, and Cray thought that the heavy armor of his pursuer
would hold the man's mount back, but it gained instead, slowly, steadily, until
the horses raced nearly side by side. In desperation, Cray turned off the road,
guiding Gallant among the close-packed trees, but he lost speed there, and the
black knight drew near once more, near enough to swing his blade and miss
Cray's neck by a narrow margin. Cray answered with a flick of his right arm,
tossing his lone spider at the knight in hopes of catching the sword and
tangling it fast with webwork to the helm, the shield, the saddle pommel,
anything, but the stranger batted the tiny creature aside, as if he knew how
dangerous it could be.
Gripping
Gallant with his knees, Cray eased his shield from its hook and slung it over
his left arm just
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in time
to deflect a blow from his opponent's sword; then Cray drew his qwn blade and
returned a stroke. The horses slowed as the men joined combat, until they were
barely walking, and neither animal shied from the force of sword on shield,
though both riders were rocked in their saddles by the blows. Cray looked for
an opening, but the black knight was sealed into steel while he himself was
nearly naked to a heavy blade, without even chain to turn the edge. He drew his
exposed leg up behind the shield. The motion overbalanced him a moment, and
before he could recover, a solid strike at the top edge of his shield sent him
tumbling off his horse.
He
scrambled to his feet, dodged behind the nearest tree, and the black knight and
his dark horse followed relentlessly. Now Cray's opponent had the advantage of
height, and Cray raised the shield to protect his head, taking blows on the
steel sheet that shook his whole body. Desperately, though it was an
unchivalric act, he cut at the dark horse's legs. The animal foundered, throwing
its rider to the forest floor.
Cray
ran toward Gallant, waiting quietly under the trees. Most men, he knew, could
not rise from a fall in plate armor, but behind him he heard the squeak of
metal on metal, and then the rattle and clank of an armored man running. The
sound came close, too close, and Cray had to turn, though Gallant was still
half a dozen paces away. The black knight loomed toward him, huge and
ponderous, like some great beast driven by madness. His sword arm swung at
Cray, who tipped his shield up to receive the blow and danced away. Cray was
light, spurred by desperation; the black | knight was heavy but tireless. They
moved through the I forest, away from the horses, to where only the overhanging
trees would judge their wild combat.
Cray
saw the opening and took it without thinking—
'Jie
drove the point of his sword into the exposed eye
'slit
of the black knight's helm, and the helm broke
loose
of its moorings and slipped upward, blinding the
r
knight and toppling him backward. Cray leaped to the
I man's
chest as he went down, one foot pinning an
..armored
shoulder, the other stamping hard on
the
pnailed
hand that held the sword, crushing it to the
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earth
and forcing the pommel out of the clenched fist. He grabbed up the sword then
and tossed it as far as his strength would allow, and then he dropped to his
knees on the black knight's body, one knee hard against the man's chain-covered
throat. He forced the black helm completely free of the man's head. Although
Cray's sword had lodged in the eye slit, it had not penetrated to the flesh,
and there was no blood on the face that he exposed.
He
recognized it.
Years
had passed since he had seen those features, but he had no difficulty recalling
them. That salt-and-pepper fringe of beard, that bald dome—they belonged to the
landlord of the very first inn he had stopped at, at the beginning of his long
quest. The man had given him directions to Falconhill.
"You!"
said Cray. "A knight?"
The man
stared up at him, saying nothing.
"Yield
yourself to me, sir, or I cut your throat!"
In
answer, the man thrust upward with his shield, and Cray went tumbling.
Cray
lunged for the other sword, scooped it up and bounced tci his feet. The black
knight circled him warily, helmless, his shield held stiffly before him.
"This
is nonsense!" shouted Cray. "I have no wish to kill you!"
The
black knight eased closer.
"Let
us stop here and now!" said Cray. "I declare a truce!"
The
black knight thrust his shield toward Cray, like a battering ram on- the end of
his long, thick arm, and Cray danced sideways, striking a light blow on the
edge of the shield with one sword and a heavier one on an armored thigh with
the other.
"You
have no weapon," said Cray,, thinking quite otherwise as he watched the
shield move. "Leave off!"
The
black knight slammed his shield against the sword in Cray's left hand, and the
blade shivered with the strength of the blow, and Cray's left fingers, unused
to curling about a pommel, went numb; he was barely able to hold onto the
weapon.
Cray
found himself backing off, and suddenly his shoulders were against a tree trunk
and he could not
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sidestep
fast enough. The black knight came on, and Cray raised his sword far to his
right and then swept
leftward
with a blow too weak to dent plate armor, but strong enough and high enough to
cleave a human skull. The steel bit deep into the black knight's head, and in
the instant that Cray expected to see bright blood gush from the sundered pate,
the black knight burst into flame.
Cray
screamed once, and his sword arm, freed, fell to his side, the blade rapping
bark with a hard, dull sound. Fire engulfed him, no wanner nor yellower than
afternoon sunlight. He looked at the forest through it as through a gauzy veil,
and when he had blinked a few times and straightened up and twitched his
shoulders free of clinging scraps of bark, he said, "Gildrum?"
The
flame retreated from him, shrank to a short pillar, and solidified into her
familiar form.
"He
bade me kill you," she said, "before you found another master."
Cray's
grip on both swords tightened. "Why?"
"He
is afraid of what you might find out. Still."
"But
I already know."
"I
didn't tell him that. But it wouldn't matter. He would be even more afraid
then."
"I
don't plan to find another master."
"Not
your mother?"
He
shook his head.
"You
may change your mind."
"Not
if I know you'll kill me if I do."
She
clasped her hands behind her back. "He doesn't realize what he said. He
wants you dead now, that I know. But that is not what his command was, as you
so clearly perceive. Still, I must have something to tell turn when I return.
And I cannot lie .outright, only sidestep the truth."
Cray
raised the sword. "What, then? You've tried once and failed."
"Purposely,
I'm a better knight than that. Still . . ." She smiled her guileless
smile. "It was a pretty show, wasn't it?"
"Don't
toy with me, Gildrum."
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"Master
Cray, I don't want to kill you. I hope you understand that."
"Then
don't do it."
"I
must obey my lord's commands."
"But
he left you an out. If I never apprentice again..."
"Eventually,
he will call me back and give another command. One which will not be subject to
variant interpretation. There are compulsions attached to ring-slaves, Master
Cray. Our wills are not our own. Though we may fight hard, still the master is
the master."
"Then
why do you delay?" Cray cried. "Why do you torture me with
conversation? Why not kill me and have done?"
"Because
I have a plan."
The
sword tip wavered and dropped to the ground, as if the blade were as exhausted
as Cray himself. He eased his body to the mossy hollow between two of the
tree's roots, using the swords as staffs to lean upon. He crossed his legs
tailor-fashion, though they ached unmercifully from riding and running and
dodging. "What is your plan?"
"If
I must kill you before you find a new master, then you must return to an old
one instead."
"Return?
But you said he wants me killed—"
"Not
to Lord Rezhyk. To me."
Cray
shook his head. "I don't understand."
She
sank to her knees before him and took one of his hands in both of hers,
brushing the sword out of his palm as if it were a dead flower. "You have
a bold heart," she said. "Now I ask you for the boldest decision of
your life. I ask you to come with me to my own world and continue your studies
until you are so strong that Lord Rezhyk has more to fear from you than you
from him."
"Your
world?"
Gildrum
nodded. "It is a fearsome place to human senses, and you will be the first
human ever to visit it. But you will be safe there; I will be able to tell my
lord that you no longer walk the earth."
"And
hi return, I suppose you still want your freedom?"
"Yes."
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"You
have risked so much to get that freedom, Gil-drum, What if he discovers this
new treachery?"
"I
will chance that. He has never suspected me of treachery before."
Cray
tried to read her eyes, but all he saw was darkness in them. "Is it so
precious to you, Gildrum? So very precious?" "Yes. Yes."
"Why?"
She
looked away from him, still clutching his hand. "When I am free I will be
able to tell you."
He
leaned" toward her. "It has something to do with me? With my
birth?"
She
said nothing, only gripped his hand harder. "Did you know, Gildrum, that
Lord Rezhyk once asked my mother to marry him? And she said no?" When the
demon made no reply, he added, "Was that when he went to her and made
me?"
She
turned her gaze to him once more. "Don't ask me such things, Master Cray.
I have done my best to help you find the truth yourself. I have walked the
narrowest path a demon ever trod, between obeying my master and obeying my
heart. Or whatever it is that demons have instead of hearts. Sometimes I am so
close to forbidden ground that my mouth opens and no words come — it is the
power of the ring, holding me back. Believe me, I want to tell you
everything!" Cray shook his head sadly. "At this moment, the only
thing I want to know is ... how could she love him — him, Rezhyk, whatever his
form."
Gildrum
let go his hand. "Yes," she-said. "I would wonder at that,
too."
"I
am not surprised that he could love her." "No, that doesn't surprise
me either." Cray eyed her sidelong. "You've met her?" Gildrum
looked down to the moss at her knees. ,
"You've met her?" Cray asked more loudly.
Gildrum
did not raise her eyes.
: Cray
reached for her
shoulders and shook
her sharply. "Is that part of the secret, that you've met "
"You
cannot shake answers out of
me, Master f£ray," the
demon said softly. "Nor beat them, nor
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burn
them. This is not human flesh that you hold between your hands."
"No,"
said Cray. "This is demon flesh, masquerading as human. It looks so
fragile, so deceptively fragile. Yet a little time ago you were taller and
broader than I am. What other forms can you take, Gildrum?"
"I
have been a squirrel. And there are others."
"Show
me the others. All of them."
In
rapid succession, Gildrum displayed the squirrel, the old man, an oak sapling,
a pebble. She shrank, she grew, she sprouted fur, wrinkles, and green leaves
with equal facility. And when she had done with all four shapes, she returned
to the young girl in the blue dress, kneeling on the moss.
"Is
that all?" Cray asked of her. He had sat silent while her semblance warped
and flowed before him. Only his eyes had moved, lids narrowing momentarily with
each change. "Are there no more?"
"You
saw the black knight."
"And
... ?"
Her
lips pursed, and she said nothing.
"Is
there another yet—one that I am not supposed to see?"
Still,
no reply.
Cray
rose to his feet and turned his back to her, one hand raised to the rough
texture of the tree trunk. He picked at the bark, crumbling the fragments that
came free between his fingers. Finally he said, "So it was you. Not
Rezhyk. My mother fell hi love with you. Well, it does not seem quite so impossible
that way." His fingers clawed against the tree, scraping bark under his
nails. "Do you deny it, Gildrum?"
She
made no sound.
"He
should have instructed you to deny it. He shouldn't have merely forbidden you
to speak of it. You could have lied to me then." He looked down, leaning
the crown of his head against the trunk. "I can almost see you charming
her, Gildrum. You are so much more . . . human . .. than he is. How did it make
you feel to deceive her so, demon? You have feelings, I know." He tipped
his face sideways, to see her. "But of course you can't tell me."
She sat
on the moss with her head bent, her face
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buried
in her hands, the butter-yellow braids falling forward over her shoulders.
"I have feelings/' she murmured, her voice muffled by her fingers.
"Are
you ashamed of what you did?" He reached out suddenly, jerked her hands
away from her face. On her cheeks he saw two wet streaks, demon tears. "Do
you weep for shame, Gildrum?"
"Set
me free," she whispered, "and you shall know everything."
He
pushed her away, tumbling her backward over the exposed roots of the tree.
"Freedom, freedom!" he shouted. "That's all I hear from
you—freedom! You're-freer than I am, demon! You do as you will, even to
betraying your master, cunning creature. Your silence has told me as much as
words could."
"I
would that were truly so," said Gildrum, propping herself up on her
elbows. "There is too much that you do not know, Master Cray. Believe
me."
"What
will you do with your freedom, Gildrum? Kill him?"
"No.
I care nothing for him."
"You
have some other target, then.'*
"Not
for death."
"For
what?"
Her
eyes pleaded with him.
"What
a mad discussion!" Cray cried, throwing his arms out to the forest as to a
jury. "I keep finding myself carrying on both sides!" He glared down
at her. "Your plans for life after gaining your freedom involve me?"
She
shook her head.
"Who,
then?" His brows knit tight. "My mother?'* Silence.
He took
one step toward her and reached down to .dutch hard at her shoulder. "You shall
not harm her!" "I shall harm no one," said Gildrum. "What,
then? You want to explain? You want to alogize? Better you stay away from her,
Gildrum. Jetter she should never know what happened. She has icr memories, and
they, at least, are only bitter with •>ss. She loved you." He ripped
his fingers away from ~~ and straightened, still looking down at her decep-
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lively
human shape at his feet. "Oh, my poor mother; how she loved you."
"Free
me, Master Cray," she whispered. "You shall not regret it."
"Do
you promise me that?"
"Yes."
"But
you have made promises before and broken them."
"Not
to you."
"To
her." He shook his head. "How can I trust your promises?"
"Sometimes,"
said Gildrum, "a demon makes a promise and the master prevents the keeping
of it."
"Prevents
the keeping of it?" He crooked his elbows and set his hands on his hips.
"Come, come, Gildrum —am I to believe that you meant it when you told her
you would return when your duty was done? Perhaps five hundred more years of
slavery to Lord Rezhyk was the duty you meant, or however much time remains
until he dies. Do you take me for a fool?"
"Sometimes
. . . promises are made from the heart, not the head-." She lifted a hand
to him in supplication. "Set me free, Master Cray. You are my only
hope."
His
frown deepened. "Hope for what?" he said.
She
groped for Ms near hand, found it, slid her fingers into his palm, levering it
away from his hip. "Please," she said. "My throat is thick with
words that will not pass my lips. Set me free. You must know what I will do
with my freedom. You must."
He
curled his fingers loosely around hers and then looked down at the two hands,
one broad and hard, the other as fragile as a child's, with delicate nails and
rosy palms. "You . . . will keep your promise to her?"
"Please,"
she said.
"This
is madness," he muttered. "With silence and just a few indirect
remarks, but mainly silence, you have led me to a conclusion I can scarcely
credit. Do you love my mother, Gildrum? Have you loved her all this time?"
To her firmly closed lips and tightly clutching hand, he added, "But no,
you will not tell me that. That is part of the secret that Rezhyk has forbidden
you to reveal to me. So I shall not know, for certain, until I free you. And
even then . . . how can a
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demon
love a human being?" He covered their two entwined hands with his free
hand. "I feel flesh here, but I know you are made of fire. You can appear
as you choose, as squirrel or pebble or old man, but still, you are a flame.
Gildrum, has demon ever loved a human being before?"
"I
don't know," she said. "I think it is not a thing that we would talk
about. But it did happen once the other way around, when a master gave a slave
a fair form. It was a great joke, for a time, in my world."
"Do
they make many jokes, in your world, about human beings?"
"Some
do."
"Will
they laugh at me... when I am there?"
Her
unencumbered hand grasped at his tunic. "You will go then?"
He
nodded slowly. "I will go, I haven't much choice, have I? Stay and die or
go and learn. I will go, and I will work until I have no need to fear him. And
I shall gain your freedom."
She
scrambled to her knees. "Master Cray, I cannot thank you enough."
"I'm
not doing this for you. Just for me. And for her. I trust you will think of a
suitable evasion for Lord Rezhyk."
"I
have one already."
"Very
well. When shall we leave?"
"Now."
"And
what of my horse?"
She
smiled slightly. "Still thinking of your horse after all these
years?"
"I
can't leave him uncared for."
"I'll
arrange for him to wander back to the lady Helaine and your friend."
"Will
they know where I have gone? Will they read my fate in him?"
"I
think not," said Gildrum. "He saw nothing but the first moments of
the fight. Your lives parted then, and a Seer would know no more than
that."
"They
will think that something terrible has happened to me."
"So
much the better," said Gildrum, "in case my lord should make
inquiries."
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"Would
he doubt your word?"
"I
think not, but why take the risk? Now, let us depart so that I may settle you
and lay out your further course of study."
Cray
nodded, and before the gesture was complete, the demon turned to flame and
engulfed him.-This time her fire was not a tenuous veil but an opaque sheet
through which he could not even see bis own limbs. His eyes closed against the
intolerable glare and then he squinted hard at the fierce redness that
penetrated his eyelids. A heartbeat later, he lost his balance and tumbled,
flailing, into nothingness. There was no ground beneath his feet anymore, no
grass, no shrubs, no trees to clutch at. He screamed. He opened his eyes, but
the dazzle was too much for him and he had to shut it out again. Then something
tugged at Ms hand, as a dog tugs at the leash, and he felt bis body
straightening, streaming out behind his fingers like hair in a high wind. He
flew.
"Don't
be afraid," said Gildrum's crackling demon-voice. "You are safe with
me. But you cannot stay here. I will take you to a more suitable place."
"Where
are we?" Cray croaked.
"This
is Fire, my home. Without my protection you would char in an instant. But we'll
be out soon; the boundary is quite near."
Abruptly,
the bright light dimmed, and Cray's eyelids unlocked themselves almost by
reflex. Gildrum's Same was about him still, but faint now, as the first time
she had enveloped him, and beyond the pale yellow of her glow he saw that he
was surrounded by smoke. Gildrum kept it from \\irn—it did not powder his «kin
with soot or make him cough or burn his eyes, nor did it roil from his passage
through it.
"This
is the boundary between Fire and Air," said Gildrum.
Cray
craned his neck to look back the way they had come, toward his feet. Even
veiled by smoke, Fire was a terrifying sight. Its beating dazzle was damped,
but its violence showed clearly—raging flames of red, orange, yellow, white;
nothingness ever burning, never consumed. Cray felt sweat break out on his
forehead, though no heat touched him.
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"What
is it like to live there?" he wondered.
"If
your eyes were strong enough to bear the sight," said Gildrum, "you
would see that it has a wild beauty all its own. Rivers of molten lava flowing
without banks, without the tug of the earth to restrain them. Demons of every
shape and shade of-flame, like living jewels. And never darkness. Never."
Even her sigh crackled. "I spend so little time there, it is twice as
beautiful to me as to any other native."
"A
terrible beauty," said Cray.
"Well,
we will come upon a different sort presently."
The
smoke thinned until Cray thought he could see a trace of blue in the direction
they traveled. Then they emerged from the last wisps, and he saw that it was
blue, blue everywhere, as far as the eye could see, the deep azure of a
cloudless summer sky. There was no sun visible, yet there was light; the very
air seemed luminous. Gildrum withdrew from him, to a ball of pale yellow near
his elbow, leaving him to float, perfectly warm and comfortable, in the vast
blue. A light breeze played about him, ruining his hair as his mother had
ruffled it when he was a small child; he breathed deep, expecting some scent to
be borne upon the wind, but there was neither the green perfume of vegetation
nor the heartier smell of animals, nor even the taint of the smoke that lay
behind him. The air was odorless, flat, as it brushed his nostrils.
He
heard laughter, soft, breathy laughter just behind is right ear. He turned his
head sharply to find the f,>urce, and his body tumbled toward the flame that
Eiras
Gildrum. The demon flowed toward him, wrapped pbout his arm to steady him,
"You
must learn to move more slowly
in this orld," she said. "Who
laughed?" said Cray.
"An
air demon, of course," said Gildrum. "Behind Ju. No, don't turn. You
can't see it just now. I'll ask jto come around to your face and show
itself." ^ Some silent message must have passed between the Kmons, for in
the emptiness before Cray's eyes a dark pud began to coalesce, like a man-sized
thunderhead. laughed, the same laugh as before, and filaments of mirf broke
free from the main body with that laugh-
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ter,
floated around it like honeybees around a flower, and settled back into the
mass.
"Accept
my greeting," said the cloud, "O human being. You are a silly sight
indeed, in Air."
"I'm
sure I must be," said Cray. "Please accept my greeting in return, O
cloud. I am Cray Ormoru."
The
cloud laughed again- "Will you call us all 'O cloud,' young Cray? I'll
wager he doesn't call you *O flame,* Gildrum."
"I
haven't told him your name. Cray, this is EIrelet, an old friend of mine."
"An
old fellow slave is what you mean, Gildrum. Shall I take my true form and shake
your hand, young Cray, following human custom?"
"If
you wish," said Cray, extending his own hand.
EIrelet
laughed once more, and the cloud collapsed to a ball no larger than a fist; it sprouted
two long, ropy tentacles, smooth on the upper side, exuding slime on the lower.
It thrust one of them toward Cray, grasped his hand like a snake constricting
its prey, and pumped so vigorously that his, whole body bounced back and forth,
as if it were a dusty rag being shaken out.
"Enough,"
said Gildrum, and she flowed about Cray's body just long enough to damp out the
wild motion.
EIrelet
withdrew the tentacle. "He has some courage," it said, absorbing the
tentacles into its spherical body and then expanding once more to the
thunder-head. "Another human would have shied away from me."
"I
was raised with snakes," said Cray. "Things that resemble them do not
repel me."
"Well,
we have things here," said EIrelet, "that by human standards are even
uglier in their true forms than I am. Don't be surprised if some of the Free
try to startle you with them."
"EIrelet
will look after you while I am back at Ringforge," Gildrum said to Cray.
"If you trust me, you can trust EIrelet. Ask for whatever you need— food,
clothing, advice; EIrelet will provide them."
"Advice
especially," said EIrelet.
"I
must return now. My lord will be wondering why
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I have
taken so long; he will call soon and perhaps alter the command, and I must
forestall that. I'll return whenever I can. Here are duplicates of your
books." Several thick
notebooks floated from
the depths of her flame, arrayed themselves before Cray's eyes.
"You will find that I have written your next few lessons in the latest of
them. Study hard, Cray. Farewell to both of you." She streaked past Cray's
shoulder, and he turned his head very slowly to watch her dwindle toward the
smoke. She entered the grayness that extended as far as the eye could see in
the directions that Cray arbitrarily designated as up and down, left and right,
a curtain across the whole sky. Swiftly, her flame vanished. Yet beyond the
curtain, tingeing it with a ruddy glow, Fire was still faintly visible, a conflagration beyond human imagination.
Cray shuddered once, at the thought of himself in the midst of that vast
furnace, then he looked back at the dark thunderhead. "Friend
EIrelet," he said, "I have my first request of you."
"Yes?" "Supper."
Rezhyk
sat crouched over his notebook, meticulously inscribing the details of his most
recent incantations on a blank page. He did not look up as Gildrum appeared hi
the workshop, shedding yellow light upon his ring-laden hands before coalescing
into the shape of the young girl.
; "The deed is done," she said.
"I met him on the road as a knight, and we fought. Though be wore no armor
and begged me to cease, I would not let him yield. The death blow was a sure
one."
"Quite
sure?" murmured Rezhyk, his eyes still on the page before him.
"Quite
sure," said Gildrum, remembering the cool slice of steel through her
inhuman head. Never before had she allowed her fleshly form to seem vulnerable,
and the memory of it was strange and lingering, like the flavor of an unusual
spice.
"Very
well, my Gildrum. I worried this day past, pmt now you have set my mind at
rest. Lean close here " look at this new figure I have devised. I think I
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shall
need a carbuncle for this one, deep, blood-red, perhaps the size of my
thumbnail. And you shall find it for me in the East, my Gildrum. Yes."
Gildrum
leaned close and looked at the words in that familiar cramped script and nodded
to the rhythm of Rezhyk's voice. As he spoke, she wondered at his coolness and
his easy displacement of interest. Already, the murder of his son was
unimportant to him. There was not a touch of remorse in his demeanor.
Gildrum
focused her eyes on the back of his neck for a moment, at the white linen
collar of the shirt he wore over the cloth-of-gold. Between the collar and the
base of his skull, the thick hair parted, exposing skin that had never seen
sunlight.
/ would
stab you there, she thought, if I were not a slave. And I would feel no more
sorrow than you do at this moment.
CHAPTER
FIFTEEN
From
nothingness, Elrelet had produced a roast fowl, and Cray ate it, floating. "Is
there nothing more in Air," he said between bites, "but empty space?
No vegetation, no buildings, nothing solid?"
"There
are buildings," said Elrelet. "You are within one now—my home."
Cray
looked about, frowning perplexedly, as if doubting the evidence of his senses.
"I see nothing." "That's because it's made of air. Your eyes are
not good enough to see that air can be as solid as many other things. For
example, there is a wall behind you. Reach back and touch it. Careful, though;
remember you're not accustomed to moving in this world."
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Cray
stretched out a tentative hand and encountered a surface before his arm had
straightened entirely. Invisible, the wall seemed to roil and bubble beneath
his fingers, like a spring gushing forth from a mountainside. He pushed against
the pressure and could not penetrate it; instead, his own body moved backward
as his elbow stiffened.
"How,
then, did we get in?" he asked. "I seem to recall that you have doors
in the human world," said Elrelet
"But
I can't see it. How shall I get out?" "Follow the breeze,"
replied the demon. "It enters at one door and exits at the other—surely
that won't be too difficult for you. But you shall not be going out 'much at
first, not until you've learned how to travel among us. A pity you have no
wings." "Few humans do."
"Well,"
said Elrelet, "then you shall have to swim. I hope you're acquainted with
swimming."
"Not
really. I've splashed through a river or two in my travels, but my horse always
swam better than I did."
"A
pity again. Well, you'll learn here, or you'll be livery frustrated. At least
you don't thrash wildly about; lyou have a fine talent for keeping still."
| "I learn quickly, I
hope."
a "If you're quite finished with that
poor bird, I'll re you some instructions in swimming." "I'm
finished." The bones disappeared. "You must think of the air as a
tangible thing, as ngible as water," said the demon. "Your arms are
3ur oars. Your feet, too, for that matter. You can just
*ve the
feet to give yourself a bit of forward motion,
id the
arms control your direction. Try it."
;
Awkwardly, Cray scissored his legs, and his body
*"jan
to tumble.
"You
have to straighten yourself out," said Elrelet. four head is the prow of
your ship; it has to face to-
*rd
your destination."
7ray
straightened out and bumped into the invisible J. He pushed away from it with
one hand, stroked fctively with the other, and soared with some grace 1 he
struck another wall and rebounded in a flurry
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of
limbs. "At least the walls aren't hard," he muttered, reflexively
grasping for support but finding none and continuing to tumble in a slow arc.
"Stretch
all your arms and legs out as far as you can," said EIrelet.
Cray
did so, and his rotation slowed.
"You
will stop eventually that way," said the demon.
"I
wish I could just stand up," said Cray. "Or lie down. I feel a bit
dizzy. Is all the demon world like this?"
"You
mean without weight?'*
"Yes."
"Then,
yes. You'll get used to it. Personally, I prefer it—nothing to drag you down to
that hard, lumpy surface. Of course, I can fly in your world, but it's so much
more tiring."
"Well,
I can't fly there, but I don't mind walking."
"You'll
enjoy flying here, I'm sure. You'll miss it when you get back."
"Have
you ever walked, EIrelet?"
"Oh,
yes, I've done my share. My master used to like traveling. He gave me a horse's
form, and I did quite a bit of walking with him. Slow travel it was; I tried to
suggest that we fly, but he'd have none of that A very leisurely fellow."
"What
happened to him?" asked Cray.
"Happened?
Why, nothing. He's still there, settled into a huge castle with all the
souvenirs he picked up in our wandering. I don't see him very often. He has
everything he wants and little use for a slave these days."
"Oh.
I thought perhaps you had been freed."
"Why
would you think that?"
"Because
you have a home here. Because Gildrum gave me into your care. I supposed from
that that you were here all the time, not enslaved by some human."
"There
are many of us here most of the time. We're slaves still, but we have masters
who don't call for our services constantly, not like my poor friend Gildrum. We
have homes. Gildrum has a home, too—you passed through it on your way here,
though I suppose you wouldn't have noticed with your human eyes. We
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have a
whole way of life which is occasionally interrupted by some human whim."
"Are
there many like Gildrum?"
"I
am at one extreme, Gildrum is at the other, and there is everything in between,
Cray." The demon made a sound like a human being clearing his throat.
"And now, Cray, I must warn you about the Free.'*
"The
Free?" said Cray, lying quite still in the middle of the air, his arms at
his sides, his eyes closed. Now that he had stopped moving, the dizziness was
passing away. "Who are they?"
"They
are the demons who have never been slaves. They spend their time amusing
themselves, and I suspect they will consider you a great source of amusement
very soon. They live in fear of the summons, and fear makes their jesting
bitter. I hope you will not be offended by anything they may say. In any event,
you would be wise to be polite to them at all times."
"I
always try to be polite to those who are stronger than I am."
"Well,
I will protect you, of course..." "But you would prefer not to be
given the oppor-inity. I understand. Is there anything special that I •must not
say to the Free?"
| "Don't ask their names. Only a slave
will admit to |a name."
"And
what of those former slaves whose masters » dead? Where do they fit in? Will
they acknowledge nes?"
"Some
will, some won't. Some rejoin the Free, some ay with the more relaxed society
of the slaves. We,
least,
though we are compelled by rings, no longer re in the fear of the
unknown."
"And
those whose masters have freed them—where > they go?"
"There
are only a few such fortunate creatures, tiey alone can live their lives
completely as they loose, for a slave who has been set free can never be
•slaved
again," The cloud contracted suddenly, loos-
* a
very human sigh. "I asked my master for that m once, but he put me off. He
said he might need sometime. He'll die without freeing me, I know,
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and
then I will wait in suspense, wondering if and when another sorcerer will find
me. Be glad you're not a demon, Cray Ormoru."
"The
Free are not the only bitter demons," Cray said softly.
"No,
they are not. To be a demon is to be bitter, at least since the first sorcerer
made the first pair of rings to catch us. Even I—and I am one of the lucky
ones. I had a better humor than most, before the summons, and my slavery has
not been so hard that I have lost it all. Still, even I cry out sometimes.
Especially when he calls me. Which reminds me: should I be called, should I
disappear suddenly without telling you, it would be best, at first certainly,
if you did not wander too far from the house."
Cray
bent his legs, clasped his knees. "I should be afraid even to go out. I'd
never find it again."
"I'll
mark it for you."
"Well,
I don't expect to go out much. I have my studies."
"So
Gildrum told me." A thread of cloud extruded from the thunderhead that was
Elrelet, stretching out and out, past Cray till it curled against the invisible
wall beyond him. There the notebooks huddled, like sheep on a cold winter's
night. The strand of cloud retracted slowly, depositing the books beside Cray
on its way back to die parent body. "Here are your lessons. Whatever else
you might need, you have only to ask, and I will bring it."
Cray
clutched the books. "I'll just read right now, thank you, while there's
still light."
"There
is always light," said Elrelet.
"You
haven't any night here?"
"None.
Nor do we sleep."
"Well
then, I'll need some sort of mask if I'm to sleep."
"I
can darken the walls for that."
"Good.
Later I'll ask for that favor." Cray opened one of the books to the last
page he remembered writing on. There were six beyond it, filled with minuscule
script that even he might have mistaken for his own. He set a finger at the
beginning of the new section and looked back at the thunderhead. "Oh, and
if it's
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possible,
Td like to get ray belongings back—the saddlebags on my horse and the sword and
shield which lie where Gildrum spirited me away from my own world. Can you do
that, Elrelet?"
"Nothing
simpler, if Gildrum approves," said the demon. "But I can find you
clothes and even a sword and shield if you really want them, all better quality
than those you left behind. I don't know what you need them for, though—there's
no one to fight with those weapons, and you can go naked, it's warm enough."
"I'm
not really accustomed to going naked," said Cray. "My clothes are
good enough for me, and the rest . . . well, call it sentiment that makes me
want them."
"I
see that there is a ring among your belongings." The thunderhead sent a
tendril of cloud to Cray's hand, delicately touching the smallest finger, where
the slim, inconspicuous band of gold rested. Cray felt a faint dampness at that
touch, nothing more.
"There
is a ring," he replied, "but it is not important."
"Yes,
yes," said Elrelet. "It means you have another ally here, and one who
will be more faithful to you than either Gildrum or I could ever be. Don't
underestimate the value of a slave."
"Just
a small one. I have no further need
for his - services; I may as well set
him free," He twisted the ring on his finger. "Except that I don't
know how to do that yet. Perhaps you could instruct me, Elrelet?"
"How refreshing," said the demon. "A master who wishes to free a
slave without any prompting. Oh, I could instruct you, never doubt it. Any of us
could. But I would suggest that you put the notion aside for now. You may find
yourself needing a slave in the near future, even a small one."
"It
is my turn to be surprised, Elrelet. I never expected to hear a demon advise me
to keep another in lilavery."
"I
told you I would give you advice, Cray. I hope it ill always be useful
advice." "And I thank you for it." Elrelet left to consult with
Gildrum on the matter of
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the
saddlebags, sword, and shield and returned with the items themselves and with the
large counterpart of Cray's ring as well, which Cray had left behind in
Ringforge. The demon spewed them into a space which seemed as open as any
within the invisible walls; Cray's questing hands discovered it to be an alcove
sealed by a cushiony door that yielded to strong pressure.
"One
object—you—is enough to be floating freely in my house," said Elrelet.
"I trust you will not leave your belongings scattered everywhere. The
books can go in here, too, when you're not using them."
"I
shall try to be neat," said Cray. "But remember, I am not accustomed
to all this floating.'*
"You
will learn."
And he
did learn. The mild dizziness passed quickly, as if his two flights with the
great bronze bird had inured him to the vast openness of sky all around. After
some initial floundering, he developed a smooth swimming stroke and a technique
of turning corners by rebounding off an invisible wall. He found that he could
read without touching the book save to turn the pages but that he could not
write in it without using both hands—one to press the writing implement against
the page and the other to keep the book from sailing away under that pressure.
Elrelet gave him a silver-point for the writing instead of quill and ink,
saying that the ink would not flow properly in the demon world. Ink was not the
only fluid that would not flow without weight, Cray soon determined, and he
became adept at shaking globules of wine and water from their containers and
sucking them into his mouth before they could spread all over his face and
hair. .
He
learned incantations, he learned procedures. He practiced gestures and tones of
voice, rhythms and phrasing. He invented a scheme of notation that would recall
details beyond the mere words when his teacher was not near to answer questions.
Gildrum visited infrequently, testing him each time on the material he had been
given before, leaving more—pages and pages of lore that he must commit to
memory. Cray began to wonder how long it would take to make him Rezhyk's equal.
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"Time
passes differently here," said Gildrum. "Without night to separate
the days, time stretches out, and not just for us, who never sleep, but for
you, too. If I took you back this instant, what season do you think you would
find at Spinweb?"
Cray
shook his head. "I have lost track completely. If you told me I had been
here a century, I would believe you. Yet my beard hasn't grown an inch."
"And
will not," said Gildrum. "Nothing grows here. Nor do you have to eat,
Cray, except that you are used to it."
"And
will I age?"
"No."
"Then
it scarcely matters what season it is at Spin-web. Except ... I wonder if my
mother is worrying about me."
"I
think not. You haven't been gone very long."
"She
has a magical tapestry that shows her my travels. When she looks at it next,
will it tell her I'm here."
Gildrum
hesitated. "I should think not. No earthly eyes but yours have ever seen
the demon world, Cray."
"What
will it show then?"
"I
don't know," said Gildrum. "I don't know."
Delivev
looked down at the weaving, at the glinting bronze that represented the
feathers of a great bird, at the green-fringed darkness that was the entry to
the Seer's cave, at the crimson threads that marked Cray's route westward from
there. It ceased abruptly hi the forest. A sword was woven in silver beside
that end point, to mark a fight, but there was no red of blood to show that
Cray had been injured. There was simply an end to the line, as if he had
settled himself in that spot to wait out the season or the year or eternity.
Delivev wondered whom he had fought, but she would not allow herself to call to
him to ask. In his own good time, she thought, he would tell her.
i Some
Free came at last, to view the first human to ivisit the demon world. Various
slave demons had .passed by already, according to Elrelet, but had not
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chosen
to shed their invisibility and disturb him. The Free were not so courteous.
They cut off the light that poured through the transparent walls of Elrelet's
house, great dark clouds crowding close, like a sudden summer storm. Cray
closed his book and let it float away; he could not see well enough to deposit
it hi the alcove where his other possessions-were. Elrelet had gone out
earlier, leaving Cray with instructions not to go out alone.
Elrelet
had told him he was completely safe inside the house, but Cray felt a chill
creep up his back anyway, and it was not from any change in the warmth of the
air. He touched the ring on his hand and whispered its demon's name, Yra.
Presently, a gap showed among the dark clouds, and a ball of mellow light
squeezed through the throng. It did not enter, could not without Elrelet's own
permission, but it pressed against the invisible wall, shedding yellow light in
the gloom. Cray took up his book once more, though he could only pretend to
read.
"So
you are the human," came a deep voice, like distant thunder. "A puny
creature indeed. I expected something greater."
Cray
turned his head toward the voice. He could not guess how many demons surrounded
him; there seemed to be no clear divisions between individuals. He thought, in
fact, that the cloud might be one vast demon until another voice spoke in a
different timbre, and he decided that, like a gang of children, they would find
no pleasure in approaching him singly.
"Hard
to believe," said the second voice, "that one such as this
could-enslave one of us.*'
Cray
executed a slow bow in mid-air, tumbling completely head over heels till he
arrived at his original posture, where he stopped himself with a flick of his
leg. "Good day," he said.
"I
could tear him apart with a light crosswind," said the voice that had
spoken second.
"Come
out," said the first voice. "Come out, little human, and play with
us."
Cray
smiled, swiveling his head slowly so that most of them could glimpse his face.
"I thank you for the
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invitation,
but my host has forbidden me to go out of his house without him."
"Forbidden?"
said another voice. "A demon forbids a human something?"
"He
is afraid of us, this human," said someone else. "And he does well to
be afraid." The voice laughed gustily, rippling the clouds all around it
like a sudden gale. "This paltry little fire demon would do you little
good if we chose to be unfriendly."
"I
hope you will be friendly," said Cray. "I mean you no harm."
"No
harm?" The voice laughed louder than ever. "What are you doing here,
then? No harm! You can't lie to us, human. We know all about you."
"Then
you must also know that I plan to free one of your number."
"So
you say. But you'll change your mind once you've enslaved a few of us. Gildrum
is a fool to be-Ueve you."
"Fire
demons are all fools,'* said another voice. "I will keep my pledge,"
said Cray. "Come out, come out," called another voice. "Come out
and play with us, human."
"When
my host comes home," said Cray, "I will ask for his permission to do
so."
The
clouds moaned and whispered among themselves, and they pushed at Cray's fire
demon until its light flickered like a candle in a drafty room. Cray feigned
attention to his book again, only smiling whenever the air demons repeated
their invitation, until a rift broke in the darkness, like sunlight pouring
through disintegrating storm clouds. Elrelet, small and sharply defined—in
contrast to the Free—had arrived. "Back off!" Cray's host shouted in a
voice as large as any of theirs, far larger than mere size betokened.
"I'll have no crowding around my house. Back off or suffer!"
In
response, the clouds broke apart, and Cray was able to count ten individuals,
each as large as a dozen horses together.
"This
human is my guest!" said Elrelet. "Any affront to him will be an
affront to me."
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The
demons muttered, and one of them said, "Are you afraid we'll harm him,
Elrelet-slave?" ,
"If
any harm comes to him, I shall tell my master the name of the guilty one, and
he shall exact punishment."
The
demons fell silent on a gust of air like an indrawn breath. -
"Come
out, Cray," said Elrelet. "Let them look more closely upon the
enemy."
Cray
found the door and swung himself through it. He called Yra to his side, a ball
of pale light in the sky-glow.
"My
lord," said Yra, "I am no match for such a crowd in a fight. I would
be overwhelmed and unable to help you."
"Go
home, Yra," Cray replied. "I only needed you for light."
The
fire demon flashed away, like a spark spit out from a crackling log.
The air
demons crowded close. "So this is a human," said one of them, sending
a tendril of cloud to touch Cray's foot.' A puff of air ruffled his hair; a
stronger draft set him tumbling slowly, a leaf before the autumn breeze.
Elrelet expanded into a ring of cloud and encircled his waist like a fat belt,
halting his rotation. "Enough of that," Elrelet said. "Play your
games with something else."
"We
came here to invite him to play," said one of the demons. "Just for
amusement, you understand, nothing serious."
"He
has no time for amusement," replied Elrelet. "He has much work before
him, and you shall not interfere. Begone now you've seen and touched him.
Begone!"
Like
mist evaporating before the morning sun, they thinned away to nothing, leaving
only a single sigh behind, the merest sough of wind. "You, too," said
Elrelet, and even that was gone.
Back
inside the house, Elrelet said, "They only wanted to frighten you. They
wouldn't have shown themselves to your eyes if they had meant real harm."
"Well,
they succeeded in their intention," replied
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Cray.
"I thought the walls would give way any moment."
"Not
these walls," said the demon. "Stay inside, and none can touch you.
They'll be back, I'm sure." "For what?"
"To
coax you into playing. They have a game, you see—a rather rough one it would
be, too, for a human being. That's how the Free spend their time—playing."
"What
of the slaves? Don't they play in their leisure time?"
"Not
like the Free. N«t with such single-minded devotion. The Free wager on their
game. And because material goods like gold and jewels have no value for demons,
they wager with their names." "With their names? How?"
"Each
round of play pits two demons against each other, and the loser must add the
winner's name to its own, and answer the sorcerous summons directed at that
name if its own is not called first. The more often one loses the game, the
more names one carries, the more likely one is to be summoned. Conversely, a
frequent winner is protected against the summons by the many who carry its
name. There is a demon among the Free whose name is carried by more than a
dozen others, while it carries only its own."
"A
dozen?" said Cray. "How do they decide which of them answers the
summons?"
"The
one who lost longest ago answers, unless it has already been called to some
other name."
"And
when that demon answers, what happens to the other names that it might be
carrying?"
"They
stay with it. After its master dies and it is Free again, it is bound to them
still. The game is costly, you see, Cray, and the cost does not diminish with
time. Only a winner can afford to stop playing, one who has won often enough
not only to pass its own name to a number of other demons but to get rid of the
names it may have acquired by earlier losing. One who loses more often than it
wins can escape only one way: when it is given its freedom by a sorcerer, given
the ring that summoned it, that commands it. Only then does the compulsion of
the game disappear."
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"Compulsion?"
said Cray. "But what if a demon refuses to answer a summons for one of the
names not its own?"
"Impossible,"
replied Elrelet. "We are trapped by names, Cray; they are as real and
tangible to us as your flesh is to you. When a demon accepts the wager of a
name, it is bound by that; if it loses the game and must take the name, it can
only rid itself of the name through the game. Of course, one is never rid of
one's own name."
"But
why would they want me to play, Elrelet? I'm not bound by any name compulsion.
Winning from me wouldn't do anyone any good."
"Perhaps
not."
"What
do you mean, 'perhaps*?'*
"You
are in our world now, Cray. You live by its rules. Perhaps some sorcerer could
enslave you, if you bore a demon name. That would amuse the Free greatly—a poor
weak human answering a sorcerer's call."
"I
can't believe it's possible.'*
"Don't
play with them, Cray. I'm sure you don't want to find out."
"I'm
sure I would be terrible at the game anyway, not having a demon's powers. And I
haven't'the time, as you said yourself."
"They
will taunt you and tease you," said Elrelet. "Today's visit will not
be the last, in spite of my anger. They will wait till I am gone again."
"I'll
try to ignore them."
"I
hope you can. Gildrum will never forgive me if something happens to you."
"You
two are very old friends, aren't you?"
"Very
old."
"Did
either of you ever play the game?"
Elrelet
hesitated. Then the cloud that was the demon's body darkened^ "A long time
ago, when I was young and foolish, I played and lost. That was the summons that
I answered, not my own. My own name has never been called. If I hadn't played,
I would still be Free."
"And
Gildrum?"
"Gildrum
advised me not to play, and many times
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I have
wished I had taken that advice. Gildrum has never played. In our youth, you
see, the game had not yet taken hold so strongly among the Free. We were less
foolish than the Free are today, or so we like to think. Perhaps it isn't true.
Every demon born is a fool; only a few have tune to learn wisdom before they
are enslaved.**
Cray
pursed his lips. "Demons are born?** he murmured.
Elrelet
laughed that light breathy laugh. "Did you think we come into existence
out of nothingness, Cray?"
"Well
... I don't know. Flame, air ... they seem to partake of nothingness.'*
"We
have a^ legend—and it may be the truth—that, ages ago, the first demon
coalesced from nothingness where the four worlds meet. It was a creature that
combined all four demon aspects—air, fire, water, and ice—and immediately after
its inception, it separated into those aspects, and each of the four parts
retreated to the appropriate dwelling place, to become ancestor to all demons
of that sort that came after. But we no longer come into existence in that
fashion. We mate, we bear our young alive, we raise them until they can fend
for themselves. It is not so different from what humans do." ^ "Do
you have any children, Elrelet?**
"Quite
a long time ago I chose to have one. We are long-lived and do not breed very
often."
"Elrelet
. . ." Cray smiled somewhat sheepishly. **How does one tell, with demons,
which are the males and which the females?"
Again,
the breathy laughter. "One doesn't, Cray. Those are human distinctions
that do not apply to us. Our masters may give us the forms of men or women, but
those are just outward semblances. Inside, we are still... as we are."
Cray's
smile faded, the comers of his mouth sagging, his brows tightening.
"Elrelet," he said, "do you know about Gildrum and my
mother?"
Elrelet's
sigh was a breath of warm wind. "We are "old friends," the demon
said. "I know, but I confess i that I do not understand. Gildrum has been
among you
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humans
more than most of us. GHdrom was always sensible, but I suppose that one cannot
be sensible in all things." The cloud contracted a trifle and expanded, a
pulse like a shrug. "We slaves are compelled to do so much against our own
wills, sometimes we have none left Not Gildrum, though. Not Gildnim. For
myself, the threat of the master's punishment would be greater than any desire
I might have for anything. Or anyone. I would have killed you, Cray. I tell you
that honestly. I would have killed you rather than play this dangerous game
with my master. And he is far softer than Lord Rezhyk. Disobedience is the
greatest crime a demon can commit, Cray . . . because it must be done by being
cleverer than the master. Sorcerers don't accept such cleverness with very good
grace."
"You
think Lord Rezhyk will find out eventually?"
"How
can I know? Eventually, yes, of course, when you are ready to combat him.
Sooner than that? Study hard, Cray, that you may cut his thinking time as short
as possible."
Cray
nodded. "I feel like I've played the Free game and lost."
"Something
close to that," replied Elrelet
Cray
opened his books once more.
The
Free came back, as predicted. This time they did not biot out the light. They
appeared, instead, as white cirrus clouds, feathery and evanescent, darting
about EIrelet's home as if there were a wild windstorm going on beyond the
walls. Cray could not help watching them. After a while, he noticed that they
were bouncing a small object about among them, but even with his nose pressed
against the cushiony wall, he could not determine the nature of the thing.
Once, while he observed, it ricocheted off the outside of the wall, missing his
face by only the invisible thickness of the surface, and he recoiled
reflexively and tumbled a moment before he could right himself, to the rhythm
of mocking, booming laughter. The cirrus clouds scattered abruptly shortly
afterward, at EIrelet's arrival.
"They
were rather amusing this time," Cray said to his host. "They were
playing some sort of game, I think."
"Yes,"
said Elrelet. "The only game they ever play."
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"You
mean that was it, the terrible game? It seemed so simple. Like children tossing
a ball."
"When
one's future hangs on the outcome, such a game is never simple. The ball, as
you call it, is a cube with a different number of clots on each face. The two
players each choose a face as their own, and between them they start the cube
spinning and soaring; each must touch the cube at least twice or the game is
disqualified, but in fact they generally touch it far more often, and so it
tends to make mad gyrations. The object of the game is to strike the cube
against some surface, and the player whose symbol is opposite the surface wins.
When the cube strikes face-on it sticks tight; striking with edge or corner
will cause it to bounce away. And there is a certain minimum distance from the
surface, within which neither player is allowed—about three of your
body-lengths, Cray. Some games
last quite a long time before they are decided."
Cray
asked, "Were they using your wall as their surface, or were they just
passing by on their way to somewhere else?"
"They
were using my wall," said Elrelet. "They were trying to annoy
you."
"Like
children."
"Some
of them are."
Cray
smiled. "It's hard for me to imagine a cloud as a child. Are they smaller
when they're ^younger? This lot seemed small."
"No,"
said Elrelet. "They are born as large as they will ever be. These only
appeared small because they wanted to."
"I've
seen fire demons and air demons now; what are the other two sorts like—water
and ice?*'
"Ah,"
said Elrelet. "Curiosity."
"Well,
yes. Why not?"
"I
spoke to Gildnim recently, Cray, and have more lessons for you."
"I
wasn't thinking about that kind of curiosity."
"You
have much studying left ahead of you."
"I
know that," said Cray. "But if I'm to be a demon-master, wouldn't it
be appropriate for me to find out what the different kinds of demons are like,
so that
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I may
choose wisely among them? Unless ... the compulsion of the game extends so far
that if I summon a water demon I may get an air demon instead, in spite of the
considerable difference in procedure for the two."
"No,
it does not extend so far," said Elrelet. "And for that reason, the
game is played only among one's own kind. Otherwise there is no meaning to
winning or losing. There are different variants of the game, too, in the
different domains, each suited to the nature of the place. Ice demons, in
particular* have an extreme variant because objects do not float freely, unob*
structed, in their area." _ "I should like to see an ice demon,"
Cray said.
"Are
you thinking of enslaving some of them?**
"I
don't know. I know almost nothing about them. Gildrum has given me very little
information on them."
"Well,
fire and ice, Cray," said Elrelet. "They mix poorly, and so that is
not a place that Gildrum frequents."
"Do
you know much about them?**
"Some,"
said Elrelet. "But I thought you were going to concentrate on fire
demons."
"I
don't know. Any of them would be valuable, I'm sure."
"You'll
begin casting your rings soon. You must choose."
"Fire
demons would be the easiest, of course. Gildrum has taught me more about them
than all the others combined. Still, I would wish a few of each."
"Each?
No human being has ever commanded more than two kinds; few more than one."
"I
think I will need all four kinds for my purpose."
"I
would think... fire demons." -
"Fight
like with like? No, I think that would be a mistake."
"You'll
not snuff Rezhyk's fire demons with your water demons, nor freeze them
either."
"Perhaps
not, but I will be flexible, and Lord Rezhyk will not. That may turn out to be
my one advantage. Can you persuade some ice and water folk to visit me?"
"I
don't think they'll require my persuasion. They'll
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come to
see the human at last. You have only to be patient and to continue your
studies."
Cray
grinned, fingering his book, "You are an unrelenting taskmaster, Elrelet,
and a true friend to Gildrum."
The
cloud sighed, like a soft breeze rustling leaves. "I try to be."
CHAPTER
SIXTEEN
They
did come hi their own good time—spheres of liquid large as bears, milky,
opalescent; and giant snowfiakes like stars made of glittering openwork lace,
with needle-sharp spicules sprouting in every direction. And not only ice and
water demons came, but fire as well, blobs of flame from candlelights to
roaring conflagrations passed by the house with invisible walls. Cray could
hardly look up from his books without seeing some unhuman being floating in the
blue, glowing by its own light or reflecting the luminosity of Air from a
pearl-smooth or crystalline surface. Elrelet told him that all these visitors
were Free, not a slave among them. And the Free of Air continued to pay their
visits, more frequently than ever, skittering about the other demons, bumping
into them sometimes, and starting what Elrelet referred to as "differences
of opinion." These arguments were silent, to Cray's ears, but they
involved considerable wild motion.
"They're
an unruly company, our Free," Elrelet admitted. "Perhaps that is one
of the reasons why we see so few travelers from the other domains."
Cray
tried to keep to his studies, but sometimes,
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watching
the cloudlike Free, he yearned to go out and join them. They still called to
him, laughing, caroming their cube off the invisible walls. They seemed more
curious now than dangerous, like playful puppies tumbling and yipping in the
summer grass. Cray smiled at them as they puffed in and out of visibility,
chasing the cube, each other, and any other demons that happened to be near.
And when one of them executed a particularly intricate maneuver in his full
sight, Cray understood that it was flaunting itself especially for
him.
"Do
they never tire of me?" Cray said to Elrelet. "I know it's the same
group over and over again. I recognize their voices."
"It
is the same group. Don't you realize that they're trying to distract you? They
don't want you to have a chance to capture any of them."
"I
would not keep them long, if I did capture any
of
them."
"You
might possibly convince me of that/' said Elrelet. "But not them. They
would never trust a human's word."
"Haven't
I convinced you already, Elrelet?"
The
demon hesitated and then very softly said, 'Tm not sure. Truly, Cray, I
understand that you mean well now, or you think you mean well, but who can say
how you will feel when your hands are covered with rings?"
"I
have convinced Gildrum!"
"Gildrum
does not care about anything but Gildrum right now. If freedom meant the
enslavement of a thousand demons, Gildrum would accept that gladly. And what
demon, with the opportunity for freedom, would think differently? Not one of
the players of the game, certainly."
"But
you. You feel differently."
"And
so did Gildrum once. We thought that helping to enslave our fellow demons was
the most terrible part of our own slavery. Yet now I help GUdrum to help you
enslave." A gust of air was Elrelet's sigh. "I can't say what is
right and what is wrong, Cray. Only that my friend asked for aid, and I am able
to give it"
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*1
swear to you, Elrelet—"
"Don't
swear. You will do what you wfll do. I only hope that you are able to
accomplish what Gildrum wishes."
"I
shall try," said Cray. He smiled ruefully. "After all... my life
depends on it."
Yet,
though his lif e did depend on it, he grew restless with the study of sorcery,
with the seemingly endless supply of information that Gildrum provided him. He
saw Rezhyk's fire demon rarely now, only long enough to receive a few scant
words of encouragement and fresh volumes of lore. Often even these were
transmitted through Elrelet. Rezhyk, Cray was told, was keeping his servant
busy.
One
day—as Cray had come to think of those periods of time in which he was awake—he
threw the books aside and summoned Yra, who had been given Elrelet's permission
to enter the house at its master's command. The Free were at play outside, Elrelet
was away on some errand, and Cray felt a great need for activity.
"Come,
Yra," he said, "I have been too long lazing with these books. My
muscles grow flabby and weak with disuse. Bring me some clay and I shall give
you another form to suit my need for a sporting companion. And borrow me a
kiln, too, from some potter of my world, big enough to house a man. And mark
you it has never been used for sorcery before."
"A
kiln, my lord? Where will I find such a thing? I am not traveled in the human
world, my lord. You must instruct me."
Cray
frowned at his servant. "Well, I must confess that I cannot. I know only
Lord Rezhyk's kiln, and of course that is not available to us. We shall have to
wait for Elrelet's return, I suppose, and ask for one then, but I can tell you
of the clay. Do you know what clay is, Yra?" "No, my lord."
"Well,
the kind I am thinking of is reddish in color, a sort of soil that has a sticky
quality, of which pottery is made. There is a considerable amount of it exposed
in the east bank of a river that runs near Spinweb. I
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saw it
often as a child. Do you know where Spinwcb lies?'*
"No,
my lord."
"What
landmarks do you know in the human world?"
"Ringforge,
my lord, where you summoned me."
Cray's
brow knit lighter. "Even I would be hard pressed to find Spinweb from
there. You would be flying, though ... if you went eastward you would strike
the river, surely, and then need only follow it south till you sighted the
towers of Spinweb." He nodded, more to himself than to Yra. "Yes, do
that. Go east from Ringforge to the river and then follow it south. But don't
be fooled by smaller streams; you will know the river from its width—twenty
humans with joined hands would scarcely span it. When you see Spinweb near,
begin searching the east bank of the river for reddish soil, and bring me back
enough of that to make a person of my own size."
"My
lord... what is 'east'?"
"Why...
east, toward the rising sun."
"And
what is the rising sun?"
*The
sun, Yra, the sun at dawn.1*
"What
is the sun, my lord?"
Cray
stared open-mouthed at the blob of light, so tike a sun itself in miniature.
"Have you never seen the sun?"
"No,
my lord."
"But
how can that be?"
Very
softly, Yra replied, "I am very young, my lord."
Cray
crossed his arms, tapping with one index finger on the large muscle of his left
shoulder. "Yra," he said, "how often have you been to the human
world?"
"As
often as you summoned me, my lord."
"And...
inside the walls of Ringforge only?"
"Yes,
my lord, only there."
"Do
you know what a tree is?"
"No,
my lord."
Cray
sighed. "You have never seen a tree, or a rock, or a river, or any other
human beyond me?"
"I
have seen rivers, my lord, in Fire."
"Not
rivers of water?"
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"No,
my lord. Are there such things in the human world?"
"Oh,
yes. But they flow upon the ground, not through the sky.p He shook his head.
"Never mind, Yra. Never mind about the clay. We shall both wait for
EIrelet's return. Perhaps some other time . . . perhaps when I am back in my
own world, I will teach you about it" "Yes, my lord."
While
they waited, Cray pulled his sword and shield from the saddlebags where they
had nestled since his arrival in Air and began very carefully to practice his
swordsmanship. He discovered that while he was adept at moving his own body
about in a world without weight, the use of the sword and shield was not as
simple as he had expected. Still, he learned to compensate for their bulk, for
the way they changed his balance and set him tumbling. And he learned that the
shield made an excellent oar.
The
Free crowded about EIrelet's house while Cray slashed at nothingness, their
cloud forms small as cabbages, looking like so many children peeping from
behind curtains at their elders' business. The game had halted, as well as the
noise that usually marked their presence. Cray ignored them.
When
EIrelet returned, Hie demon was perplexed at Cray's activities. "In what
way will the sword and shield help you make rings and conjure demons?"
"In
no way at all," Cray said, his breath coming fast from much exercise.
"But they will keep me from going mad with study. Even at Ringforge I took
them up when I needed a change from the exercises of the mind."
"Gildrum,
I think, would not be pleased seeing you thus."
Cray
grinned. "Very well, my host. I have some sorcerous work planned and was
only waiting for your help before beginning."
"How
may I assist you? Fetch ore, the oven, the tools for casting already?"
"No,
no, not yet. I would create a new form for my servant here, and for that I need
clay and a kiln never used for sorcery."
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"Ah,"
said Elrelet "And your little demon is too innocent to find them."
"Precisely."
"Very
well. This is a skill you will need to practice, and if you wish a change from
study, I can think of no more useful one. I shall return shortly." The
miniature thunderhead dwindled before Cray's eyes, to the size of his fist, to
the size of his thumb, to nothing. It was gone scarcely a score of heartbeats.
Reappearing as a mere speck, it grew quickly, surpassed its usual dimensions,
pushing Cray aside with gentle bumps, until it was a sphere with volume eight
or ten times that of Cray's body. A hole appeared in the surface of the cloud
sphere closest to Cray, tiny enough to admit a finger at first but growing
steadily till he saw that the cloud was a mere shell encompassing something
else: a brick kiln. Elrelet withdrew completely, compact now in the thunderhead
shape, and with one slim tentacle of cloud, the demon pulled the kiln door open
to expose a mass of red clay—more than enough for the sculpting of a full-size
human figure—and a number of sculptor's implements..
"I
presumed you might want some tools as well," Elrelet said. "They are
my master's, but I think he won't miss them. He hardly ever does any modeling
these days, and I left him a few things in case he should change his
mind."
"I
thank you," said Cray, pulling at the clay, which
floated
from its container in one large, irregularly
shaped
mass. It was cold and stiff between bis hands.
"Have
you ever worked with clay before?" asked
Elrelet.
"Only
as a child—small things, bowls, toy figures, a fish or two. I recall that my
mother praised the
fish."
"And
do you intend to make a fish form for Yra?" "No, a human form. Or at
least a human semblance."
Elrelet
laughed softly. "You would be wise to start
with
something simpler."
"I
don't want something simpler."
"Then
this should be most interesting.**
Cray
broke a small piece off the mass of clay and
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rolled
it between his hands until it warmed and became malleable. Then bit by bit,
following the instructions that Gildnim had left in one of his notebooks, he
added to the piece, building up a core of clay, roughing out the form of a
human body—trunk, head, limbs. The figure grew quickly at first, then more
gradually as he began to tire of kneading and pressing the form between his
hands. He paused to eat, to sleep, to glance again at his studies, but only
till his arms were rested, and then he resumed work on the clay. He had used up
most of it by the time he judged the figure large enough.
"One
of the arms is longer than the other," said Elrelet.
Cray
nipped the offending extra length away. "That is the least of my
worries," he muttered. He had begun to realize how difficult a task he had
set himself. The shape was approximately human, but though he had used his own
body for reference, he was not skilled enough to copy the contours properly.
Nor could he make the face anything but a mockery of humanity, with a blob for
a nose, eyes like pits, and hair a squared-off block. The more he worked, the
more he had to admire Rezhyk's abilities; he would never have
guessed that any
of the bodies
that Gildrum had worn in his sight could have been sculpture come to
life. At last Cray ceased his molding, his carving, his additions and
subtractions, knowing that a better likeness did not now lie within his power.
He took up the big square wooden frame strung with the single fine wire, the
wire that Elrelet's master had probably used a hundred times, and he sliced the
body into pieces—the head, the limbs, the torso, all separate. Then he sliced
each section vertically into halves and hollowed them out, rejoining them
carefully, smoothing the seams out, until he had a whole statue once more. He
had left two holes in the figure, one in the right foot and one in the upper
back, as vents.
"Now
we are ready," he said to Yra, carefully clasping the larger of his rings
on the upper arm of the statue. Gently, he pushed it into the kiln. He
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swam
away then, to the farthest wall. "I command you to enter this body."
Yra
expanded a trifle, its glow turning to more evident, licking flame, and it
swooped into the kiln. The figure began to glow as soon as the demon touched
it, red first, then yellow, then white, illuminating the surrounding bricks
with a harsh glare. The color faded gradually after that peak, back to red and
even dimmer, until the light pouring into the kiln from the luminosity of Air
was greater than any radiated by the figure. Yra's new body twitched slightly,
as the demon flexed its new muscles, and terra-cotta powder burst from it,
bouncing from the walls like so much flour caught in a gust of wind. Some of it
floated from the open door, and more followed, trailing after Yra as the demon
stepped out of the kiln.
Cray
tried to wave the powder away from himself with one hand, but the turbulence
caused by his gesture merely brought more powder to him. He sneezed several
times, then covered his mouth and nose with the slack of his sleeve. "Get
rid of it, Yra!" he
shouted.
Behind
him, Elrelet laughed. "I suggest you tell your slave to toss the powder
into one of the lava rivers of Fire."
"Do
that, Yra,M said Cray.
The
humanlike figure vanished then, as if it had never existed, replaced by the
flames of the demon, which raced about Elrelet's house, scooping up the powder
like a damp cloth collecting dust. When it was all gathered up, hidden within
the demon's flame, Yra soared out the door and dwindled rapidly in the
distance.
Gray
swam to the kiln. In front of its doorway, where Yra had 'transformed to the
ball of flame, floated the ring that the statue had worn. Cray slipped it over
bis own wrist to carry it to the alcove and deposit it in one of his
saddlebags. By the time he had done that, Yra was back.
"Shall
I resume the new form, my lord?" the demon
asked.
"Yes," said Gray. "I've barely had a chance to see
you in
if
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Hie
flame lost its roundness in favor of an elongated spindle shape which sprouted
limbs of flame and then coalesced into the solid shape that Cray had fashioned.
The flesh, of a reddish hue, was smoother even than the clay had been, and no
seams showed where the parts had been reassembled. Cray sighed. Only a heavy
cloak with a deep hood, he knew, would allow this creature to pass unnoticed
among mortals. "Well," said Cray, "I was not expecting my first
attempt to yield untrammeled success. Come, Yra, let's see how those awkward
arms hold a sword and shield.'* In the alcove once more, at the bottom of one
of his saddlebags, well-swathed in cloth, he found the corroded armaments that
Gildrum had carried as the young knight Rust was thick on the steel surfaces;
it smeared off on his hands when he touched them, floating like a spray of
darker terra-cotta in the still air of the alcove. Cray tossed the sword and
shield toward Yra, instructing the demon to catch them. He remained in the
alcove a little longer, to gather up his own sword and shield and his suit of
chain.
He had
not worn it in years, of course. Even the padding felt strange to him, close
and warm against his skin. It had no weight, though, nor did the chain, and he
was amused to see the skirt, below his belt, float upward with one of his
motions, as if it had been made of thinnest gossamer. He found a few leather
thongs among his bags and laced them through some Links of chain, to keep the
flapping hem under control He donned his helm.
Yra
held the sword and shield under one arm, like parcels waiting to be passed to
someone else. Cray showed the demon a proper grip on the sword hilt and slipped
the shield into place for it.
Yra
gazed at its own arms and at Cray's with some curiosity. "What are these
tilings, my lord?"
"This
is a sword," said Cray, "and this is a shield. With the sword you
will try to stab or slash me, and with the shield you will ward off my
stabbings and slashings. It's quite simple, really. Look, I'll show you."
Very slowly, he raised his own sword and cut at Yra's shield; the blade met the
rusty steel surface and rebounded, driving Cray backward along with it Sris~
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soring
his legs, Cray returned to Yra and stabbed the demon lightly in the stomach.
The point did not penetrate the demon's skin but sprang away; this time Cray
was more ready and he did not drift as far.
Elrelet
said, "You cannot harm the demon body, Cray, but Yra can hurt you."
"That
is what my shield and chain are for. Come, Yra, strike me. But gently."
Yra
stared at him. "I have heard, my lord, that humans are quite fragile. This
blade is sharp as an ice demon. Will you be harmed if it pierces you?"
"I will," said Cray.
'Then I
cannot use it, my lord. A slave may not harm the master."
"I
don't wish you to harm me, Yra. This is a sport, not a war. We will spar, no
more. You will aim youi blows at my shield and I will aim mine at yours."
"A sport?" said Yra.
"A
game, you against me. You know what a game is."
"Yra
knows one game," said Elrelet "Well, imagine that game, then,"
said Cray, "but without any wagers."
"What
would be the use,*1 said Yra, "of playing the game without wagers?"
"Just
for the joy of playing." Cray shrugged, grinning. "No, I suppose the
joy is bound up in the wagering for you demons. Well, there are other kinds of
games, and this is one of them. Strike at me with your sword. Go on, strike,
Yra."
Hesitantly,
the demon made a clumsy sweep at Cray's shield; Cray did not even have to move
to deflect it. Yra floated slowly sideways with the force of the blow.
"You
can do better than that, demon slave," said Cray. "Try something more
like this." He slashed toward the demon's legs, but when Yra made no move
with the shield, Cray twisted his arm and let the stroke slide past. "You
mustn't let the blade touch you," he said, "If it touches you, you
lose the game. That's what the shield is for* to keep the blade from your body.
Your turn now."
This
time Yra jabbed toward Cray's waisf, and Cray
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tapped
the blade away with one edge of the shield. He could see, though, that the jab
would have ended short of his skin, far short.
"Better,"
said Cray. "Better, but it must be better still." He slashed toward
Yra's head, and the demon raised its shield clumsily to ward off the blow;
chips of rust flew when Cray's blade touched that tired old surface, and the
strap that held it to the demon's arm snapped, rotten after fifteen years of
rain and snow. Elrelet hastened to the human world for replacements, fresh,
shining arms that any knight would be proud to bear. Yra admired their sheen,
"tike the surface of Ice where Water meets it"
Cray
spent the rest of his waking day laboriously instructing his demon in the
rudiments of swofdplay. By the time he was exhausted, he had learned that the
demon could handle a humanlike body without weight far better than he could but
that, in spite of such skill, Yra was a dismal failure at single combat.
"Still,"
Cray said, "it is better than fighting a wooden post"
The
Free, who had not left their places at the invisible walls since Cray's strange
activities had begun, whose numbers had in fact augmented with the pass-big of
time, were still there when Elrelet darkened the walls for Cray's sleep. And
they were there still, or again, scattered about the walls tike water lilies on
a pond, when those walls waxed transparent with Cray's wakening.
"Human,"
said one of them with a deep voice like distant thunder. "Human, what is
this you do with your demon?"
"You
heard my explanation," Cray said, yawning and stretching,
"All
humans spend their time in this manner?** asked the demon.
"Many,"
said Cray. "It has a certain popularity." "We would see more of
it," said another demon. "Well, you may go to my world and seek it
out if you tike."
The
clouds shrank, drew together into a knot, physically cringing from his
suggestion. "Time enough to
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go to
the human world,** said one of them in a high-pitched, breathy wail, "when
we are summoned."
"Well,
I must return to my studies,*' Cray said. "I can't spend all my time in
pleasure, much as the thought appeals to me.**
"Will
you play this game again soon?'* inquired the deep voice.
"I
don*t know. Sometime.** Cray swam to the alcove, selected a book from among the
many floating there.
"We
would watch again," said the demon.
Cray
smiled toward the voice. "I don*t believe in overtaxing my slaves. Yra has
served sufficiently for now and deserves a rest. Don't you think so?"
A wind,
like the night breeze about tall towers, whistled among them, and they said
nothing more. Cray focused Ms attention on the book in his hands, and when he
glanced up again, the Free were no longer visible. He inquired of Elrelet soon
afterward and was told that they had gone.
"And
glad I am to see an end to them, if only for a little while," said
Elrelet. "I lived a quiet life until you came to me. The Free have never
paid so much attention to my home as they do now.**
"Well,
they've failed hi distracting me," said Cray. "I think, rather, that
I have distracted them"
"From
the game, yes. And that is not a bad thing, Cray. I have often wished the game
could be abolished; and there are many other slaves who, looking back on their
own lives, wish it had never existed."
"Steal
the cubes," said Cray. "They would at least play less often if they
had to keep taking time to replace them. They might become discouraged
altogether.*'
Elrelet
chuckled softly, and a small piece of cloud detached itself from the demon's
body and floated toward Cray's face, halting a short distance from bis nose. In
a moment it had lost its rounded formlessness and solidified into a fist-sized
gray cube with characters on every face. 'It is only air," said Elrelet.
It turned slowly before Cray's eyes, displaying all its sides and then abruptly
swooped back to the demon
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and
merged there, cloud once more, indistinguishable from the parent body.
"You
are more versatile than I thought," Cray said. "We have our bodies,
and we have Air itself," said Elrelet. "They are enough for our
needs.'* The demon expanded slightly and streamed toward the kiln, wrapping a
tendril of cloud about it. "Will you be using this again soon, or can I
remove it to some less conspicuous place?"
"The
clutter of material objects doesn't please you, does it, Elrelet?**
"I
must confess it does not. I prefer comfortable emptiness, myself.*'
"Move
it, then. 1*11 not need it soon. In fact, I may not use it again—I'm not sure.
A smaller furnace will do for smelting the rings, and I have been thinking of
working with the other sorts of demons, that need no kilns for entering their
new bodies.**
**You
would do well to keep it, Cray," said Elrelet. "You may not need
containment for the heat if you work with the other sorts of demons, but you
will need protection from the violence of their transformations.**
"Is
there so much violence?*'
"Not
from water demons. They only soak the clay until it sloughs away as muddy
water. But we air demons erode the clay from within, and when we reach die
surface, we spray a fine powder of terra-cotta like a desert sandstorm. And the
ice demons, who freeze the form until it is brittle, shatter the clay with
considerable force, too. You could be injured if you were struck."
"Ah,
but what demon would harm its master so?**
"Inadvertently," said
Elrelet. "I know
of one
demon-master
who carries scars to this day and curses
every
time he sees his reflection. Your mother, I think,
.would
also be unhappy if you were scarred. The bricks
of the
kiln, you see, can protect you from more than
;heat."
"Very
well,*' said Cray. "I will remember your ad-ice." He grinned.
"Your many pieces of advice." You were warned,'* said Elrelet "I
am an endless
•rce."
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"No
wonder the Free seldom came near your house before I arrived."
"True
enough,'* said Elrelet, "although none of them ever listened as carefully
as you." The tendril of cloud tightened about the kiln and swung it slowly
toward one wall, pressed it there, slithered across the bricks, and pulled
away. The kiln remained still, as if nailed to invisibility. "This is
another alcove, like the one you use for your possessions. It will cushion you
if you should happen to strike it. Better than bare bricks for soft human
flesh." The tendril disappeared into Elrelet's body. "You spoke of
smelting rings. Are you near ready for that now? I can fetch the ores and
implements immediately, if you wish."
"No,
no," Cray said. "I would not have you clutter your house further,
with no real need. I am not, ready. Do you wish I were?"
"I
wish this whole terrible business were finished."
"Is
it so terrible, Elrelet?"
"It
will be, I think. And I am glad that I will not be involved hi the battle
itself."
Cray
sighed. "Perhaps you had best bring me a little ore now, just a little,
and a quern. It will take time to grind all I need, and I might as well begin
as soon as possible."
"As
you wish, Cray."
When
the demon had gone, Cray covered his face with his hands. He rubbed at his
skin, as if to wipe away the age and exhaustion he felt there. He had lost
track of time completely, could not guess how many weightless sleeps he had
known, how many days measured only by his own wakefulness. A lifetime?
Sometimes it seemed so, especially when he counted the books he had read, the
pages he had written, the constant repetition of words and gestures that made
the heartbeats that were his only measure of time beyond sleep blur into one
another.
He
pulled his hands from Ms cheeks and looked at them. They were smooth and
sinewy, not an old man's hands, not liver-spotted or clawlike, no veins
standing out like blue ropes. They were young hands, and he had to smile at
them, but only softly, only the slightest
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flick
of the corner of the mouth. His hands were young. It was his heart that was
old.
Cray
had slept by the time Elrelet returned wtth a canvas bag of greenish ore, the
fragments small, about the size of lentils.
"Where
did you find this?" Cray asked. "It looks to be of high
quality."
"So
you know copper ore?" said Elrelet. "Oh, yes, I know copper very
well. For gold and silver I shall have to trust your judgment, but I know
copper only too well. And tin, which I hope I shall never have to use
again."
"I
found this in one of the richest mines of the human world."
"And
you have done nothing to alter its purity?" "Nothing. I merely
removed it from the mine floor, where It had been left by human miners as being
too insignificant to remove. I then transported it to you. I knew my task,
Cray. I served my master in the very same way, and he always made fine
rings."
"Very
wen. I'm sure you know as much about this part as I do. Where is the
quern?"
A
wooden box, roughly cube-shaped; with a crank handle protruding from one side,
floated out of the cloud that was Elrelet. A cord was looped about the thing,
and Cray caught at the free end and tethered it to his belt. It was a small
quern, of the sort commonly used for grinding salt He opened its lid and coaxed
a handful of the ore Inside, slamming the lid shut before the greenish
fragments could rebound from the innards of the quern, and float back out He
commenced to crank the handle with the slow, steady rhythm that Rezhyk had
taught him—one of the few things, be had discovered, that Rezhyk had taught him
properly. The ore yielded with less alacrity than an equal amount of salt, and
Cray opened a book to read while he kept up the regular circular motion.
Occasionally he switched hands.
When
both his mind and his arm were tired, he shoved quern and book aside to
stretah. Then, to loosen his stiffening sinews, he took up the sword, called
for Yra, and lost himself in mock combat. The wider, more sweeping motion
required by swordplay
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limbered
muscles tightened up by the close work of grinding, and he cut, slashed, and
thrust till he was breathless and sweating, till the pulse pounded in his ears
and beat at the inside of his chest. Yra, of course, betrayed no evidence of
fatigue, but halted at Cray's command.
He had
not noticed when the Free first began to gather, but when he relaxed, opened
his hand and let the sword float free of his flexing fingers, he realized that
they were crowded about the invisible walls once more. They murmured their
greetings, and one of them said, "Will you go on?"
"Sorry,"
Cray replied. "I've no more strength left right now."
"We
would like to see more."
"Well,"
you shan't. Come back another tune."
They
withdrew, grumbling, and Cray dismissed Yra and sought the restoration of
sleep.
After
he woke, after he ate, after he had resumed grinding the green copper ore, the
Free returned. They hovered silently beyond the boundaries of Elrelet's house,
while Cray devoted his entire attention to his books and the steady cranking of
the quern. He knew they were there, saw then* movement from the corner of his
eye, but he ignored them until something familiar about their motions drew his
notice at last. ,
They
had separated into pairs, faced off, and the pairs—though still clouds—had
assumed vague human shapes, with puffs for arms and legs. On one arm of each
cloud-person hung a rigid form, more solid to a human eye than the cloud
itself—a sheet of hardened substance, as the cube had been hardened from the
stuff of cloud. A shield. The other arm, which terminated in a stubby fist,
grasped a thick rod of dull gray: a sword.
Cray
had to laugh at the bobbing air demons pretending to be knights.
"Do
we play so badly?" asked one of the demons.
Cray
nodded. "As badly as small children with their first wooden weapons."
One of
the demons suddenly slashed at an opponent and cut the cloud-body in half; the
halves rejoined almost immediately. "We will improve," said the
victo-
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nous
demon. "Like th« other game, this one dnly requires practice/'
'True
enough," Cray said, and he returned to his books and the quern.
Elrelet
brought silver.—gray-black pellets without a hint of sheen—and gold-bearing
quartz that sparkled and glutted. Cray had ground them all l»ng before he was
ready to put them to use. Blrelet's impatience waxed.
"Do
you know something that Gildrum & keeping from me?1* Cray asked his host
"Some reason that time is growing short?"
Elretet
spewed out a flock of cloudlets that raced around the room, caroming off the
walls. "No. No, But I wish they would go away.*1
Cray
grinned. "I find them amusing. They are so clumsy,"
"There
will be no peace for me as long a»y>u are here.1"
Cray
hesitated. "Is there somewhere else* can go?"
The
cloudlets flashed back to they parent body.
"Nowhere
as safe as this. No, Cray Ormoru, you won't go somewhere else. Gildrum gave you
into my keeping, and I must endure that responsibility. But my other friends
avoid me now. They won't come here while the Free are so close."
'Then
you must go to them.**
"I
must watch over you! That comes first**
"I
am sorry.**
The
visits from inhabitants of other domains had continued, and Cray had grown used
to glancing up from his book and seeing not only a crowd of the Free of Air but
the stariike shapes of demons from Ice, the glow of dwellers of Fire, the milky
pearls that were the water folk. They had formerly been few, though, no more
than one or two at any one time; now that the Free of Air had taken up arms,
the others arrived more often, left more seldom. They seemed more interested in
the air demons than in. Cray, the human • being. They would float about the
periphery of the ^battlefield, which was a sprawling territory centered on
Elrelet's house. In clusters they would dance through
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nothingness,
moving as the nearest combatants moved, as if to maintain a good view of the
fighting.
Once,
Cray looked up from his studies, and a pair of ice demons had faced off, all
their spurs but one retracted, thrusting and slashing with that one as with a
sword. Not long after that, the fire and water demons took on armed shapes and
challenged each other. And eventually, the combat became mixed, ice against
water, fire against air, every possible permutation. The air about Elrelet's
house was filled with motion, as if a dozen flocks of birds had chosen to roost
there.
"There's
talk of wagering now," said Elrelet "Of using this to replace the
game. The novelty of it appeals to them."
Cray
shook his head. **WelI, they are all equally bad at it. If their strength and
weapons were on a human scale, a decent man-at-arms of my world would lay waste
to the whole lot in short order."
A noise
quite close to Cray, like a quarterstaff striking the bole of an oak, made him
start. He turned toward the sound and saw an air demon floating just beyond the
nearest wall, hardly more than an arm's length away; its cloud sword was
raised, and as Cray watched, it struck the wall a second solid blow.
"I
challenge you, human!" it shouted. "I will use strength and weapons
no better than yours. Show me what a decent man-at-arms of your world can do!
Or are you something less?"
"I
am something more," Cray replied mildly. "But I am not here to accept
challenges of any sort."
"I
have vanquished half a dozen already," said the demon. "I am ready
for you!"
"I
think not," said Cray.
"You
are afraid of me!"
"No,
not if you abide by your offer and limit yourself to ordinary steel and mortal
muscle^—if you pit your skill against mine and not your power."
"I
swear it. Come then!"
"Yes,
yes!" shouted the other Free, in all manner of voices.
Cray
smiled. "You'll need more than this short practice if you mean to face
me."
"You
are afraid!"
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Cray's
smile faded away. "Very well,*' he said. "1 will fight you."
"No!"
cried Elrelet. "Your sword can't harm a demon, but the demon's sword can
kill you!"
"Don't
worry about me," Cray said, swimming to the alcove where his arms waited.
"I
have to worry! How will I ever face Gildrum again if something happens to
you?" "Tell her it was my own idea." "I won't allow
it!"
Cray
slipped his shirt of chain over his head. "I know what I'm doing."
"No
you don't! Even if you win, the others will scramble to fight you next. You'll
have to beat every one of them." "I think I could do that."
"But it will waste so much time!" "I'll try to be quick."
The
miniature thunderhead expanded to twice its usual size and darkened, and tiny
flickers of lightning showed in its depths. "I forbid it!" said
Elrelet.
Cray
held his helm between his hands, staring at it meditatively. Then he raised his
eyes to his host "You forbid it?" "Yes!"
'Then I
shall have to cease my studies, Elrelet, and teH Gildrum that it is your
fault." "Gildrum would agree with me!" "I shall study no
more. I shall stay in the demon world forever. Actually, I find it a very pleasant place."
Elrelet's
voice was low. "You won't find it so pleasant if you never eat
again."
"You
told me yourself that I have no need for food here, that I only eat from
habit." "Cray!"
"I
must do this, Elrelet. Don't you realize that they will never leave me alone
until I do? They'll stay at the walls, trying their best to keep me from my
studies, taunting me, shouting. Let me do this and be done ; with it. Even if I
have to beat every one of them." i
The thunderhead rumbled like a dog growling at fa stranger. "This
is foolish."
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"Yes,"
said Cray. "Will you watch for me, Elrelet, and make sure the fight is
fair?"
"Yes.
Yes." Elrelet shrank, staying dark and ominous. Then it raced to the
nearest door and waited there for Cray to gather his arms and come on.
Cray
Boated from Elrelet's house, and immediately the Free drew back and formed a
sphere about him and his challenger. Cray inspected his opposition, a cloud of
the approximate dimensions of a heavy* thewed man, tall, broad of girth. The
legs were mere stumps at the bottom of the long torso, but the arms were
well-proportioned, with three fingers on each hand. The shield was a duplicate
in shape of Cray's own, and the sword was the same length, though a trifle
thicker and blunter. As Cray raised his own weapon in salute, the demon's sword
slimmed and sharpened to a better likeness.
"What
are your rules among yourselves?** asked Cray.
"There
is only one—that the blow which cuts the demon through wins the match."
"I
accept that," said Cray, "only if one or the other of us may also
yield if the fight is going against him. I assure you, I would much rather
yield than be cut in two."
"You
look forward to losing already, human?" **No, but one can never tell
what may happen. I don't want this to be a fight to the death. I will die, you
know, if you cut me through."
"I
have heard that humans are so fragile,*' said the demon. "Very well—you
may yield if you wish, and I will be the winner. But I shall not yield."
"I would not expect it. Shall we begin?" They circled each other
warily, each waiting for the other to strike the first blow, neither willing to
make that commitment. Cray fell easily into the proper frame of mind, treating
his opponent with the respect due danger, not the lighter attitude of one who
participates in a sport. He had trained for this at Mistwell, with seasoned
veterans behind the opposing sword and shield, men who were not afraid to deal
out maiming injuries to their students. Only the best had dared to
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fight
those teachers, and by the end of his winter season at Mistwell, Cray had won
their respect.
He had
never fought for blood in a world without weight. There would be no blood on
his sword this day, whether he won or not; his only care was that there be none
on the demon's either.
He
crouched in the blue sphere that was clear save for himself and his opponent.
He crouched to make himself a smaller target, to draw his legs out of
temptation's way. Scooping air with the shield as an oar, he turned slowly, and
the demon turned, too, as if they were two weights at either end of a
weathervane. The demon struck, a sweeping blow at waist level. Cray deflected
it easily with his shield, and as he sailed
to one side from the
force of that
blow, he jabbed experimentally at the demon's torso. He did not mean the
thrust to be of any significance, just a feint to test his opponent's reflexes,
and he was satisfied by the slowness of response to it; he touched the merest
surface of the cloud, where thigh would be on human being, before the
demon could bring
his shield down and slide one edge along the blade to push it away. The
sword would have bitten deep had there been any real force behind it. Cray
backed off, pedaling with his feet, then ducked low with a sharp jerk of his
shield, his body drawn up as small as possible, only his sword arm lifted away,
back, for a slash. Before the demon could tilt to meet his attadk, he had
cloven it in two from groin to shoulder. The two halves floated apart, letting
go the sword and shield, which lost their sharp-edged shape and became cloud
once more. The four cloud masses united into an irregular form like a sack of
cabbages. "I yield," said the demon.
Cray
stretched his limbs slowly. "When I was as new at the art as. you are
now," he said, "I, too, thought I had some skill. Later, when I was
pitted against better fighters, I learned how little I knew.*' "Teach
me," said the demon.
Cray
stripped off his helm and shook his head. "I have no time."
"Yes,
yes, teach us!" cried the demons who marked the sphere of combat. So many
shouted that Cray
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could
barely make out their words, the/ mov^d a trifle closer to him, shrinking the
sphere, and Elrelet slid to Cray's side, dark and rumbling, as a warning for
them to stop. "Teach us," they murmured. "Teach us."
"I
cannot," he said. "My studies are too important for me to spend my
time in teaching demons the techniques of human combat."
"Your
studies are only important to Gildnun!" shouted the demon who had been
Cray's opponent. "Gildnun cares nothing for us! Gildrum will be freed and
we will be the ones to suffer!"
"Any
demon I enslave will be freed immediately after Gildrum is."
"So
you say," said the air demon. "But why should we believe you?"
"I
swear it."
"A
human's vow. What is it worth?"
"As
much as a demon's."
The
demons muttered among themselves, and then one of them in the distance, one
with the crackling voice of an inhabitant of Ice, said, "And if Gildrum is
not freed? If you fail? What will happen to your slaves then?*'
"They'll
be as free as you are, of course," said Cray, "because I'll be
dead."
There
was silence then, and after a long moment, an air demon whispered, "You
would fight to the death for a demon?"
"I
must," said Cray. "Lord Rezhyk ordered my death; when he discovers I
live, he won't rest till his wish is carried out."
"But
you could stay here," said another demon, a very faint voice. "You
would be safe here forever."
"Would
you stay in the human world forever if there were some chance of returning
home?"
"No,
no, no," echoed about him, voice upon voice.
"Then
I must do what I must do. And I have little time for play." He glanced at
Elrelet. "I have spent enough away from my studies for now. Shall we go
hi?"
Elrelet
swooped toward the nearest door, and Cray, using the shield as his paddle,
followed. But at the
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opening
he turned, clinging to the invisible jamb. The demons had closed ranks behind
him, edging closer, jostling one another with their swords and shields of
cloud; almost, they looked as if they wanted to follow him inside, which was
impossible without Elrelet's permission.
"Will
you have time later?" asked one of them. Cray looked out at them, his eyes
skimming from one side of the group to the other. The air demons, in their own
element, hovered closest; the scattering of ice and fire and water demons
danced beyond, like children trying to catch a glimpse of some great event
between their elders' legs. They had no faces, but he thought he could read
entreaty in their very stance.
"I
can teach you," he said at last, "in return for something."
"What?"
asked the demon he had fought "Your help."
- Some
of the demons murmured to each other, and then one of them said, "What kmd
of help?"
Cray
felt Elrelet's light touch upon his back, and he knew that the demon was
floating behind him, dark and oversized, ready to pull him inside to safety if
the crowd became threatening. "I don't want to enslave any of you,"
Cray said. "I never did. I only wanted an answer to the great question of
my life. I never dreamed where that answer would lead. And now I must enslave
some of you, as many of you as I can, to do what I must do. Unless . . . you
will help me of your own free will.*"
1(Help
you with what?" asked a demon. "Help me defeat Lord Rezhyk." One
demon eased forth from the crowd, and hi a deep, familiar voice said,
"What would you have us do, human—give you our names? Perhaps even make
the rings ourselves that would enslave us? So that you may command us for your
battle with Lord Rezhyk ... and ever afterward? Do you take us for fools?"
"No
rings," said Cray. "I would not command you, only ask you. You would
obey me for the battle only, until Lord Rezhyk was overcome." 'Till he was
dead," said ElreleL Cray pursed his lips. "I had not planned to kill
him."
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"If
you arrange this bargain with the Free instead of making rings, you dare not
let him live. After the battle, you would have no power to prevent him from
killing you.'*
"He
would have no rings, either, when I was finished with him."
"But
how would you prevent him from making fresh oaes? You cannot take his knowledge
away from him."
"I
could imprison him."
"And
worry all your life that he might break free?"
Cray
bowed his head and sighed. "You are right, of course. I had not planned to
kill him . . . yet in my heart, I knew that I would be forced to it. Even with
my hands covered by rings ... my intention was always to free my slaves when
their work was done, and that could not be while Lord Rezhyk lived. So I will
kill him, or he me." He looked up, out at the gathered demons. "Will
you help me?"
The
Free held silent, all their attention on the human being. Cray felt their
silence beat against his ears, in rhythm to the throb of his own bean. When he
had waited for an answer for a time that seemed to stretch past eternity, he
pivoted on the hand that clutched the doorjamb and pushed himself into the
house. "If you will excuse me," he said, "I have work to
do."
He was
well inside, had cast away his sword and shield and helm, had stripped off his.
chain and tossed it, chinking and rattling, into the alcove, when the voice of
his demon opponent called after him.
"Teach
me, human," it said, "and I will join your war."
He
looked over his shoulder, saw the demon, human-shaped again, come forward to
float in the doorway. It had re-formed its sword and shield, and now it Jield
them up as in a salute.
Cray
smiled. "I thank you for your offer, but Lord Rezhyk has many
slaves—perhaps as many as there are Free here before me. And he has a castle of
bronze to hide in, while I have nothing. One demon, no matter how powerful,
will not suffice."
The
demon laughed, a deep, rumbling laugh that
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seemed
to fountain outward from the cloud body, entering the house and bouncing from
wall to invisible wall. The other demons backed off a little from the sound.
'Train me," said the demon, "and I promise you these others will not
stay away. They will not dare allow me to become the greatest champion of this
new game!"
Cray
squinted at the speaker, hesitated a moment, and then said, "Yes. Yes, I
shall tram you, and I welcome whatever help you will give me."
And
suddenly all the other demons were crowding forward, demanding training,
demanding to be allowed to help Cray in his fight against Rezhyk.
'Tell
Gildrum," Cray said to Elrelet, pitching his voice to cany over the tumult
'Tell her I will be ready soon!"
Elrelet
sent a tendril of cloud after the sword, shield, helm, and chain. "You'll
need these," the demon said, guiding them toward Cray. Then, close to his
ear, Elrelet murmured, "You would be wiser to trust to rings."
"You
have no confidence in the promises of the Free?"
"I
don't know. They have never done a human's bidding before. Perhaps they will
balk."
"I
hope they will grow used to it during their training," said Cray.
"Ah,
yes, the training. They will have to do your bidding there, won't they?"
"Yes."
He slipped the chain over his head, donned the helm. "Very well!" he
shouted to the gathered demons, his voice taking on the inflection of the
arms-master of Mistwell, his own teacher. "The first thing you must do is
form a double line along this wall, that I may observe your progress without
difficulty. Go on all of you, go on ... except one—my friend who volunteered. I
shall pair with that one myself, for now."
The
demon he spoke of waited by the doorway while the others organized themselves;
when Cray emerged from the house, he and that one were quite close together.
The demon turned a rudimentary face toward Cray, a face newly formed since
their fight—
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two
depressions for eyes, a lump for a nose, a slit for a mouth. The mouth opened
to speak: "Your friend?"
Cray
grinned. "I hope so."
Behind
them, EIrelet sighed softly.
CHAPTER
SEVENTEEN
She
turned to spiders at last, to find out why he stayed so long in the forest. She
found webs among the leaves and bade their spinners move and spin anew. They
showed her trees, moss, mushrooms, and the thick loam of the forest floor. They
showed her butterflies and honeybees and squirrels and rabbits, and even a
deer, peacefully unaware of watching human eyes. They showed her rain and wind,
sun, moon, and starlight. But not her son.
Gildrum
found Cray drilling his troops. A flickering candle flame in form, the demon
spoke with the voice of the girl with blond braids: "I would feel more
secure if you wore rings. We will have only this one chance, Cray; we must make
the best of it."
"We're
doing well," Cray replied. "Every time I look, there's a new demon in
the tine. And they know that if anything happens to me, they'll get no more
lessons."
The
flame brightened a little. "Perhaps that is the best approach—appeal to
their greed."
"They
are not so different from human beings, Gildrum."
"I
suppose not... in some ways."
"I
have so much to learn about their powers, so much to know before I can use them
as well as Rezhyk
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uses
his. But well be ready soon, I know it. Sooner than I could ever cast enough
rings, Gildrum, especially here, where the lack of weight makes it so much more
difficult than in my own world.**
"The
techniques I explained to you may never have been used before, but I know they
will work.**
"I
don't doubt that. Still, they are complex, and I'm glad I won't need to use
them." He raised his voice momentarily: "Fifth along the line—raise
that shield higher therel"
Gildrum
watched the demons hack at each other for a time, then said, "I can't stay
much longer. My lord received a message from your mother today, and I must
deliver the reply.**
Cray
frowned. "What sort of message?** "She asked if he knew where you had
gone.** "And the reply?"
"That
he sent you back to the Seer long ago and knows no more about you.**
"Shell
ask the Seer next. She'll hear about Gallant turning up without me."
"Fm sure of it.**
"I
must speak to her, Gildrum. She mustn't worry." "I can*t take you
back before you're ready for battle. There is too much danger of him
discovering us." "Take me with you when you deliver the message.**
'Til only leave it by the gate," said Gildrum. "You know I can't enter.**
"Then
leave me there, too. Til speak to her and you can bring me back."
The
flame dimmed, and Gildrum's voice was correspondingly softer. "He keeps a
watch on Spinweb these days. No one can enter without being seen.** "A
watch? Why?**
"He
grows more fearful of your mother every day, Cray.**
"But
why? He thinks I*m dead, he has the golden shirt—why should he fear her at
all?"
"I
don't know. He has become . . . different lately. More difficult, harder to
please, more petulant. He has been conjuring demons more quickly, too, as if
... as if he knows that some great battle looms. Lately he had me strengthen
the walls of Ringforge."
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"But
he can't know,** said Cray. "Or else he would have punished you."
"He
knows . . . something. It has to do with your mother, surely, or why the watch
on her castle? Beyond that, I cannot guess. His mind is closed to me these
days. He used to talk to me as if I were his brother, wife, child; now he
rarely says anything, except to conjure or command. He sleeps in the workshop,
too, when he sleeps. He never leaves it." The flame wavered, compressed.
"Cray, do you know what madness is?*'
Cray
frowned. "You think Lord Rezhyk is mad?**
Gildrum
sighed. "Who am I to judge? Only a demon. Perhaps I am the mad one, at least
by my own people's standards. But mad or sane, I would be free of my lord
Rezhyk. Learn swiftly, Cray. Now that I know it will be soon, I am impatient
beyond belief!"
"I
would not cause her grief, Gildrum!"
*"Nor
would I, Cray. Not again. But ft will be short-lived grief, will it not?"
"As
short-lived as I can manage.**
Under
his guidance, the demons became passable swordsmen. Now their matches lasted
longer and were noisier, as sword clanged against shield time and again, in
fair imitation of steel. The demon whom Cray had called friend had unproved
faster than most, earning Cray's praise and considerable personal attention. In
return, the demon gave Cray instruction in the powers of his kind and convinced
ice, water, and fire demons to do the same. Gradually, Cray began to grasp the
scope of the battle that was to come, and the extent of the forces that Lord
Rezhyk had at his command. And he began to understand why Rezhyk had chosen
fire as his province.
"The
demons of Fire are the best of us all," said Elrelet, "though you'd
find few but them to admit it. Quick, clever, vastly destructive when they wish
to be."
"I
have few of them," said Cray, scanning the sword-swinging Free along the
wall,
"Of
course," said Elrelet "They are much sought after. More of them have
been enslaved than any other kind., I think that must be what makes them so
melancholy; every fire demon knows what the future
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holds.
Perhaps that is why they play the game even more seriously than we of Air. Lord
Rezhyk is well protected, Cray—never doubt that."
"And
you have no confidence in my scheme, have you?"
Elrelet
exhaled a gust of wind. "I know only that a slave must obey the master.
But the Free ... I see only one in all this crowd that has ever known what a
master was. Curiosity, I suppose, has drawn that one to try the new game; it
rejoined the old one as soon as its master died. But will curiosity lure it, or
any of the others, into your battle? I don't know. We shall have to wait till
the moment, and hope. Just now, I wish / were Free. Well, I wish it for the
usual reasons, but in addition because, if I were, I would help you,"
Cray
gazed at the thunderhead no larger than his own body. "Elrelet, you have
given me more than I can ever thank you for. I can think of only one repayment
great enough: when your master dies, come to me and show me how to make the
rings that summon you, and I shall set yon free.**
Elrelet
sighed. "All the more reason for me to wish you hick,"
Rezhyk
had called all of his demons, from the tiniest spark that lit a seldom-used
storeroom to the blazing glory of Gildrum's tike. They filled his workshop with
their light, reflected a hundredfold hi the polished bronze walls, till the
chamber could almost have passed for a corner of Fire itself. In the pulsating
illumination, like the interior of a furnace, yet cool as night air, the rings
Rezhyk wore glittered and flashed with the sharp, tense gestures of his two
hands. In one shaking fist he held a fragment of ivy, its tendrils curling
against his wrist.
**Your
objective," he said in a high-pitched, strident tone, as if he were
speaking to an unruly mob of children instead of a silent throng of slaves,
"is to destroy Castle Spinweb and Detivev Ormoru with it!"
And he
cast the ivy into the brazier, where it puffed away to ash.
She
woke to the acrid smell of smoke. She frowned, 361
blinking
her eyes, rubbing at them with the backs of both hands. The room was dim as
with dawn twilight, and she wondered if she had wakened so early to escape her
dark, disturbing dreams, of Cray lost and calling for her, of herself reaching
for him but unable to cross the infinite gap that separated them. She glanced
toward the fireplace, thinking that a sudden draft had driven soot back down
the chimney and into the bedchamber, but the ashes were cold, with no signs of
disturbance. The smoke trailed in through the window —she could see it there
eddying against the pale stone. She threw the bedclothes aside and went to look
out.
The
forest that surrounded Spinweb was ablaze.
The sun
was high, the time full day, but gouts of thick black smoke veiled the bright
sky, and the ruddy flames that roared about the trees were faint compensation
for daylight. Among the burning boughs, Delivev could make out the wildly
dancing forms of fire demons, and as she watched, more than one mass of pure
flame leaped to an untouched tree to set it alight.
"Rezhyk!1'
she shouted, raising both fists to his minions. "Only a coward attacks
without warning, Rezhyk!M
She
pushed herself away from the window and raced down the stairs to the garden.
There, the birds were circling restlessly, reluctant to leave their nests yet
anxious to fly far from the smoke. The snakes and spiders were moving, too,
clustering, edging toward the pond. In its stall, the pony whinnied, nervous,
pacing with clattering hooves. At Delivev's arrival, the loose animals swarmed
to her, spiders climbing her legs, snakes twining about her feet, birds
alighting on her outstretched arms. They followed her to the pony's stall, where
she placed her bird-laden hands on its quivering muzzle.
"Don't
be afraid, my darlings," she whispered to all of them, stroking the pony
gently and rubbing her cheek against the nearest fluttering wings at her
shoulder. "All will be well, I promise. All will be well."
When
they had taken some measure of calm from her nearness, Delivev directed the
spiders to the outside wall of the castle, to fashion a gossamer cloak
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for
Spinweb, to cover the ivy, which was already shriveling from the heat of the
blaze. Then she mounted the longest flight of steps in the building, snakes and
birds trailing behind her, until she emerged in the open air at the top of the
tallest tower. The burning trees were just below her there, crackling all
around like a sea of rippling light; and smoke swirled everywhere, driven by
the slight, steady wind. Delivev drew a kerchief of spidersilk from her sleeve
and draped it over her head, to keep the acrid fumes away. Gazing out at the
world through gauzy protection, she raised her arms and sent out her summons.
Beyond
the fire, beyond the forest, where not even the faintest smudge of smoke could
be seen, they answered her call. As demons were drawn to rings, so Delivev's
creatures responded to her command. Spiders that had never known her touch left
their webs, left their meals, left their egg sacs to answer. Snakes came out of
their nests, down from trees, out from under boulders, to heed the call. Ivy
and morning glories and climbing roses and wild grapevines pulled up their roots
and eased along the ground, tendrils plunging like centipedes* legs. Not toward
Spinweb did they travel, but to Ringforge, to the attack. Like a living carpet
the creatures moved, plant and animal, leafy and scaly and chitinous.
The
vanguard of Delivev's army swarmed upon the plain before Ringforge, and the
first sprigs of ivy had begun to scale those polished walls before Rezhyk
realized that he, too, was under siege.
"But
how did it happen?" gasped Cray.
"She
sent a cool note in reply to his reply," said Gildrum. "Cool, but
polite, I thought; she asked him to try to find out what had happened to you.
He took it as a declaration of war. He decided she hadn't believed him when he
said he knew no more about you.'*
"Guilty
conscience," said Cray. "What about mv mother?"
"We
can't touch her in Spinweb, of course. Nor the castle itself. But when the
burning trees begin to fall against the walls we can pile more wood on top of
them, and more and more. Even stone walls will crum-
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ble,
eventually, from such heat. And the forest is large, Cray. A large fuel
supply."
Cray's
lips tightened. "Webs can hold the heat off."
"Forever?"
"I
don't know. I've seen flame leave them unharmed, but—"
"But
never so much flame.**
Cray
shook his head. "Will he keep on if he sees that nothing comes of his
fire?"
"He
said he would not rest until she died.**
"All
right. We must act now."
"Are
you ready?"
"I
have to be ready, don't I?" He swam to the doorway, looked out at the
demons flailing each other with their swords of cloud. "Hear me, my
friends!" Cray shouted. "Hear me!" A moment passed before the
clatter of weapons ceased, fighters reluctant to leave off pressing an
advantage. They turned to him, though, at last, their weapons still in the
clear blue of Air.
"I
must ask that you fulfill our bargain," said Cray. *1 need your help now,
hi my own world."
The
demons muttered among themselves, and one voice piped, "We've hardly had a
chance to practice your lessons. You've hardly given us any lessons!"
"I
have done as well as I could in the time I have worked with you," said
Cray. "And I promise to retain and continue teaching, after the battle is
over."
"But
you may not survive the battle'" said the demon. "You may be killed,
and then what will we have? The empty promises of a dead human."
"I
assure you, you will not be more unhappy about that than I."
"A
few more lessons, human," said another demon. "I have just begun to
understand how this game is properly played."
Cray
shook his head. "I must go now. I would wish to believe that demons keep
their promises as well as humans do."
The
demon that Cray had fought spoke up; Cray recognized the voice immediately:
"I'm with you, human. I'll keep my bargain."
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trl
thank you," Cray said. "And what of you others?"
A few
came forward, but not the majority. Most hung back, swords twitching in their
hands, as if eager to return to exercise.
- Cray
crossed his arms upon his chest "1*11 make you all a better bargain,*' he
said. "Everyone who joins me in this endeavor shall be freed. If I
survive.**
"Freed?"
muttered a demon near him but not among those who had given him their
allegiance. "To free us you must first enslave us."
"Yes,"
said Cray. **I will have to make rings for each of you, but if only you will
tell me your names, that will not be such a difficult task. And I swear that
any demon I summon with a pair of rings shall be freed immediately. Wait—1*11
prove it to you.** He touched the one ring he wore, and very quickly Yra
appeared, streaking toward him from the boundary of Fire.
"My
lord?" said the fire demon. Cray took the gold band from his finger and,
laving it on the palm of his hand, offered it to Yra. "I free you,
slave," he said loudly. "You are bound to me no longer. Take this as
a sign of your freedom."
Yra
swooped upon Cray's hand and enveloped the golden circlet with pale,
translucent flame. Cray withdrew his hand, and Yra's flame intensified, became
opaque and sharp-edged, almost tangible, and heat flowed from it in one sudden
blast. Then the glow paled once more, cooled, and Yra bobbed slightly be- j
fore Cray. All trace of the golden ring was gone.
"Thank
you, Cray Onnoru,** said Yra. "No slave could have wished for a kinder
master."
"You
served me well, Yra. You deserve your freedom."
"Serving
you has not been difficult. And, if you win allow it, though I am small and
weak, still I would stay with you, my former master, and help you in whatever
way I can. You said you would show me your world someday."
Cray
smiled. "And so I shall, good Yra. I am grateful for your offer and accept
it gladly." He shifted his gaze from the ball of light that was no longer
his
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slave
to the line of demon combatants, still hanging back. "Well, my friends? Do
you doubt me now?"
"It
is a small demon," said one of them. "Of little value to you. You
lose nothing by freeing it."
"Every
demon has some value," said Cray.
"And
mine is greater than that one's. How do I know you will free me when the battle
is over?**
"I
give you my word.**
"Oh,
yes, surely. But how do I know?"
"I
believe you!'* roared the first whom Cray had called friend, the one who had
joined him before any of the others. "I believe you, and to prove my
belief, I will tell you my name, Cray Ormoru." A few of the other demons
began to murmur "No" and "Fool," before this one continued,
"I am Arvad. Cast you a ring for that name, and I am yours.**
"And
free as soon as I have done it,** said Cray, thrusting his hand toward the
demon. When Arvad made no move to clasp the hand with any demon appendage, Cray
explained, "We humans often seal a bargain by joining hands.*'
Arvad
laughed lightly. "Wen, I will be human for a moment, then.*' But instead
of loosing sword or shield to disencumber a hand, the demon grew another, with
•' five stubby, splayed fingers,
and clenched Cray's hand in it
"Who
else will join me?" Cray asked the crowd.
"Free
Arvad first,** said one of the demons who hung back. "Then we shall give
the matter more thought.**
"I
have no time,** said Cray. "I must go now.** • He glanced about at the
score of demons who surrounded him, the volunteers. "If these are the only
ones who will follow me, let it be so." To them he said, "You must
obey my orders, but if one of you devises some better plan than I offer, don't
be afraid to speak. I am a novice at this."
"And
so are we,** said Arvad. "Some of us have never even visited the human
world.**
"Some?
Not all?"
"I
have been there once,** said Arvad. "I know a tree from a rock."
"Good/*
said Cray. He turned to Gildrum, who
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waited
with Elrelet just inside the house. "Have we wasted too much time,
Gildrum?"
"I
think not. Time moves more quickly here, remember. And the battle will rage
long. .. . They have very different powers, but they are not so unevenly
matched, those two."
"Well,
I hope we may make the difference.**
"You
should have made rings," muttered Elrelet. "TTien you would have the
lot of them."
"I
think you overestimate my speed, good Elrelet. But that's as may be. Now I must
take my leave of you.*'
"Not
at all," said Elrelet. "I'm coming along. I may not be able to take
part in your battle, but I can watch. I've not come this far to let the rest
go!"
"Come,"
said Gildrum. "I must return to my duties."
"Which
are... ?" said Cray.
"Burning
trees.**
Gildrum
left him high above Spinweb, supported by a dozen air demons. Nearby hovered
the rest of Cray's army—two pearly bubbles, three glittering snowflakes, and
two blobs of pale light, one of which was Yra. Elrelet floated by his ear, a
dark smudge.
"Look
down,** said Elrelet
Cray
looked, and the vertigo that he had lost in Air so long ago reclaimed him for a
moment, for there was a down; he coyjd feel it pulling at him, through the
cushion of air demons. Down was where the ground lay, beneath the blue sky of
the human world that so resembled the emptiness of Air, save for the
intolerable bright spot of the sun. Down was where the smoke boiled from
flaming trees, and birds erupted each time a new crown of leaves caught fire.
Down was Spinweb, ringed by roiling blackness, untouched in the midst of
destruction. It looked like a toy from Cray's distance. He could smell the
smoke, like a campfire of green wood.
'That
is my home,*' said Cray. "We will protect it. Within is my mother, and we
will protect her, even if the home itself cannot be saved.*1 The vertigo was
passing now. "Water demons," he said. "There is a river in that
direction." He pointed northwestward.
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"You
can almost see it from here. Fetch water from ft and splash those flames."
They soared away, giant raindrops falling sideways.
"How
much water can they bring?" said Elrelet They are far outnumbered by
Rezhyk's fire demons. Those will dry the forest and set it aflame again and
again."
Cray
scanned the ground. "Where are her forces? Surely she has counterattacked
by now."
"There,"
said Elrelet, nudging Cray's head to the right with a gentle gust of air.
"That Une of black on the horizon. You'll have to move closer for a proper
view."
Cray
gave the command, and the air demons carried him north, toward Ringforge. When
almost there he bade them stop, for the sky was filled with the smoke he had
seen from afar. One of the demons enveloped him with pure air that he might
observe the fray without choking.
Below
was the true battlefield, a forest blaze to make the fire about Spinweb pale in
comparision. Ringforge occupied the center of a vast open space, and the whole
surface of the space was coated with char, as if soot had dropped out of the
sky upon it. Where the forest began, an enormous circle about the castle was
burning, a dozen trees deep. And behind that circle, visible through rustling
leaves as an intermittent bubbling, churning motion on the forest floor, were
Detivev's creatures. Silent, relentless, they pressed against the barrier of
heat and flame and demons. A thousand creatures died each moment, snuffed to
ash, yet as many joined the rear of their ranks, continually pushing ahead,
ready to sacrifice themselves for their
master.
"This
is a fight she cannot win,'* whispered Elrelet
"Fire
is too powerful for her.'*
"Then
we must make up for some of her weakness," said Cray. He directed the ice
demons to skim over a portion of the barrier and send waves of cold to
counteract the searing heat, and all but his enveloping air demon to blow the
flame hi that area back toward Ringforge and keep it from spreading farther.
The sky about him, already dark with smoke, darkened still
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further
as his air demons expanded into thunderheads and swooped low upon the fray.
Among the clouds and smoke, Cray could see then- lightning vying with the
redder flares of Rezhyk's hordes. Sparks from the burning trees showered the
bare ground that rimmed Ringforge.
Elrelet
whispered in his ear: "Now that you have joined the fight, you must hide
yourself. You have no castle walls to protect you from Lord Rezhyk's wrath.**
"Am I not safe enough up here? He will think I am a bird. If he looks up.
I don't see him. I think he's afraid to come out, Elrelet, afraid he might be
injured by some chance good fortune of the enemy. I'll ride a higher breeze if
you insist, but I'll not leave the battle."
"I
cannot command you, Cray Orraoru.** They soared upward.
"He
has called demons back from Spinweb,** observed Elrelet. *To combat your
forces." "Good. Less to threaten her.** Elrelet sighed. "How
much will it matter? One or two or five demons less. The forest about Spinweb
still burns.**
"Look!"
said Cray, pointing downward. "Some ivy has broken through—I can isee the
green moving against the ground.*'
4iYes,"
said Eirelet. "But Lord Rezhyk has held some servants back upon the walls
of Ringforge, and the ivy will be brown soon enough. There. There. You see,
Cray, how hopeless it is. You should have made rings."
"I'd
still be making them,** said Cray. "And the forest would still be
burning."
A
thunderhead rose from the battle, dwindled, and approached Cray to speak hi
Arvad's voice. "You said if any of us had plans to offer we should tell
you." "Yes. Yes."
"I
have one, but it demands that we demons withdraw from the fight for a short
time. All of us." "Withdraw? To do what?" "To go back to
our world." "Go back? But why?"
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"To
speak to the others, the ones who would not come."
Cray's
brows knit. "You think you can change their minds?'*
"I
don't know, but ... Cray Ormoru, friend, this fight is lost. There are too few
of us.**
"We
mustn't give up!"
"I
don't wish to. If my plan fails ... I will be back. And these others, too, so
they have said. But I thought we should tell you, before we leave, that we are
not deserting you."
"Thank
you," said Cray. "I fear you wfll fail; if the promise of freedom was
not enough for them, what could be?"
"We
will do our best. Farewell."
Cray
lifted a hand. "Farewell.**
Abruptly,
all the thunderheads that hovered about the field of battle vanished, and the
cushion of air that had supported and protected Cray disappeared as well,
leaving him as weightless as in the demon world for the instant before Elrelet
enveloped him. He coughed, having inhaled a whiff of smoke in that moment, and
his vision blurred as tears welled up to cleanse his eyes. When he had done
blinking, he realized that Yra and the other fire demon that had been with him,
that he had not known what to do with, were also gone, and he assumed that the
ice demons had followed. Below, the fire raged stronger.
*They
are fools," said Elrelet. "Sometimes I think all demons are fools.
Only fools would play the. game,"
"You
don*t think they'll be able to convince the other Free, do you?"
"I
don't know. Their offer will be ... tempting. Foolish and tempting."
"What
offer?" asked Cray.
"The
one which your human ears couldn't hear them discuss. Each of them intends to
offer to take on the names of all the demons of its kind who will join you
here. They trust you, Cray Ormoru. If you free them, those names won*t matter.
A demon freed by a sorcerer never has to answer the summons for any name. As I
said, a tempting offer.'*
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"And
why foolish, Elrelet? It seems bold and clever to me."
Elrelet
sighed. "Foolish once because it may yield too little return to win the
fight yet still leave them shackled with extra names. Foolish twice . . .
because they are trusting a human being.**
Cray
closed his fists on empty air, on the body of Elrelet surrounding him. "Is
it so very foolish to trust a human being?"
"When
rings are involved... yes.**
"I
am as good as my word, Elrelet*'
"Gildrum
thinks so. But Gildrum is desperate. I will wait, and I will hope. I will hope
very hard, Cray Ormoru. But I am glad I am not one of die Free who must chance
your trust.**
"I
shall prove myself, I swear it." He gazed down at the burning forest.
"We are not all greedy and self-centered.**
"Perhaps
I know more sorcerers than you," whispered Elrelet
Amid
the beating heat, Delivev waited for death. She had retreated within the walls
of Spinweb when the spiders covered the turret she stood upon with webworfc.
Now she saw that webbing as her shroud. All the windows of Spinweb were
covered, all the doors, all the thick stone walls, but still the heat seeped
in, like the strongest summer sunshine in the garden.
She sat
in the web chamber, a different scene on every side, and fire in all of them.
Here, from her own walls, she could see the forest raging and the fire demons
bringing ever more wood to throw upon the blazing trees; they were hard against
the stone now in some places, making of Spinweb a victim being burned at the
stake. In other webs she viewed the battlefront at Ringforge from a dozen
angles, and from none of them was that castle itself visible beyond the flaming
barrier that held her forces at bay. So many tiny lives, she thought,
sacrificed for mine. Would it have been better, she wondered, if she Tiad let
herself die without ever calling them, since she would die anyway, at the last
Soon. She could feel
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the
walls of Spinweb beginning to yield about her, bit by bit, to the fiery
onslaught. Already cracks were showing behind the webbing, cracks that admitted
the terrible heat. Baked alive, she thought, or perhaps suffocated first, for
the air was growing close as well as hot. She lay back upon the velvet
coverlet, wondering if she would be able to find the strength and the, courage
to climb the stairs again, to throw herself from one of the high windows before
the heat became too much. She turned her face to one of the webs. Almost, she
wanted to give up, disperse her army, and bring the end quickly.
Almost.
She
rolled over on her elbow and lifted a hand to the web. She had seen a place
along the perimeter about Ringforge where the fire was sparser. She thrust her
forces through there, willing them to push and push, willing them to dodge the
flames and surge across the open space that was covered with the cooling
remains of their fellows.
She
shook a fist at the web, a fist glistening with sweat "Coward!" she
cried. "You haven't killed me yet!'*
The air
was rent with clap after clap of thunder as great dark masses materialized out
of nothingness all around Cray. In spite of Elrelet's protective envelope, he
was tossed like a leaf in the storm, jerked one way and another by savage
winds, spun, tumbled, till he thought his bones would rip apart. And then he
was left behind in sudden calm as the darkness descended below him and he saw
for the first tune that gigantic human shapes of cloud, with cloud-swords and
cloud-shields, marched through the summer day. A hundred times larger than he
had ever seen them, the Free of Air roared down upon the burning forest,
flattening trees and smothering flames with their weapons. They grappled with
fire demons, whirling upon them tike dust devils and sweeping them skyward till
they looked to be so many sparks against the night of smoke.
Water
demons appeared then, like a string of milk-white pearls, with shields as big
as ox carts, rounded,
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full of
water which splashed down upon the flaming forest, over and over again, while
ice demons swooped low, cooling the steaming ground till frost formed on the
scorched stumps.
"Spinweb!"
shouted Cray.
A
rushing sound by his right ear made him look in that direction, where he saw
Arvad, man-sized, with that peculiar near-human face. "Done, even as we
speak," said the demon, and its slit of a mouth curved upward at the
corners. "The fire is fading, and Lord Rezhyk's minions have been wrestled
to the sky by Free fire and air demons, and there they will stay until Lord
Rezhyk himself is finished."
"And
my mother?" Cray demanded.
"Judge
for yourself," said Arvad, who waved a sword of steel-gray cloud downward,
toward the blackened line of combat.
The
living carpet moved again, green and black, plant and animal. It flowed over
the crumbling stumps of trees, over boughs that fell to ash when touched, over
soot that was the bodies of earlier attackers. It flowed to the walls of
Ringforge and began to climb the polished surfaces. The bronze was smooth as
glass, but spiders could lay the sticky strands of their silk upon it and mount
the bronze as easily as porous stone. Ivy could follow, with spiderweb
purchase, and find rivets not set quite flush with the surface as well, and
junctures between the bronze plates to pry at with inquisitive tendrils, hi
age-old plant fashion. Soon vines festooned the walls of Ringforge, which
creaked and rippled before the steady, insinuating pressure.
Rezhyk
stood in his workshop, his back to the table, to the glowing brazier. All
around him, he could hear Ringforge yielding in agony. The very walls groaned
from the warping of the structure, and a sound almost like a human scream
marked the wrenching of each copper scale from the window shutter; inside the
room, the bronze sheet that covered the window opening and made it seem to be
nothing more than another portion of the smooth wall bulged with inward
pressure. But Rezhyk's attention was focused on the door to his workshop, and
he perceived these other
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things
only peripherally. He stared at the door, a panel closely matching the
rest>f the wall, save for a slit of space beneath, where it was not snug
against the floor. It was an impossibly narrow slit, so thin that a hair could
just pass through, but as Rezhyk had always known, it was wide enough to admit
spiders. And, one by one, they entered now.
He
stamped upon them at first, his teeth gritted, knowing they were no ordinary
spiders. He suspected there had never been any ordinary spiders in Ring-forge.
He stamped. But there were too many of them, pouring through the slit now, and
from the window, where the bronze plate had given at one corner. Dozens of
spiders. Scores. Hundreds. He could not count so many. They swarmed upon him
and he tried to hide his head in his arms, but they crawled down his collar and
into bis hair. He cupped his hands over his nose, to keep them from his
nostrils.
They
sat on him. They did not bite.
After a
time, he raised bis head. His breath quieted, though his skin shuddered beneath
a coating of dark, scuttling bodies. He glanced at himself hi the nearest wall,
and all he could see was a man-shape and two dark eyes peering out. His
clothing and skin were hidden. Yet they did not bite.
Though
Ringforge crumbled about its lord, the spell of the golden shirt held.
He
lowered his hands, and thfe spiders made no move to clog his nostrils. Instead,
they milled aimlessly, and after a while they began to fall off. He helped them
a little, shaking his arms and legs one at a time. And then he began to stamp
on them again, methodically, each blow a little harder than the last, and he
began murmuring to himself in a singsong voice, garbled words with no meaning.
He was stamping hard enough to make the floor ring, and he was waving his fists
about his head when at last he summoned Gildrum.
The
demon took some time to appear. When the blond girl had coalesced from the ball
of flame, she apologized immediately. "I had to use considerable strength
to break away from my opponent, my lord. The fight does not go well for us. Had
I not been ie-
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treating,
I doubt that I would have won away at all.** She gazed at the floor, at the
spiders milting over the crushed bodies of their fellows, at Rezhyk's booted
feet crushing more, ever more. "What will you, my lord?'*
Rezhyk
looked up from his task, looked into Gildrum's innocent face. "You have
advice for me now, my Gildrum?" he rasped. "You have your usual good
advice?"
Slowly,
she said, "Your demons are stalemated, my lord. We cannot take Castle
Spinweb while it has so many defenders. And the lady Delivev's forces are at
this moment breaching Ringforge. My advice is ... that you throw yourself on
her mercy.'*
Rezhyk
pointed a finger at Gildrum. "You built this castle, demon! Why did you
not build it stronger?**
"My
lord," said Gildrum, "bronze has its limitations. And so have I.**
"You!
You! You never told me she commanded demons!"
"She
does not, my lord.**
*Then
where do they come from?**
"She
has an ally, my lord."
"And
who would that ally be?*'
Gildrum
pursed her lips against the answer, but it forced itself from her mouth. *%fer
son.'*
Rezhyk
left off his stamping, and bis eyes blazed with a fire hotter than any demon.
"Her son! How can that be? You rid me of him. You killed him." He
cocked his head to one side. "Did you not?"
Gildrum
whispered, "No, my lord."
"But
you had to! I commanded you to kill him!** He shut bis mouth tight, till the
lips showed white and cracked, and the chin began to quiver with his anger.
"No," he said in a thin, taut voice. "I see now that I did not
quite command you to kill him. What was it I said, O clever Gildrum, that you
twisted to suit your pleasure, to betray me?"
Gildrum's
fingers curled at her thighs, clutching the fabric of her dress. "You said
to kill him before he found another master.**
"But
he did find another master.**
"No,
my lord.*'
"Then
how did he learn the art, Gildrum? How?**
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Very
softly, she said, "I taught him, my lord—here in Ringforge and after he
left.*'
Rezhyk's
eyes were wide, whites showing all around the irises, and his cheeks were sunk
deep beneath his sharp cheekbones. "O my Gildrum," he whispered
hoarsely. "O my first and best servant. O my youth's companion . . .
conspiring with her son against me." He leaned back, clutching at the
worktable for support, his fingers clawing stiffly. "Why? Why? You were
like my own fiesh and blood, my Gildrum, Why?"
Her
chin lifted defiantly. 'That he might free me, my lord."
"Free
you? For what?"
"For
her."
Rezhyk's
eyes narrowed. "What of her? What is she to you?"
"My
lord, I love her."
"Love?"
Rezhyk pointed a shaking finger at Gildrum. "Down on your knees, demon
slave! Down on the knees that I fashioned for you with these two hands! There
is no human flesh in that body—what would a human woman want with such as
you?'*
Gildrum
sank to her knees among the spiders. "You have found use for this unhuman
flesh," she murmured.
"Love,
you say?** Rezhyfc shouted, and his tips curled back from clenched teeth.
"Know what love will bring you, demon! I know an incantation that even my
death cannot sunder. At the center of the earth, where the very rocks flow like
hot pitch—there shall you find a prison for the rest of time!"
Gildrum
bowed her head and clasped her hands against her forehead. "My lord, I beg
you—"
"But
first you shall serve me once more, better than you have ever served me before.
You shall go to your beloved Delivev, and you shall kill her, and after that
you shall kill her son. And as proof of your work, you shall bring me their
heads before the sun sets today! Now go!"
Gildrum
lifted a pale face to look at him. "But my lord," she whispered,
"Delivev is within her stronghold, where no demon may enter."
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"No
demon, perhaps," said Rezhyk, "but you, MelTor, handsome young
knight—she will not keep you out! Go!"
Hie
slight blond girl vanished.
Cray
had been alone for some time, save for Elrelet, watching the battle rage about
him in the sky and on the ground. Even Arvad, who had been bringing him frequent
reports on the progress of the allied Free was busy with some energetic
foe—Cray could see them in th$ distance, spinning and tumbling, a ball of flame
entangled with thick, black cloud like greasy smoke. Other, similar dark clouds
spotted the battlefield, but the true smoke had nearly dissipated, though fresh
gouts occasionally billowed from the forest as one of Rezhyk's minions broke
loose of its assailants and plunged into the trees.
Below,
the bronze of Ringforge gleamed no more. The walls, turrets, towers were all
choked with climbing greenery. —-
"It
shudders," said Elrelet "It will faH, at the end."
"When?"
asked Cray.
"Sooner
than Lord Rezhyk hopes. I*m sure."
A flame
sprang into being before Cray's eyes, white as the sun, blinding him for a moment,
and the familiar girl-voice of Gildrum burst from it, tighter, tenser than he
had ever known it: "Cray! He has ordered me to kill her!"
"What?
Kill her?" No!**
"A
direct order, no way to twist it into something else. I must obey. I must!
Remember the shirt is proof against metal and weaving!" The demon flashed
away, a bright spot against the blue sky.
"Stop!
Wait!" Cray shouted. "Arvad, Yra, help! Gildrum mustn't reach my
mother!'*
From
their individual battles, Arvad and Yra heard Cray's call and streaked toward
Spinweb, a dark cloud and a ball of fire. They caught Gildrum above the castle
and grappled there, rolling and plunging.
"Down,
Elrelet!" said Cray. "Set me at the gate of Ringforge!"
They
swooped to the ground, and behind them, Rezhyk's forces broke away from their
Free opponents
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and
rushed to Gildrum's aid, and the Free followed until the whole battle had
shifted to the sky above Spinweb. Cray glanced over his shoulder once, just
before his feet touched lightly among the spiders that still swarmed toward the
walls, and he could not distinguish Gildrum hi the whirling miasma of cloud and
mist, flame, snow, and lightning.
The
gate was open, the massive panel warped and buckled by the prying vines that
choked the aperture. Cray peered inside, tugged tentatively at the greenery; it
did not yield.
"I'm
going in," he said to Elrelet.
"What
wUl you do? You have no weapons that can touch him."
"I
have my hands." And he bent over, fingertips brushing the ground, and
shrank and shrank until he was one with the milling spiders. He scuttled out of
his tumbled clothing and into the jungle of vines, into Ringforge.
The
anteroom was filled with ivy, with morning glories, with the prickly stems of
climbing roses. They hid the smooth floor and walls, they encrusted the wooden
chairs, they climbed past the sconces, now dark, even those small demons lured
away to battle. Cray traversed Hie chamber quickly, leaping from stem to stem,
leaf to leaf, and at the opposite side he found the door that had been flush
with the wall ripped open as by a giant's hand. Vines spilled beyond, into the
mirror-walled corridor, and he scurried onward, along the interlacing stems.
Here he found the ivy moving, prising at the walls in search of doors; many had
already been forced open, the rooms filled with vegetation. One of these was
Rezhyk's workshop.
Cray
launched himself inside, seeking the sorcerer among the myriad leaves. The
vines had entered through a window as well as a door—a window whose existence
Cray had never suspected. The worktable was festooned with ivy, drawers pulled
out, their contents spilled and enveloped; the kiln was full of leafy green;
the ever-burning brazier had been overturned, its coals scattered upon the
floor, browning a few morning glory blossoms as they died. One sconce glowed
upon the wall,
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Rezhyk
was not there.
The sun
was red—too red. Gildrum felt its pull and dropped low over Spinweb, low in the
roiling multitude of frantic demons, then slid into the shadow of one tall
tower and descended to the ground. There, the pale glow of the demon coalesced
into human form, and Gildrum was Mellor once more, dark-haired and lithe, clad
only in a light shirt and hose and soft shoes, all well smudged with soot. His
back snug against the stone of Spinweb, he edged past charred and broken trees
toward the gate and, reaching it, poised upon the threshold gazing in. The
wooden panel had burned away, its ashes strewn inward across die polished stone
of the gateroom floor. The tapestries that lined the chamber were charred here
and there from the sparks that had blown hi with that burning. The doorway was
now hung with fine spider-web.
"Defivev,"
he whispered, "Detivev," knowing that her. creatures would bring her
word of him.
In the
corridor once more, Cray resumed his human form to stand naked among the vines.
They were knee deep about him and rustling with constant movement. The main
flow from the gate arid the smaller masses that had burst through shuttered
windows and even wrenched narrow passage through the very seams of the
building, had converged hi the corridor, and clusters of stems were even making
their laborious way up the staircase. Cray followed, overtaking them with his
long, human legs, but at the top of the stairs he found that other vines had
already entered through openings at that level. He raced upward, and on the
third floor, at the base of one of Ringforge's towers, he found Rezhyk.
Even
here there was ivy, climbing the walls in narrow ribbons, trailing from the
ceiling. As Cray watched, a hanging strand snaked about Rezhyk's neck, but
instead of tightening to strangle him, it lay limp and loose upon his flesh; he
cut it away with a bronze knife he had formerly used only for slicing meat at
dinner. Though they destroyed his castle
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all
about him, Delivers creatures could not touch the enemy who wore the golden
shirt
As he
cast the ivy from him, Rezhyk saw Cray. "You!" he shouted. He raised
his free hand, rings glittering in the light that spilled down the tower
stairs. Above them, the sound of wrenching metal was a piercing scream that
made Cray's flesh crawl, but Rezhyk seemed hardly to notice it. Nor did he
notice the light increasing where he stood, as the wall behind him opened to
the reddening sky. Ivy eased hi through the aperture, cascaded down the stairs
to He limp at Rezhyk's feet
"Cray
Ormoru!" he shouted, the fingers of his outstretched arm pointing stiffly.
"Your rings shall turn against you, your demons shall burn you, freeze
you, drown you, blast you to pieces!"
"I
wear no rings," said Cray, walking slowly toward Rezhyk, his eyes on the
knife. He could see that the bronze blade was wet with greenish plant juices,
and fragments of ivy still clung to it where Rezhyk had cut through the
clutching stems.
Rezhyk
backed up the tower stairs. "Stay away.** Ivy waved about his feet, but he
stepped firmly, surely, crushing the leaves with his studded boots. "Stay
back."
"Your
castle is crumbling about you, Rezhyk,** said Cray. "Call back your demons
and give your rings over to me.'*
Rezhyk's
lips curled back from gritted teeth. "I should have had you killed the
first day you came here!" He turned and lunged upward, taking the stairs
two at a time.
Cray
followed, one hand scrabbling at the bronze rail to aid his progress. He was
younger, faster; Ms-pumping legs rapidly closed the gap between them. He clawed
at Rezhyk's ankle, at his knee. Rezhyk stumbled, falling heavily on the steps,
then bent sharply at the waist and swiped at his pursuer with one fist. A
gem-set ring caught Cray's cheek, laying it open almost to the bone, and he
recoiled from the shock, hands clutching his bleeding face.
Rezhyk
staggered on.
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He
heard her step first, and then he saw her. She wore black, glossy black
feathers from neck to knee. For me, he thought, and he felt hot tears rising
behind his eyes. Involuntarily, his arms readied ovt for her, but the spiderweb
door and the mrislble carrier against demons stopped them, leaving him standing
with empty, open hands lifted as if In supplication.
Seeing
him, she halted, one foot forward, her weight coming down heavily upon it. Her
right hand rose to her breast as she stared at him.
"My
dearest love,** he whispered, and the tears spilled forth upon his cheeks.
For a
dozen heartbeats she stood frozen. The ordeal of the day showed hi her face,
the pouches deep beneath her eyes, the skin pale, lines etched about the mouth.
Fatigue was written there, and vulnerability.
She
called his name, his human name, a name never inscribed on any ring. And then
she went to him, lifting the silken door aside with one hand, to clasp him in
her arms and lay her head upoa his shoulder and to murmur that name over and
over again.
Cray
felt dizzy and faint, and bis stomach churned at the sight of his own blood all
over his hands. He leaned on the bronze steps, breathing raggedly, shuddering
at the tickling sensation of liquid oozing across his jaw, down his neck. Then
he took a deep breath and pushed himself upright to continue his chase.
Rezhyk
was at the next landing, where ivy had broken through a window and
choked*" the stairwell. He was in the midst of it, hacking at the tangled
strands. At Cray's approach, he glanced out the ruptured window at the
reddening sky. "You haven't long to live, Cray Ormora. Count your
heartbeats.*'
"Count
your own," said Cray, crouching warily, his eyes on the knife.
Rezhyk's
lips curved in a slow smile. "I know you have a certain training. I know
yon think you'll take this knife away from me. But it will do you no good. You
can't turn it against me, You'll have to kill me with your bare hands.**
Instead
of answering, Ccey leaped for big?, one
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hand at
his wrist, the other at his throat. They fell, rolling in the vines, which
covered them quickly in a green cocoon.
"Come,
come to me, Serpit, Anara, Zelabas!** Rezhyk snouted, ripping Grays hand from
his throat. He was strong, thin but wiry, and the fingers that had shaped
figures from clay were like metal claws at Cray's own flesh. "Come to me,
all but Gildruml"
In
answer to his summons, the sky about Ringforge boiled with demons. The storm of
their presence made the weakened walls of the castle creak and moan, and the
tower where Cray and Rezhyk fought swayed like a sapling in the wind. About the
tower demons surged, air and water, fire and ice, hot drafts and cold, rain,
sleet, snow and hail, and dust and char picked up along the way. But none
entered the tower to help Rezhyk; they were too busy with each other.
"You
see, sorcerer," gasped Cray, **you have no one to depend on but
yourself!"
"So
be it!" Rezhyk groaned, and he opened the hand that held the knife,
letting the bronze blade drop among the vines. Startled, Cray loosened his grip
on that wrist for an instant, and Rezhyk jerked it free, plunging the hand to
Cray's throat. "So be it!" And then the second hand joined it.
Cray's
arms were too short to reach the long-limbed Rezhyk's face, and his legs were
too tangled in vines to kick effectively. He snatched at Rezhyk's fingers,
managed to insinuate one of his own beneath two of the sorcerer's ring-laden
daws and pull sharply. He heard a bone crack, but Rezhyk seemed not to care,
only squeezed, squeezed, while Cray's hands scrabbled and ripped at the flesh
of his fingers and cut themselves bloody on the gems of his rings. Cray's head
filled with a rushing noise, above which he could barely hear the sound of the
window beside diem, and of windows and seams all through Ringforge, being
ripped open farther, ever farther by the tenacious ivy. With each rent, the
spell of the castle thinned, and now the attacking demons beat upon the very
bronze with all their powers, waiting for die moment of entry. A sudden burst
of sleet splashed through the gaping window onto Cray and Rezhyk, followed by
gravel-
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sized
hail that rattled and rang against the ulterior walls. Cray snapped another
finger, but still he could catch no breath.
And
then there was a thumping and clattering all around him, and voices were
shouting his name over and over again. Icicles had replaced the hail that
showered through the window—icicles dagger-length and slim, railing on the
massed vines by the armload, glinting in the low sunlight. Some shattered as
they struck; a few glanced off Rezhyk's back, ripping bis runic but turning
aside from the golden shirt as from chain mail. With one hand, Cray still pried
at Rezhyk's stony fingers, but he tore the other loose to grope wildly among
the icy shards. Above him, Rezhyk's face began to dim, to take on a ruddy
tinge, and some small part of Cray's mind found time to wonder if that were a
trick of the oncoming dusk or merely the ebbing away of his sight and his life.
His
human-seeming hands had tightened on her, though he Had willed them otherwise.
He felt nothing, not the smoothness of her flesh nor the heat of her body nor
the light touch of the feathers she wore, nothing but the solid, steady beat of
her heart Only ten more beats, he told himself. She murmured to him, enfolded
hi his arms, but he could not hear the words, only the imminent breaking of her
bones, real already hi his imagination and loud as the end of the world. Ten
more beats, ten more. He could no longer see her hair so close beside his
cheek, only the red, red sun of dusk, looming, filling his eyes with blood. His
hands tightened again.
Gripping
the blunt end of the dagger shape as tight as any sword hilt, Cray drove the
icy point toward Rezhyk's throat. It gave him the extra reach he needed,
entering the flesh just beneath the chin.
Rezhyk's
eyes widened at the impact, and his mouth opened, but no sound emerged. His
fingers flexed convulsively, loosened, and Cray caught at them with all his
strength and thrust them away, gasping air at last. With both hands, then, Cray
began wrenching at the rings, hoarsely chanting the words that Gildrum had
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taught
him. They rolled over, Rezhyk's fingers working spasmodically, not at Cray's
throat anymore but at his own, clutching at the frozen blade that pierced him*
while Cray fought to gam his demons. Blood came to the sorcerer's lips,
frothing pink with saliva as he tried to cry out, as he gurgled instead of
speaking. They rolled again, and the vines wrapped tight about them; and at
last Cray had collected all the rings, closed his left hand upon them, and
found another sharp shard of ice with his right, for the coup de grdce.
Release
came so abruptly that he staggered and would have fallen if not for her
support.
"Mellor?"
she cried. "Mellor, what's wrong?" He covered his eyes with one hand
and stood swaying against her. "Nothing," he whispered, and then he
clutched at her, encircled her with both arms and held her tighter than before,
but of his own free will. "Nothing is wrong, my darling."
Cray
pushed the dead body aside, brushed the clinging vines from his limbs, and
lurched to his feet. His breath was fire in his throat, and he shook
uncontrollably. Over the ringing in his ears, he heard his name being called
loudly, insistently, from the window, and at last he turned and stumbled over
the high-piled greenery to answer.
Just
beyond the window, the Free were massed, clouds and crystals, flames and milky
pearls. They pressed toward him, tendrils of themselves reaching through the
aperture to touch him.
"Will
you come now?" said Elrelet's voice. "Ring-forge is falling!"
And all
around him, he heard the agony of the bronze giving way, plates screaming as
they collapsed against each other. The tower shuddered and quaked, and the
floor tilted under his feet. He gripped the window frame and the buckled
shutter, heedless of the sharp-edged metal biting at his fingers. With one foot
up on the sill, he slid through the opening and stepped into the air, into
Elrelet's grasp. When he looked back, the tower was folding in on itself,
sagging, beginning a slow slide to the ground. Gray dust puffed
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upward
as the walls of Ringforge settled into a jagged heap of ivy-covered metal
Cray
leaned back on his demon-cushion. His clothes were there; he shrugged into his
tunic, then opened his left hand. The rings lay clumped together, the skin of
his palm deeply marked by their presence. In the fading light he could not read
the demons* names inscribed on their inner surfaces, and he called Yra to him
for a lamp. By the soft demon-glow, the gold gleamed mellow, the stones
sparkled red, blue, yellow, black. One by one he slipped them on his fingers,
leaving one index finger empty till he found Gildrum's ring and set it there.
He put the rest on quickly, and then he closed his fists and turned them before
his eyes, gold- and gem-encrusted.
"You
are a great sorcerer now," Elrelet whispered. "Lord Rezhyk's former
slaves await your commands."
Cray
covered one hand with the other. "Take me to Spinweb."
The
destruction about his mother's home was enormous. A vast open space, once dense
forest, surrounded the castle, the naked ground churned up as by a giant's
plow; Rezhyk's demons had uprooted all the trees and piled them against the
walls for burning. About those soot-coated walls, the intended funeral pyre,
blackened and drenched, still steamed in the dusk. The air demons cleared a
wide path to the gate, and Elrelet set Cray down there.
The
doorway was covered only with spiderweb gauze. Cray brushed it aside and
plunged drunkenly across the ash-laden floor, down the corridor, calling his
mother's name. He heard an answer at last from the garden, where he found the
two of them sitting together among the sooty roses—she hi her black feathers
and he with the form and features that Cray knew so well from the tapestry. He
ran toward them, tears streaming down his face, and they opened their arms to
him.
"You're
hurt," his mother whispered, her gentle hands touching his cheek, where
blood still oozed from the slowly clotting gash. A spider scurried down her arm
to seal the wound with sticky silk.
"Lord
Rezhyk did that," he said. "I killed him."
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"I
know. Gildrum told me.** She glanced at the demon, his face so close beside her
own that his breath stirred the hair at her brow.
"Gildrum?"
Cray murmured. **Then you must know."
"Not
everything, I'm sure. But enough."
"And
you forgive him?"
"There
is nothing to forgive. He served his master as a slave must. But he loves
me."
"Yes,"
said Gildrum.
"And
I love him. Demon or human, it doesn't matter."
Cray
lifted his ring-cluttered hands. "I took these."
"I
know," said Gildrum. "I felt it happen ... my lord."
"No,"
said Cray. "I will not be your lord." He pulled the plain band from
his finger and set it on his upturned palm. "I free you, slave. You are
bound to me no longer. Take this as a sign of your freedom."
Gildrum
scooped the circlet from Cray's hand and closed it tightly in his own, so
tightly that the knuckles showed white with pressure* For a moment, faint heat
radiated from the fist. When it opened again, there were nail marks in the
unhuman flesh, and the red-gold band was gone. "Thank you," Gildrum
whispered.
"Its
mate is buried hi the ruins of Ringforge," said Cray.
"Let
it stay there. I need no new forms. I have no intention of using any but the
one I wear now."
"That
pleases me well enough," Delivev said, smiling at him. Then she turned her
eyes to her son. "Cray, my heart is so full of gratitude that I can't
begin to speak of it. For bringing him back to me..."
"And
to me," said Cray.
She
nodded. "You have worked long and hard for this day, I know. Perhaps ...
all of your life." Her gaze flickered from one of his ring-clad hands to
the other. "And now you are a mighty sorcerer."
Cray
looked at the rings himself, at red gold and white, and gleaming yellow. They
cramped his fingers, stiffened them, and slid against each other, scraping,
pinching. He felt as if he were wearing a pair of
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metal
gauntlets without their leather liners. He shook his head. "I have a
bargain to keep—rings to make and demons to set free. After that, these, too,
shall go. I never wanted demon slaves."
Her
eyes searched his face. "What do you want then, my son?"
He
smiled, and the cut on his cheek, though covered with silk, stung—a sharp
reminder of the day's events. "I have everything I want The two of you.
Together." He hugged them both, one with each arm. "And later,
perhaps when I have finished with rings ... I might find some time for spiders
and ivy and climbing roses."
Delivev
kissed his good cheek softly. ''Welcome home, my son."
And
Gildrum echoed, "Welcome home. My son."
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ABOUT
THE AUTHOR
PHYLLIS
EISENSTEIN was born in Chicago in 1946, and except for two years in Germany and
one winter in Upper Michigan as an Air Force wife, she has spent her life
there. In early student days, she worked as a butcher, grocery clerk,
pin-setter, and tutor in English, Spanish, and trigonometry. Now a full-time
writer, she still manages to read voraciously and indulge various hobbies, such
as needlepoint, crocheting, choral singing, strumming old folk songs on a
classical guitar, and yoga. She also suffers addictions to obscure games of
solitaire and the watching of old movies on the Late, Late Show (frequently in
combination) . Quite recently, she returned to college after a twelve-year
hiatus, to become a senior studying freshman Archaeology. As Mme. Klein, she
sometimes reads Tarot at science-fiction conventions, astounding the skeptical
with her results. This is the fifth novel she has written.