STEVEN
POPKES
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AFTERWARD, IT
WAS NEVER the people she remembered, never faces or bodies or voices -- even
Alfredo's. It was always the wind, blowing from the west side of the island,
and the frigate birds, balanced on their wingtips against the sky. They flew
high above her, so black and stark they seemed made of leather or scales, too
finely drawn to be feathered. It was March,
the beginning of the rainy season, and she had come to Isla Mujeres to leave
her husband. That she had done this some half a dozen times before did not
escape her and she had a kind of despairing fatalism about it. Probably this
time, too, she would return. Her name was Jean Summat. Her husband, Marc,
lived the professor's life in Boston. She, it was supposed, was to live the
role of professor's wife. This was something she had never quite accepted. Isla Mujeres.
Island of Women. She sat in a
small pier cafe that jutted out into the water, waiting for her first meal on
the island. In a few minutes it came. A whole fish stared glassily up at her
from the plate. Delicately, she began to carve small pieces from it, and ate.
She glanced up and a Mexican man in a Panama hat smiled at her. She looked
back to her food, embarrassed. Boston was
cold right now and covered with a wet snow as raw as butcher's blood. But
here in Mexico, it was warm. More importantly, it was cheap and people's lives
here were still enmeshed in basics, not intricately curved in academic
diplomacy. She left the
restaurant and stood on the pier watching the birds, feeling the warm heavy
wind, sour with the hot smell of the sea. The late afternoon sun was masked
with low clouds and in the distance was a dark blue rain. She had a room,
money, and time. THE AVENIDA
RUEDA was clotted with vendors selling Mayan trinkets, blankets, pots,
T-shirts, and ice cream. Several vendors tried to attract her attention with
an "Amiga!" but she ignored them. A Mexican dressed in a crisp suit
and Panama hat sat in an outdoor cafe and sipped his drink as he watched her.
Just watched her. Lots of
Mexicans wear such hats, she told herself. Still, he made her nervous and she
left the street to return to her room. On the balcony she watched the frigate
birds and the people on the beach. Jean swam in
the warm water of Playa de Cocoa. When she came from the water she saw the
man watching her from one of the cabañas as he sipped a Coke. She walked up
to him. "Why are you following me?" The man
sipped his Coke and looked back at her. "No entiende." She looked at
him carefully. "That's a lie." There was a
long moment of tension. He threw back his head and laughed. "Es
verdad." "Why --
what the hell are you doing?" "You are
very beautiful, Señora." "Jesus!" "You
need a man." "I have
a man." Or half a man. Or maybe more than a man. Do I still have him? Do
I want him? Did I ever? "With
specifications?" She stared at
him. Hector led
her through the rubble at the end of the Avenida Hidalgo to a small concrete
house nearly identical to all the other concrete houses on the island. It was
surrounded by a wall. Set into the top of the wall were the jagged spikes of
broken soda bottles. She looked down the street. The other houses were built
the same. There was a burnt-out car leaning against one wall, and a thin dog
stared at her, his eyes both hungry and protective. Inside, it
smelled damp. It was dark for a moment, then he turned on a blue fluorescent
light that lit the room like a chained lightning bolt. Leaning against the
wall was a tall, long-haired and heavily built man with Mayan features. He
did not move. What am I
doing here? "This is
Alfredo." Hector was looking at her with a considering expression. She shook her
head. The air in the room seemed thick, lifeless, cut off from the world.
"Alfredo?" "Alfredo.
I show you." Hector opened a suitcase and took out a box with a complex
control panel. He flipped two switches and turned a dial and the box hummed.
Alfredo pushed himself away from the wall and looked around. "Good
God." She stared at him. Alfredo was beautiful, with a high forehead and
strong lips. His body was wide and taut, the muscles rippling as he moved.
Hector touched a button and he became absolutely still. "You like
him?" She turned to
Hector startled. She'd forgotten he was there. "What is this?" "Ah! An
explanation." He spoke in a deep conspiratorial whisper. "Deep in
the mountains north of Mexico City is a great research laboratory. They have
built many of these -- andros? Syntheticos?" "Androids." "Of
course. They are stronger and more beautiful than mortal men. But the church
discovered it and forced them to close it down. The church is important here
--" "That's
a lie." Hector
shrugged. "The Señora is correct. Alfredo was a prisoner in the Yucatan.
Condemned to die for despicable crimes. They did not kill him, however.
Instead, they removed his mind and inlaid his body with electrical circuits.
He is now more than a man --" "That's
another lie." "The
Señora sees most clearly." He paused a moment. "You have heard of
the Haitian zombie? The Mayans had a similar process. My country has only
recently perfected it, coupling it with the most advanced of scientific
--" Jean only stared
at him. He stopped,
then shrugged. "What does it matter, Señora? He is empty. His mind does
not exist. He will -- imprint? Is that the correct word? -- on anyone I
choose." "This is
a trick." "You are
so difficult to convince. Let me show you his abilities." Hector
manipulated the controls and Alfredo leaped forward and caught himself on one
hand, holding himself high in the air with the strength of one arm. He
flipped forward onto his feet. Alfredo picked up a branch from a pile of
kindling and twisted it in both hands. There was no expression on his face
but the muscles in his forearms twisted like snakes, the tendons like dark
wires. The branch broke with a sudden gunshot report. Hector
stopped Alfredo at attention before them. "You see? He is more than
man." She shook her
head. "What kind of act is this?" "No act.
I control him from this panel. The -- master? maestro? -- would not need
this." Control. Such
control. Hector seemed
uncertain for a moment. "You wish to see still more? You are unsure of
how he is controlled?" He thought for a moment. "Let me show you a
feature." In the stark
light and shadows, she had not noticed Alfredo was nude. The Mayan turned
into the light. "There
are several choices one could make when using Alfredo." Hector manipulated
the box. "Pequeño." Alfredo had a
normal sized erection. She wanted to
look away and could not. The Mayan face was before her, dark, strong, and
blank. "Medio,"
said Hector softly. She looked
again and the erection was twice as large, pulsing to Alfredo's breathing. "Y
monstruoso!" cried Hector. Alfredo
looked fit to be a bull, a goat, or some other animal. There was never any
expression in Alfredo's eyes. "Y
nada," said Hector. And Alfredo's erection wilted and disappeared. She couldn't
breathe. She wanted to run, to hide from Alfredo, but she didn't want to be
anywhere else. "You are
pleased, Señora?" Hector stood beside her. Jean tried to
clear her head. She looked away from both of them. No man could fake this. It
was real, a marvelous control, a total subjugation. Was this what she had
wanted all this time? "A very
nice show." She took a deep breath. "How much do I owe you ? " "You owe
me nothing, Señora." Hector bowed to her. "But Alfredo is for
sale." When she did not answer immediately, he continued. "He
imprints on the owner, Señora. Then voice commands are sufficient. He will
show initiative if you desire it, or not. He is intelligent, but only in your
service." "But you
have the controls." "They do
not operate once imprinting occurs." Crazy. Ridiculous. "How
much?" she heard herself asking. Alfredo
followed her home, mute, below the birds and the sky. She could smell him on
the evening wind, a clean, strong smell. "Do you
speak?" she asked as he followed her up the steps to her room. Alfredo did
not answer for a moment. "Yes." She asked him
no more questions that night. His mind was
like a thunderstorm: thick, murky, dark, shot through intermittently by
lightning. These were not blasts of intelligence or insight but the
brightness of activity, the heat of flesh, the electricity of impulse. He was
no more conscious of what happened or what caused his actions than lightning
was conscious of the friction between clouds. Occasionally, very
occasionally, a light came through him, like the sun through the distant
rain, and things stilled within him. He was a
chained thunderbolt, unaware of his chains. She copulated
with Alfredo almost continuously the first three days. It was as if a beast
had been loosed within her. If she wanted him to stroke her thus, he did so.
If she wanted him to bite her there, it was done. Something broke within her
and she tried to devour him. It was only
when she fully realized she owned him, that he would be there as long as she
wanted him, that this abated. Then it was like coming up from underwater, and
she looked around her. Alfredo had
cost her almost everything she had, nearly all the money she would have used
to start a new life. She could not go back to Marc now. Perhaps buying
Alfredo had been an act ensuring that. She didn't know. There were jobs on
the island for Americans, but they were tricky and illegal to get. At the end of
the first day of a waitress job, she came to their room tired and angry.
Alfredo was sitting on the edge of the bed staring out the window. It was
suddenly too much for her. "You! I
do this to feed you." She stared at him. He stared back with his dark
eyes. "I can't
go home because of you." She slapped him. There was no response. She turned
away from him and looked out at the sea and the birds. This wasn't going to
work. Wait. Jean turned
to him. "Can you work?" He
ponderously turned his head toward her. "Yes." "You do
speak Spanish?" "Sí." "Come
with me." She looked
through her toilet bag and found a pair of scissors. They were almost too
long for what she wanted but they would do. The fluorescent light in the
bathroom glittered off the steel as she cut his hair, a sharp, pointed light.
After a few moments, she turned his head up toward her. The hair was nearly
right. His cheek was smooth against her hand. Impulsively, she kissed him and
he moved toward her but she pushed him back down in the chair. "All
right," she said finally. "Take a shower." He started the
water and she watched him for a long minute. After that, she thought, after
that, we'll see. ALFREDO FOUND
a job almost immediately and made enough to keep them both alive. Now, Jean
lay on the beach and tanned. Alfredo worked hard and his strength was such
that he could work through the siesta. He had only
to watch a thing done and then could do it. The workers on Isla Mujeres
grumbled. Jean shrewdly noticed this and sent him across the bay into Cancún
where the wages were higher. Two weeks
after this they had enough to move into the El Presidente Hotel. That night
she looked at him. "Ever the sophisticate," she murmured. "Go
get clothes fit to wear here." Alfredo did
and she went to dinner in the Caribe on his arm. He looked so strong and
dignified the other women in the room looked at him, then away. Jean felt a
thrill go through her. Over dinner she murmured instructions which he
executed flawlessly. She felt quite fond of him. Over coffee,
the waiter brought them a message from a Lydia Conklin and friend, inviting
them for cocktails. She read it.
Alfredo did not -- yet -- read and stared away toward the open doorway of the
bar. "What
are you looking at?" she asked. He turned to
her. "Nothing." "Look
around the room regularly like a normal person." He did not
answer but instead watched the room as if bored or waiting for the check. Jean read the
note again. She shrugged
and signed the check. The two of them went to the bar for a drink. "Excuse
me." A woman stood up in front of them. "I am Lydia Conklin." Jean looked
first at her, then at Alfredo. "I'm Jean Summat. I got your note--" "I was
dying for American speech." As she spoke she only glanced at Jean. Her
eyes were full of Alfredo. "You don't know what it's like." Now,
she turned to Jean. "Or perhaps you do." "I've
been here a few weeks." "Señora
Summat." That voice
Jean knew. Behind and to her left was Hector. "Good evening,
Hector." "You
know Hector too?" Lydia said idly. "How wonderful." "Sit
with us, Señora. Please." Hector pulled out a chair for her. Jean looked
at Alfredo. Alfredo paused a moment, watched her closely, then sat across
from her at the table. Hector sat
next to Jean. He leaned toward Lydia. "Señora Summat, Alfredo, and
myself were business partners." "'Were'?
"Lydia raised her eyebrows. "The
business is accomplished. It is of no matter." Jean
interrupted. "Are you down for a vacation, Lydia?" Lydia
shrugged. "In a way. I'm down for my health. This last year I went
mad." Hector
laughed. Jean smiled uneasily. Lydia shrugged again. "Señora
Conklin makes a good joke." "It was,
I suppose." Lydia sipped her drink. "I came down here two years ago
and fell in love with a Mayan. I'm back to see if lightning can strike
twice." Something in
her face was hard to look at for more than a moment. Jean looked away.
"What was the Mayan's name?" "Alberto.
Hector is helping me find another." Hector seemed
nervous. He turned to Jean. "I introduce Señora Conklin to eligible men
--" "He
pimps for me." Lydia lit a cigarette. "Your Mayan reminds me of
Alberto." "Alfredo.
His name is Alfredo." Jean looked at Alfredo. His face was impassive. "The
names are almost the same." Lydia blew smoke in the air above the table. "Did
Alberto care for you?'" "He--"
Lydia paused a moment " -- he adored me. He was my slave." "Señoras?
Would you care for more drinks?' Hector was perspiring now. Jean and
Lydia stared at one another. Jean turned
to Alfredo. "What do you think of this?" Alfredo did
not speak for a long minute, watching the two women. Then he smiled at Jean.
"A Mayan is no woman's slave." And he laughed. Lydia stared
at him with an open mouth. Hector frowned. Jean looked
at them both in triumph. "I suspect that may be the definitive Mayan
answer. Alfredo, would you take me to my room?" Alfredo stood
quickly and led her away. Jean was
thinking: What is in him? What is in there? It was June
now and the island was somewhat hotter and much more humid. The frigate birds
flew low over the buildings as if the wet air could not support them. The
Mexican fishermen brought in great nets of snapper and bonita. The American
sport fishermen disappeared in search of marlin and sailfish. Lydia Conklin
stayed. She always seemed to be watching Alfredo. Hector seemed to leave the
island regularly but he always returned. Jean fancied she could tell when
either was around just by the feeling of eyes on Alfredo. Often Lydia
would invite them to dinner, or cards, or for drinks. Usually Jean turned her
down. Sometimes, though, they would go and Jean never could figure out why.
There was a dance here, a dangerous ballet that attracted her. One evening,
they were drinking in Lydia's apartment in the Presidente. "You
know," Lydia began, swirling tequila in a brandy snifter. "I've
been seeing you both for a couple of months now. I don't know what Alfredo
does. What do you do, Alfredo?" Alfredo sat
back in his chair and looked at Jean, then back to Lydia. "Do?" "How do
you support yourself?" For a moment, Alfredo did not seem to understand.
"I do contract work." Jean glanced
at him over the rim of her glass. Good God. What have I got here? "Contract
work?" Lydia came over to him. "Did you build these great strong
arms at a desk job?" Alfredo shook
his head. "I do nothing with a desk. I work with bricklayers. Tilers.
Those who build walls and houses." "Ah!"
Lydia leaned back. "You are a contractor." "That's
what I said." "This is
how you support her? This is what she left her husband for?" Lydia
stiffened and swayed, looked down at him. "Christ, you have sunk
low." Jean didn't
know which of them Lydia was speaking to. Alfredo
looked at Jean and suddenly there was pleading in his eyes. "I think
it's time we left, Lydia." Jean carefully put down her drink.
"Thanks and all." Lydia threw
her glass against the wall shattering it. "I'm sick of this! I owned him
before you -- then, I left him. Hector sold him to me first! Do you
understand? To me!" She knelt before him. "Alberto. Tell me you
remember me. Tell me I didn't come back for nothing." Jean couldn't
move. Alfredo put
out his hand and touched her cheek. He traced the line of her jaw, then held
her head in both hands. He tilted her face toward his. Her tears were clearly
visible now, hot and pouring. He looked at her closely, staring, searching
her face with his eyes. "I don't
know you," he said softly and let her go. She fell at
his feet and started sobbing. Alfredo took
Jean's arm and led her out. "It's been a lovely evening," Jean said
as they left. Later: in
bed. It took her a
long time to catch her breath afterward. She was covered in a light sheen of
sweat that made her cold in the air conditioning. "What are you?"
she asked quietly. He did not
answer. She drew the
tip of her finger down his chest. "Answer me. What are you?" He looked at
her in the dark and she could see a glow in his eyes. "I don't
know." YOU COULD NOT
call it consciousness, for consciousness determines its own needs and he
could not do that. He was predetermined. He was programmed. Neither could you
call him a person, for a person has a complex assortment of drives that come
from many sources. His drives were simple and their source was singular. He was a
tool: intelligent, willful, resourceful. A tool aimed at a specific purpose. Jean followed
him to Cancún. She sat in
the far back section of the crowded ferry, away from him. There had been a
storm the day before and though the air was clear, the resulting seas kept
the big automobile ferry at dock. But the little ferry that carried only
people plowed through the sea. It was close and hot aboard the boat and it
stank of animals, sweat, rotten fish, diesel fumes. The sea pitched them back
and forth until Jean was sure she was about to be sick. A large rip in the
fabric covering the deck rails showed the bobbing horizon and she stared at
it until she had the nausea under control. Alfredo did
not seem to notice. He sat on one of the benches leaning on his elbows. When the boat
docked he hailed one of the cabs and left. Jean was barely able to hail one
in time to follow him. His cab
stopped just outside the Plaza Hidalgo next to the site of a new library.
Alfredo stepped out of the cab and Jean didn't recognize him at first. He'd
changed in the cab. His workman's dungarees and loose shirt were gone. Now,
he was wearing a tie and short-sleeved white shirt and slacks. He walked over
to the contractor's office, never noticing her following him. She saw him
talking with the architect in rapid-fire Spanish. He seemed to be in charge
of the construction. She withdrew before he could see her. As Jean left
the construction site she saw a woman sitting on the park bench across the
street from the office. The woman smoked a cigarette and watched Alfredo
through the office window. It was Lydia Conklin. Jean moved
into the shade behind her to watch. After an hour
or so, Alfredo came out with a soda and sat down with the foreman to discuss
some detail of the construction. Lydia put out the cigarette and crossed the
street to him. He stood to meet her. They spoke for several minutes.
Suddenly, Lydia raked his face with her nails -- Jean could see the blood --
and left him, walking hurriedly. Jean left
hurriedly, too. She had no desire to see Lydia. Jean returned to the ferry
and stood on the open deck this time, smiling, watching nothing but the open
sea and the frigate birds flying in the wind. She checked
her bank account in Isla Mujeres. There were several thousand dollars more
than there should have been. Alfredo must have been in this position for some
time. It made her laugh softly. He is mine,
Lydia. He is mine to touch, make, and mold. The storm in
him gradually calmed. The needs that drove him called out other needs, other
traits. A sluggish thought blew through him, an inarticulate gale across the
continents of what should have been a mind. It shook him. It broke the back
of the incoherent storm that raged in him and let in the light. He stood
blind and trembling in that light, trying to speak. Jean awoke
and he was not there. She sat up
suddenly and looked around the room. He stood, nude, on the balcony staring
at the sea. The sliding door was open. She could smell the ocean through the
air conditioning. "Alfredo?" He croaked
something unintelligible. She followed
him out into the air. "Alfredo?" He was dripping with sweat. The
moonlight made him glow. "Did you have a nightmare?" Ridiculous.
Why would he have nightmares? He turned to
her and his face was wet with tears, the long scabs from Lydia's fingernails
dark on his silver face. He shook his head, buried his face in his hands. "What's
going on?" She started toward him. He looked at
her in such pain she stepped back. "I am .... " Suddenly,
Jean did not want to know. She left him and reentered the apartment. Alfredo
followed her, reached out to her. She backed away. He was huge. He filled the
room -- she remembered the night in Hector's house, how strong he was. He was
dark in the shadows of the room, looming over her. "I
am...," he repeated. "I am a man." He reached for her again. Jean dodged
him and ran to the other edge of the table. "Stay there." "Jean...I
have become a man for you." "Stay
there! That's an order!" He followed
her. They circled the table. Jean grabbed the scissors from the table and
held them in front of her. "Stay away from me." "Jean. I
love you." The moonlight
struck his face and it was all shadows and silver. His eyes glowed for her,
his face was transfigured by some secret knowledge. He leaped the table
toward her and she fell back and he took her shoulders. She screamed and
drove the scissors deep into his chest. His hands
fell away from her and she stumbled against the wall, staring at him. Alfredo
touched the handles of the scissors, looked at her and began to sway, caught
himself, fell down to his knees. He looked at her again and full realization
of what had happened seemed to touch him. He fell on his back, twitched
twice, and was still. Jean crumpled
into a chair and watched the body. Finally, she pulled the scissors from his
chest and washed them in the bathroom until they were clean. She drew her
finger down the blades. Not sharp. Not sharp at all. But sharp enough. She
smiled. She felt filled somehow. Satisfied. Jean packed
carefully and when she was done, she kissed Alfredo good-bye on his cold lips
and walked down to the ferry dock. She reached the Cancún airport in time for
the early morning flight to New Orleans. From there, she took a flight to
Boston. As she lay
back in her seat watching the clouds move beneath her, she thought about
Marc: if he had waited for her, if he had divorced her. She would like to
start again with him if she could, but she would survive if she couldn't. She
felt alive with possibility. Jean fell
asleep and dreamed of frigate birds circling endlessly above her. Hector found
him an hour after dawn. "Mierda," he said when he saw the blood.
"That she could ...." He shook his head as he opened the suitcase
he had with him. With tools he had brought with him, he cut open Alfredo's
chest and sewed the heart and lungs back together, then closed the chest
cavity. From the suitcase he brought two broad plates connected to thick
electrical cables and attached them to either side of Alfredo's chest.
Alfredo convulsed as Hector adjusted the controls inside the suitcase.
Alfredo moaned and opened his eyes. "Good,"
said Hector. He detached the plates and returned them to the suitcase. "Hector....
"Alfredo shook his head from side to side. "She hurt me." Hector
watched him carefully but did not listen. He flicked two switches and watched
the meters. Alfredo sat up. "I am a man, Hector." Hector nodded
absently and adjusted his controls. "Certainly, she thought you were. Or
she would never have tried to kill you. Stand, por favor." Alfredo
stood. "I am still a man." Hector
shrugged. "For the moment." "You
can't take something like that away." Alfredo clutched his hands
together and looked out the window. "I must follow her." "She
doesn't want you. She's gotten what she needed." Alfredo
turned and noticed the suitcase. He watched Hector adjusting the controls.
Alfredo pleaded with him. "I love her. She needs me. You can't take
something like that away." "No?"
Two needles appeared on either side of one dial. Carefully, Hector brought
them together. "Hector!
Don't. Please." Alfredo's hands clutched the air and his face twisted.
"Please," he whispered. "You can't --" Hector
flicked a switch and Alfredo stiffened. A blank look descended on Alfredo's
face. "Of
course I can," said Hector and stood up himself. "Señora Conklin?
He is ready." Lydia entered
the room. "He is? Wonderful." She turned to the Mayan.
"Alberto." The blank eyes turned toward the sound of her voice.
"I am so glad to see you again." |