Coming for the Creator
Written by Matthew Shute
11:13 PM, February, 1991.
The sofa-bed was comfortable enough, but I couldn't sleep. My mind was too
energised to coax itself into slumber. The inside of my head was more agitated
than ever. As I lay there, contemplating my situation, an array of familiar
images flickered and dissolved across my mental screen like pale, leering
fireworks.
I wanted to be up and working. All I could clearly think about was finishing my
latest series of paintings. My works, my creations: they were more important
than anyone could know. Yet despite my assertions in this regard, my uneducated
parents failed to understand that here I was on a knife-edge between divinity
and mediocrity. Mom and dad could not see that each instalment of my latest
series of portraits was a vital part of a puzzle that yearned for completion.
The overall, finished epic, when brought together at last, would be a
masterpiece unequalled by any artist past or present - I knew so beyond a doubt.
There was something supernatural about the work, I believed; something that went
beyond my own personal genius.
Only I, the artist, could truly appreciate the magnitude of my potential success
or failure.
As it was, lacking unity, the paintings would not let my brain forget them for a
moment. Those grey faces beckoned me, called to me; they begged for completion.
They were like an unscratchable itch, nestled deep inside my skull, and only the
application of brush to canvas would make the throbbing pressure go away.
There was only one last portrait to finish. One final grotesque, and my
masterpiece would be ready for the world to see.
However, I would have to wait until tomorrow afternoon. It was way after dark
now, and working was forbidden. The act of turning out the caravan lights was
both final and legally binding as far as my idiotic parents were concerned. They
would not permit even the slightest suggestion of activity after lights-out.
Even trips to the toilet were frowned upon.
My position was untenable. I clenched my fists in frustration.
"It's no use," I whispered. "The anger will only make it worse."
I sighed and tried to relax. Keeping my eyes closed, I listened to the near
silence around me. A steady stream of drizzle hitting the metallic top of the
caravan reached my ears, as did the occasional hoot of an owl, no doubt gearing
up for another night of nocturnal killing.
Apart from those meagre noises: ...nothing. The holiday season was long gone,
and the caravan park was pretty much unoccupied. With the exception of the
handyman and a few fellow stragglers, there was no-one around to make a sound.
Usually, I found the quiet to be comforting. But now, unexpectedly, there was
something sinister and unsettling about the near-silence, as if it hid someone
or something to whom aural serenity was utterly alien.
The pressure of my unfinished painting gripped my brain like an iron fist.
Without warning, the silent screaming of those grey faces rose to an unbearable
crescendo, a mental tidal wave. The wailing climaxed with a wrenching, tearing
sensation, and abruptly ended. It was as if something had snapped inside me,
allowing the nagging, rabid creatures to break free.
I opened my eyes. Suddenly, the thought of all the blackness surrounding me was
not at all welcome. What pale sneerers could be hiding in the thickness of that
layered, charcoal shadow?
Something had changed, my instinct told me, and it was not a change for the
better. Something was very wrong. My skin prickled with the realisation.
Ready to jump out of bed and flee for my life, I listened to the oppressive
near-silence, preying for an end to it...
...and although it startled me profoundly, there came a somewhat-welcome creak
from one of the bedrooms off to my left.
I threw my gaze in that direction and studied the inscrutable dark. As I
strained my eyes to see, the darkness shifted, a shape of blackness moved within
the greater blackness, and I heard a door open. From the nearest bedroom, my
sister's room, a well-concealed figure stepped into the small kitchen area.
All at once, I regretted wishing away that ominous quiet and stillness. This was
much worse.
The figure hesitated for a moment, turned, and then started walking towards me.
The shape approached in a cautious manner. It's footsteps went unheard. Near the
bed, where I now shivered, the humanoid silhouette paused again, reached out for
something on the wall... and flicked on the light-switch.
The light-bulb glare blinded me for a few moments, and I flailed around in the
bed, expecting to be stabbed any second.
I almost gasped in relief when I saw that it was merely my sister standing there
in her pink night-gown. In addition to her attire, she wore a worried expression
that contorted her young face. In relation to Tanya, it was an expression that I
was unused to seeing.
"What is it?" I asked, perhaps a tad sharply. "What do you want?"
"It's mom and dad," Tanya said. "Something's happened to them. Something
terrible."
"Tanya," I said. "What on earth are you talking about?"
"I heard something," my sister replied. "Like a struggle. And I saw it all in my
mind so clearly. These... things... came into the room and took mom and dad
away. It was so quick. Now they're gone."
I leaned back against the large pillow, and sighed. "Tanya, you've just had a
nightmare. There's nothing to worry about... Look, you'd better get back into
bed before dad wakes up and we both end up in the frying pan."
Instead of heeding my warning, Tanya sat down on the edge of the pull-out bed,
facing me. "No," she insisted. "I didn't have a nightmare. I was wide awake. I
heard mom and dad struggling. Neither of them could cry out because the monsters
sealed their mouths shut... burned them... melted them shut."
Seeing Tanya's obvious distress, I decided to humour her for a while; at least
until I was able to calm her down sufficiently for her to return to bed.
"Okay," I said. "What did these 'monsters' look like?"
"Faces," she said. "Empty faces. Pale and grey."
Those last two words, "pale" and "grey", struck a dark cord in me, and my heart
floundered. I flinched and sat up straight. Instinctively, I glanced over at the
space beside the tall refrigerator, against which I had stacked all my dry
canvases.
The paintings were gone.
***
"You've got to believe me," Tanya pleaded. "I'm not imagining this."
As I stared at the space where my canvases had once stood, I did believe my
sister's wild claims. The greater part of me did, anyway. This was, perhaps,
somewhat irrational on my part, but I was never a great believer in
coincidences. At the very least, someone had removed my works of art. There was,
or had been, an intruder. This danger was real enough to prompt me into action.
Without another word, I climbed out of bed and pulled on a pair of jeans that
lay nearby. I also added my paint-smeared sweatshirt and a pair of thick socks.
Clothing felt like armour against any would-be assailants, and the more of it
the better.
With Tanya now following, I stalked into the kitchen area. I paused to pull a
large, sharp knife from its wooden holder.
More armaments against would-be invaders.
"Tanya," I whispered. "You wait here a moment. Grab a knife for protection,
okay? I'll check mom and dad's bedroom. I'll be back in a second."
Tanya nodded, and she did as suggested.
Then, the two of us (me, the seventeen year old genius/artist, and Tanya, the
thirteen year old cry-baby/bookworm) parted company. Leaving Tanya in the
kitchen, I walked over to the lair of my tyrannical parents. As I reached the
door, I didn't quite know which I feared more: finding and waking the sleeping
monsters (my parents)... or finding the room empty. Either way, I would come off
the loser.
Yet my options were limited to a single choice. I opened the door and stepped
inside.
The room was unnaturally cold, even for the time of year. Also, the usual stench
of cigarettes and bodily odour was reduced to a subtle tinge in the air. None of
this was cause for calm. I fumbled for the light-switch, found it, and
illuminated the room.
The first visual clue I noticed was the state of the bed; two thirds of the
stained duvet lay crumpled on the floor, and the sheets lay in a tangled heap
next to the fallen section. This was a mess even by my slovenly father's
standards. It appeared that an energetic fight had recently taken place. I could
easily guess who the losers had been. There was no sign of my mother or father
anywhere.
A dagger of combined relief and dread stabbed me in the heart.
Next, I noticed that the huge window behind the bed had been pushed completely
open, exposing the room to the elements. The sheets at the side of the bed
fluttered in the icy draft. Evidently, my parents had been pulled out through
the window. Perhaps the cold breeze also accounted for the reduced odour in the
room.
Casting this futile speculation aside, I strode over to the window and pulled it
shut.
Better.
"Tanya," I called.
My sister ignored my call, so I tried again: "TANYA!"
When I failed to get a response this time, I stepped out of the chilly room, and
re-entered the kitchen area.
I looked around with increasing desperation. I searched every room.
But Tanya, like my collection of art and my unwashed parents, had vanished with
hardly a trace.
***
As for traces...
A knife, Tanya's weapon, lay useless on the linoleum floor. The door next to the
sink was open and swaying in the breeze. Apart from the knife and the open door
leading outside, Tanya's abduction had left no displacement or disruption. She
had been snatched silently and with terrible efficiency.
My reaction to this realisation was a desire to get out of the caravan
immediately. The place had become a death-trap. Every second I stayed in here
would be another second with my head secured in a guillotine. The blade could
descend at any moment.
I looked around for my shoes, decided I didn't have time to put them on, and ran
outside. The contact with the sodden grass soaked my socks in an instant, but I
didn't care. I ran toward the narrow dirt track that I knew would lead me,
eventually, to the caretaker's hut. As I reached the track, however, I spied a
group of sallow apparitions coming out of the trees to my left.
I uttered something close to a strangled "NO!", and ran in the opposite
direction.
In seconds, I was back in the caravan, slamming the door behind me, and locking
it. Through the glass, I could see roughly a dozen disembodied faces approaching
at speed. These were the grotesques that I had painted directly from my
imagination onto my canvases; they were exact to every detail. How and why these
nightmarish visages had taken on such a reality and purpose were questions I did
not have time to ponder. I had painted them into existence, and now they wanted
me. That was all.
My head was back under the guillotine blade.
Determined to keep my footing, I ran towards the bathroom, my socks squelching
against the linoleum as I went. The bathroom had a door-lock; it was a flimsy
device, easily broken, but better than nothing. For this reason alone, the
bathroom was the safest place I could think of.
Pushed on by the simple desire to survive, I reached the bathroom before my
pursuers could reach me. Thankful to be alive, surprised to still be here, I
slammed the door, locked it, and slumped down on the toilet. From this low
vantage-point, I scanned the room.
There was only one window, and it was directly to the right of me. The glass was
thick, warped and misted, designed for privacy. It was locked.
However, the widow was far from safe, as I promptly discovered.
It was into this wide glass surface that one of the apparitions suddenly
crashed. The glass cracked, but did not shatter. Behind it, a vague silhouette
of pallid meat hovered with evil intent. At the sight of the thing, even in its
mist-censored form, I cried out.
The creature did not back off and ram the window to finish the job as I expected
it to. The evil thing didn't need to smash its way in. It simply burned the
barrier away. As the creature exercised its malevolent will, the glass, at the
point of breakage, began to melt under some unimaginable heat.
A memory flashed through my mind. It was my sister saying: " the monsters sealed
their mouths shut... burned them... melted them shut."
By the time that memory flickered out, the newly-formed hole in the window had
grown from the size of a penny to the size of a dinner-plate. Through it, one of
my early works of art, now fleshed and alive, leered and drooled.
There was no time to react in anything resembling a purposeful manner. All I
could do was back away as the disembodied beast surged through the molten
opening it had created. Then the creature was upon me, its toothless, salivating
mouth bearing down on my head. The dripping maw clamped down on my skull, and
everything went black.
***
I'm awake again now. Things are different here. I have awoken in a void.
This "non-place" is a void in the truest sense. There is no matter here, no
substance. There are no walls, ceilings or floors. There are no stars and no
sky. I am surrounded by desolate blackness. There is no air here, and yet I do
not suffocate. I do not need to breathe. There is no hunger or thirst here.
There is no need. All that exists is the void and those within its crippling
meaninglessness.
Yes, there are others here with me. I have company inside this vast vacuum. My
mother and father are here. Tanya is here, too. They are different, though. For
example, my mother no longer has a mouth. She tries to speak, but she cannot. My
father suffers the same affliction, but he is not coping as well as mom. My
father is becoming increasingly enraged at his predicament, I can tell. His eyes
blaze with a hatred that he cannot give expression to.
Tanya has a mouth, but she chooses not to speak. Instead, she screams quietly.
Her voice is a near-silence that I find deeply oppressive.
Tanya, mom, and dad share other common afflictions that I have not yet
mentioned. Firstly, they lack bodies. The three of them have been reduced to a
trio of severed heads that float and swim in this awesome non-place, in this...
wound.
Secondly, these family members of mine have been bleached. There is no longer a
rosy glow to my sister's cheeks. Gone is the sick, yellowish completion of my
father. No longer does my mother wear makeup applied with a spade. Each of their
faces are now grey and sunken. Only their accusing eyes have any colour to speak
of.
It seems that my own creations, my demons, have recreated my family members in
the image of the collective horde.
My demons? They are here, too; all thirteen of them. They remain exactly as I
created them. Each is different, each a different slant on evil and despair.
They are all present and correct. They are my children.
Number thirteen, the unfinished portrait, presses close to me now. It speaks to
me.
Woe. Number thirteen is angry because he has no eyes, only half a nose, and a
mere suggestion of a jaw and mouth. Number thirteen seeks completion.
How can I oblige? I can't even move or float like the others. I am fixed in the
very centre of this non-place. I AM the fixed, unmoving centre. Around me, the
others revolve.
Number thirteen enlightens me. The minion tells me that I am different, I am
special, I'm the creator. Only I, among all of us, possess ARMS.
As I examine myself, I see that the minion speaks truth. I may have no legs,
abdomen or torso of any kind, but I most certainly do have a workable pair of
arms. They are thin, spindly things that extend directly from my sliced neck.
Like all flesh here, these scrawny limbs emit a pale grey luminance.
In my right hand, I hold the brush of creation.
If this is my destiny, so be it.
With a flourish, I complete the face of my impotent minion. I create for him a
complete jawbone, a fine set of sharklike teeth, an ugly snout, and a single,
sunken eye.
***
Non-life goes on...
I didn't realise at first, but there is an entrance/exit to this void. It is
tiny, like a pin-hole, but my minions can stretch it to incredible size and
travel through it whenever the urge takes them.
A hole in the side of nothingness? I do not understand how this can be, but,
evidently, it can.
Independent of my wishes (I am a creator, not a commander), my minions come and
go through this malleable gap. They go out on foraging missions; they go out
hunting. On rare occasions, they return with nothing to show for their efforts,
save for a madness in their movements and expressions that signifies a
frustration of abysmal depth. Mostly, though, they come back with victims. The
majority of these captures are human, but sometimes dogs, cats and other
commonplace beasts are harvested. The victims (human and non-human alike), when
they first arrive, usually appear pretty much unscathed, apart from the odd
welded mouth or mushed eyeball.
The newcomers do not remain untouched for long. Their bodies are stripped and
sucked up, and their faces are drained of life.
These victims join us in our strange non-life, but unwillingly. They are no good
for hunting, and they cannot leave this place. Really, they are entertainment,
bait, and fodder. Tortured souls, they move aimlessly, quietly singing their
woes. Their subtle songs grow louder only through multiplication. These
unfriendly friends of ours are not originals, you see. I did not create them,
but they have their uses (my true minions seem to think so, anyway).
Meanwhile, I busy myself with my work. My brush is only good for painting demons
with no bodies. It is all I know. I paint character and life into each creation,
though, despite what one may think of my work. I am still a genius, and each
painted child of mine is unique.
All of us here, the hunters and the fodder, live together in a bizarre kind of
harmony. We all know our place in the scheme of things. And there are more of us
with every hour. As the outside world is harvested, our numbers swell greatly.
As we numerically multiply, this infinite plain of darkness swarms with
uncountable grey shadows that blink and snarl and weep. They form themselves
into columns and pillars that writhe and pulsate according to some unknown
design. Even I, the creator, cannot fathom the intent behind all this.
And what of it?
I simply paint.
I continue to paint the faces. This is what I do. I am the Creator. This is my
destiny.