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Scandals
by Penelope Neri
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Copyright © 1999
by Penelope Neri
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For Barbara Snyder, with love.
"Love and Scandals are the best sweeteners for tea."
-Henry Fielding, Love in Several Masques
Chapter One
Hawthorne Hall, Whitby, Yorkshire, 1855
"I'm off for a gallop before luncheon, Joseph. Go on home to your Sunday dinner.
I'll rub him down."
"That's very good of you, m'lord," Victoria heard Lovett, the head groom, murmur
as he stepped away from her father's hunter. "I'll just take another look at
that mare before I leave."
"Good man. Give my regards to Mrs. Lovett."
With her father erect in the saddle, the snorting gray lunged forward, eager for
a gallop. A moment later, she heard the clatter of Samson's hooves on the
cobbled stableyard as Father rode away.
"Old Thorny's, gone, he has," Ned declared in a low, pleased voice as he ducked
back inside the stables. "Good riddance, I say! Now, come along wi' me, my lass.
I've got summat for you."
"You have?" Victoria asked, giggly with a mixture of excitement and nerves as
Ned took her by the hand. Old Thorny! So that was what the servants and workers
called her father behind his back? Given his irascible temper, it was an
appropriate nickname.
"Aye, lass," Ned murmured, leading her to a horse stall at the rear of the
stables. The shadows were deepest there, the gloom filled with the pungent
scents of horse, liniment and fresh straw.
"You're quite mad, you know, coming here in broad daylight. What if Father had
seen you? What then?" The risk of their being discovered alone together made her
breathless.
"But he didn't see me, did he?" Ned retorted cockily, catching her about the
waist. He grinned and winked down at her as he clasped his hands behind her
back. "I were careful, weren't I? I came over the fields, instead of up the lane
to the Hall. Besides, you're worth the risk, my lass." He flashed her another
smile. "Now, forget about him. Think about me, and what I've got for ye,
instead."
"What is it? Must I guess?"
"Nay. Just close thy bonny eyes, and don't look till I tell thee to."
"Oh, Ned. It's lovely!" Victoria exclaimed, opening her hyacinth-blue eyes
moments later. "Thank you!"
Her smile was dazzling as she looked down at the pretty little jet rose Ned was
clumsily pinning to her bodice. Jet jewelry was all the rage in society, and
this piece was exceptionally beautiful. Each dainty petal had been faithfully
rendered by a talented carver's hand, then polished to a high black gloss.
"Truly, I've never seen such a pretty piece of jet."
"The real name for it is lignite. Any road, that's what the Professor said," Ned
explained in his broad-voweled Yorkshire dialect. "It forms when a bit o'
driftwood gets packed down in the mud of the ocean floor. It takes thousands of
years to make a great dull lump in the shale. But after it's carved and
polished, it shines like thy hair."
Darling Ned. He was exactly like the jet, Victoria thought fondly, her heart
swelling with love as she threw herself into his arms. A true diamond in the
rough. But instead of being embedded in ocean mud, Ned was buried here, in the
northeast of England. Forced— by virtue of his poor birth— to labor on her
father's home farm, and as a miner in the rabbit warren of the Hawthorne jet
mines, his dear, fine qualities hidden beneath layers of shale.
Surely her love, like the carver's tools, could cut away the dross. Free the
precious, hidden gem that was Ned? After all, it was the honest sweat of him and
others like him in the Hawthorne jet mines, cotton mills and coal mines that had
made her father the very wealthy man he was.
Ned, bless him, provided the vital elements that were missing in her luxurious
yet empty life. The ones that no amount of money could ever buy. Warmth.
Affection. Love…
Ah, yes. She loved him so much. And he loved her, too…
With a low sound, Ned tugged the pins and combs from her upswept hair. Freed
from confinement, the long, glossy black curls unraveled to her waist. Her inky
lashes trembled on flushed cheeks as he ducked his unruly golden head to hers.
His gray eyes burned as he grasped a fistful of that shining mass and hungrily
bent to kiss her.
Tossing propriety to the winds, Victoria tilted her glowing face to his and let
him.
"By gum, I want thee, lass," Ned rasped, drawing her down onto the straw beside
him. Taking her slender hand in his large, rough one, he drew it to his lips. "I
want thee summat fierce."
With crystal clarity she saw his brown flat cap lying on the brick floor of the
box. Felt the coarse cloth of the threadbare brown jacket he'd worn to chapel,
spread over the fresh straw beneath her. Then the press of his hot lips burned
against her palm, her throat, like the fiery wings of a moth, and thought was
impossible…
"Victoria. I can't hardly bear it," he whispered thickly.
A thrill ran through her as she knelt there, her heart hammering in her breast
like a steam engine. All fear of discovery paled beside her love for Ned. Oh,
Lord. She would die if she ever lost him! Just die!
Ned made her feel beautiful. Special. Wanted. And he was so handsome, too, in a
rugged, working-man's sort of way, with that wiry build, that shaggy golden
hair, those pewter gray eyes.
He was very different from the smooth, cultured young men Father had begun to
dangle before her two years ago, when she became sixteen and he realized she was
a woman. Men with titles, who belonged to her own class. Men who were all
flattery and flowery phrases and insincere, painted-on smiles. They were nothing
but fortune hunters, drawn to her by her father's wealth, like moths to a flame.
Ned was nothing like them. All he wanted was her.
"I love you, too, Ned. And I shall miss you terribly while I'm in London."
London! Just thinking about the weeks— no, months— without him made her
miserable. As if she needed launching into Society like a— a sailing ship on its
maiden voyage! And as for finding a husband during her first season, as Father
and Aunt Catherine hoped— never!
The only man she wanted to marry was lying right here, beside her. Edward John
Thomas. Farm laborer. Jet miner. The man she loved, and who loved her in return.
It should all have been so simple, but it wasn't. Lord, no. She sighed. She and
Ned were worlds apart, in every way but the one that counted. Their love for
each other.
Somehow, she vowed silently, we shall be husband and wife, Father will have to
give his permission, once he realizes that I love Ned, and will marry no one
else.
"I'll miss thee, too," Ned said in response to her comment. When he smiled, as
he was doing now, she felt the warmth of it right down to her toes. "Don't thee
up and wed some rich toff while you're in the City, my lass," he reminded her,
trailing a coarse knuckle down her cheek.
"Silly. Of course I will not."
"Promise? Cross thy heart and hope t' die?"
"I promise."
"Good lass. Now come thee here, my beauty." He pulled her down to the straw
beside him and kissed her.
She moaned softly as his lips moved against hers, stiffening as his large hand
curled, ever so lightly, over the curve of her breast— and remained there.
The bold caress made her gasp in shock and disbelief. But his second kiss—
harder than the first, and given with open mouth and thrusting tongue— devoured
the protest she would have uttered. Swallowed it whole!
Pinned beneath Ned's chest, his knee pushing against the place where her thighs
were pressed together, she felt smothered, trapped.
What on earth was Ned doing? What had come over him? She could not speak— could
hardly breathe!— as his hand slipped beneath her hooped petticoat. Seconds
later, she felt his callused fingers squeezing her knee. "Don't!" she whispered
as his hand inched its way up her leg, scraping the scalloped hems of her
drawers, snagging on her silk hose.
"Stop it," she repeated sternly. Her hand covered his, halting his explorations.
Looking up into his blazing gray eyes, she was frightened by what she saw in
their depths.
"Stop? But why, lovie? If you really loved me, ye wouldna ask me to stop, my
lass," Ned said thickly. His gray eyes narrowed. "Or were ye but making sport of
me when ye said ye cared?"
"No, no, of course not. I'd never make fun of you, Ned," she assured him
earnestly. "Believe me, dearest, I love you."
"Aye? Then prove it, lass. Prove I'm good enough for the likes of her ladyship."
He sounded taunting rather than gently teasing now. "Prove I'm suited for better
than licking your father's boots, aye?"
"I love you, truly I do, Ned. But… but I can't do what you ask of me… not until—
not unless— we are marr—"
She froze as a great black shadow fell across them.
"Father! Nooo!" she screamed as Ned was lifted off her by the scruff of his
neck.
Her father towered over them, his broad frame black against the April sunshine
that streamed through the high windows. He looked very tall and terrible, etched
against that brightness. A dark god of retribution, sent from the Underworld to
punish her.
Ned, red-faced and choking, dangled like a dead rat from Lord Hawthorne's
clenched fist, while beyond the box the great hunter Samson snorted and stamped
his hooves, his reins dangling.
"You bloody bastard!" her father roared, slamming Ned up against the wooden box
with such force that his teeth rattled. His normally ruddy face was livid with
outrage.
The horses in the other stalls whinnied nervously and kicked at the wooden
partitions.
"Lay your filthy hands on my daughter, would you, you son-of-a-bitch? I'll give
you a thrashing you'll never forget!"
Chapter Two
Grabbing a riding crop from the tack wall, Lord Hawthorne brought the whip down
across Ned's head and shoulders, striking him again and again.
He did not stop even when crimson welts crisscrossed Ned's face, nor when the
swelling made his handsome features grotesque and unrecognizable.
Victoria's heart ached for his hurt, yet his courage filled her with pride. Not
a sound had escaped her brave darling, not even when blood flowed from the
splits in his lips. Rather, Ned endured the whipping in stony silence, his gray
eyes murderous and without remorse as he glowered up into her father's face.
"Enough, Father! Stop, before you kill him! Please don't hurt him any more! It
was all my fault!" she sobbed, trying to tug the riding crop from her father's
hand.
He thrust her away.
"Let go, you wretched girl. Get away from here," her father growled. "I'll deal
with you when I'm finished with this— whelp who came sniffing at your skirts.
Lovett!"
"Here, m'lord!" Joe Lovett called, hurrying into the stables at a run.
The head groom's eyes widened as he took in the scene.
His gaze flickered from Ned to her, his expression concerned.
Judging by Uncle Lovey's shocked expression, she must look a fright, with her
hair spilling loose about her shoulders. God knows, she felt close to swooning.
"I can trust you to be discreet, aye, Lovett?" her father growled, breathing
heavily yet maintaining his choking grip on Ned's collar.
"Always, m'lord," Uncle Lovey said firmly, glaring at poor Ned. "Let me take 'im
for thee, sir."
"No. I'll see that young Master Thomas leaves the grounds personally. And while
he's at it, the county, too! Escort her ladyship back to the house, if you will.
Then come back here. Victoria, to your room, immediately. Remain there until I
send for you."
"But, Father—"
"Do it!"
"Yes, Father," she whispered, casting a look of longing at Ned as Uncle Lovey
took her by the elbow and drew her away. "Oh, Father! Please, don't hurt him any
more! I beg you, please let him go—"
"Lovett," Hawthorne warned, cutting off her entreaty. "Get her out of here."
"Right away, sir."
"I won't just abandon Ned, Uncle Lovey. I can't! Father will k-kill him," she
sobbed. Her eyes swam with tears. "And I— I love him."
"If ye're askin' me, lass, the lout's got less than he deserves. He'll survive,
never fear. His sort always does. I just hope the same can be said o' you," he
added fervently.
By now they had reached the kitchens at the rear of Hawthorne Hall.
"Cook? Ring for my Lily will ye, love?" Lovett instructed the fat, red-faced
woman who was braiding strips of dough at the kitchen table. "Lady Victoria's
taken a wee spill. Happen ye've something hot and sweet to calm her nerves,
aye?"
"A spill is it? Poor lamb. Right away, Mister Lovett." Cook, beaming at being
called 'love' like a slip of a girl, wiped her floury hands on her bibbed apron
and yanked one of several bells set in the wall alongside the Welsh dresser.
There was an answering jangle in some distant corner of the Hall.
Victoria was trembling as Joe Lovett pressed her down onto a straight-backed
chair beside the wide fireplace.
She leaned back and closed her eyes, unable to erase the memory of poor Ned,
beaten and bleeding as he dangled from her father's fist. Her hands were still
trembling as she silently urged Lily, her maid, to hurry, please hurry.
She did not care if Cook and the rest of the kitchen staff were watching her
with open curiosity. Nor did she dread the coming summons to her father's study.
Nor did she consider for a moment what would happen if word of her indiscretions
became grist for the gossip mills of London on the eve of her first Season.
Dear Lord, no!
All she could think about was Ned. All she wanted was to fly into Ned's strong
arms. To kiss away Ned's hurts and become Ned's bride. Ned. Ned. Ned. Her every
thought, her every wish was for Ned. He was the spring in her step, the song in
her heart, the light in her eyes!
When Lily arrived, she would send her to the Thomas farm post-haste, carrying a
note that urged Ned to be strong and patient. A note promising that she loved
him— would always love him.
And then, when he'd recovered from her father's thrashing, they would run away
together and be married, exactly as she'd dreamed. Despite her father's
disapproval and her Aunt Catherine's plans to the contrary, she would be Ned's
bride someday.
Come hell or high water…
***
Victoria paused before the door to her father's study, her courage deserting her
momentarily.
She had not seen Father since the incident in the stables two days ago. Nor had
Ned sent any replies to the urgent notes she had sent him via Lily, her maid.
Consequently, she felt cut off, abandoned, angry and frightened, by turns.
Surely Ned must be at death's door, if he was unable to answer her letters. Or—
had her father killed him?
Surely not.
Her fears and doubts heated her anxiety to a fine boil. She was so on edge now,
she thought she might shatter into a thousand fragments at the drop of a hat.
With nervous hands, she smoothed down the folds of her blue plaid morning gown
with its fitted cap sleeves, patted the clusters of jet-black ringlets that
bobbed over each ear to frame her face. Then, drawing a deep, calming breath,
she tilted her chin and swept into the lion's den.
Her father, Lord Roger Hawthorne, stood before ceiling-to-floor windows draped
in wine-red velvet.
Beyond lay a charming view of the gardens her mother had planted twenty years
before, when she first became mistress of Hawthorne Hall. Sheaves of her roses
had covered her coffin when they laid her to rest in the Whitby churchyard,
Victoria remembered, for Mama had fallen from her horse and been killed when
Victoria was just seven years old.
Hands clasped behind his back, her father did not turn to face her as she came
to a halt before his desk. His stern, hawklike features seemed carved in granite
as he gazed out at the tulips, snowdrops and daffodils nodding their pastel
heads in the spring breeze.
He looks as always, she saw with a sinking heart. Remote. Cold. Uncaring. Her
faint if irrational hope that his anger had evaporated since Sunday was
instantly dashed.
There would be no softening, not from this angry man. But then, there had never
been any softness, not from him, and certainly not for her…
"You wanted to speak with me, Father?" she began in a clear, bell-like voice.
Her tone, her expression and her body language belied her longing for even the
tiniest crumb of his affection.
"I did indeed. Your Aunt Catherine is on her way here from Lincoln, even as we
speak," he announced, still facing away. "Her arrival is expected within the
hour. See to it that your trunks are packed and that you are ready to travel by
the time she arrives. After a change of horses, and some refreshments, you will
travel on to London by train, as originally planned."
"Am I still to be presented at court, then?" Victoria asked, astonished. "Shall
we be in London for the entire Season?"
"But of course. You sound surprised, Victoria. Was that not your aunt's original
intention?" her papa barked, turning to face her. "How else are you to make a
proper entry into Society?"
Taken aback, Victoria saw no anger in her father's face, as she might have
expected. On the contrary, there was a deep and abiding sadness there, as if
he'd aged ten years in the past two days.
Had she put that sadness there? she wondered with the tiniest twinge of guilt.
Did he even care enough to be sad about anything she did?
"But I had thought, after last Sunday…" Her voice trailed away. She could not
meet his piercing deep-blue eyes.
"Oh, I can imagine what you thought, lass. Aye, and hoped, no doubt. But with
any luck, word of thy disgraceful behavior has yet to reach the hallowed drawing
rooms of London," her father said with heavy sarcasm. "There's still a chance a
suitable match may yet be made for you, if we act quickly."
Victoria uttered an impatient, unladylike snort and stamped her slippered foot.
It was a childish gesture, but it was preferable to throwing something, as she
itched to do.
"Why will you never listen to what I want, Father? I do not seek a brilliant
match," she protested, the set of her jaw not unlike his own in its obstinacy.
"I simply want to marry the man I love!" she implored with such fervor her voice
cracked. "The man who… who loves me."
"Love!" he snorted. "What you have mistaken for love is common lust, my girl!
Trust me in this. That coarse, illiterate clod would have ruined you had I not
arrived in the nick of time. Over my dead body you'll marry the bastard. I
promised your mama you'd have a husband worthy of you, and by God, you will, my
lass," he thundered. "Or I'll know the reason why."
"If I can't marry Ned, I shall never marry," she vowed.
"Ha! The devil you'll remain a spinster in my house," he insisted. "You will
make your entry into Society exactly as your Aunt Catherine has so generously
planned for you. You will be presented to Her Majesty, and make the rounds of
balls and suppers and what-have-yous. And then, Victoria, you will wed the first
suitable man who offers for thy hand, be damned if you won't!"
"Then damned I shall be, sir, for I assure you, I will do nothing of the sort,"
Victoria declared hotly, even paler now with anger.
Her father was clearly very determined, but so was she. Unfortunately, there was
precious little time in which to send another message to Ned, if her aunt was
arriving within the hour. All she could do was dig in her heels, defy her
father, and hope for the best.
"Rest assured, you will wed, my girl— and I don't give a tinker's damn if your
future husband is a snot-nosed twit of twenty or an old lecher of ninety-two!
Whether he's hale and hearty or a toothless old reprobate with only one eye. If
he's your social equal, and able to support you, I'll welcome him as a
son-in-law with open arms. And once you're safely wed, I've a mind to remarry
myself, be damned if I don't! I've mourned your mother long enough, Victoria."
"Mourned her?" Victoria cried, stunned and heartbroken. "Mourning is for those
we love, Father. You never loved my mother, any more than you l-love m-me—"
With that, she turned and fled the study in a flurry of plaid skirts and
under-petticoats, loudly slamming the door in her wake.
"Wrong, my proud, foolish lass," Lord Haw thorne murmured into the echoing
silence after she was gone. "I loved my beautiful Isabelle more than you'll ever
know. And you! You are her image, child. Why else would it pain me to look at
you…?"
Chapter Three
Hawthorne House, Belgravia Square, London
Three weeks later
Victoria stirred as Lily marched into her room, her starched gray skirts
rustling. She was followed by the chambermaid, Dora, who carried a brass scuttle
of coal for the fire.
Although it was the end of April, afternoons and early evenings at the Belgravia
townhouse were often chilly. A result, Papa had once complained, of their
proximity to the River Thames, across which chilly damp winds blew unchecked.
Rolling onto her back and opening one eye, Victoria saw that the fire had died
down while she napped, leaving only white ashes and orange embers behind the
polished black grate.
While Dora knelt on the hearth rug, noisily feeding lumps of Hawthorne coal to
the glowing embers, Lily bustled back and forth, setting a porcelain jug of hot
water and two fluffy Turkish towels beside the washbasin on the dresser, then
arranging face-flannels beside it.
When the preparations for her mistress's bath were completed, Lily drew the
rose-brocade draperies and lit the lamps.
Light spilled from the pretty globes of painted milk-glass, forcing a groan from
Victoria. She dived under a feather pillow to shut out the light.
"Are you awake, milady?" Lily sang out cheerfully.
Drat that Lily! She was always cheerful, whatever the hour, no matter how dire
the circumstances, Victoria reflected, yawning and squinting gritty eyes. Such
perpetual optimism was a most annoying trait.
"No," she denied, wriggling back under the covers. "Good Lord, Lily, I doubt
even God is awake at this unearthly hour. Everyone civilized is still napping."
"Eeh, I know what ye mean, love. Danced the night away last night, didn't you,
then came crawling home at four in the morning as tipsy as a lord. But it's past
five o'clock in the afternoon now, so get up, do, before ye miss your tea. It's
treacle tart tonight— your favorite, aye? Lady Catherine's already dressed, she
is. Her Martha's doing her hair even as we speak."
Victoria grimaced and sat up. "Oh, all right then. But don't expect me to be
enthralled about the prospect of yet another ball this evening. This is my third
in ten days, not counting the round of soirees, drums and crushes I've been
dragged to by Aunt Catherine! My cheeks positively ache from smiling so much,
and I'm sick of having to always be so very nice to everyone— especially when I
hear those witches gossiping about me each time I turn my back."
Lily snorted. "You've no one to blame for that but yourself, my lady," she said
with the frankness of an old and trusted friend, rather than a servant. "I
warned thee no good would come of batting your eyelashes at that Ned Thomas,
didn't I? But would you listen?" She shook her head. "The dirty dog! What your
Master Thomas was after, he didn't need no proper young lady for, that he
didn't. There's more than one factory lass has already lifted her skirts for
Ne—"
"Stop it right now, Lily!" Victoria said sharply, heat flooding her cheeks. She
was wide awake now. Oh, yes, indeed. "It was not like that at all. Ned… Ned
loves me, and I love him."
"Aye. So ye say," Lily agreed with another sniff, clearly unimpressed. "But
handsome is as handsome does, I always say. And that Ned Thomas—!"
"You did deliver my notes to him?" Victoria demanded, suddenly suspicious. She
turned to look at Lily with narrowed eyes.
Lily had never approved of her meeting with Ned in secret. Nor had Uncle Lovey,
Lily's father, or Lily's mother, Rose Lovett. In their own sweet way, they were
all old-fashioned snobs, bless them. Dearly loved family retainers who— quite
mistakenly— thought they knew what was best for the daughter of the household.
They considered Ned Thomas far beneath her in every way, shape and form, and
believed she should marry one of her own class. Didn't they understand that when
love struck, it struck blindly, regardless of one's standing in society?
"Li-ly?" she warned. "Answer me this minute! Did you deliver my notes?"
"Never mind Ned Thomas for tonight, milady," Lily countered, airily sidestepping
her mistress's question and refusing to meet Victoria's accusing hyacinth-blue
eyes. "I told thee, he survived your father's whipping right well. Harry and my
da' saw him down at The Collier's Arms soon after. Ned's face were swollen and
he was drunk as a lord, bragging that he'd pay his lordship back for his
beating."
Lily was frowning, Victoria saw. Her nose was wrinkled up. Harry Coombs, the
Hall's coachman, who was walking out with her, had been heard to describe his
intended as "a pretty brown rabbit of a lass." Now Victoria understood why.
She hid a smile.
"You'd best get yourself off that bed so I can get thee dressed, or Her Grace
will be coming upstairs to see what's keeping you from tea, my girl."
The warning succeeded in stirring Victoria to action. Aunt Catherine, Her Grace,
the Duchess of Lincoln, was a dear old thing, but she was also a martinet.
Besides, she'd suddenly realized that she was starving for treacle tart.
***
Later that evening, a freshly bathed and powdered Victoria sat once again before
her dressing table. This time, however, instead of a simple teagown, she wore a
royal-blue satin fan-fronted ballgown that bared her slender shoulders and the
tops of her breasts.
Nine other equally gorgeous creations of various styles and colors hung in the
large dressing room that adjoined this one. Whatever other faults her father
might have, he was no pinchpenny. He had given Aunt Catherine carteblanche when
it came to Victoria's wardrobe for the Season. And martinet or no, her aunt had
splendid taste when it came to dressing her brother Roger's "poor little gel,"
as she called Victoria.
The gown's enormous puffed sleeves concealed her upper arms, while the skirts
that billowed over her hooped petticoat and lace-trimmed under-petticoat made
her tightly cinched waist appear as slender as a wasp's. Long white gloves
elegantly encased her hands and lower arms.
"Ooof! You laced me so tightly I can hardly breathe," she accused Lily, rapidly
fanning herself with an osprey feather fan. The feathers had been dyed royal
blue to match her gown and the small plumes in her hair.
Lily giggled. "Never mind breathing, milady. Just so long as thee can still make
eyes at the gentlemen over that fan."
Giving a final pat to her mistress's hair, she beamed at Victoria's reflection
in the mirror.
"There. All done. Scandal or no scandal, there'll be precious few of the Upper
Ten Thousand can hold a candle t'your looks, milady," Lily said smugly. "Ye look
a proper treat in that royal blue. It makes your eyes look almost lavender, it
does. Will you wear your mam's sapphires, or the diamonds?" she asked, selecting
three velvet jewelry cases from the dressing table.
"The sapphires," Victoria decided. She eyed her reflection in the mirror with
little enthusiasm, then sighed. "Two more months until this wretched Season
ends! Two months until I can see him again. How on earth shall I endure it,
Lily?"
"I know what I'd do. I'd find meself a replacement," Lily suggested with a
wicked little grin as she handed Victoria an earbob. A teardrop sapphire dangled
from the cup of a tiny golden tulip. "Get him to make an offer for your hand,
then ask for a lengthy engagement. That way, your da' will be satisfied, and you
can be back at Hawthorne Hall by month's end. Who knows what might happen in the
weeks before you have t'wed the man? There's 'many a slip betwixt cup and lip, '
aye?"
"Indeed there is," Victoria exclaimed thoughtfully. "How clever of you, Lily!"
"You heard what, Mariah? With a common laborer? Do tell! Yet the chit looks as
if warm butter wouldn't melt in her mouth…"
"… tonight. Rumor has it he's looking for another wife… no daughter of mine…
surely not in decent company, the rogue!… murdered his first…"
"… they say he murdered the first one… resigned his commission… but then, Lord
Hereford… old friend of the family…"
"… I seriously doubt the truth will ever be known…"
"… hanging's too good for him, I say…"
"… and her papa caught them together in his stables…"
"In the haystack, what? By Jove, old chap, why the deuce did the naughty gel
choose a hayfield, do you suppose?… dashed prickly place…"
Her face flaming, Victoria walked quickly past the knots of gossiping ladies and
gentlemen, keenly aware of the curious eyes, the salacious whispers, that
followed her passage around the ballroom.
In the gallery above the gathering, the string orchestra began playing yet
another of the popular Viennese waltzes. As its lilting strains drifted over the
ballroom, ladies perused their dance cards to ascertain their next partner's
identity. The gentlemen in question moved around the room, seeking out the fair
creatures who had promised them this waltz.
Her own dance card spectacularly blank, her ears still ringing with the latest
account of her scandalous escapades, Victoria sought escape on the veranda.
With a little groan of relief, she plunged through some french doors, drew them
shut behind her, and leaned gratefully upon them.
Beyond the veranda, formal gardens with box hedges, flowerbeds and pathways were
drenched in bright moonlight that bleached everything to the color of ashes. The
cool evening air smelled deliciously of dew and spring flowers— and the fragrant
aroma of Havana cigars.
Alone, with only the full moon to witness her disintegration, Victoria abandoned
her haughty pose and let tears spill down her hot cheeks.
Despite her brave claims to the contrary, the spiteful gossip that had attended
every social engagement for the past month hurt more than she'd ever imagined.
The gossips' barbs were so vicious and spiteful, so unfair— and so very
exaggerated.
She and Ned had shared a kiss, no more, thanks to her father's timely
intervention. A single kiss! Yet to hear those wagging tongues, she was like
that American author's heroine— the one who shared her last name? Hawthorne.
Nathaniel Hawthorne's lady of the scarlet letter! A wanton. A scandalous hussy
who had lightly bestowed her favors on any number of her father's laborers, if
their tales were to be believed.
What she and Ned felt for each other was beautiful, pure, true. But the gossip
twisted and cheapened it. Reduced their relationship to something to be
snickered at, or hidden. Locked away in the attic like a crazy aunt, forbidden
the light of day…
Oh, she could not wait to be far, far from London! Out from under the hateful
scrutiny of high Society, with its taste for…
A muffled sob from a shadowed corner of the veranda diverted her attention.
Blotting her teary eyes on white-gloved fingertips, she went to investigate.
***
Steede Warring was about to extinguish his cigar and go back inside when a
breathtaking young woman swept out onto the veranda. He watched as she closed
the double doors behind her and leaned upon them.
Most of her inky hair was swept up into a knot on the very crown of her head,
while short ringlets framed her heart-shaped face, in which a pair of
magnificent iris-blue eyes blazed like a brace of stars. Her mouth was ripe and
full-lipped, with deep dimples at the corners. It was, he decided, wondering how
such a mouth would taste beneath his own, the mouth of a born courtesan. Too
lush and tempting by far to be the mouth of an innocent.
He frowned. An innocent? Perhaps. Perhaps not. Belatedly, he'd recognized the
lovely creature as Roger Hawthorne's only daughter. The chit the gossips were
tearing limb from pretty limb. What had they called her? Lady Victoria.
His jaw hardened. His sable eyes flashed in the starlight. No stranger to
scandal himself, he would reserve judgment on the matter of her guilt or
innocence. He had yet to forget the outright lies and half-truths that had
circulated about himself not so very long ago. No doubt they continued to do so…
As the young woman leaned back against the french doors, he saw how the
starlight glistened on her damp cheeks. Good Lord. She was crying, he realized
with an unexpected stab of pity.
So. Despite that defiant expression, that proud carriage, la belle Victoria was
far from hardened to the cruelly wagging tongues. Unlike himself, who'd
consigned the lot of them to the bloody devil.
Still, an unblemished reputation was far more important to a woman— especially
an unmarried woman, newly launched into Society. This unfortunate beauty would
be lucky if she found a suitor willing to brave her tarnished reputation for a
single dance, let alone to ask for her hand. He did not doubt that she'd receive
proposals, however— none of them decent.
Either way, he doubted she would welcome a witness to her tears.
Dropping his cigar to the dewy grass, he stepped on it before ducking back into
the deep shadows beneath the trees, becoming a shadow himself.
As he did so, he was startled to hear a child's sleepy whimper from the
wrought-iron chaise tucked in a corner of the long veranda.
A small boy, looking like a miniature ghost in his long white nightshirt,
clambered down from the bench and toddled toward the Hawthorne woman.
"Nanny? Is that you, Nanny?"
"Well, hello, there. Why, it's Wee Willie Winkie, isn't it?" he heard the woman
ask, warmth and laughter in her voice now.
She crouched down to speak to the child, face to face, her royal-blue skirts
billowing about her like the petals of an exotic blue orchid.
But it was not only the vision of loveliness she presented in the starlight that
had Steede straining forward, reluctant to miss a single word. It was the gentle
warmth, the genuine concern for the child he could hear in her voice.
It was unusual, in this day and age, when women of her class routinely banished
their children to a nursery, or gave them over into the care of a nanny or a
nursemaid, as Aimee had done. Lady Victoria's natural way with the child was as
surprising as it was refreshing.
"What are you doing out here all alone, darling?" she asked. "It's past your
bedtime, I do believe."
"I can't find my Nanny Barlow," the little imp piped, his lower lip quivering.
"I looked and looked, but I simply cannot find her. Cissy's gone, too." His
lisping voice was muffled with tears as he twisted a finger in his tousled
curls.
"Oh, you poor little man. It's very frightening when we can't find somebody,
isn't it?" Victoria commiserated with the child.
"I'm not frightened!" he retorted, bristling like a bantam cock. "Papa says
Comptons aren't afraid of anything, ever."
"I'm sure they're not. In fact, you strike me as a very brave soldier indeed.
Won't you tell me your name?"
The blond head dipped in a solemn nod. "It's Christopher. Christopher Charles
Compton."
"I'm honored to make your acquaintance, Christopher Charles. I'm Victoria.
Victoria Colette Hawthorne," he heard her say, equally solemnly.
Steede grunted in surprise. Unless he was mistaken, the little chap was the
Eighth Earl of Hereford, and his host and friend's son and heir.
"Now. Tell me. How did you manage to get outside, Master Christopher?" the young
woman quizzed.
The little lordling scrunched up his features. "I don't 'member. I just woked
up"— he shrugged expressively—"and I was already here. But… I don't know where
here is." His lower lip quivered despite his brave claims.
The child had probably been sleepwalking, Steede reflected. Mary often did, when
she was having a nightmare.
"Then come along with me, darling. I shall take you back up to the nursery. I'm
almost certain we'll find your Nanny Barlow there."
"And Cissy, too?" The reedy voice was hopeful. "Cissy's my nursemaid."
The young woman smiled. "Of course. And Cissy, too."
"You pwomise?"
"I promise. Cross my heart. Now up we go, darling."
To Steede's surprise, she bent and picked up the little boy, whose thumb was
tucked in his mouth now. She appeared quite unconcerned about the prospect of
wrinkling her expensive gown or of destroying her hair.
It was a cool evening. The child's hands and bare feet must have been icy as he
wrapped them around her neck and waist, then rested his nodding head on her bare
shoulder.
But, with the drowsy child clinging to her like a little monkey, she went back
inside the house.
She left Steede staring after her, like a man who's discovered a diamond in a
heap of shattered glass. "Ah, there you are, Lady Victoria. I've been looking
everywhere for you. I believe this waltz is mine, is it not?"
Victoria did not bother to consult her dance card. She knew without a shadow of
a doubt that every line in it was blank. Just as she knew— also without a shadow
of a doubt— that she had never seen, let alone been introduced to, the
impeccably attired, strikingly handsome man before her.
"I beg your pardon, sir?" she murmured, blinking and looking about. Perhaps the
dark stranger who carried himself with an erect military bearing was addressing
someone behind her?
"What a delightful sense of humor your niece has, Your Grace," he murmured,
giving her aunt a gallant half-bow. "You know very well you promised me this
dance." He offered her his arm. When she made no move to take it, he took her
gloved hand and tucked it through his own. "Shall we?"
Victoria was considered tall for a woman, but he was taller still. Tall, darkly
tanned and very handsome, with black eyes and saturnine features that made her
think of Miss Brontë's brooding Heathcliff in Wuthering Heights.
The instant the thought entered her mind, she looked quickly away. For despite
her loyalty to Ned, her pulse had unaccountably quickened.
But before she could make some excuse, Aunt Catherine jabbed her in the small of
the back with her folded fan. "Well? Don't just stand there, gel. Run along. The
waltz is starting."
Propelled abruptly forward, Victoria had little choice but to rest her hand on
her striking escort's, and follow his lead onto the dance floor.
There, he made a gallant half-bow, stepped forward and took her in his arms.
As if caught up in a dream, she let him.
Seconds later, they were circling the floor with the other couples.
The gentlemen were immaculate penguins in high-collared white shirts and dark
frock coats, while the ladies were like perfumed blossoms, their tissue petals
caught up by a lazy wind as they swirled to the strains of a Viennese waltz.
Overhead, the crystal chandeliers were ablaze with light that winked and
sparkled off the rainbows of jewels emblazoning the women's hair, ears, throats,
wrists or breasts.
Around and around they waltzed, yet her partner said not a word until the
strains of the waltz had quite faded away.
The orchestra struck up the Quadrille. Then the Lancer's. Another waltz
followed— a German one this time, rather than the more popular Austrian ones.
Still, her partner said nothing, accompanying her with a lithe masculine grace
that succeeded in making the other men look stiff and awkward.
"Sir, my aunt will be wondering what has become of me," Victoria pleaded after
he had partnered her in a fourth dance.
"On the contrary," he countered with an amused gleam in those snapping dark
eyes. "Her Grace, the Duchess of Lincoln, has been watching us as avidly as a
hawk watching a particularly plump fieldmouse ever since I took your elbow. Rest
assured, Lady Victoria, Her Grace knows very well what has become of her
charming prote’ge’ e."
Victoria's cheeks grew warm under his knowing smile.
"But… what of my reputation, sir? To dance so many dances with the same partner
is to…"
"… invite speculation about us?" The thick, jet-black eyebrows rose.
"Well, yes," she admitted grudgingly.
"Let them speculate." He smiled, but there was precious little mirth to it.
"Besides, I doubt a little more gossip need concern either of us, Victoria. You
and I are birds of a feather, after all."
"You know my name. But how can that be, when we have never met before?"
He shrugged as he turned her. "There is no mystery to it. I asked."
"Still… we have not been properly introduced."
In mid-dance, he stopped dead and made her a very proper half-bow. "May I
present myself, ma'am? Captain Steede Warring, formerly of Her Majesty's Sixth
India Regiment, now retired, and the Eighth Earl of Blackstone. Your obedient
servant, Lady Victoria," he finished, making a deeper bow.
"Captain Warring," she murmured, flustered, as she inclined her head. There was
suspicion in her eyes now. He must have heard the gossip circulating about her.
Was he making fun of her— or testing the truth of the rumors by being far too
forward in his manner?
"Splendid! And now that we've been properly introduced, may we continue our
dance?"
"Oh! Well, yes, of— of course."
Like Cinderfellow, rather than Cinderella, her partner refused to relinquish her
until the strains of the very last waltz died away at the stroke of midnight.
With the last chime, he escorted her back to her aunt's side.
Bowing gallantly over the duchess's hand, then Victoria's, Captain Warring bade
both ladies a very cordial good night, then was gone as abruptly as he'd
appeared.
She could feel the tingling sensation where his gloved fingers had rested on her
waist long after he vanished into the crush.
"Shall we stay and have a bite to eat, Victoria?" Aunt Catherine asked. She
looked a little flushed and tipsy, and the gray plumes in her hair were askew.
The rest of the gathering was streaming from the ballroom to the buffet tables
in the adjoining room, where oyster patties, shrimp vol-au-vents, cakes, jellies
and champagne were being served.
"Madeline always serves a deliciously lavish midnight supper," the older woman
added wistfully.
"Hmm? I'm sorry, Aunt Catherine. What did you say?"
The Duchess of Lincoln frowned. "I said, shall we stay for Madeline's midnight
supper, child, or order the carriage and go on home?"
"Let's stay," Victoria declared impulsively, recognizing the expression in her
aunt's face. Despite her tall, spare figure, the duchess was very fond of her
food. "I'm starving."
"I don't wonder at it. All that dancing with Henrietta's youngest boy has given
you an appetite, has it not, my gel?" Catherine declared, her gray eyes
narrowed.
The duchess looked down her long nose at her niece, whom she considered too
slender, too tall, too dark-haired and far too exotic to be fashionably
beautiful, but whom she loved dearly, despite her faults, and sniffed.
"By rights, I probably should have told the young scoundrel to find himself
another partner, after that second dance. After all, the very last thing we need
is to have 'the Brute's' dreadful reputation linked with your own…
transgressions. However—"
"The Brute?" Victoria echoed. A shudder danced down her spine, as if someone had
walked over her grave.
Catherine nodded. "Yes. I've heard that name applied to him in some circles. It
has to do with his first wife, I believe, and her tragic demise. But pay no
attention to rumors, dear gel. As we both know, there's rarely so much as a
kernel of truth to such gossip, is there?" she added, gently but pointedly.
"Besides, under the circumstances"— she cast Victoria a fond if disapproving
look and shrugged—"refusing the fellow hardly seemed justified. It's not as if
you have a column of prospective suitors beating a path to your side, now, is
it, my dear?"
"No, Aunt Catherine. It isn't," Victoria agreed demurely, helping herself to a
cream-filled meringue and a glass of champagne.
She tried to adopt a suitably downcast, chagrined expression, but could not hide
her smile of glee. Another night had come and gone, and she was no closer to
finding a husband than she had been at the beginning of April. It was perfect!
To you, my darling Ned, she toasted silently, taking a small sip of the fizzy
wine. Bubbles tickled her nose. And to our future together.
The gossip, however hurtful or exaggerated, had actually helped her cause, for
it had effectively discouraged any would-be suitors. She would not have to make
promises she had no intention of keeping.
If she could endure just another few weeks of being "cut," talked about, shunned
and ignored by polite society, she could go home to Yorkshire disgraced, yet
still blessedly unattached.
Exactly as she wanted.
Chapter Four
"I expect you're wondering why I sent for you, are you not, Victoria?" Lord
Hawthorne began the following morning. He looked unusually good-humored. A man
with a secret, bursting to be told.
Victoria, ousted from bed by Lily, nodded yawning agreement, then winced. The
sudden movement of her head worsened the throbbing headache bequeathed by last
night's champagne. One glass that had quickly become three.
"Of course, Father. Why— er— why did you summon me?"
Her father exchanged a smug grin with her aunt, and the tiny knot of foreboding
in Victoria's middle tightened.
"Last night, as I was playing billiards at White's, a gentleman approached me.
With little ado, he declared his intention to speak with me in the morning at my
townhouse, on a matter of some importance." Father paused. "He presented himself
here very promptly at ten, and is even now in the library, awaiting my answer."
"Your answer? Your answer to what, Father?" Oh, how her poor heart fluttered…
"I won't beat about the bush, Victoria. Splendid news! A gentleman of some
consequence has asked for your hand in marriage."
He paused, awaiting her delighted response, but she was so stunned she could
make none. She could only stare at him.
"Well, child? What have you to say?" Aunt Catherine urged. Her long, elegant
hands folded beneath her bosom, she beamed down her slim beak of a nose at
Victoria like a benevolent heron.
"I— I am overwhelmed," Victoria said sincerely. It was no lie. Though she was
outwardly calm, her emotions were in utter chaos. "What answer did you give this
gentleman, Father?"
There was the faintest tremor to her voice. An offer of marriage! That explained
the simmering excitement she'd sensed in Lily this morning. Servants always knew
everything. Lily must have known all about the gentleman caller in her father's
study, as well as his purpose there, but the wretched girl had said nothing,
drat her.
"I am delighted to say that I have accepted his suit, my dear, providing you are
also amenable. I know I swore to marry you off against your will, but… I find I
am not the tyrant I would like to be. So. What is your answer to be, Victoria?
Shall I tell the gentleman you accept or decline his proposal?" His tone was
hopeful, his own wishes on the matter very much apparent.
Victoria's thoughts raced. If she told her father she would not marry this man,
whoever he was, she ran the risk of rekindling his anger. On the other hand, if
she meekly accepted the offer, but asked for a lengthy engagement, she could
still avoid an actual wedding for several months. Plenty of time in which to
find a way to run off with Ned, as Lily had so cleverly suggested.
"I have had time and opportunity to consider my actions over the past few weeks,
Father," she murmured, crossing to the window and staring pensively out at the
rainy square. "I have since resigned myself to marrying someone of whom you
approve."
She demurely crossed her fingers within the folds of her skirts, so that her
lies would not be counted a sin.
"I'm sure if my suitor meets your approval, he will be quite acceptable to me,
too," she continued. "However, I do have one small condition to my acceptance of
his suit."
Her father, clearly beside himself with relief and pleasure, almost beamed.
"Name it, my girl. By jove, name it and it's yours."
"I need a short while to adjust to the reality of this marriage, and accept it.
As you are well aware, Father— and you, too, Aunt Catherine— until very
recently, my affections, however misguided, were directed… elsewhere." She
lowered her lashes.
"Hrrmph. Of course, child. You shall have the time you need, provided your
betrothed is agreeable. Now. Don't you want to know the lucky fellow's name?"
"Why, of course," she said quickly, beside herself with glee. She had done it!
She had convinced him! Soon, Ned… oh, soon! "Who is the gentleman, Father?"
"He is Steede Warring, Lord Blackstone. The master of a fine estate in Devon.
According to your aunt, Blackstone captained a regiment out in India until he
was widowed last year. There's a small child from the first marriage. A
daughter, did you say, Catherine?"
"I did. The little Lady Mary. She's seven, I believe. His Lordship was widowed
when their plantation bungalow—"
"Blackstone!" Victoria whirled to face her aunt. She frowned, her hyacinth-blue
eyes darkening to gentian. "Isn't that the man who—"
"— danced with you so many times at Hereford House? Yes, that is he— and he's
such a handsome young man, too. Isn't it wonderful? You must have made quite an
impression with your dancing, my gel."
"But… they call him the Brute! You told me so yourself, Aunt," she accused. "How
could you consider such a man for my husband, Father?" she cried.
But was it really such a surprise that he had done so? she reminded herself
bitterly. Had her father not threatened to marry her off to the first man who
asked for her, regardless of age or constitution? Besides, whom had she expected
to offer her marriage, given her own somewhat tarnished reputation? Prince
Charming? Hardly!
"Come, come, child," said Catherine. "Don't be frightened by Blackstone's
reputation. I've known his mother for ages. Henrietta and I were presented at
court at the same time. And believe me, no son of Henrietta's could possibly
have done all the things young Blackstone's rumored to have done. Trust me in
this, darling. Neither your papa nor I would dream of forcing you to marry the
man, if we thought for one moment the rumors were true…"
The devil you wouldn't, Victoria thought, itching to ask exactly what dastardly
deeds the dark-eyed stranger was accused of. Instead, she held her tongue. She
had no intention of actually marrying the man, so what did it matter if he was a
regular Bluebeard? A bloodthirsty monster who ate wives for breakfast, the way
other men ate quail eggs?
Long before her supposed wedding day, she and Ned would be fleeing north, to
Gretna Green, and his lordship, the Brute, would be left standing at the altar
in Whitby.
The jilted bridegroom. "Six months? Quite out of the question, sir. Six weeks,
and not a day longer, or my offer's withdrawn," Blackstone said curtly. He raked
his hands through his ink-black hair and scowled at Victoria from across the
study.
His moody, brooding expression was hardly the look of a fond bridegroom, she
thought, startled by the fierceness of it. What sort of fellow was this
black-haired Brute, really?
For an instant, she felt a twinge— a frantic flutter— of apprehension in her
belly. Heard a tiny voice in her head that warned, Be careful! This one will
prove dangerous if crossed! But then her father spoke, and her uneasy thoughts
vanished like smoke on the wind.
"Victoria?" Lord Hawthorne was saying. "What have you to say?"
Victoria had a great deal she dearly wanted to say but couldn't. Six weeks was
not nearly long enough to put into action the kind of plan she needed to make,
but… it would have to do. Beggars could not be choosers, after all.
"Lord Blackstone, I am deeply honored by your proposal," she said at length.
"And I am delighted to say that I accept your offer of marriage. A six-week
engagement will be perfectly acceptable."
"Splendid! Then the wedding can take place the third week of June," Aunt
Catherine said. "It will be a rush to get the banns read, but even so, I
ampersuaded a wedding gown can be sewn and a small but charming breakfast
arranged in so short a time. That Mrs. Johns who sewed your ballgowns. The widow
with the daughters? She would be perfect, don't you agree, Victoria?" Aunt
Catherine suggested, all atwitter with wedding plans.
"I shall have my secretary place the announcement of your engagement in the
Times first thing Monday morning," Hawthorne declared. "Congratulations,
Blackstone. Welcome to the family, Steede, my boy."
He shook Blackstone's hand, clapped him on the back, then drew him over to
Victoria. Taking her chill hand, he placed it in Steede's. "I believe you and
Blackstone will do very well by each other, Victoria. And by the way," he hinted
gruffly, "I'm eager to become a grandfather." He winked. "Don't keep me waiting,
you two, eh?"
"Roger," Aunt Catherine scolded. "How could you!"
"Father!" Victoria squeaked, pink-cheeked and stunned. She had never, ever seen
her father wink before. Had not believed him even capable of so human a gesture,
let alone such a shockingly risque’ comment.
"And so you shall be, sir," Blackstone promised in answer to Lord Hawthorne's
far from subtle hint. His Lordship's firm grip on her chill hand tightened, and
the unfathomable look he shot her made the hairs stand up on the back of her
neck, and sent a shiver skittering down her spine.
"Well, then. If that's everything, I must be off! I have some business to attend
to in the City and closer to home that will take several weeks to conclude. With
your permission, I shall present myself at Hawthorne Hall on the third Saturday
of June, in good time for the wedding. Victoria, my dear, you may expect a
betrothal ring from me later today. I shall send it around by special
messenger."
She inclined her head. "I shall look forward to it, Lord Blackstone."
"My name is Steede, Victoria. Now, will you accompany me out to my carriage, my
dear?"
"I really don't think I—"
"Nonsense, Victoria. The two of you are betrothed. Run along with your fiance’,
gel," Aunt Catherine urged in a far too hearty voice.
For one wild, insane moment, Victoria hesitated, tempted to end this farce. To
blurt out the truth. To scream that it was Ned she was going to marry, not this
Steede brute. That their plans for June weddings and her aunt's fretting over
wedding gowns and wedding breakfasts were all a silly waste of time, because she
was going to be long gone by the third week in June.
But instead, she allowed Blackstone to take her arm and lead her out to his
carriage. She even forced herself to smile up at him as he kissed her cheek, and
to wave as the fine black carriage with the Blackstone crest and the matched
black horses pulled away.
From this moment on, she decided, she would behave as if she truly intended to
go through with the wedding. She need not show too much enthusiasm. That would
only draw suspicion. But she would have to demonstrate resignation, courage, a
false dedication to doing her daughterly duty.
No one— not Aunt Catherine, nor Father, nor Uncle Lovey and especially not that
turncoat, Lily— must suspect the truth, until it was too late to stop her.
She had been raised without love. Enough was enough.
She would not marry without it.
Chapter Five
Never had four weeks passed so swiftly.
In her mind's eye, Victoria envisioned an enormous hourglass through which the
grains of sand slipped at breakneck speed. Two-thirds were already gone. The
time remaining would fly by even faster.
Aunt Catherine had taken up residence at Hawthorne Hall upon their return from
London. The Duchess of Lincoln was happily widowed and fabulously wealthy.
Victoria's three female cousins were advantageously wed, and busily presenting
their mama with grandchildren to the left and right, in various far-flung
corners of England. The appearance of the newest arrival was not anticipated
until the autumn.
And so, since Victoria had no loving mama of her own to supervise the wedding
arrangements, Aunt Catherine took it upon herself to do so. She would stay at
the Hall while Victoria's wedding gown and trousseau were being sewn by the
talented Mrs. Johns, a widowed modiste, and her two seamstress daughters from
London. The woman had been paid a small fortune to close up shop and follow the
duchess and her niece up to Yorkshire for six weeks.
It was the modiste who proved the inspiration for Victoria's plans to elope with
Ned.
Quite recently widowed, but forced by necessity to work before her year of deep
mourning was officially ended, Mrs. Johns dressed in black from head to toe.
When busy at her sewing, the woman reminded Victoria of a little black spider,
spinning her web of threads.
On those rare occasions when the Widow Johns left the Hall to shop in Whitby, or
to attend chapel, she wore a pert black hat with a heavy veil that hid her face,
and a concealing black cloak. They were, Victoria decided, the perfect disguise
for her own elopement!
To that end, she had persuaded the shrewd Widow Johns to part with those items
of clothing for a price that bordered on usury. All that remained now was to
advise Ned of the plans she had made.
"Polly," she told the chambermaid, after she had sent Lily on a false errand
that would take her to the farthest reaches of the Hall. "Please, come here. I
would like to speak with you a moment."
Polly rose from kneeling on the hearth and shuffled over to her side, hanging
her head and looking as glum as a wet weekend. A sooty smudge on one freckled
cheek confirmed that she'd been making up the fires all morning. "I didn't do
it, mum. Whatever it were," she whined, "it weren't me."
The maid was considered simple by the rest of the servants. After just a few
random words, Victoria could understand why. But since she no longer trusted
Lily to deliver her notes, she desperately needed another messenger who would
not go running to her father.
She'd thought and thought, and decided Polly would have to do. There was simply
no one else she could trust.
"When is your next afternoon off, Polly?"
"Mine? Why, it's tomorrer, in't it, mum?"
Victoria nodded. "Perfect. And will you be going home to visit your mother
then?"
"Aye, mum. That I will. Proper poorly, me mam is," the girl explained eagerly.
She looked relieved that she wasn't going to be scolded. "Cook says I can take
her a fresh egg or two, and a bit o' butter and bread and summat else, since Old
Thorny's as rich as old King Midas, he is, an' he won't never miss 'em—"
Belatedly clapping her hands over her mouth, Polly's eyes grew round as saucers.
"Oh, I never meant it, mum. Honest, I didn't. Don't give me the sack. Please
don't!"
"No one's going to give you the sack, Polly. Calm down, do. I just want you to
deliver a note for me. That's all. To Mr. Thomas at the Thomas farm."
Polly frowned. "The young mister Thomas, or the old one?"
"To the young one. Ned. To Edward. Do you know him?"
A foolishly broad grin wreathed Polly's freckled face. "Oooh, aye. He's a
handsome one, he is." She giggled. "Cook says he were the one what Her Ladyship
was— oh!" She broke off, looking fearfully up at Victoria. "Eeh, by gum, I've
done it again, aye? What was I thinkin' of, mum? Now, you never mind me, Your
Ladyship. You hear me? Everyone knows Polly's daft in the head."
Two furious spots of red color blazed in Victoria's cheeks, but she could not
afford to dismiss either Cook or the impertinent girl at this late date, gossip
or no gossip. Daft or no, she needed Polly's help, and badly.
"Can you deliver the note for me or not?"
"Aye, I can."
"And it may only be given to Ned. No one else, understand?"
"Aye, mum. Only t' Master Ned."
"And once you've given it to him, you're to wait for his answer. Do you
understand?"
"Yes, miss. I can do it. Ye'll see."
"Very well, Polly. I am placing my trust in you. And in return, I shall have
Cook make you up a proper basket of food for your mother. A great big one with a
roasted chicken, perhaps, and a bit of mutton. A little fresh milk and cheese.
And a pot of beef-marrow and barley broth, too. The broth will do wonders for
Mrs. Paxton's strength," Victoria murmured, withdrawing a small envelope from
the pocket of her rustling skirts. A delicate floral fragrance rose from it.
Polly's face glowed as she took the letter from her. She sniffed it, grinned,
then tucked it under the bib of her sooty white apron. "Oh, God bless ye, mum!
God bless ye. Think no more of it. Ye can count on Polly Paxton, ye can."
***
Exactly one week later, some two hours after dusk had fallen, a heavily cloaked
and veiled female figure scurried down the circular driveway through the
drizzling summer rain.
She hastened to a point just beyond the ornate wrought-iron gates of Hawthorne
Hall, where the Hawthorne carriage waited beneath a spreading chestnut tree.
The coachman, dressed in top hat and cloak, was already seated on the box.
Lanterns burned on either side of the vehicle, spilling golden light on the oily
black puddles.
"Don't bother to climb down, driver," she called in a muffled voice that she
prayed Harry would not recognize. "It's just Mrs. Johns. I'm late as it is, and
anxious to be off. Lay on until we come to the crossroads, then stop. Did Her
Ladyship tell you we're to take on another passenger there?"
Harry politely inclined his head and tipped his hat. "Very good, ma'am."
Drawing a deep breath, Victoria opened the door, tossed her carpetbag inside,
then clam bered aboard the conveyance unaided.
Fighting her voluminous skirts, she finally seated herself, then closed the door
behind her. Spreading out the damp folds of her cloak to dry, she rapped her
knuckles smartly on the front wall.
A moment later, the coach rumbled forward.
Victoria drew the short velvet curtain aside and peered back at Hawthorne Hall.
The home she had grown up in was a sprawling dark silhouette in the center of
its perfectly manicured park. Greek statuary gleamed like white phantoms in the
gloom.
She could see the glow of the lamp that burned in Papa's study, and another in
Aunt Catherine's boudoir. She could also see a glow in the attic rooms tucked
under the eaves, where the servants slept and where the real Mrs. Johns and her
two daughters, eyes streaming, were feverishly sewing her wedding trousseau. One
that would never be needed.
For even as they hemmed the brocade train, or attached seed pearls to the
exquisite, fitted bodice, the bride was being whisked away. Carried off, into
the arms of another man.
Soon, Ned! Very soon…
***
Within the hour, the rain had turned from a sulky drizzle to a heavy, stinging
downpour, whipped to a frenzy by the howling wind.
The coach hurtled through pitch-black, unfamiliar countryside while the storm
crashed and clattered all around it.
The vehicle's violent rocking slammed Victoria about like a rag doll, shaken in
the jaws of a rabid mastiff. Bruised and disoriented, she clung desperately to
the velvet squabs, both gown and cloak soaked through by the swirling rain that
gusted inside.
What on earth was wrong with Harry? Had her father's head coachman lost control
of the team?
Struggling to her knees on the floor between the two seats, she craned her head
out of the carriage window to see what was going on.
Oh, no! Thanks to the storm, the blinding rain, they had passed the crossroads
north of Whitby, where they were to have picked up Ned. And there was no
indication that the coachman intended to either stop, or turn back!
Why, they must be almost to the Scottish border by now. What could Harry be
thinking of?
Swirling rain stung her cheeks and stole her breath away. She flicked her head,
just as the lightning flashed. In its eerie blue-white flare, she caught a
glimpse of her coachman's face.
A profile etched in granite.
A hard, determined jaw.
Blazing dark eyes, fixed resolutely on the rutted track ahead.
Dear God in Heaven! It wasn't Harry at all!
It was her intended.
Heathcliff.
Or more properly, Steede Warring, Lord Blackstone. The man that Society had
christened the Brute, for reasons as yet unclear to her.
Recognition— panic— fear— lanced through her in the same awful instant that
another jagged arrow sizzled down from the sky.
The stench of ozone filled her nostrils. Seconds later, a lightning bolt struck
a tree alongside the road, which exploded in a flash of light and a deafening
crack that lit the hedgerows and trees for several yards in every direction. The
oak instantly became a roaring pillar of fire that was biblical in its
intensity.
The terrified team screamed and bolted, their necks stretched out like
steeplechasers'. Mouths gaping, nostrils flared, terrified eyes rolled back, the
horses galloped blindly, trying to escape the traces and outrun the monstrous
black coach that nipped at their heels.
The coach's yellow wheels spun furiously, lurching over bumps and rocks, jolting
in and out of potholes and muddy ruts in the rough road. The carriage was rocked
from side to side so violently the front axle suddenly snapped with a loud
crack, like that of a gunshot.
Seconds later, Blackstone's dark head appeared in the coach window.
She gasped, a tiny squeak of shock escaping her.
Rain streamed down his striking face in silvery torrents. Wet, dark locks snaked
over his collar, black as sin. More sodden elf-locks clung to his temples and
brow. His eyes were dark as the stormy night, blazing like banked coals, as he
roared at her:
"Victoria! Open the door and give me your hand! We must jump for our lives!"
Jump? From a runaway coach?
The man was insane.
No. Not insane, she amended, but murderous. He meant to kill her, just as he had
his first wife!
This was what the rumors hinted at! Only God knew how his first bride had met
her end, but Victoria knew exactly how she was to meet hers. By breaking her
silly neck as she was thrown from a racing coach.
And she'd gleefully thought to jilt this monster? That was rich! She wouldn't
live long enough to jilt anyone!
Her nerves were shredded, her courage lost, her body bruised and trembling. Even
if, by some miracle, she survived this terrible night, she would never see Ted
again. She shook her head. Gnawed her lower lip. What was wrong with her? Ned.
She would never see Ned again.
Ted, indeed.
Opening her mouth as wide as she could, Victoria screamed—
—and sank her teeth deep into Blackstone's outstretched hand.
Chapter Six
At any other time, Blackstone's bellow of pain would have been gratifying. A
testament to the strength of her jaws, the sharpness of her teeth— indeed, her
very will to survive.
Under present circumstances, however, it served only to deepen the terror in her
heart, for the roar ended with the Brute reaching through the carriage window.
Twisting his fist in her cloak, he used its folds to haul her bodily from the
coach. Out of the runaway vehicle, and into his viselike embrace!
Locked in the arms of a madman, Victoria screamed as she plunged, headfirst,
into the wet, dark night.
She landed across something solid and hard. Something that drove the breath from
her lungs and proved, unfortunately, to be Blackstone himself.
The Brute had gone to great lengths to ensure she did not escape him, going so
far as to take the brunt of their fall singlehandedly. Or rather,
single-bodiedly.
Bracing her palms against his chest, she pushed herself off him, and scrambled
up.
Her first thought was to escape him. To take flight. To run, screaming, into the
night. But instead, she was paralyzed by the sight of the horseless coach as it
reached the very edge of the world, a dark headland silhouetted against the
livid sky like the rearing prow of a ship.
Above it, serpentine tongues of lightning flickered and did a jagged, jerky
dance, illuminating the rainswept countryside like brilliant magnesium flares.
By its light, she saw the racing vehicle teeter on the edge of a cliff. Then it
tipped over the craggy edge— and vanished!
Between ominous clatters of thunder, Victoria thought she heard the coach
shatter on the rocks below, followed by the angry crash of the sea as the
shattered pieces became flotsam and jetsam.
Badly shaken, Victoria began to tremble uncontrollably. Dear God, she had come
within moments of losing her life! In his efforts to do away with her,
Blackstone had unwittingly been her salvation…
… for now!
She jumped in fright as her savior's hand cupped her elbow.
"The Scottish border is just up ahead," he roared over the noisy cacophony of
the storm. "Come on!"
Seen through a veil of swirling rain, with his thick black locks and the
coachman's black cape whipping about him, he was Lord Lucifer himself. Satan
incarnate. Old Nick, the devil, come to carry her off to Purgatory!
"We'll pass the night at an inn before going on," he continued.
"Going on where?" she demanded. "What do you intend to do with me in the
morning, m'lord?"
He chuckled wickedly. "Why, the very worst thing you could ever imagine, my
darling Victoria."
Her heart leaped with terror as he thrust his striking, terrifying face into
hers. This close, she could feel his hot breath on her cheeks, the heat of his
lean, powerful body pressed against hers.
Something flared and glittered in his night-black eyes as he rasped, "I intend
to marry you!"
"M— marry me! Preposterous!" she insisted, shrugging his hand from her elbow. "I
tried to run off with another man! I jilted you! Why on earth would you still
want to marry me?"
Her lower lip wobbled. Tears brimmed in her eyes, mingling with the rain that
streamed down her cheeks as she insisted, "Besides, if I can't marry Ned Thomas,
I shall marry no one. I know Ned loves me— and I love him, too. Nothing can
change that."
"You little fool! Your precious Ned has aban doned you. Aye, and a string of
gullible girls just like you!"
"No," she murmured in disbelief, shaking her head from side to side. "My Ned
would never do that. It's not true."
"Oh, it's true all right. And two of the poor drabs are carrying his babes,
without benefit of wedlock."
"Liar!" she hissed, rounding on him in fury. Her hand rose to slap his hateful
face. To wipe the vicious lies from his lips. "Liar! Liar!"
The powerful hand that caught and trapped her wrist was like a manacle of hot
steel. One that threatened to snap her dainty bones in two, like twigs.
"On the contrary, my dear," he rasped softly. "It is no lie."
"It was Lily, wasn't it?" she demanded bitterly, switching tactics. Her voice
broke. "She told my father. Then he sent for you, did he not? That wretched girl
must have found the note I gave Polly to give Ned. How else would you have known
where Harry was to wait with the coach? It was that wretched Lily Lovett who
betrayed our plans, wasn't it?"
"They were your plans, Victoria," Blackstone corrected in a tone that was brutal
by virtue of its very gentleness. But he neither confirmed nor denied her
suspicions about Lily.
"Mine and Ned's!" she insisted.
"No, Victoria. Yours and yours alone. Ned had no plans, beyond ruining his
employer's daugh ter. I made it my business to inquire— discreetly, of course—"
"Oh, of course!"
"— and he left Whitby soon after your father's thrashing, spurred on by several
other town fathers whose daughters he had ruined. I have it on excellent
authority that he hasn't returned since."
"Do you really? And on whose authority would that be?" she scoffed, shooting him
a withering look.
"His mother's. I'm very much afraid you mistook Ned's lack of response for
silent agreement to your elopement, my dear."
Her face burned. There was such pity in his voice. Oh, God! Blackstone pitied
her!
Slender fingers curled into small, tight fists. Her head came up at a haughty,
defiant angle. She made her spine so rigid it hurt.
Foul weather be damned! She would not just stand there and let someone like him
feel sorry for her. Her Hawthorne pride would not permit it. She could bear
anything— anything — but pity!
Indeed, it was easier to be angry with him— with Lily— with Father— the wretched
world at large!— than to believe Ned was not the plain but decent, working-class
man she'd believed him to be.
"Horsefeathers, m'lord!" she declared with a haughty snort.
Turning, she squirmed away from him, stalking down the rutted, muddy tracks with
her chin held high.
The Widow Johns's black pillbox-hat was sadly askew. It flapped against the side
of her head, clinging by a solitary hatpin. The attached widow's veil whipped
about in the wind. The violent tugging threatened to scalp her.
Wrenching the offending chapeau from her head, she hurled it into the night and
stalked on, headed— despite her protests— in the direction Blackstone had
pointed. Toward the nearest village just over the Scottish border.
Alone.
In the morning, she would hire a public conveyance to take her back to Whitby.
And once there, she would go directly to the Thomas farm, and find out for
herself if what Blackstone claimed was true….
In the deepest ruts of the track, the mud was so deep she had to lift her knees
very high in order to extricate her feet from its sucking hold. To prance,
almost, like a circus pony. A very slow circus pony.
The wretched stuff was over her ankles. Indeed, her sturdiest boots were quite
ruined by it. Great muddy splotches stained the hems of her borrowed black
cloak, as well as several inches of the gown beneath it. But her sorry
appearance paled beside the enormous significance of what Blackstone had said.
"… a string of gullible girls, just like you."
"And two of the poor drabs are carrying his babes, without benefit of wedlock…"
She swallowed. If— and it was a very large if— His Lordship was telling the
truth, Ned— her Ned— had fathered children on two other Whitby women. He
couldn't have behaved so badly, could he? Not the Ned she knew and loved?
No, she told herself firmly. A man of Blackstone's sinister reputation was not
to be believed. Rumor hinted that he had murdered his first wife, after all. Now
he seemed determined to do away with her!
"Well, we'll see about that," she muttered, fighting the quagmire that sucked at
her stout walking boots.
She dragged her sodden carpetbag behind her as she struggled along, for it
contained her most treasured personal possessions, including a framed sepia
daguerreotype of her mama— the only picture of her that Father had not locked
away. If only her poor little mare, Calypso, had not been left behind, she
thought with a pang, but it couldn't be helped. Planning the elopement had been
difficult enough, without adding a horse to her plans.
As she struggled along, she told herself she did not believe Steede's claims.
No, not for a moment.
Ned had sworn he loved her, and she believed him utterly. He could never have
feigned the tender way he'd held her. No man could. Nor could he have fabricated
that— that light in his eyes when he kissed her. If it had not been the light of
love, then what had it been, pray?
What, indeed? the tiny voice of her conscience asked, but she turned deaf ears
to it.
"… Not his name, nor his wedding ring, nor even his protection. Just a tawdry
brooch…" Blackstone was saying from somewhere above her. Like God.
Looking over her shoulder, she saw that, while she struggled through the mud,
His Lordship had caught and mounted one of the carriage horses. He must have cut
the team free of the traces before instructing her to leap from the coach. He
was now riding the lead horse alongside her.
There was no sign of the other three animals.
"… and even that, not simple, honest silver, but a garish rose of polished jet.
The sort of bauble you'd win at a country fair."
His scornful words filtered through the layer of cotton wool that cocooned her
mind.
Her hand flew to the brooch beneath her cloak. To the carved jet rose, worn
pinned at the throat of her high-necked shirtwaist, amidst rows of tucks.
"Aye, and that's all the sly bastard gave them for their favors," Blackstone
continued in the same mocking tone, making no apology for his strong language.
"He ruined those poor lasses' lives, and for what? A paltry trifle!"
She heard no more. She was too busy swallowing the wail that rose into her
throat. The anguished sob of the betrayed. Of the heartbroken. Of the
disillusioned.
She had shown the brooch to no one, not even to Lily. How could Lord Blackstone
have known about it, unless… unless…?
Her heart hammered in her ears…
… unless he was telling the truth!
But if he was, it meant that Ned had never loved her. That he had set out to
seduce her from the very first.
That she was to have been but one of many conquests.
For an instant, she remembered looking up into Ned's eyes in the gloomy stables,
and being frightened by the spark of anger she'd glimpsed when she stalled his
advances.
"If you really loved me, ye wouldna ask me to stop. Or were ye but making sport
of me when ye said ye cared?" he'd challenged her.
Had his challenge been a working-class man's need for assurance from a
sweetheart he considered above him, as she had told herself? Or a sly attempt to
bring about her surrender?
"… prove it, lass," he'd urged her. "Prove I'm suited for better than licking
your father's boots…"
Something shattered within her then. Like priceless crystal dashed against a
stone wall, something splintered into a million icy slivers.
"… the gifts, followed by his victims' seduction," she heard Blackstone say, as
if from very far away.
In that moment, she hated him. Hated him with every fiber of her being! For
there was— lost in the shattered fragments that were her heart— a burgeoning
suspicion that he was right.
"If your father had not whisked you off to Lon don, you might well have shared
their fate, my dear," Blackstone continued.
And the jet brooch seemed to burn through the stuff of her blouse. To scorch her
throat with a brand of shame.
No letter 'A' would label Victoria Hawthorne an adulteress. No, indeed. She
would wear the letter 'F' instead. For gullible, naive, trusting, stupid Fool!
The high collar of her blouse was suddenly so tight it choked her. The curtain
of rain, the dark night pressed all around her, were claustrophobic in their
closeness. She felt hot and cold by turns, and shivered uncontrollably.
Oh, Ned, how could you hurt me so? her soul cried out within her. I loved you! I
would have endured anything!— gone anywhere!— relinquished all!— had you but
said the word.
"Take me up," she demanded brokenly.
"What's that?"
Blackstone's voice was deep, startled.
"I said, take me up behind you. Please. And for pity's sake, do it now, m'lord!"
She deplored having to ask him for anything, but she had no choice, murderer or
nay. Her legs refused to hold her. Whether it was the shock of Ned's betrayal or
something else entirely, she did not know, but she could not walk another step.
Could not utter another word over the painful knot of unshed tears in her
throat.
Blackstone's dark eyes flickered over her. Without another word, he reached down
and lifted her up before him, onto the carriage horse's bare back. His hands,
some still-aware part of her mind registered, were surprisingly gentle as he did
so.
Drawing her back against his chest, he grasped a handful of the horse's coarse
mane in one fist, and a length of its broken harness in the other. "Get up
there, sir!"
At a sedate walk, the horse carried them through the drizzling rain toward the
lights of Gretna village that twinkled just over the border.
***
Victoria stared at her hand in the flickering light of the fire.
A slim gold band etched with flowers encircled her wedding finger like a noose.
Above it, the magnificent betrothal ring he'd sent her by special messenger the
day he'd asked for her hand— an oval Indian sapphire, surrounded by alternating
sapphires and diamonds— flashed their brilliant blue and icy fires in the meager
light.
As pretty a pair of shackles as any girl could hope for, she thought with a
sigh, reaching for the poker to stoke the fire. Aye, and those shackles had been
set on her for life over a blacksmith's anvil, of all things, in a ceremony that
had lasted less than ten minutes!
Even so, those ten short minutes had altered the course of her life irrevocably,
for they had bound her to a man she hated. A man who, in all probability, wanted
only to murder her.
Oh, dear God, what had she done?
Burned her bridges behind her, that was what! Agreeing to marry Blackstone while
her mind still reeled from Ned's betrayal had been rash beyond belief. She
should have waited. She should have thought things through, coolly, logically.
She should have tried to find out if Blackstone was telling the truth.
But, she had done none of these things, and there was no going back now.
She waited until the logs on the hearth were a glowing fiery orange, then
unpinned the jet rose and hurled it into the fire.
The bauble caught and burned like a lump of coal.
Within the half hour, only smoke and ashes remained, like her dreams of a life
with Ned. A rich, warm life, filled with all the love and affection, the caring
and warmth her childhood had lacked.
Still feeling numb, she turned down the bed to allow the linens to air, hoping
the warmth given off by the fire would rid them of dampness. Or at the very
least, dispel the musty odor that clung to them.
Perched on a grubby needlepoint stool by the chimney nook, she hugged her knees
and gazed into the fire, letting her thoughts wander aimlessly.
The bedchamber was a disgrace.
Cobwebs festooned its highest corners. Sluts' wool drifted across the dull
floorboards with every draft. The narrow bed would better have accommodated a
single occupant— or a corpse— than a bride and her husband on the night of their
wedding.
Still, there had been no choice, really. The other three inns the small village
boasted had been full. This flea-bitten lodging on the outskirts of Gretna had
been all that Blackstone could find them.
Or so he claimed.
Secretly, she suspected that an inn with such a— a sinister aspect had proven
more to the Brute's liking than a more reputable establishment with
lavender-scented linens, bountiful hot water and a lavish board to offer its
patrons.
Still, he had duly registered them below, at the small scarred desk in the
lobby, incensed by the landlord's inquiry as to whether His Lordship wanted the
room for an entire night or just an hour or two.
She could not fathom any reason for his anger, for the man's query had seemed
perfectly reasonable to her.
Tipping the scruffy porter a halfpenny to bring up Lady Blackstone's small bag,
His Lordship had escorted her up a narrow flight of stairs to this large, drafty
chamber on the second floor.
After instructing the slatternly chambermaid to bring Her Ladyship a tray of hot
food, fresh towels and jugs of hot water, he had promptly disappeared. In
parting, he'd murmured only that he would join her later.
But His Lordship's sable eyes had said volumes.
She shivered, despite the heat thrown off by the fire.
Now here she sat, fed, watered and bathed, awaiting the dragon's return like
some virginal sacrifice.
Her freshly washed black hair gleamed in the firelight as she nervously pleated
and unpleated the folds of the flannel nightgown she'd salvaged from her
carpetbag, wondering when… or even if… Blackstone would return to claim his
husband's rights.
If? That was rich! A man like Blackstone was unlikely to forgo any rights he was
due— a husband's or otherwise.
She bit her lip. He could surely have taken his pick of second wives, scandalous
past notwithstanding. Great wealth like the Blackstone fortune had a way of
making fathers with marriageable daughters strangely forgetful, after all. Why,
then, had he chosen her, when there must have been droves of eager innocents who
would have begged him to kiss them? Touch them… intimately.
She swallowed, her palms suddenly moist.
The very thought of the dangerous, yet strikingly handsome, Blackstone touching
her intimately made queer little currents eddy up and down her spine. Aye, and
in certain other places where she knew none should have eddied.
For some reason, she remembered how safe she had felt earlier when Blackstone
held her before him on the horse. The firm way his strong arms had encircled
her, and how his broad chest had supported her weary head.
A peculiar lethargy came over her
Perhaps it would not be so awful, after all, to endure His Lordship's most
intimate attentions. Perhaps he would even be kind, and not the unfeeling beast
that Aunt Catherine had implied bridegrooms so often were on their wedding
nights.
Immediately, she rejected the thought. Kindness? Gentleness? From a man who, by
all accounts, had murdered his first wife? Was she mad? That was probably his
dastardly scheme. His entire modus operandi, so to speak.
First he lulled his unsuspecting bride into a false sense of security. And then,
after the marriage had been consummated, he killed her just like the black widow
spiders she'd read about, who killed their mates once they had mated. Though in
this instance, of course, it would be a black widower and—
"Oh!" A log on the fire suddenly collapsed in ashes, scattering sparks over the
hearth. Her nerves were wound so tightly, she sprang up like a child's
jack-in-the-box.
Leaping across the chamber, she flattened herself against a grimy, whitewashed
wall, brandishing a weighty brass candlestick before her.
But the chamber door remained closed.
It was, she judged by the muffled chimes of the village clock, very late when
she finally heard footsteps on the landing.
Exhausted and half-asleep, the damp, musty covers tucked firmly beneath her
chin, she stiffened, holding her breath. Her heart skipped a beat as someone
stopped outside her door! Seconds later, the brass doorknob turned, first this
way, then that.
Stiff as a board, her fingers locked in a death grip over the fraying hem of the
sheet, she stared at the door, waiting for Lord Lucifer to step through it.
Willing him not to.
"Victoria?" Blackstone's deep, resonant voice murmured against the jamb. It
sounded slurred, as if he'd been drinking. "Lady Blackstone? Are you still
awake?"
Slowly, the door swung inward.
Chapter Seven
Eyes squeezed shut, Victoria pretended to be fast asleep as Blackstone moved
about the room.
She heard the swish of fabric against fabric, felt the lumpy mattress sag as he
perched on the far side of the bed, followed by the dull thud of his boots
striking the floorboards, one by one, and the mutter of a low oath when a
fastening eluded him.
Her bridegroom was undressing, she realized with a frisson of horror. And after
he had undressed, what then?
Oh, Lord! What then, indeed…
"Victoria?" he murmured. His deep voice was so close to her ear she could not
hide the violent twitch her body gave in response to it.
"Damn it, sit up, Victoria. I know you're not asleep. Here. I've brought
something to warm you. This blasted room is as cold as a meat pantry."
Was the "something" poisoned? she wondered. Mulled cider, laced with arsenic?
Probably. Obviously, she would have to engineer a little spill…
Pushing herself up to a sitting position, she arranged the bolster at her back
and fluffed the goosedown pillows, playing for time.
To her surprise, the quaint pewter tankard Blackstone thrust into her chilly
hands was steaming. She sniffed the contents suspiciously. To her dismay, they
smelled divine, a mixture of creamy milk and rich, dark chocolate. Flavors that
would mask even a hefty dose of rat poison or hemlock, surely.
"Why don't we share it?" she offered in a very small voice. "I— I couldn't
possibly drink it all on my own, and as you said, it is very cold in here."
"It is only hot cocoa, Victoria," he assured her sternly, the half-smile
vanishing. In its place was a dark scowl that, on one with such saturnine
features as his, created a devilish aspect indeed. "Not a whiff of hemlock nor a
grain of deadly nightshade anywhere!"
"Deadly nightshade?" she echoed. "Don't be ridiculous, sir!"
But by the guilty pink color that filled her cheeks, Steede knew his suspicions
had been correct.
His bride had been as pale as whey until that guilty flush restored the color to
her cheeks. Anger filled him. Devil take the gossips of London! Thanks to their
wagging tongues, his own wife believed he intended to murder her! Dear God, had
the rumors that surrounded Aimee's death been so badly distorted?
Obviously they had.
"I certainly wasn't implying that you… that you…" Her voice trailed lamely away,
denying her protests.
"The devil you weren't!" he scoffed. "Here. Hand me the bloody tankard!"
"No, really, I—"
"Give it here, I said!" he thundered.
Snatching the tankard from her hand, he took a deep swallow of its contents.
"Hmm. Bloody marvelous. Cocoa and hot milk, madam— and that's all it is. Here.
Try some."
She looked as if she'd rather drink hemlock from a skull— preferably his— than
sip from any vessel his lips had touched. Nevertheless, she did so. Gingerly.
"Warmer?" he inquired when she had drained the mug.
"Much, thank you," she agreed primly, shrinking back against the pillows.
God, she looked primed to bolt if he so much as touched her— yet he doubted he
could help himself in that regard. That aura of innocence, of unawakened beauty,
made him want her more than he'd ever wanted a woman, including his first wife.
And he was, after all, her bridegroom. For such beauty, he could almost forgive
her the deep bite wounds on his hand, which still throbbed painfully, despite
the stiff brandy with which he'd doctored himself.
Taking the tankard from her, he took her slender hand in his and drew it to his
mouth. His lips brushed the tips of her long, tapering fingers, before he turned
her hand over and kissed the well of her palm.
She flinched violently.
"Please, don't!" she whispered, trying to free her hand.
"Shhh," he murmured, placing the hand he had kissed on his cheek. "We are
married, are we not, my dear? And this is what married couples do on their
wedding night." He smiled. "And any other night it may please them."
Pressing her back against the soft feather pillows, he followed her down.
Her coal-black hair was strewn across the pillows in inky coils. Her pale,
heart-shaped face bloomed like an exotic orchid amidst its ebony petals. And at
its heart, that lush carnal mouth, and lips the deep, velvety red of roses…
The ache in his loins mounted, along with his growing desire, despite his vow to
proceed slowly and gently. God knows, it was becoming more difficult by the
minute, for he had wanted her from the first instant he saw her, that night at
the Herefords' ball.
Her blue satin skirts had billowed about her like the petals of a rare hothouse
flower as she knelt to speak with little Lord Christopher. Her dark hair had
gleamed in the moonlight. Glittering sapphire tears had swung from the tips of
pink earlobes as delicate as seashells, while still more sapphires had encircled
a swanlike throat he yearned to kiss.
One look, and he'd been lost…
The image of graceful white shoulders, of creamy breasts rising from blue satin,
had imprinted itself on his memory. As had the scandalous lady herself…
Yet once she had left the toddler and returned to the ballroom that night, she
had become another woman entirely. An ice-maiden in blue— cool, regal,
untouchable— who had deigned to come down from her crystal tower to rub
shoulders with the common folk. A woman who was, at least on the surface,
impervious to the racy scandal surrounding her.
And, despite his determination to dismiss that gossip as false, his wicked
imagination could readily conjure up the image of quite another Victoria. A
temptress who sprawled elegantly across the straw in some idyllic stable. A
wanton beauty who rode astride his hips without a stitch of clothing to her
name!
In his dreams, her cool reserve became wild abandon. Her head was thrown back,
and her gypsy curls flowed in inky ripples over her ivory breasts. Her eyes
smoldered with invitation, and that carnal mouth was parted in a gasp of
pleasure as he drove into her, time and time again….
This— this, by God!— was the tantalizing image that had driven him from the
study of his townhouse to White's, and Roger Hawthorne, in the wee hours
following the Herefords' ball. The same tantalizing image that had haunted his
dreams, and prompted his offer for the lady's hand the following morning, too.
Lust. Desire. Not the image of a nursemaid for his daughter! Hell, no! Finding a
new mama for little Mary had quickly become a secondary reason for his pursuit.
A welcome bonus? Truth was, he wanted Victoria. Lusted after her, craved her,
had to have her….
Nor had his rampant desire diminished in the following hours. Rather, memories
of her provocative scent, the way she'd felt and moved in his arms, had served
to fuel his desire.
He might try to convince himself that his motives were pure. Paternal, even. But
he'd be a liar. It was lust that had prompted his offer for Victoria's hand. No
more, no less. And if he had to marry the woman in order to bed her, then so be
it, he'd decided.
Three years ago, when Aimee proved unfaithful, he'd decided that marriages of
convenience were best for both parties. Nothing had happened since then to alter
that belief. He'd accepted long ago that a loving marriage such as his parents
had enjoyed was not in the cards for him.
Still, his five weeks' engagement to Victoria had proven the longest five weeks
of his life. If he were honest with himself, he had welcomed the arrival of
Hawthorne's frantic note, informing him of his betrothed's plans to elope with
the Thomas lout, for her actions had precipitated a speedy end to his torture.
He would take the coachman's place, he'd promised himself, then persuade the
faithless Victoria to elope with him, instead.
No more nights filled with dreams of her dancing naked in his arms, warm and
pliant with surrender, he'd thought as he donned Harry's cape and top hat and
took his place upon the box of the coach.
No more days fractured by glimpses of raven-haired women he'd mistaken for her,
then followed up hill and down dale like a hound after a bitch in heat!
Here, in this godforsaken corner of the world known as Gretna Green, he would
make Victoria his own.
***
Firelight danced over her pale, lovely face as he ducked his head to hers. His
broad chest crushed the rounded breasts hidden by her voluminous nightgown as he
leaned over her.
He teased her soft lips apart with the tip of his tongue, tasting, sampling. A
lovely woman was like a fine vintage wine. Lust or no, one did not swig great
gulps from her lips, like champagne swigged from the bottle. One sipped, savored
her bouquet lingeringly, as if drinking her essence from the finest crystal.
When she drew away in confusion, he firmly took her chin between his thumb and
finger and held it steady while he deepened the kiss.
To his surprise, she yielded her mouth with only a soft, breathy murmur. Her arm
curled around his neck. Her fingertips idly ruffled the waves at his nape.
Promising. Very promising.
Even that careless little caress sent an electric jolt through his loins.
Spun silk, he thought as he plunged his hands into her midnight hair. Its soft
coils felt like warm silk as they slipped through his fingers, as alive and
vital as the lovely woman whose lips he kissed.
He felt her shiver as his hand splayed around her throat. Fingers curled around
its elegant column as he deepened the kiss, tracing the pink whorls of her ears
down to her nape.
A half-smile played about his lips as Victoria sighed and relaxed beneath him,
murmuring like a cream-fed kitten.
He continued to kiss and caress her, deftly unfastening the narrow blue ribbon
bows that closed the front of her nightgown as he did so. When the last tie was
undone, he drew the fronts of her bodice apart to bare her breasts for his
pleasure. And pleasure it was, indeed, to look upon them.
She sucked in a shocked gasp and shivered as cool air kissed her skin, then
gasped again as his warm breath fanned her snow-white bosom, steepled with small
raspberry-pink buds.
"How lovely you are," he breathed, his dark gaze shifting from her face to her
perfect breasts. "Everywhere."
He gazed deep into her eyes, tracing each del icate mauve areola with his
fingertip as he did so.
The soft, velvety nipples stiffened in response, until a flushed pink bud rode
taut upon the swell of each ivory mound.
With a groan so deep it was more a growl, he dipped his dark head and covered
one breast with his mouth.
Blackstone's mouth engulfed her breast, then drew hard upon the tiny peak as if
it were a succulent berry. She could not hold back a cry of surprise, for his
mouth was unbelievably hot, the feel of his wicked tongue unbearable!—
unbearably sweet! — as his hungry mouth danced over her flesh.
Delicious sensations filled her. Ones that traveled— in some mysterious fashion—
from her breasts to the secret place between her thighs.
For one delicious, wicked moment, she could not help wondering how it would feel
if Blackstone were to touch or even kiss her there, like the Eastern couples she
had seen once in a book of erotic drawings found in her Father's library.
Oh, wicked girl! Oh, wicked wicked thoughts!
What was wrong with her, she wondered, shame flaming her cheeks? Blackstone
would do what had to be done to consummate their marriage, and then he would
tell her what a brave girl she'd been and leave her bed, God willing, just as
her stammering aunt had so nervously described.
She had only to submit to her husband's will for a few moments. To lie there,
grit her teeth and do her duty, however distasteful, bolstered by the knowledge
that it would soon be over.
She was not supposed to feel pleasure— no decent woman did, Aunt Catherine had
assured her. Only males took pleasure in carnal matters, be they human or
animal.
Consequently, confused by the considerable pleasure she was feeling, Victoria
stiffened as Blackstone pushed her nightgown up her legs to her hips, kissing
the petal-soft ivory legs he bared as he did so.
"Don't!" she murmured, knotting her fingers in his hair to halt his
explorations.
"Let go, darling. You're my bride. I want to look at you. All of you. Come.
Let's get this wretched tent out of the way, shall we?" He sounded amused, his
voice even deeper and huskier than usual.
Mortified, she crossed her arms over her bare breasts as he tugged the nightgown
down, over her hips, down her legs and feet, and finally stripped it off her.
She cringed as he flung the garment aside, for he made no effort to hide his
laughter
"Good Lord! Drawers, too? On your wedding night? I shouldn't be surprised if
you're wearing a chastity belt beneath them!" the hateful man roared. "One that
is stoutly padlocked, of course."
His sable eyes dancing with wicked merriment, he planted a kiss on the tip of
her nose, then deftly slipped his hand between her ruffled drawers.
She shot up off the bed as if he had stuck a pin in her, although he had done no
more than gently stroke the undefended flesh he found there.
"Then again," he murmured, his eyes even darker now, his voice unaccountably
thicker as he caressed that part left bare by the divided garment, "perhaps not,
hmm?"
Her drawers quickly went the way of her nightgown, soaring across the bedchamber
in an unseemly flash of white that made her cheeks burn.
"Now, then. Turn and turn about, hmm, sweetheart? It's only fair," he murmured.
Sitting up, he unfastened his breeches and shoved them down and off his body.
His drawers followed.
Oh, God. His lean, powerful body was quite bare now, except for the line of
curling dark hair that bisected his broad chest. And, to her surprise, he wasn't
horrid or beastly at all. He was beautiful. Like a statue of a Greek athlete,
powerfully muscled and deeply tanned everywhere, she saw, his skin burnished by
a sun far hotter than that which shone on England's damp, chilly shores.
"So. Do you like this better, my dear? The two of us, naked as Nature intended?
Unfortunately, we would be at a decided disadvantage should this flea-bitten
hostel catch fire!" Laughter rumbling in his voice, he gathered her into his
arms and drew her close.
He smelled of sandalwood soap, of tobacco and brandy, and felt so deliciously
warm. Hot, really. His naked flesh burned like a furnace against her own,
warming her. Oh, God, yes, warming her in ways she'd never dreamed of.
Stiff as a porcelain doll, she allowed Blackstone to caress and kiss her
breasts, her shoulders, her back. To trace the path of her spine down to the
flare of her hips and buttocks. To follow the lush curves of her bottom, until
he found the swollen folds of her womanhood.
Pressing her down to the sheets, he dipped his head to kiss her navel, then
teasingly stirred the patch of dark curls below it with several low, puffing
breaths, chuckling softly as she gasped in shock. Tousling the same curls with
his hand, he delved lower, inserting a probing finger between the pouty folds.
"My poor love," he murmured thickly. "So sweet and wet and wanting. Come, now.
Open for me, my lovely. Wider. Aye, there's a love. There's a good lass…"
He crooned endearments and nonsense words in her ear, and all the while his
finger pressed deeper, deeper, until her world revolved around it. Around the
hot, hard length of it, which although a little painful was at the same time
strangely pleasant.
While his mouth was busy at her breasts, he smoothly worked that finger in and
out of her, going deeper with each inward thrust until she thought she would
faint from sheer delight.
As if her own body were allied with his against her, a silky dew poured from her
body to aid his intrusion.
And— despite what she had told herself, and the fact that she hardly knew the
man, for all that they were husband and wife— she thrilled to his touch. Could
not get enough of what he was doing, nor the way he made her feel. She wanted
more. More!
Little cries broke from her lips as her body suddenly pulsed with an excess of
pleasure.
"Oh! Oh, Blackstone!" she cried.
In the wake of those exquisite flutters came delicious contentment— followed by
a deep sense of shame. What had happened to her? And what must Blackstone think
of his innocent bride, who found pleasure in The Act like a common trull?
But to her dismay, she had no time to consider the question further, because her
husband chose that moment to lift himself over her, and kneel between her legs.
"Blackstone, don't!" she cried, suddenly panicky. She shoved at his chest with
her palms.
"I must, my sweet. But I shall not hurt you, after the first time. Once your
maidenhead has been fully broached, there will be only pleasure, for both of
us."
Gently pinning both hands to the bed above her, he stopped her protests with a
long, deep kiss and spread her wide with his knees.
"Blackstone— Steede— wait! Let me— ohhh!"
She gasped as the hard, blunt head of his shaft pressed against her opening. And
then, his face a dark, intent mask, Blackstone thrust forward, driving deep
inside her.
In that single thrust, the worst of it was over. Done with. A moment's searing
pain, the splash of something hot against her thigh, and he was lodged deep
within her body.
For better or worse, their marriage had been consummated. She belonged to him.
Now. For better, or for worse.
***
She offered no comment when, some while later, he withdrew and rolled off her.
Rather, she lay stiffly beside him, breathing shallowly as she stared up at the
patches of mildew on the ceiling.
His own heart still racing, he took her rigid hand in his and kissed her
knuckles.
"Give me a few moments to recover, then I shall attend to your pleasure again,
my dear," he promised, smiling down at her, still ridiculously pleased that she
had come to him untouched.
To his disappointment, she did not eagerly return his smile but quickly looked
away, refusing to meet his eyes.
A knot of ice formed in his belly. "My eagerness for you undid me. The next time
will be better for both of us. You will see. I shall show you pleasures you have
only dreamed of, my sweet," he promised, for he had felt her passion ignite with
his touch, and her soaring response to his caresses. "Games of love that I
learned in the East, where a beautiful woman like you is a jewel beyond price."
"I will submit to you, as is my wifely duty, m'lord," she whispered, her voice
breaking. "But I shall never find pleasure in it, nor come to your bed
willingly."
His dark eyes heavy-lidded now, gleaming with amusement, he leaned on one elbow
and looked down at her. She had the flushed, sleepy look of a woman who has been
well loved by a man. The liquid darkness of spent passion was in her eyes.
"What's that? Do you challenge me, Victoria?"
"No, m'lord. I simply stated a fact."
He grinned and chucked her under the chin. "Bloody little hypocrite! You enjoyed
what I did as I enjoyed doing it. In your innocence, do you think a man cannot
tell whether a woman feels pleasure? Especially a man like myself? The fluttery
little pulses here," he murmured, cupping her mound, "the nectared welcome
here," he added, touching her between the thighs again. "The rosy flush that
suffused your body!" He chuckled. "Your lovely body betrayed you, my darling
Victoria— even as your lovely eyes betray you now. They are windows to your
thoughts— and to your most intimate feelings. Do you hate me so much, then?"
Angry that he had read her so accurately, she turned her head away and stared
steadfastly at the smoke-blackened beams and grimy ceiling above the bed
instead.
That he had given her pleasure— and worse, that he knew he had done so—
infuriated her. She was furious for enjoying his lovemaking like a common
trollop, and for forgetting Ned and all he had meant to her so easily.
"And to think you would have given your maidenhead, your fresh loveliness, your
heart, for a tawdry brooch and a collier's grimy cottage, had I not intervened!"
Steede murmured, sweeping his hand down the length of her body. "And that, my
sweet, would have been a terrible mistake. You see, you were born to be a rich
man's bride."
She flushed, dangerously close to slapping his hateful face. "I'll have you know
I loved Ned, although he was only a 'grimy collier' to you. And I'm not someone
who easily forgets those I love."
"Believe me, I have more admiration for the hard-working poor of this country
than do most men, Victoria. But that— that lout was unworthy of you in every
way."
"Let me be the judge of that!" she insisted.
"If you had such great faith in your Ned, why did you marry me?" he demanded.
"You confused me. I— the storm, your talk of brooches— I didn't know what to
think."
"Don't give me that. In your heart of hearts, you knew what Ned was. Aye, and
what he wanted. When I told you about those other women, it struck home, did it
not? You recognized something of Ned in what I told you, didn't you? That— that
is why you married me."
"It was nothing of the sort!"
Infuriated by her obstinacy, he got up and began dressing, moving about the room
with clipped, brisk movements that— had she known him better— would have
eloquently betrayed his anger without need for words.
Blasted woman! While she lay there, his wedding ring on her finger, his seed in
her belly, still clinging to her memories of that bastard Thomas, his own
treacherous body was stirring once again. Her nearness and the delicate feminine
scent of her, which still clung to his body like a musky perfume, enflamed him.
He wanted her again, damn her. And if he didn't make himself scarce, he'd be
hard put to leave her alone. His bride or no, he had no intention of ravishing
the blasted woman on their wedding night. Perhaps she'd come around once she'd
had time to recover and think things through…
As he strode across the room to retrieve his cravat, she shrank back against the
pillows, as if fearful he might hurt her in some way.
"For pity's sake, Victoria, I won't strike you! Surely you don't believe those
damned rumors?" he accused.
"What else am I to believe? I hardly know you—"
"Nor I you, madam! But I, at least, gave you the benefit of the doubt," he flung
back at her.
"Why did you do it? Why did you have to offer for my hand and ruin everything?"
she demanded.
She saw him square his jaw at the word "ruin."
"Because my little daughter needs a mother," he snapped through clenched jaws.
"And because, quite by accident, I saw you with Lord Hereford's small son the
night of the Herefords' ball. I was impressed by your way with children, and
thought you'd do admirably as Mary's stepmama."
She swallowed. "You wanted a mother for your little girl? That was the only
reason you offered for my hand?"
It wasn't, of course, but he was too angry to admit it. "Yes," he snapped, the
single word like a gunshot.
Dear God, it was even worse than she'd feared. He had not wanted her for herself
at all, although he had done his duty and bedded her. He'd wanted a mother for
his little girl. And that was all he wanted.
A lump of misery swelled in her throat. What kind of woman was she, that she'd
enjoyed his dutiful bedding?
"Well, Victoria? What have you to say? You are fond of children, are you not?"
he repeated impatiently when she said nothing.
She swallowed over the knot in her throat and nodded.
"Yes. Very fond, m'lord," she whispered.
The tawny flicker of firelight bronzed his broad shoulders, chest and powerful
arms as he shrugged angrily into his shirt. The ruddy glow behind him made a
red-gold nimbus about his dark head as, arms akimbo, legs braced apart, he
scowled down at her.
"The name is Steede, Victoria," he snapped. "Now that we are husband and wife,
in every sense of the word, I shall expect you to use it."
"Very well, Steede," she echoed, hyacinth-blue eyes mutinous as she glared up at
him.
He nodded, moving about the chamber as he dressed, tying his cravat, dropping a
gold cufflink in the gloom, swearing softly as he retrieved it.
"I have never bedded any woman against her will. But we are married now,
Victoria. And, since I have already dismissed my mistress of the past two years
in deference to your position as my wife, I shall expect you to see to my…
needs." A faint smile played about his sensual lips. His black eyes were filled
with a lambent fire. "As I, my lovely wife, shall most certainly attend to
yours."
His husky declaration was very nearly a threat, she thought. Or was it not a
threat at all, but a wickedly sensual promise?
Either way, it made her shiver. Stirred a quiver of response in the very place
that still throbbed from her bridegroom's ardent attentions.
His sable gaze impaled her as he added softly, "You do understand?"
"Perfectly, m'lor— Steede," she agreed, her cheeks burning.
He nodded and slung his coat over his shoulder. "Excellent. Then I urge you to
rest for the remainder of the night. We leave Gretna for Blackstone on the milk
train."
And then, to her utter amazement and confusion, he leaned down and pressed his
lips to the dimple at the corner of her mouth in a chaste kiss. "Sweet dreams,
Lady Blackstone," he murmured softly.
With that surprisingly tender farewell, he left her staring into the shadows,
filled with regret— though whether it was regret over losing Ned, or that she
had not met Blackstone first, she could not have said.
Chapter Eight
Blackstone Manor, Devonshire, Southwest England
"Mother," Blackstone murmured, crossing the drawing room to kiss his mother's
brow. "Allow me to present my bride, Victoria. Victoria, my mother, Lady
Henrietta Warring."
"Victoria, dear girl! Welcome to Blackstone Manor!"
Steede's mother rose gracefully from her chair by the drawing room fire to greet
them as, exhausted by the endless train journey down from Yorkshire to the
farthest reaches of England, Victoria tottered into the room after Steede.
Her first view of imposing Blackstone Manor with its twelve chimneys scraping
the sunset and its sprawling wings bathed in the sun's dying rays had drained
her of her last drop of energy.
"Lady Henrietta," she murmured, politely inclining her weary head and extending
her hand. "I'm delighted to meet you, madam."
"And I you, my dear girl," Henrietta responded, squeezing Victoria's hand.
"Steede, she's lovely, simply lovely!" the older woman exclaimed, turning to her
son. "My felicitations to both of you on the occasion of your marriage. I pray
it will be as long and happy as mine was to Steede's father."
Aware of Victoria's startled expression, Steede explained, "I couldn't keep my
eagerness to wed you a secret, darling. Before I left Devon, I confided our
intentions to elope with my mother."
"Indeed?" Victoria murmured, hyacinth eyes flashing angrily. "Then it appears
your bride was the last to know."
Henrietta laughed as Steede crossed the room. In a low voice she said, "Oh, dear
girl, don't be cross with him, I beg you. He was so impatient to make you his
bride! And— now that I've seen you— I quite understand why. I hope you'll be
very happy here as the mistress of Blackstone Manor. My maid and I have spent
the past few days moving my things into the Lodge. You must come to take tea
with me there from time to time, and to visit, as I intend to take dinner here
with the two of you on occasion. If," she added pointedly, "I'm invited."
"Oh, madam, of course you will be! And there was no earthly reason to remove
yourself from your home on my account," Victoria exclaimed, aghast. "Please, do
come back. You must remain here. It is where you belong."
Henrietta patted Victoria's hand. "I appreciate your generosity of spirit, my
dear, but you are the mistress of Blackstone Manor now. And besides, it is my
belief that newlyweds need time alone to acquaint themselves more fully with
each other, without interfering in-laws to take sides in their little love
spats. As it is, you are taking on a small child. One who— I have little doubt!—
will resent your marriage to her father, at first. Being a new stepmother is
enough for any young bride to contend with," she added with a chuckle, "without
the addition of an opinionated old woman like myself. Our Mary is a darling
girl, but somewhat… well, perhaps I should let you form your own opinions of my
granddaughter, without mine to color them."
Henrietta Warring rose, a tall, slender woman elegantly gowned in pale amethyst.
Hair pins tipped with the deep purple gemstones sparkled in her silver chignon,
while a very fine oval amethyst pendant hung on a gold chain about her neck.
It was immediately obvious to Victoria from which parent Steede had inherited
his dark, striking good looks. In her heyday, Lady Henrietta had clearly been a
beauty. A brunette original, rather than the blue-eyed blonde Society fawned
over.
"I was hoping that perhaps I could call upon you for advice in that regard,
madam," Victoria murmured, and was surprised when Henrietta patted her cheek and
smiled.
"Of course you may, of course! I will help in any way I can, dear girl, as long
as my help falls short of interference. Come and see me often, won't you? It is
my fond hope that we shall become friends, as I have always been close friends
with your dear aunt. How is my Birdie?"
Victoria refrained from laughing at Her Ladyship's pet name for her beaky-nosed
Aunt Catherine.
"I'm happy to say Her Grace, the Duchess of Lincoln, is very well, ma'am, and
enjoying her many grandchildren. She speaks most highly of you, and of your long
friendship and remembers her first Season in London with great fondness, because
of meeting you there."
Henrietta laughed in open delight. "As well she might, oh, yes! As well she
might! That naughty Birdie! What a wicked brace of gels we were back then, and
no mistake. Our poor mamas quite despaired of us making suitable matches."
"Really?"
"Indeed they did. And then we stunned the lot of them by attracting the notice
of not one, but two of the season's most eligible bachelors. Wealthy, titled
gentlemen they were, too— and handsome? Oh, my dear, so handsome! Within the
year, Catherine had married her duke, and was expecting her first daughter— that
would be your cousin Imogene— while I married my beloved John, the Earl of
Blackstone."
A shadow crossed Henrietta Warring's face. "Our first son, John Minor, was born
a little over a year later. We lost him at the very beginning of the Crimean,
you know. To think he's dead, and yet the wretched war goes on…."
"I'm so sorry."
"Bless you," Henrietta murmured. "My poor husband was never the same afterwards.
He followed our John to the grave less than two years later, leaving Steede to
inherit the earldom and the estates in his brother and father's stead. Thank God
I have him left to me," she added in a lower voice. "Such a dear boy."
Victoria made appropriate murmurs, but it was difficult to think of the man who
had taken Ned's place, married her, then made love to her so ardently the night
before as his mother's "dear boy."
Ever since last night, she'd been having flashbacks of their intimate encounter.
Ones that became especially vivid whenever Steede chanced to glance across the
room at her, as he was doing now, his sleepy dark eyes filled with wicked
promises.
Dear Lord. When he looked at her like that, her body grew hot and cold by turns,
as if feverish. She could feel his lambent dark eyes upon her breasts like a
scorching caress that seared through her clothing.
Just thinking about his lovemaking made her knees weaken and her breasts tingle.
It also stirred a tickly pulse between her thighs.
Flustered, she quickly looked away, refusing to meet Blackstone's eyes. Clearing
her throat, she told Henrietta, "Before our— elopement— my aunt expressed her
intention to call at a later date, ma'am."
Her new mother-in-law nodded. "I shall look forward to it. Better yet, I shall
write dear Birdie first thing in the morning, and extend my invitation to stay.
Well, now. I've kept you standing about long enough. You must both be exhausted
after that wretched train journey down from London! I shall go home to my dear
little house and let Cook serve you your supper. My maid will be waiting up for
me, fussing as always. A very good night to you, my dear boy," she murmured,
pausing en route to the door to offer her cheek for Blackstone's lips.
To Victoria's surprise, Lady Henrietta also leaned forward and kissed her brow.
"And to you, daughter. Welcome to your new home, and may God richly bless your
marriage."
Touched and warmed by the woman's affectionate greeting, Victoria smiled. "Thank
you, ma'am."
"Mother, dear. Please, call me Mother. Or Henrietta, if you prefer the modern
way. Ma'am makes me feel positively ancient."
And with that, she was gone, still laughing gaily as she left the two of them
alone.
"What a charming lady," Victoria observed in the yawning silence that followed
Lady Henrietta's departure.
"What did you think? That I'd crawled out from under a rotted log?" His dark
brows rose questioningly. "Cook suggested we dine by the fire. I accepted for
both of us. I trust you'll find that acceptable?"
"Of course. Thank you," Victoria said stiffly, jumpy now that she was alone with
her husband.
What was wrong with her?
Each time she looked at the wretch, she remembered him as he'd looked in their
room at the inn, a naked savage, an untamed brute with powerful muscles that
rippled under sun-browned skin burnished by firelight. Or looming over her, his
handsome face, broad shoulders and darkly furred chest filling her vision.
Her erotic memories intensified the delicious ache between her thighs and
stirred flutters in her belly.
His every gesture brought back images of tanned hands caressing the slope of her
hip, or the gentle graze of his knuckles as they followed the curve of her cheek
down over the hollows of her throat, to a velvety nipple.
Her response to his touch had been shameless, wanton— but, oh, what pleasure
he'd given her, she thought with a shiver. She would have liked to deny it, but
doubted she had the strength, let alone the will. And as for refusing him, as
she'd so rashly sworn— she could not, even had she wanted to!
And there was, too, that strangely tender kiss of farewell. Hardly what she'd
expected from a man with his dangerous reputation.
Obviously there was more to Blackstone than met the eye…
"Excellent!" Steede declared. Striding across the room, he yanked the tasseled
bellcord to summon a servant.
Exhausted, Victoria sank down into an overstuffed horsehair chair by the fire
without waiting for an invitation.
Peeling off her mud-stained kid gloves, which had shrunk as they dried and
become so tight overnight that they pinched her fingers, she held her hands out
to the fire's warmth.
She was surprised— and pleased— by the drawing room's charming appearance. With
the addition of a few polished copper or brass bowls of brilliantly colored
flowers, and perhaps a glowing landscape or two, the room would have the warm,
inviting feeling she preferred….
She caught herself in mid-thought and scowled.
Good Lord! Here not five minutes, and already she was making changes, thinking
as the mistress of Blackstone, she realized, annoyed with herself for so readily
slipping into the role of Blackstone's wife. The least she could do was feel a
twinge of discomfort. A soupcçon of remorse.
"May I pour you a sherry or a glass of port, Victoria?"
"No, thank you," she refused, discreetly smothering a yawn. "The tiniest sip
would send me to sleep."
"Ah. My apologies, Lady Blackstone," her husband murmured, his roguish grin
showing no remorse whatsoever. "I'd forgotten how little sleep you had last
night—"
"Heavens! I have nothing to wear tomorrow, except for these mud-stained rags!"
she declared suddenly, abruptly changing the subject as she sprang to her feet.
Her cheeks had turned beet red.
"If you recall, my dear, I offered to purchase you a new wardrobe in London when
we changed trains," he reminded her with gentle reproof in his tone. "But you
would not hear of it."
To his credit, he had offered, she remembered as she sat back down. But she had
not felt comfortable allowing a gentleman to purchase clothing for her, any more
than she was prepared to answer to a gentleman for everything she did. She
doubted she would ever be that married to anyone, least of all a rogue like
Blackstone. She valued her independence much too highly.
"Be that as it may, I should still like these sponged, brushed and ready to wear
in the morning," she insisted with a sniff, gesturing at her clothes. Several
inches of her skirt were dark with dried mud, as was her under-petticoat beneath
it. More splatters stained the tucked bodice of her high-necked blouse.
"Of course. I shall have my housekeeper attend to it immediately after dinner,
and assign you one of the housemaids to help you dress until we can engage a
ladies' maid for you. If it's any consolation, you shouldn't have to make do for
very long. Before I left Yorkshire, I took the liberty of asking your father to
have your things sent down here."
"You did what?" she exploded, springing to her feet.
"Really, darling, you don't have to thank me," he bantered, enjoying the way her
rising temper intensified her coloring. "I'm sure everything will be here within
a day or two. Until then, perhaps you could borrow a few things from my mother?"
An angry scowl distorted his bride's lovely face.
"You were supremely confident of the success of your plan to take Ned's place,
were you not, m'lord?" she snapped, her pallor revived by a surge of color that
pinkened her cheeks in a most delightful fashion.
His black eyes sparkled. "Supremely," he agreed. "But then, a man's confidence
ensures his success in most undertakings, be it marriage— or murder," he added
ominously, taking wicked delight in the sudden darkening of her eyes.
"Undoubtedly," she ground out, not entirely convinced he was teasing. "So, my
father and your mother knew," she continued, counting on her fingers and
pretending she had not heard his last comment, although she had. Oh, yes— and it
had chilled the blood in her veins, and struck terror in her heart. "Then
there's Harry and Lily, too, obviously. Who else did you tell? What about your
butler? Did he know? And the gardener? What about him? And was the Archbishop of
Canterbury privy to your plans? And how about Her Majesty, the queen? Was there
anyone you neglected to inform about our elopement, prior to commandeering my
coach and telling me?" she demanded, sticking out her chin.
"Nooo, not that I can think of," he admitted airily, flashing her an evil grin.
"Ah ha! Arthur. Saved by the timely arrival of our supper, I do believe. Come
in," he barked as someone knocked discreetly at the door. "Ah, it is you,
Arthur. You're a godsend, man!"
"Sir?"
"Never mind. Set the card table up over there in front of the fire, would you?"
"Very good, m'lord." With a nod, the startled young footman pushed a wheeled
serving cart into the room, laden with domed silver dishes. Delicious aromas
escaped them.
Arthur unfolded a cherrywood card table before the fire, then drew two
straight-backed chairs up to either side of it.
Whisking a snowy linen cloth over the green baize surface, he set two places
with fine napery, gold-plated cutlery, and white china elegantly banded in gold.
"Please," Steede murmured, gesturing his toe-tapping, fuming wife into the chair
the footman held for her. "Be seated."
"Your Ladyship," Arthur murmured politely as she took her seat.
"Thank you… Arthur, is it?" she ground out, dropping into her seat with more
flounce than grace.
"Yes, milady."
When they were both comfortably seated, Arthur draped serviettes over their laps
and began ladling creamy asparagus soup into their soup bowls from a silver
tureen.
The soup course was followed by thin slices of tender pink lamb, dressed with a
delicate pearl-onion gravy and accompanied by tangy mint sauce.
Early garden peas, tiny roasted potatoes cooked to a mouthwatering golden brown,
and a delicious green salad of torn lettuce, spring onions and watercress made
flavorful light accents to the lamb for Victoria. Anything heavier after their
long, cramped journey would have been de trop.
Both anger and hunger were mollified by the delicious repast. As she ate,
Victoria felt the irritation draining from her, along with the very last dregs
of energy.
"I shall assemble the staff for your inspection first thing in the morning,"
Blackstone promised after Arthur had left them to enjoy their meal alone.
"Thank you. I shall look forward to it. If the caliber of tonight's meal is
anything to go by, you have an excellent staff," she complimented him
grudgingly. "But when shall I meet little Mary? I am most anxious to do so."
"And you shall, first thing tomorrow. I'll have Kalinda bring her down from the
nursery as soon as she finishes her breakfast."
"Kalinda?"
"Her nursemaid."
"Ah. M'lord— Steede, does Mary take all of her meals upstairs with this woman?"
"She does, yes." He frowned. "Why? Is there something wrong with that?"
"I believe there is, yes. Very wrong," she told him frankly, determined to start
off as she intended to go on. He'd offered for her hand solely because of her
way with children, and she intended to give him what he wanted. Her way.
Setting down both knife and fork, she dabbed her mouth on the corner of a snowy
serviette.
"How is Mary to learn proper etiquette or the social graces she will need as an
adult if she is shut away from everyone? Expected to eat all of her meals off a
tray in the nursery or schoolroom? From now on— with your permission, of course—
I would suggest we dine together. En famille, as the French call it. As a
family. Unless, of course, we are having guests for dinner."
"Oh, of course," he quickly agreed.
She cast him a suspicious look. Was he laughing at her? But no, he appeared
quite solemn and attentive, except for that little twitch about his lips. A
nervous tic, perhaps?
"I deplore the practice of banishing one's offspring to the nursery the minute
they are born, and parading them out only on festive occasions. I shall keep my
children with me as often as possible. You see, er, Steede, I intend to devote a
great deal of love and time to their care. Not to relinquish them to nursemaids
and nannies and governesses for months on end!"
Her lovely face glowed. That, and her passionate, almost accusatory tone, made
it obvious his wife's feelings on the subject were strong and very personal.
Was that how she had been raised, after her mother's death? Steede wondered with
an unexpected pang of sympathy for the little girl she'd been. By a succession
of nursemaids and nannies? Had his bride been denied a proper family life when
her father— a taciturn, stern fellow at the best of times, from what little he
had seen of Lord Hawthorne thus far— retreated into himself, mourning the
beloved wife he had lost forever?
He believed so.
A thrill of excitement ran through him. If anyone could give him back the old
Mary, his little daughter the way she had once been, Victoria could. He was sure
of it. And her affectionate, nurturing presence at Blackstone Manor would, God
willing, prevent his own little daughter from sharing her stepmother's fate.
"In this household, you mayraise your family— our family— in any way you deem
fit, my dear," he said softly, casting her a heated look. Reaching across the
table, he placed a heavy hand over hers and fondly squeezed the slim fingers.
"Ah, Victoria, Victoria! Call me optimistic, if you will, but I have a strong
intuition our family will be a large one." He shot her a sly, wicked wink. "Very
large indeed."
Judging by her sudden, delightful blush and the nervous way she fussed with her
hair, his comment had reminded her of the way those babies would be conceived.
Just as he'd intended.
Tonight, he would permit his beautiful bride a brief respite in which to recover
from their wedding night and the wearying train journey, and to reflect— with
pleasure, he hoped— upon her wifely duties in his bed.
But tomorrow, he promised himself, splashing brandy into a balloon glass, he
would join her there.
She might never come to love him, or he her. But he would awaken her passions so
fully she would never sleep alone again, willingly…
Cupping the snifter in both hands to warm the tawny golden liquid inside it, he
lifted the glass in silent salute to his belle Victoria.
"So be it!" he murmured, and drank long and deep.
Chapter Nine
The following morning, Victoria awoke from restless, erotic dreams to find her
mud-stained clothing had been miraculously restored to serviceable condition and
set out, ready for her to wear.
With the help of Belinda, the nervous little housemaid who had been chosen by
the housekeeper, Mrs. Hastings, to assist her with her morning toilette, she
sailed down the gracefully curved front staircase in search of the dining room
and breakfast.
At the foot of the staircase, she found the manor's staff assembled according to
rank and household position.
The footmen were neatly attired in bottle-green livery, while the maids wore
dark gray dresses and snowy bibbed aprons and caps.
She greeted each one with a smile and a gracious word or two, from Titchy, the
youngest tweenie, to the butler, Mister Jessup, a tall, thin, formal fellow who
performed the introductions in a plummy voice accompanied by hand motions.
"Have you seen Lady Mary this morning, Jessup?" Victoria asked the thin
majordomo, once the staff members had been dismissed to their various duties.
"I have indeed, ma'am. You will find Her Ladyship awaiting you in the dining
room." He indicated with a flourish in which direction she would find the room.
"His Lordship instructed her nursemaid to bring her down to meet you, before he
left for the station."
"Very good, Jessup. That will be all for now."
She found her stepdaughter in the dining room, as the butler had promised. Mary
was standing by the window, looking out, her hands primly clasped before her.
What an exquisite child, Victoria thought.
Mary's long, curling hair was the tawny gold of clover honey. Caught back from
her profile by a pair of tortoiseshell combs, it streamed down her back in
shining ringlets. Her eyes were lovely, too. A deep smoky gray, they tilted up
like a kitten's at the outer corners.
To Victoria, those eyes seemed peculiarly solemn and adult as Mary looked up at
her from beneath long, coal-black lashes clearly inherited from her darkly
handsome papa, and in sharp contrast to her peachy complexion and red-gold hair.
She would be a beautiful young woman someday, Victoria thought as she crouched
down, eager to greet her little stepdaughter eye to eye.
"You must be Mary," she began gently. "How wonderful to meet you at last. I'm
Victoria. Did your papa tell you that he and I are married? I shall be living
here at Blackstone Manor from now on. I do hope we can be friends?"
She waited, expecting some response from the child. Not necessarily a warm one—
what intelligent child would welcome the woman who had replaced her beloved
mother?— but something other than this silent, unwinking stare. Even a surly
welcome would be preferable to that.
Hiding her dismay, Victoria decided to behave as if nothing out of the ordinary
had occurred. The little girl would surely speak to her in her own good time.
Perhaps she first needed to decide for herself whether Victoria was going to be
a friend or an enemy.
Once her initial surprise had worn off, Victoria's tender heart went out to
Steede's daughter. So this was what Henrietta had hinted at. That her
granddaughter was an unhappy, perhaps difficult, child.
Well, Victoria knew all about unhappiness from her own lonely childhood.
Following her mama's accidental death, her childhood had been overseen by a
steady procession of nursemaids, nannies and later, governesses and companions—
even an occasional housekeeper.
The women had come and gone through the doors of Hawthorne Hall in their turn,
and each one had been shrewdly assessed by the hostile little imp she had been,
before battle plans could be drawn up.
There had been Nan the Ninny, who could be intimidated by loud screams, cross
looks and threats to "tell Papa." Mademoiselle Priscilla Poireau, who wanted to
become Victoria's stepmama and the new mistress of Hawthorne Hall. Sylvia the
Sneak, who had carried tales of Victoria's smallest misdeeds to Father,
embellishing them until they achieved truly demonic proportions. Theodora the
Tippler, who had sneaked sips of Papa's liquor, and Spiteful Sybil, who had
delighted in pinching so hard she had left bruises on Victoria's cheeks, upper
arms and thighs.
Ah, yes. She had met them all, and liked none of them, for they had kept her
apart from the only person she wanted to be with: her Papa.
But Papa had changed after Mama went to heaven, and he had wanted no part of
her, Victoria remembered, a painful lump forming in her throat just thinking
about it. And, in the years that followed her father's rejection, the gulf
between them had widened irrevocably.
She was already sixteen when he realized she was no longer a child, and
prevailed upon Aunt Catherine to help him get her married off. But the affection
and attention she had received from her aunt— delighted to have a fourth
daughter to pamper and cosset, now that her own brood had flown the nest— had
been a case of far too little, too late.
By then, Victoria had become an intelligent, well-educated hoyden, with few
social graces other than that of being an expert horsewoman— a talent that was
quite useless in a drawing room. What manners she could lay claim to had been
largely a result of Lily Lovett's bullying.
Consequently, it had taken poor Aunt Catherine almost two full years and a
procession of dancing masters, music teachers, seamstresses, milliners and a
considerable portion of her father's fortune to make her presentable for her
debut into polite Society. And then, just when her first Season was approaching,
she had met Ned, and her aunt's plans for a brilliant match for her had been
toppled.
Poor, dear Aunt Catherine! Her aunt had had her work cut out for her, in order
to make a silk purse out of the proverbial sow's ear she had been. For, although
Victoria had come to womanhood lacking no luxury, she had been sorely lacking
any male influence in her life, let alone a civilizing female one.
Was that why she had been drawn so readily to Ned? she wondered suddenly. Had
she found in Ned's quick grin, his apparent adoration of her, the attention and
affection she craved from her father? And, believing she had found it at last,
had she mistaken it for love, because she had wanted so desperately to be loved?
She would never know.
"Come, darling. Sit beside me," she urged the little girl, patting the
straight-backed chair beside her own at one end of the long walnut dining table.
Mary continued to regard her solemnly.
"I thought it would be nice if we breakfasted together this morning, just the
two of us," Victoria continued. "Perhaps your papa will join us later, wouldn't
that be fun? And afterwards, I thought we could pick some roses from the
gardens. I'm sure your grandmama wouldn't mind. We'll cut some for the house,
and some to take to her at the Lodge. They smelled heavenly when I opened my
window this morning! I expect you can smell them from the nursery, too, can you
not?"
Stony silence.
"The Lady Mary takes her breakfast in the nursery each morning, Memsahib
Warring. It is her custom to be served there, yes? The servants, they already
know this. They will have carried her tray upstairs, to her room."
Victoria gasped, her hand flying to her breast.
In her fascination with her stepdaughter, she had not noticed the slender woman
who stood by the window, cast in shadow. The low, singsong voice coming out of
nowhere startled her.
A gauzy wine-colored veil draped the woman from head to toe. She wore a
short-sleeved pink tunic under a cranberry silk sari, the folds of which were
ingeniously wound about her slender body. Several inches of rose silk trousers
and burgundy velvet slippers appeared below the hem of the sari.
The colors of the woman's garments blended so perfectly with the cranberry
velvet of the draperies, she almost disappeared among their folds. An accident,
or a clever design, Victoria wondered suddenly, then dismissed the idea as
foolish.
A crimson dot the size of a farthing was centered directly between the woman's
brows. A Hindu caste mark, Victoria thought it was, though she couldn't be
certain, having only read about India and her many peoples.
The woman's lustrous black hair was caught back in a heavy coil, fastened by
silver combs at the nape. The slanted sloe-black eyes were very bright in the
slim-nosed, exotic cafe’ -au-lait face. They were as inquisitive as a bird's
above prominent cheekbones.
"And who, pray, might you be, madam?" Victoria inquired, her jet eyebrows
arched.
The woman bowed gracefully, her palms pressed together. "I am Kalinda, memsahib.
The Lady Mary's humble ayah. That is to say, her nursemaid, yes? I have taken
care of the little missy since she was a small baby. Sahib Warring brought me to
England from Calcutta, memsahib."
Although her words were very proper and correct, there was no mistaking the
woman's proprietary tone, which bordered, Victoria thought, on insolence. Little
Mary was her charge, and she would welcome no interference on Victoria's part,
her tone implied.
We shall see about that, Victoria thought, wondering if Kalinda's possessiveness
was the reason Steede had suddenly decided to find Mary a stepmother. She would
ask him later.
"And I am sure you have done so admirably," she complimented the woman.
"However, in the future, I want Mary to join me for breakfast each morning. A
brief period spent apart each day can only be good for you both. Mary and I must
get to know each other. Mustn't we, Mary?"
She smiled at Kalinda, then at the little girl, who still stood demurely before
her. Demurely and silently.
Mary's small hands were clasped together over the folds of a snowy, ruffled
pinafore, worn over a severe navy-blue frock. The small fingers were entwined so
tightly the knuckles were white. The skirts that reached to her mid-calf were
finished in yet another deep ruffle.
Scrawny, knobbly-kneed sparrow legs stuck out beneath the frock, like pipe
cleaners encased in ugly black wool stockings, then planted in black button
boots.
There was something very endearing about those skinny little legs and awful
boots. Victoria ached to replace them with the slippers of dainty white kid that
she had dreamed of as a little girl.
There was nothing endearing or touching about the child's expression, however.
Mary's gray eyes smoldered. Her lower lip jutted. Her narrow shoulders were
rigid with anger.
The Lady Mary was obviously livid about her new stepmama's interference in her
daily routine.
Not twenty-four hours at Blackstone Manor, and already the child declares war on
me, Victoria thought. Nor will her ayah improve the situation, if I leave them
to each other's company. Ah, well. There's no help for it.
"That will be all for now, Kalinda. You may go," she ordered crisply.
Kalinda's dark eyes widened. Her brows rose. "Go, memsahib?" she echoed. "But to
where must I go?"
"Why, to your room." Did the woman not understand English? "Or perhaps you'd
prefer to take a walk down to the village. The time is yours, to do with as you
wish. Surely you have some personal errands to occupy you?"
"Errands, memsahib? But I have none. My only joy is to serve the Lady Mary! That
is the purpose for which Sahib Warring brought me here, from my own country."
Panic flared in the sloe-black eyes.
"I'm sure it was, Kalinda. But all of us— even nursemaids as devoted as you
undoubtedly are— need time to ourselves. Now that I'm the mistress of Blackstone
Manor, some things will be changing— for the better, I hope. With His Lordship's
approval, I have decided that Mary and I are going to spend the mornings
together, getting to know each other. Are we not, Mary?"
When Mary ignored her, she continued briskly, "I'm quite certain Lord Blackstone
did not want you to devote every waking moment to your charge when he engaged
you. Run along now, and enjoy an hour or two alone. Mary and I are going outside
to pick some roses for the house. They smell heavenly! You may join Lady Mary
later."
Kalinda's face darkened. Mary's lips likewise tightened in displeasure, thinning
to a bad-tempered line that quite spoiled her pretty little face.
Ah ha. A reaction— albeit an angry one. It was a start, of sorts.
Kalinda bowed again. She looked no happier than her little mistress, but— eyes
carefully blank— she inclined her veiled head nonetheless. The movement made her
silver bangles and anklets chime merrily, like tiny temple bells. "Very well,
memsahib. It shall be as you wish."
"Excellent!" Victoria declared with an enthusiasm she was far from feeling. "You
may go now, nurse."
Kalinda had no choice but to leave the room, gracefully bowing and backing away
in the Eastern fashion.
Victoria was hard put not to smile at the befuddled expression on the Indian
woman's face. Clearly, the mother hen had never been parted from her chick
before. Poor Kalinda. Victoria had no wish to be cruel to anyone, but in this
instance, a brief daily separation was not only necessary, but vital, she
believed. If not for Mary, then for her own relationship with her stepdaughter.
How were they ever to become close when Kalinda stood between them, jealously
guarding her charge? And surely such an attachment on the part of a nursemaid
could not be healthy for the child.
"Well, now. Where were we?" Victoria asked when the ayah was gone. "Ah, yes.
Breakfast. Thank you, Arthur."
She took the chair that the footman held out for her.
With a wink and a grin, lanky Arthur pulled out the chair on Victoria's right
for Lady Mary. The little girl made no effort to climb up onto it, or to return
Arthur's engaging smile.
Instead, her arms crossed over her chest, she continued to pout and scowl at
Victoria. And, though not a word passed her lips, her mutinous expression spoke
volumes.
Just like her father, Victoria thought to herself. If looks could kill, I would
be hanged, drawn and quartered even as I stand here!
"I expect the Lady Mary needs assistance, Arthur," Victoria murmured calmly. She
carefully avoided any eye contact with the child. "Please. Help Her Ladyship
into her seat."
"Certainly, madam."
But as Arthur bent to lift the child up, Mary quickly stuck out her elbows and
shrugged off his assistance.
Glaring at the poor footman, she scrambled up into her chair unaided, proving
Victoria's fears that Mary might be deaf quite unfounded.
She turned away, hiding a smile.
"Splendid! Arthur, you may inform Mrs. Hastings that Lady Mary and I are ready
to be served now. There is no point in delaying any further. His Lordship will
not be joining us until later, if at all."
"Very good, madam," Arthur agreed with a grin and a bow, then left them alone.
Mary, Victoria soon discovered by the simple process of observation, enjoyed
Mrs. Hastings's buttery scrambled eggs very much. She was inordinately fond of
plump browned sausages and crispy rashers of grilled bacon, too. She preferred
her morning porridge sweetened with honey and cream, rather than salted, and
liked her toast dark and spread thickly with butter and marmalade.
She had no fondness whatsoever for fried liver, and the mere sight of deviled
kidneys made her gag. She was also adept at drinking large glassfuls of milk
without leaving the suspicion of a milk moustache on her upper lip.
In short, except for her extraordinary ability to remain silent, she was a
perfectly normal seven-year-old.
Earlier that morning, as Victoria had sat before the dressing table in her airy,
sunlit room, making her toilette with Belinda's eager if clumsy assistance, and
sorely missing the capable services of Lily Lovett, Steede had entered her room
through the connecting door to his own.
After bidding her a very good morning, kissing her cheek and asking if she had
slept well, as if they were a perfectly ordinary, happily married couple, he had
announced his intention to ride down to the railway station before breakfast.
"You're going away?" she had inquired uncertainly, unable to decide whether she
wanted him gone or not.
"And abandon my lovely bride so soon after our wedding day? Not a chance, my
dear!" he had vowed with a roguish grin that she felt deep in her belly. "No,
the stationmaster sent a lad up to say several trunks had arrived from Whitby on
this morning's milk train. Apparently your belongings are already here, and must
be signed for."
She confided to Mary as they breakfasted that she thought her papa had a secret
up his sleeve, too.
"He sounded very mysterious and was smiling when he went out. I expect we'll
find out what he's up to soon enough, don't you?" Victoria observed, spreading
marmalade on her buttered toast and talking animatedly, as if she expected Mary
to contribute or answer her.
The child made no attempt to respond, however.
The meal finished, Victoria rang for a housemaid to fetch them straw sun hats,
gardening gloves, a flat basket and pruning shears.
"There!" she declared when they were both suitably outfitted. "Don't we look
grand! Come along, darling. Off we go!"
Taking Mary's small hand— which was swimming in a too-large canvas glove— she
led the way outside, to the rose gardens at the rear of the manor.
The heady perfume was intoxicating on the warm air.
Keeping up a stream of lively chatter intended to put the child at ease,
Victoria went from bush to bush, like one of the busy bumblebees that buzzed
from flower to flower, gathering roses instead of nectar.
She snipped a woody stem here, another there, carefully removing the thorns and
placing each exquisite bloom in the flat wicker basket she'd given Mary to
carry.
"My mama was very fond of roses, I recall. She had her own rose garden at
Hawthorne Hall— that's in Yorkshire, where I grew up. We used to pick them
together, just like this. Everyone calls it Isabelle's rose garden now, because
Mama loved it so. I was just your age when she went to heaven, but I still miss
her very, very much."
No comment. No change in expression.
Victoria shrugged, then added, "I expect I always shall, don't you?"
When they had first gone outside, she had expected Mary to balk and run off,
rather than carry the basket, as she'd asked.
But to her surprise, the child had dutifully trotted after her, following her
down the crazy-paving pathways that wound between the rosebeds, where every
variety and color of rose was in glorious bloom.
A thrush threw out its plump speckled breast and serenaded them from a trellised
archway in the tall box hedges that surrounded the rose garden. Through it,
Victoria could see a driveway of golden shingles that swept around a grassy
paddock to the rear of the manor house, where the carriage houses, stables and
storerooms were located.
In the distance, above the treetops, rose the crenellated Norman tower of the
village church of St. John.
Once or twice as she picked, Victoria thought she saw a glimmer of interest in
the child's cool gray eyes as she named each variety, comparing the Blackstone
roses to those grown at Hawthorne Hall.
As a little test, she intentionally selected an overblown rose with falling
petals, and saw the little girl's eyes narrow with dismay. When Victoria gripped
the rose's woody red stem with her shears, Mary seemed on the verge of
protesting.
Victoria paused, then selected another, less overblown rose, and the girl's
shoulders sagged in relief.
"There. Finished. Your turn to pick now, Mary," she sang out. "Let me carry the
basket, while you do the clipping," she suggested casually.
Mary's head jerked around as if pulled by a string. Eyes widening, she pointed
to herself.
"Of course I mean you, silly-billy!" Victoria laughed, responding to the child's
brief pantomime. "Here." She carefully handed the child the clippers,
positioning Mary's small fingers correctly on the handles. "Perfect. Go ahead.
Try one."
With a startled yet eager glance, Mary chose a beautiful blushing pink rosebud.
At a point about ten inches from the bud, she deftly snipped the woody stem.
Knocking off the sharp thorns with the side of the pruning shears, as she had
seen Victoria do, she placed the rosebud in the basket with the others.
She could not resist flashing Victoria a look of triumph when she was done,
coupled with an expression that was very nearly a smile.
"Clever girl. I just knew you could do it!" Victoria praised her. "You and I
make an excellent team, do we not? Would you cut some of those cream roses, too?
I love the ones with just a blush of yellow, don't you?"
Chapter Ten
It was in his grandmother's rose garden that Steede found them on his way back
from Blackstone Station, one a beautiful rose herself, the other a lovely bud
that had yet to bloom. But the sight of them together— one fair-headed, the
other dark, was bittersweet. Neither his radiantly beautiful bride nor his
lovely little daughter had any love in their hearts for him, he reflected as he
rode his gray stallion toward the trellis set in the hedge, leading a second
horse by its halter.
A fat pony and cart, loaded with three enormous trunks, followed him down the
shingled driveway, its yellow wheels spinning. Driving the vehicle was young Sam
Woods, one of his undergrooms, who had accompanied him to the railway station.
Tucked between Sam and the trunks was the new head groom he had hired just a few
days ago, and a slender young serving woman who was holding her hat down on her
head and squealing with fright as the cart sped merrily up the driveway.
"Good morning, Victoria. Mary, my poppet! I see you two have met. How are my
girls getting along?" he greeted them.
"We were just cutting some roses for the house. Weren't we, Mary?" Victoria
said, shading her eyes with her hand to look up at him. "Oh, what a fine
animal!" she exclaimed, her eyes shining as she admired his silver-gray
stallion.
"Isn't he?" Steede agreed, patting Mercury's neck. "What's your opinion of the
new mare?" he asked, deliberately casual.
She glanced past him, and her eyes widened in delight. "Calypso!"
The black Arabian tossed her dainty head and whinnied in greeting to her
mistress.
"My sweet baby!" Victoria exclaimed, running under the trellis into the shingled
drive. "How I've missed you!" She flung her arms around the mare's neck and
hugged her.
Steede laughed. "Before I left here, Mama warned me that you would be happier in
familiar company. So, when your father told me about your fondness for this
pretty lady, I asked him to send her down to us by train, along with your trunks
and other belongings. A— er— certain lady's maid and her young man insisted upon
accompanying the mare, too."
"Lily? It is she! Oh, and there's Harry, too!" Vic toria exclaimed as the cart
drew level with them, then briefly slowed.
" 'Morning, Your Ladyship!" Harry Coombs sang out, grinning as he doffed his
cap.
"Harry, hello!"
"Good morning, my lady."
"And to you, too, Lily," Victoria muttered less eagerly.
She was obviously in two minds about whether to be happy to see her maid or not,
for she frowned and pursed her lips, Steede saw.
But, before she'd made up her mind whether to be gracious or cool, Sam had
whisked the cart around to the carriage house and kitchens at the rear of the
manor, sweeping Lily and her young man away with it.
Lily's face was a pale anxious oval as she looked back over her shoulder at her
mistress, Steede observed. He felt moved to say something on the girl's behalf,
since she had abandoned family and home to be with his bride.
"Before you condemn your poor Miss Lovett out of hand, my dear, perhaps I should
explain," he began. "It was not Lily who 'betrayed' your plans to elope that
night, but the Widow Johns."
"The Widow Johns!"
"She told your father you planned to elope with a most unsuitable young man, and
that you'd borrowed her widow's veil and black cloak for that purpose."
Victoria's lips tightened in displeasure.
"When he questioned the maids, Polly caved in. She handed over a note you'd
written to your Mr. Thomas, still undelivered."
"I should have known. That wretched girl!"
"Lord Hawthorne immediately telegraphed me, and the rest you know. Fortunately—
or so some might think— I reached Hawthorne Hall in the nick of time to save you
from yourself."
He grinned, but he had forgotten that their marriage was nothing to smile about,
at least as far as his bride was concerned. She glared back at him, her deep
hyacinth-blue eyes electric in her anger.
"Some might think it was fortunate. Others would disagree." She sniffed in
displeasure. "I wonder. Why on earth would the Johns woman go tattling to my
father in the first place? What possible reason did she have to betray me?"
He shrugged. "She told your father she was afraid she would not be compensated
for the trousseau she and her daughters had sewn, once the bride had flown. But
who really knows? By the way, I've hired Harry away from your father
permanently. He agreed to let him go, since he still has Mr. Lovett. Said he
wouldn't get a bit of work out of him, with his betrothed so far away. You know,
to give her her due, Lily insisted on coming here to attend you."
"I'm sure she did," Victoria said, feeling a little guilty now for ever doubting
Lily's loyalty.
"So. How are you, poppet?" he asked, turning to Mary. He had done all he could
for Lily. The rest was up to the two of them.
While he and Victoria talked, Mary had sidled over to Victoria's mare. After
casting her a beseeching look, she had received her stepmama's nod of approval
to pet Calypso's velvety black nose. Steede felt a sharp, irrational stab of
jealousy at the look of understanding that flashed between them.
Like her papa and her new stepmama, his daughter adored horses and riding. So
much so, he planned to give her a pony of her own for her eighth birthday next
month, if Victoria agreed it would be good for her.
"Would you like to sit up here on Mercury and ride back to the house?"
The child froze, her hand in midair, staring up at him from wide, frightened
gray eyes. In that instant, she reminded Steede of a startled doe caught in the
glow of a poacher's lantern.
He held his breath, hoping against hope that this time it would be different.
That Mary would once again be the affectionate, loving child she had been before
the fire that claimed her mama's life. The little girl who had adored her papa
and followed him everywhere, toddling at his heels like a chubby little shadow.
But it was not to be. At least not this time.
Mary dropped the shears, turned and ran back to the house, losing her straw hat
as she bolted.
"Well! What brought that on, I wonder?" Victoria exclaimed. "Jealousy, do you
think? I suppose it's only natural, now that you have remarried. Please overlook
Mary's rudeness this time, Steede. My arrival has obviously upset the poor
child. She hasn't said a word all morning."
A harsh bark of laughter escaped him.
"I would have been surprised if she had, Victoria. My daughter is mute, you see.
She hasn't spoken since her mother died, almost two years ago."
He knew he sounded bitter, but Aimee had a great deal to answer for. Although
dead and buried, she still managed to reach out from the grave to disrupt his
life— as she had while she lived.
"Not spoken?" Turning from the beautiful little mare she'd been petting,
Victoria shaded her eyes to look up at her husband, who was still mounted. "Has
she been examined by a physician?"
He nodded. "The finest doctors in Europe. Specialists from Edinburgh, Vienna and
Paris, as well as London. They all made the same diagnosis. There is nothing
wrong with her."
"But, if that's true, why can she not talk?"
"It's not that she can't talk, but that she won't, for whatever reason. The
doctors believe the loss of her mother is responsible for her silence. The shock
of her death, perhaps? Grief? The ability could return as readily as it was
lost."
"I see," Victoria murmured, frowning. Things were more complicated than she had
thought. She picked up the basket of roses and slipped it over her arm. "Well.
Thank you for having Calypso sent to me here, my lord. And for letting Lily come
to me, too. It— it was most kind of you."
He liked her this way, he thought. Off-balance, the grateful supplicant. Her
glossy black hair was pulled away from her face and spilled loosely down her
back, like his daughter's. She looked young, desirable, and so bloody lovely,
lust slammed through him like a fist to the belly.
"Do you really mean that?" he asked huskily, reaching out to rub a silky black
ringlet between two of his fingers. He wanted to feel that hair spilling through
his fingers, slippery as watered silk. To wind its glossy length about his
throat as he made love to her. "That I'm kind, I mean?"
A familiar throb had asserted itself in his loins now. Astounded, he found he
was hard with desire for the lovely witch he had married.
Uncomfortable in his aroused state, he shifted position on the English saddle,
hoping to God she wouldn't notice. Or if she did, that she was as yet too naive
to know what was happening to him.
"Of course," she answered. "Very kind."
For a man who murdered his first wife, he could almost hear her silently adding.
"Kindness has nothing to do with it," he said curtly. "I want you to be happy
here, damn it."
She nodded politely, but offered no comment.
"Especially since it seems I am so soon placed in your debt," he added
reluctantly.
"Debt?" Her lovely head came up. "How so?"
"It seems you have already made your influence felt upon my daughter. For that,
you have my deepest gratitude. Kalinda stays as close to Mary as her own shadow,
despite my best efforts to separate them. This is the first time I have seen
Mary without her nurse."
"You mean, since her mama died?"
"No, Victoria. Ever. It was Kalinda who raised her, you see. Aimee was— well, my
first wife was more concerned with her social engagements than she was with her
children. And for some time, she was… unwell. Having an ayah meant she didn't
have to worry about them."
"Them? Then Mary has brothers and sisters?"
"Had. An infant brother named Johnny. He was six weeks old when he and his mama
were killed."
"Oh. I'm so very sorry," she murmured softly. But she did not ask him what had
happened.
Why? he wondered heavily. Because she thought she already knew the answer?
Because she had heard— and believed— the rumors that his first wife had died by
his hand?
She looked uncomfortable, he saw, and knew he had guessed correctly.
"It must have been terrible for you," she whispered, refusing to meet his eyes.
She did not sound as if she believed it for a minute.
"Very," he agreed, gathering the reins into his hands with brusque, clipped
movements. "But it is past, and we must all go on with our lives. Enough of dark
memories on such a glorious day! What do you say to a ride? By the looks of her,
your mare is eager for an outing. A gallop would do her good, after being cooped
up in that cattle-car all night. And this brave fellow is always up for a
gallop, aren't you, boy?"
He patted his gray's arched neck. The stallion tossed his proud head and
snorted, as if agreeing with his master.
Calypso whinnied and tossed her head.
"I would like that very much, yes," Victoria accepted, laughing despite herself
at the antics of their horses, who had seemed to understand their words. His
offer provided a welcome change of subject.
The smile that lit up her face touched something inside Steede that had nothing
to do with lust or even desire. A vulnerable, lonely spot that he'd believed had
been boarded up long ago, hardened and protected from all tender emotions.
What would it take, he wondered, to make her smile like that for him…?
"I'll put these roses in water, and change. I'm sure Lily will know where she
packed my habit."
"Run along then," he urged, pleased that she had accepted his invitation. "I'll
meet you in the stableyard."
Chapter Eleven
True to his word, Steede was waiting in the stableyard with her mare saddled,
bridled and raring to run when she came down.
In just the few minutes it had taken Victoria to make amends with Lily and
change her clothes, he had acquired a picnic basket from the kitchens. A fringed
woolen carriage rug of red-and-black plaid was also draped over his arm.
"I thought I'd show you over the estates, then introduce you to our legendary
Dartmoor. There's a pretty tor with a marvelous view where we can have our
picnic," he suggested, cocking a hopeful brow.
"Tor?"
"That's what we call our rocky hills here in Devonshire."
"I'd like that very much," she said simply. "Will you give me a leg up?" There
was no mounting block.
"My pleasure." Setting the picnic basket on the cobbles, he helped her to mount
by cupping his hands together as a stirrup for her dainty boot, then boosted her
up into the sidesaddle.
Her rounded derriere, draped in blue velvet, swayed temptingly before him until
she had settled herself securely in the awkward sidesaddle; then she caught her
leg over the peg and gathered up the reins. "Thank you."
Her easy grace confirmed her father's claims that she was an expert horsewoman.
"My pleasure. You make a fetching sight, Lady Blackstone. I'd say you've ridden
a time or two before, by the looks of you," he observed as he mounted his own,
much larger stallion.
She blushed prettily. "Father insists I could ride before I could walk. I don't
know about that, but I do love horses, despite what happened to my mama." Her
hyacinth-blue eyes were suddenly very bright. Too bright.
"Is that how she died? In a riding accident?"
She nodded, sorrow darkening her expression.
"Oh! Just look how pretty everything is! I hardly noticed last night, I was so
tired…"
The catch in her voice and the damp sheen in her eyes warned him that she was
perilously close to tears.
He frowned as they walked their horses down the gravel driveway, toward the
tree-lined lane that led into the village a half-mile away.
As a former military man, he had seen firsthand the devastating effects of
silence following the horrors of battle. Bad memories, like poisoned wounds,
needed to be lanced. He knew that better than anyone, though to date, he'd been
unable to take his own advice. Perhaps when Victoria learned to trust him, she
would choose him to talk to.
Silently, he vowed that if she would only meet him halfway, he would try to make
her forget her lonely childhood. He would lavish on her all the love and
affection she had been denied, and give her babies on whom to shower her own
love and affection. Their days would be filled with warmth, sunshine and
laughter, and their nights… their nights with passion and, perhaps, even love.
But he made no reference to his plans, nor to her mercurial change of subject as
they trotted their mounts up the cobbled high-street of Blackstone, lined with
cottages, to the village green.
Rather, he kept up his end of the conversation by telling her the history of
Blackstone, and about the good people who lived there, many of whose families
had been in domestic service at Blackstone Manor, or laborers on the Blackstone
Home Farm or estates for centuries.
Lined with an assortment of thatched cottages, shops and public houses built of
green Hurwick stone, with quaint swinging signs and narrow granite pavements
like the nearest town of Tavistock, the village green was a bustling place, with
carts and drays coming and going. Friday was pannier-market day, as it had been
since medieval times.
Numerous stalls with striped awnings had been set up on the grassy green.
Stallholders were busily selling the fresh vegetables, eggs and other produce in
their baskets to those who had come on foot or by cart to Blackstone from the
surrounding hilly countryside for which Devon was justly famous.
"So many public houses for such a small village!" Victoria exclaimed. "Surely
they cannot all turn a profit?"
"You'd be surprised," Steede told her, pleased by her shrewd— if blunt— comment,
so typical of Yorkshire folk, whatever their origins. "Although we require just
the one church for the saving of our souls, all three of our drinking
establishments are very well supported by our local shepherds, who graze their
masters' flocks upon Dartmoor."
She laughed and reined her horse's head to the left. "Obviously a very thirsty
occupation. Shepherding, I mean."
"Obviously. No, this way," he urged her when they reached the fork in the road
just outside the village. "The left fork takes you across the stone bridge over
the Tamar, while the other leads to a bridle path through the woods, then up,
onto the high moors. That's where we're going."
Turning her mare's head, Victoria rode after him between an avenue of cyprus and
yew trees, guiding her horse in and out of sun-dappled shadow where leaves
rustled and birds twittered in the green-gold hush. "Tired?"
"Not in the least."
"Hungry?"
"Starving!"
"All right. We'll have our picnic up on the tor," Steede suggested after he had
shown her around his estate. "There's a view from the top unlike any in Devon,
except the view from High Willhayes." Seeing her questioning expression, he
added, "Dartmoor's highest point."
"Ah."
When they reached the hill's peak, he sprang down from his horse, came over to
her mare and held out his arms.
Unhooking her leg, she slipped easily into his arms, her slender body flowing
through his hands like water.
He steadied her, hands clasping her waist, her soft curves pressed against his
lean, hard body. The warmth of her body rose through the midnight-blue velvet of
her riding habit to heat his hands.
In that moment, their mouths were so very close he could feel her unsteady
breath as it fanned his throat and cheek. The urge to kiss her, to crush those
berry-red lips beneath his own, was strong indeed, but he mastered it— not from
any noble motive, but in the hope that, by moving slowly, one step at a time, he
would gain her confidence and trust— and the invitation he had sworn she must
offer before he took her again.
"Thank you," she murmured breathlessly, looking up into his eyes, then quickly
away.
"My pleasure," he said thickly, breathing in her scent.
Her breasts, confined by the velvet of her jacket, their lush curves hidden
beneath the frothy lace of her jabot, were crushed against his chest as she
arched against his flanks. He stood with one leg thrust forward, his knee lost
within the folds of her skirts, where it pressed against her upper thighs.
Sweet Blessed Lord! It was all he could do to keep from sweeping her beneath
him, or lifting her astride his aching shaft.
"You can let go of me now," she murmured, sounding breathless and no less husky
than he did.
"Hmm? Of course," he recovered, itching to bite the petal-pink earlobe that,
like a creamy pearl, peeped out from beneath a glossy black curl.
For several seconds, they remained very close together, their hearts beating in
harmony, their eyes locked, mouths very close, bodies touching, until the
plaintive cry of a curlew, circling high above the windswept tor, shattered the
sexual spell between them.
Abruptly, she stepped back.
Reluctantly, he turned away, spreading the plaid carriage rug across the springy
turf, grabbing the wicker picnic basket.
From a dish covered with a knotted napkin, he withdrew golden Cornish pasties.
The half-moons of crumbly pastry were filled with minced roast beef, peas,
carrots and potatoes, the crimped edges running with thick brown gravy.
Slices of last night's cold lamb followed, along with a small pot of Mrs.
Hastings's Indian chutney, thick slices of buttered farm bread, wedges of damson
pie and a small crock of Devonshire clotted cream.
"Cook is to be complimented," he exclaimed, pleased. "What a grand feast the old
girl provided for our impromptu picnic. I must thank her."
Waving Victoria to a seat on one edge of the plaid, he slipped the horses' bits
from their mouths so that they could graze, and threw himself down on the rug
beside her.
From their vantage point atop Tamar's tor, they could see clear across the
rolling moors to the looming gray walls of Dartmoor Gaol at Prince Town, to the
far west.
The prison was one from which few convicts escaped, he told her as they ate,
washing down the repast with bottled apple cider.
Those desperate few that managed to evade the guards fell prey to the
treacherous moors themselves, for by day, patches of brilliant green against
dark turf betrayed the presence of bottomless mires. But at night, when a thick
mist fell over the moors, the telltale emerald went unseen. Then the greedy bogs
swallowed up the unwary like quicksand, leaving no trace of their passing.
To the southwest of the tor lay the sea, a choppy blue-gray crested with
whitecaps as bright as shattered glass this morning. Seagulls wheeled and cried
over the cliffs, swarming like gnats over something coming into the distant
harbor.
"The fishing fleet's coming in," Steede observed, nodding in the direction of
the cloud of gulls as he took a hefty bite of a savory meat pasty. "The gulls
will be fighting for the innards."
"About my mother," Victoria began, quite unexpectedly.
"She must have been wonderful. I'd like to hear about her."
"I— I was with her the day of the accident."
"Really?"
She nodded. "We used to ride together every afternoon, you see. Horses were in
Mama's blood— as, I suspect, they are in mine."
"My mama remembers your mother's debut into society," he said. "She said she was
the loveliest woman she had ever seen."
"She was beautiful, yes. I don't remember her features much at all, but I
remember the— the presence of her as clearly now as I did then. She made me feel
so very safe."
"Did your father have no portraits painted of her?"
"Oh, several. But after she died, he ordered them taken down. He said he
couldn't bear to look at them. I have a daguerreotype of her, though. Did you
know her family came from France originally? For generations, the de Blanchards
raised beautiful horses in the French countryside, crossbreeding European horses
to the beautiful, swift Arabians they brought to France from the deserts of the
East.
"Then the Revolution came, and with it, Madame Guillotine. My mama's family were
aristocrats, which made them enemies of the people!" She shrugged expressively.
"They were forced to flee France for the safety of England— though not before my
great-great-grandparents had lost their heads in the Place de la Concorde."
"You have my sympathies. But what became of the horse breeding?" Steede asked,
genuinely curious.
"They were able to send a few of their blooded brood mares and stallions across
the English Channel to our British cousins before they made good their own
escape. It was not easy, but eventually they returned to breeding their beloved
horses here in England. My mother and father met when my father went to an
auction. He came to see a stallion my grandfather was offering for sale, and
instead, saw Mama. Isabelle Colette de Blanchard. He returned the next week, and
offered her father for her hand. One look. Mama said that was all it took for
them to fall in love," she added with a dreamy expression.
"Sometimes it happens that way," Blackstone murmured, remembering his first
glimpse of Victoria in the moonlight.
She nodded. "As it did with Ned and me. We met at his mother's sick bed, you
know, and from that moment on, we— oh! Forgive me!" she begged, clapping her
hand over her mouth, clearly devastated by her slip of the tongue. "Please.
Forget I ever spoke of that meeting."
"Believe me, I intend to," he promised, tightlipped. "But please, go on with
your story."
"That afternoon, Mama was teaching me to jump," Victoria continued, a faraway,
remembering look in her eyes. "Papa had given me a little pony for my seventh
birthday. Goblin, his name was. There was a fallen log in the field. A very
little one. Mama went over it several times without incident, to show me how
easy it was. The last time, a rabbit bolted from its burrow, right beneath her
horse's nose. It reared up, and she tumbled from its back."
"Good God!"
"I didn't realize it at the time, of course, but the fall broke her neck
instantly. She was dead before I reached her. Both our mounts bolted and raced
home to their stables. Later, I overheard Papa talking to my aunt. He told her
he would never forget the sight of those riderless horses, clattering into the
stableyard, nor the dread he'd felt on seeing them.
"He never spoke of Mama, or of that dreadful day, ever again. He blamed me for
her death, you see? And over the years, I believe he grew to hate Mama, too, for
leaving him so soon."
He glanced down and saw that she had twisted her serviette into knots, her hands
restlessly wringing the square of fabric, over and over again. The edges were
badly frayed now.
Blackstone frowned. "Hate you? But you were only a child! What sort of father
hates his own child? Besides, how could you possibly have been at fault for
anything, little as you were? Did he ever tell you he blamed you?"
"Not in so many words, no. But then, he didn't have to. I've always known it,"
she insisted huskily, swallowing several times and blinking back tears.
"Don't cry, damn it," he growled. Women's tears always unmanned him. Taking her
hand, he drew her across the plaid rug, onto his lap. "Darling Victoria, don't
cry."
Murmuring her name, he kissed her, tasting the salt of her tears on her lips.
Crooning little nonsense phrases, he nibbled her neck, breathing in the sweet,
soapy scent of her skin, her hair, cupping and gently stroking her breasts until
he could feel the hardened nipple under his thumb through the velvet jacket.
"I want you, my lovely Victoria," he whispered raggedly, slowly lowering her to
the plaid rug. When she lay beneath him, her hair fanned across the plaid like a
skein of black embroidery silk, he kissed her, parting her lips with his tongue
to stroke her own, then nipping at her pouty lower lip.
The intimacy of his kisses made Victoria moan softly with pleasure, for she knew
they were a prelude to a more intimate joining.
"Say it. Tell me you want me," he commanded, kissing the hollows of her throat.
"I want you," she echoed, arching her throat for his kisses like a cat arching
its back against its master's hand. She hated the little purring, throaty sounds
she was making, but couldn't seem to help herself.
Wanting him no less than he wanted her, she made no protest when he unbuttoned
her riding jacket and drew the fronts apart.
Unlacing the busk and chemise beneath it, he freed her breasts, taking a long
hungry look at them before setting his mouth to each mauvetipped swell.
A shudder moved through him at his first taste of her. Her skin was smooth as
cream, sweet as honey on his tongue. The small nipples were like sugared
raspberries, crowning a sumptuous sweet he could never get enough of!
Lifting her skirts, he uncovered her lower limbs, inch by sensual inch.
"You, Lady Blackstone, are a sight to drive men mad," he breathed in her ear. "A
study in delicious contrasts. Refined lady— unbridled wanton."
Her feet were shod in dainty high-heeled riding boots that hugged her leg to
mid-calf. Beneath them, she wore stockings of sheer black silk, gartered just
above the dainty knees she pressed so modestly together. Snowy silk drawers,
edged with scalloped white eyelets, met lacy blue garters.
While a bachelor soldier, he had seen many examples of Eastern erotica. "Pillow
books" the men enjoyed when parted from their wives and sweethearts, filled with
drawings of couples engaged in various methods of intercourse. He had also seen
dozens of racy sepia daguerreotypes of naked women in alluring poses and exotic
costumes. Yet not one had ever made him as hard as he was now, looking down at
his own bride.
Pillowed by the turf, her skirts and petticoats gathered up about her waist, her
lower limbs displayed in all their lacy finery, she was a sight that had him
close to exploding, and yet, only her pretty breasts were bared. It was that
wild combination of lady and sensual wanton, that carnal mouth and those wide,
angelic blue eyes that aroused him, he thought, wanting her more than ever.
And so, kneeling between her thighs, he ducked his head and took her with tongue
and lips and hands on that wild, windswept tor, his passion running free and
savage as any stallion's as he plundered those soft feminine folds. They were
swollen with desire— and wet. Dear Lord, so wet! So ready for him, he
discovered, pushing his fingers deep into her satiny heat, and gently strumming
the tiny moist bud of her desire with his thumb.
Softly whimpering his name, she arched up against his hand, trying to increase
the pressure, the heat, the friction of his skin as it moved in and over hers.
"Steede… oh, Steede!"
"Yes, my beauty. Yes, Victoria, yes! Don't fight it!" he commanded her.
Still plying her with thumb and finger, he captured her mouth beneath his own
and kissed her deeply, feeling the contractions of her body begin as he eased
himself onto her.
Unbuttoning his breeches, he freed his rigid shaft, groaning as it sprang forth,
hard, hot and demanding. A fiery brand that throbbed against her cool, silk-clad
thigh.
Sliding his palms beneath her derriere, he raised her up, and drawing back,
prepared to thrust deep into her heat and seek his ease.
But, while he was still poised on the threshold of paradise, the silly baaing of
a flock of sheep and the tuneless whistling of their shepherd intruded. The
sounds were growing closer by the second.
Looking down the hill, he cursed, silently and vehemently, as he saw the ancient
fellow wending his way up the rocky tor toward their lofty picnic spot. The
shepherd was someone Steede knew well.
"I regret we must postpone our pleasure, my sweet," he murmured, smartly
whisking down her skirts. "Hide that pretty pair for now and sit up, there's a
good girl. We're about to be visited by Old Tom Foulger— and I'm not about to
share so much as a glimpse of your charms with the old reprobate."
Leaning forward, he planted a farewell kiss on each breast, then drew her bodice
fronts together and deftly adjusted his breeches.
"Hallooo, there, Tom. A good day to you. How is the flock?" he inquired loudly.
Winking at Victoria, he stood and started down the hill to cut off the shepherd
who, corduroy cap in hand, was grinning broadly and tugging at a gray forelock
as he clambered up the slopes to meet his master.
***
A gnawing, nagging ache, a sense of incompletion lingered on the ride home— and
an uncomfortable ride home for Steede it was, too, Victoria believed, if the
black scowls he cast her were anything to go by.
"Tonight, madam," he rasped through clenched jaws, his breath so hot in her ear
that gooseflesh prickled down her arms, "I shall come to your bed and finish
what was started on the tor. And I give you fair warning, Victoria. Lock your
door to me tonight, and I shall tear it off its hinges, so help me God!"
"Very well, Steede," she promised shakily. Her limbs were weak as a kitten's as
he lifted her down from her mount.
He leered at her, a mere baring of teeth, his eyes hot, his body tense. "No
protests? No arguments?"
She shook her head, too shaken by her churning emotions to speak. And then,
unable to look him in the eye a moment longer, for fear he would read the
longing there, she scuttled back to the house like a frightened rabbit.
Once inside, she hurried upstairs to wash herself and change her clothing,
relieved that Lily was nowhere in evidence to ask the inevitable questions.
Composed once more, she came back down to the scullery almost an hour later,
intending to arrange the roses she and Mary had picked before it was time for
afternoon tea.
She had stood the flowers in a large tin tub filled with water before she went
to change for her ride. But to her surprise, she discovered both tub and roses
were gone.
"Where's Mrs. Hastings?" she asked Cook as she went into the kitchens. The large
ruddy-cheeked Devonshire woman was perspiring heavily as she oversaw the
preparations for the evening's dinner.
In the kitchens, three serving women were busily peeling vegetables, or kneading
bread dough on a floured table set beneath the window. Another was covering a
platter of tiny crustless cucumber-and-cream cheese and salmon sandwiches with a
dampened tea-towel, to keep the bread from drying out.
"Out, mum. Happen I might be able t' help you?"
"Has someone moved the roses that I picked earlier?"
"Not that I know of, mum. They was there in the scullery earlier, stood up in
that old tub, aye?"
"That's right, but they're gone now."
"Oh, ah? I'll ask Arthur if he's moved them, shall I, mum?" Cook suggested,
mopping a ruddy face on the hem of her apron.
"No, no, don't trouble yourself. You have more than enough to do here without
bothering about this. I'll just look around. I'm sure they're here somewhere.
Perhaps Arthur put them outside…"
"The little miss and that Egyptian woman was rummaging about in the scullery a
while ago. Happen they'll know what's become of your roses, mum?"
"You're absolutely right. Lady Mary has probably arranged them already. Thank
you, Cook— oh, and by the way, the picnic was delicious. Thank you so much."
Cook beamed. "My pleasure, mum. I'm right happy you enjoyed it."
But Victoria's search turned up no sign of either the missing roses or her
stepdaughter and the nursemaid.
When she questioned other members of the household staff as to their
whereabouts, she was told they had been seen walking down to the village earlier
that afternoon, while Her Ladyship was out riding.
"Isn't it strange?" she observed to Lily later that evening as she prepared for
bed, still none the wiser. "I must have picked three dozen roses this morning,
and not a single one of them can I find, anywhere!"
"That's rum doings. Perhaps that little Lady Mary knows where they are," Lily
suggested, removing the hairpins from Victoria's chignon and stowing them in a
small porcelain box.
Unwinding the long black ringlets, Lily briskly applied a silver-backed brush to
their length, brushing her mistress's hair until it fell to her waist in a
shining waterfall of black silk.
"There you are, my lady. One hundred strokes," Lily said after brushing it for
several minutes. "I'll just turn down the bed for you, then I'll be off myself,
aye?"
"Please, do," Victoria murmured, only half listening. Far from paying attention
to Lily, she was staring off into space, remembering Steede's wicked instruction
to leave her door unlocked….
"Tonight, madam. I shall come to your bed and finish what was started on the
tor. And I give you fair warning, Victoria. Lock your door to me tonight, and I
shall tear it off its hinges, so help me God!"
Oh, Lord. Just the thought of him making love to her again made her shiver.
Anticipation and excitement filled her.
How could she be so weak, so wanton, so easily won over by another man? One who
was, moreover, practically a stranger, and whose past— in all honesty— she knew
very little about, although she had married him.
Why, just a few days ago, she had sworn she loved Ned— had been prepared to
abandon wealth and title— everything!— in order to elope with him. And yet now,
less than a week later, she could hardly remember the last time she'd thought of
the man.
Slipping a silk nightgown over her head— a scandalously sheer, scanty one that
Lily had chosen from the trousseau the Widow Johns had sewn for her— she
critically appraised her reflection in the mirror.
Rather than voluminous folds of gathered flannel concealing her figure, this
skimpy silken wisp accented everything, baring half her bosom, then skimming her
slender waist to cling alluringly about the hips.
Would Steede step through the adjoining door tonight, as he had threatened? she
wondered. And if he did, would he like the frivolous scrap she was wearing…?
She shivered. She had the feeling she would not be wearing it long enough to
find out whether he did or nay.
"Eeh, by gum! Will ye look at that!" Lily suddenly exclaimed.
Victoria spun around, gasping as she looked over at the bed.
She had expected a spider, or even a mouse. But it was neither. In the soft
lamplight, she could see what had made Lily scream so.
She had folded back the top sheet, to discover that blood soaked the bottom one.
Great crimson, scarlet and deep-red gouts of it were splashed all over the
lavender-scented linens.
"Dear Lord!" Victoria exclaimed, her hand flying to her heart. "Where in the
world did that come from?"
"I don't know, my lady— but I know where it's bound, and that's a fact!"
Grim-faced and thin-lipped with anger, Lily leaned over the bed to remove the
stained linens. But at the last moment, she stiffened, her hand frozen over the
sheet's lace edging.
"Well, I'll be blowed! It ain't blood at all, my lass. Look. It's rose petals.
Red ones. There must be hundreds of 'em!" She chuckled. "I've see nowt like this
before, not in all my days!"
"Rose petals?" Victoria exclaimed. "Are you sure?"
On closer inspection, she could see that Lily was right. Red rose petals had
been strewn across the snowy bottom sheet, then the bed neatly remade over them.
Victoria shivered. Innocent rose petals they might be, but in the low lamplight
they were indistinguishable from blood.
And now that the bed had been turned down, the smell of their perfume filled the
room, sickly sweet, overpowering.
"Take them away, Lily. I can't bear the sight of them!" she whispered with a
shudder.
"Now then, love, don't take on," Lily advised, giving her a comforting hug.
"Whoever did this, it were someone what wished ye well, aye? Life like a bed o'
roses, so to speak. How were they t' know we'd think it were blood, aye, chick?"
"I suppose you're right," Victoria agreed, forcing a smile she didn't feel. She
rubbed her bare arms, where goosebumps had sprouted. "It's just that… well, I
think these petals are from the roses Mary and I were picking when you and Harry
arrived this morning."
"And what if they are?"
"After I came back from riding, I wanted to arrange them in vases for the house
and Lodge. But I couldn't find them anywhere. If these are the same roses, why
not use all of them? The pink, or the yellow, say? You don't think whoever put
these here wanted to frighten me? You know, to make me think it was blood?"
Lily shrugged. "I doubt it, love. Besides, why would anyone want t' frighten ye?
You've been here but the one day, after all. Hardly time t' have made any
enemies. No, my lass, I'd wager it were the little girl's doings. Bonny little
thing, she is, to be sure, but an odd little soul, from what I heard below
stairs. Who knows. Perhaps she only likes the red ones?"
"You're probably right." On reflection, perhaps she'd overreacted. Sprinkling
rose petals in her bed could have been Mary's silent welcome to Blackstone
Manor. Or maybe one of the chambermaids was following some bizarre Devonshire
tradition to welcome her to Blackstone Manor. After all, there was nothing
malevolent about rose petals. She would think of them as her "bed of roses,"
just as Lily had said, she told herself.
But even so, the uneasy feeling lingered.
"Well, then, if you're all set, I'll be off to my own bed. Worn out, I am, what
with that wretched train journey. Thought it would never end, I did. 'Devon! ' I
told Harry. 'More like the end o' the world, you ask me!' "
Victoria smiled and kissed her maid's cheek. "I'm really glad you came. And
Harry, too. Good night, Lily, darling."
"Me, too." Lily smiled and squeezed her hand. "Sleep well, love. I'll see thee
in the morning, aye?"
With that, Lily blew out the chimney lamp and left her alone.
Slipping between the cool sheets, Victoria lay back upon the pillows, bathed in
moonlight, to wait for her dark, handsome lover.
***
He joined her only moments after Lily's departure— so soon that she knew he'd
been listening for her maid's footsteps outside his door.
Like a lean, dark shadow, he stepped through the connecting door with the
stealth of a thief. Dropping the Turkish towel he had fastened about his flanks,
he slid into bed beside her.
"God, look at you. Like a shaft of moonlight," he murmured thickly as he took
her in his arms, running his hand the length of her slender, silkclad body. "My
lovely huntress, Diana. Goddess of the moon. Skin as luminous as moonflowers,
and hair as dark and glossy as a starlit sky. That's what you are, ma belle
Victoria…"
Drawing down the shoulder straps, he kissed her bared shoulders, his hot tongue
laving silky flesh that smelled of hyacinths.
"… my moon goddess," he whispered.
He kissed her everywhere, drawing the gown down her body inch by inch, as if
peeling the skin from a ripe peach. The comparison, though indecent, was an apt
one, Victoria thought with a frisson of pleasure.
When the gown's silky folds were pooled about her waist, he dipped his dark head
to her bosom and cupped both snow-white mounds in his hands. As his tongue
flicked over the flushed, swollen nipples, low gasps and moans escaped her. Both
areolas rucked, like rumpled mauve velvet.
When each adorable mound had been well loved, he removed her nightgown
completely, tossing it aside with an impatient growl as he had on their wedding
night. Then, rearing back, he looked down at her, his night-black eyes dancing
with wicked pleasure.
Taking her hand, he placed it over his manhood, which jutted, hard and hot, from
the dark forest at his groin.
"Take him in your hand," he urged her, gazing deep into her eyes. "Feel what you
do to me!"
He gritted his teeth as her hand closed over him, her fingers lightly stroking,
then shuddered as she pushed back the sensitive skin, exposing the swollen ruby
beneath.
Despite his sternest efforts, his manhood bucked with a will of its own.
"Damn and bless you, Victoria," he breathed, his kisses belying his curse.
"Shall I ever get enough of you? Have you bewitched me? Is that why I feel like
this? Come, now. Open for me, darling. Let me make you ready…"
She took his hand as he had done hers, her courage fed by the desire that
sizzled through her veins. Placing it over her mound, she whispered, "I am
ready." A shiver moved through her. "Oh, God, so ready… Now. Steede. Take me.
Oh, take me now!"
He squeezed her swollen mound very gently, then slid his fingers deep inside
her.
"Don't," she hissed, plucking at his wrist. Yet her hand fell away and she
moaned helplessly as he worked his maddening fingers in and out of her, moving
them deeper each time. The pleasure built, until she arched up, off the bed,
imploring him to end her torment with little broken bird cries that spurred his
own arousal.
"Now," she begged in a hoarse, strangled voice. "Inside me. Oh, God! Please,
now!"
"Soon, my sweet," he promised her huskily, his dark eyes heavy-lidded with
desire. "I want to taste you…"
He trailed his tongue down her silky abdomen, lingering to lap at the dimple of
her navel.
"… like a hummingbird, sipping nectar from a lovely orchid…"
She whimpered as he planted a trail of tiny wet kisses down her belly, gasping
as he nuzzled the dark curls below.
"… like this one," he murmured, ducking his ebony head.
He kissed her there, tasted the very essence of her, his tongue dancing over her
exquisitely sensitive pearl until she was sobbing with delight against the fist
pressed to her mouth.
And then, guiding his manhood home, he slid inside her so deeply, fully, she
cried out in pleasure.
Pulse after golden pulse shimmered and danced through her belly, like flames
flickering behind her closed eyelids. Each pulse, each flutter, drew him deeper
into her body.
"Again," he commanded savagely, lifting her hips higher. His muscular buttocks
flexed as he thrust again and again into her searing heat.
His eyes were closed as he ground his flanks against her. The erotic slap of
bare flesh against bare flesh was loud in the shadowed hush.
"Climb with me, Victoria!"
She shook her head from side to side on the pillow. Her hyacinth eyes were
dreamy with spent pleasure. Her limbs felt loose, heavy with satisfaction.
"Hmm, too soon. Not yet," she protested drowsily.
"Now," he commanded, black eyes heavy-lidded as he thrust back and forth against
her. "Let go. Let go, and you will soar!"
"I can't… I just ca… Oh! Oh! Oooh!"
Wrapping her legs around his waist, she began to move with him, her body rising
and falling to meet his driving loins.
Taking him in her arms, she felt the powerful cords that shimmied across his
shoulders and down his back when he flexed his muscles. Raw, virile strength
sheathed by smooth, hot flesh. Power and beauty that hummed beneath her fingers,
her hungry lips.
Like magic, the fire rekindled, bursting through her with the explosive heat and
flash of a Roman candle.
"Steede!"
Suddenly the night shattered, splintered into a million blinding shards of
light. The world spun crazily on its axis, reeling out of control.
And as he had promised, they soared to the stars. Together.
Chapter Twelve
Mary awoke with a start. For the first time in ages, she had dreamed she was
back in India, and that it was the night of the fire. The same night she had
fallen asleep in the peacock chair on the verandah outside Mama and Papa's room,
and woken to hear Mama screaming….
Pushing the covers aside, she padded barefoot across the room and stared at the
fireplace, still sleepy and confused.
Pretty orange and yellow temple dancers swayed before her eyes— no, not dancers,
flames!
Flames that writhed in the draft…
Flames that roared and gobbled up everything in their path with angry crackling,
snapping sounds, like a gold and red crocodile…
Flames that lit up the sky outside her window, so that the night was as bright
as day.
It was happening again!
She had to wake everybody. Kalinda first. Then Kalinda would help her wake Papa
and the others…
But tonight, like that other, dreadful night, Kalinda was not asleep in her bed
in the adjoining room.
Whimpering and still only half awake, Mary stumbled through Kalinda's darkened
room with its lovely smells of India, to the other door, which led out into the
hallway.
Barefoot, she pattered along the Turkey runner to her parents' room at the far
end of the upper gallery, still dreaming she was in the bungalow and sobbing
softly for her papa as she went.
***
Victoria woke to hear muffled weeping outside her door.
Opening it, she found Mary huddled on the threshold, sobbing her heart out.
"Mary! What on earth—? Oh, you poor little thing!"
The summer storm that had broken soon after midnight must have woken the child
and sent her looking for comfort. The booms of the thunder overhead now were as
loud and frightening as cannonfire.
"What is it, darling? Oh, sweetheart, don't cry so. Come to Victoria," she
murmured. "There's nothing to be afraid of."
Picking up the little girl, she carried her back to her bed, lay down beside her
and pulled the covers up over them both.
But Mary continued her whimpering, muttering about "Mama" and "fire." She was
still more than half asleep, Victoria realized, and a thrill ran down her spine.
Half asleep, and talking— proof that, physically at least, she was capable of
speech. In the six weeks since she had been at Blackstone, they were the only
words she had ever heard Mary utter. She could hardly wait to tell Steede when
he returned from his business in London.
Wanting to reassure herself that there was no fire, and that the little girl was
only dreaming, Victoria left her briefly and hurried down the drafty gallery to
the nursery.
The fire had died down to a heap of glowing embers. Embers that— to Victoria's
relief— were still safely contained behind a sturdy fireguard.
The connecting door to Kalinda's room stood slightly ajar. Curious, Victoria
peeked inside.
As another flash of lightning lit up the room, she could see embroidered silk
shawls draped over lamps, the dull wink of brass figurines— and the mounded
shape of the ayah's body beneath a fringed counterpane.
So. The nursemaid had not heard her little charge leave her bed, nor her
frightened sobs. Nor, it seemed, had Mary tried to wake her. Why not, she
wondered?
Returning to her own bed, she slid between the sheets and cuddled Mary closer.
"… sorry, 'Toria," the child murmured drowsily, turning to her and burrowing her
head in the curve of Victoria's neck.
Tears filled Victoria's eyes. The way Mary cuddled up to her and mumbled her
name meant she was making progress, surely.
"Yes, darling. I'm right here. And it's all right. There's no fire. Go on back
to sleep, darling. Only sweet dreams this time…"
She stroked her hair, loving the baby fragrance of Knight's castille soap, the
warmth and weight of the little body curled so trustingly against hers. What was
it Mary was so sorry about? she wondered. For the rose petals in her bed? For
her scowls and dark looks? Could a child's sense of guilt, highly magnified,
have caused her nightmares, rather than the storm?
"Hush, darling, hush. Go back to sleep. I know how sorry you are. I know, too,
that you don't want to love me— but I do want to love you. And when we love
someone, we sometimes have to fight very hard to make them love us, too,"
Victoria whispered.
"But when that someone is worth loving, then they are worth fighting for."
Victoria hugged her closer. "Just as I shall fight to make you love me, even if
it takes years and years. Remember that there is nothing— nothing!— you could
ever do or say that would make me stop loving you, my darling girl."
How could anyone ever harm a child, she wondered, stroking Mary's flushed cheek,
and still live with themselves afterwards? But people did, every day, in
countless cruel and uncaring ways, and often in the name of Christian charity,
as in the work-and poorhouses.
She fell asleep cradling Mary in her arms, waking some time later to hear the
storm still raging, its violence unabated.
Mary was wide awake and staring up at her.
In the flashes of lightning that lit the room, Victoria could see the confusion
and fear in the child's eyes. Not fear of her, Victoria was almost certain, but
of the storm.
"I expect you're wondering how you came to be here, aren't you? Well, you had a
bad dream and walked in your sleep," Victoria explained, smiling as she brushed
locks of tawny hair back from Mary's flushed cheeks. "I found you outside my
door, curled up like a kitten. Your feet were two little blocks of ice, so I
picked you up and popped you into my bed to get warm. If you want to go back to
the nursery, I'll carry you," she offered.
After a moment's hesitation, the tousled head shook vehemently from side to
side. No!
Thunder crackled loudly again, rattling the windows in their frames. Rain
pattered against the panes, as if someone outside were hurling handfuls of
shingle at the windows.
"Do you want to stay here, then?" she asked.
In answer, Mary burrowed her face against Victoria's body, her little fingers
digging into her arms.
"All right. I know. Why don't I tell you a story until you fall asleep? One
about a little girl, just like you. Her name was… Colette. She was seven years
old, and she lived in a beautiful brick house by the sea, just like this one.
"Little Colette's papa was very, very rich. He gave her everything a little girl
could ever ask for. Pretty dresses, jam tarts, strawberries and cream, a
whipping top, French dolls— even a pony of her own. In fact, Colette always had
everything she wanted— except what she wanted most. For her papa to love her.
"You see, her mama had gone away to heaven, and Colette missed her very, very
much. It wouldn't have been quite so awful if only her papa had not been so very
sad, but he was. Colette thought he didn't care about her anymore, but it wasn't
true. Then one day, Colette's papa came to her and said…" "You're worried about
Mary, aren't you?" Victoria asked her mother-in-law as they lingered over
afternoon tea in the burgundy-and-cream drawing room the following afternoon.
"Yes," Lady Henrietta admitted. For the first time since Victoria had met her,
Steede's mother looked troubled. The slim hand that held the dainty bone-china
cup with such aplomb trembled.
"I hardly knew the child's mother, I must admit, what with my son being
stationed in India. Steede brought his bride home to Blackstone only once, when
they were on their honeymoon tour, you understand? But that one time, I received
the impression that Aimee was a self-centered, flighty gel who gave little
thought to anyone but herself. My husband, John, God rest his soul, agreed.
Aimee reminded him of a female cat he'd had as a boy, or so he said. Every
spring, the cat would drop her litter wherever the fancy took her, then run off
and leave her poor, helpless little kittens to fend for themselves."
"So Aimee and Mary were not close?"
"Heavens, no! Far from it. And from the few rare comments Steede has made, I
concluded that his marriage had proven disappointing, although he never
discussed it with me. I believe Aimee was something of a social butterfly when
they met in India. She continued her social whirl even after she became a wife
and a mother." Henrietta sniffed in disapproval. "True, she was very young, and
quite lovely, but such singleminded pursuit of her own diversions left her poor
child very much in her nursemaid's care. A most unsuitable set of circumstances,
to my mind."
"If Kalinda was her only influence, I would agree wholeheartedly," Victoria
allowed. She firmly believed that Kalinda's influence over her charge should
have been limited by both her mama and her papa.
"Before he met you, my dear, Steede was at his wits' end. He was seriously
considering sending Mary off to a good boarding school somewhere, you know. He
thought, in the long view, that it would prove the best path for my
granddaughter. May I ask your opinion on the subject?"
"I would have to disagree, ma'am."
Henrietta leaned across and patted Victoria's knee. "It's Mother, my dear.
Remember? Or if you prefer, Henrietta."
"Thank you, Henrietta." She smiled. "I believe Mary feels abandoned. As if her
mama and baby brother have deserted her. And with her papa so wrapped up in his
own grief, Steede was, perhaps, unable to give Mary the reassurance she needs."
"Reassurance?"
She nodded. "That she is safe and loved. Sending her off to boarding school now,
when I have been here only a short time, would be devastating for her, don't you
think? Mary could not help but think of me as the reason for her— her
banishment."
"I expect you're right," the older woman admitted. She took a sip of tea, gazing
thoughtfully into the fire that had replaced the tapestry fire screen last week.
"But what of her education? The child has a keen intelligence, and I amof the
modern school of thought. I believe women's minds should be challenged and
nurtured. Not allowed to become porridge! I want Mary to have all the
opportunities that I was denied as a young gel, regardless of whether she can
speak. If you do not think boarding school appropriate, my dear, would you
instead find a suitable governess for my granddaughter?"
"With your permission— and Steede's, of course— I have a better idea. Thanks to
the excellent staff that you engaged, Henrietta, the Manor virtually runs
itself, while I have far too much time on my hands. Rather than spend my days in
idleness, why shouldn't I teach Mary the fundamentals myself? A little French,
botany, mathematics, geography and such, to start with. And then later, perhaps
we could go on to some Latin and Greek."
Henrietta's face lit up. "Would you really? Oh, dear girl! That would be
splendid."
As the two women continued their tea and conversation, a slender shadow
separated itself from the draperies. The eavesdropper slipped out into the
hallway, then hurried up the back stairs to the second floor. "They take tiffin
and make their plans to send you away, my jewel!" Kalinda wailed. "Trust me. I
heard them with my own ears."
No. You are wrong, Mary wrote on the slate. Not Victoria.
"Are you sure of that?" Kalinda asked slyly.
Loves me, Mary wrote again.
"Loves you! Who? Your grandmother?" A vigorous nod from Mary. "And the Lady
Victoria, too?" Another nod. "You are mistaken, my dove!"
Not, Mary wrote.
"No? Then let us test her, precious blossom. If the memsahib truly loves you, as
she claims, your beloved Victoria will forgive you any naughtiness, no matter
what it may be. Is that not what she told you, little one?" Kalinda murmured.
Her voice was silky-soft now. She was purring like old Sal, Cook's kitchen cat,
Mary thought.
"Test her, my baby," Kalinda urged. "Let us discover, once and for all, if your
Victoria means what she says— or if her mouth is full of lies."
How? Mary wrote.
"I have the perfect way. You must go into her room when she is riding with your
papa, and destroy the picture she showed you. The one of her mother that she
treasures so. Break the glass! Stamp upon the frame! Tear the photograph into
the smallest pieces. See if she still loves you, after that, my little one."
No, Mary scrawled on the slate, shaking her head from side to side. She wrote
again, No.
"Ah. So you are afraid to discover the truth, my bright jewel," Kalinda purred
again, stroking her head.
For once, Mary twisted out of her reach. No!
"But you have nothing to fear if your stepmother truly loves you, as she says.
You will only be testing the truth of her promises. And if she has lied! Well,
what does it matter to you? If she and the old one have their way, you will soon
be sent far, far from Blackstone."
Where? the little hand scrawled frantically, panic and terror in the wide gray
eyes.
"Why, to a boarding school, my dove. To a cruel, lonely place far from Kalinda,
who is the only one who truly loves you."
No. No more, Mary wrote, although the words "sent away" and "boarding school"
had made her tummy ache. She pressed so hard with the nub of chalk, she almost
carved the words into her slate. Her fingers were sore as she glared at Kalinda,
her lower lip jutting obstinately.
In the end, her ayah had to look away— though not before Mary saw Kalinda's
brown eyes grow hard as a cobra's.
The cold place in Mary's tummy grew colder still. What was wrong with Kalinda?
Why had she been so horrid since Victoria came to Blackstone? Had Kalinda
stopped loving her, like Papa? Was that it?
"It is time for your afternoon nap, Memsahib Mary," Kalinda said, still in the
cross voice that was quite unlike her gentle sing-song tone. "Into bed with
you!"
Milk? Mary wrote. Gingersnaps?
"Gingersnaps! There will be no gingersnaps for you today, my naughty one.
Gingersnaps are only for little girls who obey their ayahs. Take your nap— but
before you sleep, consider your disobedience, yes?"
After Kalinda had gone into the small room adjoining the nursery to take her own
nap, Mary climbed up onto the velvet window seat. She pulled a crocheted shawl
up to her chin, trying to get warm.
The nursery fire had burned down and the coal scuttle was empty because Kalinda
had not rung for Em to bring more coal, as she usually did. She must be very
cross indeed, to forget such a thing. Ever since they came to England, Kalinda
had complained of the cold.
Feeling abandoned by everyone, and miserable, Mary rested her chin on her knees
and gazed through the lead-paned windows at the deserted park below, where an
early mist was rising off the lawns.
Most of the time, she liked living here. England was always green and pretty,
always cool and damp, so that she was never exhausted by the heat. And, although
it rained a little almost every day, there was no monsoon season here, with
endless roaring rains, and afterwards, the discovery of horrid snakes that had
crawled inside the bungalow to stay dry.
But when she was miserable, as she was now, she missed India and her little
monkey, Kiki, who had been left behind with the gardener. She missed India's
vivid skies and bright flowers, too, and the hot, heavy breezes that smelled of
spices, dung and ghee, and carried the smells and clamor of the marketplace on
their warm currents.
If she squeezed her eyes shut and tried very hard, she could still go back there
in her thoughts and dreams, though her memories were not as clear as they had
once been, and her dreams far less frequent.
At the end of every spring, His Royal Highness, the Rajah, had left his white
palace and moved his wives and royal court to the highest slopes of the
mountains, where it was cool during even the hottest months of the year.
In her mind's eye, Mary could see the gaily draped royal elephants swaying
through the streets, swinging their trunks from side to side. Inside the
canopied howdahs on their backs rode the turbaned Rajah and his many wives,
their fingers, earlobes and wrists glittering with jewels.
Papa had told her that just one of those jewels could buy enough food for an
Indian village for several lifetimes.
She remembered the men of her papa's cavalry regiment lined up in their pretty
scarlet uniforms on the parade ground. Their gold buttons, fringed gold epaulets
and steel saber blades had flashed in the sunlight as they stood stiffly at
attention beside their mounts, like rows of lead toy soldiers.
As the elephants lumbered past the bungalow and the parade ground where the
regiment was assembled, the soldiers smartly saluted the royal procession as it
left the city, headed toward the dusty foothills.
Papa used to look so handsome in his uniform, Mary remembered. She had loved it
so when he came striding into the bungalow each evening, calling her name and
holding out his arms for her to run into them.
"Mary! Where are you, poppet? Where's my Mary, quite contrary?" he would call,
his deep voice ringing through the airy rooms as he tossed his pith helmet to
his batman.
Squealing in delight, she always dropped the toy she was playing with and ran to
him. "Papa!"
Papa would laugh and lift her up, to ride on his shoulders.
"Look at me! Look at me, Kalinda! I'm tall as an elephant!" she had screamed in
delight from her lofty perch.
"That you are, minx! And naughty as a little monkey!" Papa had said, his eyes
twinkling. "Where's your mama?"
She had wrinkled her nose, but before she could answer Papa's question, Kalinda
had bowed and answered it for her.
"Memsahib Aimee has gone out, Sahib Warring. She went to take tiffin with
Memsahib Miriam, sir."
Papa's smile had vanished.
"Tea with Miriam again, eh?" he had snapped. "Blast it!" His eyes had been
angry, too. "Who was her escort? No, don't tell me. The colonel's bloody
adjutant, Sahib Blake, am I right?"
Kalinda had bowed. "It is so, sahib. But never fear, the memsahib is in very
good hands, sahib. Very safe. Very proper. Never fear."
But despite Kalinda's smiling assurances, Papa had not smiled again that
afternoon. He had said bad words, lots of them. And when Mama came home, they
had gone into their apartments and quarreled. She knew, because she had crept
outside, onto the verandah in front of their French doors, and she had heard
them before she fell asleep.
And then, later that same night, later…
Remembering, Mary bit her lip, blinking back tears as she tried to swallow over
the lump in her throat.
After the fire that took Mama and Baby Johnny away to heaven, Papa had tried to
hug her and kiss her and get her to talk to him.
"What is it, poppet?" he asked, over and over again. "Tell Papa? Has the cat got
your tongue?"
But she just couldn't talk to him, not anymore. She was too afraid that once she
started talking, she might never be able to stop. And then she might blurt out
her dreadful secret and tell Papa the truth. That it was her fault that Baby
Johnny was d-dead— everything!
He wouldn't love her if he knew.
Fresh doubt began to worm its way into Mary's heart, which was thumping loudly
now.
Kalinda had been her nurse for as long as she could remember. She loved her
ayah, and she was almost certain Kalinda loved her in return. On the other hand,
she had known her stepmama for such a little while.
Perhaps Kalinda was right about Papa's new wife? Perhaps Victoria was not what
she seemed? Perhaps— she swallowed over a knot of tears— perhaps Victoria's
mouth really was full of lies? Should she tell Kalinda that she was sorry for
being such a naughty demon-child?
Yes, she decided. As Kalinda kept reminding her, she was the only one Mary had
left. The only one who still cared about her, despite knowing the terrible
secret Mary carried.
Mary's lips wobbled. Tears stung in her eyes. If Papa ever found out— or
Grandmama, or Victoria— they wouldn't love her anymore. But Kalinda would love
her always, come what may. Hadn't she proved it?
Mary scrambled off the window seat. Smoothing down her ruffled white pinafore,
she trotted over to the door that led to Kalinda's room.
She knocked and, receiving no answer, opened the door a few inches, expecting to
see her nurse fast asleep on her bed.
But to her surprise, the room was empty. Only the faint scents of curry, tea and
patchouli lingered there.
Mary frowned. Kalinda had said she was going to rest, but she must have gone out
through the other door, instead. The one that opened onto the upper gallery.
Where could she have gone?
A peculiar cold heaviness settled in the very bottom of her tummy that made her
want to be sick.
She had a horrid feeling she knew where Kalinda had gone— and what she had gone
to do….
Chapter Thirteen
The mare's hooves drummed the hard-packed turf as Victoria galloped Calypso
across the edge of the moors, turning her mount's dainty Arabian head toward the
gloriously colored woods that had yet to shed the last of their jewel-toned
leaves.
The crisp wind and exertion had painted roses in her cheeks, Steede saw as she
reined Calypso in just a few yards from his hiding place. Her glowing creamy
skin was in sharp, lively contrast to her jet-black ringlets, her sparkling
hyacinthblue eyes, her sapphire velvet riding habit
"Steede! Where are you? Show yourself. I know you're here somewhere. Harry
promised I'd catch up with you here!" she demanded, rising up from her
sidesaddle to peer between the trees.
There was a husky catch to his wife's voice. Laughter, underscored by something
more; something earthy and female.
Its rich, seductive quality made him hard as the iron ground beneath his boots.
Stepping out from behind a massive, ancient oak just a few feet from her, he
caught her elbow and tugged her, still laughing, from the mare's back and into
his arms.
"Damned right I'm here," he said thickly, and crushed his mouth down over hers,
slaking his hunger for the taste of her like a thirsty man drinking water from a
spring.
Her lips were soft and yielding, yet as eager as his. He drank from them
thirstily, pressing her back against the rough trunk of the oak to deepen his
kiss.
A small cry broke from her when he paused to draw breath.
"Now, my love. Oh, God, Steede, hurry, hurry…"
He kissed her again, urgently now; her throat, her ears, her eyelids, cupping
her face with one hand and plucking the pins from her hair with the other.
Still clinging fiercely to each other, they tumbled to the ground. Drifts of
leaves, bright as the feathers of some exotic bird, stirred beneath them as,
with shaking fingers, they tore off each other's clothes.
The sight of her naked, framed by colored leaves, made Steede groan with
pleasure as he lowered himself over her. She was a wood nymph, celebrating an
ancient fertility rite, and he was her Pan…
"You've bewitched me," he growled as he guided his straining shaft to her silky
folds. Pressing deep, whispering words in her raven hair, he began to move upon
her, flexing buttocks and flanks that were hard with muscle to fill her. "And—
God help me— I pray your spell is never broken…"
***
Victoria's face was flushed with the afterglow of their lovemaking as she ran
upstairs to her room two hours later.
The cream-colored draperies had been drawn and several lamps lit in readiness
for her return. They cast pools of gentle radiance over the room, catching the
bright wink of several shiny objects scattered beside the bed.
What on earth could they be? she wondered, unpinning the top hat with the
trailing veil as she crossed the room.
A small cry escaped Victoria as she knelt down. The shiny objects were pieces of
broken glass, strewn over the Turkey carpet at her feet. To one side lay the
twisted remains of an ornate picture frame. A raised pattern of flowering vines
and leaves was stamped into the heavy silver.
The frame had once held her most prized possession: a sepia picture of her
beautiful mama. Her only picture of her.
But the frame was badly bent now, and her mama's picture was nowhere to be seen.
"Please, God, don't let it have been Mary," she told herself. She had shown the
picture to the child just the week before, the morning after the storm. She'd
told Mary that it was her only picture of her mama, and that she treasured it.
"There you are, love! I thought I heard you come up. I've brought your laundry
and— oh, my. What a shame," Lily cried as she peered over Victoria's shoulder.
She was carrying a wicker laundry basket piled high with Victoria's carefully
pressed and starched undergarments.
"How in the world did that happen?" Lily asked as she began stowing frothy
garments in dresser drawers. The faint fragrance of lavender, rose and hyacinth
sachets rose from them as she did so.
"I have no idea. It was like this when I came in. A draft knocked it down, I
expect," Victoria said with a shrug, carefully avoiding Lily's eyes as she sank
wearily onto the bed.
"A draft?" Lily rolled her eyes and snorted. "Not likely, love. The windows are
all closed, aye— and with good reason! It's right nippy out there this
afternoon, it is," she said, plucking a stray bronze leaf from Victoria's hair
with a knowing little grin. "No, I reckon it were that child. Your precious Lady
Mary," Lily sniffed. "The little imp needs her bottom smacked, if you ask me."
"What the little imp needs is someone who loves her," Victoria scolded softly.
"She already has someone. That nurse of hers." Lily shuddered as she tucked
neatly folded camisoles and ruffled pantalets into a drawer. "And a proper odd
kettle of fish, she is, too. Talk about unfriendly! Turned everyone below stairs
against her, she has. Mrs. Hastings says she worships the devil— aye, and the
small lass with her. The maids say her room smells peculiar. Of heathen incense,
no doubt. And that Em—"
"It's probably curry, not incense," Victoria corrected, shaking her head.
"Curry? What's curry?"
"An Indian spice usually eaten as a sauce with lamb or mutton. It has a hot
yellow spice called turmeric in it— one that our English cooks are unfamiliar
with. Steede— His Lordship— claims he likes it, and he's certainly no heathen.
And as for Kalinda worshiping the devil—! What utter nonsense! Tell the kitchen
staff not to be so silly. The poor woman is different because of her Indian
upbringing, but that is all. Customs vary across the British Empire, you know.
And I'm sure my coming to Blackstone has frightened the woman even more than it
did Mary."
Lily frowned. "I can understand the little lass being jealous of her da's
attention, but her nursemaid—?"
"I don't mean she's jealous of me, exactly. Just fearful and afraid of what the
future will bring. Kalinda is all alone in a foreign country, don't you see? I'm
sure she wonders what will become of her if His Lordship relieves her of her
duties as Lady Mary's nurse. The child is already quite old enough for a
governess, after all, and perhaps Kalinda has no family or ties left in India."
"I expect you're right," Lily murmured, sounding as if she expected nothing of
the sort. "Now, get your 'ands out of that there glass before ye cut yourself,
my lady. I'll ring for one of the maids to shake out the rug and sweep up the
little imp's mess."
"Lily," Victoria scolded. "I told you. I don't think Mary's responsible."
"No? Then who did it? Answer me that," her maid demanded, pulling the bellrope
to summon Emmie. With her lips a thin, determined line, her indignant expression
quite detracted from her fresh, pretty looks. "And where's Lady Isabelle's
likeness, tell me that?"
"I really don't know," Victoria murmured, thinking she had a very good idea who
might have done it, although it would be next to impossible to prove.
"Hmm. Well, what's done can't be undone, me mam always said. We just have to go
on with our lives and do the best we can, aye? Now. Let's get thee out of that
riding getup, shall we? Before ye know it, it'll be time for dinner. Don't want
to keep His Lordship waiting, do we now?" Lily grinned, plucking another stray
leaf from her mistress's velvet skirt. "Impatient lad, His Lordship, aye?"
"Very," Victoria murmured in agreement, silently deploring the guilty flush that
rose to her cheeks in response to Lily's comment. Steede was her husband, for
pity's sake. Why on earth was she blushing?
Lily actually laughed, drat her.
***
Refreshed by a sponge bath followed by a short nap, Victoria rose and, with
Lily's assistance, dressed for dinner.
She came downstairs to dine that evening in a simple yet becoming gown of
eau-de-nil satin. Silk flowers of the same shade decorated the simple knot into
which Lily had twisted her black hair.
She found Mary standing in the marble-floored entrance hall to Blackstone Manor.
The child was lost in thought, her face rapt with concentration as she gazed up
at the lifesize painting of her beautiful mama, which hung on the wall opposite
the main doors.
Soon after her arrival, Steede had asked Victoria if she would prefer that it be
hung elsewhere, but she had told him to let it be, for Mary's sake more than
anything.
"Good evening, Mary,"
"Ohh!" The child jumped in surprise. Obviously, she had not heard Victoria
coming down the staircase. She bobbed a sketchy curtsy.
"Good evening, Mary," Victoria repeated gently. "I was wondering. Were you
looking for me this afternoon? Did you perhaps go into my room to find me?"
Mary's gray eyes widened. She shook her head, sending red-gold ringlets flying
about. No.
"Then you have no idea how this might have been broken?" Victoria held out the
twisted picture frame. "It was in its usual place on my dressing table when I
left to go riding. Remember, I showed it to you the morning after the storm? But
when I came back, it was lying on the floor. There was a pile of broken glass
beside it, and the picture of my mama was missing."
Mary simply stared at her.
"Mary, if there was an accident, and it got knocked down and broken, I shan't be
cross in the least. But I really would like my mama's picture returned to me."
Mary sucked in a shaky breath. She stared at the mangled frame in Victoria's
hand as if it were a hooded cobra that might suddenly sink its deadly fangs into
her cheek.
But after only a moment's hesitation, she looked away, shrugging narrow
shoulders and shaking her tawny head in denial.
"Ah, well. Perhaps a draft knocked it down," Victoria conceded. She straightened
up and held out her hand, smiling. "Shall we go in to dinner, darling? I don't
know about you, but I'm starved."
Mary nodded, her head downcast.
With a sinking feeling in her stomach, Victoria realized that the tiny hand
tucked inside her own was trembling. "Everything all right, Victoria?" Steede
asked as the three of them sat at dinner a short while later beneath a
chandelier of shimmering Waterford crystals.
"Everything's wonderful!" she assured him.
Steede frowned at his bride over an exquisite centerpiece of gold, bronze and
rusty-orange chrysanthemums arranged with sprays of vivid autumn leaves in a
huge copper bowl. Victoria's handiwork, he thought admiringly, amazed by his
bride all over again.
Since her arrival, the entire house glowed with a new warmth. Instead of echoing
caverns that housed antiques and pieces of expensive furniture, the rooms of
Blackstone Manor now reached out to embrace one. The library practically invited
a visitor to curl up by the fire and lose himself in the classics or an exciting
first edition, or the conservatory visitor to explore the exotic profusion of
orange and lemon trees and lush tropical greenery, thanks to the small changes
Victoria had implemented.
His mother could not say enough in praise of her new daughter-in-law. Praise
that was, he'd noticed, growing more and more fond.
"Of course everything's all right. Why shouldn't it be?" Victoria said brightly,
laughing as she dabbed her mouth on an Irish linen serviette.
Her husky laughter reminded him of their lovemaking that afternoon. Not four
hours had passed, and he wanted her again— itched to kiss the corner of her
mouth, or slip the pins from her hair and let it pool like ink over his bare
chest…
He shrugged. "Just a feeling I had," he forced himself to say, losing himself in
the depths of her eyes. "What about you, poppet? Are you well? Harry tells me
you didn't visit the stables today," Steede said, forcing his attention back to
his small daughter.
Mary refused to look at him. Small red-gold head bowed, she peered steadfastly
into her soup bowl, as if expecting to find the secrets of the universe in its
depths.
Her withdrawal was disappointing. She had seemed to be opening up, softening
toward him of late, thanks to Victoria. But now, he was not so sure. Tonight,
Mary was the same as she had been immediately after the fire. Silent. Hostile.
Withdrawn.
He sighed. In his deepest heart, he knew why she had not spoken since that
dreadful night, although he had tried to deny it. It was because of him. She
blamed him for the deaths of her mama and her baby brother. Perhaps she always
would….
"I've never known you to forget old Jasper's carrot or Mercury's sugar lump," he
continued, forcing himself to sound cheerful. "Feeling poorly, were you? Or was
it something else? Did my girls have a falling out? Victoria?"
Dark brows lifting in inquiry, he looked down at Mary, then across at Victoria.
Something had happened. He could feel it in the air, despite Victoria's apparent
composure. His daughter, then. What had his tiny hellion been up to now, in her
jealousy of her new stepmother?
But despite the questions that sprang to mind, demanding answers, he did not
voice them. Victoria's handling of the situation was very likely the best one.
Unlike himself, she seemed to know instinctively what needed doing.
"What's that doing there?" he asked casually, nodding at the mangled silver
frame alongside Victoria's place setting.
"That? Oh, the draft knocked it off my dressing table. I meant to ask you where
I could get another."
"Let me take care of it for you," he offered. Reaching across the table, he
brushed the tips of her fingers with his own. A tingle ran up his arm like an
electrical shock.
At his touch, a delicate blush rose up from her cleavage to stain her throat and
creamy cheeks a pale pink.
He had the sudden, insane urge to play robberbaron. To sweep her up into his
arms, carry her off to his bedchamber, peel away the layers of eau-de-nil satin,
lace and silk, and there discover just how far that pretty blush extended….
But, since he could hardly yield to his baser instincts or indulge his lust for
his wife with his little daughter present, he contented himself with casting
Victoria a long, smoldering look that promised a reckoning— of sorts— to come.
It was enough to send her hand flying to her throat like a fluttering white
dove, and to darken her hyacinth-blue eyes with confusion and desire.
It was going to be a very long evening, Steede decided with a heavy sigh,
leaning back to let Arthur replace his soup bowl with a lamb chop.
***
Steede came to her that night as she had known he would, waiting only moments
after Lily left to join her in bed.
As he slid beneath the cool linen sheets, she shivered and wrapped her arms
around him, her head falling back as he kissed the hollows at the base of her
throat.
"I'm falling in love with you," she whispered much later, stroking the heavy
dark head pillowed on her bosom.
Steede slept on, oblivious to her words, his breathing even, deep and
undisturbed.
"I never meant to— never intended to— but, God help me, I am."
For some reason, the realization terrified her.
Chapter Fourteen
"I hope you don't mind taking tea out here in the gazebo for once, my dear,"
Henrietta murmured, pouring steaming orange pekoe from an almost translucent
bone china pot. "But I adore the view from my summer-house, and soon it will be
too cold to take tea outside. We should make the most of the warm weather, don't
you think?"
"Oh, yes. It's lovely here, and so very tranquil. Just listen to that birdsong!"
Victoria sighed with pleasure as she looked around her.
In the three months she had been at Blackstone, her occasional afternoon teas
with Steede's mother had become regular visits she looked forward to. She
couldn't have asked for a more charming hostess nor for a lovelier setting, she
had to admit.
Blackstone Lodge was like a doll house of soft red brick. Crisp white shutters
framed the windows, and a honeysuckle vine twined about the small portico,
spilling intoxicating perfume everywhere, while English ivy clung to the walls.
Built on a small rise, the Lodge was hidden from the Manor by graceful silver
birches, and reached by a stone path that meandered between charming gardens.
The flower beds were so cleverly landscaped they seemed natural. Mother Nature
at her loveliest.
The gazebo where they were taking afternoon tea was a small white gingerbread
structure that overlooked the river. Several times, Victoria spotted the
iridescent blue wings and orange breasts of kingfishers as they darted over the
water in search of fish, despite Mary, who was perched on the river bank.
She was wearing a new dress with a ruffled bodice— one of several Victoria had
commissioned Mrs. Stacey, the village seamstress, to sew for her from yard goods
discovered at a Plymouth clothier's when she went there with Steede. The lively
tartan of greens, blues, grays and whites was set off by narrow black lines.
Matching emerald-green ribbons caught up Mary's redgold hair in bouncy
ponytails.
Wearing a dreamy expression, Mary sat on the daisy-strewn bank, dabbling bare
pink feet in the slow-moving river and chewing the wispy end of her ponytail.
Stockings, garters and dainty kid boots were scattered across the grass,
discarded within minutes of her arrival.
The child was miles away, prodding a stick at the newspaper sailing boat bobbing
below her in the water.
Victoria smiled fondly. She enjoyed seeing her stepdaughter involved in a new
pastime, rather than in dour Kalinda's company.
She had shown Mary how to make paper boats at breakfast that morning, using the
current edition of the Times for building material. Mary had quickly caught on,
and was soon folding her own sailboat, the tip of her tongue sticking out in
concentration as she worked.
Unfortunately, the two of them had been so carried away with their model-making,
they had pressed almost every page of the daily newspaper into service before
Steede had read it!
When he found out, he shot them both black looks as he scanned the few pages
he'd managed to rescue, before they were added to the "fleet."
To Victoria's surprise, Mary had begun to giggle at her papa's expression. Her
infectious gurgles of laughter had made Victoria laugh, too, for some reason.
Soon, both of them had been laughing helplessly until their sides ached.
Steede, however, had cocked a disapproving eye at Victoria, who had tears
running down her cheeks, and scowled.
"What the devil's wrong with you two this morning?" he had growled, before he
stalked off to his study, taking the Times 's remnants with him.
It wasn't until he was gone that Victoria realized he probably thought they were
laughing at him.
Poor Steede. He was always so stern and serious, except in their bed. Had losing
his first wife made him that way? Did he look at her, remember Aimee, and find
her wanting? Or dream of distant India and the life they'd had together, and
wish he could go back there? Then again, perhaps it was his nature to be serious
and stern.
Mary still missed her birthplace, Victoria believed. The child was probably
dreaming her paper vessel could carry her back to India right this minute. Back
to the time before her mama and baby brother were taken to heaven, Victoria
reflected, setting down her empty cup and saucer with a heavy sigh.
Speaking of happier times, she had not yet recovered her mother's picture, she
reminded herself. Nor had she found out who had destroyed the silver frame.
The maids flatly denied it, and both Kalinda and Mary had protested their
innocence. Innocent or no, since that incident, there had been other minor
occurrences.
One afternoon, she returned from riding with Steede to find that the contents of
her drawers and armoire had been riffled, her belongings subtly disturbed. Lily
claimed someone had gone through Victoria's Chinese jewelry chest, too. They'd
checked the contents, and were almost certain nothing was missing, but the sense
of violation and unease lingered.
Unfortunately, although Victoria had her suspicions about who was responsible
for the malicious pranks and the snooping, she had no real proof and refused to
make unfounded accusations against anyone.
"More tea, my dear?" Henrietta murmured, breaking into her thoughts.
"Hmm? Oh, yes, please," she accepted, smoothing down the rose-pink skirts of her
afternoon gown as Henrietta poured. There was nothing she enjoyed more than a
perfectly brewed dish of hot tea, and Henrietta's housekeeper, Dotty, brewed a
superior one.
"You know, my dear, you're very good for my son," the older woman observed
suddenly as she handed the cup and saucer to Victoria. "And for my
granddaughter, too."
"Why do you say so, ma'am?" Victoria asked, surprised by her comment. She had
been thinking exactly the opposite.
"Until you came here, Steede and Mary seemed to have forgotten how to laugh or
cry, or feel any of the emotions that make up the fabric of our lives! They
simply… existed, day in, day out, until you arrived. Now look at the dear child,
barefoot as a tinker's brat, dabbling her toes in the river!"
"You approve?" Victoria asked, surprised.
Laughing, Henrietta nodded her silver head. "I certainly do! Another grandmama
might not, but it does my heart good to see the darling girl so— so carefree,
after all the sorrow in her young life. What did you do with that wretched
nursemaid of hers? Lock her in the cellars?" Henrietta asked, lowering her voice
to a conspiratorial whisper.
Victoria smiled. "Not at all. Kalinda and I have come to an understanding. She
understands that I will not back down, and I understand that I will not back
down!"
Henrietta laughed in delight.
"I told her Lady Mary would be taking tea with her grandmother and myself this
afternoon, and that her services would not be required until five. Kalinda
wisely remembered she had some unfinished darning to do in her room."
"Do you intend to dismiss the woman eventually?"
After a moment's thought, Victoria shook her head.
"No. Merely to wean Mary away from her by degrees, so that she is exposed to
influences other than Kalinda's, and to places other than the nursery and
schoolroom.
"I want Mary to see me as a trusted friend, not someone who is trying to take
her mother's place in her heart. Someone who cares deeply about her. And because
I care, I want her to become comfortable in those social situations in which she
will find herself as an adult. Kalinda has been her nurse since she was an
infant. Naturally, the child loves her like a mother. It can only hurt Mary if
they are separated. I believe she has endured hurt enough."
"Mary would also bitterly resent you, were you to separate them entirely. I'm
sure you've considered that? This way is far less upsetting, for everyone
concerned. You're a clever girl, Victoria— wise beyond your years."
Victoria conceded her point and accepted the compliment with an incline of her
head.
"Steede's changing, too. Likewise for the better. There's a— a sparkle in his
eyes that wasn't there before." Henrietta's dark eyes twinkled as Victoria
blushed.
"If there is a change, it is a very little one, I'm sure, ma'am."
"Do not be so modest, Victoria!" Henrietta scolded. "Take credit where credit is
due, and thank me for my compliments, do."
Victoria laughed. "Then, thank you."
"Why did you marry my son, Victoria?" the older woman asked suddenly. "I'm
afraid I don't believe that fairy tale he told me. The one about love at first
sight? Lovely as you are, my son has never been impulsive."
"That question is one you must ask Steede, ma'am, for I shall never answer it."
Now it was Henrietta who laughed softly. "Ah. Then I was right. Well, whatever
your reasons, I foresee a happy future for the two of you, nonetheless. You are
becoming fond of him, despite your determination not to— no, my dear, don't even
begin to deny it! And he— well, I see the same softening in him."
"With all due respect, ma'am, I believe you are mistaken," Victoria protested
stiffly. "What my husband feels for me is— well, it is not love." She quickly
looked away, her cheeks growing warm.
"What is it then? Desire?" She smiled at Vic toria's shocked expression. "And
why should he not desire you? You are an intelligent, beautiful, desirable young
woman, and he is a normal, hot-blooded man. Of course he desires you, child!
Ahh. You consider it improper for ladies to discuss such matters. Perhaps it is
so, in polite company. But you and I are quite alone here, are we not? And
becoming, I thought, close friends?"
"I hope so, yes."
"Then consequently, I say to you, Victoria, that there is nothing wrong with the
two of you desiring each other." She leaned across and patted Victoria's knee.
"And remember. Great and enduring love has been founded on far less than mutual
passion."
"But Aunt Catherine says that—"
Henrietta threw up her hands. "Catherine! That explains it. I should have
realized. Victoria, your Aunt Birdie— while a dear gel, and my oldest friend— is
far too prim and proper for her own good. Her mother, Maude, was exactly the
same way, God rest her soul. My John used to say it was a consequence of lacing
their corsets too tightly!" Henrietta confided with a wicked chuckle.
"To Birdie, the part her poor husband played in the conception of their
daughters was a necessary evil. Something to be endured but never, ever
enjoyed." Henrietta's dark eyes sparkled naughtily. "I feel sorry for all that
she missed, for I welcomed my darling John into my bed every single night of our
marriage."
"Then it is proper for a young woman such as myself to… to take pleasure in her
marriage bed?"
"Why on earth not? You are husband and wife, after all. Besides, I suspect those
who say that it is improper are those who have never sampled its true delights,
darling girl. Be proper at the table, if you must. Be proper at church, too, of
course. And most certainly be proper in polite society. But in your marriage
bed, in your husband's arms—? Never! Be his mistress. His beautiful, mysterious
lover. His delightfully improper wanton. Then you will be the wife he never
tires of— or replaces with another woman."
"Another woman?" a deep voice exclaimed. "And what other woman would that be,
Mother?" Steede demanded, climbing the gazebo steps and shooting Victoria such a
wicked glance, she knew he'd overheard at least the end of their conversation.
She smothered a sigh of irritation, for his unexpected arrival had once again
prevented her from asking her mother-in-law the question that, lately, was
always on the tip of her tongue. The one about Aimee, her first daughter-in-law,
and how she had died.
"Why, Steede. How wonderful of you to join us. Won't you have some tea? I'll
have Dotty bring us another cup, shall I?" Henrietta offered, squeezing the hand
Steede placed on her shoulder as she looked up at him.
He shuddered. "Lord, no. Never touch the wretched stuff. I prefer more civilized
drinks," he declared, taking a seat and stretching out his long legs.
"Whisky or brandy, no doubt," his mother supplied dryly.
"To name but a few." His smile faded. "Look here, I didn't come to take tea,
pleasant though the company may be. I came to escort my wife and daughter back
to the house. Mother, tell Dotty to be sure to lock your doors tonight."
"Why? What's happened?" Henrietta demanded quickly.
"Some convicts escaped from Dartmoor Gaol last night— nothing to be alarmed
about yet," he added quickly, noting the widening of Victoria's eyes. "But until
they're apprehended, or we have proof that they've fallen victim to the moors,
we should all be on our guard. They'll be hungry and desperate for money and a
change of clothing in which to make good their escape. And desperate men commit
desperate deeds."
A short while later, Victoria walked back to the Manor, her arm linked through
her husband's as they strolled along.
Mary— now fully dressed in her white kid boots and white stockings— skipped
along beside them both.
As they walked, Victoria considered the surprising advice Henrietta had given
her before Steede's unexpected arrival. A smug little smile spread across her
face.
Perhaps it was more by accident than by design, but she was doing the very
things her mother-in-law had suggested to draw Steede closer to her. In their
bed, she was his mistress, his mysterious lover, his very improper wanton. The
question was, did she really want to draw him closer?
She caught his lambent dark eyes upon her as she looked up, and her heart raced
in response.
More and more of late, it seemed, her answer was an unqualified "yes!"
Chapter Fifteen
The end of August was as glorious as its beginning, with long golden summer days
that melted into sultry evenings filled with the scent of the night-blooming
cereus, the bright wink of fireflies in the hedgerows— and her husband's ardent
lovemaking.
Though she had yet to discover how his first wife had died, it didn't seem so
important anymore. Steede was proving a most attentive husband, both in her bed
and out of it. And, much to her surprise and delight, he was fast becoming her
friend and companion, too, for they had discovered other mutual passions besides
their love of horses. The works of Shakespeare, Dickens and the American writer
Hawthorne.
All things considered, she was happier than she had ever been. Her life had
settled into a routine that, while fulfilling and pleasurable, was not at all
boring.
Most mornings, she and Steede took breakfast with Mary, then Steede went to his
study to meet with his secretary and attend to the estate's correspondence and
accounts, or else he rode out to the Home Farm or nearby towns such as Tavistock
or Plymouth on the estate's business.
Immediately after breakfast, Victoria met with Lily. Together, they went over
her schedule for the day, selected what garments she would need. She left Lily
to determine whether the chosen items would have to be set out, brushed,
laundered or pressed.
The day's wardrobe taken care of, she then met with the butler and the
housekeeper in turn to balance the household accounts and discuss the menus,
then tackled her own correspondence, which included personal letters from Aunt
Catherine and her three cousins, Imogene, Lettie and Patience, and numerous
formal invitations.
When Victoria asked Steede's advice about whether to accept the invitations they
were receiving, he in turn suggested she ask his mother.
"For my part, I'm not eager to regain entry into Society. Devil take the lot of
them, I say! After all, the bloody gossips haven't been exactly kind to either
of us, have they, my dear?" he reminded her with a thin-lipped smile. "You, they
labeled the scarlet lady, while I was Lord Scandal himself!"
Henrietta, however, became very excited and dismissed Steede's reservations out
of hand.
"What do men know of such matters, my dear? You should accept as many
invitations as your calendar permits! They are the means by which you and Steede
may properly take your places in Society. And— whether my son admits it or not—
trust me, Victoria; it is in your best interests to be accepted by your peers.
Since the ton will not be returning from the Highlands until after the end of
September, these invitations will provide you with the means to make valuable
allies before the others return from Scotland!"
Henrietta's eyes sparkled as she shuffled through the stack of stiff cream
envelopes.
"Look at how many you have, my dear! Here's one to a Harvest Ball to be given by
the Duchess of Devonshire, no less! Marguerite is a darling, you know. And this
one here is to Lord Linden's country estate for a shooting weekend in September.
You'll have such a grand time! Steede's an excellent shot, you know, and Lindy's
not one to pinch pennies when it comes to entertaining. And this one here, to
Viscount Sheffield's evening of caroling and entertainments in London at
Christmastide— oh, the timing couldn't be more perfect."
It was the custom for Society couples to follow the royal family to Balmoral,
Scotland. They would take up residence in the Highlands for endless rounds of
houseparties and shoots during the grouse season, which began on August 12, and
lasted through the end of September, before returning to London in October.
"Naturally, these invitations are largely the result of everyone's curiosity
about your sudden marriage. There are many who will presume— because of your
elopement— that Steede compromised you in some way. Your appearance together as
a devoted couple will scotch the rumors. Truly, it is an auspicious beginning. A
decided change in the way the wind has been blowing since that other sad
business."
Since Henrietta— insofar as Victoria knew— was unaware of the gossip about
herself and Ned, the "sad business" she was referring to could only be the death
of Steede's first wife, and his subsequent resignation from the Army and return
to England.
Here was the perfect opportunity for her to ask her mother-in-law the question
she'd been burning to ask, ever since she came to Blackstone Manor. Lady
Henrietta, I've been wondering. How did Lady Aimee meet her tragic end?
But as so often happens, the moment, once there, was quickly past and gone.
Henrietta's voice trailed away, and the conversation moved on to the matter of
which invitations to accept, and which to decline, and her question, once again,
went unasked.
The next two hours of each morning she spent with Mary in the schoolroom, a time
she was beginning to look forward to enormously, for Mary was far from being the
unschooled child they had thought her. On the contrary. She would answer the
questions Victoria put to her by scrawling her reply on a slate— replies that
were, invariably, spelled correctly, too. For a child of her age and sex, the
extent of her knowledge and vocabulary was quite remarkable.
When Victoria asked Mary who had taught her to read and spell, she wrote a
single word by way of answer: Papa.
But when Victoria asked Steede about it, he was as astonished to hear of his
daughter's talents as Victoria had been.
"I did try to teach her to read and write, after a fashion," he admitted. "It
was after the doctors had examined her and found nothing wrong. I thought if I
could teach her to write down what she wanted to say, it might help. So I spent
an hour or two with her every day. But after a few months with no apparent
progress, I gave up. On the surface, it appeared my efforts had failed.
Apparently, I was wrong."
He was obviously delighted, if perplexed, by this revelation.
Twice a month, Victoria asked Harry to ready the little curricle with the yellow
wheels and bring it around. With Mary perched on the seat beside her, she drove
into the village of Blackstone to pay calls on the vicar, Reverend Mortimer, and
his lady, Charlotte Mortimer, at St. John's Manse. Other afternoons, the two of
them took baskets of fresh produce, jams and bread from the Manor's kitchens to
the cottages of the parish's poor or infirm.
It was while on a similar charitable visit to Whitby's sick that Victoria had
first met Betty Thomas's youngest son, Ned, she recalled, and lost her foolish
heart. And perhaps— she now believed— her mind, too!
She shook her head. It was amazing how time could change one's entire outlook.
Whereas once, Ned had been the center of her universe— her moon, sun and stars—
this was the only time she'd thought of him in weeks. Her feelings for him had
been fragile, false things, compared to those she had for her husband.
***
On a glorious afternoon in early September, Victoria hurried downstairs to meet
Steede for their afternoon ride, buttoning her kid riding gloves as she went.
Mary and her ayah were in the marble entryway when she reached the foot of the
stairs, either having just come in from some excursion or other, or preparing to
leave.
Mary was wearing an adorable blue dress with a white sailor collar and a red bow
this afternoon, yet another of the talented Mrs. Stacey's creations. A saucy
straw boater with a trailing blue ribbon crowned her red-gold hair.
"Why, how very grown-up you look today, Lady Mary," Victoria greeted her gaily,
making her a sweeping curtsey. "Kalinda, good afternoon." She nodded graciously
to the nurse. "Where are you ladies off to?"
Mary eyed her guiltily, flushed, then quickly looked down at her boots. She
seemed uneasy, Victoria thought. As if she wanted to say something— a decidedly
unlikely event, given the child's continued silence.
The Indian woman inclined her dark head, her expression carefully blank, her
silver bracelets chiming musically.
"If it please the memsahib, we are going to the village shop to buy silk. The
Lady Mary, she is embroidering the sampler for Sahib Warring's Christmas
stocking, yes?"
"A sampler? How ambitious of you, Mary. I had no idea. Do you enjoy embroidery,
then?" Victoria asked, curious.
It was plain from the way Mary glared at her nurse that she did not.
Victoria laughed. "I don't blame you. I detested sewing when I was your age.
Dancing was all right, but I much preferred riding Goblin, my pony, although I
had a very handsome dancing master," she added, eyes twinkling.
Mary's scowl lifted. Her eyes shone at the mention of ponies.
According to Lily, who talked to Harry every chance she had, the little girl
haunted the stables whenever she could escape her nurse, feeding the horses with
carrots and sugar lumps, and petting them.
Their mutual love of horses was an interest worth pursuing, Victoria decided, if
it would bring her closer to the child.
"I've been thinking. Perhaps we should ask your papa about getting you your own
pony soon, hmmm?" Steede had mentioned that he intended to buy one for Mary's
birthday, so she was not giving her stepdaughter false hopes. "And riding
lessons, so that you may accompany us on our rides from time to time. What do
you say to that?"
A radiant smile would have been reward enough for the suggestion. But, to
Victoria's delight, Mary flung her arms around Victoria's legs and hugged her.
Bending down, Victoria gathered the little girl to her, stroking her bright
hair.
"Oh, darling Mary," she whispered, wrapping her arms around the little girl.
"I've been wanting to cuddle you again for such a long time."
But, obviously embarrassed by her show of emotion, Mary soon tugged herself free
of Victoria's arms and bolted back upstairs.
After a few seconds, Kalinda bowed and hurried after her— though not before
Victoria saw the smirk of triumph on her face.
"Go ahead. Smirk all you want, Kalinda," she told the gleaming suits of medieval
armor and the busts of Shakespeare and Socrates in their niches. "Perhaps Mary
did run away this time. The important thing is, she hugged me first. I'm gaining
ground with her, Kalinda, whether you like it or not!"
Elated by Mary's show of affection, she hurried outside, eager to tell Steede of
this new development.
To her surprise, when she went outside, Steede was leading Calypso and Mercury
from their stalls. Both animals were saddled and bridled. None of the grooms,
with the exception of the tackboy, Toby— who was simple, according to Lily— were
anywhere in evidence.
"Where is everyone?"
"Gone. I sent Harry and the lads ahead. If all goes well, I'll need them to
bring back the new horses."
"Horses?"
He nodded. "That's right. I was just about to come inside and offer my
apologies. I can't accompany you this afternoon, Victoria. There's a horse fair
in Tavistock," he explained. "And I need plough horses for the Home Farm. I
should have told you before, but I didn't realize today is the last day."
"I see. So it has all come down to this. Married but four months, and I have
been passed over in favor of a horse," she said, trying to sound sad but unable
to keep from smiling, for he cut a dashing figure in his black riding jacket,
breeches and boots.
"Ah, yes. And a plough horse, at that," he agreed, winking at her. "Two plough
horses, in fact. I need them for the Home Farm, as our poor old fellows are
ready to be put out to pasture. Then there's the matter of finding a likely pony
for Mary. It's her eighth birthday next Wednesday, and she loves horses."
"I know. Oh, I'm so glad you're getting her one! I just this minute told her we
thought she should have a pony. When I promised to remind you, she actually
hugged me!"
"Did she really?" Steede shot her an envious look.
"She did. She loves horses so much. She must take after you."
He grinned down at her, his black eyes sparkling like jet in the sunlight, his
crisp black hair tousled by the wind, as if she'd just rumpled it, she thought
suddenly, her thoughts wandering.
"Or her stepmama," he added, tossing the horses' reins to Toby. Catching her
about the waist, he drew her against him, ignoring the tackboy's slack-jawed
grin.
"How long will you be gone?" she asked, smoothing down the lapels of his hacking
jacket and trying to hide her disappointment that they wouldn't be able to ride
together. All morning, she'd looked forward to having him to herself.
"I should be back by this evening, if I find what I want."
"Good. Then I'll ask Cook to delay dinner until you get home, and we'll dine
together by the drawing-room fire, as we did my first evening at Blackstone."
"Splendid." He seemed surprised by her suggestion, yet pleased, too, if his
broad grin was anything to go by. "And after supper, I think we should have an
early night, don't you? Damned tiring things, these horse auctions…" His voice
dropped, becoming a sensual growl as he nuzzled her hair, her ear, then gently
blew into it.
"I'm sure they are," she agreed demurely, as goosebumps prickled down her arms.
"And? Will you miss me this afternoon?" he demanded.
"Of course. I always look forward to our rides."
"I see. And exactly how much will you miss me?"
"Oh, a little, I expect."
"A little? That's all?" His black brows rose.
"Oh, all right. A lot."
"You won't miss me horribly? Dreadfully? Hugely?"
She sighed, laughed and playfully punched his chest. "I shall miss you terribly,
horribly— awfully— you wretched man! Now are you satisfied?"
"I am indeed. And I suppose I shall miss you, too. A little."
"You rogue!"
Instead of lifting her into the saddle, he continued looking down at her, his
hands clasped about her waist.
"A penny for your thoughts, my lord Blackstone?" she teased huskily, wondering
what was going on behind her husband's broad tanned brow and onyx eyes.
"Hmmm?"
"I said, a penny for your thoughts, milord," she repeated.
"Just a penny? What I was thinking about is worth far, far more than your penny,
Lady Blackstone," he murmured, chucking her beneath the chin.
His smile had become sad somehow, his tone bittersweet, all teasing gone.
Was he thinking about his first wife, she wondered suddenly, jealous of a woman
long gone.
"… for it is unobtainable, and therefore priceless," Steede continued. "Now I
must be off, or I shall have to forgo inspecting the horses before I bid on
them. Up you go, my dear!"
With that, he lifted her up onto the saddle.
As she settled, Calypso shied violently. If Steede had let go, Victoria would
have fallen from her back to the cobbles.
Snorting, the edgy mare tossed her head.
"Whoa, there!" Steede commanded, grasping the shying horse by the cheek-strap to
hold it steady, while Victoria recovered her seat.
Calypso snorted as Victoria hooked her right foot over the sidesaddle peg. Then
she shortened the reins, and the mare circled, kicking up her back legs.
"Steady on, girl. What's wrong with you today, hmm?"
Victoria tried to sooth the snorting, pawing mare. "Steady, now, baby. Steady."
In answer, Calypso tossed her dainty head. Ears laid back, she rolled her eyes
so that the whites showed, still sidestepping and circling nervously, her hooves
clattering on the cobblestones.
"She doesn't seem herself today," Steede said. "I'd feel better if Harry took a
look at her before you took her out. Ride another horse, Victoria."
"But she's perfectly fine now. Look. She's just a little skittish, that's all.
Aren't you, my sweet baby?" Victoria crooned, patting the mare's glossy neck.
Steede frowned, still doubtful, but as she said, the animal did appear to have
settled.
"I don't like you riding alone when she's acting up."
"I promise you, I'll be perfectly all right. I always rode alone in Yorkshire."
She was reluctant to mention such a delicate matter, but it was possible the
mare was coming into season, and was acting skittish because Steede's stallion
was nearby.
"Go! Go and find Mary the perfect pony for her birthday," she urged. "A little
coal-black one, just like Calypso here."
"You're sure?" Steede said, eyeing first Victoria, then the mare. "You'll be all
right?"
"I'm positive," Victoria confirmed, warmed by his obvious concern for her
safety. "See you this evening at dinner!" she called over her shoulder as she
rode off.
"Miss me!" he ordered.
"I will! Horribly!" she responded with a silvery peal of laughter.
He watched as Calypso walked away from him, down the driveway.
All four of the Arabian's elegant legs looked sound enough, but the horse still
seemed edgy, sidestepping and tossing her head.
"What d'you think, Toby?" he wondered aloud, aware that the tackboy was hovering
at his elbow. "Should I go after her?"
"Music," Toby said excitedly, tugging at Steede's sleeve. "Pretty fairy music.
Toby hear. Come. Toby show you."
"Not now, lad," Steede said kindly, patting Toby's shoulder. "Go muck out those
stalls for Harry."
"Mr. Harry gone," Toby said, nodding happily. "Harry my friend."
As Toby shuffled off, Steede continued to stare after his wife. Victoria was an
excellent rider, an accomplished horsewoman who knew her mount well. If she felt
the mare would settle, then it would, he told himself.
Shading his eyes against the dazzling sun, he watched the trim figure in
royal-blue velvet ride gracefully away.
But as he stared after her, a cloud came from nowhere to cover the sun, and cast
him in shadow.
And, although it was a warm August day, he shivered.
Chapter Sixteen
Victoria regretted refusing Steede's offer of another mount long before they'd
clattered through the village's cobbled streets and plunged into the woods
beyond.
Calypso was so difficult to control that riding her was no pleasure at all
today. Indeed, it took every ounce of Victoria's strength, not to mention her
skills as a horsewoman, just to keep her saddle. She rarely used her crop, but
today she touched it sharply to the mare's flanks to urge her forward.
"Come on, baby. Don't you want to run? Let's go!" she coaxed.
With a shrill scream, Calypso reared up, almost unseating her. Her front hooves
struck solid ground only briefly before she kicked up her hindquarters and
bucked, trying to unseat Victoria. The very second all four hooves landed again,
she took the bit between her teeth and bolted.
The autumnal woods flashed by in a blurred band of red and gold as Calypso
gained speed, Victoria clinging desperately to her reins.
As the mare plunged blindly through the heavy undergrowth, springy branches
whipped back, slashing Victoria's cheeks, leaving behind red, angry weals and
bloody scratches.
As the horse burst out of a thicket, it startled several ravens feasting on a
dead rabbit in a tiny clearing. The huge birds rose into the air in an ominous
black cloud, flapping their black wings directly beneath Calypso's hooves and
cawing loudly.
The sounds and their sudden violent movement panicked the mare even more,
forcing a fresh burst of speed from her.
Seconds later, they were up on the high moors, the mare's hooves drumming the
turf as she thundered on, careening toward the hazy band of blue and gray of the
distant sea, with Victoria clinging to her back like a limpet.
At any moment, Calypso could step in a rabbit hole and shatter her leg, Victoria
thought, desperately hauling on the reins in a frantic effort to halt the mare.
Then they would have no choice but to shoot her, she thought, a sob catching in
her throat.
Afraid for her beloved mare, she spared no thought for what her own fate might
be if she were thrown at such a speed.
The possibility did not even enter her head until she was airborne, sailing over
Calypso's head, with the ground rushing up to meet her.
I'm going to die, she thought incredulously.
A brilliant flash of white filled her skull as she landed. Then there was only
blackness, dark and infinite.
***
Steede found his stablehands at the horse auction being held on the commons
outside the market town of Tavistock.
Nearby, a band of Gypsies had set up camp, their colorful wagons, or vardos,
drawn up about a cooking fire from which a thin ribbon of smoke unraveled,
rising between the treetops.
A number of sloe-eyed, handsome women dressed in long skirts and with bright
kerchiefs fastened over their black hair were milling about the camp, as were
several ragged children. But there was no sign of their Gypsy menfolk. They must
have taken the band's horses to be sold at auction.
The camp dogs barked and snapped at Mercury's heels as Steede rode past, giving
chase until an old crone smoking a clay pipe screeched at the beasts to quiet
down.
A crowd of onlookers was bidding on several riding horses as he rode up. The
auctioneer, Jeremiah Price, was a man Steede had done business with in the past,
and respected.
Price was touting the mounts being walked by the grooms as "eminently suitable
for genteel or elderly ladies desirous of a docile, steady mount."
Steede stopped to watch the animals being put through their paces, his attention
caught by a spry little Welsh pony as black as polished jet.
A long, shaggy forelock spilled over its forehead, almost hiding its bright,
liquid brown eyes. An equally luxuriant black mane and a long, full tail
completed the little gelding's handsome looks. The small, sturdy beast also had
a beautiful gait and a gentle if mischievous temperament.
"Ah, good. You've spotted him, too, my lord! I were looking at that little 'un
afore they started the bidding," Harry observed as he appeared at his master's
shoulder. He jerked his chin at the pony. "Handsome little beast, ain't he, sir?
And just as gentle as ye please, for all that he's a bit of a rascal. Sound in
wind and limb, too, from what I could tell, and will ye look at the shine to
him! He's been well cared for, I wager. If ye like him, milord, I think he'd do
right well for Lady Mary."
"I agree," Steede murmured, watching as the pony trotted nimbly after its
handler, then nuzzled the lad's pockets for a carrot.
When he was satisfied that all appeared well, he started back toward his horse.
"Harry," he told the groom over his shoulder, "stay here and bid on that pony,
then pick me out a pair of good plough horses for the Home Farm. Tell the
auctioneer— his name's Mr. Price— tell him that you're my head groom, and to
send all bills to the Manor for settlement."
"You're leaving, Your Lordship? But— beggin' your pardon, sir— where will you
be, sir?" Harry called after him as he headed back toward his horse.
Steede stopped and turned to Harry, his expression grave. "Have you ever had the
sense that something was wrong?" he asked heavily, as if he were wondering out
loud. "A feeling so strong in here"— he gestured to his gut—"that it consumes
you?"
"Aye, sir. I have."
Steede nodded. "Well, I have that feeling now, about Her Ladyship. I've had it
all the way over here. I still have it now, and I can't ignore it any bloody
longer. Calypso was acting up when I left Blackstone. I should have stayed. Gone
with her. Made sure Her Ladyship was all right. But I didn't, damn it. So, I'm
going back there right now. I only hope to God I'm not too late."
"My old granny says we should heed such feelings, milord— and that little mare,
she's usually as steady as they come. Always has been! With all due respect,
milord, I'm coming back with you," Harry insisted gruffly, his jaw stubbornly
set. "My Lily 'ud never let me hear the end of it if summat happened to Her
Ladyship and I did nowt to stop it!"
"All right, man. The bloody horses can wait— except for that pony. Price!"
"Aye, Your Lordship?" the auctioneer responded, doffing his hat and peering at
Steede over his gold-rimmed spectacles. The circle of bidders turned to stare at
him, too.
"That black Welsh pony, Lot Fifteen, what was the last bid?"
Price named a figure.
"I'll top it by twenty guineas!"
"Very good, sir." The auctioneer looked about the circle of faces. "Do I hear
fifty guineas?" Silence. "Fifty guineas am I bid?" Nothing. "Very well, then.
Fifty going once, going twice— sold!" His hammer came down. "Lot Fifteen goes to
Lord Blackstone of Blackstone Manor!" the auctioneer bellowed. He nodded in
Steede's direction. "Thank you very much, milord. An excellent choice.
"Next on the docket, we have a steady mare, five years old, stands fifteen
hands…"
***
Steede's blood ran cold as he rode into the Manor's stableyard a little over an
hour later.
Calypso stood alone in the stableyard, neither rider nor saddle on her back. Her
dainty head hung down dejectedly, and even from a distance, Steede could see the
dried lather that crusted her black coat, the congealing blood that caked her
side. Fresh blood trickled from a raw pink wound where the saddle pad should
have rested.
As Steede reined Mercury in, frozen by dread, Harry hurried forward, whistling
under his breath as he went to catch the horse's cheek-strap.
Calypso shied away from him at first, then snorted in greeting and stood
quietly, twitching once or twice as Harry ran gentle hands over her, crooning
the soothing words she'd learned as a filly in his care.
"Eeh, the poor little lass has a right nasty rip right here, sir. Apart from
that, she seems unharmed. Just a bit upset, aren't ye, my lass? I'll put her in
a stall; then we'll look for Her Ladyship."
Steede nodded, so filled with dread he was unable to speak. He stared at the
trees lining the driveway, trying to see beyond them, to Victoria. Afraid he
might actually be able to see her— and not like what he saw one bit.
All he could think of was the day of their first picnic. Of Victoria telling him
that her mother had been thrown from her horse and broken her neck on a day very
much like this one. Of her father's sense of foreboding when he saw her mother's
horse clatter, riderless, into the stableyard at Hawthorne Hall….
Had Victoria suffered the same fate as her mother? he wondered. Was she out
there somewhere, sprawled on the muddy turf, her lovely neck broken, her
iris-blue eyes staring blindly up at the sky above her…?
So great was his fear that history had repeated itself, the blood seemed to
chill in his veins.
"No!" The anguished word burst from his throat unbidden, like a curse. His
fingers curled into huge fists at his sides. "No, d' you hear me?" he seethed
under his breath. "Not again. Never again!"
Whom he was addressing was unclear, but Harry thought His Lordship was probably
talking to God. He clamped a hand on His Lordship's shoulder and squeezed.
"Now then, milord. Don't ye be after thinking about that," Harry murmured in the
firm voice he used to calm his horses. "I wager we'll find Her Ladyship walking
home an' cursing like a bloomin' trooper because her girth broke!"
"I pray to God you're right, man," Steede said fervently, his jaw set and hard,
his black eyes emptied of light. "Let's go!"
Touching his heels to old Jasper's flanks, Harry clattered after him.
***
Victoria opened her eyes to find something cold and wet plastered to her brow.
Her right temple throbbed. Her head ached terribly.
An ancient face was looking down at her, like a gargoyle. It was a seamed,
whiskery face, with numerous moles that sprouted white hairs. Straggly gray
locks hung down to bony shoulders shrouded by a grubby smock. The lips were
sunken in over the mouth, like a drawstring, as if the man— for a man it was,
and an old one, at that— was missing most of his teeth.
The old fellow looked like something out of a nightmare, except for his eyes,
which were watery blue and very gentle and kind.
"Now, now, don't ye fret, mum," he soothed as she struggled to sit up. " 'Tis
only Old Tom Foulger, what tends His Lordship's sheep hereabouts. My little
Blackie found ye, aye, Blackie?"
A cold, wet nose pushed its way into her hand. She heard a dog whimper. Blackie,
then, was his sheepdog.
"My— my horse," she whispered hoarsely. She struggled to sit up, but her head
swam so much she was overwhelmed by nausea. Sinking back down, she closed her
eyes and waited for the dizziness to pass.
The shepherd replaced the wet rag that had fallen off her temple. Its icy
coolness soothed the bruise, and helped to silence the hammer that was pounding
in her skull.
"Don't try t' stand yet, mum. 'Twere a powerful thumpin' ye took when yer horse
threw ye."
"Her legs. Is she sound?" she asked, terrified of what his answer would be.
Old Foulger chuckled. "Oh, arr. She sartainly looked that way t' me, mum. Racing
like a black wind, she were, when last I saw 'er. I were still looking for the
poor beastie's hurt when her took fright an' run off."
Victoria tried to raise herself again. This time she succeeded, though not
without her stomach heaving in protest.
Tom Foulger and his little collie dog, Blackie, watched as she struggled to
stand up. Carefully wiping his hands on his smock, Foulger offered her a helping
hand, which she gratefully accepted.
On a slab of black rock several feet away, she saw Calypso's saddle.
"What happened? Did the girth break?" she asked, swaying from side to side as
she nodded at it.
The shepherd shook his head. "Nay, mum. It were me. I took t' saddle off of
her."
"You did? But why?"
"Hold 'ee hard, mum, an' I'll show ye." Hefting the saddle up into his scrawny
arms, he carried it back to her.
"Blood was a-coming from under here, mum," he murmured, indicating the saddle
pad, "so I unbuckled this 'ere strap t' see where it might be a-coming from,
aye? But the very moment I lifted it off 'er, the lass ran away, quick as
winking, like she were right happy to be rid of it, aye? An' here's the reason
for it, mum, make no mistake."
Old Tom turned the saddle over, and Victoria gasped.
Fully half of the saddle pad was soaked with blood— and like Tom, she could see
the cause.
It was an intricately designed cravat pin, she saw, and quite exotic. The shaft
tapered to an ornately detailed, engraved silver head that was shaped like an
eagle's talons, gripping a perfect black pearl. Its steel shaft had been
threaded through the cloth several times. The exposed inch of sharp steel caught
the sunlight with a dull wink, while the point showed traces of dried blood.
Calypso's blood.
Victoria bit her lip. Oh, the poor little baby! Every time she'd rested her
weight on the saddle, this wickedly sharp pin had been driven into her mare's
back, time and time again. No wonder the mare had thrown her! But how in the
world had a cravat pin ended up in such an unlikely place?
Her hands started to shake as she considered the possibilities. An accident?
Hardly! A cravat pin did not find its way into a saddle pad by chance, nor
thread itself in and out of the cloth, so that most of its wicked length lay
hidden, like a snake in the grass!
No, someone had put the pin there intentionally, then made certain it would not
easily come out. And that someone could have only one reason for doing such a
thing.
They had wanted her horse to throw her. Had wanted her hurt— perhaps even
killed!
But who in the world would do such a thing? Who hated her that much?
Harry, the head groom? Never. Harry would no sooner harm a hair on her head than
would Lily. Somebody else, then. Someone who not only hated her, but stood to
benefit from her death.
The name that sprang to mind immediately was Kalinda— or failing Kalinda, Mary
herself. But she immediately dismissed both woman and child as unlikely
suspects. Whoever had done this had also had access to her horse, and Kalinda
did not. Which under-groom had saddled Calypso that afternoon? she wondered,
trying to gather her thoughts despite the painful throb in her temple….
The last of her strength ebbed when she remembered that it had been no groom.
Steede had led the mare from the stable himself, along with his stallion. And
both animals had already been bridled and saddled when he did so.
Her hands shook as she withdrew the sharp pin from the saddle pad and slipped it
into the deep pocket of her velvet skirt. What was it Steede had told her? That
all the grooms, including Harry, had been sent ahead to the horse auction on
Tavistock common.
Which meant he'd had ample opportunity to saddle their mounts. Had he also
hidden the cravat pin beneath hers?
Dry-mouthed, she swallowed, overwhelmed by sadness and doubt, and by the
crushing sense of betrayal that filled her. Had all the scandal, the rumors
about Steede, been true, then? Had he really murdered his first wife? Was he now
trying to murder his second?
No, screamed her heart. Steede was gentle, kind— and falling in love with her,
just as she was with him! She knew it, felt it. The man who held her in his arms
each night, and kissed her with such tenderness would never hurt her.
Would he?
Of a sudden, she remembered him as he'd been the night of the storm, with the
rain and wind swirling his cloak and ebony hair about him. The threatening,
powerful figure he'd cut, backlit by flashes of white lightning as the runaway
coach careened toward the cliffs.
Rain had streamed down his furious, handsome face in silvery torrents. Wet black
locks had snaked over his collar and clung to his temples and brow. Black eyes
had blazed like banked coals as he roared at her to leap from the coach.
In that moment, he had looked like Lord Lucifer, in the flesh. A violent, deadly
dangerous man, who was more than capable of murder….
"Mum? Don't be getting up, now! White as a blessed ghost, ye are," Old Tom
exclaimed.
But she ignored him and scrambled to her feet, her legs wobbling as she tried to
stand, her poor head reeling.
Deaf to the shepherd's pleas for her to wait while he fetched help, she stumbled
toward the woods and Blackstone Manor beyond them.
Which was the real Steede, she wondered dazedly as she went? The tender lover
who made her heart and body sing with delight when she lay in his arms? Or the
calculating Bluebeard who, for motives known only to himself, killed his brides,
one by one?
She shuddered. Until she knew the truth, one way or the other— until she'd
decided what to do, and where to go— he must never suspect that she'd found the
pin. She would have to be very careful.
Her life depended on it.
Chapter Seventeen
Still dazed and disoriented, she managed to find her way down from the high
moors, into the woods.
Moving at snail's pace in her bruised and confused state, she tottered to and
fro like a drunkard, burrs clinging to her riding habit, stray twigs whipping at
her face, leaves catching in her hair. From time to time, she was forced to halt
and cling to rough tree trunks for support, fighting the nausea and dizziness
that threatened to overwhelm her.
She heard the two horsemen riding at breakneck speed through the dense woods
long before they reached her.
Frightened that whoever had engineered her fall had returned to finish the job,
she quickly hid behind a broad oak tree, pressing herself up against its rough
bark. Moss crumbled beneath her scratched and bloodied cheek, and a twig snapped
loudly under her riding boot as she hid herself. But, breathing shallowly in
case they heard her, she stood perfectly still as the pair halted their horses
in the center of the little clearing.
The carcass of the dead rabbit, abandoned now by the greedy ravens, lay like a
forgotten bundle of rags and fur to one side.
"Which way now, sir?" she heard Harry ask, adjusting his flat cap and flicking a
brown cowlick from his eyes.
"To the left. Look at all the broken branches, those trampled grasses over
there," Steede said, indicating the route by which Calypso, startled by the huge
birds' flapping wings, had fled the open area. "Something big crashed through
there, wouldn't you say?"
Harry gave a low whistle. "That I would, m'lord. The mare must ha' been
travelin' summat fierce, to do that. I'm thinking she bolted."
"Or else threw her rider." Standing in the stirrups, Steede cast about him on
all sides. His black eyes narrowed as he scanned nearby bushes, drifts of leaves
and grassy tussocks, looking— she knew— for her crumpled body.
Her heart raced so violently she thought that at any moment it might leap from
her breast. Calypso must have galloped straight back to the stables at
Blackstone Manor. But what had Steede been doing there? And Harry, too? Steede
had told her he and his grooms were riding over to the horse auction on
Tavistock Common— close to an hour's distance on horseback. Had the horse
auction been a ruse to persuade her to go riding alone? Perhaps his talk about
needing plough horses and birthday ponies had been nothing more than a
smokescreen.
To give the devil his due, if Steede was guilty, he was a consummate actor. He
looked beside himself with anxiety as he sat his silvery-gray stallion in the
glade. He'd certainly convinced Harry of his sincerity, she saw, for the head
groom gave his master an anxious side glance, then clapped a reassuring hand
across his back.
"Now, then, m'lord. Chin up, aye? We've found nowt yet. And chances are, there's
nowt to find, eh?"
"I hope to God you're right, man," Steede agreed, looking no less anxious,
despite his words.
Her husband's handsome, sun-browned face was gray and drawn beneath its tan, his
brow furrowed with concern. Deep worry lines bracketed his sensual mouth and
winged away from the outer corners of his eyes. Even his hair and clothing
appeared disheveled, quite unlike his usually immaculate attire. But was his
anxiety due to his concern for her safety— or to his burning desire to know if
she had survived the fall from her horse?
She could hear her heart thundering in her ears in the few seconds it took for
the men to ride on. When they were gone, she swayed, clutching the oak's trunk
for support. Earth and sky swapped places momentarily, before she could recover
her equilibrium.
God, she felt so queasy still, so terribly dizzy. And her head—! It was pounding
so badly she was afraid she would be sick. She should have listened to Tom, the
shepherd, and waited until he could bring someone to take her home, to
Blackstone.
If only Harry had been alone. She would have called to him, begged him to take
her up behind him on old Jasper. But until she had determined Steede's true
motives, she dare not.
After the two men had ridden off, she stumbled on, weaving her way between the
endless, silent oaks, the birches and chestnuts, until she had left the woods
behind.
Tottering shakily across the ancient stone bridge that spanned the Tamar, she
reached St. John's Manse on the outskirts of Blackstone.
As she stumbled down Church Lane, lined with Italian cypresses and somber yews,
clutching the iron palings that enclosed the churchyard for support, she saw the
vicar talking to the sexton. The gnarled little man was up to his armpits in the
grave he was carving from the black Devonshire soil.
The macabre thought crossed her mind that perhaps her husband had ordered the
grave dug in readiness for her…
The thought left her feeling faint and dizzy.
Sick to her stomach, she leaned against the lych-gate, badly in need of its
support.
"Reverend Mortimer!" she called, but could manage only a reedy croak for help.
Reedy or not, it served its purpose.
The reverend turned. A broad smile of greeting broke over his cherubic pink
face. The brown eyes twinkled behind the classical scholar's gold-wire
spectacles.
"Lady Victoria! My, my, what a pleasure to see you again so soon," Reverend
Mortimer exclaimed, striding toward her down the grassy path that wound between
the mossy gravestones. "Charlotte will be delighted to— Your Ladyship!"
He caught her just as her knees buckled.
"Willie, here!" she heard a frantic voice calling the gravedigger.
And with a sigh, she fainted into Mortimer's arms. "How is she, Alec?"
"Sleeping. I gave her a draft of laudanum. She seemed very agitated, I thought."
"Unusually so?"
"Yes. Any idea why she should be?"
"None whatsoever, no. But she will recover?"
"Good Lord, yes. I thought you knew that."
"Damn it, Alec, you're the physician, not me! What was I supposed to think? Her
mare returns without her, or its saddle, and the next thing I hear, my wife has
swooned in Dick Mortimer's arms and is at the vicarage, being tended by
Charlotte Mortimer. What the deuce was I supposed to think?"
"Sorry, Steede. I wasn't thinking. Rest assured that I have every expectation
that your lady will make a complete recovery in just a day or two. And while I'm
here, may I offer you my warmest congratulations on your marriage, old man,
despite the fact that I was conspicuously absent from the wedding feast?"
"You and everyone else I know." Steede rolled his eyes heavenward. "I may as
well tell you, before you hear it from someone else. Truth is, we eloped. Back
in June."
"Did you, indeed? Well, I can certainly see why! You do manage to wed the most
incredibly lovely women, you rogue! Personally, I can't imagine what they see in
you."
Steede smiled grimly, the laughter never quite reaching his eyes. "Nor I, Alec.
Nor I."
"Anyway, I've ordered complete bed rest for a week, to allow the swelling on Her
Ladyship's temple to go down. A few days' rest won't hurt her. After that, she
may resume all of her usual activities, if she feels up to it. But if she
complains of nausea or problems with her vision, send for me immediately, all
right?"
Steede nodded. "Will do. Now, how about a drink?"
"Don't mind if I do. Perhaps a toast to your wedding?"
Steede went to the liquor cabinet and opened the doors. "Whisky?"
"No, thanks. A glass of port, if you have it. I find strong spirits in the
middle of the day tend to make me sleepy— and I still have a surgery full of
patients to see, not to mention house calls this afternoon."
"Port it is then," Steede agreed, splashing the deep-red wine into a glass.
***
Victoria lay in her bed, unclothed, the sheet drawn up to her chin. Her eyes
widened with terror as the connecting door that led to her husband's room— grown
to several times its normal height, in some incredible fashion— slowly opened,
its hinges screaming like souls in torment.
As if motion could be slowed, she watched Steede as he strode slowly toward the
bed. He stood there, towering over her, looking impossibly tall and dark and
devilishly handsome. His striking black eyes were bottomless pools that
glittered with nameless desires.
"I love you, Victoria," Steede mouthed, but she could not hear what he was
saying. She could only read his lips.
Casting aside the white Turkish towel he'd wrapped about his lean waist and
muscular flanks, he joined her in the bed, caressing and kissing her with lips
and hands of fire until, all pride vanquished, she broke and begged him for
more. Implored him to take her, make love to her. To hurry, please hurry!
Immediately, he lifted himself over her. Kneeling between her thighs, he raised
her hips and entered her in one powerful thrust that arched her up off the bed.
Head thrown back, eyes closed, she parted her lips in a primitive scream of
sheer pleasure as he began to thrust, caressing her breasts, kissing her throat,
filling her and withdrawing again and again.
"Steeeeede! Oh, God!" she screamed as wave after wave of pleasure ricocheted
through her. Colored lights exploded like fireworks against her closed eyelids.
Exquisite pulses tugged at her womb, making her gasp in delight.
"Oh, love, my dearest love!" she sobbed breathlessly.
But when her eyes flew open, it was not her husband who towered over her. Not
the Steede she knew and loved who rode her mercilessly.
The creature that mated with her was a demon, caped in swirling crimson satin
that spread, like wings, over them both! The great, hairy devil-goat had curling
horns and blazing black eyes that brimmed with crimson and gold. The demon was
Lord Lucifer in the flesh! The devil incarnate! Satan, Prince of Darkness—
— and her lover. Her husband. The man that scandal had once christened "the
Brute"!
"Noooooo!" she wailed, tossing her head wildly from side to side. "Let me
gooooo!"
"Hush, darling. It's only a dream. Victoria! Wake up!"
She heard Steede's deep voice commanding her to wake up as if she were at the
bottom of a well.
Opening her eyes— really opening her eyes this time— she saw him standing over
her.
Rather than a flowing crimson cape, he wore a simple white shirt of Egyptian
cotton, minus the collar and studs, the sleeves rolled up to the elbows, and
trousers with braces. Instead of curling horns upon his head, his black hair was
only disheveled, his stern face unshaven and dark with stubble.
No demon lover at all, in fact, but a weary, concerned husband. One who gripped
her wrists and shook her gently to rouse her from her frightening dreams. A man
who, though he might not have donned the horns of Satan, was, nevertheless, a
possible murderer behind that mask of handsome normalcy.
She cringed from him.
"Let me go," she croaked. "Take your hands off me! I'm awake, I tell you. Let
go!"
He released her and stepped back.
"You were screaming and thrashing about," he explained. "I was just trying to
keep you from hurting yourself. What was it? A nightmare?"
She nodded but would not meet his eyes. "Yes," she whispered.
"Would you like some hot milk or cocoa to calm you?"
His words recalled their wedding night, when he had given her hot cocoa to warm
her, and she'd been afraid he had poisoned it.
She feared the same thing now….
Looking up at him, she knew by his expression that he had guessed what she was
thinking.
"Victoria, what is it—?" he began, reaching out to caress a stray curl that fell
across her brow.
Immediately, she shrank back against the pillows, squirming out of his reach.
"You need not be afraid of me, damn it!" he snapped, his patience splintering.
He ran an agitated hand through his hair. "Surely by now you know that I could
never hurt you, Victoria. Victoria? Look at me! For God's sake, talk to me!"
"I'm— tired, that's all. And I need more sleep. These wretched nightmares give
me no rest at all. I told Dr. Riggsby that laudanum always makes me worse. You
must… you must forgive me."
Her apology seemed to mollify him, for he nodded. The broad shoulders sagged.
"Victoria, whatever you may believe to the contrary, I had nothing to do with
your accident," he told her quietly. "Any more than I had anything to do with my
first wife's death."
She met his impassioned response with stony silence, one he realized now that he
would never breach by words alone. Nor would she permit him to soften her
resolve, her fear of him, with gentle kisses and caresses. For when he would
have brushed his lips over her cheek, she stiffened. And when he tried to hold
her hand, she quickly drew it aside.
After several moments of crackling silence, he murmured, "Well, if there's
nothing you need, I shall bid you a good night. Sleep well, Victoria."
With that, he left her alone and went below in search of a badly needed whisky.
But it wasn't until he had been gone for several moments that Victoria released
the breath she'd been holding.
***
She awoke again in the wee hours of the night, as had become her habit in the
week since her fall from Calypso, to find that someone— probably Lily— had
turned the lamp wicks very low. Only a gentle golden radiance flowed from the
gas lamps' flower-painted globes. The banked coals behind the gleaming black
grate glowed a pure orange-pink.
She sucked in a breath as she turned her head on the pillow, startled to
discover that she was not alone.
A man was seated in an overstuffed wing chair before the hearth, his shoulders
slumped, his dark head cradled in his hands.
Dr. Riggsby? she wondered. No. Not the doctor. It was Steede.
Giving no indication that she was awake, she watched as he suddenly got to his
feet, muttered something unintelligible, then strode across the room. He went
straight to the huge mahogany wardrobe that stood in the corner, where her
clothes were hung.
He turned once to look over his shoulder— perhaps to make certain she was still
asleep?— before opening the wardrobe door.
With bated breath, she watched through slitted eyes as he riffled through the
garments that hung there, stirring the lacy sachets and pomanders as he slid
aside several rustling gowns on padded satin hangers.
The faint fragrance of dried rose petals, lavender and honeysuckle wafted across
the room. It tickled her nose and made her want to sneeze. But with an effort,
she managed to smother the urge and lie absolutely still.
After several moments, Steede obviously found whatever he was looking for,
because he stopped searching. She saw the lamplight wink off a small, shiny
object in his hand, before he quickly tucked it into his trouser pocket and
closed the wardrobe door.
The cravat pin? she wondered.
"Victoria?" he asked softly, coming to stand at the foot of her bed.
Through half-closed eyes, she could see he was holding a needlepoint pillow in
both hands. Oh, dear God! He intends to smother me with it!
"Victoria?" he repeated. "Are you awake?"
She gave no answer, squeezing her eyes tightly shut. But, despite her apparently
deep, heavy sleep, inside she was rigid, coiled like a spring, ready to roll
aside and leap from the bed the instant he pressed the pillow over her face.
But a moment later, he swore under his breath, turned on his heel and left the
room, closing the door carefully behind him with a barely audible "click."
When, after several minutes, she opened her eyes again, she saw the cushion was
back on the wicker chaise longue next to the window, where he had found it.
Thank God, he had gone.
But she did not dare fall asleep again that night, in case he returned to finish
the job.
And so she lay there, wide-eyed and wakeful, staring up at the rose wallpaper
until the first rays of sunlight fingered their way between the parting in the
draperies, to crawl across her flower-strewn walls.
"Well, now. You're looking better this morning," Lily greeted her cheerfully as
she bustled into the room what seemed like moments later.
Better, despite the fact she'd hardly slept a wink? Despite the fact that her
eyes were red and gritty-feeling, and that she could not seem to stop yawning?
"Glory be! That great bruise has faded. Do ye feel like getting up today, my
flower?"
"Do I! I've wasted an entire week lolling about in this wretched bed. An entire
week, can you believe it? That horrid Dr. Riggsby simply won't listen to reason!
Lay out my plaid morning gown, would you, Lily dear— the one with the red sash
and piping? I think its bright color will lift my spirits." And perhaps lend me
some Dutch courage? she added grimly.
For, until she could devise a way to leave his household, she was virtually a
prisoner at Blackstone Manor, and at its master's mercy.
"Right you are, my lass. Brrr." Lily shivered, rubbing her hands together and
hunching her shoulders. "It's nippy this morning. Thee'll be wearing a woolen
shawl t'go down t'breakfast or I'll know the reason why, my lass," Lily said
firmly, sounding even more like Rose Lovett, her mother, than usual.
"Bossy wretch! But if you insist," Victoria conceded readily as she tossed aside
the covers.
Lily was right. There was a distinctly wintry chill in the air this morning.
Fastening the sash of her dressing gown, she took her seat on an overstuffed
stool before the dressing table.
While Lily unplaited her hair, she kept up a stream of cheerful chatter that
washed over Victoria, only half-heard. Instead, she inspected her reflection in
the looking glass, turning her head this way and that.
The face that stared back at her was very pale against the midnight hair that
spilled in a wild black torrent down her back. Her face looked thinner, too. The
high cheekbones were more pronounced than before, the iris-blue eyes larger and
shadowed with pale lilac. The phrase "her haunted eyes" leaped to mind from the
pages of some tawdry novel or other. On her reflection's temple was a faded
green-and-yellow bruise the size of a fist. It served to remind her of her
husband, and her need for caution.
"By the way, where is everyone?" she asked Lily casually.
Behind her own reflection, Lily paused to consider the question, a silver-backed
hairbrush in hand.
"Well, let me see. Lady Henrietta popped in a while ago from the Lodge. She left
a nice bunch of mums downstairs for ye, and says she'll be back t' take tea with
ye this afternoon, if ye're feeling up to it."
"Lovely. I'm sure I shall be. And what about Mary? What's she been doing?"
"She's either in t' schoolroom or t' nursery, where she's been every day since
thee were laid up. Proper glum she's lookin', too, poor little mite. Not much of
a birthday for her, is it, the lamb, not with you abed and all? Just eight, and
her actin' like she's eighty!"
" 'Poor mite, ' is it! I thought you didn't like my stepdaughter?" Victoria
asked, amused. In the week she had been laid up, there had apparently been
considerable changes made, in terms of attitude, at least.
"I didn't, but the little lass has grown on me, like, aye? The child can't be
all bad, I told mesel', not if she loves my Lady Victoria so."
"Do you really think she does, Lily?" Victoria asked eagerly. "Love me, I mean?"
"Do I ever. Been like a pale little shadow, Lady Mary has, ever since ye took
that spill. Once or twice I caught her hanging about by your bedroom door, like
she wanted to come inside, aye? I told her ye weren't dead, if that were what
she was worried about. That ye'd banged your head, but were on the mend, you
know?"
"You should have let her in."
"I told her if she wanted t'see ye, she could. But she looked at me with those
great gray eyes, then ran off like a frightened rabbit! Still, Cook's making a
chocolate birthday cake with icing for this afternoon's tea, and there'll be
trifle and custard and her favorite sandwiches, too. Cream cheese and cucumber.
Not to mention sausages for breakfast, too!"
"Wonderful!" Bangers sounded delicious, after the bland invalid's fare she'd
been served this week. "And what of— what of His Lordship? Where is he? Is he at
home?" Dare she hope he'd gone to the Quarterly Assizes in Plymouth?
"Bless him, His Lordship's downstairs in his study. He says if ye're feeling up
to it, he'd like ye to come down to the breakfast room, so ye can give the
little lass her birthday gift together." Lily's almost dreamy smiled betrayed
that her sentiments were well and truly in her master's camp.
"Ah, the long-awaited pony," Victoria declared, thrusting aside unsettling
memories of Steede, his striking features gilded by ruddy firelight as he
rummaged through her wardrobe, searching for the weapon with which he'd hoped to
bring about her destruction. Or of Steede looming over her bed like a hovering
hawk with glittering jet eyes, hugging a tapestry pillow to his chest. Or of
Steede smiling as he offered her hot chocolate, laced liberally with hemlock…
"Oh, but I wouldn't miss it for the world!" she lied gaily, swallowing her
misgivings. "Have you seen the pony yet?"
"Have I! By gum, he's a bobby dazzler, that 'un." Lily grinned. "Black as coal,
he is, and just as fat as a barrel of lard! But he's not all looks— he's a canny
little beast, too, and just as gentle as they come."
"He sounds wonderful. Hurry up and finish my hair, do!" Victoria urged. "I can't
wait to see him."
"And His Lordship?" Lily asked hopefully.
Victoria wrinkled her nose, a grimace designed to hide the uneasy flutters that
filled her belly whenever she thought of Steede now. "I suppose I'll have to see
him, too, if we're to give Mary her gift together, don't you think?" she said
levelly, refusing to look at Lily.
"But you're not looking forward to it? Being wi' His Lordship, I mean. Not like
ye were before?" Lily prodded, obviously disappointed by her mistress's lack of
enthusiasm.
"I really don't know what you mean," Victoria hedged airily. "Lord, my stomach
is queasy still. I think just some tea and toast for me this morning, don't
you?"
"Stop it, do. Don't ye go changing the subject on me, my lass. You know very
well what I mean. Ever since the accident, ye've shied away from that handsome
husband of yours, whereas before, ye were fairly panting after him, like— well,
I don't rightly know what like!"
"How can you say such a thing?" Victoria protested indignantly. "Panting,
indeed. I certainly was not panting!"
"Ye were, too. But summat's happened, hasn't it? Ye can hide it from others, my
girl, but not from me. I know ye too well. Do you blame him for it— is that it?"
Lily asked earnestly, her brown eyes shiny with tears.
"For my accident, you mean?" Victoria asked warily. What did Lily mean by blame,
exactly? Did she share her own suspicions about Steede?
"Aye. Because he didn't come with ye that day. And because he didn't save ye
when Calypso threw you. God knows, the poor love blames himself for it. I've
never seen a grown man so glum about owt as your husband about this. You
wouldn't believe the questions he's been asking my Harry and the other grooms
about that afternoon—!"
"I… I suppose I do blame him, in a way," Victoria lied. Better Lily should
believe that than guess the truth: that Steede had probably tried to kill her!
"Gracious! What on earth has become of the tea this morning? Did they go to
Ceylon to pick the leaves? Be an angel and fetch me a cup, would you, Lily
dear?" she coaxed. "I'm parched."
"Right away, love." Lily clicked her teeth in annoyance as she set down the
brush and patted Victoria's neatly arranged hair.
The wild tangle of Gypsy curls had been tamed, fashionably parted in the middle,
then swept up on either side of her head and braided. The end result, of
intricate, glossy black braids looped against petal-pink skin, was very
fetching.
"Wednesday must be Em's day to bring up the morning tea trays, I warrant. Always
late, that one is. I told Mrs. Hastings she's just as simple as that Toby, what
with his spoutin' on about hearing fairy bells an' such nonsense!"
While Lily, still clucking like an old hen, bustled downstairs to fetch her up a
cup of tea, Victoria sped across the room to the wardrobe. Opening the door, she
burrowed inside and quickly found what she was looking for— her blue velvet
riding habit, beautifully steamed and brushed and mended, following the
accident.
She reached deep into the skirt pockets, hoping against hope that she would find
what she had hidden there.
Empty.
Crushed with disappointment, she quietly closed the wardrobe door and returned
to her padded stool before the dressing table, sitting down again in a sort of
daze.
Now she knew exactly what Steede had been searching for last night. The eagle
claw cravat-pin.
Now it was gone. The last trace of evidence that would link Steede to her fall
had been safely removed.
The scene was set for him to try again….
Chapter Eighteen
"Are you ready for your present? Good. Then, close your eyes, birthday girl!"
Steede instructed, nodding at Victoria to fasten the silk scarf around Mary's
eyes. "And mind you keep them shut until I tell you to open them. Victoria, you
take her right hand, I'll take the left."
Holding a giggling Mary between them, they led the blindfolded girl out of the
breakfast room, across the marble entry hall and through the kitchens.
There, a beaming Cook and her three scullery maids bobbed their little mistress
curtsies and chimed in unison, "Happy birthday, Lady Mary. Many happy returns of
the day!"
From the kitchens, the trio skipped outside, urging Mary to be careful of the
step leading down to the cobbled yard.
Victoria noticed that Mary's breathing had quickened as they left the house. A
rosy flush was beginning to add a blush of color to her fair complexion. The
little girl must have guessed what was coming next. She could hardly contain her
excitement!
Sure enough, in the stableyard stood Harry, a red leather bridle in hand. He was
wearing a broad grin as he tipped his cap to them. "Mornin', Your Lordship. Lady
Victoria. Happy birthday to ye, Lady Mary."
"Morning, Harry. Are you ready, poppet?" Steede asked his daughter, also
grinning.
For the moment, caught up in the fun, Victoria forgot her fear of him. "Nod if
you're ready for your surprise, darling!"
After a moment's hesitation, Mary nodded vigorously. She gripped Victoria's
fingers even tighter and bit her lower lip.
"All right. Victoria. Take off the blindfold," Steede urged her.
Her eyes met his. "No," she softly refused. "This is your gift to Mary. That
honor is yours."
"Thank you," he said gratefully, clearly surprised by her generosity.
A deft flick of the wrist, and the blindfold slid away.
"You can open your eyes now, pet," Steede said softly.
Mary blinked. Her jaw dropped as Harry stepped aside, whisking away a horse
blanket.
For the first time, Mary saw the adorable little black pony that was hidden
beneath it, tossing its flowing black mane.
"Happy birthday, poppet," Steede murmured. "His name is Sooty, and he's all
yours!"
A look of joy, of disbelief and wonder, suffused the child's face as she looked
wildly from the pony, then back to Victoria and Steede, as if she could not
comprehend her good fortune.
"Go ahead. Harry will put you up on his back," her papa urged, laughing at her
dumbfounded expression.
To his delight, his daughter threw her arms about him and hugged him, then did
the same to Victoria, before Mary went flying across the stableyard. She came to
an abrupt halt before the coal-black pony.
Little girl and horse stared at each other for an endless moment, the pony's
liquid brown eyes meeting Mary's solemn gray ones.
It was clearly a case of love at first sight for both of them, for the Welsh
pony snorted and nuzzled his new little mistress's hands, into which Harry had
slipped a lump or two of sugar, and an apple.
While the pony nibbled his treat, Mary threw her arms around Sooty's neck and
buried her face in his rough mane, her eyes shining beacons of happiness.
"Ye'll ride astride like a lad until your twelfth birthday, Lady Mary. Then I'll
teach ye t' ride with the sidesaddle, like Her Ladyship," Harry promised with a
grin. "Oopsadaisy, my lass!"
So saying, he lifted the girl astride the tiny saddle of soft scarlet leather,
then placed her little hands correctly on the matching reins. "Heels down," he
instructed. "Toes up. Sit up straighter— aye, that's it, my lass. That's the way
of it! Ye'll be riding like a champion, come next birthday! Come along wi' ye,
Sooty, my lad," he crooned, leading the Welsh pony toward the paddock behind the
stables.
Mary squealed in delight as the pony broke into a bouncy trot that tossed her up
and down in the saddle, her joyful laughter ringing out on the damp October
morning.
Steede and Victoria exchanged quick, pleased glances. The rare sound brought
lumps to their throats and moisture to their eyes.
"You couldn't have done anything that would have made her happier, Steede,"
Victoria observed.
"This once, I would have to agree with you," he murmured, a ghost of a smile
playing about his lips. "And, now that my daughter's happiness has been assured,
I believe it is only fair that I secure my own. Wouldn't you agree?"
She would have turned and walked back inside, but he caught her elbow. "I said,
wouldn't you agree, Victoria?" he repeated.
"I suppose it would be fitting, yes," she agreed uncomfortably, wanting only to
run and hide from him.
"Ah. And how do you suppose I could secure my happiness?"
"I really couldn't say, sir— nor am I in any mood for parlor games," she said
coolly. Color filled her cheeks that had nothing to do with the weather, but a
great deal to do with the hungry way his black eyes devoured her— like a
starving man devoured hot bread!
"Perhaps, for a start, I could convince Mary's stepmother that she truly has
nothing to fear from me? That I want only her happiness, and nothing more? How
about that, for a beginning?"
"Let go of me. You're hurting my arm." He wasn't, but she didn't want him to
touch her. Couldn't trust herself if he did.
"No. You've avoided me long enough. You, Toby! Wait there!" he ordered, without
letting her go. Rather, he strong-armed her toward the stables by her elbow,
propelling her along so swiftly her feet hardly touched the ground. "Tell Her
Ladyship what you heard that afternoon. The one when Harry left you in charge of
the horses, remember?"
They stood where Toby loitered, half in and half out of the stables, blocking
his exit. Perhaps sensing the underlying anger in Steede, the slow-witted
tackboy looked shifty-eyed and sullen, ready to bolt past them to freedom.
It was apparent he had not come to expect much kindness in his fifteen or so
years, for when Steede reached out to give him an encouraging pat on the back,
he ducked his greasy dark head in reflex, as if expecting a hefty clout instead.
"Mr. Harry, he say Toby's in charge," he volunteered suddenly, puffing up with
pride. "Toby grooms His Lor'ship's horses, like Sammy an' Mr. Harry."
"I'm sure you're an excellent groom," Steede agreed mildly. "Can you saddle a
horse, too, Toby?"
"Aye!" Toby declared, grinning and showing a crooked fence of yellow teeth.
" 'Tighten the girth like so, Toby, my lad! Don't let 'er blow out 'er belly,' "
Toby said in a deep voice quite unlike his own. He was obviously repeating
instructions Harry had given him.
Steede nodded. "Good man. And what about that afternoon? The one when Harry went
to Tavistock to buy Sooty? What happened that afternoon? Did you saddle any
horses for Harry that day?"
Toby nodded eagerly. "Cally and Merc'ry. Later, Uncle Willie come up from the
vicar's. Uncle Willie say the pretty lady hurt! Pretty lady, there!" he
repeated, pointing at Victoria. His expression was sad as he touched the side of
his own head.
"And how was she hurt?" Steede persisted with far more patience than Victoria
would have thought him capable of— and more gentleness than any other man she
knew, she thought uncomfortably.
The gentle image of him did not sit well with her convictions that he was a
homicidal lunatic, though if she were honest with herself, he had never been
less than gentle with any man or beast, that she knew of.
"Do you know what happened to her?"
"Cally hurt. Cally throw the pretty lady off!"
"Cally? By that, you mean Calypso?"
"Caly'so," Toby agreed, vigorously nodding his head.
"I wonder. Why would she do that? Cally's a gentle little lady. Do you know why,
Toby?"
To Victoria's amazement, Toby's eyes filled with tears that rolled down his
cheeks and dripped off his chin. He nodded and looked down at his scruffy boots.
"Aye."
"Tell me, Toby."
"No! Toby go now!" he insisted, wiping his runny nose on his jacket sleeve.
"Not yet. You can go as soon as you tell me. Why did Cally throw the pretty
lady?"
"Cally hurted," Toby whimpered, rubbing his side. "Cally hurted here. Blood,
blood all over! Poor Cally…"
"Is this what hurt her, Toby?" Steede demanded, taking the cravat-pin from his
pocket. "This pin here?"
The lad gasped. His muddy brown eyes became saucers. He tried to lunge past
Steede, bent on escaping, but Steede caught him by the shoulder and would not
let him go. In his desperation, he shook the boy. "Toby, please. Answer me!"
"Wasn't Toby! Wasn't!" the lad sobbed. "Lemme go!"
"Who was it then? Just tell me who it was and you can go home. Don't you want to
go home, Toby?"
Toby nodded, fresh floods of tears streaming down his grimy cheeks. "Toby go
home. Toby's a good boy."
"The name, then. Just tell me the name. Who asked you to saddle the horses that
day? Who hid this pin under Cally's saddle?" His tone was urgent as his black
eyes bored into the youth's. "Tell me, lad!"
Toby's lower lip wobbled tremulously. "It were t'fairy-music lady. She tell
Toby, saddle Cally and Merc'ry, boy! The fairy lady!"
"Good lad. Run along home now," Steede urged, releasing the lad and patting his
shoulder.
With a sudden relieved grin, Toby bolted, loping off down the driveway like a
frightened hare.
"Well. You heard him. Now do you believe I had nothing to do with your
accident?" he demanded, turning to Victoria.
"What is there to believe, my lord? The poor lad is a simpleton— hardly a
reliable witness to anything! What's more, I don't have a clue who his
'fairy-music lady' might be. Don't tell me you do?"
Steede shot her a thin-lipped smile. "Yes. Don't you? Really?"
"I told you, no."
"Then you've never noticed the pretty sounds made when silver bracelets strike
each other? There's a silvery chime— an almost fairy-like musical ringing. And
there's only one person in this household who wears such bracelets."
"Kalinda," she whispered.
He nodded. "That's right. She's Toby's fairy-music lady. It can be no other."
Victoria said nothing. What he was suggesting confirmed the suspicions she had
harbored about Kalinda from the very beginning, when she found the rose petals
strewn in her bed. But she was equally convinced that Kalinda had not acted
alone. No. Steede was also deeply involved. He must be. How else would he have
known about the pin? Toby's story was merely the result of coaching on Steede's
part. Nothing more. A desperate attempt to divert suspicion from himself, onto
his cohort, and lull her into trusting him. After all, whose story would prove
more convincing to the authorities? The testimony of a respected, wealthy peer
of the realm— or that of an Indian serving woman?
"My God! You still think I'm involved, don't you?" he exclaimed, reading her
expression. "No, no, don't bother to deny it, my dear! I can see it in your
face. All right, then. You tell me. Who has a better reason to want you gone
than Kalinda?
"Mary has reached the age when she needs a mother and a governess, rather than a
nursemaid. And she has both in you! Like it or not, when you married me, you
became a very real threat to Kalinda's future here, Victoria, don't you see?" he
asked earnestly, his expression grave. "With you at Blackstone Manor, there is
no longer a reason for Kalinda to be here! She knows it, and she is terrified
she's going to be dismissed. That is why she has gone to such great lengths to
make Mary completely dependent on her. I didn't realize it at first, but now
that I've put two and two together, it's obvious. It's the same reason she must
get rid of you. As long as Mary needs her, and rejects me, her place here is
secure."
"It's a possible explanation, true," Victoria admitted. "And plausible, too,
after its fashion. Unfortunately, she is not the one I hold ultimately
responsible!"
Whirling around so that her skirts flew up and the fringes of her fluffy angora
shawl whirled around her, she ran over to the paddock.
There Mary, her pretty face transported with delight under a small black
hard-hat, was riding around and around, perched on Sooty's broad back, while
Harry called encouragement from the fence.
Steede glared after Victoria, cursing under his breath as he followed her. He
knew she neither liked nor trusted Kalinda. So why the devil didn't she believe
him?
When it came, the answer, although obvious, was one he found distasteful in the
extreme.
For all that she mistrusted Kalinda, she mistrusted him— her own husband! — even
more!
Chapter Nineteen
"Victoria? You have to wake up!"
"Hmm?" she murmured drowsily. Opening heavy-lidded eyes, she saw Steede leaning
over her. He was stern and unsmiling in the dim lamplight. A glance at the
window showed the yellow and charcoal skies of dawn through a gap in the
draperies.
"Where's Lily? And what on earth is the time?" she asked drowsily. "It isn't
even light outside yet! What are you doing in my room?" She had locked both the
connecting door between their rooms and the door that led out onto the gallery,
before retiring. He must have a second key.
"It's just after five-thirty. Lily will be here soon to help you dress.
Victoria, I have some bad news for you, I'm afraid."
"Bad news?" His announcement banished the last residue of sleep. Suddenly filled
with apprehension, she sat up. "What is it? Tell me."
"Lovett arrived on this morning's milk train from London. He brought a letter
from your Aunt Catherine. It seems your father is missing."
"Missing!" Victoria echoed, swinging her legs over the side of the bed. "What do
you mean by missing? Lost at sea?"
"No, nothing like that. Apparently your father went down to the jet mines to
meet someone last Monday evening, and has not been seen since." Steede
hesitated, wondering how best to continue. "They fear… they fear he may still be
down there. In the mines, I mean."
"Those shafts are like a rabbit warren! They riddle the cliffs! People have
wandered around down there for weeks, and never been found! How long has he been
missing?" she demanded.
"As far as I can determine, he disappeared a week ago."
"That long! Why wasn't I informed sooner?" she demanded, furious that no one had
bothered to let her know.
"According to your Uncle Lovey, Lord Hawthorne's people have been busy scouring
the countryside for him ever since. It was not known that he was down in the
mine until he'd been missing for three days. When your Aunt Catherine arrived
from Lincoln, she elected to wait another day or two before informing you,
hoping against hope that her brother would be found."
"But he wasn't," she declared indignantly, sounding very much like her father in
that moment. Her blue eyes narrowed shrewdly. "What else is there? There's
something you haven't told me, isn't there?"
He nodded, wishing he could spare her this. "Victoria, my dear," he said very
gently, "I'm afraid it doesn't look good for your father."
"Tell me anyway," she insisted, although she had gone very pale. Steede sounded
grim indeed.
"The police believe he arranged to meet someone down in the mine. He and this
man then quarreled and came to blows. They believe… they believe he beat your
father very badly."
Victoria's hand flew to her mouth, to stifle the sob that would have escaped it.
"I must go home. I have to leave immediately!" she whispered.
"Of course. I'll join you as soon as I can," he promised firmly, as if he
expected some argument. "By this weekend, if all goes well. Lily will go with
you, of course. I asked Mrs. Hastings to wake her. She'll be readying your
things even as we speak."
"Thank you," she murmured, wondering, not for the first time, how he could seem
so genuinely concerned for her well-being if he truly wanted her dead.
"You will tell Mary why I've left so suddenly?"
"Of course."
"I— don't want her to think I've abandoned her."
"I'll take care of it."
Standing, she slipped her arms into the ruffled white dressing gown he held out
for her, and with a shiver, wrapped its folds tightly around her.
"Cold?" Steede asked, noticing the shudder.
"And frightened," she whispered, stiffening as he drew her back against his
chest. And, although she did not soften in his embrace, nor did she shrink from
it.
She closed her eyes, yearning to melt into his arms, wanting him to hold her and
soothe away her fears.
How many other mornings had he held her in almost the same way, cupping her
breasts, stroking and caressing her, until her knees grew weak with longing? How
many mornings had he drawn her back against his lean frame like this, so that
she was pressed against the hard ridge of his loins, as she was now. And how
many times had he whispered endearments in her ears, promising endless delights,
until he led her back to bed?
Now, as then, he dipped his dark head, angling it to kiss her throat, her cheek,
the skin still warm and flushed by sleep.
"Please, don't," she whispered.
"Tell me why you shivered just then? Is it me?"
She shook her head. "Noo," she told him truthfully. "For a second, I felt as if
someone had walked over my grave. I'm all right now, really. You can let go."
"It's going to be all right, Victoria," he promised softly, sensing her unspoken
needs. "They'll find your father, and they'll bring him safely home. You must
believe that."
"I do. Truly, I do," she replied, yet her voice was breaking. Dear Lord, she was
so frightened, so close to surrendering, she was almost willing to accept his
claims of innocence, in her need for comfort.
She stepped forward, so that their bodies were no longer touching. His hands
fell away from her. "Ring for Lily, would you?"
He nodded. "Of course." With an unfathomable expression in his black eyes, he
stepped away. "I'll leave you to get dressed, while I arrange for Harry to bring
the carriage around. If you hurry, you can make the six-fifteen to London. Oh,
and wear something warm. It's cold outside."
"I will. Thank you," she murmured politely, turning her head away and refusing
to look at him. Yet she could still feel where his hands had cupped her breasts,
as if her flesh were branded by his touch.
"You are very welcome, my dear," he said softly. "As always."
The timbre of his voice somehow filled her with shame.
When she turned back again, he was gone.
***
By six, they were ready to board the coach that would whisk them away to the
railway station. Fifteen minutes to spare. Lily— ever efficient— had outdone
herself, Victoria though absently.
"Take care of yourself, Victoria," Steede urged, taking her hand and squeezing
it as they stood by the waiting coach.
"I shall," Victoria promised stiffly, giving him a nod.
"Aye. And if she don't," Lily piped up from the depths of the coach, "we will,
right, Da'?"
On the seat opposite the women, Uncle Lovey smiled and nodded. "That's right,
love. Don't thee worry about nowt, m'lord. Her Ladyship will be right as rain."
"Since she will be in your capable care, Lily, Mr. Lovett, how could I ever
doubt it?" Steede murmured, smiling.
Though she remained stiff and unyielding, Steede drew Victoria's kid-gloved hand
to his lips, then cupped her pale face and kissed her full on the lips.
"I shall join you by week's end, my dear," he murmured, lifting her up, into the
coach. "I'm sure your father will have been found by then."
"I pray to God you are right," Victoria whispered. Rather than the poised,
remote woman of moments ago, she knew she sounded like a frightened little girl,
fearful for her missing father, but she couldn't seem to help it.
"Sir! The six-fifteen! See the smoke above the trees? She's coming down the
Blackstone line, sir!" Harry sang out urgently.
"I see her! Lay on, man. My guinea says you miss it!" Steede wagered his new
head coachman, slapping the side of the coach and stepping back.
"Not a chance with these beauties, sir! Yeehaa! Gee' up there, lads!"
As the whip cracked in the air above their glossy backs, the matched team of
grays pulled swiftly away from the grand entrance of Blackstone Manor, headed
for the Blackstone Station in the village at a fine clip.
From the lead-paned nursery window high above the portico, a small, distraught
face watched the high-stepping grays enter the avenue of glowing beeches, afire
with autumn foliage. Seconds later, both horses and coach vanished from view.
Chapter Twenty
"Tell me what happened, Carter. Everything!" Victoria instructed the Hall's
butler, peeling off her gloves and unpinning her hat as soon as she entered
Hawthorne Hall.
Without so much as a sidewards glance, she handed gloves and hat to Lily, who—
like her mistress— had already removed her cloak and was bustling about,
instructing a footman where to put their bags.
Carter's expression was grave as she led the way into her father's study.
"I expect Mr. Lovett has told you all there is to know, Your Ladyship. His
Lordship received an anonymous note a week ago, instructing him to come alone to
the jet mines at dusk, where he would meet the sender and learn 'something of
the utmost importance. '
"I didn't like the sound of it one bit, madam, so I recommended that His
Lordship ignore the missive. Unfortunately, being of an obstinate nature, the
master regrettably refused my advice. He implied that he knew very well who had
sent it, but that he intended to meet the bast— er, that is to say, madam, the—
er— the blighter— anyway and have it out with him, once and for all. When I
suggested that myself and some of the lads from the Hall accompany him, he
refused, on the grounds that it smacked of cowardice."
"I see. And who did my father think the sender was?"
Carter's eyes slid uncomfortably away from hers. He cleared his throat. "I— er—
I'd rather not say, madam."
"On the contrary, Carter," she repeated in a stern voice. "You will tell me, at
once."
"You're your father's daughter or I'm a Dutchman, madam!" Carter muttered. "It
was Ned Thomas, madam."
Victoria's shoulders sagged. "I see." The identity of the letter writer answered
several questions she'd had. "And my father has not been seen since he left here
to meet Mr. Thomas?" It was not so much a question as a statement.
"No, Your Ladyship. When he failed to return home by dawn, Lovett and I took a
few of the lads and went to the mine. Just in case His Lordship had run afoul of
Ned Thomas in a vengeful frame of mind, you understand?"
Victoria nodded. Carter had his origins in the cockney stews of London, her
father had told her once. The strangely crooked nose, which had been broken
several times in fistfights and left to heal by itself, revealed that— despite
his polished veneer— the butler was no stranger to the rougher elements of
society.
"Well, me an' the lads, we took a look 'round, but there was no sign of them, or
the 'orse."
Samson. Her father's hunter.
"With His Lordship's nag gone, we reckoned His Lordship had left the mines and
gone elsewhere."
"Don't blame yourself, Carter. I would have come to the same conclusion—
although I gather yours was proved incorrect?"
"Regrettably, yes, madam. Me and the lads came back to Hawthorne Hall to await
His Lordship's return. We were still waiting two evenings ago, when the copper—
that is, the police constable— came to the Hall. He'd ridden over from
Haverleigh village in the next county, he said. Ned Thomas had been drinking in
a pub there the night before, shouting up pints and flashing pound notes like a
nabob. Come into an inheritance, he had— or so he claimed," Carter added darkly.
"Apparently, someone in the pub had bought a fine gray hunter from the bloke for
a fraction of its worth. Another bought a gold pocket watch off him. When the
inscription on the watch and the name of the man in question didn't match, the
authorities decided t' take the bloke in for questioning. But before they could
nab him, he'd scarpered."
"Scarpered, Carter?" Victoria frowned.
"Right, madam. That is to say, ran off. Escaped."
"I see."
"While Ned was in his cups, he boasted that he'd 'toed the scratch and gone a
round or two' with Old Thorny, a mine owner from Whitby, then left him for dead
in his own mine. He seemed to find the idea most amusing. Well, the Haverleigh
police had heard that Lord Hawthorne was missing, so they dispatched a constable
to Whitby to inquire after His Lordship's whereabouts."
"So what my husband told me is no exaggeration. My father could very well be
dead," she whispered, abruptly sitting down behind the desk in her father's
leather chair.
"I cannot lie to you, madam. I regret to say it is very possible, after all this
time." His voice was thick with emotion.
"I see." Victoria fell silent, chilled by what Carter had told her. The
situation was even worse than she had feared. "And I regret to say, I must
agree. If my father was still alive, he would have found his way out by now,
don't you think?" Victoria said softly, staring into the fire.
"It's very hard to say, Your Ladyship. But if you'll forgive me for saying so,
His Lordship is a tough old bast— um, bird. If anyone can survive something like
that, it's him." Carter grinned.
"Have they found Ned Thomas yet?"
"No, madam. But they're out looking."
She nodded curtly, reminded of the gaolers' search for the three convicts who
had escaped Dartmoor.
"Should my father be found in less than excellent health, I intend to have
Master Thomas's head on a platter," she rasped softly. "Do I make myself clear,
Carter?" Her jaws were clenched with anger.
"Perfectly, madam. And may I say that Your Ladyship's sentiments are my own,
entirely?" the butler added.
Clasping his beefy hands together, he loudly cracked his knuckles, one by one.
***
Despite the late hour, the search party was still down at the mines when she
arrived there. According to Uncle Lovey, they had been there each and every day
since her father's disappearance.
"Mr. Huddersby, the mine manager, has taken charge of the search, Your
Ladyship," he told her as he handed her down from the carriage.
"And what sort of man is Huddersby?"
"A most reliable one, my lady," Uncle Lovey reassured her, tucking her hand
through his. "He's organized the lads into search teams, and drawn up a map of
the mines, as best he can. Each team is given an area to search. If His Lordship
is down there, they'll find him."
At the head of the jet mine's main shaft was a cluster of buildings used as
offices, and also sheds where freight cars waited to be filled. Kerosene
lanterns cast unwavering pools of amber light over the mine yard, where a group
of men had congregated. Their coat and jacket collars were turned up against the
damp, cold wind that blew inland off the sea, numbing fingers and reddening
noses.
The searchers' grim gray faces— cast now in a ruddy glow, then in murky shadow
by the lanterns' light— were a scene from a nightmare.
Many of the men she recognized from Sunday chapel, she realized, nodding and
smiling to them when they tipped their hats to her.
"Good evening, Mr. Archer. Mr. Dougherty, how are your wife and little ones? Mr.
Smith, thank you for coming."
These hardworking, decent men who labored long hours in her father's jet or coal
mines had all turned out to help in the search when their shifts ended.
That they had done so astounded her! To be honest, she had never dreamed her
irascible father was so popular, nor that so many would risk their own lives in
the dangerous mine shafts to search for him.
The cliffs of Whitby were riddled with the shafts and tunnels left behind by
centuries of jet-mining. In recent years, the increased popularity of jet had
led to a marked increase in the number of tunnels, as more and more of the
lignite was mined. Why, just a few years ago, a perfectly healthy man had been
lost for fourteen days in that rabbit warren, unable to find his way to the
surface! How much harder would it be for an injured man to find his way out— or
for the searchers to find him?
"Anything, Mr. Huddersby?" she asked her father's mine manager as he led a party
of men out of the main shaft.
"Nowt as yet, my lady," the manager responded in his broad Yorkshire accent,
doffing his flat cap. "But we ain't giving up on His Lordship as yet. Nay, not
by a long chalk! We're just calling off t' search till daylight. Then the lads
will go back down, aye?"
"But… isn't it dark down there? What difference does it make, whether it is day
or night, if they have miners' lanterns?" Victoria wondered aloud. Overwrought
by fear, by the gloomy, depressing mood of the place, and by the fine damp rain
that had been falling since her arrival, she sounded a little shrill.
"You're right aboot that, Your Ladyship. Black as pitch it is down there, right
enough," Huddersby agreed. "But my lads are proper spent. Been at it all day
long, they 'ave, aye? Let them have their bit o'rest, and they'll be all the
fresher for it, mum."
"Forgive me, Mr. Huddersby. In my concern for my father, I completely forgot
that they'd be tired. Of course they are. I'm so sorry," she murmured,
embarrassed to have sounded so inconsiderate when the poor men had been
searching for her father for days.
She turned to look about the circle of miners, at their grimy, coal-blackened,
weary faces. The whites of their eyes, the rare patches of unblackened skin were
startling— almost comic— in the shadows.
"I apologize to you, gentleman," she said sincerely. "I really wasn't thinking.
All of you have my deepest gratitude for working so hard and so long to find my
father."
"Well, we had to, didn't we, Your Ladyship?" one of the men piped up.
"Had to? You mean, someone forced you?" she asked, horrified.
"Nay, my lady. We had to look for 'is Lordship on account of we don't want to
lose him, do we?" Cap in hand, the little sparrow of a man grinned. "There's few
mine owners what would treat us lads as fair and square as your da'. Aye, and
he's not so bloody tight with his silver as most, either— beggin' your pardon,
Yer Ladyship."
"Aye, milady. He's a hard man, your da', but he's a right fair one, too,"
another miner added. "And that's more than can be said for most of 'em. Right,
lads?"
"Right!" The loud masculine chorus echoed the spokesman's sentiments.
A lump of emotion clogged Victoria's throat.
"Then thank you, all of you. And rest assured that, whatever the outcome of your
search, I shall not soon forget you, nor what you have done for me and my father
in these trying times. I promise each and every one of you that, even if my
father is— dead, nothing shall change for any of you, unless it changes for the
better."
"Why, God bless ye, lass!" one man, overcome with emotion, said gruffly. "You're
Old Thorny's daughter, an' no mistake. But we'll find him yet, God bless 'im.
Aye, and alive and kicking, too! Just see if we don't!"
***
The miners were as good as their word, for find her father they did, at dusk the
following day. And if not exactly kicking, he was— for the time being, at least—
alive.
It was all Victoria could do to keep from crying out when the miners carried him
into the Hall on a broad wooden plank.
A wave of love she never knew she felt for her father welled up and overflowed
as she looked at him— and with it came anger.
Her father's iron-gray hair was matted with dried blood and dirt. His haggard
face was gray, and had aged a full ten tears since she'd seen him last. Much of
it was mottled with livid, yellowing bruises. His clothing was bloodstained in
places and very damp.
Although he was unconscious and unresponsive, she could hear his crackling
breathing from across the hall and knew he was not dead, although she believed
he was close to it.
"Carry His Lordship up to his room, gentlemen; then Cook has some soup for all
of you. Lily, fetch hot water and towels. Carter! Send a groom for Dr. Walters
immediately!" she cried, lifting her skirts to hurry upstairs after the men and
the makeshift stretcher.
Lily scurried off toward the kitchens, calling for Mrs. Oliver and her mother,
Mrs. Lovett, as she went.
"Doctor's already on his way, my lady," Carter said, his normally florid
complexion pale with concern. "I sent a lad to fetch him before they brought His
Lordship out of the mine. Is there anything else I can do while we wait?"
"Yes, Carter. There is. You can pray," Victoria whispered, and hurried upstairs.
***
Ian Walters was attending a difficult delivery when word reached him that his
services were needed at the Hall.
By the time he arrived at Lord Hawthorne's bedside, the patient had been
stripped of his damp garments, bathed and dressed warmly in a fresh nightshirt
by his daughter, the housekeeper and his head groom's wife. Heated stone bottles
were tucked all around him. Woolen blankets were heaped over him. But despite
their best efforts, His Lordship shivered and shook, mumbling that he was cold,
so very cold.
"Sorry business, this," Walters observed, peering at Victoria over the rim of
his gold spectacles. "Lucky for His Lordship the beating didna finish him
outright. Did they apprehend the Thomas lout yet?"
Victoria shook her head. "No. Not yet."
"Whist! Will ye look at this dark area! His attacker used a billyclub or a cosh
on the old dev— on His Lordship, by the looks of it. Bruises like these aren't
made by knuckles alone."
"Will he recover?" Victoria asked huskily, almost afraid to hope. She was almost
dropping from exhaustion, first from two sleepless nights spent fretting that
they would never find her father at all, and now that they had, from fear that
he would not recover.
"I'm afraid it's too early to say. The bruising is the least of his problems.
It's the pneumonia I'm worried about," Walters explained after he had listened
to her father's breathing. He sounded his chest, pressing with two fingers, then
tapping with his knuckles and listening intently. "His Lordship isn't a young
man anymore, though his normally robust constitution should stand him in good
stead. Here," he added, handing her a bottle from his black bag. "Give him
this."
"What is it?"
"Paragoric linctus. Two teaspoons every three hours. A steam tent will help
loosen the congestion in his lungs, too. You can rig one up by draping blankets
around his bed, Your Ladyship. I'm sure Mrs. Lovett here can show you how it's
done, can ye not, Mrs. Lovett?"
"Eeh, that I can, Dr. Ian," Aunt Lovey promised, favoring the young doctor with
a doting smile.
"He'll need bed baths every few hours, too, to bring down the fever, as well as
chest rubs with camphor and mentholatum."
"Whatever needs to be done, we'll do it," Victoria promised, tossing her head.
She had long suspected that Ian Walters considered her a spoiled, frivolous
dilettante, incapable of hard work. Well, she'd show him, by God!
Walters's blue eyes narrowed. He pushed back the lock of fine sandy hair that
flopped over his brow. "And what of you, Your Ladyship?" he demanded.
"Me?" She snorted, tossing her black hair. Her striking red-and-black plaid with
fitted sleeves, a pert black collar and matching black cuffs, swished and
crackled as she moved. "There's nothing wrong with me, Doctor. Nothing at all."
"Are you quite sure about that, madam? You're looking a wee bit pale and peaked,
I'm thinking. No sickness early in the morning, aye? No wee fainting spells, or
a sudden distaste for your favorite foods?"
His piercing blue eyes met her own as he lifted her wrist, inspected his watch
and palpated her pulse.
"Whist, your pulse is racing. How so, Your Ladyship? Are your stays too tight?"
"That, sir, is none of your business!" she shot back, flushing. That wretched
man! He had discerned her secret almost immediately. Still, if someone was going
to notice the exhaustion, the pallor common to her condition, Walters would be
the one to do so, she thought, hiding a weary smile.
Apart from the fact that he was a member of the medical profession, and an
excellent physician, it was no secret to anyone in Whitby that the handsome
young doctor had been sweet on Victoria since he was in short knickers. Their
vastly different positions in society had prevented Walters from ever voicing
his admiration, however.
Poor Ian! He must have wanted to kick himself when he'd heard about her wanting
to elope with Ned— a miner and laborer— she thought ruefully. The knowledge
filled her with shame, more than it did amusement. What had she been thinking
of, that she hadn't recognized Ned Thomas for what he truly was, his origins be
damned?
"I'm very tired, Doctor. That's all. Hardly surprising, since I haven't slept a
wink in almost three nights. I hate to disappoint you, but I haven't had a
'peaked' day in my life!"
A faint smile played about Walters's lips. "If you say so, Lady Blackstone. But
will ye allow me t'be the first to congratulate you and His Lordship, peaked or
nay?" he asked in a lower voice, taking her hand in his and kissing it in the
continental fashion.
Unfortunately, his voice had not been low enough, judging by the sudden gleeful,
knowing looks the older women and Lily exchanged.
"You'll do no such thing," Victoria said crisply, jerking her hand away. "And if
you are in such dire need of new patients, Doctor, I would recommend that you
visit the parish poorhouse. Lord knows, there are numerous poor devils in need
of your skills there."
"I will be sure to keep that in mind, Victoria," the saucy fellow assured her,
although she had given him no permission to address her by her first name.
"Well, now. It's a chilly evening. Would you care for a drink before you leave,
Doctor? Carter would be happy to pour one for you. Downstairs, of course."
"Och, of course, aye. But nooo, thank ye kindly," Walters refused, obviously
wanting to laugh.
"Then, good night, sir."
"A very good night indeed, ma'am," the doctor murmured, inclining his head as he
went to the door. "Whist, don't bother t'ring for a servant. I know my way out."
"As you will, Doctor. When will you be back to see my father?"
"I'll drop round again tomorrow after the morning surgery. Meanwhile, if there's
any change in his condition, call me immediately. My housekeeper knows where to
reach me. Day or night."
"Wretched man," Victoria muttered under her breath when he was gone.
"Perhaps. But young Ian's a fine physician, like his da' before him," Mrs.
Lovett observed softly, smiling as she stared at Victoria's middle.
Victoria could almost hear the knitting needles and the crochet hooks clacking!
"Have I spilled something on my skirts, Mrs. Lovett?" she snapped, annoyed that
both Auntie Lovey and Mrs. Oliver's eyes had suddenly dropped to her belly,
following Walters's unsubtle comment.
"Nay, my lass, not a blessed thing," Auntie Lovey assured her, fondly patting
Victoria's elbow. Her smile now spread from ear to ear. "Come along, Mrs.
Oliver. We've done all we can for His Lordship for the time being, bless him.
The rest is up to him, and the good Lord. I was thinking I'd sort through my
wool basket… I'd say we've earned a nice cup o' tea and a bit of a gossip,
wouldn't you?"
"Me, too, Ma. Shall I bring you up a cuppa, love?" Lily offered, turning to
Victoria.
On the verge of refusing, she nodded instead. "Hmm, please. I'd love one."
A telegram had been sent to Aunt Catherine, who had been forced to leave Whitby
for the lying-in of one of her daughters, Lettie, following the birth of the
duchess's seventh— or was it her eighth?— grandchild. Victoria and her father
were quite alone, for the time being.
The draperies had been drawn against the draft. The fire roared behind the
polished black grate. Its flames licked at a fragrant old apple bough on the
hearth, dispelling the autumn chill, and gave a cheerful focus to the deeply
shadowed room. The only sound other than her father's labored breathing was the
loud, measured tick of the mantel clock, and the occasional crackle and hiss of
the log on the fire.
Dragging a leather armchair over to the bedside for her vigil, Victoria sank
down into it, drawing a fringed afghan around her shoulders to keep the chill at
bay.
But soon, lulled by the room's cozy warmth and the clock's monotonous ticking,
she fell fast asleep, fingers cradling her hardening belly as she dreamed of the
child that would be born, come winter's end.
Chapter Twenty-one
"Victoria?"
The hoarse croak brought her head around.
"Father! You're awake!"
"Of course I'm awake. What the devil are you doing here?" her father growled,
scowling up at her from faded blue eyes. "Don't tell me ye've left Blackstone?"
"Of course not! Well, not exactly. At least, not yet," she assured him, giddy
with relief that he'd emerged from the fever. "I came because you needed
someone. You know, to take care of you. You've been very ill, you know."
"I have?" He seemed surprised. "For how long?"
"It's been ten days since we found you. We were afraid we were going to lose
you."
"That I'd die, you mean. Poppycock!" he scoffed. "I've managed to take care of
myself all these years. No bloody reason I can't continue to do so. And if I
needed a nurse— which I don't— your Aunt Catherine can play Flo Nightingale.
You, my girl, have a husband to tend to. Go home to him! You're not needed
here."
"Not needed! Is this what you call taking care of yourself, you stubborn old
man?" she demanded, too happy to be truly angry with him.
Her eyes twinkled as a shocked, indignant scowl deepened the furrows in her
father's face. He had seen few glimpses of the temper she'd inherited from him
before. Well, that was all about to change.
"Had I been here, I would have moved heaven and earth to keep you from going to
that wretched mine— had Carter tie you down, if needed be! What in the world
possessed you to meet Ned Thomas alone? You had the man horsewhipped, then
dismissed from your employ! Meeting him alone was sheer stupidity. Asking for
trouble!"
Her father had the grace to look a little ashamed of himself, for the few
seconds it took to recover from her dressing down.
"Stupidity? Horsefeathers! My mistake was in expecting the lout to have an ounce
of honor in him, my lass! The young pup jumped me from behind," Hawthorne
grumbled, coughing thickly. "Blast this wretched cough! You call yourself a
nurse? Fetch me a brandy, lass."
"I will not. I'll fetch you this instead, you disagreeable old goat. Aye, and
you'll drink it too, every last drop. Like it or not," she warned, pouring a
teaspoon of syrupy black cough linctus into a spoon. "Don't make me hold your
nose, Father. Open wide."
"I will not. Be off with you! Devil take you, you wretched harpy. I'll not take
another drop of your poison!" he declared, clamping his jaws together and waving
his hands about.
"If you take it, I'll ask Walters about the brandy. Spit it out, and I'll
recommend he prescribes you a purge. A very strong one," she added sweetly.
Still spluttering his indignation, Hawthorne opened his mouth and swallowed,
grimacing as the linctus trickled down his throat.
"Blaaggh. Wretched stuff. You're a bloody tyrant, woman! A despot! A slave
driver in petticoats," he muttered. "Aggh, by God, this muck tastes like horse
liniment. What the devil is it?"
"Horse liniment!" she shot back, laughing. It was so wonderful to hear him
bellowing, almost back to his usual cantankerous self.
"Horse liniment? What the devil are you trying to do?" Then, catching the
twinkle in her eyes, he realized she was teasing and laughed, too.
The rare rumbling sound made Victoria think of a volcano about to erupt.
"You know, there's something different about you, my lass," her father observed
at length, watching as she recorked the medicine bottle and set it on a tray
with its fellows. "You look different. More womanly, and— eeh, I can't put my
finger on it. A mite sad, too, aye? Are you not happy with Blackstone, love? Is
that it?"
Good Lord. He had called her "love," she realized, stunned. And he actually
sounded as if he cared whether she was happy or not.
"I—" She swallowed over the huge lump in her throat, wondering how best to
begin. "I was very happy, until about a fortnight ago. Then it became apparent
that Steede was trying to— to kill me."
"Kill you?" A roar of laughter burst from her father. Waving off her restraining
hands, he struggled to sit up. His face was ruddy against the white of his
nightshirt as he leaned heavily against the carved headboard behind him. "Where
the devil did you get that idea? From the scandal mongers and their jabbering
about his first wife's death?" He jabbed his thumb and fingers together,
mimicking the gossips' clacking mouths. "Well? Did you?"
"In a way, I suppose I did, somewhat," she agreed reluctantly.
Her father shook his head. "By gum, I'm that disappointed in you, Victoria. The
man was willing to ignore the scandal about you and that— laborer, was he not?
He liked what he saw, and decided to find out for himself what sort of woman he
was to wed, the gossip be damned! Could you not pay Blackstone the same
courtesy, lass? Could you not have trusted me, if not him?" His tone was
accusing now. And hurt.
"You? What had you to do with it?"
"What father would let his only daughter marry a man known as 'the Brute'
without first investigating his character? Not this father, by gum!
"I know you think poorly of me, Victoria, but I'm not so bad as all that. Within
hours of Blackstone's offer for your hand, I knew everything there was to know
about him, thanks to Carter and his backstreet connections. Good servants always
know what's going on in a house. And I have it on good authority from
Blackstone's servants— some that served him out in India, as well as here in
England— that your husband was in no way responsible for his first wife's death.
He was an excellent father and husband, and a bloody fine soldier and employer,
to boot. True, he holds himself to account for the lady's death, but as for
causing that death himself— never."
"But it isn't just the rumors!" Victoria protested, the wind taken out of her
sails by her father's sterling defense of her husband. "There have been…
incidents since I arrived at Blackstone Manor."
She described them all: the blood-red petals she'd found in her bed, the mangled
picture frame and missing picture of her mother, Lily's belief that her
belongings had been searched. She ended with her fall from Calypso and finding
the cravat-pin fastened to the bloodied saddle pad. The incriminating pin that
Steede had stealthily recovered from the pocket of her riding habit, believing
she slept.
"If it wasn't Steede who engineered my acci dent, why would he sneak about at
night trying to recover the pin?"
"I can't answer that. But… what does your gut tell you, Victoria? What do you
feel for the man in here, and in here?" Hawthorne demanded, poking himself in
the belly, then the chest. "If not for the gossip, would ye think him capable of
murder?"
Never! screamed a small, persistent voice in her head. But she seriously
considered her answer before reluctantly admitting aloud, "Well, no, I suppose
not."
"And before the fall, how were things between you then?" He read her pinkening
cheeks, her confused expression, and chuckled. "Ah. So that's how the wind blew!
You were falling for the handsome scalawag, were you not, my lass?"
"I suppose I was, after a fashion. Oh, all right. Yes, yes I was!"
"Then think about it, my lass," he urged her in an unusually gentle voice.
"Trust your instincts. Do you really think I'd give my only lass, my Isabelle's
wee babby, to some coldblooded, murdering bastard who slaughtered his first
wife?"
Tears welled up and spilled down her cheeks. He had never spoken so openly to
her before, nor so fondly.
"I— really don't know what I thought. I was distraught, I suppose. Upset. And
you— had threatened to marry me off to the first man who offered for my hand! I
thought… I thought…"
"Well, you thought wrong, lass," her father said gruffly, taking her slender
hand between his hard, large ones. He squeezed it so hard she winced. "I love
you, my little Vicky. Always have, always will. Ever since the day you were
conceived, I've wanted only the best for you. I know I haven't been a champion
father, but was it so bloody easy to think the worst of me, lass? To believe I'd
sell you to the highest bidder, never mind the man's reputation?"
"Yes! It was difficult to believe you cared for me at all," she told him
frankly, her chin up, her voice husky with emotion.
"But you had everything a child could ask for! Toys. Pretty clothes. Tutors and
instructors— the finest of everything money could buy. How else was I to show my
love for you? What more could I have given you?"
"Yourself, Father," she told him earnestly. "That was all I ever wanted. Your
love. Your affection. Your time. I didn't care about things or about money!
Don't you see? It was so lonely for me here, after Mama died. You could have
helped to fill that loneliness. We could have helped each other. But instead,
you abandoned me, too. You shut me out of your life, so that I had no one."
"You're right, my lass. I didn't mean to do it, but I did," he admitted heavily,
much to her surprise. There was a suspicious sheen in his own eyes now. "I had a
bloody long time to think about my life while I was down those godforsaken
mines, waiting for someone to find me. Time to think about the mistakes I'd
made. I mourned your mother far longer and harder than was fitting or healthy
for either of us, Victoria.
"The good Lord knows, there were times I ached to dandle you on my knee, or just
hold you in my arms. But when I looked into your bonny wee face, it was always
my Isabelle's face that looked back at me….
"In the end, I had t' keep away. I couldn't bear to have ye near me. You
reminded me of her too much, my darling girl. And it hurt. It hurt more than I
could bear."
"And so you abandoned me, without ever leaving me alone," she whispered.
"It's too late now, I suppose?" he asked. "For you to forgive me, I mean?"
Teardrops trembled on the tips of her lashes. She wanted to weep, for all the
years they had wasted. "We can't turn back time, nor undo the wrongs we've
done." Her mouth quivered. "But we can go on from here, if you want to. I
understand so much better now, Papa. All the time I was growing up, I truly
believed you hated me. That you couldn't bear the sight of me."
"And now?"
"Now I know what it means to love somebody. And— oh, Papa!— I don't know if I
could do any better than you, when— if!— it should happen to me!" What if the
child was a boy, and the image of Steede? she wondered. How would she be able to
bear it?
"It won't happen. I won't let it. Come here, my love," her father murmured
brokenly, holding out his hands.
She took them in her own and kissed them. His skin was cool, the fever gone. Yet
his lips were warm as he pressed them to her brow. Warm and infinitely loving.
"I love you, Papa. I've always loved you. Please don't shut me out again?" she
whispered brokenly.
"I won't. I swear it. I love you, too, darling girl," Hawthorne said through his
tears as she leaned down to kiss his cheek. "This old place has felt so empty
since you left us, chick."
Her head resting on his chest, she smiled as her father stroked her hair. A
faraway look in his eyes, he began telling her about her mother, and how it had
been before he lost her.
How fitting it is, she thought sadly as she listened to him, that love gives us
such insight into the hearts of others.
She knew how it felt to love and lose someone now. For had she not lost Steede,
lost her trust in him, which was even worse than losing him to death?
"… and so, all going well, we're to be wed at Christmas. I'll understand if you
can't give it, but we'd like your blessing, daughter. And we want you and
Blackstone to come for the wedding, aye?"
Wedding? Whose wedding was he talking about? she wondered, only just realizing
what he'd been saying.
"I'm sorry, Father. I didn't hear what you said."
He sighed. "I said, I've decided to wed again— start another family. A brace of
strapping lads would be grand, aye, lass? You know, to carry on the Hawthorne
line?"
"I'm to have baby brothers? What a wonderful idea!" Victoria exclaimed,
laughing. "But who's the lucky bride-to-be? Have you found her yet? Have you
asked for her hand? Are you seeking my approval of your choice?"
"Aye, aye— and aye!" Hawthorne declared. "Her name's Delia Anne. She's the
daughter of old Lord Chillingsworth in Haverleigh, and a bloody fine horsewoman,
too. Her seat's almost as good as yours! We met at a hunt supper old
Chillingsworth gave right after you ran off with Blackstone. She's a bit long in
the tooth, my Del— saw her thirtieth birthday last year, aye? But still young
enough to give me a babby or two, Lord willing. And—" He broke off.
"Go on," she urged, seeing his throat and cheeks suddenly redden. "And what?"
"Hmm?" he asked innocently.
"Oh, no, you don't! Tell me. Do you love her? Is that what you were going to
say?"
A slow, sly grin spread across her father's gaunt face. And, for a moment, the
years fell away. He was again the dashing young suitor that Isabelle Colette de
Blanchard had fallen for at first sight, all those years ago.
"Aye, lass. I reckon I was," he admitted in a husky voice. "My Del's a good
lass. We have fun together, and we like the same things. She'll make me a grand
wife."
Still stunned— and delighted— by the thought of having a stepmother not much
older than herself, who would be producing a son or a daughter for her papa soon
after she produced his first grandchild, she could think of nothing to say,
except to wish them every happiness. Which she did. Time enough later to broach
the subject of leaving Steede….
"Thank you, my lass. Now, where's that husband of yours, eh? Downstairs,
drinking his way through my whisky cellar?"
She shook her head, a shadow crossing her face at his mention of Steede. Was her
father right about him? she wondered. Was he truly innocent of his wife's death,
as Papa so staunchly believed? Could the incidents she had taken for attempts on
her life— or at very least, attempts to frighten her away— been nothing more
than unhappy coincidences? A little girl's jealous attempts to rid herself of a
rival for her father's attentions? Or— as Steede claimed to believe— Kalinda's
desperate attempts to maintain her position as Mary's nurse?
"No, I'm afraid he's still at Blackstone. He was supposed to join me last
weekend, but there were problems at the Home Farm and he couldn't get away," she
lied. "He'll be happy to hear you're on the mend, however."
Hawthorne nodded, yet gave her a searching look. "I don't doubt it. And it's
because I'm on the mend that I don't need you anymore. You can run right back
where you belong. No, don't argue with me, my lass. Go! And when you get there,
tell Blackstone I like the fire he's put in your eyes. Aye, by God! I like it
right well, my lass!"
She tossed her head, her eyes flashing. "I'll go home when I'm good and ready—
and it won't be until you're up and about again," she said firmly, although it
was yet another lie. "By the way, shouldn't we let the Honorable Lady Delia know
you're indisposed? I'm sure she'll want to hurry over and offer you some tea and
sympathy."
"Tea! If I know Del, it'll be whisky and a cigar she'll be offering me, by gum!"
her father chortled. His deep, rumbling laughter was music to her ears. "She's
no milksop, my Del!"
Chapter Twenty-two
"Memsahib Victoria has been gone for two weeks, my darling girl. It is as I told
you. She is not coming back. And now your father has left, too. Come away from
the window and eat your breakfast."
She promised, Mary wrote on the slate. Her lower lip quivered as she clambered
down from the cushioned window seat. She wrote again, She will come back. I know
it.
Kalinda shook her head. "My sweet, trusting child. That is the way of the
English memsahib. She is an evil woman who does not keep the promises she makes.
First she casts a spell over your papa, to make him adore her and follow her to
the ends of the earth. Then she lies to you, saying she loves you and will never
leave you—"
Not a lie! Not! Mary wrote. Breaking down, she sobbed, tears sliding down her
pale cheeks like the rain that streamed down the nursery windowpanes.
"No? Then why did she leave Blackstone, hmmm, my pretty one? And why has she not
come back in all these many days? The answer is that she is not coming back.
Ever! And now Sahib Warring, he has gone, too."
Mary covered her face with her hands.
"Now, now, my baby. Don't cry," Kalinda crooned in her sing-song voice, stroking
Mary's long, fair hair. "You still have me, yes? And your Kalinda would never
lie to her beloved missie Mary. You can trust your ayah, my poor dear child,
even when everyone else has failed you. Even if you were as wicked as the demons
of Kali, Kalinda would still love you…"
But I am as wicked as the demons of Kali! Perhaps— perhaps even more wicked,
Mary thought miserably. With a sob, she threw herself into Kalinda's arms and
buried her face against the glittery folds of her sari.
For as long as she could remember, Kalinda's strong brown arms and soft bosom
had comforted and protected her. She loved Kalinda more than she had ever loved
her mama, she thought guiltily, for her ayah had always taken care of her every
need, while Mama had complained that Mary's hugs wrinkled her pretty clothes, or
that Mary's kisses made her pretty face sticky. Kalinda had never lied to Mary,
either— until now.
Why didn't she believe Kalinda this time? What was different about now? Why did
she still believe that Victoria loved her, although she had gone away and not
come back?
Was it because her heart said Victoria had meant what she said? That there
really was nothing she could ever do that would make Victoria stop loving her.
That when you really loved someone, it lasted forever and ever….
Where? she wrote urgently on the slate.
"Where did your papa's woman go?"
Mary nodded.
Kalinda laughed. It was a harsh, ugly sound that hurt Mary's ears. Her nurse's
face was twisted in a way Mary had never seen before, and her eyes were hard and
spiteful, the way Mama's had sometimes been, after Baby Johnny was born.
Looking at her made Mary's tummy hurt.
"That one has gone home, little one."
More frantic scribbling. Where home?
"Aiieee, so many questions! You are as insatiable as the elephant's child," she
declared, cupping Mary's face between her slim brown hands. "And as curious as a
little monkey! I know only that the memsahib has gone away, my jewel. Gone to a
far distant place."
Across moors? Mary wrote on the slate.
"Indeed, yes, my daughter. Across the moors and beyond them. Perhaps she has
gone as far away as India, yes? And the memsahib will not be back. You saw her
the morning she left. She looked happy to be leaving the wretched little monkey
who destroyed her treasured picture."
Mary swallowed. It was very difficult, because there was a lump in her throat
that hurt so much it made tears sting behind her eyes.
Perhaps she was dying? Perhaps the lump in her throat was her punishment for
doing the naughty things Kalinda had told her to do? Perhaps… perhaps that lump
would grow and grow, until it choked her to death?
Still… no matter what Kalinda had said about Victoria being glad to leave
Blackstone, there was a small part of Mary that desperately insisted Kalinda was
wrong.
"I love you, Mary, my pet. Never forget it!" Victoria had promised, holding her
fiercely. "And I shall fight to make you love me, even if it takes years and
years. Remember that there is nothing— nothing!— you could ever do or say that
would make me stop loving you, my darling girl."
She loved Victoria, too. She truly, truly did. And she didn't want to be mean or
cross to everyone again, the way she had been before Victoria married Papa and
came to Blackstone.
She wanted to help Victoria arrange the roses for the house, or to take to
Grandmama at the Lodge. She wanted to stand next to her in church on Sunday
morning and sing so loudly that Mrs. Mortimer, the vicar's wife, stared at them
both, and made them giggle. She wanted to wear the pretty dresses Victoria asked
Mrs. Stacey to sew for her, and go riding across the moors with her each
afternoon on Sooty's back. She wanted to cuddle up in bed beside Victoria while
she told her wonderful stories that chased away her nightmares, as she'd done
the night of the storm with her story of the little girl named Colette.
Colette was just like Victoria when she was a little girl. And just like Mary,
too, a tiny voice whispered inside her head. Colette had believed her papa
didn't love her anymore, too, but she'd found out she was very, very wrong. That
all the while, he had loved her more than anything, but a cruel witch had cast a
spell on him, so he couldn't tell Colette he loved her….
Perhaps she should saddle Sooty and go after Victoria? Her darling little Sooty
could take her anywhere, no matter how far away it might be! He was the fastest,
strongest little pony in the whole wide world.
And when she found Victoria, she would promise to be good forever and ever if
only she'd come back to Blackstone. Cross her heart and hope to die, she'd be so
good.
Her mind was made up. She would go Sunday— most of the servants would be away
from the house that day. She would go down to the stables and saddle Sooty when
the clock's big hand was on the twelve and the little hand was pointing to the
four. That was the best time, because the stables were empty while Harry came up
to the kitchen for tea. It was also the time when she and Kalinda were supposed
to take their naps, so no one would notice if she and Sooty were gone until
supper time.
After she'd found Victoria, she would bring her back to Blackstone. Then Papa
would come home, too, and he would smile and be happy again, the way he used to
be when Victoria first came to live with them.
And if she could do that, perhaps Papa would someday forgive her for the other,
terrible thing she had done? Something that was far, far worse than destroying
Victoria's picture frame….
Chapter Twenty-three
"Your father looks bloody lively for a man at death's door."
"Steede! You startled me! What on earth are you doing here?" Victoria demanded,
her gloved hand flying to her breast.
Her heart skipped a beat as she swiveled to face him, for as always, he made the
breath catch in her throat.
He leaned against the doorframe, looking immaculate yet somehow dangerous in
black evening tails and high-collared snowy shirt and stock, the dazzling
starched linen in striking contrast to his inky hair and unshaven jaw. His arms
were crossed over his chest, and a cheroot dangled casually from between the
fingers of his right hand; a narrow ribbon of blue smoke unraveled from the
glowing tip.
Given his expression, she would not have been surprised had the smoke issued
from his nostrils. He looked moody, angry, capable of anything.
The thought made her shiver.
Thrown off by his sudden arrival, and by her body's unexpected tug of response,
she stared at him, the earbob she was clipping on forgotten. She'd been so lost
in thought, so unhappy and confused, she hadn't heard the door open.
"I came to join you for dinner, darling. Why else would I be here, dressed like
this?" His smile was a wolfish baring of teeth. "Well? Aren't you going to
welcome me? Your father and his fiance’ e certainly did. Unless— don't tell me
you haven't missed me?" he taunted, his tone mocking.
Victoria flushed but ignored the taunt. "Didn't you get my last letter? There
was no need for you to come here—"
"I disagree. You wrote that you couldn't leave your father, remember?" he
reminded her, impaling her with eyes of splintered black ice. "Although the man
playing chess with the Honorable Delia Chillingsworth appears remarkably robust.
And I came because, quite simply, I missed you, Victoria." He shook his head,
his lips thinned, his expression bitter. "That's rich, isn't it, since you
didn't plan on coming back, did you, my dear?"
"Don't be ridiculous. Of course I—"
"No. Not even to say goodbye," he continued as if she hadn't spoken, and she
said nothing further, because he was right. "We— Mother, Mary and I— were simply
expected to send on your luggage, weren't we?"
She flinched, flayed by guilt and by shame. She really should have gone back, at
least once, if only to tell Mary and Henrietta why she had left….
"I don't know what you mean." She tossed her dark head so that the trio of pink
baroque pearls that dangled from each earlobe swung madly. "Look, couldn't we
discuss this later? I was just going to lie down. I have a dreadful headache—"
"To hell with your blasted headache," he snarled, striding across the room.
Catching her by the wrist, he dragged her up, off the padded stool. "I deserve
an explanation!"
"For my headache?"
"Don't play games with me! You know damned well what for! For leaving me."
He tugged her to him, so that their faces were only a hairsbreadth apart. Anger
crackled all around him like jagged frost-fire.
"Ever since that damned fall, you flinch whenever I touch you. Jump like a
frightened rabbit at the sound of my voice! Why won't you believe me? I had
nothing to do with your accident."
"Why should I trust you? It was your pin, after all! You admitted it!"
"All right. The bloody pin was mine. I'll give you that. A gift from Aimee that
disappeared years ago, in India. I always assumed one of the houseboys had
stolen it, until I put two and two together. About Kalinda, that is. Don't you
see, Victoria? It's been her all along."
"A scapegoat. How very convenient," she jeered. "But if you're really as
innocent as you claim, why did you take the pin from my wardrobe?"
He didn't bother to deny it. "From what Tom Foulger told me, I knew you'd found
something in Calypso's saddle pad. When you acted as if I'd suddenly sprouted
horns, I guessed you thought I was responsible." He shrugged. "I was curious. I
wanted to know why.
"It occurred to me you might have tucked whatever it was into your pocket that
day, for safekeeping. Lo and behold, I found the pin in your riding habit. An
item that threw suspicion squarely on me. Doesn't that tell you anything?"
"Should it?"
"Cut it out, Victoria! Damn it, I'm no fool! If I wanted to murder you, which I
don't— not yet, anyway," he amended through clenched jaws, "I wouldn't leave any
clues to my identity! Whoever did this wanted suspicion to fall on me. Why?
Because they wanted to get rid of you, Victoria, one way or the other. I'd say
they succeeded, wouldn't you?"
"Why couldn't it be you?" she whispered.
"Why would I want you dead?" he demanded, plainly furious. He looked quite
capable of murder in that moment. His eyes were dark as a starless night,
blacker than Hades beneath lowering brows. "What the devil did I have to gain
from your death? Or Aimee's, come to that?"
"There's an inheritance from my mother—"
"Money?" He snorted in disgust. "It's common knowledge that the Blackstone
fortune could last a man ten lifetimes, however extravagantly he chose to live
them. No, if you're looking for a motive, you'll have to do better than that,"
he added grimly.
"Then perhaps… you're simply a— a Bluebeard," she tossed back in desperation,
well aware of how foolish it sounded.
What was she so afraid of? Why did her heart pound so? Why couldn't she bring
herself to admit that she believed him? In her heart of hearts, she knew he was
innocent. He had nothing to gain from her death, not unless he killed for
killing's sake. What was she afraid would happen if she let him love her…. and
allowed herself to love him?
Foolish as it seemed, afraid she was. The very thought of loving anyone as much
as she had come to love him terrified her, for how would she ever recover if he
abandoned her, physically or emotionally? If, some day, he just stopped loving
her… stopped being there when she needed him, just as her father had done? Safer
to end it here, now, on her own terms.
And so she brought her chin up and stubbornly insisted, "For all I know, you
could be a deranged lunatic! A— a brute who murders his wives for the pleasure
of it!"
He swore, softly yet foully. "Blast it, Victoria. You're an intelligent woman.
Tempting as the idea of murdering you might be at this moment, surely you can do
better than that?"
"Swear to me, then," she demanded quickly. "Tell me you were not responsible for
your first wife's death, and I'll believe you."
"Not responsible?" he echoed.
He seemed suddenly taken aback, all the anger sucked out of him by her question.
His features were a blank, enigmatic mask as he murmured heavily, "That's a
horse of a different color, Victoria. If not for me, I believe Aimee and her
infant son would still be alive. The knowledge that I was responsible for their
deaths has haunted me ever since."
Stunned that he had admitted causing their deaths, she turned away, hugging
herself about the arms. So this was it. Tears obliterated her view of the
darkening park through the uncurtained window. Instead, she saw her future
stretching ahead of her. Empty. Loveless. Alone.
"I think you should go now. We have nothing further to discuss." It was better
this way. Surely it would be less painful if he left now.
"If it were not for me…"
How fragile happiness was! How frail was trust, she told herself. In just a few
little words, her dreams of a wonderful new life with Steede had toppled like
castles built in air. While her father built himself a new life with Delia, she
must be alone. Again.
"Leave, or I shall ring for a footman to throw you out," she said desperately,
her voice cracking. If he didn't leave, and soon, she would never be able to let
him go.
She loved him, needed him, no matter what he was, or what he had done— or what
he might yet do!
The thought terrified her as nothing else could.
Steede's jaw hardened. His eyes flashed, black lightning striking in a face as
hard and chiseled as granite. Her cool dismissal, her lack of faith enraged him.
"What about us, Victoria? Does what we had mean so bloody little you can throw
it all away, just like that?" he challenged, snapping his fingers.
Before she could step away, he grasped her upper arms and yanked her toward him.
"Can you?" he breathed, his voice a silky purr.
Oh, that voice! Memories of black velvet nights… of scented satin sheets…. of
searing kisses and a touch that stirred her senses flooded through her like
heated wine.
"Let go of me!" she protested, struggling to escape his grip.
"The devil I will, Victoria. That's not what you want. Not really. This is what
you want. Admit it!"
For one endless moment, he hesitated, their mouths so close she could almost
taste him. She closed her eyes as his breath rose, warm and sweet, against her
skin. Then he cupped her chin, tilted back her head and crushed his lips over
hers.
He kissed her savagely, deeply. Kissed her until her eyes darkened to the color
of a storm-tossed midnight sea, brimming over with desire. Her knees buckled as
his tongue stroked inside her mouth, relentlessly teasing, tasting her as he
dragged her up against his powerful frame.
The electric contact that leaped between them made her gasp, as if lightning
bolts crackled and sizzled from one to the other. With a low, desperate moan,
she leaned against him, needing his support, needing him to cool the desire that
seethed in her belly like lava.
"I knew it!" he crowed, triumphant.
Plunging his hand inside her scalloped neckline, he cupped her breasts. Fondled
the silky mounds that felt strangely unfettered beneath her chemise and the
slippery rose-pink bodice of her gown.
She'd discarded her busk, the confining corset, the stays and hooped petticoat.
Her lush curves were free of confinement, he realized with a heady jolt of pure
lust as he ran his hand down over her belly and hips, then up between her
stockinged legs, until it was lodged snugly between her thighs.
The divided, scalloped drawers were open between the legs. They offered no
protection against a lover's determined invasion, he thought, as he eased a
finger inside her.
She curled her arms around his neck and leaned more heavily against him,
uttering a low, helpless moan as her fingers caught in his hair.
God, she was wet, and so blessed hot she sheathed him like a fiery glove. If she
told him to stop, he didn't know if he could. Or worse, would.
He wanted to take the combs from her hair. To free her Gypsy mane so that it
tumbled over the two of them in wild black torrents as they made love. To strip
off the rose-pink satin gown, the chemise, the layered petticoats, and devour
her, inch by luscious inch, until the raging beast within was tamed and stilled.
"Say it, Victoria!" he growled thickly in her ear. His hot, raspy breath raised
goosebumps on the bare skin between her long white gloves and her wispy organdy
sleeves. "Say I mean nothing to you. That this leaves you cold."
Splaying both hands over her derriere, he drew her against the hard bulge in his
trousers. Sealing his lips to hers, he wielded teeth and tongue in a kiss
calculated to make itself felt in every part of her, then drew back and
whispered thickly again, "Lie to me, darling…."
Shaking her head from side to side, she pressed her palms against his chest.
Made a mute, half-hearted attempt to push him away, although she could feel his
hardness throbbing against her belly.
Her treacherous body quivered in anticipation. It had learned to expect pleasure
from his. Wanted it. Needed it. Now, every nerve and sinew, every inch of flesh
and bone, yearned to surrender. To yield to his dangerous seduction…
Little fool! she scolded herself. This isn't real. None of it is— not to him.
His lovemaking is only a prelude, a single step in his murderous dance. It must
be! Hadn't he admitted he was responsible for Aimee's death? For the death of
their little son?
She had her own unborn child to consider now, she told herself, cradling her
hardening belly. And while she might risk her own life for a few hours of
pleasure in Steede's bed, she would not risk her baby's….
"Go!" she whispered in a strangled voice, turning her head away. "I— never want
to see you again!"
He grew very, very still, his expression as dark and closed as a padlocked door.
The pain in his eyes was that of a condemned man as he looked down at her.
"Is that what you want? You're sure?"
She could not look at him. Had to look away. After what seemed an eternity, she
nodded and whispered, "Yes."
The single word, no louder than a sigh— and just as insubstantial in the firelit
room— was loud enough.
A muscle ticked at his temple. His Adam's apple bobbed in his throat. "Very
well, then. Goodbye, Victoria."
Turning on his heel, he strode out the door.
As he left, he jerked it shut behind him so forcefully Victoria flinched as if
she'd been shot. As, perhaps, she had, she thought miserably. Straight through
the heart!
As tears fell like rain, she told herself he had left just in time.
Another second and she would have begged him to stay….
***
"Off home so soon, Blackstone? I thought you'd be staying for the weekend, at
least?"
"So did I, sir," Steede ground out. He halted, but didn't turn around to face
Lord Hawthorne in the marble-tiled entryway. A nerve pulsed at his temple as he
set down his bag. "There's— ah— there's been a change in plans."
"Ah. Gave you your marching orders, did she?" Hawthorne asked softly.
Steede turned to face him. "Something like that, yes."
"Care to discuss it over a drink?"
"I'm not sure there's anything left to discuss, sir. Or that it's any of your
damned business."
"Why don't you let me be the judge of that, aye?" Hawthorne suggested mildly.
Steede hesitated, then shrugged. "All right. What have I got to lose?"
"Well, now? What seems to be the problem?" Roger asked as he poured them each a
whisky from the Waterford decanter in his study. "Has my lass still got that
wasp in her drawers about you murdering your first wife?"
His jaw hardened. "I didn't murder anyone, damn it!" he insisted, his eyes hot.
"Aye, I know that, lad. Do you think you'd be married to my daughter if you
had?" the Yorkshireman countered in a voice like a whip. "By dusk of the day you
offered for her hand, I knew every last thing there was to know about you, my
lad, good and bad." He cocked an iron-gray eyebrow. "And I mean everything."
"If you're referring to my former mistress, I dismissed her within hours of
Victoria's accepting my proposal," Steede supplied in a go-to-hell tone.
Hawthorne grinned. "I knew that, too. Handsome woman, though." He winked and
clicked his teeth. "Very handsome. You've excellent taste when it comes to the
lasses."
The ghost of a smile curved Steede's mouth.
"My daughter loves thee, son. You do know that?"
"I doubt it, sir."
"Do you? Well, you'd be wrong. I haven't been the best of fathers, but I know my
daughter, nonetheless. She loves you, but she's fighting it. She's afraid, aye?"
"Of me?"
Hawthorne shook his head. "Nay, lad. Of loving you, then losing you. This way—
her telling you to go— it's safer, aye? Less hurtful, less damaging to her pride
than having you abandon her, as I did— without ever going away." Eyes moist, he
shook his head. "I've a lot to blame myself for, Blackstone. But I intend to
make up for it. To do right by my lass in this matter, so help me God. You love
her, too, I'm thinking?"
His jaw tightened. "Would I be here, if I didn't?"
"By gum, you're a prickly bastard, Blackstone! This is your father-in-law you're
talking to! I'm asking, lad. Do you love her, or nay? It's a simple enough
question— a bloody schoolboy could answer it."
Exasperated, Steede glowered at him. "You know I do, you old devil!"
Hawthorne gave a thin-lipped grin. "That's grand. I'm glad to hear it. Then you
won't be leaving just yet. If she's worth having, she's worth a bit of a scrap
for, aye? You'll take a room in Whitby for a night or two, I'm thinking. Give
her a chance to cool down a bit. Happen she'll come around right smartly, once
she's had time to think things through. And if she believes you and Harry Coombs
have gone back to Devon for good, so much the better."
"You think it'll make a difference?"
"All the difference in the world, lad. Trust me. Who do you think the lass takes
after— in temperament, I mean?" He chuckled. "Aye. She's her da's little girl,
through and through." He winked. "Thank God, she took her looks from her mam!
Now, then. Another whisky before you leave?"
"Make mine a double."
"Right you are. Here you go. Cheers! Oh, and before I forget, there's something
I'd like to tell you before you leave. Something I'd intended to say at your
wedding."
"Sir?"
"Hurt her, Blackstone, and you'll answer to me for it, so help me God!"
Hawthorne cast Steede a fierce scowl, his blue eyes so steely and pale Steede
didn't doubt for a second that he meant it. "Do you hear, lad?"
"Loud and clear, sir," Steede declared wryly, giving his father-in-law a cocky
salute.
Chapter Twenty-four
"I say, Victoria. Let's go riding while Rog takes his nap, shall we?" Delia
Chillingsworth suggested in her jolly, forthright fashion the following
afternoon.
A handsome, strapping woman in her early thirties, Delia had abandoned any hope
of marriage and children once she reached her twenty-fifth birthday. Instead,
she resigned herself to being the dutiful spinster daughter, doing good works
about the parish and taking care of her aging, gouty father.
Then Roger Hawthorne had come along, and turned her orderly, if somewhat boring,
world upside down with his proposal of marriage, which Delia had eagerly
accepted. That she had done so as a result of affection for her much older
suitor, rather than from desperation, as the gossips would surely imply, was
quite obvious when one saw the couple together, Victoria thought fondly. They
were clearly devoted to each other.
Her father's betrothed had pretty goldenbrown hair that she wore swept up into a
simple knot with side-curls, regular features and a flawless pink-and-white
complexion any debutante would envy, despite her love of outdoor pursuits such
as badminton, croquet, horseback riding and gardening. More importantly, she had
the sweetest, most agreeable disposition of any woman Victoria had ever met.
Delighted with her father's choice of a bride, Victoria had wholeheartedly
welcomed Delia Chillingsworth into the family, and given them both her
unqualified blessing on their marriage. In the days since Delia's arrival at
Hawthorne Hall, they had become close friends, allies united by the solitary
mission of returning His Lordship to perfect health.
"I'd love to go riding," Victoria agreed readily. Her pregnancy was not very
advanced as yet. A ride in the crisp, cold air was exactly what she needed. The
outing would blow away the cobwebs in her head, erase the guilty images of
little Mary, once again abandoned by a woman she'd called Mother, and of Steede,
looking as if she'd struck him a mortal blow.
"Does Father still keep old Muffin in his stables?"
"Is Muffin the ancient chestnut? Yes, as far as I know. But I would have
thought— well, Roger's always praising your riding skills. Wouldn't you prefer a
more spirited mount? His new bay mare's a pretty creature."
"No, not today. In fact, I probably won't be riding any spirited mounts for the
next six months or so…." She let the comment dangle.
"Why on earth not, old girl? I always say a spirited horse is— oh, good Lord!
How stupid of me. You're in what is known as an 'interesting condition, ' am I
right?" When Victoria laughed at her prim reference, Delia blushed and added,
"Oh, gosh. A baby. I'm going to be a stepgrandmother! Congratulations, old girl!
Does Rog know?"
"Thank you," Victoria said warmly, amused by the idea of Delia as a grandmother.
"And the answer to your question is no, not yet. I thought I'd tell him this
evening at supper. Please don't say anything until then, all right?"
"Don't worry. I won't. Oh, how exciting! I hope"— she blushed—"I hope I shan't
be too long in following suit. Once we're married, of course," she added
hastily, in case Victoria should misinterpret her eagerness as an unseemly haste
to consummate the marriage.
"Oh, of course," Victoria agreed with a smile. "I'll just run upstairs and
change. I'll meet you outside, shall I?"
"Splendid," Delia agreed. She arched tawny brows. "Would Lord Blackstone care to
join us, do you think?"
"Didn't you know? His Lordship was called back to Blackstone late last night,"
Victoria lied smoothly.
"Oh! What a pity. I do hope everything's all right?"
"Some problem with the Home Farm," she said vaguely. "Nothing too serious."
"I'm glad. We're both very lucky, you know, Victoria. To have them, I mean. He's
such a striking fellow, your Lord Blackstone, and such a gentleman. And my
Roger's quite dashing, too, in an older, distinguished sort of way," she added.
"Aren't we?" Victoria agreed with a painted-on smile. "Fifteen minutes?"
"Fifteen it is," Delia agreed, beaming.
***
The two women soon left the Hall behind them. Their mounts' hooves clattered
loudly over the cobblestones as they rode through the fishing port of Whitby,
passing the cluster of red-roofed houses that huddled along the banks of the
beautiful River Esk, including that of legendary navigator and explorer Captain
James Cook on old Grape Lane.
Little fishing boats were coming into the harbor where, just half a century
before, whalers had dropped anchor, creating a leafless forest with their masts.
Seagulls screamed and dipped white wings over the vessels, swooping low in the
hope of stealing a taste of the fishermen's fresh catch, still silvery-scaled as
it flopped about on the slippery decks.
From the steep cliffs, where the ruins of Saxon Whitby Abbey loomed over the old
town like a protective hen over its chicks, the two women turned their horses
onto a narrow cliff path that led down to the wide sands fringing the bay.
In the summer months, horse-drawn charabancs loaded to the gills with noisy
day-trippers arrived each morning from the factory and mill towns of the north.
They disgorged brightly feathered factory girls and working men in their Sunday
best of shiny brown suits and flat caps, all eager to spend a day at the
seaside.
But few people came to Whitby Bay at this time of year. The beach was empty,
except for a man Victoria recognized by his handlebar moustaches as the town's
fresh-air fanatic, Colonel Percy Ripperton, now retired, who took his daily
constitutional along the sands, come rain or shine, dressed in white woolen
combinations.
The only other beach-goer was a scrawny stray dog nosing some dried-out tangles
of smelly brown seaweed, in the hope of finding a dead fish.
Within moments, Victoria's hair was whipped free of its intricate braid, Delia's
from its elegant knot by the blustery autumn wind that blew inland off the bay.
Bearing the frigid promise of winter on its damp, cold breath, it painted vivid
roses in their cheeks.
As the women cantered their horses along the sands, little wavelets edged with
yellow foam danced up the beach to tickle their horses' hooves. When the waves,
receded, they left the wet sand as smooth and unmarred as a bolt of pale-gold
silk in their wake, Victoria saw.
If only we could do the same! Eradicate our past, erase our mistakes, as easily,
Victoria thought with a wistful sigh.
"Forgive me for saying so, but that sounded very melancholy," Delia observed
with a sideward glance. "Are you all right?"
"Perfectly," she insisted. Patting Muffin's neck, she forced a smile to hide her
heaviness of heart. What had she done, by telling Steede to go? Had she saved
herself— or made a terrible mistake? One she would pay for for the rest of her
life?
"We'll ride as far as those rocks, then turn back, shall we?" Delia sang out.
"By the time we get home, Cook should have tea ready. I don't know about you,
but I'm starved!"
"Me, too. It must be the sea air," Victoria agreed, her mind only half on what
Delia was saying. Instead, she remembered riding with Steede at her side.
Looking up at him from drifts of colored leaves, or from the tiger's pelt spread
before a crackling fire in his bedchamber…
Delia hesitated. "I've been wanting to ask you, Victoria. How much longer do you
expect to stay at the Hall?"
"Stay? But the Hall's my home!" Victoria protested sharply.
At once, Delia looked stricken and apologetic. "Oh, gosh, of course it is! I
didn't mean that you should leave! It goes without saying that you are free to
stay for as long and as often as you wish, even after Roger and I are married.
We wouldn't have it any other way.
"It's just that… well, I lost my mother several years ago, and have no sisters
or aunts to call upon for help or advice. While you—! Well, you're such a dear,
generous soul. I was hoping I might prevail upon you to help me with the wedding
arrangements. I know it's an imposition— especially for someone in your
condition— but I don't know where else to turn, and I really—"
"Enough said. I'd love to!" Victoria said warmly, feeling contrite. "You and
Papa shall have the very best wedding ever! Aunt Catherine— Papa's sister— is
marvelous at organizing things— and people. She'll help, too, I just know she
will." She smiled. "Before you know it, I'll be calling you… Mother!"
Delia pretended to look annoyed. "Try it, dear girl, and I shall not be held
responsible for the consequences."
Victoria laughed as they rode on, her heartache forgotten for the moment.
***
Steede tossed his cigar stub into the brass spittoon in the corner and nodded to
the bartender to bring him another drink as he fished in his waistcoat pocket
for the price of the pint.
Though not the sort of establishment he usually frequented, the Whitby Arms
nonetheless provided clean, comfortable rooms, tasty meals and fine ales and
spirits. Last night, after Victoria had given him his marching orders, he
recalled sourly, he had taken advantage of all three, with special attention
given the latter.
He had told himself it would be a marriage of convenience, he'd thought morosely
as he drank. Their marriage, his convenience. He'd believed he could marry
Victoria, and enjoy her considerable charms in his bed, yet remain unmoved by
her in any but the most casual fashion out of bed.
Had he truly imagined he could have a mother for Mary, an intelligent, desirable
woman in his bed, a new mistress to run his household, and not become involved?
Not care? What a fool he'd been— and how bloody arrogant, too!— to think he
could pull it off.
In ways he did not fully comprehend, Victoria— with her delightful mixture of
contrasts— had become an inescapable part of him. Of his life. Of his heart.
Perhaps it had started with his first glimpse of her dignity, her hard-headed
obstinacy and pride, as she high-stepped through the mud the night of their
"elopement" to Gretna, he thought fondly. She'd been too stubborn to knuckle
under, yet too bloody proud to cry. Or perhaps it had been when he saw her with
Mary in the rose garden, their two lovely heads bent together over the fragrant
blossoms. He'd glimpsed something in Mary's face that day that gave him hope his
daughter was responding to Victoria's warmth and affection. Or perhaps it was
the joyous way his bride surrendered utterly in his arms; changed from a cool,
elegant beauty to a deeply sensual woman whose body came alive under his touch,
humming like a plucked mandolin.
Or perhaps it was simply all of the little things that made Victoria… Victoria.
The woman, he realized, God help him, he had fallen deeply in love with.
"Bloody fool!" he muttered to no one in particular.
"M'lord?"
"Nothing, Mr. Turbot. Just thinking out loud."
Blowing the foam off his pint in the common fashion, which drew him nods of
greeting and approval from the other drinkers, who were mostly fishermen and
farmers, he made his way back between smoke-blackened settles, chairs and tables
to his seat.
The small table by the lead-paned bay windows overlooked the high street. From
there, he could watch who came and went in the fishing and jet-mining town on
the bay, while he considered what to do about the wretched woman he'd married.
The woman who had taken it into her foolish head that he wanted to murder her!
He spent a few moments watching the passersby going in and out of the red-roofed
shops along the high street, which offered trinkets of carved jet, scrimshaw and
shell-covered boxes and jewelry, before resuming his former pastime— staring
into the depths of his glass tankard as if an answer might be found there.
He was still gazing morosely into his pint when a shadow fell across the table
before him. He looked up to find a breathless Harry Coombs looking down at him,
chest heaving as if he'd run a mile flat out.
"Afternoon, m'lord!" he stammered.
"Harry. What is it, man?"
"I just thought you might be interested to know, m'lord. Her Ladyship is out
riding with the Honorable Delia Chillingsworth. The ladies will be passing the
Arms in approximately two minutes, aye?"
"Two, you say?" He tried to sound nonchalant, but damn it, he couldn't help the
way his head jerked around like a lovesick lad's. Nor the way his eyes
immediately turned to the bay window and scanned the cobbled street, hungry for
a glimpse of her. No, he couldn't help it— but he didn't have to like it, damn
it.
"Pah. What do I care?" he growled. "The woman's irrational! She'd rather be
miserable and alone than ever admit she's wrong!"
"Eeeh, you're right there, you are. Happen she'd do just that, m'lord. She's
stubborn, that 'un, just like my Lily, sir. Between you and me, I reckon Lady
Vicky takes after Old Thorny," Harry confided. "But never mind that for now,
sir. I saw summat today. Summat— or someone, rather— thee should know about,
m'lord. It could— aye, it could prove a matter of life, and death!"
"That important, is it?" Steede whistled under his breath, impressed by the
seriousness of Harry's expression and his grim tone. "Bartender!"
"Sir?"
"Another pint for my friend here! Come on. Sit down, man. Tell me what's
bothering you."
Without further ado, Harry told him.
***
Having received Dr. Walters's permission to take the air for the first time
since the beating had laid him low, Lord Hawthorne was champing at the bit to be
up and about the following morning, a Sunday.
Since chapel was the only outing Delia would allow him, and because he would,
furthermore, be in his betrothed's delightful company, he was
uncharacteristically eager to attend morning services in Whitby that Sabbath,
despite having turned his back on religion since his Isabelle's death.
"Why don't we all go!" Delia declared, smiling across the breakfast table at
Victoria. "And after the service, we'll come back to Cook's lovely cold buffet
and you can rest, my dear," she promised Roger fondly.
"Nooo, you two go without me," Victoria urged the lovebirds, resting a hand
against her abdomen. "I'm feeling a little under the weather this morning."
She shot Delia a warning look, for despite her intention to tell her father
about her condition, she had yet to do so.
"Aaah," Delia said, winking and giving Victoria's hand a conspiratorial pat.
"It's probably just a touch of autumn grippe. Go on back to bed, old girl. I'll
have Em bring you up some clear broth and dry toast."
"Don't bother— I'm almost certain it won't stay down, but thank you anyway,
Delia. Father's the luckiest man to have you," Victoria murmured, kissing
Delia's cheek. "If you'll excuse me…" Tossing her crumpled serviette to the
table, she left them alone.
In her brief absence, her bed had already been made, her room neatened and
dusted, she discovered. Removing her morning gown and shoes, she pulled on a
ruffled dressing gown, turned back the covers and lay down in her chemise and
petticoats.
There was no need to loosen her stays. At Lily's urging, she'd dispensed with
them over a week ago, and to her surprise, the morning sickness had eased, just
as Lily promised.
Today, however, she felt sick to her stomach for some peculiar reason.
Apprehensive. Edgy. Perhaps Delia was right, she thought. Perhaps the nausea,
the overwhelming tiredness, were the result of an autumn grippe, and nothing to
do with her condition at all.
She dozed off, waking to find that the drapes had been drawn while she slept.
The room lay in heavy shadow now, except for the narrow band of harsh light
where the draperies did not meet.
She listened intently, wondering what had awoken her, but heard only the
measured ticktocking of the ormolu clock on the mantelpiece.
The great old house that surrounded her was hushed and silent, suspended in the
drowsy spell cast by Sunday mornings.
Delia and Father must still be at church, she thought idly, stretching and
yawning. And Carter, the butler, was probably down at the public house, enjoying
an after-hours drink and luncheon with his old friend Mr. Turbot, the Arms'
proprietor.
Lily had Sunday afternoon off, as usual, and had probably gone to visit her
parents, since Harry had returned to Devonshire with Steede.
And Cook— Cook would have left for her sister's cottage in Whitby for the day,
after preparing the delicious cold buffet in the pantry, which served for their
luncheon and supper, as it did every Sunday.
In the kitchen, the scullery and chambermaids were probably enjoying a few
unsupervised moments with their feet up, giggling and sampling forbidden treats
before they served the family their Sunday high tea, promptly at three.
As for the grooms, they'd be indulging in a clandestine game of cards down at
the gamekeeper's cottage, keeping a weather eye out for His Lordship's return,
for the master did not approve of games of chance, especially on the Sabbath,
religious or not.
To all intents and purpose, she was all alone here. And, although there was no
reason why it should, the knowledge made her uneasy. She felt— foolish as it
seemed— as if someone were watching her. Had, perhaps, been standing over her,
looking down at her while she slept.
Steede. Had he come back?
Raising her head slightly, she could see the armoire opposite the foot of the
bed, where her undergarments, stockings, garters and nightgowns were stored.
Against the wall opposite the window, where the light was best, stood her
dressing table and stool, and behind it, an oval looking glass.
Unlike Blackstone Manor and her papa's Belgravia townhouse, here at the Hall her
gowns were stored in a small room next door. The door leading to the dressing
room was hidden behind a folding red-lacquer screen, painted with Chinese scenes
of herons and wispy bamboo stalks. That door was, she noticed suddenly, ajar,
revealing a wedge of darkness beyond…
"Hello!" she called shakily. "Lily? Is that you?"
There was so answer. Still, she was almost certain she had heard a furtive
scuffle.
"Hello, I said!" Her voice rang out, sounding overly loud in the fragrant hush
of powders and perfumes. "Who's there? Steede? Is that you?"
Once again, there was no answer, yet the disturbing sensation that she was not
alone refused to go away. Perhaps it was one of the maids, playing a spiteful
joke…?
But in her heart, she knew no one at Hawthorne Hall would do such a thing.
Gooseflesh prickled down her arms. The fine hairs on her nape stood up on end.
Had the dressing-room door been ajar earlier, when she came upstairs? She
suddenly wondered, feeling suddenly chilled.
She couldn't remember.
For some reason, it seemed vital that she should.
Gingerly sitting up, she carefully swung her legs over the edge of the bed and
stood, relieved to find the nausea had passed.
Creeping silently across the room in her stockinged feet, she tiptoed to the
folding screen and peeked around a panel.
Too late, she sensed rather than saw the malevolent shadow that swooped down on
her like a great black raven.
Her last coherent thought was that she'd been wrong, terribly wrong about
everything.
"Steede!" she screamed.
Her terrified cry was cut off as a weighty hand clamped over her mouth. Coarse
fingers pinched her nostrils together, cutting off the air.
She couldn't breathe— couldn't breathe— couldn't— breathe…
Blackness. "Well, well. Good day, Blackstone! Still here, I see."
"Where's my wife? Is Victoria still inside the church?"
Hawthorne frowned. His son-in-law seemed curt to the point of insolence this
morning. Not so much as a hail or a fare-thee-well.
"Why, no. She didn't choose to accompany us to chapel this morning. A touch of
the grippe, Delia thought. She's resting at home. If you're intending to have it
out with her, I recommend you wait a day or two—"
"Is she alone, man?" Steede demanded, cutting the older man off as he gripped
Hawthorne's shoulder. His eyes were a glittering black, his jaw hard as he
rasped, "Quickly! Answer me!"
Hawthorne looked shocked, taken aback. "Let me see. There are the— er— the
maids, and then there's… no, no, they all have the afternoon off. I suppose…
well, yes, I suppose she is alone, to all intents and purposes. But why do you—?
Good God, man! You've gone white as chalk! What the devil is it?"
"Ned Thomas was spotted at his father's farm yesterday afternoon, sir." Steede
almost spat the words out in his haste to be gone. "Harry immediately notified
the authorities, but when they went out to the farm to arrest him, they learned
from his mother that he'd slipped out when he saw them coming. Neither they, nor
Harry or myself have been able to find him since! I came to warn you and
Victoria that he was back and spoiling for trouble. When I saw your carriage in
the churchyard, I thought— well, I naturally thought Victoria would be at church
with you, sir—"
But even as he spoke, Steede was racing for the hired nag that Harry was
holding.
"Go!" Hawthorne bellowed. "I'll be right behind you."
He and Harry needed no second urging. Wheeling their horses about, they gave the
beasts their heads.
The house appeared deserted when they rode up. Nor did anyone answer their calls
as they searched the sprawling mansion, floor by floor and room by room.
When Steede burst into his wife's apartments, he saw at once that a lacquered
Chinese screen had been overturned, as well as a milk-glass lamp and several
other items.
A violent struggle had obviously taken place in the room.
Claws of foreboding sank deep into his gut as he raced back the way he'd come.
Harry caught him by the shoulder as he spilled out of the kitchen door, which
opened onto the stableyard and the stables and carriage houses across the way.
Silently, Coombs pressed a finger to his lips and pointed to the stables.
"He's in there," he mouthed.
Steede gave a single, curt nod. "And my wife?" he mouthed in return.
"I saw him carry her inside."
Carry her? Oh, God! Then Victoria was either unconscious— or dead. His gut
clenched in pure terror. He couldn't lose her. Not now. Wouldn't lose her! He
loved her too much to let her go….
Motioning Harry to wait, he sprinted across the stableyard, then ducked silently
into the shadows of the stables.
***
She came around to find Ned Thomas crouched over her. He was breathing thickly
as he yanked the fronts of her wrapper apart, ripping the sash in the process.
With a quick, hard pull, he jerked down her under-chemise, baring her breasts.
The ribbon that gathered the neckline tore as he did so.
He sucked in a breath, the air whistling through his teeth as he ogled her.
"Not a sound out o' you, bitch," he warned, his pewter eyes kindling with a
cold, cruel gleam as he covered one breast with a callused hand, and squeezed.
"One squeak, and I'll brain thee."
She lay unmoving in the straw, unresponsive as a log while he groped at her. How
strange. It was as if what he was doing was happening to somebody else. As if
she, in some peculiar way, was merely an onlooker, a casual observer, rather
than a victim. Besides, on another level, she knew he would have derived
enormous pleasure from her resistance….
She had to buy some time. To think how she would get away.
He must have carried her downstairs, then outside, to the stables. To the place
her father had surprised them together months ago, Victoria realized with a
shiver, opening her eyes and looking up at him.
His clothes and body were dirty and unkempt, and there was a desperate air about
him that boded ill for her. In fact, he bore little resemblance to the handsome
Ned she remembered. But then, neither was she the naive, innocent girl she had
been that long-ago day. There was little doubt in her mind what Ned intended to
do to her, she thought with a shiver.
"Why did you bring me here?" she demanded, trying to reach the part of the man
she'd once known and loved, if that part had ever truly existed except in her
romantic imagination. "Why are you doing this to me? I loved you! Why would you
want to hurt me, Ned?"
"You, love the likes o' me? Ha! Not bloody likely," he jeered, fondling her
stockinged leg. His pewter eyes gleamed, feral in the shadows. "What thee wanted
was the same thing I wanted at that mine, my lass. Revenge! To get back at your
bloody father!"
"You almost killed him!"
"Aye. Aye, I did, didn't I?" he sneered. "I should have gone back and finished
the job. Happen I'll finish it yet. And after our bit of fun, you'll be my
ticket out of here, aye, lass? What do they call it? My hostage!"
"Take your hands off me," she insisted, her belly heaving in disgust as he
squeezed her thigh, bruising it.
"Don't ye like a dirty miner touching your lily white teats, Your Ladyship?" he
taunted. "Don't ye like these filthy working-class hands all over ye? Well,
that's too bloody bad, because I'm going to do more than touch thee, ye snobby
little teaser. I'm going to make ye squeal."
Stunned, she realized he was opening his breeches. She had to get away now or it
would be too late!
"Please," she whispered, her voice breaking as she curled her fingers into
tight, hard fists. She drew up her knee, outwardly submissive, inwardly coiled
to fight or flee, or both. "Please, Ned. Don't do this…"
***
Steede stood in the shadows, temporarily blinded while he waited for his eyes to
adjust to the gloom.
Yet even as he stood there, he heard the sound of flesh striking flesh, followed
by a thick, pained male grunt.
"You bitch!" he heard Thomas rasp. Then there was the sound of a ringing slap,
followed by his wife's whimper of hurt.
"Victoria!" he roared.
"Steede!"
Her cry acted like a red flag to a bull.
With a bellow of rage, Steede lunged frantically from stall to stall, searching
for her as she exploded from the farthest stall.
Barefoot, she ran down the long aisle between the rows of partitions toward him.
Her hair was a wild black torrent against her torn wrapper. Her eyes were huge
in her pale face. Her clothing was disheveled.
"Oh, Steede! Oh, thank God!" she cried, throwing herself into his arms.
"Did he hurt you?" he demanded, tracing the red marks of a hand across her
cheek.
"No," she assured him, but her torn clothing, the raised welts across her cheek,
the tears brimming in her eyes told a different story.
"Go on outside," he ordered through gritted teeth. "Harry's waiting. Go to him."
"But what about y—?"
"Do it!" he cut her off. Chucking her beneath the chin, he added in a gentler
voice, "I'll be fine. I promise."
"See that you are," she whispered fiercely. Giving his arm a quick, hard
squeeze, she quickly brushed past him.
"Come on out, you bastard!" Steede roared. "Just you and me! Not the women and
old men you usually prey on!"
Ned Thomas stepped into the aisle from one of the horse stalls. He wore a flat
brown cap, a soiled collarless white shirt tucked into brown moleskin trousers,
and leather braces. He was smiling wolfishly— and carrying a pitchfork.
"Put 'em up, Yer Lordship," he sneered.
Steede obliged, his fists raised before him, ready to jab, to block, to wrest
the pitchfork from Thomas's hands. His weight was balanced on the balls of his
feet, and an unholy grin added an evil cast to his features.
"Come on then, you bastard!" he taunted. "Come and get me!"
He danced left as Ned suddenly lunged forward, hefting the pitchfork at his
face, yet he felt the rush of air as the wicked tines flashed past his cheek.
Hissing a foul oath, he jerked his head aside, reached for the pitchfork,
grappled it out of Thomas's hands and hurled it into a heap of straw, out of
reach.
Thomas howled with rage, drew back his knotted fist and swung a punch at
Steede's head.
Momentum carried the miner straight into the piledriver Steede held ready to
drive into his gut.
With a grunt, Ned reeled backward, the breath slammed from him.
"What's up, old son?" Steede jeered as he scrambled to his feet. "Not much fun
with your bare fists— is that it? Or perhaps hitting a woman is more fun?"
"Shut thy bleeding mouth, else I'll shut it for thee, Blackstone!" Ned
threatened, landing a lucky punch on Steede's chin.
He shook his ringing head as white lights danced in the red haze of his vision.
"I'll see you in hell first!" Steede panted.
Blood and sweat sprayed like drops of paint as, suddenly darting forward, he
caught Ned under the chin with a solid thwack. The uppercut sent the miner
staggering backward several feet.
"I had her first, ye know. Yer wife, I mean. Lady Vic-tor-ia," Ned taunted, his
expression sly as, bobbing and weaving, he fought to stay upright, wiping the
blood from a split lip on the back of his hand.
"Couldn't wait, she couldn't, she were that eager for it. Crawled all over me
like a she-cat in heat." He grinned and lewdly waggled his tongue at Steede.
"Just beggin' me for it, she was! Well, what's a man t'do, aye?" He jerked his
hips, lewdly pantomiming.
Steede knew, on one level, what Thomas hoped to do, yet the other levels didn't
give a damn about reason. A crimson rage exploded through him, adding fury to
his fists.
Slamming blow after blow into the miner's head and chest, immune to those that
hammered his own body in return, he drove Ned out of the gloomy stables, into
the harsh glare of the stableyard, where Harry and several others were waiting.
"Come 'ere, you!" Harry began, reaching for Ned, but Steede waved him back.
"Get away, Harry. He's mine. You can't have him. Not yet."
Hammering blow after blow at the laborer, Steede backed him up against the
woodshed wall. He held him upright there, one forearm planted across Ned's
windpipe as, his chest heaving, he paused to recover his breath.
Despite the bruises, the cuts, elation sang through him. Nothing had ever felt
as good— or as right— as giving this bastard the thrashing he deserved.
"Enough, m'lord! Have done, sir, before ye kill him. I'll take him now, aye?"
bellowed a loud voice.
Strong hands gripped his shoulders, pulling him off battered, bleeding Ned
Thomas.
No longer supported by Steede's forearm, Thomas slid limply down the stone wall
and sat there, like a marionette with its strings cut.
His fair head lolled to one side, the dirty hair streaked with blood from a
hairline cut. His nose was shattered, both lips split and bleeding, both gray
eyes so badly swollen it was impossible to tell if they were open or shut. Most
of his face was mottled a dark bluish hue, evidence of the livid bruising that
would appear in the next few hours.
But it was not enough for Steede. Not for what Thomas had tried to do to the
woman he loved….
With a bellow of fury, he lunged at him again.
"Now then, sir. Enough's enough," Mr. Lovett insisted sternly, catching Steede's
upper arms when he tried to drag the miner upright once more. The older man was
surprisingly strong. "Come away wi' ye, lad!"
"Get your hands off me!" Steede growled, trying to shrug Lovett off.
"No, son. Lovett's right. Ye've taught Thomas a champion lesson, ye have, but
enough's enough. Let the authorities have him now. We're proper proud of ye, we
are, me and your lady here. Aren't we, my love? But let Harry take him for ye
now, aye?" urged Lord Hawthorne, one arm around his daughter, the other around
his betrothed.
Nodding slowly, Steede stepped back, his head bowed, wiping a trickle of blood
from his mouth on the back of his fist as, on Lovett's orders, Harry and the
other stable hands carried Ned Thomas away.
"Oh, Steede!" Victoria cried. She ran to him, half afraid he would want nothing
to do with her. Nor could she blame him if he didn't….
But to her delight, he opened his arms.
She flung herself into them. Joy filled her as his weary arms tightened around
her in a fierce embrace. He lifted her, swung her high and around, so that her
petticoats flew out.
"I didn't mean it, I swear I didn't," she sobbed when he put her down. Gently,
she cupped his poor, battered face between her hands in a desperate bid to make
him understand. "Please don't go. Don't leave me. I love you, Steede! I love you
so much. I've loved you for weeks and weeks— almost from the very first. It's
just that— I didn't know what to believe anymore! And I swear to you, I never
did— what Ned said— I didn't, ever— I swear it! It was just kisses, nothing
more."
"Hush." He pressed a finger to her lips. "I know."
She bit her lower lip, blinking back tears. "Oh, your poor, poor mouth."
"It's nothing."
"Oh, but it is! I've been wanting so much to—"
He kissed her then to shut her up, as much as anything; a long and infinitely
sweet kiss that stole her breath away. She could taste his blood and her tears
on his lips, their salty tang mingled with the sweetness.
"Steede, there's something I haven't told you. Something wonderful…"
"About the baby?" he asked, placing his palm against her belly.
"But how did you know?" she exclaimed. "Delia? Did you—?"
"Delia didn't have to tell me anything. I'm your husband, remember? I've noticed
the changes in you. In the way your body feels," he murmured, his voice a
seductive caress. "Lusher. Fuller. Ripe as an ear of wheat…"
"And?" She held her breath, her fingers crossed. Please, God, let him be as glad
about the baby as she was.
"Nothing could make me happier— except for what you just told me."
"That I love you?"
He nodded. "That you love me. As I love you, with all my heart. It didn't start
out that way for me, any more than it did for you. I didn't think it mattered
whether we loved each other or not, but I was wrong. In the end, love matters.
It matters more than any of it."
"Amen!" she whispered fervently.
He grinned down at her. And, although the puffy lips, the cuts on his swollen
eyebrow, the livid bruising marred his striking features, he'd never looked more
handsome.
"Call Alf and t' other lads t' cart him away, Harry," Lovett urged his future
son-in-law.
He nodded at Thomas, still slumped against the wall, his jaw slack, his mouth
gaping. Blood dribbled from his nose to stain his grimy shirtfront.
"T' Whitby constables are coming to fetch our Master Thomas. Aye, and they're
bringing a warrant, too! Get a move on, lads. Unless I miss my mark, Lord and
Lady Blackstone are wanting to be alone!" he added with a rare wink for Steede.
"Hmm, you taste different," Steede murmured later, running his tongue down the
valley between her breasts, then gently biting each nipple in turn until it
hardened. "Like a ripe, juicy peach."
"Liar," she accused, squirming with lazy contentment on the rumpled bed linens,
enjoying his seductive kisses and caresses.
She ruffled his ebony hair, running her fingers through the inky waves at his
nape. "But don't stop. Oh, yes. Right there! Hmm. That's love-ly," she murmured
as his tongue danced over her belly, rimmed the well of her navel, then moved
lower, to where a triangular sea of midnight curls lapped at the creamy flesh of
her belly and thighs. "Sooo lovely…"
Speech was impossible after that. So was thought. She could only feel, one
incredibly pleasurable sensation building on another, until her climax burst
over her like champagne rain.
In its wake was blessed calm— and a deep contentment more precious than gold.
"My turn," Steede promised thickly.
He turned her over so that they lay curled on their sides, like spoons in a
drawer. Bracing a hand on either side of her bottom, he drew her back, eased her
onto him, burying himself to the hilt with a practiced dip of his flanks. Her
startled gasp as he entered her made him chuckle, yet she eagerly pressed back,
onto him.
"Surprised? Don't be. There are more ways for a man and a woman to make love
than you could ever imagine, my sweet," he murmured, nuzzling her throat. Her
scent intoxicated him, a heady yet elusive blend of hyacinths and talcum powder
and the sweet fragrance of Victoria, the woman. "This one comes highly
recommended for women in your condition."
She giggled. "I highly recommend it, too, my condition be damned!" she declared
naughtily. "How many ways are there in all, do you suppose?" she wondered aloud.
He grinned, his black eyes flashing in the murky light of her room, where the
fire had died down to a heap of glowing embers.
"Be damned if I know. Let's count them, shall we?"
She drew his hands up, so that they cupped her breasts from behind. "I thought
you'd never ask…."
They dimly heard the dinner gong bonging soon after, but not even Cook's fabled
cold buffet was enough to tempt them from the banquet of sensual delights on
which they feasted. "I want to tell you how Aimee died," he told her much, much
later when she lay warm and loose in his arms, filled with the lazy afterglow of
their lovemaking. "And why I consider myself responsible."
"It's time," she agreed softly as he sat up.
While she wound the sheet around herself, he pulled on his trousers, then rose
to light a cheroot. The sharp odor of sulphur filled the room as he struck a
Swan Vesta to do so.
"I should have asked you point blank weeks ago, instead of jumping to such silly
conclusions."
"No, I'm to blame as much as you. I thought I could simply forget about it, but
I was wrong. I wonder. Where should I begin?
"I suppose it really began after Mary was born," he decided after several
moments of smoking in silence. "The physician who had attended my daughter's
birth asked to meet with me in private after he had examined Aimee. That day, he
told me that very rarely, women go into a marked mental and emotional decline
following the births of their children," he explained. "In his opinion, Aimee
was one of those women.
"In the days, then weeks following Mary's birth, Aimee's moods were very odd,
you see. She could be elated one moment, cast into the sloughs of despair the
next. It quickly became apparent that she was quite incapable of caring for our
little daughter. And so I engaged Kalinda as the baby's ayah and wet-nurse. The
physician recommended that Aimee have no more children. Her labor had been a
long, grueling one, and her mental state afterward had proven precarious, to say
the least. The doctor told me that mothers in Aimee's condition sometimes tried
to harm themselves or their infant children before they recovered. Others never
got well, but ended up living out their days in asylums.
"I loved my wife, Victoria. I couldn't bear to think of her being shut away for
the rest of her life. And so I explained what the doctor had said, and told her
that, for her own good, because I loved her, we must discontinue marital
relations."
"That poor, poor woman," Victoria murmured. "How rejected she must have felt."
She bit her lower lip. "And how awful for you, too, my love."
He nodded. "I won't deny it. It was torture. Aimee was a beautiful woman. I
desired her, and yet I was prepared to forgo all intimacy if it meant she would
be well again. Aimee and the little daughter she'd given me were my entire life,
until…"
He broke off, seeming unable to go on. She stroked his cheek, where bruises
showed as livid shadows beneath the tanned skin.
"Until what? What happened to change everything? Don't stop now. Tell me!"
He sighed heavily and tossed his cheroot into the fire behind the bedroom grate.
"Until I learned Aimee had a lover. The man served as adjutant to my regiment's
commanding officer. Tristram Blake, his name was. She claimed she took tea with
the colonel's wife, Miriam, several afternoons a week, and that Blake was merely
her escort. But when it became obvious that she was with child— a child that
could not have been mine— I knew my suspicions were correct. I confronted her,
and she admitted it. She said that Blake had abandoned her when she told him
about the baby.
"I offered to stand by her until after the baby was born, then I would resign my
commission and return to England with little Mary, alone. My brother, John, had
been killed in the first year of the Crimean, you see, and my father had quickly
followed him to the grave. As the new Earl of Blackstone, I was needed to run
things here in England.
"Well, in due course, Aimee gave birth to a healthy son— a child that, like our
daughter, she took little interest in. She either lay abed in her darkened
rooms, weeping, or rose to scream at our terrified servants and fill the
bungalow with peals of hysterical laughter.
"When Baby Johnny was six weeks old, I told Aimee I had arranged passage for her
and the infant on a ship bound for England. I suggested she return to her
father's household while I filed for the divorce. She refused. She said she
would never return to England. That the shame of a divorce would be too much to
endure.
"I told her she was just being hysterical. To pull herself together. When I left
her a little later that evening, she still seemed upset, but composed. Resigned—
or so I thought. As I went out, I heard her telling Kalinda to bring the baby's
bassinet into her room. I remember feeling encouraged that she was finally
showing an interest in her baby." He shook his head. "Then I retired to my study
to attend to some paperwork.
"Two hours later, I heard screaming. I ran toward the sound, and found Kalinda
and Mary on the veranda outside Aimee's rooms. Smoke was billowing from the
windows. Kalinda was screaming that a fallen lamp had ignited the hangings. The
draperies had caught instantly. The bed linens, too. Within seconds, my wife's
rooms were engulfed. I carried Mary outside into the garden, as far from the
burning bungalow as I could get. After ordering Kalinda to stay with her, I went
back inside for my wife."
"And Aimee?" Victoria whispered.
Steede closed his eyes, as if to shut out the awful images he saw even now.
"Aimee… Aimee was standing in her room, encircled by a wall of fire. She held
the baby in her arms and…"
"Tell me, whatever it is. There will be no more secrets between us!" she urged,
squeezing his hand.
"She was laughing." He shuddered. "Oh, God. Her nightgown was smoldering. Her
beautiful gold hair was frizzling up, and yet— she was laughing. The baby— that
poor little mite— was screaming and coughing. And then— and then he wasn't
coughing anymore. He was still. Not making a sound.
"While all of this was happening, I was going half out of my mind trying to get
to them. The buckets of water the servants threw on the fire were useless. Each
time, the heat drove me back, hotter than a furnace! My eyebrows were singed, my
hair burned. In desperation, I soaked a blanket in water, threw it over myself
and forced my way through the flames to get to them. Even so, I was too late."
He stated it simply, but oh, the horror in his voice, in his expression,
Victoria thought, deeply moved. And what self-condemnation, too.
"The smoke had overwhelmed them," he went on. "Aimee and the baby were both
dead, and Mary"— he shuddered—"Mary wouldn't stop screaming. Some nights, I
still hear her in my head."
But she had never spoken since that night, Victoria thought with a shudder.
"These past three years, you held yourself responsible. But why? It was not your
fault— none of it was."
"That's not so. I was responsible— don't you see? If I hadn't threatened to
divorce her—"
"Nonsense! Aimee was the one who chose to be unfaithful, not you. She gave you
precious little choice in the matter, as I see it. And you were far kinder than
she had any right to expect. You denied yourself a husband's rights solely
because you loved her and wanted to protect her. And even after she had proven
herself unfaithful, and borne another man's child, you allowed her to remain in
your household until she had been safely delivered. The fire was a tragic
accident. You have nothing whatsoever to reproach yourself for."
"Then you'll come home with me in the morning? Home to Mother, and Mary?"
She smiled, and it was a wonderful sight! As dazzling as the sun coming out, he
thought, remembering a time when he had wondered how it would feel to have her
smile at him that way.
Now he knew…
"Yes, my love. We'll both go home."
Chapter Twenty-five
Sam, the Blackstone under-groom, was waiting at the station for them with the
carriage when the train pulled into Blackstone at dusk of the following day,
carrying Victoria, Steede, Harry and Lily.
"How's everything, Sam?" Steede asked as Harry and Sam together wrestled their
luggage up onto the carriage.
"Fair enough, sir," Sam responded with unusual curtness. He inspected the toes
of his boots, refusing to meet Steede's eyes.
"Sam has a wasp up his breeches, wouldn't you say?" Steede murmured in
Victoria's ear as he handed her up into the carriage.
"A wasp up his breeches? You really did spend a lot of time with my father,
didn't you?" she said, laughing. "You're even starting to sound like him!"
"God forbid!" Steede shuddered, leaping in after her.
"Oh, I just can't wait to see Mary again," Victoria exclaimed as the horses
pulled away from the station.
"Nor I. When shall we tell her about the baby?"
"Soon. We must give her time to become accustomed to the idea of a baby brother
or sister."
"Do you know when…?"
"I believe you will become a father again very close to our first wedding
anniversary, m'lord." She saw his eyes darken with concern, and cupped his
battered cheek. "You mustn't worry. I spoke with Dr. Walters when I went into
Whitby yesterday. What happened to Aimee is quite rare. There is no reason to
fear that I shall be similarly afflicted."
"Thank God," he muttered, giving her a quick, hard hug.
In minutes, they were being bowled down the shingle driveway toward the twelve
chimneys of Blackstone Manor, which rose like pointing black fingers against the
fiery orange of the autumn sunset.
Yet even from a distance, it was apparent that something was very wrong. There
were men everywhere, some streaming back toward the house across the lawns,
others leaving it: gamekeepers and their lads who carried shotguns underarm;
farm workers and shepherds who tramped the fields bearing stout sticks and storm
lanterns aloft.
When Steede stuck his head out of the window, the men greeted His Lordship
respectfully with a nod, a muttered word, a touch of the forelock. Yet like Sam,
not one would meet his eyes.
"What the devil's going on here, Sam?" Steede demanded. "Stop this bloody
carriage and let me out!"
"Lady Henrietta said not t' say nothin', sir," Sam mumbled. He squirmed on his
high perch as he looked down at his furious master. "Wanted to tell you herself,
Her Ladyship did."
"Tell me what, damn it?"
"About Lady Mary, sir. She be gone! She's took her pony and run off!"
"Good God, man! When?" Steede demanded, suddenly white about the mouth.
"Yesterday afternoon, sir. Around teatime, it were. We've all been helping with
the search. I expect the telegram Lady Henrietta sent passed ye, sir."
Sweet Lord! Had he won back his wife and their unborn child, only to lose his
little daughter?
***
To Victoria, it was de’ ja‘ -vu. The scene from the Whitby jet mines, all over
again! But this time, the drawn, anxious-eyed men who milled about Blackstone
Manor carried storm lanterns and flaming torches aloft as they set out to comb
the woods, the rocky tors and treacherous high moors for a missing little girl
and her pony, rather than a maze of cold, damp tunnels that riddled the bowels
of the earth.
Victoria burrowed deeper into the folds of her long riding cloak. Although it
was trimmed with rabbit fur at both collar and arm-openings, she shivered from a
deep chill that had nothing to do with the weather.
Perhaps Mary would have been better off lost in the mines, she wondered.
Dartmoor, lorded over by High Willhayes tor to the south, and over two thousand
feet at its highest point, was a place of wild beauty. But it was also a place
of quagmires that swallowed up the unwary, man or beast, leaving nothing behind
to mark their passing.
Almost 350 square miles of empty moorland, rocky tors, woods and clear streams
burbling over stones, Dartmoor was a place where Mother Nature ruled, harsh and
indiscriminate.
She played no favorites, made no allowances for human weakness— nor for the
fragility of little children. Only the strongest and fittest survived here: the
rugged moorland ponies, the hardy sheep. The weak fell by the wayside and were
lost.
Those few hardened convicts, both American and British, who in 1815 had tried to
escape desolate Dartmoor Prison's forbidding gray walls at Prince Town— a bloody
incident later named the Dartmoor Massacre— had soon discovered there was but
one way to leave the infamous prison: in a shroud.
Those pitiful few who, down the years, had successfully evaded the prison guards
by scaling the prison's forbidding walls were likewise swallowed up by the
treacherous moors, and seen no more. They paid for their temporary freedom with
their lives.
Henrietta had come rushing out of the house to meet them the very moment the
carriage jounced to a halt.
"Oh, Steede, Mary's gone— vanished— and her pony, too! We cannot find her
anywhere! Oh, the poor, poor child…" the older woman cried, wringing her hands.
She looked gray with worry, heavy-eyed from lack of sleep.
"Calm down, Mother. You'll only make yourself ill. Trust me. We're going to find
her. Where's her nursemaid?" Steede demanded as he stepped down from the
carriage. Lifting Victoria down after him, he strode into the Manor.
"Upstairs in her room. To give the wretched woman her due, she seems almost as
distraught as I am," Henrietta said charitably.
"I'm sure she is. As would anyone who feared that their livelihood had run off
and left them. Jessup!"
"Sir?" the butler responded smartly with a halfbow.
"Have Kalinda sent to me in my study immediately."
"At once, sir."
"Come, Victoria, Mama. This way," Steede murmured. Tucking Victoria's hand
through his own, he led the way into the study.
He had seated the two women in chairs before the fire, and poured them medicinal
glasses of blackberry wine, when Jessup returned.
The butler's angular face was even more gaunt than usual, his large eyes as
mournful as a bloodhound's.
"I regret there has been a new development, m'lord," he informed them gravely.
"It appears the Lady Mary's nursemaid has also left Blackstone Manor.
Regrettably, none of the staff witnessed her departure, or knows what direction
she might have taken."
"Surely she has gone to find Mary," Lady Henrietta suggested hopefully.
"I believe that is unlikely, madam, since Miss Kalinda took all of her
possessions with her."
"That wretched woman!" Henrietta exclaimed in anguish, springing to her feet.
"How on earth shall we find Mary without her to tell us where to look! If anyone
knows where my granddaughter has vanished to, it is that dreadful woman, mark my
words!"
***
The search party's wavering amber lights, eerily glimpsed through a veil of
thick mist, reminded Victoria of the old Yorkshire belief in "corpse candles,"
the balls of glowing light seen hovering over the graves of the newly interred.
According to superstition, these wavering lights were the restless souls of
those buried beneath the mossy headstones.
The ghoulish comparison made Victoria shudder.
Closing her eyes and clasping her hands tightly before her, she offered up yet
another silent prayer that God would keep the little girl she had come to love
safe from all harm. That they would find her before the poor darling was forced
to endure another night of terror and exposure, far from those who loved her.
Blinking back a tear, she felt Steede's warm, strong hand on her own. He
squeezed it comfortingly.
"Chin up, Lady Blackstone," he murmured, his dark eyes glinting in the glow of
the storm lantern. "We're going to find our little girl. I know it."
Our little girl. She swallowed over the lump in her throat. He was right. She
could not have been more concerned about nor loved Mary more, had she given
birth to her herself.
"Yes," Victoria agreed firmly, meeting his eyes. Her fingers curled around his
and tightly squeezed. "We are."
"Mary!" Steede shouted, cupping his mouth with his hands. His deep voice was
immediately swallowed up by the mist.
"Mary!" came the faint, thin sound of another searcher's disembodied voice. It
reached them through the dense fog like the reedy echo of her husband's voice.
The caller could have been within feet of them and they would not have seen him,
the mist was so thick.
In another few moments, they would have to abandon the search until first light
the following morning. The fog, coupled with the treacherous ground underfoot,
and unseen quagmires, made further searching a perilous undertaking for all
concerned.
If, God willing, Mary had survived thus far, Victoria prayed with all her heart
that she would stay wherever she was until it was light. Willed her to stay
there.
"Dear Lord, watch over our little lost lamb," she whispered fervently. "Keep her
safe in Thy tender care, and guide her back to those who love her."
"Amen," came Steede's deep voice, equally fervent, at her side.
But for what few moments they had left, they continued to call:
"Ma— ry! Maaaa— rrr— yyy…!"
Chapter Twenty-six
When dawn broke the following morning, it found the search party huddled in
oilskins in the lee of Tamar's tor. They were soaked and exhausted, and still
had no word of either the little girl or her nursemaid.
"You men, go on back to the house," Steede ordered half of the search party as
the first lemon-yellow fingers of light streaked the charcoal sky to the east.
"I've left instructions with my housekeeper that you're to be given a good, hot
meal on your return. When you've eaten, I want you to go home and rest until
noon. Then, God willing, you'll take our places— unless my daughter has been
found in the meantime." He looked around the circle of tired faces. "Our
heartfelt thanks to all of you, for helping in the search."
As the men dispersed, Steede turned to Victoria.
"My instructions included you, my love," he murmured tenderly, his expression
concerned as he looked down into her upturned face. "Look how pale you are!
You've already done more than any woman in your condition should do. Go on back
to the house with Harry, here."
"Aye, Your Ladyship. Come along wi' me," Harry urged. "My Lily will be beside
herself, worrying about thee, she will."
"Hush," she soothed Steede, placing a finger gently against his lips. "There's
no possible way I can just go home and twiddle my thumbs with Mary still
missing. Don't ask it of me, either of you," she implored Steede and Harry in
turn. "For if you insist, I shall undertake a search of my own. And that, my
dear, could well prove a far more hazardous undertaking."
"Very well, then. But when the rested men resume the search at midday, promise
me you will go home." Steede placed his hand gently over her belly. "For our
unborn babe's sake."
"All right. For his sake, I promise."
They rode through the woods at the edge of the moors, thinking— hoping— that
perhaps Mary had strayed toward the village. The horses' hooves rustled as they
walked them through drifts of colored leaves— the same drifts of scarlet, gold
and russet in which she and Steede had once made love.
But the trees were almost bare now, and they found no little girl asleep at the
foot of their massive trunks, like the babes-in-the-woods of the fairy tale.
In the end, she and Steede rode out of the woods and back up onto the high moors
alone, leaving the others to beat the fields and the hedgerows and— horror of
horrors— to drag nearby ponds.
The too-bright autumn sunlight slanted across the turf beneath their horses'
thudding hooves, turning sere grass to antique gold.
They had been walking their mounts for a little over an hour, eyes narrowed,
scanning the moors in all directions to spot even the smallest movement, when
Victoria saw a thin column of smoke rising into the air.
"Look! Over there. What is it?" she asked.
"A shepherd's campfire, probably."
"Shouldn't we investigate?"
He nodded. "It's probably nothing, but it won't hurt to look."
They rode closer, realizing while still some distance from the fire that the
camp did not belong to a shepherd, as they'd thought, but to a band of Gypsies.
As their horses neared the circle of colorfully painted vardos, the camp dogs
came out to bark and snap at their mounts' heels. Several dark-haired women and
children stood and stared as they rode closer.
Motioning Victoria to stay back, Steede rode closer. "Good day to you!" he
called. "May I speak with your head man?"
"You are speaking with him, gorgio. Carlos Lee," a swarthy, stocky man declared.
Thumbs tucked into a wide leather belt, he had swaggered out from behind one of
the painted caravans. "What does a fine gorgio rey want with my Gypsies, eh?"
"My little daughter ran away from home two days ago. She is just eight years of
age, and has spent the past two nights out in the open, alone. I hope and pray
she has survived this long, but another night—?" His expression was grave. "Has
any of your band seen a small girl riding a black pony?"
"We have seen nothing. There are only Gypsy girls and Gypsy ponies in this camp,
gorgio. Ride on!"
"Very well. How about a woman?"
Carlos's bushy black brows lifted. "You seek a whore, then find yourself a
gorgio whore! Insult our women again and my brothers and cousins, they will slit
your throat, eh?" He spat in the dirt, turned on a booted heel and walked away
"Wait! I didn't mean that, Lee. The woman I'm looking for is my daughter's
nursemaid. An Indian woman. She may know where Mary has gone."
"Gypsies do not kidnap little children, nor nursemaids," Lee sneered. "This is a
dirty lie told by gorgio mothers to frighten their children. I told you. We have
not seen the child or the woman."
Steede nodded. "If you should find her on your travels, I'm offering a handsome
reward for her safe return."
Lee smiled. "I shall keep that in mind, gorgio. Now, be off with you!"
Steede rode back to where he'd left Victoria.
"Nothing?" she asked. He looked so gray with worry, so very drawn, she ached to
take him in her arms and comfort him.
"He said they haven't seen Mary or Kalinda. I don't know whether to believe him
or not," Steede said softly. "I'll have a constable question him later. Maybe he
can persuade him to talk. Let's go!"
It was as they were riding away that Victoria thought she heard someone call her
name. A low call, little more than a whisper.
The hackles rose on the back of her neck as she reined Calypso in, for the
sudden sensation of being watched was very strong indeed.
Shading her eyes against the bright light as Steede rode on, Victoria slowly
turned in the saddle, scanning the rolling moors that swept away in all
directions.
Her view was unbroken except for Steede and his mount, who were now several
hundred yards to the west, and the colorfully painted and gilded Gypsy wagons,
which formed a circle among the outcropping of black rocks and trees at the foot
of the tor.
She caught the smell of woodsmoke and roasted rabbit on the wind.
Cocking her head to one side, she sat very still, listening intently.
There! That faint cry again! It sounded like someone calling her name. More than
likely, it was only wishful thinking, coupled with an overactive imagination. Or
perhaps the low moan of the wind, or the shriek of a hunting hawk as it rode the
air currents, high above the moors.
"Here!" came the low cry again. " 'Toria!"
Gooseflesh prickling down her neck, Victoria spun like a top in the direction of
that low, feeble sound, her senses alert.
Over there! The call had come from the east, from a smart black vardo painted
with scrolling leaves and vines. The wagon was set a little apart from the
others, and was the only one with a horse still harnessed in the traces. The
other animals had been turned loose to graze.
Near the vardo grew low, gnarled thorn bushes. Slabs of black rock were
scattered about like fallen dominoes. Rocks that were too small, surely, to hide
even a child from view?
Had the sound come from the wagon itself, then?
Turning Calypso's head, she rode the mare slowly back toward the Gypsy camp and
the black wagon, afraid to hope in case disappointment proved too crushing to
bear.
" 'Toria!" the voice croaked again.
The single word, forced from a voice grown rusty with disuse, had come from the
door at the rear of the vardo!
Goosebumps prickled down her arms. The hair on the back of her neck stood on
end. The heart leaped in Victoria's breast as tears of joy sprang into her eyes.
A sob burst from her as, sliding down from Calypso's back, she hurried toward
the wagon.
Her steps quickened, going from hesitant and stumbling to a giddy, frantic rush.
"Mary? Mary!"
"Here, 'Toria! I'm here!"
"Oh, dear God! It is you, darling. Steede, over here! I've found her! Mary,
darling, I'm coming!" Victoria screamed, wild with joy.
A half dozen steps, and she could see the little girl, crouched in the open
doorway of the wagon. Her cloak was torn and dirty, her face deathly pale, but
she was alive.
Gathering Mary into her arms, Victoria hugged her, rocking her back and forth
and kissing the little girl as tears slipped down her cheeks.
"Oh, Mary! Oh, darling girl, we thought we'd lost you."
Mary's arms wrapped about her throat. Her icy little fingers clung to Victoria,
gripped tightly, as if afraid they would lose her again. A chilly cheek pressed
against Victoria's own.
"I love you, 'Toria. Truly I do. Please don't go away again. I'll be good. I
promise. I'll be so, so very good! Cross my heart and hope to d-d-die!"
Victoria pulled back to look at her stepdaughter. Tendrils of hair were
plastered to Mary's cheeks. Her heart-shaped face was bluish with cold and
anxiety. Dirt and tears made furrows that dripped off her chin.
Love welled up and overflowed her heart.
"Oh, darling girl, don't! I didn't leave Blackstone because of anything you did,
truly I didn't!" Victoria murmured as she bundled the child into her own cloak.
"My papa was lost, just like you were, and I wanted so badly to find him. Didn't
Kalinda tell you I was coming back?"
"I tell her nothing, memsahib."
Victoria's head jerked up, to look at the speaker.
Kalinda stood in the doorway of the wagon. She had discarded her Eastern sari
and wore the colorful garb of the Gypsy women. Her straight black hair fell
almost to her hips.
"It is because I am afraid, yes? If my bright jewel has you, memsahib, she no
longer needs Kalinda. This is what I am thinking."
"Steede was right. You made my horse throw me, didn't you?"
The black eyes grew sly. "I had no choice. I had to be rid of you!" She shook
her head. "But when my jewel ran away to find you, I know it is over. Sahib
Warring will send this useless ayah back to India. The Gypsies, they are
outcasts, like me. I knew they would take me in and so I came to join them— and
found the Lady Mary, also."
"What were they going to do with her?"
"Wait a day or so, then tell Lord Blackstone they had found her on their
travels. By then, he would have been eager to pay much gold, yes?" Her dark eyes
gleamed.
"They will be angry when they discover she's gone."
"Very angry," Kalinda agreed. "So, you must take her and go, before they see
you. Aiee, already they are breaking camp! Hurry, before it is too late!"
Kalinda was telling the truth, Victoria realized. All around her, the Gypsies
were breaking camp. Gypsy menfolk were coaxing their horses into the shafts of
their wagons. Gypsy women were folding satin quilts and pillows and stowing them
inside their vardos. The cooking fire had been hastily covered over with earth.
Already, the first of the heavy caravans was rumbling down the hill, toward the
London turnpike.
A tangible sense of urgency, of haste, rode the chill wind.
"Thank you," Victoria murmured, lifting Mary into her arms.
Quickly, she hurried to her horse and lifted the child up onto Calypso's back.
"Hold tight."
Hitching up her skirts, she scrambled up behind her. Clicking her teeth, she
urged Calypso away from the camp at a brisk trot.
"Kalinda told me a fib." Mary broke off, her little face filled with uncertainty
now. "She said you went away because of me. That you were never coming back
because I was a naughty girl."
"Kalinda was wrong to tell you that," Victoria said firmly, "because it wasn't
true. None of it. My going away had nothing to do with anything you did.
Remember what I told you, darling?"
"That when you love someone, nothing they do will make you stop loving them?"
Mary said.
"That's right." She caressed the little girl's damp head. "Well, I love you,
Mary. And I'll never stop. So, if you'll let me, I'd like so much to be your
friend." And someday, God willing, your mama, Victoria added silently.
Mary's radiant smile, her eager, vigorous nod were answer enough.
"I didn't burn the picture of your mama, 'Toria. Kalinda wanted me to, but I
wouldn't do it. I've got it right here. Inside my bodice." She giggled, and some
of the color returned to her face. "It tickles."
"You can give it back to me later, darling. Steede!" Victoria shouted when they
were within hailing distance. "It's Mary! I've found her!"
"What?" Steede bellowed as he cantered Mercury toward them. The huge gray
stallion's hooves gobbled up the hard ground as it closed the distance between
them. "Dear God, Mary!"
Before the horse had fully halted, Steede sprang down from its back and quickly
crossed the few steps to their side.
Hauling Mary into his arms, he glowered at her, tears standing in his eyes. A
nerve ticked uncontrollably in his jaw, betraying his inner turmoil.
"Mary Henrietta Warring, run off again and I shall find you and strap your
bottom until you can't sit down for a week! Do I make myself clear, young lady?"
he growled, his fear becoming anger now that she was safe.
When Mary bit her lip and nodded, her gray eyes swimming with tears, his arms
went around her.
"Oh, kitten! Oh, my poppet, thank God, you're safe!" He held her so tightly Mary
began squirming to get free. "Oh, thank God!"
"Papa, stop!" Mary gasped. "I cannot breathe!"
Steede drew back, his dark eyes widening in disbelief. He looked over at
Victoria, who was laughing and nodding, then back at Mary before him. His
expression was incredulous.
"She spoke! Mary's talking!" he whispered, unable to believe his own ears. "My
little girl is speaking again!"
"I know. Isn't it wonderful?"
"I— I'm very sorry, Papa," Mary whispered tremulously, fat tears rolling down
her cheeks onto her father's riding jacket. Her lower lip wobbled. "Please
d-don't hate me! And please don't send me away to b-boarding school! I couldn't
bear it! I never wanted baby Johnny to die, truly I didn't! I just wished and
wished he'd be gone, so I didn't have to share you or Kalinda with him."
More huge tears rolled down her cheeks and dripped off her chin.
"… I 'member, Mama was so cross that night. She threw the lamp, Papa. I saw her!
She was screaming at Kalinda about… about you. Then the f-fire gobbled up the
curtains, and I— and I—! Oh, Papa, Papa, I was so frightened, until you saved
me!"
Tears streamed from Steede's eyes as, still bundled in Victoria's cloak, Mary
wrapped her arms about his neck and clung to him. Sobs wracked her little body.
"Listen to me," he said sternly, holding her away from him so that he could look
her in her eye. "What happened to your mama and Johnny wasn't your fault. None
of it! Wishing your baby brother would go away had nothing to do with any of
it."
"Truly?" Mary whispered brokenly.
"Truly," her father told her in a firm voice that brooked no argument. "Wishing
something doesn't make it so. And as for you leaving Blackstone, my girl—" He
shook his head. "I could never let you leave me, not until you're a big,
grown-up girl." He hugged her. "We love you, Mary. Victoria and I would miss you
far too much if you went away. Wouldn't we, Victoria?"
"Terribly!" Victoria agreed.
"You see? Now let's go home and tell Grandmama that you're safe and sound, shall
we, darling?" he said softly, cradling her against his chest as he carried her
to where the two horses cropped the coarse turf. "We'll talk about it there,
poppet. I promise."
"And Victoria, too? Please, Papa?" Mary implored him, noisily sniffing back her
tears.
Steede's laughing sable eyes met Victoria's over Mary's red-gold head. They were
filled with tenderness and love for the two females in his life.
"And Victoria, too," he promised softly. "Victoria, always and forever."
Over their daughter's head, their eyes met and held.
Chapter Twenty-seven
"I must admit, I find myself quite overset by the daunting prospect of the
wedding," Delia confessed, admiring the magnificent train with something akin to
awe.
Ivory Brussels lace flowed from a band of silk orange blossoms at her hairline,
down her back, then swept another twenty feet across the Aubusson carpet, ending
in a stunning scalloped curve.
"I can't imagine what I would have done without any of you. Dear Victoria, and
you, Lady Henrietta, and you especially, of course, Your Grace. My own mama, God
rest her soul, could not have done more for me." Happy tears glinted in Delia's
eyes.
"Nonsense, dear gel," Catherine, the Duchess of Lincoln, declared, inspecting
her future sister-in-law through the lenses of her lorgnette.
The seamstress was arranging the drape of the bridal train, and the duchess
watched with eagle eyes to ensure it was done precisely to her liking. "After
all, you're soon going to be a part of our family, and families stick together.
Isn't that right, Rettie?"
"It certainly is, Birdie, dear," Henrietta declared, laughing. "Blood is thicker
than water, or so they say. Though I do believe that friendship is as close as
many blood ties."
Victoria smiled as the pair exchanged fond glances. Even now, she had little
difficulty imagining the older women as debutantes in their white gowns, making
their coming-out curtsies before Her Majesty. They had become as noisy and
giggly as a pair of schoolgirls again, since their reunion at Blackstone Manor
last Christmas.
Only the loss of Delia's invalid father on Christmas Eve had lent a sad note to
the otherwise joyous season, she reflected.
In the days following the funeral, Delia and Roger had sensibly agreed to
postpone the March wedding they'd planned until mid-June. A six-month period of
deep mourning, rather than the customary twelve months, would be sufficient to
demonstrate Delia's sorrow and loss to the world at large. The good Lord knew,
she had never failed her ailing father in private.
In poor health for several years, Chillingsworth had suffered terribly the last
few months. In many ways, his passing had come as a blessed release, both for
himself and for Delia.
Always a dutiful, loving daughter, it was time now for her to embark on her own
life, to marry the man she loved, and have children of her own.
And so, as she had promised the day she and Delia rode their horses on the beach
that fringed Whitby Bay, Victoria had written to the duchess, enlisting her Aunt
Catherine's help with the wedding arrangements.
When Catherine's letter had arrived at Blackstone Manor, expressing her delight
at being asked to help, Lady Henrietta had sighed wistfully and observed how
fortunate her old friend Birdie was, to have been blessed by "three daughters, a
niece and a sister-in-law to fuss over."
It came as no surprise, therefore, when Henrietta had jumped at Victoria's
invitation to be a part of it all, and fortunate for Victoria that she had.
To be honest, she was often tired of late, a condition she blamed on her
increasing girth and weight as her pregnancy advanced. Her belly was quite
enormous, as round and hard as a large cannonball beneath her pleated blouses—
or so Steede had whispered fondly that morning, just before he and her father,
Ian Walters, Harry and Uncle Lovey left with the dogs for a day's shooting.
Consequently, she gratefully accepted any and all assistance that was offered
nowadays, for she quickly grew tired. Indeed, it seemed her days were taken up
by numerous catnaps, eating, or making countless visits to the water closet. Her
days of tramping about the countryside in the snow, or watching Mary and Steede
as they sledded down a snowy tor, were long past.
As her pregnancy advanced, she was drawing into herself, becoming preoccupied,
consumed by thoughts of the child that curled beneath her heart, waiting to be
born.
She arched her back, kneading a small achy knot at the base of her spine.
"Whooah," she sighed.
"Shall I fetch you another pillow, Mama?" Mary asked, eyeing her anxiously.
Victoria smiled, as she always did when Mary called her Mama. It warmed her
heart so to hear it.
She had not dared to hope the little girl would ever think of her as her mother.
In fact, she would have been content to be considered her friend. Yet the bond
between them had grown effortlessly, until it was as close as that of true
mother and daughter.
"No, thank you, darling. It's very thoughtful of you to ask, but I'm quite all
right. Just a silly old twinge in my back that won't go away. Has Mrs. Marsden
finished with your fitting?" Mary was going to be one of Delia's bridesmaids.
"Yes, Mama."
"Then come cuddle up next to me."
Flashing a smile, Mary scrambled up next to her stepmother, squeezing herself
into the narrow space beside her on the chaise.
"There! As snug as two bugs in a rug," Victoria declared, dropping a kiss on
Mary's red-gold head.
Catherine's head suddenly turned toward her. She reminded Victoria of a stork as
she used her lorgnette to peer at her.
"Did I hear you correctly, my dear? Did you say you have a backache, Victoria?"
"Yes, Aunt. I did. But it's nothing. Really."
"On the contrary. A backache was my first indication I was about to deliver your
cousin Imogene."
"And mine that John was on his way into the world," Henrietta declared, her
concerned expression mirroring Birdie's.
Both women now stared at Victoria who, snug beneath several carriage rugs,
lounged with her feet up on a wicker chaise longue before the fire, where she
could observe the fitting of Delia's wedding gown in comfort. The chaise and the
rugs had been her aunt's choice, not her own, for the older women delighted in
pampering her. But for once, Victoria was enjoying the lazy life.
The seamstress who was sewing Delia's trousseau was not, for understandable
reasons, the Widow Johns, who had been commissioned to sew Victoria's wedding
gown. Victoria's gown— and it was truly breathtaking, covered in tiny seed
pearls and rich lace— still hung under a layer of protective dust sheets in her
dressing room. It would be several months— if she was ever fortunate enough to
recover her figure after her child's birth— before she could wriggle her way
into its slim bodice, even had she wanted to.
She sighed. Sometimes she felt the tiniest twinge of regret that she had never
worn it. That instead, she'd been married under duress in a plain muslin blouse
and a muddy skirt in a horrid blacksmith's forge at Gretna, and by so doing, had
missed the glorious wedding gown, the flowers and wedding breakfast Aunt
Catherine had planned for her.
Ah, yes, it was a very small twinge, but a twinge nonetheless. What an
ungrateful wretch she was! After all, she had so many other blessings to be
thankful for. She and Steede had never been happier. She had a wonderful, loving
husband, a little daughter who adored her and who was now quite the chatterbox,
and a mother-in-law who was an angel. Even the pony Sooty had been recovered
from the tinker the Gypsies had sold him to! What more could she ask for?
Happiness. That was truly all that mattered.
"Victoria? Victoria, dear?"
"Yes, Aunt?"
"I said, are you certain there's another month till your lying-in, dear?"
Catherine inquired, obviously not for the first time.
"Is it possible you miscalculated?" Henrietta asked.
"No!" she shot back crossly, yet in all honesty, she probably had.
She'd forgotten all about her monthly courses following her marriage, and could
not have said with any accuracy when her last monthly might have been if her
life depended upon it!
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you, Aunt. It's just— oh, I don't know!
It's as if it will never end! I can't wait to see my baby, to hold him— or her—
in my arms, and yet—! There's a part of me that's afraid. What if I'm not a good
mother?"
"What you're feeling is what we all feel in those last weeks as we wait for our
children to be born, dear gel," Catherine assured her. "Restlessness.
Impatience. Self-doubt. Believe me, you'll be a wonderful mother."
"You're already a wonderful mama," Mary whispered, looking older and wiser than
her years as she squeezed Victoria's hand.
"Thank you, darling. That's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me."
"You're welcome. Are we really going home tomorrow?" the little girl asked.
"Oh, yes, indeed. We shall catch the train in the morning. Are you so anxious to
go home, then? I thought you loved it here?"
"Oh, I do. Grandfather Hawthorne is such fun! I love to go riding with him. But…
I do miss Sooty."
"You'll see him again very soon. I promise," Victoria murmured.
"Victoria, dear. I don't think it's a good idea for you to travel just yet.
Particularly if you're having backaches," Catherine said. "Please, postpone your
departure for a day or two. What can it hurt?"
"I agree with Birdie, Victoria. You shouldn't be traveling at all in your
condition— and certainly not this close to your confinement. I don't know what
Steede can have been thinking of, to allow it."
"But I've been having pangs off and on for several weeks now. And not once have
they come to anything! Besides, both Dr. Riggsby at home and Dr. Walters here
say it's perfectly normal. Besides, I had to be here. I wouldn't have missed
Del's fittings for the world."
She smiled up at Delia, whose radiant smile had dimmed to a doubtful frown now.
"Lady Blackstone is right. You shouldn't have come, not if it's dangerous."
"Mere pangs are not the same as backache, child," Catherine said sternly.
"Backache is of far greater consequence."
Victoria sighed. "Oh, all right. If it will put your minds at ease, I'll wait
two days for the pains to subside again. Mary, what do you say? Could you bear
to stay here another two days?"
"Well… will you read to me?"
"We'll all read to you," Delia promised.
"Very well, then, I'll stay," Mary said eagerly. "Are you sure you're all right,
my dear?" Steede asked as the steam train rattled along the iron rails two
mornings later, traveling south toward London through rolling green countryside.
Patchwork fields of brown and yellow and tender green swept away on either side
of the embankment; farms and houses, small towns and country villages were
dotted about like children's toys.
"Of course I am," Victoria insisted brightly.
It was a lie if ever she had told one, though earlier, when they had made their
goodbyes to Father and Delia and Aunt Catherine, it had not been. She had felt
brighter and more energetic than she had in days. It felt as if the baby had
shifted somewhat, and was no longer pressing on her waterworks.
But her sense of well-being had lasted only for the first hour of their journey
to London, where they would have to change trains for Devonshire.
She had accompanied Steede and the others to the dining room, but the motion of
the carriage as it rode the rails had left her as queasy as she'd been in the
early months. She'd managed to eat only a mouthful of dry toast and a sip of
weak tea before she returned to their first-class compartment. Soon after, the
backache had returned in force.
She tried to enjoy the view through the window, and when that didn't work,
engaged Mary in a rousing game of I-Spy-With-My-Little-Eye or I-Packed-My-Trunk.
"My turn!" Mary crowed. "I packed my trunk, and in it I put an elephant, an egg
and a— and a—"
"Envelope," Steede suggested, whispering in her ear.
"Don't, Papa. I can do it. An— eel!"
"Jolly good!" he praised her. "Your turn, darling."
Victoria gritted her teeth and nodded. "All right. I packed my trunk and in it I
put an— an elephant, an egg, an eel and a— oh, baby!"
"Baby begins with 'B', Mama," Mary scolded. "Try another word."
Steede shot an intent look at Victoria. "I don't think your mama's playing the
game, poppet." He took Victoria's hand in his. "Is the baby coming?"
"I— I think so. Yes!" Her face was white. She put her hands on her stomach,
features scrunching up in discomfort as it gave a visible surge beneath the
demure pleats of her blouse, rising to a point. Seconds later, it relaxed again.
"Oh. It's stopped. There. That's better." She shot Mary a game smile. "My word
was elbow. Your turn again."
"Can you hold on? We'll be pulling into King's Cross in a few minutes," Steede
asked. If anything, he looked more frightened than she did. "I'll get a cab
immediately. We can have you tucked in bed at the townhouse in a matter of
minutes, while Harry fetches a doctor from Harley Street."
"I'll try to hold on. I promise."
"Come along, Mary. Let's go out into the corridor," Henrietta urged her
granddaughter.
As Steede had promised, the train chuffed into King's Cross Station only moments
later.
Travelers, guards and porters were milling about, blowing whistles or wheeling
stacks of luggage as Harry leaped from the still-moving train and flagged down a
pair of horse-drawn cabs, one for Her Ladyship, another to take himself to
Harley Street.
"Can you walk?" Steede asked, cupping her under the elbows.
"Yes, I think so." She sounded surprised. "It— it hurts less standing up."
He went ahead of her down the single step to the platform. Lily hovered behind
her. When she reached the doorway, he lifted her under the arms and gently set
her down on the platform. But he did not release her immediately.
"I love you. You know that? More than anything."
"I know. I love you, too. I always will. And you don't have to worry about me."
She cupped his cheek. "I'll be fine."
"Victoria, what I said, about offering for your hand because I needed a mother
for Mary—"
"Let me guess. It was lust, too."
He grinned. "How did you know?"
She giggled. "Because it was lust for me, too, at first."
"It was?" His brows shot up. He looked interested. "Really?"
She looked down at her swollen belly and gave a wry little shrug. "That's why
I'm here, looking like this, wouldn't you say?"
He shook his head and laughed. God, she was lovely. And his. All his. "Kiss me,
Lady Blackstone."
"Here, m'lord? With half of London watching us?"
"Why the devil not? After all, we're no strangers to scandal are we, my love?
Now come here, you."
As his mouth crushed down over hers, she closed her eyes and kissed him back,
suddenly breaking the kiss with a startled, "Oh!"
"What is it?" he cried. "Did I hurt you?"
"No! The waters have broken." She managed to grind out the words between pains.
"Steede, the baby's coming! Imagine— imagine those— those wagging t-tongues if
our child is b-born here at the railway station!"
As another labor pain engulfed her, he swept her up into his arms and into the
waiting cab.
As he lifted her inside, he growled, "Let 'em wag!" "Roger, dear. A telegram has
come for you from Lady Warring," Delia said anxiously, taking the small white
envelope from the silver tray Carter was holding.
"Good Lord, what now!" Roger Hawthorne exclaimed, springing to his feet.
Taking the envelope from his betrothed, he slit it open with a letter opener and
withdrew the single sheet of paper within.
His worried frown quickly became a broad smile. "Well, I'll be damned! That's
right champion! Look here. It says I'm a grandfather, Del! Eeh, lass, this makes
you a grandmother, come June!"
"Give it here, you horrid man. I don't believe you," Delia protested, snatching
the paper out of his hands.
But, it was true:
"On May 15 at their London townhouse," she read aloud, "Steede and Victoria were
safely delivered of a precious son, Jonathan Michael, a brother for Mary. Stop.
Mother radiant, son robust, new papa proud but exhausted! Stop. Congratulations,
Grandfather! Stop."
Roger Hawthorne gave a whoop of delight. Giving Delia a roguish nudge with his
elbow as he headed for the liquor cabinet, he asked cheekily, "Now then. Would
ye care for summat to wet the babby's head, Grandmama?"