I ran with memory and dream, like the buds of a spring tree, pushing from the death of winter: nibbles of tender shoots in my mind, delicate and sweet. I remembered forests. I remembered in my hands a fine bow, my hair loose and braided with leaves and moss, my body covered in a slip of linen, and in my focus a white stag, bounding swift on hooves like starry cuffs; hunting animals, hunting men, hunting demons.
I saw demons. I saw strange things. I saw myself, riding atop Zee’s back, the boys running large as lions across a rocky desert, through the shambles of a ruined moonlight city—and in front of us, men on horseback, racing for their lives. I saw elephants marching on two feet across snow, bearing armor and swords and small winged women in cages; and a ship powered by sails that glittered like golden spiderwebs beneath a purple sky; and my body, drifting in a world of starlight, my mouth and nose covered by skin—the boys, breathing for me. In space. Above a red planet dashed with clouds.
And then I was in the forest again, but I was blind and heavy, and beneath my hand I touched a long, spiraled horn, cool and familiar as stone.
A woman whispered, “Hunter. You should not have come here. Not now.”
“I’m dreaming,” I whispered.
“You should be.” The spiraled horn shifted, sliding in my hand until my knuckles brushed the silken hide of a fine-boned head. “So pretend, Hunter. Pretend this is a dream, and that you do not fall so lightly between the shadows of the Labyrinth. Pretend you are not more than what you seem.”
I think I smiled, but the dream was fading, and everything around me felt gossamer, and soft. “I know you. You were human once.”
“I was never human,” said the woman quietly. “And neither are you.”
The horn slipped away, quick as thought—and jabbed me in the chest. Pain exploded, but it was soft and thick, blossoming like the fast-motion revelation of a red, red rose—and the petals that fell were blood, and the blood was sweet on my tongue.
Until, suddenly, the blood was no longer so sweet. The dream broke.
I gasped, choking, and surged upward. I glimpsed a room thick with moving shadows, candle flames flickering—then pain paralyzed me, and I could not breathe. Small, sharp hands pushed me down—followed by larger human ones: quick and warm against my body. My shirt was cut away. I felt soaked, everywhere. I tried opening my eyes, but my lids were too heavy: No amount of willpower could make me see.
“No bullet,” Zee rasped, somewhere near. “Taken already.”
“Broken bones?” asked a woman, her voice low and tense. “I can’t tell from looking.”
“Healed. Done and fixed.”
“But not the rest of her? Damn fool bitch.” Soft cloth was pressed to my chest, just above my right breast. “What was she thinking?”
“Too much blood,” Zee murmured. “Couldn’t let her blood be scented. Not in the maze.”
The woman grumbled something under her breath, but her hands were strong and competent, and even when she poured some burning fluid over my wound, making me scream, I was not afraid of her.
I heard a door slam, and another low voice that was young and soft. A cool cloth touched my brow, and water dribbled into my mouth. Dek and Mal were quiet. After a while, all I could hear was harsh breathing and the thundering skip of my heart.
Then, not even that.
I did not dream. I entered darkness and abided there, and when it was time, I opened my eyes and was awake.
I hurt. I noticed that first. I could not breathe without pain, and so I breathed carefully, inhaling so very little it felt as though breathing were the same as skipping a stone across still water, light, quick, careful.
I was in a bed, with covers folded up to my waist, and warm, hard stones tucked around my elbows, lower back, and neck. The boys were heavy on my skin, but the heat of the stones soaked through their tattooed bodies, and I was grateful. It felt good.
I was in a simple bedroom, with no windows. Cigarette smoke clung to the air. On my right, wood creaked—and a woman said, “Never the easy way with you, is it?”
I managed to move my head, just a fraction. I glimpsed long legs clad in brown trousers, tucked inside tall, scuffed boots. A white blouse gleamed, obscured by a long scarf and dark braids. Smoke drifted around a tattooed hand. I looked into a face that was mine, only older, lined with the pulse of the wind and sun.
“Maxine, again,” whispered my grandmother.
I stared, and she stabbed her cigarette into a porcelain dish that held the brown core of an apple and some bread, as well as the stubby remains of more cigarettes, which had spilled over onto the table. She cleared her throat, then picked up a teacup and held it to my mouth. I needed help to drink. Water dribbled down my chin, but I hardly noticed. I stared into my grandmother’s eyes.
“Don’t strain yourself,” she said, after a minute. “Not like I’m going anywhere.”
I did not look away. “When are we?”
“Nineteen seventy-four. Been two years since you found us in Mongolia.” Jean Kiss gestured sharply at the interior of the bedroom—not looking particularly happy with her surroundings. “Now we’re in Paris. Renting a flat from an old soldier I know.”
I remembered my brief glimpse of Mongolian grass-lands and the blue sky that had burned itself into me as surely as the presence of the woman seated now at my bedside. Three months ago, right before my last battle with Ahsen, I had made the mistake of traveling through time—the first of many, it seemed. The finger armor had brought me to my grandmother then—but I had never thought to see her again.
“Why did you leave Mongolia?” I asked.
“Because I’m not going to be around forever,” she said bluntly, “and this world is unkind to ignorant women. Paris has good tutors. Jolene will learn some things.”
“I didn’t raise a whiner,” replied my grandmother, though I could tell she was none too pleased, either, about where they were living.
I did not, however, know what else to say. Maybe she didn’t, either. I lay on the bed, aching—watching her watch me. In silence.
Until she said: “Look at us. Talking.”
I smiled. “I like it.”
“Don’t like it too much.” My grandmother stood, and pulled an old creased-leather wallet from her back pocket. She unfolded it on the nightstand, revealing thin papers and a tin of loose tobacco leaves. She began rolling a cigarette and glanced at me. “You can make mistakes, but not with time.”
“That’s right.” Jean Kiss struck a match and lit her cigarette. “You were dying, and Zee got you help. Survival comes first. I know that. But this”—and she waved her hand between us—“is dangerous.”
She smiled grimly. “And what about just ours?”
I stared, unsure how to respond. My grandmother started smoking her cigarette and leaned back in the small wooden chair, stretching out her legs. Still watching me. Watching me so long and hard I felt uneasy.
“Jolene is downstairs,” said my grandmother, suddenly. “I made her promise not to speak to you.”
“My mother,” I said.
“My daughter,” she added. “Letting you meet that first time was a mistake. She developed an . . . unhealthy . . . preoccupation with your existence.”
“I’m sorry,” I said, unsure what that meant. “I didn’t mean to cause trouble.”
“Trouble,” echoed my grandmother, knocking ashes to the floor. “You should have seen the look on her face when you were brought here, bleeding to death. If you had died in front of her, mere trouble would have been the least of it.”
I could not argue with her about that. I tried to sit up, and managed to do so after a long and careful negotiation with the pain inside my body. Breathing was easier, which was a small consolation. When I looked down at where my wound should have been, all I saw was an unblemished line of tattoos.
My grandmother came to sit beside me. “You’ll still have some signs of injury after sunset, but within a day or two even those will be gone. The boys take care of us, when we let them.”
“My mother was hurt once.” Jean Kiss picked up my right hand. “You have to go now, Maxine.”
I searched her eyes. “Something’s happened to you since we last met. I can tell. You weren’t this . . . brittle . . . before.”
“Brittle,” she echoed, and her entire face tightened with pain—just before sliding into the cool, thoughtful mask that had greeted me upon waking. “All of us change. Everyone in this world, from birth to death, becomes someone new. Again and again, we are remade.”
“You compensate,” she replied, stubbing out the cigarette on her tattooed hand. “You remind yourself of what’s important and let that guide you.”
“I’ve heard this before,” I said, searching her face. “From my mother .”
My grandmother blinked. “Is that so?”
“And Jack,” I added softly.
She blinked again, but this time it was more of a flinch. “I suppose he’s still causing trouble?”
“Ah,” she breathed, and for the first time, a hint of vulnerability appeared in her eyes. “And you? Are you in trouble for having him as a grandfather?”
“I don’t care if I am,” I replied sharply. “He’s mine.”
“Good girl.” Jean Kiss closed her eyes and smiled—even as her hand tightened around the armor. “Jolene isn’t the only one who thinks of you often.”
Until, abruptly, I could see again.
And found myself surrounded by skins.
CHAPTER 21
I was inside a frozen room, made of ice, polished to diamond sheen. Men and women hung from meat hooks, embedded in the ceiling. Men and women stood inside the walls, stored behind plates of clear ice. Men and women rested upon ice tables, naked and exposed to air so cold my entire body steamed, and my breath burned white.
I lay very still on an ice-carved floor, trying to make sense of what I was seeing. I could not. I knew my eyes were not lying, but in my heart—it was too much. The people hanging from racks in the ceiling wore clothes: business suits, jogging outfits, Goth chic leather, jeans and T-shirts. As though they had all been plucked from their lives and packed immediately on ice. Fifty in total, maybe, including those on the tables and stored in the walls. Lost lives.
Cold storage. Mr. King has to keep bodies somewhere, between experiments.
My chest hurt. Breathing was hard, but the cold air helped. I sat up, slowly, hissing in agony as nausea passed over me. I thought I might vomit and doubled over, breathing hard. Staring at my hands. The finger armor had changed once again. It had been happening over the last few jumps, but I had stopped looking. Resigned to the inevitability of its growth.
My middle finger was completely encased in metal, and a second silver vein trailed from its base to the cuff around my wrist. I flexed my hand and felt nothing of the armor, which was so much like my flesh it would have been indistinguishable had its appearance not been so different: engraved with coiled roses and knots made of wings.
I rolled over on my hip, struggling against rolling waves of pain, and managed to get my knee under me—then my leg—until I stood on two feet, swaying. My head swam. So did memories of my grandmother. Seemed to me she knew a little too much about time travel and the armor I wore. Seemed, too, that when time-traveling, a person could stand to take a day or two to heal before being shot back to the future—and the time—you wanted.
Like you’re some expert. Get a grip.
I turned in a slow circle. The room was perfectly quiet, but the men and women hanging above me were alive. I could see the faintest haze of breath puffing from their nostrils and open mouths. Their eyes were closed, faces slack. The massive hooks they hung from were mostly lost inside their clothing, which gave me some hope that they had not been speared like so many trout.
Zee and the boys were warm on my skin. Even my face was protected in their tattoos: Dek and Mal, coiled in symmetry upon my cheeks. I could feel them, dreaming, as I shuffled painfully around the room, looking for a door.
Aaz tugged sharply on my hand. I followed his lead, but he did not take me to an exit. Instead, I found myself at one of the ice chambers, peering through the cold wall at a slender nude body, and a pale face surrounded by dark hair.
Killy.
I had my nails sunk into the ice before I stopped to think—but I did think—and my hands stilled. If I freed Killy, and she was alive, was it wise of me to take her along? I was in no shape to protect anyone. I could hardly care for myself right now.
On the other hand, if I left her behind and something happened, if I never found my way back to this room . . .
Damned if you do, and damned if you don’t.
I jabbed my hard black nails into the ice, digging into the wall—gritting my teeth as pain raced through my chest. Moments later, Aaz and Raw began heating my palms, and I pressed them flat against the cold surface. Clouds of steam drifted into the air, and water streamed down the wall. I applied pressure, changing angles, running my hands across the ice—sinking deeper, slow and easy—until suddenly I broke through to Killy.
First thing I noticed was that her face had color. Pale, but with a faint rose in her cheeks. Her lips were pink. I had expected blue, some pallor of extreme cold and death. She was breathing, though. She had a pulse. No reaction when I reached through the hole in the ice to touch her.
I ripped away the remains of the ice—stopping once to catch my breath—and pulled Killy free. I hardly had the strength to lower her to the floor and ended up dumping her awkwardly, focused only on protecting her head. I stood, staring at her body, trying to decide what to do for clothes—and then started yanking off mine. I did not feel the cold. I stood naked, except for the shoulder holster holding knives against my ribs.
Not until I began dressing Killy did I realize that the clothes I had been wearing were not mine. Soft pants, a soft shirt, and wool sweater. No boots, just thick socks. My grandmother’s clothing. Or maybe my mother’s. I pressed the shirt to my nose, inhaling deep. Smelled warm, with some indefinable quality, like spice and sunlight, that hit me deep in the gut. My mother. My mother had worn these clothes.
I was selfish. For one second I regretted dressing Killy—losing that precious scent to another person—and then I pushed those feelings aside and focused on keeping the woman warm. Not once did she stir. I checked her pulse again. It was strong and steady. Stronger, maybe, than mine.
Once I had the woman in my clothes, I knelt and pressed my warm hands between her breasts, then her hands and face. Patted her cheeks—lightly, then harder—suffering a rising panic. Count on me to kill the person I was trying to rescue. Out of desperation, I pressed my right hand on her brow—armored fingers tight against her skin—and thought, Please.
My hand tingled, but more: a jolt of electricity that rode down my arm, and that made the boys ripple in response. Killy’s eyes flew open, so wildly, with such strength, I flinched.
Nothing else happened, though. She stared past my face at the ceiling, without reaction or acknowledgment. No gasps for breath, no writhing around in discomfort. She showed no reaction. Not even a glimmer. Not even when, quite unexpectedly, she said: “Oh, that’s so wrong. Not the chipmunks.”
I frowned. “Killy?”
“Jesus Christ,” she muttered, a crease forming between her eyes. “Who the fuck is in this room with me? Perverts-R-Us?”
“Uh,” I said. “Can you hear me?”
“You’re the only one not screaming,” she said, and touched her brow with a wince. “What did you do to me?”
“Nothing,” I replied, wondering if that was a lie. “Can you stand?”
“I could pole-dance Mount Everest if it gets me away from these minds.” Killy sat up, moving almost as painfully as me—and then stopped as she looked around the room: at the ice, the men and women hanging, stored, laid out. Her face grew very pale and drawn.
“Oh,” she said. “I didn’t know.”
“You were part of the display,” I told her, trying not to make any frightening noises as I struggled to stand. I held out my hand, ready to help Killy to her feet, but she did not move. Just stared at me, too, but with a puzzled frown that was not scandalized—only, it seemed, confused.
I tried not to be embarrassed. Fought a lifetime of rabid self-preservation in less than three seconds. No one but Grant had ever seen me so naked. I would have preferred to keep it that way. I did not know this woman—not one thing about her—except that she was psychic (or a great con artist, in the same vein); she had stayed when she could have run, the boys had not treated her as a threat, and she was in love with a priest.
Actually, that was probably more than I knew about my own grandfather. And grandmother.
“You needed clothes,” I said tersely. “I don’t feel the cold.”
“Thanks,” she replied absently, rubbing her forehead. “I can hear your skin humming.”
“It does that.” I reached down, grabbed her hand, and tried not to black out from the pain as I yanked her up. She practically flew, but her eyes were squeezed shut the entire time, and she held her head with both hands when I let go.
“Everything’s turned up,” she whispered. “I shouldn’t be this strong.”
“Do you remember what happened, how you were brought here?”
She shook her head. “No. But they got everyone but the old man and the kid.”
Wild hope flared in my heart. I grabbed Killy’s elbow and pulled her along. I had noticed the possibility of a door while trying to wake her, and sure enough, there was an alcove between the wall units and the first table. No actual door, just an opening that led from the room into a hall. I glanced down as we passed one of the ice slabs, and saw a teenage girl laid out neatly, unconscious. Many young people, all around me.
Killy pressed her palm over her eye. “Snakes in her popcorn.”
I gave her a startled look. “Excuse me?”
“She’s dreaming about snakes in her popcorn.” Killy’s frown deepened as we passed the girl. “She volunteered for this. For what she thought it would be.”
“And?” Ice shelves lined the wall near the door, filled with thin white robes and white sweats and tees. In a small basket were white slippers packaged in plastic. I grabbed a set of everything but the slippers, shrugged off the shoulder holster, and began dressing.
“And nothing,” Killy sad quietly, looking at the girl—who seemed serene in sleep, despite her dreams. “She thought it would make her special. Special enough that people would love her.”
My chest still hurt like hell, but either I was getting used to the pain, or it just didn’t bother me as much. I was able to pull the shirt over my head without breaking into tears. I touched Killy’s elbow. “If we do this right, maybe she’ll be lucky enough to be proven wrong.”
We left the cold-storage room and entered a long ice-carved hall that curved away in both directions. Weird place. Reminded me of photos I had seen of ice mansions; or something from a James Bond film. I thought hard about Grant, sending a silent message to the boys. Raw tugged hard on my left hand—while at the same time Aaz tugged faintly on my right.
Huh. I glanced at Killy, who was beginning to shiver. “What do you hear inside your head?”
She stared at me, rubbing her arms. “Not a lot of people nearby. There are clumps of minds where there isn’t much thought at all, not even dreams. Those are scattered. As for the rest . . .”
Killy frowned, closing her eyes—head tilted as though listening. I waited impatiently, twitching backward, wanting to follow Raw’s lead—and then stiffened as Killy’s face jerked suddenly sideways as though slapped. I reached out, but she shied away with absolute, mind-crushing anguish in her eyes, and started running down the hall—away from me, toward the right. I stared after her, torn—my left hand tugging harder—but I swore silently, dug my bare toes into the icy floor, and chased after her.
She was fast. I was in pain. I tried my best, but she pulled ahead, and I was loath to shout after her. Instead, I practiced throwing rude and unflattering thoughts in her direction. Killy glanced over her shoulder at me, and her pace slowed to a very fast walk. I caught up, wondering how long we could move through this strange ice palace without running into another person.
“Who is it?” I asked.
“Frank,” she whispered, and winced. “Oh, God.”
I thought of Grant—and Mary—and gritted my teeth. One at a time. Whoever came first. I glanced down at the finger armor, hesitant to use it again to cut space. A faint glow rolled through the metal, and Zee rumbled in his dreams. Raw, sleeping on the same hand as the armor, also fidgeted, sending a faint pulse through my thumb and fingers, which I felt despite the metal surrounding my skin.
My hand flexed, reflexively, as though holding something, and the armor tingled—the boys shifting in response, again—until suddenly I felt as though I was eavesdropping on a very peculiar conversation.
Mind of its own, Mr. King had said.
So tell me, I asked the armor silently. What do you think I need?
Killy pulled ahead of me, just slightly. I hung back as the armor began shimmering with a liquid light that resembled moonbeams captured in a bottle: brighter, colder, filling me with a thrill I could not fight, which chased my heart into my stomach as I closed my eyes against the brilliant light.
Heat filled my palm. When I looked again, I held a sword.
I knew the weapon. I had summoned it from the armor once before, three months past. Delicate and slender, glowing brighter than the ice with a light that seemed cast from within: the moon’s reflection caught in its forging. The engraved silver hilt fit to my hand, and from its pommel ran a chain that bound the sword to the iron armor surrounding my wrist. Runes covered the blade, and I ran my palm hard against the razor edge. Sparks danced. Heat soared through my tattooed fingers as I gripped the hilt. Felt good holding the sword. Natural, an extension of myself: a biting silver needle beneath my skin. The weapon weighed nothing, but holding it made me feel ten feet taller.
I looked up. Killy had stopped, and was staring at the sword.
“What did I just see?” she asked sharply.
“Don’t ask me,” I said. “I just take what I’m given.”
She made a small, ugly noise. “Dangerous people should not be so fucking clueless.”
“Aw,” I said. “Compliments.”
Killy shook her head, looking at me like I was shit—and then turned, sprinting ahead on light feet, leading me to another open doorway. The place seemed to be made of nothing but halls and doors and ice—a polar temple; a cold nightmare. I heard strange sounds inside—hissing, crunching—but peering through the carved archway revealed nothing except a hall. I ran, sword humming in my hand, and felt the boys tug sharply, once.
I smelled blood. Listened to more crunching—bones grinding between teeth—wet, fierce smacks. I knew those sounds.
Killy said, again: “Frank.”
I rounded a corner in the hall and found myself inside a cavern that looked hacked from stone and ice; a hollow gray shell filled with jutting edges that resembled ax blades glued together at random angles. A large pit had been dug in the center of the room—an incongruous, unexpected vision—like finding a football field inside a closet. It was at least twenty feet deep; a gladiatorial crater, or medieval prison. Men were in the pit. Hunched figures in black robes, chained to ice walls that could not have held them had they been agitated. Which they were. But not because anyone wanted to escape.
They were eating. Gorging themselves like animals, on all fours. The bottom of the pit was several different shades of bloodred: old, really old, and brand-new. I saw the remains of an entire cow and several pigs, intestines spilled in steaming piles, mashed together under knees and feet as sharp-toothed men snapped at one another, and bent face-first into the guts and flesh of the dead animals. Humanity, burned out of their minds. Professionals, students, husbands, fathers—now killers covered in blood. Bile rose up my throat.
Killy grabbed my arm and pointed. Nearby on our right were two men, one of whom was being pulled toward the edge of the pit, hauled along by a second man shrouded head to toe in black, including a hood that covered his head.
The man being dragged was Father Lawrence. Trussed in chains, he was spitting and snarling—his single red eye glowing, face covered in fur.
Killy started running before I could stop her. I pursued, dimly aware of many eyes zeroing in on us from the bottom of the pit—like frenzied sharks in a pool already red with chum. My skin crawled. My chest hurt. It was hard to breathe, but I sucked up the pain and lunged past Killy, sword swinging. The blade slashed down through the man’s shoulder and chest like his muscles and bones were made of water. I did not expect so little resistance, and careened into him. He smelled like blood, raw meat—and he uttered one small grunt just before toppling backward, into the pit. In two pieces.
“Crap,” I said, as his body landed on top of several creatures in the pit, all of whom had stopped eating and were standing very still, watching us. Silence descended. No one attacked the corpse, but several of those nearest bent to sniff carefully at it. Snarls rumbled from them. Howls. Chains strained against the wall.
I turned quickly. Killy was trying to drag Father Lawrence back to the door, which looked a little like Thum belina wrestling with a grizzly bear. He was not fighting her, but there was a wild look in both eyes that made me want to warn her off. Instead, I took two long strides and set the sword tip against Father Lawrence’s chains. The links split. He shrugged free and rolled to his feet in one blindingly quick movement.
Below, in the pit, the ice walls cracked.
“Run,” I snapped.
Father Lawrence lunged toward Killy—with such aggression that for one moment I thought he might hurt her. Instead, he threw the small woman over his shoulder and ran—hunched over, almost on all fours—her small body flopping awkwardly. No way I could keep pace. I glanced over my shoulder and found dark-robed bodies scrambling up a coiled path that had been carved into the side of the pit. More men than I could count, an overkill of bodies, arms pressed to their sides so that their odd, leaning posture and raging mouths reminded me again of torpedoes and piranhas, or sharks on two feet.
I did not run. I braced myself, digging in my heels, the sword burning with light. Men with stolen lives, I told myself. Have mercy.
Have mercy and kill them fast, my mother would have said, and I swung the blade like a baseball bat at the first wave of snarling men who rushed me. Bone cracked, blood spraying across my face as the sword sliced straight through flesh with a sweet, humming hiss. Howls vibrated in my ears, sharp teeth flashing. I smelled raw meat.
All I wanted was to give Father Lawrence and Killy time. All I needed was to clean up some of the mess Mr. King had created. There were too many, though—and their momentum was crushing. I staggered, slashing at anything that moved, blind to individual faces and bodies; just mouths, wet and red, and impossibly large. The boys screamed inside my mind. Teeth broke on my neck. I punched and clawed with my free hand, raking flesh to bone under my black nails. Breathing hurt. I could not breathe.
Until, suddenly, a space opened in front of me—and one of the sharp-toothed men barreled sideways into the others, snarling. A shadow clung to his shoulders, an aura like the ghost of a thunderstorm, concentrated into a flickering wisp. It was not alone, either. I saw other shadows appear inside the ice cavern, falling with inexorable promise upon the heads of those raging men. I watched demonic parasites take possession.
And I was glad of it.
Only a handful had come, but that was enough to confuse and push back the others. Bodies slammed, raging, and for a moment it was like watching sharks turn on one another, mouths spilling over with flesh and blood. One of the possessed broke free of the others, striding toward me—standing tall like a man, and not one of those speeding human torpedoes. His aura flickered wildly, and his eyes—I knew those eyes.
“Hunter,” he rasped, voice muffled by teeth, low and growling.
“Rex?” I muttered. “Why are you here?”
“Old skinner Jack. He told us about Grant.” He spat blood on the ice floor. “So we came to help, enemy of my enemy. Wrap your mind around that.”
I could not and backed away, watching as the zombies tore into the remaining men. “These are strong hosts. Who’s to say you won’t keep the bodies?”
Rex smiled mirthlessly, which looked ghastly given the unending rows of sharp teeth in his mouth. “We gave our word. So go, find Grant. We’ll take care of the rest.”
“I don’t trust you,” I snapped. “No matter how much you love Grant.”
The zombie’s eyes narrowed. “Get out of here.”
I did. When I reached the hall outside the room, Father Lawrence and Killy were gone. No sounds or signs of their escape. The ice floor was scratched, but it was like that everywhere, without one definitive track to follow.
Behind me, howls. My right hand tugged sharply.
You’re on your own, I told the priest and woman—and raced down the hall, back the way we had come, toward the cold-storage freezer of bodies and beyond, to where the boys were telling me that Grant was being held.
It was hard to move fast. My chest burned. Breathing was worse. After running for less than minute, I bent over, holding myself, trying not to be sick—struggling instead to imagine those skipping stones on still water: In, out, breathe.
I met no one in the hall, though I heard howls, sounds of combat: ice cracking, broken screams. I thought about Father Lawrence and Killy. Mary. Grant. Zee tugged harder against my chest, while the sword in my hand hummed with light. I felt as though I might be traveling in a circle—I passed many open archways cut into ice—but none inspired the right kind of reaction from the boys.
Until the hall ended, abruptly. I found myself inside a cavernous room. And in the heart of the room was a labyrinth.
As in the dance club, the lines had been engraved into the ice floor, embedded with silver. And, too, a woman waited on the ice, dressed in a long silk cloak the color of snow, with a furred white hood that shrouded a young, perfect face.
“He’s waiting,” said Nephele.
WE traveled the etched labyrinth, following the path around and around, twisting, and every time I looked up from my feet and the engraved silver lines, I found the room had altered, just slightly. Ice was becoming stone, and a peach glow stained the cold blue walls.
Getting to Mr. King did not need to be so complicated, I realized; but it was homage, a shrine and ritual, in the same way it had been for pilgrims at Chartres. The Avatar might fancy himself a god, but he still prayed, still revered something he found larger than himself.
The Labyrinth.
At the center of the maze, the room shifted one last time—blurring my vision, making me dizzy. When I could see again, I stood in the temple, the hall of Mr. King—the Erlking—with its stone and stalactites, and the vast columns that stood in mist upon an impossible distance. No dancers. No bells. I did not understand this place, how it could exist just beyond reality—how Mr. King could make it exist—and yet not be able to access the Labyrinth.
I saw him immediately. I had expected an army between us—guns and teeth and fire—but Mr. King stood alone. He wore a long crimson robe, loose hood draped just over his head, framing a breathtaking face too perfect to be human—but that was, strikingly so. Black hair, pale skin, blue eyes. A silver circlet rested upon his brow. Black wings arched magnificently behind his back—so vast and lovely, even my breath caught. Even I, knowing what he was, found myself momentarily lost to awe.
Gabriel. Antony Cribari had never stood a chance.
“My Lady,” he rumbled, and his voice filled the cavern like a slow, hot purr. “I felt your arrival. Despite your . . . grievous wounds.”
“Mr. King,” I greeted him. “You said you wanted me alive.”
“I decided that death would be safer. I was right. Somehow, even now, you are destroying all I have made. My soldiers are engaged.” His gaze fell upon the armor and sword. “Such trouble for a small thing.”
“Sometimes we make our own trouble.” I twisted my wrist until the sword blade rested against the back of my arm. “Grant. The others. I want them.”
“Or you will kill me.” Mr. King’s wings stiffened, his eyes narrowing dangerously. “Only the Lightbringers and the demons were ever able to murder my kind. And now you. It was never thus with your bloodline. We were so careful when we made you not to cross certain lines.” His gaze ticked past me. “Weren’t we, Jack?”
My heart lurched. I stepped sideways, unwilling to turn my back on Mr. King, and angled my head just enough to see behind me.
Jack stood there. I had not heard him arrive. He was gaunt, pale, but with a fire in his eyes that was unholy and wild. I forgot to breathe, looking at him. Nephele was gone.
“We were careful,” said the old man, staring at Mr. King with so much fury I felt very small and young before him, hardly a tick in time. “But nothing stays the same. Not power, not majesty, not dreams. We, of all beings, should know that.”
Mr. King’s jaw tightened. “You played with her bloodline.”
“I loved,” Jack said simply. “I did nothing more than that.”
“Then how do you explain her?” His mask slipped, just a fraction, and I saw the terrible fear he was hiding, a glittering, visceral terror that was wet and sharp. “It lives inside her. I looked into its eyes, and was judged.”
“As we have judged others?” Jack took a step, and another, until he stood beside me, warm and tall. “We have played gods with worlds, and yet when faced with our deaths, we cannot swallow the bitterness of our own games?”
“Games of survival,” Mr. King whispered. “You remember what it was like to be lost in ourselves, without flesh to anchor our minds. You remember your insanity. You can feel it now, as I do, always waiting for us. None of us are safe. So if we have played at being gods, then so be it. I am sick of your judgments. You are no longer a High Lord of the Divine Organic. You gave up that right when you anchored yourself to this spit of mud and these skins. You gave up everything, and yet you punished Ahsen. You punished me, and others. For nothing more than staying sane.”
“Sanity is no excuse for cruelty.”
“Cruelty is a construct. It means nothing.” Mr. King looked at me. “You might understand that one day.”
“She has a heart,” said Jack coldly. “More than I can say for you.”
“Old Merlin Jack. Still defending your knights. Even the ones who will destroy you.” He stepped sideways, sweeping aside his robe with careful grace. The tips of his enormous black wings dragged across the stone floor. “You want the Lightbringer, yes? And the old woman? Two of the same kind. But you knew that.”
“The Labyrinth brought them here,” Jack said, a note of urgency entering his voice. “You speak of judgment, and there is your proof. They are of the First People. Even you can see that. The Labyrinth saved them.”
“For us,” said Mr. King sharply. “We need their blood to help us survive when the demons break free. No other weapon is left to us.”
“And nothing will be left when you’re done with them. You cannot clone a soul,” Jack snapped in disgust. “You won’t breed anything but what we already have.”
I grabbed his arm. “Enough talking. Where are they?”
Mr. King looked at my hand on the old man’s arm and a tangled snarl altered his perfect face into something ghastly. “If I give the Lightbringer to you, what then? You want satisfaction. You are a wolf, and wolves care for nothing else. In the company of wolves, all that can be expected is blood. And Hunter, you dream of blood.”
I must have moved. I must have. Later, I could not remember. Only, the distance between us suddenly did not exist, and when I blinked, the sword was pressed against Mr. King’s throat, and my left hand twisted his right ear. Fear filled his eyes, but when he spoke, there was only a slight tremor in his voice.
“I will have them killed,” he said.
I made no reply. Simply tilted the sword so that it angled up, in front of his eyes. He took a good long look. He could not help himself. He stared, from the blade to the armor, and the desire in his eyes was as strong as a body gone years without touch, like he might stop breathing if he looked away.
“You are cruel,” he whispered, and leaned against the blade, closing his eyes as the steel bit into his flesh and made him bleed. A tremor raced through him, and he let out a sigh that was less pain than pleasure. I pulled the blade back, just enough to break contact, and he tried to follow—desperation haunting his face.
“No,” murmured Mr. King, shivering. “No, bring it back.”
“You want this,” I said, studying the terrible hunger burning through his eyes; and the aching loneliness, the despair, that twisted his beautiful stolen face.
“I want freedom,” he breathed. “I want you to free me from this prison.”
“You are free. Free as any of us.”
“Free to die.” Mr. King squeezed shut his eyes. “The Labyrinth has denied me. I have been turned back, again and again, though the doors once opened at a thought.”
“None of us can walk the old roads as we once did,” Jack said, behind me. “What you want—”
“—what I will have,” rasped Mr. King, grabbing the blade with his hand; squeezing until he bled. “What I will have is my dignity, and respect. I will be as I was, and not this . . . thing . . . trapped on a world already dead.”
He turned his gaze on me, and it was bright and glittering with hunger and disgust. “Give me what I want, Hunter. If for nothing else, then for mercy’s sake. I do not want to die here. I do not want to die at the hands of the demons, when they are loosed upon this world.”
“And Grant? Mary?” I trembled, the armor and sword growing hot in my hand. “Don’t bullshit me. Maybe you’ll promise to leave them here. Maybe you’ll tell me you won’t ever come back. But you said it yourself: You need them. Your kind needs them. You’ll destroy this world for them, just as you’ve put a dent into it with your games of flesh.” Each word made me angrier; each word felt like a hammer on my tongue. And the hunger that suddenly bloomed inside me was so tangled with my own rage I could not tell if the shadow stirred inside my heart. But I thought it did. I thought it stretched beneath my skin, coiling softly.
“I won’t do anything for you,” I whispered.
Desperation filled Mr. King’s face, and his wings flared wildly, with such strength that he managed to push me away. The moment I stopped touching him, he vanished.
Jack grabbed my right wrist, and without a word we fell into the abyss—spat out, moments later, in another stone room much like the one we had left. Small, dark space, cold as ice. I did not see Grant, but Mary sat on the floor, naked and sinewy, her wrists caught in chains bolted into the floor. Too short a leash to stand, and her knees were raw and bloody. Half her face was swollen purple, but there was a crazed clarity in her eyes that burned bright when she saw me.
A tattoo covered her chest. I had never seen the old woman naked, never wondered what she might have been hiding under her clothes. But over her sternum was a coiled circle of knotted lines that I recognized—golden and glittering as the pendant that suddenly swung from Mr. King’s pale hand.
“Look what I found,” whispered Mr. King, staring at Jack. “On the Lightbringer himself, I found this. On the old woman, growing from her bones. You know what that makes her, Wolf. You know what she is. And if she came with the Lightbringer, then you know what he is.”
Jack stared at the pendant, then at Mary. A shudder raced through him. “It does not matter.”
“It matters,” hissed Mr. King, wings flaring. “It matters for all the lives that family took, and for the army they led. It matters because you were the one sent to exterminate their bloodline. And you said you did.”
Jack’s jaw tightened. “It was enough.”
Mr. King snarled, fingers tightening around the pendant. Mary’s chains rattled violently. I found her straining toward the Avatar, pulling so hard her wrists bled beneath the restraints.
“Grant’s woman!” Mary cried at me, her voice cutting straight to my heart. Her eyes glittered; and the golden tattoo shone between her wrinkled, sagging breasts like another kind of armor. The sword in my hands burned hot. Zee yanked on my body.
I ran to Mary. Mr. King shouted, but he was too late to stop me as I swung the blade and cut the chains binding the old woman. She threw back her head, baring her teeth in a snarl, and grabbed my arm. Behind her, Mr. King stretched out his hand, returning her stare. Eyes glowing. Jack shouted a single sharp word.
“Silent, in shadows,” Mary hissed. “Find his voice.”
I clutched the sword to my chest, staring into her wild eyes, and all the boys trembled in their dreams. Grant, I thought, burning up with his name. Grant.
I half expected to fall backward into the abyss, but the world remained. My vision blurred, though, and I saw inside my head a place of darkness, a cold tomb; and within, as though sleeping inside a coffin made of ice, a man. My man.
He felt close. Close, in the same way a person might feel sunlight warm on skin. Everywhere, all around me. I sank into that sensation. I turned in a slow circle, trying to feel its source, and on my left, I felt a tug, a disturbance and ripple, a tickle from the boys. Behind Mr. King.
I saw only stone, featureless and smooth like the inner wall of a mountain cave. I did not trust my eyes. Mr. King stared at us, rigid and trembling, his hand still outstretched. Jack watched him, and a low, rumbling growl, quiet as thunder, rolled straight from his chest, a sound like that of a wolf. It cut to the primal part of me that was human. He stared at the Erlking with so much hate, I feared for him. I had never seen the man who lived in Jack’s eyes, but I imagined him swelling, straining the confines of skin.
“Jack,” I whispered.
“I see it,” he said tightly. “A fold in space, like the one that hides this place.”
Mr. King narrowed his eyes. “You will not take him from me. I will change both the Lightbringer and his assassin before you do that. I will alter them so far beyond your reckoning, they will be monsters to you.”
“You lie,” Jack whispered, but Mr. King ignored him, staring into my eyes with pure, hard resolve. Bluffing or not, the fear that cut me was real enough. No matter how fast I moved, I had seen what he could do to Father Lawrence, in just moments. Grant would be an easy mark. So would Mary.
But that did not stop the old woman from lunging at Mr. King. She moved incredibly fast, swinging the ends of chains still attached to the ends of her wrists. Steel whistled through the air like short whips, and the edges of the broken links snapped hard against Mr. King’s eyes. He showed no pain—no nerves in his body to feel a thing—but he flinched. A small distraction. Jack said something sharp in a language I did not understand, and Mr. King jerked forward, clutching his stomach. His eyes widened in surprise.
Jack made a tearing motion with his right hand, and a shadow lifted against the wall, like a curtain. A stone platform appeared, covered in a slab of ice.
Mr. King groaned, wings arching backward. Sparks tumbled from his shoulders, followed by a single bright cloud of light—like the aura of a demon, only golden and pale. It hovered, straining, struggling against some bond I could not see. Jack’s hands remained outstretched, fingers arched like claws. Heat rose from his frail body, and his blue eyes were so bright they seemed to glow, as though moonstruck.
“I can’t hold him long,” hissed Jack, sweat beading against his brow. “Free Grant. He’s the only one who can kill him outside his flesh.”
I had already begun to move. His words chased me across the room as I sprinted past Mr. King toward the ice coffin, the boys surging against my skin. Mary was already there, beating at the ice with the ends of her chains.
My hands burned red-hot, and the sword vanished in a flash of light, back into the armor. I reached the slab in moments, and Mary stepped back as I slammed my palms down on the ice, with such force it cracked. Steam blinded me, but I raked my nails deep, clawing away massive chunks of ice. Mary reached in, as well, ripping and tearing with her bare hands, grunting with pain as her own nails tore.
We finally broke through. Grant lay very still, his eyes closed. I touched his face, but he did not stir. Like Killy’s, his sleep was too deep.
Jack went down on his knees, gasping. Mr. King’s aura shuddered. The armor on my hand flared white-hot—and I could see, in that moment, the future spread before me. I saw Mr. King free. I saw Jack dead, truly dead. And I saw Grant enslaved, skin grown over his mouth so that he could never make another sound.
I saw it so clearly, so fiercely, I knew it was true—and I lost myself in that moment. I shed my heart, and the shadow inside me exploded from sleep, twisting so violently beneath my skin, I thought my body would transform. Electricity raced over me, and the boys began howling in my mind.
Lightbringers never stand alone, I heard Mary whisper. Two hearts live.
I understood. I glimpsed in my head visions brief as heartbeats: men and women, voices tumbling with power, standing under a golden sky and ankle deep in mud and blood; and with them others, silent companions brandishing weapons: whips glittering like diamonds, and humming swords translucent as crystal. For every singer, a warrior, and between them, bonds of power, rivers of power.
I saw Mary. Mary, as a young woman: blond and sinewy, and dark from the sun. Perched on the edge of a rocky outcropping with the stillness and grace of a hawk. She wore little, a patchwork of leather and steel that formed a flexible armor across her torso and legs. A piece had been cut away above her breastbone, revealing the embedded metallic tattoo.
Beside her stood a young, brown-haired woman—carrying a baby in a sling. She had solemn, grief-stricken eyes, and her long, cream-colored robes were filthy with blood and mud. One hand covered her baby’s head. A pendant hung between her breasts.
Marritine, whispered the young woman, as she reached into the air and made a ripping motion with her hand. Marritine, promise he will live.
He will live, rasped Mary, glancing over her shoulder as screams filled the air somewhere distant behind them. I swear it.
I swear it.
I closed my eyes, burning up with those words—with darkness—burning with the light of the armor, tempering the darkness—and slammed my hand against Grant’s chest, above his heart, pouring my strength into his body: a stream of dark light, from my heart to his. His eyes flew open, breath rattling, but I did not stop. I could not.
I swear it.
“Maxine,” he rasped.
Jack cried out again. Mary ran toward the old man, but I did not watch her go. I reached more deeply into the ice coffin, cradling Grant’s head with my left hand. My right stayed on his chest, all the hearts of the boys beating against my palm, in time with my heart. In time with Grant’s.
“Hey,” I whispered. “Time to sing.”
Grant frowned, but only for a moment. I felt the curious sensation of something brushing against my mind, sliding around the dark spirit inhabiting my heart. Memories smoldered. Grant closed his eyes, sucking in his breath. Pain creased his brow.
But when he opened his mouth again, the sound that poured up his throat was not human. Not anything born of thunder, but older, primal, as though some visceral om was clawing its way from his lungs or from the heart of a star. Heat poured off his skin, bleeding through the boys into my soul, and I closed my eyes and watched inside my mind as Grant’s body broke apart in light, becoming light, his voice reaching around the Avatar spark to hold it in a vise.
I felt Mr. King squirm—only, he was not Mr. King, but countless names and skins—and I saw again the vastness of space, suffered the insurmountable pressure of endless time—until, suddenly, the pressure broke—and I witnessed the Avatar’s first memory of flesh, the sensation of a simple touch so much a miracle, so grounding, that what had been madness settled into hunger, and desire. I felt desire. I felt greed. I felt hate and power. Not mine, but Mr. King’s.
I felt his loneliness.
I felt his fear of the vastness of space—and of the vastness within himself.
I felt his desire to be.
I felt his terror of Grant and me.
And in the last moment, I heard him whisper, Our kind are done, we are done, all that we were and created, our worlds and myths, are done, and we are done.
Labyrinth, take me.
The finger armor flared white-hot. Grant’s voice twisted.
And the essence of Mr. King—his immortality—dissolved into nothing but air.
As, moments later, did we.
CHAPTER 22
I woke in darkness, but I was not alone. A heart beat next to mine, light against my shadow, a steady pulse bound to mine, same as mine, linked forever to mine.
Grant, I said, weary.
I’m here, he whispered. Rest, Maxine.
Rest, mumbled Zee.
Rest, breathed my mother.
And so I did.
THE next time I opened my eyes, it was night, and the boys were awake. I was tucked deep under soft flannel blankets, curled against a soft, sagging mattress. The pillow under my head smelled like Grant. Zee cuddled close under the covers, while Raw and Aaz were heavy lumps on top of the bed, behind my knees and against my stomach. All of them, sucking their claws and holding teddy bears and small baseball bats. Popcorn bags and hot-dog cartons littered the bottom of the bed. Dek and Mal hummed the melody to Madonna’s “Live to Tell.”
I lay very still, savoring the sensation of being alive and home. Home, in Seattle. Home, in the loft. For the first time, more at home here than in my car or a hotel room. I could hear the television in the other room, and low voices; the clank of plates and the creak of hardwood floors. Homey sounds, but alien, too. I felt displaced within the darkness of the room where I lay, cocooned inside an entirely different world.
Just like my heart. I searched inward, for the darkness, that hungry, raging spirit that was of me and separate—and that had judged Mr. King, terrifying him. I found that dangerous presence as easily as breathing—sleeping within me like a fragment of the abyss. Tucked beside it, a new companion: a small golden rose, coiled and burning. Pulsing in time to my heartbeat.
Grant, I thought, and heard movement behind me. The mattress sank, and a strong warm hand touched my face.
“My dear sweet girl,” Jack murmured.
“Old Wolf,” I whispered, turning to look at him—soaking in the sight of his pale face and glittering eyes, and the faint curve of his smile.
“So,” he said. “We live again.”
I searched my memories, but all I could recall was Mr. King’s voice inside my mind and the echo of his death.
“How did we get here?” I asked, my voice breaking. Zee withdrew a water bottle from under the covers—a bottle I was certain had not been there before—and Jack took it from him, unscrewing the lid and holding it to my lips. Tasted good. Water trickled from the corner of my mouth into the pillow.
“Slowly,” Jack said quietly. “I brought us home one at a time. We were in Sweden, inside a rich man’s eccentric dream. A private home modeled after some famous hotel made of ice. I believe its owner was killed. I found photographs. He was a fat short man who wore glasses, and had bad taste in suits. I suppose that might sound familiar?”
It did. “What about . . . that other place? The temple?”
“A twist in space,” Jack said quietly. “His former prison, where I put him. He could still access it, as he wished. After so many years, I suppose it felt a little like home.”
A swift pang of regret filled me, then faded. “I’m surprised you’re not sick from transporting so many people.”
The old man shifted uncomfortably. “Grant . . . gave me energy to feed on.”
“Ah,” I breathed, remembering the terrible hunger I had seen in his eyes. “You’ve craved that.”
Jack looked away from me, down at his hands. “There are many shameful things I have not told you. And I know it has been a frustration . . . what you call my riddles. But I love you, if it helps.” He closed his eyes. “I loved your mother.”
I love you, I told him silently, unable to say the words out loud, afraid of the words, as much as I ached for them. I forced myself to breathe. “Did you do something to my mother that she passed down to me? Did you change us?”
“I don’t know,” Jack whispered, meeting my gaze with haunted eyes. “But what your grandmother and I shared . . . what Jeannie and I did . . .”
He stopped. “I regret nothing. I regret nothing.”
“But you’re saying that you should.”
“There are rules. Like a teacher violating some trust with a student. That is what I did.”
“My grandmother was no Lolita.”
“She was a firestorm,” he murmured. “Jeannie.”
It was the way Jack said it. Part of me was embarrassed to hear the intimacy in his voice when he spoke my grandmother’s name, but I was hungry for it, too. Hungry to know someone had cared for her. Hungry to know my mother had been the recipient of such affection, even from a distance.
And me. I wanted that love, too. I wanted a grandfather.
My fingers grazed Jack’s shoulder. He reached back and covered my hand with his. Human hand; pale, dry skin. Nothing alien about him.
Nothing but the heart, my mother had once said, when I was very young. Bodies break when the heart breaks. Even a dog will die from grief.
So be strong, she had finished. Don’t grieve for me.
If she had been alive, I would have called that bullshit to her face. Do not grieve. As if that were weakness. She had probably grieved for her mother as much as I still grieved for her. Only she had never talked about it.
But Jack grieved. I thought, perhaps, he might grieve her for as long as he lived.
“Why are you so different?” I asked him, remembering Mr. King in his stolen bodies: angel and human, divine and disgusting; in all those incarnations, rotting on the inside, without compassion or mercy.
The old man held up his wrinkled hands. “See how transient is the flesh? How it passes from life to death? I have been reborn again and again. I have fallen into the wombs of human mothers, thousands and thousands of mothers—good mothers, bad mothers—from poverty to royalty to divinity—and I have done so without my memories. I have done this with all that I am, hidden from me. Because, if you are going to live as human, then you must live. Surrender yourself to the experience, unconditionally, so that you exist as you were meant to—in the moment, purely yourself, shaped and molded by experiences that are raw as mortality allows. So that when you do remember who you are, you remember humility, as well. Humility and compassion . . . and love.”
He closed his hands into fists, and shook his head. “He who called himself Mr. King, my brother, never understood that. Never understood that to be a true master of the Divine Organic was to become what we create, in every way. Not simply to ape it, like ghosts within puppets, but instead to learn, and become more.” Bitterness twisted his mouth. “Many still believe as he did. Simply to take and take, and nothing more.”
And they’ll be coming here next, I thought grimly—though that was all I had time to consider. I heard a distinctive clicking sound outside the bedroom. Heat spread through my heart—my tugging, aching heart—and I struggled to sit up as the door pushed open, and golden lamplight spilled inside.
Grant limped into the bedroom, pausing briefly on the threshold to stare at me. He was pale, but not packed-on-ice pale, with a healthy look in his eyes that had been missing for days. He leaned hard on his cane, but the rest of him was straight and strong, and even from the bed, I could smell my shampoo on his damp hair. He wore loose black sweats and a dark green sweatshirt. Around his neck hung his mother’s golden pendant.
He stared, and a rushing warmth moved through me—between us—so strong, so real, I found myself touching the air in front of me, imagining I might find something solid linking our bodies. Grant smiled faintly, and a pulse flowed through my chest—the echo of his heartbeat.
“Hey,” he said, limping close. “Get back under the covers.”
A shadow appeared behind him. Mary. White hair wild, and dressed in another kooky dress covered in giant orange cats. Only this time, she wore a wide leather belt, the kind used to support someone’s back while lifting heavy machinery. It looked old-fashioned, perhaps found amongst the machinery in the basement, but it emphasized her slenderness; and the long white cardigan draped over her slender frame like a cloak. It should have been a ridiculous outfit, but on her, it was perfect. She looked like a fighter. I could not explain the difference; it was her posture, maybe, or her eyes: glittering wildly, as though actual lights danced through her pupils. It lent her a crazed intensity that seemed unpredictable as lightning.
“Bonded now,” she whispered, staring at me. “Rivers golden as the sun.”
“Bonded,” I echoed, pressing my hand over my heart.
“Between us,” Grant said, sitting on the edge of the bed. He laid down his cane and leaned in to tug the covers up to my shoulders. Zee peered over the flannel edge, red eyes glowing, while Raw and Aaz tumbled into the man’s lap, dragging their teddy bears behind them as they rubbed their heads against his arm like lethal, razor-armored cats. Dek and Mal chirped a low greeting, which slid into a harmonizing arrangement of Heart’s “Tall, Dark Handsome Stranger.”
“Golden light,” he went on, searching my gaze as he scratched small necks and chins. “You made a link between us.”
“It had to be done,” I said, unable to tell if he was displeased, but the moment I spoke, he leaned forward and grabbed the back of my neck—dragging me close, hard against his shoulder and chest. A jolt rode over my skin, and static sparks flashed between us in the darkness. I leaned against him, held so tightly I could hardly breathe. Letting him say everything words could not.
“You should have died a long time ago, lad,” Jack said quietly. “But you’re strong. You have good instincts. I thought you might not need. . . . someone else. Not for the small things you were using your gift for.”
“You play too many games,” Grant said. “You should have told me.”
“What do you mean, he should have died?” I asked Jack—though I knew the answer. I had seen it already. I had felt it, in my gut.
“Two hearts, stronger than one,” Mary whispered, closing her eyes and placing her hands over her sternum. “Antrea should have told him, too.”
Grant flinched, touching the pendant hanging from his neck—and I saw in my head that young, brown-haired woman, standing with an equally young, strong Mary.
His mother. Filthy and covered in blood. Concerned only with his safety.
Remembering that vision was little easier than recalling a fading dream. I wanted to tell Grant, but I did not know how. Not here. Not yet.
Jack did not look particularly pleased. “Energy is not available simply when one needs it. If already present, it can be manipulated, altered—but to effect greater changes requires something stronger. And Lightbringers draw from themselves to use their gifts. Draw too much, and they die. So they make bonds,” he said, studying Grant and me. “To draw from others the strength they need.”
“Can you break the link?” Grant asked. “Jack. Will this hurt her?”
“You need me,” I protested.
“I don’t know,” said the old man. “There is no precedent for your bond, no way to know how it will affect you both. Lightbringers always attached themselves to humans. And Maxine . . . is not normal.”
I pinched Grant’s side. “Maxine is right here.”
Mary made a slow choking sound, carefully pushing back her sleeves to stare at the fresh scars on her arms. “Not normal. Right here.” She closed her eyes, and whispered, “I remember death. I was sharp. Sharpest of my sisters. We protected. We killed.”
Assassin, I thought, remembering what Mr. King had called her. Recalling, with perfect clarity, all he had said. About Jack, too.
I did not look at the old man. I felt the pendant between Grant and me and stared into his eyes. Found him staring back. He carefully brushed a strand of hair from my face and leaned in to kiss my mouth.
And then he turned, ever so slightly, and gave Jack a warning look. “Is there more you haven’t told us?”
“Yes,” replied the old man, but he sounded distracted as he stared at Mary, an edge of melancholy in his voice, and something deeper: real grief, and uneasiness. I did not think it had anything to do with us—not in that moment. Instead, it felt as though some notion had just occurred to him, a memory, something terrible. I studied him, seated so still in the shadows on the edge of the bed: my grandfather, afraid to move, lost in thought.
“Old Wolf,” I whispered. “What is it?”
“I hated him,” Jack said quietly, with both wonderment and grief in his voice. “He who was Mr. King, and my brother. But he was one of us, and I knew him as long as I have known myself. We have no other children. We cannot make children in our true forms. When one of us dies, there is nothing left. And we feel it, in ourselves. We feel it as though we are missing pieces, and the ache will never leave us. It will dull, but never die.” A grim, bitter smile touched his mouth; ghastly, more like a grimace. “I suppose absence becomes another kind of immortality.”
“I thought you wanted him dead,” Grant said.
“I did,” Jack replied. “But there’s always a price.”
“Others will come,” Zee rasped, peering over the covers. Raw and Aaz sat up, as well, rubbing their eyes. “Meddling Man. Even now they feel what you feel.”
I pulled the pillow over my head. “Rock and a hard place. If we hadn’t gotten rid of Mr. King, he would have destroyed us.”
“And now that we’ve destroyed him,” Grant said, “all we’ve done is buy ourselves time.”
Time. Time for the prison veil. Time for Avatars. Time to live, time to fight, time to die.
Zee grabbed my hand, peering into my eyes. “We are strong,” he whispered, as Dek and Mal rumbled with purrs. “Sweet Maxine. We are strong.”
Strong as our hearts will let us be, my mother had once said. Grant took my other hand, pressing his lips to my palm, but it was less a kiss than a benediction.
“Again, we are remade,” Jack murmured.
I heard footsteps approaching the bedroom, and Zee ducked under the covers. Raw and Aaz vanished. Byron appeared, just outside the door. Backlit by the golden light of the living room, slender and silent, he seemed more like a ghost made of shadows than a boy. But his eyes glittered, and he looked at me and no one else, and when I smiled there was no smile given in return, but his gaze was solemn and old, and unflinching.
“You’re okay,” he said softly; and then: “There’s something you need to see.”
It was not as difficult to move as I had thought it would be. I was not weak, merely tired, and Grant tugged on my hand as I scooted out from under the covers. I wore sweats and a tank top. My arms were pale and bare, and my right hand glittered. I took a moment, staring. The armor had grown again. A third vein of quicksilver curled from the wrist cuff to my ring finger, but tendrils of it seemed to lace out like roots, ending halfway across the back of my hand.
I glanced at Jack and Grant, and found both men staring at the armor. Neither said a word, but the old man seemed especially thoughtful. I closed my hand into a tight fist.
“Oh, what the hell,” I muttered, and got out of bed.
There was a small crowd in the living room. Killy and Father Lawrence sat on the couch. He and the woman were not touching, but they were sitting close together and looked exhausted. Rex leaned against the arm of the couch—in his human body, red knit cap askew. His aura flickered when he saw me, but except for a brief, knowing nod, he said nothing, and went back to watching the television.
I had little time to feel relief that everyone was together, in one piece. The late-evening news was on, and the newscaster cut to a fuzzy video that seemed to have been captured on a cell-phone camera. Hard to see details, but the picture was clear enough to show that it had been taken from inside a vehicle. People were screaming as a skinny man in black repeatedly charged at the car, crashing into the door and window with such strength the glass cracked. His mouth was full of teeth. His eyes were crazed.
He gave up after several seconds and ran away, in silence, with incredible speed.
I stared, breathless, hardly hearing the newscaster as he laughed weakly, and called the creature a vampire. Police, he said, were on the alert for someone playing a prank. And then he laughed again, clearly creeped out.
I did not laugh. It was not a prank.
Killy closed her eyes. “Change the channel.”
Father Lawrence grabbed the remote, hitting the buttons until he found a rerun of Cheers. Norm was sitting at the bar, and Sam was making googly eyes at some blond chick. Mundane, normal, and everything I wished life could be. My brain felt dirty from seeing the news clip and all those sharp teeth.
“We killed all of them we found,” Rex said, giving me a hard, careful look. “None escaped.”
“He would have set some loose. Other creatures, too. Just because.” I looked from Jack to Grant. “What about those who were imprisoned in the ice?”
“I made some calls,” Father Lawrence said quietly, his single red eye burning crimson and sharp. “They’ll be cared for. With Cribari dead, there won’t be any trouble. Not for a little while.” He looked from me to Jack and frowned with such uneasiness my skin crawled.
Killy twisted around, staring at the priest, who was no longer as round or bumbling as I remembered; his stomach tauter, his cheeks not as soft. Her eyes narrowed with displeasure. “And you? What kind of trouble will you be in? You can’t go back there, not to the Church.”
Father Lawrence hesitated, again tearing his gaze from her face to glance from Jack to Grant—and then to me. He started to speak, and Killy made a small, exasperated sound, shaking her head. “No, that’s stupid.”
The priest sighed. “Stay out of my thoughts, please.”
“Stay out of mine,” she snapped, though her ire crumpled into pain. “Jesus, my head.”
Father Lawrence stared helplessly. He began to reach for her—stopped, staring at his hands—and pulled back. Or tried to. Killy grabbed his wrist—just for a moment—and then let go as though burned. Both of them, burned. Byron, standing beside me, watched the young woman with his dark, quiet eyes. I ruffled his hair, and he tore his gaze from Killy to look at me.
“It’s only just starting, isn’t it?” asked Byron softly, and my hand fell from the boy’s head to his shoulder—my right hand, covered in armor—my heart filling with both grief and resolve. I started to tell him it would be okay, and stopped, swallowing hard. I fought for words—anything, anything to give him. Until Byron, gently, reached up to touch my hand. As if he was the one who needed to reassure me.
“You’re not alone, either,” he said.
My breath caught. Byron pulled away from me and walked to the couch. He plopped down between Killy and Father Lawrence, and the young woman, after a moment, patted his hand with a sigh. Cheers played on.
I needed some distance. I went into the kitchen, leaned on the counter—staring into the living room at all these people in my life. My nomad life, setting down roots.
Grant joined me. Mary stayed behind, watching him—and Jack watched her, in turn. Her, and the others, his fist pressed against his stomach, as though he hurt. He looked very old and alone, and it broke my heart. Pained me even more to think of my grandmother with that same look on her face—sitting in a bedroom in Paris. Time, I realized, was a thin veil—the thinnest of them all—but it did no good to know that. My grandmother and Jack would never see each other again. He would live on, as he had lived after her death, and his daughter’s. And mine, when it was time.
Grant brushed close, and gave me a faintly bitter smile. “Think maybe we’ll live to see morning?”
I kissed his shoulder. “The odds are good. But I’ll be gone by then.”
Grant flinched, and his heart shuddered inside mine, as though our pulses merged, momentarily, to beat twice as strong. The sensation made me sway, but only because of the consternation that followed it. Not mine. His.
I grabbed the front of his sweatshirt, leaning in with the same urgency I had felt, clawing him from ice. Such a surreal thing to think of now. Ice and men with wings, and death. Like a dream.
“I meant,” I whispered roughly, staring into his eyes, “that I needed to go hunt that creature. I’ll be back. I’m not leaving you. You’re stuck with me.”
“I know,” he said, slightly hoarse, his thumb caressing the corner of my mouth. “But I wasn’t certain how you felt about that. What’s between us now is different, Maxine.”
“Is it?” I asked him simply. “I don’t think so.”
Grant closed his eyes and pressed his brow against mine. I heard the television behind us, and soft voices, but it might as well have been another world. Me and my man, inside our own labyrinth.
“I still don’t know what I am,” he whispered. “I don’t want to hurt you.”
“Don’t steal my lines,” I replied softly, and kissed his mouth. “Don’t be afraid.”
Grant’s arm tightened, and he leaned us both against the counter, taking the weight off his bad leg so that he could put his cane aside and use his other arm to hold me. His fingers wound through my hair. Dek and Mal purred.
“I never had a plan,” he told me, so quietly I could hardly hear him. “I had power, and I used it. I took it for granted. I pretended it was harmless.”
He stopped, staring into my eyes. “It’s the same thing, isn’t it, what was done to Father Ross? What I do to demons, how I alter them and others against their wills? There’s no difference.”
“You’re wrong,” I said. “Not in a million years could you compare the two.”
“But if I were a million years old?” Grant smiled bitterly. “Older, even? What would I be like with this gift, Maxine, if I lived too long? As long as an Avatar? Would I become like Mr. King? Is that what the power to change people does?”
Is that why the women in my family live such short lives? I wondered, briefly. Because we are corruptible, and the boys are ruled by our hearts? Because power needs to be given and lost, and not hoarded?
I looked down and saw Zee peering around the kitchen counter. Raw and Aaz were with him, baseball hats tugged low, their teddy bears still dragging behind them. My boys. Sweet and deadly.
Zee gave me a toothy smile, and I laughed, clutching a fistful of Grant’s sweatshirt and dragging him even closer. I stood on my toes, and stared into his eyes, savoring the heat between us, the light in my heart that curled around the darkness.
“You’re a good man,” I told him fiercely. “You’re going to die a good man, a long time from now.” I reached out and brushed my fingers over his cheek. “Maybe in a bed, in my arms. You old, ancient man.”
Grant’s gaze never wavered. “I could live for that.”
And so could I.
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