An aged vaim stood guard in the elegantly arched doorway of the concubines’
chamber, sunken into his robes like a shriveled piece of fruit; the sea
breeze that snaked through the honeycombed halls of the tower carried his
death stench to Khatire’s delicate nose.
She lifted her hand, as smooth as the stones polished by the
waves, and held it thoughtfully to her mouth, pinching her nose shut
surreptitiously. In a hundred-fifty or two hundred years, long after she was
dead and her body devoured by the spinrag, her son could be standing there,
his rotting flesh locked to living spirit to serve his father, his emperor,
and god. The three were, after all, one.
Or, her son might be anointed to climb the Crystal Stair. He
might, if Khatire schemed well and used all her talents, become emperor and
god himself.
She had stared too long. The vaim lifted his cowled head in her
direction. His red eyes burned beneath the shadow of his hood and a chuckle
escaped the decayed meat of his mouth.
A voice from the far end of the room startled her: “Khatire.”
It was Ankha, the emperor’s head concubine, the one currently
chosen to have her son attempt the stair.
Khatire turned languidly. Ankha sat on a cushioned throne at the
high end of the chamber, overseeing a double row of Khatire’s sister-wives,
each situated within her own engraved and gilded arch. Khatire’s place was
all the way at the end, near the door. “My lady?”
Ankha lifted her chin toward the lute in Khatire’s lap. “Entertain
us.”
As one, the other concubines turned from embroidery or quiet
chatter to gaze at Khatire. Nefaria, hidden deep within her archway at the
foot of Ankha’s pillowed throne, said, “Please, my lady, don’t make the rest
of us suffer simply because you’re bored.”
Ankha scowled at her and waved a hand impatiently at Khatire, who
obediently plucked a series of mournful minor chords on the lute strings. A
melody suggested itself to her, a poignant tune of youth, beauty, and death.
She experimented a little, adding fear in counterpoint. Ankha settled back
in her chair and closed her eyes. A smile stretched across her
statue-perfect face, a smug, fed-kitten smile that beamed familiar triumph.
A triumph that Khatire understood far too well.
Someone was going to die.
Khatire fumbled an E-minor, inhaled deeply to still her heart, and
continued to play. Her eyes darted about the room as she tried to determine
which of them it would be. It relieved her to rule out the pregnant ones.
The Emperor tolerated his concubines’ petty assassinations, was even amused
by them. But His Splendor needed children—they were his eyes and ears in the
world, the vessels of his power while he remained in exile—and no one dared
harm one, even unborn. Khatire dismissed the women with limited magic next,
then the witless ones, and settled on two possibilities.
Lhare or Nefaria.
Lhare was a tiny white-haired girl, lovely in spite of her
red-chafed skin, who sat even nearer the door. Khatire’s strumming pattern
softened as she watched the delicate child huddle on a red silk cushion,
toes burrowed into a sheepskin. It was no secret that after each tryst with
the emperor, Lhare went straight to the baths. There, she scrubbed her skin
until it was as raw and bloody as if she had stood naked in a sandstorm.
Naturally, he sent for her often. Ankha despised her.
But Ankha seemed to despise Nefaria more. Nefaria was Khatire’s
chambermate, and the closest thing she had to a friend among the women. The
emperor had not favored Nefaria of late—indeed, she worked hard to escape
his notice—but her wit could slice stone, and she was brave enough, or
foolish enough, to take cuts at Ankha.
Khatire pressed down hard enough to feel the lute strings through
her calluses. Please not Nefaria. She couldn’t imagine sleeping at
night without whispering to Nefaria first. A few years ago, before the birth
of her son, she would have dared to intervene, maybe even used magic to keep
Nefaria alive. Now, she dodged every risk. Her jaw locked. I must stay
alive for my son.
She finished her prelude and closed her eyes to sing, reaching
only for the oldest, most familiar version of the song. It seemed tragic to
her that the concubines of the god-emperor of Viridis had only a lute and
endless embroidery with which to amuse themselves. She wondered if that,
more than anything, was why they killed each other.
The resolving chord faded, and she held onto the final note,
letting it linger in the air like the last light of day before the sun sank
in the ocean.
Silence. And then a single applause.
Khatire lifted her head. There, just inside the doorway, at the
arch of the fragile Lhare, stood Emperor Damijan, the god in exile. His
eyes—like her son’s but for their cruelty—were sky blue and surrounded by
lashes and brows so black the contrast was uncanny. A harsh jaw and black
hair framed his face, which was filled, as always, with unreadable intent.
Her heart beat at the base of her throat. Heaven save me, he’s beautiful.
“That has always been my favorite song, Khatire.”
She dropped her eyes. “I hope you enjoyed my performance, Your
Splendor.” Heat filled her cheeks, and she instinctively twisted the fall of
light around her face to disguise the blush.
Khatire nearly cursed at her own stupidity. She had used magic in
the concubines’ chamber! Tensed for retribution, she glanced to see if he
had noticed.
But he had reached down with his long fingers and stroked Lhare’s
white hair as if she were a favorite dog. “Yes, even more than the song, I
enjoyed the sound of your lovely voice.”
“Thank you, Splendor.”
“Attend me this evening.”
Khatire inclined her head in perfect composure, though he had not
called on her in weeks. When she looked up, he was gone. Lhare pulled a silk
blanket across herself and curled into a ball among her pillows. The vaim
stood wide of the door, as if to distance himself from the man it was
impossible for him to ever become.
“Well, well, Khatire.” Ankha’s voice, from the far end of the
chamber. Khatire turned and saw the head concubine’s pretty mouth fixed in a
rigid line. When Ankha was angry, the emperor’s poisoned seed revealed
itself as black veins under her skin, the first lines of the soul-rot that
would leave her a wasted shell long before she reached old age. “Luck is
definitely yours this evening.”
Oh, gods. It was me. She was going to kill me. And the emperor
has ruined her plans.
♦ ♦ ♦
The eunuch Tuamutef groomed Khatire in the readying room. He
fussed and scolded with mock gravity, accompanied by the constant tinkle of
the bell earrings that marked his station.
Khatire sat on a cushioned stool as he massaged musky oil into her
calloused fingertips and brushed her black hair until it shimmered. He’d
selected a gown of gauzy aqua to set off her dusky skin and blue-green eyes.
She knew that she was beautiful in it, but it felt like her death shroud.
“I will light a candle to Natrix tonight and pray that you
conceive,” Tuamutef told her.
It was a ritual, something he said to each of the women before
sending them to Damijan.
“If you have an extra candle,” Khatire said, “please light it to
Cerastes and pray she does not embrace me too soon.”
The brush halted mid-air. He squatted to look her in the eye. “Why
do you say this?”
“Ankha would have killed me tonight were it not for the emperor’s
desire.”
Tuamutef had discovered her in the offering pens years ago, and
pulled her out before slavery made her unsuitable for the emperor. After
years of his painstaking preparation and instruction, the emperor claimed
her and sent her to the concubines’ tower. She’d been sixteen years old.
Tuamutef earned a new bedchamber for it, one with a sitting room that
overlooked the sea.
He studied her face. “You are sure?”
She hesitated. Years of unremitting fear made her taste poison in
every dish and see a knife in every shadow. But then she remembered Ankha’s
smile. “I am sure.”
Tuamutef set the brush down and rubbed his fleshy stomach. “Do not
eat anything from the lounge or dining room. I will have food sent directly
to your chamber.”
“Thank you, Tuamutef.”
“There will be a dagger hidden with the food. But, please!” His
small eyes were plaintive. “If you are caught with it, do not tell them it
was I who—”
“Of course not, Tuamutef.”
He paced. “And ring for me before you go to the baths. Do not go
alone.”
Khatire remembered Aphri’s body in the great marble pool, floating
face-down, swollen and stiff. Her wet hair had hugged the surface, a shiny
black starburst among the clouds of soap film. Ankha had loudly mourned the
tragic accident, but before they threw the corpse to the spinrag, Khatire
saw the purple finger-sized marks circling Aphri’s throat. “I will ring for
you.”
Tuamutef poured himself a drink of wine. When he swallowed it, he
returned to massage her scalp, his touch gentle and soothing. “You must
live.”
He alone knew the extent of her Gift. The emperor needed a Paha
Vaim, an heir powerful enough to remain whole in the face of his father’s
magic instead of rotting away into a living death like all the others. Only
then would Damijan’s exile end and he be permitted to rejoin the other gods.
Anut-Ka, Khatire’s four-year-old son, might be the Paha Vaim, but it would
be years before they knew for sure.
Khatire performed one of her lesser tricks with light. Glittering
stars rained down from the ceiling and circled Tuamutef’s head. In the
offering pens, she had only been able to change the color of flames, make
green light dance on candletips, but it had been enough even then to draw
the eunuch’s attention.
She wanted to see him smile, to give him something in return for
the risk he was running for her. But he shook his head, almost angrily, and
she blinked the lights out of existence.
“You know...,” he started to say.
“I know,” she interrupted. If Anut-Ka had inherited her Gift, or
one equally as powerful, then he might be tutored to survive the poison of
bearing the blood of god. Until then, if any of the concubines with greater
status and lesser magic discovered the truth of Khatire’s gift, her death
would be swift and certain. Revealing her talent to Damijan might only
hasten her murder. He seemed to think that their competition with each other
was the best way to find someone strong enough to breed his heir. He could
wait for centuries, after all.
“Do not presume to be safe tonight, my dear child,” Tuamutef
cautioned. “Especially when you are returning from His Splendor’s chambers.
Ankha is clever. If you are lucky, we can announce a pregnancy a month from
now, and that will gain us another year’s reprieve. Until then, I will help
you in any way I can.”
Khatire stood, the hem of the gauzy dress falling to the floor
like the chains of iron fetters. “Thank you, Tuamutef.”
The bells on his ears already jangled down the hallway, fading
away to nothing.
♦ ♦ ♦
Two armed vaimen waited to escort her to the emperor. They were
accompanied by one of the favored daughters, a girl no more than nine or
ten, who bore a thurible that burned incense to mask their smell. The four
of them paraded silently through the corridors of the concubines’ tower to
the Bridge of Broken Wings. They stopped at the foot of the bridge and
Khatire continued alone, stepping across the gently curved arch that
connected the tower to the emperor’s spire. A constant wind rushed through
the pointed arches formed by the wings of granite angels. Hundreds of feet
below, the tide surged between the cliffs, dashing waves on the black rocks.
One night, Marijan, unable to bear children and unwilling to face the
emperor’s tainted touch one more time, had stepped onto the ledge between
two angels and leapt toward heaven. She lay shattered on the rocks below
until the gulls picked clean her bones.
Khatire stayed to the center of the path, following the shallow
groove worn in the stone by the passage of thousands of feet, until she
reached the other side and followed a short corridor to the lowest chamber
of the spire. A large circular bed dominated the room, a squat platform with
white drapes hanging from a pointed canopy.
The room’s other doorway opened onto the Crystal Stair, spiraling
steps wrought by magic that burned with their own inner light. The stair led
to the emperor’s spire. Even the strongest vaimen grew ill after climbing
the first few levels; no one but the Paha Vaim could ascend to the highest
chamber. On the day that happened, the emperor’s exile would end and he
would take vengeance on his fellow gods.
Khatire could not think of that day without shaking. A flagon of
wine rested on a small mahogany table next to the ridiculous bed. She poured
a healthy amount into the jeweled goblet and then set it aside. There were
slow-acting poisons that would not kill her for a day or two. Ankha’s
assassins could reach this far, and would, if she meant her own son to
ascend those stairs. Only if Anut-ka climbed the crystal stairs would she
ever be free. She pushed aside the flimsy drape and crawled onto the huge
bed.
A gentle caress against her cheek startled her.
“Khatire.”
She turned over and saw the emperor’s unlikely blue eyes looming
over her.
“Your Splendor,” she breathed. Fingertips whispered down her face,
her neck, to the base of her throat where they rested. His touch burned, and
she wondered if this was one of his Gifts, this glamour that made her desire
him so.
He bent down and kissed her on the neck; his soft hair tickled her
jawline.
“I sense the magic in you,” he whispered in her ear. “Though you
keep it hidden, my clever girl.”
What did that mean? Would he favor her, or throw her like a bone
to Anhka? “Anut-ka carries my Gift within him as well, your Splendor,” she
whispered, knowing it might not be true, knowing there would be no way to
tell for years.
“We do not speak of my vaimen here,” he said.
She nodded in acceptance of his correction, and, forcing herself
to relax, began to unbutton his vest. As she worked, he held her face in
deep contemplation. Something glinted in his eyes, something furtive like
the cold reflective edge of a dagger in flight, but with his fingers so near
her breasts, she didn’t care.
“You’re not afraid of me, are you, clever girl?” His fingers
trailed down the gauze of her gown. His hand splayed across the belly that
had already given him one son.
“No,” she whispered truthfully, arching into the warmth of his
palm.
Not now. Not like this. Only afterward, when my body is full of
your poison and my soul is black with your rot.
She reached up with both hands, pulled his head down, and kissed
him fiercely.
♦ ♦ ♦
Much later she awoke alone, both satiated and sick, in a room dark
but for the cold pinprick light of the stars piercing the narrow window
slits.
She understood why Lhare scoured herself so brutally in the baths.
The emperor’s touch was a slow-working venom, a malignancy of decay that she
could taste in her mouth like a burned spice. Normally, Khatire would have
retired to the baths at once, accepted the pampering of the offering slaves,
and then returned to her own sleeping chamber, the small room she shared
with Nefaria.
But as difficult as it was to accept, she knew she would never be
safe anywhere in the concubines’ tower again. No, if the emperor had noticed
her true Gift, then others also suspected.
She pushed her head back into a pillow, covering her eyes with her
palms. It was almost too overwhelming to face. Then she thought of Anut-ka
and blessed Natrix for giving her reason to persevere. If she could convince
Ankha that she was weak, she could use the poison she had collected from the
spinrag—
Air stirred like a candle flame brushed by a moth’s wing.
Khatire sat straight up in the huge bed, every sense afire, but
she searched in vain for the cause of her alarm. The air was warm, but not
oppressive. A cooler, brackish breeze filtered through the open windows and
bantered with the bed’s silken drapes before brushing across her naked
flesh. The lap and suck of the sea’s breakers flirted with the castle
foundation hundreds of feet below. But she discerned nothing that could have
brought her to such abrupt alertness.
Then, through the curtains, near the door, a nearly imperceptible
lightshift.
Light never deceived her. She quietly folded back the drapes. Even
in the night’s blue dimness she saw it, an odd shadowing on the floor below
the doorframe. No one else in the tower would have understood the
significance, but she was a lightbender and read the language of its
flitting particles as well as she did High Corthan.
Someone stood in the torchlit corridor.
Khatire drifted further from realsight. Thousands of light
particles darted with amazing variety. Each direction change, each nuance of
hue, described the mysterious figure in the corridor beyond: a man, tall,
wide, most likely hooded.
Ankha must have convinced one of the vaimen to kill her. She had
probably bedded the creature.
Khatire eased her naked body from the bed and found the cool stone
floor with bare toes. Her heart drummed in her throat, and her hands became
icy strangers, but she forced herself to creep with painstaking calm to the
door. When the vaim entered, she could bend the light to create darkness
where she stood and then slip out behind him. She pressed her back to the
sandstone wall, took a measured, silent breath.
The door boasted a gilded handle, deceptively blue in the
starlight. Slowly, it turned.
Khatire wrapped herself in shadow.
The door opened and torchlight poured into the chamber. Khatire
adjusted the light furiously, like a roof shedding rain, to remain
concealed. The vaim entered, skimming the floor with ghostly elegance. His
cowl was dark and thick. An older vaim, then. One who needed the hood to
hide his advanced rot.
He paused in the doorway. His cowled head rotated, and she
glimpsed the twin red glimmers of his eyes. She wished she had thought to
create a lump in the bed, some illusion that she still rested there, if only
to purchase a few extra seconds or a few steps head start.
An odd sound came—two staccato rasps. The vaim’s head turned in
her direction. She didn’t breathe. The noise came again, hoarse and whispery
like a snuffling hound.
He could smell her. His Gift.
Whoever sent him knew her Gift, and her Gift was her only
advantage. She panicked and tried to slip through the door. The vaim’s arm,
quick as an asp, hooked around her waist and pulled her close.
The sweet scent, like fruit-glazed meat, made her gag. She
stiffened in his grasp, her body tiny and vulnerable in his arms.
“Come, whore, beg for your miserable life.” His voice was a
gleeful rasp, as sharp as the knife that he pressed against her neck.
Khatire turned her head away from his cowl, from the greenish,
marbled skin and the sick red eyes. Was this Anut-ka’s fate? She closed her
eyes and imagined her boy’s sweet face, sky-eyed and chubby-cheeked, and
then she thought of him sneering at her, holding a blade to her throat, his
eyes flashing from blue to fire-red.
Never.
The vaim hesitated because she refused to respond. With a hiss, he
pressed the dagger deeper, sending a trickle of blood into the hollow of her
throat.
Khatire ignored it, reaching frantically for the image of mistress
Ankha. She drew light particles to herself, washed her face in them, and
sent them off in wild directions, a controlled explosion of color. She knew
what the vaim would see: Ankha with her dark eyes and copper hair, leering
at him with desire.
The dagger clattered to the stone, and the vaim lurched back,
shoving her away. “My lady?”
Khatire staggered free, shaping her mouth into Ankha’s smile, the
one that meant someone was about to die.
“My lady, I thought that.... In the darkness it seemed.... You
have already dealt with the whore?”
She nodded, not trusting herself to mimic Ankha’s voice.
“Then I will see to her child.”
She froze. Anut-Ka.
She wasn’t conscious of letting her illusion slip, but as he bowed
low and turned to go, the storm of flitting particles faded to realsight. He
caught the subtle shift from the corner of his eye and spun back around,
cloak whispering at his ankles. Khatire dropped to the floor and fumbled for
the dagger. Her soft palm found the blade and she ignored the slicing pain
as she grappled for the hilt. He stepped toward her, hissing in anger. Her
now-slick hand wrapped around the bone handle as his skeletal fingers
grasped her shoulder and the claws of his hands pierced her skin. She
gathered her heels beneath her for leverage, then launched upwards,
thrusting with an underhand stroke. She grunted as the point took the
creature in the throat. Hot liquid, too thick for mere blood, gushed across
her forearm as she drove it up into his skull.
His claws released her shoulder and he crumpled to the stone
floor, tearing the blade from her hand. The red lights within his cowl
blinked out like drowned coals, and a final wet gasp bubbled from his body.
The soggy darkness that marred his cloak spread to the floor and puddled.
Stink filled the room like nectar spilled from a poisonous blossom.
Khatire couldn’t seem to catch her breath, afraid to swallow the
fouled air. The cut in her palm throbbed like heartache. She had just killed
one of the precious vaimen. In the eyes of the emperor, her life was
forfeit.
A dozen possible doors opened for her in that moment, but they all
led to the same terrible end. She could not throw the body from the bridge.
It would be spotted within an hour or two, just as Marijan’s had been. She
could not drag the body through the palace to the spinrag’s lair. Even if
she were strong enough, the smear of blood along the corridors would give
her away. She couldn’t conceal the corpse because of the stench. Even if she
solved the problem with the body, she couldn’t scrub the stains from the
chamber floor before the servants arrived to change His Splendor’s dirtied
sheets. Not even Tuamutef would help her solve this problem. He would find
another concubine to train and he would try again.
All the other doors closed. Only one remained open.
Her hands shaking, her body slick with sweat, she turned toward
the Crystal Stair, squeezing down a sob. She had to leave the palace before
the corpse was discovered. She had to take Anut-ka with her, to spare him
the retribution meant for her and the life of a vaim without a mother’s
protection.
She ran to the bed, tearing a strip from her dress to bind her
bloody hand. She thought about throwing the dress across her body and
decided not to. No, she would leave everything behind. It would be easier to
bend the light around her if she didn’t have a stray hem flapping at her
heels.
She stepped over the vaim’s body into the doorway, then stopped.
If she could not escape, she would need a different option for herself and
her son. Holding her breath, she squatted next to the body and yanked the
dagger from his chin. Trembling, she wiped the blade on his rich, black
robes. The vaim’s blood had already etched scars in the steel blade.
Bone hilt in her palm, she ran naked across the bridge and entered
the dimly lit corridor of the concubines’ tower. A vaim guard slept near the
entrance, either drugged or derelict, but she bent the light to cast an
illusion of sandstone, glittering orange in the torchlight, while she hugged
the far wall and eased past him. A favored daughter, delivering a carafe of
wine, looked twice when Khatire used the same trick to hide again. Khatire’s
fist tightened around the hilt of the dagger, but duty called the small girl
on. By the time Khatire reached the high tower chamber she shared with
Nefaria, she was exhausted but resolute. She and Anut-Ka would be gone by
morning, or they would both be dead.
Khatire cracked the chamber door and then hesitated. Escape depended on
secrecy and silence; Nefaria could not suspect that anything out of the
ordinary had transpired. She waited until she heard her friend’s steady,
easy breathing, and then she closed the door behind her, leaving it
unlatched.
She tiptoed to her own mattress. She put on her sleeveless night shirt, and
then over it a simple lamb’s wool dress with pockets big enough to hold the
dagger. As she took quick stock of her meager possessions, she considered
how she and her sister-wives were kept like little more than breeding
cattle, two to a stall, with straw mattresses to sleep on. Only Ankha was
permitted many personal possessions, and even those were few. But the
concubines lived and died like mayflies compared to the length of His
Splendor’s existence. All the real wealth was saved for his children,
especially the sons. Was she right to drag Anut-ka away from that? He could
be the one anointed to ascend—
I must forget. Escape was their only chance. She shoved the doubts
aside and filled the dress’s dagger-sized
pockets with underclothes and stockings, a pair of slippers, the only other
dress that she could wad up small enough to fit. She put a larger dress on
over the lamb’s wool.
The next part was the most dangerous, because there was no way to do it in
absolute silence. She crouched beside her bed and lifted the corner of the
mattress. Her fingers found the tear that she had carefully made in the
fabric, and she slid her hand through the rustling straw to collect her
secret possessions, the things she was not meant to own: a silk cloth
wrapped around bits of jerky and dried fruit, saved for when she feared
poison too much to eat from the common kitchen; gold coins, spilled from the
pockets of ambassadors given ease among the cushions of His Splendor’s
cast-off concubines; a tiny vial of diluted spinrag venom. The straw
scratched at her skin as she withdrew each item.
Over her shoulder, her friend still lay quietly on her mattress.
Khatire sighed in relief and gathered in the particles that danced around
Nefaria’s face, memorizing her precious features, wasting precious seconds.
Goodbye, Nefaria.
She rose and tiptoed toward the door. Her thoughts raced ahead,
forming a plan to remove Anut-ka from the children’s quarters.
“I’m glad you’re alive,” came the whispered voice.
Khatire whirled, her heart pounding in dismay.
Her chambermate pushed up to a sitting position, then yawned and
stretched her slender arms toward the ceiling. “I tried to catch your eye,
to warn you, but Tuamutef whisked you away before I could do anything to
help.” She glanced at the sky through a window too narrow to squeeze
through. “You’ve come back early.”
A half dozen explanations rolled across Khatire’s tongue, but none
of them would fool Nefaria. She was too clever, and too familiar with lies
to be fooled by them.
“Khatire?”
“Nefaria, I—”
“What’s wrong? Did His Splendor fall short of your expectations?”
“A vaim came to kill me after the emperor left,” Khatire
explained, voice flat.
“Oh gods,” Nefaria said, hand covering her mouth. “How did you—?”
“I stabbed him. With his own knife.” She lurched across the room
and embraced Nefaria, wrapping an arm around the other woman, squeezing her
tight. Her other hand slipped inside her dress, reaching for the dagger. She
would kill again and again if she had to, in order to save her son.
“I want to go with you,” Nefaria whispered in her ear.
Khatire’s hand jerked out of her pocket and she pulled away. “What
do you mean?”
“You feel like a pillow. You must be wearing everything you own.”
“No,” she said, but it was a reflex.
“Do you remember when you were first chosen for the tower and
given the seat next to the door?” Nefaria asked. “I came to comfort you, and
you asked me: ‘How does it feel to be a whore of the most powerful man in
the world?’“
“The ambassadors called you—us—that. So do the vaimen.”
“I remember thinking you were too young to be so bitter. I told
you we weren’t whores, that we were only slaves who didn’t have any choice.
Do you remember what you answered?”
That seemed like a very long time ago, measured in lifespans
instead of years. “I said there is always a choice.”
Nefaria nodded. Khatire let her vision fade to realsight so she
wouldn’t see Nefaria’s face in the dark. “There is always a choice,”
Nefaria echoed. “And I no longer choose to be a whore.”
“I can’t take you with me.” But Khatire heard the catch in her own
voice.
“You must. Either take me with you or put your hand on that dagger
again and kill me before I go.”
“What makes you think—?”
Nefaria stood, reaching for the alcove with her clothes, dressing
as she spoke. “Please, if you leave me behind, I will be discarded by the
emperor as untrustworthy and given to the vaimen for questioning. When
they’re done using me, they’ll toss me to the spinrag.”
Khatire didn’t know if she could shadow them both, much less all
three of them once she retrieved Anut-ka.
Nefaria’s hands were shaking so badly, she spilled everything on
the floor. “Please, for gods’ sake, say something.”
“Be quiet. And hurry.”
She considered gathering light—enough that Nefaria might see what
she was doing—but her nerves were jangled and her Gift required
concentration. It would take all her focus to hide their escape, so she
thought ahead to the corridors, the torches, the doorways she could use to
their advantage.
Nefaria dressed as Khatire had done. She held up the edge of her
white gown and turned it inside out. “I sewed things into the hem. A silver
necklace I grabbed from Tuamutef’s store when he wasn’t looking, that nose
ring I told him I lost—”
“We’re taking Anut-Ka.”
Nefaria froze. She had birthed two children for the emperor, both
daughters, and she had sent both of them away to the nurseries without a
second thought. Some of the concubines were like that, especially those who
had not given birth to sons. “We should just take all the children,” she
snapped. “We can use their tiny bodies as shields when the vaimen come for
us.”
Khatire’s hand slipped into her dress for the hilt of the knife.
“If you want to come, that is the condition.”
Nefaria moved again, her shakiness gone, her gestures as sure and
confident as a dancer’s once again. She tugged slippers over her feet and
tied a dark scarf around her head in one efficient motion. “Of course,” she
said. Then she whispered. “Are the vaimen born or made? I have always
wondered.”
No answer came to Khatire’s lips. She had never thought to ask
that question before and dared not pause to think about it now. Precious
minutes were passing and the alarm might sound at any moment. She nudged the
unlatched door open. “Stay very close so I can hide our passage. It is part
of my Gift—”
“I have seen you do it,” Nefaria said, stepping into the corridor
after her. “Once, down by the cobbler’s workshop, when Ankha was coming. You
didn’t notice me because I was already hiding from her, but I saw you step
into a corner and simply... fade into the shadows. How do you do it?”
“Have you ever shared your Gift with me?”
Nefaria’s silence was answer enough.
Khatire could see in the darkness, stepping surely in places where
Nefaria might stumble. She put the other woman’s hand on her waist, to keep
her close, and headed down the corridor. Khatire winced as Nefaria’s layers
of silk sighed with each step. Blurring the light of their passage would be
useless if others heard them. The weight of the dagger in her pocket swelled
with accusation, and guilt hammered the base of her throat.
There is always a choice.
But not yet. She did not need to choose between her son’s life and
Nefaria yet.
♦ ♦ ♦
The concubines’ tower was a long, curving wall of window- pierced rock
rising from a cliff spur that split the sea from a valley choked with broken
stone. The concubines occupied the uppermost floors, the children the broad
floors below that connected along a causeway to the public palace and the
meadows. On the lowest level, among the foundations facing the ravine and
the trash pits where the wind seldom stirred, lived the oldest vaimen, lost
in rot and drowned hopes as they still clung to life. No portion of the
palace was more heavily guarded than the tower. Eunuch sentries watched each
stairwell and intersection. Their earrings tinkled every time they stirred,
a sound that ran through the halls at night like the feet of mice.
Khatire held all this in her head, but she couldn’t think about it
without her stomach knotting too tight to move. Make it through the
Bitter Chamber, that is the next step.
And maybe the hardest. She and Nefaria crept along the walls,
draped in the illusion of shadowed stone. Their clothing betrayed them with
every step, but the crackling torches and lapping breakers outside
camouflaged the murmuring fabric. They stole past one guard standing at the
Hall of Blue Swallows, then passed another pacing restlessly at the top of
the Bath Stairs, carefully timing their rush past him as he paused to turn.
Sweat broke out on Khatire’s forehead as she maintained patient, painful
concentration during each step down the stairs. They had descended several
levels, passing open archways, when someone came up from the baths, rounding
a corner in the stairs and startling them so suddenly Khatire dropped her
illusion. They jumped back a step as the other figure did the same.
“Who goes there?” the dark shape said, louder than a whisper but
not loud enough to reach the guard up the stairs.
Nefaria’s fist knotted in the back of Khatire’s dress. Khatire
reached for her dagger, but Nefaria pulled her dress too tight to reach it.
“Tuamutef,” Khatire said.
The eunuch stepped forward from the shadows. The bells that
dangled from his ears made no noise. He had removed the tiny clappers.
Seeing her reaction, he held open his palm to show ear bells connected to a
ring so he could mimic the proper sound of his passing.
“When you didn’t call for me, I grew worried for you,” he said.
His eyes, which had been shifting nervously up and down the stairs, settled
on Khatire and Nefaria, with all their layers of clothes. Hope sprung in
Khatire’s heart. It would be so much easier to reach the children’s level if
Tuamutef distracted the guards.
He shook his head once.
“Help me,” Khatire whispered.
His soft features shifted from frightened anger to a sad smile. He
shook his head again, this time placing his hand on her wrist. The ear bells
hidden in his palm cut cold into her skin. “Only if you turn and go back to
your room this minute.”
“I can’t,” she whispered.
“Then I can’t either,” he said. “It is each to her own in the
world beneath the stair.”
He looked past her then, as if she were invisible to him, hidden
by her Gift, and walked up the stairwell, tinkling the bells he carried.
Khatire grabbed Nefaria’s hand and hurried on. Tuamutef would not
seek out the guards, but he would tell everything if they came to him. Tears
welled in her eyes. She held them back until they seemed to fill her throat
enough to choke on.
Down two more levels, they came to the thick main blockhouse of
the tower. The stairwell opened on an anteroom guarded by a marble statue of
Tabia, the first empress. Tabia had died in childbirth, swearing vengeance
on any woman who married His Splendor after her, and so in all the centuries
since he had only taken concubines. She was beautiful and terrible; the
sculptor who captured the delicate structure of her bones was bold enough to
reveal the cold, imperious curl of her lip. She loomed over the room as if
she were still willing to crush anyone in her way—Khatire shuddered to look
at her. Beyond her stood a wide archway framed in veined quartz blocks,
alternating pink and yellow tones that curved toward the ceiling. The
Chamber of His Splendor’s Seed. The room where Damijan inspected his brood
of children, where they were selected for favored status or discarded, the
intersection of the concubines quarters and the children’s level. His
concubines called it the Bitter Chamber.
Two sentries, young, wide-eyed, and alert, stood on either side of
the arch. Nefaria, as exhausted as Khatire, loosed a small gasp of despair.
Khatire squeezed Nefaria’s hand—it was hot and damp—and inhaled to
still her own fear. Though Nefaria feared the sentries, Khatire was
petrified of the prismed stone. She had passed this crystal archway with its
shattered torchlight only once before, more through luck than skill.
She focused on the flitting light—so fragmented!—and gradually,
particle by particle, bent it to her will. If she could draw the sentries
out of the arch and send them down the hallway, even a half dozen steps, she
and Nefaria could slip through unnoticed. She reached behind them, shaped
the light to form a human shadow, then bounced it off the sandstone.
One sentry’s head snapped toward the movement, his eunuch’s
earring chiming. Torchlight reflected off his waxy scalp and oiled topknot.
“Did you see something?”
The other sentry, equally alert after his companion’s reaction,
shook his head.
She concentrated harder, giving the shadow more form and sending
it down the opposite corridor again.
“I saw it that time,” the second guard said, taking a few steps in
that direction. The first one came up and stood by his side.
It wasn’t the half dozen steps Khatire needed, but she might not
get another chance. She gave Nefaria’s hand a gentle squeeze. Tuamutef had
abandoned her, but Nefaria was with her still. The farther she went, the
more that mattered to her. Steadying herself with a quiet breath, she
embraced the crazed light bouncing off the quartz, controlling and
reflecting it to create an illusion of nothingness. With soft, measured
steps they moved toward the crystal archway. Nefaria’s hand burned in hers,
and Khatire dripped sweat beneath layers of clothing.
The sweat on her forehead collected into a single rivulet. She
felt it reach her eyebrow and trickle, cooler and wet, down the bridge of
her nose. Her body’s liquid, refracting the light she oppressed, was its own
tiny, unexpected prism.
Khatire blinked.
The first guard turned, peering through the spot where they stood
in disbelief. “What is that?”
The other drew both daggers from his thighs. His kohl-rimmed eyes
swept the torchlit corridor, then the crystal entryway, even the dark fog of
the room beyond.
Khatire pulled Nefaria forward, faster now that she was losing
control.
“I’m not sure. A shimmer—there it goes!”
Khatire crushed Nefaria’s hand in her fist, and the other woman
stifled a small cry.
But the sound was drowned out by the laughter of the second guard.
“It’s only the empress’s ghost. I told you Tabia walks these halls to see
that no one marries His Splendor.”
The women were through.
Khatire yanked them to the right, out of sight along the
dark-enveloped wall. She fell to the stone floor, bruising her knees. Her
mind fluttered between Gift and realsight, riotous color competing with
comforting darkness while her stomach churned. Nefaria squatted beside her,
reached for the criss-crossed ties at the neck of Khatire’s woolen dress.
She yanked them apart, spread the collar wide, and fanned cool air against
her breasts.
“We must keep moving,” Nefaria whispered. “Or it will be our
ghosts who haunt these halls.”
Khatire squeezed her chambermate’s hand in thanks, then rose.
Beyond the Bitter Chamber, the palace was guarded sparsely all the way to
the outer walls. The emperor had learned centuries ago that his children
were more malleable when they saw their mothers regularly, and Khatire had
visited the nursery every day for three years as was her privilege. She
traversed the familiar stone corridors with confidence, taking advantage of
every shadow, every odd angle, and they reached the lower children’s level
without illusion. Khatire needed the rest. After the pass through the last
arch, she was not sure how much, or how soon, she could rely on her Gift
again.
The older children caused more mischief, especially at night, and
were more heavily guarded to protect others as well as the emperor’s
interest. But the nursing children were tended only by women too plain or
powerless to be considered as concubines. So Khatire wasn’t worried about
entering the nursery. The hall finally ended in double doors, burnt mahogany
and twice her height, carved with sharp, brutal lines making a vast
spiderweb of green and black. She placed her hand on the door.
Nefaria clutched her wrist. “I can’t.”
Khatire spun on her angrily. “It’s too late to have second
thoughts now,” she hissed.
“I have no second thoughts,” Nefaria whispered. She could not look
at Khatire—no, she could not look at the door. She was one of the mothers
who had never visited her own children in the nursery, not even once. “I...
can’t. Not there.”
Khatire thrust Nefaria into a shadowed corner. “Wait here.”
She turned to go, but Nefaria’s hand darted out to clutch her
wrist again. “What if you’re caught?” she whispered low and urgently. “How
do I escape the palace?”
“We’re going through the spinrag’s bone-nest,” Khatire said,
turning away a second time.
Nefaria hiccupped a laugh and grabbed Khatire once more. This time
when Khatire spun on her, Nefaria’s eyes glowed like two pale moons. “Oh
gods, you’re not joking....”
Khatire jerked her arm free, then grasped the brass handles of the
web-swathed doors and pulled them open. No, she wasn’t joking. The spinrag’s
lair was the only way out where they wouldn’t be seen or caught. But first
she had to rescue Anut-ka.
Within the receiving room, a marble likeness of the emperor’s face
glowered at her from atop its spiraled pedestal. Tuamutef said it had been
carved centuries ago, before the emperor marched his armies across the
continent, before the gods had exiled him to this tiny demesne pinned
between the desert and the sea. Even carved in marble, it made her knees
weak and gave her the thought, for just a second, that she might scurry back
to His Splendor’s bed and beg another chance.
He was like a drug, potent even when diluted. She wrenched her
gaze from the statue, and passed through the beaded curtain that covered the
nursery entrance. Though she parted the strands slowly, carefully, the beads
clattered like a tiny avalanche of pebbles.
Within the vast room, no one stirred at the noise. She tiptoed
across the polished mahogany floor, around scattered sleeping pallets, where
the tiny children slept like puppies. Three small boys cuddled together
around a stuffed lion. Lhare’s small daughter, the only blonde, lay in the
embrace of an older sister, sucking noisily on her thumb. High, open windows
cooled the air, so that many of them huddled under blankets. Khatire crept
from bed to bed, face to face, searching the sleep-parted lips and
sheet-clenched fists for something familiar. There! Dark, arched brows and
long black lashes—the eyes that Anut-ka inherited from his father.
Khatire reached out to grab the child, who twitched with dreaming,
and froze. It was a girl, almost four. Khatire’s hand went to her throat.
They were all brothers and sisters, all bearing mark of their father’s
features. A lump, hard and stinging, grew in Khatire’s chest. There were so
many!
She could only save one.
Stepping quietly around the room a second time, she found him at
last, cozied into a corner where sandstone wall met mahogany paneling, arms
wrapped around a sheepskin. She brushed his plump cheek with her
fingertip.
“Mama?” he murmured, reaching for her.
“Shhh.” He always knew her, even in the dark. He hugged her neck,
snugging his head against her shoulder until he found the right spot to go
back to sleep. She could carry him out like this. It might work.
Until they reached the spinrag.
She rocked her hips back and forth to sooth him, while reaching
for the vial of poison in her bag. A taste, no more, would keep him
sleeping. The cork popped free under her thumb. She hesitated, then dabbed
it on her finger, which instantly went numb. Hand shaking, she wiped her
fingers on his lip.
He scrunched his face, rolled his head away from her.
“Shh, one little lick, Mama’s medicine,” she murmured. Unsure that
he’d swallowed any, she reached into her pocket and tipped the bottle
one-handed onto her finger again. She time she put her finger in his mouth
and smeared it on his tongue.
He began to choke, near to crying, but she rocked him and stroked
his hair to settle him. One of the children was sitting up in her sheets,
watching them. Khatire kept her back to the girl and walked toward the
beaded curtain, hurrying away before the child called out for their nurse
sleeping in the next room.
She found Nefaria, backed into the corner where she left her. She
jumped when she saw Khatire and her son, trying to retreat further into the
shadows.
“We must go,” Khatire whispered, walking past.
“Khatire, I—” She choked off a sob.
Khatire stopped, hugging Anut-ka protectively.
“I’m so sorry.”
“What did you do?”
“I was afraid, I’ve been so afraid. Ankha found the dead vaim, I
had to tell her something—”
“Ankha was here?” Anut-Ka squirmed, and she realized her
grip on him had tensed. She relaxed her hold, but kept her other hand tight
on the dagger.
“No, no. I mindspoke to her. It’s my Gift. I told her you came
back to the room, that you ran to hide in the servants’ quarters. Oh, gods,
I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.”
Khatire’s mind reeled. The servants’ wing lay at the opposite end
of the palace, nearer the public walls and not the spinrag’s nest. Nefaria
had lied to buy them time, so why was she apologizing?
She was apologizing because she had been Ankha’s spy all along.
Ankha let Nefaria have a seat near the throne because she hid from the
emperor and rarely tried to bed him anymore. Ankha had assigned them as
chambermates when the emperor began to favor Khatire, after her son was
born, just so Nefaria could spy on her. Nefaria had guessed the power of
Khatire’s Gift and warned Ankha.
Nefaria held up the hem of her dress, her hands shaking as much as
her voice. “I sewed things into my nightgown, I stole from Tuamutef. I want,
I want to go home, Khatire, I want to escape. Please. I lied to Ankha—”
Khatire let go of the dagger and shifted Anut-ka’s weight to her
other hip. He had grown heavy with the drug, unable to hold onto her. She
turned and hurried down the hall. “Come if you want.”
“Gods, thank you—”
“Don’t you dare speak to me.”
♦ ♦ ♦
If the guards were rushing to search the servants’ quarters they
might have only minutes left to escape. Khatire tried to still her heart and
mind to prepare for the spinrag. She had only approached it once before,
when Ankha had thrown a slave girl to the creature and made all the
concubines watch. The spinrag, already glutted and drowsy, had stung the
girl then crawled off to sleep in its hole among the cliff-bottom rocks.
Khatire, wrapped in shadows, the taste of vomit in her throat, had crept
down and stolen poison from the swollen sting-lump on the dead girl’s body,
to use on herself if she couldn’t bear to continue. Then, within days, she’d
discovered she was pregnant, and her life had changed.
Anut-ka sagged in Khatire’s arm, too heavy to carry much longer.
She grabbed Nefaria by the elbow and propelled her through the kitchens,
weaving through chopping blocks and stone ovens, past an enormous spit of
thick poles over greasy sand. Beyond the spit lay a trap door.
“We slide down the trash chute,” Khatire whispered, heaving on the
metal ring. “You go first. Now, listen close!”
Nefaria nodded, her eyes red, full of tears and uncertainty.
“When you land, don’t move. The spinrag will see you come, but she
strikes at movement. If you remain still, she’ll wait for you to move
again.”
“How will we get past her?”
“Anut-Ka and I will slide down after, and I’ll create a flash to
blind her. You must keep your eyes closed until I tell you to open them.
That will give me time to form the illusion we need to pass.”
The trap door lay open. Cooler air hit their cheeks, briny and
damp and tinged with rotting vegetables. Nefaria sat on the edge, swung her
legs into the hole. “Khatire, are you sure—”
“Remember, don’t move,” Khatire said, and shoved her through with
a slippered foot. Nefaria’s gasp faded as the silk swaddling whisked her
through the chute.
Khatire shifted Anut-ka’s body again as she sat on the edge of the
chute. A drool stain soaked the shoulder of her dress. His face was slack,
but his eyelids fluttered when she tickled his cheek. Gods, she hoped she
had guessed the dose right. She had tested it only on herself, only once.
Cerastes, spare my son, please. She had no candle to offer
as she prayed, so she formed a flickering light in the air in front of her,
hoping the goddess would forgive her for also using it to prepare her
defense against the spinrag.
A shriek clawed at her heart from far below, high and terrified.
The light failed. Then pain burst across her temples; Nefaria was
mindscreaming.
Khatire reeled, falling into the chute, trying to clutch Anut-ka
to her chest. Her head bounced against the fungus-lined wall, her leg
twisted under her, and Anut-ka slipped from her hands. She tried to pull him
back in, grasping frantically for her Gift at the same time.
She fell into open air and slammed into soggy, putrid garbage.
Anut-ka tumbled from her hands and rolled down the compost heap. The spinrag
crouched over Nefaria—a shining black carapace, barnacle-covered, with
twitching pinchers. It lunged at Anut-ka’s rolling body.
Khatire screamed light; her voice, her terror, and her Gift as
one. She lurched forward, stealing every particle of light from every star
in the sky and exploding it like a shipful of fireworks.
She blinded herself, bleaching the landscape before her eyes to
layers of white and stained white, all of it a blur. The spinrag, only a
pale gray now, clattered away, scattering rocks and bones in its rush to
escape. Khatire fumbled on her hands and knees until she reached Anut-ka and
scooped him to her chest.
“Shh,” she whispered comfort, rocking his silent body against her
chest. “Shh.”
The spinrag lived at the ocean’s edge, hunting the vermin that
picked among the garbage. She only had to make her way past the compost
dumps, up the slope to sheltered places among the rocks where she could rest
until her sight returned. From there, she could find a way out of the
valley, past the boundaries of the emperor’s prison-demesne.
Khatire staggered to her feet, took a few steps with Anut-ka.
Panting, she glanced over her shoulder, prepared for the spinrag’s next
attack, but it was like looking at the world through a thick veil. A stone
tumbled behind her—she clutched Anut-ka to her chest and nearly screamed.
But no movement followed her. Her feet left the layers of garbage
and rot, and she began to climb up the rocks. She slipped, banged a knee,
held Anut-ka with one arm, tore her fingers on the stones, always climbing,
until she reached a little ledge where they both spilled flat. She lifted
him and carried him between a narrow crack of stone to a wider ledge.
Where are you?
Khatire kicked herself upright, back to stone.
Khatire?
Nefaria was mind-calling her. The spinrag’s sting must have only
grazed her. Maybe the stinger got stuck in all the layers of cloth, spilling
its poison in the silk instead of flesh.
Help!
If Nefaria panicked, if she mind-called Ankha for aid, she would
bring all the guards down on them at once, before they could escape.
“I’m coming,” she whispered. Nefaria, wait for me, I’m coming.
She rolled Anut-ka over to the wall. His body was nothing but dead
weight, and she could feel no breath stirring in him. She feared she had
given him too much poison, but she couldn’t stay to fix that now. She
wrenched the dagger from her pocket, and, closing her mind to realsight,
tried to see only with her Gift. From her vantage point, she stared down
across the wet mounds of garbage at the spinrag’s hiding place, a lightless
hole, black against the glistening mounds of rotting vegetables and
slime-covered stone around it.
The huge pincers emerged out of the darkness first, tapping the
ground as they came, covered with barnacles that made them swirls of rough
light. The body came forward in a rush, its stilt-legs carrying it with
astonishing speed. The tail curved over the body, bouncing like a brawler
looking to land a punch. Near the barbed tip of the tail bobbed a venom sac
the size of a human skull.
Help me!
“Don’t move.”
Khatire scrambled down the rocky slope, sliding to the bottom.
Cautiously, she inched toward Nefaria.
Behind the spinrag’s pincers, on either side of its knobby head,
were thousands of tiny eyes. Drawing on her Gift, Khatire formed a
silhouette against the ragged wall. She forced the shadow to scamper, like a
frightened rat, into one of the many branching corridors away from Nefaria.
The spinrag clicked its sideways jaws opened and shut as it stepped toward
the false shadow, feet clicking tat, tat, tat. It did not go far
enough. Khatire flicked a group of light particles against the wall.
The tail lashed so hard it nearly pulled the spinrag over when it
failed to connect. Poison shot out of the tip, making a shiny wet splash
against the rocks. Khatire threw the light again, and the spinrag jumped at
it, slashing with its pincers.
Wrapped in shadow, Khatire ran to Nefaria’s side. “I’m here,” she
whispered.
“I can’t feel half my body,” Nefaria pleaded. “My left side is
numb. I didn’t see it coming. I think I can walk, if you help—”
“Shh, lie still,” Khatire said, kneeling beside her friend. The
knife was hidden at her side. One sudden slash, just like she had done to
the vaim, and Nefaria would be no more danger to them. She deserved it,
deserved it for betraying Khatire’s trust, for revealing her secret, for
putting her life and her son’s life in danger. She was a bad person, a bad
mother who ignored her own daughters.
“Can you make it quick?” Nefaria whispered, hiding her eyes in the
crook of her arm. “I don’t want the spinrag to take me.”
Her pale neck lay exposed, bright as desert sand in moonlight to
Khatire’s Gift. The blue veins pulsed under the skin. Khatire’s fist
tightened on the dagger.
The spinrag’s legs came toward them, tat-tat-tat. She threw
another ghost of light and shadow across its path, but this time it did not
jump. The creature had learned.
Khatire dropped the dagger into her pocket. Her heart pounded, and
her hands sweated. Nothing stood between them and the spinrag. Extending the
shadow over Nefaria, she reached under her and helped her to her feet.
Nefaria’s head hung to one side, her left eyelid drooping, lips slack. One
leg dragged behind her, toes kicking for purchase, but the other seemed
steady enough. Her weight did not feel that much heavier than Anut-ka.
The spinrag lunged at the spot where Nefaria had lain, jabbing at
the ground with its pincers. The head came up and swiveled from side to
side. The tail flexed and tensed, coiled, ready to strike.
Khatire crafted another illusion, cat-like and darting, on the
other side of the refuse pile.
The spinrag took a few steps in its direction. Tat, tat, tat.
Then it stopped and cocked its head again.
Khatire tried once more—a tiny lightburst along the far wall that
made the stones sparkle. The spinrag didn’t move.
They were nearly to the wall, to the steep climb and the narrow
squeeze between the rocks. The spinrag swiveled its head from side to side
again. Khatire dragged Nefaria up the slope, pulling her toward what she
hoped was the safety of the ledge. Nefaria helped, clutching with her one
good hand, balancing their climb with her good leg.
Her dragging leg dislodged a small rain of stone.
The spinrag crossed the distance in less than a blink, its huge
tail smashing into the rocks where their feet had just been. Nefaria
flinched, nearly slipping away, dragging both of them down the slope.
Khatire panicked.
She exploded light so hot, so dazzling, that pain seared her
eyesockets. Nefaria whimpered, flinching again, shielding her face. Khatire
gritted her teeth and yanked Nefaria’s body up the ragged rock as the
spinrag’s tail slapped the stones again, splashing hot venom across her bare
ankles. She blasted ball after ball of light, on one side and the other. The
spinrag skittered upslope through the lightbursts, dislodging splatters of
stone. Its pinchers smashed within inches of Khatire’s face. Its tail lashed
all around them.
And then they tumbled onto the ledge. Nefaria, sobbing, dragged
herself with one arm to safety through the crevice in the stone. Khatire
fell on her back, nearly spent, nearly blind.
A vague shadow reared over the lip of the rocks.
Khatire shaped a thousand darts of light and flung them at the
spinrag’s head in a focused blaze as bright as the midday sun. The creature
jerked back so suddenly it tilted off-balance, and tumbled head over tail
down the slope, bringing a slide of rock crashing around it.
Or so Khatire guessed from listening. Her world was only black.
She sat there in the dark for a long time, with no idea where the
ledge was, where the crevice was, or where she could find her son’s
still-poisoned body. Even when she heard Nefaria stir, cloth whisking stone,
she sat, trying again and again to make light blossom, even a spark. But she
could see nothing. Tears wracked her body until she heard the wounded limp
of Nefaria’s footsteps and felt a hand fall on her shoulder.
“It’s almost dawn,” Nefaria whispered. “We have to go where they
can’t see us from the windows.”
“I’m blind,” Khatire answered.
“I didn’t call Ankha,” she said. “She doesn’t know where we are.”
“I don’t care.”
“You must live,” she said urgently.
Khatire laughed. “Must I?”
“Anut-ka stirs.”
What could she do for him, blind and helpless? Then she he heard
his voice, muffled, confused, and her heart leapt toward it. She staggered
to her feet, nearly falling over. “This way,” Nefaria said, lifting
Khatire’s hand to her shoulder.
Together they felt their way through the rocks. Anut-ka’s mumble
resolved into mama. “Shh, I’m here,” Khatire whispered. Nefaria led
her to his side, and he climbed into her arms even as she was kneeling, his
weight tipping her over against the rocks. She clutched him tight, feeling
his eyelashes brush her cheeks, his hair between her fingers, and she
thought how she would never see his face. She began to weep again.
“Mama, what’s wrong?” he murmured. His breath was sour, as if he
had vomited.
“Nothing’s wrong,” she said, almost laughed as the tears flowed
even stronger. The poison was out of his system. She held his head in her
hands and kissed his face until he pulled away. “It’s going to be fine.”
“We found a staircase,” he said, tugging at her hand.
“It’s old,” Nefaria said at her side, startling her. “Made by
workmen maybe, centuries ago. It leads over the ridge and out of the valley
to the desert.”
Which was the way they must go to escape.
Khatire rose, wiping the tears from her eyes, and listened. The
waves pounded the rocks on the other side of the palace, and the air was
filled with salt. Somewhere up above them was the Bridge of Broken Wings,
and beyond that the emperor’s spire and his plan to find the Paha Vaim and
escape his exile. If she had survived the intrigue, and Anut-ka had become
the heir, she would have lived the rest of her days in a splendor known only
to emperors and gods. Now, she would be a blind beggar woman with a useless
Gift and a son to raise, both of them living in an exile of their own
making.
“Mama, look at it shine,” Anut-ka said, tugging at her hand again,
insistently.
“It’s the wet rock, lit up by the dawn,” whispered Nefaria.
“Is that it, mama?” Anut-ka asked. “Is that the Crystal Stair?”
“Yes, it is,” Khatire said. She squeezed Anut-ka’s chubby little
fist and held tight to Nefaria. “Let’s climb it together.”