Double Destiny

by Caroline Anderson

When handsome, wealthy Josh Nicholson turns up in Fran's ER needing her attention to a minor injury, it seems like her long Monday will end on a high note. She doesn't suspect that accepting Josh's innocent invitation to coffee will set in motion a chain of events that will transform her life.

Because what Fran doesn't know is that destiny has more than one plan in mind for her -- it has two?

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Destiny has more than one plan for Fran Williams - it has two: Rich, wealthy and energetic Josh Nicholson and charming, sensual, single father Dr Xavier Giraud!

Can a woman choose her own destiny? Could there be more than one Mr Right?

Follow Fran’s double destiny in:

ASSIGNMENT:SINGLE MAN – Tender Romance™ NOVEMBER 2002

ASSIGNMENT:SINGLE FATHER – Medical Romance™ DECEMBER 2002

 

He was the archetypal tall, dark, and handsome -- and he was bleeding all over her department.

Fran sighed. Technically she was off duty now but everyone else was busy. Besides, at least he wasn’t dying, unlike all her other patients today, and she might as well end Monday on a high note.

Ignoring her sore feet and overwhelming thirst, she took his sheet from the tray and glanced at him again. He was slouched against the back of a chair, his head bent as he lifted away a wad of tissue and studied the spreading stain on his shirtfront.

“Mr Nicholson? Would you come with me, please?” She didn’t wait to see if he was following, just walked off, conscious of the firm, even tread behind her. She went into a cubicle, turned and stopped in her tracks.

Blue eyes. So blue – cobalt, like a tropic night, and rueful. She returned his smile, unable to help herself, and waved at the chair. “Have a seat, let’s take a look at you.”

He sat, peeling back his shirt to expose a slice in his chest, just between the flat copper coin of his nipple and his smooth, firm shoulder.

Right on his luscious and well-formed pecs. Oh, boy.

“So, how did you do this?” she asked, peering at the wound and trying not to be distracted by his body or that mobile and expressive mouth just on the edge of her vision.

“I tripped over a damned cat and fell in a pile of rubbish,” he said, his deep voice rough with disgust. “I knew I didn’t like cats. Now I know why.”

Suppressing a smile, Fran snapped on gloves and took a closer look, then once she was satisfied there was nothing lurking in the wound, she cleaned him up. He winced and let out a tiny grunt of pain, and she patted it dry and straightened.

“Poor baby,” she teased gently. “It’ll need stitches, but it’s clean and there’s no penetrating injury. I’ll numb it.”

He snorted and said something on the lines of “about time” under his breath, and she hid her smile. It took only minutes to suture him, but by the time she’d finished, she knew the Underground would be chaos. Still, that was London for you. She sighed quietly, but not quietly enough.

“Problem?” he asked, easing on his jacket over the ripped and bloodstained shirt.

She shrugged. “It’s rush-hour. The Tube will be heaving, and I can’t be bothered to walk. I’ll just wait for the rush to subside.”

“Have I held you up?”

She gave him a rueful grin. “You’re not the only one. It happens all the time.”

“But this was my fault. Let me get you a coffee while you wait.”

“You don’t need to do that,” she protested, but he just smiled that sexy, crooked smile and his eyes twinkled mischievously under the firm, arching brows.

“Oh, I do. Besides, I’m still feeling a bit iffy – reaction to the anaesthetic, I expect. You ought to keep an eye on me, really--“ his eyes scanned her badge, “--Sister Williams.”

Suddenly -- ridiculously – breathless, she laughed at him and pulled open the cubicle curtain, to find everyone’s eyes riveted on them.

“Just quickly, then,” she agreed. “There’s a canteen in the hospital—“

He pulled a face. “I had in mind somewhere a little bit more...”

He paused, and Fran chuckled. “I’m sure we can find somewhere a little bit more. Give me two minutes and I’ll be with you,” she promised, and went into the locker room. A moment later the door behind her opened and shut with a little click.

“Do you know who that is?” Anna hissed.

Fran glanced over her shoulder at her colleague and friend. “Should I?”

Anna rolled her eyes. “Are you being deliberately obtuse? His name’s Josh Nicholson. Think about it. I have to go, I’m needed in Resus.” She disappeared again, leaving Fran puzzling as she changed.

Josh Nicholson. Now she thought about it, his name rang vague bells, but she still couldn’t place it. He wasn’t an actor or a TV presenter, he didn’t look like an MP. Fran shrugged. Daniel would know. She’d ask him later. She pulled on her T-shirt and jeans, slipped her feet into comfortable trainers and headed for the door.

He was waiting where she’d left him, flicking idly through the leaflets in a rack on the wall, and he turned to her with a smile that made her heart hiccup. “All set?”

They went to a coffee bar just down the road, one of those places that sold pastries to die for and about ten zillion different kinds of coffee. She had a cappuccino with extra chocolate sprinkle, and he had his strong and black. She would have guessed that, but she wasn’t alone in reading minds. He saw her eyes straying to a wicked chocolate Danish, and ordered it for her.

“I’ll be huge,” she protested, but she let him order it anyway because it looked irresistible and she was starving. She didn’t bother to cut it into neat little bits, just picked it up and sank her teeth into it and groaned with ecstasy as the flavour exploded on her tongue.

“Good?”

“It’s gorgeous,” she said with her mouth full, and he laughed softly and shook his head, an indulgent and curiously tender look in his eyes.

Why doesn’t Daniel look at me like that? she wondered, but it was a fruitless line of thought. Daniel was – well, she couldn’t even remember his face just then. How odd. She turned her attention back to the sinful little pastry, trying to ignore Josh and the expression in his eyes.

She was doing fine until he caught her hand halfway to her mouth and turned it, biting into the soft chocolate folds of the pastry and bringing her heart crashing to a standstill for a second.

His tongue flicked out to catch the crumbs on his lips, and she looked hastily away. A little mew of need was threatening to escape and she was in grave danger of making a complete idiot of herself.

“You were right,” he said softly. “It is gorgeous. I could easily become a chocoholic.”

She swallowed and cleared her throat, pushing the rest towards him on the plate. “Please, finish it, I’ve had enough,” she lied, then made a production of looking at her watch. “Heavens, is that the time? I can’t be long. I’ve got to meet Daniel.”

“Daniel?”

She hesitated. “My – boyfriend, I suppose.”

His smile was questioning. “You don’t sound very sure.”

Because she wasn’t? “I haven’t been seeing him long – just a few weeks. He’s a reporter. I’m not sure he’s my type, really. It’s – nothing special.”

His laugh was cynical, maybe slightly bitter. “Is it ever?”

“I don’t know,” she said honestly. “It should be – shouldn’t it?”

“So they say.”

For a second their eyes locked, and then he shrugged and turned his attention to the last mouthful. Absently she watched him chew and swallow, clamping her jaw to keep her mouth shut.

How about you, do you have anyone, special or not, she wanted to ask, but it was none of her business, and anyway, it didn’t sound like it. No-one special, at least, either now or in the past. She felt suddenly sad, for him and for herself. Bridget Jones here I come, she thought, and drained her cup, setting it down with a little smack.

“I really have to go now. Thanks for the coffee.”

He met her eyes, his own thoughtful. “My pleasure. Thank you for sewing me up. Have fun with Daniel.”

I doubt it, she thought. “Come back in ten days to have the stitches out – and if you ever need any more needlework doing, let me know.”

His eyes gleamed with something mischievous. “I’ve got a button missing,” he murmured, and she laughed, breathless again.

“Not quite what I had in mind.”

His smile was teasing and perhaps a little sad. “No. Take care, Sister Williams. I’ll see you in ten days. Thanks again.”

She felt his eyes on her all the way to the corner, but when she turned back to wave, he was gone. Shrugging, she battled with the Tube and a curious sense of loneliness, and hurried home.

* * *

Daniel was waiting when she arrived at the pub, and she buzzed his cheek and slid onto the bar stool beside him.

“Good day?” he asked.

She thought of the lives they’d lost, the awful waste, and shut her mind to it. Josh immediately filled it, and wasn’t so easy to dismiss. “Not especially. How about you?”

She didn’t really listen to his answer, just sipped her drink and wondered why she’d never noticed before how colourless his eyes were.

“Ever heard of Josh Nicholson?” she asked.

Daniel stared at her, stunned. “Josh Nicholson? Hasn’t everyone heard of Josh Nicholson?”

She shrugged. “I know the name - I can’t place him.”

“You should read the papers, darling. He buys and sells companies – very successfully, by all accounts. He’s a bit of an art collector, too.” He straightened up, perhaps sensing a story, and Fran suddenly wished she hadn’t mentioned him. “Why?” he added, his eyes searching her face, missing nothing.

Fran shrugged again, strangely unwilling to talk about him to an insatiable newshound like Daniel. Patient confidentiality, she told herself, and nothing to do with those beautiful blue eyes or the even, white teeth biting into her chocolate Danish over coffee just an hour ago. She turned her attention to her drink, fiddling with the ice cubes. “No reason. Someone mentioned him. It’s just been annoying me, that’s all.”

She changed the subject, sipped her way through another drink and then picked up her bag, the horror and exhaustion of the day suddenly catching up with her. That and the fact that talking to Daniel really wasn’t that special, she was beginning to realise. Funny how talking to Josh for such a short time had brought that right into focus. She gave him an apologetic smile. “I’m sorry, Daniel, I need an early night.”

“I’ll walk you home.”

She sighed inwardly, but Camden at night was no place for a woman alone. Too many people ended up face down in the canal lock, and at the age of twenty-six she wasn’t ready to be stabbed and drowned. She’d just have to be firm when they got to the door, but it wouldn’t be the first time.

They paused at the outer door at the bottom of the stairwell. “Going to invite me in?”

Fran saw the seductive gleam in his eyes and shook her head. “I’m really bushed. We had an awful day. I’m sorry.”

“Maybe tomorrow.”

“Maybe.” She returned his kiss with reticence and ran up to her flat, where she discovered her flatmate Stella had finished the milk and threw her tea untouched down the sink. Early night, she told herself, but she didn’t sleep well. Finally dropping off in the small hours of the morning, she woke late and had to hurry to the hospital, arriving with an ambulance. Once again, at the sound of the siren her heart pounded and her throat closed with dread.

Crazy. She’d never felt like this before yesterday, in all her years of nursing. It was ridiculous. The ambulance doors opened, a team already working on the patient, and she followed them into Resus and stood staring helplessly as they struggled and failed to save him.

Again, she thought, staring at the blood. Another wasted life – who’s going to tell his relatives? I can’t-

Anna paused beside her on the way out, giving her a curious look. “You OK?”

“I’m fine,” she said a little desperately. “I’ll do Triage.”

Triage was simple. She just looked at cuts and bumps and broken toes, and ranked them in order of priority. Nothing drastic, nobody critical, they came in ambulances and had immediate priority. Here, she was safe, she thought, her adrenaline level slowly falling again. Good grief, what was wrong with her? She’d always wanted to do this, always known she was cut out to be a trauma nurse. Dammit, she was good at it.

Well, not now, apparently. Not any more. She got through that day by focusing on routine – mundane stuff she could do with her eyes shut, but it kept her sane.

She had Wednesday and Thursday off, but Friday was worse – she had to work in Resus and they had one patient who was touch and go, but they got him stable and up to Theatre, and she thought she’d be all right.

No such luck. A multiple RTA brought a wave of patients with massive injuries. Three of them died, two before their relatives could get there. Over and over again she had to talk to parents and sons and daughters, breaking the news that would destroy their lives, and every time another little piece of her died, too.

Still trembling, she went off duty and had a sleepless night punctuated by hideous nightmares, and the adrenaline was still running when she got to work on Saturday morning.

Please let it be skinned knees and splinters today, she thought, but of course it wasn’t. The place was buzzing, and all they could talk about was Josh Nicholson.

“I can’t believe he survived,” Anna said candidly. “They showed the car on the news -- you know what it’s like when they cut them out.”

Fran was stunned. “Josh? The guy who was in here on Monday? Are you sure it was him?”

“Yes – it was on the television news this morning. It happened last night. It’s in the paper, too – look.”

Fran looked, horrified. It was only five days since she’d sewn him up and he’d taken her for coffee – he’d been strong and fit and full of humour, alive and vital, a man in his prime. And now he had multiple injuries and was in critical condition in Addenbrooke’s in Cambridge, and he might never find that special person she’d sensed was missing from his life.

If he even lived. She pictured those astonishing, laughing blue eyes dimmed in death, and felt sick. Oh, lord, she thought. Not another one. Not Josh. This can’t be happening.

“Are you OK?” Anna asked, eyeing her worriedly. “You’ve gone a weird colour.”

She pulled herself together with an almost physical effort. “Sorry. It was just the shock, after he was in here so recently. Yes, I’m fine.”

But she wasn’t, and by two that afternoon she found herself sitting down in the break room with her hands wrapped firmly round a hot cup of disgustingly sweet tea and Anna standing over her frowning.

“Fran, I think you should go home,” she said, but Fran shook her head.

“I’ll be fine.”

Anna snorted and wheeled out, and a moment later her boss appeared, his face worried.

“Anna tells me you’ve got a problem.”

“Anna talks too much.”

He sat beside her, staring at his hands intently. “We all do this, you know. Everyone, at some point, reaches a stage when it’s all too much. Yesterday was grim. Today hasn’t been much better. I think you should go home – see how you are tomorrow. You’re overdue for leave, and it’s beginning to tell.”

“It’s not that—“

“I know. Go home, we’ll talk tomorrow.”

So she went, and cried tears of frustration, and rang Daniel. “Are you doing anything tonight?” she asked. “I could do with talking to someone.”

“I’m busy – I’m on a case,” he told her. “You could come with me to the hotel and help me people-watch. I’ve got a lead for a particularly juicy and scurrilous bit of dirt on one of our esteemed political leaders – fancy it?”

She didn’t, but she went anyway, and tried to talk to him about her job, but his mind wasn’t on it and she could tell he was writing his copy in his head. Then the politician in question hove into view, and she was forgotten.

“I’ll see you soon,” he said distractedly as she got up to leave. Would he? Possibly, possibly not. She wasn’t sure. She wasn’t sure of anything any more.

She went home and found Stella there, feet up on the coffee table, the sitting room strewn with airing washing and the kitchen a mess from end to end.

“You know, you really are the flatmate from hell,” she said calmly, shoving some washing out of the way and perching on the edge of a chair, and Stella just grinned.

She was watching the news, and suddenly Josh’s face appeared on the screen. Fran sank down onto a chair, heart pounding, and learned that he was stable but critical. Please let him make it, she thought. Not that she’d ever see him again anyway, of course, but he’d been so vital, so alive.

He couldn’t die.

She had another sleepless night, dreams of Josh’s accident mingled with the mayhem of the past few days in A and E, and the next day she fell apart. She couldn’t do the simplest thing, and her boss took her into his office and sat her down.

“This can’t go on. You’re going to crack up, Fran. You need to take time off to draw breath and think about your life. Maybe this isn’t right for you any more. Maybe you need to do something else.”

She stared at him, stunned. “Like what?”

He shrugged. “I don’t know. Community nursing? Something rural? Maybe get out of London and have a total break. I’ll have you back any time, you know that, but for now, I’m sending you away. You’ve got three weeks’ leave owing. That takes you to the end of October. If you want to come back then, you can, but I don’t think you will and I don’t think you should, at least not for some months.”

She was stunned – shocked to the core. Community nursing? What was he on, for heaven’s sake! She was a trauma nurse – except she wasn’t, apparently, not any more.

“Are you sacking me?” she said in disbelief, but he just smiled kindly, and it nearly undid her.

“No – I’m rescuing you from an intolerable situation. You’ve got burn-out, Fran. It happens to the best of us – and you are the best. We’ll miss you hugely, but you need to do this. Forget coming back at the end of October. I think you should resign – get it right out of your system and rebuild your confidence. Then think again. And if you need a reference, just ask.”

“And what will you say?” she asked bitterly. “That I can’t cope?”

“That you’re the best trauma nurse I’ve ever had.”

She swallowed the lump in her throat and hugged him. “Thanks – I think.”

“It’s the right thing for you, Fran. Believe me.”

She didn’t, but nevertheless, her goodbyes said, she found herself standing on the pavement outside the hospital half an hour later, utterly lost.

She was a trauma nurse – highly skilled, highly trained – highly stressed. What else could she do?

Something rural, he’d said. Go home, to Woodbridge? Not that it was home any more, but the little town ninety miles away in friendly, sleepy Suffolk was where she’d grown up and she knew it well. She still had friends there – including Jackie, with whom she’d trained eight years ago and who she really missed. Jackie ran a nursing agency. She’d be able to find her a nice little rural job.

She shook her head and gave a disbelieving snort. It was too soon to make a decision. She walked home, unaware of her surroundings, and when she got in she made a cup of tea and opened the fridge for the milk, then sniffed, puzzled. Not the milk, so what, then? Something had died in the fridge, she was sure of it.

With a short sigh she cleared the worktop above it and emptied it out, then washed it from end to end, scrubbing out the old orange juice dribbles and the encrusted milk spills and something brown and horrible down the back wall. Anything rather than sit and think. Then she went through every item and threw out most of Stella’s because they were ages past their sell-by date or just plain rotten.

An hour later, with the fridge and kitchen sorted out and no more readily available distractions, she sat down with a fresh cup of tea and a dash of milk that was probably still just about safe and thought, I’m unemployed.

It was terrifying. She had her rent to pay, hugely high considering the rather basic condition of the little two-bedroomed flat she shared reluctantly with the undomesticated Stella. She also needed to eat, and although she had a small amount of money put away, it really was small, only enough to cover repairs to her car, for instance.

Rural, she thought. No gangs of youths playing havoc around the bins on the ground three floors down. No sirens going all night, no constant hum of traffic and pressure of humanity. How tempting.

Daniel rang her that evening, and she told him about her job, or the lack of it.

“Wow. That was a bit sudden. Listen, I got a brilliant scoop last night,” he went on, immediately switching back to himself. She listened, made non-committal noises and cradled the phone thoughtfully. Was he really totally self-centred, or was it just her being paranoid? Both, probably. Funny how she’d never noticed it before, but so much for his moral support.

She didn’t see him that night, or the next, but she saw Stella and didn’t get a much better response from her. Her flatmate was obviously more worried about her share of the rent than Fran’s predicament.

“So will you get another job round here or do I need to start looking for someone else?” she asked, and Fran thought about it and shrugged.

“I don’t know,” she replied, but in truth it was getting less and less appealing to stay in the city. What was the attraction? Her less than supportive boyfriend? The flatmate from hell?

On Wednesday she rang Jackie and chatted for a moment, then screwing up her courage she told her what had happened.

“Gosh, you poor thing,” Jackie said, all sympathy. “How scary. Look, I’m sure I can find you something. Do you want to live in?”

“Well, I’ll have to live somewhere and I can’t commute from London.”

“Mmm.” She paused thoughtfully, then went on, “There’s a possibility – a local GP, Xavier Giraud. He’s looking for a part-time practice nurse in the morning, and someone to look after his children after school. It’s a live-in post and the house is absolutely fabulous, you’ll love it. Georgian – gorgeous. So’s he, actually. He’s a widower. His wife died in a car accident a couple of years ago – it was tragic. Such a waste of a life.”

Inexplicably she thought of Josh, and dismissed him. Josh was fine. She needed to listen to Jackie. “What’s he like – as a person, I mean?’ she asked, making herself focus. ‘Sounds French or something.”

“He is. He’s super - really kind. All his patients adore him. It’s a good practice, too. Modern, purpose built, very well equipped.”

“But – nannying?” Fran said doubtfully.

“Well, it isn’t really nannying, they’re older than that. The kids have got problems, though. Well, not the boy, he’s fine, I gather, but the girl. Since the accident she’s in a wheelchair and she can’t talk. It’s so sad.”

Fran’s soft heart reached out to the unknown child. “What’s wrong with her?”

“Nobody seems to know. Rumour has it that there’s nothing wrong, it’s just psychological, but she’s seen every specialist known to man, by all accounts, and she has regular physio. Poor little thing. It would be quite a challenge, but it’s not exactly cutting edge medical.”

Fran found her interest piqued. This job sounded more appealing by the minute.

“Tell me more about him,” Fran prompted. “Why’s he failed with the girl, if there’s nothing wrong? Lack of parenting skills?”

“Lord, no, he’s a wonderful father, by all accounts, and he’s gutted by his inability to help her. He’s left no stone unturned, I can assure you. He’s a good doctor, Fran, I know that. Nobody’s missing anything obvious here, it’s a very unusual case. Very sad, and it couldn’t have happened to a less deserving family. It’s such a shame.”

“Isn’t it always?” Fran said slowly, thinking of all the news she’d had to break and the undeserving families she’d destroyed with that news.

“Shall I talk to him, maybe set up an interview?” Jackie suggested. “He’s getting desperate.”

“Sure,” she said, not really sure at all but running out of options. All she knew was that going back to A and E wasn’t one of them, certainly not now, and maybe not even in the future. Every day when she woke and knew she didn’t have to go in there and face the mayhem, she felt a wave of relief amongst the uncertainty.

But nannying a child with such huge problems? “Come back to me when you’ve spoken to him,” she said doubtfully.

Ten minutes later the phone rang.

“Can you do eleven on Friday morning?”

She thought of driving out of London, and decided to get the train. “Sure. Where do I go?”

“Look, I’ve got an idea. It’s ages since I’ve seen you. Come here tomorrow night – it would be lovely to catch up a bit, and I can fill you in more on Xavier.”

So she drove up the next afternoon and spent the evening with Jackie in her flat, and they got a takeaway and it was just like old times. And Jackie, unlike Stella and Daniel, was really involved and sympathetic and understanding, and she began to feel less of a failure.

Maybe coming back up here and working for Xavier Giraud and his children would be just exactly what she needed.

“Miss Williams?”

Fran stood and looked up into smoke-grey eyes - the kindest, most understanding eyes she’d ever seen - and felt instantly safe.

“Dr Giraud,” she said, and held out her hand.

His grip was hard and warm, and she was suddenly acutely aware of him as a man. How odd. He was too old for her – probably in his late thirties, although that was no great age. Only ten years, and yet in terms of responsibility and family life, it was light years. Poles apart, she thought with regret.

She dragged her common-sense back into play. She was here about a job, not to size him up as a prospective replacement for Daniel – a contest he would, she decided emphatically, win hands down, ten years older or not.

“Thank you for seeing me at such short notice,” she said, and he laughed a little humourlessly.

“I should be thanking you,” he corrected, just a teasing hint of a French accent giving him away and adding another layer of interest and mystery.

Fran, the job, she reminded herself, and followed him through to his office. He was tall, she noticed. Tall and broad and with an air of dependability, but his face was tired and in the depths of those beautiful grey eyes was a bleak despair she’d seen before in the eyes of relatives. His daughter, she thought. His poor, tragic little daughter, confined to a chair for no apparent reason, and him powerless to help her.

“Tell me all about yourself,” he said as they were seated, but before she could really get launched on an explanation, his phone rang.

“Excuse me a moment – Giraud. Yes, put her on.”

She listened to the one-sided conversation, to his gentle reassurances and calming voice, and then he hung up and turned to her, palms upturned in a typically Gallic gesture.

“I have to go. A patient with heart disease is going downhill fast, and I need to be there. He won’t go to hospital and his wife’s terrified. I’m so sorry about this. Look, give Jackie your CV and she can give you this job description, and if you want to talk to me again, please come back. Unfortunately the rest of my day is committed with the children, so I can’t even promise to see you later.”

He stood, unravelling his long legs and scooping up his jacket. “I’m sorry, I’m really going to have to hurry but I’d love to see you again if you’re interested.”

She found herself whisked out in moments, and went back to the nursing agency.

“Gosh, that was quick.” Jackie said, surprised.

“He had to go out.”

“So you didn’t really get to speak to him?”

She thought of their short conversation, and realised it had told her far more about him than seemed possible. “Not for long. He seems fine,” she told her. “He wants my CV. I suppose I ought to do one if I’m serious about this job hunting.”

Jackie laughed. “Borrow my computer. I’ve got a standard CV template on it.”

So she did, and then an hour later, after a quick sandwich with Jackie, she headed back to London – her home. Did she really want to dislocate her entire life so absolutely?

The drive in itself – choked with traffic and honking horns and fumes - was almost enough to convince her. Then she got back to the flat and it was dirty and untidy again, and yet again she had to clean up the kitchen before she could make so much as a cup of tea.

Why on earth would she want to stay in London? What was holding her? Not loyalty to her flatmate, certainly, or her relationship with Daniel of the colourless eyes. Not the press of humanity or the noise or the ease of getting about.

She pictured Dr Giraud’s eyes, the soft smoky-grey, the depth of understanding, and recalled his voice, dark-chocolate and hinted with that subtle accent.

She felt drawn to him, she realised, even after such a short meeting. His daughter she was less sure about, but at least she wouldn’t be bleeding to death, unlike almost everyone else Fran had had to deal with in the last few weeks.

Josh came to mind again, and she wondered how he was getting on in Addenbrooke’s, and if he was making a steady recovery. He’d ceased to be newsworthy, so obviously was stable. One less to worry about, not that he was in any way on her conscience.

Unlike the others.

It’s not your fault they died, she told herself for the hundredth time, and rang Daniel. “I’m back,” she told him.

‘Did you have a nice time?’

She felt a twinge of guilt for not telling him the truth about her trip, but squashed it. “Lovely. It was fun seeing Jackie again. Are you busy tonight?”

“Working. Going to make me a better offer?”

She laughed, knowing exactly what he meant and refusing to rise to the bait. “Not really.”

“How about Monday?”

“Fine. Seven?”

“OK. Got to go, Fran.”

The weekend stretched away ahead of her, and she filled it aimlessly, her mind whirling all the time. Could she live in sleepy Suffolk again after so long in London? Yes. Would she want to? Probably. London certainly was doing nothing to endear her to it. It was raining, and she seemed to spend the whole weekend sopping wet because she couldn’t bear to be trapped in the flat with Stella and the endless television.

Monday was better, and she went out to Regent’s Park after lunch and wandered round for hours. Should she go? Xavier Giraud needed a nurse. She needed a job and a home. Could she do it?

She glanced at her watch, and realised with a start that Daniel would be round in an hour and she had to get home. She was hurrying back, crossing Camden High Road, when there was a screech of brakes on the crossing behind her and a sickening thump.

Her heart pounding, she turned and looked at the man on the ground. He had a head injury, and his limbs were lying at an awkward angle. He’d choke if someone didn’t sort out his airway, she thought, but her feet seemed rooted to the spot and her body refused to obey her.

“Let me through, I’m a doctor,” someone said, and she watched with relief as he took over and assessed the man, checked his airway and supported his neck, snapping out instructions to the bystanders.

Fran watched helplessly until the man was loaded into the ambulance, then pulling herself together she almost ran back to her flat. She was late, she realised dimly. It was nearly eight o’clock, and dark now. Daniel would be livid.

Daniel wasn’t. He was in bed with Stella, instead.

It wouldn’t have been so bad if they’d been in Stella’s bed, but they were in Fran’s bed, and somehow that just made it worse. Not that it should have surprised her. Stella used everything of Fran’s – why not Daniel, too?

“Don’t mind me,” she snapped, and wrenched off the quilt, heedless of their dignity. “Out, please. I need to pack.”

“Fran, I can explain—“

“I don’t doubt it, Stella, but I’m not sure I can be bothered to listen.” She ignored their struggles for modesty and snatched down her big sports bag from the top of the wardrobe.

She didn’t have many clothes – just as well, really, she thought, cramming them all in as Daniel and Stella made themselves scarce. She dumped the overful bag by the door, stuffed the rest of her things into a few carrier bags and unplugged her television from the sitting room.

A couple of pictures came off the wall and into a cardboard box that was lying around courtesy of the sobbing Stella. A few other treasures and her wash things from the bathroom joined them, but the majority of her stuff she couldn’t be bothered with. Let Stella have it, along with everything else.

Her milk, her clothes – her boyfriend.

She ferried her things down to her car, bumping the heavy bag down the endless stairs, and when she made the last trip she found Daniel waiting at the bottom.

“Fran, what are you doing?”

She gave him a withering look. “I would have thought you’d forgone any right to ask that,” she said tartly, and shouldered past him to her car. He opened the boot for her, and she dropped in the last three carrier bags and slammed the bootlid shut.

“Goodbye, Daniel. Have fun with Stella – you can go back to bed now. In fact, why don’t you move in? She needs a new flatmate and you obviously get along just fine.”

She drove off without a backward glance, and within minutes was headed out towards the M11 and sanity. She rang Jackie an hour later as an afterthought from a service station, and asked if she could borrow her sofa again for the night.

“Sure. Are you OK? You sound a bit strange.”

“I’ll live. My flatmate, on the other hand, will probably die of food poisoning or a sexually transmitted disease if there’s any justice. I’ll see you in an hour or so.”

She hung up, and getting back in the car, she drove the rest of the way feeling much calmer. The nearer she got to Suffolk the better she felt, and by the time she arrived at Jackie’s flat a little after eleven, she was beginning to feel positively cheerful.

“I’ve had Xavier on the phone about you,” Jackie told her as she carried in her overnight bag. “I think, if you’re going to be around, he’d like to talk to you.”

“Good. I need a job – and I need a home. I just found my flatmate and the man I thought was my boyfriend in my bed together, so I’ve left for good. I’m now officially homeless as well as jobless. Beat that for a week’s work.”

Jackie looked guilty. “Oh, Fran, I’d love to have you here, but there’s this new man in my life – he’s called David, and he’s really gorgeous, and I’ve got great hopes—“

“And you don’t want me cramping your style. Don’t worry, I won’t. I’ll be gone as soon as possible – if I can’t get a live-in job, I’ll get a flat in the next day or two. You won’t be stuck with me, I promise.”

* * *

With that promise ringing in her ears, she went to work with Jackie in the morning and phoned the surgery. Dr Giraud was busy, she was told, but he’d ring her back as soon as he was available.

She flicked through a few other options Jackie offered her while she waited for Giraud to return her call, but there was nothing of interest. Elderly ladies, doubtless charming in their way but too far removed from the bustle of the workplace for Fran’s taste. No, she didn’t want a one-on-one job – too intense, too claustrophobic. She needed variety. Xavier Giraud’s practice and children would be a happy balance, she’d decided – if he’d consider her.

The phone rang, and Jackie answered it and waved her through into her office at the back. She picked up the receiver.

“Hello? Fran Williams here.”

“Miss Williams? It’s Xavier Giraud. I gather from Jackie you might still be interested in my vacancy.”

She thought again what a gorgeous voice he had, rich and mellow. It brought something to life inside her.

“I’d like to talk to you again,” she said. “I’m sorry if I sound indecisive but it’s so far from what I’ve done up to now and I do want to be sure.”

“It’s rather a strange job,” he said, “but don’t let me put you off.” His soft chuckle tingled over her nerve endings, and she had to struggle to concentrate on the rest of their conversation. She arranged to see him at eleven, then hung up and went through into the front of the agency, his voice still echoing in her head.

And not only his. She could hear Jackie talking, and someone else. It was a voice she was sure she knew, and as she turned the corner she stopped dead. There in a wheelchair by the desk was a man with the sexiest smile and the bluest eyes she’d ever seen.

“Well, if it isn’t the bodacious Sister Williams,” he said, and smiled.

“Well, if it isn’t the accident-prone Mr Nicholson,” she replied, smiling back. “It’s good to see you alive.”

“Do you two know each other?” Jackie asked, fascinated, and Josh chuckled.

“Let’s just say we met over a red-hot needle a little while ago.”

“How is the chest?” Fran asked.

“Oh, the chest is fine – it’s healed beautifully. Unfortunately, though, the rest of me is lagging behind a little, hence my visit here. I need a nurse.”

Jackie smiled at her encouragingly, and Fran sat down, the light dawning.

Josh Nicholson needed a nurse – and Jackie wanted her to take the job.

Xavier wanted her to take his, too, and she was torn.

Are you available at short notice? It’s just that I’m stuck for cover for the children at the moment, and I’m having to take the afternoons off, and it’s really not fair on my colleagues.

You do know, by the way, that my daughter doesn’t walk or talk?

He’s a wonderful father, by all accounts, and he’s gutted by his inability to help her.

Josh’s eyes blazed a challenge, though, and that fascinating mouth was curved in a sexy, taunting grin.

Which job? she thought.

Which man?

Instinctively she realised that it was one of those crossroads in life, a moment of snap decision when either path could be interesting but only one could be travelled.

But which one?

Josh was trouble with a huge T. He should still have been in hospital, but he’d obviously discharged himself with a whole catalogue of injuries, not least the fixator on his lower right leg, the cast on his right arm and the short haircut that indicated a head injury. Despite the sexy grin and the wicked twinkle in his eyes, she knew instinctively that he would be a difficult and opinionated patient.

Xavier Giraud, on the other hand, with his dead wife and damaged children, was going to be very emotionally challenging and arguably needed her very much more.

Not that Josh wouldn’t be a challenge, too, in his own way, although the challenge there would be outwitting him before he could hurt himself and keeping boredom at bay so he didn’t take stupid risks.

But the girl – that poor, tragic, motherless little girl, and her brother, inevitably lacking attention because their father couldn’t do everything at once – and the father, struggling alone to keep all the threads of his family and work together. How long could he go on alone? He needed her.

Josh needed her.

And Jackie was eyeing her expectantly.

Which way was she going to go…?