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About the Book
The Bonehunters are marching to
Kolanse, and to an unknown fate. Tormented and exhausted, they are an army on
the brink of mutiny. But Adjunct Tavore will not relent. If she can hold her
forces together, if the fragile alliances she had forged can survive and if it
is within her power, one final act remains. For Tavore Paran means to challenge
the gods.
Ranged against Tavore and her allies
are formidable foes. The Fokrul Assail are drawing upon a terrible power; their
desire is to cleanse the world – to eradicate every civilization, to annihilate
every human – in order to begin anew. The Elder Gods, too, are seeking to
return. And to do so, they will shatter the chains that bind a force of utter
devastation and release her from her eternal prison. It seems that, once more,
there will be dragons in the world.
And in Kurald Galain, where the
once-lost city of Kharkanas has been found, thousands have gathered upon the
First Shore. Commanded by Yedan Derryg, they await the coming of the Tiste
Liosan. Are they truly ready to die in the name of an empty city and a queen
with no subjects?
In every world there comes a time
when choice is no longer an option – a moment when the soul is laid bare and
there is nowhere left to turn. And when this last hard truth is faced, when
compassion is a virtue on its knees, what is there left to do? Now that time is
come – now is the moment to proclaim your defiance and make a stand…
And so begins the final cataclysmic
chapter in Steven Erikson’s extraordinary, genre-defining ‘Malazan Book of the
Fallen’.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
A graduate of the Iowa Writers’
Workshop, archaeologist and anthropologist Steven Erikson recently moved
back to the UK from Canada and now lives in Cornwall. His début fantasy novel, Gardens
of the Moon, marked the opening chapter in the epic ‘Malazan Book of the
Fallen’ sequence, which has been hailed as one of the most significant works of
fantasy of this millennium.
To find out more, visit www.stevenerikson.com
and www.malazanempire.com
Also by Steven Erikson
GARDENS OF THE MOON
DEADHOUSE GATES
MEMORIES OF ICE
HOUSE OF CHAINS
MIDNIGHT TIDES
THE BONEHUNTERS
REAPER’S GALE
TOLL THE HOUNDS
DUST OF DREAMS
THE FIRST COLLECTED TALES OF
BAUCHELAIN & KORBAL BROACH
THE CRIPPLED GOD
A Tale of the Malazan Book of the
Fallen
Steven Erikson
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Contents
Acknowledgements
Map
Dramatis Personae
Book One: ‘He was a
soldier’
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Book Two: All the
takers of my days
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Book Three: To
charge the spear
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Book Four: The
fists of the world
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Book Five: A hand
upon the fates
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Book Six: To one in
chains
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Book Seven: Your
private shore
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Epilogue I
Epilogue II
Appendix
About the Author
Many years ago one man took a chance
on an unknown writer and his first fantasy novel – a novel that had already
gone the rounds of publishers a few times without any luck. Without him,
without his faith and, in the years that followed, his unswerving commitment to
this vast undertaking, there would be no ‘Malazan Book of the Fallen’. It has
been my great privilege to work with a single editor from start to finish, and
so I humbly dedicate The Crippled God to my editor and friend, Simon
Taylor.
Acknowledgements
My deepest gratitude is accorded to
the following people. My advance readers for their timely commentary on this
manuscript which I foisted on them at short notice and probably inopportune
times: A. P. Canavan, William Hunter, Hazel Hunter, Baria Ahmed and Bowen
Thomas-Lundin. And the staff of The Norway Inn in Perranarworthal, the Mango
Tango and Costa Coffee in Falmouth, all of whom participated in their own way
in the writing of this novel.
Also, a heartfelt thank you to all
my readers, who (presumably) have stayed with me through to this, the tenth and
final novel of the ‘Malazan Book of the Fallen’. I have enjoyed our long
conversation. What’s three and a half million words between friends?
I could well ask the same question
of my publishers. Thank you for your patience and support. The unruly beast is
done, and I can hear your relieved sighs.
Finally, my love and gratitude to my
wife, Clare Thomas, who suffered through the ordeal of not just this novel, but
all those that preceded it. I think it was your mother who warned you that
marrying a writer was a dicey proposition …
DRAMATIS
PERSONAE
In addition to
those in Dust of Dreams
THE MALAZANS
Himble Thrup
Seageant Gaunt-Eye
Corporal Rib
Lap Twirl
Sad
Burnt Rope
THE HOST
Ganoes Paran, High Fist and Master
of the Deck
High Mage Noto Boil
Outrider Hurlochel
Fist Rythe Bude
Captain Sweetcreek
Imperial Artist Ormulogun
Warleader Mathok
Bodyguard T’morol
Gumble
THE KHUNDRYL
Widow Jastara
THE SNAKE
Sergeant Cellows
Corporal Nithe
Sharl
THE T’LAN IMASS: THE UNBOUND
Urugal the Woven
Thenik the Shattered
Beroke Soft Voice
Kahlb the Silent Hunter
Halad the Giant
THE TISTE ANDII
Nimander Golit
Spinnock Durav
Korlat
Skintick
Desra
Dathenar Gowl
Nemanda
THE JAGHUT: THE FOURTEEN
Gathras
Sanad
Varandas
Haut
Suvalas
Aimanan
Hood
THE FORKRUL ASSAIL: THE LAWFUL
INQUISITORS
Reverence
Serenity
Equity
Placid
Diligence
Abide
Aloft
Calm
Belie
Freedom
Grave
THE WATERED: THE TIERS OF LESSER
ASSAIL
Amiss
Exigent
Hestand
Festian
Kessgan
Trissin
Melest
Haggraf
THE TISTE LIOSAN
Kadagar Fant
Aparal Forge
Iparth Erule
Gaelar Throe
Eldat Pressan
OTHERS
Absi
Spultatha
K’rul
Kaminsod
Munug
Silanah
Apsal’ara
Tulas Shorn
D’rek
Gallimada
Korabas
BOOK ONE
‘HE WAS A
SOLDIER’
I am known
in the religion of rage.
Worship me as a pool
of blood in your hands.
Drink me deep.
It’s bitter fury
that boils and burns.
Your knives were small
but they were many.
I am named
in the religion of rage.
Worship me with your
offhand cuts
long after I am dead.
It’s a song of dreams
crumbled to ashes.
Your wants overflowed
but now gape empty.
I am drowned
in the religion of rage.
Worship me unto
death and down
to a pile of bones.
The purest book
is the one never opened.
No needs left unfulfilled
on the cold, sacred day.
I am found
in the religion of rage.
Worship me in a
stream of curses.
This fool had faith
and in dreams he wept.
But we walk a desert
rocked by accusations,
where no man starves
with hate in his bones.
Poet’s Night i.iv
The Malazan Book of the Fallen
Fisher kel Tath
CHAPTER ONE
If you never knew
the worlds in my mind
your sense of loss
would be small pity
and we’ll forget this on the trail.
Take what you’re given
and turn away the screwed face.
I do not deserve it,
no matter how narrow the strand
of your private shore.
If you will do your best
I’ll meet your eye.
It’s the clutch of arrows in hand
that I do not trust
bent to the smile hitching my way.
We aren’t meeting in sorrow
or some other suture
bridging scars.
We haven’t danced the same
thin ice
and my sympathy for your troubles
I give freely without thought
of reciprocity or scales on balance.
It’s the decent thing, that’s all.
Even if that thing
is a stranger to so many.
But there will be secrets
you never knew
and I would not choose any other way.
All my arrows are buried and
the sandy reach is broad
and all that’s private
cools pinned on the altar.
Even the drips are gone,
that child of wants
with a mind full of worlds
and his reddened tears.
The days I feel mortal I so hate.
The days in my worlds,
are where I live for ever,
and should dawn ever arrive
I will to its light awaken
as one reborn.
Poet’s Night iii.iv
The Malazan Book of the Fallen
Fisher kel Tath
COTILLION DREW TWO DAGGERS. HIS GAZE
FELL TO THE BLADES. The blackened iron surfaces seemed to swirl, two pewter
rivers oozing across pits and gouges, the edges ragged where armour and bone
had slowed their thrusts. He studied the sickly sky’s lurid reflections for a
moment longer, and then said, ‘I have no intention of explaining a damned
thing.’ He looked up, eyes locking. ‘Do you understand me?’
The figure facing him was incapable
of expression. The tatters of rotted sinew and strips of skin were motionless
upon the bones of temple, cheek and jaw. The eyes held nothing, nothing at all.
Better, Cotillion decided, than
jaded scepticism. Oh, how he was sick of that. ‘Tell me,’ he resumed, ‘what do
you think you’re seeing here? Desperation? Panic? A failing of will, some
inevitable decline crumbling to incompetence? Do you believe in failure,
Edgewalker?’
The apparition remained silent for a
time, and then spoke in a broken, rasping voice. ‘You cannot be so … audacious.’
‘I asked if you believed in failure.
Because I don’t.’
‘Even should you succeed, Cotillion.
Beyond all expectation, beyond, even, all desire. They will still speak
of your failure.’
He sheathed his daggers. ‘And you
know what they can do to themselves.’
The head cocked, strands of hair
dangling and drifting. ‘Arrogance?’
‘Competence,’ Cotillion snapped in
reply. ‘Doubt me at your peril.’
‘They will not believe you.’
‘I do not care, Edgewalker. This is
what it is.’
When he set out, he was not
surprised that the deathless guardian followed. We have done this before.
Dust and ashes puffed with each step. The wind moaned as if trapped in a crypt.
‘Almost time, Edgewalker.’
‘I know. You cannot win.’
Cotillion paused, half turned. He
smiled a ravaged smile. ‘That doesn’t mean I have to lose, does it?’
Dust lifted, twisting, in her wake.
From her shoulders trailed dozens of ghastly chains: bones bent and folded into
irregular links, ancient bones in a thousand shades between white and deep
brown. Scores of individuals made up each chain, malformed skulls matted with
hair, fused spines, long bones, clacking and clattering. They drifted out
behind her like a tyrant’s legacy and left a tangled skein of furrows in the
withered earth that stretched for leagues.
Her pace did not slow, as steady as
the sun’s own crawl to the horizon ahead, as inexorable as the darkness
overtaking her. She was indifferent to notions of irony, and the bitter taste
of irreverent mockery that could so sting the palate. In this there was only
necessity, the hungriest of gods. She had known imprisonment. The memories
remained fierce, but such recollections were not those of crypt walls and unlit
tombs. Darkness, indeed, but also pressure. Terrible, unbearable pressure.
Madness was a demon and it lived in
a world of helpless need, a thousand desires unanswered, a world without
resolution. Madness, yes, she had known that demon. They had bargained with
coins of pain, and those coins came from a vault that never emptied. She’d once
known such wealth.
And still the darkness pursued.
Walking, a thing of hairless pate,
skin the hue of bleached papyrus, elongated limbs that moved with uncanny
grace. The landscape surrounding her was empty, flat on all sides but ahead,
where a worn-down range of colourless hills ran a wavering claw along the
horizon.
She had brought her ancestors with
her and they rattled a chaotic chorus. She had not left a single one behind.
Every tomb of her line now gaped empty, as hollowed out as the skulls she’d
plundered from their sarcophagi. Silence ever spoke of absence. Silence was the
enemy of life and she would have none of it. No, they talked in mutters and
grating scrapes, her perfect ancestors, and they were the voices of her private
song, keeping the demon at bay. She was done with bargains.
Long ago, she knew, the worlds –
pallid islands in the Abyss – crawled with creatures. Their thoughts were blunt
and simple, and beyond those thoughts there was nothing but murk, an abyss of
ignorance and fear. When the first glimmers awakened in that confused gloom,
they quickly flickered alight, burning like spot fires. But the mind did not
awaken to itself on strains of glory. Not beauty, not even love. It did not
stir with laughter or triumph. Those fires, snapping to life, all belonged to
one thing and one thing only.
The first word of sentience was justice.
A word to feed indignation. A word empowering the will to change the world and
all its cruel circumstances, a word to bring righteousness to brutal infamy.
Justice, bursting to life in the black soil of indifferent nature. Justice, to
bind families, to build cities, to invent and to defend, to fashion laws and
prohibitions, to hammer the unruly mettle of gods into religions. All the
prescribed beliefs rose out twisting and branching from that single root,
losing themselves in the blinding sky.
But she and her kind had stayed
wrapped about the base of that vast tree, forgotten, crushed down; and in their
place, beneath stones, bound in roots and dark earth, they were witness to the
corruption of justice, to its loss of meaning, to its betrayal.
Gods and mortals, twisting truths,
had in a host of deeds stained what once had been pure.
Well, the end was coming. The
end, dear ones, is coming. There would be no more children, rising from the
bones and rubble, to build anew all that had been lost. Was there even one
among them, after all, who had not suckled at the teat of corruption? Oh, they
fed their inner fires, yet they hoarded the light, the warmth, as if justice
belonged to them alone.
She was appalled. She seethed with
contempt. Justice was incandescent within her, and it was a fire growing day by
day, as the wretched heart of the Chained One leaked out its endless streams of
blood. Twelve Pures remained, feeding. Twelve. Perhaps there were others, lost
in far-flung places, but she knew nothing of them. No, these twelve, they would
be the faces of the final storm, and, pre-eminent among them all, she would
stand at that storm’s centre.
She had been given her name for this
very purpose, long ago now. The Forkrul Assail were nothing if not patient. But
patience itself was yet one more lost virtue.
Chains of bone trailing, Calm walked
across the plain, as the day’s light died behind her.
‘God failed us.’
Trembling, sick to his stomach as
something cold, foreign, coursed through his veins, Aparal Forge clenched his
jaw to stifle a retort. This vengeance is older than any cause you care to
invent, and no matter how often you utter those words, Son of Light, the lies
and madness open like flowers beneath the sun. And before me I see nothing but
lurid fields of red, stretching out on all sides.
This wasn’t their battle, not their
war. Who fashioned this law that said the child must pick up the father’s
sword? And dear Father, did you really mean this to be? Did she not abandon her
consort and take you for her own? Did you not command us to peace? Did you not
say to us that we children must be as one beneath the newborn sky of your
union?
What crime awoke us to this?
I can’t even remember.
‘Do you feel it, Aparal? The power?’
‘I feel it, Kadagar.’ They’d moved
away from the others, but not so far as to escape the agonized cries, the growl
of the Hounds, or, drifting out over the broken rocks in ghostly streams, the
blistering breath of cold upon their backs. Before them rose the infernal
barrier. A wall of imprisoned souls. An eternally crashing wave of despair. He
stared at the gaping faces through the mottled veil, studied the pitted horror
in their eyes. You were no different, were you? Awkward with your
inheritance, the heavy blade turning this way and that in your hand.
Why should we pay for someone
else’s hatred?
‘What so troubles you, Aparal?’
‘We cannot know the reason for our
god’s absence, Lord. I fear it is presumptuous of us to speak of his failure.’
Kadagar Fant was silent.
Aparal closed his eyes. He should
never have spoken. I do not learn. He walked a bloody path to rule and the
pools in the mud still gleam red. The air about Kadagar remains brittle. This
flower shivers to secret winds. He is dangerous, so very dangerous.
‘The Priests spoke of impostors and
tricksters, Aparal.’ Kadagar’s tone was even, devoid of inflection. It was the
voice he used when furious. ‘What god would permit that? We are abandoned. The
path before us now belongs to no one else – it is ours to choose.’
Ours. Yes, you speak for us all,
even as we cringe at our own confessions. ‘Forgive my words, Lord. I am
made ill – the taste—’
‘We had no choice in that, Aparal.
What sickens you is the bitter flavour of its pain. It passes.’ Kadagar smiled
and clapped him on the back. ‘I understand your momentary weakness. We shall
forget your doubts, yes? And never again speak of them. We are friends, after
all, and I would be most distressed to be forced to brand you a traitor. Set
upon the White Wall … I would kneel and weep, my friend. I would.’
A spasm of alien fury hissed through
Aparal and he shivered. Abyss! Mane of Chaos, I feel you! ‘My life is
yours to command, Lord.’
‘Lord of Light!’
Aparal turned, as did Kadagar.
Blood streaming from his mouth,
Iparth Erule staggered closer, eyes wide and fixed upon Kadagar. ‘My lord,
Uhandahl, who was last to drink, has just died. He – he tore out his own
throat!’
‘Then it is done,’ Kadagar replied. ‘How
many?’
Iparth licked his lips, visibly
flinched at the taste, and then said, ‘You are the First of Thirteen, Lord.’
Smiling, Kadagar stepped past
Iparth. ‘Kessobahn still breathes?’
‘Yes. It is said it can bleed for
centuries—’
‘But the blood is now poison,’
Kadagar said, nodding. ‘The wounding must be fresh, the power clean. Thirteen,
you say. Excellent.’
Aparal stared at the dragon staked
to the slope behind Iparth Erule. The enormous spears pinning it to the ground
were black with gore and dried blood. He could feel the Eleint’s pain, pouring
from it in waves. Again and again it tried to lift its head, eyes blazing, jaws
snapping, but the vast trap held. The four surviving Hounds of Light circled at
a distance, hackles raised as they eyed the dragon. Seeing them, Aparal hugged
himself. Another mad gamble. Another bitter failure. Lord of Light, Kadagar
Fant, you have not done well in the world beyond.
Beyond this terrible vista, and
facing the vertical ocean of deathless souls as if in mocking madness, rose the
White Wall, which hid the decrepit remnants of the Liosan city of Saranas. The
faint elongated dark streaks lining it, descending just beneath the crenellated
battlements, were all he could make out of the brothers and sisters who had
been condemned as traitors to the cause. Below their withered corpses ran the
stains from everything their bodies had drained down the alabaster facing. You
would kneel and weep, would you, my friend?
Iparth asked, ‘My lord, do we leave
the Eleint as it is?’
‘No. I propose something far more
fitting. Assemble the others. We shall veer.’
Aparal started but did not turn. ‘Lord—’
‘We are Kessobahn’s children now,
Aparal. A new father, to replace the one who abandoned us. Osserc is dead in
our eyes and shall remain so. Even Father Light kneels broken, useless and
blind.’
Aparal’s eyes held on Kessobahn. Utter
such blasphemies often enough and they become banal, and all shock fades. The
gods lose their power, and we rise to stand in their stead. The ancient
dragon wept blood, and in those vast, alien eyes there was nothing but rage. Our
father. Your pain, your blood, our gift to you. Alas, it is the only gift we
understand. ‘And once we have veered?’
‘Why, Aparal, we shall tear the
Eleint apart.’
He’d known what the answer would be
and he nodded. Our father.
Your pain, your blood, our gift.
Celebrate our rebirth, O Father Kessobahn, with your death. And for you, there
shall be no return.
‘I have nothing with which to
bargain. What brings you to me? No, I see that. My broken servant cannot travel
far, even in his dreams. Crippled, yes, my precious flesh and bones upon this
wretched world. Have you seen his flock? What blessing can he bestow?
Why, naught but misery and suffering, and still they gather, the mobs, the
clamouring, beseeching mobs. Oh, I once looked upon them with contempt. I once
revelled in their pathos, their ill choices and their sorry luck. Their
stupidity.
‘But no one chooses their span of
wits. They are each and all born with what they have, that and nothing more.
Through my servant I see into their eyes – when I so dare – and they give me a
look, a strange look, one that for a long time I could not understand. Hungry,
of course, so brimming with need. But I am the Foreign God. The Chained One.
The Fallen One, and my holy word is Pain.
‘Yet those eyes implored.
‘I now comprehend. What do they
ask of me? Those dull fools glittering with fears, those horrid expressions to
make a witness cringe. What do they want? I will answer you. They want my pity.
‘They understand, you see, their
own paltry scant coins in their bag of wits. They know they lack intelligence,
and that this has cursed them and their lives. They have struggled and lashed
out, from the very beginning. No, do not look at me that way, you of smooth and
subtle thought, you give your sympathy too quickly and therein hide your belief
in your own superiority. I do not deny your cleverness, but I question your
compassion.
‘They wanted my pity. They have
it. I am the god that answers prayers – can you or any other god make that claim?
See how I have changed. My pain, which I held on to so selfishly, now reaches
out like a broken hand. We touch in understanding, we flinch at the touch. I am
one with them all, now.
‘You surprise me. I had not
believed this to be a thing of value. What worth compassion? How many columns
of coins balance the scales? My servant once dreamed of wealth. A buried
treasure in the hills. Sitting on his withered legs, he pleaded with passers-by
in the street. Now you look at me here, too broken to move, deep in the fumes,
and the wind slaps these tent walls without rest. No need to bargain. My
servant and I have both lost the desire to beg. You want my pity? I give it.
Freely.
‘Need I tell you of my pain? I
look in your eyes and find the answer.
‘It is my last play, but you
understand that. My last. Should I fail …
‘Very well. There is no secret to
this. I will gather the poison, then. In the thunder of my pain, yes. Where
else?
‘Death? Since when is death
failure?
‘Forgive the cough. It was meant
to be laughter. Go then, wring your promises with those upstarts.
‘ That is all faith is, you know.
Pity for our souls. Ask my servant and he will tell you. God looks into your
eyes, and God cringes.’
Three dragons chained for their
sins. At the thought Cotillion sighed, suddenly morose. He stood twenty paces
away, ankle deep in soft ash. Ascendancy, he reflected, was not quite as long a
stride from the mundane as he would have liked. His throat felt tight, as if
his air passages were constricted. The muscles of his shoulders ached and dull
thunder pounded behind his eyes. He stared at the imprisoned Eleint lying so
gaunt and deathly amidst drifts of dust, feeling … mortal. Abyss take
me, but I’m tired.
Edgewalker moved up alongside him,
silent and spectral.
‘Bones and not much else,’ Cotillion
muttered.
‘Do not be fooled,’ Edgewalker
warned. ‘Flesh, skin, they are raiment. Worn or cast off as suits them. See the
chains? They have been tested. Heads lifting … the scent of freedom.’
‘How did you feel, Edgewalker, when
everything you held fell to pieces in your hands? Did failure arrive like a
wall of fire?’ He turned to regard the apparition. ‘Those tatters have the look
of scorching, come to think of it. Do you remember that moment, when you lost
everything? Did the world echo to your howl?’
‘If you seek to torment me,
Cotillion—’
‘No, I would not do that. Forgive
me.’
‘If these are your fears, however …’
‘No, not my fears. Not at all. They
are my weapons.’
Edgewalker seemed to shiver, or
perhaps some shift of the ash beneath his rotted moccasins sent a tremble
through him, a brief moment of imbalance. Settling once more, the Elder fixed
Cotillion with the withered dark of its eyes. ‘You, Lord of Assassins, are no
healer.’
No. Someone cut out my unease,
please. Make clean the incision, take out what’s ill and leave me free of it.
We are sickened by the unknown, but knowledge can prove poisonous. And drifting
lost between the two is no better. ‘There is more than one path to
salvation.’
‘It is curious.’
‘What is?’
‘Your words … in another voice,
coming from … someone else, would leave a listener calmed, reassured. From you,
alas, they could chill a mortal soul to its very core.’
‘This is what I am,’ Cotillion said.
Edgewalker nodded. ‘It is what you
are, yes.’
Cotillion advanced another six
paces, eyes on the nearest dragon, the gleaming bones of the skull visible
between strips of rotted hide. ‘Eloth,’ he said, ‘I would hear your voice.’
‘Shall we bargain again, Usurper?’
The voice was male, but such details
were in the habit of changing on a whim. Still, he frowned, trying to recall
the last time. ‘Kalse, Ampelas, you will each have your turn. Do I now speak
with Eloth?’
‘I am Eloth. What is it about my
voice that so troubles you, Usurper? I sense your suspicion.’
‘I needed to be certain,’ Cotillion
replied. ‘And now I am. You are indeed Mockra.’
A new draconic voice rumbled
laughter through Cotillion’s skull, and then said, ‘Be careful, Assassin,
she is the mistress of deceit.’
Cotillion’s brows lifted. ‘Deceit?
Pray not, I beg you. I am too innocent to know much about such things. Eloth, I
see you here in chains, and yet in mortal realms your voice has been heard. It
seems you are not quite the prisoner you once were.’
‘Sleep slips the cruellest
chains, Usurper. My dreams rise on wings and I am free. Do you now tell me that
such freedom was more than delusion? I am shocked unto disbelief.’
Cotillion grimaced. ‘Kalse, what do
you dream of?’
‘Ice.’
Does that surprise me? ‘Ampelas?’
‘The rain that burns, Lord of
Assassins, deep in shadow. And such a grisly shadow. Shall we three whisper
divinations now? All my truths are chained here, it is only the lies that fly
free. Yet there was one dream, one that still burns fresh in my mind. Will you
hear my confession?’
‘My rope is not quite as frayed as
you think, Ampelas. You would do better to describe your dream to Kalse.
Consider that advice my gift.’ He paused, glanced back at Edgewalker for a
moment, and then faced the dragons once more. ‘Now then, let us bargain for
real.’
‘There is no value in that,’
Ampelas said. ‘ You have nothing to give us.’
‘But I do.’
Edgewalker suddenly spoke behind
him. ‘Cotillion—’
‘Freedom,’ said Cotillion.
Silence.
He smiled. ‘A fine start. Eloth, will
you dream for me?’
‘Kalse and Ampelas have shared
your gift. They looked upon one another with faces of stone. There was pain.
There was fire. An eye opened and it looked upon the Abyss. Lord of Knives, my
kin in chains are … dismayed. Lord, I will dream for you. Speak on.’
‘Listen carefully then,’ Cotillion
said. ‘This is how it must be.’
The depths of the canyon were unlit,
swallowed in eternal night far beneath the ocean’s surface. Crevasses gaped in
darkness, a world’s death and decay streaming down in ceaseless rain, and the
currents whipped in fierce torrents that stirred sediments into spinning
vortices, lifting like whirlwinds. Flanked by the submerged crags of the canyon’s
ravaged cliffs, a flat plain stretched out, and in the centre a lurid red flame
flickered to life, solitary, almost lost in the vastness.
Shifting the almost weightless
burden resting on one shoulder, Mael paused to squint at that improbable fire.
Then he set out, making straight for it.
Lifeless rain falling to the depths,
savage currents whipping it back up into the light, where living creatures fed
on the rich soup, only to eventually die and sink back down. Such an elegant
exchange, the living and the dead, the light and the lightless, the world above
and the world below. Almost as if someone had planned it.
He could now make out the hunched
figure beside the flames, hands held out to the dubious heat. Tiny sea
creatures swarmed in the reddish bloom of light like moths. The fire emerged
pulsing from a rent in the floor of the canyon, gases bubbling upward.
Mael halted before the figure,
shrugging off the wrapped corpse that had been balanced on his shoulder. As it
rocked down to the silts tiny scavengers rushed towards it, only to spin away
without alighting. Faint clouds billowed as the wrapped body settled in the
mud.
The voice of K’rul, Elder God of the
Warrens, drifted out from within his hood. ‘If all existence is a dialogue, how
is it there is still so much left unsaid?’
Mael scratched the stubble on his
jaw. ‘Me with mine, you with yours, him with his, and yet still we fail to
convince the world of its inherent absurdity.’
K’rul shrugged. ‘Him with his. Yes.
Odd that of all the gods, he alone discovered this mad, and maddening, secret.
The dawn to come … shall we leave it to him?’
‘Well,’ Mael grunted, ‘first we need
to survive the night. I have brought the one you sought.’
‘I see that. Thank you, old friend.
Now tell me, what of the Old Witch?’
Mael grimaced. ‘The same. She tries
again, but the one she has chosen … well, let us say that Onos T’oolan
possesses depths Olar Ethil cannot hope to comprehend, and she will, I fear,
come to rue her choice.’
‘A man rides before him.’
Mael nodded. ‘A man rides before
him. It is … heartbreaking.’
‘“Against a broken heart, even
absurdity falters.”’
‘“Because words fall away.”’
Fingers fluttered in the glow. ‘“A
dialogue of silence.”’
‘“That deafens.”’ Mael looked off
into the gloomy distance. ‘Blind Gallan and his damnable poems.’ Across the
colourless floor armies of sightless crabs were on the march, drawn to the
alien light and heat. He squinted at them. ‘Many died.’
‘Errastas had his suspicions, and
that is all the Errant needs. Terrible mischance, or deadly nudge. They were as
she said they would be. Unwitnessed.’ K’rul lifted his head, the empty hood now
gaping in Mael’s direction. ‘Has he won, then?’
Mael’s wiry brows rose. ‘You do not
know?’
‘That close to Kaminsod’s heart, the
warrens are a mass of wounds and violence.’
Mael glanced down at the wrapped corpse.
‘Brys was there. Through his tears I saw.’ He was silent for a long moment,
reliving someone else’s memories. He suddenly hugged himself, released a ragged
breath. ‘In the name of the Abyss, those Bonehunters were something to
behold!’
The vague hints of a face seemed to
find shape inside the hood’s darkness, a gleam of teeth. ‘Truly? Mael – truly?’
Emotion growled out in his words. ‘This
is not done. Errastas has made a terrible mistake. Gods, they all have!’
After a long moment, K’rul sighed, gaze
returning to the fire. His pallid hands hovered above the pulsing glow of
burning rock. ‘I shall not remain blind. Two children. Twins. Mael, it seems we
shall defy the Adjunct Tavore Paran’s wish to be for ever unknown to us,
unknown to everyone. What does it mean, this desire to be unwitnessed? I do not
understand.’
Mael shook his head. ‘There is such
pain in her … no, I dare not get close. She stood before us, in the throne
room, like a child with a terrible secret, guilt and shame beyond all measure.’
‘Perhaps my guest here will have the
answer.’
‘Is this why you wanted him? To
salve mere curiosity? Is this to be a voyeur’s game, K’rul? Into a woman’s
broken heart?’
‘Partly,’ K’rul acknowledged. ‘But
not out of cruelty, or the lure of the forbidden. Her heart must remain her
own, immune to all assault.’ The god regarded the wrapped corpse. ‘No, this one’s
flesh is dead, but his soul remains strong, trapped in its own nightmare of
guilt. I would see it freed of that.’
‘How?’
‘Poised to act, when the moment
comes. Poised to act. A life for a death, and it will have to do.’
Mael sighed unevenly. ‘Then it falls
on her shoulders. A lone woman. An army already mauled. With allies fevered
with lust for the coming war. An enemy awaiting them all, unbowed, with inhuman
confidence, so eager to spring the perfect trap.’ He lifted his hands to his
face. ‘A mortal woman who refuses to speak.’
‘Yet they follow.’
‘They follow.’
‘Mael, do they truly have a chance?’
He looked down at K’rul. ‘The
Malazan Empire conjured them out of nothing. Dassem’s First Sword, the
Bridgeburners, and now the Bonehunters. What can I tell you? It is as if they
were born of another age, a golden age lost to the past, and the thing of it
is: they don’t even know it. Perhaps that is why she wishes them to remain
unwitnessed in all that they do.’
‘What do you mean?’
‘She doesn’t want the rest of the
world to be reminded of what they once were.’
K’rul seemed to study the fire.
Eventually, he said, ‘In these dark waters, one cannot feel one’s own tears.’
Mael’s reply was bitter. ‘Why do you
think I live here?’
‘If I have not challenged myself,
if I have not striven to give it all I have, then will I stand head bowed
before the world’s judgement. But if I am to be accused of being cleverer than
I am – and how is this even possible? – or, gods forbid, too aware of every
echo sent charging out into the night, to bounce and cavort, to reverberate
like a sword’s edge on a shield rim, if, in other words, I am to be castigated
for heeding my sensitivities, well, then something rises like fire within me. I
am, and I use the word most cogently, incensed.’
Udinaas snorted. The page was torn
below this, as if the author’s anger had sent him or her into an apoplectic
frenzy. He wondered at this unknown writer’s detractors, real or imagined, and
he thought back to the times, long ago, when someone’s fist had answered his
own too-quick, too-sharp wits. Children were skilled at sensing such things,
the boy too smart for his own good, and they knew what needed doing about it. Beat
him down, lads. Serves him right. So he was sympathetic to the spirit of
the long-dead writer.
‘But then, you old fool, they’re
dust and your words live on. Who now has the last laugh?’
The rotting wood surrounding him
gave back no answer. Sighing, Udinaas tossed the fragment aside, watched flakes
of parchment drift down like ashes. ‘Oh, what do I care? Not much longer, no,
not much longer.’ The oil lamp was guttering out, used up, and the chill had
crept back in. He couldn’t feel his hands. Old legacies, no one could shake
them, these grinning stalkers.
Ulshun Pral had predicted more snow,
and snow was something he had grown to despise. ‘As if the sky itself was
dying. You hear that, Fear Sengar? I’m almost ready to take up your tale. Who
could have imagined that legacy?’
Groaning at the stiffness in his
limbs, he clambered out of the ship’s hold, emerged blinking on the slanted
deck, the wind battering at his face. ‘World of white, what are you telling us?
That all is not well. That the fates have set a siege upon us.’
He had taken to talking to himself.
That way, no one else had to cry, and he was tired of those glistening tears on
weathered faces. Yes, he could thaw them all with a handful of words. But that
heat inside, well, it had nowhere to go, did it? He gave it to the cold, empty
air instead. Not a single frozen tear in sight.
Udinaas climbed over the ship’s
side, dropped down into knee-deep snow, and then took a fresh path back to the
camp in the shelter of rocks, his thick, fur-lined moccasins forcing him to
waddle as he ploughed through the drifts. He could smell woodsmoke.
He caught sight of the emlava
halfway to the camp. The two enormous cats stood perched on high rocks, their
silvered backs blending with the white sky. Watching him. ‘So, you’re back.
That’s not good, is it?’ He felt their eyes tracking him as he went on. Time
was slowing down. He knew that was impossible, but he could imagine an entire
world buried deep in snow, a place devoid of animals, a place where seasons
froze into one and that season did not end, ever. He could imagine the choking
down of every choice until not a single one was left.
‘A man can do it. Why not an entire
world?’ The snow and wind gave no answer, beyond the brutal retort that was
indifference.
In between the rocks, now, the
bitter wind falling off, the smoke stinging awake his nostrils. There was
hunger in the camp, there was white everywhere else. And still the Imass sang
their songs. ‘Not enough,’ Udinaas muttered, breath pluming. ‘It’s just not, my
friends. Face it, she’s dying. Our dear little child.’
He wondered if Silchas Ruin had
known all along. This imminent failure. ‘All dreams die in the end. Of all
people I should know that. Dreams of sleep, dreams of the future, sooner or
later comes the cold, hard dawn.’ Walking past the snow-humped yurts, scowling
against the droning songs drifting out around the hide flaps, he made for the
trail leading to the cave.
Dirty ice crusted the rocky maw,
like frozen froth. Once within its shelter the air warmed around him, damp and
smelling of salts. He stamped the snow from his moccasins, and then strode into
the twisting, stony corridor, hands out to the sides, fingertips brushing the
wet stone. ‘Oh,’ he said under his breath, ‘but you’re a cold womb, aren’t you?’
Ahead he heard voices, or, rather,
one voice. Heed your sensitivities now, Udinaas. She stands unbowed, for
ever unbowed. This is what love can do, I suppose.
The old stains on the stone floor
remained, timeless reminders of blood spilled and lives lost in this wretched
chamber. He could almost hear the echoes, sword and spear, the gasp of
desperate breaths. Fear Sengar, I would swear your brother stands there
still. Silchas Ruin staggering back, step by step, his scowl of disbelief like
a mask he’d never worn before, and was it not ill-fitting? It surely was.
Onrack T’emlava stood to the right of his wife. Ulshun Pral crouched a few
paces to Kilava’s left. Before them all reared a withered, sickly edifice. Dying
House, your cauldron is cracked. She was a flawed seed.
Kilava turned upon his arrival, her
dark animal eyes narrowing as would a hunting cat’s as it gathered to pounce. ‘Thought
you might have sailed away, Udinaas.’
‘The charts lead nowhere, Kilava
Onass, as I’m sure the pilot observed upon arriving in the middle of a plain.
Is there anything more forlorn than a foundered ship, I wonder?’
Onrack spoke. ‘Friend Udinaas, I
welcome your wisdom. Kilava speaks of the awakening of the Jaghut, the hunger of
the Eleint, and the hand of the Forkrul Assail, which never trembles. Rud
Elalle and Silchas Ruin have vanished – she cannot sense them and she fears the
worst.’
‘My son lives.’
Kilava stepped closer. ‘You cannot
know that.’
Udinaas shrugged. ‘He took more from
his mother than Menandore ever imagined. When she faced that Malazan wizard,
when she sought to draw upon her power, well, it was one of many fatal
surprises that day.’ His gaze fell to those blackened stains. ‘What happened
to our heroic outcome, Fear? To the salvation you gave your life to win? “If I
have not challenged myself, if I have not striven to give it all I have, then
will I stand head bowed before the world’s judgement.” But the world’s
judgement is cruel.’
‘We contemplate a journey from this
realm,’ said Onrack.
Udinaas glanced at Ulshun Pral. ‘Do
you agree?’
The warrior freed one hand to a
flurry of fluid gestures.
Udinaas grunted. Before the
spoken word, before song, there was this. But the hand speaks in broken tongue.
The cipher here belongs to his posture – a nomad’s squat. No one fears walking,
or the unfolding of a new world. Errant take me, this innocence stabs the heart.
‘You won’t like what you will find. Not the fiercest beast of this world stands
a chance against my kind.’ He glared at Onrack. ‘What do you think that Ritual
was all about? The one that stole death from your people?’
‘Hurtful as his words are,’ growled
Kilava, ‘Udinaas speaks the truth.’ She faced the Azath once more. ‘We can
defend this gate. We can stop them.’
‘And die,’ snapped Udinaas.
‘No,’ she retorted, wheeling to face
him. ‘You will lead my children from here, Udinaas. Into your world. I will
remain.’
‘I thought you said “we”, Kilava.’
‘Summon your son.’
‘No.’
Her eyes flared.
‘Find someone else to join you in
your last battle.’
‘I will stand with her,’ said
Onrack.
‘You will not,’ hissed Kilava. ‘You
are mortal—’
‘And you are not, my love?’
‘I am a Bonecaster. I bore a First
Hero who became a god.’ Her face twisted but there was anguish in her eyes. ‘Husband,
I shall indeed summon allies to this battle. But you, you must go with our son,
and with Udinaas.’ She pointed a taloned finger at the Letherii. ‘Lead them
into your world. Find a place for them—’
‘A place? Kilava, they are as the
beasts of my world – there are no places left!’
‘You must find one.’
Do you hear this, Fear Sengar? I
am not to be you after all. No, I am to be Hull Beddict, another doomed
brother. ‘Follow me! Listen to all my promises! Die.’ ‘There is nowhere,’
he said, throat tight with grief, ‘In all the world … nowhere. We leave nothing
well enough alone. Not ever. The Imass can make claim to empty lands, yes,
until someone casts upon it a covetous eye. And then they will begin killing
you. Collecting hides and scalps. They will poison your food. Rape your
daughters. All in the name of pacification, or resettlement, or whatever other
euphemistic bhederin shit they choose to spit out. And the sooner you’re all
dead the better, so they can forget you ever existed in the first place. Guilt
is the first weed we pluck, to keep the garden pretty and smelling sweet. That
is what we do, and you cannot stop us – you never could. No one can.’
Kilava’s expression was flat. ‘You
can be stopped. You will be stopped.’
Udinaas shook his head.
‘Lead them into your world, Udinaas.
Fight for them. I do not mean to fall here, and if you imagine I am not capable
of protecting my children, then you do not know me.’
‘You condemn me, Kilava.’
‘Summon your son.’
‘No.’
‘Then you condemn yourself, Udinaas.’
‘Will you speak so coolly when my
fate extends to your children as well?’
When it seemed that no answer was
forthcoming, Udinaas sighed and, turning about, set off for the outside, for
the cold and the snow, and the whiteness and the freezing of time itself. To
his anguish, Onrack followed.
‘My friend.’
‘I’m sorry, Onrack, I can’t tell you
anything helpful – nothing to ease your mind.’
‘Yet,’ rumbled the warrior, ‘you
believe you have an answer.’
‘Hardly.’
‘Nonetheless.’
Errant’s nudge, it’s hopeless.
Oh, watch me walk with such resolve. Lead you all, yes. Bold Hull Beddict has
returned, to repeat his host of crimes one more time.
Still hunting for heroes, Fear
Sengar? Best turn away, now.
‘You will lead us, Udinaas.’
‘So it seems.’
Onrack sighed.
Beyond the cave mouth, the snow
whipped down.
He had sought a way out. He had
flung himself from the conflagration. But even the power of the Azath could not
breach Akhrast Korvalain, and so he had been cast down, his mind shattered, the
fragments drowning in a sea of alien blood. Would he recover? Calm did not know
for certain, but she intended to take no chances. Besides, the latent power
within him remained dangerous, a threat to all their plans. It could be used
against them, and that was not acceptable. No, better to turn this weapon,
to take it into my own hand and wield it against the enemies I know I must soon
face. Or, if that need proves unnecessary, kill him.
Before either could ever happen,
however, she would have to return here. And do what must be done. I would do
it now, if not for the risk. Should he awaken, should he force my hand … no,
too soon. We are not ready for that.
Calm stood over the body, studying
him, the angular features, the tusks, the faint flush that hinted of fever.
Then she spoke to her ancestors. ‘Take him. Bind him. Weave your sorcery – he
must remain unconscious. The risk of his awakening is too great. I will return
before too long. Take him. Bind him.’ The chains of bones slithered out like
serpents, plunging into the hard ground, ensnaring the body’s limbs, round the
neck, across the torso, stitching him spread-eagled to this hilltop.
She saw the bones trembling. ‘Yes, I
understand. His power is too immense – that is why he must be kept unconscious.
But there is something else I can do.’ She stepped closer and crouched. Her
right hand darted out, the fingers stiff as blades, and stabbed a deep hole in
the man’s side. She gasped and almost reeled back – was it too much? Had she
awoken him?
Blood seeped down from the wound.
But Icarium did not move.
Calm released a long, unsteady
breath. ‘Keep the blood trickling,’ she told her ancestors. ‘Feed on his power.’
Straightening, she lifted her gaze,
studied the horizon on all sides. The old lands of the Elan. But they had done
away with them, leaving nothing but the elliptical boulders that once held down
the sides of tents, and the old blinds and runs from an even older time; of the
great animals that once dwelt in this plain not even a single herd remained,
domestic or wild. There was, she observed, admirable perfection in this new
state of things. Without criminals, there can be no crime. Without crime, no
victims. The wind moaned and none stood against it to give answer.
Perfect adjudication, it tasted of
paradise.
Reborn. Paradise reborn. From
this empty plain, the world. From this promise, the future.
Soon.
She set out, leaving the hill
behind, and with it the body of Icarium, bound to the earth in chains of bone.
When she returned again to this place, she would be flush with triumph. Or in
desperate need. If the latter, she would awaken him. If the former, she would
grasp his head in her hands, and with a single, savage twist, break the
abomination’s neck.
And no matter which decision awaited
her, on that day her ancestors would sing with joy.
Crooked upon the mound of rubbish,
the stronghold’s throne was burning in the courtyard below. Smoke, grey and
black, rose in a column until it lifted past the ramparts, where the wind tore
it apart, shreds drifting like banners high above the ravaged valley.
Half-naked children scampered across
the battlements, their voices cutting sharp through the clatter and groan from
the main gate, where the masons were repairing yesterday’s damage. A watch was
turning over and the High Fist listened to commands snapping like flags behind
him. He blinked sweat and grit from his eyes and leaned, with some caution, on
the eroded merlon, his narrowed gaze scanning the well-ordered enemy camp
spread out along the valley floor.
From the rooftop platform of the
square tower on his right a child of no more than nine or ten years was
struggling with what had once been a signal kite, straining to hold it
overhead, until with thudding wing-flaps the tattered silk dragon lifted
suddenly into the air, spinning and wheeling. Ganoes Paran squinted up at it.
The dragon’s long tail flashed silver in the midday sunlight. The same tail, he
recalled, that had been in the sky above the stronghold the day of the
conquest.
What had the defenders been
signalling then?
Distress. Help.
He stared up at the kite, watched it
climb ever higher. Until the wind-spun smoke devoured it.
Hearing a familiar curse, he turned
to see the Host’s High Mage struggling past a knot of children at the top of
the stairs, his face twisted in disgust as if navigating a mob of lepers. The
fish spine clenched between his teeth jerking up and down in agitation, he
strode up to the High Fist.
‘I swear there’re more of them than
yesterday, and how is that possible? They don’t leap out of someone’s hip
already half grown, do they?’
‘Still creeping out from the caves,’
Ganoes Paran said, fixing his attention on the enemy ranks once more.
Noto Boil grunted. ‘And that’s
another thing. Whoever thought a cave was a decent place to live? Rank,
dripping, crawling with vermin. There will be disease, mark my words, High
Fist, and the Host has had quite enough of that.’
‘Instruct Fist Bude to assemble a
clean-up crew,’ Paran said. ‘Which squads got into the rum store?’
‘Seventh, Tenth and Third, Second
Company.’
‘Captain Sweetcreek’s sappers.’
Noto Boil plucked the spine from his
mouth and examined the pink point. He then leaned over the wall and spat
something red. ‘Aye, sir. Hers.’
Paran smiled. ‘Well then.’
‘Aye, serves them right. So, if they
stir up more vermin—’
‘They are children, mage, not rats.
Orphaned children.’
‘Really? Those white bony ones make
my skin crawl, that’s all I’m saying, sir.’ He reinserted the spine and it went
up and down. ‘Tell me again how this is better than Aren.’
‘Noto Boil, as High Fist I answer
only to the Empress.’
The mage snorted. ‘Only she’s dead.’
‘Which means I answer to no one, not
even you.’
‘And that’s the problem, nailed
straight to the tree, sir. Nailed to the tree.’ Seemingly satisfied with that
statement, he pointed with a nod and jab of the fish spine in his mouth. ‘Lots
of scurrying about over there. Another attack coming?’
Paran shrugged. ‘They’re still …
upset.’
‘You know, if they ever decide to
call our bluff—’
‘Who says I’m bluffing, Boil?’
The man bit something that made him
wince. ‘What I mean is, sir, no one’s denying you got talents and such, but
those two commanders over there, well, if they get tired of throwing Watered
and Shriven against us – if they just up and march themselves over here, in
person, well … that’s what I meant, sir.’
‘I believe I gave you a command a
short while ago.’
Noto scowled. ‘Fist Bude, aye. The
caves.’ He turned to leave and then paused and looked back. ‘They see you, you
know. Standing here day after day. Taunting them.’
‘I wonder,’ Paran mused as he
returned his attention to the enemy camp.
‘Sir?’
‘The Siege of Pale. Moon’s Spawn
just sat over the city. Months, years. Its lord never showed himself, until the
day Tayschrenn decided he was ready to try him. But here’s the thing, what if
he had? What if, every damned day, he’d stepped out on to that ledge? So Onearm
and all the rest could pause, look up, and see him standing there? Silver hair
blowing, Dragnipur a black god-shitting stain spreading out behind him.’
Noto Boil worked his pick for a
moment, and then said, ‘What if he had, sir?’
‘Fear, High Mage, takes time. Real
fear, the kind that eats your courage, weakens your legs.’ He shook his head
and glanced at Noto Boil. ‘Anyway, that was never his style, was it? I miss
him, you know.’ He grunted. ‘Imagine that.’
‘Who, Tayschrenn?’
‘Noto, do you understand anything I
say? Ever?’
‘I try not to, sir. No offence. It’s
that fear thing you talked about.’
‘Don’t trample any children on your
way down.’
‘That’s up to them, High Fist.
Besides, the numbers could do with some thinning.’
‘Noto.’
‘We’re an army, not a crèche, that’s
all I’m saying. An army under siege. Outnumbered, overcrowded, confused, bored –
except when we’re terrified.’ He plucked out his fish spine again, whistled in
a breath between his teeth. ‘Caves filled with children – what were they doing
with them all? Where are their parents?’
‘Noto.’
‘We should just hand them back, that’s
all I’m saying, sir.’
‘Haven’t you noticed, today’s the
first day they’re finally behaving like normal children. What does that tell
you?’
‘Doesn’t tell me nothing, sir.’
‘Fist Rythe Bude. Now.’
‘Aye sir, on my way.’
Ganoes Paran settled his attention
on the besieging army, the precise rows of tents like bone tesserae on a
buckled floor, the figures scrambling tiny as fleas over the trebuchets and
Great Wagons. The foul air of battle never seemed to leave this valley. They
look ready to try us again. Worth another sortie? Mathok keeps skewering me
with that hungry look. He wants at them. He rubbed at his face. The shock
of feeling his beard caught him yet again, and he grimaced. No one likes
change much, do they? But that’s precisely my point.
The silk dragon cut across his
vision, diving down out of the reams of smoke. He glanced over to the boy on
the tower, saw him struggling to keep his footing. A scrawny thing, one of the
ones from up south. A Shriven. When it gets too much, lad, be sure to let go.
Seething motion now in the distant
camp. The glint of pikes, the chained slaves marching out to the yokes of the
Great Wagons, High Watered emerging surrounded by runners. Dust slowly lifting
in the sky above the trebuchets as they were wheeled forward.
Aye, they’re still upset all
right.
‘I knew a warrior once. Awakening
from a wound to the head believing he was a dog, and what are dogs if not
loyalty lacking wits? So here I stand, woman, and my eyes are filled with
tears. For that warrior, who was my friend, who died thinking he was a dog. Too
loyal to be sent home, too filled with faith to leave. These are the world’s
fallen. When I dream, I see them in their thousands, chewing at their own
wounds. So, do not speak to me of freedom. He was right all along. We live in
chains. Beliefs to shackle, vows to choke our throats, the cage of a mortal
life, this is our fate. Who do I blame? I blame the gods. And curse them with
fire in my heart.
‘When she comes to me, when she
says that it’s time, I shall take my sword in hand. You say that I am a man of
too few words, but against the sea of needs, words are weak as sand. Now,
woman, tell me again of your boredom, this stretch of days and nights outside a
city obsessed with mourning. I stand before you, eyes leaking with the grief of
a dead friend, and all I get from you is a siege of silence.’
She said, ‘ You have a
damned miserable way of talking your way into my bed, Karsa Orlong. Fine then,
get in. Just don’t break me.’
‘I only break what I do not want.’
‘And if the days of this
relationship are numbered?’
‘They are,’ he replied,
and then he grinned. ‘ But not the nights.’
Faintly, the distant city’s bells
tolled their grief at the fall of darkness, and in the blue-lit streets and
alleys, dogs howled.
In the innermost chamber of the
palace of the city’s lord, she stood in shadows, watching as he moved away from
the hearth, brushing charcoal from his hands. There was no mistaking his legacy
of blood, and it seemed the weight his father had borne was settling like an
old cloak on his son’s surprisingly broad shoulders. She could never understand
such creatures. Their willingness to martyrdom. The burdens by which they
measured self-worth. This embrace of duty.
He settled into the high-backed
chair, stretched out his legs, the awakening fire’s flickering light licking
the studs ringing his knee-high leather boots. Resting his head back, eyes
closed, he spoke. ‘Hood knows how you managed to get in here, and I imagine
Silanah’s hackles are lifting at this very moment, but if you are not here to
kill me, there is wine on the table to your left. Help yourself.’
Scowling, she edged out from the
shadows. All at once the chamber seemed too small, its walls threatening to
snap tight around her. To so willingly abandon the sky in favour of heavy stone
and blackened timbers, no, she did not understand this at all. ‘Nothing but
wine?’ Her voice cracked slightly, reminding her that it had been some time
since she’d last used it.
His elongated eyes opened and he
observed her with unfeigned curiosity. ‘You prefer?’
‘Ale.’
‘Sorry. You will need to go to the
kitchens below for that.’
‘Mare’s milk, then.’
His brows lifted. ‘Down to the
palace gate, turn left, walk half a thousand leagues. And that is just a guess,
mind you.’
Shrugging, she edged closer to the
hearth. ‘The gift struggles.’
‘Gift? I do not understand.’
She gestured at the flames.
‘Ah,’ he said, nodding. ‘Well, you
stand in the breath of Mother Dark—’ and then he started. ‘Does she know you’re
here? But then,’ he settled back again, ‘how could she not?’
‘Do you know who I am?’ she asked.
‘An Imass.’
‘I am Apsal’ara. His night within
the Sword, his one night, he freed me. He had the time for that. For me.’
She found she was trembling.
He was still studying her. ‘And so
you have come here.’
She nodded.
‘You didn’t expect that from him,
did you?’
‘No. Your father – he had no reason
for regret.’
He rose then, walked over to the
table and poured himself a goblet of wine. He stood with the cup in hand,
staring down at it. ‘You know,’ he muttered, ‘I don’t even want this. The need …
to do something.’ He snorted. ‘“No reason for regret”, well …’
‘They look for him – in you. Don’t
they?’
He grunted. ‘Even in my name you
will find him. Nimander. No, I’m not his only son. Not even his favoured one –
I don’t think he had any of those, come to think of it. Yet,’ and he gestured
with the goblet, ‘there I sit, in his chair, before his fire. This palace feels
like … feels like—’
‘His bones?’
Nimander flinched, looked away. ‘Too
many empty rooms, that’s all.’
‘I need some clothes,’ she said.
He nodded distractedly. ‘I noticed.’
‘Furs. Skins.’
‘You intend to stay, Apsal’ara?’
‘At your side, yes.’
He turned at that, eyes searching
her face.
‘But,’ she added, ‘I will not be his
burden.’
A wry smile. ‘Mine, then?’
‘Name your closest advisers, Lord.’
He swallowed half the wine, and then
set the goblet down on the table. ‘The High Priestess. Chaste now, and I fear
that does not serve her well. Skintick, a brother. Desra, a sister. Korlat,
Spinnock, my father’s most trusted servants.’
‘Tiste Andii.’
‘Of course.’
‘And the one below?’
‘The one?’
‘Did he once advise you, Lord? Do
you stand at the bars in the door’s window, to watch him mutter and pace? Do you
torment him? I wish to know the man I will serve.’
She saw clear anger in his face. ‘Are
you to be my jester now? I have heard of such roles in human courts. Will you
cut the sinews of my legs and laugh as I stumble and fall?’ He bared his teeth.
‘If yours is to be my face of conscience, Apsal’ara, should you not be
prettier?’
She cocked her head, made no reply.
Abruptly his fury collapsed, and his
eyes fell away. ‘It is the exile he has chosen. Did you test the lock on that
door? It is barred from within. But then, we have no problem forgiving
him. Advise me, then. I am a lord and it is in my power to do such things. To
pardon the condemned. Yet you have seen the crypts below us. How many prisoners
cringe beneath my iron hand?’
‘One.’
‘And I cannot free him. Surely that
is worth a joke or two.’
‘Is he mad?’
‘Clip? Possibly.’
‘Then no, not even you can free him.
Your father took scores for the chains of Dragnipur, scores just like this
Clip.’
‘I dare say he did not call it
freedom.’
‘Nor mercy,’ she replied. ‘They are
beyond a lord’s reach, even that of a god.’
‘Then we fail them all. Both lords
and gods – we fail them, our broken children.’
This, she realized, would not be an
easy man to serve. ‘He drew others to him – your father. Others who were not
Tiste Andii. I remember, in his court, in Moon’s Spawn.’
Nimander’s eyes narrowed.
She hesitated, unsure, and then
resumed. ‘Your kind are blind to many things. You need others close to you,
Lord. Servants who are not Tiste Andii. I am not one of these … jesters you
speak of. Nor, it seems, can I be your conscience, ugly as I am to your eyes—’
He held up a hand. ‘Forgive me for
that, I beg you. I sought to wound and so spoke an untruth, just to see it
sting.’
‘I believe I stung you first, my lord.’
He reached again for the wine, and
then stood looking into the hearth’s flames. ‘Apsal’ara, Mistress of Thieves.
Will you now abandon that life, to become an adviser to a Tiste Andii lord? All
because my father, at the very end, showed you mercy?’
‘I never blamed him for what he did.
I gave him no choice. He did not free me out of mercy, Nimander.’
‘Then why?’
She shook her head. ‘I don’t know.
But I mean to find out.’
‘And this pursuit – for an answer –
has brought you here, to Black Coral. To … me.’
‘Yes.’
‘And how long will you stand at my
side, Apsal’ara, whilst I govern a city, sign writs, debate policies? Whilst I
slowly rot in the shadow of a father I barely knew and a legacy I cannot hope
to fill?’
Her eyes widened. ‘Lord, that is not
your fate.’
He wheeled to her. ‘Really? Why not?
Please, advise me.’
She cocked her head a second time,
studied the tall warrior with the bitter, helpless eyes. ‘For so long you Tiste
Andii prayed for Mother Dark’s loving regard. For so long you yearned to be
reborn to purpose, to life itself. He gave it all back to you. All of it. He
did what he knew had to be done, for your sake. You, Nimander, and all the
rest. And now you sit here, in his chair, in his city, among his children. And
her holy breath, it embraces you all. Shall I give you what I possess of
wisdom? Very well. Lord, even Mother Dark cannot hold her breath for ever.’
‘She does not—’
‘When a child is born it must cry.’
‘You—’
‘With its voice, it enters the
world, and it must enter the world. Now,’ she crossed her arms, ‘will
you continue hiding here in this city? I am the Mistress of Thieves, Lord. I
know every path. I have walked them all. And I have seen what there is to be
seen. If you and your people hide here, Lord, you will all die. And so will
Mother Dark. Be her breath. Be cast out.’
‘But we are in this world,
Apsal’ara!’
‘One world is not enough.’
‘Then what must we do?’
‘What your father wanted.’
‘And what is that?’
She smiled. ‘Shall we find out?’
‘You have some nerve, Dragon Master.’
A child shrieked from somewhere down
the walkway.
Without turning, Ganoes Paran sighed
and said, ‘You’re frightening the young ones again.’
‘Not nearly enough.’ The iron-shod
heel of a cane cracked hard on the stone. ‘Isn’t that always the way, hee hee!’
‘I don’t think I appreciate the new
title you’re giving me, Shadowthrone.’
A vague dark smear, the god moved up
alongside Paran. The cane’s gleaming head swung its silver snarl out over the
valley. ‘Master of the Deck of Dragons. Too much of a mouthful. It’s your …
abuses. I so dislike unpredictable people.’ He giggled again. ‘People.
Ascendants. Gods. Thick-skulled dogs. Children.’
‘Where is Cotillion, Shadowthrone?’
‘You should be tired of that
question by now.’
‘I am tired of waiting for an
answer.’
‘Then stop asking it!’ The
god’s manic shriek echoed through the fortress, rattled wild along corridors
and through hallways before echoing back to where they stood atop the wall.
‘That has certainly caught their
attention,’ Paran observed, nodding to a distant barrow where two tall, almost
skeletal figures now stood.
Shadowthrone sniffed. ‘They see
nothing.’ He hissed a laugh. ‘Blinded by justice.’
Ganoes Paran scratched at his beard.
‘What do you want?’
‘Whence comes your faith?’
‘Excuse me?’
The cane rapped and skittered on the
stone. ‘You sit with the Host in Aren, defying every imperial summons. And then
you assault the Warrens with this.’ He suddenly cackled. ‘You should
have seen the Emperor’s face! And the names he called you, my, even the court
scribers cringed!’ He paused. ‘Where was I? Yes, I was berating you, Dragon
Master. Are you a genius? I doubt it. Leaving me no choice but to conclude that
you’re an idiot.’
‘Is that all?’
‘Is she out there?’
‘You don’t know?’
‘Do you?’
Paran slowly nodded. ‘Now I
understand. It’s all about faith. A notion unfamiliar to you, I take it.’
‘This siege is meaningless!’
‘Is it?’
Shadowthrone hissed, one ethereal
hand reaching out, as if to claw at Paran’s face. Instead, it hovered, twisted
and then shrank into something vaguely fist-shaped. ‘You don’t understand
anything!’
‘I understand this,’ Paran replied. ‘Dragons
are creatures of chaos. There can be no Dragon Master, making the title
meaningless.’
‘Exactly.’ Shadowthrone reached out
to gather up a tangled snarl of spider’s web from beneath the wall’s casing. He
held it up, apparently studying the cocooned remnant of a desiccated insect.
Miserable turd. ‘Here is what
I know, Shadowthrone. The end begins here. Do you deny it? No, you can’t, else
you wouldn’t be haunting me—’
‘Not even you can breach the power
surrounding this keep,’ the god said. ‘You have blinded yourself. Open your
gate again, Ganoes Paran, find somewhere else to lodge your army. This is
pointless.’ He flung the web away and gestured with the head of his cane. ‘You
cannot defeat those two, we both know that.’
‘But they don’t, do they?’
‘They will test you. Sooner or
later.’
‘I’m still waiting.’
‘Perhaps even today.’
‘Will you wager on that,
Shadowthrone?’
The god snorted. ‘You have nothing I
want.’
‘Liar.’
‘Then I have nothing you want.’
‘Actually, as it happens …’
‘Do you see me holding a leash? He’s
not here. He’s off doing other things. We’re allies, do you understand? An
alliance. Not a damned marriage!’
Paran grinned. ‘Oddly enough, I wasn’t
even thinking of Cotillion.’
‘A pointless wager in any case. If
you lose you die. Or abandon your army to die, which I can’t see you doing.
Besides, you’re nowhere near as devious as I am. You want this wager? Truly?
Even when I lose, I win. Even when I lose … I win!’
Paran nodded. ‘And that has ever
been your game, Shadowthrone. You see, I know you better than you think. Yes, I
would wager with you. They shall not try me this day. We shall repulse their assault
… again. And more Shriven and Watered will die. We shall remain the itch they
cannot scratch.’
‘All because you have faith? Fool!’
‘Those are the conditions of this
wager. Agreed?’
The god’s form seemed to shift
about, almost vanishing entirely at one moment before reappearing, and the cane
head struck chips from the merlon’s worn edge. ‘Agreed!’
‘If you win and I survive,’ resumed
Paran, ‘you get what you want from me, whatever that is, and assuming it’s in
my power to grant. If I win, I get what I want from you.’
‘If it’s in my power—’
‘It is.’
Shadowthrone muttered something
under his breath, and then hissed. ‘Very well, tell me what you want.’
And so Paran told him.
The god cackled. ‘And you think that’s
in my power? You think Cotillion has no say in the matter?’
‘If he does, best you go and ask
him, then. Unless,’ Paran added, ‘it turns out that, as I suspect, you have no
idea where your ally has got to. In which case, Lord of Shadows, you will do as
I ask, and answer to him later.’
‘I answer to no one!’ Another
shriek, the echoes racing.
Paran smiled. ‘Why, Shadowthrone, I
know precisely how you feel. Now, what is it you seek from me?’
‘I seek the source of your faith.’
The cane waggled. ‘That she’s out there. That she seeks what you seek. That,
upon the Plain of Blood and Chains, you will find her, and stand facing her –
as if you two had planned this all along, when I damned well know you haven’t!
You don’t even like each other!’
‘Shadowthrone, I cannot sell you
faith.’
‘So lie, damn you, just do it
convincingly!’
He could hear silk wings flapping,
the sound a shredding of the wind itself. A boy with a kite. Dragon Master.
Ruler over all that cannot be ruled. Ride the howling chaos and call it mastery
– who are you fooling? Lad, let go now. It’s too much. But he would not, he
didn’t know how.
The man with the greying beard
watches, and can say nothing.
Distress.
He glanced to his left, but the
shadow was gone.
A crash from the courtyard below
drew him round. The throne, a mass of flames, had broken through the mound
beneath it. And the smoke leapt skyward, like a beast unchained.
CHAPTER TWO
I look around at the living
Still and bound
Hands and knees to stone
By what we found
Was a night as wearying
As any just past?
Was a dawn any crueller
To find us this aghast?
By your hand you are staying
And this is fair
But your words of blood
Are too bitter to bear
Song of Sorrows Unwitnessed
Napan Blight
FROM HERE ONWARDS, HE COULD NOT
TRUST THE SKY. THE ALTERNATIVE, he observed as he examined the desiccated,
rotted state of his limbs, invited despondency. Tulas Shorn looked round,
noting with faint dismay the truncated lines of sight, an affliction cursing
all who must walk the land’s battered surface. Scars he had looked down upon
from a great height only a short time earlier now posed daunting obstacles, a
host of furrowed trenches carving deep, jagged gouges across his intended path.
She is wounded but does not
bleed. Not yet, at any rate. No, I see now. This flesh is dead. Yet I am drawn
to this place. Why? He walked, haltingly, up to the edge of the closest
crevasse. Peered down. Darkness, a breath cool and slightly sour with decay.
And … something else.
Tulas Shorn paused for a moment, and
then stepped out into space, and plunged downward.
Threadbare clothing tore loose,
whipped wild as his body struck rough walls, skidded and rebounded in a knock
of withered limbs, tumbling amidst hissing grit and sand, the feathery brush
and then snag of grass roots, and now stones spilling to follow him down.
Bones snapped when he struck the
boulder-studded floor of the fissure. More sand poured down on all sides with
the sound of serpents.
He did not move for a time. The
dust, billowing in the gloom, slowly settled. Eventually, he sat up. One leg
had broken just above the knee. The lower part of the limb remained attached by
little more than a few stretches of skin and sinew. He set the break and waited
while the two ragged ends slowly fused. The four ribs that now thrust broken
tips out from the right side of his chest were not particularly debilitating,
so he left them, conserving his power.
A short while later he managed to
stand, his shoulders scraping walls. He could make out the usual assortment of
splintered bones littering the uneven floor, but these were only of mild
interest, the fragments of bestial souls clinging to them writhing like ghostly
worms, disturbed by the new currents in the air.
He began walking, following the odd
scent he had detected from above. It was stronger down here, of course, and
with each awkward step along the winding channel there arose within him a
certain anticipation, bordering on excitement. Close, now.
The skull was set on a spear shaft
of corroded bronze, rising to chest height and blocking the path. In a heap at
the shaft’s base was the rest of the skeleton, every bone systematically
shattered.
Tulas Shorn halted two paces from
the skull. ‘Tartheno?’
The voice rumbling through his head
spoke, however, in the language of the Imass. ‘Bentract. Skan Ahl greets
you, Revenant.’
‘Your bones are too large for a T’lan
Imass.’
‘Yes, but no salvation came of
that.’
‘Who did this to you, Skan Ahl?’
‘Her body lies a few paces behind
me, Revenant.’
‘If you so wounded her in your battle
that she died, how was it that she could destroy your body with such vigour?’
‘I did not say she was dead.’
Tulas Shorn hesitated, and then
snorted. ‘No, nothing lives here. Either she is dead or she is gone.’
‘I can hardly argue with you,
Revenant. Now then, do this one thing: look behind you.’
Bemused, he did so. Sunlight
fighting its way down through dust. ‘I see nothing.’
‘That is your privilege.’
‘I do not understand.’
‘I saw her step past me. I heard
her slide to the ground. I heard her cry out in pain, and then weep, and when
the weeping was done, all that remained was her breathing, until that too
slowed. But … I can still hear it. The lift and fall of her chest, with each
rise of the moon – when its faint light reaches down – how many times? Many. I
have lost count. Why does she remain? What does she want? She will not answer.
She never answers.’
Saying nothing, Tulas Shorn edged
past the stake and its dusty skull. Five strides further on, he halted, stared
down.
‘Does she sleep, Revenant?’
Tulas slowly crouched. He reached
down and touched the delicate rib cage lying in a shallow depression at his
feet. A newborn’s fossilized bones, glued to the ground by calcified limestone.
Born to the tide of the moon, were you, little one? Did you draw even a
single breath? I think not. ‘T’lan Imass, was this the end of your chase?’
‘She was formidable.’
‘A Jaghut. A woman.’
‘I was the last on her trail. I
failed.’
‘And is it that failure that
torments you, Skan Ahl? Or that she now haunts you, here behind you, for ever
hidden from your sight?’
‘Awaken her! Or better still,
slay her, Revenant. Destroy her. For all we know, she is the very last Jaghut.
Kill her and the war will be over, and I will know peace.’
‘There is little peace in death, T’lan
Imass.’ Ah, child, the wind at night moans through you, does it? Night’s
very own breath, to haunt him for all eternity.
‘Revenant, turn my skull. I would
see her again.’
Tulas Shorn straightened. ‘I will
not step between you in this war.’
‘But it is a war you can end!’
‘I cannot. Nor, it is clear, can
you. Skan Ahl, I must leave you now.’ He looked down at the tiny bones. ‘Both
of you.’
‘Since my failure, Revenant, I
have entertained not a single visitor. You are the first to find me. Are you of
such cruelty as to condemn me to an eternity in this state? She defeated me. I
accept this. But I beg of you, grant me the dignity of facing my slayer.’
‘You pose a dilemma,’ Tulas Shorn
said after a moment’s consideration. ‘What you imagine to be mercy may not
prove any such thing, should I acquiesce. And then there is this: I am not
particularly inclined to mercy, Skan Ahl. Not with respect to you. Do you begin
to comprehend my difficulty? I could indeed reach out and swing your skull round,
and you may curse me for all time. Or I could elect to do nothing, to leave
everything as I have found it – as if I was never here – and so earn your
darkest resentment. In either case, you will see me as cruel. Now, this does
not offend me overmuch. As I said, I am not stirred to kindness. The matter I
face is: how cruel do I wish to be?’
‘Think on that privilege I spoke
of earlier, Revenant. Your simple gift of being able to turn yourself round, to
see what hides behind you. We both understand that what is seen may not be
welcome.’
Tulas Shorn grunted. ‘T’lan Imass, I
know all about looking over my shoulder.’ He walked back to the skull. ‘Shall I
be the brush of wind, then? A single turn, a new world to unfold.’
‘Will she awaken?’
‘I think not,’ he replied, reaching
out and settling one withered fingertip against the huge skull. ‘But you can
try.’ A slow increase in pressure, and with a grating squeal the skull swung
round.
The T’lan Imass began howling in
Tulas Shorn’s wake as he walked back up the channel.
Gifts are never what they seem.
And the punishing hand? It, too, is not what it seems. Yes, these two thoughts
are worthy of long echoes, stretching into this wretched future.
As if anyone will listen.
Vengeance, held tight like an
iron-shod spear in her hand, and how it burned. Ralata could feel its searing
heat, and the pain was now a gift, something she could feed upon, like a hunter
crouched over a fresh kill. She’d lost her horse. She’d lost her people.
Everything had been taken away from her, everything except this final gift.
The broken moon was a blurred smear
almost lost in the green glow of the Strangers in the Sky. The Skincut Barghast
stood facing east, her back to the smouldering coals from the hearth, and
looked out upon a plain that seemed to seethe in the jade and silver light.
Behind her the black-haired warrior
named Draconus spoke in low tones with the Teblor giant. They talked often in
some foreign tongue – Letherii, she supposed, not that she’d ever cared to
learn it. Even the simpler trader’s language made her head ache, but on
occasion she caught some Letherii word that had made its way into the pidgin
cant, so she knew they were speaking of the journey ahead.
East. It was, for the moment,
convenient for her to travel in their company, despite having to constantly
fend off the Teblor’s clumsy advances. Draconus was able to find game where
none seemed to exist. He could call water up from cracked bedrock. More than
just a warrior. A shaman. And in a scabbard of midnight wood strapped to his
back there was a sword of magic.
She wanted it. She meant to have it.
A weapon suited to the vengeance she desired. With such a sword, she could kill
the winged slayer of her sisters.
In her mind she worked through
scenarios. A knife across the man’s throat when he slept, and then a stab
through an eye for the Teblor. Simple, quick, and she would have what she
wanted. If not for the emptiness of this land. If not for the thirst and
starvation that would follow – no, for the time being Draconus must live. For
Ublala, however, if she could arrange a terrible accident, then she would not
have him to worry about on the night she went for the sword. The dilemma of
finding for the oaf a fatal demise here on this featureless plain still defeated
her. But she had time.
‘Come back to the fire, beloved,’
the Teblor called, ‘and drink some tea. It has real leaves in it and stuff that
smells nice.’
Ralata massaged her temples for a
moment, and then turned about. ‘I am not your beloved. I belong to no one. I
never will.’
At seeing the half-smile on the face
of Draconus as he tossed another dung chip on to the fire, Ralata scowled. ‘It
is rude,’ she pronounced as she walked over, squatted down and took the cup
Ublala proffered, ‘to talk in a language I don’t understand. You could be
plotting my rape and murder for all I know.’
The warrior’s brows arched. ‘Now,
why would we want to do that, Barghast? Besides,’ he added, ‘Ublala is courting
you.’
‘He might as well give up now. I don’t
want him.’
Draconus shrugged. ‘I have explained
to him that most of what we call courting boils down to just being there. Every
time you turn, you see him, until his company feels perfectly natural to you. “Courting
is the art of growing like mould on the one you want.”’ He paused, scratched at
the stubble on his jaw. ‘I can’t lay claim to that observation, but I don’t
recall who said it first.’
Ralata spat into the fire to
announce her disgust. ‘We’re not all like Hetan, you know. She used to say she
gauged the attractiveness of a man by imagining how he looked when she was
staring up at his red face and bulging eyes.’ She spat again. ‘I am a Skincut,
a slayer, a collector of scalps. When I look upon a man, I imagine what he’ll
look like with the skin of his face sliced away.’
‘She’s not very nice, is she?’
Ublala asked Draconus.
‘Trying hard, you mean,’ Draconus
replied.
‘Makes me want to sex her even more
than before.’
‘That’s how these things work.’
‘It’s torture. I don’t like it. No,
I do. No, I don’t. I do. Oh, I’m going to polish my hammer.’
Ralata stared at Ublala as he surged
to his feet and thumped off.
Low and in the language of the White
Faces, Draconus murmured, ‘He means that literally, by the way.’
She shot him a look, and snorted. ‘I
knew that. He has no wits for anything else.’ She hesitated, and then said, ‘His
armour looks expensive.’
‘It cost dearly, aye, Ralata. He
wears it well, better than one might have hoped.’ He nodded, mostly to himself,
she suspected, and said, ‘He will stand well, I think, when the time comes.’
She remembered this warrior killing
Sekara the Vile, snapping the old woman’s neck. The ease of the gesture, the
way he seemed to embrace her to keep her from falling, as if her lifeless body
still clung to something like dignity. He was not a man easily understood. ‘What
are you two seeking? You walk into the east. Why?’
‘There are unfortunate things in the
world, Ralata.’
She frowned. ‘I don’t know what that
means.’
He sighed, studied the fire. ‘Have
you ever stepped on something unintentionally? Out through a doorway, a sudden
crunching underfoot. What was it? An insect? A snail? A lizard?’ He lifted his
head and fixed her with his dark eyes, the embers gleaming in lurid reflection.
‘Not worth a second thought, was it? Such are the vagaries of life. An ant
dreaming of war, a wasp devouring a spider, a lizard stalking the wasp. All
these dramas, and crunch – all over with. What to make of it? Nothing, I
suppose. If you’ve a heart, you apportion out some small measure of guilt and
remorse, and then continue on your way.’
She shook her head, baffled. ‘You
stepped on something?’
‘In a manner of speaking.’ He nudged
the embers and watched as sparks spun upward. ‘No matter. A few ants survived.
No end to the little bastards, in fact. I could crush a thousand nests under
heel and it’d not make a whit of difference. That’s the best way of thinking
about it, in fact.’ He met her eyes again. ‘Does that make me cold? What did I
leave behind in those chains, I wonder, still shackled there, a host of forlorn
virtues … whatever. I am having odd dreams of late.’
‘I dream only of vengeance.’
‘The more you dream of one
particular and pleasing thing, Ralata, the quicker it palls. The edges get worn
down, the lustre fades. To leave such obsessions behind, dream of them often.’
‘You speak like an old man, a
Barghast shaman. Riddles and bad advice, Onos Toolan was right to discount them
all.’ She almost looked to the west, past his shoulder, as if she might find
her people and the Warleader, all marching straight for them. Instead, she
finished the last of the tea in her cup.
‘Onos Toolan,’ Draconus muttered, ‘an
Imass name. A strange warleader for the Barghast to have … will you tell me the
tale of that, Ralata?’
She grunted. ‘I have no skill for
tales. Hetan took him for a husband. He was from the Gathering, when all the T’lan
Imass answered the summons of Silverfox. She returned to him his life, ending
his immortality, and then Hetan found him. After the end of the Pannion War.
Hetan’s father was Humbrall Taur, who had united the White Face clans, but he
drowned during the landing upon the shores of this continent—’
‘A moment, please. Your tribes are
not native to this continent?’
She shrugged. ‘The Barghast gods
were awakened to some peril. They filled the brains of the shamans with their
panic, like sour piss. We must return here, to our original homeland, to face
an ancient enemy. So we were told, but not much else. We thought the enemy was
the Tiste Edur. Then the Letherii, and then the Akrynnai. But it wasn’t any of
them, and now we are destroyed, and if Sekara spoke truly, then Onos Toolan is
dead, and so is Hetan. They’re all dead. I hope the Barghast gods died with
them.’
‘Can you tell me more about these T’lan
Imass?’
‘They knelt before a mortal man. In
the midst of battle, they turned their backs on the enemy. I will say no more
of them.’
‘Yet you chose to follow Onos Toolan—’
‘He was not among those. He stood
alone before Silverfox, a thing of bones, and demanded—’
But Draconus had leaned forward,
almost over the fire. ‘“A thing of bones”? T’lan – Tellann! Abyss below!’
He suddenly rose, startling Ralata further, and she watched as he paced, and it
seemed black ink was bleeding out from the scabbard at his back, a stain that
hurt her eyes. ‘That bitch,’ he said in a low growl. ‘You selfish, spiteful
hag!’
Ublala heard the outburst and he
suddenly loomed into the dull glow of the fire, his huge mace leaning over one
shoulder. ‘What’d she do, Draconus?’ He glared at Ralata. ‘Should I kill her?
If she’s being spelfish and sightful – what’s rape mean, anyway? It’s got to do
with sex? Can I—’
‘Ublala,’ Draconus cut in, ‘I was
not speaking of Ralata.’
The Teblor looked round. ‘I don’t
see no one else, Draconus. She’s hiding? Whoever she is, I hate her, unless she’s
pretty. Is she pretty? Mean is all right if they’re pretty.’
The warrior was staring at Ublala. ‘Best
climb into your furs, Ublala, and get some sleep. I’ll stand first watch.’
‘All right. I wasn’t tired anyway.’
He swung about and set off for his bedroll.
‘Be careful with those curses,’
Ralata said in a hiss, rising to her feet. ‘What if he strikes first and then
asks questions?’
He glanced across at her. ‘The T’lan
Imass were undead.’
She nodded.
‘She never let them go?’
‘Silverfox? No. They asked, I think,
but no.’
He seemed to stagger. And, turning
away, he slowly sank down on to one knee, facing away from her. The pose was
one of dismay, or grief – she could not be sure. Confused, Ralata took a step
towards him, and then stopped. He was saying something, but in a language she
knew not. A phrase, over and over again, his voice hoarse, thick.
‘Draconus?’
His shoulders shook, and then she
heard the rumble of laughter, a deathly, humourless sound. ‘And I thought my
penance was long.’ Head still lowered, he said, ‘This Onos Toolan … is he now
truly dead, Ralata?’
‘So Sekara said.’
‘Then he is at peace. At long last.
At peace.’
‘I doubt it,’ she said.
He twisted round to regard her. ‘Why
do you say that?’
‘They killed his wife. They killed
his children. If I was Onos Toolan, even death would not keep me from my
revenge.’
He drew a sharp breath, and it
caught as if on a hook, and once more he turned away.
The scabbard dripped blackness as if
from an open wound.
Oh, how I want that sword.
Wants and needs could starve and
die, no different from love. All the grand gestures of honour and faithful
loyalty meant nothing when the only witnesses were grass, wind and empty sky.
It seemed to Mappo that his nobler virtues had withered on the vine, and the
garden of his soul, once so verdant, now rattled skeletal branches against
stone walls.
Where was his promise? What of the
vows he had uttered, so sober and grim in youth, so shiny of portent, as
befitted the broad-shouldered brave he had once been? Mappo could feel dread
inside, hard as a fist-sized tumour in his chest. His ribs ached with the
pressure of it, but it was an ache he had lived with for so long now, it had
become a part of him, a scar far larger than the wound it covered. And this
is how words are made flesh. This is how our very bones become the rack of our
own penance, and the muscles twitch in slick skins of sweat, the head hangs
loose – I see you, Mappo – so slumped down in pathetic surrender.
He was taken from you, like a
bauble stolen from your purse. The theft stung, it stings still. You feel
outraged. Violated. This is pride and indignation, isn’t it? These are the
sigils on your banner of war, your lust for vengeance. Look upon yourself, Mappo,
you mouth the arguments of tyrants now, and all shrink from your path.
But I want him back. At my side.
I swore my life to protecting him, sheltering him. How can that be taken away
from me? Can you not hear the empty howl in my heart? This is a pit without
light, and upon all the close walls surrounding me I can feel nothing but the
gouges my claws have made.
The green sheen upon the broken land
was sickly to his eyes, unnatural, an ominous imposition that made the
shattering of the moon seem almost incidental. But worlds heal, when we do
not. Mustiness clung to the night air, as of distant corpses left to rot.
There have been so many deaths in
this wasteland. I don’t understand it. Was this by Icarium’s sword? His rage? I
should have felt that, but the very ground barely breathes; like an old woman
in her death-cot she can but tremble to faraway sounds. Thunder and a darkness
upon the sky.
‘There is war.’
Mappo grunted. They’d been silent
for so long he’d almost forgotten Gruntle’s presence, standing here at his
side. ‘What do you know of it?’ he asked, pulling his gaze away from the
eastern horizon.
The barb-tattooed caravan guard
shrugged. ‘What is there to know? Deaths beyond counting. Slaughter to make my
mouth water. Hackles rise – even in this gloom I can see the dismay in your
face, Trell, and I share it. War, it is what it was and always will be. What
else is there to say?’
‘You yearn to join the fray?’
‘My dreams tell me different.’
Mappo glanced back at the camp. The
humped forms of their sleeping companions, the more regular mound of the fresh
burial cairn. The desiccated shape of Cartographer seated upon the stones, a
tattered wolf lying at his feet. Two horses, the scatter of packs and supplies.
An air of death and sorrow. ‘If there is war,’ he said, facing Gruntle again, ‘who
profits?’
The man rolled his shoulders, a
habit of his, Mappo now knew, as if Trake’s Mortal Sword sought to shift a
burden no one else could see. ‘Ever the question, as if answers meant anything,
which they don’t. Soldiers are herded into the iron maw and the ground turns to
red mud, and someone on a nearby hill raises a fist in triumph, while another
flees the field on a white horse.’
‘I warrant Trake takes little
pleasure in his chosen warrior’s views on the matter.’
‘Warrant more how little I care,
Mappo. A Soletaken tiger, but such beasts keep no company, why should Trake
expect anything different? We are solitary hunters; what manner of war can we
hope to find? That is the irony in the whole mess: the Tiger of Summer is
doomed to hunt the perfect war, but never find it. See how his tail lashes.’
No, I see that. For the true
visage of war, best turn to the snarling jaws of wolves. ‘Setoc,’ he said
in a murmur.
‘She has dreams of her own, I’m
sure,’ Gruntle said.
‘Traditional wars,’ Mappo mused, ‘are
fomented in the winter, when the walls close in and there is too much time on
one’s hands. The barons brood, the kings scheme, raiders plot their passages
through borderlands. The wolves howl in winter. But come the season’s turn,
summer is born to the savagery of blades and spears – the savagery of the
tiger.’ He shrugged. ‘I see no conflict there. You and Setoc, and the gods
bound to you, you all complement one another—’
‘It is more complicated than that,
Trell. Cold iron belongs to the Wolves. Trake is hot iron, a fatal flaw to my
mind. Oh, we do well in the bloody press, but then you must ask, how in Hood’s
name did we get into such a mess in the first place? Because we don’t think.’
Gruntle’s tone was both amused and bitter.
‘And so your dreams visit visions
upon you, Mortal Sword? Troubling ones?’
‘No one remembers the nice ones, do
they? Yes, troubling. Old friends long dead stalk the jungle. They walk lost,
arms groping. Their mouths work but no sound reaches me. I see a panther, my
mistress of the hunt, in these dreams, by the way – she lies gored and bloody,
panting fast in shock, dumb misery in her eyes.’
‘Gored?’
‘Boar’s tusk.’
‘Fener?’
‘As the god of war, he was
unchallenged. Vicious as any tiger, and cunning as any pack of wolves. With
Fener in the ascendant, we knelt with heads bowed.’
‘Your mistress lies dying?’
‘Dying? Maybe. I see her, and rage
fills my eyes in a flood of crimson. Gored, raped, and someone will pay for
that. Someone will pay.’
Mappo was silent. Raped?
Gruntle then growled as befitted his
patron god, and Mappo’s nape-hairs stiffened at the sound. The Trell said, ‘I
will part this company on the morrow.’
‘You seek the battlefield.’
‘Which none of you need witness, I
think. He was there, you see. I felt him, his power. I will find the trail. I
hope. And you, Gruntle? Where will you lead this troop?’
‘East, a little south of your path,
but I am not content to walk at the side of the Wolves for much longer. Setoc
speaks of a child in a city of ice—’
‘Crystal.’ Mappo briefly closed his
eyes. ‘A crystal city.’
‘And Precious Thimble believes there
is power there, something she might be able to use, to take the Shareholders
home. They have a destination, but it is not mine.’
‘Do you seek your mistress? There
are no jungles east of here, unless they exist on the far coast.’
Gruntle started. ‘Jungles? No. You
think too literally, Mappo. I seek a place at her side, to fight a battle. If I
am not there, she will indeed die. So my ghosts tell me in their haunting. It
is not enough to arrive too late, to see the wound in her eyes, to know that
all that you can hope to do is avenge what was done to her. Not enough, Trell.
Never enough.’
The wound in her eyes … you do
this all for love? Mortal Sword, do your ribs ache? Dose she haunt you, whoever
she was, or is Trake simply feeding you the ripest meat? It is not enough to
arrive too late. Oh, I know the truth of that.
Violated.
Raped.
Now comes the dark question. Who
profits from this?
Faint huddled under her furs,
feeling as if she’d been dragged behind a carriage for a league or two. There
was nothing worse than cracked ribs. Well, if she’d sat up only to find her
severed head resting on her lap, that would be worse. But probably painless,
all things considered. Not like this. Miserable ache, a thousand twinges vying
for attention, until everything turns white and then red and then purple and
finally blissful black. Where’s the black? I’m waiting, been waiting all night.
At dusk Setoc had drawn close to
tell her that the Trell would be leaving on the morrow. How she knew was anyone’s
guess, since Mappo wasn’t in any mood to talk, except to Gruntle, who was one
of those men it was too easy to talk to, a man who just invited confession, as
if giving off a scent or something. Hood knew, she wanted to—
A spasm. She stifled a gasp, waited
out the throbs, and then sought to shift position once more, not that one was
more comfortable than any other. More a matter of duration. Twenty breaths
lying this way, fifteen that way, and flat on her back was impossible – she’d
never imagined how the weight of her own tits could crush the breath from her,
and the gentle sweep of the furs threatened to close like a vice when she
thought of settling her arms. It was all impossible, and come the dawn she’d be
ready to snap off heads.
‘Then Gruntle will leave us too.
Not yet. But he won’t stay. He can’t.’
Setoc had a way with words, the
heaps of good news she stacked like the coins of a private treasure. Maybe the
grasses whispered in her ears, as she lay there so gentle and damnably asleep,
or the crickets and just listen to them – no, that was her spine crackling
away. She fought back a moan.
So, before long, it would be the
Shareholders and the barbarian, Torrent, along with the three runts and Setoc
herself. She didn’t count Cartographer, the wolf or the horses. Not for any
particular reason, even if only the horses were actually alive. I don’t
count them, that’s all. So, just them, and who among them was tough enough
to fight off the next attack from that winged lizard? Torrent? He looked too
young, with the eyes of a hunted hare.
And only one Bole left, and that’s
bad. Poor boy’s miserable. Here’s the deal, let’s not bury any more friends,
shall we?
But Precious Thimble was adamant.
Raw power waited in the east. She thought she could do something with it. Open
a warren, get the Hood out of here. Can’t argue with that. Wouldn’t want to.
Sure, she’s just a cherry of a lass is our Precious. And if she’s now
regretting her tease, why, that will make her more careful from now on, which
isn’t a bad thing.
A roll with Gruntle would be
delicious. But it’d kill me. Besides, I’m all scarred up. Lopsided, hah. Who’d
want a freak, except out of pity? Be rational, and don’t shy from its jagged
edge. Your days of crooking a finger to get a tumble are done. Find some other
hobby, woman. Spinning, maybe. Butter churning – is that a hobby? Probably not.
You can’t sleep through this.
Face it. It’ll be months before a decent night … sleeping. Or otherwise.
‘Gruntle thinks he’s going
someplace to die. He doesn’t want us to die with him.’
That’s nice, Setoc, thanks for
that.
‘In the Crystal City there is a
child … beware the opening of his eyes.’
Listen, sweetie, the little one
right here needs his butt wiped and the twins are pretending not to notice but
the smell’s getting a tad rank, right? Take this handful of grass.
Life was so much better on the
carriage, off delivering whatever.
Faint grunted and then flinched at
the pain. Gods, woman, you’re completely insane.
Let me dream of a tavern. Smoky,
crowded, a perfect table. We’re all sitting there, working out the shakes.
Quell duck-walks to the loo. The Boles make faces at each other and then laugh.
Reccanto’s broken a thumb and he’s putting it back in place. Glanno can’t see
the barman. He can’t even see the table in front of him. Sweetest Sufferance is
looking like a plump cat with a rat’s tail hanging from her mouth.
Another pitcher arrives.
Reccanto looks up. ‘ Who’s
paying for this?’ he asks.
Faint cautiously lifted one hand,
moved it up to brush her cheeks. Blissful black, you seem so far away.
In the false dawn, Torrent opened
his eyes. Some violence still rocked in his skull – a dream, but already the
memory of its details faded. Blinking, he sat up. Chill air stole in beneath
his rodara wool blanket, plucking at the beads of sweat on his chest. He
glanced over at the horses, but the beasts stood calm, dozing. In the camp the shapes
of the others were motionless in the grainy half-light.
Casting the blanket aside, he rose.
The greenish glow was paling to the east. The warrior walked over to his horse,
greeted it with a low murmur and settled a hand upon its warm neck. Tales of cities
and empires, of gas that burned with blue flame, of secret ways through the
world that his eyes could not see, all left him disturbed, agitated, though he
was not sure why.
He knew Toc had come from such an
empire, far away across the ocean, and his lone eye had looked upon scenes
Torrent could not imagine. Yet around the Awl warrior now was a more familiar
landscape, rougher than the Awl’dan, true, but just as open, sweeping, the
earth levelled beneath the vast sky. What other sort of place could an honest
man desire? The eyes could reach, the mind could stretch. There was space for
everything. A tent or yurt for nightly shelter, a ring of stones to embrace the
cookfire, the steam rising from the backs of the herds as the dawn gently
broke.
He longed for such a scene, the
morning’s greeting one he had always known. Dogs rising from their beds of
grass, the soft cry of a hungry babe from one of the yurts, the smell of smoke
as hearths were awakened once more.
Sudden emotion gripped him and he
fought back a sob. All gone. Why am I still alive? Why do I cling to this
misery, this empty life? When you are the last, there is no reason to keep
living. All of your veins are cut, the blood drains and drains and there’s no
end to it.
Redmask, you murdered us all.
Did his kin await him in the spirit
world? He wished he could believe. He wished his faith had never been
shattered, crushed under the heel of Letherii soldiers. If the Awl spirits had
been stronger, if they had been all the shamans said they were … we would
not have died. Not have failed. We would never have fallen. But, if they
existed at all, they were weak, ignorant and helpless against change. Balanced
on a bowstring, and when that string snapped their world was done with, for
ever.
He saw Setoc awaken, watched her
stand up, running fingers through the tangles in her hair. Wiping at his eyes,
Torrent turned back to his horse, leaned his forehead against the slick coat of
its neck. I feel you, friend. You do not question your life. You are in its
midst and know no other place, nothing outside it. How I envy you.
She approached him, the faint crunch
of stones underfoot, the slow pulse of her breathing. She came up on his left,
reaching to stroke the horse in the softness between its nostrils, giving it
her scent. ‘Torrent,’ she whispered, ‘who is out there?’
He grunted. ‘Your wolf ghosts are
torn, aren’t they? Curious, frightened …’
‘They smell death, and yet power. So
much power.’
The hide against his brow was now
damp. ‘She calls herself a Bonecaster. A shaman. A witch. Her name is Olar
Ethil, and no life burns in her body.’
‘She comes before the dawn, three
mornings in a row now. But draws no closer. She hides like a hare, and when the
sun’s light finally arrives, she vanishes. Like dust.’
‘Like dust,’ he agreed.
‘What does she want?’
He stepped back from his horse, ran
the back of one wrist against his brow, and looked away. ‘Nothing good, Setoc.’
She said nothing for a time,
standing at his side, her furs wrapped tight about her shoulders. Then she
seemed to shiver, and said, ‘A snake writhes in each of her hands, but they’re
laughing.’
Telorast. Curdle. They dance in
my dreams. ‘They’re dead, too. They’re all dead, Setoc. But still they
hunger … for something.’ He shrugged. ‘We are all lost out here. I feel this,
like a rot in my bones.’
‘I told Gruntle of my visions, the
Wolves and the throne they guard. Do you know what he asked me?’
Torrent shook his head.
‘He asked me if I’ve seen the Wolves
lift a leg against that throne.’
He snorted a laugh, but the sound
shook him in an unexpected way. When did I last laugh? Spirits below.
‘It’s how they mark territory,’
Setoc went on, her tone wry. ‘How they take possession of something. I was
shocked, but not for long. They’re beasts, after all. So what is it we worship
when we worship them?’
‘I worship no one any more, Setoc.’
‘Gruntle says worship is nothing
more than the surrender to things beyond our control. He says the comfort from
that is false, because there is nothing comfortable in the struggle to live. He
kneels to no one, not even his Tiger of Summer, who would dare compel him.’ She
hesitated, and then sighed and added, ‘I will miss Gruntle.’
‘He intends to leave us?’
‘A thousand people can dream of war,
but no two dreams are the same. Soon he will be gone, and Mappo, too. The boy
will be upset.’
The two horses shied suddenly,
stumbling in their hobbles. Stepping past them, Torrent scowled. ‘This dawn,’
he said in a growl, ‘the hare is bold.’
Precious Thimble bit back a shriek,
clawed herself awake with a gasp. Traces of fire raced along her nerves.
Kicking her bedding aside, she scrambled to her feet.
Torrent and Setoc stood near the
horses, facing north. Someone was coming. The ground underfoot seemed to recoil
in waves sweeping past her, like ripples passing just beneath the surface.
Precious struggled to slow her gasping breaths. She set out to join the warrior
and the girl, leaning forward as if fighting an invisible current. Hearing
heavy footfalls behind her, she glanced back to see Gruntle and Mappo.
‘Be careful, Precious,’ Gruntle
said. ‘Against this one …’ He shook his head. The barbed tattoos covering his
skin were visibly deepening, and in his eyes there was nothing human. He’d yet
to draw his cutlasses.
Her gaze flicked to the Trell, but
his expression revealed nothing.
I didn’t kill Jula. It wasn’t my
fault.
She spun back, pushed on.
The figure striding towards them was
withered, a crone swathed in snakeskins. As she drew closer, Precious could see
the ravaged state of her broad face, the emptiness of her eye sockets. Behind
her Gruntle unleashed a feline hiss. ‘T’lan Imass. No weapons, meaning she’s a
Bonecaster. Precious Thimble, do not bargain with this one. She will offer you
power, to get what she wants. Refuse her.’
Through gritted teeth, she replied, ‘We
need to get home.’
‘Not that way.’
She shook her head.
The crone halted ten paces away, and
to Precious Thimble’s surprise it was Torrent who spoke first.
‘Leave them alone, Olar Ethil.’
The hag cocked her head, wisps of
hair drifting out like strands of spider silk. ‘There is only one, warrior. It
is no concern of yours. I am here to claim my kin.’
‘Your what? Witch, there’s—’
‘You cannot have him,’ Gruntle
rumbled, edging past Torrent.
‘Stay out of this, whelp,’ Olar
Ethil warned. ‘Look to your god, and see how he cowers before me.’ She then
pointed a gnarled finger at Mappo. ‘And you, Trell, this is not your battle.
Stand aside, and I will tell you all you need know of the one you seek.’
Mappo seemed to stagger, and then,
his face twisting in anguish, he stepped back.
Precious gasped.
Setoc spoke. ‘Who is this kin of
yours, witch?’
‘He is named Absi.’
‘Absi? There is no—’
‘The boy,’ snapped Olar Ethil. ‘The
son of Onos Toolan. Bring him to me.’
Gruntle drew his swords.
‘Don’t be a fool!’ the Bonecaster
snarled. ‘Your own god will stop you! Treach will not simply let you throw away
your life on this. You think to veer? You will fail. I will kill you, Mortal
Sword, do not doubt that. The boy. Bring him to me.’
The rest were awake now, and
Precious turned round to see Absi standing between the twins, his eyes wide and
bright. Baaljagg was slowly coming forward, closer to where Setoc stood, its
massive head lowered. Amby Bole remained close to his brother’s barrow, closed
in and silent, his once young face now old, and whatever love there had been in
his eyes had vanished. Cartographer stood with one foot in the coals of the
hearth, staring at something to the east – perhaps the rising sun – while
Sweetest Sufferance was helping Faint to her feet. I need to try some more
healing on her. I can show Amby I don’t always fail. I can – no, think about
what is before us now! She gave Mappo what he wants, as easy as that. She
bargains quick, she speaks true. Precious faced the Bonecaster. ‘Ancient
One, we in the Trygalle are stranded here. I have not the power to take us
home.’
‘You will not interfere if I bless
you with what you need?’ Olar Ethil nodded. ‘Agreed. Collect the child.’
‘Don’t even think it,’ Gruntle
warned, the look in his unhuman eyes halting Precious in her tracks. The barbs
on his bared arms seemed to blur a moment, then grew sharp once again.
The Bonecaster said, ‘The boy is
mine, whelp, because his father belongs to me. The First Sword serves me once
again. Would you truly desire to prevent me from reuniting the son with the
father?’
Stavi and Storii rushed closer,
their questions tumbling together. ‘Father – he’s alive? Where is he?’
Gruntle barred their way with a levelled
cutlass. ‘Hold a moment, you two. Something is not right here. Wait, I beg you.
Guard your brother.’ He turned back to Olar Ethil. ‘If the boy’s father now
serves you, where is he?’
‘Not far.’
‘Then bring him to us,’ Gruntle
said. ‘He can collect his children himself.’
‘The daughters are not of his blood,’
Olar Ethil replied. ‘I have no use for them.’
‘You? What of Onos Toolan?’
‘Give them to me, then, and I will
see to their disposal.’
Torrent spun round. ‘Slitting their
throats is what she means, Gruntle.’
‘I did not say that, warrior,’ the
Bonecaster retorted. ‘I will take the three, this I offer.’
Baaljagg was edging closer to Olar
Ethil, and she beckoned to it. ‘Blessed Ay, I greet you and invite you into my
comp—’
The huge beast lunged, massive jaws
crunching as they closed round the Bonecaster’s right shoulder. The ay then
spun, whipping Olar Ethil from her feet. Strips of reptile hide, fetishes of
bone and shell flailed and snapped. The giant wolf did not release its grip,
instead reared a second time, slamming Olar Ethil hard on to the ground. Bones
splintered in its jaws, and the body struggled feebly, as would a victim
stunned.
Baaljagg tore loose its grip on her
crushed shoulder and closed its fangs about her skull. It then whipped her into
the air.
Olar Ethil’s left hand was suddenly
stabbing into the ay’s throat, punching through withered hide and closing on
its spinal column. Even as the wolf flung her upward, she caught hold. The
momentum from Baaljagg’s surge added force to her grip. A sudden, terrible
ripping sound erupted from the ay, and like a serpent a length of the beast’s
spinal column tore free of its throat, still clutched in the witch’s bony hand.
The Bonecaster spun away from the
ay, landing hard in a clatter of bones.
Baaljagg collapsed, head lolling
like a stone in a sack.
Absi wailed.
As Olar Ethil was picking herself
up, Gruntle marched towards her, his two weapons readied. Seeing him, she flung
the spinal column to one side.
And began to veer.
When he reached her, she was nothing
but a blur, moments from expanding into something huge. He punched where her
head had been a moment earlier, and the bell hilt of the cutlass cracked hard
against something. The veering abruptly vanished. Reeling back, her face crushed,
Olar Ethil sprawled on her back.
‘Spit on the tiger god,’
Gruntle said, standing directly over her. ‘Hood take your stupid veering, and
mine!’ Clashing his blades together, he brought them down in an X pattern
beneath her jaw. ‘Now, Bonecaster, I happen to know that if you hit even T’lan
Imass bones hard enough, they shatter.’
‘No mortal—’
‘Piss on that. I will leave you in
pieces, do you understand me? Pieces. How’s it done again? Head in a niche? On
a pole? The crook of a tree? No trees here, witch, but a hole in the ground,
that’s easy.’
‘The child is mine.’
‘He won’t have you.’
‘Why not?’
‘You just killed his dog.’
Precious Thimble hurried forward,
feeling half fevered, her knees wobbly beneath her. ‘Bonecaster—’
‘I am considering withdrawing my
offers,’ Olar Ethil said. ‘All of them. Now, Mortal Sword, will you remove your
weapons and let me rise?’
‘I haven’t decided.’
‘What must I promise? To leave Absi
in your care? Will you guard his life, Mortal Sword?’
Precious saw Gruntle hesitate.
‘I came to bargain with you all,’
Olar Ethil continued. ‘In faith. The undead ay was a slave to ancient memories,
ancient betrayals. I will not hold it against any of you. Mortal Sword, look
upon your friends – who among them is capable of protecting the children? You
will not. The Trell waits only to hear my words whispering through his mind,
and then he will quit your company. The Awl warrior is a pup, and a
disrespectful one at that. The Jhag Bolead spawn is broken inside. I mean to
bring to Onos Toolan his children—’
‘He’s a T’lan Imass, isn’t he?’
The Bonecaster was silent.
‘It’s the only way he would still
serve you,’ Gruntle said. ‘He died, just as his daughters believed, and you
resurrected him. Will you do the same to the boy? The gift of your deathly
touch?’
‘Of course not. He must live.’
‘Why?’
She hesitated, and then said, ‘Because
he is the hope of my people, Mortal Sword. I need him – for my army and for the
First Sword who commands them. The child, Absi, shall be their cause, their reason
to fight.’
Gruntle, Precious saw, was suddenly
pale. ‘A child? Their cause?’
‘Their banner, yes. You do not
understand – I cannot hold on to his anger … the First Sword’s. It is dark, a
beast unchained, a leviathan – he must not be unleashed, not this way. Burn’s
dream, Mortal Sword, let me rise!’
Gruntle withdrew his weapons,
stumbled back a step. He was muttering something under his breath. Precious
Thimble caught only a few words. In the Daru tongue. ‘The banner … child’s
tunic, was that it? The colour … began red, ended … black.’
Olar Ethil struggled to her feet.
Her face was barely recognizable, a crushed, splintered knot of bone and torn
hide. The gouges from Baaljagg’s canines had scored deep, white grooves on her
temples and the base of her mandible on both sides. The ruined shoulder
slumped, its arm hanging useless.
As Gruntle backed still further, an
anguished cry came from Setoc. ‘Has she won you all then? Will no one protect
him? Please! Please!’
The twins were weeping. Absi was
kneeling beside Baaljagg’s desiccated body, moaning in a strange cadence.
Cartographer clattered closer to the
boy, one foot blackened and smouldering. ‘Make him stop that. Someone. Make him
stop that.’
Precious frowned, but the others
ignored the undead man’s pleas. What does he mean by that? She turned to
Olar Ethil. ‘Bonecaster—’
‘East, woman. That is where you will
find all you need. I have touched your soul. I have made it into a Mahybe, a
vessel that waits. East.’
Precious Thimble crossed her arms,
eyes closing for a moment. She wanted to look at Faint and Sweetest, to see the
satisfaction, the relief, in their eyes. She wanted to, but knew she would see
nothing of the sort, not from those two. They were women, after all, and three
children were being surrendered. Thrown into undead arms. They will thank me
in the end. When the memory of this moment fades, when we are all safe and home
again.
Well … not all of us. But what
can we do?
Setoc, with Torrent at her side, was
all that stood between Olar Ethil and the three children. Tears streamed down
Setoc’s cheeks, and in the Awl warrior’s stance Precious Thimble saw a man
facing his execution. He’d drawn his sabre, but the look in his eyes was bleak.
Yet he did not waver. Among them all, this young warrior was the only one not
to turn away. Damn you, Setoc, will you see this brave boy die?
‘We can’t stop her,’ Precious said
to Setoc. ‘You must see that. Torrent – tell her.’
‘I gave up the last of the Awl
children to the Barghast,’ said Torrent. ‘And now they are all dead. Gone.’ He
shook his head.
‘Can you protect these ones
any better?’ Precious demanded.
It was as if he’d been slapped. He
looked away. ‘Giving up children is the one thing I seem to do well.’ He
sheathed his weapon and grasped Setoc’s upper arm. ‘Come with me. We will talk
where no one else can hear us.’
Setoc shot the warrior a wild look,
started to struggle, and then abruptly sagged in his grip.
Precious watched him drag her away. He
broke like a frail twig. Are you proud of yourself now, Precious?
But the path is finally clear.
Olar Ethil walked with a hitching
gait she’d not shown before, joints grinding and snapping, up to where the boy
knelt. She reached down with her good arm and scooped him up by the collar of
his Barghast tunic. Held him out to study his face, and he in turn looked
steadily back at her, dry-eyed, flat. The Bonecaster grunted. ‘Your father’s
son all right, by the Abyss.’
She turned round and set off,
northward, the boy hanging from her grip. After a moment, the twins followed,
neither one looking back. There’s no end to losing everything, is there? It
just goes on and on. Their mother, their father, their people. No, they won’t
be looking back.
And why should they? We failed
them. She came, she cut us apart, bought us like an empress scattering a
handful of coins. And they were what she bought. Them, and our turning away.
And it was easy, because this is what we are .
Mahybe? What in Hood’s name is
that?
With horror in his heart, Mappo set
out from the camp, leaving the others, leaving behind this terrible dawn. He
struggled to keep from breaking into a run, as if that would help. Besides, if
they all watched him, they did so with consciences as stained as his own. Was
there comfort in that? Should there be? We are nothing but our own needs.
She but showed each of us the face we hide from ourselves and everyone else.
She shamed us by exposing our truths.
He fought to remind himself of his
purpose, of all that his vow demanded, and the horrifying things it could make
him do.
Icarium lives. Remember that.
Focus on it. He waits for me. I will find him. I will make it all right once
again. Our small world, closed up and impervious to everything outside it. A
world where none will challenge us, where none will question our deeds, the
hateful decisions we once made.
Give me this world, please, I beg
you.
My most precious lies – she stole
them all. They saw.
Setoc, dear gods, the betrayal in
your face!
No. I will find him. I will
protect him from the world. I will protect the world from him. And from
everything else, from hurt eyes and broken hearts, I will protect myself. And
you all called it my sacrifice, my heartbreaking loyalty – there on the Path of
Hands, I took your breaths away.
Bonecaster, you stole my lies.
See me now.
He knew his ancestors were far, far
away. Their bones crumbled to dust in chambers beneath heaped mounds of stone
and earth. He knew he had forsaken them long ago.
Then why could he hear their howls?
Mappo clapped his hands over his
ears, but that did not help. The howling went on, and on. And on this vast
empty plain, he suddenly felt small, shrinking still further with each step. My
heart. My honour … shrinking, withering down … with each step. He’s only a
child. They all are. He curled up in Gruntle’s arms. The girls, they held on to
Setoc’s hands and sang songs.
Is it not the one inescapable
responsibility of an adult to protect and defend a child?
I am not as I once was. What have
I done?
Memories. The past. All so precious
– I want it back, I want it all back. Icarium, I will find you.
Icarium, please, save me.
Torrent climbed into his saddle. He
looked down and met Setoc’s eyes, and then nodded.
He could see the fear and the doubt
in her face, and wished he had more words worth saying, but he’d used them all
up. Was it not enough that he was doing this? The question, asked so boldly and
self-righteously in his own mind, almost made him laugh out loud. Still, he had
to do this. He had to try. ‘I will ward them, I promise.’
‘You owe them nothing,’ she said,
hugging herself with such severity he thought her ribs might crack. ‘Not your
charge, but mine. Why do you do this?’
‘I knew Toc.’
‘Yes.’
‘I think: what would he do? That is
my answer, Setoc.’
Tears ran down her face. She held
her lips tight, as if to speak would be to loose her grief, a wailing demon
that would never again be chained, or beaten down.
‘I left children to die once,’ he
continued. ‘I let Toc down. But this time,’ he shrugged, ‘I hope to do better.
Besides, she knows me. She will use me, she’s done it before.’ He glanced over
at the others. The camp was packed up. Faint and Sweetest Sufferance had
already begun walking, like two broken refugees. Precious Thimble trailed them
by a few steps, like a child uncertain of her welcome in their company. Amby
walked on his own, off to the right of the others, staring straight ahead, his
stride stiff, brittle. And Gruntle, after a few words with Cartographer who
once more sat on Jula’s barrow, had set off, shoulders rounded as if in
visceral pain. Cartographer, it seemed, was staying behind. It comes
together only to fall apart. ‘Setoc, your wolf ghosts were frightened of
her.’
‘Terrified.’
‘You could do nothing.’
Her eyes flashed. ‘Is that supposed
to help? Words like that just dig big holes and invite us to jump.’
He glanced away. ‘I’m sorry.’
‘Go, catch up to them.’
He collected his reins, swung his
mount round and tapped its flanks with his heels.
Did you gamble on this, too, Olar
Ethil? How smug will you sound in your greeting?
Well now, enjoy your time,
because it won’t last for ever. Not if I have any say in the matter. Do not
worry, Toc, I’ve not forgotten. For you, I will do this, or die in the effort.
He rode at a canter across the empty
land, until he drew within sight of the Bonecaster and her three charges. When
the twins turned and cried out in relief, it very nearly broke him.
Setoc had watched the young Awl
warrior ride after Olar Ethil, saw when he reached them. An exchange of words,
and then they set out once more, walking until the deceptive folds of the
landscape swallowed them all. Then she turned, studied Cartographer. ‘The boy
was crying in grief. Over his dead dog. You told him to stop. Why? Why should
that have so bothered you?’
‘How is it,’ the undead man said,
rising from the barrow and shuffling closer, ‘that the weakest among us is the
only one so willing to give up his life protecting those children? I do not
mean to wound you with my words, Setoc. I but struggle to understand this.’ The
withered face tilted to one side, pitted eye sockets seeming to study her. ‘Is
it, perhaps, because he has the least to lose?’ He continued on in his awkward
steps, to stand over the carcass of the ay.
‘Of course he has,’ she snapped. ‘As
you said, just his life.’
Cartographer looked down at the
corpse of Baaljagg. ‘And this one had even less.’
‘Go back to your dead world, will
you? It’s so much simpler there, I’m sure. You can stop wondering about the
things us pathetic mortals get up to.’
‘I am a knower of maps, Setoc.
Listen to my words. You cannot cross the Glass Desert. When you reach it, turn
southward, on to the South Elan. It is not much better, but there should be
enough, at least to give you a chance.’
Enough what? Food? Water? Hope?
‘You are remaining here. Why?’
‘In this place,’ Cartographer
gestured, ‘the world of the dead has arrived. Here, you are the unwelcome
stranger.’
Suddenly shaken, inexplicably
distraught, Setoc shook her head. ‘Gruntle said you were with them almost from
the very beginning. Now you’re just stopping. Here?’
‘Must we all have a purpose?’
Cartographer asked. ‘I did, once, but that is done with.’ His head turned,
faced northward. ‘Your company was … admirable. But I’d forgotten.’ He hesitated,
and she was about to ask what he’d forgotten when he said, ‘Things break.’
‘Yes,’ she whispered, not loud
enough for him to hear. She reached down and collected the bundle of her gear.
Straightening, she set out. Then paused and glanced back at him. ‘Cartographer,
what did Gruntle say to you, at the barrow?’
‘“The past is a demon that not even
death can shake.”’
‘What did he mean by that?’
He shrugged, still studying Baaljagg’s
carcass. ‘I told him this: I have found the living in my dreams, and they are
not well.’
She turned away, began walking.
Dust devils spun and raced along,
tracking her on either side. Masan Gilani knew all about this. She’d heard all
the old stories of the Seven Cities campaign, how the Logros T’lan Imass had a
way of just vanishing, whispering on the winds or twisting along on the
currents of some river. Easy for them. Rising from the ground at the end of it
all not even out of breath.
She snorted. Breath, that was a good
one.
Her horse was reluctant this
morning. Not enough water, not enough forage, hadn’t crapped or pissed in a day
and a night. Wouldn’t last much longer, she suspected, unless her companions
could conjure up a spring and a heap of hay or a bag or two of oats. Could they
do things like that? She had no idea.
‘Be serious, woman. They looked as
if a sleeping dragon had rolled over them. If they could magic stuff out of
nowhere, well, they’d have done something by now.’ She was hungry and thirsty
too, and if it came to it she’d slit her horse’s neck and feast until her belly
exploded. ‘Put that back together, will you? Thanks.’
Not far now. By her reckoning, she’d
be on the Bonehunters’ trail before noon, and by dusk she’d have caught up with
them – no army that size could move very quickly. They were carrying enough
supplies to feed a decent-sized town for half a year. She glanced northward,
something she found she was doing rather often of late. No surprise in that
impulse, however. It wasn’t every day that a mountain grew up out of nowhere in
the course of a single day and night, and what a storm accompanied its birth!
She thought to hitch to one side for a spit or two, to punctuate the sardonic
wonder she’d just chewed on. But spit was worth keeping.
‘Hold back one throatful,’ her
mother used to say, ‘for Hood’s own face.’ Bless her, the deranged fat cow. She
must have given the ragged reaper a bubbly bath the day her time came, a
hair-wash, a cave mouth’s spring run-off of black, stinking phlegm just gushing
out, aye. Big women had a way, didn’t they? Especially after their fourth or
fifth decade, when all their opinions had turned to stone and chipped flinty
enough to draw blood with a single glance or sneer.
She’d moved like a tree, her mother
had, and just as shocking to see, too. After all, trees don’t walk much, not on
a sober night, just like the earth didn’t move unless Burn was pitching or the
man was better than he knew (and how rare was that?). Loomed, old Ma did, like
midnight thunder. Death was a crowded chamber for women like her, and the crowd
was the kind that parted with her first step into the room: a miracle.
Masan Gilani wiped at her face – no
sweat left. Bad news, especially this early in the morning. ‘I wanted to be
big, Ma. I wanted to reach that ripe old age. Fifty, aye. Five bitching,
rutting, terror-inspiring decades. I wanted to loom. Thunder in my eyes,
thunder in my voice, a thing of great weights and inexorable masses. It ain’t
fair, me withering away out here. Dal Hon, do you miss me?
‘The day I set foot on that grassy
sward, the day I shoo the first mob of flies from my lips and nostrils and
eyes, why, that’s the day all will be right with the world once again. No, don’t
leave me to die here, Dal Hon. It ain’t fair.’
She coughed, squinted ahead.
Something of a mess up there, those two rises, the valley sprawled in between.
Holes in the ground. Craters? The slopes seemed to be swarming. She blinked,
wondering if she was imagining that. Deprivation played nasty games, after all.
Swarming – it was swarming all right. Rats? No. ‘Orthen.’
A field of battle. She caught the
gleam of picked bones, took note of ashy mounds on the far ridge, from pyres,
no doubt. Sound practice, burning the dead, she knew. Kept disease to a
minimum. She kicked her horse into a heavy canter. ‘I know, I know, not for
long, sweetie.’
The dust devils whirled out past her
now, spinning towards a ridge overlooking the valley.
Masan Gilani rode after them, to the
top of the crest. There she reined in, scanning the wreckage filling the
valley, and then the gaping entrenchments slashing across the opposite ridge,
beyond which rose the humps of burned bones. Dread slowly seeped in, stealing
all the day’s heat from her bones.
The T’lan Imass of the Unbound
solidified in a rough line on her right, also studying the scene. Their sudden
appearance after so many days of dust was strangely comforting to Masan Gilani.
She’d only had her horse for company for far too long now. ‘Not that I’ll kiss
any of you,’ she said.
Heads turned to regard her. None
spoke.
Thank Hood for that. ‘My
horse is dying,’ she announced. ‘And whatever happened here happened to my
Bonehunters and it doesn’t look good. So,’ she added, now glaring at the five
undead warriors, ‘if you have any good news to tell me, or, gods below, any
explanation at all, I really might kiss you.’
The one named Beroke said, ‘We can
answer your horse’s plight, human.’
‘Good,’ she snapped, dismounting. ‘Get
to it. And a little water and grub for yours truly wouldn’t go amiss either. I
won’t be eating orthen any more, just so you know. Who ever thought crossing a
lizard with a rat was a good idea?’
One of the other T’lan Imass stepped
out from the line. She couldn’t recall this one’s name, but it was bigger than
the others and looked to be composed of body parts from three, maybe four
individuals. ‘K’Chain Nah’ruk,’ it said in a low voice. ‘A battle and a
harvest.’
‘Harvest?’
The creature pointed at the distant
mounds. ‘They butchered. They fed upon their fallen enemy.’
Masan Gilani shivered. ‘Cannibals?’
‘The Nah’ruk are not human.’
‘That makes a difference? To me it’s
cannibalism. Only white-skinned barbarians from the Fenn Mountains sink so low
as to eat other people. Or so I hear.’
‘They did not complete their
feeding,’ said the oversized T’lan Imass.
‘What do you mean?’
‘See the newborn mountain to the
north?’
‘No,’ she drawled, ‘never noticed
it.’
They all studied her again.
Sighing, Masan said, ‘Aye, the
mountain. The storm.’
‘Another battle,’ said Beroke. ‘An
Azath was born. From this, we conclude that the Nah’ruk were defeated.’
‘Oh? We hit them a second time?
Good.’
‘K’Chain Che’Malle,’ said Beroke. ‘Civil
war, Masan Gilani.’ The warrior gestured with a twisted arm. ‘Your army … I do
not think they all died. Your commander—’
‘Tavore’s alive then?’
‘Her sword is.’
Her sword. Oh. That Otataral
blade. ‘Can I send you ahead? Can you find a trail, if there is one?’
‘Thenik will scout the path before
us,’ Beroke said. ‘It is a risk. Strangers would not welcome us.’
‘I can’t imagine why.’
Another protracted look. Then Beroke
said, ‘If our enemies should find us, Masan Gilani, before the moment of our
final resurrection, then all we aspire to win will be lost.’
‘Win? Win what?’
‘Why, our Master’s release.’
She thought about asking a few more
questions, decided against it. Gods below, you’re not who I was sent to
find, are you? Still, you wanted to find us, didn’t you? Sinter, I wish
you were here, to explain what’s going on. But my gut’s telling me bad things.
Your Master? No, don’t tell me. ‘All right. Let’s ride clear of this, and
then you feed us like you promised. But decent food, right? I’m civilized. Dal
Honese, Malazan Empire. The Emperor himself came from Dal Hon.’
‘Masan Gilani,’ said Beroke, ‘we
know nothing of this empire of which you speak.’ The T’lan Imass warrior
paused, and then added, ‘But the one who was once emperor … him we do know.’
‘Really? Before or after he died?’
The five Imass regarded her once
more. Then Beroke asked, ‘Masan Gilani, what is the relevance of that question?’
She blinked, and then slowly shook
her head. ‘None, none at all, I guess.’
Another T’lan Imass spoke now. ‘Masan
Gilani?’
‘What?’
‘Your old emperor.’
‘What of him?’
‘Was he a liar?’
Masan Gilani scratched her head, and
then she gathered up her reins, swung back on to her horse. ‘That depends.’
‘On what?’
‘On whether you believe all the lies
people say about him. Now, let’s get out of this, eat and get watered, and then
find Tavore’s sword, and if Oponn’s smiling down on us, she’ll still be
attached to it.’
She was startled when the five Imass
bowed. Then they collapsed into dust and swirled away. ‘Where’s the dignity in
that?’ she wondered, and then looked out one more time over the battlefield and
its seething orthen. Where’s the dignity in anything, woman?
For now, keep it all inside. You
don’t know what has happened here. You don’t know anything for certain. Not
yet. Just hold on.
There’s plenty of dignity in just
holding on. The way Ma did.
The smell of burning grass. Wetness
pressed against one cheek, cold air upon the other, the close sound of a click
beetle. Sunlight, filtered through shut lids. Dusty air, seeping into his lungs
and then back out again. There were parts of him lying about. In pieces. Or so
it felt, but even the idea of it seemed impossible, so he discarded the notion
despite what his senses were telling him.
Thoughts, nice to find he was having
them. A notable triumph. Now, if he could just pull his varied bits together,
the ones that weren’t there. But that could wait. First, he needed to find some
memories.
His grandmother. Well, an old woman,
at least. Assumptions could be dangerous. One of her sayings, maybe. What about
parents? What about them? Try to remember, how hard can that be? His parents.
Not very bright, those two. Strange in their dullness – he’d always wondered if
there wasn’t more to them. There had to be, didn’t there? Hidden interests,
secret curiosities. Was Mother really that fascinated by what Widow Thirdly was
wearing today? Was that the extent of her engagement with the world? The poor
neighbour only owned two tunics and one ankle-length robe, after all, and
pretty threadbare at that, as befitted a woman whose husband was a withered
corpse in the sands of Seven Cities and the death coin wasn’t much to live by,
was it? And that old man from down the street, the one trying to court her,
well, he was just out of practice, that’s all. Not worth your sneers, Mother.
He’s just doing his best. Dreaming of a happier life, dreaming of waking
something up in the widow’s sad eyes.
It’s an empty world without hope.
And if Father had a way of puttering
about whistling some endless song and pausing every now and then to look
distracted by a thought, if not thoroughly confused by its very existence,
well, a man of decent years had plenty to think about, didn’t he? It certainly
looked like that. And if he had a way of ducking in crowds, of meeting no one’s
eyes, well, there was a world of men who’d forgotten how to be men. Or maybe
they never learned in the first place. Were these his parents? Or someone else’s?
Revelations landing with a thud.
One, three, scores of them, a veritable landslide, how old had he been?
Fifteen? The streets of Jakata suddenly narrowing before his eyes, the houses
shrinking, the big men of the block dwindling to boastful midgets with puny
eyes.
There was a whole other world out
there, somewhere.
Grandma, caught a glint in your
eyes. You’d beaten the dust out of the gold carpet, rolled it out into my path.
For these tender feet of mine. A whole other world out there. Called ‘learning’.
Called ‘knowledge’. Called ‘magic’.
Roots and grubs and tied-off twists
of someone’s hair, small puppets and dolls with smeared faces of thread. Webs
of gut, bundles of shedding, the plucked backs of crows. Etching on the clay
floor, the drip drip of sweat from the brow. Mud was effort, the taste on the
tongue that of grit from a licked stylus, and how the candles flickered and the
shadows leapt!
Grandma? Your gem of a boy tore
himself apart. He had fangs in his flesh and those fangs were his own, and
round and round it went. Biting, tearing, hissing in agony and fury. Plummeting
from the smoke-filled sky. Lifting upward again, new wings, joints creaking, a
sliding nightmare.
You can’t come back from that.
You can’t.
I touched my own dull flesh, and
it was buried under bodies, all that gore draining down. I was pickled in
blood. That body, I mean. What used to be mine. You don’t go back, not to that.
Dead limbs shifting, slack faces
turning, pretending to look at me – but I wasn’t the one so rude as to drag
them about. No need to accuse me with those blank eyes. Some fool’s coming
down, down here, and maybe my soaked skin feels warm, but that’s all the lost
heat from all these other corpses.
I don’t come back. Not from that.
Father, if you only knew the
things I have seen. Mother, if only you’d opened your own heart, enough to
bless that broken widow next door.
Explain it to this fool, will
you? It was a mound of bodies. They’d gathered us. Friend, you weren’t supposed
to interfere. Maybe they ignored you, though I can’t figure why. And your touch
was cold, gods it was cold!
Rats, nuzzling close, they’d
snatched fragments of me out of the air. In a world where everyone is a
soldier, the ones underfoot don’t get noticed, but even ants fight like fiends.
My rats. They worked hard, warm bodies like nests.
They couldn’t get all of me. That
wasn’t possible. Maybe you pulled me out, but I was incomplete.
Or not. Grandma, someone tied
strings to me. With everything coming down all around us, he’d knotted strings.
To my Hood-damned rats. Oh, clever bastard, Quick. Clever, clever bastard. All
there, all here, I’m all here. And then someone dug me out, carried me away.
And the Short-Tails looked over every now and then, milled as if contemplating
taking objection, but never did.
He carried me away, melting as he
went.
All the butchering going on. They
had a way of puttering about whistling some endless song and pausing every now
and then to look distracted by a thought, if not thoroughly confused by its
very existence. Like that.
So he carried me away, and where
was everybody?
The pieces were back together, and
Bottle opened his eyes. He was lying on the ground, the sun low to the horizon,
dew in the yellow grasses close to his face, smelling of the night just past.
Morning. He sighed, slowly sat up, his body feeling crazed with cracks. He
looked across at the man crouched near a dung fire. His touch was cold. And
then he melted. ‘Captain Ruthan Gudd, sir.’
The man glanced over, nodded,
resumed combing his beard with his fingers. ‘It’s a bird, I think.’
‘Sir?’
He gestured at the rounded lump of
scorched meat skewered above the embers. ‘Just sort of fell out of the sky. Had
feathers but they’ve burned off.’ He shook his head. ‘Had teeth too, however.
Bird. Lizard. It’s an even handful of straws in each hand, as the Strike used
to say.’
‘We’re alone.’
‘For now. We’ve not been gaining on
them much – you start getting heavy after a while.’
‘Sir, you have been carrying me?’ Melting.
Drip drip. ‘How far? How many days?’
‘Carrying you? What am I, a
Toblakai? No, there’s a travois … behind you. Dragging’s easier than carrying.
Somewhat. Wish I had a dog. When I was a child … well, let’s just say that
wishing I had a dog has been an unfamiliar experience. But yesterday I’d have
cut a god’s throat for one single dog.’
‘I can walk now, sir.’
‘But can you pull that travois?’
Frowning, Bottle twisted and looked
at the conveyance. Two full length spear shafts, the pieces of two or three
others. Webbing from the harnesses of leather armour, the strips stained black.
‘Nothing to pull in it, sir, that I can see.’
‘I was thinking me, marine.’
‘Well, I can—’
Ruthan picked up the spit and waved
it about. ‘A joke, soldier. Ha ha. Here, this thing looks ready. Cooking is the
process of making the familiar unrecognizable, and thus palatable. When
intelligence was first born, the first question asked was, “Can this thing be
cooked?” After all, try eating a cow’s face – well, true enough, people do –
oh, never mind. You must be hungry.’
Bottle made his way over. Ruthan
plucked the bird from the skewer and then tore it in half, handing one section
to the marine.
They ate without conversation.
At last, sucking and spitting out
the last bone, licking grease from his fingers, Bottle sighed and eyed the man
opposite him. ‘I saw you go down, sir, under about a hundred Short-Tails.’
Ruthan raked his beard. ‘Aye.’
Bottle glanced away, tried again. ‘Figured
you were dead.’
‘Couldn’t get through the armour,
but I’m still a mass of bruises. Anyway, they pounded me into the ground for a
while and then just, well, gave up.’ He grimaced. ‘Took me some time to dig
free. By then, apart from the dead they were collecting, there was no sign of
the Bonehunters, or our allies. The Khundryl looked finished – never saw so
many dead horses. And the trenches had been overrun. The Letherii had delivered
and taken some damage, but hard to guess the extent of either.’
‘I think I saw some of that,’ Bottle
said.
‘I sniffed you out, though,’ the
captain said, not meeting Bottle’s eyes.
‘How?’
‘I just did. You were barely there,
but enough. So I pulled you free.’
‘And they just watched.’
‘Did they? Never noticed that.’ He
wiped his hands on his thighs and rose. ‘Ready to walk then, soldier?’
‘I think so. Where are we going,
sir?’
‘To find the ones still left.’
‘When was the battle?’
‘Four, five days ago, something like
that.’
‘Sir, are you a Stormrider?’
‘A rogue wave?’
Bottle’s frown deepened.
‘Another joke,’ said Ruthan Gudd. ‘Let’s
strip what’s on the travois – found you a sword, a few other things you might
find useful.’
‘It was all a mistake, wasn’t it?’
The man shot him a look. ‘Everything
is, soldier, sooner or later.’
Chaos foamed in a thrashing
maelstrom far below. He stood close to the ledge, looking down. Off to his
right the rock tilted, marking the end of the vaguely level base of the
pinnacle, and at the far end the Spar, a gnarled thing of black stabbing upward
like a giant finger, seemed to cast a penumbra of white mist from its ragged
tip.
Eventually, he turned away, crossed
the flat stretch, twelve paces to a sheer wall of rock, and to the mouth of a
tunnel where shattered boulders had spilled out to the sides. He clambered over
the nearest heap until he found a dusty oilskin cape jammed inside a crevasse.
Tugging it aside, he reached down and withdrew a tattered satchel. It was so
rotted the base began splitting at the seams and he scrambled quickly to flat
ground before the contents spilled out.
Coins pattered, baubles struck and
clattered. Two larger items, both wrapped in skins and each the length of a man’s
forearm, struck the bedrock but made no sound. These objects were the only ones
he collected, tucking one into his belt and unwrapping the other.
A sceptre of plain black wood, its
ends capped in tarnished silver. He examined it for a moment, and then strode
to the base of the Spar of Andii. Rummaging in the pouch at his hip, he
withdrew a knotted clutch of horse hair, dropped it at his feet, and then with
a broad sweeping motion used the sceptre to inscribe a circle above the black
stone. Then he stepped back.
After a moment his breath caught and
he half turned. When he spoke his tone was apologetic. ‘Ah, Mother, it’s old
blood, I don’t deny it. Old and thin.’ He hesitated, and then said, ‘Tell
Father I make no apologies for my choice – why should I? No matter. The two of
us did the best I could.’ He grunted in humour. ‘And you might say the same thing.’
He turned back.
Darkness was knotting into something
solid before him. He watched it for a time, saying nothing, although her
presence was palpable, vast in the gloom behind him. ‘If he’d wanted blind
obedience, he should have kept me chained. And you, Mother, you should have
kept me a child for ever, there under your wing.’ He sighed, somewhat shakily. ‘We’re
still here, but then, we did what you both wanted. We almost got them all. The
one thing none of us expected was how it would change us.’ He glanced back
again, momentarily. ‘And it has.’
Within the circle before him, the
dark form opened crimson eyes. Hoofs cracked like iron axe-blades on the stone.
He grasped the apparition’s midnight
mane and swung on to the beast’s back. ‘’Ware your child, Mother.’ He drew the
horse round, walked it along the ledge a few strides and then back to the mouth
of the tunnel. ‘I’ve been among them for so long now, what you gave me is the
barest whisper in the back of my soul. You offered scant regard for humans, and
now it’s all coming down. But I give you this.’ He swung the horse round. ‘Now
it’s our turn. Your son opened the way. And as for his son, well, if he
wants the Sceptre, he’ll have to come and take it.’
Ben Adaephon Delat tightened his
grip on the horse’s mane. ‘You do your part, Mother. Let Father do his, if he’s
of a mind to. But it comes down to us. So stand back. Shield your eyes, because
I swear to you, we will blaze! When our backs are against the wall,
Mother, you have no idea what we can do.’
He drove his heels into the horse’s
flanks. The creature surged forward.
Now, sweet haunt, this could get
a little hairy.
The horse reached the ledge. Then
out, into the air. And down, plunging into the seething maelstrom.
The presence, breathing darkness,
remained in the vast chamber for a time longer. The strewn scatter of coins and
baubles glittered on the black stone.
Then came a tapping of a cane upon
rock.
CHAPTER THREE
Time now to go out into the cold
night
And that voice was chill enough
To awaken me to stillness
There were cries inviting me into the sky
But the ground held me fast –
Well that was long ago now
Yet in this bleak morning the wings
Are shadows hunched on my shoulders
And the stars feel closer than ever before
The time is soon, I fear, to set out in search
Of that voice, and I will draw to the verge
Time now to go out into the cold night
Spoken in so weary a tone
I can make nothing worthy from it
If dreams of flying are the last hope of freedom
I will pray for wings with my last breath
Cold Night
Beleager
SMOKE HUNG IN THICK WREATHS IN THE
CABIN. THE PORTHOLES WERE all open, shutters locked back, but the air did not
stir and the sweltering heat lapped exposed flesh like a fevered tongue.
Clearing her throat against a pervasive itchiness in her upper chest, Felash,
Fourteenth Daughter of Queen Abrastal, tilted her head back on the soft, if
soiled and damp, pillow.
Her handmaid set about refilling the
pipe bowl.
‘Are you certain of the date?’
Felash asked.
‘Yes, Highness.’
‘Well, I suppose I should be
excited. I made it to my fifteenth year, let the banners wave. Not that
anything waves hereabouts.’ She closed her eyes for a moment, and then blinked
them open again. ‘Was that a swell?’
‘I felt nothing, Highness.’
‘It’s the heat I don’t appreciate.
It distracts. It whispers of mortality, yielding both despondency and a strange
impatience. If I’m to die soon, I say, let’s just get on with it.’
‘Mild congestion, Highness.’
‘And the sore lower back?’
‘Lack of exercise.’
‘Dry throat?’
‘Allergies.’
‘All these aches everywhere?’
‘Highness,’ said the handmaid, ‘are
there moments when all these symptoms simply vanish?’
‘Hmm. Orgasm. Or if I find myself,
er, suddenly busy.’
The handmaid drew the water pipe to
life and handed the princess the mouthpiece.
Felash eyed the silver spigot. ‘When
did I start this?’
‘The rustleaf, Highness? You were
six.’
‘And why, again?’
‘It was that or chewing your
fingernails down to nothing, as I recall, Highness.’
‘Ah yes, childish habits, thank the
gods I’m cured. Now, do you think I dare the deck? I swear I felt a swell back
then, which must yield optimism.’
‘The situation is dire, Highness,’
the handmaid said. ‘The crew is weary from working the pumps, and still we list
badly. No land in sight, not a breath of wind. There is a very serious risk of
sinking.’
‘We had no choice, did we?’
‘The captain and first mate do not
agree with that assessment, Highness. Lives were lost, we are barely afloat—’
‘Mael’s fault,’ Felash snapped. ‘Never
known the bastard to be so hungry.’
‘Highness, we have never before
struck such a bargain with an Elder God—’
‘And never again! But Mother heard,
didn’t she? She did. How can that not be worth the sacrifices?’
The handmaid said nothing, sitting
back and assuming a meditative pose.
Felash studied the older woman with
narrowed eyes. ‘Fine. Opinions differ. Have cooler heads finally prevailed?’
‘I cannot say, Highness. Shall I—’
‘No. As you said, exercise will do
me good. Select for me a worthy outfit, something both lithe and flaunting, as
befits my sudden maturity. Fifteen! Gods, the slide has begun!’
Her first mate, Shurq Elalle saw,
was having trouble managing the canted deck. Not enough sound body parts, she
assumed, to warrant much confidence, but for all his awkwardness he moved
quickly enough, despite the winces and flinches with every step he took. Pain
was not a pleasant thing to live with, not day after day, night upon night, not
with every damned breath.
‘I do admire you, Skorgen.’
He squinted up at her as he arrived
on the poop deck. ‘Captain?’
‘You take it with a grimace and not
much else. There are many forms of courage, I believe, most of which pass
unseen by the majority of us. It’s not always about facing death, is it? Sometimes
it’s about facing life.’
‘If you say so, Captain.’
‘What do you have to report?’ she
asked.
‘We’re sinking.’
Well. She imagined she’d float for a
while, and then eventually wander down, like a bloated sack of sodden herbs,
until she found the sea bottom. Then it would be walking, but where? ‘North, I
think.’
‘Captain?’
‘The Undying Gratitude surely
deserves a better fate. Provision the launches. How long do we have?’
‘Hard to say.’
‘Why?’
Skorgen’s good eye squinted. ‘What I
meant was, I don’t like saying it. Bad luck, right?’
‘Skorgen, do I need to pack my
trunk?’
‘You’re taking your trunk? Will it
float? I mean, if we tie it behind the lifeboat? We only got two that’ll float
and both are a bit battered. Twenty-nine left in the crew, plus you and me and
our guests. Ten in a launch and we’ll be awash at the first whitecap. I ain’t
good at numbers but I think we’re off some. Could be people holding on in the
water. But not for long, with all those sharks hanging around. Ideal is eight
to a boat. We should get down to that quick enough. But your trunk, well, that
messes up my figuring.’
‘Skorgen, do you recall loading my
trunk?’
‘No.’
‘That’s because I don’t have one. It
was a figure of speech.’
‘That’s a relief, then. Besides,’ he
added, ‘you probably wouldn’t have the time to pack it anyway. We could roll in
the next breath, or so I’m told.’
‘Errant take me, get our guests up
here!’
He pointed behind her. ‘There’s the
well-born one just coming up, Captain. She’ll float high in the water, that she
will, until the—’
‘Lower the launches and round up the
crew, Skorgen,’ Shurq said, stepping past him and making her way to the
princess.
‘Ah, Captain, I really must—’
‘No time, Highness. Get your
handmaiden and whatever clothes you’ll need to stay warm. The ship is going
down and we need to get to the launches.’
Blinking owlishly, Felash looked
round. ‘That seems rather extreme.’
‘Does it?’
‘Yes. I would imagine that
abandoning ship is one of the very last things one would wish to do, when at
sea.’
Shurq Elalle nodded. ‘Indeed,
Highness. Especially while at sea.’
‘Well, are there no alternatives? It
is unlike you to panic.’
‘Do I appear to be panicking?’
‘Your crew is—’
‘Modestly so, Highness, since we don’t
quite have the room needed to take everyone, meaning that some of them are
about to die in the jaws of sharks. My understanding is, such a death is rather
unpleasant, at least to begin with.’
‘Oh dear. Well, what can be done?’
‘I am open to suggestions, Highness.’
‘Perhaps a ritual of salvation …’
‘A what?’
Plump fingers fluttered. ‘Let us
assess the situation, shall we? The storm has split the hull, correct?’
‘We hit something, Highness. I am
hoping it was Mael’s head. We cannot effect repairs, and our pumps have failed
in stemming the tide. As you may note, to starboard, we are very nearly awash
amidships. If we were not becalmed, we would have rolled by now.’
‘Presumably, the hold is full of
water.’
‘A fair presumption, Highness.’
‘It needs to be—’
A terrible groaning sound
reverberated through the deck at their feet.
Felash’s eyes went wide. ‘Oh, what
is that?’
‘That is us, Highness. Sinking. Now,
you mentioned a ritual. If it involves a certain Elder God of the seas, I
should warn you, I cannot vouch for your well-being should my crew learn of it.’
‘Really? How distressing. Well, a
ritual such as the one I am suggesting may not necessarily involve that
decidedly unpleasant individual. In fact—’
‘Forgive me for interrupting,
Highness, but it has just occurred to me that this particular contest of
understatement is about to be fatally terminated. While I have thoroughly
enjoyed it, I now believe you have been a truly unwitting participant. How well
can you swim, since I believe we shall not have time to reach the launches …’
‘For goodness’ sake.’ Felash turned
about, gauging the scene on all sides. Then she gestured.
The Undying Gratitude
shuddered. Water foamed up from the hatch. Rigging whipped as if in a gale, the
stumps of the shattered masts quivering. The ship grunted as it rolled level
again. To either side the water swirled. Shouts of fright came from the two
launches, and Shurq Elalle heard the screams commanding axes to the lines. A
moment later she saw both lifeboats pulling away, neither one fully manned, whilst
the rest of her crew, along with Skorgen Kaban, bellowed and cursed from where
they clung to the port gunwale. Water washed across the mid-deck.
Princess Felash was studying the lay
of the ship, one finger to her plump, painted lips. ‘We must drain the hold,’
she said, ‘before we dare lift her higher. Agreed, Captain? Lest the weight of
the water break the hull apart?’
‘What are you doing?’ Shurq
demanded.
‘Why, saving us, of course. And your
ship, which we still need despite its deplorable condition.’
‘Deplorable? She’s just fine, damn
you! Or she would be, if you hadn’t—’
‘Now now, Captain, manners, please.
I am nobility, after all.’
‘Of course, Highness. Now, please
save my sorry ship, and once that is done, we can discuss other matters at our
leisure.’
‘Excellent suggestion, Captain.’
‘If you could have done this at any
time, Highness—’
‘Could, yes. Should, most certainly
not. Once more we bargain with terrible forces. And once more, a price must be
paid. So much for “never again”!’
Shurq Elalle glanced over at her
first mate and crew. The deck they stood upon was no longer under water, and
the sound of a hundred pumps thundered the length of the hull. But we don’t
have a hundred pumps and besides, no one is down there. ‘It’s Mael again,
isn’t it?’
Felash glanced over, lashes
fluttering. ‘Alas, no. The difficulty we’re having at the moment, you see,
stems precisely from our deliberate avoidance of that personage. After all,
this is his realm, and he is not one to welcome rivals. Therefore, we must
impose a physicality that resists Mael’s power.’
‘Highness, is this the royal “we”?’
‘Ah, do you feel it, Captain?’
Thick, billowing fog now rose around
the ship – the two lifeboats disappeared from sight, and their crews’ cries
were suddenly silenced, as if those men and women ceased to exist. In the dread
hush that followed, Shurq Elalle saw Skorgen and her remaining dozen sailors
huddling down on the deck, their breaths pluming, frost sparkling to life on
all sides.
‘Highness—’
‘What a relief from that heat, don’t
you agree? But we must now be stern in our position. To give up too much at
this moment could well prove fatal.’
‘Highness,’ Shurq tried again, ‘who
do we bargain with now?’
‘The Holds are half forgotten by
most, especially the long dormant ones. Imagine our surprise, then, when a
frozen corpse should awaken and rise into the realm of life once more, after
countless centuries. Oh, they’re a hoary bunch, the Jaghut, but, you know, I
still hold to a soft regard for them, despite all their extravagances. Why, in
the mountains of North Bolkando there are tombs, and as for the Guardians, well—’
‘Jaghut, Highness? Is that what you
said? Jaghut?’
‘Surely this must be panic, Captain,
your constant and increasingly rude interruptions—’
‘You’re locking us all in ice?’
‘Omtose Phellack, Captain. The
Throne of Ice, do you see? It is awake once more—’
Shurq advanced on Felash. ‘What is
the bargain, Princess?’
‘We can worry about that later—’
‘No! We will worry about it right
now!’
‘I cannot say I appreciate such an
imperious tone, Captain Elalle. Observe how steady settles the ship. Ice is
frozen in the cracks in the hull and the hold is dry, if rather cold. The fog,
unfortunately, we won’t be able to escape, as we are chilling the water around
us nigh unto freezing. Now, this current, I understand, will carry us
northward, to landfall, in about three days. An unoccupied shoreline, with a
sound, protected natural harbour, where we can make repairs—’
‘Repairs? I’ve just lost half my
crew!’
‘We don’t need them.’
Skorgen Kaban clumped over. ‘Captain!
Are we dead? Is this Mael’s Curse? Do we travel the Seas of Death? Is this the
Lifeless River? Skull Ocean? Are we betwixt the Horns of Dire and Lost? In the
Throes of—’
‘Gods below! Is there no end to
these euphemisms for being dead?’
‘Aye, and the Euphemeral Deeps, too!
The crew’s got questions, y’see—’
‘Tell them our luck holds, Skorgen,
and those hasty ones in the boats, well, that’s what comes of not believing in
your captain and first mate. Got that?’
‘Oh, they’ll like that one, Captain,
since a moment ago they was cursing themselves for being too slow off the mark.’
‘The very opposite to be sure, First
Mate. Off you go, then.’
‘Aye, Captain.’
Shurq Elalle faced the princess
again. ‘To my cabin if you please, Highness. The bargain.’
‘The bargain? Oh, indeed. That. As
you wish, but first, well, I need to change, lest I catch a chill.’
‘May the Errant look away, Highness.’
‘He is, dear, he is.’
Shurq watched the young woman walk
to the hatch. ‘Dear’? Well, maybe she’s older than she looks.
No, what she is is a
condescending, pampered princess. Oh, if only Ublala was on board, he’d set her
right in no time. The thought forced out a snort of amusement. ‘Careful!’
she admonished herself, and then frowned. Oh, I see. I’m freezing solid. No
leakage for the next little while, I guess. Best get moving. And keep moving.
She looked round, if somewhat stiffly.
Yes, the ship was on the move,
riding a current already lumpy with ice. The fog embraced them, their very own
private cloud. We travel blind.
‘Captain! Crew wants t’know, is this
the White Road?’
‘Provisions.’
Destriant Kalyth looked across at
the Shield Anvil. ‘There are drones. And wagon beds where food grows. Matron
Gunth Mach prepares us. We shall wander as the great herds once wandered.’
The red-bearded man rose on the Ve’Gath’s
stirrups of hide and bone. ‘Great herds? Where?’
‘Well, they all died.’
Stormy scowled. ‘Died how?’
‘Mostly, we killed them, Shield
Anvil. The Elan were more than just keepers of myrid and rodara. We also
hunted. We fought over possession of wild herds and crossings, and when we
lost, why, we’d poison the beasts to spite our enemies. Or destroy the
crossings, so that animals drowned on their migrations. We were one with the
land.’
From her other side, Gesler snorted.
‘Who’s been opening your eyes, Kalyth?’
She shrugged. ‘Our spirit gods
starved. What did we do wrong? Nothing, we didn’t change a thing. We lived as
we’d always lived. And it was murderous. The wild beasts vanished. The land
dried up. We fought each other, and then came the Adjudicators. Out from the
east.’
‘Who were they?’
Bitterness stung her words. ‘Our
judgement, Shield Anvil. They looked upon our deeds. They followed the course
of our lives, our endless stupidities. And they decided that our reign of abuse
must end.’ She shot the man a look. ‘I should have died with my kin. Instead, I
ran away. I left them all to die. Even my own children.’
‘A terrible thing,’ muttered Stormy,
‘but the crime was with those Adjudicators. Your people would have had to
change their ways sooner or later. No, the blood is on their hands.’
‘Tell us more about them,’ Gesler
said.
She was riding a Ve’Gath, as were
her companions. The thump of the huge Che’Malle’s clawed feet seemed far below
her. She could barely feel their impacts on the hard ground. The sky was dull,
cloudy over a grey landscape. Behind them the two children, Sinn and Grub,
shared another Ve’Gath. They hardly ever spoke; in fact, Kalyth could not
recall ever hearing Sinn’s voice, though Grub had let on that her apparent
muteness was habit rather than an affliction.
Creatures of fire. Demonspawn.
Gesler and Stormy know them, but even they are not easy in their company. No, I
do not like our two children.
Kalyth took a moment to gather her
thoughts. ‘The Adjudicators had risen to power first in Kolanse,’ she said
after a time. She didn’t want to remember them, didn’t want to think about any
of that, but she forced herself to continue. ‘When we first heard of them, in
our camps, the stories came from caravan guards and traders. They spoke
nervously, with fear in their eyes. “Not human,” they said. They were priests.
Their cult was founded on the Spire, which is a promontory in the bay of Kolanse,
and it was there that they first settled, building a temple and then a
fortress.’
‘So they were foreigners?’ Gesler
asked.
‘Yes. From somewhere called the
Wretched Coast. All I have heard of this is second-hand. They arrived in ships
of bone. The Spire was unoccupied – who would choose to live on cursed land?
And to begin with there was but one ship, crewed by slaves, and twelve or
thirteen priests and priestesses. Hardly an invasion, as far as the king of
Kolanse was concerned. And when they sent an emissary to his court, he welcomed
her. The native priesthoods were not as pleased and they warned their king, but
he overruled them. The audience was granted. The Adjudicator was arrogant. She
spoke of justice as if her people alone were its iron hand. Indeed, that
emissary pointed a finger upon the king himself and pronounced his fall.’
‘I bet he wasn’t so pleased any
more,’ Stormy said with a grunt. ‘He lopped the fool’s head off, I hope.’
‘He tried,’ Kalyth replied. ‘Soldiers
and then sorcery – the throne room became a slaughterhouse, and when the battle
was over she alone strode out from the palace. And in the harbour were a
hundred more ships of bone. This is how the horror began.’
Gesler twisted in his saddle and
seemed to study the two children for a moment, before facing forward again. ‘Destriant,
how long ago was this?’
She shrugged. ‘Fifty, sixty years
ago. The Adjudicators scoured out all the other priesthoods. More and more of
their own followers arrived, season after season. The Watered, they were
called. Those with human blood in them. Those first twelve or so, they were the
Pures. From Estobanse Province – the richest land of Kolanse – they spread
their power outward, enforcing their will. They were not interested in waging
war upon the common people, and by voice alone they could make entire armies
kneel. From Kolanse they began toppling one dynasty after another – in all the
south kingdoms, those girdling the Pelasiar Sea, until all the lands were under
their control.’ She shuddered. ‘They were cruel masters. There was drought.
Starvation. They called it the Age of Justice, and left the people to die.
Those who objected they executed, those who sought to rise against them, they
annihilated. Before long, they reached the lands of my people. They crushed us
like fleas.’
‘Ges,’ said Stormy after a time, ‘if
not human, then what?’
‘Kalyth, are these Adjudicators
tusked?’
‘Tusked? No.’
‘Describe them.’
‘They are tall, gaunt. Their skin is
white as alabaster, and their limbs do not move as do those of humans. From
their elbows, they can bend their lower arms in all directions. It is said
their bodies are hinged, as if they had two sets of hips, one stacked atop the
other. And they can stand like us, or with legs like those of a horse. No
weapon can reach them, and a single touch from their long fingers can shatter
all the bones in a warrior’s body. Sorcerous attacks drain down from them like
water.’
‘Is it the same for the Watered,’
Gesler wanted to know, ‘or just the Pures?’
‘I don’t know.’
‘Have you seen one of these
Adjudicators with your own eyes?’
She hesitated, and then shook her
head.
‘But your tribe—’
‘We heard they were coming. We knew
they would kill us all. I ran.’
‘Hood’s breath!’ barked Stormy. ‘So
you don’t know if they ever—’
‘I snuck back, days later, Shield
Anvil.’ She had to force the words out, her mouth dry as dust, her thoughts
cold as a corpse. ‘They were thorough.’ I snuck back. But is that even true?
Or did I just dream that? The broken faces of my children, so still. My
husband, his spine twisted impossibly, his eyes staring. The dead dogs, the
shamans’ heads on poles. And the blood, everywhere – even my tears … ‘I ran. I am the last of my people.’
‘This drought you mentioned,’ Gesler
said, ‘had it struck before these Adjudicators arrived, or after?’
‘Estobanse thrives on springs. A
valley province, with vast mountains to the north and another range to the
south. The sea to the east and plains to the west. The droughts were in the
south kingdoms, and in the other Kolanse territories. I do not know when they
started, Mortal Sword, but even in the tales from my childhood I seem to recall
grief lying heavy upon the settled lands.’
‘And the Elan Plains?’
She shook her head. ‘Always dry,
always trouble – it is why the clans fought so much. We were running out of
everything. I was a child. A child gets used to things, it all feels … normal –
for all the years I was with my people, it was like that.’
‘So what brought the Adjudicators to
the place,’ Gesler wondered, ‘if it was already suffering?’
‘Weakness,’ said Stormy. ‘Take any
starving land, and you’ll find a fat king. Nobody’d weep at that slaughter in
the throne room. Priests blathering on about justice. Must have sounded sweet,
at least to start with.’
‘Aye,’ Gesler agreed. ‘Still, that
Spire, where they built their temple – Kalyth, you called it cursed. Why?’
‘It is where a star fell from the
sky,’ she explained.
‘Recently?’
‘No, long ago, but round the
promontory the seawater is red as blood – and nothing can live in that water.’
‘Did any of that change once the
Adjudicators installed their temple?’
‘I don’t know. I have never seen the
place – please, I just don’t know. I don’t even know why we’re marching in this
direction. There is nothing to the east – nothing but bones.’ She glared at
Gesler. ‘Where’s your army of allies? Dead! We need to find somewhere else to
go. We need—’ somewhere to hide. Ancestors forgive me. No, her fears
were all too close to the surface. A score of questions could rip through her
thin skin – it hadn’t taken much, had it?
‘We don’t know that,’ Stormy said,
chewing at his moustache and not meeting her eyes.
I’m sorry. I know.
‘When Gu’Rull gets back,’ Gesler
said in a low tone, ‘we’ll know more. In the meantime, on we go, Destriant. No
point in doing anything else.’
She nodded. I know. Forgive me.
Forgive us all.
Their power was a dark, swirling
stain, spinning out like a river at the head of the vast, snaking column. Gu’Rull
studied the manifestation from above, where he was gliding just beneath the
thick overcast which had spread down from the northwest. His wounds were
healing, and he had travelled far, ranging out over the Wastelands.
He had observed the tattered
remnants of human armies, swollen with massive trains. And south of them but
drawing closer by the day another force, the ranks disciplined in their march,
unblooded and, as far as such things went, formidable. Despite the commands of
the Mortal Sword, neither force was of much interest to the Shi’gal Assassin.
No, the knots of power he had sensed elsewhere were far more fascinating, but
of them all, not one compared to that which emanated from the two human
children, Sinn and Grub. Travelling there, at the very head of the Gunthan
Nest.
Of course, it could be called ‘Nest’
no longer, could it? There was no room, no solid, protected roost for the last
clan of the K’Chain Che’Malle.
Even leadership had been
surrendered. To three humans. There was no doubt that without them the Che’Malle
would have been destroyed by the Nah’ruk. Three humans, clad in strange titles,
and two children, wearing little more than rags.
So many lusted after power. It was
the crushing step of history, in every civilization that had ever existed. Gu’Rull
had no taste for it. Better that more of his kind existed, behind every throne,
to cut the throat at the first hint of mad ambition. Enough heads rolling down
the ages and perhaps the lesson would finally be learned, though he doubted it.
The assassin must never die. The
shadows must ever remain. We hold the world in check. We are the arbiters of
reason. It is our duty, our purpose.
I have seen them. I have seen
what they can do, and the joy in their eyes at the devastation they can
unleash. But their throats are soft. If I must, I will rid the world of them.
The power was sickly, a swathe of something vile. It leaked from their
indifferent minds and fouled the sweet scents of his kin – their joy at
victory, their gratitude to the Mortal Sword and the Shield Anvil, their love
for Kalyth, the Destriant of the K’Chain Che’Malle. Their faith in a new
future.
But these children. They need to
die. Soon.
‘Forkrul Assail,’ whispered Grub
into Sinn’s ear. ‘The Crystal City knew them, even the Watered ones. It holds
the memory of them. Sinn, they are at the centre of the war – they’re the ones
the Adjunct is hunting.’
‘No more,’ she hissed back at him. ‘Don’t
talk. What if they hear you?’
He sniffed. ‘You think they don’t
know? Gesler and Stormy? Forkrul Assail, Sinn, but now she’s wounded. Badly
wounded. We need to stop her, or the Bonehunters will get slaughtered—’
‘If there’re any of them left.’
‘There are. Reach with your mind—’
‘That’s her sword – that barrier
that won’t let us in. Her Otataral sword.’
‘Meaning she’s still alive—’
‘No, just that somebody’s carrying
it. Could be Brys Beddict, could be Warleader Gall. We don’t know, we can’t get
close enough to find out.’
‘Gu’Rull—’
‘Wants us dead.’
Grub flinched. ‘What did we ever do
to him? Except save his hide.’
‘Him and all the other lizards.
Doesn’t matter. We might turn on them all, and who could stop us?’
‘You could turn on ’em. I won’t. So
I’ll be the one stopping you. Don’t try it, Sinn.’
‘We’re in this together,’ she said. ‘Partners.
I was just saying. It’s why that assassin hates us. Nobody controls us but us.
Grownups always hate that.’
‘Forkrul Assail. Gesler wants to
join this army to the Adjunct’s – that has to be what he’s planning, isn’t it?’
‘How should I know? Probably.’
‘So we will fight Forkrul Assail.’
She flashed him a wicked smile. ‘Like
flies, I will pluck their legs off.’
‘Who’s the girl?’
Sinn rolled her eyes. ‘Not again. I’m
sick of talking about her.’
‘She’s in the Crystal City. She’s
waiting for us.’
‘She’s insane, that’s what she is. You
felt that, you had to. We both felt it. No, let’s not talk about her any more.’
‘You’re afraid of her,’ Grub said. ‘Because
maybe she’s stronger than both of us.’
‘Aren’t you? You should be.’
‘At night,’ said Grub, ‘I dream of
red eyes. Opening. Just opening. That’s all.’
‘Never mind that dream,’ she said,
looking away.
He could feel all her muscles, tight
and wiry, and he knew that this was an embrace he could not hold on to for very
much longer. She’s scarier than the assassin. You in the Crystal City, are
you as frightened as me?
‘Stupid dream,’ said Sinn.
It was midday. Gesler called a halt.
The vast column stopped en masse, and then drones stepped out to begin
preparations for feeding. Wincing as he extricated himself from the scaled
saddle of the Ve’Gath, noting with relief that the welts on the beast’s flanks
were healing, the Mortal Sword dropped down to the ground. ‘Stormy, let’s
stretch our legs—’
‘I don’t need help taking a piss.’
‘After that, idiot.’
Stretching out the aches in his
lower back, he walked out from the column, making a point of ignoring Sinn and
Grub as they clambered down. Every damned morning since the battle, he’d half
expected to find them gone. He wasn’t fool enough to think he had any control
over them. Torching sky-keeps like pine cones, Hood save us all.
Stormy appeared, spitting on his
hands to wash them. ‘That fucking assassin doesn’t want to come down. Bad news?’
‘I doubt he’d quake over delivering
that, Stormy. No, he’s just making a point.’
‘Soon as he comes down,’ Stormy
growled, ‘my fist will make one of its own.’
Gesler laughed. ‘You couldn’t reach
its snarly snout, not even with a ladder. What are you going to do, punch its
kneecap?’
‘Maybe, why not? Bet it’d hurt
something awful.’
Gesler drew off his helmet. ‘Forkrul
Assail, Stormy. Hood’s hairy bag.’
‘If she’s still alive, she must be
having second thoughts. Who knows how many the Nah’ruk ate? For all we know,
there’s only a handful of Bonehunters left.’
‘I doubt it,’ Gesler said. ‘There’s
standing and taking it when that’s what you have to do. And then there’s
cutting out and setting fire to your own ass. She didn’t want that fight. So
they ran into her. She would’ve done what she needed to do to pull her soldiers
out of it. It was probably messy, but it wasn’t a complete annihilation.’
‘If you say so.’
‘Look, it’s a fighting withdrawal
until you can reasonably break. You narrow your front. You throw your heavies
into that wall, and then you let yourself get pushed backward, step after step,
until it’s time to turn and run. And if the Letherii were worth anything, they’d
have bled off some pressure. Best case scenario, we lost about a thousand—’
‘Mostly heavies and marines – the
heart of the army, Ges—’
‘So you find a new one. A thousand.’
‘Worst case? Not a heavy left, not a
marine left, with the regulars broken and scattering like hares.’
Gesler glared at Stormy. ‘I’m
supposed to be the pessimist here, not you.’
‘Get the Matron to order that
assassin down here.’
‘I will.’
‘When?’
‘When I feel like it.’
Stormy’s face reddened. ‘You’re
still a Hood-shitting sergeant, you know that? Mortal Sword? Mortal Bunghole is
more like it! Gods, to think I been taking orders from you for how long?’
‘Well, who’s a better Shield Anvil
than a man with an anvil for a head?’
Stormy grunted, and then said, ‘I’m
hungry.’
‘Aye,’ said Gesler. ‘Let’s go and
eat.’
They set out for the feeding area.
‘Do you remember, when we were young
– too young? That cliff—’
‘Don’t go on about that damned
cliff, Stormy. I still get nightmares about it.’
‘It’s guilt you’re feeling.’
Gesler halted. ‘Guilt? You damned
fool. I saved your life up there!’
‘After nearly killing me! If that
rock coming down had hit me in the head—’
‘But it didn’t, did it? No, just
your shoulder. A tap, a bit of dust, and then I—’
‘The point is,’ Stormy interrupted, ‘we
did stupid things back then. We should’ve learned, only it’s turning out we
never learned a damned thing.’
‘That’s not the problem,’ Gesler
retorted. ‘We got busted down all those times for good reason. We can’t handle
responsibilities, that’s our problem. We start bickering – you start thinking
and that’s as bad as bad can get. Stop thinking, Stormy, and that’s an order.’
‘You can’t order me, I’m the Shield
Anvil, and if I want to think, that’s damn well what I’ll do.’
Gesler set out again. ‘Be sure to
let me know when you start. In the meantime, stop moaning about everything. It’s
tiresome.’
‘You strutting around like High King
of the Universe is pretty tiresome, too.’
‘Look there – more porridge. Hood’s
breath, Stormy, I’m already so bunged up I could pick my nose and—’
‘It ain’t porridge. It’s mould.’
‘Fungus, idiot.’
‘What’s the difference? All I know
is, those drones are growing it in their own armpits.’
‘Now you done it, Stormy. I told you
to stop complaining.’
‘Well, once I think up a reason to
stop complaining, I will. But then, I’m not supposed to think, am I? Hah!’
Gesler scowled. ‘Gods below, Stormy,
but I’m feeling old.’
The red-bearded man paused, and then
nodded. ‘Aye. It’s bloody miserable. I might be dead in a month, that’s how I
feel. Aches and twinges, all the rest. I need a woman. I need ten women.
Rumjugs and Sweetlard, that’s who I need – why didn’t that assassin steal them,
too? Then I’d be happy.’
‘There’s always Kalyth,’ Gesler said
under his breath.
‘I can’t roger the Destriant. It’s
not allowed.’
‘She’s comely enough. Been a mother,
too—’
‘What’s so special about that?’
‘Their tits been used, right? And
their hips are all looser. That’s a real woman, Stormy. She’ll know what to do
under the furs. And then there’s that look in the eye – stop gawking, you know
what I mean. A woman who’s dropped a baby has got this look – they been through
the worst and come out the other side. So they do that up and down thing and
you know that they know they can reduce you to quivering meat if they wanted
to. Mothers, Stormy. Give me a mother over any other woman every time, that’s
what I’m saying.’
‘You’re sick.’
‘If it wasn’t for me you’d still be
clinging halfway up that cliff, a clutch of bones with birds nesting in your
hair and spiders in your eye sockets.’
‘If it wasn’t for you I’d never have
tried climbing it.’
‘Yes you would.’
‘Why do you say that?’
‘Because, Stormy, you never think.’
He’d gathered things. Small things.
Shiny stones, shards of crystal, twigs from the fruit trees, and he carried
them about, and when he could he’d sit down on the floor and set them out,
making mysterious patterns or perhaps no patterns, just random settings. And
then he’d look at them, and that was all.
The whole ritual, now that she’d
witnessed it dozens of times, deeply disturbed Badalle, but she didn’t know
why.
Saddic has things in a bag
He’s a boy trying to remember
Though I tell him not to
Remembering’s dead
Remembering’s stones and twigs
In a bag and each time they come out
I see dust on his hands
We choose not remembering
To keep the peace inside our heads
We were young once
But now we are ghosts in the dreams
Of the living.
Rutt holds a baby in a bag
And Held remembers everything
But will not speak, not to us.
Held dreams of twigs and stones
And knows what they are .
She thought to give Saddic these
words, knowing he would hide them in the story he was telling behind his eyes,
and then it occurred to her that he didn’t need to hear to know, and the story
he was telling was beyond the reach of anyone. I am trapped in his story. I
have flown in the sky, but the sky is the dome of Saddic’s skull, and there is
no way out. Look at him studying his things, see the confusion on his face. A
thin face. Hollowed face. Face waiting to be filled, but it will never be
filled. ‘Icarias fills our bellies,’ she said, ‘and starves everything
else.’
Saddic looked up, met her eyes, and
then looked away. Sounds from the window, voices in the square below. Families
were taking root, sliding into the crystal walls and ceilings, the floors and
chambers. Older boys became pretend-fathers, older girls became
pretend-mothers, the young ones scampered but never for long – they’d run, as
if struck with excitement, only to falter after a few steps, faces darkening
with confusion and fear as they ran back to find shelter in their parents’
arms.
This is the evil of remembering.
‘We can’t stay here,’ she said. ‘Someone
is seeking us. We need to go and find them. Rutt knows. That’s why he walks to
the end of the city and stares into the west. He knows.’
Saddic began collecting his things.
Into his little bag. Like a boy who’d caught something out of the corner of his
eye, only to find nothing when he turned.
If you can’t remember it’s
because you never had what it is you’re trying to remember. Saddic, we’ve run
out of gifts. Don’t lie to fill up your past. ‘I don’t like your things,
Saddic.’
He seemed to shrink inside himself
and would not meet her eyes as he tied up the bag and tucked it inside his
tattered shirt.
I don’t like them. They hurt.
‘I’m going to find Rutt. We need to
get ready. Icarias is killing us.’
‘I knew a woman once, in my village.
Married. Her husband was a man you wanted, like a hot stone in your gut. She’d
walk with him, a step behind, down the main track between the huts. She’d walk
and she’d stare right at me all the way. You know why? She was staring at me to
keep me from staring at him. We are really nothing but apes, hairless apes.
When she’s not looking, I’ll piss in her grass nest – that’s what I decided.
And I’d do more than that. I’d seduce her man. I’d break him. His honour, his
integrity, his honesty. I’d break him between my legs. So when she walked with
him through the village, she’d do anything but meet my eyes. Anything.’
With that, Kisswhere reached for the
jug.
The Gilk Warchief, Spax, studied her
from beneath a lowered brow. And then he belched. ‘How dangerous is love, hey?’
‘Who said anything about love?’ she
retorted with a loose gesture from the hand holding the jug. ‘It’s all about
possession. And stealing. That’s what makes a woman wet, what makes her eyes
shine. ’Ware the dark streak in a woman’s soul.’
‘Men have their own,’ he muttered.
She drank, and then swung the jug
back to his waiting hand. ‘Different.’
‘Mostly, aye. But then, maybe not.’
He swallowed down a mouthful, wiped his beard. ‘Possession only counts for too
much in a man afraid of losing whatever he has. If he’s settled he doesn’t need
to own, but then how many of us are settled? Few, I’d wager. We’re restless
enough, and the older we get, the more restless we are. The misery is, the one
thing an old man wants to possess the most is the one thing he can’t have.’
‘What’s that?’
‘Add a couple of decades to that man
in the village and his wife won’t have to stare into any rival’s eyes.’
She grunted, collected up her stick
and pushed it beneath the splints binding her leg. Scratched vigorously. ‘Whatever
happened to decent healing?’
‘They’re saying magic’s damn near
dead in these lands. How nimble are you?’
‘Nimble enough.’
‘How drunk are you?’
‘Drunk enough.’
‘Just what a man twice her age wants
to hear from a woman.’
A figure stepped into the firelight.
‘Warchief, the queen summons you.’
Sighing, Spax rose. To Kisswhere he
said, ‘Hold that thought.’
‘Doesn’t work that way,’ she
replied. ‘We flowers blossom but it’s a brief blooming. If you miss your
chance, well, too bad for you. This night, at least.’
‘You’re a damned tease, Malazan.’
‘Keeps you coming back.’
He thought about that, and then
snorted. ‘Maybe, but don’t count on it.’
‘What you never find out will haunt
you to the end of your days, Barghast.’
‘I doubt I’ll miss my chance,
Kisswhere. After all, how fast can you run?’
‘And how sharp is my knife?’
Spax laughed. ‘I’d best not keep her
highness waiting. Save me some rum, will you?’
She shrugged. ‘I’m not one for
promises.’
Once he’d left, Kisswhere sat alone.
Her own private fire out beyond the useless pickets, her own promise of
blisters and searing guilt, if that was how she wanted it. Do I? Might be I
do. So they’re not all dead. That’s good. So we arrived too late. That’s bad,
or not. And this leg, well, it’s hardly a coward’s ploy, is it? I tried riding
with the Khundryl, didn’t I? At least, I think I did. At least, that’s how it
looked. Good enough.
She drank down some more of the
Bolkando rum.
Spax was a man who liked women. She’d
always preferred the company of such men over that of wilting, timid excuses
who thought a shy batting of the eyes was – gods below – attractive. No, bold
was better. Coy was a stupid game played by pathetic cowards, as far as she was
concerned. All those stumbling words, the shifting about, what’s the point? If
you want me, come and get me. I might even say yes.
More likely, of course, I’ll just
laugh. To see the sting.
They were marching towards whatever
was left of the Bonehunters. No one seemed to know how grim it was, or at any
rate they weren’t telling her. She’d witnessed the sorcery, tearing up the
horizon, even as the hobnailed boots of the Evertine Legion thundered closer
behind her. She’d seen the moonspawn – a cloud- and fire-wreathed mountain in
the sky.
Was there betrayal in this? Was
this what Sinter feared? Sister, are you even alive?
Of course I don’t want to go
back. I don’t want to know. I should just say what I’m feeling. ‘ Go to
Hood, Queen. And you too, Spax. I’m riding south.’ I don’t want to see their
faces, those pathetic survivors. Not the shock, not the horror, not all those
things you see in the faces of people who don’t know why they’re still alive,
when so many of their comrades are dead.
Every army is a cauldron, with
the flames getting higher and higher on all sides. We stew, we boil, we turn
into grey lumps of meat. ‘ Queen Abrastal, it’s you and people like you
whose appetites are never sated. Your maws gape, and in we go, and it sickens
me .’
When the two Khundryl riders
appeared, three days past, Kisswhere had turned away. In her mind she drew a
knife and murdered her curiosity, a quick slash, a sudden spray and then
silence. What was the point of knowing, when knowing was nothing more than the
taste of salt and iron on the tongue?
She drank more rum, pleased at the
numbness of her throat. Eating fire was easy and getting easier.
A sudden memory. Their first time
standing in a ragged line, the first day of their service in the marines. Some
gnarled master sergeant had walked up to them, wearing the smile of a hyena
approaching a crippled gazelle. Sinter had straightened beside Kisswhere,
trying to affect the appropriate attention. Badan Gruk, she’d seen with a quick
sidelong glance, was looking miserable – with the face of a man who’d just
realized where love had taken him.
You damned fool. I can play their
game. You two can’t, because for you there are no games. They don’t exist in
your Hood-shitting world of honour and duty.
‘Twelve, is it?’ the master sergeant
had said, his grin broadening. ‘I’d wager three of you are going to make it.
The rest, well, we’ll bury half of ’em and the other half we’ll send on to the
regular infantry, where all the losers live.’
‘Which half?’ Kisswhere had asked.
Lizard eyes fixed on her. ‘What’s
that, sweet roundworm?’
‘Which half of the one you cut in
two goes in the ground, and which half goes to the regulars? The legs half,
well, that solves the marching bit. But—’
‘You’re one of those, are ya?’
‘What? One who can count? Three make
it, nine don’t. Nine can’t get split in half. Of course,’ she added with her
own broad smile, ‘maybe marines don’t need to know how to count, and maybe
master sergeants are the thickest of the lot. Which is what I’m starting to
think, anyway.’
She’d never got close to completing
the thousand push-ups. Arsehole. Men who smile like that need a sense of
humour, but I’m not one to believe in miracles.
She scratched some more with her
stick. Should’ve broken him, right here between my legs. Aye, save the last
laugh for Kisswhere. She wins every game. ‘Every one of them, aye, isn’t it
obvious?’
Spax made a point of keeping his
shell-armour loose, the plates clacking freely, and with all the fetishes tied
everywhere he was well pleased with the concatenation of sounds when he walked.
Had he been a thin runt, the effect would not have worked, but he was big
enough and loud enough to be his own squad, a martial apparition that could not
help but make a dramatic entrance no matter how sumptuous the destination.
In this case, the queen’s command
tent was as close to a palace as he was likely to find in these Wastelands, and
shouldering in between the curtains of silk and the slap of his heavy gauntlets
on the map table gave him no small amount of satisfaction. ‘Highness, I am
here.’
Queen Abrastal lounged in her ornate
chair, legs stretched out, watching him from under lowered lids. Her red hair
was unbound and hanging loose, freshly washed and combed out, and the Barghast’s
loins stirred as he observed her in turn.
‘Wipe off that damned grin,’
Abrastal said in a growl.
His brows lifted. ‘Something wrong,
Firehair?’
‘Only everything I know you’re
thinking right now, Spax.’
‘Highness, if you’d been born in an
alley behind a bar, you’d still be a queen in my eyes. Deride me for my
admiration all you like, it changes nothing in my heart.’
She snorted. ‘You stink of rum.’
‘I was pursuing a mystery, Highness.’
‘Oh?’
‘The onyx-skinned woman. The
Malazan.’
She rolled her eyes. ‘Gods below,
you’re worse than a crocodile in the mating season.’
‘Not that mystery, Firehair, though
I’ll chase that one down given the chance. No, what makes me curious is her,
well, her lack of zeal. This is not the soldier I would have expected.’
Abrastal waved one hand. ‘There is
no mystery there, Spax. The woman’s a coward. Every army has them, why should
the Malazan one be any different?’
‘Because she’s a marine,’ he
replied.
‘So?’
‘The marines damn near
singlehandedly conquered Lether, Highness, and she was one of them. On
Genabackis whole armies would desert if they heard they’d be facing an assault
by Malazan marines. They stank with magic and Moranth munitions, and they never
broke – you needed to cut them down to the last man and woman.’
‘Even the hardest soldier reaches an
end to their endurance, Spax.’
‘Well, she’s been a prisoner to the
Letherii, so perhaps you are right. Now then, Highness, what did you wish of
your loyal warchief?’
‘I want you with me at the parley.’
‘Of course.’
‘Sober.’
‘If you insist, but I warn you, what
plagues me also plagues my warriors. We yearn for a fight – we only hired on
with you Bolkando because we expected an invasion or two. Instead, we’re
marching like damned soldiers. Could we have reached the Bonehunters in time—’
‘You’d likely be regretting it,’
Abrastal said, her expression darkening.
Spax tried on a scowl. ‘You believe
those Khundryl?’
‘I do. Especially after Felash’s
warning – though I am coming to suspect that my Fourteenth Daughter’s foresight
was focused on something still awaiting us.’
‘More of these two-legged giant lizards?’
She shrugged, and then shook her
head. ‘No, I don’t think so, but unfortunately it’s only a gut feeling. We’ll
see what we see at the parley.’
‘The Malazans never conquered the
Gilk Barghast,’ Spax said.
‘Gods below, if you show up with
your hackles raised—’
‘Spirits forbid the thought,
Highness. Facing them, I will be like the one hare the eagle missed. I’m as
likely to freeze as fill my breeches.’
Slowly, Abrastal’s eyes widened. ‘Warchief,’
she said in wonder, ‘you are frightened of them.’
He grimaced, and then nodded.
The queen of the Bolkando abruptly
rose, taking a deep breath, and Spax’s eyes could not help but fall to her
swelling chest. ‘I will meet this Adjunct,’ Abrastal said with sudden vigour.
Her eyes found the Barghast and pinned him in place. ‘If indeed we are to face
more of the giant two-legged lizards with their terrible magic … Spax, what
will you now claim of the courage of your people?’
‘Courage, Highness? You will have
that. But can we hope to do what those Khundryl said the Malazans did?’ He
hesitated, and then shook his head. ‘Firehair, I too will look hard upon those
soldiers, and I fear I already know what I will see. They have known the
crucible.’
‘And you do not wish to see that
truth, do you?’
He grunted. ‘Let’s just say it’s
both a good and a bad thing your stores of rum are nearly done.’
‘Was this our betrayal?’
Tanakalian faced the question, and
the eyes of the hard, iron woman who had just voiced it, for as long as he
could before shying away. ‘Mortal Sword, you well know we simply could not
reach them in time. As such, our failure was one of circumstance, not loyalty.’
‘For once,’ she replied, ‘you speak
wisely, sir. Tomorrow we ride out to the Bonehunter camp. Prepare an escort of
fifty of our brothers and sisters – I want healers and our most senior
veterans.’
‘I understand, Mortal Sword.’
She glanced at him, studied his face
for a moment, and then returned her gaze to the jade-lit southeastern sky. ‘If
you do not, sir, they will.’
You hound me into a corner,
Mortal Sword. You seem bent on forcing my hand. Is there only room for one on
that pedestal of yours? What will you do when you stand face to face with the
Adjunct? With Brys Beddict?
But, more to the point, what do
you know of this betrayal? I see a sword in our future. I see blood on its
blade. I see the Perish standing alone, against impossible odds.
‘At the parley,’ Krughava said, ‘you
will keep our own counsel, sir.’
He bowed. ‘As you wish.’
‘She has been wounded,’ Krughava
went on. ‘We will close about her with our utmost diligence to her protection.’
‘Protection, sir?’
‘In the manner of hunter whales,
Shield Anvil, when one of their clan is unwell.’
‘Mortal Sword, this shall be a
parley of comrades, more or less. Our clan, as you might call it, is
unassailed. No sharks. No dhenrabi or gahrelit. Against whom do we protect her?’
‘The darkness of her own doubts if
nothing else. Though I cannot be certain, I fear she is one who would gnaw upon
her own scars, eager to watch them bleed, thirsty for the taste of blood in her
mouth.’
‘Mortal Sword, how can we defend her
against herself?’
Krughava was silent for a time, and
then she sighed. ‘Make stern your regard, banish all shadows from your mind,
anneal in brightest silver your certainty. We return to the path, with all
resolve. Can I make it any clearer, Shield Anvil?’
He bowed again.
‘Leave me now,’ she said.
Tanakalian swung round and walked
down from the rise. The even rows of cookfires flickered in the basin before
him, painting the canvas tents with light and shadow. Five thousand paces to
the west rose another glow – the Bolkando encampment. A parley of comrades,
a clan. Or perhaps not. The Bolkando have no place in this scheme.
They said she was concussed, but
now recovers. They said something impossible happened above her unconscious
form, there on the field of battle. They said – with something burning fierce
in their eyes – that the Bonehunters awakened that day, and its heart was
there, before the Adjunct’s senseless body.
Already a legend is taking birth,
and yet we saw none of its making. We played no role. The name of the Perish
Grey Helms is a gaping absence in this roll call of heroes.
The injustice of that haunted him.
He was Shield Anvil, but his embrace remained empty, a gaping abyss between his
arms. This will change. I will make it change. And all will see. Our time is
coming .
Blood, blood on the sword. Gods,
I can almost taste it.
She pulled hard on the leaf-wrapped
stick, feeling every muscle in her jaw and neck bunch taut. Smoke streaming
from her mouth and nose, she faced the darkness of the north plain. Others,
when they walked out to the edge of the legion’s camp, would find themselves on
the side that gave them a clear view of the Malazan encampment. They walked out
and they stared, no different from pilgrims facing a holy shrine, an unexpected
edifice on their path. She imagined that in their silence they struggled to fit
into their world that dismal sprawl of dung-fires, the vague shapes moving
about, the glint of banners like a small forest of storm-battered saplings.
Finding a place for all that should have been easy. But it wasn’t.
They would wince at their own
wounds, reminded of the gaps in their own lines, and they would feel like
shadows cast by something greater than anything they had known before. There
was a name for this, she knew. Atri-Ceda Aranict pulled again on the stick,
mindful of the bright swimming glow hovering before her face.
Some scholar once likened this to
the mastery fire and all it symbolized. Huh. Some scholar was working hard to
justify her habit. Stupid woman. It’s yours, so just revel in it and when it
comes to justifying what you do, keep your mouth shut. Philosophy, really.
Ask a soldier. A soldier knows
all about smoke. And what’s in and what’s out, and what’s the fucking
difference in the end.
The Letherii had comported
themselves with honour on that horrid field of battle. They had distracted the
enemy. They had with blood and pain successfully effected the Malazan
withdrawal – no, let’s call it what it was, a rout. Once the signals
sounded, the impossible iron wall became a thing of reeds, torn loose and
whipped back on the savage wind.
Even so. Letherii soldiers
walked out at dusk, or in the moments before dawn, right out to the camp’s
edge, and they looked across the empty expanse of scrub to the Malazans. They
weren’t thinking of routs, or withdrawals. They were thinking of all that had
gone before that.
And there was a word for what they
felt.
Humility.
‘My dear.’ He had come up behind
her, soft-footed, as uncertain as a child.
Aranict sighed. ‘I am forgetting how
to sleep.’
Brys Beddict came up to stand at her
side. ‘Yes. I awoke and felt your absence, and it made me think.’
Once, she had been nervous before
this man. Once, she had imagined illicit scenes, the way a person might conjure
up wishes they knew could never be filled. Now, her vanishing from his bed
wakened him to unease. A few days, and the world changes. ‘Think of
what?’
‘I don’t know if I should say.’
The tone was rueful. She filled her
lungs with smoke, eased it back out slowly. ‘I’d wager it’s too late for that,
Brys.’
‘I have never been in love before.
Not like this. I have never before felt so … helpless. As if, without my even
noticing, I gave you all my power.’
‘All the children’s stories never
talked about that,’ Aranict said after a moment. ‘The prince and the princess,
each heroic and strong, equals in the grand love they win. The tale ends in
mutual admiration.’
‘That tastes a tad sour.’
‘That taste is of
self-congratulation,’ she said. ‘Those tales are all about narcissism. The
sleight of hand lies in the hero’s mirror image – a princess for a prince, a
prince for a princess – but in truth it’s all one. It’s nobility’s love for
itself. Heroes win the most beautiful lovers, it’s the reward for their bravery
and virtue.’
‘And those lovers are naught but
mirrors?’
‘Shiny silver ones.’
She felt him watching her.
‘But,’ he said after a few moments, ‘it’s
not that even a thing, is it? You are not my mirror, Aranict. You are something
other. I am not reflected in you, just as you are not reflected in me.
So what is this that we have found here, and why do I find myself on my knees
before it?’
The stick’s end glowed like a newborn
sun, only to ebb in its instant of life. ‘How should I know, Brys? It is as if
I stand facing you from an angle no one else can find, and when I’m there
nothing rises between us – a trick of the light and your fortifications vanish.
So you feel vulnerable.’
He grunted. ‘But it is not that way
with Tehol and Janath.’
‘Yes, I have heard about them, and
it seems to me that no matter which way each faces, he or she faces the other.
He is her king and she is his queen, and everything else just follows on from
there. It is the rarest of loves, I should think.’
‘But it is not ours, is it, Aranict?’
She said nothing. How can I? I
feel swollen, as if I have swallowed you alive, Brys. I walk with the weight of
you inside me, and I have never before felt anything like this. She flicked
the stick-end away. ‘You worry too much, Brys. I am your lover. Leave it at
that.’
‘You are also my Atri-Ceda.’
She smiled in the darkness. ‘And
that, Brys, is what brought me out here.’
‘Why?’
‘Something hides. It’s all around
us, subtle as smoke. It has manifested only once thus far, and that was at the
battle, among the Malazans – at the place where the Adjunct fell unconscious.
There is a hidden hand in all of this, Brys, and I don’t trust it.’
‘Where the Adjunct fell? But
Aranict, what happened there saved Tavore’s life, and quite possibly the lives
of the rest of the Bonehunters. The Nah’ruk reeled from that place.’
‘Yet still I fear it,’ she insisted,
plucking out another rustleaf stick. ‘Allies should show themselves.’ She drew
out the small silver box containing the resin sparker. The night wind defeated
her efforts to scrape a flame to life, so she stepped close against Brys and
tried again.
‘Allies,’ he said, ‘have their own
enemies. Showing themselves imposes a risk, I imagine.’
A flicker of flame and then the
stick was alight. She took a half-step back. ‘I think that’s a valid
observation. Well, I suppose we always suspected that the Adjunct’s war wasn’t
a private one.’
‘No matter how she might wish it so,’
he said, with something like grudging respect.
‘Tomorrow’s parley could prove most
frustrating,’ Aranict observed, ‘if she refuses to relent. We need to know what
she knows. We need to understand what she seeks. More than all that, we need to
make sense of what happened the day of the Nah’ruk.’
He reached up, surprised her by
brushing her cheek, and then leaning closer and kissing her. She laughed deep
in her throat. ‘Danger is a most alluring drug, isn’t it, Brys?’
‘Yes,’ he whispered, but then
stepped back. ‘I will walk the perimeter now, Atri-Ceda, to witness the dawn
with my soldiers. Will you be rested enough for the parley?’
‘More or less.’
‘Good. Until later, then.’
She watched him walk away. Errant
take me, he just climbed back out.
‘When it’s stretched it stays
stretched,’ Hanavat said in a grumble. ‘What’s the point?’
Shelemasa continued rubbing the oil
into the woman’s distended belly. ‘The point is, it feels good.’
‘Well, I’ll grant you that, though I
imagine it’s as much the attention as anything else.’
‘Exactly what men never understand,’
the younger woman said, finally settling back and rubbing her hands together. ‘We
have iron in our souls. How could we not?’
Hanavat glanced away, eyes
tightening. ‘My last child,’ she said. ‘My only child.’
To that Shelemasa was silent. The
charge against the Nah’ruk had taken all of Hanavat’s children. All of
them. But if that was cruel, it is nothing compared to sparing Gall. Where
the mother bows, the father breaks. They are gone. He led them all to their
deaths, yet he survived. Spirits, yours is the gift of madness.
The charge haunted Shelemasa as
well. She had ridden through the lancing barrage of lightning, figures on
either side erupting, bodies exploding, spraying her with sizzling gore. The
screams of horses, the thunder of tumbling beasts, bones snapping – even now,
that dread cauldron awakened again in her mind, a torrent of sounds pounding
her ears from the inside out. She knelt in Hanavat’s tent, trembling with the
memories.
The older woman must have sensed
something, for she reached out and settled a weathered hand on her thigh. ‘It
goes,’ she murmured. ‘I see it among all you survivors. The wave of
remembrance, the horror in your eyes. But I tell you, it goes.’
‘For Gall, too?’
The hand seemed to flinch. ‘No. He
is Warleader. It does not leave him. That charge is not in the past. He lives
it again and again, every moment, day and night. I have lost him, Shelemasa. We
have all lost him.’
Eight hundred and eighty warriors
remained. She had stood among them, had wandered with them the wreckage of the
retreat, and she had seen what she had seen. Never again will we fight, not
with the glory and joy of old. Our military effectiveness, as the Malazan
scribes would say, has come to an end. The Khundryl Burned Tears had been
destroyed. Not a failure of courage. Something far worse. We were made, in
an instant, obsolete. Nothing could break the spirit as utterly as that
realization had done.
A new Warleader was needed, but she
suspected no acclamation was forthcoming. The will was dead. There were no
pieces left to pick up.
‘I will attend the parley,’ said
Hanavat, ‘and I want you with me, Shelemasa.’
‘Your husband—’
‘Is lying in his eldest son’s tent.
He takes no food, no water. He intends to waste away. Before long, we will burn
his body on a pyre, but that will be nothing but a formality. My mourning has
already begun.’
‘I know …’ Shelemasa hesitated, ‘it
was difficult between you. The rumours of his leanings—’
‘And that is the bitterest thing of
all,’ Hanavat cut in. ‘Gall, well, he leaned every which way. I long ago
learned to accept that. What bites deepest now is we had found each other
again. Before the charge. We were awakened to our love for one another. There
was … there was happiness again. For a few moments.’ She stopped then, for she
was crying.
Shelemasa drew closer. ‘Tell me of
the child within you, Hanavat. I have never been pregnant. Tell me how it
feels. Are you filled up, is that how it is? Does it stir – I am told it will
stir on occasion.’
Smiling through her grief, Hanavat
said, ‘Ah, very well. How does it feel? Like I’ve just eaten a whole pig. Shall
I go on?’
Shelemasa laughed, a short,
unexpected laugh, and then nodded. Tell me something good. To drown out the
screams.
‘The children are asleep,’ Jastara
said, moving to settle down on her knees beside him. She studied his face. ‘I
see how much of him came from you. Your eyes, your mouth—’
‘Be quiet, woman,’ said Gall. ‘I
will not lie with my son’s widow.’
She pulled away. ‘Then lie with someone,
for Hood’s sake.’
He turned his head, stared at the
tent wall.
‘Why are you here?’ she demanded. ‘You
come to my tent like the ghost of everything I have lost. Am I not haunted
enough? What do you want with me? Look at me. I offer you my body – let us
share our grief—’
‘Stop.’
She hissed under her breath.
‘I would you take a knife to me,’
Gall said. ‘Do that, woman, and I will bless you with my last breath. A knife.
Give me pain, be pleased to see how you hurt me. Do that, Jastara, in the name
of my son.’
‘You selfish piece of dung, why
should I indulge you? Get out. Find some other hole to hide in. Do you think
your grandchildren are comforted seeing you this way?’
‘You are not Khundryl born,’ he
said. ‘You are Gilk. You understand nothing of our ways—’
‘The Khundryl were feared warriors.
They still are. You need to stand again, Gall. You need to gather your ghosts –
all of them – and save your people.’
‘We are not Wickans,’ he whispered,
reaching up to claw once more at his face.
She spat out a curse. ‘Gods below,
do you really think Coltaine and his damned Wickans could have done better?’
‘He would have found a way.’
‘Fool. No wonder your wife sneers at
you. No wonder all your lovers have turned away from you—’
‘Turned away? They’re all dead.’
‘So find some more.’
‘Who would love a corpse?’
‘Now finally you have a point worth
making, Warleader. Who would? The answer lies before me, a stupid old man. It’s
been five days. You are Warleader. Shake yourself awake, damn you—’
‘No. Tomorrow I will give my people
into the Adjunct’s care. The Khundryl Burned Tears are no more. It is done. I
am done.’
The blade of a knife hovered before
his eyes. ‘Is this what you want?’
‘Yes,’ he whispered.
‘What should I cut first?’
‘You decide.’
The knife vanished. ‘I am Gilk, as
you say. What do I know of mercy? Find your own way to Hood, Gall. The Wickans
would have died, just as your warriors died. No different. Battles are lost. It
is the world’s way. But you still breathe. Gather up your people – they look to
you.’
‘No longer. Never again will I lead
warriors into battle.’
She snarled something
incomprehensible, and moved off, leaving him alone.
He stared at the tent wall, listened
to his own pointless breaths. I know what this is. It is fear. For all my
life it has waited for me, out in the cold night. I have done terrible things,
and my punishment draws near. Please, hurry.
For this night, it is very cold,
and it draws ever nearer.
CHAPTER FOUR
Once we knew nothing.
Now we know everything.
Stay away from our eyes.
Our eyes are empty.
Look into our faces
and see us if you dare.
We are the skin of war.
We are the skin of war.
Once we knew nothing.
Now we know everything.
Skin
Sejaras
SWEAT ENOUGH A MAN COULD DROWN IN.
HE SHIVERED BENEATH HIS furs, something he did every night since the battle.
Jolting awake, drenched, heart pounding. After-images behind his eyes. Keneb,
in the instant before he was torn apart, twisting round in his saddle, fixing
Blistig with a cold, knowing stare. Not ten paces away, their eyes locking. But
that was impossible. I know it’s impossible. I was never even close. He didn’t
turn, didn’t look back. Didn’t see me. Couldn’t.
Don’t you howl at me from the
dark, Keneb. Don’t you stare. It was nothing to do with me. Leave me alone.
But this damned army didn’t know how
to break, understood nothing about routing before a superior enemy. Every
soldier alone, that was what routing was all about. Instead, they maintained
order. ‘ We’re with you, Fist Blistig. See our boots pound. It’s north
we’re going, is it? They ain’t pursuing, sir, and that’s a good thing – can’t
feel it no more, sir, you know: Hood’s own breath, there on the back of my
neck. Can’t feel it. We’re in good order, sir. Good order …’
‘Good order,’ he whispered to the
gloom in his tent. ‘We should be scattered to the winds. Finding our own ways
back. To civilization. To sanity.’
The sweat was drying, or the scraped
underside of the fur skin was soaking it all up. He was still chilled, sick to
his stomach with fear. What’s happened to me? They stare. Out there in the
darkness. They stare. Coltaine. Duiker. The thousands beyond Aren’s wall. They
stare, looking down on me from their crosses. And now Keneb, there on his
horse. Ruthan Gudd. Quick Ben. The dead await me. They wonder why I am not with
them. I should be with them.
They know I don’t belong here.
Once, he’d been a fine soldier. A
decent commander. Clever enough to preserve the lives of his garrison, the hero
who saved Aren from the Whirlwind. But then the Adjunct arrived, and it all
started to go wrong. She conscripted him, tore him away from Aren – they would
have made him High Fist, the City’s Protector. They would have given him a
palace.
She stole my future. My life.
Malaz City was even worse. There, he’d
been shown the empire’s rotted core. Mallick Rel, the betrayer of Aren’s
legion, the murderer of Coltaine and Duiker and all the rest – no, there was no
doubt about any of that. Yet there the Jhistal was, whispering in the Empress’s
ear, and his vengeance against the Wickans was not yet done. And against us.
You took us into that nest, Tavore, and more of us died. For all that you have
done, I will never forgive you.
Standing before her filled him with
bile. Every time, he almost trembled in his desire to take her by the throat,
to crush that throat, to tell her what she’d done to him even as the light left
those dead, flat eyes.
I was a good officer once. An
honourable soldier.
Now I live in terror. What will
she do to us next? Y’Ghatan wasn’t enough. Malaz City wasn’t enough. Nor Lether
either, never enough. Nah’ruk? Not enough. Damn you, Tavore. I will die for a
proper cause. But this?
He’d never before known such hate.
Its poison filled him, and still the dead looked on, from their places in the
wastes of Hood’s realm. Shall I kill her? Is that what you all want? Tell
me!
The tent walls were lightening. This
day, the parley. The Adjunct, Fists arrayed around her, the new ones, the lone
surviving old one. But who looks to me? Who walks a step behind me? Not
Sort. Not Kindly. Not even Raband or Skanarow. No, the new Fists and their
senior officers look right through me. I am already a ghost, already one of the
forgotten. What have I done to deserve that?
Keneb was gone. Since Letheras,
Keneb had to all intents and purposes been commanding the Bonehunters. Managing
the march, keeping it supplied, maintaining discipline and organization. In
short, doing everything. Some people possessed such skills. Running a
garrison was easy enough. We had a fat quartermaster who had a hand in every
pocket, a smiling oaf with a sharp eye, and our suppliers surrounded us and
whatever needed doing, why, it was just a written request away. Sometimes not
even that, more a wink, a nod.
The patrols went out. They came
back. Watches turned, gatekeepers maintained vigilance. We kept the peace and
peace kept us happy.
But an army on the march was another
matter. The logistics besieged him, staggered his brain. Too much to think
about, too much to worry over. Fine, we’re now leaner – hah, what a sweet
way of putting it. We’re an army of regulars with a handful of heavies and
marines. So, we’re oversupplied, if such a thing even exists.
But it won’t last. She wants us
to cross the Wastelands – and what waits beyond them? Desert. Emptiness. No,
hunger waits for us, no matter how heaped our wagons. Hunger and thirst.
I won’t take that on. I won’t.
Don’t ask.
But they wouldn’t, would they?
Because he wasn’t Keneb. I really have no reason to show up. I’m worse than
Banaschar in that company. At least he’s got the nerve to turn up drunk, to
smile in the face of the Adjunct’s displeasure. That’s its own kind of courage.
Activity in the camp now, as dawn
approached. Muted, few conversations, a torpid thing awakening to brutal
truths, eyes blinking open, souls flinching. We’re the walking dead. What
more do you want of us, Tavore?
Plenty. He knew it like teeth
sinking into his chest.
Growling under his breath, he pulled
aside the furs and sat up. A Fist’s tent. All that room for nothing, for the
damp air to wait around for his heroic rise, his gods-given brilliance. He
dragged on his clothes, collected his chill leather boots and shook them to
check for nesting scorpions and spiders and then forced his feet into them. He
needed to take a piss.
I was a good officer once.
Fist Blistig slipped the tethers of
the tent flap, and stepped outside.
Kindly looked round. ‘Captain
Raband.’
‘Fist?’
‘Find me Pores.’
‘Master Sergeant Pores, sir?’
‘Or whatever rank he’s decided on
this morning, yes. You’ll know him by his black eyes.’ Kindly paused,
ruminating, and then said, ‘Wish I knew who broke his nose. Deserves a medal.’
‘Yes sir. On my way, sir.’
He glanced over at the sound of
boots drawing nearer. Fist Faradan Sort and, trailing a step behind her,
Captain Skanarow. Neither woman looked happy. Kindly scowled. ‘Are those the
faces you want to show your soldiers?’
Skanarow looked away guiltily, but
Sort’s eyes hardened to flint. ‘Your own soldiers are close to mutiny, Kindly –
I can’t believe you ordered—’
‘A kit inspection? Why not? Forced
them all to scrape the shit out of their breeches, a bit of tidying that was
long overdue.’
Faradan Sort was studying him. ‘It’s
not an act, is it?’
‘Some advice,’ Kindly said. ‘The
keep is on fire, the black stomach plague is killing the kitchen staff, the
rats won’t eat your supper and hearing the circus is in the yard your wife has
oiled the hinges on the bedroom door. So I walk in and blister your ear about
your scuffy boots. When I leave, what are you thinking about?’
Skanarow answered. ‘I’m thinking up
inventive ways to kill you, sir.’
Kindly adjusted his weapon belt. ‘The
sun has cracked the sky, my dears. Time for my constitutional morning walk.’
‘Want a few bodyguards, sir?’
‘Generous offer, Captain, but I will
be fine. Oh, if Raband shows up with Pores any time soon, promote the good
captain. Omnipotent Overseer of the Universe should suit. Ladies.’
Watching him walk off, Faradan Sort
sighed and rubbed at her face. ‘All right,’ she muttered, ‘the bastard has a
point.’
‘That’s why he’s a bastard, sir.’
Sort glanced over. ‘Are you
impugning a Fist’s reputation, Captain?’
Skanarow straightened. ‘Absolutely
not, Fist. I was stating a fact. Fist Kindly is a bastard, sir. He was one when
he was captain, lieutenant, corporal, and seven-year-old bully. Sir.’
Faradan Sort studied Skanarow for a
moment. She’d taken the death of Ruthan Gudd hard, hard enough to suggest to
Sort that their relationship wasn’t simply one of comrades, fellow officers.
And now she was saying ‘sir’ to someone who only days before had been a fellow
captain. Should I talk about it? Should I tell her it’s as uncomfortable to
me as it must be to her? Is there any point? She was holding up, wasn’t
she? Behaving like a damned soldier.
And then there’s Kindly. Fist
Kindly, Hood help us all.
‘Constitutional,’ she said. ‘Gods
below. Now, I suppose it’s time to meet my new soldiers.’
‘Regular infantry are simple folk,
sir. They ain’t got that wayward streak like the marines got. Should be no
trouble at all.’
‘They broke in battle, Captain.’
‘They were ordered to, sir. And that’s
why they’re still alive, mostly.’
‘I’m beginning to see another reason
for Kindly’s kit inspection. How many dropped their weapons, abandoned their
shields?’
‘Parties have been out recovering
items on the backtrail, sir.’
‘That’s not the point,’ said Sort. ‘They
dropped weapons. Doing that is habit-forming. You’re saying they’ll be no
trouble, Captain? Maybe not the kind you’re thinking. It’s the other kind of
trouble that worries me.’
‘Understood, sir. Then we’d better
shake them up.’
‘I think I’m about to become very
unpleasant.’
‘A bastard?’
‘Wrong gender.’
‘Maybe so, sir, but it’s still the
right word.’
If he was still. If he struggled
past the fumes and dregs of the past night’s wine, and pushed away the ache in
his head and sour taste on his tongue. If he held his breath, lying as one
dead, in that perfect expression of surrender. Then, he could feel her. A
stirring far beneath the earth’s cracked, calloused skin. The worm stirs,
and you do indeed feel her, O priest. She is your gnawing guilt. She is your
fevered shame, so flushing your face.
His goddess was drawing closer. A
drawn out endeavour, to be sure. She had the meat of an entire world to chew
through. Bones to crunch in her jaws, secrets to devour. But mountains groaned,
tilting and shifting to her deep passage. Seas churned. Forests shook. The Worm
of Autumn was coming. ‘Bless the falling leaves, bless the grey skies, bless
this bitter wind and the beasts that sleep.’ Yes, Holy Mother, I
remember the prayers, the Restiturge of Pall. ‘ And the weary blood
shall feed the soil, their fleshly bodies cast down into your belly. And the
Dark Winds of Autumn shall rush in hunger, snatching up their loosed souls.
Caverns shall moan with their voices. The dead have turned their backs on the
solid earth, the stone and the touch of the sky. Bless their onward journey,
from which none return. The souls are nothing of value. Only the flesh feeds
the living. Only the flesh. Bless our eyes, D’rek, for they are open. Bless our
eyes, D’rek, for they see.’
He rolled on to his side. Poison
comes to the flesh long before the soul ever leaves it. She was the cruel
measurer of time. She was the face of inevitable decay. Was he not blessing her
with every day of this life he’d made?
Banaschar coughed, slowly sat up.
Invisible knuckles kneaded the inside of his skull. He knew they were in there,
someone’s fist trapped inside, someone wanting out. Out of my head, aye. Who
can blame them?
He looked round blearily. The scene
was too civilized, he concluded. Somewhat sloppy, true, sly mutters of
dissolution, a certain carelessness. But not a hint of madness. Not a single
whisper of horror. Normal orderliness mocked him. The tasteless air, the pallid
misery of dawn soaking through the tent walls, etching the silhouettes of
insects: every detail howled its mundane truth.
But so many died. Only five days
ago. Six. Six, now. I can still hear them. Pain, fury, all those fierce
utterances of despair. If I step outside this morning, I should see them still.
Those marines. Those heavies. Swarming against the face of the enemy’s advance,
but these hornets were fighting a losing battle – they’d met something nastier
than them, and one by one they were crushed down, smeared into the earth.
And the Khundryl. Gods below, the
poor Burned Tears.
Too civilized, this scene – the
heaps of clothing, the dusty jugs lying abandoned and empty on the ground, the
tramped-down grasses struggling in the absence of the sun’s clear streams.
Would light’s life ever return, or were these grasses doomed now to wither and
die? Each blade knew not. For now, there was nothing to do but suffer.
‘Be easy,’ he muttered, ‘we move on.
You will recover your free ways. You will feel the wind’s breath again. I
promise.’ Ah, Holy Mother, are these your words of comfort? Light returns.
Be patient, its sweet kiss draws ever nearer. A new day. Be still, frail one.
Banaschar snorted, and set about
seeking out a jug with something left in it.
Five Khundryl warriors stood before
Dead Hedge. They looked lost, and yet determined, if such a thing was possible,
and the Bridgeburner wasn’t sure it was. They had difficulty meeting his eyes,
yet held their ground. ‘What in Hood’s name am I supposed to do with you?’
He glanced back over a shoulder. His
two new sergeants were coming up behind him, other soldiers gathering behind
them. Both women looked like bags overstuffed with bad memories. Their faces
were sickly grey, as if they’d forgotten all of life’s pleasures, as if they’d
seen the other side. But lasses, it’s not so bad, it’s just the getting there
that stinks.
‘Commander?’ Sweetlard enquired,
nodding to the Khundryl.
‘They’re volunteering to join up,’
said Hedge, scowling. ‘Cashiered outa the Burned Tears, or something like that.’
He faced the five men again. ‘I’d wager Gall will call this treason and come
for your heads.’
The eldest of the warriors, his face
almost black with tear tattoos, seemed to hunch lower beneath his broad,
sloping shoulders. ‘Gall Inshikalan’s soul is dead. All his children died in
the charge. He sees only the past. The Khundryl Burned Tears are no more.’ He
gestured at his companions. ‘Yet we would fight on.’
‘Why not the Bonehunters?’ Hedge
asked.
‘Fist Kindly refused us.’
Another warrior growled and said, ‘He
called us savages. And cowards.’
‘Cowards?’ Hedge’s scowl deepened. ‘You
were in that charge?’
‘We were.’
‘And you would fight on? What’s
cowardly about that?’
The eldest one said, ‘He sought to
shame us back to our people – but we are destroyed. We kneel in Coltaine’s
shadow, broken by failure.’
‘You’re saying all the others will
just … fade away?’
The man shrugged.
Alchemist Bavedict spoke behind
Hedge. ‘Commander, we took us a few losses. These warriors are veterans. And
survivors.’
Hedge looked round again, studied
the Letherii. ‘Aren’t we all,’ he said.
Bavedict nodded.
Sighing, Hedge faced the warriors
once more. He nodded at the spokesman. ‘Your name?’
‘Berrach. These are my sons. Sleg,
Gent, Pahvral and Rayez.’
Your sons. No wonder you didn’t
feel welcome in Gall’s camp. ‘You’re now our outriders, scouts and, when
needed, cavalry.’
‘Bridgeburners?’
Hedge nodded. ‘Bridgeburners.’
‘We’re not cowards,’ hissed the
youngest, presumably Rayez, his expression suddenly fierce.
‘If you were,’ said Hedge, ‘I’d have
sent you packing. Berrach, you’re now a Captain of our Mounted – have you spare
horses?’
‘Not any more, Commander.’
‘Never mind, then. My sergeants here
will see you billeted. Dismissed.’
In response the five warriors drew
their sabres and fashioned a kind of salute Hedge had never seen before, blade
edges set diagonally across each man’s exposed throat.
Bavedict grunted behind him.
And if I now said ‘ Cut’
they’d do just that, wouldn’t they? Gods below. ‘Enough of that,
soldiers,’ he said. ‘We don’t worship Coltaine in the Bridgeburners. He was
just another Malazan commander. A good one, to be sure, and right now he’s
standing in Dassem Ultor’s shadow. And they got plenty of company. And maybe
one day soon Gall will be there, too.’
Berrach was frowning. ‘Do we not
honour their memories, sir?’
Hedge bared his teeth in anything
but a smile. ‘Honour whoever you want in your spare time, Captain, only you ain’t
got any spare time any more, because you’re now a Bridgeburner, and us
Bridgeburners honour only one thing.’
‘And that is, sir?’
‘Killing the enemy, Captain.’
Something awoke in the faces of the
warriors. As one they sheathed their weapons. Berrach seemed to be struggling
to speak, and finally managed to ask, ‘Commander Hedge, how do the
Bridgeburners salute?’
‘We don’t. And as for anyone outside
our company, it’s this.’
Eyes widened at Hedge’s obscene
gesture, and then Berrach grinned.
When Hedge turned to wave his
sergeants forward, he saw that they weren’t quite the bloated grey bags he’d
seen only moments earlier. Dread had been stripped from their faces, and now
their exhaustion was plain to see – but it had softened somehow. Sweetlard and
Rumjugs looked almost beautiful again.
Bridgeburners get pounded all the
time. We just get back up. No bluster, just back up, aye. ‘Alchemist,’ he
said to Bavedict, ‘show me that new invention of yours.’
‘Finally,’ the Letherii replied. ‘Funny,
isn’t it?’
‘What is?’
‘Oh, how a handful of Khundryl
warriors started you all up.’
‘The sergeants were in shock—’
‘Commander, you looked even worse
than they did.’
Oh, Hood take me, I doubt I can
argue that. ‘So tell me, what’s the new cusser do?’
‘Well now, sir, you were telling me
about the Drum—’
‘I what? When?’
‘You were drunk. Anyway, it got me
to thinking …’
The two newcomers walked into the
squads’ encampment, and faces lifted, eyes went flat. No one wanted any damned
interruptions to all this private misery. Not now. Badan Gruk hesitated, and
then pushed himself to his feet. ‘Eighteenth, isn’t it?’
The sergeant, a Genabackan, was
eyeing the other soldiers. ‘Which one is what’s left of the Tenth?’
Badan Gruk felt himself go cold. He
could feel the sudden, sharp attention of the others in the camp. He understood
that regard. He wasn’t a hard man and they all knew it – so, would he back down
now? If I had anything left, I would. ‘I don’t know where in the
trenches you were, but we met that first charge. It’s a damned miracle any one
of us is still alive. There’s two marines left from the Tenth, and I guess that’s
why you’re here, since you, Sergeant, and your corporal, are obviously the only
survivors from your squad. You lost all your soldiers.’
At that comment Badan paused,
gauging the effect of his words. He saw none. What does that tell us?
Nothing good. He half turned and gestured. ‘There, those ones, they’re from
Primly’s squad. But Sergeant Primly is dead. So is Hunt and so are Neller and
Mulvan Dreader, and Corporal Kisswhere’s gone … missing. You’re left with
Skulldeath and Drawfirst.’
Trailed by his corporal, the
sergeant walked over. ‘On your feet, marines,’ he said. ‘I’m Sergeant
Gaunt-Eye, and this is Corporal Rib. The Tenth is no more. You’re now in the
Eighteenth.’
‘What?’ demanded Drawfirst. ‘A squad
of four?’
The corporal replied. ‘We’re picking
up two more from the Seventh, and another two from Ninth Company’s Fifth.’
Ruffle limped up beside Badan Gruk. ‘Sergeant,
Sinter’s back.’
Badan sighed and turned away. ‘Fine.
She can handle this, then.’ He’d had his moment of spine. Nobody would have to
look his way any more, expecting … expecting what? Hood knows. They’re just
collecting up scraps now. Enough to make a rag. He returned to the remnants
of the fire, sat with his back to the others.
I’ve seen enough. Not even
marines do this for a living. You can’t die for a living. So, sew together new
squads all you like. But really, just how many marines are left? Fifty? Sixty?
No, better to let us soak into the regulars, sour as old blood. Hood knows, I’m
sick of these faces here, sick of not seeing the ones missing, the ones I’ll
never see again. Shoaly. Strap Mull. Skim, Hunt, all of them.
Sinter was speaking to Gaunt-Eye,
but the tones were low, level, and a few moments later she came over and
squatted down at his side. ‘Rider in from the Burned Tears. Kisswhere’s still
mending. That broken leg was a bad one.’
‘They took them away?’
‘Who?’
‘That sergeant.’
‘Aye, though it’s not so much “away”
as “just over there”, Badan. Not enough of us to sprawl.’
Badan found a stick and stirred at
the ashes. ‘What is she going to do, Sinter?’
‘Kisswhere?’
‘The Adjunct.’
‘How should I know? I’ve not talked
to her. No one has, as far as I can tell – at least, the Fists look to be in
charge at the moment.’
Badan dropped the stick and then
rubbed at his face. ‘We got to go back,’ he said.
‘That won’t happen,’ Sinter replied.
He shot her a glare. ‘We can’t just
pick up and go on.’
‘Keep it down, Badan. We pulled out
more soldiers than we should have. We’re not as mauled as we could have been.
Ruthan Gudd, Quick Ben, and then what happened at the vanguard. Those things
checked them. Not to mention Fid getting us dug in – without those trenches,
the heavies would never have—’
‘Died?’
‘Held. Long enough for the Letherii
to bleed off pressure. Long enough for the rest of us to disengage—’
‘Disengage, aye, that’s a good one.’
She leaned closer. ‘Listen to me,’
she hissed. ‘We didn’t die. Not one of us still here—’
‘Can’t be more obvious, what you
just said.’
‘No, you’re not getting it. We got
overrun, Badan, but we clawed through even that. Aye, maybe it was the Lady
pulling in a frenzy, maybe it was all the others stepping into the paths of the
blades coming down on us. Maybe it was how rattled they were by then – from
what I heard Lostara Yil was almost invisible inside a cloud of blood, and none
of it her own. They had to check at that. A pause. Hesitation. Whatever, the
plain truth is, when we started pulling back—’
‘They left us to it.’
‘Point is, could have been a lot
worse, Badan. Look at the Khundryl. Six thousand went in, less than a thousand
rode back out. I heard some survivors have been wandering into camp. Joining up
with Dead Hedge’s Bridgeburners. They say Warleader Gall is broken. So, you see
what happens when the commander breaks? The rest just crumble.’
‘Maybe now it’s our turn.’
‘I doubt it. She was injured,
remember, and Denul don’t work on her. She needs to find her own way of
healing. But you’re still missing my point. Don’t break to pieces, Badan. Don’t
crawl inside yourself. Your squad lost Skim, but nobody else.’
‘Nep Furrow’s sick.’
‘He’s always sick, Badan. At least,
ever since we set foot on the Wastelands.’
‘Reliko wakes up screaming.’
‘He ain’t alone in that. He and
Vastly stood with the other heavies, right? So.’
Badan Gruk studied the dead fire,
and then he sighed. ‘All right, Sinter. What do you want me to do? How do I fix
all this?’
‘Fix this? You idiot, stop even
trying. It ain’t up to us. We keep our eye on our officers, we wait for their
lead.’
‘I ain’t seen Captain Sort.’
‘That’s because she’s just been made
a Fist – where you been? Never mind. We’re waiting for Fid, that’s the truth of
it. Same time as the parley, he’s calling all of us together, the last of the
marines and heavies.’
‘He’s still just a sergeant.’
‘Wrong. Captain now.’
Despite himself, Badan Gruk smiled. ‘Bet
he’s thrilled.’
‘Been dancing all morning, aye.’
‘So we all gather.’ He looked over,
met her eyes. ‘And we listen to what he has to say. And then …’
‘Then … well, we’ll see.’
Badan squinted at her, his anxiety
returning in a chill rush. Not the answer I expected. ‘Sinter, should we
go and get Kisswhere?’
‘Oh, she’d like that. No, let the
cow stew a while.’
‘It was us being so short,’ Ruffle
said.
‘Ey whev?’
‘You heard me, Nep. Those
Short-Tails were too tall. Swinging down as low as they had to was hard – their
armour wouldn’t give enough at the waist. And did you see us? We learned fast.
We waged war on their shins. Stabbed up into their crotches. Hamstrung ’em.
Skewered their damned feet. We were an army of roach dogs, Nep.’
‘I een no eruch dhug, Errufel. E’en
a vulf, izme. Nep Vulf!’
Reliko spoke up. ‘Think you got a
point there, Ruffle. We started fighting damned low, didn’t we? Right at their
feet, in close, doing our work.’ His ebon-skinned face worked into something
like a grin.
‘Just what I said,’ Ruffle nodded,
lighting another rustleaf stick to conclude a breakfast of five others. Her
hands trembled. She’d taken a slash to her right leg. The roughly sewn wound
ached. And so did everything else.
Sinter settled down beside Honey. In
a low voice she said, ‘They had to take the arm.’
Honey’s face tightened. ‘Weapon arm.’
Others were leaning in to listen.
Sinter frowned. ‘Aye. Corporal Rim’s going to be clumsy for a while.’
‘So, Sergeant,’ said Lookback, ‘are
we gonna be folded into another squad, too? Or maybe swallow up some other one
with only a couple of marines left?’
Sinter shrugged. ‘Still being worked
out.’
Honey said, ‘Didn’t like what
happened to the Tenth, Sergeant. One moment there, the next just gone. Like a
puff of smoke. That’s not right.’
‘Gaunt-Eye’s a bit of a bastard,’
Sinter said. ‘No tact.’
‘Let all his soldiers die, too,’
pointed out Lookback.
‘Enough of that. You can’t think of
it that way, not this time. Heads went up, heads got blown off, and then they
were on top of us. It was every soldier for herself and himself.’
‘Not for Fid,’ said Honey. ‘Or
Corporal Tarr. Or Corabb or Urb or even Hellian. They rallied marines,
Sergeant. They kept their heads and so people lived.’
Sinter looked away. ‘Too much talking
going on around here, I think. You’re all picking scabs and it’s getting ugly.’
She stood. ‘Need another word with Fid.’
Sergeant Urb walked over to
Saltlick. ‘On your feet, squad.’
The man looked up, grunted his way
upright.
‘Collect your kit.’
‘Aye, Sergeant. Where we headed to?’
Without replying, Urb set off, the
heavy dropping in two steps behind him. Urb wasn’t looking forward to this. He
knew the faces of most of this army’s marines. In such matters, his memory was
good. Faces. Easy. The people hiding behind them, not easy. Names, not a
chance. Now, of course, there weren’t many faces left.
The marine and heavy infantry
encampment was a mess. Disorganized, careless. Squads set up leaving gaps where
other squads used to be. Tents hung slack from slipshod pegging. Weapon belts,
battered shields and scarred armour were left lying around on the ground,
amidst rodara bones and the boiled vertebrae of myrid. Shallow holes reeked
where soldiers had thrown up – people complained of some stomach bug, but more
likely it was just nerves, the terrible aftermath of battle. The acid of
surviving that just kept on burning its way up the throat.
And around them all, the morning
stretched out in its measured madness, senseless as ever. Lightening sky, the
spin and whirl of insects, the muted baying of animals being driven to
slaughter. One thing was missing, however. No one was saying much of anything.
Soldiers sat, heads down, or glancing up every now and then, eyes empty and far
away.
All under siege. By the gaps round
the circle, by the heaps of tents left folded and bound with their clutter of
poles and bag of stakes. The dead didn’t have anything to say, either, but
everyone still sat, listening for them.
Urb drew up at the foot of one such
broken circle of seated soldiers. They’d set a pot on embers and the smell
wafting from the brew was heady, alcoholic. Urb studied them. Two women, two
men. ‘Twenty-second squad?’
The elder of the two women nodded
without looking up. Urb remembered seeing her. A lively face, he recalled.
Sharp tongue. Malaz City, maybe, or Jakatan. Islander for sure. ‘Stand up, all
of you.’
He saw resentment in the faces
lifting to him. The other woman, young, dark-skinned and black-haired, had eyes
of startling blue, which now flashed in outrage. ‘Fine, Sergeant,’ she said in
an accent he’d never heard before, ‘you’ve just filled out your squad.’ Seeing
Saltlick standing behind Urb, her expression changed. ‘Heavy.’ She nodded
respectfully.
The other woman shot her companions
a hard look. ‘This is the Thirteenth you’re looking at, boys and girls. This
squad, and Hellian’s, they drank lizard blood that day. So, all of you, stand
the fuck up and do it now.’ She led the way. ‘Sergeant Urb, I’m Clasp. You come
to collect us, good. We need collecting.’
The others had clambered to their
feet, but the younger woman was still scowling. ‘We lost us a good sergeant—’
‘Who didn’t listen when they said
duck,’ Clasp retorted.
‘Always had his nose in something,’
said one of the men, a Kartoolian sporting an oiled beard.
‘Curiosity,’ observed the other man,
a short, broad Falari with long hair the colour of blood-streaked gold. The tip
of his nose had been sliced off, stubbing his face.
‘You all done with the elegy?’ Urb
asked. ‘Good. This is Saltlick. Now, faces I know, so I know all of yours. Give
me some names.’
The Kartoolian said, ‘Burnt Rope,
Sergeant. Sapper.’
‘Lap Twirl,’ said the Falari. ‘Cutter.’
‘Healing?’
‘Don’t count on it, not on this
ground.’
‘Sad,’ said the younger woman. ‘Squad
mage. About as useless as Lap right now.’
‘Still have your crossbows?’ Urb
asked.
No one spoke.
‘First task, then, off to the
armoury. Then back here, and clean up this sty. The Twenty-second is retired.
Welcome to the Thirteenth. Saltlick, keep them company. Clasp, you’re now
corporal. Congratulations.’
When they’d all trooped off, Urb
stood alone, motionless, and for a long time, unnoticed by anyone, he stared at
nothing.
Someone nudged her shoulder. She
moaned and rolled on to her side. A second nudge, harder this time. ‘G’way.
Still dark.’
‘Still dark, Sergeant, because you
blindfolded yourself.’
‘I did? Well, why didn’t you do the
same, then we’d all be sleeping still. Go away.’
‘It’s morning, Sergeant. Captain
Fiddler wants—’
‘He always wants. Soon as they turn
inta officers, it’s do this do that alla time. Someone gimme a jug.’
‘All gone, Sergeant.’
She reached up, felt at the rough
cloth covering her eyes, pulled one edge down, just enough to uncover one eye. ‘That
can’t be right. Go find some more.’
‘We will,’ Brethless promised. ‘Soon
as you get up. Someone’s been through the squads, doing counts. We don’t like
it. Makes us nervous.’
‘Why?’ The lone eye blinked. ‘I got
me eight marines—’
‘Four, Sergeant.’
‘Fifty per cent losses ain’t too
bad, for a party.’
‘A party, Sergeant?’
She sat up. ‘I had eight last night.’
‘Four.’
‘Right, four twice over.’
‘There wasn’t no party, Sergeant.’
Hellian tugged to expose her other
eye. ‘There wasn’t, huh? Thas what you get for wand’ring off, then, Corporal.
Missed the good times.’
‘Aye, I suppose I did. We’re melting
a lump of chocolate in a pot – thought you might like some.’
‘That stuff? I remember now. Balklo
chocolate. All right, get outa my tent so I can get decent.’
‘You’re not in your tent, Sergeant,
you’re in our latrine ditch.’
She looked round. ‘That explains the
smell.’
‘None of us used it yet, Sergeant,
seeing as how you were here.’
‘Oh.’
His stomach convulsed again, but
there was nothing left to spit up, so he rode it out, waited, gasping, and then
slowly settled back on his haunches. ‘Poliel’s prissy nipples! If I can’t keep
nothing down I’ll waste away!’
‘You already have, Widder,’ observed
Throatslitter from a few paces upwind, his voice a cracking rasp. The old scars
on his neck were inflamed; he’d taken a shot to his chest, hard enough to dent
his sternum with matted rows from the mail’s iron links, and something from
that trauma had messed up his throat.
They were away from the camp, twenty
paces beyond the eastern picket. Widdershins, Throatslitter, Deadsmell and
Sergeant Balm. The survivors of the 9th Squad. The regulars crouched in their
holes had watched them pass with red-shot eyes, saying nothing. Was that
belligerence? Pity? The squad mage didn’t know and at the moment was past
caring. Wiping his mouth with the back of one forearm, he looked past
Throatslitter to Balm. ‘You called us up here, Sergeant. What now?’
Balm drew off his helm, scratched
vigorously at his scalp. ‘Just thought I’d tell you, we ain’t breaking the
squad up and we ain’t picking up any new bodies. It’s just us, now.’
Widdershins grunted. ‘We took a walk
for that?’
‘Don’t be an idiot,’ said Deadsmell
in a growl.
Balm faced his soldiers. ‘Talk, all
of you. You first, Throatslitter.’
The tall man seemed to flinch. ‘What’s
to say? We’re chewed to pieces. But Kindly hogtying Fid like that, well, bloody
genius. We got ourselves a captain, now—’
‘There wasn’t anything wrong with
Sort,’ Deadsmell interjected.
‘Not saying there was. Definite officer,
that woman. But maybe that’s the point. Fid’s from the ground up a marine,
through and through. He was a sapper. A sergeant. Now he’s captain of what’s
left of us. I’m settled with that.’ He shrugged, facing Balm. ‘Nothing more to
say, Sergeant.’
‘And when he says it’s time to go,
you gonna bleat and whine about it?’
Throatslitter’s brows lifted. ‘Go?
Go where?’
Balm squinted and then said, ‘Your
turn, Deadsmell.’
‘Hood’s dead. Grey riders patrol the
Gate. In my dreams I see faces, blurred, but still. Malazans. Bridgeburners.
You can’t imagine how comforting that feels, you just can’t. They’re all there,
and I think we got Dead Hedge to thank for that.’
‘How do you mean?’ Widdershins
asked.
‘Just a feeling. As if, in coming
back, he blazed a trail. Six days ago, well, I swear they were close enough to
kiss.’
‘Because we all almost died,’
Throatslitter snapped.
‘No, they were like wasps, and what
was sweet wasn’t us dying, wasn’t the lizards neither. It was what happened at
the vanguard. It was Lostara Yil.’ His eyes were bright as he looked to each
soldier in turn. ‘I caught a glimpse, you know. I saw her dance. She did what
Ruthan Gudd did, only she didn’t go down under blades. The lizards recoiled –
they didn’t know what to do, they couldn’t get close, and those that did, gods,
they were cut to pieces. I saw her, and my heart near burst.’
‘She saved the Adjunct’s life,’ said
Throatslitter. ‘Was that such a good thing?’
‘Not for you to even ask,’ said
Balm. ‘Fid’s calling us together. He’s got things to say. About that, I expect.
The Adjunct. And what’s to come. We’re still marines. We’re the marines,
and we got heavies in our ranks, the stubbornest bulls I ever seen.’
He turned then, since two regulars
from the pickets were approaching. In their arms, two loaves of bread, a
wrapped brick of cheese, and a Seven Cities clay bottle.
‘What’s this?’ Deadsmell wondered.
The two soldiers halted a few paces
away, and the one on the right spoke. ‘Guard’s changed, Sergeant. Came out with
some breakfast for us. We weren’t much hungry.’ They then set the items down on
a bare patch of ground. Nodded, set off back for camp.
‘Hood’s pink belly,’ Deadsmell
muttered.
‘Save all that,’ Balm said. ‘We’re
not yet done here. Widdershins.’
‘Warrens are sick, Sergeant. Well,
you seen what they’re doing to us mages. And there’s new ones, new warrens, I
mean, but they ain’t nice at all. Still, I might have to delve into them, once
I get tired of being completely useless.’
‘You’re the best among us with a
crossbow, Widder, so you ain’t useless even without any magic.’
‘Maybe so, Throatslitter, but it
doesn’t feel that way.’
‘Deadsmell,’ said Balm, ‘you’ve been
doing some healing.’
‘I have, but Widder’s right. It’s
not fun. The problem – for me, that is – is that I’m still somehow bound to
Hood. Even though he’s, uh, dead. Don’t know why that should be, but the magic
when it comes to me, well, it’s cold as ice.’
Widdershins frowned at Deadsmell. ‘Ice?
That makes no sense.’
‘Hood was a damned Jaghut, so yes,
it does. And no, it doesn’t, because he’s … well, gone.’
Throatslitter spat and said, ‘If he
really died, like you say, did he walk into his realm? And didn’t he have to be
dead in the first place, being the God of Death and all? What you’re saying
makes no sense, Deadsmell.’
The necromancer looked unhappy. ‘I
know.’
‘Next time you do some healing,’
said Widdershins, ‘let me do some sniffing.’
‘You’ll heave again.’
‘So what?’
‘What are you thinking, Widder?’
Balm asked.
‘I’m thinking Deadsmell’s not using
Hood’s warren any more. I’m thinking it must be Omtose Phellack.’
‘It’s occurred to me,’ Deadsmell
said in a mumble.
‘One way to test it for sure,’ Balm
said.
Widdershins swore. ‘Aye. We don’t
know the details, but the rumour is that she’s got some broken ribs, maybe even
spitting up blood, and is still concussed. But with that Otataral in her, no
one can do much about it.’
‘But Omtose Phellack is Elder.’
Deadsmell was nodding. ‘We should go, then. It’s worth a try.’
‘We will,’ said Balm, ‘but first we
eat.’
‘And leave the Adjunct in pain?’
‘We eat and drink here,’ said Balm,
eyes flat, ‘because we’re marines and we don’t kick dirt in the faces of fellow
soldiers.’
‘Exactly,’ said Widdershins. ‘Besides,’
he added, ‘I’m starving.’
Shortnose had lost the four fingers
of his shield hand. To stop the bleeding that had gone on even after the nubs
had been sewn up, he had held them against a pot left squatting in a fire. Now
the ends looked melted and there were blisters up to his knuckles. But the bleeding
had stopped.
He had been about to profess his
undying love for Flashwit, but then that sergeant from the 18th had come by and
collected up both Flashwit and Mayfly, so Shortnose was alone, the last left in
Gesler’s old squad.
He’d sat for a time, alone, using a
thorn to pop blisters and then sucking them dry. When that was done he sat some
more, watching the fire burn down. At the battle the severed finger of one of
the lizards had fallen down the back of his neck, between armour and shirt.
When he’d finally retrieved it, he and Mayfly and Flashwit had cooked and
shared its scant ribbons of meat. Then they’d separated out and distributed the
bones, tying them into their hair. It was what Bonehunters did.
They’d insisted he get the longest
one, on account of getting his hand chopped up, and it now hung beneath his
beard, overwhelming the other finger bones, which had all come from Letherii
soldiers. It was heavy and long enough to thump against his chest when he
walked, which is what he decided to do once he realized that he was lonely.
Kit packed, slung over one shoulder,
he set out. Thirty-two paces took him into Fiddler’s old squad’s camp, where he
found a place to set up his tent, left his satchel in that spot, and then
walked over to sit down with the other soldiers.
The pretty little woman seated on
his right handed him a tin cup filled with steaming something. When he smiled
his thanks she didn’t smile back, which was when he recalled that her name was
Smiles.
This, he decided, was better than being
lonely.
‘Got competition, Corabb.’
‘Don’t see that,’ the Seven Cities
warrior replied.
‘Shortnose wants to be our new fist,’
Cuttle explained.
‘Making what, four fists in this
squad? Me, Corporal Tarr, Koryk and now Shortnose.’
‘I was a corporal not a fist,’ said
Tarr. ‘Besides, I don’t punch, I just take ’em.’
Cuttle snorted. ‘Hardly. You went
forward, no different from any fist I ever seen.’
‘I went forward to stand still,
sapper.’
‘Well, that’s a good point,’ Cuttle
conceded. ‘I stand corrected, then.’
‘I just realized something,’ said
Smiles. ‘We got no sergeant any more. Unless it’s you, Tarr. And if that’s the
case, then we need a new corporal, and since I’m the only one left with any
brains, it’s got to be me.’
Tarr scratched at his greying beard.
‘Was thinking Corabb, actually.’
‘He needs his own private weapons
wagon!’
‘I kept my Letherii sword,’ Corabb
retorted. ‘I didn’t lose anything this time.’
‘Let’s vote on it.’
‘Let’s not, Smiles,’ said Tarr. ‘Corabb
Bhilan Thenu’alas, you’re now the Fourth Squad’s corporal. Congratulations.’
‘He’s barely stopped being a
recruit!’ Smiles scowled at everyone.
‘Cream will rise,’ said Cuttle.
Koryk bared his teeth at Smiles. ‘Live
with it, soldier.’
‘I’m corporal now,’ said Corabb. ‘Did
you hear that, Shortnose? I’m corporal now.’
The heavy looked up from his cup. ‘Hear
what?’
Losing Bottle had hurt them. Cuttle
could see that in their faces. The squad’s first loss, at least as far as he
could recall. First from the originals, anyway. But the loss of only one
soldier was pretty damned good. Most squads had fared a lot worse. Some squads
had ceased to exist. Some? More like most of ’em.
He settled back against a spare tent’s
bulky folds, watched the others covertly. Listened to their complaints. Koryk
was a shaken man. Whatever spine of freedom there’d once been inside him,
holding him up straight, had broken. Now he wore chains inside, and they messed
with his brain, and maybe that was now permanent. He drank from a well of fear,
and he kept on going back to it.
That scrap back there had been
horrible, but Koryk had been stumbling even before then. Cuttle wondered what
was left of the warrior he’d once known. Tribals had a way of kneeling to the
worst vicissitudes of civilization, and no matter how clever the cleverest ones
might be, they often proved blind to what was killing them.
Maybe no different from regular
people, but, to Cuttle’s mind, somehow more tragic.
Even Smiles was slowly prising
herself loose from Koryk.
She hadn’t changed, Cuttle
decided. Not one whit. As psychotic and murderous as ever, was Smiles. Her
knife work had been vicious, down there beneath the swing of the lizards’
weapons. She’d toppled giants that day. For all that, she’d make a terrible
corporal.
Tarr had been Tarr. The same as he
always was and always would be. He’d be a solid sergeant. Perhaps a tad
unimaginative, but this squad was past the need for anything that might shake
it up. And we’ll follow him sharp enough. The man’s a bristling wall, and
when that helm of his settles low over his brow, not a herd of charging
bhederin could budge him. Aye, Tarr, you’ll do just fine.
Corabb. Corporal Corabb. Perfect.
And now Shortnose. Sitting like a
tree stump, flattened blisters weeping down his hand. Drinking that rotgut
Smiles had brewed up, a half-smile on his battered face. You ain’t fooling
me, Shortnose. Been in the army way too long. You love the thick-skull stuff,
you heavies all do. But I see the flick of those tiny eyes under those lids.
‘Hear what?’ Nice one, but I saw
the spark you tried to hide. Happy to be here, are you? Good. Happy to have you.
As for me, what have I learned?
Nothing new. We got through it but we got plenty more to get through. Ask me
then. Ask me then.
He glanced over to see Fiddler
arriving. Only the neck of his fiddle left, hanging down his back, kinked
strings sprung like errant hairs. Most of the red gone from his beard. His
short sword’s scabbard was empty – he’d left the weapon jutting from a lizard’s
eye socket. The look in his blue eyes was cool, almost cold.
‘Sergeant Tarr, half a bell, and
then lead them to the place.’
‘Aye, Captain.’
‘We got riders coming up from the
south. Perish, a few Khundryl, and someone else. A whole lot of someone else.’
Cuttle frowned. ‘Who?’
Fiddler shrugged. ‘Parley. We’ll
find out soon enough.’
‘Told you you’d live.’
Henar Vygulf smiled up at her from
where he lay on the cot. But it was an uncertain smile. ‘I did what you asked,
Lostara. I watched.’
Her gaze faltered.
‘Who are you?’ he asked.
‘Don’t ask me that. I see that
question in every face. They all look at me. They say nothing.’ She hesitated,
staring down at her hands. ‘It was the Shadow Dance. It was every Shadow
Dance.’ She met his eyes suddenly. ‘It wasn’t me. I just slipped back, inside,
and just like you, I watched.’
‘If not you, then who?’
‘The Rope. Cotillion, the Patron God
of Assassins.’ She grimaced. ‘He took over. He’s done things like that before,
I think.’
Henar’s eyes widened. ‘A god.’
‘A furious god. I – I have never
felt such rage. It burned right through me. It scoured me clean.’ She unhooked
her belt, tugged loose her scabbarded knife. She set it down on the blankets
covering his wounded chest. ‘For you, my love. But be careful, it’s very, very
sharp.’
‘The haunt is gone from your face,
Lostara,’ said Henar. ‘You were beautiful before, but now …’
‘An unintended gift, to be sure,’
she said with some diffidence. ‘Gods are not known for mercy. Or compassion.
But no mortal could stand in that blaze, and not come through either burned to
ashes, or reborn.’
‘Reborn, yes. A good description
indeed. My boldness,’ he added with a rueful grimace, ‘retreats before you now.’
‘Don’t let it,’ she snapped. ‘I don’t
take mice to my bed, Henar Vygulf.’
‘I shall try, then, to find the man
I was.’
‘I will help, but not yet – the
healers are far from finished with you.’ She rose. ‘I must leave you now. The
Adjunct.’
‘I think Brys has forgotten me. Or
assumed me dead.’
‘Don’t think I’ll be reminding him,’
she said. ‘You ride at my side from now on.’
‘Brys—’
‘Hardly. A word in private with
Aranict will do the trick, I think.’
‘The king’s brother is collared?’
‘Next time you two meet, you can
compare shackles.’
‘Thought you disliked mice, Lostara
Yil.’
‘Oh, I expect you to struggle and
strain at your chains, Henar. It’s the ones we can’t tame that we keep under
lock and key.’
‘I see.’
She turned to leave the hospital
tent, saw the rows of faces turned to her, even among the cutters. ‘Hood’s
breath,’ she muttered.
Pleasantly drunk, Banaschar made his
way towards the command tent. He saw Fist Blistig standing outside the
entrance, like a condemned man at the torturer’s door. Oh, you poor man. The
wrong dead hero back there. You had your chance, I suppose. You could have been
as brainless as Keneb. You could have stayed in his shadow right to the end, in
fact, since you’d clearly been finding it such safe shelter for the past few
months.
But the sun finds no obstruction
in painting you bright now, and how does it feel? The man looked ill. But
you don’t drink, do you? That’s not last night’s poison in your face, more’s
the pity. Sick with fear, then, and Banaschar dredged up some real sympathy
for the man. A stir or two, clouding the waters, dulling the sharp edges of
righteous satisfaction.
‘Such a fine morning, Fist,’ he said
upon arriving.
‘You’ll be in trouble soon, High
Priest.’
‘How so?’
‘When the wine runs out.’
Banaschar smiled. ‘The temple’s
cellars remain well stocked, I assure you.’
Blistig’s eyes lit with something
avid. ‘You can just go there? Any time you want?’
‘In a manner of speaking.’
‘So why do you remain? Why don’t you
flee this madness?’
Because Holy Mother wants me
here. I am her last priest. She has something in mind for me, yes she does.
‘I am dreadfully sorry to tell you this, Fist, but that door is a private one,
an exclusive one.’
Blistig’s face darkened. There were
two guards outside the command tent, only a few paces away, well within
earshot. ‘I was suggesting you leave us, High Priest. You’re a useless drunk, a
bad influence on this army. Why the Adjunct insists on your infernal presence
at these gatherings baffles me.’
‘I am sure it does, Fist. But I can’t
imagine being such a dark temptation to your soldiers. I don’t share my private
stock, after all. Indeed, I suspect seeing me turns a soul away from the
miseries of alcohol.’
‘You mean you disgust them?’
‘Precisely so, Fist.’ But we
really shouldn’t be having this conversation, should we? Because we could swap
positions and apart from the drink, not a word need be changed. The real
difference is, I lose nothing by their disgust, whereas you … ‘Do we await
the Letherii contingent, Fist?’
‘Simple courtesy, High Priest.’
You liked that idea, did you?
Enough to latch on to it. Fine. ‘Then I will keep you company for a time,
at least until their approach.’
‘Don’t leave it too long,’ Blistig
said. ‘You’d give a bad impression.’
‘No doubt, and I shall not overstay
the moment.’
‘In fact,’ resumed Blistig, ‘I see
the other Fists on their way. If you want your choice of seat in the tent, High
Priest, best go in now.’
Well now, I can happily latch on
to that. ‘Tactical, Fist. I shall heed your advice.’ Bowing, he turned and
strode between the two guards. Catching the eye of one, he winked.
And received nothing in return.
Lostara Yil turned at the shout to
see four marines approaching her. A Dal Honese sergeant, what was his name? Balm.
Three soldiers trailed him, presumably what was left of his squad. ‘You want
something, Sergeant? Be quick, I’m on my way to the command tent.’
‘So are we,’ Balm said. ‘Got a
healer here who maybe could do something for her.’
‘Sergeant, it doesn’t work that way—’
‘It might,’ said the tall soldier
with the scarred neck, his voice thin, the sound of stone whetting iron.
‘Explain.’
Another soldier said, ‘We’re
thinking he’s using an Elder Warren, Captain.’
‘A what? How in Hood’s name can that
be?’
The healer seemed to choke on
something, and then he stepped forward. ‘It’s worth my trying, sir. I think
Widdershins is right this time, for a change.’
Lostara considered for a moment,
before nodding. ‘Follow me.’
Marines weren’t in the habit of
wasting people’s time, and asking to step into the presence of the Adjunct was,
for most of them, far from a feverish ambition. So they think they’ve worked
something out. It’d be worth seeing if they’re right. Her headaches are getting
worse – you can see it.
The command tent came into view, and
she saw the Fists gathered at the entrance. They noted her approach and
whatever desultory conversation had been going on a moment earlier fell away. Fine
then, even you. Go ahead. ‘Fists,’ she said, ‘if you would be so good as to
clear a path. These marines have an appointment with the Adjunct.’
‘First I’ve heard of it,’ said
Kindly.
‘Well, as I recall,’ said Lostara, ‘the
remaining heavies and marines are now under the command of Captain Fiddler, and
he answers only to the Adjunct.’
‘I mean to address that with the
Adjunct,’ said Kindly.
There’s no point. ‘That will
have to wait until after the parley, Fist.’ Gesturing, she led the marines
between the company commanders. And will you all stop staring? Their
attention tightened the muscles of her neck as she walked past, and it was a
relief to duck into the tent’s shadowed entranceway.
Most of the interior canvas walls
had been removed, making the space seem vast. Only at the far end was some
privacy maintained for the Adjunct’s sleeping area, with a series of weighted
curtains stretching from one side to the other. The only occupant Lostara could
see was Banaschar, sitting on a long bench with his back to the outer wall,
arms crossed and seemingly dozing. There was a long table and two more benches,
and nothing else, not even a lantern. No, no lantern. The light stabs her
like a knife.
As the squad drew up behind Lostara,
one of the curtains was drawn back.
Adjunct Tavore stepped into view.
Even from a distance of close to ten
paces Lostara could see the sheen of sweat on that pallid brow. Gods, if the
army saw this, they’d melt like snow in the fire. Vanish on the wind.
‘What are these marines doing here,
Captain?’ The words were weak, the tone wandering. ‘We await formal guests.’
‘This squad’s healer thinks he can
do something for you, Adjunct.’
‘Then he is a fool.’
The soldier in question stepped
forward. ‘Adjunct. I am Corporal Deadsmell, Ninth Squad. My warren was Hood’s.’
Her bleached eyes fluttered. ‘If I
understand the situation, Corporal, then you have my sympathy.’
He seemed taken aback. ‘Well, thank
you, Adjunct. The thing is …’ He held up his hands and Lostara gasped as a
flood of icy air billowed out around the healer. Frost limned the peaked
ceiling. Deadsmell’s breaths flowed in white streams.
The mage, Widdershins, said, ‘Omtose
Phellack, Adjunct. Elder.’
Tavore was perfectly still, as if
frozen in place. Her eyes narrowed on the healer. ‘You have found a Jaghut for
a patron, Deadsmell?’
To that question the man seemed at a
loss for an answer.
‘The God of Death is no more,’ Widdershins
said, his teeth chattering as the temperature in the chamber plummeted. ‘But it
may be that Hood himself ain’t quite as dead as we all thought he was.’
‘We thought that, did we?’ Tavore’s
lips thinned as she regarded Deadsmell. ‘Healer, approach.’
One hand twisting tight to keep the
man upright, Balm guided Deadsmell back outside. Throatslitter and Widdershins
closed in from either side, the looks on their faces fierce, as if they were
moments from drawing weapons should anyone come close.
The Fists backed away as one, and
the sergeant scowled at them all. ‘Make room if you please, sirs. Oh, and she’ll
see you now.’ Without waiting a reply, Balm tugged Deadsmell forward, the
healer staggering – his clothes sodden as frost and ice melted in the morning
heat. Twenty paces away, behind a sagging supply tent, the sergeant finally
halted. ‘Sit down, Deadsmell. Gods below, tell me this’ll pass.’
The healer slumped to the ground.
His head sank and the others waited for the man to be sick. Instead, they heard
something like a sob. Balm stared at Throatslitter, and then at Widdershins,
but by their expressions they were as baffled as he was. He crouched down, one
hand resting lightly on Deadsmell’s back – he could feel the shudders pushing
through.
The healer wept for some time.
No one spoke.
When the sobs began to subside, Balm
leaned closer. ‘Corporal, what in Togg’s name is going on with you?’
‘I – I can’t explain, Sergeant.’
‘The healing worked,’ said Balm. ‘We
all saw it.’
He nodded, still not lifting his
head.
‘So … what?’
‘She let down her defences, just for
a moment. Let me in, Sergeant. She had to, so I could heal the damage – and
gods, was there damage! Stepping into view – that must have taken everything
she had. Standing, talking …’ he shook his head. ‘I saw inside. I saw—’
He broke down all over again,
shaking with vast, overwhelming sobs.
Balm remained crouched at his side.
Widdershins and Throatslitter stood forming a kind of barrier facing outward.
There was nothing to do but wait.
In the moments before the Fists
trooped inside, Lostara Yil stood facing Tavore. She struggled to keep her
voice steady, calm. ‘Welcome back, Adjunct.’
Tavore slowly drew a deep breath. ‘Your
thoughts, High Priest?’
To one side, Banaschar lifted his
head. ‘I’m too cold to think, Adjunct.’
‘Omtose Phellack. Have you felt the
footfalls of the Jaghut, Banaschar?’
The ex-priest shrugged. ‘So Hood had
a back door. Should we really be surprised? That devious shit of a god was
never one for playing straight.’
‘Disingenuous, High Priest.’
His face twisted. ‘Think hard on
where your gifts come from, Adjunct.’
‘At last,’ she retorted, ‘some sound
advice from you, High Priest. Almost … sober.’
If he planned on a reply, he bit it
off when Kindly, Sort and Blistig entered the chamber.
There was a stretch of silence, and
then Faradan Sort snorted and said, ‘And here I always believed a chilly
reception was just a—’
‘I am informed,’ cut in the Adjunct,
‘that our guests are on their way. Before they arrive, I wish each of you to
report on the disposition of your soldiers. Succinctly, please.’
The Fists stared.
Lostara Yil glanced over at
Banaschar, and saw something flickering in his eyes as he studied the Adjunct.
Their approach took them down the
north avenue of the Malazan encampment, winding down the crooked track between
abattoir tents, where the stench of butchered animals was rank in the
fly-swarmed air. Atri-Ceda Aranict rode in silence beside Commander Brys,
hunched against the bleating of myrid and lowing of rodara, the squeal of
terrified pigs and the moaning of cattle. Creatures facing slaughter well
understood their fate, and the sound of their voices crowding the air was a
torment.
‘Ill chosen,’ muttered Brys, ‘this
route. My apologies, Atri-Ceda.’
Two soldiers crossed their path,
wearing heavy blood-drenched aprons. Their faces were flat, expressionless.
Their hands dripped gore.
‘Armies bathe in blood,’ said
Aranict. ‘That is the truth of it, isn’t it, Commander?’
‘I fear we all bathe in it,’ he
replied. ‘Cities permit us to hide from that bleak truth, I think.’
‘What would it be like, I wonder, if
we all ate only vegetables?’
‘We’d break all the land and the
wild animals would have nowhere to live,’ Brys replied.
‘So we should see these domesticated
beasts as sacrifices in the name of wildness.’
‘You could,’ he said, ‘if it helps.’
‘I’m not sure it does.’
‘Nor am I.’
‘I think I am too soft for all this,’
she concluded. ‘I have a sentimental streak. Maybe you can hide from the
slaughter itself, but if you possess any imagination at all, well, there’s no
real hiding, is there?’
They drew closer to a broad
intersection, and opposite them a sizeable troop of riders was converging on
the same place, coming up from the south track. ‘Well now,’ said Brys, ‘are
those Bolkando royal standards?’
‘Seems the queen has taken her
escort duties well beyond her kingdom’s borders.’
‘Yes, most curious. Shall we await
them?’
‘Why not?’
They reined in at the intersection.
The queen’s entourage was oversized,
yet as it drew closer Brys frowned. ‘Those are Evertine regulars, I think,’ he
said. ‘Not an officer among them.’
In addition to these hardened
soldiers, three Barghast warriors rode close to Abrastal, while off to the
right rode two Khundryl women, one of them seven or eight months pregnant. On
the left was a pair of armoured foreigners – the Perish? Aranict drew a sharp
breath. ‘That must be Mortal Sword Krughava. She alone could command a palace
tapestry.’
Brys grunted. ‘I know what you mean.
I have seen a few hard women in my time, but that one … formidable indeed.’
‘I doubt I could even lift that
sword at her belt.’
With a gesture Queen Abrastal halted
the entire troop. She said something to one of her soldiers, and suddenly the
veterans were all dismounting, lifting satchels from their saddle horns and
setting out into the Malazan camp. Aranict watched the soldiers fanning out,
apparently seeking squad camps. ‘What are they doing?’
Brys shook his head. ‘I’m not sure.’
‘They’ve brought … bottles.’
Brys Beddict grunted, and then
tapped his horse’s flanks. Aranict followed suit.
‘Commander Brys Beddict,’ said Queen
Abrastal, settling back in her saddle. ‘We finally meet. Tell me, does your
brother know where you are?’
‘Highness, does your husband?’
Her teeth flashed. ‘I doubt it. But
isn’t this better than our meeting in anger?’
‘Agreed, Highness.’
‘Now, barring this Gilk oaf at my
side and of course you, it seems this will be a gathering of women. Do you
quake in your boots, Prince?’
‘If I am, I am man enough to not
admit it, Highness. Will you be so kind as to perform introductions?’
Abrastal removed her heavy gauntlets
and gestured to her right. ‘From the Khundryl, Hanavat, wife to Warleader Gall,
and with her Shelemasa, bodyguard and One of the Charge.’
Brys tilted his head to both women. ‘Hanavat.
We were witness to the Charge.’ His gaze momentarily flicked to Shelemasa, then
back to Hanavat. ‘Please, if you will, inform your husband that I was shamed by
his courage and that of the Burned Tears. Seeing the Khundryl stung me to
action. I would he understand that all that the Letherii were subsequently able
to achieve in relieving the Bonehunters is set in humble gratitude at the
Warleader’s feet.’
Hanavat’s broad, fleshy face
remained expressionless. ‘Most generous words, Prince. My husband shall be
told.’
The awkwardness of that reply hung
in the dusty air for a moment, and then Queen Abrastal gestured to the Perish. ‘Mortal
Sword Krughava and Shield Anvil Tanakalian, of the Grey Helms.’
Once again Brys tilted his head. ‘Mortal
Sword. Shield Anvil.’
‘You stood in our place six days
ago,’ said Krughava, her tone almost harsh. ‘This is now an open wound upon the
souls of my brothers and sisters. We grieve at the sacrifice you suffered in
our stead. This is not your war, after all, yet you stood firm. You fought with
valour. Should the opportunity ever arise, sir, we shall in turn stand in your
place. This the Perish Grey Helms avow.’
Brys Beddict seemed at a loss.
Aranict cleared her throat and said,
‘You have humbled the prince, Mortal Sword. Shall we now present ourselves to
the Adjunct?’
Queen Abrastal collected up her
reins and swung her mount on to the track leading to the camp’s centre. ‘Will
you ride at my side, Prince?’
‘Thank you,’ Brys managed.
Aranict dropped her mount just
behind the two, and found herself riding alongside the ‘Gilk oaf’.
He glanced across at her and his
broad, scarified face was solemn. ‘That Mortal Sword,’ he muttered low, ‘she
comes across with all the soft sweetness of a mouthful of quartz. Well done to
your commander for recovering.’
‘Thank you.’
‘Don’t turn round, but if you did
you would see tears on the face of Hanavat. I think I like your commander. I am
Spax, Warchief of the Gilk Barghast.’
‘Atri-Ceda Aranict.’
‘That means High Mage Aranict, yes?’
‘I suppose it does. Warchief, those
Evertine soldiers who have gone out among the Malazans – what are they doing?’
Spax reached up and made a clawing
gesture beneath his eyes. ‘What are they doing, Atri-Ceda? Spirits below, they
are being human.’
BOOK TWO
ALL THE TAKERS
OF MY DAYS
Well enough she faces away
Walking past these dripping thrones
No one knows where the next foot
Falls
When we stumble in the shadows
Our standards bow to wizened winds
I saw that look beneath the rim
Of blistered iron
And it howled to the men kneeling
In the square and the dogs sleep on
In the cool foot of the wall, no fools there
She was ever looking elsewhere
Like a disenchanted damsel
A shift of her shoulder
Sprawls corpses into her wake
No matter
There was a child dream once
You remember well
Was she the mother or did that tit
Seep seduction?
All these thrones I built with my own
Hands
Labours of love thin over ragged nails
I wanted benediction, or the slip away
Of clothes, whichever bends my way
Behind her back
Oh we were guards then, stern sentinels,
And these grilled masks smelling of blood
Now sweat something old
We never knew what we were guarding
We never do and never will
But I swear to you all:
I will die at its feet before I take a step inside
Call me duty and be done with it
Or roll from your tongue that sweet curl
That is valour
While the dogs twitch in dream
Like children left lying
Underfoot
Adjunct
Hare Ravage
CHAPTER FIVE
She was dying but we carried her
down to the shore. There was light stretched like skin over her pain, but it
was thin and fast fraying. None of us dared note in any whisper of irony, how
she who was named Awakening Dawn was now fading in this morning’s wretched rise.
Her weak gestures had brought her
down here, where the silver waves fell like rain and the froth at the curling
foot was flecked crimson. Bodies bloated and pale fanned limbs in the shallows,
and we wondered at the fitness of her last command.
Is it suit to face your slayer? Soon
enough I will answer that for myself. We can hear the legions mustering again
behind the flowing wall, and the others are drawing back to ready their rough
line. So few left. Perhaps this is what she came to see, before the killing
light dried her eyes.
Shake fragment, Kharkanas, Author
unknown
THE BLACK LACQUERED AMPHORA EMERGED
FROM THE SIDE DOOR AND skidded, rather than rolled, diagonally across the
corridor. It struck the base of the marble banister at the top of the stairs,
and the crack echoed sharp as a split skull before the huge vessel tilted and
pitched down the steps. Shattering, it flung its shards in a glistening spray
down the stone flight all the way to the main floor. Sparkling dust spun and
twisted for a time, before settling like flecks of frost.
Withal walked over to the edge of
the steps and looked down. ‘That,’ he said under his breath, ‘was rather
spectacular.’ He turned at a sound behind him.
Captain Brevity was leaning out from
the doorway, glancing round until she spotted Withal. ‘You’d better come in,’
she said.
‘I was doing just that,’ he replied.
‘Five strides closer and she’d be a widow.’
Brevity made a face he couldn’t
quite read, and then edged to one side to let him pass.
The throne room was still a chamber
of ghosts. Black stone and black wood, the crimson and onyx mosaic of the floor
dulled with dust and dried leaves that had wandered in from some high window.
It seemed to hold nothing of the now brimming power of the Teronderai, the holy
sepulchre of Mother Dark, yet for all that Withal felt diminished as he stepped
through the side entrance and edged out towards the centre of the room.
The throne was on his right, raised
on a knee-high dais that was, he realized, the vast stump of a blackwood tree.
Roots snaked down to sink into the surrounding floor. The throne itself had
been carved from the bole, a simple, almost ascetic chair. Perhaps it had once
been plush, padded and bold in rich fabrics, but not even the tacks remained.
His wife stood just to the other
side of the throne, her arms crossed, now dragging her glare from Yan Tovis –
who stood facing the throne as would a supplicant – to Withal. ‘Finally,’ she
snapped, ‘my escort. Take me out of here, husband.’
Yan Tovis, queen of the Shake,
cleared her throat. ‘Leaving solves nothing—’
‘Wrong. It solves everything.’
The woman facing her sighed. ‘This
is the throne of the Tiste Andii, and Kharkanas is the capital of the Hold of
Darkness. You are home, Highness—’
‘Stop calling me that!’
‘But I must, for you are of royal
blood—’
‘We were all of royal blood
in this infernal city!’ Sandalath Drukorlat pointed a finger at Yan Tovis. ‘As
were the Shake!’
‘But our realm was and is the Shore,
Highness, whereas Kharkanas is yours. But if it must be that there be only one
queen, then I freely abdicate—’
‘You will not. They are your
people! You led them here, Yan Tovis. You are their queen.’
‘Upon this throne, Highness, only
one of royal Tiste Andii blood can make a true claim. And, as we both well
know, there is only one Tiste Andii in this entire realm, and that is you.’
‘Fine, and over whom do I rule?
Heaps of dust? Mouldy bones? Blood stains on the floor? And where is my High
Priestess, in whose eyes Mother Dark shines? Where is my Blind Gallan, my
brilliant, tortured court fool? Where are my rivals, my hostages, my servants
and soldiers? Handmaidens and— Oh, never mind. This is pointless. I don’t want
that throne.’
‘Nonetheless,’ said Yan Tovis.
‘Very well, I accept it, and my first
act is to abdicate and yield the throne and all of Wise Kharkanas to you, Queen
Yan Tovis. Captain Brevity, find us a royal seal – there must be one lying
around here somewhere – and parchment and ink and wax.’
The queen of the Shake was smiling,
but it was a sad smile. ‘“Wise Kharkanas.” I had forgotten that honorific.
Queen Sandalath Drukorlat, I respectfully decline your offer. My duties are
upon the Shore.’ She nodded to Brevity. ‘Until such time that other Tiste Andii
return to Kharkanas, I humbly submit Captain Brevity here to act as your
Chancellor, Palace Guard Commander, and whatever other duties of organization
as are required to return this palace to its former glory.’
Sandalath snorted. ‘Oh, clever. And
I suppose a few hundred of your Shake are waiting outside with mops and
buckets.’
‘Letherii, actually. Islanders and
other refugees. They have known great privation, Highness, and will view the
privilege of palace employment with humility and gratitude.’
‘And if I turn them all away? Oh yes,
I see the traps you’ve set around me, Yan Tovis. You intend to guilt me on to
that accursed throne. But what if I am a harder woman than you?’
‘The burden of rule hardens us both,
Highness.’
Sandalath cast Withal a beseeching
look. ‘Talk her out of this, husband.’
‘I would if I thought I had any
chance of swaying her, beloved.’ He strode to the base of the dais, eyeing the
throne. ‘Needs a cushion or two, I should think, before you could hope to sit
there for any length of time.’
‘And you as my consort? Gods, don’t
you think I could do better?’
‘Undoubtedly,’ he replied. ‘For the
moment, however, you are stuck with me, and,’ he added with a wave at the
throne, ‘with this. So sit down and make it official, Sand, so Yan Tovis can
kneel or curtsey or whatever it is she has to do, and Brevity can get on with
scrubbing the floors and beating the tapestries.’
The Tiste Andii woman cast about, as
if seeking another amphora, but the nearest one stood perched on a stone cup
near the side door – now an orphan, Withal saw, noting the unoccupied stone
base on the entrance’s other side. He waited to see if she’d make the fierce
march to repeat her gesture of frustration and anger, but all at once his wife
seemed to subside. Thank Mael. That would have made her look ridiculous.
Decorum, beloved, as befits the Queen of Darkness. Aye, some things you can’t
run from.
‘There will be two queens in this
realm,’ Sandalath said, coming round to slump down in the throne. ‘Don’t even
think of curtseying, Tovis.’ She eyed the Shake woman with something close to a
glower. ‘Other Tiste Andii, you said.’
‘Surely they have sensed Mother Dark’s
return,’ Yan Tovis replied. ‘Surely, they too understand that the diaspora is
at last at an end.’
‘Just how many Tiste Andii do you
imagine are left?’
‘I don’t know. But I do know this:
those who live shall return here. Just as the Shake have done. Just as you have
done.’
‘Good. First one gets here can have
this throne and all that goes with it. Husband, start building us a cottage in
the woods. Make it remote. No, make it impossible to reach. And tell none but
me where it is.’
‘A cottage.’
‘Yes. With a drawbridge and a moat,
and pitfalls and sprawl-traps.’
‘I’ll start drawing up plans.’
Yan Tovis said, ‘Queen Sandalath, I
beg your leave.’
‘Yes. Sooner the better.’
The ex-Letherii officer tilted her
head, wheeled and strode from the chamber.
Captain Brevity stepped forward to
face the throne and settled on one knee. ‘Highness, shall I summon the palace
staff?’
‘In here? Abyss take me, no. Start
with all the other rooms. Go on. You are, er, dismissed. Husband! Don’t even
think of leaving.’
‘The thought had not even occurred
to me.’ And he managed to hold his neutral expression against her withering
scepticism.
As soon as they were alone,
Sandalath sprang from the throne as if she’d just found one of those ancient
tacks. ‘That bitch!’
Withal flinched. ‘Yan—’
‘No, not her – she’s right, the cow.
I’m stuck with this, for the moment. Besides, why should she be the only one to
suffer the burden of rule, as she so quaintly put it?’
‘Well, put it that way, and I can
see how she might be in need of a friend.’
‘An equal of sorts, yes. The problem
is, I don’t fit. I’m not her equal. I didn’t lead ten thousand people to this
realm. I barely got you here.’
He shrugged. ‘But here we are.’
‘And she knew.’
‘Who?’
‘That bitch Tavore. Somehow, she
knew this would happen—’
‘There’s no proof of that, Sand,’
Withal replied. ‘It was Fiddler’s reading, not hers.’
She made a dismissive gesture. ‘Technicalities,
Withal. She trapped me is what she did. I should never have been there. No, she
knew there was a card waiting for me. There’s no other explanation.’
‘But that’s no explanation at all,
Sand.’
The look she threw him was
miserable. ‘You think I don’t know that?’
Withal hesitated. ‘Listen,’ he said,
‘your kin are coming. Are you really certain you want me standing there at your
side when they do?’
Her eyes narrowed. ‘What you’re
really saying is: do I want to be standing at her side when they arrive? A mere
human, a shortlived plaything to the Queen of Darkness. That’s how you think
they’ll see you, isn’t it?’
‘Well …’
‘You’re wrong. It will be the
opposite and that might be just as bad. They’ll see you for what you are: a
threat.’
‘A what?’
She regarded him archly. ‘Your kind
are the inheritors – of everything. And here you are, along with all those
Letherii and blood-thin Shake, squatting in Kharkanas. Is there anywhere you
damned bastards don’t end up sooner or later? That’s what they’ll be thinking.’
‘Mael knows, they’ve got a point,’
he said, looking away, down the length of the throne room, imagining a score or
more regal Tiste Andii standing there, eyes hard, faces like stone. ‘I’d better
leave.’
‘No you won’t. Mother Dark—’ Abruptly
she shut her mouth.
He turned his head, studied her. ‘Your
goddess is whispering in your ear, Sand? About me?’
‘You’ll be needed,’ she said, once
more eyeing the lone amphora. ‘All of you. The Letherii refugees. The Shake.
And it’s not fair. It’s not fair!’
He took her arm as she moved to
assault the crockery. Pulled her round until she was in his arms. Startled,
terrified, he held her as she wept. Mael! What awaits us here?
But there was no answer, and his god
had never felt so far away.
Yedan Derryg dragged the tip of the
Hust sword, making a line in the crumbled bones of the Shore. The cascading
wall of light flowed in reflection along the length of the ancient blade, like
tears of milk. ‘We are children here,’ he muttered.
Captain Pithy hawked phlegm, stepped
forward and spat into the wall, and then turned to face him. ‘Something tells
me we’d better grow up fast, Watch.’
Yedan clenched his teeth, chewed on
a half-dozen possible responses to her grim observation, before saying, ‘Yes.’
‘The faces in the wash,’ said Pithy,
nodding at the eternally descending rain of light rearing before them, ‘there’s
more of ’em. And seems they’re getting closer, as if clawing their way through.
I’m expecting t’see an arm thrust out any time now.’ She hitched her thumbs in
her weapon belt. ‘Thing is, sir, what happens then?’
He stared into the Lightfall. Tried
remembering memories that weren’t his own. The grinding of molars sounded like
distant thunder in his head. ‘We fight.’
‘And that’s why you’ve recruited
everyone with arms and legs into this army of yours.’
‘Not everyone. The Letherii
islanders—’
‘Can smell trouble better than
anyone. Convicted criminals, almost the whole lot. It’s a case of the nerves
all around, sir, and soon as they figure things out, they’ll start stepping up.’
He eyed the woman. ‘What makes you
so sure, Captain?’
‘Soon as they figure things out, I
said.’
‘What things?’
‘That there’s nowhere to run to, for
one,’ she replied. ‘And that there won’t be any bystanders, no – what’s the
word? Non-combatants. We got us a fight for our very lives ahead. Do you deny
it?’
He shook his head, studied the play
of light on the blade again. ‘We will stand on the bones of our ancestors.’ He
glanced at Pithy. ‘We have a queen to protect.’
‘Don’t you think your sister will be
right here in the front line?’
‘My sister? No, not her. The queen
of Kharkanas.’
‘It’s her we’re gonna die
protecting? I don’t get it, sir. Why her?’
He grimaced, lifted the sword and
slowly sheathed it. ‘We are of the Shore. The bones at our feet are us.
Our history. Our meaning. Here we will stand. It is our purpose.’ Memories not
his own, yet still they stirred. ‘Our purpose.’
‘Yours maybe. The rest of us just
want to live another day. Get on with things. Making babies, tilling the
ground, getting rich, whatever.’
He shrugged, eyes now on the wall. ‘Privileges,
Captain, we cannot at the moment afford to entertain.’
‘I ain’t happy about the thought of
dying for some Tiste Andii queen,’ Pithy said, ‘and I doubt I’m alone in that.
So maybe I take back what I said earlier. There could be trouble ahead.’
‘No. There won’t.’
‘Plan on cutting off a few heads?’
‘If necessary.’
She muttered a curse. ‘I hope not.
Like I said before, so long as they all realize there’s nowhere to go. Should
be enough, shouldn’t it?’ When no answer was forthcoming she cleared her throat
and said, ‘Well, it comes down to saying the right things at the right time.
Now, Watch Derryg, you might be an Errant-shitting warrior, and a decent
soldier, too, but you’re lacking the subtleties of command—’
‘There are no subtleties in command,
Captain. Neither my sister nor me is one for rousing speeches. We make our
expectations plain and we expect them to be met. Without complaint. Without
hesitation. It’s not enough to fight to stay alive. We must fight determined to
win.’
‘People ain’t stupid – well, forget
I said that. Plenty of ’em are. But something tells me there’s a difference
between fighting to stay alive and fighting for a cause bigger than your own
life, or even the lives of your loved ones, or your comrades. A difference, but
for the life of me I couldn’t say what it is.’
‘You were always a soldier, Captain?’
Pithy snorted. ‘Not me. I was a
thief who thought she was smarter than she really was.’
Yedan considered that for a time.
Before him, blurred faces pushed through the light, mouths opening, expressions
twisting into masks of rage. Hands stretched to find his throat, clutched
empty. He could reach out and touch the wall, if he so chose. Instead, he
observed the enemy before him. ‘What cause, Captain, would you fight for? In
the manner you describe – beyond one’s own life or those of loved ones?’
‘Now that’s the question, isn’t it?
For us Letherii, this ain’t our home. Maybe we could come to want it to be, in
time, a few generations soaking our blood into the land. But there won’t be any
time. Not enough for that.’
‘If that is your answer—’
‘No it ain’t. I’m working on it,
sir. It’s called thinking things through. A cause, then. Can’t be some
Tiste Andii queen or her damned throne, or even her damned city. Can’t be Yan
Tovis, even though she brought ’em all through and so saved their lives.
Memories die like beached fish and soon enough just the smell will do t’drive ’em
away. Can’t be you neither.’
‘Captain,’ said Yedan Derryg, ‘if
the enemy destroy us, they will march down the Road of Gallan. Unobstructed,
they will breach the gate to your own world, and they will lay waste to every
human civilization, until nothing remains but ash. And then they will slay the
gods themselves. Your gods.’
‘If they’re that nasty, how can we
hope to hold ’em here?’
Yedan nodded at the Lightfall. ‘Because,
Captain, there is only one way through. This stretch of beach. A thousand paces
wide. Only here is the wall scarred and thin from past wounds. Only here can
they hope to break the barrier. We bar this door, Captain, and we save your
world.’
‘And just how long are we supposed
to hold ’em back?’
He ruminated for a moment, and then
he said, ‘As long as needed, Captain.’
She rubbed at the back of her neck,
squinted at Yedan for a time, and then looked away. ‘How can you do that, sir?’
‘Do what?’
‘Stand there, so close, just
watching them – can’t you see their faces? Can’t you feel their hatred? What
they want to do to you?’
‘Of course.’
‘Yet there you stand.’
‘They serve to remind me, Captain.’
‘Of what?’
‘Of why I exist.’
She hissed between her teeth. ‘You
just sent a chill right through me.’
‘I asked about a worthy cause.’
‘Yeah, saving the world. That might
work.’
He shot her a look. ‘Might?’
‘True, you’d think saving your world
is a good enough reason for doing anything and everything, wouldn’t you?’
‘Isn’t it?’
‘People being what people are … we’ll
see.’
‘You lack faith, Captain.’
‘What I lack is proof to the
contrary, sir. I ain’t seen it yet, in all my years. What do you think makes
criminals in the first place?’
‘Stupidity and greed.’
‘Besides those? I’ll tell you. It’s
looking around, real carefully. It’s seeing what’s really there, and who wins
every time, and it’s deciding that despair tastes like shit. It’s deciding to
do whatever it takes to sneak through, to win what you can for yourself. It’s
also condemning your fellow humans to whatever misery finds them – even if that
misery is by your own hand. To hurt another human being is to announce your
hatred of humanity – but mostly your thinking is about hating back what already
hates you. A thief steals telling herself she’s evening out crooked scales.
That’s how we sleep at night, y’see.’
‘A fine speech, Captain.’
‘Tried making it short as I could,
sir.’
‘So indeed you are without faith.’
‘I have faith that what’s worst in
humanity isn’t hard to find – it’s all around us, sour as a leaking bladder,
day after day. It’s the stink we all get used to. As for what’s best … maybe,
but I wouldn’t push all my stacks of coin into the centre of the table on that
bet.’ She paused and then said, ‘Thinking on it, there’s one thing you could do
to buy their souls.’
‘And that is?’
‘Empty out the palace treasury and
bury it ten paces up the beach. And make a show of it. Maybe even announce that
it’s, you know, the Sword’s Gold. To be divided up at day’s end.’
‘And would they fight to save the
soldier beside them? I doubt it.’
‘Hmm, good point. Then announce a
fixed amount – and whatever is unclaimed on account of the soldier being dead
goes back into the treasury.’
‘Well, Captain, you could petition
the Queen of Darkness.’
‘Oh, I can do better. Sister Brevity’s
the treasurer now.’
‘You are a cynical woman, Captain
Pithy.’
‘In case saving the world don’t
work, that’s all. Make getting rich the reward and they’ll eat their own
children before backing a single step.’
‘And which of the two causes would
you more readily give your life for, Captain?’
‘Neither, sir.’
His brows lifted.
She spat again. ‘I was a thief once.
Plenty of hatred then, both ways. But then I walked a step behind your sister
and watched her bleed for us all. And then there was you, too, for that matter.
That rearguard action that saved all our skins. So now,’ she scowled at the
Lightfall, ‘well, I’ll stand here, and I’ll fight until the fight’s left them
or it’s left me.’
Yedan studied her in earnest now. ‘And
why would you do that, Pithy Islander?’
‘Because it’s the right thing to do,
Yedan Derryg.’
Rightness. The word was
lodged in Yan Tovis’s throat like shards of glass. She could taste blood in her
mouth, and all that had seeped down into her stomach seemed to have solidified
into something fist-sized, heavy as stone.
The Shore invited her, reached out
and clawed at her with its need. A need it yearned to share with her. You
stand with me, Queen. As you once did, as you shall do again. You are the Shake
and the Shake are of the Shore, and I have tasted your blood all my life.
Queen, I thirst again. Against
this enemy, there shall be Rightness upon the Shore, and you will stand, and
you will yield not a step.
But there was betrayal, long ago.
How could the Liosan forget? How could they set it aside? Judgement, the
coarse, thorn-studded brambles of retribution, they could snag an entire
people, and as the blood streamed down each body was lifted higher, lifted from
the ground. The vicious snare carried them into the righteous sky.
Reason could not reach that high,
and in the heavens madness spun untamed.
Rightness rages on both sides of
the wall. Who can hope to halt what is coming? Not the Queen of Darkness, not
the queen of the Shake. Not Yedan Derryg – oh no, my brother strains for that
moment. He draws his wretched sword again and again. He smiles at the Lightfall’s
lurid play on the blade. He stands before the silent shrieking insanity of
hatred made manifest, and he does not flinch.
But, and this was the impossible
contradiction, her brother had not once in his life felt a single spasm of
hatred – his soul was implacably incapable of such an emotion. He could stand
in the fire and not burn. He could stand before those deformed faces, those
grasping hands, and … and … nothing.
Oh, Yedan, what waits within you?
Have you surrendered completely to the need of the Shore? Are you one with it?
Do you know a single moment of doubt? Does it? She could understand the
seductive lure of that invitation. Absolution through surrender, the utter
abjection of the self. She understood it, yes, but she did not trust it.
When that which offers blessing
predicates such on the absolute obeisance of the supplicant … demands, in fact,
the soul’s willing enslavement – no, how could such a force stand tall in moral
probity?
The Shore demands our surrender
to it. Demands our enslavement in the glory of its love, the sweet purity of
its eternal blessing.
There is something wrong with
that. Something … monstrous. You offer us the freedom of choice, yet avow that
to turn away is to lose all hope of glory, of salvation. What sort of freedom
is that?
She had held that her faith in the
Shore set her above other worshippers, those quivering mortals kneeling before
fickle carnate gods. The Shore was without a face. The Shore was not a god, but
an idea, the eternal conversation of elemental forces. Changeable, yet for ever
unchangeable, the binding of life and death itself. Not something to be
bargained with, not a thing with personality, mercurial and prone to spite. The
Shore, she had believed, made no demands.
But now here she was, feeling the
desiccated wind rising up from the bone strand, watching her brother speaking
to Pithy, seeing her brother less than a stride away from Lightfall’s terrible
fury, drawing his sword again and again. And the First Shore howled in her
soul.
Here! Blessed Daughter, I am here
and with me you belong! See this wound. You and I shall close it. My bones,
your blood. The death underfoot, the life with sword in hand. You shall be my
flesh. I shall be your bone. Together we will stand. Changeable and
unchangeable.
Free and enslaved.
A figure edged up on her right, and
then another on her left. She looked to neither.
The one on the right crooned
something melodic and wordless, and then said, ‘Ween decided, Queen. Skwish to
stand with the Watch, an mine to stand with you.’
‘An the Shore an the day,’ added
Skwish. ‘Lissen to it sing!’
Pully moaned again. ‘Y’ain knelled
afore the Shore, Highness. Y’ain done it yet. An be sure y’need to, afore the
breach comes.’
‘Een the queen’s got to srender,’
said Skwish. ‘T’the Shore.’
Crumbled bones into chains.
Freedom into slavery. Why did we ever agree to this bargain? It was never
equal. The blood was ours, not the Shore’s. Errant fend, even the bones came
from us!
Empty Throne, my certainty is …
gone. My faith … crumbles.
‘Don’t my people deserve better?’
Pully snorted. ‘Single droppa Shake
inem, they hear the song. They yearn t’come, t’stand—’
‘To fight,’ finished Skwish.
‘But …’ they deserve better.
‘Go down t’the Shore, Highness. Een
you tain’t above the First Shore.’
Yan Tovis grimaced. ‘You think to
force me, Pully? Skwish?’
‘If yer brother—’
‘Hadn’t killed all your allies,’ Yan
Tovis said, nodding. ‘Yes. Oddly enough, I don’t think he fully comprehended
the consequences. Did he? A hundred and more witches and warlocks … yes, they
could compel me, perhaps. But you two? No.’
‘Is a mistake, Highness.’
‘Didn’t stop you feeding on my
blood, did it? Made young again, and now you roll like sluts in every man’s
tent.’
‘Een Witchslayer says—’
‘Yes, you all say. “Kneel, O Queen.”
“Surrender to the Shore, sister.” You know, the only person here who comes
close to understanding me isn’t even human. And what did I do? I destroyed the
friendship growing between us by forcing her on to the Throne of Dark. I fear
she will never forgive me.’ Yan Tovis gestured suddenly. ‘Both of you, leave me
now.’
‘As witches we got to warn yee—’
‘And so you have, Pully. Now go,
before I call Yedan up here to finish what he started all those months ago.’
She listened to their footfalls in
the sand, and then through the grasses.
Below, on the Shore, Captain Pithy
was departing, moving off to the left, probably making her way to the Letherii
encampment. Her brother remained, though now he began walking the length of the
strand. Like a caged cat.
But remember, dear brother. The
Hust sword broke.
She lifted her gaze, studied the
hissing storm of light, high above the blurred shapes of Liosan warriors. She
was not sure, but at times lately she’d thought she’d seen vast shapes wheeling
up there.
Clouds. Thunderheads.
Rightness was a vicious word. Is
it right to demand this of us? Is it right to invite us in one breath and
threaten us in the next? Am I not queen of the Shake? Are these not my
subjects? You would I simply give them to you? Their blood, their lives?
Errant’s nudge, how I envy
Sandalath Drukorlat, the Queen with no subjects.
The liquid sky of Lightfall was a
thick, opaque swirl. No thunder-heads today. Seeing that should have relieved
her, but it didn’t.
Upon the Great Spire overlooking
Kolanse Bay, five Pures ascended the steep stairs carved into the crater’s
ravaged flank. To their right, as they climbed towards the Altar of Judgement,
the slope fell away to a sheer cliff, and far below the seas thrashed, the
waters raging into foaming spume the colour of mare’s milk. Centuries of
pounding fury had gnawed into the Spire, down to its very roots, apart from a
narrow, treacherous isthmus on the inland side.
From above, foul winds bled down,
pulled towards the waves in endless streams. At times Shriven had been poisoned
in their pilgrimage, here on the weathered pumice steps, but the Pures could
withstand such vicissitudes, and when they passed the shrivelled corpses
huddled against the stairs they simply stepped over them.
The Pure who was named Reverence led
the way. She was Eldest among those who remained in close proximity to the
Great Spire. Tall even for a Forkrul Assail, she was exceedingly gaunt, almost
skeletal. Thousands of years upon this world had turned her once white skin a
sickly grey, worn through to bruised tones around her joints, including those
of her double-hinged jaw and the vertical epiphysis that bisected her face from
chin to forehead. One eye had been blinded centuries past in a battle with a
Jaghut, a tusk slash as they struggled to tear out each other’s throat, and the
ferocity of that bite had dented the bones of the socket, collapsing the brow
ridge on that side.
She favoured her right leg, as the
effort of the ascent shot lancing pain through her left hip. A T’lan Imass
sword-thrust had very nearly disembowelled her on another rise of stone steps,
on a distant continent and long, long ago. Even as the flint weapon stabbed
into her, she had torn the warrior’s head from its shoulders. The demands of
adjudication are not for the weak, she would say from time to time,
whispered as something akin to a mantra, tempering true once more the iron of
her will.
Yes, the climb had been a long one,
for them all, but soon the summit would heave into view, pure and bristling,
and the final death-blows would be delivered. Judgement upon humanity.
Judgement upon this broken, wounded world. We shall cleanse. It is not what we
chose for ourselves. This burden in truth does not belong to us, but who will
stand to defend this world? Who but the Forkrul Assail can destroy all the
humans in this realm? Who but the Forkrul Assail can slay their venal gods?
The oldest justice of all is the
justice of the possible. Hunter and prey, death or escape, to feed or to
starve. Each plays to what is possible and the victims strive to answer their
needs, and that is all there is. All there ever need be.
I remember grasses in the wind. I
remember skies filling with birds from horizon to horizon. I remember weeping
at the silence in the years that followed, when these furtive killers edged out
into the world and killed all they could. When they walked ancient shorelines
and thrust their greed like bone knives into new lands.
We watched. We grieved. We grew
into the iron of anger, and then rage. And now. Now, we are cold and certain.
There will be death.
Steady breaths behind her, a source
of strength, succour for her will to complete this climb, to push away the
aches, the labours of a body as battered as the earth itself. She could
remember the day peace was declared dead. The day the Forkrul Assail stood
tall, for the first time, and saw before them the future, and the necessity
they must answer.
Since then … so many unanticipated
allies.
Above, seven steps away, the edge of
the altar, the platform’s white quartzite glistening in the thin light. Drawing
upon her strength for this last effort, she pushed herself upward. And then, at
last, she stepped on to the windswept expanse. The Altar of Judgement, white as
freshly fallen snow, the carved sunburst of blood channels leading out from the
centre, cut deep, shadowed into darkness.
Reverence strode forward, loosening
her thick cloak as the heat bloomed up and out from the crater’s mouth
surrounding the Spire, rank with sulphurs. Behind her, the four other Pures
spread out, finding their own paths to the centre-stone.
Her lone eye fell to that blackened,
rotted abomination, the boulder that was – or, perhaps, encased – the heart of
an alien god. She could see no rise and fall from its mottled form, yet to set
hand upon it was to feel its stubborn life. The sky tore him apart. Flung
across half the world the flaming debris that was his body, and pieces fell and
fell, upon one continent and then another. Into the shocked seas. Ah, if there
had been more. If there had been enough to annihilate every human on this
world, not just the ones whose hubris was so brazen, whose madness reached
across the Abyss, to take this wretched thing.
Soon, they would pierce the
centre-stone, the Heart, and that alien god’s blood would flow, and the power
would … feed us. With that power they could fully open the gate of
Akhrast Korvalain; they could unleash the cleansing storm, and it would sweep
the world. Drown on your hubris, humans. It is all you deserve. Indeed,
it would finish what the Summoners in their insanity had begun.
You chain what you can use. As
the gods have done to him. But when its usefulness is at an end … what then? Do
you simply kill? Or do you squeeze the last possible drop of blood from the
carcass? Fill your belly?
Is there a use for endless pain?
Let us see, shall we?
‘Sister Reverence.’
She turned, studied the younger
woman facing her. In the few paces between them there was a gulf so vast there
was no hope of ever spanning it. ‘Sister Calm.’
‘If we are to hear naught but
reports on the disposition of our armies, Sister, was there need for this
ascent?’
‘“Need.” Now that is an interesting
word, is it not?’
Calm’s eyes remained flat, unwilling
to rise. ‘The siege belabours us, Sister. The Watered who command are
insufficient to the task.’
‘Whom do you suggest we send, Sister
Calm?’
‘Brother Diligence.’
Ah, next to me in seniority. My
closest ally. Of course. She turned to the slope-shouldered man standing
nearest the Heart. ‘Brother Diligence?’
He glanced over, his pale eyes cold
as the seas behind him. ‘I will break the defenders, Sister Reverence. None
there can hope to stand against me.’
‘It remains an option,’ murmured
Reverence.
Again, Calm did not react.
Reverence looked to the others. ‘Brother
Abide?’
‘It is known where blood soaks the
sands,’ the Mystic said, ‘that other forces are arraying against us. Beyond the
Glass Desert.’
‘We have other armies,’ said Calm. ‘Enough
to meet and defeat each one.’
‘Sister Calm is correct,’ added
Sister Equity. ‘Brother Diligence can destroy the humans who by treachery
gained the North Keep, and indeed he can return in time for us to meet the new
threats from the west.’
‘But only if we do not linger too
long in reaching a decision,’ said Calm.
And so it divides. ‘Brother
Diligence?’
‘The risk remains,’ the warrior
said, ‘that we have underestimated the commander of those invaders. After all,
they appeared as if from nowhere, and their successes to date have been …
impressive.’
‘From nowhere, yes,’ muttered
Brother Abide. ‘Cause for dismay. A warren? Most certainly. But to guide an
entire army through? Sister Calm and Sister Equity, we cannot discount the possibility
of those in the keep simply leaving the way they came, should matters prove too
precipitous. In which case, when and where will they reappear?’
‘A valid point,’ said Diligence. ‘For
as long as they are held in place, they are no threat to us.’
‘Even so,’ countered Calm, ‘your
presence and command of our besieging army will ensure that you can respond to
anything unexpected. There will come a time – there must come a time –
when it is expedient to drive them from the keep and, if possible, annihilate
them.’
‘Indeed there will,’ agreed
Reverence. ‘But as Brother Abide has noted before, we are not yet certain that
we have accounted for all the threats assembling against us.’ She gestured. ‘The
Great Spire, the Altar of Judgement, this is where we remain the most
vulnerable. Diligence in command of the Spire Army ensures the Spire and the
Heart hold inviolate.’ She paused, fixed her single eye upon Sister Calm. ‘Our
remaining Pures command the outlying armies inland. Do you suggest that, in the
end, they shall prove unequal to the task? Sister Belie? Sister Freedom?
Brothers Grave, Serenity and Aloft? Which of them falters in your regard?’
Calm glanced away. ‘I hold that it
is best to eliminate each threat as it arises, Sister Reverence.’
Reverence frowned. ‘And should the
enemy in the keep vanish as mysteriously as it arrived? Only to, perhaps,
reappear here, at the very foot of the Great Spire? With Brother Diligence
stranded at the far end of Estobanse Valley? What then?’ she asked. Yes,
best we argue here, alone, beyond the hearing of our Watered and Shriven
servants. She resumed, this time taking in all the others. ‘All of Kolanse
has been cleansed – how could we have done otherwise, when, upon reaching these
shores, we witnessed the terrible damage done to this land? Estobanse remains,
because for the moment we require that it do so. To feed the Shriven and
Watered. When the Heart is sacrificed upon this altar, brothers and sisters,
even our need for human armies will be at an end. The end of the human world
begins here – we must protect this place above all others, even Estobanse. Do
any of you deny this?’
Silence.
Reverence met Calm’s gaze. ‘Sister
Calm, in the name of your ancestors, patience.’ At that there was finally a
response. Calm’s face tightened, and she rocked as if struck. Satisfied,
Reverence blithely continued. ‘All that is required is in motion, even as we
speak. There will be rain before the storm. There must be. I ask that you set
out once more, upon the dead lands, that you be our eyes so set as to forewarn
us should any threat emerge from an unexpected quarter.’ She gestured. ‘Indeed,
take Sister Equity with you.’
‘Sound tactic,’ said Brother
Diligence, with a dry smile.
Calm bowed stiffly. ‘As you wish,
Sister Reverence.’
Catching something avid in the
younger woman’s eyes, Reverence frowned, suddenly uneasy. Ah, have I been
anticipated here? Have I stepped blind into a trap? You wish to be sent out
into the Wastes, Calm. Why? What am I unleashing?
‘Our disposition, Sister Reverence?’
Curious, she nodded. ‘As you desire.’
‘Sister Equity shall take the south
lands, then, while I journey into the west.’
Again? And what did you do there
the first time out? What did you find? ‘Very well,’ Reverence said. ‘Now,
we stand upon the Altar of Judgement, once more united in our endeavours. With
humility—’
‘Blessed Pures!’
The shout came from the edge of the
stairs, and they turned to see Watered Amiss, his face flame-flashed with
exertion. They had left him at the Third Landing, against the eastern flank of
the Spire.
Reverence strode towards him. ‘Brother,
what word do you bring us with such haste?’
He stumbled on to the altar and
pointed to the east. ‘Blessed Pures! In the harbour – ships! Many, many
ships!’
Reverence noted the alarm and
consternation in the faces of her kin, and felt a surge of satisfaction. Yes,
unseen threats assail you all now. ‘Brother Diligence, assemble the
Defenders and awaken our warren in the Watered sub-commanders. Akhrast
Korvalain shall be our bristling wall this day.’ And Sister Reverence? Ah,
well, perhaps she will be the Gate.
Calm and Equity had rushed to the
eastern edge of the altar. Both stared for a moment before Equity turned round.
‘Ships of war, kin. Grey as wolves upon the water.’
‘Shall we descend and greet them?’
Reverence asked.
Brother Diligence’s smile was cruel
and hard.
He knelt in the midst of Chaos.
Pressures descended upon him, seeking to crack his bones. Torrid winds clawed
at him, hungry to shred his soul. But he had walked here of his own accord. In
his heart, such savage challenge as to face down the Abyss itself.
All is not bound to fate. It must
not be.
All is not carved in stone,
buried deep and for ever beyond mortal sight.
There must be more. In all the
worlds, the solid laws are a prison – and I will see us freed!
He had met Chaos with fury in his
being, a bristling armour of rage proof against all it flung at him. He had
walked into the maelstrom seas of madness, and held tight to his own sanity.
And then, at last, he had stood, unbowed, alone, and argued against the
universe itself. The laws that were lies, the proofs that were false. Stone a
hand could pass through. Water that could be breathed. Air as impenetrable as a
wall. Fire to quench the deadliest thirst. Light that blinded, darkness that
revealed. The beast within that was the heart of dignity, the sentient self
that was purest savagery. In life the secret codes of death. In death the seeds
of life.
He had spoken with the elemental
forces of nature. Argued without relent. He had defended his right to an
existence torn loose from these dread, unknowable horrors.
For his efforts, the blind
uncertainty of Chaos had besieged him. How long? Centuries? Millennia? Now he
knelt, battered, his armour shattered, wounds bleeding. And still it assailed
him, sought to tear him apart.
The fissure that erupted from him
first emerged from the centre of his head, a blast of argent fire in which he
heard manic laughter. With terrible ripping sounds, the rent worked its way
down his body, unfolding his throat, peeling back each side. His breastbone
cracked in two, ribs bursting free. His stomach opened, spilling bitter fluids.
Then there was nothing. For how
long, he never knew. When cognizance returned to him, he was standing where he
had stood before, and before him two naked figures knelt, heads bowed. A man, a
woman.
My children, born of anguish and
need. My ever facile twins. My wretched faces of freedom. Chaos answers with
its most delicious joke. Pull and prod, you godlings, you will never know what
I lost in making you, this vicious bargain with uncertainty.
I will give you worlds. Yet not
one shall be your home. You are cursed to wander through them, trapped in your
eternal games. Lord and Lady of Chance. In the language of the Azathanai, Oponn.
My children, you shall never
forgive me. Nor do I deserve forgiveness. The laws are not what they seem.
Order is an illusion. It hides its lies in your very eyes, deceiving all they
see. Because to see is to change that which is seen.
No, none of us will ever see
true. We cannot. It is impossible. I give you a life without answers, my
children. Walk the realms, spread the word in your illimitable way, Oponn. Some
will welcome you. Others will not. And that, dear ones, is the joke on them.
And on us.
I had a thought.
Now see what it made.
‘Is this senility?’
The cavern shed its fluids, an
incessant trickle and drizzle. The air stank of pain.
Sechul Lath glanced over. ‘You
spoke, Errastas?’
‘You were far away. Memories
haunting you, Setch?’
They sat on boulders, the two of
them, the plumes of their breaths drifting like smoke. From somewhere in the
cavern’s depths came the sound of rushing water.
‘Hardly. After all, as you are ever
quick to point out, I am a man of modest achievements.’
‘Not a man. A god. Making your
pathetic deeds even more embarrassing.’
‘Yes,’ Sechul Lath agreed, nodding. ‘I
have many regrets.’
‘Only fools know regret,’ Errastas
said, only to undermine his assertion as he unconsciously reached up towards
his gaping eye socket. The brush of his fingers, the flinch of muscles in his
cheek.
Hiding a smile, Sechul Lath looked
away.
Kilmandaros still sat hunched,
almost folded over, in the dripping blood rain of the Otataral Dragon. When
exhaustion took her, the period of recovery could be long, interminably so in
the eyes of the Errant. Even worse, she was not yet done with this. Lifting his
gaze, Sechul Lath studied the dragon, Korabas. She is the one law amidst the
chaos of the Eleint. She is the denial of their power. She is the will set
free. It’s not enough to bleed her. She needs to die.
And not even Kilmandaros can do
that. Not with this one. At least, not now, while the gate is still sealed. She
needs to die, but she must first be freed.
Against the madness of such
contradictions, I wagered my very life. I walked into the heart of Chaos to
challenge the absurdity of existence. And for that, I was torn in two.
My modest achievement.
‘The Forkrul Assail,’ he muttered,
glancing back at Errastas. ‘They cannot be permitted to actually succeed in
what they seek to do. You must know that. The Assail do not kneel before gods,
not even Elder Ones.’
‘Their arrogance is boundless,’ the
Errant said, baring his teeth. ‘We will exploit that, dear Knuckles. Mayhap
they will slit the throats of the gods. But we are another matter.’
‘We will need K’rul before this
ends, I think.’
‘Of us all, he best understands
expedience,’ Errastas agreed.
Expedience? ‘And Mael. And
Olar—’
‘That hag has her own plans, but she
will fail.’
‘With a nudge?’
‘It won’t be hard,’ the Errant
replied. ‘A nudge? More like a tap, the gentlest of prods.’
‘Don’t be premature in that. She’ll
serve well as a distraction, for as long as possible.’
He was touching his socket again.
Seeking benediction? Unlikely.
‘Azath,’ said Sechul Lath. ‘That was
unexpected. How deep is your wound, Errastas?’
‘More indignation than blood,’ the
Errant answered, grimacing. ‘I was sorely used. Someone will pay for that.’
‘Lifestealer?’
‘Ah, Knuckles, do you think me a
fool? Challenge that one? No. Besides, there were children involved. Human
children.’
‘Easier targets, then.’
Errastas must have caught something
in Sechul’s tone, for his face darkened. ‘Don’t you dare think them innocent!’
‘I don’t,’ Sechul replied, thinking
of his own unholy spawn. ‘But it was Feather Witch who swallowed your eye, was
it not? And you say that you killed her, with your own hands. How then—’
‘Icarium’s stupid gambit in
Letheras. It’s why I never found her soul. No, she carried my eye straight to
him, the rotting bitch. And now he’s spat out fledgling warrens, and made of my
eye a Finnest for an Azath. He remains the single force of true
unpredictability in this scheme.’
‘Calm assures us otherwise.’
‘I don’t trust her.’
Finally, friend, you begin to
think clearly again. ‘Just so,’ he said.
Errastas glanced over at
Kilmandaros. ‘Can we not feed her or something? Hasten this healing?’
‘No. The wards Rake and the others
set were profound. Tearing them down damaged her deeply, in ways no sorcerous
healing can reach. Leave her in peace.’
Errastas hissed.
‘Besides,’ Sechul Lath continued, ‘they’re
not all in place yet. You know that.’
‘I have waited so long for this. I
want us to be ready when the time comes.’
‘And so we shall, Errastas.’
The Errant’s single eye fixed on
Sechul Lath. ‘Calm is not the only one I do not trust.’
‘There will be ashes and death, but
survivors will emerge. They always do. They will understand the necessity of
blood. We shall be unchallenged, Errastas.’
‘Yet you sought to betray me. You
and Kilmandaros.’
‘Betray? No.’ We dismissed you.
‘That is how I see it. How can I
not?’
‘What you fail to understand, old
friend,’ said Sechul Lath, ‘is that I don’t care about being unchallenged. I
don’t care about a new world rising from the wreckage of this one. I am happy
enough to wander the ruins. To mock those mortals who would try again.’ He
gestured. ‘Leave the world to its wild ignorance – at least life was simple
then. I turned my back on worshippers because I was done with them. Disgusted
with them. I don’t want what we had, Errastas.’
‘But I do, Setch.’
‘And you are welcome to it.’
‘What of your children?’
‘What of them?’
‘Where do you see Oponn in the world
to come?’
‘I don’t see them anywhere,’ Sechul
Lath said.
Errastas drew a sharp breath. ‘You
will kill them?’
‘What I made I can unmake.’
‘Your words please me, Knuckles.
Indeed, I am relieved.’
It wasn’t much of a life, my
children, was it? I doubt you will object overmuch. Prod and pull, yes, but in
the end – after thousands and thousands of years of that pathetic game – what
is achieved? Learned? By anyone?
Chance is a miserable bitch, a
hard bastard. It shows a smile, but it is a wolf’s smile. What is learned? Only
that every ambition must kneel to that which cannot be anticipated. And you can
duck and dodge for only so long. It’ll take you down in the end.
A man slips the noose. A
civilization steps from the path of its own hubris. Once. Twice. Thrice even.
But what of the twentieth time? The fiftieth? Triumph falters. It always does.
There was never a balance.
After all, common sense will tell
you, it’s far easier to push than it is to pull.
‘How does Kilmandaros feel,’
Errastas asked, ‘about killing her own children?’
Sechul Lath glanced over at his
mother, and then back at his companion. ‘Don’t you understand anything,
Errastas? She doesn’t feel anything.’
After a moment, the lone eye shied
away.
Now I think you understand.
What does the child want, that you
did not have first? What do you own that the child does not want? Badalle had
awoken this morning with these questions echoing in her head. The voice was a
woman’s, and then a man’s. Both delivered in the same abject tones of despair.
She sat in the sun’s light as it
bled in from the window, banishing the chill in her bones as would a lizard or
a serpent, and struggled to understand the night’s visions, the dark,
disturbing voices of strangers saying such terrible things.
It is what is passed on, I
suppose. I think I see that.
She glanced over to where Saddic sat
on the floor, his collection of useless objects arrayed around him, a lost look
on his oddly wrinkled face. Like an old man with his life’s treasure. Only
he’s forgotten how to count.
But what they owned, what they had,
was not necessarily a good thing, a thing of virtue. Sometimes, what they had
was poison, and the child’s hunger knew no different. How could it? And so the
crimes passed on, from one generation to the next. Until they destroy us.
Yes, I see that now. My dreams are wise, wiser than me. My dreams sing
the songs of the Quitters, clever in argument, subtle in persuasion.
My dreams are warning me.
She turned away from the sun’s light
and faced the chamber. ‘Is everyone ready?’
Saddic looked up guiltily, and then
nodded.
Badalle twisted back and leaned out
on the window ledge, craning round in order to see the western end of the
plaza. Rutt was there, with Held in his arms. Others waited in the shadows of
the surrounding buildings, as if figures on friezes had stepped out from their
stone worlds.
It was just as well. They’d eaten
all the fruit on the city’s trees.
And the crystal was stealing our
souls.
‘Then it is time. Leave those things
behind, Saddic.’
Instead, he began gathering them up.
A flash of anger hissed through
Badalle, followed by fear. She didn’t understand either. Sighing, she dropped
down from the ledge. ‘There will be Shards. Diamonds, Rubies and Opals. We will
begin dying again.’
The boy looked at her with knowing
eyes.
She sighed a second time. ‘There are
fathers among us now. We must watch them carefully, Saddic, in case they find
father thoughts.’
To that he shook his head, as if to
deny her words. ‘No, Badalle,’ he said in his broken voice. ‘They just care for
the young ones.’
So few words from you, Saddic. I’d
thought you mute. What other things awaken in you, behind those old man’s eyes,
that old man’s face?
She left the room. Saddic followed,
his bag of useless things in his arms like a newborn babe. Down the sharp-edged
steps, through the cool air of the hidden corridors, and then outside, into the
blinding heat. Badalle walked without hesitation to where stood Rutt, who now
watched her approach with hooded eyes. As she drew closer, the other children
edged into the sunlight, clumped in their makeshift families. Hands were held,
rag-ends clutched, legs embraced. She paused in her journey. She had forgotten
how many still lived.
Forcing herself on, she walked until
she stood before Rutt, and then she spun round and raised her arms out to the
sides.
‘The city spits us out
We are sour and we are bitter
To taste.
The blind feeders-on-us turn away
As they gorge
As they devour all that was meant for us
All we thought to inherit
Because we wanted what they had
Because we thought it belonged to us
Just as it did to them
They looked away as they ate our future
And now the city’s walls
Steal our wants
And spit out what remains
It’s not much
Just something sour, something bitter
To taste.
And this is what you taste
In your mouths.
Something sour, something bitter.’
Rutt stared at her for a long
moment, and then he nodded, and set out along the wide central avenue.
Westward, into the Glass Desert. Behind him, the Snake uncoiled itself from its
months-long slumber.
This was something the Snake
understood, and Badalle could see it. In the steady, unhurried strides of the
children trooping past, in their set faces, bleakness settling with familiarity
in thin, wan features. We know this. We have learned to love this.
To walk. To slither beneath the
fists of the world.
We are the Snake reborn.
In time, they reached the city’s
edge, and looked out on the flat glittering wastes.
Suffering’s comfort. Like a dead
mother’s embrace.
CHAPTER SIX
‘Dominant among the ancient races we
can observe four: the Imass, the Jaghut, the K’Chain Che’Malle, and the Forkrul
Assail. While others were present in the eldritch times, either their numbers
were scant or their legacies have all but vanished from the world.
As for us humans, we were the rats
in the walls and crawlspaces, those few of us that existed.
But is not domination our
birthright? Are we not the likenesses of carved idols and prophets? Do these
idols not serve us? Do these prophets not prophesy our dominion over all other
creatures?
Perhaps you might note, with a sly
wink, that the hands that carved the idols were our own; and that those blessed
prophets so bold in their claims of righteous glory, each emerged from the
common human press. You might note, then, that our fierce assertions cannot
help but be blatantly self-serving, indeed, self-justifying.
And if you did, well, you are no
friend of ours. And for you we have this dagger, this pyre, this iron tongue of
torture. Retract your claims to our unexceptional selves, our gross banality of
the profane.
As a species, we are displeased by
notions of a mundane disconnect from destiny, and we shall hold to our deadly
displeasure until we humans have crumbled to ash and dust.
For, as the Elder Races would tell
you, were they around to do so, the world has its own dagger, its own iron
tongue, its own pyre. And from its flames, there is nowhere to hide.’
Fragment purportedly from a
translator’s note to a lost
edition of Gothos’ Folly, Genabaris, 835 Burn’s Sleep
THREE DAYS AND TWO NIGHTS THEY HAD
STOOD AMONG THE DEAD bodies. The blood and gore dried on their tattered furs,
their weapons. Their only motion came from the wind plucking at strands of hair
and rawhide strips.
The carrion birds, lizards and
capemoths that descended upon the field of slaughter fed undisturbed, leisurely
in their feasting on rotting flesh. The figures standing motionless in their
midst were too desiccated for their attentions; they might as well have been the
stumps of long-dead trees, wind-torn and lifeless.
The small creatures were entirely
unaware of the silent howls erupting from the souls of the slayers, the
unending waves of grief that battered at these withered apparitions, the horror
churning beneath layers of blackened, dried blood. They could not feel the
storm raging behind skin-stretched faces, in the caverns of skulls, in the
shrunken pits of eye sockets.
With the sun fleeing beneath the
horizon on the third night, First Sword Onos T’oolan faced southeast and, with
heavy but even strides, set out, the sword in his hand dragging a path through
the knotted grasses.
The others followed, an army of
destitute, bereft T’lan Imass, their souls utterly destroyed.
Slayers of the innocent.
Murderers of children. The stone weapons lifted and the stone weapons fell.
Faces wrote knotted tales of horror. Small skulls cracked open like ostrich
eggs. Spirits fled like tiny birds.
When the others left, two remained
behind. Kalt Urmanal of the Orshayn T’lan Imass ignored the command of his
clan, the pressure of its will. Trembling, he held himself against the sweep of
that dread tide pulling so insistently into the First Sword’s shadow.
He would not bow to Onos T’oolan.
And much as he yearned to fall to insensate dust, releasing for ever his
tortured spirit, instead he held his place, surrounded by half-devoured corpses
– eye sockets plucked clean, soft lips and cheeks stripped away by eager beaks –
and grasped in both hands the crumbling madness of all that life – and death –
had delivered to him.
But he knew with desolation as
abject as anything he had felt before that there would be no gift of peace, not
for him nor for any of the others, and that even dissolution might prove
unequal to the task of cleansing his soul.
The flint sword in his hand was
heavy, as if caked in mud. If only it was. His bones, hardened to stone,
wrapped round him like a cage of vast, crushing weight.
As dawn rose on the fourth day, as
the screams in his skull broke like sand before the wind, he lifted his head
and looked across to the one other who had not yielded to the First Sword’s
ineffable summons.
A Bonecaster of the Brold clan. Of
the Second Ritual, the Failed Ritual. And if only it had failed. Knife Drip,
such a sweet name, such a prophetic name. ‘This,’ said Kalt Urmanal, ‘is
the Ritual you sought, Nom Kala. This is the escape you desired.’ He gestured
with his free hand. ‘Your escape from these … children. Who would, in years to
come – years they no longer have awaiting them – who would, then, have hunted
down your kin. Your mate, your children. They would have killed you all without
a moment’s thought. In their eyes, you were beasts. You were less than they
were, and so you deserved less.’
‘The beast,’ she said, ‘that dies at
the hand of a human remains innocent.’
‘While that human cannot make the
same claim.’
‘Can they not?’
Kalt Urmanal tilted his head,
studied the white-fur-clad woman. ‘The hunter finds justification.’
‘Need suffices.’
‘And the murderer?’
‘Need suffices.’
‘Then we are all cursed to commit
endless crimes, and this is our eternal fate. And it is our gift to justify all
that we do.’ But this is no gift. ‘Tell me, Nom Kala, do you feel
innocent?’
‘I feel nothing.’
‘I do not believe you.’
‘I feel nothing because there is
nothing left.’
‘Very well. Now I believe you, Nom
Kala.’ He scanned the field of slaughter. ‘It was my thought to stand here
until their very bones vanished beneath the thin soil, hid inside brush and
grasses. Until nothing remained of what has happened here.’ He paused, and then
said again, ‘It was my thought.’
‘You will find no penance, Kalt
Urmanal.’
‘Ah. Yes, that was the word I
sought. I had forgotten it.’
‘As you would.’
‘As I would.’
Neither spoke again until the sun
had once more vanished, yielding the sky to the Jade Strangers and the broken
moon that was rising fitfully in the northeast. Then Kalt Urmanal hefted his
weapon. ‘I smell blood.’
Nom Kala stirred. ‘Yes,’ she said.
‘Immortal blood, not yet spilled,
but … soon.’
‘Yes.’
‘In moments of murder,’ said Kalt
Urmanal, ‘the world laughs.’
‘Your thoughts are harsh,’ replied
Nom Kala, settling her hair-matted mace in its sling draped across her back.
She collected her harpoons.
‘Are they? Nom Kala, have you ever
known a world at peace? I know the answer. I have existed far longer than you,
and in that time there was no peace. Ever.’
‘I have known moments of
peace,’ she said, facing him. ‘It is foolish to expect more than that, Kalt
Urmanal.’
‘Do you seek such a moment now?’
She hesitated and then said, ‘Perhaps.’
‘Then I shall accompany you. We
shall journey to find it. That single, most precious moment.’
‘Do not cling to hope.’
‘No, I shall cling to you, Nom Kala.’
She flinched. ‘Do not do that,’ she
whispered.
‘I can see you were beautiful once.
And now, for the yearning in your empty heart, you are beautiful again.’
‘Will you so torment me? If so, do
not journey with me, I beg you.’
‘I shall be silent at your side,
unless you choose otherwise, Nom Kala. Look at us, we two remain. Deathless,
and so well suited to this search for a moment of peace. Shall we begin?’
Saying nothing, she began walking.
As did he.
Do you remember, how those
flowers danced in the wind? Three women knelt in soft clays beside the stream,
taking cupped handfuls of clear water to sprinkle upon the softened pran’ag
hides before binding them. The migrations were under way, velvet upon the
antlers, and the insects spun in iridescent clouds, flitting like delicious
thoughts.
The sun was warm that day. Do you
remember?
Greasy stones were lifted from
the sacks, rolled in hands around the circle of laughing youths, while the
cooked meat was drawn forth and everyone gathered to feast. It was, with these
gentle scenes, a day like any other.
The call from the edge of camp
was not unduly alarming. Three strangers approaching from the south.
One of the other clans, familiar
faces, smiles to greet kin.
The second shout froze everyone.
I went out with the others. I
held my finest spear in my hand, and with my warriors all about me I felt sure
and bold. Those who drew near were not kin. True strangers. If necessary, we
would drive them off.
There was this moment – please,
you must remember with me. We stood in a row, as they came to within six paces
of us, and we looked into their faces.
We saw ourselves, yet not. Subtle
the alterations. They were taller, thinner-boned. Strewn with fetishes and
shells and beads of amber. Their faces did not possess the rounded comfort of
Imass faces. Features had sharpened, narrowed. The bones of their jaw
beneath the mouth jutted under dark beards. We saw their weapons and they
confused us. We saw the fineness of their skins and furs and leggings, and we
felt diminished.
Their eyes were arrogant, the
colour of earth, not sky.
With gestures, these three sought
to drive us away. This was their land to hunt now. We were the intruders. Do
you remember how that felt? I looked into their faces, into their eyes, and I
saw the truth.
To these tall strangers, we were
ranag, we were bhederin, we were pran’ag.
Killing them made no difference,
and the blood on our weapons weakened us with horror. Please, I am begging you,
remember this. It was the day the world began to die. Our world.
Tell me what you remember,
you who stood facing these roughened savages with their blunt faces, their
squat selves, their hair of red and blond. Tell me what you felt, your
indignation when we did not cower, your outrage when we cut you down.
You knew you would come again, in
numbers beyond imagining. And you would hunt us, chase us down, drive us into
cold valleys and cliff caves above crashing seas. Until we were all gone. And
then, of course, you would turn on each other.
If you dare to remember this,
then you will understand. I am the slayer of children – your children – no!
Show me no horror! Your hands are red with the blood of my children! You
cannot kill us any more, but we can kill you, and so we shall. We are the sword
of ancient memories. Memories of fire, memories of ice, memories of the pain
you delivered upon us. I shall answer your crime. I shall be the hand of your
utter annihilation. Every last child.
I am Onos T’oolan and once, I was
an Imass. Once, I looked upon flowers dancing in the wind.
See my army? It has come to kill
you. Seek out the cold valleys. Seek out the caves in the cliffs over crashing
seas. It will not matter. As these shelters failed us, so they will fail you.
I see well this truth: you never
expected our return.
Too bad.
Yes, he would have liked these
thoughts, this blistering, righteous pronouncement that vengeance was deserved
and so meted out. And that the innocence of the young was a lie, when they
become the inheritors, when they grow fat on the evil deeds of their ancestors.
They were, he knew, the thoughts of
Olar Ethil, whispered into the secret places of his soul. He well understood
her. He always had.
The Barghast deserved their fate.
They had slain his wife, his children. And he remembered the arrogance in the
eyes of his family’s slayers – but how had he seen that? It was impossible. He’d
already been dead. She creeps inside me. Olar Ethil, you are not welcome.
You want me to serve you. You want – yes, I know what you want, and you dare to
call it healing.
There is a dead seedling in you,
Bonecaster. A shrunken, lifeless thing. In others, it lives on, sometimes frail
and starving, sometimes thriving with sweet anguish. That seedling, Olar Ethil,
has a name, and even the name would twist sour upon your lips. The name is
compassion.
One day I will stand before you,
and I will kiss you, Olar Ethil, and give you a taste of what you never
possessed. And I will see you choke. Spit in bitter fury. And even then, to
show you its meaning, I will weep for you.
We have fled from it for too
long. Our people, our blessed, doomed people. Can you not shed a tear for them,
Bonecaster? Your putative children? They lived well in their slow failing, well
enough – show me the scene I never saw, the moment I never knew, when I stood before
the first humans. Tell me of the blood I spilled, to echo my latest crime, to
fuse the two together, as if righteousness was a mask to be worn again and
again.
Do you think me a fool?
Toc, my brother, sent me away.
But I think, now, he was compelled. I think now, Olar Ethil, you held him fast.
I have lost a brother and I know he will never return. For his fate, I would
weep.
If I only could.
Forces were gathering, to a place in
the east. The ancient warren of Tellann was a thing of raging fire, like the
plains lit in flames on every horizon. He could feel the heat, could taste the
bitter smoke. Elsewhere – not far – Omtose Phellack churned awake with
the thunder of riven ice. Seas cracked and valleys groaned. And closer to hand,
the stench of the K’Chain Che’Malle rode the winds pungent as a serpent’s
belly. And now … yes. Akhrast Korvalain. The pale ghosts of old once more
walk the land. The Elder Warrens rise again. By all the spirits of earth and
water, what has begun here?
Olar Ethil, in what comes, the T’lan
Imass shall be as motes of dust in a maelstrom. And what you seek – no, the
price is too high. It is too high.
Yet he marched, as if destiny still
existed for his people, as if death itself was no barrier to the glory awaiting
them. We have lost our minds. Toc Younger, what is this winter tide that so
carries us forward? Ride to me, let us speak again, as we did once. Toc
Younger, I forgive you. For the wounds you delivered, for all that you denied
me, I cannot but forgive you.
One last journey into the storm,
then. He would lead. His lost kin would follow. He understood that much. Less
than dust motes they might be, but the T’lan Imass would be there. We shall
not be forgotten. We deserve better than that.
We were you before you were born.
Do not forget us. And in your memory, I beg of you, let us stand tall and
proud. Leave to us our footprints in the sand, there to mark the trail you now
tread, so that you understand – wherever you go, we were there first.
In the wake of Onos T’oolan, three
thousand T’lan Imass followed. Orshayn, Brold, and a score more forgotten clans
– those that fell in the Wars, those that surrendered to despair.
It was likely, Rystalle Ev
suspected, that Onos T’oolan was unaware that he had opened his mind to them,
that the terrible emotions warring in his soul rushed out to engulf them all.
The ancient barriers had been torn down, and she and all the others weathered
the storm in silence, wretched, beaten into numbness.
At the field of slaughter, his howls
had echoed their own, but now the First Sword was binding them in grisly
chains.
They would stand with him. They had
no choice. And when at last he fell, as he must, so too would they.
This was … acceptable. It was, in
fact, just. Slayers of children deserve no glory. The caves are emptied now,
but we cannot dwell there. The air is thick with the blood we spilled. Even the
flames from the hearth cannot warm us.
She sensed that Kalt Urmanal was no
longer with them. She was not surprised, and although her own anguish at his
absence clawed at her, the pain felt distant, drowned beneath the torments of
the First Sword. Her love had always been a lost thing, and he had ever been
blind to it.
All the jealousy she had once felt
lingered, a poison suffusing her being, tainting her love for him. He had been
broken by the K’Chain Che’Malle long ago, when they had slain his wife and
children. Her love was for a memory, and the memory was flawed.
No, it is best that he is gone.
That he decided he could not go on. The truth is, I admire the strength of his
will, that he could so defy the First Sword’s power. Had others remained
behind? She did not know, but if they had, she prayed their presence would
comfort Kalt Urmanal.
What is it, to lose a love you
never had?
Ulag Togtil, who had come among the
Orshayn Imass as a stranger, whose blood was thickened with that of the Trellan
Telakai, now reeled in the First Sword’s wake, as if his limbs were under
siege. There was a harshness to the Trellan that had stood him well on the day
of the slaughter, but now it floundered in the depthless well that was the
emotional torrent of the Imass.
To feel too deeply, oh, how the
callous would mock this. Their regard, flat and gauging as a vulture’s upon a
dying man. Something to amuse, but even trees will tremble to cold winds; are
you so bereft, friend, that you dare not do the same?
Onos T’oolan gives us his pain.
He is unaware of the gift, yet gift it is. We obeyed the command of the First
Sword, knowing nothing of his soul. We’d thought we had found in him a tyrant
to beggar the Jaghut themselves. Instead, he was lost as we are.
But if there be unseen witnesses
to this moment, if there be callous ones among them, ah, what is it that you
fear to reveal? There in that tear, that low sob? You smile in superiority, but
what is the nature of this triumph of yours? I wish to know. Your self-made
chains draped so tight about you are nothing to be proud of. Your inability to
feel is not a virtue.
And your smile has cracks.
Ulag had played this game all his
life, and now he did so again, in the ashes of Tellann, in the swirling mad
river of the First Sword’s path. Imagining his invisible audience, a sea of
blurred faces, a host of unknown thoughts behind the veil of their eyes.
And he would speak to them, from
time to time.
I am the wolf that would die of
loneliness if cast from the pack. And so, even when I am alone, I choose to
believe otherwise.
There was no true unity in the T’lan
Imass, for we had surrendered the memories of our lives. Yet even then, I
refused to be alone. Ah, I am a fool. My audience belongs to future’s
judgement, and harsh it shall be, and when at last it speaks in that multitude
of voices, I shall not be there to hear it.
Can you be at ease with that, Ulag?
Can you hear the dry laughter of the Trellan? The jeering of humans?
But see how it bows you, even
now. See how it batters you down.
Against the future, Ulag, you are
helpless as a babe lying on a rock. And the eagle’s shadow slides across the
tear-filled eyes, the soft face. The babe falls silent, knowing danger is near.
But, alas, it has not even learned to crawl. And Mother’s hands are long gone.
For this fate, Onos T’oolan, we
would all weep. If we could.
Shield Anvil Stormy picked himself up
off the ground, blinking water from his eyes and probing his split cheek. ‘All
right,’ he said, spitting blood, ‘I suppose I deserved that. At least,’ and he
glared at Gesler, ‘that’s what you’re going to tell me right now. It is, isn’t
it? Tell me it is, or so help me, Ges, I’m going to rip your head right off and
throw it in the nearest cesspit I find.’
‘I needed to get your attention,’
the Mortal Sword replied. ‘With you, subtle don’t work.’
‘How would you know? You ain’t tried
it yet. Not once, in all the years I’ve been cursed by your company.’
‘Well,’ said Gesler, squinting at
the mass of Che’Malle Furies thumping past, ‘turns out I got a solution for
that. An end to your curse.’
‘You can’t run away! You can’t leave
me here—’
‘No, it’s you I’m sending away,
Stormy.’
‘What?’
‘I’m the Mortal Sword. I can do
things like that.’
‘Send me where?’
‘To her, to what’s left of her.’
Stormy looked away, south across the
empty, dismal plain. He spat again. ‘You really don’t like me much, do you?’
‘We have to find out, Stormy. Aye, I
could go myself, but you’re the Shield Anvil. There will be the souls of
friends, hanging around like a bad smell. Will you just leave the ghosts to
wander, Stormy?’
‘What am I supposed to do with them?’
‘How should I know? Bless them, I
suppose, or whatever it is you have to do.’
Destriant Kalyth was riding back to
where they’d dismounted. She was looking at each of them in turn, back and
forth, frowning at the red welt and split cheek under Stormy’s left eye. She
drew up her Ve’Gath mount. ‘Don’t you two ever just talk? Spirits below, men
are all the same. What has happened?’
‘Nothing,’ Stormy replied. ‘I have
to leave.’
‘Leave?’
‘It’s temporary,’ said Gesler,
swinging himself back into the bone and scale saddle that was his mount’s back.
‘Like a mangy pup, he’ll show up again before too long.’
‘Where is he going?’ Kalyth
demanded.
‘Back to where we came from,’ Gesler
replied. ‘Back to the Bonehunters. They got hurt bad. We need to find out how
bad.’
‘Why?’
Stormy glared up at Gesler, waiting
for the bastard to come up with an answer to that question, but the Mortal
Sword simply growled under his breath and kicked his charger into motion.
As he rode away, Kalyth fixed her
attention on Stormy. ‘Well?’
He shrugged. ‘When there’s trouble
ahead, Destriant, it’s good to know how your allies are faring.’
His reply clearly disturbed her,
though she seemed unable to explain why. ‘You will need an escort.’
‘No, I won’t.’
‘Yes you will, Shield Anvil. Your Ve’Gath
needs to eat. I will have Sag’Churok assign three K’ell Hunters to you, and two
drones. When do you leave?’
He walked to his mount. ‘Now.’
She hissed some Elan curse and
kicked her Ve’Gath into motion.
Grinning, Stormy mounted up and set
out. Classic Malazan military structure at work here, woman. Short, violent
discussion and that’s it. We don’t wait around. And Gesler? I’m gonna bust your
jaw.
Grub watched Stormy’s departure and
scowled. ‘Something’s up.’
Sinn snorted. ‘Thanks. I was just
falling asleep, and now you’ve woke me up again. Who cares where Stormy’s
going?’
‘I do.’
‘They’re mostly dead,’ she said. ‘And
he’s going to confirm that. You want to go with him, Grub? Want to look at
Keneb’s corpse? Should I go with you? So I can see what the vultures have done
to my brother? The truth is in your heart, Grub. You feel it just like I do.
They’re dead.’
At her harsh words Grub hunched
down, looked away. Rows of Che’Malle, Ve’Gath soldiers, their massive elongated
heads moving in smooth rhythm, their hides coated in dust that dulled the
burnished gold of the scales on their necks and backs. Weapons slung down from
harnesses of drone-hide, swinging and rustling. Ornate helms hiding the
soldiers’ eyes. But every soldier’s eyes look the same. Seen too much and
more’s coming and they know it.
Uncle Keneb, it’s all over for
you now. Finally. And you never really wanted any of it anyway, did you? Your
wife left you. All you had was the army, and you died with it. Did you ever
want anything else?
But he didn’t know the truth of any
of that. He hadn’t lived enough of his own life. He tried getting into the
heads of people like Keneb – the ones with so many years behind them – and he
couldn’t. He could recite what he knew of them. Whirlwind. Slaughter and
flight. Loves lost, but what do I know about that?
Keneb, you’re gone. I’ll never
see your face again – your exasperation when you looked at me, and even then I
knew you’d never abandon me. You just couldn’t, and I knew it. And that is what
I have lost, isn’t it? I don’t even have a name for it, but it’s gone now, for
ever gone.
He glanced over at Sinn. Her eyes
were closed and she rolled in the Ve’Gath’s gait, chin settling on her breast
bone. Your brother has died, Sinn. And you just sleep. The magic’s carved
everything out of you, hasn’t it? You’re just wearing that girl’s face, her
skin, and whatever you are, there inside, it isn’t human at all any more, is
it?
And you want me to join you.
Well, if it means an end to
feeling pain, then I will.
Keneb, why did you leave me?
Eyes closed, her mind wandered into
a place of dust and sand, where the sun’s fading light turned the cliffs into
fire. She knew this world. She had seen it many times, had walked it. And
somewhere in the hazy distances there were familiar faces. Figures seething in
the hot markets of G’danisban, cooled corridors and the slap of bared feet. And
then terror, servants with bloodied knives, a night of smoke and flames. And
all through the city, screams pierced the madness.
Stumbling into a room, a most
precious room – was that her mother? Sister? Or just some guest? The two stable
boys and a handmaiden – who was always laughing, she recalled, and was laughing
again, with her fist and most of her forearm pushed up inside Mother, while the
boys held the battered woman down. Whatever the laughing girl was reaching for,
she couldn’t seem to find it.
Blurred panic, flight, one of the
boys setting off after her.
Bared feet slapping on stone, the
ragged beat of hard breaths. He caught her in the corridor, and in the cool
shadow he used something other than his fist on her, in the same place, and by
his cries he found whatever it was he’d been looking for, a moment before a
strange barrier inside her head was torn through, and sorcery rushed out to
lift the boy straight up, until he was pressed awkwardly against the arched
ceiling of the corridor. His eyes were bulging, face darkening, the thing
between his legs shrivelling and turning black as blood vessels began bursting
inside him.
She’d stared up, fixing on his
swollen eyes, watched them begin spraying blood in fine jets. And still she
pushed. His bones cracked, fluids spurted, his wastes splashing down on to her
legs to mix with the blood pooling there. As he flattened, he spread out, until
it seemed he was part of the stone, a ghastly image of something vaguely human,
made of skin and plaster and oozing mud.
By then, she suspected, he’d been
dead for some time.
Crawling away, feeling broken
inside, as if he was still there and would always be there, as if she had
nothing of herself, nothing pure or untouched by someone else.
Then, much later, an assassin’s
face, a night of caves and demons and murder. She’d been dreaming of poison,
yes, and there had been bloated bodies, but nothing cleaned her out, no matter
what she tried.
Outside a city, watching the flames
ever rising. Soldiers were dying. The world was a trap and they all seemed
surprised by that, even though it was something she’d always known. The fire
wanted her and it so wanted her, why, she let it inside. To burn her empty.
She’d wanted to believe that it had
worked. That she was at last clean. But before too long she could feel that boy
return, deep, deep inside her. She needed more. More fire, because fire
delivered death. And in the midst of conflagration, time and again, a voice
whispered to her.
‘ You are my child. The Virgin of
Death is never what they think it is. What dies is the virgin herself, the
purity of her soul. Or his. Why always assume the Virgin is a girl? So I show
you what you were, but now I show you what you are. Feel my heat – it is the
pleasure you have for ever lost. Feel my kiss upon your lips: this is the love
you will never know. See my hunger, it is your yearning for a peace you will
never find.
‘You are my child. You killed him
before he left you. You crushed his brain to pulp. The rest was just for show.
He was still inside you, a dead boy, and this was Hood’s path to your soul, and
the Lord of Death’s touch steals life. You killed the boy, but the boy killed
you, too, Sinn. What do you feel deep in you? Give it any shape you want, any
name, it doesn’t matter. What matters is this: it is dead, and it waits for
you, and will wait for you until your last breath leaves your body.
‘When your death is already
inside you, there is nowhere to run, no escape possible. When your death is
already inside you, Sinn, you have nothing to lose.’
She had nothing to lose. This was
true. About everything. No family, no brother, no one at all. Even Grub, her
sweet Virgin, well, he would never reach her, just as she would never, ever,
reach inside him, to dirty what was pure. My precious possession, dear Grub,
and him I will keep safe from harm. No one will ever touch him. No slap of
bared feet, no harsh breaths. I am your fire, Grub, and I will burn to ash
anything and anyone who dares gets close to you.
That is why I rode the lizard’s
lightning, that brilliant fire. I rode it straight for Keneb. I didn’t guide
it, I didn’t choose it, but I understood the necessity of it, the rightness of
taking away the one person left who loved you.
Do not grieve. You have me, Grub.
We have each other, and what could be more perfect than that?
Familiar faces in the distant haze.
Her mind wandered the desert, as the night drew in, and somewhere down on the
flats small fires lit awake, and she smiled. We are the dead thing in the
womb of the world, and we and we alone light the darkness with fire. By that
you will know us. By those flames alone, the earth shall tremble.
What is it to be raped? I am
silent as the world and we will say nothing. What is it to be the rapist?
The desert at night was a cold
place, except for the fires. Dark too, except for the fires.
‘It plagues the young, this need to
find reasons for things.’
Rud Elalle huddled, robes drawn
tight around him, and edged closer to the fire. The wind up in these crags was
fierce, the air thin and icy. Far below, low on the slopes of the
mountainsides, the edge of the tree line was visible as a black mass, thinning
at the highest reaches – which seemed very far away. He shivered. ‘Couldn’t we
at least find a cave or something?’
Silchas Ruin stood facing the high
passes to the north, seemingly immune to the cold. ‘Very well, come the morrow,
we shall do that. Had we remained Eleint, of course—’
‘I would be comfortable, yes. I
know.’ Rud stared at the feeble flames as they devoured the last of the wood he
had carried up from below. In draconic form, the raging chaos within him would
have kept him warm, inured to the elements. But his thoughts twisted wild when
he was veered, when the blood of the Eleint coursed dominant in his veins. He
began to lose his sense of himself as a creature of reasoning, of rational
thought and clear purpose. Not that he had a clear purpose, of course. Not yet.
But it wasn’t healthy to be a dragon – he knew that much.
Mother, how could you have lived
with this? For so long? No wonder you went mad. No wonder you all did. He
glanced over at Silchas Ruin, but the figure had not moved. How much longer?
he wanted to ask. Still … the Tiste Andii needed no further invitation to view
him as little more than a child. A child of terrible power, true, but still a
child.
And, Rud allowed, he would not be
far wrong, would he? There was no sense to what they intended to do. So much
was out of their hands. They hovered like swords, but whose gauntleted grasp
would close on them when the time came? There didn’t seem to be an answer to
that question, at least not one Silchas Ruin was willing to share.
And what of this Tiste Andii,
standing there as if carved from alabaster, rubies for eyes, moaning blades
crossing his back? He had lost his last surviving brother. He was utterly
alone, bereft. Olar Ethil had broken him for no purpose Rud could see, barring
that of spite. But Silchas Ruin had finally straightened, biting on that wound
in the manner of a speared wolf, and he’d been limping ever since – at least in
his sembled state. It was quite possible – and indeed likely – that Silchas
Ruin preferred to remain in an Eleint form, if only to cauterize the pain with
the soulfire of chaos. Yet there he stood. Because I am too weak to resist.
Draconean ambitions taste bitter as poison. They want my surrender, they want
to hear me howl with desire.
‘Once we find a cave,’ resumed
Silchas Ruin, ‘I will leave you for a time. Those stone weapons of yours are
insufficient for what comes. While it is true that we may have no need for
swords and the like, I believe it is time for you to take to hand a proper
blade.’
‘You want to go and find me a sword.’
‘Yes.’
‘And where do you look for something
like that?’ Rud asked. ‘A weaponsmith’s in Letheras? A trader’s camp near a
recent battlefield?’
‘None of those,’ he replied. ‘For
you, I have something more ambitious in mind.’
Rud’s gaze returned to the flames. ‘How
long will you be gone?’
‘Not long, I should think.’
‘Well then,’ Rud snapped, ‘what are
you waiting for? I can find my own cave.’
He felt Silchas Ruin’s regard upon
him, and then it was gone and when he turned, so was the Tiste Andii – he had
plummeted from the ledge. Moments later a buffet of wind struck him, and he saw
the dragon lifting skyward, up above the ravaged peaks, blotting out stars.
‘Ah, Silchas, I am sorry.’
Despondent, he held his hands out
over the coals. He missed his father. Udinaas would have a wry grin for this
moment, a few cutting words – not too deep, of course, but enough to awaken in
Rud a measure of self-regard, something he suspected he needed. Spirits of
the stream, it’s just that I’m lonely. I miss home. The sweet songs of the
Imass, the fiery lure of Kilava – oh, Onrack, do you know how lucky you are?
And where is my love? Where does
she hide? He glared around, at the bare rock, the flight of sparks, the
frail shelter in this crook of stone. Not here, that’s for sure.
Well, if any man needed a woman more
than he did, it was his father. In a way, he is as alone among the Imass as
I am here. He was a slave. A sailor. A Letherii. His home was civilized.
Crowded with so many conveniences one could go mad trying to choose among them.
And now he lives in a hut of hide and tenag bones. With winter closing in – oh,
the Imass knew a harsh world. No, none of that was fair on Udinaas, who saw
himself as so unexceptional he was beneath notice. Unexceptional? Will it
take a woman to convince you otherwise? You can’t find one there – you need to
go home, Father.
He could try a sending. A
conjuration of will and power – was it possible to reach that far? ‘Worth a
try,’ he muttered. ‘Tomorrow morning.’ For now, Rud Elalle would try to sleep.
If that failed, well, there was the blood of the Eleint, and its deadly, sultry
call.
He lifted his head, looked south. At
the far side of the range, he knew, there was a vast green valley, slopes
ribboned with terraces verdant with growth. There were towns and villages and
forts and high towers guarding the bridges spanning the rivers. There were tens
of thousands working those narrow fields.
They had flown so high above all of
this, to a human eye they would have been virtually invisible. When they drew
nearer to the rearing range north of the valley, close to its westernmost end,
they had seen an encamped army, laying siege to a fastness carved into the
first of the mountains. Rud had wondered at that. Civil war? But Silchas Ruin
had shown no curiosity. ‘ Humans can do whatever they please, and they will.
Count on it, Ryadd.’
Still, he imagined it was warm
inside that keep right now.
Assuming it still held against the
enemy. For some reason, he was sure that it did. Aye, humans will do
whatever they please, Silchas Ruin, and they’ll be damned stubborn about it,
too.
He settled down against the cold
night.
His thoughts were earth, and the
blood moved slowly through it, seeping like a summer’s rain. He saw how the
others looked at him, when they’d thought his attention elsewhere. So much
larger than any of them was he, bedecked in the armour of Dalk’s hide, his
Ethilian mace showing a face to each of the cardinal directions, as befitted
the Witch’s gift from the sky.
Listening to them readying their
weapons, adjusting the straps of their armour, locking the grilled cheek-guards
in place on their blackened helms, he knew that, in the past weeks, he had
become the mountain they huddled against, the stone at their backs, on their
flanks, at the point of the spear – wherever he was needed most, there he would
be.
How many of the foe had he killed?
He had no idea. Scores. Hundreds. They were the Fangs of Death, their numbers
were endless and that, he well knew, was no exaggeration.
His fellow invaders, who once
numbered in their tens of thousands, had dwindled now. It might be that other
fragments still pushed on, somewhere to the south or north, but then they did
not have a Thel Akai warrior in their company. They did not have a
dragon-killer. They do not have me.
Earth was slow in dying. The soil
was a black realm of countless mouths, ceaseless hungers. In a single handful
raged a million wars. Death was ever the enemy, yet death was also the source
of sustenance. It took a ferocious will to murder earth.
One by one, his companions – barely
a score left now – announced themselves ready, in rising to their feet, in
testing their gauntleted grips on their notched, battered weapons. And such
weapons! Each one worth a dozen epic songs of glory and pain, triumph and loss.
If he looked up from the ground at this moment, he would see faces swallowed in
the barred shadows of their cheek-guards; he would see these proud warriors
standing, eyes fixed eastward, and, slowly, those grimly set mouths and the
thin, tattered lips would twist with wry amusement.
A war they could not win.
An epic march from which not one
great hero would ever return.
The earth within him surged with
sudden fire, and he rose, the mace lifting in his huge hands. We shall have
lived as none other has lived. We shall die as no other has died. Can you taste
this moment? By the Witch but I can!
He faced his companions, and gave
them his own grin.
Tusked mouths opened like split
flesh, and cold laughter filled the air.
Groaning, Ublala Pung opened his
eyes. More dreams! More terrible visions! He rolled on to his side and blinked
across the makeshift camp at the huddled form of the Barghast woman. His love.
His adored one. It wasn’t fair that she hated him. He reached out and drew
close the strange mace with its four blue-iron heads. It looked as if it should
be heavy, and perhaps to some people it was. And it had a name, its very own
name. But he’d forgotten it. A dozen and four epic songs. Songs of glore and
painty, turnips and lust.
Perhaps she was just pretending to
sleep. And she’d try to kill him again. The last time Draconus had stopped her,
appearing as if out of nowhere to grasp her wrist, staying the dagger’s point a
finger’s breadth from Ublala’s right eye. He’d then slapped the woman, hard
enough to send her sprawling.
‘Best we kill her now, Ublala.’
Rubbing the sleep from his face. ‘No,
please, don’t do that. I love her. It’s just a spat of some sort, Draconus, and
as soon as I figure out what we’re arguing about I’ll fix it, I swear.’
‘Ublala—’
‘Please! We’re just disagreeing
about something.’
‘She means to kill and then rob
us.’
‘She had cruel parents, and was
bullied as a child, Draconus. Other girls pulled her braids and spat in her
ears. It’s all a misunderstanding!’
‘One more chance, then. My advice
is to beat her senseless, Ublala. It’s likely that’s how Barghast men treat
murderous women, as necessity demands.’
‘I can’t do that, Draconus. But I’ll
comb her hair.’
Which was what he had been doing
when she’d finally come round. Lacking a comb, he’d been using a thorny twig,
which probably wasn’t ideal, especially on her fine eyebrows, but they’d since
taken care of the infections and she was looking almost normal again.
So maybe she really was asleep, and
now that she had no weapons left, why, she was as harmless as a twill-mouse,
except for the big rocks she kept close at hand every night.
At least she had stopped
complaining.
Ublala twisted to see if he could
find Draconus – the man never seemed to sleep at all, though he’d lie down on
occasion, which is what he’d been doing when Ralata had tried knifing Ublala.
Wasn’t she surprised!
The man was standing facing north,
something he had been doing a lot of, lately.
People like him had too many
thoughts, Ublala decided. So many he couldn’t even rest from himself, and that
had to be a hard thing to live with. No, it was better to have hardly any
thoughts at all. Like earth. Yes, that’s it all right. Dirt.
But those tusks were scary, and
that laughing was even worse!
A new scent on the cool breath
drifting in from the west. Perhaps some ancient memories were stirred by it,
something that left the pack agitated. She watched the lord stretching and then
padding up to the rise. He possessed such power, as did all lords – he could
stand on a high place, exposed to all four winds, and feel no fear.
The others remained in the high
grasses of the slope, the young males pacing, the females in the shadow of the
trees, where pups crawled and tumbled.
Bellies were full, but the herds
wending up from the plains to the south were smaller this season, and there was
a harried air to their long flight from thirst and heat, as if pursued by fire
or worse. Hunting the beasts had been easy – the animal they’d brought down had
already been exhausted, and the taste of old terror was in its blood.
The lord stood on the ridge. His
ears sharpened and the others quickly rose – even the games of the pups ceased.
The lord staggered. Three sticks
were jutting from it now, and from the slope beyond came strange excited barks.
Blood threaded down from the sticks as the lord sank down, head twisting in a
vain effort to reach the shafts. Then it fell on its side and stopped moving.
There was motion on all sides now,
and more sticks whipped through foliage and grasses, sinking into flesh. The
pack erupted in snarls of pain.
The figures that rushed in moved on
their hind legs. Their skins gleamed with oil and their smell was that of
crushed plants over something else. They flung more sticks. There was white
around their eyes and they had small mouths from which came their wild barking.
She gasped as fire tore into her
flank. Blood filled her throat, sprayed out from her nostrils and then poured
from her jaws. She saw an attacker reach down and grasp a pup by its tail. He
swung it and then slammed the little one against the bole of a tree.
An old scent. They are among us
again. There is nowhere to hide. Now we die.
Vision blurred, Setoc withdrew her
hand from the bleached wolf’s skull they’d found in the crotch of the gnarled
tree growing from the edge of the dried-up spring. The rough, tortured bark had
almost devoured the bleached bone.
The first tree they’d found in
weeks. She wiped at her eyes. And this.
It wasn’t enough to grieve. She saw
that now. Not enough to wallow in the anguish of blood on the hands. It wasn’t
enough to fight for mercy, to plead for a new way of walking the world. It wasn’t
enough to feel guilt.
She turned to study the camp. Faint,
Precious Thimble, Sweetest Sufferance and Amby Bole, all looking for a way
home. A place of comfort, all threats diminished, all dangers locked away.
Where patrols kept the streets safe, where the fields ran in rows and so did
trees. Or so she imagined – strange scenes that couldn’t be memory, because she
had no memory beyond the plains and the wild lands. But in those cities the
only animals nearby were slaves or food, and those that weren’t lived in cages,
or their skins adorned the shoulders of fine ladies and bold nobles, or their
bones waited in heaps for the grinders, to be fed into the planted fields.
That was their world, the one they
wanted back.
You can have it. There is no
place for me in it, is there? Very well. The sorrow within her now seemed
infinite. She walked from the camp, out into the darkness. The Bonecaster had
taken the children, and Torrent with them. Destinies had taken the Trell and
Gruntle. Death had taken the others. But I owe you nothing. In your company,
my ghost wolves stay away. They drift like distant desires. I am forgetting
what it is to run free.
I am forgetting why I am here.
They would not miss her. They had
their own haunts, after all. I do not belong with you. I think – I think … I
am what you left behind. Long ago. She wondered if she too was in search of
a destiny, the same as Mappo and Gruntle, but it seemed they were so much more
than her, and that even the idea of a destiny for Setoc was ridiculous. But
the ghost wolves – and all the other fallen beasts – they look to me. For
something. I just don’t know what it is. And I need to find out.
Is that what destiny is? Is that
all it is?
It was surprisingly easy to leave
them behind, the ones she’d walked with for so long now. She could have turned
back right then, to face the city – all the cities and all the broken lands
that fed them. She could have chosen to accept her humanness. Instead … look
at me. Here I walk.
Let the Wolves cleanse this
world. Let the beasts return. Above all, let the senseless killing end: we are
tired of running, tired of dying. You must see that. You must feel something
for that. Just how cold is your soul?
You empty the land. You break the
earth and use it until it dies, and then your children starve. Do not blame me.
Do not blame any of us for that.
Her breath caught and she hesitated.
A sudden dark thought had flared in her mind. A knife in her hand. Throats
opening to the night. Four more of the murderers dead. In a war that she knew
might never end. But what difference does that make – we’ve been losing for
so long, I doubt we’d know the taste of victory even as it filled our mouths.
Even as it drowned us in its glory.
Could she kill them? Could she turn
around, here and now, and creep back into the camp? No pup skulls to crack
open, but still. The dead-inside have to work hard at their pleasures. That
burst of shock. Disbelief. The sudden laugh. So hard, to feel anything at all,
isn’t it?
The thoughts were delicious, but she
resumed her journey. It was not, she decided, her destiny to kill one here,
another there. No, if she could, she would kill them all. This is the war
the Wolves have sought. The Hold shall be reborn. Am I to be their leader? Am I
to stand alone at the head of some vast army of retribution?
All at once, the ghost wolves were
surrounding her, brushing close, and she began a loping run, effortlessly, her
heart surging with strength. Freedom – she understood now – was something so
long lost among humans that they had forgotten what it felt like. Bend to
your labours! Grasp those coins! Keep the doors locked and fires raging to
empty the shadows behind you! Make your brothers and sisters kneel before you,
to serve your pleasures. Are you free? You don’t remember the truth of what
once was – of what you all so willingly surrendered.
I will show you freedom. So I
vow: I will show you what it is to be free.
On all sides, the ghost wolves
howled.
‘She’s gone.’
Faint opened her eyes, blinked at
the bright morning sun. ‘What? Who?’
‘The girl. Setoc, with the wolf
eyes. Gone.’
She stared up at Amby, frowning. And
then said, ‘Oh.’
‘I don’t think she’s coming back.’
‘No, Amby, I don’t either.’
He moved back as she sat up. Her
chest ached, her ragged scars itched. She was filthy and the taste in her mouth
was thick with the rancid meat they’d eaten the night before. Amby stood like a
man lost in the company of anyone but his brother – just a glance nearly broke
her heart.
She looked past him. Sweetest
Sufferance was still asleep, her rounded form swathed in blankets. Precious
Thimble sat near the ashes of the night’s fire, eyes fixed dully on Amby.
She’d heard tales of horror, amongst
the shareholders who’d signed out and now sat in taverns waiting to die. They’d
drink and tell of missions that had ended in disaster. A dead mage, lost in
unknown lands, no way home. The few lucky ones would find a place to book
passage, or perhaps another Trygalle carriage would find them, half starved and
half mad, and these ones would come home broken, their eyes empty.
She stared up at the morning sky.
Was the flying lizard still up there? Did it mock them with its cold eyes? She
doubted it. If we make it out of this, it will be a miracle. The longest tug
of the Lady’s luck this world has ever seen. And let’s face it, things don’t
work out that way. They never do.
‘I smelled smoke,’ said Amby.
‘When?’
He shrugged. ‘Dawn. The wind had yet
to turn. Was running before the sun.’
East. She stood, studied the rumpled
wastes. Was that a faint haze? No, that veil was too big. A cloud. ‘Well,’ she
said, ‘it’s where we were headed, more or less.’
If the man wanted to smell things,
fine. Made no difference.
‘We need water,’ Amby said.
Sighing, Faint turned and approached
Precious Thimble. The young witch would not meet her eyes. Faint waited for a
moment, and then said, ‘Can you conjure water?’
‘I told you—’
‘Yes, the land’s mostly dead. Still.
Can you?’
‘There’s no point in trying.’
‘Try anyway.’
Her eyes flashed. ‘Who left you in
charge?’
‘You’re a shareholder in the
Trygalle. I have seniority here, Precious.’
‘But I’m—’
‘So far,’ Faint cut in, ‘you’re
nothing. Show us some magery and that might drag you up a notch or two. Open us
a gate home and I’ll personally crown you empress. But until then, Precious, I’m
in charge.’
‘It hurts.’
‘What does? Listen. People die.’
But she shook her head. ‘Magic.
Here. The ground … flinches.’
‘Precious, I don’t care if it howls.
Just get us some water.’
‘It doesn’t want us here. It doesn’t
want anyone here.’
‘Too bad.’
Precious shivered. ‘There’s
something … If it’s a spirit – even the ghost of one. Maybe …’
‘Get started on it.’ Faint walked
over to Sweetest Sufferance. ‘Hood’s breath, wake up.’
‘I’m awake, cow.’
Well, turned out everyone felt as
miserable as she did.
‘Hungry,’ said Precious Thimble.
Gods below. Faint looked to
the east again. Cloud or smoke? Nearby, Amby made a groaning sound. She glanced
over. Something was wrong with his face – mud streaks? Tears? No, too dark. She
stepped closer. What, is that blood?
Nearby, the packhorse tore free of
the stake tethering it and lunged away, hoofs thundering.
A rattling sound erupted from
Sweetest Sufferance. Faint spun. ‘Sweetie?’
The blanket-swathed form was
twitching.
‘Hungry,’ said Precious Thimble
again.
Spasms surged through Sweetest
Sufferance, her limbs jumping. She kicked her way clear of the blankets, rolled
on to her back. Her eyes were opened wide, filling with blood. Her face was
visibly swelling. Flesh split.
‘In here?’ asked Precious Thimble.
Faint whirled to the witch – saw the
strange tilt to her head, the drool slicking her chin. Her eyes were glazed.
She rushed over. ‘Get it out! Precious! Send it away!’
Sweetest Sufferance jerked upright,
blood draining down from her fingertips. Bony projections had pushed through
her face, closing the space for her eyes, her mouth. Her entire body shook as
if something was inside, trying to escape. Tearing sounds burst from under her
clothing as more bones thrust past skin, pushed at her sodden clothing.
The ground beneath the woman seemed
to be cracking open.
Numb with horror, Faint backed up a
step. Shock stole her will. ‘Precious – please—’
Amby suddenly howled and the cry was
so raw it jolted Faint awake. Twisting round once more, she rushed to Precious
Thimble. Struck the woman in the face, a vicious slap, as hard as she could
manage. The young witch’s head rocked. Amby screamed again.
Faint glanced back at Sweetest
Sufferance – but the woman was mostly gone, and in her place, rising up from
the broken earth below, was a stained wrist thick as the bole of an ancient
tree. The hand had pushed its fingers through the woman’s body, as if fighting
free of an ill-fitting glove. Gore-streaked nails clawed at the air.
The ground tilted beneath Faint, almost
pitching her from her feet.
Amby staggered up to Precious
Thimble – his face a mask of blood – and when his fist struck her face her
entire head snapped back. She toppled. Bawling, he took her in his arms and
began running.
The arm was reaching higher, the
remnants of Sweetest Sufferance’s body still clinging to the grasping hand.
Blood was burning away, blackening, shedding in flakes, revealing a limb of
purest jade.
Faint staggered back. A mound was
rising – an entire hill – splitting the hard ground. The tree at the spring
thrashed, and on its long-dead branches green suddenly sprouted, writhing like
worms. Jade fruit bulged, burgeoned in clusters to pull the branches down.
Rock exploded from a ridge fifty
paces to the south. High grasses waved like jade flames. A vast, gleaming
boulder rocked into view – a forehead – oh, gods below, oh, Hood. Beru –
please—
Draconus turned round, his eyes
black as pools of ink. ‘Wait here,’ he said.
Ublala opened his mouth, but the
ground was shaking, rolling like waves rushing in from somewhere to the north,
and he forgot what he wanted to ask. He turned to his beloved.
Ralata was awake, crouched low on
the balls of her feet. Terror filled her face as she stared past Ublala.
He turned back in time to see Draconus
drawing his sword. Blackness poured from the long blade like wind-whipped
shrouds, billowing out, twisting to close around the man like folding wings.
Draconus disappeared inside the darkness, and the inky cloud spiralled higher,
growing in size. In moments it towered over them, and then those black wings
unfolded once more.
The apparition rose into the sky,
enormous wings of inky smoke thundering the air.
Ublala stared after it. His mace was
in his hands for some reason, and the skystone head steamed as if dipped in a
forge.
He watched the huge thing fly away,
northward. Not a dragon. Winged darkness. Just that. Winged darkness.
He licked his lips. ‘Draconus?’
The brow ridges lifted clear of the
shattered bedrock. Eyes blazed like emerald beacons. A second hand had thrust
free, thirty paces to the west. Faint stood as if rooted to the shaking ground,
as trapped as the rattling tree. Her thoughts had fled. A pressure was building
inside her skull. She could hear voices, thousands, tens of thousands of
voices, all speaking in a language she could not understand. They were rising
in alarm, in fear, in panic. She clapped her hands to her ears, but it was no
use.
They want out.
They asked. But no answers came.
They begged. Pleaded. The world gave them silence. How do I know this? Their
hearts – the beating – I can feel them. Feel them breaking.
Anguish tore at her soul. She could
not survive this. It was too much, the pain too vast.
Icy air swept over her from behind.
An enormous shadow swirled across the earth to her left. Something enshrouded
in darkness, borne on vast ethereal wings, descended to where the jade head was
emerging.
Faint saw the flash of something
long and black, a gleaming edge, and as the darkness slammed like a tidal wave
against the brow of the giant that splinter was driven forward, piercing the
centre of the forehead.
Thunder cracked. Faint was thrown
from her feet by the concussion. The impossible chorus of voices cried out – in
pain, in shock, and something else. Beneath her the earth seemed to moan.
Staggering upright once more, Faint coughed out the blood filling her mouth.
Those cries? Relief? At last. At
last, an answer.
The forearm directly in front of her
and the hand off to the west were suddenly motionless, the jade luminescence
fading as if sheathed in dust. The tree, tilted precariously to one side,
slowed its manic shivering, its branches now burdened with leaves of jade and
the huge globes of fruit.
Up on the hill, the darkness
coalesced, like a slowly indrawn breath, and in its place stood a tall,
broad-shouldered man. His hands were clasped about the grip of a two-handed
sword bleeding black streams that spun lazily in the air. She saw him struggle
to pull the weapon from the jade forehead that reared like a stone wall in
front of him.
He grunted when he finally
succeeded. The sword slid into the scabbard slung under his left arm. He turned
round, walked towards Faint. Pale skin, chiselled features, black hair,
depthless eyes. As he neared her, he spoke in Daru. ‘Where he came from, every
god is a Shield Anvil. Woman, have you lost your mind?’
She opened her mouth for a denial, a
rush of protest, but then he was walking past her. She turned, stared after
him. South? What’s down there? Where are you going? No, never mind, Faint.
Gods below, what have I just
witnessed?
Her gaze returned to the sundered
forehead surmounting the hill. The wound in its centre was visible even from
this distance. It had nearly split the giant skull in half.
She slowly sank to her knees. A
god. That was a god. Were they both gods? Did one just murder the other?
She realized that she had wet herself. One more reek to clash with all the
others. Drawing a shaky breath, she lowered her head. ‘Sweetest Sufferance, I’m
sorry. She warned me against it. I’m sorry, Sweetie. Please forgive me.’
She would, in a while, set out to
find Amby and Precious Thimble.
But not yet. Not quite yet.
Ublala watched her tying up her
bedroll. ‘Where are you going? We should wait. He said to wait.’
She bared her teeth but did not look
at him. ‘He is a demon. When he runs out of things to hunt, he’ll kill and eat
us.’
‘No he won’t. He’s nice. Draconus is
nice, my love—’
‘Don’t call me that.’
‘But—’
‘Be quiet. Give me back my knife.’
‘I can’t. You might stab me.’
‘I won’t. I’m leaving you both. I’m
going home.’
‘Home? Where is that? Can I come?’
‘Only if you can swim,’ she said. ‘Now,
at least the knife. And if you love me the way you say you do, you’ll give me
the rest of my weapons too.’
‘I’m not supposed to.’
Venom blazed in her eyes. ‘You’re
awake. You’re holding that club. I can’t hurt you. Unless you’re a coward,
Ublala. I can’t love cowards – they disgust me.’
He hunched down. ‘Just because I’m
scared of you don’t mean I’m a coward. I once fought five Teblor gods.’
‘Of course you did. Cowards always
lie.’
‘And I fought against the Fangs of
Death and all those tusked warriors liked me – no, that wasn’t me. At least, I
don’t think it was.’ He stared at the mace. ‘But I killed Dalk. I killed a
dragon. It was easy – no, it wasn’t. It was hard, I think. I can’t remember.’
‘No end to all the lies.’
‘You’re right,’ he said, suddenly
glum. ‘No end to them.’
‘Give me my weapons.’
‘If I do you’ll die.’
‘What?’
‘You’ll leave us, and there’s no
food out here unless Draconus gets it for us. You’ll starve. I can’t.’
‘Am I your prisoner? Is that how you
like it, Ublala? You want a slave?’
He looked up at her. ‘Can I sex you
any time if you’re my slave?’
‘That’s not love,’ she said.
‘It’s been so long,’ he replied, ‘I
suppose I’ll take sex instead of love. See what’s happened to me?’
‘Fine. I’ll lie with you, if you
give me my weapons afterwards.’
Ublala clutched his head. ‘Oh, you’re
confusing me!’
She advanced on him. ‘Agree to my
offer, Ublala, and I’m yours—’ She stopped abruptly, turned away.
He stared after her. ‘What’s wrong?
I agree! I agree!’
‘Too late,’ she said. ‘Your friend’s
back.’
Ublala twisted round to see Draconus
approaching. ‘He’s no friend of mine,’ he muttered. ‘Not any more.’
‘Too crowded, these Wastelands,’ she
said.
‘Then leave us,’ Torrent replied. ‘We
won’t miss you.’
In answer, Olar Ethil picked up Absi
once more, by the scruff of his neck. ‘We have rested enough,’ she said.
‘Stop carrying him like that,’ said
Torrent. ‘He can ride with me.’
Her neck creaked as she turned to
regard him. ‘Attempt to flee and I will catch you, pup.’
Torrent glanced across at the twins,
who huddled together near the ring of stones where they had tried making a fire
the night before. ‘I won’t do that,’ he said.
‘Sentimentality will see the death
of you,’ said the Bonecaster. ‘Come here. Take the child.’
He strode over. When he reached for
the boy, Olar Ethil’s skeletal hand snapped out. Torrent was dragged close,
pulled up until his eyes were less than a hand’s breadth from her broken face.
‘Call upon no gods in this place,’
she hissed. ‘Everything’s too close to the surface. Do you understand me? Even
the ghost of Toc Younger cannot withstand a summons – and he will not arrive
alone.’ She pushed him back. ‘You have been warned – my only warning. I catch
you whispering a prayer, Torrent of the Awl, and I will kill you.’
He stepped back, scowling. ‘That
threat’s getting as old as you, hag.’ He took Absi’s hand and led him slowly to
where his horse waited. ‘And we need food – remember what that is, Olar Ethil?
And water.’
He looked round but could see no
sign of Telorast and Curdle – when had he last seen them? He could not recall.
Sighing, he beckoned to the twins. Stavi and Storii leapt to their feet and
joined him. ‘Can you walk for a time?’ he asked them. ‘Later, you can ride, a
little longer than you did yesterday. I don’t mind walking.’
‘Did you hear that thunder?’ Stavi
asked.
‘Just thunder.’
‘Is our father still alive?’ Storii
asked. ‘Is he really?’
‘I won’t lie,’ Torrent said. ‘If his
spirit walks the land again, he is the same as Olar Ethil. A T’lan Imass. I
fear there will be little that you will recognize—’
‘Except what’s inside him,’ said
Storii. ‘That won’t have changed.’
Torrent glanced away. ‘I hope you’re
right, for all our sakes.’ He hesitated, and then said, ‘After all, if anyone
can stand up to this Bonecaster, it will be your father.’
‘He’ll take us back,’ said Stavi. ‘All
three of us. You’ll see.’
He nodded. ‘Ready, then?’
No, he wouldn’t lie to them, not
about their father. But some suspicions he would keep to himself. He did not
expect Olar Ethil to take them to Onos T’oolan. Absi, and perhaps even the
twins, had become her currency when forcing the First Sword’s hand, and she
would not permit a situation where he could directly challenge her over
possession of them. No, these coins of flesh she would keep well hidden.
Torrent collected up Absi, his heart
clenching as the boy’s arms went round his neck. The young were quick to adapt,
he knew, but even then there were hurts that slipped through awareness leaving
not a ripple, and they sank deep. And many years later, why, they’d shaped an
entire life. Abandon the child and all the man’s tethers will be weak. Take
away the child’s love and the woman will be a leaf on every stream. So the
older ones said. Always full of warnings, telling us all that life was a
treacherous journey. That a path once begun could not easily be evaded, or
twisted anew by wish or will.
With a grinning Absi settled on the
saddle, his small hands gripping the horn, Torrent collected the reins. The
twins falling in beside him, he set off after Olar Ethil.
The thunder had stopped as quickly
as it had begun, and the cloudless sky was unchanged. Terrible forces were in
play in these Wastelands, enough to shake even the deathless witch striding so
purposefully ahead of them. ‘Call upon no gods in this place.’ A curious
warning. Had someone prayed? He snorted. When did praying achieve anything
but silence? Anything but the pathetic absence filling the air, building like a
bubble of nothingness in the soul? Since when didn’t a prayer leave only empty
yearning, where wishes burned and longing was a knife twisting in the chest?
Call upon no gods in this place.
Summon not Toc Anaster, my one-eyed guardian who can ride through the veil, who
can speak with the voice of death itself. Why do you so fear him, Olar Ethil?
What can he do to you?
But I know the answer to that,
don’t I?
Ahead, the Bonecaster hesitated,
turning to stare at Torrent.
When he smiled, she faced forward
again and resumed her walk.
Yes, Olar Ethil. These Wastelands
are very crowded indeed. Step lightly, hag, as if that will do any good.
Absi made a strange grunting sound,
and then sang, ‘Tollallallallalla! Tollallallalla!’
Every word from a child is itself
a prayer. A blessing. Dare we answer? Beware little Absi, Olar Ethil. There are
hurts that slip through. You killed his dog.
You killed his dog.
The fabric between the warrens was
shredded. Gaping holes yawned on all sides. As befitted his veered form,
Gruntle moved in the shadows, a creature of stealth, muscles rolling beneath
his barbed hide, eyes flaring like embers in the night. But purchase under his
padded paws was uncertain. Vistas shifted wildly before his fixed gaze. Only
desperation – and perhaps madness – had taken him on these paths.
One moment flowing down a bitter
cold scree of moss-backed boulders, the next moving like a ghost through a cathedral
forest cloaked in fetid gloom. In yet another, the air was foul with poisons,
and he found himself forced to swim a river, the waters thick and crusted with
brown foam. Up on to the bank and into a village of cut stone crowded with
carriages, passing through a graveyard, a fox pitching an eerie cry upon
catching his scent.
He stumbled upon two figures – their
sudden appearance so startling him that alarm unleashed his instincts – a
snarl, sudden rush, claws and then fangs. Screams tore the night air. His jaws
crunched down through the bones of a human neck. A lash of one clawed paw
ripped one side from a dog, flinging the dying beast into the brush. And then
through, away from that world and into a sodden jungle lit by flashes of
lightning – the reek of sulphur heavy in the air.
Down a bank of mud, into a charnel
pit of rotting corpses, the bloated bodies of men and horses, someone singing
plaintively in the distance.
A burning forest.
The corridor of a palace or temple –
dozens of robed people fleeing with shrieks – and once more he tore through
them. Human blood filling his mouth, the taste appallingly sweet. Dragging
bodies down from behind, crunching through skulls – weak fists thumping into
his flanks—
Somewhere deep inside him, he loosed
a sob, tearing himself free – and once more the world shifted, a barren tundra
now, someone kneeling beside a boulder, head lifting, eyes meeting his.
‘Stop this. Now. Child of Treach,
you lose yourself to the beast’s blood.’
A woman, her long black hair thick
and glossy as a panther’s hide, her face broad, the cheekbones high and
flaring, her amber eyes filled with knowing. A few rags of caribou skin for
clothes, despite the frigid air.
‘When you find me,’ she
continued, ‘ it will not be as you imagine. We shall not meet as lovers. We
shall not desire the same things. It may be we shall fight, you and me.’
He crouched, sides heaving, muscles
trembling, but the blind rage was fading.
She made an odd gesture with one
hand. ‘A cat leaps, takes the life of a bird. Another takes the life of a
child playing in the garden. This is what a cat does, do you deny this? Is
there a crime in these scenes? Perhaps. For the bird, the crime of
carelessness, incaution. The child? An inattentive parent? An ill-chosen place
to dwell in?
‘The chicks in their nest cry out
for a mother who will not return. Her death is their deaths. The mother grieves
her loss, but perhaps there will be another child, a new life to replace the
one lost. Tell me, Gruntle, how does one measure these things? How does one
decide which life is the more precious? Are feelings apportioned according to
intelligence and self-awareness? Does a tiny creature grieve less deeply than
one of greater … stature?
‘But is it not natural to rage
for vengeance, for retribution? Does the dead bird’s mate dream of murder?
‘Child of Treach, you have taken
more than just children, on this hard path of yours. In your wake, much grief
now swirls. Your arrival was inexplicable to their senses, but the proof of
your presence lay in pools of blood.
‘Be the weapon of random chance
if you must. Be the unimaginable force that strikes down with no reason, no
purpose. Be the taker of lives.
‘I will await you, at the end of
this path. Will we discuss vengeance? With fang and claw?’
At the threat a low growl rumbled
from his chest.
Her smile was sad. She gestured
again—
Blinking, Gruntle found himself on
his hands and knees, stony ground under him. He coughed and then spat to clear
gobs of thick blood from his mouth, reached up and wiped his wet lips – on the
back of his hand a red smear and strands of human hair. ‘Gods below,’ he
muttered. ‘That was a mistake.’
The warrens were falling apart. Where
was I going? What was I running from? But he remembered. Betrayals. Weaknesses.
The flaws of being human – he’d sought an escape. A headlong plunge into
mindlessness, fleeing from all manner of remorse and recrimination. Running
away.
‘But what is the point?’ he said
under his breath. To forget is to forget myself. Who I am, and that I must
not surrender. If I do, I will have nothing left.
Ah, but still … to be blameless.
A cat above the tiny carcass of a bird. Above the corpse of a child.
Blameless.
But the bastards hunting me down
don’t care about that. A child has died. Mothers bow in wretched grief. Weapons
are taken in hand. The world is a dangerous place; they mean to make it less
so. They yearn to die ancient and withered in straw beds, at the end of a long
life, with skins upon their walls proclaiming their bravery.
Well then, come to me if you
must. To your eyes I am a monstrous tiger. But in my mind, I have a man’s
cunning. And yes, I know all about vengeance.
He could see now where his path was
taking him. Trake’s deadly gift was turning in his hands, finding a new,
terrible shape. ‘You would set yourselves apart, then? Not animal. Something
other. Very well, then there will be war.’
Brushing at his eyes, he climbed
slowly to his feet. Admire the beast. He is brave. Even as he charges your
spear. And should you then stand above my corpse, note well your own bravery,
but in my lifeless eyes see this truth: what we have shared in this clash of
courage, friend, was not a thing of sentience or intelligence. Skill and luck
may be triumphant, but these are nature’s gifts.
Confuse this at your peril.
‘Treach, hear me. I will fight this
war. I see its … inevitability. I will charge the spear.’ Because I have no
choice. He bared his teeth. ‘Just make my death worthwhile.’
Somewhere ahead, she awaited him. He
still did not know what that meant.
The veil between human and beast was
shredded, and he found himself looking out from both sides. Desperation and
madness. Oh, Stonny, I cannot keep my promise. I am sorry. If I could but
set my eyes upon your face one more time. He sighed. ‘Yes, woman, to answer
your cruel question, the bird’s mate dreams of murder.’
The tears kept returning. Blurring
his vision, streaming down his scarred, pitted cheeks. But Mappo forced himself
onward, fighting each step he took. Two wills were locked in battle. The need
to find his friend. The need to flee his shame. The war was now a thing of pain
– there had been a time, so long ago now, when he had not shied from
self-regard; when, for all the deceits guiding his life, he had understood the
necessity, the sharp clarity of his purpose.
He stood between the world and
Icarium. Why? Because the world was worth saving. Because there was love,
and moments of peace. Because compassion existed, like a blossom in a crack of
stone, a fulsome truth, a breathtaking miracle. And Icarium was a weapon of
destruction, senseless, blind. Mappo had given his life to keeping that weapon
in its scabbard, peace-strapped, forgotten.
In the name of compassion, and love.
Which he had just walked away from.
Turning his back upon children, so as to not see the hurt in their eyes, that
hardening flatness as yet another betrayal beset their brief lives. Because, he
told himself, their future was uncertain, yet still alive with possibilities. But
if Icarium should awaken, and no one is there to stop him, those possibilities
will come to an end. Does this not make sense? Oh yes, indeed it made sense.
And still, it was wrong. I know
it. I feel it. I can’t hide from it. If I harden myself to compassion, then what
am I trying to save?
And so he wept. For himself. In the
face of shame, grief burned away. In the face of shame, he began to lose who he
was, who he had always believed himself to be. Duty, pride in his vow, his
sacrifice – it all crumbled. He tried to imagine finding Icarium, his oldest
friend. He tried to envision a return to the old ways, to his words of
deception in the name of love, to the gentle games of feint and sleight of hand
that they played to keep horrifying truths at bay. Everything as it once was,
and at the core of it all Mappo’s willingness to surrender his own life rather
than see the Lifestealer’s eyes catch flame.
He did not know if he could do that
any more. A man’s heart must be pure for such a thing, cleansed of all doubts,
sufficient to make death itself a worthy sacrifice. But the solid beliefs of
years past had now broken down.
He felt hunched down inside himself,
as if folding round an old wound, leaving his bones feeling frail, a cage that
could crumple at the first hint of pressure.
The wasted land passed him by on all
sides, barely observed. The day’s heat faltered before the conflagration in his
skull.
Mappo forced himself onward. He had
to find Icarium now, more than ever. To beg forgiveness. And to end it.
My friend. I am not enough any
more. I am not the warrior you once knew. I am not the wall to lean your weary
self against. I have betrayed children, Icarium. Look into my eyes and see the
truth of this.
I beg a release.
‘End it, Icarium. Please, end this.’
Stormy thought he could make out a
pall of dust to the southeast. No telling how far – the horizons played tricks
in this place. The lizard he rode devoured leagues. It never seemed to tire.
Glancing back, he glowered at the drones plodding in his wake. K’ell Hunters
ranged on his flanks, sometimes visible, but mostly not, lost somewhere in the
deceptive folds and creases of the landscape.
I’m riding a damned Ve’Gath. The
nastiest weapon of war I’ve ever seen. I don’t need a damned escort. All
right, so it needed to be fed come evening. There was that to consider. But
I’m a man. I hate the need to consider anything. It’s not a problem either.
Mostly.
He preferred being just a corporal.
This Shield Anvil business left a sour taste in his mouth. Aye, there’s a sentimental
streak in me. I don’t deny it, and maybe it’s wide as an ocean like Ges says.
But I didn’t ask for it. I cried for a dying mouse once – dying because I tried
to catch it only my hand was too clumsy and something got broken inside. Lying
there in my palm, breaths coming so fast, but the tiny limbs’d stopped moving,
and then the breaths slowed .
I knelt on the stones and watched
it slowly die. There in my hand. Gods, it’s enough to make me bawl all over
again, just remembering. How old was I? Twenty?
He leaned to one side and cleared
his nose, one nostril and then the other. Then cleaned his moustache with his
fingers, wiping them on his leg. Dust cloud any closer? Hard to say.
Clearing a rise, he cursed and
silently ordered his mount to a halt. The basin below stretched out three
hundred or more paces, and half that distance out a dozen or so figures were
standing or sitting in a rough circle. As soon as he came into view the ones
standing turned to face him, while the ones sitting slowly climbed upright and
did the same.
They were tall, gaunt, and armoured
in black chain, black scales and black leather.
The Ke’ll Hunters had appeared
suddenly to Stormy’s right and left and were closing up at a swift lope, their
massive cutlasses held out to the sides.
Stormy could taste something oily
and bitter.
‘Calm down, lizards,’ he said under
his breath, kicking the Ve’Gath into motion. ‘They ain’t drawing.’
Dark narrow faces beneath ornate
helms tracked Stormy’s approach. Withered faces. Those bastards are tusked.
Jaghut? Must be – that old bust of Gothos in Aren’s Grey Temple had tusks like
those. But then, these fellows ain’t looking too good. T’lan? Did the Jaghut
have T’lan? Oh, never mind these questions, idiot. Just ask ’em. Or not.
Ten paces between them, Stormy reined in. The Hunters halted a few paces back,
settled and planted the tips of their cutlasses in the hard earth.
He studied the warriors before him. ‘Ugly,’
he muttered.
One spoke, though Stormy wasn’t
immediately certain from which one the voice came. ‘Do you see this, Bolirium?’
‘I see,’ another answered.
‘A human – well, mostly human. Hard
to tell behind all that hair. But let us be generous. A human, with K’Chain as
pets. And only a few moments ago, Bolirium, you had the nerve to suggest that
the world was a better place than when we’d last left it.’
‘I did,’ Bolirium admitted, and then
added, ‘I was an idiot.’
Low laughter.
A third Jaghut then said, ‘K’Chain
and termites, Gedoran. Find one …’
‘And you know there’s a hundred thousand
more in the woodwork. As you say, Varandas.’
‘And with that other smell …’
‘Just so,’ Gedoran said – and Stormy
found him by the nod accompanying the words. ‘Dust.’
‘Dreams and nightmares, Gedoran,
hide in the same pit. Reach down and you’re blind to what you pull out.’
They were all speaking Falari, which
was ridiculous. Stormy snorted, and then said, ‘Listen. You’re in my way.’
Gedoran stepped forward. ‘You did
not come in search of us?’
‘Do I really look that stupid? No.
Why, should I have?’
‘He is impertinent.’
‘Daryft, a human riding a Ve’Gath
can be as impertinent as he likes,’ said Bolirium.
Hard laughter, heads rocking back.
Stormy said, ‘You’re in the middle
of nowhere. What are you up to?’
‘Ah,’ said Gedoran, ‘now that is a
pertinent query. We have sent our commander on a quest, and now await his
return.’
‘You order your commander around?’
‘Yes, isn’t that wonderful?’
The Jaghut laughed again, a habit,
Stormy decided as it went on, and on, that could prove maddening. ‘Well, I’ll
leave you to it, then.’
The fourteen Jaghut bowed, and
Gedoran said, ‘Until we meet again, Shield Anvil.’
‘I don’t intend to ride back the way
I came in.’
‘Wisdom is not yet dead,’ said
Bolirium. ‘Did I not suggest this to you all?’
‘Amidst a host of idiotic
assertions, perhaps you did.’
‘Varandas, there must be a balance
in the world. On one side a morsel of weighty wisdom, offsetting a gastric
avalanche of brainless stupidity. Is that not the way of things?’
‘But Bolirium, a drop of perfume
cannot defeat a heap of shit.’
‘That depends, Varandas, on where
you put your nose.’
Gedoran said, ‘Be sure to inform us,
Varandas, when you finally smell something sweet.’
‘Don’t hold your breath, Gedoran.’
To raucous laughter, Stormy kicked
the Ve’Gath into motion, steering the creature to the left to ride round the
Jaghut. Once past he urged his mount into a loping trot. A short while later
the K’ell Hunters drew in closer.
He could smell their unease. ‘Aye,’
he muttered.
He wondered who the commander was. Must
be a damned idiot. But then, anything to escape that laughing. Aye, now that
makes sense. Why, I’d probably ride straight up Hood’s arsehole to get
away from that lot.
And as soon as I smell something
sweet, boys and girls, why, I’ll ride straight back and tell you.
That dust cloud looked closer.
Maybe.
CHAPTER SEVEN
‘Awaiting Restitution’
Epigraph on gravestone, Lether
‘IS IT AS I SEE?’ BRYS BEDDICT
ASKED. ‘ THE FATE OF THE WORLD IN THE hands of three women?’
Atri-Ceda Aranict drew one more time
on the stick and then flicked the stub into the fire. Into flames … She
held the smoke in her lungs as long as she could, as if in refusing to breathe
out she could hold back time itself. I saw caverns. I saw darkness … and the
rain, gods below, the rain … Finally, she sighed. If there was any smoke
left she didn’t see it. ‘Not three women alone,’ she said. ‘There is one man.
You.’
They sat undisturbed before the
fire. Soldiers slept. The bawling of animals awaiting slaughter had died down
for the night. Cookfires dwindled as the swirling wind ate the last dung, and
the air was filled with ashes. Come the dawn … we leave. Broken apart, each
our separate ways. Could I have imagined this? Did she know? She must have. By
her sword we are shattered.
‘It was necessary,’ said Brys.
‘You sound as if you are trying
convince yourself,’ she observed, drawing a taper from her belt sheath and
reaching to set one end into the flames. Watched as it caught. Brought the
lurid fire closer to her face to light yet another stick.
‘I understood her, I think.’ He
grunted. ‘Well, as much as anyone could.’
She nodded. ‘The look on the faces
of her officers.’
‘Stunned. Yes.’
She thought of Fist Blistig. ‘Appalled.’
He glanced across at her. ‘I worried
for you, my love. Abrastal’s daughter—’
‘A potent child indeed, to find us
from so far away.’ She pulled on the stick. ‘I was unprepared. The visions made
no sense. They overwhelmed me.’
‘Are you able to make sense of them
now?’
‘No.’
‘Will you describe them to me,
Aranict?’
She dropped her gaze.
‘Forgive me for asking,’ he said. ‘I
did not think – you should not have to relive such trauma. Ah, I am tired and
tomorrow will be a long day.’
She heard the invitation in his
words, but the flames of the hearth held her in place. Something. A promise.
A warning. I need to think on this. ‘I will join you, love, soon.’
‘Of course. If you find me dead to
the world …’
She flinched, recovered and said, ‘I
shall be careful not to wake you.’
He leaned close and she turned to
meet his lips with hers. Saw the tenderness of his smile as he pulled away.
Then she was alone, and her gaze
returned again to the flames. A parley. A meeting of minds. Well.
It had begun simply enough. Regal
riders reining before the command tent, soldiers appearing to take the horses.
Greetings exchanged with the Malazan officers awaiting these distinguished
guests. The Adjunct was within, yes. Her wounds? She has recovered, thankfully.
We’re afraid there will be little formality in all this, Highness – is it not
best that we each make our own introductions? Mortal Sword, Shield Anvil, it is
good to see you both …
Fist Faradan Sort had held to her
own standard of formality, Aranict supposed. Both comfortable and respectful.
Whereas Fists Kindly and Blistig had said nothing, the tension between the two
men palpable.
She’d stood close to Commander Brys.
It was difficult to know where to look. The Khundryl women, Hanavat and
Shelemasa, held back from the others, as if uncertain of their own worth. As
words were exchanged between Sort and Krughava and Abrastal on the matter of
who should enter first – a clash of deference, of all things – Aranict edged
back a step and made her way over to the Khundryl.
They observed her approach with
evident trepidation. Aranict stopped, drew out her pouch and counted out three
sticks of rustleaf. She held them up with brows raised. Sudden smiles answered
her.
She stood and smoked with them, a
few paces back from all the others, and Aranict caught Brys’s eye and was
pleased by the pride she saw in her lover’s regard.
It was finally determined that Queen
Abrastal would be the first to enter, accompanied by the Barghast Warchief
Spax, followed by the Perish. When faces turned to the Khundryl women, Hanavat
gestured with one hand – clearly, now that she had something to do, she was
content to wait. Shelemasa seemed even more relieved.
Brys approached. ‘Atri-Ceda Aranict,
if you please, would you escort the Khundryl inside once you are … er, done
here.’
‘Of course,’ she replied. ‘It will
be my pleasure.’
Moments later the three women were
alone apart from the two soldiers flanking the tent’s entrance.
Hanavat was the first to speak. ‘I
am tempted to go back to my people. I do not belong in such company.’
‘You stand in your husband’s stead,’
said Aranict.
She grimaced. ‘It is not what I
would choose.’
‘No one is blind to that,’ Aranict
said, as gently as she could. ‘But, if you like, I can invent an excuse …’
‘No,’ Hanavat said. ‘Even my husband
struggled in this particular duty. The Burned Tears are sworn to the field of
battle, in the memory of Coltaine of the Crow clan.’ She released a harsh
stream of smoke. ‘But it seems failure finds us no matter where we turn.’ She
nodded to the tent. ‘I will stand before their disappointment since my husband
dares not. My midwives tell me again and again that a woman’s spirit is
stronger than a man’s. This day I mean to prove it.’
‘If you like, I shall introduce you,
Hanavat.’
‘I expect no such formalities,
Atri-Ceda. The Adjunct has more important matters to attend to in there.’
‘My head is spinning,’ said
Shelemasa.
‘It passes,’ said Aranict.
A short time later they were done.
Hanavat gestured for Aranict to precede them. The Atri-Ceda turned to the tent
entrance, but then Hanavat said, ‘Aranict.’
‘Yes?’
‘Thank you.’
‘My commander spoke from the heart
with the words he gave you earlier, Hanavat. The Khundryl have nothing to be
ashamed of. Indeed, the very opposite is true.’ She led them into the command
tent.
In the outer chamber were the two
Malazan captains, Raband and Skanarow. Muted voices came from the other side of
the curtain.
Skanarow gave them all a strained
smile. ‘We decided we didn’t want to crowd the room.’
When Shelemasa hesitated, Hanavat
took the younger woman by the arm.
Aranict drew the entrance curtain to
one side. The Khundryl women entered the chamber.
Conversation fell away.
As Aranict stepped in she sensed the
tension. Mortal Sword Krughava’s face was dark with anger – or shame. A pace behind
her was the Shield Anvil, pale, clearly rattled. Brys stood to the right, his
back almost brushing the curtain wall. Alarm was writ plain on his face. To the
left stood the queen, taut and watchful as her sharp eyes tracked from Krughava
to the Adjunct and back again. Who had just been speaking? Aranict wasn’t sure.
The Fists stood to the Adjunct’s
left, close to the corner of the chamber. Banaschar leaned against a support
pole on the other side, his arms crossed and his eyelids half lowered. Close
by, as if ready to catch the ex-priest should he collapse, was Lostara Yil.
Adjunct Tavore looked hale, her
expression severe, holding Krughava’s glare unflinchingly.
Upon the arrival of the Khundryl,
Fist Faradan Sort cleared her throat and said, ‘Adjunct, it pleases me to
introduce—’
‘No need,’ Tavore replied, setting
her regard upon Shelemasa. The Adjunct stepped forward, forcing apart the
Mortal Sword and the queen. ‘I assume you are Shelemasa, who succeeded in
rallying the survivors of the Charge, guiding the retreat and so saving many
lives. It is said you were the last to leave the field. Your presence here
honours us all.’ She paused, and then turned to Hanavat. ‘Precious mother,’ she
said, ‘I grieve for your terrible losses. It grieves me too that, in this time,
your husband dwells only upon his own losses. It is my hope that he soon
awakens to the gifts remaining in his life.’ Tavore looked at the others. ‘Hanavat
and Shelemasa are Khundryl Burned Tears, our longest-standing allies. Their
sacrifice on the day of the Nah’ruk saved the lives of thousands. On this day,
as upon every other, I value their counsel. Fist Kindly, find a chair for
Hanavat – it is not proper that she stand with her child so near.’
Aranict saw Hanavat fighting back
tears, welling up behind her astonishment, and if the two women now stood
taller than they had a moment earlier … Adjunct Tavore, you continue to
surprise us.
Tavore returned to her original
position. ‘The Bonehunters,’ she said, ‘have had enough time to lick their
wounds. Now we must march in earnest.’
Krughava’s voice was harsh with
suppressed emotion. ‘We are sworn to—’
‘Serve me,’ the Adjunct snapped. ‘You
have sworn to serve me, and that I need to remind you of this pains me, Mortal
Sword.’
‘You do not,’ Krughava said in a
tone like honed iron. ‘Your army is damaged, Adjunct. We stand before you – all
of us here – and would pledge ourselves to your cause—’
‘Not quite,’ cut in Queen Abrastal, ‘since
I don’t yet understand that cause, and by the look on the face of Prince Brys I
suspect he shares my unease.’
Krughava hissed a curse in her own
language, and then tried again. ‘Adjunct. Now is the time to coalesce our
respective forces, thus bolstering our strength—’
‘No.’
The word struck like a knife driven
into the floor between them.
The colour left Krughava’s face. ‘If
you doubt our loyalty or courage—’
‘I do not,’ Tavore replied. ‘In
fact, I am depending on it.’
‘But this makes no sense!’
The Adjunct turned to Abrastal. ‘Highness,
your presence here is most unexpected, but welcome. Your kingdom, even more
than that of King Tehol, has had long-term contact with those territories of
Kolanse and the South Kingdoms of the Pelasiar Sea.’
‘That is true, Adjunct.’
‘What can you tell us of the
situation there?’
The queen’s brows lifted. ‘I assumed
you were entirely aware of where you are headed, Adjunct. If that is not the
case, then I am baffled. What manner of war do you seek? What is the cause for
this belligerence of yours?’
It seemed that Tavore was unwilling
to answer. Silence stretched.
The one who finally spoke startled
them all. ‘The Worm will feed.’ Banaschar slowly lifted his head. ‘She will
gorge on the slaughter to come.’ His bleary gaze wandered among them, settled
on the Bolkando queen. ‘What are you worth? Any of you?’ He nodded to the
Adjunct. ‘She thinks … enough. Enough worth to fight an impossible war. For
you, Highness. And you, Prince Brys. And,’ he faltered for a moment, as if
about to be sick, ‘even me.’
‘I don’t understand,’ said Abrastal,
‘but I will let the matter rest for now. To answer you, Adjunct, I must weave a
tale. And,’ she added, ‘my throat grows parched.’
Sort walked to the curtain entrance,
leaned out and ordered her captains to find some ale.
The queen snorted and then said, ‘Well,
I suppose ale better suits a story told than does wine. Very well, I shall
begin. They came from the sea. Isn’t that always the way? No matter. There was
trouble in the lands long before that day, however. Decades of drought.
Uprisings, civil wars, usurpations, a host of once wealthy nations now verging
on utter collapse.
‘In such times, prophets are known
to rise. Bold revolutions, the heads of kings and queens on spear points, blood
in the streets. But against a sky empty of rain no cause triumphs, no great
leader from the masses can offer salvation, and before long even their
heads adorn spikes.’
Sort arrived with a cask of ale and
a dozen or so tin cups. She set about serving drinks, beginning with the queen.
Abrastal swallowed down a quick
mouthful, sighed, and resumed, ‘One can imagine how it must have felt. The
world was ending. Civilization itself had failed, revealing its terrible
fragilities – that clutter of thin sticks holding it all upright. In place of
rain, despair settled upon the lands. In Kolanse, only the province of
Estobanse thrived. Fed by glacial streams and rivers, sheltered from the hot
winds of the south, by this one province all of Kolanse struggled on – but
there were too many mouths to feed and the strain was taking its toll. If there
was a solution to this strait, it was too cruel to contemplate.
‘The strangers from the sea had no
such qualms, and when they cast down the rulers of Kolanse they did what they
deemed necessary—’
‘A cull,’ said the Adjunct, and that
word seemed to take the life from Tavore’s eyes.
Abrastal regarded Tavore a moment
over the rim of her cup, drank, and then nodded. ‘Just so. In the first year,
they reduced the population of Kolanse by fifty per cent. The least fit, the
elderly, the sickly. Another ten per cent the next year, and then, with more of
their own kind coming in great ships, they sent armies into the South Kingdoms.
Adjudication, they called it. They titled themselves Inquisitors, in their
hands they held the justice of the land itself – and that justice proved harsh
indeed.’
Abrastal hesitated, and then
shrugged. ‘That was pretty much the end of our trade with the east. As we are
people of the land, not the sea, we sent out merchant caravans along the old
south routes, but those few that returned told tales of nothing but desolation.
The merchant ships we then hired ventured into the Pelasiar Sea, and found
silted-in ports and abandoned cities all along the coasts. They could find no
one left with whom to trade.’
‘Did they travel onward to Kolanse?’
Tavore asked.
‘Only the first few. With reason.
The Inquisitors did not welcome visitors.’ She drained her cup and held it out
for a refill. ‘We considered war, Adjunct. Though the ships were not our own,
we’d given them royal charter, and we were most displeased by the slaughter of
innocents.’ She glanced over at her Barghast Warchief. ‘We even hired ourselves
a mercenary army.’
‘Yet you declared no war,’ observed
Brys.
‘No. I sent an agent, my Eleventh
Daughter. She did not survive, yet was able to send me … a message. These
Inquisitors were not human at all.’
‘Justice,’ said Banaschar, pulling a
small jug from his cloak, ‘the sweet contradiction they took to, like …’ he
regarded the jug, ‘like wine. There is no true justice, they will say, without
the most basic right that is retribution. Exploit the world at your peril, dear
friends. One day someone will decide to speak for that world. One day, someone
will come calling.’ He snorted. ‘But Forkrul Assail? Gods below, even the
Liosan would’ve done better.’ He tilted the jug back, drank, and then sighed. ‘There
were temples to D’rek once. In Kolanse.’ He grinned at Tavore. ‘Woe to all a
priest’s confessions, eh, Adjunct?’
‘Not human,’ repeated Abrastal. ‘Their
power was unassailable, and it seemed to be growing. We declared no war,’ and
she looked up into the Adjunct’s eyes, ‘but here we are.’
Adjunct Tavore faced Brys Beddict. ‘Prince,
I have not had the opportunity to thank you for your intervention on the day of
the Nah’ruk. That the Bonehunters still exist is due to your bravery and that
of your soldiers. Without you and the Khundryl, we would never have extricated
ourselves from that engagement.’
‘I fear, Adjunct,’ said Brys, ‘that
we were not enough, and I am sure Warleader Gall, and indeed Hanavat here, feel
the same. Your army is hurt. The stand by the heavy infantry and the marines
took from you the very soldiers you need the most.’ He glanced at Krughava
briefly, and then continued, ‘Adjunct, I share the Mortal Sword’s dismay at
what you now propose.’
‘The Bonehunters,’ said Tavore, ‘will
march alone.’
‘Do you say then,’ Brys asked, ‘that
you have no further need of us?’
‘No, my need for you has never been
greater.’
Queen Abrastal held out her cup, and
as Sort refilled it she said, ‘Then you have misled me, Adjunct. Clearly, you
know more of the enemy – these Forkrul Assail – and their aims than do any of
us. Or,’ she corrected, ‘you think you do. I would point out that the
Inquisitors no longer appear to hold to expansionist intentions – the Errant
knows, they’ve had enough time to prove otherwise.’
Banaschar’s laugh was soft yet
grating. ‘The Bonehunters march alone, leaking blood with every step. Fists,
captains and cooks all ask the same thing: what does she know? How does she
know it? Who speaks to this hard woman with the flat eyes, this Otataral sword
stolen from the Empress’s scabbard? Was it Quick Ben, our mysterious High Mage
who no longer walks with us? Was it Fist Keneb? Or perhaps the Empress is not the
mistress of betrayal as we all believe and the Empire’s High Mage Tayschrenn
now creeps in step with us, a shadow no one casts.’ He toasted with his jug. ‘Or
has she simply gone mad? But no, none of us think so, do we? She knows.
Something. But what? And how?’ He drank, weaved a moment as if about to fall,
then steadied himself before Lostara Yil reached him. Noticing her, he offered
the woman a loose smile.
‘Or is the ex-priest whispering in
her ear?’ The question was asked by Fist Blistig, his tone strained and cold.
Banaschar’s brows lifted. ‘The last
priest of D’rek has no time for whispering, my dear boneless Fist Blistig—’
The Fist grunted an oath and would
have stepped forward if Kindly had not edged deftly into his path.
Smiling, Banaschar went on. ‘All the
chewing deafens him, anyway. Gnawing, on all sides. The dog has wounds – don’t
touch!’ He waved with his jug in the Adjunct’s direction. ‘The Bonehunters
march alone, oh yes, more alone than anyone could imagine. But look to Tavore
now – look carefully, friends. This solitude she insists upon, why, it’s not
complicated at all. Are you not all commanders? Friends, this is simple. It’s
called … tactics.’
Aranict looked to Brys in the odd
silence that followed, and she saw the glint of something awaken in his eyes,
as if an unknown language had suddenly become comprehensible. ‘Adjunct,’ he
said, ‘against the Lether Empire, you struck both overland and by sea. We
reeled from one direction and then another.’
‘You say you need us more than ever,’
said Mortal Sword Krughava then, ‘because we are to invade on more than one
front. Adjunct?’
‘Directly east of us waits the Glass
Desert,’ Tavore said. ‘While it offers the shortest route into the territories
of the Forkrul Assail, this path is not only reputedly treacherous but by all
accounts impossible for an army to traverse.’ She studied the Perish. ‘That is
the path the Bonehunters will take. Mortal Sword, you cannot accompany us,
because we cannot feed you, nor supply you with water. Beyond the Glass Desert,
by Queen Abrastal’s own account, the land scarcely improves.’
‘A moment, please.’ The Bolkando
queen was staring at the Adjunct. ‘The only viable overland routes are the
southern caravan tracks. The Glass Desert is truly impassable. If you take your
army into it you will destroy what’s left of the Bonehunters – not one of you
will emerge.’
‘We shall cross the Glass Desert,’
said the Adjunct, ‘emerging to the southwest of Estobanse Province. And we mean
to be seen by the enemy at the earliest opportunity. And they shall gather
their forces to meet us, and a battle shall be fought. One battle.’
Something in Tavore’s tone made
Aranict gasp and she felt herself grow cold with horror.
‘What of the Grey Helms?’ Krughava
demanded.
‘In the Bay of Kolanse there rises a
natural edifice known as the Spire. Atop this fastness there is a temple.
Within this temple something is trapped. Something wounded, something that
needs to be freed. The Bonehunters shall be the lodestone to the forces of the
Forkrul Assail, Mortal Sword, but it is the Perish who will strike the death
blow against the enemy.’
Aranict saw Krughava’s iron eyes
narrowing. ‘We are to take the south route.’
‘Yes.’
A battle. One battle. She means
to sacrifice herself and her soldiers. Oh, by all the Holds, she cannot—
‘You invite mutiny,’ said Fist
Blistig, his face flushed dark. ‘Tavore – you cannot ask this of us.’
And she faced her Fists then, and
said in a whisper, ‘But I must.’
‘Unwitnessed,’ said Faradan Sort,
ghost-pale, dry-lipped. ‘Adjunct, this battle you seek. If we face an enemy
believing only in our own deaths—’
Banaschar spoke, and Aranict was
shocked to see tears streaming down his cheeks. ‘To the executioner’s axe there
are those who kneel, head bowed, and await their fate. Then there are those who
fight, who strain, who cry out their defiance even as the blade descends.’ He
pointed a finger at Blistig. ‘Now you will speak true, Fist: which one is
Adjunct Tavore?’
‘A drunken fool speaks for our
commander?’ Blistig’s voice was vicious. He bared his teeth. ‘How damned
appropriate! Will you stand there with us on that day, Banaschar?’
‘I shall.’
‘Drunk.’ The word was a sneer.
The man’s answering smile was
terrible. ‘No. Stone sober, Blistig. As befits your one – your only – witness.’
‘Hood take your damned executioner!
I will have none of this!’ Blistig appealed to his fellow Fists. ‘Knowing what
you now know, will you lead your soldiers to their deaths? If this Glass Desert
doesn’t kill us, the Assail will. And all for what? A feint? A fucking feint?’
He spun to the Adjunct. ‘Is that all we’re worth, woman? A rusty dagger for one
last thrust and if the blade snaps, what of it?’
Krughava spoke. ‘Adjunct Tavore.
This thing that is wounded, this thing in the temple upon the Spire – what is
it that you wish freed?’
‘The heart of the Crippled God,’
Tavore replied.
The Mortal Sword seemed visibly
rocked by that. Behind her, with eyes shining, Tanakalian asked, ‘Why?’
‘The Forkrul Assail draw upon its
blood, Shield Anvil. They seek to open the Gates of Justice upon this world.
Akhrast Korvalain. To unleash the fullest measure of power, they intend to
drive a blade through that heart when the time is right—’
‘And when is that?’ Abrastal
demanded.
‘When the Spears of Jade arrive,
Highness. Less than three months from now, if Banaschar’s calculations are
correct.’
The ex-priest grunted. ‘D’rek is
coiled about time itself, friends.’
Clearing his throat, Brys asked, ‘The
Jade Spears, Adjunct. What are they?’
‘The souls of his worshippers,
Prince. His beloved believers. They are coming for their god.’
Chills tracked Aranict’s spine.
‘If the heart is freed,’ said
Krughava, ‘then … he can return to them.’
‘Yes.’
‘He will leave pieces behind no
matter what,’ said Banaschar. ‘Pulling him down tore him apart. But there
should be enough. As for the rest, well, “for the rotted flesh, the Worm sings”.’
His laugh was bitter. He stared at Tavore. ‘See her? Look well, all of you. She
is the madness of ambition, friends. From beneath the hands of the Forkrul
Assail, and those of the gods themselves, she means to steal the Crippled God’s
heart.’
Queen Abrastal gusted out a breath. ‘My
Fourteenth Daughter is even now approaching the South Kingdoms. She is a
sorceress of considerable talent. If we are to continue this discussion of
tactics, I will seek to open a path to her—’
The Adjunct cut in. ‘Highness, this
is not your war.’
‘Forgive me, Adjunct Tavore, but I
believe it is.’ She turned to her Barghast Warchief. ‘Spax, your warriors
hunger for a scrap – what say you?’
‘Where you lead, Highness, the White
Face Gilk shall follow.’
‘The Otataral sword I wear—’
‘Forgive me again, Adjunct, but the
power my daughter is drawing upon now happens to be Elder. Omtose Phellack.’
Tavore blinked. ‘I see.’
Brys Beddict then spoke. ‘Mortal
Sword Krughava, if you will accept the alliance of Queen Abrastal, will you
accept mine?’
The grey-haired woman bowed. ‘Prince
– and Highness – the Perish are honoured. But …’ she hesitated, then continued,
‘I must tell you all, I shall be harsh company. Knowing what the Bonehunters
face … knowing that they will face it alone, as wounded as the very heart they
would see freed … ah, my mood is grim indeed, and I do not expect that to
change. When at last I strike for the Spire, you will be hard pressed to match
my determination.’
Brys smiled. ‘A worthy challenge,
Mortal Sword.’
The Adjunct walked to stand once
more before Hanavat. ‘Mother,’ she said, ‘I would ask this of you: will the
Khundryl march with the Bonehunters?’
Hanavat seemed to struggle finding
her voice. ‘Adjunct, we are few.’
‘Nonetheless.’
‘Then … yes, we shall march with
you.’
Queen Abrastal asked, ‘Adjunct?
Shall I call upon Felash, my Fourteenth Daughter? There are matters of tactics
and logistics awaiting us this day. By your leave, I—’
‘I am done with this!’ Blistig
shouted, turning to leave.
‘Stand where you are, Fist,’ Tavore
said in a voice like bared steel.
‘I resign—’
‘I forbid it.’
He stared at her, mouth open in
shock.
‘Fists Blistig, Kindly and Faradan
Sort, our companies need to be readied for tomorrow’s march. I shall call upon
you all at dusk to hear reports of our status. Until then, you are dismissed.’
Kindly grasped Blistig by one arm
and marched him out, Sort following with a wry smile.
‘Omtose Phellack,’ muttered
Banaschar once they’d left. ‘Adjunct, I was chilled enough the last time. Will
you excuse me?’
Tavore nodded. ‘Captain Yil, please
escort our priest to his tent, lest he get lost.’ She then shot Aranict a
glance, as if to ask Are you ready for this? To which Aranict nodded.
Abrastal sighed. ‘Very well, shall
we begin?’
Aranict saw that the dung had burned
down to dull ashes. She flicked away the gutted butt of her last stick, and
then stood, lifting her gaze to the Spears of Jade.
We’ll do what we can. Today, we
promised as much. What we can.
One battle. Oh, Tavore …
Sick and shaken as she had been, her
hardest journey this day had been back through the Bonehunter camp. The
soldiers, their faces, the low conversations and the occasional laugh – each
and every scene, each and every sound, struck her heart like a dagger’s point. I
am looking upon dead men, dead women. They don’t know it yet. They don’t know
what’s awaiting them, what she means to do with them.
Or maybe they do.
Unwitnessed. I’ve heard about
this, about what she told them. Unwitnessed … is what happens when nobody
survives.
He’d intended to call them all
together during the Adjunct’s parley, but re-forming the squads had taken longer
than he’d thought it would – a notion which, he decided, had been foolishly
optimistic. Even with spaces in each campfire’s circle yawning like silent
howls, marines and heavies might as well have been rooted to the ground. They’d
needed pulling, kicking, dragging out of their old places.
To fit into a new thing you had to
leave the old thing behind, and that wasn’t as easy as it sounded, since it
meant accepting that the old thing was dead, for ever gone, no matter where you
tried standing or how stubbornly you held fast.
Fiddler knew he’d been no different.
As bad as Hedge in that regard, in fact. The heavies and the marines were a
chewed-up mess. Standing over them, like some cutter above a mauled patient,
trying to work out exactly what he was looking at – desperate for something
even remotely recognizable – he’d watched them trickle slowly into the basin he’d
chosen for this meeting. As the sun waned in the sky, as pairs of squad-mates
set out to find some missing comrade, eventually returning with a scowling
companion in tow – aye, this was a rough scene, resentment thickening in the
dusty air.
He’d waited, weathering their
impatience, until at last, with dusk fast rushing in, the final recalcitrant
soldier walked into the crowd – Koryk.
Well. You can try all the
browbeating you want, when the skull’s turned into a solid stone wall there’s
no getting in.
‘So,’ Fiddler said, ‘I’m captain to
you lot now.’ He stared at the faces – only half of which seemed to be paying
him any attention. ‘If Whiskeyjack could see me right now, he’d probably choke –
I was never cut out for anything more than what I was in the beginning. A
sapper—’
‘So what is it,’ a voice called out,
‘you want us to feel sorry for you?’
‘No, Gaunt-Eye. With you all feeling
so sorry for yourselves I wouldn’t stand a chance, would I? I look out at you
now and you know what I’m thinking? I’m thinking: you ain’t Bridgeburners. You
ain’t even close.’
Even the gloom wasn’t enough to hide
the hard hostility fixed on him now. ‘Aye,’ he said. ‘You see, it was back in
Blackdog that it finally clunked home that we were the walking dead. Someone
wanted us in the ground, and damn if we didn’t mostly end up there. In the
tunnels of Pale, the tombs of the Bridgeburners. Tombs they dug for themselves.
Heard a few stragglers hung on until Black Coral, and those bodies ended up in
Moon’s Spawn the day it was abandoned by the Tiste Andii. An end to the tale,
but like I said, we saw that end coming from a long way off.’
He fell silent then, momentarily
lost in his own memories, the million losses that added up to what he felt now.
Then he shook himself and looked up once more. ‘But you lot.’ He shook his
head. ‘You’re too stupid to know what’s been beating you on the heads ever
since Y’Ghatan. Wide-eyed stupid.’
Cuttle spoke up. ‘We’re the walking
dead.’
‘Thanks for the good news, Fid,’
someone said, his voice muffled.
A few laughs, but they were bitter.
Fiddler continued. ‘Those lizards
took a nasty bite out of us. In fact, they pretty much did us in. Look around.
We’re what’s left. The smoke over Pale’s thinning, and here we are. Aye, it’s
my past pulling me right round till I’m facing the wrong way. You think you
feel like shits – try standing in my boots, boys and girls.’
‘Thought we were going to decide
what to do.’
Fiddler found Gaunt-Eye in the
crowd. ‘Is that what you thought, Sergeant? Is that really what you thought we’d
be doing here? What, we gonna vote on something? We gonna stick up our little
hands after arguing ourselves blue? After digging our little holes and
crouching in ’em like mummy’s womb? Tell me, Sergeant, exactly what have we got
to argue about?’
‘Pulling out.’
‘Someone rustle up a burial detail,
we got us a sergeant to plant.’
‘You called this damned meeting,
Captain—’
‘Aye, I did. But not to hold hands.
The Adjunct wants something special from us. Once we get t’other side of the
Glass Desert. And here I am letting you know, we’re going to be our own little
army. Nobody wanders off, is that understood? On the march, you all stay tight.
Keep your weapons, keep sharp, and wait for my word.’
‘You call this an army, Captain?’
‘It’ll have to do, won’t it?’
‘So what is it we’re supposed to do?’
‘You’ll find out, I’m sure.’
A few more laughs.
‘More lizards waiting for us, Cap’n?’
‘No, Reliko, we took care of them
already, remember?’
‘Damn me, I miss something?’
‘No lizards,’ Fiddler said. ‘Something
even uglier and nastier, in fact.’
‘All right then,’ said Reliko, ‘s’long
as it’s not lizards.’
‘Hold on,’ said Corporal Rib. ‘Captain,
y’had us sitting here all afternoon? Just to tell us that?’
‘Not my fault we had stragglers,
Corporal. I need some lessons from Sort, or maybe Kindly. A captain orders,
soldiers obey. At least it’s supposed to work that way. But then, you’re all
different now … special cases, right? You’ll follow an order only if you feel
like it. You earned that, or something. How? By living when your buddies died.
Why’d they die? Right. They were following orders – whether they liked ’em or
not. Fancy that. Deciding whether or not to show up here, what was that? Must’ve
been honouring your fallen comrades, I suppose, the ones who died in your
place.’
‘Maybe we’re broken.’
Again, that voice he couldn’t quite
place. Fiddler scratched his beard and shook his head. ‘You’re not broken. The
walking dead don’t break. Still waiting for that to clunk home, are ya? We’re
going to be the Adjunct’s little army. But too little – anyone can see
that. Now, it’s not that she wants us dead. She doesn’t. In fact, it might even
be that she’s trying to save our lives – after all, where’s she taking the
regulars? Chances are, wherever that is, you don’t want to be there.
‘So maybe she thinks we’ve earned a
break. Or maybe not. Who knows what the Adjunct thinks, about anything. She
wants what’s left of the heavies and the marines in one company. Simple enough.’
‘You know more than you’re saying,
Fiddler.’
‘Do I, Koryk?’
‘Aye. You’ve got the Deck of
Dragons.’
‘What I know is this. Next time I
give you all an order, I don’t expect to have to wait all day to see you follow
it. Next soldier tries that with me gets tossed to the regulars. Outa the
special club, for good.’
‘We dismissed, Captain?’
‘I ain’t decided yet. In fact, I’m
tempted to make you sit here all night. Just to make a point, right? The one
about discipline, the one your friends died for.’
‘We took that point the first time,
Captain.’
‘Maybe you did, Cuttle. Ready
to say the same for the rest of ’em?’
‘No.’
Fiddler sat down on a boulder at the
edge of the basin and settled until he was comfortable. He looked into the
night sky. ‘Ain’t that jade light pretty?’
Things were simple, really. There’s
only so much a soldier can do, only so much a soldier needs to think about at
any one time. Pile on too much and their knees start shaking, their eyes glaze
over, and they start looking around for something to kill. Because killing
simplifies. It’s called an elimination of distractions.
Her horse was content, watered and
fed enough to send the occasional stream down and plant an island or two in
their wake. Happy horse, happy Masan Gilani. Simple. Her companions were
once more nowhere to be seen. Sour company besides; she hardly missed them.
And she herself wasn’t feeling as
saggy and slack as she’d been only a day earlier. Who knew where the T’lan
Imass had found the smoked antelope meat, the tanned bladders filled to
bursting with clean, cold water, the loaves of hard bread and the rancid jar of
buttery cheese. Probably the same place as the forage for her horse. And
wherever that was, it was a hundred leagues away from here – oh, speak it
plain, Masan. It was through some infernal warren. Aye, I seen them fall into
dust, but maybe that’s not what it seems. Maybe they just step into another
place.
Somewhere nice. Where at the
point of a stone sword farmers hand over victuals with a beaming smile and good
hale to you all.
Dusk was darkening the sky. She’d
have to stop soon.
They must have heard her coming, for
the two men stood waiting at the far end of the slope, staring up at her the
instant she’d cleared the rise. Masan reined in, squinted for a moment, and
then nudged her mount forward.
‘You’re not all that’s left,’ she
said as she drew nearer. ‘You can’t be.’
Captain Ruthan Gudd shook his head. ‘We’re
not far from them. A league or two, I’d wager.’
‘We’d thought to just push on,’
added Bottle.
‘Do you know how bad it was?’
‘Not yet,’ said the captain, eyeing
her horse. ‘That beast looks too fit, Masan Gilani.’
‘No such thing,’ she replied,
dismounting, ‘as a too-fit horse, sir.’
He made a face. ‘Meaning you’re not
going to explain yourself.’
‘Didn’t you desert?’ Bottle asked. ‘If
you did, Masan, you’re riding the wrong way, unless you’re happy with being
strung up.’
‘She didn’t desert,’ Ruthan Gudd
said, turning to resume walking. ‘Special mission for the Adjunct.’
‘How do you know anything about it,
sir?’ Masan asked, falling in step with the two men.
‘I don’t. I’m just guessing.’ He
combed at his beard. ‘I have a talent for that.’
‘Has plenty of talents does our
captain here,’ Bottle muttered.
Whatever was going on between these
two, she had to admit to herself that she was happy to see them. ‘So how did
you two get separated from the army?’ she asked. ‘By the way, you both look a
mess. Bottle, you bathe in blood or something? I barely recognized you.’
‘You’d look the same,’ he retorted, ‘buried
under fifty corpses for half a day.’
‘Not quite that long,’ the captain
corrected.
Her breath caught. ‘So you were
at the battle,’ she said. ‘What battle? What in Hood’s name happened?’
‘Bits are missing,’ Bottle replied,
shrugging.
‘Bits?’
He seemed ready to say something,
changed his mind and instead said, ‘I didn’t quite catch it all. Especially
the, er, second half. But you know, Masan, all the stories about high attrition
among officers in the Malazan military?’ He jerked a thumb at Ruthan Gudd. ‘It
ain’t so with him.’
The captain said, ‘If you hear a
certain resentment in his tone, it’s because I saved his life.’
‘And as for the smugness in the
captain’s tone—’
‘Fine,’ she snapped. ‘Aye, the
Adjunct sent me to find some people.’
‘Which you evidently failed to do,’
observed Bottle.
‘No she didn’t,’ said Ruthan Gudd.
‘So all this crawling skin I’m
feeling isn’t fleas?’
Ruthan Gudd bared his teeth in a
hard grin. ‘Well no, it probably is, soldier. Frankly, I’d be surprised if you
did feel something – oh, I know, you’re a mage. Fid’s shaved knuckle, right?
Even so, these bastards know how to hide.’
‘Let me guess: they’re inside the
horse. Isn’t there some legend about—’
‘The moral of which,’ Rudd
interjected, ‘is consistently misapprehended. It’s nothing to do with what you
think it’s to do with. The fact is, that tale’s moral is “don’t trust horses”.
Sometimes people look way too hard into such things. Other times, of course,
they don’t look hard enough. But most of the time by far, they don’t look at
all.’
‘If you want,’ said Masan Gilani, ‘I
can ask them to show themselves.’
‘I’ve absolutely no interest in—’
‘I do,’ Bottle cut him off. ‘Your
pardon, sir, for interrupting.’
‘An apology I’m not prepared to
accept, soldier. As for these guests, Masan Gilani, your offer is categorically—’
Swirls of dust on all sides.
Moments later five T’lan Imass
encircled them.
‘Gods below,’ Ruthan Gudd muttered.
As one, the undead warriors bowed to
the captain. One spoke. ‘We greet you, Elder.’
Gudd’s second curse was in a
language Masan Gilani had never heard before.
‘It’s not what you think,’ he’d
said with those hoary things bowing before him. And he’d not said much else.
The T’lan Imass vanished again a short time later and the three soldiers
continued on as the night deepened around them.
Bottle wanted to scream. The captain’s
company over the past few days had been an exercise in patience and
frustration. He wasn’t a man for words. Ruthan Gudd. Or whatever your name
really is. It’s not what I think? How do you know what I think? Besides, it’s
exactly what I think. Fid has his shaved knuckle, and it seems the Adjunct has
one, too.
A Hood-damned Elder God – after all,
what other kind of ‘Elder’ would T’lan Imass bow before? And since when did
they bow before anything?
Masan Gilani’s barrage of questions
had withered the T’lan Imass to dust with, Bottle thought, a harried haste. But
things from the past had a way of refusing illumination. As bad as standing
stones, they held all their secrets buried deep inside. It wasn’t even a
question of irritating coyness. They just don’t give a shit. Explanations?
What’s the point? Who cares what you think you need to know, anyway? If I’m a
stone, lean against me. If I’m a ruin, rest your weary arse on the rubble. And
if I’m an Elder God, well, Abyss take you, don’t look to me for anything.
But he’d ridden out against the Nah’ruk,
when he could have ridden the other way. He went and made a stand. Which made
him what? Another one in mysterious service to Adjunct Tavore Paran of Unta? But
why? Even the Empress didn’t want her in the end. T’amber, Quick Ben, even
Fiddler – they stood with her, even when it cost them their lives.
Soldiers muttered she didn’t inspire
a damned thing in them. Soldiers grumbled that she was no Dujek Onearm, no
Coltaine, no Crust, no Dassem Ultor. They didn’t know what she was. None of
us do, come to that. But look at us, right here, right now, walking back to
her. A Dal Honese horsewoman who can ride like the wind – well, a heavy wind,
then. An Elder God … and me. Gods below, I’ve lost my mind.
Not quite. I tore it apart. Only
to have Quick Ben make sure most of it came back. Do I feel different? Am I
changed? How would I even know?
But I miss the Bonehunters. I
miss my miserable squad. I miss the damned Adjunct.
We’re nothing but the sword in
her hand, but we’re a comfortable grip. Use us, then. Just do it in style.
‘Camp glow ahead,’ said Masan
Gilani, who once more rode her horse. ‘Looks damned big.’
‘Her allies have arrived,’ said
Ruthan Gudd, then added, ‘I expect.’
Bottle snorted. ‘Does she know you’re
alive, Captain?’
‘Why should she?’
‘Well, because …’
‘I’m a captain, soldier.’
‘Who rode alone into the face of a
Nah’ruk legion! Armoured in ice! With a sword of ice! A horse—’
‘Oh, enough, Bottle. You have no
idea how much I regret doing what I did. It’s nice not being noticed. Maybe one
day you humans will finally understand that, and do away with all your mad
ambitions, your insipid self-delusional megalomania. You weren’t shat out by
some god on high. You weren’t painted in the flesh of the divine – at least,
not any more than anyone or anything else. What’s with you all, anyway? You jam
a stick up your own arse then preen at how tall and straight you’re standing.
Soldier, you think you put your crawling days behind the day you left your
mother’s tit? Take it from me – you’re still crawling, lad. Probably always will.’
Bludgeoned by the tirade, Bottle was
silent.
‘You two go on,’ said Masan Gilani. ‘I
need to piss.’
‘That last time was the horse then?’
Rudd asked.
‘Oh, funny man – or whatever.’ She
reined in.
‘So they bowed to you,’ Bottle said
as he and the captain continued on. ‘Why take it out on me?’
‘I didn’t – ah, never mind. To
answer you, no, the Adjunct knows nothing about me. But as you say, my precious
anonymity is over – or it is assuming the moment we’re in camp you go running
off to your sergeant.’
‘I’m sure I will,’ Bottle replied. ‘But
not, if you like, to babble about you being an Elder God.’
‘God? Not a god, Bottle. I told you:
it’s not what you think.’
‘I’ll keep your ugly little secret,
sir, if that’s how you want it. But that won’t change what we all saw that day,
will it?’
‘Stormrider magic, yes. That.’
‘That.’
‘I borrowed it.’
‘Borrowed?’
‘Yes,’ he snapped in reply. ‘I don’t
steal, Bottle.’
‘Of course not, sir. Why would you
need to?’
‘Exactly.’
Bottle nodded in the gloom, listening
as Masan rode back up to them. ‘Borrowed.’
‘A misunderstood people, the
Stormriders.’
‘No doubt. Abject terror leaves
little room for much else.’
‘Interestingly,’ Ruthan Gudd said in
a murmur, ‘needs have converged somewhat. And I’m too old to believe in
coincidence. No matter. We do what we do and that’s that.’
‘Sounds like something Fiddler would
say.’
‘Fiddler’s a wise man, Bottle. He’s
also the best of you, though I doubt many would see that, at least not as
clearly as I do.’
‘Fiddler, is it? Not the Adjunct,
Captain?’
He heard Ruthan Gudd’s sigh, and it
was a sound filled with sorrow. ‘I see pickets.’
‘So do I,’ said Masan Gilani. ‘Not
Malazan. Perish.’
‘Our allies,’ said Bottle, glaring
at Ruthan Gudd, but of course it was too dark for him to see that. Then
again, what’s darkness to a Hood-cursed ice-wielding Imass-kneeling Elder God?
Who then spoke. ‘It was a guess,
Bottle. Truly.’
‘You took my anger.’
The voice came out of the shadows.
Blinking, Lostara Yil slowly sat up, the furs sliding down, the chill air
sweeping around her bared breasts, back and belly. A figure was sitting on the
tent’s lone camp stool to her left, cloaked, hooded in grey wool. The two
hands, hanging down past the bend of his knees, were pale as bone.
Lostara’s heart thudded hard in her
chest. ‘I felt it,’ she said. ‘Rising like a flood.’ She shivered, whispered, ‘And
I drowned.’
‘Your love summoned me, Lostara Yil.’
She scowled. ‘I have no love for
you, Cotillion.’
The hooded head dipped slightly. ‘The
man you chose to defend.’
His tone startled her. Weary,
yes, but more than that. Lonely. This god is lonely.
‘You danced for him and none other,’
Cotillion went on. ‘Not even the Adjunct.’
‘I expected to die.’
‘I know.’
She waited. Faint voices from the
camp beyond the flimsy walls, the occasional glow of a hooded lantern swinging
past, the thud of boots.
The silence stretched.
‘You saved us,’ she finally said. ‘For
that, I suppose I have to thank you.’
‘No, Lostara Yil, you do not. I
possessed you, after all. You didn’t ask for that, but then, even all those
years ago, the grace of your dance was … breathtaking.’
Her breath caught. Something was
happening here. She didn’t understand it. ‘If you did not wish my gratitude,
Cotillion, why are you here?’ Even as she spoke, she flinched at her own tone’s
harshness. That came out all wrong—
His face remained hidden. ‘Those
were early days, weren’t they. Our flesh was real, our breaths … real. It was
all there, in reach, and we took it without a moment’s thought as to how
precious it all was. Our youth, the brightness of the sun, the heat that seemed
to stretch ahead for ever.’
She realized then that he was
weeping. Felt helpless before it. What is this about? ‘I took your
anger, you said.’ And yes, she could remember it, the way the power filled her.
The skill with the swords was entirely her own, but the swiftness – the
profound awareness – that had belonged to him. ‘I took your anger. Cotillion,
what did you take from me?’
He seemed to shake his head. ‘I
think I’m done with possessing women.’
‘What did you take? You took that
love, didn’t you? It drowned you, just as your anger drowned me.’
He sighed. ‘Always an even exchange.’
‘Can a god not love?’
‘A god … forgets.’
She was appalled. ‘But then, what
keeps you going? Cotillion, why do you fight on?’
Abruptly he stood. ‘You are chilled.
I have disturbed your rest—’
‘Possess me again.’
‘What?’
‘The love that I feel. You need it,
Cotillion. That need is what brought you here, wasn’t it? You want to … to
drown again.’
His reply was a frail whisper. ‘I
cannot.’
‘Why not? I offer this to you. As a
true measure of my gratitude. When a mortal communes with her god, is not the
language love itself?’
‘My worshippers love me not, Lostara
Yil. Besides, I have nothing worthy to give in exchange. I appreciate your
offer—’
‘Listen, you shit, I’m trying to
give you some of your humanity back. You’re a damned god – if you lose your
passion where does that leave us?’
The question clearly rocked him. ‘I
do not doubt the path awaiting me, Lostara Yil. I am strong enough for it,
right to the bitter end—’
‘I don’t doubt any of that. I felt
you, remember? Listen, whatever that end you see coming … what I’m offering is
to take away some of its bitterness. Don’t you see that?’
He was shaking his head. ‘You don’t
understand. The blood on my hands—’
‘Is now on my hands, too, or have
you forgotten that?’
‘No. I possessed you—’
‘You think that makes a difference?’
‘I should not have come here.’
‘Probably not, but here you are, and
that hood doesn’t hide everything. Very well, refuse my offer, but do you
really think it’s just women who feel love? If you decide never again to feel …
anything, then best you swear off possession entirely, Cotillion. Steal into us
mortals and we’ll take what we need from you, and we’ll give in return whatever
we own. If you’re lucky, it’ll be love. If you’re not lucky, well, Hood knows
what you’ll get.’
‘I am aware of this.’
‘Yes, you must be. I’m sorry. But,
Cotillion, you gave me more than your anger. Don’t you see that? The man I love
does not now grieve for me. His love is not for a ghost, a brief moment in his
life that he can never recapture. You gave us both a chance to live, and to
love – it doesn’t matter for how much longer.’
‘I also spared the Adjunct, and by
extension this entire army.’
She cocked her head, momentarily
disoriented. ‘Do you regret that?’
He hesitated, and that silence
rippled like ice-water through Lostara Yil.
‘While she lives,’ he said, ‘the
path awaiting you, and this beleaguered, half-damned army, is as bitter as my
own. To the suffering to come … ah, there are no gifts in any of this.’
‘There must be, Cotillion. They
exist. They always do.’
‘Will you all die in the name of
love?’ The question seemed torn from something inside him.
‘If die we must, what better reason?’
He studied her for a dozen
heartbeats, and then said, ‘I have been considering … amends.’
‘Amends? I don’t understand.’
‘Our youth,’ he murmured, as if he
had not heard her, ‘the brightness of the sun. She chose to leave him. Because,
I fear, of me, of what I did to her. It was wrong. All of it, so terribly wrong.
Love … I’d forgotten.’
The shadows deepened, and a moment
later she was alone in her tent. She? Cotillion, listen to my prayer. For
all your fears, love is not something you can forget. But you can turn your
back on it. Do not do that. A god had sought her out. A god suffering
desperate need. But she couldn’t give him what he desired – perhaps, she saw
now, he’d been wise in rejecting what she’d offered. The first time, it was
anger for love. But I saw no anger left in him.
Always an even exchange. If I
opened my love to him … whatever he had left inside himself, he didn’t want to
give it to me. And that, she now comprehended, had been an act of mercy.
The things said and the things
not said. In the space in between, a thousand worlds. A thousand worlds.
The Perish escort of two armoured,
helmed and taciturn soldiers halted. The one on the left pointed and said to Bottle,
‘There, marine, you will find your comrades. They have gathered at the summons
of their captain.’ To Masan Gilani and Ruthan Gudd, the soldier continued, ‘The
Adjunct’s command tent lies elsewhere, but as we have come to the edge of the
Bonehunter encampment, I expect you will have little difficulty in finding your
own way.’
‘Much as we will miss your company,’
Ruthan Gudd said, ‘I am sure you are correct. Thank you for guiding us this
far, sirs.’
The figures – Bottle wasn’t even
sure if they were men or women, and the voice of the one who’d spoken gave no
hint whatsoever – bowed, and then turned about to retrace their routes.
Bottle faced his companions. ‘We
part here, then. Masan, I expect I’ll see you soon enough. Captain.’ He saluted
smartly.
The man scowled in reply. Gesturing
to Masan, he set off for the heart of the camp.
Bottle faced the direction the guard
had indicated. What’s Sort got to say to them, then? Guess I’m about to find
out.
They’d set no pickets. A small mass
of soldiers were seated or standing in a basin, and at the far end, hunched
down on a boulder … is that Fiddler? Gods below, don’t tell me this is all
that’s left! Tentatively, he approached.
They made their own way through a
relatively quiet camp. It was late, and Masan was not looking forward to
rousing the Adjunct, but she knew Tavore would not abide any delays to any of
this. Though my report probably won’t impress her. Five beat-up T’lan Imass
is all I’ve got to show. No, it was Ruthan Gudd who was marching into a
serious mess. She hoped she’d be witness to at least some of that exchange, if
only to revel in the captain’s discomfort.
Elder! Well, I won’t tell. But
all the rest you did, Captain, now that sounded interesting. Too bad I missed
it.
They passed through a few groups
here and there, and Masan sensed a heightening attention from those faces
turned their way, but no one accosted them. No one said a damned thing. Strange
and stranger still.
They came to within sight of the
command tent. Two guards were stationed at the flap, and the glow of lantern
light painted the canvas walls.
‘Does she ever sleep?’ Ruthan Gudd
wondered in a drawl.
‘In her boots,’ Masan replied, ‘I
doubt I would.’
The eyes of the guards were now on
them, and both slowly straightened, their shadowed gazes clearly fixing on the
captain. Both saluted when he halted before them.
‘She probably wants to see us,’
Ruthan said.
‘You have leave to enter, sir,’ one
of them said.
As the captain moved to the entrance
the same guard said, ‘Sir?’
‘Yes?’
‘Welcome back.’
Masan followed him inside.
‘Of all the luck,’ muttered Ruthan
Gudd upon seeing a dozing Skanarow. He held a hand to stay Masan. ‘Please,’ he
whispered, ‘don’t wake her.’
‘Coward,’ she mouthed in reply.
Grimacing, he edged past the
sleeping woman. As she neared, Masan’s gaze fell to one wayward booted foot,
and she gave it a kick.
Skanarow bolted upright. ‘Adj— Gods
below!’
That shout rang loud as a hammered
cauldron.
At the very threshold to the inner
chamber, Ruthan Gudd wheeled. Whatever he intended to say, he had no chance, as
Skanarow was upon him in an instant. Such was the force of her lunge and
embrace that he staggered back, splitting the curtain, into the Adjunct’s
presence.
Skanarow held her kiss as if glued
to the captain’s mouth.
Grinning, Masan Gilani edged in
behind them, caught the Adjunct’s astonished gaze.
Tavore was standing beside a small
folding map table. She was otherwise alone, accounting for her half-dressed
state – only the quilted undergarment of her armour covered her torso, and
below that nothing but loose linen trousers, the knees so stained they’d have
embarrassed a farmer. Her face was strangely streaked in the half-light of a
single oil lamp.
‘Adjunct,’ Masan Gilani said,
saluting. ‘On my return journey, I happened upon the captain here, and a marine
named Bottle, from Fiddler’s squad—’
‘Skanarow!’ The word was sharp as a
blade. ‘Disengage yourself from the captain. I believe he has come here to
speak to me – as for the rest, it will have to wait.’
Skanarow pulled herself from Ruthan
Gudd. ‘M-my apologies, Adjunct. I – with your leave, I will wait outside—’
‘You will not. You will return to
your tent and wait there. I trust the captain will find it without much
trouble?’
Skanarow blinked, and then, fighting
a smile, she saluted a second time and, with one last glance at Ruthan – a look
that was either a glare or a dark promise – she was gone.
Ruthan Gudd straightened before the
Adjunct and cleared his throat. ‘Adjunct.’
‘Your act, Captain, on the day of
the Nah’ruk, broke enough military conventions to warrant a court-martial. You
abandoned your soldiers and disobeyed orders.’
‘Yes, Adjunct.’
‘And quite possibly saved all our
lives.’ She seemed to become cognizant of her attire, for she turned to the
tent’s centre pole, where a robe hung from a hook. Shrugging into the woollen
garment she faced Ruthan again. ‘Entire tomes have been devoted to a discussion
of these particular incidents in military campaigns. Disobedience on the one
hand and extraordinary valour on the other. What is to be done with such a
soldier?’
‘Rank and discipline must ever take
precedence, Adjunct.’
Her gaze sharpened on him. ‘Is that
your learned opinion on the matter, Captain? Content, are you, with distilling
all those tomes in a handful of words?’
‘Frankly, Adjunct? Yes.’
‘I see. Then what do you suggest I
do with you?’
‘At the very least, Adjunct, reduce
my rank. For you are accurate and proper in noting my dereliction of
responsibility regarding the soldiers under my command.’
‘Of course I am, you fool.’ She ran
a hand through her short hair, and caught Masan’s gaze. The Dal Honese could
not help but see the faint gleam in those unremarkable – and clearly tired –
eyes. ‘Very well, Ruthan Gudd. You have lost your command. Your rank, however,
shall remain unchanged, but from this day forward you are attached to my staff.
And if you imagine this to be some sort of promotion, well, I suggest you sit
down with Lostara Yil some time soon.’ She paused, eyes narrowing on Ruthan
Gudd. ‘Why, Captain, you seem displeased. Good. Now, as to other matters that
we should discuss, perhaps they can wait. There is one woman in this camp,
however, who cannot. Dismissed.’
His salute was somewhat shaky.
When he was gone, the Adjunct sighed
and sat down by her map table. ‘Forgive me, marine, for my improper state. It
has been a long day.’
‘No need to apologize, Adjunct.’
Tavore’s eyes travelled up and down
Masan, sending a faint tremor through her spine – oh, I know that kind of
look. ‘You look surprisingly hale, soldier.’
‘Modest gifts from our new allies,
Adjunct.’
Brows lifted. ‘Indeed?’
‘Alas, there’re only five of them.’
‘Five?’
‘T’lan Imass, Adjunct. I don’t know
if they were the allies you sought. In fact, they found me, not the other way
round, and it is their opinion that my bringing them here was the right thing
to do.’
The Adjunct continued studying her.
Masan felt trickles of sweat wending down the small of her back. I don’t
know. She’s a damned skinny one …
‘Summon them.’
The figures rose from the dirt
floor. Dust to bones, dust to withered flesh, dust to chipped weapons of stone.
The T’lan Imass bowed to the Adjunct.
The one named Beroke then spoke. ‘Adjunct
Tavore Paran, we are the Unbound. We bring you greeting, Adjunct, from the
Crippled God.’
And at that something seemed to
crumple inside Tavore, for she leaned forward, set her hands to her face, and
said, ‘Thank you. I thought … out of time … too late. Oh gods, thank you.’
He’d stood unnoticed for some time,
just one more marine, there on the edge of the crowd. Holding back, unsure of
what he was witnessing here. Fiddler wasn’t saying anything. In fact, the
bastard might well be sleeping, with his head sunk down like that. As for the
soldiers in the basin, some muttered back and forth, a few tried to sleep but
were kicked awake by their companions.
When Fiddler lifted his gaze, the
marines and heavies fell silent, suddenly attentive. The sergeant was rummaging
in his kit bag. He drew something out but it was impossible to see what. Peered
at it for a long moment, and then returned it to his satchel. ‘Cuttle!’
‘Aye?’
‘He’s here. Go find him.’
The sapper rose and slowly turned. ‘All
right, then,’ he growled, ‘I ain’t got the eyes of a rat. So show yourself,
damn you.’
A slow heat prickled through Bottle.
He looked round.
Fiddler said, ‘Aye, Bottle. You. Don’t
be so thick.’
‘Here,’ Bottle said.
Figures close to him swung round
then. A few muffled curses, and all at once a space opened around him. Cuttle
was making his way over, and even in the gloom his expression was severe.
‘I think Smiles sold off your kit,
Bottle,’ he said as he arrived to stand before him. ‘At least you scrounged up
some weapons, which is saying something.’
‘You all knew?’
‘Knew what? That you survived? Gods
no. We all figured you dead and gone. You think Smiles would’ve sold off your
stuff if we didn’t?’
He could see the rest of the squad
drawing up behind Cuttle. ‘Well, yes.’
The sapper grunted. ‘Got a point
there, soldier. Anyway, we didn’t know a damned thing. He just made us sit here
and wait, is what he did—’
‘I thought this was Faradan Sort’s
meeting—’
‘Fid’s cap’n now, Bottle.’
‘Oh.’
‘And since he’s now a captain,
official and everything, he’s got decorum t’follow.’
‘Right. Of course. I mean—’
‘So instead of him doing this, it’s
me.’ And with that the veteran stepped close and embraced him, hard enough to
make Bottle’s bones ache. Cuttle’s breath was harsh in his ear. ‘Kept looking
at a card, y’see? Kept looking at it. Welcome back, Bottle. Gods below, welcome
home.’
Stormy halted the Ve’Gath.
Grainy-eyed, aching, he stared at the massed army seething in motion on the
flats below as the dawn sliced open the eastern horizon. Bonehunter standards
to the left, companies jostling to form up for the march – far too few
companies for Stormy’s liking. Already assembled and facing southeast, the
Letherii legions, and with them Perish ranks, and the gilt standards of some
other army. Scowling, he swung his gaze back to the Bonehunters. Positioned to
march due east. ‘Gods below.’
A scattering of Khundryl outriders
had spotted him, two setting off back to the vanguard while a half-dozen, bows
drawn and arrows nocked, rode swiftly in his direction. Seeing their growing
confusion as they approached, Stormy grinned. He lifted one hand in greeting.
They pulled up thirty paces away.
The ranks of the Bonehunters were
all halted now, facing in his direction. He saw the Adjunct and a handful of
officers emerging from the swirling dust near the column’s head to ride towards
him.
He considered meeting them halfway,
decided not to. Twisting round, he looked back at his K’ell Hunter escort and
the drones. Weapon points were buried in the hard ground. The drones had
settled on their tails, tiny birds dancing on their hides and feeding on ticks
and mites. From them all, a scent of calm repose. ‘Good. Stay there, all of
you. And don’t do anything … unnerving.’
Horses shied on the approach, and it
was quickly apparent that none of the mounts would draw within twenty long
strides of the Ve’Gath. Across the gap, Stormy met the Adjunct’s eyes. ‘I’d
dismount,’ he said, ‘but I think my legs died some time in the night. Adjunct,
I bring greetings from Mortal Sword Gesler, Destriant Kalyth, and the Gunthan K’Chain
Che’Malle.’
She slipped down from her mount and
walked towards him, slowly drawing off her leather gloves. ‘The Nah’ruk,
Corporal, were seeking their kin, correct?’
‘Aye. Estranged kin, I’d say. Saw no
hugs when we all met.’
‘If Sergeant Gesler is now Mortal
Sword, Corporal, what does that make you?’
‘Shield Anvil.’
‘I see. And the god you serve?’
‘Damned if I know, Adjunct.’
Tucking the gloves in her belt, she
drew off her helm and ran a hand through her hair. ‘Your battle with the Nah’ruk
…’
‘Malazan tactics, Adjunct, along
with these beasts, gave us the upper hand. We annihilated the bastards.’
Something changed in her face, but
nothing he could work out. She glanced back at her officers, or perhaps the
army waiting beyond, and then once more fixed her gaze upon him. ‘Shield Anvil
Stormy, this creature you ride—’
‘Ve’Gath Soldier, Adjunct. Only
three bear these … saddles.’
‘And your K’Chain Che’Malle army – I
see Hunters behind you as well. There are more of these Ve’Gath?’
My K’Chain Che’Malle army. ‘Aye,
lots. We got a bit mauled, to be sure. Those sky keeps gave us trouble, but
some unexpected allies arrived to take ’em down. That’s what I’m here to tell
you, Adjunct. Sinn and Grub found us. There was someone else, too. Never
figured out who, but no matter, nobody climbed down out of the Azath when it
was all done with, so I doubt they made it.’
He’d just thrown enough at her to
confuse a damned ascendant. Instead, she simply studied him, and then asked, ‘Shield
Anvil, you now command an army of K’Chain Che’Malle?’
‘Aye, and our two runts are saying
they have to stay with us, unless you order ’em back to you—’
‘No.’
Stormy cursed under his breath. ‘You
sure? They’re handy, don’t eat much, clean up after themselves … mostly – well,
occasionally – but with plenty of back-of-the-hand training, why, they’d shape
up—’
‘Fist Keneb is dead,’ she cut in. ‘We
have also lost Quick Ben, and most of the marines and the heavies.’
He winced. ‘Them Short-Tails was
bleeding when they found us. But what you’re saying tells me you could do with
the runts—’
‘No. You will need them more than we
will.’
‘We will? Adjunct, where do you
think we’re going?’
‘To war.’
‘Against who?’
‘“Whom”, Shield Anvil. You intend to
wage war against the Forkrul Assail.’
He grimaced, glanced at the Fist and
captains positioned behind the Adjunct. Blistig, Lostara Yil, Ruthan Gudd. That
miserable ex-priest, half slumped over his saddle. His attention returned to
the Adjunct. ‘Now, why would we declare war on the Forkrul Assail?’
‘Ask the runts.’
Stormy sagged. ‘We did that. They
ain’t good on explanations, those two. Grub’s the only one between ’em who’ll
say anything to us at all. Oh, Sinn talks just fine, when it suits her. Me and
Ges, we was hoping you’d be more … uh, forthcoming.’
A snort from Blistig.
Tavore said, ‘Shield Anvil, inform
Mortal Sword Gesler of the following. The Perish, Letherii and Bolkando armies
are marching on the Spire. It is my fear that even such a formidable force …
will not be enough. The sorcery of the Assail is powerful and insidious,
especially on the field of battle—’
‘Is it now, Adjunct?’
She blinked, and then said, ‘I have
spent three years amidst the archives of Unta, Stormy. Reading the oldest and
obscurest histories drawn to the capital from the further reaches of the
Malazan Empire. I have interviewed the finest scholars I could find, including
Heboric Light-Touch, on matters of fragmented references to the Forkrul Assail.’
She hesitated, and then continued. ‘I know what awaits us all, Shield Anvil.
The three human armies you now see marching into the southeast are … vulnerable.’
‘Where the K’Chain Che’Malle are
not.’
She shrugged. ‘Could we conjure
before us, here and now, a Forkrul Assail, do you imagine it could command your
Ve’Gath to surrender its weapons? To kneel?’
Stormy grunted. ‘I’d like to see it
try. But what of the runts?’
‘Safer in your company than in ours.’
He narrowed his gaze on her. ‘What
is it you mean to do with your Bonehunters, Adjunct?’
‘Split the enemy forces, Shield
Anvil.’
‘You have taken a savaging, Adjunct—’
‘And have been avenged by you and
your Che’Malle.’ She took a step closer, dropping her voice. ‘Stormy, when news
of your victory spreads through my army, much that haunts it now will fall
silent. There will be no cheers – I am not such a fool as to expect anything
like that. But, at the very least, there will be satisfaction. Do you
understand me?’
‘Is Fiddler—’
‘He lives.’
‘Good.’ He squinted at her. ‘You’ve
a way of gathering allies, haven’t you, Adjunct?’
‘It is not me, Stormy, it is the
cause itself.’
‘I’d agree if I could figure out
what that cause is all about.’
‘You mentioned a Destriant—’
‘Aye, I did.’
‘Then ask that one.’
‘We did, but she knows even less than
we do.’
Tavore cocked her head. ‘Are you
sure?’
‘Well, she gets little sleep.
Nightmares every night.’ He clawed fingers through his beard, ‘Aw, Hood take me
…’
‘She sees the fate awaiting us all
should we fail, Shield Anvil.’
He was silent, thinking back,
crossing a thousand leagues of memory and time. Days in Aren, ranks milling,
recalcitrant faces, a desperate need for cohesion. Armies are unruly beasts.
You took ’us, you made ’us into something, but none of us knows what, or even
what for. And now here she stood, a thin, plain woman. Not tall. Not
imposing in any way at all. Except for the cold iron in her bones. ‘Why
did you take this on, Adjunct?’
She settled the helm back on her
head and fixed the clasps. ‘That’s my business.’
‘This path of yours,’ he asked,
resisting her dismissal, ‘where did it start? That first step, when was it? You
can answer me that one, at least.’
She regarded him. ‘Can I?’
‘I’m about to ride back to Gesler,
Adjunct. And I got to make a report. I got to tell him what I think about all
this. So … give me something.’
She looked away, studied the
formed-up ranks of her army. ‘My first step? Very well.’
He waited.
She stood as if carved from flawed
marble, a thing in profile weeping dust – but no, that sense was emerging from
deep inside his own soul, as if he’d found a mirror’s reflection of the
nondescript woman standing before him, and in that reflection a thousand hidden
truths.
She faced him again, her eyes
swallowed by the shadow of the helm’s rim. ‘The day, Adjunct, the Paran family
lost its only son.’
The answer was so unexpected, so
jarring, that Stormy could say nothing. Gods below, Tavore. He struggled
to find words, any words. ‘I – I did not know your brother had died, Adjunct—’
‘He hasn’t,’ she snapped, turning
away.
Stormy silently cursed. He’d said
the wrong thing. He’d shown his own stupidity, his own lack of understanding. Fine!
Maybe I’m not Gesler! Maybe I don’t get it— A gelid breath seemed to flow
through him then. ‘Adjunct!’ His shout drew her round.
‘What is it?’
He drew a deep breath, and then
said, ‘When we join up with the Perish and the others, who’s in overall
command?’
She studied him briefly before
replying, ‘There will be a Prince of Lether. A Mortal Sword of the Grey Helms,
and the queen of Bolkando.’
‘Hood’s breath! I don’t—’
‘Who will be in command, Shield
Anvil? You and Gesler.’
He stared at her, aghast, and then
bellowed, ‘Don’t you think his head’s swelled big enough yet? You ain’t had to
live with him!’
Her tone was hard and cold. ‘Bear in
mind what I said about vulnerability, Shield Anvil, and be sure to guard your
own back.’
‘Guard – what?’
‘One last thing, Stormy. Extend my
condolences to Grub. Inform him, if you think it will help, that Fist Keneb’s
death was one of … singular heroism.’
He thought he heard a careful
choosing of words in that statement. No matter. Might help, as much as such
shit can, with that stuff. Worth a try, I suppose. ‘Adjunct?’
She had gathered the reins of her
horse and had one foot in the stirrup. ‘Yes?’
‘Shall we meet again?’
Tavore Paran hesitated, and what
might have been a faint smile curved her thin lips. She swung astride her
horse. ‘Fare you well, Shield Anvil.’ A pause, and then, ‘Stormy, should you
one day meet my brother … no, never mind.’ With that she drew her horse round
and set off for the head of the column.
Blistig wheeled in behind her, as
did Ruthan Gudd and then the ex-priest – although perhaps with him it was more
a matter of a mount content to follow the others. Leaving only Lostara Yil.
‘Stormy.’
‘Lostara.’
‘Quick Ben was sure you and Gesler
lived.’
‘Was he now?’
‘But now we’ve lost him.’
He thought about that, and then
grinned. ‘Take this for what it’s worth, Lostara Yil. He figured we were alive
and well. He was right. Now, I’ve got this feeling he ain’t so lost as you
might think. He’s a snake. Always was, always will be.’
The smile she flashed him almost
made him hesitate, but before he could call out something inviting and possibly
improper she was riding after the others.
Damn! Smiles like that don’t land
on me every day.
Scowling, he ordered his Ve’Gath
round and then set off on the back trail.
The Hunters and drones fell into his
wake.
One of the tiny birds tried landing
in Stormy’s beard. His curse sent it screeching away.
BOOK THREE
TO CHARGE THE
SPEAR
And now the bold historian
Wields into play that tome
Of blistering worth
Where the stern monks
Cower under the lash
And through the high window
The ashes of heretics drift
Down in purity’s rain
See the truths stitched in thread
Of gold across hapless skin
I am the arbiter of lies
Who will cleanse his hand
In copper bowls and white sand
But the spittle on his lips
Gathers the host to another tale
I was never so blind
To not feel the deep tremble
Of hidden rivers in churning torrent
Or the prickly tear of quill’s jab
I will tell you the manner
Of all things in sure proof
This order’d stone row –
Oh spare me now the speckled fists
This princeps’ purge and prattle
I live in mists and seething cloud
And the breaths of the unseen
Give warmth and comfort to better
The bleakest days to come
And I will carry on in my
Uncertainty, cowl’d in a peace
Such as you could not imagine
A Life in Mists
Gothos (?)
CHAPTER EIGHT
Whatever we’re left with
can only be enough,
if in the measure of things
nothing is cast off,
discarded on the wayside
in the strides that take us clear
beyond the smoke and grief
into a world of shocked birth
opening eyes upon a sudden light.
And to whirl then in a breath
to see all that we have done,
where the tombs on the trail
lie sealed like jewelled memories
in the dusk of a good life’s end,
and not one footprint beckons
upon the soft snow ahead,
but feel this sweet wind caress.
A season crawls from earth
beneath mantled folds.
I have caught a glimpse,
a hint of flared mystery,
shapes in the liquid glare.
They will take from us
all that we cradle in our arms
and the burden yielded
makes feathers of my hands,
and the voices drifting down
are all that we’re left with
and shall for ever be enough
You Will Take My Days
Fisher kel Tath
TO SLITHER BENEATH THE FISTS OF
THE WORLD.
Her name was Thorl. A quiet one,
with watchful, sad eyes. Bursting from the cloud of Shards, her screams sounded
like laughter. The devouring insects clustered where her eyes had been. They
lunged into her gaping mouth, the welters of blood from shredded lips drawing
hundreds more.
Saddic cried out his horror,
staggered back as if about to flee, but Badalle snapped out one hand and held
him fast. Panic was what the Shards loved most, what they waited for, and panic
was what had taken Thorl, and now the Shards were taking her.
Blind, the girl ran, stumbling on
the jagged crystals that tore her bared feet.
Children edged closer to her, and
Badalle could see the flatness in their eyes and she understood.
Strike down, fists, still we
slide and slither. You cannot kill us, you cannot kill the memory of us. We
remain, to remind you of the future you gave us. We remain, because we are the
proof of your crime.
Let the eaters crowd your eyes.
Welcome your own blindness, as if it was a gift of mercy. And that could well
be laughter. Dear child, you could well be laughing, a voice of memory. Of
history, even. In that laugh, all the ills of the world. In that laugh, all the
proofs of your guilt.
Children are dying. Still dying.
For ever dying.
Thorl fell, her screams deadening to
choking, hacking sounds as Shards crawled down her throat. She writhed, and
then twitched, and the swarm grew sluggish, feeding, fattening.
Badalle watched the children close
in, watched their hands lunge out, snatching wallowing insects, stuffing them
into eager mouths. We go round and round and this is the story of the world.
Do not flee us. Do not flee this moment, this scene. Do not confuse dislike and
abhorrence with angry denial of truths you do not wish to see. I accept your
horror and expect no forgiveness. But if you deny, I name you coward.
And I have had my fill of cowards.
She blew flies from her lips, and
glanced at Rutt. He clutched Held, weeping without tears. Beyond him stretched
out the terrible flat waste of the Glass Desert. Badalle then turned back to
study the Snake, eyes narrowing. Torpor unsuited to the heat, the brightness of
the sky. This was the sluggish motion of the exhausted. Your fists beat us
senseless. Your fists explode with reasons. You beat us out of fear. Out of
self-loathing. You beat us because it feels good, it feels good to pretend and
to forget, and every time your fist comes down, you crush a little more guilt.
In that old place where we once
lived, you decried those who beat their children. Yet see what you have done to
the world.
You are all beaters of children.
‘Badalle,’ said Rutt.
‘Yes, Rutt.’ She did not face him
again, not yet.
‘We have few days left. The holes of
water are gone. We cannot even go back – we will never make it back. Badalle, I
think I give up – I – I’m ready to give up.’
Give up. ‘Will you leave Held
to the Shards? To the Opals?’
She heard him draw a sharp breath.
‘They will not touch Held,’ he
whispered.
No, they won’t, will they. ‘Before
Held became Held,’ she said, ‘Held had another name, and that name was Born.
Born came from between the legs of a woman, a mother. Born came into this world
with eyes of blue, blue as this sky, and blue they remain. We must go on, Rutt.
We must live to see the day when a new colour finds Held’s eyes, when Held goes
back to being Born.’
‘Badalle,’ he whispered behind her.
‘You don’t have to understand,’ she
said. ‘We don’t know who that mother was. We don’t know who the new mother will
be.’
‘I’ve seen, at night …’ he faltered
then. ‘Badalle—’
‘The older ones, yes,’ she replied. ‘Our
own mothers and fathers, lying together, trying to make babies. We can only go
back to what we knew, to whatever we remember from the old days. We make it all
happen again, even though we know it didn’t work the first time, it’s all we
know to do.’
‘Do you still fly in your dreams,
Badalle?’
‘We have to go on, Rutt, until Held
stops being Held and becomes Born.’
‘I hear her crying at night.’
Her. This is her story: Born
becomes Held, Held becomes Mother, Mother makes Born, Born is Held … And the
boys who are now fathers, they try to go back, back inside, every night, they
try and try.
Rutt, we all cry at night.
‘We need to walk,’ she said, turning
to face him at last.
His visage was crumpled, a thing of
slack skin and ringed eyes. Broken lips, the forehead of a priest who doubts
his own faith. His hair was falling out, his hands looked huge.
‘Held says, west, Rutt. West.’
‘There is nothing there.’
There is a great family, and they
are rich in all things. In food. In water. They seek us, to bless us, to show
us that the future still lives. They will promise to us that future. I have
seen, I have seen it all. And there is a mother who leads them, and all her
children she holds in her arms, though she has never made a Born. There is a
mother, Rutt, just like you. And soon, the child in her arms will open its eyes
. ‘I dreamed of Held last night, Rutt.’
‘You did?’
‘Yes. She had wings, and she was
flying away. I heard her voice on the wind.’
‘Her voice, Badalle? What was she
saying? What was Held saying?’
‘She wasn’t saying anything, Rutt.
She was laughing.’
Frost limned the driftwood heaped
along the strand, and the chunks of ice in the shallow waters of the bay
crunched and ground as the rolling waves jostled them. Felash hacked out the
last of her morning cough and then, drawing her fur-lined cloak about her
shoulders, she straightened and walked over to where her handmaid was building
up the fire. ‘Have you prepared my breakfast?’
The older woman gestured to the
strange disc of sawn tree trunk they were using as a table, where waited a mug
of herbal tea and a lit hookah.
‘Excellent. I tell you, my head
aches. Mother’s sendings are clumsy and brutal. Or perhaps it’s just Omtose
Phellack that is so harsh – like this infernal ice and chill plaguing us.’ She
glanced over at the other camp, thirty paces along the beach, and frowned. ‘And
all this superstition! Tipped well over the edge into blatant rudeness, in my
opinion.’
‘The sorcery frightens them,
Highness.’
‘Pah! That sorcery saved their
lives! You would think gratitude should trump petty terrors and imagined
bugaboos. Dear me, what a pathetic gaggle of hens they all are.’ She settled
down on a log, careful to avoid the strange iron bolts jutting from it. Sipped
some tea, and then reached for the hookah’s artfully carved ivory mouthpiece.
Puffing contentedly, she twisted to eye the ship frozen in the bay. ‘Look at
that. The only thing keeping it afloat is the iceberg it’s nesting in.’
‘Alas, Highness, that is probably
the very source of their present discontent. They are sailors stranded on land.
Even the captain and her first mate are showing their despondency.’
‘Well,’ Felash sniffed, ‘we must
make do with what we have, mustn’t we? In any case, there’s nothing to be done
for it, is there? That ship is finished. We must now trek overland, and how my
feet will survive this I dare not contemplate.’
She turned in her seat to see Shurq
Elalle and Skorgen Kaban approaching, the first mate cursing as he stumbled in
the sand.
‘Captain! Join me in some tea. You
too, Skorgen, please.’ She faced her handmaid. ‘Fetch us more cups, will you?
Excellent.’
‘Beru bless us,’ Skorgen hissed. ‘Ten
paces away and the heat’s melting us where we stand, but here—’
‘That will fade, I am sure,’ said
Felash. ‘The sorcery of yesterday was, shall we say, rather intense. And before
you complain overmuch, I shall observe that my maid and I are no less
discomforted by this wretched cold. Perhaps the Jaghut were delighted to dwell
within such a climate, but as you can well see, we are not Jaghut.’
Shurq Elalle said, ‘Highness, about
my ship …’
Felash drew deeply on her
mouthpiece, ‘Yes,’ she sighed. ‘That. I believe I have apologized already, have
I not? It is perhaps a consequence of insufficient education, but I truly was
unaware that all ships carry in their bellies a certain amount of water, considered
acceptable for voyaging. And that the freezing thereof would result in
disaster, in the manner of split boards and so forth. Besides, was not your
crew working the pumps?’
‘As you say,’ Shurq said. ‘But a
hundred hands below deck could not have pumped fast enough, given the speed of
that freezing. But that was not my point – as you noted, we have been through
all that. Bad luck, plain and simple. No, what I wished to discuss was the
matter of repairs.’
Felash regarded the pale-skinned
woman, and slowly tapped the mouthpiece against her teeth. ‘In the midst of
your histrionics two days ago, Captain, I had assumed that all was lost in the
matter of the Undying Gratitude. Have you reconsidered?’
‘Yes. No. Rather, we have walked
this beach. The driftwood is useless. The few logs we found were heavy as
granite – Mael knows what they used that damned stuff for, but it sure doesn’t
float. In fact, it appears to have neutral buoyancy—’
‘Excuse me, what?’
‘Push that wood to any depth you
like, there it stays. Never before seen the like. We have a ex-joiner with us
who says it’s to do with the minerals the wood has absorbed, and the soil the
tree grew in. In any case, we see no forests inland – no trees at all,
anywhere.’
‘Meaning you have no wood with which
to effect repairs. Yes, Captain, was this not your prediction two days ago?’
‘Aye, it was, and so it has proved,
Highness. And as my crew can’t survive on a frozen ship, on the surface of it
we seem to indeed be stranded.’
Skorgen kicked sand with his good
foot. ‘What’s worse, Highness, there’s hardly any shellfish an’ the like in the
shallows. Picked clean long ago, I’d wager. We couldn’t even walk up the coast
t’get where you want us to go.’
‘Most disturbing,’ Felash murmured,
still eyeing Shurq Elalle. ‘Yet you have an idea, haven’t you, Captain?’
‘Maybe.’
‘Please, proceed. I am not by nature
averse to adventure and experimentation.’
‘Aye, Highness.’ Still, the woman
hesitated.
Felash sent a stream of smoke
whirling away. ‘Come now, Captain, your first mate is turning blue.’
‘Very well. Omtose Phellack,
Highness – is it a true Hold?’
‘I am not sure what you mean by that
question.’
‘A Hold. A place, a world unlike
this one—’
‘Where,’ added Skorgen, ‘we might
find, er, trees. Or something. Unless it’s all ice and snow, of course, or
worse.’
‘Ah, I see.’ She tapped some more,
thinking. ‘The Hold of Ice, well, precisely. The sorcery – as we have all
discovered – is certainly … cold. Forbidding, even. But if my education suffers
in matters of ship building and the like, it is rather more comprehensive when
it comes to the Holds.’ She smiled. ‘Naturally.’
‘Naturally,’ said Shurq Elalle, to
cut off whatever Skorgen had been about to say.
‘The commonest manifestation of
Omtose Phellack is precisely as we have experienced. Ice. Bitter cold,
desiccating, enervating. But it must be understood, said sorcery was shaped as
a defensive weapon, if you will. The Jaghut were at war with an implacable
enemy, and they were losing that war. They sought to surround themselves in
vast sheets of ice, to make of it an impassable barrier. And as often as not
they succeeded … for a time. Of course, as my mother used to delight in
pointing out, war drives invention, and as soon as one side improves its
tactical position, the other quickly adapts to negate the advantage – assuming
they have the time to do so. Interestingly, one could argue it was the Jaghut’s
very own flaws that ensured their demise. For, had they considered ice not as a
defensive measure, but as an offensive one – had they made it a true
weapon, a force of attack and assault – why, they might well have annihilated
their enemy before it could adapt. And while details regarding that enemy are
murky—’
‘Forgive me, Highness,’ interrupted
the captain. ‘But, as you noted earlier, my first mate is truly suffering. If I
am understanding you, the ice and cold of Omtose Phellack are mere aspects, or,
I suppose, applications of a force. And, as such, they are not that force’s
sole characteristic.’
Felash clapped her hands. ‘Precisely,
Captain! Excellent!’
‘Very well, Highness. I am so
relieved. Now, as to those other aspects of the Hold, what can you tell me?’
Felash blinked up at the woman. ‘Why,
nothing.’
‘Nothing?’
‘Not a thing, Captain. The only
manifestation of Omtose Phellack this world has seen has been ice-aspected.’
‘Then how do you know there’s more
to it?’
‘Captain, it only stands to reason.’
‘So, this notion of there being
more, it’s merely … theoretical?’
‘Dearest, that term is not
pejorative, no matter the tone you have just employed.’
Teeth chattering, Skorgen Kaban
said, ‘So I stood here for that? You ain’t got a Mael-spitting clue?’
‘Hardly accurate, First Mate,’
Felash said. ‘It would hardly have served any of us if I’d simply said, “I don’t
know”, would it? Instead, what I have actually said is, “I don’t know, but I
believe this to be a path worth pursuing.”’
‘So why didn’t you?’ he demanded.
‘But I did!’
Shurq Elalle turned to Skorgen. ‘That’s
enough, Pretty. Go back to the others.’
‘An’ tell ’em what?’
‘We’re … exploring possibilities.’
Felash waved one plump hand. ‘A
moment, please. I suggest that you both return to your fellows. The
explorations that will occupy me on this day are best done alone, for I cannot
guarantee the safety of anyone in close proximity. In fact, I suggest you move
your camp perhaps twice its present distance from us.’
‘Very well, Highness,’ said Shurq
Elalle. ‘We shall do that.’
As they marched off, Felash turned
to her handmaid. ‘My dear,’ she murmured, ‘a journey awaits you.’
‘Yes, Highness.’
‘Gird yourself well,’ Felash
advised. ‘Prepare the armour and take the throwing axes. And you will need to
swim out to the ship, for a splinter of wood. But before all that, I wish a new
pot of tea, and more rustleaf for this bowl.’
‘At once, Highness.’
‘Gods below,’ Shurq Elalle muttered
as they neared the crew’s camp, ‘but she has spectacular tits. It ever amazes
me the extraordinary variation blessing us all.’ She glanced at her first mate.
‘Or cursing us, as the case may be.’
‘I wanted to stick a damned knife in
her skull, Cap’n.’
‘Belay such notions, and stow them
deep and dark – if one of the mates hears you, well, I don’t want that kind of
trouble.’
‘Of course, Cap’n. Was just an
impulse, anyway, like a tic under the eye. Anyway, how could you see her tits
at all, under all those warm furs and such?’
‘I could see just fine,’ Shurq
replied. ‘It’s called imagination, Pretty.’
‘Wish I had some of that.’
‘In the meantime, we need to allay
some fears, and I expect moving us farther down the strand will put us in good
stead right from the start.’
‘Aye, it will.’ He scratched at the
scars puckering his neck. ‘You know, Cap’n, I got me a smell that’s saying that
handmaiden of hers ain’t as useless as she’s made out to look, you know?’
‘Brewing pots and lighting pipe
bowls doesn’t count for anything with you, Pretty? I tell you, I’m considering
finding my own handmaiden once we get home. Of course,’ she added, ‘there’s no
rule says it has to be a woman, is there?’
A flush crept up the man’s misshapen
face.
Shurq clapped him on the back. ‘You’re
right about her, Pretty. I’m thinking she’s as mean a sorceress as the Princess
herself, and probably a lot more besides. That woman hides herself well, but
one glimpse of her wrists … well, unless she’s throwing bales of hay around
when no one’s looking – and given the scars on her hands those bales got knives
in them – well, aye, she’s more than she seems.’
‘What’s her name anyway?’
‘No idea.’ Shurq grunted. The sailors
at the camp were watching them now. ‘All right, Pretty, let me do the talking.’
‘Aye, Cap’n, better you’n me.’
‘And if I mess up, you can beat on
some heads.’
‘T’bring ’em round, like.’
‘Exactly.’
Cool beneath the umbrella, Felash
watched her handmaid crawl up from the water. ‘You need more fat on you, dear,’
she observed. ‘I’m sure the sun will warm you up soon enough, as it has done
me. In any case,’ she gestured with the mouthpiece, ‘the passage awaits you.’
Gasping, the older woman slowly
worked her way well clear of the water line. In her right hand was a splinter
of wood, black against her bluish knuckles. Behind her, in the shallows, the
ice was fast melting as the last remnants of Omtose Phellack faded. At the bay’s
outer edge, where the shelf fell away to deeper water, the Undying Gratitude
was settling lower into her glittering, weeping nest.
Once the handmaid had recovered
enough to begin moving, she dressed herself in quilted undergarments and then
the heavy scaled armour retrieved from bundles of waxed canvas. Taking up the
paired throwing axes, a leather-sheathed short sword, an underarm holster of
four throwing knives, and her helm, she completed her attire by tucking the
wood splinter into her belt. ‘Highness, I am ready.’
‘Well said. My patience was wearing
ominously thin.’ Sighing, Felash set the mouthpiece down and rose. ‘Where did
you put the last of the sweets?’
‘Beside the brick of rustleaf,
Highness.’
‘Ah, I see. Wonderful. See how thin
I’m getting? It’s an outrage. Do you recall your own childhood, dear, when your
chest was flat and all your bones jutted every which way?’
‘No, Highness, I was never boy-thin,
thank the Errant’s nudge.’
‘Nor me. I have always been
suspicious of grown men who seem to like that in their women. What’s wrong with
little boys if they’re into pallid bony wraiths?’
‘Perhaps it appeals to their
protective natures, Highness.’
‘Protecting is one thing, diddling
is entirely another. Now, where was I? Oh yes, throwing you into the Hold of
Ice. Best unsheathe at least a few of your weapons, dear. Who knows what you’ll
land in.’
The handmaid drew her axes. ‘I am
ready.’
‘… that condescending, patronizing
cow doesn’t deserve tits like that, or that soft blemish-free skin and lustrous
hair. And the way those hips swing, why, I’m amazed she doesn’t throw out her
back with every step, and those damned luscious lips look ready made to wrap
themselves round— Gods, what was that?’
The thunderclap shivered the water
in the bay, set the sand to blurry trembling. Shurq Elalle turned to see an
enormous white cloud billowing out and up from Felash’s camp. The sailors –
well out of earshot behind her – were now on their feet, shouting in alarm.
‘Stay here, Skorgen. And calm those
fools down!’ She set off at a run.
The camp was a mess, gear flung
about as if a whirlwind had erupted in its midst. Princess Felash was slowly
picking herself up from the blasted sand. Her hair was awry, her clothes
dishevelled. Her face was red, as if she’d been repeatedly slapped.
‘Highness, are you all right?’
The girl coughed. ‘I believe the
theory has proved itself, Captain. It seems there is far more to Omtose
Phellack than a few chunks of ice. The passage I found, well, it’s hard to say
where precisely it led—’
‘Where is your handmaiden, Highness?’
‘Well, let us hope she is exploring
in wonder and delight.’
‘You sent her through?’
A flash from her stunning eyes. ‘Of
course I sent her through! Did you not insist on the necessity, given our
terrible plight? Can you begin to imagine my sacrifice, the appalling extremity
of the service we are providing here?’
Shurq Elalle studied the plump girl.
‘What if she doesn’t come back?’
‘I shall be most displeased. At the
same time, we shall have before us evidence to support certain other theories
about Omtose Phellack.’
‘Excuse me, what other theories?’
‘Why, the ones about shrieking
demons, clouds of madness, flesh-eating plants, treacherous voles and a hundred
other nightmares in a similar vein. Now, please be so kind as to rebuild my
fire here, will you?’
She reached for her last throwing
knife, found the sheath empty. Cursing, she ducked beneath the scything slash
and threw herself to the left, shoulder-rolling until she came up against the
bulk of the first fiend she’d slain. Her hands scrabbled up its muricated hide,
found the wedge of one of her axes. Grunting as she tugged it free, she rolled
over the body – it quivered as six swords punched into it in the spot where she’d
been a moment earlier – and regained her feet in time to send the axe flying.
It crunched into the demon’s brow,
rocking its head back.
She lunged for it, tugging away one
of the heavy swords gripped by the closest hand, which was twitching as the
huge beast sagged on to its knees. Blade clashing as she beat away the swords
flailing about at the ends of the five other arms, she chopped into its thick
neck, once, twice, three times, until the head rolled free.
Spinning, she looked for more of the
damned things. Five corpses and nothing more. Apart from her heavy breaths, the
glade was silent.
From one fire straight into another –
she’d landed in the middle of a camp – and it was her luck that she’d been
ready when they clearly were not. The fire burned on here and there, where the
hottest embers had scattered. If she was not careful, she’d end up burning down
the forest – and all the wood the captain and her crew sorely needed.
The handmaid retrieved her weapons,
and then stamped out the smouldering flames.
She cursed as something bit into the
back of her neck. Scrabbling with one hand, she closed her fist about something
small and furry, brought it round for a closer look. A vole, with a mouthful of
her flesh. Snorting, she flung the thing away.
‘Well, Highness,’ she muttered, ‘seems
I’ve found some trees.’
Some beast shrieked close by, and
the cry was echoed by a half-dozen more, surrounding the glade, drawing closer.
‘Errant’s bunghole, those things
sound vicious.’
Pointless hanging around here, she
decided. Choosing a direction at random, she ducked into the forest.
Absurdly dark, and the air was damp
and cold. Plunging forward, she held her axes at the ready. A shriek sounded
directly behind her and she whirled round. Something skittered on the forest
floor. Another damned vole. She watched it pause, tilt its head back, and loose
another curdling shriek.
A short time later she’d left the
voracious things behind. The huge boles of the trees thinned out, with more
undergrowth now impeding her way. She caught glimpses of the sky, a sweep of
stars, no moon. A dozen paces ahead the ground fell away. She came to the edge,
looked down into a ravine crowded with treefall, the trunks grey as bones.
Clumps of low fog wandered the
length of the channel, glowing like swamp gas.
The channel was the product of flash
flooding, and those trees had been savagely uprooted, flung down and carried
along in the tumult. Studying the wreckage, she caught a shape in the ravine’s
gloom, twenty or so paces downstream. At first she’d assumed it was a barrier
of knotted branches and trees, but that detritus had fetched up against
something else … a hull.
She drew out the splinter of wood in
her belt. It seemed to be sweating in her hand.
Boots skidding, she half slid, half
stumbled down the steep bank of the ravine. Avoiding the fog as best she could,
she clambered and climbed her way closer to the ship. How it had made it this
far down this treacherous, winding channel without being torn to pieces was
something of a mystery, but she knew enough to trust this sorcerous link. Whatever
shape it was in, there would be enough of it to be of some use.
At last she reached the hull, set
her hand against it. Not rotten. She thumped it, was rewarded with a faint
hollow sound. Five arm-spans above her was an ornately carved gunnel, the heavy
rail formed in the shape of entwining serpents running the length of the ship –
which she judged to be somewhere between fifteen and twenty paces.
She glanced down then, to see the
fog rising up to swallow her knees. And in that fog, small clawed hands reached
out to grasp her thighs, the talons stabbing deep, the limbs writhing like
worms. Gasping at the pain, she pulled out her sword and began hacking.
Her thighs were shredded and
streaming blood by the time she cut herself loose and worked her way up the
side of the hull, using the clutter of trees and branches for foot- and
handholds. Gasping, she lifted herself over the gunnel and thumped down on the
slanted deck.
And found herself in the midst of a
squall of black-haired, scaled apes. Howling, the dog-sized creatures bared
dagger-long fangs, eyes flashing lurid yellow, and raised their knotted clubs.
Then they rushed her.
From somewhere up the length of
ravine, there came a deep, rumbling roar. But she had no time to think about
that.
‘My ootooloo thinks this is sex –
how strange.’
Felash glanced sidelong at the
captain, her lids slowly settling in a lazy blink. ‘Back in the palace, there
are exquisite mouthpieces carved in the semblance of a penis.’ She gestured
with one hand. ‘All part of a princess’s education—’
Shurq set the mouthpiece down. ‘Enough
of that, I think, Highness. I leave you to your … devices.’
‘Adventure arrives in all manner of
guises, Captain. Had your ootooloo a brain, I am sure it would most avidly
concur.’
‘But that’s the whole point about,
er, desire. It’s mostly brainless. Most of the world’s tragedy is found in this
one misunderstanding. We tie too much to it, you see. Things like loyalty and
precious intimacy, love and possession, and sooner or later it all goes wrong.
Why, I knew men – and I do mean “knew” – who’d come to me twice a week hungry
for the brainless stuff, and afterwards they’d babble on about their wives.’
‘What would they tell you? Please, I
must know.’
‘Starved for gossip, are you?’
‘The palace seems terribly far away
at the moment.’
‘Just so, Highness. Well. Some would
tell me about all the sorcery of love being gone between them, the embers of
desire cold as stone now. Others would complain about how complicated it had
all become, or how rote, or how fraught. And still more would talk of their
wives as if they were possessions, to be used when it suited the men and
otherwise left alone, but the very notion of those wives perhaps doing what the
husband happened to be doing – there with me – well, that could light a
murderous rage in their eyes.’
‘So, while being with you, most of
them still missed the point?’
‘Very astute, Highness. Yes, they
missed the point entirely.’
‘Because what you offered was sex
without complications.’
‘Exactly.’
‘Brainless.’
‘Yes. And that freed them, and
freedom made them happy – or anyway forgetful – at least for a short time. But
once the flush was past, well, that old world and all its chains just came
rattling back down. They’d leave as if they were condemned to swim the canal.’
‘You have led a varied and
extraordinary life, Captain.’
‘Life? Wrong word, Highness.’
‘Oh, one doesn’t have to be
breathing to be alive – and before you comment on how ridiculously obvious that
statement seems, I do implore you to give it a second consideration, as I was
not referring to your condition.’
‘Then I am indeed curious as to what
you might mean, Highness.’
‘In my years of education, I have—’
A roar drowned out her next words,
and they swung round to see a torrent of muddy, foaming water pounding into the
bay just beyond the shallows. Rushing from a gaping wound almost swallowed in
gouts of steam, the flood thundered aside the slabs of floating ice, clearing a
broad swathe. A moment later what seemed half a forest exploded out from the
wound, snapped branches and sundered trees, and then the prow of a ship lunged
into view, outward like a thrust fist, and then plunging down to the bay’s
churning waters.
The raucous flow drove the ship
straight for the reef.
‘Errant’s bitch!’ swore Shurq
Elalle.
Abruptly, in wallows of spume and
steam, the ship heeled, came about, and they saw a figure at the stern rudder,
pushing hard against the current.
The wound thundered shut, cutting
off the wild flow. Branches and logs skirled in the spinning water.
Felash watched the captain run into
the shallows.
The strange ship had crunched
briefly against the coral shelf before pulling clear. It was fortunate, the
princess decided, that the seas were calm, but it was obvious that one woman
alone could not manage the craft, and that disaster still loomed. Glancing to
the right, she saw the crew pelting along the strand, clearly intent on joining
the captain.
Felash looked back to the ship. ‘Dearie,
couldn’t you have found a prettier one?’
Spitting out silty water, Shurq
Elalle pulled herself on to the deck. Something slimy beneath her boots sent
her down on to her backside with a thump. She held up one palm. Blood. Lots and
lots of blood. Swearing, she regained her feet and made for the bow. ‘Is there
an anchor?’ she shouted. ‘Where’s the damned anchor?’
From the stern, the handmaid yelled
back, ‘How should I know?’
Shurq saw her crew now plunging into
the shallows. Good.
‘We’re drifting back to that reef,’
the handmaiden cried. ‘How do I stop it doing that?’
‘With a damned anchor, you stupid
cow!’
Failing to find anything, and
feeling somewhat bad about her outburst, Shurq turned about and began making
her way back to the stern. One clear look at the handmaiden stopped her in her
tracks. ‘Gods, woman, what happened to you?’
‘It’s the damned voles,’ she
snarled. ‘This – that thing – is that what you call a sea-anchor?’
Shurq forced her eyes away from the
woman to where she was pointing. ‘Mael’s kiss, aye, it is!’ Five quick steps
along she halted yet again. ‘Is that water I’m hearing below? Are we taking on
water?’
The handmaiden leaned on the rudder’s
handle and looked over with red-shot, exhausted eyes. ‘You’re asking me,
Captain?’
Shurq whirled, reached the landward
gunnel. Glared down at her thrashing crew. ‘Get aboard, you lazy pigs! Man the
pumps! Fast!’
Back on shore, Felash settled down
on the log, careful once more to avoid the iron spikes. Drawing on her hookah,
she watched the antics with some contentment. As she exhaled a stream of smoke,
she heard and felt a rattle in her throat.
Almost time for her afternoon cough.
He kicked his way through the
clutter, the crumpled helms, the crushed iron scales, the bones that crumbled
into dust and lifted grey clouds to swirl about his legs. Ahead, across an
expanse of level land buried in corpses, was a mound of the same twisted
bodies, and from the top of that mound rose the trunks of two trees, bound at
the centre to form an upright X. The remnants of a body hung from it, flesh in
shreds, black hair hanging down over the desiccated face.
Silchas Ruin could see, even from
this distance, the long-shafted arrow buried in the figure’s forehead.
Here, in this place, realms folded
one upon another. Chaos and madness in such profusion as to stain time itself,
holding horror in an implacable grip. Here, the skin of a hundred worlds bore
the same seared brand. He did not know what had happened at this battle – this
slaughter – to leave such a legacy, nor even the particular world in which the
actual event had taken place.
He slowly crossed the killing field,
towards the mound and its grisly shrine.
Other figures moved about, walking
as if lost, as if seeking friends amidst the faceless thousands. At first he’d
thought them ghosts, but they were not ghosts. They were gods.
His passage caught the attention of
one, and then another, and then still more. Some simply looked away again,
resuming whatever it was they were doing. A few set out to intercept him. As
they drew closer, he heard their voices, their thoughts.
‘A stranger. Interloper. This is
not his world, this is not his curse, this is nothing to him.’
‘He comes to mock us, the
fragments of us snared here.’
‘He does not even hear the cries
that so deafen us, all these chains of desire …’
‘And despair, Shedenul, so much
despair …’
Silchas Ruin reached the base of the
mound, studied the twisted bodies before him, a steep slope of solid bone,
leathery flesh, armour and shattered weapons.
A half-dozen gods gathered around
him.
‘ Tiste Liosan?’
‘No, Beru. Tiste Andii. His white
skin mocks the darkness within him.’
‘Does he belong in the war? He is
dangerous. We don’t want him anywhere near us when we slay the Fallen One. When
we feed and so free ourselves—’
‘Free?’ growled one in a
thick, heavy voice. ‘ Mowri, from the legacy of our followers we shall never
be free. This is the bargain we made—’
‘I made no such bargain,
Dessembrae!’
‘Nevertheless, Beru. Mortal
desire gave us shape. Mortal desire dragged us into all their realms. It was
not enough that we ascended, not enough that we should seek out our own
destinies. I tell you, though most of me still walks a distant world – and his
howls of betrayal deafen me – in curse and prayer I am knotted here like a
fist. Do I desire worship? I do not. Do I seek ever greater power? I have been
shown its futility, and now all my purpose settles like ash upon my soul. Here,
we are trapped, and so we shall remain—’
‘Because that fool Master
sanctified Kaminsod’s theft! The Fallen One was wounded. Made useless with
pain. And with that Master’s cursed blessing he raised the House of Chains, and
with those chains he bound us all!’
Dessembrae snorted. ‘Long before
the first rattle of those chains, we were in shackles – though we amused
ourselves by pretending that they did not exist. The Master of the Deck and the
Fallen One dispelled the illusion – no, they dispelled our delusions – and
with them all their sweet, precious convenience.’
‘I do not need an upstart like
you telling me all I already know!’
‘You do, when you would feed your
reason with false indignation. We shall soon gather in another place little
different from this one, and there we shall commit murder. Cold, brutal murder.
We shall slay a fellow god. Before his heart is sundered, before the Unknowable
Woman can ever reach the Fallen One, or attempt whatever it is she intends, we
shall kill him.’
‘Do not so easily discard that
woman, Dessembrae,’ said a new voice, a woman’s, thin and crackling. ‘ She
is sibling to the Master of the Deck – a Master who hides himself from us all.
How can this be? How has he managed to blind us to his whereabouts? I tell you,
he hovers over all of this, as unknowable as his sister. This wretched family
from that wretched empire—’
A cane cracked against bones,
splintering them, and Silchas turned to see that a new god had arrived.
Indistinct, a smear of shadow. ‘Dessembrae,’ this one hissed, ‘ and
dearest Jhess. Beru, Shedenul, Mowri. Beckra, Thilanda, see how you crowd this
Tiste Andii? This brother of Anomander Rake? Do you imagine he cannot hear you?
’ The cane jabbed at Dessembrae. ‘ Look at us, so fey in reflection of
our once-mortal selves. The Empire, yes! Our empire, Dessembrae, or have you
forgotten? That wretched family? Our very own children!’
‘Oh, look around, Shadowthrone,’
snarled Jhess, her face of skeined wool, cotton, hemp and silk twisting and
knotting as she bared web-shrouded teeth. ‘ D’rek has come and gone from
this place. She knows and makes for us a true path. Your damned children cannot
hope to defeat us. Leave them to the Forkrul Assail! May they devour each
other!’
Shadowthrone giggled. ‘Tell me,
Jhess, do you see your cousin anywhere near? Where is the Queen of Dreams in
this place of death?’
‘She hides—’
‘She is not here, Jhess,’
said Shadowthrone, ‘ because she is awake. Awake! Do you understand me? Not
sleeping, not dreaming herself here, not plucking all your mad tails, Jhess, to
confuse mortal minds. You are all blind fools!’
‘You mean to betray us!’
shrieked Shedenul.
‘I care nothing for any of you,’
Shadowthrone replied, with a laconic gesture of one ethereal hand. ‘ Betray?
Too much effort over too little of worth.’
‘You come here only to mock us?’
‘I am here, Beru, because I am
curious. Not about any of you. You’re nothing but gods, and if the Assail
succeed you will all vanish like farts in the wind. No, my curiosity is with
our unexpected guest, our Tiste Andii.’ The cane waved at Silchas Ruin. ‘ O
brother of heroes, why do you bless Coltaine’s Eternal Fall with your presence?’
‘I seek a weapon.’
‘The two you carry are not
enough?’
‘For a companion. This battle you
all seem so eager to join, I could warn you against it, but I admit that I see
little use in that. You are all determined to join the fray, leaving me to
wonder.’
‘Wonder what?’ demanded Beru.
‘When the dust settles, how many of
your corpses will I see upon that field?’ Silchas Ruin shrugged. ‘Do as you
will.’
‘Your brother slew our strongest
ally.’
‘He did? And of what significance is
that to me, Beru?’
‘You are as infuriating as he
was! May you share his fate!’
‘We shall all share his fate,’
Silchas Ruin replied.
Shadowthrone giggled. ‘I have
found you a weapon, but only if the one who wields it is worthy.’
Silchas Ruin looked round. ‘From
this place?’
‘No, not from here. There is
nothing to the weapons here but memories of failure .’ A sword appeared
from the shadows swirling round the god and clattered at the Tiste Andii’s
feet.
Looking down, he drew a sharp breath.
‘Where did you come by this?’
‘Recognize it?’
‘A Hust … but no.’ He hesitated. ‘I
feel that I should, knowing well that sacred forge. The draconic theme is …
distinctive. But the ferrules remind me of Hust’s earliest period of
manufacture, and I thought I knew all of those so made. Where did you come by
this?’
‘Of little relevance, Prince. You
note the draconic theme, do you? What is the term? Pattern weld? So you might
think, to see those scales glittering so prettily along the length of the blade.’
He giggled. ‘ So you might think.’
‘This weapon is too good for the one
I intended to arm.’
‘Indeed? How … unfortunate.
Perhaps you could convince your friend to take the ones you now wield? And for
yourself, this singular weapon. Consider it a gift to you, from Shadowthrone.’
‘And why should you so gift me?’
Silchas Ruin asked.
‘Perhaps the others here bemoan
the loss of Hood. I do not. He was hoary and humourless, and ugly besides.
Thus. If I cannot convey my best wishes to Hood’s noble slayer, then his
brother shall have to do.’
Silchas Ruin looked back down at the
Hust sword. ‘When we were children,’ he muttered, ‘he used to steal my things
all the time, because he liked to see me lose my temper.’ He paused,
remembering, and then sighed. ‘Even then, he was fearless.’
Shadowthrone was silent. The other
gods simply watched.
‘And then,’ Silchas Ruin whispered, ‘he
stole my grief. And now, what is there, I wonder … what is there left to feel?’
‘If I suggested “gratitude”,
would that be insensitive?’
Silchas Ruin shot the god a sharp
look, and then said, ‘I accept the gift, Shadowthrone, and in return I offer
you this.’ He waved at the other gods. ‘This mob ill suits you. Leave them to
their devices, Shadowthrone.’
The god cackled. ‘If I was blood
kin to this family, I’d be the uncle slumped drunk and senseless in the corner.
Luckily – dare I risk that word? – I am not kin to any of them. Rest assured I
will humbly heed your advice, Prince.’
Silchas Ruin picked up the weapon.
He looked at the gods, his crimson eyes slowly moving from one ghastly face to
the next. And then he vanished.
Dessembrae wheeled on Shadowthrone. ‘What
was all that? What scheme are you playing at?’
Shadowthrone’s cane snapped out,
caught the Lord of Tragedy flush across the bridge of his nose. He stumbled
back, fell on to his backside.
Shadowthrone hissed, and then said, ‘The
best part of you wanders the mortal world, old friend. Long ago, he surrendered
that emptiness called pride. At last, I see where it fetched up. Well, it seems
one more lesson in humility shall find you.’ He glared at the others. ‘All of
you, in fact.’
Beru growled. ‘You snivelling little
upstart …’
But then his voice fell away, for
the Lord of Shadows was gone.
‘Busy busy busy.’
Cotillion paused on the road. ‘It’s
done?’
‘Of course it’s done!’ Shadowthrone
snapped, and then grunted. ‘Here? What are we doing here?’
‘Recognize the place, then.’
‘Pah! Not more regrets from you. I’m
sick of them!’
‘I am marking this site one more
time—’
‘What, like a Hound pissing against
a fence post?’
Cotillion nodded. ‘Crude, but apt.’
‘What of you?’ Shadowthrone
demanded. ‘Did you return to Shadowkeep? Did you send her off? Did she need a
few slaps? A punch in the nose, a quick roger behind the keep?’
‘She needed only my invitation,
Ammanas.’
‘Truly?’
‘Of all the wolves on one’s own
trail,’ Cotillion said, ‘there is always one, the pack’s leader. Cruel and
relentless. Show me a god or a mortal with no wolves on their heels—’
‘Enough talk of wolves. This is me,
after all. Fanged, eyes of fire, foul fur and endless hunger, a hundred beasts,
each one named Regret.’
‘Just so.’ Cotillion nodded.
‘So you put her on a horse and gave
her a blade, and sent her back down her own trail.’
‘To kill the biggest, meanest one,
aye.’
Shadowthrone grunted again. ‘Bet she
was smiling.’
‘Find me a fool who’ll take that
bet,’ Cotillion replied, smiling himself.
The Lord of Shadows looked round. ‘See
none hereabouts. Too bad.’
The air filled with the cries of
gulls.
Tiste Liosan. The Children of
Father Light. A star is born in the dark, and the heavens are revealed to all.
Withal ran his hand along the pitted plaster, fragments of damp moss falling
away where his fingers scraped it loose. The painted scene was in a primitive,
awkward style, yet he suspected it was more recent than those glorious works in
the city’s palace. Light like blood, corpses on the strand, faces shining
beneath helms. A sky igniting …
A few survived the chaos, the
civil wars. They cowered here in this forest. In coloured plaster and paint,
they sought to make eternal their memories. He wondered why people did such
things. He wondered at their need to leave behind a record of the great events
witnessed, and lived through.
Sure enough, a discovery like this –
here in the forest above the Shore, at the base of a vast sinkhole his errant
step had inadvertently discovered – well, it led to questions, and mystery,
and, like the missing patches and the thick clumps of moss, he found a need to
fill in the gaps.
For we are all bound in stories,
and as the years pile up they turn to stone, layer upon layer, building our
lives. You can stand on them and stare out at future’s horizon, or you can be
crushed beneath their weight. You can take a pick in hand and break them all
apart, until you’re left with nothing but rubble. You can crush that down into
dust and watch the wind blow it away. Or you can worship those wretched
stories, carving idols and fascinating lies to lift your gaze ever higher, and
all those falsehoods make hollow and thin the ground you stand on.
Stories. They are the clutter in
our lives, the conveniences we lean upon and hide behind. But what of it?
Change them at will – it’s only a game in the skull, shaking the bones in the
cup to see if something new shows up. Aye, I imagine such games are liberating,
and the sense of leaving oneself behind is akin to moving house. A fresh start
beckons. A new life, a new host of stories, a new mountain to build stone by
stone.
‘What makes you happy, Withal?’
Long stretches of time, Sand,
free of alarm.
‘Nothing else?’
Oh, beauty, I suppose. Pleasure
to caress the senses.
‘You play at being a solid and
simple man, Withal, but I think it is all an act. In fact, I think you think
too much, about too many things. You’re worse than me. And before long, all
that chaos gets so thick it starts looking solid, and simple.’
Woman, you make my head ache. I’m
going for a walk.
Rubbing at his bruised hip, he
brushed twigs and mud from his clothes, and then carefully made his way up the
sinkhole’s side, grasping roots, finding footholds from the blocks of cut stone
hiding in the gloom. Pulling himself clear, he resumed his journey down to the
Shore.
Twenty or more paces up from the
strand, the forest edge had been transformed. Trees cut down, trenches dug in
banked ripples facing the imminent breach in Lightfall. Figures swarming
everywhere. Weapons in heaps – swords, spears and pikes – with Shake and
Letherii crews busy scrubbing the rust from the ancient iron, rolling new grips
from strips of soaked leather. The wood of the hafted weapons seemed to have
been unaffected by the passage of time, the black shafts as strong as ever.
Hundreds of helms formed vaguely disturbing mounds here and there, awaiting oil
and refitting.
Working his way past all this,
Withal reached the strand. He paused, searching among the crowds. But he could
not find the one he sought. Seeing a familiar face ahead, he called out, ‘Captain
Pithy!’
The woman looked up.
‘Where is he?’ Withal asked.
She straightened from the leather
map she’d laid out on the sand, wiped sweat from her face, and then pointed.
Withal looked in that direction. Saw
a lone figure seated atop an old midden, facing Lightfall. With a wave to
Pithy, he set off in that direction.
Yedan Derryg was taking bites from a
lump of cheese, his jaws working steadily as he studied the cascading light. He
glanced over as Withal approached, but only briefly. Boots crunching on the
ghastly white bone fragments of the beach, and then the slope of the midden,
where amidst larger pieces of bone there were husks of some forest nut, more
recent gourds and pieces of pottery, Withal reached the prince’s side,
whereupon he sat down. ‘I didn’t know we had any cheese left.’
Yedan plopped the last bit into his
mouth, chewed a moment, swallowed and then said, ‘We don’t.’
Withal rubbed at his face. ‘I expect
to feel the salt, the freshened sea breezes. Instead, the air feels as close as
the hold of a ship.’ He nodded to Lightfall. ‘There is no breath from this,
none at all.’
Yedan grunted. ‘There will be soon
enough.’
‘The queen was wondering about that.’
‘Wondering?’
‘All right. Fretting. Well, more
like a cornered cat, come to think of it, so not fretting at all. Snarling, all
claws out, fear blazing in her eyes.’
Yedan’s jaws bunched, as if he was
still chewing cheese, and then he said, ‘Is that what you wake up to every
morning, Withal?’
He sighed, squinted at Lightfall. ‘Never
been married, have you? I can tell.’
‘Not much interested.’
‘In any of that?’
‘In women.’
‘Ah. Well, among the Meckros, men
marry each other all the time. I figure they see how men and women do it, and
want that for themselves.’
‘Want what, exactly?’
‘Someone to be the cat, someone to
be the dog, I suppose. But all official like.’
‘And here I thought you’d go on
about love and commitment, Withal.’
‘No, it’s all down to who lifts a
leg and who squats. And if you’re lucky, that goes back and forth. If you’re
unlucky, you end up trapped in one or the other and life’s miserable.’
‘Your winning description of
marriage, Withal, has fallen somewhat short for me.’
‘Sorry to hear that, Yedan.’
‘Something to do, I suspect, with
the lack of sincerity.’
Withal grinned. ‘Anyway, the queen
is eager for reassurance. Do you feel ready? And how … how soon?’
‘There is no true measure of
readiness until we are engaged, Withal, until I can see what my army can do, or
is willing to do. Of the two, I will take the latter and hope for the former.
As for how soon …’ He paused, and then pointed at Lightfall. ‘There, do you see
that?’
A strange dull spot formed in the
descending streams of light. It bled outward like a stain, reaching down to the
very base, before the brighter edges began soaking back in. ‘What was that?’
‘Dragons, Withal.’
‘What?’
‘Soletaken, or allies. The sorcery
of the Eleint that some call their breath. They assail the barrier with
that chaotic power, and with each breath the ancient wound thins, the skin
weakens.’
‘Mael save us, Yedan – you mean to
stand against dragons? How?’
‘When the wound opens, it will be at
the base – to open the way for their foot soldiers. A beachhead will need to be
established – we need to be driven back from the wound. For a dragon to
physically come through the breach will take all of its power, and when it does
it will be on the ground, not in the air. And when a dragon is on the ground,
it is vulnerable.’
‘But if the beachhead has driven you
back—’
‘We must in turn overrun them.’
‘To reach that first dragon.’
‘Yes.’
‘And kill it.’
‘Ideally, halfway through the wound.
And not killed, but dying. At that moment, my sister and the witches need to …
pounce. To take that draconic life force—’
‘And seal the breach.’
Yedan Derryg nodded.
Withal stared at the man, his angled
profile, his dark, calm eyes fixed so steadily upon Lightfall. Beru’s sweet
piss, does nothing rattle him? Prince Yedan Derryg, your soldiers will look to
you, and now at last I begin to see what they will see. You are their own wall,
their own Lightfall.
But are you wounded, too?
‘Yedan, can it be done? What you
describe?’
The man shrugged. ‘My sister refuses
to kneel before the First Shore. It is the act that sanctifies the queen of the
Shake, and she will not do it.’
‘Why ever not?’
His teeth bared in a brief grin,
Yedan said, ‘We are a contrary lot, us royals. A queen who defies
sanctification, a prince who will never produce an heir, and what of Awakening
Dawn? What of our Sister of Night? Gone, for ever gone. Yan Tovis and me, we
are all that’s left. Have you ever been in a Letherii city, Withal?’
‘Well, yes.’
‘Have you ever seen a Shake walk
through a Letherii crowd?’
‘No, I don’t think so.’
‘They keep their eyes on the
cobbles. They shift and slide from anyone in their path. They do not walk as
would you, tall, filling the space you need.’
‘I believe that has changed, Yedan –
what you and your sister have done here—’
‘And sticking a sword in their hand
and telling them to stand here, to fight and to die without a single backward
step, will turn mice into snarling leopards? We shall find out the answer to
that soon enough.’
Withal thought for a time on all
that the prince had said, and then he shook his head. ‘Is it just your royal
blood, then, that makes you and your sister the exceptions to the image you
paint of the Shake? You are not mice.’
‘We trained as officers in the
Letherii military – we considered that a duty, not to the king of Lether, but
to the Shake. To lead we must be seen to lead, but more than that we needed to
learn how to lead. This was the Letherii military’s gift to us, but it
was a dangerous one, for it very nearly swallowed up Yan Tovis – perhaps it
has, given the reluctance she now displays.’
‘If she does not kneel to the Shore,’
asked Withal, ‘can the witches alone seal the wound?’
‘No.’
‘And if there were more of them?’
Yedan glanced over. ‘If I hadn’t
murdered them, you mean?’ He seemed to find something left over in his mouth,
worked it loose with his tongue, chewed and swallowed. ‘Hard to say. Possibly.
Possibly not. Venal rivalries plagued them. It’s more likely they would have
usurped my sister, or even killed her. And then they’d set about killing each
other.’
‘But couldn’t you have stopped them?’
‘I did.’
Withal was silent for a moment, and
then he said, ‘Surely she understands the danger?’
‘I imagine so.’
‘You’ve not tried to persuade her?’
‘In her own way, my sister is as
stubborn as I am.’
‘Another wall,’ Withal muttered.
‘What?’
He shook his head. ‘Nothing of
import.’
‘There. Another pass comes – look—’
A dark shape was descending behind
Lightfall, a thing huge and blurred. Lunging to sweep past the heart of the
wound. Something struck the barrier like a massive fist. Light sprayed like
blood. Red cracks spread out from the dark stain.
Yedan stood. ‘Go back to the queen
of Kharkanas, Withal,’ he said, drawing his sword. ‘One more pass, if that, and
then this begins.’
‘Begins?’ Withal asked, as if struck
dumb.
He saw Pithy and Brevity running up
the strand. A sudden chill flooded through him. Terrible memories. Of his
younger days, of battles upon the decks of the Meckros. Fear weakened his legs.
‘Tell her,’ continued Yedan, his
tone as steady as ever, ‘we will hold as long as we can. Tell her, Withal, that
once more the Shake stand upon the Shore.’
Spear points thrust out from the
wound, a shivering, bristling horror – he could see figures, pushing, crowding,
could almost hear their howls. Light spurted like ropes of gore. Light flooded
out on to the strand, illuminating the crushed bones. Light lit faces beneath
helms.
Tiste Liosan. The Children of
Father Light. A star is born in the dark, and the heavens are revealed to all.
‘Go, Withal. We are breached.’
We can hold against nothing. We
can only crumble, like sand before the devouring wave. Yedan calls to his
officers, his officers rush and shout, ranks form up, these would-be soldiers
struggle and steady themselves. The Shake – my Shake – stand pale, eyes wide,
straining to see what’s happening at the breach, where the Letherii, dreaming
of riches, meet the thrusting spears.
Screams now rise from the wound.
There are Tiste Liosan, their faces broken masks of fury, and all the madness
of war is down there, at the breach. Life’s blood even now spilling down .
We cannot hold. Look at my
people, how their eyes track my brother now, but he’s only one man, and even he
cannot defeat this enemy. Long ago, there were enough of us, enough to hold,
enough to last and to die to save this realm. But no longer.
Pully and Skwish loomed in front of
her. They were shouting, screaming, but she was deaf to them. The clash of
weapons grew desperate, like a thousand knives upon a single whetstone. But
you are flesh, my brother. Not a whetstone. Flesh.
‘You must kneel!’
Yan Tovis frowned at the young woman
before her. ‘Is it blood you want?’
Eyes widened.
She held out her wrists. ‘This?’
‘You need to kneel before the Shore!’
‘No,’ she growled. ‘Not yet. Go
away, I’m done with you. The islanders are fighting – go down to them, kneel
yourselves. In the sand beside the wounded and the dying – both of you. Look in
their faces, and tell them it was all worth it.’ Yan Tovis lunged forward,
pushing them so that they staggered. ‘Go! Tell them!’
You want me to kneel? To sanctify
all of this? Shall I be yet one more ruler to urge my subjects to their deaths?
Shall I stand tall and bold, shouting fierce promises of glory? How many lies
can this scene withstand? Just how empty can words be?
‘Kneel,’ she whispered. ‘Yes.
Everyone. Kneel.’
CHAPTER NINE
I am fallen prey
There was a time
When fangs sank deep
My body dragged
And flesh howled
Fear’s face was cold
With instinct’s need
There was a time
When strangers took me
And the unfamiliar
Whispered terror
And the shock of desires
We could not expect
Lit eyes so like our own
There was a time
When a friend twisted
Before my eyes
And all my solid faiths
Washed free underfoot
Unknowing the world
With new and cruel design
There was a time
When kin drew the knife
To sever sacred law
With red envy
And red malice
The horror visits
The heart of home
Do you see this journey?
What began in shadows
And dark distance
Has drawn ever closer
Now I am fallen prey
To the demon in my soul
And the face twisting
Is my own
Railing at failures
Of flesh and bone
The spirit withers
And I fall prey
We have listed
A world of enemies
And now we fall prey
We fall prey
Faces of Fear
Fisher kel Tath
BROKEN AT LAST, THE BODY SLUMPS AND
THE SPIRIT PULLS FREE, THE spirit wings away in flight and the sound of its
wings is a sigh. But this, he knew, was not always the case. There were times
when the spirit staggered loose with a howl, as broken as the body left behind.
Too long inside tortured flesh, too long a sordid lover of punishing pain.
The sound of his horse’s hoofs was
hollow, the creak of its tendons like the settling of an old, familiar chair,
and he thought of a warm room, a place heady with memories threaded through
with love and grief, with joy and suffering. But there was no pocket within him
to hold tears, nothing he could squeeze in one fist just to feel the wet
trickling down between his fingers. No gestures left to remind himself of who
he had once been.
He found her rotted corpse, huddled
in the lee of a boulder. There were red glints in her hair, beneath wind-blown
dust. Her face was tucked down, sunken cheeks pressed against the knees. As if
in her last moments she sat, curled up, staring down at the stumps of her feet.
It was all too far gone, he told
himself. Even this felt mechanical, but disjointed, on the edge of failure; a
measure of stumbling steps, like a man blind and lost, trying to find his way
home. Dismounting, boots rocking as the bones inside them shifted and scraped,
he walked to her, slowly sat down on the boulder, amidst the creaks of tendon,
bone and armour.
Broken-winged, the spirit had
staggered from this place. Lost even to itself. How could he hope to track it?
Leaning forward, he settled his face into his hands, and – though it made no
difference – he closed his one eye.
Who I am no longer matters. A
chair, creaking. A small room, acrid with woodsmoke. Crows in the rafters –
what mad woman would invite them into this place? The hunters have thundered
past and the wolf no longer howls. She has no breath for such things, not now,
not running as she must. Running – gods, running!
She knows it’s no use. She knows
they will corner her, spit her with spears. She knows all about hunting, and
the kill, for these were the forces of law in her nature. So too, it seems, for
the ones pursuing her.
And the woman in the chair, her
eyes are smarting, her vision blurs. The chimney needs cleaning, and besides,
the wild is dead, for ever dead. And when next the hunters thunder past, their
quarry will be on two legs, not four.
Just so.
Do you dream of me, old woman? Do
you dream of a single eye, flaring in the night, one last look of the wild upon
your face, your world? Gods below, I am tearing apart. I can feel it.
The horns sound their triumph.
Slain, the beast’s heart stills its mad race.
In her creaking chair, the old woman
reaches up one hand, and gouges out one of her eyes. It rests bloody in her
palm while she gasps with pain. And then she lifts her head and fixes her one
remaining eye upon him. ‘Even the blind know how to weep.’
He shakes his head, not in denial,
but because he does not understand.
The old woman throws the eye into
the fire. ‘To the wild, to the wild, all gone. Gone. Loose the wolf within you,
Ghost. Loose the beast upon the trail, and one day you shall find her.’
‘Who are you?’
‘Smell that? Wax in the fire. Wax in
the fire.’
‘What place is this?’
‘This?’ The chair creaks. She
reaches up to her other eye. ‘Love lives here, Ghost. The Hold you have
forgotten, the Hold you all yearn to find again. But you forget more than that.’
She pushed her nails into her other eye. ‘Where there is love, there is pain.’
‘No,’ he whispered, ‘there must be
more to it than that.’ He lifted his head, and opened his eye. Wretched
wasteland, a boulder, a huddled form. ‘But she threw it into the flames.’ Wax.
Wax in the fire.
Looking down, he studied the corpse
beside him, and then he rocked to his feet, walked over to his lifeless horse,
and pulled from the saddle a roll of sacking. Laying it out, he went back to
her, lifted her gently from her snarled nest of greening grasses. On to the
cloth, drawing up the edges and binding them tight, and then gathering the sack
and slinging it across the horse’s rump just behind the saddle, before climbing
astride the motionless mount.
Collecting up the reins, Toc closed
his remaining eye.
Then opened the missing one.
The day’s light vanished
abruptly, the mass of bruised clouds climbing, billowing outward. A savage gust
of wind bowed back the trees lining the north ridge and a moment later rushed
down the slope and up on to the road. Her horse shied and then quivered to the
impact, and she hunched down over the saddle as the gale threatened to lift her
from the animal’s back. Driving her heels into its flanks, she urged her mount
onward.
She was still half a day from the
city – the warrens had a way of wandering, and gates could never be counted on,
and this particular gate had opened a long, long way from where it had begun.
Exhausted, filled with doubts and trepidation, she pushed on, her horse’s hoofs
cracking sparks on the cobbles.
Some things could haunt a soul;
some things needed undoing. The toe of a boot searching ashes – but no, she’d
gone beyond that. She was here, regrets like hounds at her heels.
Thunder pounded; lightning flashed
and sent jagged fissures of argent light splitting the black clouds. Somewhere
behind her a strike detonated on the road and her horse stumbled. She steadied
it with a firm rein. The gusts of wind felt like fists pummelling the left side
of her face, and all down that side of her body. She swore, but could barely
hear her own voice.
The darkness had swallowed the
world now and she rode half blind, trusting her mount to stay on the road. And
still the rain held back – she could taste it on the air, bitter with the salt
whipped up from the seas beyond the ridge.
Her cloak pulled loose from the
thigh strings and snapped out wild as a torn sail behind her. She shouted a
curse as she was nearly yanked from the saddle. Teeth grinding, she forced her
upper body forward once again, one hand holding tight on the hinged saddle horn.
She’d ridden into the face of
sandstorms – gods, she’d damned near spat into the face of the Whirlwind itself
– but nothing like this. The air crackled, groaned. The road shook to the
thunderous reverberations, like the hoofs of a god descending.
Howling now, giving voice to her
fury, she drove her horse into a churning gallop, and the beast’s breaths
snorted like drums in the rain – but the air was charnel hot, tomb-dry – another
blinding flash, another deafening detonation – her horse wavered and then,
muscles bunching, bones straining, it regained its purchase on the road –
– and someone was now riding
beside her, on a huge, gaunt horse black as the sky overhead.
She twisted round to glare at him.
‘ This is you?’
A flash of a grin, and then, ‘
Sorry!’
‘When will it end?’
‘How should I know? When the
damned gate closes!’
He then added something more, but
thunder smashed to splinters whatever he’d said, and she shook her head at him.
He leaned closer, shouted, ‘ It’s
good to see you again!’
‘You idiot! Does he even know you’re
here?’
And to that question, his only
answer was another grin.
Where had he been? The man had
ever infuriated her. And now here he was, at her side, reminding her of all the
reasons she’d had the first time round for doing … for doing what she did.
Growling another curse, she shot him a glare. ‘ Will this get any worse?’
‘Only when we leave!’
Gods below, the things I’ll do for
love.
‘North,’ the withered hag had said,
her bent and broken visage reminding Torrent of an uncle who’d taken a hoof to
the side of his face, crushing jaws and cheekbone. For the rest of his days, he’d
shown to the world the imprint of that hoof, and with a twisted, toothless
grin, he’d laugh and say, ‘My best friend did this. What’s the world come to
when you can’t even trust your best friends?’
And if the horse had outlived him,
if his wife had not wept at his byre as a widow should, instead standing dry-eyed
and expressionless, if he’d not begun chasing little girls … Torrent shook his
head. Any rider who called his horse his best friend already had a few stones
knocked loose in his skull.
For all that, Torrent found himself
tending to his mount with a care bordering on obsession. And he grieved to see
it suffer. Poor forage, not enough water, the absence of its own kind. Solitude
weakened a horse’s spirit, for they were herd animals as much as humans were,
and loneliness dulled the eye.
‘The desert glitters with death,’
continued Olar Ethil. ‘We must go round it. North.’
Torrent glanced over at the
children. Absi had ventured a few strides on to the plain, returning with a
shard of crystal that painted prisms up his bared arm. He held up his trophy,
waved it back and forth as if it was a sword, and then he laughed. The twins
looked on, their wan faces empty of expression.
He had no skills when it came to
children. Redmask had set him to care for the Awl children, that day long ago,
knowing well his awkwardness, his discomfort. Redmask had been punishing him
for something – Torrent could no longer remember what, not that it mattered any
more. From where he had been, he’d seen the fall of the great leader. From
where he had been, he’d witnessed the death of Toc Anaster.
It was a measure of human madness,
he realized, that children should be made to see such things. The pain of the
dying, the violence of the slayer, the cruelty of the victor. He wondered what
the twins had seen, since that night of betrayal. Even Absi must bear scars,
though he seemed oddly immune to long bouts of sorrow.
No, none of this was right. But
then, maybe it had never been right. Did there not come to every child that
moment when the mother, the father, loses that god-like status, that supreme
competence in all things, when they are revealed to be as weak, as flawed and
as lost as the child looking on? How that moment crushes! All at once the world
becomes a threatening place, and in the unknown waits all manner of danger, and
the child wonders if there is any place left in which to hide, to find refuge.
‘North,’ said Olar Ethil again, and
she set off, limping, pieces hanging from her battered form. The two skeletal
lizards scampered into her wake – he’d wondered where they’d been, since it had
been days since he’d last seen them, but now the damned things were back.
Torrent turned from his horse and
walked over to the children. ‘Absi and Stavi this time,’ he said. Stavi rose
and took her brother’s hand – the one not gripping the shard – and led him over
to the horse. She clambered into the saddle, and then reached down to Absi.
Watching her lift the boy from the
ground and set him down on the saddle in front of her reminded Torrent of how
these children had changed. Wiry, all fat burned away, their skins darkened by
the sun. A newly honed edge of competence.
Redmask left me to guard the
children. But they are gone, now. All of them. Gone. So I promised Setoc to
ward these ones. So bold, that vow. And I don’t even like children. If I fail
again, these three will die.
Storii’s calloused hand slipped into
his own. He looked down to meet her eyes, and what he saw in them made his
stomach twist. No, I am not your unflawed protector, not your guardian god.
No, do not look at me like that. ‘Let’s go,’ he said gruffly.
She could feel her power growing,
her senses reaching out through stony ground, along the sodden sands of buried
streams. Again and again, she touched the signs of her chosen children, the
Imass, and even those from the Eres’al – who dwelt in the times before the
Imass. And she could hear the echoes of their voices, songs lost to ancient
winds now, there on the banks of extinct rivers, in the lees of hills long
since worn down and eaten away.
The tools were crude, it was true,
the stone of poor quality, but no matter. They had lived in this place; they
had wandered these lands. And they shall do so once again. Onos T’oolan, you
refuse to understand what I seek for you, for you and all your kin. Silverfox
has led so many away, far beyond my reach, but First Sword, those who follow
you shall find salvation.
Heed not the summons of the First
Throne – she may be a child of the Emperor, she may even stand in the shadow of
secrets – but her power over you is an illusion. What urges you to obey is the
stain of Logros, the madness of his desperation. Yes, you knelt before the
First Throne, there with all the others, but the Emperor is dead. The Emperor
is dead!
Listen to me, Onos T’oolan! Turn
your people back – the path you are on shall see you all destroyed. Find me –
let us end this war of wills. First Sword, see through my eyes – I have your
son.
I have your son.
But still he pushed her away, still
his own power seethed and roiled around him, raw with the force of Tellann. She
sought to force her way through, but his strength defied her. You damned
fool! I have your son!
She snarled, paused to glare back at
the humans trailing her. And what of your daughters, Onos? Shall I open
their throats? Will that compel you? How dare you defy me! Answer me!
Nothing but the moaning wind.
Must I abandon them? Must I find
you myself? Tell me, is your power sufficient to rebuff a dragon? I will come
to you, First Sword, in the raging fire of Telas—
‘If you harm them, Olar Ethil, a
thousand worlds of Telas fire shall not keep you safe from me.’
She laughed. ‘Ah, now you speak.’
‘Do I?’
The Bonecaster hissed in fury. ‘You?
Begone, you one-eyed corpse! Go back to your pathetic army of worthless
soldiers!’
‘Reach so with your powers, Olar
Ethil, and there is no telling whom you might find. In fact, consider this a
warning. You are far from alone in this land. There are wings in the darkness,
and the morning frost holds in every droplet a thousand eyes. On the wind,
scents and flavours, and the breath of ice—’
‘Oh, be quiet! I see what you’re
doing! Do you imagine me unable to hide?’
‘You failed in hiding from me, a
one-eyed corpse.’
‘The longer you linger,’ she said, ‘the
more you lose of yourself. That is my warning to you. You fall
away, Toc Anaster. Do you understand me? You fall away.’
‘I shall hold on long enough.’
‘To do what?’
‘What’s needed.’
It proved easy for her will to evade
him, slipping to rush past, thundering like a flash flood. Pouring, like water,
like fire. She would assail the First Sword’s Tellann. She would shatter the
barrier. She would take him by the throat—
Ahead, a line of horse soldiers
across her path, silent and dark upon the plain. Dirty, limp banners, torn
standards, helms above gaunt, withered faces.
Her power hammered into them,
crashed and broke apart like waves against a cliff. Olar Ethil felt her mind
reeling back. She was stunned by the will of these revenants, these usurpers of
the Throne of Death. As she staggered back, one guided his horse out from the
line.
The grey of his beard was spun iron,
the cast of his eyes was stone. He reined in before her, leaned forward on his
saddle. ‘You are treading foreign land, Bonecaster.’
‘You dare challenge me?’
‘Anywhere, any time.’
‘He is mine!’
‘Olar Ethil,’ he said, drawing his
sword, ‘when you argue with death, you always lose.’
Shrieking her fury, she fled.
Torrent walked to stand beside the
kneeling creature. ‘You nearly deafened us,’ he said. ‘Is something wrong?’
She slowly straightened, then lashed
out an arm across the front of his chest. Thrown back, he was flung through the
air. He struck the ground hard, the breath driven from his lungs.
Olar Ethil walked to him, reached
down and closed a hand round his throat. She pulled him upright, thrust her
mangled face forward, and in the sockets of her eyes he could see fires raging.
‘If I kill them all,’ she hissed, ‘here and now … what use are you? Tell me,
pup, what use are you?’
He gasped, trying to regain his
breath. Snarling, she thrust him away. ‘Do not mock me again, Awl.’
Torrent staggered, dropped to one
knee.
Close by, the two skeletal reptiles
laughed.
Storii ran to his side. ‘Don’t,’ she
pleaded, her face tear-streaked. ‘Don’t, please. Don’t leave us!’
He shook his head, his throat too
bruised for words.
His horse moved up behind them,
nudged Torrent’s shoulder. Spirits below.
It had been a long time since he’d
last unleashed the full power of Tellann, dragging his hold on the Warren with
him with each heavy, scraping step. Within its deadened heart, nothing could
reach Onos T’oolan; even the furious assault of Olar Ethil felt muted, a
muffled rage made indistinct by layer upon layer of the First Sword’s will.
He recalled a desert, a salt flat’s
verge of sharp stones. There were rents in the line. There were clans with but
a few warriors left to stand, there on that cold, still morning. He stood
before Logros, bereft of his kin, and all that held him there was the binding
of duty, the knotted webs of loyalty. He was the First Sword, after all.
The last Jaghut in the Odhan had
been hunted down, butchered. The time had come to return to the Malazan Empire,
to the Emperor who had seated himself on the First Throne. And Onos T’oolan
knew he would soon return to the side of Dassem Ultor, his mortal shadow who
had taken for himself – and for his closest followers – the title of First
Sword. Prophetic inspiration, for they would soon all be dead – as dead as Onos
T’oolan, as dead as the T’lan Imass. Or if not dead, then … destroyed.
Instead, Logros had lifted one hand,
a splay of gnarled fingers all pointing at Onos. ‘You were once our First
Sword,’ he said. ‘When we return to the mortal empire, we shall avow service to
Dassem Ultor, for he is your heir to the title. You shall surrender the name of
First Sword.’
Onos T’oolan considered that for a
time. Surrender the title? Cut through the bindings? Sever the knots? Know
freedom once more? ‘He is mortal, Logros. He does not know what he has done
in taking for himself the title of First Sword.’
‘In service,’ Logros replied, ‘the T’lan
Imass sanctify him—’
‘You would make of him a god?’
‘We are warriors. Our blessing shall—’
‘Damn him for eternity!’
‘Onos T’oolan, you are of no use to
us.’
‘Do you imagine’ – and he recalled
the timbre of his voice, the seething outrage, and the horror of what Logros
sought to do … to a mortal man, to a man destined to face his own death, and
that is something we have never done, no, we ever ran from that moment of
reckoning – Logros, the Lord of Death shall strike at the T’lan Imass, through
him. Hood shall make him pay. For our crime, for our defiance – ‘Do you
imagine,’ he’d said, ‘that your blessing could be anything but a curse? You
would make him a god of sorrow, and failure, a god with a face doomed to weep,
to twist in anguish—’
‘Onos T’oolan, we cast you out.’
‘I shall speak to Dassem Ultor—’
‘You do not understand. It is too
late.’
Too late.
The Adjunct Lorn had believed that
it was the murder of the Emperor that had broken the human empire’s alliance
with Logros T’lan Imass. She had been wrong. The spilled blood you should
have heeded was Dassem Ultor’s, not Kellanved’s. And for all that neither man
truly died, but only one bore the deadly kiss of Hood in all the days that followed.
Only one stood before Hood himself, and learned of the terrible thing Logros
had done to him.
They said Hood was his patron
god. They said he had avowed service to the Lord of Death. They said that Hood
then betrayed him. They understood nothing. Dassem and his daughter, they were
Hood’s knives, striking at us. What is it, to be the weapon of a god?
Where are you now, Logros? Do you
feel me, so fiercely reborn? My heir – your chosen child – has rejected the
role. His footfalls now mark the passing of tragedy. You have made him the God
of Tears, and now that Hood is gone he must hunt down the next one who made him
what he was. Do you tremble, Logros? Dassem is coming for you. He is coming for
you.
No, the world could not reach
through to Onos T’oolan. Not a tremor of pain, not a tremble of grief. He knew
nothing of rage. He was immune to every betrayal delivered upon him, and upon
those whom he had loved with all his once-mortal heart. He had no desire for
vengeance; he had no hope of salvation.
I am the First Sword. I am the
weapon of the godless, and upon the day I am unsheathed, dust shall take your
every dream. Logros, you fool, did you think you and all the T’lan Imass were
proof against your new god’s deadly kiss? Ask Kron. Ask Silverfox. Look upon me
now, see how Olar Ethil seeks to wrest me away from Dassem’s curse – but she
cannot. You gave him mastery over us, and these chains no Bonecaster can
shatter.
We march to our annihilation. The
First Sword is torn in two, one half mortal and cruel in denial, the other half
immortal and crueller still. Be glad Dassem has not found me. Be glad he seeks
his own path, and that he will be far from the place where I shall stand.
And here is my secret. Heed this
well. The weapon of the godless needs no hand to wield it. The weapon of the
godless wields itself. It is without fear. It is empty of guilt and disdainful
of retribution. It is all that and more, but one thing it is not: a liar. No
slaying in the name of a higher power, no promises of redemption. It will not
cloak brutality in the zeal that justifies, that absolves.
And this is why it is the most
horrifying weapon of all.
No one could reach him, and he could
feel his power seething, emanating from him in radiating waves – and beyond it
the world trembled. He was no longer interested in hiding. No longer concerned
with stratagems of deceit.
Let his enemies find him. Let them
dare his wrath.
Was this not better? Was this not
more comforting than if he’d ignited his rage? Tellann did not demand ferocious
fires, engulfing the lands, devouring the sky. Tellann could hide in a single
spark, or the faint gleam in an ember’s soul. It could hide in the patience of
a warrior immune to doubt, armoured in pure righteousness.
And if that righteousness then
blazed, if it scorched all who dared assail it, well, was that not just?
Ulag Togtil bowed under the assault
of the First Sword’s thoughts, this searing flood of bright horror. He could
feel the waves of anguish erupting from his fellow warriors, swirling like
newborn eels in the maelstrom of their leader’s rage.
Was this destroying them all? Would
Onos T’oolan at last find his place to embrace annihilation, only to turn round
and discover nothing but ashes in his wake? His followers incinerated by all
that roiled out from him? Or will this anneal us? Will this forge us all
into his weapons of the godless?
We felt you, Olar Ethil, and we
too reject you and all that you promise. Our time is over. The First Sword
understands this. You do not.
Go away. The blood you demand
from this world is too terrible, and to spill it in our name is to give final
proof to this theme of tragedy, the dread curse born of the mortal named Dassem
Ultor.
Logros, could I find you now, I
would tear your limbs off. I would twist your skull until your neck snapped.
And I would bury that skull in the deepest, darkest pit, so that you witness
naught but an eternity of decay.
Yes, we understand the First
Sword now.
We understand, and we cannot bear
it.
Rystalle Ev struggled to reach Ulag’s
side. She needed his strength. The First Sword was devouring himself, his
thoughts both gaping, snapping maw and mangled, bloody tail. He was a serpent
of fire, wheeling inexorably forward. The current swept his warriors after him;
they staggered, blind in the deluge of terrible power.
Ulag, please – are we not done
with weapons? Is peace nothing but a lie?
First Sword – you vow to shatter
us all, but what will it win us? Is this the only legacy we can offer to all
who follow? We die, tokens of useless defiance. The kings will still stride the
earth, the slaves will still bow in chains, the hunters will hunt and the
hunted will die. Mothers will weep for lost children – First Sword, can you
offer us nothing but this?
But there was no room in the
thoughts of Onos T’oolan to heed the fears of his followers. He was not even
listening, chewing on the pathetic game of implacability – this mad diffidence
and the absurdity of the unaffected. No, none of them could reach him.
But we follow. We can do nothing
else.
She stumbled against Ulag. He
reached out, steadied her.
‘Ulag?’
‘Hold on, Rystalle Ev. Find
something. A memory you can hold on to. A time of joy, of love even. When the
moment comes …’ he paused, as if struggling with his words, ‘when the time
comes, and you are driven to your knees, when the world turns its face from you
on all sides, when you fall inside yourself, and fall, and fall, find
your moment, your dream of peace.’
‘There is none,’ she whispered. ‘I
remember only grief.’
‘Find it,’ he hissed. ‘You must!’
‘He will see us all destroyed – that
is the only peace I now dream of, Ulag.’
She saw him turn away then, and
sorrow filled her. See us? We are the T’lan Imass. We are the glory of
immortality. When oblivion comes, I shall kiss it. And in my mind, I shall ride
into the void on a river of tears. On a river of tears.
Gruntle followed a trail old beyond
imagination, skirting sheer cliffs, the tumbled wreckage of sharp rocks and
shattered boulders. In this place of dreams the air was hot, smelling of salt
marshes and vast tidal flats. It was a trail of the dead and the dying, a trail
of clenched jaws and neck muscles taut as bands of iron. Limbs scraped, knocked
against stone, and that deep, warm miasma that so bound the minds of the
hunted, the victims, filled the air like the breath of ghosts trapped for ever
in this travail.
He reached the cave, paused just
outside it, head lifted, testing the air.
But all this was long past,
generation folded upon generation, a procession that promised to repeat again
and again, for all time.
An illusion, he well knew. The last
giant cat that had dragged its prey into this cave was bones and dust, so
scattered by the centuries that he could not identify its scent. A leopard, a tiger,
a cave lion – what did it matter, the damned thing was dead. The cycle of
hunting, breeding and rearing had long ago snapped clean.
He edged into the cave, knowing what
he would find.
Bones. Gnawed skulls. Eres’al
skulls, and those of other apes, and here and there a human child, a woman.
This was proof of a time when the world’s future tyrants were nothing but
victims, cowering, eyes wide at the flash of feline eyes in the darkness. They
fell to savage fangs, to talons. They hung slack by the neck from the jaws of
the great tawny beasts haunting their world.
Tyranny was but a gleam in the eye
back then, and each day the sun lifted to light a world of ignorance. How sweet
must that have been.
Gruntle snorted. Where was the mind
that dreamed of unimagined possibilities – like hands groping in the dark?
Groping – was that a flare of distant light? Was that a promise of something,
something … wonderful? In the moment before the low growl – hackles snapping –
and the sudden lunge. Better to die reaching for dreams than reaching for …
for what? That tick under the armpit of the smelly creature huddled against
you?
I have heard that rock apes
gather on the cliff edges to watch the sun set and rise. What are they
thinking? What are they dreaming? Is that a moment of prayer? A time to give
thanks for the glory of life?
A prayer? Aye: ‘May all these
two-legged hunters chew straight up their own arses. Give us spears of fire and
lightning to turn this battle – just once, we beg you. Just once!’
He reached out a massive barbed paw
and slapped at a small skull, watched it skid and then slowly spin in place. Got
you, I see. Fangs went crunch, dreams went away. Done. With a low growl, he
slipped past the heaps of bones until he found the place where the ancient cats
had slept, bellies full, running through the wild grasses of their dream worlds
– which were no different from this one. Imagine dreaming of a paradise no
different from the one in which you happen to live. What moral might hide in
that?
All these worlds, all these fraught
warrens, mocked him with their perfect banality. Patterns without revelation,
repetitions without meaning. It was not enough to imagine worlds without humans
or other sentient fools; the simple act of imagining placed his all-too-human
sensibility upon the scene, his very own eyes to witness the idyllic perfection
of his absolute absence. For all that, it was easy to harbour such
contradictions – when I hold on to this humanity within me. When I refuse
the sweet bliss of the tiger’s world.
No wonder you forgot everything,
Trake. No wonder you weren’t ready for godhood. In the jungles of ancient days,
the tigers were gods. Until the new gods arrived. And they were far thirstier
for blood than the tigers ever were, and now the jungle is silent.
This night, he knew, here in this
cave, he would dream of the hunt, the perfect stalking of the perfect prey, and
dragging his victim up the trail and into this cave, away from the hyenas and
jackals.
As dreams went, it wasn’t that bad.
As dreams went.
Black fur, the taste of blood in my mouth …
He had found him outside the walls
of a dead city. Kneeling on a dusty road, collecting the shattered remnants of
an old pot, but it was not just one pot that had broken apart, it was hundreds.
A panicked flight, smoke and flames rising to blacken the limestone cliffs
against which the city had cowered, the blurred passing of wretched faces, like
broken husks and flotsam in a river. Things fell, things fell apart.
He was trying to put the pieces back
together, and as Mappo drew nearer he looked up, but only briefly, before
returning to his task. ‘Good sir,’ he said, with one finger pushing shards back
and forth, endlessly rearranging, seeking patterns, ‘Good sir, have you by
chance some glue?’
The rage was gone, and with it all
memory. Icarium knelt with his back to a city he had destroyed.
Sighing, Mappo set his heavy satchel
down, and then crouched. ‘Too many broke here,’ he said, ‘for you to repair. It
would take weeks, maybe even months.’
‘But I have time.’
Mappo flinched, looked away – but
not at the city, where capemoths crowded window sills in the slope-walled
buildings leaning against the cliff walls, where the scorch marks streaked the
stone like slashes into night. Not at the city, with its narrow streets filled
with rubble and corpses, and the rhizan lizards swarming the cold, rotting
flesh, and the bhok’arala clambering down to lick sticky stains for the salt
and snatching up bundles of clothing with which to make nests. And not at the
gate, the doors blasted apart, the heaps of dead soldiers swelling inside their
armour as the day’s heat burgeoned.
He stared instead southward, to the
old caravan camps marked only by low stone foundations and pens for sheep and
goats. Never again would the desert traders travel to this place; never again
would merchants from distant cities come seeking the famous Redworm Silks of
Shikimesh.
‘I thought, friend,’ Mappo said, and
then he shook his head. ‘Only yesterday you spoke of journeying. Northeast, you
said, to the coast.’
Icarium looked up, frowned. ‘I did?’
‘Seeking the Tanno, the
Spiritwalkers. They are said to have collected ancient records from as far back
as the First Empire.’
‘Yes.’ Icarium nodded. ‘I have heard
that said, too. Think of all that secret knowledge! Tell me, do you think the
priests will permit me entry to their libraries? There is so much I need to
learn – why would they stop me? Do you think they will be kind, friend? Kind to
me?’
Mappo studied the shards on the
road. ‘The Tanno are said to be very wise, Icarium. I do not imagine they would
bar their doors to you.’
‘Good. That’s good.’
The Trell scratched at the bristle
on his jaw. ‘So, it shall be Icarium and Mappo, walking across the wastes, all
the way to the coast, there to take ship to the island, to the home of the
Spiritwalkers.’
‘Icarium and Mappo,’ the Jhag
repeated, and then he smiled. ‘Mappo, my friend, this seems a most promising
day, does it not?’
‘I shall draw water from the caravan
wells, and then we can be on our way.’
‘Water,’ said Icarium. ‘Yes, so I
can wash this mud off – I seem to have bathed in it.’
‘You slid down a bank yesterday
evening.’
‘Just so, Mappo. Clumsy of me.’ He
slowly straightened, cupped in his hands a score of fragments. ‘See the beautiful
blue glaze? Like the sky itself – they must have been beautiful, these vessels.
It is such a loss, when precious things break, isn’t it?’
‘Yes, Icarium, a terrible loss.’
‘Mappo?’ He lifted eyes sharp with
anguish. ‘In the city, I think, something happened. Thousands have died –
thousands lie dead in that city – it’s true, isn’t it?’
‘Yes, Icarium, a most tragic end.’
‘What awful curse was visited upon
it, do you think?’
Mappo shook his head.
Icarium studied the shards in his
hands. ‘If I could put it all back together, I would. You know that, don’t you?
You understand that – please, say that you understand.’
‘I do, friend.’
‘To take what’s broken. To mend it.’
‘Yes,’ Mappo whispered.
‘Must everything break in the end?’
‘No, Icarium, not everything.’
‘Not everything? What will not break
in the end? Tell me, Mappo.’
‘Why,’ and the Trell forced a smile,
‘you need not look far. Are we not friends, Icarium? Have we not always been
friends?’
A sudden light in the Jhag’s grey
eyes. ‘Shall I help you with the water?’
‘I would like that.’
Icarium stared at the shards in his
hands and hesitated.
Mappo dragged his satchel over. ‘In
here, if you like. We can try to put them together later.’
‘But there’s more on the road, all
about – I would need—’
‘Leave the water to me, then,
Icarium. Fill the satchel, if you like, as many as you can gather.’
‘But the weight – no, I think it
would prove too heavy a burden, friend, this obsession of mine.’
‘Don’t worry on that account,
friend. Go on. I will be back shortly.’
‘You are certain?’
‘Go on.’
With a smile, Icarium knelt once
again. His gaze caught on his sword, lying on the verge a few paces to his
right, and Mappo saw him frown.
‘I cleaned the mud from it last
night,’ Mappo said.
‘Ah. That was kind of you, friend.’
Shikimesh and the Redworm Silks.
An age ago, a thousand lies ago, and the biggest lie of all. A friendship that
could never break. He sat in the gloom, encircled by a ring of stones he
had rolled together – an old Trell ritual – with the gap opening to the east,
to where the sun would rise. In his hands a dozen or so dusty, pale blue
potsherds.
We never got round to putting
them back together. He’d forgotten by the afternoon, and I made no effort to
remind him – and was that not my task? To feed him only those memories I judged
useful, to starve all the others until they vanished.
Kneeling that day, he had been
like a child, with all his games in waiting before him – waiting for someone
like me to come along. Before that, he was content with the company of his own
toys and nothing more. Is that not a precious gift? Is that not the wonder of a
child? The way they have of building their own worlds, of living in them, and
finding joy in the living itself?
Who would break that? Who would
crush and destroy such a wondrous thing?
Will I find you kneeling in the
dust, Icarium? Will I find you puzzling over the wreckage surrounding you? Will
we speak of holy libraries and secret histories?
Shall we sit and build us a pot?
With gentle care, Mappo returned the
shards to his satchel. He lay down, set his back to the gap in the ring of
stones, and tried to sleep.
Faint scanned the area. ‘They split
here,’ she announced. ‘One army went due east, but it’s the narrower trail.’
She pointed southeast. ‘Two, maybe three forces – big ones – went that way. So,
we have us a choice to make.’ She faced her companions, gaze settling on
Precious Thimble.
The young woman seemed to have aged
decades since Jula’s death. She stood in obvious pain, the soles of her feet
probably blistered, cracked and weeping. Just like mine. ‘Well? You said
there was power … out here, somewhere. Tell us, which army do we follow?’
Precious Thimble hugged herself. ‘If
they’re armies, there must be a war.’
Faint said, ‘Well, there was a
battle, yes. We found what was left. But maybe that battle was the only one.
Maybe the war’s over and everyone’s going home.’
‘I meant, why do we have to follow
any of them?’
‘Because we’re starving and dying of
thirst—’
The young woman’s eyes flashed. ‘I’m
doing the best I can!’
Faint said, ‘I know, but it’s not
enough, Precious. If we don’t catch up with somebody, we’re all going to die.’
‘East, then – no, wait.’ She
hesitated.
‘Out with it,’ growled Faint.
‘There’s something terrible that
way. I – I don’t want to get close. I reach out, and then I flee – I don’t know
why. I don’t know anything!’
Amby was staring at her as if
studying a strange piece of wood, or a broken idol. He seemed moments from
spitting at its feet.
Faint ran her hands through her
greasy hair – it was getting long but she welcomed that. Anything to fend off
the infernal heat. Her chest ached and the pain was a constant companion now.
She dreamed of getting drunk. Falling insensate in some alley, or some squalid
room in an inn. Disappearing from herself, for one night, just one night. And
let me wake up to a new body, a new world. With Sweetest Sufferance alive and
sitting beside me. With no warring gods and swords through foreheads. ‘What
about to the southeast, Sorceress? Any bad feelings in that direction?’
Precious Thimble shook her head, and
then shrugged.
‘What does that mean?’ Faint hissed
in exasperation. ‘Is it as nasty as what’s east of us, or isn’t it?’
‘No – but …’
‘But what?’
‘It tastes of blood! There! How’s
that, then? It all tastes of blood!’
‘Are they spilling it or drinking
it?’
Precious Thimble stared at Faint as
if she’d gone mad. Gods, maybe I have, asking a question like that. ‘Which
way will kill us quickest?’
A deep, shuddering breath. ‘East.
That army – they’re all going to die.’
‘Of what?’ Faint demanded.
‘I don’t know – thirst, maybe. Yes,
thirst.’ Her eyes widened. ‘There’s no water, no water at all – I see ground,
glittering ground, blinding, sharp as daggers. And bones – endless fields of
bones. I see men and women driven mad by the heat. I see children – oh gods
– they come walking up like nightmares, like proof of all the crimes we have
ever committed.’ Abruptly, horrifyingly, she howled, her hands to her face, and
then staggered back and would have fallen if not for Amby, who stepped close to
take her weight. She twisted round and buried herself in his embrace. Over her
head, he stared at Faint, and gave her a jarring smile.
Madness? Too late, Precious
Thimble – and thank the gods you can’t see what we’re seeing. Shivering,
Faint turned to the southeast. ‘That way, then.’ Children. Don’t remind me.
Some crimes cut close to the bone, too close. No, don’t remind me.
In her mind she saw Sweetest
Sufferance, a face splitting into a smile. ‘Finally,’ she muttered, ‘ a
decision. Get on with it, Faint.’
Faint nodded for Amby to follow with
the sorceress, and then she set out with her hobbling, wincing gait. If they’ve
gone too far, we won’t make it. If we get much worse … blood. We’ll either
spill it or drink it.
She wondered at the armies ahead.
Who in Hood’s name were they, and why go this deep into the Wastelands just to
fight a stupid battle? And why then split up? And you poor fools marching
east. Just a glimpse of where you’re headed tears at her sanity. I pray you
turn back before you leave too many lying lifeless on the ground.
Wherever you’re going, it can’t
be worth it. Nothing in this world is worth it, and you’d be hard pressed to
convince me otherwise.
She heard a grunt and glanced back.
Amby was carrying Precious Thimble
in his arms, the smile on his face stretched into a rictus travesty of
satisfaction, as if in finding his heart’s desire he was forcing himself to
take its fullest pleasure. Precious Thimble’s head lolled against his upper
arm, her eyes closed, her mouth half open.
‘What’s wrong with her?’
Amby said, ‘Fainted … Faint.’
‘Oh, sod off, you lump of lard.’
Ten thousand furred backs, black,
silver and grey, the bodies lean and long. Like iron swords, ten thousand iron
swords. They seethed before Setoc’s eyes, they blurred like the honed edges of
waves on an angry sea. She was carried along, driven to rearing cliffs, to
up-thrust fangs of rotted rock.
The wind roared in her ears, roared
in and through her, trembling like thunder through every bone of her being. She
felt the beasts crashing ashore, felt their fury assailing insensate stone and
all the brutal laws that held it in place. They bared teeth at the sky, they
bit and chewed shafts of sunlight as if speared through. They howled against
the coming of night and in the hunt they stalked their own senseless savagery.
We are what we are, and facing
this enemy what we are is helpless.
Who will fight for us? Who will
peel lips back to reveal swords of sharp iron?
The cliffs ahead reverberated to the
onslaught – she drew ever closer. Wolves of Winter, do you see me? Blessed
Lord, Proud Lady, is this your summons? Does there await a cave in that ravaged
wall? And inside, a Hold of Thrones?
There is a smell to the wild, a
smell that makes the hairs stand on end, that rushes like ice through human
veins. There are trails crossing the path, secret passages beneath the canopy.
Mice dance on the beaten floor in the instant before we arrive, and we are blind
to it all.
And all the spaces carved out by
our fires and our weapons and our axes and our ploughs, we must then fill with
that sweating, bitter flood that is pride. In the wastelands of our making we
will ourselves to stand as would one exalted and triumphant.
Thrones of the Wild, thrones of
bones and hides and lifeless eyes. Tall as mountains, these Beast Thrones.
Who assails us? Who hunts us? Who
slays us?
Everyone.
She raced for the jagged rocks.
Annihilation, if it came, would arrive as a blessing. The heat of the beasts
carrying her was sweet as a loving kiss, a safe embrace, a promise of
salvation. I am the Destriant of the Wolves. I hold in my chest the souls of
the all the slain beasts, of this and every other world.
But I cannot hold them for ever.
I need a sword. I need absolution.
Absolution, yes, and a sword. Ten
thousand iron swords. In the name of the Wolves of Winter, in the name of the
Wild.
Sister Equity walked across lifeless
sand, far to the south of the Spire, far away from the eyes of everyone. She
had once dreamed of peace. She had lived in a world where questions were rare,
and there had been comfort in that. If there was a cause worthy enough to which
she could devote her life, it was to journey from birth to death without
confrontation. Nothing to stir her unease, nothing to deliver pain or to
receive it. Although the Forkrul Assail had long ago lost their god, had long
ago suffered the terrible grief of that god’s violent end – the murder for
which no penance was possible – she had come to harbour in her own soul a
childish hope that a new god could be made. Assembled like the setting of
bones, the moulded clay of muscles, the smooth caress of a face given form,
given life by her own loving hands. And this god she would call Harmony.
In the world of this god life would
not demand a death. There would be no need to kill in order to eat. There would
be no cruel fate or random tragedy to take one before her time, and the forests
and plains would seethe with animals, the skies with birds, the seas, lakes and
rivers with fish.
The wishes of a child were fragile
things, and she now knew that none ever survived the hard, jostling
indifference that came with the bitter imperatives of adulthood: the stone-eyed
rush to find elusive proofs of worth, or to reach at last the swollen satiation
that was satisfaction. Virtues changed; the clays found new forms and hardened
to stone, and adults took weapons in hand and killed each other over them. And
in that new world she had found herself growing into there was no place – no
place at all – for peace.
She recalled walking from the ship
into the city, into the midst of these clamouring humans with the frightened
eyes. On all sides, she could see how they dwelt in war, each one an exhausted
soldier battling demons real and imagined. They fought for status, they fought
for dignity, and they fought to wrest both away from their neighbours, their
mates, their kin. In fact, the very necessity that held families together, and
neighbourhoods, provinces and kingdoms, was fraught with desperation and fear,
barricaded against the unknown, the strange and the threatening.
The Forkrul Assail had been right in
shattering it all. There would be peace, but in the making of peace there must
be judgement, and retribution. The people of Kolanse and the kingdoms to the
south must all be returned to their childlike state, and then built anew. They
could not, would not, do it for themselves – too many things got in the way,
after all. They always did.
It was unfortunate that to achieve a
sustainable balance many thousands had to die, but when the alternative was the
death of everyone, who could argue against the choice made? Populations
had been dismantled, selectively culled. Entire regions laid waste, not a
single human left, to free the land to heal. Those who were permitted to live
were forced into a new way of living, under the implacable guidance of the
Forkrul Assail.
If this had been the extent of the
redress, Equity would have been content. Things could be made viable, a balance
could be achieved, and perhaps even a new god would arise, born of sober faith
in reality and its very real limitations, born of honest humility and the
desire for peace. A faith to spread across the world, adjudicated by the Pures
and then the Watered.
If not for the Heart, if not for
that fist of torment dredged up from the depths of the bay. All that power, so
raw, so alien, so perfect in its denial. Our god was slain, but we had already
found a path to vengeance – the Nah’ruk, who had broken their chains and now
thirsted for the blood of their masters. So much was already within our reach.
But for the Heart, so firing
Reverence, Serenity and the other elders, so poisoning their souls. No balance
could be perfect – we all knew that – but now a new solution burned bright, so
bright it blinded them to all else. The Gate, wrested away from the K’Chain Che’Malle,
cleansed of that foul, ancient curse. Akhrast Korvalain, returned once more to
the Forkrul Assail, and from that gate – from the power of the Heart – we could
resurrect our god.
We could be made children once
again.
Sacrifices? Oh yes, but
everything of worth demanded that. Balance? Why, we shall do away with the one
force eternally intent on destroying that balance – humanity.
Our answer is annihilation. Our
cull shall be absolute. Our cull shall be the excision of an entire species.
‘Raise up the Heart! Hold it high
so that its dread beat is heard by all! Against the depredations of humanity,
think you not that we shall find allies?’
Allies. Yes, Reverence, we have
found allies.
And I tell myself that I see
peace in the future – the peace of my childhood, the peace of harmony, the
peace of a silent world. All we need to reach it, is a little blood. A little
blood.
But, Sister Reverence, then I
look into your ancient eyes, and I see how the hunger of our allies has
infected you. The Tiste Liosan, the Eleint, the Lord and Lady of the Beast Hold
– but all they desire is chaos, anarchy, destruction, the end of the Age of
Gods and the Age of Humans. Like you, they thirst for blood, but not a little
blood. No. Oceans, oceans of blood.
Sister Reverence, we shall defy
you when the time comes. Calm has found a weapon, a weapon to end your insane
ambitions.
Her footfalls were a whisper in the
sand, but in her mind the ground trembled beneath her tread. The sun’s heat was
fierce on her white face, but the fire of her thoughts was hotter still. And
the voices from the beach, not far ahead now, should fall in futility before
her hard intransigence, yet in them she found … hope.
‘Balance,’ she said under her
breath. ‘Sister Reverence, you force this upon us. In your extremity, we must
counter you. Calm has found the weapon we need. Reach for your fiercest madness,
we shall match it – and more.’
In truth, she cared nothing for the
fate of humanity. If they all perished, so be it. No, what was important, here
and now and in the future to come, was principle. Balance has an
eternal enemy, and its name is ambition. You have forgotten this, Sister
Reverence, and it falls to us to remind you. And so we shall.
She climbed the high bank above the
beach. Below, fifteen paces away, a dozen humans had gathered, and it seemed an
argument was under way. In the bay beyond sat a ship, its arcane lines sending
a sudden chill through Equity. Jaghut. The fools!
She marched down on to the beach.
The first two sailors who saw her
both shrieked. Weapons flashed, and all at once the humans were rushing towards
her.
‘I would speak—’
A cutlass lashed out for her face.
She edged aside, caught the wrist and clenched until bones split. The man
howled, and she closed, driving her fingers into his throat. Blood sprayed from
his gaping mouth, his eyes bulging as he fell back. A knife-thrust sought her
stomach. Her mid-section bent to one side, evading the attack. She sent one
hand snapping out to grasp the woman’s forehead and crushed it like the shell
of an egg.
A cutlass struck her left shoulder,
rebounded as if from dense wood. Hissing, Equity twisted round. Two swift blows
broke the man’s neck. Scowling now, she waded forward. Bodies spun to her
lashing hands. The screams were deafening—
And then the survivors were fleeing
along the beach, their weapons flung away, and down by the water, thirty paces
distant, stood four figures: a man, three women. Equity marched towards them.
Sorcery erupted from the shortest of
the women. A wave of blistering cold crashed into the Forkrul Assail, driving
her back a step.
One of the other women had drawn two
short-hafted throwing axes and was fast closing.
Sweet kiss of the Abyss, are they
all suicidal? ‘Cease your attack!’
One axe flew straight for her. She
slipped from its path, only to grunt as the second axe struck her in the chest,
its iron blade lodged in her breast bone. Agony ripped through her. The second
wave of Omtose Phellack lifted her from the sand, flung her five paces back.
She landed hard on her back, rolled, and then regained her feet. The bones of
her chest plate convulsed, rejecting the axe blade, and she straightened in
time to meet the attack of the axe-throwing woman.
Long-bladed knives, a blur of
hissing blades.
Equity blocked the attacks, one
after another, but was driven back, one step, two.
She awakened her voice. ‘STOP!’
The woman staggered, and then, with
a growl, she pushed forward.
‘STOP THIS!’
Blood spattered from her attacker’s
nose. Blood blossomed in her eyes. She stumbled, then lifted her weapons once
more.
Snarling, Equity stepped close and
slapped the woman, hard enough to snap her head round. She collapsed in a heap.
The Forkrul Assail stood over her, contemplating driving a heel into the human’s
throat.
An arrow glanced across her left
temple, scoring a red slash. ‘ CEASE ALL ATTACKS!’
The woman at her feet moaned, tried
to rise. Exasperated, Equity reached down, picked her up and threw her into the
sea ten paces to her right. She stabbed a long finger at the sorceress. ‘I will
speak to you!’
The other woman with her shouted, ‘Then
stop killing my crew!’
Equity ran a finger along the gash
in her temple – the wound was already mending. She sighed. Her chest ached, but
the bones had begun healing and the pain was fading to an itch. ‘They attacked
me,’ she said. ‘I simply defended myself. Indeed,’ she added, cautiously
approaching, ‘if I desired to kill them all, I would have done so.’
‘I see five bodies over there—’
‘As I said, I would have killed them
all.’
The woman thrashing in the shallows
was climbing unsteadily to her feet. Equity regarded her for a moment. ‘If she
comes at me again, I will kill her.’ She faced the sorceress. ‘Make that plain
to her – she belongs to you, does she not?’
The short, plump mage made a strange
wiggle with the fingers of one hand. ‘I am hard pressed to keep her from carving
your head from your rather bony shoulders. You certainly have a way with words,
Inquisitor, but that will not work a second time.’
Equity narrowed her attention on the
other woman in the group. She snorted. ‘It is said the Realm of Death is
sundered. Do your kind now plague the world?’
‘I carry no plague,’ the woman
replied.
The Forkrul Assail frowned. Was she
a simpleton? Often, she well knew, the brain decayed irreparably in such
creatures.
The man standing beside the undead
woman was now staring at her with his one working eye. ‘Did she say y’got the
plague, Cap’n?’
‘No, Pretty, she said you’re an
idiot. Now be quiet – better yet, gather up the crew, now that they’ve
scattered every which way, and detail a burial party, and all that other stuff.
Go on.’
‘Aye, Cap’n.’ Then he hesitated, and
said in a hoarse whisper that all could hear, ‘It’s just, this one, she looks
like she’s got a plague, don’t she? All white and all those veins on her arms,
and—’
‘Go, Kaban. Now.’