JOHANNA
LINDSEY
A Man to
Call My Own
Copyright © 2003 by Johanna Lindsey
ISBN: 0-7434-5635-1
Chapter 1
MORTIMER LATON WAS BURIED that morning in Haverhill, Massachusetts, the
town where he
had been born and lived his whole life. Actually, the town was newly
named
Haverhill in 1870. It
had been known as Pentucket when he was born and raised there.
His wife, Ruth, was buried in one of the older cemeteries that was no
longer available, having filled to capacity soon after she was interred
there. She wouldn't have minded that her husband didn't rest for
all eternity in a grave near her. Actually, she would probably have
preferred it that way, since there
was no love lost between them.
The large marker that had been ordered for Mortimer was going to read:
Here rests Mortimer Laton, beloved father of Amanda and Marian. Amanda
Laton had prescribed the short sentiment, and for
her it was most fitting. She had adored their father, and he, in
return, had been the perfect father to
her, providing everything a child needs in order to feel loved and
secure. Marian, had she been asked, would have left out the beloved
part.
The funeral had been a small gathering, and dismal as most funerals
were, despite the fine weather
that morning and the spring blooms that filled the grounds. Only
Mortimer's servants, a few of his business associates, and his two
daughters had attended.
The service had been notably quiet. No hysterics or loud tearful wails
that morning, unlike Ruth's
funeral seven years ago where Marian had made a spectacle of herself,
crying uncontrollably. But
then she'd felt that with her mother's
passing she had lost the only person who had ever really cared
about
her.
Something similar should have happened today. Amanda, who had been her
father's favorite from the
day she was born, should have been crying her heart out. But since the
sisters had heard the news that their father had died on the way back
from the business trip he'd taken to
Chicago last week, somehow falling
off the train as he passed between one car and the next, Amanda hadn't
shed one tear of grief.
An odd form of shock, the servants whispered, and Marian might have
agreed, except her sister wasn't denying that their father was gone.
She spoke of his death and discussed it without emotion, as if she were
discussing some mundane event of little concern to her. Shock? Maybe,
but of a kind Marian had never witnessed before. On the other hand,
Amanda was a self-centered person, just like Mortimer.
She was probably
more concerned with how his death was going to affect her than with his
actually
being gone.
Mortimer had been capable of loving only one person at a time. This was
a realization Marian had
come to at a very young age, and, eventually,
she'd stopped hoping it could be otherwise. And she'd never seen her
father behave in any way that indicated she was wrong.
Her father hadn't loved her mother. Theirs had been an arranged
marriage. They were merely two
people living together, sharing the same
house, sharing some of the same interests. They got along
well, but
there was no love shared between them. His parents had died before
Marian was born, so
she'd never seen how he behaved with them. And his
only remaining sister had moved away when Marian was still a baby.
Mortimer never spoke of her, an indication he could care less what had
become of her.
But their father had loved Amanda. There was absolutely no doubt of
that in anyone's mind. From
the day she was born he'd been charmed and
had showered her with attention, spoiled her rotten
actually. The
sisters could be in the same room yet he'd only see Amanda, as if
Marian were invisible.
But he was gone now. Marian could stop agonizing over it. It wasn't as
if he hadn't seen to her material
needs all these years. In that, the sisters had always been treated
equally. It was only Marians emotional needs that had been neglected.
Her mother had tried to correct that and had succeeded somewhat while
she'd been alive. She had
seen how much it hurt Marian to be excluded
from Mortimer's affections, and while she loved both
her daughters, she
had spared a little extra affection for Marian. Unfortunately, Amanda
had noticed
and was so jealous, wanting all her mothers love
exclusively, that it caused a breach between the
sisters that had long
ago gone beyond fixing. There was no tactful way to put it. They really
and truly hated each other.
It wasn't just the jealousy issues. Those might have been overcome. The
long list of grievances might even have been forgiven eventually, since
most of them had stemmed from their childhood, which
was over. But
probably owing to the overabundance of spoiling and coddling, both of
which fostered
her self-centeredness, Amanda was, quite simply, not a
nice person.
Whether deliberately or based on a tendency that came naturally to her,
Amanda managed with
alarming frequency to hurt peoples feelings. The
alarming part was, she didn't seem to care or notice
the damage she
caused. And apologies were never tendered.
Marian couldn't count the times, there were so many, that she had
personally tried to make excuses
for her sister and apologize to die
people Amanda hurt. It wasn't as if she felt responsible for her
sister's actions. She didn't.
Amanda had been nasty and spiteful from as far back as she could
remember.
Neither of them had any female friends to speak of. Amanda, because she
didn't want any. She had
their father to dote on her. He was her best
friend. Marian had wanted friends, but she gave up long
ago trying to
make any because her sister would always drive them away, usually in
tears. The result
was, other girls didn't want to go anywhere near
Marian again if it meant they might run into Amanda.
Gentlemen were a different matter. Since both girls began approaching
marriageable age, gentleman callers were in regular attendance at the
Laton household. There was a twofold attraction—Mortimer's wealth,
reputed to be quite substantial, and the fact that Amanda was very
likely one of the most lovely girls in town.
And Amanda actually liked the male attention. She thrived on the
flattery. And anytime someone
showed up whom she didn't particularly
want adoring her, she'd belittle and subtly insult him until he stopped
coming around. So she had her favorite group of admirers and she'd had
them for nearly a
year. But she didn't favor any single one of them to
the point of deciding which one she'd like to marry.
Mores the pity. Marian wished she would. She prayed each night that her
sister would get married and
move elsewhere, so she could get on with living a real life herself
instead of hiding away, fearful that some man might try to court her
and end up one of her sister's targets. The two times she'd shown any
interest in a man, she'd learned her lesson well. She wasn't going to
be responsible again for seeing
them cut to the quick by Amanda's
tongue because they'd dared to ignore Amanda in favor of her.
Which was why, even though they were twins, Marian went to a lot of
trouble to disguise that
unfortunate fact. Not wanting to draw
attention to herself, she chose dresses that were unflattering in color
and extremely plain in design. She wore her hair in a severe style
better suited to someone's grandmother than a young woman barely
eighteen. But her disguise wouldn't really have worked
without the
spectacles she wore. The frames were large and the lenses so thick,
they magnified her
eyes to nearly twice their size, giving her an odd,
bug-eyed look that was very unattractive.
They sat in their father's study, listening to the reading of his will.
Amanda looked beautiful as always, even in mourning black. Her dress
was stylish; she'd have it no other way. Adorned with lace and tiny
beads in artful designs, it was actually more flattering than some of
her fancier gowns. Her coiffure
wasn't as frivolous as usual, the
golden ringlets more tightly contained for once.
Marian, on the other hand, was as unnoticeable as usual. There were no
intricate frills on her black
dress to be admired,
no stylish bangs to frame her face or detract from the ugly spectacles
that
dominated her appearance. She was the moth next to the butterfly.
While she suspected it was easy
to be the butterfly, she knew for sure
it was hard work being the moth.
The room was almost unrecognizable, with Mortimer's lawyer sitting
behind the desk, rather than Mortimer. They knew Albert Bridges well.
He had often been invited to dinner when their father
found himself
strapped for time and brought his work home with him.
Albert usually called the sisters by their first names. He'd known them
long enough to do so. But
today he addressed each of them as Miss Laton
and he seemed uncomfortable doing his job.
There had been no surprises in the will so far. A few family servants
had been left small bequests,
but the bulk of Mortimer's estate had
been left to his daughters—equally. Once again, it was only his
affection he hadn't divided equally, never his wealth. There were
interests in a half dozen businesses, income property in town as well
as other parts of the state, a bank account larger than either girl
could have imagined. But no real surprises—until the end.
"There is one stipulation," Albert told diem, pulling at his collar
nervously. "Your father wanted to
assure that you would be well taken
care of, and not be fooled by fortune hunters merely interested in your
inheritance. So other than
for essentials, none of his estate will be transferred to you until you
marry. And until that time, his sister, Mrs. Frank Dunn, will be your
guardian."
Amanda said nothing. She was frowning, but she hadn't yet fully grasped
the implications. Marian watched her, waiting for the storm to erupt
once it sunk in.
Albert Bridges had expected more of a reaction as well, and looking at
each girl somewhat warily,
asked, "Do you understand what this means?"
Marian nodded, even smiled at him. "I'm assuming that Aunt Kathleen
isn't going to change her life to accommodate us just because her
brother died, so we will have to travel to her. Is that what you mean?"
He sighed in relief. "Exactly. I know it may seen daunting, having to
move so far away from everything and everyone you know, but it can't be
helped."
"Actually—I don't mind at all. I have no real attachment to this city—"
The storm arrived. Amanda shot to her feet so fast, she dislodged not
one but two blond locks from
her coiffure, both on the same side, so
she now had a long wave of golden hair curling around and beyond her
breast. Her dark blue eyes were flashing like sapphires under a
jewelers light, and her lips
had thinned to form a snarl.
"Absolutely out of the question! Do you have any idea where this
unknown aunt of ours lives? It's the other side of the world!"
"Just the other side of the country, actually," Marian said calmly.
"That is the same thing!" Amanda yelled. "She lives among savages."
"The savages have been curtailed—mostly."
Amanda glared at her. "Shut up, just . . . just shut up! You go live in
the wilds of Texas and rot and
die for all I care. I'll get married
immediately and stay right here, thank you very much."
Albert tried to stop her, to explain further, but Amanda was too
furious to listen and stalked out of
the room. He gave Marian a
long-suffering look.
"She can't just—get married," he told Marian with a weary sigh.
"I didn't think so."
"I mean she can, but then she would forfeit her inheritance. As your
guardian, your aunt must give
her approval, for either of you to marry."
"Shall I fetch her back?" Marian offered. "She hasn't left the house
yet. We would have heard the slamming of the front door if she had."
"I'll go after her." Albert sighed again. "I should have been more
clear to begin with."
Albert rose from behind the desk, but it wasn't necessary. Amanda came
marching back into the study
on her own with Karl Ryan in tow. Karl was one of her hopeful suitors,
her
least favorite actually, but
she tolerated him because he was handsome
and considered a fine catch by any standards. As long as
a man had
other women interested in him, even if only one, Amanda wanted him
interested in her
instead because she thrived on the envy of other
women.
Karl had been on hand that morning to accompany them to the cemetery.
Amanda had been too preoccupied to notice that he was the only one of
her suitors to come by to offer his condolences.
Marian knew that
visitors were being turned away at the door with the simple explanation
that the
girls weren't receiving callers. Someone had decided they
should have some undisturbed time for mourning. Marian was grateful
because she had no desire to deal with anyone just now. Amanda
probably
would have objected if she'd known.
Karl had been hard to turn away, though, since he'd come by right after
they'd been told the news of Mortimer's death, and he had heard about
it from Amanda. He'd been waiting in the parlor since
they'd returned
from the funeral, prepared to offer as much comfort as he could today.
But Amanda didn't appear to need comforting. She needed calming because
she still looked furious.
"There, I've setded the matter," Amanda said triumphantly. "I'm now
engaged to marry Mr. Ryan.
So I'll hear no more talk about leaving
home." And then she added snidely, "But I'll be glad to help
you pack, Marian."
"Unless Mr. Ryan is willing to travel with you to Texas, to meet your
aunt and obtain her approval, marrying him will not release your
inheritance to you, Miss Laton," Albert was forced to point out.
"Without that approval, you would forfeit everything."
"No! My God, I can't believe Papa did this to me. He knew I despise
traveling."
"He didn't die on purpose just to inconvenience you, Amanda," Marian
said in annoyance. "I'm sure
he thought you'd be settled long before he
died."
"I will be most happy to travel with you to Texas," Karl offered.
"Don't be absurd," Amanda snapped at him. "Can't you see this changes
everything?"
"No, it doesn't," Karl insisted. "I still want to marry you."
Marian saw what was coming, and tried to spare Karl's feelings. "You
should leave for the time being," she suggested quickly. "She's upset—"
"Upset!" Amanda shouted. "I'm beyond upset. But yes, do leave. There's
no longer a reason for me
to marry you; in fact, I can't think of a
single one now."
Marian glanced away, unwilling to see just how crushed Karl was by
those few careless words, but
not soon enough. She saw it anyway. And
he'd looked so happy when he'd come into the room
moments ago, his hearts desire unexpectedly achieved. He really did
want Amanda for
his wife.
Heaven knew why, but he did. Somehow, he hadn't seen or had
chosen to ignore this vicious side
of her—until now.
But hopefully, after he got over the rejection, he would rejoice to
have escaped marriage to such a heartless bitch.
Chapter 2
IT WAS A SMALL ranch by most standards, but even smaller by Texas
standards. Nestled in the
fertile plains west of the Brazos, with a
quarter mile of an ofrshoot of the river passing through the northeast
corner of die spread, the Twisting Barb encompassed some prime land, if
not a lot of it.
With less than a thousand head of cattle, the ranch
had room for more, but its owners had never
aspired to be "cattle
kings."
There was only one owner now. Red had taken over the running of the
ranch after her husband died.
She had learned ranching well, could have
handled the task with ease, except for one thing—a lack
of good
cowhands who would listen to her.
At her wits' end, she'd been seriously thinking about selling. All
their good cowhands had up and left when her husband died. She'd put
out the word in town that she was hiring, but any hand worth his
salt
sought a job on the Kinkaid spread. The only ones willing to work for
her were
wet-behind-the-ears teenagers, and young Easterners who'd drifted west
for one reason or another but had to be taught
every step of the way
when it came to ranching.
She was willing to teach. But they weren't willing to learn, at least
not from an old gal they viewed as
a second mother. Like a passel of
youngsters, they'd listen to her, but they didn't hear. Her
instructions went in one ear and out the other. She'd been on the verge
of giving up and selling out when Chad Kinkaid came along.
She had known Chad for many years. He was the son of her neighbor,
Stuart Kinkaid, a rancher who
did aspire to be known as a
"cattle
king." Stuart owned the biggest ranch in the area and was always
looking to expand it. He would have been knocking on her door if he'd
known Red was thinking of selling. But she didn't really want to sell,
she'd just figured she had no choice, as bad as things had
gotten after
her husband died. But Chad turned her situation around, and she still
gave thanks for
the storm that had brought him to the Twisting Barb
three months ago.
It had been the last bad storm of the winter season. And the only
reason Chad happened to be nearby when it broke was that he'd had a
falling-out with his father and was leaving home—for good. Red
had put
him up for the night. Being an astute man, he'd noticed that something
was wrong, and over breakfast the next morning, he'd dragged it out of
her, the troubles she'd been
having.
She hadn't expected his offer to help. But she should have. Stuart
Kinkaid might be an ornery cuss,
but he'd raised a real fine son in
Chad.
If she were twenty years younger, she'd be in love, she was that
grateful to him. But she was old
enough, or pert near old enough, to be
Chad's mother, and the truth was, though no one else knew it,
she was in
love with his father. Had been since the day she met him twelve years
ago when Stuart
rode over to welcome her and her new husband to his
neighborhood, and gave them one hundred head
of cattle to help them get
started on their fledgling ranch.
Stuart had been about the most handsome man she'd ever met, and coupled
with his kindness that day, he'd gradually wormed his way into a corner
of her heart and stayed there. Her husband never knew. Stuart never
knew. No one would ever know if she could help it. And even though
Stuart's wife had
died long before she'd met him, and her husband had
died just recendy, she never once thought about doing anything about
her feelings for that tall Texan.
Stuart Kinkaid was just too grandiose for her: rich, still handsome, a
bigger-than-life personality, a man who could have any woman he wanted
if he set his mind to it. While she was a kindhearted redheaded mouse
of a woman, who hadn't turned any heads in her youth and certainly
didn't now when she was nearing forty.
Chad was like his father in many ways, too handsome for his own good,
but she'd never heard of him breaking any hearts along the way, so she
didn't think he took advantage of his looks in that regard. He might
have been a bit rowdy in his youth, might butt heads with his father
quite frequently, but he was dependable. If he said he'd do something,
come hell or high water, it would get done. And, of course,
he'd been
raised to be the best catdeman around. He'd been raised to take over
the huge Kinkaid spread.
It didn't take long for Chad to turn the bunch of greenhorns Red was
stuck with into a well-oiled outfit. The hands looked up to him, heck,
they loved him. He knew how to work men, so even when he had
to scold,
they didn't feel they were hopeless. They were more than willing to
learn from him, and learn they did.
Chad was a cattleman through and through. The logical choice for him
would be to start his own ranch somewhere. But doing that would truly
cut the ties with his father, and she didn't really think that was
his
intention. He was making a point in leaving home. He was giving Stuart
time to figure out what that point was and to accept it.
Red was realistic though. Three months was long enough to get one's
point across. Chad would be
leaving soon, either for another state or
to go home and settle things with his father. But he'd be leaving her
in good hands,
she hoped. He seemed to be putting a lot of effort into training her
oldest hand,
Lonny, to take over when he was gone. Another month or two
and Lonny would make a fine foreman. She had no doubt of that. She just
never knew from one day to the next whether Chad would stick around for
those couple more needed months.
He probably would. She'd sprained her foot last week, and even though
it was feeling better already,
she hadn't let on that it was. Chad had
been worried about her since the accident, and she was
reasonably sure
that a worried Chad would stick around.
Chapter
3
AFTER DINNER THAT EVENING, Red joined Chad on her front porch to enjoy
the setting sun for
a while. It was a long, wide porch, but then it was
a nice-sized house that stretched behind it. Red's husband hadn't
stinted when building their home. Having both come from the East, they
were used
to fine accommodations.
A second story had been added to the house a few years after they'd
arrived in Texas, to accommodate the children they were hopeful of
having. Red couldn't say why they'd never been blessed in that regard.
It wasn't for lack of trying. It just wasn't meant to be, she supposed.
The soft strains of a guitar drifted around the corner from the
bunkhouse. Rufus was right handy with
the instrument, and it had become
almost a ritual that he'd play a few songs in the evening as the boys
wound down from a hard day's work. Red always heard it from a distance.
The one place she restricted herself from on the ranch was
the bunkhouse.
Chad bunked down with the rest of the men, but being the son of the
richest rancher in the area, no one thought it odd that Red insisted he
dine with her in the main house. It was also usually just the two of
them who occupied the porch each evening. They didn't always talk. The
ranch was running so smoothly that, most evenings, anything that needed
to be said got said over dinner, leaving the porch time just for quiet
introspection.
Red was going to keep it that way tonight, except Chad's distant look,
and the direction in which he was gazing, made her guess he was
thinking of his father. She often thought of Stuart, too, but along
different lines.
She was amazed that Stuart hadn't found out yet that Chad was staying
on the Twisting Barb. Her hands had been warned never to mention Chad's
name when they went into town, but with liquor flowing freely on those
town visits, there was no guarantee that one of them wouldn't slip and
mention it. And they did know that Stuart had hired some of the best
trackers around to find Chad.
They had nothing to trace, though, because the storm that had brought
him to her had washed away his trail. And no one suspected that he'd
gone to roost so close to home, only a few miles away, especially not
Stuart. But if Chad was getting homesick, she wouldn't try to stop him
from patching things up
with his father. The two had always been close,
even if they didn't see eye to eye on a lot of things.
"Miss him?" she asked quietly.
"Hell no," he said in a grumbling tone that had her smiling to herself.
"So you're still not ready to go home?"
"What home?" Chad replied with some heavy sarcasm. "It was turned into
a circus with Luella and her mama there. Pa arranged that match without
even discussing it with me, and just moved them in until
the wedding. I
still can't believe he did that."
"She's a nice gal though," Red replied in Stuart's defense. "I met her
a few years back at one of your
pa's barbecues. Pretty, too, as I
recall."
"She could be the best-looking thing this side of the Rio Grande, and
I'd still run the other way."
"Because Stuart handpicked her for you?"
"That mainly," Chad allowed. "But if that girl has one whit of
intelligence in her head, it's there
because it got lost."
Red tried to hold back a chuckle, but couldn't manage it. "Guess I
didn't talk to her long enough to
figure that out," she replied.
"Count yourself fortunate."
Red said no more. She was grateful he wasn't hankering to go home, but
sorry, too, because this rift
with his father had to be tearing them both up. The truth was, she'd
miss
him. She might not have
loved her husband, but at least he'd been good
company, and since his passing, she'd been lonely.
The sky was still blood red when the rider came galloping toward the
house at a breakneck speed.
"Best step inside, Chad. Looks like the
mail runner, and he'd recognize you if he got a good look."
Chad nodded and moved into the house. Red got up to greet the rider.
"Evening, Will. Bit late for
you to be delivering, ain't it?"
"Yes, ma'am. Dang horse threw a shoe, set me back a few hours today.
But figured this might be important, so didn't want to wait till
morning." He handed her the letter he'd gone out of his way to deliver,
then tipped his hat. "Late for dinner. Have a good evening, now."
Red waved him off, then limped back into the house, stopping next to
the nearest hall lamp to read
the letter. Chad had retrieved his hat
and was about to head to bed.
Her exclamation, "Son'bitch!" stopped him at the front door.
"What?"
"My brother's gone and died."
"I'm sorry. I didn't know you had a brother."
"Wish I never did, so don't be sorry. We never got along. In fact, it'd
be pretty accurate to say we
hated each other's guts. Which is why this letter doesn't make a lick
of
sense."
"That you'd be notified?"
"That he left his girls to me. What the hell did he expect me to do
with children at my age?"
"Did he have a choice?"
She frowned. "I suppose not. Guess I am their only living relative now
that Mortimer's gone.
We had another sister, my twin actually, but she
died long ago."
"No relatives on their mother's side?"
"No, she was the last of her line aside from her children." Red
continued reading, then said, "Well,
hell . . . looks like I need to
ask yet another favor of you, Chad."
He looked horrified for a moment. "Don't even think it. I'm not even
married yet. I ain't raising no—"
"Hold on, now," she interrupted, and chuckled over his mistake. "I just
need someone to meet the girls
in Galveston and escort them here, not
adopt them. Apparently, they started on the journey the same
time this
letter did, different routes, but the mail isn't always faster. They
could have arrived already.
I'd go, but I'm afraid this sprained foot
of mine will hold me up too much."
"That's a long distance to travel, could take up to a week there and
back."
"Yes, but at least a good portion of it can be covered by train, and
most of the rest by stage. It's just
the last leg of the way that you'd have to rough it. But I'll ask
someone else. I keep forgetting that
you're lying low."
"No, I'll go," Chad said, slapping his hat against his leg. "Pa's
finding me at this late date won't matter much. I'll leave first thing
in the morning."
Chapter
4
AMANDA AND MARIAN WERE supposed to have waited in Galveston. It was the
final destination
of the nice couple that Albert Bridges had found to
chaper-one them, and they were more than willing
to keep the girls with
them until Kathleen Dunn arrived to collect them. But Amanda wouldn't
hear of it.
She had complained every step of the way so far. Even before they'd
left home she'd complained about their rushed departure. But a ship had
been leaving the day after the funeral, and Albert had strongly
suggested they take it since another wouldn't be available for several
weeks. Back on dry land, Amanda should have been somewhat appeased, but
no, the crowded port where their ship had docked was her next target
for verbal abuse.
Marian had managed to enjoy the sea voyage anyway. It was the first
time she'd ever been on a ship,
so she found everything about it interesting. The salty air, the damp
bedding, the windy and sometimes slippery decks, trying to walk without
bumping into things, to get her "sea legs" as one deckhand put it, was
all new to her—and the very things that Amanda complained about the
most.
It was a wonder that the captain hadn't tossed Amanda overboard. Marian
had heard him mumble once
to himself about doing just that. And Amanda
did have a harrowing moment four days into the journey when she
actually did end up dangling from the railing with the sea lapping up
the side of the ship.
She'd sworn someone had pushed her, which was
ridiculous—although, just about everyone on board
had probably thought
about it more than once.
Amanda's behavior had been no more than what Marian expected. When her
sister had said she hated
to travel, she hadn't exaggerated. And when
Amanda was miserable, she wanted everyone else to be miserable as well.
Marian managed to avoid that state of mind, but then she'd learned long
ago how to simply "not hear" her sister when she got especially
annoying. Their escorts had picked up on that as
well, and before the
end of the voyage, they'd been nodding and mumbling appropriate
phrases, but
had simply stopped "listening" to Amanda.
This might have been why they didn't try to stop the girls from setting
out on their own. It was more likely, though, that they were just glad
to be rid of Amanda.
And it wasn't as if the two of them weren't old enough to travel alone.
They also had their maid, Ella Mae, with them. She was several years
older than they, and would be considered a proper chaperone
in most
circles.
Marian did try to talk her sister into waiting for their aunt to
arrive. She pointed out that they might pass her en route and not even
know it. But Amanda had insisted that Aunt Kathleen probably hadn't
even gotten Albert's letter yet, so their waiting around in Galveston
was just a waste of time. Of course
Marian had known it was pointless
to try to dissuade her sister. No one's opinion mattered to Amanda
except her own, and she was never wrong. That she was frequendy not
right was beside the point.
Several days later they found themselves stranded in a small town
nowhere near their intended destination. A number of mishaps and
unexpected incidents contributed to that sorry state, but in the
end,
the fault was still wholly Amanda's. Did she accept the blame?
Certainly not. In her mind,
everyone else was at fault, never her.
While it was taken for granted in the East that the quickest way to
travel was by train, that particular convenience hadn't spread across
Texas yet, which is why they had traveled there by ship instead.
There
was one railroad line in the south of Texas that ran from the coast
northwest toward the middle
of the state, and a few short branches off
of that, but the line ended far short of their final destination.
Although they had intended
to ride the train to the end of its line, a group of thieves altered
that plan.
Marian viewed the train robbery as something she'd tell her grandkids
about, if she ever had any.
Exciting after the fact, it had been
terrifying while it was happening. The train had come to a screeching
stop, and before anyone recovered from that, four men had burst into
the passenger car shouting and waving their guns. They'd seemed
nervous, but maybe that was normal under the circumstances.
Two of the men had passed down the aisle demanding tliat valuables be
handed over, while the other
two guarded the exits. Marian kept most of
her traveling money locked away in her trunks, and carried only small
amounts in her purse, so she didn't hesitate to hand it over. Amanda,
however, carried all of hers in her purse, so when it was yanked from
her side, she screamed angrily and tried to retrieve it.
A shot was fired. Marian couldn't honestly say if the man had missed
his mark deliberately, or missed because of nervousness, but the bullet
did fire over Amanda's head—just barely. Her scalp probably
felt the
heat from it because her face was left streaked with gunpowder, it had
happened at such close range. But since it briefly put Amanda in shock,
which caused her to sit down and shut up, he didn't
shoot again and
moved on down the aisle to finish his robbing.
The result of that robbery, aside from their depleted funds, was that
Amanda flatly refused to travel
any farther by train. Not that the
train would have taken them much farther, but they disembarked at
the
next town and took a stage from there instead. The stage, of course,
didn't follow the same route
as the train. It headed east, though it
would resume a northwesterly direction after the next stop.
But it never reached its next stop. The driver, after being harangued
by Amanda every few minutes
about the bumpy ride, started drinking from
a flask of liquor he kept under his seat, got thoroughly
drunk, and got
himself and his passengers thoroughly lost. For two days he tried
without luck to find
the road back to his scheduled route.
It was incredible that the coach didn't break down, without a decent
road to travel on. It was incredible, too, that the driver didn't just
take off without them, he was so furious with himself and Amanda, for
driving him to drink. It was the scent of fried chicken that finally
led them to a homestead where they
got directions to the nearest town.
And that was where they were currendy stranded, because the driver did
abandon them at that point,
and his coach as well, since he figured he
was going to lose his job anyway. He simply unhitched one
of the six
horses and rode off on it without a single word. Actually, he'd said
two words, mumbled
them rather while Amanda was shouting at him for an explanation as he
prepared to depart.
She
wouldn't have heard him say, "good riddance," but Marian did.
Unfortunately, it wasn't just a small town he left them in, but a town
that was barely populated. Of the fourteen original buildings, only
three were still occupied and doing business. It was a case of
misguided speculation. The founder of the town had thought the railroad
would be passing that way and had hoped to make a small fortune when it
did. But the railroad bypassed them, the founder moved on to speculate
elsewhere, and the people who had set up businesses there slowly sold
them or abandoned them.
The three buildings still open for business were the saloon, which
doubled as a general store since the owner happened to be good friends
with a supplier so still got a shipment of goods every so often, a
bakery that managed to get some grain from a farmer in the area, and a
boardinghouse that called itself
a hotel and was run by the baker.
It wasn't really surprising that of the few occupants, not one knew how
to drive a stagecoach or was willing to try to figure it out. The stage
was left parked where it had been abandoned, in front of the
hotel.
Someone had been kind enough to unhitch the rest of the horses from it,
but since there was
no food for them in the abandoned stable, they were
set loose to feed in a field of overgrown grass behind the town—and
wander off if they were so inclined.
That was after Amanda insisted that she could drive the stagecoach to
get them out of there. Having
had a look at the room in the hotel where
they were going to have to stay, and finding it to be the
worst
lodgings they had encountered yet, Amanda had been absolutely
determined to get out of that
town immediately, or at least, before
they had to sleep in that horrid room.
Marian didn't care for their lodgings either. The sheets on the single
bed had holes in them and might
have been white once, but were a moldy
gray now. There was a round hole in one wall as if someone
had sent his
fist through it. The rug on the floor was a breeding nest for fleas
since an old dog had
been living in the room. You could stand there and
watch the fleas bouncing around on the rug,
waiting for their host to
come take his daily nap. And there was no telling what the splotches on
the
floor had come from.
But no matter how much they hated the idea of staying there, Amanda's
alternate plan wasn't worth considering even if she could have gotten
the stage to move. She couldn't. She did frustrate herself
trying
though.
Marian and Ella Mae simply stood on the porch of the hotel and watched.
They weren't about to get
in that coach with Miss Know-It-All driving
it. The few townsfolk had a good laugh watching, too,
before they went back into their respective buildings. And Marian and
Ella Mae
spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning their room so it would be at
least somewhat tolerable to sleep in.
They were stranded indeed, and had no idea for how long. No telegraph
available there, no stage line,
no extra saddles to be had in case they
considered riding out on the extra horses, no carriage to rent
that
they could have handled, and no guide to lead them back toward the
railroad anyway.
Amanda, of course, complained about their new circumstances from
morning till night. Mentioning that
it was exactly such complaining
that had gotten them stranded in the first place was pointless. And
although Amanda made it sound as if they were never going to see
civilization again, Marian was more optimistic, especially after the
baker remarked that stagecoaches were too valuable simply to abandon,
and someone would come looking for the vehicle to get it back in
service.
Marian didn't doubt that their aunt would be looking for them, too, or
have someone looking for them. She was probably going to be furious
with them for setting out on tlieir own and causing her extra
difficulties in finding them. Not a good way to start out with this
relative neither of them knew, who
was now their guardian.
Chapter 5
FOUR DAYS HAD COME and gone in that dismal, soon-to-be ghost town.
With only a few
old-timers about, or at least, no men that Amanda could
possibly get jealous over if they happened
to pay Marian any attention,
Marian became lax in keeping her spectacles shoved up the bridge of
her
nose. It was a luxury being able to see clearly all of the time, rather
than only when she peered
over the rims of the spectacles, or removed
them.
She had been wearing spectacles she didn't need for about three years.
The idea had come to her
when she'd found a pair and curiously tried
them on. She'd caught her reflection, and the change in
her appearance
was so dramatic, she'd gone home that day to complain of vision
problems and
headaches and as a result had been told absently by her
father to take care of it. She did, and had
her own pair of spectacles
a month later, as well as a few spare pairs.
She'd been very proud of that idea. She'd already been trying to change
her appearance from her
sister's, so they would no longer resemble each
other even a little. She wore her hair in a completely different style.
Amanda had already started using some makeup back then. Marian still
didn't use any. Amanda preferred clothes in the height of style, yet
still somewhat flashy. Marian went widi stylish,
but toned-down clothes
in less becoming colors.
That still hadn't been enough, though, to make her "unnoticeable,"
which was the goal she'd been shooting for. Until her next bright idea.
The result was a pair of spectacles that when in proper position
magnified the size of her eyes, giving her an owlish, unbecoming look.
Of course she couldn't see a
thing through them, everything being a
blur, which caused her to seem quite accident-prone. And
people
naturally tended to stay clear of people who bumped into things on a
regular basis.
Now, the three dogs in town gave warning that someone was approaching.
The barking was far off in
the distance though, and since those dogs
seemed to bark at nothing and each other on a regular basis, Marian
didn't really pay attention. She was reading an old newspaper she'd
found on the porch of the hotel, only because it was a blistering hot
day and there was a slight breeze coming down the main, or rather, only
street.
She did take notice, however, when each of the townsfolk came out of
their respective buildings and started staring toward the entrance of
the town. They apparently could tell the difference in the sound
of the
barking, to know that the animals weren't just making noise because
they could, but had found something of real interest.
Amanda was napping in the stagecoach in the middle of the street. She'd
actually worn herself out with her complaining, though the exceptional
heat of the last few days had probably helped. And she'd gotten so
badly bitten by the fleas in their room that she'd taken to sleeping in
the coach each night and napping there in the hottest part of each day.
The barking didn't awaken Amanda, but the first words spoken nearby
did. The baker wasn't baking today and had come out on the hotel porch
to stand next to Marian. Both of them were shading their
eyes to get a
better look at the stranger riding down the street.
He rode a very fine-looking animal, the kind rich men back home would
sell for horse racing. Golden
in color, with a pure white mane and
tail, he was a large, sleek stallion, a good-sized horse for a man
on
the tall side. As for the man himself, his wide-brimmed Western hat
shaded too much of his face
for anyone to tell what he looked like yet,
other than that he had a wide chest and shoulders under a faded blue
shirt, black pants and vest, and a dark blue neckerchief or bandana as
they were
called in
these parts, an item that seemed to serve all kinds of
purposes on the range.
"Just a cowboy," the baker, Ed Harding remarked next to Marian.
"Doesn't have the look of a gun-fighter."
"He's wearing guns," Marian pointed out, her eyes still on the stranger.
"Everyone wears guns out here, Missy."
"You don't."
"I'm not everyone."
These old-timers tended to say a lot of strange things like that,
Marian observed. They were a wealth
of interesting information though,
about the West, and she enjoyed talking with them when they
weren't
busy.
The dogs continued to bark and follow the stranger into town. They
bothered the horse not at all. The man glanced at them occasionally,
but otherwise seemed to ignore them, too. He stopped when he reached
the stagecoach, still parked in the middle of the street. He tipped his
hat toward Marian, a
mere matter of courtesy, before he set it back on
his head and stared at Ed Harding.
"I'm looking for the Laton girls. And this looks to be the stage they
were last known to be traveling on.
"You got that right, Mister," Ed replied. "You from the stage line?"
"No, from their aunt, here to fetch them to her,"
"And about damn time," Amanda was heard from, and in one of her more
disagreeable tones as she pushed open the door to the coach and climbed
down to the street.
The man lowered his hat to tip it in Amanda's direction, then with one
finger pushed it back behind his forehead again. "Have the girls been a
nuisance, ma'am?" he asked her in reference to her remark.
She stared at him as if he were daft. Marian was too busy staring agape
at him as well, but not over
what he'd said. That hadn't even
registered yet. No, from the moment he'd raised his hat so his face
became fully visible, she'd been arrested by a set of very handsome
features.
Lean, smooth-shaven cheeks, square jaw, a straight nose over a mustache
kept neatly trimmed. He
had the same two-toned shade of skin on his
forehead that most of these Westerners seemed to have
as a result of
working under the hot sun with their hats on. His tan line was barely
discernible actually, though he was nicely bronzed, suggesting he
didn't always wear the hat—or kept it pushed back a lot,
like he had it
now.
His hair was darkest black, though speckled with trail dust at the
moment. Not too long, his hair fell
just an inch or so below his nape.
Marian guessed he might usually wear it slicked back as many men
did,
but presently it was parted, a curly lock leaning toward each temple.
Thick
black brows arched
over pure gray eyes the shade of summer rain clouds,
with no tinge of blue in them.
It was a good thing that her overall appearance was so very
unremarkable, because for once, Marian completely forgot to shove her
spectacles back up her nose. But the man hadn't spared her more than
a
fleeting glance before speaking to Mr. Harding, and now, his gaze,
typically, remained on Amanda.
Even wilted by the heat, with sweat running down her temples, soaked
into the cloth beneath her
armpits, and some of her flyaway bangs
matted from it, Amanda was still flamboyantly lovely. It
wasn't
surprising he was still staring at her, even if she hadn't answered his
question yet, and he
could simply be waiting on that answer.
When Marian realized that she
was staring, she did three things in
quick order. Got her spectacles
back in their camouflaging position,
made sure her hair was still severely drawn back, and started
fanning
herself with the old newspaper she had in hand.
She was going to wait for Amanda to recover and do the talking, another
thing she was used to doing,
to keep attention off herself. But Amanda,
having just woken from her nap, was still slightly disoriented and
giving no indication that she would.
The continued silence, aside from the yapping dogs, was getting
ridiculous, so Marian finally said,
albeit hesitantly, "I
have the feeling you were expecting younger—children perhaps?"
He was quick, he didn't ask what she meant, just said, "Well, hell," as
he glanced her way, then back toward Amanda again.
For the first time, Marian actually felt annoyed, to be so totally
ignored. Which was crazy. She strived
so hard to achieve that very
result. And it would serve absolutely no good purpose to gain his
attention.
In fact, doing so would be detrimental to this man's peace
of mind as well as hers.
So it was a good thing, at least to Marian's way of thinking, that
Amanda finally collected her scattered thoughts, and asked, "Who are
you?"
"Chad Kinkaid. For the time being, I work for your aunt."
There was no quicker way to get dismissed from Amanda's mind as a male
worthy of her attention
than to mention you were a mere employee—of any
sort. Amanda didn't waste her time on anyone
who wasn't richer than she
was.
Without giving him another look, she crossed the narrow strip of dirt
road between the stage and the
hotel to reach the shade on the porch.
Chad Kinkaid was in the process of dismounting. Amanda's belligerent
employer-to-employee tone of voice stopped him.
"There are a total of seven trunks that need to be reloaded on the
stage. Do get started, so we can
depart this sorry excuse for a town
immediately."
He sat back in the saddle, glanced at the stagecoach again. "You expect
to travel in that?"
"I repeat, seven large
trunks, Mr. Kinkaid, and not a single vehicle in
this town able to transport
them other than this stage."
"Then they get left behind."
A gasp. "Absolutely not!"
He and Amanda stared, or ratiier, glared at each other for a moment, a
brief battle of wills. He ended
up sighing, probably figuring it wasn't
worth the effort to argue the point.
Marian thought it prudent to ask, "You do know how to drive this stage,
don't you?"
"No, ma'am, but I reckon I can figure it out. Where are the horses? The
stable looked boarded up and empty as I passed it."
"Indeed, like many other buildings here, it was abandoned long ago,"
she informed him. "So the animals were set loose in the field behind
town."
A moment later, the gunshot startled them all, well, all of them except
Chad Kinkaid, who fired it. The dogs that had followed him in had still
been barking around his horse's feet. The shot hit the dirt near them
and sent them hightailing it elsewhere.
Amanda had squealed in surprise, one hand had flown to her chest and
was still there. "Was that really necessary?"
she asked derisively.
Chad Kinkaid pulled his hat back down over his forehead, gathered his
reins in preparation of riding
off, and with a lazy smile, said, "No,
ma'am. It was a pleasure though."
Chapter
6
INSUFFERABLE LOUT," AMANDA MUMBLED before she went inside to repack the
few things
she had unpacked.
Chad Kinkaid had ridden off, but, apparently, Amanda didn't think that
he would abandon them there
as their driver had done. That would never
occur to someone as self-centered as Amanda.
Marian wasn't nearly as positive of that and quickly walked around the
hotel to the back of it to make sure he was just going to collect the
stage horses. She gave a sigh of relief a few moments later when
he
rode out from between two of the buildings farther down the street and
into the field where the
horses were grazing. All five of them were
still there, too, though widely scattered.
She watched for a few minutes as he started to gather them together.
One gave him trouble, didn't
want to be put back to work. He removed a looped length of rope hooked
to the back of his saddle, started twirling it in the air above his
head, then let it fly toward the horse. The loop at the end landed
perfectly over the horse's head and tightened with a yank before he
could shake it off.
Marian had heard about lassoing, but she'd never had an opportunity to
witness it before. The baker
had apparently called it right. Chad
Kinkaid was a man who knew how to work with cattle and horses.
A
cowboy, and the first one she'd actually met since arriving in Texas.
He undoubtedly knew the area
and would be a perfect escort. If only he
weren't so handsome as well. . .
Like most handsome men, he'd probably try to woo Amanda. They all did.
If they thought they had
the least chance with her, they made the
effort. She was just too pretty for them not to try. A few of those she
had kept dangling over the years, whom she actually encouraged, didn't
even know what a shrew she was. If she wanted them to keep coming
around, she showed them only her best side. She
was very good at
deceiving men.
Chad Kinkaid wouldn't stand a chance though. He just didn't fall into
the handsome and rich category
that was mandatory for Amanda. Marian
hoped that after her sister calmed down some, she wouldn't decide that
Chad would make an amusing diversion. If she turned on the charm for
him, he was bound
to fall in love with her, and
that would be really too bad for him.
It wasn't likely, though, that Amanda would calm down, at least not
until she was on her way home to Haverhill. She was going to be her
nasty self until then, and everyone around her was going to feel the
sting of her displeasure because she simply couldn't stand for anyone
not to be miserable when she was miserable herself.
Amanda really did hate this trip and the reason for it. Having to live
with their new guardian and abide
by her dictates already had her
hating their aunt, and she didn't even know her yet.
Neither of them had anything but a vague memory of her, Kathleen had
left home when they were so young. What Amanda hated most was that she
couldn't marry whom she wanted to, that she'd have to have Kathleen's
permission first. Their father would have let her have her choice, no
matter whom she chose, because he'd always given her anything she
wanted.
Their aunt wasn't likely to be that generous, would take her duty
seriously just because it was a new
and unexpected duty. At least,
Marian would look at it that way, so she took it for granted that
Kathleen would, too.
But hopefully Chad would see Amanda for what she was and not be
intrigued by what he might think were merely the rantings of a spoiled
brat. Still, Marian would have to take
her usual precautions and discourage him as well. Because much much
worse could happen if for some strange reason he turned
his interest in
her direction instead.
She went back into the hotel to pack. She found Ed Harding before going
upstairs and asked him to let Mr. Kinkaid know that there were only
five horses to collect, so he wouldn't waste his time looking for the
sixth. She'd thought briefly about telling him herself, but decided the
less contact she had with him
the better.
She didn't have much to pack, none of them did. There had been no
bureau or closet anyway, so they'd been mostly just living out of their
trunks. Two were Marian's, one was Ella Mae's, the other four were
Amanda's. She had been loath to leave any of her personal valuables and
trinkets behind, even though their home in Haverhill hadn't been closed
down, but left with a caretaker to guard against theft.
They were finished and waiting on the porch again before the five
horses were hitched to the stage. At least she and Ella Mae were. It
was actually a good opportunity to get Chad Kinkaid annoyed enough
with
her to dismiss her completely from his mind.
He was fiddling with the harness on the lead horse when she approached
him, and asked, "Do you
have proof that our aunt sent you to escort us?"
He glanced sideways at her, but then put his attention back on the
horse. "I mentioned your aunt, you didn't," he pointed out, his tone
indifferent.
"Well, yes, you did, but everyone in this town knows that we recently
lost our father and are traveling
to live with our aunt."
That got his eyes on her again with a narrowed frown. "I've never set
foot in this town before."
"So you say, but—"
"Are you accusing me of sneaking into town in the last day or so,
hearing your tale that 'everyone'
knows about, and cooking up a plan to
abscond with you and your sister?"
Put that way, it sounded really horrible. He'd have to be the worst
sort of person to cook up such a
plan. She winced mentally. She should
nod in agreement. She couldn't bring herself to do it. She didn't need
to. He was already furious with her.
He reached inside his vest to pull out a letter he had stuffed in a
pocket there. He literally shoved the
letter in Marian's face.
"This is how I knew where to find you, Miss Laton, and having not found
you where you were
supposed to be, I've spent every day since tracking
you down."
There was definitely some censure in those words, and even worse in the
tone. He was put out, extremely, that he'd had to go to a lot more
trouble to fetch them than he should have had to. Marian found herself
blushing even though it wasn't her fault that they hadn't been in
Galveston as they should have been. But he was even more put out over
her accusation. Well, that had been the whole point, hadn't it? To have
him dislike her and, thus, ignore her henceforth.
The letter was the one that Albert Bridges had sent to their aunt. Of
course, Marian hadn't doubted he was who he said he was. She hadn't
needed proof.
But she pretended to be satisfied with the proof he offered and with a
sniff and a shove of her
spectacles more tightly to the top of her
nose, she said primly, "Very good. I'm glad we are in capable hands,"
and she walked away.
It was probably his annoyance that made him say to her back, "Capable?
No, just my hands." At least, she hoped it was just his annoyance.
Chapter
7
CHAD DIDN'T HAVE TO make that run so fast. There'd been six hours
of daylight left and the
next town with a stage depot in it could have
been reached before dark at a normal pace. But the
horses were fresh,
and he was still angry, so they arrived an hour before nightfall. He
took the rest
of his anger out on the depot employee who tried to get
out of supplying them with a regular driver
at no extra cost, and even
wanted to keep the coach they already had in their possession. Not
likely.
The way Chad saw it, the sisters were owed a free ride all the
way to Trenton as compensation for
the ordeal the last driver had put
them through.
The ladies were put up in a hotel for the night—a decent one. At least
he heard no complaints from
them. Which hadn't been the case for most
of the day. The ride he'd given them had produced a heck
of a lot of
screaming from inside the coach, which he'd ignored. Probably all from
that schoolmarmish spinster with the
overactive imagination.
Three whiskeys later in the nearest saloon, and he finally stopped
grinding his teeth. He still wasn't
happy. He was stuck with women, not
girls, and three of them. He should have asked for clarification from
Red before he set out. He shouldn't have just taken her remark about
"girls" to be an accurate description of her nieces. He should have
said, "hell no," to doing her this favor, but unfortunately, it
was too
late for shoulds and shouldn'ts.
It had been bad enough when he'd thought he'd be traveling with
children all the way back to the ranch, but most of the children he
knew were well behaved, and he'd expected no trouble from them. Women,
on the other hand, could be nothing but trouble, and from what he'd
seen of these sisters so far, the "could be" was a definite "would be."
Still he should have figured out sooner that the Laton girls were
women, especially after he'd had to
track them down. But having it set
in his mind that they were too young to be a bother kept him from
wondering over the remarks he'd heard about them along the way, and not
once were they actually
called "women" to his recollection. "Those gals
were in a terrible hurry," and "The
girls wouldn't
listen to reason,"
and "Those little ladies left
the train faster'n harlots leaving a
church," didn't
exactly point out that they were females who might draw his prurient
interest.
Might? 'Hell! That Amanda was
as pretty as a picture. Blond hair in a
light golden shade and done up
to frame her oval face with fashionable
curls and ringlets that suited her perfectly. A pert little nose,
rose-colored cheeks, a soft chin, and the most luscious lips he'd seen
in a long time. And dark blue
eyes that sparkled like polished gems,
surrounded by thick black lashes a bit smudged from the heat,
indicating they probably weren't naturally black, but still, the kind
of eyes a man could get happily
lost in.
If that wasn't enough, she also had an eye-catching figure a man could
drool over. Plump breasts, a
trim waist, gently rounded hips, and she
wasn't too tall, not much more than a half foot shorter than
he, which
was rather ideal to his way of thinking.
Her snappishness upon meeting him was understandable. She'd been
abandoned in a near ghost town,
had suffered through a train robbery
before that, and Lord knew what else. For a gently reared lady,
the West
could be a harsh place, and she'd already experienced more than a fair
share of the harsher
side. The least he could do was get her to the
Twisting Barb without further incident.
As for her sister, the schoolmarmish spinster—with those horrid
spectacles she wore, he really
couldn't think of her any other way.
That wasn't kind, but after the insult she'd dealt him, he had
no kind thoughts for her.
They were as different as night and day, so much so that if you didn't
know it, you'd never guess they were sisters. Both blond, yes, both
blue-eyed and nicely shaped, but the resemblance stopped there.
Marian was obviously the older of the two, and probably made bitter
over her spinsterish state. She was probably jealous of Amanda because
her younger sister had gotten all the good looks in the family. She
wore her hair in an ugly bun and pulled back so severely it was
probably as painful as. it looked. She
held herself stiffly, stomped
about like a man, and had been dressed in dull dun gray.
She might be able to pretty herself up some if she tried, but then
again, with those spectacles that gave
her a bug-eyed look, she
probably figured there wasn't much point in trying. She was the kind of
gal
that if she set her sights on a man, he'd be running in the
opposite direction real quick. The less he thought of her, the better.
The next morning just after dawn they rode out. The ladies weren't too
happy about leaving at such
an early hour, but it was necessary to
reach the next depot before nightfall. At least they were back
on the
regular stage route, so there should be extra depots along the way
between towns for changing
the horses and feeding the passengers, and
if not, at least there would be designated areas for rest stops.
The driver didn't seem worried about it, though he admitted he'd never
driven the route toward Trenton. Will Candles was a crusty individual
in his late forties, hair gone to gray early, long handlebar mustache
he was right proud of. He'd been driving stagecoaches for about ten
years, and mule trains before that,
so he knew his job well.
Two days later, Chad had another unpleasant run-in with the spinster.
They stopped around midday at one of the better-run depots. It had a
stable, a restaurant, offered a wide variety of trade goods, and
even
had lodgings in case of inclement weather.
The weather had remained good, and was growing a little cooler the
farther they traveled northwest.
The team was changed while they had
lunch. There was a slight delay in leaving though because one
of the
fresh horses lost a shoe as it was led out to be hitched up. Since the
depot only serviced one
route, it only kept six horses on hand, so the
shoe needed to be refitted if they wanted the fresh horse.
Chad had tried to keep his distance from the ladies as much as
possible, if for no other reason than he was attracted to Amanda Laton
and traveling, with its attendant discomforts, wasn't a good time for
romantic notions. When she was at her new home and settled in, he would
decide whether to act on
that attraction. So he took his meals with
Will, rather than with the ladies, and rode half of each day
up on the coach with him, and the
other half on his horse, but never inside the stage.
Amanda and the maid, Ella Mae, had already boarded the coach when the
horse lost his shoe, and
elected to wait inside it. Marian had been
purchasing something in the general store and, unaware of
the delay,
probably thinking she was holding up their departure, came running out
to the coach and
ran right into Chad's back.
He thought nothing of it. She was a very clumsy woman, always bumping
into things—and people. He simply moved out of her way. But she seemed
all flustered by the accident and even seemed about to apologize, but
then must have changed her mind. How the hell she could end up blaming
him for it he couldn't guess, but she did.
"You tried to trip me, didn't you? And it's not the first time. Is it
something you developed as a child? Picking on other children with
weaknesses? A very mean thing to do. Outgrow it!"
Chad wasn't just surprised at her accusation. He was so incredulous at
being blamed by her for
something that she knew was
her fault, he was
rendered speechless. And having insulted him thoroughly for the second
time, she then yanked her skirt back away from him, as if it were in
danger of getting contaminated, and flounced off.
He almost yanked her back. He even started to reach for her. A good
shaking might be just what she needed. But he stopped himself. The
ridiculous ideas that got into her head weren't worth wasting his
time
over. The trouble was, his time was wasted anyway, in mulling over just
how infuriating that
female was.
The stage robbers who stopped the coach a couple hours down the road
couldn't have known it wasn't
a good time to hold him up. There were
two of them, each gripping pistols in both hands. One actually looked
like a girl behind the mask, or a very young boy, short and skinny as
all heck. The other, their spokesman, was a big brute of a man.
The call was given to lay down arms and throw out all valuables. Chad,
riding up on the driver's seat
with Will at the time, didn't oblige.
Will did, and quickly. He'd been through countless robberies on his
job
and had a firm personal policy that he wasn't paid enough to risk his
life trying to protect what was
in other people's pockets. Chad might
have felt the same way, if the spinster hadn't got on his bad side
again that day.
Rifle already in hand, since it had been cradled in his lap, he said,
"I'm not in a good mood. If you have
a lick of sense, that should tell
you that you really don't want to mess with me today. If I have to
shoot, I'll be shooting to kill. So why don't you think about that for
a moment, then get the hell out of here."
It was probably a litde more than even odds that bullets could have
started flying right then. Robbers
were known to
take such chances, and these two already had their weapons at the
ready, while only
Chad was now armed to oppose them. But they weren't
likely to know that there were only women
in the coach, so they had to
consider that more weapons might be brought into the equation.
However, with Will laying down his weapon as ordered, at that precise
moment they only had Chad
to deal with. One rifle was all it would
take, though, with good aim. The question was then, did they
think they
might be better and faster? Only they knew how good they were.
There was a brief spat of whispered conversation between the two, then
some swearing. Chad patiently waited it out. He'd almost been hoping
they wouldn't back down. But while he wouldn't hesitate to put
a bullet
through the big fellow, he drew the line at shooting teenagers or
female desperadoes, whichever the kid was. So he was somewhat relieved
when the short one kicked the dirt, then hightailed it into the brush
where their horses were staked. The big guy backed away more slowly,
but in another moment,
he was gone from sight as well. Chad still
waited, alert, and didn't relax until he heard their horses galloping
away.
"That was real stupid," Will grumbled as he retrieved his gun from the
floorboard and shoved it back
in his holster. "There's usually a few more hiding on the sides, ready
for any opposition."
"Usually didn't apply here, now did it?" Chad replied with a shrug.
"No, but you sure as hell didn't know that. Just pure luck that it was
only them two. Why I've seen
so many bullets flying at a coach once,
the dang wheel was shot off. And that
time, only two of the robbers
made themselves visible as well, but it turned out there were six in
all."
"Maybe you need to find a new job."
"Maybe I do," Will agreed with a snort. "But in the meantime, why'n't
you get yourself in a better
mood so you don't go getting me killed."
Chad figured diat was just nervous tension shooting its mouth off, so
he didn't take offense. But
when the same nervous tension came at him
from a different direction, he sure as hell did.
She shot out of the coach, her face red with fury, and started shouting
at him, "Don't you ever put
us in jeopardy like that again. You—we
could've been killed! A few trunks of clothes and money
aren't worth
human lives!"
He plays the hero and gets his head chewed off. It was the last straw.
He jumped down from the
coach, grabbed the spinster by her arm, and
dragged her a good twenty yards away before he
stopped, and snarled,
"I've a hankering to shake you until you rattle.
Say one more word, and I just might. That was a controlled situation,
Missy. If I didn't already have
my hands on my rifle, it might Ve gone
differently. And if you hadn't already riled me with your silly
accusations, it might have gone differently as well. So maybe you
should consider keeping your mouth shut from now on, and you might just
arrive at the Twisting Barb in one piece."
He left her there to go check on Amanda. She was probably still
frightened, might need comforting.
He opened the coach door to find
Ella Mae's calm eyes on him—nothing seemed to ruffle the Latons' maid,
and Amanda fast asleep. The little beauty had slept through the whole
thing.
Chapter 8
MARIAN WAS IN THE very pits of the doldrums. She wasn't used to making
such a complete fool
of herself, and doing it
deliberately. Granted she
would usually start out with any new acquaintance,
at least any that
might have a chance of becoming a friend or a suitor, by giving them a
bad first impression of herself, just enough for them to mark her down
as not worth knowing.
This was her safety tactic, to make sure right from the start that her
sister wouldn't get jealous. And
she'd been doing it for so long that
it was automatic on her part.
She'd made that effort with Chad Kinkaid the day he'd found them.
Accusing him of nefarious deeds, when she'd had no doubt he was there
to rescue them, should have been enough. He'd been obviously insulted
and avoided her ever since, wouldn't talk to her, wouldn't even look in
her general direction.
The perfect results. She
just hadn't counted on the effect he would have on her.
There was no getting around it, she liked him—too much. The initial
attraction she'd felt toward him didn't diminish with his cold
shoulders as it should have. She found herself thinking about him
constantly, listening for the sound of his voice, trying to catch
glimpses of him when he rode beside
the coach, everything she shouldn't
have been doing, but she just couldn't seem to help herself.
Amanda hadn't noticed her interest in Chad yet because she was consumed
with her own discomfort.
But if she thought for even a second that
Marian liked him, she'd put herself out to win him for herself, not to
keep him, of course, but just to spite Marian.
So it wasn't that Marian needed to reinforce Chad's dislike of her. He
already disliked her just fine. It
was that she needed to burn her own
bridges more thoroughly, to make sure that there was absolutely
no
possibility, ever, that he could be hers. Because even if she lost her
last bit of sense and let him
know that she liked him, she knew she
couldn't compete with her sister over him.
Amanda would use every trick in the book to get what she wanted. If
what she wanted was a man,
she'd even sleep with him, even if only
once, just to get him thoroughly devoted to her. She'd done
it before,
and made sure that Marian knew about it, if it happened to be a man
Marian
had shown
some interest in. So until Amanda was married and had moved
somewhere far away from her, she couldn't begin to think of getting
married herself.
So she'd made a fool of herself, again, and now she was miserable with
embarrassment because of it.
And it wasn't even intentional this time.
Bumping into Chad that afternoon had been no more than an accident. But
finding herself about to apologize for it had set off alarm bells in
her head. She didn't
want him to think she was just clumsy. That wasn't
a bad enough trait to prompt extreme dislike.
Another unwarranted
accusation was, though.
But she could have at least been a little more inventive. Charging him
with being mean to children
was beyond ridiculous. It just showed how
utterly flustered she'd been, finding herself in such close proximity
to him that she couldn't even think straight.
She would have thought she couldn't get more embarrassed. But lo and
behold, he faces a little danger during that aborted stage robbery, and
she loses all common sense. She wasn't even sure what was
worse,
experiencing fear for him or behaving like an idiot because of it.
Definite doldrums. Then to find herself eating dinner with him that
night of all nights, when high color was rising up her cheeks every few
minutes, when she couldn't stop thinking about her silly behavior.
But there was no help
for it, at least not that night. The town was small, there was only the
one eating establishment in the single hotel, and only one table left
empty in it, and the dining room was closing—
the cook already gone
home—so she couldn't make some excuse, then come back to eat later, and
neither could he.
At least they weren't served a round of the usual long-winded
complaints from Amanda with the meal. She'd slept through the entire
robbery that day, so hadn't had to experience any worry over it, had
only been told about it afterward, when they were halfway to the next
town, and was actually in a somewhat good mood because of it. And
Amanda in a good mood meant flirtation with every man within her sights.
Marian found the food tasteless, could barely swallow it. She had so
many mixed feelings stirred up that her head began to ache. It was one
thing to know what could happen and quite another to sit there and
watch Amanda gain Chad's rapt attention. Even poor Will Candles got
utterly flustered by Amanda's smiles. It made Marian sick to her
stomach.
The headache was a good excuse to leave, and she took it. So what if
she went to sleep hungry. She'd
be lucky if she could sleep at all.
No one but Ella Mae really heard her make the excuse or noticed her
leaving, she did such a good job
of making herself ignorable. She found
her way to the room she'd be sharing with her sister and their maid,
even though the
light had burned out in the hall. She was too miserable to light the
lamp in the room, either. She just released her hair from the tight
bun, tossed her spectacles on the nearest table, dropped her dress to
the floor, and crawled under the covers on the bed to nurse her misery.
Such an abundance of diverse feelings actually had one benefit, they
exhausted her more than she realized, and, thankfully, she fell right
to sleep. She hadn't expected to. And she had no idea for how
long, she
just knew she had been deeply asleep and was startled abruptly awake by
the surprised
voice that shouted "What the... ?"
Since their trip had begun back in Haverhill, she had gotten used to
being awakened by Amanda, who wasnt the least bit considerate of others
when she came to bed. But it wasn't Amanda standing there
next to the
bed. Marian recognized that deep voice and was surprised enough herself
to screech, "Get
the hell out of my room!"
He'd had time to recover, and said calmly now, even a bit dryly, "This
is my room."
"Oh." Mortified again. That was a bad habit she was developing. "Then I
must apologize."
"Don't bother," Chad said.
"Then I won't," she bit out, then added stiffly, "Good night."
She'd realized two things during that brief conversation. Chad had
yanked down the covers before
he'd realized someone was already in the
bed, and the room was still dark. Like her, he hadn't lit the
lamp just
to get into bed. That meant she could get out of there without letting
him get a good look at
her and hope she didn't trip on the way out.
It was a good plan, which she implemented immediately. But she didn't
count on him flicking one of
the matches that were kept next to the oil
lamp at about the same time that she started moving. She
hoped he was
glancing toward the lamp to light it, and not at her. She didn't pause
to find out, dashing quickly off the bed and out the door, and ran
smack into Will Candles on his way in.
She knocked him over, mumbled a quick, "Sorry, so sorry," but didn't
stop. Could her cheeks get any hotter? Probably not. Nor did they cool
off once she was safely behind the right door a few more steps down the
hall. The only thing she could be grateful for at that point was that
the room was still empty,
so she didn't have to explain to her sister
or maid what she was doing running around the hotel in her underwear.
Chapter 9
WILL SAUNTERED INTO THE room a moment later, dusting off his clothes,
his scruffy wide-brimmed hat on crooked. "Was that who I thought it
was, you lucky son'bitch?"
Chad, sitting on the edge of the bed he would be sharing with the stage
driver, was wearing a
thoughtful frown. "And just who did you think it
was?"
"Who else? A good-looking young fella like you wouldn't bother with the
quiet one—"
"Now hold on, that's not what was going on. She mistook the room for
hers. That's why she went
tearing out of it in such an all-fired hurry
when I showed up. Did you actually get a good look at her?"
"Sure—well, I reckon not. But that was a mighty fine figure in that
skimpy cam-i-sole and ruffle-assed bloomers," Will said with a chuckle.
"And only one of them's got such a nice shape."
Chad stood up, picked up the spectacles lying on the table, and twirled
them about once in front of
Will. "She left these behind."
Will blushed slightly, said, "Well, hell, all women look mostly alike
under their wrappings, I guess.
Never figured so much long hair could
be bound up in such a tiny bun though. I didn't imagine that,
did I?
That was some really long golden hair that went flying past me."
Chad didn't know what to think, other than that his eyes might have
been playing tricks on him. He'd
seen her profile as she shot out of
the bed, at least a partial view, what with her long hair covering a
good portion of it. And he could have sworn, for a second there, that
his ears had deceived him in
leading him to believe it was Marians
voice he was hearing, when it was actually Amanda dashing
out of the
room.
He'd turned to watch her exit as well, and his confusion had continued.
From behind, with those long blond curls bouncing around her hips as
she ran, and only wearing the ruffled bloomers that fit snugly down to
her knees and the thin white camisole that clung like a second skin
from her breasts to waist,
that female body was just too shapely to
belong to the spinster. It had to be Amanda's.
Once she was out of sight, he'd finished lighting the lamp and spotted
the spectacles on the table, as
well as the puddle of a brown dress on
the floor, the same one Marian had worn that day. Confusion
was back.
It had been the spinster, but she sure as hell hadn't looked like a
spinster just then. The profile had so closely resembled her sister's,
he'd been positive for a moment that it was the sister. Yet to look at
the two of them in the bright light of day there was absolutely no
resemblance between them—well, maybe there was. Maybe he just hadn't
noticed it before because it was hard to notice anything about Marian
other than those spectacles that made her eyes look deformed.
He held those spectacles up in front of his face, brought them closer
to his eyes, winced and dropped them back on the table. He saw nothing
but a solid blur when he looked through them. He felt a moment's pity
for the girl. She had to be nearly blind to need such thick spectacles.
The pity was incredibly brief, though. She was still a mean-tempered,
ornery, insulting female that any man in his
right mind would stay the
hell away from.
He'd been managing that just fine for the most part and would continue
to keep his distance—after
he returned her spectacles to her in the
morning. He was actually looking forward to that, just to clear away
the last of his confusion, to get a good look at her without the
spectacles detracting from the rest
of her features.
When he found Marian the next morning, she was just coming out of her
room, and damned if she
wasn't already wearing
another pair of spectacles. Try as he might, he simply couldn't see
beyond the oversize eyes and tightly compressed lips. The nose was the
same, if stuck up in the air, the cheeks just as sharply defined, the
forehead might be the same, the brows weren't, and the chin he wasn't
sure of.
Nor did she give him much chance for an extended observation.
Red-cheeked over what had happened last night, she snatched the folded
dress and spectacles from him, grudgingly mumbled her thanks, and
hurried on past him for a quick breakfast before they departed.
He'd been tempted, really tempted, to snatch away the spectacles riding
so high on her nose. He
didn't quite have the temerity. Well, he did,
he just didn't want to have to deal with the immediate tongue-lashing
he'd no doubt get for it, or the harangue and insults that were sure to
follow nonstop
until he could dump her in Red's lap and be done with
her.
And besides, Amanda had finally paid him some attention last night over
dinner. He'd been beginning
to wonder if she wasn't the least bit
interested in him. She gave no typical clues to indicate that she
might
be, ignored him for the most part. Quite a unique experience for him.
But after last night, it
was definitely worth considering, getting to
know her better—after he got her home.
Just two more days should see them riding into Trenton, then another
long day out to the ranch. He
could wait that long to see which way the
wind blew where Amanda was concerned. And as for her
sister, he wished
a strong wind would just blow her away.
Chapter
10
WHEN THEY WERE A day away from Trenton, Chad began wondering whether he
was ready to
have it out with his father again. A confrontation was
sure to take place if he rode into Trenton. Which was why he debated
long and hard with himself whether or not to send the ladies into town
with just
Will, or to accompany them.
If he didn't go in with them, then he'd have to explain to them why,
and the thought of that pretty
much decided him in the end. Besides,
three months away from home was long enough, more than enough time for
Stuart to have cooled off. They should be able to discuss the matter of
marriage
calmly now, rationally, without each of them blowing off the
handle . . . Well, he could hope.
One more day and Stuart would know he was back in the county. And he'd
find out if his father
could be reasonable
about his grandiose dreams of founding the biggest cattle empire
around—at
Chad's expense.
The ladies were settled into yet another hotel and would be dining
soon. Chad left to find a saloon
since he wasn't hungry yet. The sun
had set, or at least the last tints of red would be gone from the
sky
in a matter of minutes. A storm was in the area, but would hopefully be
gone by morning. He
really didn't want any delays at this point.
He almost didn't see Marian standing in the shadows on the porch,
staring at the storm clouds moving
in from the west. She turned to see
who was behind her, then turned back, ignoring him. He bristled
only
for a second over the cold shoulder, then gave a mental sigh of relief,
since he didn't really want
to talk to her.
"Is my aunt a—nice person?"
He stopped at the top of the porch steps, tilted his hat back. There
was nervousness in that question.
If it had been as abrasive as her
usual remarks to him, he would have pretended not to hear her and
kept
going. It still struck him odd, what she was asking, considering Red
was her relative, not his.
"What kind of question is that?"
"Well, my father had many faults, and she is his sister," she replied.
"Your father wasn't a nice person?"
"That's a matter of opinion—and whom you ask. Amanda would say he was
the nicest person in the world."
She turned slightly now, not to face him, but so she could look at him
sideways. Primed to ignore him again was how he saw it.
"But you wouldn't?"
"He wasn't mean or anything like that. Yes, I suppose I can say he was
nice in a general sense. But
the question was about my aunt," she
reminded him.
"You haven't communicated with her at all since she moved west?"
She shook her head. "No, and I barely remember her from before she
left."
"Well, she's a sweetheart. I can't think of a single person who knows
her who doesn't like her."
"Really?"
She sounded like a scared little girl begging for some reassurance.
Despite how much he disliked her,
and that was a lot, he still found
himself smiling and telling her what she needed to hear.
"Yes, really. She's kindhearted, generous to a fault. She'd probably
give you the shirt off her back if she thought you needed it. And I
wouldn't be surprised if she's as nervous about meeting you as you are
about meeting her. She never had any kids of her own. Not that you can
be considered a child ..."
An image of that luscious womanly body running out of his room the
other night flashed into his mind. No, definitely
not a child.
"What about her husband?" Marian asked. "I do remember Father
mentioning once that she moved
west immediately after she married."
Chad felt a moments discomfort, not liking having to be the bearer of
bad news. And he couldn't help being amazed at the lack of
communication in their family, that she hadn't already heard this
particular news.
Red and her brother should have at least kept in touch over the years.
Of course, for as long as he'd known Red, she'd never mentioned having
family elsewhere. Not that that was odd, when a lot of
folks came west
just to forget what they were leaving behind.
To get the subject over with for his own sake, he was probably a little
more blunt than called for.
"Your uncle died last year. Your aunt has
been running their ranch on her own ever since."
"Goodness, I had no idea."
She didn't seem sorrowful over the matter, so he guessed, "You didn't
know him?"
"No, I don't recall ever meeting him. There was a mention once—" She
paused, frowning as she sifted through her memories. "I think it was my
mother who said it, that Kathleen married Frank Dunn just
so she could
leave Haverhill. I remember thinking at the time that that must have
been a powerful
desire she had, to see more of the
world."
Or a powerful desire to get away from
her small corner of it, Chad was
thinking.
There could likely have been a rift between brother and sister. That
would explain why neither had
kept in touch with the other. Yet they
were still family, and the only family each had left, thus Red
got
guardianship of his daughters.
"Well, you'll have lots of time to ask her all about it," Chad pointed
out. "We'll be in Trenton tomorrow night, and at the ranch by late the
next day."
When it occurred to him that he was standing there having a normal
conversation with the spinster, a slight bit of color rode up his
cheeks. But then full dark had arrived, and although he could still see
her, because his eyes had
adjusted to the darkness, he
couldn't see her
clearly, so it was easy to forget that
she was the ornery sister with
the wild imagination.
The rain arrived a moment later, a full downpour, with mist from it
floating up onto the porch and urging the two occupants back inside.
Well, hell, so much for finding a friendly saloon tonight, Chad thought.
In the small, well-lit lobby, he had just enough time to see Marian
shove her spectacles up her nose and flounce off without another word.
So much for normal. Her rudeness prevailed. She didn't even bid him so
much as good night.
Chapter
11
RIDING INTO TRENTON LATE the next afternoon, Chad tried to view the
town
through a strangers
eyes, as Amanda would see it. It was a good-sized
town, bigger than most of the ones the ladies had passed through
getting there. It had grown considerably from when his father had
setded in the area.
The original main street was much longer now. Two blocks had been added
to the right, three blocks were squared off on the left, with two more
beyond that. And the town was still growing, despite there being no
indication that the railroad would ever reach it. But it had a stage
line, with connecting routes
to Waco up north and Houston down south,
and passengers passing through had been known to like
what they saw in
Trenton and elect to settle there instead of continuing on.
The Kinkaid ranch was partly responsible for the growth, even though it
was situated some ten miles
west of town. Stuart
could have built his own store on the ranch to see to the needs of his
large force
of employees, but he preferred to support the town instead.
There was also a wide selection of farmers settled east of town, and a
sawmill up north only a day away.
Straight lines, wide streets, shade trees planted long ago a decent
size now, there wasn't much the town didn't offer. Three hotels, four
boardinghouses, two more restaurants in addition to the three dining
rooms in the hotels that were open to the public, a general store as
well as many shops dedicated to specific items like shoes, guns,
saddles, furniture, jewelry, even several clothing stores. Three
doctors
had set up shop, two lawyers, a dentist, two carpenters, and
other folk with assorted occupations. For entertainment there were four
saloons, two of them considered dance halls, a theater, and several
brothels on the outskirts of town.
It was mostly a quiet town. Stuart frowned on excessive rowdiness in
his men, as did the saloon owners, and while the cowhands would and did
raise hell on the weekends, it was more good-natured, rather
than
destructive, and a good many of them would show up in one of the town's
two churches come Sunday morning.
Occasionally there'd be a gunfight in the streets, but more often than
not the sheriff would intervene
and try to talk the combatants out of
it, usually with success. It was too bad he was retiring next month.
He'd kept the peace in
Trenton for many years, had been re-elected four times.
Chad had expected to cause somewhat of a commotion, riding into town
that day. The rift with his
father and his taking off would have made
the gossip rounds in town. Red's cowboys had brought
back the news that
Stuart had hired not one but three trackers to find him, and of course,
not one
of them had discovered where he'd gone into hiding.
So he was surprised, even a little perturbed, when the Concord Stage,
much bigger than the smaller
stage that usually passed through town,
drew more notice dian he did. In fact, that stage drew so
much notice
that they were pulling up in front of the Albany Hotel before anyone
actually recognized
him riding beside it.
But then the expected greetings and remarks came at him from all sides
as a crowd started gathering
and growing there on the steps of the
hotel.
"That you, Chad?"
"Where you been?"
"Your father know you're back, boy?"
"Where you been keeping yerself?"
"That filly cried for all of a week, I heard, when you ran off on her."
"This mean you're getting hitched now?"
"We getting invited to the shindig?"
"Where you been?"
Chad answered none of the questions, hitched his horse to the rail in
front of the hotel, and moved to open the coach door. Amanda stepped
out first, and that pretty much silenced the crowd. He'd figured
it
would. Trenton didn't see many women as pretty as Amanda Laton. There
was almost a collective
gasp before the silence.
Amanda usually delivered a complaint or two each day as their journey
ended. He couldn't really blame her. A delicate woman like her would
get easily worn-out with so much traveling. But she held her
tongue
with such a large audience on hand, even smiled at such a welcome. A
good many of the men staring at her probably fell in love in those few
moments that she moved gracefully into the hotel.
Chad stayed with her, but only to avoid a new round of questions that
were sure to start up as soon as Amanda was out of sight. At least he
told himself that was why he took her arm and led her inside, that
it
had nothing to do with subtly showing that he'd staked his claim. But
then he had noticed that even
Spencer Evans had stepped out on the
porch of his saloon to observe the commotion. Chad hoped he'd stay
there. He had enough on his mind without having a confrontation with
his old nemesis.
He and Spencer went way back. Born the same year, they'd known each
other all their lives. For a
brief time, half of one summer anyway,
they'd even got along—but they were too young then to have figured out
yet that they didn't
really like each other.
Competition got in the way of what might have become friendship. Chad
supposed that was natural enough, their being the same age and near the
same weight and height. Soon enough they were
competing over anything
and everything. Schoolwork, fishing, hunting, shooting, racing, didn't
matter what, they each had to be the better at it. But Spencer turned
out to be a sore loser and had started
many of those first fights.
It wasn't long before they didn't need much of an excuse to fight,
since the fighting turned out to be
just another form of competition
between them. They'd busted up the schoolroom so often in those
days,
the town officials elected to abandon the small, one-room schoolhouse
in favor of the church,
in hopes it would have a more calming influence
on the boys. It didn't, but at least they took their
fights out into
the churchyard thereafter.
They might have outgrown these tendencies, might still have become
friends someday and laughed over the antics of their youth. Anything
was possible. But then they got old enough to start noticing females .
.
Wilma Jones was the first they both took a liking to. Six fights later
and after Spence had carved
"I love you, Wilma" on every single plank
of her house late one night, the Joneses moved back East, taking Wilma
with them.
Agatha Winston was the second girl they both noticed, again at the same
time. They were sixteen by
then, and their fights were getting a little
more bloody. Aggie happened to get in the middle of one of
them and got
her nose broken. Chad guiltily suspected it was his fist that had done
it, but he'd never
been quite sure. She'd refused to talk to either of
them after that and still didn't, even though she was married with
three kids now.
The kicker, though, was Clare Johnson. She'd bloomed late, or they just
hadn't paid attention since
she was a couple of years younger than they
were. But she was a real nice girl, always helping out the younger
children in school. She aspired to be a teacher herself someday.
Chad became infatuated with her soon after his seventeenth birthday,
his first—and last—serious interest in a girl. He took her on a picnic,
invited her to keep him company while he fished, danced every dance
with her at the shindig following the Wilkses' barn-raising, and was
sure he was the first to steal a kiss from her because she'd blushed so
bright red afterward. He never would have thought to do more than that.
She was a nice girl, the kind you courted slowly, then married.
He tried to keep his interest a secret this time. He didn't take her
out to places where Spencer would
notice—Spencer was too uppity to go to barn-raisings, so Chad was sure
he
hadn't heard about the dancing. But Spencer was doing his own secret
courting of Clare that Chad didn't know about—until
it was too late.
And Spencer didn't abide by the rules, he didn't stop with a kiss.
He actually seduced Clare, then the son of a bitch bragged about it, so
Chad would know he'd lost. Spencer didn't consider that his bragging
would effectively ruin Clare—or he didn't care. It was more important
to him to win.
The fights escalated after that. Chad and Spencer couldn't be in the
same room without trying to kill
each other. And that sorry state of
affairs continued until Spencers father, Tom Evans, finally got fed
up
with paying his share of the damages his boy had caused and shipped him
off to finish his schooling with relatives back East. The town breathed
a collective sigh of relief-—until months later the peace and quiet
actually got a bit boring and some folks were bemoaning the loss of
their weekly entertainment in watching Chad and Spencer go after each
other wherever they happened to meet.
When Spencer Evans finally returned to town after his father's death to
take over the Not Here Saloon, the townsfolk were filled with both
dread and expectancy. But enough time had passed, both boys were men
now, and fortunately, the town now had two saloons, so Chad actually
made an effort to avoid Spencer. He didn't always
succeed, and there were still the occasional fights between them, but
nothing like what had gone on during their youth.
Clare was still in Trenton. She'd helped in her father's tin shop until
he died, then she sold it. She worked in Spencers saloon now, handled
the entertainment, onstage and otherwise. And every time Chad thought
of her these days, he despised Spencer even more.
But Amanda wouldn't be staying in town more than one night, and Reds
ranch was a good days ride
from town, so he didn't expect Spencer to
come sniffing around. Besides, Red wouldn't allow a seducer of
innocents to court her very innocent niece.
Chapter 12
"YOU DISMISSED THE COACH? That was our personal coach!"
Chad tipped his hat back, looked up at the morning sky, counted to ten.
It looked like Amanda was
going to require all of his patience today.
Good thing he had a lot.
He glanced back at the ladies standing at the top of the steps in front
of the hotel. Only Amanda was glaring at him incredulously. Marian was
examining her nails in a somewhat suspect display of indifference.
Their maid looked bored as usual.
He'd brought them three mounts to ride. He'd spent a good thirty
minutes in discussion over those
horses to make sure they were suitable
for ladies before he left the stable. He supposed he should have warned
them that they'd be traveling the rest of the way on horseback. But he
simply hadn't thought it was necessary.
Everyone and their mother got around by horseback out here.
Patience well in hand again, he told Amanda, "It wasn't your
personal—anything. The only reason you got to use it as long as you did
was because I browbeat the depot employee into allowing you to use it,
since it was one of their drivers that abandoned you and the coach. I
had to threaten to break his neck
if he didn't agree. But that coach is
too big for the narrow road out to the ranch. Besides, Will took off
with it at the crack of dawn, so it's long gone already."
Amanda took on a mulish look. "I am not
riding a horse. You'll just
have to rent us a carriage then."
Well hell, when she got ornery, she really got ornery. It was a good
thing she was so pretty that a man could overlook a few annoying traits.
He sighed. "Horses you can rent. Wagons to haul supplies you can rent.
But if there's even one carriage
in this town, I'd be mighty surprised.
Trenton isn't big enough to need them. Folks around here walk where
they want to get to. And lastly, the narrow track out to the ranch
winds a good distance out of
the way to keep to flat land, takes an
extra half day using it, which means sleeping outdoors for the
night.
With horses you can cut a straight path and get there before dark
tonight."
"Then you'll just have to rent us a wagon, won't you?" Amanda replied.
His explanation had been reasonable. Did she really want to rough it on
the side of the road? Or was
she just being stubborn? Some women, when
they took a stand, refused to back down from it for any reason, even
when proven wrong without a doubt.
"I've already done that for your trunks. The driver will be here at any
moment to pick them up and get them delivered by tomorrow."
"Then what is the problem? I'll simply ride with the wagon."
"You're missing the point," Chad replied. "That means an extra day—"
"No, you are missing the
point," she cut in. "I am not riding on the
back of a horse, not today, not tomorrow, not ever! So if some other
means of transport cannot be arranged, I'll be staying right here."
"You won't win this battle, Mr. Kinkaid," Marian inserted. There was a
distinct note of humor in her tone, but whether it was at his expense
or her sister's was anyone's guess. "She's afraid of horses."
"I am not!" Amanda swung around to face her sister. "I just refuse to
subject myself to the extreme
aches associated with sitting on a horse
for any length of time."
"You won't like riding on a wagon," Chad pointed out. "It's not
designed for comfort either. Nor is sleeping on the ground for that
matter."
"On the ground? Don't be absurd. I would sleep in the wagon, of course."
"The wagon would be loaded with—"
"It will just have to be unloaded," Amanda interrupted him again, and
in a tone that defied argument.
"It won't fit all three of you."
"And your point is?"
He stared at her incredulously. He didn't miss the implication. A wagon
just for her own individual use was what she was saying, yet where he
came from, what was good for one sibling was good for the
rest. Was he
going to have to go through this whole argument again with the spinster
if he agreed to this nonsense? Get another wagon just for them all to
sleep in?
Marian actually laughed—at him. His expression over Amanda's remark
right then would probably have made a bull snicker. With less patience,
he might have exploded at that point. But for some odd reason, he
didn't mind her humor. It was the first time he'd heard her laugh, and
the sound was actually pleasant, even somewhat contagious. He didn't
laugh as well, but the urge to do so did take a few notches off of
his
annoyance.
She must have read his mind, too, because she said, "Guess it's a good
thing I don't mind sleeping on
the ground—or riding a horse for that
matter."
"You've never been on a horse before either," Amanda said petulantly.
"Yes, but unlike you, I'm willing to try new things. And how difficult
can it be, plodding along at a
walk beside a wagon."
Marian was rubbing it in, that they were going to be delayed just to
accommodate Amanda's stubbornness. It didn't work though. Not even a
slight blush was forthcoming from the lovely blond.
And then the wagon in question pulled into view, coming around the
corner just down the block.
Marian started laughing again.
"Oh my God, mules," she gasped out between chuckles. "I could probably
get to Aunt Kathleen's
quicker if I walked."
This time Amanda did blush. She was also furious, observing the mode of
transportation she had
insisted she would ride on. And she turned that
fury on Chad.
"Is this your idea of a joke? "You expect me to ride behind mules?"
"Riding behind them was your idea, not mine. I brought you a perfectly
good horse—"
"Which you can exchange for those mules. And I don't care how long it
takes. If I can't have a carriage,
I at least have to have a
wagon
pulled by horses."
Chad started counting to ten again. While he was at it, Spencer showed
up. He was all dandified,
wearing his Sunday best though he wasn't a
churchgoer, which meant he'd hoped to catch the ladies before they left
town and impress them with the debonair ways he'd learned during those
few years
he'd been shipped back East to finish off his schooling.
"Good morning, ladies." Spencer tipped his hat. "I couldn't help
overhearing diat you may need my assistance—if a carriage
is what you require."
He might have said ladies, but his eyes were all over Amanda. And she
was impressed, to go by the
smile she offered him. Women did seem to
get all silly when they were around Spencer Evans, finding
his boyish
looks exceptionally handsome. Dark brown hair, emerald green eyes, and
the confidence
that came with being a successful man of business.
"Indeed, sir. And you are?"
"Spencer Evans, at your service."
"We were told there were no
carriages to be had in this town."
"Some people are too ignorant to know any better," Spencer said.
"But you do have a carriage
for hire then?" Amanda confirmed.
"Brand spanking new, delivered just last month," he was pleased to say.
"But I'll hear no talk of hiring. You're most welcome to use it,
however."
Chad turned away, began counting to one hundred this time. He hadn't
missed the digs from both of them. The last thing he wanted to do was
fight in front of Amanda, but if he said even two words to Spencer,
that's probably what would happen. Her barbs he could ignore, Spencers
he couldn't.
But they weren't waiting for his reaction. They were still ironing out
the details. And it was easy to
see where this was leading, not just a generous offer on Spencer's part
to
ingratiate himself with
Amanda, but an opportunity to see more of her.
Spencer was saying, "I'll come by to fetch it tomorrow afternoon—"
"Don't bother," Chad cut in, unable to keep quiet any longer. "Someone
will bring it back."
"No bother at all. I'm already looking forward to one of Red's
home-cooked dinners."
Spencer had done his homework. He knew who the Laton sisters were and
where they were going,
had probably found Will Candles last night and
grilled him. Chad had actually expected him to show
up in the hotel
dining room last night to meet them. He might have and been too late.
The ladies
hadn't tarried over dinner, had retired early to bed, so if
Spencer had wasted time slicking himself
up before coming over, he
would have missed them.
It took an extra hour to finally get going. Chad had to buy some
blankets for the night, food for dinner. And there had been a
teeth-grinding moment when Spencer pulled up with his brand spanking
new carriage and Amanda admitted she didn't know how to drive
one.
After making all that fuss, she
couldn't even drive the thing.
That news even surprised Spencer, long enough to keep him from offering
that service as well. The
maid spoke up and said she was capable of
driving it.
Spencer would have offered if
he hadn't been rendered momentarily
speechless. And Chad would probably have broken his nose for it. He was
plumb out of patience. But that was usually the case
after a run-in
with Spencer Evans.
Chapter
13
THEY CAMPED NEXT TO a water hole. It wasn't the best-tasting water
around, but Chad had
brought a supply, so they didn't need to drink it.
He did the cooking himself. Marian actually offered
to, but if she
cooked the way Red did, and they both hailed from the same place, he'd
rather eat roots,
so he declined. Besides, he didn't trust Marian not
to burn the camp down, she was so clumsy. The farther she stayed from
the campfire, the better.
He'd managed to cool off, his temper, that is, as the day got hotter. A
pure waste of time, riding
alongside a carriage, but what the hell, it
was only one more day. Amanda even magnanimously elected
to sleep in
the carriage, since it was a two-seater and she was short enough to fit
on one of the padded seats, if she curled her legs that is. The padding
was what swayed her, but at least he didn't have to unload the wagon
for her—after it finally caught up to them.
Chad half expected Spencer to show up that night with some flimsy
excuse about making sure the ladies were all right. It was something
Chad might have done if he wanted to see more of a woman who had caught
his interest. But then he was forgetting that Spencer was town raised.
His particular town might
be in the middle of Texas, but there was
still a big difference in being raised in the comforts of town
and
roughing it out on the plains, which anyone raised on a ranch was used
to.
And Spencer had already used up his quota of flimsy excuses. Looking
forward to Red's cooking—
Chad gave a mental snort. The bastard didn't
even know that if Red had ever cooked a meal in her
life, it had
probably burned, that she employed cooks for herself as well as the
bunkhouse for just
that reason, which she wasn't ashamed to admit.
The maid Ella Mae offered to clean up after dinner, which was nice of
her. She was a quiet one.
Brown hair kept in a soft bun not nearly as
severe as Marian's, green eyes, a few years older than the sisters, she
went about her duties without drawing much attention to herself. She
was a plain-looking woman, except for the hint of humor always in her
eyes. Marian spoke to her as if she were a friend. Amanda spoke to her
with more respect than he'd heard her use with anyone else. Neither
treated her
as a menial servant. They didn't tell her to do things, they asked. He
supposed she'd been with them
long enough
that she was more like family.
Of course, as families went, the sisters didn't exactly behave like
they were related. They didn't talk
much to each other, but when they
did, they rarely had a nice word to say. He figured they'd had an
argument somewhere along their journey and just hadn't made up yet.
That might explain some of Amanda's testiness as well—and the spinsters
rudeness.
Amanda had left the campfire to prepare for bed. Chad watched her
surreptitiously for a bit as she
fussed with the blankets he'd bought
to find one for her use. Ella Mae had brought her a bucket of
water.
She used it to wash the dust from the day off her face and neck, but
then took it with her
behind the wagon for a bit more privacy.
He was finding her more and more lovely with each passing day. He hoped
he wasn't getting smitten—
not yet anyway. With no encouragement coming
from her other than a few smiles, and those had
been passed out to
others as well, not just him, he still didn't know whether he stood a
chance in hell
of gaining her affections.
Usually there were clues, lots of them, small subtle ways a woman let a
man know she was interested
in him. He'd never been in doubt about a
woman's interest, well, certainly not for this long. Of course,
he
hadn't been obvious about his interest in her either. He had decided to
wait before making any move on her, so maybe she was keeping her own
feelings firmly under wraps until he
started dropping some clues of his own.
With Amanda gone from sight, he glanced back toward the campfire and
was surprised to find himself alone with the spinster. The fire was
reflected in both lenses of her spectacles, two miniature campfires
in
exact detail. It looked most odd, but then she always looked odd with
those spectacles shoved so far
up the bridge of her nose.
She seemed tired tonight, even though she had chosen not to ride a
horse today after all, since the
carriage had more than enough room for
both sisters. He still grudgingly admired her gumption over that, to be
willing to ride a horse, when apparently neither sister had ever sat on
one before. He had briefly thought about teaching her how, once they
were at the ranch, but then gave himself a mental kick for even vaguely
considering it. The more distance he kept from her, the better for him.
He'd made a pot of coffee—a habit from those long late-night watches
over a herd being taken to
market. He figured only he'd be drinking it,
so he hadn't made much. But she'd poured herself a cup when he wasn't
looking and had set it near the fire to keep it warm.
He glanced away, not wanting to encourage conversation with her if he
could help it. But out of the corner of his eye he saw her reach for
her cup, and almost stick her hand into the fire instead.
He shook his head, stared right at her, and said, "You need to find
yourself a new eye doctor. Trenton just happens to have one."
Her eyes moved to him, then back to the cup she'd managed to get hold
of. "There's nothing wrong
with my vision," she replied indignantly.
"You're as blind as a bat."
"What an unkind thing to say," she said with a humph.
"You get top honors on unkind remarks, Missy. I'm just stating the
obvious."
"Which isn't the least bit true."
"Isn't it? How many fingers am I holding up?" When she said nothing, he
added, "Uh-huh, I rest my case."
She lowered her head a bit, conceding, he thought, until she replied
triumphantly, "Three."
He mumbled under his breath. "You were guessing."
"And you have trouble admitting when you're wrong, don't you?"
"When's the last time you had your eyes checked?" he countered. "To go
by those antiquated spectacles you wear, it was probably when you were
a child. What can it hurt to have a new exam?"
He thought he was being helpful, but even in the dim light of the
campfire he could see her blush.
And her hiss was further indication
that he'd hit a sore spot.
"My eyesight isn't a concern of yours. And you have got to stop talking
to me before she notices and—"
She stopped, looked immensely flustered, as if she'd said something she
shouldn't have. Chad leaned
back on his bedroll, resting on one elbow.
He was only mildly curious. Well, that wasn't exactly true,
but he
hoped he was giving her that impression.
"She? She who?"
"Never mind."
"Then let's get back to your eyes."
"You don't listen very well, do you?"
"Sure I do. I heard something about not talking to you anymore, but
since you don't care to elaborate, then it can't be very important."
"Trust me, Mr. Kinkaid, this is one can of beans you don't want to
open."
He raised a brow. Did she have a real concern— or was she setting him
up for another outlandish insult?
He laid on his Texas drawl a bit thick, "Well now, darlin', you've
managed to prick my interest—"
"Too bad."
It was a gift she had, how easily she could annoy a man. He sat up
stiffly. He jammed a stick into
the fire to stir it up, added a few
more thick branches so it would last through the night.
"Thank you," he thought he heard her say, though he couldn't imagine
why.
She got around to telling him when he pointed out, "You could have just
walked away."
"I happen to be chilled, have been for the last hour. I'm not sure why.
The night isn't that cold. But I
was trying to get warm by the fire
before I went to bed. You
could have walked away though, or at
least
stop making it so obvious that we're having a conversation."
"I'm not dumb. My bed is here next to the fire, and I'm already in it
and staying in it. So why don't
you just cut to the meat and tell me
what the problem is?"
"You wouldn't understand."
"I probably would, but since you're too embarrassed to explain—"
"I'm not embarrassed," she cut in. "I was merely trying to save you
some—"
When she didn't continue, he suggested, "Confusion? Aggravation? Good
job, lady, you've really managed to save me a lot of both."
Since his sarcasm couldn't have gotten much heavier, it wasn't
surprising that she was back to blushing enough to burn a barn down.
But he'd managed to annoy her, too, enough to get her to spill the
beans.
"Very well, our 'talking' is likely to give Amanda the wrong
impression. If she thought, for even a
minute, that I liked you—which I
don't, mind you," she was quick to add. "But if she thought it, she'd
turn her charm on you to win you for herself. She'd do it not because
she likes you—and I have no
idea if she does or doesn't—she'd
do it just to spite me."
She'd managed to amaze him. He'd never heard of anything so silly, but
then he should have suspected that something absurd like that would
come out of her, considering how wild her imagination was.
"Gotcha. So all it takes to gain her interest is to pretend an interest
in you. Sounds pretty easy. I'll keep
it in mind."
She stared at him hard for a moment before she said, "You know, I think
I'd rather freeze than continue this conversation. You've been warned.
Proceed at your own risk."
He smiled. "I always do, darlin'."
Chapter 14
"YOU GONNA COME ALONG quiet-like, so I don have to bash your head none?"
The question was a gruff whisper. Marian was surprised she even heard
it since it was muttered quite
a distance away and not to her. But
she'd been unable to sleep after that aggravating conversation with
Chad after dinner.
It had infuriated her, really, how pleased he'd looked upon hearing her
explanation, as if he were already thinking of using that ploy to gain
Amanda's attention. She'd felt like kicking him. She certainly hadn't
felt like talking to him anymore.
She was still castigating herself for revealing the truth about Amanda,
which she'd never done before,
and for thinking Chad was smart enough
to have figured out by now that Amanda was better avoided than pursued.
Now, awake, and sharing a blanket with Ella Mae on the hard ground
under the wagon, every little
sound was gaining her notice, especially
that ominous whisper. . .
Except she hadn't heard the stranger enter their camp. He'd gotten all
the way to the campfire where Chad was sleeping, was leaning over him,
had spoken to him, and had gotten there without making a single sound.
She could see him clearly from where she was lying under the wagon. He
was really big, wide as well
as tall, could easily weigh three hundred
pounds. He looked wild, at least very uncivilized, clothes filthy,
a
thick bearskin coat, long gray-brown hair so matted, he probably hadn't
seen a comb in the last ten years. And she could smell the stink. He'd
brought the odor with him.
Chad had to be awake by now, though he hadn't moved and wasn't giving
any indication that he'd heard the question. The giant mountain man got
impatient for a response, thumped him hard on the chest with the butt
of his pistol.
"You hear me, boy?"
"If I didn't," Chad replied dryly, "I could sure smell you—boy."
A chuckle. "You know me. I've worked for your pa before. You know I
don' want to hurt you none
if I don' have to. But you will be coming
with me. Means five hundred to me. Means I'll be spending a nice warm
winter this
year, and I do favor warm winters at my age."
"I'll match that price if you take your stink elsewhere."
"Now that won't rightly do 'cause I gave your pa my word that I'd have
you home 'fore morning. Have
to keep my word, boy, you understand. It's
a matter of trust—and more jobs when I need 'em."
"And pretty pointless. He knows where to find me now. He can come to
me."
"I reckon he don' want to," the giant replied. "Matter of pride, you
know. After all, you're the one that hightailed it, not him."
"You don't know anything about it, Leroy," Chad said with a degree of
disgust.
"I don' need to know, don' get paid to know. Now are you coming—?"
A sigh. "I'd oblige you, if I didn't have women here that can't be left
alone. And no, you're not dragging them another ten miles out of the
way when they're only a few more hours from home. You can tell
my pa
I'll come by to see him sometime next week."
Leroy shook his head. "That ain't getting me my five hundred, boy."
"It will keep you from getting a hole in your chest, boy." Chad
countered.
The gun was cocked, the sound incredibly loud in the still of the night
as Chad got to his feet. The big man chuckled
again, not seeming the least bit intimidated by the thought of being
shot.
He even said in his congenial tone, "Your pa didn't say I had to bring
you home in one piece, just to
bring you home. You don really want to
take me on. Six shots, if you got that many, ain't gonna stop
me. I've
taken worse and lived to crow about it. So why'n't you come along
nice-like, and save us
both a passel of pain."
Marian was moving stealthily toward the two men who were discussing
violence so casually. They
were talking loud enough that they didn't
hear her, and she stopped each time when they weren't.
She'd picked up
a big branch, a small log actually, thick and heavy enough to do some
serious
damage. Whether she could actually swing it at the man called
Leroy was the question.
Fights with her sister were one thing, and while they might get
vicious, they never started out with that intent. But this was entirely
different, attacking someone she didn't know with the intention of
hurting
him enough to alleviate the menace. She wasn't sure she could
do it. But it didn't sound like she had
much choice.
Another step should have her close enough. Her hands began to sweat
nervously. She raised her impromptu club with its branchy spikes over
her right shoulder, positioning it for a full momentum
swing, and took that last
step.
And broke a twig under her bare foot.
Both men turned immediately in her direction. Both pointed guns at her.
She froze completely,
eyes wide with fright.
Leroy started laughing first. Very well, so there hadn't been any time
to think of dressing. So she was standing there in her ruffled
underwear with a log raised over one shoulder and her loose hair
tumbling down the other. It wasn't that
funny, at least not enough to
cause Leroy to laugh so hard he got tears
in his eyes.
"What the hell you gonna do with that, gal?" he asked her. "I clean my
teeth with toothpicks that size."
Chapter
13
SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN standing there. The kind of trouble the
mountain
man had brought
into their camp had nothing to do with her, and
everything to do with Chad. He could have handled
the situation without
her help. But Marian hadn't known that when she'd decided to "save" him.
Now her brave effort was being laughed at. It was the gross
exaggeration, though, that made her highly indignant. Leroy had
probably never cleaned his teeth once in his whole life, let alone used
small logs
to do it. He had said that merely to point out that she was
no threat to him. So she swung her club
straight at his head. But he
caught it easily and, with no effort whatsoever, tugged it out of her
hands
and tossed it toward the fire.
She would have huffed some at that point. Some help she had been. But
Chad had taken advantage
of the distraction she'd provided. Leroy's chuckles were cut short as
he
crashed to the ground, Chad's pistol butt cracked over the back of his
head. It put him out completely—for the moment. And Chad wasted no time
in tieing him up, just in case he regained consciousness sooner than he
wanted.
Trussed up, gagged, weapons confiscated—an entire arsenal had come out
of that humongous bearskin coat—Leroy no longer presented much of a
danger. And Marian had remained to watch longer than she should have.
She wanted to ask Chad what that had been about, but it wasn't really
any of her business, and she was suddenly very mindful that she was
still standing there in her underwear.
She turned to leave, hopefully without drawing Chad's notice. But he
noticed, said, "Hold up, Amanda."
She froze for the second time, realizing that she wasn't wearing her
spectacles. She had forgotten to
grab them before coming to his rescue,
which was really stupid of her. And now he thought she was Amanda.
He'd reached her back, grasped her shoulders. "That was a brave, if
foolish thing you tried to do."
He was too close. She was starting to feel things other than foolish
after watching him. She'd stayed
too long, should have left him
immediately. He was half-dressed himself, wearing only his pants, his
hair mussed from sleeping. And he'd worked up a sweat while dealing
with Leroy. Chad Kinkaid bare-chested was too sexy by
half, his skin glistening in the firelight.
But he thought she was Amanda . . .
She should correct him—no, that would be even more foolish. It wouldn't
hurt for him to think she was Amanda for a few more moments. It would
be much better than his finding out she and her sister were twins—if he
hadn't already figured that out. He'd been around them enough to have
guessed by now.
But most people who knew they were twins quickly forgot
about it because Marian wore her disguise
so well.
But at the moment he really did think she was Amanda—and at the moment,
she really didn't want to push him away.
He turned her around, tipped her face up to his. "But thank you. That
could have gotten messy if you hadn't distracted him."
She was embarrassed by his gratitude and looked down as she asked, "Who
was he?"
"A buffalo hunter, bounty hunter, Indian scalper, trapper, you name it,
he's probably done it. But the West is getting too tame for him—or he's
gotten too old to live the way he used to in the wilds. He
hires
himself out now for odd jobs that pay well."
"And you knew him?"
"Not really, just in passing. He stops by my fathers ranch every so
often just to see if there's work
to be had other than normal ranch
work."
"And got lucky this time? Your father has to pay someone to get you to
visit?"
Chad smiled. She wished he hadn't. He was far, far too close, and that
smile of his . . .
"Its more complicated than that," he said softly, too softly.
He was going to kiss her. She knew it was coming, should run like hell
in the other direction, because
he wouldn't be kissing her, he'd be
kissing Amanda. But she couldn't get her feet to move. And deep down,
she wanted that kiss, no matter that it wouldn't really be hers.
Opportunities like this just didn't come her way. Her own doing, but
still, she'd put her own life on
hold until Amanda got settled, yet it
seemed now like that would never happen. She was old enough
to marry,
wanted to marry, wanted a man she could call her own. But until Amanda
married and
moved on, she didn't dare pursue her own desires.
Although it was deceitful to let Chad continue thinking she was someone
else, the temptation was too great to say nothing, to take his kiss and
ignore that he thought he was giving it to Amanda. And the
time for
agonizing over it ran out.
It was worth it. That thought floated through her mind as his mouth
moved over hers and enthralled
her senses. Oh, yes, definitely worth
it. Such a heady feeling raging through her, blood racing, heart
pumping, too much excitement. And when he gathered her close, she was
afraid she
was going to faint, pressed against him, feeling all of him, tasting
him, it was too much all at once.
She had no idea how long he held her like that. She was so lost in her
own sensations that time didn't matter. He could have kissed her all
night, and she probably wouldn't have known the difference. It
could
have been only mere moments though, and when he did lean back finally,
he didn't seem
anywhere near as affected as she was.
She could barely think straight. He merely smiled, caressed her cheek,
and said, "You should get some sleep. We'll discuss this in the
morning."
That got her eyes open wide and alarm bells clanging. "No—no, there'll
be no discussion of this. It
didn't happen, well, it shouldn't have, so
do not mention it to me—ever."
He grinned at her, didn't seem the least bit disturbed by what appeared
a sudden attack of propriety
on her part. "If you say so, darlin'. Long
as we know otherwise."
He turned back toward the fire and his bed next to it. While he wasn't
watching her, she rushed back to the wagon and her own bed underneath
it. Ella Mae had been wakened at some point herself by all the
commotion and had witnessed that kiss. She was lying on her side,
leaning on one elbow. She rolled
her eyes a bit when Marian plopped back down next to her.
"You know what you're doing?" Ella Mae asked.
"No."
"That was bad of you."
"I know."
"You should tell him the truth—and show him. That's if you want him for
yourself."
Ella Mae never pulled any punches, but then she didn't come from the
lower social rung. Her family
had been working-class, but not poor.
They'd disowned her though when she got pregnant without a husband to
show for it. She'd miscarried the child, which she still mourned in
quiet moments. She'd
been on her own ever since.
She did her job, she did it extremely well, but she didn't care if she
kept it or not because she knew she could find another job easily.
Which was why she was treated more as an equal than as a servant, and
why both sisters valued her. Marian also considered her a friend. Even
Amanda, who had driven away five other maids, never once turned a harsh
word on her. Ella Mae wouldn't tolerate it, would up and leave, and
Amanda knew that. She wasn't about to risk losing someone who did her
hair up perfectly
and kept her wardrobe in excellent condition.
Ella Mae was sometimes too frank,
though, and this was one of those
times. Marian didn't want to
talk about her feelings for Chad, which were hopeless in her mind, so
best
left unshared even with a friend.
But Ella Mae persisted. "Do you want him for yourself?"
She could have denied it, but there wasn't much point. She might have
kept Amanda from noticing
the direction of her yearning looks, but Ella
Mae was more often with her than with Amanda, and
she'd raised a
questioning brow at Marian more than once about it.
"I think I do," she admitted.
"Then tell him."
"I can't. You know how jealous she'll get. And it's her he wants."
"He doesn't know her. He doesn't know you either. You should let him
get to know you."
"Stop it. You know what happens when a man shows any interest in me.
Amanda then reels him in
and keeps him dangling indefinitely—and rubs
it in my face."
"Those were boys she did that with. You've been making yourself as ugly
as you can for several years now. You've never given a man a chance.
They can't all be so gullible to fall for her ploys."
"Maybe not," Marian replied. "But I'm not going to be responsible for
even one more man getting hurt like that. I can bide my time."
"Biding time is easy—and gets you nowhere," Ella Mae pointed out.
"I'm in no hurry."
"Aren't you? You want to lose this one that you really want?"
Marian sighed. "I don't have him to lose. He's already made his
preference plain."
"So has she. She's shown no interest in him. She's barely civil to him."
Marian grinned at that point. "Which is why I can bide my time. He's
different from the others. He
hasn't made a fool of himself over her
yet. I think he may be waiting to see if she's worth the effort."
"Or waiting until he doesn't have to worry about keeping us alive."
Marian made a face of disgust. "Oh, sure, shoot my conclusion down.
Some encouragement you are."
Ella Mae chuckled with a shake of her head. "Mari, you make life too
complicated. And he's made his move. He kissed her—or thinks he did.
Consider that while you try to get to sleep."
Chapter 16
HER GUILT WAS INCREDIBLE. Marian woke up with it, wallowed in it,
couldn't shake it. The disguise she fostered was deceitful enough, but
she did it for a good reason: to save other people from Amanda's
spiteful manipulations. But actually to pretend to be Amanda. . .
Her sister had done that often when they were children, just to get
people mad at Marian. She thought
it was a wonderful joke, though she
was the only one who found it funny. Marian had tried it only
once
before, with their father, because she so craved the attention he gave
only to Amanda. But he
hadn't been fooled. He'd known immediately that
she wasn't his favorite, and the scolding she got
was so embarrassing
she'd never tried it again.
It wasn't pleasant, sharing the same face with someone you detested. It
wasn't fun either, always worrying about other peoples feelings to the
complete exclusion of your own. It
was simply hell
having a sister like Amanda.
Marian avoided the campfire that morning, where Chad was handing out a
quick breakfast before
they started on the last leg of their journey.
She preferred going hungry to being near him just then,
she was so
afraid he was going to see through her disguise.
She did accept a cup of coffee though from the wagon driver who, the
night before, had set up his
own fire on the other side of the wagon.
When asked why two had been necessary, he'd mentioned something about
deceiving would-be robbers, and he'd added that even when he was alone
on the
road, he always lit two fires, then never slept near either.
The mountain man had been moved into the wagon sometime before anyone
else had awoken. He
must have regained consciousness and cooperated
because there was simply no way Chad, even with
help from the driver,
could have hoisted a man that size. And it had been done so quietly,
the women sleeping under the wagon hadn't been disturbed.
Marian just happened to notice his bound feet near the back of the
wagon when she circled round it. Chad obviously didn't want to leave
Leroy behind, but didn't want the others aware of his presence
either.
To spare him a lot of questions, she supposed.
She still kept an eye on Chad, dreading the moment when he came
face-to-face with Amanda. She
didn't trust him not to
mention the kiss, even though she'd warned him not to. And Amanda
wouldn't pretend ignorance. If something caught her curiosity, she'd
demand an explanation.
Amanda was the last to make an appearance. It was too much to hope that
she wouldn't feel like eating that morning. She went right to the
campfire, took the offered plate of food without a thank-you, and
proceeded to ignore Chad completely as usual.
Last night Marian had actually been sorry to learn that Chad's father
owned a ranch. That meant he
might not be completely without means as
both sisters had first thought, and Amanda's interest in Chad might
perk up. But then Amanda had missed hearing about his father's ranch,
once again having slept through all the danger and excitement. With
luck, this time, though, she wouldn't find out about it after the fact.
Ella Mae was still at the campfire, too. Amanda started talking to her.
Marian didn't have to be present
to know her sister was now complaining
about the discomforts of sleeping outdoors—now that she had
an
interested ear. Not that Ella Mae was the least bit interested. Like
Marian, Ella Mae had learned long ago how to tune Amanda out.
Chad was listening, however, and after a few minutes, he was frowning.
Marian would give anything to know what the frown was for.
It could simply be that Amanda had just thoughtlessly insulted his
cooking efforts. It could be that it
was the first time he was being
treated to one of her diatribes—he usually only caught the tail end of
them when she was almost out of steam and not nearly so derogatory. But
it was more likely because
she was treating him as if he weren't
present while he was sitting only a couple feet from her.
He'd probably assumed that things would be different now between him
and her. A natural conclusion after a kiss that hadn't been rejected.
He'd stated his interest very clearly with that kiss. She'd done the
same by accepting it. The cold shoulder he was getting from the woman
whom he'd thought he'd kissed probably felt like a slap in the
face—which is what Marian should have
done last night, rather than let
temptation get the better of her good sense.
Finished eating, Amanda carelessly tossed her plate toward the fire and
started to head back toward the carriage to finish preparations for
leaving. His frown more intense, Chad started to follow her. Marian
sucked in her breath, watching them, waiting for him to grab Amanda and
turn her around, to demand
an explanation for her—what? Her lack of
interest, when she had no interest in him to begin with?
Marian's guilt mounted. She should stop him, take him aside and make
her confession. He was going
to despise her for it. But she'd already
gone to great lengths to make him despise her anyway, so that shouldn't
matter to her.
She took a step toward him, but he stopped. She stopped. He spent all
of five seconds staring at Amanda's retreating back then swung around
with what seemed almost a shrug. A shrug? Surely not.
Or was a kiss
stolen in the middle of the night not important to him? Maybe he kissed
all the pretty women he came across if given the opportunity.
Marian could breathe again, but now she was frowning.
Chapter
17
AMANDA WAS ALMOST TOO confusing to bother with. That was the conclusion
Chad reached
that morning. Well, almost. But Amanda definitely did seem
like two different women, soft and
yielding at night, a veritable
termagant during the day.
Rudeness must run in their family, he figured. No, that wasn't true.
There wasn't a rude bone in
Red's body, and she was the Laton sisters'
blood relative.
The confusion he was beset with now was his own fault. He should have
stuck to his guns and waited until the trip was over before finding out
which way the wind blew with Amanda Laton.
He knew from experience that tempers could flare easily when you were
doing something you didn't
want to do, and he'd overheard enough
comments to know that she hadn't wanted to come to Texas
in the first
place and was hating everything about the trip there.
So her flare-ups of rudeness were actually somewhat understandable, or
at least, there was a pretty
good reason for them. Once the trip was
over, she'd probably be completely different.
But she was so damn beautiful last night, there was just no way he
could have restrained himself from kissing her. And she'd tried to
rescue him. He was touched by that, never would have expected it from
her. She was always so aloof, so indifferent—to him anyway.
But the previous night, she'd melted in his arms. He'd been surprised,
delighted, had felt his desire rising, then, strangely—it just didn't
feel right. And for a moment, he'd actually wondered why he'd kissed
her.
It had nothing to do with the kiss, that had been sweet. It had nothing
to do with how easily she'd
yielded. It had everything to do with her.
She just didn't add up, was too confusing by half, cold as ice one
moment, hot the next, as if she were two . . . different . . . women.
No way. Campfire light wasn't very bright, but they'd have to be twins
for him to make that kind of mistake—well, hell.
He shouldn't feel poleaxed. He'd seen it coming, just hadn't
acknowledged it. Siblings could resemble
each other closely, but what
were the odds on having so many identical features unless they were
twins. Of course they were twins. It was just that one was blind as a
bat and ornery as sin. And there was no way he would have kissed that
one.
So they were twins. That changed nothing, and still didn't explain his
confusion over Amanda. Or
maybe it was just him. Maybe he wasn't as
interested as he'd thought.
Actually, that was probably the whole problem. He should be interested,
but was he? Really? Or did Amanda remind him too much of Luella, a
gorgeous outer shell with nothing he liked very much underneath? Which
was another reason he'd been waiting for the trip to end before
pursuing her, to
give her time to relax, or recover—depending on how
she looked at it—to setde in and be her normal
self again.
He expected a big difference in her attitude in the next few days.
She'd have nothing more to complain about. Red's home was Western in
flavor, but very comfortable. And she had one of the best cooks in
the
county working in her kitchen. Once her aches and pains were gone and
she was surrounded by comfort and family, he'd find out what Amanda was
really like.
He'd seen her worst side—at least he hoped that was as bad as she got,
because he'd never seen much worse. He sure was looking forward to
seeing her better side.
* * *
The carriage rolled up to the Twisting Barb a little before noon, the
wagon with the luggage, and Leroy, probably thirty minutes behind them.
Chad would have to explain about Leroy. They'd been too far
out in the
middle of nowhere just to leave him behind. No homesteads close enough
for him to walk
to if they took his horse to
delay him. And the road was not well enough traveled for someone to
find
him if they left him there still tied up.
But he didn't really expect any more trouble from Leroy, now that they
were at the ranch. Someone
could take him back to find his horse—Chad
hadn't bothered to look very hard for it. And he'd emptied Leroy's guns
of ammunition, so he could have those back.
His father must be getting senile, or desperate, to send someone like
Leroy after him. Especially when
he would have been told that Chad was
heading to the Twisting Barb. He couldn't figure out the point
of it—
unless it was to make a point. Stuart could have easily ridden over to
Red's ranch himself,
would probably have beat them there—and maybe
that's what he'd done. And perhaps not finding
Chad there before
nightfall last night, as he'd thought he would, he'd sent Leroy to find
out why.
But that meant Leroy would have been part of his father's entourage,
and Chad couldn't see Stuart wanting that foul-odored old coot riding
anywhere near him. Stuart never went anywhere these days without a
minimum of four gunmen escorting him, men able to handle any kind of
trouble that showed up. But they were all clean and well-mannered, and
they worshiped Stuart because he paid them so much.
Red came out on the porch to greet them. She looked nervous as hell.
Because she hadn't seen her
nieces since they
were tykes? Or because Stuart had showed up and had been giving her a
hard time
over his son's working for her?
Chad hadn't expected to see his father quite so soon, wasn't braced for
it, but he had expected to see
him in the next day or so, now that
Stuart knew he was in the county. He'd allowed him to find out
that he
was back when he had decided to ride into town, knowing full well that
someone would
hightail it out to the Kinkaid spread with the news.
A couple of the hands had run up to see to the carriage and help the
sisters and their maid down.
The spinster was the first up on the porch.
Chad was just dismounting when he heard Red ask, "Which one are you?"
"Marian."
Red seemed to relax somewhat, since Marian also looked nervous, and
offered her niece a big hug, "Welcome, Mari. I used to call you that,
you know. Do you remember?"
"No, but my mother called me Mari, too," Marian said with a hesitant
smile.
"I'm sorry about your father."
"Yes, that was an unfortunate accident."
"But I want you to know I'm very glad to offer you a home here for as
long as you want."
"Thank—"
"Is this it?" Amanda cut in, as she mounted the steps. "A ranch house,
and a small one at that? I'm expected to live here?"
Red's blush was immediate. Chad winced for her. She was nervous enough,
but to be met with such derision was beyond rude on Amanda's part.
Red said defensively, "I know it's nothing so grand as your home in
Haverhill, but you won't find
too many places out here nicer. My
husband put a lot of work into—"
"Not nearly enough," Amanda cut in again. "But I don't know why I
expected better, when every
town we've passed through out here has been
horribly primitive."
Chad had heard enough. Incensed for Red's sake, he was about to burn
his bridges by telling Amanda
to shut the hell up, but Marian beat him
to it.
"Can you refrain from being rude for five seconds, sister dear?" she
said with a tight little smile, "Or is that beyond your capabilities?"
Amanda gasped and immediately raised her hand to slap Marian for the
insult, well deserved or not.
Chad jumped forward to stop her, but he
wasn't close enough. It wasn't necessary. Marian had
expected
retaliation, apparently, and was prepared for it. With a slight shove,
she sent Amanda
tumbling down the steps and into the dirt.
Chapter 18
THERE WAS A LOT of screeching. Chad was too well-bred not to help
Amanda to her feet. She
didn't thank him. He was getting used to that.
She did continue to hurl invectives at her sister while
she whacked
dust and dirt off her skirt.
Marian wasn't paying the least bit of attention to the diatribe. Red
stared at Amanda, looking all
worried, but the spinster put an arm
through hers and gently urged her inside. Chad decided that's
where
he'd rather be as well, and joined them.
Stepping through the door, though, he barely recognized the place. Red
had broken out of storage,
or managed to find, all kinds of delicate
knickknacks and figurines, had changed the serviceable
curtains to
fancy drapes, put new rugs on the floor. The antlers above the mantel
in the main
gathering room were gone, replaced by a framed mirror. New
paintings were on the walls. One he recognized from Doc Wilton's
office. He wondered how much
she'd had to pay him for it.
Red had tried to give her home a more Eastern flavor, something the
girls were more used to. He
liked it tetter the way it had been, where
a man didn't have to worry about knocking over the clutter.
Just showed
how nervous she really was about meeting these nieces of hers.
While he was examining all the new finery, he didn't miss the man
sitting on one of the sofas, his arms spread out on the back of it like
he owned the place. No, it was impossible to miss that big
black-haired, blue-eyed Texan. Chad just chose to do so.
Red had good manners though, and led Marian over for a formal
introduction. "This is a neighbor of mine, Stuart Kinkaid. He owns the
biggest ranch in the county, possibly the whole state."
"I'm working on it," Stuart chuckled as he stood up and grasped
Marian's hand for a good shake.
"Nice to meet you, Miss Laton."
"You as well, Mr. Kinkaid."
"Your aunt's told me all about you, as well as some of the difficulties
you've had getting here."
"Oh?"
"Chad sent a few telegrams," Red explained.
"I'll have to throw a barbecue sometime next week," Stuart continued.
"To give you gals a proper welcome."
"How—country," Amanda said dryly, coming in the
door with a hard shove, to make sure it slammed back against the wall.
"I'd like a bath, Aunt Kathleen. A hot one. You do have plumbing here?
And
hot water?"
Red was blushing again. "If you'll excuse us, Stuart, I'll show the
girls to their rooms and get them
settled in. You're welcome to stay
for dinner again."
There was an uncomfortable silence as Red directed the women toward the
stairs. Father and son
eyed each other, but said not a word yet.
Chad had missed the old man, though he wouldn't say so. But damn, it
was good to see him again.
Chad was tall, but his father had a few
inches on him. Fifty-two, and his hair just as coal black as
if he were
Chads age, Stuart sported a mustache as well, but that's where the
similarities ended. He
had wider shoulders, longer legs, was gruff in
his manner, opinionated . . . well, hell, they were
probably more alike
than Chad would like to admit.
Enough time had passed that he was hopeful they could reconcile.
Hopeful—but not sure. Both of
them were stubborn, and their tempers
could easily flare up again.
Kinkaids didn't squabble in public—if they could help it, though the
public sure heard about their squabbles soon enough. Usually because
they got loud. But with the women vacating the room quick enough, both
men remained patient. The very second they were alone, Stuart started
out with an accusatory tone.
"So this is where you've been hiding out?"
Chad raised a brow. "Hiding? Red needed some help, or I'd have moved
on. I hope you didn't grumble
at her for letting me stay here without
telling you."
"Course not," Stuart said defensively. "I like Red. That gal's got
gumption, trying to hold on to this
place after Frank up and died on
her."
Stuart cleared his throat before saying any more, realizing he'd
started off on the wrong foot. In a much milder, if gruff tone, he
said, "From what I heard last night, she still needs help. I can send
over one of my foremen."
"You implying I can't handle it?"
"Don't look for something to bite into. We both know there's nothing
you can't handle."
Chad nodded curtly, moved over to the cold fireplace, stared into the
new mirror there, not at himself
but at his father. This reunion was
going better than he'd expected. 'Course, they hadn't touched on the
meat of their differences yet.
"You misplaced one of your men," Chad remarked.
"I did?"
"He'll be along shortly with the baggage. He'll need to be untied."
Stuart laughed. "Sorry. I got a little impatient last night."
"So I gathered. What the hell you doing riding with Leroy in tow? That
ain't your style."
Stuart shrugged. "He's been hanging around all week looking for
work—and making some of the men nervous. I figured I was sending him on
a wild-goose chase, that you'd show up here before he'd find you, then
he'd move on. Didn't figure you'd weigh yourself down with vehicles and
take another day
to get here."
"I didn't figure on that either, but then one of the ladies refused to
travel by normal means."
"The noisy one?"
Chad made a face. Of course Stuart would have heard all the screeching
that had gone on outside.
They could have heard it out back in the
bunkhouse, Amanda was so loud.
Chad found himself explaining, though he wasn't sure why, "She's had a
bee in her bonnet from day
one. She didn't want to come here, hates
traveling. But her attitude should improve now that the
traveling part
is over."
"Don't kid yourself, boy. That's a born and bred nag if I've ever seen
one. Probably spoiled rotten, too. Pretty little thing, though. I
suppose she caught your interest?"
"Some," Chad admitted.
"Seriously?"
"Not yet."
"Good." Stuart grunted. "Nags don't usually grow out of being nags."
Chad rolled his eyes. "I told you why she was being difficult. Not that
it's any of your concern—and when did you get to be
such an expert on nags?"
"Since I spent two months with Luella's mother," Stuart mumbled.
Chad burst out laughing. He couldn't help it. Luella's vacant looks had
been indicative of her mind, but her mother had been a nonstop
chatterer the few times he'd been in her presence. That chattering must
have got a lot worse after he left.
Stuart even grinned after a moment, but only for a moment. With nothing
settled yet between them, he wouldn't unbend enough to relax. In fact,
he finally broached the subject they were both waiting for.
"You ready to come home, boy?"
"You ready to admit who I marry is none of your damn business?"
"Can we at least talk about it?"
"We did that. I talked. You didn't listen," Chad reminded him.
"You didn't give Luella a chance, either," Stuart was quick to point
out.
"It didn't take but five minutes to know I wanted nothing to do with
her."
"But she's beautiful!" Stuart complained.
"Then you marry her."
"Hell, no."
"Why not? She's beautiful,"
Chad said, throwing that reasoning back at
him.
"She's too young for me," Stuart grumbled.
"And she's too dumb for me. So can we agree that neither of us wants
her in the family and drop the subject already? Or is she still at the
ranch?" Chad asked with a frown. "If you tell me she's still at the
ranch—"
"She ain't," Stuart cut in to assure him. "Went home last month. She
would've waited around indefinitely for you, really liked the idea of
marrying you, but her pa got insulted by your absence and came to fetch
his womenfolk home. And not a minute too soon. Her mother was driving
me nuts."
Chad grinned. "Then I guess it's safe for me to come home soon as I
wrap things up here."
"Told you, I'll send over—"
"I'll finish what I started," Chad interrupted.
Stuart frowned now. "I hope you don't want to stay here longer to court
the nag."
Chad resented his father's description of Amanda, when he'd barely met
her. "Let's get at least one
thing clear. Your approval of who I marry
would be nice, but it's not the least bit necessary."
"You want to bring a bride home to live under my roof," Stuart growled
belligerently, "then I reckon
I should have a little say in it."
"Who says we'd live under your roof?" Chad shot back. "We could, but I
could just as easily build my bride her own house so you don't have to
deal with her."
Stuart mulled that over for a second, then chuckled. "That would work.
That would work just fine.
All right, boy, if you're not going to
double my empire, at least give me a lot of grandkids who might."
"When I get around to it. But
no more pushing, and no more rounding up
fiancees for me. We got us
a deal?"
Stuart slapped him on the back with a big smile. "Damn, it's good to
have you home."
Chad was aware he hadn't got an answer. His father liked to leave
himself escape routes. But that
was all right. It was good to be
home—and on good terms with his father again.
Chapter
19
RED WAS ON HER way back downstairs to see to her other guests when the
noise started. She
turned around, headed back to her nieces' room, and
found their maid just leaving it.
She saw Red and shook her head. "Be best not to interfere, ma'am," Ella
Mae warned. "This is long overdue. They'll be easier to live with
afterward."
Red bit her lip. It wasn't hard to decipher the maid's meaning. The
noise was very obvious, which
made it hard for her not to want to
interfere.
"But won't they—hurt each other?"
"No more'n two cats in an alley. They don't really know how to fight. A
few scratches, maybe a
bruise, a lot of rolling around. It's not the
first time, ma'am."
"I see."
It was all Red could think to say, but she didn't see at all. Those
weren't children on the other side
of that door brawling, but grown women. And although it had been
apparent from what
had happened outside, that her nieces, or at least one of them, was
going to be a problem, she hadn't guessed how
much of a problem until
now.
This was entirely her brother's fault. She had known Mortimer wouldn't
make a good father any
more than he had made a good brother. The kind
of favoritism he'd practiced since they were children wasn't normal.
He'd picked her twin sister to be his constant companion, and Red might
as well not
have existed for all the attention those two paid
her—except when they wanted to rub in the fact that
she would always be
excluded from their little circle. She'd grown up with it, had hated
him for it, and
had seen it happening again when his daughters were
born.
It was the major reason she'd wanted to leave Haverhill, and why she'd
married Frank Dunn, who'd
had plans to start a ranch out West. She
hadn't loved him. He'd been a means to an end. She'd figured that
moving out West would place her far enough away from her brother to
afford her a measure of
peace and happiness. And it had. She'd had no
further communication with Mortimer and his family. She'd wanted none.
She'd used Frank. There was no nicer way to put it. But she'd repaid
him by being a good wife. He'd
had no complaints and didn't blame her
for not giving him any children. Well, he wouldn't, because a doctor
had implied the fault was his, not hers. He'd felt somewhat guilty
after
that for not giving her
any children, but, such was life, and they'd
had a good one together until he died.
Well, actually, not so much good,
as comfortable. And if another man
was capable of making her
heart race, no one knew it but her.
Her heart had done a lot of racing last night when Stuart had showed up
and pretty much invited
himself to dinner. She'd gotten through the
evening without making a fool of herself though, at least,
not too much
of a fool.
She'd giggled a few times, which she rarely did. She'd been tongue-tied
a bunch more. And she'd
blushed more than she had since she was a girl.
But then she'd never been alone with Stuart before. Anytime she'd ever
seen him, other people had been around.
She hadn't expected it to be any different last night either when she'd
invited him and his men to dinner while they waited for Chad to arrive.
But she didn't know his men never ate with him, and only he'd
been
sitting there in her dining room when she showed up for dinner—and
started acting like a schoolgirl.
But Stuart had probably figured it was guilt making her behave so
oddly, because she'd housed his son
for the last three months widiout
letting him know about it, when the whole county knew he was looking
for Chad. At least he hadn't remarked on it to her. And he hadn't
expressed any disappointment in her either, when she explained
why Chad was staying with her. In fact, he'd scolded her a bit for not
coming to him for help when she'd needed it.
She'd put Stuart up for the night when it became obvious that Chad
wasn't going to make an appearance last night. His men were put up in
the bunkhouse, but there was no question about putting the biggest
rancher in the county there. She'd gotten no sleep, of course, with him
just down the hall from her. And she'd made herself deliberately scarce
at breakfast time. She hadn't seen him again until the maid had come to
tell her the girls were arriving.
And what a surprise they were.
They were twins, but most folks probably wouldn't notice that right
off. She remembered they had
been identical when they were children,
and it had been difficult to tell them apart. But not anymore.
Poor Marian had had to introduce herself. Red had taken her for a
servant at first glance. But she'd realized her mistake quick enough on
closer examination. Such an odd look the girl had, with those
spectacles, and such a shame she had to wear them.
Amanda, now, was as pretty as expected. Even as children, it had been
obvious the girls would be beauties, and Amanda had certainly turned
out to be just that. Her behavior, too, had been somewhat expected. The
result of being spoiled beyond redemption. She was so much like Red's
sister had been,
it was uncanny. And exactly why
Red had left home. She had refused to watch her brother's favoritism
divide his daughters, as it had his sisters.
She hadn't been there to see it, but obviously, it had happened just as
she'd figured it would. The little
she had seen so far said it all.
Amanda had turned out to be a spoiled bitch. Marian had turned out to
be a meek little mouse—well, maybe not. The mouse didn't usually fight
the cat....
* * *
Downstairs, Stuart was laughing his head off. He'd been doing so since
the third loud crash above them. The first had been merely startling,
the second had been curious, but the third was a definite brawl, and
every loud noise thereafter set him off again with another round of
laughter.
Chad knew exactly why Stuart was so amused. His father's choice for him
might have been lacking in smarts, but she was pretty and quiet. While
the one he'd expressed interest in was upstairs breaking furniture and
Lord knows what else, and could screech loud enough to raise the
rafters.
"I feel sorry for the ugly one," Stuart remarked when he caught his
breath.
"Yeah, you look real sorry," Chad replied dryly, and then felt
compelled to add, "And Marian isn't
ugly, she's just blind as a bat."
"Either way, she won't be able to hold her own for long. The other has
a vicious temperament. Saw
that with the way she slammed in here."
"Is it just because I might be interested in Amanda that you feel
obliged to insult the hell out of her?" Chad asked with a frown.
"Was I doing that?" Stuart shot back innocently.
Chad gave his father a look of disgust, which just garnered another
chuckle from him. And although Stuart was possibly just teasing him,
the remarks now had him worried about the spinster. He didn't
like her,
but he didn't want to see her get hurt, either.
Without another thought, he headed toward the stairs. Stuart called out
behind him, "Takes guts to
break up a female brawl. I've seen both
women turn on a man who tried it before. Damn near
scratched his eyes
out."
Was that supposed to stop him? Particularly when Stuart was laughing
again? Red did, though,
coming back down the stairs, blocking his way.
"Don't interfere," she said, seeing his determined look. "I've been
told this is normal for them."
"Who told you that?"
"Their maid. She's up there guarding their door. Seems to think they'll
both be in a better mood after letting off steam that way."
Red looked dazed still. Chad put a sympathetic arm around her. She had
to be taking this hard. This
had to be a far cry from what she'd been expecting.
He tried to put it in perspective for her. "The maid's probably right.
It was a hell of a trip for them,
train robbers, stage robbers, a
mountain man showing up in the middle of the night intent on dragging
me home at the point of a gun. One thing after another since their ship
docked, when they come from
a quiet little town back East where nothing
much ever happened. Could make anyone blow her top."
She gave him a curious look. "You don't have to make excuses for them."
"I know. Just trying to make it sound better for myself," he replied.
She tsked at him in annoyance, which brought on a slight blush. He was
supposed to be making her
feel better, not himself.
They both noticed at about the same time that the noise had quieted
down behind them. Not completely. The girls were talking to each other,
nothing distinguishable, but at least that meant neither of them was
dead.
In all seriousness, Chad told his friend, "Do yourself a favor, Red.
Get them married soon and off your hands. That's my advice."
"Are you looking to help me out there?" she grinned up at him.
"If all she needed was to blow off a little steam, and if she starts
acting like the lady she's supposed
to be, I just might."
"She? Never mind, I can guess." She gave him a sad look and a sigh.
"Let's hope you're right."
He wondered why Red suddenly looked sad, but decided he'd rather not
know. It was probably no
more than her overall reaction to this reunion
with her nieces. And who could blame her for being so disappointed?
Chapter 20
HOME, MARIAN HAD NEVER given much thought to the noise she and Amanda
made when they went after each other. They were careful to keep that
kind of fighting private. And since no one ever remarked on it, she
just assumed that no one ever knew.
There had been no avoiding that fight today. It had nearly taken place
in public, right there on the porch. But Amanda had come to her senses
and waited until they were alone.
They'd been given separate rooms, thank God. Amanda hadn't stayed in
hers, though, had followed
along when their aunt showed Marian to hers.
Marian knew then what was coming, was braced for it.
Ella Mae knew,
too, and tried to prevent it by not leaving when Kathleen did. Amanda
actually told
her to get out. And no sooner did the door close than she
threw herself at Marian.
It was one of their more vicious fights. They both came away with
clumps of hair in their hands, skin under their nails, teeth marks, and
bruises aplenty. Amazingly, not a single mark marred their faces
afterward. But then it was almost an unwritten rule between them that
their faces were out of bounds.
All other bruises could be hidden, but
facial marks would be evidence of their undignified scuffles. And then,
too, scratching one face was like scratching the other, when both faces
were identical.
There was no winner. There rarely was. Their fights would end when they
both got tired, and since
they were pretty much in the same shape, they
usually got tired at about the same time. This one was
no different and
soon enough wound down to verbal insults, as most of them did.
"You could have at least waited until our aunt got to know you a little
better before showing her what a shrew you can be," Marian said as she
pulled herself up onto her bed.
Amanda had gone straight to the nearest mirror to examine her face.
"Why?" she shot back. "I don't intend to be here long enough to get to
know her at all."
"And where will you be?"
"On my way back home, of course."
"With husband in tow? You really think you can find someone to marry
you here that quick?"
"Don't be an ass," Amanda swung around to snort. "There's no one out
here worthy of me."
"So you're going to give up your inheritance?" Marian concluded.
"You can be really dense sometimes, Mari. No, I didn't come all this
way to give up anything. Aunt Kathleen will be more than happy to send
me home, and with advance approval of any man I want
to marry."
"You plan to make yourself that
much of a headache?"
"If I have to," Amanda purred.
Marian shook her head. She shouldn't be surprised. Amanda rarely did
anything without a motive
in mind.
"As much as I'd love to see you on your way, you're probably deceiving
yourself. Some people
actually take their duty seriously, Mandy."
"Don't call me that. Amanda is much more sophisticated than that
childish nickname."
"But the shoe fits, sister dear."
"Like your childish effort to disguise that you're my twin? That kind
of shoe?"
Marian smiled when Amanda's lips twisted with anger. It had taken many
years for her to develop
the cast-iron skin she needed to be able to
shrug off her sister's insults. To give an appearance of indifference.
And to give back as good as she got. As long as no one else was
involved, as long as
it was just the two of them, she couldn't be cowed anymore. It was only
when someone else was in danger
of drawing Amanda's vicious interest that Marian would back down.
"Do you want competition again?" Marian replied with a false look of
surprise. "You can't stand
being the center of attention anymore? Well,
then, why didn't you say ..."
"Oh, shut up."
Marian should have felt a little better, for winning the verbal round,
at any rate. Amanda flounced
off angry. Marian lay down to await the
promised bath. And all she could think about was whether
Amanda had
overheard the introduction to Stuart Kinkaid.
If she did hear it, then she'd take Chad off the "employee" list and
move him to the "due to inherit something big" list. And she would set
out to charm him, lure him in, and tie up his emotions in a
tight
little knot that she'd never release. Not because she wanted him, but
simply because she could.
Because it thrilled her to no end to
manipulate men like that. It was the one thing she did very well.
If that wasn't enough for Marian to worry about, she found out almost
immediately when she went downstairs later that the altercation with
her sister hadn't gone unnoticed, or rather, unheard. Her
aunt was the
first to ask her if she was all right. She might have thought she was
referring to her
overall condition after the trip, except she seemed
too concerned. And then Chad discreetly asked
the same thing, and looked just as worried.
By then she was so embarrassed, she was ready to bolt back upstairs and
never come down again.
But then Chad's father came in from outside,
looked her over from top to bottom, and said, "Well,
I'll be damned. So
you won? Good for you, gal."
He was making an assumption based on no visible bruises, she realized
to her mortification. She'd
never know where she got the nerve to
reply, "No one won."
"Well that's too bad," he grumbled, then added gruffly. "Next time win.
Makes the bruises feel worth it."
She laughed. Half-hysterically, but still, she laughed. And felt her
embarrassment melt away with it.
Chapter 21
MARIAN WAS BEGINNING TO realize that the people in Texas might look at
things differendy than they did back East. The main reason for her
earlier embarrassment was because back home even the servants would
have scorned such unladylike behavior from two supposedly well-bred
ladies. Their contemporaries would have been scandalized. Their father
would have scolded her severely and
coddled Amanda until she felt
better. All of which kept both girls from airing their differences in
public, which, sometimes, was a test of patience to the extreme.
But it was so different out here. In two of the towns they'd passed
through, she'd seen men brawling
in the streets. In one, a gunfight had
just finished. But with so many thieves abounding in the area, it
was
no wonder decent folks succumbed to base instincts. If you had
differences, you settled them
with fists or guns.
Well, men did anyway. But apparently women could, too, without raising
too many brows.
Marian gathered all of this as she listened to Chad and his father
"catching up"—they hadn't seen
each other for several months. And
Kathleen joined in their discussion of cattle rustlers, a small bank
robbery that occurred only forty miles away, a gunfight between two of
Stuart's cowhands—both survived it, but got themselves fired for it—a
horse thief who got himself posse-hanged before he
could make it to
trial.
She was fascinated that her aunt wasn't the least bit shocked by such
occurrences. But then Kathleen
was a surprise in many ways.
She wasn't as old as Marian had expected. At least, she didn't look it.
Her hair was as bright a red as
it had ever been. She wore it in a
simple, single braid. Her white blouse and plain brown skirt were
without a single adornment. No jewelry, not even her old wedding ring
to mark her a widow. But she
had a wonderful smile. Who needed fancy
lace and ruffles with a smile like that?
With her tanned skin and plain garb, she wasn't the least bit
fashionable, but she was a handsome
woman just the same. Shapely, too,
and in good health. Funny, frank, and relaxed because Amanda hadn't
made an appearance yet to stir up tensions, Kathleen was a pleasure to
be around. Marian was relieved to find she liked her immensely already.
Surprisingly, tensions rose again without Amanda's help when Spencer
Evans arrived as promised to retrieve his borrowed carriage, and so
late in the day that Kathleen was obliged to invite him for dinner
as
well as put him up for the night. She was fresh out of extra rooms,
though, what with Stuart staying over one more night, and the girls and
their maid staying in separate rooms.
"The bunkhouse will do me just fine, Red," Spencer said, as he made
himself comfortable on one
of the sofas.
Marian took offense at his calling her aunt Red. Even when she heard
Chad do the same thing later
and realized it was Kathleens nickname, it
made no difference. She disliked the debonair Spencer right
off because
it was so obvious that Chad didn't like him.
Kathleen was a gracious hostess though, even if she didn't know Spencer
that well. Stuart treated him
like an old friend, but then she was to
find that Stuart treated everyone that way unless they gave him cause
not to. Chad barely said a word to him and vice versa, which was
probably a good thing. The tension between those two was palpable.
And while it usually pleased Marian to be ignored, as Spencer was doing
to her, she found it rather insulting to be so completely ignored, as
if he really didn't see her there at all. Most men looked at her, even
if their eyes never lingered, but Spencer made a point of avoiding
looking in
her direction even once.
Fortunately, Kathleen hadn't tried to introduce them, after Spencer
said right off that he'd met her niece yesterday. Niece, not nieces.
But Kathleen would have assumed he was referring to the one who was
present. While it was obvious to Marian that he'd meant the one he was
anxiously waiting on to make
an appearance.
Amanda was quite late in showing up, so late that Kathleen could
postpone dinner no longer—the cook had sent her daughter Rita in three
times with odd eye and head signals pointing toward the dining room.
Flustered by then—she wasn't used to having so much company, nor
keeping them waiting when such appetizing aromas were floating through
the house—Kathleen herded everyone into the dining room.
As expected, or at least, Marian knew to expect it, Amanda arrived as
soon as everyone was seated. Grand appearances were her forte, after
all, and she loved making people wait on her. In her mind,
she felt she
was worth the wait. Most men thought so, too, unfortunately, and those
present were no exception.
It couldn't be denied, though, that Amanda looked exceptionally
beautiful. Her hair had been washed
and artfully styled. There'd been
plenty of time for Ella Mae to press one of her prettier dresses. And
she'd slept most of the afternoon.
At any rate, she was all smiles when she announced, "I'm sorry to have
kept you waiting, gentlemen.
But you'll understand that after such a
harrowing journey, I required a little extra rest."
Spencer and Chad both shot to their feet, stupid looks of bedazzlement
on their faces. Even Stuart's mouth dropped open a bit as he stared at
the vision before him. Only Marian noticed how their aunt
had been
deliberately excluded from the greeting—well, Kathleen probably
noticed, too.
Amanda then proceeded to hold court there in the dining room. She was
at her charming best, which meant she had decided to enthrall every man
present, including Chad's father. She probably thought
it would be
amusing to have both father and son fighting over her.
She was in for a surprise though. Stuart might have been momentarily
amazed by her beauty, but it
didn't take long to see that he was more
interested in the food than he was in a chit young enough to
be his
daughter.
Marian was close enough to hear him whisper to Kathleen, "Would you be
mad at me, Red, if I bribed your cook over to my house?"
"Damned right I would."
He frowned, though it was obviously feigned. "Last night I figured I
got lucky. But tonight, well, can't deny it now, this is some of the
best grub I've ever eaten. You sure you'd get mad?"
"You can't go stealing a gal's cook, especially when that gal can't
cook."
He laughed at her admonishment. "Then I'll just have to mosey on over
this way more often, I guess. Hope you won't mind the company."
"Not at all. You're welcome anytime."
Marian noticed the blush about the time she realized her aunt was taken
with Stuart. She couldn't tell
if he was aware of it or not. The signs
were subtle, but they were there: her aunt's blushes when nothing was
said to warrant a blush, the covert looks when she thought no one would
notice.
God, Marian hoped she wasn't as obvious where Chad was concerned. She
probably was, but because no one ever paid attention to her, no one
other than Ella Mae was likely to find out. And she was blushing a lot
herself, for absolutely no reason other than she'd found herself
sitting next to Chad at the table.
Their knees bumped. Their elbows collided. Marian whispered apologies
each time, even for those that weren't her fault. He didn't seem to
hear though, as he was too busy listening to every word out of Amanda's
mouth. She stepped on his foot deliberately. Hard. He even missed that.
Dessert was being served when Chad said in an aside to her, "If I
didn't already know how lacking in coordination you are, I'd think I
was under attack. Now what the hell are you blushing for? I was only
teasing."
Men didn't tease her. She just
wasn't the sort anyone would feel
comfortable teasing. And besides,
she had been attacking him, because
it was so obvious that he was going to make a fool of himself
over
Amanda.
She was saved from answering him because Amanda noticed his attention
had strayed for a moment
and typically addressed her next remark to him
to get it back. Much to Spencer's annoyance, since
he'd been trying to
hold her attention solely to himself. Amanda definitely had a conquest
in him.
Spencer had been telling her about his saloon. Marian found the name of
it odd enough to mention it
to Kathleen, who was seated to her left.
"Did I
hear him correctly? His business is actually called the Not Here
Saloon?"
"Yes."
"You don't find that an odd name?"
"No more than some others. The more outlandish the better seems to be
the thinking when it comes
to naming things out here."
"Now that you mention it," Marian allowed, "I suppose I have seen a few
signs that were even more
odd on the journey here, so odd, I couldn't
imagine what sorts of businesses they actually were."
Kathleen nodded. "In this case, it used to be the No Tea Here Saloon.
Descriptive, though unusual in itself. I think old Evans just wanted to
make sure his customers wouldn't get
confused about what sort
of establishment they were in. But a letter or
two wore off the sign over the years, the 'E' and the 'A' of Tea to be
exact, and when a painter passed through town and was hired to do up a
new sign, the fellow had one too many drinks himself before he got to
painting, then left town before Mr. Evans got a look
at the finished
product. But he decided to go ahead and hang the new sign anyway, at
least until he
could find another painter."
"Which he never did," Marian concluded.
"Oh, more painters passed through town, one even set up shop and is
still there. But by then, folks
were used to Not Here. And as it
happens, there's even a tombstone in the cemetery that reads Andy
died
Not Here, but over there, or was it yonder? Who knows, except anyone
who was also Not Here
to notice.' Be a shame to change the name after
that was the general consensus."
Marian smiled, "Yes, that would immortalize the name, wouldn't it."
"Not that anyone knew who Andy was," Chad remarked from her other side.
"He was just a sod buster passing through who died in the saloon right
after the new sign went up. At the time, old Evans was getting a lot of
ribbing over the sign, and our local tombstone carver thought he'd join
in the fun with
the cryptic inscription."
Marian was back to blushing. He'd actually been listening to her
conversation rather than Amanda's? Actually, it wasn't that surprising
once she thought about it. Amanda might hold a man's rapt attention;
but she did it with her beauty, not with a sparkling personality or
interesting conversation. Her conversation tended to get boring quickly
since it usually centered on herself.
Chapter 22
MARIAN GREETED THE NEW day with a nice feeling of optimism. The sun was
brightly shining.
The smell of fresh-baked biscuits had floated
upstairs. She liked the house she'd be living in and the
room she'd
been given. It was fairly large, with a lot of windows offering soft
breezes. A corner room, with one side overlooking the bunkhouse, the
stable, and the garden behind the house, the other
offering a clear,
unobstructed view as far as the eye could see.
She just might take up painting again, if she could find the supplies
for it in Trenton. There was
certainly room for an easel, and there was
lots of light. She'd given up that enjoyable pastime several years ago,
after she'd wanted to hang her best painting in the parlor at home, and
her father had laughed at the idea, then proceeded to join Amanda in
belittling her talent. She hadn't picked up a brush since.
But only her sister was around to scoff at her efforts now, and, she
hoped, not for too much longer. Whether Amanda got what she desired and
was allowed to return home with Kathleens blessings to
marry whomever
she wanted, or whether she accepted the first offer of marriage she got
here and dragged a new husband back home with her, Marian suspected it
would be soon, since Amanda
never dallied once she decided on a course
of action. Which accounted for a good chunk of Marian's optimism.
Marian knew that the time for her to stop altering her natural
appearance and start living a normal life
was at hand. It was cause for
excitement. She was so tired of pretending and tired, too, of having to
insult men just so they'd avoid her. She'd burned all her bridges at
home and had every eligible male
there despising her. But she could
have a fresh start here, if Amanda would just leave sooner rather
than
later.
There was only one man here who despised her so far, and she hoped she
could keep it at that. That
he happened to be the only man who had ever
set her pulse to racing was too bad. But the rest of her optimism had
to do with him. He might understand if given a full explanation. They
might be able to
start anew, with no further pretenses in the way—as
long as Amanda didn't decide to use him as a
means to get home.
That he was currently fascinated by Amanda wasn't the monumental
stumbling block it seemed to be. Most young men were
fascinated by her until she revealed her true nature. Chad didn't seem
to be completely under Amanda's spell yet, not if he could twice turn
his attention toward her last night at dinner. He'd even teased her, or
so he'd said. So maybe she hadn't done such a good job of making
him
despise her after all.
All wishful thinking on Marian's part as she dressed to go downstairs.
But still, her optimism was riding high, hi feet, she couldn't even
remember the last time she'd been in such a good mood.
She'd probably been more worried about her reception here than she'd
realized. After all, Kathleen was Mortimer's sister. She could have
been just like him. But she wasn't. Not at all. And all Marian's fears
had been put to rest with the warm welcome she'd received.
The large dining room was empty when she reached it. She found the
kitchen, but only Consuela the cook was there. A big, hefty woman in
her middle years who obviously enjoyed eating what she
cooked, Consuela
was of Mexican descent, but had been born and raised in Texas, so she
spoke in the same lazy drawl Marian had been hearing ever since she
arrived.
Consuela shoved a heaping plate of food in Marian's hands without
comment, more food than she
could possibly eat at one sitting. Still
she sat down at the worktable there and tried to make a dent in it.
"Am I late?"
The cook shrugged. "Depends what you have in mind to do. If you want to
eat with Red, you'll have to get up at the crack of dawn. Work starts
early around here, and this is a working ranch. But we have no formal
mealtimes. I feed Red when she gets up, again when she comes in around
midday—if she comes in. She doesn't always. And again just after dusk.
Food is available anytime, though, so just come help yourself when you
get hungry."
The woman looked a little embarrassed after saying all that. Marian
guessed she wasn't used to talking
so much, or of having anyone other
than Kathleen or her daughter Rita invade her kitchen.
Marian smiled. "Thank you. I'll try to get up earlier, so I can eat
with my aunt. I think I'd enjoy that."
The woman smiled back. Marian had a feeling she'd said the right thing
and had just been accepted by a member of the household.
Amanda was still sleeping, of course. Twelve hours a day in bed was
normal for her, whether she was asleep for all twelve of them or not.
Beauty rest, she called it. Marian figured that Stuart had left for
home earlier and that Spencer had either left or was a late sleeper
owing to the hours he kept as the
owner of a saloon. Chad, apparently,
was back doing whatever it was he did for Kathleen, so she
didn't
expect to see him today.
She wandered outside after breakfast. The day was already getting hot,
but it was a dry warmth, and there was a nice breeze swirling about the
ranch to keep it from getting too uncomfortable—yet.
A dust cloud on the horizon indicated someone was riding toward the
ranch. She hoped it was Kathleen, but as the horse got closer, she saw
it was one of the cowhands. She waited by the stable, but he didn't
ride that way. Instead he rode directly toward the bunkhouse nearby. He
did notice her and tip his hat, even offered a friendly smile in
passing.
The smile encouraged her to approach him and introduce herself before
he disappeared inside the bunkhouse. She wasn't usually so bold, but
she was going to be living here and didn't want to seclude herself from
the other people who lived on the ranch.
"Good morning," she called out as the cowhand was dismounting. "I'm
Marian Laton."
He glanced her way again, waited for her to reach him. "Lonny Judson,
ma'am. I'm Red's foreman—
or soon will be. Chad's been teaching me the
job."
He was a nice-looking young man in his mid-twenties with blond hair and
green eyes. He sported a
short, full beard a few shades darker than his
hair. He probably thought it made him look older and
thus more likely
to succeed in the job he was being groomed for. It didn't, but then the
few cowhands she'd seen yesterday when they arrived were much younger,
more her age, so it probably didn't matter.
"A pleasure to meet you, Lonny. Will my aunt be coming home for lunch,
do you know?"
"Doubtful, ma'am. A few head of cattle went missing during the night.
She's been out scouring the
range for them all morning."
Marian was disappointed. She'd been hoping to have a nice long talk
with her aunt, to get to know
her better.
"Is that a normal occurrence, for cattle to just wander off?"
"Yes, ma'am, though they usually don't go too far— unless they get
helped."
"Helped?"
"Rustled."
"Rustled?"
He chuckled. "I'm sorry. I don't meet too many Easterners who might not
understand some of the
words we use out here. Rustling refers to the
theft of cattle, especially when brands are changed to
try to hide the
fact. Men have been known to start ranches with rustled cattle, though
most of the
rustling these days is done for quick profit, with the
cattle being herded south and sold across the
border in Mexico."
Marian frowned. "Do my aunt's cattle get stolen often?"
"No, her herd isn't big enough to be the target of that kind of
operation, not like Kinkaid's spread.
She notices when just a single cow is missing, and goes looking for it.
Big
ranches like the one Chad's father owns have too many cattle for anyone
to notice a hundred missing here and there, so rustlers
tend to
concentrate their efforts on those."
"It is illegal, right?"
He grinned at her. "Yes, ma'am, just not as harshly dealt with as horse
stealing. It all depends on the rancher. Red ignores the loss, if she
thinks a cow has been stolen to feed some hungry family. But if
she
catches any real rustlers whittling away at her herd, she escorts them
to the sheriff pronto. It's not
a killing offense, but it can earn a
man a good chunk of time in prison, so most cattle rustlers are
either
desperate for food or hardened outlaws."
"Well, thank you for the information, Mr. Judson, I do appreciate it."
"Just Lonny, please. We're not formal out here."
"Lonny, then. I do worry about my aunt missing lunch, though. Do you
think—"
"We have our own cook out on the range," he cut in. "She'll come by for
some grub before the day is
out. No need to worry about her, but if
you'd like to come out to the range to find her, I can saddle
you a
horse."
"No, I—well, I'd like to, yes, but I haven't learned to ride yet."
"Carl's already headed out with the chuck wagon, or you could have
ridden with him. You could ride double with me, I reckon. The herd
isn't that far off today."
Marian smiled brilliantly. "I'd love to, thank you."
He blushed at her smile. "Just give me a few minutes to change clothes.
I'm still damp after taking a
spill in the river, when I thought to
check the other side of it for tracks of the missing cattle. Been
feeling the sniffles coming on, or I would have just let the sun
continue to dry me off." He looked up
at the cloudless, big blue sky.
"And you won't have to stay out on the range all day. You'll be able to
ride back with Carl. He don't stay out long after he serves up lunch."
"That will do nicely."
He nodded. "Better fetch a wide-brimmed hat, then, and some long
sleeves. I don't want to be
responsible for you getting sunburned."
"Sleeves I can manage, but I don't think my bonnets have the kind of
brim you're talking about.
Will a parasol do?"
He started to chuckle. "Well, it probably would, but it's also likely
to get the boys laughing so hard,
they won't get any more work done. We
just don't see ladies riding on horses with parasols around
here. One
of the women in the house should have a hat you can borrow. I'll pick
you up out front
the house in five minutes."
Marian agreed and rushed off to get protection from the sun. Consuela
did have a hat she could borrow. She'd seen it on a peg by the back
door in the kitchen earlier. It was a few sizes too big for her, but it
would do for today.
She was looking forward to the outing, was even feeling a little
excited as she hurriedly changed her blouse, thinking she might run
into Chad out on the range. It would be a nice distraction, since she
had nothing else to occupy her time until she figured out what she
could do to keep busy on a working ranch. She wanted to talk to her
aunt about that, too.
Chapter 23
THE HERD WAS GRAZING nearby, so the ride really wasn't that long, less
than a mile. Tomorrow it might be much farther away. Lonny explained to
Marian that the herd got moved around a lot, from water hole to water
hole, to the river and back. It was fortunate that the herd was close
by because Marian ended up having to sit sideways on the back of
Lonny's horse, and the position was precarious, even nerve-wracking.
She hadn't considered the trouble her long skirt would cause when she'd
accepted Lonny's invitation
to ride out. He hadn't either. But she was
loath to beg off because of that, would have been really disappointed
if she'd had to, so she made do.
When the herd came into view, Marian was surprised. She'd heard more
than once that Kathleen's
herd was small in comparison to others, yet
spread out as it was grazing, it looked like a tremendous number of
cattle to her.
There was one odd animal in the midst that caught her eye. "What is
that?" she asked.
Lonny didn't know what she was talking about, so she pointed. He
chuckled then. "That's Sally. We
don't see too many buffalo down this
way, ain't too many herds of them left. But this one wandered in one
winter, probably lost, and decided to stay. The cattle tolerate her
because she doesn't cause any trouble. She's been here so long, the old
girl probably thinks she's one of them."
Marian continued to stare. The buffalo was nearly twice the size of the
other cows. And ugly. There
was no better word to describe it. Well, it
was ugly in a majestic sort of way. It was like nothing she'd ever seen
before, and . . .
It happened too quickly. One minute she was riding along nicely, and
the next she was being dragged through the dust. She shouldn't have
taken her hand off of Lonny's back to point at the buffalo. She should
have been paying attention and seen that they were about to cross a
small ditch.
It wasn't that wide a ditch, but the horse must have figured it was and
decided to leap across it—and unseat Marian in the process. At least
she was able to grab Lonny's arm on the way down, not that
that could
have stopped her from landing in the dirt. But he was quick enough to
clasp her forearm and hang on to it, so although she was
completely off the horse, she didn't ex-acdy land on the ground. She
was pulled along a few feet while he fought to stop the horse, which
turned about in circles with her weight and Lonny's, who was leaning
over to keep his hold on her, dragging it to the side.
She was facing backward, her legs stretched out, so when he finally got
the horse to stop, it was easier just to lower her the rest of the way
to the ground. Easier for him, but sitting on the ground at a horse's
feet didn't give her the feeling that she was safe yet. Not that she
leapt to her feet. She was too dazed. Her arm felt like it had been
pulled out of its socket. The oversize hat she wore had slipped
forward, dislodging her spectacles, so they were sitting crookedly,
halfway off her nose. And she was coughing from the dust she'd stirred
up dragging her boots across the ground.
"Damn, that was close," Lonny said as he dismounted, acting as if he'd
saved the day.
He had kept her from landing hard in the dirt, but she'd still fallen
off and gotten the wits scared out of her, so she wasn't feeling
especially thankful yet. "Maybe you should shoot that horse," she just
about growled. "He's dumped two of us off his back today. He's probably
thinking it's a fun thing to do now."
The burst of laughter came from her other side, and unfortunately, she
recognized it and felt her cheeks explode with hot color. "I was going
to ask if you're all right," Chad said as he reached for her hand to
help her up. "But if
you can say something like that, I guess you are."
Marian didn't take his hand, not immediately. He'd come out of
nowhere—well, she had vaguely heard another horse charging toward them.
But that meant he'd witnessed her tumble, so her embarrassment was
complete. He already thought she was as clumsy as you could get. She
didn't have to reinforce
that impression.
She took a moment to adjust her spectacles and put the hat back on
straight before she accepted his
hand. And got yanked to her feet. It
was a good thing she'd given him her left hand because her right
arm
still smarted and she would have screamed if it had been pulled that
hard. As it was, her borrowed hat got dislodged again, slipping
backward this time. But it got caught on her bun and dislodged that,
too, not completely, but enough that her hair was no longer tightly
contained.
She was about ready to scream at that point, and, finally looking at
Chad and seeing how amused he
still was, it was all she could do to
restrain herself.
"I was admiring your buffalo a little too long," she said tightly by
way
of excuse.
He tipped his own hat back. "She ain't my buffalo. She's Red's buffalo.
Your aunt allowed Sally to
stay. Had I been here at the time, I would
have just brought her home for dinner."
Lonny started snickering at Chad's double entendré. Marian would
have
missed it otherwise.
"It's too ugly to eat," she pointed out.
That caused both men to laugh again. Lonny explained, "It don't have to
be pretty to eat. But cattlemen prefer cattle. Buffalo is too tough.
And Chad was just kidding. He's as protective of Sally as Red is.
Figures the old gal has survived this long, she deserves to live out
her days in peace."
Marian found that sentiment rather admirable, but she wasn't going to
say so. She was still annoyed
with Chad for laughing at her.
Chad finally got around to asking Lonny, "What's she doing out here?"
"She came out to see Red. She back yet?"
"No, but you know how she is. She won't give up until she finds those
cows. Weren't you helping her?"
Lonny blushed at the stare he was getting from Chad. "I needed a change
of clothes after my horse got spooked by a floating branch in the river
and dumped me. I'll make another round now."
Marian suddenly found herself alone with Chad. There were cowhands
nearby, some working with the cattle, some sitting around a campfire,
but none of them close enough to keep her from feeling alone
with him.
She was flustered, and not just from her fall now. "What are they
doing?" she asked, trying to get
Chad to take his eyes off of her.
He looked in the direction she nodded. "Branding some of the new
calves."
"May I go watch?"
"If you can stand the stink."
She wrinkled her nose. She hadn't immediately associated branding with
the burning of cow hair and flesh.
"Never mind. I probably should get back to the ranch, since my aunt
isn't here. Will the cook with the wagon be here soon? Lonny mentioned
I could ride back on the wagon."
"Carl's already left. He came by early, made us up a pot of chili, and
took off to haggle for some fresh cheese from one of the farmers in the
area."
She frowned, glancing behind her in the direction of the ranch. "I
suppose I could walk back. The
house isn't that far away."
He lifted a black brow at her. "You'd rather walk a mile than ask me to
take you back?"
The answer was absolutely yes, but she wasn't going to embarrass them
both by saying it. At least she had an excuse to avoid such close
contact with him, which she really didn't think she could handle.
Being
this close to him was bad enough because it was reminding her about
that kiss the other night. . .
"I'd rather not get back on a horse just yet," she admitted.
He grinned, appeased. "Riding double when you can straddle the horse is
one thing, but trying it sitting
sideways, and behind the rider who's holding the reins is just asking
for a fall—as you found out. The best way to learn that a horse isn't
as dangerous as you're probably thinking it is now, is to get right
back on one. I'll put you up front. There's no way you'll fall out of
my arms."
He didn't wait for her to decline again. He mounted his horse, moved it
closer to her, and held out his hand. She stared at it, chewing on her
lip some. She knew she had the gumption to get back on the
horse. That
wasn't the problem. What scared her were her own desires. But what made
her take his
hand and mount the horse was her picturing herself walking
across that open range, past cactus and
scrub brush with him following
along behind her on his horse, laughing at her supposed cowardice.
He did squeeze her in between the horn on the saddle—and him. It was a
tight squeeze. She felt way
too much of him, his leg, which both of
hers were forced to rest over, his chest, and his arms closing
her in.
"Relax," he said, amused by her stiffness. "I don't bite. And this
won't take long."
He took off at a gallop. It was actually a fluid movement that didn't
bounce her much at all. But all she could think about was him. Her
heart was racing, and not because of the ride. She knew very well she
wouldn't fall again.
His arms had her boxed in on both sides, one supporting her back, the
other across her front. He held
her tightly,
probably to give her a feeling of security. At one point he flicked the
reins and his arm
brushed across her breasts. She nearly gasped out
loud and hoped he didn't realize what he'd done, or what he was doing
to her newfound desires.
"How do you like it here, now that you've settled in?" he asked her.
She was grateful for the distraction. "I love it, actually," she
admitted. "But then there isn't much about this part of the country
that I don't like."
"Really?"
She heard amazement in his tone, which wasn't surprising. He'd
overheard a lot of Amanda's
complaints and had probably thought she
felt the same way, but just wasn't as vocal about it.
"Yes, really," she replied. "The people are so friendly—well, aside
from the unlawful element. And the scenery is magnificent. The vast
openness is so different from back East, and the sunsets are so pretty
they take my breath away."
"Okay, I believe you," he said with a chuckle. "I take it you're
getting along with Red?"
"How could I not? She's as wonderful as you said she was. She's made me
feel right at home,
as if I'd always lived with her."
Chad had managed to distract her enough that they arrived at the ranch
before she knew it. Instead
of dismounting though, his arm wrapped tightly across her middle so he
could
just lower her off the
horse. Even though he leaned over as he did so,
his arm still ended up sliding up her chest and over
her breasts before
her feet touched solid ground again. She sucked in her breath, and her
pulse leapt again, as her thoughts scattered and a swirling sensation
started in her belly . . .
Suddenly she was on solid ground again, next to the porch, and Chad was
saying, "You look silly as
all hell in that hat."
That was just what she needed to hear to get her mind, and senses, back
on an even footing. "Thank
you for pointing that out," she said
indignantly. "I would have used a parasol, but Lonny said I'd look
silly as hell in that as well. Actually, those weren't his words. He
said it more kindly."
"I was teasing," Chad said.
"Sure you were," she replied, yanking the hat down as far as it would
go.
She tried to ignore his laughter as she marched stiffly into the house.
Worse, she almost ran into
Spencer and Amanda, who were just leaving
the dining room.
Marian ran up the stairs so she would miss them, but not before she
heard Amanda pout, "Must
you go so soon?"
"I've already dallied longer than I should have, dar-lin'. But I
couldn't leave without seeing you again."
Marian paused at the top of the stairs to watch them walk arm and arm
to the front door. Their behavior seemed much too familiar for such a
short acquaintance, but then Amanda occasionally dismissed formalities
when she favored someone. And Spencer was an ideal candidate for her
sisters favors. He
was handsome, debonair, and a property owner. The
mention that he had relatives back East would also make him suitable in
Amanda's mind to marry and take home, if her first plan failed, and she
couldn't sufficiendy exasperate their aunt into sending her home to
Haverhill with her inheritance in hand.
After watching his behavior last night, Marian had no doubt that
Spencer was interested in her sister.
And today he'd stuck around just
for the chance to see Amanda once more. Now he was going to have
to
ride hard to get back to town before dark, and he'd have to leave the
carriage behind. So much for
his excuse for coming out to the ranch.
But the main thing was that Amanda obviously liked him. Now
if she
would just think along the lines of matrimony where he was concerned ..
.
Chapter
24
MARIAN WAS SITTING IN one of several rocking chairs on the wide porch,
gazing in amazement
at one of the most extraordinary sunsets she'd ever
seen. She'd witnessed some nice ones on the trip there, but nothing to
compare with today's spectacular display. What had started pink and
turned to orange had turned nearly blood red, and it completely covered
the horizon. Even the size of the sun, before it sank completely, had
been bigger than anything she'd ever seen before.
She knew that her aunt was home and she should go in the house to find
her, but she was loath to miss even a moment of that sunset. So she was
glad when the door opened and she turned to see that her
aunt had found
her instead.
"There you are," Kathleen said, and sat down in the rocking chair next
to her.
"Is it okay if I call you Aunt Kathleen?" Marian asked hesitantly. "I
know your friends call you Red,
but Aunt Red just
seems—odd."
"Sweetie, you can call me anything you like. We aren't formal out here."
"I've noticed that. I rather like it, actually. I'm not late for
dinner, am I?"
"No, not at all. If anything, dinner will probably be late tonight,"
Kathleen said with a sigh.
She had been frowning when she opened the door, and looked very weary.
She had shaken that off momentarily when she saw Marian there and had
smiled in greeting, but she was back to looking
weary again.
Marian was almost afraid to ask, knowing what her sister had been up to
that day.
"Is something wrong?"
"No," Kathleen started to deny, but then sighed again. "Well, yes. I
just got my ear chewed off by Consuela. She's taken a dislike to your
sister, I'm afraid. And my maid refuses to clean her room,
refuses to
go anywhere near her for that matter. It just took me thirty minutes to
get her calmed
down, and nearly that long to convince Consuela to send
a plate up to Amanda as she requested,
since she apparently doesn't
want to eat with us tonight. That's why dinner will be late."
Marian leaned back in her chair, sighed a little herself. "I don't
usually offer explanations, but you're family, as well as our guardian,
so you have a right to know certain things about us. First off,
Amanda
and I don't like each other. We never have, never will. You may have
gathered that
from overhearing that fight yesterday. She's made my life miserable
from as far back as I can remember."
"Because she was Mortimer's favorite."
"Yes, and has rubbed that in my face continuously for most of my life.
How did you—?" Marian
started to ask, then amended, "Never mind. Of
course, you were there when we were young and probably saw it
firsthand."
"Sweetie, that's the main reason I got the hell out of there as soon as
I could. I didn't want to watch
you two grow up with the same bitter
feelings my sister and I shared."
"You have a sister?" Marian asked in surprise.
"Had," Kathleen corrected. "She died when we were fourteen. She was my
twin—and Mortimer's favorite. He was only two years older than us. All
three of us should have been close. But neither of
them seemed to be
able to share their feelings with more than one person at a time. They
bonded early, were inseparable, did everything together, and excluded
me from all of it. And like you, my face got rubbed in it. Neither of
them was very nice."
"I'm sorry."
"No, I'm sorry, because I was
afraid you'd experience the exact same
thing with Mortimer, except
in a father-daughter relationship, and it
looks like you did. It certainly wasn't your fault. I hope you
never thought that it was."
"No—well, maybe for a year or two when I was young," Marian admitted.
"My mother helped me to
get past that. She was always there for me,
until she died. I remember she told me once, about big
hearts and small
hearts, and that not everyone could be blessed with a big one that had
room to care
for a lot of people. She promised me that mine was big,
and that I was the lucky one for it."
Kathleen smiled. "I liked your mother. She was a good woman. I pitied
her, too, for marrying a man
who didn't love her."
"Why did he marry her then?"
Kathleen shrugged. "I never asked. Probably for the same reason most
men of means marry, to have children so they can ensure they have
someone to leave their wealth to. She was only a little disappointed
that he didn't turn out to be an ideal husband, and she got along well
enough with him, from what I could tell. I don't think she was raised
to expect a grand love. Many women think a good provider is more
important, and he was that at least."
"Were you raised to expect a grand love?"
Kathleen chuckled. "Sweetie, I wasn't raised to expect anything. My
father was all business. It was
a rare day that he spent any time with
his family. He left the raising of his children completely in his
wife's hands, and to be frank, those weren't capable hands. If anyone
is to blame for
the way Mortimer turned out, it was our mother. She taught him that he
needed no one but himself to be successful, and maybe one other to
share his triumphs with. I think she hoped to be that 'one other.' She
really adored him. But he disappointed her in that."
"But isn't that what most boys are taught? That they can be successful
at anything if they work at it
hard enough?"
"Indeed," Kathleen agreed. "And if that was all she'd stressed, then he
might have turned out much differently. But she also coddled him, she
babied him, she made him believe that he could do no wrong."
"Like he did with my sister."
"And mine." Kathleen nodded.
"I'm still a bit amazed that I never heard about her. Not one mention
in all these years."
"Actually, that doesn't surprise me at all. Once she died, Mortimer put
her out of his mind. I thought
he and I might grow close after that.
But no, once excluded from his affections, always excluded."
"I think Amanda did something like that when our father died. I thought
she might be in shock, but
it was more like she'd removed all memories
of him, so it simply didn't bother her that he was gone."
"Don't let that sadden you."
Marian blinked. "Did I look sad?"
"For a moment. But don't be. The person Mortimer loved most was
himself. People like that don't get mourned. It may have seemed like he
loved my sister, and yours, but after many years of reflection, I've
come to doubt that he really did. They were more like pets to him,
things that needed to be nurtured so they'd be there to amuse him. Of
course, I could be completely wrong." She ended in another shrug.
"You never noticed a similarity?" Marian asked curiously.
"In what?"
"Both sets of twins. You and your sister. Me and mine. Maybe he just
didn't want to divide his affection between two people who looked
exactly alike?"
"I hate to break this to you, sweetie, but you don't exactly look like
your sister."
Marian stared at her aunt, watching Kathleen wince for having been so
unflatteringly frank, then
started to chuckle.
Kathleen sighed in relief. "I'm glad you find that funny. I'm sorry.
Let me just pull this foot out of my mouth."
"It's all right, really." Marian grinned. "I was going to tell you
anyway, before we got sidetracked on
the subject of my father. You see,
I don't need to wear these," she said, shoving the spectacles up
her
nose by habit.
Kathleen frowned. "You don't? Then why do you?"
"To make my life at least somewhat bearable. You see, Amanda is very
jealous. She won't tolerate competition of any sort, especially not
where men are concerned. So I've found it necessary to hide
the fact
that we look alike."
"But that's silly. So she'd lose a few suitors to you. She can't expect
to have every man y'all cross
paths with eating from her hand. Her hand
just isn't big enough."
Marian chuckled again, amazing herself that she could find anything
amusing about this. But then her aunt's perspective was refreshing. And
it was nice to be able to talk about her problem with someone other
than Ella Mae.
"Well, that's just the thing. She does—"
"Dang," Chad cut in, coming around the corner and seeing them there on
the porch. "Don't tell me I missed dinner."
Kathleen stood up. "No, not at all. Goodness, I didn't realize it was
getting so late. I was having a nice chat with my niece and let the
time escape me. Come on in, children. Consuela isn't in a mood today
to
have her food getting cold."
Marian didn't follow her aunt inside immediately. She needed a moment
to compose herself, since all
of her senses had leapt with
excitement—and alarm—at the first sound of Chad's voice. Had he heard
what they were discussing before he came around the corner?
Surely not. They had been talking quietly. And although he was standing
there at the door waiting for
her to go inside before him, his
expression was normal. Then it wasn't. . .
He grinned and said, "Where's the hat?"
Chapter
25
DINNER WAS VERY NICE that evening, even though the food was nearly
cold.
Kathleen was embarrassed a bit about that, since her cook was renowned
for serving her creations at the perfect temperature, no matter how
long people were delayed in coming to the table. That it wasn't that
way tonight was Consuela's way of letting the household know that she
wasn't happy.
Of course the reason for her displeasure wasn't there to notice it. But
Marian figured the odds were
pretty good that the food sent up to
Amanda had been much colder. It had been really stupid of her
sister to
insult the only cook in the house. But then her sister's options had
been limited, since Kathleen only employed the two household servants.
Cold though it was, the food was still tasty, Consuela being such a
marvelous cook. And the
conversation was relaxed with just the three of
them present.
Kathleen was chatty and explained a bit about what she did during the
day. It certainly wasn't a routine one would expect a woman to be
doing—deciding which cows to breed and which to take to market, nursing
motherless calves, chasing down strays.
"I'd like to help," Marian offered. "That is, if you think I might be
useful. I don't mind hard work."
Kathleen looked a bit skeptical. "There isn't really much that's
suitable for a lady to do around here.
Don't you have a pastime you
enjoy? Reading, embroidery, something like that?"
"I used to paint," Marian said a bit shyly, not very confident of her
talent after her family's derision.
"I was thinking I might check in
Trenton, to see if there are any supplies I can buy there to start."
Kathleen was smiling, so she added a bit defensively, "Not a good
choice?"
"On the contrary, I see we have even more in common than I thought. I
used to paint as well. In fact,
my old supplies are around here
somewhere. I never find the time for it anymore, but you're more'n
welcome to dig all that stuff out and make use of it."
"I'd like that. Thank you. I'd also like to learn to ride. I'd love to
join you occasionally, when you ride
out to check on your stock."
"You've never ridden at all?"
"Prior to today, no, and today wasn't very—successful—as I'm sure
you've heard. Father kept two coaches, and a carriage for the summer,
but no horses just for riding, so Amanda
and I never had an opportunity to learn."
"Well, we'll definitely have to take care of that," Kathleen said, and
looked at Chad. "Would you mind teaching her?"
He put his fork down, but didn't answer for a moment. Then with a
glance toward Marian and a smile,
he said, "Sure, be glad to. Long as I
don't get blamed if you take a few spills while getting the hang of it."
Marian stared at him. Kathleen chuckled. "He's joking. It takes a lot
of effort to fall off a horse when you're in control of it, and you
don't need to put that much effort into it."
When Chad laughed, too, Marian realized that Kathleen was teasing her.
She grinned to show she didn't mind. But she wasn't the least bit used
to being teased. It was something she'd like to get used to, though.
She was still embarrassed, not because of the teasing, but because of
Chad's pause before he'd answered. He didn't really want to teach her
to ride. That was obvious, and she couldn't blame him. She'd done a
good job of making him want to avoid her.
But, apparently, he found it difficult to say no to Kathleen. Marian
could understand that. She would probably find it just as difficult.
Kathleen was simply too nice, the kind of person you didn't want to
disappoint.
Marian didn't want Chad teaching her to ride either, but for a
different reason. She was finding it
harder and harder to be in his
presence and pretend indifference to him.
She wasn't going to insult him in front of Kathleen, however, by
refusing his offer. She could do that when they were alone, no doubt to
his great relief.
They were about halfway through the main meal when Chad glanced around
and asked somewhat in surprise, "Amanda isn't joining us?"
Marian almost laughed. She had the feeling that he'd only just noticed
Amanda's absence. If so, that
was a firm indication that he wasn't
deeply enamored with her yet.
Kathleen merely said, "She spent most of the day in her room resting,
and wanted to take her meals
there as well. Poor dear must be really
exhausted after the trip, to need so much rest."
Marian almost choked. Poor dear? She wondered how long it would take
Kathleen to realize there was nothing "poor" or "dear" about Amanda.
She wished she'd been able to finish explaining about her sister.
Kathleen deserved some type of warning before Amanda got nasty in her
campaign to get shipped home with permission to do as she pleased.
Marian hoped Chad would leave right after dinner so she could spend a
little more time alone with her aunt before she
retired for the night. It was still early. They could finish their
talk. But as it happened, Kathleen had no sooner escorted them back to
the porch and waited until they were seated there, then
she yawned and
announced that she was turning in early.
Marian should have done the same, but that would have been yet another
insult to Chad. It would have smacked of cowardice as well, and she'd
rather not add to all the other bad impressions she'd made on him.
Still, she felt immensely uncomfortable as the door closed and
Kathleen's footsteps faded away. She hoped he didn't expect
conversation. No, he wouldn't. They didn't like each other, so why
should they talk? For that matter, why should they stay in each other's
company when they didn't like each other? Why didn't he leave?
There wasn't much light on the porch. No lamp had been lit out there
since the lamps in the main gathering room hadn't been turned off yet,
and some of their light spilled out through the two windows that faced
the porch.
She tried not to look in Chad's direction. It was hard. The one time
she did, she found him staring at
her, at her lips in particular. He
was probably just lost in thought and didn't realize he was staring. But
still, it gave her gooseflesh, having his eyes on her.
"What is Chad short for?" she found herself asking out of pure
nervousness.
"Short for?"
"It's a nickname, isn't it?"
"No, darlin', it doesn't get any longer."
She heard the humor in his tone, which annoyed her. It had been a
natural mistake. The name didn't usually stand on its own. And she
should take him to task over that "darlin," except she'd heard for
herself how common the use of that word was out here, no different than
the old-timers calling her "missy," or the train attendant calling her
"ma'am." It meant nothing. There wasn't a speck of
endearment in it.
"Thank you for clearing that up for me," she said a bit stiffly.
"My pleasure."
She had a feeling he would have tipped his hat if he'd been wearing it
just then rather than holding it
in his hand. She'd like to tip his
rocker over. He could be so damn irritating—no, it probably wasn't
even
him, it was her reaction to him, her nervousness, her—wanting him when
she knew she couldn't have him.
"By the way," she said. "You don't need to teach me to ride. I'll
manage—"
"I said I would," he interrupted.
She was letting him off the hook. Couldn't he see that?
"Yes, but my aunt shouldn't have put you on the spot like that."
"It's no big deal," he replied, though impatience crept into his tone.
"You've already done quite enough," she pointed out, her own tone
getting sharper over his stubbornness. "And I'm sure you have much more
important things to do than to waste your time on me."
"I said I'll teach you," he said, his voice getting much louder.
"You don't have to," she gritted out.
"I'll teach you, dammit!
"Fine, you do that!"
She stood up to leave in a huff and wasn't about to bid him good night
or anything else. Stubborn, exasperating, contrary man. But he shot to
his feet at the same time, probably with the same intention.
They collided instead, there in front of the door. His hands gripped
her shoulders to keep her from
falling, and started to set her away at
arm's reach. His eyes were drawn to her lips again though, stayed there
for a long moment, and suddenly he was yanking her back toward him.
He was kissing her. Her.
There was no mistake this time. Her spectacles
were firmly in place, her hair
as tightly drawn back as ever, and she
was wearing one of her dull, it-had-seen-better-days dresses.
It was so unexpected she just stood there, shocked, and let his mouth
move heatedly over hers. But
not for long. There was
just too much passion in the kiss for her not to respond, especially
when her emotions had already been stirred up with anger. It was
exchanging one passion for another and it
was a smooth exchange. . . .
He set her away from him, quite abruptly. "It was you that night Leroy
found us," he said in an
accusing tone, "pretending to be your sister."
Marian stiffened. He knew they were twins? But she wore her disguise so
well!
"Who told you we're twins?"
"No one had to tell me, darlin. I'm not the one who wears spectacles,
you are."
So that's why he'd kissed her? Just to make a comparison with that
other kiss, because he hadn't been sure it was her diat night, but now
he thought he was? That wasn't very flattering, but then she was the
sister who never got flattered. She should have known, though, that he
wouldn't kiss her just because
he wanted to.
Disappointed more than she wanted to admit, she said, "I never
deliberately pretend to be my sister. Amanda enjoys little tricks like
that, I don't."
Suddenly he looked very embarrassed, if you could go by his darkened
complexion, Apparently he
was tongue-tied, too. "I—that—" he began,
then closed his mouth before he stuck his foot in it.
She realized he was confused because she hadn't admitted anything.
She'd merely stated a fact. Just
as well. She didn't
want him to guess her feelings for him when he still had designs on
Amanda.
"There's no need to explain," Marian said. "I understand that was a
mistake." She opened the door
to leave before her throat closed up on
her, and added curtly, "Just don't let it happen again."
She heard a thud against the closed door. It was some consolation to
think he'd thrown his hat at it.
She hoped it was dented out of shape.
Serve him right for trampling on her emotions like that.
Chapter 26
MARIAN WAS AWAKENED AN hour before dawn by a slamming door and shouts
in the hall. Her sister was on the rampage about something.
At home, Marian would have turned over and put a pillow over her ears
to try to get back to sleep.
This home was new, though. The people in
it weren't used to Amanda's tactics yet. So she crawled
out of bed with
a disgusted sigh and tried to find her robe in the dark.
"I need another room!" Amanda was shouting in the hall. "The one you
gave me is intolerable. It's
bad enough this house is as rustic as an
old log cabin, but it's also as hot as a furnace."
Kathleen had apparently arrived to find out what the noise was all
about, because her voice, while not loud, was still clear, "There are
no other rooms."
"Find one! Unless you want me sleeping on the porch where all your
neighbors will notice."
"Aside from the fact that my husband and I used to do that during a hot
spell or two, we have no neighbors anywhere near enough to notice."
"So you're going to force me to sleep on a porch? This is how you
intend to conduct your guardianship?" Amanda demanded.
Having finally found her robe in the dark, Marian arrived in the narrow
hall outside the bedrooms in
time to see Kathleen's vivid blush.
Kathleen had brought a lamp with her. Amanda was standing there
in her
thin underwear with her hands on her hips, putting on a good act of
being furious.
"I will be happy to give you my room, but it won't make much
difference," Kathleen said, still trying to keep her voice calm. "You
haven't adjusted to this warmer climate yet. And I do remember what it
was like, my first months here. We arrived in the spring and were still
building the ranch that first summer.
It was horrible. But by the
following summer the heat wasn't so bad. We had adjusted to it."
"Why are you telling me this?" Amanda demanded. "I hope you know I
could care less?"
Marian sighed in exasperation. She should be immune by now to feeling
disgust over something she'd experienced so many times before, but she
wasn't, at least not when other people were involved.
She crossed her arms over her chest, and asked her sister dryly, "Did
you force yourself to stay up all night, Amanda, just so you could wake
the household before dawn? Of course you
slept for most of
the day yesterday, so I suppose it wasn't all that
hard."
"I can't sleep in this miserable heat!"
"Of course you can. I managed to with no problem. It wasn't even that
hot last night."
"And just how would you know?" Amanda shouted. "You were sleeping."
Having done what she'd intended, which was to wake Kathleen and put her
into an amends-making
frame of mind, Amanda slammed back into her
bedroom. Kathleens shoulders slumped, either with
relief or dejection,
it was hard to tell which. Marian put her arm around her aunt and urged
her to
follow her downstairs.
"It will be dawn soon," she said. "No point in trying to get back to
sleep. Let's make some coffee and finish that talk we started last
night."
Kathleen nodded, but admitted, "I'm not very good at making it."
"I don't know how either, but I watched Chad make it one morning.
Between us, we should come up with something that's at least drinkable."
It wasn't, and they both laughed over the result, which eased some of
the tension for Kathleen at least. Marian knew Consuela would be
arriving soon, so she immediately broached the subject at hand.
"What you witnessed upstairs was mostly, if not entirely, contrived,"
she began.
"She was drenched with sweat," Kathleen replied. "And I do remember how
miserable I was with the unusual heat my first months here."
"She was drenched with water," Marian corrected her. "On her temples,
forehead, neck, and chest.
If you had looked closely, you wouldn't have
found her drenched at any of the normal places where sweat first
gathers. Not that it really matters. It was still a performance for
your benefit."
"Why?"
"So you'll send her home with your blessing to marry whomever she
wants."
Kathleen frowned. "I can't do that. I didn't ask for the
responsibility, but I was given it, to make sure
you girls aren't taken
advantage of by fortune hunters or other men of questionable motives."
"I know, but you see, that doesn't matter to Amanda. She's very
self-centered."
"Like my brother was?"
"Yes. But unlike your brother, she can, and will, get very nasty if she
doesn't get her way. She didn't want to come here. She wants to go
home. And she really resents that now she must get permission to marry,
when she always expected our father to let her marry whomever she
chose."
"Would he have?"
"Probably," Marian said. "Well, it would have been easy for him to,
since all her suitors at home were quite acceptable to him. She's also
furious that her inheritance is out of
her reach until she does marry. She would have married immediately just
for that if it didn't require your blessing. She just can't stand being
denied anything."
"So the problem is that my approval is required, as was stipulated in
your father's will? It's too bad
some of her suitors didn't elect to
follow her here so I could meet them. I have a feeling that what
my
brother would have found acceptable isn't necessarily what I would deem
acceptable."
"That's quite possible. Personal wealth was the only criteria he ever
considered important in a suitor.
The same goes for my sister,
actually; at least, she won't even look at a man unless he's
well-to-do.
And some of those suitors would have
followed her, to the
ends of the earth if it meant they could
win her. She's very good at
keeping men dangling—and from finding out what she's really like."
"Is one of them coming then?" Kathleen asked. "That might be a
solution."
"No. The one who offered to come, she cut him to the quick. And we
departed so soon after the
funeral, the others didn't even know she was
leaving town."
"Well, we have good men here for her to choose from, a few who are even
quite rich," Kathleen replied. "I can think of at least four offhand
that I could easily approve of. She already knows one of them."
"Chad?"
"Yes, he's probably considered the best catch around these parts."
It wasn't going to be easy for her to talk about Chad and Amanda as a
pair. She tried to be unbiased in doing so, without revealing her own
feelings in the matter.
"She hasn't exactly been nice to him, since she had the impression that
he was just an employee of
yours, and that put him beneath her notice.
Which doesn't mean he's not already smitten with her.
Most men who meet
her usually are. And now that she knows he's more than that, she might
even consider him as a last resort."
Kathleen chuckled. "Chad would probably be highly insulted, to hear
himself called a 'last resort.' "
Marian felt the blush starting. "Please don't repeat that to him. It's
certainly not my opinion. It's just
that Amanda isn't going to want any
man from this part of the country when she has her mind set on forcing
you to send her home so she can do as she pleases. But if she doesn't
get her way in that, then yes, she'll probably pick a man here just to
get it over with."
"Just to get it over with?" Kathleen repeated.
"If she does marry someone here, she'll badger him and make his life
miserable until he agrees to take
her home to Haverhill because she
wont stay here any longer than she has to."
"I hate to say it, sweetie, but it would be a rare man indeed who would
uproot himself for his wife's convenience. I turned down a half dozen
proposals back home waiting for a man who didn't want to
stay in
Haverhill; I knew all those others would never consider leaving. A wife
doesn't exactly have a choice in the matter."
"I know that, and you know that, but Amanda views things only from her
own perspective, and that doesn't include being told she can't have
what she wants."
"Yes, but she's gotten away with that because my brother let her. A
husband isn't likely to tolerate that sort of nonsense."
"I hope you're right, Aunt Kathleen. I'd still pity the man if she has
to marry one here. Actually, I'd pity any man she marries, no matter
where. It's unfortunate, but I really don't think she will make a good
wife. She doesn't have it in her to make someone else happy. She's too
self-centered."
"Now that's too bad. Sounds like I'd be doing a man a disservice to
allow him to marry her."
Marian groaned to herself. She hadn't wanted to give that impression.
She wanted Amanda to get
married just as much as Amanda now did.
"Not if he knows what to expect and wants her anyway," Marian offered.
"I suppose," Kathleen agreed reluctantly.
Marian sighed. "I didn't tell you all this to make your job seem
impossible, merely to warn you about what to expect so you aren't
manipulated into doing something against your better judgment."
"I understand that, sweetie, and I do appreciate it." And then Kathleen
chuckled. "If I didn't know
better, I'd think that giving me
guardianship of Amanda was Mortimer's way of getting even for my
taking
myself out of his sphere of influence. He didn't like me, but he did
like rubbing my nose in how useless he thought I was.
"I'm sure he didn't the before Amanda was settled in marriage just to
spite you."
Kathleen grinned. "I know."
Marian smiled back, understanding now that her aunt had just been
trying to lighten the mood some.
She still had to caution her, "If
you'll keep in mind that what you've seen so far is nothing compared
to
how bad it can get, you'll have an easier time dealing with it."
"What about yourself? It doesn't bother you that you have to wait on
your inheritance until you marry?"
"I haven't given it much thought, actually, but then it's not something
I expected this soon anyway. I guess I don't see marriage as a form of
independence the way Amanda does."
"You aren't hankering to go home like she is?"
"No, I could care less if I ever see Haverhill again. Besides, I kind
of like it here in Texas. I probably would have made a
good pioneer."
Kathleen chuckled. "I know what you mean. I loved Texas from the moment
I stepped off the boat.
I'm glad those few mishaps you had on the way
here didn't affect your opinion adversely."
Marian grinned. "I wouldn't exactly call train and stage robberies
mishaps, but in reflection, they were probably more exciting than
frightening, at least, certainly something I never would have had the
chance to witness at home."
"It's too bad your sister didn't view them that way." Kathleen shook
her head. "It's amazing that you
two turned out so different."
"Not really. She's a result of our father's indulgence. I'm a result of
his indifference."
"I'm sorry—no, actually, I'd say you were the lucky one. It probably
didn't seem like it while you were growing up, but I'm sure you've
realized it by now."
Lucky? Not yet. But soon—unless she had to stand back and watch Amanda
marry Chad as a last
resort. For her aunt's sake, though, she nodded.
She'd given Kathleen enough to think about. The
warning had been
necessary. Discussing her own pathetic situation wasn't.
Chapter 27
MARIAN WANDERED OUT TO the stable later that morning. Her intention was
to ask the first cowhand she came across if he wouldn't mind teaching
her to ride. When Chad got around to setting
up a time for his coerced
lesson, she really hoped to be able to tell him no thanks, that she'd
already
been taught.
She was looking forward to being able to ride, even feeling somewhat
impatient about it. Being so
isolated out on the ranch had a lot to do
with it. Spencer's carriage might still be taking up space in the
stable, since he'd left too late to take it back to town with him, but
it wasn't there for her use even if she knew how to hitch it up and
drive it. Walking anywhere was out of the question, too, not that there
was anything nearby worth reaching.
But unlike her sister, Marian already had it pretty much set in her
mind that Texas was going to be her
home permanently, and by choice. There wasn't a single thing that she
missed about Haverhill. There
was really nothing there for her but bad
memories, so she had no desire at all ever to return there, or anywhere
else back East, for that matter. And she rather liked this part of the
country, despite the heat.
The openness, the raw, untamed nature of the place, traveling for days
without seeing any form of setde-ment, the friendliness of the
people—well, discounting the lawless element. It could be frightening,
but it was also exhilarating. You simply never knew what was going to
happen next. People didn't just
live here, they adapted, they did
without, they helped each other. They survived.
Yes, she would stay here. And whether she ended up living in a town or
a good day's ride away from
one like Kathleen did, she wanted to learn
the things that everyone else seemed to take for granted out here.
Riding a horse was at the top of that list.
She'd even borrowed one of her aunt's odd-looking riding skirts, or
rather, breeches for the task. Made out of rawhide leather, the garment
was so loose and wide, it looked like a skirt if she were just standing
about in it, but once mounted on a Western-style saddle, they were more
obviously very baggy breeches.
She was disappointed to find the stable completely empty, at least of
people. There were four horses in stalls there, two of them Spencer's,
and several more in the corral next to the stable. She decided to get
acquainted with
the horses, as long as she was there, and tried coaxing one to her for
petting. It just swished its tail and ignored her. She tried another,
but got ignored again.
She was hesitant to get any closer, with the stalls so narrow and the
memory clear in her mind of seeing
a horse gone wild on the street when
she was a child. With its bucking, kicking, and biting, that horse
had
injured five men who tried to get it under control before its enraged
owner finally shot it. She'd heard someone say how stupid the fellow
was, that it was his own ill treatment of the animal that had caused it
to rebel. None of these animals looked mistreated, but still, a memory
like that was hard to shake off.
"Bring a sweet with you next time if you want to get his attention."
Marian turned toward the front of the stable. With the verbal coaxing
she'd been doing, she hadn't heard anyone approach. And with such
bright daylight directly behind him, he was just a dark silhouette
there
in the doorway to the stable, sitting quiedy on his horse, his
hat tipped down low. But she knew that voice, knew it very well. Her
heart was already beginning to pick up speed.
"I was just introducing myself," she explained.
He chuckled, rode farther in until the glare from outside was no longer
obscuring his features from her.
"That's fine, except, without an offering, they could care less—which
you've probably noticed."
She grinned. "Yes, they've been trying to make me think I'm not really
here."
"A treat or two, and they'll remember the sound of your voice and perk
up whenever they hear it,
which is why it's not a good idea to favor
them all unless you want to fill your pockets with sweets.
Just
concentrate on the one you'll be riding for now."
"Which is?"
"None of these. There's a mare out in the corral, docile, perfect for a
new rider. You ready to do this?"
It was rather obvious that she was, considering where he found her. And
she wasn't going to get into another "you don't have to" argument with
him about it.
So she replied, "If you aren't busy."
He nodded, dismounted. "I think Red has an old saddle still around,
smaller than the standard ones
kept for the hands, which should do you
fine."
He disappeared into the tack room, came out loaded down with horse
trappings. "Follow me," was
all he said as he headed toward a side door
that opened directly into the corral.
It was a two-tiered door, and the top half had already been open. She
stood out of the way as he tossed
a rope around the neck of one of the
horses and led it inside to a stall. The other two horses both tried
to
follow. He let one do so, but closed the lower half of the door again
on
the mare. She gathered her lesson was going to take place out in the
corral.
The mare she was to get acquainted with wasn't a very pretty horse. A
splotchy gray, with tail and mane that might have been white at some
point, but were stained a yellowish gray now. She wasn't as big as
the
other two horses had been, though, which made her ideal for the
purpose—less distance to fall from.
Chad returned after a few moments and started picking up the gear he'd
dumped on the ground. "Pay attention," he said without glancing at her.
"In case you ever need to do this yourself. It's not likely you ever
will, since there's usually at least one hand on the property who tends
to the horses and stable."
"Where is he?"
"Sick today, or at least he was this morning when we rode out. Which is
why I'm back."
Well, she should have known he hadn't come back for her. Actually, he'd
probably been quite disappointed to see her there in the stable when he
rode in, might even have thought she was waiting
on him. How
embarrassing. But he'd given no indication that he was being put to a
bother, and he
began explaining everything he was doing as he did it.
When he finished, he fell silent and surprised her by removing all the
gear he'd just dressed the horse
in and piling it back on the ground.
"Now you try it."
A test. She hadn't expected that. And she hadn't been paying complete
attention to what he'd done
either, which was his fault, for making her
stand so close to him to watch. It certainly didn't seem to bother him,
being that close to her, but it had definitely bothered her.
She had managed to put that kiss he'd given her last night out of her
mind. She would never have been able to get to sleep if she hadn't. And
she'd had other things to think of this morning, thanks to her
sister.
But now, standing next to him, so close she could even smell him, she
could think of nothing else.
He had drunk some wine with dinner last night. Not very much, but
still, some people got more daring—or stupid—after imbibing. She
avoided all forms of alcohol herself. It made her act silly.
Amanda
did, too, since she couldn't abide not being in complete control of all
her faculties. But so
many times she'd watched Amanda's beaus get
overloud, obnoxious, even excessively amorous, to the point of trying
to steal kisses in front of others, and simply because they had a low
tolerance for alcohol.
She didn't think Chad had such a low tolerance, but the wine probably
did account for his audacity in wanting to compare kisses last night.
She really wished he hadn't been so bold though. He'd just been
conducting a test, didn't even consider that he might be getting her
hopes up—then dashing them so thoroughly.
He'd seen through her disguise! No one had ever done that before. Of
course, he didn't know it was
just a disguise. He thought she really
needed the spectacles. But still, he'd seen beyond them and
figured out
that she and Amanda were twins. With that knowledge, it wasn't odd at
all that he might
begin to wonder which one of them he'd kissed that
night by the campfire, especially when Amanda
had so completely ignored
him the next morning.
He could have just asked Marian to clear up his confusion. He should
have asked, rather than tried to figure it out on his own by comparing
kisses. She might even have owned up to it. There wouldn't
have been
any reason not to since he knew they were twins. He'd been right, but
what if he'd been wrong? Did he even once consider that and what it
would do to her? And to accuse her of pretending
to be Amanda, as if
she'd done it deliberately!
He probably didn't know what to think now, or maybe he was just
relieved that he hadn't made a
mistake and kissed the wrong sister to
begin with. But thankfully, they'd both elected not to embarrass
themselves any further by mentioning that kiss again. In fact, his
behavior thus far today was as if it hadn't happened.
Which was fine with her, except, it did happen, and it had been so
nice, so incredibly thrilling, her first real kiss, at least, the first
one meant for her and not because she'd been mistaken for her sister. A
comparison, yes, for the
wrong reason, yes, but still hers. Both times had been wonderful, but
last night there had been much more passion.
It was that passion she was remembering now. Coupled with the heady
emotions he always stirred in
her when he was near, it was no wonder
she couldn't concentrate on the task at hand. She'd found
herself
staring at his lips, at the
hands that had pulled her to him, at the
way his hair curled around his neck, the way his shirt stretched over
taut muscles as he moved about, things she shouldn't be looking
at. But
she couldn't seem to help it.
The test. What was first? The blanket. She picked it up, shook it out,
twice, spread it over the mare's back, took longer than necessary
smoothing out the wrinkles, straightening it, all the while trying to
steady her breathing, which was getting quite erratic.
"She's not going to her first shindig," she heard him say with distinct
impatience behind her. "It doesn't have to be perfect."
She nodded, kept her blush averted, reached for the saddle. It was
heavier than it looked, though
with a little straining, she lifted it
off the ground. She was doubtful she could get it up on the mare's
back
though.
He must have guessed her thoughts because he said, "You'll probably
have to swing it a bit first, get
some momentum going to help."
She tried that, and ended up tossing it right over the mare's back.
That got a chuckle out of Chad. He even moved around the docile mare to
retrieve the saddle, brought it back to her in one hand.
"At least you know you can lift it now," he commented, some humor still
in his tone. "Try not to let go
of it this time so you can stop it from
sliding over. And don't hit her with it. Horses don't like saddles to
begin with, but they really don't like having one thrown at them."
Was he teasing? Probably not. And he was going to make her do it again,
when he'd already conceded that it was something she'd probably never
have to do on her own. This part of the lesson was a "just in case'
part. Or was it his way of getting even for having to teach her? Now
that she could believe, and it
made her stiffen her spine, determined
to get the mare saddled if it killed her.
It took two more tries. When the saddle finally landed where it was
supposed to, Marian's smile of accomplishment was brilliant. His was
genuine, which made her castigate herself for attributing to him petty
motives he didn't have.
Her breathing was even more labored by then. She'd worked up a sweat
with her exertions. But that had nothing to do with why she started
trembling when he touched her to turn her back toward the saddle, which
still needed to be strapped on.
He must have felt her quivering flesh. He couldn't help but hear the
heavy breathing, might even be able to hear her heartbeat, it was so
loud.
He drew in his own breath, released her like a hot brand, said sharply,
"Don't do that."
Like I can help it, she wanted
to growl. But she moved away from him,
took several deep breaths. It didn't help. Something had been stirred
up inside her that wouldn't be quelled.
And then she heard in an angry undertone, "Damn, you couldn't get more
explicit with an invitation if
you tried. Do I look like I'm made of
stone?" just before he dragged her back into the stable.
Chapter 28
THE LESSON WASN'T OVER as Marian had at first thought. It was just
beginning. It just no longer had anything to do with horses. But she
didn't know that when Chad pulled her back into the much
cooler stable.
She couldn't see anything for a moment, the quick transition from such
bright sunshine outside to the shadowed interior made the stable seem
darker than it was. But by the time her eyes adjusted to the
dim light,
she found herself lying on a pile of hay in one of the empty stalls,
Chad's body half-covering hers, his mouth preventing any protests, not
that she thought to make any.
She was too dazed. It had happened too quickly. And she wasn't even
sure why. What he'd muttered about invitations and stone didn't make
much sense to her. That he was kissing her again didn't either. They
had agreed the kiss last night was a mistake, at least, she'd assumed
they had. And he hadn't been drinking this time. So she was running out
of reasons to explain why he'd want
to kiss her.
He was doing more than that. She didn't realize it at first, his kiss
was so consuming. But when his hand covered her breast, the abnormal
heat from it was the first clue that there was no longer a cloth
barrier between them. Her shirt was unbuttoned, her camisole pulled
down.
Panic was her immediate reaction, that she was half-naked somewhere
other than in the privacy of her bedroom. She managed to break the kiss
off for a moment, and gasped out, "What if someone comes
in here?"
"Do you care? I don't."
She had to think about that. How could she think when he was still
caressing her breast? Actually, if he stopped right now, she'd probably
cry. And no one was likely to intrude at this time of the day. No, she
didn't care either. If someone did show up, she would worry about it
then.
She let him find her mouth again. She wrapped her arms around his neck,
her silent answer. His kiss
got more ravenous, his tongue exploring
deeply. She was losing all thought again, caught up in a tide
of
turbulent sensations far beyond her meager experience.
His caresses became more bold, slightly rough, his breathing as ragged
as hers. She had a feeling he
was caught up in his
own passion. She hoped he had more control of it than she did.
His mouth moved lower, sucked on her neck. It tickled, it fired her
blood, made her want to curl around him. Lower still and his lips
surrounded her breast. She knew his mouth wasn't that hot, yet she felt
scorched there, was afraid he was trying to fit the entire mound in his
mouth. Impossible, her breasts weren't that small, yet it didn't seem
as if he was going to give up trying.
The sensations were getting deeper. Vaguely, she felt him fighting with
her skirt, realized he wanted
it off. He was having no luck, so he
tried a different route.
"There should be a law against women wearing breeches," he growled,
when his hand couldn't get
very far up from the bottom of the loose
riding skirt.
She felt like laughing. She surprised herself by giving in to the urge,
then teased in a prim tone,
"Did you really want to get naked in a
stable, on a pile of hay?"
"Use your imagination. I know
you've got a good one. Imagine you're
lying on silk."
"Was that a yes?"
He laughed now, a great burst of laughter. He rolled over, pulled her
with him, positioned her so she
was sitting across his waist, her knees
bent at his sides, just about all of her within reach of his hands.
He
made quick work of getting rid of her shirt, spread it out on the hay
next to them. Her camisole
was pulled over her head. That, too,
became part of the blanket he was fashioning on top of the hay.
The lifting of the camisole dislodged her spectacles, though, which she
fixed automatically from habit.
But he reached for those, too. Her
reaction to that was also automatic. She leaned back, avoiding his
reach.
"Take them off," he said simply.
"No."
He started to frown, but her breasts distracted him. His hands covered
them both now, kneading them. Her head dropped back with a moan she
couldn't contain. With her legs straddling him, she was feeling
a new
heat now, deep in her core.
"Stand up, where you are," he said, his voice more husky than usual.
She didn't want to lose the touch of his hands, but she could find no
reason to deny him this time. She wasn't sure she could stand up,
though, because she was trembling. She managed it, but looking down
at
him as he began to slowly unbutton his shirt, her knees nearly buckled.
"Let your hair down," he ordered next.
She complied immediately, pulled out a few pins, shook her head, and
the whole golden mass came tumbling down her back, over her shoulders,
curled about her waist.
"I knew it would be that long—and beautiful. No more buns for you. If I
see you wearing another bun,
I'll personally
steal all your hairpins."
She grinned at the thought of him sneaking into her bedroom to steal
hairpins. Actually, if she happened to be in it at the time...
"Unfasten that contraption you're wearing so I can get rid of it."
She sucked in her breath again since he happened to be unfastening his
pants as he said it. It took a
really long moment for her to think
clearly enough to realize the "contraption" he meant was her skirt.
She
fumbled with it, her fingers trembling even more. And he did yank tlie
skirt down the second he
saw it loosen.
He sat up then, tore out of his shirt, barely sparing a moment to add
it to the improvised blanket. He pressed his cheek against her lower
belly and put his arms around her. His hands slid up her back,
then
slowly down, over her hips, then lower, taking her bloomers with them.
Though the air wasn't stirring in the confines of the closed stall, she
felt a slight chill, standing there like that, but only for a moment.
His breadi was hot on her belly, his chest warm against her diighs. He
was gently lifting one of her legs to unlock them from her remaining
clothes. Her hands went to his head,
her fingers sliding through his
hair. Baby-fine soft it was, the touch giving her such pleasure, she
realized she'd wanted to do that ever since she'd met him.
When he lifted her other leg, she lost her balance and slid down him
until her knees touched the ground on either side of him again. The
hand he'd placed behind her head pulled her lips back to his. And while
kissing her, he somehow managed to get her boots off as well.
The next thing she knew, she was being laid down on the improvised
blanket, and he was grinning down at her as he asked, "It's silk,
right?"
She would have said absolutely, would have agreed with anything at the
moment, for that matter, but
she couldn't find her voice. He looked so
boyish with that grin, so handsome, she felt a swirling
sensation in
her belly that made her feel faint. And he must have sensed what she
was feeling because
his expression turned so sensual she caught her
breath.
His mouth was back on her, and his hands, infinitely gentle as they
caressed her bare skin, exploring
what couldn't be reached before. She
questioned nothing he did, just accepted the pleasure of his touch and
tried to concentrate on each moment, each new sensation so that she
would always remember it.
But it was happening so quickly, and she was
so caught up in the passions he stirred in her, if she remembered
anything at all it would be the heat, the craving, and her amazement
that it was even happening.
He stopped kissing her so that he could watch her as his hand trailed
down her body. His look was
filled with awe, or was it her imagination? But he did seem overly
taken with
the sight of her bared
limbs, or maybe just surprised, since the
clothes she tended to wear gave no clue that she was as
shapely as she
was. Either way, she was amazed she wasn't embarrassed, to have him
looking at her
like that. Well—maybe just a little.
His hand continued to move down her thigh, then slid up the inner side
of it, and stopped at the junction. She gasped, which brought his mouth
back to hers. But it wasn't that gasp he tried to catch, it was the
ones he knew would follow when his fingers delved into her. Her nerves
leapt in pleasant shock, arching her body toward him, spasms she had no
control of. His body moved closer to absorb them, was suddenly settled
completely over her, and before she guessed why, he was entering her.
The pain was sharp, but gone so quickly, she'd have no clear memory of
it. Feeling him fill her, though, and so deeply, made up for it,
bringing her a pleasure she never could have imagined. He did no more
than that for the longest moment, was giving her time to adjust, time
she didn't really need. When he began to move in her finally, she was
more than ready. He was still trying to soothe her though. While
he
rested one arm behind her neck, he slid his other hand up her cheek,
over her ear, into her hair—catching on her spectacles and taking them
off her.
She was sure he'd done it deliberately, though maybe not. His look of
surprise could have been due to
his having the spectacles in his
fingers. But he was staring at her face, both of them completely still.
He knew she was Amanda's twin, he'd admitted that, and yet she felt
more naked without the spectacles
than she did without her clothes.
"Can you see me at all without these?" he asked her.
"Yes."
"Good, because I want you to see how much I'm enjoying this."
The tone was husky, but the words affected her amazingly, removing all
her shyness and reminding her that he was still deep inside her. She
wrapped her arms around his neck, and said just as huskily, "Then what
are you waiting for?"
He caught his breath, but then frowned for a moment in confusion,
"Amanda?"
Marian didn't answer, was too distracted at that point to think. He was
thrusting deeply into her, again
and again, and within moments, it
carried her right over the edge into the most sublime ecstasy of her
experience, a pleasure that continued to flow through her until he
received his own several moments later.
They were both still again, breathing slowly returning to normal.
Marian held off her thoughts as long as she could, trying to savor what
would undoubtedly be a unique experience, never to happen again—with
him. Marian felt anger welling up in her and sensed Chad might be
feeling the same way. He seemed in no hurry to address it either. Yet
simmering there between them was the notion that he thought she was
Amanda. And he'd made love to her anyway.
He leaned back. He stared down at her for the longest moment. Now,
without realizing it, she was glaring up at him. But before either of
them could say anything, they heard a voice near the front of the
stable.
"You here yet, Chad? Horses need feeding—well, hell, looks like I'll
have to . . ."
The mumbling stopped. It was the sick cowhand, worried about the
animals. Chad swore beneath his breath when the cowhand added, "Oh,
didn't see you there, Lonny."
Chad whispered as he grabbed his clothes and donned them quicker than
he'd removed them, "Get dressed while I get rid of them. We'll talk
about this later."
Later? If she saw him later, she just might shoot him—well, after she
got some lessons on shooting.
Chapter 29
CHAD DIDN'T NEED TO ask Lonny if he'd heard anything in the stable. The
grin
Lonny was wearing was easy enough to decipher. He sent the cowhand back
to bed and urged Lonny outside. They stopped halfway between the stable
and the bunkhouse.
"What are you doing back here?" Chad asked.
"The same thing you are—well, maybe not."
Lonny's grin turned into a chuckle that really grated.
"Whatever you heard, keep it to yourself."
"Of course," Lonny replied. "But I've got to say, you are one lucky son
of a bitch. Don't think I've
ever seen a gal as pretty as that Amanda
is."
"Wait a minute. Not that it's any of your business, but I was with
Marian."
"No way. Marians too prim and—and—"
"Spinsterish?"
"Well, yes, now that you mention it. Besides, I heard you call her
Amanda."
Chad sighed. "That was a mistake. Just for a brief moment I had some
doubt, but I didn't mean to
voice it aloud."
"You're saying you couldn't tell them apart? It wasn't that dark in
there, and those two are nothing alike."
"In behavior, no, they aren't, which is what confused me for a moment.
But in looks, they're identical, Lonny. Twins."
"Yeah, right," Lonny scoffed.
Marian took that moment to rush out of the stable, without noticing
them off to the side. Her long blond hair was floating about her, the
cuffs on her sleeves unbuttoned, her short boots held one in each hand.
There was something distinctly sexy about her looking so disheveled—and
mad. She definitely looked mad. But then he hadn't missed that glower
she'd given him. She obviously hadn't missed him calling
her Amanda.
Damn! He'd have to explain later, and apologize. Her boldness had
simply thrown him off. And her impatience. He hadn't expected either
from her. Of course, he never would have expected such passion from her
either.
"I rest my case," Lonny was saying. "That was Amanda."
Chad rolled his eyes and asked dryly, "Did you miss the part where I
said they're twins?"
"Did you miss the part where I said 'no way5?"
Chad couldn't help grinning at that point. "Okay, I understand your
doubt. Took me a while to notice it myself. Those
ridiculous spectacles that distort her eyes are too much of a
distraction, and anyone with any decency won't stare at her long enough
to notice that the rest of her features are exquisite—and identical to
Amanda's. The problem is, sometimes you can't help wondering which one
you're dealing with."
Last night when he'd kissed her, he'd been sure he was kissing the same
woman he'd kissed by the camp-fire that night. But Marian had denied
it, had even got huffy about it. Yet he'd been so sure,
had even been
relieved to have his confusion finally put to rest, only to end up
confused again with
her denial.
He simply had no trouble accepting that Marian had tried to rescue him
from Leroy that night, and that she'd done so quickly and spontaneously
that she'd forgotten to put her spectacles on first—and had
been able
to see perfectly without them. Which would mean that there was nothing
really wrong with
her eyes. In fact, she probably couldn't see a damn
thing through those silly spectacles, which would account for her
abnormal clumsiness.
Believing that it had been Amanda that night had never really sat quite
right with him. It had looked like her, yes. He'd had no reason then to
think otherwise. But attributing such a selfless act to her had just
seemed—strange. And in fact, it was the only nice thing he could
attribute to her. But he had no trouble
attributing a selfless act to Marian. Yes, she'd gone out of her way to
insult him more than once, but he had to wonder about that with what he
had learned since. He suspected her rudeness might have been
deliberate, part of that jealousy thing with her sister that she'd only
half told him about.
He understood the jealousy part now, or at least most of it, which
Marian had tried to explain to him without giving him any details. It
hadn't made much sense at the time, when she made herself as ugly
as
she possibly could. It simply wasn't conceivable that Amanda could be
jealous of her. But they
were twins. One hid her beauty, the other let
it shine.
But there were ways to tell them apart, thankfully. Amanda's hands were
always moving, to draw attention to her face, her breasts. When she
smiled, it never seemed real. If she had a sense of humor, she'd lost
it in her displeasure over the trip. If she had anything good to say
about anything, he'd yet to hear it. Her mannerisms were different, as
were her temperament, her tolerance, her patience. And she was a
complainer. Actually, she was probably exactly what his father had
called her, a born-and-bred
nag. Her beauty had blinded him to all of
that, but he saw it clearly in comparison to Marian.
He still didn't understand the reason for the deception though. It made
no sense at all for a woman as beautiful as Marian to want to hide her
beauty. But she couldn't hide what she'd felt today, a powerful desire
for him that
he'd reacted to in the most primitive way. His reaction still surprised
him. He usually had much more control over his baser instincts.
Actually, he had never before lost control quite so thoroughly. Or
maybe he just hadn't wanted to stop what was happening between them.
That was more likely the case. It was like the kiss last night,
something he'd been unable to resist taking. And every
time he'd kissed
her, she'd yielded, telling him without words that she wanted him, too.
Chapter 30
MARIAN TOOK A LEAF from her sisters book and spent the rest of the day
in her room. To keep
from driving herself mad with her own thoughts,
she asked Rita to help her find Kathleens painting supplies. And once
that had been easily accomplished, she carried them all to her room.
"When Chad showed up for the promised talk with "Amanda," he'd have no
luck. Amanda's tactic of hiding in her room was an old one, since she
actually felt she was punishing everyone else by denying them her
presence.
Marian was hiding for a much different reason. She didn't want to be
around to see Chad waiting
around for her sister to make an appearance,
or to be asked to talk Amanda into coming down. She wouldn't be
surprised if he asked. But he wasn't going to find out, at least today,
just how much he'd blundered in his conclusions.
She still couldn't believe he'd done that. God, she'd been so elated
that he could actually want her, her,
not Amanda. But she should have
known better. He'd wanted Amanda from the start, and that wasn't going
to change. Just because she was Amanda's twin.
He probably thought all along today that she was Amanda, and the worst
part was, it was her own fault. What she'd told him last night—that
Amanda liked to play tricks on people by pretending to be her—would
have been fresh in his mind.
She probably should warn Amanda that Chad was under the mistaken
impression that he'd made love to her. But then she'd have to listen to
her sister gloat about her fallen virtue, despite the fact that her own
had fallen long ago. Marian just couldn't stomach that on top of
everything else that had happened today. Besides, it was no more than
Chad deserved, to have both sisters refusing any intimacy with him.
Maybe in the future he'd pay closer attention to just whom he was
making love to, the dense man.
A few hours after she started painting, she finally began to relax
enough to take note of what she was painting. She was surprised. She
didn't paint from sketches because while she was rather good at
sketching, she didn't enjoy it as much as painting. But then she
painted just as well from memory, so didn't need to do both.
Actually, she shouldn't really be surprised at what had taken form on
the canvas. Though she'd been trying to put him out
of her mind, he was still lurking there. So finding the basics of
Chad's face staring back at her from the easel merely had her shaking
her head in disgust at herself.
It was a good resemblance, though. She hadn't lost her talent through
lack of use. The eyes needed
work, not the shape, but the color. The
chin needed more definition so it would look stronger. The
skin tone
would have to be darker to reflect his deep tan. And she should
probably add his hat, tipped
low as he usually wore it. ...
What was she thinking? She wasn't going to finish a portrait of him.
She removed the canvas, set it behind the easel so she wouldn't have to
look at it, and replaced it with a fresh one. She'd have to be more
careful, at least until she could restock Kathleen's supplies.
There had only been four large canvases to work with, two medium-sized
ones, and one miniature, but Marian wasn't a slow painter. She could
finish a portrait in one sitting if she put her mind to it and was
careful, so the supplies wouldn't last her very long.
She decided on a different sort of portrait, while the memory was still
somewhat fresh, one that actually amused her to paint. It wouldn't
amuse Amanda, if she ever got a look at it.
She painted her memory of the train robbery, in particular, Amanda's
sitting down with her look of shock and gunpowder all over her face
just after she'd been shot at.
The passengers around them were a blur, had been a blur at the time, so
she left them that way. The two robbers who had marched down the aisle
were in the picture, the one who'd shot at Amanda more clearly defined.
Though she could only depict half of his face, since the other half had
been covered with his bandana, his eyes were rather distinct, more
golden in color than brown, and very round in shape.
She started smiling before she was even half done, her mood greatly
lightened. Though there hadn't
been anything amusing about that robbery
as it was happening, Amanda with her face blackened from
gun smoke and
shocked into silence, was priceless. Maybe she'd let Amanda have a look
at it when it
was finished, after all.
She grinned at the thought, but knew she wouldn't. Amanda would destroy
it, just like she'd destroyed
the last picture Marian had done of her
diat didn't show her at her best.
She was surprised when the light faded and she realized that it was
almost evening. But then she
always seemed to lose track of time when
she painted. The knock came at the door shortly thereafter.
"Dinner in fifteen minutes," she heard Rita call out.
She wasn't planning on going downstairs, not tonight anyway, but she
did want to catch her aunt to let
her know that, before Kathleen went
down. She retrieved her spectacles. While she was painting was
the only time she refused to wear them. Of course, she always painted
in
private, where she wouldn't
be interrupted, so it didn't really matter.
The second knock at the door came before she reached it. She assumed it
was Rita again, making sure she'd heard her, but Kathleen was standing
there when she opened it.
"I was told you started painting this afternoon," her aunt said. "May I
see your progress? Or do you
prefer to wait until you've finished each
piece before anyone views what you're working on?"
"I don't mind," Marian replied with a shy smile, and opened the door a
bit wider.
"Oh, my." Kathleens surprise was genuine as she approached the easel.
"Did she really get that close
to gunfire?"
"She was shot at when she wouldn't give up her purse without a fight."
"That was—rather brave of her."
Marian grinned at her aunt's pause. "No, it was about as stupid as she
can get, when there were four of them, all with drawn guns, and we had
no reasonable way to prevent the robbery. She's lucky he only tried to
scare her."
"Or he missed."
"That, too."
Kathleen had to cover her mouth to hide her own amusement over the
depiction of Amanda's surprise.
"You're very good. It looks just like her, despite the gunpowder."
"It's all right to laugh, now that the danger is over. Her expression
was quite funny."
Kathleen released her humor with a chuckle. "Still is. I'm impressed,
sweetie. Staring at this makes
me almost feel as if I were there
and—oh, my."
"What?"
"I just noticed, the robber, I think I know him. Goodness, he looks
just like John Bilks who used to
work at the general store in town. He
got fired when it was discovered that some money was missing from the
cash box. The owner wanted him arrested, but there was no proof that he
actually took the money. He moved on soon after—and has apparently
progressed to train robbing. I'll bet the sheriff would like to see
this painting."
"I'm pretty sure Amanda would object to that," Marian replied with a
grin.
Kathleen, squinting her eyes at the painting, said, "You think so?" and
they both chuckled. But then
she suggested, "Maybe a miniature then, of
just John Bilks? We can give it to the sheriff when we go
to town on
Saturday—and get you more canvases while we're there. You're obviously
a much faster painter than I ever was. Were there at least enough in my
old supplies to hold you over till then?"
"Yes, I—"
Marian didn't finish. Kathleen had moved to the side to look over the
material that had been dug out of storage—and caught sight of the
half-finished portrait of Chad still leaning against the back of the
easel.
"Oh, my," Kathleen exclaimed before turning to look at her. "Your
talent is simply amazing. And you
do this from memory, don't you? Yes,
you must. Incredible—and I'm glad you like him. Now, there's
no need to
blush about it. Any young girl your age would."
Marian looked down. "It's not that, it's—no one has ever complimented
me on my painting before. My father insisted I had no talent, that I
was only wasting my time—"
Kathleen cut in angrily, "Mortimer was a bastard, I'm sorry to say. If
he could say something like that,
I have no doubt it was because his
'favorite' had no talent in that area. She doesn't, does she?"
"No."
"As I thought. It probably infuriated him that you outshone her in
this. And you should have known better. Just look at this painting.
You've already captured the heart and breath of him, and it's not
even
finished."
"He does have an interesting face."
Kathleen burst out laughing. "Interesting, huh? I suppose you could put
it that way. Now come on, dinner's waiting. Let's get downstairs before
Consuela sends out the posse."
Marian didn't move. They'd been talking too long for her to claim she
had a headache as she'd planned
to do. But she wasn't about to sit down
to dinner with Chad, not tonight, not until she lost the urge to shoot
him on sight for the conclusion he'd drawn.
"You go ahead, Aunt Kathleen. I think I'm going to turn in early—"
"Oh, come on, you still have to eat. And it's just the two of us
tonight. Chad's already begged off. He ended up hanging around my
kitchen for quite a while this afternoon for some reason, and Consuela
stuffed him to the brim. She can't stand to have a man underfoot
without feeding him."
"Well, I suppose I could eat a few bites."
Chapter
31
CHAD SHOWED UP FOR dinner anyway. They were about halfway done when he
walked in, sat down, and asked what was for dessert. Kathleen teased
him a bit about his horses objecting to the
amount of food he was
putting away. They bantered back and forth, both laughing, moods light,
until he introduced a new topic.
"Is Amanda ill?"
"No, she'd just rather not join the rest of us," Kathleen replied.
"Don't tell me she still
needs resting up from the trip?" he asked.
"Possibly. She hasn't taken to the heat very well. You're used to it,
so you barely notice it, but—"
"I notice it. It just hasn't been that hot lately, at least not enough
to wilt the lady. So she's still pouting over being here?"
Kathleen coughed. Marian stared. To hear him call it on the mark, well,
it didn't quite make sense to
her, since he'd never spoken derisively
about Amanda before. But then she was forgetting that he
was probably
still angry with her sister because he thought she'd played one of her
tricks on him that morning.
She was amazing herself by how calm she'd remained ever since he walked
in. Bantering with
Kathleen, laughing, he'd behaved as if nothing out
of the ordinary had happened that morning—until
he mentioned Amanda.
Then his tone had changed abruptly.
Her own anger was still simmering beneath the surface. Not that she
still didn't want to shoot him.
Of course, she knew she was being
unfair. She'd known from the start that he'd wanted Amanda.
"I'm glad y'all didn't wait on me," Amanda said in the doorway, using a
thick, if poor imitation of a
Texas drawl. "And no, I haven't been
pouting, darlin," she added, staring at Chad as she fanned
herself
vigorously. "Goodness, you aren't still annoyed that our little tryst
in the stable got interrupted
this morning, are you?"
Marian sucked in her breath. How on earth had Amanda found out about
that? And why was she deliberately reinforcing Chad's conclusion that
it had been her that he'd made love to?
Chad was blushing profusely, with Kathleen now staring at him
wide-eyed. This was just the sort
of scene Amanda loved to create, but
for once it probably wasn't completely deliberate, or planned.
She'd obviously overheard his
less-than-flattering remarks about her and was now getting even with
him. She wouldn't have come right in, because it would have taken her a
few minutes to get her rage under control.
Marian was doing some blushing of her own. God, this meant Amanda had
overheard a lot more than
the table conversation just now. She had to
have been in the stable this morning. There was no other
way she could
know about what had happened there.
But she had no reason to be in the stable. She didn't like horses, and
she didn't know how to drive a carriage even if it had occurred to her
to escape with the one still on the premises. There was simply nothing
to draw her there—except Chad. She'd either seen him return to the
ranch and decided to
amuse herself with him for a while, to relieve her
boredom. Or—actually, it was more likely that she'd simply been
watching from her room when they were in the corral, saw Chad drag
Marian back inside
the stable, and was curious enough to come down to
investigate why—and found them making love,
and overheard what he'd
said.
She must have thought it hilarious, that he'd drawn the wrong
conclusion. She'd probably been laughing over it all day and plotting
how to make the best use of what she knew in order to hurt Marian. This
little scene wasn't for Chad's benefit. Amanda could care less what he
thought. He was merely a tool to use, and a perfect one, since Amanda
now knew that Marian wanted him for herself.
This was so typical of Amanda. She was getting to rub Marian's nose in
the fact that men always preferred her. She was also getting to
scandalize Kathleen, which was part of her current agenda. And
she
would let Chad know how little he mattered in the scheme of things. She
wasn't done showing
him the consequences of straying from the path of
worshiping her. No, Marian didn't doubt that at all.
She felt sick to her stomach. She might have wanted to shoot Chad
herself, but she wouldn't have
wished Amanda's vindictiveness on him.
And it was pointless for her to speak up with the truth.
Amanda would
call her a liar, so would Chad for that matter, since he'd been so sure
which woman
he'd made love to.
Amanda was only half-dressed. Marian hadn't noticed right off that her
sister was making yet another visual statement about the heat. She was
without her camisole and probably her bloomers, too, to go by the
slimness of her skirt. And her blouse was unbuttoned down the front
beyond decency. It was thin enough to show the shadow of her nipples
beneath it, not that the deep V of her blouse wasn't close to showing
them off even more. She'd probably come downstairs to shock them with
her attire, but with Chad there, she'd found better ammo to use. Marian
hoped Kathleen would realize this was just another performance
for her benefit, but a glance at her aunt showed she was only just
recovering from her
initial shock and was blushing again because of
Amanda's state of undress.
"We'll discuss your—activities, after you get dressed," Kathleen said
sternly.
Amanda raised a golden brow at her and leaned back lazily against the
doorframe. "I am dressed, as
much as I can tolerate in this heat.
Besides, a marriage blessing is all that's required of you, Aunt
Kathleen," she added with a tight little smile. "My behavior and the
way I dress don't fall under your sphere of influence, so don't think
you have anything to say about what I do. I'm only here because
there
is money involved."
"You're here because your father elected to make me your guardian."
"If you haven't noticed, I'm not a child who needs a guardian."
"Then you might want to stop acting like one. Or is this your way of
drawing my attention to the fact
that you've made your choice about
whom you want to marry?"
"Choice? You mean the cowboy here?" Amanda turned her gaze on Chad.
"You didn't have marriage
in mind this morning, now did you, darlin'?"
Chad was blushing again, probably because Kathleen was frowning at him.
"I can explain, Red. It was
a riding lesson
that got out of hand."
"A riding lesson?" Amanda smirked. "That's a rather crude way of
putting it."
Chad ignored the interruption, even though more color in his cheeks
said he'd heard it clearly. But it
was Kathleen he addressed, assuring
her, "I'll take full responsibility for my actions."
Kathleen sighed at that point. "I know you will, never doubted it for a
moment. I'm just sorry you
have to in this case."
Amanda had been about to decline any further involvement with Chad.
Marian was sure of it. She had
set up the scene for one of her nasty
set-downs, would want to punish Chad for straying from the path
of
worshiping only her, and he'd obliged her, had left himself wide open
to get his self-esteem demolished. But Kathleen's sympathy for him had
her changing her mind—for the moment.
Marian often wished she didn't know the way her sister's mind worked,
but she did. Amanda had just been given the means to prolong the
agony—for all of them. If Kathleen didn't really want Chad to
marry
Amanda, as her last remark suggested, then Amanda would suddenly find
it worth considering,
at least temporarily, until a better option
presented itself. Plus, she'd have the bonus of knowing it
would hurt
Marian the most.
Amanda yawned to show her boredom with the subject, even waved her hand
for emphasis, and said,
"I'll think about it."
"Appears you already did," Kathleen pointed out bluntly.
Amanda merely laughed and strolled toward the stairs. She'd done what
she set out to do and would
now go gloat over it in private.
The silence that remained at the table was painful. Marian couldn't
bear to be a part of it for long, and with a mumbled, "Excuse me," left
the room as well.
She got out right before the tears started. So silly of her to let one
of Amanda's scenes upset her. She should know better. Actually, this
time it wasn't really Amanda's fault. She'd just done what she always
did, stir the pot to boiling. What really bothered her was knowing that
Chad was a part of it this time,
and even further out of her reach than
ever.
Being shot would have been a kinder fate for him than ending up with
Amanda for a wife.
Chapter
32
CHAD FELT LIKE A child caught with his hand in the forbidden cookie
jar. His embarrassment was
still acute, even though it was now just him
and Red left in the dining room. But she was shaking her
head at him,
wearing a look that said "you disappoint me, boy." And he couldn't
blame her. It was her niece he'd trifled with. That was a clear
betrayal of trust.
He'd yet to examine the full ramifications of what had just happened
and was still somewhat in shock.
He was going to have to marry—the
wrong woman. How the hell could he have been so wrong?
"You should have gotten to know her better, before you—decided to marry
her."
The disappointment was still strong in Red's tone. Chad nodded. "Don't
be surprised if I agree with
you one hundred percent."
"Then why didn't you wait before doing something so irreversible?"
"I'm not sure I had much choice in the matter. Oh, I could have got the
hell out of there, but, I'm beginning to feel set up, as if she planned
the whole thing."
"Then it wasn't your idea to make a bed in the hay with her?"
He'd thought he was done with blushing, but his cheeks started to heat
up again. "It certainly wasn't
the reason I came back here this
morning. I found her in the stable, started the riding lesson you asked
me to—"
"Wait a minute, I didn't ask you to teach her to ride," Kathleen cut in.
"That's just it, it wasn't Amanda, well, it was, obviously, but she'd
made herself up to look just like Marian. And she was acting just like
Marian. She was even willing to learn to ride, when I know she doesn't
like horses—which probably was what convinced me the woman I was
dealing with was
Marian. So I guess my eyesight as well as my good
sense went to hell."
"Well, they are twins. I suppose it would be easy enough for one to
masquerade as the other and
pull it off," Kathleen conceded.
His lips twisted sourly. "The thing is, I was damn sure it was Marian
in the stable this morning. There might have been a brief moment when I
had some doubt. Her boldness threw me off, and I asked if
she were
Amanda."
"I take it she didn't confirm or deny it?"
"No, she got mad about it actually. I thought it was because I called
her Amanda, but it was probably because I saw through her ploy for a
moment."
Kathleen sighed. "So you did seduce the right sister; at least, you
thought you did."
"Red, I don't hide from my own mistakes, but I have to tell you, I
didn't do the seducing. She was like
a cat in heat, giving off all the
signs that she wanted me. Considering what I thought, I didn't try very
hard to resist. I'll admit that. And I'm not denying responsibility,
either. I could have dredged up enough willpower to get the hell out of
there. I didn't. But I didn't start it."
"This makes it much worse, you know."
"You don't know the half of it. I don't even like Amanda. I ignored all
her bad traits, chalked them up to the trip, was sure once she settled
in here that she'd be a lot different. I was attracted to her, yes,
very much so. She is damn beautiful, after all. But I was holding off
letting her know that until she got here, since her attitude on the
trip was entirely too bratty for my tastes. I really thought she'd
change though, not get worse."
"I hate to say this, since she is my niece, but from all accounts, what
you've seen so far isn't going to improve any. My brother spoiled her
beyond redemption."
"But not Marian?"
"No, Amanda was his favorite," Kathleen said. "Marian he ignored
completely."
"Is that why she tries to go through life unnoticed? From habit?"
"No, I think it has to do with Amanda's being jealous of her. She
started to explain it to me, but we
got sidetracked, talking about my
brother."
Chad frowned in thought. "Come to think of it, I may have gotten the
explanation the night before we
got here. I had to drag it out of her,
and then I plain out didn't buy it, considering she's about as
spinsterish in her looks as she can be."
"You gonna tell me why Marian goes to such lengths to avoid her
sister's jealousy?"
He snorted over Kathleens impatience. "I was getting to it. It was her
contention that Amanda could
get so jealous, that if she thought Marian
fancied a man, she'd turn on the charm and try to steal him away from
her, just for spite."
"Just for spite? You mean not to keep?"
Chad went very still, then swore, "Son of a bitch. You think that could
be what this morning was all about?"
"Was she a virgin?"
Once again, he blushed. "Yes."
"Then no, I can't see her going to that length just for spite."
"What about her behavior tonight? She didn't exactly give the
impression that she wants to marry me.
It does kind of
fit, Red."
Kathleen shook her head at him. "If she'd already lost her innocence
somewhere else, I might agree.
But she could have accomplished the
objective of redirecting your affections to herself without going
to
that extreme. And besides, she was pretending to be Marian. If she
wanted to charm you, she'd do
it as herself."
He sighed, conceding, "I suppose, which puts me back to 'not getting
it.' I mean, she doesn't even like me."
"You sure about that?"
"Well, aside from her performance this morning of being overwhelmed
with desire, yes, I'm reasonably sure."
"Women aren't always obvious about their feelings," Kathleen remarked.
"I know, but when the predominant emotion you usually sense from a
woman is disgust, you don't
need to be knocked over to get a clue."
"Then I'd go with my first guess."
"Which is?"
"She's decided to use you to get her inheritance," she replied.
"But wouldn't your own contention hold true in that case as well? That
she wouldn't go to such lengths, would try to charm me instead?"
"I'd say yes, except I know that her only goal at the moment is to go
home, with or without a husband,
in the latter case,
with my blessing to marry whomever she wants. Now, I'm not about to
give her permission to do that, and maybe she's dredged up enough sense
to realize that by now. But it's more likely just pure impatience on
her part. She knows I'd. approve of you to marry her. She can't say the
same about any other man she's met out here yet. So marrying you would
be her quickest ticket home, and seducing you just guaranteed it."
He scowled. "Marrying me isn't going to get her a trip anywhere."
"Well, I know that," Kathleen assured him. "And you know that, but I've
been warned that Amanda doesn't take too kindly to 'no.' If she can't
cajole what she wants, she'll more than likely resort to
other, less
pleasant tactics."
"Like nagging me to death?" Chad mumbled.
Kathleen nodded with a wince. "Or sullying your good name. I wouldn't
put that past her, after
witnessing her shocking attire tonight."
"There's no way out of this, is there?"
"For a decent man like you? No."
He nodded, stood up to leave. "So when does my sentence in purgatory
begin?"
"Your pa's big barbecue is this Saturday. Just got the word about it
today. I'll check with the preacher then to see when he can be
available, or stop by to see him in town on the way back here on
Sunday. You'll want to let your pa know
about it, too."
"Oh, God."
"I'm sorry, Chad, I really am."
"Not half as much as I am."
Chapter
33
CHAD COULDN'T SLEEP. HE wasn't surprised. He wanted a drink badly, but
Red didn't keep any
hard stuff on the property. He wished she didn't
live so far from town. He wished he didn't need a
drink. Actually, if
he could have a wish granted, it would be to turn back the clock and
relive the day.
Someone else couldn't sleep either. He stood by the bunkhouse door and
stared up at the main house, wondering whose room still had a light
burning in it. And although he watched for a very long time, no one
came to the window to give him a clue.
The sick feeling in the pit of his stomach wouldn't go away. Trapped.
He'd been used. He knew it, but knowing it wasn't going to dig him out
of the pit he was in. Despite the fact that Amanda didn't really want
him, despite the fact that he'd thought he'd made love to someone else,
the trapdoor was still
slamming shut on him. Because she'd been a virgin. Because whether he
liked it or not, he'd taken
her virginity from her and he wasn't the
kind of man who could just ignore it.
Spencer Evans was, that bastard. He'd done it before, would do it
again. He had no morals worth mentioning, could care less if anyone got
hurt in his pursuit of pleasure. It's too bad Amanda hadn't
set the
trap for him instead—not that it would have gotten her married.
Chad gave up the notion of getting any sleep that night, and, just past
midnight, he jotted off a quick
note for Lonny with instructions for
the next couple days, then rode out to get that drink he was hankering
for. He had to pay a visit to his father anyway, to give him the bad
news—another reason
why he'd like to get thoroughly drunk first.
The moon obliged him. A big one was out that lit up the countryside in
a soft gray. Not that it mattered, since he was still pretty much
riding blind, his thoughts—and regrets—too distracting to keep his mind
on the trail for the most part. He had a smart horse, though, which got
him into town around four in the morning.
Not Here didn't stay open all night, but O'Mallys Saloon never closed
its doors, whether it did any business or not. Not that Chad would
consider frequenting Spencers place even if it was the only place open.
The last two customers were just staggering out of O'Mally's when he
arrived. Archie the bartender
went back to reading a dime novel after
he shoved a bottle and glass in Chad's direction.
Harry Sue was the only saloon gal up for the night shift, so nicknamed
because of the abundance of
dark hair that grew on her legs and
couldn't be hidden by the knee-high saloon outfit she was forced to
work in. Not that a man wouldn't admire her shapely legs. A pretty girl
despite that, she was quick to offer him any service he might require,
but left him alone when he declined.
He should have been thoroughly sloshed by dawn, had certainly worked at
it, but it was taking longer
than usual—or Archie had passed him a
watered-down bottle. Harry Sue had lingered nearby, just in
case he
changed his mind about getting a better look at her room upstairs, but
she was sleeping at one
of the tables now since he hadn't offered
conversation or anything else to keep her awake.
Her replacement would probably be showing up soon, and some of the
townsfolk soon after, since O'Mally's actually served coffee from dawn
till noon, though at the same price as the cheapest rotgut. Chad would
really rather not be found there by anyone he knew, but he wasn't
leaving until the drink
did its work and he could stop thinking.
But as if his luck hadn't turned rotten enough, Spencer Evans pushed
through the swinging doors along with the sunrise.
To find out what Chad was doing there, no doubt. He knew he should have
stabled his horse instead of just removing the saddle and leaving him
tied up out front where it might be recognized, but he really hadn't
thought he'd still be there come daylight.
Archie perked up at the sight of Spencer. He looked worried, but held
his tongue. Most business owners in town tried to get the two rivals to
leave their premises before the fists started flying, but Archie didn't
own O'Mally's, so he wasn't that concerned about a brawl there.
It was still a ridiculously early hour for Spencer to be up and about,
night owl that he was. Chad
wouldn't be surprised if Spence hadn't
promised half the town a buck or two to let him know whenever Chad
showed up. He did stem to make an appearance far too often, no matter
which establishment
Chad entered.
But Spencer made no pretense of just happening to pass by diis time. He
leaned against the bar next
to Chad, tipped his hat back, and asked
straight out, "What are you doing here?"
Chad didn't answer, didn't even glance his way. Spencer mumbled
something under his breath.
Louder, Spencer said, "I'd as soon not be having this conversation
either, but I'm not going to
pretend indifference where this particular lady is concerned. Are you
finally out of
there? On your
way home? Can I stop worrying about you trying to court
her while I'm not around?"
"Go away, Spencer."
"This is a public place."
"So go get public in some other part of it."
"You always were amusing after a few drinks. You got turned down,
didn't you? I knew she wouldn't find you to her taste," Spencer
smirked. "Drowning a broken heart then, are you?"
Chad finally glanced at his nemesis. It was too ironic by half, that
he'd finally beaten Spencer to the
prize, only for it to be one he
didn't want. And Spencer had never been this obvious before either,
that
he wanted the same woman. He always tried to hide his interest.
Sneaking about to win was his style,
for the shock effect—hell, they
were very alike, Spencer and Amanda. He couldn't think of two people
who deserved each other more. It was too bad she hadn't figured that
out before she plotted to ruin his life instead.
Ordinarily, Chad would have thrown it in Spencer's face, that he'd won.
Not that he usually won when
it came to women they were both competing
over. Spencer was better at making promises that he had
no intention of
keeping. But Chad would have liked to throw it in his face for once.
Tit for tat, it was exactly what Spencer would have done.
But considering what he'd won, he didn't feel like a winner at all. He
and Spencer were both going to
lose this time around, and he didn't
feel like discussing why, when his only reason for being there was
to
drink enough so he could wipe it from his mind.
So he said only, "I repeat, Spence, go away."
"Give me a straight answer and I will. She's still available, right?"
"Marian is."
"Who the hell is Marian?"
Chad rolled his eyes, though he wasn't surprised at all that Spencer
didn't recognize the name. He'd had eyes only for Amanda since he'd
first seen her. He might not even know she had a sister, might have
missed that entirely, he'd been so centered on Amanda when
introductions were made. But if he'd
noticed Marian at all, he would
have likely gotten to the same first impression that Chad had.
So he merely replied, "The spinster."
Spencer snorted. "Like I'd give a hoot about her. Now are you
deliberately trying to provoke me in not telling me what I need to
know, or do you just like my company?"
Chad wasn't inclined to tell him, since it was bound to start a fight
between them. Not that he wouldn't welcome a fight, but he hadn't
counted on one as he hadn't expected to see Spencer during this trip to
town. And fighting when he was half-drunk and Spencer wasn't would be
rather stupid. But Spencer
was going to hear about the
wedding in a couple days anyway, when Red had her talk with the
preacher. So there really was no reason to keep silent about it.
"I'll tell you what," he offered magnanimously. "Get yourself a bottle
of liquor and drink it down to this point." He held up his own bottle
to show there was only a quarter bottle of whiskey left in it. "And
then I'll consider discussing my woes with you."
"Woes, huh?" Spencer chuckled, visibly relaxed. "I guess that was
answer enough for me. I'll leave
you to continue drowning your sorrows
alone."
Spencer was halfway to the door when he probably heard Chad mumble,
"Just as well."
He stopped, frowned, appeared to spend a few moments debating with
himself. Then with an angry gesture, he marched back to the bar,
growled at Archie, "Give me a bottle of the same swill, and if
you ever
tell anyone I drank some of O'Mally s inferior rotgut, I'll run your
ass out of town so fast,
you won't be able to keep up with it."
Chad just watched with partial interest as Spencer proceeded to guzzle
down the bottle Archie tossed
at him. He stopped to check it once,
sighed that it was only half-empty, guzzled down some more,
then set it
down next to Chad's bottle to measure it, growled that he still had an
inch to go, and quickly finished off the inch.
"Now, you son of a bitch, let's hear it," he snarled when he was done.
"I'm impressed," Chad remarked. "And you still have a voice?"
"Do I have to beat it out of you?"
"Seeing as how we both know that wouldn't work, I guess it's your lucky
day that I'll hold up my end
of the bargain—or not so lucky. You're not
going to like what's happened, any more than I do, but the whole town
doesn't need to hear about it, so let's take it outside."
Archie sighed, clearly disappointed that he was going to be excluded,
but went back to reading his novel as they left O'Mallys. Chad moved
out into the middle of the street. He didn't want any eavesdropping
in
case he ended up saying more than he should due to the liquor.
Spencer grabbed his arm impatiendy. "That's far enough. Now tell me."
Chad nodded. "I don't know if you know about the inheritance Amanda
can't get her hands on until
she marries."
"I believe it was mentioned."
"Well, she wasn't willing to wait for it, at least not long enough to
enjoy a normal courtship."
"If you tell me she asked you to marry her, I think I'll kill you."
"No, she didn't ask."
"Damn lucky for you she didn't."
"She tricked me into making love to her, and that pretty much settled
the matter in Red's mind."
It was the liquor that delayed Spencer's reaction. For all of five
seconds he just stared, which gave
Chad enough time to get out of the
way of the first swing. But Spencer was too enraged to take a
chance
that he might miss again and tackled Chad to the ground. In a prone
position, the liquor
caught up with Chad real quick, and his head began
to spin.
"Watch it, before I puke all over you," he managed to get out.
Spencer leapt off him, and snarled, "I'm calling you out. High noon."
"I'll be sleeping at noon, and don't be an ass," Chad said as he
carefully got back to his feet. "Would I have been 'drowning my
sorrows' as you put it, if I wanted her? I don't. I told you she
tricked me."
"Liar! How could you not want her?"
"Maybe because I've been around her a lot more'n you have and have seen
her at her worst. She's beautiful, yes, but that doesn't make up for
the rest. Cut out her tongue, and she might be bearable."
"That isn't funny."
"Wasn't meant to be," Chad replied. "She's a spoiled brat, Spencer,
seriously spoiled. And you're
more'n welcome to her, if you can manage
to get her to marry you before I get dragged to the altar."
Spencer stopped snarling for a moment, and demanded, "You mean it?"
Chad nodded, then wished he hadn't. The spinning wasn't quite over.
"Red's going to talk to the preacher this weekend, either at my pa's
barbecue on Saturday, or before
she returns to the ranch the next day,"
he warned. "So that doesn't give you much time. Yes, I mean it. You'd
actually have my eternal gratitude if you can pull it off."
Chapter
34
MARIAN AWOKE GROGGY-EYED AND Still fully dressed, right down to her
shoes. She supposed she'd gotten some sleep, but probably not much. She
hadn't glanced at the clock before she'd shoved
her latest painting
under the bed, then curled up in a ball on top of the covers.
She'd never painted by lamplight before, but then she'd never painted
with tears in her eyes before either. She wasn't happy with the result,
Chad, lying on a pile of hay, unbuttoning his shirt, his expression so
sensual, there was no doubt what was on his mind—or what he was about
to do.
It was an image she would never forget, even if she hadn't put it on
canvas. The details were exact, right down to the brown stain on one of
his sleeves and the small half-moon scar above his navel. It looked
so
much like him, she couldn't look at it for long without getting
butterflies in her belly. But it wasn't a painting she could ever share
with anyone, so it would stay under the bed.
She should destroy it, but she couldn't bring herself to do that. She
would have to roll it up after it dried completely and hide it away
where Rita and Ella Mae wouldn't find it when they cleaned.
She was still sitting on the bed thinking about it when her door opened
without warning. Amanda was
the only one who ever barged in on her
without knocking, and sure enough, her sister stood there,
leaning
against the doorframe. She was only half-dressed again, though today
with a skirt and just her
lacy white camisole. She still carried a fan,
though she wasn't using it at the moment.
As expected, she was smiling smugly. Actually, because it contained not
only triumph and laughter,
but hidden knowledge as well, her smile was
much more smug than usual.
"What do you want, Mandy?"
"Oh, nothing in particular," Amanda replied, twirling the fan about by
its wrist tie.
"Then close the door on your way out, thank you."
"What? No congratulations? You are going to come to the wedding, aren't
you?"
Amanda was all but laughing. Marian wondered how her sister managed to
restrain herself. Probably because she wanted to lead up to something
she'd find even more humorous.
Since Marian was dressed and the bed was made up, with just a wrinkle
or two on the cover, Amanda wouldn't guess she'd only just awakened,
which would have been proof she'd spent a miserable night. Suspecting
that Amanda was out for more blood brought her wide-awake though. She
decided to put
a dent in her sisters gloating before it went into full
steam.
"I wouldn't miss your wedding, Mandy. I've only been waiting several
years for you to get around
to having one, so I can get about the
business of leading a normal life myself—with you out of it."
"You promise not to cry too loudly when I walk down the aisle to
meet—him?"
"Well, considering he's all but got a shotgun trained to the back of
his head, tears would probably be inappropriate. Not that you can
really consider someone to be forced into doing something if he would
have gotten around to doing it on his own anyway. Merely a difference
in timing. So yes, I think I can restrain myself."
It was the casual tone Marian had managed to muster that brought the
twist of annoyance to Amanda's lips. "Don't try to pretend you don't
care."
"Now there's another interesting difference in timing. Yesterday
morning, I probably would have cared. This morning, no, I'm afraid not."
"Liar! You know you want him. You would never have become a stable
trollop otherwise."
Amanda's crudeness managed to draw a blush. "Look who's talking, you of
the half dozen or more
sordid conquests. But at least you won't have to
put any fake blood on the sheets now, since your husband has actually
been fooled into thinking he was the first to touch you. Bravo, sister,
that was
rather brilliant, even for you."
The blush changed sides. "That's not why I did it. As if I'd care what
my husband thinks," Amanda scoffed indignantly. "The man I marry will
be grateful I marry him, virgin or not."
"A moot point, since the him has already been decided," Marian said.
"Yes, it has, hasn't it."
Amanda was back to smirking. This was such a major triumph for her, not
acquiring a husband quickly, without having to waste time on courtship,
but acquiring the husband that Marian had wanted for
herself. This was
"getting even" in the grandest way, for every little slight,
resentment, and jealousy
she held against Marian.
She'd probably even go through with it, since it would get her what she
wanted. And if Chad couldn't be cajoled or nagged into taking her home,
she'd find a way to get there on her own. He might come after her.
Actually, he probably would, since he did want her after all. But after
a half dozen or so times of being put to the bother of chasing her
down, he'd give up and she'd have exactly what she was ultimately
after—her inheritance and no
one to answer to.
Marian left the bed, moved over to the door to grasp the handle, an
indication that she was going to
close it whether Amanda stood in the
way or not. Unfortunately, Amanda quickly got out of the way,
by
stepping inside the room rather than out in the hallway.
"Take your gloating elsewhere, Mandy, I'm really not interested."
Amanda began fanning herself, despite a nice breeze coming in through
the open windows, and strolled lazily about the room. "I'm curious,"
she said, completely ignoring the offer to leave. "Why didn't you speak
up last night with the truth? Too noble to force him to the altar
yourself?"
"No, because I have a little more respect for myself than you do, to
want—"
"I have the utmost respect for myself," Amanda cut in. "It's you who
doesn't—or you wouldn't make yourself look like an ugly old maid."
The blush was back, but it was an angry one this time. "You know what,
Mandy, you're absolutely
right," Marian agreed with her.
She yanked off her spectacles, held them up in front of her with both
hands, and snapped them in
two, then tossed them aside. She removed the
hairpins while she was at it and shook her hair loose.
Amanda hadn't expected her goading to draw such results. She stood
there a little in shock for a moment, staring at her
own reflection. "You know you won't reveal yourself completely," she
said hesitantly, a bit hopefully. "You've worn that disguise too long."
"Too long is right. And thanks for reminding me that I don't need it
anymore. You've got your husband lined up. I think it's pretty safe for
me to start looking for one now, wouldn't you say?"
"No, I wouldn't," Amanda huffed. "And don't think I don't know what
you're up to. You're going to
try to win him back, but it won't work,
not unless you tell him the truth—and why the hell didn't you?"
"Because he wouldn't have believed me. You heard him there in the
stable. He thought it was you all along. He wanted it to be you. And
when he's done being annoyed over the 'supposed' deception, he'll
be thrilled that he's getting the woman he's wanted from the start."
"Yes, he will, won't he," Amanda purred, letting her conceit surface
again. "He won't even mind that
I lied. He'll probably be glad that I
did—if he ever finds out. It's too bad you wanted him, too."
"Yes, it is, but at least I realized my mistake before it's too late. I
can actually thank you for getting
me out of that mess. Believe me, I
never thought I'd say that."
Amanda blinked, frowned, then demanded, "What are you talking about
now? What mess?"
"The one created by my mistake. I was foolish enough to think he might
like me. I didn't know he was sure it was you
he was making love to. If you hadn't lied about it, I would have been
stuck with him."
"Dammit, Mari, when did you get the idea that I was stupid? I know what
you're doing, but it won't work. You liked him enough to let him have
you there in the stable. Don't try to pretend you don't now."
"I liked him, yes, but I wouldn't have let him 'have' me, as you put
it, if I hadn't gotten carried away by my first taste of passion. I
would have wanted to be sure of his feelings first, and now that I am
sure of them, I wouldn't marry him even if for some reason you don't."
"I don't believe you."
"I could care less."
Amanda's lips thinned, a sign that she was no longer sure of her
evaluation. Marian tossed in the clincher.
"You know, Mandy, I hate to say it, but in this we're very much alike."
Amanda snorted. "Like hell we are."
"I know, I find it hard to believe, too." Marian grinned. "But what
you're overlooking is that I'm not willing to be any man's second
choice any more than you are. Now will you get out? I have my entire
wardrobe to go through, to see if anything is salvageable for the 'new'
me. Or maybe you wouldn't
mind lending me a few of your dresses until I
can find a seamstress in town? You haven't exactly
been wearing your
clothes lately, so I'm sure you won't miss them!"
Chapter 35
AMANDA SLAMMED THE DOOR as she departed. Marian was surprised to find
that she felt like smiling. If she'd learned anything from her sister
over the years, it was how to put on a good performance, and she'd just
given one worthy of a professional. But the question was, had it
worked?
Not that it would really change anything, other than to save
her from more of Amanda's gloating.
Amanda still wanted a husband, the sooner the better in her mind.
Marian had only removed one of
the reasons for her to accept Chad in
that role. The other reasons still applied, that he was willing,
that
Kathleen approved of him, that the wedding would take place soon. If no
one else caught her
eye or interest before the date Kathleen set for
the wedding, then Amanda would marry him.
Marian picked up her broken spectacles from the floor. She stared at
them for a long moment. She
could replace them.
She did have another pair. But what was the point? It wasn't as if they
were back home in Haverhill, where men would be calling on Amanda
every day, and some of them might prefer
her instead.
She really did need a new wardrobe though. She'd chosen the drab colors
not because she favored
them, but because they furthered her
"invisibility." But she was done with that charade. And if
Amanda felt
threatened by having competition again—too bad.
She removed the dress she'd slept in, found a white blouse that was at
least neutral in color. As for
a skirt—she noticed the riding skirt
she'd borrowed from her aunt, the one she'd been wearing
yesterday
morning. . .
She wasn't going to cry again. She was going to have to stop mourning
her loss eventually, and she
might as well start now.
She still had to learn how to ride, but she wasn't about to let him
finish the lesson for her. Besides, she
at least knew the basics now of
getting a horse ready to ride, which had probably been the hardest
part. How difficult could getting on a horse and staying on it be, when
just about everyone in this part of the country rode one? She was
determined to teach herself the rest.
She donned the riding skirt and headed out of her room. Ella Mae picked
that moment to show up,
and with only a brief knock first, the maid stuck her head around the
door.
"Hell yes!" she said, quickly grasping that the change in Marian's
appearance was deliberate.
" 'Bout damn time."
Marian managed not to blush. "All my reasons to hide are gone."
"I heard," Ella Mae said, her voice tinged with disgust. "She couldn't
stop crowing about it last night
when I collected her clothes for
washing." And then hesitandy, "Want to talk about it?"
"No."
"Didn't think so. When you feel like it though, you know where to find
me. Want me to fix up your
hair, or are you just going to wear it wild
like that?"
"I feel like wearing it wild, but I suppose that would be going a bit
too far in the opposite direction."
"It will take a little cutting on the bangs," Ella Mae warned. "Not
much. You'll still be able to pin them back like she does when needed."
Marian nodded. "Just don't give me exactly the style that she prefers.
All those ringlets are much too
frilly for my tastes."
It didn't take Ella Mae long. She was very good at creating hairstyles
that were not necessarily in high fashion, but very becoming to the
individual. And she compromised by not pinning Marian's long locks
up
again but tieing them back with a bright blue ribbon.
As for the bangs, she only needed to snip a few, since they were
already trained to lean toward the
sides. The result was a little
fluff, a few curls near her temples, and a whole new look.
"I'd go pay her a visit now to show off," Ella Mae suggested. "But
that's just me. You're too nice to
play her game."
Marian grinned. The two of them never needed to clarify who she was.
"She's not going anywhere, and besides, she already knows I'm done with
hiding. Right now, I have
an appointment with a horse."
She expected the stable to be empty again. The cowboy who tended to the
horses might be back to
work, but if he was still sick, he should be
spending most of the day resting. But she still hadn't
glanced at a
clock before heading there, so she wasn't sure what time of the day it
was. Somewhere around noon, to go by the position of the sun.
She saw that Kathleen had ridden in for lunch, or for the day. She had
put her horse in a stall, an indication she wouldn't be using him
again. She was just closing it when she heard Marian approaching and
glanced her way.
"Surprised to see you out here," Kathleen remarked, her tone a bit
stiff. "But at least you're properly dressed this time."
"I'm Marian."
"Sure you are," Kathleen snorted.
Marian winced. She hadn't expected this. It had been a really long time
since she'd had to convince anyone which sister she was.
She'd forgotten how vexing it could be, too, if she couldn't think of
something specifically known just
to her and the other person that she
could offer as proof that she was indeed Marian. She'd been in
that
frustrating position many times with people angrily insisting that she
was Amanda. Fortunately,
she'd had several private conversations with
her aunt from which she could draw proof.
She mentioned one now. "When you lent me this skirt, you told me to
ignore any ribbing from the cowboys about it, that they jokingly called
it female chaps. I'm pretty sure we were quite alone when
you said it."
Kathleen visibly relaxed. "Yes, and so far on the other side of the
room from the door that day, that if anyone had been trying to listen
through it, they wouldn't have been able to hear anything. So it is
you. What an amazing difference!"
"You might want to whisper a word or number to me now, just to make
sure you aren't left in doubt again."
"No more spectacles?"
"I never intended to wear them after Amanda got married, and she's just
about. . . married."
She hadn't meant to introduce that particular subject. Fortunately,
Kathleen merely said, "Yes, she is," and left it at
that.
To quickly get her aunt's mind on something else, Marian asked, "How
are we going to get to town
when we go? I haven't learned to ride yet."
"If I go by myself, I typically ride in on a Saturday, get my shopping
done, spend the night, go to
church on Sunday, do a little visiting,
then head back home before noon. But with you girls not being
able to
ride, we'll be on the road a lot longer. I've got an old wagon I use to
haul supplies that we would have had to make use of, but since Spencer
hasn't bothered to send anyone out to fetch his carriage,
we might as
well use that this trip. But plans have changed a bit."
"Oh?"
"Stuart is spreading the word already. He's picked this Saturday for
his barbecue. I expect most the
town will show up for it. So we'll be
heading for the Kinkaid spread first, then stop off in town Sunday
on
the way back. We'll still have to leave at the crack of dawn Saturday
morning, and probably won't arrive until late afternoon. But Stuarts
parties typically last well into the night."
"I know it's a bother. And I will learn to ride before any more trips
like this. In fact"—she grinned—"that's why I'm here."
Kathleen frowned. "Chad's not around to teach you right now. He rode
over to see his father. Probably be gone a couple days. Actually, I
don't expect him to return
before we leave for the barbecue. But
since I'm back for the day, why
don't we tackle this ourselves?"
Marian nodded, relieved. She'd been ready to teach herself, but the
prospect had been daunting.
Aside from giving her instructions on handling a horse and riding,
Kathleen was quiet, even somewhat distracted. Marian wasn't surprised.
Kathleen had a lot on her mind, and most of it probably had to do with
Chad and Amanda.
During the lesson, Marian debated with herself whether to try to tell
her aunt the truth. Kathleen would probably believe her, but then
again, maybe she wouldn't. She'd told her a lot of outlandish things
already about Amanda. Her latest stunt might just be a bit too much to
swallow on top of everything else. And besides, with Chad convinced
he'd made love to Amanda, he'd object, probably flatly refuse, if
Kathleen tried to insist he marry Marian instead. Not that she'd want a
man who was forced to marry her—not
that she wanted Chad anymore at all.
She still thought she should make the effort though, not to do Chad any
favors, but because he was getting the raw deal, and it was ultimately
her fault. She could have stopped what had happened that
day in the
stable, but she didn't. And he might be pleased that he was getting
Amanda at the moment,
but he wouldn't be once they were married and she started insisting he
take her home to
Haverhill.
It'd be the right thing to do, whether anyone believed her or not. She
just needed to make Kathleen understand that she wouldn't marry Chad,
that it wouldn't be fair to him, when he'd thought he'd
made love to
someone else. The mistake was hers, she'd live with the consequences.
God, what an embarrassing subject to have to discuss with her aunt. At
least there was no immediate hurry. She could take a few days to
consider how best to approach it. Maybe after the barbecue. And maybe
she'd get lucky and Amanda would find someone at the party who would
suit her better than
Chad and she'd have to do some confessing of her
own.
Having been just as distracted as Kathleen with unwanted thoughts,
Marian was quite surprised to find herself sitting on the mare, reins
in hand, and her aunt telling her, "Okay, time for the test. Let's go
for
a ride."
Chapter
36
THE POUNDING ON HIS door woke Chad. The shadows in the hotel room
indicated the sun had recendy set, but it wasn't quite night. He rolled
out of the bed fully dressed. He'd been in no condition
to think about
getting comfortable when he'd crawled into it.
The pounding hadn't stopped, even though he'd mumbled, "I'm coming."
He had a feeling he knew who was on the other side, almost recognized
the knock, which is why he yanked the door open angrily. He was right.
"Hell, can I do nothing in this town without you hearing about it?"
"Not much." His father chuckled as he sauntered into the room.
Chad closed the door behind him and ran a hand over his face, trying to
shake off his grogginess. That
was a mistake. Pain shot right through his temples, reminding him why
he'd come to town.
"You don't look so good," Stuart remarked as he got comfortable in the
only chair.
"Had a bit too much to drink."
"I heard. I'm waiting to hear the rest. And why aren't you staying at
our place? I don't keep that house staffed here in town just for looks."
"I needed a good view of the street, and the hotel offers it."
"For what? Something else I don't know about, besides why you're here?"
"You gonna let me wake up some before badgering me to death?"
"I suppose." Stuart sighed.
Chad moved to the window. It was dusk outside, barely any gray left in
the sky. A light was on in the stable down the street where Spencer
lodged his horse. The horse hadn't left the stable that day.
He'd really hoped, after his talk with Spencer, that he wouldn't have
to let his father know what a damn fool he was. But he should have
known someone would send word to Stuart that he was in town and trying
to drink himself into a stupor. And Spencer didn't head out to the
Twisting Barb as he'd thought
he would. He could have decided to wait
until the barbecue and woo Amanda there. Or he could have decided he
didn't want her now, after what Chad had told him. That was a distinct
possibility.
With Stuart here and already full of questions, there was no point in
beating about the bush. Chad
stated bluntly, "I'm getting married."
"The nag?" Stuart guessed and sighed his displeasure. "So you came to
town to celebrate? That's
what the drinking was about?"
Chad shook his head with a grimace. "Not even close. I'm not exactly
happy about this."
"You aren't?" Stuart said in confusion, then grinned in relief,
assuming, "Ah, so you came to your
senses before it's too late? Just
beg off then. She might understand, and if she don't, too bad. It ain't
as if she won't have most every man in the county sniffing after—"
"I can't beg off, Pa. As it stands right now, I have to marry her."
Stuart sat up, his expression gone to pure annoyance. "Have to? What'd
you do?"
"Got real stupid."
"I already figured that, but how come you think so? Thought you were
interested in her."
"I was—when I still thought the things I didn't like about her were
just related to the trip out here.
But she didn't change when she
settled in, she got worse. She's a conniving, manipulative bitch."
"And a nag."
"That, too."
"So what happened to make you see the light?" Stuart asked.
"She decided to use me to get her inheritance. Since she was already
sure Red would approve of me,
I presented the quickest means to her
goal."
Stuart growled, "If you tell me she asked you to marry her and you
jumped on it, I just might take
a strap to you for being that dumb."
Chad snorted. "No. I wish she could have been that straightforward, but
I did mention conniving,
didn't I? She tricked me into making love to
her, then made sure to let Red know about it."
"I was afraid of that." Stuart sighed again, then added, "You can stop
being so hard on yourself, boy. Getting seduced by a gal that pretty
could have happened to the best of us, I suppose."
"You still haven't heard the clincher."
"There's more?"
Chad nodded. "You probably didn't notice—it took me a while to pick up
on it myself—but they're
twins, those sisters."
"No."
"Yes. And it was Marian I thought I was making love to. Amanda did
herself up to look just like her, pretended to be her. And she pulled
it off perfectly. I never guessed, really thought it was Marian—
right
up until dinner last night when Amanda came down to tell Red about it."
Stuart shot to his feet angrily. "Now that stinks. Red wouldn't hold
you accountable if she heard the whole of it. Just get back there and
tell—"
"Amanda was a virgin, Pa."
"Son of a bitch!"
"My thoughts exactly. But I have a glimmer of hope now. If I'm lucky,
real lucky, Spencer is going
to get me out of this."
"Now why didn't you say that to begin with? You and him friends again?"
"Hell no."
"Fighting over the same women again then?" Stuart guessed next.
"There's no fight," Chad said. "He's dumb enough to want her. I don't."
Stuart frowned. "But how's that going to help? The damage is done."
"Yes, but he knows about it and still wants her," Chad replied. "He
showed up this morning in O'Mallys, wouldn't leave me alone till I told
him why I was here. If I'd been a bit more sober, I probably would have
kept it to myself. With luck, I'll be glad I didn't."
"But ain't Red insisting the girl marry you?" Stuart pointed out.
"Red is no more happy about this than I am. If Spencer can convince
Amanda to marry him instead,
I think Red will give her blessing on it.
She knows I was tricked."
"Damn, that's a relief." Stuart finally grinned. "Thought I was going
to have to order lumber for you,
to build your own house."
Chad rolled his eyes and reminded his father, "I did say if he can
convince her. There's no guarantee,
Pa. Amanda could as easily tell
Spencer to get lost. She's got a guaranteed husband lined up, after
all.
And she went to a lot of trouble to snag me."
"Yeah, but you're hopeful," Stuart returned. "That's good enough for
me."
"Only because Spencers good at seducing, and telling a woman exactly
what she wants to hear, whether it's true or not."
Stuart chuckled. "Sounds like those two were made for each other."
"I couldn't agree more."
Stuart stood up to leave, though that wasn't his intention. "Mind if I
get some dinner sent up?" he said.
"Mind if I don't join you for it?" Chad replied. "In fact, why don't
you let me get back to sleep."
"You can't still be tired," Stuart protested. "You slept all day."
"Not all day. I stood at that window most of the morning, waiting for
Spencer to make up his mind
what he was going to do. He never did ride
out."
Stuart was back to frowning. "You think he's conceding to you?"
"When you put it that way, I'd have to say no. He never concedes. So
maybe he is just going to wait
until your barbecue, where he'll have
easier access to Amanda without Red's constant supervision."
Stuart's expression softened. "And maybe I'll help by keeping Red busy
myself."
Chapter
37
IT WAS A HECTIC few days, getting ready for the big barbecue. Amanda
tried to pretend boredom. After all, it was a "country" barbecue. But
Marian could tell she was excited about it, though not half
as much as
Marian was. She'd gone to a few balls at home with her sister, but
hiding behind her spectacles, she hadn't enjoyed them. This Texas
party, however, was like a "coming out" ball for her.
There was no time to get new gowns made for it, not that ball gowns
would have been appropriate.
And Marian hadn't been serious about
borrowing some of Amanda's clothes, which she considered
much too
frilly for her taste. But with Red's help in supplying some lace, Ella
Mae worked wonders
with one of Marian's old beige gowns, removing the
high neck and sleeves and adding white lace to
the hem and the new
low-cut bodice. Amanda's gown was fancier, but Marian's was prettier
because
of its simplicity.
Red had sent one of her hands to the sheriff with the miniature
painting of the train robber just as soon
as Marian finished it. They
could have delivered it themselves on Sunday when they would be passing
through town, but Red didn't think they should wait even for a few days
to pass something that important along to the sheriff. They hadn't
heard yet if the painting was going to do any good in apprehending the
outlaw, but the sheriff was likely to be at the barbecue as well, so
they could ask him then.
Most of Red's household was up long before dawn Saturday morning, so
they could have time to dress and eat a quick breakfast before leaving.
They managed to arrive at the Kinkaid ranch a little after noontime.
Most of the townsfolk who were coming were already there, some having
ridden over the
night before so as not to miss anything.
The girls had been warned that Stuart's ranch was big, but they were
still surprised at just how big it was. The main ranch house dominated
the scene. Like a mansion in proportion if not design, it spread wide
and tall among all the other buildings around it. The actual barbecue
was taking place behind it.
Tables had been improvised from long planks of wood. There was a stage
and dance area where musicians were already playing, although no one
was dancing yet. Whole carcasses of meat were being roasted nearby,
slowly
turning on spits and being basted with sauces. A bevy of servants were
making trips from the house to the tables, bringing out more and more
food that got quickly covered with checkered cloths until it was time
to eat. The aromas were wonderful.
Bronco riding was taking place down by one of the stables, where most
of the guests were currently gathered. Shouts, bets, laughter, and
goading filled the air, and everyone seemed to be having a fine
time
except maybe the cowboy trying to stay on the back of the bucking
horse. It looked dangerous.
The cowboy didn't stay on very long.
Marian decided to avoid that area. It was a bit too raucous for her
tastes. There would be horse racing
as well, she was told, and maybe a
shooting contest and roping competition, plenty of opportunities for
the cowboys to test their skills in fun, rather than work.
Kathleen introduced the girls around. Amanda began enjoying herself,
but then she always shone at
social gatherings, and it didn't take her
long to become the "belle of the barbecue," so to speak. Marian didn't
begrudge her sister that. She might have come out of her shell at last,
but she would never have Amanda's self-confidence. She was surprising a
lot of people, though, who had seen her arrive in town
a week ago looking nothing like she did now. But twins were always a
novelty.
The host showed up and after complimenting Kathleen enough to make her
blush—their aunt did look exceptionally fetching in an embroidered
blouse and skirt with two tiers of ruffles—he took over the
introductions.
Spencer arrived, looking as dashing as ever in his black coat and
string tie. It didn't take him long to find Amanda or to monopolize the
conversation with her. Marian wondered if Amanda would tell him she
was
going to marry Chad. Probably not, since she would enjoy flirting with
him.
Marian thought it was ironic that she had always figured her
"unveiling" would change everything for
her, yet it seemed to have
changed nothing. She was pretty now, yes. But still that didn't seem to
be drawing people to her or making this social event any more fun than
others she'd attended.
Amanda pulled her aside, said impatiently, "Don't slouch. You have a
nice figure, show it off. And stop looking down like you're trying to
see over the rims of those silly spectacles. You aren't wearing them
anymore."
Amanda? Trying to help her present herself better? But before Marian
went into shock, Amanda added, "How am I supposed to compete if you're
still trying to hide yourself?"
"I'm not hiding."
"Of course you are," Amanda replied. "It's ingrained, you've done it so
long. Open up, Mari. Let the
real Marian out."
Amanda flounced off after that, leaving Marian in shock. That had been
sisterly advice, she just wasn't sure how to take it. She tried to
guess at Amanda's ulterior motive, but other than the "compete"
comment, she couldn't find one. And "competing" didn't wash. Amanda was
going to be the center of attention no matter what. Her vivacity, her
abundant self-confidence from years of social successes naturally drew
people to her.
Marian soon wandered off by herself. Distracted by her disappointment,
she found herself down by the stable without realizing it. A collective
cheer by the crowd still gathered there brought her back to herself, in
time to see Chad being bounced around on the back of a bucking horse.
She sucked in her breath. He was holding on with only one hand. His
other arm was extended out to
the side, possibly to assist with
balance. The wild horse was doing its darnedest to unseat him, kicking
up its hind legs, nearly jumping into the air, vicious in its
determination.
Marian squeezed her eyes shut. She couldn't bear to watch Chad fall,
but knew he would. The horse
was too wild and too angry. She listened
to the crowd to tell her when it happened. They seemed
greatly annoyed when it did, as
if they'd expected Chad to succeed.
"He lost his concentration."
"Probably her fault, he was looking at her."
"Rotten timing."
Marian looked around to see who they were talking about, but the dozen
or so men standing near her were all staring at her. She started
blushing and turned to leave.
"Well, if it ain't the tree-toting Eastern gal. How do, ma'am?"
Marian groaned inwardly. It was the mountainman, Leroy. She hadn't
expected ever to see him again. And he was mistaking her for
Amanda—well, actually he wasn't, but she didn't want him to know that.
She gave him a smile. "Have we met? I'm Marian Laton. Perhaps you were
referring to my twin sister?"
He raised a dubious brow. It looked rather funny, such a big man trying
to look skeptical. "Twin, huh?"
"Leave her be, Leroy," Chad said, coming up beside them, still brushing
the dust from his pants from
the fall he'd taken.
She was relieved to see he was only dusty and didn't have any blood or
hoof marks imprinted on him anywhere. And Leroy didn't seem to take
offense—much.
"You give too many orders, boy, when you don' run this place yet."
"If my pa didn't warn you to stay away from his guests, he should have."
Leroy chuckled. "As it happens, he did. But I heard you were gonna try
your hand at breaking the
bronco I brought in. Was hoping the horse
might settle our debt."
"If you want a piece of me, Leroy, just say so."
"I'm still thinking on it."
"They say bathing stimulates thinking. Why don't you try it?" Chad
suggested. "Pa set up a bunch
of tubs in the south barn for the men."
"I know. Wandered in there by mistake, and the little fella tending the
tubs took one look at me and grabbed his shotgun. Said he wasn't gonna
lug water for all them tubs again, that it would take all of
them to
get me clean. Told me to go find a creek."
"No offense, Leroy, but we'd all appreciate it if you did."
Leroy grinned. "This is an acquired o-door. Took me years to perfect
it. Snuck up on that bronco
within a hand's reach 'cause he didn't
smell a human. When I give up hunting, I'll bathe."
Chad rolled his eyes. "In the meantime, you'll forgive us if we avoid
your perfected odor?"
Leroy shrugged. "Most folks do."
Chad took Marian's arm to lead her back up to the food tables. She'd
been holding her breath for
most of that conversation, and not just
because of Leroy's horrid odor. The way Chad had provoked
that huge mountain of a man, as if
he had no fear of him, set her nerves on edge.
"If you didn't want to watch, why'd you come down?" he asked out of the
blue.
"Excuse me?"
"You had your eyes squeezed shut. Worried I was going to take a fall?"
"Of course not," she denied primly. "I merely had dust in my eyes. And
I didn't go there to watch you.
I was just wandering, lost in thought."
"Anything interesting?"
"What?"
"In your thoughts?"
Was he insulting her? Suggesting her thoughts were usually dull?
Probably. Or maybe he thought she
was Amanda. Of course! Otherwise, he
would have remarked on her changed appearance. And his question could
have been an attempt at flirtation with his bride-to-be. He undoubtedly
expected
Amanda to tell him that he had been in her thoughts.
"I heard the preacher isn't coming," she said. "That his wife isn't
feeling well, and he didn't want
to leave her alone in town."
Chad sighed in disappointment. Because she'd passed up the opportunity
to flirt with him? Or because
he was in a hurry to set the date for his
wedding?
She should straighten him out, but she was too angry that he was
mistaking her for Amanda—yet again. And it infuriated
her that she'd been afraid for him, not once, but twice in the span of
a few minutes.
She had to stop caring what happened to him. Whether he
married Amanda or not, he was still lost to
her.
Chapter
38
CHAD LEANED AGAINST A tree trunk, his hat tipped low, sipping a warm
whiskey. One couple
had approached, plates of food in hand, intending
to sit under the tree to eat, but had sought shade elsewhere when they
saw him there. He wasn't in a sociable mood, and it probably showed.
Confusion was giving him a headache. He watched the twins, sure he knew
who was who, yet he'd
made such a colossal mistake in the stable that
day, he wondered if he could ever be absolutely sure. Amanda,
flamboyant, flitting about, animated, with Spencer following her around
like a lost puppy. Marian, quietly conversing with some of the town
ladies, demure, laughing softly, smiling with
genuine humor.
He had no doubt today who was who. Spencer certainly didn't have any
doubt. He'd zeroed in on Amanda as soon as he'd arrived and hadn't let
her out of his sight since. Chad couldn't tell if Spencer
was having any luck
wooing her, wasn't even sure if that was still his intent. But he sure
was amusing
her, and she obviously enjoyed flirting with him.
Amanda was staying well clear of Chad. Smart girl. She knew she
deserved a good throttling because
of the trick she'd pulled on him.
She just didn't know him well enough to know he'd never hurt a
woman.
But he'd have no hesitation at all in telling her what he thought of
her and her damn
convoluted scheme to drag him to the altar.
"I thought you were pulling my leg the other day, when you said the
Laton sisters are twins," Lonny remarked as he came up to join Chad
beneath the tree. "I mean, I know twins are supposed to look
the same,
but those two were like night and day—until now. How the hell do you
tell them apart?"
"Marian's wearing beige today."
"Yes, I know. I told her how pretty she looked, and she blushed up a
storm. But what if they were wearing the same dress?"
"Then you'd notice the mannerisms. Marian is shy. Amanda is anything
but."
"And if they're both being quiet and shy-like?" Lonny ventured.
"Then you're flat out of luck."
Lonny looked at him askance, since he'd almost growled his reply. But
considering where his own
thoughts had been, he didn't need it rammed home that if one of the
twins wanted to pretend to be
the other, how easily she could pull it
off.
Lonny frowned thoughtfully before he said, "There must be another way.
Surely their parents had
no trouble telling them apart."
Chad shrugged and finished off the whiskey he'd been nursing. "Probably
not, but then parents get the benefit of living with them from the day
they're born. The rest of us get stuck with guessing—right or wrong."
"You don't sound too happy about that."
"Would you be? If the woman you thought you made love to turned out to
be the wrong woman?"
Lonny blinked then crowed, "I told you it was Amanda that day!"
"Shut up, Lonny," Chad snarled, and walked away.
He headed straight for Marian. He wasn't sure what he was going to say
to her, but this confusion in
his mind was driving him nuts. He still
felt, deep down, that it had been her that day in the stable. It
had
just felt so right, making love to her. Yet when all facts—including
Amanda—said otherwise, he knew he was wrong, and he just couldn't bear
it that he was.
He didn't reach her before she got whisked away to the dance floor by
one of the men from town.
There were several other couples twirling
about the stage, ineluding his father, who was dancing with Red.
Spencer was also up there
with Amanda, using the dance as an excuse to hold her in his arms.
Chad watched the twins for a while and managed to calm down. You could
tell them apart. You just
had to observe them when they didn't know you
were watching, to see all the little things that made
them so different
from each other.
Not that it was going to help him out of the mess he'd landed in. Only
Spencer could do that. But even
if Spencer succeeded in getting Amanda
to marry him, Chad still didn't stand a chance with Marian now. You
didn't make love to one sister, then ask the other one to marry you.
Lonny approached him again, hesitandy this time. "I owe you an apology."
"Accepted," Chad said absently.
"Don't you want to know why?"
"I know why, so keep your foot out of your mouth and say no more."
"Thanks," Lonny sighed. Then, "You going to have to marry the wrong
woman?"
"Probably."
"Then shouldn't you warn Spencer to back off?"
"Hell, no. I may have been stupid and blind not to realize I was
getting bamboozled, but Spencer's the only hope I have right now of
being saved from a marriage I don't want. He knows what happened
and
still wants Amanda. I'm wishing him all the luck he can muster."
"Well, hell, if you wanted someone else to win her over, why didn't you
say so. I would have been
happy to do you that favor."
Chad rolled his eyes. "The old saying that I wouldn't wish her on my
worst enemy doesn't apply—I'm wishing just that. What I wouldn't do is
wish her on a friend. She's one woman you don't want to tangle with,
kid. And you're going to have your hands full. I'm not going back to
Red's."
"Because of this mess?"
"No, because you're capable now of taking over."
Lonny's shoulders squared a little widi pride. "I won't let you down,
or Red."
"I know you won't."
The current dance ended. Lonny moved off to find a partner for the next
one. Chad continued to just watch from the sidelines. Marian seemed to
be enjoying herself, had men lined up waiting to dance
with her, a few
impatiently cutting in before each dance ended. He wasn't going to
intrude, didn't want
to put a damper on her fun with his current lousy
mood, but he should have left the area, because he finally got annoyed
enough to do some cutting in himself.
She was expecting the quick change in partners by then, which was to
his advantage. It didn't give her
a chance to turn him down for a
dance. But he sensed the change in her immediately, he just wasn't
sure what it was.
Tension, annoyance, or maybe just plain dislike.
"Relax, I'm not going to step on your toes," he told her.
"Shouldn't you be dancing with Amanda?"
"She's already partnered."
"So was I."
"Yes, but you were dancing with a man known to get carried away on the
dance floor, swinging his partners about, tossing them up in the air.
Women who know him tend to hide if they see him coming. You couldn't
have known." He said it with a straight face.
She narrowed her eyes at him. "You're joking, right? Or do I actually
owe you some thanks?"
He smiled at her. She humphed, but only because she didn't get a direct
answer. He even caught the
slight lifting of her lips, indicating a
grin was lurking there.
"Don't bust a gut laughing," he said, still straight-faced.
She laughed, and the change in her was immediate, the stiffness gone, a
sparkle in her eyes. God, she
was beautiful when she let her guard
down. And the dance floor was crowded enough by then that no
one would
notice if he held her a little closer than he should. Which was a
mistake. Smelling her,
touching her, his desire rose so quickly, he was
nearly overcome with the urge to kiss her. But the
music ended, and her shyness returned.
She stepped away from him. "Thank you, that was pleasant."
He didn't trust himself to say anything at the moment. He didn't have
to. She moved off the stage, unaware just how close he'd come to making
a spectacle of them both.
Chapter 39
FOUR MEN LINGERED BEHIND the stable after the bronco riding ended. They
hadn't watched it,
but the crowd there had made enough noise that no
one had heard them ride in and tie their horses
behind the stable.
Two of them were throwing dice on the ground as an excuse for being
there, in case someone came
by. Another was keeping watch around the
side of the building. And the fourth man was leaning back
against the
wall, nursing a hangover. He'd indulged too much the night before, and
had even missed
the explanation of why they were there.
"You're damn lucky my cousin Billy took that job cleaning up in the
sheriffs office, hoping to get information you'd find useful," Arnie
Wilson said as he tossed the dice. It was his farm they used
as a
hideout in the area. "Think he'd do just about anything to join up with
us."
"He's too young," John Bilks replied as he stared up the hill at the
crowd. " 'Sides, four is a nice even number for splitting, five ain't."
"Yeah, but he risked a lot, stealing that painting right off the
sheriff's desk," Arnie reminded them.
"So he did us a good turn," John said. "I thanked him, didn't I?"
"This is crazy, our coming here," Snake Donally complained as he took
his turn at tossing the dice.
"Too many people, and half of them would
probably recognize you, John."
John shrugged. "They never did prove I stole that money, and they don't
know what I been up
to since."
"Thanks to my cousin," Arnie grumbled.
"I doubt that painting was good enough that anyone would have
recognized you from it," Snake added. "Billy said it was small."
"Billy should have brought it to me so I'd know for sure, instead of
destroying it."
"He figured it would be better to make sure no one else saw it," Arnie
defended his cousin.
"He recognized me from it."
"Course he would. He knows you good, and knows we pulled that train
job."
"But the cowboy who brought it to the sheriff didn't have a name to go
with it," Snake said. "So what
are we even doing here?"
"Because Billy stuck around while the sheriff was looking for the
'misplaced' painting, and when he
finally gave up
looking for it, heard him say he'd have to get the Laton gal, Marian,
to paint him
another," Arnie said.
"How 'bout answering Snake's question," Dakota Jack said, his eyes
squeezed shut, not that it was helping his headache much. He was their
fast gun—when he wasn't drinking. "I've only asked three
times myself.
What the hell are we doing here at the Kinkaid spread?"
"If you'd get them cobwebs out of your head, you'd have figured out by
now that John means to
grab the painter."
"Should just wait till she goes home," Snake suggested. "Way too many
people here."
"Which is why no one will notice," John said. "At her home, with only a
few people around her, they'd notice she's missing sooner. Here,
they'll just figure she's around somewhere."
"That don't tell me what you're grabbing her for."
"To kill her, of course."
Dakota Jack straightened up, opened his eyes. "Like hell you are."
"Have to," John insisted. "She painted me from memory good enough to
make wanted posters. I'm not giving her a chance to do up another. They
catch me, wont be long before they get the rest of you."
Dakota Jack said no more, but only because his head was throbbing
again. Snake wanted to know,
"How you gonna get her
down here, anyway?"
"You are. You're looking clean enough today to join the party. The
cowboys will think you're from
town. The townsfolk will think you're
one of the cowboys. And you've never passed through Trenton
for anyone
to know better. Just make sure you bring the right gal. According to
Billy, she's got a twin. Bring the wrong one, and I'll shoot you
instead."
* * *
Marian wasn't sure what to think as she headed toward the stable again.
It looked deserted at the moment. The horse racing wouldn't start for
another hour or so she'd been told. And most of the
guests were eating
or dancing. But a young man had stopped by to tell her that Mr. Kinkaid
would
like her to come to the stable for a few minutes. He mentioned
something about a litter of puppies.
Then he quickly slipped back into
the crowd before she could question him.
She'd looked around for Chad and his father before she headed down the
hill, but hadn't seen either of them. Not that she thought she was
meeting Chad. She would have stayed put if she did. But it would have
been nice to know for sure.
Stuart was probably going to offer her a puppy. She'd never had a pet.
Her father hadn't wanted animals in their home. There had been a tomcat
that had hung out behind their house for a few years that she
had considered hers. She'd missed it a lot when it stopped coming
around.
The thought of her very own pet was rather nice. She didn't think
Kathleen would object. In fact, Stuart had probably cleared it with her
aunt first. She just hoped he was going to give Amanda a puppy, too.
She didn't want something else for her sister to get jealous over.
The stable was empty—of people. Both doors, front and back, were
wide-open, and every stall had a horse in it. She couldn't imagine
where a dog would have taken root to have a litter. Surely not in one
of the stalls where it might get trampled.
"Mr. Kinkaid?"
"Back here."
She didn't recognize the voice. It was muffled because it had come from
behind the stable. She headed that way, stepped back into the sunlight,
and gasped as a gun was stuck in her face. It was immediately knocked
away by someone else, but she had no time to feel relief because a hand
covered her mouth
and a thick arm circled her neck to hold her still.
"What'd you do that for?" John Bilks snarled.
Marian recognized him as soon as she got a look at his eyes. The train
robbers, all four of them. Were they here to rob the guests? Had she
and Stuart been unfortunate enough to run into them first? Stuart could
be lying hurt, even dead, behind her. The arm around her neck wasn't
giving her much leeway
to look around.
"You shoot her here, you'll get this whole place down on our heads,"
John was told.
She recognized that one, too. He was the one who'd told her she was
wanted in the stable. Fear washed over her then, nearly buckling her
knees. They were there for her! Because of the painting. It had to be.
"I know that," John replied testily. "I was just making sure she didn't
scream."
"I don't know," another said lazily. "If I was a woman and got a gun
shoved in my face, I'd still scream."
"How you gonna kill her then, if you ain't gonna shoot her?" the one
holding her asked.
"I told you, no woman-shooting," still another voice said ominously.
"I'd as soon shoot you."
John started to answer that, then changed his mind. He was obviously a
bit leery of the last speaker,
to Marian's immense relief.
"I'm inclined to agree, now that I've seen her," the one with the lazy
voice remarked.
"No one said she was this pretty," the one holding her put in. "Maybe
you can just cut off her hand,
so she can't paint no more."
"Face it, John, you can't turn outlaw, then expect to remain a face in
the crowd thereafter, not with
such distinctive eyes like you got. She
might have been able to paint you, but everyone you've robbed
can identify you. So what's
the point?"
John was obviously getting frustrated by the opposition to his plans.
"The wanted posters, that's the point," he growled. "Right now there's
no face on them. I plan to keep it that way."
"Get her on a horse and let's get the hell out of here. You can discuss
what you're going to do with
her later."
"Someone's coming."
"I'll take care of them. Just get out of here."
"Scream, and I'll have to break your neck," the man holding her
whispered in her ear as he dragged her
to a horse. "Won't make me
happy, won't make you happy, will only make John happy."
She didn't scream when her mouth was released long enough to get her up
on a horse in front of the
one that had been holding her. She debated
it though, frantically. He could have been bluffing just to
keep her
quiet. And she was facing the prospect of death or a missing hand, and
Lord knew what else,
if she didn't make some kind of effort to avoid
being abducted by them. Which finally decided her.
She opened her mouth to scream her head off, but she'd debated too
long. The hand was back over her mouth, and they were galloping away,
within moments far enough away that nobody was going to hear her
screams.
Chapter
40
CHAD SPUTTERED AWAKE, COUGHING, and couldn't see for a moment. When he
moved pain
shot through the back of his head, bringing back the memory
of an explosion of pain that had knocked him out. He realized water had
been thrown on him to wake him when he saw Leroy standing next to
him
with an empty bucket in his hand.
"That the way you settle up your debts?" Chad growled. "By sneaking up
on a man and—"
"I found you here, I didn't lay you here," Leroy spit out, looking
slighdy offended.
"Sorry," Chad mumbled as he sat up and rubbed the back of his head.
" 'Sides," Leroy added. "I was only joshing with you earlier. You could
have left me out there to rot
that day, but you didn't. I reckon that
squared us."
"You happen to see who broke their gun over my head?"
"No, but I'd stop jabbering if I were you and saddle up. There's fresh
tracks from four mounts, with
one horse toting double."
"Then they'll be slowed down."
"Not really," Leroy said as he picked something out of his teeth. "I
seen your lady friend walk this way not long 'fore you did, and she
ain't here now. She can't weigh more'n a speck of dust."
Chad turned pale, shot to his feet, swallowed the groan as he ran for
his horse in the front of the stable. He grabbed the first saddle he
found. It wasn't his.
"Want some company?" Leroy called after him.
"If you can be ready by the time I let my pa know that Marian's been
abducted. You see which way
they went?"
"They haven't tried to cover their tracks—yet. Since they dealt right
handily with you, they probably figure they'll be a couple hours ahead
of anyone who might follow."
Chad grimaced at how easily he'd been taken by surprise. "Do they? How
long was I out?"
"I'd say close to an hour. Figured you and the gal was having some fun,
so I didn't want to intrude too soon. But I just got plain nosey when
y'all took too long to make another appearance."
Chad wished Leroy had gotten nosey sooner. Hell, he wished he had, then
he might have caught up
with Marian before she reached the stable. He
couldn't begin to guess why she had been taken. If it
had been just one man,
then it wouldn't have nefarious implications, but four? Buffaloing him
meant
they didn't want anyone to know about it.
"You have an extra gun?" Chad asked. "Mine are up at the house, and I
don't want to waste any more time here than I have to."
"You kidding me?" Leroy chuckled, and opened his bearskin coat wide.
* * *
They rode hard, but so did the men they were chasing, so they weren't
gaining any ground catching up
to them. Chad developed a sick feeling
in the pit of his belly as the day wore on. The more time it took
to
rescue Marian, the more time there was for bad things to happen to her.
And then darkness fell, delaying them even more.
Leroy had wanted to make camp for the night and pick up the trail in
the morning, but Chad wasn't
about to stop until he found Marian and
knew she was all right. He knew he was acting stupid. They couldn't
very well follow tracks in the dark, could even end up losing the trail
completely. But they'd reached open country before dark, and he hoped
that a campfire would give them away.
It didn't. A light from a window did. The trail led straight to a farm
located in the middle of nowhere, miles from any town. Other than the
light from the house, the whole place had an abandoned look to it.
Broken barn doors,
sagging porch, fields barren of crops. Whether anyone lived there on a
regular basis was doubtful, but his prey were definitely there now.
They found the four horses they had tracked, in the barn, unsaddled,
merely tied to a post near an old stack of hay. They'd leave their
horses there while they worked their way toward the house without
being
seen. They didn't talk. Both men knew what to do.
And then Leroy spotted another horse and said quietly, "Its not
abandoned, this place. Someone lives here."
As soon as he said it, the stack of hay started to move. Both men
watched it for only a moment,
figured some animal had made a bed under
it, but nothing wild, since the horses nearby didn't spook. They turned
away and started out of the barn. A muffled mewling sound brought
Chad's eyes back
to the haystack, in time to see a shape rise out of
the center of it. The light in the barn was too dim
to make out what it
was at first, until the lighter golden hair caught his eye.
He swore under his breath. Leroy said conversationally, "Looks like
they left her out here while they
went to get some grub. I wonder why?"
Chad rushed to Marian, who had pushed her way out from under the hay.
"Are you all right?"
he hissed. "Answer me!"
She couldn't answer him yet. He was still untieing her gag. "I'm fine,"
she was finally able to say,
"I think."
"What the hell do you mean, you think?" he demanded, starting to shake
her.
"I can't feel my hands, they've been tied up so long."
Some of the tenseness went out of him. He untied her hands, then her
feet. It was a wonder she'd
been able to push up onto her knees to let
them know she was there.
"Do you know who they are?" he asked when she was finally standing on
her feet.
"The men who robbed that train I was on. They found out about the
painting I did of one of them.
They wanted to make sure I didn't make
any more."
"But they didn't hurt you?"
"No, not yet. Bilks wanted to. I don't think the others really did. But
there was talk of cutting off my
hand instead." She shuddered, saying
it.
He spared a moment to hug her. "You're fine now."
"I know," she said with a sigh.
"Why they leave you out here?" Leroy asked.
"The owner of the farm didn't want to disturb his wife with whatever
they ended up doing to me. They decided to wait until his wife went to
bed before any final decision was made, and hid me out here, warning me
not to make any noise."
"I'll get you out of here—after I kill those sons of bitches," Chad
said. "Wait here."
"No!" She grabbed him back, starting to tremble. "No, don't leave me
alone here. Let me go with you."
"Mari, this won't take long—"
"No! Do you have any idea what it was like, listening to those men talk
about killing me! If you don't
stay with me, I'm leaving on my own. I
am not staying here alone, not another minute!"
Leroy chuckled softly to himself. "She's got her gumption back. I can
handle these outlaws myself.
You go on and get her home."
"There's four of them, Leroy," Chad reminded him.
Leroy grinned. "Child's play. I'm looking forward to busting some
heads. Think there might be a
reward for this bunch?"
"More'n likely. The railroad usually offers a reward for anyone who's
disturbed the progress of one
of their trains, to discourage any future
activities of that sort."
"Then leave these fellas to me. They might make up for that five
hundred you cost me."
Chad rolled his eyes. "They're all yours."
Chapter
41
SUCH A HARROWING EXPERIENCE, Marian had wanted to ride straight home,
no matter how
long it took, not stop to sleep. Chad didn't oblige her.
He got her away from the farm and the ensuing
violence expected there,
but then he found a lone tree to camp under for the rest of the night.
When she complained that she didn't need any rest, his rejoinder had
been, "My horse does."
She hadn't considered the horse that had ridden tirelessly for half the
day to find her. She was duly repentant and complained no more.
She just couldn't seem to relax. She'd rather know for certain that
those men had been rendered
harmless, that they wouldn't be riding
after her again. Leroy might not manage to capture all of them. Four
against one was— well, with Leroy, about an even fight, maybe even
slighdy in his favor. She probably could relax—at least about that.
But that she happened to be spending the night out on the Texas plains,
alone with Chad Kinkaid,
was reason enough not to relax.
"You don't think Leroy was going to kill them all, do you?" she asked
him across from the small fire
he'd made.
"He probably isn't going to kill any of them," Chad replied. "That'd be
too easy, break in on them sleeping, blast them all with a shotgun.
Takes more skill to capture outlaws and bring them in alive,
and Leroy
prides himself on being skilled. 'Sides, he won't take a chance that
the reward is dependent
on their being alive."
She still couldn't believe that he had come to rescue her. With all the
men there at the party, Chad
didn't need to volunteer for the chore.
"Is anyone else looking for me?"
"No one else knows except my pa, and probably Red by now," he said.
"Ahh, so your father sent you to find me."
"No, I let him know what was happening."
"But how did you know?"
"I noticed you heading to the stable. I got curious is all, since
nothing was going on down there at the time. One of
them got the jump on me and knocked me out. Leroy found me a bit later,
and we
figured it out together.
There was
no time to gather a posse."
She nodded. She should have known his reason for coming wasn't entirely
to do with her. He would
have come no matter who had been abducted, because that's the kind of
man he
was.
She sat huddled in a tight ball, arms wrapped around her legs, chin
resting on her knees. He'd fed her
a few strips of dried beef, hardly a
satisfying meal, but it had to suffice. He'd already apologized for
not
coming prepared, since he hadn't planned on going anywhere before he
had a chance to restock
his supplies. The two blankets he had wouldn't
do to cover them both, unless they were going to
sleep directly on the
ground. An unappealing thought. And the fire was only a few twigs and
wouldn't
last through the night, so they would need some cover.
She'd been talking to get her mind off of shivering. It wasn't really
cold, only a little chilly. But she
was still wearing her sleeveless
party dress, and a delayed reaction to having been abducted was
probably setting in, too. She couldn't stop her teeth from chattering.
Chad finally heard the noise, and said, "Come here."
"Why?"
He gave her an impatient look. "We need a few hours' sleep so we can
get an early start. We've got
one blanket to lie on, one for cover, and
it's going to get colder before the sun rises."
Huddle together to exchange body heat. That's what he was suggesting.
But she was afraid to get that close to him. It had been difficult
enough, riding double with him on the horse. And even if her senses
could handle it, it was
still highly improper. He belonged to her sister—well, he would soon.
"It's nothing personal," he added. "Just good sense."
Put that way she'd be silly to object. Was he cold, too? Probably not.
He was just being generous in offering her his warmth.
She moved over to his side of the little fire and lay down next to him,
stiff as a board. She heard his
sigh before he dragged her closer, full
against his side. His arm became her pillow. One of his hands covered
one of hers, which she'd hesitantly placed on his chest. Warmth seeped
into it and soon into
her. She actually fell asleep.
And the dreams started, nightmares, reliving her capture, the fear,
watching John Bilks sharpening an
axe, meeting the farmer's wife. The
woman turned out to be a witch in the dream, and the leader of
the
gang. She wanted both of Marian's hands chopped off.
Marian sat up with a start, a gasp, and severe trembling. The gasp must
have awakened Chad.
"What is it?" he asked, sitting up beside her. Then, "Never mind, I can
guess."
He wrapped his arms around her and dragged her almost into his lap. He
proceeded to rub her
shoulders and her back, but the trembling wouldn't
stop.
"I won't let anyone hurt you, Mari," he said soothingly. "I swear,
you're safe now."
"I know," she replied.
"It was just a dream. Forget it."
"I'm trying."
But she couldn't stop the shaking. Too much had happened that day and
it was all catching up to her.
His warmth surrounded her. That should
have helped. But it wasn't cold that was making her shake. It wasn't
him either. The fear she'd felt earlier had come back with the dream
and it wouldn't leave now.
He continued to rub her gently, trying to soothe her, but it wasn't
working. And then she heard,
"Ah, hell," just before he kissed her.
That worked. There was no room for fear in her mind when it was filled
with him. She had a feeling
that was his intention, just to distract
her. But like that day in the stable, her passion rose with amazing
speed. So did his. His kiss might have started as another form of
soothing, but there was soon nothing soothing about it.
His lips parted hers, pulling her into the intimacy he offered. She had
craved the taste and smell of him without realizing it, but her body
knew and was thrilled beyond measure. He placed her down on the
blanket, was still kissing her deeply, leaning over her now, one leg
thrown over her hips. He filled his hand with her breast, uncoiling the
heat deep within her. She couldn't think, didn't want to think. She
held him tightly, her only fear now that he'd come to his senses and
stop.
He didn't. If anything, his kiss became more intense, as if he also had
a fear that she might stop him at any moment. She should. She knew
that, deep down, that she really should, but every time the thought
tried to surface, she pushed it away. And his hand continued to roam,
over her hips, down her legs.
Even with the skirt and petticoat in the
way, his touch enthralled her.
But his hand found her bare skin beneath the skirt, dragged it with him
as he retraced his path, and stopped at the junction of her legs. Her
pulse was racing with expectancy, the coil of heat unwinding
even more.
And then he touched her where she thought he might, and within moments
that amazing pleasure burst on her that he'd given her once before. She
was incredulous. He'd only had to touch her . ..
Did he know what he'd done? She wasn't sure, but his kiss was gentle
again as he smoothed her skirt back down and pulled her back toward him
to sleep. Her pulse quieted. Lethargy stole over her. She
slept like a
baby.
Chapter
42
MARIAN WOULD SWEAR SHE woke up blushing. The memory of what had
happened last night
was immediately in her mind. Cheeks flaming, she
tried not to look at Chad, who was getting his
horse ready for riding.
He must have noticed the blush, though, because after a few minutes he
said, "Look, you were in
shock last night. I tried to help, but I'm
afraid I got a little carried away. I know you'd probably rather
not
talk about it, but I'm sorry, Mari."
She didn't know whether to be grateful or disappointed. But he was
right, discussing what happened between them would be much too
embarrassing. Carried away? She should have known that's all it
had
been—for him.
They rode hard to reach the ranch by midmorning, only to find out that
Kathleen and Amanda hadn't
returned yet. They probably thought that Chad would be bringing Marian
back to Stuart's place after
he found her. He left to let her aunt know
that she was home, and Kathleen rode in late that afternoon—without
Amanda.
Marian didn't remark on her missing sister—well, Kathleen didn't give
her much chance to, she was
so full of questions, wanting to hear
everything that had happened to her. And she assumed that with
Spencer's having taken his carriage back to town again, Amanda was just
waiting at Stuart's for
Kathleen to send the wagon back for her.
But once she finished her own story, Kathleen began hers. "Your sister
took advantage of the
commotion caused by your disappearance to sneak
off with Spencer without anyone's noticing."
"Sneak off with him? For how long?"
"She's still gone."
Marian's eyes widened. "Overnight? Where would they have gone?"
"To town to get hitched is my guess. I thought at first she might have
talked him into bringing her home here, for whatever reason, but the
carriage tracks point to town. I'll ride in tomorrow with some of the
boys to let her know she's got my blessing."
Marian decided to join her aunt for the trip to town. She still wanted
to buy some painting supplies,
and she supposed it would be appropriate
to congratulate her sister on her marriage. She wasn't all that
surprised that Amanda had
dumped Chad for Spencer. She had preferred Spencer from the start, his
being the more debonair and citified of the two. She could have just
said so, diough, instead of eloping.
They were in for another surprise, though, when they got to town the
next day. Gossip was already running rampant that Amanda had spent the
night in the saloon—without benefit of marriage. Marian couldn't
imagine what her sister was diinking of, but she was too sore after the
ride to find out immediately and elected to rest at the hotel while
Kathleen got to the bottom of what was going on.
Chad caught up to Red before she reached the saloon. He'd come to town
himself just to make sure
he was off the hook. After hearing that
Amanda had eloped with Spencer, he wanted to verify it, so
he could
relax again. He'd been crushed, though, to find out they hadn't married
after all. Apparently, they'd intended to but had postponed the
ceremony because of an argument, and they hadn't made up yet. But
Amanda had spent the night in the saloon, whether in Spencer's bed or
not didn't make much difference.
Red got angry, hearing this, and went off to gather some forces. It was
quite a little crowd that headed
to Not Here. The sheriff did his part
and cleared the lower floor of all customers and employees alike.
His
deputies stationed themselves out front, to keep anyone from trying to
see what was happening inside—as if anyone couldn't
guess. And a good number of Red's crew were on hand to gather the
rest
of the participants.
Chad sat back and watched the show. It was as much a surprise to him as
it would soon be to Spencer that Red was going to invite Spencer to his
own wedding. He'd thought she'd at least talk to him first,
try to
persuade him to do what was "right" for a change. But she'd obviously
concluded that that would be a wasted effort—and that her shotgun would
speak louder than any words.
It did. Spencer didn't need to ask why his saloon had been taken over.
When he was ushered
downstairs, pushed and shoved to be exact, he
started laughing when he saw Red standing next to the preacher waiting
on him.
"You have got to be kidding."
" 'Fraid not," was all Red replied.
Amanda appeared at the top of the stairs next. At least she was fully
dressed for a change, though in a pink-and-black edged getup too fancy
for midday, more in line with what Spencer's female employees wore day
and night, semi-evening gowns. She had apparently been willing to fit
right in with the atmosphere of a fancy saloon.
She didn't laugh like he did, however. When she saw Red standing next
to a man with a Bible in hand, she immediately tried to head back down
the hallway to Spencer's rooms.
That avenue was blocked, however, with Red's cowboys shaking their
heads at her. So with an indignant huff, she marched
stiffly down the
stairs and straight over to Red.
"I thought I told you that you have no say over what I do," Amanda said
haughtily to her aunt.
"I remember saying it. Others heard me say it.
So just what do you think you're going to do here—
aside from making a
fool of yourself?"
That brought a few gasps. If anyone had been feeling sorry for Amanda
by that point, they no longer
did. Red didn't take the bait, though,
didn't even blush. She didn't get angry again either. It might have
been a hard decision to make, but having made it, she had the backbone
to stick with it.
Her tone was quite placid when she answered Amanda. "I'm correcting a
wrong, sweetie."
"There's been no wrong done," Amanda tried to insist, but Red wasn't
finished.
"Correcting a misconception as well," she said. "When your father made
me your guardian, he put the decision of whom you could marry on my
shoulders. In no way conceivable did he intend for the
decision to be
left up to you. Now we could have accomplished this in one of two ways.
You could
have taken some time and reviewed your possible choices of a
husband, and we would have eventually agreed on a man suitable for you,
or I could have gone through all possibilities willing and
able and
made the decision for you. Either way, the decision was still
mine in the end, and circumstances have forced me to make it without
any further consideration. But at least I have taken your preference
into account."
"You haven't!" Amanda cried. "Did you ask me? No, you didn't! Or I
would have told you that no
one around here meets my standards. So go
home, Aunt Kathleen. You will accomplish nothing here."
Red still didn't get angry. Chad was feeling some inklings of disgust
himself. Spencer was gritting his
teeth over being included in the
reference to Amanda's standards. But Red wasn't going to be goaded
into
backing down.
"You can say it as long as you like, as loud as you like, or until
someone puts a gag in your mouth,"
she told her niece. "You did state
your preference when you came to town with Spencer Evans and
moved
right into his bed. No ifs or buts about it. Not a single person here,
myself included, doubts
that you made a choice. Now we'll make it
legal."
"Speaking of legal, you know this won't work unless one of us agrees to
it, Red," Spencer pointed out. "She obviously won't, and I sure as hell
won't now. It's been amusing, but you might as well take her home with
you. She's more trouble than she's worth."
"How dare you!" Amanda glared at Spencer.
"Someone have that gag? I'll be happy to do the honors," Spencer said.
Amanda blushed furiously. Spencer had obviously taken serious offense
over her "no one . . . meets
my standards" remark. There were a few
snickers and coughs over Spencer's rejoinder, but most
eyes turned back
to Red for her answer to the legal issue that he'd raised.
Were it the girl's father standing there with a gun in hand, there'd be
no doubts, but "guardian" was
an Eastern term most of those present
couldn't relate to because most of them had grown up in
Texas, where
things were much simpler. A gal either had her folks or other relatives
to look after
her or she was on her own.
Red was a relative, but a female one, and no one had ever heard of a
female leading a shotgun wedding before. When it amounted to "say yes
or the," it usually took a man to enforce such a threat. And Red wasn't
even angry! If she was at least angry, then maybe . . .
"I'll be speaking for my niece, Spencer."
"I'll speak for myself, thank you," Amanda huffed.
"You already did," Red replied. "No further response is required of
you."
"Well, then, thank God he isn't going to agree to this farce," Amanda
said, nodding toward Spencer.
"Oh, but he will," Red returned with a firm degree of confidence as the
shotgun she'd been pointing
at the floor now rose toward Spencer's
chest. "He'll either say his 'I do' normally, or he'll say it
between screams, but he'll get
around to saying it."
Spencer didn't take her seriously, even chuckled. "You aren't going to
shoot me, Red, and you
know it."
"Well, yes, I would," she disagreed. "I'd try not to kill you though.
You have my word on that. But
a few holes in your hide won't bother me
too much. Let's hope this buckshot doesn't shatter any bone beyond
repair.
She said it too casually. Spencer actually didn't know her well enough
to determine if she was bluffing
or not. That she wasn't bluffing at
all was moot. It was whether or not he believed her that would
determine his answer.
But in Spencer's case, there was one other determining factor. He was
much too fond of his hide to
want any holes in it. No matter how remote
the possibility, any possibility was enough, especially
when a marriage
to his way of thinking could be easily ended.
But he kept them all waiting for nearly five minutes before he snarled,
"Get this over with. And the
lot of you can find a new saloon to
frequent, because Not Here
will have much more meaning for
you after
today."
Chapter
43
IT SEEMED TO MARIAN that she ached from head to toe. Kathleen had
warned
her that she'd probably be sore after the long ride to town, but Marian
had scoffed to herself. After all, she'd just
ridden long distances in
the last couple days with no muscles complaining about it. But it just
wasn't
the same, sitting sideways in someone's lap, as it was
straddling a horse and trying to keep her balance
on it.
She would have spent the rest of the day in that hotel room if she
hadn't gotten hungry. And Ella Mae wasn't there to fetch her anything
to eat. The maid had elected to stay at the ranch, since they weren't
taking the wagon to town, and she'd never learned to ride a horse
either.
She was also curious about what had happened today. Kathleen hadn't
returned to the hotel yet to
tell her, or at least, she hadn't come up
to their room. Considering the hour, she was probably having dinner in
the hotel and
thinking Marian was going to sleep through it.
The hotel maid who had brought her water for her bath had also taken
the two dresses she'd brought along and returned them pressed. She
donned one now, a dull gray color with just a sprinkling of embroidered
white flowers along the sleeve and skirt edges. Her hair was a lost
cause, though, without Ella Mae's assistance. The only style Marian had
ever mastered without help was her tight bun, which wasn't so severe
with the altered cut of her bangs. She wasn't out to impress anyone
anyway; she just wanted to get something to eat.
By the time she negotiated the stairs, her movements were a little
quicker, but still pretty stiff. She was hoping to find her aunt in the
dining room, but if not, it wouldn't hurt her to eat alone. Her
curiosity
was getting the better of her, though, was right up there on
a par witli her hunger.
She was in luck on both counts, well, not really. Kathleen was in the
hotel dining room, but she wasn't alone. Chad was with her. Marian
hadn't counted on that and almost didn't join them. If she had to
watch
Chad nursing a broken heart over losing Amanda, she'd probably clobber
him.
She lowered herself into the chair as gracefully as her sore muscles
would allow. She avoided glancing
at Chad, though she certainly felt
his eyes on her.
She tried to ignore him for the moment, and asked her aunt, "Did you
find her?"
"Yes."
"And?"
"They're married now," Kathleen said.
"Really? She didn't object?"
" 'Course she did. He did, too. But bullets help change a person's
mind."
"You shot them!"
Kathleen chuckled over her conclusion. Chad did, too, for that matter,
which brought her eyes straight
to him. All she saw was his humor,
which didn't add up. Shouldn't he be devastated over losing Amanda to
another man? He certainly didn't look devastated, not even a little.
Then again, he could just be very good at hiding his feelings.
One thing was obvious though. He still didn't know it had been her in
the stable with him that day,
rather than Amanda. That wasn't something
Amanda would clear up either, whether she got a chance
to or not,
because she'd still want that tie to him and to be able to gloat over
it just in case Marian had been lying to her about not wanting him
anymore.
She'd allowed herself to be distracted from the main point. Amanda was
married. Whether by choice
or not, she'd be living somewhere other than
with Marian, so Marian was finally, truly free to be
herself. She'd
certainly thought it would be a day for rejoicing. It was, really. It
was just too bad she
had so many other emotions
cluttering up her joy.
"I'm sorry I missed the wedding," she said, turning her attention back
to Kathleen.
"You didn't miss much. It wasn't exactly a typical wedding."
"Still, I suppose I should have been there instead of pampering a few
sore muscles," Marian insisted.
"She is my sister, after all."
"I really doubt she would have appreciated your presence, sweetie."
That was true. She was forgetting Amanda had been forced to marry, so
she would have resented Marian's witnessing the ceremony.
Fortunately, the waitress arrived to let her know what was available to
eat that night, so she didn't
need to make any further comments about
the wedding. Unfortunately, the unhappily wedded couple arrived as well.
"Mind if we join you?" Spencer asked as he sat down next to Chad and
pulled a chair over from the
next table to accommodate Amanda.
"Yes, we mind," Chad answered baldly.
"Too bad," Spencer replied with a tight smile.
Chad sat back and speculated, "Shouldn't you be celebrating a wedding
night? In private?"
"We did that last night, remember? Or did I miss the so-called point of
the travesty that was enacted today?"
The words were really bitter, but the tone wasn't. Marian had a feeling
Spencer wasn't all that
displeased with his new married state. If he'd
had to be forced into it, it was probably because
Amanda had gotten him
angry. That was certainly easy enough for her to do.
"You reap what you—"
"Spare me your corny homilies, thanks," Spencer cut Chad off. "But I've
got a question for Red.
Would you really have shot
me, splattered blood
all over yourself and everyone else, watched me
scream, then do it all
over again when I still refused to cooperate?"
"You don't run a ranch like I do and get squeamish when something needs
shooting, Spencer. Yes,
I would have. Now let me ask you, did you
really think you could go on indefinitely, ruining decent
young women,
without paying up? Clare Johnson's father might not have had the
gumption to bring
you to account, but I did."
"I hate to remind you, Red, I really do, but your niece was already
ruined."
"That's okay, we all know that. And she was all set to visit the altar
before you interfered."
"Touche." He chuckled, then turned his attention on Marian. As if he
hadn't noticed her until now,
he said, "Well, well, the caterpillar
finally broke out of her cocoon."
Marian couldn't help giving him the blush he expected. Marian really
hated being the center of attention. Amanda hated it when she was, too,
so her rejoinder didn't come
as a complete surprise.
"She was afraid to compete with me," Amanda explained. "She knew she
didn't stand a chance. But
now that the field is open, she thinks she
can tiptoe in my footsteps."
"You sound jealous, darlin'," Spencer surprised everyone by saying.
"There's no need to be. You're
still prettier."
"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder," Chad put in, then added
tongue-in-cheek, "It's a good thing Spencer is half-blind."
Amanda sputtered indignantly. Red tried to hide her laugh. Spencer
didn't even try, he burst out
laughing. Marian just stared, not sure
why Chad had come to her rescue, unless it was no more than
an excuse
to take a dig at Spencer, who'd stolen Amanda from him. That sounded
more likely, since
she'd sensed their dislike of each other from the
start.
Amanda didn't appreciate being the butt of a joke though, and turned
angrily to Chad. "If anyone is
blind it's—"
But Spencer cut her off, told her, "Why don't you remember our little
talk, darlin', and watch your tongue."
Amanda actually closed her mouth and sat back with a glower. Marian was
incredulous. Spencer had managed to gain some sort of control over her
sister.
With threats? Or by promising her what she wanted? Either way, it was
amazing to witness. Even
their father had never had that kind of
influence over Amanda.
But Marian couldn't have asked for better timing. She knew exactly what
Amanda had been about
to reveal—out of spite. Now that she was married,
she'd resent seeing Marian enjoying the bevy of suitors who should have
been hers, and she had the means to force a marriage on her. Of course,
no
one would believe it at this point, including Chad.
Chapter
44
THERE WAS SIMPLY NO way that Marian would consider riding a horse back
to the Twisting Barb until all of her saddle sores went away. Neither a
wagon, nor a carriage, if Spencer was so inclined to
lend his again,
would do either. Both were just too bumpy on dirt roads. So she wasn't
ready to return
the next day when Kathleen was planning to head home.
Her aunt agreed and arranged for her to stay with the preacher and his
family. There was no question about staying with her newly married
sister, even if Amanda hadn't been living over a saloon.
Marian had a lot of shopping to do in Trenton, as well as several
appointments with a seamstress, for a complete new wardrobe. She still
had enough of her travel money to pay for most of what she needed,
though her aunt suggested that she wait before actually spending any of
it until they heard from the lawyer.
Kathleen had sent off a telegram to Albert Bridges, telling him that
more funds were needed for necessities for Marian, as well as informing
him of Amanda's marriage. Marian couldn't obtain the
bulk of her
inheritance yet, but it was available to fund normal living expenses
for her. Kathleen
wasn't expected to pay for all of her needs.
She actually had fun shopping and picking out designs and pretty
materials for clothes. It had been
too long since she'd ordered
anything other than mundane and ugly garments, and every time she'd
done so, she'd felt deprived, resentful, and especially dispirited. It
had all been her own doing,
necessary in her mind, but certainly no
fun. Finally, those days were over.
Kathleen was going to return to collect her the following weekend. The
lawyer's reply, when it came
in, was to be delivered to Marian first,
so she would know when the funds had been transferred to
the bank in
Trenton. Until then, she had to be frugal, so she merely made her
choices, telling the seamstress to hold off on starting anything until
the money arrived to pay for it.
She managed to avoid running into Amanda that week in town. Her sister
was pretty much keeping to
her new home, though Marian had heard she
was enjoying herself in the evenings in the saloon, acting somewhat as
a hostess for the establishment. Whether Amanda and Spencer were
getting along, she
had no idea, and despite her curiosity, she wouldn't pay Amanda a visit
to
find out.
Not that Amanda would admit to any problems if she had any. If
anything, she'd pretend that the marriage was all her idea and she was
quite happy with it. There had been one report that made the
gossip
rounds, of Spencer running down the stairs with a vase thrown after
him, and that he'd avoided
his wife for the rest of that day. But that
had been an isolated incident. For the most part, they were putting a
good face on their shotgun marriage.
Albert Bridges's reply was late in arriving. Marian wasn't concerned
though. He could have been out
of town and not even received Kathleen's
telegram yet. But by Friday there still wasn't any word, and Kathleen
would arrive the next day to take Marian back to the ranch, with
nothing really having been accomplished during her week in town other
than the purchase of some new painting supplies and a
few blouses she'd
bought ready-made. Amanda was probably getting impatient as well. Until
Albert acknowledged her marriage, he wouldn't be releasing her
inheritance.
His letter arrived about thirty minutes before Kathleen was due on
Saturday. It wasn't expected. For it
to be there by then, delivered by
normal post, it would have had to be sent prior to Kathleen's telegram
to him. And the envelope was bulky, so it probably wasn't just a short
note to find out how the girls
were getting on.
Marian's curiosity was pricked, but the letter was addressed to
Kathleen, so she had no right to open it.
It was probably just some
legal formality or forms to sign, nothing to get anxious over. She put
it out
of her mind and went about gathering up her belongings in the
preacher's house because she'd be spending the night in the hotel again
with her aunt.
Kathleen arrived within the hour that she'd been expected. With her had
come most of her ranch hands for their Saturday night on the town. Chad
rode in as well with some of the Kinkaid cowboys for the same reason.
Marian had hoped she wouldn't see him again now that he was no longer
working for her aunt. It wasn't that she couldn't tolerate his
presence, she just didn't want to. And she was afraid that
he might
turn his attention to her, now that Amanda was unavailable. She really
didn't want to have to deal with that, or with explaining why she
didn't want him now. She didn't. She really didn't.
She wanted a man to call her own, yes, but she didn't want to be any
man's second choice. It still
hurt, that Amanda had won in the end. It
still hurt, that Chad didn't even know he'd made love to her.
He'd never know now, unless Amanda bothered to fess up to her lies,
which was highly doubtful.
Marian certainly wasn't going to tell him at
this point. She might have made an attempt to tell him the truth if he
had been forced to marry Amanda, but now that that was no longer an
issue, there was no reason to, and a lot of reasons
not to. Mainly, she didn't want him thinking he would now be obligated
to marry her instead, nor her aunt holding yet another shotgun wedding,
because she certainly wouldn't agree to one.
"I heard there was no telegraphed reply," Kathleen said when she came
by the preacher's house to pick Marian up. "Whole town knows by now,
since Eddy yelled it at me as I was walking down the street."
Marian grinned. It probably was hard to keep personal business personal
in such a friendly town, where messages got passed along with shouts,
and the latest news and gossip could be found in just about
every store
and saloon.
"That's probably why this got delivered to me a while ago," Marian
replied as she handed the letter
over. "Since most of the town already
knew you were riding in today."
"Yes," Kathleen agreed, and merely glanced at the letter before she
stuck it in her saddlebag. "They usually do keep my mail in town if it
arrives right before the weekend, then deliver it on Monday if
I don't
show up. You ready, sweetie? Chad has offered us the use of the Kinkaid
town house for the night. He stopped there to let the staff know."
Was she ready to sleep in his house or even see him again? No. But she
merely nodded and said her goodbyes to the family she'd spent the week
with.
She rode double with her aunt to the Kinkaid house, which was at the
opposite end of town. Kathleen dropped her off at the seamstress's,
though, with the advice to go ahead and get a few of her selections
started, and to meet her in trie general store next door when she was
done.
She found Kathleen on one of the benches outside the store, reading
Alberts letter. She didn't interrupt, just sat down beside her and
smiled at the people who passed by tipping their hats. It really was a
very friendly town, predominantly male in population, where everyone
knew everyone else, so any strangers were easily identified.
Although there wasn't an extreme shortage of women, those who lived
there were mostly all married already. Which might be why Marian had
received four proposals of marriage during her short stay
there, and
nine other men had shown up at the preacher's house with one excuse or
another to pass
a little time with her.
It would be much easier than she'd thought to find a husband here. She
just had no present desire to
start looking. Which was his
fault. All
of the emotions she shouldn't currently be experiencing were
his fault.
And she couldn't seem to shake the anger, or the disappointment. Dammit.
When she finally glanced at her aunt again, it was to find her leaning
her head back against the building
with her eyes closed. She didn't really look tired, just like she
didn't want to deal with whatever she'd
just read.
"Is something wrong?" Marian asked hesitantly.
"Depends on how you look at it. From a Texan's point of view, not
really. Folks get along fine out here without much money, and no one
expects a woman to have any anyway. Men don't marry a woman
here for
her fortune."
Marian went very still. "There's a problem with my father's estate,
isn't there?"
Kathleen sighed as she opened her eyes. She was grimacing as she
glanced at Marian. "You could say that. Seems he died broke."
Chapter
45
MARIAN WAS NOW THE one leaning her head back with her eyes closed.
There was a sick feeling
in the pit of her stomach from going so
quickly from being a rich heiress to a pauper. With no warning
whatsoever. And there had been none. Her father had acted no different
than usual, before he left on
that last trip. Surely there would have
been some sign that he had
lost all his wealth.
"Sweetie, don't let this get you down. Things really are different out
here. The men who'll be wanting
you for a wife, will be
wanting you,
not any money you might have brought to the marriage."
"I understand that, Aunt Katlleen. I just don't understand how my
father
could have lost all his money. He was rich according to his will, owned
many businesses, many more income properties, much more than Amanda and
I ever realized, and he had a very large bank account as well."
"I know, and all of that was undoubtedly true when he made his will. He
was extremely prosperous
at that time. But apparently in the last
couple of years he greatly overextended himself. One too many
improvements on his current properties without waiting for them to pay
off. Too many new purchases that he was sure he'd make a profit on when
they were sold, but they didn't sell. It sounds like his intent was a
period of expansion, but he just didn't spread it out over enough time.
So he started selling at
huge losses just to cover costs, and when his
investments still didn't start paying off normally, he started
borrowing as well."
"But he never told us."
"Of course he wouldn't. He still probably thought he could recover,
which could be why he never
updated his will to reflect so many
changes. That last business trip he made was actually to borrow
more
money."
"Then his estate can still be salvaged?" Marian asked hopefully.
Kathleen sighed. "Unfortunately, no. There's nothing left to salvage.
When he died, everything had
to be sold to pay off the debtors."
Marian was still having trouble digesting this news. It was just too
much of a surprise. In the weeks
before he'd died her father had gone
about his business as usual, with no worried looks, no frustration
or
anger that things weren't going well for him.
She remembered one expansion, when he'd built a new shoe store, and she
and Amanda had gone to
the grand opening. He'd crowed for weeks that
business was booming. She didn't recall his mentioning any other
improvements.
"Wouldn't Albert Bridges have had some inkling of this?" Marian asked.
"Why didn't he warn us?"
"Oh, he knew," Kathleen said in disgust. "The bastard didn't have the
guts to tell you before you left Haverhill. Well, he mentions not
wanting to deal with Amanda's histrionics, so I suppose that's
understandable. It's all here in his letter, sweetie. He was hoping
you'd be well settled in with me
before he had to break the news to
you."
"The money he gave us for the trip?"
"Was his. A small price to pay for his cowardice. Those are his words.
Go ahead and read it."
Marian did. The letter actually wasn't that long. The bulk had come
from the accounting that was included, of all the properties that were
sold, all the debts that were settled. Their home had been the
last
thing to go, auctioned off at a ridiculously low price just to satisfy
the last few remaining creditors.
"I'll have to cancel that order I just placed with the seamstress,"
Marian realized.
But Kathleen rolled her eyes. "Don't be silly. A few dresses aren't
going to break us. And Chad has
turned my own finances around, with the
help he's given me. He's lined up quite a few small beef contracts in
nearby counties as
well, that won't require major cattle drives to fulfill. Financially,
I'm
pretty much back to where we were before Frank died, and the
situation will be even better off soon thanks to Chad."
Marian said nothing to that, not caring to hear any more about how nice
Chad Kinkaid was. She
already knew how wonderful he was. Her emotions
wouldn't have gotten so tied up in knots over
him if he wasn't. She
just didn't want to hear it.
"And its not as if you lack spending money," Kathleen continued
pragmatically. "Or even a means
to make money for that matter."
"You mean get a job? Yes, I suppose I could, though then I'd have to
stay in—"
"No, no." Kathleen chuckled. "I mean you can sell some of your
paintings if you were so inclined.
Believe it or not, this town craves
such things. The few that Orvil at the general store manages to get
shipped in sell pretty much before they're even unloaded. It's why he
stocks painting supplies. He's hoping someone in town here will take up
the hobby and create something worth selling."
"So that's why he was so pleased to show me to where he had those
supplies tucked away." Marian grinned.
"No doubt. Feeling a little better now?"
Actually, she was. It wasn't as if she'd depended on her inheritance
for anything in particular. It was
just that she was
used to coming from wealth and had never expected to be without it, she
supposed.
She would have to start thinking along the lines of not being
able to afford everything she might need,
but she could deal with that
as it occurred.
"I'm adjusting," she said. "But I really doubt Amanda will."
Kathleen groaned with the reminder since she hadn't thought that far
ahead herself. "No, she's placed
too much significance on her
inheritance," she agreed. "Though Lord knows why."
"Because she was counting on its buying her a husband who would treat
her just like Papa did."
"You mean let her do whatever she pleases?"
"Yes."
"But she's already married," Kathleen thought it prudent to point out.
"Not if she doesn't consider herself married," Marian returned. "She
could already be thinking of a divorce for all we know."
"You haven't seen her since that night at dinner?" Kathleen asked.
"No, I made a point of avoiding her."
Kathleen frowned. "But Spencer would have to agree to a divorce."
"Believe me, Amanda would know how to make him think of nothing but.
But that's what she may
have been planning. Now, she'll have to reconsider. She won't like
that. She
won't like that she has
no other options, that she'll have to make do
with what she already has."
"Well, at least she's already setded, and Spencer isn't exactly poor.
He's not exactly hard on the eyes either. She's better off than she
thinks."
"She won't see it that way,"
Marian warned.
"I know." Kathleen groaned again. "I think I'll just have this letter
delivered to her after you and I leave town tomorrow. There's no reason
why we have to listen to her theatrics when she finds out about this."
Chapter
46
KATHLEEN HAD ONLY BEEN joking, about having Albert Bridges's letter
delivered to Amanda after she and Marian had left town. Their aunt
wasn't the coward Albert had turned out to be. She sent over
an
invitation for the newly wedded couple to join them for dinner that
night at Chad's house. Oddly, though, both declined.
Not so odd actually. Saturday night was the biggest night for business
at the Not Here Saloon. And
as it happened, Amanda was turning out to
be the star attraction of the place, not in an entertainment
capacity—well, that would depend how you looked at it. But just being
her catty, sharp-tongued self, she'd been responsible for bigger than
normal crowds all week. And just by doing what she was good
at—insulting admirers in whom she wasn't interested.
Amazing as it seemed, apparently born-and-bred Texans found her insults
amusing. It didn't hiatter
that they knew she
was a married woman now, men were still flocking to her, flirting with
her, going
out of their way to gain her attention, listening to her
every word. And no one took offense when she
cut some cowboy to the
quick. The crowd would roar with laughter—even the men who were
insulted took it as a compliment that she'd singled them out.
Amanda really had fit right in to this risque night life. And by all
accounts, she was having fun being
the belle of a saloon. Spencer would
see it as a boon for business, so he wasn't complaining.
Marian marveled when she heard all this that night at dinner. Kathleen
had made the rounds that afternoon to pick up the latest gossip, so she
wasn't surprised that they were eating alone that night.
"It's not the sort of life I would have wanted for one of my nieces,
but in Amanda's case, it seems to
be just the sort of environment she
can thrive in."
"Yes, but I wonder if that's occurred to her yet, or if she's still
devoting her energies to going 'home,' " Marian replied.
Chad hadn't said much yet. Even the news about the lost inheritance
hadn't raised his brow. Of course, their inheritance had nothing to do
with him, now that Amanda couldn't be his. Not that he'd probably been
interested in it to begin with, when he was heir to the biggest cattle
spread in the area.
He did seem somewhat distracted that night. Still nursing a broken
heart? Possibly. He'd get no
sympathy from her. He certainly wasn't
showing her any for her new loss.
"I'll go over to the saloon in the morning after church, before we head
out," Kathleen said.
"They'll still be sleeping," Chad remarked.
"Then they'll just have to wake up," Kathleen replied. "I really hate
being the bearer of bad news,
but I don't exactly have a choice here."
"Want me to handle it?" Chad suggested.
Oh, sure, he was jumping at a chance to see Amanda again, Marian
thought in disgust. Kathleen even gave his suggestion some thought, but
then she shook her head.
"No, it's my responsibility." And then Kathleen grinned. "I'll just
allow myself barely enough time to say what needs saying before I have
to leave to get home by dark. Then I can avoid most of the tantrum."
As it happened, there was no tantrum. Amanda took the news as a joke at
first. Granted, she was
barely awake when she heard it. When Kathleen
averred that it was true, she went into shock, barely
said anything
else.
Marian was skeptical about her sister's being in shock, when it was
typical of Amanda simply to ignore things that she didn't like. It was
a greater possibility that she simply refused to believe her
inheritance
was gone.
Kathleen left the letter with Spencer. It would be up to him to make
his wife understand the
consequences of it—if he cared to bother. Like
Chad, he didn't particularly see it as a disaster, so he might not
bother.
He must have explained the situation to Amanda, though, because he
brought her out to the Twisting Barb the very next day. And tantrum
didn't come close to describing Amanda's "enlightened" reaction.
Stuart and Chad were also there. Stuart had gotten a lot more friendly
with Red during the barbecue
and had stopped by that afternoon to let
her know he was leaving on a trip to Chicago in a few days. Actually,
he'd just stopped by for dinner, since he could have sent one of his
men over with the
message about his trip. Although he no longer
escorted his cattle to Chicago, he did go there once a
year to wine and
dine the buyers. Chad had merely come along for the ride, Marian
assumed.
But they were all on the porch enjoying the sunset that evening when
Amanda and Spencer arrived
right before dark. And Amanda was barely out
of the carriage, Albert's letter twisted in her fist, before
she was
screeching at Kathleen, "This is a pack of lies!"
Marian couldn't help but sigh. She wondered if anyone would notice if
she just slipped away, grabbed
an early dinner, and retired for the
night. She really didn't want to have to listen to her sister's enraged
disbelief. Of course, she'd probably have to close all the windows in
her room to avoid hearing it.
Amanda could get that loud.
Kathleen tried to inject a note of calm. "Sit down, Amanda. We
understand your disbelief. I found it incredible myself, that Mortimer
could make so many bad decisions, one on top of another."
"Then you should have known better than to accept this rubbish without—"
"Proof?" Kathleen interrupted, still trying for calm. "You're holding
the proof. A full accounting was included, or did you neglect to read
it?"
Amanda snorted. "You mean this forged
account? You aren't listening,
Aunt Kathleen. I'm not here because I refuse to believe what this
letter implies. I'm here because I know this isn't true. My God,
do you
think Papa never talked to me? I'm the one he shared all of his
successes with, whether I
cared to hear them or not."
"Perhaps, but did he ever share his failures?" Kathleen replied. "Or
did he keep those to himself, too ashamed of them to let anyone know?"
"You still aren't listening," Amanda insisted. "His businesses were
booming. They paid for themselves. There were no hidden costs to drain
his wealth."
"Too many improvements can overextend anyone. He did too much in too
short a time."
"No—he—didn't!" Amanda exclaimed. "That's where your misconception
lies. If you knew him like
you think you do, you'd know he was too satisfied with his profits to
waste them
on improving the working conditions of his employees. But of course you
hadn't seen him in years, so how would you know?" Amanda ended with a
sneer.
"I was making reference to the facts given," Kathleen replied stiffly.
"I'm giving you the facts. If
his employees didn't like where they
worked, they could go work
somewhere else. I've heard him say that
hundreds of times. Even Marian has heard him say that.
And why not,
when he had people lined up to work for him because he paid so well,
not because
he supplied ideal working conditions. He opened only one
new shoe store in the last several years,
and that was only because a
new cobbler had moved in on the other side of town, and Papa wasn't
about to let him steal any of his longtime customers. And even that
store was thriving."
Kathleen must have finally experienced some doubt, because she turned
to Marian for confirmation. Marian hated agreeing with her sister about
anything, but in this case she was forced to nod.
"Its true he said that a lot," she remarked. "He did pay his employees
extremely well, and because
of that, he really didn't care if they
complained that his stores were old and drafty. His philosophy
was that
people would always need new shoes, no matter where they had to go to
buy them. I don't
recall him improving any of his existing stores either, not that I
would have noticed, since
I didn't get
to that part of town often."
"I did," Amanda added. "And they were just the same as always."
"There were still new property purchases that didn't turn out as he
expected," Kathleen pointed out.
"And he borrowed heavily to
compensate."
"Why would he have borrowed money? He had more than seven hundred
thousand dollars sitting in the bank. But if you are referring to the
property listed in this accounting"—Amanda raised the letter in her
fist for emphasis—"I happen to know at least one of these, the Owl
Roost Hotel, Papa didn't buy at all. He was going to. And Albert would
have known that. He was his lawyer after all. But someone else put
in a
higher offer on diat hotel, and Papa wasn't willing to top it. It was
in a town that didn't get a lot of visitors, and while it was a good
deal at the original price, it wasn't at the higher price. Papa didn't
buy property to speculate—"
"She's right," Marian cut in with a gasp as the memory stirred. "I
remember that incident now. Papa laughed about it at the dinner table,
that someone was trying to ride on his coattails to success, but they
were only cutting their own throat by overpaying instead of finding
good deals. It apparently wasn't the first time an anonymous buyer went
after one of the properties he was interested in. A few months later
he was patting himself on the back because the foolish buyer was still
at it, and Papa
had started showing interest in properties he knew weren't good deals,
just to help the person dig his own grave. Papa could
be vindictive
like that, as long as it didn't put a dent in his own pocket."
Kathleen was staring at her incredulously. She was rather incredulous
herself as all the implications sank in. Amanda gave them both a
triumphant look.
Of course, that wasn't enough for Amanda. She just had to say, "I told
you so," too.
Chapter
47
EVERYONE WAS FULL OF suggestions that night at dinner—everyone who
wasn't directly involved. Even Stuart got into the discussion and was
heard to remark on the side to his son that he hadn't had so much fun
in years.
The cattle baron was all for rounding up a posse and lynching the
shyster lawyer, as he was already referring to Albert Bridges. Of
course, with Albert living on the East Coast, that would be a bit far
to
drag a posse. And besides, though there was no doubt in any of their
minds now that Albert had stolen
the inheritance from the girls, it had
to be proven to the authorities before anything could be done
about it.
The forged accounting wouldn't do it. Albert could claim he hadn't sent
it or the letter. And the
properties might not even have been sold. He
could be taking his time about that to get the best prices.
Obviously, he must have hoped his letter would be the end of it. He'd
made sure the girls were far
from home first, using the excuse that he
hadn't had the guts to tell them in person. And with them
both thinking
they were now destitute, he probably figured they wouldn't be able to
return to Haverhill
to find out what he'd done. Or he could have sold
everything and run off with the money. He could be out of the country
already for all they knew.
And that was the bottom line. They wouldn't know, not without hiring
detectives—or investigating themselves. And Amanda wasn't about to
leave her inheritance in the hands of detectives.
"How soon can we leave?" Amanda asked her aunt.
"We?" Kathleen replied. "Shouldn't you be asking your husband that?"
Amanda waved a hand dismissively. "He's not going, has no interest at
all in helping me."
Several pairs of eyes turned toward Spencer, but he just shrugged
indifferently, and said, "I keep telling her that she doesn't need that
money now. But she thinks it will give her the means to get rid of me."
Amanda actually blushed. Marian found that more interesting than
Spencer's lack of desire to travel
back East. Did Amanda just not want
everyone to know that she still wanted out of her marriage?
That didn't
sound like something that would make Amanda blush, unless it wasn't
really true. If it
was true, she wouldn't care who knew. But if it was something she'd
only said to Spencer, and
hadn't really meant it, she wouldn't have wanted it brought to light.
Amanda said a lot of things without really meaning them. It was one of
her tools for manipulating
people. There could be more than a few
reasons why she'd want Spencer to think she wasn't pleased
with their
marriage. The obvious one being that she wasn't pleased with it. The
less obvious one could
be because he wasn't showing signs of liking it.
She could also be trying to force him to make a firm declaration of his
feelings. His apparent indifference toward her was probably annoying
the hell out
of Amanda.
Surprisingly, it was Stuart who spoke up, reminding them, "Whether she
needs her inheritance or not,
the shyster shouldn't be allowed to get
away with the theft. That's no different than handing over your reins
to a horse thief and telling him, I didn't like that horse anyway, so
you're welcome to him."
"I'm in agreement with that," Kathleen put in next. "It's not so much
the money involved as it is the audacity of this lawyer fellow. He
pulled his deception on me, and I admit I fell for it. He was probably
thinking the girls wouldn't make head nor tails of that accounting he
sent, young as they are. The entire thing was for me, to fool me into
believing it. And it infuriates me that it worked so easily. I had no
doubts at all."
"It ain't your fault, Red," Stuart mumbled. "It looked all legal-like,
and you haven't seen your brother
in years, to
know any better."
"Then you'll come with us, Aunt Kathleen?" Amanda asked again.
"Oh, yes, I wouldn't miss it,"
"But what about your responsibilities here?" Marian questioned, not
wanting her aunt to suffer another setback on their account.
"Lonny's capable of running the ranch for me for a few months, thanks
to Chad's teaching him,"
Kathleen replied, then she chuckled at Chad.
"No, I wasn't going to ask you to take over here again
till I get back."
"I can even pay for the trip," Amanda added, bringing all eyes back to
her. "Well, don't look so
surprised. I will be getting
my inheritance
back."
"I thought you lost all your travel money in a train robbery on the way
here," Stuart remarked, then chuckled. "Stage lines don't sell tickets
on promises, they want cash up front."
"I know that," Amanda huffed. "I got all my money back when that Leroy
fellow brought those train robbers in. They hadn't spent any of their
loot yet. They'd just been lying low, as the sheriff put it,
and Leroy
brought the money in with the robbers rather than keeping it for
himself."
"Leroy might be a mean old cuss, but he's honest," Stuart put in.
"He got a nice little reward for his efforts, and I got my money
returned to me," Amanda continued.
"All because of one of my sister's
silly paintings—well, this one wasn't so silly, actually."
Every eye turned toward Marian, which accounted for the bright color
rushing up her cheeks. "It was Aunt Kathleen's idea," she explained.
"And a good one." Kathleen nodded with a grin. "But then Marian has an
amazing talent for painting,
and just from memory. Absolutely
remarkable."
The blush got worse, especially when Chad said, "Anything on hand we
can see?"
"No," Marian mumbled, causing him to frown.
But Amanda had lost her audience and wanted it back. "So it's settled
then?" she said to Kathleen.
"You'll accompany us so I don't need my
husband along?"
Kathleen coughed over the slur intended for Spencer, but she replied,
"Yes, I'll start packing tonight.
We can head back to town in the
morning with you."
Apparently, Spencer wasn't going to ignore the slur, and decided to be
ornery in pointing out, "I believe you need my permission before you go
anywhere, wife."
"Like hell—!" Amanda started to snarl.
"Now, now," Stuart cut in to prevent the rant. "There are still some
things about this whole mess that bother me, with everything that's
been mentioned."
"Like what?" Kathleen asked.
"This whole scheme was a really bold thing for a lawyer to do."
"Or desperate," Chad suggested.
"That's what I was thinking," Stuart said. "Makes me wonder if Bridges
wasn't the anonymous buyer their pa kept running into. If he was, and
he'd have the information firsthand, of which properties their
pa was
after, Bridges could have ended up going broke in his scheme to get
rich quick. So I have to
ask, was your pa's death merely convenient for
him? How did he die?"
He was looking at Marian for an answer, and she was afraid she knew
what he was getting at.
"He fell off a train on his way home."
"Fell? Or maybe he was pushed . . ."
With Amanda blanching upon hearing that speculation, Spencer lost his
indifference, and said quickly,
"All right, we'll leave tomorrow,
Mandy."
"Now hold on," Stuart said, having gained the response he'd prodded
for. "The stage doesn't leave for another two days, unless you plan to
ride your carriage out of town, so you all might as well travel with
me. I keep a private train car in Kansas for my trips north. Unless you
think going by ship would be quicker."
"Sea travel doesn't agree with me," Spencer replied. "As I found to my
misery when my pa sent me
back East. So we'll be glad to take you up on that offer." That quickly
it
was decided they'd all be traveling to
Haverhill together. Well, Stuart would probably go no farther than
Chicago. And Chad wasn't going
at all. He had no reason to, no reason at all.
Marian was already feeling his absence.
Chapter
48
IT WAS BARELY DAYLIGHT when they rode out the next morning. The luggage
would follow in
the wagon. The sisters and their maid rode with Spencer
in his carriage. Kathleen elected to ride her
horse alongside it, even
though the carriage did have room for her.
Marian was a bit melancholy at leaving the Twisting Barb. She wasn't
sure if she'd ever see it again.
Her aunt was still her guardian. She
hoped to return with her after they recovered her inheritance—if 'they
could recover it. But she was going back East, back to Haverhill to be
exact, and who knew
what might happen, now that she no longer was
hiding herself behind fake spectacles nor making any attempts to push
men away with contrived insults.
Stuart offered them his house in town while they awaited the
stagecoach, though he didn't join them there. He rode back to his ranch
that morning to do his own packing, and Chad rode with him. It
would be months, if ever,
before she saw Chad again. And he hadn't even said good-bye.
He spoke to Kathleen. He even spoke to Spencer, whom he didn't like.
Although she was standing
there in the stable watching the luggage
being piled in the wagon as he saddled up his horse, he didn't
say one
word to her, didn't even glance her way.
That infuriated her. It was as if he couldn't bear to look at her, now
that she looked just like Amanda.
No doubt, it was too much of a
reminder of what he'd lost. And she couldn't deny that she'd expected
him to show at least some interest
in her, if only just to test the
waters, so to speak. She'd been waiting for an opportunity to brush him
off with a "no thanks, you had your chance and picked the wrong sister."
Which was being unfair. Deep down she knew that. After all, she'd tried
to make herself as ugly as she could. So of course he'd pick Amanda
over her. That had been the whole point of her disguise. But
even after
Amanda had shown him her worst side he'd still picked Amanda. That was
what Marian couldn't forget or forgive, that men, Chad included, could
be so blinded by a pretty face to the exclusion of all else.
But he wasn't going to give her a chance to rail at him for all that,
to get the hurt out of the way so maybe, just maybe, she could stop
experiencing so much regret. Another thing that infuriated her was
that regret. She shouldn't be having any if she didn't want him
anymore, should be relieved that she'd escaped from her brush with
temptation unscathed.
The seamstress in Trenton worked all day and night to complete the two
dresses Marian had ordered before she'd left town. Not that she'd find
much use for them during the trip, when sturdier clothes
were needed to
deal with the sweat and dust associated with crossing the country. She
wasn't looking forward to more bumpy coach rides, but her one train
ride had been rather exciting and offered
interesting views, so she was
looking forward to more of those.
Chad showed up with Stuart the morning they were to depart, probably
just to see his father off. But
his presence, when she thought she
wouldn't see him again, so flustered her, she found herself being
as
clumsy as she used to pretend being. She dropped the small bag with her
few changes of traveling clothes in it, then tripped over it. When she
recovered from that, she turned around and bumped into
the fellow who
was loading the larger trunks on top of the stagecoach, causing him to
lose his hold on one. It fell to the ground, popped open, and spilled
half its contents.
The trunk happened to be one of hers, and she gasped as she saw her
rolled-up canvases rolling out
into the middle of the street. She
immediately ran after them, and almost got run down by a cowboy
who was
racing down the street.
It was Chad who yanked her back, with a snarled, "Maybe you shouldn't
have gotten rid of the spectacles."
She would have been blushing if she didn't have to stand tJiere and
watch him pick up her canvases.
She was holding her breath instead, and
praying the tied strings holding the paintings rolled up wouldn't
break. And heaven forbid he should ask what they were . . .
He asked, "What are these?"
She reached for them without answering and stuffed them back in her
trunk. The fellow who had dropped the trunk was apologizing, so she
spent a moment assuring him that no harm had been done, then gathered
up the rest of the scattered contents. Chad tried to help. She slapped
his hands away,
then glared at him when he persisted. He finally
chuckled and sauntered back to his horse.
She started to breathe normally again—until Chad returned with a bag of
his own that he tossed up
to the man arranging the luggage on top of
the coach. Marian stared, openmouthed at the conclusion
she was forced
to draw.
"Where do you think you're going?"
"Now that Red doesn't need me at the ranch anymore, it's back to
business as usual for me," he
told her.
"Are you saying going to Chicago with your father is normal for you?"
"Sure is."
"Oh."
She tried to keep the disappointment out of her tone, but she heard it
anyway. He didn't. He sauntered
off again to help unload the rest of
their luggage from the wagon to the coach. And she castigated herself
for thinking, even for a moment, that he wanted to come along to help,
or, even more unlikely, that he couldn't bear to be parted from her. .
. .
How vain could she get? If he couldn't bear to be parted from anyone,
it was Amanda.
She supposed he could be
hoping that Amanda would get a divorce as soon
as she got her inheritance back. After all, Amanda wasn't showing signs
of being happy with Spencer, and vice versa for that matter. Chad might
think he still had a chance with her, and in that case, he wouldn't
want to let her
get too far away from him. All excellent reasons to
tamp down any disappointment she'd felt.
The small stage that regularly passed through town would never have
accommodated all their luggage,
and it would definitely have been a
tight squeeze for seven people. But apparently Stuart only traveled
in
comfort and once a year, a Concord Coach with its own driver came to
town for his annual trip to Chicago, to take him all the way to the
railroad lines up north. It was a standing arrangement he had
with that
company. And of course a Concord sat eight very comfortably.
Stuart also traveled with his entourage of hired guns, and this trip
was no exception, though they didn't take up any of the
coach seats. Two rode shotgun with the driver, and four more flanked
the coach on either side as they headed out of town early that morning.
It was going to be a long trip, Marian thought miserably as she sat
across from Chad in the coach. She was going to get a stiff neck, she
was sure, trying to avoid looking at him—or spend most of the day
with
her eyes closed. She supposed she could claim she was tired, and just
make sure the next time
she entered the coach, she'd be on the same
side of it as he was. Just not next to him. That wouldn't
do either.
That would be worse, in fact.
Damn, it really was going to be an excruciatingly long journey.
Chapter
49
ODDLY ENOUGH, AMANDA DIDN'Tcomplain about any of the traveling this
time around. Of
course, this trip was to her benefit, and that made all
the difference. And everyone coming along was there to help her. At
least, she'd see it that way. But the lack of complaints actually made
the trip quite bearable, even pleasant, for everyone else.
Except Marian. Being forced into such close confines with Chad again
wasn't pleasant at all. In fact,
she spent most of the trip quite
dejected, frustrated, and with a whole slew of other unwelcome
emotions
to annoy her. Every time she happened to look at him, he was looking at
Amanda. Every conversation Amanda started, he joined in on.
Everyone else was having a fine time on their new adventure. Marian
wasn't. If she were anything
at all like her sister, she would have
found a great deal to complain about. But she wasn't, and so she
kept her unhappiness to
herself. She actually kept quiet for the most part, so much so that
Chad
remarked on it when they found themselves briefly alone in the
corridor of one of the hotels they
stayed at.
"You worried that you won't be in time to recover any of your
inheritance?"
"Why would I be any more worried than Amanda?"
He shrugged. "You just seem more preoccupied about it. Never known you
to be so silent for so long. Barely heard a word out of you today."
When he'd laughed at one of Amanda's attempts to be funny that morning?
When she hadn't been
funny at all? When the only ones who would have
thought so were the men who adored her? And he wondered at her silence?
She had stewed over Chad's response to Amanda all day, feeling more
convinced than ever that Chad was still hoping to come out the winner
in the end, where Amanda was concerned. Spencer hadn't thought his wife
was funny either. Of course her catty remark had been at his expense,
so he wouldn't.
Those two weren't getting
along. It was patently obvious to anyone
taking notes, and Chad would be taking notes. Oddly, though, Amanda was
being remarkably restrained toward someone she actively disliked.
The barbs she tossed at her husband were rather tame for her, more
designed to get his attention than
to cut to the
quick. It was almost as if she didn't really dislike him—or he held
something over her to
keep her from getting overly vicious.
But as for Chad's remark, and because he was standing there blocking
her path as he awaited a reply,
she was forced to say something, and
she said it rather stiffly, "I have a lot on my mind aside from someone
stealing my inheritance. Four proposals of marriage require a great
deal of thought."
"What?!"
"You heard me. And I told them all I'd think about it, so I am—thinking
about it."
"Who's been bothering you on this trip?"
"No one."
"Then who asked to marry you?"
"Oh, those weren't recent proposals, that was before we left Trenton."
"Who?" he persisted.
She frowned and was forced to admit, "I honestly can't remember most of
their names, well, aside
from that nice Dr. Willaby."
Chad snorted. "He's old enough to be your father."
Marian shrugged. "He's still very nice."
He then narrowed his eyes on her. "You pulling my leg, Mari?"
"No, I wouldn't dream of doing that," she shot back. "And besides,
since none of this is any of your business anyway, you shouldn't be
asking. And maybe you should keep your
questions to yourself
next time if the answers are going to bother you."
"I'm not bothered," he snapped.
"My mistake. You don't sound bothered at all," she snapped back, and
pushed her way past him.
She didn't say another word to him that day, or the next. In fact, if
she couldn't say something to him without snapping—she'd castigated
herself thoroughly over that—then she'd do better to keep her
mouth
shut. He must have felt the same way because he went back to ignoring
her.
* * *
The longest and most tedious part of the journey was over when they
reached the railroad that
connected to the eastern half of the country.
The trip had been uneventful for the most part, no
attempted robberies
with such a well-armed escort, no gunfights or brawls to witness in
thie towns
they passed through.
There had been the one morning Marian rose earlier than usual and
caught her aunt leaving Stuarts
hotel room. That could be considered
quite eventful, she supposed, though only she knew about it.
And she'd
been much more embarrassed dian Kathleen had been.
Her aunt had merely grinned at her, and said, "He's asked me to marry
him."
"Isn't this rather sudden?"
"Not really. We—ah, sort of shared a bed the night of the barbecue. I
was all worried about you, even though Chad was
going out to find you. But Stuart was determined to take my mind off of
it. It's pretty much why he came over that day for dinner, not just to
tell me he was heading to Chicago for a spell,
but to let me know when
he got back that he'd be courting me proper."
"Will you marry him?"
"Oh yes. I've been in love with that man since the day I first met him,
just never thought to do more'n keep it to myself. Even after Frank
died, I never dreamed the day might come that he'd show some interest
in me."
"Why not?" Marian asked in her aunt's defense. "You're a fine-looking
woman."
"But with a small spread, while he aspires to being the cattle king of
Texas. Besides, with his wealth, he could have any woman he wanted, so
why would he want one who could only bring a few head of cattle to the
marriage?"
Marian rolled her eyes. Trust a couple of ranchers to think in terms of
cattle rather than love.
"So you were wrong."
"Actually," Kathleen replied with a chuckle, "Stuart says it's the only
way he could think of to get my cook into his house."
Marian blinked, and felt her hackles rise indignantly. Kathleen burst
out laughing, then put a hand
to her mouth to stifle it. Considering the early hour, she didn't want
to wake any of the others in their nearby rooms.
With another grin, she hooked her arm through Marian's to lead her back
to her own room. "He was joking," she said in a low voice.
"You're sure?"
"Absolutely. And let's keep this to ourselves for now. Stuart wants to
get married in style when we get back home. He's going to invite the
whole county. Says he's going to throw the biggest shindig ever to
celebrate. But in the meantime, we'd like to keep our happiness under
wraps. Just ain't appropriate,
with everything else still unresolved."
And Amanda would be sure to put a damper on it, since the happiness
wasn't hers. But that didn't
need to be said, it was understood by them
both.
Marian was still amazed. She hadn't seen it coming. But then she'd been
so wrapped up in her own moping, she hadn't noticed the intimate looks
passing between the older couple, hadn't noticed anything
at all to
indicate they were having secret rendezvous. Not that they could
arrange them very often, when half the hotels they stayed at didn't
have enough rooms to accommodate everyone, so rarely did one of them
get a room to himself or herself.
But she was very pleased for Kathleen. It did add to her own dilemma
though. It meant she'd have to
live on Stuarts ranch with her aunt when they got back to Texas, at
least
until she got married herself.
But that would mean being back under the
same roof as Chad, and she found that so unacceptable she didn't even
want to think of it.
It did give her more incentive to find a husband before they returned
to Texas, not an impossibility.
She was returning to her hometown,
after all, where she already knew most everyone in her social
circle.
And although she had alienated most of the eligible men there, she was
returning a new woman—well, new in looks anyway—so she could start
afresh.
There was the problem of a time constraint. They might not be in
Haverhill very long, and certainly weren't going there with the
intention of entertaining callers. But she could work around that if
she
were determined enough, and she was. Anything would be preferable
to having to put up with Chad's continued presence*
Chapter 50
Stuart's private railroad car was a marvel of elegance even for him.
He'd be the first to say it was overdone. But he didn't use it often
enough to bother redecorating it. While it wouldn't accommodate
all of
their party for sleeping purposes, the parlor area was well supplied
with overstuffed chairs girded
in velvet, so those who ended up
sleeping in them didn't really mind. And there had only been one night
that they'd had to, when the train stopped at a depot only long enough
for the passengers to eat dinner, then continued on through the night.
There was a well-stocked bar, even a piano. "It came with the car,"
Stuart explained with a shrug.
"Just never got around to
getting rid of
it."
Red actually knew how to play it, and entertained them a few times.
Chad enjoyed that much more
than playing poker with his father and his
men because he couldn't concentrate long enough not to get ribbed for
it. And he had
no excuse to be so preoccupied, none that he was willing to share
anyway.
Actually, his father seemed to be in the same boat— of not being able
to concentrate for very long.
Chad had guessed why. It was pretty
obvious. But he'd wait until Stuart made the announcement,
that he and
Red were going to get hitched, before he said, " 'Bout time."
The two made a perfect couple. Chad had thought so long before Stuart
came to that realization himself. And he would have gotten a kick out
of seeing his father "in love" again after all these years since his
mother had died, if he weren't so aggravated over his own pathetic
circumstances.
He shouldn't have come along on this trip. He'd never gone to Chicago
with his father before. There
was only one reason for his presence. He
couldn't bear to see the woman he wanted riding off into the sunset
without him. That was really stupid, because she didn't know he wanted
her, and she sure as
hell didn't want him. So there had been no point
in going, other than to make himself miserable. And
he was doing a good
job of that.
It hadn't been so bad at first. Spencer and Amanda had distracted him
with their odd relationship. He'd even found a lot of their bickering
amusing, considering how he felt about Spencer. But it was getting
harder and harder to see Marian every day and be so totally ignored.
Her behavior spoke volumes about her feelings for him. She didn't have
any, though she might have previously. He'd stood a good chance with
her, before Amanda had tricked him. But she'd be insulted
if he turned
to her now. That night under the stars, she'd been in shock, and
although he hadn't intended to take advantage of that, he really had
gotten carried away from wanting her so much. He should have just told
her that; but she'd been so embarrassed about it afterward, he hadn't
wanted to make it worse. And even if for some reason she'd welcome his
suit, the incident in the stable with her sister would
always stand
between them. He'd be better off just to forget about her entirely.
They were at their last overnight stop before reaching Chicago, when
Chad found Spencer eating alone
in the hotel dining room. He'd come
down late to eat himself, hoping everyone else would be done and
already in their rooms. Stuart had already announced that he'd be going
all the way to Haverhill with
the ladies. No surprise to Chad. He'd yet
to decide if he would as well.
Prolonging the agony was one way to view it, except that Marian would
be returning to Texas, probably even moving to the Kinkaid ranch if she
didn't marry before Red did. Maybe he should just stay in Chicago
himself, at least until Marian was out of his life.
He sat down at Spencers table without asking permission. He and Spencer
had been "getting along" if
you could call not fighting getting along.
And ever since the trip started, Chad had been curious what
was behind
Spencer's strange attitude. Half the time he seemed annoyed, and the
other half he seemed
to be holding back laughter.
Spencer merely glanced up when Chad sat down, then went back to cutting
the meat on his plate.
Chad chose not to be ignored. He'd had quite
enough of that lately.
"Where's the wife?" he asked.
"A headache sent her to bed early. She seems to get a lot of them."
"I'll bet," Chad said dryly. "But as good a reason as any for you to be
tarrying down here."
Spencer grinned, a secretive grin that Chad found damned annoying. But
Spencer offered nothing by
way of explanation, "The food's great. I
decided on a second helping is all."
"Glad to hear it, since I'm starving." Chad called the waitress over
and asked her to bring him what Spencer was having. Then as if they'd
already been discussing it, he said "You two getting a divorce
as soon
as this thing with the lawyer is settled?"
Spencer almost choked at the unexpected question, but recovered with a
noncommittal, "I'm beginning
to like married life."
"You could have fooled the rest of us."
Spencer laughed. "Appearances can be deceiving— as we both found out."
"You wishing you'd found out sooner that the ladies are twins?"
"Hell no. Marian is too—how shall I put it—nice for my taste."
"Too nice for you, period," Chad mumbled.
Spencer sat back, took a drink of his wine, and said nonchalantly, "I
sense you haven't claimed her
yet. But then I always knew you were a
fool."
Chad stiffened, reminding him, "I made love to her sister. That's not
something a woman will overlook."
"Since when did you become an authority on women?" Spencer smirked.
"You might as well run
around with your head in the ground because you
sure as hell aren't going to get anywhere with her
by not trying."
"Look who's talking. You have a wife who claims a headache if she even
looks at you."
Spencer burst out laughing. Chad gritted his teeth. His food arrived
just then, or he might have sent
his fist across the table.
He'd never known Spencer to be so cryptic, or to withhold what he found
to be amusing. And
something was sure as hell amusing him, although,
for once, it didn't seem to be at Chad's expense.
It was still damned annoying that Spencer was keeping it to himself.
But then Spencer surprised him. Laughter wound down, still grinning, he
confessed, "I hate to
disappoint you, but Amanda's 'headache' excuse
isn't for me—well it is, but that's because she hopes
I'll follow her
right to bed. Her excuse is mainly so no one else will notice that she
prefers to retire
early these days— or wonder why."
Chad frowned thoughtfully. "What you're implying doesn't add up."
"That's because you're missing the main equation. How shall I put this?
She loves making love."
Chad snorted. "But otherwise hates your guts?"
Spencer's grin widened. "She doesn't hate me. Far from it."
"You're just her current favorite verbal punching bag then?"
"You mean her pouting? That's all her cattiness is, because I won't
pamper her or give her everything
she wants. Lord love her, she
wouldn't be herself if she didn't pout. She is a brat, after all."
"And that doesn't bother you? Never mind. Your amusement speaks for
itself."
Spencer chuckled. "She pouts over that, too. But I can't help it. I've
never met such a spoiled rotten female before. I find her antics and
manipulations funny as all hell."
"It would drive me up a wall."
"Well, that's you, and thank God, you and I aren't the least bit alike."
"Son of a bitch," Chad said as he realized, "you wanted to marry her
all along, didn't you? Your
protests were just for her benefit."
"Of course."
"You ever going to get around to letting her know?" Chad wondered aloud.
"Probably not." Spencer shrugged. "That would spoil her, and I'm not
stupid."
"A matter of opinion," Chad said, but it was merely habit, insulting
Spencer.
And Spencer ignored it. "I'm not about to make that mistake. Besides,
it wouldn't make her happy.
It never did. Spoiling her just made her a
bitch. But she's learning—rather late, though better than never—that
it's more worthwhile to earn what she wants than to have it given to
her. And I'm going
to enjoy every moment of teaching her."
Chad shook his head. "You amaze me, Spencer. I never would have thought
you'd have that kind of patience."
"There's no patience needed. She's too predictable, my wife. She's
spent her life manipulating others
and never realized just how easy she
is to manipulate herself."
"I almost feel sorry for her."
Spencer burst out laughing again. "For what? Getting her just deserts?"
"Something like that."
"Don't kid yourself. She's never had so much fun in her life as she's
had since she met me."
Chapter
51
ON THE LONG TRIP to Haverhill, there had been plenty of time to discuss
a plan for confronting
Albert Bridges. After going back and forth on
all sorts of possibilities, they decided that the sisters
would remain
out of sight, until they located Albert—assuming he hadn't already
taken off to other
parts of the country with his ill-gotten gains. But
if he was still in Haverhill, they didn't want to alert
him to their
presence before a confrontation could be arranged. They didn't want to
give him the opportunity to run before they could get their hands on
him.
Marian didn't like having to disguise herself again and stay cooped up
in her hotel room. She wasn't
going to get married that way. She needed
to be seen by old
acquaintances to have any hope at all
of receiving
any proposals before she was forced to return to Texas.
Amanda didn't care. She just wanted her inheritance back—if there was
anything left of it. And if
the men diought she'd
have a better chance of getting it by hiding herself, she'd hide
herself.
That was accomplished by the two staying in the private train car until
after midnight, then pretty much sneaking into the hotel that Kathleen
had checked them into earlier in the day. At least Marian had a
room to
herself for a change, so she could mope in peace.
Chad was still with them, too. Marian didn't ask why he'd decided to
see this to the end, not because
she wasn't curious, but because she
refused to talk to him at all. She was too disappointed that she
wasn't
going to have at least a short break from his frustrating presence.
There was good and bad news by the middle of the next day. They all met
in Kathleen's room for
lunch and to report their findings to the girls.
Spencer and Amanda had slept in late, so he had nothing
to report, but
Chad and his father had gone out early to locate Albert.
They were the last to arrive, and Chad told them immediately, "He's
still living in town."
"Well, that's the biggest hurdle out of the way," Kathleen replied.
"Stupid of him," Stuart added. "But then he's obviously completely
confident that the gals will never
show up to accuse him of anything."
"It didn't look promising at first," Chad continued. "His old office
has been taken over by a bookkeeper, so we thought Albert was long
gone."
"But he's not?" Spencer asked.
"No," Stuart replied. "Most of the employees there didn't know who
Albert was, but a new one came
in before we left the building, and when
he heard who we were looking for, he pointed us uptown to
a new
address. He used to work for Albert. Did a lot of complaining, too,
that Albert didn't take him
along to his new office. Had nothing but
nasty things to say about his old employer because of it. He
was a very
bitter young man."
The plan had been that they would take Albert straight to the
authorities if they got their hands on him.
It was Kathleen who asked,
"I take it he wasn't at his new office either?"
Stuart shook his head. "The new place is a definite improvement though.
The old office was a dump,
the new one as plush as a fancy—well, very
rich-looking indeed."
"Decorated with my money, no
doubt," Amanda growled in an aside to her
husband.
Spencer patted her arm soothingly. "Probably."
"Where was it?" Marian asked.
"Big building next to a bank, two stories—"
Amanda gasped. "I know that building! That was one of Papa's
properties."
"No need to get all indignant, Mandy," Spencer told his wife. "That's
just the sort of proof we need to hang the fellow, tliat he's in
possession of a building that should have been left to you. Sounds like
we
can wrap this up and go home sooner than expected."
Amanda didn't turn on him for the scolding, she actually sent him a
smile. Marian was still marveling
over that when Chad continued.
"There'll be a short delay. Seems he's a busy man. He's gone north
to
finalize some land deal for one of his clients. According to his
secretary, he's not expected back
until Friday."
"Three more days!" Amanda moaned.
Marian was in complete agreement with her sister for once, though
probably for a different reason.
"I don't see the need to remain
hidden, then, if Albert is out of town. There are a few people I'd like
to call on—
Chad cut her off with a flat, "No."
She raised a brow at him, and said testily, "And who put you in charge?"
He frowned at her tone, started to answer, but his father beat him to
it. "He's right. There could be
others here who know what the lawyer
did."
"Who?"
Stuart shrugged. "A partner, an accomplice, a bribed official. Maybe
even family."
"That's highly unlikely," Marian protested.
"Why?" Chad said. "He had to have bribed someone to get everything
transferred to him without
a hitch. And are you
sure he had no family here? A wife? Parents?"
"Not sure at all," Marian mumbled.
"He mentioned a sister once, but she didn't live here in Haverhill,"
Amanda put in.
"Fine, I'll go back and hide in my room," Marian huffed. "But I really
doubt our presence here is going to remain a secret for very long. I've
already run into one hotel maid who started to ask me, Aren't you—?'
before I cut her off with a 'No.' As if she'd believe me. Mandy's face
is well-known in this town."
Marian marched angrily out of the room, barely managing not to slam the
door. She was blushing
before she reached her own room down the hall.
That had been too rude of her.
She was starting to behave like Amanda, and she couldn't seem to help
it. She was so tired of pretending that everything was fine and normal,
when she had so much turmoil ripping her up inside. Her patience was
gone. Her tolerance was gone. It had been one thing to contain her
emotions when she'd thought
she would have some respite soon, but she
was getting none.
Chad was still around, she was still seeing him daily, and she could no
longer deny that all the anger
she'd felt over what had happened
between him and Amanda was still there, and it hadn't lessened at all.
He'd fooled her so completely. He'd kissed her the night before the
incident, making her think she really had a chance
with him. Then he'd made love to her, making her think he actually
wanted her, while all along
he had been sure she was Amanda. She'd been
hurt then, but all that was left now was bitterness. And a lot of
resentment and jealousy. She couldn't deny that anymore either. Amanda
always won. She didn't even have to try, and she won.
She no sooner closed the door to her room than the tears started. She
wasn't surprised. Solitude was not her friend these days. The more time
she spent alone, the worse she behaved in the company of others, acting
short-tempered, snappish. She barely recognized herself these days.
It might have helped if she could discuss her feelings with someone,
but there was no one she could talk to. She didn't want Kathleen to
know that she was the virgin Chad had deflowered, not Amanda. And
besides, her aunt was too happy with her newfound love. Marian wasn't
about to put a damper on that.
She could have cried on Ella Mae's shoulder. She should have. The maid
was good at offering sympathy. But Marian didn't really want sympathy.
Ella Mae was also good at making outlandish suggestions that were
always too bold for her tastes. And for once, Marian was upset enough
actually to follow them,
bold or not, so she chose to not be tempted
and kept what was bothering her to herself.
A mistake. She'd held it all in for too long and was turning into
someone she didn't like because of it.
And this solitude was not
helping. Of course, she could go back down the hall to Kathleen's room
and make a fool of herself again.
She shuddered at the thought and instead, dug out an old bonnet from
her trunks and attached a veil to
it. No one would recognize her under
it. And she wouldn't approach anyone she knew. But she was not staying
cooped up any longer.
Chapter
52
MAYBE YOU CAN HAVE a little talk with her?" Stuart suggested.
Stuart and Kathleen were the only two left in her room. Spencer
and Amanda had gone back to theirs,
and Chad left soon after. Without actually planning it, they found
themselves suddenly alone. It was
still soon enough after Marian's
departure that Kathleen didn't need to ask Stuart of whom he was
speaking.
"I probably should. Something is definitely bothering her."
"I don't mean about that, I mean about my boy. He's got some powerful
feelings for her, but she's
driving him crazy. She treats him like he's
invisible."
"Of course she does," Kathleen said in Marian's defense. "I would, too,
if a man who'd made love to
my sister suddenly
started showing interest in me."
Stuart sighed. "You know that was a mistake. Dammit, Red, the boy was
tricked. You know it.
I know it. It's about
time Marian knew it."
"I doubt it will make much difference."
"Or it could make all the difference," he insisted. "So tell her."
Kathleen shook her head. "If she hears it from anyone, it should be
him. If he's got powerful feelings
for her, why hasn't he told her
about them?"
"Because he's thinking the same way you are, that it won't make much
difference. You could at least
find out if he's got any chance at all."
Kathleen rolled her eyes. "So could he. If they can't get together on
their own, then they weren't meant to. I'm no matchmaker. Neither are
you, for that matter. So what brought all this on?"
He mumbled, "Young folks make mistakes they end up regretting. You did.
Married a man you didn't love just to get out of this town. Chad did,
made love to the wrong woman. 'Course he didn't know it, and that's
what really stinks about this whole thing. If that ain't enough to
regret, I don't want to see
him regretting a lost opportunity with the
woman he does want."
"So why aren't you pestering him to do something about it already?"
"Already did," Stuart admitted in a grumble. "But you know him well
enough by now to guess his
answer. He told me to mind my own business."
Kathleen burst out laughing and moved over to sit on Stuarts lap.
"Sound advice. And you have some business you can mind right now."
That got a smile out of him as she knew it would. They were so
compatible, it seemed like they'd
always been together. She pretty much
knew what he was going to say before he said it. There were
few
surprises with Stuart. For all his gruffhess, he had a big heart.
Funny thing about being happy. It made you want everyone else around
you to be happy, too. So of course he'd be concerned about his son's
dilemma. She was just as concerned about what was bothering Marian, but
she figured it was related to where they were. Marian had a lot of
unpleasant memories associated with this town. Kathleen did, too, but
she'd been away long enough for it not to affect her.
Not so for Marian.
What she didn't think, was that Marian's sudden bad temper had anything
to do with Chad. She'd done too good a job of ignoring him. She was
afraid Chad was going to be flat out of luck where she was concerned,
that any feelings involved were completely one sided. Which was too bad.
He should have told her how he felt about her sooner. He should have at
least let her know what really happened in that stable, that he'd
thought it was she with him that day. But he'd let too much time go
by
without telling her about his feelings. Just like a man, to prevaricate
too long.
Kathleen blushed with the thought. She'd done the exact same thing by
not letting Stuart know about her love for him. He'd scolded her
thoroughly for that. If he hadn't tried to distract her from worrying
about Marian the night of the barbecue, they might never have realized
that their feelings were mutual.
She hugged him, tightly, for what she might have missed out on. Her
present happiness still dazed her. And she was enjoying this trip back
to Haverhill immensely—because Stuart was with her.
"You getting emotional on me again, Red?" Stuart guessed, chuckling.
Kathleen leaned back, grinning at him. "It's a good thing you don't
mind."
His arms gathered her closer. Their lips met, gently at first, then
with a great deal of passion. Soon,
they were oblivious to their
surroundings, aware of nothing but each other. Making love with Stuart
was like making love for the first time. Kathleen would never have
guessed just how wonderful it
could be—with the right man.
* * *
Marian wasn't a bit surprised to find she'd wandered toward home
without paying attention. Her old home.
She stood in front of the large three-story house for the longest time,
just staring at it. It wasn't vacant. New drapes adorned the front
windows. Someone had redecorated, and was living in it. Albert? She
could at least hope so. That would mean it hadn't been sold, and they
might be
able to recover it.
"Excuse me," a female voice said. And then a bit more harshly, "Excuse
me, you're blocking the gate."
Marian finally heard the woman next to her and blushed, quickly
stepping out of the way. "I'm sorry.
I'm afraid I was lost in thought."
"An odd place to stop and think," the woman huffed, and moved the baby
stroller she was pushing forward so she could open the short gate at
the pathway that led up to Marian's house—her old house.
Marian frowned when it was obvious the woman and child were going to
enter the house. "A moment, please," she said, quickly following her up
the path to the door. "Do you know who lives here?"
"I do," the woman said impatiently.
"Oh," Marian returned in disappointment.
So much for thinking the house might be recovered. The woman wasn't a
servant. She was dressed in
the height of fashion. While some servants
could afford fashionable clothes, they couldn't afford fashionable
clothes made out of such rich materials as this woman was wearing.
Besides, she was
much too snippy to be a servant.
Marian turned to leave, but then thought to ask, "Do you know Albert
Bridges?"
"Certainly. He's my brother."
Marian caught back the gasp before it escaped. So she had been right.
Albert was living there and had apparently moved in
his whole family—sisters, brothers-in-law, nephews, and who knew who
else.
The woman was tapping her foot. The baby was starting to fuss.
"I'm sorry to have bothered you," Marian offered, and turned to leave
again.
"Just a minute," the woman demanded. "What do you want with Albert?"
Marian decided a fabrication was in order, so as not to cause any
suspicion. She quickly offered one.
"My husband wishes to retain Mr. Bridges's legal services. He went by
his office, but was told he was presently out of town."
"And so he is. He's not due back until the end of the week."
"I'm not sure we can wait that long. The matter is rather urgent."
"Hardly my concern," Albert's sister said tersely. "Either have your
husband get an appointment at Albert's office or find another lawyer.
But in either case, stop bothering me. Good day."
The door was slammed shut on Marian. What a rude, unpleasant woman. She
wondered if she'd
always been that way, or maybe guilt over what Albert
had done had turned her into a shrew.
But Marian didn't tarry any longer. She walked back to the hotel,
passing through the busier areas
of town, lost in thought again. She had to decide whether to confess to
the
others that she'd gone out, when she'd been warned not to. She'd have
to if she was going to tell them what she'd found out. Or
she could
just say nothing.
It wasn't really pertinent, after all, that Albert was living in their
old house. Only Amanda would be glad—or enraged—to hear it. And she was
sure that before Friday one of the men would find out
where he lived,
since they would want to cover his office, his home, and the train
station on the day
he was due back, to make sure they didn't miss him.
And she'd already done the most that she could do to help to apprehend
him. She'd painted each of the men a small portrait of Albert from
memory, so they'd know who they were looking for. Albert really didn't
stand a chance of eluding them—if he returned to town.
Chapter 53
CHAD KNOCKED BRISKLY ON the door. The moment of truth was at hand, and
he couldn't remember ever being quite so nervous. But, then, his future
happiness was at stake.
He was going to lay his cards on the table and tell Marian everything.
The delay in confronting
Bridges had decided him. Three more days at
loose ends with nothing to occupy him except his
regrets. No thank you.
So he knocked on her door. She'd either tell him to go to hell or—or
make
him a very happy man.
It finally broke through his nervousness that he'd been knocking for a
very long time with no answer.
He tried opening the door. It wasn't
locked. And the room was empty. Well, what the hell?
He knew she wasn't with Red. He tried Amanda's room, but got an annoyed
shout from Spencer inside, "Go away, we're sleeping!"
Yeah, right, it was obvious what those two were doing, but that meant
Marian wasn't with them either.
So where the hell was she?
He went downstairs to check the lobby. Mostly empty. He checked the
hotel dining room. Completely empty, but then it was midafternoon, long
past Iunchtime and too early for dinner. Worry began to set in.
He paced about in the lobby for a while, trying to decide whether to go
out and look for her in a town
he didn't know at all—meaning he wasn't
likely to find her—or to wait there in the lobby and catch her when she
returned. She walked through the front doors before he reached a
decision.
He recognized her even with the veil. There probably wasn't anything
she could do to disguise herself from him anymore. But then he'd gotten
into the habit, from the day she'd removed her spectacles for good to
view all of her, not just the
obvious. He'd never again be in doubt of
which sister he was
dealing with. Other than wearing the same faces,
they weren't identical at all.
She didn't notice him approaching her until he blocked her path. "I was
about to send out a posse."
"Very funny," she replied, and tried to move around him. "I haven't
been gone that long."
He blocked her again. "You weren't supposed to be gone at all."
She stiffened with that reminder, and told him, "I took precautions, or
do you think I like looking at
the world through black lace."
"I think you like driving me crazy with worry," he gritted out.
"How so? When I barely give you a thought?" she shot back dryly.
He growled, "Come with me," took her hand, and started dragging her out
of the hotel.
"No! Stop it!"
He didn't. And it was all he could do to keep from being as snappish as
she was. He didn't know why
she was that way. He sure as hell knew why
he would be. He said not another word. Instead he hailed
a passing
hack. He shoved her into the enclosed carriage the moment it pulled up
to the curb. Marian
sat on the seat opposite him and glared.
"Just where do you think you're taking me?" she asked in a tightly
contained tone.
"Nowhere in particular, just somewhere we can talk without being
interrupted."
"Well, you might want to give the driver directions. He's not going to
budge without them."
He noted her smirk. She wasn't going to make this at all easy.
"This is your town, not mine," he said. "Do you have any suggestions?"
"I'd suggest you stop trying to abduct me and let me return to my room
to rest before dinner."
He ignored her dramatic interpretation of what he was doing, said,
"Actually, your room sounds about perfect. Shall we?" and he opened the
carriage door again.
"Oh, now you're asking?" she
snapped, and stepped back onto the curb,
then threw back, "It's perfect
for me, but you aren't invited."
She marched back into the hotel without him. Chad clenched his teeth,
tossed a few coins at the driver with his apology, and hurried after
Marian. She was rushing up the stairs, trying to beat him to her room
so she could no doubt lock the door on him. He did some rushing of his
own to catch up to her and actually had to run the last few steps down
the corridor to get to her door first.
He opened it. She sighed, brushed by him, removed her bonnet, and
tossed it on the seat of the only
chair in the room. A subtle warning
that she didn't expect him to be there long enough to get comfortable.
He closed the door, decided to lock it as well. She heard the click.
Her back stiffened. He crossed his arms, leaned back against the door,
waited. She finally turned to look at him, but only long enough to
note
where he was, then glanced away again. He'd gotten used to being
treated as if he weren't there,
but this was one time he wouldn't allow
it.
"Look at me."
She did, even raised a brow at him. He'd expected another argument,
giving him a good excuse to ask why she never looked at him anymore,
really looked at him. He would
probably have found the answer
interesting, but it was just as well he didn't ask. He didn't want to
make her any more defensive than
she already was.
"You could relax," he told her. "This won't take long—then again, it
might."
"I'm perfectly relaxed," she replied, though her tone and posture
belied that. Which she must have realized, because she added, "Aside
from the fact that it's highly improper for you to be in here."
"Who's going to know?"
"Hardly the point," she replied in a huff, then sighed. "Very well, say
what you're so determined to
say, then please leave."
"I was going to wait until you settled things here in Haverhill. If you
got your inheritance back, fine,
you'd be relieved. If not, fine, I'd
have an edge."
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm getting to it. Just letting you know why I didn't make this
confession sooner."
"I'm not a priest. Why don't you—"
"Can you stop being sarcastic for one minute?" he asked her.
She closed her mouth, but was back to glaring at him. "If you're about
to tell me that you have feelings
for me, please don't. You made your preference clear long ago, and it
wasn't me."
"Is that what you really think?"
"It's what I know," she replied. "It's what I witnessed. It's what—"
"Oh, hush up, Mari. You really don't know the half of it."
She stared at him. She started tapping her foot. She was about as
receptive to hearing what he had to
say as an out-of-heat cat was to a
barnyard tom. He supposed he should have waited after all.
Something
had been upsetting her all week. She'd gotten more and more touchy with
each passing
day, a mood hardly conducive to the romantic overtures he
wanted to make.
But he'd already put his foot in it. Not to tell her now would just
make matters worse.
He crossed the few feet to stand in front of her. He wanted to draw her
into his arms, but she was too tense. He had so much to say, but he was
sure now that she didn't want to hear any of it. She'd taken
a real
dislike to him, obviously, and probably because of her sister. He could
at least clear that up. . . .
"I was attracted to Amanda, yes. I don't deny that. I was planning to
let her know about it after she
got settled in with your aunt, but only
if her attitude improved. I convinced myself the trip was responsible
for her behavior, that once it was over, she'd change and become less
annoying and
more likable. It didn't happen. If anything,
she got worse. So no, all plans for courting her ended
prior to what
happened in that stable."
"Don't bring that up, please."
He shook his head. "I have to. You need to know that it was a mistake."
"The first thing you've said that I agree with," she returned.
"No, it was a bigger mistake than you could possibly realize. I had no
reason to suspect that she was pretending to be you, so who do you
suppose I thought I was making love to?"
She blushed furiously, hearing that. "I know who you wanted it to be."
"Do you?" He frowned. "No, I don't think so. But then maybe you're
forgetting that I kissed you
twice prior to that day?"
"Once," she corrected.
"Twice," he insisted. "Don't try to deny again that it was you that
night we camped by the road, you,
not her, who tried to help me with
Leroy. And yes, I know. At first, I thought it was your sister. I even
let you convince me for a while that it was. But I don't buy it. That
kiss just didn't feel right, when I
was thinking it was her. But the
night on the porch, that kiss felt perfect."
Her blush got worse. She turned away with it from him. He tried to draw
her back, but she shrugged
off his hand.
"You're confusing the issue," she stated.
"The whole damn thing is
confusing. I'm just trying to clear it up."
She swung back around, and said accusingly, "You're making it worse!
You kissed me that night on
the porch just to make a
comparison, not
because you had any desire to kiss me. And I warned you
that Amanda
enjoys playing tricks of pretense like that, so you thought it was her
from the start that
day in the stable. You even said—" She paused,
looking away again. "She told me what you said."
"What? Or more to the point, why would you believe her when you know
she lies?"
"If anyone is lying, it's you," she insisted.
"Dammit, Mari, I swear I thought it was you I was making love to. I was
completely shocked that night when Amanda confessed that it was her. I
wanted nothing to do with her by that point, much less marry her. She
set up the trap, and I fell right into it. And I would have had to
marry the wrong woman if Spencer hadn't intervened. It was you I
wanted—and still do. I want you so much I can't think straight—which is
probably why I'm making a mess of this confession."
"No, the problem is that I don't believe you. So why don't you do us
both a favor and—"
He yanked her into his arms. His kiss was fraught with frustration,
despair, and some anger because
of it. And regret. A
lot of regret, because it would probably be the last time he ever
kissed her.
He'd expected a lot of things from this encounter, mostly Marian's
saying it was too late. But he hadn't expected flat out disbelief. It
was so frustrating! If he could convince her of the truth, he was
afraid
he'd then get that "it's too late," from her. So either way,
he'd lose, and that infuriated him. She was
too important to him to
lose.
He set her back, and said harshly, "You can believe that. And while
you're at it, figure out that
I love you before it really is too late."
Chapter
54
CHAD LEFT MARIAN'S ROOM, even managed not to slam the door on his way
out. She opened the door behind him just to slam it shut on him. He
turned back, stared at the door a moment, then smiled.
If she could do
something that emotional and—silly, then there was hope. At least she
wasn't as indifferent to him as he'd begun to think.
The door slamming caused a few other doors in the corridor to open,
though. Most of the occupants
just had a quick look, saw that nothing
was happening that interested them, and went back into their respective
rooms. Not so with Amanda. She leaned against her doorframe, waiting
for him to pass her. She was the very last person he cared to talk to
about anything.
Just the sight of her raised his ire again. Amanda might be secretly
enjoying her own marriage,
according to Spencer, but she had left
Chad's life in an emotional shambles with her selfish, one-track
campaign to get her hands
on her damn inheritance. And she had paid no price for it. Did she
always
get away unscathed by the hell she left behind her? She probably
did.
He would have gone a different way to avoid her, but there was no other
way to go. The room he'd
just left was at the end of the corridor and
his own room and the stairs were beyond Amanda's room.
He could just
stand there and wait for her to go away, but she looked too determined
to speak to him
for him to wait her out.
He decided to beat her to it, marched past her, and said, "At this
precise moment, if you weren't her sister, I'd wring your neck. So
don't say a—"
"So she finally told you the truth? It certainly took her long enough."
He swung around. "What truth? That she can't bear the sight of me now
after what you did?"
"If you believe that, you're a fool, cowboy. She tried to convince me
of the same thing. I even
believed it until I opened her—"
"I have news for you, Amanda. You've lied, tricked, and manipulated
once too often for anyone to believe a word you say. So save your
breath, please."
"Well, I never," she huffed indignantly, her nose raised in the air.
"And here I was going to do you
a favor since I'm feeling so
benevolent."
"Did it ever occur to you that I was making love to her, or thought I
was, because I cared about her? Because I wanted to
marry her. Her, not you. So the only favor you could possibly do for me
is to
tell me it wasn't you that day. But since that isn't possible—"
He stopped when she started to laugh. "You don't trust your own
instincts much, do you, cowboy?
I hate to break up a great rant, but
you get your wish. It wasn't me. So I lied a little," she added with
a
shrug. "You got out of marrying me, so no harm was done."
He stared at her incredulously. "What the hell do you mean it wasn't
you?"
She tsked at him. "Exactly that. I saw the two of you enter the stable
that day, and since I was bored
to tears, I went down to find out what
you were up to. I overheard you making love and decided to
take
advantage of that knowledge.
It was a gamble. If nothing else, your
little secret would have been
let out of the bag. But Mari was too
shocked to call me a liar, and you were too dense not to know
which
sister you'd made love to. Like I said, you should have trusted your
own instincts. If you'd
called my bluff, Mari probably would have
supported you, and it would have ended right there. But
either way, you
got out of it, so no harm was done."
"You're lying."
"Actually, for a change I'm not. Ask her. If she denies it, you'll know
she's lying. She's not very good
at it. Or you could just look in her
trunk. She's got a couple paintings of you—one is rather revealing.
I
found them the day Kathleen taught her to ride. Yes, I snoop. So what?
Being
on that ranch was
driving me mad with boredom."
She chuckled again at his expression before she stepped back into her
room and closed the door on
him. She'd done what she'd intended,
shocked him so thoroughly that he just stood there, unable to absorb it
all.
She was deliberately causing trouble again. What other reason could
there be, for her? A favor? She'd probably never done anyone a favor in
her life.
That he wanted to believe her was almost proof that he shouldn't, since
she so often set up situations
to shock or severely disappoint people.
Of course it wasn't true. Marian would have told him. She wouldn't have
let him go on this long, berating himself for having made such a
colossal mistake.
He glanced back down the corridor. She was alone in her room. If
nothing else, Amanda had given
him a reason to talk to Marian again.
They could get angry at Amanda together. Find some common ground.
He didn't knock. Actually, he expected the door to be locked this time.
It wasn't. She'd probably been
too angry to think about locking it when
she'd slammed it shut on him.
He found her sitting on the edge of her bed, staring at a canvas she'd
unrolled. She was so deep in
thought she hadn't even heard him enter
and close the door again, though she did hear his footsteps
as he approached. She glanced
up and gasped.
But instead of telling him immediately to get out, she quickly rolled
the canvas back up and shoved
it on the bed behind her. She stood up,
and only then started glaring at him.
"What are you doing back here?"
Without answering he nodded toward the canvas behind her, and asked,
"Mind if I have a look at that?"
"I do mind."
He was standing next to her now. "I've been advised to look at it
anyway, so I think I will."
"No!" she exclaimed.
Her protest wasn't going to stop him at that point. If he had to
apologize afterward, so be it, but he
was going to see what she was
hiding. He grabbed the canvas and turned away from her when she
tried
to snatch it back from him.
He unrolled it, heard her say, "Damn you, you have no right."
He was disappointed. It was a portrait of him. A damn good one, but it
told him nothing. So she'd
painted him. It was her hobby, something she
enjoyed doing, and she was very good at it.
He turned back around, blushed a little as he handed the canvas back to
her. "I'm sorry. My father
would probably buy that from you. It's an
amazing likeness."
"My paintings aren't for sale," she said stiffly.
He started to shrug, then remembered there were supposedly two
canvases, and said, "Where's the
other one?"
"What other one?"
"You painted two of me."
"I didn't," she insisted, but now she was blushing. "Who told you that?"
"Your sister just told me."
She snorted. "And you believed her?"
He frowned. "If you weren't blushing, I'd say no. But she was right,
you're not very good at lying."
"I'm very good at kicking unwelcome intruders out of my room. I'm going
to start screaming in one second if you aren't on your way out the
door."
"Go ahead," he dared her. "Then the entire floor can find out what
you're hiding."
He'd already spotted her trunks in the corner. He headed toward them.
She didn't scream. She raced around him and sat down firmly on one
trunk.
She pointed a finger at him. "That's far enough. You are not going to
rifle through my personal belongings."
He shook his head at her. "Mari, do you realize how oddly you're
behaving? And why? Over an exceptional talent that you want to keep to
yourself?"
He didn't wait for an answer. He lifted her off the trunk, held her
back with one arm while he opened
it. There were two rolled canvases
resting on top of the clothes she hadn't unpacked. He reached for
one and howled—she'd
slammed the trunk lid down on his arm.
He managed to get his arm out, and he turned toward her. But before he
could say anything, she
threw herself at him. And kissed him. He knew
she was doing it to distract him from her trunk, and, damn, it worked.
He gathered her close, molded her body to his. She locked her arms
around his neck. There was desperation in her efforts, but it was so
close to passion it took him a while to note the difference.
He still
wasn't going to refuse what she was offering, when he'd been starving
for the taste of her
for too long.
He lifted her hips against the swelling in his loins. Her groan was
lost in his mouth, slanting across hers. Her feet already off the
floor, he started walking toward her bed, reached it, managed to get
them on it without breaking the embrace, his body half-covering hers.
She was clinging tightly to him still, as caught up in the kiss as he
was. She wasn't in shock this time, knew what she was doing, which gave
him hope. He let his desire reign unchecked, touching her, he couldn't
get enough of touching her. His lips moved
to her neck, kissing her
there next to her ear. He reached for her skirt. . .
She immediately wiggled out from under him and shot off the bed. Now
why didn't that surprise him?
"You know, darlin', you can only push a man so far," he warned as he
stood up.
She was standing there panting for each breath, her lips swollen from
his kisses, her blue eyes almost black they'd turned so dark. But
Amanda wasn't the only twin who could have a one-track mind, and
Marian's was still on what she was hiding from him.
As if he hadn't spoken, she said, "All right, I'll tell you what's in
the trunk if you'll stop this nonsense.
It's not something that I'm
hiding from you, it's something I don't want anyone to see. It's a
nude, the
first I ever attempted, and since I didn't have a model, it's
not the least bit accurate. I can easily paint from memory, but in this
case I simply used my imagination. I'd always wanted to do a nude, I
just
never had an interesting enough subject to attempt it before, and
I painted it prior to you and Amanda ..."
She didn't finish. She didn't have to. She was blushing again, but it
could just be because of the
subject, rather than a lie.
Interesting she called him. She saw him as interesting—artistically.
Under the circumstances, that was about as unflattering as she could
get.
And he was starting to feel like an ass. So she'd painted a nude of
him. Nudes were common. For all
he knew, all artists painted them. And
while he'd like to see it, it would prove nothing. As usual,
Amanda had
merely caused emotional turmoil by suggesting otherwise.
He tried to relieve her embarrassment—as well as his own. With a grin,
he asked, "You want a model?"
"No!"
He shrugged. "Didn't think so." He turned to leave, then paused. "My
apologies, Mari. You'll think
about what I said earlier?"
"Absolutely."
Too strong a word, which meant she wouldn't. Just as he'd feared, all
his chances to win her had died
the moment she'd heard that he had made
love to her sister.
Chapter
55
"WHAT'D YOU DO, PRESS your ear to the door?"
"Of course," Amanda admitted, then complained, "My room would have to
be across the hall from
hers this time, rather than next to it."
She'd opened her door again the very moment Chad had stepped back into
the corridor. He didn't
try to avoid her this time. Actually, she was
standing in the middle of the hall, so he couldn't.
"That does make it hard to eavesdrop, doesn't it?" he said, his tone
sarcastic.
"Yes, unless voices get raised," she agreed, then raised a brow at him.
"What do I have to do,
lead you through this step by step?"
"You could try minding your own business, or is that too much to ask?"
"When you're making such a muck of yours?"
"You made a muck of mine. And
you still are. If you were a man, I'd—"
"Yes, yes, I'm sure you would," she cut in impatiently. "You didn't ask
her, did you? You were
supposed to tell her you knew the truth. That's
the only way you're going to get her to drop her
defenses. You can't
get rid of the hurt unless you lay it bare, and you can't get to that
point unless
you find it first. She'll never own up to it on her own.
She's too proud for that."
"You're bored again, aren't you?" he guessed. "Three days with nothing
to do until Bridges returns
to town. That's what this is all about,
isn't it? Just a new scheme for your entertainment because it
amuses
you to trifle with other people's emotions."
She sighed. "I'm trying to help you. If you'd just get over past
grievances for a few minutes, you'd
see that. I've given you the truth.
I even told you where to find the proof of what I said. But you
didn't
even bother to look at the paintings, did you?"
He sighed. "The painting of a nude isn't proof of anything, Amanda."
"Of what?"
"Mari told me she painted a nude of me because she found me an
interesting subject. Hardly flattering, and definitely not proof."
Amanda started to laugh. "Oh my, that's priceless. She told you about
it instead of letting you actually
see it. Good for her. Threw you off
track and kept you from seeing the real painting. I didn't think
she
had it in her, to lie that well."
"But you do."
"Sure I do. It's an art, you know. But occasionally it isn't useful to
lie, and this is one of those occasions.
I told you I'm feeling
benevolent, so let me tell you about the real painting. She rendered
you lying in a bed of straw, in the process of removing your shirt. And
looking up at her, your expression is so filled with passion, there's
no doubt you're looking at a woman. She would have had to be standing
over you
to have that view. Did she? I only eavesdropped, so I didn't
actually see you two. But the painting says
it all, a perfect likeness,
even shows a scar near your navel. That's not something she could have
imagined, unless you don't really have a scar there. Do you?"
"You should know," he gritted out. "You were the one standing over me."
Amanda rolled her eyes. "I don't paint. I tried it once and was so
embarrassed by my lack of talent,
I never touched a brush again. I've
always been jealous of Mari's talent. I admit it. She got all the
artistic ability, leaving me none. So I had to create a talent of my
own.
"To manipulate people."
"Yes, how astute of you," she said dryly. "But wake up, cowboy. That's
not what I'm doing here.
What's preventing you from seeing the truth?"
He gritted out what she was overlooking, "For the simple reason that
she would have told me. She
wouldn't have let you get away with such a lie."
"But she did. Find out
why, and you'll probably find the hurt you need to mend."
* * *
For the fourth time that day, Chad turned the handle on Marian's door.
It was locked this time. He
had no patience left to knock. He slammed
his shoulder against the door. It didn't give.
But he heard from the other side, "Don't you dare!"
He slammed his shoulder against the door again. Damn door still didn't
give way. But she opened
it before he tried a third time and stood
there with a furious glare.
"I don't believe you just did that!" she hissed.
"And I don't believe you let me think, even for a minute, that I made
love to Amanda!"
She caught her breath, stared at him. He walked past her into the room,
so angry at that moment that
he probably shouldn't say another word.
He swung around. "You would have let me marry her based on a lie!"
She lowered her gaze from his. "No, I wouldn't have. I would have
spoken up if you'd been forced
to go through with that—even though I
didn't think you'd appreciate it, or that it would matter."
"How could it not matter?"
"If you didn't believe it. And at the time, I was sure you wouldn't.
But I would have made the effort
anyway. There was no point, though, after Amanda married Spencer."
"No point? No point! Just leave me agonizing over what I thought was
the biggest mistake of my life? You were never going to tell me, were
you?"
"No."
"Why the hell not?"
"You know why. I thought you were making love to me, but you weren't.
You thought it was her
all along."
"I told you I didn't."
"And I told you I don't believe you. I was there! Yes, it was me. So
you can't deny you called me
by her name. You were sure it was her!"
"Hell, Mari, that's what this is all about?" he said incredulously.
"Yes, for the briefest moment I did
get a little confused and thought
it might be Amanda. Your boldness just surprised me. But only for
a
moment."
As she turned away from him, she saw his shoulders slump. She really
didn't care. Just as on that
day in the stable, she was going to say
nothing.
Chapter
56
MARIAN WASN'T SURE WHAT to say to him, or if she could even get any
words out past the lump
in her throat. Was she just supposed to believe
him, when all this time she'd been sure he was still
pining for Amanda?
Everything he'd said sounded good. Too good. That was the problem. How
could she just accept it
all when she'd drawn such opposite
conclusions? It would mean she'd been an utter fool. That she'd
let her
difficulties with her sister go too far.
But she did owe him a better explanation than she'd given. She turned
back to him—and found
him gone.
She caught her breath in surprise. She hadn't heard him leave. And he'd
left with the wrong impression. That wouldn't do. He'd intruded in her
room several times that day, she could do the same to him.
But he'd left the hotel. She began to panic, imagining what he must be
thinking. She should just wait
for him to return,
but she couldn't. She had no idea where he might be, but she'd find
him. He hadn't been gone that long.
She found him on a corner in the center of town, just standing there
with his hands shoved in his
pockets, as if he'd been doing the same
thing she'd done earlier—wandering aimlessly in thought. It
was very
late in the afternoon, almost evening. Businesses were closing for the
day; people were
rushing home from work, making the sidewalks and
streets much more crowded than usual. It was
the heavy traffic that had
probably stopped him where he was.
He was drawing curious stares from passersby because of his
Western-style coat, boots, and the wide-brimmed hat that Easterners
weren't used to seeing. At least he wasn't wearing his gun holster.
That had been packed away since they'd reached Chicago.
She approached from behind him. At least she'd had the presence of mind
to wear her veil again.
She'd already seen three people she knew,
though they hadn't recognized her.
A crowded corner wasn't exactly the ideal place to have a conversation,
but no one else was standing
still, so she didn't think they'd be
overheard. She was josded a few times before she got up the nerve
just
to say what needed to be said.
"The moment the notion took hold that you thought I was Amanda that
day, it colored my judgment
on everything
else."
At the sound of her voice he turned around. Realizing where they were,
he took her arm and started walking, so at least no one passing would
hear more than a word or two of what they were saying.
"I knew you were
angry. I was going to explain, but Amanda never gave me a chance to. I
was
shocked, more than anything else, when she claimed what she did. I
knew deep down that you were
the woman I'd made love to, but when you
didn't correct her outlandish insinuations, I didn't know
what the hell
to think anymore."
She started blushing, and told him, "I suppose I didn't have enough
confidence in myself to speak up immediately. I still couldn't believe
that you'd prefer me over Amanda."
"But I did," he insisted.
"Let me finish. I wasn't supposed to be the sister of choice, for any
man. For a long time I went
through a lot of effort to make sure I
wouldn't be."
"Why?"
"To prevent exactly what happened. Why do you think Amanda claimed what
she did? It wasn't just about the inheritance. It was because she was
jealous that you could want me instead of her. It's
always been that
way with her. It's why I tried to conceal the fact that we are twins.
My disguise,
the insults, were to make sure men would only notice her."
"So she might get jealous. That was no reason for you to change your
appearance completely and
live with that lie indefinitely."
"I felt it was. You see, it never failed that if a man showed even the
slightest interest in me, or vice
versa, she'd lure him to her instead,
by any means, even making love to him if that's what it took.
And after
she rubbed it in my face that he was hers, she'd then cast him aside,
inflicting a good deal
of emotional pain in the process to punish him
for having thought about me in the first place. I didn't
want to see
that happen to you."
"You couldn't tell me that at the time?"
"That I'd fallen in love with you? No, Amanda had to get married first
before I could admit to that."
He stopped, grinned, tilted her face up to his. "You love me?"
"I didn't say that, I said—don't confuse the issue. I'm trying to
explain—"
"Darlin', nothing else
matters if you love me."
She should just accept that, grab her happiness, and to hell with
everything else.
"Yes it does. Aside from my feelings, I still don't see how you could
love me, me, when you didn't
even know the real me. It's just this
face, her damn face—"
"It's time for you to hush up again, Mari," he said gently and lifted
her veil so he could cup her cheek. "You think I don't know you? You're
the one who showed such concern for me that you nearly
chewed my tail off for it
when I stood down those stage robbers. You're the one who showed
remarkable courage— or foolhardiness—when you thoughtlessly tried to
take on a mountain man
four times your size just to help me. You're
kind, you're considerate, you worry about others' feelings—maybe a
little too much. I admire your gumption; I admire your talent.
Actually, I think
you're kind of wonderful. You're the one I fell in
love with, Mari, and before I ever saw your real
face, before I knew
you were her twin."
She stared up at him in awe. "You really mean it, don't you?"
He cupped both cheeks now. "I want you for my wife. Will you marry me?"
She threw her arms around his neck. She laughed. "Oh, yes, yes! If you
hadn't asked, I probably
would have."
He laughed as well and started to kiss her, but someone bumped into
them with a mumbled apology. Marian was jarred enough to regain an
awareness of where they were. This really hadn't been the
place for
such a conversation. And she thought she'd recognized that voice. She
turned to look, but
didn't see anyone in the crowd whom she knew—and
then she did and went very still.
"What's wrong?" Chad asked.
She looked back at him, her eyes wide. But then she shook her head.
"Nothing. Just my imagination seeing things."
"Bridges?"
"No, it—" She didn't finish, looked down the street again, frowning. "I
know I'm being silly, but let
me make sure. I'll be right back."
She hurried in the direction she'd seen the man go. Chad was close
behind her, but she didn't wait
for him. There was just no way in hell
she could be right about who she'd seen, and it would only
take a
moment to prove it.
She caught up with the man, tugged on his arm to stop him. "Papa?"
He turned around, gave her an annoyed look, then continued on his way,
leaving her standing there
in utter shock.
Chapter
57
Marian didn't recall much about getting back to the hotel. Chad must
have found them a carriage for
hire because she vaguely recalled
sitting in one. She was just too dazed. So many thoughts were racing
through her mind. How could it be
possible? Nothing fit. It
didn't make
sense! Everything kept coming back to one glaring fact. He knew
her,
and still kept right on going.
And he'd spoiled the happiest day of her life. That was the only thing
that had happened today that
didn't surprise her. So typical of her
father, but so utterly ironic, since for once, he didn't do it
deliberately.
Chad escorted her straight to Kathleen's room. And her aunt only had to
see her face to ask in alarm, "What happened?"
Chad answered, after he sat Marian down on the sofa, "She thought she
saw her father."
"That isn't possible."
"I know, but the resemblance must have been close enough to—"
"It was Papa," Marian interrupted quietly, glancing up at her aunt. "He
looked directly at me, not
a foot away from me. It was
Papa."
Kathleen sighed. "Well, I can't say I'm delighted to hear it. The best
thing Mortimer ever did for
you gals was to the. So he couldn't even do
that right?"
Marian was coming out of her daze. She shot to her feet in agitation.
Her aunt had been alone in her
room when Chad brought her there, but it
was getting close to the dinner hour when the rest of their
party would
be joining them. Kathleen's room was larger than the other rooms so a
dining table had
been set up in it.
"Mandy is going to go crazy over this news," Marian predicted.
Kathleen disagreed. "She'll probably be too happy to ask for
explanations."
"I thought y'all buried him?" Chad said.
"We did, but it was a closed casket. I never thought to ask why."
"So the wrong man got buried, and your father has been missing all this
time. Amnesia?" Chad guessed.
"That would certainly explain it," Kathleen agreed.
"I suppose it would," Marian added, frowning deep in thought.
"Except—he would have had to only
just gotten his memory back today, or
within the last couple days."
"Why?"
"Because Albert's sister is living in our old house, which means Albert
is, too," Marian said.
"Papa probably doesn't know that yet."
"And how'd you find that out,
when you were supposed to be lying low?"
Kathleen asked.
Marian made a face. "I went for a walk. I didn't intend to go in that
direction, I just wandered there aimlessly and happened upon Albert's
sister coming home. But I took precautions," she added, tapping
the
veiled bonnet that was still on her head. Then she removed it. "No one
recognized me."
Kathleen nodded, and said, "You know, there's another explanation that
just occurred to me."
"What?"
"The man you saw might be your father's twin."
"He didn't have one."
"Maybe he did. They run in our family. And I wasn't around when he was
born, to know one way or
the other. There could have been two of them.
Our mother was certainly selfish enough, and lacking
in motherly love,
to have given one of her babies away if she didn't want to be bothered
with two."
"That's a bit far-fetched," Chad said.
"Yes, it is. But crazier
things have happened," Kathleen insisted.
"Except he knew me," Marian reminded them.
Kathleen blinked, then said in exasperation, "That's right, you said
you were standing right next to him.
So what did he
have to say about all this?"
"He didn't stay to chat, and I was too shocked to follow him again. I
got his annoyed don't-bother-me-now look that he always reserved just
for me."
Chad patted the seat next to him on the sofa to lure Marian back down.
She obliged, and they both got
a raised brow from Kathleen when his arm
went around Marian's shoulder and she didn't shrug it off.
"There's more news to impart today?" Kathleen wanted to know.
"Yes," Marian said, with a slight blush and a grin. "But now isn't the
best time to mention it.
Kathleen chuckled. "Congratulations anyway."
"For what?" Amanda asked as she sashayed into the room without
knocking, Spencer close on her
heels. Before she got an answer, she
said, "Dinner isn't here yet? I'm famished."
"You ate enough for two people at lunch, and the sun hasn't even
finished setting yet. What have
you been doing to work up such an
appetite?"
Kathleen had asked the question in all innocence, but Amanda blushed
furiously, while Spencer stood there smirking. "Oh," Kathleen said,
then quickly got back to answering Amanda's original question
with a
grin. "Mari and Chad have finally figured out that they like each
other."
"Thanks to my help," Amanda
crowed.
Kathleen and Marian both stared at her incredulously, but Chad
whispered in Marian's ear, "I'll tell
you about it later, but she is
actually responsible for my persistence today."
"Amanda doing me a good turn?" Marian whispered back with a soft snort.
"When cows learn
how to—"
"You're procrastinating, darlin," he cut in. "Just tell her and get it
over with."
Marian blinked. He did know her
very well. She was anticipating that
her sister would throw a serious
fit over this, because of all the
traveling and bother she'd been put to—unnecessarily. It was yet
another thing she didn't want to witness on the happiest day of her
life. But there was no way of getting around
it. Amanda couldn't be
kept in the dark.
"Papa's alive, Mandy. I saw him today in town. There was no mistake, it
was him. We've already concluded he must have lost his memory and only
just now regained it."
"But what did he have to say for himself?" was all Amanda asked.
Marian frowned. Amanda's reply was way too calm under the
circumstances. And then she recalled
that her sister hadn't been
shocked over the news of their father's death either.
"You knew!?" she accused her.
"No, I just never accepted that he was dead," Amanda said with a shrug.
"It didn't feel real, if you
know what I mean. And now I know why, since he wasn't dead at all. You
really think he lost his memory?"
Marian was too amazed at Amanda's tepid reaction to answer immediately.
"There isn't much else
that can explain why we buried the wrong man."
"You didn't bury anyone," Stuart said as he entered the room.
Kathleen swung around to face him. "What's that supposed to mean?"
"The coffin was empty."
Kathleen gasped, her eyes wide with alarm. "My God, you didn't dig it
up, did you?"
He snorted at her. "Didn't have to. Just got back from a visit to the
local police. They laughed in my
face when I mentioned Mortimer Laton
died a few months ago. Looks like Mortimer and his cohorts
kept that
funeral pretty quiet, and all traces of the burial were removed after
the gals left town. The
whole thing was a total sham. Mortimer Laton
has been here all along, going about his business as
usual."
"That isn't possible," Amanda insisted, shaking her head firmly.
"Albert must have found someone
who resembles him to impersonate him,
to make it easier for him to get his hands on everything. But Papa's
back now. It doesn't matter where he's been or why Albert thought he
was dead. He'll make
them pay—if he hasn't already."
Chapter 58
IT TOOK TWO CARRIAGES to transport them all, since no one wanted to
stay
behind and miss the confrontation with Albert's sister. It was too bad
Albert wouldn't be there for it. Mortimer might be, though. He'd been
heading in that direction. They might arrive in time to see the woman
and all her belongings being tossed out on the street. Then again,
Mortimer might not even know that all his
wealth had been transferred
to his lawyer. It really was possible that he'd regained his memory
only recently and returned to Haverhill that day.
Chad held Marian back from getting in the first carriage, then waved it
on and hailed another. Rather enterprising of him, to manage to get her
alone amidst all the turmoil. She didn't mind. In fact, she
was pleased
to have a break from discussing her father's miraculous return from the
dead.
"Are you all right?" he asked her as he put his arm around her and drew
her close to him.
"I'm fine now. Really." And then she grinned at him. "We may have to
elope though. Papa probably won't approve of you the way Aunt Kathleen
does, and approval will be back in his hands now."
He raised a brow at her. "And you find that amusing?"
"No, I don't give a damn whether he approves or not. His return means
next to nothing to me. Any feelings I had for him died long before I
thought he did. He was a good provider, but he wasn't a good father any
way you look at it."
"I would like to marry you before we return to Texas. I suppose I could
ask his permission after this
all gets straightened out."
"Don't bother. Marriages can't be accomplished that quickly here
anyway."
He groaned. "The thought of having to wait, even a few more days—"
He didn't finish the thought. Instead, he started kissing her. A lot of
passion surfaced in that kiss with amazing speed, pointing out the
frustration he'd been living with for weeks. Her response was just as
passionate. Trying to deny that she loved him had been so futile. And
it felt so wonderful to admit it finally, and know for sure that her
love was returned.
This really was the happiest day of her life—and one of the most
confusing. The confusion returned as the carriage stopped
in front of her old house, which, unfortunately, wasn't very far from
the hotel.
She broke the kiss, said a bit breathlessly, "A ship's captain could
marry us. Actually, I think I'd really enjoy being confined with you in
a small cabin on the high seas. We don't have to return on the train
with the others, do we?"
He groaned at the thought of having her all to himself for weeks at
sea. "No, we don't. We don't need
to be here either. I'd as soon hear
about this secondhand."
She chuckled. "Your impatience is showing."
"Damned right it is," he growled, but then he sighed. "All right, let's
get this finished. I'm not going to
get your undivided attention until
this strange situation is settled. We should have brought a posse.
They
tend to settle things real quick."
She was laughing as she left the carriage, but sobered instantly upon
seeing her sister marching up
the path to the front door of their old
house. Knowing her, Amanda still considered it her house, and would
walk right in. Which probably wasn't a good idea, since it wasn't
really theirs anymore and wouldn't be until Albert was arrested and
charged with his crimes.
So she ran up the path to beat Amanda to the door and pounded on it,
blocking her sister from
opening it herself. It was opened almost
immediately by a butler neither of them recognized.
Amanda opened her mouth to demand entrance, but got beaten to the punch
again, by the butler's
saying, "Come in. You're expected."
That should have been all the warning Marian needed. If she hadn't just
shared such a distracting interlude with Chad on the way over, she
might not have been so surprised when she and the others followed the
buder to the dining room and found both her father and Albert's sister
sitting there having
a quiet dinner together.
"Let's keep this civil, shall we?" Mortimer said, and waved a hand
toward the chairs at the long table.
"Sit down. Dinner is being served."
No one moved. Amanda was displaying some long-overdue shock. Even she
could see that they'd been seriously wrong in their assumptions. And
for their father to be so blase* about it, as if he hadn't done
anything wrong. But that was so typical of him. He didn't like
confrontations. That was one of the reasons Amanda had been spoiled so
badly. He simply didn't want to deal with her tantrums, so he
gave her
whatever she wanted instead.
"Looks like you hit it right on the nose, Stuart. A total sham,"
Kathleen said, shaking her head.
"Is that you, Kathy?" Mortimer asked curiously.
"Sure is, brother." Kathleen took a seat at the opposite end of the
long table. "But don't worry,
I don't plan on staying long."
Mortimer shrugged. "You've aged well. I wasn't quite sure."
"Of course you were," Kathleen snorted. "You're just stalling."
He flushed slightly, but the woman sitting next to him threw her napkin
down on the table angrily,
and said, "Get out! All of you. We don't owe
you any explanations!"
That brought Amanda out of her shock long enough to screech, "Who the
hell are you?"
"Albert's sister," Marian supplied.
But woman was determined to speak for herself, "Your stepmother,
though I was hoping I'd never
have to say it—to you."
"You married her?" Amanda
gasped at her father.
"Yes, it was necessary," Mortimer replied.
Not exactly a normal way to put it, which had Marian guessing, "She was
your mistress, wasn't she?"
"Mortimer!" his wife complained. "I won't stand for being insulted in
my own house."
"Hardly an insult if the shoe fits, gal," Kathleen said with a smirk.
Marian realized her aunt was enjoying this, a little payback after so
many years, putting her brother
on the spot. She was thankful she was
able to read between the lines herself. Now that she was over
her
initial surprise, only her curiosity remained and most of it had
already been satisfied. After all,
she'd seen the baby.
"If this can't be discussed in a calm manner, I will have to ask you to
leave," Mortimer said to the
group at large, though he was looking at
Amanda when he said it. Then to his wife, he added,
"That goes for you
as well."
She blushed furiously, put her napkin back on her lap, and resumed
eating. She might be a shrew,
and rude beyond the pale, but obviously,
Mortimer didn't allow her to carry on in his presence.
From their party, only Kathleen and Stuart had sat down at the table.
Amanda was too agitated to sit. Marian didn't think she'd be staying
long enough to bother. Spencer and Chad were being particularly
supportive in sticking close to their sides.
Kathleen sat back and said casually if still somewhat sarcastically,
"So you married your mistress.
Good for you. But why did you need to
die to do it?"
He shrugged. "It was Albert's idea. I was simply going to get both
daughters married off with a small dowry and be done with it. But he
pointed out Amanda's temperament, and in the end I had to agree.
It has
been quite peaceful, having you out of the state, my dear."
Amanda was speechless for a moment, which allowed Kathleen to say, "So
all this just because you figured Amanda would raise a ruckus if you
married again? That's going to extremes just to avoid a tantrum or two."
Mortimer actually chuckled. "You always did have an odd way of putting
things, Kathy. But no, that
was only a small part of it."
"There's more?"
"Most definitely. I wasn't just starting fresh with a new wife, but a
new family. I have a son now, you see."
"So that's why you married
your mistress?"
He didn't answer directly, just said, "Regardless, I couldn't see
giving the girls any of my money when I've become quite selfish in my
affection for my son. They're females, after all. They will have
husbands to support them. It would have been a total waste leaving them
a portion of my estate when it would
just have gone to their
husbands—something I simply wasn't willing to allow now that I have a
son."
"I understand how you managed to fool the girls," Kathleen said, "but
how'd you manage to fool the whole town?"
He smiled at her. "Because hardly anyone actually knew about it."
"Impossible. A man of your prominence—"
"Let me finish," he cut in. "The news of my 'death,' the funeral,
everything was planned on a very tight schedule, so the girls could be
shipped off directly after the funeral, before they had a chance to
talk to anyone. Their callers were turned away at the door for those
few days before the funeral. No announcement was made in the newspaper,
but the girls rarely read the paper to wonder about that.
Only one of Amanda's beaux knew of my
'death' and we had a good tale lined up to tell him afterward,
or
anyone else who found out about the 'funeral,' but as it happens, he
was so devastated by Amanda's rejection of him that he left town
himself."
"And your servants? Did you pay them to keep silent?"
"That would have been a waste of good coin. No, the tale about my
'reappearance' worked very well
for the few people who knew about the
funeral. The explanation was it was merely 'assumed' that I
died, but
my body hadn't been recovered."
"Yes, I suppose that would keep people from wondering exactly who got
buried."
"Exactly. And I pretended to have a broken leg, to account for my
failure to make it back in time
to prevent a funeral from taking place."
"When did you make your miraculous 'return'?"
"The day after the girls' ship sailed, of course. The whole thing was
timed around that ship's departure date, to get the girls out of town
before too many people found out about our little hoax. A few of my
business associates were told of the 'death.' After all, the girls
would have thought it strange if no one showed up for the funeral."
"I wouldn't have," Marian put in.
Her father snorted at her, but went on with his explanation. "But those
who were told of the 'death'
were handpicked
because they weren't very astute. They readily accepted the explanation
afterward,
glad to have me back."
"And Amanda's endless stream of admirers?" Marian asked. "How did you
explain her absence to them?"
"A planned tour of Europe before she settled down."
"That she bragged to no one about before she left?" Marian scoffed.
"She didn't want to witness their disappointment at learning that she'd
be gone for a few months."
"And when she didn't return as they expected?"
He waved a hand dismissively. "Marriage, of course."
Kathleen shook her head. "Such an elaborate scheme, and all for what?
You aren't dead yet, Mort.
Your wealth is still yours to do with as you
please. If you didn't want any uproar over making the
boy your only
heir, you could have just kept it to yourself."
"And have them all fighting over my money when I am gone? They were
known as heiresses. All
of Amanda's suitors here expected a piece of
the pie. If something did happen to me, I didn't want
anyone fighting
over my estate. No, no indeed, there will be no contention. And there
would have
been none if the girls had just stayed in Texas where they
were sent. Why are they back here?" he
asked with distinct annoyance.
"Because your brilliant-idea man wasn't so brilliant in sending along
an accounting of your estate that Amanda would recognize as a lot of
bull. We thought Bridges had robbed the girls of their inheritance.
That's the only reason we're here."
He sighed. "Yes, he can be quite stupid at times."
His wife sputtered indignantly on her brothers behalf, but still kept
her mouth shut. Mortimer might
have married her to get their son under
his roof, but he probably didn't treat her as a real wife. It was
doubtful that there was any affection between them because he'd
apparently transferred all his love
to the boy.
"I still don't see why you didn't just wait until the girls married and
settled elsewhere. People do
start
new families late in life, Mort. It
happens all the time."
"Yes, in retrospect, that might have been best. But it was preferable
to have Amanda away from Haverhill. And it would have been difficult to
arrange a marriage for her elsewhere, when she had
no desire to leave
town. Besides, she's too jealous not to have caused trouble when I
married and acknowledged Andrew as my only heir."
"So what you're saying is you had to fake your death just because you
spoiled your daughter so
rotten that even you don't know how to deal
with her?"
"Basically—yes."
He was blushing again, acknowledging his weakness. Marian understood
perfectly, having lived with
them both. She knew the kind of uproar Amanda could cause and knew that
her father had never liked scenes of that sort. It didn't even surprise
her, really, that he'd come up with a plan to get Amanda out
of the
picture completely. He already had a new favorite. Amanda meant next to
nothing to him now; rather he considered her a liability.
Marian could care less, thankfully. But she actually felt a little
sorry for her sister. Just deserts? No,
his actions went beyond that.
This was having the father she'd adored her whole life fake his death
just to get her out of his life. And that was really the only reason
he'd done it. He'd made Amanda
what she was with his selfish
favoritism; but he wouldn't own up to that, wouldn't consider himself
at fault. The money was a minor issue. He just didn't want to be
bothered with a spoiled daughter
he didn't care about anymore.
It would have been much, much better if they had continued to think he
was dead.
She glanced at her sister. Amanda's eyes were a little glassy with
emotion. Her fists were clenched
at her sides, but she hadn't blown up
as everyone expected.
"You're a pathetic coward, Papa," Amanda said, surprising them all with
her quiet tone. "I knew you weren't dead. It just never felt like it,
so I didn't accept it. It feels like it now, though."
Having said that, Amanda turned and left the room, and the house. There
was only silence in her
wake for several long moments. Then Spencer walked slowly to the end of
the
table where Mortimer
sat. The older man started to rise in alarm,
because the younger man's face contained all the anger that had been
missing from Amanda's. Spencer's fist sat him back down, landing
squarely between his nose and mouth, doing damage to both.
"Don't worry," the Texan said in disgust. "I'm done. That was merely
for my wife, since she's too
much a lady to do it herself. And she
doesn't need your money, old man. She'll never want for
anything while
I'm around."
Spencer didn't wait for a reply, didn't want one. He did spit on the
floor, though, before he followed
his wife out.
Stuart stood up, stretched, held his hand out to Kathleen. "You were
lucky to get away from this
sickness before it infected you, darlin'.
We ready to go home?"
"Hell, yes." She grinned at him and took his hand to leave. She paused
at the door, though, to glance
back at her brother one last time. "You
know, Mort, you get out of life what you give. Ironic, isn't it,
that
no one gave a hoot when they thought you were dead. And you just spit
on the only person who might have cared that you're still alive. Good
thing she's come to her senses."
Marian and Chad were the only ones left. Mortimer hadn't bothered to
glance her way even once. His wife was still eating.
That was almost comic. She cared so little for him that she didn't even
bother to pretend some concern over the blood he was wiping off his
face.
Chad stood behind Marian, gripped her shoulders in sympathy, and said
in a voice that carried down
the table, "Want me to shoot him for you?
I will."
She burst out laughing, not at all surprised that she could laugh under
the circumstances. Her father simply had no effect on her anymore.
She turned around, grinned at Chad, and caressed his cheek. "You say
the sweetest things."
He rolled his eyes at her. Her response let him know that what happened
here today hadn't hurt her
the way it had Amanda.
"I believe you know where the door is," Mortimer said behind them in a
cold tone.
Marian merely glanced over her shoulder. She wouldnt have said
anything, didn't really feel a need to confront him as the others had
done, but the glare coming her way just rubbed her wrong. This man
had
ignored her all her life—except when he wanted to get rid of her, then
she'd had his full attention.
"I'd pity you," she said in a conversational tone. "But you know, you
just aren't worth it. I'd pity your new son, too, but he won't be worth
it either after you get done raising him to be just like you—that's
if
he's even really yours or just—"
"Get out!" Mortimer cut in furiously.
"Or just another travesty concocted by a crafty lawyer who seems to
prefer lies to the truth," Marian finished and, noting that Albert's
sister was blushing vividly, added with a chuckle, "Oh, that's
priceless. Enjoy your new family, Papa."
Chapter 59
THERE WAS A SHIP scheduled to depart the very next day. It was
recommended that the passengers board the night before, since it would
be sailing with the morning tide. Stuart still had business to attend
to in Chicago, so he and Kathleen were taking the train back. And as
Spencer preferred trains over
boats, he and Amanda were going with
them. Ella Mae, whohad
already elected to stay with Marian,
now that the
sisters wouldn't be living together anymore, volunteered to
accompany Marian on the sea voyage since she would need a chaperone—at
least for another day.
Amanda came to say good-bye while Marian was getting her luggage ready
to be transported to the ship.
They would all be having dinner together before they went their
separate ways. Of course, they would
be meeting again in Texas in a few weeks. Still, it was the first time
the sisters would be away from
each otlier for more than a
day.
At first Marian ignored Amanda. She didn't want to talk about their
father, as she feared Amanda had come to do. While Marian would just as
soon forget that he existed and wanted only to concentrate on her new
life and new husband-to-be, Amanda had taken a devastating blow that
day. On top of that, Amanda's life wasn't settled. Spencer might think
it was to go by what he'd said after Amanda had left Mortimer's house,
but Amanda had yet to give that impression.
Amanda hadn't said anything yet. She was merely walking about the room,
touching things absently. Marian finally stopped what she was doing and
sat down on the bed with a sigh.
"You know I'm getting married tomorrow, or soon thereafter. I'm happy.
I love Chad. I suspect I'm
going to love being his wife. We managed to
find each other despite your efforts to ruin—"
"I'm glad you got that straightened out," Amanda cut in. "I figured you
would have told him the truth.
I never figured you'd be so stubborn
about keeping it to yourself."
Marian just stared at her. "He mentioned something about your being
responsible for his persistence earlier today. Is that why?"
"Of course. It wasn't my intention to sabotage your little romance. I
was just bored to pieces at the
time, waiting for
Spencer to show up again. You were supposed to expose the lie
immediately, be a
little embarrassed over it, get out of your hiding
mentality, get married—"
"Wait just a minute," Marian cut in now. "If you're trying to say that
it was a convoluted attempt at matchmaking on your part, remember to
whom you're talking."
"Don't be silly. You'd already done the matchmaking. You did make love
with him, after all. That
spoke for itself. I was merely hurrying
things along to keep them interesting."
"Because you were bored."
"Yes, and I guess I'm trying to say, well, that I'm sorry it got so
messed up instead."
"All right, what do you want, Mandy?"
"Nothing."
"Bull. You don't apologize without a reason. You don't do things just
to be nice, either."
"Mari, I know I have a lot of
faults. You don't need to point them out.
Being away from Father in
Texas, you could say I woke up. Without him
around approving of every little thing I did, I began
to see that some
of the things I did were just plain—horrible."
Marian was rendered speechless for a moment, then asked, "What's this
really about?"
"Spencer." Amanda sighed. "He's never going to love me the way I'd
hoped—the way Chad loves
you. I amuse him is all."
"Then you want him to love
you?"
"Well, certainly. He's my husband, isn't he?"
"One you didn't want," Marian reminded her.
Amanda waved a hand. "That was merely for effect. I wasn't going to let
him know just how much he means to me, when he's been mostly
indifferent. I do have some pride, you know."
"You mean he's not letting you wrap him around your little finger?"
Marian guessed.
"You don't have to be sarcastic about it. But no, he's not. He could
care less about what I want. He doesn't make the least effort to please
me."
"Do you?"
"What?"
"Make any effort to please him?"
Amanda snorted. Then she frowned and actually thought about it, finally
confessing, "I suppose not.
I've been too busy trying to keep him from
guessing that I love him."
That sounded too familiar by half. It was exactly what Marian had
done—foolishly. "I'm going to give you some sisterly advice, because I
just got out of that boat myself. Be honest with him. Tell him. You
might just be surprised to find out that maybe he's been doing the same
thing . . . hiding his real feelings."
Amanda agreed to give it a shot and must have, because she was looking
damned pleased with herself
at dinner that night. Marian caught up with
her as they were leaving the hotel. A coach was already waiting outside
for her and Chad, but he stopped to have a few last words with his
father, and Spencer was moving to join them.
Pulling her sister aside, Marian whispered, "You told him?"
"Yes."
"And found out he loves you, too?"
"No, he denied it," Amanda said, though she was grinning. "But I know
he was lying, so it's okay."
Marian rolled her eyes. "I'll see you when you get home, Mandy."
Amanda chuckled, then said, "Oh, I'd like a wedding portrait, if you
don't mind. Something I can
throw darts at when I get annoyed with my
husband."
Marian was still laughing as she joined Chad in the coach. He asked her
why, but all she said was,
"I think my sister is developing a sense of
real humor."
They did get married the next day at sea, and Marian found out with a
good deal of pleasure that
that turned out to be the
happiest day of
her life. Nothing else could come close to the euphoria
she'd
experienced from the moment she'd said, "I do."
And Chad made sure the day was special in every way. For a cowboy, he
was rather romantic. From
the flowers he had sneaked aboard and had Ella Mae scatter about the
deck during
the ceremony, so Marian wouldn't see them until they'd taken their
vows. From the candlelight dinner and ignoring
when his wineglass
rolled off the table before it was filled. From huddling with her in a
blanket on
deck that night to watch the full moon rising, which he
swore he'd ordered just for her.
And for making love to her for most of the day. After they were married
that morning, they'd retired immediately to his cabin, which they would
be sharing for the rest of the trip. They didn't surface for lunch and
were famished by dinner. But they'd both saved up a lot of passion for
consummating their marriage. It became a joke during the day that they
hadn't got it right yet, so they had to try again—
and again. Another
memory to savor. At one point she was sure they'd broken the bed.
They were both exhausted by the time they retired for the night. But
that didn't stop Chad from
pulling her close and when a few good-night
kisses got prolonged, finding out they weren't so
exhausted after all.
A while later Marian sighed contentedly and cuddled close. "I think we
may have finally got it right."
She grinned sleepily.
"You sure, darlin'?" he asked as he ran a finger down her arm, which
caused a shiver on the back of
her neck.
She leaned up in surprise. "You can't have any energy left. You really
can't."
He chuckled. "No, I don't. But I'd find some, since I don't think I'll
ever get enough of you." He pulled her toward him for a very gentle
kiss. "I love you, Mari. I'm going to spend the rest of my life showing
you just how much. When we're old and gray, and our grandchildren are
gathered around us—"
"Wait a minute. How many children did we have to produce those
grandchildren?"
"Oh, a half dozen or so—or maybe just three sets of twins."
She groaned. "Twins! I hope not."
"I hope so," he countered. "And they'll be raised without favoritism,
with all the love and care you're capable of, because that's the way
you are. You'd have it no other way."
"Okay, maybe two sets," she conceded with a grin. "And when we're old
and gray?"
"You'll have no regrets, darlin'. I promise you that."
She believed him. She never dreamed she could be so happy—with a
cowboy, just a cowboy,
but her cowboy. At last, a man to call her own.
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Jeremy Malory had been in some unsavory taverns before, but this one
was very likely the worst of the lot. Not surprising, since it was
located on the edge of what was quite possibly the worst of London's
slums, a neighborhood given over to thieves and cut-throats,
prostitutes and wild packs of urchin
orphans who were no doubt being
groomed into London's next generation of criminals.
He didn't actually dare to enter the heart of that area. To do so would
probably be the last his family would ever see of him. But this tavern,
on the very edge of that den of thieves, was there for
unsuspecting
to stumble upon, have a few drinks, and get their pockets picked, or if
they were stupid enough to let a room there for the night, to get
completely robbed, clothes and all.
Jeremy had paid for a room. Not only that, he'd spread his coins around
freely, buying a round of drinks for the few customers in the tavern,
and giving a good performance of being quite foxed. He had deliberately
set the stage for
a robbery—his own. But tlien diat's why he and his friend Percy were
there—to catch a thief.
Amazingly, Percy Alden was keeping his mouth shut for once. He was a
chatterbox by nature, and quite scatterbrained on top of that. Percys
keeping mostly quiet on this unusual outing attested to his state of
nervousness. Understandable. Whereas Jeremy might feel right at home in
this element, having been
born and raised in a tavern before his father
stumbled across him when he was sixteen, Percy was a member of the ton.
Jeremy didn't mind. He was rather fond of Percy after chumming about
with him for the last eight years. If he weren't, he certainly wouldn't
have volunteered to extricate Percy from his latest folly—getting
royally fleeced by one of Lord Crandle's gambler friends at a house
party last weekend. He'd lost three thousand pounds, his coach, and not
one but two family heirlooms. He'd been so bloody foxed, he didn't even
remember it, until one of the guests commiserated with him the next day
and told him all about it.
Percy had been quite done in, and rightly so. Losing the money and
coach were no more than he deserved for being so gullible, but the two
rings were a different matter entirely. One was so old it was
the
family signet ring, and the other, quite valuable because of its
gem-stones, had been passed down to the heirs of Percy's family for
five generations now. Percy would never have thought to use them as
betting tender. He had to have been
coerced, goaded, or otherwise duped into putting them in the pot.
All of it now belonged to Lord John Heddings, and Percy had been beside
himself when Heddings
refused to sell the rings back to him. Money the
lord didn't need. The coach he didn't need. The rings
he must have
considered trophies, a testament to his gambling skill. More likely a
testament to his cheating skill, but Jeremy could hardly prove it, when
he hadn't been there to witness it.
Had Heddings been a decent sort, he would have sent Percy off to bed,
instead of plying him further
with drink and accepting the rings into
the pot. Had he been a decent sort, he would have let Percy redeem them
for their value. Percy had even been willing to pay more than they were
worth. He
wasn't poor, after all, as he had already come into his
inheritance when his father died.
But Heddings wasn't interested in doing what was decent. Instead he'd
gotten annoyed at Percys insistence and downright nasty in the end,
threatening Percy with bodily harm if he didn't stop bothering him.
Which is what had annoyed Jeremy enough to suggest this alternative.
Percy was quite convinced, after all, mat his mother was going to
disown him over this. He'd been avoiding her ever since, so she
wouldn't notice the rings were missing from his fingers.
Since the two men had retired to the taverns upstairs room several
hours ago, there had been three attempts to rob them. Bungled attempts
each, and after the last, Percy was beginning to despair that
they
wouldn't find a thief to carry out their mission. Jeremy was more
confident. Three attempts in two hours meant there would be many more
before the night was over.
The door opened again. There was no light in the room. There was no
light out in the corridor either. If this new thief was any good, he
wouldn't need light, he would have waited long enough for his eyes to
adjust to the darkness. Footsteps, a bit too loud. A match flicked.
Jeremy sighed and in one fluid movement, left the chair near the door
where he was keeping vigil. He
was quieter about it than the thief had
been upon entering the room and was suddenly there blocking
his path, a
mountain of a man, well, in comparison to the short diief, but big
enough to scare the
daylights out of the urchin, who immediately bolted
back the way he'd come.
Jeremy slammed the door shut behind the fellow. He still wasn't
disheartened. The night was young.
The thieves hadn't gotten desperate
yet. And if it came down to it, he'd just keep one of them until they
agreed to bring him their best.
Jeremy almost missed the shadow moving stealthily across the room
toward the bed. He hadn't heard
the door open this time, hadn't heard
it close either, hadn't heard a bloody thing for that matter. If the
occupants
of the room really had been asleep, as was to be expected, they
certainly wouldn't have been awakened by this particular intruder.
Jeremy smiled to himself just before he lit a match of his own and
moved it over the candle on the table he'd placed next to his chair.
The thief's eyes had been drawn to him instantly. Jeremy hadn't moved
otherwise, was sitting there quite relaxed. The thief wouldn't know how
quickly he could move to
prevent his escape if he had to. But the thief
wasn't moving either yet, as he was apparently frozen in
his surprise
at being caught.
"Oh, I say." Percy raised his head. "Did we finally get lucky?"
"I'd say so," Jeremy replied. "Didn't hear him a'tall. He's our man, or
boy as the case may be."
The thief was starting to shake off his surprise, and probably didn't
like what he was hearing to go by
the narrowed, suspicious look Jeremy
was now getting. Jeremy ignored it. He looked for a weapon
first, but
didn't see the thief carrying one. Of course, he had his own hidden in
his coat pockets, a
pistol in each, so just because he didn't see one
didn't mean the lad didn't have one.
Much taller than the previous miscreants who'd tried their hand at
robbing them, and lanky besides, this thief was probably no more than
fifteen or sixteen, to go by those smooth cheeks. Ash blond hair so
light it was more white than blond, naturally curly, worn short. A
misshapen black hat several centuries out
of fashion. He wore
a gentleman's coat of dark green velvet, stolen no doubt, and quite
grubby looking now, as if it got slept in a lot. A discolored white
shirt was under it with a few ruffles at the neck, black trousers of
the long variety, and no shoes. Smart fellow, no wonder he hadn't made
a single sound yet.
Very flamboyant looking for a thief, but probably because he was such a
handsome young lad. And he was definitely recovered from his surprise.
Jeremy knew to the second when he would bolt and was
there at the door
before him, leaning back against it, crossing his arms across his chest.
He offered a lazy smile. "You don't want to leave yet, dear boy. You
haven't heard our proposal."
The thief was gaping again. It could have been Jeremy's smile, but was
more likely his speed in getting
to the door first. But Percy noticed
it this time and complained, "Damn me, he's staring at you the way the
wenches do. It's a man we're in need of, not a child."
"Age is irrelevant, old man," Jeremy replied. "It's skill we're in need
of, so the package it comes in
doesn't matter all that much."
The lad, blushing now, was insulted, apparently, and with a glower
toward Percy, spoke for the first
time. "Ain't never seen a nabob so
pretty is all."
It was the word "pretty" that started Percy laughing.
Jeremy was no longer amused. The last man who'd called him pretty had
lost a few teeth because of it.
"Look who's talking, when you've got the face of a girl," Jeremy said.
"He does, don't he?" Percy agreed. "You should grow some hair on those
cheeks, at least until your
voice drops an octave or two."
Yet another blush from the boy and a distinct grumble, "It won't
grow—yet. I'm only fifteen—I think. Just tall for m'age, I am."
Jeremy might have felt sorry for the lad because of that "I think,"
which implied he wasn't sure what
year he'd been born, which was
usually the case with orphans. But he'd noted two things
simultaneously. The boy's voice had started out high pitched, then
lowered before he finished his speech, as if he were going through that
awkward time in a boy's life when his voice started changing to the
deeper tones of manhood. And yet Jeremy didn't think it was a natural
slip; it had sounded much too contrived.
But the second thing he noticed upon closer examination was the lad
wasn't just handsome, he was downright beautiful. Now, the same thing
might have been said about Jeremy at that age, except
Jeremy's
handsomeness was decidedly male, while this lad's handsomeness was
decidedly female.
The soft cheeks, the lush lips, the pert little nose,
yet there was much more. The chin was too weak,
the neck too narrow, even the stance was a dead giveaway, at least to a
man who knew women
as
well as Jeremy did.
Still, Jeremy might not have drawn the conclusion he did, at least not
quite so soon, if his own stepmother hadn't used the same sort of
disguise when she'd first met his father. She'd been desperate to get
back to America, and signing on as James's cabin boy had seemed to be
her only option. Of course, James had known from the start that she
wasn't a lad, and to hear him tell it, he'd had a great deal of fun
pretending to believe she was a boy.
Jeremy could be wrong in this case. There was that slim possibility.
And yet he was rarely wrong where women were concerned.
But there was no need to expose her. Whatever reason she had for hiding
her gender was her business. He might be curious, but he'd learned long
ago that patience reaped the best rewards. And besides, they only
needed one thing from her—her talent.
"What do they call you, youngun?" Jeremy asked.
"None o' yer bleedin business."
"I don't think he's figured out yet that we're going to do him a good
turn," Percy remarked.
"Ye set a trap—"
"No, no, think of it as an opportunity for employment," Percy corrected.
"A trap," their thief insisted. "And I don't need wotever it is yer
offering."
Jeremy raised a black brow. "You aren't even a little curious?"
"No," said the thief most stubbornly.
"Too bad. The nice thing about traps is—you don't get out of them
unless you get let out. Do we look
like we're letting you out of this
one?"
"Ye look like ye've bleedin' well lost yer minds. Ye don't think I'm
alone, d'ye? They'll be coming for
me if I don't return when I'm
expected to."
"They?"
The question just got Jeremy another glower. He shrugged, unperturbed.
He wouldn't doubt she ran
with a pack of thieves, the very bunch that
had been systematically sending their numbers in, one at a time, to rob
the unsuspecting gentry who had blundered into their territory. But he
doubted they'd come looking for her. They'd be more interested in
obtaining the expected fat purse first, before they thought
of any
rescuing. If anything, they'd assume this attempt had failed, that
she'd been apprehended,
knocked out or killed, and would be sending in
the next thief soon.
Which meant they should wrap this up and be on their way, now that they
had their quarry in hand,
so Jeremy said congenially, "Sit down,
youngun, and I'll explain what you've volunteered for."
"I didn't vol—"
"But you did," he cut in. "When you came through diat door, you most
surely did volunteer."
"Wrong room," their thief tried to assert. "Ye've never walked into the
wrong room by mistake?"
"Assuredly, though usually with my shoes on," Jeremy said dryly.
She blushed again and swore a blue streak.
Jeremy yawned. Much as he'd enjoyed the cat-and-mouse bantering, he
didn't want this taking all
night. And they still had a good distance
to travel to reach Heddings's house in the country.
He injected a note of sternness in his tone when he ordered, "Sit down,
or I will physically put you in
that chair—"
Jeremy didn't have to finish. She ran to the chair, practically dove
into it. She definitely didn't want to
risk his touching her. He forced
back another smile as he moved away from the door to stand in front
of
her.
Percy, amazingly, injected a bit of logic into the proceedings. "I say,
we could explain this on the way, couldn't we? We've got our man. Is
there any reason to remain in these God-awful accommodations a moment
longer?"
"Quite right. Find me something for binding."
"Eh?"
"To tie him up with. Or haven't you noticed that our thief isn't being
the least bit cooperative—yet?"
At which point their thief desperately bolted for the door.
Jeremy had known it was coming, one more effort
to escape them before it was too late. He'd seen it in her eyes just
before she flew past him. He was at
the door before she could get it
open, though, and rather than just lean his weight against it to keep
her inside, he decided to find out conclusively whether he was right
about her sex and put his arms around
her instead. He'd been right.
Those were definitely female breasts under his forearms, packed down
flatly, but unmistakable to his touch.
She didn't just stand still there and let him discover that fact. She
turned around, and Good God, that
was even better, since he wasn't
letting go of her yet. The very last thing he'd expected to find that
night was a very pretty wench wiggling about in his arms. Now that he
was positive she was a wench,
he was quite enjoying himself.
"I suppose I should check you for weapons," Jeremy said, his voice
lowered to a husky note. "Yes, indeed, I really should."
"I ain't got—" she started to claim, but ended on a gasp as his hands
slid over her derriere and stayed there.
Rather than pat her pockets as his suggestion had implied, he gave each
rounded cheek a gende squeeze. Supple, soft she was, and suddenly he
felt an urge to do more than just feel her widi his hands; he
wanted to
press her loins firmly to his, pull down those ridiculous trousers she
was wearing, run his fingers over her bare skin and enter her wet
warmth. He couldn't have been
in a better position to do so, his hands cupping her luscious bottom.
But he was already rising to the occasion, as it were, and didn't want
her to know the effect she was having on him.
"Will these do?" Percy asked, holding up ripped-up strips of the bed
sheet and reminding Jeremy that
he wasn't alone with the girl.
With a sigh, Jeremy got back to the matter at hand and toted their
thief back to the chair and shoved
her into it. He leaned over her, his
hands on the arms of the chair, and whispered, "Stay there, unless
you
like having my hands all over you."