Take
a biped that’s man-shaped, enough so to use a tool, but without
intelligence.
Plant him on a world and watch him grow. Say he’s adaptable; say he
eventually
spread over most of the fertile land masses of the planet. Now what?
“Now
an actual physical change takes place. The brain expands . .
“The
Locusts” (with Steven Barnes), 1979
THE
LOCUSTS (with STEVEN BARNES)
by Larry Niven & Steve Barnes
from N-Space
There are no
men on Tau Ceti IV.
Near the
equator on the ridged ribbon of continent which reaches
north and south to cover both poles, the evidence of Man still
show& There
is the landing craft, a great thick saucer with a rounded edge~ gaping
doors
and vast empty space inside. Ragged clumps of grass and scrub
vegetation
surround its base, now. There is the small town where they lived, grew
old, and
died: tall stone houses, a main street of rock fused with atomic fire,
a good
deal of machinery whose metal is still bright. There is the land itself
overgrown but still showing the traces of a square arrangement that
once marked
it as farmland.
And there is
the fores4 reaching north and south along the
sprawling ribbon of continent, spreading even to the innumerable
islands which
form two-thirds of Ridgeback's land mass Where forest cannot grow,
because of
insufficient water or because the carefully bred bacteria have not yet
built a
sufficient depth of topsoil, there is grass, an exceptionally hardy
hybrid of
Buffalo and Cord with an abnormal number of branching roots, developing
a dense
and fertile sod.
There are
flocks of moos, resurrected from a lost New Zealand
valley. The great flightless birds roam freely, sharing their grazing
land with
expanding herds of wild cattle and buffalo.
There are
things in the forest. They prefer it there, but will
occasionally shamble out into the grasslands and sometimes even into
the town.
They themselves do not understand why they go: there is no food and
they do not
need building materials or other things which may be there for the
scavenging.
They always leave the town before nightfall arrives.
When men came
the land was as barren as a tabletop.
Doc and Elise
were among the last to leave the ship. He took his
wife's hand and walked down the ramp, eager to feel alien loam between
his
toes. He kept his shoes on. They'd have to make the loam first.
The other
colonists were exceptionally silent, as if each were
afraid to speak. Not surprising, Doc thought, The first words spoken on
Ridgeback would become history.
The robot
probes had found five habitable worlds besides
Ridgeback in Earth's neighborhood. Two held life in more or less
primitive
stages, but Ridgeback was perfect. There was one-celled life in
Ridgeback's
seas, enough to give the planet an oxygenating atmosphere; and no life
at all
on land. They would start with a clean slate.
So the
biologists had chosen what they believed was a
representative and balanced ecology. A world's life was stored in the
cargo
hold now, in frozen fertilized eggs and stored seeds and bacterial
cultures,
ready to go to work.
Doc looked
out over his new home, the faint seabreeze stinging
his eyes. He had known Ridgeback would be barren, but he had not
expected the
feel of a barren world to move him.
The sky was
bright blue, clouds shrouding Tau Ceti, a sun wider
and softer than the sun of Earth. The ocean was a deeper blue, flat and
calm.
There was no dirt. There was dust and sand and rock, but nothing a
farming man
would call dirt. There were no birds, no insects. The only sound was
that of
sand and small dust-devils dancing in the wind, a low moan almost below
the
threshold of human hearing.
Doc
remembered his college geology class' fieldtrip to the Moon.
Ridgeback wasn't dead as Luna was dead. It was more like his uncle's
face, after
the embalmers got through with him. It looked alive, but it wasn't.
Jase, the
eldest of them and the colony leader, raised his hand
and waited. When all eyes were on him he crinided his eyes happily,
saving his
biggest smile for his sister Cynnie, who was training a hobotape camera
on him.
"We're here, people," his voice boomed in the dead world's silence.
"It's good, and it's ours. Let's make the most of it."
There was a
ragged cheer and the colonists surged toward the
cargo door of the landing craft. The lander was a flattish dome now,
its heat
shield burned almost through, its Dumbo-style atomic motor buried in
dust. It
had served its purpose and would never move again. The great door
dropped and
became a ramp. Crates and machinery began to emerge on little flatbed
robot
trucks.
Elise put her
arm around her husband's waist and hugged him. She
murmured, "It's so empty."
"So far." Doc
unrolled a package of birth control
pills, and felt her flinch.
"Two years
before we can have children."
Did she mean
it as a question? "Right," be said. They
had talked it through too often, in couples and in groups, in training
and
aboard ship. "At least until Jill gets the ecology going."
"Uh huh." An
impatient noise.
Doc wondered
if she believed it. At twenty-four, tall and wiry
and with seven years of intensive training behind him, be felt
competent to
handle most emergencies. But children, and babies in particular, were a
problem
he could postpone.
He had
interned for a year at Detroit Memorial, but most of his
schooling related directly to General Colonization. His medical
experience was
no better than Elise's, his knowledge not far superior to that of a
20th
century GP. Like his shipmates, Doc was primarily a trained crewman and
colonist. His courses in world settling-"funny chemistry," water
purification, basic mine engineering, exotic factor recognition,
etc.-were
largely guesswork. There were no interstellar colonies, not yet.
And bearing
children would be an act of faith, a taking
possession of the land. Some had fought the delay bitterly. The
starship would
have been smelling of babies shortly after takeoff if they'd had their
way.
He offered
Elise a pill. "Bacteria and earthworms come
first. Men last," he said. "We're too high on the chain. We can't
overload the ecology-"
"Uh huh."
"-before
we've even got one. And look-"
She took a
six-month birth control pill and swallowed it.
So Doc didn't
say: suppose it Doesn't work out? Suppose we have
to go home? He passed out the pills and watched the women take them,
crossing
names off a list in his head.
The little
robot trucks were all over the place now. Their flat
beds were endless belts, and they followed a limited repertoire of
voiced
orders. They had the lander half unloaded already. When Doc bad
finished his
pill pushing he went to work beside Elise, unloading crates. His thirty
patients, including himself, were sickeningly healthy. As an unemployed
doctor
he'd have to do honest work until someone got ill.
He was wrong,
of course. Doc had plenty of employment. His patients
were doing manual labor in 1.07 gravities. They'd gained an average
often
pounds the moment the landing craft touched down. It threw their
coordination
and balance off, causing them to strain muscles and gash themselves.
One of the
robot trucks ran over Chris' foot. Chris didn't wince
or curse as Doc manipulated the bones, but his teeth ground silently
together.
"All done
here, Chris." Doc smiled. The meteorologist
looked at him bleakly from behind wire-rimmed glasses, eyes blinking
without
emotion. "Hey, you're a better man than I am. If I had a wound like
that,
I'd scream my head off~"
Something
only vaguely like a smile crossed Chris' lips.
"Thanks, Doc," he said, and limped out.
Remarkable
control, Doc mused. But then again, that's Chris.
A week after
landing, Ridgeback's nineteen-hour day caught up
with them. Disrupted body rhythms are no joke; adding poor sleep to the
weight
adjustment led to chronic fatigue. Doc recognized the signs quickly.
"I'm
surprised that it took this long," he said to
Elise as she tossed, sleepless.
"Why couldn't
we have done our adjusting on ship?" she
mumbled, opening a bleary eye.
"There's more
to it than just periods of light and
darkness. Every planet has its own peculiarities. You just have to get
used to
them before your sleep cycles adjust."
"Well what am
I supposed to do? Jesus, hand me the sleeping
pills, wouldja please? I just want to sleep."
"Nope. Don't
want anyone hooked on sleeping pills. We've
got the 'russian sleep' sets. You'll have one tomorrow." The "russian
sleep" headsets were much preferred over chemical sedatives. They
produced
unconsciousness with a tiny trickle of current through the brain.
"Good," Elise
yawned. "Sunset and dawn, they both
seem to come too soon."
The colony
went up fast. It was all prefabs, makeshift and
temporary, the streets cluttered with the tools, machinery and electric
cables
which nobody had put away because there was no place for them.
Gradually places
were made. Hydroponic tanks were assembled and stocked, and presently
the
colonists were back on fresh food.
Much more
gradually, the stone houses began to appear.
They blasted
their own rock from nearby cliffs with guncotton
from the prefab chemical factory. They hauled the fractured stone on
the robot
trucks, and made concrete to stick it together. There was technology to
spare,
and endless power from the atomic motor in the landing craft. They
took their
time with the houses. Prefabs would weather the
frequent warm rains for long enough. The stone houses were intended to
last
much longer. The colonists built thick walls, and left large spices so
that the
houses could be expanded when later generations saw fit.
Doc squinted
into the mirror, brushing his teeth with his usual
precise vertical movements. He jumped when he felt a splash of hot
water hit
his back. "Cut that out, Elise," he laughed.
She settled
back in her bathtub, wrinkling her nose at him.
Three years of meager showers on the ship had left her dying for a real
bathtub, where she could waste gallons of water without guilt.
"Spoilsport,"
she teased. "If you were any kind
of fun, you'd come over here and . .
"And what?"
he asked, interested.
"And rub my
back."
"And that's
supposed to be fun?"
"I was
thinking that we could rub it with you." She
grinned, seeing Doc's eyes light up. "And then maybe we could rub you
with
me . .
Later, they
toweled each other off, still tingling.
"Look!" Doc said, pulling her in front of the mirror. He studied her,
marveling. Had Elise become prettier, or was he seeing her with new
eyes? He
knew she laughed louder and more often than when they had met years ago
in
school, she the child of a wealthy family and he a scholarship student
who
dreamt of the stars. He knew that her body was more firm and alive than
it had
been in her teens. The same sun that had burnt her body nut-brown had
lightened
her reddish hair to strawberry blond. She grinned at him from the
mirror and
asked, "Do you propose to take all the credit?"
He nodded
happily. He'd always been fit, but his muscles had
been stringy, the kind that didn't show. Now they bulged, handsome
curves
filling out chest and shoulders, legs strong from lifting and moving
rock. His
skin had darkened under the probing of a warm, friendly sun. He was
sleeping
well, and so was she.
All of the
colonists were darker, more muscular, with thicker
calluses on hands and feet. Under open sky or high ceilings they walked
straighter than the men and women of Earth's cities. They talked more
boldly
and seemed to fill more space. In the cities of Earth, the ultimate
luxury had
been building space. It was beyond the means of all but the wealthiest.
Here,
there was land for the taking, and twelve foot ceilings could be built.
The
house Doc was building for Elise-almost finished now-would be as fine
as any
her father could have built for her. One that would be passed on to
their
children, and then to their grandchildren .
She seemed to
echo his thought. "One last step. I want a
bulge, right here," and she patted her flat abdomen. "Your
department."
"And Jill's.
We're up to mammals already, and we're
adjusting. I've got half the 'russian sleep' sets back in the infirmary
already."
The Orion
spacecraft was a big, obtrusive object, mace-shaped,
cruising constantly across the sky. What had been a fifth of a mile of
deuterium
snowball, the fuel supply for the starship's battery of laser-fusion
motors,
was now a thin, shiny skin, still inflated by the residue of deuterium
gas. It
was the head of the mace. The life support system, ending in motors and
shock
absorbers, formed the handle.
Roy had taken
the ground-to-orbit craft up and was aboard the
Orion now, monitoring the relay as Cynnie beamed her holotape up. It
was
lonely. Once there had been too little room; now there was too much.
The ship
still smelled of too many people crowded too close for too long. Roy
adjusted
the viewscreen and grinned back at Cynnie's toothy smile.
"This is Year
Day on Ridgeback," she said in her
smooth announcer's voice. "It was a barren world when we came. Now,
slowly, life is spreading across the land. The farming teams have spent
this
last year dredging mulch from the sea bed and boiling it to kill the
native
life. Now it grows the tame bacteria that will make our soil." The
screen
showed a sequence of action scenes: tractors plowing furrows in the
harsh dirt;
colonists glistening with sweat as they pulled boulders from the
ground; and
Jill supervising the spreading of the starter soil. Grass seed and
earthworms
were sown into the trenches, and men and machines worked together to
fold them
into the earth.
Cynnie had
mounted a camera on one of the small flyers for an
aerial view. "The soil is being spread along a ten-mile strip," she
said, "and grains are being planted. Later we'll have fruit trees and
shade trees, bamboo and animal feed."
It was good,
Roy thought, watching. It was smooth. Getting it
all had been rough enough. Before they were finished the colonists had
become
damn sick of Roy and Cynnie poking their cameras into their every
activity.
That sign above the auditorium toilet: Smile! Roy Is Watching!
He'd tried to
tell them. "Don't you know who it is that
builds starships? It's taxpayers, that's who! And they've got to get
something
for their money. Sure we're putting on a show for them. if we don't,
when
election time comes around they may ask for a refund."
Oh, they
probably believed him. But the sign was still up.
Roy watched
Cynnie interview Jase and Brew in the fields;
watched Angie and Chris constructing the animal pens. Jill thawed some
of the
fertilized goat eggs and a tape was shown of the wriggling embryos.
"At first,"
Cynnie reminisced, "Ridgeback was
daunting. There was no sound: no crickets, no birdsongs, but no roar of
traffic
either. By day, the sky is Earthlike enough, but by night the
constellations
are brighter. It's impossible to forget how far from home we are-we
can't even
see Sol, invisible somewhere in the northern hemisphere. It's hard to
forget
that no help of any kind could come in much less than twenty-five
years. It
would take five years just to refuel the ship. It takes fourteen years
to make
the trip, although thanks to relativity it was only three years 'ship
time.'
"Yes, we are
alone." The image of Cynnie's sober face
segued to the town hail, a geodesic dome of metal tubing sprayed with
plastic.
"But it is heartening that we have found, in each other, the makings of
a
community. We come together for midday meal, discussions, songfests and
group
worship services."
Cynnie's face
was calm now, comforting. "We have no crime,
and no unemployment. We're much too busy for marital squabbles or
political
infighting." She grinned, and the sparkle of her personality brought
pleasure to Roy's analytical mind. "In fact, I have work to do myself~
So,
until next year, this is Cynnie Mitchell on Ridgeback, signing off."
A year and a
half after landing, a number of animals were out of
incubation with a loss of less than two percent. The mammals drank
synthetic
milk now, but soon they would be milling in their pens, eating
Ridgeback grass
and adding their own rich wastes to the cooking compost heaps.
Friday night
was community night at the town hail.
From the
inside the ribs of the dome were still visible through
the sprayed plastic walls, and some of the decorations were less than
stylish,
but it was a warm place, a friendly, relaxing place where the common
bond
between the Ridgebackers was strengthened.
Jill,
especially, seemed to love the stage, and took every
opportunity to mount it, almost vibrating with her infectious energy.
"Everything's
right on schedule," she said happily.
"The fruit flies are breeding like mad." (Booo!) "And if! hear
that again I'm gonna break out the mosquitoes. Gang, there are things
we can
live without, but we don't know what they are yet. Chances are we'll be
raising
the sharks sooner or later. We've been lucky so far. Really lucky." She
cleared her throat dramatically. "And speaking of luck, we have Chris
with
some good news for the farmers, and bad news for the sunbathers. Chris?"
There was
scattered applause, most vigorously from Chris' tiny
wife
Angie. He
walked to the lectern and adjusted the microphone
before speaking.
"We, uh," he
took off his glasses, polishing them on
his shirt, then replaced them, smiling nervously. "We've been having
good
weather, people, but there's a storm front moving over the mountains. I
think
Greg can postpone the irrigation canals for a week, we're going to get
plenty
wet."
He coughed,
and moved the microphone close to his mouth.
"June and I are working to program the atmospheric model into the
computer. Until we do, weather changes will keep catching us unaware.
We have
to break down a fairly complex set of thermo and barometric dynamics
into
something that can be dealt with systematically-wind speed, humidity,
vertical
motion, friction, pressure gradients, and a lot of other factors still
have to
be fed in, but we're making progress. Maybe next year we'll be able to
tell you
how to dress for the tenth anniversary of Landing Day."
There were
derisive snorts and laughter, and Chris was applauded
back into his seat.
Jase bounded
onto the stage and grabbed the mike. "Any more
announcements? No? AU right, then, we all voted on tonight's movie, so
no
groans, please. Lights?"
The
auditorium dimmed. He slipped from the stage and the twin
beams of the holo projector flickered onto the screen.
It was a war
movie, shot in flatfilm but optically reconstructed
to simulate depth. Doc found it boring. He slipped out during a barrage
of
cannon fire. He headed to the lab and found Jill there already, using
one of
the small microscopes.
"Hi hon," he
called out, flipping on his desk light.
"Working late?"
"Well, I'm
maybe just a wee bit more bugged than I let on.
Just a little."
"About what?"
"I keep
thinking that one day we'll find out that we left
something out of our tame ecology. It's just a feeling, but it won't go
away."
"Like going
on vacation," Doc said, deliberately
flippant. "You know you forgot something. You'd just rather it was your
toothbrush and not your passport."
She smeared a
cover glass over a drop of fluid on a slide and
set it to dry. "Yes, it feels like that."
"Do you
really have mosquitoes in storage?"
She twinkled
and nodded. "Yep. Hornets too."
"Just how
good is it going? You know how impatient everyone
is."
"No real
problems. There sure as hell might have been, but
thanks to my superior planning" she stuck out her tongue at Doc's
grimace.
"We'll have food for ourselves and all the children we can raise. I've
been getting a little impatient myself, you know? As if there's a part
of me
that isn't functioning at full efficiency."
Doc laughed.
"Then I think you'd better tell Greg."
"I'll do
better. I'll announce it tonight and let all the
fathers-to-be catch the tidings in one shot."
"Oh boy."
"What?"
"No, it has
to be done that way. I know it. I'm just
thinking about nine months from now. Oh boy."
So it was
announced that evening. As Doc might have expected,
someone had already cheated. Somehow Nat, the midwestern earthmother
blond, had
taken a contraceptive pill and, even with Doc watching, had avoided
swallowing
it. Doc was fairly sure that her husband Brew knew nothing of it,
although she
was already more than four months along when she confessed.
Nat had
jumped the gun, and there wasn't a woman on Ridgeback
who didn't envy her. A year and eleven months after Landing Day, Doc
delivered
Ridgeback's first baby.
Sleepy,
exhausted by her hours of labor, Nat looked at her baby
with a pride that was only half maternal. Her face was flushed, yellow
hair
tangled in mats with perspiration and fatigue. She held her baby,
swaddled in
blankets, at her side. "I can hear them outside. What do they want?"
she asked drowsily, fighting to keep her eyelids open.
Doc breathed
deeply. Ridiculous, but the scentless air of
Ridgeback seemed a little sweeter. "They're waiting for a glimpse of
the
little crown princess."
"Well, she's
staying here. Tell them she's beautiful,"
Ridgeback's first mother whispered, and dropped off to sleep.
Doc washed
his hands and dried them on a towel. He stood above
the slumbering pair, considering. Then he gently pried the baby from
her
mother's grip and took her in his arms. Half-conscious mother's wish or
no, the
infant must be shown to the colony before they could rest. Especially
Brew. He
could see the Swede's great broad hands knotting into nervous fists as
he
waited outside. And the rest of them in a half-crescent around the
door; and
the inevitable Cynnie and Roy with their holotape cameras.
"It's a
girl," he told them. "Nat's resting
comfortably." The baby was red as a tomato and looked as fragile as
Venetian glass. She and Doc posed for the camera, then Doc left her
with Brew
to make a short speech.
Elise and
Greg, Jill's husband, had both had paramedic training.
Doc set up a rotating eight-hour schedule for the three of them,
starting with
Elise. The group outside was breaking up as he left, but he managed to
catch
Jase.
"I'd like to
be taken off work duties for a while," he
told the colony leader, when the two were alone.
Jase gripped
his arm. "Something's wrong with the
baby?" There was a volume of concern in the question.
"I doubt it,
but she is the first, and I want to watch her
and Nat. Most of the women are pregnant now. I want to keep an eye on
them,
too."
"You're not
worried about anything specific?"
When Elise
left her shift at the maternity ward, she found him
staring at the stone ceiling. She asked, "Insomnia again? Shall I get a
'russian sleep' set?"
She studied
his face. "The baby?"
She'd seen it
too, then. "You just left the baby. She's
fine, isn't she?"
"They're both
fine. Sleeping. Harry?" She was the only
one who called him that. "What is it?"
"No,
nothing's bothering me. You know everything I know.
It's just that . .
"Well?"
"It's just
that I want to do everything right. This is so
important. So I keep checking back on myself, because there's no one I
can call
in to check my work. Can you understand what I'm getting at?"
She pursed
her lips. Then said, "I know that the only baby
in the world could get a lot more attention than she needs. There
shouldn't be
too many people around her, and they should all be smiling. That's
important to
a baby."
Doc watched
as she took off her clothes and got into bed. The
slight swell of her pregnancy was just beginning to show. Within six
months
there would be nine more children on Ridgeback, and one would be theirs.
Predictably,
Brew's and Nat's daughter became Eve.
It seemed
nobody but Doc had noticed anything odd about Eve.
Even laymen know better than to expect a newborn child to be pretty. A
baby
Doesn't begin to look like a baby until it is weeks old. The cherubs of
the
Renaissance paintings of Foucquet or Conegliano were taken from two
year-olds.
Naturally Eve looked odd, and most of the colony, who had never seen
newborn
children, took it in their stride. . .
But Doc
worried.
The ship's
library was a world's library. It was more
comprehensive, and held more microfilm and holographically encoded
information
than any single library on earth. Doc spent weeks running through
medical
tapes, and got no satisfaction thereby.
Eve wasn't
sick. She was a "good baby"; she gave no
more trouble than usual, and no less. Nat had no difficulty nursing
her, which
was good, as there were no adult cows available on Ridgeback.
Doc pulled a
microfisch chip out of the viewer and yawned
irritably. The last few weeks had cost him his adjustment to Ridgeback
time,
and gained him . . . well, a kind of general education in pediatrics.
There was
nothing specific to look for, no handle on the problem.
Bluntly put,
Eve was an ugly baby.
There was
nothing more to say, and nothing to do but wait.
Roy and
Cynnie showed their tapes for the year. Cynnie had a
good eye for detail. Until he watched the camera view trucking from the
landing
craft past the line of houses on Main Street, to Brew, to a closeup of
Brew's
house, Doc had never noticed how Brew's house reflected Brew himself.
It was
designed like the others: tall and squarish, with a sloped roof and
small
window. But the stones in Brew's house were twice the size of those in
Doc's
house. Brew was proud of his strength.
Roy was in
orbit on Year Day, but Cynnie stayed to cover the
festivities, such as they were. Earth's hypothetical eager audience
staff
hadn't seen Year Day One. Jase spoke for the camera, comparing the
celebration
with the first Thanksgiving Day in New England. He was right: it was a
feast, a
display of the variety of foods Ridgeback was now producing, and not
much more
than that.
His wife June
sang a nondenominational hymn, and they all
followed along, each in his own key. Nat fed Eve a bit of corncake and
fruit
juice, and the colonists applauded Eve's gurgling smile.
The folks
back on Earth might not have thought it very exciting,
but to the Ridgebackers it meant everything. This was food they had
grown
themselves. All of them had bruises or blisters or calluses from
weeding or
harvesting. They were more than a community now, they were a world, and
the
fresh fruit and vegetables, and the hot breads, tasted better than
anything
they could have imagined.
Six months
after the birth of Eve, Doc was sure. There was a
problem.
The children
of Ridgeback totaled seven. Two of the women had
miscarried, fewer than he might have feared, and without complications.
Jill
was still carrying hers, and Doc was beginning to wonder; but it wasn't
serious
yet. Jill was big and strong with wide hips and a deep bust. Even now
Greg was
hard put to keep her from commandeering one of the little flyers and
jouncing
off to the coastline to check the soil, or inland to supervise the
fresh water
fish preserve. Give her another week .
The night
Elise had delivered their child, it had been special.
She had had a dry birth, with the water sack rupturing too early, and
Doc had
had to use a lubrication device. Elise was conscious during the entire
delivery, eschewing painkillers for the total experience of her first
birth.
She delivered safely, for which Doc had given silent thanks. His nerves
were
scraped to super-sensitivity, and he found himself just sitting and
holding her
hand, whispering affection and encouragement to her, while Greg did
much of the
work. With Elise's approval he named their son Gerald, shortened to
Jerry.
Jerry was three weeks old now, healthy and squalling, with a ferocious
grip in
his tiny hands.
But even a
father's pride could not entirely hide the squarish
jawline, the eyes, the .
All the
children had it, all the six recent ones. And Eve hadn't
lost it. Doc continued his research in the microlibrary, switching from
pediatrics to genetics. He had a microscope and an electron microscope,
worth
their hundreds of thousands of dollars in transportation costs; he had
scrapings of his own flesh and Eve's and Jerry's. What he lacked was a
Nobel
Prize geneticist to stand behind his shoulder and point out what were
significant deviations as opposed to his own poor slide preparation
techniques.
He caught
Brew looking at him at mealtimes, as though trying to
raise the nerve to speak. Soon the big man would break through his
inhibitions,
Doc could see it coming. Or perhaps Nat would broach the question. Her
eldest
brother had been retarded, and Doc knew she was sensitive about it. How
long
could it be before that pain rose to the surface?
And what
would he say to them then?
It was not a
mutation. One could hardly expect the same mutation
to hit all of seven couples in the same way.
It was no
disease. The children were phenomenally healthy.
So Doc worked
late into the night, sometimes wearing a black
scowl as he retraced dead ends. He needed advice, and advice was 11.9
light
years away. Was he seeing banshees? Nobody else had noticed anything.
Naturally
not; the children all looked normal, for they all looked alike. Only
Brew
seemed disturbed. Hell, it was probably Doc that was worrying Brew,
just as it
was Doc that worried Elise. He ought to spend more time with Elise and
Jerry.
Jill lost her
baby. It was stillborn, pitiful in its frailty.
Jill turned to Greg as the dirt showered down on the cloth that covered
her
child, biting her lip savagely, trying to stop the tears. She and her
husband
held each other for a long moment, then, with the rest of the
colonists, they
walked back to the dwellings.
The colonists
had voted early, and unanimously, to give up
coffins on Ridgebaek. Humans who died here would give their bodies to
the
conquest of the planet. Doc wondered if a coffin would have made this
ceremony
easier, more comforting in its tradition. Probably not, he thought.
Dead is
dead.
Doc went home
with Elise. He'd been spending more time there
lately, and less time with the microscopes. Jerry was crawling now, and
he
crawled everywhere; you had to watch him like a hawk. He could pick his
parents
unerringly out of a crowd of adults, and he would scamper across the
floor,
cooing, his eyes alight. . . his deepset brown eyes.
It was a week
later that Jase came to him. After eight hours of
labor June had finally released her burden. For a newborn infant the
body was
big and strong, though in any normal context he was a fragile, precious
thing.
As father, Jase was entitled to see him first. He looked down at his
son and
said, "He's just like the others." His eyes and his voice were
hollow, and at that moment Doc could no longer see the jovial colony
leader who
called squaredanees at the weekly hoedown.
"Of course he
is."
"Look, don't
con me, Doc. I was eight when Cynnie was born.
She didn't look like any of them. And she never looked like Eve."
"Don't you
think that's for me to say?"
"Yes. And
damned quick!"
Doc rubbed
his jaw, considering. If he was honest with himself
he had to admit he ached to talk to somebody. "Let's make it tomorrow.
In
the ship's library."
Jase's strong
hand gripped his arm. "Now."
"Tomorrow,
Jase. I've got a lot to say, and there are
things in the library you ought to see."
"Here," he
said, dialing swiftly. A page appeared on
the screen, three-quarters illustration, and one-quarter print to
explain it.
"Notice the head? And the hands. Eve's fingers are longer than that.
Her
forehead slopes more. But look at these." He conjured up a series of
growth states paired with silhouettes of bone structure.
"She's
maturing much faster than normal."
"At first I
didn't think anything about the head. Any
infant's head is distorted during passage from the uterus. It goes back
to
normal if the birth wasn't difficult. And you can't tell much from the
features; all babies look pretty much alike. But the hands and arms
bothered
me."
"And now?"
"See for
yourself Her face is too big and her skull is too
small and too flat. And I don't like the jaw, or the thin lips." Doc
rubbed his eyes wearily. "And there's the hair. That much hair isn't
unheard of at that age, but taken with everything else . . . you can
see why I
was worried."
"And all the
kids look just like her. Even Jase
Junior."
"Even Jerry.
And Jill's stillbirth."
In the ship's
library there was a silence as of mourning.
Jase said,
"We'll have to tell Earth. The colony is a
failure."
Doc shook his
head. "We'd better see how it develops
first."
"We can't
have normal children, Doc."
"I'm not
ready to give up, Jase. And if it's true, we can't
go back to Earth, either."
"What? Why?"
"This thing
isn't a mutation. Not in us, it can't be. What
it could be is a virus replacing some of the genes. A virus is a lot
like a
free-floating chromosome anyway. If we've got a disease that keeps us
from
having normal children-"
"That's
stupid. A virus here, waiting for us, where there's
nothing for it to live on but plankton? You-"
"No, no, no.
It had to come with us. Something like the
common cold could have mutated aboard ship. There was enough radiation
outside
the shielding. Someone sneezes in the airlock before he puts his helmet
on. A
year later someone else inhales the mutant."
Jase thought
it through. "We can't take it back to
Earth."
"Right. So
what's the hurry? It'd be twenty-four years
before they could answer a cry for help. Let's take our time and find
out what
we've really got."
"Doc, in
God's name, what can we tell the others?"
"Nothing yet.
When the time comes I'll tell them."
Those few
months were a busy time for Ridgeback's doctor. Then
they were over. The children were growing, and most of the women were
pregnant,
including Angie and Jill, who had both had miscarriages. Never again
would all
the women of Ridgeback be having children in one ear shattering
population
explosion.
Now there was
little work for Doc. He spoke to Jase, who put him
on the labor routines. Most of the work was agricultural, with the
heavy jobs
handled by machines. Robot trucks, trailing plows, scored rectangular
patterns
across the land.
The fenced
bay was rich in Earthborn plankton, and now there
were larger forms to eat the plankton. Occasionally Greg opened the
filter to
let discolored water spread out into the world, contaminating the ocean.
At night the
colonists watched news from Earth, 11.9 years in
transit, and up to a year older before Roy boarded the starship to beam
it
down. They strung the program out over the year in hour segments to
make it
last longer. There were no wars in progress, to speak of; the Procyon
colony
project had been abandoned; Macrostructures Inc. was still trying to
build an
interstellar ramjet. It all seemed very distant.
Jase came
whistling into Doc's lab, but backed out swiftly when
he saw that he had interrupted a counseling session with Cynnie and
Roy. Doc
was the closest thing the colony had to a marriage therapist. Jase
waited
outside until the pair had left, then trotted in.
"Rough day?"
"Yeah. Jase,
Roy and Cynnie don't fight, do they?"
"They never
did. They're like twins. Married people do get
to be like each other, but those two overdo it sometimes."
"I knew it.
There's something wrong, but it's not between
them." Doc rubbed his eyes on his sleeve. "They were sounding me out,
trying to get me talking about the children without admitting they're
scared.
Anyway what's up?"
Jase brought
his hands from behind his back. He had two bamboo
poles rigged for fishing. "What say we exercise our manly prerogatives?"
"Ye gods! In
our private spawning ground?"
"Why not?
It's big enough. There are enough fish. And we
can't let the surplus go; they'd starve. It's a big ocean."
By now the
cultivated strip of topsoil led tens of miles north
and south along the continent. Jill claimed that life would spread
faster that
way, outward from the edges of the strip. The colony was raising its
own
chicken eggs and fruit and vegetables. On Landing Day they'd been the
first in
generations to taste moa meat, whose rich flavor had come that close to
making
the New Zealand bird extinct. Why shouldn't they catch their own fish?
They made a
full weekend of it. They hauled a prefab with them
on the flyer and set it up on the barren shore. For three days they
fished with
the springy bamboo poles. The fish were eager and trusting. They ate
some of
their catch, and stored the rest for later.
On the last
day Jase said, "I kept waiting to see you lose
some of that uptight look. You finally have, a little, I think."
"Yeah. I'm
glad this happened, Jase."
"Okay. What
about the children?"
He didn't
need to elaborate. Doc said, "They'll never be
normal."
"Then what
are they?"
"I dunno. How
do you tell people who came twelve light
years to build a world that their heirs will be . . ." he groped for
words. "Whatever. Changed. Animals."
"Christ. What
a mess."
"Give me time
to tell Elise. . . if she hasn't guessed by
now. Maybe she has."
"How long?"
"A week,
maybe. Give us time to be off with Jerry. Might
make it easier if we're with him."
"Or harder."
"Yeah,
there's that." He cast his line out again.
"Anyway, she'll keep the secret, and she'd never forgive me if I didn't
tell her first. And you'd better tell June the night before I make the
big
announcement." The words seemed to catch in his throat and he hung his
head, miserable.
Tentatively
Jase said, "It's absolutely nobody's
fault."
"Oh, sure. I
was just thinking about the last really big
announcement I helped to make. Years ago. Seems funny now, Doesn't it?
'It's
safe, people. You can start dreaming now. Go ahead and have those
babies,
folks. It's all right . . ." His voice trailed off and he looked to
Jase
in guilty confusion. "What could I do, Jase? It's like thalidomide. In
the
beginning, it all looked so wonderful."
Jase was
silent, listening to the sound of water lapping against
the boat. "I just hate to tell Earth, that's all," he finally said in
a low voice. "It'll be like giving up. Even if we solve this thing,
they'd
never risk sending another ship."
"But we've
got to warn them."
"Doc, what's
happening to us?"
"I don't
know."
"How hard
have you-no, never mind." Jase pulled his
line in, baited it and sent it whipping out again. Long silences are in
order
when men talk and fish.
"Jase, I'd
give anything I have to know the answer. Some of
the genes look different in the electron microscope. Maybe. Hell, it's
all
really too fuzzy to tell, and I don't really know what it means anyway.
None of
my training anticipated anything like this. You try to think of
something."
"Alien
invasion."
Pause. "Oh,
really?"
Jase's line
jumped. He wrestled in a deep sea bass and freed the
hook. He said, "It's the safest, most painless kind of invasion. They
find
a world they want, but there's an intelligent species in control. So
they
design a virus that will keep us from bearing intelligent children.
After we're
gone they move in at their leisure. If they like they can use a
countervirus,
so the children can bear human beings again for slaves."
The bamboo
pole seemed dead in Doc's hands. He said,
"That's uglier than anything I've thought of."
"Well?"
"Could be.
Insufficient data. If it's true, it's all the
more reason to warn Earth. But Ridgeback is doomed."
Jerry had his
mother's hair, sunbleached auburn. He had too much
of it. On his narrow forehead it merged with his brows . . . his shelf
of brow,
and the brown eyes watching from way back. He hardly needed the shorts
he was
wearing; the hair would have been almost enough. He was nearly three.
He seemed to
sense something wrong between his parents. He would
spend some minutes scampering through the grove of sapling fruit trees,
agile
as a child twice his age; then suddenly return to take their hands and
try to
tug them both into action.
Doc thought
of the frozen fertilized eggs of dogs in storage.
Jerry with a dog . . . the thought was repulsive. Why? Shouldn't a
child have a
dog?
"Well, of
course I guessed something" Elise said
bitterly. "You were always in the library. When you were home, the way
that you looked at Jerry . . . and me, come to think of it. I see now
why you
haven't taken me to bed much lately." She'd been avoiding his eyes, but
now she looked full at him. "I do see. But, Harry, couldn't you have
asked
me for help? I have some medical knowledge, and, and I'm your wife, and
Jerry's
mother, damn it Harry!"
"Would you
believe I didn't want you worrying?"
"Oh, really?
How did it work?"
Her sarcasm
cut deep. Bleeding, he said, "Nothing
worked."
Jerry came
out of the trees at a tottering run. Doc stood up,
caught him, swung him around, chased him through the trees . . . caine
back
puffing, smiling, holding his hand. He almost lost the smile, but Elise
was
smiling back, with some effort. She hugged Jerry, then pulled fried
chicken
from the picnic basket and offered it around.
She said,
"That alien invasion idea is stupid."
"Granted.
It'd be easy to think someone has 'done' it to
us."
"Haven't you
found anything? Isn't there anything I can
help with?"
"I've found a
lot. All the kids have a lower body
temperature, two point seven degrees. They're healthy as horses, but
hell, who
would they catch measles from? Their brain capacity is too small, and
not much
of it is frontal lobe. They're hard to toilet train and they should
have
started babbling, at least, long ago. What counts is the brain, of
course."
Elise took
one of Jerry's small hands. Jerry crawled into her
lap and she rocked him. "His hands are okay. Human. His eyes . . . are
brown, like yours. His cheekbones are like yours, too. High and a
little
rounded."
Doc tried to
smile. "His eyes look a little strange.
They're not really slanted enough to suspect mongolism, but I'll bet
there's a
gene change. But where do I go from there? I can see differences, and
they're
even consistent, but there's no precedent for the analysis equipment to
extrapolate from." Doc looked disgusted. Elise touched his cheek,
understanding.
"Can you
teach me to use an electron microscope?"
Doc sat at
the computer console, watching over Jill's shoulder
as she brought out the Orion vehicle's image of Ridgeback. The
interstellar
spacecraft doubled as a weather eye, and the picture, once drab with
browns and
grays, now showed strips of green beneath the fragmented cloud cover.
If
Ridgeback was dead, it certainly didn't show on the screen.
"Well, we've
done a fair old job." Jill grinned and
took off her headset. Her puffy natural had collected dust and seeds
and
vegetable fluff until she gave up and shaved it off. The tightly curled
mat
just covered her scalp now, framing her chocolate cameo features. "The
cultivated strip has spread like weeds. All along the continent now I
get
CO2-oxygen exchange. It jumped the ridges last year, and now I get
readings on
the western side."
"Are you
happy?"
"No," she
said slowly. "I've done my job. Is it
too much to want a child too? I wouldn't care about the . . . problem.
I just
want . .
"It's
nobody's fault," Doc said helplessly.
"I know, I
know. But two miscarriages. Couldn't they have
known back on Earth? Wasn't there any way to be sure? Why did I have to
come
all this way . . ." She caught herself and smiled thinly. "I guess I
should count my blessings. I'm better off than poor Angie."
"Poor Angie,"
Doc echoed sadly. How could they have
known about Chris? The night Doc announced his conclusions about the
children,
there had been tears and harsh words, but no violence. But then there
was
Chris.
Chris, who
had wanted a child more than any of them could have
known. Who had suffered silently through Angie's first miscarriage, who
hoped
and prayed for the safe delivery of their second effort.
It had been
an easy birth.
And the
morning after Doc's speech, the three of them, Chris,
Angie and the baby, were found in the quiet of their stone house, the
life
still ebbing from Chris' eyes and the gaps in his wrists.
"I'm sorry,"
he said over and over, shaking his head
as if he were cold, his watery brown eyes dulling. "I just couldn't
take
it. I just . . . I just . . ." and he died. The three of them were
buried
in the cemetery outside of town, without coffins.
The town was
different after the deaths, a stifling quiet
hanging in the streets. Few colonists ate at the communal meals,
choosing to
take their suppers at home.
In an effort
to bring everyone together, Jase encouraged them to
come to town hall for Movie Night.
The film was
"The Sound of Music." The screen erupted
with sound and color, dazzling green Alps and snow-crested mountains,
happy
song and the smiling faces of normal, healthy children.
Half the
colonists walked out.
Most of the
women took contraceptives now, except those who
chose not to tamper with their estrogen balance. For these, Doc
performed
painless menstrual extractions bimonthly.
Nat and Elise
insisted on having more children. Maybe the
problem only affected the firstborn, they argued. Doc fought the idea
at first.
He found himself combatting Brew's sullen withdrawal, Nat's frantic
insistence,
and a core of hot anger in his own wife.
Earth could
find a cure. It was possible. Then their
grandchildren would be normal again, the heirs to a world.
He gave in.
But all the
children were the same. In the end, Nat alone had
not given up. She had borne five children, and was carrying her sixth.
The message
of failure was halfway to Earth, but any reply was
still nineteen years away. Doc had adapted the habit of talking things
over
with Jase, hoping that he would catch some glimpse of a solution.
"I still
think it's a disease," he told Jase, who had
heard that before, but didn't mention it. The bay was quiet and their
lines
were still. They talked only during fishing trips. They didn't want the
rest of
the colony brooding any more than they already were. "A mutant virus.
But
I've been wondering, could the changes have screwed us up? A shorter
day, a
longer year, a little heavier gravity. Different air mixture. No common
cold,
no mosquito bites; even that could be the key."
On a night
like this, in air this clear, you could even see
starglades casting streaks across the water. A fish jumped far across
the bay,
and phosphorescence lit that patch of water for a moment. The Orion
vehicle,
mace-shaped, rose out of the west, past the blaze of the Pleiades. Roy
would be
rendezvousing with it now, preparing for tomorrow's Year Day
celebration.
Jase seemed
to need these trips even more than Doc. After the
murders the life seemed to have gone out of him, only flashes of his
personality coming through at tranquil times like these. He asked, "Are
you going to have Jill breed mosquitoes?"
Yes."
"I think
you're reaching. Weren't you looking at the genes
in the cytoplasm?"
"Yeah.
Elise's idea, and it was a good one. I'd forgotten
there were genes outside the cell nucleus. They control the big things,
you
know: not the shape of your fingers, but how many you get, and where.
But
they're hard to find, Jase. And maybe we found some differences between
our
genes and the children's, but even the computer Doesn't know what the
difference means."
"Mosquitoes."
Jase shook his head. "We know
there's a fish down that way. Shall we go after him?"
"We've got
enough. Have to be home by morning. Year
Day."
"What exactly
are we celebrating this time?"
"Hell, you're
the mayor. You think of something." Doc
sulked, watching the water ripple around his float. "Jase, we can't
give
up-"
Jase's face
was slack with horror, eyes east up to the sky. Doc
followed his gaze, to where a flaring light blossomed behind the Orion
spacecraft.
"Oh my God,"
Jase rasped, "Roy's up there."
Throwing his
bamboo pole in the water, Jase started the engine
and raced for shore.
Doc studied
the readouts carefully. "Mother of God,"
he whispered. "How many engines did he fire?"
"Six." Jill's
eyes were glued to the screen, her voice
flat. "If he was aboard, he . . . well, there isn't much chance he
survived the acceleration. Most of the equipment up there must be junk
now."
"But what if
he did survive? Is there a chance?"
"I don't
know. Roy was getting set to beam the messages
down, but
saidthat he
had an alarm to handle first. He went away for a
while, and ." she seemed to search for words. She whispered,
"Boom."
"If he was
outside the ship, in one of the little rocket
sleds, he could
get to the
shuttle vehicle."
Jase walked
heavily into the lab.
"What about
Cynnie? What did she say?" Doc asked
quickly.
Jase's face
was blank of emotion. "She talked to him before
the accident."
"And?"
"It's all she
would say. I'm afraid she took it pretty bad.
This was sort of the final straw." His eyes were hollow as he
reminisced.
"She was always a brave kid, you know? Anything I could do, she'd be
right
behind me, measuring up to big brother. There's just a limit, that's
all.
There's just a limit."
Doc's voice
was firm, only a slight edge of unease breaking
through his control. "I think we had better face it. Roy is dead. The
Orion's ruined, and the shuttle-craft is gone anyway."
"He could be
alive . . ." Jifi ventured.
Doc tried to
take the sting out of his voice, and was not
entirely successful. "Where? On the ship, crushed to a paste? Not on
the
shuttle. It's tumbling further from the Orion every second. There's no
one on
it. In one of the rocket sleds?" His face softened, and they could see
that
he was afraid to have hope. "Yes. Maybe that. Maybe on one of the
sleds."
They nodded
to each other, and they and the other colonists
spent long hours on the telescope hoping, and praying.
But there was
nothing alive up there now. Ridgeback was entirely
alone.
Cynnie never
recovered. She would talk only to her brother,
refusing even to see her child. She was morose and ate little, spending
most of
her time watching the sky with something like terrified awe in her eyes.
And one day,
seven months after the accident, she walked into
the woods and never returned.
Doc hadn't
seen Jerry for three weeks.
The children
lived in a community complex which had some of the
aspects of a boarding school. The colonists took turns at nursing duty.
Jill
spent most of her time there since she and Greg were on the outs.
Lately,
Elise had
taken up the habit too. Not that he blamed her; he
couldn't have been very good company the last few months.
Parents took
their children out to the T-shaped complex whenever
they felt like it, so that some of the children had more freedom than
others.
But by and large they all were expected to live there eventually.
Brew was
coming out of the woods with a group of six children
when Doc stumbled out into the sunlight and saw Jerry.
He wore a
rough pair of coveralls that fit him well enough, but
he would have looked ludicrous if there had been anything to laugh
about. Soft
brown fur covered every inch of him. As Doc appeared he turned his head
with a
bird-quick movement, saw his father, and scampered over. Jerry bounced
into
him, wrapped long arms tight about his rib cage and said, eagerly,
"Daddy."
There was a
slight pause.
"Hello,
Jerry." Doc slowly bent to the ground, looking
into his son's eyes.
"Daddy Doc,
Daddy Doc," he chattered, smiling up at
his father. His vocabulary was about fifteen words. Jerry was six years
old and
much too big for his age. His fingers were very long and strong, but
his thumbs
were small and short and inconsequential. Doc had seen him handle
silverware
without much trouble. His nose pugged, jaw massive with a receding
chin. There
were white markings in the fur around his eyes, accentuating the heavy
supraorbital ridges, making the poor child look like- The poor child.
Doc
snorted with self-contempt. Listen to me. Why not my child?
Because I'm
ashamed. Because we lock our children away to ease
the pain. Because they look like- Doc gently disengaged Jerry's fingers
from
his shirt, turned and half-ran back to the ship. Shivering, he curled
up on one
of the cots and cursed himself to sleep.
Hours later
he roused himself and, woozy with fatigue, he went
looking for Jase. He found him on a work detail in the north fields,
picking
fruit.
"I'm not
sure," he told Jase. "They're not old
enough for me to be sure. But I want your opinion."
"Show me,"
said Jase, and followed him to the library.
The picture
on the tape was an artist's rendering of
Pithecanthropus ereetus. He stood on a grassy knoll looking warily out
at the
viewer, his long-fingered hand clutching a sharp-edged throwing rock.
"I'll smack
your head," said Jase.
"I'm wrong,
then?"
"You're
calling them apes!"
"I'm not.
Read the copy. Pithecanthropus was a
small-brained Pleistocene primate, thought to be a transitional stage
between
ape and man.
You got that?
Pith is also called Java Man."
Jase glared
at the reader. "The markings are different. And
there is the fur-"
"Forget 'em.
They're nothing but guesswork. All the artist
had to go on were crumbling bones and some broken rocks."
"Broken
rocks?"
"Pith used to
break rocks in half to get an edged weapon.
It was about the extent of his tool-making ability. All we know about
what he
looked like comes from fossilized bones-very much like the skeleton of
a stoop
shouldered man with foot trouble, topped with the skull of an ape with
hydrocephalus."
"Very nice.
Will Eve's children be fish?"
"I don't
know, dammit. I don't know anything at all. Look,
Pith isn't the only candidate for missing link. Homo Habilis looked a
lot more
like us and lived about two million years ago. Kenyapithicus Africanus
resembled us less, but lived eighteen million years earlier. So I can't
say
what we've got here. God only knows what the next generation will be
like. That
depends on whether the children are moving backwards or maybe sideways.
I don't
know, Jase, I just don't know!" The last words were shrill, and Doc
punctuated them by slamming his fist against a wire window screen.
Then,
because he could think of nothing more to say, he did it again. And
again. And-
Jase caught his arm. Three knuckles were torn and bleeding. "Get some
sleep," he said, eyes sad. "I'll have them send Earth a description
of Eve the way she is now. She's oldest, and best developed. We'll send
them
all we have on her. It's all we can do."
Momentum and
the thoroughness of their training had kept them
going for eight years. Now the work of making a world slowed and
stopped.
It didn't
matter. The crops and the meat animals had no natural
enemies on Ridgeback. Life spread along the continent like a green
plague.
Already it
had touched some of the islands.
Doc was
gathering fruit in the groves. It was a shady place,
cool, quiet, and it made for a tranquil day's work. There was no set
quota. You
took home approximately a third of what you gathered. Sometimes he
worked
there, and sometimes he helped with the cattle, examining for health
and
pregnancy, or herding the animals with the nonlethal sonic stunners.
He wished
that Elise were here with him, so they could laugh
together, but that was growing infrequent now. She was growing more
involved
with the nursery, and he spent little of his time there.
Jill's voice
hailed him from the bottom of the ladder. "Hey
up there, Doc. How about a break?"
He grinned
and climbed down, hauling a sack of oranges.
"Tired of
spending the day reading, I guess," she said
lightly. She offered him an apple. He polished it on his shirt and took
a bite.
"Just needed to talk to somebody."
"Kinda
depressed?"
"Oh, I don't
know. I guess it's just getting hard to cope
with some of the problems."
"I guess
there have been a few."
Jill gave a
derisive chuckle. "I sure don't know Greg
anymore. Ever since he set up the brewery and the distillery, he
Doesn't really
want to see me at all."
"Don't take
it so hard," Doc comforted. "The
strain is showing on all of us. Half the town Docs little more than
read or
play tapes or drink. Personally, I'd like to know who smuggled the hemp
seeds
on board."
Jill laughed,
which he was glad for, then her face grew serious
again. "You know, there'd probably be more trouble if we didn't need
someone
to look after the kids." She paused, looking up at Doc. "I spend a
lot of my time there," she said unnecessarily.
"Why?" It was
the first time he'd asked. They bad left
the groves and were heading back into town along the gravel road that
Greg and
Brew and the others had built in better days.
"We . . . I
came here for a reason. To continue the human
race, to cross a new frontier, one that my children could have a part
in. Now,
now that we know that the colony is doomed, there's just no motive to
anything.
No reason. I'm surprised that there isn't more drinking, more carousing
and
foursomes and divorces and everything else. Nothing seems to matter a
whole
lot. Nothing at all."
Doc took her
by the shoulders and held her. Go on and cry, he
silently said to her. God, I'm tired.
The children
grew fast. At nine Eve reached puberty and seemed
to shoot skyward. She grew more hair. She learned more words, but not
many
more. She spent much of her time in the trees in the children's
complex. The
older girls grew almost as fast as she did, and the boys.
Every
Saturday Brew and Nat took some of the children walking.
Sometimes they climbed the foothills at the base of the continental
range;
sometimes they wandered through the woods, spending most of their
efforts keeping
the kids from disappearing into the trees.
One Saturday
they returned early, their faces frozen in anger.
Eve and Jerry were missing. At first they refused to discuss it, but
when Jase
began organizing a search party, they talked.
They'd been
ready to turn for home when Eve suddenly scampered
into the trees. Jerry gave a whoop and followed her. Nat had left the
others
with Brew while she followed after the refugees.
It proved
easy to find them, and easier still to determine what
they were doing with each other when she came upon them.
Eve looked up
at Nat, innocent eyes glazed with pleasure. Nat
trembled for a moment, horrified, then drove them both away with a
stick,
screaming filth at them.
Over Nat's
vehement objections and Brew's stony refusal to join,
Jase got his search party together and set off. They met the children
coming
home. By that time Nat had talked to the other mothers and fathers at
the
children's complex.
Jase called a
meeting. There was no way to avoid it now,
feelings were
running too
deep.
"We may as
well decide now," he told them that night.
"There's no question of the children marrying. We could train them to
mouth the words of any of our religions, but we couldn't expect them to
understand what they were saying. So the question is, shall we let the
children
reproduce?"
He faced an
embarrassed silence.
"There's no
question of their being too young. In
biological terms they aren't, or you could all go home. In our terms,
they'll
never be old enough. Anyone have anything to say?"
"Let's have
Doc's opinion," a hoarse voice called.
There was a trickle of supportive applause.
Doc rose,
feeling very heavy. "Fellow colonists . . ."
The smile he was trying on for size didn't fit his face. He let it
drop. There
was a desperate compassion in his voice. "This world will never be
habitable to mankind until we find out what went wrong here. I say let
our
children breed. Someday someone on Earth may find out how to cure what
we've
caught. Maybe he'll know how to let our descendants breed men again.
Maybe this
problem will only last a generation or two, then we'll get human babies
again.
If not, well, what have we lost? Who else is there to inherit
Ridgeback?"
"No!" The
sound was a tortured meld of hatred and
venom. That was Nat, loving mother of six, with her face a strained
mask of
frustration. "I didn't risk my life and leave my family and, and train
for
years and bleed and sweat and toil so my labor could fall to. . . to...
a bunch
of goddamned monkeys!"
Brew pulled
her back to her seat, but by now the crowd was
muttering and arguing to itself. The noise grew louder. There was
shouting. The
yelling, too, grew in intensity.
Jase shouted
over the throng. "Let's talk this out
peacefully!"
Brew was
standing, screaming at the people who disagreed with him
and Natalie. Now it was becoming a shoving match, and Brew was getting
more
furious.
Doc pushed
his way into the crowd, hoping to reach Brew and calm
him. The room was beginning to break down into tangled knots of angry,
emotionally charged people.
He grabbed
the big man's arm and tried to speak, but the Swede
turned bright baleful eyes on him and swung a heavy fist.
Doc felt pain
explode in his jaw and tasted blood. He fell to
the ground and was helped up again, Brew standing over him
challengingly.
"Stay out of our lives, Doctor," he sneered, openly now. "You've
never helped anything before. Don't try to start now."
He tried to
speak but felt the pain, and knew his jaw was
fractured. A soft hand took his arm and he turned to see Elise, big
green eyes
luminous with pity and fear. Without struggling, he allowed her to take
him to
the ship infirmary.
As they left
the auditorium he could hear the shouting and
struggling, Jase on the microphone trying to calm them, and the coldly
murderous voices that screamed for "no monkey Grandchildren."
He tried to
turn his head towards the distant sound of argument
as Elise set the bone and injected quick-healing serums. She took his
face and
kissed him softly, with more affection than she had shown in months,
and said,
"They're afraid, Harry." Then kissed him again, and led him home.
Doc raged
inwardly at his jaw that week. Its pain prevented him
from joining in the debate which now flared in every corner of the
colony.
Light images
swam across his closed eyes as the sound of fists
pounding against wood roused him from dreamless sleep. Doc threw on a
robe and
padded barefoot across the cool stone floor of his house, peering at
the front
door with distaste before opening it. Jase was there, and some of the
others,
somber and implacable in the morning's cool light.
"We've
decided, Doc," Jase said at last. Doc sensed
what was coming.
"The children
are not to breed. I'm sorry, I know how you
feel-" Doc grunted. How could Jase know how he felt when lie wasn't
sure
himself? "We're going to have to ask you to perform the sterilizations
. .
." Doc's hearing faded down to a low fuzz, and he barely heard the
words.
This is the way the world ends. .
Jase looked
at his friend, feeling the distaste between them
grow. "All right. We'll give you a week to change your mind. If not,
Elise
or Greg will have to do it." Without saying anything more they left.
Doc moped
around that morning, even though Elise swore to him
that she'd never do it. She fussed over him as they fixed breakfast in
the kitchen.
The gas stove burned methane reclaimed from waste products, the flame
giving
more heat control than the microwaves some of the others had. Normally
Doc
enjoyed scrambling eggs and woking fresh slivered vegetables into crisp
perfection, but nothing she said or did seemed to lift him out of his
mood.
He ate
lightly, then got dressed and left the house. Although
she was concerned, Elise did not follow him.
He went out
to the distillery, where Greg spent much of his time
under the sun, drunk and playing at being happy. "Would you?" The
pain still muffled Doc's words. "Would you sterilize them?"
Greg looked
at him blearily, still hung over from the previous
evening's alcoholic orgy. "You don't understand, man." There was a
stirring sound from the sheltered bedroom behind the distillery, and a
woman's
waking groan. Doc knew it wasn't Jifi. "You just don't understand."
Doc sat down,
wishing he had the nerve to ask for a drink.
"Maybe I don't. Do you?"
"No. No, I
don't. So I'll follow the herd. I'm a builder. I
build roads, and I build houses. I'll leave the moralizing to you big
brains."
Doc tried to
say something and found that no words would come.
He needed something. He needed .
"Here, Doc.
You know you want it." Greg handed him a
canister with a straw in it. "Best damn vodka in the world." He
paused, and the slur dropped from his voice. "And this is the world,
Doc.
For us. For the rest of our lives. You've just got to learn to roll
with
it." He smiled again and mixed himself an evil-looking drink.
Greg's guest
had evidently roused herself and dressed. Doc could
hear her now, singing a snatch of song as she left. He didn't want to
recognize
the voice.
"Got any
orange juice?" Doc mumbled, after sipping the
vodka.
Greg tossed
him an orange. "A real man works for his
pleasures."
Doc laughed
and took another sip of the burning fluid.
"Good lord. What is that mess you're drinking?"
"It's a Black
Samurai. Sake and soy sauce."
Doc choked.
"How can you drink that?"
"Variety, my
friend. The stimulation of the bizarre."
Doc was
silent for a long time. Senses swimming he watched the
sun climb, feeling the warmth as morning melted into afternoon. He
downed a
slug of his third screwdriver and said irritably, "You can't do it,
Greg.
If you sterilize the children, it's over."
"So what?
It's over anyway. If they wanna let a drunk slit
the pee pees of their . . . shall we say atavistic progeny? Yeah, that
sounds
nice. Well, if they want me to do it, I guess I'll have to do it." He
looked at Doc very carefully. "I do have my sense of civic duty. How
about
you, Doc?"
"I tried." He
mumbled, feeling the liquor burning his
throat, feeling the light-headedness exert its pull. "I tried. And I've
failed."
"You've
failed so far. What were your goals?"
"To keep.-"
he took a drink. Damn, that felt good.
"To keep the colony healthy. That's what. It's a disaster. We're at
each
other's throats. We kill our babies-"
Doc lowered
his head, unable to continue.
They were
both silent, then Greg said, "If I've gotta do
it, I will, Doc. If it's not me, it'll be someone else who reads a
couple of
medical texts and wants to play doctor. I'm sorry."
Doc sat,
thinking. His hands were shaking. "I can't do
that." He couldn't even feel the pain anymore.
"Then do what
you gotta do, man," and Greg's voice was
dead sober.
"Will you . .
. can you help me?" Doc bit his lip.
"This is my civic duty, you know?"
"Yea, I
know." He shook his head. "I'm sorry. I
wish I could help."
A few minutes
passed, then Doc said drunkenly, "There's got
to be a way. There just has to be."
"Wish I could
help, Doc."
"I wish you
could too," Doc said sincerely, then rose
and staggered back to his house.
It rained the
night he made his decision, one of the quick, hot
rains that swept from the coast to the mountains in a thunderclap of
fury. It
would make a perfect cover.
He gathered
his medical texts, a Bible and a few other books,
regretting that most of the information available to him was
electronically
encoded. Doc took one of the silent stunners from the armory. The non
lethal
weapons had only been used as livestock controllers. There had never
been
another need, until now. From the infirmary he took a portable medical
kit,
stocking it with extra bandages and medicine, then took it all to the
big cargo
flyer.
It was
collapsible, with a fabric fuselage held rigid by highly
compressed air in fabric structural tubing. He put it in one of the
soundless
electric trucks and inflated it behind the children's complex.
There was
plenty of room inside the fence for building and for a
huge playground with fruit trees and all the immemorial toys of the
very young.
After the children had learned to operate a latch, Brew had made a lock
for the
gate and given everyone a key. Doc clicked it open and moved in.
He stayed in
the shadows, creeping close to the main desk where
Elise worked.
You can't
follow where I must go, he thought regretfully. You
and I are the only fully trained medical personnel You must stay with
the
others~ I'm sorry, darling.
And he
stunned her to sleep silently, moving up to catch her
head as it slumped to the table. For the last time, he gently kissed
her mouth
and her closed eyes.
The children
were in the left wing-one room for each sex, with
floors all mattress and no covers, because they could not be taught to
use a
bed. He sprayed the sound waves up and down the sleeping forms. The
parabolic
reflector leaked a little, so that his arm was numb to the elbow when
he was
finished. He shook his hand, trying to get some feeling back into it,
then gave
up and settled into the hard work of carrying the children to the flyer.
He hustled
them through the warm rain, bending under their
weight but still working swiftly. Doc arranged them on the fabric floor
in
positions that looked comfortable-the positions of sleeping men rather
than
sleeping animals. For some time he stood looking down at Jerry his son
and at
Lori his daughter, thinking things he could not afterwards remember.
He flew
North. The flyer was slow and not soundless; it must
have awakened people, but he'd have some time before anyone realized
what had
happened.
Where the
forest had almost petered out he hovered down and
landed gently enough that only a slumbering moan rose from the
children. Good.
He took half of them, including Jerry and Lori, and spread them out
under the
trees. After he had made sure that they had cover from the air he took
the
other packages, the books and the medical kit, and hid them under a
bush a few
yards away from the children.
He stole one
last look at them, his heirs, small and
defenseless, asleep. He could see Elise in them, in the color of their
hair, as
Elise could see him in their eyes and cheeks.
Kneading his
shoulder, he hurried back to the ship. There was
more for him to do.
Skipping the
ship off again, he cruised thirty miles west, near
the stark ridge of mountains, their somber gray still broken only
sparsely by
patches of green. There he left the other seven children. Let the two
groups
develop separately, he thought. They wouldn't starve, and they wouldn't
die of
exposure, not with the pelts they had grown. Many would remain alive,
and free.
He hoped Jerry and Lori would be among them.
Doc lifted
the flyer off and swept it out to the ocean. Only a
quarter mile offshore were the first of the islands, lush now with
primitive
foliage. They spun beneath him, floating brownish-green upon a still
blue sea.
Now he could
feel his heartbeat, taste his fear. But there was
resolve, too, more certain and calm than any he had known in his life.
He cut speed
and locked the controls, setting the craft on a
gradual decline. Shivering already, he pulled on his life jacket and
walked to
the emergency hatch, screwing it open quickly.
The wind
whipped his face, the cutting edge of salt narrowing
his eyes. Peering against the wall of air pressure he was able to see
the
island coming up on him now, looming close. The water was only a
hundred feet
below him, now eighty, sixty .
The rumbling
of the shallow breakers joined with the tearing
wind, and, fighting his fear, he waited until the last possible moment
before
hurling himself from the doorway.
He remembered
falling.
He remembered
hitting the water at awful speed, the spray
ripping into him, the physical impact like the blow of a great hand.
When his
head broke surface Doc wheezed for air, swallowed salty liquid and
thrashed for
balance.
In the
distance, he saw the flash of light, and a moment later
heard the shattering roar as the flyer spent itself on the rocky shore.
Jase was
tired. He was often tired lately, although he still
managed to get his work done.
The fields
had only recently become unkempt, as Marlow and
Billie and Jill and the others grew more and more inclined to pick
their
vegetables from their backyard gardens.
So just he
and a few more still rode out to the fields on the
tractors, still kept close watch on the herds, still did the
hand-pruning so
necessary to keep the fruit trees healthy.
The children
were of some help. Ten years ago a few of them had
been captured around the foothill area. They had been sterilized, of
course,
and taught to weed, and carry firewood, and a few other simple tasks.
Jase leaned
on his staff and watched the shaggy figures moving
along the street, sweeping and cleaning.
He had grown
old on this world, their Ridgeback. He regretted
much that had happened here, especially that night thirty-some years
before
when Doc had taken the children.
Taken
them-where? Some argued for the islands, some for the West
side of the mountain range. Some believed that the children had died in
the
crash of the flyer. Jase had believed that, until the adult Piths were
captured. Now, it was hard to say what happened.
It was
growing chill now, the streetlights winking on to
brighten the long shadows a setting Tau Ceti cast upon the ground. He
drew his
coat tighter across his shoulders and walked back to his house. It was
a
lonelier place to be since June had died, but it was still home.
Fumbling with
the latch, he pushed the door open and reached
around for the light switch. As it flicked on, he froze.
My God.
"Hello,
Jase." The figure was tall and spare, clothes
ragged, but graying hair and beard cut squarely. Three of the children
were
with him.
After all
this time .
"Doc . . ."
Jase said, still unbelieving. "It is
you, isn't it?"
The bearded
man smiled uncertainly, showing teeth that were
white but chipped. "It's been a long time, Jase. A very long time."
The three
Piths were quiet and alert, sniffing the air of this
strange place.
"Are these-?"
"Yes. Jerry
and Lori. And Eve. And a small addition."
One of the three-God, could it be Eve? sniffed up to Jase. The soft
golden fur
on her face was tinged with gray, but she carried a young child at her
breast.
Jerry stood
tall for a preman, eyeing Jase warily. He carried a
sharpened stick in one knobby hand.
Jase sat
down, speechless. He looked up into the burning eyes of
the man he had known thirty years before. "You're still officially
under a
death sentence, you know."
Doc nodded
his head. "For kidnapping?"
"Murder. No
one was sure what had happened to you, whether
you or any of the children had survived."
Doc, too, sat
down. For the first time the light in his eyes
dimmed. "Yes. We survived. I swam to shore after crashing the flyer,
and
found the place where I had left the children." He thought for a
moment,
then asked quietly. "How is Elise? And all the others?"
Jase was
unable to raise his eyes from the floor. "She died
three years ago, Doc. She was never the same after you left. She
thought you
were dead. That the children were dead. Couldn't you have at least told
her
about your plan? Or gotten her a message?"
Doc's fingers
played absently with his beard as he shook his
head. "I couldn't involve her. I couldn't. Could you . . . show me
where
she's buried, Jase?"
"Of course."
"What about
the others?"
'Well, none
of the people were the same after the children left.
Some just seemed to lose purpose. Brew's dead. Greg drank himself
under. Four
of the others have died." Jase paused, thinking. "Do any of the
others know you're here?"
"No. I
slipped in just at dusk. I wasn't sure what kind of
a reception I'd get."
"I'm still
not sure." Jase hesitated. "Why did
you do it?"
The room was
quiet, save for a scratching sound as Jerry
fingered an ear. Fleas? Absurd. Jill had never uncrated them.
"I had to
know, Jase," he said. There was no
uncertainty in his voice. In fact, there was an imperious quality he
had never
had in the old days. "The question was: Would they breed true? Was the
Pith effect only temporary?"
"Was it?"
"No. It
persisted. I had to know if they were regressing or
evolving, and they remained the same in subsequent generations, save
for
natural selection, and there isn't much of that."
Jase watched
Lori, her stubby fingers untangling mats in her
fur. Her huge brown eyes were alive and vital. She was a lovely
creature, he
decided. "Doc, what are the children?"
"What do you
think?"
"You know
what I think. An alien species wants our worlds.
In a hundred years they'll land and take them. What they'll do with the
children is anybody's guess. I-" He couldn't bring himself to look at
Eve.
"I wish you'd sterilized them, Doc."
"Maybe you
do, Jase. But, you see, I don't believe in your
aliens."
Jase's breath
froze in his throat.
"They might
want our world," said Doc, "but why
would they want our life forms? Everything but Man is spreading like a
plague
of locusts. If someone wants Ridgeback, why haven't they done something
about
it? By the time they land, terrestrial life will have an unstoppable
foothold.
Look at all the thousands of years we've been trying to stamp out just
one life
form, the influenza viruses.
"No, I've got
another idea. Do you know what a locust
is?"
"I know what
they are. I've never seen one."
"As
individuals they're something like a short grasshopper.
As individuals, they hide or sleep in the daytime and come out at
night. In
open country you can hear them chirping after dusk, but otherwise
nobody
notices them. But they're out there, eating and breeding and breeding
and
eating, getting more numerous over a period of years, until one day
there are
too many for the environment to produce enough food.
"Then comes
the change. On Earth it hasn't happened in a
long time because they aren't allowed to get that numerous. But it used
to be
that when there were enough of them, they'd grow bigger and darker and
more
aggressive. They'd come out in the daytime. They'd eat everything in
sight, and
when all the food was gone, and when there were enough of them, they'd
suddenly
take off all at once.
"That's when
you'd get your plague of locusts. They'd drop
from the air in a cloud thick enough and broad enough to darken the
sky, and
when they landed in a farmer's field he could kiss his crops goodbye.
They'd
raze it to the soil, then take off again, leaving nothing."
Jase took off
his glasses and wiped them. "I don't see what
it is you're getting at."
"Why do they
do it? Why were locusts built that way?"
"Evolution, I
guess. After the big flight they'd be spread
over a lot of territory. I'd say they'd have a much bigger potential
food
supply."
"Right. Now
consider this. Take a biped that's man shaped,
enough so to use a tool, but without intelligence. Plant him on a world
and
watch him grow. Say he's adaptable; say he eventually spread over most
of the
fertile land masses of the planet. Now what?
"Now an
actual physical change takes place. The brain
expands. The body hair drops away. Evolution had adapted him to his
climate,
but that was when he had hair. Now he's got to use his intelligence to
keep
from freezing to death. He'll discover fire. He'll move out into areas
he
couldn't live in before. Eventually he'll cover the whole planet, and
he'll
build spacecraft and head for the stars."
Jase shook
his head. "But why would they change hoc/c
Doc?"
"Something in
the genes, maybe. Something that didn't
mutate."
"Not how,
Doc. We know it's possible. Why?"
"We're going
back to being grasshoppers. Maybe we've
reached our evolutionary peak. Natural selection stops when we start
protecting
the weak ones, instead of allowing those with defective genes to die a
natural
death."
He paused,
smiling. "I mean, look at us, Jase. You walk with
a cane now. I haven't been able to read for five years, my eyes have
weakened
so. And we were the best Earth had to offer; the best minds, the finest
bodies.
Chris only squeaked by with his glasses because he was such a damn good
meteorologist."
Jase's face
held a flash of long-forgotten pain. "And I
guess they still didn't choose carefully enough."
"No," Doc
agreed soberly. "They didn't. On Earth
we protected the sick, allowed them to breed, instead of letting them
die . . .
with pacemakers, with insulin, artificial kidneys and plastic hip
joints and
trusses. The mentally ill and retarded fought in the courts for the
right to
reproduce. Okay, it's humane. Nature isn't humane. The infirm will do
their job
by dying, and no morality or humane court rulings or medical advances
will
change the natural course of things for a long, long time."
"How long?"
"I don't know
how stable they are. It could be millions of
years, or?" Doc shrugged. "We've changed the course of our own
development. Perhaps a simpler creature is needed to colonize a world.
Something that has no choice but to change or die. Jase, remember the
Cold
War?"
"I read about
it."
"And the Belt
Embargo? Remember diseromide, and smog, and
the spray-can thing, and the day the fusion seawater distillery at San
Francisco went up and took the Bay area with it, and four states had to
have
their water flown in for a month?"
"So?"
"A dozen
times we could have wiped out all life on Earth.
As soon as we've used our intelligence to build spacecraft and seed
another
world, intelligence becomes a liability. Some old anthropologist even
had a
theory that a species needs abstract intelligence before it can prey on
its own
kind. The development of fire gave Man time to sit back and dream up
ways to
take things he hadn't earned. You know how gentle the children are, and
you can
remember how the carefully chosen citizens of Ridgeback acted the night
we
voted on the children's right to reproduce."
"So you gave
that to them, Doc. They are reproducing. And
when we're gone they'll spread all over the world. But are they human?"
Doc pondered,
wondering what to say. For many years he had
talked only to the children. The children never interrupted, never
disagreed .
"I had to know that too. Yes. They're human."
Jase looked
closely at the man he had called friend so many
years ago. Doc was so sure. He didn't discuss; he lectured. Jase felt
an
alienness in him that was deeper than the mere passage of time.
"Are you
going to stay here now?"
"I don't
know. The children don't need me any more, though
they've treated me like a god. I can't pass anything on to them. I
think our
culture has to die before theirs can grow."
Jase
fidgeted, uncomfortable. "Doc. Something I've got to
tell you. I haven't told anyone. It's thirty years now, and nobody
knows but
me."
Doc frowned.
"Go on."
"Remember the
day Roy died? Something in the Orion blew all
the motors at once? Well, he talked to Cynnie first. And she talked to
me,
before she disappeared. Doc, he got a laser message from Earth, and he
knew he
couldn't ever send it down. It would have destroyed us. So he blew the
motors."
Doc waited,
listening intently.
"It seems
that every child being born on Earth nowadays
bears an uncanny resemblance to Pithecanthropus erectus. They were
begging us
to make the Ridgeback colony work. Because Earth is doomed."
"I'm glad
nobody knew that."
Jase nodded.
"If intelligence is bad for us, it's bad for
Earth. They've fired their starships. Now they're ready for another
cycle."
"Most of
them'll die. They're too crowded."
"Some will
survive. If not there, then, thanks to you,
here." He smiled. A touch of the old Jase in his eyes. "They'll have
to become men, you know."
"Why do you
put it like that?"
"Because Jill
uncrated the wolves, to help thin out the
herds."
"They'll cull
the children, too," Doc nodded. "I
couldn't help them become men, but I think that will do it. They will
have to
band together, and find tools, and fire." His voice took on a dreamy
quality. "Eventually, the wolves will come out of the darkness to join
them at their campfires, and Man will have dogs again." He smiled. "I
hope they don't overbreed them like we did on earth. I doubt if
chihuahuas have
ever forgotten what we did to them."
"Doc," Jase
said, urgently, "will you trust me?
Will you wait for a minute while I leave? I . . . I want to try
something. If
you decide to go there may never be another chance."
Doc looked at
him, mystified. "Alright, I'll wait."
Jase limped
out of the door. Doc sat, watching his charges,
proud of their alertness and flexibility, their potential for growth in
the new
land.
There was a
creaking as the door swung open.
The woman's
hair had been blond, once. Now it was white, heavy
wrinkles around her eyes and mouth, years of hardship and
disappointment
souring what had once been beauty.
She blinked,
at first seeing only Doc.
"Hello, Nat,"
he said to her.
She frowned.
"What . . . ?" Then she saw Eve.
Their eyes
locked, and Nat would have drawn back save for Jase's
insistent hand at her back.
Eve drew
close, peering into her mother's face as if trying to
remember her.
The old woman
stuttered, then said, "Eve?" The Pith
cocked her head and came closer, touching her mother's hand. Nat pulled
it
back, eyes wide.
Eve cooed,
smiling, holding her baby out to Nat.
At first she
flinched, then looked at the child, so much like
Eve had been, so much . . . and slowly, without words or visible
emotion, she
took the child from Eve and cradled it, held it, and began to tremble.
Her hand
stretched out helplessly, and Eve came closer, took her mother's hand
and the
three of them, mother, child and grandchild, children of different
worlds, held
each other. Nat cried for the pain that had driven them apart, the love
that
had brought them together.
Doc stood at
the edge of the woods, looking back at the
colonists who waved to them, asking for a swift return.
Perhaps so.
Perhaps they could, now. Enough time had passed that
understanding was a thing to be sought rather than avoided. And he
missed the
company of his own kind.
No, he
corrected himself, the children were his kind. As he had
told Jase, without explaining, he knew that they were human. He had
tested it
the only way he could, by the only means available.
Eve walked
beside him, her hand seeking his. "Doc,"
she cooed, her birdlike singsong voice loving. He gently took their
child from
her arms, kissing it.
At over sixty
years of age, it felt odd to be a new father, but
if his lover had her way, as she usually did, his strange family might
grow
larger still.
Together, the
five of them headed into the forest, and home.
This
was an early story, and I broke my heart over it. The idea Is a good
one, but
not a happy one. I didn’t know how to handle it. Presently I tossed it
in my
file cabinet to die.
Ten
years later I met Steven Barnes at a LASFS meeting. It struck me that
he might
be able to do something with “The Locusts.”
Take
a lesson: this is the only easy way to collaborate. The effort you put
into the story is already lost. The other writer has invested no
effort, and
need not. “Can you do something with this?” “No.”
Steve
said, “Yes.”