Indulge Me

by

Joanne Rock


Chapter One


Madison Blair fended off a shiver as she stared down at the still aquamarine water of the resort's penthouse pool. Sure, the Hearthside Inn kept the Olympic-size swimming facility a comfortable 86 degrees, but that didn't prevent Madison's moment of trepidation.

She didn't want to just swim, after all. Nope. A well-known international travel writer, she wanted to follow her hidden sensualist's instincts for once and skinny-dip the way women in Cancun or the French Riviera did. The way people at exotic resorts all over the globe did when they weren't bogged down by reticence and caring what other people thought the way Madison always had.

Maybe she could do it if she didn't totally skinny dip. She could just take a lap topless and let the water caress her skin. It was three a.m. The chances of her being discovered by a fellow insomniac were probably pretty small.

Just dive in! the voice inside her head shouted. When had she ever simply plunged headfirst into any adventure, big or small? She had booked this week at the Hearthside in order to indulge herself for a change. To take a few risks and experience the kinds of exciting activities she normally only wrote about. And after a day in the wintry wonderland of the Adirondack Mountains, Madison was very ready for the heated pool.

She had a mere week before she needed to be back at her office in Manhattan. One week to see if she could live for herself instead of everyone else in her life. Dipping one toe into the warm water, Madison reminded herself that she'd already ditched her no-commitment boyfriend and the dead-end relationship she'd been hanging on to for two years. Surely that proved she was ready for some serious change.

And she'd already booked an appointment at the inn's famous spa and salon tomorrow for some blond highlights to her medium-brown hair and just about any other beauty procedure they could dream up for her. She was evolving into someone who could skinny-dip, damn it.

Lowering her fluffy white beach towel with the Hearthside's elegant monogram on the corner, Madison bared her two-piece bathing suit to the empty penthouse pool room and reached for the clasp of her halter top.

While she was evolving into that fearless skinny-dipping female, she would settle for a topless lap. Bathing suit bottom firmly in place.

A woman had to start somewhere.

Allowing the purple Lycra top to slither to the concrete, Madison smiled at the rush of power she felt over being half-naked and perched on the edge of the pool. I am woman. Hear me roar.

Springing off her toes and into the water, Madison plunged into the pool and straight to the bottom. Warm enough not to shock her body yet cool enough to feel refreshing, the temperature was perfect. She stayed underwater and cut through the wavy walls of blue with her arms, her hair floating all around her like a mermaid's mane.

She smiled at the seductive sensation of water gliding over her naked breasts. How easy men had it to swim without the constant tug of elastic at their shoulders. This delicious freedom was what self-indulgence was all about.

Infused with a renewed commitment to her week of unrepentant decadence, Madison reached the other end of the pool and propelled herself to the surface. Shooting through the liquid ceiling, she breathed deep to fill her lungs.

And nearly sprang right out of her bikini bottoms.

Her eyes locked on a pair of men's black wing tips. Goose bumps that had nothing to do with the temperature prickled her skin.

Frozen, Madison lifted her gaze from the leather shoe tassels to take in gray flannel trousers. And — gulp — a very sexy crisp white shirt opened at the neck to reveal a hint of muscular chest. A yellow-and-blue-striped silk tie looped around his collar, unknotted.

A fantastically gorgeous man grinned down at her — every inch of her — with a wicked gleam in his hazel eyes. "Little late for a swim, isn't it?"

 

Chapter Two


Nathan Abrams jammed his hands in his pockets to keep from reaching out to the nude nymph treading water below.

In his quest to find a little solitude around the close-knit Lake Placid community, Nathan often frequented his favorite places at odd hours. Once, he'd stumbled across an arthritic old man massaging his knee in the Hearthside pool at three a.m., and then there'd been the time he'd run into a janitor enjoying a swim after his late shift.

But not once in two years of nocturnal visits to the penthouse swim facility had the investments broker-turned-Adirondack rafting guide encountered a naked woman.

A naked woman who was sexy as hell with perfectly shaped pink nipples.

Obviously, he was dreaming. Or maybe he was having an exquisitely real episode of wishful thinking. Either way, the vision was a very, very good thing.

The woman sank back under the water as quickly as she'd shot out of it, assuring him this couldn't possibly be wishful thinking. He definitely wasn't ready to lose sight of that glistening, lithe body just yet.

Now only her heart-shaped face remained above the surface as she pinned him with a haughty glare from her chocolate brown eyes. "The Hearthside management doesn't allow gawking at the bathers, you know."

She hardly talked like a vision. Nathan rubbed his eyes to try and recapture the steamier version of the water nymph, but she continued to glower at him while keeping those enticing breasts firmly under water.

"I'm sure they'd amend that rule if they started allowing skinny-dipping while the pool is closed. Who could blame me for gawking?" It was difficult enough not to stare at her now when she was mostly submerged. She probably didn't know it, but the water was well lit.

And quite transparent.

He'd never be able to smell chlorine again without getting turned on.

"I am not skinny-dipping," she argued, her cheeks rapidly growing pink.

Lowering himself to one knee in front of her, Nathan moved closer. He studied the depths of the water with interest. "Ah, yes. I couldn't see the purple bathing suit bottom before, but now —"

With a huff of outrage and a healthy splash kicked his way, the incensed mermaid took off underwater in the opposite direction from where he stood. And through her indignation, she effectively confirmed his growing suspicion.

She was all too real.

Chapter Three


The night grew more interesting by the moment for Nathan.

Hand pressed to the cool tile, he watched her swim away while a drop of water slid down his nose. In an effort to play the gentleman, he didn't follow his baser urge to race to the other side of the pool and see if he could catch a glimpse of her there, too. God knows his feet would have gladly sprinted had he allowed them.

But if the woman in the pool was a living and breathing woman, Nathan Abrams — despite his two-year stint as a loner in the mountains — had a good mind to ask her out. And his chances of her saying yes would certainly be decreased if he gawked any more. Or at least they would be if he was obvious about it.

He was admirably laid-back when she reached for a tiny scrap of purple fabric at the far end of the pool. He even turned around when she tugged the material underwater. No doubt she was tying on her top even now while he looked out the oversize skylight into the snowy, star-filled night and pictured her.

In detail.

Just as he was patting himself on the back for his restraint, her voice echoed through the enclosed pool area. "You know, a gentleman would have just left the room."

Well, hell. Braving a glance over one shoulder, he saw her safely out of the pool and wrapped in a fluffy hotel towel, probably well strapped into her swimsuit beneath that. She used a second towel to dry off her shoulder-length brown hair.

Growing more and more curious about his fellow night owl, Nathan rose to his feet and dared a few steps in her direction. Wasn't it high time he got over the wounds from his divorce and took a few chances on those of the feminine persuasion again? The water nymph in front of him might look every bit as beautiful as his ex-wife, but there was no way she could be as utterly self-absorbed if she was hiding her penchant for swimming naked under cover of night. Phoebe would have strut right through the lobby in her thong.

Besides, the sylph in the purple swimsuit wasn't local. If things didn't work out with his first foray into dating again, he wouldn't have to stumble over her everywhere he went in the small Lake Placid community. Not that stumbling over her so far had proven anything but tremendously...pleasurable.

He sauntered in her direction. "Maybe. But then a real gentleman would probably be choking on his own regret right about now, too." He arrived at the other end of the pool, a few feet away from her. "I'd like to think of myself as more of risk-taker than that."

She raised a censorious brown eyebrow in response, a last droplet of water dripping from her temple straight down to her cheek.

"And I imagine any woman skinny-dipping at three a.m. has learned to appreciate the allure of a few calculated risks in life." Nathan had all he could do not to lean over and halt the drop in its path with his finger. "How about taking an even bigger gamble and say you'll see me tomorrow night?"

Chapter Four


She'd come to the Adirondacks for some adventure, hadn't she? Now, she stood face-to-face with a sexy stranger dangling the chance to take a few risks.

Madison snuggled her towel a little closer to her body for two reasons. One, she needed to remind her racing pulse that yes, she was decently covered now. And two, she wanted to make darn sure she hid her body's reaction to the mouthwatering man standing just close enough to send a pleasant shiver straight through her.

But as tempting as it sounded to spend some time with the Adonis in Armani, Madison refused to relinquish her mission for this week. She came to the luxurious Hearthside Inn for some serious self-indulgence and some exceedingly rare "Madison time." She couldn't afford to allow herself to get caught up in some sexy stranger who'd stepped out of her fantasies. "I don't know if seeing each other again would be such a good idea."

He shook his head. "I'm going about this all wrong, aren't I? Let me start again. I'm Nathan Abrams."

Extending his hand to her, he waited expectantly.

Carefully transferring both ends of her towel into one fist, Madison shook Nathan's hand with her other. "Madison Blair. And I have to say I'm a bit embarrassed to meet you."

She felt the warmth build in her cheeks as the heat from his palm jumped to hers. How mortifying to meet a fantasy man while so...underdressed.

Then again, maybe if she spent more time indulging her own needs and wants instead of worrying about what the rest of the world thought, she wouldn't be a bit embarrassed. She'd be thrilled for the chance to melt right into Nathan Abram's hazel eyes.

The grin he flashed her stole her breath even as he released her fingers. "I'd be lying if I said the incident in the pool was already forgotten. But I don't think it's anything to be embarrassed about. If it makes you feel any better, I went to a beach in Rio once and every woman in sight was wearing less than you were when we met."

A well-traveled man? Now that sparked her interest even more. Her last loser boyfriend hadn't known the difference between Sydney and Singapore. Nor did he care to hear about it.

Still, she was here this week to work on a major attitude adjustment, not get involved with a sexy stranger. "I'd love to be that bold," she confided, surprised to share her most hidden secret with a man she'd never met. Odd what insomnia and the solitude of the pool room at three a.m. could do to a person. "But, actually, that's part of the reason I shouldn't see you this week. I'm having a bit of a retreat to focus on some 'me' time."

And no matter how enticing Nathan Abrams might be, Madison wouldn't be swayed from her mission.

Chapter Five


She wanted "me" time?

Nathan heard the words but found them hard to reconcile with the half-shy woman who'd raced for her halter top at the first sight of him. He knew all about self-absorbed women who needed lots of "me" time. Hell, Phoebe's whole life had been a me, me, me show from the moment he'd met her.

Surely this modest, brown-eyed mermaid in front of him wasn't the selfish creature his ex-wife had been.

Still, Nathan knew better than to press. For now.

"Never let it be said I argued with a woman on retreat." Tugging a business card from his wallet, Nathan handed it to her. "If you change your mind —"

"I can't." Her voice was firm, but her dark eyes held a flash of regret.

Or so he hoped.

"I'm going to venture out on a limb here and say that I'm willing to bet you're a woman who occasionally seeks a little adventure." Witness the skinny-dipping incident. Heaven knew he wouldn't be forgetting it any time soon. "Take the card, and then if you ever decide you're ready for another risk or two, you'll know where to reach me."

"I have to warn you, I'm a cautious risk-taker, Nathan." Still, she reached to accept his offering. "Otherwise, I would have been vacationing in Rio wearing my thong on the beach instead of hiding out in the Hearthside pool room at three a.m. for my little moment of indulgence."

He didn't dare get distracted by the thought of her in a thong or he wouldn't sleep at all tonight. He barely stood a chance now after getting an eyeful of Madison's naked breasts.

"A cautious risk-taker? Then I'll consider myself all the more flattered should you ever change your mind about me." Pressing the card into her palm for a few seconds longer than strictly necessary, Nathan felt a spark of heated connection between them, a leap of pure electricity that sizzled him from the inside out. "It's been a pleasure meeting you, Madison."

She pulled back as if she'd felt the shock as clearly as he had. Catching the fullness of her lower lip with her teeth, she looked distressed for only a moment before she tightened the towel a little more around her body and offered up a faint smile. "Good night, Nathan."

It had been a good night, damn it. Turning on his heel, he left her to her swim and wondered how he could see her again.

He had surely just been experiencing dating paranoia to think soft and sexy Madison could ever be anything like his hard-as-nails ex-wife. He would find a way to see Madison again and he didn't have any intention of waiting around for her to change her mind.

First thing tomorrow, he had every intention of tracking her down. And sooner or later, he would find a way to make her say yes. To indulge in some of that me time with him.

Chapter Six


Madison wandered around the lobby of the Hearthside Inn the next morning and tried not to think about Nathan. She had another hour before her spa appointment and she couldn't think of a single hedonistic activity to engage in before then.

Well, besides calling the number on Nathan's card and seeing if he wanted to indulge her a little. Or maybe all day.

Pulling the card from her purse for the tenth time, Madison traced a finger over the color graphic of a river raft and the bold black print. "Nathan Abrams, Adirondack Rafting Guide."

A crazy profession for a man wearing Armani at three a.m. Not that it wasn't intriguing. And Nathan had told her to call him when she was ready for adventure. Had he meant adventure of the rafting kind? Or another sort of escapade entirely?

Madison peered around the bustling lobby, half hoping she'd run into the man who'd starred in all her dreams last night. Frustrated when she saw only skiers getting ready to hit the slopes for the day, she noticed a small Sale sign outside the pro shop.

Shopping was definitely a self-indulgence.

Seized with purpose, Madison charged into the store and stopped at the first display case she spied. Sunglasses. Fine.

Convinced she was distracting herself from visions of broad shoulders in crisp white linen, Madison didn't notice the woman staring at her from the other side of the display case until a tortoiseshell pair of glasses was thrust in her face.

"Try these on, chica. They are perfect for you." The woman was boldness and attitude personified. Jewelry sparkled at her wrists and fingers. Long, dark hair contrasted with her bright orange parka and dangling parrot earrings.

Madison took the eyewear and tried on the woman's selection. Glancing into a mirror, she admired the cat-eyes shape of the frames. The lenses were rose-tinted and put a happy glow on everything in sight.

"See? They are exactly what you need." The woman smiled her satisfaction. "I am Ines Cordova, by the way. And I don't believe in shopping alone."

"Madison Blair. And I appreciate it." She had thought she'd been good about giving herself a fresh perspective this week on her indulgence retreat, but her efforts were greatly enhanced by rose-colored glasses. "Tinted lenses are a great idea."

Ines tucked a strand of dark hair behind one ear, her bracelets jangling an optimistic tune. "They'll put a little romance in your life. Just you wait and see."

The two women moved toward the next display case to peruse headbands and hats. Madison sighed, thinking about how much she'd always screwed up her love life. "I don't know about romance. I'll just be happy to treat myself to a few new experiences."

"Romance is always a new experience," Ines insisted, searching quickly through the pile of wool and acrylic to pull out a pink cashmere headband and hold it up to Madison's face. "And it's a state of mind. You romance yourself first and then you'll be ready to find romance with someone else. My best friend is getting married next week and she's living proof."

Madison had some serious doubts about Ines's approach, but she was too sensitive to the woman's feelings to argue. Trying on the headband, she fell in love with it immediately. "I never would have chosen pink. It's gorgeous."

"See what those glasses will do?" Ines winked as she picked up her own shopping bags. "I need to go find a little romance of my own this morning, but don't you forget what I told you. Taking a few chances on new experiences is a great idea. Just don't forget to keep your eye open for romance, too. "

Madison watched Ines juggle her shopping bags out the door and into the main lobby, where the woman met up with a tall bear of a man who hurried to take her packages from her.

Definitely a gentleman.

Too bad the man Madison had in mind today had made no apologies for not being more of a gentleman. But in light of her talk with Ines, Madison couldn't help but wonder if she was being close-minded not to at least explore the undeniable chemistry that had sparked between them last night.

She was here to take chances after all. Try new experiences.

And she had the feeling that Nathan Abrams was one experience that was simply too good to pass up — a better deal than even the two-for-one snowshoes on the clearance rack.

"J. D., I hope you're pulling my leg." Trudging through the snowy backwoods, Nathan studied J. D. Drollette, one of the few friends he'd made in his years in the Adirondacks and also his only customer on this afternoon's final snowshoeing trip.

J.D. was a popular radio talk show personality and local sports commentator in the Lake Placid region, but off the air, J.D. appreciated a little peace and quiet as much as Nathan did. The two had formed a friendship based on their mutual love of the North Country. And shared addictions to snowshoes in the winter, white-water rafting in the summer.

Now, they stomped through the soft white snow back to Nathan Tours headquarters in a log cabin along the Saranac River.

J.D. shook his head. "It's no joke. I'm staying at the Hearthside this week and all the staff has been talking about the New York magazine writer who's here to check out Lake Placid. One of Wanderlust's best-known columnists checked into the hotel yesterday."

Definitely not good news. At least not for Adirondackers who prized their solitude the way Nathan did.

"But that doesn't mean he's here on assignment for the magazine. Maybe he's just taking a vacation." Nathan adjusted the strap on his backpack filled with emergency equipment in case of bad weather.

"It's a she." J.D. scuffed his shoe sideways to send a spray of snow across Nathan's ski jacket. "And the Hearthside staffers say that's what a lot of travel writers do when they want to get a fair story. They don't really advertise their magazine affiliation."

"But everybody knows it anyway." It made no sense to Nathan. With any luck, J.D.'s sources were dead wrong about all this. The last thing Nathan wanted was to have his mountains turn into the next must-see destination in some chichi travel publication. The Adirondacks definitely didn't need half of Manhattan jetting in for long weekends and overpopulating the wooded serenity.

"Of course, everybody knows it anyway. The columnist is Madison Blair." J.D. unstrapped his shoes just outside the cabin. "You coming?"

Nathan blinked. Tried to shake off the unwelcome surprise. "Madison Blair?"

 

Chapter Eight


Nathan couldn't have possibly heard that correctly. He shook snow off his head as he covered the last few feet to his cabin.

For a crazy moment, he'd thought J. D. Drollette had just told him that the well-known columnist who was doing a feature piece on the Adirondacks was Madison Blair.

But surely Nathan was just daydreaming about Madison and her half-naked body too much and he'd filled in her name by mistake.

"That's right. Madison Blair. Capital M. Capital B." J.D. slugged him in the arm. "I thought you'd done some traveling yourself before you turned into a hermit up here. You've never heard of her?"

Oh, he'd heard of her all right.

Just not in association with any big-league travel magazine. And he definitely hadn't pegged her for a cosmopolitan jet-setter. Nathan had learned to give spoiled city girls a wide berth.

Hadn't he?

Climbing out of his snowshoes, Nathan tromped through a foot of fresh powder that had fallen today toward the cabin he'd built with his own two hands.

"Sorry, J.D. My travels for my investment firm usually involve hit-and-run stays in the business district of cities in the Asian markets. And I don't think I ever consulted a travel guide other than a street map." He had a hard time picturing last night's blushing mermaid as a globe-trotting pacesetter for New York's pampered elite.

Hanging both sets of shoes in the equipment shed outside the cabin, Nathan assured himself Madison really was different. Special.

There'd been undeniable chemistry last night, no matter what the woman did for a living. And if she was going to try to drag the sleepy Adirondack town into a glitzy international spotlight, he owed it to himself and all the other solitude-seekers in these mountains to convince her otherwise.

Before he could formulate a plan to locate a nocturnal mermaid before noon, the door to his offices opened from the inside and Madison appeared, as if he'd somehow willed her there.

Wearing mouthwatering ski pants and a come-and-get-me smile, she held the door wide-open for him. "You're just the man I was looking for."

Chapter Nine


Madison shivered from the cold blast of air through the open door — not to mention the heat of Nathan's assessing gaze. She had only been waiting for Nathan for a few minutes in the small lobby area of Nathan Tours, but it had been long enough to make her edgy, nervous.

After her day of total self-indulgence at the Hearthside spa, she'd felt ready to tackle the world. She'd charged over to the small log cabin that housed Nathan's business with a great sense of adventure and purpose, but in those moments of waiting, a few of her self-doubts crept back.

What if this man was more adventure than she could handle?

She watched as Nathan said goodbye to a friend he called J.D. — a tall, broad-shouldered man with a slow, deliberate step. And then, before she knew it, Nathan had parted with his companion and was turning toward her, giving her his complete, undivided attention.

It was a heady thing.

His hazel eyes missed nothing, his hot gaze making her heart kick up its pace. But other than those sharp, steady eyes, Nathan bore little resemblance to the man in perfectly creased Armani trousers from last night.

Today, he wore a blue parka and jeans with boots. As he closed the cabin door behind them and unzipped his coat, Madison spied the gray T-shirt with a navy and hunter green flannel shirt over top of it. He looked more like a lumberjack than a scion of Wall Street the way he had last night.

Curious about the man — and not quite ready to admit the purpose of her visit — Madison couldn't resist asking him about it.

"Flannel by day and Armani by night?" she prodded, hoping she wasn't being too nosy. "Sort of makes a girl wonder which is the real you."

Hanging his jacket on the wooden coat tree by the door, Nathan's hazel gaze wandered over her. Slowly.

A hungry fire leaped up inside her where there had been a slow sizzle.

He wandered closer, caused her skin to tighten and tingle. Plucking up her hand, he studied her fresh manicure in Provocative Pomegranate and enclosed her newly sloughed and smoothed fingers in his own.

"A half-naked mermaid by night and a spa maven by day." He grazed her palm with his thumb, a tiny caress with maximum seductive power. "I could ask the same question of you, Madison."

Chapter Ten


Nathan watched the progress of Madison's pink tongue over her lips and decided he couldn't wait more than five minutes to kiss her.

"I asked you first, Nathan. Which is the real you — the guy in the power-executive suit or the proprietor of Nathan Tours?" Her voice held a note of husky suggestion, but she couldn't hold his gaze.

Before he could frame a response in his sluggish brain that could only think about how soon he could kiss her, Madison picked up one of his brochures from the front corner of his desk.

"So you put together white-water rafting trips, extended hikes on the more remote mountains, snowshoeing groups...." She roamed the page with a journalist's eagle eye. "Do you get much out-of-town traffic through here?"

Oh, no. He wasn't going there. Nor would he expect a travel writer to appreciate the merits of slow business in favor of overcrowded tour groups or socialite participants who were more interested in the next high-end gift shop than the beauty of the mountains.

"This isn't really my main business." He hoped it wasn't too obvious he was avoiding the question, but he didn't want to run the risk of piquing her professional interests by talking about his work as an Adirondack guide. "I've been an investments broker since college." Reaching for the button on the gas woodstove in the center of the small office that doubled as a lobby, Nathan decided to redirect her before she did him any favors like putting his business in her feature piece.

How convenient that he already had an idea in mind for how to distract her.

Tugging the brochure from her grasp, Nathan pitched the paper back on his desk. "Is business really what you came here to talk about, Madison? Because — technically speaking — I'm not sure that I keep office hours on the weekend."

And not so technically speaking, Nathan was more interested in finding out something about Madison Blair outside of her work for Wanderlust. Something about her penchant for swimming half-naked in public places would be an interesting place to start....

"No?" She arched an eyebrow. Caramel highlights shone in her hair from the firelight cast by the black enamel stove.

"No. But that's not to say I'm not happy to see you. On the contrary, I've been thinking about you ever since last night." Nonstop, in fact. And in light of that knowledge, Nathan couldn't help but wonder if his plan to distract her wasn't totally selfish on his part. No doubt, he was rationalizing here in order to do what he really wanted.

Which was to dive right into Madison Blair's dark eyes and cover her soft mouth with his own.

Chapter Eleven


Dive in.

Madison's knees felt just a little weak despite the sound pine floor of Nathan's cabin beneath her feet. She repeated her new mantra to give herself courage.

Had he really just said he'd been thinking about her since last night? That very interesting news, combined with the fact that Nathan had been staring at her mouth for the past three seconds urged Madison to act. This was what she'd wanted all along. This was why she came to his cabin today.

Dive in.

They moved toward one another at the same time, and before she knew it, she was kissing Nathan Abrams. Not some soft, exploratory kiss either. No, when Madison had decided to dive in, she didn't bother to hold anything back.

The log walls seemed to grow closer, increasing the intimacy of just the two of them in the middle of nowhere. Together. Somehow her hands had found their way to his broad shoulders. And she wasn't resting them against him so much as she pulled him more tightly to her.

In the two years with her last boyfriend, she'd never once kissed him like this. She felt consumed by fire and hunger — so much so that it had to be obvious to Nathan.

But then, Nathan was kissing her right back as if he wanted more — much more — than a mating of the mouths. His hands slid beneath her open ski jacket to the small of her back and the lavender cashmere twin set she'd splurged on for her trip to the mountains.

And even though Madison might have initiated the kiss, Nathan's lips moved against hers with exquisite thoroughness and a definite sense of possession.

Her breasts tightened against the hard wall of his chest. And she'd be willing to guess that he felt it straight through two layers of cashmere and one skimpy silk bra because he chose that precise moment to move one hand to cup her through the material, his thumb tracing slow circles toward the center of one peaked, aching nipple.

Sensation zinged through her, awakening every nerve and making her intensely aware of the hard heat of him all around her.

A flood of heat rolled through her like a seductive wave and Madison realized what she wanted to indulge in this week more than anything else.

One hundred percent pure, undiluted Nathan.

Chapter Twelve


Nathan hadn't been expecting anything like this when he'd closed the cabin door behind them.

Madison had seemed at times a little shy, or else interested in his business, and then ka-bam.

Her lips told a whole different story.

If he stayed here any longer with Miss Combustible he'd be too far gone to do anything but have her on her back inside of ten minutes. And no matter how hot her kisses were at the moment, that was probably not what she'd had in mind for a first date.

Pulling away with more than a little regret, Nathan found pleasure in seeing how long it took for her eyelids to flutter open again. A solid three count before she focused on him.

"I don't want to mess up the first date, Madison, but if we stay here..." He nodded toward the open archway leading to his living quarters.

She swallowed hard. Nodded. "The kisses are pretty potent. You want to take a walk through town? I heard they're gearing up for a big ice carnival this week."

Nathan wasn't taking any chances on Madison getting charmed by the ice sculptures and the dog sled races. She'd have time enough to see those things later in the week. When she wouldn't have much time left to write about them.

Wracking his brain for what they could do that didn't involve the curious eyes of the rest of Lake Placid, Nathan got an idea as he looked out the window into the crisp, clear night. "Do you like to ice-skate?"
 

* * *

Fifteen minutes later, Madison had strapped on a pair of skates from Nathan's overflowing equipment shed and was gliding across the smooth ice of a frozen pond for the first time in fifteen years.

Well, maybe gliding was stretching it.

She wobbled a little at first, finding her skating legs. And here or there the stub of a tall reed poked through the pond to mar the surface, but other than that, she sailed along on the skates' sharp blades, the night breeze lifting her hair from her neck to fly in a dark banner behind her.

Raising her arms above her head, she let out a howl of joy. Even better than diving into a pool half-naked, skating in the dark under a star-filled Adirondack sky seemed all the more spine-tingling with a sexy tour guide on the ice behind her.

As she wove around the pond reeds and skated closer to Nathan, Madison didn't allow herself to weigh the consequences before she asked the question that had been teasing the edges of her brain.

"So do you think if we spend a few hours out here getting to know one another, we'll have earned the right to get back to the kissing?"

Chapter Thirteen


Nathan liked the way this woman thought — and right now his thoughts were hot enough to melt the iced-over pond under them.

The more he got to know her, the more he realized it was impossible not to like Madison. She was conservative with a little wild streak. Adventurous without being over the top. Having spent his entire adult life as an investor — first in the thick of New York's Financial District, and now from the comfort of a linked computer — Nathan could appreciate those qualities.

And he could definitely identify with the desire to return to their shared kisses.

"I'm game if you are. I only thought we should leave the cabin if we didn't want to rush things. But I bet I could be persuaded right back to where we left off —"

"Not yet. Leaving was a good idea." She skated around him. Stopped in front of him. A small spray of ice kicked up on his pant leg from her skates and her snappy turn. "Maybe we'd feel a little more entitled to those kisses if we got to know each other better first."

He nodded, sensing the wisdom behind the plan even as anticipation steamed through him. "Talk now, kiss later."

"Exactly." Her smile was a fine thing. Warm and sexy and just for him.

"So how do we pack a week's worth of dates into an evening? Not that I'm rushing this or anything."

She drummed one finger against her chin while she gave the matter serious thought. "How about the dating version of Twenty Questions? Or we could interview each other. I'm a journalist in my real life, so I've got excellent interview experience. Not that I'm rushing either."

"Of course not." He had to laugh. When had it been this much fun to be with a woman? He couldn't even remember a time like this while he'd been dating Phoebe. Too busy trying to build a perfect world complete with the ultimate job and the ideal wife, Nathan had been in such a hurry to close the deal with a wedding ring that he hadn't really considered whether or not marriage would make him happy.

But with Madison...he couldn't help but think maybe he could be himself with her, break down some of those walls of solitude he'd carefully erected after Phoebe and her high-maintenance lifestyle had all but bankrupted him.

Financially, he'd recovered — thrived even. But he hadn't been in any rush to jump back into a relationship. At least, not until tonight.

Maybe tonight he'd be able to talk to her about her feature story on the Adirondacks, about his reservations, and just put it all out on the table.

"You go first," he prodded. "I'll get a sense of how this fast-forward dating interview process works from you and then I'll put you in the hot seat."

"Fair enough." She skated away toward the edge of the ice where he'd left the thermos of hot chocolate and a blanket. "First question — has anyone ever broken your heart?"

Chapter Fourteen


It was sort of a romantic's question — has anyone ever broken your heart?

Madison hadn't really known she was going to ask it until it fell out of her mouth. Maybe Ines and her rose-colored glasses were rubbing off on her. Her grip tightened around the thermos of hot cocoa.

But it was the kind of question that would clue her in to whether or not Nathan Abrams had a heart. Because as far as Madison was concerned, that was a growing problem with men these days. Too caught up in their own lives to put themselves on the line for anyone else.

Her ex-boyfriend had gladly used their relationship to make his life easier — she dropped off his dry cleaning with hers every month and she served as a low-fuss date for corporate functions he needed to attend. No doubt, he'd probably viewed her as pretty damn convenient sex, too. But he'd never really invested much emotion in her or thought about what she might need or want from him in return.

"Well, Madison, you don't pull punches, do you?" He skated her way, taking his time as he scrubbed a hand over his chest as if he well remembered the heartbreak in question.

"Would you rather start small and work up? You know, tell me what your favorite color is and all that?" She dropped down to the narrow split rail perched on a couple of logs that served as a bench. Cracking open the thermos of cocoa, she poured half a steaming cup in the plastic top.

"No. But be warned, I'm thinking if we start here we're bound to earn a trip back to the cabin before too long." He brushed off the snow from his side of the bench and took a seat next to her. The sexy smile he shot her way warmed her insides far more than the hot chocolate.

"Then we're definitely on the same page." She handed him the stainless steel cup and he took it, careful to drink from precisely the same spot that she had.

A shiver went through her that had nothing to do with the crisp February night air.

"To answer your question," he started, handing the empty cup back to her. "I don't know if my heart has ever been broken, but it's taken me plenty long to bounce back after my divorce two years ago."

"You've been married?" Not that it was a bad thing. At least, unlike Madison's last beau, Nathan wasn't afraid to dive in.

Nodding, he stared up at the sky. "For three years and two months. I knew I'd made a mistake sooner than that, but it took me at least a year to admit to myself I'd screwed up. And it took every bit of that time for Phoebe to spend her way through all our credit cards. Nearly hitting bankruptcy made me realize I needed to ditch my pride and haul out of there before things got any worse."

"I've heard a huge percentage of couples break up over money issues." Although Madison couldn't imagine putting a price tag on love. Her new friend Ines would be proud of her.

"But the more time that passes since the divorce, the more I wonder if we really split up over money."

"Oh?" Madison arched an eyebrow, curious. Surely it showed sensitivity on a man's part if he spent time strategizing how he could have made relationships work.

"I think we both just made poor decisions when we decided to get married. We went into it for all the wrong reasons and we didn't really know each other." He shifted on the bench, turning toward her, sending her senses on high alert.

She hadn't been able to banish the thought of his kisses from her mind, but she wasn't ready to forego the getting-to-know-you phase just yet. "You should have used the fast-forward dating interview process," she teased.

He smiled back at her. "Which brings to mind a question, Ms. Blair. Has there ever been a man foolish enough to break your heart?"

Chapter Fifteen


Madison bit her lip when he shot her own question back at her. She hesitated, her breath huffing a small white cloud into the dark night air. Then she smiled. "You sure I can't opt out of this for the 'what's your favorite color' line of questioning?"

"If I had to stand in the line of fire, I think it's only fair you take a turn." Besides, he wanted to know more about her. Wanted to share more of himself with her. All evening Nathan kept thinking he needed to tell her his reservations about the story she was writing, too. She could ignore them if she wanted, but he owed it to her to at least be honest about how publicizing his mountains made him feel.

The Adirondacks were like a hidden gift. If people were lucky enough to find them, they deserved to be there. The mountains didn't need to be splashed all over chic travel magazines to attract the kind of people who wouldn't fully appreciate their simple, rustic appeal.

"I can honestly say I broke my own heart, I guess. I called it quits with the guy I'd been seeing for two years just a couple of weeks before I came up here."

Damn. He probably should have gone with the favorite color question. "I'm sorry, Madison —"

"No. Trust me, this was a good thing. I was acting out both halves of our relationship anyway, pretending everything was great for us when we had nothing in common except maybe an aversion to the dating scene. I think we were both comfortable with not having to be out there taking risks. But that's no excuse for settling for someone who isn't really passionate about you." Her eyes flickered his way when she mentioned the word passionate.

Damn, but he liked that. "So you're not going through a major rebound or anything?"

"Definitely not. I booked a week at the Hearthside to prove to myself I could take a few risks and think about myself for a change." She thumped her chest with the sentiment, her parka absorbing the impact. "I'm done working to make other people happy — that is, people who don't really care if I'm happy in return. No more doormat behavior from this woman-in-charge. I'm making my own rules this week."

He held his hands up in mock surrender. "No arguments from me."

She laughed. "Sorry to get so fired up about it. I just need to remind myself of my mission this week so I don't fall into old patterns. I figure if I remind myself often enough, I'll follow through."

Nathan understood all too well.

And now he realized why he couldn't tell her his objections to her article tonight. She was fighting her own personal battle to be more assertive. He'd be a first-rate dirtbag if he turned around and asked her not to write a story for her magazine because of what he wanted the Adirondacks to be.

He'd just have to get over himself and what he wanted. She deserved to make her own decisions about what to put in her magazine.

Bottom line, after less than twenty-four hours, Madison Blair was growing more important to him than his two-year attachment to the North Country. Nathan accepted that easily. He just wondered exactly what he would do with her when they returned to the seclusion of his cabin….
 

Chapter Sixteen


Anticipation tripped through Madison as she took off her coat inside Nathan's cabin. They'd talked for hours out on the ice. Now she knew a lot more about him than his favorite color.

She knew he went to the Hearthside pool at three a.m. with regularity because he needed to unwind from his long days running his business. He was as dedicated to his work — both his investments and his tour guide business — as she was to hers.

Madison had the feeling that he was probably a workaholic before his marriage to the illustrious Phoebe, but that his brush with near-bankruptcy thanks to his wife had made him even more professionally driven. His time spent snowshoeing and white-water rafting were probably attempts to give himself some much-needed downtime — while working.

But right now, with Nathan pouring her a glass of his best amaretto — they'd learned through Madison's fast-forward interview process that it was their mutual favorite drink — she didn't want to think about Nathan's work or his ex-wife.

Following his broad shoulders into the back half of the cabin, Madison slipped through an archway behind the lobby area she'd seen earlier. He led her to a studio area that wasn't so much a bedroom as it was a miniature short-term living setup. The kitchen was no more than a two-burner range, fridge, and a few cabinets. The living area probably doubled as the bedroom with a sofa, area rug, and another gas woodstove built into the wall to look like a fireplace. Nathan flipped the switch for the stove, and the cabin was filled with warm, flickering light.

She wanted to ask him more about the place and whether or not he lived there in the tiny studio behind his business, but Nathan clinked his glass against hers before she had the chance.

"Happy anniversary." He took a sip of amaretto, the muscles of his throat catching her eye while she wondered what he was talking about. "We've known each other exactly twenty-four hours."

Glancing at the brass clock above the mantel, she saw the clock was just striking three a.m. "We talked the whole night away."

"Tired?" His hazel eyes reflected the firelight. Or was he burning with a little fire of his own, the way she was right now?

Madison took a mental inventory of how she was feeling right now with Nathan two steps away from her. Her heart slugged a heavy beat against her chest. Her breath came in shallow, quick gulps. And every inch of her longed for his touch.

"I don't think I've ever felt less tired, actually."

Chapter Seventeen


Nathan couldn't believe his luck. Madison stood in front of him, slowly sipping her amaretto and watching. Waiting.

For him.

He'd practically buried himself up here in the mountains for two years, never meeting anyone but inquisitive locals who wanted to know all about his business and what his plans were for staying in the area. And then, the first woman he met turned out to be someone as impatient and driven as him, who didn't want to wait to take their relationship to the next level.

On top of that, Madison was a sexy sensualist who liked to skinny-dip.

What more could a man ask for?

Still, in spite of their mutual impatience, Nathan knew he shouldn't rush tonight. Sliding her glass from her hands, he set their drinks on an end table near the sofa and covered her lips with his own.

Silky and sweet, she tasted like the amaretto but hotter. Nathan drew her closer by her shoulders, then couldn't resist traveling the length of her arms with his hands. The lavender cashmere of her sweater was plush and soft, but he only wanted to peel it away from her skin to touch her with nothing between them.

Forcing himself to take his time, he trailed his palms over her waist to rest on her hips. She sighed with her whole body, from the little breathy catch in her throat to the way she leaned all the more heavily into him, rubbed herself against him.

And he didn't stand a chance of going slow. They had all night to take their time. All week, if he had anything to say about it. Right now, he needed to act on the fire burning inside them both before they caught flame right in the middle of his cabin floor.

Her clothes disappeared as if he willed them away. Sweater, top, slacks, shoes — they must be strewn about the cabin somewhere, but all he could focus on was what still needed to go. One yellow lace bra and one tiny scrap of yellow bikini underwear.

And then she was perfectly naked, even more so than the first time he'd met her. Nathan was pulling her to the floor with him, his own clothes long gone, too. He'd tossed a chenille throw from the back of the sofa onto the floor and he smoothed it out beneath them now, kissing Madison Blair's sexy, amaretto lips the whole time.

He wanted everything to be perfect for her and he knew it probably wouldn't be — not this first time when he wanted her so badly he couldn't see straight. But if he could make things perfect enough to entice her to stay all night — or all week — he would definitely scavenge the patience and restraint to provide her with every provocative pleasure her sensualist nature craved.

Right now, she urged him on with every breathless moan and impatient wriggle of her slender body. And he was powerless to deny her. Or himself.

She stole from his hands the condom he'd grabbed from a drawer and rolled it on him in one smooth stroke. That simple touch alone was enough to make him grit his teeth for control. Steadying her thighs with his hands, Nathan eased his way inside her, grateful she wanted this as much — as soon — as he did.

The silken heat of her drove him to the brink. He managed to stave off his own satisfaction only by focusing every ounce of his thoughts on her. Her needs. Her wants.

Ignoring the heady scent of floral fragrance and warm woman, Nathan concentrated on finding just the right touch that would please her. Make her forget her own name. He elicited gasps, moans, and sighs, but only when he plucked the sweet center of her with his finger and thumb, and drew her nipple deeply into his mouth did he find the hot button that made her whole body tense and tighten.

Victory poured through him for all of two seconds before his own release swamped him, made him forget both their names.

And as he held her in his arms, his nose buried in her silky hair, Nathan wondered if she would consider turning her retreat week into the most sensual of adventures….

Chapter Eighteen


Two days and three amazing, toe-curling nights had passed since Madison had first walked into the cabin that served as Nathan's business base and his emergency living quarters if the weather turned severe.

Of course, the small studio area in the back looked well lived-in now. Over the course of the past three nights, Madison and Nathan had barely left the bed that pulled out from the sofa. When they did, it was only to make love on the floor in front of the fire. Or on the kitchen table. Or — Madison's favorite — in the shower.

Now, Madison sat propped in bed while Nathan brought her breakfast on a tray — really a Pop-Tart on a cookie sheet — and handed her a copy of the morning paper.

He set the tray on the bed and kissed her, softly at first and then, as she clung to him longer, more urgently.

"You know we can't," he whispered in her ear as he traced the bottom of her lobe with his tongue. "I used the last condom on the kitchen table."

"I just want to give you incentive to hurry back," she whispered back, trailing her hand across his lap.

He stood with a groan. "If you give me any more incentive I'll be too damn light-headed to drive."

Satisfied she'd accomplished her goal, Madison waved him away, munching on her Pop-Tart while she opened the morning paper and wondered if today would be the day she needed to reenter the real world.

God, she hoped not.

Her time with Nathan had been exquisite. Not only had the days been a feast for her senses and a thorough lesson in self-indulgence, they had also taught her what was missing in her last relationship. And it was a hell of a lot more than great sex.

Nathan asked her questions about her job, shared ideas about what he thought made great places to travel. He went to her magazine's web site and read all her archived columns when she was sleeping since he needed less shut-eye than she did. Best of all, he listened to her rant about her trouble clinching her long-anticipated promotion and gave her some great counter-strategy ideas.

Including offering up a few of her columns on a freelance basis to some other publications. Nathan had asked if she thought they might stir her own company to keep her under lock and key with the bigger title and salary she felt she deserved.

In short, Nathan gave back all the things she normally gave in a relationship. Being with him wasn't a one-way street. And he was oh-so-generous in the bedroom….

Just thinking about some of the things they'd done together made her blush — even when the man was ten minutes away at the closest pharmacy.

Distracting herself with the morning news, Madison's eye jumped to the headline of an opinion column down one side of the local section in the daily paper — "Adirondacks Seek National Exposure."

Interestingly enough, the article chatted all about the commotion a certain travel writer from Wanderlust was causing with her presence around town. The columnist's opinion was that the locals should treat a certain Ms. Blair to an Adirondack experience she wouldn't forget so that she'd say great things about the region if she opted to do a feature story.

Most of the people the columnist had interviewed around town seemed to support the push to garner national exposure for the area. All except one Nathan Abrams who was quoted to have said he thought the mountains ought to remain New York's best-kept secret.

And as a sharp ache started in Madison's heart, she suddenly knew exactly why Nathan hadn't wanted her to step foot out of the cabin for the past two days and three nights.

While she'd been thinking Nathan was the world's most thoughtful man to indulge her every wish, he'd been carefully following an agenda of his own this week — to keep Madison satisfied and otherwise engaged.

As her blood started to boil, Madison shoved aside her half-eaten breakfast with more than a little regret. Obviously, her week of "me" time had come to an end.

Chapter Nineteen


Nathan stood in line at the local One-Stop and cursed small-town life.

Much as he loved the Adirondacks, he really resented buying a box of condoms in a store where he knew every single one of his fellow patrons. Snagging a newspaper that he didn't need off a nearby rack, Nathan smuggled his purchase to the counter.

Only to have his back slapped by a friendly tree limb — otherwise known as J. D. Drollette's right arm.

"Hey, Nate. Did you see you're a local celebrity?" J.D. thumped the newspaper on the counter, causing the condom box to jump.

So much for discretion.

"Celebrity? No, I guess I missed it." He tossed a twenty at the cashier.

J.D. was already thumbing through the paper while Nathan took his change and stuffed his illicit box in his coat pocket.

"You're right here." J.D.'s thumb stabbed the spot. "Ines says she met this Madison Blair woman, by the way. Have you run into her yet?"

But Nathan scarcely heard him. His eyes scanned the column and his quote about keeping the Adirondacks a secret. The reporter shouldn't have quoted him given that he'd made the comment in the most off-hand way three days ago. And he certainly hadn't known the woman was writing a story.

Of course, Madison wouldn't know that. And he'd left the paper on her breakfast tray....

Hell.

He needed to come up with a plan. And damn it, he'd need to act fast. Madison wasn't going to stick around to hear any lame explanations. She'd done so well asserting herself this week, Nathan never would have guessed she'd once harbored some pushover qualities.

Scooping up the paper, he punched J.D. in the arm on his way out the door. "Do you believe in love at first sight, J.D.?"

His friend paused. Deliberated.

In the meantime, a petite Latino woman with long, dark hair and dangly feather earrings poked her head around the end of an aisle, a fashion magazine in hand.

"Of course he believes in love at first sight," she interjected, scowling at J.D. with a glare that could be only a lover's right.

J.D. smiled at her. Winked. And just then Nathan noticed J.D. was carrying a copy of the newspaper, too — and damned if it didn't have the corner of a condom box peeking out from under it. "I think sometimes you just know."

Excellent. J.D. and Ines were proof he wasn't crazy.

"Are you guys going to be at the Ice Carnival today?" Nathan asked, one foot out the door. He couldn't wait for an answer because he had to hurry if he was going to pull this off. Instead he just shouted over his shoulder as the door swung shut behind him. "I'm definitely going to need some backup!"

Chapter Twenty


Madison parked her car and crossed the street to the annual Ice Carnival. She definitely didn't want to talk to Nathan about what she'd read in today's paper, so she was hiding out here for an hour before her plane left.

That's probably why she'd allowed a loser boyfriend to walk all over her and a tightwad boss to withhold the promotion she deserved. Even after her retreat week, she still stunk at confrontation. But the difference in the new Madison was that she wouldn't stick around a situation in which she wasn't appreciated. And especially not when she'd been duped.

Therefore, she was hauling out of Lake Placid on a two o'clock charter flight and leaving behind the ice sculptures and igloos she never got to fully enjoy. Cowardly? Maybe. But in her mind, she'd come a long way by being able to say, This sucks, and walk away. Even if it practically ripped her heart out to follow her new instincts.

She had no idea how she'd come to care about Nathan so much over the course of three days, but she'd dived right in, damn it. Apparently her dating interview process was hideously ineffective because she never would have pegged Nathan for the kind of guy who would have stood between her and her work.

A cheer went up from a crowd on the ice twenty yards away. While Madison peered over at the group of revelers with flashbulbs popping, her shopping buddy Ines squeezed her way out of the throng and waved a purple-mittened hand.

"Madison, come here!" She ran over to Madison and dragged her closer to the crowd. "Nathan Abrams just won the ice fishing derby!"

Madison ground her heels into the ice. She had no idea how Ines knew about her connection to Nathan, but she wasn't waiting around to find out. And she definitely wasn't waiting around to see...him.

Her gaze connected with Nathan's as the small crowd parted between them. Madison recognized Nathan's friend J.D. at his side, along with several Hearthside Inn staffers. And thanks to a mug shot in this morning's paper, she was even able to pick out the columnist from the Adirondack News. It helped that the woman wore a heavy camera around her neck and even now flashed a photo of Nathan with his pile of fish.

Nathan took a step toward her, dragging every bit of the group's attention along with him.

"I competed in ice fishing in the hopes of taking a first place prize today." He talked to the crowd as much as he talked to her, this loner who had told her he went to the pool at three a.m. to avoid people. "You know why I wanted to take first place today, Madison?"

She arched an eyebrow, curious. Even though all of the first places in Lake Placid wouldn't excuse his underhanded tactics for keeping her away from her work while pretending to be besotted with her. The skunk.

"I needed a first place to get another quote in the paper." He reached for her arms, wrapped his gloved fingers about her shoulders.

"Your last quote in the paper already said quite a bit."

"But this time, I wanted to be sure to add that me not wanting the Adirondacks to turn into the next Vail or Aspen doesn't mean I don't want you to do your job." He stared into her eyes as if there wasn't anyone around but them. The same way he had stared into her eyes for the last three amazing nights. "And I also wanted to be sure to say that just because I'm a loner doesn't mean I expect you to be. Or that I'd ever hoard you all to myself. Unless you wanted me to, that is."

Something warm and tender and oh-so-precious unfurled inside her. Slowly. Carefully. Could she trust this man that she'd known for such a short time? "You wouldn't?"

"I should have told you I'm not a rah-rah publicist type as far as the mountains are concerned. But I didn't want to rain on your parade." He looked around at his neighbors and friends as if finally aware they were there, too. "This was your week, damn it. You should be doing what you want to do. I swear to you, Madison, all the time we spent together — that was just because I wanted to be with you, not because I wanted to interfere with your work."

Maybe confrontation wasn't always such a bad thing. "If I do a feature on the Adirondacks —" A hopeful gasp rippled through the crowd. "And I'm not promising I can, but if I do and Lake Placid turns into next year's hot spot, I'm pretty sure that I can find you five more exotic, remote locales where we can run away and be loners, Nathan." She edged closer to him, confident her instincts were dead-on with this man. "I have the feeling you could use a vacation or two in your work schedule."

Nathan smiled, a slow sexy smile just for her. "And I have the feeling I'm going to indulge you in that, Madison Blair."

He kissed her for all of the town to see. Madison had no doubt who would be on the front cover of the Adirondack News tomorrow morning.

She could already see the headlines — "Local Couple Takes First Prize…"
 


The End