Winter Moon -- Dean Koontz

(Version 2002.02.04)

CHAPTER ONE. 
Death was driving an emerald-green Lexus. It pulled off the street, 
passed the four self-service pumps, and stopped in one of the two 
full-service lanes. 

Standing in front of the station, Jack McGarvey noticed the car but not 
the driver. Even under a bruised and swollen sky that hid the sun, the 
Lexus gleamed like a jewel, a sleek and lustrous machine. The windows 
were darkly tinted, so he couldn't have seen the driver clearly even if 
he had tried. 

As a thirty-two-year-old cop with a wife, a child, and a big mortgage, 
Jack had no prospects of buying an expensive luxury car, but he didn't 
envy the owner of the Lexus. He often remembered his dad's admonition 
that envy was mental theft. If you coveted another man's possessions, 
Dad said, then you should be willing to take on his responsibilities, 
heartaches, and troubles along with his money. 

He stared at the car for a moment, admiring it as he might a priceless 
painting at the Getty Museum or a first edition of a James M. Cain 
novel in a pristine dust jacket--with no strong desire to possess it, 
taking pleasure merely from the fact of its existence. 

In a society that often seemed to be spinning toward anarchy, where 
ugliness and decay made new inroads every day, his spirits were lifted 
by any proof that the hands of men and women were capable of producing 
things of beauty and quality. The Lexus, of course, was an import, 
designed and manufactured on foreign shores, however, it was the entire 
human species that seemed damned, not just his countrymen, and evidence 
of standards and dedication was heartening regardless of where he found 
it. 

An attendant in a gray uniform hurried out of the office and approached 
the gleaming car, and Jack gave his full attention, once more, to 
Hassam Arkadian. 

"My station is an island of cleanliness in a filthy sea, an eye of 
sanity in a storm of madness," Arkadian said, speaking earnestly, 
unaware of sounding melodramatic. 

He was slender, about forty, with dark hair and a neatly trimmed 
mustache. The creases in the legs of his gray cotton work pants were 
knife-sharp, and his matching work shirt and jacket were immaculate. 

"I had the aluminum siding and the brick treated with a new sealant," 
he said, indicating the facade of the service station with a sweep of 
his arm. "Paint won't stick to it. Not even metallic paint. Wasn't 
cheap. But now when these gang kids or crazy-stupid taggers come 
around at night and spray their trash all over the walls, we scrub it 
off, scrub it right off the next morning." 

With his meticulous grooming, singular intensity, and quick slender 
hands, Arkadian might have been a surgeon about to begin his workday in 
an operating theater. He was, instead, the owner-operator of the 
service station. 

"Do you know," he said incredulously, "there are professors who have 
written books on the value of graffiti? The value of graffiti? The 
value?" 

"They call it street art," said Luther Bryson, Jack's partner. 
Arkadian gazed up disbelievingly at the towering black cop. "You think 
what these punks do is art?" 

"Hey, no, not me," Luther said. 
At six three and two hundred ten pounds, he was three inches taller 
than Jack and forty pounds heavier, with maybe eight inches and seventy 
pounds on Arkadian. Though he was a good partner and a good man, his 
granite face seemed incapable of the flexibility required for a 
smile. 

His deeply set eyes were unwaveringly forthright. My Malcolm X glare, 
he called it. With or without his uniform, Luther Bryson could 
intimidate anyone from the Pope to a purse snatcher. 

He wasn't using the glare now, wasn't trying to intimidate Arkadian, 
was in complete agreement with him. "Not me. I'm just saying that's 
what the candy-ass crowd calls it. Street art." 

The service-station owner said, "These are professors. Educated men 
and women. 

Doctors of art and literature. They have the benefit of an education 
my parents couldn't afford to give me, but they're stupid. There's no 
other word for it. Stupid, stupid, stupid." His expressive face 
revealed the frustration and anger that Jack encountered with 
increasing frequency in the City of Angels. "What fools do 
universities produce these days?" 

Arkadian had labored to make his operation special. Bracketing the 
property were wedge-shaped brick planters in which grew queen palms, 
azaleas laden with clusters of red flowers, and impatients in pinks and 
purples. There was no gnme, no litter. The portico covering the pumps 
was supported by brick columns, and the whole station had a quaint 
colonial appearance. 

In any age, the station would have seemed misplaced in Los Angeles. 
Freshly painted and clean, it was doubly out of place in the grunge 
that had been spreading like a malignancy through the city during the 
nineties. 

"Come on, come look, look," Arkadian said, and headed toward the south 
end of the building. 

"Poor guy's gonna blow out an artery in the brain over this," Luther 
said. 

"Somebody should tell him it's not fashionable to give a damn these 
days," Jack said. 

A low and menacing rumble of thunder rolled through the distended 
sky. 

Looking at the dark clouds, Luther said, "Weatherman predicted it 
wouldn't rain today." 

"Maybe it wasn't thunder. Maybe somebody finally blew up city hall." 
"You think? Well, if the place was full of politicians," Luther said, 
"we should take the rest of the day off, find a bar, do some 
celebrating." 

"Come on, officers," Arkadian called to them. He had reached the south 
corner of the building, near where they had parked their patrol car. 

"Look at this, I want you to see this, I want you to see my 
bathrooms." 

"His bathrooms?" Luther said. 
Jack laughed. "Hell, you got anything better to do?" 
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"A lot safer than chasing bad guys," Luther said, following Arkadian. 
Jack glanced at the Lexus again. Nice machine. Zero to sixty in how 
many seconds? Eight? Seven? Must handle like a dream. 

The driver had gotten out of the car and was standing beside it. Jack 
noticed little about the guy, only that he was wearing a loose-fitting, 
double-breasted Armani suit. 

The Lexus, on the other hand, had wire wheels and chrome guards around 
the wheel wells. Reflections of storm clouds moved slowly across its 
windshield and made mysterious smoky patterns in the depths of its 
jewel-green finish. 

Sighing, Jack followed Luther past the two open bays of the repair 
garage. The first stall was empty, but a gray BMW was on the hydraulic 
lift in the second space. A young Asian man in mechanic's coveralls 
was at work on the car. Tools and supplies were neatly racked along 
the walls, floor to ceiling, and the two bays looked cleaner than the 
average kitchen in a fourstar restaurant. 

At the corner of the building stood a pair of softdrink vending 
machines. They purred and clinked as if formulating and bottling the 
beverages within their own guts. 

Around the corner were the men's and women's rest rooms, where Arkadian 
had opened both doors. "Take a look, go ahead--I want you to see my 
bathrooms." 

Both small rooms had white ceramic-tile floors and walls, white 
commodes, white swing-top waste cans, white sinks, gleaming chrome 
fixtures, and large mirrors above the sinks. 

"Spotless," Arkadian said, talking fast, running his sentences together 
in his quiet anger. "No streaks on the mirrors, no stains in the 
sinks, we check them after every customer uses them, disinfect them 
every day, you could eat off those floors and it would be as safe as 
eating off the plates from your own mother's kitchen." 

Looking at Jack over Arkadian's head, Luther smiled and said, "I think 
I'll have a steak and baked potato. What about you?" 

"Just a salad," Jack said. "I'm trying to lose a few pounds." 
Even if he had been listening to them, Mr. Arkadian couldn't have been 
joked out of his bleak mood. He jangled a ring of keys. 

"I keep them locked, give the keys only to customers. City inspector 
stops around, he tells me a new rule says these are public facilities, 
so you've got to let them open for the public, whether they buy 
anything at your place or not." 

He jangled the keys again, harder, more angrily, then harder still. 
Neither Jack nor Luther tried to comment above the strident ring and 
raffle. 
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"Let them fine me. I'll pay the fine. When these are unlocked, the 
drunks and junkie bums who live in alleys and parks, they use my 
bathrooms, urinate on the floor, vomit in the sinks. You wouldn't 
believe the mess they make, disgusting, things I'd be embarrassed to 
talk about." 

Arkadian was actually blushing at the thought of what he could have 
told them. 

He waved the jangling keys in the air in front of each open door, and 
he reminded Jack of nothing so much as a voodoo priest casting a 
spell--in this case, to ward off the riffraff who would despoil his 
rest rooms. His face was as mottled and turbulent as the stormy sky. 

"Let me tell you something. Hassam Arkadian works sixty and seventy 
hours a week, Hassam Arkadian employs eight people full time, and 
Hassam Arkadian pays half of what he earns in taxes, but Hassam 
Arkadian is not going to spend his life cleaning up vomit because a 
bunch of stupid bureaucrats have more compassion for some 
lazy-drunken-psychojunkie bums than they have for people who are trying 
their damnedest to lead decent lives." 

He finished his speech in a rush, breathless. Stopped jangling the 
keys. 

Sighed. He closed the doors and locked them. 
Jack felt useless. He could see that Luther was uncomfortable too. 
Sometimes a cop couldn't do much more for a victim than nod in sympathy 
and shake his head in sorry amazement at the depths into which the city 
was sinking. That was one of the worst things about the job. 

Mr. Arkadian went around the corner to the front of the station 
again. 

He wasn't walking as fast as before. 
His shoulders were slumped, and for the first time he looked more 
dejected than angry, as if he had decided, perhaps on a subconscious 
level, to give up the fight. 

Jack hoped that wasn't the case. In his daily life, Hassam was 
struggling to realize a dream of a better future, a better world. He 
was one of a dwindling number who still had enough guts to resist 
entropy. Civilization's soldiers, warring on the side of hope, were 
already too few to make a satisfactory army. 

Adjusting their gun belts, Jack and Luther followed Arkadian past the 
soft-drink dispensers. 

The man in the Armani suit was standing at the second vending machine, 
studying the selections. He was about Jack's age, tall, blond, 
clean-shaven, with a golden-bronze complexion that could have been 
gotten locally at that time of year only from a tanning bed. As they 
walked by him, he pulled a handful of change from one pocket of his 
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baggy trousers and picked through the coins. 
Out at the pumps, the attendant was washing the windshield of the 
Lexus, though it had looked freshly washed when the car first pulled in 
from the street. 

Arkadian stopped at the plate-glass window that occupied half the front 
wall of the station office. "Street art," he said softly, sadly, as 
Jack and Luther joined him. "Only a fool would call it anything but 
vandalism. Barbarians are loose." 

Lately, some vandals had traded spray cans for stencils and acid 
paste. 

They etched their symbols and slogans on the glass of parked cars and 
the windows of businesses that were unprotected by security shutters at 
night. 

Arkadian's front window was permanently marred by half a dozen 
different personal marks made by members of the same gang, some of them 
repeated two and three times. In four-inch-high letters, they had also 
etched the words THE BLOODBATH IS COMING. 

These antisocial acts often reminded Jack of an event in Nazi Germany 
about which he'd once read: Before the war had even begun, psychopathic 
thugs had roamed the streets during one long night, Kristallnacht, 
defacing walls with hateful words, smashing windows of homes and stores 
owned by Jews until the streets glittered as if paved with crystal. 

Sometimes it seemed to him that the barbarians to which Arkadian 
referred were the new fascists, from both ends of the political 
spectrum this time, hating not just Jews but anyone with a stake in 
social order and civility. Their vandalism was a slow-motion 
Kristallnacht, conducted over years instead of hours. 

"It's worse on the next window," Arkadian said, leading them around the 
corner to the north side of the station. 

That wall of the office featured another large sheet of glass, on 
which, in addition to gang symbols, etched block letters proclaimed 
Armenian SHITHEAD. 

Even the sight of the racial slur couldn't rekindle Hassam Arkadian's 
anger. 

He stared sad-eyed at the offensive words and said, "I've always tried 
to treat people well. I'm not perfect, not without sin. Who is? But 
I've done my best to be a good man, fair, honest--and now this." 

"Won't make you feel any better," Luther said, "but if it was up to me, 
the law would let us take the creeps who do this and stencil that 
second word right above their eyes. Shithead. Etch it into their skin 
with acid just like they did to your glass. Make em walk around like 
that for a couple of years and see how their attitude improves before 
maybe we give them some plastic surgery." 

"You think you can find who did it?" Arkadian asked, though he surely 
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knew the answer. 
Luther shook his head, and Jack said, "Not a chance. We'll file a 
report, of course, but there's no manpower to work on small crime like 
this. Best thing you can do is install roll-down metal shutters the 
same day you replace the windows, so they're covered at night." 

"Otherwise, you'll be putting in new glass every week," Luther said, 
"and pretty soon your insurance company will drop you." 

"They already dropped my vandalism coverage after one claim," Hassam 
Arkadian said. "About the only thing they'll cover me for now is 
earthquake, flood, and fire. Not even fire if it happens in a riot." 

They stood in silence, staring at the window, brooding about their 
powerlessness. 

A cool March wind sprang up. In the nearby planter, the queen palms 
rustled, and soft creaking noises arose from where the stems of the big 
fronds joined the trunks. 

"Well," Jack said at last, "it could be worse, Mr. Arkadian. I mean, 
at least you're in a pretty good part of the city here on the West 
Side." 

"Yeah, and doesn't it break your heart," Arkadian said, "this is a good 
neighborhood." 

Jack didn't even want to think about that. 
Luther started to speak but was interrupted by a loud crash and a shout 
of anger from the front of the station. As the three of them hurried 
around the corner, a violent gust of wind made the plate-glass windows 
thrum. 

Fifty feet away, the man in the Armani suit kicked the vending machine 
again. 

A foaming can of Pepsi lay behind him, contents spreading across the 
blacktop. 

"Poison," he shouted at the machine, "poison, damn it, damn you, damn 
you, poison!" 

Arkadian rushed toward the customer. "Sir, please, I'm sorry, if the 
machine gave you the wrong selection--" "Hey, wait right there," Luther 
said, speaking as much to the station owner as to the infuriated 
stranger. 

In front of the office door, Jack caught up with Arkadian, put a hand 
on his shoulder, stopped him, and said, "Better let us handle this." 

"Damn poison," the customer said furiously, and he made a fist as if he 
wanted to punch the vending machine. 

"It's just the machine," Arkadian told Jack and Luther. "They keep 
saying it's fixed, but it keeps giving you Pepsi when you push Orange 
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Crush." 
As bad as things were in the City of Angels these days, Jack found it 
difficult to believe that Arkadian was accustomed to seeing people fly 
off the handle every time an unwanted can of Pepsi dropped into the 
dispensing tray. 

The customer turned away from the machine and from them, as if he might 
walk off and leave his Lexus. He seemed to be shaking with anger, but 
it was mostly the blustery wind shivering the loosely fitted suit. 

"What's wrong here?" Luther asked, heading toward the guy as thunder 
tolled across the lowering sky and the palms in the south planter 
thrashed against a backdrop of black clouds. 

Jack started to follow Luther before he saw the suit jacket billow out 
behind the blond, flapping like bat wings. Except the coat had been 
buttoned a moment ago. Double-breasted, buttoned twice. 

The angry man faced away from them still, shoulders hunched, head 
lowered. 

Because of the loose and billowing fabric of his suit, he seemed less 
than human, like a hunchbacked troll. The guy began to turn, and Jack 
would not have been surprised to see the deformed muzzle of a beast, 
but it was the same tan and cleanshaven face as before. 

Why had the son of a bitch unbuttoned the coat unless there was 
something under it that he needed, and what might an irrational and 
angry man need that he kept under his jacket, his loose-fitting suit 
jacket, his roomy goddamned jacket? 

Jack called a warning to Luther. 
But Luther sensed trouble too. His right hand moved toward the gun 
holstered on his hip. 

The perp had the advantage because he was the initiator. No one knew 
violence was at hand until he unleashed it, so he swung all the way 
around to face them, holding a weapon in both hands, before Luther and 
Jack had even touched their revolvers. 

Automatic gunfire hammered the day. Bullets pounded Luther's chest, 
knocked the big man off his feet, hurled him backward, and Hassam 
Arkadian spun from the impact of one-two-three hits, went down hard, 
screaming in agony. 

Jack threw himself against the glass door to the office. He almost 
made it to cover before taking a hit to the left leg. He felt as if 
he'd been clubbed across the thigh with a tire iron, but it was a 
bullet, not a blow. 

He dropped facedown on the office floor. The door swung shut behind 
him, gunfire shattered it, and gummy chunks of tempered glass cascaded 
across his back. 

Hot pain boiled sweat from him. 
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A radio was playing. Golden oldies. Dionne Warwick. Singing about 
the world needing love, sweet love. 

Outside, Arkadian was still screaming, but there wasn't a sound from 
Luther Bryson. 

Luther was dead. Jack couldn't think about that. Dead. Didn't dare 
think about it. Dead. Wouldn't think about it. 

The chatter of more gunfire. 
Someone else screamed. Probably the attendant at the Lexus. It wasn't 
a lasting scream. Brief, quickly choked off. 

Outside, Arkadian wasn't screaming anymore, either. He was sobbing and 
calling for Jesus. 

Hard, chill wind made the plate-glass windows vibrate. It hooted 
through the shattered door. 

The gunman would be coming. 
CHAPTER TWO. 
Jack was stunned at the quantity of his own blood on the vinyl-tile 
floor around him. Nausea squirmed through him, and greasy sweat 
streamed down his face. He couldn't take his eyes off the spreading 
stain that darkened his pants. 

He had never been shot before. The pain was terrible but not as bad as 
he would have expected. Worse than the pain was the sense of violation 
and vulnerability, a terrible frantic awareness of the true fragility 
of the human body. 

He might not be able to hold on to consciousness for long. A hungry 
darkness was already eating away at the edges of his vision. 

He probably couldn't put much weight on his left leg, and he didn't 
have time to pull himself up on his right alone, not while in such an 
exposed position. 

Shedding broken glass as a bright-scaled snake might shed an old skin, 
unavoidably leaving a trail of blood, he crawled fast on his belly 
alongside the L-shaped work counter behind which Arkadian kept the cash 
register. 

The gunman would be coming. 
From the sound the weapon made and the brief glimpse he'd gotten of it, 
Jack figured it was a submachine gun--maybe a Micro Uzi. The Micro was 
less than ten inches long with the wire stock folded forward but a lot 
heavier than a pistol, weighing about two kilos if it had a single 
magazine, heavier if it featured two magazines welded at right angles 
to give it a forty-round capacity. It would be like carrying a 
standard-size bag of sugar in a sling, it was sure to cause chronic 
neck pain, but not too big to fit an oversize shoulder holster under an 
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Armani suit--and worth the trouble if a man had snake-mean enemies. 
Could be an FN P90, too, or maybe a British Bushman 2, but probably not 
a Czech Skorpion, because a Skorpion fired only .32 ACP ammo. 

Judging by how hard Luther had gone down, this seemed to be a gun with 
more punch than a Skorpion, which the 9mm Micro Uzi provided. Forty 
rounds in the Uzi to start, and the son of a bitch had fired twelve, 
sixteen at most, so at least twenty-four rounds were left, and maybe a 
pocketful of spare cartridges. 

Thunder boomed, the air felt heavy with pent-up rain, wind shrieked 
through the ruined door, and the gun rattled again. Outside, Hassam 
Arkadian's cries to Jesus abruptly ended. 

Jack desperately pulled himself around the end of the counter, thinking 
the unthinkable. Luther Bryson dead. Arkadian dead. The attendant 
dead. Most likely the young Asian mechanic too. All of them wasted. 

The world had been turned upside down in less than a minute. 
Now it was one-on-one, survival of the fittest, and Jack wasn't afraid 
of that game. Though Darwinian selection tended to favor the guy with 
the biggest gun and best supply of ammunition, cleverness could 
outweigh caliber. He had been saved by his wits before and might be 
again. 

Surviving could be easier when he had his back to the wall, the odds 
were stacked high against him, and he had no one to worry about but 
himself. With only his own sorry ass on the line, he was more focused, 
free to risk inaction or recklessness, free to be a coward or a 
kamikaze fool, whatever the occasion demanded. 

Then he dragged himself entirely into the sheltered space behind the 
counter and discovered that he didn't, after all, enjoy the freedom of 
a sole survivor. A woman was huddled there: petite, long dark hair, 
attractive. Gray shirt, work pants, white socks, black shoes with 
thick rubber soles. She was in her mid-thirties, maybe five or six 
years younger than Hassam Arkadian. 

Could be his wife. No, not a wife any more. Widow. She was sitting 
on the floor, knees drawn up against her chest, arms wrapped tightly 
around her legs, trying to make herself as small as possible, straining 
for invisibility. 

Her presence changed everything for Jack, put him on the line and 
reduced his own chances of survival. He couldn't choose to hide, 
couldn't even opt for recklessness any longer. He had to think hard 
and clearly, determine the best course of action, and do the right 
thing. He was responsible for her. He had sworn an oath to serve and 
protect the public, and he was old-fashioned enough to take oaths 
seriously. 

The woman's eyes were wide with terror and shimmering with unspilled 
tears. 

Even in the midst of fear for her own life, she seemed to comprehend 
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the meaning of Arkadian's sudden lapse into silence. 
Jack drew his revolver. 
Serve and protect. 
He was shivering uncontrollably. His left leg was hot, but the rest of 
him was freezing, as if all his body heat was draining out through the 
wound. 

Outside, a sustained rattle of automatic-weapon fire ended in an 
explosion that rocked the service station, tipped over a candy-vending 
machine in the office, and blew in both big windows on which the gang 
symbols had been etched. The huddled woman covered her face with her 
hands, Jack squeezed his eyes shut, and glass spilled over the counter 
into the space where they had taken shelter. 

When he opened his eyes, endless phalanxes of shadows and light charged 
across the office. The wind coming through the shattered door was no 
longer chilly but hot, and the phantasms swarming over the walls were 
reflections of fire. 

The maniac with the Uzi had shot up one or more of the gasoline 
pumps. 

Cautiously Jack pulled himself up against the counter, putting no 
weight on his left leg. Though his misery still seemed inadequate to 
the wound, he figured it would get worse suddenly and soon. He didn't 
want to precipitate it by any action of his own for fear that a 
sufficiently fierce flash of pain would make him pass out. 

Under considerable pressure, jets of burning gasoline were squirting 
from one of the riddled pumps, splashing like molten lava onto the 
blacktop. The pavement sloped toward the busy street, and scintillant 
rivers of fire spread in that direction. 

The explosion had ignited the roof of the portico that sheltered the 
pumps. 

Flames licked rapidly toward the main building. 
The Lexus was on fire. The lunatic bastard had destroyed his own car, 
which in some strange way made him seem more completely out of control 
and dangerous than anything else he'd done. 

Amid the inferno, which became more panoramic by the second as the 
gasoline streamed across the blacktop, the killer was nowhere to be 
seen. Maybe he'd regained at least some of his senses and fled on 
foot. 

More likely, he was in the two-bay garage, coming at them by that route 
rather than making a bold approach through the shattered front 
entrance. Less than fifteen feet from Jack, a painted metal door 
connected the garage to the office. It was closed. 

Leaning against the counter, he gripped his revolver in both hands and 
aimed at the door, arms extended rigidly in front of him, ready to blow 
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the perp to hell at the first opportunity. His hands were shaking. So 
cold. He strained to hold the gun steady, which helped, but he 
couldn't entirely repress the tremors. 

The darkness at the edges of his vision had retreated. Now it began to 
encroach again. He blinked furiously, trying to wash away the 
frightening peripheral blindness as he might have tried to expel a 
speck of dust, but to no avail. 

The air smelled of gasoline and hot tar. Shifting wind blew smoke into 
the room--not much, just enough to make him want to cough. He clenched 
his teeth, making only a low choking sound in his throat, because the 
killer might be on the far side of the door, hesitating and 
listening. 

Still directing the revolver squarely at the entrance from the garage, 
he glanced outside into whirlwinds of tempestuous fire and churning 
shrouds of black smoke, afraid he was wrong. The gunman might erupt, 
after all, from that conflagration, like a demon out of perdition. 

The metal door again. Painted the palest blue. Like deep clear water 
seen through a layer of crystalline ice. 

The color made him cold. Everything made him cold--the hollow 
iron-hard thunk-thunk of his laboring heart, the whisper-soft weeping 
of the woman huddled on the floor behind him, the glittering debris of 
broken glass. Even the roar and crackle of the fire chilled him. 

Outside, seething flames had traveled the length of the portico and 
reached the front of the service station. The roof must be ablaze by 
now. 

The pale-blue door. 
Open it, you crazy sonofabitch. Come on, come on, come on. 
Another explosion. 
He had to turn his head completely away from the door to the garage and 
look directly at the front of the station to see what had happened, 
because he had lost nearly all of his peripheral vision. 

The fuel tank of the Lexus. The vehicle was engulfed, reduced to just 
the black skeleton of a car enwrapped by greedy tongues of fire that 
stripped it of its lustrous emerald paint, fine leather upholstery, and 
other plush appointments. 

The blue door remained closed. 
The revolver seemed to weigh a hundred pounds. His arms ached. He 
couldn't hold the weapon steady. Could barely hold it at all. 

He wanted to lie down and close his eyes. Sleep a little. Dream a 
little dream green pastures, wildflowers, a blue sky, the city long 
forgotten. 

When he looked down at his leg, he discovered he was standing in a pool 
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of blood. An artery must have been nicked, maybe torn, and he was 
going fast, dizzy just from looking down, nausea swelling anew, a 
trembling in his gut. 

Fire on the roof. He could hear it overhead, distinctly different from 
the crackle and roar of the blaze in front of the station, shingles 
popping, rafters creaking as construction joints were tortured by the 
fierce, dry heat. 

They might have only seconds before the ceiling exploded into flames or 
caved in on them. 

He didn't understand how he could be getting colder by the moment when 
fire was all around them. The sweat streaming down his face was like 
ice water. 

Even if the roof didn't cave in for a couple of minutes, he might be 
dead or too weak to pull the trigger when at last the killer rushed 
them. He couldn't wait any longer. 

He had to give up the two-hand grip on the gun. He needed his left 
hand to brace himself against the For mica top of the counter as he 
circled the end of it, keeping all weight off his left leg. 

But when he reached the end of the counter, he was too dizzy to hop the 
ten or twelve feet to the blue door. He had to use the toe of his left 
foot as a balance point, applying the minimum pressure required to stay 
erect as he hitched across the office. 

Surprisingly, the pain was bearable. Then he realized it was tolerable 
only because his leg was going numb. A cool tingle coursed through the 
limb from hip to ankle. Even the wound itself was no longer hot, not 
even warm. 

The door. His left hand on the knob looked so far away, as if he were 
peering at it through the wrong end of a pair of binoculars. 

Revolver in the right hand. Hanging down at his side. Like a massive 
dumbbell. 

The effort required to raise the weapon caused his stomach to keel over 
on itself repeatedly. 

The killer might be waiting on the other side, watching the knob, so 
Jack pushed the door open and went through it fast, the revolver thrust 
out in front of him. He stumbled, almost fell, and stepped past the 
door, swinging the gun right and left, heart pounding so hard it jolted 
his weakening arms, but there was no target. He could see all the way 
across the garage because the BMW was up on the service rack. The only 
person in sight was the Asian mechanic, as dead as the concrete on 
which he was sprawled. 

Jack turned to the blue door. It was black on this side, which seemed 
ominous, glossy black, and it had gone shut behind him. 

He took a step toward it, meaning to pull it open. He fell against it 
instead. 
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Harried by the changeable wind, a tide of bitter tarry smoke washed 
into the double-bay garage. 

Coughing, Jack wrenched open the door. The office was filled with 
smoke, an antechamber to hell. 

He shouted for the woman to come to him, and he was dismayed to hear 
that his shout was barely more than a thin wheeze. 

She was already on the move, however, and before he could try to shout 
again, she appeared out of the roiling smoke, with one hand clamped 
over her nose and mouth. 

At first, when she leaned against him, Jack thought she was seeking 
support, strength he didn't have to give, but he realized she was 
urging him to rely on her. He was the one who had taken the oath, who 
had sworn to serve and defend. 

He felt dismally inadequate because he couldn't scoop her up in his 
arms and carry her out of there as a hero might have done in a movie. 

He leaned on the woman as little as he dared and turned left with her 
in the direction of the open bay door, which was obscured by the 
smoke. 

He dragged his left leg. No longer any feeling in it whatsoever, no 
pain, not even a tingle. Dead weight. Eyes squeezed shut against the 
stinging smoke, bursts of color coruscating across the backs of his 
eyelids. Holding his breath, resisting a powerful urge to vomit. 

Somebody screaming, a shrill and terrible scream, on and on. No, not a 
scream. Sirens. Rapidly drawing closer. Then he and the woman were 
in the open, which he detected by a change in the wind, and he gasped 
for breath, which came cold and clean into his lungs. 

When he opened his eyes, the world was blurred by tears that the 
abrasive smoke had rubbed from him, and he blinked frantically until 
his sight cleared somewhat. Because of blood loss or shock, he was 
reduced to tunnel vision. It was like looking at the world through 
twin gun barrels, because the surrounding darkness was as smooth as the 
curve of a steel bore. 

To his left, everything was enveloped in flames. The Lexus. 
Portico. 
Service station. Arkadian's body was on fire. Luther's was not afire 
yet, but hot embers were falling on it, flaming bits of shingles and 
wood, and at any moment his uniform would ignite. Burning gasoline 
still arced from the riddled pumps and streamed toward the street. The 
blacktop along the perimeter of the blaze was melting, boiling. 

Churning masses of thick black smoke rose high above the city, blending 
into the pendulous black and gray storm clouds. 

Someone cursed. 
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Jack jerked his head to the right, away from the terrible but 
hypnotically fascinating inferno, and focused his narrowed field of 
vision on the soft-drink machines at the corner of the station. The 
killer was standing there, as if oblivious of the destruction he had 
wrought, feeding coins into the first of the two vending machines. 

Two more discarded cans of Pepsi lay on the asphalt behind him. The 
Micro Uzi was in his left hand, at his side, muzzle pointing at the 
pavement. He slammed the flat of his fist against one of the buttons 
on the selection board. 

Feebly shoving the woman away, Jack whispered, "Get down!" 
He turned clumsily toward the killer, swaying, barely able to remain on 
his feet. 

The can of soda clattered into the delivery tray. The gunman leaned 
forward, squinting, then cursed again. 

Shuddering violently, Jack struggled to raise his revolver. It seemed 
to be shackled to the ground on a short length of chain, requiring him 
to lift the entire world in order to bring the weapon high enough to 
aim. 

Aware of him, responding with an arrogant leisureliness, the psychopath 
in the expensive suit turned and advanced a couple of steps, bringing 
up his own weapon. 

Jack squeezed off a shot. He was so weak, the recoil knocked him 
backward and off his feet. 

The killer loosed a burst of six or eight rounds. 
Jack was already falling out of the line of fire. As bullets cut the 
air over his head, he fired another shot, and then a third as he 
crumpled onto the blacktop. 

Incredibly, the third round slammed the killer in the chest and pitched 
him backward into the vending machine. He bounced off the machine and 
dropped onto his knees. He was badly hurt, perhaps mortally wounded, 
his white silk shirt turning red as swiftly as a trick scarf 
transformed by a magician's deft hands, but he wasn't dead yet, and he 
still had the Micro Uzi. 

The sirens were extremely loud. Help was nearly at hand, but it was 
probably going to come too late. 

A blast of thunder breached a dam in the sky, and torrents of icy rain 
suddenly fell by the megaton. 

With an effort that nearly caused him to black out, Jack sat up and 
clasped his revolver in both hands. He squeezed off a shot that was 
wide of the mark. 

The recoil induced a muscle spasm in his arms. All the strength went 
out of his hands, and he lost his grip on the revolver, which clattered 
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onto the blacktop between his spread legs. 
The killer loosed two-three-four shots, and Jack took two hits in the 
chest. 

He was knocked flat. The back of his skull bounced painfully off the 
pavement. 

He tried to sit up again. He could only raise his head, and not far, 
just far enough to see that the killer had gone down after squeezing 
off that last barrage, facedown on the blacktop. The round in the 
chest had taken him out, though not fast enough. 

Jack's head lolled to his left. Even as his tunnel vision constricted 
further, he saw a black-and-white swing off the street, into the 
station at high speed, fishtailing to a stop as the driver stood on the 
brakes. 

Jack's vision closed down altogether. He was totally blind. 
He felt as helpless as a baby, and he began to cry. 
He heard doors opening, officers shouting. 
It was over. 
Luther was dead. Almost one year since Tommy Fernandez had been shot 
down beside him. Tommy, then Luther. Two good partners, good friends, 
in one year. 

But it was over. 
Voices. Sirens. A crash that might have been the portico collapsing 
over the service-station pumps. 

Sounds were increasingly muffled, as if someone was steadily packing 
his ears full of cotton. His hearing was fading in much the same way 
that his vision had gone. 

Other senses too. He repeatedly pursed his dry mouth, trying 
unsuccessfully to work up some saliva and get a taste of something, 
even the acrid fumes of gasoline and burning tar. He couldn't smell 
anything, either, although a moment ago the air had been ripe with foul 
odors. 

Couldn't feel the pavement under him. Or the blustery wind. No pain 
any more. 

Not even a tingle. Just cold. Deep, penetrating cold. 
Utter deafness overcame him. 
Holding desperately to the spark of life in a body that had become an 
insensate receptacle for his mind, he wondered if he would ever see 
Heather and Toby again. When he tried to summon their faces from 
memory, he could not recall what they looked like, his wife and son, 
two people he loved more than life itself, couldn't remember their eyes 
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or the color of their hair, which scared him, terrified him. He knew 
he was shaking with grief, as if they had died, but he couldn't feel 
the shakes, knew he was crying but couldn't feel the tears, strained 
harder to bring their precious faces to mind, Toby and Heather, Heather 
and Toby, but his imagination was as blind as his eyes. His interior 
world wasn't a bottomless pit of darkness but a blank wintry whiteness, 
like a vision of driving snow, a blizzard, frigid, glacial, arctic, 
unrelenting. 

CHAPTER THREE. 
Lightning flashed, followed by a crash of thunder so powerful it 
rattled the kitchen windows. The storm began not with a sprinkle or 
drizzle but with a sudden downpour, as if clouds were hollow structures 
that could shatter like eggshells and spill their entire contents at 
once. 

Heather was standing at the counter beside the refrigerator, scooping 
orange sherbet out of a carton into a bowl, and she turned to look at 
the window above the sink. Rain was falling so hard it almost appeared 
to be snow, a white deluge. The branches of the ficus benjamina in the 
backyard drooped under the weight of that vertical river, their longest 
trailers touching the ground. 

She was relieved she wouldn't be on the freeways later in the day, 
commuting home from work. Due to a lack of regular experience, 
Californians weren't good at driving in rain, they either slowed to a 
crawl and took such extreme precautions that they halted traffic, or 
they proceeded in their usual gonzo fashion and careened into one 
another with a recklessness approaching enthusiasm. Later, a lot of 
people would find their usual hour-long evening commute stretching into 
a two-and-a-half-hour ordeal. 

There was, after all, a bright side to being unemployed. She just 
hadn't been looking hard enough for it. No doubt, if she put her mind 
to it, she'd think of a long list of other benefits. Like not having 
to buy any new clothes for work. Look how much she had saved right 
there. Didn't have to worry about the stability of the bank in which 
they had their savings account, either, because at the rate they were 
going, they wouldn't have a savings account in a few months, not on 
just Jack's salary, since the city's latest financial crisis had 
required him to take a pay cut. Taxes had gone up again too, both 
state and federal, so she was saving all the money that the government 
would have taken and squandered in her name if she'd been on someone's 
payroll. Gosh, when you really thought about it, being laid off after 
ten years at IBM wasn't a tragedy, not even a crisis, but a virtual 
festival of life-enhancing change. 

"Give it a rest, Heather," she warned herself, closing up the carton of 
sherbet and returning it to the freezer. 

Jack, ever the grinning optimist, said nothing could be gained by 
dwelling on bad news, and he was right, of course. His upbeat nature, 
genial personality, and resilient heart had made it possible for him to 
endure a nightmarish childhood and adolescence that would have broken 
many people. 
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More recently, his philosophy had served him well as he'd struggled 
through the worst year of his career with the Department. After almost 
a decade together on the streets, he and Tommy Fernandez had been as 
close as brothers. Tommy had been dead more than eleven months now, 
but at least one night a week Jack woke from vivid dreams in which his 
partner and friend was dying again. He always slipped from bed and 
went to the kitchen for a post-midnight beer or to the living room just 
to sit alone in the darkness awhile, unaware that Heather had been 
awakened by the soft cries that escaped him in his sleep. On other 
nights, months ago, she had learned that she could neither do nor say 
anything to help him, he needed to be by himself. After he left the 
room, she often reached out beneath the covers to put her hand on the 
sheets, which were still warm with his body heat and damp with the 
perspiration wrung out of him by anguish. 

In spite of everything, Jack remained a walking advertisement for the 
power of positive thinking. Heather was determined to match his 
cheerful disposition and his capacity for hope. 

At the sink, she rinsed the residue of sherbet off the scoop. 
Her own mother, Sally, was a world-class whiner who viewed every piece 
of bad news as a personal catastrophe, even if the event that disturbed 
her had occurred at the farthest end of the earth and had involved only 
total strangers. Political unrest in the Philippines could set Sally 
off on a despairing monologue about the higher prices she believed she 
would be forced to pay for sugar and for everything containing sugar if 
the Philippine cane crop was destroyed in a bloody civil war. A 
hangnail was as troublesome to her as a broken arm to an ordinary 
person, a headache invariably signaled an impending stroke, and a minor 
ulcer in the mouth was a sure sign of terminal cancer. The woman 
thrived on bad news and gloom. 

Eleven years ago, when Heather was twenty, she'd been delighted to 
cease being a Beckerman and to become a McGarvey--unlike some friends, 
in that era of burgeoning feminism, who had continued to use their 
maiden names after marriage or resorted to hyphenated surnames. She 
wasn't the first child in history who became determined to be nothing 
whatsoever like her parents, but she liked to think she was 
extraordinarily diligent about ridding herself of parental traits. 

As she got a spoon out of a drawer, picked up the bowl full of sherbet, 
and went into the living room, Heather realized another upside to being 
unemployed was that she didn't have to miss work to care for Toby when 
he was home sick from school or hire a sitter to look after him. She 
could be right there where he needed her and suffer none of the guilt 
of a working mom. 

Of course, their health insurance had covered only eighty percent of 
the cost of the visit to the doctor's office on Monday morning, and the 
twenty-percent copayment had caught her attention as never before. It 
had seemed huge. But that was Beckerman thinking, not McGarvey 
thinking. 

Toby was in his pajamas in an armchair in the living room, in front of 
the television, legs stretched out on a footstool, covered in 
blankets. 
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He was watching cartoons on a cable channel that programmed exclusively 
for kids. 

Heather knew to the penny what the cable subscription cost. Back in 
October, when she'd still had a job, she'd have had to guess at the 
amount and might not have come within five dollars of it. 

On the TV, a tiny mouse was chasing a cat, which had apparently been 
hypnotized into believing that the mouse was six feet tall with fangs 
and blood-red eyes. 

"Gourmet orange sherbet," she said, handing Toby the bowl and spoon, 
"finest on the planet, brewed it up myself, hours upon hours of 
drudgery, had to kill and skin two dozen sherbets to make it." 

"Thanks, Mom," he said, grinning at her, then grinning even more 
broadly at the sherbet before raising his eyes to the TV screen and 
locking onto the cartoon again. 

Sunday through Tuesday, he had stayed in bed without making a fuss, too 
miserable even to agitate for television time. He had slept so much 
that she'd begun to worry, but evidently sleep had been what he 
needed. 

Last night, for the first time since Sunday, he'd been able to keep 
more than clear liquids in his stomach, he'd asked for sherbet and 
hadn't gotten sick on it. This morning he'd risked two slices of 
unbuttered white toast, and now sherbet again. His fever had broken, 
the flu seemed to be running its course. 

Heather settled into another armchair. On the end table beside her, a 
coffee-pot-shaped thermos and a heavy white ceramic mug with red and 
purple flowers stood on a plastic tray. She uncapped the thermos and 
refilled the mug with a premium coffee flavored with almond and 
chocolate, relishing the fragrant steam, trying not to calculate the 
cost per cup of this indulgence. 

After curling her legs on the chair, pulling an afghan over her lap, 
and sipping the brew, she picked up a paperback edition of a Dick 
Francis novel. 

She opened to the page she had marked with a slip of paper, and she 
tried to return to a world of English manners, morals, and mysteries. 

She felt guilty, though she was not neglecting anything to spend time 
with a book. No housework needed to be done. When they'd both held 
jobs, she and Jack had shared chores at home. They still shared 
them. 

When she'd been laid off, she'd insisted on taking over his domestic 
duties, but he'd refused. He probably thought that letting her fill 
her time with housework would lead her to the depressing conviction 
that she would never find another job. He'd always been as sensitive 
about other people's feelings as he was optimistic about his own 
prospects. As a result, the house was clean, the laundry was done, and 
her only chore was to watch over Toby, which wasn't a chore at all 
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because he was such a good kid. Her guilt was the irrational if 
inescapable result of being, by nature and by choice, a working woman 
who, in this deep recession, was not permitted to work. 

She had submitted applications to twenty-six companies. Now all she 
could do was wait. And read Dick Francis. 

The melodramatic music and comic voices on the television didn't 
distract her. 

Indeed, the fragrant coffee, the comfort of the chair, and the cold 
sound of winter rain drumming on the roof combined to take her mind off 
her worries and let her slip into the novel. 

Heather had been reading fifteen minutes when Toby said, "Mom?" 
"Hmmm?" she said, without looking up from her book. 
"Why do cats always want to kill mice?" 
Marking her place in the book with her thumb, she glanced at the 
television, where a different cat and mouse were involved in another 
slapstick chase, the former pursuing the latter this time. 

"Why can't they be friends with mice," the boy asked, "instead of 
wanting to kill them all the time?" 

"It's just a cat's nature," she said. 
"But why?" 
"It's the way God made cats." 
"Doesn't God like mice?" 
"Well, He must, because He made mice too." 
"Then why make cats to kill them?" 
"If mice didn't have natural enemies like cats and owls and coyotes, 
they'd overrun the world." 

"Why would they overrun the world?" 
"Because they give birth to litters, not single babies." 
"So?" 
"So if they didn't have natural enemies to control their numbers, 
there'd be a trillion billion mice eating up all the food in the world, 
with nothing left for cats or us." 

"If God didn't want mice to overrun the world, why didn't He just make 
them so they have single babies at a time?" 

Adults always lost the Why Game, because eventually the train of 
questions led to a dead-end track with no answer. 
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Heather said, "You got me there, kiddo." 
"I think it's mean to make mice have a lot of babies and then make cats 
to kill them." 

"You'll have to discuss that with God, I'm afraid." 
"You mean when I go to bed tonight and say my prayers?" 
"Best time," she said, freshening the coffee in her mug with the supply 
in the thermos. 

Toby said, "I always ask Him questions, then I always fall asleep 
before He answers me. Why does He let me fall asleep before I can get 
the answer?" 

"That's the way God works. He only talks to you in your sleep. If you 
listen, then you wake up with the answer." 

She was proud of that one. She seemed to be holding her own. 
Frowning, Toby said, "But usually I still don't know the answer when I 
wake up. Why don't I know it if He told me?" 

Heather took a few sips of coffee to gain time. Then she said, "Well, 
see, God doesn't want to just give you all the answers. The reason 
we're here on this world is to find the answers ourselves, to learn and 
gain understanding by our own efforts." 

Good. Very good. She felt modestly exhilarated, as if she'd held on 
longer than she'd any right to expect in a tennis match with a 
world-class player. 

Toby said, "Mice aren't the only things get chased and killed. For 
every animal, there's another animal wants to tear it to pieces." He 
glanced at the TV. "See, there, like dogs want to murder cats." 

The cat that had been chasing the mouse was now, in turn, being pursued 
by a fierce-looking bulldog in a spiked collar. 

Looking at his mother again, Toby said, "Why does every animal have 
another animal that wants to kill it? Would cats overrun the world 
without their natural enemies?" 

The Why Game train had come to another dead end in the track. Oh, yes, 
she could have discussed the concept of original sin, told him how the 
world had been a serene realm of peace and plenty until Eve and Adam 
had fallen from grace and let death into the world. But all of that 
seemed to be heavy stuff for an eight-year-old. Besides, she wasn't 
sure she believed any of it, though it was the explanation for evil, 
violence, and death with which she herself had grown up. 

Fortunately, Toby spared her from the admission that she had no 
answer. 

"If I was God, I woulda made just one mom and dad and kid of each kind 
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of thing. You know? Like one mother golden retriever and one father 
golden retriever and one puppy." 

He had long wanted a golden retriever, but they'd been delaying because 
their five-room house seemed too small for such a large dog. 

"Nothing would ever die or grow old," Toby said, continuing to describe 
the world he would have made, "so the puppy would always be a puppy, 
and there could never be more of any one thing to overrun the world, 
and then nothing would have to kill anything else." 

That, of course, was the paradise that supposedly once had been. 
"I wouldn't make any bees or spiders or cockroaches or snakes," he 
said, wrinkling his face in disgust. "That never made any sense. God 
musta been in a really weird mood that day." 

Heather laughed. She loved this kid to pieces. 
"Well, He musta been," Toby insisted, turning his attention to the 
television again. 

He looked so like Jack. He had Jack's beautiful gray-blue eyes and 
open guileless face. Jack's nose. But he had her blond hair, and he 
was slightly small for his age, so it was possible he had inherited 
more of his body type from her than from his father. Jack was tall and 
solidly built, Heather was five four, slender. Toby was obviously the 
son of both, and sometimes, like now, his existence seemed 
miraculous. 

He was the living symbol of her love for Jack and of Jack's love for 
her, and if death was the price to be paid for the miracle of 
procreation, then perhaps the bargain made in Eden wasn't as lopsided 
as it sometimes seemed. 

On TV, Sylvester the cat was trying to kill Tweetie the canary, but 
unlike real life, the tiny bird was getting the best of the sputtering 
feline. 

The telephone rang. 
Heather put her book on the arm of the chair, flung the afghan aside, 
and got up. Toby had eaten all the sherbet, and she plucked the empty 
bowl from his lap on her way to the kitchen. 

The phone was on the wall beside the refrigerator. She put the bowl on 
the counter and picked up the receiver. "Hello?" 

"Heather?" 
"Speaking." 
"It's Lyle Crawford." 
Crawford was the captain of Jack's division, the man to whom he 
answered. 
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Maybe it was the fact that Crawford had never called her before, maybe 
it was something in the tone of his voice, or maybe it was just the 
instincts of a cop's wife, -but she knew at once that something was 
terribly wrong. Her heart began to race, and for a moment she couldn't 
breathe. Then suddenly she was breathing shallowly, rapidly, and 
expelling the same word with each exhalation: "No, no, no, no." 

Crawford was saying something, but Heather couldn't make herself listen 
to him, as if whatever had happened to Jack would not really have 
happened as long as she refused to hear the ugly facts put into 
words. 

Someone was knocking at the back door. 
She turned, looked. Through the window in the door, she saw a man in 
uniform, dripping rain, Louie Silverman, another cop from Jack's 
division, a good friend for eight years, nine years, maybe longer, 
Louie with the rubbery face and unruly red hair. Because he was a 
friend, he had come around to the back door in stead of knocking at the 
front, not so formal that way, not so damn cold and horribly formal, 
just a friend at the back door, oh God, just a friend at the back door 
with some news. 

Louie said her name. Muffled by the glass. So forlorn, the way he 
said her name. 

"Wait, wait," she told Lyle Crawford, and she took the receiver away 
from her ear, held it against her breast. 

She closed her eyes too, so she wouldn't have to look at poor Louie's 
face pressed to the window in the door. So gray, his face, so drawn 
and gray. He loved Jack too. Poor Louie. 

She chewed on her lower lip and squeezed her eyes tightly shut and held 
the phone in both hands against her chest, searching for the strength 
she was going to need, praying for the strength. 

She heard a key in the back door. Louie knew where they hid the spare 
on the porch. 

The door opened. He came inside with the sound of rain swelling behind 
him. 

"Heather," he said. 
The sound of the rain. The rain. The cold merciless sound of the 
rain. 

CHAPTER FOUR. 
The Montana morning was high and blue, pierced by mountains with peaks 
as white as angels' robes, graced by forests green and by the smooth 
contours of lower meadows still asleep under winter's mantle. The air 
was pure and so clear it seemed possible to look all the way to China 
if not for the obstructing terrain. 

Eduardo Fernandez stood on the front porch of the ranch house, staring 
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across the down-sloping, snowcovered fields to the woods a hundred 
yards to the east. 

Sugar pines and yellow pines crowded close to one another and pinned 
inky shadows to the ground, as if the night never quite escaped their 
needled grasp even with the rising of a bright sun in a cloudless 
sky. 

The silence was deep. Eduardo lived alone, and his nearest neighbor 
was two miles away. The wind was still abed, and nothing moved across 
that vast panorama except for two birds of prey--hawks, 
perhaps--circling soundlessly high overhead. 

Shortly after one o'clock in the morning, when the night usually would 
have been equally steeped in silence, Eduardo had been awakened by a 
strange sound. 

The longer he had listened, the stranger it had seemed. As he had 
gotten out of bed to seek the source, he had been surprised to find he 
was afraid. After seven decades of taking what life threw at him, 
having attained spiritual peace and an acceptance of the inevitability 
of death, he'd not been frightened of anything in a long time. He was 
unnerved, therefore, when last night he had felt his heart thudding 
furiously and his gut clenching with dread merely because of a queer 
sound. 

Unlike many seventy-year-old men, Eduardo rarely had difficulty 
attaining plumbless sleep for a full eight hours. His days were filled 
with physical activity, his evenings with the solace of good books, a 
lifetime of measured habits and moderation left him vigorous in old 
age, without troubling regrets, content. Loneliness was the only curse 
of his life, since Margaret had died three years before, and on those 
infrequent occasions when he woke in the middle of the night, it was a 
dream of his lost wife that harried him from sleep. 

The sound had been less loud than all-pervasive. A low throbbing that 
swelled like a series of waves rushing toward a beach. Beneath the 
throbbing, an undertone that was almost subliminal, quaverous, an eerie 
electronic oscillation. He'd not only heard it but felt it, vibrating 
in his teeth, his bones. The glass in the windows hummed with it. 

When he placed a hand flat against the wall, he swore that he could 
feel the waves of sound cresting through the house itself, like the 
slow beating of a heart beneath the plaster. 

sure, as if he had been listening to someone or something rhythmically 
straining against confinement, struggling to break out of a prison or 
through a barrier. 

But who? 
Or what? 
Eventually, after scrambling out of bed, pulling on pants and shoes, he 
had gone onto the front porch, where he had seen the light in the 
woods. No, he had to be more honest with himself. It hadn't been 
merely a light in the woods, nothing as simple as that. 
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He wasn't superstitious. Even as a young man, he had prided himself on 
his levelheadedness, common sense, and unsentimental grasp of the 
realities of life. The writers whose books lined his study were those 
with a crisp, simple style and with no patience for fantasy, men with a 
cold clear vision, who saw the world for what it was and not for what 
it might be: men like Hemingway, Raymond Carver, Ford Madox Ford. 

The phenomenon in the lower woods was nothing that his favorite 
writers--every last one of them a realist--could have incorporated into 
their stories. The light had not been from an object within the 
forest, against which the pines had been silhouetted, rather, it had 
come from the pines themselves, mottled amber radiance that appeared to 
originate within the bark, within the boughs, as if the tree roots had 
siphoned water from a subterranean pool contaminated by a greater 
percentage of radium than the paint with which watch dials had once 
been coated to allow time to be told in the dark. 

Accompanying that pulse had been a sense of presi A cluster of ten to 
twenty pines had been involved. 

Like a glowing shrine in the otherwise night-black fastness of 
timber. 

Unquestionably, the mysterious source of the light was also the source 
of the sound. When the former had begun to fade, so had the latter. 

Quieter and dimmer, quieter and dimmer. The March night had become 
silent and dark again in the same instant, marked only by the sound of 
his own breathing and illuminated by nothing stranger than the silver 
crescent of a quarter moon and the pearly phosphorescence of the 
snow-shrouded fields. 

The event had lasted about seven minutes. 
It had seemed much longer. 
Back inside the house, he had stood at the windows, waiting to see what 
would happen next. Eventually, when that seemed to have been the sum 
of it, he returned to bed. 

He had not been able to get back to sleep. He had lain awake ... 
wondering. 
Every morning he sat down to breakfast at six-thirty, with his big 
shortwave radio tuned to a station in Chicago that provided 
international news twenty-four hours a day. The peculiar experience 
during the previous night hadn't been a sufficient interruption of the 
rhythms of his life to make him alter his schedule. This morning he'd 
eaten the entire contents of a large can of grapefruit sections, 
followed by two eggs over easy, home fries, a quarter pound of bacon, 
and four slices of buttered toast. He hadn't lost his hearty appetite 
with age, and a lifelong dedication to the foods that were hardest on 
the heart had only left him with the constitution of a man more than 
twenty years his junior. 
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Finished eating, he always liked to linger over several cups of black 
coffee, listening to the endless troubles of the world. The news 
unfailingly confirmed the wisdom of living in a far place with no 
neighbors in view. 

This morning, though he had lingered longer than usual with his coffee, 
and though the radio had been on, he hadn't been able to remember a 
word of the news when he pushed back his chair and got up from 
breakfast. The entire time, he had been studying the woods through the 
window beside the table, trying to decide if he should go down to the 
foot of the meadow and search for evidence of the enigmatic 
visitation. 

Now, standing on the front porch in knee-high boots, jeans, sweater, 
and sheepskin-lined jacket, wearing a cap with fur-lined earflaps tied 
under his chin, he still hadn't decided what he was going to do. 

Incredibly, fear was still with him. Bizarre as they might have been, 
the tides of pulsating sound and the luminosity in the trees had not 
harmed him. 

Whatever threat he perceived was entirely subjective, no doubt more 
imaginary than real. 

Finally he became sufficiently angry with himself to break the chains 
of dread. He descended the porch steps and strode across the front 
yard. 

The transition from yard to meadow was hidden under a cloak of snow six 
to eight inches deep in some places and knee-high in others, depending 
on where the wind had scoured it away or piled it. After thirty years 
on the ranch, he was so familiar with the contours of the land and the 
ways of the wind that he unthinkingly chose the route that offered the 
least resistance. 

White plumes of breath steamed from him. The bitter air brought a 
pleasant flush to his cheeks. He calmed himself by concentrating 
on--and enjoying--the familiar effects of a winter day. 

He stood for a while at the end of the meadow, studying the very trees 
that, last night, had glowed a smoky amber against the black backdrop 
of the deeper woods, as if they had been imbued with a divine presence, 
like God in the bush that burned without being consumed. This morning 
they looked no more special than a million other sugar and ponderosa 
pines, the former somewhat greener than the latter. 

The specimens at the edge of the forest were younger than those rising 
behind them, only about thirty to thirty-five feet tall, as young as 
twenty years. 

They had grown from seeds fallen to the earth when he had already been 
on the ranch a decade, and he felt as if he knew them more intimately 
than he had known most people in his life. 

The woods had always seemed like a cathedral to him. The trunks of the 
great evergreens were reminiscent of the granite columns of a nave, 
soaring high to support a vaulted ceiling of green boughs. The 
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pine-scented silence was ideal for meditation. Walking the meandering 
deer trails, he often had a sense that he was in a sacred place, that 
he was not just a man of flesh and bone but an heir to eternity. 

He had always felt safe in the woods. 
Until now. 
Stepping out of the meadow and into the random-patterned mosaic of 
shadows and sunlight beneath the interlaced pine branches, Eduardo 
found nothing out of the ordinary. Neither the trunks nor the boughs 
showed signs of heat damage, no charring, not even a singed curl of 
bark or blackened cluster of needles. 

The thin layer of snow under the trees had not melted anywhere, and the 
only tracks in it were those of deer, raccoon, and smaller animals. 

He broke off a piece of bark from a sugar pine and crumbled it between 
the thumb and forefinger of his gloved right hand. Nothing unusual 
about it. 

He moved deeper into the woods, past the place where the trees had 
stood in radiant splendor in the night. Some of the older pines were 
over two hundred feet tall. The shadows grew more numerous and blacker 
than ash buds in the front of March, while the sun found fewer places 
to intrude. 

His heart would not be still. It thudded hard and fast. 
He could find nothing in the woods but what had always been there, yet 
his heart would not be still. 

His mouth was dry. The full curve of his spine was clad in a chill 
that had nothing to do with the wintry air. 

Annoyed with himself, Eduardo turned back toward the meadow, following 
the tracks he had left in the patches of snow and the thick carpet of 
dead pine needles. The crunch of his footsteps disturbed a slumbering 
owl from its secret perch in some high bower. 

He felt a wrongness in the woods. He couldn't put a finer point on it 
than that. Which sharpened his annoyance. A wrongness. What the hell 
did that mean? A wrongness. 

The hooting owl. 
Spiny black pine cones on white snow. 
Pale beams of sunlight lancing through the gaps in the gray-green 
branches. 

All of it ordinary. Peaceful. Yet wrong. 
As he returned to the perimeter of the forest, with snow-covered fields 
visible between the trunks of the trees ahead, he was suddenly certain 
that he was not going to reach open ground, that something was rushing 
at him from behind, some creature as indefinable as the wrongness that 
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he sensed around him. He began to move faster. Fear swelled step by 
step. The hooting of the owl seemed to sour into a cry as alien as the 
shriek of a nemesis in a nightmare. He stumbled on an exposed root, 
his heart trip-hammered, and he spun around with a cry of terror to 
confront whatever demon was in pursuit of him. 

He was, of course, alone. 
Shadows and sunlight. 
The hoot of an owl. A soft and lonely sound. As ever. 
Cursing himself, he headed for the meadow again. Reached it. The 
trees were behind him. He was safe. 

Then, dear sweet Jesus, the fear again, worse than ever, the absolute 
dead certainty that it was coming--what?--that it was for sure gaining 
on him, that it would drag him down, that it was bent upon committing 
an act infinitely worse than murder, that it had an inhuman purpose and 
unknown uses for him so strange they were beyond both his understanding 
and conception. 

This time he was in the grip of a terror so black and profound, so 
mindless, that he could not summon the courage to turn and confront the 
empty day behind him--if, indeed, it proved to be empty this time. He 
raced toward the house, which appeared far more distant than a hundred 
yards, a citadel beyond his reach. He kicked through shallow snow, 
blundered into deeper drifts, ran and churned and staggered and flailed 
uphill, making wordless sounds of blind panic--" Uh, uh, uhhhhh, uh, 
uh"--all intellect repressed by instinct, until he found himself at the 
porch steps, up which he scrambled, at the top of which he turned, at 
last, to scream--" No!"--at the clear, crisp, blue Montana day. 

The pristine mantle of snow across the broad field was marred only by 
his own trail to and from the woods. 

He went inside. 
He bolted the door. 
In the big kitchen he stood for a long time in front of the brick 
fireplace, still dressed for the outdoors, basking in the heat that 
poured across the hearth--yet unable to get warm. 

Old. He was an old man. Seventy. An old man who had lived alone too 
long, who sorely missed his wife. If senility had crept up on him, who 
was around to notice? An old, lonely man with cabin fever, imagining 
things. 

"Bullshit," he said after a while. 
He was lonely, all right, but he wasn't senile. 
After stripping out of his hat, coat, gloves, and boots, he got the 
hunting rifles and shotguns out of the locked cabinet in the study. He 
loaded all of them. 
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Mae Hong, who lived across the street, came over to take care of 
Toby. 

Her husband was a cop too, though not in the same division as Jack. 
Because the Hongs had no children of their own yet, Mae was free to 
stay as late as necessary, in the event Heather needed to put in a long 
vigil at the hospital. 

While Louie Silverman and Mae remained in the kitchen, Heather lowered 
the sound on the television and told Toby what had happened. She sat 
on the foot-stool, and after tossing the blankets aside, he perched on 
the edge of the chair. She held his small hands in hers. 

She didn't share the grimmest details with him, in part because she 
didn't know all of them herself but also because an eight-year-old 
could handle only so much. On the other hand, she couldn't gloss over 
the situation, either, because they were a police family. 

They lived with the repressed expectation of JUSt such a disaster as 
had struck that morning, and even a child had the need and the right to 
know when his father had been seriously wounded. 

"Can I go to the hospital with you?" Toby asked, holding more tightly 
to her hands than he probably realized. 

"It's best for you to stay here right now, honey." 
"I'm not sick any more." 
"Yes, you are." 
"I feel good." 
"You don't want to give your germs to your dad." 
"He'll be all right, won't he?" 
She could give him only one answer even if she couldn't be certain it 
would prove to be correct. "Yes, baby, he's going to be all right." 

His gaze was direct. He wanted the truth. Right at that moment he 
seemed to be far older than eight. Maybe cops' kids grew up faster 
than others, faster than they should. 

"You're sure?" he said. 
"Yes. I'm sure." 
"Where was he shot?" 
"In the leg." 
Not a lie. It was one of the places he was shot. In the leg and two 
hits in the torso, Crawford had said. Two hits in the torso. Jesus. 

What did that mean? Take out a lung? Gutshot? The heart? At least 
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he hadn't sustained head wounds. Tommy Fernandez had been shot in the 
head, no chance. 

She felt a sob of anguish rising in her, and she strained to force it 
down, didn't dare give voice to it, not in front of Toby. 

"That's not so bad, in the leg," Toby said, but his lower lip was 
trembling. 

"What about the bad guy?" 
"He's dead." 
"Daddy got him?" 
"Yes, he got him." 
"Good," Toby said solemnly. 
"Daddy did what was right, and now we have to do what's right too, we 
have to be strong. Okay?" 

"Yeah." 
He was so small. It wasn't fair to put such a weight on a boy so 
small. 

She said, "Daddy needs to know we're okay, that we're strong, so he 
doesn't have to worry about us and can concentrate on getting well." 

"Sure." 
"That's my boy." She squeezed his hands. "I'm real proud of you, do 
you know that?" 

Suddenly shy, he looked at the floor. "Well ... I'm ... I'm proud of 
Daddy." 

"You should be, Toby. Your dad's a hero." 
He nodded but couldn't speak. His face was screwed up as he strained 
to avoid tears. 

"You be good for Mae." 
"Yeah." 
"I'll be back as soon as I can." 
"When?" 
"As soon as I can." 
He sprang off the chair, into her arms, so fast and with such force he 
almost knocked her off the stool. She hugged him fiercely. He was 
shuddering as if with fever chills, though that stage of his illness 
had passed almost two days ago. Heather squeezed her eyes shut, bit 
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down on her tongue almost hard enough to draw blood, being strong, 
being strong even if, damn it, no one should ever have to be so 
strong. 

"Gotta go," she said softly. 
Toby pulled back from her. 
She smiled at him, smoothed his tousled hair. 
He settled into the armchair and propped his legs on the stool again. 
She tucked the blankets around him, then turned the sound up on the 
television once more. 

Elmer Fudd trying to terminate Bugs Bunny. Cwazy wabbit. Boom-boom, 
bang-bang, whapitta-whapittawhap, thud, clunk, hoo-ha, around and 
around in perpetual pursuit. 

In the kitchen, Heather hugged Mae Hong and whispered, "Don't let him 
watch any regular channels, where he might see a news brief." 

Mae nodded. "If he gets tired of cartoons, we'll play games." 
"Those bastards on the TV news, they always have to show you the blood, 
get the ratings. I don't want him seeing his father's blood on the 
ground." 

The storm washed all the color out of the day. The sky was as charry 
as burned-out ruins, and from a distance of even half a block, the palm 
trees looked black. Wind-driven rain, gray as iron nails, hammered 
every surface, and gutters overflowed with filthy water. 

Louie Silverman was in uniform, driving a squad car, so he used the 
emergency beacons and siren to clear the surface streets ahead of them, 
staying off the freeways. 

Sitting in the shotgun seat beside Louie, hands clasped between her 
thighs, shoulders hunched, shivering, Heather said, "Okay, it's just us 
now, Toby can't overhear, so tell me straight." 

"It's bad. Left leg, lower right abdomen, upper right side of the 
chest. The perp was armed with a Micro Uzi, nine-millimeter 
ammunition, so they weren't light rounds. Jack was unconscious when we 
hit the scene, paramedics couldn't bring him around." 

"And Luther's dead." 
"Yeah." 
"Luther always seemed ..." 
"Like a rock." 
"Yeah. Always going to be there. Like a mountain." 
They rode in silence for a block. 
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Then she asked, "How many others?" 
"Three. One of the station owners, mechanic, pump jockey. But because 
of Jack, the other owner, Mrs. Arkadian, she's alive." 

They were still a mile or so from the hospital when a Pontiac ahead of 
them refused to pull over to let the black-and-white pass. It had 
oversize tires, a jacked-up front end, and air scoops front and back. 

Louie waited for a break in oncoming traffic, then crossed the solid 
yellow line to get around the car. Passing the Pontiac, Heather saw 
four angry-looking young men in it, hair slicked back and tied behind, 
affecting a modern version of the gangster look, faces hard with 
hostility and defiance. 

"Jack's going to make it, Heather." 
The wet black streets glimmered with serpentine patterns of frost-cold 
light, reflections of the headlights of oncoming traffic. 

"He's tough," Louie said. "We all are," she said. 
Jack was still in surgery at Westside General Hospital when Heather 
arrived at a quarter past ten. The woman at the information desk 
supplied the surgeon's name--Dr. Emil Procnow--and suggested waiting 
in the visitors' lounge outside the intensive care unit rather than in 
the main lobby. 

Theories of the psychological effects of color were at work in the 
lounge. The walls were lemon yellow, and the padded vinyl seats and 
backrests of the gray tubular steel chairs were bright orange--as if 
any intensity of worry, fear, or grief could be dramatically relieved 
by a sufficiently cheerful decor. 

Heather wasn't alone in that circus-hued room. Besides Louie, three 
cops were present--two in uniform, one in street clothes--all of whom 
she knew. They hugged her, said Jack was going to make it, offered to 
get her coffee, and in general tried to keep her spirits up. They were 
the first of a stream of friends and fellow officers from the 
Department who would participate in the vigil because Jack was well 
liked but also because, in an increasingly violent society where 
respect for the law wasn't cool in some circles, cops found it more 
necessary than ever to take care of their own. 

In spite of the well-meaning and welcome company, the wait was 
excruciating. 

Heather seemed no less alone than if she had been by herself. 
Bathed in an abundance of harsh fluorescent light, the yellow walls and 
the shiny orange chairs seemed to grow brighter minute by minute. 

Rather than diluting her anxiety, the decor made her twitchy, and 
periodically she had to close her eyes. 

By 11: 15, she had been in the hospital for an hour, and Jack had been 
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in surgery an hour and a half. Those in the support group--which now 
numbered six--were unanimous in their judgment that so much time under 
the knife was a good sign. If Jack had been mortally wounded, they 
said, he would have been in the operating room only a short while, and 
bad news would have come quickly. 

Heather wasn't so sure about that. She wouldn't allow her hopes to 
rise because that would just leave her farther to fall if the news was 
bad after all. 

Torrents of hard-driven rain clattered against the windows and streamed 
down the glass. Through the distorting lens of water, the city outside 
appeared to be utterly without straight lines and sharp edges, a 
surreal metropolis of molten forms. 

Strangers arrived, some red-eyed from crying, all quietly tense, 
waiting for news about other patients, their friends and relatives. 

Some of them were damp from the storm, and they brought with them the 
odors of wet wool and cotton. 

She paced. She looked out the window. She drank bitter coffee from a 
vending machine. She sat with a month-old copy of Newsweek, trying to 
read a story about the hottest new actress in Hollywood, but every time 
she reached the end of a paragraph, she couldn't recall a word of it. 

By 12: 15, when Jack had been under the knife for two and a half hours, 
everyone in the support group continued to pretend no news was good 
news and that Jack's prognosis improved with every minute the doctors 
spent on him. Some, including Louie, found it more difficult to meet 
Heather's eyes, however, and they were speaking softly, as if in a 
funeral parlor instead of a hospital. The grayness of the storm 
outside had seeped into their faces and voices. 

Staring at Newsweek without seeing it, she began to wonder what she'd 
do if Jack didn't make it. Such thoughts seemed traitorous, and at 
first she suppressed them, as if the very act of imagining life without 
Jack would contribute to his death. 

He couldn't die. She needed him, and Toby needed him. 
The thought of conveying the news of Jack's death to Toby made her 
nauseous. A thin cold sweat broke out along the nape of her neck. She 
felt as if she might throw up, ridding herself of the bad coffee. 

At last a man in surgical greens entered the lounge. "Mrs. 
McGarvey?" 

As heads turned toward her, Heather put the magazine on the end table 
beside her chair and got to her feet. 

"I'm Dr. Procnow," he said as he approached her. The surgeon who had 
been working on Jack. He was in his forties, slender, with curly black 
hair and dark yet limpid eyes that were--or that she imagined 
were-compassionate and wise. "Your husband's in the post-op recovery 
room. 
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We'll be moving him into I. C. U shortly." 
Jack was alive. 
"Is he going to be all right?" 
"He's got a good chance," Procnow said. 
The support group reacted with enthusiasm, but Heather was more 
cautious, not quick to embrace optimism. Nevertheless, relief made her 
legs weak. She thought she might crumple to the floor. 

As if reading her mind, Procnow guided her to a chair. He pulled 
another chair up at a right angle to hers and sat facing her. 

"Two of the wounds were especially serious," he said. "One in the leg 
and one in the abdomen, lower right side. He lost a lot of blood and 
was in deep shock by the time paramedics got to him." 

"But he'll be all right?" she asked again, sensing that Procnow had 
news he was reluctant to deliver. 

"Like I said, he's got a good chance. I really mean that. But he's 
not out of the woods yet." 

Emil Procnow's deep concern was visible in his kind face and eyes, and 
Heather couldn't tolerate being the object of such profound sympathy 
because it meant that surviving surgery might have been the least of 
the challenges facing Jack. She lowered her eyes, unable to meet the 
surgeon's gaze. 

"I had to remove his right kidney," Procnow said, "but otherwise there 
was remarkably little internal damage. Some minor blood-vessel 
problems, a nicked colon. But we've cleaned that up, done repairs, put 
in temporary abdominal drains, and we'll keep him on antibiotics to 
prevent infection. No trouble there." 

"A person can live ... can live on one kidney, right?" 
"Yes, certainly. He won't notice any difference in his quality of life 
from that." 

What will make a difference in the quality of his life, what other 
wound, what damage? she wanted to ask, but she didn't have the 
courage. 

The surgeon had long, supple fingers. His hands looked lean but 
strong, like those of a concert pianist. She told herself that Jack 
could have received neither better care nor more tender mercy than 
those skilled hands had provided. 

"Two things concern us now," Procnow continued. 
. "Severe shock combined with a heavy loss of blood can sometimes have 
... 

cerebral consequences." 
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Oh, God, please. Not this. 
He said, "It depends on how long there was a decrease in the supply of 
blood to the brain and how severe the decrease was, how deoxygenated 
the tissues became." 

She closed her eyes. 
"His E. E. G looks good, and if I were to base a prognosis on that, I'd 
say there's been no brain damage. We have every reason to be 
optimistic. 

But we won't know until he regains consciousness." 
"When?" 
"No way of telling. We'll have to wait and see." 
Maybe never. 
She opened her eyes, fighting back tears but not with complete 
success. 

She took her purse off the end table and opened it. 
As she blew her nose and blotted her eyes, the surgeon said, "There's 
one more thing. When you visit him in the I. C. U, you'll see he's been 
immobilized with a restraining jacket and bed straps." 

At last Heather met his eyes again. 
He said, "A bullet or fragment struck the spinal cord. There's 
bruising of the spine, but we don't see a fracture." 

"Bruising. Is that serious?" 
"It depends on whether any nerve structures were crushed." 
"Paralysis?" 
"Until he's conscious and we can run some simple tests, we can't 
know. 

If there is paralysis, we'll take another look for a fracture. The 
important thing is, the cord hasn't been severed, nothing as bad as 
that. If there's paralysis and we find a fracture, we'll get him into 
a body cast, apply traction to the legs to get the pressure off the 
sacrum. We can treat a fracture. It isn't catastrophic. There's an 
excellent chance we can get him on his feet again." 

"But no guarantees," she said softly. 
He hesitated. Then he said, "There never are." 
CHAPTER SIX. 
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The cubicle, one of eight, had large windows that looked into the staff 
area of the I. C. U. The drapes had been pulled aside so the nurses could 
keep a direct watch on the patient even from their station in the 
center of the wheel-shaped chamber. Jack was attached to a cardiac 
monitor that transmitted continuous data to a terminal at the central 
desk, an intravenous drip that provided him with glucose and 
antibiotics, and a bifurcated oxygen tube that clipped gently to the 
septum between his nostrils. 

Heather was prepared to be shocked by Jack's condition--but he looked 
even worse than she expected. He was unconscious, so his face was 
slack, of course, but the lack of animation was not the only reason for 
his frightening appearance. His skin was bone-white, with dark-blue 
circles around his sunken eyes. His lips were so gray that she thought 
of ashes, and a Biblical quote passed through her mind with unsettling 
resonance, as if it had actually been spoken aloud--ashes to ashes, 
dust to dust. He seemed ten or fifteen pounds lighter than when he had 
left home that morning, as if his struggle for survival had taken place 
over a week, not just a few hours. 

A lump in her throat made it difficult for her to swallow as she stood 
at the side of the bed, and she was unable to speak. Though he was 
unconscious, she didn't want to talk to him until she was sure she 
could control her speech. 

She'd read somewhere that even patients in comas might be able to hear 
people around them, on some deep level, they might understand what was 
said and benefit from encouragement. She didn't want Jack to hear a 
tremor of fear or doubt in her voice--or anything else that might upset 
him or exacerbate what fear and depression already gripped him. 

The cubicle was unnervingly quiet. The heart-monitor sound had been 
turned off, leaving only a visual display. The oxygen-rich air 
escaping through the nasal inserts hissed so faintly she could hear it 
only when she leaned close to him, and the sound of his shallow 
breathing was as soft as that of a sleeping child. Rain drummed on the 
world outside, ticked and tapped against the single window, but that 
quickly became a gray noise, just another form of silence. 

She wanted to hold his hand more than she'd ever wanted anything. But 
his hands were hidden in the long sleeves of the restraining jacket. 

The IV line, which was probably inserted in a vein on the back of his 
hand, disappeared under the cuff. 

Hesitantly she touched his cheek. He looked cold but felt feverish. 
Eventually she said, "I'm here, babe." 
He gave no sign he had heard her. His eyes didn't move under their 
lids. His gray lips remained slightly parted. 

"Dr. Procnow says everything's looking good," she told him. "You're 
going to come out of this just fine. Together we can handle this, no 
sweat. Hell, two years ago, when my folks came to stay with us for a 
week? Now, that was a disaster and an ordeal, my mother whining 
nonstop for seven days, my dad drunk and moody. This is just a bee 
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sting by comparison, don't you think?" 
No response. 
"I'm here," she said. "I'll stay here. I'm not going anywhere. You 
and me, okay?" 

On the screen of the cardiac monitor, a moving line of bright green 
light displayed the jagged and critical patterns of atrial and 
ventricular activity, which proceeded without a single disruptive blip, 
weak but steady. If Jack had heard what she'd said, his heart did not 
respond to her words. 

A straight-backed chair stood in one corner. She moved it next to the 
bed. She watched him through the gaps in the railing. 

Visitors in the I. C. U were limited to ten minutes every two hours, so 
as not to exhaust patients and interfere with the nurses. 

However, the head nurse of the unit, Maria Alicante, was the daughter 
of a policeman. She gave Heather a dispensation from the rules. "You 
stay with him as long as you want," Maria said. "Thank God, nothing 
like this ever happened to my dad. We always expected it would, but it 
never did. Of course, he retired a few years ago, just as everything 
started getting even crazier out there." 

Every hour or so, Heather left the I. C. U to spend a few minutes with 
the members of the support group in the lounge. The faces kept 
changing, but there were never fewer than three, as many as six or 
seven, male and female officers in uniform, plainclothes detectives. 

Other cops' wives stopped by too. Each of them hugged her. At one 
moment or another, each of them was on the verge of tears. They were 
sincerely sympathetic, shared the anguish. But Heather knew that every 
last one of them was glad it had been Jack and not her husband who'd 
taken the call at Arkadian's service station. 

Heather didn't blame them for that. She'd have sold her soul to have 
Jack change places with any of their husbands--and would have visited 
them in an equally sincere spirit of sorrow and sympathy. 

The Department was a closely knit community, especially in this age of 
social dissolution, but every community was formed of smaller units, of 
families with shared experiences, mutual needs, similar values and 
hopes. Regardless of how tightly woven the fabric of the community, 
each family first protected and cherished its own. Without the intense 
and all-excluding love of wife for husband, husband for wife, parents 
for children, and children for parents, there would be no compassion 
for people in the larger community beyond the home. 

In the I. C. U cubicle with Jack, she relived their life together in 
memory, from their first date, to the night Toby had been born, to 
breakfast this morning. 

More than twelve years. But it seemed so short a span. Sometimes she 
put her head against the bed railing and spoke to him, recalling a 
special moment, reminding him of how much laughter they had shared, how 
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much joy. 
Shortly before five o'clock, she was jolted from her memories by the 
sudden awareness that something had changed. 

Alarmed, she got up and leaned over the bed to see if Jack was still 
breathing. Then she realized he must be all right, because the cardiac 
monitor showed no change in the rhythms of his heart. 

What had changed was the sound of the rain. It was gone. The storm 
had ended. 

She stared at the opaque window. The city beyond, which she couldn't 
see, would be glimmering in the aftermath of the day-long downpour. 

She had always been enchanted by Los Angeles after a rain--sparkling 
drops of water dripping off the points of palm fronds as if the trees 
were exuding jewels, streets washed clean, the air so clear that the 
distant mountains reappeared from out of the usual haze of smog, 
everything fresh. 

If the window had been clear and the city had been there for her to 
see, she wondered if it would seem enchanting this time. She didn't 
think so. This city would never gleam for her again, even if rain 
scrubbed it for forty days and forty nights. 

In that moment she knew their future--Jack's, Toby's, and her own--lay 
in some far place. This wasn't home any more. When Jack recovered, 
they would sell the house and go . . . somewhere, anywhere, to new 
lives, a fresh start. There was a sadness in that decision, but it 
gave her hope as well. 

When she turned away from the window, she discovered that Jack's eyes 
were open and that he was watching her. 

Her heart stuttered. 
She remembered Procnow's bleak words. Massive blood loss. Deep 
shock. 

Cerebral consequence. Brain damage. 
She was afraid to speak for fear his response would be slurred, 
tortured, and meaningless. 

He licked his gray, chapped lips. 
His breathing was wheezy. 
Leaning against the side of the bed, bending over him, summoning all 
her courage, she said, "Honey?" 

Confusion and fear played across his face as he turned his head 
slightly left, then slightly right, surveying the room. 

"Jack? Are you with me, baby?" 
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He focused on the cardiac monitor, seemed transfixed by the moving 
green line, which was spiking higher and far more often than at any 
time since Heather had first entered the cubicle. 

Her own heart was pounding so hard that it shook her. His failure to 
respond was terrifying. 

"Jack, are you okay, can you hear me?" 
Slowly he turned his head to face her again. He licked his lips, 
grimaced. His voice was weak, whispery. "Sorry about this." 

Startled, she said, "Sorry?" 
"Warned you. Night I proposed. I've always been . . . a little bit 
of a fuck-up." 

The laugh that escaped her was perilously close to a sob. She leaned 
so hard against the bed railing that it pressed painfully into her 
midriff, but she managed to kiss his cheek, his pale and feverish 
cheek, and then the corner of his gray lips. "Yeah, but you're my 
fuck-up," she said. 

"Thirsty," he said. 
"Sure, okay, I'll get a nurse, see what you're allowed to have." 
Maria Alicante hurried through the door, alerted to Jack's change of 
condition by telemetry data on the cardiac monitor at the central 
desk. 

"He's awake, alert, he says he's thirsty," Heather reported, running 
her words together in quiet jubilation. 

"A man has a right to be a little thirsty after a hard day, doesn't 
he?" Maria said to Jack, rounding the bed to the nightstand, on which 
stood an insulated carafe of ice water. 

"Beer," Jack said. 
Tapping the IV bag, Maria said, "What do you think we've been dripping 
into your veins all day?" 

"Not Heineken." 
"Oh, you like Heineken, huh? Well, we have to control medical costs, 
you know. 

Can't use that imported stuff." She poured a third of a glass of water 
from the carafe. "From us you get Budweiser intravenously, take it or 
leave it." 

"Take it." 
Opening a nightstand drawer and plucking out a flexible plastic straw, 
Maria said to Heather, "Dr. Procnow's back in the hospital, making his 
evening rounds, and Dr. Delaney just got here too. As soon as I saw 
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the change on Jack's E. E. G, I had them paged." 
Walter Delaney was their family doctor. Though Procnow was nice and 
obviously competent, Heather felt better just knowing there was about 
to be a familiar face on the medical team dealing with Jack. 

"Jack," Maria said, "I can't put the bed up because you have to keep 
lying flat. And I don't want you to try to raise your head by 
yourself, all right? 

Let me lift your head for you." 
Maria put one hand behind his neck and raised his head a few inches off 
the thin pillow. With her other hand, she held the glass. Heather 
reached across the railing and put the straw to Jack's lips. 

"Small sips," Maria warned him. "You don't want to choke." 
After six or seven sips, with a pause to breathe between each, he'd had 
enough. 

Heather was delighted out of all proportion to her husband's modest 
accomplishment. However, his ability to swallow a thin liquid without 
choking probably meant there was no paralysis of his throat muscles, 
not even minimal. 

She realized how profoundly their lives had changed when such a mundane 
act as drinking water without choking was a triumph, but that grim 
awareness did not diminish her delight. 

As long as Jack was alive, there was a road back to the life they had 
known. A long road. One step at a time. Small, small steps. But 
there was a road, and nothing else mattered right now. 

While Emil Procnow and Walter Delaney examined Jack, Heather used the 
phone at the nurse's station to call home. She talked to Mae Hong 
first, then Toby, and told them that Jack was going to be all right. 

She knew she was putting a rose tint on reality, but a little positive 
thinking was good for all of them. 

"Can I see him?" Toby asked. 
"In a few days, honey." 
"I'm much better. Got better all day. I'm not sick any more." 
"I'll be the judge of that. Anyway, your dad needs a few days to get 
his strength back." bring peanut-butter-and-chocolate ice cream. 

That's his favorite. 
They won't have that in a hospital, will they?" 
"No, nothing like that." 
"Tell Dad I'm gonna bring him some." 
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"All right," she said. 
"I want to buy it myself. I have money, from my allowance." 
"You're a good boy, Toby. You know that?" 
His voice became soft and shy. "When you coming home?" 
"I don't know, honey. I'll be here awhile. Probably after you're in 
bed." 

"Will you bring me something from Dad's room?" 
"What do you mean?" 
"Something from his room. Anything. Just something was in his room, 
so I can have it and know there's a room where he is." 

The chasm of insecurity and fear revealed by the boy's request was 
almost more than Heather could bear without losing the emotional 
control she had thus far maintained with such iron-willed success. Her 
chest tightened, and she had to swallow hard before she dared to 
speak. 

"Sure, okay, I'll bring you something." 
"If I'm asleep, wake me." 
"Okay." 
"Promise?" 
"I promise, peanut. Now I gotta go. You be good for Mae." 
"We're playing five hundred rummy." 
"You're not betting, are you?" 
"Just pretzel sticks." 
"Good. I wouldn't want to see you bankrupt a good friend like Mae," 
Heather said, and the boy's giggle was sweet music. 

To be sure she didn't interfere with the nurses, Heather leaned against 
the wall beside the door that led out of the I. C. U. She could see 
Jack's cubicle from there. His door was closed, privacy curtains drawn 
at the big observation windows. 

The air in the I. C. U smelled of various antiseptics. She ought to have 
been used to those astringent and metallic odors by now. Instead, they 
became increasingly noxious and left a bitter taste as well. 

When at last the doctors stepped out of Jack's cubicle and walked 
toward her, they were smiling, but she had the disquieting feeling they 
had bad news. Their smiles ended at the corners of their mouths, in 
their eyes was something worse than sorrow--perhaps pity. 
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Dr. Walter Delaney was in his fifties and would have been perfect as 
the wise father in a television sitcom in the early sixties. Brown 
hair going to gray at the temples. A handsome if soft-featured face. 

He radiated quiet authority, vet was as relaxed and mellow as Ozzie 
Nelson or Robert Young. 

"You okay, Heather?" Delaney asked. 
She nodded. "I'm holding up." 
"I don't know if you've heard the latest news," Emil Procnow said, "but 
the man who shot up the service station this morning was carrying 
cocaine and PCP in his pockets. If he was using both drugs 
simultaneously ... well, that's psycho soup for sure." 

"Like nuking your own brain, for God's sake," Delaney said 
disgustedly. 

Heather knew they were genuinely frustrated and angry, but she also 
suspected they were delaying the bad news. To the surgeon, she said, 
"He came through without brain damage. You were worried about that, 
but he came through." 

"He's not aphasic," Procnow said. "He can speak, read, spell, do basic 
math in his head. Mental faculties appear intact." 

"Which means there's not likely to be any brain-related physical 
incapacity, either," Walter Delaney said, "but it'll be at least a day 
or two before we can be sure of that." 

Emil Procnow ran one slender hand through his curly black hair. "He's 
coming through this really well, Mrs. Mcgarvey. He really is." 

"But?" she said. 
The physicians glanced at each other. 
"Right now," Delaney said, "there's paralysis in both legs." 
"From the waist down," Procnow said. 
"Upper body?" she asked. 
"That's fine," Delaney assured her. "Full function." 
"In the morning," Procnow said, "we'll look again for a spinal 
fracture. If we find it, then we make up a plaster bed, line it with 
felt, immobilize Jack from below the neck all the way past the filum 
terminale, below the buttocks, and put his legs in traction." 

"But he'll walk again?" 
"Almost certainly." 
She looked from Procnow to Delaney to Procnow again, waiting for the 
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rest of it, and then she said, "That's all?" 
The doctors exchanged a glance again. 
Delaney said, "Heather, I'm not sure you understand what lies ahead for 
Jack and for you." 

"Tell me." 
"He'll be in a body cast between three and four months. By the time 
the cast comes off, he'll have severe muscle atrophy from the waist 
down. He won't have the strength to walk. In fact, his body will have 
forgotten how to walk, so he'll undergo weeks of physical therapy in a 
rehab hospital. It's going to be more frustrating and painful than 
anything most of us will ever have to face." 

"That's it?" she asked. 
Procnow said, "That's more than enough." 
"But it could have been so much worse," she reminded them. 
Alone with Jack again, she put down the side railing on the bed and 
smoothed his damp hair back from his forehead. 

"You look beautiful," he said, his voice still weak and soft. 
"Liar." 
"Beautiful" 
"I look like shit." 
He smiled. "Just before I blacked out, I wondered if I'd ever see you 
again." 

"Can't get rid of me that easy." 
"Have to actually die, huh?" 
"Even that wouldn't work. I'd find you wherever you went." 
"I love you, Heather." 
"I love you," she said, "more than life." 
Heat rose in her eyes, but she was determined not to cry in front of 
him. Positive thinking. Keep the spirits up. 

-His eyelids fluttered, and he said, "I'm so tired." 
"Can't imagine why." 
He smiled again. "Hard day at work." 
"Yeah? I thought you cops didn't do anything all day except sit around 
in doughnut shops, chowing down, and collect protection money from drug 
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dealers." 
"Sometimes we beat up innocent citizens." 
"Well, yeah, that can be tiring." 
His eyes had closed. 
She kept smoothing his hair. His hands were still concealed by the 
sleeves of the restraining jacket, and she wanted desperately to keep 
touching him. 

Suddenly his eyes popped open, and he said, "Luther's dead?" 
She hesitated. "Yes." 
"I thought so, but . . . I hoped ..." 
"You saved the woman, Mrs. Arkadian." 
"That's something." 
His eyelids fluttered again, drooped heavily, and she said, "You better 
rest, babe." 

"You seen Alma?" That was Alma Bryson, Luther's wife. "Not yet, 
babe. 

I've been sort of tied up here, you know." 
"Go see her," he whispered. "I will." 
"Now. I'm okay. She's the one ... needs you." 
"All right." 
"So tired," he said, and slipped into sleep again. 
The support group in the I. C. U lounge numbered three when Heather left 
Jack for the evening--two uniformed officers whose names she didn't 
know and Gina Tendero, the wife of another officer. They were elated 
when she reported that Jack had come around, and she knew they would 
put the word on the department grapevine. Unlike the doctors, they 
understood when she refused to focus gloomily on the paralysis and the 
treatment required to overcome it. 

"I need someone to take me home," Heather said, "so I can get my car. 
I want to go see Alma Bryson." 
"I'll take you there and then home," Gina said. "I want to see Alma 
myself." 

Gina Tendero was the most colorful spouse in the division and perhaps 
in the entire Los Angeles Police Department. She was twenty-three 
years old but looked fourteen. Tonight she was wearing five-inch 
heels, tight black leather pants, red sweater, black leather jacket, an 
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enormous silver medallion with a brightly colored enamel portrait of 
Elvis in the center, and large multiple-hoop earrings so complex they 
might have been variations of those puzzles that were supposed to relax 
harried businessmen if they concentrated totally on disassembling 
them. 

Her fingernails were painted neon purple, a shade reflected slightly 
more subtly in her eye shadow. Her jet-black hair was a mass of curls 
that spilled over her shoulders, it looked as much like a wig as any 
Dolly Parton had ever worn, but it was all her own. 

Though she was only five three without shoes and weighed maybe a 
hundred and five pounds dripping wet, Gina always seemed bigger than 
anyone around her. As she walked along the hospital corridors with 
Heather, her footsteps were louder than those of a man twice her size, 
and nurses turned to frown disapprovingly at the tock-tock-tock of her 
high heels on the tile floors. 

"You okay, Heth?" Gina asked as they headed for the four-story parking 
garage attached to the hospital. 

"Yeah." 
"I mean really." 
"I'll make it." 
At the end of a corridor they went through a green metal door into the 
parking garage. It was bare gray concrete, chilly, with low 
ceilings. 

A third of the fluorescent lights were broken in spite of the wire 
cages that protected them, and the shadows among the cars offered 
countless places of concealment. 

Gina fished a small aerosol can from her purse, holding it with her 
index finger on the trigger, and Heather said," What's that?" 

"Red-pepper Mace. You don't carry?" 
"No." 
"Where you think you're living, girl --Disneyland?" 
As they walked up a concrete ramp with cars parked on both sides, 
Heather said, "Maybe I should buy some." 

"Can't. The bastard politicians made it illegal. Wouldn't want to 
give some poor misguided rapist a skin rash, would you? Ask Jack or 
one of the guys-they can still get it for you." 

Gina was driving an inexpensive blue Ford compact, but it had an alarm 
system, which she disengaged from a distance with a remote-control 
device on her key ring. The headlights flashed, the alarm beeped once, 
and the doors unlocked. 

Looking around at the shadows, they got in and immediately locked up 
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again. 
After starting the car, Gina hesitated before putting it in gear. "You 
know, Heth, you want to cry on my shoulder, my clothes are all 
drip-dry." 

"I'm all right. I really am." 
"Sure you're not into denial?" 
"He's alive, Gina. I can handle anything else." 
"Forty years, Jack in a wheelchair?" 
"Doesn't matter if it comes to that, as long as I have him to talk to, 
hold him at night." 

Gina stared hard at her for long seconds. Then: "You mean it. You 
know what it's gonna be like, but you still mean it. Good. I always 
figured you for one, but it's good to know I was right." 

"One what?" 
Popping the hand brake and shifting the Ford into reverse, Gina said, 
"One tough damned bitch." 

Heather laughed. "I guess that's a compliment." 
"Fuckin' A, it's a compliment." 
When Gina paid the parking fee at the exit booth and pulled out of the 
garage, a glorious gold-and-orange sunset gilded the patchy clouds to 
the west. 

However, as they crossed the metropolis through lengthening shadows and 
a twilight that gradually filled with blood red light, the familiar 
streets and buildings were as alien as any on a distant planet. She 
had lived her entire adult life in Los Angeles, but Heather Mcgarvey 
felt like a stranger in a strange land. 

The Brysons' two-story Spanish house was in the Valley, on the edge of 
Burbank, lucky number 777 on a street lined with sycamores. The 
leafless limbs of the big trees made spiky arachnid patterns against 
the muddy yellow-black night sky, which was filled with too much 
ambient light from the urban sprawl ever to be perfectly inky. Cars 
were clustered in the driveway and street in front of 777, including 
one black-and-white. 

The house was filled with relatives and friends of the Brysons. A few 
of the former and most of the latter were cops in uniforms or civilian 
clothes. 

Blacks, Hispanics, Whites, and Asians had come together in 
companionship and mutual support in a way they seldom seemed capable of 
associating in the larger community -any more. 

Heather felt at home the moment she crossed the threshold, so much 
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safer than she had felt in the world outside. As she made her way 
through the living room and dining room, seeking Alma, she paused to 
speak briefly with old friends-and discovered that word of Jack's 
improved condition was already on the grapevine. 

More acutely than ever, she was aware of how completely she had come to 
think of herself as part of the police family rather than as an 
Angeleno or a Californian. It hadn't always been that way. But it was 
difficult to maintain a spiritual allegiance to a city swimming in 
drugs and pornography, shattered by gang violence, steeped in 
Hollywood-style cynicism, and controlled by politicians as venal and 
demagogic as they were incompetent. Destructive social forces were 
fracturing the city--and the country--into clans, and even as she took 
comfort in her police family, she recognized the danger of descending 
into an us-against-them view of life. 

Alma was in the kitchen with her sister, Faye, and two other women, all 
of whom were busy at culinary tasks. Chopping vegetables, peeling 
fruit, grating cheese. Alma was rolling out pie dough on a marble 
slab, working at it vigorously. The kitchen was filled with the 
delicious aromas of cakes baking. 

When Heather touched Alma's shoulder, the woman looked up from the pie 
dough, and her eyes were as blank as those of a mannequin. Then she 
blinked and wiped her flour-coated hands on her apron. "Heather, you 
didn't have to come--you should've stayed with Jack." 

They embraced, and Heather said, "I wish there was something I could 
do, Alma." 

"So do I, girl. So do I." 
As they leaned back from each other, Heather said, "What's all this 
cooking?" 

"We're going to have the funeral tomorrow afternoon. No delay. Get 
the hard part over with. A lot of family and friends will be by 
tomorrow after the services. Got to feed them." 

"Others will do this for you." 
"I'd rather help," Alma said. "What else am I going to do? Sit and 
think? I sure don't want to think. If I don't stay busy, keep my mind 
occupied, then I'm just going to go stark raving crazy. You know what 
I mean?" 

Heather nodded. "Yes. I know." 
"The word is," Alma said, "Jack's going to be in the hospital, then 
rehab, for maybe months, and you and Toby are going to be alone. Are 
you ready for that?" 

"We'll see him every day. We're in this together." 
"That's not what I mean." 
"Well, I know it's going to be lonely but--" 
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"That's not what I mean, 
either. Come on, I want to show you something." 

Heather followed Alma into the master bedroom, and Alma closed the 
door. 

"Luther always worried about me being alone if anything happened to 
him, so he made sure I knew how to take care of myself." 

Sitting on the vanity bench, Heather watched with amazement as Alma 
retrieved a variety of weapons from concealment. 

She got a pistol-grip shotgun from under the bed. 
, "This is the best home-defense weapon you can get. Twelve-gauge. 
Powerful enough to knock down some creep high on PCP, thinks he's 
Superman. You don't ? have to be able to aim perfectly, just point it 
and pull the trigger, and the spread will get him." She placed the 
shotgun on the beige chenille bedspread. 

From the back of a closet Alma fetched a heavy, wicked-looking rifle 
with a vented barrel, a scope, and a large magazine. "Heckler and Koch 
HK91 assault rifle," she said. "You can't buy these in California so 
easy any more." She put it on the bed beside the shotgun. 

She opened a nightstand drawer and plucked out a formidable handgun. 
"Browning nine-millimeter semi automatic. There's one like it in the 
other nightstand." 

Heather said, "My God, you've got an arsenal here." 
. "Just different guns for different uses." 
Alma Bryson was five feet eight but by no means an Amazon. She was 
attractive, willowy, with delicate features, a swanlike neck, and 
wrists almost as thin and fragile as those of a ten-year-old girl. 

Her slender, graceful hands appeared incapable of controlling some -of 
the heavy weaponry she possessed, but she was evidently proficient with 
all of it. 

Getting up from the vanity bench, Heather said, "I can see having a 
handgun for protection, maybe even that shotgun. But an assault 
rifle?" 

Looking at the Heckler and Koch, Alma said, "Accurate enough at a 
hundred yards to put a three-shot group in a half-inch circle. Fires a 
7.62 NATO cartridge so powerful it'll penetrate a tree, a brick wall, 
even a car, and still take out the guy who's hiding on the other 
side. 

Very reliable. You can fire hundreds of rounds, until it's almost too 
hot to touch, and it still won't jam. I think you should have one, 
Heather. 
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You should be ready." 
Heather felt as if she had followed the white rabbit down a burrow into 
a strange, dark world. "Ready for what?" 

Alma's gentle face hardened, and her voice was tight with anger. 
"Luther saw it coming years ago. Said politicians were tearing down a 
thousand years of civilization brick by brick but weren't building 
anything to replace it." 

"True enough, but--" 
"Said cops would be expected to hold it all 
together when it started to collapse, but by then cops would've been 
blamed for so much and been painted as the villains so often, no one 
would respect them enough to let them hold it together." 

Rage was Alma Bryson's refuge from grief. She was able to hold off 
tears only with fury. 

Although Heather worried that her friend's method of coping wasn't 
healthy, he could think of nothing to offer in its place. Sympathy was 
inadequate. 

Alma and Luther had been married sixteen years and had been devoted to 
each other. Because they'd been unable to have children, they were 
especially close. Heather could only imagine the depth of Alma's 
pain. 

It was a hard world. Real love, true and deep, wasn't easy to find 
even once. 

Nearly impossible to find it twice. Alma must feel the best times of 
her life were past, though she was only thirty-eight. She needed more 
than kind words, more than just a shoulder to cry on. She needed 
someone or something at which to be furious--politicians, the system. 

Perhaps her anger wasn't unhealthy, after all. Maybe if a lot more 
people had gotten angry enough decades ago, the country wouldn't have 
reached such perilous straits. 

"You have guns?" Alma asked. 
"One." 
"What is it?" 
"A pistol." 
"You know how to use it?" 
"Yes." 
"You need more than just a pistol." 
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"I feel uncomfortable with guns, Alma." 
"It's on the TV now, going to be all over the papers tomorrow--what 
happened at Arkadian's station. People are going to know you and Toby 
are alone, people who don't like cops or cops' wives. Some jackass 
reporter will probably even print your address. You've got to be ready 
for anything these days, anything." 

Alma's paranoia, which came as such a surprise and which seemed so out 
of character, chilled Heather. Even as she shivered at the icy glint 
in her friend's eyes, however, a part of her wondered if Alma's 
assessment of the situation was more rational than it sounded. That 
she could seriously consider such a paranoid view was enough to make 
her shiver again, harder than before. 

"You've got to prepare for the worst," Alma Bryson said, picking up the 
shotgun, turning it over in her hands. "It's not just your life on the 
line. 

You've got Toby to think about too." 
She stood there, a slender and pretty black woman, an aficionado of 
jazz and opera, a lover of museums, educated and refined, as warm and 
loving a person as anyone Heather had ever known, capable of a smile 
that would charm wild beasts and a musical laugh that angels might have 
envied, holding a shotgun that looked absurdly large and evil in the 
hands of someone so lovely and delicate, who had embraced rage because 
the only alternative to rage was suicidal despair. Alma was like a 
figure on a poster urging revolution, not a real person but a wildly 
romanticized symbol. Heather had the disquieting feeling that she was 
not looking at merely one troubled woman struggling to elude the grasp 
of bitter grief and disabling hopelessness but at the grim future of 
their entire troubled society, a harbinger of an all-obliterating 
storm. 

"Tearing it down brick by brick," Alma said solemnly, "but building 
nothing to replace it." 

CHAPTER SEVEN. 
For twenty-nine uneventful nights, the Montana stillness was disturbed 
only by periodic fits of winter wind, the hoot of a hunting owl, and 
the distant forlorn howling of timber wolves. Gradually Eduardo 
Fernandez regained his usual confidence and ceased to regard each 
oncoming dusk with quiet dread. 

He might have recovered his equilibrium more quickly if he'd had more 
work to occupy him. Inclement weather prevented him from performing 
routine maintenance around the ranch, with electric heat and plenty of 
cord wood for the fireplaces, he had little to do during the winter 
months except hunker down and wait for spring. 

It had never been a working ranch since he had managed it. Thirty-four 
years ago, he and Margaret had : been hired by Stanley Quartermass, a 
wealthy film producer, who had fallen in love with Montana and wanted a 
second home there. No animals or crops were raised for profit, the 
ranch was strictly a secluded hideaway. 
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Quartermass loved horses, so he built a comfortable, , heated stable 
with ten stalls a hundred yards south of the house. He spent about two 
months per year at the ranch, in one-and two-week visits, and it was 
Eduardo's duty, in the producer's absence, to ensure that the horses 
received first-rate care and plenty of exercise. Tending to the 
animals and keeping the property in good repair had constituted the 
largest part of his job, and Margaret had been the housekeeper. 

Until eight years ago, Eduardo and Margaret had lived in the cozy, 
two-bedroom, single-story caretaker's house. That fieldstone structure 
stood eighty or ninety yards behind--and due west of--the main house, 
cloistered among pines at the edge of the higher woods. Tommy, their 
only child, had been raised there until city life exerted its fatal 
attraction when he was eighteen. 

When Stanley Quartermass died in a private-plane crash, Eduardo and 
Margaret had been surprised to learn that the ranch had been left to 
them, along with sufficient funds to allow immediate retirement. The 
producer had taken care of his four ex-wives while he was alive and had 
fathered no children from any of his marriages, so he used the greater 
part of his estate to provide generously for key employees. 

They had sold the horses, closed up the caretaker's house, and moved 
into the Victorian-style main house, with its gables, decorative 
shutters, scalloped eaves, and wide porches. It felt strange to be a 
person of property, but the security was welcome even--or perhaps 
especially--when it came late in life. 

Now Eduardo was a widowed retiree with plenty of security but with too 
little work to occupy him. And with too many strange thoughts preying 
on his mind Luminous trees ... 

On three occasions during March, he drove his Jeep Cherokee into 
Eagle's Roost, the nearest town. He ate at Jasper's Diner because he 
liked their Salisbury steak, home fries, and pepper slaw. He bought 
magazines and a few paperback books at the High Plains Pharmacy, and he 
shopped for groceries at the only supermarket. His ranch was just 
sixteen miles from Eagle's Roost, so he could have gone daily if he'd 
wished, but three times a month was usually enough. The town was 
small, three to four thousand souls, however, even in its isolation, it 
was too much a part of the modern world to appeal to a man as 
accustomed to rural peace as he was. 

Each time he'd gone shopping, he'd considered stopping at the county 
sheriff's substation to report the peculiar noise and strange lights in 
the woods. But he was sure the deputy would figure him for an old fool 
and do nothing but file the report in a folder labeled CRACKPOTS. 

In the third week of March, spring officially arrived--and the 
following day a storm put down eight inches of new snow. Winter was 
not quick to relinquish its grasp there on the eastern slopes of the 
Rockies. 

He took daily walks, as had been his habit all his life, but he stayed 
on the long driveway, which he plowed himself after each snow, or he 
crossed the open fields south of the house and stables. He avoided the 
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lower woods, which lay east and downhill from the house, but he also 
stayed away from those to the north and even the higher forests to the 
west. 

His cowardice irritated him, not least of all because he was unable to 
understand it. He'd always been an advocate of reason and logic, 
always said there was too little of either in the world. He was 
scornful of people who operated more from emotion than from 
intellect. 

But reason failed him now, and logic could not overcome the instinctual 
awareness of danger that caused him to avoid the trees and the 
perpetual twilight under their boughs. 

By the end of March, he began to think that the phenomenon had been a 
singular occurrence without notable consequences. A rare but natural 
event. Perhaps an electromagnetic disturbance of some kind. No more 
threat to him than a summer thunderstorm. 

On April first, he unloaded the two rifles and two shotguns. After 
cleaning them, he returned the guns to the cabinet in the study. 

However, still slightly uneasy, he kept the .22 target pistol on his 
nightstand. It didn't pack a tremendous punch but, loaded with 
hollow-point cartridges, it could do some damage. 

In the dark hours of the morning of April fourth, Eduardo was awakened 
by the low throbbing that swelled and faded, swelled and faded. As in 
early March, that pulsating sound was accompanied by an eerie 
electronic oscillation. 

He sat straight up in bed, blinking at the window. During the three 
years since Margaret had died, he'd not slept in the master bedroom at 
the front of the house, which they had shared. Instead, he bunked down 
in one of two back bedrooms. Consequently, the window faced west, a 
hundred and eighty degrees around the compass from the eastern woods 
where he had seen the strange light. 

The night sky was deep and black beyond the window. 
The Stiffel lamp on the nightstand had a pull-chain instead of a thumb 
switch. 

Just before he turned it on, he had the feeling that something was in 
the room with him, something he would be better off not seeing. He 
hesitated, fingers tightly pinching the metal beads of the pull. 

Intently he searched the darkness, his heart pounding, as if he had 
wakened into a nightmare replete with a monster. When at last he 
tugged the chain, however, the light revealed that he was alone. 

He picked up his wristwatch from the nightstand and checked the time. 
Nineteen minutes past one o'clock. 
He threw off the covers and got out of bed. He was in his long 
underwear. His blue jeans and a flannel shirt were close at hand, 
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folded over the back of an armchair, beside which stood a pair of 
boots. He was already wearing socks, because his feet often got cold 
during the night if he slept without them. 

The sound was louder than it had been a month before, and it pulsed 
through the house with noticeably greater effect than before. In 
March, Eduardo had experienced a sense of pressure along with the 
rhythmic pounding--which, like the sound, crested repeatedly in a 
series of waves. Now the pressure had increased dramatically. He 
didn't merely sense it but felt it, indescribably different from the 
pressure of turbulent air, more like the invisible tides of a cold sea 
washing across his body. 

By the time he hurriedly dressed and snatched the loaded .22 pistol 
from the nightstand, the pull-chain was swinging wildly and clinking 
against the burnished brass body of the lamp. The windowpanes 
vibrated. The paintings rattled against the walls, askew on their 
wires. 

He rushed downstairs into the foyer, where there was no need to switch 
on a light. In the front door, the beveled edges of the leaded panes 
in the oval window sparkled with reflections of the mysterious glow 
outside. It was far brighter than it had been the previous month. The 
bevels broke down the amber radiance into all the colors of the 
spectrum, projecting bright prismatic patterns of blue and green and 
yellow and red across the ceiling and walls, so it seemed as if he was 
in a church with stained-glass murals. 

In the dark living room to his left, where no light penetrated from 
outside because the drapes were drawn, a collection of crystal 
paperweights and other bibelots rattled and clinked against the end 
tables on which they stood and against one another. Porcelains 
vibrated on the glass shelves of a display cabinet. 

To his right, in the book-lined study, the marble-and-brass desk set 
bounced on the blotter, a pencil drawer popped open and banged shut in 
time with the pressure waves, and the executive chair behind the desk 
wobbled around enough to make its wheels creak. 

As Eduardo opened the front door, most of the spots and spears of 
colored light flew away, vanished as if into another dimension, and the 
rest fled to the right-hand wall of the foyer, where they melted 
together in a vibrant mosaic. 

The woods were luminous precisely where they had been luminous last 
month. The amber glow emanated from the same group of closely packed 
trees and from the ground beneath, as if the evergreen needles and 
cones and bark and dirt and stones and snow were the incandescent 
elements of a lamp, shining brightly without being consumed. This time 
the light was more dazzling than before, just as the throbbing was 
louder and the waves of pressure more forceful. 

He found himself at the head of the steps but did not remember exiting 
the house or crossing the porch. He looked back and saw that he had 
closed the front door behind him. 

Punishing waves of bass sound throbbed through the night at the rate of 
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perhaps thirty a minute, but his heart was beating six times faster. 
He wanted to turn and run back into the house. 
He looked down at the pistol in his hand. He wished the shotgun had 
been loaded and beside his bed. 

When he raised his head and turned his eyes away from the gun, he was 
startled to see that the woods had moved closer to him. The glowing 
trees loomed. 

Then he realized that he, not the woods, had moved. He glanced back 
again and saw the house thirty to forty feet behind him. He had 
descended the steps without being aware of it. His tracks marred the 
snow. 

"No," he said shakily The swelling sound was like a surf with an 
undertow that pulled him relentlessly from the safety of the shore. 

The ululant electronic wail seemed like a siren's song, penetrating 
him, speaking to him on a level so deep that he seemed to understand 
the message without hearing the words, a music in his blood, luring him 
toward the cold fire in the woods. 

His thoughts grew fuzzy. 
He peered up at the star-punctured sky, trying to clear his head. A 
delicate filigree of clouds shone against the black vault, rendered 
luminous by the silver light of the quarter moon. 

He closed his eyes. Found the strength to resist the pull of each 
ebbing wave of sound. 

But when he opened his eyes, he discovered his resistance was 
imaginary. He was even closer to the trees than before, only thirty 
feet from the perimeter of the forest, so close he had to squint 
against the blinding brightness emanating from the branches, the 
trunks, and the ground under the pines. 

The moody amber light was now threaded with red, like blood in an egg 
yolk. 

Eduardo was scared, miles past fear into sheer terror, fighting a 
looseness in his bowels and a weakness in his bladder, shaking so 
violently that he would not have been surprised to hear his bones 
rattling together--yet his heart was no longer racing. It had slowed 
drastically and now matched the steady thirty-beats-per-minute of the 
pulsating sound that seemed to issue from every radiant surface. 

He couldn't possibly stay on his feet when his heartbeat was so slow, 
the blood supply to his brain so diminished. He ought to be either in 
severe shock or unconscious. His perceptions must be untrustworthy. 

Perhaps the throbbing had escalated to match the pace of his hammering 
heart. 

Curiously, he was no longer aware of the frigid air. Yet no heat 
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accompanied the enigmatic light. He was neither hot nor cold. 
He couldn't feel the earth under his feet. No sense of gravity, 
weight, or weariness of muscle. Might as well have been floating. 

The odors of the winter were no longer perceptible. Gone was the 
faint, crisp, ozone-like scent of snow. Gone, the fresh smell of the 
pine forest that rose just in front of him. Gone, the faint sour stink 
of his own icy sweat. 

No taste on his tongue. That was the weirdest of all. He had never 
before realized there was always an endless and subtly changing series 
of tastes in his mouth even when he wasn't eating anything. Now a 
blandness. Neither sweet nor sour. Neither salty nor bitter. Not 
even a blandness. Beyond blandness. 

Nothing. Nada. He worked his mouth, felt saliva flooding it, but 
still no taste. 

All of his powers of sensory perception seemed to be focused solely on 
the ghost light shining from within the trees and on the punishing, 
insistent sound. He no longer felt the throbbing bass washing in cold 
waves across his body, rather, the sound was coming from within him 
now, and it surged out of him in the same way that it issued from the 
trees. 

Suddenly he was standing at the edge of the woods, on ground as 
effulgent as molten lava. Inside the phenomenon. Gazing down, he saw 
that his feet seemed to be planted on a sheet of glass beneath which a 
sea of fire churned, a sea as deep as the stars were distant. The 
extent of that abyss made him cry out in panic, although no thinnest 
whisper escaped him. 

Fearfully and reluctantly, yet wonderingly, Eduardo looked at his legs 
and body, and saw that the amber light also radiated from him and was 
riddled with bursts of red. He appeared to be a man from another 
world, filled with alien energy, or a holy Indian spirit that had 
walked out of the high mountains in search of the ancient nations once 
in dominion over the vast Montana wilderness but long lost: 
Blackfeet? 

Crow, Sioux, Assiniboin, Cheyenne. 
He raised his left hand to examine it more closely. His skin was 
transparent, his flesh translucent. At first he could see the bones of 
his hand and fingers, well-articulated gray-red forms within the molten 
amber substance of which he seemed to be made. Even as he watched, his 
bones became transparent too, and he was entirely a man of glass, no 
substance to him at all any more, he had become a window through which 
could be seen an unearthly fire, just as the ground under him was a 
window, just as the stones and trees were windows. 

The crashing waves of sound and the electronic squeal arose from within 
the currents of fire, ever more insistent. As on that night in March, 
he had an almost clairvoyant perception of something straining against 
confinement, struggling to break out of a prison or through a 
barrier. 
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Something trying to force open a door. 
He was standing in the intended doorway. 
On the threshold. 
He was seized by the bizarre conviction that if the door opened while 
he was standing in the way, he would shatter into disassociated atoms 
as if he'd never existed. He would become the door. An unknown caller 
would enter through him, out of the fire and through him. 

Jesus, help me, he prayed, though he wasn't a religious man. 
He tried to move. 
Paralyzed. 
Within his raised hand, within his entire body, within the trees and 
stones and earth, the fire grew less amber, more red, hotter, entirely 
red, scarlet, seething. Abruptly it was marbled with blue-white veins 
to rival the consuming brightness at the very heart of a star. The 
malevolent pulsations swelled, exploded, swelled, exploded, like the 
pounding of colossal pistons, booming, booming, pistons in the 
perpetual engines that drove the universe itself, harder, harder, 
pressure escalating, his glass body vibrating, fragile as crystal, 
pressure, expanding, demanding, hammering, fire and thunder, fire and 
thunder, fire and thunder-Blackness. 

Silence. 
Cold. 
When he woke, he was lying at the perimeter of the forest, in the light 
of a quarter moon. Above him, the trees stood sentinel, dark and 
still. 

He was in possession of all his senses again. He smelled the ozone 
crispness of snow, dense masses of pines, his own sweat--and urine. He 
had lost control of his bladder. The taste in his mouth was unpleasant 
but familiar: blood. In his terror or when he'd fallen, he must have 
bitten his tongue. 

Evidently, the door in the night had not opened. 
CHAPTER EIGHT. 
That same night, Eduardo removed the weapons from the cabinet in the 
study and reloaded them. He distributed them throughout the house, so 
one firearm or another would always be within reach. 

The following morning, April fourth, he drove into Eagle's Roost, but 
he didn't go to the sheriff's substation. He still had no evidence to 
back up his story. 

He went, instead, to Custer's Appliance. Custer's was housed in a 
yellow-brick building dating from about 1920, and the glittering 
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high-tech merchandise in its display windows was as anachronistic as 
tennis shoes on a Neanderthal. 

Eduardo purchased a videocassette recorder, a video camera, and half a 
dozen blank tapes. 

The salesman was a long-haired young man who looked like Mozart, in 
boots, jeans, a decoratively stitched cowboy shirt, and a string tie 
with a turquoise clasp. He kept up a continuous chatter about the 
multitude of features the equipment offered, using so much jargon that 
he seemed to be speaking a foreign language. 

Eduardo just wanted to record and play back. Nothing more. He didn't 
care if he could watch one show while taping another, or whether the 
damned gadgets could cook his dinner, make his bed, and give him a 
pedicure. 

The ranch already had a television capable of receiving a lot of 
channels, because shortly before his death, Mr. Quartermass had 
installed a satellite dish behind the stables. Eduardo seldom watched 
a program, maybe three or four times a year, but he knew the TV 
worked. 

From the appliance store he went to the library. He checked out a 
stack of novels by Robert A. Heinlein and Arthur C. Clarke, plus 
collections of stories by H. P. Lovecraft, Algernon Blackwood, and M. 
R. James. 

He felt no less a fool than if he had selected lurid volumes of 
flapdoodle purporting to be nonfiction accounts of the Abominable 
Snowman, the Loch Ness Monster, the Lost Continent of Atlantis, the 
Bermuda Triangle, and the true story of Elvis Presley's faked death and 
sex-change operation. He fully expected the librarian to sneer at him 
or at least favor him with a pitying and patronizing smile, but she 
processed the books as if she found nothing frivolous about his taste 
in fiction. 

After stopping at the supermarket as well, he returned to the ranch and 
unpacked his purchases. 

He needed two full days and more beers than he would ordinarily have 
allowed himself in order to get the hang of the video system. The 
damned equipment had more buttons and switches and readouts than the 
cockpit of an airliner, and at times it seemed the manufacturers had 
complicated their products for no good reason, out of a sheer love of 
complication. The instruction books read as if they'd been written by 
someone for whom English was a second language--which was very likely 
the case, as both the VCR and the camcorder were made by the 
Japanese. 

"Either I'm getting feebleminded," he groused aloud in one fit of 
frustration, "or the world's going to hell in a hand-basket." 

Maybe both. 
Warmer weather arrived sooner than usual. April was often a winter 
month at that latitude and altitude, but this year the daytime 
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temperatures rose into the forties. The season-long accumulation of 
snow melted, and gurgling freshets filled every gully and declivity. 

The nights remained peaceful. 
Eduardo read most of the books he'd borrowed from the library. 
Blackwood and especially James wrote in a style that was far too 
mannered for his taste, heavy on atmosphere and light on substance. 

They were purveyors of ghost stories, and he had trouble suspending 
disbelief long enough to become involved in their tales. 

If hell existed, he supposed the unknown entity trying to open a door 
in the fabric of the night might have been a damned soul or a demon 
forcing its way out of that fiery realm. But that was the sticking 
point: he didn't believe hell existed, at least not as the carnival 
gaudy kingdom of evil portrayed in cheap films and books. 

To his surprise, he found Heinlein and Clarke to be entertaining and 
thought-provoking. He preferred the crustiness of the former to the 
sometimes naive humanism of the latter, but they both had value. 

He wasn't sure what he hoped to discover in their books that would help 
him to deal with the phenomenon in the woods. Had he harbored, in the 
back of his mind, the absurd expectation that one of these writers had 
produced a story about an old man who lived in an isolated place and 
who made contact with something not of this earth? If such was the 
case, then he was so far around the bend that he would meet himself 
coming the other way at any moment. 

Nevertheless, it was more likely that the presence he sensed beyond the 
phantom fire and pulsating sound was extraterrestrial rather than 
hell-born. 

The universe contained an infinite number of stars. An infinite number 
of planets, circling those stars, might have provided the right 
conditions for life to have arisen. That was scientific fact, not 
fantasy. 

He might also have imagined the whole business. Hardening of the 
arteries that supplied blood to the brain. An Alzheimer-induced 
hallucination. He found it easier to believe in that explanation than 
in demons or aliens. 

He had bought the video camera more to assuage self-doubt than to 
gather evidence for the authorities. If the phenomenon could be 
captured on tape, he wasn't dotty, after all, and was competent to 
continue to live alone. Until he was killed by whatever finally opened 
that doorway in the night. 

On the fifteenth of April, he drove into Eagle's Roost to buy fresh 
milk and produce--and a Sony Discman with quality headphones. 

Custer's Appliance also had a selection of audiotapes and compact 
discs. 
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Eduardo asked the Mozart lookalike for the loudest music to which 
teenagers were listening these days. 

"Gift for your grand-kid?" the clerk asked. 
It was easier to agree than to explain. "That's right." 
"Heavy metal." 
Eduardo had no idea what the man was talking about. 
"Here's a new group that's getting really hot," the clerk said, 
selecting a disc from the display bins. "Call themselves Wormheart." 

Back at the ranch, after putting away the groceries, Eduardo sat at the 
kitchen table to listen to the disc. He installed batteries in the 
Discman, inserted the disc, put on the headphones, and pressed the Play 
button. The blast of sound nearly burst his eardrums, and he hastily 
lowered the volume. 

He listened for a minute or so, half convinced he'd been sold a faulty 
disc. 

But the clarity of the sound argued that he was hearing exactly what 
Wormheart had intended to record. He listened for another minute or 
two, waiting for the cacophony to become music, before realizing it 
apparently was music by the modern definition. 

He felt old. 
He remembered, as a young man, necking with Margaret to the music of 
Benny Goodman, Frank Sinatra, Mel Torme, Tommy Dorsey. Did young 
people still neck? Did they know what the word meant? Did they 
cuddle? Did they pet? Or did they just get naked and tear at each 
other straightaway? 

It sure didn't sound like music you'd play as background to 
lovemaking. 

What it sounded like, to him anyway, was music you'd play as background 
to violent homicide, maybe to drown out the victim's screams. 

He felt ancient. 
Aside from not being able to hear music in the music, he didn't 
understand why any group would call itself Wormheart. Groups should 
have names like The Four Freshmen, The Andrews Sisters, The Mills 
Brothers. He could even handle The Four Tops or James Brown and the 
Famous Flames. Loved James Brown. But Wormheart? It brought 
disgusting images to mind. 

Well, he wasn't hip and didn't try to be. They probably didn't even 
use the word "hip" any more. In fact, he was sure they didn't. He 
hadn't a clue as to what word meant "hip" these days. 

Older than the sands of Egypt. 
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He listened to the music for another minute, then switched it off and 
removed the headphones. 

Wormheart was exactly what he needed. 
By the last day of April, the winter shroud had melted except for 
deeper drifts that enjoyed the protection of shadows during a large 
part of the day, although even they were dwindling steadily. The 
ground was damp but not muddy any longer. Dead brown grass, crushed 
and matted from the weight of the vanished snow, covered hills and 
fields, within a week, however, a carpet of tender green shoots would 
brighten every corner of the now dreary land. 

Eduardo's daily walk took him past the east end of the stables and 
across open fields to the south. At eleven in the morning, the day was 
sunny, the temperature near fifty, with a receding armada of high white 
clouds to the north. He wore khakis and a flannel shirt, and was so 
warmed by exertion that he rolled up his sleeves. On the return trip 
he visited the three graves that lay west of the stables. 

Until recently, the State of Montana had been liberal about allowing 
the establishment of family cemeteries on private property. Soon after 
acquiring the ranch, Stanley Quartermass had decided he wanted to spend 
eternity there, and he had obtained a permit for as many as twelve 
burial plots. 

The graveyard was on a small knoll near the higher woods. That 
hallowed ground was defined only by a foot-high fieldstone wall and by 
a pair of four-foot-high columns at the entrance. Quartermass had not 
wanted to obstruct the panoramic view of the valley and mountains--as 
if he thought his spirit would sit upon his grave and enjoy the scenery 
like a ghost in that old, lighthearted movie Topper. 

Only three granite headstones occupied a space designed to accommodate 
twelve. 

Quartermass. Tommy. Margaret. 
pecified by the producer's will, the inscription on the first monument 
read: "Here lies Stanley Quartermass / dead before his time / because 
he had to work / with so damned many / actors and writers"-followed by 
the dates of his birth and death. He had been sixty-six when his plane 
crashed. However, if he'd been five hundred years old, he still would 
have felt that his span had been too short, for he had been a man who 
embraced life with great energy and passion. 

Tommy's and Margarite's stones bore no humorous epitaphs--just "beloved 
son" and "beloved wife." Eduardo missed them. 

The hardest blow had been the death of his son, who had been killed in 
the line of duty only a little more than a year ago, at the age of 
thirty-two. At least Eduardo and Margaret had enjoyed a long life 
together. 

It was a terrible thing for a man to outlive his own child. 
He wished they were with him again. That was a wish frequently made, 
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and the fact that it could never be fulfilled usually reduced him to a 
melancholy mood which he found difficult to shake. At best, longing to 
see his wife and son again, he drifted into nostalgic mists, reliving 
favorite days of years gone by. 

This time, however, the familiar wish had no sooner -flickered through 
his mind than he was inexplicably overcome by dread. A chill wind 
seemed to whistle through his spine as if it were hollow end to end. 

Turning, he wouldn't have been surprised to find someone looming behind 
him. 

He was alone. 
The sky was entirely blue, the last of the clouds having slipped across 
the northern horizon, and the air was warmer than it had been at any 
time since last autumn. Nonetheless, the chill persisted. He rolled 
down his sleeves, buttoned the cuffs. 

When he looked at the headstones again, Eduardo's imagination was 
suddenly crowded with unwanted images of Tommy and Margaret, not as 
they had been in life but as they might be in their coffins: decaying, 
worm-riddled, eye sockets empty, lips shriveled back from 
yellow-toothed grins. Trembling uncontrollably, he was gripped by an 
absolute conviction that the earth in front of the granite markers was 
going to shift and cave inward, that the corrupted hands of their 
corpses were going to appear in the crumbling soil, digging fiercely 
and then their faces, their eyeless faces, as they pulled themselves 
out of the ground. 

He backed away from the graves a few steps but refused to flee. He was 
too old to believe in the living dead or in ghosts. 

The dead brown grass and spring-thawed earth did not move. After a 
while he stopped expecting it to move. 

When he was in full control of himself again, he walked between the low 
stone columns and out of the graveyard. All the way to the house, he 
wanted to spin around and look back. He didn't do it. 

He entered the house through the back door and locked it behind him. 
Ordinarily he never locked doors. 
Though it was time for lunch, he had no appetite. Instead, he opened a 
bottle of Corona. 

He was a three-beers-a-day man. That was his usual limit, not a 
minimum requirement. There were days when he didn't drink at all. 

Though not lately. 
Recently, in spite of his limit, he had been downing more than three a 
day. 

Some days, a lot more. 
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Later that afternoon, sitting in a living-room armchair, trying to read 
Thomas Wolfe and sipping a third bottle of Corona, he became convinced, 
against his will, that the experience in the graveyard had been a vivid 
premonition. A warning. But a warning of what? 

As April passed with no recurrence of the phenomenon in the lower 
woods, Eduardo had become more--not less--tense. Each of the previous 
events had transpired when the moon was in the same phase, a quarter 
full. That celestial condition seemed increasingly pertinent as the 
April moon waxed and waned without another disturbance. The lunar 
cycle might have nothing whatsoever to do with these peculiar 
events-yet still be a calendar by which to anticipate them. 

Beginning the night of May first, which boasted a sliver of the new 
moon, he slept fully clothed. The .22 was in a soft leather holster on 
the nightstand. 

Beside it was the Discman with headphones, Wormheart album inserted. A 
loaded Remington twelve-gauge shotgun lay under the bed, within easy 
reach. The video camera was equipped with fresh batteries and a blank 
cassette. He was prepared to move fast. 

He slept only fitfully, but the night passed without incident. 
He didn't actually expect trouble until the early-morning hours of May 
fourth. 

Of course, the strange spectacle might never be repeated. In fact, he 
hoped he wouldn't have to witness it again. In his heart, however, he 
knew what his mind could not entirely admit: that events of 
significance had been set in motion, that they were gathering momentum, 
and that he could no more avoid playing a role in them than a condemned 
man, in shackles, could avoid the noose or guillotine. 

As it turned out, he didn't have to wait quite as long as he had 
expected. 

Because he'd had little sleep the night before, he went to bed early on 
May second--and was awakened past midnight, in the first hour of May 
third, by those ominous and rhythmic pulsations. 

The sound was no louder than it had been before, but the wave of 
pressure that accompanied each beat was half again as powerful as 
anything he had previously experienced. The house shook all the way 
into its foundations, the rocking chair in the corner arced back and 
forth as if a hyperactive ghost was working off a superhuman rage, and 
one of the paintings flew off the wall and crashed to the floor. 

By the time he turned on the lamp, threw back the covers, and got out 
of bed, Eduardo felt himself being lulled into a trancelike state 
similar to the one that had gripped him a month earlier. If he fully 
succumbed, he might blink and discover he'd left the house without 
being aware of having taken a single step from the bed. 

He snatched up the Discman, slipped the headphones over his ears, and 
hit the Play button. The music of Wormheart assaulted him. 
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He suspected that the unearthly throbbing sound operated on a frequency 
with a natural hypnotic influence. If so, the trancelike effect might 
be countered by blocking the mesmeric sound with sufficient chaotic 
noise. 

He raised the volume of Wormheart until he could hear neither the bass 
throbbing nor the underlying electronic oscillation. He was sure his 
eardrums were in danger of bursting, however, with the heavy-metal band 
in full shriek, he was able to shrug off the trance before he was 
entirely enthralled. 

He could still feel the waves of pressure surging over him and see the 
effects on objects around him. As he had suspected, however, only the 
sound itself elicited a lemming-like response, by blocking it, he was 
safe. 

After clipping the Discman to his belt, so he wouldn't have to hold it, 
he strapped on the hip holster with the .22 pistol. He retrieved the 
shotgun from under the bed, slung it over his shoulder by its field 
strap, grabbed the camcorder, and rushed downstairs, outside. 

The night was chilly. 
The quarter moon gleamed like a silver scimitar. 
The light emanating from the cluster of trees and the ground at the 
edge of the lower woods was already blood red, no amber in it 
whatsoever. 

Standing on the front porch, Eduardo taped the eerie luminosity from a 
distance. He panned back and forth to get it in perspective to the 
landscape. 

Then he plunged down the porch steps, hurried across the brown lawn, 
and raced into the field. He was afraid that the phenomenon was going 
to be of shorter duration than it had been a month before, just as that 
second occurrence had been noticeably shorter but more intense than the 
first. 

He stopped twice in the meadow to tape for a few seconds from different 
distances. By the time he halted warily within ten yards of the 
uncanny radiance, he wondered if the camcorder was getting anything or 
was overwhelmed by the sheer quantity of light. 

The heatless fire was fiercely bright, shining through from some other 
place or time or dimension. 

Pressure waves battered Eduardo. No longer like a crashing storm 
surf. 

Hard, punishing. Rocking him so forcefully he had to concentrate on 
keeping his balance. 

Again he was aware of something struggling to be free of constraint, 
break loose of confinement, and burst full-born into the world. 

The apocalyptic roar of Wormheart was the ideal accompaniment to the 
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moment, brutal as a sledgehammer yet thrilling, atonal yet compelling, 
anthems to animal need, shattering the frustrations of human 
limitations, liberating. It was the darkly gleeful music of 
doomsday. 

The throbbing and the electronic whine must have grown to match the 
brilliance of the light and the power of the escalating pressure 
waves. 

He began to hear them again and was aware of being seduced. 
He cranked up the volume on Wormheart. 
The sugar and ponderosa pines, previously as still as trees on a 
painted stage backdrop, suddenly began to thrash, though no wind had 
risen. The air was filled with whirling needles. 

The pressure waves grew so fierce that he was pushed backward, 
stumbled, fell on his ass. He stopped recording, dropped the video 
camera on the ground beside him. 

The Discman, clipped to his belt, began to vibrate against his left 
hip. A wail of Wormheart guitars escalated into a shrill electronic 
shriek that replaced the music and was as painful as jamming nails into 
his ears might have been. 

Screaming in agony, he stripped off the headphones. Against his hip, 
the vibrating Discman was smoking. He tore it loose, threw it to the 
ground, scorching his fingers on the hot metal case. 

The metronomic throbbing surrounded him, as if he were adrift inside 
the beating heart of a leviathan. 

Resisting the urge to walk into the light and become part of it 
forever, Eduardo struggled to his feet. Shrugged the shotgun off his 
shoulder, Blinding light forcing him to squint, serial shock waves 
knocking the breath out of him, evergreen boughs churning, a trembling 
in the earth, the electronic oscillation like the high-pitched squeal 
of a surgeon's bone saw, and the whole night throbbing, the sky and the 
earth throbbing as something pushed repeatedly and relentlessly at the 
fabric of reality, throbbing, throbbing-Whoooosh. 

The new sound was like--but enormously louder than--the gasp of a 
vacuum-packed can of coffee or peanuts being opened, air rushing to 
fill a void. 

Immediately after that single brief whoooosh, a pall of silence fell 
across the night and the unearthly light vanished in an instant. 

, Eduardo Fernandez stood in stunned disbelief under the crescent moon, 
staring at a perfect sphere of pure blackness that towered over him, 
like a gargantuan ball on a cosmic billiards table. It was so 
flawlessly black, it stood out against the ordinary darkness of the May 
night as prominently as the flare of a nuclear explosion would stand 
out against the backdrop of even the sunniest summer day. Huge. 

Thirty feet in diameter. It filled the space once occupied by the 
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radiant pine trees and earth. 
A ship. 
For a moment he thought that he was gazing up at a ship with a 
windowless hull as smooth as pooled oil. He waited in paralytic terror 
for a seam of light to appear, a portal to crack open, a ramp to 
extrude. 

In spite of the fear that clouded his thinking, Eduardo quickly 
realized he was not looking at a solid object. The moon-glow wasn't 
reflected on its surface. Light just fell into it as it would fall 
into a well. Or tunnel. 

Except that it revealed no curving walls within. Instinctively, 
without needing to touch that smooth inky surface, he knew the sphere 
had no weight, no mass at all, he had no primitive sense whatsoever 
that it was looming over him, as he should have had if it had been 
solid. 

The object wasn't an object, it was not a sphere but a circle. Not 
three dimensional but two. 

A doorway. 
Open. 
The dark beyond the threshold was unrelieved by gleam, glint, or 
faintest glimmer. Such perfect blackness was neither natural nor 
within human experience, and staring at it made Eduardo's eyes ache 
with the strain of seeking dimension and detail where none existed. 

He wanted to run. 
He approached the doorway instead. 
His heart thudded, and his blood pressure no doubt pushed him toward a 
stroke. He clutched the shotgun with what he knew was pathetic faith 
in its efficacy, shoving it out in front of him as a primitive 
tribesman might brandish a talismanic staff carved with runes, inset 
with wild-animal teeth, lacquered with sacrificial blood, and crowned 
with a shock of a witch doctor's hair. 

However, his fear of the door--and of the unknown realms and entities 
beyond it--was not as debilitating as the fear of senility and the 
self-doubt with which he had been living lately. While the chance 
existed to gather proof of this experience, he intended to explore as 
far and as long as his nerves would hold out. He hoped never to wake 
another morning with the suspicion that his brain was addled and his 
perceptions were no longer trustworthy. 

Moving cautiously across the dead and flattened meadow grass, feet 
sinking slightly into the spring-softened soil, he remained alert for 
any change within the circle of exceptional darkness: a lesser 
blackness, shadows within the gloom, a spark, a hint of movement, 
anything that might signal the approach of ... a traveler. He stopped 
three feet from the brink of that eye-baffling tenebrity, leaning 
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forward slightly, as wonder-struck as a man in a fairy tale gazing into 
a magical mirror, the biggest damned magical mirror the Brothers Grimm 
ever imagined, one that offered no reflections--enchanted or 
otherwise-but that gave him a hair-raising glimpse of eternity. 

Holding the shotgun in one hand, he reached down and picked up a stone 
as large as a lemon. He tossed it gently at the portal. He more than 
half expected the stone to bounce off the blackness with a hard 
metallic tonk, for it was still easier to believe he was looking at an 
object rather than peering into infinity. But it crossed the vertical 
plane of the doorway and vanished without a sound. 

He edged closer. 
Experimentally, he pushed the barrel of the Remington shotgun across 
the threshold. It didn't fade into the gloom. Instead, the blackness 
so totally claimed the forward part of the weapon that it appeared as 
if someone had run a high-speed saw through the barrel and the forearm 
slide handle, neatly truncating them. 

He pulled back on the Remington, and the forward part of the gun 
reappeared. 

It seemed to be intact. 
He touched the steel barrel and the checkered wood grip on the slide. 
Everything felt as it should feel. 
Taking a deep breath, not sure whether he was brave or insane, he 
raised one trembling hand, as if signaling "hello" to someone, and 
eased it forward, feeling for the transition point between this world 
and . . . whatever lay beyond the doorway. A tingle against his palm 
and the pads of his fingers. A coolness. It felt almost as if his 
hand rested on a pool of water but too lightly to break the surface 
tension. 

He hesitated. 
"You're seventy years old," he grumbled. "What've you got to lose?" 
Swallowing hard, he pushed his hand through the portal, and it 
disappeared in the same manner as the shotgun. He encountered no 
resistance, and his wrist terminated in a neat stump. 

"Jesus," he said softly. 
He made a fist, opened and closed it, but he couldn't tell if his hand 
responded on the other side of the barrier. All feeling ended at the 
point at which that hellish blackness cut across his wrist. 

When he withdrew his hand from the doorway, it was as unchanged as the 
shotgun had been. He opened his fist, closed it, opened it. 

Everything worked as it should, and he had full feeling again. 
Eduardo looked around at the deep and peaceful May night. The forest 
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flanking the impossible circle of darkness. Meadow sloping upward, 
palely frosted by the glow of the quarter moon. The house at the 
higher end of the meadow. Some windows dark and others filled with 
light. Mountain peaks in the west, caps of snow phosphorescent against 
the post-midnight sky. 

The scene was too detailed to be a place in a dream or part of the 
hallucination-riddled world of senile dementia. He was not a demented 
old fool, after all. Old, yes. A fool, probably. But not demented. 

He returned his attention to the doorway again--and suddenly wondered 
what it looked like from the side. He imagined a long tube of 
perfectly nonreflective ebony leading straight off into the night more 
or less like an oil pipeline stretching across Alaskan tundra, boring 
through mountains in some cases and suspended in thin air when it 
crossed less lofty territories, until it reached the curve of the 
earth, where it continued straight and true, unbending, off into space, 
a tunnel to the stars. 

When he walked to one end of the thirty-foot-wide blot and looked at 
the side of it, he discovered something utterly different from--but 
quite as strange as--the pipeline image in his mind. The forest lay 
behind the enormous portal, unchanged as far as he could tell: the moon 
shone down, the trees rose as if responding to the caress of that 
silvery light, and an owl hooted far away. The doorway disappeared 
when viewed from the side. Its width, if it had any width at all, was 
as thin as a thread or as a well-stropped razor blade. 

He walked all the way around to the back of it. 
Viewed from a point a hundred and eighty degrees from his first 
position, the doorway was the same thirty-foot circle of featureless 
mystery. From that reverse perspective, it seemed to have swallowed 
not part of the forest but the meadow and the house at the top of the 
rise. It was like a great paper-thin black coin balanced on edge. 

He moved to take another look at the side of it. From that angle, he 
couldn't make out even the finest filament of supernatural blackness 
against the lesser darkness of the night. He felt for the edge with 
one hand, but he encountered only empty air. 

From the side, the doorway simply didn't exist--which was a concept 
that made him dizzy. 

He faced the invisible edge of the damned thing, then leaned to his 
left, looking around at what he thought of as the "front" of the 
doorway. He shoved his left hand into it as deeply as before. 

He was surprised at his boldness and knew he was being too quick to 
assume that the phenomenon was, after all, harmless. Curiosity, that 
old killer of cats--and not a few human beings--had him in its grip. 

Without withdrawing his left hand, he leaned to the right and looked at 
the "back" of the doorway. His fingers had not poked through the far 
side. 

He pushed his hand deeper into the front of the portal, but it still 
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did not appear out of the back. The doorway was as thin as a razor 
blade, yet he had fourteen to sixteen inches of hand and forearm thrust 
into it. 

Where had his hand gone? 
Shivering, he withdrew his hand from the enigma and returned to the 
meadow, once more facing the "front" of the portal. 

He wondered what would happen to him if he stepped through the doorway, 
both feet, all the way, with no tether to the world he knew. What 
would he discover beyond? Would he be able to get back if he didn't 
like what he found? 

He didn't have enough curiosity to take such a fateful step. He stood 
at the brink, wondering--and gradually he began to feel that something 
was coming. 

Before he could decide what to do, that pure essence of darkness seemed 
to pour out of the doorway, an ocean of night that sucked him down into 
a dry but drowning sea. 

When he regained consciousness, Eduardo was facedown in the dead and 
matted grass, head turned to his left, gazing up the long meadow toward 
the house. 

Dawn had not yet come, but time had passed. The moon had set, and the 
night was dull and bleak without its silvery enhancement. 

He was initially confused, but his mind cleared. He remembered the 
doorway. 

He rolled onto his back, sat up, looked toward the woods. The 
razor-thin coin of blackness was gone. The forest stood where it had 
always stood, unchanged. 

He crawled to where the doorway had been, stupidly wondering if it had 
fallen over and was now flat on the ground, transformed from a doorway 
into a bottomless well. But it was just gone. 

Shaky and weak, wincing at a headache as intense as a hot wire through 
his brain, he got laboriously to his feet. He swayed like a drunkard 
sobering from a week-long binge. 

He staggered to where he remembered putting down the video camera. 
It wasn't there. 
He searched in circles, steadily widening the pattern from the point 
where the camcorder should have been, until he was certain that he was 
venturing into areas where he had not gone earlier. He couldn't find 
the camera. 

The shotgun was missing as well. And the discarded Discman with its 
headphones. 

Reluctantly he returned to the house. He made a pot of strong 
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coffee. 
Almost as bitter and black as espresso. With the first cup, he washed 
down two aspirin. 

He usually made a weak brew and limited himself to two or three cups. 
Too much caffeine could cause prostate problems. This morning he 
didn't care if his prostate swelled as big as a basketball. He needed 
coffee. 

He took off the holster, with the pistol still in it, and put it on the 
kitchen table. He pulled out a chair and sat within easy reach of the 
weapon. 

He repeatedly examined his left hand, which he had thrust through the 
doorway, as if he thought it might abruptly turn to dust. And why 
not? 

Was that any more fantastic than anything else that had happened? 
At first light, he strapped on the holster and returned to the meadow 
at the perimeter of the lower woods, where he conducted another search 
for the camera, the shotgun, and the Discman. 

Gone. 
He could do without the shotgun. It wasn't his only defense. 
The Discman had served its purpose. He didn't need it any more. 
Besides, he remembered how smoke had seeped from its innards and how 
hot the casing had been when he'd unclipped it from his belt. It was 
probably ruined. 

However, he badly wanted the camcorder, because without it, he had no 
proof of what he'd seen. Maybe that was why it had been taken. 

In the house again, he made a fresh pot of coffee. What the hell did 
he need a prostate for, anyway? 

From the desk in the study, he fetched a legal-size tablet of ruled 
yellow paper and a couple of ballpoint pens. 

He sat at the kitchen table, working on the second pot of coffee and 
filling up tablet pages with his neat, strong handwriting. On the 
first page, he began with: My name is Eduardo Fernandez, and I have 
witnessed a series of strange and unsettling events. I am not much of 
a diarist. 

Often, I've resolved to start a diary with the new year, but I have 
always lost interest before the end of January. However, I am 
sufficiently worried to put down here everything that I've seen and may 
yet see in the days to come, so there will be a record in the event 
that something happens to me. 

He strove to recount his peculiar story in simple terms, with a minimum 
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of adjectives and no sensationalism. He even avoided speculating about 
the nature of the phenomenon or the power behind the creation of the 
doorway. In fact, he hesitated to call it a doorway, but he finally 
used that term because he knew, on a deep level beyond language and 
logic, that a doorway was precisely what it had been. If he died--face 
it, if he was killed--before he could obtain proof of these bizarre 
goings-on, he hoped that whoever read his account would be impressed by 
its cool, calm style and would not disregard it as the ravings of a 
demented old man. He became so involved in his writing that he worked 
through the lunch hour and well into the afternoon before pausing to 
prepare a bite to eat. Because he'd skipped breakfast too, he had 
quite an appetite. He sliced a cold chicken breast left over from 
dinner the previous night, and he built a couple of tall sandwiches 
with cheese, tomato, lettuce, and mustard. 

Sandwiches and beer were the perfect meal because that was something he 
could eat while still composing in the yellow legal tablet. 

By twilight, he had brought the story up to date. He finished with: I 
don't expect to see the doorway again because I suspect it has already 
served its purpose. Something has come through it. I wish I knew what 
that something was. 

Or perhaps I don't. 
CHAPTER NINE. 
A sound woke Heather. A soft thunk, then a brief scraping, the source 
unidentifiable. She sat straight up in bed, instantly alert. 

The night was silent again. 
She looked at the clock. Ten minutes past two in the morning. 
A few months ago, she would have attributed her apprehension to some 
frightening an unremembered dream, and she would have rolled over and 
gone back to sleep. 

Not any more. 
She had fallen asleep atop the covers. Now she didn't have to 
disentangle herself from the blankets before getting out of bed. 

For weeks, she had been sleeping in sweat-suits instead of her usual 
T-shirt and panties. Even in pyjamas, she would have felt too 
vulnerable. Sweats were comfortable enough in bed, and she was dressed 
for trouble if something happened in the middle of the night. 

Like now. 
In spite of the continued silence, she picked up the gun from the 
nightstand. 

It was a Korth .38 revolver, 120 made in Germany by Waffenfabrik Korth 
and perhaps the finest handgun in the world, with tolerances unmatched 
by any other maker. 
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The revolver was one of the weapons she had purchased since the day 
Jack had been shot, with the consultation of Alma Bryson. She'd spent 
hours with it on the police firing range. When she picked it up, it 
felt like a natural extension of her hand. 

The size of her arsenal now exceeded Alma's, which sometimes amazed 
her. More amazing still: she worried that she was not well enough 
armed for every eventuality. 

New laws were soon going into effect, making it more difficult to 
purchase firearms. She was going to have to weigh the wisdom of 
spending more of their limited income on defenses they might never need 
against the possibility that even her worst-case scenarios would prove 
to be too optimistic. 

Once, she would have regarded her current state of mind as a clear-cut 
case of paranoia. Times had changed. What once had been paranoia was 
now sober realism. 

She didn't like to think about that. It depressed her. 
When the night remained suspiciously quiet, she crossed the bedroom to 
the hall door. She didn't need to turn on any lights. During the past 
few months, she had spent so many nights restlessly walking through the 
house that she could now move from room to room in the darkness as 
swiftly and silently as a cat. 

On the wall just inside the bedroom, there was a panel for the alarm 
system she'd had installed a week after the events at Arkadian's 
service station. In luminous green letters, the lighted digital 
monitor strip informed her that all was secure. 

It was a perimeter alarm, involving magnetic contacts at every exterior 
door and window, so she could be confident the noise that awakened her 
hadn't been made by an intruder already in the premises. Otherwise, a 
siren would have sounded and a microchip recording of an authoritarian 
male voice would have announced: You have violated a protected 
dwelling. Police have been called. 

Leave at once. 
Barefoot, she stepped into the dark second-floor hallway and moved 
along to Toby's room. Every evening she made sure both his and her 
doors were open, so she would hear him if he called to her. 

For a few seconds she stood by her son's bed, listening to his soft 
snoring. 

The boy shape beneath the covers was barely visible in the weak ambient 
light that passed from the city night through the narrow slats of the 
Levolor blinds. He was dead to the world and couldn't have been the 
source of the sound that had interrupted her dreams. 

Heather returned to the hall. She crept to the stairs and went down to 
the first floor. 

In the cramped den and then in the living room, she eased from window 
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to window, checking outside for anything suspicious. The quiet street 
looked so peaceful that it might have been located in a small 
Midwestern town instead of Los Angeles. No one was up to foul play on 
the front lawn. No one skulking along the north side of the house, 
either. 

Heather began to think the suspicious sound had been part of a 
nightmare, after all. 

She seldom slept well any more, but usually she remembered her 
dreams. 

They were more often than not about Arkadian's service station, though 
she'd driven by the place only once, on the day after the shootout. 

The dreams were operatic spectacles of bullets and blood and fire, in 
which Jack was sometimes burned alive, in which she and Toby were often 
present during the gunplay, one or both of them shot down with Jack, 
one or both of them afire, and sometimes the well-groomed blond man in 
the Armani suit knelt beside her where she lay riddled with bullets, 
put his mouth to her wounds, and drank her blood. The killer was 
frequently blind, with hollow eye sockets full of roiling flames. 

His smile revealed teeth as sharp as the fangs of a viper, and once he 
said to her, I'm taking Toby down to hell with me--put the little 
bastard on a leash and use him as a guide dog. 

Considering that her remembered nightmares were so bad, how gruesome 
must be the ones she blocked from memory? 

By the time she had circled the living room, returned to the archway, 
and crossed the hall to the dining room, she decided that her 
imagination had gotten the better of her. There was no immediate 
danger. She no longer held the Korth in front of her but held it at 
her side, with the muzzle aimed at the floor and her finger on the 
trigger guard rather than on the trigger itself. 

The sight of someone outside, moving past a dinningroom window, brought 
her to full alert again. The drapes were open, but the sheers under 
them were drawn all the way shut. 

Backlit by a streetlamp, the prowler cast a shadow that pierced the 
glass and rippled across the soft folds of the translucent chiffon. It 
passed quickly, like the shadow of a night bird, but she suffered no 
doubt that it had been made by a man. 

She hurried into the kitchen. The tile floor was cold under her bare 
feet. 

Another alarm-system control panel was on the wall beside the 
connecting door to the garage. She punched in the deactivating code. 

With Jack in the hospital for an unthinkably long convalescence, 
herself out of work, and their financial future uncertain, Heather had 
been hesitant to spend precious savings on a burglar alarm. She had 
always assumed security systems were for mansions in Bel Air and 
Beverly Hills, not for middle-class families like theirs. Then she'd 
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learned that six homes out of the sixteen on their block already relied 
on high-tech protection. 

Now the glowing green letters on the readout strip changed from SECURE 
to the less comforting READY TO ARM. 
She could have set off the alarm, summoning the police. But if she did 
that, the creeps outside would run. By the time a patrol car arrived, 
there would be no one to arrest. She was pretty sure she knew what 
they were--though not who-and what mischief they were up to. She 
wanted to surprise them and hold them at gunpoint until help arrived. 

As she quietly disengaged the dead-bolt lock, opened the door--NOT 
READY TO ARM, the system warned--and stepped into the garage, she knew 
she was out of control. Fear should have had her in its thrall. She 
was afraid, yes, but fear was not what made her heart beat hard and 
fast. Anger was the engine that drove her. She was infuriated by 
repeated victimization and determined to make her tormentors pay 
regardless of the risks. 

The concrete floor of the garage was even colder than the kitchen 
tiles. 

She rounded the back end of the nearer car. Stopping between the 
fenders of the two vehicles, she waited, listened. 

The only light came through a series of six-inch-square windows high in 
the double-wide garage doors: the sickly yellow glow of the 
streetlamps. The deep shadows seemed contemptuous of it, refusing to 
withdraw. 

There. Whispering outside. Soft footfalls on the service walkway 
along the south side of the house. Then the telltale hiss for which 
she'd been waiting. 

Bastards. 
Heather walked quickly between the cars to the mansize door in the back 
wall of the garage. The lock had a thumb-turn on the inside. She 
twisted it slowly, easing the dead bolt out of the striker plate 
without the clack that it made if opened unthinkingly. She turned the 
knob, carefully pulled the door inward, and stepped onto the sidewalk 
behind the house. 

The May night was mild. The full moon, well on its westward course, 
was mostly hidden by an overcast. 

She was being irresponsible. She wasn't protecting 
Toby. If anything, she was putting him in greater jeopardy. Over the 
top. Out of control. She knew it. Couldn't help it. She'd had 
enough. Couldn't take any more. Couldn't stop. 

To her right lay the covered rear porch, the patio in front of it. The 
backyard was lit only patchily by what moonlight penetrated the ragged 
veil of clouds. Tall eucalyptuses, smaller benjaminas, and low shrubs 
were dappled with lunar silver. 

She was on the west side of the house. She moved to her left along the 
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walkway, toward the south. 
At the corner she halted, listening. Because there was no wind, she 
could clearly hear the vicious hissing, a sound that only stoked her 
anger. 

Murmurs of conversation. Couldn't catch the words. 
Stealthy footsteps hurrying toward the back of the house. A low, 
suppressed laugh, almost a giggle. Having such a good time at their 
game. 

Judging the moment of his appearance by the sound of his swiftly 
approaching footsteps, intending to scare the living hell out of him, 
Heather moved forward. With perfect timing, she met him at the turn in 
the sidewalk. 

She was surprised to see he was taller than she was. She had expected 
them to be ten years old, eleven, twelve at the oldest. 

The prowler let out a faint 
"Ah!" of alarm. 
Putting the fear of God into them was going to be a harder proposition 
than if they'd been younger. And no retreating now. They'd drag her 
down. And then . . 

She kept moving, collided with him, rammed him backward across the 
eight-foot-wide setback and into the ivy-covered concrete-block wall 
that marked the southern property line. 

The can of spray paint flew out of his hand, clattered against the 
sidewalk. 

The impact knocked the wind out of him. His mouth sagged open, and he 
gasped for breath. 

Footsteps. The second one. Running toward her. 
Pressed against the first boy, face-to-face, even in the darkness, she 
saw that he was sixteen or seventeen, maybe older. Plenty old enough 
to know better. 

She rammed her right knee up between his spread legs and turned away 
from him as he fell, wheezing and retching, into the flower bed along 
the wall. 

The second boy was coming at her fast. He didn't see the gun, and she 
didn't have time to stop him with a threat. 

She stepped toward him instead of away, spun on her left foot, and 
kicked him in the crotch with her right. Because she'd moved into him, 
it was a deep kick, she caught him with her ankle and the upper part of 
the bridge of her foot instead of with her toes. 
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He crashed past her, slammed into the sidewalk, and rolled against the 
first boy, afflicted by an identical fit of retching. 

A third one was coming at her along the sidewalk from the front of the 
house, but he skidded to a halt fifteen feet away and started to back 
up. 

"Stop right there," she said. "I've got a gun." Though she raised the 
Korth, holding it in a two-hand grip, she did not raise her voice, and 
her calm control made the order more menacing than if she had shouted 
it in an 

He stopped, but maybe he couldn't see the revolver in the dark. His 
body language said he was still contemplating making a break for it. 

"So help me God," she said, still at a conversational level, "I'll blow 
your brains out." She was surprised by the cold hatred in her voice. 

She wouldn't really have shot him. She was sure of that. Yet the 
sound of her own voice frightened her . . . and made her wonder. 

His shoulders sagged. His entire posture changed. He believed her 
threat. 

A dark exhilaration filled her. Nearly three months of intense taste 
kwon do and women's defense classes, provided free to members of police 
families three times a week at the division gym, had paid off. Her 
right foot hurt like blazes, probably almost as badly as the second 
boy's crotch hurt him. She might have broken a bone in it, would 
certainly be hobbling around for a week even if there wasn't a 
fracture, but she felt so good about nailing the three vandals that she 
was happy to suffer for her triumph. 

"Come here," she said. "Now, come on, come on." 
The third kid raised his hands over his head. He was holding a spray 
can in each of them. 

"Get down on the ground with your buddies," she demanded, and he did as 
he was told. 

The moon sailed out from behind the clouds, which was like slowly 
bringing up the stage lights to quarter power on a darkened set. She 
could see well enough to be sure that they were all older teenagers, 
sixteen to eighteen. 

She could also see that they didn't fit any popular stereotypes of 
taggers. They weren't black or Hispanic. They were white boys. 

And they didn't look poor, either. One of them wore a well-cut leather 
jacket, and another wore a cable-knit cotton sweater with what appeared 
to be a complicated and beautifully knitted pattern. 

The night quiet was broken only by the miserable gagging and groaning 
of the two she'd disabled. The confrontation had unfolded so swiftly 
in the eight-foot-wide space between the house and the property wall, 
and in such relative silence, that they hadn't even awakened any 
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neighbors. 
Keeping the gun on them, Heather said, "You been here before?" 
Two of them couldn't yet have answered her if they'd wanted to, but the 
third was also unresponsive. 

"I asked if you'd been here before," she said sharply, "done this kind 
of crap here before." 

"Bitch," the third kid said. 
She realized it was possible to lose control of the situation even when 
she was the only one with a gun, especially if the crotch-bashed pair 
recovered more easily than she expected. She resorted to a lie that 
might convince them she was more than just a cop's wife with a few 
smart moves: "Listen, you little snots--I can kill all of you, go in 
the house and get a couple of knives, plant them in your hands before 
the first black-and-white gets here. 

Maybe they'll drag me into court and maybe they won't. But what jury's 
going to put the wife of a hero cop and the mother of a little 
eight-year-old boy in prison?" 

"You wouldn't do that," the third kid said, although he spoke only 
after a hesitation. A thread of uncertainty fluttered in his voice. 

She continued to surprise herself by speaking with an intensity and 
bitterness she didn't have to fake. "Wouldn't I, huh? Wouldn't I? My 
Jack, two partners shot down beside him in one year, and him lying in 
the hospital since the first of March, going to be in there weeks yet, 
months yet, God knows what pain he might have the rest of his life, 
whether he'll ever walk entirely right, and here I am out of work since 
October, savings almost gone, can't sleep for worrying, being harassed 
by crud like you. You think I wouldn't like to see somebody else 
hurting for a change, think I wouldn't actually get a kick out of 
hurting you, hurting you real bad? Wouldn't I? Huh? Huh? Wouldn't 
I, you little snot?" 

Jesus. She was shaking. She hadn't been aware that anything this dark 
was in her. She felt her gorge rising in the back of her throat and 
had to fight hard to keep it down. 

From all appearances, she had scared the three taggers even more than 
she had scared herself. Their eyes were wide with fright in the 
moonlight. 

"We . . . been here . . . before," gasped the kid whom she'd 
kicked. 

"How often?" 
"T-twice." 
The house had been hit twice before, once in late March, once in the 
middle of April. 
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Glowering down at them, she said, "Where you from?" 
"Here," said the kid she hadn't hurt. 
"Not from this neighborhood, you aren't." 
"L. A." he said. 
"It's a big city," she pressed. 
"The Hills." 
"Beverly Hills?" 
"Yeah." 
"All three of you?" 
"Yeah." 
"Don't screw around with me." 
"It's true, that's where we're from--why wouldn't it be true?" 
The unhurt boy put his hands to his temples as if he'd just been 
overcome with remorse, though it was far more likely to be a sudden 
headache. Moonlight glinted off his wristwatch and the beveled edges 
of the shiny metal band. 

"What's that watch?" she demanded. 
"Huh?" 
"What make is it?" 
"Rolex," he said. 
That was what she'd thought it was, although she couldn't help but 
express astonishment: "Rolex?" 

"I'm not lying. I got it for Christmas." 
"Jesus." 
He started to take it off. "Here, you can have it." 
"Leave it on," she said scornfully. 
"No, really." 
"Who gave it to you?" 
"My folks. It's the gold one." He had taken it off. He held it out, 
offering it to her. "No diamonds, but all gold, the watch and the 
band." 

"What is that," she asked incredulously, "fifteen thousand bucks, 
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twenty thousand?" 
"Something like that," one of the hurt boys said. "It's not the most 
expensive model." 

"You can have it," the owner of the watch repeated. 
Heather said, "How old are you?" 
"Seventeen." 
"You're still in high school?" 
"Senior. Here, take the watch." 
"You're still in high school, you get a fifteen-thousand-dollar watch 
for Christmas?" 

"It's yours." 
Crouching in front of the huddled trio, refusing to acknowledge the 
pain in her right foot, she leveled the Korth at the face of the boy 
with the watch. 

All three drew back in terror. 
She said, "I might blow your head off, you spoiled little creep, I sure 
might, but I wouldn't steal your watch even if it was worth a 
million. 

Put it on." 
The gold links of the Rolex band rattled as he nervously slipped it 
onto his wrist again and fumbled with the clasp. 

She wanted to know why, with all the privileges and advantages their 
families could give them, three boys from Beverly Hills would sneak 
around at night defacing the hard-earned property of a cop who had 
nearly been killed trying to preserve the very social stability that 
made it possible for them to have enough food to eat, let alone Rolex 
watches. Where did their meanness come from, their twisted values, 
their nihilism? Couldn't blame it on deprivation. Then who or what 
was to blame? 

"Show me your wallets," she said harshly. 
They fumbled wallets from hip pockets, held them out to her. They kept 
glancing back and forth from her to the Korth. The muzzle of the .38 
must have looked like a cannon to them. 

She said, "Take out whatever cash you're carrying." 
Maybe the trouble with them was just that they'd been raised in a time 
when the media assaulted them, first, with endless predictions of 
nuclear war and then, after the fall of the Soviet Union, with 
ceaseless warnings of a fast-approaching worldwide environmental 
catastrophe. Maybe the unremitting but stylishly produced gloom and 
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doom that got high Nielsen ratings for electronic news had convinced 
them that they had no future. And black kids had it even worse, 
because they were also being told they couldn't make it, the system was 
against them, unfair, no justice, no use even trying. 

Or maybe none of that had anything to do with it. 
She didn't know. She wasn't sure she even cared. Nothing she could 
say or do would turn them around. 

Each boy was holding cash in one hand, a wallet in the other, waiting 
expectantly. 

She almost didn't ask the next question, then decided she'd better: 
"Any of you have credit cards?" 

Incredibly, two of them did. High-school students with credit cards. 
The boy she had driven backward into the wall had American Express and 
Visa cards. The boy with the Rolex had a Mastercard. 

Staring at them, meeting their troubled eyes in the moonlight, she took 
solace from the certainty that most kids weren't like these three. 

Most were struggling to deal with an immoral world in a moral fashion, 
and they would finish growing up to be good people. Maybe even these 
brats would be all right eventually, one or two of them, anyway. But 
what was the percentage who'd lost their moral compass these days, not 
merely among teenagers but in any age group? Ten percent? Surely 
more. So much street crime and white-collar crime, so much lying and 
cheating, greed and envy. Twenty percent? And what percentage could a 
democracy tolerate before it collapsed? 

"Throw your wallets on the sidewalk," she said, indicating a spot 
beside her. 

They did as instructed. 
"Put the cash and credit cards in your pockets." 
Looking perplexed, they did that too. 
"I don't want your money. I'm no petty criminal like you." 
Holding the revolver in her right hand, she gathered up the wallets 
with her left. She stood and backed away from them, refusing to favor 
her right foot, until she came up against the garage wall. 

She didn't ask them any of the questions that had been running through 
her mind. Their answers--if they had any answers--would be glib. She 
was sick of glibness. The modern world creaked along on a lubricant of 
facile lies, oily evasions, slick self-justifications. 

"All I want is your identification," Heather said, raising the fist in 
which she clenched the wallets. "This'll tell me who you are, where I 
can find you. You ever give us any more grief, you so much as drive by 
and spit on the front lawn, I'll come after all of you, take my time, 
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catch you at just the right moment." She cocked the hammer on the 
Korth, and their gazes all dropped from her eyes to the gun. "Bigger 
gun than this, higher-caliber ammunition, something with a hollow 
point, shoot you in the leg and it shatters the bone so bad they have 
to amputate. Shoot you in both legs, you're in a wheelchair the rest 
of your life. Maybe one of you gets it in the balls, so you can't 
bring any more like you into the world." 

The moon slid behind clouds. 
The night was deep. 
From the backyard came the coarse singing of toads. 
The three boys stared at her, not sure that she meant for them to go. 
They had expected to be turned over to the police. 
That, of course, was. out of the question. She had hurt two of 
them. 

Each of the injured still had a hand cupped tenderly over his crotch, 
and both were grimacing with pain. Furthermore, she had threatened 
them with a gun outside her home. The argument against her would be 
that they had represented no real threat because they hadn't crossed 
her threshold. Although they had spraypainted her house with hateful 
and obscene graffiti on three separate occasions, though they had done 
financial and emotional damage to her and her child, she knew that 
being the wife of a heroic cop was no guarantee against prosecution on 
a variety of charges that inevitably would result in her imprisonment 
instead of theirs. 

"Get out of here," she said. 
They rose to their feet but then hesitated as if afraid she would shoot 
them in the back. 

"Go," she said. "Now." 
At last they hurried past her, along the side of the house, and she 
followed at a distance to be sure they actually cleared out. They kept 
glancing back at her. 

On the front lawn, standing in the dew-damp grass, she got a good look 
at what they had done to at least two and possibly three sides of the 
house. The red, yellow, and sour-apple-green paint seemed to glow in 
the light of the streetlamps. They had scrawled their personal tagger 
symbols everywhere, and they had favored the F-word with and without a 
variety of suffixes, as noun and verb and adjective. But the central 
message was as it had been the previous two times they'd struck: KILLER 
COP. 

The three boys--two of them limping--reached their car, which was 
parked nearly a block to the north. A black Infinity. They took off 
with a squeal of spinning tires, leaving clouds of blue smoke in their 
wake. 
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KILLER COP. 
WIDOWMAKER. 
ORPHANMAKER. 
Heather was more deeply disturbed by the irrationality of the graffiti 
than by the confrontation with the three taggers. Jack had not been to 
blame. He'd been doing his duty. How was he supposed to have taken a 
machine gun from a homicidal maniac without resorting to lethal 
force? 

She was overcome with a feeling that civilization was sinking in a sea 
of mindless hatred. 

ANSON OLIVER LIVES! 
Anson Oliver was the maniac with the Micro Uzi, a promising young film 
director with three features released in the past four years. Not 
surprisingly, he made angry movies about angry people. Since the 
shootout, Heather had seen all three films. Oliver had made excellent 
use of the camera and had had a powerful narrative style. Some of his 
scenes were dazzling. He might even have been a genius and, in time, 
might have been honored with Oscars and other awards. But there was a 
disquieting moral arrogance in his work, a smugness and bullying, that 
now appeared to have been an early sign of much deeper problems 
exacerbated by too many drugs. 

ASSASSIN . 
She wished that Toby didn't have to see his father labeled a 
murderer. 

Well, he'd seen it before. Twice before, all over his own house. He 
had heard it at school, as well, and had been in two fights because of 
it. He was a little guy, but he had guts. Though he'd lost both of 
the fights, he would no doubt disregard her advice to turn the other 
cheek and would wade into more battles. 

In the morning, after she drove him to school, she would paint over the 
graffiti. As before, some of the neighbors would probably help. 

Multiple coats were required over the affected areas because their 
house was a pale yellow-beige. 

Even so, it was a temporary repair, because the spray paint had a 
chemical composition that ate through the house paint. Over a few 
weeks, each defacement gradually reappeared like spirit writing on a 
medium's tablet at a seance, messages from souls in hell. 

In spite of the mess on her house, her anger faded. She didn't have 
the energy to sustain it. These last few months had worn her down. 

She was tired, so very tired. 
Limping, she reentered the house by the back garage door and locked up 
after herself. She also locked the connecting door between the garage 
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and the kitchen, and punched in the activating code to arm the alarm 
system again. 

SECURE. 
Not really. Not ever. 
She went upstairs to check on Toby. He was still sound asleep. 
Standing in the doorway of her son's room, listening to him snore, she 
understood why Anson Oliver's mother and father had been unable to 
accept that their son had been capable of mass murder. He had been 
their baby, their little boy, their fine young man, the embodiment of 
the best of their own qualities, a source of pride and hope, heart of 
their heart. She sympathized with them, pitied them, prayed that she 
would never have to experience a pain like theirs--but she wished they 
would shut up and go away. 

Oliver's parents had conducted an effective media campaign to portray 
their son as a kind, talented man incapable of what he was said to have 
done. They claimed the Uzi found at the scene had not belonged to 
him. 

No record existed to prove he had purchased or registered such a 
weapon. But the fully automatic Micro Uzi was an illegal gun these 
days, and Oliver no doubt paid cash for it on the black market. No 
mystery about the lack of a receipt or registration. 

Heather left Toby's room and returned to her own. She sat on the edge 
of the bed and switched on the lamp. 

She put down the revolver and occupied herself with the contents of the 
three wallets. From their driver's licenses, she learned that one of 
the boys was sixteen years old and two were seventeen. They did, 
indeed, live in Beverly Hills. 

In one wallet, among snapshots of a cute high school-age blonde and a 
grinning Irish setter, Heather found a two-inch-diameter decal at which 
she stared in disbelief for a moment before she fished it out of the 
plastic window. It was the kind of thing often sold on novelty racks 
in stationery stores, pharmacies, record shops, and bookstores, kids 
decorated school notebooks and countless other items with them. A 
paper backing could be peeled off to reveal an adhesive surface. This 
one was glossy black with embossed silver-foil letters: ANSON OLIVER 
LIVES. 

Someone was already merchandising his death. Sick. Sick and 
strange. 

What unnerved Heather most was that, apparently, a market existed for 
Anson Oliver as legendary figure, perhaps even as martyr. 

Maybe she should have seen it coming. Oliver's parents weren't the 
only people assiduously polishing his image since the shootout. 

The director's fiancee, pregnant with his child, claimed he didn't use 
drugs any more. He'd been arrested twice for driving under the 
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influence of narcotics, however, those slips from the pedestal were 
said to have been a thing of the past. The fiancee was an actress, not 
merely beautiful but with a fey and vulnerable quality that ensured 
plenty of TV-news time, her large, lovely eyes always seemed on the 
verge of filling with tears. 

Various film-community associates of the director had taken out 
full-page ads in The Hollywood Reporter and Daily Variety, mourning the 
loss of such a creative talent, making the observation that his 
controversial films had angered a lot of people in positions of power, 
and suggesting that he had lived and died for his art. 

The implications of all this were that the Uzi had been planted on him, 
as had the cocaine and PCP. Because everyone up and down the street 
from Arkadian's station had dived for cover at the sound of all that 
gunfire, no one had witnessed Anson Oliver with a gun in his hands 
except the people who died--and Jack. Mrs. Arkadian had never seen 
the gunman while she'd been hiding in the office, when she'd come out 
of the service station with Jack, she'd been virtually blind because 
smoke and soot had mucked up her contact lenses. 

Within two days of the shootout, Heather had been forced to change 
their phone number for a new, unlisted one, because fans of Anson 
Oliver were calling at all hours. Many had made accusations of 
sinister conspiracies in which Jack figured as the triggerman. 

It was nuts. 
The guy was just a filmmaker, for God's sake, not President of the 
United States. Politicians, corporate chiefs, military leaders, and 
police officials didn't quiver in terror and plot murder out of fear 
that some crusading Hollywood film director was going to take a swipe 
at them in a movie. Hell, if they were that sensitive, there would 
hardly be any directors left. 

And did these people actually believe that Jack had shot his own 
partner and three other men at the service station, then pumped three 
rounds into himself, all of this in broad daylight where there well 
might have been witnesses, risking death, subjecting himself to 
enormous pain and suffering and an arduous rehabilitation merely to 
make his story about Anson Oliver's death look more credible? 

The answer, of course, was yes. They did believe such nonsense. 
She found proof in another plastic window in the same wallet. Another 
decal, also a two-inch-diameter circle. Black background, red letters, 
three names stacked above one another: OSWALD, CHAPMAN, Mcgarvey? 

She was filled with revulsion. To compare a troubled film director 
who'd made three flawed movies to John Kennedy (Oswald's victim) or 
even to John Lennon (Mark David Chapman's victim) was disgusting. But 
to liken Jack to a pair of infamous murderers was an abomination. 

OSWALD, CHAPMAN, Mcgarvey? 
Her first thought was to call an attorney in the morning, find out who 
was producing this trash, and sue them for every penny they had. As 
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she stared at the hateful decal, however, she had a sinking feeling 
that the purveyor of this crap had protected himself by the use of that 
question mark. 

OSWALD, CHAPMAN, MCGARVY? 
Speculation wasn't the same thing as accusation. The question mark 
made it speculation and probably provided protection against a 
successful prosecution for slander or libel. 

Suddenly she had enough energy to sustain her anger, after all. She 
gathered up the wallets and threw them into the bottom drawer of the 
nightstand, along with the decals. She slammed the drawer shut--then 
hoped she hadn't wakened Toby. 

It was an age when a great many people would rather embrace a patently 
absurd conspiracy theory than bother to research the facts and accept a 
simple, observable truth. They seemed to have confused real life with 
fiction, eagerly seeking Byzantine schemes and cabals of maniacal 
villains straight out of Ludlum novels. But the reality was nearly 
always far less dramatic and immeasurably less flamboyant. It was 
probably a coping mechanism, a means by which they tried to bring order 
to and make sense of--a high-tech world in which the pace of social and 
technological change dizzied and frightened them. 

Coping mechanism or not, it was sick. 
And speaking of sick, she had hurt two of those boys. Never mind that 
they deserved it. She had never hurt anyone in her life before. Now 
that the heat of the moment was past, she felt ... not remorse, 
exactly, because they had earned what she'd done to them . . . but a 
sadness that it had been necessary. She felt soiled. Her exhilaration 
had fallen with her adrenaline level. 

She examined her right foot. It was beginning to swell, but the pain 
was tolerable. 

"Good God, woman," she admonished herself, "who did you think you 
were--one of the Ninja Turtles?" 

She got two Excedrin from the bathroom medicine cabinet, washed them 
down with tepid water. 

In the bedroom again, she switched off the bedside lamp. 
She wasn't afraid of the darkness. 
What she feared was the damage people were capable of doing to one 
another either in darkness or at high noon. 

CHAPTER TEN. 
The tenth of June was not a day in which to be cooped up inside. The 
sky was delft blue, the temperature hovered around eighty degrees, and 
the meadows were still a dazzling green because the heat of summer had 
not yet seared the grass. 
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Eduardo spent most of the balmy afternoon in a bentwood hickory rocking 
chair on the front porch. A new video camera, loaded with tape and 
fully charged batteries, lay on the porch floor beside the rocker. 

Next to the camera was a shotgun. He got up a couple of times to fetch 
a fresh bottle of beer or to use the bathroom. And once he went for a 
half-hour walk around the nearer fields, carrying the camera. For the 
most part, however, he remained in the chair-waiting. 

It was in the woods. 
Eduardo knew in his bones that something had come through the black 
doorway in the first hour of May third, over five weeks ago. Knew it, 
felt it. He had no idea what it was or where it had begun its journey, 
but he knew it had traveled from some strange world into that Montana 
night. 

Thereafter, it must have found a hiding place, into which it had 
crawled. No other analysis of the situation made sense. Hiding. If 
it had wanted its presence to be known, it would have revealed itself 
to him that night or later. The woods, vast and dense, offered an 
infinite number of places to go to ground. 

Although the doorway had been enormous, that didn't mean the 
traveler--or the vessel carrying it, if a vessel existed--was also 
large. Eduardo had once been to New York City and driven through the 
Holland Tunnel, which had been a lot bigger than any car that used 
it. 

Whatever had come out of that death-black portal might be no larger 
than a man, perhaps even smaller, and able to hide almost anywhere 
among those timbered vales and ridges. 

The doorway indicated nothing about the traveler, in fact, except that 
it was undoubtedly intelligent. Sophisticated science and engineering 
lay behind the creation of that gate. 

He had read enough Heinlein and Clarke--and selected others in their 
vein--to have exercised his imagination, and he had realized that the 
intruder might have a variety of origins. More likely than not, it was 
extraterrestrial. 

However, it might also be something from another dimension or from a 
parallel world. It might even be a human being, opening a passage into 
this age from the far future. 

The numerous possibilities were dizzying, and he no longer felt like a 
fool when he speculated about them. He also had ceased being 
embarrassed about borrowing fantastical literature from the 
library--though the cover art was often trashy even when well 
drawn--and his appetite for it had become voracious. 

Indeed, he found that he no longer had the patience to read the realist 
writers who had been his lifelong favorites. Their work simply wasn't 
as realistic as it had seemed before. Hell, it wasn't realistic at all 
to him any longer. Now, when he was just a few pages into a book or 
story by one of them, Eduardo got the distinct feeling that their point 
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of view consisted of an extremely narrow slice of reality, as if they 
looked at life through the slit of a welder's hood. They wrote well, 
certainly, but they were writing about only the tiniest sliver of the 
human experience in a big world and an infinite universe. 

He now preferred writers who could look beyond this horizon, who knew 
that humanity would one day reach childhood's end, who believed 
intellect could triumph over superstition and ignorance, and who dared 
to dream. 

He was also thinking about buying a second Discman and giving Wormheart 
another try. 

He finished a beer, put the bottle on the porch beside the rocker, and 
wished he could believe the thing that had come through the doorway was 
just a person from the distant future, or at least something benign. 

But it had gone into hiding for more than five weeks, and its 
secretiveness did not seem to indicate benevolent intentions. He was 
trying not to be xenophobic. But instinct told him that he'd had a 
brush with something not merely different from humanity but inherently 
hostile to it. 

Although his attention was focused, more often than not, on the lower 
woods to the east, at the edge of which the doorway had opened, Eduardo 
wasn't comfortable venturing near the northern and western woods, 
either, because the evergreen wilderness on three sides of the ranch 
house was contiguous, broken only by the fields to the south. Whatever 
had entered the lower woods could easily make its way under the cover 
of the trees into any arm of the forest. 

He supposed it was possible that the traveler had not chosen to hide 
anywhere nearby but had circled into the pines on the western foothills 
and from there into the mountains. It might long ago have retreated 
into some high redoubt, secluded ravine, or cavern in the remote 
reaches of the Rocky Mountains, many miles from Quartermass Ranch. 

But he didn't think that was the case. 
Sometimes, when he was walking near the forest, studying the shadows 
under the trees, looking for anything out of the ordinary, he was aware 
of ... a presence. Simple as that. Inexplicable as that. A 
presence. 

On those occasions, though he neither saw nor heard anything unusual, 
he was aware that he was no longer alone. So he waited. 

Sooner or later something new would happen. 
On those days when he grew impatient, he reminded himself of two 
things. 

First, he was well accustomed to waiting, since Margaret had died 
three years ago, he hadn't been doing anything but waiting for the time 
to come when he could join her again. Second, when at last something 
did happen, when the traveler finally chose to reveal itself in some 
fashion, Eduardo more likely than not would wish that it had remained 
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concealed and secretive. 
Now he picked up the empty beer bottle, rose from the rocking chair, 
intending to get another brew--and saw the raccoon. It was standing in 
the yard, about eight or ten feet from the porch, staring at him. He 
hadn't noticed it before because he'd been focused on the distant 
trees--the once-luminous trees--at the foot of the meadow. 

The woods and fields were heavily populated with wildlife. The 
frequent appearance of squirrels, rabbits, foxes, possums, deer, 
horned sheep, and other animals was one of the charms of such a deeply 
rural life. 

Raccoons, perhaps the most adventurous and interesting of all the 
creatures in the neighborhood, were highly intelligent and rated higher 
still on any scale of cuteness. However, their intelligence and 
aggressive scavenging made them a nuisance, and the dexterity of their 
almost hand-like paws facilitated their mischief. In the days when 
horses had been kept in the stables, before Stanley Quartermass died, 
raccoons--although primarily carnivores--had been endlessly inventive 
in the raids they launched on apples and other equestrian supplies. 

Now, as then, trash cans had to be fitted with raccoon-proof lids, 
though these masked bandits still made an occasional assault on the 
containers, as if they'd been in their dens, brooding about the 
situation for weeks, and had devised a new technique they wanted to try 
out. 

The specimen in the front yard was an adult, sleek and fat, with a 
shiny coat that was somewhat thinner than the thick fur of winter. It 
sat on its hindquarters, forepaws against its chest, head held high, 
watching Eduardo. Though raccoons were communal and usually roamed in 
pairs or groups, no others were visible either in the front yard or 
along the edge of the meadow. 

They were also nocturnal. They were rarely seen in the open in broad 
daylight. 

With no horses in the stables and the trash cans well secured, Eduardo 
had long ago stopped chasing raccoons away--unless they got onto the 
roof at night. Engaged in raucous play or mouse chasing across the top 
of the house, they could make sleeping impossible. 

He moved to the head of the porch steps, taking advantage of this 
uncommon opportunity to study one of the critters in bright sunlight at 
such close range. 

The raccoon moved its head to follow him. 
Nature had cursed the rascals with exceptionally beautiful fur, doing 
them the tragic disservice of making them valuable to the human 
species, which was ceaselessly engaged in a narcissistic search for 
materials with which to bedeck and ornament itself. This one had a 
particularly bushy tail, ringed with black, glossy and glorious. 

"What're you doing out and about on a sunny afternoon?" Eduardo 
asked. 
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The animal's anthracite-black eyes regarded him with almost palpable 
curiosity. 

"Must be having an identity crisis, think you're a squirrel or 
something." 

With a flurry of paws, the raccoon busily combed its facial fur for 
maybe half a minute, then froze again and regarded Eduardo intently. 

Wild animals--even species as aggressive as raccoons--seldom made such 
direct eye contact as this fellow. They usually tracked people 
furtively, with peripheral vision or quick glances. Some said this 
reluctance to meet a direct gaze for more than a few seconds was an 
acknowledgment of human superiority, the animal's way of humbling 
itself as a commoner might do before a king, while others said it 
indicated that animals--innocent creatures of God--saw in men's eyes 
the stain of sin and were ashamed for humanity. Eduardo had his own 
theory: animals recognized that people were the most vicious and 
unrelenting beasts of all, violent and unpredictable, and avoided 
direct eye contact out of fear and prudence. 

Except for this raccoon. It seemed to have no fear whatsoever, to feel 
no humility in the presence of a human being. 

"At least not this particular sorry old human being, huh?" 
The raccoon just watched him. 
Finally the coon was less compelling than his thirst, and Eduardo went 
inside to get another beer. The hinge springs sang when he pulled open 
the screen door--which he'd hung for the season only two weeks 
before--and again when he eased it shut behind him. 

He expected the strange sound to startle the coon and send it scurrying 
away, but when he looked back through the screen, he saw the critter 
had come a couple , of feet closer to the porch steps and more directly 
in line with the door, keeping him in sight. 

"Funny little bugger," he said. 
He walked to the kitchen, at the end of the hall, and, first thing, 
looked at the clock above the double ovens because he wasn't wearing a 
watch. Twenty past three. 

He had a pleasing buzz on, and he was in the mood to sustain it all the 
way to bedtime. However, he didn't want to get downright sloppy. He 
decided to have dinner an hour early, at six instead of seven, get some 
food on his stomach. 

He might take a book to bed and turn in early as well. 
This waiting for something to happen was getting on his nerves. 
He took another Corona from the refrigerator. It had a twist-off cap, 
but he had a touch of arthritis in his hands. The bottle opener was on 
the cutting board by the sink. 
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As he popped the cap off the bottle, he happened to glance out the 
window above the sink--and saw the raccoon in the backyard. It was 
twelve or fourteen feet from the rear porch. Sitting on its 
hindquarters, forepaws against its chest, head held high. Because the 
yard rose toward the western woods, the coon was in a position to look 
over the porch railing, directly at the kitchen window. 

It was watching him. 
Eduardo went to the back door, unlocked and opened it. 
The raccoon moved from its previous position to another from which it 
could continue to study him. 

He pushed open the screen door, which made the same screaky sound as 
the one at the front of the house. He went onto the porch, hesitated, 
then descended the three back steps to the yard. 

The animal's dark eyes glittered. 
When Eduardo closed half the distance between them, the raccoon dropped 
to all fours, turned, and scampered twenty feet farther up the slope. 

There it stopped, turned to face him again, sat erect on its 
hindquarters, and regarded him as before. 

Until then he had thought it was the same raccoon that had been 
watching him from the front yard. Suddenly he wondered if, in fact, it 
was a different beast altogether. 

He walked quickly around the north side of the house, cutting a wide 
enough berth to keep the raccoon at the back in sight. He came to a 
point, well to the north of the house, from which he could see the 
front and back yards--and two ring-tailed sentinels. 

They were both staring at him. 
He proceeded toward the raccoon in front of the house. 
When he drew close, the coon put its tail to him and ran across the 
front yard. At what it evidently regarded as a safe distance, it 
stopped and sat watching him with its back against the higher, unmown 
grass of the meadow. 

"I'll be damned," he said. 
He returned to the front porch and sat in the rocker. 
The waiting was over. After more than five weeks, things were 
beginning to happen. 

Eventually he realized he'd left his open beer by the kitchen sink. He 
went inside to retrieve it because, now more than ever, he needed it. 

He had left the back door standing open, though the screen door had 
closed behind him when he'd gone outside. He locked up, got his beer, 
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stood at the window watching the backyard raccoon for a moment, and 
then returned to the front porch. 

The first raccoon had crept forward from the edge of the meadow and was 
again only ten feet from the porch. 

Eduardo picked up the video camera and recorded the critter for a 
couple of minutes. It wasn't anything amazing enough to convince 
skeptics that a doorway from beyond had opened in the early-morning 
hours of May third, however, it was peculiar for a nocturnal animal to 
pose so long in broad daylight, making such obviously direct eye 
contact with the operator of the camcorder, and it might prove to be 
the first small fragment in a mosaic of evidence. 

After he finished with the camera, he sat in the rocker, sipping beer 
and watching the raccoon as it watched him, waiting to see what would 
happen next. 

Occasionally the ring-tailed sentinel smoothed its whiskers, combed its 
face fur, scratched behind its ears, or performed some other small act 
of grooming. 

Otherwise, there were no new developments. 
At five-thirty he went inside to make dinner, taking his empty beer 
bottle, camcorder, and shotgun with him. He closed and locked the 
front door. 

Through the oval, beveled-glass window, he saw the coon still on 
duty. 

At the kitchen table, Eduardo enjoyed an early dinner of rigatoni and 
spicy sausage with thick slabs of heavily buttered Italian bread. He 
kept the yellow legal-size tablet beside his plate and, while he ate, 
wrote about the intriguing events of the afternoon. 

He had almost brought the account up-to-date when a peculiar clicking 
noise distracted him. He glanced at the electric stove, then at each 
of the two windows to see if something was tapping on the glass. 

When he turned in his chair, he saw that a raccoon was in the kitchen 
behind him. Sitting on its hindquarters. Staring at him. 

He shoved his chair back from the table and got quickly to his feet. 
Evidently the animal had entered the room from the hallway. How it had 
gotten inside the house in the first place, however, was a mystery. 

The clicking he'd heard had been its claws on the pegged-oak floor. 
They rattled against the wood again, though it didn't move. 
Eduardo realized it was racked by severe shivers. At first he thought 
it was frightened of being in the house, feeling threatened and 
cornered. 

He backed away a couple of steps, giving it space. 
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The raccoon made a thin mewling sound that was neither a threat nor an 
expression of fear, but the unmistakable voice of misery. It was in 
pain, injured or ill. 

His first reaction was: Rabies. 
The .22 pistol lay on the table, as he always kept a weapon close at 
hand these days. He picked it up, though he did not want to have to 
kill the raccoon in the house. 

He saw now that the creature's eyes were protruding unnaturally and 
that the fur under them was wet and matted with tears. The small paws 
clawed at the air, and the black-ringed tail swished back and forth 
furiously across the oak floor. Gagging, the coon dropped off its 
haunches, flopped on its side. It twitched convulsively, sides heaving 
as it struggled to breathe. Abruptly blood bubbled from its nostrils 
and trickled from its ears. After one final spasm that rattled its 
claws against the floor again, it lay still, silent. 

Dead. 
"Dear Jesus," Eduardo said, and put one trembling hand to his brow to 
blot away the sudden dew of perspiration that had sprung up along his 
hairline. 

The dead raccoon didn't seem as large as either of the sentinels he'd 
seen outside, and he didn't think that it looked smaller merely because 
death had diminished it. He was pretty sure it was a third individual, 
perhaps younger than the other two, or maybe they were males, and this 
was a female. 

He remembered leaving the kitchen door open when he'd walked around the 
house to see if the front and back sentries were the same animal. The 
screen door had been closed. But it was light, just a narrow pine 
frame and screen. The raccoon might have been able to pry it open wide 
enough to insinuate its snout, its head, and then its body, sneaking 
into the house before he'd returned to close the inner door. 

Where had it hidden in the house when he'd been passing the late 
afternoon in the rocking chair? What had it been up to while he was 
cooking dinner? 

He went to the window at the sink. Because he had eaten early and 
because the summer sunset was late, twilight had not yet arrived, so he 
could clearly see the masked observer. It was in the backyard, sitting 
on its hindquarters, dutifully watching the house. 

Stepping carefully around the pitiful creature on the floor, Eduardo 
went down the hall, unlocked the front door, and stepped outside to see 
if the other sentry was still in place. It was not in the front yard, 
where he'd left it, but on the porch, a few feet from the door. It was 
lying on its side, blood pooled in the one ear that he could see, blood 
at its nostrils, eyes wide and glazed. 

Eduardo raised his attention from the coon to the lower woods at the 
bottom of the meadow. The declining sun, balanced on the peaks of the 
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mountains in the west, threw slanting orange beams between the trunks 
of those trees but was incapable of dispelling the stubborn shadows. 

By the time he returned to the kitchen and looked out the window again, 
the backyard coon was running frantically in circles. When he went out 
onto the porch, he could hear it squealing in pain. Within seconds it 
fell, tumbled. It lay with its sides heaving for a moment, and then it 
was motionless. 

He looked uphill, past the dead raccoon on the grass, to the woods that 
flanked the fieldstone house where he had lived when he'd been the 
caretaker. 

The darkness among those trees was deeper than in the lower forest 
because the westering sun illuminated only their highest boughs as it 
slid slowly behind the Rockies. 

Something was in the woods. 
Eduardo didn't think the raccoons' strange behavior resulted from 
rabies or, in fact, from an illness of any kind. Something was ... 
controlling them. 

Maybe the means by which that control was exerted had proved so 
physically taxing to the animals that it had resulted in their sudden, 
spasmodic deaths. 

Or maybe the entity in the woods had purposefully killed them to 
exhibit the extent of its control, to impress Eduardo with its power, 
and to suggest that it might be able to waste him as easily as it had 
destroyed the raccoons. 

He felt he was being watched--and not just through the eyes of other 
raccoons. 

The bare peaks of the highest mountains loomed like a tidal wave of 
granite. 

The orange sun slowly submerged into that sea of stone. 
A steadily inkier darkness rose under the evergreen boughs, but Eduardo 
didn't think that even the blackest condition in nature could match the 
darkness in the heart of the watcher in the woods--if, in fact, it had 
a heart at all. 

Although he was convinced that disease had not played a role in the 
behavior and death of the raccoons, Eduardo could not be certain of his 
diagnosis, so he took precautions when handling the bodies. He tied a 
bandanna over his nose and mouth, and wore a pair of rubber gloves. He 
didn't handle the carcasses directly but lifted each with a 
short-handled shovel and slipped it into its own large plastic trash 
bag. He twisted the top of each bag, tied a knot in it, and put it in 
the cargo area of the Cherokee station wagon in the garage. After 
hosing off the small smears of blood on the front porch, he used 
several cotton cloths to scrub the kitchen floor with pure Lysol. 

Finally he threw the cleaning rags into a bucket, stripped off the 
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gloves and dropped them on top of the rags, and set the bucket on the 
back porch to be dealt with later. 

He also put a loaded twelve-gauge shotgun and the .22 pistol in the 
Cherokee. 

He took the video camera with him, because he didn't know when he might 
need it. Besides, the tape currently in the camera contained the 
footage of the raccoons, and he didn't want that to disappear as had 
the tape he'd taken of the luminous woods and the black doorway. For 
the same reason, he took the yellow tablet that was half filled with 
his handwritten account of these recent events. 

By the time he was ready to drive into Eagle's Roost, the long twilight 
had surrendered to night. He didn't relish returning to a dark house, 
though he had never been skittish about that before. He turned on 
lights in the kitchen and the downstairs hall. After further thought, 
he switched on lamps in the living room and study. 

He locked up, backed the Cherokee out of the garage--and thought too 
much of the house remained dark. He went back inside to turn on a 
couple of upstairs lights. By the time he returned to the Cherokee and 
headed down the half-mile driveway toward the county road to the south, 
every window on both floors of the house glowed. 

The Montana vastness appeared to be emptier than ever before. Mile 
after mile, up into the black hills on one hand and across the timeless 
plains on the other, the few tiny clusters of lights that he saw were 
always in the distance. They seemed adrift on a sea, as if they were 
the lights of ships moving inexorably away toward one horizon or 
another. 

Though the moon had not yet risen, he didn't think its glimmer would 
have made the night seem any less enormous or more welcoming. The 
sense of isolation that troubled him had more to do with his interior 
landscape than with the Montana countryside. 

He was a widower, childless, and most likely in the last decade of his 
life, separated from so many of his fellow men and women by age, fate, 
and inclination. He had never needed anyone but Margaret and Tommy. 

After losing them, he had been resigned to living out his years in an 
almost monkish existence--and had been confident that he could do so 
without succumbing to boredom or despair. Until recently he'd gotten 
along well enough. Now, however, he wished that he had reached out to 
make friends, at least one, and had not so single-mindedly obeyed his 
hermit heart. 

Mile by lonely mile, he waited for the distinctive rustle of plastic in 
the cargo space behind the back seat. 

He was certain the raccoons were dead. He didn't understand why he 
should expect them to revive and tear their way out of the bags, but he 
did. 

Worse, he knew that if he heard them ripping at the plastic, sharp 
little claws busily slicing, they would not be the raccoons he had 
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shoveled into the bags, not exactly, maybe not much like them at all, 
but changed. 

"Foolish old coot," he said, trying to shame himself out of such morbid 
and peculiar contemplations. 

Eight miles after leaving his driveway, he finally encountered other 
traffic on the county route. Thereafter, the closer he drew to Eagle's 
Roost, the busier the two-lane blacktop became, though no one would 
ever have mistaken it for the approach road to New York City--or even 
Missoula. 

He had to drive through town to the far side, where Dr. Lester Yeats 
maintained his professional offices and his home on the same five-acre 
property where Eagle's Roost again met rural fields. Yeats was a 
veterinarian who, for years, had cared for Stanley Quartermass' 
horses--a white-haired, white-bearded, jolly man who would have made a 
good Santa Claus if he'd been heavy instead of whip-thin. 

The house was a rambling gray clapboard structure with blue shutters 
and a slate roof. Because there were also lights on in the one-story 
barn-like building that housed Yeats's offices and in the adjacent 
stables where four-legged patients were kept, he drove a few hundred 
feet past the house to the end of the graveled lane. 

As Eduardo was getting out of the Cherokee, the front door of the 
office barn opened, and a man came out in a wash of fluorescent light, 
leaving the door ajar behind him. He was tall, in his early thirties, 
rugged-looking, with thick brown hair. He had a broad and easy 
smile. 

"Howdy. What can I do for you?" 
"Looking' for Lester Yeats," Eduardo said. 
"Dr. Yeats?" The smile faded. "You an old friend or something?" 
"Business," Eduardo said. "Got some animals I'd like him to take a 
look at." 

Clearly puzzled, the stranger said, "Well, sir, I'm afraid Les Yeats 
isn't doing business any more." 

"Oh? He retire?" 
"Died," the young man said. 
"He did? Yeats?" 
"More than six years ago." 
That startled Eduardo. "Sorry to hear it." He hadn't quite realized 
so much time had passed since he'd last seen Yeats. 

A warm breeze sprang up, stirring the larches that were grouped at 
various points around the buildings. 
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The stranger said, "My name's Travis Potter. I bought the house and 
practice from Mrs. Yeats. She moved to a smaller place in town." 

They shook hands, and instead of identifying himself, Eduardo said, 
"Dr. Yeats took care of our horses out at the ranch." 

"What ranch would that be?" 
"Quartermass Ranch." 
"Ah," Travis Potter said, "then you must be the . . . Mr. Fernandez, 
is it?" 

"Oh, sorry, yeah, Ed Fernandez," he replied, and had the uneasy feeling 
that the vet had been about to say "the one they talk about" or 
something of the sort, as if he was a local eccentric. 

He supposed that might, in fact, be the case. Inheriting his spread 
from his rich employer, living alone, a recluse with seldom a word for 
anyone even when he ventured into town on errands, he might have become 
a minor enigma about whom townspeople were curious. The thought of it 
made him cringe. 

"How many years since you've had horses?" Potter asked. 
"Eight. Since Mr. Quartermass died." 
He realized how odd it was--not having spoken with Yeats in eight 
years, then showing up six years after he died, as if only a week had 
gone by. 

They stood in silence a moment. The June night around them was filled 
with cricket songs. 

"Well," Potter said, "where are these animals?" 
"Animals?" 
"You said you had some animals for Dr. Yeats to look at." 
"Oh. Yeah." 
"He was a good vet, but I assure you I'm his equal." 
"I'm sure you are, Dr. Potter. But these are dead animals." 
"Dead animals?" 
"Raccoons." 
"Dead raccoons?" 
"Three of them." 
"Three dead raccoons?" 
Eduardo realized that if he did have a reputation as a local eccentric, 
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he was only adding to it now. He was so out of practice at 
conversation that he couldn't get to the point. 

He took a deep breath and said what was necessary without going into 
the story of the doorway and other oddities: "They were acting funny, 
out in broad daylight, running in circles. Then one by one they 
dropped over." He succinctly described their death throes, the blood 
in their nostrils and ears. 

"What I wondered was'ould they be rabid?" 
"You're up against those foothills," Potter said. "There's always a 
little rabies working its way through the wild populations. That's 
natural. But we haven't seen evidence of it around here for a while. 

Blood in the ears? Not a rabies symptom. Were they foaming at the 
mouth?" 

"Not that I saw." 
"Running in a straight line?" 
"Circles." 
A pickup truck drove by on the highway, country music so loud on its 
radio that the tune carried all the way to the back of Potter's 
property. Loud or not, it was a mournful song. 

"Where are they?" Potter asked. 
"Got them bagged in plastic in the Cherokee here." 
"You get bitten?" 
"No," Eduardo said. 
"Scratched?" 
"No." 
"Any contact with them whatsoever?" 
Eduardo explained about the precautions he'd taken: the shovel, 
bandanna, rubber gloves. 

Cocking his head, looking puzzled, Travis Potter said, "You telling me 
everything?" 

"Well, I think so," he lied. "I mean, their behavior was pretty 
strange, but I've told you everything important, no other symptoms I 
noticed." 

Potter's gaze was forthright and penetrating, and for a moment Eduardo 
considered opening up and revealing the whole bizarre story. 

Instead, he said, "If it isn't rabies, does it sound like maybe it 
could be plague?" 
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Potter frowned. "Doubtful. Bleeding from the ears? That's an 
uncommon symptom. 

You get any flea bites being around them?" 
"I'm not itchy." 
The warm breeze pumped itself into a gust of wind, rattling the larches 
and startling a night bird out of the branches. It flew low over their 
heads with a shriek that startled them. 

Potter said, "Well, why don't you leave these raccoons with me, and I'll 
have a look." 

They removed the three green plastic bags from the Cherokee and carried 
them inside. The waiting room was deserted, Potter had evidently been 
doing paperwork in his office. They went through a door and down a 
short hallway to the white-tiled surgery, where they put the bags on 
the floor beside a stainless-steel examination table. 

The room felt cool and looked cold. Harsh white light fell on the 
enamel, steel, and glass surfaces. Everything gleamed like snow and 
ice. 

"What'll you do with them?" Eduardo asked. 
"I don't have the means to test for rabies here. I'll take tissue 
samples, send them up to the state lab, and we'll have the results in a 
few days." 

"That's all?" 
"What do you mean?" 
Poking one of the bags with the toe of his boot, Eduardo said, "You 
going to dissect one of them?" 

"I'll store them in one of my cold lockers and wait for the state lab's 
report. If they're negative for rabies, then, yeah, I'll perform an 
autopsy on one of them." 

"Let me know what you find?" 
Potter gave him that penetrating stare again. "You sure you weren't 
bitten or scratched? Because if you were, and if there's any reason at 
all to suspect rabies, you should get to a doctor now and start the 
vaccine right away, tonight--" 

"I'm no fool," Eduardo said. "I'd tell 
you if there was any chance I'd been infected." 

Potter continued to stare at him. 
Looking around the surgery, Eduardo said, "You really modernized the 
place from the way it was." 
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"Come on," the veterinarian said, turning to the door. "I have 
something I want to give you." 

Eduardo followed him into the hall and through another door into 
Potter's private office. The vet rummaged in the drawers of a white, 
enameled-metal storage cabinet and handed him a pair of pamphlets--one 
on rabies, one on bubonic plague. 

"Read up on the symptoms for both," Potter said. "You notice anything 
similar in yourself, even similar, get to your doctor." 

"Don't like doctors much." 
"That's not the point. You have a doctor?" 
"Never need one." 
"Then you call me, and I'll get a doctor to you, one way or the 
other. 

Understand?" 
"All right." 
"You'll do it?" 
"Sure will." 
Potter said, "You have a telephone out there?" 
"Of course. Who doesn't have a phone these days?" 
The question seemed to confirm that he had an image as a hermit and an 
eccentric. Which maybe he deserved. Because now that he thought about 
it, he hadn't used the phone to receive or place a call in at least 
five or six months. He doubted if it'd rung more than three times in 
the past year, and one of those was a wrong number. 

Potter went to his desk, picked up a pen, pulled a notepad in front of 
him, and wrote the number down as Eduardo recited it. He tore off 
another sheet of notepaper and gave it to Eduardo because it was 
imprinted with his office address and his own phone numbers. 

Eduardo folded the paper into his wallet. "What do I owe you?" 
"Nothing," Potter said. "These weren't your pet raccoons, so why 
should you pay? Rabies is a community problem." 

Potter accompanied him out to the Cherokee. 
The larches rustled in the warm breeze, crickets chirruped, and a frog 
croaked like a dead man trying to talk. 

As he opened the driver's door, Eduardo turned to the vet and said, 
"When you do that autopsy ..." 

"Yes?" 
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"Will you look just for signs of known diseases?" 
"Disease pathologies, trauma." 
"That's all?" 
"What else would I look for?" 
Eduardo hesitated, shrugged, and said, "Anything . . . strange." 
That stare again. "Well, sir," Potter said, "I will now." 
All the way home through that dark and forlorn land, Eduardo wondered 
if he had done the right thing. As far as he could see, there were 
only two alternatives to the course of action he'd taken, and both were 
problematic. 

He could have disposed of the raccoons on the ranch and waited to see 
what would happen next. But he might have been destroying important 
evidence that something not of this earth was hiding in the Montana 
woods. 

Or he could have explained to Travis Potter about the luminous trees, 
throbbing sounds, waves of pressure, and black doorway. He could have 
told him about the raccoons keeping him under surveillance--and the 
sense he'd had that they were serving as surrogate eyes for the unknown 
watcher in the woods. If he was generally regarded as the old hermit 
of Quartermass Ranch, however, he wouldn't be taken seriously. 

Worse, once the veterinarian had spread the story, some busybody public 
official might get it in his head that poor old Ed Fernandez was senile 
or even flat-out deranged, a danger to himself and others. With all 
the compassion in the world, sorrowful-eyed and softvoiced, shaking 
their heads sadly and telling themselves they were doing it for his own 
good, they might commit him against his will for medical examinations 
and a psychiatric review. 

He was loath to be carted away to a hospital, poked and prodded and 
spoken to as if he had reverted to infancy. He wouldn't react well. 

He knew himself. He would respond to them with stubbornness and 
contempt, irritating the do-gooders to such an extent that they might 
induce a court to take charge of his affairs and order him transferred 
to a nursing home or some other facility for the rest of his days. 

He had lived a long time and had seen how many lives were ntined by 
people operating with the best intentions and a smug assurance of their 
own superiority and wisdom. The destruction of one more old man 
wouldn't be noticed, and he had no wife or children, no friend or 
relative, to stand with him against the killing kindness of the 
state. 

Giving the dead animals to Potter to be tested and autopsied was, 
therefore, as far as Eduardo had dared to go. He only worried that, 
considering the inhuman nature of the entity that controlled the coons, 
he might have put Travis Potter at risk in some way he couldn't 
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foresee. 
Eduardo had hinted at a strangeness, however, and Potter had seemed to 
have his share of common sense. The vet knew the risks associated with 
disease. He would take every precaution against contamination, which 
would probably also be effective against whatever unguessable and 
unearthly peril the carcasses might pose in addition to microbiotic 
infection. 

Beyond the Cherokee, the home lights of unmet families shone far out on 
the sea of night. For the first time in his life, Eduardo wished that 
he knew them, their names and faces, their histories and hopes. 

He wondered if some child might be sitting on a distant porch or at a 
window, staring across the rising plains at the headlights of the 
Cherokee progressing westward through the June darkness. A young boy 
or girl, full of plans and dreams, might wonder who was in the vehicle 
behind those lights, where he was bound, and what his life was like. 

The thought of such a child out there in the night gave Eduardo the 
strangest sense of community, an utterly unexpected feeling that he was 
part of a family whether he wanted to be or not, the family of 
humanity, more often than not a frustrating and contentious clan, 
flawed and often deeply confused, but also periodically noble and 
admirable, with a common destiny that every member shared. 

For him, that was an unusually optimistic and philosophically generous 
view of his fellow men and women, uncomfortably close to 
sentimentality. But he was warmed as well as astonished by it. 

He was convinced that whatever had come through the doorway was 
inimical to humankind, and his brush with it had reminded him that all 
of nature was, in fact, hostile. It was a cold and uncaring universe, 
either because God had made it that way as a test to determine good 
souls from bad, or simply because that's the way it was. No man could 
survive in civilized comfort without the struggles and hard-won 
successes of all the people who had gone before him and who shared his 
time on earth with him. If a new evil had entered the world, one to 
dwarf the evil of which some men and women were capable, humanity would 
need a sense of community more desperately than ever before in its long 
and troubled journey. 

The house came into view when he was a third of the way along the 
half-mile driveway, and he continued uphill, approaching to within 
sixty or eighty yards of it before realizing that something was 
wrong. 

He braked to a full stop. 
Prior to leaving for Eagle's Roost, he had turned on lights in every 
room. He clearly remembered all of the glowing windows as he had 
driven away. He had been embarrassed by his childlike reluctance to 
return to a dark house. 

Well, it was dark now. As black as the inside of the devil's bowels. 
Before he quite realized what he was doing, Eduardo pressed the master 
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lock switch, simultaneously securing all the doors on the station 
wagon. 

He sat for a while, just staring at the house. The front door was 
closed, and all the windows he could see were unbroken. Nothing 
appeared out of order. 

Except that every light in every room had been turned off. By whom? 
By what? 
He supposed a power failure could have been responsible--but he didn't 
believe it. Sometimes, a Montana thunderstorm could be a real 
sternwinder, in the winter, blizzard winds and accumulated ice could 
play havoc with electrical service. But there had been no bad weather 
tonight and only the mildest breeze. He hadn't noticed any downed 
power lines on the way home. 

The house waited. 
Couldn't sit in the car all night. Couldn't live in it, for God's 
sake. 

He drove slowly along the last stretch of driveway and stopped in front 
of the garage. He picked up the remote control and pressed the single 
button. 

The automatic garage door rolled up. Inside the three-vehicle space, 
the overhead convenience lamp, which was on a three-minute timer, shed 
enough light to reveal that nothing was amiss in the garage. 

So much for the power-failure theory. 
Instead of pulling forward ten feet and into the garage, he stayed 
where he was. He put the Cherokee in Park but didn't switch off the 
engine. He left the headlights on too. 

He picked up the shotgun from where it was angled muzzle-down in the 
knee space in front of the passenger seat, and he got out of the 
station wagon. He left the driver's door wide open. 

Door open, lights on, engine running. 
He didn't like to think that he would cut and run at the first sign of 
trouble. But if it was run or die, he was sure as hell going to be 
faster than anything that might be chasing him. 

Although the pump-action twelve-gauge shotgun contained only five 
rounds--one already in the breech and four in the magazine tube--he was 
unconcerned that he hadn't brought any spare shells. If he was unlucky 
enough to encounter something that couldn't be brought down with five 
shots at close range, he wouldn't live long enough to reload, anyway. 

He went to the front of the house, climbed the porch steps, and tried 
the front door. It was locked. 

His house key was on a bead chain, separate from the car keys. He 
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fished it out of his jeans and unlocked the door. 
Standing outside, holding the shotgun in his right hand, he reached 
cross-body with his left, inside the half-open door, fumbling for the 
light switch. He expected something to rush at him from out of the 
night. downstairs hallway--or to put its hand over his as he patted the 
wall in search of the switch plate. 

He flipped the switch, and light filled the hall, spilled over him onto 
the front porch. He crossed the threshold and took a couple of steps 
inside, leaving the door open behind him. 

The house was quiet. 
Dark rooms on both sides of the hallway. Study to his left. Living 
room to his right. 

He hated to turn his back on either room, but finally he moved to the 
right, through the archway, the shotgun held in front of him. When he 
turned on the overhead light, the expansive living room proved to be 
deserted. No intruder. 

Nothing out of the ordinary. 
Then he noticed a dark clump lying on the white fringe at the edge of 
the Chinese carpet. At first glance he thought it was feces, that an 
animal had gotten in the house and done its business right there. But 
when he stood over it and looked closer, he saw it was only a caked wad 
of damp earth. 

A couple of blades of grass bristled from it. 
Back in the hallway, he noticed, for the first time, smaller crumbs of 
dirt littering the polished oak floor. 

He ventured cautiously into the study, where there was no ceiling 
fixture. The influx of light from the hallway dispelled enough shadows 
to allow him to find and click on the desk lamp. 

Crumbs and smears of dirt, now dry, soiled the blotter on the desk. 
More of it on the red leather seat of the chair. 
"What the hell?" he wondered softly. 
Warily he rolled aside the mirrored doors on the study closet, but no 
one was hiding in there. 

In the hall he checked the foyer closet too. Nobody. 
The front door was still standing open. He couldn't decide what to do 
about it. He liked it open because it offered an unobstructed exit if 
he wanted to get out fast. On the other hand, if he searched the house 
top to bottom and found no one in it, he would have to come back, lock 
the door, and search every room again to guard against the possibility 
that someone had slipped in behind his back. Reluctantly he closed it 
and engaged the dead bolt. 
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The beige wall-to-wall carpet that was used through the upstairs also 
extended down the inlaid-oak staircase, with its heavy handrail. In 
the center of a few of the lower treads were crumbled chunks of dry 
earth, not much, just enough to catch his eye. 

He peered up at the second floor. 
No. First, the downstairs. 
He found nothing in the powder room, in the closet under the stairs, in 
the large dining room, in the laundry room, in the service bath. But 
there was dirt again in the kitchen, more than elsewhere. 

His unfinished dinner of rigatoni, sausage, and butter bread was on the 
table, for he'd been interrupted in mid-meal by the intrusion of the 
raccoon--and by its spasmodic death. Smudges of now dry mud marked the 
rim of his dinner plate. The table around the plate was littered with 
pea-size lumps of dry earth, a spadeshaped brown leaf curled into a 
miniature scroll, and a dead beetle the size of a penny. 

The beetle was on its back, six stiff legs in the air. When he flicked 
it over with one finger, he saw that its shell was iridescent 
blue-green. 

Two flattened wads of dirt, like dollar pancakes, were stuck to the 
seat of the chair. On the oak floor around the chair was more 
detritus. 

Another concentration of soil lay in front of the refrigerator. 
Altogether, it amounted to a couple of tablespoons' worth, but there 
were also a few blades of grass, another dead leaf, and an earthworm. 

The worm was still alive but curled up on itself, suffering from a lack 
of moisture. 

A crawling sensation along the nape of his neck and a sudden conviction 
that he was being watched made him clutch the shotgun with both hands 
and spin toward one window, then the other. No pale, ghastly face was 
pressed to either pane of glass, as he had imagined. 

Only the night. 
The chrome handle on the refrigerator was dulled by filth, and he did 
not touch it. He opened the door by gripping the edge. The food and 
beverages inside seemed untouched, everything just as he'd left it. 

The doors of both double ovens were hanging open. He closed them 
without touching the handles, which were also smeared in places with 
unidentifiable crud. 

Caught on a sharp edge of the oven door was a torn scrap of fabric, 
half an inch wide and less than an inch long. It was pale blue, with a 
fragmentary curve of darker blue that might have been a portion of a 
repeating pattern against the lighter background. 
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Eduardo stared at the fragment of cloth for a personal eternity. Time 
seemed to-stop, and the universe hung as still as the pendulum of a 
broken grandfather clock--until icy spicules of profound fear formed 
in his blood and made him shudder so violently that his teeth actually 
chattered. The graveyard ... He whipped around again, toward one 
window, the other, but nothing was there. 

Only the night. The night. The blind, featureless, uncaring face of 
the night. 

He searched the upstairs. Telltale chunks, crumbs, and smears of 
earth--once moist, now dry--could be found in most rooms. Another 
leaf. Two more dead beetles as dry as ancient papyrus. A pebble the 
size of a cherry pit, smooth and gray. 

He realized that some of the switch plates and light switches were 
soiled. 

Thereafter, he flicked the lights on with his sleeve-covered arm or the 
shotgun barrel. 

When he had examined every chamber, probed to the back of every closet, 
inspected behind and under every piece of furniture where a hollow 
space might conceivably offer concealment even to something as large as 
a seven-or eight-year-old child, and when he was satisfied that 
nothing was hiding on the second floor, he returned to the end of the 
upstairs hall and pulled on the dangling release cord that lowered the 
attic trapdoor. 

He pulled down the folding ladder fixed to the back of the trap. 
The attic lights could be turned on from the hall, so he didn't have to 
ascend into darkness. He searched every shadowed niche in the deep and 
dusty eaves, where snowflake moths hung in webs like laces of ice and 
feeding spiders loomed as cold and black as winter shadows. 

Downstairs in the kitchen again, he slid aside the brass bolt on the 
cellar door. It worked only from the kitchen. Nothing could have gone 
down there and relocked from the far side. 

On the other hand, the front and back doors of the house had been 
bolted when he'd driven into town. No one could have gotten inside--or 
locked up again upon leaving--without a key, and he had the only keys 
in existence. Yet the damned bolts were engaged when he'd come home, 
his search had revealed no broken or unlatched window, yet an intruder 
definitely had come and gone. 

He went into the cellar and searched the two large, windowless rooms. 
They were cool, slightly musty, and deserted. 
For the moment, the house was secure. 
He was the only resident. 
He went outside, locking the front entrance after him, and drove the 
Cherokee into the garage. He put down the door with the remote control 
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before getting out of the wagon. 
For the next several hours, he scrubbed and vacuumed the mess in the 
house with an urgency and unflagging energy that approached a state of 
frenzy. He used liquid soap, strong ammonia water, and Lysol spray, 
determined that every soiled surface should be not merely clean but 
disinfected, as close to sterile as possible outside of a hospital 
surgery or laboratory. He broke into a sustained sweat that soaked his 
shirt and pasted his hair to his scalp. The muscles in his neck, 
shoulders, and arms began to ache from the repetitive scouring 
motions. 

The mild arthritis in his hands flared up, his knuckles swelled and 
reddened from gripping the scrub brushes and rags with almost manic 
ferocity, but his response was to grip them tighter still, until the 
pain dizzied him and brought tears to his eyes. 

Eduardo knew he was striving not merely to sanitize the house but to 
cleanse himself of certain terrible ideas that he could not tolerate, 
would not explore, absolutely would not. He made himself into a 
cleaning machine, an insensate robot, focusing so intently and narrowly 
on the menial task at hand that he was purged of all unwanted thoughts, 
breathing deeply of the ammonia fumes as if they could disinfect his 
mind, seeking to exhaust himself so thoroughly that he would be able to 
sleep and, perhaps, even forget. 

As he cleaned, he disposed of all used paper towels, rags, brushes, and 
sponges in a large plastic bag. When he was finished, he knotted the 
top of the bag and deposited it outside in a trash can. 

Ordinarily, he would have rinsed and saved sponges and brushes for 
reuse, but not this time. 

Instead of removing the disposable paper bag from the vacuum sweeper, 
he put the entire machine out with the trash. He didn't want to think 
about the origin of the microscopic particles now trapped in its 
brushes and stuck to the inside of its plastic suction hose, most of 
them so tiny that he could never be sure they were expunged unless he 
disassembled the sweeper to scrub every inch and reachable crevice with 
bleach, and maybe not even then. 

From the refrigerator, he removed all the foods and beverages that 
might have been touched by . . . the intruder. Anything in plastic 
wrap or aluminum foil had to go, even if it didn't appear to have been 
tampered with: Swiss cheese, cheddar, leftover ham, half a Bermuda 
onion. Resealable containers had to be tossed: a one-pound tub of soft 
butter with a snap-on plastic lid, jars of dill and sweet pickles, 
olives, maraschino cherries, mayonnaise, mustard, and more, bottles 
with screw-top caps--salad dressing, soy sauce, ketchup. An open box 
of raisins, an open carton of milk. The thought of anything touching 
his lips that had first been touched by the intruder made him gag and 
shudder. By the time he finished with the refrigerator, it held little 
more than unopened cans of soft drinks and bottles of beer. 

But after all, he was dealing with contamination. Couldn't be too 
careful. No measure was too extreme. 
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Not merely bacterial contamination, either. If only it was that 
simple. God, if only. Spiritual contamination. A darkness capable of 
spreading through the heart, seeping deep into the soul. 

Don't even think about it. Don't. Don't. 
Too tired to think. Too old to think. Too scared. 
From the garage he fetched a blue Styrofoam cooler, into which he 
emptied the entire contents of the bin under the automatic ice-maker in 
the freezer. He wedged eight bottles of beer into the ice and stuck a 
bottle opener in his hip pocket. 

Leaving all the lights on, he carried the cooler and the shotgun 
upstairs to the back bedroom, where he had been sleeping for the past 
three years. He put the beer and the gun beside the bed. 

The bedroom door had only a flimsy privacy latch in the knob, which he 
engaged by pushing a brass button. All that was needed to break 
through from the hallway was one good kick, so he tilted a 
straight-backed chair under the knob and jammed it tightly in place. 

Don't think about what might come through the door. 
Shut the mind down. Focus on the arthritis, muscle pain, sore neck, 
let it blot out thought. 

He took a shower, washing himself as assiduously as he had scoured the 
soiled portions of the house. He finished only when he had used the 
entire supply of hot water. 

He dressed but not for bed. Socks, chinos, a T-shirt. He stood his 
boots beside the bed, next to the shotgun. 

Although the nightstand clock and his watch agreed that it was 
two-fifty in the morning, Eduardo was not sleepy. He sat on the bed, 
propped against a pile of pillows and the headboard. 

Using the remote control, he switched on the television and checked out 
the seemingly endless array of channels provided by the satellite dish 
behind the stables. He found an action movie, cops and drug dealers, 
lots of running and jumping and shooting, fistfights and car chases and 
explosions. He turned the volume all the way off because he wanted to 
be able to hear whatever sounds might arise elsewhere in the house. 

He drank the first beer fast, staring at the television. He was not 
trying to follow the plot of the movie, just letting his mind fill with 
the abstract whirl of motion and the bright ripple-flare of changing 
colors. Scrubbing at the dark stains of those terrible thoughts. 

Those stubborn stains. 
Something ticked against the west-facing window. 
He looked at the draperies, which he had drawn tightly shut. 
Another tick. Like a pebble thrown against the glass. 
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His heart began to pound. 
He forced himself to look at the TV again. Motion. Color. He 
finished the beer. Opened a second. 

Tick. And again, almost at once. Tick. 
Perhaps it was just a moth or a scarab beetle trying to reach the light 
that the closed drapes couldn't entirely contain. 

He could get up, go to the window, discover it was just a flying beetle 
that was banging against the glass, relieve his mind. 

Don't even think about it. 
He took a long swallow of the second beer. 
Tick. 
Something standing on the dark lawn below, looking up at the window. 
Something that knew exactly where he was, wanted to make contact. 
But not a raccoon this time. 
Don't, don't, don't. 
No cute furry face with a little black mask this time. No beautiful 
coat and black-ringed tail. 

Motion, color, beer. Scrub out the diseased thought, purge the 
contamination. 

Tick. 
Because if he didn't rid himself of the monstrous thought that soiled 
his mind, he would sooner or later lose his grip on sanity. Sooner. 

Tick. 
If he went to the window and parted the draperies and looked down at 
the thing on the lawn, even insanity would be no refuge. Once he had 
seen, once he knew, then there would be only a single way out. Shotgun 
barrel in his mouth, one toe hooked in the trigger. 

Tick. 
. He turned up the volume control on the television. Loud. Louder. 
He finished the second beer. Turned the volume up even louder, until 
the raucous soundtrack of the violent movie seemed to shake the room. 

Popped the cap off a third beer. 
Purging his thoughts. Maybe in the morning he would have forgotten the 
sick, demented considerations that plagued him so persistently tonight, 
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forgotten them or washed them away in tides of alcohol. Or perhaps he 
would die in his sleep. He almost didn't care which. He poured down a 
long swallow of the third beer, seeking one form of oblivion or 
another. 

CHAPTER ELEVEN. 
Through March, April, and May, as Jack lay cupped in felt-lined plaster 
with his legs often in traction, he suffered pain, cramps, spastic 
muscle twitches, uncontrollable nerve tics, and itchy skin where it 
could not be scratched inside a cast. He endured those discomforts and 
others with few complaints, and he thanked God that he would live to 
hold his wife again and see his son grow up. 

His health worries were even more numerous than his discomforts. The 
risk of bedsores was ever-present, though the body cast had been formed 
with great care and though most of the nurses were concerned, 
solicitous, and skilled. 

Once a pressure sore became ulcerated, it would not heal easily, and 
gangrene could set in quickly. Because he was periodically 
catheterized, his chances of contracting an infection of the urethra 
were increased, which could lead to a more serious case of cystitis. 

Any patient immobilized for long periods was in jeopardy of developing 
blood clots that could break loose and spin through the body, lodge in 
the heart or brain, killing him or causing substantial brain damage, 
though Jack was medicated to reduce the danger of that complication, it 
was the one that most deeply concerned him. 

He worried, as well, about Heather and Toby. They were alone, which 
troubled him in spite of the fact that Heather, under Alma Bryson's 
guidance, seemed to be prepared to handle everything from a lone 
burglar to a foreign invasion. 

Actually, the thought of all those weapons in the house--and what the 
need for them said about Heather's state of mind--disturbed him nearly 
as much as the thought of someone breaking into the place. 

Money worried him more than cerebral embolisms. He was on disability 
and had no idea when he might be able to work again full time. Heather 
was still unemployed, the economy showed no signs of emerging from the 
recession, and their savings were virtually exhausted. Friends in the 
Department had opened a trust account for his family at a branch of 
Wells Fargo Bank, and contributions from policemen and the public at 
large now totaled more than twenty-five thousand dollars. But medical 
and rehabilitation expenses were never entirely covered by insurance, 
and he suspected that even the trust fund would not return them to the 
modest level of financial security they had enjoyed before the shootout 
at Arkadian's service station. By September or October, making the 
mortgage payment might be impossible. 

However, he was able to keep all those worries to himself, partly 
because he knew that other people had worries of their own and that 
some of them might be more serious than his, but also because he was an 
optimist, a believer in the healing power of laughter and positive 
thinking. Though some of his friends thought his response to adversity 
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was cockeyed, he couldn't help it. As far as he could recall, he had 
been born that way. Where a pessimist looked at a glass of wine and 
saw it as half empty, Jack not only saw it as half full but also 
figured there was the better part of a bottle still to be drunk. He 
was in a body cast and temporarily disabled, but he felt he was blessed 
to have escaped permanent disability and death. He was in pain, sure, 
but there were people in the same hospital in more pain than he was. 

Until the glass was empty and the bottle as well, he would always 
anticipate the next sip of wine rather than regret that so little was 
left. 

On his first visit to the hospital back in March, Toby had been 
frightened to see his father so immobilized, and his eyes had filled 
with tears even as he bit his lip and kept his chin up and struggled to 
be brave. Jack had done his best to minimize the seriousness of his 
condition, insisted he looked in worse shape than he was, and strove 
with growing desperation to lift his son's spirits. Finally he got the 
boy to laugh by claiming he wasn't really hurt at all, was in the 
hospital as a participant in a secret new police program, and would 
emerge in a few months as a member of their new Teenage Mutant Ninja 
Turtle Task Force. 

"Yeah," he said, "it's true. See, that's what all this plaster is, a 
shell, a turtle shell that's being applied to my back. When it's dry 
and coated with Kevlar, bullets will just bounce off." 

Smiling in spite of himself, wiping at his eyes with one hand, Toby 
said, "Get real, Dad." 

"It's true." 
"You don't know taste kwon do." 
"I'll be taking lessons, soon as the shell's dry." 
"A Ninja has to know how to use swords too, swords and all kinda 
stuff." 

"More lessons, that's all." 
"Big problem." 
"What's that?" 
"You're not a real turtle." 
"Well, of course I'm not a real turtle. Don't be silly. The 
department isn't allowed to hire anything but human beings. People 
don't much like it when they're given traffic tickets by members of 
another species. So we have to make do with an imitation Teenage 
Mutant Ninja Turtle Task Force. So what? Is Spider-Man really a 
spider? Is Batman really a bat?" 

"You got a point there." 
"You're damned right I do." 
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"But." 
"But what?" 
Grinning, the boy said, "You're no teenager." 
"I can pass for one." 
"No way. You're an old guy." 
"Is that so?" 
"A real old guy." 
"You're in big trouble when I get out of this bed, mister." 
"Yeah, but until your shell's dry, I'm safe." 
The next time Toby came to the hospital--Heather visited every day, but 
Toby was limited to once or twice a week--Jack was wearing a colorful 
headband. 

Heather had gotten him a red-and-yellow scarf, which he'd folded and 
tied around his head. The ends of the knot hung rakishly over his 
right ear. 

"Rest of the uniform is still being designed." he told Toby. 
A few weeks later, one day in mid-April, Heather pulled the privacy 
curtain around Jack's bed and gave him a sponge bath and damp-sponge 
shampoo to save the nurses a little work. She said, "I'm not sure I 
like other women bathing you. I'm getting jealous." 

He said, "I swear I can explain where I was last night." 
"There's not a nurse in the hospital hasn't gone out of her way to tell 
me that you're their favorite patient." 

"Well, honey, that's meaningless. Anybody can be their favorite 
patient. It's easy. All you've got to do is avoid puking on them and 
don't make fun of their little hats." 

"That easy, huh?" she said, sponging his left arm. 
"Well, you also have to eat everything on your dinner tray, never 
hassle them to give you massive injections of heroin without a doctor's 
prescription, and never ever fake cardiac arrest just to get 
attention." 

"They say you're so sweet, brave, and funny." 
"Aw, shucks," he said with exaggerated shyness, but he was genuinely 
embarrassed. 

"A couple of them told me how lucky I am, married to you." 
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"You punch them?" 
"Managed to control myself." 
"Good. They'd only take it out on me." 
"I am lucky," she said. 
"And some of these nurses are strong, they probably pack a pretty hard 
punch." 

"I love you, Jack," she said, leaning over the bed and kissing him full 
on the mouth. 

The kiss took his breath away. Her hair fell across his face, it 
smelled of a lemony shampoo. 

"Heather," he said softly, putting one hand against her cheek, 
"Heather, Heather," repeating the name as if it was sacred, which it 
was, not only a name but a prayer that sustained him, the name and face 
that made his nights less dark, that made his pain-filled days pass 
more quickly. 

"I'm so lucky," she repeated. 
"Me too. Finding you." 
"You'll be home with me again." 
"Soon," he said, though he knew he would be weeks in that bed and weeks 
more in a rehabilitation hospital. 

"No more lonely nights," she said. 
"No more." 
"Always together." 
"Always." His throat was tight, and he was afraid he was going to 
cry. 

He was not ashamed to cry, but he didn't think either of them dared 
indulge in tears yet. They needed all their strength and resolve for 
the struggles that still lay ahead. He swallowed hard and whispered, 
"When I get home. . . ?" 

"Yes?" 
"And we can go to bed together again?" 
Face-to-face with him, she whispered too: "Yes?" 
"Will you do something special for me?" 
"Of course, silly." 
"Would you dress up like a nurse? That really turns me on." 
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She blinked in surprise for a moment, burst out laughing, and shoved a 
cold sponge in his face. "Beast." 

"Well, then, how about a nun?" 
"Pervert." 
"A girl scout?" 
"But a sweet, brave, and funny pervert." 
If he hadn't possessed a good sense of humor, he wouldn't have been 
able to be a cop. Laughter, sometimes dark laughter, was the shield 
that made it possible to wade, without being stained, through the filth 
and madness in which most cops had to function these days. 

A sense of humor aided his recovery, too, and made it possible not to 
be consumed by pain and worry, although there was one thing about which 
he had difficulty laughing--his helplessness. He was embarrassed about 
being assisted with his basic bodily functions and subjected to regular 
enemas to counteract the effects of extreme inactivity. Week after 
week, the lack of privacy in those matters became more rather than less 
humiliating. 

It was even worse to be trapped in bed, in the rigid grip of the cast, 
unable to run or walk or even crawl if a sudden catastrophe struck. 

Periodically he became convinced that the hospital was going to be 
swept by fire or damaged in an earthquake. Although he knew the staff 
was well trained in emergency procedures and that he would not be 
abandoned to the ravages of flames or the mortal weight of collapsing 
walls, he was occasionally seized by an irrational panic, often in the 
dead of night, a blind terror that squeezed him tighter and tighter, 
hour after hour, and that succumbed only gradually to reason or 
exhaustion. 

By the middle of May, he had acquired a deep appreciation and limitless 
admiration for quadriplegics who did not let life get the best of 
them. 

At least he had the use of his hands and arms, and he could exercise by 
rhythmically squeezing rubber balls and doing curls with light hand 
weights. 

He could scratch his nose if it itched, feed himself to some extent, 
blow his nose. He was in awe of people who suffered permanent 
below-the-neck paralysis but held fast to their joy in life and faced 
the future with hope, because he knew he didn't possess their courage 
or character, no matter whether he was voted favorite patient of the 
week, month, or century. 

If he'd been deprived of his legs and hands for three months, he would 
have been weighed down by despair. And if he hadn't known that he 
would get out of the bed and be learning to walk again by the time 
spring became summer, the prospect of long-term helplessness would have 
broken his sanity. 
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Beyond the window of his third-floor room, he could see little more 
than the crown of a tall palm tree. Over the weeks, he spent countless 
hours watching its fronds shiver in mild breezes, toss violently in 
storm winds, bright green against sunny skies, dull green against 
somber clouds. Sometimes birds wheeled across that framed section of 
the heavens, and Jack thrilled to each brief glimpse of their flight. 

He swore that, once back on his feet, he would never be helpless 
again. 

He was aware of the hubris of such an oath, his ability to fulfill it 
depended on the whims of fate. Man proposes, God disposes. But on 
this subject he could not laugh at himself. He would never be helpless 
again. Never. It was a challenge to God: Leave me alone or kill me, 
but don't put me in this vise again. 

Jack's division captain, Lyle Crawford, visited him for the third time 
in the hospital on the evening of June third. 

Crawford was a nondescript man, of average height and average weight, 
with close-cropped brown hair, brown eyes, and brown skin, all of 
virtually the same shade. He was wearing Hush Puppies, chocolate-brown 
slacks, tan shirt, and a chocolate-brown jacket, as if his fondest 
desire was to be so nondescript that he would blend into any background 
and perhaps even attain invisibility. He also wore a brown cap, which 
he took off and held in both hands as he stood by the bed. He was 
soft-spoken and quick to smile, but he also had more commendations for 
bravery than any two other cops in the entire department, and he was 
the best natural-born leader of men that Jack had ever encountered. 

"How you doing?" Crawford asked. 
"My serve has improved, but my backhand's still lousy," Jack said. 
"Don't choke the racket." 
"You think that's my problem?" 
"That and not being able to stand up." 
Jack laughed. "How're things in the division, Captain?" 
"The fun never stops. Two guys walk into a jewelry store on Westwood 
Boulevard this morning, right after opening, silencers on their guns, 
shoot the owner and two employees, kill em deader than old King Tut 
before anyone can set off an alarm. No one outside hears a thing. 

Cases full of jewelry, big safe's open in the back room, full of estate 
pieces, millions worth. Looks like a cakewalk from there on. Then the 
two perps start to argue about what to take first and whether they have 
time to take everything. One of them makes a comment about the other 
one's old lady, and the next thing you know, they shoot each other." 

"Jesus." 
"So a little time passes, and a customer walks in on this. Four dead 
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people plus a half-conscious perp sprawled on the floor, wounded so bad 
he can't even crawl out of the place and try to get away. The customer 
stands there, shocked by the blood, which is splattered all to hell 
over. He's just paralyzed by the sight of this mess. The wounded perp 
waits for the customer to do something, and when the guy just stands 
there, gaping, frozen, the perp says, For the love of God, mister, call 
an ambulance!" 

"For the love of God," Jack said. 
" For the love of God." When the paramedics show up, first thing he 
asks them for is a Bible." 

Jack rolled his head back and forth on the pillow in disbelief. "Nice 
to know not all the scum out there are godless scum, isn't it?" 

"Warms my heart," Crawford said. 
Jack was the only patient in the room. His most recent roommate, a 
fifty-year-old estate-planning specialist, in residence for three days, 
had died the previous day of complications from routine gallbladder 
surgery. 

Crawford sat on the edge of the vacant bed. "I got some good news for 
you." 

"I can use it." 
"Internal Affairs submitted its final report on the shootings, and 
you're cleared across the board. Better yet, both the chief and the 
commission are going to accept it as definitive." 

"Why don't I feel like dancing?" 
"We both know the whole demand for a special investigation was 
bullshit. But we also both know ... once they open that door, they 
don't always close it again without slamming it on some poor innocent 
bastard's fingers. So we'll count our blessings." 

"They clear Luther too?" 
"Yes, of course." 
"All right." 
Crawford said, "I put your name in for a commendation--Luther too, 
posthumously. Both are going to be approved." 

"Thank you, Captain." 
"Deserved." 
"I don't give a damn about the dickheads on the commission, and the 
chief can take a hike to hell too, for all I care. But it means 
something to me because it was you put in our names." 

Lowering his gaze to his brown cap, which he turned around and around 
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in his brown hands, Crawford said, "I appreciate that." 
They were both silent awhile. 
Jack was remembering Luther. He figured Crawford was too. 
Finally Crawford looked up from his cap and said, "Now for the bad 
news." 

"Always has to be some." 
"Not actively bad, just irritating. You hear about the Anson Oliver 
movie?" 

"Which one? There were three." 
"So you haven't heard. His parents and his pregnant fiancee made a 
deal with Warner Brothers." 

"Deal?" 
"Sold the rights to Anson Oliver's life story for one million 
dollars?" 

Jack was speechless. 
Crawford said, "The way they tell it, they made the deal for two 
reasons. 

First, they want to provide for Oliver's unborn son, make sure the 
kid's future is secure." 

"What about my kid's future?" Jack asked angrily. 
Crawford cocked his head. "You really pissed?" 
"Yes !" 
"Hell, Jack, since when did our kids ever matter to people like 
them?" 

"Since never." 
"Exactly. You and me and our kids, we're here to applaud them when 
they do something artistic or high minded--and clean up after them when 
they make a mess." 

"It isn't fair," Jack said. He laughed at his own words, as if any 
experienced cop could still expect life to be fair, virtue to be 
rewarded, and villainy to be punished. "Ah, hell." 

"You can't hate them for that. It's just the way they are, the way 
they think. 

They'll never change. Might as well hate lightning, hate ice being 
cold and fire being hot." 
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Jack sighed, still angry but only smoldering. "You said they had two 
reasons for making the deal. What's number two?" 

"To make a movie that will be a monument to the genius of Anson 
Oliver," 
" Crawford said. "That's how the father put it. A monument 
to the genius of Anson Oliver." 

" 
"For the love of God." 
Crawford laughed softly. "Yeah, for the love of God. And the fiancee, 
mother of the heir-to-be, she says this movie's going to put Anson 
Oliver's controversial career and his death in historical 
perspective." 

"What historical perspective? He made movies, he wasn't the leader of 
the Western world--he just made movies." 

Crawford shrugged. "Well, by the time they're done building him up, I 
suspect he'll have been an antidrug crusader, a tireless advocate for 
the homeless--" Jack picked it up: "A devout Christian who once 
considered dedicating his life to missionary work--" until Mother 
Teresa told him to make movies instead--" 

"--and because of his 
effective efforts on behalf of justice, he was killed by a conspiracy 
involving the CIA, the FBI--" 

"--the British royal family, the 
International Brotherhood of Boilermakers and Pipe Fitters--" 

"--the 
late Joseph Stalin--" 

"--Kermit the Frog--" 
"--and a cabal of 
pill-popping rabbis in New Jersey," Jack finished. 

They laughed because the situation was too ridiculous to respond to 
with anything but laughter--and because, if they didn't laugh at it, 
they were admitting the power of these people to hurt them. 

"They better not put me in this damn movie of theirs," Jack said after 
his laughter had devolved into a fit of coughing. "I'll sue their 
asses." 

"They'll change your name, make you an Asian cop named Wong, ten years 
older and six inches shorter, married to a redhead named Bertha, and 
you won't be able to sue for spit." 

"People are still gonna know it was me in real life." 
"Real life? What's that? This is Lala Land." 
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"Jesus, how can they make a hero out of this guy?" 
Crawford said, "They made heroes out of Bonnie and Clyde." 
"Antiheroes." 
"Okay, then, Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid." 
"Still." i 
"They made heroes out of Jimmy Hoffa and Bugsy Siegel. 
Anson Oliver's a snap." 
That night, long after Lyle Crawford had gone, when Jack tried to 
ignore his thousand discomforts and get some sleep, he couldn't stop 
thinking about the movie, the million dollars, the harassment Toby had 
taken at school, the vile graffiti with which their house had been 
covered, the inadequacy of their savings, his disability checks, Luther 
in the grave, Alma alone with her arsenal, and Anson Oliver portrayed 
on-screen by some young actor with chiseled features and melancholy 
eyes, radiating an aura of saintly compassion and noble purpose 
exceeded only by his sex appeal. 

Jack was overwhelmed by a sense of helplessness far worse than anything 
he had felt before. The cause of it was only partly the claustrophobic 
confinement of the body cast and the bed. It arose, as well, from the 
fact that he was tied to this City of Angels by a house that had 
declined in value and was currently hard to sell in a recessionary 
market, from the fact that he was a good cop in an age when the heroes 
were gangsters, and from the fact that he was unable to imagine either 
earning a living or finding meaning in life as anything but a cop. He 
was as trapped as a rat in a giant laboratory maze. Unlike the rat, he 
didn't even have the illusion of freedom. 

On June sixth the body cast came off. The spinal fracture was entirely 
healed. 

He had full feeling in both legs. Undoubtedly he would learn to walk 
again. 

Initially, however, he couldn't stand without the assistance of either 
two nurses or one nurse and a wheeled walker. His thighs had 
withered. 

Though his calf muscles had received some passive exercise, they were 
atrophied to a degree. For the first time in his life, he was sore and 
flabby in the middle, which was the only place he'd gained weight. 

A single trip around the room, assisted by nurses and a walker, broke 
him out in a sweat and made his stomach muscles flutter as if he had 
attempted to benchpress five hundred pounds. Nevertheless, it was a 
day of celebration. Life went on. He felt reborn. 

He paused by the window that framed the crown of the tall palm tree, 
and as if by the grace of an aware and benign universe, a trio of sea 
gulls appeared in the sky, having strayed inland from the Santa Monica 
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shoreline. They hovered on rising thermals for half a minute or so, 
like three white kites. Suddenly the birds wheeled across the blue in 
an aerial ballet of freedom and disappeared to the west. Jack watched 
them until they were gone, his vision blurring, and he turned away from 
the window without once lowering his gaze to the city beyond and below 
him. 

Heather and Toby visited that evening and brought Baskin-Robbins 
peanut-butter-and-chocolate ice cream. In spite of the flab around his 
waist, Jack ate his share. 

That night he dreamed of sea gulls. Three. With gloriously wide 
wingspans. As white and luminous as angels. They flew steadily 
westward, soaring and diving, spiraling and looping spiritedly, but 
always westward, and he ran through fields below, trying to keep pace 
with them. He was a boy again, spreading his arms as if they were 
wings, zooming up hills, down grassy slopes, wildflowers lashing his 
legs, easily imagining himself taking to the air at any moment, free of 
the bonds of gravity, high in the company of the gulls. Then the 
fields ended while he was gazing up at the gulls, and he found himself 
pumping his legs in thin air, over the edge of a bluff, with pointed 
and bladed rocks a few hundred feet below, powerful waves exploding 
among them, white spray cast high into the air, and he was falling, 
falling. He knew, then, that it was only a dream, but he couldn't wake 
up when he tried. Falling and falling, always closer to death but 
never quite there, falling and falling toward the jagged black maw of 
the rocks, toward the cold deep gullet of the hungry sea, falling, 
falling . 

After four days of increasingly arduous therapy at Westside General, 
Jack was transferred to Phoenix Rehabilitation Hospital on the eleventh 
of June. 

Although the spinal fracture had healed, he had sustained some nerve 
damage. 

Nevertheless, his prognosis was excellent. 
His room might have been in a motel. Carpet instead of a vinyl-tile 
floor, green-and-white-striped wallpaper, nicely framed prints of 
bucolic landscapes, garishly patterned but cheerful drapes at the 
window. The two hospital beds, however, belied the Holiday Inn 
image. 

The physical therapy room, where he was taken in a wheelchair for the 
first time at six-thirty in the morning, June twelfth, was well 
equipped with exercise machines. It smelled more like a hospital than 
like a gym, which wasn't bad. And perhaps because he had at least an 
idea of what lay ahead of him, he thought the place looked less like a 
gym than like a torture chamber. 

His physical therapist, Moshe Bloom, was in his late twenties, six feet 
four, with a body so pumped and well carved that he looked as if he was 
in training to go one-on-one with an army tank. He had curly black 
hair, brown eyes flecked with gold, and a dark complexion enhanced by 
the California sun to a lustrous bronze shade. In white sneakers, 
white cotton slacks, white T-shirt, and skullcap, he was like a radiant 
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apparition, floating a fraction of an inch above the floor, come to 
deliver a message from God, which turned out to be, "No pain, no 
gain." 

"Doesn't sound like advice, the way you say it," Jack told him. 
"Oh?" 
"Sounds like a threat." 
"You'll cry like a baby after the first several sessions." 
"If that's what you want, I can cry like a baby right now, and we can 
both go home." 

"You'll fear the pain to start with." 
"I've had some therapy at Westside General." 
"That was just a game of patty-cake. Nothing like the hell I'm going 
to put you through." 

"You're so comforting." 
Bloom shrugged his immense shoulders. "You've got to have no illusions 
about any easy rehabilitation." 

"I'm the original illusionless man." 
"Good. You'll fear the pain at first, dread it, cower from it, beg to 
be sent home half crippled rather than finish the program--" 

"Gee, I 
can hardly wait to start." 

"--but I'll teach you to hate the pain instead of fear it--" 
"Maybe I 
should just go to some UCLA extension classes, learn Spanish 
instead." 

"--and then I'll teach you to love the pain, because it's a sure sign 
that you're making progress." 

"You need a refresher course in how to inspire your patients." 
"You've got to inspire yourself, Mcgarvey. My main job is to challenge 
you." 

"Call me Jack." 
The therapist shook his head. "No. To start, I'll call you Mcgarvey, 
you call me Bloom. This relationship is always adversarial at first. 

You'll need to hate me, to have a focus for your anger. When that time 
comes, it'll be easier to hate me if we aren't using first names." 
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"I hate you already." 
Bloom smiled. "You'll do all right, Mcgarvey." 
CHAPTER TWELVE. 
After the night of June tenth, Eduardo lived in denial. For the first 
time in his life, he was unwilling to face reality, although he knew it 
had never been more important to do so. It would have been healthier 
for him to visit the one place on the ranch where he would find--or 
fail to find--evidence to support his darkest suspicions about the 
nature of the intruder who had come into the house when he had been at 
Travis Potter's office in Eagle's Roost. Instead, it was the one place 
he assiduously avoided. He didn't even look toward that knoll. 

He drank too much and didn't care. For seventy years he had lived by 
the motto 

"Moderation in all things," and that prescription for life 
had led him only to this point of humbling loneliness and horror. He 
wished the been-which he occasionally spiked with good bourbon--would 
have a greater numbing effect on him. He seemed to have an uncanny 
tolerance for alcohol. And even when he had poured down enough to turn 
his legs and his spine to rubber, his mind remained far too clear to 
suit him. 

He escaped into books, reading exclusively in the genre for which he'd 
recently developed an appreciation. Heinlein, Clarke, Bradbury, 
Sturgeon, Benford, Clement, Wyndham, Christopher, Niven, Zelazny. 

Whereas he had first found, to his surprise, that fiction of the 
fantastic could be challenging and meaningful, he now found it could 
also be narcotizing, a better drug than any volume of beer and less 
taxing on the bladder. The effect it her enlightenment and wonder or 
intellectual and emotional anesthesia--was strictly at the discretion 
of the reader. Spaceships, time machines, teleportation cubicles, 
alien worlds, colonized moons, extraterrestrials, mutants, intelligent 
plants, robots, androids, clones, computers alive with artificial 
intelligence, telepathy, starship war fleets engaged in battles in far 
reaches of the galaxy, the collapse of the universe, time running 
backward, the end of all things! He lost himself in a fog of the 
fantastic, in a tomorrow that would never be, to avoid thinking about 
the unthinkable. 

The traveler from the doorway became quiescent, holed up in the woods, 
and days passed without new developments. Eduardo didn't understand 
why it would have come across billions of miles of space or thousands 
of years of time, only to proceed with the conquest of the earth at a 
turtle's pace. 

Of course, the very essence of something truly and deeply alien was 
that its motivations and actions would be mysterious and perhaps even 
incomprehensible to a human being. The conquest of earth might be of 
no interest whatsoever to the thing that had come through the doorway, 
and its concept of time might be so radically different from Eduardo's 
that days were like minutes to it. 
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In science fiction novels, there were essentially three kinds of 
aliens. The good ones generally wanted to help humanity reach its full 
potential as an intelligent species and thereafter coexist in 
fellowship and share adventures for eternity. The bad ones wanted to 
enslave human beings, feed on them, plant eggs in them, hunt them for 
sport, or eradicate them because of a tragic misunderstanding or out of 
sheer viciousness. The third--and least encountered--type of 
extraterrestrial was neither good nor bad but so utterly alien that its 
purpose and destiny were as enigmatic to human beings as was the mind 
of God, this third type usually did the human race a great good service 
or a terrible evil merely by passing through on its way to the galactic 
rim, like a bus running across a column of busy ants on a highway, and 
was never even aware of the encounter, let alone that it had impacted 
the lives of intelligent beings. 

Eduardo hadn't a clue as to the larger intentions of the watcher in the 
woods, but he knew instinctively that, on a personal level, it didn't 
wish him well. 

It wasn't seeking eternal fellowship and shared adventures. It wasn't 
blissfully unaware of him, either, so it was not one of the third 
type. 

It was strange and malevolent, and sooner or later it would kill him. 
In the novels, good aliens outnumbered bad. Science fiction was 
basically a literature of hope. 

As the warm June days passed, hope was in far shorter supply on 
Quartermass Ranch than in the pages of those books. 

On the afternoon of June seventeenth, while Eduardo was sitting in a 
living-room armchair, drinking beer and reading Walter M. Miller, the 
telephone rang. He put down the book but not the beer, and went into 
the kitchen to take the call. 

Travis Potter said, "Mr. Fernandez, you don't have to worry." 
"Don't I?" 
"I got a fax from the state lab, results of the tests on the tissue 
samples from those raccoons, and they aren't infected." 

"They sure are dead," Eduardo said. 
"But not from rabies. Not from plague, either. Nothing that appears 
to be infectious, or communicable by bite or fleas." 

"You do an autopsy?" 
"Yes, sir, I did." 
"So was it boredom that killed them, or what?" 
Potter hesitated. "The only thing I could find was severe brain 
inflammation and swelling." 
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"Thought you said there was no infection?" 
"There isn't. No lesions, no abscesses or pus, just inflammation and 
extreme swelling. Extreme." 

"Maybe the state lab ought to test that brain tissue." 
"Brain tissue was part of what I sent them in the first place." 
"I see." 
"I've never encountered anything like it," Potter told him. 
Eduardo said nothing. 
"Very odd," Potter said. "Have there been more of them?" 
"More dead raccoons? No. Just the three." 
"I'm going to run some toxicological studies, see if maybe we're 
dealing with a poison here." 

"I haven't put out any poisons." 
"Could be an industrial toxin." 
"It could? There's no damned industry around here." 
"Well ... a natural toxin, then." 
Eduardo said, "When you dissected them ..." 
"Yes?" 
"... opened the skull, saw the brain inflamed and swollen . . ." 
"So much pressure, even after death, blood and spinal fluid squirted 
out the instant the bone saw cut through the cranium." 

"Vivid image." 
"Sorry. But that's why their eyes were bulging." 
"Did you just take samples of the brain tissue or . . ." 
"Yes?" 
". .. did you actually dissect the brain?" 
"I performed complete cerebrotomies on two of them." 
"Opened their brains all the way up?" 
"Yes." 
"And you didn't find anything?" 
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"Just what I told you." 
"Nothing ... unusual?" 
The puzzlement in Potter's silence was almost audible. Then: "What 
would you have expected me to find, Mr. Fernandez?" 

Eduardo did not respond. 
"Mr. Fernandez?" 
"What about their spines?" Eduardo asked. "Did you examine their 
spines, the whole length of their spines?" 

"Yes, I did." 
"You find anything ... attached?" 
"Attached?" Potter said. 
"Yes." 
"What do you mean, attached'?" 
"Might have . .. might have looked like a tumor." 
"Looked like a tumor?" 
"Say a tumor ... something like that?" 
"No. Nothing like that. Nothing at all." 
Eduardo took the telephone handset away from his head long enough to 
swallow some beer. 

When he put the phone to his ear again, he heard Travis Potter saying, 
"--know something you haven't told me?" 

"Not that I'm aware of," Eduardo lied. 
The veterinarian was silent this time. Maybe he was sucking on a beer 
of his own. Then: "If you come across any more animals like this, will 
you call me?" 

"Yes." 
"Not just raccoons." 
"All right." 
"Any animals at all." 
"Sure." 
"Don't move them," Potter said. 
"I won't." 
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"I want to see them in situ, just where they fell." 
"Whatever you say." 
"Well . . ." 
"Goodbye, Doctor." 
Eduardo hung up and went to the sink. He stared out the window at the 
forest at the top of the sloped backyard, west of the house. 

He wondered how long he would have to wait. He was sick to death of 
waiting. 

"Come on," he said softly to the hidden watcher in the woods. 
He was ready. Ready for hell or heaven or eternal nothingness, 
whatever came. 

He wasn't afraid of dying. 
What frightened him was the how of dying. What he might have to 
endure. What might be done to him in the final minutes or hours of his 
life. What he might see. 

On the morning of June twenty-first, as he was eating breakfast and 
listening to the world news on the radio, he looked up and saw a 
squirrel at the window in the north wall of the kitchen. It was 
perched on the window stool, gazing through the glass at him. Very 
still. Intense. As the raccoons had been. 

He watched it for a while, then concentrated on his breakfast again. 
Each time he looked up, it was on duty. 
After he washed the dishes, he went to the window, crouched, and came 
face-to-face with the squirrel. Only the pane of glass was between 
them. The animal seemed unfazed by this close inspection. 

He snapped one fingernail against the glass directly in front of its 
face. 

The squirrel didn't flinch. 
He rose, twisted the thumb-turn latch, and started to lift the lower 
half of the double-hung window. 

The squirrel leaped down from the stool and fled to the side yard, 
where it turned and regarded him intently once more. 

He closed and locked the window and went out to sit on the front 
porch. 

Two squirrels were already out there on the grass, waiting for him. 
When Eduardo sat in the hickory rocking chair, one of the small beasts 
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remained in the grass, but the other climbed to the top porch step and 
kept a watch on him from that angle. 

That night, abed in his barricaded room again, seeking sleep, he heard 
squirrels scampering on the roof. Small claws scratching at the 
shingles. 

When he finally slept, he dreamed of rodents. 
The following day, June twenty-second, the squirrels remained with 
him. 

At windows. In the yard. On the porches. When he went for a walk, 
they trailed him at a distance. 

The twenty-third was the same, but on the morning of the twenty-fourth, 
he found a dead squirrel on the back porch. Clots of blood in its 
ears. Dried blood in its nostrils. Eyes protruding from the 
sockets. 

He found two more squirrels in the yard and a fourth on the front-porch 
steps, all in the same condition. 

They had survived control longer than the raccoons. 
Apparently the traveler was learning. 
Eduardo considered calling Dr. Potter. Instead, he gathered up the 
four bodies and carried them to the center of the eastern meadow. He 
dropped them in the grass, where scavengers could find and deal with 
them. 

He thought, also, of the imagined child in the faraway ranch who might 
have been watching the Cherokee's headlights on the way back from the 
vet's two weeks earlier. He told himself that he owed it to that 
child--or to other children, who really existed--to tell Potter the 
whole story. He should try to involve the authorities in the matter as 
well, even though getting anyone to believe him would be a frustrating 
and humiliating ordeal. 

Maybe it was the beer he still drank from morning until bedtime, but he 
could no longer summon the sense of community he had felt that night. 

He'd spent his whole life avoiding people. He couldn't suddenly find 
it within himself to embrace them. 

Besides, everything had changed for him when he'd come home and found 
the evidence of the intruder: the crumbling clumps of soil, the dead 
beetles, the earthworm, the scrap of blue cloth caught in the frame of 
the oven door. He was waiting in dread for the next move in that part 
of the game, yet refusing to speculate about it, instantly blocking 
every forbidden thought that started to rise in his tortured mind. 

When that fearful confrontation occurred, at last, he could not 
possibly share it with strangers. The horror was too personal, for him 
alone to witness and endure. 
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He still maintained the diary of these events, and in that yellow 
tablet he wrote about the squirrels. He hadn't the will or the energy 
to record his experiences in as much detail as he had done at first. 

He wrote as succinctly as possible without leaving out any pertinent 
information. After a lifetime of finding journal-keeping too 
burdensome, he was now unable to stop keeping this one. 

He was seeking to understand the traveler by writing about it. The 
traveler ... and himself. 

On the last day of June, he decided to drive into Eagle's Roost to buy 
groceries and other supplies. Considering that he now lived deep in 
the shadow of the unknown and the fantastic, every mundane act-cooking 
a meal, making his bed every morning, shopping--seemed to be a 
pointless waste of time and energy, an absurd attempt to paint a facade 
of normality over an existence that was now twisted and strange. But 
life went on. 

As Eduardo backed the Cherokee out of the garage, into the driveway, a 
large crow sprang off the front-porch railing and flew across the hood 
of the wagon with a great flapping of wings. He jammed on the brakes 
and stalled the engine. The bird soared high into a mottled-gray 
sky. 

Later, in town, when Eduardo walked out of the supermarket, pushing a 
cart filled with supplies, a crow was perched on the hood ornament of 
the station wagon. He assumed it was the same creature that had 
startled him less than two hours before. 

It remained on the hood, watching him through the windshield, as he 
went around to the back of the Cherokee and opened the cargo hatch. As 
he loaded the bags into the space behind the rear seat, the crow never 
looked away from him. It continued to watch him as he pushed the empty 
cart back to the front of the store, returned, and got in behind the 
steering wheel. The bird took flight only when he started the 
engine. 

Across sixteen miles of Montana countryside, the crow tracked him from 
on high. He could keep it in view either by leaning forward over the 
wheel to peer through the upper part of the windshield or simply by 
looking out his side window, depending on the position from which the 
creature chose to monitor him. Sometimes it flew parallel to the 
Cherokee, keeping pace, and sometimes it rocketed ahead so far that it 
became only a speck, nearly vanished into the clouds, only to double 
back and take up a parallel course once more. It was with him all the 
way home. 

While Eduardo ate dinner, the bird perched on the exterior stool of the 
window in the north wall of the kitchen, where he had first seen one of 
the sentinel squirrels. When he got up from his meal to raise the 
bottom half of the window, the crow scrammed, as the squirrel had. 

He left the window open while he finished dinner. A refreshing breeze 
skimmed in off the twilight meadows. Before Eduardo had eaten his last 
bite, the crow returned. 
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The bird remained in the open window while Eduardo washed the dishes, 
dried them, and put them away. It followed his every move with its 
bright black eyes. 

He got another beer from the refrigerator and returned to the table. 
He settled in a different chair from the one in which he'd sat before, 
closer to the crow. Only an arm's length separated them. 

"What do you want?" he asked, surprised that he didn't feel at all 
foolish talking to a damned bird. 

Of course, he wasn't talking to the bird. He was addressing whatever 
controlled the bird. The traveler. 

"Do you just want to watch me?" he asked. 
The bird stared. 
"Would you like to communicate?" 
The bird lifted one wing, tucked its head underneath, and pecked at its 
feathers as if plucking out lice. 

After another swallow of beer, Eduardo said, "Or would you like to 
control me the way you do these animals?" 

The crow shifted back and forth from foot to foot, shook itself, cocked 
its head to peer at him with one eye. 

"You can act like a damned bird all you want, but I know that's not 
what you are, not all you are." 

The crow grew still again. 
Beyond the window, twilight had given way to night. 
"Can you control me? Maybe you're limited to simpler creatures, less 
complex neurological systems." 

Black eyes glittering. Sharp orange beak parted slightly. 
"Or maybe you're learning the ecology here, the flora and fauna, 
figuring out how it works in this place, honing your skills. Hmmm? 

Maybe you're working your way up to me. Is that it?" 
Watching. 
"I know there's nothing of you in the bird, nothing physical. Just 
like you weren't in the raccoons. An autopsy established that much. 

Thought you might have to insert something into an animal to control 
it, something electronic, I don't know, maybe even something 
biological. Thought maybe there were a lot of you out in the woods, a 
hive, a nest, and maybe one of you actually had to enter an animal to 
control it. Half expected Potter would find some strange slug living 
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in the raccoon's brain, some damned centipede thing hooked to its 
spine. A seed, an unearthly-looking spider, something. But you don't 
work that way, huh?" 

He took a swallow of Corona. 
"Ahhh. Tastes good." 
He held the beer out to the crow. 
It stared at him over the top of the bottle. 
"Teetotaler, huh? I keep learning things about you. We're an 
inquisitive bunch, we human beings. We learn fast and we're good at 
applying what we learn, good at meeting challenges. Does that worry 
you any?" 

The crow raised its tail feather and crapped. 
"Was that a comment," Eduardo wondered, "or just part of doing a good 
bird imitation?" 

The sharp beak opened and closed, opened and closed, but no sound 
issued from the bird. 

"Somehow you control these animals from a distance. Telepathy, 
something like that? From quite a distance, in the case of this 
bird. 

Sixteen miles into Eagle's Roost. Well, maybe fourteen miles as the 
crow flies." 

If the traveler knew that Eduardo had made a lame pun, it gave no 
indication through the bird. 

"Pretty clever, whether it's telepathy or something else. But it sure 
as hell takes a toll on the subject, doesn't it? You're getting 
better, though, learning the limitations of the local slave 
population." 

The crow pecked for more lice. 
"Have you made any attempts to control me? Because if you have, I 
don't think I was aware of it. Didn't feel any probing at my mind, 
didn't see alien images behind my eyes, none of the stuff you read 
about in novels." 

Peck, peck, peck. 
Eduardo chugged the rest of the Corona. He wiped his mouth on his 
sleeve. 

Having nailed the lice, the bird watched him serenely, as though it 
would sit there all night and listen to him ramble, if that was what he 
wanted. 

"I think you're going slow, feeling your way, experimenting. This 
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world seems normal enough to those of us born here, but maybe to you 
it's one of the weirdest places you've ever seen. Could be you're not 
too sure of yourself here." 

He had not begun the conversation with any expectation that the crow 
would answer him. He wasn't in a damned Disney movie. Yet its 
continued silence was beginning to frustrate and annoy him, probably 
because the day had sailed by on a tide of beer and he was full of 
drunkard's anger. 

"Come on. Let's stop farting around. Let's do it." 
The crow just stared. 
"Come here yourself, pay me a visit, the real you, not in a bird or 
squirrel or raccoon. Come as yourself. No costumes. Let's do it. 

Let's get it over with." 
The bird flapped its wings once, half unfurling them, but that was 
all. 

"You're worse than Poe's raven. You don't even say a single word, you 
just sit there. What good are you?" 

Staring, staring. 
And the Raven, never Jutting, still is sitting, still is sitting . 

Though Poe had never been one of his favorites, only a writer he had 
read while discovering what he really admired, he began quoting aloud 
to the feathered sentry, infusing the words with the vehemence of the 
troubled narrator that the poet had created: " And his eyes have all 
the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming, And the lamplight o'er him 
streaming throws his shadow on the floor--" Abruptly he realized, too 
late, that the bird and the poem and his own treacherous mind had 
brought him to a confrontation with the horrific thought that he'd 
repressed ever since cleaning up the soil and other leavings on June 
tenth. At the heart of Poe's 

"The Raven" was a lost maiden, young 
Lenore, lost to death, and a narrator with a morbid belief that Lenore 
had come back from-Eduardo slammed down a mental door on the rest of 
that thought. 

With a snarl of rage, he threw the empty beer bottle. It hit the 
crow. 

Bird and bottle tumbled into the night. 
He leaped off his chair and to the window. 
The bird fluttered on the lawn, then sprang into the air with a furious 
flapping of wings, up into the dark sky. 
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Eduardo closed the window so hard he nearly shattered the glass, locked 
it, and clasped both hands to his head, as if he would tear out the 
fearful thought if it would not be repressed again. 

He got very drunk that night. The sleep he finally found was as good 
an approximation of death as any he had known. 

If the bird came to his bedroom window while he slept, or walked the 
edges of the roof above him, he did not hear it. 

He didn't wake until ten minutes past noon on July first. For the rest 
of that day, coping with his hangover and trying to cure it preoccupied 
him and kept his mind off the morbid verses of a long-dead poet. 

The crow was with him July first, second, and third, from morning 
through night, without surcease, but he tried to ignore it. No more 
staring matches as with the other sentries. No more one-sided 
conversations. Eduardo did not sit on the porches. When he was 
inside, he did not look toward the windows. His narrow life became 
more constricted than ever. 

At three o'clock on the afternoon of the fourth, suffering a bout of 
claustrophobia from being too long within four walls, he planned a 
cautious itinerary and, taking the shotgun, went for a walk. He did 
not look at the sky above him, only toward distant horizons. Twice, 
however, he saw a swift shadow flash over the ground ahead of him, and 
he knew that he did not walk alone. 

He was returning to the house, only twenty yards from the front porch, 
when the crow plummeted out of the sky. Its wings flapped uselessly, 
as if it had forgotten how to fly, and it met the earth with only 
slightly more grace than a stone dropped from a similar height. It 
flopped and shrieked on the grass but was dead by the time he reached 
it. 

Without looking closely at the crow, he picked it up by the tip of one 
wing. 

He carried it into the meadow, to throw it where he had tossed the four 
squirrels on the twenty-fourth of June. 

He expected to find a macabre pile of remains, well plucked and 
dismembered by carrion eaters, but the squirrels were gone. He would 
not have been surprised if one or even two of the carcasses had been 
dragged off to be devoured elsewhere. But most carrion eaters would 
strip the squirrels where they were found, leaving at least several 
bones, the inedible feet, scraps of fur-covered hide, a well-gnawed and 
pecked-at skull. 

The lack of any remains whatsoever could only mean the squirrels had 
been removed by the traveler. Or by its sorcerously controlled 
surrogates. 

Perhaps, having tested them to destruction, the traveler wanted to 
examine them to determine why they failed--which it had not been able 
to do with the raccoons because Eduardo had intervened and taken them 
to the veterinarian. Or it might feel that they were, like the 
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raccoons, evidence of its presence. It might prefer to leave as few 
loose ends as possible until its position on this world was more firmly 
established. 

He stood in the meadow, staring at the place where the dead squirrels 
had been. Thinking. 

He raised his left hand, from which dangled the broken crow, and stared 
at the now sightless eyes. As shiny as polished ebony and bulging from 
the sockets. 

"Come on," he whispered. 
Finally he took the crow into the house. He had a use for it. A 
plan. 

The wire-mesh colander was held together by sturdy stainless-steel 
rings at top and bottom, and stood on three short steel legs. It was 
the size of a two-or three-quart bowl. He used it to drain pasta when 
he cooked large quantities to make salads or to ensure that there would 
be plenty of leftovers. Two steel-loop handles were fixed to the top 
ring, by which to shake it when it was filled with steaming pasta that 
needed encouragement to fully drain. 

Turning the colander over and over in his hands, Eduardo thought 
through his plan one more time--then began to put it into action. 

Standing at a kitchen counter, he folded the wings of the dead crow. 
He tucked the whole bird into the colander. With needle and thread, he 
fixed the crow to the wire mesh in three places. That would prevent 
the limp body from slipping out when he tilted the colander. As he put 
the needle and thread aside, the bird rolled its head loosely and 
shuddered. Eduardo recoiled from it and took a step back from the 
counter in surprise. The crow issued a feeble, quavery cry. He knew 
it had been dead. Stone dead. For one thing, its neck had been 
broken. Its swollen eyes had been virtually hanging out of the 
sockets. Apparently it had died in mid-flight of a massive brain 
seizure like those that had killed the raccoons and the squirrels. 

Dropping from a great height, it had hit the ground with sickening 
force, sustaining yet more physical damage. Stone dead. 

Now, stitched to the wire mesh of the colander, the reanimated bird was 
unable to lift its head off its breast, not because it was hampered by 
the threads with which he'd secured it but because its neck was still 
broken. Smashed legs flopped uselessly. Crippled wings tried to 
flutter and were hampered more by the damage to them than by the 
entangling threads. Overcoming his fear and revulsion, Eduardo pressed 
one hand against the crow's breast. He couldn't feel a heartbeat. 

The heart of any small bird pounded extremely fast, much faster than 
the heart of any mammal, a racing little engine, 
putta-putta-putta-putta-putta. It was always easy to detect because 
the whole body reverberated with the rapid beats. 

The crow's heart was definitely not beating. As far as he was able to 
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tell, the bird wasn't breathing, either. And its neck was broken. He 
had hoped that he was witnessing the traveler's ability to bring a dead 
creature back to life, a miracle of sorts. But the truth was darker 
than that. The crow was dead. Yet it moved. 

Trembling with disgust, Eduardo lifted his hand from the small 
squirming corpse. 

The traveler could reestablish control of a carcass without 
resuscitating the animal. To some extent, it had power over the 
inanimate as well as the animate. 

Eduardo desperately wanted to avoid thinking about that. But he 
couldn't turn his mind off. Couldn't avoid that dreaded line of 
inquiry any longer. If he had not taken the raccoons away at once to 
the vet, would they eventually have shuddered and pulled themselves to 
their feet again, cold but moving, dead but animated? 

In the colander, the crow's head wobbled loosely on its broken neck, 
and its beak opened and closed with a faint clicking. Perhaps nothing 
had carried the four dead squirrels out of the meadow, after all. 

Maybe those carcasses, stiff with rigor mortis, had responded to the 
insistent call of the puppetmaster on their own, cold muscles flexing 
and contracting awkwardly, rigid joints cracking and snapping as 
demands were put upon them. Even as their bodies had entered the early 
stages of decomposition, perhaps they twitched and lifted their heads, 
crawled and hitched and dragged themselves out of the meadow, into the 
woods, to the lair of the thing that commanded them. 

Don't think about it. Stop. Think about something else, for Christ's 
sake. 

Anything else. Not this, not this. 
If he released the crow from the colander and took it outside, would it 
flop and flutter along the ground on its broken wings, all the way up 
the sloped backyard, making a nightmarish pilgrimage into the shadows 
of the higher woods? 

Did he dare follow it into that heart of darkness? No. No, if there 
was to be an ultimate confrontation, it had to happen here on his own 
territory, not in whatever strange nest the traveler had made for 
itself. 

Eduardo was stricken by the blood-freezing suspicion that the traveler 
was alien to such an extreme degree that it didn't share humanity's 
perception of life and death, didn't draw the line between the two in 
the same place at all. Perhaps its kind never died. Or they died in a 
true biological sense yet were reborn in a different form out of their 
own rotting remains--and expected the same to be true of creatures on 
this world. In fact, the nature of their species--especially its 
relationship with death--might be unimaginably more bizarre, perverse, 
and repellent than anything his imagination could conceive. 

In an infinite universe, the potential number of intelligent life-forms 
was also infinite--as he had discovered from the books he'd been 
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reading lately. 
Theoretically, anything that could be imagined must exist in an 
infinite realm. 

When referring to extraterrestrial life-forms, alien meant alien, 
maximum strange, one weirdness wrapped in another, beyond easy 
understanding and possibly beyond all hope of comprehension. He had 
brooded about this issue before, but only now did he fully grasp that 
he had about as much chance of understanding this traveler, really 
understanding it, as a mouse had of understanding the intricacies of 
the human experience, the workings of the human mind. 

The dead crow shuddered, twitched its broken legs. From its twisted 
throat came a wet cawing sound that was a grotesque parody of the cry 
of a living crow. 

A spiritual darkness filled Eduardo, because he could no longer deny, 
to any extent whatsoever, the identity of the intruder who had left a 
vile trail through the house on the night of June tenth. He had known 
all along what he was repressing. 

Even as he had drunk himself into oblivion, he had known. Even as he 
had pretended not to know, he had known. And he knew now. He knew. 

Dear sweet Jesus, he knew. 
Eduardo had not been afraid to die. He'd almost welcomed death. Now 
he was again afraid to die. Beyond fright. Physically ill with 
terror. Trembling, sweating. 

Though the traveler had shown no signs of being able to control the 
body of a living human being, what would happen when he was dead? 

He picked up the shotgun from the table, snatched the keys to the 
Cherokee off the pegboard, went to the connecting door between the 
kitchen and the garage. He had to leave at once, no time to waste, get 
out and far away. To hell with learning more about the traveler. To 
hell with forcing a confrontation. He should just get in the Cherokee, 
jam the accelerator to the floorboards, run down anything that got in 
his way, and put a lot of distance between himself and whatever had 
come out of the black doorway into the Montana night. 

He jerked the door open but halted on the threshold between the kitchen 
and the garage. He had nowhere to go. No family left. No friends. 

He was too old to begin another life. And no matter where he went, the 
traveler would still be here, learning its way in this world, 
performing its perverse experiments, befouling what was sacred, 
committing unspeakable outrages against everything that Eduardo had 
ever cherished. 

He could not run from this. He had never run from anything in his 
life, however, it was not pride that stopped him before he had taken 
one full step into the garage. The only thing preventing him from 
leaving was his sense of what was right and wrong, the basic values 
that had gotten him through a long life. 
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If he turned his back on those values and ran like a gutless wonder, he 
wouldn't be able to look at himself in a mirror any more. He was old 
and alone, which was bad enough. To be old, alone, and eaten by 
self-loathing would be intolerable. 

He wanted desperately to run from this, but that option was not open to 
him. He stepped back from the threshold, closed the door to the 
garage, and returned the shotgun to the table. He knew a bleakness of 
the soul that perhaps no one outside of hell had ever known before 
him. 

The dead crow thrashed, trying to tear loose of the colander. Eduardo 
had used heavy thread and tied secure knots, and the bird's muscles and 
bones were too badly damaged for it to exert enough force to break 
free. His plan seemed foolish now. An act of meaningless bravado--and 
insanity. He proceeded with it, anyway, preferring to act rather than 
wait meekly for the end. 

On the back porch, he held the colander against the outside of the 
kitchen door. 

The imprisoned crow scratched and thumped. With a pencil, Eduardo 
marked the wood where the openings in the handles met it. He hammered 
two standard nails into those marks and hung the colander on them. The 
crow, still struggling weakly, was visible through the wire mesh, 
trapped against the door. But the colander could be too easily lifted 
off the nails. Using two U-shaped nails on each side, he fixed both 
handles securely to the solid oak door. The hammering carried up the 
long slope of the yard and echoed back to him from the pine walls of 
the western forest. 

To remove the colander and get at the crow, the traveler or its 
surrogate would have to pry loose the U-shaped nails to free at least 
one of the handles. The only alternative was to cut the mesh with 
heavy shears and pull out the feathered prize. Either way, the dead 
bird could not be snatched up quickly or silently. Eduardo would have 
plenty of warning that something was after the contents of the 
colander--especially as he intended to spend the entire night in the 
kitchen if necessary. 

He could not be sure the traveler would covet the dead crow. Perhaps 
he was wrong, and it had no interest in the failed surrogate. However, 
the bird had lasted longer than the squirrels, which had lasted longer 
than the raccoons, and the puppetmaster might find it instructive to 
examine the carcass to help it discover why. It wouldn't be working 
through a squirrel this time. Or even a clever raccoon. Greater 
strength and dexterity were required for the task as Eduardo had 
arranged it. He prayed that the traveler itself would rise to the 
challenge and put in its first appearance. 

Come on. 
However, if it sent the other thing, the unspeakable thing, the lost 
Lenore, that terror could be faced. Amazing, what a human being could 
endure. Amazing, the strength of a man even in the shadow of 
oppressive terror, even in the grip of horror, even filled with 
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bleakest despair. 
The crow was motionless once more. Silent. Stone dead. Eduardo 
turned to look at the high woods. Come on. Come on, you bastard. 

Show me your face, show me your stinking ugly face. Come on, crawl out 
where I can see you. Don't be so gutless, you fucking freak. 

Eduardo went inside. He shut the door but didn't lock it. After 
closing the blinds at the windows, so nothing could look in at him 
without his knowledge, he sat at the kitchen table to bring his diary 
up-to-date. Filling three more pages with his neat script, he 
concluded what he supposed might be his final entry. 

In case something happened to him, he wanted the yellow tablet to be 
found--but not too easily. He inserted it in a large Ziplock plastic 
bag, sealed it against moisture, and put it in the freezer half of the 
refrigerator, among packages of frozen foods. 

Twilight had arrived. The time of truth was fast approaching. He had 
not expected the entity in the woods to put in an appearance in 
daylight. He sensed it was a creature of nocturnal habits and 
preferences, spawned in darkness. He got a beer from the 
refrigerator. 

What the hell. It was his first in several hours. Although he wanted 
to be sober for the confrontation to come, he didn't want to be 
entirely clearheaded. Some things could be faced and dealt with better 
by a man whose sensibilities had been mildly numbed. 

Nightfall had barely settled all the way into the west, and he had not 
finished that first beer, when he heard movement on the back porch. A 
soft thud and a scrape and a thud again. Definitely not the crow 
stirring. Heavier noises than that. It was a clumsy sound made by 
something awkwardly but determinedly climbing the three wooden steps 
from the lawn. 

Eduardo got to his feet and picked up the shotgun. His palms were 
slick with sweat, but he could still handle the weapon. Another thud 
and a gritty scraping. 

His heart was beating bird-fast, faster than the crow's had ever beaten 
when it had been alive. The visitor--whatever its world of origin, 
whatever its name, whether dead or alive--reached the top of the steps 
and moved across the porch toward the door. No thudding any longer. 

All dragging and shuffling, sliding and scraping. 
Because of the type of reading he had been doing these past few months, 
in but an instant Eduardo conjured image after image of different 
unearthly creatures that might produce such a sound instead of ordinary 
footsteps, each more malevolent in appearance than the one before it, 
until his mind swam with monsters. 

One monster among them was not unearthly, belonged more to Poe than to 
Heinlein or Sturgeon or Bradbury, gothic rather than futuristic, not 
only from Earth but from the earth. It drew nearer the door, nearer 
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still, and finally it was at the door. The unlocked door. Silence. 
Eduardo had only to take three steps, grab the doorknob, pull inward, 
and he would stand face-to-face with the visitor. 

He could not move. He was as rooted to the floor as any tree was 
rooted to the hills that rose behind the house. 

Though he had devised the plan that had precipitated the confrontation, 
though he had not run when he'd had the chance, though he had convinced 
himself that his sanity depended on facing this ultimate terror 
forthrightly and putting it behind him, he was paralyzed and suddenly 
not so sure that running would have been wrong. 

The thing was silent. It was there but silent. Inches from the far 
side of the door. Doing what? Waiting for Eduardo to move first? Or 
studying the crow in the colander? 

The porch was dark, and only a little kitchen light was emitted by the 
covered windows, so could it really see the crow? Yes. Oh, yes, it 
could see in the dark, bet on that, it could see in the dark better 
than any damned cat could see, because it was of the dark. 

He could hear the kitchen clock ticking. Though it had been there all 
along, he hadn't heard it in years, it had become part of the 
background noise, but he heard it now, louder than it had ever been, 
like a softened stick striking a slow measured beat on a snare drum at 
a state funeral. come on lets do it. 

This time he was urging the traveler to come out of hiding. He was 
goading himself. Come on, you bastard, you coward, you id Id ignorant 
fool, come on, come on, He moved to the door and stood slightly to one 
side of it, so he could open it past himself. To grasp the knob, he 
would have to let go of the with one hand, but he couldn't do that was 
knocking painfully against him. He could feel the pulse in his 
temples, pounding, pounding. 

He smelled the thing through the closed door. A nauseating odor, sour 
and putrescent, beyond anything in his long lifetime of experience. 

The doorknob in front of him, the knob that he could of bring himself 
to grasp, round a p and gleaming, began to turn. Scintillant light, a 
reflection of the kitchen fluorescents, trickled along the curve of the 
knoll as it slowly l The free-moving latch bolt eased notch in the 
striker plate with the faintest rasp of brass on brass. pounding 
in his temples, booming his chest so swollen and leaping that his 
lungs and made breathing difficult, painful And now the knob slipped 
back the other way, and the door remained unopened. The latch bolt 
eased into its catch once more. The moment of revelation was delayed, 
perhaps slipping away forever as the visitor withdrew.... With an 
anguished cry that surprised him, Eduardo seized the knob and yanked 
the door open in one convulsively violent movement, bringing himself 
face-to-face with his worst fear. 

The lost maiden, three years in the grave and now released: a wiry and 
tangled mass of gray hair matted with filth, eyeless sockets, flesh 
hideously corrupted and dark in spite of the preserving influence of 
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embalming fluid, glimpses of clean bone in the desiccated and reeking 
tissues, lips withered back from teeth to reveal a wide but humorless 
grin. The lost maiden stood in her ragged and worm-eaten burial dress, 
the blue-on-blue fabric grossly stained with the fluids of 
decomposition, risen and returned to him, reaching for him with one 
hand. The sight of her filled him not merely with terror and revulsion 
but with despair, oh God, he was sinking in a sea of cold black despair 
that Margaret should have come to this, reduced to the unspeakable 
fate of all living things--It's not Margaret, not this thing, unclean 
thing, Margarite's in a better place, heaven, sits with God, must be a 
God, Margaret deserves a God, not just this, not an ending like this, 
sits with God, sits with God, long gone from this body and sits with 
God. --and after the first instant of confrontation, he thought he 
was going to be all right, thought he was going to be able to hold on 
to his sanity and bring up the shotgun and blast the hateful thing 
backward off the porch, pump round after round into it until it no 
longer bore the vaguest resemblance to his Margaret, until it was 
nothing but a pile of bone fragments and organic ruins with no power to 
plunge him into despondency. 

Then he saw that he hadn't been visited only by this heinous surrogate 
but by the traveler itself, two confrontations in one. The alien was 
entwined with the corpse, hanging upon its back but also intruding 
within the cavities of it, riding on and in the dead woman. Its own 
body appeared to be soft and poorly designed for gravity as heavy as 
that it had encountered here, so perhaps it needed support to permit 
locomotion in these conditions. Black, it was, black and slick, 
irregularly stippled with red, and seemed to be constituted only of a 
mass of entwined and writhing appendages that one moment appeared as 
fluid and smooth as snakes but the next moment seemed as spiky and 
jointed as the legs of a crab. Not muscular like the coils of snakes 
or armored like crabs but oozing and jellid. He saw no head or 
orifice, no familiar feature that could help him tell the top of it 
from the bottom, but he had only a few seconds to absorb what he was 
seeing, merely the briefest glimpse. 

The sight of those shiny black tentacles slithering in and out of the 
cadaver's rib cage brought him to the realization that less flesh 
remained on the three-year-old corpse than he had at first believed and 
that the bulk of the apparition before him was the rider on the 
bones. 

Its tangled appendages bulged where her heart and lungs had once been, 
twined like vines around clavicles and scapulae, around humerus and 
radius and ulna, around femur and tibia, even filled the empty skull 
and churned frenziedly just behind the rims of the hollow sockets. 

This was more than he could tolerate and more than his books had 
prepared him for, beyond alien, an obscenity he couldn't bear. He 
heard himself screaming, heard it but was unable to stop, could not 
lift the gun because all his strength was in the scream. Although it 
seemed like an eternity, only five seconds elapsed from the moment he 
yanked open the door until his heart was wrenched by fatal spasms. In 
spite of the thing that loomed on the threshold of the kitchen, in 
spite of the thoughts and terrors that exploded through his mind in 
that sliver of time, Eduardo knew the number of seconds was precisely 
five because a part of him continued to be aware of the ticking of the 
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clock, the funereal cadence, five ticks, five seconds. 
Then a searing pain blazed through him, the mother of all pain, not 
from an assault by the traveler but arising from within, accompanied by 
white light as bright as the eye of a nuclear explosion might be, an 
all-obliterating whiteness that erased the traveler from his view and 
all the cares of the world from his consideration. Peace. 

CHAPTER THIRTEEN. 
Because he had suffered some nerve damage in addition to the spinal 
fracture, Jack required a longer course of therapy at Phoenix 
Rehabilitation Hospital than he had anticipated. As promised, Moshe 
Bloom taught him to make a friend of pain, to see it as evidence of 
rebuilding and recovery. By early July, four months from the day he 
had been shot down, gradually diminishing pain had been a constant 
companion for so long that it was not just a friend but a brother. On 
July seventeenth, when he was discharged from Phoenix, he was able to 
walk again, although he still required the assurance of not one but two 
canes. He seldom actually used both, sometimes neither, but was 
fearful of falling without them, especially on a staircase. Although 
slow, he was for the most part steady on his feet, however, influenced 
by an occasional vagrant nerve impulse, either leg could go entirely 
limp without warning, causing his knee to buckle. Those unpleasant 
surprises became less frequent by the week. He hoped to be rid of one 
cane by August and the other by September. Moshe Bloom, as solid as 
sculpted rock but still pearing to drift along as if propelled on a 
thin cushion of air, accompanied Jack to the front entrance, while 
Heather brought the car from the parking lot. The therapist was 
dressed all in white, as usual, but his skullcap was crocheted and 
colorful. "Listen, you be sure to keep up those daily exercises." 

"All right." 
"Even after you're able to give up the canes." 
"I will." 
"The tendency is to slack off. Sometimes when the patient gets most of 
the function back, regains his confidence, he decides he doesn't have 
to work at it any more. But the healing is still going on even if he 
doesn't realize it." 

"I hear you." Holding open the front door for Jack, Moshe said, "Next 
thing you know, he has problems, has to come back here on an outpatient 
basis to gain back the ground he's lost." 

"Not me," Jack assured him, glancing outside into the gloriously hot 
summer day. "Take your medication when you need it." 

"I will." 
"Don't try to tough it out." 
"I won't." 
"Hot baths with Epsom salts when you're sore." Jack nodded solemnly. 
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"And I swear to God, every day I'll eat my chicken soup." Laughing, 
Moshe said, "I don't mean to mother you." 

"Yes you do." 
"No, not really." 
"You've been mothering me for weeks." 
"Have I? Yes, all right, I do mean to do it." Jack hooked one cane 
over his wrist so he could shake hands. 

"Thank you, Moshe." The therapist shook hands, then hugged him. 
"You've made a hell of a comeback. I'm proud of you." 
"You're damned good at this job, my friend." As Heather and Toby 
pulled up in the car, Moshe grinned. "Of course I'm good at it. We 
Jews know all about suffering." For a few days, just being in his own 
home and sleeping in his own bed was such a delight that Jack needed to 
make no effort to sustain optimism. Sitting in his favorite armchair, 
eating meals whenever he wanted rather than when a rigid institutional 
schedule said he must, helping Heather to cook dinner, reading to Toby 
before bedtime, watching television after ten o'clock in the evening 
without having to wear headphones--these things were more satisfying to 
him than all the luxuries and pleasures to which a Saudi Arabian prince 
might be entitled. He remained concerned about family finances, but he 
had hope on that front too. He expected to be back at work in some 
capacity by August, at last earning a paycheck again. 

Before he could return to duty on the street, however, he would be 
required to pass a rigorous department physical and a psychological 
evaluation to determine if he had been traumatized in any way that 
would affect his performance, consequently, for a number of weeks, he 
would have to serve at a desk. As the recession dragged on with few 
signs of a recovery, as every initiative by the government seemed 
devised solely to destroy more jobs, Heather stopped waiting for her 
widely seeded applications to bear fruit. While Jack had been in the 
rehab hospital, Heather had become an entrepreneur--" Howard Hughes 
without the insanity," she joked--doing business as Mcgarvey 
Associates. Ten years with IBM as a software designer gave her 
credibility. By the time Jack came home, Heather had signed a contract 
to design custom inventory-control and bookkeeping programs for the 
owner of a chain of eight taverns, one of the few enterprises thriving 
in the current economy was selling booze and a companionable atmosphere 
in which to drink it, and her client had lost the ability to monitor 
his increasingly busy saloons. Profit from her first contract wouldn't 
come close to replacing the salary she had stopped receiving the 
previous October. However, she seemed confident that good word of 
mouth would bring her more work if she did a first-rate job for the 
tavern owner. Jack was pleased to see her contentedly at work, her 
computers set up on a pair of large folding tables in the spare 
bedroom, where the mattress and springs of the bed now stood on end 
against one wall. She had always been happiest when busy, and his 
respect for her intelligence and industriousness was such that he 
wouldn't have been surprised to see the humble office of Mcgarvey 
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Associates grow, in time, to rival the corporate headquarters of 
Microsoft. On his fourth day at home, when he told her as much, she 
leaned back in her office chair and puffed out her chest as if swelling 
with pride. "Yep, that's me. Bill Gates without the nerd 
reputation." 

Leaning against the doorway, already using only one cane, he said, "I 
prefer to think of you as Bill Gates with terrific legs." 

"Sexist." 
"Guilty." 
"Besides, how do you know Bill Gates doesn't have better legs than 
mine? Have you seen his?" 

"Okay, I take back everything. I should have said, As far as I'm 
concerned, you are every bit as much of a nerd as people think Bill 
Gates is." 

"Thank you." 
"You're welcome," he said. "Are they really terrific?" 
"What?" 
"My legs." 
"You have legs?" Although he doubted that good word of mouth was going 
to boost her business fast enough to pay the bills and meet the 
mortgage, Jack didn't worry unduly about much of anything--until the 
twenty-fourth of July, when he had been home for a week and when his 
mood began to slide. When his characteristic optimism started to go, 
it didn't just crumble slowly but cracked all the way down the middle 
and soon thereafter shattered altogether. He couldn't sleep without 
dreams, which grew increasingly bloody night by night. He routinely 
woke in the middle of a panic attack three or four hours after he went 
to bed, and he was unable to doze off again no matter how desperately 
tired he was. A general malaise quickly set in. Food seemed to lose 
much of its flavor. 

He stayed indoors because the summer sun became annoyingly bright, and 
the dry California heat that he had always loved now parched him and 
made him irritable. 

Though he had always been a reader and owned an extensive book 
collection, he could find no writer--even among his old favorites--who 
appealed to him any more, every story, regardless of how liberally 
festooned with the praises of the critics, was uninvolving, and he 
often had to reread a paragraph three or even four times until the 
meaning penetrated his mental haze. He advanced from malaise to 
flat-out depression by the twenty-eighth, only eleven days out of 
rehabilitation. He found himself thinking about the future more than 
had ever been his habitand he could find no possible version of it that 
appealed to him. 

Once an exuberant swimmer in an ocean of optimism, he became a huddled 
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and frightened creature in a backwater of despair. He was reading the 
daily newspaper too closely, brooding about current events too deeply, 
and spending far too much time watching television news. Wars, 
genocide, riots, terrorist attacks, political bombings, gang wars, 
drive-by shootings, child molestations, serial killers on the loose, 
carjackings, ecological doomsday scenarios, a young convenience-store 
clerk shot in the head for the lousy fifty bucks and change in his 
cashregister drawer, rapes and stabbings and strangulations. He knew 
modern life was more than this. Goodwill still existed, and good deeds 
were still done. 

But the media focused on the grimmest aspects of every issue, and so 
Though he tried to leave the the TV off, he was drawn to of the 
latest tragedies and outrage the hottle or a compulsive yambl citement 
of the racetrack The despair inspired by the news was a down escalator 
from which he seemed unable to escape. And it was picking up speed 
When Heather casually mentioned that Toby would be entering third grade 
in a month, Jack began to worry h drug dealing and violence surrounding 
A les schools He became convinced they ing to be killed unless they 
could find a way, in spite of his financial problems to pay private sc 
h t such a once-safe place as a classr d ngerous as a battlefield led 
him in f I t the conclusion that nowhere was son. If Toby could be 
killed in school, why not on his t playing in his Own front yard? Ia 
overly protective parent, which he had never been before, reluctant to 
let the boy out of his sight. h fifth of August, with his return to d 
way and the restoration of a møre t hand he shouldhave experienced p d 
but the Opposite was the case. ting to the division for reassignme eat 
even though he was at least a ving off a desk job and back on the li d 
he had concealed his fears and P sions from everyone That night he 
learned differently In bed, after he turned off the lamp, he worked up 
the courage to say in the darkness what he would have been embarrassed 
to say in the light: "I'm not going back on the street." 

"I know," Heather said from her side of the bed. "I don't mean not 
just right away. I mean never." 

"I know, baby," she said tenderly, and reached out to find and hold his 
hand. "Is it that obvious?" 

"It's been a bad couple of weeks." 
"I'm sorry." 
"You had to go through it." 
"I thought I'd be on the street until I retired. It's all I ever 
wanted to do." 

"Things change," she said. "I can't risk it now. I've lost my 
confidence." 

"You'll get it back." 
"Maybe." 
"You will," she insisted. "But you still won't go back on the 
street. 
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You can't. You've done your part, you've pushed your luck as far as 
any cop could be expected to push it. Let someone else save the 
world." 

"I feel ..." 
"I know." 
"... empty ..." 
"It'll get better. Everything does." 
"... 
like a sorry-ass quitter." 
"You're no quitter." She slid against his side and put her hand on his 
chest. "You're a good man and you're brave--too damn brave, as far as 
I'm concerned. If you hadn't decided to get off the street, I'd have 
decided it for you. One way or another, I'd have made you do it, 
because the odds are, next time, I'll be Alma Bryson and your partner's 
wife will be coming to sit at my side, hold my hand. I'll be damned to 
hell before I'll let that happen. You've had two partners shot down 
beside you in one year, and there's been seven cops killed here since 
January. Seven. I'm not going to lose you, Jack." He put his arm 
around her, held her close, profoundly grateful to have found her in a 
hard world where so much seemed to depend on random chance. For a 
while he couldn't speak, his voice would have been too thick with 
emotion. At last he said, "So I guess from here on out, I'll park my 
butt in a chair and be a desk jockey of one kind or another." 

"I'll buy you a whole case of hemorrhoid cream" 
"I'll have to get a 
coffee mug with my name on It." 

"And a supply of notepads that say From the Desk of Jack Mcgarvey." 
" He said, "It's going to mean a salary cut. Won't pay as much as 
being on the street." 

"We'll be all right." 
"Will we? I'm not so sure. It's going to be tight." She said, 
"You're forgetting Mcgarvey Associates. Inventive and flexible custom 
programs. Tailored to your needs. Reasonable rates. Timely 
delivery. 

Better legs than Bill Gates." 
And that night, in the darkness of their bedroom, it did seem that 
finding security and happiness again in the City of Angels might be 
possible, after all. 

During the next ten days, however, they were confronted by a series of 
reality checks that made it impossible to sustain the old L. A. 
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fantasy. 
Yet another city budget shortfall was rectified in part by reducing the 
compensation of street cops by five percent and that of the deskbound 
in the department by twelve percent, a job that already paid less than 
Jack's previous position now paid markedly less. A day later, 
government statistics showed the economy slipping again, and a new 
client, on the verge of signing a contract with Mcgarvey Associates, 
was so unnerved by those numbers that he decided against investing in 
new computer programs for a few months. Inflation was up. 

Taxes were way up. The debt-strapped utility company was granted a 
rate increase to prevent bankruptcy, which meant electricity rates were 
going to climb. Water rates had already risen, natural-gas prices were 
next. They were clobbered with a car-repair bill of six hundred forty 
dollars on the same day that Anson Oliver's first film, which had not 
enjoyed a wide or successful theatrical run in its initial release, was 
reissued by Paramount, reigniting media interest in the shootout and in 
Jack. And Richie Tendero, husband to the flamboyant and unshakable 
Gina Tendero of the black leather clothes and red-pepper Mace, was hit 
by a shotgun blast while answering a domestic-dispute call, resulting 
in the amputation of his left arm and plastic surgery to the left side 
of his face. On August fifteenth, an eleven-year-old girl was caught 
in gang crossfire one block from the elementary school that Toby would 
soon be attending. She was killed instantly. Events unfold in uncanny 
sequences. Long-forgotten acquaintances turn up again with news that 
changes lives. A stranger appears and speaks a few words of wisdom, 
solving a previously insoluble problem, or something in a recent dream 
transpires in reality. Suddenly the existence of God seems 
confirmed. 

On the afternoon of August eighteenth, as Heather stood in the kitchen, 
waiting for the Mr. Coffee machine to brew a fresh pot and sorting 
through mail that had just arrived, she came across a letter from Paul 
Youngblood, an attorney-at-law from Eagle's Roost, Montana. The 
envelope was heavy, as if it contained not merely a letter but a 
document. According to the postmark, it had been sent on the sixth of 
the month, which led her to wonder about the gypseian route by which 
the postal service had chosen to deliver it. She knew she'd heard of 
Eagle's Roost. She could not recall when or why. Because she shared a 
nearly universal aversion to attorneys and associated all 
correspondence from law firms with trouble, she put the letter on the 
bottom of the stack, choosing to deal with it last. After throwing 
away advertisements, she found that the four other remaining items were 
bills. When she finally read the letter from Paul Youngblood, it 
proved to be so utterly different from the bad news she had 
expected--and so astonishing--that immediately after finishing it, she 
sat down at the kitchen table and read it again from the top. Eduardo 
Fernandez, a client of Youngblood's, had died on the fourth or fifth of 
July. He had been the father of Sometimes, life seems to have a higher 
meaning. lthe late Thomas Fernandez. 

That was Tommy--murdered at Jack's side eleven months before the events 
at Hassam Arkadian's service station. Eduardo Fernandez had named Jack 
Mcgarvey of Los Angeles, California, as his sole heir. Serving as 
executor of Mr. Fernandez's estate, Youngblood had tried to notify 
Jack by phone, only to discover that his number was no longer listed. 
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The estate included an insurance policy that would cover the fifty-five 
percent federal inheritance tax, leaving Jack the unencumbered 
six-hundred-acre Quartermass Ranch, the four-bedroom main house with 
furnishings, the caretaker's house, the ten-horse stable, various tools 
and equipment, and "a substantial amount of cash." Instead of a legal 
document, six photographs were included with the single-page letter. 

With shaky hands, Heather spread them in two rows on the table in front 
of her. The modified-Victorian main house was charming, with just 
enough decorative millwork to enchant without descending into Gothic 
oppressiveness. It appeared to be twice as large as the house in which 
they now lived. The mountain and valley views in every direction were 
breathtaking. Heather had never been filled with such mixed emotions 
as she experienced at that moment. In their hour of desperation, they 
had been given salvation, a way out of darkness, escape from despair. 

She had no idea what a Montana attorney would regard as a "substantial 
amount of cash," but she figured the ranch alone, if liquidated, must 
be worth enough to pay off all their bills and their current mortgage, 
with money left hadn't known since she had been a small child and had 
still believed in fairy tales, miracles. On the other hand, their good 
fortune would have been Tommy Fernandez's good fortune if he had not 
been murdered. That dark and inescapable fact tainted the gift and 
dampened her pleasure in it. For a while she brooded, torn between 
delight and guilt, and at last decided she was responding too much -. 

like a Beckerman and too little like a Mcgarvey. She would have done 
anything to bring Tommy Fernandez back to life, even if it meant that 
this inheritance would never have been hers and Jack's, but the cold 
truth was that Tommy was dead, in the ground over sixteen months now, 
and beyond the help of anyone. Fate was too often malicious, too 
seldom generous. She would be a fool to greet this staggering 
beneficence with a frown. Her first thought was to call Jack at 
work. 

She went to the wall phone, dialed part of the number, then hung up. 
This was once-in-a-lifetime news. She would never have another 
opportunity to spring something this deliriously wonderful on him, and 
she must not screw it up. For one thing, she wanted to see his face 
when he heard about the inheritance. She took the notepad and pencil 
from the holder beside the phone and returned to the table, where she 
read the letter again. She wrote out a list of questions for Paul 
Youngblood, then returned to the phone and called him in Eagle's Roost, 
Montana. When Heather identified herself to the attorney's secretary 
and then to the man himself, her voice was tremil she was half afraid 
he would tell her there had been a mistake. Maybe someone had 
contested the will. Or maybe a more recent will had been found, which 
negated the one naming Jack as the sole heir. A thousand maybes. 

Rush-hour traffic was even worse than usual. Dinner was delayed 
because Jack got home more than half an hour late, tired and frazzled 
but putting on a good act as a man in love with his new job and happy 
with his life. The instant Toby was finished eating, he asked to be 
excused to watch a favorite television program, and Heather let him 
go. 
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She wanted to share the news with Jack first, just the two of them, and 
tell Toby later. As usual, Jack helped her clean the table and load 
the dishwasher. When they were finished, he said, "Think I'll go for a 
walk, exercise these legs." 

"You having any pain?" 
"Just a little crdmping." 
Though he had stopped using a cane, she worried that he wouldn't tell 
her if he was having strength or balance problems. "You sure you're 
okay?" 

"Positive." He kissed her cheek. "You and Moshe Bloom could never be 
married. You'd always be fighting over whose job it was to do the 
mothering." 

"Sit down a minute," she said, leading him to the table and encouraging 
him into a chair. "There's something we have to talk about." 

"If Toby needs more dental work, I'll do it myself." 
"No dental work." 
"You see the size of that last bill?" 
"Yes, I saw it." 
"Who needs teeth, anyway? Clams don't have teeth, and they get along 
just fine. Oysters don't have teeth. Worms don't have teeth. Lots of 
things don't have teeth, and they're perfectly happy." 

"Forget about teeth," she said, fetching Youngblood's letter and the 
photographs from the top of the refrigerator. 

He took the envelope when she offered it. "What're you grinning 
about? 

What's this?" 
"Read it." Heather sat across from him, her elbows on the table, her 
face cupped in her hands, watching him intently, trying to guess where 
he was in the letter by the expressions that crossed his face. The 
sight of him absorbing the news gladdened her as nothing had in a long 
time. 

"This is . . .I. . . but why on earth . . ." He looked up from the 
letter and gaped at her. "Is this true?" She giggled. She hadn't 
giggled in ages. "Yes. 

Yes! It's true, every incredible word of it. I called Paul 
Youngblood. He sounds like a very nice man. He was Eduardo's neighbor 
as well as his attorney. His nearest neighbor but still two miles 
away. He confirms everything in the letter, all of it. Ask me how 
much a substantial amount of cash' might be." Jack blinked at her 
stupidly, as if the news had been a blunt instrument with which he'd 
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been stunned. "How much?" 
"He can't be sure yet, not until he has the final tax figure, but after 
everything's said and done . . . it's going to be between three 
hundred fifty thousand and four hundred thousand dollars." 

Jack paled. "That can't be right." 
"That's what he told me." 
"Plus the ranch?" 
"Plus the ranch." 
"Tommy talked about the place in Montana, said his dad loved it but he 
hated it. 

Dull, Tommy said, nothing ever happening, the ass-end of nowhere. He 
loved his dad, told funny stories about him, but he never said he was 
rich." Again he picked up the letter, which rattled in his hand. 

"Why would Tommy's dad leave everything to me, for God's sake?" 
"That was one of the questions I asked Paul Youngblood. He says Tommy 
used to write to his dad about you, what a great guy you were. Talked 
about you like a brother. So with Tommy gone, his dad wanted you to 
have everything." 

"What do the other relatives have to say about that?" 
"There aren't any relatives." Jack shook his head. "But I never even 
met"--he consulted the letter--"Eduardo. This is crazy. I mean, 
Jesus, it's wonderful, but it's crazy. 

He gives everything to someone he hasn't even met?" Unable to remain 
seated, bursting with excitement, Heather got up and went to the 
refrigerator. 

"Paul Youngblood says the idea appealed to Eduardo because he inherited 
it eight years ago from his former boss, which was a total surprise to 
him too." 

"I'll be damned," he said wonderingly. She removed a bottle of 
champagne that she had hidden in the vegetable drawer, where Jack 
wouldn't see it before he heard the news and knew what they were 
celebrating. "According to Youngblood, Eduardo thought that surprising 
you with it . . . well, he seemed to see it as the only way he'd ever 
be able to repay his boss's kindness." When she returned to the table, 
Jack frowned at the bottle of champagne. 

"I'm like a balloon, I'm floating, bouncing off the ceiling, but . . 

at the same time . . ." 
"Tommy," she said. He nodded. 
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Peeling the foil off the champagne bottle, she said, "We can't bring 
him back." 

"No, but ..." 
"He'd want us to be happy about this." 
"Yeah, I know. Tommy was a great guy." 
"So let's be happy." He said nothing. Untwisting the wire cage that 
restrained the cork, she said, "We'd be idiots if we weren't." know" 
"It's a miracle, and just when we need one." He stared at the 
champagne. She said, "It's not just our future. It's Toby's too." 

"He can keep his teeth now." Laughing, Heather said, "It's a wonderful 
thing, Jack." At last his smile was broad and without reservation. 

"You're damn right it's a wonderful thing--now we won't have to listen 
to him gumming his food." 

Removing the wire from the cork, she said, "Even if we don't deserve so 
much good fortune, Toby does." 

"We all deserve it." He got up, went to a nearby cabinet, and removed 
a clean dish towel from a drawer. "Here, let me." He took the bottle 
from Heather, draped the cloth over it. "Might explode." He twisted 
the cork, it popped, but the champagne did not foam out of the neck of 
the bottle. She brought a couple of glasses, and he filled them. "To 
Eduardo Fernandez," she said by way of a toast. "To Tommy." They 
drank, standing beside the table, and then he kissed her lightly. His 
quick tongue was sweet with champagne. 

"My God, Heather, do you know what this meanst' They sat down again as 
she said, "When we go out to dinner the next time, it can be someplace 
that serves the food on real plates instead of in paper containers." 

His eyes were shining, and she was thrilled to see him so happy. "We 
can pay the mortgage, all the bills, put money away for Toby to go to 
college one day, maybe even take a vacation--and that's just from the 
cash. If we sell the farm--" 

"Look at the photographs," she urged, 
grabbing them, spreading them on the table in front of him. "Very 
nice," he said. "Better than very nice. It's gorgeous, Jack. Look at 
those mountains! And look at this one--look, from this angle, standing 
in front of the house, you can see forever!" 

He looked up from the snapshots and met her eyes. "What am I 
hearing?" 

"We don't have to sell it." 
"Live there?" 
"Why not?" 
"We're city people." . n: . ^: "And we hate it." 
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"Angelenos all our lives." 
"Isn't what it once was." She could see that the idea intrigued him, 
and her own excitement grew as he began to come around to her point of 
view. "We've wanted change for a long time," he said. 

"But I was never thinking this much change." 
"Look at the photographs." 
"Okay, yeah, it's gorgeous. But what would we do there? It's a lot of 
money but not enough to last forever. Besides, we're young--we can't 
vegetate, we need to do something." 

"Maybe we can start a business in Eagle's Roost." 
"What sort of business?" 
"I don't know. Anything," she said. "We can go, see what it's like, 
and maybe we'll spot an opportunity right off the bat. And if not . 

. well, we don't have to live there forever. A year, two years, and if 
we don't like it, we can sell." He finished his champagne, poured 
refreshers for both of them. 

"Toby starts school in two weeks...." 
"They have schools in Montana," she said, though she knew that was not 
what concerned him. He was no doubt thinking about the eleven-year-old 
girl who'd been shot to death one block from the elementary school that 
Toby would be attending. 

She nudged him: "He'll have six hundred acres to play on, Jack. How 
long has he wanted a dog, a golden retriever, and it just seemed like 
this place was too small for one?" 

Staring at one of the snapshots, Jack said, "At work today, we were 
talking about all the names this city has, more than other places. 

Like New York is the Big Apple, and that's it. But L. A. has lots of 
names--and none of them fit any more, none of them mean anything. Like 
the Big Orange. But there aren't any orange groves any more, all gone 
to tract houses and mini-malls and car lots. 

You can call it the City of Angels, but not much angelic happens here 
any more, not the way it once did, too many devils on the streets." 

"The City Where Stars Are Born," she said. "And nine hundred and 
ninety-nine out of a thousand kids who come here to be movie 
stars--what happens to them? Wind up used, abused, broke, and hooked 
on drugs." 

"The City Where the Sun Goes Down." 
"Well, it still does set in the west," he acknowledged, picking up 
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another photo from Montana. 
"City Where the Sun Goes Down ... That makes you think of the thirties 
and forties, swing music, men tipping their hats to one another and 
holding doors open for ladies in black cocktail dresses, elegant 
nightclubs overlooking the ocean, Bogart and Bacall, Gable and Lombard, 
people sipping martinis and watching golden sunsets. All gone. Mostly 
gone. These days, call it the City of the Dying Day." 

He fell silent. Shuming the photographs, studying them. She waited. 
At last he looked up and said, "Let's do it." 
PART TWO The Land of the Winter Moon Under the winter moon's pale 
light, across the cold and starry night, from snowy mountains soaring 
high to ocean shores echoes the cry. 

From barren sands to verdant fields, from city streets to lonely 
wealds, cries the tortured human heart, seeking solace, wisdom, a chart 
by which to understand its plight under the winter moon's pale light. 

Dawn is unable to fade the night. Must we live ever in the blight 
under the winter moon's cold light, lost in loneliness, hate, and 
fright, last night, tonight, tomorrow night under the winter moon's 
bleak light? 

The Book of Counted Sorrows CHAPTER FOURTEEN. 
In the distant age of the dinosaurs, fearful creatures as mighty as the 
Tyrannosaurus rex had perished in treacherous tar pits upon which the 
visionary builders of Los Angeles later erected freeways, shopping 
centers, houses, office buildings, theaters, topless bars, restaurants 
shaped like hot dogs and derby hats, churches, automated car washes, 
and so much more. Deep beneath parts of the metropolis, those 
fossilized monsters lay in eternal sleep. Through September and 
October, Jack felt the city was still a pit in which he was mired. 

He believed he was obligated to give Lyle Crawford a thirty-day 
notice. 

And at the advice of their Realtor, before listing the house for sale, 
they painted it inside and out, installed new carpet, and made minor 
repairs. The moment Jack made the decision to leave the city, he'd 
mentally packed and decamped. Now his heart was in the Montana 
highlands east of the Rockies, while he was still trying to pull his 
feet out of the L. A. tar. Because they no longer needed every dollar 
of equity in the house, they priced it below market value. In spite of 
poor economic conditions, it moved quickly. By the twenty-eighth of 
October, they were in a sixty-day escrow with a buyer who appeared 
qualified, and they felt reasonably confident about embarking upon a 
new life and leaving the finalization of the sale to their Realtor. On 
November fourth, they set out for their new home in a Ford Explorer 
purchased with some of their inheritance. Jack insisted on leaving at 
six in the morning, determined that his last day in the city would not 
include the frustrating crawl of rush-hour traffic. They took only 
suitcases and a few boxes of personal effects, and shipped little more 
than books. Additional photographs sent by Paul Youngblood had 
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revealed that their new house was already furnished in a style to which 
they could easily adjust. 

They might have to replace a few upholstered pieces, but many items 
were antiques of high quality and considerable beauty. Departing the 
city on Interstate 5, they never looked back as they crested the 
Hollywood Hills and went north past Burbank, San Fernando, Valencia, 
Castaic far out of the suburbs, into the Angeles National Forest across 
Pyramid Lake, and up through the Tejon Pass between the Sierra Madre 
and the Tehachapi Mountains. Mile by mile, Jack felt himself rising 
out of an emotional and mental darkness. He was like a swimmer who had 
been weighed down with iron shackles and blocks, drowning in oceanic 
depths, now freed and soaring toward the surface, light, air. Toby was 
amazed by the vast farmlands flanking the highway, so Heather quoted 
figures from a travel book. The San Joaquin Valley was more than a 
hundred fifty miles long, defined by the Diablo Range on the west and 
Sierra foothills to the distant east. Those thousands of square miles 
were the most fertile in the world, producing eighty percent of the 
entire country's fresh vegetables and melons, half its fresh fruit and 
almonds, and much more. 

They stopped at a roadside produce stand and bought a one-pound bag of 
roasted almonds for a quarter of what the cost would have been in a 
supermarket. Jack stood beside the Explorer, eating a handful of nuts, 
staring at vistas of productive fields and orchards. The day was 
blessedly quiet, and the air was clean. ..-Residing in the city, it 
was easy to forget there were other ways to live, worlds beyond the 
teeming streets of the human hive. He was a sleeper waking to a real 
world more diverse and interesting than the dream he had mistaken for 
reality. In pursuit of their new life, they reached Reno that night, 
Salt Lake City the next, and Eagle's Roost, Montana, at three o'clock 
in the afternoon on the sixth of .. November. 

To Kill a Mockingbird was one of Jack's favorite novels, and Atticus 
Finch, the courageous lawyer of that book, would have been at home in 
Paul Youngblood's office on the top floor of the only three-story 
building in Eagle's Roost. The wooden blinds surely dated from 
mid-century. The mahogany wainscoting, bookshelves, and cabinets were 
glass-smooth from decades of hand polishing. The room had an air of 
gentility, a learned quietude, and the shelves held volumes of history 
and philosophy as well as lawbooks. 

The attorney actually greeted them with, "Howdy, neighbors! What a 
pleasure this is, a genuine pleasure." He had a firm handshake and a 
smile like soft sunshine on mountain crags. 

Paul Youngblood would never have been recognized as a lawyer in L. A. and 
he might have been removed discreetly but forcefully if he had ever 
visited the swanky offices of the powerhouse firms quartered in Century 
City. He was fifty, tall, lanky, with closecropped iron-gray hair. 

His face was creased and ruddy from years spent outdoors, and his big, 
leathery hands were scarred by physical labor. He wore scuffed boots, 
tan jeans, a white shirt, and a bolo tie with a silver clasp in the 
form of a bucking bronco. 

In L. A. people in similar outfits were dentists or accountants or 
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executives, costumed for an evening at a Country-Western bar, and could 
not disguise their true nature. But Youngblood looked as if he had 
been born in Western garb, birthed between a cactus and a campfire, and 
raised on horseback. 

Although he appeared to be rough enough to walk into a biker bar and 
take on a mob of machine wranglers, the attorney was soft-spoken and so 
polite that Jack was aware of how badly his own manners had 
deteriorated under the constant abrasion of daily life in the city. 

Youngblood won Toby's heart by calling him 
"Scout" and offering to 
teach him horseback riding "come spring, starting with a pony, of 
course . . . and assuming that's okay with your folks." 

When the lawyer put on a suede jacket and a cowboy hat before leading 
them out to Quartermass Ranch, Toby regarded him with wide-eyed awe. 

They followed Youngblood's white Bronco across sixteen miles of country 
more beautiful than it had appeared to be in photographs. Two stone 
columns, surmounted by a weathered wooden arch, marked the entrance to 
their property. Burned into the arch, rustic lettering spelled 
QUARTERMASS RANCH. They turned off the county route, under the sign, 
and headed uphill. 

Wow! This all belongs to us?" Toby asked from the back seat, 
enraptured by the sprawl of fields and forests. Before either Jack or 
Heather could answer him, he posed the question that he no doubt had 
been wanting to ask for weeks: "Can I have a dog?" 

"Just a dog?" Jack asked. "Huh?" 
"With this much land, you could have a pet cow." Toby laughed. "Cows 
aren't pets." 

"You're wrong," Jack said, striving for a serious tone. "They're 
darned good pets." 

"Cows!" Toby said incredulously. "No, really. You can teach a cow to 
fetch, roll over, beg for its dinner, shake hands, all the usual dog 
stuff--plus they make milk for your breakfast cereal." 

"You're putting me on. Mom, is he serious?" 
"The only problem is," Heather said, "you might get a cow that likes to 
chase cars--in which case it can do a lot more damage than a dog." 

"That's silly," the boy said, and giggled. "Not if you're in the car 
being chased," Heather assured him. "Then it's terrifying," Jack 
agreed. "I'll stick with a dog." 

"Well, if that's what you want," Jack said. "You mean it? I can have 
a dog?" Heather said, "I don't see why not." Toby whooped with 
delight. 

The private lane led to the main residence, which overlooked a meadow 
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of golden-brown grass. In the last hour of its journey toward the 
western mountains, the sun backlit the property, and the house cast a 
long purple shadow. They parked in that shade behind Paul Youngblood's 
Bronco. 

They began their tour in the basement. Although windowless and 
entirely beneath ground level, it was cold. The first room contained a 
washer, a dryer, a double sink, and a set of pine cabinets. The 
corners of the ceiling were enlivened by the architecture of spiders 
and a few cocooning moths. In the second room stood an electric 
forced-air furnace and a water heater. A Japanese-made electric 
generator, as large as a washing machine, was also provided. It looked 
capable of producing enough power to light a small town. 

"Why do we need this?" Jack wondered, indicating the generator. Paul 
Youngblood said, "Bad storm can knock out the public power supply for a 
couple of days in some of these rural areas. Since we don't have 
natural-gas service, and the price of being supplied by a fuel-oil 
company in this territory can be high, we have to rely on electricity 
for heating, cooking, everything. It goes out, we have fireplaces, but 
that's not ideal. And Stan Quartermass was a man who never wanted to 
be without the comforts of civilization." 

"But this is a monster," Jack said, patting the dustsheathed 
generator. 

"Supplies the main house, caretaker's house, and the stables. Doesn't 
just provide backup power to run a few lights, either. As long as 
you've got gasoline, you can go on living with all the amenities, just 
as if you were still on public power." 

"Might be fun to rough it a couple of days now and then," Jack 
suggested. The attorney frowned and shook his head. "Not when the 
real temperature is below zero and the windchill factor pushes it down 
to minus thirty or forty degrees." 

"Ouch," Heather said. She hugged herself at the very thought of such 
arctic cold. "I'd call that more than roughing it," 
" Youngblood Jack 
agreed. "I'd call it suicide." I'll make sure we have a good gasoline 
supply. 

The thermostat had been set low in the two main floors of the 
untenanted house. 

A stubborn chill pooled everywhere, like the icy remnant of a flood 
tide. It surrendered gradually to the electric heat, which Paul 
switched on after they ascended from the basement and inspected half 
the ground floor. In spite of her insulated ski jacket, Heather 
shivered through the entire tour. The house had both character and 
every convenience, and would be even easier to settle into than they'd 
expected. Eduardo Fernandez's personal effects and clothing had not 
been disposed of, so they would need to empty closets to make room for 
their own things. In the four months since the old man's sudden death, 
the place had been closed and unattended, a thin layer of dust coated 
every surface. However, Eduardo had led a neat and orderly life, there 
was no great mess with which to deal. 
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In the final bedroom on the second floor, at the back of the house, 
coppery late-afternoon sunlight slanted through west-facing windows, 
and the air glowed like that in front of an open furnace door. It was 
light without heat, and still Heather shivered. 

Toby said, "This is great, this is terrific!" The room was more than 
twice the size of the one in which the boy had slept in Los Angeles, 
but Heather knew he was less excited by the dimensions than by the 
almost whimsical architecture, which would have sparked the imagination 
of any child. The twelve-foot-high ceiling was composed of four groin 
vaults, and the shadows that lay across those concave surfaces were 
complex and intriguing. "Neat," Toby said, staring up at the 
ceiling. 

"Like hanging under a parachute." In the wall to the left of the hall 
door was a four-footdeep, six-foot-long, arched niche into which a 
custom-built bed had been fitted. Behind the headboard on the left and 
in the back wall of the niche were recessed bookshelves and deep 
cabinets for the storage of model spaceships, action figures, games, 
and the other possessions that a young boy cherished. Curtains were 
drawn back from both sides of the niche and, when closed, could seal it 
off like a berth on an old-fashioned railroad sleeping car. 

"Can this be my room, can it, please?" Toby asked. "Looks to me like 
it was made for you," Jack said. "Great!" Opening one of the two 
other doors in the room, Paul said, "This walk-in closet is so deep you 
could almost say it's a room itself." 

The last door revealed the head of an uncarpeted staircase as tightly 
curved as that in a lighthouse. The wooden treads squeaked as the four 
of them descended. 

Heather instantly disliked the stairs. Perhaps she was somewhat 
claustrophobic in that cramped and windowless space, following Paul 
Youngblood and Toby, with Jack close behind. Perhaps the inadequate 
lighting--two widely spaced, bare bulbs in the ceiling--made her 
uneasy. A mustiness and a vague underlying odor of decay didn't add 
any charm. Neither did spiderwebs hung with dead moths and beetles. 

Whatever the reason, her heart began to pound as if they were climbing 
rather than descending. She was overcome by the bizarre fear--similar 
to the nameless dread in a nightmare--that something hostile and 
infinitely strange was waiting for them below. 

The last step brought them into a windowless vestibule, where Paul had 
to use a key to unlock the first of two lower doors. "Kitchen," he 
said. Nothing fearful waited beyond, merely the room he had 
indicated. 

"We'll go this way," he said, turning to the second door, which didn't 
require a key from the inside. When the thumb-turn on the dead-bolt 
lock proved stiff from lack of use, the few seconds of delay were 
almost more than Heather could tolerate. Now she was convinced that 
something was coming down the steps behind them, the murderous phantom 
of a bad dream. She wanted out of that narrow place immediately, 
desperately. 
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The door creaked open. They followed Paul through the second exit onto 
the back porch. They were twelve feet to the left of the house's main 
rear entrance, which led into the kitchen. Heather took several deep 
breaths, purging her lungs of the contaminated air from the 
stairwell. 

Her fear swiftly abated and her racing heart regained a normal pace. 
She looked back into the vestibule where the steps curved upward out of 
sight. Of course no denizen of a nightmare appeared, and her moment of 
panic seemed more foolish and inexplicable by the second. 

Jack, unaware of Heather's inner turmoil, put one hand on Toby's head 
and said, "Well, if that's going to be your room, I don't want to catch 
you sneaking girls up the back steps." 

"Girls?" Toby was astonished. "Yuck. Why would l want to have 
anything to do with girls?" 

"I suspect you figure that one out all on your own, given a little 
time," the attorney said, amused. "And too fast," Jack said. 

"Five years from now, we'll have to fill those stairs with concrete, 
seal them off forever." 

Heather found the will to turn her back on the door as the attorney 
closed it. 

She was baffled by the episode, and relieved that no one had been aware 
of her odd reaction. Los Angeles jitters. She hadn't shed the city. 

She was in rural Montana, where there probably hadn't been a murder in 
a decade, where most people left doors unlocked day and night--but 
psychologically, she remained in the shadow of the Big Orange, living 
conscious anticipation of sudden, senseless violence. Just a 
delayed case of Los Angeles jitters. "Better show you the rest of the 
property," Paul said." 

"We don't have much more than half an hour of day-light left." 
They followed him down the porch steps and up the sloping rear lawn 
toward a smaller, stone house tucked among the evergreens at the edge 
of the forest. 

Heather recognized it from the photographs Paul had sent: the 
caretaker's residence. As twilight stealthily approached, the sky far 
to the -east was a deep sapphire. It faded to a lighter blue in the 
west, where the sun hastened toward the mountains. The temperature had 
slipped out of the fifties. Heather walked with her hands jammed in 
jacket pockets and her shoulders hunched. She was pleased to see that 
Jack took the hill with vigor, not limping at all. 

Occasionally his left leg ached and he favored it, but not today. She 
found it hard to believe that only eight months ago, their lives seemed 
to have been changed for the worse, forever. No wonder she was still 
jumpy. Such a terrible eight months. But everything was fine now. 
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Really fine. 
The rear lawn hadn't been maintained after Eduardo's death. The grass 
had grown six or eight inches before the aridity of late summer and the 
chill of early autumn had turned it brown and pinched off its growth 
until spring. It crackled faintly under their feet. "Ed and Margaret 
moved out of the caretaker's house when they inherited the ranch eight 
years ago," Paul said as they drew near the stone bungalow. "Sold the 
contents, nailed plywood over the windows. Don't think anyone's been 
in there since. Unless you plan to have a caretaker yourself, you 
probably won't have a use for it, either. But you ought to take a look 
just the same." 

Pine trees crowded three sides of the smaller house. The forest was so 
primeval that darkness dwelt in much of it even before the sun had 
set. 

The bristling green of heavy boughs, enfolded with purple-black 
shadows, was a lovely sight--but those wooded realms had an air of 
mystery that Heather found disturbing, even a little menacing. For the 
first time she wondered what animals might from time to time venture 
out of those wilds into the yard. Wolves? Bears? 

Mountain lions? Was Toby safe here? Oh, for God's sake, Heather She 
was thinking like a city dweller, always wary of danger, perceiving 
threats everywhere. In fact, wild animals avoided people and ran if 
approached. What do you expect? she asked herself sarcastically. 

That you'll be barricaded in the house while gangs of bears hammer on 
the doors and packs of snarling wolves throw themselves through windows 
like something out of a bad TV movie about ecological disaster? 

Instead of a porch, the caretaker's house had a large flagstone-paved 
area in front of the entrance. They stood there while Paul found the 
right key on the ring he carried. The north-east-south panorama from 
the perimeter of the high woods was stunning, better even than from the 
main house. Like a landscape in a Maxfield Parrish painting, the 
descending fields and forests receded into a distant violet haze under 
a darkly luminous sapphire sky. The fading afternoon was windless, and 
the silence was so deep she might have thought she'd gone deaf--except 
for the clinking of the attorney's keys. After a life in the city, 
such quiet was eerie. 

The door opened with much cracking and scraping, as if an ancient seal 
had been broken. Paul stepped across the threshold, into the dark 
living room, and flicked the light switch. Heather heard it click 
several times, but the lights didn't come on. Stepping outside again, 
Paul said, "Figures. Ed must've shut off all the power at the breaker 
box. I know where it is. You wait here, I'll be right back." 

They stood at the front door, staring at the gloom beyond the 
threshold, while the attorney disappeared around the corner of the 
house. His departure made Heather apprehensive, though she wasn't sure 
why. Perhaps because he had gone alone. 

"When I get a dog, can he sleep in my room?" Toby asked. "Sure," Jack 
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said, "but not on the bed." 
"Not on the bed? Then where would he sleep?" 
"Dogs usually make do with the floor." 
"That's not fair." 
"You'll never hear a dog complain." 
"But why not on the bed?" 
"Fleas." 
"I'll take good care of him. He won't have fleas." 
"Dog hairs in the sheets." 
"That won't be a problem, Dad." 
"What--you're going to shave him, have a bald dog?" 
"I'll just brush him every day." 
Listening to her husband and son, Heather watched the corner of the 
house, increasingly certain that Paul Youngblood was never going to 
return. Something terrible had happened to him. Something--He 
reappeared. "All the breakers were off. We should be in business 
now." What's wrong with me? Heather wondered. Got to shake this damn 
L. A. attitude. 

Standing inside the front door, Paul flipped the wall switch 
repeatedly, without success. The dimly visible ceiling fixture in the 
empty living room remained dark. The carriage lamp outside, next to 
the door, didn't come on, either. 

"Maybe he had electric service discontinued," Jack suggested. The 
attorney shook his head. "Don't see how that could be. This is on the 
same line as the main house and the stable." 

"Bulbs might be dead, sockets corroded after all this me." '-Pushing 
his cowboy hat back on his head, scratching his brow, frowning, Paul 
said, "Not like Ed to let things deteriorate. I'd expect him to do 
routine maintenance, keep the place in good working order in case the 
next owner had a need for it. That's just how he was. Good man, Ed. 

Not much of a socializer, but a good man." 
"Well," Heather said, "we can investigate the problem in a couple of 
days, once we're settled down at the main place." Paul retreated from 
the house, pulled the door shut, and locked it. "You might want to 
have an electrician out to check the wiring." 

Instead of returning the way they had come, they angled across the 
sloping yard toward the stable, which stood on more level land to the 
south of the main house. Toby ran ahead, arms out at his sides, making 
a brrrrrrrrrrr noise with his lips, pretending to be an airplane. 
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Heather glanced back at the caretaker's bungalow a couple of times, and 
at the woods on both sides of it. She had a peculiar tingly feeling on 
the back of her neck. 

"Pretty cold for the beginning of November," Jack said. The attorney 
laughed. 

"This isn't southern California, I'm afraid. Actually, it's been a 
mild day. 

Temperature's probably going to drop well below freezing tonight." 
"You get much snow up here?" 
"Does hell get many sinners?" 
"When can we expect the first snow--before Christmas?" 
"Way before Christmas, Jack. If we had a big storm tomorrow, nobody'd 
think it was an early season." 

"That's why we got the Explorer," Heather said. "Four-wheel drive. 
That should get us around all winter, shouldn't it?" 
"Mostly, yeah," Paul said, pulling down on the brim of his hat, which 
he had pushed up earlier to scratch his forehead. 

Toby had reached the stable. Short legs pumping, he vanished around 
the side before Heather could call out to him to wait. Paul said, "But 
every winter there's one or two times where you're going to be 
snowbound a day or three, drifts half over the house sometimes." 

"Snowbound? Half over the house?" Jack said, sounding a little like a 
kid himself. "Really?" 

"Get one of those blizzards coming down out of the Rockies, it can drop 
two or three feet of snow in twenty-four hours. Winds like to peel 
your skin off. County crews can't keep the roads open all at once. 

You have chains for that Explorer?" 
"A couple of sets," Jack said. 
Heather walked faster toward the stable, hoping the men would pick up 
their pace to accompany her, which they did. Toby was still out of 
sight. "What you should also get," Paul told them, "soon as you can, 
is a good plow for the front of it. 

Even if county crews get the roads open, you have half a mile of 
private lane to take care of." 

If the boy was just "flying" around the stable, with his arms spread 
like wings, he should have reappeared -by now. "Lex Parker's garage," 
Paul continued, "in town, can fit your truck with the armatures, attach 
the plow, hydraulic arms to raise and lower it, a real fine rig. Just 
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-leave it on all winter, remove it in the spring, and you'll be ready 
for however much butt kicking Mother Nature has in store for us." 

No sign of Toby. Heather's heart was pounding again. The sun was 
about to set. 

If Toby ... if he got lost or ... or something ... they would have a 
harder time finding him at night. She restrained herself from breaking 
into a run. "Now, last winter," Paul continued smoothly, unaware of 
her trepidation, "was on the dry side, which probably means we're going 
to take a shellacking this year." 

As they reached the stable and as Heather was about to cry out for 
Toby, he reappeared. He was no longer playing airplane. He sprinted 
to her side through the unmown grass, grinning and excited. "Mom, this 
place is neat, really neat. 

Maybe I can really have a pony, huh?" 
"Maybe," Heather said, swallowing hard before she could get the word 
out. "Don't go running off like that, okay?" 

"Why not?" 
"Just don't." 
"Sure, okay," Toby said. He was a good boy. 
She glanced back toward the caretaker's house and the wilderness 
beyond. Perched on the jagged peaks of the mountains, the sun seemed 
to quiver like a raw egg yolk just before dissolving around the tines 
of a prodding fork. The highest pinnacles of rock were gray and black 
and pink in the fiery light of day's end. 

Miles of serried forests shelved down to the fieldstone bungalow. All 
was still and peaceful. The stable was a single-story fieldstone 
building with a slate roof. The long side walls had no exterior stall 
doors, only small windows high under the eaves. There was a white barn 
door on the end, which rolled open easily when Paul tried it, and the 
electric lights came on with the first flip of a switch. "As you can 
see," the attorney said as he led them inside, "it was every inch a 
gentleman's ranch, not a spread that had to show a profit in any 
way." 

Beyond the concrete threshold, which was flush with the ground, the 
stable floor was composed of soft, tamped earth, as pale as sand. Five 
empty stalls with half-doors stood to each side of the wide center 
promenade, more spacious than ordinary barn stalls. On the twelve-inch 
wooden posts between stalls were castbronze sconces that threw amber 
light toward both the ceiling and the floor, they were needed because 
the high-set windows were too small--each about eight inches high by 
eighteen long--to admit much sunlight even at high noon. "Stan 
Quartermass kept this place heated in winter, cooled in the summer," 
Paul Youngblood said. He pointed to vent grilles set in the suspended 
tongue-and-groove ceiling. "Seldom smelled like a stable, either, 
because he vented it continuously, pumped fresh air in. And all the 
ductwork is heavily insulated, so the sound of the fans is too low to 
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bother horses." 
On the left, beyond the final stall, was a large tackroom, where 
saddles, bridles, and other equipment had been kept. It was empty 
except for a built-in sink as -long and deep as a trough. To the 
right, opposite the tackroom, were top-access bins where oats, apples, 
and other feed had been stored, but they were now all empty as well. 

On the wall near the bins, several tools were racked business end up: a 
pitchfork, two shovels, and a rake. 

"Smoke alarm," Paul said, pointing to a device attached to the header 
above the big door that was opposite the one by which they had 
entered. 

"Wired into the electrical system. You can't make the mistake of 
letting batteries go dead. It sounds in the house, so Stan wouldn't 
have to worry about not hearing it." 

"The guy sure loved his horses," Jack said. "Oh, he sure did, and he 
had more Hollywood money than he knew what to do with. After Stan 
died, Ed took special pains to be sure the people who bought all the 
animals would treat them well. 

Stan was a nice man. Seemed only right." the lights. "Name's Lester 
Steer, and he owns the Main itreet Diner in town." 

"He's a man!" 
"Well, of course he's a man," Paul said, rolling the door shut. 
"Never said he wasn't." The attorney winked at Heather, and she 
realized how much she had come to like him in such a short time. "Oh, 
you're tricky," Toby told Paul. "Dad, he's tricky" 

"Not me," Paul 
said. "I only told you the truth, Scout. You tricked yourself." 

-" Paul is an attorney, son," Jack said. 
"You've always of to be careful of attorneys, or you'll end up with no 
ponies or cows." Paul laughed. "Listen to your dad. He's wise. Very 
wise." 

Only an orange rind of sun remained in view, and in seconds, the 
irregular blade of mountain peaks peeled it away. Shadows spread 
toward one another. The somber twilight, all deep blues and funereal 
purples, hinted at 

"I could have ten ponies," Toby said. "Wrong," 
Heather said. "Whatever business we decide to get into, it won't be a 
manure factory." 

"Well, I just mean, there's room," the boy said. "A dog, ten ponies," 
Jack said. "You're turning into a real farm boy. 

What's next? Chickens?" 
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"A cow," Toby said. "I been thinking what you said about cows, and you 
talked me into it." 

"Wiseass," Jack said, taking a playful swipe at the boy. Dodging 
successfully, laughing, Toby said, "Like father, like son. 

Mr. Youngblood, did you know my dad says cows can do any tricks dogs 
can do--roll over and play dead and all that?" 

"Well," the attorney replied, leading them back through the stable 
toward the door by which they'd entered, "I know a steer that can walk 
on his hind feet." 

"Really?" 
"More than that. He can do math as well as you or me." The claim was 
made with such calm conviction that the boy looked up wide-eyed at 
Youngblood. "You mean, like you ask him a problem, he can pound out 
the answer with his hoof?" 

"He could do that, sure. Or just tell you the answer." 
"Huh?" 
"This steer, he can talk." 
"No way," Toby said, following Jack and Heather outside. "Sure. He 
can talk, dance, drive a car, and he goes to church every Sunday," Paul 
said, switching off the stae unrelenting darkness of night in that 
largely unplowed vastness. Looking directly upslope from the stable, 
toward a knoll at the terminus of the western woods, Paul said, "No 
point showing you the cemetery in this poor light. Not that much to 
see even at noon." 

"Cemetery?" Jack said, frowning. "You've got a state-certified 
private cemetery on your grounds," the attorney said. "Twelve plots, 
though only four have been used." Staring toward the knoll, where she 
could vaguely see part of what might have been a low stone wall and a 
pair of gateposts in the plum-dark light, Heather said, "Who's buried 
there?" 

"Stan Quartermass, Ed Fernandez, Margaret, and Tommy." 
"Tommy, my old partner, he's buried up there?" Jack asked. "Private 
cemetery," Heather said. She told herself that the only reason she 
shivered was because the air was growing colder by the minute. "That's 
a little macabre." 

"Not so strange around here," Paul assured her. "A lot of these 
ranches, the same family has been on the land for generations. It's 
not only their home, it's their hometown, the only place they love. 

Eagle's Roost is JUST somewhere to shop. When it comes to being put to 
eternal rest, they want to be part of the land they've given their 
lives to." 
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"Wow," Toby said. "How cool can you get? We live in a graveyard." 
"Hardly that," Paul said. "My grandfolks and my parents are buried 
over to our place, and there's really nothing creepy about it. 

Comforting. Gives you a sense of hentage, continuity. Carolyn and I 
figure to be put to rest there too, though I can't say what our kids 
want to do, now they're off in medical school and law school making new 
lives that don't have anything to do with the ranch." 

"Darn it, we just missed Halloween," Toby said, more to himself than to 
them. He stared toward the cemetery, caught up in a personal fantasy 
that no doubt involved the challenge of walking through a graveyard on 
All Hallows' Eve. They stood quietly for a moment. 

The dusk was heavy, silent, still. Uphill, the cemetery seemed to cast 
off the fading light and pull the night down like a shroud, covering 
it-self with darkness faster than any of the land around it. Heather 
glanced at Jack to see if he showed any sign of being troubled by 
having Tommy Fernandez's remains buried nearby. Tommy had died at his 
side, after 11, eleven months before Luther Bryson had been shot. 

With Tommy's grave so close, Jack couldn't help but recall, perhaps too 
vividly, violent events best condemmed forever to the deeper vaults of 
memory. As if sensing her concern, Jack smiled. "Makes me feel better 
to know Tommy found rest in a place as beautiful as this." 

As they walked back to the house, the attorney invited them to dinner 
and to stay overnight with him and his wife. "One, you arrived too 
late today to get the place cleaned and livable. Two, you don't have 
any fresh food here, only what might be in the freezer. And three, you 
don't want to have to cook after putting in a long day on the road. 

Why not relax this evening, get a start on it first thing in the 
morning, when you're rested?" 

Heather was grateful for the invitation, not merely for the reasons 
Paul had enumerated but because she remained uneasy about the house and 
the isolation in which it stood. She had decided that her jumpiness 
was nothing other than a city person's initial response to more wide 
open spaces than she'd ever seen or contemplated before. A mild phobic 
reaction. Temporary agoraphobia. 

It would pass. She simply needed a day or two--perhaps only a few 
hours--to acclimate herself to this new landscape and way of life. An 
evening with Paul Youngblood and his wife might be just the right 
medicine. 

After setting the thermostats throughout the house, even in the 
basement, to be sure it would be warm in the morning, they locked up, 
got in the Explorer, and followed Paul's Bronco to the county road. He 
turned east toward town, and so did they. 

The brief twilight had vanished under the falling wall of night. The 
moon had not yet risen. The darkness on all sides was so deep that it 
seemed as if it could never be banished again even by the ascension of 
the sun. The Youngblood ranch was named after the predominant tree 
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within its boundaries. Spotlights at each end of the overhead entrance 
sign were directed inward to reveal green letters on a white 
background: PONDEROSA PINES. Under those two words, in small letters: 
Paul and Carolyn Youngblood. 

The attorney's spread, a working ranch, was considerably larger than 
their own. 

On both sides of the entrance lane, which was even longer than the one 
at Quartermass Ranch, lay extensive complexes of whitetrimmed red 
stables, riding rings, exercise yards, and fenced pastures. The 
buildings were illuminated by the pearly glow of low-voltage 
night-lights. White fences divided the rising meadows: dimly 
phosphorescent geometric patterns that dwindled into the darkness, like 
lines of inscrutable hieroglyphics on tomb walls. The main house, in 
front of which they parked, was a large, low ranch-style building of 
river rock and darkly stained pine. It seemed to be an almost organic 
extension of the land. 

As he walked with them to the house, Paul answered Jack's question 
about the business of Ponderosa Pines. "We have two basic enterprises, 
actually. We raise and race quarter horses, which is a popular sport 
throughout the West, from New Mexico to the Canadian border. Then we 
also breed and sell several types of show horses that never go out of 
style, mostly Arabians. We have one of the finest Arabian bloodlines 
in the country, specimens so perfect and pretty they can break your 
heart--or make you pull out your wallet if you're obsessed with the 
breed." 

"No cows?" Toby said as they reached the foot of the steps that led up 
to the long, deep veranda at the front of the house. "Sorry, Scout, no 
cows," the attorney said. "Lots of ranches round here have cattle, but 
not us. However, we do have our share of cowboys." He pointed to a 
cluster of lighted bungalows approximately a hundred twenty yards to 
the east of the house. "Eighteen wranglers currently live here on the 
ranch, with their wives if they're married. 

A little town of our own, sort of." 
"Cowboys," Toby said in the awed tone of voice with which he had spoken 
of the private graveyard and of the prospect of having a pony. Montana 
was proving to be as exotic to him as any distant planet in the comic 
books and science fiction movies he liked. "Real cowboys." 

Carolyn Youngblood greeted them at the door and warmly welcomed them. 
To be the mother of Paul's children, she must have been his age, fifty, 
but she looked and acted younger. She wore tight jeans and a 
decoratively stitched red-and-white Western shirt, revealing the lean, 
limber figure of an athletic thirty-year-old. 

Her snowy hair--cut short in an easy-care gamine style--wasn't brittle, 
as white hair often was, but thick and soft and lustrous. Her face was 
far less lined than Paul's, and her skin was silk-smooth. Heather 
decided that if this was what life in the ranch country of Montana 
could do for a woman, she could overcome any aversion to the 
unnervingly large open spaces, to the immensity of the night, to the 
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spookiness of the woods, and even to the novel experience of having 
four corpses interred in a far corner of her backyard. 

After dinner, when Jack and Paul were alone for a few minutes in the 
study, each of them with a glass of port, looking at the many framed 
photographs of prize-winning horses that nearly covered one of the 
knottypine walls, the attorney suddenly changed the subject from 
equestrian bloodlines and quarter-horse champions to Quatermass 
Ranch. 

"I'm sure you folks are going to be happy there, Jack." 
"I think so too." 
"It's a great place for a boy like Toby to grow up." 
"A dog, a pony--it's like a dream come true for him." 
"Beautiful land." 
"So peaceful compared to L. A. Hell, there's no comparison." Paul 
opened his mouth to say something, hesitated, and looked instead at the 
horse photo with which he'd inoken off his colorful account of 
Ponderosa Pines' racng triumphs. When the attorney did speak, Jack had 
the feeling that what he said was not what he had been out to say 
before the hesitation. "And though we aren't spitting-distance 
neighbors, Jack, I hope we'll be close in other ways, get to know each 
other well." 

"I'd like that." The attorney hesitated again, sipping from his glass 
of port to cover his indecision. 

After tasting his own port, Jack said, "Something wrong, Paul?" 
"No, not wrong ... just ... What makes you say that?" 
"I was a cop for a long time. I have a sort of sixth sense about 
people holding back something." 

"Guess you do. You'll probably be a good businessman when you decide 
what it is you want to get into." 

"So what's up?" Sighing, Paul sat on a corner of his large desk. 
"Didn't even know if I should mention this, cause I don't want you to 
be concerned about it, don't think there's really any reason to be." 

"Yes?" 
"It was a heart attack killed Ed Fernandez, like I told you. Massive 
heart attack took him down as sudden and complete as a bullet in the 
head. Coroner couldn't find anything else, only the heart." 

"Coroner? Are you saying an autopsy was performed?" 
"Yeah, sure was," Paul said, and sipped his port. Jack was certain 
that in Montana, as in California, autopsies were not performed every 
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time someone died especially not when the decedent was a man of Eduardo 
Fernandez's age and all but certain to have expired of natural 
causes. 

The old man would have been cut open only under special circumstances, 
primarily if visible trauma indicated the possibility of death at the 
hands of another. "But you said the coroner couldn't find anything but 
a damaged heart, no wounds." 

Staring at the glimmering surface of the port in his glass, the 
attorney said, "Ed's body was found across the tbreshold between his 
kitchen and the back porch, lying on his right side, blocking the door 
open. He was clutching a shotgun with both hands." 

"Ah. Could be suspicious enough circumstances to justify an autopsy. 
Or it could be he was just going out to do some hunting." 
"Wasn't hunting season." 
"You telling me a little poaching is unheard of in these parts, 
especially when a man's hunting out of season on his own land?" 

The attorney shook his head. "Not at all. But Ed wasn't a hunter. 
Never had been." 
"You sure?" 
"Yeah. Stan Quartermass was the hunter, and Ed just -inherited the 
guns. And another odd thing--wasn't just a full magazine in that 
shotgun. He'd also pumped an extra round into the breach. No hunter 
with half a brain would traipse around with a shell ready to go. He 
trips nd falls, he might blow off his own head." 

"Doesn't make sense to carry it in the house that way, either." 
"Unless," Paul said, "there was some immediate threat." 
"You mean, like an intruder or prowler." 
"Maybe. Though that's rarer than steak tartare in these parts." 
"Any signs of burglary, house ransacked?" 
"No. Nothing at all like that." 
"Who found the body?" 
"Travis Potter, veterinarian from Eagle's Roost. 
Which brings up another oddity. June tenth, more than three weeks 
before he died, Ed took some dead raccoons to Travis, asked him to 
examine them." The attorney told Jack as much about the raccoons as 
Eduardo had told Potter, then explained Potter's findings. 

"Brain swelling?" Jack asked uneasily. "But no sign of infection, no 
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disease," Paul reassured him. "Travis asked Ed to keep a lookout for 
other animals acting peculiar. Then . . . when they talked again, on 
June seventeenth, he had the feeling Ed had seen something more but was 
holding out on him." 

"Why would he hold out on Potter? Fernandez was the one who got Potter 
involved in the first place." The attorney shrugged. "Anyway, on the 
morning of July sixth, Travis was still curious, so he went out to 
Quartermass Ranch to talk to Ed--and found his body instead. Coroner 
says Ed had been dead no less than twenty-four hours, probably no more 
than thirty-six." 

Jack paced along the wall of horse photographs and along another wall 
of bookshelves and then back again. slowly turning the glass of port 
around in his hand. "So you think--what? Fernandez saw some animal 
behaving really strangely, doing something that spooked him enough to 
go load up the shotgun?" 

"Maybe." 
"Could he have been going outside to shoot this animal because it was 
acting rabid or crazy in some other way?" 

"That's occurred to us, yes. And maybe he was so worked up, so 
excited, that's what brought on the heart attack." At the study 
window, Jack stared at the lights of the cowboys' bungalows, which were 
unable to press back the densely clotted night. He finished the 
port. 

"I assume, from what you've said, Fernandez wasn't a particularly 
excitable man, not an hysteric." 

"The opposite. Ed was about as excitable as a tree stump." 
Turning away from the window, Jack said, "So then what could he have 
seen that would've gotten his heart pumping so hard? How bizarre would 
an animal have had to be acting--how much of a threat would it have to 
be seemed--before Fernandez would have worked himself up to a heart 
attack?" 

"There you put your finger on it," the attorney said, finishing his own 
port. 

"Just doesn't make sense." 
"Seems like we have a mystery here." 
"Fortunate that you were a detective." 
"Not me. I was a patrol officer." 
"Well, now you've been promoted by circumstances." 
Paul got up from the corner of his desk. "Listen, I'm sure there's 
nothing to be worried about. We know those raccoons weren't 
diseased. 
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And there's probably a reasonable explanation for what Ed was going to 
do with that gun. This is peaceful country. Damned if I can see what 
kind of danger could be out there." 

"I suspect you're right," Jack agreed. "I brought it up only because 
. . well, it seemed odd. I thought if you did see something peculiar, 
you ought to know not just to dismiss it. Call Travis. Or me." Jack 
put his empty glass on the desk beside Paul's. 

Y'll do that. Meanwhile . . . I'd appreciate if you didn't -mention 
this to Heather. We've had a real bad year down there in L. A. This is 
a new start for us in a lot of ways, and I don't want a shadow on it. 

We're a little shaky. We need this to work, need to stay positive." 
That's why I chose this moment to tell you." 
"Thanks, Paul." 
"And don't you worry about it." 
"I won't." 
"" Cause I'm sure there's nothing to it. Just one of life's many little 
mysteries. People new to this country sometimes get the heebie jeebies 
cause of all the ope space, the wilderness. I don't mean to get you on 
edge 

"Don't worry," Jack assured him. "After you've played bullet 
billiards with some of the crazies loose in L A there's nothing any 
raccoon can do to spoil your CHAPTER FIFTEEN. 

During their first four days at Quartermass Ranch--Tuesday through 
Friday-Heather, Jack, and Toby cleaned the house from top to bottom. 

They wiped down walls and woodwork, polished furniture, vacuumed 
upholstery and carpets, washed all the dishes and utensils, put new 
shelf paper in the kitchen cabinets, disposed of Eduardo's clothes 
through a church in town that distributed to the needy, and in general 
made the place their own. They didn't intend to register Toby for 
school until the following week, giving him time to adjust to their new 
life. He was thrilled to be free while other boys his age were trapped 
in third-grade classrooms. 

On Wednesday the moving company arrived with the small shipment from 
Los Angeles: the rest of their clothes, their books, Heather's 
computers and related equipment, Toby's toys and games, and the other 
items they hadn't been willing to give away or sell. The presence of a 
greater number of their familiar possessions made the new house seem 
more like home. 

Although the days became chillier and more overcast as the week waned, 
Heather's mood remained bright and cheerful. She was not troubled by 
anxiety attacks like the one she'd experienced when Paul Youngblood had 
first shown them around the property Monday evening, day by day that 
paranoid episode faded from her thoughts. 
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She swept away spiderwebs and desiccated insect prey in the back 
stairs, washed the spiraling treads with pungent ammonia water, and rid 
that space of mustiness and the faint odor of decay. No uncanny 
feelings overcame her, and it was hard to believe that she'd felt a 
superstitious dread of the stairs when she'd first descended them 
behind Paul and Toby. 

From a few second-floor windows, she could see the graveyard on the 
knoll. It didn't strike her as macabre any longer, because of what 
Paul had said about ranchers' attachment to the land that had sustained 
their families for generations. In the dysfunctional family in which 
she'd been raised, and in Los Angeles, there had been so little 
tradition and such a weak sense of belonging anywhere or to anything 
that these ranchers' love of home seemed touching--even spiritually 
uplifting--rather than morbid or strange. 

Heather cleaned out the refrigerator too, and they filled it with 
healthy foods for quick breakfasts and lunches. The freezer 
compartment was already half filled with packaged dinners, but she 
delayed doing an inventory because more important tasks awaited her. 

Four evenings in a row, too weary from their chores to cook, they drove 
into Eagle's Roost to eat at the Main Street Diner, owned and operated 
by the steer that could drive a car and do math and dance. The food 
was first-rate country cooking. 

The sixteen-mile journey was insignificant. In southern California, a 
trip had been measured not by distance but by the length of time needed 
to complete it, and even a quick jaunt to the market, in city traffic, 
had required half an hour. A sixteen-mile drive from one point in L. A. 
to another could take an hour, two hours, or eternity, depending on 
traffic and the violent tendencies of other motorists. Who knew? 

However, they could routinely drive to Eagle's Roost in twenty or 
twenty-five minutes, which seemed like nothing. The perpetually 
uncrowded highways were exhilarating. 

Friday night, as on every night since they'd arrived in Montana, 
Heather fell asleep without difficulty. For the first time, however, 
her sleep was troubled.... in her dream, she was in a cold place 
blacker than a moonless and overcast night, blacker than a windowless 
room. She was feeling her way forward, as if she had been stricken 
blind, curious but at first unafraid. She was actually smiling, 
because she was convinced that something wonderful awaited her in a 
warm, welllighted place beyond the darkness. Treasure. Pleasure. 

Enlightenment, peace, joy, and transcendence waiting for her, if she 
could find her way. Sweet peace, freedom from fear, freedom forever, 
enlightenment, joy, pleasure more intense than any she had ever known, 
waiting, waiting. 

But she fumbled through the impenetrable darkness, feeling with hands 
extended in front of her, always moving in the wrong direction, turning 
this way and that, that way and this. Curiosity became overpowering 
desire. She wanted whatever lay beyond the wall of night, wanted it as 
badly as she had ever wanted anything in her life, more than food or 
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love or wealth or happiness, for it was all those things and more. 
Find the door, the door and the light beyond, the wonderful door, 
beautiful light, peace and joy, freedom and pleasure, release from 
sorrow. transformation, so close, achingly close, reach out, reach. 

Want became need, compulsion became obsession. She had to have 
whatever awaited hen -joy, peace, freedom--so she ran into the cloying 
blackness, heedless of danger, plunged forward, frantic to find the 
way, the path, the truth, the door, joy forever, no more fear of death, 
no fear of anything, paradise, sought it with increasing desperation, 
but ran always away from it instead. 

Now a voice called to her, strange and wordless, frightening but 
alluring, trying to show her the way, joy and peace and an end to all 
sadness. Just accept. Accept. It was reaching out for her, if only 
she would turn the right way, find it, touch it, embrace it. She 
stopped running. Abruptly she realized that she didn't have to seek 
the gift after all, for she was standing in Its presence, in the house 
of joy, the palace of peace, the kingdom of enlightenment. All that 
she had to do was let it in, open a door within herself and let it in, 
let it in, open herself to inconceivable joy, paradise, paradise, 
paradise, surrender to pleasure and happiness. She wanted it, she 
really did oh-so-eagerly want it, because life was hard when it didn't 
have to be But some stubborn part of her resisted the gift, some teful 
and proud part of her complex self. 

She sensed frustration of him who wished to give this gift, the iver in 
the darkness, felt frustration and maybe anger, she said, I'm sorry, 
I'm so sorry. 

Now the gift--joy, peace, love, pleasure--was thrust on her with 
tremendous force, brutal and unrelenting ressure, until she felt she 
would be crushed by it. The darkness around her acquired weight, as if 
she lay deep in a fathomless sea, though it was far heavier and 
thicker than water, surrounding her, smothing, crushing. Must submit, 
useless to resist, let it in, submission was peace, submission was joy, 
paradise, paradise. Refusal to submit would mean pain beyond anything 
she could imagine, despair and agony as only hose in hell knew it, so 
she must submit, open the door within herself, let it in, accept, be at 
peace. 

Hammering Dn her soul, ramming and pounding, fierce and irresistible 
hammering, hammering: Let it in, let it in, in, In. ... IT ... IN. 

Suddenly she found the secret door within herself, pathway to joy, gate 
to peace eternal. She seized the knob, twisted, heard the latch click, 
pulled inward, shaking with anticipation. Through the slowly widening 
crack: a glimpse of the Giver. 

Glistening and dark. Writhing and quick. Hiss of triumph. Coldness 
at the threshold. Slam the door, slam the door, slam the door, 
slamthedoor--.. 

Heather exploded from sleep, cast back the covers, rolled out of bed 
onto her feet in one fluid and frantic movement. Her booming heart 
kept knocking the breath out of her as she tried to inhale. A dream. 
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Only a dream. But no dream in her experience had ever been so 
intense. 

Maybe the thing beyond the door had followed her out of sleep into the 
real world. Crazy thought. Couldn't shake it. 

Wheezing thinly, she fumbled with the nightstand lamp, found the 
switch. The light revealed no nightmare creatures. Just Jack. Asleep 
on his stomach, head turned away from her, snoring softly. She managed 
to draw a breath, though her heart continued to pound. She was damp 
with sweat and couldn't stop shivering. 

Jesus. Not wanting to wake Jack, Heather switched off the lamp--and 
twitched as darkness fell around her. She sat on the edge of the bed, 
intending to perch there until her heart stopped racing and the shakes 
passed, then pull a robe over her pajamas and go downstairs to read 
until morning. According to the luminous green numbers on the digital 
alarm clock, it was 3: 09 A. M but she was not going to be able to get 
back to sleep. No way. She might be unable to sleep even tomorrow 
night. She remembered the glistening, writhing, half-seen presence on 
the threshold and the bitter cold that flowed from it. The touch of it 
was still within her, a lingering chill. Disgusting. She felt 
contaminated, dirty inside, where she could never wash the corruption 
away. 

Deciding that she needed a hot shower, she got up from the bed. 
Disgust swiftly ripened into nausea. In the dark bathroom she was 
racked by dry heaves at left a bitter taste. After turning on the 
light only enough to find the bottle of mouthwash, she rinsed away the 
bitterness. In the dark again, she repeatedly bathed her face in 
handfuls of cold water. She sat on the edge of the tub. She dried her 
face on a towel. As she waited for calm to return, she tried to figure 
out why a mere dream could have had such a powerful effect on her, but 
there was no understanding. 

In a few minutes, when she'd regained her composure, she quietly 
returned to the bedroom. Jack was still snoring softly. Her robe was 
draped over the back of a Queen Anne chair. She picked it up, slipped 
out of the room, and eased the door shut behind her. 

In the hall, she pulled on the robe and belted it. Although she'd 
intended to go downstairs, brew a pot of coffee, and read, she turned 
instead toward Toby's room at the end of the hall. Try as she might, 
Heather was unable to extinguish completely the fear from the 
nightmare, and her simmering anxiety began to focus on her son. 

Toby's door was ajar, and his room was not entirely -dark Since moving 
to the ranch, he had chosen to sleep with a night-light again, although 
he had given up that security a year ago. Heather and Jack were 
surprised but not particularly concerned by the boy's loss of 
confidence. They assumed, once he adjusted to his surroundings he 
would again prefer darkness to the red glow of the low-wattage bulb 
that was plugged into a wall socket near the floor. 

Toby was tucked under his covers, only his head exposed on the 
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pillow. 
His breathing was so shallow that to hear it, Heather had to bend close 
to him. 

Nothing in the room was other than it ought to have been, but she 
hesitated to leave. Mild apprehension continued to tug at her. 

Finally, as Heather reluctantly retreated to the open hall door, she 
heard a soft scrape that halted her. She turned to the bed, where Toby 
had not awakened, had not moved. 

Even as she glanced at her son, however, she realized that the noise 
had come from the back stairs. It had been the sly, stealthy scrape of 
something hard, perhaps a boot heel, dragged across a wooden 
step-recognizable because of the air space under each stair tread, 
which lent the sound a distinctive hollow quality. 

She was instantly afflicted by the same distress that she'd not felt 
while cleaning the stairs but that had plagued her on Monday when she'd 
followed Paul Youngblood and Toby down that curving well. The sweaty 
paranoid conviction that somebody--something?--was waiting around the 
next turn. Or descending behind them. An enemy possessed by a 
singular rage and capable of extreme violence. 

She stared at the closed door at the head of those stairs. It was 
painted white, but it reflected the red glow of the night-light and 
seemed almost to shimmer like a portal of fire. She waited for another 
sound. Toby sighed in his sleep. 

Just a sigh. Nothing more. Silence again. Heather supposed she could 
have been wrong, could have heard an innocent sound from 
outside--perhaps a night bird settling onto the roof with a rustle of 
feathers and a scratching of claws against shingles--and could have 
mistakenly transposed the noise to the stairwell. She was jumpy 
because of the nightmare. 

Her perceptions might not be entirely trustworthy. She certainly 
wanted to believe she had been wrong. Creak-creak. No mistaking it 
this time. The new sound was quieter than the first, but it definitely 
came from behind the door at the head of the back stairs. She 
remembered how some of the wooden treads creaked when she had first 
descended to the ground floor during the tour on Monday and how they 
groaned and complained when she had been cleaning them on Wednesday. 

She wanted to snatch Toby from the bed, take him out of the room, go 
quickly down the hall to the master bedroom, and wake Jack. However, 
she had never run from anything in her life. During the crises of the 
past eight months, she'd developed considerably more inner strength and 
self-confidence than ever before. Although the skin on the back of her 
neck tingled as if alive with crawling hairy spiders, she actually blushed at 
the mental image of herself fleeing like the frail-hearted damsel of a 
bad gothic-romance novel, spooked out of her wits by nothing more 
menacing than a strange sound. 

Instead, she went to the stairwell door. The dead-bolt lock was 
securely engaged. She put her left ear to the crack between door and 
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jamb. The faintest draft of cold air seeped through from the far side, 
but no sound came with it. 

As she listened, she suspected that the intruder was on the upper 
landing of the stairwell, inches from her with only the door between 
them. She could easily imagine him there, a dark and strange figure, 
his head against the door just as hers was, his ear pressed to the 
crack, listening for a sound from her. 

Nonsense. The scraping and creaking had been nothing more than 
settling noises. 

Even old houses continued to settle under the unending press of 
gravity. That damned dream had really spooked her. 

Toby muttered wordlessly in his sleep. She turned her head to look at 
him. He didn't move, and after a few seconds his murmuring subsided. 

Heather backed up one step and considered the door for a moment. She 
didn't want to endanger Toby, but she was beginning to feel more 
ridiculous than afraid. Just a door. Just a staircase at the back of 
the house. Just an ordinary night, a dream, a bad case of jumpy 
nerves. She put one hand on the knob, the other on the thumb-turn of 
the dead-bolt lock. The brass hardware was cool under her fingers. 

She remembered the urgent need that had possessed her in the dream: Let 
it in, let it in, let it in. That had been a dream. This was 
reality. 

People who couldn't tell them apart were housed in rooms with padded 
walls, tended by nurses with fixed smiles and soft voices. Let it 
in. 

She disengaged the lock, turned the knob, hesitated. Let it in. 
Exasperated with herself, she yanked open the door. She'd forgotten 
the stairwell lights would be off. That narrow shaft was windowless, 
no ambient light leached into it from outside. The red radiance in the 
bedroom was too weak to cross the threshold. 

She stood face-to-face with perfect darkness, unable to tell if 
anything loomed on the upper steps or even on the landing immediately 
before her. Out of the gloom wafted the repulsive odor that she'd 
eradicated two days before with hard work and ammonia water, not strong 
but not as faint as before, either: the vile aroma of rotting meat. 

Maybe she had only dreamed that she'd awakened but was still in the 
grip of the nightmare. Her heart slammed against her breastbone, her 
breath caught in her throat, and she groped for the light switch, which 
was on her side of the door. If it had been on the other side, she 
might not have had the courage to reach into that coiled blackness to 
feel for it. 

She missed it on the first and second tries, dared not look away from 
the darkness before her, felt blindly where she recalled having seen 
it, almost shouted at Toby to wake up and run, at last found the 
switch--thank God-clicked it. Light. The deserted landing. Nothing 
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there. Of course. What else? 
Empty steps curving down and out of sight. A stair tread creaked 
below. Oh, Jesus. She stepped onto the landing. She wasn't wearing 
slippers. The wood was cool and rough under her bare feet. Another 
creak, softer than before. 

Settling noises. Maybe. She moved off the landing, keeping her left 
hand against the concave curve of the outer wall to steady herself. 

Each step that she descended brought a new step into view ahead of 
her. 

At the first glimpse of anyone, she would turn and run back up the 
stairs, into Toby's room, throw the door shut, snap the dead bolt in 
place. The lock couldn't be opened from the stairwell, only from 
inside the house, so they would be safe. From below came a furtive 
click, a faint thud--as of a door being pulled shut as quietly as 
possible. 

Suddenly she was less disturbed by the prospect of confrontation than 
by the possibility that the episode would end inconclusively. Needing 
to know, one way or the other, Heather shook off timidity. She ran 
down the stairs, making more than enough noise to reveal her presence, 
along the convex curve of the inner wall, around, around, into the 
vestibule at the bottom. Deserted. She tried the door to the 
kitchen. 

It was locked and required a key to be opened from this side. She had 
no key. Presumably, an intruder would not have one, either. 

The other door led to the back porch. On this side, the dead bolt 
operated with a thumb-turn. It was locked. She disengaged it, pulled 
open the door, stepped onto the porch. Deserted. And as far as she 
could see, no one was sprinting away across the backyard. Besides, 
although an intruder would not have needed a key to exit by that door, 
he would have needed one to lock it behind him, for it operated only 
with a key from the outside. 

Somewhere an owl issued a mournful interrogative. Windless, cold, and 
humid, the night air seemed not like that of the outdoors but like the 
dank and ever so slightly fetid atmosphere of a cellar. She was 
alone. 

But she didn't feel alone. 
She felt . . . watched. . "For God's sake, Heth," she said, "what the 
hell's the matter with you?" She retreated into the vestibule and 
locked the door. She stared at the gleaming brass thumb-turn, 
wondering if her imagination had seized on a few perfectly natural 
noises to conjure a threat that had even less substance than a ghost. 

The rotten smell lingered. Yes, well, perhaps the ammonia water had 
not been able to banish the odor for more than a day or two. A rat or 
another small animal might be dead and decomposing inside the wall. As 
she turned toward the stairs, she stepped in something. She lifted her 
left foot and studied the floor. A clod of dry earth about as large as 
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a plum had partially crumbled under her bare heel. Climbing to the 
second floor, she noticed dry crumbs of earth scattered on a few of the 
treads, which she'd failed to notice in her swift descent. The dirt 
hadn't been there when she finished cleaning the stairwell on 
Wednesday. She wanted to believe it was proof the intruder existed. 

More likely, Toby had tracked a little mud in from the backyard. He 
was usually a considerate kid, and he was neat by nature, but he was, 
after all, only eight years old. 

Heather returned to Toby's room, locked the door, and snapped off the 
stairwell light. Her son was sound asleep. Feeling no less foolish 
than confused, she went down the front stairs, directly to the 
kitchen. 

If the repulsive smell was a sign of the intruder's recent presence, 
and if the slightest trace of that stink hung in the kitchen, it would 
mean he had a key with which he'd entered from the back stairs. In 
that case she intended to wake Jack and insist they search the house 
top to bottom--with loaded guns. 

The kitchen smelled fresh and clean. No crumbles of dry soil on the 
floor, either. She was almost disappointed. She was loath to think 
that she'd imagined everything, but the facts justified no other 
interpretation. Imagination or not, she couldn't rid herself of the 
feeling that she was under observation. She closed the blinds over the 
kitchen windows. Get a grip, Heather thought. You're fifteen years 
away from the change of life, lady, no excuse for these weird mood 
swings. She had intended to spend the rest of the night reading, but 
she was too agitated to concentrate on a book. She needed to keep 
busy. While she brewed a pot of coffee, she inventoried the contents 
of the freezer compartment in the side-by-side refrigerator. 

There were half a dozen frozen dinners, a package of frankfurters, two 
boxes of Green Giant white corn, one box of green beans, two of 
carrots, and a package of Oregon blueberries, none of which Eduardo 
Fernandez had opened and all of which they could use. On a lower 
shelf, under a box of Eggo waffles and a pound of bacon, she found a 
Ziploc bag that appeared to contain a legal-size tablet of yellow 
paper. The plastic was opaque with frost, but she could vaguely see 
that lines of handwriting filled the first page. She popped the 
pressure seal on the bag--but then hesitated. 

Storing the tablet in such a peculiar place was tantamount to hiding 
it. 

Fernandez must have considered the contents to be important and 
extremely personal, and Heather was reluctant to invade his privacy. 

Though dead and gone, he was the benefactor who had radically changed 
their lives, he deserved her respect and discretion. She read the 
first few words on the top page--My name is Eduardo Fernandez--and 
thumbed through the tablet, confirming it had been written by Fernandez 
and was a lengthy document. More than two thirds of the long yellow 
pages were filled with neat handwriting. Stifling her curiosity, 
Heather put the tablet on top of the refrigerator, intending to give it 
to Paul Youngblood the next time she saw him. The attorney was the 
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closest thing to a friend that Fernandez had known and, in his 
professional capacity, was privy to all the old man's affairs. If the 
contents of the tablet were important and private, only Paul had any 
right to read them. 

Finished with the inventory of frozen foods, she poured a cup of fresh 
coffee, sat at the kitchen table, and began to make a list of needed 
groceries and household supplies. Come morning, they would drive to 
the supermarket in Eagle's Roost and stock not only the refrigerator 
but the half-empty shelves of the pantry. She wanted to be well 
prepared if they were cut off by deep snow for any length of time 
during the winter. 

She paused in her listmaking to scribble a note, reminding Jack to 
schedule an appointment next week with Parker's Garage for the 
installation of a plow on the front of the Explorer. Initially, as she 
sipped her coffee and composed her list, she was alert for any peculiar 
sound. However, the task before her was so mundane that it was 
calming, after a while, she could not sustain a sense of the uncanny. 

In his sleep, Toby moaned softly. He said, "Go away ... go ... go away 
..." 

After falling silent for a while, he pushed back the covers and got out 
of bed. 

In the ruddy glow of the night-light, his pale-yellow pajamas appeared 
to be streaked with blood. He stood beside the bed, swaying as if 
keeping time to music that only he could hear. "No," he whispered, not 
with alarm but in a flat voice devoid of emotion. "No . .. no .. . no 
. . ." Lapsing into silence again, he walked to the window and gazed 
into the night. 

At the top of the yard, nestled among the pines at the edge of the 
forest, the caretaker's house was no longer dark and deserted. Strange 
light, as purely blue as a gas flame, shot into the night from cracks 
around the edges of the plywood rectangles that covered the windows, 
from under the front door, and even from the top of the replace 
chimney. "Ah," Toby said. The light was not of constant intensity but 
sometimes flickered, sometimes throbbed. Periodically, even the 
narrowest of the escaping beams were so bright that staring at them was 
painful, although occasionally they grew so dim they seemed about to be 
extinguished. 

Even at its brightest, it was a cold light, giving no impression 
whatsoever of heat. Toby watched for a long time. Eventually the 
light faded. The caretaker's house became dark once more. 

The boy returned to the bed. The night passed. 
CHAPTER SIXTEEN. 
Saturday morning began with sunshine. A cold breeze swept out of the 
northwest, and periodic flocks of dark birds wheeled across the sky 
from the forested Rockies toward the descending land in the east, as if 
fleeing a predator. The radio weatherman on a station in Butte--to 
which Heather and Jack listened as they showered and dressed--predicted 
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snow by nightfall. This was, he said, one of the earliest storms in 
years, and the total accumulation might reach ten inches. Judging by 
the tone of the report, a ten-inch snowfall was not regarded as a 
blizzard in these northern climes. There was no talk of anticipated 
road closures, no references to rural areas that might be snowbound. A 
second storm was rolling toward them in the wake of the first, though 
expected to arrive early Monday, it was apparently a weaker front than 
the one that would hit by evening. 

Sitting on the edge of the bed, bending forward to tie the laces of her 
Nikes, Heather said, "Hey, we've gotta get a couple of sleds." Jack 
was at his open closet, removing a red-and brown-checkered flannel 
shirt from a hanger. 

"You sound like a little kid." 
"Well, it is my first snow." 
"That's right. I forgot." 
In Los Angeles in the winter, when the smog cleared enough to expose 
them, white-capped mountains served s a distant backdrop to the city, 
and that was the closest she had ever gotten to snow. She wasn't a 
skier. She'd never been to Arrowhead or Big Bear except in the summer, 
and she was as excited as a kid about the oncoming storm. 

Finishing with her shoelaces, she said, "We've got to make an 
appointment with Parker's Garage to get that plow on the Explorer 
before the real winter gets here." 

"Already did," Jack said. "Ten o'clock Thursday morning." 
As he buttoned his shirt, he moved to the bedroom window to look out at 
the eastern woods and southern lowlands. "This view keeps hypnotizing 
me. I'm doing something, very busy, then I look up, catch a glimpse of 
it through a window, from the porch, and I just stand and stare." 

Heather moved behind him, put her arms around him, and looked past him 
at the striking panorama of woods and fields and wide blue sky. "Is it 
going to be good?" she asked after a while. "It's going to be 
great. 

This is where we belong. Don't you feel that way?" --"Yes," she 
said, with only the briefest hesitation. 

In daylight, the events of the previous night seemed immeasurably less 
threatening and more surely the work of an overactive imagination. She 
had seen nothing, after all, and didn't even know quite what she had 
expected to see. 

Lingering city jitters complicated by a nightmare. Nothing more. 
"This is where we belong." He turned, embraced her, and they kissed. 
She moved her hands in lazy circles on his back, gently massaging his 
muscles, which his exercise program had toned and rebuilt. He felt so 
good. Exhausted from traveling and from settling in, they had not made 
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love since the night before they'd left Los Angeles. As soon as they 
made the house their own in that way, it would be theirs in every way, 
and her peculiar uneasiness would probably disappear. He slid his 
strong hands down her sides to her hips. He pulled her against him. 

Punctuating his whispered words with soft kisses to her throat, cheeks, 
eyes, and the corners of her mouth, he said, "How about tonight ... 

when the snow's falling ... after we've had . . . a glass of wine or 
two . . . by the fire . .. 

romantic music ... on the radio ... when we're feeling relaxed . . 
." 
"... 
relaxed," she said dreamily. "Then we get together ..." 
"... mmmmmmm, together ..." 
". . . and we have a really wonderful, wonderful . . ." 
"... wonderful..." 
"Snowball fight." She smacked him playfully on the cheek. "Beast. 
I'll have rocks in my snowballs." 
"Or we could make love." 
"Sure you don't want to go outside and make snow angels?" 
"Not now that I've taken more time to think about 
"Get dressed, 
smartass. We've got shopping to do." 

Heather found Toby in the living room, dressed for the day. He was on 
the floor in front of the TV, watching a program with the sound off. 

"Big snow's coming tonight," she told him from the archway, expecting 
his excitement to exceed her own -because this also would be his first 
experience with a white winter. He didn't respond. "We're going to 
buy a couple of sleds when we go to town, be ready for tomorrow." He 
was as still as stone. His attention remained entirely on the 
screen. 

From where she stood, Heather couldn't see what show had so gripped 
him. "Toby?" She stepped out of the archway and into the living 
room. 

"Hey, kiddo, what're you watching?" He acknowledged her at last as she 
approached him. "Don't know what it is." His eyes appeared to be out 
of focus, as though he wasn't actually seeing her, and he gazed once 
more at the television. 
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The screen was filled with a constantly evolving flow of arabic forms, 
reminiscent of those Lava lamps that had once been so popular. The 
lamps had always been in two colors, however, while this display 
progressed in infinite shades of all the primary colors, now bright, 
now dark. Ever-changing shapes melted together, curled and flexed, 
streamed and spurted, drizzled and purled and throbbed in a ceaseless 
exhibition of amorphic chaos, surging at a frenzied pace for a few 
seconds, then oozing sluggishly, then faster again. 

"What is this?" Heather asked. Toby shrugged. Endlessly recomposing 
itself, the colorful curvilinear abstract was interesting to watch and 
frequently beautiful. 

The longer she stared at it, however, the more disturbing it became, 
although for no reason she could discern. Nothing in its patterns was 
inherently ominous or menacing. Indeed, the fluid and dreamy 
intermingling of forms should have been restful. 

"Why do you have the sound turned down?" 
"Don't." She squatted next to him, picked up the remote control from 
the carpet, and depressed the volume button. 

The only sound was the faint static hiss of the speakers. She scanned 
just one channel farther up on the dial, and the booming voice of an 
excited sportscaster and the cheering of a crowd at a football game 
exploded through the living room. 

She quickly decreased the volume. When she scanned back to the 
previous channel, the Technicolor Lava lamp was gone. A Daffy Duck 
cartoon filled the screen instead and, judging by the frenetic pace of 
the action, was drawing toward a pyrotechnic conclusion. 

"That was odd," she said. "I liked it," Toby said. She scanned 
farther down the dial, then farther up than before, but she could not 
find the strange display. 

She hit the Off button, and the screen went dark. 
"Well, anyway," she said, "time to grab breakfast, so we can get on 
with the day. Lots to do in town. Don't want to run out of time to 
buy those sleds." 

"Buy what?" the boy asked as he got to his feet. "Didn't you hear me 
before?" 

"I guess." 
"About snow?" His small face brightened. "It's gonna snow?" 
"You must have enough wax built up in your ears to make the world's 
biggest candle," she said, heading for the kitchen. Following her, 
Toby said, "When? When's it gonna snow, Mom? Huh? Today?" 

"We could stick a wick in each of your ears, put a match to them, and 
have candlelight dinners for the rest of the decade." 
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"How much snow?" 
"Probably dead snails in there too." 
"Just flurries or a big storm?" 
"Maybe a dead mouse or three." 
"Mom?" he said exasperatedly, entering the kitchen behind her. She 
spun around, crouched in front of him, and held her hand above his 
knee. "Up to here, maybe higher." 

"Really?" 
"We'll go sledding." 
"Wow." 
"Build a snowman." 
"Snowball fight!" he challenged. "Okay, me and Dad against you." 
"No fair!" He ran to the window and pressed his face to the glass. 
"The sky's blue." 
"Won't be in a little while. Guarantee," she said, going to the 
pantry. "You want shredded wheat for breakfast or cornflakes?" 

"Doughnuts and chocolate milk." 
"Fat chance." 
"Worth a try. Shredded wheat." 
"Good boy." 
"Whoa!" he said in surprise, taking a step back from the window. 
"Mom, look at this." 
"What is it?" 
"Look, quick, look at this bird. He just landed right smack in front 
of me." Heather joined him near the window and saw a crow perched on 
the other side of the glass. Its head was cocked, and it regarded them 
curiously with one eye. Toby said, "He just zoomed right at me, 
whoooosh, I thought he was gonna smash through the window. What's he 
doing?" 

"Probably looking for worms or tender little bugs." 
"I don't look like any bug." 
"Maybe he saw those snails in your ears," she said, returning to the 
pantry. 
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While Toby helped Heather set the table for breakfast, the crow 
remained at the window, watching. "He must be stupid," Toby said, "if 
he thinks we have worms and bugs in here." 

"Maybe he's refined, civilized, heard me say cornflakes." 
" While they filled bowls with cereal, the big crow stayed at the 
window, occasionally preening its feathers but mostly watching them 
with one coal-dark eye or the other. 

Whistling, Jack came down the front stairs, along the hall, into the 
kitchen, and said, "I'm so hungry I could eat a horse. Can we have 
eggs and horse for breakfast?" 

"How about eggs and crow?" Toby asked, pointing to the visitor. 
"He's a fat and sassy specimen, isn't he?" Jack said, moving to the 
window and crouching to get a close look at the bird. 

"Mom, look! Dad's in a staring contest with a bird," Toby said, 
amused. Jack's face was no more than an inch from the window, and the 
bird fixed him with one inky eye. Heather took four slices of bread 
out of the bag, dropped them in the big toaster, adjusted the dial, 
depressed the plunger, and looked up to see that Jack and the crow were 
still eye-to-eye. "I think Dad's gonna lose," Toby said. 

Jack snapped one finger against the windowpane directly in front of the 
crow, but the bird didn't flinch. "Bold little devil," Jack said. 

With a lightning-quick dart of its head, the crow pecked the glass in 
front of Jack's face so hard that the tock of bill against pane 
startled him into a backward step that, in his crouch, put him off 
balance. He fell on his butt on the kitchen floor. The bird leaped 
away from the window with a great flapping of wings and vanished into 
the sky. 

Toby burst into laughter. Jack crawled after him on hands and knees. 
"Oh, you think that was funny, do you? I'll show you what's funny, 
I'll show you the infamous Chinese tickle torture." Heather was 
laughing too. Toby scampered to the hall door, looked back, saw Jack 
coming, and ran to another room, giggling and shrieking with delight. 

Jack scrambled to his feet. In a hunchbacked crouch, growling like a 
troll, he scuttled after his son. "Do I have one little boy on my 
hands or two?" Heather called after Jack as he disappeared into the 
hall. 

"Two!" he replied. The toast popped up. She put the four crisp 
pieces on a plate and slipped four more slices of bread into the 
toaster. Much giggling and maniacal cackling was coming from the front 
of the house. Heather went to the window. The tock of the bird's bill 
had been so loud that she more than half expected to see a crack in the 
glass. But the pane was intact. On the sill outside lay a single 
black feather, rocking gently in a breeze that could not quite pluck it 
out of its sheltered niche and whirl it away. 
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She put her face to the window and peered up at the sky. High in that 
blue vault, a single dark bird carved a tight circle, around and 
around. It was too far away for her to be able to tell if it was the 
same crow or another bird. 

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN. 
They stopped at Mountain High Sporting Goods and purchased two sleds 
(wide, flat runners, clear pine with polyurethane finish, a red 
lightning bolt down the center of each), as well as insulated ski 
suits, boots, and gloves -for all of them. 

Toby saw a big Frisbee specially painted to look like a yellow flying 
saucer, with portholes along the rim and a low red dome on top, and 
they bought that too. 

At the Union 76, they filled the fuel tank, and then went on a marathon 
shopping expedition at the supermarket. When they returned to 
Quartermass Ranch at one-fifteen, only the eastern third of the sky 
remained blue. Masses of gray clouds churned across the mountains, 
driven by a fierce high-altitude wind--though at ground level, only an 
erratic breeze gently stirred the evergreens and shivered the brown 
grass. The temperature had fallen below freezing, and the accuracy of 
the weathermans prediction was manifest in the cold, humid air. 

Toby went immediately to his room, dressed in his new red-and-black ski 
suit, boots, and gloves. He returned to the kitchen with his Frisbee 
to announce that he was going out to play and to wait for the snow to 
start falling. 

Heather and Jack were still unpacking groceries and arranging supplies 
in the pantry. She said, "Toby, honey, you haven't had lunch yet." 

"I'm not hungry. 
I'll just take a raisin cookie with me." She paused to pull up the 
hood on Toby's jacket and tie it under his chin. "Well, all right, but 
don't stay out there too long at a stretch. When you get cold, come in 
and warm up a little, then go back out. We don't want your nose 
freezing and falling off." She gave his nose a gentle tweak. He 
looked so cute. Like a gnome. "Don't throw the Frisbee toward the 
house," Jack warned him. "Break a window, and we'll show no mercy. 

We'll call the police, have you committed to the Montana Prison for the 
Criminally Insane." 

As she gave Toby two raisin cookies, Heather said, "And don't go into 
the woods." 

"All right." 
"Stay in the yard." 
"I will." 
"I mean it." The woods worried her. This was different from her 
recent irrational spells of paranoia. 
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There were good reasons to be cautious of the forest. Wild animals, 
for one thing. And city people, like them, could get disoriented and 
lost only a few hundred feet into the trees. 

"The Montana Prison for the Criminally Insane has no TV, chocolate 
milk, or cookies." 

"Okay, okay. Sheeeesh, I'm not a baby." 
"No," Jack said, as he fished cans out of a shopping bag. "But to a 
bear, you are a tasty-looking lunch." 

"There's bears in the woods?" Toby asked. "Are there birds in the 
sky?" Jack asked. "Fish in the sea so stay in the yard," Heather 
reminded him. "Where I can find you easy, where I can see you." As he 
opened the back door, Toby turned to his father and said, "You better 
be careful too." 

"Me?" 
"That bird might come back and knock you on your 6s again." Jack 
pretended he was going to throw the can of beans that he was holding, 
and Toby ran from the house, giggling. The door banged shut behind 
him. 

Later, after their purchases had been put away, Jack went into the 
study to examine Eduardo's book collection and select a novel to read, 
while Heather went upstairs to the guest bedroom where she was setting 
up -her array of computers. 

They had taken the spare bed out and moved it to the cellar. The two 
six-foot folding tables, which had been among the goods delivered by 
the movers, now stood in place of the bed and formed an L-shaped work 
area. She'd unpacked her three computers, two printers, laser scanner, 
and associated equipment, but until now she'd had no chance to make 
connections and plug them in. As of that moment, she really had no use 
for such a high-tech array of computing power. She had worked on 
software and program design virtually all of her adult life, however, 
and she didn't feel complete with her machines disconnected and boxed 
up, regardless of whether or not she had an immediate project that 
required them. 

She set to work, positioning the equipment, linking monitors to logic 
units, logic units to printers, one of the printers and logic units to 
the scanner, all the while happily humming old Elton John songs. 

Eventually she and Jack would investigate business opportunities and 
decide what to do with the rest of their lives. By then the phone 
company would have installed another line, and the modem would be in 
operation. She could use data networks to research what population 
base and capitalization any given business required for success, as 
well as find answers to hundreds if not thousands of other questions 
that would influence their decisions and improve their chances for 
success in whatever enterprise they chose. 

Rural Montana enjoyed as much access to knowledge as Los Angeles or 
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Manhattan or Oxford University. The only things needed were a 
telephone line, a modem, and a couple of good database subscriptions. 

At three o'clock, after she'd been working about an hour--the equipment 
connected, everything working--Heather got up from her chair and 
stretched. 

Flexing the muscles in her back, she went to the window to see if 
flurries had begun to fall ahead of schedule. 

The November sky was low, a uniform shade of lead gray, like an immense 
plastic panel behind which glowed arrays of dull fluorescent tubes. 

She fancied that she would have recognized it as a snow sky even if she 
hadn't heard the forecast. It looked as cold as ice. In that bleak 
light, the higher woods appeared to be more gray than green. 

The backyard and, to the south, the brown fields seemed barren rather 
than merely dormant in anticipation of the spring. 

Although the landscape was nearly as monochromatic as a charcoal 
drawing, it was beautiful. A different beauty from that which it 
offered under the warm caress of the sun. Stark, somber, broodingly 
majestic. She saw a small spot of color to the south, on the cemetery 
knoll not far from the perimeter of the western rest. Bright red. It 
was Toby in his new ski suit. 

He was standing inside the foot-high fieldstone wall. I should have 
told him to stay away from there, Heather thought with a twinge of 
apprehension. Then she wondered at her uneasiness. Why should the 
cemetery seem any more dangerous to her than the yard immediately 
outside its boundaries? She didn't believe in ghosts or haunted 
places. 

The boy stood at the grave markers, utterly still. She watched him for 
a minute, a minute and a half, but he didn't move. For an 
eight-year-old, who usually had more energy than a nuclear plant, that 
was an extraordinary period of inactivity. The gray sky settled lower 
while she watched. The land darkened subtly. Toby stood unmoving. 

The arctic air didn't bother Jack--invigorated him, in fact--except 
that it penetrated especially deeply into the thighbones and scar 
tissue of his left leg. He did not have to limp, however, as he 
ascended the hill to the private graveyard. He passed between the 
four-foot-high stone posts that, gateless, marked the entrance to the 
burial ground. His breath puffed from his mouth in frosty plumes. 

Toby was standing at the foot of the fourth grave in the line of 
four. 

His arms hung straight at his sides, his head was bent, and his eyes 
were fixed on the headstone. The Frisbee was on the ground beside 
him. 

He breathed so shallowly that he produced only a faint mustache of 
steam that repeatedly evaporated as each brief exhalation became a soft 
inhalation. 
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"What's up?" Jack asked. 
The boy did not respond. 
The nearest headstone, at which Toby stared, was engraved with the name 
THOMAS FERNANDEZ and the dates of birth and death. Jack didn't need 
the marker to remind him of the date of death, it was carved on his own 
memory far deeper than the numbers were cut into the granite before 
him. 

Since they'd arrived Tuesday morning, after staying the night with Paul 
and Carolyn Youngblood, Jack had been too busy to inspect the private 
cemetery. 

Furthermore, he'd not been eager to stand in front of Tommy's grave, 
where memories of blood and loss and despair were certain to assail 
him. 

To the left of Tommy's marker was a double stone. It bore the names of 
his parents--EDUARDO and MARGARITE. Though Eduardo had been in the 
ground only a few months, Tommy for a year, and Margaret for three 
years, all of their graves looked freshly dug. The dirt was mounded 
unevenly, and no grass grew on it, which seemed odd, because the fourth 
grave was flat and covered with silky brown grass. He could understand 
that gravediggers might have disturbed the surface of Margarite's plot 
in order to bury Eduardo's coffin beside hers, but that didn't explain 
the condition of Tommy's site. Jack made a mental note to ask Paul 
Youngblood about it. 

The last monument, at the head of the only grassy llot, belonged to 
Stanley Quartermass, patron of them. An inscription in the weathered 
black stone surprised a chuckle out of Jack when he least expected 
it. 

Here lies Stanley Quartermass dead before his time because he had to 
work with so damned many actors and writers. 

Toby had not moved. 
"What're you up to?" Jack asked. 
No answer. 
He put one hand on Toby's shoulder. 
"Son?" 
Without shifting his gaze from the tombstone, the boy said, "What're 
they doing down there?" 

"Who? Where?" 
"In the ground." 
"You mean Tommy and his folks, Mr. Quartermass?" 
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"What're they doing down there?" 
There was nothing odd about a child wanting to fully understand 
death. 

It was no less a mystery to the young than to the old. What seemed 
strange to Jack was the way the question had been phrased. 

"Well," he said, "Tommy, his folks, Stanley Quartermass . . . 
they aren't really here." 
"Yes, they are." 
"No, only their bodies are here," Jack said, gently massaging the boy's 
shoulder. 

"Why?" 
"Because they were finished with them." 
The boy was silent, brooding. 
Was he thinking about how close his own father had come to being 
planted under a similar stone? Maybe enough time had passed since the 
shooting for Toby to be able to confront things that he'd been 
repressing. 

The mild breeze from out of the northwest stiffened slightly. Jack's 
hands were cold. He put them in his jacket pockets and said, "Their 
bodies weren't them, anyway, not the real them." 

The conversation took an even stranger turn: "You mean, these weren't 
their original bodies? These were puppets?" 

Frowning, Jack dropped to his knees beside the boy. 
"Puppets? That's a peculiar thing to say." 
As if in a trance, the boy focused on Tommy's headstone. His gray-blue 
eyes stared unblinking. 

"Toby, are you okay?" 
Toby still didn't look at him but said, "Surrogates?" 
Jack blinked in surprise. 
"Surrogates?" 
"Were they?" 
"That's a pretty big word. Where'd you hear that?" 
Instead of answering him, Toby said, "Why don't they need these bodies 
any more?" 
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Jack hesitated, then shrugged. 
"Well, son, you know why--they were finished with their work in this 
world." 

"This world?" 
"They've gone on." 
"Wwhere?" 
"You've been to Sunday school. You know where." 
"No." 
"Sure you do." 
"No." 
"They've gone on to heaven." 
"They went on?" 
"Yes." 
"In what bodies?" 
Jack removed his right hand from his jacket pocket and cupped his son's 
chin. 

He turned the boy's head away from the gravestone, so they were 
eye-to-eye. 

"What's wrong, Toby?" 
They were face-to-face, inches apart, yet Toby seemed to be looking 
into the distance, through Jack at some far horizon. 

"Toby?" 
"In what bodies?" 
Jack released the boy's chin, moved one hand back -and forth in front 
of his face. Not a blink. 

His eyes didn't follow the movement of the hand. 
"In what bodies?" Toby repeated impatiently. 
Something was wrong with the boy. Sudden psychological ailment. 
With a catatonic aspect. 
Toby said, "In what bodies?" 
Jack's heart began to pump hard and fast as he stared into his son's 
flat, unresponsive eyes, which were no longer windows on a soul but 
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mirrors to keep out the world. 
If it was a psychological problem, there was no doubt about the 
cause. 

They'd been through a traumatic year, enough to drive a grown man--let 
alone a child--to a breakdown. 

But what was the trigger, why now, why here, why after all these many 
months, during which the poor kid had seemed to cope so well? 

"In what bodies?" Toby demanded sharply. 
"Come on," Jack said, taking the boy's gloved hand. "Let's go back to 
the house." 

"In what bodies did they go on?" 
"Toby, stop this." 
"Need to know. Tell me now. Tell me." 
"Oh, dear God, don't let this happen." 
Still on his knees, Jack said, "Listen, come back to the house with me 
so we can--" Toby wrenched his hand out of his father's grasp, leaving 
Jack with the empty glove. 

"In what bodies?" 
The small face was without expression, as placid as still water, yet 
the words burst from the boy in a tone of ice-cold rage. 

Jack had the eerie feeling that he was conversing with a 
ventriloquist's dummy that could not match its wooden features to the 
tenor of its words. 

"In what bodies?" 
This wasn't a breakdown. A mental collapse didn't happen this 
suddenly, completely, without warning signs. 

"In what bodies?" 
This wasn't Toby. Not Toby at all. Ridiculous. Of course it was 
Toby. Who else? 

Someone talking through Toby. Crazy thought, weird. Through Toby? 
Nevertheless, kneeling there in the graveyard, gazing into his son's 
eyes, Jack no longer saw the blankness of a mirror, although he was 
aware of his own frightened eyes in twin reflections. He didn't see 
the innocence of a child, either, or any familiar quality. He 
perceived--or was imagining--another presence, something both less and 
more than human, a strangeness beyond comprehension, peering out at him 
from within Toby. 
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"In what bodies?" 
Jack couldn't work up any saliva. Tongue stuck to the roof of his 
mouth. Couldn't swallow, either. He was colder than the wintry day 
could explain. Suddenly much colder. Beyond freezing. 

He'd never felt anything like it before. A cynical part of him thought 
he was being ridiculous, hysterical, leting himself be swept away by 
primitive superstition--because he could not face the thought of Toby 
having a psychotic episode and slipping into mental chaos. On the 
other hand, it was precisely the primitive nature of the perception 
that convinced him another presence shared the body of his son: he felt 
it on a primal level, deeper than he had ever felt anything before, it 
was a knowledge more certain than any that could be arrived at by 
intellect, a profound and irrefutable animal instinct, as if he'd 
captured the scent of an enemy's pheromones, his skin was tingling with 
the vibrations of an inhuman aura. His gut clenched with fear. Sweat 
broke out on his forehead the flesh crimped along the nape of his 
neck. 

He wanted to spring to his feet, scoop Toby into his arms, run down the 
hill to the house, and remove him from the influence of the entity that 
held him in its thrall. Ghost, demon, ancient Indian spirit? 

No, ridiculous. But something, damn it. Something. 
He hesitated, partly because he was transfixed by what he thought he 
saw in the boy's eyes, partly because he feared that forcing a break of 
the connection between Toby and whatever was linked with him would 
somehow harm the boy, perhaps damage him mentally. Which didn't make 
any sense, no sense at all. But then none of it made sense. 

A dreamlike quality characterized the moment and the place. It was 
Toby's voice, yes, but not his usual speech patterns or inflections: 
"In what bodies did they go on from here?" 

Jack decided to answer. 
Holding Toby's empty glove in his hand, he had the terrible feeling 
that he must play along or be left with a son as limp and hollow as the 
glove, a drained shell of a boy, form without content, those beloved 
eyes vacant forever. 

And how insane was that? His mind spun. He seemed poised on the brink 
of an abyss, teetering out of balance. Maybe he was the one having the 
breakdown. 

He said, "They didn't need bodies, Skipper. You know that. Nobody 
needs bodies in heaven." 

"They are bodies," the Toby-thing said cryptically. "Their bodies 
are." 

"Not any more. They're spirits now." 
"Don't understand." 
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"Sure you do. Souls. Their souls went to heaven." 
"Bodies are." 
"Went to heaven to be with God." 
"Bodies are." 
Toby stared through him. Deep in Toby's eyes, however, like a coiling 
thread of smoke, something moved. Jack sensed that something was 
regarding him intensely. 

"Bodies are. Puppets are. What else?" Jack didn't know how to 
respond. 

The breeze coming across the flank of the sloped yard was as cold as if 
it had skimmed over a glacier on its way to them. The Toby-thing 
returned to the first question that it had asked: "What are they doing 
down there?" 

Jack glanced at the graves, then into the boy's eyes, deciding to be 
straightforward. He wasn't actually talking to a little boy, so he 
didn't need to use euphemisms. He was crazy, imagining the whole 
conversation as well as the inhuman presence. Either way, what he said 
didn't matter. 

"They're dead." 
"What is dead?" 
"They are. These three people buried here." 
"What is dead?" 
"Lifeless." 
"What is lifeless?" 
"Without life." 
"What is life?" 
"The opposite of death." 
"What is death?" 
Desperately, Jack said, "Empty, hollow, rotting." 
"Bodies are." 
"Not forever." 
"Bodies are." 
"Nothing lasts forever." 
"Everything lasts." 
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"Nothing." 
"Everything becomes." 
"Becomes what?" Jack asked. 
He was now beyond giving answers himself, was full of his own 
questions. 

"Everything becomes," the Toby-thing repeated. 
"Becomes what?" 
"Me. Everything becomes me." 
Jack wondered what in the hell he was talking to and whether he was 
making more sense to it than it was making to him. He began to doubt 
that he was even awake. Maybe he'd taken a nap. If he wasn't insane, 
perhaps he was asleep. 

Snoring in the armchair in the study, a book in his lap. 
Maybe Heather had never come to tell him Toby was in the cemetery, in 
which case all he had to do was wake up. 

The breeze felt real. Not like a dream wind. Cold, piercing. And it 
had picked up enough speed to give it a voice. Whispering in the 
grass, soughing in the trees along the edge of the higher woods, 
keening softly, softly. 

The Toby-thing said, "Suspended." 
"What?" 
"Different sleep." 
Jack glanced at the graves. "No." 
"Waiting." 
"No." 
"Puppets waiting." 
"No. Dead." 
"Tell me their secret." 
"Dead." 
"The secret." 
"They're just dead." 
"Tell me." 
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"There's nothing to tell." 
The boy's expression was still calm, but his face was flushed. The 
arteries were throbbing visibly in his temples, as if his blood 
pressure had soared off the scale. 

"Tell me!" 
Jack was shaking uncontrollably, increasingly frightened by the cryptic 
nature of their exchanges, worried that he understood even less of the 
situation than he thought he did and that his ignorance might lead him 
to say the wrong thing and somehow put Toby into even greater danger 
than he already was. 

"Tell me!" 
Overwhelmed by fear and confusion and frustration, Jack grabbed Toby by 
the shoulders, stared into his strange eyes. 

"Who are you?" 
No answer. 
"What's happened to my Toby?" 
After a long silence: "What's the matter, Dad?" 
Jack's scalp prickled. Being called 
"Dad" by this thing, this hateful 
intruder, was the worst affront yet. 

"Dad?" 
"Stop it." 
"Daddy, what's wrong?" 
But he wasn't Toby. No way. His voice still didn't have its natural 
inflections, his face was slack, and his eyes were wrong. 

"Dad, what're you doing?" 
The thing in possession of Toby apparently hadn't realized that its 
masquerade had come undone. Until now it had thought that Jack 
believed he was speaking with his son. The parasite was struggling to 
improve its performance. 

"Dad, what did I do? Are you mad at me? I didn't do anything, Dad, 
really I didn't." 

"What are you?" Jack demanded. 
Tears slid from the boy's eyes. But the nebulous something was behind 
the tears, an arrogant puppetmaster confident of its ability to 
deceive. 
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"Where's Toby? You sonofabitch, whatever the hell you are, give him 
back to me." 

Jack's hair fell across his eyes. Sweat glazed his face. To anyone 
coming upon them just then, his extreme fear would appear to be 
dementia. Maybe it was. Either he was talking to a malevolent spirit 
that had taken control of his son or he was insane. Which made more 
sense? 

"Give him to me I want him back!" 
"Dad, you're scaring me," the Toby-thing said, trying to tear loose of 
him. 

"You're not my son." 
"Dad, please!" 
"Stop it! Don't pretend with me--you're not fooling me, for Christ's 
sake!" 

It wrenched free, turned, stumbled to Tommys headstone, and leaned 
against the granite. 

Toppled onto all fours by the force with which the boy broke away from 
him, Jack said fiercely, "Let him go!" 

The boy squealed, jumped as if surprised, and spun to face Jack. 
"Dad! What're you doing here?" 
He sounded like Toby again. 
"Jeer, you scared me! 
What're you sneaking in a cemetery for? Boy, that's not funny!" They 
weren't as close as they had been, but Jack thought the child's eyes no 
longer seemed strange, Toby peared to see him again. 

"Holy Jeer, on your hands and knees, sneaking in a cemetery." The boy 
was Toby again, all right. The thing that had controlled him was not a 
good enough actor to be this convincing. Or maybe he had always been 
Toby. The unnerving possibility of madness and delusion confronted 
Jack again. 

"Are you all right?" he asked, rising onto his knees once more, wiping 
his palms on his jeans. 

"Almost pooped my pants," Toby said, and giggled. 
What a marvelous sound. That giggle. Sweet music. Jack clasped his 
hands to his thighs, squeezing hard, trying to stop shaking. 

"What're you ..." His voice was quavery. He cleared his throat. 
"What are you doing up here?" The boy pointed to the Frisbee on the 
dead grass. "Wind caught the flying saucer." Remaining on his knees, 
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Jack said, "Come here." Toby was clearly dubious. "Why?" 
"Come here, Skipper, just come here." 
"You going to bite my neck?" 
"What?" 
"You going to pretend to bite my neck or do something and scare me 
again, like sneaking up on me, something weird like that?" Obviously, 
the boy didn't remember their conversation while he'd been ... 

possessed. His awareness of Jack's arrival in the graveyard began 
when, startled, he'd spun away from the granite marker. Holding his 
hands out, arms open, Jack said, "No, I'm not going to do anything like 
that. Just come here." 

Skeptical and cautious, puzzled face framed by the red hood of the ski 
suit, Toby came to him. Jack gripped the boy by the shoulders, looked 
into his eyes. 

Blue-gray. Clear. No smoky spiral under the color. "What's wrong?" 
Toby asked, frowning. "Nothing. It's okay." while first, you and 
me? 

A Frisbee's more fun with . Frisbee tossing, hot chocolate. 
Normality hadn't erely returned to the day, it had crashed down like a 
weight. Jack doubted he could have convinced anyone that he and Toby had 
so recently been deep in the muddy river of the supernatural. 

His own fear and his perception of uncanny forces were fading so 
rapidly that already he could not quite recall the power of what he'd 
felt. 

Hard gray sky, every scrap of blue chased way beyond the eastern 
horizon, trees shivering in the frigid breeze, brown grass, velvet 
shadows, Frisbee games, hot chocolate: the whole world waited for the 
first spiraling flake of winter, and no aspect of the November day 
admitted the possibilities of ghosts, disembodied entities, possession, 
or any other-worldly Compulsively, he pulled the boy close, hugged 
him. 

"Dad?" henomena whatsoever. 
"You don't remember, do you?" 
"Huh?" 
"Good." 
"Your heart's really wild," Toby said. "That's all right, I'm okay, 
everything's okay." 

"I'm the one scared poopless. Boy, I sure owe you one!" Jack let go 
of his son and struggled to his feet. The sweat on his face felt like 
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a mask of ice. He combed his hair back with his fingers, wiped his 
face with both hands, and blotted his palms on his jeans. "Let's go 
back to the house and get some hot chocolate." 

Picking up the Frisbee, Toby said, "Can't we play 
"Can we, Dad?" Toby 
asked, brandishing the Frisbee. "all right, for a little while. But 
not here. Not in this . . ." It would sound so stupid to say not in 
this graveyard. Might as well segue into one of those grotesque Stepin 
Fetchit routines from old movies, do a double take and roll his eyes 
and shag his arms at his sides and howl, Feets don't fail me now. 

Instead, he said, "... not so near the woods. Maybe ... down there 
closer to the stables." Carrying the flying-saucer Frisbee, Toby 
sprinted between the gateless posts, out of the cemetery. "Last one 
there's a monkey!" 

Jack didn't chase after the boy. Hunching his shoulders against the 
chill wind, thrusting his hands in his pockets, he stared at the four 
graves, again troubled that only Quartermass's plot was flat and 
grass-covered. Freakish thoughts flickered in his mind. Scenes from 
old Boris Karloff movies. Graverobbers and ghouls. Desecration. 

Satanic rituals in cemeteries by moonlight. Even considering the 
experience he'd just had with Toby, his darkest thoughts seemed too 
fanciful to explain why only one grave of four appeared long 
undisturbed, however, he told himself that the explanation, when he 
learned it, would be perfectly logical and not in the least creepy. 

Fragments of the conversation he'd had with Toby echoed in his memory, 
out of order: What are they doing down there? What is dead? What is 
life? Nothing lasts forever. Everything lasts. Nothing. Everything 
becomes. Becomes what? Me. 

Everything becomes me. Jack sensed that he had enough pieces to put 
together at least part of the puzzle. He just couldn't see how they 
interlocked. Or wouldn't see. Perhaps he refused to put them together 
because even the few pieces he possessed would reveal a nightmare face, 
something better not encountered. He wanted to know, or thought he 
did, but his subconscious overruled him. 

As he raised his eyes from the mauled earth to the three stones, his 
attention was caught by a fluttering object on Tommy's marker. It was 
stuck in a narrow crack between the horizontal base and the vertical 
slab of granite: a black feather, three inches long, stirred by the 
breeze. Jack tilted his head back and squinted uneasily into the 
wintry vault directly overhead. 

The heavens hung gray and dead. Like ashes. A crematorium sky. 
However, nothing moved above except great masses of clouds. Big storm 
coming. He turned toward the sole break in the low stone, walked to 
the posts, and looked downhill toward Toby had almost reached that long 
rectangular buildg. He skidded to a halt, glanced back at his 
laggardly father, and waved. He tossed the Frisbee straight into the 
air. On edge, the disc knifed high, then curved toward the zenith and 
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caught a current of wind. Like a spacecraft from another world, it 
whirled across the somber sky. Much higher than the greatest altitude 
reached by the frisbee, under the pendulous clouds, a lone bird circled 
above the boy, like a hawk maintaining surveillance of potential prey, 
though it was likely a crow rather than a hawk. Circling and 
circling. 

A puzzle piece in the shape Of a black crow. Gliding on rising 
thermals. Silent as a talker in a dream, patient and mysterious. 

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN. 
After sending Jack to discover what Toby was doing among the 
gravestones, Heather returned to the spare bedroom where she had been 
working with her computers. 

She watched from the window as Jack climbed the hill to the cemetery. 
He stood with the boy for a minute, then knelt beside him. From a 
distance, everything seemed all right, no sign of trouble. Evidently, 
she'd been worried for no good reason. A lot of that going around 
lately. She sat in her office chair, sighed at her excessive maternal 
concern, and turned her attention to the computers. 

For a while she searched the hard disc of each machine, ran tests, and 
made sure the programs were in place and that nothing had crashed 
during the move. 

Later, she grew thirsty, and before going to the kitchen to get a 
Pepsi, she stepped to the window to check on Jack and Toby. They were 
almost out of her line of view, near the stables, tossing the Frisbee 
back and forth. Judging by the heavy sky and by how icy cold the 
window was when she touched it, snow would begin to fall soon. She was 
eager for it. 

Maybe the change of weather would bring a change in her mood, as well, 
and help her finally shed the city jitters that plagued her. It ought 
to be hard to cling to all the old paranoia-soaked expectations of life 
in Los Angeles when they were living in a white wonderland, trkling and 
pristine, like a sequined scene on a Christmas card. 

In the kitchen, as she opened a can of Pepsi and poured it into a 
glass, she heard a heavy engine approaching. Thinking it might be Paul 
Youngblood paying an unexpected visit, she took the tablet from the top 
of the refrigerator and put it on the counter, so she would be less 
likely to forget to give it to him before he went home. -By the time 
she went down the hall, opened the door, and stepped onto the front 
porch, the vehicle pulled to a stop in front of the garage doors. 

It wasn't Paul's white Bronco, it was a similar, metallic-blue wagon, 
as large as the Bronco, larger than their own Explorer, but of yet 
another model, with which she wasn't familiar. She wondered if anyone 
in those parts ever drove cars. But of course she had seen plenty of 
cars in town and at the supermarket. 

Even there, however, pickup trucks and four-wheel-drive truck-style 
wagons outnumbered automobiles. 
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She went down the steps and crossed the yard to the driveway to greet 
the visitor, wishing she'd paused to put on a jacket. The bitter air 
pierced even her comfortably thick flannel shirt. 

The man who climbed out of the wagon was about thirty, with an unruly 
mop of brown hair, craggy features, and light-brown eyes kinder than 
his rugged looks. 

Closing the driver's door behind him, he smiled and said, "Howdy. You 
must be Mrs. Mcgarvey." 

"That's right," she said, shaking the hand he offered. "Travis 
Potter. 

Pleased to meet you. I'm the vet in Eagle's Roost. One of the vets. 
A man could go to the ends of the earth, there'd still be 
competition." 

A big golden retriever stood in the back of the wagon. Its bushy tail 
wagged nonstop, and it grinned at them through the side window. Seeing 
the direction of Heather's gaze, Potter said, "Beautiful, isn't he?" 

"They're such gorgeous dogs. 
Is he a purebred?" 
"Pure as they come." 
Jack and Toby rounded the corner of the house. White clouds of breath 
steamed from them, they had evidently run from the hillside west of the 
stable, where they'd been playing. Heather introduced them to the 
vet. 

Jack dropped the Frisbee and shook hands. But Toby was so enchanted by 
the sight of the dog that he forgot his manners and went directly to 
the wagon to stare delightedly through the window at the occupant of 
the cargo space. 

Shivering, Heather said, "Dr. Potter--" 
"Travis, please." 
"Travis, can you come in for some coffee?" 
"Yeah, come on in and visit a spell," Jack said, as if he had been a 
country boy all his life. "Stay to dinner if you can." 

"Sorry, can't," Travis said. "But thanks for the invitation. I'll 
take a rain check, if you don't mind. Right now, I've got calls to 
make--a couple of sick horses that need tending to, a cow with an 
infected hoof. With this storm coming, I want to get home early as I 
can." He checked his watch. 

"Almost four o'clock already." Ten-inch snowfall, we hear," said 
Jack. 
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"You haven't heard the latest. First storm's built strength, and the 
second's no longer a day behind it, more like a couple hours. Maybe 
two feet accumulation before it's all done." 

Heather was glad they had gone shopping that morning and that their 
shelves were well stocked. "Anyway," Travis said, indicating the dog, 
"this was the real reason I stopped by." He joined Toby at the side of 
the wagon. Jack put an arm around Heather to help her keep -warm, and 
they stepped behind Toby. Travis pressed two fingers against the 
window, and the dog licked the other side of the glass 
enthusiastically, whined, and wagged his tail more furiously than 
ever. 

"He's a sweet-tempered fella. Aren't you, Falstaff. His name's 
Falstaff." 

"Really?" Heather said. "Hardly seems fair, does it? But he's two 
years old and used to it now. I hear from Paul Youngblood you're in 
the market for just such an animal as Falstaff here." Toby gasped. He 
gaped at Travis. "Hold your mouth open that wide," Travis warned him, 
"and some critter is going to run in there and build a nest." 

He smiled at Heather and Jack. "Was this what you had in mind?" 
"Just about exactly," Jack said. Heather said, "Except, we thought a 
puppy . . ." 

"With Falstaff, you get all the joy of a good dog and none of that 
puppy mess. He's two years old, mature, housebroken, well behaved. 

Won't spot the carpet or chew up the furniture. But he's still a young 
dog, lots of years ahead of him. 

Interested?" Toby looked up worriedly, as if it was beyond conception 
that such an enormous great good thing as this could befall him without 
his parents objecting or the ground opening and swallowing him alive. 

Heather glanced up at Jack, and he said, "Why not?" Looking at Travis, 
Heather said, "Why not?" 

"Yes!" Toby made it a one-word expression of explosive ecstasy. 
They went to the back of the wagon, and Travis opened the tailgate. 
Falstaff bounded out of the wagon to the ground and immediately began 
excitedly sniffing everyone's feet, turning in circles, one way and 
then the other, slapping their legs with his tail, licking their hands 
when they tried to pet him, a jubilation of fur and warm tongue and 
cold nose and heart-melting brown eyes. When he calmed down, he chose 
to sit in front of Toby, to whom he offered a raised paw. 

"He can shake hands!" Toby exclaimed, and proceeded to take the paw 
and pump it. 

"He knows a lot of tricks," Travis said. "Where'd he come from?" Jack 
asked. "A couple in town, Leona and Harry Seaquist. They had goldens 
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all their lives. 
Falstaff here was the latest." 
"He seems too nice to just be given up." Travis nodded. 
"Sad case. A year ago, Leona got cancer, was gone in three months. 
Few weeks back, Harry suffered a stroke, lost the use of his left 
arm. 

Speech is slurred, and his memory isn't so good. Had to go to Denver 
to live with his son, but they didn't want the dog. Harry cried like a 
baby when he said goodbye to Falstaff. I promised him I'd find a good 
home for the pooch." 

Toby was on his knees, hugging the golden around the neck, and it was 
licking the side of his face. "We'll give him the best home any dog 
ever had anywhere anytime ever, won't we, Mom, won't we, Dad?" 

To Travis, Heather said, "How sweet of Paul Youngblood to call you 
about us." 

"Well, he heard mention your boy wanted a dog. And this isn't the 
city, everyone living in a rat race. We have plenty of time around 
here to meddle in other people's business." He had a broad, engaging 
smile. 

The chilling breeze had grown stronger as they talked. Suddenly it 
gusted into a whistling wind, flattened the brown grass, whipped 
Heather's hair across her face, and drove needles of cold into her. 

"Travis," she said, shaking hands with him again, "when can you come 
for dinner?" 

"Well, maybe Sunday a week." 
"A week from Sunday it is," she said. "Six o'clock." 
To Toby, she said, "Come on, peanut, let's get inside." 
"I want to play with Falstaff." 
"You can get to know him in the house," she insisted. "It's too cold 
out here." 

"He's got fur," Toby protested. "It's you I'm worried about, 
dummkopf. 

You're going to get a frostbitten nose, and then it'll be as black as 
Falstaff's." 

Halfway to the house, padding along between Heather and Toby, the dog 
stopped and looked back at Travis Potter. The vet made a go-ahead wave 
with one hand, and that seemed sufficient permission for Falstaff. He 
accompanied them up the steps and into the warm front hall. 
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Travis Potter had brought a fifty-pound bag of dry dog food with him. 
He hefted it out of the back of his Range Rover and put it on the 
ground against a rear tire. "Figured you wouldn't have dog chow on 
hand just in case someone happened by with a golden retriever." He 
explained what and how much to feed a dog Falstaff's size. 

"What do we owe you?" Jack asked. "Zip. He didn't cost me. Just 
doing a favor for poor Harry." 

"That's nice of you. Thanks. But for the dog food?" 
"Don't worry about it. In years to come, Falstaff's going to need his 
regular shots, general looking after. When you bring him to me, I'll 
soak you plenty." 

Grinning, he slammed the tailgate. They went around to the side of the 
Rover farthest from the house, using it as shelter from the worst of 
the biting wind. 

Travis said, "Understand Paul told you in private bout Eduardo and his 
raccoons. Didn't want to alarm your wife." 

"She doesn't alarm easy." 
"You tell her then?" 
"No. Not sure why, either. Except ... we've all got a lot on our 
minds already, a year of trouble, a lot of change. Anyway, wasn't much 
Paul told me. Just that the coons were behaving oddly, out in broad 
daylight, running in circles, and then they just dropped dead." 

"I don't think that was all of it." 
Travis hesitated. He leaned back at an angle against the side of the 
Rover bent his knees, slouching a little to get his head down out of 
the keening wind. "I think Eduardo was holding out on me. Those coons 
were doing something stranger than what he said." 

"Why would he hold out on you?" -"Hard to say. He was a sort of 
quirky old guy. Maybe ... I don't know, maybe he saw something he felt 
funny talking about, something he figured I wouldn't believe. Had a 
lot of pride, that man. He wouldn't want to talk about anything that 
might get him laughed at." 

"Any guesses what that could be?" "Nope." 
Jack's head was above the roof of the Rover, and the wind not only 
numbed his face but seemed to be scouring off his skin layer by 
layer. 

He leaned back against the vehicle, bent his knees, and slouched, 
mimicking the vet. Rather than look at each other, they stared out 
across the descending land to the south as they talked. 

Jack said, "You think, like Paul does, it was something Eduardo saw 
that caused his heart attack, related to the raccoons?" 
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"And made him load a shotgun, you mean. I don't know. Maybe. 
Wouldn't rule it out. More'n two weeks before he died, I talked to him 
on the phone. Interesting conversation. Called him to give him the 
test results on the coons. Wasn't any known disease involved--" 

"The 
brain swelling." 

"Right. But no apparent cause. He wanted to know did I just take 
samples of brain tissue for the tests or do a full dissection." 

"Dissection of the brain?" 
"Yeah. He asked did I open their brains all the way up. He seemed to 
expect, if I did that, I'd find something besides swelling. But I 
didn't find anything. So then he asks me about their spines, if there 
was something attached to their spines." 

"Attached?" 
"Odder still, huh? He asks if I examined the entire length of their 
spines to see if anything was attached. When I ask him what he means, 
he says it might've looked like a tumor." 

"Looked like." The vet turned his head to the right, to look directly 
at Jack, but Jack stared ahead at the Montana panorama. "You heard it 
the same way I did. Funny way to word it, huh? Not a tumor. Might've 
looked like one but not a real tumor." Travis gazed out at the fields 
again. 

"I asked him if he was holding out on me, but he swore he wasn't. I 
told him to call me right away if he saw any animals behaving like 
those coons--squirrels, rabbits, whatever--but he never did. Less than 
three weeks later, he was dead." 

"You found him." 
"Couldn't get him to answer his phone. Came out here to check on 
him. 

There he was, lying in the open doorway, holding on to that shotgun for 
dear life." 

"He hadn't fired it." 
"No. It was just a heart attack got him." 
Tnafr the influence of the wind, the long meadow grass rippled in brown 
waves. 

The fields ref rolling, dirty sea. Jack debated whether to tell Travis 
about what had -happened in the graveyard a short while ago. However, 
describing the experience was difficult. He could outline the bare 
events, recount the bizarre exchanges between himself and the 
Toby-thing. But he didn't have the words--maybe there were no 
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words--to adequately describe what he had felt, and feelings were the 
core of it. He couldn't convey a fraction of the essential 
supernatural nature of the encounter. 

To buy time, he said, "Any theories?" 
"I suspect maybe a toxic substance was involved. Yeah, I know, there 
aren't exactly piles of industrial sludge scattered all around these 
parts. But there are natural toxins, too, can cause dementia in 
wildlife, make animals act damn near as peculiar as people. How about 
you? See anything weird since you've been here?" 

"In fact, yes." Jack was relieved that the postures they had chosen 
relative to each other made it possible to avoid meeting the 
veterinarian's eyes without causing suspicion. He told Travis about 
the crow at the window that morning--and how, later, it had flown tight 
circles over him and Toby while they played with the Frisbee. 

"Curious," Travis said. "It might be related, I guess. On the other 
hand, there's nothing that bizarre about its behavior, not even pecking 
the glass. Crows can be damned bold. It still around here?" They 
both pushed away from the Rover and stood scanning the sky. The crow 
was gone. 

"In this wind," Travis said, "birds are sheltering." He turned to 
Jack. 

"Anything besides the crow?" That business about toxic substances had 
convinced Jack to hold off telling Travis Potter anything about the 
graveyard. They were discussing two utterly different kinds of 
mystery: poison versus the supernatural, toxic substances as opposed to 
ghosts and demons and things that go bump in the night. The incident 
on the cemetery knoll was evidence of a strictly subjective nature, 
even more so than the behavior of the crow, it didn't provide any 
support to the contention that something unspeakably strange was going 
on at Quartermass Ranch. Jack had no proof it had happened. Toby 
clearly recalled none of it and could not corroborate his story. If 
Eduardo Fernandez had seen something peculiar and withheld it from 
Travis, Jack sympathized with the old man and understood. The 
veterinarian was predisposed to the idea that extraordinary agents were 
at work, because of the brain swelling he'd found in the autopsies of 
the raccoons, but he was not likely to take seriously any talk of 
spirits, possession, and eerie conversations conducted in a cemetery 
with an entity from the Beyond. 

Anything besides the crow? Travis had asked. Jack shook his head. 
"That's all." 
"Well, maybe whatever brought those coons down, is over with. We might 
never know. Nature's full of odd little tricks." To avoid the vet's 
eyes, Jack pulled back his jacket sleeve, glanced at his watch. "I've 
kept you too long if you want to finish your rounds before the snow 
sets in." 

"Never had a hope of managing that," Travis said. "But I should make 
it back home before there're any drifts the Rover can't handle." They 
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shook hands, and Jack said, "Don't you forget, a week from tomorrow, 
dinner at six. Bring a guest if you've got a lady friend." Travis 
grinned. "You look at this mug, it's hard to believe, but there's a 
young lady willing to be seen with me. Name's Janet." 

"Be pleased to meet her," Jack said. He dragged the fifty-pound bag of 
dog chow away from the Rover and stood by the driveway, watching the 
vet turn around and head out. 

Looking in the rearview mirror, Travis Potter waved. Jack waved after 
him and watched until the Rover had disappeared around the curve and 
over the low hill just before the county road. 

The day was a deeper gray than it had been when the vet arrived. Iron 
instead of ashes. Dungeon gray. The ever-lowering sky and the 
black-green phalanxes of trees seemed as formidably restricting as 
walls of concrete and stone. A bitterly cold wind, sweetened by the 
perfume of pines and the faint scent of ozone from high mountain 
passes, swept out of the northwest. The boughs of the evergreens 
strained a low mournful sound from that rushing river of air, the 
grassy meadows conspired with it to produce a whispery whistle, and the 
eaves of the house inspired it to make soft hooting sounds like the 
weak protests of dying owls lying with broken wings in uncaring fields 
of night. The countryside was beautiful even in that prestorm gloom, 
and perhaps it was as peaceful and serene as they had perceived it when 
they'd first driven north from Utah. At that moment, however, none of 
the usual travel-book adjectives sprang to mind as a singular and apt 
descriptive. Only one word suited now. Lonely. It was the loneliest 
place Jack Mcgarvey had ever seen, unpopulated to distant points, far 
from the solace of neighborhood and community. 

He hefted the bag of dog chow onto his shoulder. Big storm coming. He 
went inside. He locked the front door behind him. He heard laughter 
in the kitchen and went back there to see what was happening. 

Falstaff was sitting on his hindquarters, forepaws raised in front of 
him, staring up yearningly at a piece of bologna that Toby was holding 
over his head. 

"Dad, look, he knows how to beg," Toby said. The retriever licked his 
chops. 

Toby dropped the meat. The dog snatched it in midair, swallowed, and 
begged, for more. 

Isn't he great?" Toby said. "He's great," Jack agreed. "Toby's 
hungrier than the dog," Heather said, getting a large pot out of a 
cabinet. "He didn't have any lunch, he didn't even eat the raisin 
cookies I gave him when he went outside. 

Early dinner okay?" me," Jack said, dropping the bag of dog chow in a 
corner, with the intention of finding a cupboard for it later. 

"Spaghetti?" 
"Perfect." 
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"We have a loaf of crusty French bread. You make the salads?" 
"Sure," Jack said as Toby fed Falstaff another bite of bologna. 
Filling the pot with water at the sink, Heather said, Travis Potter 
seems really nice." 

"Yeah, I like him. He'll be bringing a date to dinner next Sunday. 
Janet's her name." Heather smiled and seemed happier than at any time 
since they had come to the ranch. 

"Making friends." 
"I guess we are," he said. As he got celery, tomatoes, and a head of 
lettuce out of the refrigerator, he was relieved to note that neither 
of the kitchen windows faced the cemetery. 

The prolonged and subdued twilight was in its final minutes when Toby 
rushed into the kitchen, the grinning dog at his heels, and cried 
breathlessly, "Snow!" 

Heather looked up from the pot of bubbling water and roiling spaghetti, 
turned to the window above the sink, and saw the first flakes spiraling 
through the gloaming. They were huge and fluffy. The wind was in 
abeyance for the moment, and the immense flakes descended in lazy 
spirals. Toby hurried to the north window. The dog followed slapped 
its forepaws onto the sill, stood beside him, and gazed out at the 
miracle. 

Jack put aside the knife with which he was slicing tomatoes and went to 
the north window as well. He stood behind Toby, his hands on the boy's 
shoulders. 

"Your first snow." 
"But not my last!" Toby enthused. Heather stirred the sauce in the 
smaller pot to be sure it was not going to stick, and then she squeezed 
in with her family at the window. She put her right arm around Jack 
and, with her left hand, idly scratched the back of Falstaff's head. 

For the first time in longer than she could remember, she felt at 
peace. With no more financial worries, having settled into their new 
home in less than a week, with Jack fully recovered, with the dangers 
of the city schools and streets no longer a threat to Toby, Heather was 
finally able to put the negativity of Los Angeles behind her. They had 
a dog. They were making new friends. She was confident that the 
peculiar anxiety attacks that had afflicted her since their arrival at 
Quartermass Ranch would trouble her no more. She had lived with fear 
so long in the city that she had become an anxiety junkie. In rural 
Montana, she wouldn't have to worry about drive-by gang shootings, 
carjackings, ATM robberies that frequently involved casual murder, drug 
dealers peddling crack cocaine on every corner, follow-home 
stickups--or child molesters who slipped off freeways, cruised 
residential neighborhods, trolled for prey, and then disappeared with 
their Wlch into the anonymous urban sprawl. Consequently, habitual 
need to be afraid of something had given rise to the unfocused dreads 
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and phantom enemies that marked her first few days in these more 
pacific regions. That was over now. 

Chapter closed. 
Heavy wet snowflakes descended in battalions, in armies, swiftly 
conquering the dark ground, an occasional outrider finding the glass, 
melting. The kitchen was comfortably warm, fragrant with the aromas of 
cooking pasta and tomato sauce. 

Nothing was quite so likely to induce feelings of contentment and 
prosperity as being in a well-heated and cozy room while the windows 
revealed a world in the frigid grip of winter. 

"Beautiful," she said, enchanted by the breaking storm. "Wow," Toby 
said. "Snow. 

It's really, really snow." They were a family. Wife, husband, child, 
and dog. 

Together and safe. Hereafter, she was going to think only Mcgarvey 
thoughts, never Beckerman thoughts. She was going to embrace a 
positive outlook and shun the negativism that was both her family 
legacy and a poisonous residue of life in the big city. She felt free 
at last. Life was good. 

After dinner, Heather decided to relax with a hot bath, and Toby 
settled in the living room with Falstaff to watch a video of 
Beethoven. 

Jack went directly to the study to review the gun available to them. 
In addition to the weapons they'd brought from Los Angeles--a 
collection Heather had substantially increased after the shootout at 
Arkadian's service station--a corner case was stocked with hunting 
rifles, a shotgun, a .22 pistol, a .45 Colt revolver, and ammunition. 

He preferred to select three pieces from their own armory: a 
beautifully made Korth .38, a pistol-grip, pump-action Mossberg 
twelve-gauge, and a Micro Uzi like the one Anson Oliver had used, 
although this particular weapon had been converted to full automatic 
status. The Uzi had been acquired on the black market. It was odd 
that a cop's wife should feel the need to purchase an illegal 
gun--odder still that it had been so easy for her to do so. 

He closed the study door and stood at the desk, working quickly to 
ready the three firearms while he still had privacy. He didn't want to 
take such precautions with Heather's knowledge, because he would have 
to explain why he felt the need for protection. She was happier than 
she'd been in a long time, and he could see no point in spoiling her 
mood until--and unless--it became necessary. 

The incident in the graveyard had been frightening, however, although 
he'd felt threatened, no blow had actually been struck, no harm. He'd 
been afraid more for Toby than for himself, the boy was back, no worse 
for what had happened. And what had happened? He didn't relish having 
to explain what he had sensed rather than seen: a presence lrl and 
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enigmatic and no more solid than the wind. 
Hour by hour, the encounter seemed less like something he had actually 
experienced and more like a dream. He loaded the .38 and put it to one 
side of the desk. He could tell her about the raccoons, of course, 
although he himself had never seen them and although they had done no 
harm to anyone. He could tell her about the shotgun Eduardo Fernandez 
had been clutching fiercely when he'd died. But the old man hadn't 
been brought down by an enemy vulnerable to buck shot, a heart attack 
had felled him. A massive cardiac infarction was as scary as hell, 
yes, but it wasn't a killer that could be deterred with firearms. 

He fully loaded the Mossberg, pumped a shell into the breech, and then 
inserted one additional shell in the magazine tube. A bonus round. 

Eduardo had prepared his own gun in the same fashion shortly before he 
died. If he tried to explain all this to Heather now, he'd succeed in 
alarming hen-but to no purpose. Maybe there would be no trouble. He 
might never again come face-to-face with whatever presence he had been 
aware of in the cemetery. One such episode in a lifetime was more 
contact with the supernatural than most people ever experienced. Wait 
for developments. Hope there were none. But if there were, and if he 
obtained concrete proof of danger, then he would have to let her know 
that maybe, just maybe, their year of tumult was not yet at an end. 

The Micro Uzi had two magazines welded at right angles, giving it a 
forty-round capacity. The heft of it was reassuring. More than two 
kilos of death waiting to be dispensed. He couldn't imagine any 
enemy--wild creature or man--that the Uzi couldn't handle. He put the 
Korth in the top right-hand desk drawer, toward the back. He closed 
the drawer and left the study with the other two weapons. Before 
slipping past the living room, Jack waited until he heard Toby 
laughing, then glanced around the corner of the archway. The boy was 
focused on the TV, Falstaff at his side. Jack hurried to the kitchen 
at the end of the hall, where he put the Uzi in the pantry, behind 
extra boxes of cornflakes, Cheerios, and shredded wheat that wouldn't 
be opened for at least a week. 

Upstairs in the master bedroom, breezy music played behind the closed 
door to the adjoining bathroom. Soaking in the tub, Heather had turned 
the radio to a goldenoldies station. "Dreamin' " by Johnny Burnette 
was just winding down. Jack pushed the Mossberg under the bed, far 
enough back so she wouldn't notice it when they made the bed in the 
morning but not so far back that he couldn't get hold of it in a 
hurry. 

"Poetry in Motion." Johnny Tillotson. Music from an innocent age. 
Jack hadn't even been born yet when that record had been made. He sat 
on the edge of the bed, listening to the music, feeling mildly guilty 
about not sharing his fears with Heather. But he just didn't want to 
upset her needlessly. 

She'd been through so much. In some ways, his being wounded and 
hospitalized had been harder on her than him. because she'd been 
required to bear alone the pressures of day-to-day existence while he'd 
recuperated. She needed a reprieve from tension. Probably nothing to 
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worry about, anyway. few sick raccoons. A bold little crow. A 
strange experience in a cemetery which was suitably creepy itial for 
some television show like Unsolved Mysteries but hadn't been as 
threatening to life and limb as of a hundred things that could happen 
in the average police officer's workday. 

Loading and secreting the guns would most likely prove to have been an 
overreaction. .. Well, he'd done what a cop should do. Prepared 
himself to serve and protect. 

On the radio in the bathroom, Bobby Vee was singing 
"The Night Has a 
Thousand Eyes." 

Beyond the bedroom windows, snow was falling harder than before. The 
flakes, previously fluffy and wet, were now small, more numerous, and 
dry. The .. wind had accelerated again. Sheer curtains of snow rippkd 
and billowed across the black night. After his mom warned him against 
allowing Falstaff to sleep on the bed, after good-nigh kisses, after 
his dad told him to keep the dog on the floor, after the lights were 
turned out--except for the red night-light--after his mom warned him 
again about Falstaff, after the hall door was pulled half shut, after 
enough time had passed to be sure neither his mom nor his dad was going 
to sneak back to check on the retriever, Toby sat up in his alcove bed, 
patted the mattress invitingly, and whispered, "Here, Falstaff. Come 
on, fella." 

The dog was busily sniffing along the base of the door at the head of 
the back stairs. He whined softly, unhappily. "Falstaff," Toby said, 
louder than before. 

"Here, boy, come here, hurry." Falstaff glanced at him, then put his 
snout to the doorsill again, snuffling and whimpering at the same 
time. 

"Come here--we'll play covered wagon or spaceship or anything you 
want," Toby wheedled. Suddenly getting a whiff of something that 
displeased him, the dog sneezed twice, shook his head so hard that his 
long ears flapped loudly, and backed away from the door. 

"Falstaff!" Toby hissed. Finally the dog padded to him through the 
red light-which was the same kind of light you'd find in the engine 
room of a starship, or around a campfire out on a lonely prairie where 
the wagon train had stopped for the night, or in a freaky temple in 
India where you and Indiana Jones were sneaking around and trying to 
avoid a bunch of weird guys who worshiped Kali, Goddess of Death. 

With a little encouragement, Falstaff jumped onto the bed. "Good 
dog." 

Toby hugged him. Then in hushed, conspiratorial tones: "Okay, see, 
we're in a rebel starfighter on the edge of the Crab Nebula. I'm the 
captain and ace Inner You're a super-superintelligent alien from a 
lanet that circles the Dog Star, plus you're psychic, you can read the 
thoughts of the bad aliens in their starfighters, trying to blow us 
apart, which they I don't know. They don't know. 
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They're crabs with sort of hands instead of just claws, see, like this, 
crab hands, rack-scrick-scrack-scrick, and they're mean, really really 
vicious. Like after their mother gives birth to eight or ten of them 
at once, they turn on her and eat her alive! You know? Crunch her 
up. 

Feed on her. Mean as it, these guys. You know what I'm saying?" 
Falstaff regarded him face-to-face throughout the briefing and then 
licked him from chin to nose when he finished. "All right, you know! 

Okay, let's see if we can ditch these crab geeks by going into 
hyperspace--jump across half the galaxy and leave em in the dust. So 
what's the first thing we got to do? Yeah, right, put up e 
cosmic-radiation shields so we don't wind up full of pinholes from 
traveling faster than all the subatomic particles we'll be passing 
through." He switched on the reading lamp above his headboard, reached 
to the draw cord--" Shields up!"--and pulled the privacy drapes all the 
way shut. Instantly the alcove bed became a cloistered capsule that 
could be any sort of vehicle, ancient or futuristic, traveling as slow 
as a sedan chair or faster than light through any part of the world or 
out of it. 

"Lieutenant Falstaff, are we ready?" Toby asked. Before the game 
could begin, the retriever bounded off the bed and between the bunk 
drapes, which fell shut again behind him. Toby grabbed the draw cord 
and pulled the drapes open. 

"What's the matter with you?" The dog was at the stairwell door, 
sniffing. "You know, dogbreath, this could be viewed as mutiny." 

Falstaff glanced back at him, then continued to investigate whatever 
scent had fascinated him. "We got crabulons trying to kill us, you 
want to go play dog." Toby got out of bed and joined the retriever at 
the door. "I know you don't have to pee. Dad took you out already, 
and you got to make yellow snow before I ever did." The dog whimpered 
again, made a disgusted sound, then backed away from the door and 
growled low in his throat. 

"It's nothing, it's some steps, that's all." Falstaff's black lips 
skinned back from his teeth. He lowered his head as if he was ready 
for a gang of crabulons to come through that door right now, 
scrackscrick-scrack-scrick, with their eye stalks wiggling two feet 
above their heads. "Dumb dog. I'll show you." He twisted open the 
lock, turned the knob. 

The dog whimpered and backed away. Toby opened the door. The stairs 
were dark. 

He flipped on the light and stepped onto the landing. Falstaff 
hesitated, looked toward the half-open hall door as if maybe he would 
bolt from the bedroom. .. 

You're the one was so interested," Toby reminded him. "Now come on, 
I'll show you--just stairs." As if he had been shamed into it, the dog 
joined Toby on the landing. His tail was held so low that the end of 
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it curled around one of his hind legs. Toby descended three steps, 
wincing as the first one squeaked and then the third. If Mom or Dad 
was in the kitchen below, he might get caught, and then they'd think he 
was sneaking out to grab up some snow--in his bare feet!--to bring it 
back to his room to watch it melt. Which wasn't a bad idea, 
actually. 

He wondered whether snow was interesting to eat. Three steps, two 
squeaks, and he stopped, looked back at the dog. "Well?" Reluctantly, 
Falstaff moved to his side. 

crural. Trying to make as little noise as possible. Well, one of them 
was trying, anyway, staying close to the wall, where the treads weren't 
as likely to creak, but the other .. 

one had claws that ticked and scraped on the wood. Toby whispered, 
"Stairs. 

Steps. See? You can go down. You can go up. Big deal. What'd you 
think was behind the door, huh? Doggie hell?" Each step they 
descended brought one new step into view. The way the walls curved, 
you couldn't see far ahead, couldn't see the bottom, just a few steps 
with the paint worn thin, lots of shadows because of the dim bulbs, so 
maybe the lower landing was just two steps below or maybe it was a 
hundred, five hundred, or -maybe you went down and down and around and 
around for ninety thousand steps, and when you reached the bottom you 
were at the center of the earth with dinosaurs and lost cities. "In 
doggie hell," he told Falstaff, "the devil's a cat. You know that? 

Big cat, really big, stands on his hind feet, has claws like razors 
..." Down and around, slow step by slow step. ". . . this big devil 
cat, he wears a cape made out of dog fur, necklace out of dog teeth . 

. ." Down and around. "... and when he plays marbles ..." Wood 
creaking underfoot. "... he uses dogs' eyes! Yeah, that's right 
..." 

Falstaff whimpered. ". . . he's one mean cat, big mean cat, mean as 
shit." They reached the bottom. The vestibule. The two doors. 

"Kitchen," Toby whispered, indicating one door. He turned to the 
other. "Back porch." He could probably twist open the deadbolt, slip 
onto the porch, scoop up a double handful of snow, even if he had to go 
as far as the yard to get it, but still make it back inside and all the 
way up to his room without his mom or dad ever knowing about it. 

Make a real snowball, his first. Take a taste of it. When it started 
to melt, he could just put it in a corner of his room, and in the 
morning, there'd be no evidence. Just water. Which, if anyone noticed 
it, he could blame on Falstaff. 

Toby reached for the doorknob with his right hand and for the dead-bolt 
turn with his left. The retriever jumped up, planted both paws on the 
wall beside the door, and clamped his jaws around Toby's left wrist. 

Toby stifled a squeal of surprise. -Falstaff held the wrist firmly, 
but he didn't bite down, didn't really hurt, just held on and rolled 
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his eyes at Toby, as if what he would have said, if he could speak, was 
something like, No, you can't open this door, it's nuts, forget it, no 
way. "What're you doing?" Toby whispered. "Let go." Falstaff would 
not let go. "You're drooling on me," Toby said as a rivulet of thick 
saliva trickled down his wrist and under the sleeve of his pajama 
tops. 

The retriever worked his teeth slightly, still not hurting his master 
but making it clear that he could cause a little pain anytime he 
wanted. "What, is Mom paying you?" Toby let go of the doorknob with 
his right hand. The dog rolled his eyes, relaxed his jaws, but didn't 
entirely let go of the left wrist until Toby released the thumb-turn on 
the lock and lowered his hand to his side. Falstaff dropped away from 
the wall, onto all fours again. 

Toby stared at the door, wondering if he would be able to move quickly 
enough to open it before the dog could leap up and seize his wrist 
again. The retriever watched him closely. Then he wondered why 
Falstaff didn't want him to go outside. Dogs could sense danger. 

Maybe a bear was prowling around outside, one of the bears that Dad 
said lived in the woods. A bear could gut you and bite your head off 
so quick you wouldn't have a chance to scream, crunch your skull up 
like hard candy, pick its teeth with your armbone, and all they'd find 
in the morning was a bloody scrap of pajamas and maybe a toe that the 
bear had overlooked. He was scaring himself. 

He checked the crack between the door and the jamb to be sure the 
deadbolt was actually in place. He could see the dull brass shine of 
it in there. Good. Safe. 

Of course, Falstaff had been afraid of the door above too, curious but 
afraid. 

He hadn't wanted to open it. Hadn't wanted to come down here, 
really. 

But nobody had been waiting for them on the steps. No bear, for 
sure. 

Maybe this was just a dog who spooked easy. "My dad's a hero," Toby 
whispered. Falstaff cocked his head. "He's a hero cop. He's not 
afraid of nothin', and I'm not afraid of nothin', either." The dog 
stared at him as if to say, Yeah? So what next? Toby looked again at 
the door in front of him. He could just open it a crack. Take a quick 
look. If a bear was on the porch, slam the door fast. "If I wanted to 
go out there and pet a bear, I would." Falstaff waited. "But it's 
late. I'm tired. 

If there's a bear out there, he'll just have to wait till tomorrow." 
Together, he and Falstaff climbed back to his room. 
Dirt was scattered on the stairs. He'd felt it under his bare feet on 
the way down, now he felt it going up. On the high landing, he stood 
on his right leg and brushed the bottom of his left foot, stood on his 
left foot and ushed off his right. Crossed the threshold. Closed the 
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-door. Locked it. Switched off the stair light. Falstaff was at the 
window, gazing out at the backyard, and Toby joined him. 

The snow was coming down so hard there would probably be nine feet of 
it by morning, maybe sixteen. The porch roof below was white. The 
ground was white everywhere, as far as he could see, but he couldn't 
see all that far because the snow was really coming down. He couldn't 
even see the woods. The caretaker's house was swallowed by whipping 
white clouds of snow. Incredible. The dog dropped to the floor and 
trotted away, but Toby watched the snow awhile longer. 

When he began to get sleepy, he turned and saw that Falstaff was 
sitting -in the bed, waiting for him. Toby slipped under the 
blankets, keeping the retriever on top of them. Letting the dog under 
the blankets was going one step too far. Infallible eight-year-old-boy 
instinct told him as much. If Mom or Dad found them like that--boy 
head on one pillow, dog head on the other pillow, covers pulled up to 
their chins--there would be big trouble. 

He reached for the draw cord to shut the drapes, so he and Falstaff 
could go to sleep on a train, crossing Alaska in the dead of winter to 
get to the gold rush country and stake a claim, after which they'd 
change Falstaffs name to White Fang. But as soon as the drapes began 
to close, the dog sprang to its feet on the mattress, ready to leap to 
the floor. "Okay, all right, pleez," Toby said, and he pulled the 
drapes wide open. The retriever settled beside him again, lying so he 
was facing the door at the head of the back stairs. "Dumb dog," Toby 
muttered from the edge of sleep. "Bears don't have door keys." 

In the darkness, when Heather slid against him, smelling faintly of 
soap from her hot bath, Jack knew he'd have to disappoint her. He 
wanted her, needed her, God knew, but he remained obsessed with his 
experience in the cemetery. As the memory grew rapidly less vivid, as 
it became increasingly difficult to recall the precise nature and 
intensity of the emotions that had been part of the encounter, he 
turned it over and over more desperately in his mind, examining it 
repeatedly from every angle, trying to squeeze sudden enlightenment 
from it before it became, like all memories, a dry and faded husk of 
the actual experience. The conversation with the thing that had spoken 
through Toby had been about death--cryptic, even inscrutable, but 
definitely about death. Nothing was as certain to dampen desire as 
brooding about death, graves, and the moldering bodies of old 
friends. 

At least, that's what he thought when she touched him, kissed him, and 
murmured endearments. Instead, to his surprise, he found that he was 
not only ready but rampant, not merely capable but full of more vigor 
than he'd known since long before the shooting back in LA. 

She was so giving yet demanding, alternately submissive and aggressive, 
shy yet all-knowing, as enthusiastic as a bride embarking on a new 
marriage, velvet and silken and alive, so wonderfully alive. 

Later, as he lay on his side and she drifted asleep with her breasts 
pressed to his back, the two of them a pair of spoons, he understood 
that making love with her had been a rejection of the frightening yet 
alluring presence in the cemetery. 
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A day of brooding about death had proved to be a perverse 
aphrodisiac. 

He was facing the windows. The draperies were open. Ghosts of snow 
whirled past the glass, dancing white phantoms spinning to the music of 
the fluting wind, waltzing spirits, pale and cold, waltzing and pale, 
cold and spinning, spinning.. in cloying blackness, blindly feeling his 
way toward the Giver, toward an offer of peace and love, pleasure and 
joy, an end to all fear, ultimate freedom, his for the taking, if only 
he could find the way, the path, the truth. 

The door. Jack knew he had only to find the door, to open it, and a 
world of wonder and beauty would lie beyond. Then he understood that 
the door was within himself, not to be found by stumbling through 
eternal darkness. Such an exciting revelation. Within himself. 

Paradise, paradise. Joy eternal. Just open the door within himself 
and let it in, let it in, as simple as that, just let it in. He wanted 
to accept, surrender, because life was hard when it didn't have to 
be. 

But some stubborn part of him resisted, and he sensed the frustration 
of the Giver beyond the door, frustration and inhuman rage. He said, I 
can't, no, can't, won't, no. Abruptly the darkness acquired weight, 
compacting around him with the inevitability of stone forming around a 
fossil over millennia, a crushing and unrelenting pressure, and with 
that pressure came the Giver's furious assertion: Everything becomes, 
everything becomes me, everything, everything becomes me, me, me. Must 
submit . . . useless to resist . .. Let it in . . . paradise, 
paradise, joy forever . . . Let it in. Hammering on his soul. 

Everything becomes me. Jarring blows at the very structure of him, 
ramming, pounding, colossal blows shaking the deepest foundations of 
his existence: let it in, let it in, let it in, LET IT IN, LET IT IN, 
LET IT IN, LET IT ININININININ--A brief internal sizzle and crack, 
like the hard quick sound of an electrical arc jumping a gap, jittered 
through his mind, and Jack woke. His eyes snapped open. At first he 
lay rigid and still, so terrified he could not move. Bodies are. 

Everything becomes me. Puppets. Surrogates. Jack had never before 
awakened so abruptly or so completely in an instant. One second in a 
dream, the next wide awake and alert and furiously thinking. Listening 
to his frantic heart, he knew that the dream had not actually been a 
dream, not in the usual sense of the word, but . . . an intrusion. 

Communication. Contact. n attempt to subvert and overpower his will 
while he slept. .. Everything becomes me. Those three words were not 
so cryptic now as they had seemed before, but an arrogant assertion of 
superiority and a claim of dominance. They had been spoken by the 
unseen Giver in the dream and by the hate entity that communicated 
through Toby in the graveyard yesterday. In both instances, waking and 
sleeping Jack had felt the presence of something inhuman, impedous, 
hostile, and violent, something that would slaughter the innocent 
without remorse but preferred to subvert and dominate. A greasy nausea 
made Jack gag. He felt cold and dirty inside. Corrupted by the 
Giver's attempt to seize control and nest within him, even though it 
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had not been successful. He knew as surely as he had ever known 
anything in his life that this enemy was real: not a ghost, not a 
demon, not just the paranoid-schizophrenic delusion of a troubled mind, 
but a creature of flesh and blood. No doubt infinitely strange 
flesh. 

And blood that might not be recognized as such by any physician yet 
born. But flesh and blood nonetheless. 

He didn't know what the thing was, where it had come from, or out of 
what it had been born, he knew only that it existed. And that it was 
somewhere on Quartermass Ranch. 

Jack was lying on his side, but Heather was no longer pressed against 
him. She had turned over during the night. Crystals of snow 
tick-tick-ticked against the window, like a finely calibrated 
astronomical clock counting off every hundredth of a second. The wind 
that harried the snow made a low whirring sound. Jack felt as if he 
was listening to the heretofore silent and secret cosmic machinery that 
drove the universe through its unending cycles. Shakily, he pushed 
back the covers, sat up, stood. Heather didn't wake. 

Night still reigned, but a faint gray light in the east hinted at the 
pending coronation of a new day. Striving to quell his nausea, Jack 
stood in just his underwear until his shivering was a greater concern 
than his queasiness. The bedroom was warm. The chill was internal. 

Nevertheless, he went to his closet, quietly slid the door open, 
slipped a pair of jeans from a hanger, pulled them on, then a shirt. 

Awake, he could not sustain the explosive terror that had blown him out 
of the dream, but he was still shaky, fearful--and worried about 
Toby. 

He left the master bedroom, intending to check on his son. Falstaff 
was in the shadowy upstairs hall, staring intently through the open 
door of the bedroom next to Toby's, where Heather had set up her 
computers. An odd, faint light fell through the doorway and glimmered 
on the dog's coat. He was statue-still and tense. His blocky head was 
held low and thrust forward. His tail wasn't wagging. As Jack 
approached, the retriever looked at him and issued a muted, anxious 
whine. 

The soft clicking of a computer keyboard came from the room. Rapid 
typing. 

Silence. Then another burst of typing. 
In Heather's makeshift office, Toby was sitting in front of one of the 
computers. The glow from the monitor, which faced away from Jack, was 
the only source of light in the former bedroom, far brighter than the 
reflection that reached the hallway, it bathed the boy swiftly changing 
shades of blue and green and purple, a sudden splash of red, orange, 
then blue and green. 

At the window behind Toby, the night remained deep because the gray 
insistence of dawn could not yet be seen from that side of the house. 
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Barrages of fine snow flakes tapped the glass and were briefly 
transformed into blue and green sequins by the monitor light. 

Stepping across the threshold, Jack said, "Toby?" The boy didn't 
glance up from the screen. His small hands flew across the keyboard, 
eliciting a furious spate of muffled clicking. No other sound issued 
from the machine none of the usual beeps or burbles. Could Toby 
type? 

No. At least, not like this, not with such ease and speed. The boy's 
eyes glimmered with distorted images of the display on the screen 
before him: violet, emerald, a flicker of red. 

"Hey, kiddo, what're you doing?" 
He didn't respond to the question. 
Yellow, gold, yellow, orange, gold, yellow--the light .. shimmered not 
as if it radiated from a computer screen but as if it was the 
glittering reflection of summer sunlight bouncing off the rippled 
surface of a pond, spangling his face. 

Yellow, orange, umber, amber, yellow . . . 
At the window, spinning snowflakes glimmered like gold dust, hot 
sparks, fireflies. Jack crossed the room with trepidation, sensing 
that normality had not returned when he'd awakened from the 
nightmare. 

The dog padded behind him. 
Together, they rounded one end of the L-shaped work area and stood at 
Toby's side. A riot of constantly changing colors surged across the 
computer screen from left to right, melting into and through one 
another, now fading, now intensifying, now bright, now dark, curling, 
pulsing, an electronic kaleidoscope in which none of the ceaselessly 
transfigured patterns had straight edges. It was a full-color 
monitor. 

Nevertheless, Jack had never seen anything like this before. 
He put a hand on his son's shoulder. 
Toby shuddered. 
He didn't look up or speak, but a subtle change in his attitude implied 
that he was no longer as spellbound by the display on the monitor as he 
had been when Jack first spoke to him from the doorway. 

His fingers rattled the keys again. 
"What're you doing?" Jack asked. 
"Talking." 
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Masses of yellow and pink, spiraling threads of rippling ribbons of 
purple and blue. The shapes, patterns, and rhythms of change were 
mesmerizing when they combined in beautiful and graceful ways--but also 
when they were ugly and chaotic. 

Jack sensed movement in the room, but he had to make an effort to look 
up from the compelling protomic images on the screen. Heather stood in 
the doorway, wearing her quilted red robe, hair tousled. She didn't 
ask what was happening. 

if she already knew. She wasn't looking directly at Jack or Toby but 
at the window behind them. Jack turned and saw showers of snowflakes 
repeatedly changing color as the display on the monitor continued its 
rapid and fluid metamorphosis. 

"Talking to whom?" he asked Toby. 
After a hesitation, the boy said, "No name." 
His voice was not flat and soulless as it had been in the graveyard but 
neither was it quite normal. 

"Where is he?" Jack asked. 
"Not he." 
"Where is she?" 
"Not she." 
Frowning, Jack said, "Then what?" 
The boy said nothing, gazed unblinking at the screen. 
"It?" Jack wondered. 
"All right," Toby said. 
Approaching them, Heather looked strangely at Jack. 
"It?" 
To Toby, Jack said, "What is it?" 
"Whatever it wants to be." 
"Where is it?" 
"Wherever it wants to be," the boy said cryptically. 
"What is it doing here?" 
"Becoming." 
Heather stepped around the table, stood on the other side of Toby, and 
stared at the monitor. 
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"I've seen this before." 
Jack was relieved to know the bizarre display wasn't unique, therefore 
not necessarily related to the experience in the cemetery, but 
Heather's demeanor was such that his relief was extremely 
short-lived. 

"Seen it when?" 
"Yesterday morning, before we went into town. On the TV in the living 
room. 

Toby was watching it ... sort of enraptured like this. Strange." 
She shuddered and reached for the master switch. 
"Shut it off." 
"No," Jack said, reaching in front of Toby to stay her hand. "Wait. 
Let's see." 
"Honey," she said to Toby, "what's going on here, what kind of game is 
this?" 

"No game. I dreamed it, and in the dream I came in then I woke up and 
I was here, so we started talking-" 

"Does this make any sense to 
you?" 

she asked Jack. 
"Yes. Some." 
"What's going on, Jack?" 
"Later." 
"Am I out of the loop on something? What is this all about?" When he 
didn't respond, she said, "I don't like this." 

"Neither do I," Jack said. "But let's see where it ads, whether we can 
figure this out." 

"Figure what out?" The boy's fingers pecked busily at the keys. 
Although no words appeared on the screen, it seemed as if new colors 
and fresh patterns appeared and progressed in a rhythm that matched his 
typing. 

"Yesterday, on the TV . . . I asked Toby what it was," Heather said. 
"He didn't know. But he said . . . he liked it." Toby stopped 
typing. The colors faded, then suddenly intensified and flowed in 
wholly new patterns and shades. 
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"No," the boy said. "No what?" Jack asked. "Not talking to you. 
Talking to ... 
it." And to the -screen, he said, "No. Go away." Waves of sour 
green. Blossoms of blood red appeared at random points across the 
screen, turned black, flowered into red again, then wilted, streamed, a 
viscous pus yellow. The endlessly mutagenic display dazed Jack when he 
watched it too long, and he could understand how it could completely 
capture the immature mind of an eight-year-old boy, hypnotize him. 

As Toby began to hammer the keyboard once more, the colors on the 
screen faded--then abruptly brightened again, although in new shades 
and in yet more varied and fluid forms. 

"It's a language," Heather exclaimed softly. For a moment Jack stared 
at her, uncomprehending. She said, "The colors, the patterns. A 
language." He checked the monitor. "How can it be a language?" 

"It is," she insisted. "There aren't any repetitive shapes, nothing 
that could be letters, words." 

"Talking," Toby confirmed. He pounded the keyboard. As before, the 
patterns and colors acquired a rhythm consistent with the pace at which 
he input his side of the conversation. "A tremendously complicated and 
expressive language," Heather said, "beside which English or French or 
Chinese is primitive." 

Toby stopped typing, and the response from the other conversant was 
dark and churning, black and bile green, clotted with red. "No," the 
boy said to the screen. The colors became more dour, the rhythms more 
vehement. "No," Toby repeated. Churning, seething, spiraling reds. 

For a third time-"No." Jack said, "What're you saying 'no' to?" 
"To what it wants," Toby replied. "What does it want?" 
"It wants me to let it in, just let it in." 
"Oh, Jesus," Heather said, and reached for the Off switch again. Jack 
stopped her hand as he'd done before. 

Her fingers were pale and frigid. "What's wrong?" he asked, though he 
was afraid he knew. The words "let it in" had jolted him with an 
impact almost as great as one of Anson Oliver's bullets. "Last night," 
Heather said, staring in horror at the screen. "In a dream." Maybe 
his own hand turned cold. Or maybe she felt him tremble. She 
blinked. 

"You've had it too, the dream!" 
"Just tonight. Woke me." 
"The door," she said. "It wants you to find a door in yourself, open 
the door and let it in. Jack, damn it, what's going on here, what the 
hell's going on?" 
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He wished he knew. Or maybe he didn't. He was more scared of this 
thing than of anyone he'd confronted as a cop. He had killed Anson 
Oliver, but he didn't know if he could touch this enemy, didn't know if 
it could even be found or seen. 

"No," Toby said to the screen. Falstaff whined and retreated to a 
corner, stood there, tense and watchful. "No. No." Jack crouched 
beside his son. 

"Toby, right now you can hear it and me, both of us?" 
"Yes." 
"You're not completely under its influence." 
"Only a little." 
"You're ... in between somewhere." 
"Between," the boy confirmed. "Do you remember yesterday in the 
graveyard?" 

"Yes." 
"You remember this thing . . . speaking through you." 
"Yes." 
"What?" Heather asked, surprised. "What about the graveyard?" On the 
screen: undulant black, bursting boils of yellow, seeping spots of 
kidney red. "Jack," Heather said, angrily, "you said nothing was wrong 
when you went up to the cemetery. You said Toby was daydreaming--just 
standing up there daydreaming." 

To Toby, Jack said, "But you didn't remember anything about the 
graveyard right after it happened." 

"No." 
"Remember what?" Heather demanded. "What the hell was there to 
remember?" 

"Toby," Jack said, "are you able to remember now because . . 
. because you're half under its spell again but only half . . . 
neither here nor there?" 
"Between," the boy acknowledged. "Tell me about this 'it' you're 
talking to," Jack said. "Jack, don't," Heather said. She looked 
haunted. He knew how she felt. But he said, "We have to learn about 
it." 

"Why?" 
"Maybe to survive." He didn't have to explain. She knew what he 
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meant. She had endured some degree of contact in her sleep. The 
hostility of the thing. Its inhuman rage. To Toby, he said, "Tell me 
about it." 

"What do you want to know?" -On the screen: blues of every shade, 
spreading like Japanese fans but without the sharp folds, one blue over 
the other, through the other. 

"Where does it come from, Toby?" 
"Outside." 
"What do you mean?" 
"Beyond." .. 
"Beyond what?" 
"This world." Is it ... extraterrestrial?" -Heather said, "Oh, my 
God." "Yes," Toby said. "No." 

"Which, Toby?" 
"Not as simple as ... E. T. Yes. 
And no." 
"What is it doing here?" 
"Becoming." 
"Becoming what?" 
"Everything." Jack shook his head. "I don't understand." 
"Neither do I," the boy said, riveted to the display on the computer 
monitor. Heather stood with her hands fisted against her breast. 

Jack said, Toby, yesterday in the graveyard, you weren't just 
between. 

like now." 
"Gone." 
"Yes, you were gone all the way." 
"Gone." 
"I couldn't reach you." 
"Shit," Heather said furiously, and Jack didn't look up at her because 
he knew she was glaring at him. "What happened yesterday, Jack? Why 
didn't you tell me, for Christ's sake? Something like this, why didn't 
you tell me?" Without meeting her eyes, he said, "I will, I'll tell 
you, just let me finish this." 
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"What else haven't you told me," she demanded. "What in God's name's 
happening, Jack?" 

To Toby, he said, "When you were gone yesterday. son, where were 
you?" 

"Gone." 
"Gone where?" 
"Under." 
"Under? Under what?" 
"Under it." 
"Under. . . ?" 
"Controlled." 
"Under this thing? Under its mind?" 
"Yeah. In a dark place." 
Toby's voice quavered with fear at the memory. "A dark place, cold, 
squeezed in a dark place, hurting." 

"Shut it off, shut it down!" Heather demanded. Jack looked up at 
her. 

She was glaring, all right, red in the face, as furious as she was 
frightened. Praying that she would be patient, he said, "We can shut 
the computer off, but we can't keep this thing out that way. Think 
about it, Heather. It can get to us by routes through dreams, through 
the TV. Apparently even while we're awake, somehow. Toby was awake 
yesterday when it got to him." 

"I let it in," the boy said. Jack hesitated to ask the question that 
was, perhaps, the most critical of all. "Toby, listen ... when it's in 
you ... does it have to be actually in you? Physically? A part of it 
inside you somewhere?" 

Something in the brain that would show up in a dissection. Or attached 
to the spine. The kind of thing for which Eduardo had wanted Travis 
Potter to look. 

"No," the boy said. "No seed . . . no egg .. . no slug . .. nothing 
that it is." 

"No." That was good, very good, thank God and all the angels, that was 
very good. Because if something was implanted, how did you get it out 
of your child, how did you free him, how could you cut open his brain 
and tear it out? Toby said, "Only thoughts. Nothing in you but 
thoughts." 

"You mean, like it uses telepathic control?" 
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"Yeah." How suddenly the impossible could seem inevitable. 
Telepathic control. Something from beyond, hostile and strange, able 
to control other species telepathically. right out of a science 
fiction movie, yet it felt real and true. "And now it wants in 
again?" 

Heather asked Toby. "Yes." 
"But you won't let it in?" she asked. "No." Jack said, "You can 
really keep it out?" 

"Yes." They had hope. They weren't finished yet. Jack said, "Why did 
it leave you yesterday?" 

"Pushed it." 
"You pushed it out?" 
"Yeah. Pushed it. Hates me." 
"For pushing it out?" 
"Yeah." His voice sank to a whisper. "But it's ... it . . 
. it hates . . . hates everything." 
"Why?" With a fury of scarlet and orange swirling across his face and 
flashing in his eyes, the boy still whispered: "Because ... that's what 
it is." 

"It's hate?" 
"That's what it does." 
"But why?" 
"That's what it is." 
"Why?" Jack repeated patiently. "Because it knows." 
"Knows what?" 
"Nothing matters." 
"It knows ... that nothing matters?" 
"Yes." 
"What does that mean?" 
"Nothing means." Dizzied by the only half-coherent exchange, Jack 
said, "I don't understand." Ikl still lower whisper: "Everything can 
be underd, but nothing can be understood." I want to understand it." 

everything can be understood, but nothing can be stood." Hether's 
hands were still fisted, but now she pressed to her eyes, as if she 
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couldn't bear to look at him in this half-trance any longer. Nothing 
can be understood," Toby murmured again. 

frustrated, Jack said, "But it understands us." No." What doesn't it 
understand about us?" Lots of things. Mainly ... we resist." 

"Resist?" 
"We resist it." 
"And that's new to it?" 
"Yeah. Never before." 
"Everything else lets it in," Heather said. Toby nodded. "Except 
people." Chalk one up for human beings, Jack thought. 

Good old Homo sapiens, bullheaded to the last. We're just not 
happy-go-lucky enough to let the puppetmaster jerk us around any way it 
wants, too uptight, too damned stuborn to love being slaves. 

"Oh," Toby said quietly, more to himself than to hem or to the entity 
controlling the computer. "I see." 

"What do you see?" Jack asked. Interesting." 
"What's interesting?" 
"The how." Jack looked at Heather, but she didn't seem to be tracking 
the enigmatic conversation any better than he was. "It senses," Toby 
said. "Toby?" 

"Let's not talk about this," the boy said, glancing away from the 
screen for a moment to give Jack what seemed to be an imploring or 
warning look. "Talk about what?" 

"Forget it," Toby said, gazing at the monitor again. 
"Forget what?" 
"I better be good. Here, listen, it wants to know." Then, with a 
voice as muffled as a sigh in a handkerchief, forcing Jack to lean 
closer, Toby seemed to change the subject: "What were they doing down 
there?" Jack said, "You mean in the graveyard?" 

"Yeah." 
"You know." 
"But it doesn't. It wants to know." 
"It doesn't understand death," Jack said. "No." 
"How can that be?" 
"Life is," the boy said, clearly interpreting a viewpoint that belonged 
to the creature with which he was in contact. "No meaning. No 
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beginning. No end. Nothing matters. It is." 
"Surely this isn't the first world it's ever found where things die," 
Heather said. Toby began to tremble, and his voice rose, but barely. 

"They resist too, the ones under the ground. It can use them, but it 
can't know them." can use them, but it can't know them. A few pieces 
of the puzzle suddenly fit together. Reling only a tiny portion of the 
truth. A monstrous, terible portion of the truth. Jack remained 
crouched beside the boy in stunned silence. At last he said weakly, 
"Use them?" 

"But it can't know them." How does it use them?" 
." Puppets." Heather gasped. "The smell. Oh, dear God. The smell 
,the back staircase." Though Jack wasn't entirely sure what she was 
talking about, he knew that she'd realized what was out e on the 
Quartermass Ranch. Not just this thing in beyond, this thing that 
could send the same dream to both of them, this unknowable alien thing 
whose purpose was to become and to hate. Other things were out e. Toby 
whispered, "But it can't know them. Not even as much as it can know 
us. It can use them better. Better than it can use us. But it wants to 
know them. Become them. And they resist." Jack had heard enough. Far 
too much. Shaken, he rose from beside Toby. He flipped the master 
switch to off, and the screen blanked. "It's going to come for us," 
Toby said, and then he Ucended slowly out of his half-trance. 

Bitter storm wind shrieked at the window behind them, but even if it 
had been able to reach into the room, it couldn't have made Jack any 
colder than he already was. Toby swiveled in the office chair to 
direct a puzzled look first at his mother, then at his father. The dog 
came out of the corner. Though no one was touching it, the master 
switch on the computer flicked from the Off to the On position. 

Everyone twitched in surprise, including Falstaff. The screen gushed 
with vile and squirming colors. Heather stooped, grabbed the power 
cord, and tore it out of the wall socket. The monitor went dark again, 
stayed dark. 

"It won't stop," Toby said, getting up from the chair. Jack turned to 
the window and saw that dawn had come, dim and gray, revealing a 
landscape battered by a full-scale blizzard. In the past twelve hours, 
fourteen to sixteen inches of snow had fallen, drifting twice that deep 
where the wind chose to pile it. 

Either the first storm had stalled, instead of moving farther eastward, 
or the second had blown in even sooner than expected overlapping the 
first. "It won't stop," Toby repeated solemnly. He wasn't talking 
about the snow. 

Heather pulled him into her arms, lifted and held him as tightly and 
protectively as she would have held an infant. Everything becomes 
me. 

Jack didn't know all that might be meant by those words, what horrors 
they might encompass, but he knew Toby was right. The thing wouldn't 
stop until it had become them and they'd become part of it. 
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Condensation had frozen on the inside of the lower panes in the French 
window. 

Jack touched the glistening with a fingertip, but he was so frigid with 
fear that ice felt no colder than his own skin. Beyond the kitchen 
windows, the white world was filled with cold motion, the relentless 
angular descent of driven snow. Restless, Heather moved continuously 
back and forth between the two windows, nervously anticipating the 
pearance of a monstrously corrupted intruder in that otherwise sterile 
landscape. 

They were dressed in the new ski suits they'd bought the previous 
morning, prepared to get out of the house quickly if they came under 
attack and found their prison indefensible. The loaded Mossberg 
twelve-gauge lay on the table. 

Jack could drop the yellow tablet and snatch up the gun in the event 
that something--don't even think about what it might be launched an 
assault on the house. The Micro Uzi and the Korth .38 were on the 
counter by the sink. 

Toby sat at the table, sipping hot chocolate from a mug, and the dog 
was lying at his feet. The boy was no longer in a trance state, was 
entirely disconnected from the mysterious invader of dreams, yet he was 
uncharacteristically subdued. 

? Although Toby had been fine yesterday afternoon and evening, 
following the apparently far more extensive assault he had suffered in 
the graveyard, Heather worried about him. He had come away from that 
first experience with no conscious memory of it, but the trauma of 
total mental enslavement had to have left scars deep in the mind, the 
effects of which might become evident only over a period of weeks or 
months. And he did remember the second attempt at control, because 
this time the puppetmaster hadn't succeeded in either dominating him or 
repressing the memory of the telepathic invasion. The encounter she'd 
had with the creature in a dream the night before last had been 
frightening and so repulsive that she had been overcome with nausea. 

Toby's experiences with it, much more intimate than her own, must have 
been immeasurably more terrifying and affecting. 

Moving restively from one window to the other, Heather stopped behind 
Toby's chair, put her hands on his thin shoulders, gave him a squeeze, 
smoothed his hair, kissed the top of his head. Nothing must happen to 
him. Unbearable to think of him being touched by that thing, whatever 
it was and whatever it might look like, or by one of its puppets. 

Intolerable. She would do anything to prevent that. Anything. She 
would die to prevent it. 

Jack looked up from the tablet after quickly reading the first three or 
four pages. His face was as white as the snowscape. "Why didn't you 
tell me about this when you found it?" 

"Because of the way he'd hidden it in the freezer, I thought it must be 
personal, private, none of our business. Seemed like something only 
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Paul Youngblood ought to see." 
"You should've showed it to me." 
"Hey, you didn't tell me about what happened in the cemetery," she 
said, "and that's a hell of a lot bigger .." I'm sorry." You didn't 
share what Paul and Travis told you. that was wrong. But now you know 
everything. yes, finally." She had been furious that he'd withheld 
such things from her, but she hadn't been able to sustain her anger, 
she could not rekindle it now. Because, of course she was equally 
guilty. She'd not told him about the unease she'd felt during the 
entire tour of the property yesterday afternoon. The premonitions of 
violence and the unprecedented intensity of her nightmare. Certain 
that something had been in the back stairwell she'd gone into Toby's 
room the night before all the years they had been married, there had 
not been as many gaps in their communication with each-other since 
they'd come to Quartermass Ranch. They wanted their new life not 
merely to work but to be ct, and they had been unwilling to express 
doubts observations. For that failure to reach out to each , though 
motivated by the best intentions, they might pay with their lives. 

Indicating the tablet, she said, "Is it anything?" It's everything I 
think. The start of it. His account what he saw." He Spot-read to 
them about the waves of virtually palpable sound that had awakened 
Eduardo Fernandez in the night, about the spectral light in the 
woods. 

"I thought it would've come from the sky, a ship," she said. "You 
expect ... after all the movies, all the books, you expect them to come 
in massive ships." 

"When you're talking about extraterrestrials, alien means truly 
different, deeply strange," Jack said. "Eduardo makes that point on 
the first page. Deeply strange, beyond easy comprehension. Nothing we 
could imagine--including ships." 

"I'm scared about what might happen, what I might have to do," Toby 
said. A blast of wind skirled under the back porch roof, as shrill as 
an electronic shriek, as questing and insistent as a living creature. 

Heather crouched at Toby's side. "We'll be okay, honey. Now that we 
know something's out there, and a little bit about what it is, we'll 
handle it." 

She wished she could be half as confident as she sounded. "But I 
shouldn't be scared." 

Looking up from the tablet, Jack said, "Nothing shameful about being 
afraid, kiddo." 

"You're never afraid," the boy said. "Wrong. I'm scared half to death 
right now." That revelation amazed Toby. "You are? But you're a 
hero." 

"Maybe I am, and maybe I'm not. But theres nothing unique about being 
a hero," Jack said. 
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"Most people are heroes. Your mom's a hero, so are you." 
"Me?" 
"For the way you handled this past year. Took courage to deal with 
everything." didn't feel brave." 

"Truly brave people never do." said, "Lots of people are heroes even 
if they it dodge bullets or chase bad guys." People who go to work 
every day, make sacrifices for their families, and get through life 
without hurting people if they can help it--those are the real heroes," 
Jack told him. "Lots of them out there. And once in a while all of 
them are afraid." 

"Then it's okay if I'm scared?" Toby said. rmore than okay," Jack 
said. "If you were never afraid of anything, then you'd be either very 
stupid or me. Now, I know you can't be stupid because you're Insanity, 
on the other hand . . . well, I can't be )sure about that, since it 
runs in your mom's family." he smiled. Then maybe I can do it," Toby 
said. "We'll get through this," Jack assured him. Heather met Jack's 
eyes and smiled as if to say, You did that so well, you ought to be 
Father of the Year. He winked at her. God, she loved him. 

"Then it's insane," the boy said. Frowning, Heather said, "What?" 
"The alien. 
Can't be stupid. It's smarter than we are, can do things we can't. So 
it must be insane. It's never afraid." Heather and Jack glanced at 
each other. No smiles this time. "Never," Toby repeated, both hands 
clasped tightly around the mug of hot chocolate. 

Heather returned to the windows, first one, then the other. Jack 
skimmed the tablet pages he hadn't yet read, found a passage about the 
doorway, and quoted from it aloud. Standing on edge, a giant coin of 
darkness. As thin as a sheet of paper. Big enough to drive a train 
through. A blackness of exceptional purity. 

Eduardo daring to put his hand in it. His sense that something was 
coming out of that fearful gloom. 

Pushing the tablet aside, getting up from his chair, Jack said, "That's 
enough for now. We can read the rest of it later. Eduardo's account 
supports our own experiences. That's what's important. They might've 
thought he was a crazy old geezer, or that we're flaky city people 
who've come down with a bad case of the heebie-jeebies in all this open 
space, but it isn't as easy to dismiss all of us." 

Heather said, "So who're we going to call, the county sheriff?" "Paul 
Youngblood, then Travis Potter. They already suspect something's wrong 
out here--though, God knows, neither of them could have a clue that 
it's any-thing this wrong. With a couple of locals on our side, 
there's a chance the sheriff's deputies might take us more 
seriously." 

Carrying the shotgun with him, Jack went to the wall phone. He plucked 
the handset off the cradle, listened, rattled the disconnect lever, 
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punched a couple of numbers, and hung up. "The line's dead." He had 
suspected as much even as he started toward the phone. 

After the incident with the computer, she knew that getting help wasn't 
going to be easy, she hadn't wanted to think about the possibility 
they were trapped. 

"Maybe the storm brought down the lines," Jack said. "Aren't the phone 
lines on the same poles as the power and we have power, so it wasn't 
the storm." the pegboard, he snatched the keys to the Explorer and to 
Eduardo's Cherokee. 

"Okay, let's get the out of here. We'll drive over to Paul and 
Carolyn's, call Travis from there." 

Heather tucked the yellow tablet into the waistband of her pants, 
against her stomach, and zipped her ski-jacket over it. She took the 
Micro Uzi and the Korth from the countertop, one in each hand. Toby 
scooted off his chair, Falstaff came out from under the table and 
padded directly to the connecting door between the kitchen and the 
garage. The dog seemed to understand that they were getting out, and 
he fully concurred with their decision. 

Jack unlocked the door, opened it fast but warily, sing the threshold 
with the shotgun held in front of him, as if he expected their enemy to 
be in the garage. 

flipped the light switch, looked left and right, and said, "Okay." 
Toby followed his father, with Falstaff at his side. Heather left 
last, glancing back at the windows. ow. Nothing but cold cascades of 
snow. Even with the lights on, the garage was murky. It was as chilly 
as a walk-in refrigerator. The big sectional roll-up door rattled in 
the wind, but she didn't push the button to raise it, they would be 
safer if they activated it with the remote from inside the Explorer. 

While Jack made sure that Toby got in the back seat and buckled his 
safety belt and that the dog was in as well, Heather hurried to the 
passenger side. She watched the floor as she moved, convinced that 
something was under the Explorer and would seize her by the ankles. 

She remembered the dimly and briefly glimpsed presence on the other 
side of the threshold when she had opened the door a crack in her dream 
Friday night. Glistening and dark. Writhing and quick. Its full 
shape had not been discernible, although she had perceived something 
large, with vaguely serpentine coils. From memory she could clearly 
recall its cold hiss of triumph before she had slammed the door and 
exploded from the nightmare. 

Nothing slithered from under either vehicle and grabbed at her, 
however, and she made it safely into the front passenger seat of the 
Explorer, where she put the heavy Uzi on the floor between her feet. 

She held on to the revolver. "Maybe the snow's too deep," she said as 
Jack leaned in the driver's door and handed her the twelve-gage. She 
braced the shotgun between her knees, butt against the floor, muzzle 
aimed at the ceiling. 
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"The storm's a lot worse than they predicted." Getting behind the 
wheel, slamming his door, he said, "It'll be all right. We might push 
a little snow here and there with the bumper, but I don't think it's 
deep enough yet to be a big problem." 

"I wish we'd had that plow attached first thing." Jack jammed the key 
in the ignition, twisted the switch, but was rewarded only with 
silence, not even the grinding of the starter. He tried again. 

Nothing. He checked to be sure the Explorer wasn't in gear. Tried a 
third time without success. Heather was no more surprised than she had 
been when the phone proved to be dead. Although Jack said nothing and 
was reluctant to meet her eyes, she knew he had expected it too, which 
was why he had also brought the keys to the Cherokee. 

While Heather, Toby, and Falstaff got out of the Explorer, Jack slipped 
behind the wheel of the other vehicle. That engine wouldn't turn over, 
either. He raised the hood on the Jeep, then the hood on the 
Explorer. 

He couldn't find any problems. They went back into the house. 
Heather locked the connecting door to the garage. She doubted that 
locks were of any use in keeping out the thing that now held dominion 
over Quartermass Ranch. For all they knew, it could walk through walls 
if it wished, but she engaged the dead bolt, anyway. 

Jack looked grim. "Let's prepare for the worst." 
CHAPTER TWENTY. 
Shatters of snow ticked and pinged against the windows in the 
ground-floor study. Though the outer world was whitewashed and full of 
glare, little daylight filtered into the room. Lamps with parchment 
shades cast an amber glow. 

Reviewing their own guns and those that Eduardo had inherited from 
Stanley Quartermass, Jack chose to load only one other weapon: a Colt 
.45 revolver. 

"I'll carry the Mossberg and the Colt," he told Heather. "You'll have 
the Micro Uzi and the thirty-eight. Use the revolver only as backup to 
the Uzi." 

"That's it?" she asked. He regarded her bleakly. "If we can't stop 
whatever's coming at us with this much firepower, a third gun isn't 
going to do either of us a damned bit of good." 

In one of the two drawers in the base of the gun cabinet, among other 
sporting paraphernalia, he found three game-hunting holsters that 
belted around the waist. One was crafted from nylon or rayon--some 
man-made fabric, anyway--and the other two were leather. Exposed to 
below-zero temperatures for an extended period, nylon would remain 
flexible long after the leather holster would stiffen, a handgun might 
snag or bind up slightly if the leather contracted around it. 
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Because he intended to be outdoors while Heather remained inside, he 
gave her the most supple of the two leather rigs and kept the nylon for 
himself. Their ski suits were replete with zippered pockets. They 
filled many of them with spare ammunition, though it might be 
optimistic to expect to have a chance to reload after the assault 
began. That an assault would occur, Jack had no doubt. 

He didn't know what form it would take--an entirely physical attack or 
a combination of physical and mental blows. He didn't know whether the 
damn thing would come itself or through surrogates, neither when nor 
from what direction it would launch its onslaught, but he knew it would 
come It was impatient with their resistance, eager to control and 
become them. Little imagination was required to see that it would next 
want to study them at much closer range, perhaps dissect them and 
examine their brains and nervous systems to learn the secret of their 
ability to resist. He had no illusions that they would be killed or 
anesthetized before being subjected to that exploratory surgery. 

Jack put his shotgun on the kitchen table again. From one of the 
cupboards he removed a round galvanized-tin can, unscrewed the lid, and 
extracted a box of wooden matches, which he put on the table. While 
Heather stood watch at one window, Toby and Falstaff at the other, Jack 
went down to the basement. In the second of the two lower rooms, along 
the wall beside the silent generator, stood eight five-gallon cans of 
gasoline, a fuel supply they had laid in at Paul Youngblood's 
suggestion. He carried two cans upstairs and set them on the kitchen 
floor beside the table. 

"If the guns can't stop it," he said, "if it gets inside, and you're 
backed into a corner, then the risk of fire might be worth taking." 

"Burn down the house?" 
Heather asked disbelievingly. "It's only a house. It can be 
rebuilt. 

If you have no other choice, then to hell with the house. If bullets 
don't work--" He saw stark terror in her eyes. "They will work, I'm 
sure of that, the guns will stop it, especially that Uzi. But if by 
some chance, some one-in-a-million chance, that doesn't stop it, fire 
will get it for sure. Or at least drive it back. Fire could be just 
what you need to give you time to distract the thing, hold it off, and 
get out before you're trapped." 

She stared at him dubiously. "Jack, why do you keep saying 'you' 
instead of 'we'?" He hesitated. She wasn't going to like this. He 
didn't like it much himself. There was no alternative. "You'll stay 
here with Toby and the dog while I--" 

"No way." 
"--while I try to get to the Youngbloods' ranch for help." 
"No, we shouldn't split up." 
"We don't have a choice, Heather." 
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"It'll take us easier if we split up." 
"Probably won't make a difference." 
"I think it will." 
"This shotgun doesn't add much to that Uzi." He gestured at the 
whiteout beyond the window. "Anyway, we can't all make it through that 
weather." She stared morosely at the wall of blowing snow, unable to 
argue the point. 

"I could make it," Toby said, smart enough to know that he was the weak 
link. "I really could." The dog sensed the boy's anxiety and padded 
to his side, rubbed against him. "Dad, please, just give me a 
chance." 

Two miles wasn't a great distance on a warm spring day, an easy walk, 
but they were faced with fierce cold against which even their ski suits 
were not perfect protection. 

Furthermore, the power of the wind would work against them in three 
ways: reducing the subjective air temperature at least ten degrees 
below what it was objectively, pounding them into exhaustion as they 
tried to make progress against it, and obscuring their desired route 
with whirling clouds of snow that reduced visibility to near zero. 

Jack figured he and Heather might have the strength and stamina 
required to walk two miles under those conditions, with snow up to 
their knees, higher in places, but he was sure Toby wouldn't get a 
quarter of the way, not even walking in the trail they broke for him. 

Before they'd gone far, they would have to take turns carrying him. 
Thereafter, they would quickly become debilitated and surely die in 
that white desolation. 

"I don't want to stay here," Toby said. "I don't want to do what I 
might have to do if I stay here." 

"And I don't want to leave you here." Jack squatted in front of him. 
"I'm not abandoning you, Toby. You know I'd never do that, don't 
you?" 

Toby nodded somberly. "And you can depend on your mom. She's tough. 
She won't let anything happen to you." 
"I know," Toby said, being a brave soldier. 
"Good. Okay. Now I've got a couple of things to do yet, and then I'll 
go. I'll be back fast as I can--straight over to Ponderosa Pines, 
round up help, get back here with the cavalry. You've seen those old 
movies. The cavalry always gets there in the nick of time, doesn't 
it? 

You'll be okay. We'll all be okay." The boy searched his eyes. He 
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met his son's fear with a falsely reassuring smile and felt like the 
most deceitful bastard ever born. He was not as confident as he 
sounded. Not by half. And he did feel as if he was running out on 
them. What if he got help--but they were dead by the time he returned 
to Quartermass Ranch? 

He might as well kill himself then. Wouldn't be a point in going on. 
Truth was, it probably wouldn't work out that them dead and him 
alive. 

At best he had a fifty-fifty chance of making it all the way to 
Ponderosa Pines. If the storm didn't bring him down ... something else 
might. He didn't know how closely they were being observed, whether 
their adversary would be aware of his departure. If it did see him go, 
it wouldn't let him get far. Then Heather and Toby would be on their 
own. Nothing else he could do. No other plan made sense. Zero 
options. 

And time running out. 
Hammer blows boomed through the house. Hard, hollow, fearful sounds. 
Jack used three-inch steel nails because they were the largest he had 
been able to find in the garage tool cabinet. Standing in the 
vestibule at the bottom of the back stairs, he drove those spikes at a 
severe angle through the outside door and into the jamb. Two above the 
knob, two below. The door was solid oak, and the long nails bit 
through it only with relentless hammering. The hinges were on the 
inside. Nothing on the back porch could pry them loose. Nevertheless, 
he decided to fix the door to the jamb on that flank as well, though 
with only two nails instead of four. He drove another two through the 
upper part of the door and into the header, just for good measure. Any 
intruder that entered those back stairs could take two immediate routes 
once it crossed the outer threshold, instead of just one as with the 
other doors. It could enter the kitchen and confront Heathen-or turn 
the other way and swiftly ascend to Toby's room. Jack wanted to 
prevent anything from reaching the second floor because, from there, it 
could slip into several rooms, avoiding a frontal assault, forcing 
Heather to search for it until it had a chance to attack her from 
behind. After he'd driven the final nail home, he disengaged the 
dead-bolt lock and tried to open the door. He couldn't budge it, no 
matter how hard he strained. No intruder could get through it quietly 
anymore, it would have to be broken down, and Heather would hear it 
regardless of where she was. He twisted the thumb-turn. The lock 
clacked into the striker plate again. Secure. 

While Jack nailed shut the other door at the back of the house, Toby 
helped Heather pile pots, pans, dishes, flatware, and drinking glasses 
in front of the door between the kitchen and the back porch. That 
carefully balanced tower would topple with a resounding crash if the 
door was pushed open even slowly, alerting them if they were elsewhere 
in the house. Falstaff kept his distance from the rickety assemblage, 
as if he understood that he would be in big trouble if he was the one 
to knock it over. "What about the cellar door?" Toby said. "That's 
safe," Heather assured him. "There's no way into the cellar from 
outside." As Falstaff watched with interest, they constructed a 
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similar security device in front of the door between the kitchen and 
the garage. Toby crowned it with a glassful of spoons atop an inverted 
metal bowl. They carried bowls, dishes, pots, baking pans, and forks 
to the foyer. After Jack left, they would construct a third tower 
inside the front door. Heather couldn't help feeling that the alarms 
were inadequate. Pathetic, actually. However, they couldn't nail shut 
all the first-floor doors, because they might have to escape by one--in 
which case they could just shove the tottering housewares aside, slip 
the lock, and be gone. And they hadn't time to transform the house 
into a sealed fortress. 

Besides, every fortress had the potential to become a prison. Even if 
Jack had felt there was time enough to attempt to secure the house a 
little better, he might not have tried. Regardless of what measures 
were taken, the large number of windows made the place difficult to 
defend. The best he could do was hurry from window to window 
upstairs--while Heather checked those on the ground floor--to make sure 
they were locked. A lot of them appeared to be painted shut and not 
easy to open in any case. Pane after pane revealed a misery of snow 
and wind. He caught no glimpse of anything unearthly. 

In Heather's closet off the master bedroom, Jack sorted through her 
wool scarves. He selected one that was loosely knit. He found his 
sunglasses in a dresser drawer. He wished he had ski goggles. 

Sunglasses would have to be good enough. He couldn't walk the two 
miles to Ponderosa Pines with his eyes unprotected in that glare, he'd 
be risking snowblindness. 

When he returned to the kitchen, where Heather was checking the locks 
on the last of the windows, he lifted the phone again, hoping for a 
dial tone. Folly, of course. A dead line. "Got to go," he said. 

They might have hours or only precious minutes before their nemesis 
decided to come after them. He couldn't guess whether the thing would 
be swift or leisurely in its approach, there was no way of 
understanding its thought processes or of knowing whether time had any 
meaning to it. Alien. Eduardo had been right. Utterly alien. 

Mysterious. 
Infinitely strange. 
Heather and Toby accompanied him to the front door. He held Heather 
briefly but tightly, fiercely. He kissed her only once. He said an 
equally quick goodbye to Toby. He dared not linger, for he might 
decide at any second not to leave, after all. Ponderosa Pines was the 
only hope they had. Not going was tantamount to admitting they were 
doomed. Yet leaving his wife and son alone in that house was the 
hardest thing he had ever done--harder than seeing Tommy Fernandez and 
Luther Bryson cut down at his side, harder than facing Anson Oliver in 
front of that burning service station, harder by far than recovering 
from a spinal injury. He told himself that going required as much 
courage on his part as staying required of them, not because of the 
ordeal the storm would pose and not because something unspeakable might 
be waiting for him out there, but because, if they died and he lived, 
his grief and guilt and selfloathing would make life darker than 
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death. 
He wound the scarf around his face, from the chin to just below his 
eyes. 

Although it went around twice, the weave was loose enough to allow him 
to breathe. He pulled up the hood and tied it under his chin to hold 
the scarf in place. He felt like a knight girding for battle. Toby 
watched, nervously chewing his lower lip. Tears shimmered in his eyes, 
but he strove not to spill them. 

Being the little hero, so the boy's tears would be less visible to him 
and, therefore, less corrosive of his will to leave. 

He pulled on his gloves and picked up the Mossberg shotgun. The Colt 
.45 was holstered at his right hip. The moment had come. Heather 
appeared stricken. He could hardly bear to look at her. She opened 
the door. Wailing wind drove snow all the way across the porch and 
over the threshold. Jack stepped out of the house and reluctantly 
turned away from everything he loved. He kicked through the powdery 
snow on the porch. He heard her speak to him one last time--" I love 
you"--the words distorted by the wind but the meaning unmistakable. At 
the head of the porch steps he hesitated, turned to her, saw that she 
had taken one step out of the house, said, "I love you, Heather," then 
walked down and out into the storm, not sure if she had heard him, not 
knowing if he would ever speak to her again, ever hold her in his arms, 
ever see the love in her eyes or the smile that was, to him, worth more 
than a place in heaven and the salvation of his soul. 

The snow in the front yard was knee-deep. He bulled through it. He 
dared not look back again. Leaving them, he knew, was essential. It 
was courageous. It was wise, prudent, their best hope of survival. 

However, it didn't feel like any of those things. It felt like 
abandonment. 

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE. 
Wind hissed at the windows as if it possessed consciousness and was 
keeping watch on them, thumped and rattled the kitchen door as if 
testing the lock, shrieked and snuffled along the sides of the house in 
search of a weakness in their defenses. 

Reluctant to put the Uzi down in spite of its weight, Heather stood 
watch for a while at the north window of the kitchen, then at the west 
window above the sink. She cocked her head now and then to listen 
closely to those noises that seemed too purposeful to be just voices of 
the storm. 

At the table, Toby was wearing earphones and playing with a Game Boy. 
His body language was different from that which he usually exhibited 
when involved in an electronic game--no twitching, leaning, rocking 
from side to side, bouncing in his seat. He was playing only to fill 
the time. 

Falstaff lay in the corner farthest from any window, the warmest spot 
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in the room. Occasionally he lifted his noble head, sniffing the air 
or listening, but mostly he lay on his side, staring across the room at 
floor level, yawning. 

Time passed slowly. Heather repeatedly checked the wall clock, certain 
that at least ten minutes had gone by, only to discover that a mere two 
minutes had elapsed since she'd last looked. The two-mile walk to 
Ponderosa Pines would take maybe twenty-five minutes in fair weather. 

Jack might require an hour or even an hour and a half in the storm, 
allowing for the hard slogging through knee-deep snow, detours around 
the deeper drifts, and the incessant resistance of the gale-force 
wind. 

Once there, he should need half an hour to explain the situation and 
marshal a rescue team. Less than fifteen minutes would be required for 
the return trip even if they had to plow open some snowbound stretches 
of road and driveway. At most he ought to be back in two hours and 
fifteen minutes, maybe half an hour sooner than that. 

The dog yawned. Toby was so still he might have been asleep sitting 
up. They had turned the thermostat down so they could wear their ski 
suits and be ready to desert the house without delay if necessary, yet 
the place was still warm. Her hands and face were cool, but sweat 
trickled along her spine and down her sides from her underarms. She 
unzipped her jacket, though it interfered with the hip holster when it 
hung loose. 

When fifteen minutes had passed uneventfully, she began to think their 
unpredictable adversary would make no move against them. Either it 
didn't realize they were currently more vulnerable without Jack or it 
didn't care. 

From what Toby had said, it was the very definition of arrogance--never 
afraid--and might operate always according to its own rhythms, plans, 
and desires. 

Her confidence was beginning to rise--when Toby spoke quietly and not 
to her. 

"No, I don't think so." 
Heather stepped away from the window. 
He murmured, "Well ... maybe." 
"Toby?" she said. 
As if unaware of her, he stared at the Game Boy screen. His fingers 
weren't moving on the controls. No game was under way: shapes and bold 
colors swarmed across the miniature monitor, similar to those she had 
seen twice before. 

"Why?" he asked. 
She put a hand on his shoulder. 
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"Maybe," he said to the swirling colors on the screen. Always before, 
responding to this entity, he had said "no." The "maybe" alarmed 
Heather. 

"Could be, maybe," he said. 
She took the earphones off him, and he finally looked up at her. 
"What're you doing, Toby?" 
"Talking," he said in a half-drugged voice. 
"What were you saying "maybe" to?" 
"To the Giver," he explained. 
She remembered that name from her dream, the hateful thing's attempt to 
portray itself as the source of great relief, peace, and pleasure. 

"It's not a giver. That's a lie. It's a taker. You keep saying "no" 
to it." 

Toby stared up at her. 
She was shaking. "You understand me, honey?" 
He nodded. 
She was still not sure he was listening to her. "You keep saying "no," 
nothing but "no."" 

"All right." 
She threw the Game Boy in the waste can. After a hesitation, she took 
it out, placed it on the floor, and stomped it under her boot, once, 
twice. She rammed her heel down on it a third time, although the 
device was well crunched after two stomps, then once more for good 
measure, then again just for the hell of it, until she realized she was 
out of control, taking excess measures against the Game Boy because she 
couldn't get at the Giver, which was the thing she really wanted to 
stomp. 

For a few seconds she stood there, breathing hard, staring at the 
plastic debris. She started to stoop to gather up the pieces, then 
decided to hell with it. She kicked the larger chunks against the 
wall. 

Falstaff had become interested enough to get to his feet. When Heather 
returned to the window at the sink, the retriever regarded her 
curiously, then went to the trashed Game Boy and sniffed it as if 
trying to determine why it had elicited such fury from her. 

Beyond the window, nothing had changed. A winddriven avalanche of snow 
obscured the day almost as thoroughly as a fog rolling off the Pacific 
could obscure the streets of a California beach town. 

She looked at Toby. "You okay?" 
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"Yeah." 
"Don't let it in." 
"I don't want to." 
"Then don't. Be tough. You can do it." 
On the counter under the microwave, the radio powered up of its own 
accord, as if it incorporated an alarm clock set to provide five 
minutes of music prior to a wake-up buzzer. It was a big 
multiple-spectrum receiver, the size of two giant-economy-size boxes of 
cereal, and it pulled in six bands, including domestic AM and FM, 
however, it was not a clock and could not be programmed to switch 
itself on at a preselected time. Yet the dial glowed with green light, 
and strange music issued from the speakers. 

The chains of notes and overlapping rhythms were not music, actually, 
just the essence of music in the sense that a pile of lumber and screws 
amounted to the essence of a cabinet. She could identify a symphony of 
instruments--flutes, oboes, clarinets, horns of all kinds, violins, 
timpani, snare drums--but there was no melody, no identifiable cohesive 
structure, merely a sense of structure too subtle to quite hear, waves 
of sound that were sometimes pleasant and sometimes jarringly 
discordant, now loud, now soft, ebbing and flowing. 

"Maybe," Toby said. 
Heather's attention had been on the radio. With surprise, she turned 
to her son. 

Toby had gotten off his chair. He was standing by the table, staring 
across the room at the radio, swaying like a slender reed in a breeze 
only he could feel. His eyes were glazed. "Well ... yeah, maybe ... 

maybe ..." 
The unmelodious tapestry of sound coming from the radio was the aural 
equivalent of the ever-changing masses of color that she had seen 
swarming across the television, computer, and Game Boy screens: a 
language that evidently spoke directly to the subconscious. 

She could feel the hypnotic pull of it herself, although it exerted 
only a small fraction of the influence on her that it did on Toby. 

Toby was the vulnerable one. Children were always the easiest prey, 
natural victims in a cruel world. 

"... I'd like that ... nice ... pretty," the boy said dreamily, and 
then he sighed. 

If he said "yes," if he opened the inner door, he might not be able to 
evict the thing this time. He might be lost forever. 

"No!" Heather said. 
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Seizing the radio cord, she tore the plug out of the wall socket hard 
enough to bend the prongs. Orange sparks spurted from the outlet, 
showered across the counter tile. 

Though unplugged, the radio continued to produce the mesmerizing waves 
of sound. 

She stared at it, aghast and uncomprehending. 
Toby remained entranced, speaking to the unseen presence, as he might 
have spoken to an imaginary playmate. "Can I? Hmmm? Can I . . . 

will you . . . will you?" 
The damn thing was more relentless than the drug dealers in the city, 
who did their come-on shtick for kids at schoolyard fences, on street 
corners, in videogame parlors, outside movie theaters, at the malls, 
wherever they could find a venue, indefatigable, as hard to eradicate 
as body lice. 

Batteries. Of course. The radio operated off either direct or 
alternating current. 

"... maybe ... maybe ..." 
She dropped the Uzi on the counter, grabbed the radio, popped open the 
plastic cover on the back, and tore out the two rechargeable 
batteries. 

She threw them into the sink, where they rattled like dice against the 
backboard of a craps table. The siren song from the radio had stopped 
before Toby acquiesced, so Heather had won that roll. Toby's mental 
freedom had been on the come line, but she had thrown a seven, won the 
bet. He was safe for the moment. 

"Toby? Toby, look at me." 
He obeyed. He was no longer swaying, his eyes were clear, and he 
seemed to be back in touch with reality. 

Falstaff barked, and Heather thought he was agitated by all the noise, 
perhaps by the stark fear he sensed in her, but then she saw that his 
attention was on the window above the sink. He rapped out hard, 
vicious, warning barks meant to scare off an adversary. 

She spun around in time to see something on the porch slip away to the 
left of the window. It was dark and tall. She glimpsed it out of the 
corner of her eye, but it was too quick for her to see what it was. 

The doorknob rattled. 
The radio had been a diversion. 
As Heather snatched the Micro Uzi off the counter, the retriever 
charged past her and positioned himself in front of the pots and pans 
and dishes stacked against the back door. He barked ferociously at the 
brass knob, which turned back and forth, back and forth. 
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Heather grabbed Toby by the shoulder, pushed him toward the hall 
door. 

"Into the hall, but stay close behind me quick!" 
The matches were already in her jacket pocket. She snared the nearest 
of the five-gallon cans of gasoline by its handle. She could take only 
one because she wasn't about to put down the Uzi. 

Falstaff was like a mad dog, snarling so savagely that spittle flew 
from his chops, hair standing up straight on the back of his neck, his 
tail flat across his butt, crouched and tense, as if he might spring at 
the door even before the thing outside could come through it. 

The lock opened with a hard clack. 
The intruder had a key. Or maybe it didn't need one. Heather 
remembered how the radio had snapped on by itself. 

She backed onto the threshold between the kitchen and ground-floor 
hall. 

Reflections of the overhead light trickled scintillantly along the 
brass doorknob as it turned. 

She put the can of gasoline on the floor and held the Uzi with both 
hands. 

"Falstaff, get away from there! Falstaff!" 
As the door eased inward, the tower of housewares tottered. 
The dog backed off as she continued to call to him. 
The security assemblage teetered, tipped over, crashed. Pots, pans, 
and dishes bounced-slid-spun across the kitchen floor, forks and knives 
rang against one another like bells, and drinking glasses shattered. 

The dog scrambled to Heather's side but kept barking fiercely, teeth 
bared, eyes wild. 

She had a sure grip on the Uzi, the safeties off, her finger curled 
lightly on the trigger. What if it jammed? Forget that, it wouldn't 
jam. It had worked like a dream when she'd tried it out against a 
canyon wall in a remote area above Malibu several months earlier: 
automatic gunfire echoing along the walls of that narrow defile, spent 
shell casings spewing into the air, scrub brush torn to pieces, the 
smell of hot brass and burned gunpowder, bullets banging out in a 
punishing stream, as smooth and easy as water from a hose. It wouldn't 
jam, not in a million years. But, Jesus, what if it does? 

The door eased inward. A narrow crack. An inch. Then wider. 
Something snaked through the gap a few inches above the knob. In that 
instant the nightmare was confirmed, the unreal made real, the 
impossible suddenly incarnate, for what intruded was a tentacle, mostly 
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black but irregularly speckled with red, as shiny and smooth as wet 
silk, perhaps two inches in diameter at the thickest point that she 
could see, tapering as thin as an earthworm at the tip. It quested 
into the warm air of the kitchen, fluidly curling, flexing obscenely. 

That was enough. She didn't need to see more, didn't want to see more, 
so she opened fire. Chuda-chudachuda-chuda. The briefest squeeze of 
the trigger spewed six or seven rounds, punching holes in the oak door, 
gouging and splintering the edge of it. The deafening explosions 
slammed back and forth from wall to wall of the kitchen, sharp echoes 
overlaying echoes. 

The tentacle slipped away with the alacrity of a retracted whip. 
She heard no cry, no unearthly scream. She didn't know if she had hurt 
the thing or not. 

She wasn't going to go and look on the porch, no way, and she wasn't 
going to wait to see if it would storm into the room more aggressively 
the next time. 

Because she didn't know how fast the creature might be able to move, 
she needed to put more distance between herself and the back door. 

She grabbed the can of gasoline at her side, Uzi in one hand, and 
backed out of the doorway, into the hall, almost tripping over the dog 
as he scrambled to retreat with her. She backed to the foot of the 
stairs, where Toby waited for her. 

"Mom?" he said, voice tight with fear. 
Peering along the hall and across the kitchen, she could see the back 
door because it was in a direct line with her. It remained ajar, but 
nothing was forcing entry yet. She knew the intruder must still be on 
the porch, gripping the outside knob, because otherwise the wind would 
have pushed the door all the way open. 

Why was it waiting? Afraid of her? No. Toby had said it was never 
afraid. 

Another thought rocked her: If it didn't understand the concept of 
death, that must mean it couldn't die, couldn't be killed. In which 
case guns were useless against it. 

Still, it waited, hesitated. Maybe what Toby had learned about it was 
all a lie, and maybe it was as vulnerable as they were or more so, even 
fragile. 

Wishful thinking. It was all she had. 
She was not quite to the midpoint of the hall. Two more steps would 
put her there, between the archways to the dining and living rooms. 

But she was far enough from the back door to have a chance of 
obliterating the creature if it erupted into the house with unnatural 
speed and power. She stopped, put the gasoline can on the floor beside 
the newel post, and clutched the Uzi in both hands again. 
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"Mom?" 
"Sssshhhh." 
"What're we gonna do?" he pleaded. 
"Sssshhhh. Let me think." 
Aspects of the intruder were obviously snakelike, although she couldn't 
know if that was the nature of only its appendages or of its entire 
body. Most snakes could move fast--or coil and spring substantial 
distances with deadly accuracy. 

The back door remained ajar. Unmoving. Wisps of snow followed drafts 
through the narrow gap between the door and the jamb, into the house, 
spinning and glittering across the tile floor. 

Whether or not the thing on the back porch was fast, it was undeniably 
big. 

She'd sensed its considerable size when she'd had only the most 
fleeting glimpse of it slipping away from the window. Bigger than she 
was. 

"Come on," she muttered, her attention riveted on the back door. "Come 
on, if you're never afraid, come on." 

Both she and Toby cried out in surprise when, in the living room, the 
television switched on, with the volume turned all the way up. 

Frenetic, bouncy music. Cartoon music. A screech of brakes, a crash 
and clatter, with comic accompaniment on a flute. Then the voice of a 
frustrated Elmer Fudd booming through the house: "OOOHHH, I HATE THAT 
WABBIT!" 

Heather kept her attention on the back door, beyond the hall and 
kitchen, altogether about fifty feet away. 

So loud each word vibrated the windows, Bugs Bunny said: "EH, WHAT'S 
UP, DOC" And then a sound of something bouncing: BOING, BOINC, BOING, 
BOING, BOING. 

"STOP THAT, STOP THAT, YOU CWAZY WABBIT!" 
Falstaff ran into the living room, barking at the TV, and then scurried 
into the hall again, looking past Heather to where he, too, knew the 
real enemy still waited. 

The back door. 
Snow sifting through the narrow opening. 
In the living room, the television program fell silent in the middle of 
a long comical trombone crescendo that, even under the circumstances, 
brought to mind a vivid image of Elmer Fudd sliding haplessly and 
inexorably toward one doom or another. Quiet. Just the keening wind 
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outside. 
One second. Two. Three. 
Then the TV blared again, but not with Bugs and Elmer. It spewed forth 
the same weird waves of unmelodic music that had issued from the radio 
in the kitchen. 

To Toby, she said sharply, "Resist it!" 
Back door. Snowflakes spiraling through the crack. 
Come on, come on. 
Keeping her eyes on the back door, at the far side of the lighted 
kitchen, she said, "Don't listen to it, honey, just tell it to go away, 
say no to it. No, no, no to it." 

The tuneless music, alternately irritating and soothing, pushed her 
with what seemed like real physical force when the volume rose, pulled 
on her when the volume ebbed, pushed and pulled, until she realized 
that she was swaying as Toby had swayed in the kitchen when under the 
spell of the radio. 

In one of the quieter passages, she heard a murmur Toby's voice. She 
couldn't catch the words. 

She looked at him. He had that dazed expression. Transported. He was 
moving his lips. He might have been saying "yes, yes," but she 
couldn't tell for sure. 

Kitchen door. Still ajar two inches, no more, as it had been. 
Something still waiting out there on the porch. 
She knew it. 
The boy whispered to his unseen seducer, soft urgent words that might 
have been the first faltering steps of acquiescence or total 
surrender. 

"Shit!" she said. 
She backed up two steps, turned toward the livingroom arch on her left, 
and opened fire on the television. A brief burst, six or eight rounds, 
tore into the TV. The picture tube exploded, thin white vapor or smoke 
from the ruined electronics spurted into the air, and the darkly 
beguiling siren song was hammered into silence by the clatter of the 
Uzi. 

A strong, cold draft swept through the hallway, and Heather spun toward 
the rear of the house. The back door was no longer ajar. It stood 
wide open. She could see the snow-covered porch and, beyond the porch, 
the churning white day. 

The Giver had first walked out of a dream. Now it had walked out of 
the storm, into the house. It was somewhere in the kitchen, to the 
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left or right of the hall door, and she had missed the chance to cut it 
down as it entered. 

If it was just on the other side of the threshold between the hall and 
the kitchen, it had closed to a maximum striking distance of about 
twenty-five feet. Getting dangerously close again. 

Toby was standing on the first step of the staircase, clear-eyed once 
more but shivering and pale with terror. The dog was beside him, 
alert, sniffing the air. 

Behind her, another pot-pan-bowl-flatware-dish alarm went off with a 
loud clanging of metal and shattering of glass. Toby screamed, 
Falstaff erupted into ferocious barking again, and Heather swung 
around, heart slamming so hard it shook her arms, made the gun jump up 
and down. The front door was arcing inward. A forest of long 
red-speckled black tentacles burst through the gap between door and 
jamb, glossy and writhing. So there were two of them, one at the front 
of the house, one at the back. The Uzi chattered. Six rounds, maybe 
eight. The door shut. But a mysterious dark figure was hunched 
against it, a small part of it visible in the beveled-glass window in 
the top of the door. 

Without pausing to see if she'd actually hit the son of a bitch or 
scored only the door and wall, she spun toward the kitchen yet again, 
punching three or four rounds through the empty hallway behind her even 
as she turned. 

Nothing there. 
She had been sure the first one would be striking at her back. 
Wrong. 
Maybe twenty rounds left in the Uzi's double magazine. Maybe only 
fifteen. 

They couldn't stay in the hall. Not with one of the damned things in 
the kitchen, another on the front porch. 

Why had she thought there'd be only one of them? Because in the dream 
there was only one? Because Toby had spoken of just a single 
seducer? 

Might be more than two. Hundreds. 
The living room was on one side of her. Dining room on the other. 
Ultimately, either place seemed likely to become a trap. 
In different rooms all over the ground floor, windows imploded 
simultaneously. 

The clinkjangle-tink of cascading glass and the shrieking of the wind 
at every breach decided her. Up. She and Toby would go up. Easier to 
defend high ground. 
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She grabbed the can of gasoline. 
The front door came open behind her again, banging against the 
scattered items with which they had built the alarm tower. She assumed 
that something other than the wind had shoved it, but she didn't glance 
back. The Giver hissed. As in the dream. 

She leaped for the stairs, gasoline sloshing in the can, and shouted at 
Toby, "Go, go!" 

The boy and the dog raced to the second floor ahead of her. 
"Wait at the top!" she called as they scrambled upward and out of 
sight. 

At the top of the first flight, Heather halted on the landing, looked 
back and down into the front hall, and saw a dead man walking. Eduardo 
Fernandez. She recognized him from the pictures they had found while 
sorting through his belongings. Dead and buried more than four months, 
he nevertheless moved in a shambling and stiffjointed manner, kicking 
through the dishes and pans and flatware, heading for the foot of the 
stairs, accompanied by swirling flakes of snow like ashes from the 
fires of hell. 

There could be no self-awareness in the corpse, no slightest wisp of Ed 
Fernandez's consciousness remaining in it, for the old man's mind and 
soul had gone on to a better place before the Giver had requisitioned 
his body. 

The soiled cadaver was evidently being controlled with the same power 
that had switched on the radio and the TV at long distance, had opened 
the dead-bolt locks without a key, and had caused the windows to 
implode. Call it telekinesis, mind over matter. Alien mind over 
earthly matter. In this case, it was decomposing organic matter in the 
rough shape of a human being. 

At the bottom of the steps, the corpse stopped and gazed up at her. 
Its face was only slightly swollen, though darkly empurpled, mottled 
with yellow here and there, a crust of evil green under its clogged 
nostrils. One eye was missing. The other was covered with a yellow 
film, it bulged against a half-concealing lid that, though sewn shut by 
a mortician, had partially opened when the rotting threads had 
loosened. 

Heather heard herself muttering rapidly, rhythmically. After a moment 
she realized that she was feverishly reciting a long prayer she had 
learned as a child but had not repeated in eighteen or twenty years. 

Under other circumstances, if she had made a conscious effort to recall 
the words, she couldn't have come up with half of them, but now they 
flowed out of her as they had when she'd been a young girl kneeling in 
church. 

The walking corpse was less than half the reason for her fear, however, 
and far less than half the reason for the acute disgust that knotted 
her stomach, made breathing difficult, and triggered her gag reflex. 
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It was gruesome, but the discolored flesh was not yet dissolving from 
the bones. The dead man still reeked more of embalming fluid than of 
putrescence, a pungent odor that blew up the staircase on a cold draft 
and instantly reminded Heather of long-ago high-school biology classes 
and slippery specimen frogs fished from jars of formaldehyde for 
dissection. 

What sickened and repelled her most of all was the Giver that rode the 
corpse as it might have ridden a beast of burden. Though the light in 
the hallway was bright enough to reveal the alien clearly, and though 
she might have wanted to see less of it rather than more, she was 
nevertheless unable to precisely define its physical form. The bulk of 
the thing appeared to hang along the dead man's back, secured by 
whiplike tentacles--some as thin as pencils, some as thick as her own 
forearm--that were firmly lashed around the mount's thighs, waist, 
chest, and neck. The Giver was mostly black, and such a deep black 
that it hurt her eyes to stare at it, though in places the inky sheen 
was relieved by blood-red speckles. 

Without Toby to protect, she might not have been able to face this 
thing, for it was too strange, incomprehensible, just too damned 
much. 

The sight of it dizzied like a whiff of nitrous oxide, brought her to 
the edge of desperate giddy laughter, a humorless mirth that was 
perilously close to madness. 

Not daring to take her eyes off the corpse or its hideous rider, for 
fear she would look up to find it one step below her, Heather slowly 
lowered the five-gallon can of gasoline to the floor of the landing. 

Along the dead man's back, at the heart of the churning mass of 
tentacles, there might have been a central body akin to the sac of a 
squid, with glaring inhuman eyes and a twisted mouth--but if it was 
there, she couldn't catch a glimpse of it. Instead, the thing seemed 
to be all ropy extremities, ceaselessly twitching, curling, coiling, 
and unraveling. Though oozing and gelatinous within its skin, the 
Giver occasionally bristled into spiky shapes that made her think of 
lobsters, crabs, crawfish--but in a blink, it was all sinuous motion 
once more. 

In college, a friend of Heather's--Wendi Felzer--had developed liver 
cancer and had decided to augment her doctors' treatments with a course 
of self-healing through imaging therapy. Wendi had pictured her white 
blood cells as knights in shining armor with magic swords, her cancer 
as a dragon, and she had meditated two hours a day, until she could 
see, in her mind, all those knights slaying the beast. The Giver was 
the archetype for every image of cancer ever conceived, the slithering 
essence of malignancy. In Wendi's case, the dragon had won. Not a 
good thing to remember now, not good at all. 

It started to climb the steps toward her. 
She raised the Uzi. 
The most loathsome aspect of the Giver's entanglement with the corpse 
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was the extent of its intimacy. The buttons had popped off the white 
burial shirt, which hung open, revealing that a few of the tentacles 
had pried open the thoracic incision made by the coroner during his 
autopsy, those red-speckled appendages vanished inside the cadaver, 
probing deep into unknown reaches of its cold tissues. The creature 
seemed to revel in its bonding with the dead flesh, an embrace that was 
as inexplicable as it was obscene. 

Its very existence was offensive. That it could be seemed proof that 
the universe was a madhouse, full of worlds without meaning and bright 
galaxies without pattern or purpose. 

It climbed two steps from the hall, toward the landing. 
Three. Four. 
Heather waited one more. 
Five steps up, seven steps below her. 
A bristling mass of tentacles appeared between the dead man's parted 
lips, like a host of black tongues spotted with blood. 

Heather opened fire, held the trigger down too long, used up too much 
ammunition, ten or twelve rounds, even fourteen, although it was 
surprising--considering her state of mind--that she didn't empty both 
magazines. The 9mm slugs stitched a bloodless diagonal line across the 
dead man's chest, through body and entwining tentacles. 

Parasite and dead host pitched backward to the hallway floor below, 
leaving two lengths of severed tentacles on the stairs, one about 
eighteen inches long, the other about two feet. Neither of those 
amputated limbs bled. Both continued to move, initially twisting and 
flailing the way the bodies of snakes writhe long after they have been 
separated from their heads. 

Heather was transfixed by the grisly sight because, almost at once, the 
movement ceased to be the result of misfiring nerves and randomly 
spasming muscles, it began to appear purposeful. Each scrap of the 
primary organism seemed aware of the other, and they groped toward each 
other, the first curling down over the edge of a step while the second 
rose gracefully like a flute-charmed serpent to meet it. When they 
touched, a transformation occurred that was essentially black magic and 
beyond Heather's understanding, even though she had a clear view of 
it. 

The two became as one, not simply entwining but melding, flowing 
together as if the soot-dark silken skin sheathing them was little more 
than surface tension that gave shape to the oozing protoplasm within. 

As soon as the two combined, the resulting mass sprouted eight smaller 
tentacles, with a shimmer like quick shadows playing across a puddle of 
water, the new organism bristled into a vaguely crablike--but still 
eyeless--form, though it was as soft and flexible as ever. Quivering, 
as if to maintain even a marginally more angular shape required 
monumental effort, it began to hitch down the steps toward the 
mothermass from which it had become separated. 
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Less than half a minute had passed from the moment when the two severed 
appendages had begun to seek each other. 

Bodies are. 
Those words were, according to Jack, part of what the Giver had said 
through Toby in the cemetery. 

Bodies are. 
A cryptic statement then. All too clear now. Bodies are--now and 
forever, flesh without end. Bodies are--expendable if necessary, 
fiercely adaptable, severable without loss of intellect or memory and 
therefore in infinite supply. 

The bleakness of her sudden insight, the perception that they could not 
win regardless of how valiantly they struggled or how much courage they 
possessed, kicked her across the borderline of sanity for a moment, 
into madness no less total for its brevity. Instead of recoiling from 
the monstrously alien creature stilting determinedly down the steps to 
rejoin its mothermass, as any sane person would have done, she plunged 
after it, off the landing with a strangled scream that sounded like the 
thin and bitter grievance of a dying animal in a sawtooth trap, the 
Micro Uzi thrust in front of her. 

Although she knew she was putting herself in terrible jeopardy, 
unconscionably abandoning Toby at the top of the stairs, Heather was 
unable to stop. She went down one, two, three, four, five steps in the 
time that the crablike thing descended two. They were four steps apart 
when the thing abruptly reversed direction without bothering to turn 
around, as if front and back and sideways were all the same to it. She 
stopped so fast she almost lost her balance, and the crab ascended 
toward her a lot faster than it had descended. 

Three steps between them. 
Two. 
She squeezed the trigger, emptied the Uzi's last rounds into the 
scuttling form, chopping it into four-five-six bloodless pieces that 
tumbled and flopped down a few steps, where they lay squirming. 

Squirming ceaselessly. Supple and snakelike again. Eagerly and 
silently questing toward one another. 

Its silence was almost the worst thing about it. No screams of pain 
when it was shot. No shrieks of rage. 

, Its patient and silent recovery, its deliberate continuation of the 
assault, mocked her hopes of triumph. 

At the foot of the stairs, the apparition had pulled itself erect. The 
Giver, still hideously bonded to the corpse, started up the steps 
again. 

Heather's spell of madness shattered. She fled to the landing, grabbed 
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the can of gasoline, and scrambled to the second floor, where Toby and 
Falstaff were waiting. 

The retriever was shuddering. Whining rather than barking, he looked 
as if he'd sensed the same thing Heather had seen for herself: 
effective defense was impossible. This was an enemy that couldn't be 
brought down with teeth or claws any more than with guns. 

Toby said, "Do I have to do it? I don't want to." 
She didn't know what he meant, didn't have time to ask. "We'll be 
okay, honey, we'll make it." 

From the first flight of steps, out of sight beyond the landing, came 
the sound of heavy footsteps ascending. A hiss. It was like the 
sibilant escape of steam from a pinhole in a pipe--but a cold sound. 

She put the Uzi aside and fumbled with the cap on the spout of the 
gasoline can. 

Fire might work. She had to believe it might. If the thing burned, 
nothing would be left to remake itself. Bodies are. But bodies 
reduced to ashes could not reclaim their form and function, regardless 
of how alien their flesh and metabolism. Damn it, fire had to work. 

"It's never afraid," Toby said in a voice that revealed the profound 
depths of his own fear. 

"Get away from here, baby! Go! Go to the bedroom! Hurry!" 
The boy ran, and the dog went with him. 
At times Jack felt that he was a swimmer in a white sea under a white 
sky on a world every bit as strange as the planet from which the 
intruder at Quartermass Ranch had traveled. Though he could feel the 
ground beneath his feet as he slogged the half mile to the county road, 
he never got a glimpse of it under the enduring white torrents cast 
down by the storm, and it seemed as unreal to him as the bottom of the 
Pacific might seem to a swimmer a thousand fathoms above it. The snow 
rounded all forms, and the landscape rolled like the swells of a 
mid-ocean passage, although in some places the wind had sculpted drifts 
into scalloped ridges like cresting waves frozen in the act of breaking 
on a beach. The woods, which could have offered contrast to the 
whiteness that flooded his vision, were mostly concealed by falling and 
blowing snow as obscuring as fog at sea. 

Disorientation was an unremitting threat in that bleached land. He got 
off course twice while still on his own property, recognizing his error 
only because the flattened meadow grass underneath the snow provided a 
spongier surface than the hard-packed driveway. 

Step by hard-fought step, Jack expected something to come out of the 
curtains of snow or rise from a drift in which it had been lying, the 
Giver itself or one of the surrogates that it had mined from the 
graveyard. He continually scanned left and right, ready to pump out 
every round in the shotgun to bring down anything that rushed him. 
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He was glad that he had worn sunglasses. Even with shades, he found 
the unrelieved brightness inhibiting. He strained to see through the 
wintry sameness to guard against attack and to make out familiar 
details of the terrain that would keep him on the right track. 

He dared not think about Heather and Toby. When he did so, his pace 
slowed and he was nearly overcome by the temptation to go back to them 
and forget about Ponderosa Pines. For their sake and his own, he 
blocked them from his thoughts, concentrated solely on covering ground, 
and virtually became a hiking machine. 

The baleful wind shrieked without surcease, blew snow in his face, and 
forced him to bow his head. It shoved him off his feet twice--on one 
occasion causing him to drop the shotgun in a drift, where he had to 
scramble frantically to find it--and became almost as real an adversary 
as any man against whom he'd ever been pitted. By the time he reached 
the end of the private lane and paused for breath between the tall 
stone posts and under the arched wooden sign that marked the entrance 
to Quartermass Ranch, he was cursing the wind as if it could hear 
him. 

He wiped one gloved hand across the sunglasses to scrape off the snow 
that had stuck to the lenses. His eyes stung as they sometimes did 
when an opthalmologist put drops in them to dilate the pupils prior to 
an examination. 

Without the shades, he might already have been snowblind. 
He was sick of the taste and smell of wet wool, which flavored the air 
he drew through his mouth and scented every inhalation when he breathed 
through his nose. The vapor he exhaled had thoroughly saturated the 
fabric, and the condensation had frozen. With one hand he massaged the 
makeshift muffler, cracking the thin, brittle ice and crumbling the 
thicker layer of compacted snow, he sloughed it all away so he could 
breathe more easily than he'd been able to breathe for the past two or 
three hundred yards. 

Though he found it difficult to believe that the Giver didn't know he 
had left the house, he had reached the edge of the ranch without being 
assaulted. A considerable trek remained ahead, but the greatest danger 
of attack would have been in the territory he had already covered 
without incident. 

Maybe the puppetmaster was not as omniscient as it either pretended or 
seemed to be. 

A distended and ominous shadow, as tortured as that of a fright figure 
in a fun house, rose along the landing wall: the puppetmaster and its 
decomposing marionette laboring stiffly but doggedly toward the top of 
the first flight of stairs. As the thing ascended, it no doubt 
absorbed the fragments of strange flesh that bullets had torn from it, 
but it didn't pause to do so. 

Although the thing was not fast, it was too fast for Heather's taste, 
too fast by half. It seemed to be racing up the damned stairs. 

In spite of her shaky hands, she finally unscrewed the stubborn cap on 
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the spout of the fuel can. Held the container by its handle. Used her 
other hand to tip the bottom. A pale gush of gasoline arced out of the 
spout. She swung the can left and right, saturating the carpet along 
the width of the steps, letting the stream splash down the entire top 
flight. 

On the first step below the landing, the Giver appeared in the wake of 
its shadow, a demented construct of filth and slithering sinuosities. 

Heather hastily capped the gasoline can. She carried it a short 
distance along the hall, set it out of the way, and returned to the 
stairs. 

The Giver had reached the landing. It turned to face the second 
flight. 

Heather fumbled in the jacket pocket where she thought she had stowed 
the matches, found spare ammo for both the Uzi and the Korth, no 
matches. She tried another zipper, groped in the pocket--more 
cartridges, no matches, no matches. 

On the landing, the dead man raised his head to stare at her, which 
meant the Giver was staring too, with eyes she couldn't see. 

Could it smell the gasoline? Did it understand that gasoline was 
flammable? It was intelligent. Vastly so, apparently. Did it grasp 
the potential for its own destruction? 

A third pocket. More bullets. She was a walking ammo dump, for God's 
sake. 

One of the cadaver's eyes was still obscured by a thin yellowish 
cataract, gazing between lids that were sewn half shut. 

The air reeked of gasoline. Heather had difficulty drawing a clear 
breath, she was wheezing. The Giver didn't seem to mind, and the 
corpse wasn't breathing. 

Too many pockets, Jesus, four on the outside of the jacket, three 
inside, pockets and more pockets, two on each leg of her pants, all of 
them zippered. 

The other eye socket was empty, partially curtained by shredded lids 
and dangling strands of mortician's thread. Suddenly the tip of a 
tentacle extruded from inside the skull. 

With an agitation of appendages, like the tendrils of a black sea 
anemone lashed by turbulent currents, the thing started up from the 
landing. 

Matches. 
A small cardboard box, wooden matches. Found them. 
Two steps up from the landing, the Giver hissed softly. 
Heather slid open the box, almost spilled the matches. They rattled 
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against one another, against the cardboard. 
The thing climbed another step. 
When his mom told him to go to the bedroom, Toby didn't know if she 
meant her bedroom or his. He wanted to get as far as possible from the 
thing coming up the front stairs, so he went to his bedroom at the end 
of the hallway, though he stopped a couple of times and looked back at 
her and almost returned to her side. 

e didn't want to leave her there alone. She was his mom. He hadn't 
seen all of the Giver, only the tangle of tentacles squirming around 
the edge of the front door, but he knew it was more than she could 
handle. 

It was more than he could handle too, so he had to forget about doing 
anything, didn't dare think about it. He knew what had to be done, but 
he was too scared to do it, which was all right, because even heroes 
were afraid, because only insane people were never ever scared. And 
right now he knew he sure wasn't insane, not even a little bit, because 
he was scared bad, so bad he felt like he had to pee. This thing was 
like the Terminator and the Predator and the alien from Alien and the 
shark from Jaws and the velociraptors from Jurassic Park and a bunch of 
other monsters rolled into one--but he was just a kid. Maybe he was a 
hero too, like his dad said, even if he didn't feel like a hero, which 
he didn't, not one bit, but if he was a hero, he couldn't do what he 
knew he should do. 

He reached the end of the hall, where Falstaff stood trembling and 
whining. 

"Come on, fella," Toby said. 
He pushed past the dog into his bedroom, where the lamps were already 
bright because he and Mom had turned on just about every lamp in the 
house before Dad left, though it was daytime. 

"Get out of the hall, Falstaff. Mom wants us out of the hall. Come 
on!" 

The first thing he noticed, when he turned away from the dog, was that 
the door to the back stairs stood open. It should have been locked. 

They were making a fortress here. Dad had nailed shut the lower door, 
but this one should also be locked. Toby ran to it, pushed it shut, 
engaged the dead bolt, and felt better. 

At the doorway, Falstaff had still not entered the room. He had 
stopped whining. 

He was growling. 
Jack at the ranch entrance. Pausing only a moment to recover from the 
first and most arduous leg of the journey. 

Instead of soft flakes, the snow was coming down in sharp-edged 
crystals, almost like grains of salt. The wind drove it hard enough to 
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sting his exposed forehead. 
A road crew had been by at least once, because a four-foot-high wall of 
plowed snow blocked the end of the driveway. He clambered over it, 
onto the two-lane. 

Flame flared off the match head. 
For an instant Heather expected the fumes to explode, but they weren't 
sufficiently concentrated to be combustible. 

The parasite and its dead host climbed another step, apparently 
oblivious of the danger--or certain that there was none. 

Heather stepped back, out of the flash zone, tossed the match. 
Continuing to back up until she bumped into the hallway wall, watching 
the flame flutter in an arc toward the stairwell, she had a seizure of 
manic thoughts that elicited an almost compulsive bark of mad laughter, 
a single dark bray that came dangerously close to ending in a thick 
sob: Burning down my own house, welcome to Montana, beautiful scenery 
and walking dead men and things from other worlds, and here we go, 
flame falling, may you. burn in hell, burning down my own house, 
wouldn't have to do that in Los Angeles, other people will do it for 
you there. 

WHOOSH! 
The gasoline-soaked carpet exploded into flames that leaped all the way 
to the ceiling. The fire didn't spread through the stairwell, it was 
simply everywhere at once. Instantaneously the walls and railings were 
as fully involved as the treads and risers. 

A stinging wave of heat hit Heather, forcing her to squint. She should 
at once have moved farther away from the blaze because the air was 
nearly hot enough to blister her skin, but she had to see what happened 
to the Giver. 

The staircase was an inferno. No human being could have survived in it 
longer than a few seconds. 

In that swarming incandescence, the dead man and the living beast were 
a single dark mass, rising another step. And another. No screams or 
shrieks of pain accompanied its ascent, only the roar and crackle of 
the fierce fire, which was now lapping out of the stairwell and into 
the upstairs hallway. 

As Toby locked the stairhead door and turned from it, and as Falstaff 
growled from the threshold of the other door, orange-red light flashed 
through the hall behind the dog. His growl spiraled into a yelp of 
surprise. Following the flash were flickering figures of light that 
danced on the walls out there: reflections of fire. 

Toby knew that his mom had set the alien on fire--she was tough, she 
was smart--and a current of hope thrilled through him. 

Then he noticed the second wrong thing about the bedroom. The drapes 
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were closed over his recessed bed. 
He had left them open, drawn back to both sides of the niche. He only 
closed them at night or when he was playing a game. He had opened them 
this morning, and he'd had no time for games since he'd gotten up. 

The air had a bad smell. He hadn't noticed it right away because his 
heart was pounding and he was breathing through his mouth. 

He moved toward the bed. One step, two. 
The closer he drew to the sleeping alcove, the worse the smell 
became. 

It was like the odor on the back stairs the first day they'd seen the 
house, but a lot worse. 

He stopped a few steps from the bed. He told himself he was a hero. 
It was okay for heroes to be afraid, but even when they were afraid, 
they had to do something. 

At the open door, Falstaff was just about going crazy. 
Blacktop was visible in a few small patches, revealed by the flaying 
wind, but most of the roadway was covered by two inches of fresh 
powder. Numerous drifts had formed against the snow walls thrown up by 
the plow. 

Judging by the available signs, Jack figured the crew had made a 
circuit through this neighborhood about two hours ago, certainly no 
more recently than an hour and a half. They were overdue to make 
another pass. 

He turned east and hurried toward the Youngblood spread, hopeful of 
encountering a highway-maintenance crew before he had gone far. 

Whether they were equipped with a big road grader or a salt-spreading 
truck with a plow on the front--or both--they would have microwave 
communications with their dispatcher. If he could persuade them that 
his story was not just the raving of a lunatic, he might be able to 
convince them to take him back to the house to get Heather and Toby out 
of there. 

Might be able to persuade them? Hell, he had a shotgun. For sure, 
he'd convince them. They'd plow the half-mile driveway clean as a 
nun's conscience to the front door of Quartermass Ranch, smiles on 
their faces from start to finish, as jolly as Snow White's short 
protectors, singing 

"Heigh-ho, heigh-ho, it's off to work we go" if 
that's what he wanted them to do. 

Impossible as it seemed, the creature on the stairs appeared even more 
grotesque and frightful in the obscuring embrace of fire, with smoke 
seething from it, than it had been when she'd had a clear look at its 
every feature. 
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Yet another step it rose. Silently, silently. Then another. It 
ascended out of the conflagration with all the panache of His Satanic 
Majesty on a day trip out of hell. 

The beast was burning, or at least the portion of it that was Eduardo 
Fernandez's body was being consumed, and yet the demonic thing climbed 
one more step. Almost to the top now. 

Heather couldn't delay any longer. The heat was unbearable. She'd 
already exposed her face too long and would probably wind up with a 
mild burn. The hungry fire ate across the hallway ceiling, licking at 
the plaster overhead, and her position was perilous. 

Besides, the Giver was not going to collapse backward into the furnace 
below, as she had hoped. It would reach the second floor and open its 
arms to her, its many fiery arms, seeking to enfold and become her. 

Heart thudding furiously, Heather hurried a few steps along the hall to 
the red can of gasoline. She snatched it up with one hand. It felt 
light. She must have used three of the five gallons. 

She glanced back. 
The stalker came out of the stairwell, into the hallway. Both the 
colpse and the Giver were ablaze, not merely a smoldering gnarl of 
charred organisms but a dazzling column of tempestuous flames, as if 
their entwined bodies had been constructed of dry tinder. Some of the 
longer tentacles coiled and lashed like whips, casting off streams and 
gobs of fire that spattered against the walls and floor, igniting 
carpet and wallpaper. 

As Toby took one more step toward the curtained bed, Falstaff finally 
dashed into the room. The dog blocked his path and barked at him, 
warning him to back off. 

Something moved on the bed behind the drapes, brushing against them, 
and each of the next few seconds was an hour to Toby, as if he had 
shifted into super-slow-mo. The sleeping alcove was like the stage of 
a puppet theater just before the show began, but it wasn't Punch or 
Judy back there, wasn't Kukla or Ollie, wasn't any of the Muppets, 
nothing you'd ever find on Sesame Street, and this wasn't going to be a 
funny program, no laughs in this weird performance. 

He wanted to close his eyes and wish it away. Maybe, if you just 
didn't believe in it, the thing wouldn't exist. 

It was stirring the drapes again, bulging against them, as if to say, 
Hello there, little boy. Maybe you had to believe in it just like you 
had to believe in Tinker Bell to keep her alive. So if you closed your 
eyes and thought good thoughts about an empty bed, about air that 
smelled of freshbaked cookies, then the thing wouldn't be there any 
more, and neither would the stink. It wasn't a perfect plan, maybe it 
was even a dumb plan, but at least it was something to do. He had to 
have something to do or he was going to go nuts, yet he couldn't take 
one more step toward the bed, not even if the retriever hadn't been 
blocking his way, because he was just too scared. Numb. Dad hadn't 
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said anything about heroes going numb. Or spitting up. Did heroes 
ever spit up? Because he felt as if he was going to spew. He couldn't 
run, either, because he'd have to turn his back to the bed. He 
wouldn't do that, couldn't do that. Which meant that closing his eyes 
and wishing the thing away was the plan, the best and only plan--except 
he was not in a billion years going to close his eyes. 

Falstaff remained between Toby and the alcove but turned to face 
whatever waited there. Not barking now. Not growling or whimpering. 

Just waiting, teeth bared, shuddering in fear but ready to fight. 
A hand slipped between the drapes, reaching out from the alcove. It 
was mostly bone in a shredded glove of crinkled leathery skin, spotted 
with mold. For sure, this couldn't really be alive unless you believed 
in it, because it was more impossible than Tinker Bell, a hundred 
million times more impossible. A couple of fingernails were still 
attached to the decaying hand, but they had turned black, looked like 
the gleaming shells of fat beetles. If he couldn't close his eyes and 
wish the thing away, if he couldn't run, he at least had to scream for 
his mother, humiliating as that would be for a kid who was almost 
nine. 

But then she had the machine gun, after all, not him. 
A wrist became visible, a forearm with a little more meat on it, the 
ragged and stained sleeve of a blue blouse or dress. 

"Mom!" 
He shouted the word but heard it only in his head, because no sound 
would escape his lips. 

A red-speckled black bracelet was around the withered wrist. Shiny. 
New-looking. 
Then it moved and wasn't a bracelet but a greasy worm, no, a tentacle, 
wrapping the wrist and disappearing along the underside of the rotting 
arm, beneath the dirty blue sleeve. 

"Mom, help!" 
Master bedroom. No Toby. Under the bed? In the closet, the 
bathroom? 

No, don't waste time looking. The boy might be hiding but not the 
dog. 

Must've gone to his own room. 
Back into the hall. Waves of heat. Wildly leaping light and 
shadows. 

The crackle-sizzle-growl-hiss of fire. 
Other hissing. The Giver looming. Snap-snap-snapsnap, the furious 
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whipping of fiery tentacles. 
Coughing on the thin but bitter smoke, heading toward the rear of the 
house, the can swinging in her left hand. Gasoline sloshing. Right 
hand empty. 

Shouldn't be empty. 
Damn! 
She stopped short of Toby's room, turned to peer back into the fire and 
smoke. 

She'd forgotten the Uzi on the floor near the head of the steps. The 
twin magazines were empty, but her zippered ski-suit pockets bulged 
with spare ammunition. Stupid. 

Not that guns were of much use against the freaking thing. Bullets 
didn't harm it, only delayed it. But at least the Uzi had been 
something, a lot more firepower than the .38 at her hip. 

She couldn't go back. Hard to breathe. Getting harder. The fire 
sucking up all the oxygen. And the burning, lashing apparition already 
stood between her and the Uzi. 

Crazily, Heather had a mental flash of Alma Bryson loaded down with 
weaponry: pretty black lady, smart and kind, cop's widow, and one tough 
damned bitch, capable of handling anything. Gina Tendero, too, with 
her black leather pantsuit and red-pepper Mace and maybe an unlicensed 
handgun in her purse. If only they were here now, at her side. But 
they were down there in the City of Angels, waiting for the end of the 
world, ready for it, when all the time the end of the world was 
starting here in Montana. 

Billowing smoke suddenly gushed out of the flames, wall to wall, floor 
to ceiling, dark and churning. The Giver vanished. In seconds Heather 
was going to be completely blinded. 

Holding her breath, she stumbled along the wall toward Toby's room. 
She found his door and crossed the threshold, out of the worst of the 
smoke, just as he screamed. 

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO With the Mossberg twelve-gauge gripped in both 
hands, Jack moved eastward at an easy trot, in the manner of an 
infantryman in a war zone. He hadn't expected the county road to be 
half as clear as it was, so he was able to make better time than 
planned. 

He kept flexing his toes with each step. In spite of -two pairs of 
heavy socks and insulated boots, his feet were cold and getting 
colder. 

He needed to keep full circulation in them. 
The scar tissue and recently knitted bones in his left leg ached dully 
from exertion, however, the slight pain didn't hamper him. In fact, he 
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was in better shape than he had realized. 
Although the whiteout continued to limit visibility to less than a 
hundred feet, sometimes dramatically less, he was no longer at risk of 
becoming disoriented and lost. The walls of snow from the plow defined 
a well-marked path. The tall poles along one side of the road carried 
telephone and power lines, and served as another set of route 
markers. 

He figured he had covered nearly half the distance to Ponderosa Pines, 
but his pace was flagging. He cursed himself, pushed harder, and 
picked up speed. 

Because he was trotting with his shoulders hunched against the 
battering wind and his head tucked down to spare himself the sting of 
the hard-driven snow, looking only at the roadway immediately in front 
of him, he did not at first see the golden light but saw only the 
reflection of it in the fine, sheeting flakes. There was just a hint 
of yellow at first, then suddenly he might have been running through a 
storm of gold dust rather than a blizzard. 

When he raised his head, he saw a bright glow ahead, intensely yellow 
at its core. It throbbed mysteriously in the cloaking veils of the 
storm, the source obscured, but he remembered the light in the trees of 
which Eduardo had written in the tablet. It had pulsed like this, an 
eerie radiance that heralded the opening of the doorway and the arrival 
of the traveler. 

As he skidded to a halt and almost fell, the pulses of light grew 
rapidly brighter, and he wondered if he could hide in the drifts to one 
side of the road or the other. There were no throbbing bass sounds 
like those Eduardo had heard and felt, only the shrill keening of the 
wind. However, the uncanny light was everywhere, dazzling in the 
sunless day: Jack standing in ankle-deep gold dust, molten gold 
streaming through the air, the steel of the Mossberg glimmering as if 
about to be transmuted into bullion. He saw multiple sources now, not 
one light but several, pulsing out of sync, continuous yellow flashes 
overlaying one another. A sound above the wind. A low rumble. 

Building swiftly to a roar. A heavy engine. Through the whiteout, 
tearing apart the obscuring veils of snow, came an enormous machine. 

He found himself standing before an oncoming road grader adapted for 
snow removal, a brawny skeleton of steel with a small cab high in the 
center of it, pushing a curved steel blade taller than he was. 

Entering the cleaner air of Toby's room, blinking away tears wrung from 
her by the caustic smoke, Heather saw two blurry figures, one small and 
one not. She desperately wiped at her eyes with her free hand, 
squinted, and understood why the boy was screaming. 

Towering over Toby was a grotesquely decomposed corpse, draped in 
fragments of a rotted blue garment, bearing another Giver, aswarm with 
agitated black appendages. 

Falstaff sprang at the nightmare, but the writhing tentacles were 
quicker than they had been before, almost faster than the eye. They 
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whipped out, snared the dog in mid-leap, and flicked him away as 
casually and efficiently as a cow's tail might deal with an annoying 
fly. Howling in terror, Falstaff flew across the room, slammed into 
the wall beside the window, and dropped to the floor with a squeal of 
pain. 

The .38 Korth was in Heather's hand though she didn't remember having 
drawn it. 

Before she could squeeze the trigger, the new Given-or the new aspect 
of the only Giver, depending on whether there was one entity with many 
bodies or, instead, many individuals--snared Toby in three oily black 
tentacles. It lifted him off the floor and drew him toward the leering 
grin of the long-dead woman, as if it wanted him to plant a kiss on 
her. 

With a cry of outrage, furious and terrified in equal measure, Heather 
rushed the thing, unable to shoot from even a few steps away because 
she might hit Toby. Threw herself against it. Felt one of its 
serpentine arms--cold even through her ski suit--curling around her 
waist. The stench of the corpse. 

Jesus. The internal organs were long gone, and extrusions of the alien 
were squirming within the body cavity. The head turned toward her, 
face-to-face, red-stipled black tendrils with spatulate tips flickering 
like multiple tongues in the open mouth, bristling from the bony 
nostrils, the eye sockets. 

Cold slithered all the way around her waist now. She jammed the .38 
under the bony chin, bearded with graveyard moss. She was going for 
the head as if the head still mattered, as if a brain still packed the 
cadaver's cranium, she could think of nothing else to do. Toby 
screaming, the Giver hissing, the gun booming, booming, booming, old 
bones shattering to dust, the grinning skull cracking off the knobby 
spine and lolling to one side, the gun booming again-she lost 
count--then clicking, the maddening clicking of the hammer on empty 
chambers. 

When the creature let go of her, Heather almost fell on her ass because 
she was already straining so hard to pull loose. She dropped the gun, 
and it bounced across the carpet. 

The Giver collapsed in front of her, not because it was dead but 
because its puppet, damaged by gunfire, had broken apart in a couple of 
key places and now provided too little support to keep its soft, heavy 
master erect. 

Toby was free too. For the moment. 
He was white-faced, wide-eyed. He'd bitten his lip. It was 
bleeding. 

But otherwise he seemed all right. 
Smoke was beginning to roil into the room, not much, but she knew how 
abruptly it could become blindingly dense. 
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"Go!" she said, shoving Toby toward the back stairs. "Go, go, go!" 
He scrambled across the floor on his hands and knees, and so did she, 
both of them reduced by terror and expediency to the locomotion of 
infancy. Got to the door. Pulled herself up against it. Toby at her 
side. 

Behind them was a scene out of a madman's nightmare: The Giver sprawled 
on the floor, resembling nothing so much as an immensely complicated 
octopus, although stranger and more evil than anything that had ever 
lived in the seas of Farth, a tangle of wriggling ropy arms. Instead 
of trying to reach for her and Toby, it was struggling with the 
disconnected bones, attempting to pull the moldering corpse together 
and lever itself erect on the damaged skeleton. 

She wrenched the doorknob, yanked. 
The stairhead door didn't open. 
Locked. 
On the shelf behind the alcove bed, Toby's clock radio came on all by 
itself, and rap music hammered them at full volume for a second or 
two. 

Then that other music. Tuneless, strange, but hypnotic. 
"No!" she told Toby as she struggled with the dead bolt turn. It was 
maddeningly stiff. "No! Tell it no!" The lock hadn't been stiff 
before, damn it. 

At the other door, the first Giver lurched out of the burning hall and 
through the smoke, into the room. It was still wrapped around and 
through what was left of Eduardo's charred corpse. Still afire. Its 
dark bulk was diminished. 

Fire had consumed part of it. 
The thumb-turn twisted slowly, as if the lock mechanism was rusted. 
Slowly. 
Slowly. Then: clack. 
But the bolt snapped into the jamb again before she could pull open the 
door. 

Toby was murmuring something. Talking. But not to her. 
"No!" she shouted. "No, no! Tell it no!" 
Grunting with the effort, Heather twisted the bolt open again and held 
tightly to the thumb-turn. But she felt the lock being reengaged 
against her will, the shiny brass slipping inexorably between her thumb 
and forefinger. The Giver. 

This was the same power that could switch on the radio. Or animate a 
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corpse. 
She tried to turn the knob with her other hand, before the bolt slammed 
into the striker plate again, but now the knob was frozen. She gave 
up. 

Pushing Toby behind her, putting her back to the door, she faced the 
two creatures. Weaponless. 

The road grader was painted yellow from end to end. Most of the 
massive steel frame was exposed, with only the powerful diesel engine 
and the operator's cab enclosed. This no-frills worker drone looked 
like a big exotic insect. 

The grader slowed when the driver realized that a man was standing in 
the middle of the road, but Jack figured the guy might speed up again 
at first sight of the shotgun. He was prepared to run alongside the 
machine and board it while it was on the move. 

But the driver brought it to a full stop in spite of the gun. Jack ran 
around to the side where he could see a door on the cab about ten feet 
off the ground. 

The grader sat high on five-foot-tall tires with rubber that looked 
heavier and tougher than tank tread, and the guy up there was not 
likely to open his door and come down for a chat. He would probably 
just roll down his : window, keep some distance between them, have a 
shouted conversation above the shrieking wind--and if he heard 
something he didn't like, he'd tramp the accelerator and haul ass out 
of there. In the event that the driver wouldn't listen to reason, or 
wanted to waste too much time with questions, Jack was ready to climb 
up to the door and do whatever he had to do to get control of the 
grader, short of killing someone. 

To his surprise, the driver opened his door all the way, leaned out, 
and looked down. He was a chubby guy with a full beard and longish 
hair sprouting under a John Deere cap. He shouted over the combined 
roar of the engine and the storm: "You got trouble?" 

"My family needs help!" 
"What kind of help?" 
Jack wasn't even going to try to explain an extraterrestrial encounter 
in ten words or less. "They could die, for God's sake!" 

"Die? Where?" 
"Quartermass Ranch!" 
"You the new fella?" 
"Yeah!" 
"Climb on up!" 
The guy hadn't even asked him why he was carrying a shotgun, as if 
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everyone in Montana went nearly everywhere with a pistol-grip, 
pump-action twelve-gauge. 

Hell, maybe everyone did. 
Holding the shotgun in one hand, Jack hauled himself up to the cab, 
careful where he placed his feet, not foolish enough to try to leap up 
like a monkey. 

Dirty ice was crusted on parts of the frame. He slipped a couple of 
times but didn't fall. 

When Jack arrived at the open door, the driver reached for the shotgun 
to stow it inside. He gave it to the guy, even though for a moment he 
worried that, relieved of the Mossberg, he would get a boot in the 
chest and be knocked back to the roadway. 

The driver was a good Samaritan to the end. He stowed the gun and 
said, "This isn't a limousine, only one seat, kinda cramped. You'll 
have to swing in here behind me." 

The niche between the driver's seat and the back wall of the cab was 
less than two feet deep and five feet wide. The ceiling was low. A 
couple of rectangular toolboxes were on the floor, and he had to share 
the space with them. While the driver leaned forward, Jack squirmed 
headfirst into that narrow storage area and pulled his legs in after 
himself, sort of half lying on his side and half sitting. 

The driver shut the door. The rumble of the engine was still loud, and 
so was the whistling wind. 

Jack's bent knees were behind the driver, and his body was in line with 
the gearshift and other controls to the right of the man. If he leaned 
forward only inches, he could speak directly into his rescuer's ear. 

"You okay?" the driver asked. 
"Yeah." 
They didn't have to shout inside the cab, but they did have to raise 
their voices. 

"So tight in here," the driver said, "we may be strangers now, but by 
the time we get there, we'll be ready for marriage." He put the grader 
in gear. 

"Quartermass Ranch, all the way up at the main house?" 
"That's right." 
The grader lurched, then rolled smoothly forward. The plow made a cold 
scraping sound as it skimmed the blacktop. The vibrations passed 
through the frame of the grader, up through the floor, and deep into 
Jack's bones. 

Weaponless. Her back to the stairhead door. 
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Fire was visible through the smoke at the hall doorway. 
Snow at the windows. Cool snow. A way out. Safety. Crash through 
the window, no time to open it, straight , through, onto the porch 
roof, roll to the lawn. Dangerous. Might work. 

Except they wouldn't make it that far without being dragged down. 
The volcanic eruption of sound from the radio was deafening. Heather 
couldn't think. 

The retriever shivered at her side, snarling and snapping at the 
demonic figures that threatened them, though he knew as well as she did 
that he couldn't save them. 

When she'd seen the Giver snare the dog, pitch him away, and then grab 
Toby, Heather had found the .38 in her hand with no memory of having 
drawn it. 

At the same time, also without realizing it, she had dropped the can of 
gasoline; now it stood across the room, out of reach. 

Gasoline might not have mattered, anyway. One of the creatures was 
already on fire, and that wasn't stopping it. 

Bodies are. 
Eduardo's burning corpse was reduced to charred bone, bubbling fat. 
All the clothes and hair had gone to ashes. And there was barely 
enough of the Giver left to hold the bones together, yet the macabre 
assemblage lurched toward her. 

Apparently, as long as any fragment of the alien body remained alive, 
its entire consciousness could be exerted through that last quiverring 
scrap of flesh. 

Madness. Chaos. 
The Giver was chaos, the very embodiment of meaninglessness, 
hopelessness, and malignancy, and madness. Chaos in the flesh, 
demented and strange beyond understanding. Because there was nothing 
to understand. That was what she believed of it now. It had no 
explicable purpose of existence. It lived only to live. No 
aspirations. No meaning except to hate. Driven by a compulsion to 
Become and destroy, leaving chaos behind it. 

A draft pulled more smoke into the room. 
The dog hacked, and Heather heard Toby coughing behind her. 
"Pull your jacket ovel your nose, breathe through your jacket!" 
But why did it matter whether they died by fire--or in less clean 
ways? 

Maybe fire was preferable. 
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The other Giver, slithering on the bedroom floor among the ruins of the 
dead woman, suddenly shot a sinuous tentacle at Heather, snaring her 
ankle. 

She screamed. 
The Eduardo-thing tottered nearer, hissing. 
Behind her, sheltered between her and the door, Toby shouted, "Yes! 
All right, yes!" 
"Too late," she warned him; "No!" 
The driver of the grader was Harlan Moffit, and he lived in Eagle's 
Roost with his wife, Cindi --with an i --and his daughters, Luci and 
Nanci -each of those with an i as well--and Cindi worked for the 
Livestock cooperative, whatever that was. They were lifelong residents 
of Montana and wouldn't live anywhere else. However, they'd had a lot 
of fun when they'd gone to Los Angeles a couple of years ago and seen 
Disneyland, Universal Studios and an old brokendown homeless guy being 
mugged by two teenagers on a corner while they were stopped at a 
traffic light. Visit, yes; live there, no. All this he somehow 
imparted by the time they had reached the turnoff at Quartermas Ranch, 
as he felt obliged to make Jack feel among friends and neighbors in his 
time of trouble, regardless of what the trouble might be. 

They entered the private lane at a higher speed than Jack would have 
thought possible, considering the depth of the snow that had 
accumulated in the past sixteen hours. 

Harlan raised the angled plow a few inches to allow the speed. "We 
don't need to scoop off everything down to bare dirt and maybe risk 
jamming up on a big bump in the road." The top three quarters of the 
snow cover plumed to the side. 

"How can you tell where the lane is?" Jack worried, because the 
rolling mantle of white blurred definitions. 

"Been here before. Then there's instinct." 
"Instinct?" 
"Plowman's instinct." 
"We won't get stuck?" 
"These tires? This engine?" 
Harlan was proud of his machine, and it really was churning along, 
rumbling through the untouched snow as if carving its way through 
little more than air. 

"Never get stuck, not with me driving. Take this baby through hell if 
I had to, plow away the melting brimstone and thumb my nose at the 
devil himself. 
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So what's wrong up there with your family?" 
"Trapped," Jack said cryptically. 
"In snow, you mean?" 
"Yes." 
"Nothing steep enough around here for an avalanche." 
"Not an avalanche," Jack confirmed. 
They reached the hill and headed for the turn past the lower woods. 
The house should be in view any second. 
"Trapped in the snow?" Harlan said, worrying at it. He didn't look 
away from his work, but he frowned as if he would have liked to meet 
Jack's eyes. 

The house came into view. Almost hidden by sheeting snow but vaguely 
visible. 

Their new house. New life. New future. On fire. 
Earlier, at the computer, when he'd been mentally linked to the Giver 
but not completely in its power, Toby had gotten to know it, feeling 
around in its mind, being nosy, letting its thoughts slide into him 
while he kept saying "no" to it, and little by little he had learned 
about it. One of the things he learned was that it had never 
encountered any species that could get inside its mind the way it could 
force itself into the minds of other creatures, so it wasn't even aware 
of Toby in there, didn't feel him, thought it was all one-way 
communication. Hard to explain. That was the best he could do. Just 
sliding around in its mind, looking at things, terrible things, not a 
good place but dark and frightening. He hadn't thought of it as a 
brave thing to do, only what must be done, what Captain Kirk or Mr. 
Spock or Luke Skywalker or any of those guys would have done in his 
place or when meeting a new and hostile intelligent species out on the 
galactic rim. They'd have taken any advantage, added to their 
knowledge in any way they could. 

So did he. 
No big deal. 
Now, when the noise coming out of the radio urged him to open the 
door--just open the door and let it in, let it in, accept the pleasure 
and the peace, let it in--he did as it wanted, though he didn't let it 
enter all the way, not half as far as he entered into it. As at the 
computer this morning, he was now between complete freedom and 
enslavement, walking the brink of a chasm, careful not to let his 
presence be known until he was ready to strike. 

While the Giver was rushing into his mind, confident of overwhelming 
it, Toby turned the tables. 
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He imagined that his own mind was a colossal weight, a billion trillion 
tons, even heavier than that, more than the weight of all the planets 
in the solar system combined, and even a zillion times heavier than 
that, pressing down on the mind of the Giver, so much weight, crushing 
it, flattening it into a thin pancake and holding it there, so it could 
think fast and furiously but could not act on its thoughts. 

The thing let go of Heather's ankle. All of its sinuous and agitated 
appendages retracted and curled into one another, and it went still, 
like a massive ball of glistening intestines, four feet in diameter. 

The other one lost control of the burning corpse with which it was 
entwined. 

Parasite and dead host collapsed in a heap and were also motionless. 
Heather stood in stunned disbelief, unable to understand what had 
happened. 

Smoke churned into the room. 
Toby had opened the dead bolt and the stairhead door. Tugging at her, 
he said, "Quick, Mom." 

Beyond confusion, in a state of utter baffflement, she followed her son 
and the dog into the back stairwell and pulled the door shut, cutting 
off the smoke before it reached them. 

Toby hurried down the stairs, the dog at his heels, and Heather plunged 
after him as he followed the curving wall out of sight. 

"Honey, wait!" 
"No time," he called back to her. 
"Toby !" 
She was terrified about descending the stairs so recklessly, not 
knowing what might be ahead, assuming another of those things had to be 
somewhere near at hand. Three graves had been disturbed at the 
cemetery. 

In the vestibule at the bottom, the door to the back porch was still 
nailed shut. The door in the kitchen was wide open, and Toby was 
waiting for her with the dog. 

She would have thought her heart couldn't have beat any faster or 
slammed any harder than it did on the way down those stairs, but when 
she saw Toby's face, her pulse quickened and each lub-dub was so 
forceful that it sent a throb of dull pain across her breast. 

If he had been pale with fear, he was now a far whiter shade of pale. 
His face didn't look like that of a living boy so much as like a death 
mask of a face, rendered now in cold hard plaster as colorless as 
powdered lime. The whites of his eyes were gray, one pupil large and 
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the other just a pinpoint, and his lips were bluish. He was in the 
grip of terror, but it wasn't terror alone that drove him. He seemed 
strange, haunted--and then she recognized the same fey quality that 
he'd exhibited when he'd been in front of the computer this morning, 
not in the grip of the Giver but not entirely free. Between, he had 
called it. 

"We can get it," he said. 
Now that she recognized his condition, she could hear the same flatness 
in his voice that she had heard this morning when he'd been in the 
thrall of that storm of colors on the IBM monitor. 

"Toby, what's wrong?" 
"I've got it." 
"Got what?" 
"It." 
"Got it where?" 
"Under." 
Her heart was exploding. 
"Under?" 
"Under me." 
Then she remembered, blinked. Amazed. 
"It's under you?" 
He nodded. 
So pale. 
"You're controlling it?" 
"For now." 
"How can that be?" she wondered. 
"No time. It wants loose. Very strong. Pushing hard." 
A glistening beadwork of sweat had appeared on his brow. He chewed his 
lower lip, drawing more blood. 

Heather raised a hand to touch him, stop him, hesitated, not sure if 
touching him would shatter his control. 

"We can get it," he repeated. 
Harlan damn near drove the grader into the house, halting the plow 
inches from the railing, casting a great crashing wave of snow onto the 
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front porch. 
He leaned forward in his seat to let Jack squeeze out of the storage 
area behind him. "You go, take care of your people. I'll call the 
depot, get a fire company out here." 

Even as Jack went through the high door and dismounted from the grader, 
he heard Harlan Moffit on the cellular system, talking to his 
dispatcher. 

He had never known fear like this before, not even when Anson Oliver 
had opened fire at Arkadian's service station, not even when he'd 
realized something was speaking through Toby in the graveyard 
yesterday, never a fear half this intense, with his stomach knotted so 
tightly it hurt, a surge of bitter bile in the back of his throat, no 
sound in the world but the pile-driving thunder of his own heart. 

Because this wasn't just his life on the line. 
More important lives were involved here. His wife, in whom his past 
and future resided, the keeper of all his hopes. His son, born of his 
own heart, whom he loved more than he loved himself, immeasurably 
more. 

From outside, at least, the fire appeared to be confined to the second 
floor. 

He prayed that Heather and Toby weren't up there, that they were on the 
lower floor or out of the house altogether. 

He vaulted the porch railing and kicked through the snow that had been 
thrown up against the front wall by the plow. The door was standing 
open in the wind. 

When he crossed the threshold, he found tiny drifts beginning to form 
among the pots and pans and dishes that were scattered along the front 
hall. 

No gun. He had no gun. He'd left it in the grader. Didn't matter. 
If they were dead, so was he. 
Fire totally engulfed the stairs from the first landing upward, and it 
was swiftly spreading down from tread to tread toward the hallway, 
flowing almost like a radiant liquid. He could see well because drafts 
were sucking nearly all the smoke up and out the roof: no flames in the 
study, none beyond the living-room or dining-room archways. 

"Heather! Toby!" 
No answer. 
"Heather!" 
He pushed the study door all the way open and looked in there, just to 
be sure. 
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"Heather!" 
From the archway he could see the entire living room. Nobody. The 
dining-room arch. 

"Heather!" 
Not in the dining-room, either. 
He hurried back through the hall, into the kitchen. 
The back door was shut, though it had obviously been opened at some 
point, because the tower of housewares had been knocked down. 

"Heather!" 
"Jack!" 
He spun around at the sound of her voice, unable to figure where it had 
come from. 

"HEATHER!" 
"Down here--we need help!" 
The cellar door was ajar. He pulled it open, looked down. 
Heather was at the landing, a five-gallon can of gasoline in each 
hand. 

"We need all of it, Jack." 
"What're you doing? The house is on fire! Get out of there!" 
"We need the gasoline to do the job." 
"What're you talking about?" 
"Toby's got it." 
"Got what?" he demanded, going down the steps to her. 
"It. He's got it. Under him," she said breathlessly. 
"Under him?" he asked, taking the cans out of her hands. 
"Like he was under it in the graveyard." 
Jack felt as if he'd been shot, not the same pain but the same impact 
as a bullet in the chest. "He's a boy, a little boy, he's just a 
little boy, for Christ's sake!" 

: "He paralyzed it, the thing itself and all its surrogates. You 
should've seen! He says there isn't much time. The goddamned thing is 
strong, Jack, it's powerful. Toby can't keep it under him very long, 
and when it gets on top, it'll never let him go. It'll hurt him, 
Jack. 
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It'll make him pay for this. So we have to get it first. We don't 
have time to question him, second-guess him, we just do what he 
says." 

She turned away from him, retreated down the lower steps. 
"I'll get two more cans." 
"The house is on fire!" he protested. 
"Upstairs. Not here yet." 
Madness. 
"Where's Toby?" he called as she turned out of sight below. 
"The back porch!" 
"Hurry and get yourself out of there," he shouted as he lugged ten 
gallons of gasoline up the basement stairs of a burning house, unable 
to repress mental images of the flaming rivers of gasoline in front of 
Arkadian's station. 

He went onto the porch. No fire there yet. No reflections of 
second-story flames on the backyard snow, either. The blaze was still 
largely at the front of the house. 

Toby was standing in his red-and-black ski suit at the head of the 
porch steps, his back to the door. Snow churned around him. The 
little point on the hood gave him the look of a gnome. 

The dog was at Toby's side. He turned his burly head to look at Jack, 
wagged his tail once. 

Jack put down the gasoline cans and hunkered beside his son. If his 
heart didn't turn over in his chest when he saw the boy's face, he felt 
as if it did. 

Toby looked like death. 
"Skipper?" 
"Hi, Dad." 
His voice had little inflection. He seemed to be in a daze, as he had 
been in front of the computer that morning. He didn't look at Jack but 
stared uphill toward the caretaker's house, which was visible only when 
the dense shrouds of snow were drawn apart by the capricious wind. 

"Are you between?" Jack asked, dismayed by the tremor in his voice. 
"Yeah. Between." 
"Is that a good idea?" 
"Yeah." 
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"Aren't you afraid of it?" 
"Yeah. That's okay." 
"What're you staring at?" 
"Blue light." 
"I don't see any blue light." 
"When I was asleep." 
"You saw a blue light in your sleep?" 
"In the caretaker's house." 
"Blue light in a dream?" 
"Might have been more than a dream." 
"So that's where it is?" 
"Yeah. Part of me too." 
"Part of you is in the caretaker's house?" 
"Yeah. Holding it under." 
"We can actually burn it?" 
"Maybe. But we've got to get all of it." 
Harlan Moffit clumped onto the back porch, carrying two cans of 
gasoline. 

"Lady in there give me these, told me to bring em out here. She your 
wife?" 

Jack rose to his feet. "Yeah. Heather. Where is she?" 
"Went down for two more," Harlan said, "like she doesn't know the house 
is on fire." 

In the backyard, there were reflections of fire on the snow now, 
probably from the main roof or from Toby's room. Even if the blaze 
hadn't yet spread all the way down the front stairs, the whole house 
would soon be engulfed when the roof fell into second-floor rooms and 
second-floor rooms fell into those below them. 

Jack started toward the kitchen, but Harlan Moffit put down the fuel 
cans and grabbed him by the arm. 

"What the hell's going on here?" 
Jack tried to pull away from him. The chubby, bearded man was stronger 
than he looked. 
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"You tell me your family's in danger, going to die any minute, trapped 
somehow, but then we get here and what I see is your family is the 
danger, setting fire to their own house by the look of it." 

From the second floor came a great creaking and a shuddering crash as 
something caved in, wall or ceiling. 

Jack shouted, "Heather!" 
He tore loose from Harlan and made it into the kitchen just as Heather 
climbed out of the basement with two more cans. He grabbed one of them 
from her and guided her toward the back door. 

"Out of the house now," he ordered. 
"That's it," she said. "No more down there." 
Jack paused at the pegboard to get the keys to the caretaker's cottage, 
then followed Heather outside. 

Toby had already started up the long hill, trudging through snow that 
was knee-high in some places, hardly up to his ankles in others. It 
was nowhere as deep as out on the fields, because the wind relentlessly 
swept the slope between the house and the higher woods, even scouring 
it to bare ground in a few spots. 

Falstaff accompanied him, a brand-new dog but as faithful as a lifelong 
companion. Odd. The finest qualities of character--rare in humankind 
and perhaps rarer still in what other intelligent species might share 
the universe--were common in canines. Sometimes, Jack wondered if the 
species created in God's image was, in fact, not one that walked erect 
but one that padded on all fours with a tail behind. 

Picking up one of the cans on the porch to go with the one she already 
had, Heather hurried into the snow. 

"Come on!" 
"You going to burn down the house uphill now?" Harlan Moffit asked 
dryly, evidently having glimpsed that other structure through the 
snow. 

"And we need your help." 
Jack carried two of the remaining four cans to the steps, knowing 
Moffit must think they were all mad. 

The bearded man was obviously intrigued but also spooked and wary. 
"Are you people plumb crazy, or don't you know there's better ways of 
getting rid of termites?" 

There was no way to explain the situation in a reasonable and 
methodical fashion, especially not when every second counted, so Jack 
went for it, took the plunge off the deep end, and said, "Since you 
knew I was the new fella in these parts, maybe you also know I was a 
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cop in L. A. not some flaky screenwriter with wild ideas--just a cop, a 
working stiff like you. Now, it's going to sound nuts, but we're in a 
fight here against something that isn't of this world, something that 
came here when Ed--" 

"You mean aliens?" Harlan Moffit interrupted. 
He could think of no euphemism that was any less absurd. "Yeah. 
Aliens. They-" 
"I'll be a fucking sonofabitch!" Harlan Moffit said, 
and smacked one meaty fist into the palm of his other hand. A torrent 
of words burst from him: "I knew I'd get to see one sooner or later. 

Read about them all the time in the Enquirer. And books. Some are 
good aliens, some bad, and some you'll never figure out in a month of 
Sundays--just like people. These are real bad bastards, huh? Come 
whirling down in their ships, did they? Holy shit on a holy shingle! 

And me here for it!" He grabbed the last two cans of gasoline and 
charged off the porch, uphill through the bright reflections of flame 
that rippled like phantom flags across the snow. "Come on, come 
on--let's waste these fuckers!" 

Jack would have laughed if his son's sanity and life had not been 
balanced on a thin line, a thread, a filament. Even so, he almost sat 
down on the snow-packed porch steps, almost let the giggles and the 
guffaws come. Humor and death were kin, all right. 

Couldn't face the latter without the former. Any cop knew as much. 
And life was absurd, down to the deepest foundations of it, so there 
was always something funny in the middle of whatever hell was blowing 
up around you at the moment. Atlas wasn't carrying the world on his 
shoulders, no giant muscular hulk with a sense of responsibility, the 
world was balanced on a pyramid of clowns, and they were always tooting 
horns and wobbling and goosing each other. But even though it was 
absurd, though life could be disastrous and funny at the same time, 
people still died. Toby might still die. Heather. All of them. 

Luther Bryson had been making jokes, laughing, seconds before he took a 
swarm of bullets in the chest. 

Jack hurried after Harlan Moffit. The wind was cold. 
The hill was slippery. 
The day was hard and gray. 
o 
Climbing the sloped backyard, Toby pictured himself in a green boat on 
a cold black sea. Green because it was his favorite color. No land 
anywhere in sight. 

Just his little green boat and him in it. The sea was old, ancient, 
older than ancient, so old that it had come alive in a way, could 
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think, could want things and need to have its way. The sea wanted to 
rise on all sides of the little green boat, swamp it, drag it down a 
thousand fathoms into the inky water, and Toby with it, ten thou 

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sand fathoms, twenty thousand, down and down to a place with no light 
but strange music. In his boat, Toby had bags of Calming Dust, which 
he'd gotten from someone important, maybe from Indiana Jones, maybe 
from E. T maybe from Aladdin--probably from Aladdin, who got it from the 
Genie. He kept scattering the Calming Dust on the sea as his little 
green boat puttered along, and though the dust seemed light and silvery 
in his hands, lighter than feathers, it became hugely heavy when it hit 
the water, but heavy in a funny way, in a way that didn't make it sink, 
magical Calming Dust that crushed the water flat, made the sea as 
smooth and ripple-free as a mirror. The ancient sea wanted to rise up, 
swamp the boat, but the Calming Dust weighed it down, more than iron, 
more than lead, weighed it down and kept it calm, defeated it. Deep in 
the darkest and coldest canyons below its surface, the sea raged, 
furious with Toby, wanting more than ever to kill him, drown him, bash 
his body to pieces against shoreline rocks, wear him away with its 
waters until he would be just sand. But it couldn't rise, couldn't 
rise, all was calm on the surface, peaceful and calm, calm. 

Perhaps because Toby was concentrating so intensely on keeping the 
Giver under him, he lacked the strength to climb the entire hill, 
though the snow was not piled dauntingly high on that windswept 
ground. 

Jack put down the fuel cans two-thirds of the way to the higher woods, 
carried Toby to the stone house, gave Heather the keys, and returned 
for the ten gallons of gasoline. 

By the time Jack reached the fieldstone house again, : 
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Heather had opened the door. The rooms inside were dark. He hadn't 
had time to discover the reason for the malfunctioning lights. 

Nevertheless, now he knew why Paul Youngblood couldn't get power to the 
house on Monday. The dweller within hadn't wanted them to enter. 

The rooms were still dark because the windows were boarded over, and 
there was no time to pry off the plywood that shielded the glass. 

Fortunately, Heather had remembered the lack of power and come 
prepared. From two pockets of her ski suit, she produced, instead of 
bullets, a pair of flashlights. 

It always seems to come down to this, Jack thought: going into a dark 
place. 

Basements, alleyways, abandoned houses, boiler rooms, crumbling 
warehouses. 

Even when a cop was chasing a perp on a bright day and the chase led 
only outdoors, in the final confrontation, when you came face-to-face 
with evil, it was always a dark place, as if the sun could not find 
that one small patch of ground where you and your potential murderer 
tested fate. 

Toby walked into the house ahead of them, either unafraid of the gloom 
or eager to do the deed. 

Heather and Jack each took a flashlight and a can of gasoline, leaving 
two cans just outside the front door. 

Harlan Moffit brought up the rear with two cans. "What're these 
buggers like? 

They all hairless and bigeyed like those geeks who kidnapped Whitley 
Strieber?" 

In the unfurnished and unlighted living room, Toby was standing in 
front of a dark figure, and when their flashlight beams found what the 
boy had found before 
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them, Harlan Moffit had his answer. Not hairless and big-eyed. Not 
the cute little guys from a Spielberg movie. A decomposing body stood 
with legs spread, swaying but in no danger of crumpling to the floor. 

A singularly repulsive creature was draped across the cadaver's back, 
bound to it by several greasy tentacles, intruded into its rotting 
body, as though it had been trying to become one with the dead flesh. 

It was quiescent but obviously alive: queer pulses were visible beneath 
its wet-silk skin, and the tips of some appendages quivered. 

The dead man with which the alien had combined was Jack's old friend 
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and partner Tommy Fernandez. 
Heather realized, too late, that Jack had never actually seen one of 
the walking dead with its puppetmaster in full saddle. That sight 
alone was sufficient to undermine a lot of his assumptions about the 
inherently benign-or at least neutral--character of the universe and 
the inevitability of justice. There was nothing benign or just about 
what had been done with Tommy Fernandez's remains--or about what the 
Giver would do to her, Jack, Toby, and the rest of humanity while they 
were still alive, if it had the opportunity. 

The revelation had more sting because these were Tommy's remains in 
this condition of profound violation, rather than those of a 
stranger. 

She turned her flashlight away from Tommy and was relieved when Jack 
lowered his own quickly, as well. It would not have been like him to 
dwell on such a horror. She liked to believe that, in spite of 
anything he might 
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fast to the optimism and love of life that made him special. 

"This thing has gotta die," Harlan said coldly. He had lost his 
natural ebullience. He was no longer Richard Dreyfuss excitedly 
chasing his close encounter of the third kind. The most ominous 
apocryphal fantasies of evil aliens that the cheap tabloids and science 
fiction movies had to offer were not merely proved foolish by the 
grotesquerie that stood in the caretaker's house, they were proved 
naive as well, because their portrayals of extraterrestrial malevolence 
were shabby fun-house spookery compared to the endlessly imaginative 
abominations and tortures that a dark, cold universe held in store. 

"Gotta die right now." 
Toby walked away from Tommy Fernandez's body, into the shadows. 
Heather followed him with her flashlight beam. "Honey?" 
"No time," he said. 
"Where are you going?" 
They followed him to the back of the lightless house, through the 
kitchen, into what might once have been a small laundry room but now 
was a vault of dust and cobwebs. The desiccated carcass of a rat lay 
in one corner, its slender tail curled in a question mark. 

Toby pointed to a blotchy yellow door that no doubt had once been 
white. "In the cellar," he said. "It's in the cellar." 

Before going down to whatever awaited them, they put Falstaff in the 
kitchen and closed the laundry-room door to keep him there. 

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467 

He didn't like that. 
As Jack opened the yellow door on perfect blackness, the frantic 
scratching of the dog's claws filled the room behind them. 

Following his dad down the swaybacked cellar stairs, Toby concentrated 
intensely on that little green boat in his mind, which was really well 
built, no leaks at all, unsinkable. Its decks were piled high with 
bags and bags of silvery Calming Dust, enough to keep the surface of 
the angry sea smooth and silent for a thousand years, no matter what it 
wanted, no matter how much it raged and stormed in its deepest 
canyons. 

He sailed on and on across the waveless ocean, scattering his magical 
powder, the sun above him, everything just the way he liked it, warm 
and safe. The ancient sea showed him its own pictures on its glossy 
black surface, images meant to scare him and make him forget to scatter 
the dust--his mother being eaten alive by rats, his father's head 
split down the middle and nothing inside it but cockroaches, his own 
body pierced by the tentacles of a Giver that was riding on his 
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back--but he looked away from them quickly, turned his face to the blue 
sky instead, and wouldn't let his fear make a coward of him. 

The cellar was one big room, with a broken-down furnace, a rusted water 
heater--and the real Giver from which the other, smaller Givers had 
detached. 

It filled the back half of the room, all the way to the ceiling, bigger 
than a couple of elephants. 

It scared him. 
That was okay. 
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But don't run. Don't run. 

It was a lot like the smaller versions, tentacles everywhere, but with 
a hundred or more puckered mouths, no lips, just slits, and all of them 
working slowly in its current calm state. He knew what it was saying 
to him with those mouths. It wanted him. It wanted to rip him open, 
take out his guts, stuff itself into him. 

Toby started shaking, he tried very hard to make himself stop but 
couldn't. 

Little green boat. Plenty of Calming Dust. Putter along and scatter, 
putter along and scatter. 

As the beams of the flashlights moved over it, he could see gullets the 
color of raw beef beyond those mouths. Clusters of red glands oozed 
clear syrupy stuff. Here and there the thing had spines as sharp as 
any on a cactus. There wasn't a top or bottom or front or back or head 
to it, just everything at once, everywhere at once, all mixed up. All 
over it, the working mouths were trying to tell him it wanted to push 
tentacles in his ears, mix him up too, stir his brains, become him, use 
him, because that's all he was, a thing to be used, that's all anything 
was, just meat, just meat to be used. 

Little green boat. 
Plenty of Calming Dust. 
Putter along and scatter, putter along and scatter. 
o In the deep lair of the beast, with its monstrous hulk looming over 
him, Jack splashed gasoline across the paralyzed python-like 
appendages, across other more repulsive and baroque features, which he 
dared not stare at if he ever hoped to sleep again. 

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He trembled to think that the only thing caging the demon was a small 
boy and his vivid imagination. 

Maybe, when all was said and done, the imagination was the most 
powerful of all weapons. It was the imagination of the human race that 
had allowed it to dream of a life beyond cold caves and of a possible 
future in the stars. 

He looked at Toby. So wan in the backsplash of the flashlight beams. 
As if his small face had been carved of pure white marble. He must be 
in emotional turmoil, half scared to death, yet he remained outwardly 
calm, detached. His placid expression and marble-white skin was 
reminiscent of the beatific countenances on the sacred figures 
portrayed in cathedral statuary, and he was, indeed, their only 
possible salvation. 

A sudden flurry of activity from the Giver. A ripple of movement 
through the tentacles. 
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Heather gasped, and Harlan Moffit dropped his half emptied can of 
gasoline. 

Another ripple, stronger than the first. The hideous mouths opened 
wide as if to shriek. A thick, wet, repugnant shijting. 

Jack turned to Toby. 
Terror disturbed the boy's placid expression, like the shadow of a 
warplane passing over a summer meadow. But it flickered and was 
gone. 

His features relaxed. 
The Giver grew still once more. 
"Hurry," Heather said. 
o 
Harlan insisted on being the last one out. He poured the trail of 
gasoline to which they would touch a match 
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from the safety of the yard. Passing through the front room, he doused 
the corpse and its slavemaster. 

He had never been so scared in his life. He was so loose in the bowels 
that he was amazed he hadn't ruined a good pair of corduroys. No 
reason why he had to be the last one out. He could have let the cop do 
it. But that thing down there ... 

He supposed he wanted to be the one to lay down the fuse because of 
Cindi and Luci and Nanci, because of all his neighbors in Eagle's Roost 
too, because the sight of that thing had made him realize how much he 
loved them, more than he'd ever thought. Even people he'd never much 
liked before--Mrs. Kerry at the diner, Bob Falkenberg at Hensen's Feed 
and Grain--he was eager to see again, because suddenly it seemed to him 
that he had a world in common with them and so much to talk about. 

Hell of a thing to have to experience, hell of a thing to have to see, 
to be reminded you're a human being and all it meant to be one. 

o 
His dad struck the match. The snow burned. A line of fire streaked 
back through the open door of the caretaker's house. 

The black sea heaved and rolled. 
Little green boat. Putter and scatter. Putter and scatter. 
The explosion shattered the windows and even blew off some of the big 
squares of plyboard that had covered them. Flames crackled up the 
stone walls. 

The sea was black and thick as mud, churning and rolling and full of 
hate, wanting to pull him down, call WINTER MOONING him out of the 
boat, out of the boat and into the darkness below, and a part of him 
almost wanted to go, but he stayed in the little green boat, holding 
tight to the railing, holding on for dear life, scattering the Calming 
Dust with his free hand, weighing down the cold sea, holding on tight 
and doing what had to be done, just what had to be done. 

Later, with sheriff's deputies taking statements from Heather and 
Harlan in patrol cars, with other deputies and firemen sifting for 
proof in the ruins of the main house, Jack stood with Toby in the 
stables, where the electric heaters still worked. For a while they 
just stared through the half-open door at the falling snow and took 
turns petting Falstaff when he rubbed against their legs. 

Eventually Jack said, "Is it over?" 
"Maybe." 
"You don't know for sure?" 
"Right near the end," the boy said, "when it was burning up, it made 
some of itself into little boring worms, bad things, and they tunneled 
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into the cellar walls, trying to get away from the fire. But maybe 
they were all burned up, anyway." 

"We can look for them. Or the right people can, the military people 
and the scientists who'll be here before long. We can try to find 
every last one of them." 

"Because it can grow again," the boy said. 
The snow was not falling as hard as it had been all through the night 
and morning. The wind was dying down as well. 

"Are you going to be all right?" Jack asked. 
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"Yeah." 
"You sure?" 
"Never the same," Toby said solemnly. "Never the same . . . but all 
right." 

That is, Jack thought, the way of life. The horror changes us, because 
we can never forget. Cursed with memory. It starts when we're old 
enough to know what death is and realize that sooner or later we'll 
lose everyone we love. We're never the same. But somehow we're all 
right. We go on. 

o 
Eleven days before Christmas, they topped the Hollywood Hills and drove 
down into Los Angeles. The day was sunny, the air unusually clear, and 
the palm trees majestic. 

In the back of the Explorer, Falstaff moved from window to window, 
inspecting the city. He made small, snuffling sounds as if he approved 
of the place. 

Heather was eager to see Gina Tendero, Alma Bryson, and so many other 
friends, old neighbors. She felt that she was coming home after years 
in another country, and her heart swelled. 

Home was not a perfect place. But it was the only home they had, and 
they could hope to make it better. 

That night, a full winter moon sailed the sky, and the ocean was 
spangled with silver. 

the end.