Adele
Weber dreamed of fire and water.
In
her dream, she stood on a wooden raft, which simultaneously
also existed as a tenement building and a wooden maze. The
fire chased her as she ran from one side of the raft to the
other. The fire spat smoke at her, so she leaned out of window
after window for a gasp of fresh air. The fire threw intense
heat at her, so she ran through corridor after corridor,
searching for cooler air.
The
fire chased her, and so Adele rushed to the edge of the raft,
to the front door of the building, to the end of the maze. But
no freedom could be found there, because of the water. A
sparkling clear blue, it surrounded her on all sides. But it
never touched the fire, never even approached close enough to
put the fire out. It served as a barrier, trapping her,
taunting her. She knew she should remove her dress,
undergarments, and stockings and dive into the water, anything
to get away from the flames, but modesty and her inability to
swim prevented her.
Suddenly an eight-foot-tall figure appeared: Mose the
Fireman, spoken of in legend. He wore a leather firefighter’s
helmet as big as a barrel and a pair of humongous rubber
boots, each the size of a sailboat. His coat declared that he
was part of the Engine 40 unit. "Hello, little lady," he said.
"How can I help you?"
"Please," Adele said. "You must save me from the fire.
You must save my family."
Mose
the Fireman took a swig of beer from the fifty-gallon keg he
kept on his belt. The beer trickled down his thick white
beard, and suddenly both beer and beard vanished. "I can’t
save anyone unless you save yourself."
"But–but you’re Mose the Fireman. You rescue people
from fires! You swam the Hudson in two strokes! You’ve lifted
trolley cars out of your path to run to the rescue of
babies!"
"I’ve
retired and moved to Hawaii," he replied.
Suddenly, Mose the Fireman wasn’t Mose anymore, but her
father. Adele watched in horror as her father called out to
her in puzzlement. "Adele?"
"Father!" she shouted, but she was too late, as the
flames licked closer and closer, filled with glee as they
chose between immolating Adele or her father first . .
.
And
Adele’s nightmare ended. She awoke gasping for air, as she had
many times since her father’s death, with her body and head
wrapped snugly in her blanket.
Lucas
Schmidt entered eighteen-year-old Adele Weber’s life on a
Sunday in May. As usual, after services at St. Mark’s
Evangelical Lutheran Church had ended, the congregants
lingered to talk. Cigar smoke filled the air and voices
speaking German filled the room, with only the occasional
English word as a reminder that the community actually lived
in the United States. People eagerly spread news about the
everyday events of each other’s lives.
Adele
and her mother were no exception. They found themselves
chatting with Philip Straub and his wife while the three
Straub children ran around playing with other
children.
Just
as the Straubs took their leave, Adele and her mother were
approached by Reverend George Haas, the pastor of the church,
and a dark-haired stranger.
Haas
adjusted his glasses and stroked his salt-and-pepper beard.
"Mrs. Weber, Miss Weber," he said in English. He nodded to
each one in turn. "And how are you this Sunday?"
"We
are doing quite well, thank you sir," Adele replied. Although
she returned the nod, her eyes were drawn to the handsome
stranger, partly because of his looks but mostly because of
his odd behavior. He looked distinctly uncomfortable. He kept
his mouth closed, while his gaze darted around the room. Tiny
beads of sweat covered his brow, and his hands repeatedly
pulled at his collar and tie. Adele stifled a laugh, while
waiting for the presumed introduction.
Finally, Haas said, "Allow me to introduce Mr. Lucas
Schmidt."
Schmidt nodded. "A pleasure to meet you
both."
"Mr.
Schmidt," Adele said. "A pleasure to meet you as well. I take
it you are new to New York City?"
"Yes," he said. "I am."
"Where do you come from?"
"I–I
have just arrived from abroad."
"Really? I’m surprised to hear it. Your accent does not
sound like that of the old country."
Schmidt blushed, reminding Adele of a schoolboy caught
in a lie. "No. Um, my family emigrated to England many years
ago. I grew up speaking English much more than
German."
"Whereas I grew up fluent in both," Adele
said.
Suddenly, Schmidt began coughing repeatedly, and Haas
pounded him on the back. "Are you all right, Mr.
Schmidt?"
Schmidt nodded and wiped his brow with a handkerchief.
"It’s all the cigar smoke. I’m not used to it."
"Don’t they smoke in England?" Adele asked.
"Um.
Not where I come from."
"How
strange. Well, welcome to Kleindeutschland, Mr.
Schmidt."
He
nodded. "Little Germany."
There
was an awkward pause, and then Haas spoke up. "Mr. Schmidt
needs a place to stay. And I seem to recall that you still
have that room for let."
"Well," Mrs. Weber said, "that all depends. How old are
you, Mr. Schmidt? How do you earn your living?"
"I’m
twenty-five, Mrs. Weber. And I work as a
journalist."
"Oh,"
Adele said, a touch disappointed.
Haas
smiled. "You’ll have to forgive Miss Weber. She was just
telling me how scandalous she finds the
newspapers."
Schmidt turned to look at her, and Adele shifted under
his gaze. "Indeed? Are you a regular reader?"
Adele’s mother spoke up again. "My daughter is quite a
voracious reader."
"Yes," Adele said, slightly nettled. "I am a
reader."
"And
you find the newspapers scandalous?"
She
sighed. "The newspapers should spend more time reporting the
truth, and less time dredging up spectacles."
Schmidt shrugged. "I tend to agree with you, Miss
Weber, but I must point out that newspapers need to sell
copies to stay in business."
"They
could sell just as many copies appealing to man’s greater
instincts." She sniffed. "Tell me, Mr. Schmidt, for which
paper do you write?"
"I
work for the New York World."
"Oh,
Joseph Pulitzer’s paper. That’s not as bad as some of the
others. Given that, I think you’d be acceptable."
"I am
honored, Miss Weber," Schmidt said. He turned to Adele’s
mother. "So I’ve been interviewed by both mother and daughter.
When will I get to meet Mr. Weber?"
Adele
and her mother looked at each other. "My father passed away
six years ago," Adele said after a moment.
"Oh,"
Schmidt replied. "I’m sorry."
Mrs.
Weber sighed. "He left me to finish raising Adele on my own.
But the community has been helpful. Somehow, I manage to find
enough work cleaning offices or taking in laundry to help us
live."
"And
taking in boarders?" Schmidt asked.
Adele’s mother smiled. "Yes," she said. "And taking in
boarders. And you do come with good references," she added,
nodding at Reverend Haas.
"Then," Schmidt said, "if it’s not presumptuous of me
to ask, I will need to know my new address."
"We
live three blocks south of here, on Third Street." She turned
to her daughter. "Adele, perhaps you can help Mr. Schmidt find
his way to our apartment?"
Adele
and Schmidt exchanged an awkward glance.
"Are
you going somewhere, mother?" Adele asked.
"I
need to stay for a while and talk with Mary Abendschein about
the excursion. I have some ideas for her."
"Excursion?" Schmidt asked. "What
excursion?"
"You’ve come to our community at a good time," Mrs.
Weber said. "Next month we’ll have a day to get away from the
heat of the city."
"When?"
"Wednesday, June fifteenth," Reverend Haas said. "It’s
our annual excursion to celebrate the end of the Sunday school
year. We charter a steamboat for the day, and head out to
Locust Grove, a picnic ground on the northern shore of Long
Island. There’ll be food, fun, music, and games. You should
join us if you can get away from work."
"It
sounds like quite an outing," Schmidt said. "You said that you
do this every year?"
Haas
smiled. "This is our seventeenth one. The church started
running them in 1888."
Mrs.
Weber laughed. "You’re being far too modest, Reverend. After
all, the excursions were your idea."
"Really?" Schmidt asked.
Haas
waved his hands and shook his head, as if to say that it had
not been that much of an achievement. "It just seemed to me
that it would be nice if we could celebrate the end of the
Sunday school year with some sort of picnic. And it’s so
popular that many of our former congregants return from
Yorkville and Brooklyn to join the festivities."
"Some
even come from as far off as New Jersey," Adele said. "Such as
my uncle and cousins."
"We
usually get close to a thousand people," Haas
added.
Schmidt whistled. "And what about the program
book?"
Adele
and her mother exchanged a puzzled glance with Haas. "We
didn’t mention the program book," Adele’s mother
said.
"Oh,"
Schmidt replied. "Well, perhaps I heard it from someone else.
But you did mention Mary Abendschein. I would imagine she has
something to do with the program book."
"Ah,
yes," Haas said. "Mary is in charge of putting it together,
along with many of the other details of organizing the
event."
"I
would like to assist her, if I could. It seems like a good way
of getting to know my new community."
Haas
smiled. "A capital idea. She only started last month, so I
imagine her committee could use one more person."
"Perhaps Mrs. Weber and Miss Weber could introduce me
to her."
"Certainly," Adele’s mother said. "And then afterwards,
Mr. Schmidt, let us escort you to your new home."
Lucas
Schmidt did his best to prevent himself from disrupting the
Weber family routine. As part of the boarding arrangement, he
shared breakfasts and dinners with Adele and her mother. He
would come down to the dining room right on time for the
morning meal, made sure to leave before Adele’s mother or
Adele herself needed to start working, and he always returned
by the scheduled dinner hour.
He
even offered to clean the dishes, or to assist the Webers with
the household laundry, much to their delight and
amusement.
"Most
men of my acquaintance wouldn’t do such things," Adele had
told him.
"Does
that mean you’d rather I didn’t?"
"Oh,
not at all. We’ll gladly take you up on your offer." She
smiled. "But we’ll be sure not to tell anyone, so your
reputation remains unbesmirched."
Schmidt’s behavior and appearance enchanted Adele so
much that she and her mother decided upon a plan for Adele to
spend some time alone with their new boarder. So the following
week, Mrs. Weber told Mr. Schmidt that she had been hoping to
take her daughter on an outing to Coney Island. "But," she
said, "my health is not what it once was. Still, I hate to
disappoint my daughter. Might you by chance be willing to
accompany us?"
From
behind the back stairs, Adele heard the whole thing. She felt
a small thrill of delight when Schmidt agreed. She admittedly
had been shocked when her mother had suggested a Coney Island
outing; despite the amusement parks that had been there for
almost ten years, it still bore a reputation for vice. Still,
friends of the Webers had gone with their young children and
declared that they had enjoyed the rides immensely–even if
they only mentioned it quietly, and away from the pastor and
other officials of the church.
"Why,
of course I will," Schmidt replied.
"Thank you. I know how much Adele is looking forward to
seeing Luna Park."
"Luna
Park?"
"It’s
a new amusement park that opened just recently on the location
of the old Sea Lion Park."
"Oh,
yes, I remember reading something about that."
"I
would have expected you to, if you work at the
World."
That
Saturday morning, as the three of them ate breakfast, Adele
and her mother completed their plan. Mrs. Weber told Schmidt
that she was feeling under the weather and that perhaps they
ought to cancel the outing. Schmidt immediately offered to
escort Adele on his own.
When
Schmidt got up from the table to carry the dishes into the
kitchen, Adele and her mother exchanged a wink.
Shortly after breakfast, Adele and Mr. Schmidt boarded
a steamboat to Brooklyn, along with hundreds of other New
Yorkers eager to get away for the day. Schmidt, who had been
quiet and reserved as they had walked over to the Third Street
pier, became slightly agitated when he saw the steamboat. He
came to a stop, forcing Adele to fight the crowd as she backed
up to where he stood, going back and forth between staring at
the boat and looking down at his feet.
"Mr.
Schmidt? Are you coming with me or not?"
He
looked up, and Adele noticed a slight reddish tinge to his
cheeks. "I’m sorry, Miss Weber. I haven’t been on a boat in a
while."
"I
thought you said you came over from Europe. What did you do,
flap your arms and fly over here?"
"Something like that, yes," he said with a broad
smile.
"Seriously, Mr. Schmidt."
"Seriously, I’m just a tad nervous." He paused. "I just
wasn’t expecting to board a steamboat, that’s all. I should
have known better."
"Do
you get seasick, Mr. Schmidt?" Adele asked, trying to show her
concern.
He
chuckled. "No."
"Did
you have a bad experience on a boat?" Adele asked.
Schmidt nodded. "Sort of."
"Well, relax. The ferries between Manhattan and
Brooklyn run all the time. Nothing’s going to
happen."
He
stared into her eyes for a moment. "Of course, you’re right. I
would have known otherwise."
"What?"
"I
mean, if something had happened to any of the ferries, I would
have heard."
"So
are we going?"
He
smiled. "Yes. Let’s go."
Mr.
Schmidt paid their fare and they boarded the steamboat. The
trip was uneventful, and within an hour they found themselves
disembarking at the steel pier at Coney Island. The beautiful
blue sky above the beach and boardwalk held but a wisp of
white, fluffy clouds. As they walked down the pier, Mr.
Schmidt bought a copy of "Seeing Coney Island" for ten cents
from a barker, and using the guidebook they found their way to
Luna Park.
At
the entrance stood a huge stone arch with the words "Luna
Park" on a scaffold. Directly in the middle of the arch sat a
giant red heart, proclaiming Luna Park "The Heart of Coney
Island." Underneath that, carved in stone, were the names
"Thompson & Dundy." And underneath that, of course, people
wandered into and out of the amusement park.
Adele
and Schmidt joined the crowd walking into the park, and were
hit by a variety of sounds and smells. The music of a brass
band some distance away mixed with the laughter and shouting
of the crowd of people. An odor of hay and manure wafted by,
and Adele jumped away as an elephant lumbered by, led by a man
in turban and carrying two couples who chatted away, seemingly
unaware of the spectacle they were creating. As the crowds
parted, Adele had to stick close to Schmidt to avoid being
jostled away from him.
"Wow," Schmidt said. Goggle-eyed, he slowly turned
around and stared at everything Luna Park had to offer. Adele
turned with him.
After
taking in all the sights, Schmidt started pointing to the
signs around the park that advertised rides and exhibitions:
Ride the Trip to the Moon! Experience Dragon’s Gorge Scenic
Railway! Take a Trip to the North Pole! See the new Fire and
Flames!
"What
shall we do first?" Adele asked.
"Fire
and Flames looks interesting," Schmidt said, pointing in the
direction the sign indicated. "Let’s go see that."
"I’m
not sure," Adele said. The name Fire and Flames made her
uncomfortable. She studied the other signs, and then asked,
"Wouldn’t you rather ride the Trip to the Moon?"
Schmidt looked her in the eyes. "I’ll make you a deal.
First I’ll go with you to the Moon, and then you come with me
to see the Flames."
Reluctantly, Adele agreed. The two of them walked in
the direction of the Moon ride, which was housed in one of the
more modest buildings, past the huge Electric Tower with the
sculpted dragon at the base.
They
joined the long line in front of the building. Eventually,
they reached the front of the line, and Schmidt handed over
two dimes for their admission.
Workers ushered them and the other spectators into a
cavernous room, in the middle of which sat a rounded spaceship
that came to a point at one side. They were gently herded into
the spaceship and asked to take seats in one of the rows.
Adele took a seat next to a porthole, with Schmidt next to
her.
A few
seconds after the door closed, the spaceship started to rock
back and forth. Looking out the portholes, Adele saw the walls
vanish below, replaced by blue sky, which darkened until the
only light came from pinpoint stars.
"Amazing," she said, almost breathless with wonder.
Schmidt made no comment.
Very
soon after, the Moon appeared as a small rock in one of the
portholes. It got larger and larger, until finally it swung
below, disappearing from view, and the ship stopped rocking
and came to a stop with a sudden thump.
"What
now?" someone asked.
"We
explore the Moon," said the pilot.
He
opened the door to the spaceship, and the spectators exited.
No longer could they tell that they were still in the large
room of the building that housed the ride. Instead, to all
eyes, it appeared as if they stood on the populated surface of
Earth’s nearest neighbor. Everywhere they looked were caverns
and grottos. Giants and midgets dressed in elaborate silver
costume greeted them, along with a man on a throne who claimed
to be the Man in the Moon. Dancing moon maidens gave the
spectators pieces of green cheese to take back with them as
souvenirs of their voyage. Eventually, the pilot ushered all
the paying customers back into the spaceship, and after a
slightly shorter trip, the ship "landed" and they were
escorted outside into the bright sunny day on
Earth.
Adele
noticed that Mr. Schmidt had a bemused expression on his face.
"Did you enjoy that?"
"I
thought it was rather quaint," he said.
"Quaint? The Trip to the Moon is quaint?"
"Well, it’s just an interesting picture of the future."
He smiled. "Are you ready for Fire and Flames now?"
Adele
repressed a shudder. "I’m ready."
Once
again, they stood on a long line, and when they finally got to
the front, Mr. Schmidt handed over two dimes for their
admission to the theater. They took seats among the rows of
other spectators, and waited for the curtain to
lift.
Finally, once all the seats were filled, the curtain
rose on a fake street that looked very much like one of the
streets in Little Germany. Behind the street stood several
tenement buildings, in front of which peddlers pushed their
carts, children ran around, and men and women walked with
purpose to their daily errands.
Suddenly smoke and flames emerged from one of the
windows high up in a four-story tenement. The crowd of people,
who had been moving in all directions, stopped in their tracks
to stare up at the window. Then they started running around
again, screaming, "Fire! Fire!"
Faces
of women and children appeared at other windows near the one
with the fire. Their screams rended the air as the fire spread
first to one window, and then to the next, until the entire
upper floor of the building burned in flame.
It
wasn’t just the performers in the building and on the street
who reacted. The spectators also began to jump up in their
seats, screaming for someone to rescue the actors.
Just
when it seemed as if there would be no hope for the
unfortunate souls trapped in the building, a fire bell clanged
and three fire engines sped down the makeshift street. Ten
firemen grabbed hoses and began spraying water on all sides of
the building, while another ten grabbed ladders and placed
them along the building, so that the trapped residents could
descend quickly to the safety of the street below.
A few
people in the windows screamed that they couldn’t reach the
ladders, and another group of firemen rushed over with safety
nets. They called out "Jump!" and the last people trapped in
the building’s top floor jumped into the nets, to thunderous
applause from the audience.
The
crowd roared with exhilaration, and even Mr. Schmidt joined in
with great enthusiasm, but not Adele. She felt
faint.
"Mr.
Schmidt," she whispered.
Schmidt turned to look at her, and his mouth fell open.
"My God, Miss Weber. Your face is so pale. Are you feeling
okay?"
"Please get me out of here," she said.
"I
don’t understand."
"I
thought I could take it, but I can’t. I’m sorry."
"What
are you talking about?"
She
waved her right arm around, gesturing at the other members of
the audience, who remained transfixed by the spectacle. "How
can they watch this? How can they sit here unmoved by the
horror?"
"It’s
a disaster spectacle. Entertainment."
"I
can’t believe it. Although I suppose if people are going to
gather at a fire for entertainment, it’s better they do so at
a fake fire than at a real one."
Schmidt cleared a path for the two of them, escorted
Adele to a bench in a far corner of the park, and brought her
a cup of water. She drank deeply.
"Are
you feeling better?" he asked.
Adele
nodded. "I think so. I just can’t believe it."
"I
couldn’t believe it either when I first read about it. That’s
why I had to see it for myself. I have something of an
interest in fires." He paused. "I just didn’t realize that it
would affect you this way."
Adele
remained silent for a few seconds. Then she cleared her throat
and spoke. "My mother and I never told you how my father
died."
"No,"
he said after a moment. "You didn’t."
Adele
looked away from Mr. Schmidt. She looked into the distance,
where the beach melted away into the huge ocean. "He was
walking home from work one evening when he heard shouts of a
fire in a tenement. The firemen hadn’t arrived yet, and there
were women and children trapped inside. Father threw off his
coat and ran into the building, to try to rescue them." She
paused. "He never emerged."
"I am
sorry, Miss Weber."
"Mother couldn’t bear it. I had to identify the
body."
"That
. . . that must have been difficult for you," Schmidt said
quietly, while the noise of the park still surrounded
them.
Adele
shook her head, trying to dismiss the memory from her mind.
"Fires are far too common in our world. I was but a young
twelve-year-old girl when that building he ran into went up in
flames. Ever since then, I’ve had recurring dreams of
fire."
"Ironic," Schmidt said softly.
"Why
is that ironic?" Adele asked.
"Oh,
um, no reason," Schmidt replied, with a wave of his hand. "I
wish I could have met your father. It sounds like he was quite
the heroic man."
Adele
grunted. "Hm. I sometimes feel that the more heroic choice
would have been to ignore the screams of strangers and stay
alive for his family." She smiled. "Selfish of me, I
suppose."
"You’re entitled to such feelings. But why didn’t you
tell me about this when I suggested seeing Fire and
Flames?"
"I–I
didn’t want you to be disappointed."
Schmidt took her in his arms, held her for a moment,
and then released her. "Are you ready for another
ride?"
Adele
shook her head; the emotional roller coaster she had just gone
through felt more intense than a real one would have been.
"Actually, I’d like to go home."
"But
we barely got here," Schmidt said.
Adele
looked him in the eye. "Mr. Schmidt? I think I’ve had enough
stimulation for one day. Please?"
He
sighed. "Very well, Miss Weber."
The
two of them rode the next ferry back to Manhattan.
After
that day, Adele saw less and less of Mr. Schmidt. In the
mornings, he would scurry off before breakfast, calling out
that he would pick up a muffin or roll on his way to Newspaper
Row. In the evenings, after returning to his rooms, he would
go out to assist Mary Abendschein in getting shopkeepers and
business owners to purchase advertisements in the excursion
journal.
This
bothered Adele, because even taking into account the
disastrous trip to Coney Island, she had come around to her
mother’s way of thinking. Lucas Schmidt did seem to be a man
of good prospects, and his pleasant appearance certainly made
him favorable in Adele’s eyes.
But
his recent secrecy worried her. Was he avoiding her simply
because of her behavior at Luna Park? Or was there another,
more sinister reason? There were many stories of criminals who
passed as decent, hard-working men. Suppose Mr. Schmidt had
fooled Reverend Haas? Suppose her mother had opened their
household up to a man who planned to run off with their
possessions? Or worse yet, murder them in their
sleep?
Adele
admitted to herself that these thoughts were more flights of
fancy than real concerns, but she still had a devouring
curiosity about Lucas Schmidt. And so, one Monday, in the
middle of the day when she had little to do, Adele walked
downtown to Newspaper Row, on the eastern edge of City Hall
Park.
The
New York World was housed in its own tower that sported
a tall golden dome on top, so Adele found the building with
ease. She maneuvered her way through the newsboys on the
street as they shouted the headlines in hopes of getting her
to buy the latest edition of whatever paper they were hawking.
The big news story was still the murder of Caesar Young by Nan
Patterson, his mistress. Adele rolled her eyes at one of the
newsboys and pressed her way into the building. She approached
the reception desk where a bored-looking man sat.
"Yes?" he asked.
"I’m
here to see Mr. Lucas Schmidt. He’s one of your
reporters."
The
man checked a printed list on his desk, running his finger
down it for a moment. Then he looked up at Adele. "What was
the name again?"
"Schmidt. Lucas Schmidt. He would have just started
working recently."
"I
don’t think so. This list is pretty up to date."
"But
I’m sure this is where he works."
"Well," the man said suddenly, "that gentleman might
know." He pointed at a man who had just gotten off an
elevator, and shouted to him. "Mr. Green! Mr.
Green!"
Mr.
Green’s head snapped around at the sound of his name, and he
walked over to the desk. "Yes, John?"
"This
lady could use some assistance."
He
turned to Adele and shook her hand. "Martin Green, New York
World. I’m an assistant editor here. May I help
you?"
"Adele Weber, and yes, you can, Mr. Green. I’m looking
for one of your other reporters, a Mr. Lucas
Schmidt."
"Sorry, no one by that name works here." He paused,
then, with a little too much eagerness in his voice, said, "Is
there a story you’d like to share, Miss Weber? If it’s good,
we can get it into the evening edition."
"Um,
no. Are you sure Mr. Schmidt doesn’t work here?"
"Positive. I assign the stories to all the reporters. I
know everyone who writes for us." He frowned. "Why? Is this
fellow pretending to be a reporter for the World
?"
"Um,
no. I must have gotten the name of the paper wrong. I’ll try
the others. Good day, Mr. Green."
"Um,
good day, Miss Weber," he said as Adele scurried
away.
Granting the possibility that she had misunderstood,
Adele spent the rest of the afternoon checking at every
newspaper on Newspaper Row. Not to her surprise, she
discovered that not a single paper knew of a reporter named
Lucas Schmidt. The only newspaper she skipped over was the
Herald, since after checking with every other major
city paper, she didn’t feel that a trip uptown to
Thirty-Fourth Street was necessary.
Clearly, Mr. Schmidt had lied.
So if
Mr. Schmidt didn’t work for the World, or for any other
newspaper, just what did he do during the day?
The
question possessed Adele, disrupting her sleep as much as her
vivid dreams of fire and water. And so, on Tuesday, in the
middle of the day so as not to be discovered, Adele did the
unthinkable. She went up to Mr. Schmidt’s room and let herself
in.
She
had been in the room many times before, and at first glance
the room looked as pristine as always. Schmidt clearly was
fastidious when it came to keeping his personal space clean.
The bed was neatly made, the wooden floor was swept, and the
chair and table free of dust.
However, there was something different. A book lay on
the table, one that Adele knew did not belong to either her or
her mother, because it had a colorful dust jacket. She pulled
out the chair, sat down, picked up the book, and studied the
cover.
She
had seen a few books bearing dust jackets, although those
jackets had been simple plain white paper covers. She had
never yet seen one as elaborate and expensive-looking as the
dust jacket for this book. Her eyes were first drawn to the
horrific illustration of the steamboat General Slocum
that filled the bottom half of the cover. Searing red flames
burned away at the right side of the boat, with lines of
thick, black smoke hovering above. On the left side of the
boat, people were jumping into the water. The picture appeared
so vivid to her eyes that she could almost feel the rising
flames getting hotter and hotter, the smoke smothering the
victims–
She
shuddered and focused her eyes on the title of the book. In
large letters, the book blared out its title: SHIP ABLAZE.
Underneath, the subtitle explained what the book was about:
"The Tragedy of the Steamboat General
Slocum."
Finally, her eyes drifted to the smaller text above the
title. She read: "On a beautiful spring morning in June 1904,
1,300 New Yorkers boarded the steamer General Slocum
for a pleasant daylong excursion. But in thirty minutes,
disaster would strike and more than one thousand would perish
. . ."
Adele
shuddered again, and her chest felt tight. She fought to keep
her breath calm and even, while she tried to understand what
she was reading.
She
opened the book and noticed that the top of the inside jacket
flap gave the price of the book: "US $24.95 / Canada $37.95."
Her jaw dropped. Twenty-four dollars and ninety-five cents for
a book? Even good books cost no more than a dollar or
two.
The
inside front cover showed what looked like newspaper
headlines, cartoons, and clippings printed on the inside front
cover. She ran her fingers over two of the headlines:
"Negligence Doubled the Death List" and "‘Let Us Die!’ Cry
Women at Morgue." One of the cartoons, titled "Death’s Cruel
Harvest," showed the figure of Death holding a scythe and
standing next to a field of fallen flowers with the heads of
children. Another, "Death and Greed Partners," showed a little
girl lying on a table. On her left, a man in a coat and top
hat counted his money, while on her right, a figure of Death,
skull plainly visible and scythe in one hand, caressed the
child’s forehead.
Adele
felt cold and confused. What in the world was this?
She
turned a few pages in and found a printed notice: "Copyright
2003 by EDWARD T. O’DONNELL." The year made no sense to her.
How could she be holding a book from almost one hundred years
in the future? And who was this O’Donnell, an Irishman by the
sound of his name, to write a book about a tragedy that befell
a German community?
A
small piece of paper fell out of the book and onto the table.
Adele picked it up and examined it. It bore one line:
"http://www.general-slocum.com." She had no idea what it
meant; "http" was clearly not a word, although she presumed
she knew what the "general-slocum" part referred
to.
It
must be a joke, she thought. A cruel, elaborate hoax. But the
book looked fine, much better than any other book she had ever
seen. She started looking through the pages, faster and
faster, trying to make sense of it all, when she heard the
door open behind her. She quickly closed the book, placed it
on the table, and stood up.
Schmidt saw her as soon as he entered. "Miss Weber!
What are you doing in my room?"
Emotions of rage and embarrassment fought with each
other, and rage won out.
"What
am I doing here? What are you doing back here so
early?"
"I
had forgotten something in my room."
"Really? What exactly?"
He
sighed. "I don’t care for your tone, Miss Weber, nor do I care
for your invasion of my privacy. I have to get back to
work."
"Where? At the New York World ?"
"Yes.
Now please leave my room." He walked towards her, his eyes
darting around.
Adele
raised her hand in front of her, palm out. "You don’t work at
the New York World, Mr. Schmidt."
Schmidt stopped a few feet away. "How–what makes you
say that?"
"I
went looking for you there. They never heard of you. Nor had
any other paper."
"What
did you tell them?"
"Oh,
nothing at all. It’s not like I had found this yet."
She picked up Ship Ablaze.
Schmidt sprang towards her. "Give that back to me. It’s
autographed."
"What?"
"I
mean it’s mine. Hand it over."
Adele
pulled the book close to her body, and Schmidt hesitated. "Not
without an explanation," she said. She waved the book around.
"What is this?"
"Nothing you need to concern yourself with."
"Oh,
really? It seems to be a book from the year 2003. Are you sure
that it’s not my concern that the current year is only
1904?"
"I–I
don’t know what to say."
"‘Die Wahrheit wird euch frei machen,’" Adele
said.
"Pardon?"
"John, chapter eight, verse thirty-two. ‘The truth
shall make you free.’ Tell me the truth."
"Um.
The truth." He sighed. "I guess I ought to. That book is in
fact from the year 2003. It’s the definitive work on the
General Slocum tragedy."
"The
General Slocum tragedy," she repeated.
"Yeah. There were other books written before and after,
but this one is still considered the most
comprehensive."
She
shook her head. "I don’t understand. That is, I think I
understand, but I don’t want to."
"A
normal reaction."
"Will
you tell me what’s going on? Who are you?" She brandished the
book even higher. "How is this possible?"
Schmidt crossed his arms. "Miss Weber, let me ask you
something. Have you ever heard of an English writer, a man by
the name of Herbert George Wells?"
"Yes,
of course."
"Well, one of the books he’s written–at least, I think
he’s written it by now–has to do with the concept of time
travel."
Adele
searched her mind, and finally came up with a title. "The
Time Machine."
Schmidt nodded. "Yes. The Time Machine. A man
builds a machine that allows him to travel into the past and
the future. I stand before you as the final achievement of
that dream. In the future, we have figured out how to visit
the past." He paused. "Do you believe me?"
"It
seems an impossible fantasy," Adele said. "And yet–the
book–"
"The Time Machine ?" Schmidt asked.
Adele
glared at him. "No. Your book. The one I’m holding. Ship
Ablaze."
"Oh."
Schmidt’s eyes moved to look at the book. "That
one."
"Yes.
This one. I can’t fathom how or why you might have arranged to
have that book printed. The only conclusion I can come to is
that the book is really from the twenty-first century." She
paused. "Which means that you really have come here from the
future."
He
sighed, a world-weary sigh that seemed out of place in a man
so young. "I’m not supposed to reveal that, but sometimes it’s
so hard to hide the truth." He walked over to his bed and sat
down upon it. "I hope you won’t betray my
confidence."
"So
tell me about this. Have you come back to stop this horrible
tragedy? Is that why you’re here?"
Schmidt paled, and he didn’t reply.
"What
is it?" Adele asked. "What’s wrong?"
"I’m
afraid," he said, "that I’m not here to stop the tragedy. I
can’t stop it. No one can. That’s not how time travel works.
There are restrictions."
"Then
tell me how time travel works. Perhaps I can figure out a way
to get around the restrictions."
Schmidt smiled. "How might you explain the workings of
a telephone to someone in 1804?"
Adele
raised a finger. "Do not patronize me, Mr. Schmidt. Perhaps I
wouldn’t be able to understand the science or technology
behind time travel. But I do understand possibilities. If I
knew that a ladder had a rotten rung, and that if someone who
climbed it would break the rung and fall, I would be remiss if
I didn’t try to save them. Why can’t you do the
same?"
"Miss
Weber, let me try to use your ladder analogy to make it clear.
Imagine time as a sort of ladder. History happens when you
climb the rungs. Okay?"
She
nodded. "Okay."
"Now
imagine what would happen if at a particular rung, I
discovered that by fiddling with it I could cause a whole
second ladder to emerge. So that I can create a choice of
which ladder I climb."
"That’s an odd image, but I’ll accept it."
"It
gets odder. Now imagine that I have some sort of switch on
that rung. With the switch in its original position, I can
climb up the original ladder. But if I flip the switch, the
new ladder appears and the old one vanishes. And thus I can
only climb the second ladder."
"Okay."
"But
here’s my point, Miss Weber. I already came down the first
ladder. If I’m forced to climb the second ladder, I have no
idea where I’ll end up."
Adele
pondered the image for a moment. "Let me see if I grasp your
point clearly. You are saying that if you were to prevent this
disaster, you would create a change in your own
history."
"That’s correct."
"I
still do not see what is so wrong with that."
Schmidt sighed. "If I were to change the past, that
would also force a change upon the future. And I come
from the future, Miss Weber."
"I
still don’t see your objection."
"Let
me summarize it by what is called the Grandfather Paradox.
What would happen to me if I came back in time and killed my
own grandfather while he was still a baby in his
crib?"
"Ah,"
Adele said, with sudden understanding. "You would cease to
exist. But then you wouldn’t exist to kill your grandfather,
so he should live."
Schmidt nodded. "Precisely. And if he lives, then I
would be born, allowing me to go back in time and kill him. A
paradox."
"So
if you were to stop this horrible disaster, the future you
came from would cease to exist, and by extension, so would
you."
"Exactly. Again, a paradox."
"Well, how is this paradox resolved?"
He
gave Adele a firm look. "By not changing the
past."
"But
then what happens to free will? Are you not here now, and able
to make decisions?"
"Well, yes. But my decisions are not ones that will
disrupt the future, so no problem emerges."
Adele
shook her head. "I’m sorry, Mr. Schmidt, I can’t accept that.
If history is as fragile as you claim, then doesn’t your
presence here already disrupt the future?"
Schmidt bit his lip in thought. "Well, yes and no. Some
changes are more important, more vital, than others. There’s a
Law of Conservation of Reality that sometimes kicks
in."
"A
Law of Conservation of Reality?"
Schmidt stared into the distance for a moment, then
said, "Let me give you an example out of history that has
already happened. Suppose you went back in time and killed
Napoleon in his crib. What do you think would
happen?"
Adele
laughed. "Many things."
"Name
one."
She
shrugged. "The French would never have had their
empire."
He
nodded. "So you say. And yet, why was it Napoleon who was
responsible for the empire? Weren’t there other forces, other
things, at play in history? Might not someone else have
stepped in and taken on Napoleon’s role?"
Adele
thought for a moment, then said, "I am not much of a
historian, Mr. Schmidt. I suppose it’s possible, but these
questions rarely come to my mind."
"Forgive me, Miss Weber. I am not trying to make you
feel ignorant. Rather, I am trying to point out that while
parts of history are fragile, other parts are much more
resilient. If I were to kill Napoleon, the Law might cause
some other Frenchman to form a similar empire, and by 1904 the
broad outline of history would be back on track."
"So
why not attempt to save my community? Isn’t history resilient
enough for that?"
He
sighed. "History might be resilient enough, but I’m
not."
"What do you mean?"
"That
Law of Conservation of Reality I mentioned before? Sometimes
the Law kicks in by killing the time traveler, so changes
don’t happen that have to be corrected. If I were to try to
change history, history might try to kill me to prevent
it."
She
sniffed. "That seems to me a selfish reason not to help. Do
not forget that my father gave his life to rescue
others."
"And
you lived to regret it, did you not? Or so you said at Coney
Island."
Adele
glared at him. "That was different."
Schmidt shrugged. "Perhaps. Miss Weber, please
understand. From my point of view, all this–" he waved an arm
around "–is already past. My presence here doesn’t change it,
as my own place is in your future. As far as I am concerned,
the General Slocum tragedy is already a part of
history."
Adele
tapped her foot in annoyance. "So what’s the point of your
being here, Mr. Schmidt? If you’re not planning to save my
community, my friends, my family–me–then why are you
here?"
Schmidt wrung his hands. "To save something. A remnant
of memory. Have you heard of Thomas Alva Edison, the
inventor?"
"Of
course. Who hasn’t?"
"Sorry. I’m still adjusting to what people might know
in 1904. If you’ve heard of Edison, then you’ve probably heard
of the motion picture."
She
rolled her eyes. "Motion pictures such as The Life of an
American Fireman or The Great Train Robbery
?"
Schmidt looked puzzled. "I’ve heard of the second, but
not the first."
"I
saw both last year at the Kinetoscope Parlor."
"The
Kinetoscope Parlor?"
"On
Broadway between Twenty-Sixth and Twenty-Seventh Street? It’s
been there since I was a child."
"I
see. Well, then, this may be easier to explain than I thought.
I’ve come back in time to make a record of the
tragedy."
"You
have your very own motion picture camera? You plan to preserve
images of the disaster on film?"
"More
than that," he said. "Much more." He stood up, walked over to
his bureau, and opened the top drawer. From it he removed an
odd-looking helmet with the word MEMVOX printed across the
brow.
"Here," he said, handing it over.
Adele
placed the book on the table. She took the helmet and turned
it around in her hands, studying it. Many small metal disks
were affixed to the inside.
"What
do I do with this?"
"Place it over your head."
She
laughed. "Are we about to engage in battle?"
He
smiled. "Not unless you want to."
She
carefully placed the helmet onto her head so as not to disturb
her hair.
"How
does that feel?" Schmidt asked, his voice sounding thick
through the helmet.
"Heavy." She sniffed the air. "And it smells of
oil."
"That
will only last for a moment." He reached into his pocket and
pulled out a small molded metal box, with knobs and buttons,
which he held near her head.
"Miss
Weber, are you ready?"
"For
what?"
Schmidt chuckled. "I guess I’d call it an immersion
into another world. It’s like watching a movie, but you
experience it from the inside."
Adele
shrugged. "It sounds intriguing. I’m ready."
Schmidt nodded. He pushed a button on the
box–
–and
suddenly the room vanished. Adele found herself strapped into
a leather chair in a strange room. Dials and displays of
numbers danced before her face. Directly ahead and to both
sides, windows showed clear blue sky and clouds, with some
sort of pavement underneath.
She
felt a sudden jerk of movement, and a high-pitched whine
filled her ears. The room she sat in started moving forward,
faster and faster. The view through the window showed faraway
buildings and trees, moving past her more and more quickly,
faster than she had ever gone before–
–and
then suddenly the room lifted into the air.
Adele
realized now that she had to be in some sort of vehicle, a
flying machine. She now noticed some sort of pole, probably a
steering mechanism, sticking out of the floor.
"Will
wonders never cease?" she said aloud, although as far as she
could tell there was no one around to hear her.
Very
carefully, she took hold of the pole and pulled it towards
her. The flying machine began to climb at an even steeper
angle, and she felt herself pushed slightly into her seat. She
pushed the pole forward and let it go, and the flying machine
seemed to settle into a horizontal position.
"Hm,"
she said.
She
sat and looked out the window as the flying machine took her
on a journey, sometimes ascending, sometimes descending. The
experience was rather similar to that of being on a roller
coaster, she decided, although a lot smoother.
Until
the end.
Looking out the front window, she saw huge buildings of
glass and metal, towering over the ground below. The machine
brought her closer and closer to the buildings, when suddenly,
just when she thought she would die in a crash, the machine
banked upwards. She felt herself being pushed into her seat as
the vehicle climbed. The weight of her body increased, making
it harder for her to breathe. She waited for relief, but the
vehicle just continued to accelerate, almost straight
upwards–
–when
suddenly it stalled, and she found herself, and the machine,
falling.
She
screamed as intense fear filled her entire being. The air
seemed to get thicker and hotter. The urge to get away, to
flee, to survive, overwhelmed her, and she suddenly remembered
that this was all unreal. She tore the helmet from her
head–
–and
found herself back in Mr. Schmidt’s chambers.
"Merciful God," she croaked. Her heart beat so quickly
she felt afraid it might burst out of her chest.
Schmidt immediately jumped to her side, and placed his
hands upon her shoulders. Normally, she would have rejected
the indignity, but she had no strength. "Miss Weber!" he said,
his face a picture of concern. "Come, lie down upon the
bed."
Gently, she made her way from the chair to the bed,
gripping Schmidt’s arm firmly so she wouldn’t fall onto the
floor. The dizziness from the experience lingered. She
collapsed onto the bed, breathing heavily, and she stifled an
urge to vomit.
"Adele, I’m sorry. I truly am. I forgot how vivid
virtual reality can be. I didn’t realize the effect that would
have on you. I suppose it’s as removed from motion pictures
as–as I am from 1904."
"What–what in the name of our Lord was
that?"
"It’s
called–well, it doesn’t matter what it’s called. The point is
that you were flying."
She
glared at him. "I know I was flying, you idiot. Or at least it
felt like it. Was that real?"
He
nodded. "Oh, yes. Quite real."
"I
still want to know what it was called."
"The
flying machine is called an airplane."
"An
airplane," Adele repeated, as she got her breath back. "And it
hasn’t been invented yet. That I know for a fact."
Schmidt cleared his throat. "Actually, two brothers
flew one just last December, if I remember my
history."
"Last
December?"
"Yes."
She
shook her head. "Impossible. I would have known."
Schmidt shrugged. "Well, it’s not as important as the
device you just had on your head. It’s called a memory
player."
"A
memory player," she echoed.
"Yes.
It can replay the memories of one person into another person’s
mind."
"So
that was a memory? Of someone flying an airplane?"
"Well, not quite. That was more of a training scenario.
If it had been a real memory, you wouldn’t have been able to
interact with it."
Adele
took a moment to assimilate this information, then said, "It’s
more intense than watching a movie, isn’t it?"
"Yes,
it is," Schmidt replied. "But I guess you learned that
already."
Adele
feared she knew the answer to the next question, but felt
compelled to ask it anyway. "How does this device tie in with
the St. Mark’s excursion?"
"Well," Mr. Schmidt said. He looked around the room,
never looking at Adele’s face.
"Well," he said again.
"I’m
waiting," Adele said.
"I’m
implanting memory recorder nanobots into the minds of as many
people in Little Germany as I can. Especially the women and
children, as they will be the majority of the people on the
steamboat."
"What
was that word?"
"Um."
Schmidt ran his hand through his hair, as if searching for his
thoughts. "You mean nanobots?"
"Yes."
"That’s a little hard to explain. It’s like the lens of
the camera. It would be as if the film of the camera were kept
in a separate container." He lifted the little box again. "All
the memories will end up in here, and then I can bring them
with me back to the future."
"But
how can the memories reach from people’s minds into your
little box?"
"Um,"
Schmidt said again. "That’s hard to explain. I’d have to use a
lot of scientific terminology that hasn’t been invented yet.
Could you explain to a medieval monk how a motion picture
works?"
"Do
not talk to me as if I were a small child," she said coldly.
"I have a mind, you know." As the words came out of her mouth,
a sudden, chilling thought occurred to her. "Mr. Schmidt. Did
you implant one of those–those nanobots in my
head?"
"Yours was one of the first," he replied.
She
glared at him. "That is a severe invasion of my privacy. You
are the absolute worst sort of voyeur."
"I
would beg your pardon, Miss Weber, but that would be dishonest
of me. You have to remember that from my perspective, all the
members of this community are long gone. Where I come from,
you’re already a vic–I mean, you’ve already passed on." He
paused. "Besides, the other side to this invasion of your
privacy is the historical record. I would imagine that your
people would want a record of the tragedy."
She
picked the book off of the table again. "Isn’t this proof that
there will be a record?"
"Sort
of. May I show you something?" Gently, he took the book from
her hands. He flipped through the pages until he found a page
close to the end of the book, and he handed the book back to
her. "Read this," he said.
The
page displayed three simple words on two lines: "Part Four" in
smaller type, with the word "Forgetting" underneath in larger
type. A picture of the steamboat’s wheel appeared
underneath.
Adele
looked up. "Forgetting?" she asked.
"The
tragedy is not remembered."
"At
all?"
He
cleared his throat. "It is remembered a bit, but not as much
as other tragedies, some with fewer lives lost, but also ones
with much, much more devastation."
"More
devastation?" Adele couldn’t fathom such a thing. She closed
the book and checked the number on the front cover. "More than
the one thousand the book claims perished?"
"One
thousand twenty-one," Schmidt said.
"You
didn’t answer my question."
Schmidt got a far away look in his eyes. "The answer is
yes. There are other disasters, much worse, in this city’s
history."
"Worse?"
He
nodded, and gestured with his hands as if trying to create a
picture for her. "Buildings set aflame. People jumping out of
windows. Great unimaginable towers crashing down. Diseases
running rampant in the streets." He shuddered.
"Do
you have any of those in your memory player?"
He nodded. "As regular recordings, yes. I have a
few."
"I
see." She paused. "Do not show me any of those.
Ever."
"I
would never inflict those images on anyone who didn’t need to
see them," he replied.
Adele
glanced at the book. "Even with other disasters, how could
people forget this one?"
"That’s hard to explain without going into more detail
about the future, but let me see." He paused in thought for a
moment. "Many years ago–or many years in the future, from your
perspective–when I was a student, I took a course in history
at Columbia University from Professor James Patrick Shenton.
He taught me two truisms about this city. The first was that
New Yorkers never let principle take precedence over
profit."
"And
the second?"
"New
Yorkers also never let memory be a hindrance."
"Explain," Adele said.
"New
Yorkers have never been much for preserving the past. If a
building stood in the way of progress, no matter how historic,
it would be torn down."
"People’s lives are not buildings, Mr.
Schmidt."
"True," he replied. "But to some people those lives are
valued even less." He lifted the book. "It’s all in here. The
Slocum disaster was the greatest tragedy this city had
ever known, and within one hundred years, it had been
completely forgotten. I want people to remember again. I want
them to know the tragedy that struck."
"But
it hasn’t happened yet," Adele said. "Why force them to know
the tragedy? Why not erase it before it ever comes to
pass?"
"I’ve
already told you. The timeline is not that
resilient."
"Surely it would be resilient enough to spare the lives
of my thousand countrymen! After all, if the disaster is
mostly forgotten, how could preventing it possibly affect
history?"
"It
would affect my personal history, Miss Weber. There are
ancestors of mine who will die on the General
Slocum."
Adele
had not expected that. "Really? Who? Do I know
them?"
Schmidt shook his head. "I’ve said too much already.
But it’s because of my family history that I’m one of the
people who remember the tragedy."
"I
see. I’m sorry." Even as she spoke the words, Adele felt the
absurdity of consoling Mr. Schmidt on the deaths of ancestors
who hadn’t even died yet. Nevertheless, it seemed to her the
proper thing to say.
"Thank you," he said.
"Mr.
Schmidt, why did you tell me all this?"
"You–you discovered the book. I had no
choice."
She
smiled at him. "Do not take me for a fool. If, as you say,
there are inherent dangers in changing history, surely your
showing me something of the future is a danger."
He
nodded. "It is. But fortunately I can correct
that."
Adele
felt a chill run through her body, and it took her a moment to
regain the ability to speak. "Does that mean–would you–are you
planning to murder me?"
Schmidt’s eyebrows shot up and his jaw dropped open.
The expression on his face was so comical that Adele almost
laughed. "I take it the answer is no."
"I’m
surprised you would have even entertained the notion," he
said.
"You’re letting a thousand people go to their deaths
without interference. It wasn’t that much of a
stretch."
He
sighed. "No, I suppose not. But I don’t have to kill you. I
can use another one of my devices to make you forget our
conversation ever happened."
She
nodded. "Ah. So you would further violate my mind,
then."
"I
have no real choice," Schmidt said. From a jacket pocket he
pulled out a thin metal rod. "This device is called a
disorienter. It will cause you to forget our conversation. Are
you ready?"
"I
plead with you. Do not do this."
"I
have no choice, Miss Weber. I’m sorry."
He
pointed the rod directly at her and pushed a button. Adele
considered jumping away, or lunging for the rod, but neither
option seemed viable. Instead, she shut her eyes tight and
waited for whatever effect the rod would have on
her.
But
nothing happened. She opened one eye and saw Mr. Schmidt
standing there, dumbfounded, the rod now hanging loosely from
his hand.
"Mr.
Schmidt? I still remember everything."
He
nodded. "I know. I couldn’t do it."
Adele
felt a small measure of relief. "Ah. I knew you wouldn’t do
that to me."
Schmidt shook his head. "No, Adele. What I meant was
that your mind is too strong. There are always some people
whose minds resist the disorienter. I’m afraid you’re one of
them."
"Oh.
I had thought–never mind. So what happens now?"
"Now?" He paused, his brow furrowed. "Now I guess I
have to rely upon your discretion."
"Meaning?"
"Meaning it is my turn to plead with you. Miss Weber,
promise me that you will not breathe a word of this to anyone.
The consequences will be disastrous if you do."
She
pointed at Ship Ablaze. "They will be disastrous if I
don’t."
"Miss
Weber–"
Adele
stood up and took a few quick steps over to the door. Just
before she left the room, she took one last look at the book.
"You have kept your own counsel for quite some time, Mr.
Schmidt. Expect me to do the same."
On
many of the following nights, Adele Weber dreamed again of
fire and water. But no longer did she float on a simple raft
that was sometimes a building or a maze. Instead, she found
herself on a cavernous steamboat, devoid of other people, as a
fire licked away at the decks.
During the days, Lucas Schmidt kept up the pretense of
going to work at the World. Adele knew the truth, but
saw no reason to tell her mother. Schmidt somehow managed to
pay his weekly rent, so what would be the point of exposing
him? It wasn’t as if her mother could do anything.
But
there were some people who could. A few evenings later, Adele
stood in front of Mr. Schmidt’s door with Reverend Haas and
Mary Abendschein. Haas knocked on the door, and within a
moment Schmidt opened it.
"Pastor Haas. Miss Abendschein." The slightest pause.
"Miss Weber. To what do I owe this visit?"
"May
I speak with you, Mr. Schmidt?" Haas asked.
"Um–certainly." He moved aside and allowed the pastor
and the head of the excursion committee into his room. As
Adele passed by, she gave him a haughty look, to which Schmidt
did not visibly react. She darted over to his desk, but
nothing sat upon it.
"Well, where is it?" she asked as Haas and Abendschein
found places to stand.
"Where is what, Miss Weber?" Haas
asked.
"He knows," she said, pointing at
Schmidt.
"I
do?" Schmidt asked.
She
glared at him. "The book. The memory recorder. The helmet. Any
of it. All of it."
Haas
removed his spectacles. "Miss Weber. Miss Abendschein and I
were willing to come talk to Mr. Schmidt, but would you mind
if I handled this my way?"
"Sorry, Reverend. By all means."
Haas
nodded. "Mr. Schmidt. Adele has come to us with news of a
premonition, for lack of a better word."
"Oh?"
"Yes.
Now I have known Adele and her family for a long time; in
fact, I christened Adele. And I know that Adele sometimes has
vivid dreams regarding what may come to pass."
"Oh,
does she?" Schmidt asked.
"Yes,
she does. I tend not to put faith in such things myself. But
once or twice–" He paused. "But that is not important now.
This is."
"What?"
Haas
put his spectacles back on. "Mr. Schmidt, this will sound
ludicrous, but Miss Weber told me that you knew of a problem
with the upcoming excursion to Long Island."
"Really?"
"Yes.
She said that it came to her in a dream. She claimed you had
in your possession a book that detailed a great disaster that
would take place should we go on our excursion."
Schmidt looked at Adele, who let her gaze fall to the
floor. "Indeed," he said.
"I
know it sounds like nonsense, but she seemed most
insistent."
"Well, I have no such book. This sounds like a dream of
hers that had best stay in the dark of night."
Haas
pulled at his collar and then wiped his brow with a white
handkerchief. "May I have your permission to look
around?"
Schmidt smiled. "This is my private room, Reverend
Haas, but I wouldn’t be here if not for you. Please, by all
means. I shall be outside, breathing in the fresh night
air."
Given
the trace scent of manure that occasionally wafted through the
streets, it was clear to Adele that Schmidt was being
facetious, and merely giving them a chance to search his room
without his presence. It also became clear to her that
Reverend Haas would not be able to find the book; otherwise,
Mr. Schmidt would not have been so ready to assent.
"Never mind," she said suddenly. "There’s nothing
here."
Haas
looked at her. "Were you lying then about your
dream?"
"No,
Reverend. I would never lie to you. I am convinced Mr. Schmidt
knows of a danger which he simply refuses to tell us. But I
don’t think we’re going to find anything that I saw–I mean
that I dreamed about–here."
Haas
nodded, and turned back to Schmidt. "Mr. Schmidt–Lucas–on your
honor as a new member of my congregation, please be candid. Is
there any reason you know of that we should cancel the
festivities of Wednesday next?"
Schmidt glanced at Adele and Haas in turn. Finally, he
gave a weary shake of his head. "I know of no
reason."
"Thank you, sir." Haas turned to Adele and flashed a
weak smile. "Adele, I know how caught up you sometimes get in
your dreams. Please rest assured that I will take all
precautions to ensure a smooth and safe excursion on the
General Slocum."
"Will
you speak with the captain, at least? Have him run a fire
drill?"
Haas
sighed. "Captain Van Schiack has been in charge of the
steamboat for thirteen years, and he has a spotless record. I
am sure we will be fine."
Haas
and Abendschein departed. As soon as the door closed behind
them, Adele lurched at Schmidt, who jumped back. "Where is it,
you cad?"
"The
book?"
"Yes,
the book! What have you done with it, you
blackguard?"
"I
sent it back to the future."
"You
did what?"
"I
had to. I couldn’t risk the possibility that someone else
might come across it. No one would believe you, not
with your reputation for dreams. But they might believe the
book. And if someone else were to see it, well, I’m not sure
if people would be so mistrusting of Reverend Haas or Miss
Abendschein."
"But
all these people are going to die!"
"History can’t be helped."
Adele
thought of a few choice responses to that, but considered
herself far too much of a lady to say them aloud. Instead, she
replied, "You are wrong. History can be helped, especially if
it is not yet history."
He
raised a finger. "Adele–"
"Do
not presume upon me, Mr. Schmidt."
"Let
me try to show you the dangers in another way. Forget the
General Slocum for the moment. Instead, answer this
question: would you have me go back further into time and save
your father’s life?"
Adele
froze. "That possibility had never occurred to me."
"Well?"
"Go
back in time and save my father from dying? Of course I
would."
"Are you sure? Think long and hard before answering
again."
Adele
thought. She had loved her father so much when she was a
little girl. He had always hugged her every evening when he
came home from work, and she remembered how happy he always
made her just by being around. He used to take Adele and her
mother to the park and playgrounds, and she remembered how
safe she always felt, knowing her father was
around.
And
yet . . . Her father had also been an overwhelming presence in
her family. Adele loved to read anything she could get her
hands on, and she had had to sneak glances at books and
magazines while her father was alive. For some reason, he
never felt that a little girl needed to read so much, even
though Adele thirsted to learn about the world. As much as she
didn’t want to admit it, her father’s absence had made it
easier for her in some ways.
In
fact . . . Adele thought about how necessity had forced her
mother to grow from a simple housewife into a woman who
managed to keep the two of them in food and shelter. The fact
was that her mother had become a much stronger, more
independent woman than she had been before. Adele wouldn’t
want to take that away from her mother.
"Well?" Schmidt asked. "Would you change
history?"
"I–I
don’t know. The woman I am now would probably say yes, and ask
you to go back in time and save my father. But if I did allow
it to happen, then the woman I am now would cease to exist.
And I have no idea what my new life would be like."
"Precisely. Perhaps if your father lived, your mother
would have died. Or maybe you yourself. Or perhaps you all
would have ended up a happy family, right until the
Slocum disaster. That’s just it. You don’t know, you
can’t know. History is dangerous to toy with."
"However, Mr. Schmidt, your analogy has one fatal
flaw."
"Which is what?"
She
took a deep breath. "If you ask me here in 1904 if I would go
back in time to 1898 to change something, I hesitate. But if
you ask me to prevent something that, as far as I am
concerned, has not yet happened, my answer is an unequivocal
yes." She paused. "I shall continue spread the word about the
disaster, Mr. Schmidt. And you can’t stop me."
"You
already saw Reverend Haas’s reaction. They’ll consider you
insane if you try."
"And
I will consider myself evil if I do not."
Schmidt flinched. "Do not think of me as evil, Miss
Weber. As I said, there are far worse tragedies in history. If
we were to prevent one tragedy from occurring, morally we
would have to prevent them all . . . and the universe would
fall apart in a blaze of otherworldly fire."
"‘Ein Prophet gilt nirgends weniger als in seinem
Vaterland und bei seinen Verwandten und in seinem Hause,’"
she said.
"Huh?"
"Oh,
I’m sorry," she said with a sarcastic tone. "Once again, I had
forgotten that you don’t speak German. Mark, chapter six,
verse four. ‘A prophet is not without honor save in his own
country.’"
"You
are not a prophet, Miss Weber."
"And
you are not a gentleman, Mr. Schmidt. You have shown me the
future and have denied me the means of averting it. Good
night. I hope you have nightmares."
The
week of the excursion finally came. The Monday before, June
13, was the day of the annual parade of the Schuetzen
Bund, a German-American shooting club, and Adele went to
watch the parade with her mother, despite feeling glum. At the
front of the parade marched a group of men on horses, blowing
trumpets, along with men playing kettledrums. Everyone was
dressed in traditional costume, from their Bavarian hats down
to their lederhosen. Women wore dirndls over their blouses and
long flowing skirts, with their hair braided in myriad styles.
And then, following behind, thousands of German immigrants and
German-Americans, many brandishing rifles.
Adele
searched the crowd for Mr. Schmidt, but couldn’t find him. He
had chosen not to watch the parade with them, and when she
pressed him, he explained that this would be his last chance
to spread his nanobots before the excursion. Adele’s mother
took it as a rejection of Adele, which made Adele even more
listless.
Adele
slept badly on both Monday and Tuesday nights. And then the
morning of Wednesday, June 15, 1904, arrived. Adele awoke to
sunlight streaming in the windows. She breathed in the morning
air and felt a breeze caress her body. The day would clearly
turn out to be beautiful; she just hoped it wouldn’t be tragic
as well.
After
she dressed, she knocked on Mr. Schmidt’s door, but there was
no response.
"Mr.
Schmidt?" she called out. "You don’t want to miss the
boat."
Again, impudence won out over propriety. Adele turned
the knob, opened the door, and walked into the room, only to
discover that it was completely empty of Schmidt and his
possessions. All of his clothing was gone, as were his
futuristic devices.
After
a few minutes, she sighed and went to the kitchen to prepare
breakfast and lunch for herself and her mother. When her
mother finally came into the dining room, she was already
dressed for the excursion in her finest Sunday outfit, a blue
blouse and skirt combination topped off with a broad-brimmed
hat.
"What
do you think, Adele?" she asked, turning around.
"You
look lovely as always, mother."
"Will
you be wearing a hat, Adele? If you don’t, you’ll catch your
death of sunburn."
"I
thought I would bring a parasol. I’ve left it near the door
with the blankets and towels."
Adele’s mother nodded. "Thank you for preparing the
sandwiches."
"Of
course." She paused. "Mother, will Mr. Schmidt be joining us?
I didn’t hear him in his room."
"I
spoke with him last night. He told me that he would be leaving
early for the boat." She flashed a knowing smile at Adele. "My
guess is that he wishes to save two seats on the hurricane
deck."
Despite her sour mood, Adele couldn’t help but smile
back. "You harbor more hopes than I do."
"Now,
child, I’m sure he will forgive you for your fantasies. I
wouldn’t be surprised if he’s planned something special for
you once we reach Locust Grove."
"Or
even before," Adele said under her breath.
"What?"
"Nothing." Adele thought for a moment about whether she
should tell her mother that Mr. Schmidt had cleared his room
of all his possessions. She decided not to. But she did decide
one last time to express her reservations about the
excursion.
"Mother, I’m still not sure if we should go on the
steamboat."
"This
again?" She sighed. "Adele, you’ve already been fodder for the
church gossip mill. Please stop."
"But
Mother–"
"Adele, I’m going, whether you do or not. Your uncle is
expecting me. And we need to leave now. The General
Slocum is scheduled to depart from the East Third Street
recreation pier at a quarter to nine."
Adele
felt torn, but she wasn’t about to let her mother go on the
steamboat without her. At the very least, perhaps she could
save the two of them.
They
stepped out onto the street, which already teemed with
hundreds of people dressed in their Sunday best heading
towards the Third Street pier. Some walked briskly east, while
others hovered in front of tenement buildings or stood at
corners, waiting for friends and family.
They
stopped once when Adele heard a little girl laughing behind
them. She turned around and spotted Catherine Gallagher with
her family.
"Well, hello, Catherine. You seem particularly
happy."
"I
am, I am!" the little girl shouted. "I thought I wasn’t going
to be able to go, but the woman at the store, she gave me a
ticket!" She held her ticket up high.
"Now
be careful, Catherine," the girl’s mother said. "You don’t
want to lose the ticket, now that God has smiled upon
you."
More
like God has sentenced you, Adele thought.
"Have
a good time," Adele’s mother said to the Gallaghers. "We’ll
see you on the boat."
Soon
enough, Adele and her mother found themselves at the
gangplank, where Reverend Haas and Mary Abendschein stood
welcoming parishioners and guests onto the General
Slocum. "Ah, Miss Weber, Mrs. Weber," Haas said. "I am
delighted to see you both. Particularly you, Miss
Weber."
"Here, dears," Miss Abendschein said, pressing into
their left hands copies of the Journal for the Seventeenth
Annual Excursion of St. Mark’s Evan. Lutheran
Church.
"The
program feels thicker than last year’s," Adele’s mother
said.
Abendschein preened. "We managed to get over one
hundred advertisements this year."
Adele
flipped through the program. "A remarkable
achievement."
"Thank you, Adele." She looked around. "I certainly
hope you weren’t too upset with how often I kept your boarder
away from home."
"Miss
Abendschein! Really!"
She
laughed. "Relax. Your mother told me that he seemed to be
courting you. I wouldn’t stand in the way."
"Have
you actually seen Mr. Schmidt today?" Adele asked.
"I
thought I saw him boarding earlier," Reverend Haas replied. He
looked directly at Adele. "I imagine he’s looking forward to a
day in the country as much as the rest of us."
Adele
grasped the unspoken point, that Schmidt would not have
boarded the Slocum if Adele’s suspicions of disaster
had any grounding to them. "Thank you, Reverend
Haas."
"I’ll
see you on the boat."
Adele
and her mother crossed the gangplank and boarded the
General Slocum, along with many happy, laughing people.
Adele noticed a deckhand clicking away on a mechanical counter
as people stepped off the gangplank and onto the boat. She
repressed the urge to tell him to be extra careful with his
count.
"Well, dear," her mother said, "shall we go to the
afterdeck?"
"I
want to stay here and keep an eye out for Mr.
Schmidt."
"He’s
probably already on board," her mother replied. "I want to go
listen to Professor George Maurer and his band. Your uncle
said he would save us some seats. But you can stay out on the
main deck, if you wish."
Adele
sighed. "Mother, I really do not wish to be
separated."
Her
mother laughed. "Child! Really. Nothing’s going to happen.
Okay?"
"Okay," Adele said without enthusiasm.
"Good. I’m going to the afterdeck to hear the music.
You may stay here if you wish."
"I
think I will, at least for the moment."
Adele
waved farewell to her mother and watched the gangplank as more
people came onto the boat. Although the boat was scheduled to
depart at 8:45 am, various passengers asked Reverend Haas to
hold the boat for one more family member or friend, and Haas
agreed. It wasn’t until almost 9:45 am, as a young girl and
her brother flew down the pier, that the deckhands finally got
ready to haul up the gangplank.
As
Adele watched this, still straining her eyes for some sign of
Mr. Schmidt, she spotted the wife of Philip Straub and her
three children. An impulse made her approach them.
"Mrs.
Straub."
"Adele Weber! How are you?"
"Mrs.
Straub, you’ve always been so nice to me, I feel I must warn
you." Adele paused for a moment, then said, "I’ve been having
dreams, dark dreams of today’s excursion."
Mrs.
Straub’s face turned pale. "So I’m not the only one," she
whispered.
Adele
watched as Mrs. Straub turned to a man next to her and said
something. Immediately, that man grabbed his wife and five
children and ran towards the gangplank. Right behind him,
Straub and her three children followed. They tumbled off the
boat and landed on the pier, gasping for breath.
Praise to the heavens, thought Adele. At least I’ve
managed to save someone.
The
gangplank disappeared, the crew began to cast off, shouts went
up to the pilothouse, and the twin paddle wheels began to
turn.
The
General Slocum was underway.
For
the next few minutes, Adele wandered the decks, looking for
some sign of either Mr. Schmidt or a way off the steamboat.
Children of all ages ran around, playing various games. She
spotted Lillie Pfeifer, a friend who was but a year older and
yet already married. Lillie and she had spent many previous
excursions dancing with other teenagers on the boat, but Adele
knew that things would be different today, as Lillie had to
spend the day in the company of other married ladies, no
matter their age. In truth, Adele felt relieved that she
didn’t have to fawn over Lillie and be excited for her new
marriage.
Adele
turned a corner to keep Lillie from spotting her, and found
herself face to face with Mr. Schmidt. His shocked expression
showed that he was just as surprised to see her as she was to
see him. "Mr. Schmidt? What are you doing here? I thought you
would be long gone by now."
"I
should ask you the same question, Miss Weber. What are you
doing here, knowing what you know?"
"My
mother refused to heed my warnings, and I would not let her
come on the excursion alone. I am hoping to save
her."
"Ah."
He looked down at his feet.
"Nor
could I let the rest of my community go into this tragedy
alone. Perhaps I could help them. What about you?" She
frowned. "Didn’t you plant all the recorders you needed?" she
asked with coldness in her voice. "Isn’t it time you went back
to where you came from?"
"That’s just it, Miss Weber. I’m not sure if I
can."
"Oh?
And why not?"
A few
women bumped into Schmidt as they came around the corner.
After a few hurried words of "Pardon me" and "Excuse me,"
Schmidt pulled Adele over to the railing. He leaned forward
and whispered in her ear.
"I
stopped the disaster."
Adele
felt a lump in her throat. "What do you mean?"
"I
went to the lamp room well before the fire would have started.
I found a lit cigarette sitting on the floor, and I stamped it
out."
"The
lamp room?"
Schmidt gave her a curious look. "Just how much of the
book did you manage to read?"
"Not
that much."
He nodded. "Well, the fire started in the lamp room,
just below the main deck. That is, it would have started
there. But I put it out."
"You’re not lying?"
The
glum look on his face said it all. "No, I’m not. Otherwise, I
wouldn’t be on the boat. I’d have stayed safely
away."
"What
about all that warning about changing the future?"
Schmidt leaned back on the railing, and looked around.
Adele followed his gaze. In one corner, a group of older women
were deeply engaged in conversation. In another, a few
children were playing a game of hide-and-seek.
Schmidt’s eyes stopped wandering, and he looked back at
Adele. "I got to know everyone," he said.
"Pardon?"
"The
German-Americans of the Lower East Side. It may be a shrinking
community, but it’s still a vibrant one, full of life and joy.
I couldn’t bear to see it destroyed the way it once
was."
Slowly, Adele nodded. "You came to see the world
through my eyes, then."
Schmidt took a deep breath and exhaled it. "Sadly, yes.
I decided it would be best if the future didn’t have a tragedy
to remember."
"Sadly, you say?"
"I’ll
get in trouble if the future finds out."
"But
you changed the future."
"Not
enough, apparently. I’m still here, which means my future
still exists, in some form or other. That means I’ll have to
take responsibility for changing history." He paused. "But
it’s worth it all, just to see you happy."
Adele
moved closer to Mr. Schmidt. She knew it would appear
unseemly, but she could only think of one way to express her
gratitude–
–when
suddenly, she noticed a new odor mixing with that of the salt
water and sea air. An odor of burning wood.
"Lucas?" she asked, sniffing the air.
Schmidt’s eyes widened with horror. "I smell it
too."
A
young boy ran past, shouting, "The boat is on fire, the boat
is on fire!"
Schmidt tugged on his watch fob, brought his pocket
watch up to his face, opened the case, and glanced at the
time. "I’m too late."
"What
is it?"
"It’s
the fire. I couldn’t stop it. The Law of Conservation of
Reality kicked in."
"What
are you saying?"
"History doesn’t record exactly what started the fire.
I thought it was the cigarette, but it could have been a
smoldering match." He hit the railing in frustration. "Damn. I
should have stayed down there, not let anyone near the lamp
room."
"If
the fire is starting, we must get to safety."
"Yes,
but–"
A man
ran past them, shouting, "Quick! Grab a life preserver! Get to
the boats!"
A
crowd of people began running towards the boats. Adele tried
to join them, but Schmidt gripped her arm tightly. "No. It
won’t do us any good."
"Why
not?"
"The
cork in the life preservers has become cork dust. If you
jumped overboard wearing one, you would sink like a
stone."
"What
about the lifeboats?"
"Held
down with wire," Schmidt responded. "They’ll never get one
loose in time."
"You
knew all this?"
"Yes,
I did." He paused. "It’s part of history."
She
glared. "It was all in that book, wasn’t it?"
He
nodded. "Yes, it was."
"Mein Gott! My mother! I must find my mother!"
She tried to pull her arm out of Schmidt’s grip, but failed.
"Let me go!"
"No,
Adele. It’s too dangerous. You’ll find yourself rushing into a
wall of flame."
Tears
began to come to her eyes, as passengers jostled around them,
running towards the lifeboats. "You must let me go save my
mother!"
Schmidt grabbed her other arm and swung her around.
"Adele, listen to me! We can’t save everyone. It’s too late.
History must play itself out. But we can save ourselves, and
your mother as well, if you will calm down and follow my
instructions."
Adele
nodded. "What do we do?"
"I’m
a time traveler. I can take us out of phase with the timeline.
Then I can leave you suspended outside of time while I go
search for your mother."
"You
intend to leave me in safety while you risk yourself to find
my mother?"
"Using my time machine is the only way I can attempt to
save both of you."
Adele
took a deep breath. "Swear to the Lord that you are not lying
to me."
"Adele, I swear to the heavens above that I am not
lying. May I use my time machine to save us?"
"Do
it."
Schmidt unbuttoned his jacket. Underneath he wore an
odd belt with metal buttons. He took Adele’s hand in his and
wrapped it around his belt, making sure she had a firm
grip.
"The
belt is your time machine?" she asked.
"Yes.
Now hold on."
He
pushed a button, and the world around them seemed to fade into
nonexistence.
Panic
embraced the hearts and souls of the women, children, and men
on board the General Slocum. Some people ran to find
their children. Others ran for the life preservers; the few
who managed to put them on and jump into the water drowned
almost immediately.
People died in fire. People died in water.
And
Adele Weber, floating outside of time like an insubstantial
ghost, had a front-row seat for the entire
disaster.
She
watched as a man started swimming towards land. Three or four
women–she couldn’t tell because of the way they flailed about
in the water–grabbed at the man, desperate for some way to
stay afloat. He screamed at them and tried to push them away,
but it was no use. The women grabbed onto the man, and without
meaning to, dragged him under the water.
She
watched as Captain Van Schiack ordered his pilot, Van Wart, to
beach the wooden steamboat on North Brother Island–a full mile
away, nowhere near as close as the Bronx docks or the Queens
shore.
She
watched as fire and smoke flew from the front of the vessel to
the stern, filling the decks. The flame swept higher and
higher, devouring the boat like an insatiable monster. Sparks
and embers jumped onto people, who screamed as the air filled
with the sickening odor of their burning, shriveling
flesh.
She
watched as strangers picked up children that were not their
own and threw them overboard. The children shouted for their
parents as they fell into the darkness of the cold water, most
never to emerge.
She
watched as George Heins, only one year younger than Adele, ran
to grab a small girl, but was too late as she disappeared into
a sudden wall of flame.
She
watched as people crushed each other against the rails,
forcing others overboard, where they quickly
drowned.
She
watched as Lucas Schmidt dove into and out of time, trying to
locate and rescue her mother.
She
watched until she could not bear to watch anymore, but her
eyes refused to close, until finally, the steamboat, engulfed
with fire, had made it to North Brother Island.
And
then she lost consciousness.
Adele
awoke on a bed in a strange room, with Schmidt sitting in a
chair next to her.
"Lucas?" she called out. "Where am I?"
"I
brought you to a hotel to recuperate. You’ve been in and out
of a coma. It’s an aftereffect of being outside of time for so
long without a time belt to keep your quantum structure
stable."
"How
long have I been unconscious?"
"About two days."
She
pushed herself up out of the bed. "Days?"
"It’s
Friday. Mid-morning." He pointed at a stack of newspapers.
"I’ve brought you the news, if you want to know what’s been
going on."
"Perhaps I should just read Ship Ablaze," she
said sarcastically.
Schmidt shrugged. "I may have changed history. The book
might not be as accurate as it had been. And anyway, I don’t
have it here in 1904 anymore."
Adele
picked up the newspapers and began rustling through them. The
headlines spoke of nothing but the disaster. "499 Known To Be
Dead" reported the Herald. "Horror in East River!" from
the Tribune. At least Pulitzer’s World had found
something good to report: "Many Gallant Rescues of the
Drowning!"
"They’re reporting anywhere from five hundred to one
thousand dead," Adele said.
"That
always happens after a tragedy such as this one," Schmidt
replied. "It’ll take a while for the numbers to settle
down."
"One
thousand twenty-one," Adele said. "From the inside front cover
of your book."
"Um,
yes. Again, though, you’re assuming that I didn’t change
history, even though I tried."
Adele
thought of the Straub family she had saved, but said nothing
about them. Instead, she said, "You didn’t change history, Mr.
Schmidt. If you had, you wouldn’t be here anymore."
He
sighed. "You’re probably right. But I won’t know for sure
until I return to the future."
"When–when do you leave?"
"Not
for a day or two more, at least. I’ve got to make sure all my
recordings are set."
"Hm,"
Adele said, and returned to perusing the paper. After a
moment, she found something that made her gasp
loudly.
"What
is it?" Schmidt asked.
She
pointed at the article. "It says here that they’ve set up a
makeshift morgue at the Charities Pier on East Twenty-Sixth
Street."
Schmidt leaned over and took a look at it. "Yes, they
have."
"Did
you–where is my mother?"
A
dark cloud seemed to pass over Schmidt’s face. He cleared his
throat and said, "I’m sorry, Adele. I was too
late."
Adele
felt a lump in her throat. She held back her tears and said,
"I see."
"The
fire was everywhere. I couldn’t even find her." He paused.
"But I tried, Adele. I did try. Please believe me."
She
pushed the pile of newspapers to the floor. "I need to go to
the morgue," she said. "I need to find my mother."
"You
can’t," Schmidt said.
"I
can and I will!"
He
hesitated, then nodded. "All right. But let me go with you.
She may not even be there. And even if she is, you may not
like what you find."
"You
wish to come with me?"
"Yes,
I do." He paused. "You’ve already been through a lot; I want
to make sure you’re all right."
Adele studied the earnest expression on Schmidt’s face,
and then nodded. "Very well. Let us go
immediately."
They
left the room and descended the stairs to the hotel lobby.
Schmidt tipped a doorman, who called for a horse and carriage.
"Mr. Schmidt, I thought we would take a public
conveyance."
"This
is more private."
"Also
more expensive."
He
shrugged. "I have resources. Please let me assist you as I
can."
Adele
nodded. "Thank you."
"You’re welcome." Schmidt held the carriage door for
her, and the two of them rode to the pier.
Adele
and Schmidt descended the carriage at the end of the street.
As Schmidt paid the driver, Adele took in the sight. Huge
crowds of people, mostly men, wandered all over the pier,
speaking in hushed, quiet tones. Many carried photographs of
their loved ones, pressing them onto other people in the crowd
and asking if anyone had seen them. Policemen were scattered
about the crowd, but some were patrolling right where the
carriage dropped them off.
"Sir,
madam, may we ask your business here?" one of the policemen
asked with a harsh tone in his voice.
"We
were on the boat," Schmidt said. "We’re hoping to find this
lady’s mother."
"Oh."
He moved to let them by. "Sorry, sir, but we thought you might
be more curiosity seekers."
"What?" Adele asked. "Did I hear you right?"
The
policeman nodded. "It’s disgusting, isn’t it? A lot of them
came here Wednesday night and Thursday. For the excitement of
being here."
"Fire
and Flames," Adele said under her breath.
"What, miss?"
"Nothing."
As
they walked into the crowd, Adele’s gaze shifted from left to
right. When they got to the smaller crowd in front of the
covered pier, she whispered, "It seems so calm."
One
of the men waiting there responded. "There was a riot
yesterday," he said. "Shortly after Mayor McClellan left. But
the police got it under control."
"Oh,"
Adele said, not sure what to say. "You were here
yesterday?"
The
man nodded. "My wife and children weren’t in the morgue
yesterday. I know they’ve got to be alive somewhere. I just
know it. I’m hoping someone here might have some
information."
Another man joined the conversation. "Things were
really bad yesterday. Some people tried to jump in the river
when they found the bodies of their loved ones."
"Oh,"
Adele said. "I hope–that is–I’m sorry."
The
man nodded. "Thank you. I’m sorry for whatever loss you’ve
suffered as well." He paused. "I’ve found some of my family,
but not all. I’m hoping to find the rest today so we can bury
them all together."
"Conrad Muth," said a morgue attendant at the
entrance.
"That’s me," the man said.
"Come
with me, please."
Adele
moved forward before the attendant and Mr. Muth could move
away. "Excuse me, please. I’d like to check in."
"What’s your name, Miss?"
"Adele Weber. I’m looking for my mother,
Mathilde."
The
attendant made a note on a piece of paper. "Okay, Miss Weber,
we’ll call you when we’re ready for you." He paused. "I don’t
want to raise your hopes, though, Miss. There’s only about
twenty-five bodies left. If you haven’t found your mother by
now . . ." He trailed off.
"Miss
Weber was recuperating from the fire," Schmidt said. "She
hasn’t been here yet."
"Oh.
Why don’t you come in right now, then? Most of the others are
here for a second or third look. You really should have
priority."
"Thank you."
Adele, Schmidt, and Muth followed the attendant into
the makeshift morgue. Adele gasped when they walked in. Each
body lay in an open coffin, surrounded by and covered with
ice, so that only the face showed. The floor of the warehouse
was wet with the runoff from the coffins, and a slight putrid
smell permeated the air.
The
attendant passed Mr. Muth along to another attendant, and then
gave his full attention to Adele. "My name’s Bob, Miss. I’ll
take you and your friend down the row."
"Thank you."
The
three of them walked deliberately past the coffins, and as
they did, Adele took a look at the face of each body. She
covered her mouth with her hand to keep out the stench, and
was grateful when Schmidt gave her a handkerchief to
help.
They
passed one body, then another and another, until finally they
reached the end of the row. Adele took one look at the face,
and recognition hit her like a punch in the
stomach.
It
was her mother.
She
turned away, sobbing, and buried her head in Schmidt’s
shoulder.
"I
take it this is the one," Bob said.
Schmidt nodded, while Adele continued to
cry.
"Could you give us a moment?" Schmidt asked the
attendant, who nodded and backed away.
Adele
hugged Mr. Schmidt even tighter, and in between her sobs, she
said, "You didn’t even try to save her. Why didn’t you save
her?"
"That’s not fair, Adele," Schmidt replied gently. "You
know that in the end I tried to save everyone."
Adele
nodded and wiped away at her tears. "I know. I’m sorry. I
just–"
"I
understand."
As
soon as her tears were spent, she let go of Schmidt and the
attendant scurried back. "Miss, would you come with me,
please? We need you to fill out the death certificate and body
removal permit."
"I–I–" Adele began. Then she turned to look at Schmidt.
"You were right," she said. "It’s too much."
"I’ll
take care of it," Schmidt said. "Lead the way."
They
followed the attendant to a nearby room and took care of the
mundane business of death.
Adele
buried her mother on Black Saturday, June 18, at the Lutheran
cemetery in Middle Village, Queens, along with most of the
victims whose bodies had been found. She walked through the
graveside funeral and burial with an eerie sense of
detachment.
Back
at her apartment, Adele sat at the dining room table, feeling
emotionally drained, while Schmidt fiddled with his futuristic
devices. She watched him in silence for a few minutes, and
then finally spoke. "So, Mr. Schmidt. Did you get everything
you needed?"
Schmidt nodded. "I think I have. I’ve recorded the
tragedy through the memory recorders implanted in everyone’s
minds, including–"
He
cut himself off, and left it for Adele to finish. "Including
the minds of those who did not survive."
"Yes."
Adele
pondered her next question carefully. "Do you have my mother’s
memories in there?"
"Um.
Yes. Yes, I do."
She
stood up and walked over to him. "Where’s that helmet? I–I
want to experience my mother’s last moments."
"I
really don’t think that’s such a good idea."
"But
Mr. Schmidt–"
"Adele, these memories are meant to be experienced by
people far removed from the original tragedy, people with no
personal connection or loss. Are you sure you want to do
this?"
She
threw up her hands in frustration. "I don’t know what I want!
Perhaps I want to erase her memories, so no one ever sees
them." She paused. "But I want to remember her, and I want
others to as well."
He
handed over the box. "Adele, I’ve brought up your mother’s
file. If you push that button, it will erase her
memories."
Adele
took the box and thought long and hard about what she was
about to do. "I don’t want anyone to violate her privacy. But
I know how important this is to you. I can’t make that choice.
I can’t deny her memories to history if you went to such
trouble to mine them." She held the box out to Schmidt. "Do
with them as you will."
Schmidt took the box back, and without hesitation he
pushed the button. The box surprised Adele by speaking aloud
in a monotone. "Memory file: Mathilde Weber. To erase, push
the button again."
Schmidt pushed the button again. "Memory file: Mathilde
Weber. Erased."
Adele
took a deep breath. "Thank you."
Schmidt nodded. "We didn’t need her recording anyway.
Not as long as we have you to remember."
Adele
nodded. "And apparently I have a very strong mind, you said.
After all, the disorienter didn’t work on me."
Schmidt blinked rapidly, then looked away.
"Mr.
Schmidt? What is it?"
He
looked directly at her. "Adele, I lied to you before about the
disorienter. There are no minds strong enough to resist it. It
works on everybody."
"Then
why didn’t it work on me?"
"You
were right the first time. I couldn’t bring myself to erase
your memory of finding Ship Ablaze."
"Why
couldn’t you?"
He
hesitated. "I didn’t want you to go on the excursion. I wanted
you to survive."
Adele
smiled. "I love you too, Lucas."
He
cleared his throat and rocked slowly back and forth on his
feet. "I guess that’s what I meant."
"I
know," Adele said, and then she frowned. "When do you have to
leave?"
"I
ought to leave immediately. The longer I stay in 1904, the
greater the chance I’ll contaminate the timeline."
"If
we love each other, Lucas, we should stay
together."
He
gave her a sad look. "I can’t stay here in the past. I have a
job, other missions. Responsibilities."
"If
you can’t stay in the past," Adele said, "then take me with
you to the future."
Schmidt wiped a tear out of his eye. "I can’t. The
consequences could be disastrous."
"On a
universe-destroying scale, or just a personal one?"
"Taking a person out of their proper time–"
"Is
it so dangerous to remove me from 1904? From what you’ve said,
I had a feeling that–well, let me put it to you this way.
According to history–that is, your original history–did I
survive?"
He
looked away for a moment. "No. You did not."
She
nodded, and looked around the room. "Well, there’s nothing for
me here anymore. My community has been ravaged by this
conflagration. And, by your own arguments, my continued
presence here would change history."
He
shook his head. "Not significantly. You’re but one person who
is part of a tragedy that will be forgotten over the next
hundred years."
"But
even one person can make a difference. My presence here might
alter the future, and you would return to a world where you do
not exist."
"I–that is–" He paused.
"‘The
consequences could be disastrous,’" Adele said, quoting his
words back at him.
"Perhaps you are right," he said, smiling. "It would be
safer for me to take you back to the future after
all."
"Thank you."
"But
the future is a strange place, Adele. I’m not sure how well
you’ll be able to cope."
She
moved closer and gently brushed his lips with hers. Schmidt’s
eyes opened wide, but he did not turn her away.
"If I
go to the future," she asked, "will you be with
me?"
He
hesitated, then nodded. "Always."
"Then
I imagine I shall be able to cope."
"But
what will you do in the future?"
"I
thought that would be obvious. You came all the way back to my
time to ensure that the future remembered the General
Slocum. I shall go all the way forward to your time to
ensure the same."
Schmidt took her hand, and the past winked out of
existence.
But
never out of memory.