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Bitterroot
James Lee Burke
Big Sky country.
Billy Bob Holland has
come to Montana's Bitterroot Valley to help an old friend in need. But against
the rugged, wide-open vistas, it is Billy Bob who is targeted for big trouble.
Wyatt Dixon, a prison
parolee, believes the former Texas Ranger caused his imprisonment and his
sister's death-and he is intent on exacting a deadly revenge.
But Billy Bob,
tormented by the mistakes of his past, will be a formidable opponent as he,
too, sets out to make things-all things-right.
Critical
acclaim for James Lee Burke's New York
Times bestseller featuring former Texas
Ranger Billy Bob Holland
- BITTERROOT
"Beautifully
crafted prose...the best dialogue this side of Eimore Leonard."
-Entertainment Weekly
"Billy Bob
already looks like a mythic hero in the making. "
-The New York Times Book Review
"A
perilous tale of conspiracy, revenge, and the psychopaths whom Burke describes
as individuals who are never at home in the world. . . . Well-written,
color-fully wrought." -USA Today
"I woke
up at 4 in the morning to finish it off in a second
sitting."
—The Washington Post
"No one
is more adept at making poetry of fly fishing, of light, shade, and wind upon
the waters of trout-rich Montana or sluggish Louisiana, and few can match Burke
in describing sudden violence."
—The Boston Globe
"In BITTERROOT,
Burke shows why he is the top mystery writer of this era. . . . When James
Lee Burke writes, it is the journey that matters—the joy comes
from
the reading."
—Gannett News Service
"Burke's
lyrical style, unique among today's mystery writers, remains, blessedly, the
same. Which means brilliant."
—San Diego Union- lrwune
"BITTERROOT, like all
of Burke's novels, provides a history lesson in American violence. . . . And
that's why Burke's novels have this terrific staying power— they are haunted by
history, alive with beautiful writing, and deeply serious in intent."
—The Times-Picayune (New Orleans)
"Burke masterfully weaves all the characters and plots into a
sleep-stealing thriller that disappoints only in that you know it eventually must end."
— The Denver Post
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ONCE AGAIN I'd like to thank my wife Pearl and our children Jim,
Jr., Andree, Pamala, and Alafair for always being with me.
I'd also like to
thank Father Edmond E. Bliven for his insight into the historical and
theological nature of Christian baptism.
Chapter
1
Doc Voss'S FOLKS were
farmers of German descent, Mennonite pacifists who ran a few head of Brahman
outside of Deaf Smith, Texas, and raised beans and melons and tomatoes and paid
their taxes and generally went their own way. When Doc got his draft notice his
senior year in high school, a lot of us thought he might apply for exemption as
a conscientious objector. Instead, Doc enlisted in the Navy and became a
hospital corpsman attached to the Marines.
Then he got hooked up with Force
Reconnaissance and ended up a SEAL and both a helicopter and fixed-wing pilot
who did extractions on the Cambodian border. In fact, Doc became one of the
most decorated participants in the Vietnam War.
The night Doc returned home he burned
his uniform in the backyard of his house, methodically hanging each piece from
a stick over a fire that swirled out of a rusted oil drum, dissolving his
Marine-issue tropicals into glowing threadworms. He joined a fundamentalist
church, one even more radical in its views than his family's traditional faith.
When asked to give witness, he rose in the midst of the congregation and calmly
recited a story of a village incursion that made his fellow parishioners in the
slat-board church house weep and tremble.
At the end of harvest season he
disappeared into Mexico. We heard rumors that Doc was an addict, living in a
hut on the Bay of Campeche, his mind gone, his hair and beard like a lion's
mane, his body pocked with sores.
I
received a grimed, pencil-written postcard from him that read: "Dear Billy
Bob, Don't let the politicians or the generals get you. I swim with dolphins in
the morning. The ocean is full of light and the dolphins speak to me as one of
their own. At least I think they do.
"Your bud, the guy who used to be
Tobin Voss."
But two years later Doc came back to us,
gaunt, his face shaved, his hair cropped like a convict's, a notebook full of
poems stuffed down in his duffel bag.
He worked through the summer with his
father and mother, selling melons and cantaloupes and strawberries off a
tailgate outside of San Antonio, then enrolled at the university in San Marcos.
Before we knew it, Doc graduated and went on to Baylor and received a medical degree.
We stopped worrying about Doc, in an
almost self-congratulatory way, as you do when an errant relative finally
becomes what you thought he should have always
been. Doc never talked about the war, except in a collection of poems he
published, then in a collection of stories based on the poems, one that perhaps
a famous film director stole from in producing an award-winning movie about the
Vietnam War.
Doc ran a clinic in Deaf Smith and
married a girl from Montana. When he lost her in a plane crash five years ago,
he handled tragedy in his own life as he had handled the war. He didn't talk
about it.
Nor of the fires that had never died
inside him or the latent potential for violence that the gentleness in his eyes
denied.
Chapter
2
Doc's deceased WIFE had
come from a ranching family in the Bitterroot Valley of western Montana. When
Doc first met her on a fishing vacation nearly twenty years ago, I think he
fell in love with her state almost as much as he did with her. After her death
and burial on her family's ranch, he returned to Montana again and again,
spending the entire summer and holiday season there, floating the Bitterroot
River or cross-country skiing and climbing in the Bitterroot Mountains with
pitons and ice ax. I suspected in Doc's mind his wife was still with him when
he glided down the old sunlit ski trails that crisscrossed the timber above her
burial place. Finally he bought a log house on the Blackfoot River. He said it
was only a vacation home, but I believed Doc was slipping away from us. Perhaps
true peace might eventually come into his life, I told myself.
Then, just
last June, he invited me for an indefinite visit. I turned my law office over
to a partner for three months and headed north with creel and fly rod in the
foolish hope that somehow my own ghosts did not cross state lines.
Supposedly the word "Missoula" is from the Salish Indian language
and means "the meeting of the rivers." The area is so named because
it is there that both the Bitterroot and Blackfoot rivers flow into the Clark
Fork of the Columbia.
The wooded hills above the Blackfoot
River where Doc had bought his home were still dark at 7 A.M., the moon like a
sliver of crusted ice above a steep-sided rock canyon that rose to a plateau
covered with ponderosa. The river seemed to glow with a black, metallic light,
and steam boiled out of the falls in the channels and off the boulders that
were exposed in the current.
I picked up my fly rod and net and
canvas creel from the porch of Doc's house and walked down the path toward the
riverbank. The air smelled of the water's coldness and the humus back in the
darkness of the woods and the deer and elk dung that had dried on the pebbled
banks of the river. I watched Doc Voss squat on his haunches in front of a
driftwood fire and stir the strips of ham in a skillet with a fork, squinting
his eyes against the smoke, his upper body warmed only by a fly vest, his
shoulders braided with sinew. Then the sun broke through the tree trunks on the
ridge and lighted the meadows and woods and cliffs around us with a pinkness
that made us involuntarily look up into the vastness of the
Montana
sky, as though the stars had been unfairly stolen from us.
Doc handed me a tin plate filled with
eggs and ham and chunks of bread he had cut on a rock and browned in the ham's
fat. He sat down beside me on a grassy, soft spot and leaned back against a
boulder and drank from a collapsible stainless steel coffee cup and watched his
daughter standing thigh-deep in the river, without waders, indifferent to the
cold, fishing in a pool that swirled behind a rotted cottonwood. He took a tiny
salt and pepper shaker out of his rucksack, then removed a holstered .44 Magnum
revolver from the sack and set it on top of some ferns, the wide belt and
heavy, square brass buckle and leather-snugged cartridges wrapped across the
cherrywood grips.
"Fine-looking gun," I said.
"Thank you," he replied.
"Fixing to shoot the rainbow that
won't jump in your creel?" I said.
"Cougars come down through the
trees at night. They get into the cat bowls and such."
"It's not night," I said.
He grinned at nothing and looked in his
daughter's direction. She was a junior in high school, her blond hair cropped
short on the back of her neck, her denim shirt tight across her waist when she
lifted her rod above her head and pulled her line dripping from under the
river's surface and false-cast the dry fly on the tippet in a figure eight.
Doc kept touching his jawbone with his
thumb, as though he had an impacted wisdom tooth.
"What are you studying on?" I
asked.
"Me?"
"No. The rock you're leaning
against."
"The country's going to hell,"
he said.
"People have been saying that for
two hundred years."
"You've been here eleven hours and
you've got it all figured out. I wish I had them kind of smarts," he
replied.
He left his food uneaten and walked
upstream with his fly rod, his long, ash-blond hair blowing in the wind, his
shoulders stooped like an ancient hunter's.
Fifteen minutes later I followed his daughter up to the
log house that was planted with roses and hung with wind chimes. She stood at
the sink, ripping the intestines from a rainbow trout, the water from the tap
splashing on her wrists. Her eyebrows were drawn together as though she were
trying to see through a skein of tangled thoughts just in front of her face.
"What's the problem with your old
man?" I asked.
"Midlife crisis," she
answered, feigning a smile, suddenly knowledgeable about the psychological
metabolism of people thirty years her senior.
"Why's he carrying a
revolver?"
"Somebody shot into our house down
in Deaf Smith yesterday. It was probably a drunk hunter. Dad thinks it's the
militia or these people dumping cyanide into the Blackfoot. He treats me like a
child," she said, her face growing darker
with her own rhetoric.
"Excuse me?" I said, trying to
follow the progression of her logic.
"I'm almost seventeen. He doesn't
get it."
"What militia?"
"They're down in the Bitterroot
Valley. A bunch of crazy people who think it's patriotic not to pay their
bills. Dad writes letters to the newspaper about them. It's stupid."
"Who's putting cyanide in the
water?"
"Ask him. Or his friends who think
they're environmentalists because they drink in bars that have logs in the
walls."
"Your old man's a good guy. Why not
give him a break?"
She scraped the dark and clotted blood
away from the trout's vertebrae with her thumbnail, then washed her hands under
the tap and dried them on her rump.
"The only person he ever listened
to was my mom. I'm not my mom," she said. She walked out the back door
with a bag of fish guts for the cats.
I found Doc beyond a wooded bend in the
river. He was false-casting his line on a white, pebbled stretch of beach, then
dropping his fly as softly as a moth in the middle of an undulating riffle. The
light and water on his nylon tippet looked like liquid glass as it cut through
the air over his head.
"What's going on with you
guys?" I said.
"With Maisey? Just growing
pains."
"No, the gun. These militia guys or
whatever," I said.
"Wars don't get fought in New York
or Paris. They get fought in places nobody cares about. Welcome to the
war," he said.
"Maybe I picked a bad time to
visit," I said.
"No, you didn't. See, a German
brown is feeding right under that overhang. He's thick across as my hand. If I
was you, I'd float an elk-hair caddis by him," Doc said.
I hesitated for a moment, then waded
into the stream. The coldness of the water surged like melted ice over my
tennis shoes and khakis. I pulled my fly line out of the reel with my left hand
and felt it feed through the eyelets on the rod as I false-cast with my right,
the brightly honed hook of the caddis fly whipping past my ear.
Chapter
3
FAR AWAY,
near Fort Davis, Texas, unbeknown to any of us at the time, a man named Wyatt
Dixon was being released from a county slam. For the ride out to the railroad
track on the hardpan he was chained at the ankles and wrists and waist. His
bare feet had been stomped on so that he limped like an old man when he walked
from the jail's back door, under armed guard, to the van that awaited him.
Inside the van, a three-hundred-pound deputy hooked Wyatt Dixon to a D-ring in
the floor, wheezing while he worked, avoiding Dixon's eyes and the grin that
shaped and reshaped on his mouth.
Ten minutes
later, as the sun was setting behind a low ridge of arid mountains, the van
stopped at the railroad track and Wyatt Dixon stepped out and stood in the hot
wind, his red hair lifting like silk, his nostrils dilating with the smell of
freedom.
He was lantern-jawed, his eyes as empty
and as undefined by color as a desert sky, his skin brown
from
the sun and clean of tattoos. Four deputy sheriffs pointed their weapons at
Wyatt Dixon, then a fifth one methodically unlocked all the manacles on Dixon's
ankles and wrists. When the net of chains fell from his body, the men around
him involuntarily stepped back or extended their guns farther out in front of
themselves.
"That boxcar's gonna take you all
the way to Raton Pass, Wyatt," the fat deputy said.
Another deputy threw a sack lunch into
Wyatt Dixon's hands. "You ain't got to get off to eat, either. Not in
Texas," he said.
"Y'all know where my boots is
at?" Wyatt Dixon said, grinning as stiffly as a swath cut in a watermelon.
The freight and cattle cars clanked together,
and the wind blew chaff out of the flat-wheeler that Wyatt Dixon was supposed
to climb into.
"Better get on it, boy. The
mosquitoes out here use soda straws on a fellow," the fat deputy said.
"I'm moving, boss man," Wyatt
Dixon said, and limped across the rocks like a man walking on marbles, then
pushed himself inside the flat-wheeler as easily as a gymnast.
A cruiser pulled behind the van, and a
tall man in a gray suit, wearing a Stetson and shades and a wide, flowered
necktie, got out and carried a cardboard suitcase to the boxcar. A badge holder
with a gold sheriff's star pinned to it hung from his gunbelt.
"Don't be telling yourself you got
a reason to come back," he said, and flung the suitcase into the boxcar.
It burst apart on the floor, spilling
out clothes, a white straw hat, a tightly folded American flag, a box of clown
makeup, a pair of football cleats, an orange fright wig, and a plastic suction
device, like a reverse-action hypodermic, that was sold through comic books to
remove blackheads from facial skin.
"Why, thank you, sir. Y'all treat a
fellow in princely fashion. God bless America for such as yourselves,"
Wyatt Dixon said.
"Get this piece of shit out of here
before I shoot him," the sheriff said.
A deputy began waving at the engineer in
the locomotive.
A few minutes later, when the sun was
just an ember among the hills, the freight train made a wide loop on the
hardpan and passed in front of the van and the sheriff's cruiser at the
crossing guard. Wyatt Dixon stood in the open door of the boxcar, his white
straw hat cocked on his head, his American flag flapping from an improvised
staff. He drew himself to attention and saluted the men down below, his bare
feet discolored like bruised fruit.
On a foggy dawn, three days later, Doc, his daughter Maisey, and
I sat in my truck at the foot of a broad, green mountain that rose into
ponderosa pines that were stiff and white with snow that had fallen during the
night.
Doc opened the cab door quietly and
leaned across the truck's hood and focused his field glasses on the tree line.
Then he gestured rapidly at his daughter.
"Here they come," he
whispered.
With feigned resignation she took the
glasses from her father and looked up the slope toward the spot where he was
pointing, her mouth twisted into a red button.
"Lord, you ever see anything that
beautiful?" he said.
When she didn't reply, I said,
"That's something else, Doc."
The herd of elk, perhaps over one
hundred head, moved out of the trees and down the slope, their hooves pocking
green holes in the snow, the mist glistening on the bony surfaces of their
racks. They fanned out over the bottom of the grade and flowed like brown water
across the two-lane road, their numbers and weight and collective mass knocking
down a rick fence without any interruption in their momentum or even
recognition that an obstacle was in their path.
They swelled into a meadow channeled
with wild-flowers and grazed into the tall grass by cottonwoods that grew along
a copper-colored stream. Their humps were coated with crusted snow, and the
heat of their bodies melted the snow and made the entire herd glow with a smoky
aura against the sunrise.
"What do you think, Skeeter?"
Doc asked his daughter.
"My name is Maisey," she
replied.
We drove into Missoula and ate breakfast in a cafe across the street from
the courthouse. Through the café window I
could see the crests of the mountains ringing the city and trees bending in a
wind that blew down an arroyo. Deer were feeding on a slope above the train
yard, and the undersides of their tails were white when they turned their
hindquarters into the wind.
I left Doc and Maisey in the cafe,
crossed the street to the courthouse, and went to the sheriff's office. The
sheriff had called Doc's house up on the Blackfoot the previous night and had
left the type of recorded message that not only irritates but leaves the
listener vaguely unsettled and apprehensive: "Mr. Holland, this is Sheriff
J. T. Cain. Got a bit of information for you. Eight-forty-five, my office. You
can't make it, be assured I'll find you."
I took off my hat and opened his office
door. "I'm Billy Bob Holland. I hope I'm not in trouble," I said.
"That makes two of us," he answered.
He was a big, crew-cropped, white-haired
man, who wore a suit and black, hand-tooled boots. His skin was deeply tanned,
his neck and face as wrinkled as a brown leaf.
A folder full of fax sheets was spread
open on his desk blotter.
"You recall a man named Wyatt
Dixon?" he asked.
"Not offhand."
"He got out of a county lock three
or four days ago in West Texas. He left behind a sheet of notebook paper with a
half dozen names on it. Also a drawing of human heads in a wheelbarrow. Yours
was one of the names."
"Who contacted you?" I asked.
"The sheriff down there ran your
name through the computer. You were a Texas Ranger?"
"Yes, sir."
He fitted on his spectacles and peered
down at a fax sheet.
"It says here you and your partner
were investigated in the killing of some drug mules down in Mexico," he
said.
"Rumors die hard," I replied.
He read further on the fax sheet, his
eyes stopping on one paragraph in particular. His eyes became neutral, as
though he did not want to reveal the knowledge they now held.
He picked up a clipboard and propped it
at an angle against his desk. "You're not gonna kill anybody up here, are
you?" he said.
"Wouldn't dream of it."
His pencil moved on the clipboard, then
his face lifted up at me again.
"You're an attorney now?" he
said.
"Yes, sir."
He wrote something on his clipboard.
"You know what bothers me? You
haven't asked me one question about this guy Wyatt Dixon," he said.
"A lot of graduates make threats.
Most never show up," I said.
He studied his clipboard and tapped on
the metal clamp with his mechanical pencil.
"I can't argue with that," he
said. "But Dixon did five years in Huntsville before he
got picked up in Fort Davis for drunk driving. He did time in California, too.
His record indicates he's a violent and unpredictable man. You're not curious
at all?"
"I don't know him, Sheriff. If
we're finished here . . ." I said.
He tossed his clipboard on the desk. A
half-completed crossword puzzle was fastened in place under the spring clamp.
"There's what the press calls
'militia' down in the Bitterroot Valley. I think they're just a bunch of ass-wipes
myself. But your friend Dr. Voss is doing his best to stir them up. Maybe he
needs a friend to counsel him," the sheriff said.
"He's not a listener," I
replied.
"I've got the feeling you're not,
either," he said. He took a gingersnap out of a paper bag and bit it in
half with his dentures. But the humor in his eyes did not disguise the bemused,
perhaps pitying look he gave me when I rose to leave his office.
Doc's HOUSE was at the northern end of a valley above the little
settlement of Potomac, and you had to cross the river on a log bridge trussed
together with rusted cable and drive five miles on a poor road through dense
stands of timber to reach it. At night the light played tricks in the sky. Even
though the house was located between cliffs and ridgelines, the clouds would
reflect the glow of Missoula, or perhaps the bars in the mill town of Bonner,
or cities out on the coast. But through the screen window, as I
looked
up from my bed, I thought I could see distant places upside down in the sky.
Doc said Montana was filled with ghosts.
Those of Indians massacred on the Marias River, wagoners who died of cholera
and typhus on their way to Oregon, the wandering spirits of Custer and the
soldiers of the Seventh Cavalry, whose bodies were sawed apart with stone
knives and left on the banks of what the Sioux and Northern Cheyenne called the
Greasy Grass.
But I didn't need to change my geography
to see apparitions.
When the Missoula County sheriff had
read the fax sheets in his folder, his eyes had lighted on a detail he chose
not to mention.
Years ago, on a nocturnal and
unauthorized raid into Coahuila, I accidentally shot and killed the best friend
I ever had.
Today the spirit of my dead friend
accompanied me wherever I went. L. Q. Navarro was lean and mustached, with
grained skin and lustrous black eyes, and he wore the clothes he had died in, a
pinstripe suit and vest with a glowing white shirt, an ash-gray Stetson
sweat-stained around the crown, and dusty boots and rowled Mexican spurs that
tinkled like tiny bells when he walked.
I saw him at evening inside mesquite
groves traced with fireflies, sitting on top of a stall in a shaft of sunlight
on Sunday morning while I bridled my Morgan to go to Mass, or sometimes idly
looking over my shoulder while I fished the milky-green river
at
the back of my property. Whenever the opportunity presented itself, he assured
me the purple wound high up on his chest was not my fault.
That was L.Q. His courage, his stoic
acceptance of his fate, his refusal to accuse became the rough-hewn cross and
set of nails that waited for me every night in my sleep.
When trouble comes into your life in such a marrow-eating,
destructive fashion that eventually you are willing to undergo surgery without
anesthesia to rid yourself of it, you inevitably look back at the moment when
somehow you blundered across the wrong Rubicon. There must have been a defining
moment where it all went south, you tell yourself. Great astronomical signs in
the sky that you ignored.
No, you simply took the wrong exit off a
freeway into what appeared to be a deserted neighborhood lighted by sodium
lamps, or trustingly signed a document handed you by a good-natured,
bald-headed man, or released the deadbolt on your door so an accident victim
could use your telephone.
Doc asked me to meet him and a
ladyfriend at a restaurant and bar in the mist-shrouded, logging town of
Lincoln, high up in the mountains by Rogers Pass. I parked my truck and walked
past a dozen chopped-down Harleys into the warmth and cheerful brightness of
the restaurant and saw Doc sitting in a booth with a tall woman whose dark hair
was pushed up inside a baseball cap.
An empty pitcher of beer rested between
them.
There was a flush in Doc's throat, an
unnatural shine in his eyes.
"This is Cleo Lonnigan. She
practices meatball medicine at the Res," Doc said.
"That means I work part time at the
free clinic," the woman said. She had dark eyelashes and brown eyes and a
mole on her chin. Her high shoulders and slacks and beige silk shirt, one that
changed colors in the light, made me think of a photograph taken of my mother
when my mother worked in an aircraft plant in California during the war.
Somebody in the bar turned up the
jukebox so loud that it shook the wall, then the bartender came from behind the
bar and turned the volume down again. A woman laughed in a shrill voice, as
though enjoying an obscene joke.
"You see those bikers back there?
They think they're nineteenth-century guys who've found the last piece of the
American West," Doc said. "What I'm saying is they're actually
victims. It's like a bug on a highway facing down an eighteen-wheeler. They're
just not students of history, you follow?"
"I'm ready to order. Do you want a
steak, Doc?" Cleo said, smiling, obviously not wanting him to drink more.
"Sure. I'll get us a refill,"
Doc replied.
"Not for me," I said. But he
wasn't listening.
I watched him work his way between the
tables toward the bar, excusing himself when he bumped against someone's chair.
"Doc's usually not a drinker,"
I said.
"You could fool me," she said.
So she hadn't known him long, I thought,
with more interest than I should have had as Doc's friend.
I heard the door open behind me and saw
her eyes go past me and follow three men who had just entered. They wore yellow
construction hats and khakis and half-topped boots, and their faces looked
pinched and red from the wind. They sat at a table in the corner, one with a
red-and-white-checkered cloth on it, and studied their menus.
"Those guys are from the
Phillips-Carruthers Corporation. It's just as well Doc doesn't see them,"
Cleo said.
"Why not?"
"They work at the gold mine. They
use cyanide to leach the gold out of the rock," she said.
"Near the river?" I said.
"Near everything."
I turned and looked at the men again.
One of them glanced back at me over his menu, then sipped from his water glass
and through the window watched a truck boomed down with logs pass in the rain.
"You think Doc's going to be all
right?" I asked.
"I doubt it."
She looked at the expression on my face.
"He's an idealist. Idealists get in
trouble," she said.
The waitress took our order. I heard
more noise in the bar area and saw Doc talking to three bikers at a table, his
graceful hands extended as though he were holding his spoken sentences between
them.
"Excuse me a minute," I said.
I
walked to the rear of the restaurant, which opened into a darkened, neon-lit
bar area that was layered with cigarette smoke. I passed Doc without looking at
either him or his listeners and continued toward the men's room. But I could
smell the bikers, the way you smell a wild animal's presence in a cage. It was
a viscous, glandular odor, like sweaty leather and unwashed hair and body
grease and testosterone that has dried and become part of the person's clothes.
Behind me, Doc continued his earnest
instruction to his audience: "See, you guys motor on in to Lincoln because
you think it's a place with no parameters. The home of the Unabomber, right? A
guy who had stink on him that would make buzzards fall out of the sky but who
went unnoticed by the locals for twenty years.
"See, what you don't understand is
these people are very square and territorial. One time a bunch of guys like you
decided to take over a town in the Gallatin Valley on a Saturday afternoon.
They started shoving people around in bars, busting beer bottles in the
streets, riding their hogs across church lawns, you know, like in the Marlon
Brando film The Wild One.
"Guess what? In two hours every
mill worker, gypo logger, and sheepherder in the county came into town. They
parked their log trucks across the roads so the bikers couldn't get out. They
broke arms and legs and bent Harleys around telephone poles. Some of the bikers
got down on their knees and begged. The townies left enough of the bikers
intact to take the wounded into Billings."
I went into the men's room. When I came
back out, Doc was still talking. The bikers smoked cigarettes and poured beer
into their glasses and drank in measured sips, tipping their ashes into an
empty can, occasionally glancing at one another.
One of their girls was watching the
scene from the cigarette machine, her arms folded in front of her. She was an
Indian, perhaps part white, her long hair streaked with strands of dull yellow.
She wore a lavender T-shirt and Levi's that hung low on her hips, exposing her
navel. She stared directly into my eyes. When I looked back at her, she tilted
her head slightly as though I had not understood a point she was making.
"The waitress is fixing to throw
your food out, Doc," I said.
"Go on. I'll be there," he replied, waving me away.
I went back out into the restaurant and
sat down across from Cleo. A strand of her hair hung out of her baseball cap
across one eye.
"Where do you and Doc know each
other from?" I said, glancing back at the bar area.
"A support group," she
replied.
"Pardon?"
"It's a group that meets in
Missoula. For people who have—" She saw that I was still watching the bar
area. "What are you asking for?"
"I'm sorry," I said, my attention
coming back on her face. "You said a support group. I didn't know what you
meant."
Her left hand was turned palm down on
the table. There was no wedding ring on it.
"It's for people who have lost family members to violence. Doc's wife died
in a plane crash. My husband and son were murdered. So we attend the same
meetings. That's how we met. I thought that's what you were asking me,"
she said.
The skin of my face felt tight against
the bone. The restaurant seemed filled with the clatter of dishes and
cacophonous conversation about insignificant subjects.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to—"
I began, but the waitress arrived at the table and began setting plates of
steak and potatoes in front of us. Cleo had already lost interest in anything I
had to say by way of apology.
Behind her, the Indian biker girl from
the bar walked between the tables, watching me, as though she knew me or
expected me to intuit private meaning in her stare.
"Why not get a new cigarette
machine instead of putting tape all over it? It not only looks like shit, the
cigarettes don't come out," she said to the woman behind the cash
register.
"Let me give you some breath mints
instead. Oh, there's no charge. Don't they sell cigarettes on the reservation?"
the cashier said.
The Indian girl took the last cigarette
out of her pack and put it in her mouth, her weight on one foot, her eyes
staring into the cashier's.
The cashier smiled tolerantly.
"Sorry, honey. But you should learn how to talk to people," she said.
"My speech coach says the same
thing. I'm always saying blow me to patronizing white people," the Indian
girl said.
She paused by our booth and momentarily
rested her fingers on the tabletop and lit her cigarette.
"Your doctor friend is in Lamar
Ellison's face. I'd get him out of here," she said, her eyes looking
straight ahead.
She walked away, toward the bar.
"Who is that?" Cleo
said.
"I don't know. But I don't like
eating at the O.K. Corral," I said.
I got up from the table and went back to
the bar.
"Your food's getting cold,
Doc," I said.
"I was just coming," he
replied. Then he said to the bikers, "Y'all think on it. Why get your wick
snuffed being somebody's hump? I'll check with you later."
I placed my hand under his arm and
gently pulled him with me.
"What's wrong with you?" I
said.
"You just got to turn these guys
around. It's the rednecks who win the wars. The liberals are waiting around on
a grant."
"We're eating supper, then blowing
this place. Or at least I am."
"You're in Montana. This is no big
deal."
He cut into his steak and put a piece
into his mouth and drank from his beer, his eyes looking reflectively at the
three engineers from the gold mine.
I waited for him to start in on another
soliloquy, but an event taking place in the bar
had suddenly captured his attention.
Two men and a woman had come in, people
who were obviously from somewhere else, their features soft around the edges,
their shoulders rounded, their faces circumspect yet self-indulgent and vaguely
adventurous. They had taken a booth in the bar, then perhaps one of them had
glanced at the bikers, or said something or laughed in a way a biker did not
approve of, or maybe it was just their bad luck that their physical weakness
gave off an odor like raw meat to a tiger.
One of the bikers took a toothpick out
of his mouth and set it in an ashtray. He rose from his chair and walked to
their booth, drinking from a long-necked beer bottle, his jeans bagging in the
seat. He stared down at them, not speaking, the stench of his body and clothes
rising into their faces like a stain.
"Somebody's got to put a tether on
those boys," Doc said.
"Don't do it, Tobin," I said.
Doc wiped the steak grease off his mouth
and hands with a napkin, the alcoholic warmth gone from his eyes now, and
walked back toward the bar.
Cleo rested her forehead on her fingers
and let out her breath.
"This was a mistake. It's time to
go," she said. She looked up at me. "Aren't you going to do
something?"
"It's somebody else's fight,"
I said.
"How chivalric," she said.
"Doc resents people mixing in his
business."
"I'm going to get him out of there
if you won't."
"Ask the waitress for the
check," I said, and returned to the bar area.
The biker towering over the three
tourists wore a leather vest with no shirt and steel-toed engineering boots;
his jaws and chin were heavy with gold stubble, his hair tangled in snakes like
a Visigoth's. His arms were scrolled with tattoos of daggers dripping blood,
helmeted skulls, swastikas, a naked woman in a biker cap chained by the wrists
to motorcycle handlebars. The three people in the booth looked at nothing,
their hands and bodies motionless, their mouths moving slightly, as though they
did not know which expression they wanted their faces to form.
"Excuse me, but you were pinning my
friends," the biker said. "Then I got the impression you cracked wise
about something. Like your shit don't stink, like other people ain't worthy of
respect. I just want you to know we ain't got no beef with nobody. Ain't no
biker here gonna hurt you. Everybody cool with that?"
The two men in the booth started to nod
imperceptibly, as though their acquiescence would open a door in an airless,
superheated room. But the biker was watching the woman.
"You want another beer?" he
asked her. He reached out with one finger and touched her lips. "Smile for
me. Come on, you got a nice mouth. You don't want to walk around with a pout on
it."
Her throat swallowed and her eyes were
shiny, her nostrils dilated and white on the edges.
"Here, let me show you," the
biker said. He worked his finger into her mouth, wedging it open, forcing it
past her teeth, reaching inside her cheek.
"Now, just a minute," the man
next to her said.
"You don't want to touch me, Jack.
That's something you really don't want to do," the biker said, while the
woman's saliva ran down his finger.
Doc stepped into the biker's field of
vision, raising his hand as a peacemaker might.
"You need to walk outside and get
some air, trooper . . . No, no, it's not up for debate," Doc said.
The biker didn't speak. Instead, his
left hand, the index finger still wet from the woman's mouth, seemed to float
like a balloon toward the side of Doc's head, as though he were about to caress
it.
Doc's movements were so fast I was never
sure later whether he hit the biker first with his hand or his foot. I saw him
spin, then the biker's head snapped back and his mouth exploded in the air. Doc
spun again, his foot flying out in a reverse back kick, and I was sure this
time I heard bones or teeth snap.
The biker was on the floor now, and I
could see spittle and blood on his lips. But his pain and disfigurement were
the least of his problems. He was strangling to death.
"Get out of the way!" I heard
Cleo say behind me. Then she was on her knees by the biker, pressing his tongue
down with a spoon, reaching into his windpipe with her fingers, extracting part
of a dental bridge.
I walked outside, past the row of parked
Harleys, and removed L.Q. Navarro's
blue-black, holstered .45 from the shell on the back of my pickup truck. I
dropped the pistol on the front seat and waited for the sheriff's deputies and
the paramedics, who I knew would be there momentarily. The sky was black, the
mountains steep-sided, the trees suddenly pale green when lightning jumped
between the clouds. Down the highway I saw the red emergency lights of an
ambulance roaring toward me inside a vortex of rain.
Nailed to a telephone pole was a
drenched, wind-torn poster advertising a rodeo in Stevensville, down in the
Bitterroot Valley. On the ad was an action photo of a rodeo clown distracting a
bull that had just thrown a cowboy into the boards. For some reason the
incongruous image of the helpful clown, dressed in vagabond clothes, wearing a
derby hat with horns attached to it, would not leave my mind.
Chapter
4
Two DAYS LATER I drove west of Missoula, past the U.S. Forest Service
smoke-jumper school, then up a sharp grade between wooded mountains into a long
green valley ringed by more mountains. I looked at the map Doc had drawn for me
and drove across the Jocko River and followed a dirt road between two bald
hills to the gated entrance of Cleo Lonnigan's property.
The morning was still cold. Smoke blew
from the stone chimney of her house, and horses were standing in the sun by a
barn that was wet on one side with melting frost.
I walked up on the porch and knocked on
the door and removed my hat when she answered it.
"I wanted to apologize for speaking
ineptly about your loss. Doc told me about it later," I said.
"That's why you drove all the way
out here?" she asked.
"More or less."
There was no screen on the door. She
stood perhaps a foot from me but had not asked me in, so that the space between
us and her lack of hospitality were even more awkward.
"How's Doc?" she asked.
"The biker didn't file charges, so
the cops let Doc slide. I guess getting your face bashed in is just part of an
evening out here."
"Pacifists in Montana get about the
same respect as vegetarians and gay rights advocates," she said. "You
saved that biker's life," I said. She looked at me without replying, as
though examining my words for manipulation or design.
I fitted on my Stetson and glanced
around at the sunlight on her pasture and her horses drinking in a creek that
was lined with aspens and cottonwoods.
"Can I take you for breakfast in
town?" I asked.
"Doc says you were a Texas
Ranger."
"Yeah, before I got hurt. I started
off as a city cop in Houston."
She seemed to look past me, into the
distance. "I have some coffee on the stove," she said.
Her house was built of lacquered pine,
with big windows that looked out on the hills and cathedral ceilings and heavy
plank furniture inside and stone fireplaces and pegs in the walls for hats and
coats. In the kitchen she poured a cup of coffee for me in a white mug. Out
back two llamas were grazing in a lot that was nubbed down to the dirt, and,
farther on, up a hill that was still golden with winter grass, a whitetail doe
with two fawns stood on the edge of a deep green stand of Douglas fir.
"Are you and Doc pretty
tight?" I said, my face deliberately blank.
"Sometimes. In his own mind Doc's
still married."
"I don't see Doc in your support
group," I said.
"Why?"
"His wife died in an accident. I
suspect most people in your group have lost relatives to criminal acts."
"Doc's wife worked for the utility
company. They made her fly to Colorado in bad weather. He blames them for her
death."
"I never heard him say that,"
I said.
"Sometimes if you confess your real
thoughts, people will be afraid of you," she replied.
But I knew she was talking about herself
now and not Doc. He had told me about her husband, a stockbroker from San Francisco
who had taken early retirement and bought a ranch in the Jocko Valley six years
ago. He and Cleo'd had a six-year-old son. Their lives should have been
idyllic. Instead, there were rumors about infidelity and money-laundering back
in San Francisco. The husband filed for divorce, accusing his wife of adultery,
and won summer visitation rights with his son. He moved to Coeur d'Alene and
each June came back to Montana and picked up his boy.
On a July Fourth weekend two years ago,
the father's and the son's bodies had been found in the trunk of the father's
automobile on the Clearwater National Forest. The automobile had been burned.
"Why are you looking at me like
that?" she said.
"No reason."
"Doc told you everything that happened?"
"Yes."
"The people who did it were never
caught. That's what's hardest to live with. The only consolation I have is that
Isaac, that's my son, was shot before the car was burned. At least that's what
the coroner said. But sometimes coroners lie to protect the family."
I picked up my hat off the back of a
chair and turned it in my hands. I didn't want to look at her eyes.
"There's a rodeo this evening in
Stevensville. I'd sure like to take you," I said.
The sun was setting beyond the Bitterroot Mountains when we walked up into
the wood stands that overlooked the arena. The air was cool and smelled like
hot dogs and desiccated manure and pitch-forked hay. The summer light had
climbed high into the sky, and in the distance I could see the humped, purple
shapes of the Sapphire Mountains and the shine of the Bitterroot River
meandering through cotton-woods whose leaves were fluttering like thousands of
green butterflies in the breeze.
"People say you come to Montana
once and you never leave. Not unless something is wrong with you," Cleo
said.
"It's special, all right," I
said. But my attention had shifted away from the softness of the evening to a
young woman down by the bucking chutes. She wore suede boots and bleached jeans
with a concho belt outside the loops and a T-shirt
and a straw cowboy hat that was coned up on the sides; she propped one boot on
a white slat fence and watched three wranglers run a bull into the back of a
chute.
"You recognize that gal down there?"
I said.
"No," Cleo said.
"The biker girl from the bar in
Lincoln. She tried to warn us about Doc. She thought he was going to get
hurt."
"The one who got in the cashier's
face?" Cleo said.
"She said the biker's whole name to
me—Lamar Ellison. Like she wanted to make sure I'd remember it and tell
somebody else."
"I'd like to forget those
people," Cleo said.
"She made me for a cop. Two kinds
of people can do that. Jailwise hard cases and other cops."
"Who cares what a person like that
does?" she said.
I didn't pursue it.
The girl was joined at the fence by two
men in scalped haircuts. They could have been bikers or paratroopers on
furlough, but in all likelihood they were simply brain-dead misogynists who
daily had to convince themselves of their gender.
A third man, with white hair and a
trimmed white beard, joined them. He smoked a corncob pipe and stood very
stiffly while he talked to the others, never quite looking at them, his gaze
wandering around the arena and the stands, as though the environment around him
was subject to his approval.
"I've seen that guy's
picture," I said.
"That's Carl Hinkel. He's head of
the militia movement here. They have a way of showing up in small towns that
can't afford a police force," she said.
A rider climbed down on top of a bull in
a bucking chute, working his gloved hand under the bull rope. The bull was
rearing its head, blowing mucus, hooking its horns against wood, while the
rider tied down his hand with what rodeo people call a suicide wrap. He
straightened slightly, humped his shoulders, and clamped his legs tightly into
the bull's ribs.
"Outside!" he hollered, his
right hand in the air.
The gate to the chute flew open, and the
bull exploded into the arena, a cowbell clanging on its neck, its body
twisting, hooves slashing at the air, barely missing the two rodeo clowns who
stood by the chute behind a rubber barrel.
The bull came down hard on its
forequarters, jarring the rider's tailbone, then twisted in mid-stride and
reared its head into the rider's face. The rider bounced once on the bull's
back, one leg stabbing at the air for balance. Then he was over the side.
Except his gloved hand was caught under
the bull rope, the arm bent backward, the rider's body flopping against the
bull like a cloth doll's.
A brown balloon of dust rose from the
arena as the bull spun in a circle, whipping the rider into the dirt, stomping
him under its hooves, trying to hook the rider with one horn.
One of the clowns, a man wearing
polka-dot pants, a striped cowboy shirt, firehouse suspenders,
football
cleats, and an orange fright wig and bowler hat, got in the bull's face,
hitting its nose with his hat, actually stiff-arming it up the snout, directing
its rage at himself while the other clown jerked loose the flank strap and
dragged the rider free of the bull's hooves.
The crowd had risen to their feet, first
in horror, then in relief and admiration as they witnessed the bravery of the
clowns and the rescue of the rider.
For some reason the scene in the arena
seemed to freeze, as in a photograph, but with a wrong detail, one that was out
of sync, a flaw in what should have been a tribute to what is best in us. The
bull was gone now, through a gate at the far end of the arena. The paramedics
were working the rider onto a stretcher. He lifted his hand to the crowd and
grinned weakly, his face streaked with dust and blood. The clown who had freed
the rider's trapped hand from under the bull rope picked up the rider's hat and
carried it over to his stretcher.
But the man who had behaved most
bravely, the clown in the orange wig, never looked at the downed rider.
Instead, he fitted the stub of a narrow cigar between his teeth and lighted it
and looked up at the stands, smoking, his greasepaint grin like a fool's at a
funeral.
He climbed over the slat fence by the
bucking chutes, dropped to the ground, and accepted a can of soda from the
militia leader, the white-bearded man named Carl Hinkel. He drank until the can
was empty, his Adam's
apple working steadily,
and crunched the can in his palm and
tossed it into a trash barrel. Then he studied the crowd again, and I would
have sworn his eyes settled on me.
He walked to the bottom of the stairs
that led to our seats, his cleats clicking on the concrete, and pointed into
the stands, as though recognizing an old friend.
"Billy Bob?" Cleo said.
"Yes?"
"I think that man's trying to get
our attention."
"I don't know any rodeo
clowns."
She looked
down at the program in her hand. When she glanced up again, her hand touched
the top of my wrist.
"He's coming up here. Billy Bob,
look at his eyes," she said, staring straight ahead.
They were recessed and wide-set, filled
with an irreverent, invasive light.
He walked up the stairs two steps at a
time, his legs lifting him effortlessly. He stopped at our row and pulled off
his fright wig and held it on his heart.
"Why, howdy do, Mr. Holland. Bet
you don't know who I am," he said.
"No, I don't," I said.
"Wyatt Dixon. Lately of Fort Davis,
Texas. Before that, of Huntsville, Texas," he said, and extended his hand.
The wind blew against his back, and I could smell a hot, dry odor like male
sweat that has been ironed into a shirt.
I took his hand. It was as rough as a
rooster's leg, scaled along the edges, the lines in
his palm seamed with dirt.
"You know me from somewhere, Mr.
Dixon?" I asked.
"Not me. My sister did, though. Katie Jo Winset was her
married name. You call her to mind?"
"I sure do."
"She'd be flattered. Except she's
in the graveyard."
"Same one her child's buried in?
The one she smothered?" I asked.
He set one cleated foot on the concrete
step above him and leaned one arm down on his knee, so that his face was next
to Cleo's, his breath touching her skin.
"God bless this country. God bless
this fine-looking woman here. Womanhood is the Lord's most special creation.
It's an honor to be here to entertain y'all," he said.
"Thanks for dropping by, Mr. Dixon.
Stay in touch," I said.
"Oh, I will. Yes-sirree-bobtail.
You'll know when it's my ring, too."
"I'm looking forward to it," I
said, and winked at him.
But he didn't ruffle. His lantern jaw
seemed to be hooked forward, his eyes holding on mine. Then he jogged down the
stairs, his arms cocked at his sides, his football cleats clattering on the
concrete, his whipcord body jiggling.
He stopped at the bottom of the stands
and counted out several dollar bills to an Indian hot-dog
vendor
and pointed up at us. The vendor, who was overweight and wore a large white box
on a strap around his neck, began laboring up the stairs toward us.
"I can't believe I just listened to
that conversation," Cleo said.
The vendor stopped at the end of the row
and handed us two fat hog dogs wrapped in napkins, dripping with chili and
melted cheese. Wyatt Dixon was watching us from the top of a bucking chute. I
stood up so he could see me clearly and pointed to the hot dog in my left hand
and made an "A-okay" sign of approval with my thumb and forefinger.
"I can't believe you just did
that," Cleo said.
"Grin at the bad guys and never let
them know what you're thinking. It drives them crazy," I said.
"What if they're already
crazy?" she said.
Chapter
5
I called the sheriff in Missoula early
next morning, then drove in to meet him at his office. When I entered the
office, he was standing at his window, looking out at the street, dressed in a
blue, long-sleeve shirt, charcoal-black striped trousers, and a wide leather
belt. I realized he was even a bigger man than I'd thought. His arms were
propped against the sides of the window, and his back and head blocked out the
view of the street entirely.
"I
checked on that gal, Dixon's sister, what's-her-name, Katie Jo Winset.
Evidently she was a professional snitch. She died of a heart attack while being
taken from the woman's prison to a trial in Houston," he said. "Why
would her brother want to put it on you?"
"She killed her own child. I got
her to plead out. Part of the deal was she had to snitch off some bikers who
were muleing dope up from Piedras Negras. If I remember right, one of the mules
took Wyatt Dixon down with him. I just didn't
remember Dixon's name."
"If Dixon cared about his sister,
he should be grateful to you. In Texas she could have gotten the needle,"
the sheriff said.
When I didn't reply, he said, "She
might have skated if she hadn't pled out?"
"I wanted her to fire me and go to
trial. She killed two of her other children and buried them in Mexico. Truth be
known, I wanted her to hang herself," I said.
The sheriff sat down behind his desk. He
wore a black string necktie and there were scars on the backs of his hands. He
saw me looking at them.
"I used to drive a log truck. I had
a boomer chain snap down on me once," he said. "Mr. Holland, I can't
say I'm glad to see you here. I've got enough problems without you people
bringing your own up from Texas. This biker, Lamar Ellison, the one your friend
Dr. Voss remodeled up at Lincoln? He's been in Deer Lodge and Quentin, both.
Your friend's mistake is he didn't kill Lamar when he had the chance."
"Lamar's going to be back
around?"
"Don't expect to see him soon at
First Assembly."
"Do y'all have a narcotics officer
working inside his gang? An Indian girl with blond streaks in her hair?" I
said.
"You got some nerve, don't
you?"
"I thought I'd ask. Thanks for your
time," I said.
"Don't thank me. I wish you'd go
home."
I left his office and walked out of the
courthouse toward my truck. It was windy, and
the sky was blue, and above the university I could see an enormous smooth-sided
mountain, with a white "M" on it and pine trees in the saddles and
lupine growing in grass that was just turning green.
I heard heavy steps behind me, then a
big hand reached out and encircled my upper arm.
"I get short with people. It's just
my nature," the sheriff said. "This is a good town, by God. But
there's people here with fingers in lots of pies. Dr. Voss hangs with some of
those Earth First fanatics and he's gonna get hisself hurt. The same can happen
to you, son."
"I appreciate it, Sheriff."
"No, you're a hardhead. Talk with a
man name of Xavier Girard. At least if you get broadsided by a train, you can't
say I didn't warn you."
"The novelist? His wife's an
actress?"
"Maybe it's different where you
come from, but most people's public roles hereabouts are pure bullshit. That
don't exclude me," he replied.
The SHERIFF told me that by noon I could probably find Xavier Girard,
unless the Apocalypse was in progress, at a low-rent bar down by the old train
depot. The last I had read of his escapades was about two years ago in People
magazine. A photo showed him being escorted out of a Santa Barbara
nightclub by two uniformed policemen, the tangled pieces of a broken chair draped
over his head and shoulders, a maniacal grin on his bloodied face.
The cutline, as I recall it, had stated
something like: "Famed Crime Novelist Takes on Crowd That Boos His Poetry
Reading."
I walked into the bar, a long,
high-ceilinged place with brick walls, and saw him eating at a table by himself
in back. His girth and beard and thick, unbrushed hair and big head made me
think of a cinnamon bear. His hands even looked like paws. The bar was full of
derelicts, Indians, a few college kids, and a group who looked like they had
just bought their Western fashions in the shopping malls of Santa Fe. Xavier
Girard watched me approach him as he upended a mug of beer.
"Mr. Girard, my name's Billy Bob
Holland. I'm an attorney from Deaf Smith, Texas. The sheriff said I should talk
to you," I said.
"Oh yeah? About what?" he
said.
"About Tobin Voss." I pulled
out a chair from the table and sat down.
He picked up his paper napkin and looked
at it and dropped it. "Why don't you just plunk yourself down without
being invited?" he said.
"I need some help, sir. If I've
intruded, I'll leave."
"You that private detective my film
agent hired?"
"Pardon?"
"Got some ID?"
"Are you serious?" I asked.
He thought about it and let his eyes
rove over my face.
"I guess that Southern-fried accent
didn't come out of Laurel Canyon," he said. "Tobin Voss is on the
right side, but he's busting up the wrong people. Over-the-hill meth heads
aren't the problem in Montana." Then he raised his voice and looked in the
direction of the group dressed in stylized western clothes. "California
douche bags buying up the state with their credit cards are a different
matter."
"You know a guy named Wyatt
Dixon?" I asked.
"No. Who is he?"
"An ex-con from Texas. He seems to
be buds with this militia leader, Carl Hinkel."
"If Hinkel had his way, the rest of
us would be bars of soap."
"You know this Earth First
group?" I said.
"The first line of defense against
the dickheads— those are Los Angeles dickheads I'm talking about,"
he said, his voice rising again, his eyes resting on the tourists, "who
want to drill for oil in wilderness areas and denude the national forest."
"I see."
"You're not convinced?" he
said.
"It's been good meeting you, Mr.
Girard. I read a couple of your books. I admire your talent."
He seemed to
look at me with a different light in his eyes.
He said, "Holly and I are having
some people over tonight. It's a publication party. A collection of essays done
by local writers on the Blackfoot. Bring Tobin Voss or whoever you like."
"That's kind of you. Tell me, Mr.
Girard, why would a fellow's film agent want to send a private detective after
him?"
"Man claims I set fire to his
convertible outside the Polo Lounge. But don't put any
credence in that. The poor guy's unbalanced. He's trying to set up 900 toll
numbers for Charlie Manson and the Menendez brothers."
"This is your agent?"
"Not anymore," he said, his
eyes smiling.
"Come with us," Doc said to his daughter Maisey that
evening.
"Holly Girard looks like melted wax
somebody put in the refrigerator," Maisey said.
"I don't want you here alone,"
he said.
"Steve is picking me up. We're
going to the movies. If you don't trust me, then stay home."
"What time are you coming back from
the show?" Doc said.
"Maybe you could put an electric
monitor on me. The kind that criminals wear when they're sentenced to home arrest."
"How about it with the
histrionics?" Doc said.
"How about it yourself, Dad? You're
the selfish one. You give up nothing and want me to give up everything."
Maisey's face had the bright shininess
of a candied apple. The skin above her upper lip was moist with perspiration,
like a little girl's.
Ease up, Doc, I thought.
He looked out the front window at the
twilight in the hills and the black swirl of the river as it made a bend and
flowed deeper into woods that had already gone dark with shadow.
"We'll be back by eleven. Can you
do the same?" he said.
"I don't know. Kids in Missoula
fill condoms with water and throw them at each other's cars. Can I give that up
for my father's peace of mind? Gee, I'm not sure," she said. She fixed her
hair in front of the mirror and looked at her father's reflection and raised
her eyebrows innocuously.
I went outside and waited for Doc by my
truck. Through the front window I could see him and Maisey arguing bitterly.
When he came outside he tried to be good-natured but he couldn't hide the
strain in his face.
"They say a father has a few rough
moments when his daughter is between thirteen and seventeen. I think it's more
like being rope-drug up and down a staircase on a daily basis," he said.
"Who's the kid she's going out
with?" I asked.
"He lives up the road. He's a good
boy. There's his car now," Doc said.
"Then quit worrying," I said.
We drove into Missoula through Hellgate Canyon and met Cleo Lonnigan at an
ice cream parlor on the Clark Fork of the Columbia River. She was outside, at a
table by the water, the cottonwoods blowing in the wind behind her. She wore a
black dress and pearls and looked absolutely beautiful.
"I called your house. I thought
maybe I was late. Maisey said you'd already left," she said.
A network of lines crisscrossed Doc's
forehead.
"How long ago did you call?"
he asked.
"Just a minute ago," Cleo
answered.
"Why is she still at home?"
Doc said, then went to the pay phone inside the ice cream parlor before either
Cleo or I could speak.
"He's a little wired," I said.
"I think Doc and his daughter
should get a divorce," she said.
I saw him replace the receiver on the
hook, then walk down the steps toward us.
"Nobody home. They probably took
off," he said.
"Sure," I said, glad the
conversation was about to change.
He glanced at his wristwatch, his eyes
busy with thought. "I'll call from Girard's place," he said.
Xavier Girard and his wife Holly lived in a big log house on a bluff above the
Clark Fork. The sun was only a spark between two ridges in the western part of
the valley now, but the afterglow rose high into the vault of blue sky
overhead, and looking to the north you could see snowcapped mountains in the
Rattlesnake Wilderness and, toward Missoula, the maple trees in residential
neighborhoods riffling in the breeze and the lights of downtown reflecting on
the river's surface.
"Whose money bought this place?"
I said as we walked up the drive toward the sundeck of the Girards' house.
"Not Xavier's. He has the reverse
King Midas touch. Everything he touches turns to garbage. He went back to
Louisiana and built a million-dollar home on the
bayou, you know, boy from Shitsville makes good, except he built it in a
sinkhole and the foundation caved in and the whole thing slid into the
bayou," Doc said.
The guests on the deck and in the living
room were writers and university people, artists, biologists and
conservationists, photographers, liberal arts students from the East, an editor
from Doubleday, a journalist from Time, a movie producer from A&E,
smoke jumpers, and Xavier Girard's entourage of barroom fans.
An actor from north-central Texas, who
wore a suit with no tie, his dress shirt open at the collar, was holding forth
at a glass-topped table, his mouth downturned at the corners like a drill
instructor's.
He was talking about a casting lunch of
years ago.
"See, Dennis is a right good boy
and all, but he don't have no understanding of Southerners whatsoever. We was
waiting on the food to come out and he started lecturing at me and using
profane language and carrying on and getting in my face like he growed up in a
vacant lot. So I reached across the table and grabbed him by the necktie and
dragged him through the Caesar salad and cut off his tie with a steak knife and
slammed him back down in the chair and told him to start acting like a white
person for a change. I didn't have no trouble with him after that, but damned
if the part didn't go to ..."
Down below the deck we could hear Xavier
Girard, stripped to the waist, pounding a speed bag with his bare fists while
his barroom pals looked on admiringly.
It was Girard's wife who was the
surprise. I expected her to possess at least some of her husband's
eccentricities. Instead, she was either an extraordinary actress or she must
have been blind-drunk the night she married him. She seemed to gaze into your
eyes with total interest, regardless of the subject of conversation. Her skin
was pale, her mouth irregularly shaped, as though her expression and smile were
unpracticed, perhaps a bit vulnerable. She wore her dark blond hair in tresses
and stood close to the person she was talking to, either man or woman, in a way
that seemed sexually intimate yet defenseless.
"You were an Assistant United
States Attorney?" she said.
"For a while. In Phoenix," I
replied.
"Why'd you quit?" she said.
"I probably wasn't that good at
it."
Her eyes probed mine, as though my
sentence contained meaning that the two of us should examine together. Then she
fitted her thumb and forefinger around my wrist and said, "Will you let me
share something with you?"
We walked to the edge of the deck, into
the shadows and a layer of cold air that rose from the river. The pines farther
up the hill were black against the stars. She wore a purple evening dress and
there was a shine on the tops of her breasts. Through the sliding glass doors I
could see Doc punching in numbers repeatedly on a telephone while Cleo stood
behind him, an exasperated expression on her face.
"I'm concerned for Doc. He's
obsessed about this gold mine up the
Blackfoot," Holly Girard said.
"Seems like he has a lot of
company," I said.
"But people listen to him. He was a
war hero. He's got this Byzantine aura of spirituality about him. He could read
the phone book and sound like John Donne."
"You think somebody's going to hurt
him?"
"How would you feel toward Doc if
you had no work and no food in the house and a poet was telling you a trout
stream was more important than feeding your family?" she said.
Through the glass door I saw Doc bang
the phone receiver down in the cradle.
"Excuse me," I said, and went
inside. Doc widened his eyes at me, his hand still on the phone receiver,
feigning a smile.
"I called the theater they were
going to. I know the manager. He didn't see her," Doc said.
"Like the theater manager doesn't
have anything else on his mind," Cleo said.
"Y'all want to go?" I asked.
"I should have brought my car," Doc said.
"It's all right," I said.
"It's been quite an evening. I just
don't know if I can stand any more like it," Cleo said.
I told them I'd see them outside and I
went down a hallway to the bathroom. Three women and two men were standing by
an abstract oil painting, not far from the bathroom door. Their eyes were
bright, their conversation gilded with laughter.
"Is this the line for the
bathroom?" I asked.
They stopped talking and looked at me
peculiarly, as though I had spoken in another language. Then a woman said,
"Holly's inside."
The door was ajar, and I saw Holly
Girard bend over a framed mirror that lay horizontally on a marble-topped
counter. Her evening dress was backless, and I could see the delicate bones
under her skin as she inhaled a chopped white line deeply into her lungs
through a rolled dollar bill. She wiped the mirror's surface with her index
finger and rubbed her finger inside her gums.
She straightened her shoulders, turned
and opened the door, and looked blankly into my face.
"Oh hello, again," she said.
"The maid must have misplaced my toothbrush. I had to brush my teeth with
my finger. Can you imagine?"
"Right. Can I get out through that
far door?" I said, pointing toward the end of the hallway.
"Are you offended in some
way?" she asked.
"No, I'm not."
"Then stay," she said, and reached
out and encircled my wrist as she had earlier.
"You asked me why I quit the
Justice Department," I said. "It's because a Texas Ranger named L.Q.
Navarro and I killed a bunch of cocaine and tar mules down in Old Mexico. I
hate the son-sofbitches who sell that stuff, and if I had it to do all over,
I'd kill those men again. So I guess it'd be a little hypocritical of me if I
prosecuted homicide cases.
The group by the oil painting stared at
me with the opaqueness of people caught in a strobe light.
"Don't be that way," Holly
said to me, her expression suddenly tender.
I walked down the hall and out the door
into the night, the back of my neck flaming with embarrassment.
Doc AND I dropped Cleo at her car by the ice cream parlor, then drove
up the Blackfoot River toward his house. We turned off the highway north of
Potomac, rumbled across the log-and-cable bridge onto the dirt road, and drove
along the edge of a dry creek bed that was white and dusty and webbed with
algae under the moon.
Doc kept squinting his eyes through the
front window.
"That looks like a fire," he
said.
"Where?"
"Through the trees. You see
it?" he said.
"No," I said, irritably, and
used the electric buttons on the door to roll down all the windows in the
truck. "You smell any smoke?"
"None," he said.
"Then for God's sakes, shut up. I
don't want to hear any more doom and gloom. If just for five minutes. Okay,
Doc?"
We went across a cattle guard and drove
down the two-track lane through the meadow behind his house. I had been right.
There was no fire in the vicinity. Instead, Doc's yard was filled with
emergency vehicles whose flashers lit the front porch of the house and the
trees and the pebbled bank of the river and the current that flowed through the
boulders with the dull red glow of a smithy's forge.
Chapter
6
A FEW
MINUTES LATER I watched the paramedics carry Maisey on a gurney to the back of
an ambulance and place her inside. The night air was cold and a paramedic had
pulled a blanket to her chin. Her face was turned from me, but I could see a
marbled discoloration on her neck, like the shape of a hand. A sheriff's deputy
wearing latex gloves came out of the house carrying a vinyl garbage bag that
contained Maisey's jeans and torn blouse and undergarments.
Doc climbed
into the back of the ambulance with her and looked back at me, his face like
I'd never seen it before.
"I'll follow y'all to the
hospital," I said.
He didn't answer. A paramedic closed the
door and the ambulance turned around in the yard and drove back through the
meadow toward the gate and the dirt road. The engine made no sound, and I could
hear the grass that grew along the two-track lane brushing against the
ambulance's undercarriage.
"Your friend is having a bad night,
so I don't hold his rudeness against him," the sheriff said. "But I'm
gonna tell you what I told him, and you can repeat it to him in the morning.
There were three bikers."
He held up three fingers in front of me.
"One way or another we'll nail
them. That means your friend takes care of his daughter and I take care of the
law. You hearing me on this?" the sheriff said.
"Yeah, I am, Sheriff. What bothers
me is it's the same bullshit I ran on crime victims when I knew the perps would
probably skate," I said.
"I don't care for your manner, Mr.
Holland, but I'm gonna let that go . . . We talked to the boy she was with
earlier. The kids told Dr. Voss they were going to a movie. But that wasn't the
real plan. After you and the doctor left, they thought they'd have a little
private time together. Except they had a fight at some point and the boy went
home. I say 'at some point,' do you follow me?"
"They were in the sack?" I
asked.
"Neither one is willing to say
that, but that'd be my guess."
"So even if you nail the bikers,
their attorney will put it on Maisey's friend?"
"You're a defense lawyer. Do you
know an easier client to get off than a sex predator?"
"I couldn't tell you. I don't take
them."
"You damn shysters take anybody
with a checkbook," he said.
Then he shook his head as though taking
himself to task. "Look, back in the
1860s the Montana Vigilance Committee lynched twenty-two murderers and
highwaymen," he said. "They bounced them off cottonwood trees and
barn rafters all over the state. I guess it could make a man yearn for the good
old days. But this ain't them. You tell that to Dr. Voss for me."
Try telling him yourself, bud, I thought
as he walked away from me, the thickness of his sidearm showing against the
flap of his coat.
I stayed with Doc in the waiting room at
St. Patrick's in Missoula while he paced and hammered one fist on top of the
other.
"Slow it down, Tobin," I said.
He stopped pacing, but not because of
me. He was listening to a conversation outside the door. Two uniformed deputies
were enjoying a joke of some kind, one with coarse edges, a reference to
sodomy, a laugh at the expense of a woman.
Doc stepped out into the hall.
"You guys have something else to
do?" he said.
"What?" one of them
said.
"We're all right here," I
said, stepping into the deputy's line of vision.
One deputy touched the other on the arm,
and the two of them walked back toward the hospital entrance.
"I'll buy you a cup of coffee
across the street," I said to Doc.
"I'm going back to the emergency
room," he said.
"They told you to stay out. Why
don't you let them do their job?"
"You lecture me one more time,
Billy Bob, and I'm going to knock you down," he replied.
I couldn't blame him for his anger. He
was a good man who loved his daughter, and the two of them had just stepped
into the middle of an unending, degrading, and callous process that treats
victims and family members as ciphers in an investigative file, rips away all
vestiges of their privacy, and often inculcates in them the conclusion that
somehow they are deserving of their fate.
I left Doc alone and went outside into
the darkness. The maple trees were in full leaf, the night air crisp and tinged
with smoke from a grass fire on a hill. Children were riding bikes on a
sidewalk and the sounds of a baseball game broadcast from the West Coast came
through the open window of an old brick rooming house. It was a scene from the
brush of Norman Rockwell. But inside the hospital Maisey Voss was plugged into
a morphine-laced IV, her body strung with purple and yellow bruises that went
into the bone, the fetid breath of her attackers still wrapped around her face
like cobweb.
A few feet away I saw L.Q. Navarro
leaning with his back against the trunk of a maple tree, rolling a cigarette,
his down-tilted Stetson and black suit silhouetted against the lighted entrance
of the emergency room.
"You don't have anything to
say?" I asked.
"I'd head for the barn on this
one," he said.
"That wasn't ever your style,
L.Q.," I replied.
"Doc fired them bikers up
because he cain't let go of his wife's death."
"You don't walk out on your
buds," I said.
"He says he didn't like Vietnam?
Maybe dying has messed up my ability to remember things. I thought SEALs was
volunteers."
I never could win an argument with L.Q.
He twisted the ends of his cigarette and put it in his mouth and struck a
kitchen match on the butt of his holstered revolver. His skin and mustache
flared in the cupped flame of the match.
"This one ain't just about
bikers. Why do you think the sheriff pointed you at that alcoholic crime writer
and his wife, the actress, what's that gal's name, the one who snorts up coke
like an anteater?" L.Q. said.
"I stubbed my toe on that one,
too."
"You gonna keep us here?"
"I'll let you know," I
said.
He drew in on his cigarette and breathed
the smoke across the tops of his fingers. His eyes were filled with a black
luminescence, the ascetic, lean features of his face even more handsome in
death. I thought I saw him grin at the corner of his mouth.
A HALF HOUR
LATER Doc Voss joined me outside.
"They moved her upstairs. You want
to hear what those bastards did to her?" he said.
"I was a cop, Doc. I've been
there," I said.
But he told me anyway. In physiological
detail, his voice cracking in his throat, his palms opening and closing at his
sides.
"She's alive, partner. A lot of
predators don't leave witnesses," I said.
"You're pretty glib for a guy on
the sidelines," he said.
I let it pass and looked down the
street, away from his angry stare.
He pressed the ball of his thumb into my
arm.
"What would you do if she were your
daughter? Don't you lie, either," he said.
"Try to get the wrong thoughts out
of my head," I replied.
"You and L.Q. Navarro stuck playing
cards in the mouths of dead people," he said.
"They tortured a DEA agent to
death. They threw down on us first."
"My daughter doesn't count as much
as a federal agent?" he said.
"I think you're working on a
nervous breakdown, Tobin."
I
walked away from him. Down the street a sheriff's department cruiser pulled
around the corner and approached us. Inside were the two deputies whom Doc had
insulted earlier. One of them sat in back with a handcuffed man whose jaws were
bright with gold stubble, his long, tangled hair tied up on his head with a
bandanna that leaked blood above one eye. The deputy in back lifted the
handcuffed man's chin with a baton, as though
displaying a severed head on a plate.
"This is one of the guys who raped
and sodomized your daughter. He fell down a fire escape while resisting
arrest," the deputy said. "Lamar, you got something you want to say
to Dr. Voss?"
"Yeah. My dick in your ear,"
the biker named Lamar Ellison said out the window.
"The standards in street mutts gets
lower every day," the same deputy said, shaking his head. He tapped on the
seat for his partner to drive on.
Doc stared at the rear window, his
jawbone flexing.
"They got one. They'll get the
others," I said.
"It's not enough," he replied.
Chapter
7
Maisey came home from the hospital three days later. Doc tied
balloons on the furniture in her bedroom and bought teddy bears and stuffed
frogs and giraffes and a pink rabbit that was four feet tall and propped them
up on her pillows, but his attempt at good cheer and optimism was like wind
blowing through an empty building.
Maisey's eyes
seemed possessed, haunted by thoughts she didn't share. Her face jumped at
sudden noises. Her breath was sour and funk rose out of her clothes. When her
father tried to comfort her, she curled into a ball and pulled the bedcovers
over her head, spilling the stuffed animals he had bought her on the floor.
Through the doorway I saw Doc sitting on
the side of the bed, his hand on his daughter's back, staring into space.
"What are we going to do, kiddo?" he said, more to himself than to
her.
The sun was above the mountain now, but
the inside of the room was filled with a brittle yellow light that
gave no warmth.
At noon Cleo Lonnigan arrived in her truck and fixed lunch and
drove into Bonner and bought a cake and a gallon of ice cream. Later she
convinced Maisey to put on her quilted robe and fluffy slippers and to sit on
the porch with her father while Cleo showed us what she could do with firearms.
She took a holstered .22 revolver off
the gun rack in her truck, buckled it on, and set three tin cans in a row
against a dirt bluff, then walked back fifty feet and blew each can into the
air, then nailed it again as it rolled down the embankment.
"You want to give it a try?"
she asked Maisey.
"No. I don't like guns,"
Maisey said.
"Sure?" Cleo said.
"Yes. Thanks anyway. I just don't
like guns. I never did," Maisey said, her eyes slightly out of focus, as
though she were thinking of who or what she had once been. The wind blew her
hair and made gray lines in her scalp. She stuck her hands inside the sleeves
of her robe.
I walked down to the dirt bluff and
helped Cleo pick up the cans and place them in a paper sack.
"Good try," I said.
"She's going to need some heavy
counseling. I don't think Doc has any idea what they're in for," she said.
"Don't underestimate him."
"You know what victim rape
is?"
"The system does it to her a second
time?"
She glanced toward the porch, where Doc
and Maisey were sitting in the shade. She turned toward the river, so her voice
would carry away from the house.
"I talked with the sheriff this
morning. Maisey couldn't pick Lamar Ellison out of a photographic lineup,"
she said.
"What about fingerprints? They
lifted prints all over her room," I said.
"Not his. He was released from jail
this morning. No charges are being filed."
I let out my breath and looked up at the
porch. Doc was petting a calico cat. He scratched its head, then set it in
Maisey's lap.
"I wish I had let Ellison strangle
to death. I think about putting my hand in his mouth and I want to scrub my
skin with disinfectant," Cleo said.
"The sheriff hasn't told Doc?"
"No."
"Why would he tell you first?"
Her throat was red, as though chafed by
the wind. "Because I've known the sheriff since my son was murdered.
Because Lamar Ellison is a member of the Berdoo Jesters. They were seen at the
campground the night before my son died."
She went to the back of the house and
dropped the paper sack with the cans in it into a trash barrel, then walked
back to her truck. She unbuckled the holstered revolver, threw it on the seat,
and slammed the door as though ending an argument in her own mind.
A few MINUTES LATER I saw a Jeep Cherokee
turn off the dirt road and clatter across Doc's cattle guard and come through
the grass behind the house. The Cherokee pulled around by the porch and Holly
Girard got out from the driver's side. She picked up a covered dish from the
seat and walked up to the steps. A man I didn't know sat in the passenger seat,
a camera around his neck.
"I thought you could use some of
Xavier's coonass gumbo," Holly said.
"That's thoughtful of you. Where's
Xavier?" Doc said.
"Drinking ice water and eating
aspirin in the sauna. Guess why?" she replied.
She wore crimson suede boots and
tailored khakis and a white blouse that puffed in the wind and exposed the tops
of her breasts. She had on a safari hat, but she removed it and tossed her
hair, then I saw the photographer get out of the Jeep and walk down toward the
river, as though he did not want to intrude upon a private moment.
"We want Maisey to know she has lots of friends in
Missoula," she said.
"Yes, I know she does," Doc
said. "How'd you learn about our trouble?"
"Xavier is friends with the police
reporter at the Missoulian," Holly said.
"Seems like Xavier's friend is more
loquacious than he should be," Doc said.
There was silence, then Holly Girard
said, "Well, should I put this inside?"
Behind me I heard Cleo Lonnigan open the
door and step out on the porch. She looked down on the riverbank, then bit the
corner of her lip.
"I just burned something on the
stove. The odor's terrible. Here, I'll take that inside for you," she
said. "Who's our friend with the camera?"
Holly smiled and stepped up on the porch
and put the covered dish in Cleo's hands, her face turned at an angle so that
it caught the light.
"He's doing a photo essay on the
'Take Back the Night' march at the university. I hope you don't mind him
tagging along with me," Holly said.
Doc got up from his chair and put a
stick of gum into his mouth. He chewed it, his eyes crinkling at the corners,
the way he often did when he chose to ignore what was worst in people.
"Come on in and have some
cake," he said.
But Cleo remained in front of the door.
"That man's taking pictures, Doc," she said.
Doc turned and looked down the
embankment at the photographer, who had now lowered his camera.
"Is that true, Holly?" Doc
asked.
"I didn't know he was going to do
that. I'm sorry. If you want the film, you can have it," Holly said.
"I think you should leave,"
Cleo said.
"Excuse me?" Holly said.
"Bad day for photo-ops. That
shouldn't be difficult to understand," Cleo said.
"Does this person speak for you,
Tobin?" Holly said.
"Why don't all of you stop talking
like I'm not here?" Maisey said.
We all turned and stared at her. She
wore no makeup, and her face had the bloodless quality of people who have
experienced long illness.
"They did it to me, not you. What
right have you all to make decisions about what happens around me? You're
treating me like a dumb animal," she said.
In the silence we could hear the wind
blowing in the cottonwoods and the water coursing around the exposed boulders
in the middle of the river. The photographer rubbed the back of his neck, as
though he were massaging an insect bite or waiting for a momentary external
problem to pass out of his vision. Then he detached the telescopic lens from
his camera, got back into the Jeep, and yawned sleepily, waiting for Holly
Girard to join him.
After Holly Girard was gone, I drove down to Bonner and called the
sheriff's office.
"You kicked Lamar Ellison
loose?" I said.
"At eight o'clock this morning.
Right after he ate. He said he couldn't hardly let go of our sausages and
hashbrowns," the sheriff replied.
"You think that's funny?"
"You give your damn guff to
somebody else. If I had my way, I'd pinch his head off with a log chain."
"Then why don't you do it?"
"Because I don't have victim ID.
They put a pillow down on her face. Besides, I don't have bean dip for physical
evidence."
"There was DNA in her clothes and
on the bed-sheets. They took swabs at the hospital," I said.
The line was quiet.
"Hello?" I said.
"It got sent to the lab . . . We
don't know what happened to it," the sheriff said.
"Say again?"
"You heard me. I'm coming out there
to explain all this to Dr. Voss."
I could feel my hand opening and closing
on the phone receiver, my chest rising and falling.
"These bikers, the Berdoo Jesters?
Cleo Lonnigan says they may have been involved in her son's murder," I
said.
"That's what she believes. I
like Cleo, but the truth is her husband washed money for the Mob. Maybe she
don't like to admit where her wealth comes from. There might even be a mean
side to Cleo you don't know about," the sheriff said, and hung up.
I called him back, my hand shaking when
I punched in the numbers.
"Rapists who get away with it come
back. They increase their power by tormenting the victim," I said.
"Take Dr. Voss and his daughter
back to Texas. Let us handle it," he replied.
My ass, I thought.
The first call came the next day. I happened to answer it. In
the background I could hear people laughing and a motorcycle engine revving.
"Is this the doctor?" the
voice said.
"Who's calling?"
"Thought you might want to know
she'd already lost her cherry. So don't make out it's a bigger deal than it
was," the voice said.
"What's your name, partner?"
"I just wanted to tell the pill
roller his daughter gives good head. I've had better, but she's got promise. If
I get horny, I might give her another tumble. Have a nice day."
"You're not a smart man."
The line went dead.
I went into the living room. Doc was
rubbing oil into a pair of lace-top boots by the fireplace.
"Who was that?" he asked.
"One of those motorcycle
boys."
He rubbed another layer of oil on a boot
and turned the boot over in his hands and looked at it.
"You reckon they'll be back
around?" he said.
"If they think they can blindside
you," I replied.
He wiped the excess oil off his boots
with a rag and looked idly out the window, his thoughts masked.
I SPLIT WOOD
on a chopping stump in back. The morning had grown warm and I was sweating
inside my clothes. It had snowed up high during the night and the newly fallen
snow was melting in the trees on the ridges, and there was a dark sheen on the
pine and fir needles. I whipped the ax through the air and felt it rip cleanly
through a chunk of dry larch. The ax handle
was solid and hard inside my hands, and in minutes the ground around the stump
was littered with white strips of kindling.
I held the ax blade flat against the
stump with my knee and filed it sharp, then attacked another pile of wood.
My head was singing with blood, my palms
tingling. I thought I saw L.Q. Navarro up on the edge of the tree line, his coat
hitched back of his revolver, and I knew what was really on my mind.
The adrenaline rush that came with the
smell of gunpowder and horse sweat during our raids down into Coahuila had the
same residual claim on my soul that heroin has on an intravenous addict's. In
my sleep I desired it in almost a sexual fashion. It drove me to the grace and
loveliness of women's thighs. It made me yearn for absolution and kept me in
the Catholic confessional. It made me sometimes sit in the darkness with L.Q.'s
blue-black custom-made .45, its yellowed ivory grips like moonlight between my
fingers.
I went into the house and showered
inside the tin stall and kept my head under the hot water for a long time.
There was an old bullet wound, like a putty-colored welted star, on top of my
foot, and another on my arm and another on my chest, two inches above the lung.
I never associated them with pain, because I had felt only numbness when I was
hit.
In fact, the memories they caused in me
had never given me trepidation about mortality. Instead, they reminded me of a
potential in myself I did not wish to recognize.
I started to comb my hair, but Maisey's
robe hung over the only mirror in the room. I removed it and put it on a
clothes hanger and hooked the hanger on top of the closet door. The robe was
pink and covered with depictions of kittens playing with balls of string. I
tried to imagine what Doc was feeling, but I don't believe that anyone could,
not unless he has looked into his daughter's eyes after she has been
systematically degraded by subhumans whose level of cruelty is in direct
measure to their level of cowardice.
My hair was reddish-blond, like my
father's, but there were strands of white in it now, and neither time nor
experience had taught me how to deal with the violent legacy that my
great-grandfather, Sam Morgan Holland, a besotted drover and gunfighter and
Baptist preacher, had bequeathed his descendants.
I had admonished and cautioned Doc, but
in truth I felt Maisey's attackers were born for a cottonwood tree.
I DRESSED in
fresh clothes and slipped on my boots and went back into the living room. Doc
was scraping the ashes out of the fireplace with a small metal scoop and
dropping them into a bucket that he covered with a lid each time the ashes
puffed into the air.
"The older you get, the more you
look like your dad. He was a good-looking fellow, wasn't he?" Doc said.
"Family trait," I said.
He wiped soot off his face with his
sleeve and grinned. He waited for me to speak again, reading
my
expression with more perception than made me comfortable.
"I thought I might go into
town," I said.
"What for?"
I cleared my throat slightly.
"If Cleo's not at the clinic, I
thought I might invite her to lunch," I said.
"You took her to the rodeo, didn't
you?"
"I guess I did."
"You want some advice? Most of us
have fond memories of first love because it was innocent and we didn't exploit
it to solve our problems. Later on we use romance like dope. Headstones don't
keep people in the grave and neither does getting laid," he replied. He
turned his back on me and scraped a load of black ash from the firestones and
dropped it into the bucket.
"That's a little bit strong,
Doc."
I
thought he would turn around and grin again and perhaps indicate some form of
apology.
But he didn't.
When I drove into the
Jocko Valley the meadows and hillsides were covered with sunlight, but the sky
in the north had turned the color of scorched tin, and I could see lightning
pulsing in the clouds above the ridgeline.
Just as I turned off the main road I
glanced in the rearview mirror and saw a low-slung red car behind me, one that
was coming too fast, drifting across the center line, as though the driver were
bothered by the fact there was an obstruction in his path. I remembered having
seen, or rather heard, the same car earlier back in Missoula, when the driver
had roared onto the 1-90 entrance ramp. The car didn't turn with me and instead
kept going on the main road. A woman in the passenger's seat looked back at me
blankly, her hair whipping across her mouth.
I drove through the gated entrance to
Cleo's place and stopped by the barn. A bare-chested carpenter, who had the
suntanned good looks of a Nordic sailor, was working on the roof. He told me
Cleo was not home, that she was with some of her patients.
"At the clinic?" I said.
He slipped his hammer into a loop on his
belt and spread his knees on the spine of the roof and pointed to a dirt road
that disappeared into trees on an adjoining hill.
"She makes house calls. You'll know
when you're there," he said.
"How's that?" I said.
"Some people take care of stray
cats. Cleo's special, the best damn woman in these parts, buddy," he
replied, almost like a challenge.
I drove back out the gate and up the
dirt road into the shade of the trees. Halfway up the hill I saw an unpainted
house back in a clearing and Cleo's skinned-up truck parked in the yard.
The yard was littered with flattened
beer cans, chicken feathers that had blown from a butcher stump, washing
machine and car parts, even a toilet bowl that lay incongruously on its side by
an outdoor privy. A trash fire was burning in back of the house, and the
wind
blew the smoke through the back windows and out the open front door. I stepped
up on the porch and saw Cleo in the kitchen, spooning oatmeal out of a pan to
three small Indian children at the table.
"Hello?" I said, and tapped on
the jamb.
She brushed a strand of hair out of her
eyes with the back of her wrist and looked at me through the gloom.
"How'd you know where I was?"
she asked.
"Your carpenter."
But she was preoccupied with her work
and was not looking at me now.
"Okay, you guys wash your dishes
when you're finished," she said to the children. "Can you do that?
Your grandmother is going to be here soon. My friend and I are going to wait
outside. What are we doing Saturday?"
"Going to the movies!" the
children shouted together.
A moment later Cleo and I walked out
into the yard. The sun was gone, and a heavy, gray mist was moving across the
trees at the top of the mountain and raindrops were striking like wet stars on
the dirt in the clearing.
"Their mother is nineteen. Nineteen,
with three kids. She's in the Missoula jail right now. She gave up glue
sniffing for the joys of crystal meth," Cleo said.
"How long has it been out
here?" I asked.
"Three years, maybe. The California
gangs brought it into Seattle and Spokane, then it was everywhere."
My eyes drifted to her mouth, the mole
on her chin, the way the wind blew her hair on her cheek. A middle-aged Indian
woman driving a rusted junker that had no glass in the front windows pulled
into the yard and went into the house. She nodded at Cleo but ignored me.
"That's the grandmother?" I
asked.
"There's a likelihood she'll be a
great-grandmother at fifty," Cleo said.
"Take a ride with me," I said.
"Where to?"
"Anyplace you want to go."
She looked at me for a long moment.
"You a serious man, Billy
Bob?" she asked.
"You can always run me off."
She looked at the torn shreds of cloud
swirling just above the tops of the trees and said, "I'll leave my truck
at the clinic. I have to be back there by three."
I opened her truck door for her. When I
closed it, my fingers touched the top of her hand.
"Your carpenter says you're
special," I said.
Her eyes seemed to reach inside mine, as
they had once before, probing for the secret thought, the personal agenda.
"Eric's gay. That's why he speaks
so generously about women," she said.
"My grandpa used to say outcasts
and people of color are always a white person's best measure," I replied.
"I think you and Doc really belong
here," she said.
We dropped her truck off at the clinic, then drove in the rain toward a cafe
farther up the Jocko that sold buffalo burgers and huckleberry milkshakes. I
pulled into a gas station and parked next to a row of sheltered pumps and stuck
the gas hose into the tank. Then I saw a low-slung red car at the next gas
island and an Indian girl with blond streaks in her hair standing by the back
fender while the hose pumped gas into her tank.
She saw me watching her and turned her
back and lit a cigarette.
"You got a suicide wish?" I
said.
"No, you do, dickhead. Get out of
here," she said.
"You're on the job?"
Her face grew heated, her lips crimped
tightly together. She ripped the gas nozzle out of the tank and clanked it back
on the pump.
Then a red-haired, lantern-jawed man in
a yellow slicker and an Australian flop hat pushed open the glass door of the
convenience store and walked toward us in the rain, an idiot's grin on his
mouth.
"Bless your heart, I been thinking
about you all day and you pull right in to the gas pump," Wyatt Dixon
said.
"He was coming on to me,
Wyatt," the girl said.
"Sue Lynn, Mr. Holland is a lawyer
and a respecter of womanhood and a Texas gentleman. My sister, Katie Jo Winset,
the one in the graveyard? She said he always removes his hat in the house and
he don't never walk around with spit cups, either," Dixon said.
"Did you follow me up to Montana?"
I said.
"I'm a rodeo man, sir. Calgary to
Madison Square Garden to San Angelo. Can you step over here with me?"
I started back toward my truck. But he
situated himself in my path, the taut, grained skin of his face beaded with
raindrops. His shirt was unbuttoned to the navel under his slicker, and I could
smell the dampness on his body, like the odor of drainwater welling out of an
iron grate. Behind him a stump fire was smoking in the mist.
"At night, in a jailhouse, when you
hear somebody scream? The kind of scream that's different from any other you
ever heard? You know Lamar or one like him has just speared a new fish. Jailing
ain't like it was in the old days, Mr. Holland. Folks ain't raising criminals
like they used to," Dixon said.
"Step out of my way, please."
"Two thousand dollars and that boy
will be in a wood chipper. There won't be no trace of him except a Polaroid
picture for your doctor friend to burn in front of his daughter. Me and you has
got regional commonalities, sir. For that reason I'm offering you a
once-in-a-lifetime bargain." He snapped his fingers at the air, the
vacuity of his eyes filling with energy, his lips parted with expectation.
I pinched the bridge of my nose and
looked out into the grayness of the mountains and the fir and pine trees
bending in the wind.
"Let me see if I can phrase myself
adequately, Wyatt," I said. "Every so often a real piece of shit
floats to the top of the bowl. I'm not talking about just ordinary
white
trash like your sister but somebody who should have been strapped down in Ole
Sparky and had his grits scorched the first time he got a parking ticket. You
following me?"
"I'm fascinated, sir. Your
elocution is like none I have ever heard, and I have stood at tent revivals
throughout this great nation and have listened to the very best."
"You stay away from me,
partner," I said.
After I had pulled the gas nozzle out of
my tank and gotten back into the truck, he tapped on my glass, leaning close in
to it, his face distorting in the raindrops that slid down it as he stared at
Cleo. I wanted to simply drive away, but now I was blocked in by a car both in
front and behind me. I rolled down the window.
"What do you want?" I said.
"On Sugarland Farm I learned to
read lips from a deaf man. You said 'On the job' to Sue Lynn. You was telling
her she's a cop?"
"No."
"I hope you're not lying, sir. It
would seriously subtract from my faith in human beings." Then he said to
Cleo, lifting his hat, "Good afternoon to you, ma'am. One look at the
sweetness of your form and I got to go lift a car bumper."
Chapter
8
What had I done?
I took Cleo
back home and drove to the sheriff's office and caught him in the corridor of
the courthouse annex.
"You did what?" he
said, loud enough for passersby to stare.
"Can we go in your office?" I
said.
"I'm not sure I want you around
here that long."
I felt my face coloring and I looked
away from the glare in his eyes and started over.
"I messed up. The question is can
we fix it?" I said.
"This ain't about We. You
and trouble seem to go together like shit and stink."
"I'm having a hard time with your
remarks, Sheriff."
He looked up and down the corridor.
"You blow the cover on an
undercover cop, then you drag your sorry ass in here to piss on my rug? You're
lucky I don't have you in jail," he said.
"Is she one of yours or not?"
"No. I never heard of her."
"Wyatt Dixon offered to snuff Lamar
Ellison for two thousand dollars. That's solicitation of murder."
"Number one, that don't make any
sense. Number two . . . There ain't no number two. Just get a lot of gone
between you and here, okay?" the sheriff said.
I WENT BACK
to Doc's log house on the Black-foot. Doc and Maisey were out on the riverbank,
collecting colored stones to make a rock garden. Maisey lifted up a boxful and
smiled at me and carried the stones up the incline. Her jeans were damp on the
knees, her skin bright with tan in the sunlight.
But toward evening, when the sun died
below the ridgeline, I knew her attempts at cheer would go out of her face and
she would sit in front of the television set, her expression disjointed with
memories she refused to describe.
"We got another call while you were
gone. No voice, just heavy-metal music playing into the receiver," Doc
said.
"Maybe it was a crank," I
said.
"Sure. Anyway, I had the number
changed."
"Doc, I don't want to overstay my
welcome. Maybe I'm not much help to you here."
He picked at a callus on his hand, then
looked away at the river where it was in shadow between the trees.
"Everything I do with Maisey is all thumbs. She sees pity in my face and hides her
head under a pillow. How bad can one guy screw up?"
I helped him and Maisey gather rocks,
and we laid them out on the sunny side of a spruce tree and spread bagged
topsoil between them and planted moss roses and petunias and pansies in the
soil.
That evening, at sunset, I walked deep
into the woods and squatted by the river's edge and tossed pine cones into a
long ribbon of green water flowing between two large round boulders. I glanced
up at the ponderosa above me and saw L.Q. Navarro sitting on a thick limb, his
face in shadow, a gold toothpick catching the sun's last light.
"You wanted Doc to tell you to
go home?" he asked.
"Maybe," I said.
"You scared you're falling for
that Lonnigan woman? "
"Did I say that? Did I even
think that?" I said.
"She's an angry person."
"Her child was murdered."
"If you ask me, she's working on
more than one thorn."
"I'd just like a little peace,
L.Q."
"Interesting word choice. What
do them big round boulders out there in the river remind you of?"
"I'm going into town. You're not
coming, either."
"Tell her hello for me," he
said.
Early the next morning Doc and Maisey drove into Bonner to get the mail, and I washed the
breakfast
dishes and watered the rock garden with a sprinkler can. The phone rang inside.
When I answered it, a voice said,
"Oh, it's the Lone Ranger again."
"Who gave you this number?" I
said.
"What do you care? Put the pill
roller on."
"He's not here."
He paused, then said, "I made her
come."
"If this is Ellison. . ."
"That little twist is lying to you,
bubba. She knows it was consensual. That's why she didn't identify nobody from
the mug shots. Ask her what she whispered in my ear when I. . ."
I hung up on him and punched in
"Star 69" on the phone, then I called the sheriff.
"Ellison or one of the other
rapists is harassing the victim," I said.
"How do you know it's them?"
"I'm not even going to answer that
question."
"You can ID the call by—"
"I already tried. The number's
blocked."
"Tell Dr. Voss to change his
number."
"He did that yesterday."
I heard him take a deep breath.
"Tell Dr. Voss to come in and sign a complaint," he said.
"Where's this militia leader live?
What's his name, Hinkel?" I said.
"You're jumping me over the
hurdles, right?"
"I'm not sympathetic with the
problems of your office. You're telling a raped girl and her father, 'Eat shit,
you're on your own.'"
"You got a gift, son. Just talking
to you gives me the red scours. You should contact the Pentagon, see about a
career in biological warfare."
Carl Hinkel's ranch was outside Hamilton, down in the Bitterroot Valley. Beyond
the stone house in which he lived were green pastures dotted with prize Angus,
and beyond his pastures were mountains that rose up blue and as jagged as tin
against the sky, their saddles and peaks blazing with new snow.
Carl Hinkel's drive was planted with
poplar trees, his white gravel walks bordered with rosebeds. An American flag
flew upside down in the front yard, the cloth popping in the wind, the chain
tinkling against the silver pole.
There was no gate across the cattle
guard, but I must have triggered an electronic signal when I entered Hinkel's
property, because two men immediately came from behind the house and stood in
the driveway, their feet slightly spread, their hands opening and closing at
their sides, their bodies contoured with the anatomical distortions of steroid
addicts. They wore military boots and undershirts and carried pistols in their
belts, and in each of their unshaved faces was a pinched, dark light that
seemed to have no relationship to anything in their environment. I nodded at
them, but they continued to stare at me with the fixated intensity of people
for whom daily life was part of a cosmic conspiracy.
Hinkel emerged from a small stone hut
off to the side of the main house, wearing a
navy blue shirt and white suspenders and corduroy trousers. He eyed me
carefully, smoke leaking from around the stem of the corncob pipe clenched in
his mouth. He waved the two men away.
"You were at the rodeo. You have a
history with Wyatt," he said.
"I'd like to talk with you about
him, Mr. Hinkel. Or, more specifically, about a man named Lamar Ellison,"
I said.
"Wyatt says you were a Texas
Ranger."
"Among other things."
"A Ranger?" he said
reflectively. "Well, we'll just have to ask you in, sir."
I followed him into the hut, stooping
slightly under the doorway's wood casement. The desk and tables and shelves
inside were stacked with clutter. The monitor on his computer bathed the stone
walls with a green light. He clicked off the screen so I could not read what
was on it.
On the wall were pictures of Douglas
MacArthur, A. P. Hill, and the founder of the American Nazi Party, George
Lincoln Rockwell. There was also a youthful photograph of Carl Hinkel in
uniform.
"You were in the airborne, Mr.
Hinkel?" I said.
His eyes had a peculiar cast in them.
They seemed to look at me in a mirthful way, and at the same time analyze each
word I had just spoken.
"You asked about this man Ellison.
He's been here. But not recently. He won't be back, either," he said,
ignoring my question about his military background.
His accent was Tidewater, the r's almost
like w's. He sat erectly in his chair at his desk, his entire posture
one of ninety-degree angles.
"Ellison is no longer
welcome?" I said, and tried to smile.
"I have nothing to say about
him."
"Wyatt Dixon offered to kill him
for two thousand dollars. That's bargain basement. I have the feeling Wyatt was
trying to pick up two grand on a done deal."
"You're offensive, sir."
"Excuse me?"
"I don't share your frame of
reference. You presume that I do."
I placed my elbow on his desk and leaned
toward him and said, "Psychopaths like Lamar Ellison and Wyatt Dixon and
the men who bombed the Federal Building in Oklahoma City? They all seek
validation from male authority figures, fraudulent patriarchs who manipulate
them for their own ends. They come to you like rats down a mooring rope, Mr.
Hinkel."
He looked at me for a long time, his
eyelids never blinking.
"You came here to sow discord and
violence between two troubled young men," he said. "You use the
methods of ZOG well. You may be a gentile but the yellow star is on your
brow."
The evening of the next day Doc took Maisey to a movie in Missoula. I called
Cleo and asked her to supper, but she had to work late at the clinic and
said
she would meet me in town, maybe for dessert, at nine o'clock.
I parked my truck by the Clark Fork
River and walked back across the bridge toward downtown. The western sky was
pink, the mountains unbroken and dark across the horizon. Down below I could
see trout feeding on the flies that were hatching in the shadows of the bridge.
The air smelled cold and heavy, and the runoff from the melting snow in the
mountains had flooded the willows along the banks so that their branches
trailed like lace in the water.
I walked farther into town and went into
a saloon and cafe called the Oxford, which claimed to have never closed its
doors since 1891.1 paid little attention to a waxed, black car across the
street, and the three men in suits who sat inside it.
I ate a hamburger and drank a cup of
coffee at the counter. Deeper inside the building was a darkened bar area where
topless women were dancing on a runway. I finished eating and walked back
outside and started to cross the street at the light. The black car pulled to
the curb and a man in back opened a door for me. He was sandy-haired and
pleasant-looking, and he held up a badge holder for me to see.
"Hop in, Mr. Holland. We'll give
you a ride to your truck," he said.
"The Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco,
and Firearms is running a jitney service?" I said.
"We justify our jobs any way we
can. Come on, be a sport," he said.
I got inside and closed the door behind
me. The two men in front did not turn around. We drove up the street, past an
old vaudeville and movie theater that had been turned into a multiplex, and
crossed the long bridge over the river. The mountains in the west were rimmed
with fire and the air full of birds that swept in and out of the willows on the
riverbank.
The agent in back had a folder open on
his lap.
"You used to be one of us," he
said.
"Yeah, it was a great life," I
replied.
"It says here you meddled in a
federal investigation down in Texas. That's not true, is it?" He smiled
when he spoke.
"No, I don't recall that."
"You always eat supper in T&A
joints?" the agent in the passenger's seat asked, without turning around.
"Single man. You know how it
is," I said.
"Lamar Ellison hangs out there.
Just coincidence you wander in?" the agent in the passenger's seat said.
"Oh, you know Lamar? He raped my
friend's daughter," I said.
"My name's Amos Rackley. You know
why we're here?" the agent in back said.
"I think I do."
"Good. We'd hate for a
well-intentioned person like yourself to hurt one of our people. You understand
me, don't you?" the agent named Amos Rackley said.
"Yes, sir," I said.
"I think he's a hard guy," the
agent in the passenger's seat said to the driver. The hair on the back of his
neck was shaved neatly above his collar, his skin pink, his jawline well
defined.
"You talking about me?" I
said.
"Your jacket says you were
investigated for capping some Mexicans across the border. The Mexican
authorities claimed they were wets wandering around in the desert," he
said, turning his head so I could hear his words.
I leaned forward in my seat. "I
remember some guys shooting at me down there. It's kind of fuzzy, though. I got
hit twice. Maybe that's why my recall isn't as good as it should be," I
said.
"He's a fast thinker, too,"
the agent in the passenger's seat said to the driver.
"That's enough, fellows. Pull in
there," the agent named Amos Rackley said. He got out on his side of the
car and waited for me to join him.
He put on his sunglasses and stared at
the sunlight on the river's surface, then took them off again.
"You see the trout feeding in the
shade? You can always see them better with dark glasses on. They cut the glare
off the water," he said. He looked at me. "You're not interested in
fish?"
"Yeah, I am."
"You got to forgive Jim. He lost
some friends in the Oklahoma City bombing," Rackley said.
"A guy named Wyatt Dixon followed
me up here. He's bad news," I said.
"You got that right. But that's our
worry, not yours."
"Then get him out of my life—"
He raised the ball of his index finger
at me before I could continue.
"Jim wasn't the only one who lost
friends at Oklahoma City. You quit the Justice Department. You don't have a
vote in what we do. If one of our people gets hurt because you've got your nose
in the wrong place, I'm going to break it off," he said.
He got back into his car, and the three
agents drove away. I stared after them, my face tight and insentient, as though
a cold wind had just died and left my skin dead to the touch.
I went to the restaurant where I was
supposed to meet Cleo but she wasn't there and she didn't answer her phone,
either. I waited an hour, then drove back up the Blackfoot to Doc's house. I
went to bed without seeing either Doc or Maisey and dreamed of Texas and a
field of bluebonnets in which a white stallion splattered with blood tried to
mount a mare that turned and bit him in the forequarters.
Chapter
9
In the morningI discovered that Cleo had left three messages on
Doc's answering machine. The messages said only that she had gotten to the
restaurant late and did not explain why. I called her at home.
"It was
Lamar Ellison. I'd gone up to the Indian family's house to check on the
children. He followed me," she said.
"Ellison? Why's he coming around
you?" I said.
"I don't know. I saw him on his
motorcycle out on the road. The Indians don't have a phone. I couldn't get back
to the house. It was awful," she said.
"Did he do anything?"
"No, he just sat out there in the
twilight, looking up and down the road. Then he left."
"I'm coming out," I said.
"No, I have to go to work. I'll
call you this afternoon."
"Cleo—"
"I'm sorry. I have to go. I didn't
sleep much last night."
"Does this have anything to do with
your son?"
"How would I know? I just hope this
man Ellison dies a horrible death. I hate him," she said.
I WENT
outside and lifted my fly vest and canvas creel off a wood peg on the front
porch and put on my hip waders and drove my truck along the dirt road to a spot
on the river that was seldom fished. I walked a quarter of a mile through woods
and down a soft, green slope where huge gray boulders seemed to grow out of the
soil like mushrooms without stems. I waded into the river, which was ice-cold
from the melt and lack of sunlight, and fished a deep pool that was fed by a
small waterfall.
The days were growing warmer now, and
each morning the snow line in the mountain crests was receding and the rivers
and creeks were rising and turning from green to copper-colored.
I tied on a royal coachman and coated it
with fly dressing and cast it out twenty-five feet into the riffle at the head
of the pool. A rainbow rose from the gravel bed and hit the coachman as it
floated toward me, high and stiff and flecked with red hackle on top of the
riffle.
The rainbow must have been sixteen
inches and should have been mine. But just as I saw the strike, like a
flickering of quicksilver on top of the current, and jerked up my rod, I heard
the loud roar of a motorcycle out on the dirt road. I cut my eyes in the direction
of the road and the fly went whipping past my head into a tree limb and the
rainbow's dorsal fin roiled the
surface and disappeared.
I saw the rider of the motorcycle pull
to the top of a knoll above me and look down at me through the trees. He gunned
his engine, the straight exhaust pipe violating the green-gold, pine-scented
stillness of the air, reverberating off the boulders on the hillsides and
through the gullies that fed into the river.
Then he drove back toward my truck.
I pulled my royal coachman loose from
the tree and walked back up the slope toward the road.
The motorcycle driver went past me,
looking me full in the face, then turned around a hundred yards down the road.
I removed my fly vest and laid it on the hood of my truck and took L.Q.
Navarro's .45 revolver out of the cab and put it under the vest.
Lamar Ellison cut his gas feed and let
his bike coast to a stop next to the truck. He slid his sunglasses up on top of
his head, his eyes wandering over my person.
His body seemed larger in the shadows of
the trees, his bronze skin darker. He swung one leg over the motorcycle seat,
like a man getting down from a horse, and stood two feet from me. The wind
puffed at his back and I could smell reefer in his clothes and hair and an odor
like rotted teeth or decaying meat on his breath. I leaned my fly rod against
the truck and rested my forearm on top of my fly vest.
"Say it quick," I said.
"I didn't know the guy was a SEAL.
I was in the Corps. I'm sorry about his daughter," he said.
"You didn't sound that way over the
phone."
He touched at his nose with his wrist
and blew air out his nostrils. He glanced up and down the road, and put an
unlit cigarette in his mouth, then pulled it back out and stared at it
stupidly.
"Other people were listening. It
was all flash, man. They got me made for a snitch," he said.
He was bare-chested except for his
cracked, black leather vest. He inserted his hands in his armpits as though he
were cold.
"What were you doing up around Cleo
Lonnigan's place?" I asked.
"Looking for you. I got Sue Lynn to
call and ask where you was at. Sue Lynn's an Indian broad who digs bikers. I
mean, she'll pull a train if she has to."
When I didn't reply he stuck his hands
into his pockets, then refolded his arms across his chest and gripped the
outside of his triceps.
"I can't go back inside, man. I got
the Mexican Mafia and the Black Guerrilla Army down on me. When you're inside,
they can reach out anywhere you're at. The Aryan Brotherhood ain't always
there. The BGA is. Main pop anywhere is seventy percent boon."
"It's time for you to go," I
said.
His lips were dry in the shade, the skin
of his face grained with dirt. He shifted his weight and dust powdered around
his boots. His eyes were like those of a man trying to figure out how to get
inside a bus after the doors have been closed on him.
"Two other guys nailed her first.
I'll give them up," he said.
"Are
you that afraid of Doc?"
"I
want Witness Protection. I talked to an ATF guy. He made fun of me. He said
Voss was in the Phoenix Program. He said Voss would find me and cut off my ears
and put out my eyes and paint my face."
His eyes
were dark green, with cinders for pupils, and now they were wet along the rims.
I lifted
up L.Q. Navarro's revolver from under my fly vest and cocked back the hammer.
"You
either get out of here now or I'll shoot your sack off. My hope is that you
don't believe me," I said.
That afternoon I picked Cleo up at her house and we drove toward Flathead Lake to
have supper, through ranchland and low hills, along an undulating,
boulder-strewn river, into a golden sun. I told her about my encounter with
Ellison and the fact that his interest had been in me, not her.
"Why
do you believe anything a man like that says?" she asked.
"Because
the ATF has obviously jammed him up. Because he's a coward and could hardly
hide his fear. I don't think he was lying."
"Why
does the ATF care about him?"
"He's
mixed up with this militia bunch. Maybe he's dealing guns for them."
We drove
through a long, green valley, past the Mission Mountains, whose timbered slopes
rose into the clouds. Then I saw Flathead Lake for the first time, so vast it
looked like an ocean, its blue water ringed by hills, its eastern shore terraced with cherry orchards.
The sun had dropped below the mountains and the air was suddenly cool and
touched with rain and the smell of wood smoke, and I looked at the shadow that
never seemed to leave Cleo's eyes and squeezed her hand.
"Why'd
you do that?" she said.
"You
ever read Ernest Hemingway?" I asked.
"A
little."
"In For
Whom the Bell Tolls a Republican guerrilla is about to die on a hilltop in
Spain and he tells himself, 'The world is a fine place and well worth the
fighting for.' I always try to remember that line when I get down with the
nature of things," I said.
We stopped
at a restaurant on the eastern shore. It was too cool to eat by the water, but
we took a table near the back window where we could see the afterglow of the
sun on the hills on the far side of the lake and a steep-sided wooded island
where there was a lighted log mansion set inside the trees and a white seaplane
was taxiing in a rocky cove at the base of a cliff.
"I
might have a chance to buy one of those islands out there," she said.
"You
have that kind of money?" I said.
"Not
really. But you only live once, right?"
It started
to rain out on the lake, and the string of electric lights over the marina came
on and Cleo gazed at the boats rocking in their slips, her thoughts known only
to herself.
"This
is one of the prettiest places I've ever been," I said.
But she didn't seem to hear me.
"I talked with an FBI agent about
my son once," she said. "I told him my son was killed on National
Forest lands. I thought I could get federal help solving his murder. He called
back and said he checked, the body was actually on a state road when it was
discovered. I hung up. I couldn't find words to speak. I've always regretted
that."
The waitress brought the wine and poured
it into both our glasses. Cleo took a sip, ate a piece of bread, then drank
deeply from the glass. When she set it down, her mouth was red, her face
striped with shadows from the raindrops that ran down the window. Beyond the
marina was a motel built on a promontory above the lake. There was a blue neon
sign over the entrance and families were eating in a back dining room that was
supported by pilings built into the rock.
"You don't have to work tomorrow,
huh?" I said.
"No."
"I'm glad."
"Why?"
"Maybe we could do something
together," I said.
"You've never been married?"
"No. I have a son, though. He's
twenty. He goes to Texas A&M."
"What happened to his mother?"
"She died. She was married to
another man when she conceived our son. His name is Lucas. He's probably one of
the best string musicians in the state of Texas."
The waitress brought our food and went
away. The lake was dark now, and a sailboat was anchored out in the chop, its
cabin glowing with an oily yellow light. The back door of the restaurant was
open to let in the cool air, and I could hear a band playing at the motel up on
the promontory.
"That's Glenn Miller," I said.
"Montana is a time warp," she
said.
"So are all good places," I
said.
She was quiet for a moment, then she set
down her fork and lifted her eyes.
"You're not eating," she said.
"I don't eat much," I said.
"Billy Bob, you have a tendency to
stare at people."
"Do you want to go?" I said.
"Where?"
"Down the road. Any place you've a
mind. I don't care."
She watched my face, then picked up her
purse.
We got into my truck and drove as far as
the motel next door. I parked under the porte cochere. Through the lobby window
I could see a girl of high school age behind the counter.
"You sure this is what you
want?" Cleo said.
"Don't you?"
She didn't answer. She opened the truck
door for herself and stepped out in the rain. The neon glow on her skin seemed
to disfigure her face. For a moment I thought I saw L.Q. Navarro under the
porte cochere, raising his hand in a cautionary way.
Inside the room I turned off the lights
and sat in a chair and pulled off my boots with the awkwardness of a man who in
reality had never been good with intimacy. A crack of light shone through the
drawn curtains and I could see her silhouette as she undressed, a bare thigh, a
crinkle in her hip as she pushed her panties down over her knees. The window
was open and down below we could hear sounds from the gravel parking lot. I
took off my trousers and shirt and walked up behind Cleo and placed my hands on
her shoulders and started to turn her toward me. But her attention had been
captured by the voices that rose on the wind from the parking lot.
"No! Let me alone!" a little
boy was shouting.
"You get in the car, Ty!"
"I'm not going. You can't make me!
Get away from me!" the boy yelled.
Cleo held back the curtain, indifferent
to her nudity, and stared down at a middle-aged man in a white shirt and tie
trying to pull a small boy by his wrists inside an automobile. Cleo's face wore
an expression of unrelieved sadness.
"That's the family we saw in the
lobby. The kid's probably throwing a temper tantrum," I said.
"I know," she said.
"He's all right," I said.
"I know that. I know that he's all right."
Later, in bed, I tried to pretend to
myself that I wanted to give more than I wanted to receive. But I knew the
selfishness that was always at work in my life, the heat and the repressed
nocturnal longings and the violent memories that made me
wake sweating in the false dawn, the dust and blood splatter that flew from
L.Q. Navarro's coat the night I shot him, all these things that burned inside
me, that made me ache for the absolution of a woman's thighs and breasts and
the forgiveness of her mouth and the kneading pressure of her palms in the
small of my back.
I buried my face in the smell of Cleo's
hair and held her tightly against me and felt my heart twist and a dam break in
my loins and all the sound and light in my body enter her womb.
I propped myself up on my arms and
looked down into her face. Her stomach and thighs were moist against mine, and
I was smiling at her and expected her, at least perhaps, to open her eyes
lazily and smile back, her mouth ready to be kissed again. But her eyes were
tightly shut, her brow creased with three deep lines, as though I had just made
love to a fantasy and she was looking up into a hot sky that was tormented by
carrion birds.
And I knew what Doc had meant when he
said that neither the weight of headstones nor our heartbreaking and vain
attempts at re-creating first love would ever disallow the hold of the dead
upon the quick.
The next night Lamar Ellison was in a bar up the Blackfoot
River, crashed on beer and reds, listening to the country band, talking to Sue
Lynn, splitting a pitcher with Hollywood movie types who liked to float the
Blackfoot and the Little Big Horn in safari hats and fly
vests that showed off their suntans. Who knows, maybe he'd end up in the movies
himself. Hey, look what happened to the Angels when they latched on to Leary
and all these middle-class pukes who couldn't wait to fry their heads with
Osley purple.
There was Holly Girard over at the bar,
her husband, too. Xavier was big shit with the writers' community around here.
Big shit in New York and Hollywood, too. European television crews interviewed
him in lowlife bars, which Lamar couldn't figure out, because why would a guy
who owned a mansion above the river want everybody to see him on camera with
drooling rummies?
Had Xavier heard about that rape beef?
That doctor, the SEAL, was a writer or poet, too, wasn't he? Man, that wasn't
good. Xavier had keys to the right doors and got an artistic buzz or something
goofing with bikers and guys who'd been inside. Besides, the guy's wife was a
first-rate box of chocolates.
Lamar took the pitcher back up to the
bar and stood next to Xavier, nodding at both him and his wife, blowing his
cigarette smoke at an upward angle to show the right respect.
"Hey, my man Xavier," Lamar
said.
"Yeah, Lamar, what's
happenin'?" Xavier said. But his eyes were oblique, focused on the band
and the dancers out on the floor, a swizzle stick deep in his jaw.
His wife was even worse, gazing out the
door, chin in the air, like her shit should be bronzed and used for
paperweights.
"I got some bad press. It was a bum
beef, though. The sheriff knew it from the get-go. That's why he cut me loose.
I got no bad feelings against that doctor. The dude was in Force Recon. I went
to Wal-Mart to buy his book but they didn't have it," Lamar said.
"I don't read the papers a lot, so
I'm not real tuned in on it. We're about to boogie, Lamar," Xavier said.
"How you doin', Ms. Girard?"
Lamar said, leaning forward so she could see his face.
"I'm quite well," she said.
But she didn't turn her head toward him and her eyes were lowered, as though
she did not want to see him even on the corner of her vision.
"I'm a big fan," he said.
"Thank you. That's very kind,"
she replied.
He started to speak again, but she
picked up her purse and walked past him to the rest room. She wore a
silvery-blue dress that trembled like ice water on her rump.
"Man, she's—" he said to
Xavier.
"She's what?" Xavier said,
turning toward him.
"Real talented." Lamar watched
Xavier sip from his shot glass, then chase the whiskey with beer. The guy must
have a liver the size of a football, he thought. How's a drunk fuck like that
end up with money and fame and educated broads falling all over him in
bookstores?
He felt his irritability growing.
"I'm starting to get a big chill here. I do something to you or your
lady?" he said.
"No, I just have to go home and
write."
"You drink B-52's before you write?
. . . Look, I never went asking for no trouble. I'm not a bad guy. You want to
see a badass? Check the cowboy in the corner. That's Wyatt Dixon."
"You need to let go of my arm,
Lamar." "I'm paying out thirteen hundred bucks for a new bridge. I
didn't press charges against your friend. But I end up on the front page of the
fucking newspaper . . ."
"I know what you mean," Xavier
said, peeling Lamar's hand loose from his arm. "Those news guys don't know
character when they see it."
Then both Xavier and his wife were out
the door, and Lamar's face felt full of needles, his ears humming with sound,
as though he had been slapped.
He talked awhile with Sue Lynn at the table, even though she had come to the
bar with Wyatt. You had to show Wyatt you weren't afraid of him. Not head on,
nothing confrontational, just a little signal you didn't rattle. Then he had
gone outside and smoked some Mexican gage with two other bikers, swigging off a
long-neck beer on top of their scooters, digging the sunset, watching the log
trucks disappear up the grade in the dusk, trying to get rid of the vague sense
of humiliation he'd felt when the Girards walked away from him like he was
wrapped in stink.
But reefer and alcohol together always
seemed to cook a terminal or two in his head. When he went
back
inside and sat down with Sue Lynn, he started talking. And talking. And
talking. Without control, as though somebody had shot him up with a combo of
crystal meth and Sodium Pentothal.
Then his brain kicked into gear again
and he heard his own voice, in mid-sentence, as though waking from a dream,
totally unaware of what he had just said.
Sue Lynn was a breed and looked as if
she'd been poured out of two different paint buckets, but that didn't explain
the whacked-out stare she was giving him now.
"I say something wrong?" Lamar
asked.
"Fuck you," she replied.
"Who put a broom up your ass?"
Her eyes were red and glistening, as
though she'd had a few hits of gage herself. She pushed back her chair and
picked up her beer bottle and went out the door and let the screen slam behind
her.
Now Wyatt was looking at him from the
corner of the room. How many people in here had any idea what kind of guy was
in their midst? They thought Wyatt was one of their own, with his flat-brim
cowboy hat and triangular back and narrow waist and small, hard butt inside
skintight jeans. But anybody who'd ever been on the yard would scope out a dude
like Wyatt Dixon in five seconds.
Lamar winked and gave him a thumbs-up.
But Wyatt just looked at him with those colorless, dead eyes, his mouth like a
purple slit, as though he knew something about Lamar's future that Lamar did
not.
Well, eat shit and die, Lamar thought.
Why was everybody either in his face or on his case? A doctor, for Christ's
sake, knocks his bridge down his throat. An ATF prick gets his jollies
describing how his ears are going to get lopped off. He tries to talk reason to
this Texas lawyer and the lawyer points a gun at his crotch. A Hollywood movie
star and her rumdum husband blow their noses on him in a public place and Sue
Lynn tells him to get fucked.
Maybe it was time to think about losing
Montana and heading back out to the Coast. He could almost see himself tooling
down the PCH to Neptune's Net on the Ventura County line, staying high on the
sounds of surf and salt wind and waves crashing on rocks. Let the shitkickers
frolic with the sheep.
He got on his Harley and bagged it down
the road, leaning into the curves, the roar of his exhaust flattening against
the cliffs on the roadside. The sun had sunk below the mountains, and the sky
was ribbed with strips of purple cloud. A pickup truck came toward him out of
the dusk and sucked past him in a rush of cold air, but through the window he
recognized the driver, that damned Texas doctor he wished he'd never set eyes
on.
Did the doctor recognize him? He didn't
need a return performance of that night in the bar at Lincoln. Lamar watched
the truck disappear in his rearview mirror, then lifted his face into the wind
again, secretly ashamed of the relief he felt.
He rounded another curve and saw a
cottage supported by pilings on the edge of the river and a white Cherokee
parked by the lilac bushes in front. It was the same Cherokee that Holly and
Xavier Girard had left the saloon in. There were lights on behind the shades,
and smoke rose from a barbecue pit on the deck above the water.
Maybe the evening still held promise
after all.
Lamar pulled onto a gravel turnaround
against the mountain, killed his engine, and walked back down the shoulder of
the road to the Cherokee. He bent down over each tire and sliced off the valve
stem with his pocketknife, then stepped back and viewed his handiwork.
It still needed a little something
extra.
He found some rocks under a culvert,
heavy and solid and hand-sized for throwing. He heaved one through the front
window and two through the passenger windows, then reached inside with his
knife and began slicing the leather seats.
That's when he heard Xavier Girard
running at him.
It was funny how a celebrity punk
thought the real world was like the one he made up in his books. Lamar shifted
his knife to his left hand and caught Xavier in the mouth with his right.
Xavier went down in the gravel like a sack of grain.
Lamar shook his fingers.
"You must have ate your iron pills
today. I think you busted my hand, Xavier," he said.
Xavier didn't answer. He was on his hands and knees now, his
mouth dripping blood and spittle, his stomach
hanging out of his belt like a balloon full of milk.
"You're done, Xavier. Don't get up.
Oh well, I guess this means I don't get a part in one of your wife's
movies," Lamar said.
He pulled Xavier the rest of the way to
his feet, then propped him against the side of the Cherokee and drove his fist
into Xavier's stomach, just below the sternum.
Xavier fell to his knees and vomited, then
pressed his forehead against the gravel, gasping for breath, his back shaking.
"See you around. By the way, I read
one of your books in the joint. I thought it sucked," Lamar said, and
started back toward his Harley.
But Xavier's hand caught the calf of his
leg, then he wrapped both arms around Lamar's thigh.
"You want a little soft-shoe?
'Cause this time I'm gonna take out all your teeth," Lamar said, and
cocked back his boot.
Holly Girard seemed to float out of
nowhere, holding a nickel-plated revolver with both hands, the tiny bones in
her hands whitening behind the cylinder. Her dark blond tresses hung on her
cheeks and her mouth was as red and soft-looking as a strawberry that he would
have loved to burst against his teeth.
He stepped back from her, his palms raised upward. Three or four other
people had walked out of the cottage behind her.
"It's over as far as I'm concerned.
Your old man shouldn't have dissed me. You want
to call the heat, I understand your point of view," he said.
That ought to leave a fishhook or two in
her head, he thought.
But when he looked at her eyes, then at
Xavier and the other people from the cottage, he realized they never heard him,
that the loathing and disgust they felt for him was so great they viewed him as
they would a voiceless obscenity trapped under a glass bell.
He walked away, toward his motorcycle,
his hobnailed boots crunching on the gravel. When he turned around they were
gone, back inside the cottage, probably dialing 911.
So what? He was probably better off in
the can than back on the street. He fired up his Harley and roared down the
asphalt.
Home was a one-room block house made of
railroad ties and an open-air tin shed where he sometimes repaired motorcycles.
But it was on the Blackfoot, right upstream from a bar that was surrounded by
pine trees, and he could cross the water on a cable-hung walk-bridge and shoot
deer and bear up a canyon just above the old railroad bed. This spring he had killed
a black bear and had hung it by its hind legs from an engine hoist to dress it
out, then had gotten drunk and let the meat spoil. The bear still hung in the
shed, coated with blowflies, its smell rising up against the tin roof of the
shed as the day heated.
He sat on the edge of the bed in the
darkness of his cabin, stripped to the waist, and smoked a joint
and
drank a quart bottle of beer, then lay back on the pillow and went to sleep.
Tomorrow was another day. The same sun would rise on the jail as on the river.
You just stayed on the hucklebuck, man. It didn't matter where you did it.
In his dream he thought he heard the
weight of the black bear swinging slightly from the engine hoist in the tin
shed, then he awoke and realized someone was in the room with him.
A chain locked down across his throat,
the links binding and cutting into his skin. Lamar pried at the chain with his
fingers, but the dark figure who stood above him fitted a pipe over the boom
handle, as a professional logger would, and squeezed down the boom, tightening
it until saliva ran from both corners of Lamar's mouth.
Lamar heard the rattle of liquid inside
a tin container, then a splashing sound on the floor. The unmistakable
sharpness of paint thinner climbed into his nostrils. A match flared in the
figure's hands and just briefly in the illumination Lamar saw a face that was
both strange and familiar at the same time.
The fire spread under his bed in
seconds. He thrashed his legs, twisting his head back and forth, and beat his
fists against his own skull.
The fire swelled over him in a cone, and
inside the flames he thought he heard a sound like blowflies and he saw
himself, for just an instant, hanging upside down over a bright fissure in the
earth he had long ago convinced himself did not exist.
Chapter
10
With the clarity of vision and singleness of purpose that
seemed to characterize everything Sheriff Cain did, he arrested Doc Voss the
next afternoon and lodged him in the county jail.
I went into the sheriff's office without
knocking. He lowered the newspaper he was reading and looked at me over his
spectacles.
"You grow up in a hog lot?" he
said.
"What makes you think you can get
away with something like this?" I said.
He took his feet off his desk. "Let's see if I understand you
correctly," he said. "Putting a friend of yours in jail on a murder
warrant is somehow outside my job description?"
"On what evidence?"
He yawned sleepily. "On a previous
occasion he almost killed the victim in a bar. The victim later raped the
suspect's daughter. The suspect, that's Dr. Voss I'm talking about, was in the
Phoenix Program in Vietnam and probably did things
to human beings that would make most people vomit. If you were still a Texas
Ranger, who'd you be looking at?"
"Because he was in Vietnam doesn't
make him a murderer. What's the matter with you?"
"Did I mention that a bone-handled
skinning knife with the doctor's fingerprints on it was found at the crime
scene?" the sheriff asked.
I wanted to speak, to say something that
would refute his words, but my throat was suddenly dry, my palms damp and stiff
and hard to close.
"Shut the door after you
leave," the sheriff said.
"Ellison was in Doc's house. He
took the knife then. Were his prints on the knife?" I said.
"No."
I rubbed my forehead, trying to think.
"Look, Maisey said at least one of
the men who raped her had gloves on. That was Ellison," I said.
"Good. Dr. Voss's defense attorney
can say all that in court."
"Ellison was a snitch. His own
people wanted him dead. Talk to the ATE," I said.
"I classify most of those federal
boys as A.A. Which means I leave them alone," he replied.
I looked at him incredulously.
"You're saying the feds are drunks?"
"Arrogant Asswipes. Now go piddle
around on the trout stream or visit your friend up in the holding tank or
whittle some shavings outside under a tree. To tell you the truth, son, my
estimation of the Texas Rangers has plummeted."
I went out of his office, my ears
ringing. But I couldn't let go of his remarks. I opened his door again and went
back inside.
"I'm representing Dr. Voss. He's
not to be questioned unless I'm present. I'm going to hang this case around
your neck," I said.
"Damn, I wish you would. I hate
this job," he said, and picked up his newspaper again.
It was Saturday and Doc's bail would not be set until his
arraignment Tuesday afternoon. I rode the elevator up to the jail section of
the courthouse with a deputy sheriff and waited in a small interview room until
the deputy brought Doc down the corridor in handcuffs and an orange jumpsuit.
"How about it on the cuffs?" I
said to the deputy.
"They stay on," he answered,
and closed the door on us.
"I'll get you out Tuesday,
Doc," I said. Doc stood at the window, looking down on the maple trees
along the streets. "How bad is this going to be?" he asked.
"You know that knife I gave
you?"
"Yeah, I couldn't find it the other
day."
"It was in Ellison's cabin. With
your prints on it."
That's not good, is it?" He lifted
his manacled wrists and propped them on the windowsill. The hills north of the
train depot were green and domed against the sky and clumps of whitetail were
grazing on the slopes.
"Take good care of Maisey, will
you?"
"Doc, you didn't do it, did
you?"
He started to answer, then stared out
the window silently. His ill-fitting, orange jumpsuit looked like a clown's
costume on his body.
By Monday afternoon I had read the homicide investigators' reports
on Lamar Ellison's murder and had retraced Ellison's movements of Friday
evening back to the tavern on the Blackfoot. I had also managed to interview a
bartender at the tavern, Holly and Xavier Girard, and a biker who'd been at the
table with Sue Lynn and Ellison.
The biker's name was Clell Miller and he
ran a welding business in a tin shed on the west side of Missoula. He was
shirtless and wore black goggles up on his forehead, and sweat ran down his
torso into the underwear that was bunched out over the top of his jeans.
"What were Lamar and Sue Lynn
talking about?" I said.
"It didn't make no sense. Lamar was
stoned. Something about kids," he said. "Look, man, I don't want to
speak bad of the dead. The Mexican Mafia had a hit on the guy. He ratted out
some people inside. So maybe they cooked him. That's their style. They'll
Molotov a guy in his cell."
"You think Wyatt Dixon might have
lit up his life?" I said.
He shut down the valves on the acetylene
torch he had been using. He wiped the sweat and soot off his face with a rag.
"I ain't said nothing about Wyatt
Dixon. I ain't even told you he was there."
"That's right. You haven't said a
word about him. Where'd you get the Confederate flag on your wall?" I
said.
"At the Indian powwow in Arlee.
What do you care?" he said, irritably.
"Is Wyatt a bad dude?"
"I know what you're trying to do,
man. This all started 'cause your friend's daughter pulled a train. The way I
heard it, she invited them guys over and couldn't get enough. Flush it any way
you want, chief, you either beat feet or I'm gonna fry up some Texas
toast."
He popped his welding torch alight.
When I got back to Doc's
place I saw an old sedan parked in the trees, down by the river. Its windshield
and headlights had been removed, the body sprayed with gray primer, and two
large numerals were painted in orange on the driver's door.
The back door of the house was open. I walked inside and saw
Maisey in her bedroom, lying on her side, her back to me. The Indian girl named
Sue Lynn sat on the mattress beside her, stroking Maisey's hair. The plank
floor creaked under my foot, and Sue Lynn's face jerked toward me.
"What are you doing in here?"
I said through the doorway.
"I came to see about the doctor. Is
he going to be all right?" she said, standing up now.
"He's in the county jail, charged
with murder. Does that sound all right?" I said.
"Don't talk to her like that, Billy
Bob. She came here to help," Maisey said.
"She's buds with Ellison's
motorcycle pals, Maisey," I said.
"What do you know?" Sue Lynn
said.
"I think you're here for self-serving
reasons," I said.
"Then sit on this," she
replied, and raised her middle finger at me.
She tried to stare me down, then her
eyes broke. She hurried out the far bedroom door into the living room and kept
going, through the front screen and down the slope toward the riverbank. I went
after her.
"Listen to me," I said.
"I used to be a lawman. I think the G put you inside the Berdoo Jesters.
You know who set fire to Ellison, don't you?"
She was standing in the shade of the
trees, and her dark skin was freckled with the sunlight that shone through the
canopy.
"You should have kept the doctor
away from Lamar in the bar up at Lincoln. You wouldn't listen to me. This is
all on you," she said.
"What's your last name?"
"Big Medicine."
"You're a Crow?" I said.
"How did you know that?" she
said.
"One of the scouts for Custer at
the Little Big Horn was a Crow Indian named Big Medicine. The scouts wanted to
sing their death song before they rode into
Sitting Bull's village. Custer accused them of cowardice and fired them. They
were the only survivors of the massacre."
She began backing toward her automobile,
her eyes fixed uncertainly on mine, as though I possessed omniscience or some
form of magic. Even though the air was cool in the shade, there was a bright
chain of sweat around her throat.
"The car belongs to a stock-car
driver. It doesn't have lights. I have to get it back to the junkyard before
sunset," she said.
"Wyatt Dixon is a dangerous man.
Don't let those federal guys use you."
She felt behind her for the handle on
the car door, then a moment of resolve, perhaps even cautious trust, seemed to
form in her face.
"Say I do know some government
fucks? Why would they be asking me if Lamar and the others have been in
Kingman, Arizona?" she said.
"The men who blew up the Alfred P.
Murrah Building in Oklahoma City hung around there at one time or
another," I said.
Her lips moved silently, as though she
were repeating the words to herself, as though the enormity of their
connotation would not come into focus behind her eyes.
An attorney friend of Doc's filed a pro hac vice petition on
my behalf, which would empower me to represent Doc on a one-case basis without
passing the Montana bar exam. On Tuesday afternoon Doc
was
released from the county jail on a two-hundred-thousand-dollar bond.
When we walked outside the sun was
shining on the hills and the air smelled of freshly mowed grass and raindrops
striking on warm cement.
"How about I buy you a
dinner?" I said.
"Where's Maisey?"
"At the house."
"She didn't want to come with
you?"
"I don't know much about these
things, Doc, but I think rape is like theft of the soul. You've got to give her
some time."
"Sure," he said, his eyes
averted, his face empty. "Let's get some dinner."
THAT
EVENING, at a university gathering, Xavier Girard gave a reading from his
newest novel, one that some believed might win him his third Edgar Award. Students
and faculty and local writers filled the room. Sitting in the middle of the
audience was a man in skintight jeans and cowboy boots and a long-sleeve polka
dot shirt buttoned at the wrists. He wore women's purple garters on his upper
arms. He did not remove his wide-brim hat, even though the people behind him
kept clearing their throats and leaning to the side to see around him.
He had arrived early, with an
effeminate, longhaired youth whose smirk at his surroundings and flaccid muscle
tone and lack of posture were in exact contrast to the hatted man's obvious
physical power and lantern-jawed concentration.
The audience loved Xavier Girard. He was
generous in spirit and irreverent toward stuffiness and convention. He was
egalitarian and humble and acutely aware of propriety and language in the
presence of women. He wore his own success and fame like a loose garment, and
at signings charged books on his own account when a student or clergy person
could not afford one. If he drank too much from the thermos of cold vodka by
his elbow, his sin was a forgivable one, the alcoholic flush on his face a mask
for the pain that only a poet felt.
His mouth was slightly bruised, his lip
still puffed from his fight with Lamar Ellison, but his voice resonated through
the room. He read the dialogue of his characters in peckerwood and Cajun
accents; his eyes seemed to look directly at every one of his listeners, the
iambic cadence of his descriptive passages like lines from a sonnet.
But when his eyes fell on Wyatt Dixon's,
they held there, narrowing, the way a hunter's might when he sees an unexpected
presence in a woods and realizes the nature of the game has just changed.
During the question and answer period
that followed the reading, Wyatt Dixon's square, callus-edged hand floated into
the air.
"Yes, sir?" Xavier said.
Dixon stood and removed his hat.
"You, sir, are obviously a great writer and believer in the land of the
free and home of the brave," he said. "In that spirit, can you tell
me what is wrong with Americans running a gold mine on the Blackfoot
River
and providing jobs for other Americans?"
The room was silent. A couple of people
turned and looked in Dixon's direction,
then glanced away.
"We don't need cyanide in the
river. Does that answer your question?" Xavier
said.
"It surely does. I'm glad that's
been explained to me. Thank you very much, sir," Dixon said. "Sir,
could I ask you—"
A woman librarian picked up the
microphone from the podium and, her lips brushing against the mike's surface,
hurriedly said, "Mr. Girard will be signing books at the table in the
back. In the meantime, everyone can help himself to the punch."
After the line had thinned out at the
refreshment table, Wyatt Dixon and his young friend filled their cups. Except
Dixon did not drink his. He smelled it, inhaling the strawberry bouquet and
seltzer water approvingly. Then he removed his hat and dipped his pocket comb
into the bowl and combed his hair in a wall mirror.
While people stared at him openmouthed,
he fitted his hat back on and got in the line for a signed book.
"Just make it out to my friend Carl
Hinkel, a Virginia gentleman and patriot," Dixon said.
"I can't do that," Xavier
said.
"I can see you are a man of your
convictions. Just sign your name and I will treasure it always. Sir, I'd also
like to shake your hand."
Xavier rose and placed his hand inside
Dixon's.
"It was good of you to be here. But
you shouldn't try to jerk people around," he said, then his mouth
stiffened
involuntarily when Dixon began to squeeze.
"Lamar Ellison and me shared the
same house inside Quentin," Dixon said. He continued to grin, his vacuous
eyes staring into Xavier's. "On the West Coast, people inside call a cell
a 'house.' You don't know that, 'cause you ain't never been inside. So that
ain't to be held against you. But you might brush up on the details for your
next book."
"Let go of my hand," Xavier
said, his words spaced out, as he tried to retain any dignity the situation
would allow him.
"You didn't set fire to my bunkie,
did you, Mr. Girard? Just 'cause he busted out a window in your car and laid
open your lip? You can't do that to a Berdoo Jester, sir," Dixon said, his
hand catching fresh purchase.
The blood had drained out of Xavier's
face. He felt with his other hand for a weapon, for the thermos on the book
table, but Dixon pulled him forward, off balance.
"I don't mean to mock you, sir, but
for a man who has just warmed up all these women's secret parts, your eloquent
vocabulary has flown like a flock of shit birds off a manure wagon," Dixon
said.
Xavier's
knees were buckling now, tears running without shame down his cheeks.
Suddenly Dixon released him.
"Somebody get a mop. This man has
done wet hisself," he said.
He picked up his cup of punch, and, with
one gartered arm
across his young friend's shoulders, walked out of the room.
The next morning I heard the story from the owner of a local
bookstore who had come out to see Doc and Maisey. At noon I drove to the
sheriff's office and was told where I could find him.
I parked my truck in the leafy shade of
cotton-woods on the Clark Fork, only three blocks from the courthouse, and
walked down the embankment to the water's edge. The sheriff was casting a Mepps
spinner in a high arc out into the middle of the river, letting it swing taut
in the riffle before he began retrieving it. In the sunlight the scars on the
backs of his hands looked like thin white snakes.
I went through the account about Wyatt
Dixon's behavior at the university reading. He waited for me to finish, reeling
in his line, casting it out again, then said, "I know all about it."
"Why's a guy like Dixon care about
this gold mine up on the Blackfoot River?" I asked.
"Carl Hinkel uses these morons to
run various kinds of scams on the government."
"What kinds of scams?"
"Hinkel finds old mining laws on
the books that allow him to file mineral claims for next to nothing. Then he
starts bulldozing the mountain away and washing the rock with cyanide. The tree
huggers go apeshit and hammer their tallywhackers on their congressman's desk
till the government buys out the claim and makes a millionaire out of a pissant
who wouldn't recognize gold if you pulled it out of his teeth and
stuck it up his nose."
"I think Dixon wants to put
suspicion for Ellison's death on Xavier Girard," I said. "He knows
Doc didn't do it, and he figures eventually you're going to be looking at him
for the murder."
"In other words, just about anybody
in Missoula County could have killed Lamar Ellison except your friend?"
I hesitated before I spoke again. His
physical size was huge, his level of tolerance unpredictable.
"You told me you'd like to pinch
Ellison's head off with a chain. You drove a log truck. Whoever killed Ellison
knew how to use a boomer chain," I said.
"Son, there's three categories of
stupid. 'Stupid,' 'stupider,' and 'stupidest.' But I think you're establishing
new standards. Did the doctor have to use forceps on your head to get you out
of the womb?"
"You'd love Texas, Sheriff."
"That's not a compliment, is
it?"
"Search me," I said, and
walked back to my truck.
Behind me, I heard his nylon line zing off the reel, his metal
lure rattling through the shining air.
An hour later I answered the phone at Doc's
house.
"I ain't ever seen a place this
beautiful, Billy Bob. I cain't wait to hit the stream," the voice on the
other end said.
"Lucas?"
"Yeah. We're at Rock Creek. We need
directions out to Doc's place."
"We?"
"Temple and me. My drilling rig
shut down. You said to come out if I could get some time off."
I tried to
remember the conversation but could not. My innocent, wonderful, talented, and
vulnerable son, why did you have to come here now?
"Temple's with you?" I said.
"Yeah, what's wrong?"
Temple Carrol was the private
investigator I relied on in my law practice. But she was a lot more than that,
and our relationship was one that neither of us had ever been able to define.
"I didn't tell her to come up
here," I said.
"Since when do you have to tell her
anything?"
My head was throbbing.
"Lucas—" I began.
"Maisey called her. So did Doc. He
said Maisey's real messed up in the head. Who are these guys who raped
her?"
"You stay out of this stuff,
Lucas."
"I'm gonna put Temple on the phone.
Thanks for the welcome to Montana," he said.
Chapter
11
Temple stood in the dusk by the side of the Ford Explorer she drove, her face
obviously fatigued by the long drive from Deaf Smith and now my inept-ness in
her presence. Temple had been a gunbull in Angola Prison in Louisiana, a patrolwoman
in Dallas, and a sheriff's deputy in Fort Bend County in Southeast Texas. She
had chestnut hair and dressed like a tomboy and had never lost the baby fat on
her hips and arms. Her level of loyalty was ferocious. But so was her demand on
the loyalty of others.
Lucas had
already unloaded his things and was pegging up a tent among the trees by the
river.
"Maisey and Doc didn't tell you I
was coming up with Lucas?" she asked.
"No. But I'm glad you did," I
said.
"I'm going to check into a motel in
Missoula."
"There's room inside."
She shook her head. "Where's a good
place to eat?"
"There's a truck stop in Bonner.
I'll go with you. Then we'll come back here and you
can stay the night."
She thought about it and yawned, then
said, "You involved with somebody here?"
"Why do you think that?" I
said, my eyes slipping off her face.
"Just a wild guess."
Early the next morning I smelled wood smoke and bacon
frying outside, and I looked through the window and saw Lucas squatting by a
fire ring he had made of stones next to the river's edge. He dipped a coffeepot
into a creek that flowed into the river and sprinkled coffee grinds into the
water and set the pot to boil on the edge of his fire. I walked down to the
bank and squatted next to him.
"That creek water's got deer scat
in it," I said.
"The animals drink it. It don't
bother them," he said. He grinned and wedged the blade of his pock-etknife
into a can of condensed milk.
He was as tall as I, with the same hair
and wide, narrow shoulders. But he had his mother's hands, those of a musician,
and her gentle looks.
"It's good to have you here,
bud," I said.
"How could anybody figure Doc for a
murderer? What kind of law they got up here, anyway?"
"Doc's a complicated man."
"What's that supposed to
mean?"
"He killed a lot of people in the
war, Lucas."
I could feel his eyes on the side of my
face.
"You saying maybe he done it?"
he asked.
"I try not to study on it. The way
I figure it, the guy who died had it coming."
I heard him clear his throat, as though
a moth had flown into it. He lifted the bacon in his skillet with a fork and
turned it over in the grease, his eyes watering in the smoke.
"Sometimes things come out of you
that scare me, Billy Bob," he said.
I PICKED UP
Temple at her motel in Missoula and we drove to the courthouse and walked down
the corridor to the sheriff's office.
"Let me talk to him alone,"
she said.
"Why?"
"Woman's touch, that sort of
thing."
"You think I already tracked pig
flop on the rug?"
"You? Not a chance."
She left his door partly open, and I
could see inside and hear them talking. I soon had the feeling the sheriff
wished he had gone to lunch early.
"How does anybody lose a bag full
of bloody and semen-stained sheets and clothing? You drop it off at the
Goodwill by mistake?" she said.
"We think the night janitor picked
up the bag and threw it in the incinerator," the sheriff said.
"So then you conclude there's no
physical evidence to prove Ellison stole Doc's knife. Which allows you to
arrest Doc for Ellison's murder. What kind of brain-twisted logic is
that?"
"Now listen—"
"You pulled in two other suspects
for Maisey's rape. Their fingerprints were at the
crime scene. But you didn't charge them."
"One guy was a part-time carpenter.
He worked on that house before Dr. Voss bought it. The other man was at a party
there. A couple of witnesses back up his story."
"You know they did it."
"Help me prove that and I'll lock
them up. Look, you're mad because your friend is not easy to defend. The knife
puts him inside Ellison's cabin. He stopped at a filling station a mile down the
road and filled his tank with gas a half hour before the fire started. He had
motivation and no alibi. When we picked him up and told him somebody had burned
Ellison to death, he said, 'I should give a shit?' You were a police officer.
Who would you have in custody?"
"I'd start with Wyatt Dixon. Why do
you allow a psychopath like that in your town, anyway?" "Say
again?" he said.
"Back home our sheriff is a
one-lung cretin who couldn't go to the bathroom without a diagram. But he'd
have Wyatt Dixon pepper-Maced and in waist chains five minutes after he hit
town."
"Yeah, I heard about the way you do
things down there. We sent a bunch of our convicts from Deer Lodge to one of
your rental prisons. We're still paying off the lawsuits. Now, look,
Missy—"
"Say that again?"
"Sorry. I mean Ms. Carrol. You and
Mr. Holland aren't married, are you? You two seem to make a fine match,"
the sheriff said.
"I'll be back later."
"Oh I know. Yes, ma'am, I surely
know," he said, two fingers pressed against one eyebrow.
Temple and I walked outside into the sunshine. The maples on the courthouse
lawn were puffing in the wind, and a long procession of bicyclists in brightly
colored Spandex outfits was threading in and out of the traffic.
"Who was the kid with Dixon? The
one at the literary reading you told me about?" Temple said.
"You got me. Why?"
"We need to find a weak link.
What's the deal on this Indian gal?" she said.
"Her name is Sue Lynn Big Medicine.
I think she's working for the ATE"
"What's their interest?"
"Guns, maybe. Or the Alfred P.
Murrah Building."
"The Oklahoma City bombing?"
"Sue Lynn asked me why the feds
would want information on people who have been in Kingman, Arizona."
Temple widened her eyes.
"That puts a new perspective on
things," she said.
"I don't buy it," I said.
"This trouble is local, and it has to do with money."
"It always has to do with money. Or
sex and power," she said. "Who's this woman you're involved
with?"
It WASN'T HARD to get the name of the kid who had accompanied Wyatt
Dixon to Xavier Girard's literary reading. The reading had been intended as a
library fund-raiser, and everyone attending had been required to sign the guest
book and give his mailing address at the door.
The name above Wyatt Dixon's was a
woman's. The name below was Terry Witherspoon.
Temple used her cell phone to call a
friend in the sheriff's department in San Antonio. He ran the name through the
computer at the National Crime Information Center in Washington, D.C., and
called us back. Temple listened, then thanked him and clicked off her phone.
"If it's the same kid, he was in a
juvenile facility in North Carolina," she said. "What for?"
"His records are sealed."
Terry Witherspoon lived in a
knocked-together shack on a dirt road notched out of a hillside high above the
Clark Fork River.
I parked in a clearing among the pines
and waited for the dust to blow away before we got out of the truck. Out in the
trees we could see a great, rust-streaked, ventilated iron cylinder set up on a
rubber-tired trailer. A huge gray hunk of raw meat was hung inside the front of
the cylinder, crawling with flies, stinking of putrefaction.
"What's that?'' Temple said.
"A bear barrel. Fish and Game uses them to trap black bears when people
complain about them."
"Billy Bob, there's something in
there," she said. A cinnamon bear, one weighing perhaps two hundred and
fifty or three hundred pounds, had climbed into the back of the barrel, lured
by the odor of meat, and an iron gate had slammed down behind it, trapping it
so it could not turn around or go either forward or backward.
In a railed dirt lot behind the shack a
lean, bare-chested kid, with ribs etched against his skin, was throwing a long,
single-bladed pocketknife into a fence post. His brown hair grew over his ears,
and he wore horn-rimmed glasses and a mocking smile at the corner of his mouth.
"You Terry Witherspoon?" I
asked. His glasses were full of reflected light when he looked at us.
The smile never left his mouth.
"Who wants to know?" he said.
"We're investigating the death of
Lamar Ellison," Temple said. She opened her private investigator's badge
holder, then closed it.
"Yeah?" he said, almost
enthusiastically. The knife's blade hung from the tips of his fingers. Hardly
glancing at his target, he whipped the knife sideways, flinging it end over end
into the fence post, where it embedded solidly into the wood and trembled like
a dinner fork.
"What's the story on the
bear?" I asked.
"It's been getting into my trash. I
called the game warden. They brought out the barrel," he replied.
"When are they going to pick it
up?" I said.
"They didn't say. Maybe if it gets
thirsty in there, it won't come back when they turn it loose," he said.
His face was flat and his glasses
wobbled with light.
Temple studied a folded-back page in her
notebook. "Wyatt Dixon talk to you about killing Lamar Ellison?" she
said.
His face seemed to soften. "Wyatt
hasn't hurt anybody. If I was you, I wouldn't be talking about him that
way," he said.
He pulled the knife from the fence post
and walked back into the center of the lot. He stood at an oblique angle to the
post, concentrating, the knife blade dripping from his fingers. His mouth
pursed slightly before he flung the knife again. This time the handle caromed
off the post.
"You go to the university,
Terry?" I said. "I'm thinking about it. Or I might take up
rodeoing."
"What were you down for in North
Carolina?" I asked.
He grinned and pushed his glasses up on
his nose. "Littering," he said.
"Did you guys make Ellison for a
snitch? Because if you had knowledge of what was going to happen to him, you've
become an accessory," Temple said.
"Y'all are local cops who went down
South and learned your accents?" he said. He pitched his head at his own
joke.
"You seem like a smart young guy,
Terry," I said. "Wyatt's been down at least twice. He'll probably go
down again. You want to be his fall partner?"
"Y'all have a TV camera hid out in
the bushes? I'd like to say hello to my mom," he said.
Temple looked at me, then began punching
in numbers on her cell phone.
"Who you calling?" Witherspoon
asked.
She didn't reply. She spoke into the
cell phone and clicked it shut.
"Fish and Game will be here in a
little while," she said. "You're right, Terry, I'm not a local cop.
That means I really wish you'd wise off again so I can rip that grin off your
face and shove your puny little ass into that bear barrel."
He pitched his head again, clearing his
hair off his glasses, then cocked the knife over his shoulder and parked it
solidly into the fence post. When he walked over to retrieve it, his profile
jiggled with laughter.
That NIGHT I heard a vehicle grinding through the field behind Doc's
house, then a rattling sound like rocks under the vehicle's fenders and a thud
down in the trees by the river. I unlocked the front door and walked barefoot
out on the porch. It was cold and the valley and cliffs were lighted by the
moon, and I could see a sports utility vehicle high-centered on a sand spit in
the river, the current riffling around its tires. A man waded from the driver's
door toward the front of Doc's property.
The man stumbled and fell in the water
but held aloft the square-shaped gin bottle he carried so it did not break on
the rocks. He splashed up on the bank, his clothes and thick hair dripping with
water and moonlight. Just before he tumbled
into the grass and passed out I saw the bandaged hand and feral and besotted
face of Xavier Girard.
I closed the door and slipped the bolt
and went back to sleep and hoped the sun would rise on a better world for all
of us.
Chapter
12
At first light I looked through my window and saw him on all
fours, cupping water out of the river and sipping it from his palm. When I
walked up behind him, he turned his head slowly, as though he were in pain. His
face was gray with hangover, his eyes the color of iodine.
"How'd I
get here?" he asked.
Smoke from Lucas's breakfast fire was
blowing through the trees out onto the darkness of the water. Upstream I could
see Lucas standing in the middle of the riffle, false-casting a dry fly under
the overhang.
"Looks like you might have wanted
to wash your Jeep," I said. I found a clean cup in Lucas's rucksack and
filled it with coffee from the pot on the fire, then squatted down next to
Xavier and handed it to him. "How's your hand?"
He looked at the dirty elastic bandage
that hung from his fingers like strips of mummy cloth. "It doesn't feel
good to be my age and wonder if you're anybody's punch," he said.
I shifted my weight on one haunch and
picked up a small, flat stone and flipped it with my thumb into the current.
"Why'd you come out here, sir?" I said.
"I don't rightly remember. It
probably made a lot of sense last night," he said.
His face was dripping with river water
and he blotted his mouth and forehead on his sleeve. His eyes were puffed, as
though they had been stung with bees, his breath as dense as sewer gas.
"Have you ever thought about
hitting one of those twelve-step meetings?" I said.
"They're full of drunks," he
said.
"I guess that's a
possibility," I said, my gaze focusing on nothing.
He sat on a rock and held the coffee cup
to his mouth with both hands. He tried to drink but couldn't swallow. He
pressed the back of his wrist to his forehead. His fingers were shaking.
"I talked with Holly about starting
up a defense fund for Doc. She said it was none of our damn business," he
said. The river was still in shadow, and he stared upstream at Lucas false-casting
in the riffle, as though the image of a young man in hip waders silhouetted
under the lighted canopy of the forest was a reminder of someone he might have
known long ago.
"Maybe she has her reasons," I
said.
He pitched the coffee from his cup into
the rocks. "You see a gin bottle around here?"
"It's over there, in the
grass."
He walked over to the bottle and picked
it up and tightened the cap on it, then tilted
it sideways, measuring its content.
"I'd better go now," he said.
"Come back anytime."
"Holly worries about finances. I've
gone belly-up on a couple of deals. She always thinks we're going to take on
legal liability. That's why she's a lot more conservative than I am," he
said.
"Makes sense," I said.
"Forget I was here, will you, Mr.
Holland?"
"No problem," I said, and
watched him walk to his Jeep Cherokee, his fingers spidered around the square
edges of the gin bottle. When he drove into the sunlight, grinding the gears,
the skin of his face seemed to shrink at the hard, bright, lonely reality of
the day that awaited him.
Later, I drove out to see Cleo at her place in the Jocko Valley. When I
thumped across the cattle guard I saw Cleo's gay carpenter arguing with three
men in a maroon Cadillac convertible. The carpenter wore a leather tool belt
and no shirt; a ball-peen hammer hung loosely from his right hand. Farther up
the dirt drive I could see Cleo standing on the porch of her house.
I got out of my truck and walked toward
the convertible. It wasn't hard to make the men inside. They wore slacks with
knife-blade creases and sport shirts unbuttoned at the top to show off their
gold chains and chest hair, and radiated a visceral self-satisfaction. Their
stares were invasive, vaguely contemptuous, devoid of all empathy. The man in
back was eating the last of a hot dog. When he finished, he wiped the mustard
off his mouth with a paper napkin and let the napkin blow away on the grass.
The carpenter grinned at me as I
approached the convertible. He flipped the hammer into the air and caught it
again and slipped the handle through a loop in his belt. His skin was bronzed
and his hair gold from the sun.
"These fellows are just leaving.
Cleo's up at the house," he said.
"I see," I said.
"They didn't like the welcome they
got," the carpenter said.
I looked the carpenter flatly in the
face. Don't crowd them, bud, I thought.
"Catch you later," he said to
me, and walked back toward the barn where he had been working.
The driver of the convertible was a
muscular, handsome man, with smooth skin and black hair that he combed straight
back. He wore a bright yellow golf shirt, and when he had drawn his car abreast
of me, he said, "You got a problem, too?"
"No, I don't think so," I replied.
"Your truck's in the road," he
said.
"Just pull around on the
grass," I said.
"Why you looking at me like
that?" he said.
"You're Nicki Molinari."
"You know me from somewhere?"
"I used to work for the G. Your
picture would float across my desk from time to time."
"Sorry the recognition isn't
mutual. Now please move your fucking truck out of the
fucking road."
"What's your business with Cleo,
Nicki?"
"Where you get off calling me by my
first name?"
"You're a famous guy. No offense
meant. I heard you were doing a nickel in Terminal Island."
The man in the passenger seat started to
get out. But Nicki Molinari raised his hand.
"Here's your lesson for the day,
whatever your name is," he said. "If that broad is your regular pump,
I feel sorry for you. Second of all, I'd better not see you again."
He eased his transmission out of park
and drove around my truck, across the cattle guard, and onto the county road.
When I pulled into Cleo's yard, she walked down the steps toward me, but her
eyes were still on the convertible that was now disappearing over a rise.
"What's with the greaseballs?"
I said.
"You know them?"
"Every DEA agent in the country
knows who Nicki Molinari is. You didn't answer my question. Why are they
here?"
"They claim my husband owed them
money,"
"What did you tell them?"
"To get out."
"Why would your husband owe them
money?"
"I don't care and I don't want to
know."
"These aren't guys you just run
off."
"I just did. I stuck a gun in his
face. He looked bad in front of his men, so he tried to give Eric a hard time.
You want to come in or not?"
"I thought you might want to go to
lunch,"
"I can fix something if you're
hungry," she said, her voice flat, disinterested, her eyes lingering on
the dust cloud left by Nicki Molinari's convertible.
"This isn't quite what I had in
mind, Cleo."
"What?" she said, her
attention refocusing itself on my words.
"No, I'm not hungry. I thought you
might be. Maybe I should go."
"Will you just come in, Billy
Bob?" she said, and pulled me by the arm, either out of irritation or
conciliation, I didn't know which.
A
chrome-plated .44 Magnum revolver rested on a table in the hallway.
"Just a minute," she said, and
picked up the revolver and entered the den and opened a felt-backed glass gun
cabinet where at least two dozen antique and modern pistols were hung. She
flipped open the cylinder on the Magnum and dumped the cartridges into her
palm, then fitted the Magnum on its hooks and closed the glass doors.
"What a collection," I said.
"They were my father's. He was
career Army. He wanted a son."
"He taught you to shoot?"
"I taught myself. You want a roast
beef sandwich?"
"Sure," I said.
On the way out of the den I saw on top
of a bookcase a framed photograph of a little boy. He wore a cowboy hat and sat
atop a Shetland pony. The pony was eating out of a bucket, and the little boy's
legs were too short to reach the stirrups. The boy was holding on to
the pommel as though he were frightened by the distance to the ground.
I followed Cleo into the kitchen.
"Why so quiet?" she asked.
Greaseballs in her front yard, her
suppressed rage and grief over a murdered child, compassion for a rape victim
and destitute Indians, a personality that blew hot and cold with the moment. I
couldn't begin to express my thoughts.
"My son's staying out at Doc's. I'd like for you to meet him,"
I said.
But she made no reply.
I stood next to her at the drainboard.
Through the window the Douglas fir trees on the hill crest looked hard and
perpendicular against the sky. I placed my hand on her back. "You have to
be at the clinic this afternoon?" I said.
"Not really."
"You have any other
commitments?" I said, touching her hair.
"I have a lot of chores to
do," she said.
I nodded and took my hand away.
"You interrogated me, Billy Bob. I
don't care for it," she said.
"Nicki Molinari is a dope dealer
and a degenerate. He not only kills people, he has them taken apart."
"You don't have to tell me that. My
husband brought him to our house. He used our phone to have a chippy delivered
to his motel."
It was not a time to say anything else.
In fact, I was tired of playing the fool's
role. I picked up my hat and left. When I was driving back out the front gate,
I saw her in the rearview mirror, standing in the doorway, her dress blowing
across her thighs.
I WENT BACK
to Doc's and found Lucas sitting on the front steps, playing his guitar. It was
a Martin HD-28, one I had given him for his birthday. The lightest touch of the
plectrum on the strings resonated out of the box with the deep, mellow quality
of sound that might have been aged in oak.
"Here's one I bet you don't
know," he said. Then he began to sing,
"I'm an old log hauler,
I drove a big truck.
I shot the pinball machine,
But it caused me bad luck.
All I ever made
On a pinball machine
Was four katty-corners,
Then I'd miss the sixteen."
He rested his arm across the top of the
Martin, careful not to scratch the finish with the button on the cuff of his
denim shirt.
"That's one of them old ones,"
he said.
"Really?" I said, trying not
to smile at what he considered old. "Where is everybody?"
"Doc and Maisey had a fight. I
don't know where he went, but she took off with some high school boy.
Does Maisey act kind of funny for a girl
who's been raped?" he said.
"How's that?"
"The way she was dressed and
acting. Hoop earrings, fire-engine makeup, one of them bras that—" His
eyes went away from mine, as they always did when he felt he had to protect me
from his generation's knowledge of the world.
"That what?" I said.
"It don't exactly signal a guy to
keep his big-boy in his britches."
"That's how it works, Lucas."
"What works?" he asked.
"Rape victims want to show they
still have control. So they try to fly back through the candle flame."
He seemed to study the thought, his
fingers chord-ing without sound on the neck of the guitar. "An Indian gal
was looking for you," he said.
"Sue Lynn?"
"She didn't say. She has blond
streaks in her hair. What's the deal on her?" He threaded his plectrum
through the strings at the top of the guitar neck and adjusted his straw hat
and gazed abstractly at the river.
"Why?" I said.
"No reason. She said she liked
country music. I was showing her some chords."
"I'd leave her alone."
"She seemed pretty nice."
"She hangs with some bad dudes. Why
not keep things simple and enjoy the trout fishing?"
He fed a stick of gum into his mouth and
nodded his head slowly, as though humbly
agreeing with a profound statement.
"That's how come you been milking
through Doc's fence?" he said.
I walked on inside the house and hung my
hat on a wood peg and poured a glass of iced tea in the kitchen. Through the
front door I could see him putting his guitar inside its case, tucking the
cloth strap around its edges, gum snapping in his jaw, his eyes bright with a
thought he couldn't handle. He got up from the porch step, the guitar case
still open, and came inside.
"I didn't mean to say that."
"I asked for it."
He grinned and spun his hat on his
finger. "Who am I to argue with superior minds?" he said.
Temple Carrol had been told the juvenile file on Wyatt Dixon's knife-throwing
friend, Terry Witherspoon, had been sealed. But there was another avenue.
Temple had written down the name of the small town in western North Carolina
where Witherspoon had been convicted, and I called the sheriff's department in
the county seat there and asked to talk with any officer on duty who handled
juvenile cases.
My call was transferred to a detective
named Benbow.
"Terry Witherspoon's a suspect in a
murder investigation in Montana?" he said.
"Not exactly."
"Sounds a mite vague, Mr. Holland.
Regardless, his records were sealed a long time ago. For all I know they were
destroyed when he reached legal age."
"You know him?" I asked.
"I wish I didn't."
"Give me a thread," I said.
"You say you were a Texas
Ranger?"
"Yes, sir."
I waited.
"Then you know the rules. Wish I
could help," he said, and hung up.
But a half hour later he called back.
"I can't tell you anything about
the records the court has sealed. We clear on that?" he said.
"You bet."
"But I can tell you about
suspicions I have that never became part of a formal investigation. A year ago
we had a bomber hid out in these mountains. I think Terry was bringing him
food. I don't have any evidence to prove that. But I've known Terry since he
was seven years old, and he's the meanest little shit I ever came acrost."
"He's hooked up with
terrorists?"
"The cause will find Terry, not the
other way around. A farmhouse was broken into not far from the caves where this
bomber was hid out. The owner and his wife probably came home and surprised the
intruder. He tied them both to chairs and stuffed gags in their mouths. Then he
cut the woman's throat and shot the man."
"You think Witherspoon did
it?"
"The FBI still hasn't caught the
bomber. Whoever was feeding him knew every cave in this county. I think the
same guy killed the two people in the farmhouse. We have a small population
here. To my knowledge, we've produced only one kid around here the likes of
Terry Witherspoon. You know what kills me about this stuff, Mr. Holland?"
"What's that?"
"The only job this simpleton ever
had was boxing up groceries at a supermarket. We'll spend our careers getting a
net over a box boy."
"You know why he came out to
Montana?"
"He said he wanted to be a mountain
man in a whites-only nation. Is it true you can buy Montana T-shirts that say
'At Least Our Cows Are Sane'?"
That night, outside a small settlement near the Idaho border, a truncated man
with arms that were too short for his torso was carrying everything he owned
out of a clapboard house and packing it into his automobile. The moon had just
risen above the hollow where the man lived, and the crests of the mountains
were black against the sky and the hard-packed dirt road in front of the house
wound like a flattened white snake under the railroad trestle, past other
dilapidated houses, out to the four-lane highway the man planned to drive
full-bore all the way to the Cascades and Seattle.
The man's name was Tommy Lee Stoltz, and
he wore a black cowboy hat mashed down on his ears and engineering boots with
double soles and heels and thick glasses that
made his eyes look like large marbles. Tiny blue teardrops were tattooed just
below the corners of his eyes so that he appeared to be in a state of perpetual
mourning. The night air was cold but he was sweating inside his clothes and his
heart raced each time he heard automobile or truck tires on the dirt road.
Why had he ever left Florida? He'd had a
good life dry-walling, hanging in open-air bars down on the beach, getting
ripped on beer and cheap weed that was smuggled in from the islands, and
opening up his scooter on Seven-Mile Bridge. Even that one-bit he did on a road
gang in the Keys wasn't bad. The winter days were beautiful, and the fish was
fresh and deep-fried and, if you wanted it, the Cubans on the serving line at
the stockade would heap shitpiles of black beans and rice on your plate.
It was in California that his luck did
the big flush, over a union card, locked out of the Operating Engineers because
he couldn't pass a tenth-grade arithmetic test. Then he got evicted from his
hotel in Santa Monica and had to sell his scooter and move into South Central.
A Crip shoved him down a stairs. Two Bloods listened to him ask directions to
the bus line, then roared at his cracker accent, and tossed him from a fire
escape into a Dumpster filled with rotting produce.
Screw that. If he had to live in a
toilet, he might as well go native and enjoy it. So he got in on the next Los
Angeles riot. The gangbangers, the illegals, the pipeheads, the out-of-work
peckerwoods like himself, everybody on the South Side was burning out the
Koreans, looting liquor
stores and pawnshops, pulling
business types out of their cars and robbing them and busting bottles over
their heads, all of it on TV, helicopters swirling overhead while the cops
stood behind their own barricades and watched. It was like going apeshit in a
war zone, except the other side wasn't allowed to shoot back. There was
definitely an upside to slum life and social protest, Tommy Lee told himself.
But after five days of watching the city
burn, the Army finally moved in, setting up sandbags and machine guns, herding
looters into six-bys. Guess who they nail? Because he was white, that was it.
Three dozen cannibals are running out of the appliance store, carrying TVs and
stereo players on their heads, and here he comes, tripping through the broken
glass, trying to heft a huge microwave out the window for this black broad who
promised she'd haul his ashes if he scored something nice for her kitchen, and whop,
he gets a baton right across the spine.
Then lands on all fours and watches a
.25 auto spill out of his pocket onto the sidewalk.
Next stop, San Quentin, the beaner and
melon picker capital of America. Where a short white dude with fishbowl glasses
and a hush-puppy accent is anybody's portable pump.
That's when he met Lamar Ellison, out on
the yard, Lamar wearing mirrored sunglasses, eye-balling the cannibals,
cleaning his nails with a toothpick. "I can put you with the AB, Tommy
Lee. They're righteous dudes and they look after their own. You'll walk on
water, my man," Lamar said.
You couldn't mistake the AB out on the
yard, clanking iron, their bodies glowing with stink, sweat popping on their
tattoos, their shaved heads wrapped with blue and red bandannas to show their
contempt for the Crips and the Bloods.
Three years in Quentin and not one black
dude or East L.A. bean roller ever put a hand on him. No one stole cigarettes
or scarf out of his house, and the worst wolf in the joint would emasculate
himself before trying to put moves on him in the shower. Business types thought
they had respect? Unless you'd been in the Aryan Brotherhood, you didn't know
the meaning of the word.
The downside was the nature of the dues.
The AB was for life.
He was going to miss Montana. Next week
Merle Haggard was playing at the Mule Palace up in the Jocko Valley. Man, he'd
like to see that, the Hag, an Okie by way of Bakersfield, who'd done two and
one half years at Quentin and was still a legend there, bigger than Cash or
Paycheck, living proof you could wear state blues and still reenter the world
and get sprinkled with starshine.
He threw the last box of his belongings
into his car and went back into the house to unscrew all the lightbulbs, remove
the toilet paper roll, and tear out the elk rack the last tenant had left
nailed above the living room door.
But no matter how he tried to occupy
himself or stay in motion, he could not shake a recurring image out of his
head.
It was the Voss girl. With her face
pressed down under the pillow, her body writhing, her fists striking at his
chest. Why had he let Lamar talk him into busting a sixteen-year-old girl, one
who'd dime them all as soon as she could get to a phone?
But secretly he knew the answer. He'd
been afraid of Lamar. And not only of Lamar, but of Tommy Lee's father, who'd
been a gunbull in the Georgia penal system, of people who made fun of his
sawed-off torso, of guys who rode with the Jokers and Outlaws and Angels and
Banditos and kept him around like a pet, a motorized goof they sent for
cigarettes and beer and sometimes cheap rock down in Boon Town.
In fact, Tommy Lee could not remember
when he had not been afraid.
But Lamar had gotten his. Big Time.
Soaked in paint thinner and flame-roasted from head to foot like a burned
burrito. Man, he didn't want to think about it. Nor about the fact the girl's
father was out on bail, a doctor who was some kind of government-trained
killing machine.
A doctor who kills people? The illogic
of it hurt his head.
Time to slide on down the road, he
thought. He stuffed two lightbulbs into his jeans pockets and hefted a box of
canned goods on one shoulder and the elk rack on the other and pushed open the
front door and stepped out into the coldness of the night.
A hatted figure was standing at the
corner of the house, holding a revolver in two hands, the barrel pointed at the
ground.
"Who is that?" Tommy Lee said.
There was no answer. The hatted figure
raised the revolver at arm's length and aimed, the knees squatting slightly
into a classic shooter's position.
Tommy Lee knew that somehow he could
make words come out of his mouth that would show the hatted figure he was no
threat to anyone, that in the big scheme of things his worst offenses were only
those of a motorized goof, a harmless, good-natured little guy the swinging
dicks took care of. What did this guy in the hat want? Why didn't the guy say
something? Tommy Lee's skin felt as if it were being peeled off his face.
He couldn't keep his thoughts straight.
In his mind he saw the farm in Georgia where he had grown up, a girl who had
asked him to dance with her at a high school prom, a red molten sun descending
into the Gulf of Mexico. He wanted all these things back in his life and would
pay any price to return to them. If he could only make that happen, he would
correct all the wrongs he had done and make amends to every person he had ever
harmed.
If only the hatted figure with the
shadowed face would please point the revolver somewhere else.
He had almost formed the sentence that
would contain all those thoughts when the pistol barrel exploded with light and
sound and the copper-jacketed round punched a neat hole through the right lens
of his glasses and blew a single spurt of blood out the back of his head onto
the grass.
Chapter
13
Sheriff J. T. Cain knocked
on Doc's door early the next morning.
"Where
were you last night?" he said.
"Here," Doc said.
"All night?"
"Yeah, I was here all night."
"Doing what?" the sheriff
said.
"Sleeping."
"You vouch for that?" the
sheriff said to me.
"What's this about, Sheriff?"
I said.
"Nothing much. Another dead man.
Step out here, please," he said to me.
I followed him to his car. The sun
wasn't up yet, and fog rose off the boulders in the river and hung in the
trees. The sheriff stood with his hands on his hips, his cowboy hat slanted on
his head, his wide red tie clipped to his shirt.
"That man in there didn't leave the
house last night?" he asked.
"To my knowledge, no."
"To your knowledge, huh? Take a
ride with me."
"What for?"
"You defense lawyers spend too much
time in your office. I want you to see the handiwork of our shooter."
I
got into his car and we rode west of Missoula, up the long grade toward the
Idaho line. The mountains were green with Douglas fir, the crests tumbling
higher and higher against a salmon-colored sky. Then the Clark Fork dropped
away in the canyons below us and finally disappeared from view altogether.
We went through the little town of St.
Regis, then turned off the four-lane under a train trestle and entered a hollow
traversed by a dirt road that was dotted with clapboard houses on each side. The
yards were strung with washlines and littered with debris, like a scene out of
Appalachia.
The sheriff had said very little during
our journey.
"See all that old growth timber up
there? That's the way it used to be everywhere," he said. "We didn't
have cyanide in the river and runoff from the clear-cuts destroying the
spawning beds. We didn't have no Aryan Nation or Christian Identity or militia
people coming in here from Idaho, either. You know why they like it up here in
the woods?"
"They're cowards. They fear blacks
and Jews and locate in places where they'll never have to face them on equal
terms."
He turned his head and stared at me and
almost drove us off the road.
"Damn, son, you may have more sense
than I give you credit for," he said.
The coroner had been late in arriving at
the crime scene and was just finishing his work. Two paramedics were waiting by
the road with a gurney. An empty black body bag lay unzippered on top of it.
The impact of the round had blown Tommy
Lee Stoltz off the porch and into the yard. A roll of toilet paper from the box
of groceries he had been carrying had bounced down the steps and rolled back
under the porch into a pool of brown water. Stoltz lay on his back, staring at
the sky, his shattered glasses crooked on his face. The right lens was embedded
in the eye socket, coated with blood.
The sheriff from Mineral County stooped
under the front door and walked out on the porch and looked at me and Sheriff
Cain. He had a broad stomach and red face and graying blond hair and mustache.
He wore a sheep-lined vest and a blue baseball cap with the letters MCSD on it.
"Who's he?" he said to Cain.
"An ex-Texas Ranger along for the
ride. What have you got?" Sheriff Cain said.
"A neighbor heard the shot and
looked out the window and saw somebody in a hat and a long coat with a
chrome-plated pistol. We didn't find any brass, so the shooter picked it up or
he was using a revolver. I don't think we'll get much from ballistics. The exit
wound and the splatter tell me that round's way up on the hillside somewheres.
This one of the guys you pulled in for questioning in the Voss rape?"
"Yep," Sheriff Cain said.
"Where was the girl's father last
night?"
"He says he was at home,"
Sheriff Cain said.
"You believe him?"
"I haven't decided," Sheriff
Cain said.
"J.T., you quit running these
morons into my jurisdiction," the Mineral County sheriff said.
"You folks got a lot more room over
here," Sheriff Cain said.
The Mineral County sheriff lit a pipe
and smoked it out on the road while the paramedics loaded the body into an
ambulance. I was beginning to look at Sheriff Cain in a new light.
"Why'd you introduce me as an
ex-Ranger and not as Doc Voss's attorney?" I asked.
"I felt like it. What do you think
Stoltz got hit with?" he said.
"Something big. Probably with a
jacket on it."
"A .44 Magnum?"
"Maybe."
"Dr. Voss has got one registered in
his name."
"There're .44 Magnums all over this state." And in my
mind's eye, I saw the heavy, chrome-plated revolver that Cleo Lonnigan had used
to threaten Nicki Molinari at her house. "You really figure Doc for
this?"
The sheriff squinted at the sun breaking
over the top of the hollow and chewed on the end of a toothpick until it was
flat.
"Whoever killed Stoltz just wanted
him dead. The person who killed Lamar Ellison wanted him to suffer first. I
think we got two different perpetrators," the sheriff said.
"I think you're an intelligent
man."
"Your friend ain't off the hook.
Come on, let's eat breakfast. I been up since four. I got to find me another
job. This morning my old woman told me I'm the reason our grandkids are
ugly," he said.
"Doc didn't kill Ellison, Sheriff."
"How do you know?"
"He would have made Ellison fight
for his life. Then he would have cut him from his scrotum to his throat."
"That'll make a fine defense, won't
it?" he replied.
Friday evening Lucas walked up from his tent on the river and
took a shower in Doc's house and was combing his hair in the mirror when I
inadvertently opened the bathroom door on him. His cheeks glowed with a fresh
shave and his back was white and cuffed with sunburn around the neck.
"Where you headed, slick?" I
asked.
"To see Merle Haggard. He's playing
at a place called the Mule Palace. You ever been there?" His words were
hurried, as though he wanted to distract me from an impending question.
"No, I've never been there. Who you
going with?"
"Sue Lynn Big Medicine."
"Tell me, bud, did you come all the
way up here to see how much grief you could get into?"
"Since you're already pissed off at
me, can I share something else with you?"
"What might that be?" I said.
"I need to borrow your truck,"
he replied.
Ten minutes later I watched him shine
his boots on the porch and slip them on his feet and walk back down to the tent
and put on a long-sleeve white cowboy shirt embroidered with roses and his
wide-brim cream-colored straw hat, with a scarlet cord around the crown, and
climb into my truck and start the engine.
But before he could get out of the yard
I waved my hand to stop him. He wore mirrored sunglasses, and I could see my
reflection bending down toward him, distorted, a bit comical, the constant
deliverer of rhetoric that was meant to compensate for my years of absence as a
father.
He waited for me to speak. When I
didn't, he said, "What was you gonna say?"
"Nothing. Y'all have a good time."
"Say, you couldn't let me have a
ten-spot till I cash a check, could you? Tickets are twenty-five dollars,"
he said.
I ate supper with Doc and Maisey, then
took a walk along the river and threw pinecones into the current and watched
them float downstream into the shade. I saw L.Q. Navarro sitting in the fork of
a cottonwood tree.
"Quit picking on that Indian
gal," he said.
"She keeps company with people
you wouldn't spit on, L.Q. Don't lecture at me."
"You got a way of getting upset
when that boy takes up with minority people."
"That's a dadburn lie."
"Then leave him alone."
"All right, I will. Just stop
pestering me."
"Where you goin?" L.Q.
said.
"None of your business."
I walked back to the house and called
Temple Carrol at her motel in Missoula. "You like Merle Haggard?" I
asked.
Temple picked me up at Doc's and we drove back down the Blackfoot highway
toward Missoula. The sun was still above the mountains in the west, but the
bottom of the canyon was already in shadow. When the wind gusted, the leaves of
the cottonwoods and aspens along the riverbank flickered like paper against the
copperish-green tint of the current.
"Your hot water bottle occupied
tonight?" Temple said.
"Pardon?"
"Your girlfriend, the one who works
at the clinic on the Reservation."
"I haven't seen her."
"A friend ran her name through
NCIC. He got a hit."
"Cleo?"
"Her ex-husband was Mobbed-up with
a gangster named Molinari on the West Coast."
"I know all about it," I said.
"Good," she said, and didn't
speak again until we reached the top of the long, timber-lined grade that fed
into the Jocko Valley.
The concert was being held outdoors on
the edge of the Flathead Indian Reservation. The sun had just gone down behind
the mountains, and the hills were plum-colored and the floor of the valley a
dark green under a light-filled sky that gave you vertigo when you looked directly
up into it. The air was heavy with the cool smell of water in irrigation
ditches and the pine trees that were in shadow on the hillsides and the faintly
acidic warm odor of mules and horses penned outside the viewing stands. To one
side of the stage, concessionaires were grilling sausages and hamburgers on
open pits and selling beer and soda pop out of galvanized horse tanks swimming
with crushed ice. Merle Haggard had just walked out on the stage with his band,
and the crowd on the cement dance slab was shouting, "Hag! Hag! Hag!"
Temple and I sat midway up in the
stands. Her cheeks were as red as a doll's, her mouth like a small purple
flower, her face glowing with the perfection of the evening. But it was obvious
her thoughts were far away.
"I came up to Montana because Doc
asked me to. But maybe I should head back to Deaf Smith," she said.
"I need you here, Temple," I
said, my eyes looking straight ahead.
"I'm not convinced Doc's an
innocent man," she said.
"Guilty or innocent, we still
defend him."
"Let me put it another way. You've
got a girlfriend with Mob connections. She also has an obsession about this
biker gang, the Berdoo Jesters."
"The sheriff told you this?"
"Don't worry about who told me. If
you want me to work with you, you'd better haul your head out of your
ass."
A drunk cowboy in front of us heard the
last statement and turned around and grinned.
"How about saving it till
later?" I said to Temple.
"Fine," she replied, and sipped
from her soda can, her throat streaked with color.
I touched her on the top of her hand in
hopes she would look back at me. But she didn't.
The crowd out on the dance slab was
hard-core working class: truck drivers, horse wranglers, waitresses, gypo
loggers, Indian feed growers, bale buckers, 4-H kids, women who drank beer with
one hand and smoked with the other while they bumped rumps, petty criminals
scrolled with jailhouse art, barroom strippers dancing for their own gender
with undisguised erotic joy, a group of fist-fighting drunks charter-bused from
a saloon, and three Indians who kept squatting down below eye level to inhale
huge mouthfuls of white smoke off a crack pipe.
Then I saw my son dancing with Sue Lynn
Big Medicine, like kids from the early fifties. She wore a black cowboy hat and
a denim shirt with the sleeves cut off at the armpits and black jeans that were
dusty in the rump. She danced close to Lucas without actually touching his
body, her blond-streaked hair hanging to her shoulders, her chin lifted in the
air. With each beat in the music she raised one booted foot
behind
her, her Roman profile opaque, the brim of his hat touching hers when he leaned
over her, his shadow like a protective screen between her and the glare of the
world.
"You going to talk to me at
all?" I said to Temple.
She finished her soda and set the empty
can between us. She seemed to concentrate on the stage. "Was Haggard
really in the pen?" she said.
"Yeah, Quentin or Folsom."
"I don't think he's the only
graduate here. Take a look at that bunch by the side of the stage," she
said.
Three head-shaved, bare-chested young
men, wearing laced, steel-toed boots and bleached jeans without belts, were
drinking canned beer and watching the dancers from the edge of the cement slab.
Their skin was jailhouse white, emblazoned with swastikas and red and black
German crosses, their torsos plated and tapered with the muscle development of
dedicated, on-the-yard bench pressers. Each wore a stubble mustache and goatee,
so that his mouth looked like a dirty hole leering out of the whiteness of his
face.
"Is that Carl Hinkel with
them?" Temple said.
"That's the man. The George Lincoln
Rockwell of the Bitterroot Valley."
Then two other men walked from the rest room area and joined them.
One was a slender kid with glasses and a crooked smile on his mouth, an
ever-present facial insult that allowed him to offend others without giving
them sufficient provocation to tear him apart. His companion had large,
wide-set teeth and virtually colorless eyes and
wore a flowered green shirt with purple garters on the sleeves, a polished
rodeo buckle against his corrugated stomach, and new, stiff jeans that were
hitched tightly around his genitalia.
Temple was watching my face.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
"That's Wyatt Dixon. I can't think
of a worse time for that guy to show up."
Dixon had seen Lucas and Sue Lynn out on
the dance slab. He put a cigar into his mouth and popped a kitchen match on his
thumbnail and cupped the flame to the cigar in the shadow of his hat. He stood
duck-footed, smoking, an amused light in his face, and watched Lucas and Sue
Lynn dance. Then he walked out onto the slab, his shoulders pushing aside
anyone who chanced to move into his path.
When, as a father, do you intervene in
your son's life and perhaps steal his self-respect? I'd never had an answer to
that question.
"I'll be back," I said to
Temple, and walked down the wood stairs onto the cement slab.
Dixon stood inches from Lucas and Sue
Lynn, his back to me, saying something I couldn't hear. But I saw the heat
climb into Sue Lynn's face and the bewilderment in Lucas's.
"You want to talk to me, Mr.
Dixon?" I said.
He screwed his head around, his cigar clenched in his teeth, his
profiled right eye like a clear glass bubble.
"I declare, people from all walks
of life has shown up here tonight. It ain't accident you and the boy favor, is
it?" he said.
"How about I buy you a beer?"
I said.
"No, thank you, sir. I aim to
dance. Sue Lynn don't mind. She and me has bellied up before in what you might
call private-type situations."
Lucas's hat was pushed back on his head
and his hands hung awkwardly at his sides. There were red circles, like apples,
in his cheeks.
"What's with you, man?" he
said to Wyatt Dixon.
"I'm a great admirer of womanhood,
son. I respect every part of their God-made bodies, and this 'un here done won
my heart a long time ago. Now go over yonder and sit down and drink you a soda
pop. Ask your daddy to tell you about my sister, Katie Jo Winset. Her fate was
a great Texas tragedy."
Dixon reached out with two forked
knuckles toward Lucas's nose, but Lucas stepped backward and slapped Dixon's
hand away, disbelieving the insult to his person even as it took place. Dixon
smiled and glanced toward the purple glow on the hills, breathing in the heavy
fragrance of the evening, then lowered his hand between Lucas and Sue Lynn and
fastened it on Lucas's scrotum. That's when Lucas hit him.
The blow knocked Dixon's hat off his
head, but the grin never left his face.
"I still got your package in my
hand, boy. You want, I can tear it out root and stem," he said.
I swung my fist into Dixon's ear but it
was like hitting stone. He turned his head slowly toward me, his ear bleeding,
his right hand tightening on my son's genitalia.
"I'm gonna come for you, Mr.
Holland. You'll smell me in the dark, then you'll feel my hand fasten on you,
and the next day you'll be somebody else," he said.
I swung my fist into his mouth and felt
the edges of his teeth cut into my skin. Then his friends were upon me.
The fight rolled through the concession
area. I can't describe what happened with any certitude, because since I had
been a young boy anger had always affected me in the same way whiskey does a
drunkard. I would hear whirring sounds in my ears, then I would be inside a
dead zone filled with shards of red and yellow light, a place where I felt
neither physical pain nor any form of moral restraint.
I remember being knocked into the side
of a horse tank, of hearing hooves thudding inside the livestock pens, then
picking up a shaved wooden pole, about four foot in length, and smashing it
into the face of a man who had a swastika tattooed between his eyes. I kicked a
man who was on the ground, hard, in the spleen, and again in the head. Women
were screaming, an overweight rent-a-cop was flung into a water puddle, and I
swung the wood pole like a baseball bat and saw blood fly against the canvas
side of a tepee and saw the man I'd hit fall on his knees and weep.
But it was Wyatt Dixon I wanted. As in a
dream, I flailed at my attackers, but the
source of my rage stood on the edge of the fray and grinned, adjusting the
garters on his sleeves, one ear leaking a scarlet line down his jawbone.
The rent-a-cop struggled to his feet
from the water puddle, wheezing for breath, his uniform flecked with mud. The strap
on his revolver had popped loose and the checkered handle protruded loosely
from the holster, the heavy, brass-cased rounds fat and snug inside the
cylinder.
I pushed someone out of the way and
reached for the revolver. Then I heard horse's hooves and suddenly the side of
an enormous buckskin mare knocked me senseless into a rick fence.
I stared up from the ground at the
silhouette of the rider. He was huge, the backs of his hands traced with scar
tissue, his face a mixture of pity and incomprehension.
"I ain't playing with you, son.
I'll whip you with a blackjack if I have to," he said.
Then I felt the world come back into
focus and saw Temple and Lucas bending down toward me, touching me with their
hands.
"Why, how you doin', Sheriff?"
I said to the man on horseback. "You like Merle Haggard?"
Chapter
14
My wrists were cuffed behind my back, and I was put in a holding cell at the
county jail, where I stayed, without being booked, until early the next
morning.
Sheriff Cain
walked down the corridor behind a trusty who was wheeling a food cart from cell
to cell. The sheriff picked up a Styrofoam container of scrambled eggs and tiny
sausages and a cup of coffee and a cellophane-wrapped plastic fork from the
tray and set them on the apron of the food slit.
"Them three skinheads you whacked
with that pole are still in the hospital," he said.
"Gee, I'm sorry to hear that,"
I replied.
"I was gonna ride in the parade
last night. I was really looking forward to it. Somebody should glue warning
labels on you. You're a traveling shit storm."
"Do I get out of here?"
"You got a bloodlust, Mr. Holland.
I seen it in your face."
"I don't apologize for it."
"Then I hope you can live with it,
'cause it'll plumb eat you up. A federal agent wants to talk with you. When
he's done, I'll kick you loose," the sheriff said, and walked away
heavily, like a man who knew his knowledge of the world would never have an
influence upon it.
I sat down on the bench in the cell and
drank from the Styrofoam coffee cup. Amos Rackley, the ATF agent who had told
me he'd break my nose off if I put it in government business again, walked to
the cell door and propped his arms across a horizontal iron plate, then removed
them and dusted off his sleeves.
His face was smooth-grained and
handsome, his sandy hair neatly parted. He took a ballpoint pen from his shirt
pocket and kept clicking the button on top with his thumb.
"Can you explain to me what your
son is doing with Sue Lynn Big Medicine?" he said.
"Dancing, the last time I saw
her."
"You were an officer of the federal
court. You know how our operations work. You know the danger that certain
individuals are exposed to. Where's your judgment, man?"
I set the Styrofoam cup down on the
bench and stood up. My khakis and leather jacket and boots were powdered with
dust, my body sore and stiff all over from the fight at the concert.
"Y'all are still after the Oklahoma
City bombers. You don't care about the rape of a teenage girl. You don't care
about the assault on my son's person. You lost friends
in the Murrah Building and I can understand the feelings you have now. So I
don't want you to take it personally when I tell you to go play with your
pencils and stay out of my life."
He bit his lip and looked down the
corridor at nothing, then fixed his eyes on me again.
"You know what I wish, Mr. Holland?
That I could forget who I was for just ten minutes and stomp the living shit
out of you," he said.
Two NIGHTS LATER Doc was in Missoula, buying groceries, when an
electric storm rolled up the Blackfoot canyon. Bolts of lightning crashed on
the ridges above the house, bursting ponderosa trees into small fires that
flared and died in the rain. Then the storm passed and the rain stopped and
black clouds sealed the sky, flickering with lightning that gave no thunder.
Just above the river, the mountainsides were hung with mist, the air sweet with
smoke from wood-stove pine.
Bears had been in the garbage before sunrise that same day and
had pushed against the windows with their paws, trying to slide the glass. Now
a sow and two cubs came down out of the trees on the far side of the river and
waded into the shallows and crossed the deepest part of the current by jumping
from boulder to boulder until they lumbered belly-deep into the water on the
near side and walked dripping up the bank past the garden.
Maisey went into the bathroom and
undressed for her shower, then heard the garbage cans rattle. She
rubbed
the moisture off the window glass and looked out at the log barn and saw the
bears ripping the bungee cords off the garbage can tops and pulling the vinyl
bags out with their teeth. One of the cubs dug into a split bag and flung the
garbage backward through his hindquarters.
She got into the shower and stayed under
the hot water until her skin was red. When she toweled off, the window was
clouded with steam and she thought she saw a bear's paw push and flatten against
the glass. She wrapped the towel around her head and approached the window,
leaned one way and then the other in order to see outside, then used her arm to
wipe a swath through the moisture on the glass.
The face of a young man stared back at her.
He wore glasses and his eyes traveled the length of her nakedness and his mouth
formed a red oval as though he wanted to speak.
From the living room I heard her scream,
then the sound of feet running outside. I pulled Doc's sporterized '03 Springfield
from the gun rack and went out the front door and around the side of the house.
Dry lightning jumped between the clouds and the valley floor turned white. I
saw a slender man run past the barn, toward the river.
I slid a round into the chamber and
locked down the bolt, wrapped the leather sling around my left arm, and put the
Springfield to my shoulder. I aimed through the iron sights, leading the target
just slightly, waiting for lightning to leap between the clouds again.
Maybe he had seen me, because he seemed
to know that someone had locked down on him. He jumped a rock fence like a
deer, then zigzagged across a field, glancing back once as though a round was
about to nail him between the shoulder blades. When the clouds pulsed with lightning
I saw the reflection on his glasses, his brown hair, his body that was as lithe
and supple as a young girl's.
I swung the rifle's sights ahead of him
and fired a single round that whined off a rock into the darkness.
The running figure disappeared into the
trees.
Maisey came out on the porch in her
robe, the towel still wrapped on her head.
"He was at the bathroom window. He
was watching me take a shower," she said.
"Did you recognize him?" I
asked.
"The glass was steamed over. I saw
him for just a second."
"Maybe he just wandered in off the
highway," I said, my eyes avoiding hers. I ejected the spent shell from
the rifle and pressed down the rounds in the magazine with my thumb and slid
the bolt over them so the chamber remained empty, then propped the rifle
against the porch rail and traced the footprints of the voyeur from the
bathroom window back to a rick fence he had climbed through by the barn.
A fuel can lay on its side by the bottom
rail of the fence, leaking gas into the mud.
I called the sheriff's department. A
half hour later a tall, overworked deputy with a
black mustache walked with me out to the fence and looked down at the can and
then at the house. His breath fogged in the dampness of the air.
"He didn't come here to borrow gas.
The can's almost full. He was watching the girl through the window?" he
said.
"Yes."
"It looks like he was going to
torch your house and got distracted. I'd say you're lucky."
"I don't think the Voss family
feels lucky, sir," I said.
"No offense meant. Some people
around here would have shot him and drug his body through the door. Who do you
think he was?"
"Y'all got a file on a kid from
North Carolina by the name of Terry Witherspoon?"
Wednesday morning Doc answered the cordless phone in the kitchen,
then handed it to me and walked out of the room.
"I'm trying to figure out what your
idea of a relationship is. I'm sure the problem is mine," Cleo's voice
said.
"I'm sorry?"
"Just for a minute, can't you lose
that obtuse attitude?"
"I haven't called you? That's what
we're talking about?"
"What do you think?" she
asked.
"I figured I'd struck out."
"Maybe you decided you'd just find
another chickie and cut a new notch on your gun."
"I don't think that's a real good
thing to say, Cleo."
"Then maybe we need to have a
serious talk."
"What do you call this?" I
said.
"Come to the house."
"I have an appointment at the
sheriff's office."
"Screw your appointment," she
said.
"I'm going to hang up now.
Good-bye, Cleo."
I eased the receiver down in the cradle,
my skin tingling, as though I had just walked through a cobweb.
Doc WAs BOARDING an Appaloosa and a thoroughbred for a neighbor. I went
outside and propped my forearms across the top rail of the rick fence that
enclosed the horse lot and began to shave an apple with my pocketknife. The
barn was made of ancient logs that were soft with decay. Through the open back
doors I saw both horses walk out of the pasture, through the cool darkness of
the barn, their hooves powdering dust in the air, sawing their heads as they
approached the fence.
I quartered
the apple and fed pieces to each of them with the flat of my hand. Inside the
barn, his pinstripe suit and ash-gray Stetson slatted with sunlight, I saw L.Q.
Navarro perched atop a stall, idly spinning the rowel on a Mexican spur.
"You're getting sucked in,
bud," he said.
"With Cleo?"
"I'm
talking about these skinheads and bikers. Doc was trying to shut down that gold
mine. Now he's charged with murder and you're rolling in the dirt with a
collection of tattooed pissants whose mothers was probably knocked up by a
spittoon."
"I didn't have much selection
about it, L.Q."
"That's what we told each other
when we was blowing feathers off them Mexican drug mules."
"Anything else you want to tell
me?"
He flicked the rowel on the spur and
lifted his eyes.
"I'd sure like a couple of
ice-cold Carta Blancas," he said.
I WENT BACK
up on the front porch, where Doc was trying to tie a blood knot in a tapered
leader. But it was obvious he could not concentrate on the task at hand. He
squinted at the tippets, missed threading a nylon tip through a loop, then gave
it up and dropped the leader on top of a cloth creel by his foot.
"Can you show me all the
information you have on that mining company?" I said.
"What for?"
"They have a vested interest in seeing
you jammed up."
"I remodeled Lamar Ellison's face
in that bar. I got my daughter raped. I thought I was through with free-fire
zones. Instead, I carried one back from Vietnam."
"Don't put this on yourself,
Doc."
"That stuff you want is out in the
barn. You can burn it when you're finished," he said.
I spent the next two hours rooting
through the cardboard boxes that Doc had stuffed with news clippings and
documents on extractive industries in Montana. File folders filled with aerial
photographs showed miles of clear-cuts and once-virgin wilderness areas that
had been turned into stump farms or chemical soup. Networks of creeks that fed
the upper Blackfoot River looked like gangrene in living tissue. The cumulative
damage wasn't just bad. It numbed the mind.
The corporation name that recurred again
and again was Phillips-Carruthers, old-time union busters whose goons had once
loaded Wobblies onto cattle cars and transported them in 115-degree heat into
the Arizona-New Mexico desert and left then locked inside without water for two
days. Those who didn't die or end up in Yuma Territorial Prison as syndicalists
thought twice about trying to shut down a Phillips-Carruthers mine again.
How far would a bunch like this be willing
to go in order to get Doc off the board?
I heard the tinkling sound of roweled
spurs on the plank floor of the barn and looked up and saw L.Q. Navarro peering
over my shoulder.
"There's a story in there about
Woody Guthrie and his buds going up against that company in 1947," he
said.
"These are the guys we love to
hate. It's too easy, L.Q.," I said.
"John D.'s hired thugs killed my
grandmother at the Ludlow Massacre in 1914. Wasn't no mystery to it," he
said.
"The bad guys are a lot slicker
today," I said.
"They ain't no slicker, son. The
good guys are just dumber."
I started to smile at his joke, but then
looked at his face. He was staring out the back of the barn at the thoroughbred
and Appaloosa in the pasture, an unrelieved glint of sadness in his eyes. The
horses were grazing next to a ribbon-like stream that wound through Indian
paintbrush and harebells, tearing at the grass, their tails switching across
their rumps.
"What are you studying on?"
I asked.
He shook the moment out of his face.
"Remember when we chased that
bunch of coke mules across the sand flats? We painted red flowers all over
those stovepipe cactus. We took a rum flask out of a dead man's pocket and had
a drink and poured the rest on his face. You miss it sometimes?" he
said.
"No," I replied.
L.Q. pulled his Stetson down over his
brow and turned away from me to hide the gentle reproach in his eyes. When I
looked at him again he had gone.
I don't miss it. I know I don't, I said
to myself as I walked back toward the house, like the alcoholic on his way to
the saloon, denying the nature of his own insatiable desires.
"Talking to yourself?" a voice
said from the porch.
"Oh, hi, Maisey, I didn't see you
there," I said.
"No kidding?" she said. She
wore makeup and khakis and sandals and a low-cut
embroidered white peasant blouse and looked older than her years. She picked up
an oversize can of beer that was wrapped in a paper bag. She salted the top and
drank from it.
"Where's your old man?" I
asked.
"In town."
"Early in the morning for a cold
one, isn't it?"
"Billy Bob?"
"Yes?"
"Mind your own business. By the
way, Lucas said to tell you he was going down to the Milltown Bar with Sue Lynn
Big Medicine to see about a job in the band. You want a beer?"
The Milltown Bar was a legendary clapboard blue-collar
anachronism squeezed between river shacks and railroad tracks and a sawmill at
the southern tip of the Blackfoot Valley.
Lucas had no trouble getting a
four-night-a-week slot in the house band. Besides guitar, he could sing and
play banjo, mandolin, fiddle, Dobro, and stand-up bass. Also, he didn't bother
to ask the bar owner how much he would be paid.
It should have been a fine morning for
Lucas. It wasn't. This was the first time he'd seen Sue Lynn Big Medicine since
the fight at the dance up in the Jocko. But she didn't act the same anymore.
She seemed disconnected, her gaze lingering on his only momentarily, like
somehow the fact she was two years older had suddenly become important.
Outside the bar, while he fitted his
guitar case into the backseat of her car, he said, "Something wrong, Sue
Lynn?"
"Not in a way you can do anything
about," she replied.
"I see. There's a problem, but I'm
too young or dumb to understand it?"
"Your father doesn't want me around
you. He's probably right."
"That's just Billy Bob. You watch.
He'll be taking us out to dinner."
But he might as well have been talking
to the wind. She started the car, and they drove along the highway, past the
sawmill, through the willow-lined streets of Bonner. The car had no windshield
and Sue Lynn's hair kept whipping in her face.
He looked at her Roman profile, the
coffee-and-milk color of her skin, a threadlike white scar on her cheek, the
soft purple hue of her mouth. He wanted to touch her, but her silence and the
roar of the gutted muffler against the asphalt fed his irritation and
ineptitude.
"Why do you drive a junker like this, anyway?" Lucas
said.
"Because I live in a junkyard.
Because the government tells me what I have to do. Because I don't have choices
about my life," she said.
Her hands had tightened on the wheel.
When she looked over at him her eyes were blazing.
"Pull over," he said.
"No!"
"Stop acting like you got to talk
in code. It's a real drag, Sue Lynn," he said, and grabbed the wheel so
that the car drove across the opposite lane onto a flat turnaround above a
sandy beach that flanged the Blackfoot River.
"I made a mistake. I shouldn't have
gone to the dance with you. Wyatt Dixon and Carl Hinkel and their friends are
animals. They'll tear you in pieces," she said.
"Back home their kind are a dime a
tote sack." "You're just a boy. You don't know what you're talking
about."
She got out of the car. He thought she
was going to kick the door, but instead she stared silently at the river, the
wind blowing her hair in her face, a look of regret in her eyes that he
couldn't explain.
"I'm sorry for getting mad. I like
you a lot, Sue Lynn. But I ain't no kid and you got to stop talking to me like
I am one," he said.
"I'm not who you think I am, Lucas.
I'm not a good person," she said.
She walked down a footpath to the beach.
Five college boys in swim trunks were sitting in the shadow of a huge
egg-shaped rock, drinking beer and sailing a red Frisbee out on the river for a
mongrel dog to retrieve. Each time the dog brought back the Frisbee, one of the
boys would give it a piece of hamburger bun.
Lucas caught up with Sue Lynn by the
water's edge. The Frisbee sailed like a dinner plate past her head and landed
far out in the current. The dog splashed into the water and swam
after it. Its back was lesioned with mange, its ribs etched against its sides.
"What gives you the right to be
saying you're no good? That's like telling folks who believe in you they're
stupid," Lucas said.
"I'm going to drive you back home now,"
she said.
"Billy Bob give me two tickets to
the Joan Baez concert at the university," he lied.
"I'm glad I met you, Lucas, but I'm
not going to see you again."
"That's a rotten damn way to
be," he replied.
"One day it'll make sense to
you."
"Right," he said.
The dog had just returned the Frisbee to
one of the college boys and was trying to nose a piece of bread out of the
sand. The dog was trembling with exhaustion, the wet hair on its hindquarters
exposing the emaciated thinness of its legs. The college boy flung the Frisbee
through the air again. It plopped on top of the riffle and floated downstream.
"Just a minute," Lucas said to
Sue Lynn.
He waded into the river and picked up
the Frisbee and walked to the shade of the rock, where the college boys were
sitting on blankets with an ice chest set among them. They were suntanned and
hard-muscled, innocently secure in the knowledge that membership in a group of
people such as themselves meant that age and mortality would never hold sway in
their lives.
"This dog's wore out. If you want
to feed him, why not just do it? Don't make him
drown hisself to get a little food," Lucas said.
One of the boys propped himself up on
his elbow and squinted into the sun with one eye.
"You think that up all by
yourself?" he asked.
"It's five of y'all, one of me. I
know what you can do. But don't torment a dumb animal," Lucas said.
One of the other boys removed his
sunglasses and started to his feet, sand sifting off of his body. But the boy
who was propped on one elbow put a hand on his friend's arm.
"You got a point. Why don't you feed
him?" he said, and tossed a sack of lunch trash to Lucas.
Lucas
started up the trail, then knelt and gave the dog a half-eaten weenie.
"Hey, buddy, what's your
name?" the college boy yelled after him.
"Lucas Smothers."
"How about throwing our Frisbee
back, Lucas Smothers?"
Lucas sailed it through the air, then
picked up the dog under the stomach and put it into the backseat of Sue Lynn's
car.
Sue Lynn had watched it all without
saying a word. Now she was staring at him with a strange light in her face,
pushing her hair out of her eyes, tilting her chin up as though she were having
a conversation with herself.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Nothing," she said.
"I'd better get home. Billy Bob
gets in trouble if I ain't around."
"You want to drive?" she
asked.
"I don't mind."
They headed up the highway, following
the Blackfoot, through timbered canyons and meadow-land, through sunlight and
shady areas where spring-water leaked across the asphalt. The dog was already
sound asleep on the backseat. Sue Lynn moved closer to Lucas and took his right
hand off the steering wheel and held it in hers.
When he looked over at her, her gaze was
focused straight ahead, her eyes sleepy with thoughts he couldn't fathom.
Tell me women ain't a puzzle, he
thought.
Chapter
15
The next day I drove to a Catholic church in Missoula's university district.
The chapel area was empty, the confessional booths stacked with furniture. A
secretary in the pastor's office told me I could find the pastor at his home
down the street. I walked a block under maple trees to a tan stucco house with
a neat yard and tulip beds and saw a tall man in an undershirt and black
trousers up on the roof.
"Can I
help you?" he said, peering down through an overhang of maple leaves.
"I'd like to go to
Reconciliation," I replied.
"You have a problem with
heights?"
I climbed the ladder and joined him in a
flat, sunless place where he had hung his tool bag on the chimney and was
eating his lunch. The blueness of the sky overhead looked like a river through
a gap in the canopy of the maple trees, as though the earth were turned upside
down and we were viewing a riparian landscape from high above.
The priest's name was Hogan and he
offered me a sandwich from his lunch sack. He talked politely for a moment,
then realized the origin of my awkwardness with the ritual that Catholics today
call Reconciliation.
"You're not a cradle
Catholic?" he asked.
"I was baptized by immersion in a
fundamentalist church when I was a child. I became a convert after the loss of a
friend."
"You want to tell me what's
bothering you?"
"I went to bed with a woman. It was
a self-serving act, impulsive and badly thought out," I said.
"I'm getting the sense things
didn't turn out as you planned."
"That's an understatement,
sir."
"I'm not quite sure what we're
owning up to here. You mean you acted lustfully or you feel you've used
somebody, or you simply regret getting involved with the wrong person?"
"How about all of the above?"
"I see."
"I've done this previously. For
reasons that mask a more grave sin in my past."
"I'm not sure I follow," he
said.
In the silence I could hear the maple
branches sweeping against the roof.
"I accidentally shot and killed my
best friend. I did this while we were killing other men. His death is with me
morning and night. His specter never leaves me," I said.
The face of the priest remained
impassive, but he lowered his eyes so I could not see
the sadness in them.
"Is there anything else you want to
tell me?" he asked.
"No, sir."
He placed one hand on my shoulder.
"You all right, partner?" he said.
"Right as rain," I said,
hoping he would not hold my lie against me.
That afternoon a waxed black car drove through the field behind
Doc's house and parked in front, the sunlight wobbling like a yellow flame on
the tinted windows.
Amos Rackley, the ATF agent, got out of
the passenger seat and knocked on the door with his fist, rattling a picture on
the wall. He wore shades and a dark suit that seemed to contain and intensify
the heat and energy in his body. His gum snapped in his mouth and his jawbone
was slick with perspiration.
When I opened the door, he said,
"It must be the genes."
"What?"
"Your family. Like a stopped-up
commode that keeps overflowing on the floor. First I have trouble with you. Now
your kid."
"What are you talking about?"
"We sent somebody to ring the
doorbell at a certain Indian gal's house. Guess who answers the door?"
"Lucas?"
"Not wearing shirt or shoes. With
long red scratches on his back. I'm surprised he took time to zip his
fly."
"You guys should have had jobs at
Salem in 1692. You would have fit right in," I said.
"You listen, you arrogant prick . .
."
But he was so angry he couldn't talk. He
took the gum out of his mouth and stuck it on a post and opened a folder full
of eight-by-ten photographs. They showed blood-streaked people being lifted
from rubble, a woman crying with a dead child in her arms, a white police
officer giving mouth-to-mouth to a black man on a stretcher.
"That's the Alfred P. Murrah
Building, motherfucker," he said. "I'm betting my career this shit
goes back to Hayden Lake, Idaho. But you and now your son have decided to
factor yourself in, either because you've got cooze on the brain or you just
can't stand to let things alone. So why don't we just walk out in the woods
here, you and me, and see what develops? I can't tell you how much I'd enjoy
that."
I stepped out on the porch. The day was
bright, the wind cold on my face in the shade.
"My son has nothing to do with your
investigation. His interest in Sue Lynn Big Medicine is romantic. You were that
age once. Why don't you show a little empathy?" I said.
"That's a great word coming from a
disgraced Ranger who killed his own partner. I changed my mind about you, Mr.
Holland. I wouldn't dirty my hands fighting a man like you. You turn my
stomach."
When he drove away I could feel my eyes
filming, the ridgeline and ponderosa and cliffs distorting into green and
yellow shapes. I wanted to turn and see L.Q. standing by the barn or down in
the shade of the cottonwoods by the river or perched atop a rail by the horse
lot.
"L.Q.?" I said.
But there was no reply except the wind
in the trees.
Toward evening Maisey and I saddled the Appaloosa and
thoroughbred that Doc boarded for his neighbors and rode them up a switchback
logging road in the hills behind the house. In the distance we could see old
clear-cuts and burned stumps along the sides of the Rattlesnake Mountains.
"I overheard what that Treasury
agent said to you this morning, Billy Bob. Why'd you let him get away with
that?" she said.
"He lost his friends in Oklahoma
City. He can't do anything about it, so he takes his grief out on others.
That's the way it is sometimes."
"My father says under it all you're
a violent man."
"I have been. That doesn't mean I
am today."
"The sheriff called this morning.
He wants to talk to my father again."
"What for?"
"The third man who raped me is
dead. I'm glad. I hope he suffered when he died," she said. Her face was
narrow with anger, her mouth pinched with an unrelieved bitterness.
"Maisey, I can't argue with your
feelings, but—"
"Don't say anything, Billy Bob.
Just please don't say anything."
She turned her horse away from me and
rode into the shade, then dismounted and began picking huckleberries and
putting them into her hat, even though they were green and much too sour to
eat.
Down below I saw the sheriff's cruiser
pull into the yard.
I rode the thoroughbred down the hill and
took off my hat and looked at the greenness of the country and grinned at the
sheriff and waited for him to explain the cloud in his face.
"I don't care to look up at a man
on horseback," he said.
I got down from the saddle and hung my
hat on the pommel and tied the reins to the porch railing. I let my hand trail
off the thoroughbred's rump, my eyes fixed on the sheriff's.
"Where was the good doctor
yesterday afternoon?" he said.
"I don't know. Ask him," I
replied.
"I would. If I could find
him." The sheriff stood by the open door of his vehicle, his face cut by
light and shadow, the wind flapping his coat. "The third suspect in Miss
Voss's rape was pulled out of a river two days ago in Idaho. He had chest
waders on and was submerged standing up in the bottom of a pool like a man with
concrete boots on."
"Sounds like an accident to
me," I said.
"Except he wasn't carrying no
fishing gear, never owned a fishing license, and was never known to fish. Also,
most sane people don't wear chest waders in July."
"Well, we'll all try to feel as bad
as possible about his passing, Sheriff."
"I love to hear you talk, Mr.
Holland. Every time you open your mouth I'm convinced this is indeed a great
country, that absolutely any little dimwit can become an attorney. Tell Dr.
Voss to call me before I come out here and put him in handcuffs."
I watched his cruiser drive across the
field behind the house, then disappear down the dirt road. A half hour later my
head was still pounding with his remarks. I called him at his office.
"Did you bother to check out this
kid Terry Witherspoon?" I asked.
"The voyeur? Yeah, I did. He says
he never looked in Maisey Voss's window and was never on her property."
"What did you expect him to say?
Did you lift any prints off that gas can?"
"Lab work on peeping Tom
complaints? Yeah, we got time for that. When we ain't busting up crack labs and
trying to keep them goddamn Crips out of here."
"I really don't like being your
straight man, Sheriff."
"Son, you were born for it. Lord
God, I wish you people would move to Los Angeles," he said, and hung
up.
Temple Carrol picked me up at Doc's house the next morning, and we drove into
Missoula for breakfast. She wore khakis and scuffed boots and a yellow
pullover, and because of her short height she steered with her chin tilted
slightly upward. She was one of those women whose contradictions made both her
admirers and her adversaries misjudge her potential.
Her eyes were a milky green that changed
color when she was angry, as though dark smoke swam inside them, and she had a
distracting habit of chewing gum or piling her hair on top of her head while I
talked to her, as though she were not listening. Then I would discover days
later she could repeat a conversation back to me, word for word, and accurately
correct my own memory of it.
She kick-boxed on a heavy bag every day
at a gym in Deaf Smith and could touch the floor with the flats of her hands.
She was often dirty from work in her garden, the seat of her shorts
grass-stained, her hair full of leaves, her body glowing with sweat and the
smell of crushed flowers. She cared nothing for other people's opinions,
thought politics were foolish, kept guns all over her house, and fed every
stray animal on the west side of the county. Anyone who mistook her
eccentricities for weakness and crossed a line with her did so only once.
As I looked at the pinkness of her skin,
the baby fat on her arms, the way a strand of her chestnut hair kept blowing in
her eye, I wanted to touch her, to place the back of my hand on the heat of her
cheek, to rest my arm across her shoulders. As she
drove along the river, through the blueness of the morning, her profile and the
angle of her mouth contained all the innocence and loveliness of a high school
girl waiting to be kissed, and I felt ashamed of my own impulses and all the
times I had been cavalier about her loyalty and friendship.
But try as I might, I always did or said
the wrong thing with Temple Carrol.
"You have a reason for staring at
me?" she said.
"Sorry," I said.
"I get the feeling you're in a
confessional mood about something," she said.
"Excuse me?"
"I was jogging by the campus
yesterday. I happened to see you on the roof of a house with another man."
"Really?" I said.
"The postman told me that's the
home of a Catholic priest. Are we using the clergy again to rinse out our
latest affair?"
"How about some slack,
Temple?"
"I'd like to break your damn
neck," she replied, and gave me a look. "I interviewed your Dr.
Pisspot yesterday. You can really pick them."
"You did what?"
"I went out to Cleo Lonnigan's
house. God's gift to the Red Man. She seems to think she glows with blue
fire."
"You shouldn't have done
that."
"She thinks those bikers killed her
child. That makes her a viable murder suspect. By the way, I
wouldn't
waste my energies being protective of her. She seems to put you on a level with
the Antichrist."
"I shouldn't have gotten involved
with her. It was my fault. She's not a bad person."
"I don't think you're chivalric,
Billy Bob. You're just real dumb sometimes," she said. When she looked at
me the milky green color of her eyes had darkened but not with anger. The depth
of injury in them, like a stone bruise down in the soul, made me swallow with
shame.
ve minutes after I returned to Doc's the phone rang in the living room.
"Hello?" I said.
"Where have you been?" Cleo
Lonnigan's voice said.
"Out."
"Then why don't you get a message
machine?" she asked.
"Because it's not my home."
"Did you send that nasty little
bitch up to my ranch?" she said.
"What did you say?"
"Ms. Carrol. Is she
house-trained?"
"You keep your mouth off her,
Cleo."
"Do you think you can take a woman
to bed and then just say, 'Drop dead, I'm busy color-matching my socks right
now'?"
"Good-bye, Cleo. You're an amazing
woman. I hope I never see you again," I said, and gently hung up the
phone.
I went outside so I would not have to
hear the phone ring when she called back.
I WALKED
through the cottonwoods and aspens on the riverbank. The river was in shadow
under the canopy, but the sun had risen above the ridge and the boulders in the
center of the current were steaming in the light. I saw L.Q. Navarro squatting
down on his haunches in the shallows, scraping a hellgrammite off the bottom of
a rock with the blade of his pocketknife. The bottoms of his suit pants were
dark with water, his teeth white with his grin. He threaded the hellgrammite
onto a hook that hung from a fishing pole carved out of a willow branch.
"The last couple of days been
bard on your pride?"
"You might say that."
"Next time that ATF agent smarts
off, you bust his jaw. I never could abide them federal types."
"What am I going to do with Cleo
Lonnigan?"
"Get out of town?"
"That's not funny."
"It wasn't meant to be."
Then his attention wandered, as it often
did when I imposed all my daily concerns upon him. His hellgrammite had slipped
off the hook in the current, and he waded deeper into the water, into the
shade, and lifted up a heavy rock from the bed and set it down on top of a
boulder and scraped another hellgrammite from the moss-slick underside.
"Hand
me my pole, will you, bud?" he said.
I picked up the willow branch he had
shaved clean of leaves and notched at one end for his line and walked into the
stream with it. The current, filled with snowmelt, climbed over my knees and
struck my genitals like a hammer. The sunlight had gone and the tunnel of trees
suddenly seemed as cold as the grave.
I realized L.Q. was looking beyond me,
at someone on the bank. Then L.Q. was gone and in his place a huge hatch of
pink and dark-winged salmon flies churned over the current.
"You always get in the water with
your clothes on, Mr. Holland? Hand me your stick and I'll pull you out,"
Nicki Molinari said from the bank, his cigarette smoke leaking like a piece of
cotton from his mouth.
Chapter
16
Nicki Molinari wore leather hiking shorts rolled tightly around
his thighs, alpine climbing shoes with red laces and heavy lugs, and a purple
polo shirt scissored off below his nipples. A nest of scars, like pink string,
was festooned on his skin between one hip and his rib cage. On his left hand
was a sun-bleached fielder's glove with a scuffed baseball gripped inside the
pocket.
His eyes
searched up and down the tunnel of trees, as though he heard voices in the
wind.
"Were you talking to somebody out
here?" he asked.
I saw his convertible parked in the
sunshine. His men were nowhere around.
"What do you want?" I asked.
"That skank up in the Jocko Valley
owes me seven hundred grand. I'll pay you a ten percent finder's fee if you can
get it out of her."
"The skank is Cleo Lonnigan?"
"The language I use offends your
sensibilities, that's too bad. Her husband was the
business partner of some associates of mine. He stiffed them, they stiffed me.
I ended up in Terminal Island. The shorter version is I got cluster-fucked
eight ways from breakfast and that broad is living on a horse ranch bought with
my money."
"Not interested," I said.
He flipped the baseball into the air and
caught it.
"You want to play catch?" he
said.
"No."
He grinned and tossed the ball at my
face so that I had to catch it or be hit.
"See, you can do it," he said.
"Come on, I got another glove in the Caddy."
"How about getting out of
here?" I said.
"I thought you might have a sense of humor."
I walked past him, into the sunlight,
and handed him his ball. I heard him follow me.
"What do you have against me?"
he asked.
"You hurt people."
"Oh, you heard the stories, huh? I
leave body parts in garbage grinders, throw people off roofs, stuff like that?
It's DEA bullshit."
"I don't think so."
"Were you in the service?"
"No."
"I was in Laos, at a place where
these sawed-off little guys called the Hmongs grew a lot of poppies. Me and
about four hundred other guys. We got left behind. Why do you think that
happened?"
"I don't know."
"Yeah, you do. You worked for the
G. If you like government mythology about wiseguys, that's your business. What
I do in five years don't add up to five minutes of what I seen in Vietnam. That
includes dope getting flown out of the Golden Triangle on American
planes."
"How'd you get out of Laos?"
"Play catch with me and I'll tell
you the whole story," he said.
"Nope."
"Were you in the sack with
Cleo?"
"You're out of line, Nicki."
"There's my first name again. I
love it. I did some boom-boom with that broad, too. It was like curling up with
an ice cube. Tell me I'm wrong."
He bounced the baseball up and down in
the pocket of his glove, studying its scuffed surface, his mouth down-hooked at
the corners.
That night I dreamed I saw Doc Voss standing waist-deep in a stream, under a
yellow moon, his skin prickled with cold. Then his fly line stiffened in the
riffle and the tip of his rod bent almost to the water's surface, trembling
with tension.
He wrapped the line around his left
forearm, so tightly his veins corded with blood, and horsed a long,
thick-bodied brown trout through the shallows onto the gravel. He slipped a
huge knife from a scabbard on his side and stooped over the trout and inserted
the knife point into the trout's anus and slit its belly all the way to the
gills.
Doc lifted the trout by its mouth and
the unborn roe fell in a gush of heavy pink water from the separated skin in
its belly and glistened on the rocks at Doc's feet. He looked up and grinned at
me, but I hardly recognized him. His face had become skeletal, his eyes lighted
with the moon's reflection off the river.
"Where are your waders, Doc?"
I said.
He turned and walked away from me, the
blade in his hand glowing with white fire.
I woke from the dream and went into the
kitchen and opened a drawer where Doc often stuffed his shopping receipts. It
took me a minute to find it, but there it was, crumpled up at the back of the
drawer, the carbon of a bill of sale from Bob Ward's Sporting Goods.
"What are you doing in there?"
Doc said behind me.
"I saw this receipt a week ago. For
a pair of chest waders," I said.
"So?"
"Where are they?" I asked.
"I returned them," he replied.
"Without the receipt?"
"What are you saying, Billy
Bob?"
"Did you drown that man?" My
voice caught in my throat.
"Somebody else got to him first. Turn out the light when you
go to bed," he said.
On Sunday I went to Mass at the Catholic
church by the university, then drove out on the Clark
Fork west of
town in a sun shower and sat on an enormous flat rock that slanted into the
water. The river was wide, the color of green-tarnished copper, and cottonwoods
dotted the banks and there were blue mountains in the distance. Upstream, a
radio was playing gospel music in a parked pickup truck, and for just a moment
I was nine years old again, at a camp meeting in the Winding Stair Mountains of
eastern Oklahoma. The preacher had just lowered me backward into the river, and
when the coldness of the water struck my lungs I opened my eyes involuntarily
and looked upward at the lacy green canopy of the heartwood trees overhead and
at the blue dome of sky and at the autumnal light that broke around the
preacher's silhouette as though it had been poured from a gold beaker.
Then he lifted me from the water, my
mouth gasping for air. When I walked with him toward the bank, where my father
waited for me, the world did not seem changed but redefined in a way I could
not explain at the time. The sky was joined to the rim of the earth; the trees
fluttered with red and gold leaves all the way to the hazy outline of the
Ozarks, and there was a cool, fecund odor of silt and ponded water and
disturbed animal nests blowing out of the shade. Then a huge woman with a
black-lacquered big-bellied Gibson hung around her neck commenced singing
"I Saw the Light."
The preacher was as lean as a scarecrow.
He spoke in tongues and clogged on the wood stage, a Bible cupped in his hand,
while the congregation clapped and shouted with a thunderous rhythm
that made the ground shake. The pitch of their voices was almost orgasmic,
filled with joy and visceral release. Even my father, who ordinarily was a
sober and reticent man, picked me up with one arm and danced in a circle.
It was a moment that others might parody
or ridicule, but I'll never forget it. After my father and I had gotten into
our pickup truck and were preparing to leave, the preacher leaned his head
through the passenger's window. His hair looked like it had been cut with sheep
shears; his face was as long as a horse's, his skin as rough as a wood shingle.
"You wasn't scared, was you?"
he asked.
"No, sir," I lied.
"The papists got seven sacraments.
We ain't got but one. That's why we really let 'er rip. You're river-baptized,
son. From here on out, you take your church with you wherever you go, earth and
sky and water and spirit, all of it burned forever into your soul. You ain't
never got to be afraid," he said, his dark eyes bursting with certitude.
"What are you doin', slim?" a voice said behind me.
I turned and looked up at Temple Carrol,
who stood on the down-sloping rock, her thumbs hooked in her back pockets.
"How'd you know I was here?" I
asked.
"I saw you leaving the church, so I
followed you."
"What's on your mind?" I said.
She sat down, just a little higher on the rock than I
was,
her knees pulled up before her. She wore brown jeans and loafers and white
socks and she crossed her hands on her knees. "Was I too hard on you the
other day?"
"Not in the least," I said. I
picked up a pebble and tossed it into the current. The rock we sat on was pink
and gray and dappled with the sunlight that shone through a cottonwood. I could
see her shadow move next to me, then her fingers lifted a wet leaf off my
shoulder and let it blow away in the breeze.
She moved her foot slightly and hit me
in the thigh with the point of her shoe.
"Your feelings hurt?" she
said.
"I thought I'd give you a couple of
days' rest. Don't turn it into a production."
Her foot moved and punched me again.
"Hey," I said.
She poked me in the knee.
"Temple—" I turned around and
looked directly in her face.
"What?" she said. Her hands
looked small on top of her knees.
"With regularity I say the wrong
things to you. I just don't want to do that anymore," I said.
"Come on, get off your butt. I'll
buy you lunch," she said, rising to her feet, brushing the rock dust off
her rump.
She seemed casual, pushing back her
hair, looking at the trees puff with wind. But I could see her watching me out
of the corner of her eye.
"Where we going?" I said.
She took a breath and cleared her throat
and lifted her blouse off her skin as though the day were warm.
Because she stood higher on the rock than
I, we were suddenly the same height. I looked at the milky greenness of her
eyes and the color in her cheeks and the roundness of her arms and the way her
mouth became like a small flower whenever there was an extended silence between
us.
"Temple?" I said.
"Yes?"
"Where we going?"
She smelled like rain and leaves and
there was a scent of raspberry soda on her breath. Her mouth was inches from
mine and I saw her chest swell, the pulse quicken in her throat. Then she
slipped on the rock and her weight fell against me.
Her hair touched my face and I felt her
breasts and stomach and the tops of her thighs against me, and her ribs and the
taper of her hips were like a gift suddenly placed in my palms when I helped
her regain her balance. For just a moment, her mouth parted and her eyes looked
into mine in such a way I never wanted to separate from her.
"It's real slippery here," I
said, my face burning.
"Yes," she said. "Did you
want to go to the restaurant on the river. The pizza place?"
"Sure. That's a grand place,"
I said. "I'll be right with you. I dropped some change a minute ago."
She walked back up the rock through a
stand of birch trees that were white-trunked and stiff and arching slightly in
the wind, while I pretended to hunt for coins down below, my back
turned to her to conceal a problem involving a form of male rigidity that made
me wonder at my level of maturity.
Maisey and Doc Voss'S Sunday evening began with an
argument in the barn over a parrot, one Doc had just brought her from the pet
store.
"You don't keep birds in cages! I
don't want it!" she shouted.
"Then take it back. Or go feed it
to an owl," he replied.
"That's a cruel and stupid thing to
say!" They insulted and shouted at each other and slammed doors all over
the house, breaking a bottle of milk in the sink, stepping on the cat's tail,
briefly pausing in opposite parts of the house to refocus their anger and then
find the other and reopen every wound possible.
While her father kicked an empty bucket over a fence in the yard
and ground the starter on the truck, only to find, after starting the engine,
that he had a flat tire, Maisey locked herself in her bedroom and changed into
black panties and a black silk bra and loose khakis and a white blouse that
exposed her navel and cleavage, and put on hoop earrings and rouged her cheeks
and lipsticked her mouth and went to work on her eyes with liquid eyeliner and
mascara and eye shadow.
When she flung open the bedroom door she
looked out the front window and saw her father's truck lights disappearing in
the dusk. A strange sense of disappointment and abandonment flooded through
her,
although she could not explain the Sense of desertion and fear that she felt.
She telephoned Steve, the boy down the road, and lit a cigarette over
the sink and opened one of her father's bottles of beer and drank it on the
front porch while she waited for her friend, her heart pounding without
explanation.
The evening sky had turned yellow with
dust and wind whipped the trees on the ridge above the house, and she could
smell the rain that floated like a lavender vapor on the hills to the north.
But whatever portent the evening held, whatever misadventure might wait for her
down the road, she told herself she would shape and master it, that the martial
energy beating in her temples would vanquish all the adversaries that invaded
her sleep and degraded her person, that were made incarnate in the waking day
by the sting of her father's words and the way he tried to control her.
That's what he couldn't
understand, she thought. Every word of chastisement he used was like the
probing fingers and tongue and phallus of the each of the faceless men who had
raped her. It had never been so clear to her. Why couldn't her father see it?
She wanted to scream the question in his face.
She and Steve drove in his car to a
nightclub in Mis-soula, on a street that had once housed bordellos, then
workingmen's bars, before it had been absorbed into the gentrification of the
town as the town lost its blue-collar ways and gave itself over to art
galleries and boutiques.
But there was still one nightclub on the
street that shook with noise every night of the week. When
Maisey
and Steve walked to the entrance, the foothills had turned red in the sun's
afterglow, and the bowl of sky above the valley was filled with plumes of
yellow and purple cloud, as though they had been scoured out of the valley
floor, and the dust that blew in the wind was cold and mixed with rain and as
hard as grains of sand against her skin.
But even though a storm threatened the
valley, the evening was nonetheless a grand one, and the smell of the air was
so good and clean inside her lungs she didn't want to disconnect from it.
Maybe she and Steve should just drive
out on the river someplace, maybe watch the deer drift down out of the trees to
drink, maybe just eat hamburgers in a brightly lit restaurant full of family
people and go to a movie afterward.
No, that's exactly what her father would
want her to do, the kind of anal-retentive agenda he might as well write out on
a clipboard for her.
She hesitated at the doorway. Men who
wore motorcycle boots and gold earrings and leather vests without shirts stood
at the bar, knocking back shots with beer chasers, their arms blue from the
wrists to the armpits with tattoos. But young women, not much older than she,
were in the club, too, and a rock 'n' roll band was belting it out on the
stage, and three college boys who looked like football players were taking a
breath of air at the entrance, grinning good-naturedly at her.
She smiled back at them, as though they
were all old friends, and went inside, with Steve in front of
her,
his shirt hanging out of his pants, his flip-flops slapping on the floor, his
face as trusting and vulnerable as a fawn's. But the football players never
even glanced at him. Instead, she felt their eyes light on her mouth and rouged
cheeks, her blouse, which hung on the tops of her breasts, the crease in her
exposed hips when she walked. Unconsciously she slipped one hand in her back
pocket to cover the elastic edge of her panties, which she believed had worked
its way above the beltline of her khakis.
She and Steve sat in back, and when he
was in the rest room she used her forged ID to order him a draft beer and a
vodka collins for herself.
"There're some biker guys at the
bar, Maisey. One of them just barfed in the washbasin, then mopped the puke off
his mouth on the roller towel, and went back outside like nothing
happened," Steve said when he came back to the table.
"Thanks for describing that,
Steve," she said.
"Why'd you want to come here? It's
full of losers," he said, surveying the other tables.
"Stop staring at people," she
said.
"I wish I hadn't left you alone
that night. I wish I'd had my father's .357. My father says the welfare system
is producing armies of subhumans that are moving into the Northwest."
His presumption that he was responsible
for her fate, that his presence could have prevented it, infuriated her and
somehow diminished the level of injury that had been visited upon her. Steve
twisted around and hooked one arm on the back of his chair and
stared
at the bikers as though he were visiting a zoo.
"Steve, until somebody puts his
penis in your ass and comes in your mouth, don't tell me about subhumans,"
she said.
"That's sick," he said.
"I think if you say another word
I'm going to slap your face," she said.
"Excuse me for telling you this,
your attitude not only sucks, you look deeply weird in those clothes and that
Frankenstein makeup," he said, and got up from the table and went through
the front door onto the street.
The noise from the bandstand seemed to
envelope her. She was alone now and suddenly regretted the rashness of her
words. She looked around to see if anyone was watching her. But the people at
the other tables, the crowd at the bar, the couples on the dance floor, were
all involved with themselves and their drinks and their own conversations. It
was dumb to think anyone cared what Maisey Voss was doing.
Through the open front door she saw
Steve's car drive away, the neon glow from the nightclub rippling across his
profile.
She would have to call her father for a
ride home. She couldn't bear to think about it. She opened her purse and took
out the money for another vodka collins.
The vodka was both cold and warm inside
her at the same time. She chewed the cherries and orange slices on her molars
and drank the sugar and melted ice in the bottom of the glass and went to the
bar and ordered another drink and watched
the bartender while he made it. A biker's arm brushed hers, but before she
could react the biker turned and apologized, then resumed his conversation with
his girlfriend, as though Maisey were not there.
The bartender wrapped a napkin around
her drink and set it in front of her. She began counting out the money from her
purse to pay for it but the bartender said, "Man down at the end's already
got it."
"Which man?" she said, looking
past the bikers into the haze of cigarette smoke.
But the bartender only shrugged and
walked away.
She drank her vodka collins at the table
and tried not to think about the phone booth in the corner, the one she would
eventually walk to, almost like entering a Catholic confessional, where she
would shut herself inside and drop the coins into the slot and admit to her
father she couldn't get home by herself.
But the three college boys she had
passed at the entrance were using it. Their upper torsos looked huge in their
short-sleeve workout jerseys, and she decided the boys were part of the group
she had seen running plays in pads and sweat shorts on the university practice
field by the river.
Somehow their presence made her feel
more at ease. In spite of their size there was nothing aggressive or
mean-spirited about them. In fact, their buzzed haircuts, the youthfulness in
their faces, the shine of cologne on their freshly shaved jaws, made her think
of country boys back home who could twist a
steer into the ground by its horns but who wouldn't get on a dance floor at
gunpoint.
One of them nodded at her, then turned
his attention back to his friends.
"You want another drink, hon?"
the waitress asked.
"Yeah. Let me pay you now,
though," Maisey said.
"That's a new one," the
waitress said.
After Maisey finished her drink, she
went to the rest room. When she came back, the waitress was picking up her
empty glass and setting down another vodka collins on a napkin.
"Who paid for this?" Maisey
said.
"Some guy at the bar," the
waitress replied.
"Which guy?"
"Honey, this is a dump. One of these
bozos buys you a drink, marry him," the waitress said, and walked away,
her short skirt swishing across the tops of her fishnet stockings.
Maisey slid another cigarette from her
pack, then realized she didn't have matches to light it. Her face was hot, her
ears humming with the noise in the room. The electronic feedback in the band's
speaker system was beginning to affect her like fingernails on a blackboard.
She took a long swallow out of her glass and felt the coldness of the vodka
flow through her like wind blowing across snow.
One more drink and she would call her
father. By that time his silence and the depression he would wear like a mantle
on the long ride home, the acknowledged failure of
their relationship that would almost form a third presence in the car, the
echoes of all the insults they had hurled at each other earlier, would be lost
in fatigue and the ennui that always followed their arguments and the residual
numbness of the vodka that now nestled in her system like an old friend.
A boy in his early twenties, in beltless
khakis and a pressed, long-sleeved denim shirt with a pair of glasses in the
pocket, was standing by her chair now. He held a green and gold can of ginger
ale in his hand, and the wetness of the can dripped through his fingers. His
eyes crinkled at the corners.
"Can I help you with
something?" she asked.
"I heard you talking and I knew you
were from the South. I'm from North Ca'lina. So it was me bought you the
drinks. Did you mind I did that?" he said.
She tried to sort through what he had
just said. Behind him, on a revolving bar stool, sat a man in a white,
wide-brim Stetson and a cowboy shirt that rippled with an electric blue sheen.
He was watching her and the boy with the naked curiosity of an animal.
"Say again?" Maisey said.
"I didn't want to offend you by
buying those drinks without asking, but you're really a pretty lady," the
boy said.
"Who's that man watching us?"
she said, then realized her anxiety had made her seek reassurance from a
stranger whose features disturbed her for reasons she didn't understand, like
someone who belonged inside a drunk dream.
"That's Wyatt. He wants me to rodeo
with him, but I think I'm gonna study aeronautical engineering at the university."
"Aeronautical engineering at the
University of Montana?"
"I haven't made up my mind. I might
study religion or forestry instead. You want to dance?"
"I have to go home."
"Another vodka collins is coming.
You got to stay for the drink. It's bad manners if you don't stay for the
drink."
"Your friend is using his hand for
a codpiece. Who are you?" she said, her head spinning.
"I'm the guy bought the
drinks," he replied, and wrinkled his nose.
She gathered up her purse and rose from
the table and walked toward the front door, realizing, as the blood rushed to
her feet, that she was drunk.
Outside, the air was cold, the wetness
of the street glazed with yellow light. She walked toward the main
thoroughfare, although she had no idea what she intended to do. The door of a
parked car opened in front of her, and one of the football players stepped out
on the sidewalk and grinned at her.
Then he was joined by his two friends.
They towered over her, like trees. No matter which direction she turned, she
could see nothing but the size of their chests and arms, the necks that were as
thick as fire hydrants, the tautness of their grins.
"I want to catch a cab. Can I get
one on Higgins?" she said.
"We'll take you home," one of
the boys said.
"No, that's all right. I have money
for a cab," she said.
"Come on, get in back. You
shouldn't be out on the street by yourself," the same boy said.
His face seemed to come into focus for
the first time. He had bad skin and his crewcut hair was peroxided. A tiny
green shamrock was tattooed on his throat.
"I'm going now. Let me get
by," she said.
But one of the other boys placed his arm
around her shoulders. He inflated his bicep against her, like someone spinning
the handle of a vise to show its potential, and the testosterone smell of his
armpit rose into her face.
"Let go of me," she said, her
eyes looking between their bodies at the backs of a couple who were walking in
the opposite direction.
"There's a lot of street people
around here, Maisey, guys with dirty things on their minds," the first boy
said.
How did he know her name? she thought.
They were pressing her inside the car now, not all at once, not in a violent fashion,
just with the proximity of their size, almost as though they were her
attendants, as though they knew her and what she thought and what her history
was and what she deserved from them.
She was halfway in the car now, and the
boy with peroxided hair leaned close to her face, blocking out all light from
the street, his breath sweet with mouth spray.
He raised one finger to his lips.
"Nobody's out here. Just us, Maisey. Don't act
like a kid," he said. She got her hand inside her purse and felt it close
on a metal nail file. His right eye suddenly looked as big as a quarter, as
blue and deep as an inkwell.
But a pair of high-beam headlights
pulled in behind the boys' car. The three boys stood erect, their heads
turning. A car door opened, and a figure walked out of the headlights' glare,
and Maisey could see the physical size of the three boys somehow deflating,
like air leaking from a balloon.
"That's my friend. Y'all shouldn't
be bothering her," the boy who had bought her the drinks said.
But the football players, if that's what
they were, were not looking at the boy who'd said he was from North Carolina.
Instead, they stared at the man in the wide-brim white hat and blue silk shirt
who stood behind him, his hands curled inward, simian-like, toward his thighs.
"We got no quarrel with you,
buddy," the boy with peroxided hair said.
"That's right, you don't," the
man in the hat said. "That's why you little farts are gone."
Maisey looked on in disbelief as her three
tormentors walked away.
"We'll get you home safe," the
boy from North Carolina said.
"I can get a cab," she said.
"Those guys will come after you
when me and Wyatt leave. They're always causing trouble here'bouts. Is your
name Maisey?" he said.
"How did you know?"
"I heard that guy use your name,
that's all," he replied. He held the door open for her, his face suffused
with goodwill. Maisey looked back at the nightclub. One of the football players
stood just inside the entrance, cleaning his nails with a toothpick. She got
into the car.
The man named Wyatt sat in back and the
boy, who said his name was Terry, started the engine. The car was red,
low-slung, high-powered, with a stick shift on the floor, and Terry drove it
full out, tacking up on the curves as they headed toward Bonner and the
Blackfoot River, dropping back in front of a semi so abruptly the car shook on
its springs.
But even though he drove too fast, she
began to feel all the evening's fear and apprehension and self-condemnation go
out of her chest.
"What'd you say your last name
was?" the man named Wyatt said.
"Voss. Maisey Voss," she said.
"You related to a doctor by that
name?" Wyatt asked.
"He's my father."
"I read about him in the paper. Man
named Holland live with y'all?"
Maisey turned in the seat. "Billy
Bob Holland does," she said.
"I declare. Now that's a fellow I
admire. He was the lawyer for my sister, Katie Jo Winset. Ain't this world a
miracle of coincidences?" Wyatt said.
"I don't understand," Maisey
said.
"A sweet thing like you don't have
to." Wyatt leaned forward, his arm propped on
the back of her seat, his eyes close to hers. "You like Terry?"
"Pardon?"
"He likes you. He gets that
possum grin on his face and I know what he's thinking about." "Lay
off it, Wyatt," Terry said. Wyatt's hand lay close to her shoulder. The
nails were clipped and clean, the fingers as pale and thick and gnarled as
turnips. The back of his ring finger touched her skin. She felt herself jerk,
as though she had been burned with a piece of ice.
"Mr. Holland got a young'un up at
Dr. Voss's place? A boy named Lucas?"
"Yes," Maisey said, looking
straight ahead now, watching a lighted gas station slide behind them in the
darkness.
"You know who I am, don't
you?" Wyatt said at the back of her head.
"No."
"You ever go to Sunday
school?"
"Yes."
"Then you know it's a sin to
lie."
"Give it a rest, Wyatt," Terry
said. The inside of the car became very quiet. Maisey forced herself to turn
and look in the backseat. Wyatt was staring at Terry, his head tilted slightly.
Terry glanced in the rearview mirror, his eyes like two marbles caught inside
the glass.
"I'm gonna pull in for gas," Terry said.
"You do that," Wyatt said.
"Wyatt?"
But Wyatt only grinned and didn't
answer. "Wyatt?" Terry said again.
"Lend me your comb. This beautiful
girl has made me sweat inside my hat," Wyatt said.
Terry pulled off the highway into a
truck stop and parked the car by a gas pump. He got out and put the nozzle into
the gas tank and began cleaning the windows. He seemed to study Wyatt's face
through the glass.
"You want me to pay for it?"
Terry asked.
"No, I'm going in. Maybe get us
some fried pies. Other supplies, too," Wyatt said, as though coming out of
a trance. He smiled in a knowing way at Terry and pushed Maisey's seat forward
and got out of the car.
Terry watched him enter the truck stop,
then he pulled the gas nozzle from the tank and clanked it back on the pump and
got into the car. Through the truck stop window he watched Wyatt pay for the
gas, then return to the counter and exchange a dollar bill for silver and go into
the men's room.
Terry chewed on his lip, his eyes busy
with thought.
"What are you doing?" Maisey
said.
"Don't worry about it," Terry
said, and started the car and burned rubber onto the highway.
They roared through Bonner, passing the
lumber mill and a church and a school and rows of company houses with birch
trees in the yards. Terry poured on the gas at the edge of town and the tires
squealed on the curves above the Blackfoot River.
"Slow down," she said.
"Don't be telling me what to do,
Maisey," he said.
"Where are we going?"
"To your house. Where you
think?" he replied.
"I didn't tell you where I
live."
"Yeah, you did. You just don't
remember."
He had his glasses on now and he was breathing
through his mouth, like a fish on land, his cheeks and neck bladed with color.
"You were the man at my
window," she said.
"I'm taking you home now. That's
all you should care about. Then I'm going back for Wyatt. You don't realize
what you've made me do."
"Made you do what?" she
asked.
"Things just don't work out for
me," Terry said, and hit his fist on the steering wheel. "I just
don't know why. They just never work out. I'd like to tear somebody apart right
now."
He squeezed the floor shift knob tightly
in his hand and passed a camper on the double stripe, whipping back into the
proper lane an instant before an oncoming log truck crested the hill in front
of them. He shot the finger at the truck's headlights.
Chapter
17
After Terry Witherspoon had dropped Maisey off and she had
told Doc of the events of the evening, I thought he was going to go after
either Witherspoon or Wyatt Dixon or the three football players at the
nightclub.
Or at least
lecture Maisey on her recklessness.
"Wyatt Dixon went into the rest
room with a handful of change? That's when this kid Witherspoon decided to bag
it down the road?" Doc said.
"Yes. Was the older man going to
buy—" Maisey began.
"Come on into the kitchen,"
Doc said.
"What is it?" she said.
"You didn't eat supper," he
said, and removed two steaks from the freezer and unwrapped them from butcher
paper at the sink and began thawing them with hot water. "Why don't you
help me slice a few potatoes and we'll cook some hash browns?"
Maisey looked at him curiously.
"You're not mad?" she asked.
"Not at you, Maisey. Never at
you," he replied.
She placed a chopping board on the
counter top near the sink and began peeling an Idaho potato, pausing to glance
at her father's profile, as though seeing him for the first time.
Nicki Molinari didn't give up easily. I saw him in downtown
Missoula the next morning, coming out of a sporting goods store. He carried a
tennis shoe box under his arm.
"You saved me a trip out to your
place. Come out to the ball field with me. It's right down by the river,"
he said.
"No, thanks," I replied.
"You want this guy Wyatt Dixon out
of your hair? Or maybe you'd like him climbing your investigator, what's the
lady's name, Temple something? Give it some thought, Mr. Holland."
He got into his convertible and drove
away.
I tried to ignore what he had said, but
he had planted the hook. I drove my truck down to the ball diamond by the Clark
Fork and parked behind the stands and walked toward the third-base line. Nicki
Molinari was hitting grounders to three other men out on the diamond,
splintering the ball low and hard across the grass.
Two people were sitting on the top row
of the otherwise empty stands. The man lifted his hand in recognition, but the
woman with him kept her gaze fixed on the field, her face as hard-planed as
refrigerated wax.
Nicki Molinari tossed his bat to another
player and walked toward me.
"What are Xavier and Holly Girard doing here?" I asked,
nodding toward the top of the stands.
"He's writing a book about me. I
got stock in her new movie. It's being shot on the Blackfoot. Why, that bother
you?" Nicki said.
"You said something about my
investigator, Temple Carrol."
"Yeah, I want my seven hundred
large back from the skank. That's Cleo Lonnigan to you. You're not interested
in a finder's fee, I can shake and bake Wyatt Dixon for you or anybody else who
might be giving you a hard time."
"Why'd you mention Temple?"
"Dixon almost tore out your son's
package. What do you think he'd do to a woman?"
"How do you know all this stuff,
Nicki?"
"Ah, my first name again. It's my
business to know."
"Good. Stay out of mine," I
said, and turned to leave.
He caught up with me and placed two
fingers on my arm. They were moist with perspiration. He looked at my face and
took his hand away.
"It's not my purpose to be enemies
with you," he said. "We got a, what do you call it, a symbiotic
relationship. You see that big guy out by second base? He works for me. He's
incontinent and blows gas in crowded elevators and thinks Nostradamus is a
college football team. But he's got a talent. Know what it is?"
"He kills people?"
"He's a great second baseman. We
were on the same team at TI. In a playoff game nobody could figure out how I
was wetting down the ball. I didn't touch my face or hat or belt, but my curve
was jumping out of the catcher's mitt. Know how I did it?"
"No."
"We'd whip the ball around the
infield. Frank out there had a hole cut in the pocket of his glove and a sponge
inside it. He'd be the last infielder to handle the ball. When it came back to
me it looked like it'd been through a car wash." Nicki smiled, his dark
eyes dancing on my face.
"What's the point?"
"Everybody has a function. You put
the right people and the right functions together, everybody wins. Help me out,
man. I don't want to sell Cleo's debt."
"Sell it?"
He gave me a look. "You're sure you
were with the G? Yeah, sell it. Discount it, twenty cents on the dollar. But
the guys who buy the debt are not like me. They recover all the principal and
all the back vig, plus interest on the vig. You want me to draw you a picture?
Think about guys who carry tin snips in their glove compartments."
I left him standing there and got back
into my truck. The baseball field was green, the base paths blown with dust,
the outfield bordered by the cotton-woods and aspens that fringed the river.
High above it all sat Xavier and Holly Girard, artists whose interests were
wedded to those of an ex-convict war veteran who played baseball in the middle
of a Norman Rockwell setting and probably helped Hmong tribesmen grow opium in
Laos.
What had the sheriff said, something to
the effect that most people's public roles were pure bullshit? I wondered if he
should not be given an endowed chair at the local university.
I BOUGHT
French bread and cheese and sliced meat at a delicatessen and picked up Temple
Carrol at the health club in Hellgate Canyon where she had started working out
on a daily basis. We drove to a picnic ground in a grove of cedar trees by the
river, and I fixed lunch for us at a plank table in the shade while she leafed
through her notebooks and file folders and went over the edited transcriptions
of her interviews with anyone she thought to be connected to the death of Lamar
Ellison.
"I interviewed Sue Lynn Big
Medicine," she said.
"Yes?"
"She was in the saloon up the
Blackfoot with Lamar Ellison just before he was killed. She's hiding
something." Temple had not changed from her workout. She wore pink shorts
rolled up high on her legs and a gray workout halter and she kept lifting her
hair off the back of her neck and pushing it on top of her head with one hand
while she flipped through her notes.
"Hiding what?" I said.
"This is what she told me: 'Lamar
would have blackouts when he mixed alcohol and reefer. Don't
ask
me what he talked about. He didn't make sense when he was stoned.'
"So then I asked her why she even
bothered to mention the fact that Lamar'd had a blackout. She goes, 'Because
you wanted to know what he was talking about the last time I saw him. I'm
trying to tell you I don't know what he was talking about. What do you expect
from a guy who had shit for brains even when he was sober?'"
"Could I see the folder you have on
her?" I said. As an investigator and researcher, Temple had no peer. If at
all possible, her interviews got on tape. Then she would transcribe the tape
onto the printed page and go through the person's rambling statements and
attempts at obfuscation and highlight sentences and phrases that were part of
patterns.
She never asked a question that required only a yes or no
response, which forced the subject, if he was dishonest, to search in his mind
for ideational associations that would mislead the interviewer. Usually in that
moment the subject's eyes went askance. However, if the subject was a
pathological liar, his eyelids stayed stitched to his forehead and he leaned
forward aggressively, an angry tone of self-righteousness threaded through his
answer.
Temple maintained that the first
response out of the subject's mouth was always the most revealing, even if the
person was lying. She said nouns went to the heart of the matter and adverbs
showed manipulation. Honest people erred on the side of self-accusation and
took responsibility for the evil deeds others had visited upon
them.
Sociopaths, when they had nothing at risk, told stories about themselves that
made the mind reel and the stomach constrict, then a moment later tried to
conceal the fact they had been raised in an alley by a single mother. One way or
another, Temple's highlighter found it all.
The transcription of her interview with
Sue Lynn Big Medicine was two pages long.
"She uses the words 'blackout' and
'stoned' six separate times," Temple said. "The impression I get is
that Ellison went outside the bar, smoked a lot of reefer with some other
bikers, then came back in and told her something that made her skin crawl. You
got any idea what it might be?"
"No," I replied.
"Why would she want to hide it from
us?"
"She's working for the G. She wants
to be careful about what she says. What else do you have on her?" I asked.
"She was arrested on the edge
of the Crow Reservation for
armed robbery of the mails."
"What?"
"She went into a general store with
three or four other Indians. One of them pulled out a gun and robbed the owner
of fifty dollars and a quart of whiskey. But the general store was also a post
office. The Indians were charged with robbery of the mails, which is a federal
offense. Sue Lynn's case is still pending."
"So that's the hold the Treasury
agents have on her."
"Here's the rest of it. One of the
guys she was arrested with was Lamar Ellison's cell mate in Deer Lodge."
"They had the perfect person to
plant inside the militia."
"There's one other detail, but I
don't know if it has any bearing on the fact she's a government informant. Two
years ago her little brother disappeared from a Little League ball game in
Hardin, Montana. A month later his body was found in a garbage dump outside
Baltimore."
"How old was he?"
"Ten," Temple said. "This
is a pissed-off young woman."
"She's seems to be a mixed bag, all
right," I said, spinning my hat on my finger. "Her little brother was
found dead in Baltimore?"
"He'd been strangled. No clues, no
leads." When I didn't speak, Temple said, "Your boy's in the sack
with her?"
"Celibacy isn't a high priority
with most kids today."
"I wonder who their role models
were," she said.
She got up from the table and gazed
through the cedar trees at the river. Downstream, college kids were riding
bicycles back and forth across an old railroad bridge that had been converted
for pedestrian use.
"Why do you act like that,
Temple?" I said.
"Because sometimes I feel like it.
Because maybe I just get depressed digging up grief and misery in people's
lives."
"Then warn me in advance." Her
lips started to shape a word, but no sound came out of her throat. Her eyes
were fixed on mine now, an expression in them that was somewhere between anger
and pain and the love that teenage girls sometimes carry inside them as
brightly as a flame. I put my hands on her shoulders and when she raised her
face, unsure of what was happening, I kissed her on the mouth. I felt the
surprise go through her body as tangibly as an electric shock.
She stepped back from me, her eyes wide,
her cheeks coloring.
"Go ahead and hit me," I said.
Instead, she averted her eyes so I could not read whatever emotion was in them
and packed all her notebooks and file folders in her nylon backpack and walked
toward my truck, the backs of her thighs wrinkled from the picnic bench.
And once again I was left alone with the
beating of my own heart and my confused thoughts about Temple Carrol and the
certainty that I had succeeded once more in making a fool of myself.
Later, I had the oil changed in my truck, then called the sheriff at his
office.
"Do you know a hood named Nicki
Molinari?" I asked.
"He and a bunch of other greasers
own a dude ranch down by Stevens vine," he replied.
"It doesn't bother you to have
these guys on your turf?"
"We've had gangsters here for
years. They'd like to get casino gambling legalized and turn Flathead Lake into
Tahoe," he said.
"I saw Molinari with Xavier and
Holly Girard this morning," I said.
"That's supposed to be skin off my
ass?"
"You pointed me at the Girards when
I first met you. It was for a reason."
"So go figure it out and stop bothering
me," he said, and hung up.
I drove out to the Girards' home on the
Clark Fork. My visit was to become another reminder that it's presumptuous to assume a common
moral belief governs us all.
I SMELLED
alcohol on Xavier Girard when he answered the door. But he wasn't drunk,
at least not so that I could tell. In fact, his thick hair had just been
barbered, his eyebrows trimmed. His shoulders were straight, his demeanor
casual and nonexpressive. If his mood could be characterized at all, it was a
bit melancholy and perhaps resigned.
"Am I disturbing you?" I
asked.
"I was writing."
"Can you give me ten minutes?"
"Come in," he replied.
I followed him into a spacious office
with cedar bookshelves that ran from the floor to the ceiling. The windows were
arched and looked out on wooded hills and a red barn down below and a pasture
that was full of Appaloosa and quarter horses.
The wall was covered with framed book
reviews, all of them sneering indictments of his work. The centerpiece was a
legal form initiated by the censor at the Texas State Prison in Huntsville,
stating Girard's last novel had been banned from the Texas penal system because
the dialogue made use of racial and profane language and encouraged a
disrespect for authority.
The convict whose copy of Girard's novel
had been confiscated was in the Ellis unit, awaiting execution.
On the shelves above Girard's desk were
his two Edgar Awards, in the form of ceramic busts of Edgar Allen Poe, and a
display of arrowheads and pottery shards and a collection of .58-caliber
oxidized lead minié balls and rusted case shot.
"This is Civil War ordnance. You
dug this up in Louisiana?" I said.
But he wasn't listening. I thought I
heard voices through the wall or perhaps the ceiling.
"What could I help you with?"
he asked.
"Nobody's looking at you for the
murder of Lamar Ellison," I replied.
"Are you?"
"He vandalized your vehicle and
punched you out just before somebody boiled his cabbage."
"You want a drink?"
"No."
"You don't really think I killed
Ellison, do you?" he asked.
"Probably not."
"Then why are you here, Mr.
Holland?"
"The sheriff's got you and Ms.
Girard on his mind. I just don't know why."
"If that's all, I'd better get some
pages ready for my editor," he said.
I could hear a knocking sound, like a
headboard slamming into a wall, and a woman's voice mounting to a barely
suppressed shriek. I felt the skin draw tight on my face. Xavier's eyes lifted
toward the ceiling.
"You wanted to say something?"
Girard asked.
"No, not really."
"People have different kinds of
relationships, Mr. Holland. It doesn't mean one is better than another."
I nodded, my eyes averted.
"I'll let myself out. Thanks for
your time," I said.
"Sorry. It looks like the
landscaper has you blocked in.
I'll find him. He's out back somewhere."
So I had to wait ten minutes for the
landscaper to move his vehicle. But at least the sounds from upstairs had
stopped. As I turned around in front of the garage, Nicki Molinari came out the
front door of the house barefoot and headed for my truck, gesturing at me to
stop. His hair was wet on his shirt collar. "Say it," I said.
"Don't drive out of here with your
nose in the air. You got the wrong idea about what's going on here."
"You were bopping the guy's wife
while he was downstairs," I said.
"He's a marshmallow and a drunk.
Besides, we didn't know he had come home."
"Take your hands off my truck,
please."
"I checked you out, Mr. Holland.
You killed your best friend. I knew your kind in 'Nam. A ROTC commission and a
cause stuffed up your butt, except it's always other guys who get turned into
chipped beef."
"You should have put your shoes on,
Nicki," I said.
"What?"
"You stepped in dog poop."
He stared down at the brown smear his
toes had left on the cement.
I drove away from the house and up on a
rise above the river and got out of my truck and looked down at the cottonwoods
below, the words of Nicki Molinari ringing in my ears. I wanted to go back to
the Girards' house and kill Nicki Molinari, literally blow him all over the
grass. In the old days I could have done it and sipped a cup of coffee while I
reloaded. I wondered if L.Q.'s ghost would ever let me rest.
Chapter
18
The next morning I received a phone call from the
sheriff.
"That
kid, Terry Witherspoon, the one you think was watching Maisey Voss in her
bathroom? He's in St. Pat's Hospital. Somebody tossed him out of a car,"
the sheriff said.
"Why are you telling me?"
"Maybe the girl would like to know.
A crime victim's day don't always come in court," he replied.
"Who did it to him?"
"Maybe he'll tell you. He was
wearing lipstick and rouge when the paramedics brought him in. Why would queer
bait want to be looking at a young girl through a bathroom window?"
"I think Wyatt Dixon is AC/DC.
Witherspoon is his boy."
"Our worst problem around here used
to be pollution from tepee burners. We even had a whorehouse over in Wallace,
Idaho. It's sure nice to have you new folks around, Mr. Holland," he said.
"How should I interpret that?
You're really a cryptic man, Sheriff."
"Thank you," he said, and hung
up.
When I entered Terry
Witherspoon's room he was standing by his bed, putting on his shirt. His elbows
and forehead were barked and one eye was clotted with blood.
His face jerked when he saw me, as
though he feared I might be someone else.
"Wyatt was going to rape Maisey the
other night, wasn't he?" I said.
He put on his glasses and crinkled his
nose. A sun shower had burst on the hills rimming the valley and the hills were
green and shining with light, but it was not a good day for Terry Witherspoon.
His face was pinched with resentment and shame, like a child who had been
unjustly punished.
"You did an honorable deed, Terry.
It takes a standup guy to 'front a dude like Wyatt Dixon," I said.
"He's picking me up. You'd better
not be here when he does," he said.
"Free country," I said.
"It used to be. Before the likes of
y'all took over," he replied.
"Who's this 'y'all' we're talking
about?"
"Liberals, muff divers, tree huggers, the people who are ruining
everything."
"You want to be a hump for Wyatt
the rest of your life?"
"Don't call me a hump. I'm not a
hump."
"You only listen to people who
denigrate you, Terry."
"Do what?"
"You grew up being dumped on. So in
your mind the only people who really know you are the ones who run you down. A
guy like me tells you you're standup and you blow me off."
He looked out the window, down onto the
sidewalk.
"He's coming. Get out of
here," he said.
"You like Maisey?" I asked.
He looked at me silently, as though
there were a trick in the question.
"Ellison and his friends already
put their mark on her soul. Give her a break. Stay away from her," I said.
"I'm not good enough?" he
said, his glasses full of light.
"Back in North Carolina you broke
into a house and tied two people to chairs and shot the man and cut the woman's
throat. They'll stand by your deathbed one day, kid. Count on it."
His jaw dropped and his breath went out
of his mouth as though I'd punched him in the stomach. Then I saw his attention
shift to the doorway. I turned and looked into the face of Wyatt Dixon.
"Why, I be go-to-hell if it ain't
the counselor again, right in the midst of it all. Counselor, every time I see
you I'm put in mind of a shithog ear-deep in a slop bucket. Search me for the
explanation. By the way, did you know that boy of yours
pulled a skinning knife on me this morning?"
He let his grin hang, his eyes dancing
with delight at the expression on my face.
I DROVE BACK
to Doc Voss's place on the Black-foot but Lucas wasn't there.
"You know where Sue Lynn Big
Medicine lives?" I asked Maisey.
"Lucas said by a junkyard in East
Missoula," she replied. "You saw Terry this morning?"
"'Terry? You're on a
first-name basis with this ass-wipe?" I said. She was sitting on the porch
step with a book splayed open on her knee. Her calico cat was flipping in the
dust by her feet. She squinted her eyes at me in the sunlight.
"That's his name, isn't it?"
she said.
"Don't let that guy get near you,
Maisey."
"I wish you wouldn't tell me what
to do."
"Don't any of you kids have any
judgment about the people you associate with?" I asked.
"Your problem is with Lucas, Billy
Bob, not me. Please change your tone of voice."
There's no feeling quite like being
corrected by a sixteen-year-old girl.
I drove back down the Blackfoot and into
East Missoula, a community of trailers and truckstops and low-rent casinos,
where the poor and unskilled watched the world they had taken for granted
disappear around them. It Wasn't hard to find the junkyard where Sue Lynn
lived. Cars that had been crushed and flattened by a compactor
were stacked in layers on a knoll above the highway, and the windowless
gray-primed stock car she drove, with orange numerals on the doors, was parked
by an old brick cottage with a sign over the porch that read Salvage.
Sue Lynn and Lucas were on their hands
and knees in the backyard, working on what I thought was a rock garden. Then I
realized the design was far more intricate. They had laid out a circle of
stones, with two intersecting lines inside it. One line of stones was painted
red, the other black. In the middle of the cross was a willow tree.
Now Lucas and Sue Lynn were working each
of the quadrants with trowels and sprinkling them down with a water can and
planting purple and white and pink pansies into the mixture of mulch and black
soil. The mongrel dog Lucas had saved from drowning in the Blackfoot River was
nosing his snout into the dirt, his tail wagging, his hair matted down with the
medicine Lucas had smeared on his mange.
I squatted on my haunches outside the
circle of stones and took off my hat and put a peppermint stick in the corner
of my mouth. "It looks real good," I said.
"It's an Indian prayer garden. The
willow is the Tree of Life. One part of the cross is the red road. That's the
good way in this world. The other one, the black road, that one's not so
cool," Lucas said.
"Wyatt Dixon said you pulled a
knife on him."
"He's full of shit. I took out a
pocketknife to peel an apple and he made some kind of
wise-ass remark about it," Lucas replied. "Why's he want to think I'd
pull a knife?"
"So he can kill you, son." I
felt my gaze break at the content of my own words. I also realized I'd never
called Lucas son before.
"Maybe he'll get a surprise,"
Lucas said.
"Don't talk that way," I said.
"Should I leave?" Sue Lynn
said.
"How are you, Sue Lynn?" I
said.
She pressed the roots of a petunia into
the damp soil and didn't answer. She wore cutoff jeans and a halter, and the
tips of her hair were wet with perspiration and there were sun freckles on the
tops of her breasts.
"Who owns this place?" I
asked.
"My uncle. He did time in
Marion," she replied.
"As joints go, that's real
mainline."
"I told you once before I don't get
to choose where I live."
"You ever read Black Elk Speaks by
John Neihardt?" I asked.
"I never heard of it," she
replied.
"You should. This prayer garden is
in his book."
"My grandfather was a Crow holy man
and you're an asshole, Mr. Holland," she said.
"Come on, Sue Lynn," Lucas
said.
I got to my feet and put my hat back on.
The hills across the river were velvet green and rose abruptly into the sky and
ponderosa pine flowed from the crests down into the arroyos.
"My apologies to you, Ms. Big
Medicine. Y'all have a fine day," I said, and walked back to my truck.
I saw Lucas running to catch me before I
got out on the highway. I winked at him and gave him the thumbs-up sign.
That night Lucas played at the Milltown Bar. The tables and dance floor were
filled, the crowd happy and drunk and raucous. When Lucas came to the
microphone to sing his first song of the evening, his eyes were watering from
the cigarette smoke and the heat of the stage lights that shone upward into his
face. He clicked the floor switch with his boot and the banks of white lights
died and cooled, and he clicked a second switch and four overhead flood lamps
wrapped with tinted cellophane came on and bathed the stage with a soft
reddish-blue glow.
He blotted the sweat out of his eyes and
the room came into focus, then he looked down into a face that made him twitch
inside.
"During your break I'd like to
compare notes with you on Sue Lynn. She can really rise to the occasion if you
can get down past that wore-out part," Wyatt Dixon said.
The next evening Doc and I attended a town meeting hosted by the
Phillips-Carruthers Corporation at the Holiday Inn in Missoula. The crowd was a
hostile one. Things had not been going well for Phillips-Carruthers. The
previous day a famous female country singer had agreed to
visit the mine site. Perhaps because of the fact she chain-smoked cigarettes
and looked as if she had just been blown through the doors of a beer joint, the
mine operators thought they had a sympathetic vehicle for their message. Also,
like most greedy and obtuse people, they believed news media existed for no
other purpose than to promote their business interests. Hence, they arranged
for both print and television journalists to be at the mine site when the
singer was escorted from a company helicopter to the water processing shed that
supposedly neutralized any contaminants that might leak into the ecosystem.
On camera, a smiling company executive
filled a drinking glass from a tap and offered it to the singer.
"It's as clear as spring water,
ma'am. I'd give it to my grandchildren," he said.
"Thank you, sir. But I don't care
to have nuclear-strength spinach growing out of my lungs," she replied,
and smiled sweetly at him.
Probably due to the influence of a PR
person with a brain, tonight the mine operators played over the heads of the
audience and made use of their hostility. There was no shortage of fanatics and
professional naysayers in the crowd, people who wore their eccentricity like a
uniform and loved conflict and acrimony so they would not have to contemplate
the paucity of significance in their own lives. The mine operators paraded
working people in front of the microphone, both men and women who spoke sincerely
about their dependence upon the mine for their homes and
livelihoods.
You could almost feel the mine executives praying under their breaths for a
catcall from the audience.
But it didn't happen. The audience was
respectful, the occasional dissenting moan in a listener hushed by those around
him. Then Carl Hinkel, the militia leader from the Bitterroot Valley, rose from
his chair in the third row and gave the mine operators what they needed, a
dignified presentation that belied his agenda, that mixed patriotism and
blue-collar attitudes with positive economic statistics and Montana traditions.
He wore a western-cut sports coat with
pads on the elbows and a maroon shirt and a flowered tie and charcoal slacks.
His beard was freshly clipped, his shoulders straight, his corncob pipe cupped
in his palm. His Tidewater accent, empty of anger or malicious intent, was both
foreign and intriguing to the audience. Their faces seemed to be reconsidering
all the impressions they had previously formed about him.
"You're not going to spike this
guy's cannon?" I said to Doc.
But Doc just looked at his feet.
"The Earth was put here for a
purpose, to nurture and sustain us. The minerals we take from the ground are
like the vegetables we grow on our farms. They're all gifts of the Lord,"
Hinkel said. "It seems to me a terrible arrogance to reject that gift. I
don't mean to offend anyone here. I love this state. I think it's our charge to
be good stewards of the land. I appreciate the opportunity you've
given me to speak here tonight. God bless every one of you, and God bless these
working folks who need their jobs."
When Hinkel sat down no one rose to
rebut him. A long-haired kid in a fatigue jacket with a feather dangling from
one earring stood up and made a rambling speech about Native Americans and wind
power and the timber industry and missile silos east of the Divide. People's
eyes crossed with boredom. Carl Hinkel now seemed like Clarence Darrow.
"Say something, Doc."
"Fuck it. If they need the likes of
me for a leader, they're not worth leading," he replied.
The sky was still bright when the
meeting broke up and the audience drifted outside. The clouds were
mauve-colored in the west and the rain blowing in the canyon at Alberton Gorge
looked like spun glass against the light. I could smell the heavy, cold odor of
the Clark Fork and the wetness of the boulders in the shadows along the banks
and the hay that someone was mowing in a distant field. The riparian
countryside, the purple haze on the mountains, the old-growth trees that were
so tall they looked as if they lived in the sky, were probably as close to Eden
as modern man ever got, I thought. But this wonderful part of the world was
also one that Carl Hinkel and his friends, if given the opportunity, would turn
into a separate country surrounded by razor wire and guard towers.
People
who should have
known better had stopped to chat with him. He was
obviously a strong man physically, and he demonstrated
his strength by picking up a plump little girl of ten or eleven and holding her
out at arm's length.
"Excuse me, Mr. Hinkel," I
said.
"Yes?" he said, turning toward
me, his eyebrows raised.
"I keep having trouble with Wyatt
Dixon. I don't think he does anything without your permission. The next time he
bothers my son, I'm going to be out to your place and kick a nail-studded
two-by-four up your sorry white ass."
"I'm afraid I don't know who you
are," he said. "Oh, really?"
"I'm sixty years old, sir. It seems
to me you embarrass your son and degrade yourself. But if you wish to
physically attack me, do it and be done," he said.
The conversation died around us and
every person on the motel's grass swale and tree-shaded driveway was now
staring at me. Carl Hinkel waited, then put his pipe into his mouth and drew a
thumbnail across the top of a match and lit the tobacco in his pipe bowl and
gazed into the distance.
My face was red with shame. I turned and
walked away, unable to believe my own vanity and stupidity. I heard Doc at my
elbow.
"You're going about it the wrong
way, bud. These guys don't fight fair," he said. "Tell me about
it."
"My father always said God loves
fools. Join the club. Don't worry. They're all going down," Doc said. He
cupped his hand around the back of my
neck like a
baseball catcher mothering a pitcher who had just been shelled off the mound.
I turned and looked into his face.
"All going down?" I said.
I GUESS
I had misjudged Doc's potential. Or at least Wyatt Dixon had.
The next night he was at home in the
small log house Carl Hinkel had given him to use on the back of Hinkel's
property. The moon was up and from his window he could see the lines of
cottonwoods along the Bitterroot River and the monolithic shapes of the
mountains against the sky and the thick stands of timber that grew into the
canyons. A star shower burst above the valley and Wyatt Dixon wondered if the
tracings of light across the darkness of the heavens were a sign, perhaps an
indicator that an enormous historical change was at hand for him and his kind.
Or perhaps he thought nothing at all.
The night was cold, but neither cold nor
heat had ever had an appreciable effect on him. He wore only a nylon vest over
his skin when he walked down to the river with a cane pole and a can of worms
and bobber-fished in an eddy behind a beaver dam. Two nights earlier he had
spread the surface of the water with cornmeal, and now, in less than five minutes,
he hooked what was at least a twenty-five-inch bull trout. He let the trout
swallow the treble hook, down the throat and into the belly, so there would be
no chance of its slipping off, then he horsed it onto the bank and
picked
it up by the tail and swung it like a sock full of wet sand and bashed its
brains out on a rock.
As he walked back to his house he saw
car lights through a stand of lodgepole pine on the neighbor's property, but
the lights disappeared and he gave them no more thought. He slit the belly of
his fish under an outside faucet and raked out the guts and threw them to one
of Carl's cats, then he scrubbed his hands clean under the faucet and threaded
a stick through the trout's gills and mouth and went inside his house.
Just inside the doorway a piece of
bronze wire glistened once on the edge of his vision, then looped over his head
and tightened around his neck, squeezing tendon and artery, shutting off air to
his lungs and blood to his brain.
He lost both his sight and his
consciousness as though he were watching a red-black liquid slide down the lens
of a camera.
When he awoke his head snapped upward,
like that of a man rising from a coffin, and the room, with all its familiar
gunracks and deer and elk antlers and assortment of western hats and Indian
blankets on the furniture and logs burning in the woodstove, came back into
focus, everything in its right place, even the plastic suction device on the
kitchen table that he used to clean impurities from the pores of his facial
skin.
He realized he was seated in a chair and
the wire loop that had razored into his flesh was no longer around his throat
but on the floor by his foot and he saw that the
loop had been fashioned from guitar strings. But his arms had been pinioned
behind the chair and his wrists crossed and taped together, and his calves were
secured to the chair's legs with wide strips of silver tape from his ankle to
the knee. He looked at the intruder who sat on a straight-back wood chair no
more than three feet from him.
"Howdy do, sir? My name is Wyatt
Dixon. What might yours be?" he said.
"You don't know?" the intruder
said.
"My guess is you're Maisey Voss's
daddy. If that be the case, I'm honored to meet a decorated soldier such as
yourself. That Bowie knife on your hip could saw the head off a hog, couldn't
it?"
"You were going back into the men's
room at the truck stop to buy rubbers?" Doc said.
"That's not a fit question to be
asking a man, sir."
"You planned to rape my
daughter."
"Some weight lifters or football
farts, I don't know which, was trying to get into her pants. Excuse the
language I use to describe what could have been a repeat scene for your poor
little girl. But that's what happened, sir."
"What I don't understand about you
is that evidently you're a brave man. Cruel people are almost always cowards.
How would you explain the discrepancy, Mr. Dixon?"
"I can tell you are Mr. Holland's
friend. You both are natural-born orators. Your speech is filled with
philosophic content that is far beyond the understanding of a rodeo
cowboy."
Doc got up from his chair and walked to
the butane cookstove that was set in a small curtain-hung alcove that served as
a kitchen. He turned the butane on and listened to it hiss through the unlit
jets, then turned it off.
"It won't give you no
satisfaction," Wyatt Dixon said.
"Why not?" Doc asked.
"'Cause you'll have given me power.
'Cause I'll live in you every morning you get up. Ask them who run Old Sparky
at Huntsville Pen. They don't never eat breakfast alone."
"That doesn't apply to you?"
Wyatt Dixon's silky red hair hung in his eyes like a little boy's. He shifted
his weight on his small, hard buttocks and wet his lips.
"There's people that's different.
We all know each other, though. It's a bigger club than you might think,"
Wyatt Dixon said.
"I think you've convinced me, Mr.
Dixon."
"I don't rightly follow you, sir.
But I have to say I'm in awe of your military background. You had Lamar Ellison
spotting his drawers."
"I'm glad to hear that," Doc
replied. The woodstove was inset in an old stone hearth. Doc picked up two
chunks of split pine from the woodbox and opened the stove's doors and threw
them on the fire. Then he opened the damper on the chimney and watched the
flame bloom inside the stove's iron walls.
All the while Wyatt Dixon watched him as
though he were a spectator rather than a
participant in the events taking place around him.
"Cut me loose and give me a knife
and let's see how it shapes up. I'm making a bona fide gentleman's offer to
you, sir," he said.
But Doc had walked past Wyatt Dixon's
line of vision and was now at the cookstove again, where this time he reached
behind it and ripped a length of flex pipe from a steel container. Suddenly the
smell of butane filled the room.
"I can see you are a man of
purpose, sir," Wyatt Dixon said. "Was you in that bunch over there
that would slip into a village and cut people's throats in their sleep and
paint their faces yellow so their folks would get a major surprise at
daylight?"
When Doc went out the door and closed it
behind him, Wyatt Dixon was staring at the fire in the woodstove, his face
whimsical, as though an idle and insignificant thought were hovering in front
of his
eyes.
But whatever passions had driven Doc as
a Navy SEAL had become little more than ashes on a dead fire. He came back into
the log house and screwed down the valve on the butane tank and opened the
windows and filled a plastic bucket in the sink and threw the water on the
flames in the woodstove. Smoke billowed up into the room.
Wyatt Dixon watched him with a bead in
his eye, his hands opening and closing behind him.
Doc flung
the bucket at the sink and walked back outside, leaving the door open behind
him.
But just as he started his truck he saw
Wyatt Dixon walk out of the door, strands of silver tape hanging from his
wrists, a splintered piece of chair leg still bound to the calf of his leg. His
silhouette seemed haloed with light and smoke.
"You don't have it in you, sir.
Know what that means? I own you. You and yours. If I've a mind, I'll split your
little girl in half and take the bones out of the Holland boy. Once more please
pardon my language, but, sir, you done fucked with the devil hisself," he
said.
Chapter
19
"He's a Satanist?" I said to
Doc the next morning.
"I don't know what he is," he
replied.
"What have you done, Doc?"
The sun had not broken above the
ridgeline and the house was in shadow. Doc picked up his uneaten breakfast and
threw it out the back door.
"I'm going into town. You want to
come?" he said.
"No," I said, my anger as
thick as a walnut in my throat.
I walked down to Lucas's tent on the
river and crouched down and pulled open the flap. He raised his head up from
his sleeping bag.
"Anything wrong?" he asked.
"Doc stoked up Wyatt Dixon. I think
you should go back to Deaf Smith."
"Why?"
"He made a threatening statement
about you and Maisey."
"Fuck him."
"I had a feeling you might say
that. Excuse me for waking you up."
"Joan Baez is playing at the
university tomorrow night," he said.
I waited for him to go on.
His eyes shifted off mine. "I told
Sue Lynn you give us two tickets. Can you let me have forty dollars?"
I went BACK into the house and opened the
Mis-soula phone directory and began the long process of trying to contact a
federal agent for whom I had no business card. Finally I reached a Treasury
Department switchboard in Washington, D.C., and after three transfers was able
to leave my name and number.
Then I went to Bob Ward's Sporting Goods
and bought a .38 revolver with a two-inch barrel and a clip-on holster and a
box of cartridges.
By that afternoon I had heard nothing
back from my inquiry at the Treasury Department.
I called the Missoulian and asked
for the classified ad department.
"Is there still time to get a
two-column boldface in tomorrow's paper?" I asked.
"Yes, I think we can do that. What
do you want it to say?" a woman replied sweetly.
"'Amos Rackley, Please Get in
Touch. Urgent.' Sign it 'Billy Bob Holland.'"
"That's it?" she asked.
"No. Let me make an addition,"
I said.
That evening I picked up Temple at the airport. She had been called back to
Texas to testify at a trial and I had not seen her since I had impetuously
kissed her in the picnic grounds by the river. When she walked off the plane I
felt that the best friend I had on earth had just come back into my life.
"Anything happen while I was
gone?" she asked.
"A little bit. Doc garroted Wyatt
Dixon with Lucas's guitar strings and taped him to a chair and came within an
inch of blowing up him and his house with butane gas."
"You're making this up?"
"I wish Doc had finished what he
started."
"Say again?"
"Dixon said he might take Lucas's
bones out. Those are the words he used," I said, and felt myself swallow.
Temple put her suitcase into the bed of
my truck and got into the cab. I started the engine and drove out on the
highway. The hills across the river looked low and humped in the sunset and the
sky was dull gold and flecked with dark birds. I felt her watching the side of
my face.
"Don't be too hard on Doc,"
she said.
"He wants it both ways. He whips a
rope on these guys, but he's not willing to go to the tree with them."
"You better hope he doesn't."
We didn't speak for several moments.
Then I said, "Do you want to have supper?"
"I ate on the plane. Another time,
okay?" she said, and smiled wanly.
"Sure," I said, and pulled
into the parking lot of her motel on East Broadway, not far from Hellgate
Canyon, which had been named by Jesuit missionaries after they saw the litter
of human bones left from the Blackfoot ambushes of the Flatheads.
She hefted her suitcase out of the truck
bed and yawned. The wind was cool and the light had gone pink on the trees that
grew along the crest of the canyon and I could see white-water rafters bouncing
through the rapids on the river.
"Can you come in a minute?"
she said.
"Sure," I said, and walked
behind her into her room.
She set her suitcase down and shut the
blinds and closed the door and turned on the lights. She sat on the edge of her
bed and looked into space for a moment, and I could see the fatigue of the trip
seep into her face.
"Maybe I should come back
tomorrow," I said.
"No, stay," she said, and pulled off her loafers and
unscrewed her earrings and set them on the night-stand. Then she took a breath
and smiled and let her eyes rest on mine. "It's been a long day."
"I guess it has," I said, and
saw an ice bucket and two drinking glasses on the desk. "I'll get a couple
of sodas if you like."
"No, that's all right," she
said, and lifted her large shoulder bag onto her lap. "A friend of mine
got ahold of Carl Hinkel's sheet. I thought we should go over it."
"Hinkel's sheet?"
"Yeah. This guy recruits ex-cons
like Lamar Ellison and Wyatt Dixon over the Internet. He was a college
professor once, can you believe that?"
"You wanted to go over Hinkel's
sheet?"
"You'd rather not do it now?"
"Hinkel's a bucket of shit, Temple. Who cares what his
history is?"
"I just don't believe I've come
back to this," she said.
The next morning was Saturday and I went into town by myself and
ate steak and eggs in a cafe by the rail yards, then took a walk across the
Higgins Street Bridge and along the river by an old train depot that was now
used for offices by an environmental group. The walkway by the river was still
deep in shadow, the runoff loud through the cottonwoods and willows. I didn't hear
the car that pulled off the bridge and drove down a ramp and stopped behind me.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw a car
door open and a crew-cut blond man in a suit suddenly running at me, his arm
outstretched. I turned and ripped my elbow into his face and felt the bone
break in his nose.
He cupped his hands to his face and an
unintelligible sound came out of his mouth. His white shirt was splattered with
blood and his eyes were filled with pain and rage. His hand went inside his
suit coat and closed on the butt of an automatic pistol.
I grabbed his wrist with my left hand
and tore my .38 from its clip-on belt holster
and slammed him against the front of his car and wedged the .38 into his mouth,
my hand still gripped on his wrist. He gagged on the two-inch barrel and I
pushed it deeper into his throat, bending him back against the car. Blood and
spittle ran from his mouth and I heard the automatic fall from his hand onto
the cement.
Then someone pressed a pistol against my
temple.
"Let Jim go, Mr. Holland,"
Amos Rackley said.
"Kiss my ass. You take that gun
away from my head," I said.
"You're not in a bargaining
position," he replied.
"Watch this," I said. I fitted
my left hand on the throat of the man called Jim and shoved the .38 deeper into
his mouth and cocked the hammer with my thumb, the cylinder actually clacking
against his teeth now. "You take your piece away from my head or I'll
empty his brainpan on the hood."
Rackley
lowered his gun. I released the man named Jim and stepped away from him.
"You fucking lunatic," Rackley
said.
"You jump out of cars at people and
pull guns on them, this is what you get," I said.
"What do you call this?" he
said, and reached into the backseat of his car and shoved the morning newspaper
at me. It was folded back to a red-circled classified ad that read, "Amos
Rackley, Please Get in Touch. I Don't Feel Like Cleaning Up Your Mess— Billy
Bob Holland."
"I think you're deliberately
letting Wyatt Dixon and Carl Hinkel stay in circulation so they'll lead you
to
other conspirators in the Oklahoma City bombing. In the meantime they're
hurting innocent people."
"You just assaulted a federal
agent," he replied.
"There're must be twenty spectators
watching this from the bridge. I wonder what they'll have to say about who
assaulted whom. You want to get a news reporter down here?"
"You're threatening me?"
"It's not a threat, Mr. Rackley.
You point a gun at me again and I'll pick your cotton."
He tossed the newspaper at my face. The
pages broke apart in the wind and blew down the walkway. His fellow agent
cleared his mouth of blood and spat it on the cement, then bent over and
retrieved his automatic and replaced it into its holster. There was a large red
knot on the bridge of his nose.
"I'm sorry I hurt you," I
said.
"Blow me, Gomer," he replied.
I slipped the .38 back into its clip-on
holster. I saw his eyes travel to the holster's position on my belt.
"It's unconcealed. I don't need a
permit for it. Welcome to Montana," I said.
That night I took Temple to the Joan Baez concert at the university. The
auditorium was packed, the air stifling. But the crowd didn't care. They were
wild about Joan. George McGovern was in the audience and she introduced him as
an old friend. She was sweating in the lights, her clothes sticking damply to
her skin. Finally she touched her wrist to her brow in desperation and said,
"I have to be honest with you. I've never been so hot in my life. Sweat is
actually running down the backs of my legs."
A man in the balcony stood up, cupping
his hands to his mouth, and shouted, "That's all right, Joan! You're still
beautiful!"
The crowd roared. Her humor and grace,
her sustained youthfulness and lack of any bitterness, and the incredible range
of her voice were a conduit back into an era thirty years gone. For two hours
it was 1969 and the flower children still danced barefoot on the lawn at Golden
Gate Park.
But seated in the second row, in the
seat next to the right aisle, was a man in a domed white hat with an Indian
band around the crown and garters on his sleeves. In the glow of the stage
lights his face looked as smooth as moist clay, clean of all imperfections,
flat-bladed, the jaw hooked, the eyes fascinated, like those of a visitor in an
alien environment.
He never applauded nor did his facial
expression ever change from one of bemused curiosity. At intermission he
remained in his chair, his rectangular posture like stone, so others had to
labor to get around him.
"L.Q. Navarro used to say there are
two Americas," I said to Temple.
"How's that?" she said,
watching the musicians regroup on stage.
"One bunch wants good things for
the world. The other bunch thinks the earth is there to be ground up for
profit. The cutting edge for the second bunch are guys like Wyatt Dixon."
"Are you telling me he's
here?" But just at that moment the man in the domed white hat went out the
fire exit and let the metal door slam behind him.
"I just miss L.Q. sometimes,"
I said. The lights went down and Joan Baez came to the microphone and
introduced her niece. Temple was whispering to me behind her hand, something
about the song "Silver Dagger," when I realized Cleo Lonnigan and her
gay carpenter were seated three rows in front of us. Cleo had happened to turn
and look up the aisle, and suddenly I was staring into her face.
I started to wave, then thought better
of it.
"What's wrong?" Temple asked.
"Nothing," I replied. But
Temple followed my eyes to Cleo.
"Oh, it's Dr. Bedpan," Temple
said.
"Come on, Temple," I said.
"Is she still staring at us?"
"No."
"Good. I was worried. I thought it
was she who was rude and needed correcting."
Temple gazed benignly up at the stage.
At the end of the concert the audience brought Joan back on stage three times.
The auditorium was sweltering now, the air fetid with body odor. After Joan
left the stage a final time, someone opened a side door and the auditorium was
suddenly flooded with cool air. I put my hand on Temple's arm and steered us
for the exit.
Too late.
Cleo Lonnigan stood solidly in our path.
"Was Little Miss Muffet whispering about me?" she asked.
"Muffet?" Temple said.
"I'm sure you get my meaning,"
Cleo said.
"Shut your mouth, Cleo," I
said.
"Hey, Cleo, let's ease on out of
here," Eric, Cleo's carpenter friend, said.
"I'm sure that's just part of Dr.
Lonnigan's regular pillow talk. She doesn't mean anything by it," Temple
said to me.
"Look at me," Cleo said.
"Oh, I don't think so," Temple
said.
"If you ever whisper behind my back
or try to ridicule me in public again, you'll wish you were back waiting tables
or whatever you did before somebody let you in a junior college."
I put my arm around Temple's shoulders
and almost forced her out the door.
"Would you get your arm off me,
please?" Temple said, flexing her shoulders, her neck flaring with color.
"I apologize for that in
there."
"You actually went to bed with her?
It must be horrible remembering it."
"Why don't you ease up,
Temple?"
The sky was green, the evening star
glittering like a solitary diamond over the mountains in the west.
"Billy Bob, don't you see it?"
Temple said.
"What?" I said, confused.
"It's that woman in there, or it's
me, or a female DEA agent, or an old girlfriend from high school. We're just
Valium. You're married to the ghost of L.Q. Navarro."
That night dry lightning rippled through the thunderclouds that sealed the
Blackfoot Valley. The wind was up and the trees shook along the riverbank and I
could see pine needles scattering on the surface of the water. I walked through
Doc's fields, restless and irritable and discontent, a nameless fear trembling
like a crystal goblet in my breast. The Appaloosa and thoroughbred in Doc's
pasture nickered in the darkness and I could smell river damp and pine gum and
wildflowers and wet stone and woodsmoke in the air, as though the four seasons
of the year had come together at once and formed a dead zone under clouds that
pulsed with light but gave no rain. I wished for earsplitting thunder to roll
through the mountains or high winds to tear at barn roofs. I wished for the
hand of God to destroy the airless vacuum in which I seemed to be caught.
My heart raced and my skin crawled with
apprehension. It was the same feeling I'd had when L.Q. Navarro and I had
waited in ambush for Mexican tar mules deep in Coahuila, our palms sweating on
our weapons, our wrists tingling with adrenaline. We washed the salt and
insects out of our eyes with canteens and could hardly contain our excitement,
one that bordered almost on sexual release, when we saw silhouettes appear on a
hill.
Lucas was still not back from the
concert. I drove to East Missoula and parked in front of the brick cottage
where Sue Lynn Big Medicine lived with her uncle. As I walked up to the porch I
thought I heard voices behind the building.
"Is that you, Lucas?" I said
into the darkness.
"Oh, hi, Billy Bob," he
replied, walking toward me. "Something wrong?"
"I'm not sure. What's Sue Lynn
doing?"
"She says a prayer to all the
Grandfathers. Those are the spirits who live in the four corners of the
universe."
"A prayer about what?"
"People got their secrets," he
replied.
"What's that supposed to
mean?" I said.
"She carries a big load about
something. It don't always help our love life."
"Come home with me," I said.
"She'll drive me. Everything's cool
here."
"Did you see Wyatt Dixon at the
concert?"
"Nope."
"He intends to do us harm,
Lucas."
"He'd better not come around here.
Sue Lynn's uncle was in the federal pen for cutting up a couple of guys on the
Res."
"I can see this is a great place
for a prayer garden. You're not moving in with this girl, are you?" I
said.
"Quit calling her a girl. You worry
too much, Billy Bob," he said, and hit me on the arm.
The innocence in his smile made my heart
sink.
I drove back to Doc's place but found no
release from the abiding fear that an undeserved fate was about to be visited
upon someone close to me. The house was lighted and smoke flattened off the
chimney and I could smell bread baking in the kitchen. Maisey played in front
of the fireplace with her cat, the goodness in her young face undiminished by
the violence the world had done her. Doc had an apron tied around his waist and
was carrying two bread pans with hot pads to the plank table in the center of
the kitchen. He had already laid out jars of blackberry and orange jam and a
block of butter and a cold platter of fried chicken and a pitcher of milk on
the table, and for just a moment I saw the tranquillity in his expression as he
became both mother and doting father, and I was sure the bloodlust he had
brought back from Vietnam had finally become a decaying memory.
But for some illogical reason I kept
remembering a story, or rather an image, related to me by my grandfather about
the death of the gunfighter John Wesley Hardin in the Acme Saloon in El Paso in
1895. Hardin was the most feared and dangerous man in Texas and may have killed
as many as seventy-five men. In the Acme he was drinking shot-glass whiskey and
rolling poker dice out of a leather cup. He inverted the cup and clapped the
dice on the bar and said to a friend, "You got four sixes to beat."
That's when he heard a revolver cock
behind him. A split second later a lawman named John Selman blew Hardin's brain
matter on the mirror.
"You make me think of an ice cube
sweating in a skillet. You worried about something?" Doc said.
"You rolled the dice for all of us,
Doc," I replied.
"I'd change it if I could."
I paced up and down. "Did I get any
phone calls?"
"Yeah, you did." He started
slicing bread, the knife going snick, snick, snick into the plank table
while I waited.
"From whom?"
"Cleo Lonnigan. She says you and
Temple Carrol caused a scene at the concert."
"Is she crazy?"
"Yeah, probably."
"I appreciate your telling me that
now."
"This bread is special. You want to
try it with some jam?" he said.
An hour later, however, Doc's spirits
died with the appearance of the sheriff's cruiser in the front yard, its
emergency lights flashing.
"Step out here, Mr. Holland,"
the sheriff said.
"What do you want?" I asked.
"Are you hard of hearing?"
I walked out on the porch. Under the
shadow of his hat the sheriff's face looked as hard and bloodless as a turnip.
"Where were you two hours
ago?" he asked.
"In East Missoula. Talking with my
son."
"Cleo Lonnigan says you were on her
property, up the Jocko."
"She's delusional."
"You're under arrest for assault
and battery. Put your hands on the banister. No,
don't open your mouth, don't think about it, just do what I tell you," he
said.
I leaned on the porch railing and felt
his hands travel over my person.
"Who is he supposed to have
assaulted?" Doc said behind me.
"Go back inside, Dr. Voss. If there
was ever a double-header giant-size pain in the ass, it's you two. You better
hope that man don't die," the sheriff said, and hooked up my wrists and
turned me toward his cruiser.
"Which man? Who are you talking
about?" I said.
"That homosexual carpenter you beat
the shit out of with a piece of pipe, one with an iron bonnet on it. Why didn't
you just run his head over with a tractor wheel while you was at it?"
"This is insane," I said.
"Tell that to Cleo Lonnigan. She
wants your head on a post, Mr. Holland. You'd better be thankful I got to you
first," he replied.
I TRIED to
reason with him from the backseat of the cruiser as we headed toward the county
jail. When we passed through East Missoula I craned my head to catch a glimpse
of the salvage yard where I had left Lucas with Sue Lynn.
"Listen to me, Sheriff. I can't be
in jail. Wyatt Dixon threatened both my son and Doc's daughter. That woman's
lying. I couldn't have been up the Jocko. Stop and talk with Lucas."
"Shut up, Mr. Holland," the
sheriff replied.
I kicked the wire-mesh screen.
"You're a thickheaded old fool, sir. I'm an attorney. I don't beat up
innocent people with metal objects. Use your judgment, for God's sake," I
said.
"You hurt my vehicle, I'm gonna
pull on a side road and take your bark off," he said.
In the holding cell I yelled down the
corridor, demanded to use the phone, and shook the barred door against the
lock. Finally a sleepy, overweight turnkey walked down the corridor and looked
into my face.
"You want something?" he
asked.
"To use the phone."
"It's out of order. We'll let you
know when it's fixed," he said, and walked away.
At three in the morning the sheriff came
down the corridor with a wood chair gripped in his hand. He set the chair in
front of my cell and sat in it. He removed an apple wrapped in a paper bag from
his coat pocket and began paring the skin away with a pocketknife.
"I checked with your son. He
confirms your story," the sheriff said.
"Then kick me loose."
"Not till I tell Cleo she made a
mistake. What'd you do to her, anyway?"
"You're keeping me here for my own
protection?" I said incredulously.
A long curlicue of apple skin dangled
from the sheriff's knife blade. "Let's see if I can remember her
words.
Something like 'I'd better not see that sorry sack of shit before you do.' You
think she meant anything by that?"
"Where's my son?"
"Safe and snug in his tent. The
Voss girl is with her daddy. You don't need to worry about them."
"Let me out of here, sir."
"I hear Carl Hinkel told you he was
sixty years old outside that town meeting at the Holiday Inn. Made everybody
think you was picking on an old man."
"I've had better moments."
"He's fifty-three. He isn't no
military hero, either. He was kicked out of the Army for running some kind of
PX scam in Vietnam. You know how you can tell when Carl Hinkel is lying? His
lips are moving."
The sheriff split the apple longways and
hollowed the seeds out of the pulp and stuck one piece into his mouth and
speared the other half on his knife blade and extended it through the bars.
"You got a good heart, Mr. Holland. But I suspect you was off playing
pocket pool when the Lord passed out the brains."
Later, I lay down on a bench at the back
of the cell and rested my arm across my eyes and tried to sleep. But I found no
rest. L.Q. Navarro stood in the gloom, his arms folded, one foot propped
backward on the wall, his eyes lost in thought.
"Want to share what's on your
mind?" I asked.
"Wyatt Dixon's gonna pay you
back by hurting somebody close to you he don't have no connection with
hisself."
"Who?" I asked.
"He's a cruel man. He's got
womanhood on the brain. You figure it out."
"He's seen me with Cleo. Maybe
it was Dixon who busted up her carpenter."
"Good try, bud," L.Q.
replied, and looked toward the window as a clap of dry thunder rolled through
the mountains.
The light was turning gray outside and
the storm clouds of last night now looked as if they were filled with snow. A
trusty walked by my cell door with a mop and bucket in one hand.
"Get the turnkey down here," I
said to him.
Chapter
20
Temple went to the health club for her workout at six that morning. She
couldn't believe the change in the weather. The temperature had dropped perhaps
forty degrees and the fir trees at the top of the canyon were powdered with
snow. She went up to the Nautilus room on the second floor of the club and did
stomach crunches on a recliner board and watched through the window as a gray
curtain of rain and mist and snow moved through the canyon, obscuring the cliff
walls, smudging the trees, leaving only the emerald green ribbon of the river
inside the mist.
The parking
lot was white now and she could see the curlicues of car tracks on the cement
and her Ford Explorer parked by the river. A low-slung red automobile pulled up
on the far side of it, as though the driver could not decide whether to park.
Then the mist and snow swirled over the lot and her vehicle faded and
disappeared inside it.
She finished her workout and showered
and dressed in her khaki jeans and a warm flannel shirt and her scuffed boots
and put on a cotton jacket with a hood and began to tie it with a drawstring,
then accidently pulled the plastic tippet off the string. She dropped the
tippet into her shirt pocket and hung her workout bag on her shoulder and
walked to her vehicle.
She shut the Explorer's door and started
the engine. The windows had frosted and she turned on the heater and felt the
coldness of the air surge into her face. While she waited for the engine to
warm and the air vents to dry the moisture on the windows she pushed in the
cigarette lighter so she could soften the plastic tippet and mold it back on
the drawstring of her hood.
For just a second she saw a man's face
under a hat brim in the rearview mirror, then the face slipped out of the glass
and a pair of arms and gloved hands seized her neck and upper torso. Her
attacker's strength was incredible. He lifted her over the seat and into the
back as though she were stuffed with straw. Then he fitted his forearms on her
neck and began to squeeze.
But the cigarette lighter was still in
her hand and she reached backward with it blindly and felt the heated coils
bite into his skin. An odor like animal hair burning in a trash barrel struck
her nostrils. Even with the blood flow to her brain shutting down she held the
lighter tightly against his flesh. She expected him to give up, his arms to
fling her from him, but instead his body trembled
and grew more rigid as he ate his pain and tightened his hold on her neck and
crushed her head into the point of his chin, a grinding sound like a wood saw
rasping against metal issuing from his throat.
The defroster was forming an oval-shaped
clear area over the steering wheel now and Temple could see snow crystals
blowing horizontally above the river. She could see college kids in bright
winter clothes climbing a zigzag trail to the top of the mountain, their
scarves whipping in the wind. She could see orange cliffs and trees and a
solitary ball of tum-bleweed bouncing across the land toward her vehicle. Her
right hand went limp and she felt the cigarette lighter drop from her fingers,
then the vision in her left eye clouded over and one side of her body went dead
and she saw the tumbleweed bounce once over the hood of her vehicle and slap
wetly against the defrosted clearing on the window glass like an angry man
stuffing a cork in a bottle.
When she awoke, her eyes were bound and she was being carried
under the thighs and back by someone with arms that were as hard as oak. Her
head was pressed against his chest and she could hear the whirrings of his
heart and feel the rise and fall of his lungs as he carried her through trees
and across ground that was littered with leaves and dead twigs.
She tried to raise her hands, then
realized they were taped at the wrists and the tape was wound around her body.
The man carrying her knelt to the ground and placed
her on pine needles and leaves that were cold against her skin where her shirt
had pulled out of her jeans. She could hear a river down below, roaring through
a canyon or perhaps over rocks, and she could smell the coldness of the water
and the clean odor of new snow in the wind. Then she heard a shovel bite into
the earth and she swallowed with a type of fear she had never experienced
before.
"Why are you doing this?" she
asked. But her words were lost in the sounds of the river. She heard a second
shovel chopping at the ground, the metal clanging against rocks, scraping back
soil into a pile, the way someone might use an Army entrenching tool, and she
knew two people were now digging her grave.
She tried to sit up, but a large hand
restrained her, pressing her back onto the ground. The man lowered his face to
hers, and she felt his breath on her skin and she knew his eyes were examining
her mouth and nose and hair, like a curious animal investigating prey he had
stumbled upon in a den. One finger traced a mole by the corner of her mouth,
then his knuckle moved up and down her jawline, and she was convinced she had
never been touched by a more brutal hand. It was sheathed in callus, as though
the tissue had been rubbed with brick dust or burned and hardened with
chemicals. The pads of the fingers had the texture of emery paper.
His thumb brushed her lips and his nail
played with her teeth, then he pried them apart and inserted a rubber hose in
her mouth.
"No, don't be trying to spit it
out, now. That ain't smart. No-sirree-bob," the man's voice said.
But she did it anyway, spitting the hose out as well as the
unwashed taste of his hand.
"You motherfuckers," she said,
turning her head, trying to sight her words on his face.
"A profane woman brings discredit
on her gender. Please do not use words of that nature to me again. I declare,
this world has done become a toilet," the man said.
He fitted his hands under her arms and
dragged her into a depressed, rocky place that caused her heels to drop
abruptly into the hardness of the ground. Then the two diggers began burying
her alive, flinging spadeful after spadeful of dirt onto her body.
She was amazed at how little time it
took for her feet, then her calves and thighs and stomach and chest and arms to
be weighted and encased with dirt and rock that seemed to hold her as solidly
as cement. One of the diggers stopped work and dropped his shovel on the ground
and knelt down and removed a strand of hair from the edge of her mouth.
Then he touched the hose against her
teeth, and this time she opened her mouth and took it.
The diggers went back to work, and she
felt the dirt strike her cheeks like dry rain and the earth close on her face.
The noise of the river and the voices of the diggers disappeared, as though
effaced from the surface of the world, and the only sound she could
hear
was her own breathing through the hose and the thump of large stones being
dropped into place on top of her.
She tried to think of the farm where she
had lived as a little girl down by Matagorda Bay. The pasture was carpeted with
bluebonnets in the spring, and a family of owls lived in a desiccated red barn
behind the house, and at sunrise she would look through the window and see the
owls gliding out of the woods to a hole in the barn roof, where they squeezed
inside and disappeared just as the pinkness of the morning broke across the
countryside. She came to associate the owls' flight into darkness with the fine
beginning of a new day.
She thought of Gulf storms and the way
the rain marched across the bay and danced on the watermelons in her father's
fields. She saw the windmill ginning in the breeze and water pumping into the
horse tank and the hard blueness of the sky and the moss straightening in the
live oak that shaded one side of their house. She saw a sky writer spelling out
the name of a soda pop, banking and climbing straight up into the dome of
heaven itself, laying out white smoke one thick letter at a time. Then the
letters lost their rigidity of line and broke into curds, like buttermilk, and
her father told her that was the wind blowing across the top of the sky, and
she wondered how wind could blow in a place where no trees grew.
She thought of all the earth's gifts
that lived in the air, the smell of sea salt on a hot day, the way clouds
transformed themselves when you lay in the grass and looked
up into the heavens, the ozone that lightning gave off, the clatter of palm
fronds, the red and gold leaves that cascaded out of the trees in the fall.
In her mind's eye she saw the mother owl
returning from the woods again, gliding on extended wings toward the hole in
the barn roof, its stomach gorged from feeding all night. The return of the owl
always meant the beginning of a new day, didn't it, one filled with promise and
expectation? But this time the owl didn't squeeze back through the hole in the
roof. Instead, it flew directly at her face, its talons open.
It grew in size and shape and texture,
its wings leathery, enormous in breadth now, flapping in the sky, blocking out
the sun. The flapping sound was so loud now it droned in her ears and made the
earth around her head tremble.
So this is the way it comes, she
thought, and she gagged on her own saliva and felt the hose slip loose from her
mouth.
That's when a pair of hands pried a flat stone loose from above
her forehead and wiped the dirt from her face and pulled the tape from her eyes
and removed a sliver of rock from her tongue. "Billy Bob?" she said.
Then she was being pulled from her grave
by each arm, like a crucified figure being lifted from a cross.
"You're going to be all right,
lady," the sheriff said. "Don't worry about a thing. We'll have you
at the heliport and into St. Pat's in ten minutes."
She stared into the sunlight and at the
silhouettes above her and at the humped shape of a helicopter by
a
stand of ponderosa that grew out of rock. "Billy Bob?" she said.
"Yes," I said.
But she looked down at the river
bursting against boulders in the channel below us and at the iridescent spray
on the canyon walls, then at the snow melting on the fir trees and the brown
hawks wheeling in the sky and the long green roll of the northern Rockies and
she could not find any other words to speak.
Chapter
21
The sheriff sat with me in the waiting room at St. Patrick's Hospital. He
watched me walk up and down.
"I'll
bring Dixon in. You got my word on it," he said.
"Then what?" I said.
"She's never heard his voice
before. I'll find a half dozen other peckerwoods and do a voice lineup."
"She marked him with the cigarette
lighter. That should be enough."
"It's a start. Why don't you relax?
You remind me of a lizard panting on top of a hot rock."
"You'd better get him off the
street, Sheriff."
"I think your mama put you outdoors
before the glue was dry, son. I really do," he replied.
A half hour later, after the sheriff had
gone, Temple walked out of the emergency room. Her clothes were wrinkled and
grimed with dirt, her hair in disarray.
"Give a girl a ride?" she
said.
"You okay?"
"Sure," she said.
"Let me talk to the doctor
first," I said.
She stepped close to me and leaned her
forehead against my shoulder. I could smell the damp odor of earth and decayed
leaves in her hair and clothes. "Take me home, Billy Bob," she said.
I opened the truck door for her and
drove down Broadway toward her motel. The sky was blue, the snow melted from
the trees now, the streets glistening and wet in the sunshine. It was a
beautiful day, but Temple's eyes were disconnected from the world around her.
"Say it again. How did y'all find
me?" she said.
"Somebody at the health club saw a
man drive your Explorer away. I called the sheriff and he put an APB on it. A
highway patrolman called in and said he'd seen a vehicle like yours headed west
through Alberton Gorge. The sheriff got a helicopter and we took off."
"You could see the Explorer from
the air?"
"Yeah, that's about it."
Her gaze was turned inward, as though
she were adding up numerical sums.
"If they'd parked the Explorer in
the trees, y'all would have flown right over me," she said.
"I guess we would have," I
said.
She took a breath and pushed her hair
back off her forehead.
"I don't think I'm going to sleep
for a long time," she said.
I walked with her into her motel room,
then left while she showered and changed. I drove down to a fast-food
restaurant and ordered fried chicken and french-fried potatoes and a milk shake
to go. When I returned to the motel, Temple opened the door on the night chain,
her .38 hidden behind her leg.
"It's only me," I said, and
tried to smile.
She slipped the chain and let me in and
placed her revolver on a table by the door. She had put on makeup and a fresh
pair of jeans and a blouse with flowers on it, but her eyes would not meet mine
and her breath hung in her throat, as though the air were tainted and might
injure her lungs.
"Don't you want to eat something?"
I asked.
"Not now."
"Those tar mules down in Coahuila
set a field on fire with me in the middle of it," I said. "I would
have burned to death if L.Q. hadn't pulled me up on his horse. I still have
nightmares about it. But that's all they are, nightmares."
She sat down on the edge of the bed and
looked into space.
"Why did they give me the air hose?
Why did they want to keep me alive?" she said.
"To make both of us suffer."
"I spit it out the first time. The
second time I let him put it in my mouth. That bastard won, didn't he?"
she said.
"No. They're cowards. Their kind
never win," I said.
But my words were useless. She squeezed
her temples and lowered her head, her eyes shut. I sat beside her and placed my
arm around her and felt her shaking, as though an incurable coldness had invade
her body.
I STAYED
with Temple until she fell asleep, then covered her up and left a note to the
effect that would return later in the day.
I drove west of town, through green
pastureland and small horse ranches with new red barns am white fences, then up
the dirt road that led to Terry Witherspoon's shack above the Clark Fork River.
I parked in the clearing and banged on his door and looked in his windows, then
walked around back.
A trash fire was burning in a rusty oil
barrel. The thick curds of black smoke rolling from it were laced with an
eye-watering stench. I found a rake in a tool-shed and kicked the barrel on its
side and combed out the contents.
In the tangle of wire and cans and tinfoil he hadn't bothered to
separate out from his ignitable trash were plastic bottles of motor oil, animal
entrails and strips of fur, and a blackened roll of pipe tape.
I went back into the toolshed and hunted
in the corners and under a molded canvas tarp and in a huge wood locker box
full of tractor parts. Then I pushed over a stack of bald tires and found an
Army surplus entrenching tool that had been propped inside, the blade still
locked in the right-angle position of a hoe, the tip scratched a dull silver
from fresh digging.
Just as I went outside I saw Witherspoon
walk into the clearing, a wood rabbit with a bloody head hanging from his belt,
a .22 bolt-action rifle over his shoulder. A bone-handled skinning knife in a
scabbard was stuck down in his side pocket. For just a moment he looked like a
nineteenth-century illustration in a Mark Twain novel.
"What do you think you're
doing?" he asked.
"Tearing your place up. You
couldn't bring yourself to get rid of the E-tool, could you? You're a mountain
man. A mountain man needs all his equipment," I said.
"Stay away from me," he said.
I slapped him across the face, so hard the light went out of his eyes and his
glasses swung from one ear. He peeled his glasses off his head and stared at me
in disbelief.
"Go ahead. Throw down on me,"
I said.
"You've got a gun in your
belt."
"That's right," I said, and
slapped him again. My handprint was bright red on his cheek and there was
spittle on his chin. "Where's Wyatt?"
"I don't know. Why don't you go to
his house instead of coming here?" he said, his eyes blinking in
anticipation of being hit again.
"Because he's not going to be
there. Because he's not as stupid as you are."
I ripped his rifle from his shoulder and
whipped it by the barrel against a pine trunk. The stock snapped in half and
spun crazily, like a splintered baseball bat, out into the trees.
Then I headed for Terry Witherspoon
again.
"Wyatt's at a rodeo in Billings.
Carl flies him to all his rodeos," he said hurriedly. Involuntarily his
thumb hooked over the bone handle of his knife.
I hit him with my fist and knocked him
on the ground. Then I knelt over him and knotted his shirt in one hand and
pulled the .38 from my belt and gripped it by the barrel, the butt curved
outward, like a hammer.
"Does it make you feel powerful to
bury a woman alive, Terry?" I asked.
"I didn't do it," he replied.
"Do what? Say what you did not do.
How do you know what I'm talking about?"
His words bound in his throat and his
eyes looked at mine and filled with genuine terror.
"I didn't do whatever you're
talking about. I been here. I don't have a car. I can't go anywhere."
I
dropped the pistol to the ground and drove my fist into the center of his face,
then released his shirt and clenched my hand on his throat, pinching off his
air, and raised my right fist again.
On the edge of the clearing, his Stetson
and striped black suit cut by a shaft of sunlight, I saw L.Q. Navarro looking
at me, his gold toothpick between his teeth, his lips pursed as though he were
witnessing a spectacle that offended moral paradigms he considered mandatory in
his friends.
I pulled Terry Witherspoon to his feet
and shoved him toward the woods and kicked him in the tail-bone.
"Get out of here," I said.
"I live here," he said, his
breath hiccupping in his throat.
"That doesn't matter. Get out of my
sight until I'm gone."
He backed away from me, hooking on his
glasses crookedly, then turned and hurried into the forest, the dead rabbit
coated with dust and blood, swinging stiffly against his thigh.
I drove back into Missoula and used a
pay phone to call the sheriff at his office. There was no answer. I called the
911 dispatcher.
"It's Sunday. He's not in his
office today," she said.
"Give me his home number."
"I can't do that."
"This is about an attempted
homicide. I'll give you my number. I'll wait by the pay phone."
"Sir, you'd better not be jerking
people around," she replied.
But she pulled it off. Five minutes
later the pay phone rang.
"Go up to Terry Witherspoon's shack
on the river. There's a roll of half-burned pipe tape by the trash barrel in
back. Get there before he finishes destroying it and I bet it'll match the tape
that was used to tie up Temple," I said.
"You tossed his place?" the
sheriff said.
"No, I tossed Witherspoon."
"I think you just managed to blow
it for everybody. It's Sunday. I have to get a hold of a judge and a search
warrant."
"I need directions to Nicki
Molinari's dude ranch," I said.
"You're about to start a second
career, son. Convict cowboy over at Deer Lodge. The place is full of smart
asses who got their own mind about everything. You'll fit right in," he
replied.
BUT ACTUALLY
I didn't need the sheriff's directions to find the Molinari ranch. Previously
the sheriff had mentioned it was outside Stevensville, twenty-five miles down
in the Bitterroots. On Monday, I drove to Stevensville and stopped at a
barbershop in an old brick building on the main street and went inside. Two
barbers were cutting hair while a third customer, an old man with his trousers
tucked inside his boots, read a newspaper, his elbows on his knees, his face
scowling with disapproval at the news of the day.
"Could you tell me where Nicki
Molinari lives?" I asked.
Both the barbers turned their backs on
me and went on snipping and combing hair as though they hadn't heard me. The
customers in the barber chairs cut their eyes at me, then looked straight
ahead.
But the old man had lowered his
newspaper and was staring at me with the intensity of a hawk sighting in on a
field mouse from a telephone line. His skin looked like it had been cured in a
smokehouse, his clothes soaked in a bucket of starch and flat-ironed on his
skinny frame. A cross was embroidered with gold thread on the pocket of his
white snap-button shirt, and there were choleric blazes in
his
throat, as though heat were climbing out of his collar.
"You a pimp?" he asked.
"Sir?" I said.
"I asked if you're a procurer, one
of them that brings women out to that greaser's ranch." His accent was
Appalachian, West Virginia or perhaps Kentucky, a wood rasp being ground across
a metal surface.
"No, sir. I'm an attorney."
"Is there a difference?" he
said.
"Thanks for y'all's time," I
said, and went back out on the street.
But the old man followed me out on the
sidewalk. The Sapphire Mountains rose up behind him, their green slopes the
texture of velvet, the crests strung with clouds.
"What's your business with that
gangster?" he asked.
"As you imply, sir, it's my
business."
"No, it ain't. He's my neighbor. I
run a church. Now I got a shitpot of criminals and whores swimming naked in a
pool within view of our services."
"I guess what I aim to do is mess
up Nicki Molinari's day any way I can."
When he grinned he showed two teeth that
stood up in his gums like slats.
"Drive straight toward the
Sapphires. The China-Polish hogs are mine. The Cadillacs and the naked whores
throwing beach balls on the lawn are his," he said.
The ranch owned by Nicki Molinari and his friends looked out of place, out
of sync with itself, as though it had been designed and put together by someone
who had toured the West and wasn't quite sure what he remembered about it.
The house was Santa Fe stucco, with
shady arcades and tile walkways and big glazed urns spilling over with flowers.
An antique freight wagon sat by the driveway, as though announcing a historical
connection to the past. A half dozen horses, their backs rubbed with saddle
sores the size of half dollars, stood listlessly in a lot that was nubbed down
to the dirt, while rolled hay lay humped and yellow in the fields. A swimming
pool the color and shape of a chemical green teardrop steamed in the cool air
next to a new log barn that housed no animals or farm machinery but an enclosed
batting cage with an automatic pitching machine inside.
I pulled into a gravel parking area on
the side of the house. Molinari shut down the pitching machine and opened a
door in the batting cage and came toward me, dressed only in tennis shoes and
knee-length socks and cutoff sweatpants that were hitched tightly into his
genitalia.
"Am I gonna have trouble
here?" he said. "Call somebody if you feel uncomfortable," I
replied.
"If I call anybody, it'll be for an
ambulance. You're starting to be a nuisance."
"You bashed Cleo Lonnigan's
carpenter. I got picked up for it. While I was in
jail, a friend of mine was buried alive by Wyatt Dixon."
His eyes fixed on mine, as though
reading significance in my words that only he understood. He scratched at a
pimple on top of his shoulder.
"I'm sorry about the carpenter, but
it's not on me. Cleo is sitting on money that don't belong to her. I told you,
the people her husband stiffed give out motivational lessons nobody forgets.
Her husband didn't learn that lesson, either, and it got him and his kid
killed," he said.
He squeezed the pimple until it popped,
then brushed at his skin.
"Save the shuck for your hired
morons. My friend and I took your weight. That means if Wyatt Dixon comes
around my friend again, I'm going to be out to see you," I said.
"Right," he said, and looked
off into the breeze. His skin was olive-toned and looked cool and taut in the
sunshine. "You want to hit some in the cage?"
"No."
"Don't go, man. What do you think
of Xavier Girard as a writer?"
"Why?"
"Because he's writing my life
story. Because I've told him stuff I don't tell everybody."
"What stuff?"
"You asked me once how I got out of
Laos. I rode out on the skid of a helicopter. Except I pushed another guy off
the skid. A GI. At five hundred feet." His eyes left mine, then came back
and refocused on me again. His face seemed to
energize, as though the answer to all his questions lay within inches of his
grasp. "After you capped your friend, that other Texas Ranger, you saw a
shrink?"
I wanted to simply walk away, to pretend
I was above his inquisition and his criminal level of morality. He waited, his
face expectant. A woman with dyed red hair came out of the house and got into a
convertible with a bright white top and began blowing the horn at him.
"Shut up that damn noise!" he
yelled at her, then turned back to me. "How'd you get that guy off your
conscience?"
"I didn't. I never dealt with it. I
feel sorry for you," I said.
"You never dealt—" he said,
then stopped and pressed his fingers in the center of his forehead, his mouth
open slightly, as though he were fingering a tumor or perhaps recognizing a
brother-in-arms.
That same day Carl Hinkel drifted his single-engine plane on currents of warm
air above the Bitterroot River and landed on a freshly mowed pasture at the
rear of his ranch. As soon as Wyatt Dixon stepped from the passenger door, he
was arrested by two sheriff's deputies. But before they could cuff him he
peeled off his T-shirt and shook it loose from his hand like a stripteaser on a
stage. The veins and tendons in his upper torso looked like the root system in
a tree.
"Please notice I am burned from the
neck all the way down one shoulder," he said, lifting a thick pad
of
grease-stained bandages from his skin. "I am placing myself at y'all's
disposal, with hopes you will take me to a hospital. It is civil servants such
as yourself a rodeo cowboy must turn to when he don't have enough sense not to
drop a red-hot car muffler on his face."
He held his right hand in stiff salute
against his eyebrow.
The voice lineup consisted of an escaped
Arkansas convict who was being held in the county jail, a toothless cook at the
transient shelter, a sheriff's deputy from Sweetwater, Texas, an insane street
preacher who spent the day shouting at traffic in the middle of town, and a
university speech therapist from Oklahoma whose voice sounded like wire being
pulled through a hole in a tin can. Together, they represented a cross section
of mushmouth and adenoidal Southern accents that would have probably caused
Shakespeare to burn his texts and rewrite his plays in Cantonese.
But the lineup was not like one shown in
television dramas. Neither the city police nor the sheriff's department had a
stage, and the latter did not even have an interview room large enough to
accommodate the six men who were to take part in the voice identification. So
the sheriff recorded Wyatt Dixon and the five other men on cassettes and
numbered each cassette one through six. Each man read the same statement into
the microphone: "This world has done become a toilet."
Then Temple sat in the sheriff's office,
a notepad on her knee, and listened to the
cassettes, one at a time, while I sat behind her.
She was attentive, motionless, her head
lowered slightly, while the sheriff played the first four. Then he put the
fifth cassette into the machine and hit the play button. The voice was Wyatt
Dixon's, but without dramatic emphasis, devoid of the manufactured and startled
tone that characterized his speech. Temple raised her head, as though she were
going to speak, then she motioned the sheriff to play the sixth tape.
"There ain't no hurry. You want me
to play any of them again?" the sheriff asked.
"Number two and five," she
said.
"Yes, ma'am," he said.
She listened again, then nodded, her
lips crimping together.
"It's number two," she said.
The sheriff slapped the back of his head
and blew out his breath.
"No?" she said.
"You just picked out my
deputy," the sheriff said. He looked at me, his cheeks puffed with air.
"Don't say what I think you're
fixing to," I said.
"I got to kick him loose. Terry Witherspoon got rid of the pipe
tape you called me about. There are no latents in Ms. Carrol's vehicle. Three
or four people over in Billings are willing to swear Dixon was at the rodeo
when Ms. Carrol was abducted," he said.
"Which people in Billings?" I
asked.
"A prostitute and Carl Hinkel and a
couple of ex-convicts. He don't hang out with your regular civic club
types."
"Talk to them about the
consequences for perjury. Bring in Witherspoon. Put him in a cell full of
Indians and blacks and lose his paperwork," I said.
"Come on, Ms. Carrol, I'll walk you
to your car," the sheriff said, ignoring me.
"I can manage, thank you," she
replied.
"Don't misinterpret the gesture.
I'm just going across the street to buy my grandson a birthday present.
Counselor, one way or another I'm gonna put Wyatt Dixon and this Witherspoon
kid out of business. But in the meantime they'd better remain the healthiest
pair of white trash in Missoula County. We clear on this?"
"Not really," I said.
He hooked on his glasses and studied the
calendar on his desk.
"You got about three weeks before
Dr. Voss goes to trial for Lamar Ellison's murder. Why don't you turn your
attentions to your profession and quit pretending you're still a lawman?"
he said.
"Don't you dare speak down to him
like that. He was a Texas Ranger. In the old days he and his partner would have
fed Wyatt Dixon into a hay baler," Temple said.
The sheriff flexed his dentures and
tried to obscure his face when he fitted on his hat, but he could not hide the
embarrassed light in his eyes.
THAT NIGHT Lucas returned late from Sue Lynn's house.
Through my bedroom window I saw him build a fire by his tent and squat next to
the flames and slice open a can with his pocketknife and pour the contents into
a skillet. I put on a coat and walked down to the riverbank and sat on a stump
behind him without his hearing me.
"Lordy, you give me a start!"
he said when he saw me.
"Guilty conscience?" I said.
He stirred the corned beef hash in the
skillet and sprinkled red pepper on it. "You was born for the pulpit,
Billy Bob," he said.
"Go back home, Lucas."
"I've done fell in love with
Montana. I'm thinking of transferring up here to the university."
The woods were dark, the larch trees
shaggy with moss. An animal, perhaps the cougar that had been getting into the
pet bowls, growled somewhere on the other side of the river. Lucas shifted his
weight and stared into the darkness, one knee crimping into the pine needles on
the ground, his young face and long-sleeved cream-colored shirt painted with
the light from the fire. I looked at the innocence in his face and his refusal
to show fear, and felt again my old inadequacy as his father.
But before I could speak, he said,
"You believe in hell, Billy Bob?"
"I can't rightly say."
"Sue Lynn thinks she's going
there."
"What has she done that's so
terrible?"
"She has this nightmare all the
time. It might make sense to you, but I sure cain't cipher it out."
The WORLD of Sue Lynn Big Medicine's sleep seemed more a collective
record of her people than a dream. There was no historical date on the scene
nor many particular names associated with it, but the season was summer and the
hills above the river were treeless and golden in the heat, the water down in
the river basin milky green, tepid to the touch, the surface flecked with
cottonwood bloom.
The column of soldiers came out of the south,
the razored blue peaks of distant mountains at their backs. They wore gray hats
that were damp and wilted in the heat and blue blouses and trousers with yellow
stripes on the legs, and the pommels of their saddles were strung with wooden
canteens that clunked against the leather. The soldiers' blouses were sun-faded
and stiff with salt, puffed in the hot wind, and their trousers so dark with
sweat against their saddles that the soldiers looked as if they had fouled
themselves.
The Crow scouts rode at the head of the
column with an officer who was dressed differently from the rest. His boots
were polished and flared at the knees, his trousers skintight, his yellow hair
longer than a woman's, his hat festooned with bird plumes. The sun danced on the
nickel plate of his English Bulldog revolvers. An ethereal light seemed to glow
in his face, and he breathed the wind as though the chaff and dust in it were
simply the embellishments on a grand day in history that was of his
own manufacture.
The Crow horses pitched their heads, the
nostrils dilating, the eyes protruding like walnuts, then they whirled in
circles, fighting against the bit as though snakes lay in the golden grass that
grew up the slope of the hill. The cottonwoods on the river were empty of
birds, the buffalo briefly visible on the horizon, then gone. Magpies clattered
in an arroyo, pulling shreds of meat from the exposed ribs of an elk that had
already been butchered and skinned with stone knives.
The wind changed and a familiar odor
struck the noses of the Crow scouts, a dense mixture of woodsmoke, horses
hobbled among shade trees, animal hides curing over fires piled with willow
branches and wet leaves, and churned mud flats that were now green and slick
with feces in the sun.
The Crow were the first to reach the
crest of the hill. What they saw in the valley below them turned them to stone.
The wickiups along the river and up the
arroyos numbered in the thousands. These were all Sioux and Northern Cheyenne,
the enemies of the Crow, but for just a moment the scouts wished the Crow were
part of the assemblage, too, because surely the red people now had enough
numbers to drive the white men back across the mountains to a place in the East
where all the white man's diseases and his greed and his treachery came from.
The officer who was different from all
the others joined them, his face impassive, his profile motionless against the
hard blue background of the sky. His hair hung in ringlets on his shoulders,
and he wiped the dampness off his throat with a kerchief and raised himself
slightly in the stirrups, the leather creaking under him, in order to form a
better view of the valley.
The Crow waited, not speaking, their
faces as flat and empty of emotion as potter's clay. They had long ago learned
not to speak to the officer unless he addressed them first. His anger was of a
quiet kind that burned just below the skin, but his capacity for cruelty was
legendary. The kitchen tent had been converted to a workshop where the officer
indulged his hobby of stuffing the animals and birds he shot while his men ate
cold rations. A soldier who stole a dried apple from a supply wagon was shaved
bald and not allowed to mount his horse for one hundred miles. Three deserters were
forced to kneel, then were shot to death at point-blank range.
Another officer, this one young, the
exposed skin of his chest emblazoned with a V-shaped patch of sunburn, rode
forward from the column, posting in the saddle.
"Sir?" he said, sweat running
through his eyebrows.
But the officer who was different, whom
the Indians called the Son of the Morning Star, did not answer.
"Sir?" the younger officer
repeated.
"What?"
"What are your orders, sir?"
The Son of the Morning Star pulled off
his fringed gloves and rubbed the tips of his fingers against the heel of his
right hand, as though enjoying the feel of the oil in his skin.
"Why, young man, I'm very glad you
asked that. I think I'm going to take an elk's tooth off a squaw's dress
today," he said.
The younger officer let the focus go out
of his eyes to hide his recognition of the senior officer's implication.
Big Medicine, the spokesman for the Crow
scouts, glanced at his friends, then backed his horse away from the crest until
he was abreast of the Son of the Morning Star.
"We go down there?" Big
Medicine asked. "They're ours for the taking, my painted friend," the
Son of the Morning Star said.
"We go down there, in that valley,
we sing death song first," he said.
"Then you are cowards and you do
not belong on this hill. Be gone from my sight," the Son of the Morning
Star replied.
But the three Crow did not move. The Son
of the Morning Star was scribbling in a book filled with blank pages. He tore a
page with a single line on it from the book and handed it to a messenger.
"Can you read what that says?" he asked. "Yes, sir. 'Hurry—bring
packs,'" the messenger replied.
"Take these cowards back with you.
They dishonor sacred ground," the Son of the Morning Star said.
The Crow scouts looked at one another
again, then rode their horses in file past the senior officer, their eyes
straight ahead, the coup feathers in their hair stiffening and flattening in
the wind.
But Big Medicine reined his horse and turned it in a circle and pulled a
heavy, cap-and-ball Army-issue revolver from a holster strapped across his
chest. He clenched the revolver by the barrel and flung it spinning down the
hill.
"The Shyelas hate Son of the
Morning Star for all the women and children and old ones he killed on the
Washita. You will take no button off a squaw's clothes today. Instead your
spirit will travel the Ghost Trail without ears to listen or sight to
see," he said.
If the senior officer heard, he gave no
sign. His posture in the saddle was regal, his thoughts already deep in the
battle that was about to take place. The Crow disappeared down the slope,
through the golden fields of yellow grass, out of history, while the long
column of sweat-soaked soldiers rode past them toward the senior officer and
the crest of the hill and the panorama of sky and cottonwoods on a lazy green
river and thousands of deerhide wickiups that teemed with families who never
thought they would be attacked by a military force as small as the one now
flowing over the hill's crest.
But the next events in Sue Lynn Big
Medicine's dream broke with history and reason. Even though she was a Crow, she
was inside the encampment of Sioux and Northern Cheyenne and saw the attack
through their eyes rather than through her people's.
The soldiers rode down the valley with a
recklessness that the Indians could not believe, firing pistols and rifles from
their saddles into the wickiups, splitting their column down the middle to
encircle the Indians as though they were about to round up livestock. She heard
toppling rounds whirring past her head and saw the stitched deerhide on the
wickiup she had just exited pop and snap on the lodge poles that supported it.
She raced back inside and saw her
ten-year-old brother sitting on a buffalo robe, holding the flat of his palm
against his mouth. He removed his hand and stared at it and at the circle of
blood in the center of it, then looked at her and grinned and put his fingers
to the small hole in his chest. She sank to both knees in front of him, while
bullets from the soldiers' guns tore through the wickiup, and held both his
hands in hers and watched the focus go out of his eyes and the pallor of death
invade his cheeks.
When she rose to her feet the streaks of
blood on her hands felt as hot as burns. She wiped the blood on her face and
hair and went outside into the swirl of dust from the soldiers' horses and the
running of people from the wickiups. Up the slope she saw the officer the
Indians called the Son of the Morning Star. Many of his men were down now,
running for the hilltop behind them, their horses gut-shot and writhing in the
grass, but the Son of the Morning Star was still mounted and only yards from
the edge of the village, the bit sawed back in his horse's mouth, while he
fired one ball after another from his revolvers.
But his courage or his devotion to
killing Indians or his grandiose belief in himself, whatever quality or vice
had allowed him to remain unscathed in years of warfare, suddenly had no
application in the maelstrom he had ridden into. His men, mostly German and
Irish immigrants from the slums of the East, many who had never heard a shot
fired in anger, were now forming a ragged perimeter on the hilltop, their
noncommissioned officers screaming orders at men whose hands shook so badly
they could hardly throw the breech on their rifles.
The Son of the Morning Star rode after
his men, firing back over his horse's rump to cover their retreat, his heels
slashing into his horse's ribs, his face filled with rage, as though history
were betraying him. Then the Indians surged out of the encampment, with arrows
and bows and coup sticks and Spencer and Henry repeaters and steel hatchets and
stone axes and bundles of fire they dragged on ropes behind their horses.
The squaws ferreted out the wounded who
tried to hide in the cattails along the river and mutilated them with knives.
The wind was blowing out of the south, and the fires climbed up the hill where
the surviving soldiers were kneeling in the grass and shooting down the slope.
Many of the soldiers had carried whiskey in their canteens and now had no
water. The dust and smoke swirled over them, and down the hill they heard the
screams of their friends inside the burning grass, saw blackened shapes trying
to rise like crippled birds from the flames. Some of the soldiers on the hill
inverted their pistols and discharged them into their mouths.
Inside it all the Son of the Morning
Star fired his nickel-plated revolvers at the
Indians, who now had broken through his perimeter and
were clubbing his men to death with stone axes,
cracking skulls and jawbones apart as if they were clay
pots. The Indians swept across the top of the hill,
and the Son of the Morning Star fell to one knee, like
a medieval knight giving allegiance to a king, an
arrow quivering in his rib cage. The squaws thronged up the
incline, their throats warbling with birdsong.
In the dream Sue Lynn Big Medicine was
in their midst and saw the Shyela and Sioux women bend over the fallen officer
and pierce his eyes and ears with bone awls. But it was not enough price to
exact from him, she thought, not nearly enough, and with a knife made from rose-colored
quartz and elk antler she stooped over the fallen officer and pulled loose his
belt and unfastened the top button of his trousers and pulled the cloth back
from the whiteness of his stomach.
Her hand slashed downward with the
knife. When she had finished, the Son of the Morning Star seemed to stare into
her face with his destroyed eyes, seeing her inside his mind, discovering only
now the level of enmity in which he was held by his adversaries. Then with the
other squaws Sue Lynn forced the bloody burden in her hands down his throat.
From the bottom of the slope she thought she heard the screams of a soldier
burning to death inside the grass, then realized, her eyes tightly shut now,
her temples thundering like a thousand drums, it was her own voice bursting
from her chest, breaking against her teeth, keening into a sky that had already
filled with carrion birds.
Lucas broke two eggs on top of the corned beef hash, then divided the pan with
a spatula and put half his food in a tin plate for me.
"Sue Lynn says the Indians gelded
Custer and suffocated him with his own scrotum," he said. "That's not
in history books, is it?"
"Not to my knowledge."
"How come she's in a dream like
that?"
I picked up a pebble and tossed it into
the river.
"I was never big on
psychoanalysis."
"Billy Bob, analyzing is a
full-time job with you. You see a flea on a possum's belly and you got a take
on it."
"I think Sue Lynn killed
somebody."
The smile fell away from his lips and he
stared at me with his mouth open. Out in the darkness I heard an animal's roar,
and this time I knew it was a cougar's.
Chapter
22
Early the next morning Maisey looked through the front
window, sipping coffee in a house robe, her face quizzical.
"What
are you looking at?" I asked.
"Not much. Xavier Girard throwing
pinecones at the chipmunks," she replied.
I walked outside into the coolness of
the morning, under the vastness of a purple, rain-scented sky that had not been
touched yet by the sun. The sound of the river was loud through the trees, the
riffle blackish-green in the shadows, the air sweet with the smell of woodsmoke
and wet pine needles.
Xavier stood
by the bank, his back to me. He wore a nylon vest and plaid flannel shirt and
baggy jeans, and his neck was cuffed with sunburn and his hair freshly cropped.
When he turned around, I hardly recognized him. The alcoholic flush and
dissipated lines were gone from his face. He grinned with the easy composure of
a man who had just been given a new lease on life.
"Can I help you?" I asked.
"I took your advice and started
hitting some meetings. My sponsor said I needed to come out here and tell you
that," he said.
"Well, I appreciate that," I
replied, not knowing what else to say.
"I hear you had a talk with Nicki
Molinari."
"Yeah, I happened to be in his
neighborhood."
"He's quite a guy."
"That's one way to put it," I
said, my sense of discomfort starting to grow.
"I guess you don't think much of
me. I mean, letting the guy get in the sack with my wife."
"I don't remember much of that
afternoon, sir," I said, studying a spot of the riverbank.
"Nicki's free ride is over. I've
learned in the program I don't have to take bullshit off greaseballs or anybody
else."
"I didn't know AA worked like
that."
"It's a great life. Everybody ought
to try it," he said.
"You bet," I said, and glanced
at my watch. "Well, big day ahead. All the best to you."
I walked back into the house, then
looked through the window at his Jeep Cherokee bouncing across the field toward
the dirt road.
"Was he drunk?" Maisey asked.
"He says he's out of the
saloons."
She waited for me to continue.
"It's no accident a lot of saloons
have revolving doors," I said.
The TRUTH was I didn't care what Xavier and Holly Girard or Nicki
Molinari did with their lives. The truth was I had even stopped worrying about
Doc. The truth was I could not get the sadistic injury done to Temple Carrol by
Wyatt Dixon and Terry Witherspoon off my mind, done to her in all probability
with the approval of Carl Hinkel.
I put my rucksack and fly vest and fly
rod and creel into my truck and picked up Temple at her motel and took her for
breakfast at a truck stop in Lolo. Then we drove deeper into the Bitterroot
Valley, up a dirt road through meadowland to a canyon with a roaring creek and
a chain of deep-water pools at the bottom. A trail followed the creek up a
steady incline, winding under cliffs and the ponderosa that grew out of rock,
until the creek and a series of falls were far below us. Then the trail leveled
out in a box canyon filled with birch trees and we came out on the creek again,
and sat on a table rock just above a pool that was so clear you could see the
cutthroat and brook trout ginning in the current, ten feet below the surface.
I had known Temple most of her life. She
hid her pain, rarely complained, and never accepted defeat. But now she had the
same detached cast in her eyes that I had seen in Maisey's after Maisey was
gang-raped. I flipped a dry fly at the head of the pool and hooked a small
cutthroat, then wet my hand and released it and gave the rod to Temple.
"Cast it over on the other side.
There's usually a fat one hanging under the bank," I said.
She was sitting against a birch tree
with her knees pulled up before her. The rock was mottled with lichen and the
leaves overhead flickered against the sunlight.
"I'll just watch," she said.
"I tried to get Lucas to go back to
Deaf Smith. You wouldn't consider that yourself, would you?"
"I'll pass, thanks," she said.
I laid down my fly rod and sat next to
her. I put my hand on her shoulder and brushed a lock of hair off her forehead.
When she looked into my eyes I could read no meaning in them.
"What are you thinking,
Temple?" I asked.
But she didn't answer. She leaned her
head back against the tree and watched a bighorn sheep that stood on a ledge
high up on the canyon's far wall. Her complexion had the glow and smoothness of
a newly opened rose. I rested my hand on top of hers.
"Do you think of me as a victim,
Billy Bob?" she asked.
"No, I don't."
"Then you don't need to worry about
me."
Her nylon backpack was propped against a huckleberry bush. The
flap had fallen open and inside I could see the blue-black finish and
pearl-handled butt of her .38 revolver.
"You aim to kill Wyatt Dixon, don't
you?" I said.
"You think of me as a friend or you
think of me with guilt. But you don't think of me in other ways," she
said, ignoring my statement.
"You're not fair," I said, and
took my hand from hers.
She rose to her feet and gathered up her
backpack by its straps and stepped off the rock onto the trail.
"I'm going to walk back now. It's
pretty out here. Don't worry about this stuff. It's not your fault," she
said.
And with that she slung her backpack
over one shoulder and strolled back down the trail, her chestnut hair freckled
with the sunlight that shone through the canopy, the clash of color in her
jeans and pink tennis shoes somehow reminiscent of the little girl who lived
inside her and who I'd learned could sometimes break my heart.
My great-grandfather, Sam Morgan Holland, the drover and
drunkard and gunfighter turned saddle preacher, had kept a journal that told of
the herds he had swum across the Red River and chased through mesa country and
stream bottoms in electric storms on the Goodnight-Loving and Chisholm trails,
his armed encounters with the Dalton-Doolin gang in Oklahoma Territory, and his
love affair with the outlaw woman, the Rose of Cimarron.
But he wrote mostly about the abiding
anger inside him that never allowed him to rest, that made him sit sleepless on
the side of his bed in a patch of moonlight, his palms aching to hold his twin
Navy Colt revolvers. In Wichita and Newton and Abilene, while prostitutes
watched from the balconies of saloons, he lighted up the street with the
flashes from his revolvers and filled the night
with thunder and the smell of cordite and for just a moment felt he had righted
the world and driven evil from his own breast by taking the lives of others who
were worse men than he.
How did a man who had always been
inclined for the cloth, who was basically decent and honorable, allow himself
to be branded with the mark of Cain?
He did it at Little Round Top and
Kennesaw Mountain and the Battle of Franklin, and learned it was easy. You just
had to convince yourself, or be convinced by others, that your enemy deserved
his fate and keep your mind free of empathy and moral restraint before you did
it.
I ATE SUPPER
early that afternoon, out of a tin plate and a cup from a GI mess kit, sitting
on a stump down by the river, so I would not have to talk to anyone before I
left Doc's house. But Doc caught me before I drove away.
"Where you going with L.Q.'s
pistol?" he asked.
"Target shooting."
"You don't have enough room around
here?" he said.
"Tag along if you like." I focused my eyes at a spot in empty
space.
"You go ahead. Stay out of trouble.
Don't follow my example."
"Wouldn't dream of it," I
said.
I DROVE DOWN
to Hamilton and went past Carl Hinkel's ranch to a farm road that wound down to
the Bitterroot River. I parked my truck among cottonwoods in an empty
campground and walked downstream until I was at the back of Hinkel's property.
I stepped across a barbed-wire fence that ran down through a slough into the
river and walked up a boulder-strewn, wooded incline until I was slightly above
the log house where Wyatt Dixon lived. I could hear the muttering of a chain
saw on the far side of the house.
The sun was still above the Bitterroots,
but the pine trees on the incline were deep in shadow, the boulder I stood
behind cool and damp to the touch. The light on the fields was soft, almost
like a green vapor hanging over the grass, and Wyatt Dixon, stripped to the
waist, his jeans so tight they looked stitched to his skin, walked into full
view and went to work on a log he had propped across sawhorses, lopping it into
segments for firewood.
The wind was in my face, the distance
about seventy yards.
I took L.Q. Navarro's .45 revolver from
my belt and steadied it with both hands on top of the boulder and sighted on
Dixon's back. His skin was taut and brown, etched with vertebrae, his biceps
pumped as he worked, his silky red hair creased in the wind.
Walk away, I heard a voice say inside
me.
I looked around me in the shadows, among
the pine trunks and the boulders that grew out of the
humus
like the tops of toadstools, but L.Q. was not there.
I pulled back the hammer on full cock
and fired.
The .45 jerked upward from the rock, the
report flattening in the wind.
I saw water jump in the river on the far
side of Wyatt Dixon, and I knew the round had carried high and to the left.
My heart was thundering now. I fired a
second and third time, the butt of the .45 raking finely against rock dust, the
pleasant cordite smell of burned powder in my face. But Wyatt Dixon moved about
unawares in the roar of the chain saw, the rounds missing him by inches. My
hands were sweating on the ivory grips now, the air damp and tannic inside my
lungs. When I fired again I thought I heard the round knock into wood.
This time Wyatt Dixon paused, as though
a foreign object might have invaded his environment. He looked away at the
river, the cottonwoods and aspens bending in the breeze, the mountains on the
western side of the valley and the clouds that were now filled with a purple
and gold sheen. Then he bent to his work again, his saw ripping a spray of
white pulp out of the log.
I was sweating inside my clothes. Bile
rose out of my stomach and I could smell the sourness of my own breath when I
breathed into my palm. I pulled back the hammer with my thumb a fifth time.
Walk away, the voice said.
Yes, I thought. This time, yes.
I stepped back from the boulder, my
temples pounding, my ears almost deaf from the four rounds I had discharged. I
eased the hammer back down with both thumbs and shoved the pistol into my belt
and walked back through the trees, stepping across a creek drainage, mounting a
small hill that should have brought me out above my truck and the campground on
the river.
Instead, I walked right into two of Amos
Rackley's Treasury agents.
They were set up behind a rock, like
picnickers, a lunch box opened in front of them, with sandwiches placed on
paper napkins next to their thermos and cell phone and binoculars.
"What do you think you're doing,
asshole?" the blond, crewcut man named Jim said, chewing a small bite of
sandwich. He wore khakis and a checkered shirt and a tan cap with a green fish
on it. There was a blood-filled bump on the bridge of his nose. He and his
partner wore identical sunglasses.
"Me?" I said.
"Dixon did a mind-fuck on you,
huh?" Jim said.
"Is Wyatt around here? That's why
you guys are here?" I said.
"You haven't had the pleasure," Jim said to his
partner. "This guy's a real wit."
I took a breath and widened my eyes. My
face felt sweaty and dilated in the breeze. "Tell me if my reasoning is
messed up. You don't care if somebody pops Ole Wyatt or not. You know you can't
turn him, so he's of no use to you."
"You ought to ask Amos for a job.
He's always looking for new talent," Jim said.
I dumped my spent brass in my palm.
"Give him this for me, will
you?" I said, and bounced the casings off the rock in front of them.
"It's great seeing you. Keep up the good work."
Jim bit into his sandwich and turned to
his friend. "This guy was an Assistant U.S. Attorney," he said. The
friend grinned and looked at his nails.
Chapter
23
I was still wired when I walked into an
old brick Catholic church on the north side of Missoula early the next morning.
The day was cool and misty, and the pillared interior of the church, whose
ceilings were painted with celestial scenes, seemed to enclose an unnatural,
smoky blue light. The few parishioners in the pews were elderly, traditional
people from another era who said rosaries and probably attended Mass daily and
confessed sins that were largely imaginary to a priest who fought to keep from
nodding off. I felt like an intruder in their midst.
I knelt in
the back of the church and prayed to be relieved of the anger that still
throbbed in my wrists and left my mouth as dry as paper and my thoughts like
shards of glass. A young priest in a cassock entered the center booth in the
confessional and I followed him and knelt in the adjoining booth and waited for
him to slide back the wood cover on the small screened window that separated
us.
"I should confess early on I know
another priest here in town but I chose not to go
to him," I said.
"Why is that?" the priest
asked.
"I'm ashamed."
"There's no shame when you take
your sins to God."
"I tried to kill a man yesterday,
Father. He was unarmed. I shot at his back four times."
The priest started to turn, to look
through the screen at my face, but instead lowered his eyes and remained
motionless. I could hear the soft rise and fall of his breath.
"What you're telling me is very
serious," he said.
"This man did something truly evil
to a friend of mine," I said.
"With respect, I have to stop you
there. You don't bargain in a sacramental situation."
"He buried her alive."
I saw him press his forehead with the
heel of his hand.
"Listen, do you plan to make
another attempt against this man's life?" he said.
"I'll do him no harm except in
defense of myself or another."
I could see a thin sheen of perspiration
along his jawbone and a lump of cartilage working below his ear. He waited a
long time before he spoke again.
"If you have not been honest with
me, the absolution you receive here will be of little use to you. That said,
you are forgiven of your sins," he said. Then added, as I rose from the
kneeler, "You must put away your violence, sir. You will never have peace
until you do. Until that day comes, a minister such as I
will be only a seashell echoing the wind."
His words clung to me like a net when I
walked out into the sunlight.
I WALKED
from the church down to the river and sat on a shady bench and watched the sun
burn the mist off the hills. The siltation caused by the snow melt had settled
out of the river and the water was now a dark green again, undulating smoothly
over the submerged boulders in the deepest part of the river, the trout rising
on the edge of the shade for the first fly hatch of the day.
I had less than three weeks to prepare
Doc's defense. When all else failed, a hard-nosed criminal lawyer could always
put the police on trial. But that was not only unwise in the case of Sheriff
Cain, who was an intelligent and decent man and also well liked, a defense
strategy deliberately based on destroying people's faith in their legal system
was a little bit like burning down all your neighbors' houses in order to save
your own.
Who had really killed Lamar Ellison? I
had an idea, but my speculations were of no value. I believed Lamar Ellison and
his two cohorts were sent by Carl Hinkel to Doc Voss's house to rape his
daughter. But all three rapists were dead now and I would probably never get
Hinkel into a courtroom. Hinkel was like the drunk who runs a red light at
ninety miles an hour and fills an intersection with mayhem and carnage and
disappears back into anonymity.
Regardless, as much as I disliked him
and
the xenophobic mentality that was characteristic of his kind, I did not think
he was behind Ellison's murder. I tried to think through the tangled web Doc
and I had wandered into the night he went up against the bikers in the bar at
Lincoln: gold mine interests on the Blackfoot River, Cleo Lonnigan's belief
that Lamar Ellison's biker gang had murdered her child, Nicki Molinari's
insistence that Cleo Lonnigan had stolen money from him, Xavier and Holly
Girard's involvement with Molinari, the kidnapping and murder of Sue Lynn Big
Medicine's little brother, the fanatical dedication of the ATF agents who
wanted to avenge the deaths of their friends and colleagues in the Alfred P.
Murrah Building.
I wondered what it would be like to line
up childhood photos of all the above-mentioned people. Would it tell us
something about the influence of the world on each of us? Probably. But the
lesson was too depressing to even think about.
"I have a bone to pick with
you," a voice said behind me.
"Oh, hello, Ms. Girard," I
said, removing my hat and rising from the bench.
She wore shades and a white suit and
high heels and white stockings and carried a shopping bag from a fashionable
store by its paper straps. She sat down and crossed her legs and lit a
cigarette with a silver lighter.
"Do you mind?" she asked.
"No," I said, not quite sure
if she was referring to her cigarette or her sitting down uninvited.
"God forbid, my prayers have been
answered. My husband has stopped drinking. He has also gone crazy. I think he
gets some of his ideas from you and Doc Voss," she said. "I doubt
it."
"He wants to stop production of my
picture. He says more publicity about the Blackfoot will cause it to be overrun
by tourists. He says he's going to rat-fuck Nicki Molinari. Do you think that's
an advisable activity?"
"I wouldn't know, Ms. Girard. To
tell you the truth, I don't care, either."
She removed her sunglasses and let them
rest in her lap. In the shade, or perhaps because of her makeup, her eyes had
the color of lilacs. They roved over my face thoughtfully, then she smiled in
that unrehearsed and vulnerable way that seemed totally foreign to everything
else she did.
"I've made a bad impression on you
twice now," she said.
"How's that?"
"When you caught me inhaling a
substance I could do without. Then Xavier told you of a foolish moment I had
with Nicki Molinari."
"I don't guess I remember any of
that very well."
"You're quite a guy, Tex. I could
cast you in a minute, if you're not too ambitious. Don't pay too much attention
to Xavier while he's sober. He thinks better when he's drunk," she said,
and pinched me on top of the thigh when she got up to leave.
When I got back to Doc's
house Maisey was waiting for me on the front porch.
"What's wrong?" I said.
She handed me a folded piece of notebook
paper. "This was pushed in under my screen," she said. It read:
Dear Maysy,
I saw Mr. Holland shoot at Wyatt.
Wyatt was running a chain saw and couldn't hear the shots. So I told him what I
saw. You need to get away from Mr. Holland. We could go to Idaho or to the rain
forest in Washington. I know how to build a cabin and to hunt and fish. What do
you think? Meet me outside our place on Front Street at 8 tonite.
Your friend, Terry
"'Our place'?" I said.
"He must mean the bar where I met
him. What a loser."
"Has your dad seen this?"
"Not yet. He went to the feed
store. What does he mean you shot at Wyatt Dixon?"
"Witherspoon has probably been
eating mushrooms," I said.
But I didn't fool her. She put her hands
on her hips, her eyes boring in on me.
"Have you lost your mind, Billy
Bob?"
"Don't underestimate the value of
mental illness. It makes life a lot easier," I said.
"I thought my father was
uncontrollable. You two guys are beyond belief," she said. She shook her
head despairingly, tapping her toe, her mouth screwed into a button.
But THINGS were just warming up. A half hour later I saw Nicki
Molinari's maroon convertible tearing through the field behind Doc's house, the
top down, with Molinari behind the wheel and his second baseman, the man called
Frank, next to him. Frank looked like a seven-foot cadaver propped up in the
seat.
Molinari got out of the car and left the
door hanging open, the engine still running, and jabbed his finger at me.
"I'm about an inch from creating
one less lawyer in Missoula, Montana," he said.
"Oh?" I said.
"I'm eating breakfast in a cafe
this morning and this rodeo psycho, what's-his-name, Wyatt Dixon, comes in and
stands there, leering down at me with this twisted smile on his mouth. I go,
'You got a problem?' He goes, 'I've got it on high authority your friend Mr.
Holland took some shots at me. Could it be you was involved with a cowardly
action like that, sir?'
"I go, 'What are you talking about?
And stop calling me sir.'
"He says, 'I seen one of your men
bird-dogging me. Which made me wonder if you and Mr. Holland
is
working together. All these people is waiting for your response, sir.'
"I go, 'No, I don't know nothing
about people shooting at you. So get away from my table, you crazy fuck.'
"He goes, 'You are a war hero, sir.
I have driven by your home many times. I have seen the batting cage in your
barn and the beautiful women that swims in your pool. I would like to model my
life on yours but I am only a humble cowboy. You, sir, are a credit to the
Italian race.'"
I
waited for Molinari to continue.
"Are you listening?" he said.
"Yeah. So why are you out
here?"
His face blanched with anger.
"You're playing with this guy's
head. I'm a businessman. I got this shitkicker meltdown 'fronting me in public.
I don't need that kind of publicity."
"Why did he put you and me
together?"
"He's con-wise. He knows we've both
been involved with the skank. Hey, bottom line, my man, he's nuts."
"Nice of you to come out," I
said.
I walked away from him, into the trees,
into the cold air rising off the river in the shadows. Molinari followed me and
scooped up a pine cone and threw it at my head.
"Don't turn your back on me, Mr.
Holland," he said.
"Your problem is not with me, Nicki.
It's back in Laos, on that helicopter skid."
His hands opened and closed at his
sides. His hired man followed us into the trees, his
silhouette gargantuan against the sunlight. Molinari turned and said,
"Everything's cool here, Frank. Take a smoke. I'll be along in a
minute." I started to speak but Molinari shook his finger.
"You got no right to stick that
information in my face," he said.
"Hell is a place you carry with
you. I hope you get out of it one day."
"Save the shuck for
people who are
easily impressed," he said.
But he didn't leave. He stared at me,
the veins in his forearms pumped with blood.
"Say something," he said.
I shook my head and walked around him,
out into the sunlight, into the glory of the day and the humped blue-green
chain of mountains that lined each side of the Blackfoot Valley. Frank, the
hired man, looked at Nicki, waiting for instructions.
"Leave him alone," Nicki said.
I WAS BY
MYSELF that evening. The sky was blue, the sun glowing like a red spark through
a crack in the hills. The Blackfoot had dropped, and the rocks along the bank
were white and dry and etched with the skeletal remains of underwater insects.
When the wind gusted I could smell a meat fire in a neighbor's yard and the
cold odor the river gave off inside the shade.
It was an evening to put aside thoughts
about Nicki Molinari and Carl Hinkel and their minions
and all
their nefarious enterprises. I called Temple Carrol at her motel.
"How about dinner and a
movie?" I said.
"I guess that could be
arranged," she said.
"Thank you," I said.
"Don't be smart," she replied.
Well, that's a start, I thought, and
went into the bathroom to shave.
A minute later the phone rang.
"Hello?" I said.
"We need to talk," the voice
said.
"Cleo?"
"At least you haven't forgotten the
sound of my voice."
"I'm going to ring off now," I
said.
"Come on, stop pretending you're a
victim. I apologize for my behavior at the Joan Baez concert. Can't you show a
little humility?"
"Have a good life," I said.
"I'm turning off the dirt road
right now. It doesn't look like Doc's at home. That's good. You and I have a
lot to talk about," she said.
I hurriedly put on a fresh shirt and my
hat and headed out the door for my truck, just as she drove around the side of
the house and parked by the porch. She wore a yellow sundress and a pink ribbon
in her hair. But for some reason that had no exact physical correlation, she
looked sharp-edged, aged, her eyes intent with an animus that would never allow
her to acknowledge any perception of the world other than her own.
She walked toward me with a box wrapped
in satin paper.
"A little present," she said.
"This isn't good for either of us,
Cleo."
"If you won't open it, I'll do it
myself."
She tore away the paper and the ribbon,
her hands shaking slightly. The paper blew away in the wind when she folded
back the top of the box.
"There's every kind of bass lure
here," she said. "That's what you fish for in Texas, isn't it? Bass?
Do you like the lures?"
"I appreciate your thoughtfulness.
I'm headed out right now. I wish perhaps you had come out at another
time."
"Stop being cute, Billy Bob.
Southern charm doesn't work too well after you bed a woman and drop her."
"You have a lot of qualities, Cleo.
You're devoted to your work. You obviously have compassion for the poor. Any
guy would be lucky to have a lady like you."
"I want you to come out to my
place. It doesn't have to be tonight. But this has to be worked out."
"It's not gding to happen."
"I'm sorry to hear you say
that," she said.
"Let me be straight up with you.
Nicki Molinari told me your husband and son were murdered by gangsters, not by
Lamar Ellison's biker gang. The sheriff believes the same thing. Why don't you
give Molinari and his friends the money your husband owed them and be done with
it?"
"You quote Nicki Molinari to me
about my son? You worthless piece of Southern garbage," she said.
"Adios," I said, and got into
my truck. While I ground the starter I could feel her eyes pulling the skin
from my bones.
That same evening Sue Lynn Big Medicine drove her uncle's pickup
truck into the Jocko Valley and onto the Flathead Indian Reservation. She
passed the rodeo and powwow grounds and followed a dirt road into the hills,
climbing higher into trees and deep shadows and outcroppings of gray rock that
were marbled with lichen.
She pulled off the road into a flat,
thinly wooded area by a creek. The remains of an abandoned sweat lodge stood
next to the creek, the concave network of shaved willow limbs hung with strips
of rotting canvas. She cut the engine and walked down to the water and leaned
against a rock and smoked a cigarette and waited. It was not long before she
heard a four-wheel-drive vehicle grinding in low gear up the road.
The man who had told her where to wait
for him got out of his vehicle and walked toward her. He wore slip-on,
half-topped boots and khakis and a long-sleeve blue cotton shirt and a bill
cap. His hair was neatly clipped, and even though it was evening he was freshly
shaved and smelled of the lotion on his jaws.
"Did I keep you waiting long?"
Amos Rackley asked.
"I wasn't doing anything
else," she said, inhaling her cigarette, her chin raised, her gaze
averted.
"Where's your uncle's race car, the
one with numbers on it?"
"It doesn't have lights."
He seemed to look at her kindly but for
just a second his eyes would focus on her mouth and drop to her throat and
breasts.
"I have a folder here with some
pictures of guns in it," he said. "I want you to look at the pictures
and tell me if you've seen any of these guns inside Carl Hinkel's house."
He opened the folder on top of the rock
she was leaning against and shone a tiny flashlight on a series of glossy
prints. She felt the hair on his forearm touch hers.
"I don't know anything about
guns," she said.
"A gal from the Res? Who grew up
around hunters? That's hard to believe, Sue Lynn."
"I don't know what kind of guns
Carl Hinkel has. They're guns."
"I see. We need you to go back into
Hinkel's house," he said, closing the folder.
"They're on to me."
"I don't think that's true. They're
just a suspicious lot by nature. Call up Wyatt and tell him you had a fight
with the Holland boy and you want to see him again."
"I don't want to ever be alone with
Wyatt again. You don't know what he—"
"We'll be close by," Rackley
said, interrupting her.
"You'll be wearing a wire. Your
job's almost done." He moved his hand slightly and let his fingers cover
the tops of hers.
"I can't do it," she said.
"Do what? Can't do what, Sue
Lynn?"
She wanted to pull her hand away from
his but couldn't. She could feel her own heart beating, her chest rising and
falling inside her shirt.
"I hate you. I hate all you
people," she said.
She felt his hand leave hers. The wind
was cold on the back of her neck and she felt her hair feathering on her
cheeks. She wanted to turn and stare him down but all she could do was fix her
eyes on the desiccated remains of the sweat lodge and the discarded heat stones
that had been blackened by long-dead fires.
"I'm disappointed to hear you say
that, Sue Lynn. I'll call you very soon. You're going to be a big help to us.
You'll see."
After Amos Rackley was gone, she sat on
the creek bank with her knees drawn up in front of her, her hands clasped on
her ankles. The light was gone from the sky now and she heard animals moving
about in the woods, deer certainly, perhaps black bears and cougars, perhaps
even a moose, and she hoped if she saw the latter she would not be afraid, even
though the moose was considered a man-killer. She wanted to believe the animals
represented the spirits of her ancestors, people who lived in harmony with the
earth and sky and wind and the water in the streams and all the winged and
four-footed creatures and the salmon who swam all the way back
from the sea to lay their roe where they had been born, that maybe the animals
she heard in the darkness came bearing an omen of power and resolution and
courage that daily eluded her and translated her sleep into a prison filled
with grotesque shapes she could not control.
She rose from the ground and waded into
the stream and felt its coldness swell over her ankles. She walked up the
opposite bank, across small stones that hurt her feet, and entered the tree
line. Again she heard the noise in the brush and she walked farther into the
woods until she entered an old clear-cut that was dotted with toadstools and
tree stumps that had gone gray with rot. A bull elk reared its head out of the
grass, its rack clattering with moonlight.
For a moment she thought she had found
the totem that spoke of the power her people could pass on to her. But instead
she stared at the elk's rack, the ridged texture and hardness of the horn, the
curved points, and all she could think of was Wyatt Dixon. And she knew she
would not sleep that night.
Chapter
24
In the grayness of the following dawn I sat by Lucas's fire on
the riverbank and listened to Sue Lynn tell her story. The wind blew ashes out
of the fire ring and they settled on her shoulders and in her hair like
snowflakes. While she spoke she squeezed one hand on top of the other and her
eyes seemed to look into a place that neither Lucas nor I occupied.
"Are you going to wear a
wire?" I asked.
"No, not around Carl. He scares me. Even more than Wyatt
does. He's a lot smarter than Wyatt," she answered.
"I think it's time you got out from
under these guys, Sue Lynn," I said.
"Why did Mr. Rackley want to know
about the guns?" she said.
"If you saw automatic weapons in
Hinkel's house, Rackley could get a warrant and hit the place. You didn't see
any heavy stuff in there?"
"There's a rack of guns in the
basement. Bikers call them 'pogo sticks,'" she said.
"Those are either M-16s or AR-15s.
The AR-15s are legal. The others aren't. You're not sure which they are?"
I said.
"I think that gun stuff is for
dipshits," she said. She stood up from the rock she was sitting on and
looked into the mist that shrouded the trees and at the river that flowed like
satin over the boulders in the deepest part of the current.
"Lucas, I could never drink coffee
without a little milk in it. Do you mind?" I said.
"Since you put it as subtle as a
slap in the face with a dead cat, no, Billy Bob, I don't mind," he
replied, and rose to his feet and walked up the bank and across the porch into
Doc's house.
"Your little brother was abducted
and murdered, wasn't he?" I said.
She stood above me, one foot resting on
a rock, her thumbs in her pockets. I could see the pulse beating in her throat.
"Who told you that?" she said.
"The night Lamar Ellison died, he was marinated on beer and weed in a
tavern up the Blackfoot. He had a blackout of some kind and said something that
made you very angry."
"I don't remember that," she
said. "Doc goes on trial in a couple of weeks. Do you think he should be
on trial, Sue Lynn?"
"I came here because Lucas asked me
to. Stop questioning me. You're not a policeman."
"Doc's inside. Come on in and talk
with him." Her eyes were watering now. She stepped away from the fire and
pretended that smoke had gotten in them. She wiped her nose on her wrist.
"You know what it's like to have no
choices, to be used by everybody around you, to have nobody care when your
little brother is killed? Have you ever lived like that, Mr. Holland? Tell
me," she said.
Later, I sat with Temple Carrol at a picnic bench in a city park fringed
with maple trees and read through the material she had amassed on Carl Hinkel.
"Where'd you get all this
stuff?" I said.
"It's not hard. There're a
half-dozen organizations that track people like Hinkel. Besides, he can't wait
to get in front of a camera or a microphone," she said.
His record was one of failure on every
human level: he had been a low-level operator in the Vietnamese black market;
his three marriages had ended in divorce; he had been denied tenure as a
communications professor in a South Carolina community college; the state of
Georgia had put him out of business for operating a scam that involved selling
fraudulent home warranty policies to working-class people.
But he was to discover the enormous
potential of the Internet. Not only could he create an electronic recruiting
magnet for racists and psychopaths, his self-published books and pamphlets
inculcating the hatred of the government and Jews, homosexuals, blacks, Asians,
and Hispanics found a huge mail-order audience. The more grim his perspective
became, the more his constituency became convinced his voice was the one they
had waited to hear all their lives.
He held televised news conferences in
front of his ranch and claimed the CIA was making nocturnal flights over his
home with black helicopters and that Belgian troops, working for the United
Nations, were being trained in the Bitterroot Mountains for a takeover of the
United States.
The fact that he obviously had symptoms
of schizophrenia did nothing to dampen his newfound success. He actually addressed
the Montana state legislature and went to Washington and was welcomed in the
offices of at least two U.S. congressmen.
But Hinkel's history was a predictable
one and was of little help to me in my preparation for Doc's defense. It was an
entry at the bottom of a report and an attached news article sent to Temple by
a Klan-watch group in Atlanta that caught my eye. A pedophile who was wanted on
state charges had been arrested five years ago in Hinkel's yard. Hinkel had
claimed he didn't know the man and in fact thanked the authorities for
arresting him.
I circled the entry on the page and
pushed it toward Temple.
"Does anything else about child
molestation show up in this guy's past?" I asked.
"None that I know of. Why?"
"I'm not sure." In the center
of the park was a cement wading pool and a fountain and children
were playing in it, and out on the street a man was selling ice cream out of
cart with a blue umbrella on top of it.
"There's something else on your
mind you're not telling me about, isn't there?" Temple said.
"Quite a few things."
"Start with one."
"Early yesterday I tried to
bushwhack Wyatt Dixon."
"Say again?"
"I got downwind from him while he
was running a chain saw and put four rounds past his head. He didn't see me but
Terry Witherspoon did. Those ATF guys know about it, too."
She propped her head on her fingers and
looked at me with her mouth open. Then she took her hand away from her brow and
her eyes searched mine.
"Why?" she said.
"A guy like that deserves it."
"Don't lie," she said.
"Come on, I'll buy you a
Popsicle."
"You thought I was going to do it.
That's why, isn't it?"
"You think too much, Temple,"
I said, and began putting away her papers and file folders into her nylon
backpack.
She was standing next to me now and I
could smell the sun's heat on her skin and the perfume on her neck. There was a
flush in her cheeks, a different light in her eyes.
"Look at me," she said.
"What?"
She pushed several strands of hair out
of her face, a smile tugging at the edge of her mouth. But she didn't speak.
"Would you say what's on your
mind?" I said.
"I guess I'll just have to keep an
eye on you, that's all," she replied.
That EVENING Lucas borrowed my truck to go to work at the Milltown Bar.
When he picked up Sue Lynn at her uncle's house he didn't make it out of the
driveway. Amos Rackley and the agent named Jim pulled their car at an angle
across the entrance, their brights burning into Lucas's face, and approached
both sides of the truck.
"What's with you guys?" Lucas
said.
"We just need a minute of Sue
Lynn's time," Jim said, and reached through the window and turned off the
ignition.
"Maybe she doesn't want to talk to you," Lucas said.
"Trust me, she does. Step out of
the truck. I'll give you a cigarette. Would you like that?" the agent
said, and winked. He squeezed the handle of the door and eased it open.
Lucas stepped down on the gravel,
feeling belittled, unsure why, unsure what to do about it. The sun was down,
the sky purple, the air cold and bitter with the smell of diesel off the
highway. Jim wore jeans and a beige sports coat and had a blood blister on the
bridge of his nose.
"Walk over here with me," he
said, turning his back, clicking on a pen light with his thumb and focusing the
beam on some photographs he held in one hand. "This will interest
you."
Lucas stared down at the photos of Sue
Lynn and himself coming out of a supermarket, sitting in her uncle's car,
entering the Milltown Bar, undressing on a blanket by a stream.
"You guys are real shits,"
Lucas said.
Jim put a filter-tipped cigarette in his
mouth but didn't light it.
"I heard you play at the Milltown
Bar. You want some advice? Lose the Indian broad. It's a matter of time till
she goes into the system. Number two, I don't blame you for being pissed off.
Nobody wants a telescopic lens focused on his bare ass while he's getting his
ashes hauled. But you're taking your old man's fall, kid."
"You're talking about Billy
Bob?"
The agent blew his nose into a Kleenex
and looked at a drop of blood on it.
"He messed up his career. He's got
a store-front law practice in a shithole. You think it's a mystery why he runs
around trying to fuck up a government investigation? I'd use my head," the
agent said.
"Billy Bob's got a nice office on
the town square. People respect him. That's more than I can say about some folks,"
Lucas replied.
"You see Treasure of the Sierra
Madre?" the agent said. "Humphrey Bogart plays this worthless
character named Fred C. Dobbs. He's always saying, 'Nobody's
putting
anything over on Fred C. Dobbs.' What do you think that line means? I never
really figured it out."
But Lucas's attention was now fixed on
Sue Lynn and the other federal agent, Amos Rackley. Rackley had opened the back
door of his car for her and Sue Lynn was getting inside.
Lucas started toward them, but Jim
stepped in front of him and spread his fingers on Lucas's chest, pressing
slightly, his face only inches from Lucas's. In the headlights of the car the
shape of his head seemed like a manikin's.
"She's coming voluntarily. Don't
mix in it," the agent said.
"Sue Lynn?" Lucas called out.
But she didn't answer. Jim backed away
from Lucas, one finger pointing at him.
"Keep in mind what I said. Hey,
stop squeezing your Johnson. We're gonna bring her back," he said.
Lucas returned my truck keys the next morning and sat at the
plank table in the kitchen and drank coffee and looked out the window at the
frost high up on the mountain.
"Don't worry about her. She's a
smart gal," I said.
"I went by her uncle's after I got
off work. They hadn't brought her back," he said.
"She was involved with these
Treasury guys before you met her, Lucas. She hung out with bikers. She was
there when they stuck up a general store and post office on the Res."
"I don't like it when you talk that
way, Billy Bob."
"Sue Lynn's history is her own. I
didn't make it up."
"That agent said the same thing
about you."
"Maybe you should listen to
him."
Lucas got up from the table and threw
his coffee out the back door. Then he washed the cup in the sink and set it in
the dry rack.
"You hurt people when they try to
stand up for you. But I don't hold it against you. It's just the way you are.
You ain't never gonna change, Billy Bob," he said.
He fitted on his hat and went outside,
past the side window, his head bent forward, his face as sharp as an ax blade
in the wind.
Chapter
25
Kingdoms are lost for want of a nail in a horse's shoe. I think
perhaps lives unravel in the same fashion, sometimes over events as slight as
an insult to the pride of a misanthropic young man from North Carolina who
thought he was going to be a mountain man.
Lucas was
playing that afternoon with a band at a bluegrass festival outside of Hamilton.
The bandstand had been knocked together with green lumber at the bottom of a
long slope that tapered upward into the shadows of the mountains, and thousands
of people sat on folding chairs and blankets in the sunshine, while the
electronically amplified songs of Appalachia echoed through the canyons of the
Bitterroot Valley.
Doc, Maisey, Temple, and I spread a
blanket in the grass, not far from a group of college kids who were red-faced
with beer and agitated by a situation of some kind near the concession area.
"Somebody should rip it down. It
doesn't belong here. This is Montana," a girl was saying.
"Ignore them. They're a bunch of
losers," a boy said.
"There's a black man working at the
hot-dog stand. How would you feel if you were a black man and somebody stuck that
in your face?" the girl said.
"What's going on with the college
kids?" Temple said.
"You got me," I said.
I looked past the crowd at a white
camper with a tarp extended from the roof and supported on poles to shade the
people who sat under it. On one side of the tarp was a staff that flew the
American flag; on the other side, flapping like a red-and-blue martial
challenge out of the past, was the battle flag of the Confederacy.
"I'm going to the concession stand.
Y'all want anything?" Maisey said.
"Yeah," Doc said, and gave her
a twenty-dollar bill.
"Like what do you want?"
Maisey asked.
"Whatever you like. Just make sure
everything is free of cholesterol and preservatives and none of it is made by
Third World child labor and the vendors have sound political attitudes,"
Doc said.
Maisey made
one of her faces to show her tolerance of her father's immaturity and walked
off into the crowd, just as Lucas's band came on stage and went into Bill
Monroe's "Molly and Tenbrooks."
The sunlight was warm on Maisey's skin
as she stood in line, the wind balmy in her
face, the timbered slopes of the mountains rising almost straight up into snow
that still had not melted with summer. The fields were iridescent with the spray
from irrigation wheel lines, and up the incline the aspens and cottonwoods
along the drainages rippled in the shadows of the mountains that towered over
them.
Then she felt a presence behind her
before she saw it, and smelled an odor like a combination of hair tonic and
chewing gum and layered deodorant, as though the person emanating it thought a
manufactured scent was a form of physical sophistication. "Bet I scared
you," Terry Witherspoon said. He wore a white T-shirt and black jeans and
engineering boots and a skinning knife on his belt. He grinned at the corner of
his mouth and pitched his head to get a strand of hair out of his glasses.
She turned away from him and moved up
with the line, her eyes fastening on a jolly fat man frying burgers inside the
concession stand.
"Did you get my note?" Terry
asked.
"No," she said, hurriedly,
then felt her cheeks burn with her lie. She turned and faced him. "I did
get it. Please don't leave any more."
"I went way out on a limb for you.
You shouldn't talk to me like that."
"Leave me alone," she said,
her teeth gritted, her eyes shining with embarrassment at the stares she was
now receiving.
He didn't answer. A long moment passed
and she thought perhaps Terry had gone away. But when she
turned
around he was looking down into her face, crinkling his nose under his glasses,
his arms hanging straight down, as though he didn't know what else to do with
them, one hand locked on his wrist.
"I'll pay for the burgers. Let's walk
up the canyon and eat them. There're grouse in the pines. I've got a hand line
we can fish with," he said.
But before she could reply she saw her
father coming toward the concession stand, pushing his ash-blond hair back over
his head, his gait longer than it should have been, his shoulders slightly
stooped. Perhaps for the first time she saw the complex man who would never be
at home in the world, a Mennonite farm boy who went to war as a healer and
became a killer in the Phoenix Program, a recovered intravenous addict who
published poems and whose soft voice belied the potential that burned just
below his skin, a father who mourned his wife and loved his daughter and
brooked no intrusion into the life of his family.
Doc's right hand bit into Terry
Witherspoon's arm, squeezing the muscle into the bone.
"You're the boy who left that
note?" he said.
"I might have. Take your hand
off—" Witherspoon said.
"Don't find any reason to get near
me or Maisey, son. Now, you get back over there with your friends. While you're
at it, you tell them those are grand flags on their camper and sonsofbitches
like them don't have any right to fly them."
"I don't have to do anything you
tell me, you old fuck."
Doc pulled Witherspoon out of the line
and marched him by one arm through the crowd toward the camper. When
Witherspoon tripped and fell, Doc knotted the back of his T-shirt in his fist
and hauled him out of the dust and pushed him through the crowd like a rag
doll.
In the shade of the tarp Carl Hinkel and
Wyatt Dixon sat in canvas recliners, drinking canned beer, gazing benignly at
the stage.
Behind them, Sue Lynn Big Medicine sat
in the doorway of the camper, wearing shorts and a halter and no shoes, her
face fatigued, her lipstick on crooked. Doc shoved Witherspoon into their
midst. "Your man here got lost. Make sure he stays on a short
tether," Doc said.
"Goodness gracious, sir, you behave
like somebody just spit in your dinner plate. Sue Lynn, get Dr. Voss a cold
drink. Terry wasn't rude to your daughter, was he? He got one sniff of her and
ain't talked about nothing else," Wyatt Dixon said.
Wyatt Dixon turned his attention back to
the stage, grinning at nothing, his body supine, one hand cupped on his scrotum,
while Carl Hinkel puffed on his cob pipe as though the events taking place
around him had nothing to do with his life.
I draped my arm around Doc's shoulders
and walked him toward the concession stands. "Wrong place to take them
on," I said. "If you're the voice of reason, Billy Bob, we're in
trouble," he replied.
A half HOUR LATER Sue Lynn found Lucas
behind the bandstand. He was kneeling on a blanket, replacing a broken treble
string on his Martin, twisting the tuning peg until the string whined with
tension.
"Where have you been? I went by
your place three times today. Your uncle said you took his car and didn't tell
him where you were going," he said, getting to his feet.
"I went back and got a few clothes.
I'm staying at Wyatt's awhile," she replied.
"Wyatt's? Are you
insane?"
"I have to, Lucas."
"Tell those government buttwipes to
kiss your ass."
"Lower your voice."
"I mean it, Sue Lynn. Eighty-six
this stuff. This is a free country."
"We can't be together again. You
have to accept that."
He stared at her, then looked out at a
deep, shadowed chasm that cut through the mountains.
"Don't tell me stuff like that. I'm
not gonna listen," he said.
"I'm going to jail or I'm going to
be killed. You want to be killed, too?"
"Come out to Doc's and talk to
Billy Bob."
"Try to understand. I have to make
a decision about something. It eats on me all the time. I might have to go away
for a long time, for something you don't know about."
"Go away where?"
She gave up.
"Don't get around Wyatt," she
said. "Dr. Voss just humiliated Terry in front of a bunch of college kids.
Terry is Wyatt's punk. That means Wyatt has to hurt somebody so Terry can feel
he's important again. That's the way they do things inside."
"Who cares what these guys do?
They're scum . . . Stop backing away from me."
But she was running now, in her
moccasins and halter and shorts that were dirty in the rump, and for some
reason she made him think of a frightened doe bolting through a forest where
the trees took no note of the wild beating of its heart.
Two hours later Lucas, Temple, Doc, Maisey
and I loaded up in Temple's Explorer, drowsy on beer and from sitting in the
sun, the encounter with Terry Witherspoon pushed out of our minds, the summer
evening still blue and pink and filled with promise.
As we snaked our way out of the parking
area, I looked through the haze of dust and saw Wyatt Dixon in front of the
white camper, dancing with Sue Lynn slung over his shoulder like a side of
beef. When she tried to raise her torso erect, he slapped her rump and danced
faster and faster in a circle, his knees jerking upward like an Indian's while
the Confederate flag flapped over his head.
Lucas was sitting next to me in the
backseat. His eyes started to follow mine.
"Look at the eagles up on the
hill," I said.
"Where?" he said.
"They're flying right above the
trees, right across the canyon," I said.
He looked at the canyon, then out the
rear window of the vehicle.
"Was something going on back
there?" he asked.
"Nothing that we can change,"
I said.
The next day was Sunday. That afternoon Sue Lynn sat on top of a boulder behind
Wyatt's log house and watched him and Terry smoke homegrown gage and flip a
hatchet end over end into a cottonwood tree. Wyatt had said nothing to her
about her relationship with Lucas, nor had he tried to put moves on her last
night or this morning. In fact, he gave her a blanket and pillow and told her
to sleep on the deerhide couch in his house and said he would sleep in the
bedroom. When she woke in the morning, he fixed coffee and eggs for her and
whistled a tune while he did it, his bare triangular back turned to her, as
though he were both indifferent to the coldness of the predawn hour and the
presence of several loaded firearms that hung on antler racks which she could
easily take down and discharge if she chose.
But she knew Wyatt and the way he
thought, if "thought" was the proper word to use. He never did what
others expected. Unlike Carl Hinkel and his shaved-head windups, Wyatt seemed
to be possessed by no ideological passion. His war was not with the government
or with people of a different race. His war was with humanity, or better yet,
the normality that defined most human beings.
Wyatt was like the virus that immediately recognizes the antibodies in an
immune system as its enemy. He used and ingested people. He did it with an
idiot's grin, eating his own pain, demeaning and degrading his adversaries in
ways that often took them days to figure out.
From a good thirty feet Wyatt threw the
hatchet into the tree trunk, thunking it so solidly into the wood the handle
trembled with a sound like a sprung saw blade. He worked the steel head out of
the bark and extended the handle to Terry, then jerked it back, smiling, when
Terry tried to take it.
Then he repeated the maneuver, teasing
Terry, jumping around sideways as though he had springs on his feet. But before
Terry could go into a pout, Wyatt slipped the handle into Terry's palm and
clasped his hand affectionately on the back of Terry's neck and pulled the
roach Terry was smoking off his lips and took two hits off it, then pinched off
the ash and ate it.
"Roll us another one, Sue
Lynn," Terry said.
Roll it yourself, fuckhead, she thought.
But she didn't say it. Not with Wyatt
there. He might bitch-slap Terry or force him to wear makeup and throw him from
an automobile, but when push came to shove, with either Carl or any of the
other lamebrains who hung around the compound, Terry was Wyatt's mainline bar
of soap and nobody made remarks about him or put their hands on him except
Wyatt.
So she rolled a joint from the
home-grown marijuana in Wyatt's tobacco pouch and licked down the glue on the
seam of the cigarette paper and crimped down the ends while Wyatt went inside
the log house to use the toilet.
Terry pulled the joint from her fingers
and put it into his mouth. He was bare-chested and his pants hung two inches
below his belly button. Dirt rings clung to his neck like a necklace of
insects.
"Light it for me," he said.
She ignored him and slid off the boulder
and walked down toward the river, dusting off her rump, working a pack of
cigarettes out of her jeans, sticking one into her mouth.
"I can have your ass if I
want," he said behind her.
He traced his fingernail down her spine
to her panties.
She tried to bite down on the words that
welled out of her throat but it was too late. "Your mother must have
thought she gave birth to a tumor," she said.
He took her book of matches from her
hand and lit the joint, holding the hit deep down in his lungs, and bounced the
dead match off her face.
"Have a nice day, Sue Lynn,"
he said.
Later, she went inside the log house and lay on the couch, a blanket
wrapped around her head, and tried to sleep. But it was no use. One of Wyatt's
buddies was running a dirt bike up and down an adjacent hill, gunning the
engine through the trees, scouring humus and rock and grass into the air,
filling the softness of the evening with a sound like a chain saw grinding on
steel pipe.
Why
not eighty-six it,
like Lucas said?
she thought.
Because Amos Rackley told her she stayed
on the job until she found out what kinds of weapons were in Carl Hinkel's
basement. Maybe she should have worn the wire, she thought. Now she had no
umbilical cord to the outside.
What Amos Rackley could not comprehend,
what he would not hear, was the fact that Carl Hinkel could look inside
people's heads. He saw where they were weak, the thoughts they tried to hide,
the flare of ambition in their eyes. He understood evil in others, tolerated it
the way a father does an errant child, and used it for his own ends. His
followers all knew they could deceive themselves or lie to the world and Carl
would remain their friend. But they dared not lie to him.
He seemed to have no sexual interest in
either women or men. His pastime was his absorption with the Internet. He sat
for hours in front of his computer, his features wrapped with the green glow of
his monitor, while he tapped on the keys and addressed chat rooms filled with
his admirers.
But she had seen one peculiarity in his
commitment to his computer. In nice weather he left the door open to his little
stone office, and anyone in the compound could see him at his desk, puffing
clouds of white smoke from his cob pipe, his back as straight as a bayonet, while
his fingers danced across the keyboard. But sometimes he would shut the door
and slide the wood crossbar into place, and everyone understood that Carl was
not to be disturbed.
Once a new member at the compound, a
jug-eared kid just out of the Wyoming pen, called Shortening Bread behind his
back because of his dark skin, wanted to curry favor with Carl and made lunch
for him and carried it on a tray to the office. Unfortunately for Shortening
Bread, Carl had not quite secured the crossbar on the door, and Shortening
Bread worked his foot into the jamb and pushed the door back and started to
step inside the office without asking permission.
Carl rose from his chair and flung the
tray into the yard. When Shortening Bread broke into tears, Carl put his arm
over his shoulders and walked with him around the compound, explaining the need
for discipline among members of the Second American Revolution, reassuring him
that he was a valuable man.
Sue Lynn got up from the couch and
washed her face and walked down the slope to the river, then wandered along the
bank to a shady copse of trees and sat down in the grass and watched the spokes
of white light the sun gave off beyond the rim of the Bitterroots.
Then she heard the dirt bike go silent
and the voices of Wyatt and Terry and she realized the two men were no more
than twenty yards above her, behind a boulder, and Terry was sharpening his
knife on a whetstone, probably spitting on it, as was his
fashion,
and grinding the knife in a slow, monotonous circle.
"She's got a mouth on her, I'll
'low that. 'Birth to a tumor'?"
"It's not funny, Wyatt."
"You ain't got to tell me. An
Indian woman shouldn't be talking to a white man like that," Wyatt said,
his voice suddenly somber.
"What are you gonna do about
it?" Terry asked.
"Have a little talk with her."
"I want it to hurt."
"Oh, it will."
"Wyatt?"
"What?"
"I want to watch."
Sue Lynn sat in the shadows, bent
forward, her stomach sick. Even in the coolness of the wind off the river she
was sweating all over, a fearful sweat that clung to her skin like night damp.
She remained motionless, afraid to get up or turn around. Then she heard Wyatt
and Terry walking out of the trees toward the campground upstream, where Terry
sometimes worm-fished with a handline behind a beaver dam.
When they were out of sight she ran for
her uncle's windowless stock car that had no headlights. She fired up the
engine and fishtailed across the gravel driveway in front of Carl's house and
roared up the dirt road toward the highway that led back into Missoula, her
heart pounding, the reflected images of Carl Hinkel and three of his
subordinates staring at her like painted
miniatures in the rearview mirror.
She stopped at Lolo, ten miles south of Missoula, and used a pay phone outside
a cafe to call the contact number the Treasury agents had made her memorize. An
unfamiliar voice answered, then the call was relayed to another location and
she heard the voice of Amos Rackley.
"I can't take it anymore," she
said. "Slow down. You can handle this."
"Carl knows.''
"You're having a panic attack. He
doesn't know. He's not that smart."
"They're out there." "Out
where?" he said.
A low-slung red car ran the yellow light
at the intersection and she felt her heart stop. Then she saw the car was not
Wyatt's.
"They're everywhere. They have
radios in their cars," she said.
"Go to the meeting place on the
Res. People will be waiting for you there. Now stop worrying. You did a good
job."
"I never saw the guns."
"So fuck it," he said.
She drove on through Missoula and caught
the highway west of town that led to the Flathead Reservation. The Clark Fork
of the Columbia River looked like a long, flat silver snake in the twilight.
The evening star had risen above the mountains when she drove up
into the timbered hills above the Jocko River and pulled off the dirt road and
parked by the abandoned sweat lodge on the creek bank. Twice on the highway she
had seen cars pace themselves behind
her, dropping back when she slowed, accelerating when she sped up. Then she had
turned on to the Res and had lost them. But five minutes later, as she climbed
into the hills, she had seen headlights down below, tracking across the same
bridges she had crossed, following the same dirt roads she had driven.
The trees and hills were dark now, the
sky like a bowl of blue light above her head. She got out of her uncle's stock
car and waited by the stream, listening to the water that braided across the
rocks, the thick sounds of bats' wings crisscrossing through the air, the
animals that were coming down through the woods to drink at the close of day.
Where was Rackley? He had said people
would be waiting for her. But once again she was alone, and now it was too dark
for her to drive her uncle's car back home.
She saw the trees move on the ridge
above her but she guessed it was only the wind. Upstream there was a clattering
sound on the rocks, deer or elk or perhaps cattle crossing the creek bed.
She had to get it together, stop her
hands from trembling, her blood from racing. If she could just think clearly,
just for a moment, she knew she could figure a way out of this.
Rackley had said fuck it. That was a
surprise. Was he letting her off the hook? Or did he plan to put moves on her,
use her as his permanent snitch and part-time squeeze?
She saw lights coming up the road, a
four-wheel-drive vehicle in low gear, and she folded her arms across her chest,
starting to hyperventilate now, determined to stare down whoever it was, even
if they killed her.
The agent named Jim and a second agent
whose name she didn't know pulled their Cherokee onto the grass and parked next
to her car and got out and walked toward her, dressed like trout fishermen,
smiling easily.
"Amos says you had a rough day
today," Jim said.
"Where've you been, you
sonofabitch?" she said.
"Let's don't have profanity. That's
not nice," Jim said.
"Somebody was following me,"
she said, trying to keep her voice from trembling.
"The road was empty. There's nobody
out there," he replied.
"I want a plane ticket to
Seattle," she said.
"I don't think that's in the cards
right now," Jim said.
"You do it for people in Witness
Protection all the time."
"We still got a lot of unfinished
work. A lot of work," he said, shaking his head profoundly.
"Amos said 'fuck it.' He told me I
did a good job."
"You shouldn't have boosted a post
office, kiddo," Jim said.
"I got to take a leak," the
other agent said.
As though she were not there, the two
agents walked down by the stream and pointed themselves into a Douglas fir tree
and urinated on the ground. She stared at their backs, listening to their
banter, realizing finally how absolutely insignificant she was.
Screw you, she thought, and got into
their Cherokee, started the engine, and made a U-turn, the driver's door
swinging back on its hinges. Their mouths hung open in disbelief as the
Cherokee roared down the road in the darkness.
Jim took a cell phone out of the pocket
of his windbreaker and punched in several numbers.
"A little problem here, boss
man," he said.
"What problem?" the voice of
Amos Rackley said.
"Pocahontas just hauled ass."
"So go after her."
"Can't do it, Amos. She took the
Cherokee and left us her shit machine. The one with no lights."
There was a pause.
"Have you visited Fargo in the
winter?" Rackley asked.
Jim clicked off the cell phone and set
it on the roof of Sue Lynn's car and propped his arms against the metal and
stared at the waning light on the ridgeline. The trees rustled in the wind and
he thought he smelled rain. He fished in his pocket and removed a cheese
sandwich he had wrapped in wax paper and handed half
of it to his friend just as a solitary raindrop struck the hood of the car.
He and the other agent got inside and
closed the doors and ate the sandwich, bored, irritated with themselves,
wondering if Amos was serious about Fargo.
High up on the ridge a man wearing
cowboy boots with sharply defined heels worked his way through the tree trunks
until he saw the stock car parked down below in the glade, the orange numerals
in bold relief against the gray primer on the door. He stuffed rubber plugs in
his ears and got down in a prone position and steadied a rifle on a collapsible
tripod in the softness of the pine needles, then pulled back the bolt and chambered
a round.
He sighted down the slope and waited,
working his jaw comfortably against the stock. The moon was up now and he could
see clearly into the glade. A shadow moved behind the steering wheel; a
cigarette lighter flared on a face. Perfect.
The shooter squeezed back the trigger
and burned the entire thirty-round magazine, swinging the barrel on the tripod,
the copper-jacketed .223 rounds pocking the door panels and the roof, gashing
the seats, blowing glass out of the dashboard, popping the horn button loose
like a tiddlywink.
When the breech locked open, the shooter
rose to his feet and removed the rubber plugs from his ears, dropping one into
the pine needles, and walked back down the opposite slope to his vehicle.
Down in the glade the driver's door of
Sue Lynn's car swung open and Jim fell out on
the grass, his mouth blooming with uneaten sandwich bread. He clawed his way up
the side of the car and found his cell phone where he had left it on the roof,
then collapsed on the ground again, his clothes soaked with blood, and pushed
the redial button.
But when Amos Rackley answered, Jim
realized that the sucking chest wound he tried to close with his hand had
stolen his voice. He lay on his back in the grass, one leg bent under him, and
used his fingernail to tap out a last message on the mouthpiece to Amos
Rackley.
Chapter
26
"You KNOW what he Morsed me? 'Sorry.' He
was sorry," Amos Rackley said.
It was the
next morning, and we were standing in front of Doc's porch. Rackley's face was
drained of color, his eyes smoldering.
"Sue Lynn Big Medicine hasn't been
here. I don't know where your vehicle is, either," I said.
"Is your son in his tent?"
"He took my truck to town. Leave
him alone, Mr. Rackley. He's not in this."
"He just porks her on a regular
basis when she's not getting federal agents killed?"
I looked at the fatigue and caffeinated
tension in his face and knew it was only a matter of time before the anger in
his eyes focused inward and Amos Rackley found himself locked up with his own
thoughts for many years.
"Come inside, sir," I said.
"What?"
"Have you eaten? I have some coffee
and pancakes on the stove."
He took a breath of air through his
nose, looking off into the distance, as though he were choosing between one of
several insults to hurl at me.
"I should have been with
them," he said.
"They were doing their job. Why not
give them credit for it?"
"I made a wisecrack to Jim about Fargo.
That's the last thing I said to him."
"It wasn't anybody's fault except
the bastards who did it. These are the guys you hang out to dry. Not yourself,
not a kid like Sue Lynn Big Medicine."
He rubbed his face with his hand. He had
shaved so closely there were pink scrape marks on his chin. He seemed to take
my measure as though he didn't know who I was.
"I'll take a raincheck on the
pancakes. Could I use your bathroom?" he said.
As Rackley drove
through the field behind Doc's he
passed Temple Carrol's Explorer. She parked in the yard and walked up on the
porch, her backpack full of research materials slung from one hand.
"That
guy looked like a fed," she said.
"He is. Two of his agents were
killed on the Flathead Reservation last night."
"The ones who rousted you?"
"Yeah, one of them, anyway."
"Who did it?"
"Probably one of Carl Hinkel's
people. Sue Lynn took the agents' vehicle and left
them stranded with her uncle's stock car. The shooter probably thought she was
inside."
Temple threw her backpack onto a chair
and went into the house and came back out with a cup of coffee in her hand.
"Where's Sue Lynn?" she asked.
"I don't know."
"I checked out the background of
Xavier and Holly Girard," she said.
"What for?"
"He's a writer and she's an
actress, but they keep showing up where they don't have any business. Each time
they have some innocuous explanation. Read this," she said, and handed me
a manila folder filled with fax sheets from a private investigator in Phoenix,
Arizona.
"By the way, Holly Girard didn't
meet Nicki Molinari out here. Their families both belonged to the same country
club in Scottsdale," she said.
I sat down and read through the sheets
in the folder.
"Her mother's maiden name was
Carruthers?" I said.
"You got it."
"Why is it I feel I've been
had?" I said.
"I couldn't guess," Temple
said.
We drove to the Girards' house above the Clark Fork but no one was home.
Then, because I was unconvinced of Xavier's sobriety, we tried the downtown
bars. We found him playing pinochle in the back of a workingman's place on
Front Street called Stockman's, a bottle of ginger ale by his elbow. He gave me
a tired look. "What is it now?" he asked.
"Not much, a discussion of assets,
family names, mining interests, that sort of thing," I said.
He grinned at the other players and
shrugged his shoulders, as though saying "What can I do?" We went out
the back door into the sunshine. A carousel was revolving on the riverbank, the
hand-carved wooden horses filled with children.
"Your wife is a member of the
family that owns the Phillips-Carruthers Corporation, the same guys who want to
destroy the Blackfoot River?" I said.
"You're talking about Holly's
mother, not Holly. Holly doesn't own anything," he replied, leaning
against an iron rail, looking off at the river.
"That's a little bit disingenuous,
don't you think?" I said.
"Hey, get out of our lives, Mr.
Holland." "You misled me. I think you've misled this community,
too."
"About what?" he said.
"Your wife has a vested interest in
seeing Doc hurt. By extension, so do you. That brings us right back to the rape
of Maisey Voss and the murder of Lamar Ellison," I said. "You're full
of shit."
But he looked like a wounded animal, the
hot glare in his eyes focusing on nothing, as if nothing in
his
range of vision would connect with the confused thoughts in his head. He had
managed to combine the roles of cuckold, novelist, flamboyant drunk, Hollywood
iconoclast, friend of the environment, confidant of gangsters, and object of
pity all in one persona. I wondered when the day would come when he stuck a
pistol into his mouth.
Temple and I started to walk away.
"If it's any of your business,
Holly and I are busting up," he said at my back.
"Why?" I said.
"She's getting it on with Molinari
again. I've had it," he replied.
But if he intended to elicit sympathy,
he failed with Temple. She walked to within a foot of his face.
"You're going on the stand, baby
cakes. Get used to it," she said.
Later, Maisey got into Doc's truck with a shopping list and headed down
the dirt road toward the main highway and the small, independent grocery store
in Bonner. As she approached the log bridge over the Blackfoot she saw a
low-slung red car in her rearview mirror. The bridge trembled under her as she
rumbled across the wood planks and a dust cloud blew out on the water and disappeared
in the current. When she swung out onto the highway she looked back briefly and
saw the red car again and this time she recognized Terry Witherspoon behind the
wheel.
He followed her all the way into Bonner,
through the quiet stretch of tree-shaded,
company-owned houses, past the sawmill and the piles of green lumber stacked
next to waiting train cars, past the normal world that most people lived in,
then around a bend in the road to the grocery store parking lot. She got out of
the truck and started inside, then went back and locked the door, even though
she left the window open.
Terry Witherspoon pulled in close to the
store entrance and was now waving at her, as though the only problem between
them was her failure to recognize who he was.
Then he got out of his car, smiling at
her above the top of the door.
"Didn't you see me back
there?" he said.
"Right," she said.
He was dressed in khaki slacks and
shined loafers and a gold and burgundy University of Montana sweater.
"I was coming up to your house when
you zoomed on past me," he said.
"You were hiding on the side
road."
"I wasn't," he said, crinkling
his nose under his glasses, waiting to see if she would refute the lie. When
she didn't she could see the vindication grow in his face. "Your father
attacked me in front of all those people at the concert. I took you home that
night when the football players were going to hurt you. I got in a lot of
trouble with Wyatt over that."
"You buried a woman alive. You're
disgusting. Get out of here," she said.
"You don't know what you're saying.
That Indian bitch caused all this."
"Caused what?" Maisey
said, then realized she had stepped into the trap of arguing with a person who
had probably never told the truth about anything in his life.
"She got those federal agents
killed. They're gonna blame Wyatt or me. Everything's coming apart. I had a lot
of plans," he said. Then he seemed to grow more passionate, more unjustly
injured, his eyes magnifying behind his glasses. "I bought a camera. I
want to take pictures of you. Down on the river."
The fact that he was speaking intimately
to her, as though she were part of his world, made her stomach turn. She rushed
inside the store and got a basket and pushed it down the aisle, trying to
concentrate on the list in her hand.
Out in the parking lot Terry Witherspoon
stood by Doc's truck, chewing on a hangnail, glaring at the traffic.
"Is everything all right,
miss?" the butcher said. He was an Indian, wrapped around the middle with
a red-stained apron.
"Yes. Fine," she replied.
"You know that fellow out
there?" he asked.
"Not really."
"He was in here once before. That's
why he's not in here now. You let me know if he bothers you," the butcher
said.
Fifteen minutes later she wheeled her
basket loaded with sacked groceries back into the parking
lot.
Terry Witherspoon was waiting for her, tossing his head to clear a strand of
hair from his glasses.
"When I saw you through the window,
in the shower that night, you were as beautiful as a movie star," he said.
When she didn't answer he started to lift one of the sacks from the basket.
"Don't touch that," she said.
"I want to help you."
"Don't put your hands on our food.
Get away from my basket."
The wind blew his hair across his
glasses. He continued to stare at her as though he could not assimilate what he
was being told. Then he said, "Shit on you."
She loaded her groceries into the bed of the pickup, trying to ignore the
closeness of his body and the smell of deodorant that rose from his clothes.
She got into the truck and started the engine,
but Witherspoon remained standing by her window.
"I can't see the street," she
said.
"I should have let Wyatt bust you.
You're just a little whore. That's why you were hanging out in that bar. You
wanted more of what Lamar and the others gave you. Lamar said you gave good
head."
She ground the transmission and tried to
swing out on the street, but the guards were up at the train crossing and
traffic had backed up across the entrance to the parking lot.
Witherspoon got behind her and began
blowing his horn and smashing his bumper against hers, much harder than she thought
a low-centered car would be able to do. Then she realized pieces
of pipe were overwelded, like gridwork or a battering ram, on the front of his
car. Witherspoon snugged the bumper against the rear of the truck and slowly
accelerated and starting pushing her into the street. His back tires burned
black strips on the asphalt and spun circles of smoke under the fenders, but
the truck was wobbling on the frame now, the back wheels losing purchase,
Maisey's foot slipping on the brake. All the while Witherspoon kept his palm
clamped down on his horn button.
Even if she made it out into the traffic
without being hit she knew he would follow her all the way home, tailgating and
cutting her off, trying to force her into the path of oncoming traffic.
Go inside and get the butcher, she thought.
Like hell.
She pulled into the street, glancing
once in her rearview mirror. Witherspoon was looking right and left, waiting
for an opportunity to floor the accelerator after her. He never realized the
seriousness of his presumption until it was too late.
Maisey hit the brakes, shifted into
reverse, and mashed on the gas pedal. The trailer hitch on the truck speared
through the pipework on Wither-spoon's grille, gashing the radiator open, tearing
the fan so metal screamed against metal. She straightened the truck, then
floorboarded into him again, this time crumpling a fender down on a tire,
shattering the headlights, knocking his forehead into the windshield.
When she shifted back into first gear,
the low-slung red car that belonged to Wyatt Dixon was bleeding green pools of
antifreeze onto the asphalt, spokes of steam whistling from under the hood. An
elderly woman with Coke-bottle glasses pulled in behind Witherspoon and began
blowing her horn for him to get out of the way.
The next morning
the sheriff called and asked me to drop by his office.
"The two ATF agents were killed by
.223 rounds, all fired from the same rifle, probably an M-16. The spent casings
were all clean," he said.
The sheriff was sitting behind his desk,
his Stetson pushed up on the back of his head, his suit coat on, fiddling with
his hands as he talked, as though he were concentrating more on his own
thoughts than on his listener.
"Amos Rackley told you this?"
I asked.
"The Flathead Reservation has
patches of privately owned land on it. The ridge where the shooter was? It's
owned by a white man. The government can't keep me out of this one," the
sheriff said.
"I don't understand why you called
me."
"The shooter dropped one of his ear
plugs. He left a thumbprint on it. You know a guy named Clayton Stark?"
"No," I said.
"He don't have a record here, but
three years ago he was picked up for questioning in a child abduction case in
Pocatello. Does that ring any bells for you?"
"A pedophile was arrested in Carl
Hinkel's yard five years ago," I replied.
"That's right. Your son's
girlfriend, this gal Sue Lynn Big Medicine? Her little brother was abducted and
killed, wasn't he?"
"How'd you know that?"
"I get paid to do my damn homework,
son. You see a pattern here on this pedophilia stuff?"
"Yeah, but I don't know what it
is."
"Neither do I," the sheriff
said. He got up from his desk and began fumbling around in a closet.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"There's a bull trout under the
Higgins Street Bridge that daily gives me a lesson in humility," he said,
lifting a rod and reel from behind a raincoat. "Take a walk with me. I want
to tell you a story."
The PREVIOUS day the
sheriff had been visiting a cemetery on the north side, a lovely, tree-shaded
area on a knoll where the town's oldest families were buried. He saw Cleo
Lonnigan sitting on a bench by her son's grave, leaning over, setting stem
roses in a row by the headstone. She was talking to herself and did not hear
the sheriff when he walked up behind her.
"You want company?" he asked.
"It's his birthday," she said.
"Oh," he said, nodding.
"On his birthday I make a wish for
each year of his life that he would have had, then put roses on his
grave," she said.
The sheriff sat beside her on the bench.
It was made of stone and felt cold and hard under his legs. "I worry about
you, Cleo."
"Why is that, J.T?"
He looked down the slope, through the
trees, at a maroon Cadillac convertible that was parked in the drive with the
top up. The Cadillac had been waxed and hand-buffed with soft rags and the
reflection of the leaves overhead seemed trapped inside the paint.
"You're here with Nicki
Molinari?" the sheriff asked.
"We've let bygones be
bygones." "I have a hard time accepting a statement like that."
She rose from the bench. It was cool in
the shade and she wore a silk scarf tied under her chin.
"I don't ask you to, J.T.,"
she replied, and walked down the slope toward Nicki Molinari's car. The wind
blew the roses into crossed patterns on top of her son's grave.
"She's one I can't read, Sheriff," I said.
"It's not hard. Her husband's
crooked money got her little boy killed. Cleo says she didn't know where that
money come from. When people got more than they're supposed to have, they always
know where it comes from. So she's got to get up every morning, denying to herself
that little boy's death is not on her. How'd you like to carry a burden like
that?"
We were in the shadow of the Higgins
Bridge now, and the sheriff had managed to fling
his lure into a willow tree.
"Why'd you tell me about Cleo and
Molinari?" I asked.
"It's just a warning. She'd like to
see you hung from a meat hook."
"You can sure put it in a memorable
way, sir," I said, and started to leave. "By the way, how is it
you're so close to Cleo?"
"My son's in that same cemetery. He
was killed in Desert Storm. That was rich men fighting over oil, Mr. Holland.
My boy was too young to enlist on his own. So I signed the papers for
him."
He began jerking his lure to free it
from the tree, until the line broke in his big hand.
I BOUGHT
avocado and creamed cheese sandwiches and frozen yogurt and cold drinks at a
grocery by the university and put it all in an ice chest and picked up Temple
at her motel. We drove through Hellgate Canyon, east of town, and out toward
Rock Creek to eat lunch. I told Temple about the sheriff's encounter with Cleo
Lonnigan in the cemetery. I thought I could simply mention it casually and get
it out of the way and not call up unpleasant memories about past relationships.
That's what I thought.
"What's God's gift to the Res up to?" Temple said.
"Taking Molinari over the hurdles.
He's out of his depth," I said.
"Maybe it's the other way around.
Xavier Girard says Molinari is in the sack with his wife. But maybe
our
girl is asexual or a lesbian and doesn't care. What's your opinion?"
"I don't have one," I said.
"A little sensitive, are we?"
"No, I just wish I hadn't brought
this up," I said.
There was no sound in the truck except
the hum of the tires on the asphalt. We were in a long valley now and the hills
rose up steep and green against the sky. When I turned off the interstate I
passed a restaurant made of logs and entered another valley, this one traversed
by a wide, pebble-bottomed stream that flowed out of the south, with both
meadowland and high, wooded, sharp-peaked mountains on each side.
I drove two miles along the stream, past
fishermen up to their waists in the riffles, and did not try to say anything
else to Temple. But I could feel her looking at the side of my face.
"You're just going to turn to stone
on me?" she said.
"No, I gave up."
"Pardon?"
"I'm tired of sackcloth and
ashes," I said.
"You're saying I'm too heavy a
burden to deal with?"
Farther up the road was a deep-green
piney woods and a rusty turnstile that allowed fishermen to enter the woods on
their way to the stream without letting cattle out on the road. Temple waited
for me to answer her.
"You know how I feel about you. But
you're unrelenting and unforgiving," I said.
She sat very still for a long time, her
milky-green eyes filled with thoughts I couldn't guess at. She turned her head
and studied my face.
"I don't know how much more of this
I can take," she said.
"You want to go back to
Texas?"
"After I nail the two guys who
tried to bury me alive."
"That's the only reason you're here
now?"
"That's a good question. Let me
think very hard on it," she said, her mouth pinched with anger.
I pulled off the road into a stand of
grand fir and pine trees and parked in a dry slough that fed into the stream.
My head was splitting. I wanted to turn around and drive back to town, but
Temple had already gotten out of the truck and slammed the door and walked through
a clump of huckleberry bushes to the edge of the stream. The wind dropped and I
could hear the heat of the truck engine ticking under
the
hood.
I got the food and a picnic blanket out
of the truck and walked down the slough toward the bank. Through the trees I
could see a huge dalles and the stream sliding over sculpted boulders the size
of small blimps. The air was loud with the roar of the water, sweet and cool
with the spray that coated the rocks.
I tripped on a root and looked down at a
fresh, hoofed track in the slough, one as long as my foot. To my right the
reeds and huckleberry bushes had been broken or mashed down into the moistness
of the silt and gravel along the bank.
I set down our food and followed the
hoofed tracks through the reeds. I worked my way through an overhang of willows
and stepped across a cotton-wood that beavers had cut down, then I saw the
moose on a small promontory above Temple, its webbed rack the largest I had
ever seen on an animal of any kind, its nostrils puffing with her scent.
She was standing on a sand spit, her
hands in her back pockets, looking upstream, and she neither heard nor saw the
animal behind her. I moved quickly along the bank, and the moose jerked its
rack around, its eyes on me now, its weight shifting on the promontory, dirt
scudding down into the water from its hooves.
Then I heard it whirl and turn in the
undergrowth and I knew it was coming for either me or Temple.
I ran along the water's edge, yelling
Temple's name. She looked at me, startled, then her face went white. I picked
her up at the waist, locking my arms around her, and splashed into a side
channel and came up onto an island. But the moose was right behind us, its
hooves clacking across underwater rocks, its rack cracking a cottonwood limb in
half like a twig.
I stumbled and fell, then rose to my
feet and picked up Temple again and went over the other side of the island into
the stream, into deep water and a fast-running, ice-cold current that swept us
through a series of gray boulders that steamed with mist.
We floated around a bend, under an
overhang of willows, into a pool that was deep in shadow. I felt
the
pebbled bottom under my shoes, and I pulled Temple toward me out of the current
and we walked chest-deep toward the far bank, behind the protection of a beaver
dam. But the bank had been undercut by the current so that it kept shaling
under my weight as I tried to get out of the water. I grabbed the bottom of a
willow and pulled myself up until I could find purchase with one knee, then I
locked my hand on Temple's wrist and hoisted her up after me.
I heard the moose's hooves clatter once
more on stone, then saw it lift itself, wet and blowing and magnificent, onto
the opposite bank and disappear into the trees. Temple and I fell into the
leaves, and I held her against me and kissed her face and hair and neck and
covered her with my body and felt the firm muscles of her back and legs and
gathered her against me with such force that I could hear the breath coming out
of her chest. Her cheek felt as hot as a baby's waking from sleep.
I kissed her hands and mouth and the
tops of her breasts and I unbuttoned her shirt and kissed her stomach and
touched her breasts and thighs without permission or shame, then felt her hand
begin loosening my belt. She peeled off her shirt and bra and threw them aside
and put her tongue in my mouth and pulled my weight down on top of her. I
rubbed my face in the wetness of her hair and kissed her eyes and sucked her
fingers and put her nipples in my mouth, then I was inside her, inside Temple
Carrol, inside all her pink warmth and the caress and charity and heat of her
thighs. Her mouth opened and her breath rose
against my skin with a smell and coolness like flowers blooming in snow, and
she pressed me deeper inside her and held me tight with her arms and locked her
legs in mine.
I wanted to raise up on my arms and kiss
her again and look into the flush on her face and the mystery and beauty of her
eyes, but I felt both of us rushing toward that irreversible moment that even
memory cannot enhance, and I held her against me, my voice hoarse and weak and
barely above a whisper, my poor attempt at a statement of affection lost in the
roar of the stream and the creak of the wind in the trees and the rhythmic
breath of Temple Carrol in my ear and the kneading of her palms on my spine.
Then I felt a burst of light in my loins and a release from all the rage and
violence that had fouled my blood for a lifetime. There was only the beating of
her heart and the moist touch of her skin and the softness of her smile as I
slipped out of her, exhausted and spent, and rested my head between her breasts
while her fingers stroked my hair.
Chapter
27
Thursday morning I drove down to Stevens-ville, then east of town
toward the Sapphires and Nicki Molinari's ranch. It was raining in the south
and dust was blowing out of the valley, and in the distance there were veins of
lightning inside the dust and rain. When I turned into Molinari's drive his man
Frank was trying to catch up a horse that was eating the petunias in the flower
bed.
He ran at the
horse with a rope, then threw dirt clods at it. He tried to whip it across the
flanks with a fishing rod and instead tripped over the garden hose and was
almost kicked in the face.
Nicki Molinari came out of the barn,
waving his hands.
"Frank, Frank, wrong way to go
about it," he said.
"He ate all your flowers,"
Frank said.
"We'll get some new ones. Look,
give him these molasses balls. See, let him eat them out of your palm so he
don't bite your fingers," Molinari said.
"He went to the bathroom all over
the walk," Frank said.
"I'll hose it off. I'm gonna talk
to my guest now. You did fine, Frank," Molinari said.
He watched Frank walk into the barn with
the horse following behind him.
"You want a job in personnel
management?" he asked.
"I hear you got over your
objections to Cleo Lonnigan."
"What, you think she's working my
joint or something?"
"It occurred to me," I said.
"Well, you thought right. It would
be the smart move. Cleo gives me my money, I remodel your bone structure.
Except the truth is I like you. Don't ask me why."
"What's the angle with Cleo?"
"Horizontal. It's the nature of the
world, Counselor."
I looked away at his neighbor's
property. There was a small white church by the road, and the neighbor was up
on the roof, hammering down shingles. I looked back at Molinari. For some
reason his face seemed different, the eyes sunken, the skeletal outline of his
skull just below the skin.
"What are you staring at?" he
asked.
"I think you're going to come to a
bad end."
"You're a fortune-teller or
something?" he said, and tried to grin. "Hey, Counselor, you need to
get that look off your face."
"It's the way you use people. I
think it's about to come back on you."
"I'm in a good mood here. But
you're using up my patience."
"You're a victim, Nicki. You just
don't know it."
"I'm a victim?"
"She's a physician. You're a
graduate of Terminal Island. Who do you think is going to win all the
marbles?"
"Frank, get out here!" he
yelled at the barn.
I DROVE BACK
to Missoula and parked at Temple's motel, and we took a walk down by the river
and she put her hand in mine. The current in the river looked fast and green
and coppery in the late-afternoon sunlight, and rafters were floating under the
walk bridge that led to the university, splashing foam into the air with their
oars. I told Temple about my visit with Nicki Molinari and felt her release my
hand.
"Cleo Lonnigan again. What's this
guy got that she wants?" she said.
"I'm not sure."
"Why'd you call Molinari a
victim?"
I looked out at the rafters rolling and
spinning through the riffle and wished I had not gotten into
the subject.
"I smelled an odor I'd almost
forgotten. At first I thought it was on the wind. Soldiers talk about it,"
I said.
"I don't know if I want to hear
this," Temple said.
"I stuck playing cards in the
mouths of dead people, Temple. I couldn't wash their smell off my hand. Like
they'd breathed something on my skin. I smelled it on Molinari. I didn't
imagine it."
"I'm not going to listen to this.
No, no, not today. See you in the ice cream store," she said, walking
ahead of me, shaking her hands in the air, smiling giddily at people passing in
the opposite direction.
The next morning the phone rang in Doc's living room. Maisey
answered it, then handed the receiver to me.
"That little puke Terry Witherspoon
just left the department. He's filing a hit-and-run charge against Maisey
Voss," the sheriff said.
"What are you going to do?"
"She deliberately smashed in the
front of Wyatt Dixon's car."
"Witherspoon started it. She should
have run over him," I said.
"I can't believe you're an
attorney."
I waited in the silence. Then I said,
"Did you call here for another reason?"
I heard him exhale against the phone
receiver. "I drove out to Cleo Lonnigan's yesterday. She told me this ATF
agent, this guy Rackley, was out to see her last week. Rackley says her son and
husband were probably killed by outlaw bikers."
"How do you know he actually said
this?"
"I called him up. He says Lamar
Ellison may have been mixed up in it."
"Why are you telling me this?"
I asked.
"Because maybe Cleo was right all
along and I was saying otherwise. Because maybe other individuals had reason to
set Lamar Ellison on fire."
"Did you tell that to the district
attorney?"
"None of your business," he
said.
"You're a good man, Sheriff."
"Tell my old woman that. Have you
seen Sue Lynn Big Medicine?"
"No, sir."
"Where's your son?"
After a beat, I said, "I couldn't
say right offhand."
"That's what I thought," the
sheriff said. The line went dead.
I walked into the kitchen, where Doc was
washing out three gutted rainbows in the sink and rinsing the rubber liner of
his creel.
"Why would Nicki Molinari insist
West Coast wiseguys killed Cleo's husband and son if somebody else did
it?" I asked.
"People are scared of the Mob. He
wants to hold a threat over her head without seeming to be involved."
The clarity of Doc's reply made me
wonder about the depth and adequacy of my own thought processes.
Terry Witherspoon did not have memories, not in the ordinary
sense. The high school he attended had been a place he went in the morning and
left in the afternoon, neither better nor worse for the experience. He learned
that reticence ensured he would not be bothered
by others; in fact, reticence in school was a way to purchase virtual
invisibility. If pressed in a difficult situation, he just grinned at the
corner of his mouth and flipped his hair out of his face and let others wonder
what was on his mind.
Teachers pretended to believe in the
importance of what they taught, art and history, save the Earth, respect your
fellowman, but they shopped at Wal-Mart like everybody else, while their
neighbors' businesses went under. His classmates sang in church on Sundays and
Wednesday nights but somehow the girls got pregnant anyway. He wondered why
they all spent so much time convincing themselves they were somebody else.
When he was a junior in high school his
father, who fixed bicycles and sharpened lawn mowers, was seventy-two and his
mother sixty. The three of them lived in a small house at the end of an alley,
behind a loan agency, and did not own a car. Across the street was an empty lot
where black people planted gardens in the spring. Terry's mother often cleaned
houses with black people and made friends with them and worked alongside them
in their gardens. When she came home at night, sometimes with a paper bag full
of vegetables, she smelled of sweat and the dirt in her clothes. In fact, she
smelled just like the black people she worked with.
A little girl broke her tooth on a BB
that was inside a watermelon picked from the field. Terry was caught on the
loan agency's rooftop a week later, air rifle in hand.
Aside from his two-beer visit to the VFW
hall every Saturday afternoon, Terry's father spent most of his waking hours in
his shed, which was hung with bicycle frames and wheels and narrow tires. He
seldom wore his false teeth and his cheeks were collapsed inward on his
jawbones so that his expression was wizened and severe, although in reality he
appeared to have no emotions at all.
The night of the junior prom Terry went
into the shed to tell his father supper was ready.
"What's your name again?" the
father said.
"My name? I'm Terry."
"Where's my son? He's supposed to
help me."
"I'm your son."
The father studied Terry's face.
"Yeah, I can see the resemblance to your mother. Her people always had
that pallor. Like they was shut up in a root cellar," he said.
Terry put on the new suit he had bought
with the money he had earned at the grocery and walked to the junior prom and
convinced himself he really didn't care about the prom one way or another; he
was just going there to watch the jocks and snarfs and frumps and socials and
sluts with their pushed-up boobs jerk each other around. He stood by himself
for most of the dance, creating the illusion of activity, taking a smoke
outside, walking down the emptiness of the corridor to the boys' rest room,
constantly fixing his glasses on his nose, lifting the corner of his mouth in
an expression that could be interpreted as either disapproval or interest.
Then he asked a girl to dance. Her
father was a Mason and real estate broker who sold lakefront lots in the
mountains to people from the North, and the family lived in a two-story brick
house with a gazebo on the lawn, on a hill above the town. She was plump across
the middle and chubby under the chin, but she looked cute with her Dutch-boy
haircut, and she had always spoken to him in the halls, unlike most of the
girls whose families had money.
"I'd love to dance, Terry,"
she said, then leaned close to his ear, her breath husky and cold and scented
with raspberry from the wine coolers the jocks had been handing out in the
parking lot. "I have to go to the bathroom. I'll be right back."
The girl walked with two of her friends down
the corridor, the three of them looking back at him briefly and giggling. He
went out the side exit and lit a cigarette in the shrubbery and looked up at
the moon. Then he realized the window to the girls' rest room was right behind
him, the top portion of the glass pulled down for ventilation.
"Did you check that suit? Neon blue
with white socks. He must have gotten it at a black funeral home," the
plump girl said.
"Don't knock those socks, Jenny.
They match his dandruff," another girl said, and the three of them howled.
He stood a long time in the shadows, his
cheeks tingling, the blood singing in his ears. Then he walked down the empty
street, back into his own neighborhood, the music from the dance fading
behind
him. The sodium street lamps glowed like a gray vapor on the clapboard houses,
the outdated cars, and the vegetable gardens that people grew out of necessity,
not choice. He walked past his house on the alley where his parents were
watching television, out to the lounge on the highway, where the vinyl
upholstery was red and black and the bartender was built like a steroid addict
and wore gold earrings and black leather, and the traveling salesmen stayed
late.
The man who picked him up at the bar
said he was from Raleigh but he had a Yankee accent.
"If I could buy you the best thing
in the world, what would it be?" the man asked.
"Buster Bars at the Dairy Queen. I
ate twelve of them once," Terry said.
"You're still all boy, aren't
you?" the man said, and touched his hair in the car.
At the motel Terry ate the Buster Bars
out of a paper bag, taking his time, enjoying each bite while the man tried to
suppress the discomfiture his desire was causing him.
"There's a refrigerator over here.
You can save some of them for later," the man said. "I'll think about
it," Terry said. When they made love Terry realized for the first time in
his life the power a female, or one taking her role, could exercise over a man.
Later, the man showered and dressed and
began talking about a trip he was taking to Hollywood with his son, who went to
a private college in Massachusetts. A neon sign glowed through the curtain and
gave
a peculiar purple hue and shape to the man's mouth, like a distorted flower.
Terry could not remove his stare from the man's mouth and the way it moved
against the pallor of his skin. He found himself becoming angrier and angrier,
although he didn't know why.
"Why don't you stop talking? Why
don't you shut up about your son?" Terry said.
"Beg your pardon?" the man
said, turning from the mirror where he was knotting his necktie. When Terry
didn't reply the man grinned in the mirror and continued knotting his tie.
"I'd like to call you when I'm in town again. This evening was special for
me, Terry. You make me feel young."
Terry felt a rage like someone kicking
open the door to a furnace next to his skin. He drove the man's head down on
the toilet bowl and smashed his mouth again and again on the rim until the
porcelain was striped with red from the top of the bowl to the waterline. Then
he emptied the man's wallet and ripped his watch off his wrist and his class
ring off his finger and shook the wallet's contents into the toilet bowl and
dropped the wallet in on top of them.
"There's still a Buster Bar in the
fridge," he said, and jiggled with laughter.
Nine months in the state reformatory, then one day after his eighteenth
birthday he was discharged and his records sealed. Not a bad deal. He got a GED
inside and learned how to make prune-o, hot-wire a
car,
cook down diet pills and shoot them up with an eyedropper, and dive Dumpsters
for people's credit card and phone and bank account numbers.
But the revelatory event that would
change his life came about by pure accident.
He wandered into a gun show at the high
school gym. The building was packed with hunters, collectors, Civil War
enthusiasts, competition shooters, people Terry had never taken seriously and
did not take seriously now. But at one display table was a group of four men
who were different from everyone else in the room. Their bodies had the
hardness of professional soldiers, and they wore neatly trimmed goatees and
black T-shirts and their arms were scrolled from the shoulder to the wrist with
intricate tattoos. They grinned at the people drifting up and down the aisle,
but there was no mistaking the black electricity in their eyes, the dried
testosterone in their clothes, the invasive look that made other people swallow
involuntarily.
Their table was spread with Lugers and
Nazi memorabilia. Terry picked up a pamphlet with a headline about a Zionist
Occupational Government.
"What's a Zionist?" Terry
asked.
One of the men pushed a chair toward him
with his foot. "Have a seat, kid," he said, then rested his arm
across Terry's shoulders.
The man's arm felt heavy and thick
across the back of Terry's neck, a sensual heat and power transferring from the
man's body to his. When Terry glanced out at the people in the aisle, their eyes
quickly
turned away. Terry felt his loins tingle like a swarm of bees.
It WAS dusk at the
compound now, the river streaked with the last gold light of the day, the air
cool and smelling of cut hay and Carl's prize Angus, which were drinking in the
slough.
But it wasn't a good evening for Terry.
Wyatt was still mad about Maisey Voss destroying the front of his car and had
told him if he wanted to go anywhere, he could walk or hitchhike, because
neither Wyatt nor Carl would give him a vehicle to drive.
Now Wyatt and Carl had gone to the
drive-in movie in Missoula and left Terry to his own devices. Terry walked
along the riverbank to the campground upstream from the compound and baited his
hand line with a piece of corn and cheese and threw it into an eddy behind a
rotted cottonwood. The mountains on the western rim of the valley were purple
with shadow, lighted only on the high crests where the snow had not melted.
He heard a car door open and feet
crunching on the silt and pebbles behind him, then he turned and stared into
the face of the biggest man he had ever seen.
"Walk up there and get in the trunk
of the car," the man said. The voice was flat, mechanical, clotted with
rust.
"Fuck that," Terry said.
The man slapped Terry on the ear, so
hard Terry thought the drum was broken. He jerked Terry's line
from
his hand and threw it into the river, and, by his belt, dragged him stumbling
up the embankment and pushed him headlong into the trunk of a small car and
slammed down the hatch.
A half hour later Terry was sitting in a
heavy wooden chair inside a batting cage, his wrists roped to the chair,
staring at an automatic pitching machine loaded with scuffed baseballs. The
cage was located inside a closed barn, and motes of dust and wisps of hay
floated in the haze of the electric lights that ran the length of the horse
stalls.
The man who had kidnapped him had not
spoken a word since removing him from the car trunk.
"You work for that doctor? Is this
over Maisey?" Terry said.
But the man did not answer.
A side door opened and a man in a cutoff
baseball jersey and blue jeans that were new and stiff from the box stepped
inside the barn. His hair was black and combed, his skin olive-toned, his eyes
brown like a deer's.
He leaned over in the shadows and picked
up a remote-control button that was attached to the pitching machine.
"You did a one-bit in North
Carolina?" the man said.
Terry ran the tip of his tongue along
his lips. Don't give a smart answer, he thought.
"Not exactly. I was in the
reformatory. I bashed a fudge packer who came on to me," Terry said.
"I can respect that. Now, all you
got to do is tell me and Frank the truth about a couple
of things, and we'll take you home. This machine pitches up to seventy miles an
hour. You getting the picture on this?"
"No," Terry said, then
realized he'd just given the wrong answer.
The man's right thumb moved and the
mechanical arm of the pitching machine fired a ball into Terry's chest, then
reset itself for another pitch. Terry felt as if someone had driven an auger
into his breastbone.
"I know, it hurts. I been hit by
it," the man said.
"You're Nicki Molinari," Terry
said.
"What's in a name?" Molinari
said.
Terry started to reply, but Molinari
held a finger up for him to be quiet.
"Two years ago, on July Fourth, a
man and a little boy were killed on the Clearwater National Forest. Who you
think did that?" Molinari said.
"How am I supposed to know?"
The machine clanked and Terry leaned sideways, straining against the chair, but
the ball caught him on the collarbone. He tried to eat his pain, but he
couldn't bite down on the groan that welled out of his chest.
"Was it Lamar Ellison?"
Molinari asked.
"Lamar? He was a snitch for
the ATF."
"So?" Molinari said.
Terry knew he needed to provide an
answer, but he couldn't think, couldn't sort out all the wise remarks and
insults that he had always carried around like a sheaf of arrows.
"Ask Wyatt. He celled with
Lamar," he said, and realized how afraid he actually was.
"The rodeo clown? You think I go to
clowns for my information? That's what you're telling me?" Molinari said.
"No."
"You think anybody's-fuck from a
state reformatory can lie and call me stupid on my own property, in front of a
business associate, and just walk out of here?"
Terry was drowning in Molinari's words.
"I was fishing. I turn around and a
guy who looks like Frankenstein locks me in his car trunk. I don't deserve
this."
"I don't think you should call
Frank names, kid. You want to apologize to Frank for that?" Molinari
said.
Terry hung his head and shut his eyes
and waited for another ball to hit him. But nothing happened.
"I'm gonna fix a sandwich. Then
I'll be back. Search your memory about that deal on the Clearwater National
Forest," Molinari said, and went out the side door of the barn.
It was quiet a long time, then Frank
stood up from the sawhorse he had been sitting on and folded his huge palm
around the trigger for the pitching machine. Terry remembered thinking his jaws
looked like dirty sandpaper, his recessed eyes like those of a man whose moment
had come.
A HALF HOUR
LATER the side door opened again and
Molinari entered the batting cage and reached down
out of a red haze and lifted Terry's chin with one knuckle.
"You gonna make it?" he asked.
Terry's face felt as if it had been
stung all over by hornets.
"Wyatt's gonna—" he began.
"The clown again?" Molinari
said.
"Wyatt—" Terry said, but could
not clear the blood from his mouth to speak.
Molinari looked at Frank, who shook his
head negatively. Molinari chewed on the ball of his thumb and gazed
thoughtfully into the shadows, then spit a piece of skin off his tongue.
"Spread some raincoats on the car
seat and get him out of here," he said.
"He called you a dago and
greaseball," Frank said.
"I've answered to worse. Call Phoenix
and L.A. and tell them I want everything they got on this militia guy,
what's-his-name, Hinkel."
He picked up a baseball that had rolled
out on the floor and tossed it into an apple basket.
"This valley used to be a nice
place. Now we got half the riffraff in the United States moving here," he
said.
Just before 11 P.M. that night, at the
end of what had probably been the longest day of Terry Witherspoon's life, he
was stopped by a Ravalli County sheriff's deputy only two hundred yards from
the entrance to Carl Hinkel's compound. The moon was high and yellow over the
mountains, the upside-down American flag popping on the metal pole in Carl's
yard.
Terry was almost home free. Don't wise
off, he told himself. Turn into an ice cube. Tell him you fell off a truck. Let
Wyatt deal with Molinari.
In minutes Terry had forgotten all his
resolutions and was cuffed and in the backseat of the cruiser and on his way to
the county jail.
Chapter
28
The next day was Saturday. A turnkey walked me down to the holding cell where
Terry Wither-spoon had spent the night.
"Have
you been spit on lately?" he asked. "Can't say that I have," I
replied. "Don't stand too close to the bars." The turnkey walked back
down the corridor and sat at a small table and picked up a newspaper.
The cell was splattered with food from a
serving tray that Terry had thrown against the wall. He stood under a barred
window, wrinkling his nose under his glasses.
"What are you doing here?" he
asked.
"The sheriff in Missoula told me you were in the slams. I thought
I'd drop by for a chat," I said.
"I
should be in a hospital. They put me in jail."
"You stuck your finger in a deputy
sheriff's eye?"
"It was an accident. He grabbed my
arm. It hurt."
Then I watched a phenomenon to which I
had never seen the exception in dealing with sociopathic behavior.
Terry threw a temper tantrum, his voice hissing with spleen. He was the victim,
not others. It was he who had been wronged by the world, the fates, the cosmos,
maybe even by his own genes. It was my obligation to be an attentive and
sympathetic listener. Never mind the fact he had buried a friend of mine alive.
Nothing was of consequence to him except his own pain and the unfairness with
which he had been treated by a pair of greaseball humps like Molinari and Frank
and now a bunch of Montana hillbillies with badges they probably got out of
cereal boxes.
"I might watch what I said to these
guys, Terry."
"Why?" he asked. "They
don't like you."
Then, as though I were supposed to fix
the situation for him, he said, "Wyatt and Carl aren't home. I got a
five-hundred bond. Somebody's got to go a bond for me."
"You think Wyatt Dixon gives a shit
what happens to you?" I asked.
He pushed up his glasses and looked at
me, uncomprehending.
"He might get around to going your
bond but he's not going to take on Nicki Molinari. Nicki's a made guy, Terry, a
genuine Sicilian badass. You think Wyatt wants to get into it with the Mob
because you got hit with some baseballs?"
"Wyatt's my friend."
"Could be," I said, and leaned
on one arm against the cell
door and looked down the corridor at the turnkey, who was reading the paper.
"Somebody
needs to take the weight for those dead ATF agents. The real shooter is
probably up in Canada now. Think about it, Terry. Who's the most likely
candidate in your bunch? Somebody who wanted to do Sue Lynn and didn't know the
agents were sitting in her car? Somebody who never had a job except as a box
boy?"
Then he
did something I didn't expect. He walked toward the cell door and gripped the
bars loosely with his palms, his weight on one foot, his hip cocked at an
angle. He pursed his lips, as though he had reached a conclusion that would
affect both of us. His eyes were strangely serene, the way dark water is,
devoid of all light and moral conflict and perhaps, at least in that moment,
any fear of mortality.
When he
spoke his voice was suddenly feminine. A smile played around his mouth.
"Maybe
you're right. Maybe I'm at the point I don't have any more to lose. Say hello
to Maisey for me. You can do that for me, can't you?" he said. His breath
touched my skin like vapor off dry ice.
That evening I took Temple to an Italian restaurant on Higgins called
Zimorino's Red Pies Over Montana. The tables and bar were crowded with tourists
and people from the university. In the back of the room, wearing a suit and
tie, I saw Amos Rackley eating by himself.
"You
feel sorry for him?" Temple said.
"Yeah,
I guess."
"If
Lamar Ellison was a snitch and the feds knew he killed Cleo Lonnigan's child,
our man there deserves whatever pangs of conscience he has."
"Maybe."
"No
maybe about it," Temple said.
I started
to say something else, but let it go.
In the
middle of our dinner a shout went up from the bar. On the screen of the TV
attached high up on the wall was the face of Xavier Girard.
"That
guy's on CNN?" Temple said.
"Looks like it," I said, and continued to eat.
But
Temple's attention remained fixed on the TV screen, where Xavier was promoting
his new book and being interviewed by the best-known talk-show host in the
industry.
"Girard's
talking about Nicki Molinari," Temple said.
I got up
from the table and walked to the bar. Xavier had set aside a copy of his new
book and was now expounding on his work in progress.
"Nicki
is right out of Elizabethan theater," he said. "He volunteered for
the Army and Vietnam to get away from his father. But he ended up in a
godforsaken outpost in Laos, surrounded by oceans of poppy fields. He escaped
out of a Pathet Lao prison camp by shoving his best friend off a helicopter
skid at five hundred feet. He's a tormented human being, Larry. I like him, so
does my wife, a little too much, to tell you the truth, but I've never
underestimated his potential for violence."
The talk-show host propped his chin on
his thumb and smiled slightly.
"You sure you want to be saying all
this?" he asked.
"Oh, Nicki's become one of the
family, so to speak. He put up a big chunk of money for my wife's new
picture."
"I hear you're separating,"
the host said.
"Yeah, who'd believe it?"
Xavier said, and laughed and looked knowingly at the camera.
I went back to the table and sat down.
"I wonder if Molinari watches much
television," I said.
Later, we went to a movie in the
refurbished vaudeville theater by the river. When we came out the sun had gone
down and the moon had risen like a yellow planet over the Bitterroots. We
walked down an outside flight of iron stairs to a parking area under the
Higgins Street Bridge. There was a supper club below the movie theater, and the
wide glass doors were open and an orchestra was playing dance music.
"You want to go inside?"
Temple said.
"No," I said.
"Why not?" she asked.
"Because right here is good
enough."
I put one arm around her waist and
lifted her right hand in mine, but she dropped my hand and put both arms around
my neck and we danced in the parking lot, under the great dome of heaven
itself, surrounded by mountains that had changed little since the Earth was
new, in a breeze that smelled of the river and all
the
trees and flowers that grew along it, to music that had been composed sixty
years ago by Benny Goodman. An audience of college kids watched us from the
bridge overhead and applauded when the song ended.
Maybe the Earth is better or more
beautiful and life more wonderful in another place than it was at that moment.
But I seriously doubt it.
Lucas did not return that night from his job at the
Milltown Bar. Just before dawn I heard a car out in the field and I looked out
the back door and saw Lucas get out of the car and walk around the side of the
house toward his tent. I slipped on my jeans and boots and a nylon vest and put
on my hat and walked down in the grayness of the morning to the riverbank.
"Can I come in?" I said,
pulling back the flap to his tent.
"Hope you didn't worry about where
I was at," he said,
"Just because you're out all night?
Not in the least. Who dropped you off?"
"An Indian guy."
"That clears it up. Do I smell
perfume?"
"Lay off it, Billy Bob." He
was sitting up on his sleeping bag, pulling off his boots.
"Where's Sue Lynn?" I asked.
"What are you gonna do if I tell
you?"
"She's wanted for questioning in a
double homicide. Use your brains, Lucas."
He threw one of his boots against the
wall of the tent. "I knew you was gonna get on my case," he said.
"You want the ATF to find her
first?" I said.
His face was fatigued, his hair in his
eyes. He folded his arms around his knees and glowered into space.
"She says Carl Hinkel's people are
looking for her. They think she knows stuff she don't," he said.
I didn't reply. I went out the flap and
took his frying pan and coffeepot out of his grub box and built a fire and
started breakfast. It was still cold and misty and the fire felt warm against
my face. I heard Lucas behind me.
"Midway up Swan Lake," he
said.
I DROVE UP the Blackfoot, through lake country and
meadowland and ghost ranches and humped, green foothills, then caught the
two-lane highway on the east front of the Mission Mountains and entered the
Swan Valley. John Steinbeck once said Montana is a love affair. If a person was
going to make his troth with any particular place on earth, I don't think he
could find a better one than the stretch of road I was now on. Every bridge
crossed a postcard stream, every mountain tumbled into one higher and a deeper
green than itself.
Through the pines I saw an enormous,
elongated body of blue water glimmering in the sun and I turned off the highway
and drove down a shady driveway into a collection of cabins that had been
built during
the Depression in a stand of birch trees. On the far side of the lake the
mountains were thickly wooded with ponderosa and larch and fir, and the only
boat on the water was a red canoe from which a man was fly-casting along the
bank. Out of the north, a gust of wind blew the length of the lake, wrinkling
the surface like old skin, carrying your eye with it to the southern shoreline
and, in the distance, the Swan Peaks jutting up over nine thousand feet, gray
and steel-colored and snow-packed against the sky.
It wasn't hard to find the Cherokee Jeep
Sue Lynn had stolen from the ATF agents. It was parked in a carport attached to
the caretaker's cottage, where her cousin lived and took care of the grounds. I
knocked on the front door and waited. When no one answered, I walked around
back. Sue Lynn had created another prayer garden by placing a circle of stones
around a birch tree, with a cross made from strips of red and black cloth that
met at the tree trunk. She was sitting on the back steps, in pink tennis shoes
and a sleeveless denim shirt and cutoff jeans rolled up high on her thighs. Her
face showed no surprise when she saw me.
"Lucas told you where I was?"
she asked.
"You'd rather Amos Rackley get to
you first?"
"He's not all bad."
"Are you in contact with him?"
"I take whatever help people offer
me. I don't have a lot of choices right now."
I sat down on the step below her and
removed my hat. A family was grilling sausages
on the cement porch of the cottage next door and smoke drifted through the tree
limbs overhead.
"You going to let Dr. Voss go down
for Lamar Ellison's murder?" I asked.
The surface of the lake shimmered with
blades of light.
"Ellison told you something in the
tavern the night he died. Something you couldn't deal with," I said.
She paused before she spoke, as though
she were about to explain someone's twisted mentality to herself rather than to
me. "He said he was sorry about my little brother. His words were, 'I
didn't know the kid was gonna get snuffed. I thought they'd turn him loose
after a while. There's some real sick guys in the D.C. area, though.'"
I turned around. Her eyes looked like
washed coal, bright and hard and filled with injury and an unrelieved anger
that would probably never find release. "Ellison kidnapped your little
brother?" I said. "He sold him to a deviate. On the East Coast. Him
and some others."
"Who?"
"I don't know. Lamar was incoherent. When he finally
stopped babbling he didn't know what he'd said."
"You followed him home?" I
asked. She rose from the steps and squatted down by the prayer circle and began
rolling up the strips of red and black cloth that intersected at the trunk of
the birch tree.
"I thought I could find an answer.
But there's no answer. I read that book you told me about, Black Elk Speaks.
You know the ending. For Indians the Tree of Life is dead," she said.
"You listen to me, Sue Lynn. The
right lawyer can get you off. Ellison was a sonofabitch and deserved what he
got."
"I'm not going to say any
more."
"You have to. Doc's going on trial
for what you did."
"Somebody else was there. You leave
me alone."
"Say again?"
"A guy was in the shadows. Outside
Lamar's house."
"What guy?"
"I didn't stop to chat. But he
could have saved Lamar's life and he didn't. Get that look off your face, Mr.
Holland. Who hated Lamar as much as I did? Tell Lucas good-bye for me."
"Doc?" I said.
She bundled the strips of black and red
cloth under one arm and went inside the cottage and dead-bolted the door behind
her.
I USED a pay
phone on the highway and called the sheriff at his home.
"Sue Lynn Big Medicine killed Ellison," I said.
"How do you know?"
"I just talked with her. She's
hiding out on Swan Lake."
"She confessed to you?"
"Not exactly."
"Here we go again."
"Pick her up, Sheriff. I'll give
you the directions."
"It's Sunday. On Monday I'll think
about it. In the meantime, try to enjoy life. Give the rest of us a
break."
When I got back to Doc's,
he and Maisey were raking manure out of the barn and shoveling it into a
wheelbarrow and hauling it to a compost heap by his vegetable garden. Doc was
bare-chested and sweaty and had tied back his long hair with a blue polka dot
bandanna.
I walked out to the horse lot and leaned
on the top rail of the fence and watched the two of them work. Maisey kept
smiling at me, as though I were being remiss in not helping them. I hated what
I was about to say.
"Got something on your mind?"
Doc asked.
"Yeah, if you can take a little
walk with me," I replied.
"Maisey's a big girl," he
said.
"This one's private, Doc."
"We got no secrets here," he
said.
"Sue Lynn Big Medicine torched
Lamar Ellison. There was a guy outside Ellison's house when she did it," I
said.
Doc paused with his hands propped on the
inverted end of the rake and gave me a measured stare.
"No kidding?" he said.
"That's what the lady said."
"Maybe that'll help us at the
trial," Doc said.
"Could be. Was it you?" I
said.
He brushed at his nose and watched a
hawk up in a tree not far from Lucas's tent.
"I saw that Witherspoon boy while
you were gone. Out yonder in the trees," Doc said.
"Did you turn around on the road
and go back to Ellison's place that night?" I asked.
"I guess you got to ask questions
like that. Even though they might sorely disappoint an old friend. Well, the
answer is—" he said.
But he didn't get to finish his
sentence. Maisey threw down her rake in the dust and walked toward me with both
her fists clenched, saying to her father, "Don't you answer that
question." Then she turned her outrage on me.
"You listen, Billy Bob Holland.
Don't you ever question my father's honor. He's your friend, so you by God had
better act like it," she said.
I took off my hat and hit a horsefly
with it.
"I can understand your sentiments,
Maisey," I said.
"No, you don't. No matter how all
this turns out, no one is ever going to question this family's integrity
again," she said.
I raised my hands.
"You won't hear it from me," I
said.
"You got that right," she
said, and tossed back her hair and walked to the house.
Doc grinned at me.
"You look a little windblown,"
he said. "I need to put you on the stand, Doc. That's not a problem, is
it?"
"Not for me. What do you reckon
Witherspoon was doing around here?" he said.
Later, I asked Lucas to take a walk with me along the water's edge,
through the trees, to a pool where you could see the shadows of trout hanging
in the current just above the pebbles on the bottom. Under the canopy the
ground and boulders and tree trunks were suffused with a cool green light and a
tea-colored spring leaked down the lichen into the river.
"Sue Lynn has probably taken off.
She wanted me to tell you good-bye," I said.
"Took off where? What for?"
"She killed that biker, Lamar
Ellison."
The color drained out of his face. He
stopped and picked up a pine cone and flung it at the stream and watched it
float down the riffle and disappear under a beaver dam.
"She told you that?" he said.
"More or less."
He kicked at the softness of the ground
with his boot. It was one he had worked on oil rigs with, steel-toed, scuffed,
laced through metal eyelets with leather thongs. The whites of his eyes were
filmed now.
"She didn't leave no note or
anything?" he said.
"She's scared. Go easy on her,
Lucas. Ellison murdered her little brother."
"Then he had it coming. Why's she
letting Doc go down for it?"
I knew words could not lessen his anger
or ease his sense of betrayal. Eventually he would forgive Sue Lynn, not at
once, not by a conscious choice or arriving at a philosophical moment, but
instead one day he would look back through the inverted telescope of time and
see her as being possessed of the same moral frailties as himself and hence, in
memory, an acceptable part of his life again.
But that day would be a long time coming
and these are notions you cannot impart to someone younger than yourself,
particularly when the individual is your son.
"What if I take you and Doc and
Maisey to the Indian powwow in Arlee?" I said.
"I'm going up to the Swan and find
Sue Lynn."
"She's caught air, bud."
He kicked a toadstool into a pulpy
spray.
"I'm going to her uncle's and get
the dog. I bet she didn't even take the dog," he said.
I walked back to Doc's alone.
I went INTO the barn and took down Doc's
ax from between two nails and ripped stumps out of the pasture and weeded Doc's
vegetable garden and sprinkled all his flowers and curried his horses and swept
the stalls and hauled a truckload of trash down to the dump and buried it with
a shovel and generally wore myself out, but I could not think my way out of the
problems that seemed to beset me from every direction.
A sun shower was falling on the
mountains in the west when I put my shirt back on and went into the barn and
hung Doc's ax back on the nails. My skin was filmed with sweat and the wind was
cool through the open doors and dust puffed up off the barn floor in my eyes.
At the far end of the barn L.Q. stood
against the light, his face lost in silhouette, his coat open and his thumb
hooked above the brass cartridges in his gun-belt.
"What are y'all gonna do about
that Witherspoon boy?" he said.
"I'd like to cap him and drag
the body inside the house. But I've had a bad day and I don't need you to vex
me, L.Q."
"If I recall correctly, you told
the priest you wasn't gonna gun nobody."
"Maybe I'll have to adjust,"
I said.
"I'm for it. I'd suggest a
ten-gauge loaded with pumpkin balls. Start with Carl Hinkel and Wyatt Dixon and
work your way on down. Remember when we caught that bunch coming out of the
arroyo outside Zaragoza? They was passing around a bottle of yellow mescal. The
first round blew glass right through one fellow's face."
"I stole your life, L.Q."
"I never held it against
you. You're still my bud."
"Your words are a crown of
thorns," I said. He canted himself sideways and looked at someone
behind me, then turned and walked through the barn doors,
into the evening and the flicker of lightning on the fields.
"Temple just called. Should I tell
her we're on our way to pick her up or you're too busy having a conversation with
yourself?" Maisey said.
Early the next morning I drove into town and took Temple
for breakfast. On the way back to the motel I saw Terry Witherspoon come out of
a medical clinic and get into a battered car by himself and drive away. Temple
did not see him.
"I'll drop you off and call you a
little later," I said.
"You don't want to come in?"
she asked.
"I need to take care of
something."
She reached across the seat and ran her
fingernail up the back of my neck.
"Secrets have a way of undoing a
relationship," she said.
"I think Terry Witherspoon plans to
hurt Maisey. Somebody needs to step on this kid's tether," I replied.
She squeezed her thumb and forefinger on
my neck, then released the pressure and squeezed again, on and off, and tried
to see into the corner of my eye.
"When Dixon and Witherspoon go
down, I'm going to be there? Right?" she said.
"You bet," I said.
She leaned forward so I could not avoid
looking into her face.
"Don't take what I say
lightly," she said. Her milky green eyes held on mine and
never blinked. I felt my truck tire hit the curb.
Back at Doc's place I borrowed Maisey's laptop computer and set it
up in a sunny spot on a folding table down by the river, fixed a glass of iced
tea, and began composing a letter to Wyatt Dixon. It read as follows:
Dear Mr. Dixon,
I interviewed Terry Witberspoon in
the Ravalli County Jail after Nicki Molinari's goons dumped him in front of
your ranch. Here are a couple of observations I would like to share with you.
It appears Terry has made up a story
about my trying to shoot you in the back with a pistol. I don't know if you
believe his account or not, but you might ask yourself why an ex-Texas Ranger
would try to pop you with a handgun, on your own property, when a man with a
scoped .30-06 rifle could punch out your brisket from a mile away.
Terry told me and several others at
the jail that you did not have the guts to take on Nicki Molinari because he
was Mobbed-up and in Quentin you were a punk for two greaseballs and had run
scared of them ever since. He said Molinari already made you look like an
ignorant peckerwood in a cafe someplace but you were too stupid to know you had
been made a
fool of. I'm
not sure what he was talking about. He just said Molinari told him rodeo clowns
risk their lives for chump change, and that's why only bozos from backwater
Southern shit-holes are hired for the job.
In closing I'm obligated to inform
you of the following as a matter of social conscience. My associate has
accessed Terry's welfare and police and medical records back in North Carolina.
It looks like Terry has AIDS. Has he been going for medical treatment here? If
I were you, I'd get tested. There are ninety-nine strains of the virus. I
suspect Terry has most of them. By the way, conclusive test results take four
months.
To be honest, I have a hard time
believing anyone who did time in Huntsville and Quentin could be reamed this
bad by a box boy whose biggest score was rolling fudge packers. Maybe my
perceptions are incorrect. If so, please forgive me.
Have a nice day,
Billy Bob Holland
I went back into Missoula and had the
letter delivered to the Hinkel compound by a florist, along with a cluster of
pink and blue balloons.
Chapter
29
The next day Temple and I walked inside the Montana State Prison at Deer Lodge
and waited for a turnkey to escort a trusty gardener by the name of Alton Dobbs
to an interview room. He had salt-and-pepper hair that was cropped short,
workingman's hands with clean nails, square shoulders, and direct eye contact
you do not normally associate with a pedophile. He wore horn-rimmed glasses and
state blues, but the pants were creased, as though they had been pressed under
a mattress, and his shirt was buttoned at the throat and the wrists.
He sat down
across from us, his right hand resting in the center of the wood table. When I
did not offer to shake hands with him, he removed his hand and put it in his
lap. His eyes narrowed once at the insult, then they became totally devoid of
expression.
"Your sheet says you've been down
four times on the same count, Mr. Dobbs," I said.
He inched a chrome-plated wristwatch out
from under his shirt cuff and looked at it.
"You're a lawyer for who?" he
asked.
"Dr. Tobin Voss. He's charged with
killing a biker by the name of Lamar Ellison. Does that last name mean anything
to you?" I said.
"Never heard of him."
Temple looked at the first page on the
clipboard she carried.
"How about the name of Billy
Shuster?" she said.
"The kid in Sioux Falls? I was
three hundred miles away when that happened. I was working in a bakery."
Temple's eyes shifted on mine. It was
the use of his vague reference to the event, the lack of a noun or verb that
would call up a visual image, that gave us our first hint of the manipulator
behind the hornrimmed glasses.
"He was thirteen. Pretty bad crime,
don't you think?" I said.
"I wouldn't know. Like I say, I
wasn't around," Dobbs said.
"Anyway, that's past history. But I
think you got a bum beef on this Montana deal," I said.
"Run that by me again."
"You got nailed in Carl Hinkel's
front yard five years ago. Carl told everybody he didn't know you and was glad
the authorities had you in custody. I don't think you ever got to tell your
side of the story."
"You see Carl Hinkel?" he
said.
"With some regularity," Temple
said. Dobbs nodded and looked at a spot between me and Temple. "I never
met him. I never had a chance to. So I'm not much help to you," he said.
"I hear you're quite a computer
whiz. You've cataloged everything in the prison library," Temple said.
"It's a job," he said.
"It's funny you don't know the name
of Lamar Ellison. He was in Deer Lodge when you took your last fall," I
said.
"Could be," he replied.
"You were invited to Carl Hinkel's
house. Maybe you had an appointment with him. Then you get busted in his yard
and he calls you a pervert in print. Does that bother you, Mr. Dobbs?" I
said.
He touched at the corner of his mouth
and rubbed the balls of his fingers with his thumb. He straightened his cuffs on
his wrists and glanced through the glass window in the door at a guard in the
corridor. "What's in it for me?" he asked.
"The feds have Hinkel under
investigation. You could be a big help to them. They can turn keys on state
locks."
His eyes seemed to focus inward on
thoughts that in all probability no else could ever guess at.
"We're
finished here," he said.
"Fair enough," I said, rising
from my chair. "I'll tell you what happened, though. You met Carl Hinkel
through the Internet. Then you showed up at his house for a meet and got
busted. He came off looking great and you're down on a short-eyes.
How's
it feel? By the way, I'll tell Carl we had a
chat."
Dobbs got to his feet and banged on the
steel door.
"What's the problem?" the
guard asked.
"I want lockup," Dobbs
replied.
After we got back to Missoula I dropped Temple off at her motel
and drove down to Stevensville, then headed east toward the Sapphires and Nicki
Molinari's ranch. I saw the next-door neighbor, the elderly preacher, raking
out dead grass from the rain ditch in front of his church. I pulled my truck to
the roadside and waved to him.
He wore bib overalls without a shirt and
a coned-up straw hat. The choleric blazes in his neck and face looked like
small tongues of fire on his skin. He leaned down to my window and I saw a raw
knot the size of a duck's egg on his forehead.
"How are you doing today,
sir?" I said.
"Cleaning up for our baptism
services tomorrow evening. Back yonder in the creek. We do it the old-time
way," he said.
"It's the only way to fly," I
said.
"You're welcome to come," he
said.
"I was baptized in a stream in the
Winding Stair Mountains of eastern Oklahoma."
"I knowed it," he said.
"How's that?"
"River-baptized people got a mark.
They look a person in the eye. Why you hanging around that greaser?"
"My work takes me into strange
associations, Preacher."
"You carry a gun?"
"Sometimes."
"Stay away from that fellow, son.
He's the devil's own."
The old man tapped my window with the
flat of his hand and returned to his work.
I parked on the white gravel by the side
of Molinari's house and started toward the front door. From the back I heard
the spring of a diving board and a loud splash and the sound of women laughing.
When I came around the corner of the house I smelled meat dripping into a
hibachi and the drowsy, thick fragrance of a crack pipe and I saw Molinari
swimming toward the shallow end of his pool while three suntanned women in
bikinis and shades watched him from reclining chairs.
He walked up the tile steps of the pool,
dripping water, his sex etched against his bright yellow trunks. He rubbed his
head and face with a fluffy towel, and a woman handed him a glass of iced tea
with a sprig of mint in it. He pushed his feet into his flip-flops while he
drank and took my measure over his upended glass.
"Where you come from, people don't
call first before they drop by other people's houses?" he said.
"Has Wyatt Dixon been around?"
I asked.
"No. He better not, either."
"I interviewed a pedophile in Deer
Lodge this morning. He was busted in Carl Hinkel's front yard."
Molinari wiped water off his brow and
pitched his towel over the back of a chair.
"Take a walk with me," he
said, glancing back at the women by poolside. He put his hand on my arm.
"Tell me in like three sentences."
"This guy was nailed in Hinkel's
yard. I think Hinkel is behind the kidnapping and sale of children to child
molesters."
"So I'm glad to know this. But I'm
a little tied up right now. A little two-on-one going, get my drift? If you see
Cleo or Holly, don't be mentioning what you saw here. Anyway, come back
tomorrow when I have more time."
"Fuck you."
"I can't believe there's a person
like you standing on my property. You want me to remodel this guy, but you tell
me in my face to get fucked? You know what I do to people who use that kind of
language to me?"
"Tell it to your biographer."
"I'm glad you raised that subject.
Xavier Girard just got the shit kicked out of him. Why is that, you ask.
Because he shot off his mouth on a certain TV talk show."
"What happened to the old man next
door?"
"I put a knot on his head."
"You did what?"
"He was firing a nail gun into his
church till six this morning. Bam, bam, bam, all night long. I was in a bad
mood. He picked the wrong time to wise off."
"I made a mistake coming
here," I said.
When I turned to go he grabbed my forearm again. I felt his
nails scrape on the skin.
"Come here," he said.
"Your kind are always the same,
Molinari. On the surface you seem to have a certain degree of elan, but under
it all you're a real bum. Go back to your whores."
His mouth twitched slightly and the skin
under one eye puckered as though my words had cut across a nerve ending in his
face.
I drove back to Missoula and parked
downtown and walked under the shade of the maple trees into the courthouse. I
met the sheriff on his way out.
"I need to talk," I said.
"Why don't you rent an office down
the hall from me? Cut down on your gas costs," he said.
"At what time did Xavier Girard
call 911 the night Lamar Ellison was killed?"
"I don't remember."
"Let's find out," I said.
He sucked his teeth.
"Come inside," he said.
A minute later, he tossed his hat onto a
rack in his office and sat down heavily in his swivel chair and fixed his eyes
on me. They were as blue and intense as the flame on a butane burner.
"Get to it, Mr. Holland," he
said.
"Lamar Ellison vandalized Xavier
Girard's vehicle just before he died. Girard and Ellison fought on the side of
the road and Holly Girard pointed a gun at Ellison to
keep him from stomping her husband into jelly. Then Holly and Xavier went
inside a friend's house and dialed 911. The question is when did they make the
call."
"What are you driving at?" the
sheriff said.
"Sue Lynn Big Medicine claims she
saw somebody outside Ellison's place when she fled, someone who could have
saved his life."
"Wait here," the sheriff said.
He went out into the hall and returned
five minutes later and sat down in his chair and studied two computer printouts
in his hands. He laid them down on his desk blotter and balled and unballed his
fist on top of them.
"Holly Girard made the call. At
ten-o-nine P.M.," he said.
"What time was the fire at
Ellison's reported?" I asked..
"Nine forty-one."
"So they waited at least a half
hour to report their vehicle being vandalized?" I said.
"That's what it looks like. You're
saying the guy Sue Lynn saw was Xavier?"
"Ellison had smashed out the
windows in Xavier's Cherokee and sliced the seats and cut his tires and
humiliated him in front of his wife and friends. Maybe he took his wife's gun
and decided to square things with Ellison, but Sue Lynn beat him to it."
"Maybe the guy Sue Lynn saw was the
same fellow who reported the fire. You think of that?"
"The 911 on the fire was called in
by a trucker on his CB," I said.
The sheriff rubbed his forehead and
widened his eyes.
"I'll question Xavier Girard. But
there's no evidence to put him at the crime scene, so I don't think this is
going anywhere," he said. "By the way, I had the sheriff in Flathead
County check out that resort on Swan Lake where Sue Lynn was hiding. Her cousin
says Sue Lynn has bagged out for parts unknown."
I didn't wait for the sheriff to pick up
Xavier Girard or ask him to come in. I drove directly to the Girards' house out
on the bluff above the Clark Fork. A moving van was backed into the driveway
and a half dozen men were trundling furniture up the loading ramp. I walked
through the open front door of the house, into a bare living room with a
cathedral ceiling that echoed with the sounds of the movers' work shoes. The
sanded and lacquered pinewood interior of the room glowed with light, and Holly
Girard stood in the middle of it all, dressed in oversize khakis and tennis
shoes and a paint-splotched pink T-shirt, a baseball cap on her head, swearing,
scolding the movers, but never quite crossing the line into direct insult.
She turned and studied me as she would a
bird bouncing against a window glass. Then she walked toward me, her face
tilted upward, touched with light, bemused, a bit vulnerable. She stood inside
my
shadow, the confidence in her sexual appeal undiminished by her appearance, the
color in her eyes deepening.
"I hope Xavier hasn't hired you to
sue me," she said.
Before I could reply she turned on a
workman walking down the staircase and said, "You break that lamp and I'll
own your salary for the rest of your life. That's a promise, Ed."
"Where's your husband, Ms.
Girard?" I asked.
"Try detox or AA or any bar on
Higgins. Or maybe he's in the sack with one of his twenty-year-old groupies.
Each of them thinks she'll be the girl who changed his life and career. Oh,
boring, boring, boring. Here," she said.
She wrote out the address of a townhouse
on the river, then turned her attention back to the movers.
"You posed as Doc Voss's
friend," I said.
"Excuse me?"
"Y'all let him go down for a murder
you knew he didn't commit."
"I'm sure what you're saying will
make sense to Xavier. But it doesn't to me. Now, good-bye, good luck, God
speed, God bless, ta-ta, all that kind of thing."
"Y'all could have cleared Doc.
Instead, you kept quiet and let him twist in the wind."
She had started to walk away. But she turned demurely and stepped
close into me again, one of her small feet touching mine. She took off her cap
and shook out her hair and gave me a long, deliberate
stare.
There were two white crystals on the rim of her left nostril.
"Contact my business agent at
Creative Artists. He'd love to help you. Really he would," she said, and
jiggled her fingers in good-bye.
"Watch yourself with Molinari, Ms.
Girard. If you're tight with Cleo Lonnigan, you might share the
admonition," I said, and went out the door.
When I started my truck she was standing
in the yard, staring at me, her face disjointed with the wounded pride of a
child.
WHEN I RANG
the bell at Xavier Girard's town-house, he yelled from the back room, "The
door's open. Fix yourself a drink in the kitchen and don't bother me till I
come out. If you don't drink or if you're a friend of my wife, get the fuck out
of my life."
I walked to his office door and looked
inside. He was hunched over his computer, framed like a bear against the window
and the broad sweep of the river and the spires and rooftops of the town and
the green hills beyond.
His eyes were washed out, pale blue, the
pupils like burnt match heads, his face manic and tight against the bone and
ridged with bruises along the jaw. An odor like unwashed hair and beer sweat
filled the room.
"I'm working now. There's vodka in
the icebox. There're magazines by the toilet," he said.
"You came out to Doc's and
complained to me that your wife wouldn't help with a
fund-raiser for Doc's defense," I said.
"Man, you just don't fucking
listen. That's yesterday's chewing gum, Jack," he said.
"You saw Ellison burn to death. You
also saw an Indian woman flee the scene. All this time you could have cut Doc
loose."
He pushed the "save" button on
his keyboard.
"Here it is, straight up. I don't
know who did what at that scene. I had no way of knowing Doc wasn't there
first. But if I understand you correctly, you think I should have put it on a
Native American woman who's probably been dumped on all her life?"
"I see. You were protecting Sue
Lynn Big Medicine. Did you go there armed?"
"None of your business."
"Accept my word on this, Mr.
Girard. I'm going to do everything in my power to see you charged with
obstruction and depraved indifference."
"Indifferent? You're calling me
indifferent?"
I looked at the bruises along his
jawline. "I'm not calling you anything, sir. How's your book going?"
"Which book?"
"Your biography of Nicki
Molinari."
"Guess," he replied.
As I left I heard what sounded like a
metal trash basket tumbling end over end across a bare floor.
The next morning was white with fog that boiled off the Blackfoot
River and hung wetly in the trees and gathered like damp cotton on the
hillsides. I walked down to Lucas's tent and
watched him fix a fire and start cracking eggs and laying out ham strips in the
oversize skillet he cooked in.
Minutes later I picked up the spatula
and started to shovel some food onto my plate. Lucas gently removed the spatula
from my hand and went to his tent and picked up a plastic dog bowl. He began
shredding pieces of white bread into the bowl while his dog, now named Dogus,
watched.
"Remember what you told me
Great-Grandpa Sam wrote in his journal? 'Always feed your animals before you
feed yourself,'" Lucas said, and scooped a fried egg out of the skillet
and chopped it up in the bread.
Later, we ate in silence. The trees
along the river were dark and wet and black-green inside the fog, and I could
hear a hoofed animal clopping on the rocks on the far side of the water.
"I know what you want to ask
me," Lucas said.
"My head's totally blank," I
said.
"Sue Lynn didn't call. I don't
blame her. She tried to tell me all along she was in over her head. It don't
seem right, though."
"What's that?"
"She's on the run and all them
other people—that fellow Wyatt Dixon and Witherspoon and the people who killed
her little brother—these guys just go on hurting folks and nobody does anything
about it."
"Eventually they'll go down,"
I said. "It sure does take a long time," he replied. He got up from
the rock he was sitting on and rinsed his tin plate and cup and
fork and meat knife in the river, then scrubbed them with sand and rinsed them
clean again and put them into his grub box. He poured the coffeepot on the fire
and refilled it with water and doused the fire a second time while steam boiled
off the stones in the fire ring.
Both our fly rods were propped against
his tent, the dry flies snugged into the cork handles, the tapered leaders
tight inside the guides. He picked both rods up and handed me mine.
"Come on, there's a fat rainbow up
yonder that wants to add your flies to his underwater collection," he
said.
"You're growing up on me,
bud," I said.
He looked back over his shoulder at me,
not quite sure what to make of the remark.
WHEN THE
LETTER for Wyatt Dixon arrived at the compound, delivered by a nervous florist
gripping a handful of pink and blue balloons, Wyatt was out in the equipment
lot, barefoot and bare-chested, his jeans on so tight they looked like they'd
split, working on Carl Hinkel's tractor engine. Wyatt paused a wrench on a nut
and stared over his shoulder at the florist, then walked to the fence and took
the letter and clutch of balloons from the florist's hands.
"Sir, you look like you're fixing
to piss your pants," Wyatt said.
"No, sir. I wouldn't do that."
"Good. Get out of here," Wyatt
said.
He thumbed open the envelope and read
the letter inside, the wind blowing the paper,
the tethered ribbons on the balloons tugging in his hand.
Terry watched Wyatt's face. Wyatt had
only two expressions. One was the idiot's grin off a jack-o'-lantern. The other
was a nonexpression, a total absence of any feeling or thought or content
whatsoever, at least not any that could be seen. It made Terry think of a clay
mask that a sculptor might have molded on an exhumed skull, with prosthetic
eyes stuffed into the sockets.
Wyatt finished reading the letter, then
folded it and stuck it inside his belt, against his skin. His left hand opened
and the balloons rose into the wind and floated out over the Bitterroot. He
turned slowly toward Terry, the clay mask transforming itself, cracking into
the idiot's grin again.
"I got to run to town. By the way,
what's the name of that clinic you go to sometimes? I got to get me a flu shot,"
he said.
What did Wyatt mean by "go to
sometimes"? Terry thought. He'd gone to the clinic only because he'd been
beaten up by either Wyatt or that grease-ball Nicki Molinari. "The one off
the Orange Street Bridge. Anything wrong?" Terry said.
"In a country like this?" Wyatt tilted his face up toward the
heavens, his palms lifted as though he were requesting grace, his shaved
underarms white with baby powder. "Ain't no place like the U.S.A. Don't
ever doubt it, either." Then he aimed one finger at Terry, a nest of veins
rippling over his shoulder.
Wyatt drove away in his low-slung red
car, with its exposed new radiator and hammered-out fenders bouncing through
the dust. He returned two hours later and pulled off his shirt and strapped on
his tool pouch and went back to work on Carl's tractor.
"I didn't think you could get flu
shots in the summer," Terry said.
"A dumb fellow like me had to drive
all the way to Missoula to find that out," Wyatt said, grinning from under
his hat.
Terry went up to the dining room and put
three dollars into the tin can on the steam table and ate lunch with Carl and
the others. He glanced out the back window just as Wyatt stopped work on the
tractor and threw his wrench down and climbed through the railed fence and took
a shortcut across the pasture to his log house.
Except Wyatt was now in the pasture with
a young bull that did not willingly share its territory. It began running the
length of the fence, then it whirled and headed for Wyatt, blowing mucus, its
horns lowered.
Wyatt could have made the fence and
vaulted across it with time to spare. Instead, he pulled his wadded-up shirt
from his back pocket and slapped it across the bull's snout and eyes, then
dangled it in the dust, working it like a snake, charming the bull to a
standstill.
Wyatt inched his hand forward, then
grabbed one horn and pivoted behind the bull's angle of vision and grabbed the
other and twisted the bull's neck until it fell to the ground in a puff of dust
and manure that had dried into fiber.
Everyone in the dining room had risen to
his feet and was now watching the scene in the pasture. Wyatt continued to
twist the bull's neck, his boot heel hooked hard into its phallus, the tendons
in the bull's neck popping against its hide like black rope, the one visible
eye bulging from the socket as though it were about to hemorrhage.
Carl Hinkel dropped his fork onto his
plate and ran out the back door to the pasture, tripping over the bumps in the ground,
waving one arm at Wyatt.
"What in God's name are you doing?
You know how much that animal cost me?" he shouted.
Wyatt rose to his feet and threw a small
rock at the bull's head and kicked it in the rectum. Grass and grains of dirt
were matted on Wyatt's naked back.
"I think I'll bag me up a lunch
today and eat on the river," he said.
"Is something bothering you,
boy?"
"Ain't no man calls me 'boy,'
Carl." Wyatt picked up his hat out of the dirt and fitted it on his head
and straightened the brim with his thumb and forefinger. He grinned at Carl,
then inserted a pinch of snuff inside his lip. "No-sirree-bob."
The men standing around Carl dropped
their eyes to the ground.
For the next half hour Terry paced about on the slope of
the river, while down below him Wyatt ate his lunch out of a paper bag and
drank from a quart bottle of buttermilk. Wyatt's back was a triangle of muscle
cut with scars from a horse quirt. Wyatt had never told
Terry who had used the quirt on him or why. That was Wyatt's way. He recycled
pain, stored its memory, footnoted every instance of it in his life and the
manner in which it had been visited upon him, then paid back his enemies and
tormentors in ways they never foresaw.
Now Terry was afraid to talk to him.
Should he stay or hitchhike home? What was in that letter? Had he done
something disloyal, made a careless remark that someone else had reported to
Wyatt? Was this over Maisey Voss? Or maybe Molinari or that damn lawyer was
behind it.
But before Terry could find an answer to
any of his questions, Carl Hinkel sent word he wanted to see him in his office.
Terry entered the stone hut by the side
of the main house and sat down next to Carl's computer table. It was the first time
he had been invited inside Carl's office, and he realized his palms were
sweating. Carl's beard was freshly trimmed, his suspenders an immaculate white
against his dark blue cotton shirt, his cob pipe cupped regally in his hand.
"I've been watching you. My staff
has, too," Carl said, and fixed him with a dead stare. Terry shifted in
his chair and looked at the framed photo of Carl in a paratrooper's uniform and
felt his mouth go dry.
"If I did something wrong—" he
began.
"You have what soldiers call fire
in the belly. It's the fire that burns in every patriot. It's in your eyes.
It's in the way you carry yourself."
Terry felt his cheeks burn.
"It's a great honor to—" Terry
began.
"I'm promoting you up to the rank
of lieutenant, with duties as an information officer. That means you'll be
representing us at meetings in Idaho and Washington State. Of course, we'll be
paying all your travel expenses."
"I don't know what to say,
sir." For a moment Terry could feel tears coming to his eyes.
"We don't wear uniforms or wear
gold or silver bars here. But I have a gift for you," Carl said.
He opened
his desk drawer and removed a chrome-plated, double-edged dagger with a gold
guard on the blade and a snow-white handle that had been inset with two red
swastikas.
It was the most beautiful knife Terry
had ever seen. He held it in his palms and started to slip the blade from the
white leather sheath but first lifted his eyes to Carl's to seek permission.
"Go ahead," Carl said, and
fired his pipe, cupping the match flame as though there were wind in the room.
Terry turned the blade over in his palm.
He could see his face in the oily reflection and feel the coolness of the steel
like a kiss against his skin.
"Later you and I will bust some
clay pigeons out over the river. How's that?" Carl said.
"Yes, sir," Terry answered.
Carl puffed on his pipe and gazed
reflectively into the smoke, his brow furrowing slightly.
"You notice anything different
about Wyatt?" he asked.
"Wyatt's a mite moody
sometimes." That was the right answer, he thought. He was giving Carl what
he wanted without saying anything Wyatt could use against him. His statement
even sounded sympathetic. Way to go, he told himself.
"I'd like to think he's just off
his feed. But we can't have loose cannon on board our ship, Terry."
"Yes, sir, I know what you
mean," Terry said.
"You're a fine young man,"
Carl said, and held out his hand. Carl's grip was meaty, encompassing, the skin
warmer than it should be.
"Carl, my rent's due on my place
above the Clark," Terry said.
"Yes?"
"I wonder if I could move out here.
Work for room and board."
"I don't see any reason you
shouldn't get the first vacancy," Carl replied.
Chapter
30
It rained just before dawn, then the sun rose inside the mist on the hills
and through my window I could see the pale green shapes of cottonwoods swelling
in the wind and a lone black bear running past Lucas's tent, as though the
pinkness of the morning had caught it in a dishonest act.
Doc came into
my bedroom and set down a cup of coffee for me on the nightstand and pulled up
a chair next to my bed.
"That ATF agent, Rackley, the one
who was hassling you?" he said.
"What about him?"
"He called while you were still
asleep. He left this number," Doc said.
"He must be an early riser," I
said.
"Why you been sleeping with L.Q.'s
gun on your nightstand the last couple of nights?"
"I sent a letter to Wyatt Dixon and told him a few things about
Witherspoon, including the fact he had AIDS."
Doc nodded reflectively. "Where'd
you come by all this information?" he asked.
"Temple got ahold of Witherspoon's
welfare and juvie records. I made up the stuff about AIDS."
Doc got up from his chair and propped
his hands on the windowsill and stared out at the morning.
"I thought I had an iron
bolt through both temples," he said.
I shaved and brushed my teeth and dressed
and called the number Amos Rackley had left.
"Meet me inside the University of
Montana football stadium in a half hour," he said.
"What for?"
"I have something for you. You
bring anybody with you, I'm gone."
I drove through Hellgate Canyon and took
the university exit and parked by the stadium. A half dozen hang gliders were
floating on the breezes high up on Mount Sentinel, their shadows swooping
across the green slopes beneath them. I walked into the great emptiness of the
stadium and saw Amos Rackley sitting twenty rows up on the fifty-yard line.
He wore shades and a brown rain hat and
an open-neck checkered shirt and khakis and sandals with white socks. He could
have been an academic who had strolled off for a moment's respite from his
summer classes. For the first time I noticed a religious chain around his neck.
"Open your shirt for me, would
you?" he said.
"That's a little silly, isn't
it?" I said.
"So you don't have to be
offended," he replied, and waited.
I unbuttoned my shirt and pulled it out
of my trousers and turned in a circle.
"Sit down and let me explain
something, although you probably already know the drill," he said. A
manila envelope rested on his knees. "All federal law enforcement agencies
use informants. A good agent flips the right guy and puts a lot of nasty people
in the gray-bar hotel chain. But once in a while an agent gets too jacked up on
a case and forgets he's allowed a sociopath to run loose with a baseball bat."
"You're talking about Lamar Ellison?"
"As time went by we became more and
more convinced he and some other bikers tried to kidnap Cleo Lonnigan's child.
The father probably showed up and the bikers killed them both. We couldn't
prove it, though, so we gave Ellison a long leash and used him."
"Except you didn't nail anybody and
Carl Hinkel probably had other children kidnapped and sold to perverts,
including Sue Lynn's little brother?"
Rackley looked out at Hellgate Canyon
and the wind bending the ponderosa along the edges of the cliffs and the hang
gliders that hovered and dipped against the immense blueness of the sky.
"I quit the Bureau," he said.
"There are two signed and notarized affidavits in this envelope. One is
from Sue Lynn Big Medicine, admitting she set fire to Lamar Ellison. The other
statement is from me, describing her role as an informant for the ATE If
anyone
wants to question either her or me, I wish them good luck, get my drift?"
He placed the envelope in my hands.
"They'll come after you," I
said.
"Could be. I doubt it. A stock
brokerage doesn't prosecute the employees it fires for embezzlement." He
got up from his seat and removed his hat and ran his hand through his
close-cropped hair, then replaced his hat and looked at the panorama of
mountains that enclosed the city.
"I hear the Canadian Rockies are
great this time of year," I said.
"I've always been a flatlander.
Stay away from Carl Hinkel's compound, Mr. Holland, unless you want to end up
on a recording."
"You finally got a wire
inside?"
"Put it this way. I've got the
sense somebody unscrewed Wyatt Dixon's head and spit inside it. You don't
happen to know anything about that, do you?"
"Not a thing," I said, my gaze
fixed straight ahead.
He walked down the cement steps to the
exit. He didn't look back.
Wyatt Dixon had a simple vision of life. You ate your pain, you shined the
world on, and you accepted inequity as the natural state of man. The only unforgivable
sin was personal betrayal.
The paling of the sky at dawn, the place
the sun occupied at noon or twilight, the rain or ice or drought that wore away
the surfaces of the earth had nothing to do with a man's fate. You
took your first breath with a slap. If you were lucky, your mouth found a teat
before you starved. You grew out of your own excretions and ate what you were
given, carried slop to hogs, shucked chicken feathers in scalding water, split
smokehouse wood, chopped and picked cotton, punched and dehorned cows, shot
mustangs and wild burros for dog food contractors, and maybe put your seed in a
Mexican girl inside a bean field. Then, one morning, at age fifteen, you walked
past the waiting school bus to the train tracks and climbed aboard a freight
that carried you all the way to Big D and an Army enlistment center.
Wyatt liked the Army. He liked the food,
the good clothes, the PX beer, the access to fine guns. The problem was the
Army didn't like Wyatt. Or at least the black mess sergeant didn't after Wyatt
asked him if he had a tail tucked inside his pants.
The base psychiatrist said Wyatt had
antisocial tendencies. The mess sergeant probably agreed after Wyatt broke his
nose with a bottle behind a bar in San Antonio and cut his stripes off and
stuffed them into his mouth.
While he was in the stockade waiting for
his uncle to show up with a birth certificate, Wyatt tried to figure how to
avoid getting himself jammed up like this again. He finally figured it out.
Stay off the computer.
He traveled the country as a roustabout
for a tent preacher, milked rattlesnakes for a veterinarian in West Kansas,
slaughtered cattle below the border, daily pumped
a hard rubber ball five hundred times in each palm, and by age twenty-one was a
fullblown rodeo clown, fearless, twice hooked and slammed into the boards, able
to knock a horse unconscious with his fist or snap a steer's spinal cord with
his bare hands.
Beer-joint women kissed his fingers and
men feared them. He chewed cigars like plug tobacco, sewed his own wounds,
asked no favors, drank tequila like water, borrowed no money, carried all of
his possessions in a cardboard suitcase, read a new comic book every night,
wore two-hundred-dollar hats, and stitched an American flag as a liner inside
the duster he wore in rainy or cold weather.
But it was the greasepaint grin that
bothered his rodeo cohorts. When Wyatt wiped the grease off his face, the
lunatic expression was still there, accentuated by eyes that were full of
invasiveness and light that had no origin. A female barrel racer claimed he
raped her. The board members of the RCA tried to ban him from the circuit.
So what? The good life was always there,
sleeping in a bedroll under the stars, sometimes shacking up in a trailer,
carrying plenty of cash, drinking beer and eating Mexican food whenever he
wanted and grilling steaks in roadside parks up in the high desert. Everybody
loved a cowboy. This was a great country, by God.
The only problems in life came from
disloyalty. That's what Carl Hinkel didn't understand. A man who claimed to be
a patriot and should have known better. But Wyatt knew that under
the pose of the Virginia gentleman Carl was weak and dependent. That in itself
was forgivable. But ingratitude and disrespect were a form of betrayal, and
that was not.
After Carl had called him
"boy" and Wyatt had rubbed Carl's nose in it, Carl had tried to
straighten it out in the dining room, in front of a half dozen others. Big
mistake.
Wyatt was at the steam table, bagging up
a lunch to eat out on the riverbank.
"I can't abide a soldier sassing me
like that, Wyatt,* Carl said.
"Is that right?" Wyatt said,
without looking up from the sandwich he was making.
"You were out of line, son,"
Carl said.
Wyatt filled the side of a butter knife
with mustard and layered it on his sandwich bread, nodding, as though digesting
a profound statement.
"Would you hand me those 'maters,
Carl?" he said.
Carl gestured to a boy behind the steam
table, who picked up a platter of sliced tomatoes and tried to give them to
Wyatt. Wyatt ignored him.
"You got what some folks might call
a serious character defect, Carl. You cain't cut it on your own. That's why the
airborne run you off. That's why you got to surround yourself with a bunch of
sawed-off little pissants don't know their own mind. Now get the fuck out of my
face."
At DAWN Friday morning Terry woke in his shack above the Clark Fork
and saw Wyatt standing against the window, inside the shack, the blue-green
softness of the pines and the mists off the river rising up behind him. The
fire in the woodstove had gone out and the room was cold, the air brittle.
Terry hugged the quilt around him and sat up on his bunk. The German dagger
Carl had given him lay on the table in the center of the room, the swastikas on
the white handle as bright as drops of blood.
"I knowed a preacher who used to
say, 'Fool me oncet, shame on you. Fool me twicet, shame on me,'" Wyatt
said. He wore a heavy long-sleeve crimson shirt, with his purple garters on the
arms, and tight jeans and his flat-brimmed black hat with the Indian band
around the crown.
"I don't know what I did wrong,
Wyatt. I don't know why you're mad at me."
Wyatt picked up the dagger and eased it
halfway out of the sheath. The chromed blade clicked with light. Why hadn't he
put the knife under his pillow? Terry thought. Why did Wyatt have to put his
filthy hands on it?
"Carl promoted you?" Wyatt
said.
"I'm information officer, if you want to know."
"Going over to Idaho? Meet all them
groups at Hayden Lake?"
"Maybe. If Carl tells me to."
Wyatt sat down in a chair and fiddled
with the German dagger, never removing it all the way from the sheath. Then he
tossed it to Terry.
"I noticed you been coughing a bit.
I'm gonna introduce you to a woman used to be a whore down by the railway
tracks," Wyatt said. "Why do I want to meet her?"
"She thinks she might know you from
the clinic. You call to mind a woman looks like she was just dug up from a
cemetery?"
"I don't know what's going on,
Wyatt."
"I'll pick you up at seven. Maybe
we'll check out the Voss girl again. Or maybe that female private detective. I
told Mr. Holland he'd know when it was my ring."
"Carl says it's a bad time for
stirring anything up." "Seven o'clock," Wyatt said.
THAT SAME
MORNING Temple and I ate breakfast together in a cafe across from the train
yard, then walked down Higgins toward the river. Two city police cars had
pulled up in front of a saloon, their flashers on, and two uniformed officers
had gotten out and were approaching a man who sat like a pile of wet hay on the
curb. The officers slipped their batons into the rings on their belts and
leaned over and tried to talk with the man on the curb.
It was one of those moments when, if
your life is fairly sane and you're able to greet the day with a clear eye and
enjoy the simple pleasure of reading the newspaper over a cup of coffee and a
bowl of cereal, you thank the Creator or Yahweh or the Great Spirit or the
Buddha or Our Lord Jesus you are not the wretch whose fate seems so awful that
no reasonable human being could deliberately
choose it for himself.
Xavier Girard's clothes looked as if
they had been stolen off a washline. His face was puffed, his eyes like sliced
beets; his mouth hung open as though he had just witnessed a train wreck. He
vomited between his legs, then stared stupidly at the splatter on his tennis
shoes.
But even from across the street and in
his drunken state Xavier recognized me and pushed himself out of the
policemen's grasp and stumbled into the traffic, where he was almost hit by a
milk truck.
He came toward me, waving his arms, a
vinegary stench welling up from his armpits.
"Molinari's goons ripped up all my
disks. These fucks won't do anything about it," he said, swinging one arm
backward to indicate the two policemen who had followed him into the street.
"They look like decent guys. Talk
it over with them later," I said.
"Fuck 'decent.' Tell Molinari my
new book is titled The Cuckold Shoves His Horns Through the Greaseball's
Heart," Xavier said.
The two policemen got him by each arm
again and walked him back across the street, then one of them recrossed the
street and stepped up on the curb.
"You know this guy?" he asked.
"Yep."
"We got a full house. You want to
take care of him?" he said.
"Nope," I said.
"I had a feeling you might say that."
Later, Temple and I went back to her
motel. I sat in a stuffed chair and turned on CNN while she went into the bath
and brushed her teeth. When she came out I noticed she had taken off her
earrings and her gold watch and the barrette from her hair. The blinds were
closed but the sunlight glowed around the edges of the slats and touched her
face and accentuated the girl-like quality of her mouth and the mysterious
beauty of her eyes, which I had never understood, no more than you can
understand the strange hold a tree-shaded green river can have on you, the way
that its depths, the thickness of its color, and the warmth of its current can
swell above your loins and arouse an undefined longing in you that makes you
feel you do not know who you really are.
I stood up from the chair and removed a
small blue velvet box from my pocket.
"What's that?" she asked.
"I happened to be passing by the
jewelry store yesterday and this caught my eye."
She looked up at me, and I saw the color
grow in her cheeks and her face become smaller and her eyes fix mine in such a
way that I could hardly look back at the box in my hand.
I opened the top against the stiffness
of the spring and removed the ring and lifted her hand and put the ring on her
finger and slipped it over the knuckle and folded her fingers down into her
palm.
"You can take it back if it doesn't
fit. Or, if you don't want it, we can just return it and get a refund," I
said.
"Get a refund?"
"Yeah, I sort of did this without
taking a vote."
She pushed one loafer off, then the
other, and stood on top of my feet and tilted her head sideways and closed her
eyes and placed her mouth on mine. Then her arms were around my neck and she
tightened her stomach and breasts against me, and when she took her mouth away
from mine her eyes were open, as though she doubted her power to take my heart.
I kissed her again and ran my hands down her back and breathed the fragrance of
her hair and skin and the perfume on her neck. I took off her blouse and
unbuttoned her jeans and pulled back the bedspread and laid her down on the
sheets and removed her socks and worked her jeans off her legs and sat beside
her and kissed her breasts, her nipples, her throat, her eyes and cheeks, her
baby fat, her back, her hair, then I stroked the inside of her thighs and
traced her sex and the smooth taper of her stomach and hips and the perfect
lines of her breasts.
"Billy Bob?" she said.
"What?"
"Do you want to take off your
clothes?"
I undressed and lay beside her, then I
looked once more into the green mystery of her eyes and I finally knew what it
was that made her eyes different from any other woman's on Earth. Their depth
had no bottom; they went straight into the soul, and they contained no guile,
no fear, no regret, and no doubt about the intentions of her heart. I leaned
over and took one of her nipples into my
mouth and worked my palm under the small of her back and entered the space
between her thighs, where her hand received my sex and placed it inside her
while her mouth parted and only a whisper of sound came out. Then I was inside
Temple Carrol again, the feathery touch of her breath against my cheek, her
fingers deep into my back, and I felt the two of us slip as one into a valley
of buttercups and green grass and sun showers that she had created for both of
us simply by widening her thighs and raising her knees and turning her face
like a new flower up to mine.
An hour later,
while Temple was in the shower, the phone rang on the nightstand.
"This is the front desk. Was Ms.
Carrol expecting a guest?" a young man's voice said.
"Not that I know of. Is something
wrong?" I said. "A man cruised through the lot twice. He stopped by
your door. He backed up and down, like he was trying to see through the
window."
"What kind of car did this guy
have?"
"You can see for yourself. He's
parked across the street. In a red car with the radiator showing."
I went outside and walked to the edge of
the street and looked through the traffic into the parking lot of a fast-food
restaurant. Wyatt Dixon stared back at me from behind his steering wheel. His
face was mirthless, the idiot's grin gone, his features like dried putty. He
threw whatever he was eating out the window, onto the pavement, and started his
engine and rumbled into the street. He turned his head and
stared at me for only a second, but I think I saw the real Wyatt Dixon for the
first time. The downturned mouth, the hollow eyes, the sensual flesh that had
hardened against the facial bones, were like a Stygian image from a dream
suddenly released into daylight.
Temple walked up behind me and glanced
up and down the street.
"Who was that?" she asked.
"A guy who's been looking for a
bullet a long time," I said.
On the way home, passing through the little town of Victor, Wyatt
Dixon saw Carl Hinkel's truck parked in front of the barbershop. Wyatt Dixon
pulled into the grocery down the street and bought a half-gallon container of
ice cream and sat bare-chested on the high sidewalk in the shade of a tack and
feed store and ate the ice cream with a metal spoon. It was a fine day, the
mountains shining in the sun, the breeze cool on Wyatt's skin. But he couldn't
enjoy it, not even the ice cream that slid in cold lumps down his throat. One
obsession had haunted all his thoughts, ruined his sleep, woke him in the
morning like a vulture on his bedpost, and tainted every moment and pleasure in
his day.
The woman at the clinic had given him
both an oral and a blood test. But it would be three weeks before he could
receive even tentative assurance that he was not HIV positive, and the nurse
had said something about an incubation period that would
delay
any certain knowledge of his status for another three months.
Wyatt wanted to tear Terry Witherspoon
apart. But that was too easy. Terry expected abuse, got high on it, and used it
to feed his bitchiness. Wyatt had special plans for Terry, a date with destiny
that'd make him wish his mama had stuffed him hot and smoking down the family
honey hole. But in the meantime he had plenty of substitutes to do a number on.
Mr. Holland and his girlfriend were ripe for some fine-tuning and that war
hero, Dr. Voss, could use straightening out as well. But right now Wyatt's mind
was on Carl, who had convinced all his neighbors he was a stomp-ass
paratrooper. Right.
Carl came out of the barbershop, his
boots shined, his seersucker slacks pressed, a Stetson at a rakish angle on his
head, his western-cut coat puffing open in the wind.
Wyatt cleaned off his spoon in his mouth
and dropped off the high sidewalk into the street and stuck the spoon down into
the side pocket of his jeans. Carl stood in the shade of the nineteenth-century
brick-front buildings and gazed at the Bitterroots rising up out of pastureland
into the sky. Always posing as the patriarch, Wyatt thought, the gentleman
rancher who turned no patriot from his door, the prophet who gave voice to
folks who'd had their rights stolen by the government.
Maybe it was time Carl got a lesson in
humbleness.
Wyatt squeezed his scrotum and started
toward the barbershop, when a maroon Cadillac convertible
and
a tan Honda pulled up on each side of Carl's truck and four greaseballs got out
and approached Carl with smiles on their faces, like they were all old friends.
The greaseballs formed a circle around him, a couple of them glancing over
their shoulders to see if anyone had taken notice, Carl flinching in the middle
of the circle like one of the greaseballs was about to pop him in the face.
Well, ain't this a pistol? Wyatt
thought. He removed a toothpick from his hatband and leaned back against the
coolness of the elevated sidewalk and cleaned his fingernails while Carl was
bundled into the Honda. For just an instant Carl seemed to look between two of
the men pushing him into the backseat and see Wyatt watching him. Wyatt laughed
to himself and slipped the toothpick into his mouth and walked up the cement steps
into the grocery store, past the sign that said no shirt, no shoes, no service, and pulled a six-pack of beer
from the cooler and paid the clerk.
Outside the store window, one of the
greaseballs got into Carl's truck and started it up, then the truck, the Honda,
and the maroon convertible pulled onto the highway and caravanned toward
Stevensville.
Wyatt walked back outside and ripped the
tab off a can of beer and drank the can half empty, leaning over so the foam
would not run down his bare chest. The mountains were a deep blue-green now,
the valley floor as golden as the inside of a whiskey barrel. Wyatt stepped
aside for an overweight woman and removed his hat.
"Howdy do, ma'am. Would you set out
here and drink a beer with a rodeo cowboy that has been blown away by your
beauty?" he said.
"Excuse me?" she said.
He squeezed her bottom and left her
stunned and outraged on the sidewalk.
But Wyatt's mind was already on other
things. He crushed his beer can in his hand and tossed it into the street and
fired his car up. A man shouldn't have to die if he loved the world as much as
Wyatt did, he thought. Brought down by a piece of queer bait who couldn't pick
a half sack of cotton without a diagram. He wanted to rip the steering wheel
off the column. Instead, he drove slowly down the street, waving good-bye to
the woman he had violated on the sidewalk.
It took me several hours to get the sheriff on the phone.
"Say all this again," he said.
"Dixon was cruising the parking
area in front of Temple Carrol's room. Then he stationed himself across the
street so he could watch the motel. He left when I went outside."
"Seems a bad time for him to be
making a move," the sheriff said.
"Dixon doesn't consult with a
psychiatrist before he hurts people."
"Something else is going on, ain't
it?"
"He thinks he might have
AIDS."
"I hate to even ask how you know
this."
"I wrote him a letter and gave him
a few speculations to study on."
There was a long silence.
"You know anything about Carl
Hinkel being kidnapped?" he said.
"No."
"He went to Victor to get his hair
cut. A fellow with him went inside the bar to shoot pool. He says when he come
out a little boy told him a bunch of men threw Hinkel in a car and took off
with him."
"Boy, that breaks me up."
"You been putting glass in these
people's heads, Mr. Holland. Now it's done turned around on you. I don't want
to listen to your whining."
"You left Dixon on the street,
Sheriff. If he comes around me or mine, I'm going to kill him."
"Oh, I'm sure you will. You stay
home today. You stay away from these people. And you stay out of my
business," the sheriff said. His voice was like a heated wire when he hung
up the receiver.
Terry Witherspoon had taken two showers that afternoon but
couldn't get clean. As soon as he dried himself and put his clothes on, a smell
like soiled kitty litter rose from his armpits. He tried to eat a can of Vienna
sausages and vomited in the backyard.
He had never been so frightened in his
life.
Wyatt had said seven o'clock. Terry
wiped his face and mouth with a soiled towel and looked at the slanting rays of
the sun through the pines, the flecks of gold on
the river's surface down below, the bats that were already flying through the
evening shadows.
If he had a car, he would run. If he had
a phone, he would ring Carl. But he was trapped in an eighty-buck-a-month shack
that was worse than the shack he grew up in, at the mercy of Wyatt and his
craziness. Where had everything gone wrong? Why had Maisey treated him the way
she did? Why did a Mobbed-up guy like Nicki Molinari, a real player on the
Coast, want to beat the shit out of him over a kid and his father getting killed
on the Clearwater National Forest?
Terry's head throbbed.
He went out into the railed dirt lot
behind the shack and stood listening to the sounds of birds in the trees, the
crack of a stick under a deer's hoof, the tumble of water in the river down
below, the muttering of an owl up a larch that was shaggy and black with moss.
Nobody could be this alone, he thought.
These feelings would pass. Maybe it was just a stomach virus. He wasn't a
coward. Ask the queens he'd beaten cross-eyed with a sock full of sand.
Down the road he heard Wyatt's car
coming hard, the engine roaring, rocks ricocheting like bullets under the
fenders. Terry's throat trembled when he took a breath. If he only had the .22
rifle. But that damn lawyer had splintered it across a tree trunk.
He faced the road just as Wyatt turned
into the yard, a cloud of cinnamon-colored dust drifting across his car into
the light that slanted through the pines.
Wyatt cut the engine and stepped out on
the ground in a new pair of striped black trousers, a hand-tooled belt
with a gold bucking horse embossed on the huge silver buckle, a heavy,
long-sleeve, snap-button cotton shirt, a new white Stetson with a gray feather
in the band, a shined pair of oxblood Tony Lamas powdered with dust. He had
just shaved and rubbed talcum on his neck and cologne on his cheeks, and for
some reason he looked more handsome than Terry had ever seen him.
"You ready to ride?" Wyatt
asked.
"You say an Indian woman knows me
from the clinic?"
"Don't worry about that now. You
know ole Carl disappeared? Too bad that happened just after he promoted
you."
"Disappeared?"
"He'll probably turn up. I got a
chore for you tonight."
"What?"
"You're gonna do the Voss girl.
Then we're both gonna do that lawyer."
"No, sir," Terry said, shaking
his head, one hand on the top rail of the fence, his eyes averted.
"Say that again."
"The ATF and the FBI are all over
the place, Wyatt."
"That's when they least expect it.
I got it all planned. Get in the car."
Wyatt removed his hat and combed his
hair and waited, his manner casual, the setting sun pink on the taut surfaces
of his face. Then Terry knew, without any doubt,
that if he got into the car with Wyatt, he would be driven to a place in the
woods from which he would never return.
"I'm staying home tonight," he
said.
Wyatt grinned and approached him.
"Terry, you never could figure out
when good things was happening in your life. That Indian woman I was talking
about? I showed her a picture of me and you just a little while ago. She seen
you in the clinic, all right, but you was in there to get fixed up after them
greaseballs stuck you in the batting cage. It's time to have some fun."
What Wyatt had said to him made no sense
at all. Wyatt was walking closer to him now, rolling an unlit cigar in his
mouth with his fingers, his eyes possessed of a curious gleam, as though he
were both amused by Terry and enjoying a fantasy about Terry's immediate fate.
He pinched Terry's sleeve, tugging
slightly on the cloth.
"Don't wrinkle your nose at me,
boy. Hop in the car. You're gonna like it," he said.
"I got to go to the bathroom
first," Terry said.
He walked down the fence line toward the
shack, tapping his hand on the top rail. His single-bladed pocketknife was
stuck at a forty-five-degree angle in the corner post, where he had thrown it
that morning. He reached out and grasped it by the wood handle, hefted it once
so that the blade dropped across the calloused cup of his fingers, then
whirled, whipping his arm backward, flinging the knife into Wyatt's chest.
Wyatt stared at him stupidly, then
grabbed the top fence rail with one hand and fitted his other around the
knife's handle. His lips formed a cone and he sucked air in and out of his
mouth, as though a piece of dry ice were burning his tongue. He tried to pull
the knife from his chest, but Terry pushed it in deeper, bending it sideways to
widen the wound, hammering the flat of his fist on the knife's butt like a man
driving a spike into wood.
Terry felt the blade snap off at the
hilt, felt himself lose balance, then realized he was only inches from Wyatt's
face now, staring into Wyatt's eyes, the broken handle of the knife clenched
impotently in his palm, his fingers warm with Wyatt's blood, his whole life
laid out behind him like a railroad track that had brought him to this
particular moment and place, his heart bursting with the terrible knowledge
that he had only seconds to remove himself from Wyatt's reach.
Then Wyatt's left hand seized his throat
and lifted him up into a vortex of sunlit pine needles and blue sky and
mountain peaks that were so high no air existed on their slopes.
Chapter
31
That night Temple stayed at Doc's and I gave her my bunk bed and slept in the
tent by the river with Lucas. During the night I heard rain on the canvas and
the pop of lightning on the ridges, then the dawn broke clear and cool and deer
were grazing in the pasture behind Doc's barn when I opened the tent flap in
the morning.
Lucas had
already built a fire and made coffee. He squatted down and filled a tin cup for
me and added canned milk to it and handed it to me, then looked thoughtfully at
the smoke drifting out on the water.
"You can make a fellow nervous
sleeping with that dadburn gun," he said.
"Next time I'll leave it somewhere
else," I said.
"Doc's gonna get out of his
troubles?"
"I think so."
"Then let the law take care of all
them bad people out there."
"It doesn't work that way, bud.
When you're the victim of a violent crime, most of the time you're on your
own."
"I ain't gonna argue. You're a lot
smarter than me. Can you loan me two thousand dollars?"
"What?"
"I signed up at the University of
Montana for the fall semester. I got to pay out-of-state tuition."
"If it's for your education, it's
not a loan. You know that."
"Thanks, Billy Bob. Me and Dogus
are going upstream. I'll catch you later," he said.
He picked up his fly rod and creel and
slung his fly vest over his shoulder. He and the mongrel dog walked through the
trees to a white, pebbly stretch of shoreline where the water had receded and
Lucas could back-cast without hanging his fly in the trees.
If indeed I was smarter than my son, I
thought, why did I feel I had just been had?
When I walked up the slope, Doc opened
the front door and tossed me the portable phone.
"Tell this guy to work on his
speaking skills. He's a little incoherent," he said.
"Which guy?"
"The sheriff."
I put the receiver to my ear.
"Hello?" I said.
"What'd be say?" the
sheriff asked.
"Sorry, I wasn't listening," I
replied.
"Then you'd better listen to this.
We just pulled Terry Witherspoon out of a tree. He's alive but that's
about
all. His back's broken. Guess who did it to him?"
"Wyatt Dixon?"
"Witherspoon left a knife blade in
Dixon's chest. He says Dixon has plans for you and the Voss girl and Ms.
Carrol."
"Thanks for telling us."
"You're responsible for all this
bullshit, Mr. Holland. I hope you can sleep at night."
"Like a stone. Good-bye, sir,"
I said, and clicked off the phone.
But my lie hung in my throat.
An hour later Holly Girard drove a hand-waxed, fire-engine-red Corvette across
the field behind the house and came to a stop two feet short of the front steps
and got out and slammed the door behind her. Her hair was blown into a tangle
on her head, her face red with windburn around her brown-tinted aviator's
glasses.
"Has Xavier been here?" she
said.
"Not to my knowledge," I said.
"Go inside and ask Doc and
Maisey."
"Pardon?"
"Do I have to say it more slowly so
you understand? Go inside and find out if that drunk idiot has been here."
"No, he hasn't. I can't think of
any reason he'd want to come out here, Ms. Girard."
"He went up to the set of my new
picture and accused the director of being a money launderer for
Nicki Molinari. He had a gun with him.
He starting screaming about protecting the river. I may be fired off my own
picture."
"A gun?"
"Oh, you are listening."
"I'd appreciate it if you'd take
your anger out on somebody else."
"You twerp," she said, and
went past me and into Doc's house.
Doc was reading in a chair by the
window, his granny glasses down on his nose. His eyes lifted up into Holly
Girard's.
"Eventually the poor, self-deluded
weakling I married will be out here. That's because you've been stoking him up
ever since you moved to Montana and he can't pee in the morning without first
praising the noble Dr. Voss. If you don't call the sheriff the minute you see
him, your troubles with rapists will be the least of your problems," Holly
said.
Doc folded his book and removed his
glasses and dropped them into his shirt pocket and gazed at her face.
"I'm really sorry to hear you take
that point of view, Holly," he said.
"You and your friends are so smug,
with your books that nobody reads. Did you ever have to make a payroll or tell
people they were laid off because of a revolution in Malaysia?" she said.
He started to reply when Temple came out
of the kitchen.
"Doc and Billy Bob are gentlemen.
I'm not. Get out of here, you stupid bitch,"
she said, and shoved Holly Girard through the door.
I WA L K E D
down in the trees by the river and sat on a pink and gray rock above a pool
filled with cotton-wood leaves that had turned yellow and sunk to the bottom. I
had lied to the sheriff about my peace of mind. The fact was I got no rest, not
with L.Q.'s wandering spirit, not with the anger and the thirst for blood and
vengeance that was like a genetic heirloom in the Holland family.
Witherspoon and Dixon deserved whatever
happened to them, I told myself. Their violence lived in them like a succubus;
I wasn't the catalyst for it. The law had failed Maisey; it had failed Doc; in
a way it had failed Sue Lynn Big Medicine. Sometimes you had to shave the dice
or be consumed by the evil that society or government, for whatever reason,
allowed to exist.
My carefully constructed syllogism
almost had me out of the woods.
But a strange sense of guilt and
depression seemed to settle on me, and it had nothing to do with Dixon or
Witherspoon. For the first time I knew with certainty why L.Q. Navarro's spirit
haunted me.
I had broken the troth the preacher had
described to me when I was river-baptized in the Winding Stair Mountains of
eastern Oklahoma. While I was still shivering inside my father's old Army
shirt, the preacher had leaned his long face through the truck window and had
told me I never needed to be afraid again, that
there was no mistaking the significance of the green-gold autumnal light that
had broken like shattered crystal across my eyes when I was lifted gasping for
breath from the stream. The burning in my skin was like no sensation I had ever
experienced, as different from prior association as the landscape had become,
the way the leaves of the hardwoods fluttered with red and gold, flowing for
miles like a field of flowers, all the way up the slope to the massive blue
outline of the Ozarks.
But fear that L.Q. and I would not
prevail, that we would not be vindicated or avenged, got L.Q. killed in an
insect-infested arroyo over amounts of narcotics that were minuscule in terms
of the larger market, that probably did not change the life of one addict or
put one dealer out of business. What a trade-off, I thought.
"I make you mad up there, throwing
Holly Girard out?" Temple said behind me.
"No, not at all. You were
eloquent," I replied.
"So what are you thinking on?"
"Carl Hinkel's gone missing. I know
where he is."
"Oh?"
"I made sure Nicki Molinari knew
about Hinkel's connection to the murder of Cleo Lonnigan's son. Molinari's
going to use Hinkel to get his money back from Cleo. I think Molinari might let
Cleo pop him."
"It's their grief," Temple
said.
"Maybe."
"Where you going?" she asked.
"To pull the plug on this if I
can," I said.
But there was no answer at Cleo
Lonnigan's house and her message machine was turned
off. I went back outside and took L.Q.'s revolver and a box of .45 rounds from
Lucas's tent and found Temple down by the river.
"Want a ride home?" I said.
"No. But I'll go with you wherever
it is that you and I need to go together," she replied.
e DROVE out to the Jocko Valley and Cleo Lonnigan's place, but she
wasn't home. I left a note inside her door that read:
Dear Cleo,
Do not go out to Nicki Molinari's
ranch, regardless of what you might consider the necessity of the situation.
I'm contacting the sheriff and informing him I think Molinari is involved with
a kidnapping. Eventually Carl Hinkel's fate will probably be worse than
anything you or I could design for him.
I wish you all the best,
Billy Bob Holland
I got into the truck and used Temple's
cell phone to call 911. A dispatcher patched me in to the sheriff. Once again I
had caught him on the weekend. I told him what I believed had happened to Carl
Hinkel.
"You're telling me it was Molinari
grabbed him in front of that barbershop?" the sheriff said.
"Yes," I replied.
"And you set it up?"
"Not exactly."
"No, you set it up."
"Okay."
"I'll pass on your information to
the sheriff in Ravalli County."
"When?"
"When I get hold of him. In the
meantime I'd better not hear from you again till Monday morning," he said.
I clicked off the cell phone and started
the truck.
"I have a feeling the sheriff isn't
sweating the fate of Carl Hinkel," I said.
"What do you want to do?"
Temple asked.
"I have to go out there. I'll drop
you off at your motel."
"Forget it," she said.
We drove into the Bitterroot Valley,
into its mead-owland and meandering river lined with cotton-woods and canyons
that were like dark purple gashes inside the green immensity of the mountains
in the west. Up ahead I saw four or five cars and a wrecker on the side of the
road and a highway patrolman interviewing two people and writing on a
clipboard.
One of the interviewees was Cleo Lonnigan.
She seemed to recognize my truck as we sped past her. In my rearview mirror I
saw her hand raised momentarily in the air, like someone trying to flag down a
bus.
"You think she'd shoot Carl
Hinkel?" Temple said.
"Maybe. It's not easy to do when
you have to look the victim in the eye."
"Hinkel and Wyatt Dixon aren't
victims. I wish I'd been there when Terry Witherspoon was taken down from the
tree. I had something I would have liked to say."
"What?"
"He would have remembered it."
We turned off the highway at
Stevensville and drove through town toward the Sapphires. I pulled into the
entrance of Molinari's but stopped when I saw the preacher from next door
standing on top of his church, an electric saw in his hand, staring at
Molinari's stucco house.
I got out of the truck and walked to the
fence that separated the preacher's and Molinari's property.
"Anything wrong?" I said.
The preacher draped his saw across the
crest of the roof and climbed down a ladder and walked toward me.
"There was a drunk man around here
last night and again this morning. I think he was looking for that greaser. But
he couldn't raise nobody," he said.
"What was he driving?" I
asked.
"A Jeep Cherokee. He knocked down
the mailbox."
"Where'd he go?" I said.
"He come back a little while ago.
That's why I was trying to see what went on."
"I don't understand," I said.
"I heard about fifteen pops. They
sounded like they all come from the same gun."
I got back into the truck and started
the engine and Temple punched in a 911 call to
the Ravalli County Sheriff's Department.
"Y'all going in there?" the
preacher said.
"Yeah, I think we'd better."
"Wait a minute," he said, and went
into his church house and came back out with a Bible. He climbed up into the
bed of the truck and scrunched down like a squirrel and hit the cab with his
fist.
We drove up to the stucco house and
parked behind Molinari's convertible and a white Cherokee. When we got out of
the truck, our footsteps seemed as loud as rocks on slate. Out in a field an
unmilked cow, its udder hard and veined, bawled in the wind. I picked up L.Q.'s
revolver from the seat and let it hang from my right hand. We walked through
the arcade that fronted the house, past the ceramic urns spilling over with
passion vine, around the side to the heated pool that looked like a chemical
green teardrop.
"Good God," Temple said.
A fat woman in a dress floated
stomach-up in the pool, her face goggle-eyed beneath the surface, her blood
already breaking up in the water. The man named Frank sat in a lawn chair, a
cigarette burning in his lap, a small bullet hole above one eyebrow.
A second man, one I didn't know, with a pink
face and thinning blond hair, lay on the grass, as if he had curled up and gone
to sleep, an exit wound in his neck. There were bees in the clover where he
lay, and one of his hands twitched involuntarily. When I felt his throat he
opened his eyes and tried to breathe and a hard piece of chewing gum fell out
of his mouth.
The preacher squatted beside him and
stared into his face. He patted the man's chest with the tips of his fingers.
"You ain't got to talk. I'll say
the words for you. You just pretend in your own mind they're your words. 'I
commend my soul into the hands of the Lord.' The prayer's that simple, son.
Don't be afraid. Ain't nothing bad can happen to you now," the preacher
said.
Temple and I walked on into the
backyard. The barn door was open and I could see Carl Hinkel tied to a chair
inside the batting cage. The area around his feet was covered with scuffed
baseballs. Hinkel's face didn't look human.
Xavier Girard sat on a plank table,
drinking from a huge red plastic cup that rattled with ice and smelled of mint
leaves and bourbon. His face was gloriously happy. A Ruger .22 automatic and
two spare magazines lay next to his thigh. "Where's Molinari?" I
asked.
"In the shower. He almost made it
to his clothes. He might have been trouble," he replied.
"Did you kill Hinkel?" I said.
"You bet. In the ear. Twice."
Xavier leaned forward and peered out the
door at the preacher bending over the man on the grass. Xavier smiled fondly,
then looked up at me and Temple, his eyes full of expectation, as though
somehow he had liberated himself from all the baggage of a dull existence and
he waited for us to usher him into his new life.
"Why'd you kill the woman?"
Temple asked.
"Frank's wife?" Xavier seemed
to review a scene in his head. "Yeah, she got it, too, didn't she? It's
hard to put the bottle down when it's half full. What a rush. I'm still
high."
The wind fluttered the barn doors. The
air was cool and filled with the smells of horses and alfalfa and distant rain
in the mountains. I didn't want to stand any longer among the creations of
Xavier Girard's alcoholic madness.
Xavier picked up his .22 and rested it
on his thigh, the balls of his fingers rubbing the checkered grips.
"Molinari left you a message. He said, 'Tell the counselor I'm
square.' What do you think he meant by that?" he said.
"You going to do anything else with
that Ruger?" I said.
"I haven't decided."
"Yeah, you have," I said. I
gave L.Q.'s .45 to Temple and wrapped my hand around Girard's pistol and
removed it from his grasp and pulled the magazine from the butt and ejected the
unfired round in the chamber and sailed the pistol by its barrel into the
barnyard. I stuck his spare magazines and the ejected round into my pocket and
poured his booze and ice into the dust and set his empty cup next to him, then
Temple and I walked back into the wind and sunlight and the rumble of thunder
out in the hills.
"Don't quote me about the rush. That
was off the record," Girard called out behind us.
Temple and I had to go into Hamilton with the Ravalli County sheriff, then we
drove back to Doc's place on the Blackfoot. Fires were burning in Idaho, and
the western sky was red with smoke, but a sun shower was falling on the
Blackfoot Valley and the light was gold on the treetops along the river and
there were carpets of Indian paintbrush and lupine on the hillsides.
I wanted to scrub all the sounds and
sights from Molinari's ranch out of my mind. But I knew I would dream about
dead people that night and the collective insanity that caused human beings to
kill one another and justify their deeds under every flag and banner and
religious crusade imaginable. Any number of people were probably delighted that
Carl Hinkel and Nicki Molinari were dead, and each of them would find a way to
say a higher purpose had been served. But I've always suspected the truth of
the human story is to be found more often in the footnotes than in the text.
Carl Hinkel would be lionized in death
by his followers, then replaced by someone just like him, perhaps someone who
had already planned to assassinate him. Molinari was a passing phenomenon, an
ethnic gangster caught between the atavistic bloodletting of his father's era
and Mob-funded gaming corporations in Chicago and Las Vegas that now operate
lotteries and casinos for state governments.
If Nicki Molinari's life and violent
death had any significance, it probably lay in the fact that he had volunteered
to fight for his country and had been left behind in
Laos with perhaps four hundred other GIs, whose names were taken off the
bargaining list during the Paris peace negotiations at the close of the Vietnam
War.
But those are events that are of little interest
today.
The only real winner in the mass murder
committed by an Edgar Award-winning novelist was an individual whose name would
not be reported in a news story. The man responsible for killing Cleo
Lonnigan's child had not only been tortured and executed, but Cleo now could
keep the seven hundred thousand dollars her husband had stolen from Nicki
Molinari and almost no one, including Xavier Girard, the shooter, would ever
know the enormous favor the fates had done her.
Doc fixed a late supper for all of us
and we ate in the kitchen, then I took a walk by myself along the river,
through the lengthening shadows and the spongy layer of pine needles under the
trees. The air was heavy with the smell of damp stone and the heat in the soil
as it gave way to the coldness rising from the river. But I couldn't
concentrate on the loveliness of the evening. I listened for the sound of a car
engine, the crack of a twig under a man's shoe, strained my eyes into the gloom
when a doe and a spotted fawn thudded up the soft humus on the opposite side of
the stream.
Then I saw a track, the stenciled
outline of a cowboy boot, in the sand at the water's edge. It was too small to
be either mine or Lucas's, and Doc didn't wear cowboy boots. I picked up a stone
and cast it across the stream into a tangle of
dead trees and listened to it rattle through the branches, then click on the
stones below.
But there were no other sounds except
the rush of water through the riffles and around the beaver dams and the
boulders that were exposed like the backs of gray tortoises in the current.
The sky was still light but it was
almost dark inside the ring of hills when I walked back to Lucas's tent. He had
built a fire and had turned on his Coleman lantern and was combing his hair in
a stainless steel mirror that he had hung from his tent pole. His guitar case
lay by his foot.
"Is Temple staying up here
tonight?" he said.
"That's right."
"He's out there, ain't he?"
"Maybe. Maybe he holed up in a
canyon and died, too. Maybe nobody will ever find him."
"Doc propped his '03 behind the
kitchen door," Lucas said.
"Then Wyatt Dixon had better not
get in his sights."
"You aim to cool him out, don't
you?"
"I wouldn't say that."
"You can go to church all you want,
Billy Bob, but you don't fool nobody. You get the chance, you're gonna gun that
fellow."
"Would you hold it against
me?"
He slipped his comb into his back pocket
and picked up his guitar case and removed his hat from the top of the tent pole
and put it on his head.
"You mind if I borrow your
truck?" he asked.
"You didn't answer my
question," I said.
"Like you say, maybe he holed up
and died in a canyon somewheres. See you later, Billy Bob. It don't matter what
you do. I love you just the same," he replied.
Sunday morning Temple and I drove up the Blackfoot into the
Swan Valley to look at property. The lakeside areas and the campgrounds along
the river were full of picnickers and fishermen and canoeists, and we walked
with a real estate agent along the shore of Swan Lake and I stood in a copse of
shaggy larch that was cold with shadow and cast a wet fly out into the sunlight
and watched it sink over a ledge into a pool dissected by elongated dark shapes
that crisscrossed one another as quickly as arrows fired from a bow.
Something hit my leader so hard it
almost jerked the Fenwick out of my hand. The line flew off my reel through the
guides and the tip of my rod bent to the water's surface before I could strip
more line off the reel, then suddenly the rod was weightless, the leader cut
with the cleanness of a razor.
"What was that?" Temple asked.
"A big pike, I suspect," I
replied.
"We have to get us a place here,
Billy Bob."
"Absolutely."
I looked at the severed end of my
leader. The air seemed colder in the shade now, damp, the sunlight out on the
water brittle and hard.
"What's wrong?" she said.
"I don't want to leave Lucas
alone," I replied.
But my anxieties about my son seemed groundless. When we got back
to Doc's he was sitting on the front porch, the belly of his Martin propped
across his thigh, singing,
"I wish they'd stop makin' them
ole pinball machines.
They've caused me to live on crackers
and sardines. "
"Everything okay, Doc?" I said
in the kitchen.
"The sheriff called. He said Wyatt
Dixon's car was found in a ditch the other side of the Canadian line. No sign
of Dixon," he replied. He was washing dishes, with an apron tied around
his waist, and his arms were wet up to the elbows.
"What's your read on it?" I
asked.
"I think Dixon and General Giap
would have gotten along just fine. When the NVA drew us into Khe Sanh, Sir
Charles tore up Saigon."
"Maybe Dixon's not that
smart," I said.
"Right," he said, and threw me
a dish towel. Outside the window I saw a flock of magpies rise from the top of
a cottonwood and freckle the sky.
Later we would discover he had boosted the skinned-up brown truck
outside a pulp mill in Frenchtown, west of Missoula. How his own car
ended
up in Canada no one would ever know. But during the night Wyatt Dixon had
crossed the Blackfoot above us and slept in a campground, dressing the wound in
his chest, from which he had extracted the knife blade with a pair of
needle-nose pliers, eating candy bars and drinking chocolate milk for strength.
He had snaked his way across Forest
Service land and parked in a low spot sheltered by trees on the river and watched
the front of Doc's house through binoculars, a .44 Magnum revolver on the seat,
waiting until he could assess who was home and who was not.
He watched me and Temple leave and
return. Then he saw Doc and Maisey come outside together and walk past Lucas
and get in Doc's truck and drive through the field in back and return a few
minutes later with a horse trailer they had bought from a neighbor.
Wyatt Dixon could feel himself growing
weaker, see the inflammation in his wound spreading beyond the edges of the
bandages on his chest. He pulled the tape loose and poured from a bottle of
peroxide into the gauze. He watched the peroxide and the infection it had
boiled out of the wound seep down his stomach.
Time was running out, he thought. All because
he had let a jail bitch like Terry get a shank in him. Maybe if he was that
dumb he deserved to be cooled out. He shook his head in dismay and finished a
carton of chocolate milk and pitched the carton out the window.
Then the moment came. Raindrops ticked
on the canopy overhead and sprinkled the surface of the river with interlocking
rings, as though hundreds of trout were feeding on a sudden fly hatch. Lucas
stood up from the steps and put his Martin inside its case and snapped down the
latches, then carried the guitar in its case down to his tent on the riverbank
and got inside and pulled the flap shut. A moment later Dogus scratched on the
flap and went inside, too.
Wyatt Dixon fired up his truck and
floored it out of the trees, snapping the wire on a fence, scouring dirt and
pinecones into the air. The steering wheel spun crazily in his hands, then he
righted the truck and bore down on the tent, shifting into second gear now, the
truck's body bouncing on the springs, the cleated tires thumping across rocks
and driftwood.
The truck tore through Lucas's tent,
splintering the poles, crushing Lucas's guitar case, blowing cook-ware and fire
ashes and camp gear in all directions. But Wyatt Dixon's efforts were to no
avail. While he had come powering out of the woods, he had not seen Lucas exit
the opposite side of the tent with Dogus and walk down to the water's edge to
cast a spinner into the riffle.
Wyatt Dixon braked the truck and stared
through the back window at Lucas, who had dropped his rod and picked up a piece
of driftwood the thickness and length of a baseball bat. I was out on the porch
now and I saw Wyatt Dixon shift into reverse, the front of his beige shirt
stained as though he had left an open bottle of Mercurochrome in his pocket. I
cocked L.Q.'s revolver and fired at the
truck without aiming.
The round cut a hole in the back window
and exited the windshield and whined away in the woods. I gripped the revolver
with two hands and steadied my arm against a post and sighted on the side of
Wyatt Dixon's face, then squeezed the trigger. But the shot was low and must
have hit the steering wheel. Dixon's hands flew into the air as though they had
been scalded.
He shifted into first and drove into the
field, headed for the dirt road and the log bridge that would take him across
the river. I walked into the yard and fired until the cylinder was empty, the
recoil jerking my wrists upward with each shot, my ears almost deaf now. The
entry holes on the truck cab looked like dented silver coins embedded in the
metal.
I watched the truck grow smaller in the
distance and I thought Wyatt Dixon had eluded us again. Then the truck swayed
out of the track and cruised through a long swath of Indian paintbrush and came
to a stop six inches from the trunk of an aspen tree.
I went back into the house and removed a
box of hollow-point .45 rounds from the kitchen table and shucked out the spent
shells from L.Q.'s cylinder and began reloading. Temple and Doc
were out in the backyard, staring at the truck in the distance. Doc worked the
bolt on his Springfield rifle and ejected a spent cartridge in the dirt and
locked down the bolt again. The keys to his pickup were on the table. I picked
them up and dropped them into the drawer I had taken
the box of .45 rounds from and closed the drawer, just as Doc entered the room.
"Where you going?" Temple
said.
"I'll check on our man. Y'all call
the sheriff's office," I said.
"He's alive in there, Billy Bob.
The truck stopped because Doc hit the engine," Temple said.
"Really?" I said, and went out
the front door before they could say anything else and drove into the field.
Through the rain I could see Wyatt Dixon
moving around inside the cab of his truck. The wind had grown cold and torn
pieces of cloud hung in the hills, like smoke rising out of the trees. In the
rearview mirror I saw Doc and Temple and Lucas standing in the yard, like three
figures trapped inside an ink wash.
I cut my engine just as Wyatt Dixon
opened the passenger door on his truck and half fell into the weeds. He raised
himself to one knee and reached for the .44 Magnum that now lay on the
floorboards. I grabbed him by the shirt and pulled him away from the cab, and
was surprised at the level of his physical weakness. He tried to get up but
fell again, then pushed himself up against the rear tire, his face bloodless,
his eyes blinking against the rain.
"Are you hit?" I asked.
He shook his head and breathed through
his mouth, as though he were trying to oxygenate his blood. His eyes looked up
at the revolver in my hand, then at my face.
"I told you, you'd know when it was
my ring," he said. His teeth showed at the edge
of his mouth when he smiled.
"I got a problem, Wyatt. I'm afraid
you'll be on the street again one day."
"Folks love a rodeo clown. They
don't got no love for lawyers."
"Why'd you bury Temple?"
"It made me feel good."
I squatted down next to him, L.Q.'s
revolver propped across my thigh.
"You a praying man?" I asked.
"My daddy was. I never took to
it."
"Your clock's run out,
partner."
He nodded and looked out into the rain.
"Give me my hat."
"Pardon me?"
"My hat. It fell on the floor. I
want my damn hat."
I reached inside the open passenger door
and picked up a white Stetson with a gray feather in the band and knocked the
dust off it against my thigh and handed it to him. He pulled it down on his
head and stared out under the brim into the field of flowers. His shirt was
buttoned at the throat, and the flesh under his chin looked old, wrinkled,
peppered with white whiskers.
I knelt on one knee, three feet from
him, and pointed L.Q.'s .45 at his jawbone.
"My notion is nobody knows what
goes on inside a man like you. But all your life you look for a bullet. If need
be, you make the state your executioner," I said.
He turned his head slowly toward me, the
pain rippling upward into his face.
"I ain't afraid of no man. Do it
and be done. I'll live in your dreams, motherfucker," he said.
I removed a hollow-point round from
L.Q.'s revolver and dropped it into his lap.
"That's why you're going into a
cage, Wyatt, where somebody can study you, the way they would a gerbil. We plan
to have a good life. You won't be part of it, either."
I stood up and felt the bones pop in my
knees. I steadied myself against the side of the truck, kicking the stiffness
loose from one leg, like a man who knows he's a little older, a little more
worn around the edges, a little more prone to let the season have its way.
I got into my truck and drove through
the rain toward Lucas and Temple and Doc and Maisey, who were walking toward me
under a huge red umbrella, indifferent to the lightning that split the sky.
Wyatt Dixon's .44 Magnum proved to be the weapon that had killed the biker and
rapist Tommy Lee Stoltz. The death of the third rapist, the one who was found
drowned in his chest waders, was written off as accidental. But I suspect Carl
Hinkel ordered the attack against Maisey as a way of hurting her father, then,
after Lamar Ellison was killed, had the other two men murdered in order to hide
his own culpability.
But we'll never know the entire truth of
what happened. Wyatt Dixon went to trial and gave up no one, even though he was
facing a capital sentence. Oddly, the jury seemed to like him. At least two
female jurors couldn't keep their eyes off him. When Dixon was sentenced to
sixty years in Deer Lodge, he drew himself to attention and saluted the judge
and called him a great American.
Terry Witherspoon confessed to burying
Temple alive, not out of remorse but to incriminate Dixon
and
pile as much time on him as he could. The irony is that while Witherspoon was
hospitalized in a body cast, his bloodwork came back HIV positive. Dixon may
leave prison one day but Witherspoon will not.
I received a letter from Xavier Girard,
written from the same penitentiary where Dixon and Witherspoon were being held.
It was short and did not contain either the litany of grief or the
self-pronounced redemption that is characteristic of most people who have made
a holocaust of their lives. It read:
Dear Mr. Holland,
I wanted to apologize for making a
nuisance of myself. You seemed like a nice gentleman and I'm sure you had more
to do than put up with a lot of grandiose and silly behavior from an expatriate
coonass.
I've given up fiction for a while and
have gone back to writing poetry. I think some of my new poems are pretty good.
I can't say I've learned very much in here, unless an old truth that I knew as
a young man and forgot as I reached my middle years. A writer's art is only as
good as his devotion to it. I forgot that I didn't do anything to earn my
talent. I burned my own kite but I hurt a lot of other people as well.
Come see me anytime in the next few
decades. I'll be here.
Please consider this letter an
apology to Ms. Carrol as well.
Best to you both, Xavier
Girard
After the charges against Doc were
dropped, Temple and Lucas and I drove back to Texas through the northern tip of
New Mexico and stopped for the night at Clayton, a short distance from the
Texas state line. We walked from the motel at the end of what had been a scorching
day to a nineteenth-century hotel named the Eklund and had dinner in a dining
room paneled with hand-carved mahogany. The hotel was three stories, built of
quarried stone, anchored in the hardpan like a fortress against the wind, but
the guest rooms had long ago been boarded up and the check-in desk and boxes
for mail and metal keys abandoned to dust and cobweb.
On the wall of the small lobby was a
framed photograph of the outlaw Black Jack Ketchum being fitted with a noose on
a freshly carpentered scaffold. Another photograph showed him after the
trapdoor had collapsed under his feet. Ketchum was dressed in a black suit and
white shirt and his face showed no expression in the moments before his death,
as though he were a witness to a predictable historical event rather than a
participant in it.
Most of the patrons entering or leaving
the dining room were local people and took no notice of the photographic
display.
Temple and Lucas and I walked outside
under a turquoise sky that was turning yellow with dust. The streets were
empty, the air close with the smell of impending rain and a hot odor blowing
from the stockyards west of town. We walked past a movie theater called the
Luna, its marquee blank, its thick glass doors chain-locked. At the end of the
main street a long string of grain cars sat idly on a railway track. The only
sounds we heard were a shutter banging and a jukebox playing inside a stucco
tavern.
Northwest of us was Raton Pass, a steep,
pinyon-dotted canyon that leads out of the mesa country into the old mining
town of Trinidad and the beginning of the Rocky Mountains, where the glad of
heart come on vacation to rediscover the American West. In the morning we would
cross the Texas line and drive through the remnants of the old XIT Ranch and
into the industrial vastness of the twenty-first century. One city would not be
different from another, its petrochemical plants burning as brightly as
diamonds at night, offering security and prosperity to all, its shopping malls
and multiplex theaters a refutation for those who might argue the merits of an
earlier time.
I looked back over my shoulder at the
stone rigidity of the hotel and its scrolled-iron colonnade, a huge cloud of
orange dust billowing up behind it against the sunset, and I wondered if cattle
and railroad barons had hosted champagne dinners in the hotel dining room, or
if cowboys off the Goodnight.
Loving Trail had knocked back busthead
whiskey in the saloon and shot holes in the ceiling with their six-shooters. Or
if the town had never been more than a dusty, wind-blown place on the edge of a
stockyard where the most memorable event in its history was a public hanging.
But I think it was all of the above,
truly the West, unappealing to those who have seen only its facsimile, found in
no tourist brochure, the old buildings creaking with heat and decay, awaiting
the arrival one day of those children of John Calvin who saw down forests and
poison rivers with cyanide as votive acts and reconstruct the very places they
have just fled.
"Why so quiet?" Lucas asked.
"Was I?" I said.
"We thought maybe we should take a
pulse beat," Temple said.
"It's been a hot day," I said,
and wiped my forehead on my sleeve.
"Time for some ice cream,"
Lucas said.
"That's a fine idea," I said.
The three of us walked on down the
street to a small grocery store. The bell on the screen door rang when we went
inside. An elderly Mexican man was reading a newspaper in front of a television
set with a cracked screen. His skin was creased and brown as chewing tobacco
and his eyes pale to the point of having no color, like those of a person who
has spent most of his life outdoors in harsh light.
He folded his newspaper loosely on a
chair and walked behind the counter and looked at us
expectantly, bemused by our presence in his store, perhaps embarrassed by the
paucity of his goods and the little he might have to offer.
It's funny the places you end up.