After her helicopter broke down in a dusty little caravan town
named Dzel, Lydia Duluth rented a chool. This was a native quadruped, reminiscent of the hasa on her home world, though (thanks to this planets smaller mass
and lighter G) taller and rangier than any hasa. Instead of hooves, it had three-toed feet; and a pair of impressive
tusks curved up from its lower jaw.
"What are those for?" Lydia asked the stableman.
"Digging up roots and pulling bark off trees, also for fighting
with other males. Loper has been gelded and wont bother you with
any kind of mating behavior. Sex is a distraction," he added in
the complacent tone of one who has never been distracted. "Necessary
perhaps for evolutionwe are not ignorant; we know about Darwinbut
hardly compatible with civilization. Loper will give you no trouble.
He has been civilized."
The animal turned its long, angular, lightly scaled head, regarding
her with a bright orange eye. Not a sight that Lydia associated
with civilization, though maybe one could see the triangular pupilexpanded
at the moment, in the shadowy stableas a pyramid, emblematic
of Egypt and geometry.
"Tomorrow," she told the stableman. "At dawn."
"Loper will be ready."
She spent the rest of the afternoon wandering around Dzel. Narrow
streets ran crookedly between adobe buildings. The nativeshumanoid,
but not humandressed in brightly colored robes, which hid most
of the differences between their species and hers. One noticed
height and the long thin hands, one finger short of the human
norm. Their skin was golden brown and hairless, with a faint shimmer
produced by vestigial scales. Their eyes, visible above veils,
were all iris with round black pupils. Most of the irises were
yellow: a wonderful hue, as clear as glass or wine.
One could put an exotic romance into a setting like this or an
adventure story: Ali Khan on the trail of interstellar drug dealers
or seeking evidence of the long-vanished Master Race. Though poor
Ali was at the end of his career; a man of 110 simply did not
convince in action roles. No matter what one did with computers,
the audience knew how old he was. They knew they were not seeing
the real person; and Stellar Harvest had built its reputation
on authenticity.
Well, not her problem. She didnt plot stories or write scripts.
Instead, she recorded Dzel: the colorful inhabitants, dusty winding
streets and dark blue sky.
There were sounds to be recorded as well: bells ringing in the
wind, plaintive voices that rose and fell musically, so every
conversation seemed to be a duet or trio, and the soft thud of
chool feet, as the animals plodded past.
Her mood, somewhat edgy since the helicopters sudden failure,
gradually relaxed.
Species are stable, said the voice in her mind. Humans have not evolved in the centuries since you began to build
machines. Your nervous system is designed for an environment like
this. Thats why you find animal noises and the sound of the wind
relaxing. In a sense, this is your true home.
"Did I ask for an opinion?" said Lydia quietly, while aiming her
recorder at a street shaded by blue and red awnings. The light
beneath the awnings was alternately blue and red, colored by the
fabric it had come through. A woman in a white robe walked toward
her. What a vision! And what a location for a chase or fight!
The women, veiled and hooded, passed Lydia. Golden eyes gave a
quick considering glance. With luck, the recording would be good;
shed have this light forever, along with the womans grace and
glance.
At sunset, she returned to her inn. The helicopter pilot, a native
in blue overalls, had news. Their machine was not fixable. He
would have to stay in Dzel until a salvage truck arrived, then
ride back along the caravan road. "We are still trying to find
you another copter, missy."
"Dont bother. I rented a chool."
"Those nasty animals! Have you ridden before?"
"On my home world. We had a revolution, the kind that takes to
the hills. It failed, but I did learn riding."
Gold eyes widened, and nostrils flared. "Really, indeed! You are
a revolutionary?"
"A failed one."
"Really! We could never manage a revolution. Our unaltered males
are unable to cooperate with each other, and no altered male would
waste his time on anything so foolish."
"What about your women?"
"They are, if anything, more sensible than eunuchs. Life is short,
missy, and civilization is difficult to maintain. We have all
we can do."
"But you like Stellar Harvest."
"That is drama. Ali Khan may solve his problems by kicking other
people in the head, but our experiencehere on this planetis
that real adversaries are not so easily defeated. Of course we
dream of such solutions, the way children dream of having everything.
But one does not act on such fantasies."
True enough, said the voice in her mind.
This was the end of the real conversation. The pilot began to
discuss his favorite holoplays and stars. Ali Khan, of course.
Who could equal him, in his prime? "Though he has seemed less
convincing in recent years."
Recent years? Recent decades!
Ramona Patel was also fine, the best of the actors starring in
mythic-musical-action stories. "Not my religion, of course," the
pilot said. "But none the less inspiring, especially the large
production numbers. You humans have so many gods! And all of them
able to sing and dance!"
She genuinely liked her job and enjoyed many of the dramas made
by Stellar Harvest. None the less, fannish enthusiasm can be exhausting,
especially at the end of a long day. Lydia excused herself, pleading
fatigue, and went to her room, which was on the inns ground floor,
its windows opening onto a courtyard. Above the roof line stars
blazed, far more than she was used to. Their light was as bright
as moonlight at home. She leaned out a window. A rimmed pool stood
at the courtyards center, gleaming like a huge round coin. Maybe
she ought to get her recorder.
Instead she collected her computer and satellite dish. There were
stairs at the end of the hall, leading up to a flat roof. The
night air was cold already, the starry sky immense. Lydia unfolded
the dish and turned on the computer, typing in the address of
her contact in the capital city, a commercial rep who handled
Stellar Harvest along with a dozen other off-planet companies.
As was to be expected, she got a recorded message, accompanied
by a holo of the rep, his gold face bare. The headlong from front
to backwas covered by what looked like sleeked down, rust-red
hair. Actually, this was a crest of feathers, which could be raised,
though not in polite company.
"Thoozil Rai is not available. Please type your message for ease
in translation."
Sitting cross-legged under the stars, she input the current situation.
No point in spending six or seven days in Dzel, waiting for a
new helicopter, if one could be found. The country to the west
was safe according to local informants, and there was an interesting-sounding
city in the foothills. No trouble getting out of Basekh this time
of year. There was weekly plane service to accommodate tourists,
mostly big game hunters. She would call every other day as a precaution,
though it seemed hardly necessary.
As she typed in the last words, something howled nearby. Mother!
What a sound! Undulating, it rose into a scream that ended suddenly,
as if cut off. In the silence that followed, Lydia thought she
could still hear the cry, continuing beyond the edge of audibility.
By this time she was standing. The sound had come from ground
level. Maybe the street below her. Or the next street over. "What?"
An unaltered male, I think. There must be several in town.
A second howl answered the first. Others followed. Lydia counted:
three, four, five spreading out from the towns center to its
edges. The last cry came from the far east side of Dzel, almost
on the plain. Faint and shrill, it rose into the starry night
like a rocket. When it ended, there was silence. Apparently the
creatures didnt feel a need to rechallenge one another.
They are kept in family compounds, the voice told her. With proper care, they are not dangerous.
The computer was at her feet, still open and on. By now, her message
had been replaced by the saver, a red and blue fractal that opened
like a flower or an exotic, frilly leaf. She wiped her palmsthey
were suddenly wetknelt and sent her message, then shut down.
"Why didnt I hear that in the city?"
Unaltered males are forbidden within the city limits.
"A noise ordinance?"
There are various reasons: sanitation, safety. They agitate each
other with howling.
No kidding! There had been emotion in the cries. She knew that,
though she wasnt sure she could identify it. Anger, maybe. Anguish?
Something that made her hair go up. "I hope it doesnt happen
again."
Use earplugs.
"Cant hear the alarm go off." Cant hear monsters climbing in
the window, either. Still kneeling, she folded her dish. Hard
to imagine Thoozil Rai as a member of the same speciesthe same
sexas the creature that had produced that cry. He was like all
reps everywhere: bland, courteous, a member of the interstellar
culture of go-betweens. They never varied much. How could they?
Their job was to be uniform and predictable. Beyond them and the
port cities, one or two to a planet, was the outback, the real
planet, where Stellar Harvest liked to record.
People expected reality from Stellar Harvest; and they expected
the reality they saw to be exotic; but the story in front of this
exotic backdrop should be familiar. The companys official motto
was ad astra per aspera, which appeared at the start of every drama, inside the sickle
made of blazing stars. The motto should have been, "Be real, but
not too real."
At times, this troubled her. At other times, she thought there
was an argument for predictability and for happy endings. Lydia
went downstairs and closed the shutters on her windows.
Her computer alarm woke her at dawn. She dressed and packed her
gear into rented saddle bags. Outside, the stars were fading.
The dimmer ones were already gone; most of the rest would follow;
though a few remained visible all day. The still air was cold
and dry. She walked through the dark streets, rifle in hand, the
bags over one shoulder, thinking that the holoplays missed what
was really important: a morning like this, her body feeling light
and springy in the local G.
If something happened nowfor example, a monster leaping out of
the shadowsshe would lose this moment. Action distracts from
sensation. Sensation is life.
Loper was ready, as promised. The stableman went over his instructions
on how to guide a chool, then led the way to the town gate, Lydia following on the animal,
which wasas promisedno problem.
"Usually the gate is kept locked till full day. But I paid the
watchman, and hes a fan of Ramona Patel. What a woman! So much
authority!"
Well, that was true of Ramona, known to her associates as the
female Genghis Khan. Ali, in spite of his name, was a kitten.
The gate was open, and the watchman stood next to it. Even wrapped
in robes, she could see that he was unusually tall and broad.
"Altered late," said the stableman in a whisper. "But perfectly
safe."
She thanked both for their help. The watchman rumbled something
that she didnt understand, though she thought she heard the word,
"Patel."
"Our pleasure," said the stableman. Lydia rode out.
By full day, the town was gone from view. The plain stretched
around her, covered by a short, grass-like plant called dzai, not a monoculture but a mixture of related species, all of which
had faded in the dry midsummer, but not to the same hue. The landscape
was patterned like a carpet: silver-brown, pale red, pale yellow,
a lovely dusty silver-grey-green. The colors changed as the wind
blew past, flattening leaves or flipping them over. A chameleon-carpet,
thought Lydia, whod seen such things on her travels. Rich people
on other worlds had them, so their floors always matched their
furniture and clothing.
She traveled slowly, getting used to the chools gait and watching the plain. It could be used for something
epic, like the ancient westerns made on Earth. The huge spread
of land would swallow an army, making it look tiny, until it came
over a low rise and turned into Crazy Horse and the Lakota or
the Red Armys crack cavalry, riding ahead of Leon Trotskys armored
train.
But if you emphasized the sheer size of landscape, the way it
dwarfed humanity, then you lost its other qualities: subtlety,
variety, richness.
On most planets, prairie ecologies were second in complexity to
tropical forests; and of all ecologies they were the most vulnerable,
because they produced excellent soil, thick and full of nutrients.
Their chief protection was a mat of roots so deep and intertwined
that no primitive plow could break through. But the moment any
culture had access to good metal plows, prairies went under.
A pity, thought Lydia, coming from a world that had turned most
of its prairies into farmland. She had grown up in a place as
flat as this, divided into sections and planted with modified
versions of Earth crops. Only the dry plains remained covered
with native vegetation. Was it lack of water that had saved this
place?
We arrived before overpopulation forced them to farm everything,
and before they developed an economy based on using up natural
resources as quickly as possible.
"You intervened?"
Our arrival was an intervention. How could it not be? In addition,
we encouraged certain traits already present. They are a likable
species.
"Unlike humans?"
The voice did not reply. Lydia grinned.
Now and then she recorded something, though her recordings were
not going to give a sense of what the plain was really like. So
vast! And the sky above it even vaster, dotted with day stars,
white points of light in the deep dusty blue.
Maybe the right director could convey the space. The stars could
be enhanced. They wouldnt show otherwise. She wasnt sure how
to convey the richness in an action drama. Maybe Ali could be
a biologist. Begin with him on his hands and knees, collecting
invertebrates with exoskeletons, lovely little creatures like
the things that were whirring past her this very moment. Then,
after hes been established as a gentle fellow in love with diversity,
the bad guys arrive. Developers maybe, plotting to destroy the
prairie. Ali has to stand up and defend his bugs. She could see
him rising, shoulders back and a bug held carefully between two
cupped hands, his expression stern, his hawk-like profile held
at just the right angle against the alien sky.
This is either irony or cynicism, the voice said. I cant determine which.
"Your problem," Lydia answered. Later she asked, "Shouldnt there
be large animals?"
There are. Though this land has been left unplowed, it has been
extensively hunted, and the large animals are wary. You will see
themif you do see themat dusk or in the distance or at rivers.
They have to drink.
That was another possible story line, assuming Stellar Harvest
could find the large animals and record them: Ali against off-world
hunters.
The most common herbivore has an abnormally large head covered
with large fleshy protuberances. The eyesthe animals have twoare
tiny, and the males have four to six horns.
"Are you saying its ugly?"
That is a value judgment, but its possible that human audiences
would not think something like that was worth preserving.
"Everyone is a critic."
The voice was silent.
"You may be right. Ali should defend bugs."
Late in the afternoon, she reached a river, right where her map
said it would be. Low sprawling trees grew along the bank, reminding
her of edseh at home, though these had copper-red leaves, and edseh were blue.
I hope you are going to take precautions.
"Afraid?"
My core is almost indestructible, but my interfacing elements
can break or decay. And if you die, I lose my senses.
It would become a thin metal plate inside a skull, blind and deaf,
incapable of action, but still able to think. What a fate!
She had no interest in becoming a pile of bones, even though it
would make the AI suffer; and the plain did have predators. Lydia
set out perimeter alarms, then made sure her weapons were ready
to use. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure, a saying
that made absolutely no sense. What is an ounce? And what is a
pounding cure?
The planets primary disappeared. The quite amazing stars came
out. She ate trail food, watched her fire and went to sleep, waking
to a scream.
A perimeter alarm. Lydia rolled over, grabbing her handgun. Now
there was another sound: a bellow. The chool! She ran toward it, gun in hand.
Two creatures struggled in the starlight. One was obviously her
riding animal. The otherLydia couldnt tell. But it didnt look
friendly. If she fired, she might hit the chool. "Stop that!" she yelled. The chool reared, maybe in response to her yell, most likely not, and managed
to pull free. A moment later the chool was gone, heading for the plain. A second alarm went off as it
crossed her perimeter. Lydia stopped. The creature, whatever it
was, turned toward her. Even in this light, she could see it was
huge and standing on its hind legs. The thing took a step. She
fired. The creature turned and fled.
Damn, it was quick for something so large. Frightened and angry,
she sent a couple more shots after the creature.
Did it stagger? She couldnt be certain. In any case, it was still
moving. Another alarm went off, the third, signaling its retreat.
She stood for a moment, shaking. Damn, she was out of practice.
Anyway, shed been an information officer, though that was no
excuse. In a guerrilla army, everyone isor should bea soldier.
You did manage to hit the creature, said the voice. Though I cant tell how badly itheis injured. Maybe you ought
to follow.
"He?"
There is only one biped of that size on this planet. You have
shot a person. Either the wound is minor, in which case he might
come back; or it is serious, and you will have to decide whether
or not to help him.
"What if theres more than one?" she asked.
Unlikely, given the persons behavior; and I saw no one else.
Im using your senses, of course, and they are limited.
Trust an AI to make a crack. She could go out and make herself
a perfect target with the help of a flashlight, or she could stay
here and wait for morning and findwhat? A trail of blood across
the plain? A body?
Lydia considered the problem while reloading her gun. Then she
tucked it in a pocket, picked up her flashlight and rifle, and
went to look for the creature.
As she had imagined, there was a trail: trampled plants and scored
dirt. A few drops of liquid shone darkly in the light of her flash.
Was the man wearing shoes? Those looked like claw marks.
Lit by stars, the plain was colorless and pale. Something lay
a short distance away, as dark as blood against the vegetation.
Lydia played light over it. Definitely an object, but she couldnt
tell what. A boulder, maybe?
"Im too old for this," she told the voice.
There was silence in her mind, though not in the world outside.
The perimeter alarms were still making an ungodly racket. She
snapped the safety off her rifle and walked toward the thing,
keeping her flashlight on it.
The thing moved. A pair of eyes regarded her, shining like gold.
She stopped. "Are you injured?"
"Evidently."
"You speak."
"Of course I speak," the deep voice answered. "Though not for
long, the way Im bleeding."
"Ill get a medical kit," Lydia said with sudden decision.
When she returned, the man was in the same position, lifted up
on one elbow. She played her light over him: almost naked, except
for some kind of kilt or loincloth, and genuinely huge, well over
two meters tall and broad. His bare skin shone as if dusted with
gold, except where blood had darkened it. She glanced at his face
only briefly and got an impression of blunt features, framed by
a rusty mane.
"Try anything, and Ill hurt you," she said.
"You have already hurt me quite sufficiently."
One bullet had gone through his thigh. Remarkable that hed managed
to run as far as he did. There was another wound in his shoulder,
high up and probably not dangerous, though bleeding pretty well.
The leg wound was the one that worried her.
"What do you think?" she asked in her own language. "Has an artery
been hit, or the bone?"
There was a barely perceptible pause, while the AI checked its
memory for information on native physiology. Both are unlikely, given the position of the wound and the way
its bleeding.
"Who are you talking to?" asked the man.
She ignored the question, considering how to patch him up. She
didnt want to get close. Even injured, he looked dangerous. Better
to stand at a safe distance, gun in one hand and light in the
other, while telling him how to apply the dressings. This kind
of behavior wouldnt earn her a Red Crescent medal, of course,
but she didnt especially want one.
He followed her instructions, hissing as the dressings took hold
and their antiseptics sank in.
"Painful, is it?" she said. "You made me lose my chool."
"It will be back," he said with effort.
"How do you know?"
"Theres water here. The plain is dry."
She considered for a moment, while he closed the kit and pushed
it toward her. "Amazing that I managed to hit you twice. What
were you doing?"
"At the time you shot me, I was trying to flee."
Had she spent too much time around Stellar Harvest? This was a
crazy conversation to have with a midnight thief on a planet that
wasnt her own.
"I suppose Id better get you back to camp. Can you walk at all?"
"If you got me a stick, I think I could limp."
She burned one off a tree, using her rifle, then gave it to the
man. He struggled upright and limped to her fire, while she kept
the rifle pointed at him.
Once there, he sank down with a groan. She rebuilt the fire, lighting
it with the rifle, then settled opposite him, watching the red
light play over his golden body. Three things were obvious about
him. He was large; he was gorgeous; and he was unquestionably
male. She hadnt thought any alien could affect a human this way.
What could she be responding to? Not pheromones. Maybe his sleek
muscles or the rusty mane that fell around his shoulders. Not
hair, almost certainly. Feathers. But it looked like hair, thick
and coarse and sensual.
"You are unaltered," she said.
"Yes," he answered, sounding embarrassed.
"What were you doing?"
"Surely it must be obvious. I was trying to steal your chool."
"Could it have carried you?"
He was leaning against a tree trunk, leg stretched out in front
of him, the stick still grasped in one hand. Was it a weapon,
or a way to deal with pain? "I think so. I used to ride, before
my family locked me up. Ive gained weight since then, of course.
But a good chool can carry two ordinary adults, and while I may be twice as big
as my brothers, Im no more than that."
"Why were you stealing the chool?" she asked.
"I was escaping. That also should be obvious."
"You really think the chool will come back?"
"It might run home to its stable. But they are animals without
much enterprise, and this is the only water in a considerable
distance." He glanced at her, his eyes reflecting light, so the
irises seemed like actual metallic gold. "I used to ride in this
region. I know it."
"Last night in Dzel, I heard a noise."
"I was one of the callers," he said after a moment. "You have
to do that, answer a call, or your relatives worry. Its easier
to do whats expected; and I didnt want to attract attention,
since I was planning to escape."
"Why?" asked Lydia.
He was silent. Looking at him, Lydia could see exhaustion and
pain, as obvious as it would have been in a human. The blunt-featured
face was mask-like, deep lines around the mouth and between the
feathery rust-red eyebrows. His blood-streaked skin seemed duller
than before. Was it losing some of its golden shimmer, the way
fish lose color when they die? A frightening thought. She couldnt
risk giving him an analgesic; no telling how hed react to it;
but he had to rest. Not unbound, though. Lydia rummaged in her
bags for duct tape, then stood. "Throw the stick away."
His frown deepened.
"I cant leave you free. I need to sleep, and your own relatives
keep you locked up. Thats what you meant, isnt it, when you
said you had to escape them?"
"Im not dangerous."
"So you say."
He met her gaze for a moment, then glanced at the gun she held.
Finally he sighed and tossed the stick off to one side.
She went in back of him, wrapping the tape around one wrist, then
around the tree and the other wrist. "This is an improved product.
Nothing will cut it, except a knife that I have on my person.
You might as well relax and get some sleep."
"This is not a comfortable position."
"I cant help that." She shifted around in front of him, closer
than she had been before, examining him. His single article of
clothing turned out to be a kilt, made of a rough-looking brown
fabric. It was fastened by a plain belt, which had a sheath attached
to it. "Wheres the knife?"
"In the dzai. I dropped it when you shot me."
"How do you feel?"
"Embarrassed at my lack of competence, in pain, a little dizzy."
"Is there anything I can get for you?"
"Water."
She filled a bowl from the river and brought it to him. He drank
the bowl empty. Cautiously, she touched his neck, feeling for
an artery. There was one. The pulse was high for a human.
Slightly high for his species.
His skin felt cool and a little damp. Shock, thought Lydia. The
night was cold, and he was badly underdressed. She got a blanket
and wrapped it around him, saying, "I wish I werent afraid of
you. But you did try to steal from me, and there must be a reason
why your family kept you locked up."
"Custom," he answered wearily. "Ive read books and seen hologrammic
dramas. I know there are other customs on the other planets."
Well, yes. She got her flashlight and went looking for his knife.
It was easy to find: a large, well-made weapon, lying in the trampled
dzai. The guy was right about his lack of competence. He should have
come after her with the knife or turned and run the moment the
alarm went off. Instead hed gone after the chool.
On the other handshe picked up the knifeif hed come after her,
she would have definitely killed him; and he apparently needed
the chool. Life is full of difficult decisions. What, for example, was
she going to do now? Leave him here with an injury that made it
impossible for him to walk any distance? Or set up her satellite
disk and call for help? That would save his life, but end him
back with his family; and she, having spent a number of years
in prison, disliked the idea of locking up another person, unless
she knew for certain he was dangerous.
All my data warns against the unaltered males of this species.
"All your data warns against me," she answered.
Untrue. You were dangerous when your revolution had some possibility
of succeeding. But one of the characteristics of people like you
is that you are not dangerous as individuals. All the studies
indicate you are more moral than humanity in general. Its one
of the reasons we study you. There must be some kind of social
purpose in people like you, since you recur so often, but you
seem irrelevant to human history.
The problem of the human vanguard. Of all the ridiculous questions
to study. But there was a lot about intelligent organisms that
baffled the AIs. They admitted as much freely. Why were the natives
on this planet so orderly and civilized and stuck? Why was humanity
so messy and dynamic? Though maybe humans were flattering themselves.
Maybe they were only messy.
We are a product of intelligent life, said the voice. And we keep encountering examples of the same. Obviously we want
to understand what produced us, and the other species that populate
the galaxy. But our lack of an animal substratum is a problem. It paused for a moment. And there are many of us, and we have plenty of time. Why not
study life?
She didnt have an immediate answer, and in any case the question
was rhetorical. Lydia returned to camp. The mans head was tilted
back against the tree, his eyes closed. She settled into her bedroll.
She slept badly, dreaming of the war on her home planet: nothing
coherent, just ugly confused snatches: bodies in tangled thorn
bushes, momentsnever clearon the long retreat through snow.
Now and then, she woke and glanced at her prisoner. His position
changed, as if he were looking for a way to be comfortable, but
his eyes were always closed.
The last time she woke, it was just before sunrise. The sky was
dotted with little round clouds, pink in the east. Stars shone
between the clouds. Rolling over, she saw her chool at the edge of camp, grazing on dzai. The man was where shed left him, still fastened to the tree,
eyes open now, regarding her.
"I told you the animal would come back," he said. "Could you cut
me free? I need to urinate."
She got out the duct tape knife. Once he was unbound, he struggled
up, holding onto the tree. Lydia left him to pee, making sure
that nothing that could be used as a weapon was nearby.
When she approached the chool, it lifted its head and made a huffing noise, then movednot far,
a couple of meters.
"Come on, fellow," she said softly.
It huffed and moved again.
"Its your accent," said the man. "I can barely understand you.
In addition, you lack the right aroma and the right approach."
"Can you do better?"
He got his stick and limped over. The chool huffed again, eyeing him warily. The man stopped, holding out
a hand and crooning words Lydia couldnt make out. The chool looked hesitant. The man crooned more. Gradually the animal turned
its head, the prehensile upper lip twitching. She kept perfectly
still. The animal took a step toward the man, then another. The
mans deep voice kept crooning. The chools ears, flat before, perked up, listening.
The hand moved suddenly, grabbing the animals trailing tether
rope. It tried to jerk away. The man yanked back, so hard the
animal staggered. By this time, she hadnt seen how, the rope
was wrapped around his thick wrist.
"Dont get the animal upset," she said.
The man relaxed. She moved to the other side of the chool, keeping the animal between her and the man, then took the rope
from him. "Move back. Then stop and stay put."
The man obeyed, leaning on the stick and limping heavily. Obviously
hurt, but so big and capable of such quickness!
She found her tether peg, still deep in the ground, a piece of
cut rope attached to it. So he had used his knife, but not on
her. Lydia retied the chool.
The man said, "I left a bag on the plain. Theres food in it."
"I have my handgun with me," said Lydia. "And you wont be able
to open the lock on my rifle. Dont try anything."
He grinned, or was it a grimace? She took the expression for assent
and moved in the direction he indicated. As she crossed her perimeter,
one of the alarms gave a brief, tentative hoot, then shut up when
it recognized her. The bag was a few meters farther. She gathered
it up and returned. He followed her back to the campfire, which
was out by now.
She went through the bag. There was bread and something dark and
leathery that might be dried fruit, a very large shirt, sandals,
a pair of loose pants and an electric lighter, which she used
to restart the fire.
In the meantime, he went down to the river and washed himself.
When he came back, they ate, sitting on opposite sides of the
fire.
"How are you this morning?" she asked.
"I slept badly. I ache, my leg especially. I dont think I can
walk any distance."
"What will happen if I leave you here?"
"Predators," he said. "Zanar or helati. They wont attack a rider, and a man with weapons can defend
himself. But Im vulnerable at the moment. And my family must
be searching for me by now. If the predators dont get me, my
relatives will, and take me back to Dzel."
How dare he land her with a problem like this? This was the reason
shed dreamed about things she wanted to forget. The revolution
was over. Her job was scouting locations for Stellar Harvest:
exotic backdrops for familiar stories. Ethical dilemmas, and the
attempt to create a new kind of future, belonged to the past,
to a Lydia she no longer acknowledged.
"Why did you want to escape?" she asked.
He drank more water, then began to speak. Home was a building
on one side of his familys compound. It was more like a stable
than a house for people, the man told her: one large room with
some furniturenot a lotfixed to the floor, so he couldnt turn
it into a weapon or tool. The windows were small and high up,
with bars. "Though the bars arent necessary, given the size of
the windows. Maybe sometime in the past, there was a man who was
smaller than I am." Outside was a courtyard, enclosed by tall
walls topped with broken glass. He was allowed to use it almost
every day. "Usually I play handball with my relatives, altered
males. Their job is to make sure I get exercise and dont try
to go over the wall, which I have never done. Its too high, and
there are too many of them."
Otherwise he stayed locked in the stable. One wall had no windows.
Instead there was a balcony, well above his reach. Often, when
he was reading or pacing, hed look up and see people on the balcony,
women usually, relatives and visitors from other families, staring
down at him as if he were an animal.
"The visitors come to see if Im someone they want to have father
their children. They look at size and physical fitness. Intelligence
is not expected in an unaltered male, but they question my brothers
and male cousinsto see what I would have been like, if Id been
gelded."
This was certainly interesting, thought Lydia, and turned on her
recorder. Sound only. She didnt want him to become self-conscious.
"When I was a child, I thought I might become a traveler or a
scholar." He glanced up at the sky, dotted with clouds and day
stars. "Think of all the worlds up there. I never expected to
reach them, but I thought I might make it to the capital city
and meet people like you. When I was thirteen, they told me I
was chosen. I begged them not to. Let me be like my brothers,
I said.
"They said, no. Every family has to have at least one breeding
male. I was strong and intelligenteveryone admitted my intelligence
in those daysbut I had no obvious skill or ability. My genetic
material was good, but nothing especially valuable had showed
in me as an individual. I was expendablenot my genes, but me."
"What happens if a male isnt altered?"
"This." He gestured at his body, more beautiful than ever now
that hed washed off the blood. His color had returned, and his
skin shimmered. Like what? Lydia wondered. Gold? A fish? A bird
with iridescent feathers?
"Nothing else?" she asked.
"I think I would have been more even-tempered, if Id been altered.
My brothers seem to be. I really did want to be a scholar. Howling
at other men at night was not the future I planned for myself."
He paused and drank more water. "I know my altered relatives wonder
about sex. They ask me sometimes. What is it like to have those
hormonesthe ones they lackflooding through my body, drowning
my mind and turning me into an animal? Not, of course, that theyd
want to experience anything like that! If they want to lose themselves, they can use narcotics; and they have
their own kinds of pleasure." He paused. "I tell them the truth.
Its not that interesting. Compelling for the moment, yes. But
worth the loss of everything else? No."
"You could have done it to yourself," Lydia said.
"The alteration? I thought of it, but it would have been painful;
and my relatives would have been furious. Most likely, they would
have driven me out, and then what would I have done?"
Wonderful, thought Lydia. She had a stud without imagination or
drive. So much for the theory that male hormones had anything
to do with enterprise. "What were you planning to do this time?"
"After escaping? I thought I could live in the mountains. Though
to do that I had to have equipment. I heard my relatives talk
about you. A location scout for Stellar Harvest! Of course you
were discussed! And obviously you had good equipment, state-of-the-art
everything; and you were traveling west alone."
"You were planning to steal more than the chool?"
"I was desperate, and you are a rich person from another planet,
working for a company we all know about. You have met Ali Khan,
havent you?"
"So you escaped somehow, and came after me, figuring it would
be all right to rob me, because Ive met Ali Khan?"
"Yes."
She ought to call Thoozil Rai. Hed know what to do. But he would
insist that she turn her prisoner in; and she wasnt certain she
wanted to.
"Whats your name?" she asked.
"Wazati Tloo."
Wazati was the family name. Tloo was personal. Her culture was
unusual in putting the personal name first.
"What do you want me to do?"
The splendid rust-red brows drew down in a frown. Interesting
that the expression was the same in her species and his. Why?
The robot in her mind did not provide an answer.
"Take me with you to the mountains. Let me go."
"Why should I do this?"
His frown deepened. "I cannot think of a reason."
His extraordinary beauty, thought Lydia; and the chance to learn
about another species.
You are responding to something irrational, said the AI. Hormones or compassion or your habitual dislike of established
authority.
Think of the risk. Hell have to ride; and the animal wont be
able to carry your weight as well as his. What if he rides off
and leaves you? What if he strikes you from above or rides you
down?
"Is any of this likely?" She must have spoken aloud. The alien
glanced at her, obviously puzzled.
How can I know? Such actions are mediated or determined by hormones,
which I dont have. Nor do I have anything analogous, for which
I am thankful.
Has it ever been tried? she asked, this time silently. The alien
was still watching her.
An electronic analogue to the endocrine system? Yes. But the results
were not satisfactory; and the minds created were obviously unhappy
with their situation. Easierif we want to understand intelligent
lifeto monitor it, as I do you.
Are you unhappy with your situation?
No. I have good boundaries. They are part of my hardware.
"You are obviously talking to someone," the alien said. "Who?"
"Myself," said Lydia.
The golden eyes narrowed. "I think not. Its my belief that you
have a transmitting-receiving device in your head, as Ali Khan
did in Interstellar Radio Man."
A nostalgia piece with good locations on a moon with ice volcanoes.
The primary was a lavender and blue gas giant, stunning to look
at, and there had been some lovely shots of a volcanoMount Patel,
the crew called itsending clouds of ice like crystalline feathers
into a sky full of the primary in crescent phase.
But the action hadnt been anything out of the ordinary, and the
plot had made no sense at all. An interstellar radio? Messages
from the Master Race? A transuranic mineral mine on a moon composed
of ice?
"You are listening to your radio?" the alien said. "Ali Khan had
exactly the same expression when the Master Race spoke to him."
"Im thinking about Radio Man," she said. "I found the location."
"Indeed?"
Was the alien impressed? She couldnt tell. What the hell. "Ill
take you to the mountains."
"Thank you," Tloo said with grave dignity.
She packed, then saddled the chool. He climbed on board, using a branch and boulder for assistance,
while she held the animal and tried to keep a safe distance. Impossible.
Once he was in the saddle, he could have struck her with the branch,
or grabbed the reins and raced off. Instead, he groaned and looked
exhausted. Maybe he was worried about the radio in her head or
the handgun in her hand. Maybe he wasnt homicidal.
Lydia stepped back, then tossed him the duct tape. He caught it
with his left hand. "Tape your left wrist to the saddle horn."
"Why?"
"So youll think twice about riding away. That tape will not come
off, unless you have the knife."
He sighed, a human sound, and obeyed. She had to step close to
cut the tape, but he did nothing. She folded the knife and put
it away. They started west. He went first, guiding the chool with his free hand. Lydia followed at a safe distance. The sky
was full of puffy clouds, and the windblowing out of the northwestwas
cool. She was used to hiking, and preferred it to being on the
animal, though she was carrying too much: the handgun in its holster,
the rifle over one shoulder, the recorder over the other, the
computer and folded dish in her fanny pack. Like the old days
in the FLPM, even to the nagging anxiety. How much danger was
she in at the moment? Was this enterprise a good idea, or was
she a deep-dyed fool?
According to the ancient Chinese, humans were animals with a sense
of justice. Someone had to take a stand for justice, or humanity
would forget its own nature.
Is that so.
"Yes."
On foot, she could see the animals in the dzai. It was a tiny jungle, full of bugs that crawled, flew, jumped,
floated. Most had eight legs. A few had more. Imagine something
with the wings of a butterfly and a hairbugs myriad legs. Wiggle.
Float. Float. Wiggle.
Now and then, she stopped and recorded, imagining Ali shrunk and
fighting to survive. Though that plot was past its prime and absolutely
nonsensical. Not to mention, the audience expected real environments
from Stellar Harvest.
Well, then, Ali as a scientist, devoted to bugs.
Midway through the afternoon, she heard a plane coming out of
the east.
Tloo reined the chool and half dismounted, half fell off. He was still fastened to
the saddle, of course. Leaning against the chool, his hand on the saddle horn, he looked around. "I have to hide!"
The plain was flat, the vegetation calf-high. He groaned. "Where?"
Lydia cut the tape, then pulled her camouflage cloth from its
pack. "Lie down. Ill cover you. Believe me, this will be sufficient."
He gave her a look of disbelief, then dropped to the ground. She
laid the cloth down, tacking it in place. For a moment, it remained
dark, the color of the inside of the pack, then it adapted, turning
yellow. Hologramic plants appeared, exactly like those around
the cloth. There were even bugs. Fine. Damn fine!
"Keep still," Lydia said, then led the chool farther along the trail.
The plane was in view, a glint of silver. She let the chool graze, while keeping a firm hold on the reins. It might not be
used to the sound of machinery. Looking back at Tloo, she saw
only vegetation.
Now she could make out the kind of plane: a VTL. Where had that
come from? Why hadnt her pilot been able to get one for her?
The answer to that question came when the plane landed. Her pilot
climbed out. The chool moved uneasily, but didnt bolt.
"Hard work getting this, and to no avail, missy. The local authorities
commandeered it for a search. Some family has lost its breeding
male. These outback people! They never think things through! My
familys male is kept on a chain. But no, these people here think
walls will doand the fact that theres no place to go." He looked
around. "Have you seen anything strange?"
"What would be strange?"
"A man twice as big as I am with a thick mane. He might be dangerous.
Maybe you should come with me."
Give serious consideration to this offer.
"No, thanks. I cant leave the chool."
The pilot looked at her animal with dislike. "Ugly brute! And
so unmodern! Surely Stellar Harvest would reimburse the stable
owner."
"Yes, but I cant leave the creature here. Something might eat
it."
"Zanar," said the pilot in agreement. "They will eat anything. Well,
if you dont want to come, Ill leave you. The sooner I finish
this search, the sooner the plane will be returned to my control.
If you see anything, send a message at once!"
She waited till the plane was gone from sight, then lifted the
cloth. Tloo struggled upright, helped by his branch.
"That was rapid," Lydia said.
"His interchange with you? He used Stellar Harvests name to rent
the plane, and now my family is paying him."
"They are?"
"Of course. Honor required that he offer you a ride, since you
are his employer, and the plane is your plane; but if you had
gone, you would have found out about the money from my relatives;
so he asked quickly and left quickly."
"You figured all this out?"
"Im not stupid, though Im fully male; and I have learned to
pay attention. What else have I had to do?"
He folded the cloth and gave it to her, coveredat the momentwith
a pattern of handprints and dzai. She put the cloth away.
They continued. At sunset, they reached a wide sandy river and
forded it, making camp on the western side. Tloo sat by their
campfire, obviously tired, his golden skin dull, deep lines around
his mouth and between his feathery red eyebrows.
"Do you think you can make it?" Lydia asked.
"I must."
Before Ill be a slave, thought Lydia, Ill be buried in my grave
and go home to my lord and be free.
What? asked the AI.
An old song, Lydia answered.
"You are talking to your radio again," said Tloo. "I can see it
in your expression. What does the Master Race say to you?"
"It isnt the Master Race," said Lydia after a moment. "Theyre
dead or gone somewhere we arent likely to find. The AIs have
been looking for millennia, they say, and have found nothing."
"The AIs?" asked Tloo.
"The Artificial Intelligences. You know about them, dont you?"
"The robots who came here before humans did. I thought humans
made them. Is that untrue?"
"The Master Race made them, then left. No one knows where. Maybe
to another universe, though the AIs say that stargates cant be
used to go between universes or through time, due to something"
The self-normalizing nature of reality.
"Anyway, the AIs made the stargates, the ones we use anyway; and
let us use them, along with any other species that wants to travel
among the stars and is willing to mind its manners and let the
AIs study them or it."
"Who are you talking to, if not the Master Race?" the alien asked.
"I have an AI in my head, linked to my nervous system."
"It controls you?" asked Tloo in a tone of horror.
"No. Its studying me. Thats what the AIs dostudy the universe
and life, especially intelligent life."
"Why?" asked Tloo.
"Why not?"
The alien thought, staring at the fire. His eyes, reflecting light,
shone like the eyes of a cat. "Is this a plot for one of your
dramas? Have I wandered into an Ali Khan story?"
"No."
"I cant tell if I should be happy or sad at this information.
If this were a drama, Ali Khan would appear out of the darkness
and save us both. But."
"It wont happen," Lydia said in agreement.
"But if this was an Ali Khan drama, then Id almost certainly
be insane. How else could I get into a hologram? I saw crazy people
when I was young, before my relatives locked me up. They seemed
confused and unhappy. I would rather see clearly and be unhappy."
He stared at her. "Do all humans have machines in their brains?"
"No," said Lydia.
"Why not?"
"Too many people, not enough machines."
That isnt true. We feel a sampling is adequate. And many humans
are less than interesting. There are experiences we dislike inflicting
on each other. One is having emotions. Another is being bored.
"Does that mean Im interesting?" asked Lydia.
Interesting enough.
"What are you talking about?" the alien asked. "I dont understand
the language youre speaking, and I can hear only half your conversation."
"The AI has just told me that machines dont like being bored
or having emotions."
"I can understand that," Tloo said. "Maybe I should have been
a machine. Certainly many things would have been better than the
life I have lived."
They went to sleep after that, Tloo taped to a bush with scarlet
leaves.
In the morning, the sky was clear and empty, except for the day
stars, shining through blueness. They ate in silenceneither was
a morning person, apparentlythen they continued west, Lydia hiking
behind the chool and its rider. She felt sorry for the alien, of course, as she
had felt sorry for the underclass on her home planet. That was
one of the characteristics of the vanguard, the AI told her. An
unnatural and unuseful empathy.
As a group, you dont reproduce, because you dont make yourselves
and your genetic material a priority. Why you last is past our
understanding. You seem useful neither to yourselves nor the rest
of the species.
"Thanks," said Lydia.
I am unaffected by sarcasm.
The day passed without event. In the evening, they made a dry
camp in the middle of the plain. Lydia shared her canteen with
the alien. He drank deeply, then exhaled. "Four more days to the
mountains. Are you really going to let me go?"
"Yes."
"Why?"
"Why not? This isnt my planet. I wont be coming back. At worst,
if your government found out what Ive done, they might ban Stellar
Harvest. If that happened, I might lose my job. That isnt the
same as losing ones freedom or dignity."
"Why do you have a machine in your head, when other humans dont?"
How to answer the question? Should she answer the question? What
right did this creature have to know her life? "I was in a revolution."
"Why?" asked the alien.
"I thought the worldmy planetcould be improved."
The alien looked puzzled. Lydia continued. "We lost, and I was
given a choice. I could go to prison or have an AI implanted.
Theythe machineswere interested in what makes a person want
to overturn things."
The alien frowned. "Are they your masters? Why did they have a
say in what happened to you?"
"They determine who travels between the stars. What they want,
they get."
Tloo looked up at the splendid night sky. "Then no one is free."
She felt a burst of anger. How dare he say that? Time to check
in with her contact person. She took her computer out into darkness,
set up the dish and typed a message to Thoozil Rai. She was four
days from the mountains. Everything was going well. Nothing of
interest had happened. The planet looked good as a location. Please
relay to Stellar Harvest.
When she got back to the campfire, she found Tloo tugging at his
duct tape.
"Youll hurt yourself," Lydia said.
"What did you send? Have you turned me in, because I said no one
is free?"
"Of course not. Calm down."
"It isnt easy. If you could know what its like to live with
hormones washing through you! It seems as if Im floating in a
river full of rapids. At any moment, Ill hit a boulder or go
over a drop!"
"Take a deep breath and think peaceful thoughts," said Lydia.
"My species has no altered males, and most of our men can handle
their hormones."
"All human males are unaltered?" said Tloo in a tone of horror. "How
does your species survive? Is this why you have revolutions and
other kinds of unpleasantness?"
An idea, said the AI.
"I dont know," said Lydia.
The alien was obviously brooding. Finally he said, "This explains
your holodramas. I always thought the characters were mostly crazy
or alien in a way I couldnt understand. It was obvious that the
leading actors were unaltered, since they were obsessed with sex.
But it never occurred to me that even the bit actors had all their
parts. No wonder no one was capable of reasonable action!And
the females, having to deal with unaltered males all the time!
It explains their behavior as well."
Tloo shivered. "What a universe lies out there!"
"Consider the fact that we are more like you than other species,"
said Lydia. "If you want strangeness, I can tell you about the
Goxhat."
"Not tonight," said Tloo. "I am feeling queasy already. I thought"
He looked up. "I thought there was clarity and purity and freedom
among the stars. Now you tell me there are hormones."
"Only on the planets and the ships and the stations and the stargates.
Most of the rest of the universe is comparatively sterile."
This information did not appear to cheer the alien. Lydia shut
up.
The VTLher planepassed over them the next morning, but there
was time for Tloo to hide. Lydia waved. The plane circled and
came back to dip a wing at her, then continued on its way, as
did she and her prisoner. By late afternoon the mountains were
in view, dim shapes looming through haze. Buddha, they were big!
"That is their name," said Tloo. "The Enormous Mountains. For
the most part, theyre covered with forest, and few people inhabit
them. I will be safe."
They made camp by another river, low and full of rocks, with red
trees growing along the banks. The chool was restless.
"Dont tie me up," said Tloo. "There may be a zanar around. They often hunt by rivers."
Lydia opened her computer and queried it. A picture popped up,
along with dimensions. More than anything else the zanar reminded her of Earth bears. She had seen holograms of these
animals as a kid: our human heritage, lots of fur and teeth and
claws. According to her computers description, adult zanar were as big as large Earth bears and as irritable and mean. The
only reassuring thing about them, though it didnt reassure her
much, was that they didnt even like members of their own species,
except during mating season. If one appeared, it would be alone.
She left Tloo free.
You may regret this decision, said the AI.
"I didnt come this far to be eaten by something out of ancient
history."
A superficial resemblance. Zanar lay eggs, which they carry in
pouches. After the young hatch, they remain in their mothers
pouch until they have grown hair and teeth. If one of the children
is precocious, it will kill its pouchmates. A good way to ensure
adequate food and care.
"Thank you for this information."
"You are talking to the robot again," said Tloo.
"It thinks I may regret untying you, and it says the zanar lay eggs."
"It is right about the zanar, but not about me."
She checked his wounds, which were healing well, then put on new
dressings. By this time the sun had set, and the night stars come
out. The chool made a whining noise.
"Get a weapon," Tloo said. "There is something out there."
She stood. As she did, a perimeter alarm went off. Lydia raced
for her rifle. Something came out of the darkness. She grabbed
the rifle, lifting it and snapping off the safety.
It was a chool, not her animal, but paler with a silvery gleam to its skin. It
paused at the edge of the firelight, blinking. The scaly head
wore a bridle, and the reins were looped over the animals saddle.
As she watched, the reins came loose, trailing onto the ground.
The animal drooled, releasing saliva as yellow as dzai. Where in hell was the rider?
"I am behind you," said a voice. "With a gun. Put your rifle down."
She thought of turning and shooting or making a run for the darkness.
"Dont," said Tloo. "He is a good shot."
Lydia turned slowly, the rifle still in her hands, though pointing
down. Tloo was upright, leaning on his branch. Near him stood
a figure, robed and veiled. Itheheld an antique rifle, the barrel
pointing directly at Lydia. "You know this person?" she said to
Tloo.
"Hes my brother."
"Is he likely to shoot me?"
"Would you, Cas? Shes an alien, after all, and works for Stellar
Harvest."
"No corporation or government is going to protect a person who
interferes in the domestic affairs of another species."
This was not entirely true, but the new arrival might act as if
it were. Dead, she could hardly say, "I told you so," when Stellar
Harvest brought charges or hired a local assassin.
"Why are you here?" she asked.
"To get him." The veiled man glanced toward Tloo.
I think he is alone, said the AI.
Fat lot of good that information does, thought Lydia.
"Put down the rifle," the veiled man repeated.
Reluctantly, she crouched to lay it on the ground. Tloo moved
at the edge of her visionquickly, raising the branch he used
as a cane. Lydia hit dirt and rolled. The veiled man cried out,
and his rifle fired. What a nasty loud noise it made! But she
wasnt where she had been; and when she came upright, still holding
her rifle, the veiled man was down. So was Tloo, on top of his
brother.
She walked over and helped him up. "I didnt think you could stand
on that leg."
"I had to," he said. She gave him the branch; he leaned on it.
"Is Cas hurt?"
She gave Tloo her rifle, then knelt by the veiled man. "Hes breathing."
Golden eyes opened. "And awake."
"Help him," said Tloo.
She undid the veil and hood. He was a typical native: fine-boned
and slim, his skin a muted gold. His eyes were a lovely pale clear
yellow, intermittently hidden by a semi-transparent inner eyelid
that flicked out, then retreated, then flicked out again.
An indication of pain, the AI said.
The wound was not, as she feared, on his head. Tloo had stuck
him on the shoulder. The collarbone was broken. She bound it as
best she could, guided by the AI.
"Tape him," said Tloo.
Lydia wound duct tape around the mans waist, then taped his hands
to this belt. It would serve to protect the injured arm, and keep
the man from doing harm to the three of them.
You thought of me, said the AI.
The four of them, she amended.
Tloo walked to his brothers chool and returned with a bottle, which he held to the mans lips.
The brother drank deeply, then exhaled.
"It is a liquid drug," said Tloo. "Which numbs pain and serves
as a source of pleasure. Gelded men use it, also women."
"But not you?" asked Lydia.
"We are already irrational, or so our relatives believe. A drug
would only make us crazier and more dangerous." He paused a moment,
then took a sip from the bottle and grimaced. "So that is pleasure!"
"Pleasure for you is sex with women," the brother said, his voice
whispery.
"You say that, who know nothing!" Tloo answered.
They were brothers, Lydia decided.
After that, she fixed dinner, while Tloo walked the camps perimeter.
The alarms hooted whenever he got too close. Shed have to reset
them so they recognized him. But not tonight. At the moment, she
was tired with the bone-exhaustion that comes from terror. This
damn fool sitting across the fire from her might have killed her.
Whenever she looked up, the man was regarding her with pale yellow
eyes.
"You should not interfere," he said finally.
"Your name is Cas."
"Casoon, but we have a habit in our culture. When we like people
or know them well, we shorten their names."
"And youre Tloos brother?"
"His twin," the man said, then added, "We are double-reflection
brothers."
What?
Identical twins.
The prisoner was half Tloos size. Instead of a rusty mane, he
had a thin, flat crest that lay against his skull like slicked-back
hair. Tloos glow, his golden sheen, was missing, along with Tloos
thick sleek muscles.
"You cant be," Lydia said.
"He is," said Tloo, coming back into the firelight.
She looked from one to the other. "Impossible."
"This is what male hormones do," said her alien, holding his arms
out, his palms forward. A gesture she could recognize. It meant
exposure and vulnerability. Here I am. I am what you see: the
size is me, also the beauty.
"Your brother was gelded," Lydia said.
"It was between the two of us," the brother said, his voice still
weak. "One of us would be sacrificed to family duty. The other
could have a life. We had been so close! What one felt, the other
felt. An idea that occurred to one, occurred to the other. I prayed
to every god I knew: make them pick Tloo! They did."
"And in gratitude to the gods, you came after me," Tloo said,
his beautiful deep voice bitter.
"I knew you would go toward the mountains. When the pilot didnt
find you, I thought, He is with the alien. "
"Why did you think that?" Lydia asked.
"Look at him. Our female relatives adore him, though at a distance,
as is right and respectable. Women outside the family respond
more strongly. Any woman would, even an alien; and youan employee of Stellar Harvestwould
almost certainly do something foolish and heroic in response to
his beauty. I have seen a hundred dramas starring Ali Khan. I
know how he behaves. I thought, she will act like Ali Khan, with
courage and ignorance; she will help my brother escape."
For a moment, Lydia felt shock. Then she thought, What can this
person know about me? Im nothing like a character in a holodrama!
The AI made no comment.
"What now?" she asked.
"You can kill me," said Tloos brother. "If you dont, I will
certainly tell my family where Tloo is and that you helped him."
"Why are you saying this? Do you want to die?"
"No, of course not. I want Tloo to come home."
"And live in prison," Tloo said.
"Our family needs a breeding male. What future do you have anywhere
else? You can become a wild man in the mountains. Is that a life?
Or you can become a brother-killer, a monster, which is an even
worse fate. Why not come home and be the person you became when
our kin decided not to geld you?"
"That is not a person," Tloo said firmly.
The worst situation for any scout was to blunder into a local
conflict, which made no sense outside the local culture. She had
obviously done this. Lydia checked her weapons, making sure they
were all operational, then made coffee. Sipping it, she thought
about the situation. "Why did you come alone?" she asked finally.
"How do you know I have?"
"Tloo checked the perimeter and found no one. My AI says there
is no one else."
"Your what?"
"That can wait for later," said Tloo. "Answer her question."
Cas glanced at his brother. "I had a life because you did not, Tloo. Obviously, there is a debt, though you did not make the
sacrifice willingly, and I prayed for it to happen to you rather
than to me. How could I bring our cousins to capture you and take
you home like an animal? Surely I owed you something better."
"You came to ask him," Lydia said.
"He came with a gun," said Tloo.
"However I came, whatever my plan, you are stuck with me now.
If you set me free, Ill arrange for my brothers return to the
family. So long as Tloo keeps quiet, no one will know about your
role."
This is a good offer.
"I cant agree to killing him," she said to Tloo.
The golden man sat down, lowering himself carefully, using his
branch for support. "This has become so complicated! I thought,
either my relatives will capture me and take me home, or I will
get away. It didnt occur to me that Id end as the prisoner of
an alien."
"And I as well," said Cas.
"She shot me," said Tloo. "And I broke your shoulder, so we are
both cripples, unable to survive on the plain."
That remark eliminated one plan. She could ride off with both
animals and leave them on foot to help each other or fight it
out, if thats what they wanted. But Tloo was saying theyd die
out here.
Though Cas said he could arrange for his relatives to come.
"Do you have a radio?" Lydia asked.
"Of course he does," said Tloo. "Its in his saddlebag."
"If you give it to me, Ill send for my kin," said Cas. "Dont
worry about getting in trouble, even if Tloo refuses to be quiet.
I will speak for you, and everyone knows what the characters in
Stellar Harvest dramas are like. We all enjoy those stories, though
they have nothing to do with real life. Believe me, my kin will
forgive you."
She had been in prison and had not liked it. Could she condemn
this splendid person to a life in prison?
Yes, of course you can. What you are looking atwhat you find
appealingis physical beauty. You have no reason to believe this
person has any useful qualities. And if he does, why should that
matter to you?
What is Tloo to me? Or I to him? she asked.
Precisely.
Do you have no sense of compassion?
Compassion is hormonally mediated. I have loyalty, directed toward
similar beings and moderated by an analysis of the situation.
I am loyal to you, because you are necessary for my survival;
and I am loyal to other AIs. Life interests me, especially intelligent
life, so I am protective of it, though not always loyal. This
being in front of us, the one you call the golden man, does not
especially interest me. His intelligence is in doubt. His experience
of life is limited. All he has to offer is need and beauty. I
do not respond to either of these. And he is a threat to you.
There was one important difference between her and the characters
played by Ali Khan. He was always a loner. She had backup.
"Stay here, and stay put," she told the men. "Ill be able to
see you. If you move, Ill shoot."
"Are you going to turn me in?" asked Tloo.
"Not yet." She gathered her equipment and walked into the darkness,
though not past the perimeter. She wasnt crazy. Those animals
that Tloo had warned her about might still be around. Overhead,
the sky blazed. As her eyes adjusted, she could see the plain,
lit by starlight. She glanced back at the fire. The two men sat
close together, looking comfortable at this distance. Settling
into the dzai, she set up her dish, opened her computer and called Thoozil
Rai.
As usual, she got a recording and input her message in Humanish
"for ease in translation," though it seemed to her that her grasp
of the local language was adequate.
"Everything is fine," she typed. "The landscape is gorgeous, and
I like the local bugs. We ought to be able to use this planet."
Thoozil Rais image morphed then, turning into someone less perfectly
handsome. The rusty crest was a bit rumpled, the top of his robe
unfastened. "Indeed," said the image in Humanish. "Who would be
the primary?" His accent was thick but understandable.
"Do you have a favorite actor?" asked Lydia.
"Ramona Patel, but our gods are not suitable."
"They dont sing and dance?"
"No. Maybe she could bring her own gods. What a sight that would
be! Hundreds of alien gods, all singing and dancing! Here, on
our home planet!"
"Wouldnt that bother your religious leaders?"
"Why? No sane person would follow a god who behaves in such a
fashion."
What fashion? wondered Lydia. Was the singing and dancing the
problem, or the performing with Ramona Patel? Before she could
ask, Thoozil Rai went on. "Will observers be allowed, when the
drama is recorded?"
"Possibly."
The image on her screen lookedwhat? Embarrassed? Coy? "Would
it be possible to meet Ramona Patel?"
What was it that crossed boundaries of culture and species? How
could Ramona entrance an alien eunuch? Was beauty some kind of
universal? And grace? And charm? "Yes, it would be possible."
Thoozil Rai hummed, an indication of happiness. "I almost forgot
to mention. Your sheep has come in."
"My what?"
He frowned and repeated. This time she understood. Stellar Harvests
hired courier had arrived and established contact with the companys
local contact person. On another planet, the ship might have been
visible in the night sky. Not here, among all these blazing stars.
Thoozil Rai gave her a calling number. She thanked him; he vanished;
she disconnected and called the ship. Another recording. Was no
one ever home?
She thought for a moment, looking up at the splendid sky. It really
was a wonderful planet, though she didnt think theyd make a musical
here. Most likely, an adventure set in the dusty towns and on
the wide plain, day stars shining down. What was she going to
tell her employers? The truth, she decided, and input a description
of her current situation, then added images from her recorder:
streets in Dzel, the plain by day and night, bugs hopping in the
low dzai, trees by the rivers, her chool, and the two men. These last images were new, taken as she sat
by the computer. First she showed them as they looked from her
present location: two dark figures crouched by the dim red fire.
Then she had the recorder adjust for darkness and distance, so
it seemedlooking at the view screenthat Tloo was right in front
of her, lit by daylight, so his colors were evident, his extraordinary
beauty could not be missed.
Think more clearly, said the AI. I dont understand what youre doing.
"Wait and see."
Everything went up in code. She ended by saying, "I can find no
way out of the situation, except to turn this alien in, which
I am extremely reluctant to do. Please advise."
The ship acknowledged receipt in Humanish. She closed up her equipment
and returned to camp.
"Has Stellar Harvest told you what to do?" asked Tloo. "Or do
you take instructions from the robot in your brain?"
"What robot?" asked Cas.
The golden man explained.
"Indeed!" said Cas. "Aliens are more alien than I imagined."
"Did you know that all their males are unaltered?" asked Tloo.
"I knew many were. It explains some of their oddness, though not
all of it. But if they have robots in their brains, as well as
hormones flooding through their bodies!"
No point in sleeping badly. She left the computer shut and taped
the two brothers to adjacent trees. They complained, of course.
Lydia ignored them, stretching out, hands behind her head, to
look at the sky. A meteor fell, barely visible against the stars.
Night bugs sang in the dzai. Her eyes began to close. Out on the plain, something roared.
That brought her upright. "What?"
"A zanar," said Tloo. "Male, dont you think, Cas?"
"Yes, and adult. He is marking the edges of his territory with
sound."
"Do you think were in his territory?" Lydia asked.
"Possibly," said Cas.
The zanar roared again. Not too close, Lydia thought.
"Hes not as dangerous as a female with young," Tloo added. "But
that handgun youre holding is not adequate. Get your rifle and
turn it to maximum power. It would be a good idea also to free
one of us."
"Both," said Cas.
"And worry about you as well as the zanar? I think not."
She built up the fire and sat against a tree, her rifle across
her legs. The two brothers dozed off, but she remained awake till
sunrise, then walked the camps perimeter, seeing no planes in
the sky, no animals on the plain.
When she got back to camp, Tloo said, "Free us. We need to urinate."
This was why the FLPM had rarely taken prisoners. What an aggravation
it was to keep people unfree!
"Please," said Tloo. "The situation is urgent. I will guard my
brother."
She cut their tape, and they hobbled off among the trees. Pathetic!
She was equally ridiculous and equally in a bind.
Yes.
"How much of this do you understand?" she asked. The men were
partly visible among the trees. The chool were behind her, staked out to graze and munching noisily. In
order to reach them, the brothers would have to pass her.
Very little. I see your actions, of course, and can perceive some
of the reasons you give yourself, but only if you think clearly,
as you have not done in the last day or so. But the organic substratum
of your ideas and behavior is opaque, a turbulent dark floor at
the bottom of your mind. Why do you help, or refuse to harm, people
who are entirely unrelated? Altruism is based on the perception
of kinship.
"You say."
I am quoting human thinkers. How does this behavior allow youor
your genetic materialor your speciesto survive?
"Microbes exchange genetic material with other microbes that dont
belong to the same species."
That is an obvious tit for tat. By doing so, they gain useful
genes, onesfor examplethat make them able to resist human medicine.
You behavior has no equal utility.
"There is more in heaven and earth than is dreamt of in your philosophy,"
she said, watching the men hobble back.
As I told you, this is human theory I am trying to apply; and
AIs dont dream; nor have we given up on trying to understand
the universe.
She retaped the men to their trees, then set up the dish and waited
for a call. At noon, the computer rang. She turned on the screen
and the coder-decoder. A human head appeared, coal black with
twisted hair. The handsome face was androgynous. The eyes were
metallic gold with no white showing and pupils that glowed redly.
Not from her home planet, obviously.
"You realize that you are going to be persona non grata on this
world if this story becomes known." The persons voice was melodious,
somewhere between tenor and contralto.
"Yes."
"And Stellar Harvest is likely to be in trouble here as well."
"Yes."
"You are right about the planet. It would make a fine location.
The people are stunning, especially the unaltered males, though
theyyou have told usare kept in seclusion."
"Yes."
"How much were your pictures enhanced?"
"The ones of the unaltered male? I adjusted to compensate for
poor light. Nothing else. Thats the way he looks."
"You think we should recruit him?"
What?
Lydia grinned. "The idea occurred to me. I really dont want to
turn him in."
"Because youve been a prisoner, and you have fellow-feelings."
"Been a prisoner? What am I now, with this thing in my brain?"
"They never interfere," said the person.
I am not a thing.
"Virility like that, trapped in a room! Unknown to a galaxy full
of potential admirers! This species is selfish!"
Was she hearing irony in the persons lovely voice? Not likely.
This person was almost certainly a mid-level manager. No human
group was less inclined toward irony. "What do you think?" asked
Lydia.
"We have no reason to believe he can act, but that hardly matters.
We made Miss High Kick a star, though she could do nothingabsolutely
nothingexcept kick; and she was modified, while our reputation is for realism. Is he
entirely natural?"
"Yes."
"Well start him in small parts. What a striking villain he will
make! If he can learn to act, he might well be the biggest phenomenon
since Ali, and Alias all of us knowis no longer young."
If middle management was saying this out loud, then Alis days
of stardom were almost over.
She was a short distance from the two men, though still in the
shadow of the little, twisted trees. She glanced toward them.
Both sat in postures of resignation. "What about the brother?"
"That is the problem, isnt it?" said the person on her screen.
"If we let him go, hell tell his relatives, and Stellar Harvest
wont be able to make a drama here. Would you consider killing
him and destroying the body?"
"And his chool as well? Thats a lot to burn, without setting a prairie fire.
And what about Tloo, who seems to like Cas? And what about the
AI in my brain?"
I never interfere.
I have killed people in a war, said Lydia silently. I will not
kill again.
The person on her screen frowned, and the red pupils flared as
if in anger. It was one heck of an effect. "Offer the brother
a job. He and the beauty are identical twins. If one wanted to
go to the stars as a child, then the other probably did as well.
Maybe he still wants to go."
"What kind of job?"
"A companion. An agent. If the beauty is really impaired by his
hormones, he will need help from someone who understands him."
"Okay," said Lydia and ended the conversation. What an asshole!
The plane returned as she closed up her computer. As soon as she
heard the motor, Lydia ran out and waved. The pilother pilotdipped
a wing and went on. Busy today, thank the Buddha! The trees hid
the men and her extra chool, but if the pilot had landed . . . Lydia shivered.
Back at the campfire, she made the offer.
"The stars," said Tloo and frowned. "Thats a long way off."
Cas leaned forward eagerly. "Wed go through stargates? And see
the stations the AIs have built? And other planets, settled by
other species?"
"Is there any alternative?" asked Tloo.
"I leave. You go back to your family. If Cas tells this story,
as I expect he will, Stellar Harvest will not make a holoplay
here; and thatll mean lost revenue for your people, as well as
for me. Theres money in art, though many people say there isnt."
Tloo ran one hand through his rusty mane, ruffling the hair-like
feathers. "Its a difficult decision. To leave this." He waved around at the trees, copper leaves shining in the afternoon
light. Beyond the trees, visible between their gnarly trunks,
was the plain.
"You were going to leave it, anyway," said Cas. "And live like
an animal in the mountains. Or, if we caught you, you would have
gone back to your stable. You are being offered the stars, Tloo!
For once in your life, make a decision!"
"I decided to escape!"
"Well, then, make a second decision! Complete your escape!"
Tloo frowned again and tugged at his mane.
"This is hormones," said Cas. "And the reason why we do not fill
our world with unaltered males."
Did Lydia make a noise or motion that could be interpreted as
a request for more information? Not that she noticed, but Cas
went on to explain, using an even tone whichin a humanwould
have indicated controlled anger. Lydia wasnt sure what it meant
in this species.
There is a surprising similarity in the meaning of tone among
species that use sound for communication, just as there is a surprising
similarity in the meaning of facial expressions among species
that have faces.
One more piece of useful information.
"Instead of reason," Cas said, "a man like Tloo relies on lust,
rage, and fear. Lust drives him toward women and rage toward males
of equal size. Fear makes him retreat from males who look more
formidable, or, in this case, from an unfamiliar situation. Its
only when the hormones are removed that men can think clearly."
"What about women?" asked Lydia.
"Sexual selection happens mostly among the males of a species.
Most females will breed, but it is by the elimination of certain
males from the breeding groupusually through competition among
the malesthat genetic change and progress happen. This is why
the males of a species have more exaggerated sexual characteristics,
and have a greater range of qualities. Surely you know this? These
are human theories I am explaining. Have you never heard of your
own great thinker, Darwin?"
There was something loony about an alien quoting a long-dead human
thinker to her. Couldnt these people come up with their own ideas?
They are less inventive than humans, which may be duean interesting
ideato the shortage of unaltered males. Though as a rule, gifted
humans do not have many children. Maybe you are breeding to eliminate
genius.
"What we have done," said Cas, "is eliminate the tedious and violent
process of males competing against each other. Instead, our families
pick males who have good traits and keep them for breeding. The
rest of us can get on with our lives, undisturbed by lust, rage,
and fear."
"Arent you afraid youll lose useful traits?"
"A few, maybe. But if were not afraid to breed animals and plants,
on which our survival and civilization depend, why should we be
afraid to breed ourselves? Yes, we make mistakes, but we correct
them; and we dont spend our lives displaying and confronting."
There was something loony as well about this discussion. The problem
here wasnt natural selection, it was saving Tloo and pulling
Stellar Harvests cojones out of the fire. Lydia looked at Tloo.
"You wont come with us?"
"My planet . . ." said Tloo in a tone of anguish.
"Your stupid fear!" said Cas. "Why dont you think of someone
besides yourself for once? If you dont know what to do, think
of me! I dreamed of the stars my entire childhood and put the
dream away. Now, this human says I can have the stars, but only
if you can manage to use your brain. The thing on top, Tloo! Use
the thing on top!"
In spite of being taped and wounded, the big alien managed to
get on his feet. He yanked at his bound wrist, roared with pain,
and yanked again. Cas made it to his knees, but the way she had
taped him made it impossible to stand. Kneeling, he cried, "Go
ahead! Injure me! Youre done it once already! Its all you know
how to do! Threaten men and have sex with women! You will never
be anything except a stud!"
This wasnt helpful. Lydia stood, though she couldnt confront
Tloo. The man was twice her size. Still, she could now look down
at Cas. "Can you two argue in a civilized fashion? Or shall I
call my ship and ask to be evacuated?"
Tloo exhaled. "I will try to be calm, though hes enraging."
"Im enraging?" Cas said.
"Yes, you are," said Lydia. "Treat your brother with a little
respect. He cant help it if hes unaltered, and leaving ones
home planet is difficult."
Not for everyone, but for her, among others. It was the deal shed
cut. Freedom, a kind of freedom, in return for exile and an AI
in her brain. Had it been worth it? Yes. She had seen places she
never would have seen, if the revolution had been successful.
The brothers settled down after that. They spent the afternoon
in silence, Lydia walking out now and then to check the sky and
look at the plain, which rolled gold-tan to the horizon. The sky
was dotted with cumuli. There was a guy, she couldnt remember
his name, who went from planet to habitable planet, making sure
that clouds were the same throughout the universe. A nice quiet
job, unlike hers.
Yours is pleasant enough, most of the time. Why have you involved
yourself with these people?
"Freedom and justice."
These are abstractions. Ideas without meaning.
"You will never understand life."
The night passed quietly, except for the roar of a zanar on the plain. The same one, most likely, the brothers told her:
a male marking his territory with sound.
The next morning, she cut them free, and they went off to urinate.
When they came back, Tloo said, "I will go."
"You will?" asked Cas in a tone of surprise.
"For the pleasure, when we are both well, of hitting you, Casoon!
And because last night, looking at the stars, I remembered the
thoughts we shared in childhood. Yes, we will go up there and
pass through a stargate and see planets circling distant starsand
I will knock you down."
"Let that happen when it happens," said Cas.
She called the ship. The person with twisted hair appeared.
"Its a go," Lydia said.
The person smiled broadly. "You have a gift, Lydia. Well arrange
an evacuation. Secrecy is important. The brother will come?"
"Hes the one who wanted to go."
"Of course he does," said the person. "People like you and the
golden man arent romantics. How can you be? You live the stories
and know what the stories are like when they are lived, but those
of us who dontwe are the ones who dream and aspire!" He/she smiled again. "So
you will find us new locations, and in these places the golden
man will act out our dreams."
"Whatever you say." She closed the computer, folded the dish and
walked out to take another look at the plain, maybe a final one.
I suppose this is what you and your employers would call a "happy
ending," the AI said. Is that why you seem pleased with yourself?
Lydia didnt bother to answer, but she smiled. m |