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SCIENCE FICTION
AND FANTASY
selected by the editors of PLAYBOY
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A PLAYBOY PRESS BOOK
CONTENTS
Preface vii
The
Fly george
langelaan 1
Blood
Brother charles
beaumont 40
Love,
Incorporated Robert
sheckley 46
A
Foot in the Door bruce
jay friedman 61
The
Vacation ray
bradbury 75
The
Never Ending Penny Bernard
wolfe 84
Bernie
the Faust william
tenn 101
A
Man for the Moon lelandwebb 130
The
Noise ken
w. purdy 140
The
Killer in the TV Set bruce
jay friedman 155
I
Remember Babylon arthur
c. clarke 166
Word
of Honor robert
bloch 179
John
Grant's Little Angel walt
grove 187
The
Fiend frederik
pohl 206
Hard
Bargain alan
e. nourse 215
The
Nail and the Oracle theodore
sturgeon 221
After henry slesar 244
December
28th theodore
l. thomas 250
Spy
Story Robert
sheckley 254
Punch frederik pohl 268
The
Crooked Man charles
beaumont 274
Who
Shall Dwell h.
c. neal 286
Double
Take jack
finney 293
Examination Day henry slesar 314
The Mission hugh nissenson 320
Waste Not, Want
Not John
atherton 338
The Dot and Dash
Bird Bernard
wolfe 343
The Sensible
Man avram
davidson 359
Souvenir j. g. ballard 365
Puppet Show fredric brown 378
The Room ray russell 390
Dial "F"
for Frankenstein arthur
c. clarke 394
Index of Authors 403
PREFACE
PRIOR
TO 1954, science fiction and fantasy were almost totally restricted to
specialized, small-circulation pulp magazines devoted exclusively to these two
related genres. The big magazines—big in format, wealth, prestige and
circulation— rarely gave room to such stories.
What
happened in 1954 to change all this? playboy happened. For the first time, a major
periodical, a "slick" magazine, began to consistently publish
extrapolative stories, realistically inexplicable tales—the entire spectrum of
science fiction and fantasy. And, also for the first time, writers of this
fiction found themselves in receipt of certain delightful, desirable things
they had long lacked: (a) wide recognition and (b) money.
More importantly, playboy
offered them a chance to
stretch their talents beyond the relatively narrow confines of the
run-of-the-newsstand genre magazines with their arcane, in-groupish attitudes
and the kind of overtechnical, picayune pickiness best illustrated by the
solemn sci-fi buff who scorned The Martian Chronicles because Ray Bradbury unforgivably had the moons of Mars rising from the
wrong horizons. Bradbury's evocative story, The Vacation., in this book, probably would have been declined
by the specialized magazines on the grounds of "not enough science."
Quality
of writing, too, became a goal writers could take time to strive for, now that
economic pressures were eased, and this attracted not only the stellar talents
of the science-fiction and fantasy fields—the Sturgeons, the Pohls, the
Tenns—but
also writers of the so-called
"mainstream," such as Bruce Jay Friedman (see his A Foot in the Door and The Killer in the TV Set), Bernard Wolfe (represented here by The Never Ending Penny and The Dot and Dash Bird), Hugh Nissenson (The
Mission), Leland
Webb (A Man for the Moon) and many more. Some writers found playboy
such a welcome haven that
they graduated from the little genre publications and began to write almost exclusively
for our pages, as did the late Charles Beaumont, on hand here with a light
fantasy the sober pulps would have found "too frivolous" (Blood Brother) and a science-fiction story that would have
shocked them (The
Crooked Man).
This latter attraction—freedom from censorial
taboos—is invigorating to writers and readers accustomed to the paradoxical
prudishness of an otherwise adventurous field. For, as Kingsley Amis points out
in his book, New
Maps of Hell, "Science-fiction writers are evidently
satisfied with the sexual status quo . . . the sentimental consensus that this
is perhaps the only part of human nature that can never be changed ... is a disappointing trait in
science-fiction writers." In the pages ahead, Robert Sheckley's Love, Incorporated is just one story that looks at sex with new
eyes; others include the aforementioned The Crooked Man and
The Mission.
playboy's
lack of sexual and other
taboos is undoubtedly due to its being edited by men, for men and for that
estimable distaff contingent (bless them all) who care and are curious about
what their men care about. And this ties in quite happily with the indisputable
fact that (for reasons we do not intend to explore here and now) these
fictional genres, and especially science fiction, are enjoyed and written by
far more men than women—the obvious exceptions, of whom we will name only that
first-rate writer-anthologist Judith Merril, serve merely to prove the rule.
Possibly this high appeal science fiction has for men has something to do with
the kind of demonstrable reality the male intellect demands—prophetic reality
of the
sort
Arthur C. Clarke, for one, provides in I Remember Babylon and Dial
"F" for Frankenstein.
Nowhere
is this masculinity factor more lucidly illustrated than in a curious anomaly
of the French language (and let us not forget, en passant, that science fiction's greatest pioneer,
Jules Verne, was French): Although the French words for "science" and
"fiction" are both nouns of feminine gender (la science, la fiction) when combined they mysteriously become
masculine (le
science-fiction).
But it is the Italian language to which we
are indebted for a useful word that most aptly describes the contents of this
book. The Italians do not speak of science fiction or of fantasy; they speak of
fantascienza, a fine word that glitters with the missiles
and magic of both genres, conjuring up images of Things From Outer Space as
well as Things That Go Bump In The Night.
So,
with our usual exhortations to browse and enjoy, we offer this volume of the
very best fantascienza
published in playboy—which means the very best published
anywhere.
—the editors of playboy
THE FLY
by george langelaan
George
Langelaan was a real-life James Bond long before the fictional 007 was a
twinkle in the eye of Ian Fleming. An
Englishman reared in France, he became a British Intelligence agent during
World War Two, underwent facial surgery more than once to disguise his
identity, parachuted into Axis-occupied France, did battle with German 88s, was
captured and condemned to death by the Nazis, escaped, returned to England in
time to participate in the Normandy landings—true adventures he chronicled
vividly and with salty humor in his book, "The Masks of War." To many, however, he will
always be known as the author of the
propulsively entertaining novelette, "The Fly." This science-fiction
tale was an unprecedented hit with playboy readers when it first appeared in June 1957.
It won the playboy Best Fiction Award and was selected for the
"Annual of the Year's Best
Science Fiction." "The Fly" was immediately snapped up by 20th
Century-Fox and made into a successful same-name movie. But the test of a good
story is whether or not it can stand on its own merits. "The Fly"
can. Read it and see.
TELEPHONES
and telephone bells have always made me uneasy. Years ago, when they were
mostly wall fixtures, I disliked them, but nowadays, when they are planted in
every nook and corner, they are a downright intrusion. We have a saying in
France that a coalman is master in his own house; with the telephone that is no
longer true, and I suspect that even the Englishman is no longer king in his
own castle.
At the
office, the sudden ringing of the telephone annoys me. It means that, no matter
what I am doing, in spite of the switchboard operator, in spite of my
secretary, in spite of doors and walls, some unknown person is coming into the
room and onto my desk to talk right into my very ear, confidentially— and that
whether I like it or not. At home, the feeling is still more disagreeable, but
the worst is when the telephone rings in the dead of night. If anyone could see
me turn on the light and get up blinking to answer it, I suppose I would look
like any other sleepy man annoyed at being disturbed. The truth in such a case,
however, is that I am struggling against panic, fighting down a feeling that a
stranger has broken into the house and is in my bedroom. By the time I manage
to grab the receiver and say: uIci
Monsieur Delambre. Je vous ecoute," I am outwardly calm, but I only get back to a
more normal state when I recognize the voice at the other end and when I know
what is wanted of me.
This
effort at dominating a purely animal reaction and fear had become so effective
that when my sister-in-law called me at two in the morning, asking me to come
over, but first to warn the police that she had just killed my brother, I
quietly asked her how and why she had killed Andre.
"But,
Francois! ... I can't explain all
that over the telephone. Please call the police and come quickly."
"Maybe I had better
see you first, Helene?"
"No,
you'd better call the police first; otherwise they will start asking you all
sorts of awkward questions. They'll have enough trouble as it is to believe
that I did it alone . . . And,
by the way, I suppose you ought to tell them
that Andre . . . Andre's body, is down at the factory. They may want to go
there first."
"Did you say that
Andre is at the factory?"
"Yes . . . under the
steam-hammer."
"Under the what!"
"The
steam-hammer! But don't ask so many questions. Please come quickly Francois!
Please understand that I'm afraid . . . that my nerves won't stand it much
longer!"
Have
you ever tried to explain to a sleepy police officer that your sister-in-law
has just phoned to say that she has killed your brother with a steam-hammer? I
repeated my explanation, but he would not let me.
"Out,
Monsieur, out, I
hear . . . but who are you? What is your name? Where do you live? I said, where
do you live!"
It
was then that Commissaire Charas took over the line and the whole business. He
at least seemed to understand everything. Would I wait for him? Yes, he would
pick me up and take me over to my brother's house. When? In five or ten
minutes.
I
had just managed to pull on my trousers, wriggle into a sweater and grab a hat
and coat, when a black Citroen, headlights blazing, pulled up at the door.
"I
assume you have a night watchman at your factory, Monsieur Delambre. Has he
called you?" asked Commissaire Charas letting in the clutch as I sat down
beside him and slammed the door of the car.
"No,
he hasn't. Though of course my brother could have entered the factory through
his laboratory where he often works late at night ... all night sometimes."
"Is
Professor Delambre's work connected with your business?"
"No, my brother is, or was, doing
research work for the Ministere de 1'Air.
As he wanted to be away from Paris and yet within reach of where skilled
workmen could fix up or make gadgets big and small for his experiments, I
offered him one of the old workshops of the factory and he came to live in the
first house built by our grandfather on the top of the hill at the back of the
factory."
"Yes,
I see. Did he talk about his work? What sort of research work?"
"He
rarely talked about it, you know; I suppose the Air Ministry could tell you. I
only know that he was about to carry out a number of experiments he had been
preparing for some months, something to do with the disintegration of matter,
he told me."
Barely
slowing down, the Commissaire swung the car off the road, slid it through the
open factory gate and pulled up sharp by a policeman apparently expecting him.
I
did not need to hear the policeman's confirmation. I knew now that my brother
was dead, it seemed that I had been told years ago. Shaking like a leaf, I
scrambled out after the Commissaire.
Another
policeman stepped out of a doorway and led us towards one of the shops where
all the lights had been turned on. More policemen were standing by the hammer,
watching two men setting up a camera. It was tilted downwards, and I made an
effort to look.
It was far less horrid than I had expected.
Though I had never seen my brother drunk, he looked just as if he were sleeping
off a terrific binge, flat on his stomach across the narrow line on which the
white-hot slabs of metal were rolled up to the hammer. I saw at a glance that
his head and arm could only be a flattened mess, but that seemed quite impossible;
it looked as if he had somehow pushed his head and arms right into the metallic
mass of the hammer.
Having
talked to his colleagues, the Commissaire turned towards me:
"How can we raise the hammer, Monsieur
Delambre?" "I'll raise it for you."
"Would you like us to
get one of your men over?"
"No,
I'll be all right. Look, here is the switchboard. It was originally a
steam-hammer, but everything is worked electrically here now. Look
Commissaire, the hammer has been set at 50 tons and its impact at zero."
"At zero . . . ?"
"Yes,
level with the ground if you prefer. It is also set for single strokes, which
means that it has to be raised after each blow. I don't know what Helene, my
sister-in-law, will have to say about all this, but one thing I am sure of: she
certainly did not know how to set and operate the hammer."
"Perhaps
it was set that way last night when work stopped?"
"Certainly
not. The drop is never set at zero, Monsieur le Commissaire."
"I see. Can it be
raised gently?"
"No.
The speed of the upstroke cannot be regulated. But in any case it is not very
fast when the hammer is set for single strokes."
"Right.
Will you show me what to do? It won't be very nice to watch, you know."
"No, no, Monsieur le
Commissaire. I'll be all right."
"All
set?" asked the Commissaire of the others. "All right then, Monsieur
Delambre. Whenever you like."
Watching
my brother's back, I slowly but firmly pushed the upstroke button.
The
unusual silence of the factory was broken by the sigh of compressed air rushing
into the cylinders, a sigh that always makes me think of a giant taking a deep
breath before solemnly socking another giant, and the steel mass of the hammer
shuddered and then rose swiftly. I also heard the sucking sound as it left the
metal base and thought I was going to panic when I saw Andre's body heave
forward as a sickly gush of blood poured all over the ghastly mess bared by the
hammer.
"No danger of it coming down again, Monsieur Delambre?"
"No,
none whatever," I mumbled as I threw the safety switch and, turning around, I was violently sick in
front of a young green-faced policeman.
For weeks after, Commissaire Charas worked on
the case, listening, questioning, running all over the place, making out
reports, telegraphing and telephoning right and left. Later, we became quite
friendly and he owned that he had for a long time considered me as suspect
number one, but had finally given up that idea because, not only was there no
clue of any sort, but not even a motive.
Helene,
my sister-in-law, was so calm throughout the whole business that the doctors
finally confirmed what I had long considered the only possible
solution: that she was mad. That being the case, there was of course no trial.
My
brother's wife never tried to defend herself in any way and even got quite
annoyed when she realized that people thought her mad, and this of course was
considered proof that she was indeed mad. She owned up to the murder of her
husband and proved easily that she knew how to handle the hammer; but she would
never say why, exactly how, or under what circumstances she had killed my
brother. The great mystery was how and why had my brother so obligingly stuck
his head under the hammer, the only possible explanation for his part in the
drama.
The
night watchman had heard the hammer all right; he had even heard it twice, he
claimed. This was very strange, and the stroke-counter which was always set
back to nought after a job, seemed to prove him right, since it marked the
figure two. Also, the foreman in charge of the hammer confirmed that after
cleaning up the day before the murder, he had as usual turned the
stroke-counter back to nought. In spite of this, Helene maintained that she had
only used the hammer once, and this seemed just another proof of her insanity.
Commissaire Charas who had been put in charge
of the case at first wondered if the victim were really my brother. But of that
there was no possible doubt, if only because of the great scar running from his
knee to his thigh, the result of a shell that had landed within a few feet of
him during the retreat in 1940 j and there were also the fingerprints of his
left hand which corresponded to those found all over his laboratory and his
personal belongings up at the house.
A
guard had been put on his laboratory and the next day half-a-dozen officials
came down from the Air Ministry. They went through all his papers and took away
some of his instruments, but before leaving, they told the Commissaire that the
most interesting documents and instruments had been destroyed.
The
Lyons police laboratory, one of the most famous in the world, reported that
Andre's head had been wrapped up in a piece of velvet when it was crushed by
the hammer, and one day Commissaire Charas showed me a tattered drapery which I
immediately recognized as the brown velvet cloth I had seen on a table in my
brother's laboratory, the one on which his meals were served when he could not
leave his work.
After
only a very few days in prison, Helene had been transferred to a nearby asylum,
one of the three in France where insane criminals are taken care of. My nephew
Henri, a boy of six, the very image of his father, was entrusted to me, and
eventually all legal arrangements were made for me to become his guardian and
tutor.
Helene,
one of the quietest patients of the asylum, was allowed visitors and I went to
see her on Sundays. Once or twice the Commissaire had accompanied me and,
later, I learned that he had also visited Helene alone. But we were never able
to obtain any information from my sister-in-law who seemed to have become
utterly indifferent. She rarely answered my questions and hardly ever those of
the Commissaire. She spent a lot of her time sewing, but her favorite pastime
seemed to be catching flies which she invariably released unharmed after having
examined them carefully.
Helene
only had one fit of raving—more like a nervous breakdown than a fit said the
doctor who had administered morphia to quieten her—the day she saw a nurse
swatting flies.
The
day after Helene's one and only fit, Commissaire Charas came to see me.
"I
have a strange feeling that there lies the key to the whole business, Monsieur
Delambre," he said.
I did not ask him how it was that he already
knew all about Helene's fit.
"I do not follow you, Commissaire. Poor
Madame Delambre could have shown an exceptional interest for anything else,,
really. Don't you think that flies just happen to be the border-subject of her
tendency to raving?"
"Do you believe she is
really mad?" he asked.
"My
dear Commissaire, I don't see how there can be any doubt. Do you doubt
it?"
"I
don't know. In spite of all the doctors say, I have the impression that Madame
Delambre has a very clear brain . . . even when catching flies."
"Supposing
you were right, how would you explain her attitude with regard to her little
boy? She never seems to consider him as her own child."
"You
know, Monsieur Delambre, I have thought about that also. She may be trying to
protect him. Perhaps she fears the boy or, for all we know, hates him?"
"I'm afraid I don't
understand, my dear Commissaire."
"Have
you noticed, for instance, that she never catches flies when the boy is
there?"
"No.
But come to think of it, you are quite right. Yes, that is strange . . . Still,
I fail to understand."
"So
do I, Monsieur Delambre. And I'm very much afraid that we shall never
understand, unless perhaps your sister-in-law should get better."
"The doctors seem to think that there is
no hope of any sort you know."
"Yes.
Do you know if your brother ever experimented with flies?"
"I
really don't know, but I shouldn't think so. Have you asked the Air Ministry
people? They knew all about the work."
"Yes, and they laughed at me."
"I can understand that."
"You
are very fortunate to understand anything, Monsieur Delambre. I do not . . .
but I hope to some day."
"Tell me, Uncle, do
flies live a long time?"
We
were just finishing our lunch and, following an established tradition between
us, I was just pouring some wine into Henri's glass for him to dip a biscuit
in.
Had
Henri not been staring at his glass gradually being filled to the brim,
something in my look might have frightened him.
This
was the first time that he had ever mentioned flies, and I shuddered at the
thought that Commissaire Charas might quite easily have been present. I could
imagine the glint in his eye as he would have answered my nephew's question
with another question. I could almost hear him saying:
"I don't know, Henri.
Why do you ask?"
"Because
I have again seen the fly that Maman was
looking for."
And
it was only after drinking off Henri's own glass of wine that I realized that
he had answered my spoken thought.
"I did not know that
your mother was looking for a fly."
"Yes,
she was. It has grown quite a lot, but I recognized it all right."
"Where
did you see this fly, Henri, and . . . how did you recognize it?"
"This morning on your desk, Uncle
Francois. Its head is white instead of black, and it has a funny sort of
leg."
Feeling
more and more like Commissaire Charas, but trying to look unconcerned, I went
on:
"And when did you see
this fly for the first time?"
"The
day that Papa went away. I had caught it, but Maman made me let it go. And then after, she wanted me to find it again. She'd
changed her mind," and shrugging his shoulders just as my brother used to,
he added, "You know what women are."
"I
think that fly must have died long ago, and you must be mistaken, Henri,"
I said, getting up and walking to the door.
But
as soon as I was out of the dining room, I ran up the stairs to my study. There
was no fly anywhere to be seen.
I
was bothered, far more than I cared to even think about. Henri had just proved
that Charas was really closer to a clue than had seemed when he told me about
his thoughts concerning Helene's pastime.
For
the first time I wondered if Charas did not really know much more than he let
on. For the first time also, I wondered about Helene. Was she really insane? A
strange, horrid feeling was growing on me, and the more I thought about it, the
more I felt that, somehow, Charas was right: Helene was getting away with it!
What
could possibly have been the reason for such a monstrous crime? What had led up
to it? Just what had happened?
I
thought of all the hundreds of questions that Charas had put to Helene,
sometimes gently like a nurse trying to soothe, sometimes stern and cold,
sometimes barking them furiously. Helene had answered very few, always in a
calm quiet voice and never seeming to pay any attention to the way in which the
question had been put. Though dazed, she had seemed perfectly sane then.
Refined, well-bred and well-read, Charas was
more than just an intelligent police official. He was a keen psychologist and
had an amazing way of smelling out a fib or an erroneous statement even before
it was uttered. I knew that he had accepted as true the few answers she had
given him. But then there had been all those questions which she had never
answered: the most direct and important ones. From the very beginning, Helene
had adopted a very simple system. "I cannot answer that question,"
she would say in her low quiet voice. And that was that! The repetition of the
same question never seemed to annoy her. In all the hours of questioning that
she underwent, Helene did not once point out to the Commissaire that he had
already asked her this or that. She would simply say, "I cannot answer
that question," as though it was the very first time that that particular
question had been asked and the very first time she had made that answer.
This
cliché had become the formidable barrier beyond
which Commissaire Charas
could not even get a
glimpse, an idea of what Helene might be thinking. She had very willingly
answered all questions about her life with my brother—which seemed a happy and
uneventful one—up to the time of his end. About his death, however, all that
she would say was that she had killed him with the steam-hammer, but she
refused to say why, what had led up to the drama and how she got my brother to
put his head under it. She never actually refused outright; she would just go
blank and, with no apparent emotion, would switch over to, "I cannot
answer that question for you."
Helene,
as I have said, had shown the Commissaire that she knew how to set and operate
the steam-hammer.
Charas could
only find one single fact which did not coincide with Helene's declarations,
the fact that the hammer had been used twice. Charas was no longer willing to attribute this to
insanity. That evident flaw in Helene's stonewall defense seemed a crack which
the Commissaire might possibly enlarge. But my sister-in-law finally cemented
it by acknowledging:
"All
right, I lied to you. I did use the hammer twice. But do not ask me why,
because I cannot tell you."
"Is
that your only . . . misstatement, Madame Delam-bre?" had asked the
Commissaire, trying to follow up what looked at last like an advantage.
"It is . . . and you
know it, Monsieur le Commissaire."
And,
annoyed, Charas had seen that Helene could read him like an open book.
I
had thought of calling on the Commissaire, but the knowledge that he would
inevitably start questioning Henri made me hesitate. Another reason also made
me hesitate, a vague sort of fear that he would look for and find the fly Henri
had talked of. And that annoyed me a good deal because I could find no
satisfactory explanation for that particular fear.
Andre
was definitely not the absent-minded sort of professor who walks about in
pouring rain with a rolled umbrella under his arm. He was human, had a keen
sense of humor, loved children and animals and could not bear to see anyone
suffer. I had often seen him drop his work to watch a parade of the local fire
brigade, or see the Tour
de France cyclists
go by, or even follow a circus parade all around the village. He liked games of
logic and precision, such as billiards and tennis, bridge and chess.
How
was it then possible to explain his death? What could have made him put his
head under that hammer? It could hardly have been the result of some stupid bet
or a test of his courage. He hated betting and had no patience with those who
indulged in it. Whenever he heard a bet proposed, he would invariably remind
all present that, after all, a bet was but a contract between a fool and a
swindler, even if it turned out to be a toss-up as to which was which.
It
seemed there were only two possible explanations to Andre's death. Either he
had gone mad, or else he had a reason for letting his wife kill him in such a
strange and terrible way. And just what could have been his wife's role in all
this? They surely could not have been both insane?
Having
finally decided not to tell Charas about my nephew's innocent revelations, I
thought I myself would try to question Helene.
She
seemed to have been expecting my visit for she came into the parlor almost as
soon as I had made myself known to the matron and been allowed inside.
"I
wanted to show you my garden," explained Helene as I looked at the coat slung
over her shoulders.
As
one of the "reasonable" inmates, she was allowed to go into the
garden during certain hours of the day. She had asked for and obtained the
right to a little patch of ground where she could grow flowers, and I had sent
her seeds and some rosebushes out of my garden.
She
took me straight to a rustic wooden bench which had been in the men's workshop
and only just set up under a tree close to her little patch of ground.
Searching
for the right way to broach the subject of Andre's death, I sat for a while
tracing vague designs on the ground with the end of my umbrella.
"Francois,
I want to ask you something," said Helene after a while.
"Anything I can do for you,
Helene?" "No, just something I want to know. Do flies live very
long?"
Staring
at her, I was about to say that her boy had asked the very same question a few
hours earlier when I suddenly realized that here was the opening I had been
searching for and perhaps even the possibility of striking a great blow, a blow
perhaps powerful enough to shatter her stonewall defense, be it sane or
insane.
Watching her carefully, I replied:
"I
don't really know, Helene; but the fly you were looking for was in my study
this morning."
No
doubt about it I had struck a shattering blow. She swung her head round with
such force that I heard the bones crack in her neck. She opened her mouth, but
said not a word; only her eyes seemed to be screaming with fear.
Yes,
it was evident that I had crashed through something, but what? Undoubtedly, the
Commissaire would have known what to do with such an advantage; I did not. All I knew was that he would never have given her time to think, to
recuperate, but all I could do, and even that was a strain, was to maintain my
best poker-face, hoping against hope that Helene's defenses would go on
crumbling.
She
must have been quite a while without breathing, because she suddenly gasped and
put both her hands over her still open mouth.
"Francois . . . Did you kill it?"
she whispered, her eyes no longer fixed, but searching every inch of my face.
"No."
"You
have it then . . . You have it on you! Give it to me!" she almost shouted,
touching me with both her hands, and I knew that had she felt strong enough,
she would have tried to search me.
"No, Helene, I haven't
got it."
"But you know now . .
. You have guessed, haven't you?"
"No,
Helene. I only know one thing, and that is that you are not insane. But I mean
to know all Helene and, somehow, I am going to find out. You can choose: either
you tell me everything and I'll see what is to be done, or . . ."
"Or what? Say
it!"
"I
was going to say it, Helene ... or I
assure you that your friend the Commissaire will have that fly first thing
tomorrow morning."
She
remained quite still, looking down at the palms of her hands on her lap and,
although it was getting chilly, her forehead and hands were moist.
Without even brushing aside a wisp of long
brown hair blown across her mouth by the breeze, she murmured:
"If
I tell you . . . will you promise to destroy that fly before doing anything
else?"
"No, Helene. I can
make no such promise before knowing."
"But
Francois, you must understand. I promised Andre that fly would be destroyed.
That promise must be kept and I can say nothing until it is."
I
could sense the deadlock ahead. I was not yet losing ground, but I was losing
the initiative. I tried a shot in the dark:
"Helene,
of course you understand that as soon as the police examine that fly, they will
know that you are not insane, and then . . ."
"Francois,
no! For Henri's sake! Don't you see? I was expecting that fly; I was hoping it
would find me here but it couldn't know what had become of me. What else could
it do but go to others it loves, to Henri, to you . . . you who might know and
understand what was to be done!"
Was
she really mad, or was she simulating again? But mad or not, she was cornered.
Wondering how to follow up and how to land the knockout blow without running
the risk of seeing her slip away out of reach, I said very quietly:
"Tell me all, Helene.
I can then protect your boy."
"Protect
my boy from what? Don't you understand that if I am here, it is merely so that
Henri won't be the son of a woman who was guillotined for having murdered his
father? Don't you understand that I would by far prefer the guillotine to the
living death of this lunatic asylum?"
"I
understand Helene, and I'll do my best for the boy whether you tell me or not.
If you refuse to tell me, I'll still do the best I can to protect Henri, but
you must understand that the game will be out of my hands, because Commissaire
Charas will have the fly."
"But
why must you know?" said, rather than asked, my sister-in-law, struggling
to control her temper.
"Because I must and will know how and
why my brother died, Helene."
"All right. Take me back to the . . .
house. I'll give you what your Commissaire would call my 'Confession.' "
"Do you mean to say
that you have written it!"
"Yes.
It was not really meant for you, but more likely for your friend, the Commissaire. I had foreseen that, sooner
or later, he would get too close to the truth."
"You then have no
objection to his reading it?"
"You
will act as you think fit, Francois. Wait for me a minute."
Leaving
me at the door of the parlor, Helene ran upstairs to her room. In less than a
minute she was back with a large brown envelope.
"Listen
Francois; you are not nearly as bright as was your poor brother, but you are
not unintelligent. All I ask is that you read this alone. After that, you may
do as you wish."
"That
I promise you, Helene," I said taking the precious envelope. "I'll
read it tonight and although tomorrow is not a visiting day, I'll come down to
see you."
"Just
as you like," said my sister-in-law without even saying good-bye as she
went back upstairs.
It was only on reaching home, as I walked
from the garage to the house, that I read the inscription on the envelope:
to whom it may concern
(Probably Commissaire
Charas)
Having told the servants that I would have
only a light supper to be served immediately in my study and that I was not to
be disturbed after, I ran upstairs, threw Helene's envelope on my desk and made
another careful search of the room before closing the shutters and drawing the
curtains. All I could find was a long since dead mosquito stuck to the wall
near the ceiling.
Having motioned to the servant to put her
tray down on a table by the fireplace, I poured myself a glass of wine and
locked the door behind her. I then disconnected the telephone —I always did
this now at night—and turned out all the lights but the lamp on my desk.
Slitting
open Helene's fat envelope, I extracted a thick wad of closely written pages. I
read the following lines neatly centered in the middle of the top page:
This
is not a confession because, although I killed my husband, I am not a
murderess. I simply and very faithfully carried out his last wish by crushing
his head and right arm under the steam-hammer of his brother's factory.
Without
even touching the glass of wine by my elbow, I turned the page and started
reading.
For very nearly a year before his death {the manuscript began), my husband had told me of some of his
experiments. He knew full well that his colleagues of the Air Ministry would
have forbidden some of them as too dangerous, but he was keen on obtaining
positive results before reporting his discovery.
Whereas
only sound and pictures had been, so far, transmitted through space by radio
and television, Andre claimed to have discovered a way of transmitting matter.
Matter, any solid object, placed in his "transmitter" was instantly
disintegrated and reintegrated in a special receiving set.
Andre
considered his discovery as perhaps the most important since that of the wheel
sawn off the end of a tree trunk. He reckoned that the transmission of matter
by instantaneous "disintegration-reintegration" would completely
change life as we had known it so far. It would mean the end of all means of
transport, not only of goods including food, but also of human beings. Andre,
the practical scientist who never allowed theories or daydreams to get the
better of him, already foresaw the time when there would no longer be any
airplanes, ships, trains or cars and, therefore, no longer any roads or railway
lines, ports, airports or
stations. All that would be replaced by matter-transmitting and receiving
stations throughout the world. Travelers and goods would be placed in special
cabins and, at a given signal, would simply disappear and reappear almost
immediately at the chosen receiving station.
Andre's
receiving set was only a few feet away from his transmitter, in an adjoining
room of his laboratory, and he at first ran into all sorts of snags. His first
successful experiment was carried out with an ash tray taken from his desk, a
souvenir we had brought back from a trip to London.
That
was the first time he told me about his experiments and I had no idea of what he was talking about the day he came dashing into
the house and threw the ash tray in my lap.
"Helene,
look! For a fraction of a second, a bare ten-millionth of a second, that ash
tray has been completely disintegrated. For one little moment it no longer
existed! Gone! Nothing left, absolutely nothing! Only atoms traveling through
space at the speed of light! And the moment after, the atoms were once more
gathered together in the shape of an ash tray!"
"Andre,
please . . . please! What on earth are you raving about?"
He
started sketching all over a letter I had been writing. He laughed at my wry
face, swept ail my letters off the table and said:
"You
don't understand: Right. Ler's start all over again. Helene, do you remember I
read yyj. an article about the mysterious flying stones that seen re* cc:r:e trom nowhere in particular, and which are
said t~ oessocally fall in certain houses in India: They crrr-e dyi^* as thcugh thrown from outside and that,
in spite cf clrsed d:cr? i^d windows."
"Yes, I remember. I also Jy that
Professor Augier,
your
friend of the Cclieee de Fmrr. who dad come down for a few days, remarked tdat
trsrr wis tritkery about it, the only possible
expknadrr tts ~h
tbe sz-ss had been disintegrated
after having been thrown from outside, come through the walls, and then been
reintegrated before hitting the floor or the opposite walls."
"That's
right. And I added that there was, of course, one other possibility, namely the
momentary and partial disintegration of the walls as the stone or stones came
through."
"Yes,
Andre. I remember all that, and I suppose you also remember that I failed to
understand, and that you got quite annoyed. Well, I still do not understand why
and how, even disintegrated, stones should be able to come through a wall or a
closed door."
"But
it is possible, Helene, because the atoms that go to make up matter are not
close together like the bricks of a wall. They are separated by relative
immensities of space."
"Do
you mean to say that you have disintegrated that ash tray, and then put it
together again after pushing it through something?"
"Precisely,
Helene. I projected it through the wall that separates my transmitter from my
receiving set."
"And
would it be foolish to ask how humanity is to benefit from ash trays that can
go through walls?"
Andre
seemed quite offended, but he soon saw that I was only teasing and again waxing
enthusiastic, he told me of some of the possibilities of his discovery.
"Isn't
it wonderful, Helene?" he finally gasped, out of breath.
"Yes,
Andre. But I hope you won't ever transmit me j I'd be too much afraid of coming
out at the other end like your ash tray."
"What do you mean?"
"Do you remember what was written under
that ash tray?" "Yes, of course: made
in japan.
That was the great joke of our typically British souvenir."
"The words are still there Andre; but .
. . look!"
He took the ash tray out of my hands,
frowned, and walked over to the window. Then he went quite pale, and I knew
that he had seen what had proved to me that he had indeed carried out a strange
experiment. The three words were still there, but reversed and reading:
n£qc{. ni absM
Without a word, having completely forgotten
me, Andre rushed off to his laboratory. I only saw him the next morning, tired
and unshaven after a whole night's work.
A
few days later, Andre had a new reverse which put him out of sorts and made him
fussy and grumpy for several weeks. I stood it patiently enough for a while,
but being myself bad tempered one evening, we had a silly row over some futile
thing, and I reproached him for his moroseness.
"I'm
sorry, cherie. I've been working my way through a maze of
problems and have given you all a very rough time. You see, my very first
experiment with a live animal proved a complete fiasco."
"Andre!
You tried that experiment with Dandelo, didn't you?"
"Yes.
How did you know?" he answered sheepishly. "He disintegrated
perfectly, but he never reappeared in the receiving set."
"Oh, Andre! What
became of him then?"
"Nothing
. . . there is just no more Dandelo; only the dispersed atoms of a cat
wandering, God knows where, in the universe."
Dandelo
was a small white cat the cook had found one morning in the garden and which we
had promptly adopted. Now I knew how it had disappeared and was quite angry
about the whole thing, but my husband was so miserable over it all that I said
nothing.
I
saw little of my husband during the next few weeks. He had most of his meals
sent down to the laboratory. I would often wake up in the morning and find his
bed unslept in.
Sometimes,
if he had come in very late, I would find that storm-swept appearance which only
a man can give a bedroom by getting up very early and fumbling around in the
dark.
One
evening he came home to dinner all smiles, and I knew that his troubles were
over. His face dropped, however, when he saw I was dressed for going out.
"Oh. Were you going
out, Helene?"
"Yes,
the Drillons invited me for a game of bridge, but I can easily phone them and put it off."
"No, it's all
right."
"It isn't all right.
Out with it, dear!"
"Well,
I've at last got everything perfect and I wanted you to be the first to see the
miracle."
"Magnifique, Andre! Of course I'll be delighted."
Having
telephoned our neighbors to say how sorry I was and so forth, I ran down to the
kitchen and told the cook that she had exactly ten minutes in which to prepare
a "celebration dinner."
"An
excellent idea, Helene," said my husband when the maid appeared with the
champagne after our candlelight dinner. "We'll celebrate with reintegrated
champagne!" and taking the tray from the maid's hands, he led the way down
to the laboratory.
"Do
you think it will be as good as before its disintegration?" I asked,
holding the tray while he opened the door and switched on the lights.
"Have
no fear. You'll see! Just bring it here, will you," he said, opening the
door of a telephone call-box he had bought and which had been transformed into
what he called a transmitter. "Put it down on that now," he added,
putting a stool inside the box.
Having
carefully closed the door, he took me to the other end of the room and handed
me a pair of very dark sun glasses. He put on another pair and walked back to a
switchboard by the transmitter.
"Ready Helene?" said my husband
turning out all the lights. "Don't remove your glasses till I give the word."
"I
won't budge Andre, go on," I told him, my eyes fixed on the tray which I
could just see in a greenish shimmering light through the glass paneled door of
the telephone booth.
"Right," said
Andre, throwing a switch.
The
whole room was brilliantly illuminated by an orange flash. Inside the cabin I
had seen a crackling ball of fire and felt its heat on my face, neck and hands.
The whole thing lasted but the fraction of a second, and I found myself blinking at green-edged black holes like those one sees
after having stared at the sun.
"Et voila! You can take off your glasses, Helene."
A
little theatrically perhaps, my husband opened the door of the cabin. Though
Andre had told me what to expect, I was astonished to find that the champagne,
glasses, tray and stool were no longer there.
Andre
ceremoniously lead me by the hand into the next room in a corner of which stood
a second telephone booth. Opening the door wide, he triumphantly lifted the
champagne tray off the stool.
Feeling
somewhat like the good-natured kind-member-of the-audience that has been
dragged onto the music hall stage by the magician, I repressed from saying,
"All done with mirrors," which I knew would have annoyed my husband.
"Sure
it's not dangerous to drink?" I asked as the cork popped.
"Absolutely
sure, Helene," he said handing me a glass. "But that was nothing.
Drink this off and I'll show you something much more astounding."
We went back into the other
room.
"Oh, Andre! Remember
poor Dandelo!"
"This
is only a guinea pig, Helene. But I'm positive it will go through all
right."
He set the furry little
beast down on the green enamelled floor of the booth and quickly closed the
door. I again put on my dark glasses and saw and felt the vivid crackling
flash.
Without
waiting for Andre to open the door, I rushed into the next room where the
lights were still on and looked into the receiving booth.
"Oh,
Andre! Chert! He's there all right!" I shouted
excitedly watching the little animal trotting round and round. "It's
wonderful Andre. It works! You've succeeded!"
"I hope so, but I must be patient. I'll
know for sure in a few weeks' time."
"What
do you mean? Look! He's as full of life as when you put him in the other
cabin."
"Yes,
so he seems. But we'll have to see if all his organs are intact, and that will
take some time. If that little beast is still full of life in a month's time,
we then consider the experiment a success."
I begged Andre to let me
take care of the guinea pig.
"All
right, but don't kill it by over-feeding," he agreed with a grin for my
enthusiasm.
Though
not allowed to take Hop-la—the name I had given the guinea pig—out of its box
in the laboratory, I had tied a pink ribbon round its neck and was allowed to
feed it twice a day.
Hop-la
soon got used to its pink ribbon and became quite a tame little pet, but that
month of waiting seemed a year.
And
then one day, Andre put Miquette, our cocker spaniel, into his
"transmitter." He had not told me beforehand, knowing full well that
I would never have agreed to such an experiment with our dog. But when he did
tell me, Miquette had been successfully transmitted half-a-dozen times and
seemed to be enjoying the operation thoroughly; no sooner was she let out of
the "reintegrator" than she dashed madly into the next room,
scratching at the "transmitter" door to have "another go,"
as Andre called it.
I now expected that my husband would invite
some of his
colleagues and Air Ministry specialists to come down. He usually did this when
he had finished a research job and, before handing them long detailed reports
which he always typed himself, he would carry out an experiment or two before
them. But this time, he just went on working. One morning I finally asked him
when he intended throwing his usual "surprise party," as we called
it.
"No,
Helene; not for a long while yet. This discovery is much too important. I have
an awful lot of work to do on it still. Do you realize that there are some
parts of the transmission proper which I do not yet myself fully understand?
It works all right, but you see, I can't just say to all these eminent
professors that I do this and that and, poof, it works! I must be able to
explain how and why it works. And what is even more important, I must be ready
and able to refute every destructive argument they will not fail to trot out,
as they usually do when faced with anything really good."
I
was occasionally invited down to the laboratory to witness some new experiment,
but I never went unless Andre invited me, and only talked about his work if he
broached the subject first. Of course it never occurred to me that he would, at
that stage at least, have tried an experiment with a human being; though, had I
thought about it—knowing Andre—it would have been obvious that he would never
have allowed anyone into the "transmitter" before he had been through
to test it first. It was only after the accident that I discovered he had
duplicated all his switches inside the disintegration booth, so that he could
try it out by himself.
The
morning Andre tried this terrible experiment, he did not show up for lunch. I
sent the maid down with a tray, but she brought it back with a note she had
found pinned outside the laboratory door: "Do not disturb me, I am
working."
He
did occasionally pin such notes on his door and, though I noticed it, I paid no
particular attention.to the unusually large handwriting of his note.
It was just after that, as I was drinking my
coffee, that Henri came bouncing into the room to say that he had caught a
funny fly, and would I like to see it. Refusing even to look at his closed
fist, I ordered him to release it immediately.
"But, Maman, it has such a funny white head!"
Marching
the boy over to the open window, I told him to release the fly immediately,
which he did. I knew that Henri had caught the fly merely because he thought it
looked curious or different to other flies, but I also knew that his father
would never stand for any form of cruelty to animals, and that there would be a
fuss should he discover that our son had put a fly in a box or a bottle.
At
dinner time that evening, Andre had still not shown up and a little worried, I
ran down to the laboratory and knocked at the door.
He
did not answer my knock, but I heard him moving around and a moment later he
slipped a note under the door. It was typewritten:
HELENE, I AM HAVING TROUBLE. PUT THE BOY TO BED AND COME BACK IN AN
HOUR'S TIME. A.
Frightened, I knocked and called, but Andre
did not seem to pay any attention and, vaguely reassured by the familiar noise
of his typewriter, I went back to the house.
Having
put Henri to bed, I returned to the laboratory where I found another note
slipped under the door. My hand shook as I picked it up because I knew by then
that something must be radically wrong. I read:
HELENE, FIRST OF ALL I COUNT ON YOU NOT TO LOSE YOUR NERVE OR DO
ANYTHING RASH BECAUSE YOU ALONE CAN HELP ME. I HAVE HAD A SERIOUS ACCIDENT. i AM NOT IN ANY PARTICULAR DANGER FOR THE TIME
BEING THOUGH IT IS A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH. IT IS USELESS CALLING TO ME OR
SAYING ANYTHING. I CANNOT ANSWER, I CANNOT SPEAK. I WANT YOU TO DO EXACTLY AND
VERY CAREFULLY ALL THAT I ASK. AFTER HAVING KNOCKED THREE TIMES TO SHOW THAT
YOU
UNDERSTAND
AND AGREE, FETCH ME A BOWL OF MILK LACED WITH RUM. I HAVE HAD NOTHING ALL DAY
AND CAN DO WITH IT.
Shaking with fear, not knowing what to think
and repressing a furious desire to call Andre and bang away until he opened, I
knocked three times as requested and ran all the way home to fetch what he
wanted.
In less than five minutes I was back. Another
note had been slipped under the door:
HELENE,
FOLLOW THESE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY. WHEN YOU KNOCK I'LL OPEN THE DOOR. YOU ARE
TO WALK OVER TO MY DESK AND PUT DOWN THE BOWL OF MILK. YOU WILL THEN GO INTO
THE OTHER ROOM WHERE THE RECEIVER IS. LOOK CAREFULLY AND TRY TO FIND A FLY
WHICH OUGHT TO BE THERE BUT WHICH I AM UNABLE TO FIND. UNFORTUNATELY I CANNOT
SEE SMALL THINGS VERY EASILY.
BEFORE
YOU COME IN YOU MUST PROMISE TO OBEY ME IMPLICITLY. DO NOT LOOK AT ME AND
REMEMBER THAT TALKING IS QUITE USELESS. I CANNOT ANSWER. KNOCK AGAIN THREE
TIMES AND THAT WILL MEAN I HAVE YOUR PROMISE. MY LIFE DEPENDS ENTIRELY ON THE
HELP YOU CAN GIVE ME.
I had to wait a while to pull myself
together, and then I knocked slowly three times.
I
heard Andre shuffling behind the door, then his hand fumbling with the lock,,
and the door opened.
Out
of the corner of my eye, I saw that he was standing behind the door, but
without looking round, I carried the bowl of milk to his desk. He was evidently
watching me and I must at all costs appear calm and collected.
"Chert,
you can count on me,"
I said gently, and putting the bowl down under his desk lamp, the only one
alight, I walked into the next room where all the lights were blazing.
My
first impression was that some sort of hurricane must have blown out of the
receiving booth. Papers were scattered in every direction, a whole row of test tubes lay smashed in a corner,
chairs and stools were upset and one of the window curtains hung half torn from
its bent rod. In a large enamel basin on the floor a heap of burned documents
was still smoldering.
I
knew that I would not find the fly Andre wanted me to look for. Women know
things that men only suppose by reasoning and deduction; it is a form of
knowledge very rarely accessible to them and which they disparagingly call
intuition. I already knew that the fly Andre wanted was the one which Henri had
caught and which I had made him release.
I
heard Andre shuffling around in the next room, and then a strange gurgling and
sucking as though he had trouble in drinking his milk.
"Andre,
there is no fly here. Can you give me any sort of indication that might help?
If you can't speak, rap or something . . . you know: once for yes, twice for
no."
I
had tried to control my voice and speak as though perfectly calm, but I had to
choke down a sob of desperation when he rapped twice for "no."
"May
I come to you Andre? I don't know what can have happened, but whatever it is,
I'll be courageous, dear."
After
a moment of silent hesitation, he tapped once on his desk.
At
the door I stopped aghast at the sight of Andre standing with his head and
shoulders covered by the brown velvet cloth he had taken from a table by his
desk, the table on which he usually ate when he did not want to leave his work.
Suppressing a laugh that might easily have turned to sobbing, I said:
"Andre,
we'll search thoroughly tomorrow, by daylight. Why don't you go to bed? I'll
lead you to the guest room if you like, and won't let anyone else see
you."
His left hand tapped the
desk twice.
"Do you need a doctor,
Andre?"
"No," he rapped.
"Would
you like me to call up Professor Augier? He might be of more help . . ."
Twice
he rapped "no" sharply. I did not know what to do or say. And then I
told him:
"Henri
caught a fly this morning which he wanted to show me, but I made him release
it. Could it have been the one you are looking for? I didn't see it, but the
boy said its head was white."
Andre
emitted a strange metallic sigh, and I just
had time to bite my fingers fiercely in order not to scream. He had let his
right arm drop, and instead of his long-fingered muscular hand, a gray stick
with little buds on it like the branch of a tree, hung out of his sleeve almost
down to his knee.
"Andre,
mon cheri, tell me what happened. I might be of more
help to you if I knew. Andre . . . oh, it's terrible!" I sobbed, unable to
control myself.
Having
rapped once for yes, he pointed to the door with his left hand.
I
stepped out and sank down crying as he locked the door behind me. He was typing
again and I waited. At last he shuffled to the door and slid a sheet of paper
under it.
HELENE, COME BACK IN THE MORNING. I MUST
THINK AND WILL HAVE TYPED OUT AN EXPLANATION FOR YOU. TAKE ONE OF MY SLEEPING
TABLETS AND GO STRAIGHT TO BED. I NEED YOU FRESH AND STRONG TOMORROW, MA PAUVRE
CHERIE. A.
"Do you want anything for the night,
Andre?" I shouted through the door.
He
knocked twice for no, and a little later I heard the typewriter again.
The
sun full on my face woke me up with a start. I had set the alarm-clock for five
but had not heard it, probably because of the sleeping tablets. I had indeed
slept like a log, without a dream. Now I was back in my living nightmare and
crying like a child I sprang out of bed. It was just on seven!
Rushing
into the kitchen, without a word for the startled servants, I rapidly prepared
a trayload of coffee, bread and butter with which I ran down to the laboratory.
Andre
opened the door as soon as I knocked and closed it again as I carried the tray
to his desk. His head was still covered, but I saw from his crumpled suit and
his open camp-bed that he must have at least tried to rest.
On
his desk lay a typewritten sheet for me which I picked up. Andre opened the
other door, and taking this to mean that he wanted to be left alone, I walked into the next room. He pushed the door to and I heard him pouring
out the coffee as I read:
DO YOU REMEMBER THE ASH TRAY EXPERIMENT? I
HAVE HAD A SIMILAR ACCIDENT. I "TRANSMITTED" MYSELF SUCCESSFULLY THE
NIGHT BEFORE LAST. DURING A SECOND EXPERIMENT YESTERDAY A FLY WHICH I DID NOT
SEE MUST HAVE GOT INTO THE "DISINTEGRATOR." MY ONLY HOPE IS TO FIND
THAT FLY AND GO THROUGH AGAIN WITH IT. PLEASE SEARCH FOR IT CAREFULLY SINCE, IF
IT IS NOT FOUND, I SHALL HAVE TO FIND A WAY OF PUTTING AN END TO ALL THIS.
If only Andre had been more explicit! I
shuddered at the thought that he must be terribly disfigured and then cried
softly as I imagined his face inside-out, or perhaps his eyes in place of his
ears, or his mouth at the back of his neck, or worse!
Andre must be saved! For
that, the fly must be found!
Pulling myself together, I
said:
"Andre, may I come
in?"
He opened the door.
"Andre,
don't despair; I am going to find that fly. It is no longer in the laboratory,
but it cannot be very far. I suppose you're disfigured, perhaps terribly so,
but there can be no question of putting an end to all this, as you say in your
note; that I will never stand for. If necessary, if you do not wish to be seen,
I'll make you a mask or a cowl so that you can go on with your work until you
get well again. If you cannot work,
I'll
call Professor Augier, and he and all your other friends will save you,
Andre."
Again
I heard that curious metallic sigh as he rapped violently on his desk.
"Andre,
don't be annoyed; please be calm. I won't do anything without first consulting
you, but you must rely on me, have faith in me and let me help you as best I
can. Are you terribly disfigured, dear? Can't you let me see your face? I won't
be afraid ... I am your wife you know."
But
my husband again rapped a decisive "no" and pointed to the door.
"All right. I am going to search for the
fly now, but promise me you won't do anything foolish; promise you won't do
anything rash or dangerous without first letting me know all about it!"
He extended his left hand,
and I knew I had his promise.
I
will never forget that ceaseless day-long hunt for a fly. Back home, I turned
the house inside-out and made all the servants join in the search. I told them
that a fly had escaped from the Professor's laboratory and that it must be
captured alive, but it was evident they already thought me crazy. They said so
to the police later, and that day's hunt for a fly most probably saved me from
the guillotine later.
I
questioned Henri and as he failed to understand right away what I was talking
about, I shook him and slapped him, and made him cry in front of the round-eyed
maids. Realizing that I must not let myself go, I kissed and petted the poor
boy and at last made him understand what I wanted of him. Yes, he remembered,
he had found the fly just by the kitchen window; yes, he had released it
immediately as told to.
Even
in summer time we had very few flies because our house is on the top of a hill
and the slightest breeze coming across the valley blows round it. In spite of
that, I managed to catch dozens of flies that day. On all the window sills and
all over the garden I had put saucers of milk, sugar, jam, meat— all the things
likely to attract flies. Of all those we caught, and many others which we
failed to catch but which I saw, none resembled the one Henri had caught the
day before. One by one, with a magnifying glass, I examined every unusual fly,
but none had anything like a white head.
At
lunch time, I ran down to Andre with some milk and mashed potatoes. I also took
some of the flies we had caught, but he gave me to understand that they could
be of no possible use to him.
"If
that fly has not been found tonight, Andre, we'll have to see what is to be
done. And this is what I propose: I'll sit in the next room. When you can't
answer by the yes-no method of rapping, you'll type out whatever you want to
say and then slip it under the door. Agreed?"
"Yes," rapped
Andre.
By
nightfall we had still not found the fly. At dinner time, as I prepared Andre's
tray, I broke down and sobbed in the kitchen in front of the silent servants.
My maid thought that I had had a row with my husband, probably about the
mislaid fly, but I learned later that the cook was already quite sure that I
was out of my mind.
Without
a word, I picked up the tray and then put it down again as I stopped by the
telephone. That this was really a matter of life and death for Andre, I had no
doubt. Neither did I doubt that he fully intended committing suicide, unless I
could make him change his mind, or at least put off such a drastic decision.
Would I be strong enough? He would never forgive me for not keeping a promise,
but under the circumstances, did that really matter? To the devil with
promises and honor! At all costs Andre must be saved! And having thus made up
my mind, I looked up and dialed Professor Augier's number.
"The
Professor is away and will not be back before the end of the week," said a
polite neutral voice at the other end of the line.
That was that! I would have to fight alone
and fight I would. I would save Andre come what may.
All
my nervousness had disappeared as Andre let me in and, after putting the tray
of food down on his desk, I went into the other room, as agreed.
"The
first thing I want to know," I said as he closed the door behind me,
"is what happened exactly. Can you please tell me, Andre?"
I waited patiently while he typed an answer
which he pushed under the door a little later.
helene, i would rather not
tell you. since go i must, i would rather you remember me as i was before. i
must destroy myself in such a way that none can possibly know what has happened
to me. i have of course thought of simply disintegrating myself in my transmitter,
but i had better not because, sooner or later, i might find myself
reintegrated. some day, somewhere, some scientist is sure to make the same
discovery. i have therefore thought of a way which is neither simple nor easy,
but you can and will help me.
For several minutes I wondered if Andre had
not simply gone stark raving mad.
"Andre,"
I said at last, "whatever you may have chosen or thought of, I cannot and
will never accept such a cowardly solution. No matter how awful the result of
your experiment or accident, you are alive, you are a man, a brain . . . and
you have a soul. You have no right to destroy yourself! You know that!"
The answer was soon typed
and pushed under the door.
i am alive all right, but i
am already no longer a man. as to my brain or intelligence, it may disappear at
any moment. as it is, it is no longer intact. and there can be no soul without
intelligence . . . and you know that!
"Then you must tell the other scientists
about your discovery. They will help you and save you, Andre!"
I
staggered back frightened as he angrily thumped the door twice.
"Andre
. . . why? Why do you refuse the aid you know they would give you with all
their hearts?"
A
dozen furious knocks shook the door and made me understand that my husband
would never accept such a solution. I had to find other arguments.
For
hours, it seemed, I talked to him about our boy, about me, about
his family, about his duty to us and to the rest of humanity. He made no reply
of any sort. At last I cried:
"Andre . . . do you
hear me?"
"Yes," he knocked
very gently.
"Well,
listen then. I have another idea. You remember your first experiment with the
ash tray? . . . Well, do you think that if you had put it through again a
second time, it might possibly have come out with the letters turned back the
right way?"
Before
I had finished speaking, Andre was busily typing and a moment later I read his
answer:
i have already thought of
that. and that was why i needed the fly. it has got to go through with me.
there is no hope otherwise.
"Try all the same, Andre. You never
know!" i have tried seven times
already,
was the typewritten reply I got to that. "Andre! Try again, please!"
The
answer this time gave me a flutter of hope, because no woman has ever
understood, or will ever understand, how a man about to die can possibly
consider anything funny.
i deeply admire your
delicious feminine logic. we could go on doing this experiment until doomsday.
however, just to give you that pleasure, probably the
VERY
LAST I SHALL EVER BE ABLE TO GIVE YOU, I WILL TRY ONCE MORE. IF YOU CANNOT FIND
THE DARK GLASSES, TURN YOUR BACK TO THE MACHINE AND PRESS YOUR HANDS OVER YOUR
EYES. LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU ARE READY.
"Ready Andre!" I shouted without even looking for the glasses and following his
instructions.
I heard him moving around and then open and
close the door of his "disintegrator." After what seemed a very long
wait, but probably was not more than a minute or so, I heard a violent crackling noise and perceived a bright flash through my
eyelids and fingers.
I turned around as the cabin door opened.
His
head and shoulders still covered with the brown velvet carpet, Andre was
gingerly stepping out of it.
"How
do you feel Andre? Any difference?" I asked
touching his arm.
He
tried to step away from me and caught his foot in one of the stools which I had not troubled to pick. up. He made a violent effort to regain his
balance, and the velvet carpet slowly slid off his shoulders and head as he
fell heavily backwards.
The
horror was too much for me, too unexpected. As a matter of fact, I am sure that, even had I known,
the horror-impact could hardly have been less powerful. Trying to push both
hands into my mouth to stifle my screams and although my fingers were bleeding,
I screamed again and again. I could not take my eyes off him, I could
not even close them, and yet I knew
that if I looked at the horror much longer, I would go on screaming for the rest of my life.
Slowly,
the monster, the thing that had been my husband, covered its head, got up and
groped its way to the door and passed it. Though still screaming, I was able to close my eyes.
I who had ever been a true Catholic, who
believed in God and another, better life hereafter, have today but one hope:
that when I die, I really
die, and that there may be no afterlife of any sort because, if there is, then I shall never forget! Day
and night, awake or asleep, I see it, and I know that I am condemned to see it
forever, even perhaps into oblivion!
Until
I am totally extinct, nothing can, nothing will ever make me forget that
dreadful white hairy head with its low flat skull and its two pointed ears.
Pink and moist, the nose was also that of a cat, a huge cat. But the eyes! Or
rather, where the eyes should have been were two brown bumps the size of
saucers. Instead of a mouth, animal or human, was a long hairy vertical slit
from which hung a black quivering trunk that widened at the end, trumpet-like,
and from which saliva kept dripping.
I
must have fainted, because I found myself flat on my stomach on the cold cement
floor of the laboratory, staring at the closed door behind which I could hear
the noise of Andre's typewriter.
Numb,
numb and empty, I must have looked as people do immediately after a terrible
accident, before they fully understand what has happened. I could only think
of a man I had once seen on the platform of a railway station, quite conscious,
and looking stupidly at his leg still on the line where the train had just
passed.
My
throat was aching terribly, and that made me wonder if my vocal chords had not
perhaps been torn, and whether I would ever be able to speak again.
The
noise of the typewriter suddenly stopped and I felt I was going to scream again
as something touched the door and a sheet of paper slid from under it.
Shivering
with fear and disgust, I crawled over to where I could read it without touching
it:
NOW
YOU UNDERSTAND. THAT LAST EXPERIMENT WAS A NEW DISASTER MY POOR HELENE. I
SUPPOSE YOU RECOGNIZED PART OF DANDELO'S HEAD. WHEN I WENT INTO THE
DISINTEGRATOR JUST NOW, MY HEAD WAS ONLY THAT OF A FLY. I NOW ONLY HAVE ITS
EYES AND MOUTH LEFT. THE REST HAS BEEN RE-
PLACED
BY PARTS OF THE CAT'S HEAD. POOR DANDELO WHOSE ATOMS HAD NEVER COME TOGETHER.
YOU SEE NOW THAT THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE POSSIBLE SOLUTION, DON'T YOU? i MUST DISAPPEAR. KNOCK ON THE DOOR WHEN YOU
ARE READY AND i SHALL EXPLAIN WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO.
Of course he was right, and it had been wrong
and cruel of me to insist on a new experiment. And I knew that there was now no
possible hope, that any further experiments could only bring about worse
results.
Getting
up dazed, I went to the door and tried to speak, but no sound came out of my
throat ... so I knocked once!
You
can of course guess the rest. He explained his plan in short typewritten notes,
and I agreed, I agreed to everything!
My
head on fire, but shivering with cold, like an automaton, I followed him into
the silent factory. In my hand was a full page of explanations: what I had to
know about the steam-hammer.
Without
stopping or looking back, he pointed to the switchboard that controlled the
steam-hammer as he passed it. I went no further and watched him come to a halt
before the terrible instrument.
He
knelt down, carefully wrapped the carpet round his head, and then stretched out
flat on the ground.
It
was not difficult. I was not killing my husband. Andre, poor Andre, had gone
long ago, years ago it seemed. I was merely carrying out his last wish . . .
and mine.
Without
hesitating, my eyes on the long still body, I firmly pushed the
"stroke" button right in. The great metallic mass seemed to drop
slowly. It was not so much the resounding clang of the hammer that made me jump
as the sharp cracking which I had distinctly heard at the same time. My hus . .
. the thing's body shook a second and then lay still.
It
was then I noticed that he had forgotten to put his right arm, his fly-leg,
under the hammer. The police would never understand but the scientists would,
and they must not! That had been Andre's last wish, also!
I had to do it and quickly, too; the night
watchman must have heard the hammer and would be round any moment. I pushed the
other button and the hammer slowly rose. Seeing but trying not to look, I ran
up, leaned down, lifted and moved forward the right arm which seemed terribly
light. Back at the switchboard, again I pushed the red button, and down came
the hammer a second time. Then I ran all the way home.
You
know the rest and can now do whatever you think right.
So ended Helenas manuscript.
The
following day I telephoned Commissaire Charas to invite him to dinner.
"With
pleasure, Monsieur Delambre. Allow me, however to ask: is it the Commissaire
you are inviting, or just Monsieur Charas?"
"Have you any
preference?"
"No, not at the
present moment."
"Well
then, make it whichever you like. Will eight o'clock suit you?"
Although
it was raining, the Commissaire arrived on foot that evening.
"Since
you did not come tearing up to the door in your black Citroen, I take it you
have opted for Monsieur Charas, off duty?"
"I
left the car up a side-street," mumbled the Commissaire with a grin as the
maid staggered under the weight of his raincoat.
"Merci," he said a minute later as I handed him a glass of Pernod into which he
tipped a few drops of water, watching it turn the golden amber liquid to pale
blue milk.
"You heard about my
poor sister-in-law?"
"Yes,
shortly after you telephoned me this morning. I am sorry, but perhaps it was
all for the best. Being already in charge of your brother's case, the inquiry
automatically comes to me."
"I suppose it was suicide."
"Without
a doubt. Cyanide the doctors say quite rightly; I found a second tablet in the
unstitched hem of her dress."
"Monsieur est servi," announced the maid.
"I
would like to show you a very curious document afterwards, Charas."
"Ah,
yes. I heard that Madame Delambre had been writing a
lot, but we could find nothing beyond the short note informing us that she was
committing suicide."
During
our tête-à-tête dinner, we talked politics, books and films,
and the local football club of which the Commissaire was a keen supporter.
After
dinner, I took him up to my study where a bright fire —a habit I had picked up
in England during the war—was burning.
Without
even asking him, I handed him his brandy and mixed myself what he called
"crushed-bug juice in soda water" —his appreciation of whiskey.
"I
would like you to read this, Charas; first because it was partly intended for
you and, secondly, because it will interest you. If you think Commissaire Charas has no objection, I would like to burn
it after."
Without
a word, he took the wad of sheets Helene had given me the day before and
settled down to read them.
"What
do you think of it all?" I asked some 20 minutes later as hé carefully folded Helene's manuscript, slipped
it into the brown envelope, and put it into the fire.
Charas
watched the flames licking the envelope from which wisps of gray smoke were
escaping, and it was only when it burst into flames that he said, slowly
raising his eyes to mine:
"I think it proves very definitely that
Madame Delambre was quite insane."
For
a long while we watched the fire eating up Helene's "confession."
"A
funny thing happened to me this morning, Charas. I went to the cemetery, where
my brother is buried. It was quite empty and I was alone."
"Not
quite, Monsieur Delambre. I was there, but I did not want to disturb you."
"Then you saw me . .
."
"Yes. I saw you bury a
matchbox."
"Do you know what was
in it?"
"A fly, I suppose."
"Yes. I had found it early this morning,
caught in a spider's web in the garden." "Was it dead?"
"No,
not quite. I . . . crushed it . . . between two stones. Its head was . . .
white ... all white."
BLOOD BROTHER
by charles beaumont
This
story is as amusing and brief as "The Fly" is horripilating and long.
A light souffle concocted of
vampires, it represented a departure for the late Charles Beaumont, who built
his large and loyal following principally on stories of powerful emotional impact (such as "The Crooked Man"
which you will discover later in these pages); on his novel, "The
Intruder" which tackled the difficult problems of racial integration in the South; and on his numerous dramatic
motion picture and television plays. Of
him, Ray Bradbury said: "Some writers are one-idea people. Other writers,
far rarer, far wilder, are pomegranates. They burst with seed. Chuck has always
been a pomegranate writer. You simply never know where his love and high excitement
will take him next." When Beaumont wrote "Blood Brother" a playboy
editor somewhat bemusedly
observed that it read like a Bob Newhart routine. "Thank you very
much," replied Beaumont. "It was meant to."
"NOW,
THEN," said the psychiatrist, looking up from his note pad, "when did
you first discover that you were dead?"
"Not
dead," said the pale man in the dark suit. "Undead. If I was dead,
I'd be in great shape. That's the trouble, though. I can't die."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm not
alive."
"I
see." The psychiatrist made a rapid notation. "Now, Mr. Smith, I'd
like you to tell me the whole story."
The
pale man shook his head. "At twenty-five dollars an hour," he said,
"are you kidding? I can barely afford to have my cape cleaned once a
month."
"I've
been meaning to ask you about that. Why do you wear it?"
"You ever hear of a vampire without a
cape? It's part of the whole schmear, that's all. / don't know why!"
"Calm yourself."
"Calm
myself! I wish I could. I tell you, Doctor, I'm going right straight out of my
skull. Look at this!" The man who called himself Smith put out his hands.
They were a tremulous blur of white. "And look at my eyes!" They were
ornamented with an intricate red lacework of veins. "Believe me," he
said, flinging himself upon the couch, "another few days of this and I'll
be ready for the funny farm!"
The
psychiatrist picked a mahogany letter opener off his desk and tapped his palm
irritably. "Perhaps if you would begin at the beginning, Mr. Smith."
"Well, I met this
girl, Dorcas, and she bit me."
"Dorcas . . . an
unusual name . . ."
"Yeah.
She's the one recommended you. Maybe you know her?"
"It's
possible. But let's get back to you. She bit you. And then what?"
"That's all. It
doesn't take much, you know."
The psychiatrist removed
his glasses and rubbed his eyes.
"As I understand it," he said,
"you think you're a vampire."
"No,"
said Smith. "I think
I'm a human being, but 1 amz vampire. That's the hell of it. I can't seem to adjust."
"How do you
mean?"
"Well,
the hours, for instance. I used to have very regular habits. Work from nine to
five, home, a little TV, maybe, into
bed by ten, up at six-thirty. Now------ "
He shook his head
violently
from side to side. "You know how it is with vampires."
"Let's
pretend I don't," said the psychiatrist, soothingly. "Tell me. How is
it?"
"Like I say, the hours. Everything's
upside down. You're supposed to sleep during the day and work at night."
"Why?"
"Boy,
you've got me. I asked Dorcas, and she said she'd try and find out, but nobody
seems to be real sure about it. Of course, Dorcas was always kind of a night
owl anyway, so she doesn't mind much, but it drives me nuts. Eight jobs I've
had —eight!—and lost every one."
"Would you care to
explain that?"
"Nothing
to explain. I just can't stay awake, that's all. Every night—I mean every day—I toss and turn for hours and then when I finally do doze off, boom, it's nightfall and I've got to get out of the
coffin."
"The coffin."
"Yeah.
That's another sweet wrinkle. The minute you go bat, you're supposed to give up
beds and take to a casket. Which is not only sick but also expensive as
hell." Smith shook his head angrily. "First you got to buy the damn
thing. Do you know the cost of the average casket?"
"Well," began the
psychiatrist.
"Astronomical!
Completely out of proportion. I'm telling you, it's a racket! For anything even
halfway decent you're going to drop five bills, easy. But that's just the
initial outlay. Then there's the dirt. Sacking out in a coffin isn't bad
enough, no, you've got to line it with soil from the family -plot. I ask
you, who's got a family plot these days? Have you?"
"No, but "
"Right.
So what do you do? You go out and buy one. Then you bring home a couple pounds
of dirt and spread it around in the coffin. Wake up at night and you're covered with it." Smith clicked his tongue
exasperatedly. "If you could just wear pajamas—but no, the rules say the
full bit. Ever hear
of anything so crazy? You
can't even take off your shoes, for
cry eye!" He began to pace. "Then there's the blood stains. I must go
through twenty white shirts a month. Even at two-fifty a shirt, that's a lot of
dough. You're probably thinking, Why isn't he more careful? Well, listen, I try
to be. But it isn't like eating a bowl of tomato soup, you know." A
shudder, or something like a shudder, passed over the pale man. "That's
another thing. The diet. I mean, I always used to like my steaks rare, but this is ridiculous! Blood for breakfast, blood for lunch, blood for dinner.
Uch—just the thought of it makes me queasy to the stomach!" Smith flung
himself back onto the couch and closed his eyes. "And the routines I have
to go through to get it! What if you had to rob somebody every time you wanted a hamburger—I mean, just supposing?
That's the way it is with me. I tried stocking up on plasma, but that's death
warmed over. A few nights of it and you've got to go after the real thing, no
matter how many promises you've made to yourself."
"The real thing."
"I
don't like to talk about it," said Smith, turning his head to the wall.
"I'm actually a very sensitive person. Gentle. Kind. Never could stand
violence, not even as a kid. Now . . ." He sobbed wrackingly, leaped to
his feet and resumed pacing. "Do you think I enjoy biting people? Do you think I don't know how disgusting it is? But, I tell you, I can't help it! Every few nights I get this terrible urge . .
. And, because of it, everybody hates me!"
"You feel, then, that
you are being persecuted?"
"Damn
right," said Smith. "And you know why? I'll tell you why. Because I am being persecuted. That's why. Have you ever heard a nice thing said
about a vampire? Ever in your whole life? No. Why? Because people hate us. But
I'll tell you something even sillier. They fear us, too!" The pale man laughed a wild, mirthless laugh. "Us" he said. "The most helpless creatures on
the face of the Earth! Why, it doesn't take anything to knock us over. If we don't cut our throats
trying to shave—you know the mirror bit: no reflection —we stand a chance to
land flat on our backs because the neighbor downstairs is cooking garlic Or
bring us a little running water, see what happens. We flip our lids. Or silver
bullets. Daylight,
for crying out loud! If I'm
not back in that stupid coffin by dawn, zow, I'm out like a light. Or take
these." He smiled for the first time, revealing two large pointed
incisors. "What do you imagine happens to us when our choppers start to
go? I've had this one on the left filled it must be half a dozen times. The
dentist says if I was smart I'd have 'em all yanked out and a nice denture put
in. Sure. Can't you just see me trying to rip out somebody's throat with a pair
of false teeth? Boy. Or take the bit with the wooden stake. It used to be that
was kind of a secret. Now with all these lousy horror-type movies, the whole world is in on the gag. I ask you, Doctor, how are you supposed to be able to
sleep when you know that everybody in the block is just itching to find you so
they can drive a piece of wood into your heart? Huh? Man, you talk about sick! Those people are in really bad
shape!" He shuddered again. "I'll tell you about the jazz with
crosses, but frankly, even thinking about it makes me jumpy. You know what? I
have to walk three blocks out of my way to avoid the church I used to go to
every Sunday! But don't get the idea it's just churches. No; it's anything. Cross your fingers and I'll start sweating.
Lay a fork over a knife, and I'll probably jump right out the window. So then
what happens? I splatter myself
all
over the sidewalk, right? But do I die? Oh, hell, no. Doc, listen! You've got
to help me! If you don't, I'm going to go off my gourd, I know it!"
The
psychiatrist closed his note pad and smiled. "Mr. Smith," he said,
"you may be surprised to learn that yours is a relatively simple problem .
. . with a relatively simple cure."
"Really?"
"Really."
The
psychiatrist rose casually from his chair, reached for the mahogany letter
opener on his desk, then swiftly plunged it down, burying it to the hilt in Mr.
Smith's heart. Seconds later, he was dialing a telephone number. "Is
Dorcas there?" he asked, idly scratching the two circular marks on his
neck. "Tell her it's her fiance."
LOVE,
INCORPORATED
by robert sheckley
Devotees
of the Italian cinema know Robert
Sheckley as the author of the story
on which the far-out film, "The Tenth Victim" was based, but playboy
readers admired his gifts
long before he enjoyed the suave
services of Marcello Mas-troianni and
Ursula Andress. Greenwich Villager Sheckley feels ambivalent about direct
personal involvement in the movie medium, however, saying, "Film seems a
very exciting form, but it would call for
a great deal of my time and energy,
which would be at the expense of my
fiction." That would indeed be a price too high to pay. Although a young
man, he has several novels and collections to his credit—most of them science fiction and fantasy, some of them espionage adventures—and he has
earned the esteem of the renowned
British novelist-critic Kingsley Amis, who calls him "science-fiction's
premier gadfly" as well as the only sci-fi writer "capable of imagining an independent sexual
revolution." One of the Sheckley
stories cited by Amis as an example of
this unique capability is "Love, Incorporated," a tale of a time when love—not simply sex—has
become a commodity that can be bought and sold.
ALFRED
SIMON was born on Kazanga IV, a small agricultural planet near Bootes, and
there he drove a combine through the wheat fields, and in the long, hushed
evenings listened to the recorded love songs of Earth.
Life
was pleasant enough on Kazanga, and the girls were buxom, jolly, frank and
acquiescent, good companions for a hike through the hills or a swim in the
brook, staunch mates for life. But romantic—never! There was good fun to be had
on Kazanga, in a cheerful open manner. But there was no more than fun.
Simon
felt that something was missing in this bland existence. One day, he
discovered what it was.
A
vendor came to Kazanga in a battered spaceship loaded with books. He was gaunt,
white-haired, and a little mad. A celebration was held for him, for novelty was
appreciated on the outer worlds.
The
vendor told them all the latest gossip; of the price war between Detroit II and
III, and how fishing fared on Alana, and what the president's wife on Moracia
wore, and how oddly the men of Doran V talked. And at last someone said,
"Tell us of Earth."
"Ah!"
said the vendor, raising his eyebrows. "You want to hear of the mother
planet? Well, friends, there's no place like old Earth, no place at all. On
Earth, friends, everything is possible, and nothing is denied."
"Nothing?" Simon
asked.
"They've
got a law against denial," the vendor explained, grinning. "No one
has ever been known to break it. Earth is different, friends. You folks specialize in farming?
Well, Earth specializes in impracticalities such as madness, beauty, war,
intoxication, purity, horror, and the like, and people come from light-years
away to sample these wares."
"And love?" a
woman asked.
"Why
girl," the vendor said gently, "Earth is the only place in the galaxy
that still has love! Detroit II and III tried it and found it too expensive,
you know, and Alana decided it was unsettling, and there was no time to import
it on Moracia or Doran V. But as I said, Earth specializes in the impractical,
and makes it pay."
"Pay?" a bulky
farmer asked.
"Of
course! Earth is old, her minerals are gone and her fields are barren. Her
colonies are independent now, and filled with sober folk such as yourselves,
who want value for their goods. So what else can old Earth deal in, except the
nonessentials that make life worth living?"
"Were you in love on
Earth?" Simon asked.
"That
I was," the vendor answered, with a certain grimness. "I was in love,
and now I travel. Friends, these books . . ."
For an exorbitant price, Simon bought an
ancient poetry book, and reading, dreamed of passion beneath the lunatic moon,
of dawn glimmering whitely upon lovers' parched lips, of locked bodies on a
dark sea-beach, desperate with love and deafened by the booming surf.
And
only on Earth was this possible! For, as the vendor told, Earth's scattered
children were too hard at work wrestling a living from alien soil. The wheat
and corn grew on Kazanga, and the factories increased on Detroit II and III.
The fisheries of Alana were the talk of the Southern star belt, and there were dangerous
beasts on Moracia, and a whole wilderness to be won on Doran V. And this was
well, and exactly as it should be.
But
the new worlds were austere, carefully planned, sterile in their perfections.
Something had been lost in the dead reaches of space, and only Earth knew love.
Therefore,
Simon worked and saved and dreamed. And in his twenty-ninth year he sold his
farm, packed all his clean shirts into a serviceable handbag, put on his best
suit and a pair of stout walking shoes, and boarded the Kazanga-Metropole
Flyer.
At last he came to Earth, where dreams must come true, for there is a law against their failure.
He passed quickly through Customs at
Spaceport New York, and was shuttled underground to Times Square. There he
emerged blinking into daylight, tightly clutching his handbag, for he had been
warned about pickpockets, cutpurses, and other denizens of the city.
Breathless with wonder, he
looked around.
The
first thing that struck him was the endless array of theatres, with attractions
in two dimensions, three or four, depending upon your preference. And what
attractions!
To
the right of him a beetling marquee proclaimed: lust
on venus! a documentary account of sex practices among the inhabitants of the
green hell? shocking! revealing!
He
wanted to go in. But across the street was a war film. The billboard shouted, the
sun busters! dedicated to the dare-devils of the space marines! And further down was a picture called tarzan
battles the saturnian ghouls!
Tarzan,
he recalled from his reading, was an ancient ethnic hero of Earth.
It
was all wonderful, but there was so much more! He saw little open shops where
one could buy food of all worlds, and especially such native Terran dishes as
pizza, hotdogs, spaghetti and knishes. And there were stores which sold
surplus clothing from the Terran spacefleets, and other stores which sold
nothing but beverages.
Simon
didn't know what to do first. Then he heard a staccato burst of gunfire behind
him, and whirled.
It
was only a shooting gallery, a long, narrow, brightly painted place with a
waist-high counter. The manager, a swarthy fat man with a mole on his chin sat
on a high stool and smiled at Simon.
"Try your luck?"
Simon
walked over and saw that, instead of the usual targets, there were four
scantily dressed women at the end of the gallery, seated upon bullet-scored
chairs. They had tiny bull's-eyes painted on their foreheads and above each
breast.
"But do you fire real
bullets?" Simon asked.
"Of
course!" the manager said. "There's a law against false advertising
on Earth. Real bullets and real gals! Step up and knock one off!"
One of the women called out, "Come on,
sport! Bet you miss me!"
Another
screamed, "He couldn't hit the broad side of a spaceship!"
"Sure he can!"
another shouted. "Come on, sport!"
Simon
rubbed his forehead and tried not to act surprised. After all, this was Earth,
where anything was allowed as long as it was commercially feasible.
He asked, "Are there
galleries where you shoot men, too?"
"Of
course," the manager said. "But you ain't no pervert, are you?"
"Certainly not!"
"You an
outworlder?"
"Yes. How did you
know?"
"The
suit. Always tell by the suit." The fat man closed his eyes and chanted,
"Step up, step up and kill a woman! Get rid of a load of repressions!
Squeeze the trigger and feel the old anger ooze out of you! Better than a
massage! Better than getting drunk! Step up, step up and kill a woman!"
Simon
asked one of the girls, "Do you stay dead when they kill you?"
. "Don't be stupid," the girl said.
"But the shock---- "
She shrugged her shoulders.
"I could do worse."
Simon
was about to ask how she could do worse, when the manager leaned over the
counter, speaking confidentially.
"Look, buddy. Look
what I got here."
Simon
glanced over the counter and saw a compact submachine gun.
"For
a ridiculously low price," the manager said, "I'll let you use the
tommy. You can spray the whole place, shoot down the fixtures, rip up the
walls. This drives a .45 slug, buddy, and it kicks like a mule. You
really know you're firing when you fire the tommy."
"I am not
interested," Simon said sternly.
"I've got a grenade or two," the manager
said. "Fragmenta-
tion, of course. You could really-- "
"No!"
"For
a price," the manager said, "you can shoot me, too, if that's how your tastes run, although I wouldn't have guessed it.
What do you say?"
"No! Never! This is
horrible!"
The
manager looked at him blankly. "Not in the mood now? OK. I'm open
twenty-four hours a day. See you later, sport."
"Never!" Simon
said, walking away.
"Be
expecting you, lover!" one of the women called after him.
Simon went to a refreshment stand and ordered
a small glass of cola-cola. He found that his hands were shaking. With an
effort he steadied them, and sipped his drink. He reminded himself that he must
not judge Earth by his own standards. If people on Earth enjoyed killing
people, and the victims didn't mind being killed, why should anyone object?
Or should they?
He
was pondering this when a voice at his elbow said, "Hey, bub."
Simon
turned and saw a wizened, furtive-faced little man in an oversize raincoat
standing beside him.
"Out-of-towner?"
the little man asked.
"I am," Simon
said. "How did you know?"
"The
shoes. I always look at the shoes. How do you like our little planet?"
"It's—confusing," Simon said
carefully. "I mean I didn't
expect—well--- "
"Of course," the little man said.
"You're an idealist. One look at your honest face tells me that, my
friend. You've come to Earth for a definite purpose. Am I right?"
Simon
nodded. The little man said, "I know your purpose, my friend. You're
looking for a war that will make the world safe for something, and you've come
to the right place. We have six major wars running at all times, and there's
never any waiting for an important position in any of them."
"Sorry, but----- "
"Right
at this moment," the little man said impressively, "the downtrodden
workers of Peru are engaged in a desperate struggle against a corrupt and
decadent monarchy. One more man could swing the contest! You, my friend, could be that man! You could
guarantee the socialist victory!"
Observing the expression on Simon's face, the
little man said
quickly, "But there's a lot to be said for an enlightened
aristocracy. The wise old king of Peru (a philosopher-king in
the deepest Platonic sense of the word) sorely needs your help.
His tiny corps of scientists, humanitarians, Swiss guards,
knights of the realm and royal peasants is sorely pressed by the
foreign-inspired socialist conspiracy. A single man, now "
"I'm not
interested," Simon said.
"In China, the Anarchists--- "
"No."
"Perhaps you'd prefer the Communists in
Wales? Or the
Capitalists in Japan? Or if your affinities lie with a splinter
group such as Feminists, Prohibitionists, Free Silverists, or the
like, we could probably arrange--- "
"I don't want a
war," Simon said.
"Who
could blame you?" the little man said, nodding rapidly. "War is hell.
In that case, you've come to Earth for love."
"How did you know?" Simon asked.
The little man smiled modestly. "Love and war," he said, "are
Earth's two staple commodities. We've been turning
them both out in bumper crops since the
beginning of time."
"Is love very difficult to find?"
Simon asked.
"Walk
uptown two blocks," the little man said briskly. "Can't miss it. Tell
'em Joe sent you."
"But that's impossible! You can't just walk out and "
"What do you know
about love?" Joe asked.
"Nothing."
"Well, we're experts
on it."
"I know what the books say," Simon
said. "Passion beneath
the lunatic moon--- "
"Sure,
and bodies on a dark sea-beach desperate with love and deafened by the booming
surf."
"You've read that
book?"
"It's
the standard advertising brochure. I must be going. Two blocks uptown. Can't
miss it."
And with a pleasant nod,
Joe moved into the crowd.
Simon
finished his cola-cola and walked slowly up Broadway, his brow knotted in
thought, but determined not to form any premature judgments.
When
he reached 44th
Street he saw a tremendous
neon sign flashing brightly. It said, love, inc.
Smaller neon letters read, Open 24 Hours a Day!
Beneath that it read, Up One Flight.
Simon
frowned, for a terrible suspicion had just crossed his mind. Still, he climbed
the stairs and entered a small, tastefully furnished reception room. From
there he was sent down a long corridor to a numbered room.
Within
the room was a handsome gray-haired man who rose from behind an impressive desk
and shook his hand, saying, "Well! How are things on Kazanga?"
"How did you know I
was from Kazanga?"
"That shirt. I always look at the shirt.
I'm Mr. Tate, and
I'm here to serve you to the best of my ability. You are "
"Simon, Alfred
Simon."
"Please be seated, Mr.
Simon. Cigarette? Drink? You won't regret coming to us, sir. We're the oldest
love-dispensing firm in the business, and much larger than our closest
competitor, Passion Unlimited. Moreover, our fees are far more reasonable, and
bring you an improved product. Might I ask how you heard of us? Did you see our
full page ad in the Times}
Or----- "
"Joe sent me,"
Simon said.
"Ah,
he's an active one," Mr. Tate said, shaking his head playfully. "Well
sir, there's no reason to delay. You've come a long way for love, and love you
shall have." He reached for a button on his desk, but Simon stopped him.
Simon said, "I don't
want to be rude or anything, but . . ."
"Yes?" Mr. Tate
said, with an encouraging smile.
"I
don't understand this," Simon blurted out, flushing deeply, beads of
perspiration standing out on his forehead. "I think I'm in the wrong
place. I didn't come all the way to Earth just for ... I mean, you can't really sell love, can you? Not lovel
I mean, then it isn't
really love, is it?"
"But
of course!" Mr. Tate said, half rising from his chair in astonishment.
"That's the whole point! Anyone can buy sex. Good lord, it's the cheapest
thing in the universe, next to human life. But love is rare, love
is special, love is found only on Earth. Have you read our brochure?"
"Bodies on a dark
sea-beach?" Simon asked.
"Yes,
that one. I wrote it. Gives something of the feeling, doesn't it? You can't get
that feeling from just anyone,
Mr. Simon. You can get that
feeling only from someone who loves you."
Simon said dubiously,
"It's not genuine love though, is it?"
"Of
course it is! If we were selling simulated love, we'd label it as such. The
advertising laws on Earth are strict, I can assure you. Anything can be sold,
but it must be labelled properly. That's ethics, Mr. Simon!"
Tate
caught his breath, and continued in a calmer tone. "No sir, make no
mistake. Our product is not a substitute. It is the exact self-same feeling
that poets and writers have raved about for thousands of years. Through the
wonders of modern science we can bring this feeling to you at your convenience,
attractively packaged, completely disposable, and for a ridiculously low
price."
Simon said, "I
pictured something more—spontaneous."
"Spontaneity
has its charm," Mr. Tate agreed. "Our research labs are working on
it. Believe me, there's nothing science can't produce, as long as there's a
market for it."
"I
don't like any of this," Simon said, getting to his feet. "I think
I'll just go see a movie."
"Wait!"
Mr. Tate cried. "You think we're trying to put something over on you. You
think we'll introduce you to a girl who will act as though she loved you, but who in reality will not. Is that it?"
"I guess so,"
Simon said.
"But
it just isn't so! It would be too costly for one thing. For another, the wear
and tear on the girl would be tremendous. And it would be psychologically
unsound for her to .attempt living a lie of such depth and scope."
"Then how do you do
it?"
"By
utilizing our understanding of science and the human mind."
To
Simon, this sounded like double-talk. He moved toward the door.
"Tell
me something," Mr. Tate said. "You're a bright looking young fellow.
Don't you think you could tell real love from a counterfeit item?"
"Certainly."
"There's
your safeguard! You must be satisfied, or don't pay us a
cent."
"I'll think about
it," Simon said.
"Why
delay? Leading psychologists say that real love
is a fortifier and a restorer of sanity, a balm for damaged egos, a restorer of
hormone balance, and an improver of the complexion. The love we supply you has
everything: deep and abiding affection, unrestrained passion, complete
faithfulness, an almost mystic affection for your defects as well as your
virtues, a pitiful desire to please, and, as
a plus that only Love, Inc., can supply: that uncontrollable first spark, that
blinding moment of love at first sight!"
Mr.
Tate pressed a button. Simon frowned undecisively. The door opened, a girl
stepped in, and Simon stopped thinking.
She
was tall and slender, and her hair was brown with a sheen of red. Simon could
have told you nothing about her face, except that it brought tears to his eyes.
And if you asked him about her figure, he might have killed you.
"Miss Penny
Bright," said Tate, "meet Mr. Alfred Simon."
The
girl tried to speak but no words came, and Simon was equally dumb-struck. He
looked at her and knew.
Nothing else mattered. To
the depths of his heart he knew that he was truly and completely loved.
They
left at once, hand in hand, and were taken by jet to a small white cottage in a
pine grove, overlooking the sea, and there they talked and laughed and loved,
and later Simon saw his beloved wrapped in the sunset flame like a goddess of
fire. And in blue twilight she looked at him with eyes enormous and dark, her
known body mysterious again. The moon came up, bright and lunatic, changing
flesh to shadow, and she wept and beat his chest with her small fists, and
Simon wept too, although he did not know why. And at last dawn came, faint and
disturbed, glimmering upon their parched lips and locked bodies, and nearby the
booming surf deafened, inflamed, and maddened them.
At noon they were back in the offices of
Love, Inc. Penny clutched his hand for a moment, then disappeared through an
inner door.
"Was it real
love?" Mr. Tate asked.
"Yes!"
"And was everything
satisfactory?"
"Yes!
It was love, it was the real thing! But why did she insist on returning?"
"Post-hypnotic command," Mr. Tate
said. "What?"
"What
did you expect? Everyone wants love, but few wish to pay for it. Here is your
bill, sir."
Simon
paid, fuming. "This wasn't necessary," he said. "Of course I would
pay you for bringing us together. Where is she now? What have you done with
her?"
"Please," Mr.
Tate said soothingly. "Try to calm yourself."
"I
don't want to be calm!" Simon shouted. "I want Penny!"
"That
will be impossible," Mr. Tate said, with the barest hint of frost in his
voice. "Kindly stop making a spectacle of yourself."
"Are
you trying to get more money out of me?" Simon shrieked. "All right,
I'll pay. How much do I have to pay to get her out of your clutches?" And
Simon yanked out his wallet and slammed it on the desk.
Mr.
Tate poked the wallet with a stiffened forefinger. "Put that back in your
pocket," he said. "We are an old and respectable firm. If you raise
your voice again, I shall be forced to have you ejected."
Simon
calmed himself with an effort, put the wallet back in his pocket and sat down.
He took a deep breath and said, very quietly, "I'm sorry."
"That's
better," Mr. Tate said. "I will not be shouted at. However, if you
are reasonable, I can be reasonable too. Now, what's the trouble?"
"The
trouble?" Simon's voice started to lift. He controlled it and said,
"She loves me."
"Of course."
"Then how can you
separate us?"
"What has the one thing got to do with
the other?" Mr. Tate asked. "Love is a delightful interlude, a
relaxation, good for the intellect, for the ego, for the hormone balance, and
for the skin tone. But one would hardly wish to continue loving, would one?"
"I would," Simon said. "This love was special, unique "
"They all are," Mr. Tate said.
"But as you know, they are all produced in the same way."
"What?"
"Surely
you know something about the mechanics of love production?"
"No," Simon said.
"I thought it was—natural."
Mr. Tate shook his head. "We gave up
natural selection
centuries ago, shortly after the Mechanical Revolution. It was
too slow, and commercially unfeasable. Why bother with it,
when we can produce any feeling at will by conditioning and
proper stimulation of certain brain centers? The result? Penny,
completely in love with you! Your own bias, which we
calculated, in favor of her particular somatotype, made it
complete. We always throw in the dark sea-beach, the lunatic
moon, the pallid dawn-- "
"Then
she could have been made to love anyone," Simon said slowly.
"Could
have been brought
to love anyone," Mr.
Tate corrected.
"Oh,
lord, how did she get into this horrible work?" Simon asked.
"She
came in and signed a contract in the usual way," Tate said. "It pays
very well. And at the termination of the lease, we return her original
personality—untouched! But why do you call the work horrible? There's nothing
reprehensible about love."
"It wasn't love!"
Simon cried.
"But
it was! The genuine article! Unbiased scientific firms have made qualitative
tests of it, in comparison with the natural thing. In every case, our love tested out to more depth, passion, fervor and scope."
Simon
shut his eyes tightly, opened them and said, "Listen to me. I don't care
about your scientific tests. I love her, she loves me, that's all that counts.
Let me speak to her! I want to marry her!"
Mr. Tate wrinkled his nose in distaste.
"Come, come, man!
You wouldn't want to marry
a girl like that! But if
it's
marriage you're after, we deal in that, too. I can arrange an
idyllic and nearly spontaneous love-match for you with a
guaranteed government-inspected virgin "
"No! I love Penny! At
least let me speak to her!"
"That will be quite
impossible," Mr. Tate said.
"Why?"
Mr.
Tate pushed a button on his desk. "Why do you think? We've wiped out the
previous indoctrination. Penny is now in love with someone else."
And then Simon understood. He realized that
even now
Penny was looking at another man with that passion he had
known, feeling for another man that complete and bottomless
love that unbiased scientific firms had shown to be so much
greater than the old-fashioned, commercially unfeasable nat-
ural selection, and that upon that same dark sea-beach men-
tioned in the advertising brochure--
He
lunged for Tate's throat. Two attendants, who had entered the office a few
moments earlier, caught him and led him to the door.
"Remember!"
Tate called. "This in no way invalidates your own experience."
Hellishly
enough, Simon knew that what Tate said was true.
And then he found himself
on the street.
At
first, all he desired was to escape from Earth, where the commercial
impracticalities were more than a normal man could afford. He walked very
quickly, and his Penny walked beside him, her face glorified with love for him,
and him, and him, and you, and you.
And of course he came to the shooting
gallery.
"Try your luck?" the manager asked.
"Set 'em up," said Alfred Simon.
A FOOT IN THE DOOR
by bruce jay friedman
Several
years before Bruce Jay Friedman became the laureled author of the novels "A Mother's Kisses"
and "Stern" he was a keenly appreciated writer of playboy stories in the light fantastic vein. A
Friedman fantasy is just that—a fried-man fantasy, a sub-genre in itself, a
modern morality play with a unique dry tang and a special humanity. "A
Foot in the Door" is a case in point. It is a devil story, but it contains
a vital ingredient not found in other devil stories: a little touch of Friedman in the night.
WHEN
HE was thirty-four years old and about to buy a house in Short Hills, Mr.
Gordon found out he could get anything he wanted in life from an insurance
agent named Merz. Merz specialized in small, cheap policies, thousand-dollar
endowments, and put his feet in your door. Mr. Gordon had succeeded in putting
Merz off and one night shouted at him, "I don't like people who put their
feet in doors. That's no way to sell me."
"It's
something I do and I can't help it," said Merz, wedging his foot in
Gordon's apartment door and trying to force it back. "It isn't important
and you'll soon see why. You'll see it's foolish to make anything over my feet
in the door."
Gordon finally let Merz in, a thin man who
got bad shaves and was always out of breath. Merz sold him a quick
thousand-dollar endowment and when Mr. Gordon showed him out, said, "I've
got something else you'll want. It's a way for you to have anything in the
world. I haven't figured out whether it's insurance or not, but I have it for
you and we can start it off tonight."
"I
have plenty," said Gordon. "Everything I want. I'm going to buy a
home in Short Hills next week, something I've always wanted."
"There'll
be no nonsense and fooling around," said Merz. "What you want is a
home nearby in Tall Hills and one thing you'd better learn is that it's a waste
of time to be coy on this thing. Now I can get you this. What we do is make a
bargain. Some of these are going to sound strange, but they're made up that way
and, frankly, I don't make them up."
"I
can't afford Tall Hills," said Mr. Gordon, "but all right, I'll admit
I'd like to get in there."
"All
right then, now listen," said Mr. Merz, blowing his thin nose. "I
don't do any paper work on these so remember it and don't come around to me and
say that isn't the way it is. Tall Hills is yours, if . . . Let me rephrase
that. When you
don't use paper work, you've got to get them straight in the talking. A house in Tall Hills is yours, but your baby will have to be born with a
slightly bent nose. I know you, your wife and your little girl have straight
ones, but that's the way these things are made up. Sometimes a real winner
comes along, but most are on this order."
"I'm
not going to ask you for any guarantee, because I can tell from the whole way
this has happened that it's on the level," said Mr. Gordon. "If
you're wondering why I don't act astonished, it's just that I always expected
something like this to happen. The only thing is I always thought there would
be ethereal music in the background. Let's see, if it's a boy it won't matter
so much and would give him character. The odds are slightly in favor of its
being a boy. I don't know."
"Can
we close?" said Merz. "It isn't that I go off and sell others when
I'm finished with you. There aren't any others. I'm just tired and I get colds
when I'm out late."
"Even
if it were a girl," said Mr. Gordon, "it might just be the little
imperfection that would make her appealing. I once saw a girl who was married
to an archaeologist and she had a slight limp and it made her the most fragile
and pathetic thing, and I could have eaten her up. Maybe this would be like a
limp on her nose. Look, is it bent quite a bit or just slightly? Do I get to
know that?"
"We
don't know how they come out. It's more the spirit of the thing that counts and
if it came out small, there wouldn't be any objection."
"All
right then," said Mr. Gordon. "Get me into Tall Hills."
Merz
said, "I can't always let you have this much time," and disappeared.
The
Gordons' second child was born a month later, a boy with a cute but slightly
bent little nose, and Mr. Gordon did not suddenly inherit a fortune. Nor did he
suddenly receive a giant bonus from his firm or win a cash prize in a lottery.
What happened is that he received a small inheritance from an uncle of his who had once spent a weekend hunting with Pancho Villa, his agency came through at Christmas with a slightly larger bonus than it had before, and Mrs. Gordon won a motorcycle in a raffle which they cashed in for $400. The total, along with the money Mr. Gordon had set aside for a house in Short Hills, gave them the down payment for one in Tall Hills. And in they went with their new, cute, but bent-nosed little baby.
A month after the Gordons settled into their home Merz stuck his foot in the door late one night and Mr. Gordon said, "For Christ's sake, you don't have to put it in there now, you know."
"I just put it in there and don't really care to change the thing," said Merz. "Don't you open the door either. Let me force my way in."
Mr. Gordon put his shoulder against the door and finally let Merz, breathing hard, shove his way in. "OK now," said Merz. "I think you should have another thousand-dollar endowment. Now look, I don't want that other thing to color your decision. I'm talking straight insurance now, and if I found out you were taking a policy just because of that other thing I do, I'd be sore. Do you want one? Remember, it's important to keep these things separate."
"Then I don't think so," said Mr. Gordon. "I've got enough coverage for now."
"You don't," said Merz. "I'm going to keep hounding you until you buy more endowments. You don't have half enough and ought to be ashamed of yourself for carrying so little. But if you dare buy one because of that other arrangement we have, I'll kick you in the chops."
"I was wondering how often you come around," said Mr. Gordon. "That other thing really worked out. He's going to have a certain American Indian appeal and I don't think it'll bother him."
"I
don't get into whether it'll bother him or not," said Merz. "All
right then, you want Simms transferred and wall-to-wall carpeting, some of it
covering the staircase to the second floor. This is going to make you laugh so
you might as well get in the snickers right now. You get a wool or cotton
option on the carpeting, any shade."
"That
is funny," said Mr. Gordon. "Why do I want Simms transferred?"
"7 told you I wouldn't settle for any coy stuff!" said Merz, rising in anger. He sat again, regaining his composure.
"Because
we're neck and neck and because he has a slightly better personality and at one
point or another will be quietly eased in as a senior executive, that's
why," said Mr. Gordon.
"All
right then," said Merz. "Now I want your Uncle Lester."
"What
do you mean you want
him?" asked Mr.
Gordon. "Don't tell me because I know."
"That's
right," said Merz, "he goes. Don't
pin me down as to how, but I do know it won't be pretty."
"I
didn't know that anyone had to go," said Gordon. "I thought what it
would probably be is just doing things
to people but not actually having them go. Anyway,
it's amazing the way you work these things out. If you'd said Aunt Clara or
Cousin Lars I'd have thrown you out of here. These people are old and beat up
and I don't see them more than once in a blue moon, but when I hug them to me I
get a feeling of kinship and camaraderie. I don't get that at all from Uncle
Lester and don't like the way he smells. He works on those prescriptions twelve
hours a day and I never did understand him. He's seventy-six or something and
it won't be long now for him anyway. All right then, he goes, but it's amazing
how you knew to say Uncle Lester and not Aunt Clara. I'd have fought the hell
out of you on her."
"They're
made up cleverly all right," said Merz, blowing his nose, "but I
don't want to stay here and get friendly with you. All I really care about is
that you buy more endowments, but purely on an insurance basis, and not because of this other arrangement of ours. Do you want cotton or wool
carpeting?"
"Which do you
think?" asked Mr. Gordon.
"If
I was allowed to I'd kick your chops," said Mr. Merz angrily. "Don't
ask me any idiotic things."
"All
right then, wool," said Mr. Gordon. "Beige wool," and Merz flew
out the door.
Within
a week, a love affair between Simms and a bookkeeping girl came out in the
open. The agency head called in Simms and said, "I don't care how creative
you are, what you're doing is Hollywood and is a definite stink." Simms
went to Dubuque, and Mr. Gordon sat back and waited to be told he'd been
promoted and given an increase, one that worked out to $1437 a year, the exact
amount he'd need for carpeting the downstairs and the steps.
No
promotion came and at the end of a month Merz drove up at night in a truck, and
put his foot in Mr. Gordon's door.
"I
don't see why you have to go through this each time," said Mr. Gordon,
holding the door.
"I
don't ask you questions," said Merz, his nose red, finally elbowing his
way in. "I brought the carpeting. There was no way to have it just get to you so we're just handing it over. That happens sometimes and this is
the one receipt I'll need." Mr. Gordon signed a piece of paper and Merz
said, "Caught you. I didn't really need a receipt for the carpeting. I
told you there's no paper work on the bargains we make. What you just signed is
for an endowment policy."
Merz
left the carpeting on Mr. Gordon's porch and shot away.
Over
the weekend, police caught Mr. Gordon's Uncle Lester accepting a case of stolen
and tainted penicillin. A grand jury hearing was scheduled, but later that week
Uncle Lester, out on bail, drove to the state line, turned on Gabriel Heatter
and shot himself in the temple, leaving a garbled note that said, roughly,
"Middle-class embarrassment. Old enough. Bang bang with Heatter. Get
it?" When Mr. Gordon read about the note, he told Mrs. Gordon, "It's
odd I should get a feeling of camaraderie for Uncle Lester now—after reading
the note. I never had one before."
A
month later, Merz got Mr. Gordon into the Tall Hills Golf Club. The arrangement
put Gordon's father-in-law in a new job, one that sent the elderly, nearsighted
man driving along precipitous mountain passes in southern Wyoming selling
educational training aids to out-of-the-way prisons and mental hospitals. The
final deal shipped Mr. Gordon, his wife and one of the children off on a
long-dreamed-of one-month vacation to Sark and gave Mr. Gordon's mother a
permanent toe fungus, one that was relatively harmless but maddeningly
irritating. Mr. Gordon could have gotten two months in Majorca but balked when
Merz insisted he would have to "take" Mr. Gordon's mother. The Sark
weather was bad, and the Gordons got back a few days early. On the night of
their arrival, Mr. Gordon got a call from a sultry-voiced female who said,
"This is to inform you that Mr. Merz is dead and won't be selling you any
further endowments." The woman hung up, and Mr. Gordon, feeling a little
bit alone, thought, "I wonder if this is all there is to it? Whether I get
to go on as though nothing had ever happened?" Being a realistic thinker,
Mr. Gordon could not figure out any reason why he should not go ahead and live
his life as he had always lived it.
Several
weeks later Mr. Gordon lost a cuff link and went into a charming little out-of-the-way
boutique to replace it. The girl behind the counter had dark hair covering her
shoulders, melting brown eyes and breasts that were impressive in that they
were perfectly separated and elevated. She wore an intriguing scent and Mr.
Gordon said, "You know, I came in here to buy cuff links, but your perfume
is enchanting. You're damned appealing, too. What is it called?"
"Pizanie," the girl said, in a
husky voice. "Accent on the second syllable. But too many people call it
Prazzanee."
"It
bowls me over," said Mr. Gordon. "Are you allowed to have lunch with
people?"
"Mr.
Lopez will sell you the cuff links," the girl said, lowering her lovely
melting eyes.
A
young man wearing a pinched suit in the style of a foppish Londoner came out
with a tray of twisted metal cuff links and said, "I'm Lopez. These are
from Mexico." Mr. Gordon selected a pair and Mr. Lopez said, "I've
made a lunch reservation for the three of us." Mr. Gordon felt excited
over the spontaneity of the adventure that seemed to be unfolding and with a
strange thrill fluttering at the base of his spine went along with his two new
friends. The scent of the girl kept him bewildered through the first course and
then it occurred to him that he had heard her voice before. "Didn't you call
and tell me Merz was dead?" he asked.
She
lowered her eyes and Mr. Lopez, eating with exquisite manners, said, "I
asked her to call. Now look, I'm doing them with you from now on, only they'll
be slightly different. Not really in spirit, but the ante goes up quite a bit.
Now here's the first. You can have Lisa here any weekend you like, on into the
interminable future, and we get your hair."
Mr.
Gordon's hand instinctively passed up to his forehead and he asked, "All
of it?"
"You get a fringe around the ears and
the crescent on the back of the head, you know the way it sets up. We give you
a premature gray speckling if you like, to soften the contrast. It's better if
you keep it short and, for whatever it's worth, we do foot all haircut bills
from then on. Your wife doesn't ever get to know about Lisa."
"Look," said Mr. Gordon, "I
don't want to act the prude and say the idea is horrible and I don't want any
girl I have to pay for. The only thing that irritates me is how you can set it
up right in front of her that way."
"I don't care about her," said Mr. Lopez.
"She helps me sell cuff links."
The air was full of Lisa, and Mr. Gordon
said, "Do you mean one weekend or all weekends forever?" "As
many as you like."
"I
should probably be figuring this out to myself, but I have to talk to
someone," said Mr. Gordon. "What do I need my hair for if I can have
her anytime I want automatically? Now look, Lopez, there is one thing. I'm
sorry about asking this, Lisa, but I'll just get it in and then I'll never do
anything as crude as this again. There's nothing wrong with her? I mean, she
doesn't get epileptic fits or anything I should know about? Or limp? That's
silly. Actually I don't mind a limp in a girl, and it's funny I should bring
that in here. All right, I'll go along."
"I
don't write them down either," said Lopez. "Would you like some other
cuff links?"
"I'll
take one more pair," said Mr. Gordon, tremulously taking the girl's hand.
The
hair came out gradually in Mr. Gordon's comb and was gone within a month. Not
until the last few dropped out did Mr. Gordon think of exercising his option,
and on that day he bought a Homburg and dropped around the boutique. He had a
horrible fear, for one second, that Lisa would no longer be there and that he
would have to travel the earth, hairless, to find his booty. But she was there,
warm and sweet, with the scent of Pizanie floating about her ears, her bosoms
high and impeccably separated.
Lopez
came out with a tray from India and Mr. Gordon gave him two-fifty. Lopez asked
him into a private office then and said, "Today's involves getting away
from it all, leaving your job and doing whatever you want to do. Freedom. It's
the only thing you don't have, not a fortune, but enough income to be able to
thumb your nose at it all."
"As
it stands I'll have to go into that stinking office right to my grave,"
said Mr. Gordon. "I make a good living but I need to have every nickel to
do what I'm doing. All right, what do you take? Paralysis for my sister? A
nervous breakdown for Dad? Shoot. This is going to be good." "A
single evening with your wife."
"You
can't have a single evening with my wife. Who gets it, you?"
"No," said Lopez.
"What
do I care who gets it? That's beside the point. I can't let you have that. I
know, I know, I'm a hypocrite. I'll sell out my Uncle Lester and throw away my
kid's nose and yet I make a big fuss over a single, meaningless act of the
flesh. I'm not going along, that's all. That's one deal I won't make and I'm
not even going to explain it."
"You'll never have to do a day's work in
your life."
"You mean just one time with one
man?" said Mr. Gordon.
"That's all," said Mr. Lopez.
'When?" asked Gordon.
"You
bring her to a Twenties party Saturday night. You can have her as a flapper and
you as a Harvard cheerleader. Lisa and I will be there as a Twenties gangster
and his moll."
"This
is one I don't feel happy about at all," said Mr. Gordon.
"Do we have an agreement?" asked
Lopez. "Yes," said Gordon.
During
the week Mr. Gordon rented a costume for his wife. She said it was beautiful
and maybe he could buy it for her after the party. The party itself was dimly
lit and all of the people were in costume, although some of them had spoiled
the theme by showing up in flamenco dress. It was thick and loud and wild and
Mrs. Gordon was immediately snapped up for the dance floor, leaving Mr. Gordon
standing alone in his cheerleader uniform. Lisa and Lopez came over then. She
made a lovely moll, one with perfectly separated bosoms and the scent of
Pizanie about her throat. "Look, I'm not going along," said Mr.
Gordon, glancing over at his wife on the dance floor. She was dancing with one
of the flamenco fellows. "I can't even stand it when she dances with
someone. Look, I can't go through with it. Who's the one she has to be
with?" "I told you that wasn't important," said Lopez.
"Will you point him out?" asked M.r. Gordon.
"Yes," said Lopez, and Mr. Gordon put his arms around Lisa and led
her to the dance floor. Fifteen minutes later, Lopez tapped him on the shoulder
and said, "She's with him now." Mr. Gordon looked up and saw his wife
dancing with a slender, muscular man in a Twenties tank suit. They spun around.
It was Merz. He seemed a trifle younger and somewhat better looking.
"You said he was dead," Mr. Gordon
said to Lisa.
"Under my orders," said Lopez.
"Don't blame her." "Well that settles it," said Mr. Gordon.
"Now I'm definitely not going through with it. Not till Hell freezes
over." "We have an agreement," said Lopez through thin lips.
"I don't care," said Mr. Gordon. "Not Merz. Maybe someone else,
but not him. That's where I draw the line. I don't care what I said."
"It
has to be Merz," said Lopez. "It's all arranged." "Now
look," said Mr. Gordon, running his hands over his bare dome. "I
don't know whether I have the strength to argue with you or what, but I am not
going through with this and that's that. I knew I shouldn't have started on
this one. Now look, I'll give you this much. Inside of blouse, upper thigh, and
heavy necking, but that's it. Not the whole deal. Never the whole deal. Not
with Merz."
"I
can't account for what happens when you change them,", said Lopez.
"Well,
I don't care," said Mr. Gordon, folding his arms. "That's it and
that's the way it's going to be."
"All right," said Lopez. "But
I can't guarantee what's going to happen when you fool around with the
packages. They're packaged one way for a reason."
"He
wasn't even supposed to be alive," said Mr. Gordon, encircling Lisa's
waist with his arms and picking up the music.
In
a short while, he saw Mrs. Gordon and Merz pick up their coats and slip out the
door. He kept dancing and at the end of the evening Mrs. Gordon came back alone
and went into the powder room. Lopez came over and slipped a piece of paper
into Mr. Gordon's cheerleading blazer. "It's a check that comes to sixteen
hundred dollars, which is the store's gross weekly income. That's the way we
have it set up, only you'll get it from now on in monthly payments. It's fairly
steady and of course if the store should fail, we're in supermarkets, clothing,
and you should have no cause for anxiety. I'm taking Lisa now, but of course
you can pick her up any weekend, beginning Friday nights at 6:45 and ending at the dinner hour Sunday, let's say eight."
Mr.
Gordon was quite anxious for the following week and neither quit his job nor
picked up Lisa. The following Saturday morning Mrs. Gordon came to the
breakfast table fully dressed and said, "I've got to go away and I don't
think I'm coming back, and there's no need for you to talk patiently with me.
It's going to be for always with this man and there isn't a thing in the world
anyone can say to me to stop me. I don't know about the children. I just know I
have to go. There was a brief time when it seemed if we could only get it out
of our systems we could have forgotten each other, but it wasn't possible and
now we have to go away together and take a lifetime because it isn't ever going
to get out of our systems."
"Merz?" said Mr.
Gordon.
"That's
his name," said Mrs. Gordon, "but there isn't any use in your saying
it a funny way or trying to cut him down because I need him and must have
him."
Mr.
Gordon's face went cold and after his wife left, the shock carried him through
the day and he remained rigid, like a sliding pond, as the children played all over him. What he was
certain was going to hit him never did, somehow, and he got through the
following week with only occasional spasms of nausea. On Friday evening at 6:45
he went to Lisa's apartment and the second she opened the door he bit her
earlobe and inhaled her and undressed her and had her before the clock said
seven. There had been a moment at the door, when he had feared a kind of quiet
resignation on her part, but such was not the case a/d she made love to him with frenzy and hunger and they stayed
together through the night. In the morning she sat up and stretched in a
nightgown and yawned and the nausea came back to him. "That Pizanie stays
right on all through the night," he said.
"So many people call
it Pzzzanee," she said languorously.
"I
don't like it in the morning when I want eggs," he said. "I'm not
even sure I want it in the afternoon or any time before 6:45. And even then,
I'm not sure any more," he said. Dressing quickly, he hollered,
"P/ZZANEE, P/ZZANEE, P7ZZANEE, IT SHOULD BE
CALLED P/ZZANEE," and then flew out the door.
He
went to a private detective's office and told the man he wanted to find his
wife and Merz. After twelve minutes of phone calls the detective traced the
pair to Las Vegas and said to Mr. Gordon, "You owe me forty-three
dollars."
"How do you get
that?" asked Mr. Gordon.
"I just do," said
the detective.
"All
right," said Mr. Gordon, paying the man. "I have unlimited
funds."
A
jet liner took Mr. Gordon to Las Vegas the same evening. He felt very giddy
traveling without luggage, without preparation. In Las Vegas he checked the
rosters of the big hotels for Merz' name and couldn't find it. Then he went to
the smaller hotels that weren't on the Strip and found a listing for a couple
named Merzedes. Taking the stairs two at a time he pounded on the door of the
room until Merz opened it up, wearing a pair of BVDs. He had grown a goatee in the beatnik style and
his hair was unruly. The room was sultry and had no air conditioning. Inside,
Mr. Gordon could see his wife in a pair of panties he recognized and a
monogrammed blouse.
"Look
Merz," said Mr. Gordon, "my foot is in your door. The whole thing's
off. I have got to have her back. I don't care whether she wants to come or
not. She'll get used to me again and forget you, even if it takes fifty-two
years. But she's my wife and I've got to have her back and there's no power on
earth can stop me, I don't care who's behind this."
"I can't do it,"
said Merz.
"Why not?" said
Mr. Gordon, with fists clenched.
"Because
I took asthma, a bleeding ulcer and let a Long Island train wreck have six of
my grandchildren for your wife, that's why. It was under a special incentive
plan for us employees."
Mr. Gordon understood
perfectly and went away.
THE
VACATION
by ray bradbury
The
name Ray Bradbury is synonymous with science fiction. It is the one name known
even to those who are totally unfamiliar with the genre. He is ■personally
responsible for a phenomenal feat—smglehandedly lifting science -fiction by its
bootstraps, out of the shady demimonde
of the pulps, into the respectable
world of literature. Aldous Huxley
called him "one of the most
visionary men now writing in any field." He would be a major figure had he
written nothing but "The Martian Chronicles" a milestone and a
masterpiece. Happily, he has written much more. All of his work is distinguished by a welcome absence of gimmickry and by the abundant presence of warmth, compassion, poetic imagery and
profound involvement in the human condition. By way of example, we offer one of
his many playboy pieces, the haunting, deceptively simple
story of "The Vacation."
IT
WAS A DAY as fresh as grass growing up and clouds going over and butterflies
coming down could make it. It was a day compounded of silences of bee and
flower and ocean and land, which were not silences at all, but motions, stirs,
flutters, risings, fallings, each in their own time and matchless rhythm. The
land did not move, but moved. The sea was not still, yet was still. Paradox
flowed into paradox, stillness mixed with stillness, sound with sound. The
flowers vibrated and the bees fell in separate and small showers of golden rain
on the clover. The seas of hill and the seas of ocean were divided, each from
the other's motion, by a railroad track, empty, compounded of rust and iron
marrow, a track on which, quite obviously, no train had run in many years.
Thirty miles north it swirled on away to farther mists of distance, thirty
miles south it tunneled islands of cloud shadows that changed their continental
positions on the sides of far mountains as you watched.
Now, suddenly, the railway
track began to tremble.
A
blackbird, standing on the rail, felt a rhythm grow faintly, miles away, like a
heart beginning to beat.
The blackbird leaped up
over the sea.
The
rail continued to vibrate softly until at long last around a curve and along
the shore came a small workman's handcar, its two-cylinder engine popping and
spluttering in the great silence.
On
top of this small four-wheeled car, on a double-sided bench facing in two
directions and with a little surrey roof above for shade, sat a man, his wife
and their small seven-year-old son. As the handcar traveled through lonely
stretch after lonely stretch, the wind whipped their eyes and blew their hair,
but they did not look back but only ahead. Sometimes they looked eagerly, as a
curve unwound itself, sometimes with great sadness, but always watchful, ready
for the next scene.
As
they hit a level straightaway, the machine's engine gasped and stopped
abruptly. In the now-crushing silence, it seemed that the quiet of the earth,
sky and sea itself, by its friction, brought the car to a wheeling halt.
"Out of gas."
The
man, sighing, reached for the extra can in the small storage bin and began to
pour it into the tank.
His
wife and son sat quietly looking at the sea, listening to the muted thunder,
the whisper, the drawing back of huge tapestries of sand, gravel, green weed
and foam.
"Isn't the sea
nice?" said the woman.
"I like it," said
the boy.
"Shall we picnic here,
while we're at it?"
The man focused binoculars
on the green peninsula ahead.
"Might
as well. The rails have rusted badly. There's a break ahead. We may have to
wait while I set a few back in place."
"As many as there
are," said the boy, "we'll have picnics!"
The
woman tried to smile at this, then turned her grave attention to the man.
"How far have we come today?"
"Not
ninety miles." The man still peered through the glasses, squinting.
"I don't like to go farther than that any one day, anyway. If you rush,
there's no time to see. We'll reach Monterey day after tomorrow, Palo Alto the
next day, if you want."
The
woman removed her great shadowing straw hat which had been tied over her golden
hair with a bright yellow ribbon, and stood perspiring faintly, away from the
machine. They had ridden so steadily on the shuddering rail car that the motion
was sewn in their bodies. Now, with the stopping, they felt odd, on the verge
of unraveling.
"Let's eat!"
The boy ran with the wicker
lunch basket down to the shore.
The
boy and the woman were already seated by a spread tablecloth when the man came
down to them, dressed in his business suit and vest and tie and hat as if he
expected to meet someone along the way. As he dealt out the sandwiches and
exhumed the pickles from their cool green Mason jars, he began to loosen his
tie and unbutton his vest, always looking around as if he should be careful and
ready to button up again.
"Are we all alone, Papa?" said the
boy, eating. "Yes."
"No one else, anywhere?"
"No one else."
"Were there people before?"
"Why
do you keep asking that? It wasn't that long ago. Just a few months. You
remember?"
"Almost.
If I try hard, then I don't remember at all." The boy let a handful of
sand fall through his fingers. "Were there as many people as there is sand
here on the beach? What happened to
them?"
"I don't know," the man said, and
it was true.
They had wakened one morning and the world
was empty. The neighbor's clothesline was still strung with blowing white wash,
cars gleamed in front of other seven-A.M. cottages,
but there were no farewells, the city did not hum with its mighty arterial
traffics, phones did not alarm themselves, children did not wail in sunflower
wildernesses.
Only
the night before he and his wife had been sitting on the front porch when the
evening paper was delivered and, not even daring to open to the headlines, he
had said, "I wonder when He will get tired of us and just rub us all
out?"
"It
has gone pretty far," she said. "On and on. We're such fools, aren't
we?"
"Wouldn't
it be nice"—he lit his pipe and puffed it—"if we woke tomorrow and
everyone in the world was gone and everything was starting over?" He sat
smoking, the paper folded in his hand, his head resting back on the chair.
"If
you could press a button right now and make it happen, would you?"
"I
think I would," he said. "Nothing violent. Just have everyone vanish
off the face of the earth. Just leave the land and the sea and the growing
things like flowers and grass and fruit trees. And the animals, of course, let
them stay. Everything except man, who hunts when he isn't hungry, eats when
full, and is mean when no one's bothered him."
"Naturally," she
smiled, quietly, "we would be left."
"I'd
like that," he mused. "All of time ahead. The longest summer vacation
in history. And us out for the longest picnic-basket lunch in memory. Just you,
me and Jim. No commuting. No keeping up with the Joneses. Not even a car. I'd
like to find another way of traveling, an older way . . . Then, a hamper full
of sandwiches, three bottles of pop, pick up supplies where you need them from
empty grocery stores in empty towns, and summertime forever up ahead ..."
They
sat a long while on the porch in silence, the newspaper folded between them.
At last she spoke.
"Wouldn't we be lonely}" she said.
So that's how it was the morning of the first
day of the new world. They had awakened to the soft sounds of an earth that was
now no more than a meadow, and the cities of the earth sinking back into seas
of saber grass, marigold, marguerite and morning-glory. They had taken it with
remarkable calm at first, perhaps because they had not liked the city for so
many years and had had so many friends who were not truly friends, and had
lived a boxed and separate life of their own within a mechanical hive.
The husband arose and looked out the window
and observed very calmly, as if it were a weather condition, "Everyone's
gone . . ." knowing this just by the sounds the city had ceased to make.
They
took their time over breakfast, for the boy was still asleep, and then the
husband sat back and said, "Now I must plan what to do."
"Do? Why, why you'll
go to work, of course."
"You
still don't believe it, do you?" he laughed. "That I won't be rushing
off each day at 8:10, that Jim won't
go to school again ever. School's out for all of us! No more pencils, no more
books, no more boss' sassy looks! We're let out, darling, and we'll never come back to the
silly damn dull routines. Come on!"
And
he had walked her through the still and empty city streets.
"They
didn't die," he said. "They just . . . went away." "What
about the other cities?"
He
went to an outdoor phone booth and dialed Chicago, then New York, then San
Francisco.
Silence. Silence. Silence.
"That's it," he said, replacing the
receiver.
"I
feel guilty," she said. "They gone and we here. And ... I feel happy. Why? I should be unhappy."
"Should
you? It's no tragedy. They weren't tortured or blasted or burned. It went
easily and they didn't know. And now we owe nothing to anyone. Our only
responsibility is being happy. Thirty more years of happiness,
wouldn't that be good?"
"But then we must have more
children!"
"To
repopulate the world?" he shook his head slowly, calmly. "No. Let Jim
be the last. After he's grown and gone let the horses and cows and ground
squirrels and garden spiders have the world. They'll get on. And someday some
other species that can combine a natural happiness with a natural curiosity
will build cities that won't even look like cities to us, and survive. Right
now, let's go pack a basket, wake Jim and get going on that long thirty-year
summer vacation. I'll beat you to the house!"
He took a sledge hammer from the small rail
car and while he worked alone for half-an-hour fixing the rusted rails into
place, the woman and the boy ran along the shore. They came back with dripping
shells, a dozen or more, and some beautiful pink pebbles, and sat and the boy
took schooling from the mother, doing homework on a pad with a pencil for a
time} and then at high noon the man came down, his coat off, his tie thrown
aside, and they drank orange pop, watching the bubbles surge up, glutting,
inside the bottles. It was quiet. They listened to the sun tune the old iron
rails. The smell of hot tar on the ties moved about them in the salt wind, as
the husband tapped his atlas map lightly and gently:
"We'll
go to Sacramento next month, May, then work up toward Seattle. Should make that
by July first, July's a good month in Washington, then back down as the weather
cools, to Yellowstone, a few miles a day, hunt here, fish there . . ."
The
boy, bored, moved away to throw sticks in the sea and wade out like a dog to
retrieve them.
The
man went on: "Winter in Tucson, then, part of the winter, moving toward
Florida, up the coast in the spring, and maybe New York by June. Two years from
now, Chicago in the summer. Winter, three years from now, what about Mexico
City? Anywhere the rails lead us, anywhere at all, and if we come to an old
offshoot rail line we don't know anything about, what the hell, we'll just take
it, go down it to see where it goes. And some year, by God, we'll boat down the
Mississippi, always wanted to do that. Enough to last us a lifetime. And
that's just how long I want to take to do it all . . ."
His
voice faded. He started to fumble the map shut, but before he could move, a
bright thing fell through the air and hit the paper. It rolled off into the
sand and made a wet lump.
His
wife glanced at the wet place in the sand and then swiftly searched his face.
His solemn eyes were too bright. And down one cheek was a track of wetness.
She gasped. She took his
hand and held it tight.
He
clenched her hand very hard, his eyes shut now, and slowly he said, with
difficulty:
"Wouldn't
it be nice if we went to sleep tonight and in the night, somehow, it all came
back. All the foolishness, all the noise, all the hate, all the terrible
things, all the nightmares, all the wicked people and stupid children, all the
mess, all the smallness, all the confusion, all the hope, all the need, all the
love. Wouldn't it be nice?"
She waited and nodded her
head once.
Then both of them started.
For standing between them, they knew not for
how long, was their son, an empty pop bottle in one hand.
The
boy's face was pale. With his free hand he reached out to touch his father's
cheek where the single tear had made its track.
"You,"
he said. "Oh, Dad, you. You haven't anyone to play with, either . .
."
The wife started to speak.
The husband moved to take
the boy's hand.
The
boy jerked back. "Silly! Oh, silly! Silly fools! Oh, you dumb, dumb!"
And, whirling, he rushed down to the ocean and stood there crying, loudly.
The wife rose to follow,
but the husband stopped her.
"No. Let him."
And
then they both grew cold and quiet. For the boy, below on the shore, crying
steadily, now was writing on a piece of paper and stuffing it into the pop
bottle and ramming the tin cap back on and taking the bottle and giving it a
great glittering heave up in the air and out into the tidal sea.
What,
thought the wife, what did he write on the note? What's in the bottle?
The bottle moved out in the
waves.
The boy stopped crying.
After
a long while he walked up the shore to stand looking at his parents. His face
was neither bright nor dark, alive nor dead, ready nor resigned; it seemed a
curious mixture that simply made do with time, weather and these people. They
looked at him and beyond to the bay where the bottle, containing the scribbled
note, was almost out of sight now, shining in the waves.
Did
he write what we wanted? thought the woman; did he write what
he heard us just wish, just say?
Or did he write something
for only himself? she wondered, that tomorrow he might wake and find himself
alone in an empty world, no one around, no man, no woman, no father, no mother,
no fool grownups with fool wishes, so he could trudge up to the railroad tracks
and take the handcar motoring, a solitary boy, across the continental wilderness,
on eternal voyages and picnics?
Is that what he wrote in the note?
Which?
She searched his colorless eyes, could not
read the answer; dared not ask.
Gull shadows sailed over and kited their
faces with sudden passing coolness.
"Time to go," someone said.
They loaded the wicker basket onto the rail car. The woman tied her
large bonnet securely in place with its yellow ribbon, they set the boy's pail
of shells on the floor boards, then the husband put on his tie, his vest, his
coat, his hat, and they all sat on the bench of the car looking out at the sea
where the bottled note was far out, blinking on the horizon.
"Is asking enough?" said the boy. "Does wishing
work?"
"Sometimes . . . too well."
"It depends on what you ask for."
The boy nodded, his eyes faraway.
They looked back at where they had come from,
and then ahead to where they were going.
"Goodbye, place," said the boy, and
waved. ^—^
The car rolled down the rusty rails. The sound of it dwindled, faded.
The man, the woman, the boy dwindled with it in the distance, among the hills.
After they were gone, the rail trembled
faintly for two minutes and ceased. A flake of rust fell. A flower nodded.
The sea was very loud.
THE
NEVER ENDING PENNY
BY BERNARD WOLFE
Henry
Miller says of Bernard Wolfe: "Here is a writer with a
cyclopean eye and an ear such as Salvador Dali would have difficulty in depicting."
Wolfe has had a variegated career: a
member of Leon Trotsky's personal
staff during the Mexican exile period; war correspondent during World War Two; ghostwriter of the late Billy Rose's syndicated column; author of several kaleidoscopic books {"In
Deep," "The Late Risers," "The Great Prince Died,"
among others); inditer of many superb playboy
stories; Hollywood
screenwright of emphatic opinions— one
of them: "Only films made on a
modest budget have any chance of being
good; when they become big business
ventures, they're doomed to failure from the
start." Although by no means a specialist in science fiction or fantasy,
much of his work is strongly
characterized by the flavors of the
bizarre and the grotesque, and one of
his books, "Limbo" is a mind-stretching, richly textured
science-fiction novel. Here is his charming variation on the folkloric theme of cornucopia, "The Never Ending
Penny."
SO
IT WENT, peaches all day, complaints all night. "If not too big a work,
could you make the voice somewhat softer?" he said to his wife. "I
pick the peaches ten large hours today and even my ears fall down from
tiredness." . He refrained from observing that her tongue might soon fall
down from its labors.
"Pick
the peaches ten years and the house will still be small like no house,"
she said. "We are seven, we shall soon be eight, and we continue to live
in a house with one room, not a house, a species of shed, and therefore we live
like pigs and what do peaches have to do with it?"
He
studied their own well-fatted pig that was down at the corner of the property
snouting some superior mud from here to there. He refrained from pointing out
that this shoat of theirs lived fantastically better than they did, having as
many rooms as he had muds, no peaches to pick, no woman to make loud noises in
his ears.
"We
need at the minimum two rooms more," she said. "Then our neighbors
will see that we are people and not some animals in a barn or a sty."
He
did not draw her attention to the fact that she was making noises better suited
to the barn or the sty. He liked Herminia, though she had a tendency to
overtalk.
He
adjusted his back to a more comfortable position against the adobe wall,
wiggled his dusty toes, and considered the sun, which was dropping away behind
the mountain like a darkening boil.
"I
have explained before and I will explain again," he said. "To build
even two small rooms requires many hundreds of adobe bricks. To mix the adobe,
shape the bricks, dry the bricks, then further to place the bricks, is an
immense labor. I pick the peaches ten hours a day for Mr. Johannsen and this is
enough immense labor."
These
words were said with a first-grade teacher's kind and crisis-easing voice.
"And when you do not pick the peaches
for Mr. Johann-sen?"
"Then I pick the beef tomatoes for Mr.
Predieu and the iceberg lettuces for Mr. Scarpio. When I am not picking other
people's various things it is my taste to sit against the wall and pick my
teeth."
"For
that," she said, "it is first necessary to chew on something."
"I
agree with a whole heart. I will ask only why you bother to make this very true
and intelligent observation?"
"Because
if you do not build the two needed rooms you will very soon be without the
things to chew on. Do I make this plain? Your cook will be home in Durango,
where human beings do not live like animals. You can write me a long letter
about how you do not pick the teeth any more."
She
went in the house with both hands made into fists, her rounded belly leading
the way. Five children's voices came up in a soprano thunder, asking mama, dear
and nice mamacita, for some pieces of crisped tortilla.
Life
could be hard in this California. Troubles here had the tendency to grow like
peaches and lettuces, in bunches. Though it was to be understood that even the
much-accepting Herminia would not wish to bring out still another child in one
cramped room. Yet adobe bricks would not grow in bunches, like peaches,
lettuces and troubles.
He
got to his feet and walked down close by the pig, to the well, to get himself
some water. Standing there in his envelope of constant trouble, the tin dipper
at his mouth, he said more or less to the pig, "I wish I had the
miraculous penny."
This
was what people like him sometimes said when they felt their troubles forming
into a sealed envelope, themselves inside.
The pig maneuvered over on his back and
flopped his happy feet in the air, perhaps trying to kick the sun. From the
bottom of the well a voice said, "What?"
When
spoken to, Diosdado liked to give straight and full answers. So he explained:
"I was speaking of the penny that never ends, that when it is
spent is replaced in the pocket with another penny. It is the
poor man's idea of great wealth, of all the riches of the world,
to have a penny in his pocket that always gives birth to another
penny---- "
The
voice said, "If you have to empty out your head every time you're asked a
question, write a book or hire a hall."
Then
Diosdado realized that he was leaning into the well, talking to somebody at the
bottom of his well.
A
man with a one-room house guards what is his with more spirit than a man who
owns international strings of castles.
He
leaned over some more and said, "What do you think you're doing there in
my well?"
"I
do this without thinking," the voice said, "because it's my job and
the thing I'm trained to do. These days We all specialize."
"What is that, your
job?"
"Listening. You think
it's easy when you mumble?"
"Then
you listen to this," Diosdado said. "This is my well and I want you
to get out of it and off my property."
"This
well," the voice said, "is as much Mr. Bixby's as it is yours."
"Who owns a hole is who did the digging.
You go back to
this liar of a Mr. Bixby of yours and you-- "
"Man,
will you use your damned head for once? For more than to keep your ears in
place? You dug this hole, yes, what belongs to you is the hole. You did not
make the water that comes into the hole, I stress this, the water comes down
from those San Berdoo mountains, from certain forest lands owned by a certain
Mr. George Carol Bixby. Now, will you stop wasting my time and answer one
simple question? Did I understand you to say you would like the miraculous
penny, the never ending penny?"
"These were my words. It is only an
expression--------- "
"All
right." "What did you say?" "I said, all right."
"All right what?"
"All
right, you can have the never ending penny. You've got it. Spend it in good
health."
Diosdado turned a sympathy-seeking face to
the lurching,
wallowing pig. "Mister," he said, "you get down in my well
where you have no right to be, a person I have never been
introduced to, and you tell me bad jokes. It is impossible to
have such an article as the never ending penny. This is only an
article people wish for. It is an express "
"I
know what it is without speeches from you," the voice said. "The
self-perpetuating penny, you might say, is my business. If you don't want it,
fine, just say so. If you do, it's yours. What coins do you have in your
pocket?"
Diosdado
made another face at the pig, one pleading for the two sane parties left in the
world to join against a general madness, and pulled all the coins from his
pocket.
"Four
pennies, two dimes and a quarter. This is what I have in my pocket and in the
world."
"Fine.
Now, put them in your shirt pocket, all but one penny. Put this single penny
back in your pants."
"If
it gives you pleasure."
"Now
take the penny out, then feel in the pocket again." Diosdado withdrew the
penny, placed it in his right hand, reached inside again with his left.
There
was another penny in his pocket.
He
pulled this one out and explored once more.
There
was a third penny.
There
was a fourth. There was a fifth.
When
there were 15 or more pennies in his sweaty hand he
looked
for explanations to the pig, with beggar's eyes. The pig was busy juggling the
sun with his paws. Diosdado began to shiver.
He
thought he understood, partly, anyway, the excitement of this moment. Once,
when a boy in Durango, while walking down a country road, he had seen a shine
in the dust. His foot explored the mystery. The shining objects were bright new
centavo pieces. At the sight of these unexpected riches he had felt precisely
this kind of throat-tightening and eye-widening heat in a flash flood through
his body. For one ballooning, scooping moment Diosdado had thought, what a
glory if this place of miracles should turn out to be a well, a cornucopia, a
production line of pennies. Can there be too much of a good thing?
Maybe
this, the centavo with a big fertility, has always been a general dream of
seven-year-olds. Maybe this is why it finally became a saying, an expression.
But even a .rax-year-old, even one not very bright, knows that the nice idea is
finally in the head and not in the world. Some young sense of the true nature
of things tells him that the perpetual penny is a pleasant wish, not a
reasonable expectation. Dreams, he somehow knows, circle around the impossible.
Now
here he was, he, Diosdado, with the dream of dreams in his pocket. He was a
small boy again, kicking at the Durango road and finding the road fully
cooperative, sensitive to his balloons and scoops of moods, jumping to his
large orders.
"If you have the power to give this
thing," he said shakenly into the well, "why do you give it to me, a
nobody?" "For one thing," the voice said, "you asked for
it." "It is enough only to ask?"
"Oh,
no, oh, no, we can't go around giving these things out just for the asking. A
lot of our countrymen come up north here, you know, many of them have troubles
and ask for the repeating penny. We follow them and we listen to them. In my
territory, for example, Southern California, I give out two or three of these
pennies in a year, an average year. There's no set quota."
"People
around here call for the miraculous penny all the time, why am I the one to get
it, sir?"
"One,
you're a steady worker. Two, you don't spend all your earnings in the nearby
bars. Three, you're reasonably good to your wife, though you make silent
comments at her. Four, you have another child coming and could use the penny,
or think you could. Don't ask for more reasons. Let's just say I like your
curly hair."
Diosdado
scratched his head. Absent-mindedly he pulled two more pennies from the
production line in his pocket.
"But,
listen, if two or three people around here get the penny each year, how have I
never heard about this?"
"News
like this doesn't get around, fellow. The owners of these family-bearing
pennies develop a very strong urge not to tell anybody about it. You'll
see."
Diosdado
pulled three more coins from his penny garden of a pocket.
"I've
got to run now," the voice said. "Somebody over to the Bixby place is
making a racket about wanting the penny. It's probably nothing, just a false
alarm, most of my calls come from drunken bums in roadside bars who have just
run out of tequila and pulque money, but I've got to go and see. Oh, one more
thing. I have the power to grant you two wishes. Now you have the first."
"And the second, what
is that?"
"You make the wishes, I grant them. Do
you expect me to do all the work around here?"
That night Diosdado did not eat his supper.
The kids hooted and threw frijoles at each other and he sat there over his food
seeing and hearing nothing. The newly acquired pennies in his pocket were a
ton of hotness against his thigh, several times he was on the verge of blurting
out to Hermini:i che incredible thing that had happened but
each time his tongue got stiff.
Herminia
wanted to know why he did not eat his frijoles. He said he had eaten many
peaches this afternoon at Mr. Johannsen's and was not hungry. With embroidered
casualness he announced he was going to cut some kindling and went out.
As
soon as he was inside his wood and tool shed he bolted the door and went to
work.
Diosdado
soon discovered that he could pull pennies from his pocket at the rate of one a
second, sixty a minute, three thousand six hundred an hour. This meant he was
making thirty-six dollars an hour, roughly what he got for a full week's work
in Mr. Johannsen's orchards. It was good pay for a job that could be done with
one hand, without climbing a ladder.
For
one hour he stood drawing out the coppers and dropping them on the dirt floor.
His arm was tired, a cylinder of hurt. He thought he might sit down for a time
but it was too hard to reach into his pocket from a sitting position. Next he
tried taking his pants off and lying down, but it was a strange thing, the
penny would not reproduce itself when the pants were not actually on his body.
He had to become a rich man standing up. At the end of the second hour he had
almost seven thousand pennies on the floor, almost seventy dollars, and his arm
was full of fever and gassy beer, there were shooting pains from the wrist to
the shoulders. He was getting rich and he was getting lumbago.
He
considered how much faster the harvesting of this penny crop would go if he
could call in Herminia and the kids to help with the picking. With his whole
family working they could go through the night in shifts. But it did not seem
right to bring others into the secret, not even his near and dear.
Herminia
called to him to bring some wood and he answered that he would be right there.
Now there was a problem. He could not leave a
small fortune in pennies lying around in plain sight on the shed floor. He felt
it was better if his family did not know about the pennies that grew like
toadstools that wish to make headlines.
In
the corner were some coarse burlap bags, left over from last year's flood
season when he had prepared sandbags to build up the banks of the nearby
stream. His seven thousand pennies almost filled one bag, which he hid under
some odds and ends of lumber.
He
went toward the house wondering why it was that he kept looking back. He was
about to be the richest man in the world and he looked over his shoulder as
though he had something to hide.
•
• •
During
the next days, whenever he had a minute, he went to the shed to pull pennies
and fill burlap bags. Before the week was up he had to buy a new supply of bags
at the general store, and his arm was so sore that he was not able to pick many
peaches for Mr. Johannsen.
Finally
he had so many full bags that there was no way to hide them in the shed. Some
new thing had to be done with them to keep them out of sight.
He began to discuss the
matter with himself:
"What
are pennies for, exactly? For spending, this is certain, yet I do not consider
the possibility. Why not? Well, the first thing is, there is no way to spend
ten thousand pennies, then ten times ten thousand, and so on. If I ordered
adobe bricks from the brickyard and offered the man bags of pennies for them he
would say, where did you get all these pennies, Diosdado? Could I answer that I
got them from my left pocket, boss? He would get suspicious and tell the chief
of police about it, or the tax collector, or both. Pennies can be deposited in
the bank, of course, just like dollars. Yet peach pickers do not usually have
moneys of any type to place in the bank. The president of the bank would think
the matter over and report it to the tax collector, or the chief of police, or
both. There is but one way. I must hide these bags from all eyes. From my wife
and my children, them especially. I did not know what a trouble it can be to
have money. Surely it is not robbery if I take pennies from my own left pocket,
so why do I feel like a robber and keep looking over my shoulder?"
So
he did not spend the pennies. Neither did he tell his wife about them. He hit
on a way to hide the bags. He ordered a quantity of planks from the lumberyard
and these he placed firmly in the ground in upright pairs, exactly along the
lines where the walls for the extra rooms would eventually have to go. Between
each pair of planks, using them for supports, he piled a vertical row of his
plump bags, exactly as he had piled them to make a new bank for the flooding
stream. Each bag contained ten thousand pennies, one hundred dollars' worth of
pennies. The piles formed continuous walls, they looked exactly like walls.
Herminia watched with
narrowing eyes.
"You
wanted more rooms?" he said to her. "How can I make rooms if I do not
first make walls?"
"I
tell all the neighbors you are a good husband," she said, "but now I
see you want to kill your whole family. What way is this to build walls without
adobe? Make walls of sand and when the bags rot away in the weather the walls
will fall down on our heads and we will be killed and buried in the same time.
True, this way we save burial expenses. We have to cut down somewhere."
"This
is a new procedure of making the bricks," he said, hating himself.
"First, a special sand is put in the bags, second, they are permitted to
shape and harden in the sun. It is a totally new process, woman. It was
invented by the authorities on such things in the U.S.A. Department of
Agriculture, Adobe Brick Division. Those of the government know the wall
business better than you."
He wanted to kick and punch himself when he
saw the full trust and respect in her eyes. But at least the pennies would be
safe in this homemade bank. Because of the protecting planks the children could
not feel around with their fingers to find out that these walls were filled
with a sunshiny sand of dreams and sayings.
But
the chief of police did take notice. He saw the walls going up and he drove in
to have a look.
"Pretty
big house you're putting up there," he said. "Where'd you get the
money for the materials? Come on, Diosdado, come clean, you rob a bank
someplace?"
Diosdado
said he seldom had the occasion, let alone the constitution, even to go in a
bank, let alone rob it, the funds came from picking the good peach crop.
But the chief's words were
a worry.
The tax collector came by
too.
"You're
turning the place into a regular mansion," he said with too much
arithmetic in his eyes. "A four-star palace. You must have had a peachy
year, ha, ha, to afford improvements like these." There were dollar signs
in his eyes as he drove away.
This was another worry.
By
now the walls, the deceitful walls, were up ten feet or more. Diosdado took a
pencil and paper and did some figuring. According to his count he had piled up
two thousand bags, which came to twenty thousand dollars' worth of pennies. He
was a man worth twenty thousand dollars and he did not have the cash to go in
the store to buy a side of bacon or a new kitchen table, let alone more burlap
bags. Added to this, the chief of police and the tax collector had their
mathematical eyes on him.
If
no more bags would fit into the walls, any he filled from now on would have to
be hidden in another way. There was no other way. Besides, Diosdado was
beginning to wonder if there was any sense to piling up more pennies in secret.
To collect bigger and bigger moneys and to be further and further away from the
possibility of spending them, to do all this heavy work and have no pay from
it, nothing but some false walls put up with backbreaking labor, more labor by
far than it would have taken to make true and useful adobe walls, that is,
walls about which a man would not have to tell rotten lies to his trusting
wife, this did not seem reasonable. His arm was very tired. It hung limp at his
side, a tube of misery. He was now the slowest picker in Mr. Johannsen's
orchards.
He
decided that, for the time being, he would not collect any more pennies.
Easier
said than done. How do you go about throwing away a breeding penny like this? A
damned rabbit of a penny? Several times, in disgust, he tried to fling it from
him. Each time, its twin brother turned up cozily in his pocket.
He
began truly to hate this penny. He had not had a good night's sleep for weeks,
even before the visits from the township officials. He had the stronger and
stronger feeling that, ever since he had begun to collect the pennies, he had
been involved in something criminal, something absolutely against the law. He
was looking over his shoulder all the time now. His neck was getting as stiff
as his arm.
He consulted with himself
once more:
"I
see why I have broken no law, yet feel like the Number One on the wished-for
list of the FBI. I begin to see. This is not my money, though it happens to be
in my pocket. It is not money at all, though it looks and feels like true
money. The difficulty is that if you are given the magic of the seven-year-old
you must begin to think and act like a seven-year-old in order to enjoy the
gift. Why do I not speak to my wife any more? Because my pennies are the only
thing I can speak of and they are the one thing I must not speak of. Why can't
I tell Herminia about the pennies? Not because of the danger she might talk.
Not that so much, though she is a champion talker. Chiefly because if I spoke
of this magic she would see the seven-year-old in my eyes again, and this is
not for a woman to see in a more so than not grown man. Why do I feel I am
breaking the law? Because the first law is to act your age, which in my case is
thirty-nine and not seven. This calamity of a penny cuts many inches off my
height and how tall is a man to begin with? Besides, my arm hurts all the time.
I must get rid of this affliction and plague of a penny." But how lose a
penny that won't get lost?
Standing by the well, speaking more or less
to the upside-down pig as it pranced pointlessly, he said, "I certainly
wish I'd never heard of this miserable penny."
From
deep in the well there was a sound like the rush of wind. After a few seconds
the voice said as though from far off, "I'll be right there."
Diosdado
waited. Pretty soon the voice came through stronger, though panting a little,
saying, "Sorry to keep you waiting but those drunken bums over to the
Bixby place keep running out of drinking money and yelling for the penny. Well.
You were saying?"
"I
have a worry," Diosdado said. "It seems to me there is something
illegal about this magic penny."
There
was silence for a while. Then the voice said with some irritation, "Look,
up there you make laws, down here we make pennies. It's a division of labor.
Don't tell me your troubles, I've got enough of my own."
"But
I have to live with the law," Diosdado said, "and this penny is
clearly against the law. I will tell you my thinking. There are only so many
pennies in the country, an amount fixed by the government people. Therefore, if
you put a large number of them in my pocket you must be taking them out of somebody
else's pocket. If you are a true magician why do you have to be a thief? More,
you must be robbing the poor, because it is chiefly the poor who save pennies.
I have no use for the whole system."
"Didn't
you hear what I said?" the voice came back. "We don't steal the
pennies, we make them."
"Then
you are counterfeiters. Isn't this a violation of the law, to
counterfeit?"
"I don't have to sit here and take your
insults," the voice
said. "These pennies are most emphatically not counterfeits.
We follow the specifications of the mint people of the U.S.
Treasury in making these pennies, so-and-so much copper,
such-and-such percentages of other metals, everything down to
the last decimal point. We use no inferior materials, each
penny we give you is a perfect coin of the realm. There's not a
bad penny in the lot." i
"All
the same, all the same. There are supposed to be a certain number of pennies
and no more. It's not right for me to have the power to add a million or a
billion billion billion, this could upset all figures and banks. It must be
against the law for a peach picker to have the strength to overthrow the whole
money system and also the government."
"You
didn't call me over here to discuss the monetary system. What's really on your
mind, man?"
"I don't want this
penny."
"All right."
"What?"
"I said, all right.
Throw it down here."
Diosdado
drew the coin from his pocket, breathed deeply, and dropped it down the well.
Time passed. There was a sound, not of splashing, rather of a big and drawn-out
yawn, accompanied by a flatted whistling. He thought he heard the ringing of a
cash register from far away.
He
reached into his left pocket. It was filled with a glorious emptiness. He felt
a weight of some long tons lifting from his shoulders.
"This is the second wish?" he said.
"Precisely," the voice said.
"Those who make the first, they always
make the second?"
"Most
always. As soon as they find out they can't spend these pennies, they keep
watching over their shoulders, stop talking to their wives, get funny looks
from the tax collector, and so on."
"Nobody ever keeps the penny?"
"How
it is in other territories I don't know, but since I've been on the job here
there was only one man who didn't try to give it back. He was a gardener and
tree pruner over to La Jolla. Know what happened to him? Interesting case, I
wrote it up for our records. He went around telling everybody in town he had a
nice mama penny that kept making little baby pennies. This is not the kind of
talk people wish to hear from a grown man, an experienced gardener and tree
pruner. They did not wait to see the breeding penny demonstrated, they quick
locked him up in a hospital for people who make wild talk. Naturally, I had to
step in. We couldn't sit back and let this man build big piles of pennies all
over the hospital just to show off, this sort of thing has a tendency to make
people gossip and turn their attention from business. We don't have the
authority to take the penny back unless its owner so requests, but in
emergencies we can change the never ending penny into a never ending something
else. What I changed this penny into was a Life Saver, wild cherry flavor. Now
this man was going around the hospital telling all the doctors what he had in
his pocket was not a mama penny but a mama Life Saver, wild cherry flavor. You
can understand that this just made the doctors more sure they had done right in
locking him up. What did this man begin to do with his self-replenishing Life
Saver? Nobody would look at it. For lack of anything better, he began to eat
the Life Savers. He ate and ate, and always had one more. So far as I know he's
still eating away, all day long and far into the night, and I can tell you he's
getting pretty damn sick of wild cherry. He was originally a bitsy fellow, one
hundred twenty in his stocking feet, and they tell me he just recently passed
two hundred and is still going strong. Good-bye, friend. Maybe you've learned
something from this. You can get
too much of a good thing. But don't write the experience off as a total loss.
You've got something to show for it. Just take a good look around. Good-bye
now, and don't take any wooden—sorry. Got to rush. Those drunks over to Bixby's
are making a racket again. Bye, bye."
Diosdado
looked around his property. He saw a well, a shed, a hut, a mud hollow, a
self-inebriated pig, in that order— nothing new. What did that voice mean, he,
Diosdado, had something to show for it? All he had for it was an arm that was a
hose made from end to end of major ache, and this was not to be shown.
But
then he saw something that had not been there before the trouble-making penny.
Attached to the original hut were two unusually large, very luxurious rooms, or
almost rooms. Add ceilings and finish the walls properly and nobody could take
them for anything but rooms. They were most emphatically not banks, because
though moneys had been deposited in them these moneys were not for withdrawing.
The walls could certainly be finished in the right manner. There would be no
withdrawals from this gone-out-of-business bank.
Herminia
came over to him from the hut and he put his arm around her, saying:
"Woman,
you talk too much, but from time to time you say something. It is true, without
adobe those walls do not work. Whatever the Agriculture Department says, those
bags of sand will rot in the weather and make troubles. I will put plenty of
adobe over the walls, on both sides, also, I will add ceilings, and you will
have the two largest rooms on this side of the San Berdoos. Then my cook will
not go back to Durango and I will always have something to chew on before I
pick my teeth, yes?"
"Agreed," Herminia said. "This
is a business deal not to be turned down," and she put one arm around his
waist, then the other.
For
over a week Diosdado picked no peaches. He worked around the clock, placing
boards to make a roof, mixing adobe and plastering it over the bags and their
wooden supports. Finally the walls, and also the roof, were covered with solid,
substantial, homey-looking adobe. No rains could get in here, and no tax
collectors.
The
afternoon Diosdado finished his labors he walked over to the well with Herminia
and turned to take a good look at the finished structure. It was a real house,
a good house, the best-looking house in the valley.
"This
is a house that could not be paid for in pennies," he said, half into the
well, half toward the wallowing pig, very little for Herminia's ear.
With
her tendency to comment on everything, Herminia said, "There is not enough
money in all the world, pennies or dollars, to pay for this house," and
put her arm around his waist.
He
patted her promise-leavened belly and looked down into the valley toward the
other huts and cabins nested here and there. He thought about a
hundred-twenty-pound man getting to be two hundred on one Life Saver, wild
cherry flavor, and shivered. He wondered how many other homes in this valley
had twenty-thousand-dollar walls, but he was afraid to speculate about this
too much.
Down
in the mud hollow the pig rolled on his back like a vacationing millionaire,
trying, for lack of anything better to do, to punt away the molten centavo of a
sun.
BERNIE THE FAUST
BY WILLIAM TENN
London-bom
William Tenn says, "I went to several colleges, but never got within any
measurable distance of a degree. The only things I didn't study at all were
literature and writing— because I considered them, like courses in breathing
and eating, superfluous." His books include "The Human Angle"
and "Of All Possible Worlds." In the opinion of The
New York Herald Tribune, "Tenn easily outstrips the best of
most science-fiction writers on the counts of
imagination, wit, charm and nicety of
both writing and thinking." The tall Tenn tale that follows is not a
fantasy, despite the word
"Faust" in the title and the Mephistophelean behavior of the unsavory antagonist. It is
out-and-out science ■fiction. And fine, tart, pointed science fiction,
too.
BERNIE
THE FAUST that's what Ricardo calls me. I don't know what I am.
Here I am, I'm sitting in my little
nine-by-six office. I'm reading notices of Government-surplus sales. I'm trying
to decide where lies a possible buck and where lies nothing but more headaches.
So
the office door opens. This little guy with a dirty face, wearing a very dirty,
very wrinkled Palm Beach suit, he walks into my office, and he coughs a bit and
he says:
"Would you be
interested in buying a twenty for a five?"
That was it. I mean, that's
all I had to go on.
I looked him over and I
said, uWha-at?"
He
shuffled his feet and coughed some more. "A twenty," he mumbled.
"A twenty for a five."
I
made him drop his eyes and stare at his shoes. They were lousy, cracked shoes,
lousy and dirty like the rest of him. Every once in a while, his left shoulder
hitched up in a kind of tic. "I give you twenty," he explained to his
shoes, "and I buy a five from you with it. I wind up with five, you wind
up with twenty."
"How did you get into
the building?"
"I just came in,"
he said, a little mixed up.
"You
just came in." I put a nasty, mimicking note in my voice.
"Now you just go right back downstairs and come the hell out. There's a
sign in the lobby—no beggars allowed."
"I'm not begging." He tugged at the
bottom of his jacket.
It was like a guy tryingto straighten out his slept-in pajamas.
"I want to sell you something. A twenty for a five. I give
you----- "
"You want me to call a
cop?"
He
looked very scared. "No. Why should you call a cop? I haven't done
anything to make you call a cop!"
"I'll
call a cop in just a second. I'm giving you fair warning. I just phone down to
the lobby and they'll have a cop up here fast. They don't want beggars in this
building. This is a building for business."
He rubbed his hand against his face, taking a
little dirt off, then he rubbed the hand against the lapel of his jacket and
left the dirt there. "No deal?" he asked. "A twenty for a five?
You buy and sell things. What's the matter with my deal?"
I picked up the phone.
"All
right," he said, holding up the streaky palm of his hand. "I'll go.
I'll go."
"You better. And shut
the door behind you."
"Just
in case you change your mind." He reached into his dirty, wrinkled pants
pocket and pulled out a card. "You can get in touch with me here. Almost
any time during the day."
"Blow," I told
him.
He
reached over, dropped the card on my desk, on top of all the surplus notices,
coughed once or twice, looked at me to see if maybe I was biting. No? No. He
trudged out.
I
picked the card up between the nails of my thumb and forefinger and started to
drop it into the wastebasket.
Then
I stopped. A card. It was just so damned out of the ordinary—a slob like that
with a card. A card, yet.
For
that matter, the whole play was out of the ordinary. I began to be a little
sorry I hadn't let him run through the whole thing. After all, what was he
trying to do but give me an offbeat sales pitch? I can always use an offbeat
sales pitch. I work out of a small office, I buy and sell, but half my stock is
good ideas. I'll use ideas, even from a bum.
The
card was clean and white, except where the smudge from his fingers made a brown
blot. Written across it in a kind of ornate handwriting were the words Mr. Ogo
Eksar. Under that was the
name and the telephone number of a hotel in the Times Square area, not far from
my office. I knew that hotel: not expensive, but not a fleabag either—somewhere
just under the middle line.
There
was a room number in one corner of the card. I stared at it and I felt kind of
funny. I really didn't know.
Although, come to think of
it, why couldn't a panhandler be registered at a hotel? "Don't be a snob, Bernie," I told
myself.
Twenty
for five. What kind of panhandling pitch would follow it? I couldn't get it out
of my mind!
There
was only one thing to do. Ask somebody about it. Ricardo? A big college
professor, after all. One of my best contacts.
He'd
thrown a lot my way—a tip on the college building program that was worth a
painless fifteen hundred, an office-equipment disposal from the United Nations,
stuff like that. And any time I had any questions that needed a college
education, he was on tap. All for the couple, three hundred, he got out of me
in commissions.
I
looked at my watch. Ricardo would be in his office now, marking papers or
whatever it is he does there. I dialed his number.
"Ogo
Eksar?" he repeated after me. "Sounds like a Finnish name. Or maybe
Estonian. From the eastern Baltic, I'd say."
"Forget
that part," I said. "This is all I care about." And I told him
about the twenty-for-five offer.
He laughed. "That
thing again!"
"Some old hustle that
the Greeks pulled on the Egyptians?"
"No.
Something the Americans pulled. And not a con game. During the Depression, a
New York newspaper sent a reporter around the city with a twenty-dollar bill
which he offered to sell for exactly one dollar. There were no takers. The
point being that even with people out of work and on the verge of starvation,
they were so intent on not being suckers that they turned down an easy profit
of nineteen-hundred percent."
"Twenty for one? This
was twenty for five."
"Oh,
well, you know, Bernie, inflation," he said, laughing again. "And
these days it's more likely to be a television show."
"Television?
You should have seen the way the guy was dressed!"
"Just an extra,
logical touch to make people refuse to take the offer seriously. University
research people operate much
the same way. A few years back, a group of sociologists began
an investigation of the public's reaction to sidewalk solicitors in
charity drives. You know, those people who jingle little boxes
on street corners: help the two-headed
children, relief
for flood-ravaged Atlantis? Well, they dressed up some of
their students "
"You think he was on
the level, then, this guy?"
"I
think there is a good chance that he was. I don't see why he would have left
his card with you, though."
"That
I can figure—now. If it's a TV stunt, there must be a lot of other angles
wrapped up in it. A giveaway show with cars, refrigerators, a castle in
Scotland, all kinds of loot."
"A giveaway show?
Well, yes—it could be."
I
hung up, took a deep breath, and called Eksar's hotel. He was registered there
all right. And he'd just come in.
I
went downstairs fast and took a cab. Who knew what other connections he'd made
by now?
Going
up in the elevator, I kept wondering. How did I go from the twenty-dollar bill
to the real big stuff, the TV giveaway stuff, without letting Eksar know that I
was on to what it was all about? Well, maybe I'd be lucky. Maybe he'd give me
an opening.
I
knocked on the door. When he said "Come in," I went in. But for a
second or two I couldn't see a thing.
It
was a little room, like all the rooms in that hotel, little and smelly and
stuffy. But he didn't have the lights on, any electric lights. The window shade
was pulled all the way down.
When
my eyes got used to the dark, I was able to pick out this Ogo Eksar character.
He was sitting on the bed, on the side nearest me. He was still wearing that
crazy rumpled Palm Beach suit.
And
you know what? He was watching a program on a funny little portable TV set that
he had on the bureau. Color TV. Only it wasn't working right. There were no
faces, no pictures, nothing but colors chasing around. A big blob of red, a big
blob of orange and a wiggly border of blue and green and black. A voice was
talking from it, but all the words were fouled up: uWah-wah} de-wah, de-wan."
Just
as I went in, he turned it off. "Times Square is a bad neighborhood for
TV," I told him. "Too much interference."
"Yes,"
he said. "Too much interference." He closed up the set and put it
away. I wished I'd seen it when it was working right.
Funny
thing, you know? I would have expected a smell of liquor in the room, I would
have expected to see a couple of empties in the tin trash basket near the
bureau. Not a sign.
The
only smell in the room was a smell I couldn't recognize. I guess it was the smell of Eksar himself, concentrated.
"Hi,"
I said, feeling a little uncomfortable because of the way I'd been with him
back in the office. So rough I'd been.
He
stayed on the bed. "I've got the twenty," he said. "You've got
the five?"
"Oh,
I guess I've got the five, all right," I said, looking in my wallet hard
and trying to be funny. He didn't say a word, didn't even invite me to sit
down. I pulled out a bill. "OK?"
He
leaned forward and stared, as if he could see—in all that dimness—what kind of
a bill it was. "OK," he said. "But I'll want a receipt. A
notarized receipt."
Well,
what the hell, I thought, a notarized receipt. "Then we'll have to go
down. There's a druggist on 45th."
"Let's
go," he said, getting to his feet with several small coughs that came one,
two, three, four, right after one another.
On
the way to the druggist, I stopped in a stationery store and bought a book of
blank receipts. I filled out most of one right there. New York, N.Y., and the
date. Received from Mr. Ogo
Eksar the sum of twenty dollars for a five-dollar bill
bearing
the serial number................................
"That OK?" I asked
him.
"I'm putting in the serial number to make it look as if you want that
particular bill, you know, what the lawyers call the value-received
angle."
He
screwed his head around and read the receipt. Then he checked the serial number
of the bill I was holding. He nodded.
We
had to wait for the druggist to get through with a couple of customers. When I
signed the receipt, he read it to himself, shrugged and went ahead and stamped
it with his seal.
I paid him the two bits; I
was the one making the profit.
Eksar
slid a crisp new twenty to me along the counter. He watched while I held it up
to the light, first one side, then the other.
"Good bill?" he
asked.
"Yes.
You understand: I don't know you, I don't know your money."
"Sure.
I'd do it myself with a stranger." He put the receipt and my five-dollar
bill in his pocket and started to walk away.
"Hey," I said.
"You in a hurry?"
"No."
He stopped, looking puzzled. "No hurry. But you've got the twenty for a
five. We made the deal. It's all over."
"All
right, so we made the deal. How about a cup of coffee?"
He hesitated.
"It's
on me," I told him. "I'll be a big shot for a dime. Come on, let's
have a cup of coffee."
Now
he looked worried. "You don't want to back out? I've got the receipt. It's
all notarized. I gave you a twenty, you gave me a five. We made a deal."
"It's
a deal, it's a deal," I said, shoving him into an empty booth. "It's
a deal, it's all signed, sealed and delivered. Nobody's backing out. I just
want to buy you a cup of coffee."
His
face cleared up, all the way through that dirt. "No coffee. Soup. I'll
have some mushroom soup."
"Fine, fine. Soup, coffee, I don't care.
I'll have coffee."
I
sat there and studied him. He hunched over the soup and dragged it into his
mouth, spoonful after spoonful, the living picture of a bum who hadn't eaten
all day. But pure essence of bum, triple-distilled, the label of a fine old
firm.
A
guy like this should be lying in a doorway trying to say no to a cop's night
stick, he should be coughing his alcoholic guts out. He shouldn't be living in
a real honest-to-God hotel, or giving me a twenty for a five, or eating
anything as respectable as mushroom soup.
But
it made sense. A TV giveaway show, they want to do this, they hire a damn good
actor, the best money can buy, to toss their dough away. A guy who'll be so
good a bum that people'll just laugh in his face when he tries to give them a
deal with a profit.
"You don't want to buy
anything else?" I asked him.
He
held the spoon halfway to his mouth and stared at me suspiciously. "Like
what?"
"Oh,
I don't know. Like maybe you want to buy a ten for a fifty. Or a twenty for a
hundred dollars?"
He
thought about it, Eksar did. Then he went back to his soup, shoveling away.
"That's no deal," he said contemptuously. "What kind of deal is
that?"
"Excuse
me for living. I just thought I'd ask. I wasn't trying to take advantage of
you." I lit a cigarette and waited.
My
friend with the dirty face finished the soup and reached for a paper napkin. He
wiped his lips. I watched him: he didn't smudge a spot of the grime around his
mouth. He just blotted up the drops of soup. He was dainty in his own special
way.
"Nothing
else you want to buy? I'm here, I've got time right now. Anything else on your
mind, we might as well look into it."
He balled up the paper napkin and dropped it
into the soup plate. It got wet. He'd eaten all the mushrooms and left the
soup.
"The Golden Gate Bridge," he said
all of a sudden. I dropped the cigarette. "What?"
"The
Golden Gate Bridge. The one in San Francisco. I'll buy that. I'll buy it for .
. ." he lifted his eyes to the fluorescent fixtures in the ceiling and
thought for a couple of seconds ". . . say a hundred and a quarter. A
hundred and twenty-five dollars. Cash on the barrel."
"Why
the Golden Gate Bridge?" I asked him like an idiot.
"That's
the one I want. You asked me what else I wanted to buy—well, that's what else.
The Golden Gate Bridge."
"What's
the matter with the George Washington Bridge? It's right here in New York, it's
across the Hudson River. Why buy something all the way out on the Coast?"
He
grinned at me as if he admired my cleverness. "Oh, no," he said,
twitching his left shoulder hard. Up, down, up, down. "I know what I want.
The Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco. A hundred and a quarter. Take it or
leaye it."
"I'll
take it. If that's what you want, you're the doctor. But look—all I can sell
you is my share of the Golden Gate Bridge, whatever equity in it I may happen
to own."
He
nodded. "I want a receipt. Put that down on the receipt."
I
put it down on the receipt. And back we went. The druggist notarized the
receipt, shoved the stamping outfit into the drawer under the counter and
turned his back on us. Eksar counted out six twenties and one five from a big
roll of bills, all of them starchy new. He put the roll back into his pants
pocket and started away again.
"More coffee?" I asked, catching
up. "A refill on the soup?"
He
turned a very puzzled look at me and kind of twitched all over. "Why? What
do you want to sell now?"
I shrugged. "What do you want to buy?
You name it. Let's see what other deals we can work out."
This
was all taking one hell of a lot of time, but I had no complaints. I'd made a
hundred and forty dollars in fifteen minutes. Say a hundred and thirty-eight
fifty, if you deducted expenses such as notary fees, coffee, soup—all
legitimate expenses, all low. I had no complaints.
But
I was waiting for the big one. There had to be a big one.
Of
course, it could maybe wait until the TV program itself. They'd be asking me
what was on my mind when I was selling Eksar all that crap, and I'd be
explaining, and they'd start handing out refrigerators and gift certificates for
Tiffany's and ...
Eksar
had said something while I was away in cloud-land. Something damn unfamiliar. I
asked him to say it again.
"The
Sea of Azov," he told me. "In Russia. I'll give you three hundred and
eighty dollars for it."
I'd
never heard of the place. I pursed my lips and thought for a second. A funny
amount—three hundred and eighty. And for a whole damn sea. I tried an angle.
"Make it four hundred
and you've got a deal."
He
began coughing his head off, and he looked mad. "What's the matter,"
he asked between coughs, "three hundred and eighty is a bad price? It's a
small sea, one of the smallest. It's only fourteen-thousand square miles. And
do you know what the maximum depth is?"
I looked wise. "It's
deep enough."
"Forty-nine
feet," Eksar shouted. "That's all, forty-nine feet! Where are you
going to do better than three hundred and eighty for a sea like that?"
"Take
it easy," I said, patting his dirty shoulder. "Let's split the
difference. You say three eighty, I want four hundred. How about leaving it at
three ninety?" I didn't really care: ten bucks more, ten bucks less. But I
wanted to see what would happen.
He
calmed down. "Three hundred and ninety dollars for the Sea of Azov,"
he muttered to himself, a little sore at being a sucker, at being taken.
"All I want is the sea itself j it's not as if I'm asking you to throw in
the Kerch Strait, or maybe a port like Taganrog or Osipenko . . ."
"Tell
you what." I held up my hands. "I don't want to be hard. Give me my
three ninety and I'll throw in the Kerch Strait as a bonus. Now how about
that?"
He studied the idea. He sniffled. He wiped
his nose with the back of his hand. "All right," he said, finally.
"It's a deal. Azov and the Kerch Strait for three hundred
ninety."
Bang!
went the druggist's stamp. The bangs were getting louder.
Eksar
paid me with six fifties, four twenties and a ten, all new-looking bills from
that thick roll in his pants pocket.
I
thought about the fifties still on the roll, and I felt the spit start to ball
up in my mouth.
"OK," I said.
"Now what?"
"You still
selling?"
"For the right price,
sure. You name it."
"There's
lots of stuff I could use," he sighed. "But do I need it right now?
That's what I have to ask myself."
"Right
now is when you've got a chance to buy it. Later— who knows? I may not be
around, there may be other guys bidding against you, all kinds of things can
happen." I waited awhile, but he just kept scowling and coughing.
"How about Australia?" I suggested. "Could you use Australia for,
say, five hundred bucks? Or Antarctica? I could give you a real nice deal on
Antarctica,"
He
looked interested. "Antarctica? What would you want for it? No—I'm not
getting anywhere. A little piece here, a little piece there. It all costs so
much."
"You're
getting damn favorable prices, buddy, and you know it. You couldn't do better
buying at wholesale."
"Then how about wholesale? How much for
the whole thing?"
I
shook my head. "I don't know what you're talking about. What whole
thing?"
He looked
impatient. "The whole thing. The world. Earth."
"Hey," I said.
"That's a lot."
"Well,
I'm tired of buying a piece at a time. Will you give me a wholesale price if I
buy it all?"
I
shook my head, kind of in and out, not yes, not no. Money was coming up, the
big money. This was where I was supposed to laugh in his face and walk away. I
didn't even crack a smile. "For the whole planet—sure, you're entitled to
a wholesale price. But what is it, I mean, exactly what do you want to buy?"
"Earth,"
he said, moving close to me so that I could smell his stinking breath. "I
want to buy Earth. Lock, stock and barrel."
"It's got to be a good price. I'll be
selling out completely."
"I'll
make it a good price. But this is the deal. I pay two thousand dollars, cash. I
get Earth, the whole planet, and you have to throw in some stuff on the Moon.
Fishing rights, mineral rights and rights to buried treasure. How about
it?"
"It's a hell of a
lot."
"I know it's a
lot," he agreed. "But I'm paying a lot."
"Not for what you're
asking. Let me think about it."
This
was the big deal, the big giveaway. I didn't know how much money the TV people
had given him to fool around with, but I was pretty sure two thousand was just
a starting point. Only what was a sensible, businesslike price for the whole
world?
I
mustn't be made to look like a penny-ante chiseler on TV. There was a top
figure Eksar had been given by the program director.
"You
really want the whole thing," I said, turning back to him, "the Earth
and the Moon?"
He held up a dirty hand. "Not all the
Moon. Just those rights on it. The rest of the Moon you can keep."
"It's
still a lot. You've got to go a hell of a lot higher than two thousand dollars
for any hunk of real estate that big."
Eksar
began wrinkling and twitching. "How—how much higher?"
"Well,
let's not kid each other. This is the big time now! We're not talking about
bridges or rivers or seas. This is a whole world and part of another that
you're buying. It takes dough. You've got to be prepared to spend dough."
"How
much?" He looked as if he were jumping up and down inside his dirty Palm
Beach suit. People going in and out of the store kept staring at us. "How much?" he whispered.
"Fifty thousand. It's a damn low price.
And you know it."
Eksar
went limp all over. Even his weird eyes seemed to sag. "You're
crazy," he said in a low, hopeless voice. "You're out of your
head."
He
turned and started for the revolving door, walking in a kind of used-up way
that told me I'd really gone over the line. He didn't look back once. He just
wanted to get far, far away.
I
grabbed the bottom of his filthy jacket and held on tight.
"Look,
Eksar," I said, fast, as he pulled. "I went over your budget, way
over, I can see that. But you know you can do better than two thousand. I want
as much as I can get. What the hell, I'm taking time out to bother with you.
How many other guys would?"
That
got him. He cocked his head, then began nodding. I let go of his jacket as he
came around. We were connecting again!
"Good.
You level with me, and I'll level with you. Go up a little higher. What's your
best price? What's the best you can do?"
He stared down the street, thinking, and his
tongue came out and licked at the side of his dirty mouth. His tongue was dirty,
too. I mean that! Some kind of black stuff, grease or grime, was all over his
tongue.
"How
about," he said, after a while, "how about twenty-five hundred?
That's as high as I can go. I don't have another cent."
He was like me: he was a
natural bargainer.
"You
can go to three thousand," I urged. "How much is three thousand? Only
another five hundred. Look what you get for it. Earth, the whole planet, and
fishing and mineral rights and buried treasure, all that stuff on the Moon.
How's about it?"
"I
can't. I just can't. I wish I could." He shook his head as if to shake
loose all those tics and twitches. "Maybe this way. I'll go as high as
twenty-six hundred. For that, will you give me Earth and just fishing rights
and buried-treasure rights on the Moon? You keep the mineral rights. I'll do
without them."
"Make
it twenty-eight hundred and you can have the mineral rights, too. You want
them, I can tell you do. Treat yourself. Just two hundred bucks more, and you
can have them."
"I
can't have everything. Some things cost too much. How about twenty-six fifty,
without the mineral rights and without the buried-treasure rights?"
We were both really
swinging now. I could feel it.
"This
is my absolutely last offer," I told him. "I can't spend all day on
this. I'll go down to twenty-seven hundred and fifty, and not a penny less. For
that, I'll give you Earth and just fishing rights on the Moon. Or just
buried-treasure rights. You pick whichever one you want."
"All
right," he said. "You're a hard man; we'll do it your way."
"Twenty-seven
fifty for the Earth and either fishing or buried-treasure rights on the
Moon?"
"No, twenty-seven even, and no rights on
the Moon. I'll forget about that. Twenty-seven even, and all I get is the
Earth."
"Deal!" I sang
out, and we struck hands. We shook on it.
Then,
with my arm around his shoulders—what did I care about the dirt on his clothes
when the guy was worth twenty-seven hundred dollars to me?—we marched back to
the drugstore.
"I want a
receipt," he reminded me.
"Right,"
I said. "But I put the same stuff on it: that I'm selling you whatever
equity I own or have a right to sell. You're getting a lot for your
money."
"You're
getting a lot of money for what you're selling," he came right back. I
liked him. Twitches and dirt or not, he was my kind of guy.
We
got back to the druggist for notarization, and, honest, I've never seen a man
look more disgusted in my life. "Business is good, huh?" he said.
"You two are sure hotting it up."
"Listen,
you," I told him. "You just notarize." I showed the receipt to
Eksar. "This the way you want it?"
He
studied it, coughing. "Whatever equity you own or have a right to sell.
All right. And put in, you know, in your capacity as sales agent, your
professional capacity."
I changed the receipt and
signed it. The druggist notarized.
Eksar
brought that lump of money out of his pants pocket. He counted out fifty-four
crisp new fifties and laid them on the glass counter. Then he picked up the
receipt, folded it and put it away. He started for the door.
I
grabbed up the money and went with him. "Anything else?"
"Nothing
else," he said. "It's all over. We made our deal." "I know,
but we might find something else, another item." "There's nothing
else to find. We made our deal." And his voice told me he really meant it.
It didn't have a trace of the
tell-me-more
whine that you've got to hear before there's business.
I
came to a stop and watched him push out through the revolving door. He went
right out into the street and turned left and kept moving, all fast, as if he
was in a hell of a hurry.
There
was no more business. OK. I had thirty-two hundred and thirty dollars in my
wallet that I'd made in one morning.
But
how good had I really been? I mean, what was the top figure in the show's
budget? How close had I come to it?
I had a contact who maybe
could find out—Morris Burlap.
Morris
Burlap is in business like me, only he's a theatrical agent, sharp, real sharp.
Instead of selling a load of used copper wire, say, or an option on a corner
lot in Brooklyn, he sells talent. He sells a bunch of dancers to a hotel in the
mountains, a piano player to a bar, a disc jockey or a comic to late-night
radio. The reason he's called Morris Burlap is because of these heavy
Harris-tweed suits he wears winter and summer, every day in the year. They
reinforce the image, he says.
I called him from a telephone booth near the
entrance and
filled him in on the giveaway show. "Now, what I want to find
out----- "
"Nothing
to find out," he cut in. "There's no such show, Bernie."
"There sure as hell
is, Morris. One you haven't heard of."
"There's
no such show. Not in the works, not being rehearsed, not anywhere. Look:
before a show gets to where it's handing out this kind of dough, it's got to
have a slot, it's got to have air time all bought. And before it even buys air
time, a packager has prepared a pilot. By then I'd have gotten a casting
call—I'd have heard about it a dozen different ways. Don't try to tell me my
business, Bernie; when I say there's no such show, there's no such show."
So
damn positive he was. I had a crazy idea all of a sudden and turned it off. No.
Not that. No.
"Then it's a newspaper or college
research thing, like Ricardo said?"
He
thought it over. I was willing to sit in that stuffy telephone
booth and wait; Morris Burlap has a good head. "Those damn documents,
those receipts, newspapers and colleges doing research don't operate that way.
And nuts don't either. I think you're being taken, Bernie. How you're
being taken, I don't know, but you're being taken."
That
was enough for me. Morris Burlap can smell a hustle through 16 feet of
rock-wool insulation. He's never wrong. Never.
I hung up, sat, thought. The crazy idea came
back and exploded.
A
bunch of characters from outer space, say they want Earth. They want it for a
colony, for a vacation resort, who the hell knows what they want it for? They
got their reasons. They're strong enough and advanced enough to come right down
and take over. But they don't want to do it cold. They need a legal leg.
All
right. These characters from outer space, maybe all they had to have was a
piece of paper from just one genuine, accredited human being, signing the Earth
over to them. No, that couldn't be right. Any piece of paper? Signed by any Joe
Jerk?
I jammed a dime into the telephone and called
Ricardo's college. He wasn't in. I told
the'switchboard girl it was very important: she said, all right, she'd ring
around and try to spot him.
All
that stuff, I kept thinking, the Golden Gate Bridge, the
Sea of Azov—they were as much a part of the hook as the twenty-for-a-five
routine. There's one sure test of what an operator is really after: when he
stops talking, closes up shop and goes away.
With
Eksar, it had been the Earth. All that baloney about extra rights on the Moon!
They were put in to cover up the real thing he was after, for extra bargaining
power.
That's
how Eksar had worked on me. It was like he'd made a special study of how I
operate. From me alone, he had to buy.
But why me?
All
that stuff on the receipt, about my equity, about my professional capacity,
what the hell did it mean? I don't own Earth; I'm not in the planet-selling
business. You have to own a planet before you can sell it. That's law.
So
what could I have sold Eksar? I don't own any real estate. Are they going to
take over my office, claim the piece of sidewalk I walk on, attach the stool in
the diner where I have my coffee?
That
brought me back to my first question. Who was this "they"? Who the
holy hell were "they"?
The
switchboard girl finally dug up Ricardo. He was irritated. "I'm in the
middle of a faculty meeting, Bernie. Call you back?"
"Just
listen a second," I begged. "I'm in something, I don't know whether
I'm coming or going. I've got to have some advice."
Talking
fast—I could hear a lot of big-shot voices in the background—I ran through the
story from the time I'd called him in the morning. What Eksar looked like and
smelled like, the funny portable color-TV he had, the way he'd dropped all
those Moon rights and gone charging off once he'd been sure of the Earth. What
Morris Burlap had said, the suspicions I'd been building up, everything.
"Only thing is," I laughed a little to show that maybe I wasn't
really serious about it, "who am I to make such a deal, huh?"
He
seemed to be thinking hard for a while. "I don't know, Bernie, it's
possible. It does fit together. There's the UN aspect."
"UN aspect? Which UN
aspect?"
"The UN aspect of the
situation. The—uh—study of the
UN
on which we collaborated two years ago." He was using double talk because
of the college people around him. But I got it. I got it.
Eksar
must have known all along about the deal that Ricardo had thrown my way,
getting rid of old, used-up office equipment for the United Nations here in New
York. They'd given me what they called an authorizing document. In a file
somewhere there was a piece of paper, United Nations stationery, saying that I
was their authorized sales agent for surplus, second-hand equipment and
installations.
Talk about a legal leg!
"You
think it'll stand up?" I asked Ricardo. "I can see how the Earth is
second-hand equipment and installations. But surplus?"
"International
law is a tangled field, Bernie. And this might be even more complex. You'd be
wise to do something about it."
"But what? What should
I do, Ricardo?"
"Bernie,"
he said, sounding sore as hell, "I told you I'm in a faculty meeting, damn
it! A faculty meeting!" And he hung up.
I
ran out of the drugstore like a wild man and grabbed a cab back to Eksar's
hotel.
What was I most afraid of? I didn't know: I
was so hysterical. This thing was too big-time for a little guy like me, too
damn dangerously big-time. It would put my name up in lights as the biggest
sellout sucker in history. Who could ever trust me again to make a deal? I had
the feeling like somebody had asked me to sell him a snapshot, and I'd said
sure, and it turned out to be a picture of the Nike Zeus, you know, one of
those top-secret atomic missiles. Like I'd sold out my country by mistake. Only
this was worse: I'd sold out my whole goddamn world. I had to buy it back—I had
to!
When I got to Eksar's room, I knew he was
about ready to check out. He was shoving his funny portable TV in one of those
cheap leather grips they sell in chain stores. I left the door open, for the
light.
"We
made our deal," he said. "It's over. No more deals."
I
stood there, blocking his way. "Eksar," I told him, "listen to
what I figured out. First, you're not human. Like me, I mean."
"I'm
a hell of a lot more human than you, buddy boy."
"Maybe. But you're not from Earth—that's
my point. Why
you need Earth---- "
"I
don't need it. I'm an agent. I represent
someone."
And
there it was, straight out, you are right, Morris Burlap! I stared into his
fish eyes, now practically pushing into my face. I wouldn't get out of the way.
"You're an agent for someone," I repeated slowly. "Who? What do
they want Earth for?"
"That's
their business. I'm an agent. I just buy for them." "You work on a
commission?" "I'm not in business for my health."
You sure as hell aren't in
it for your health, I
thought. That
cough,
those tics and twitches------------- Then I realized what they
meant. This wasn't the kind of air he was
used to. Like if I go up to Canada, right away I'm down with diarrhea. It's the
water or something.
The
dirt on his face was a kind of sun-tan oil! A protection against our sunlight.
Blinds pulled down, face smeared over— and dirt all over his clothes so they'd
fit in with his face.
Eksar
was no bum. He was anything but. I was the bum. Think fast, Bernie, I said to
myself. This guy took you, and big!
"How
much you work on—ten percent?" No answer: he leaned against me, and he
breathed and he twitched. "I'll top any deal you have, Eksar. You know
what I'll give you? Fifteen percent! I hate to see a guy running back and forth
for a lousy ten percent."
"What about ethics?" he said
hoarsely. "I got a client."
"Look
who's bringing up ethics! A guy goes out to buy the whole damn Earth for
twenty-seven hundred! You call that ethics?"
Now he got sore. He set down the grip and
punched his fist into his hand. "No, I call that business. A deal. I
offer, you take. You go away happy, you feel you made out. All of a sudden,
here you are back, crying you didn't mean it, you sold too much for the price.
Too bad! I got ethics: I don't screw my client for a crybaby."
"I'm
not a crybaby. I'm just a poor schnook trying to scratch out a living. Here,
I'm up against a big-time operator from another world with all kinds of angles
and gimmicks going for him."
"You
had these angles, these gimmicks, you wouldn't use them?"
"Certain
things I wouldn't do. Don't laugh, Eksar, I mean it. I wouldn't hustle a guy in
an iron lung. I wouldn't hustle a poor schnook with a hole-in-the-wall office
to sell out his entire planet."
"You
really sold," he said. "That receipt will stand up anywhere. And we
got the machinery to make it stand up. Once my client takes possession, the
human race is finished, it's kaput, forget about it. And you're Mr.
Patsy."
It
was hot in that hotel-room doorway, and I was sweating like crazy. But I was
feeling better. All of a sudden, I'd got the message that Eksar wanted to do
business with me. I grinned at him.
He
changed color a little under all that dirt. "What's your offer,
anyway?" he asked, coughing. "Name a figure."
"You name one. You got the property, I got the
dough."
"Aah!"
he grunted impatiently, and pushed me out of the way. He was strong] I ran after him to the elevator.
"How
much you want, Eksar?" I asked him as we were going down.
A
shrug. "I got a planet, and I got a buyer for it. You, you're in a jam.
The one in a pickle is the one who's got to tickle."
The
louse! For every one of my moves, he knew the countermove.
He
checked out and I followed him into the street. Down Broadway we went, me
offering him the thirty-two hundred and thirty he'd paid me, him saying he
couldn't make a living out of shoving the same amount of money back and forth
all day. "Thirty-four?" I offered. "I mean, you know,
thirty-four fifty?" He just kept walking.
If
I didn't get him to name a figure, any figure, I'd be dead.
I
ran in front of him. "Eksar, let's stop hustling each other. If you didn't
want to sell, you wouldn't be talking to me in the first place. You name a
figure. Whatever it is, I'll pay it."
That
got a reaction. "You mean it? You won't try to chisel?"
"How can I chisel? I'm
over a barrel."
"OK,
then. I'll give you a break and save myself a long trip back to my client.
What's fair for you and fair for me and fair all around? Let's say eight
thousand even?"
Eight
thousand—it was almost exactly what I had in the bank. He knew my bank account
cold, up to the last statement.
He
knew my thoughts cold, too. "You're going to do business with a guy,"
he said, between coughs, "you check into him a little. You got eight
thousand and change. It's not much for saving a guy's neck."
I
was boiling. "Not much? Then let me set you straight, you Florence goddamn
Nightingale! You're not getting it! A little skin I know maybe I have to give
up. But not every cent I own, not for you, not for Earth, not for
anybody!"
A cop came up close to see
why I was yelling, and I had to calm down until he went away again. "Help!
Police! Aliens invading us!" I almost screamed out. What would the street
we were standing on look like in ten years if I didn't talk Eksar out of that
receipt?
"Eksar,
your client takes over Earth waving my receipt— I'll be hung high. But I've got
only one life, and my life is buying and selling. I can't buy and sell without
capital. Take my capital away, and it makes no difference to me who owns Earth
and who doesn't."
"Who the hell do you
think you're kidding?" he said.
"I'm
not kidding anybody. Honest, it's the truth. Take my capital away, and it makes
no difference if I'm alive or if I'm dead."
That
last bit of hustle seemed to have reached him. Listen, there were practically
tears in my eyes the way I was singing it. How much capital did I need, he
wanted to know—five hundred? I told him I couldn't operate one single day with
less than seven times that. He asked me if I was really seriously trying to buy
my lousy little planet back—or was today my birthday and I was expecting a
present from him? "Don't give your presents to me," I told him.
"Give them to fat people. They're better than going on a diet."
And
so we went. Both of us talking ourselves blue in the face, swearing by
everything, arguing and bargaining, wheeling and dealing. It was touch and go
who was going to give up first.
But
neither of us did. We both held out until we reached what I'd figured pretty
early we were going to wind up with, maybe a little bit more.
Six thousand, one hundred
and fifty dollars.
That
was the price over and above what Eksar had given me. The final deal. Listen,
it could have been worse.
Even
so, we almost broke up when we began talking payment.
"Your bank's not far. We could get there
before closing." "Why walk myself into a heart attack? My check's
good as gold."
"Who
wants a piece of paper? I want cash. Cash is definite."
Finally,
I managed to talk him into a check. I wrote it out; he took it and gave me the
receipts, all of them. Every last receipt I'd signed. Then he picked up his
little satchel and marched away.
Straight
down Broadway, without even a goodbye. All business, Eksar was, nothing but
business. He didn't look back once.
All business. I found out next morning he'd gone
right to the bank and had my check certified before closing time. What do you
think of that? I couldn't do a damn thing: I was out six thousand, one hundred
and fifty dollars. Just for talking to someone.
Ricardo
said I was a Faust. I walked out of the bank, beating my head with my fist, and
I called up him and Morris Burlap and asked them to have lunch with me. I went
over the whole story with them in an expensive place that Ricardo picked out.
"You're a Faust," he said.
"What Faust?" I asked him.
"Who Faust? How Faust?"
So
naturally he had to tell us all about Faust. Only I was a new kind of Faust, a 20th Century—American one. The other Fausts, they wanted to know everything.
I wanted to own everything.
"But
I didn't wind up owning," I pointed out. "I got taken. Six thousand,
one hundred and fifty dollars' worth I got taken."
Ricardo chuckled and leaned back in his
chair. "O my sweet gold," he said under his breath. "O my sweet
gold." "What?"
"A quotation, Bernie. From Marlowe's The Tragical History of Dr. Faustus. I forget the context, but it seems apt. l0 my sweet gold.'"
I
looked from him to Morris Burlap, but nobody can ever tell when Morris Burlap
is puzzled. As a matter of fact, he looks more like a professor than Ricardo,
him with those thick Harris tweeds and that heavy, thinking look. Ricardo is,
you know, a bit too natty.
The
two of them added up to all the brains and sharpness a guy could ask for.
That's why I was paying out an arm and a leg for this lunch, on top of all my
losses with Eksar.
"Morris, tell the
truth. You understand him?"
"What's there to understand, Bernie? A
quote about the sweet gold? It might be the answer, right there."
Now
I looked at Ricardo. He was eating away at a creamy Italian pudding. Two bucks
even, those puddings cost in that place.
"Let's
say he was an alien," Morris Burlap said. "Let's say he came from
somewhere in outer space. OK. Now what would an alien want with U. S. dollars?
What's the rate of exchange out there?"
"You
mean he needed it to buy some merchandise here on Earth?"
"That's exactly what I mean. But what kind of merchandise, that's the question. What could Earth have that he'd
want?"
Ricardo
finished the pudding and wiped his lips with a napkin. "I think you're on
the right track, Morris," he said, and I swung my attention back to him.
"We can postulate a civilization far in advance of our own. One that would
feel we're not quite ready to know about them. One that has placed primitive
little Earth strictly off limits—a restriction only desperate criminals dare
ignore."
"From
where come criminals, Ricardo, if they're so advanced?"
"Laws produce
lawbreakers, Bernie, like hens produce eggs.
Civilization
has nothing to do with it. I'm beginning to see Eksar now. An unprincipled
adventurer, a star-man version of those cutthroats who sailed the South Pacific
a hundred years or more ago. Once in a while, a ship would smash upon the coral
reefs, and a bloody opportunist out of Boston would be stranded for life among
primitive, backward tribesmen. I'm sure you can fill in the rest."
"No, I can't. And if you don't mind, Ricardo----- "
Morris
Burlap said he'd like another brandy. I ordered it. He came as close to smiling
as Morris Burlap ever does and leaned toward me confidentially. "Ricardo's
got it, Bernie. Put yourself in this guy Eksar's position. He wraps up his
spaceship on a dirty little planet which it's against the law to be near in the
first place. He can make some half-assed repairs with merchandise that's
available here—but he has to buy the stuff. Any noise, any uproar, and he'll be
grabbed for a Federal rap in outer space. Say you're Eksar, what do you
do?"
I
could see it now. "I'd peddle and I'd parlay. Copper bracelets, strings of
beads, dollars—whatever I had to lay my hands on to buy the native merchandise,
I'd peddle and I'd parlay in deal after deal. Maybe I'd start with a piece of
equipment from the ship, then I'd find some novelty item that the natives would
go for. But all this is Earth
business know-how, human business know-how."
"Bernie,"
Ricardo told me, "Indians once traded pretty little shells for beaver
pelts at the exact spot where the stock exchange now stands. Some kind of
business goes on in Eksar's world, I assure you, but its simplest form would
make one of our corporate mergers look like a game of potsy on the
sidewalk."
Well
I'd wanted to figure it out. "So I was marked as his fish all the way. I
was screwed and blued and tattooed," I mumbled, "by a hustler
superman."
Ricardo
nodded. "By a businessman's Mephistopheles fleeing the thunderbolts of
heaven. He needed to double his money one more time and he'd have enough to
repair his ship. He had at his disposal a fantastic sophistication in all the
ways of commerce."
"What Ricardo's saying," came an
almost soft voice from Morris Burlap, "is the guy who beat you up was a
whole lot bigger than you."
My
shoulders felt loose, like they were sliding down off my arms. "What the
hell," I said. "You get stepped on by a horse or you get stepped on
by an elephant. You're still stepped on."
I paid the check, got
myself together and went away.
Then
I began to wonder if maybe this was really the story after all. They both
enjoyed seeing me up there as an interplanetary jerk. Ricardo's a brilliant
guy, Morris Burlap's sharp as hell, but so what? Ideas, yes. Facts, no.
So here's a fact.
My
bank statement came at the end of the month with that canceled check I'd given
Eksar. It had been endorsed by a big store in the Cortlandt Street area. I know
that store. I've dealt with them. I went down and asked them about it. 1
They
handle mostly marked-down, surplus electronic equipment. That's what they said
Eksar had bought. A walloping big order of transistors and transformers,
resistors and printed circuits, electronic tubes, wiring, tools, gimmicks like
that. All mixed up, they said, a lot of components that just didn't go
together. He'd given the clerk the impression that he had an emergency job to
do—and he'd take as close as he could get to the things he actually needed.
He'd paid a lot of money for freight charges: delivery was to some backwoods
town in northern Canada.
That's a fact, now, I have to admit it. But
here's another one.
I've
dealt with that store, like I said. Their prices are the lowest in the
neighborhood. And why is it, do you think, they can sell so cheap? There's only
one answer: because they buy so cheap. They buy at the lowest prices; they
don't give a damn about quality: all they want to know is, how much markup?
I've personally sold them job lots of electronic junk that I couldn't unload
anywhere else, condemned stuff, badly wired stuff, stuff that was almost
dangerous—it's a place to sell to when you've given up on making a profit
because you yourself have been stuck with inferior merchandise in the first
place.
You get the picture? It
makes me feel rosy all over.
There
is Eksar out in space, the way I see it. He's fixed up his ship, good enough to
travel, and he's on his way to his next big deal. The motors are humming, the
ship is running, and he's sitting there with a big smile on his dirty face:
he's thinking how he took me, how easy it was.
He's laughing his head off.
All
of a sudden, there's a screech and a smell of burning. That circuit that's
running the front motor, a wire just got touched through the thin insulation,
the circuit's tearing the hell out of itself. He gets scared. He turns on the
auxiliaries. The auxiliaries don't go on—you know why? The vacuum tubes he's
using have come to the end of their rope, they didn't have much juice to start
with. Blooie! That's the rear motor developing a short
circuit. K&fow!
That's a defective transformer
melting away in the middle of the ship.
And
there he is, millions of miles from nowhere, empty space all around him, no
more spare parts, tools that practically break in his hands—and not a single,
living soul he can hustle.
And
here am I, in my office, thinking about it, and I'm laughing my head off. Because it's just
possible, it just could happen, that what goes wrong with his ship is one of
the half-dozen or so job lots of really bad electronic equipment that I personally,
me, Bernie the Faust, that I sold to that surplus store at one time or another.
That's all I'd ask. Just to
have it happen that way.
Faust. He'd have Faust from
me then. Right in the face,
Faust.
On the head, splitting it open, Faust. Faust I'd give him!
The only trouble is I'll never know. All I
know for sure is that I'm the only guy in history who sold the whole goddamn
planet.
And bought
it back.
A MAN FOR THE MOON
by leland webb
On a day a few years back, a 39-year-old airline executive named Leland Webb quit his job. He had
worked for the airline 11 years, had received many promotions and was
often assured of a bright future. "But," says Webb, "I began to
feel constantly out of breath and suffered from a strong desire to be sick all
over my Bigelow. On the day before my fortieth birthday, I told my boss I would
take my birthday off. He said no. I took my birthday off. Also the next day.
And the next. By this time it was a habit and I never went back." What he
did do was pack his bags and settle down to live modestly in a remote Florida
hamlet. Among his luggage, he had included a portable typewriter, for he had
decided to take the plunge into a long-unrealized dream—the writing of fiction.
After relatively few finger exercises, he began to produce a steady flow of
superior fiction that found ready markets in the leading magazines, principally
playboy. "A Man for the Moon" is the very first story that rolled from
Webb's portable, and the highest praise we can bestow upon it is that we would
never have suspected that fact if Webb hadn't told us. It is also the only
story in this book that is, simultaneously, both science fiction and fantasy.
In it, past and future, the Space Age
and the age of the conquistadores are melded in a kind of prose
ode to courage and discovery.
"TO
THE MOON?" I said. I felt the Earth move out from. under me and settle on
my shoulders. It was heavy.
"To
the Moon," Marco Garcia said. His voice was thick with disappointment.
"Congratulations, Abner."
Johnny
Ingraham exploded. "To the bloody Moon!" he shouted. "Abner, my
boy, my beamish boy, you'll be in all the history books!"
But
I sat and stared bleakly across the desk at Old Hard Nose Hanrahan. Navy Regs
make it plain that an admiral can't possibly talk bilge to a lieutenant
commander, but he was blowing through a paper bugle.
"To
the Moon, Mr. Evans," he said. He slapped the foot-high stack of manila
envelopes, all marked top secret, with a slender, bony hand. "The
Screaming Mimi has been ready for two years. It took us almost a year to pick
three men, you, Garcia and Ingraham. We've spent over a year, watching,
weighing, measuring, studying the three of you. But it was not until this
morning that we picked our man. You kept us waiting a long time, Mr.
Evans."
"Sir,
I feel very earthy," I said. "I think I always have. If I could
choose I would choose not to go. But I suppose that makes no difference?"
He
shook his head. "The Navy is filled with men who would jump at the chance
to go, Mr. Evans," he said. "But a daredevil would never make it.
Flying the Mimi there is only half of it: the man who takes her there has got
to bring her back. This is a new kind of beachhead and it takes another kind of
man. Quiet, steady, no dash, no flash. A man, Mr. Evans, who may not want to
go, but who damned well will want to get back."
He
stood up and we scrambled to our feet. He turned his back on us and walked to
the window.
"Final
briefing will be in one hour," he said. "We feel that it is best for
you not to have too much time to think. We also feel, Mr. Evans, that for
security reasons, it isijest to keep you under close guard. Garcia and Ingraham
will be responsible to me for your safety and for the Navy's security."
He
turned and faced us. The friendliness was gone from his face, and he was Old
Hard Nose again. "It's in the Navy tradition to be first," he said.
"Sail us to the Moon, mister. And then sail us back."
Before he dismissed us, I spoke one more
time. "I presume I will be permitted to call my wife?"
"You
may not," he said. "Mrs. Evans, I am sure, has accustomed herself to
your absence from home, and this will simply be one more time."
"Very
well, sir," I said. And thanks, I thought, for God knows I have no idea of
how to call a wife and tell her that I am off for the Moon.
We
left Old Hard Nose, who had returned to staring out his window. At the entrance
to the Administration Building, I stopped and looked at the telephone booths.
"Gentlemen
and fellow officers," I said. "I have things to say to my wife that
can be of no possible interest to officers and gentlemen."
They
both shook their heads. We walked on out of the building and cut across the
quadrangle. The sun was hellish bright and everything seemed more real, more
actual, than usual. Along the way I saw a bird on the lower limb of a mimosa
tree. He was a small, ordinary brown fellow and so still I had to look twice to
be sure he wasn't plastic. He was not singing and I nodded to him in
appreciation of his tact.
Marco
and Johnny also held their tongues. The three of us had been together for two
years, putting the Mimi through her paces, and in two years you learn when a
man wants nothing from you but silence. And because it was me, and not them, I
was in a sullen, senseless rage, as if somehow they had connived against me.
If
you were to say to Marco Garcia, "Take the Screaming Mimi to the Moon, and
blow it up," he would have looked at you out of unblinking, sloe-black
eyes, and said, "When do I leave?"
And if you were to say to Johnny Ingraham,
"Kid, take this damned crate and head for the Moon," he would let out
a squall of laughter you could have heard for a mile. Johnny never objected to
a joke simply because he was the victim of it.
And
neither of them was married to Delia. Johnny had never gotten around to
marrying, and Marco was tied to a dyed-in-the-wool, pluperfect bitch. Neither
one of them knew what it was like to have Delia walk up to him and say "I
love you," in her special way of saying it, as though it was something she
had invented just for you.
When
we reached the Senior BOQ, I was in a cold sweat. There was a buzzing confusion
in my ears. If I had been asked right then and there if Lincoln had been shot
or run to death, I couldn't have answered. At the door to their room I turned
and said, "I don't care what you men do, so long as I don't see you or
hear you."
Marco
nodded, and Johnny said, "OK, Ab, but please don't close the door."
I
went and lay down on the bunk. I made myself stop thinking about Delia. I
thought about the Moon. In less than sixty minutes, I would have my final
briefing, and then they would seal me into the Screaming Mimi. The time element
was sound. If you are going to do it, it's a good idea not to have much time to
think about it.
But the more I thought of it, the less I
thought of it. Unless science is wrong, and instead of rock and rubble the Moon
was a big green cheese, highly nutritious and an effective cure for coughs and
colds and tightness around the chest, it was no good to anybody.
Not
even for romance, especially not for romance. The first real date I had with
Delia, we parked the car out on Dame's Point. There was no moon and the inside
of the car was a dark and cozy cave. Inside of fifteen minutes matters had progressed
to where no further progress could be made—not without a marriage license. And
on our honeymoon, not only was the Moon away on a seventy-two-hour pass, but
the rain beat softly on the roof, the lovingest sound a newlywed couple ever
heard.
The
Moon and Delia, then Delia and the Moon, my mind swung from one to the other,
and there was no way out. There are only two things I know to do about a problem—solve
it or take a snooze and forget it. There was no solution to this one, so I
closed my eyes and began the long, sweet dive into the great big nothing where
there are no problems.
And
I heard somebody somewhere say, clearly and distinctly, "Friend, remember
Peralonzo Nino."
"I
don't see how in hell I can," I said. "How can I remember somebody I
never heard of?"
I
opened my eyes. The room was much dimmer—a rain cloud obscuring the sun, I
figured. Marco or Johnny was sitting in the easy chair by the window, and I
started to say "I told you to stay the hell out of here," and then I
saw the beard and knew it wasn't either of them.
He spoke before I did.
"I am Peralonzo Nino," he said.
"By
golly, you certainly are," I said. I saw no reason to doubt him. He was a
small, spare fellow, with eyes as sad as a jilted spaniel.
He
leaned forward. "Today we sail," he said. "We sail on an ocean
of nothing, toward nothing, on the word of a fool whose arithmetic is poor
beyond belief."
"What
are you talking about, buddy?" I said. "And how in hell did you get
past the guards?"
He
shrugged and spread his hands. "We sail on the hour," he said.
"On the hour, I kiss Mercedes farewell, and already she is big with child.
If I could choose I would choose not to go, but I am not given the choice. My
mind was troubled and I went to sleep and I heard a voice say, 'Think of Abner
Evans,' and I woke up."
I raised up on one elbow. "What do you
do, Peralonzo, when you're working?" I asked and knew the answer before he
told me.
"I
am Peralonzo Nino of Palos," he said with great dignity. "And against
my will and better judgment, I am the pilot of the Santa Maria."
"Well,
hell, buddy," I said. "I used to have an old bat of a history
teacher, Miss Dunstable, and she used to yap about how brave and absolutely
fearless you guys were to sail those little beat-up cockleshells across an
unknown ocean."
He
spat. "Miss Dunstable, then, is a bigger fool than Colon. And the Santa
Maria is no cockleshell, but the finest ship afloat. But I am not brave. I am a
sailor, and this ocean is beyond my knowledge and I am afraid I will never
return to Mercedes, who is my life, my soul."
I
started in to tell him that he had no problem, that voyage across the Atlantic
was a big success, but stopped.
"Peralonzo,
buddy, Pm sorry but I don't know," I said. "I was just in the middle
third of my class at John Gorrie Junior High, and Pve forgotten nine tenths of
the little bit I learned."
I
was ashamed. He was a nice guy, fouled up with History with a capital H, just
like I was, and I couldn't help him any more than he could help me. I knew that
Columbus had made it across the Atlantic and back, but for all I knew
Peralonzo's bones were buried on San Salvador or on the bottom of the ocean.
So
I did the only thing I could do. I told him where I was going. I told him to
help him, to show him that compared to my voyage, his was just nothing, just
nowhere at all. When I had finished he nodded his head.
"We
stew in the same pot," he said. "But you have the advantage. You know
where you are going and what you will encounter. And Hanrahan's arithmetic is
better."
"Well, hell, it's no lead-pipe
cinch," I said, but I couldn't argue with this guy. "You're right,
Peralonzo, it's the same damned mess."
"Because there is Delia," he said,
and yawned. "Señor,
if you,return, kiss her for
me, and call her Mercedes."
"And
if you return, give Mercedes a smooch, and call her Delia," I said. The
yawn was contagious. "So long, Peralonzo, and good luck, kid."
From
a long way off, I heard him sigh and say, "Vaya con Dios, señor."
I was not sorry to go back to sleep.
Peralonzo was a good egg, I enjoyed talking to him, and I wondered how he made
out back there in 1492. But everything was getting fuzzy and blurry and I let
it go.
Then
Delia said, "Why don't you bring me a bunch of flowers from the Moon? You
know I like flowers."
"Delia,
there ain't any damned flowers on the Moon," I said. "It's just a
bunch of rock and rubble and green cheese."
"Oh,
ipskiddy, ickyrah," she said. "I'll bet pocket handkerchiefs grow up
there. They'll grow anywhere."
"Is a pocket
handkerchief a flower?" I asked.
"Is a snapdragon an
animal?" she asked.
Putting
it that way, it seemed reasonable, and I could see the fields of pocket
handkerchiefs, snowy white with blue borders and tiny monograms in one corner.
It would be a lot of trouble looking for Ds, but Delia was worth it.
"OK, Mercedes," I
said. "I'll bring you a yard of them."
She
began to shake me. "Wake up, Abner. What are you talking about? Who is
this Mercedes woman, anyway?"
I
opened my eyes. She was sitting on the bed by me. A flourish of trumpets and a
rapid tattoo of drums struck up inside me, as always, when I see that Delia.
"Delia, if you are
another dream, go away," I said.
She
took my hands and put them where it felt good. "Are these dreams?"
she asked. I couldn't think of a better way to establish a fact.
"How'd you get here?" I asked after
I had done my duty and my pleasure, kissing those two brown eyes and that
Delia-flavored mouth.
"Oh,
the Navy has a heart," she said. "Deeply buried under mountains of
red tape, but it's there." She pushed me away from her. "I've just
come from talking to Hanrahan. It looks like I'm married to a hero."
"No,
kid," I said, "Columbus and Hanrahan are the heroes. Me and Peralonzo
are a couple of guys they need to do what they want to do." I told her
about my dream, if that was what it was—I don't think it was, exactly, but I
didn't know what else to call it.
"I
always thought Old Lady Dunstable had the wrong dope," I said, when I got
through. And I looked at her sadly. "Blast and damn, Delia," I almost
cried, "how can I leave a world with you in it?"
She
got up and walked over to the window. She squared her shoulders and took a deep
breath. "Oh, you're just like all the sailors I ever heard of," she
said. "Get a girl knocked up and then leave town."
I
didn't get it, and then I did. I went into free fall, dropping down mile upon
mile. After what seemed like years, I came out of it and walked across the room
and put my hands on her brave shoulders and turned her around.
"Lady, you would not
kid?" I asked.
She shook her head.
"This is no drill, Abner," she said.
"How long have you
known?" I asked.
"I
guess I've known at least a couple of weeks," she said. "It wasn't
official until this morning. But Dr. Hurlburt says there's no doubt about
it."
"Well, girl," I
said, "are you sad, mad, or glad?"
"I
feel like a big trap has snapped shut on me," she said. "And I feel
very foolish and very angry with myself, as if I'd done something dumb or
careless. And I feel like I've been crowned Queen of the May. I guess I feel
like a woman instead of a girl all of a sudden, and I'm not used to it."
She was talking very fast. "But what about you? What do you think about
being a papa?"
I
had thoughts but no words so I did the only thing I knew to do. I hugged her
close and kissed her for a long time and patted her on the fanny. I was very
grateful that she did not need more than this to reassure her. And as I kissed
her I heard the siren but let it scream on until I had finished the kiss.
To
the Moon, Old Hanrahan had said, we needed a man who not only would go to the
Moon but who damned well would want to get back. Oh, he was a wise one, that
Hanrahan, watching Marco, watching Johnny, watching me, until he knew his man.
And this morning, Delia, like all Navy wives, had availed herself of the free
medical attention at the base clinic. And when Hurlburt called Hanrahan and
told him Delia was pregnant, that was it.
That
was it. Marco and Johnny could fly it there, as well as I could. But I had the
best, the most, the strongest reason to get back.
Delia
and I walked out of the room, into the sunshine. Marco and Johnny were waiting,
but it no longer mattered, I didn't want to change places with them.
"We'll
see you two o'clock, next week," Johnny said, "and we'll pitch a
triple whingding."
Marco
said, "Vaya con
Dios." He
said it very well. Not as well as Peralonzo, as he Could not put as much meaning into it, but it was good to hear.
I
took Delia by the hand to cut across the quad to the briefing room. Marco and
Johnny fell in behind us. In a few minutes I would say what I had to say, and
Delia would say what she had to say. We would hold each other in a brief lather
of misery and then I'd let her go. After that, letting loose from gravity would
be no problem.
Peralonzo, old buddy, I thought, as voyagers
we are pikers,
stay-at-homes.
I thought about the birds and the bees and the
hard, stubby facts of life. About all the millions and millions of spermatozoa
making the voyage from testes to ovum, all of them perishing save one tiny
voyager. A doctor once told me that comparatively speaking, the journey must
be, can only be, measured in millions of miles. And Peralonzo had made that
journey, and so had I. And I knew
that Peralonzo returned, and I knew
that Abner Evans would make it also.
On
the way we passed the mimosa tree, and the little brown bird was still there.
You could hardly call the sound he made singing—to tell the truth, he couldn't
carry a tune any better than I could—but
he was, as Peralonzo had done and as I was
going to do, giving it everything he had.
THE NOISE
by ken w. purdy
Prior
to becoming playboy'.? most prolific Contributing Editor, Ken W.
Purdy held the top editorial posts at True and Argosy. He is a respected authority on the men and
machines of the automotive world (his books on that world include "Bright
Wheels Rolling," "Kings of the Road," "The Wonderful World
of the Automobile" and "All But My Life," a volume of chats
with Stirling Moss), and is a three-time winner of playboy
Awards—once for fiction,
twice for nonfiction. Purdy's prose is contemporaneous and brisk, as hard and
clear and bright as a diamond; his dialog has the crack and sting of a
blacksnake whip. "The Noise," a story of a man suddenly invested with
a dangerous mental power, is the work of a super-skilled pro at the top of his
form.
DR.
RABAT looked at Barnaby Hackett with the calm, masked gaze of the psychiatrist.
"You've
told me a great deal in a very short time, Mr. Hackett," he said,
"and I may say I have rarely heard so complex a matter so lucidly stated.
One thing you didn't tell me: when did you first notice this phenomenon?"
"The
first time I noticed it I did tell you," Hackett
said. "That was when I was in the second grade in Kill's Bluff, when Miss
Grench had Tommy Barstow bent over the desk and she was beating him with the
pointer and suddenly I knew what she was thinking. That was the first time I noticed it. But my mother told me that when I was 18 months old my nurse
noticed it. She said she was standing there watching me and she said to
herself, 'If that child throws another spoon of Pablum on the floor I'm going
to belt him one good lick.' I threw up my arms in front of my face and began to
cry. Mercy-Helen, that was the nurse, was very upset by it. She never had hit
me, never would."
"I
see," Dr. Kabat said. "Then you noticed it first when you were seven.
Now you are 32 and you feel that the faculty is strengthening. Or that the
sensitivity is increasing. Or at any rate that the frequency of the phenomenon
is increasing."
"That's right," Hackett said.
"It used to happen perhaps
once a week. Then it became two and three times a week, then
every day, then a couple of times a day, usually these were
unusual incidents, small but striking things, like I told you,
maybe I'd be trying to get a girl to go to bed with me; she'd be
saying no and all of a sudden I'd hear her talking to herself
telling herself what she was going to do when she was in bed
with me, things like that, and then it became more and more
frequent, and six months ago the whole thing began to
accelerate until now I can't differentiate between incidents at
all, it happens constantly and steadily and all the time, and the
worst part of it is what I call the static, the unregistered
stuff---- »
"Let me interrupt you," Dr. Kabat
said. "The word 'unregistered'?"
"I
mean bits and pieces. It's getting so I can't stand to walk down the street. To
come here today, for example, I walked down Fifth Avenue from 59th Street to
here, four blocks, and that's not the most crowded part of Fifth either, but I
only just made it. What I want to do, I want to scream as loudly as I can, just
in the hope that if I do that I won't hear the unregistered bits, the
fragments, the half-thoughts and half-sentences. They're the worst, you see.
And it's very loud, that it's always been, very loud, like a radio turned right
up all the way, whole pieces or unregistered, and of course I remember
everything, as I told you, I never forget anything. I have absolute recall, so
when I walk down the street I have to hear, and store away, stuff like this,
and I'll just shout it at you because I want you to know how it actually is
with me, car
isn't a black one i know l'M . . . take his
GODDAM two bits . . . toys not like when i was young then . . . look at the set
of jugs on that blonde ... no he
never did graduate that year or marie . . . $29.75 is how much if ... to paint like that painting she . . .
room 308 room
308 room
. . . anyway he'll die before . . . son of a bitch tried to . . . god our
father intercede in this . . . i'll never make it l'll never i can't
hello tom i . . . DOn't win them ...
if i don't find a place to pee ... he
always did hate roasts but she oh she . . . all right so l'm a louse the
lowest the worst but by jesus i won't . . ."
Dr. Kabat lifted his hand. "I
understand," he said. "I see how it is. Yes."
Barnaby
Hackett shook his head slowly. He was sitting on the end of his spine in the
soft leather chair, looking up at Kabat. His eyes were luminous and brown,
light brown, a tawny shade, he was blond. It was a pleasant face, lean, almost
bony.
"No," he said, "y°u don't
really, Doctor, because I have to give them to you one at a time. You can't
appreciate the full effect that way. You see, for me they all pile in at once,
on top of each other, sentences shouting out every which way like a pile of
straw, or sticks, spears, I usually think of, spears, guns, with bayonets piled
up, something like that, you have to understand that distance is the governing
factor apparently, I think about 15 or 16 feet, I don't receive beyond that,
but within 15 or 16 feet I get it all at once and . . ."
"I understand,"
Kabat said. "Very painful, obviously."
Neither of them spoke.
"Still
there must have been times when the faculty was useful to you," Dr. Kabat
said. "The example you mentioned, the girl you wanted to go to bed with.
It was helpful there: you knew you were going to succeed, even though she was
saying no."
"That's
true," Hackett said. "As long as it was intermittent, I didn't mind
it, I enjoyed it. It's only the increasing frequency that has me
frightened."
"I
should think it would be very handy in business," Dr. Kabat said.
"What is your business, by the way?"
"Automobiles,"
Hackett said. "I started out as a car salesman, and of course I always
knew which was a shopper and which was a hot prospect, and so I made a lot of
money. I bought the business in a couple of years. Now I've got a whole chain
of dealerships all up and down the East Coast: Volkswagen, Renault, FIAT, Jag,
MG, SAAB—only the good ones. My faculty, as you call it, was an advantage in
business, sure, but now I've got all the money I'll ever need, and I can't get
myself interested in being a tycoon, you know, hotels, steamships, oil, all
that jazz, I think people who get on that kick are sick-sick, one way or
another." He sat straight up in the chair. "Look, Dr. Kabat," he
said, "I was perfectly happy until about three months ago, when I began to
hear more and more and now I hear everything—and something worse can
happen."
"Worse?"
Hackett nodded slowly and slid back down in
the chair. "Worse," he said, "and I tell you frankly, I'll have
to kill myself if it happens, and I think it is happening: I think my range is increasing. I told you the limit was
around 15 or 16 feet. Well, yesterday I was walking in Central Park, that's a
good place for me, you see, lots of open space, and I sat down on a bench near
the lake. After a while a cop came along and he stood for a minute looking out
over the water. I began to pick him up, and I didn't think anything of it, it
was a very ordinary thing, he was giving himself a fantasy about how one of
Mayor Wagner's kids was skating there in the winter and fell in and he rescued
the kid and they made him a first-grade detective right on the spot, a real
dull bit, and he went away almost at once, but then slowly I realized he'd been
a longish way from the bench, I got up and paced it off, and it came out at a
little more than 18 feet, maybe almost 19, and then I remembered a couple of
other things like that, and I do think
I'm picking them up farther away now. Well, if this increases as fast as the rest of it has I'll be reading them half a mile
away pretty soon, and you understand no mind could stand that, that's when I'll
have to go, because remember that would be a radius of half a mile or whatever, I don't read them
just in front or in back of me, but all around, and if you just think for a
minute of standing, say, by the flower beds in Radio City and getting every
thought within half a mile, that would run I should think, easily it would run
100,000 people in that circle, every one of them putting out a solid stream of
crap steadily every second, because even the dumbest brass-head you ever knew
thinks; what
he thinks might curl the
hair on a musk-ox, but he thinks; it's going on in there all the time, and . .
." Hackett's eyes suddenly spread wide, his eyelids popped like window
shades run up and he pressed both hands into his head and began to moan and he
swung his body back and forth in the chair.
Dr.
Kabat stared at him and his hand moved slowly to the center drawer of his desk
On the left side of the drawer he kept an assortment of tranquilizers ranging
from little more than aspirin strength to something that would stun a Miura
bull; on the right side he kept an eight-ounce flathead blackjack. One never
knew. But he hadn't decided even to open the drawer when Hackett jumped out of
the chair and went out of the office like something just uncaged, leaving the
door swinging behind him. Kabat heard him in the hallway, yelling, and he ran
for the door himself. Hackett was shouting, "Madam! Madam! Just a minute .
. . What have you got there? What is it?"
When
Kabat got his head around the corner of the hall door he saw Hackett standing
by the elevator, holding it open, talking with someone. He turned slowly and
came back and.his eyes, dead and flat, were the eyes of a man on his way to the
gallows. He pushed past Kabat and went back into the office to slump down in
the chair.
"It's all going fast
now," he muttered, "very fast."
"What
was that about, Mr. Hackett?" Kabat asked. "Why did you run out to the
hall?"
Hackett
didn't answer at once. His head was bowed in his hands.
"I
picked up something," he said. "Just when I was telling you how
people think all the time I picked up this unregistered bit, it was, 'If she
doesn't stop squeezing me so hard I'm going to leak on her' and I knew, I can't
tell you how, that it was animal, not man. It came through in an altogether
different way, high-pitched, strident, and kind of fuzzy and coarse and rough
around the edges. I was terrified, terrified! So as soon as I could get a grip
on myself I ran for the hall, because that was where it had to be, and I just
saw this woman getting into the elevator, carrying something hairy and small,
and so I ran for her because I had to see what it was, you know, I had to
know." He began to rock in the chair again.
"Stop that!" Kabat said. "Take
your hands down. So what was it?"
"A dog," Hackett said. "Little
dog. Pomeranian. It's as I said, Doctor; this thing is growing very fast now.
The range is increasing and I'm reading animals. If I had any sense left I'd go
out that window right now. I can see where it'll end: I'll be reading every living
thing in the entire world, from fish no man has ever seen, on the black bottom
of the oceans, to baboons sitting in their Sputniks 1000 miles out in space,
and my God, after that, after that, is there any reason to suppose I won't be
reaching out to the limit of our galaxy, and then beyond that, and beyond that . . ." He lay back in the chair and closed
his eyes. He was very pale.
"Take
it easy," Dr. Kabat said. "None of this has happened yet. It may not
come to pass at all. We have to think about your present condition, see what we
can do about that. We have to make a beginning."
"The
noise," Hackett said, "can you imagine what the noise is going to be,
Doctor, listen to me, every living thing in the world, billions and billions of
living entities, every one of them screeching down a funnel into my head, can
you imagine what a thousandth part of that noise would be like, well, can
you?"
"I'm
not going to try," Kabat said, "and don't you try, either. Let's stay
with the present. Let's stay with reality, and see what we can do."
"You
don't think there's much you can do," Hackett said quietly. "When I
first started to tell you about it, you thought I was obviously delusional,
schizophrenic, probably paranoid tendency. Then, when I'd told you more, you
began to think it was a real far-out kind of ESP. And since then the only
constructive notion you've had is that you want to talk to somebody named
Gardner Murphy about it."
"You're
a convenient kind of patient," Kabat said. "I don't have to tell you
much. Yes, I want to talk to Gardner Murphy about it, since I think he knows
more about extrasensory perception than anyone else in this country. And I have
one more idea."
"I'm a good subject," Hackett said.
"I've been hypnotized before, you know, just for kicks." "Good.
Well, then . . ."
"I
know," Hackett said wearily. "Your next patient is out there. A
woman. Problem, frigidity. She's trying to read the December '57 issue of Fortune, but she can't keep her mind on it because
she's developed a rather direct concept of a solution to her problem. It
involves you in a fairly personal way and . . ."
Dr.
Kabat held up his hand. "Please," he said. "No more. I can see
you tomorrow at three, if that's all right?"
"If
I last that long," Hackett said. He hauled himself to his feet. The next
patient, he noted on the way out, was a flaming redhead, lean and
hungry-looking. He wasn't surprised. He remembered a Chicago social worker, a
girl about 30, plump, placid, bovine, he had sat next to her on a bus lurching
north on Michigan, and after he'd read her a little bit he followed her off the
bus at Goethe Street, mostly because he couldn't believe what he heard. She had
been violent, incredibly inventive and truly, totally insatiable. Since then,
nothing had ever surprised him. He rather expected an elderly usher in a church
to be seething with black murder as he benignly passed the collection plate. It
almost seemed the normal thing now. Barnaby Hackett did not often think of his
fellow man as clothed in nobility.
He
stuffed some lunch into himself, reading a newspaper, forcing the meaning of it
through and over the howling bedlam in his head. Afterward he picked up a car
and drove to Connecticut. Near Westport there is a reservoir bisected by a long
causeway. Hackett drove to the middle of the causeway, parked the car, and
there in blessed silence went to sleep.
Hackett had been right: he was an excellent
hypnotic subject. Kabat tried nothing radical. He induced a light sleep in
Hackett, then a deeper sleep. He produced a glove anesthesia, amnesia, and
posthypnotic suggestion. He taught Hackett autohypnosis and then he got down to
business.
"You
will hear nothing but the sound of my voice," he told Hackett. "You
will hear nothing but the sound of my voice. There is a clock ticking on my
desk. You will not hear it. You will not hear the clock ticking. You will hear
no sounds from the street. You will not hear the elevator when it passes this
floor. You will hear nothing but the sound of my voice. Until I tell you that
you may, you will hear nothing but the sound of my voice. You will hear nothing
else, nothing at all. I will count slowly to five, and when I reach five you
will be able to hear nothing but the sound of my voice. One, two, three, four,
five. You can hear nothing but the sound of my voice. If you hear anything but
the sound of my voice, lift your right index finger."
Flat
on the couch, his every muscle limp as boiled spaghetti, his eyes closed, his
breathing slow and even, his hands folded on his chest, Hackett moved nothing.
"You
can hear nothing but the sound of my voice," Kabat said. "I have
simply turned off all other sound in your mind. You can do this yourself. You
will be able to do this yourself. You will be able to stop any sound you wish
to stop, instantly, at will. During the rest of today, and tonight, and until
you see me again tomorrow, you will be able to stop all sound. You will hear
nothing that you do not wish to hear. When you hear a sound that annoys you,
you will close your eyes, you will relax, you will produce an instant hypnosis,
you will tell yourself that you cannot hear that sound, and it will stop. It
will stop instantly. You will not hear it . . ."
At
the end of the hour, sitting on the edge of the couch, rubbing his eyes, slowly
waking up, Hackett looked around.
"Things are very
quiet," he said.
"I have a patient
waiting," Dr. Kabat said.
"A man," Hackett said,
"hideously upset." He made a grimace and shook his head. "He let
his sister drown; he thinks he let his kid sister drown, 31 years ago, and . .
." He stopped and closed his eyes. His hands went limp on his knees, his
shoulders slumped and slowly he began to smile. He looked up at Kabat. "I
shut the son-of-a-bitch up!" he said. "I
turned him off, the
bastard! I did it, and it was easy!"
"Of
course it was," Kabat said. "I'll see you tomorrow. And keep trying.
Every time you do it, it will be easier."
Hackett was full of
gratitude when he appeared next day.
"You're
right, Dr. Kabat," he said, "it gets easier and easier. I just shut
it off and shove it back at 'em. It's easier every time. I don't know how to
thank you. You've saved my life. You've cured me of something that was
obviously incurable."
"I
don't know if 'cured' is the precise term," Kabat said, "and I don't
know either if you're altogether out of the woods yet. But you're on the way,
certainly."
Kabat's
eye fell on the pencil on his desk. He noticed that the point was broken; he
opened the desk drawer to get a new one, and it was at that precise moment that
it happened to him for the first time. His mind went totally blank. He found
himself staring into the drawer with its neat array of pencils, rubber bands,
paper-clips, the assortment of medicines on the left, the black-jack on the
right, but nothing registered. He knew he had a purpose, he could see, as
through a gray and oily fog, a goal to reach, but he could not move toward it.
He felt no sense of panic. He felt nothing at all. He just sat there, immobile,
until Hackett said, rather loudly for him, "What's the matter,
Doctor?"
Kabat blinked and looked around.
"Nothing," he said. "Nothing at all. I was thinking of
something." He took up the pencil he wanted. "Shall we go
ahead?" he said. As quickly as he could—30 seconds—he put Hackett into a
light sleep, and then worked him into a deep stage. He wanted a drink, but he
settled for a cigarette; he moved quietly to the window and stood there looking
through a narrow slot in the leaf-thin metal blinds. The air-conditioner hissed
quietly and behind him he could hear his patient's steady breathing. He was
very frightened.
Forty minutes later, when Hackett had left,
Dr. Kabat opened the door to his reception room, slowly and with dread. He was
sure he knew what he would find. Mr. Holvak, his four o'clock, was sitting
there, a magazine on the floor at his feet, his hands limp between his legs,
his eyes staring, a small shiny rivulet of saliva running from the corner of
his mouth. Kabat started the sweep-hand of his wrist-watch and waited. It was
most important, he felt, that he know the interval. Four minutes, 16 seconds
later Mr. Holvak stirred, shook himself, blinked. "I guess I was
daydreaming," he said through his sad, thin smile. He stood and walked
into the office.
It was Holvak who first noticed the noise.
Dr. Kabat, preoccupied with the horror of what he now knew, and trying hard to
pay attention to Holvak's dreary monolog of self-pity, had not noticed it.
"Every
horn in the street seems to be blowing," Holvak said diffidently. It was
true. A tremendous cacophony was rising in the air. Kabat went to the window
and cranked it out. As far as he could see down Fifth Avenue the street was
solid with automobiles, nothing moving. Fifty-ninth was blocked all the way to
the Coliseum. Most of the pedestrians on the sidewalks were standing still;
those who were not moved slowly and uncertainly. An aircraft was crossing Fifth
Avenue at about 50th Street, a Constellation west-bound out of Idlewild, its
four engines thudding under climbing load, and as he watched, its engines
suddenly shut down; it fell off on one wing in the maneuver that used to be
known as a falling leaf, lifted its tail and bored straight in. A surly-looking
wisp of oil-black smoke began to rise somewhere near 10th Avenue. Kabat closed
the window.
"Mr. Holvak," he said, "I'll
have to ask you to excuse me.
We
just won't count this session. Please come on Tuesday at the regular time. Pm
sorry, but you. must leave me now, something has come up . . ." He hustled
the man out and grabbed the telephone. Hackett's apartment didn't answer, and
at two the next morning Kabat gave up without having reached him. He appeared promptly
at three in the afternoon, as usual.
Kabat looked across the desk at him, a nice
young man slumped happily in a big leather chair. He closed his eyes for a
moment, thought of a blank ash-white wall. Blankness, he said to himself,
blankness, blankness, nothing.
"I suppose you saw the
papers this morning?" he said aloud.
"About
the traffic jam yesterday?" Hackett said. "Yes, I read about
that."
"Odd, wasn't it?"
observed Kabat.
"Not
at all," Hackett said. "I did that, and you know I did it."
"I
think so," Dr. Kabat said. "When you said yesterday that you could
not only stop the voices but you could drive them back, I had a notion
something like this might happen. We really have a problem now. A certain
number of people died yesterday."
"Forty-six
in the airplane," Hackett said slowly, "nine in the house it hit, 14
pedestrians and those two window-washers at 720 Fifth. Seventy-one altogether."
"There
are certain other considerations," Kabat said. "You realize that all
thought stopped for several minutes when you passed. Leaving aside the obvious,
say a team of surgeons in an operating theatre, we do not know what losses that
may have produced."
"True,
I suppose," Hackett said, "but my God, Dr. Kabat, I couldn't help it, I didn't know, I didn't realize, all I thought of was that you and I were beating this thing, that I was
winning, that I was being cured, I could go on living . . ."
"Pm not suggesting you are at
fault," Kabat said. "Pm saying that we must reach a compromise here,
you must somehow learn to control yourself so that you can stop thought transmission coming to you, but not drive it back because
obviously when you do that you stop all thought of any kind, I think for four
or five minutes. And what do you think is your range now?"
"A
mile," Hackett said slowly. "A mile, at least. That airplane was over
5000 feet up."
They
sat in silence for a moment. Kabat closed his eyes and bent his mind to the
white wall, trying with every fiber in him to keep an image from forming, an
image that Hackett could read. He was brave enough, but he had no wish to die.
"It
won't work, you know," Hackett said. "The whole secret of what we've
done so far lies in a violent effort to push it back. Even if I could achieve
the kind of delicate balance that would only stop it, not drive it back, I couldn't hope to do it with more than one
person, one living thing, at a time—the way I do with you—because, don't you
see, they're all different? If you think of it as a stream of radio signals,
every one comes in at a different strength, and an effort that would merely
stop one would let 20 others get through. The only solution is to resist with a
force that will stop the strongest— and
that means driving all the rest of them back. No, it won't work."
"It
has to work," Kabat said quietly. "You have a virile imagination. You
can see what will happen. Minimally, an increasing accidental death rate, the
cessation of the creative process, plague, savagery. Maximally . . ."
"I
know," Hackett said. "I thought of that. For instance, that Connie
could have been a B-47 with the big boy aboard . . ."
"Let's
try," Kabat said. Hackett moved slowly to the couch and lay down.
No aircraft fell the next
day. An electronics engineer had suggested the possibility that some kind of man-made
interference emanating from a New York laboratory had caused simultaneous
engine failure in the Constellation, and traffic was routed around the city.
But 22 pedestrians walked into the path of automobiles with fatal results;
vehicular collision was estimated at $1,500,000 and on the West Side an upset
kerosene stove burned a square block of tenement buildings to ashes. Nine of
the firemen who did reach the scene were killed. An elevator in Radio City
dropped 42 stories to the basement and in the UN building the delegates nodded
in their seats or stumbled, unseeing, through the corridors.
Herbert
Kabat didn't sleep that night. He canceled his other appointments for the day
and waited, white-faced and taut, for Barnaby Hackett. "If God is
good," he thought, "the man has cut his throat." But at three
the soft door-gong sounded.
"I
don't want to talk about it," Hackett said. He hung his jacket on the back
of the chair. He threw himself down on the couch. "Let's not waste any
time," he said. "Nothing but hypnosis has done any good so far, and
if there's a solution that's where it lies."
"You
know," Kabat said softly, "you could go away. You could go say to
Australia, in the outback . . ."
"Nonsense,"
Hackett said. "No man can live alone, truly alone. Besides, this thing is
growing, a mile today, five next week, 15, 50 . . ." He folded his hands
on his chest. "I'm ready now," he said.
Kabat
held tight to the edge of his desk and stared hard at the wall across the room.
No image, he told himself, not now, in this last minute. He began to speak
softly. "Your eyelids are growing heavy," he said. "Very heavy.
You are becoming drowsy, very drowsy. And drowsier. And drowsier. You are going
into a deep sleep. Very deep. A very deep sleep. And deep. And deep. And deep .
. ."
He stood by the window, looking down. There
wasn't a car moving, nor a human being. "Deep," he said. "And
deep . . . deep . . . deep . . ."
He
waited. Then he took the little box out of the drawer and dropped it into the
pocket of Hackett's coat. He let the time pass.
"When
you wake," he said, "you will feel refreshed and happy. You will go
directly to your apartment. You will hurry. You will hurry because you have
something important to do when you get home. In the right-hand pocket of your
jacket you will find six pills in a small plain box. You will take these pills,
quickly, one after the other, with water. Then you will lie down. You will feel
fine, relaxed, content. When you wake up now you will remember nothing of what
I have said to you, nothing at all. You will hurry home, and when you get home
you will reach in your pocket and you will find the pills. You will want to
take them. You will take them quickly. I am going to count to five now, and any
time after I reach the count of five you may wake up. One, two, three, four . .
. five."
Hackett
came slowly to his feet, rubbing his eyes as he always did. He stood up. He
looked around the room. "I ought to give you a check today," he said,
"but I don't think I'll take the time . . . I'm in something of a hurry .
. . I'll see you tomorrow." He opened the door and turned to nod.
"Goodbye, Mr. Hackett," Dr. Kabat
said. "Goodbye."
THE KILLER IN THE TV SET
by bruce jay friedman
"When
I glanced at the very first sentence, I was filled with a fear that here was a
story I would not be able to put down until I had read it through to the end.
This proved to be true." That comment by Joseph ("Catch-22") Heller refers to Bruce Jay Friedman's first novel, "Stern,"
but it is perfectly applicable to "The Killer in the TV Set." It is
utterly outre fantasy that might have occurred to any writer watching the
late-late show—except that it didn't. It occurred to Bruce Jay Friedman, and
that makes all the difference.
AT
FIRST, Mr. Ordz noticed only that the master of ceremonies or star of the
television show wore a bad toupee, one that swept up suddenly and pointily like
an Elks' convention cap. It seemed to be a late-hour "talk"
arrangement, leading off with a singer named Connie who did
carefully-ticked-off rhythm gestures; one to connote passion, another,
unabashed frivolity, and a third naivete and first love. The show was one Mr.
Ordz did not recognize, although this was beside the point since his main
concern was to avoid going upstairs to Mrs. Ordz, a plump woman who had
discovered sex in her early forties. In curlers, she waited each night for Mr.
Ordz to come unravel her mysteries so that she might, in her own words,
"fly out of control and yield forth the real me." Mr. Ordz had had
several exposures to the real her and now scrupulously ducked opportunities for
others.
Four
male dancers came out now and surrounded the singer, flicking their fingers out
toward her, and keeping up a chant that went "Isn't she a doll?" then
hoisting her up on their shoulders for the finale.
"Doesn't
she just bash you over the head?" asked the m.c, pulling up a chair. The
setting was spare, a simple wall with a chair or two lined up against it, much
in the style of the "intellectual" conversation show. "I'd like
to bash you over the head, too," said the m.c, "but I can't and I've
got to get you some other way." Mr. Ordz snickered, sending the snicker
out through his nose. It was a laugh he used both for registering amusement and
also slight shock, and it served the side function of clearing his nasal
passages. "All right, now," the m.c. said, "I used Connie to
hook you, although I've no doubt I can keep you once you're watching awhile.
Hear me now and hear me good. I've got exactly one week to kill you or I don't
get my sponsor. Funny how you fall into these master-of-ceremony jokes just
being up here in front of a camera and with all this television paraphernalia.
Let me nail down that last remark a little better. I don't mean kill you with
laughter or entertainment. I mean really stop your heart, Ordz, for Christ's
sake, make you die. I've done work on you and I know I can do it."
Mr. Ordz thought the man had said "hard
orbs" but then the m.c. said, "Heart, Ordz, stop your heart, Ordz.
All right, then, Mr. Ordz. For Christ's sake listen because I just
told you I've only got a week."
Mr.
Ordz turned the dial and watched test patterns which is all he could get at two
in the morning. He looked at a two-week-old TV Guide and saw there was no listing for a panel show
that hour on Tuesday morning and then he called the police. "I'm getting a
crazy channel," he said, "and wonder if you can come over and look at
it."
"Wait till tomorrow morning and see if
it goes away," said the police officer. "We can't just run out for
you people."
"All
right," said Mr. Ordz, "but I never call the police and I'm really
getting something crazy."
He
went to bed then, tapping his wife gently on the shoulder and whispering,
"I got something crazy on TV," but when she heaved convulsively Mr.
Ordz sneaked into the corner of the bed and pretended he wasn't there.
The
following evening Mr. Ordz buried his head in a book on Scottish grottoes and
read on late into the night, but when two in the morning came, he put aside the
book and flipped on the television set. "It'll be better if you put me on
earlier," said the m.c, wearing a loud checkered jacket and smiling
without sincerity. "You'll noodle around and put me on anyway, so why don't
you just put a man on. All right, here's your production number, Ordz. I don't
see any point to doing them. It's sort of like fattening up the calf, but I'm
supposed to give you one a night for some damned reason."
The
singer of the previous evening came out in a Latin American festival costume,
clicking her fingers furiously and doing a rhythm number with lyrics that went
"Vadoo, vadoo, vadoo vey. Hey, hey, hey, hey, vadoo vey." She
finished up with the word "Yeah" and did a deep, humble bow, and the
m.c. said, "It'll go hard if you turn me off. I don't mean I can reach out
and strike you down. That's the thing I want to explain. I can't shoot you from
in here or give you a swift, punishing rabbit punch. It isn't that kind of
arrangement. In ours, I've got six days to kill you, but I'm not actually
allowed to do it directly. Now, what I'm going to do is try to shake you up as
best I can, Ordz, and get you to, say, go up to your room and have a heart
attack. I don't know whether you have heart trouble and another thing is I'm
not allowed to ask you questions over this thing. But I have researched you, incidentally. It doesn't matter whether I like you or
not—the main thing is getting myself a sponsor—but I might as well tell you I
don't really care for you at all. You're such a damned small person and your
life is such a drag. Now I'm saying this half because I mean it, and, to be
honest, half because I want to shake you up and see if I can bring on that
heart attack. And now the news. The arrangement is I'm to bring you only
flashes on airplane wrecks and major disasters. It was a compromise and I think
I did well. At first I was supposed to give you politics, too."
Mr.
Ordz watched the first one, some coverage of a DC-7 explosion in Paraguay and then switched off the show and called the
police again. He got a different officer and said, "I called about the
crazy television show last night."
"I
don't know who you got," said the officer. "We get a lot of calls
about television and can't just come out."
"All
right," said Mr. Ordz, "but even though I called last night I don't
go around calling the police all the time."
The
only one Mr. Ordz knew in television was his cousin, Raphael, who was an
assistant technical director in video tape. He went to see Raphael during lunch
hour the next day. It was a short interview.
"I
don't think that's any way to get a man," said Mr. Ordz. "I can see a
practical joke but I don't think you should draw them out over a week. What if
I did get a heart attack?"
"What
do you mean?" said Raphael, eating a banana. He was on a banana diet and
took several along for his lunch hour.
"The
television set," said Mr. Ordz. "What's going on with it is what I
mean."
"I'll
fix it, I'll fix it," said Raphael. "What are you so ashamed of? If
you were a cloak and suiter, as a relative I'd come to you for jackets. I don't
see that any shame is involved. The real shame is beating around the bush. If
your set is broken, I'll fix it. It doesn't matter that I work on the damned
stuff all day long. You won't owe me a thing. Buy me a peck of bananas and
we'll call it even. This is a lousy diet if you can't kid yourself a little.
And I can kid myself."
"You
don't understand what's going on," said Mr. Ordz, helplessly, "and I
don't have the energy to tell you."
He
went back to his job and late that night, instead of making an effort to stay
away, he flicked on the set promptly at two. The
m.c. was wearing a Halloween costume. "All right, it's Wednesday," he said, "and the old
. . ."
Mr.
Ordz cut the m.c. off in mid-sentence by turning the dial to another channel. He waited four or five minutes, feeling his heart
beating and then getting nervous about it and squeezing his breast as though to
slow it down. He turned back the dial and the m.c. continued the sentence,
". . . heart is still beating, but
what you've got to remember is that . . ." Mr. Ordz flipped the dial again
and waited roughly ten minutes this time, squeezing down his heart again, then
flipped back and picked up the same sentence again: ". . . this thing is
cumulative. It looks better for me, it's more artistic, if I bring it off at
the tail end of the week. Sort of build tension and then finish up the deal,
finish you up that is, right under the wire. What's that?"
The
m.c. cupped his hand to his ear and peered off into the wings, then said,
"All right, Ordz, they tell me you've been fooling around with the dial
and it shocks you that you can't really miss a thing even if you switch off
awhile. I don't care if you're shocked or not and the more shocks the better,
although I'd rather you didn't go till the end of the week."
Mr.
Ordz stood up in front of the television set then and said, "I haven't
talked to you yet, but you're getting me mad. It doesn't mean a damned thing
when I get mad unless I hit a certain plateau and then I don't feel any pain.
I'm not afraid of heart attacks then or doctors or punches in the mouth, and I
can spit in death's eye, too. It has no relation to my size or my weak wrists
and abdomen. I'm just saying I'm mad now and when I am I'm suddenly articulate,
fear no one and can get people. I don't care where you are. You've just come in
here and done this to me and I swear I'll get you and I know I can do it
because there are no obstacles when I feel this way."
"Calm
down," said the m.c, lighting a cigarette. "Just sit down. All right,
I admit I'm a little rattled now but it doesn't affect anything. I'm in a
studio all right, but it's cleverly disguised and no one in the world would
guess where we're set up. So all the anger in the world isn't going to change
anything. Just calm down awhile and you'll see what I mean. Sing, Connie."
The
hard-faced singer came out as a college coed in sweater and skirt. She pawed
naively at the ground, waiting for the lift music and Mr. Ordz shouted,
"And I don't want to hear her either."
"Who
told you?" said the m.c, rising in a panic. "That's more work for me.
You can't keep a damned secret in television. All right, I suppose you know you
can have three alternates. The Elbaya flamenco dancers, Orson's Juggling Giants
or Alonzo's Acrobatorama."
"I'll
take the Acrobatorama," said Mr. Ordz, shaking his fist at the set again.
"But it doesn't mean I'm going along with any of this or that I don't want
to get you just as bad as ever. I just like acrobats, that's all, and never
miss a chance to see them. Then I'm going to watch your damned news and I'm
going to bed." Mr. Ordz settled back to watch the acrobats who did several
encores.
The
m.c. came on again. He had changed his Halloween costume to a dinner jacket and
he was puffing away at a cigarette. "All right, I'm going to go right into
the news tonight. I am a little rattled and there's no point denying
it. Do you think that this is what I wanted to be doing this week? I just want
to get my damned sponsor and get out of here. That's all for tonight and here
is your disaster coverage. I like you more than I thought I would and I got
them to allow some sports. It's about a carload of pro football players that
overturned in New Mexico, but it's sports in a way."
The
following day Mr. Ordz went to see his doctor about a pain in his belly.
"It's either real or imagined," he said to the doctor.
"Can
you describe it?" asked the doctor. "It's sort of red with gray edges
and is constant." "It'll probably go away," said the doctor.
"If it turns blue let me know and we'll take it from there."
"Are you kidding me?" asked Mr. Ordz. "I'm a doctor," said the
doctor.
Mr.
Ordz stayed in town that night to see a foreign film about a tempestuous goat
farm. When it was over he went down into the lounge. He was all alone and the
TV set was on. His m.c. was dressed like the La Strada carnival man.
"I expected this," said the m.c.
"The research showed you have to peek under bandages. If a doctor said,
'Your life depends on it,' you'd have to sneak a peek anyway. So I knew you'd
stay away from your set tonight, but I also knew you'd have to peek at some set. Whoever knocked research is crazy. Now look, forget last night when
I said I was rattled. I know one thing. I've got to have a sponsor or I go
nowhere. If I could reach out there and personally slit your gizzard I'd do it
without batting an eyelash. As it is, I'll just have to torment your tail until
you go by yourself. Incidentally, I can tell you the details. Research said
you'd be here tonight, so by some finagling around I was able to get on much
earlier, almost prime time. You can pick up the disaster flashes when you get
home at two. Here's your Acrobatorama and if anyone comes in while we're on, we
turn into a trusted, familiar network giveaway show."
When
Alonzo's men had taken their third encore, Mr. Ordz took the train home and
rode between the cars. At one point, he dipped his foot way down outside the
car giddily, but then retrieved it and rode home for the two o'clock disasters.
The
following night, Friday, Mrs. Ordz joined Mr. Ordz on the television chaise and
showered him with love bites on the nose. "I'll erupt," she said, her
matronly bosom heaving with tension. "I warn you I'll erupt right down
here and we don't have a door shutter."
"Hold
off," said Mr. Ordz. "I don't tell you things, but I've got to tell
you this thing." He told her the story of the secret channel and the
m.c.'s threats, but her lids were closed and she whispered, "You're
speaking words, but I hear only hoarse animal sounds. Tame me boobsie, tame me,
or I'll erupt before the world."
"I
can't get through to anyone because I'm too nervous to say what I mean,"
said Mr. Ordz. "If I get angry enough, if only I can get angry enough,
everyone will hear me loud and clear."
"Wild,"
she said through clenched teeth. "You're wild as the wind."
"I
wish you would hold off," said Mr. Ordz, but his wife would not be shunted
aside and he finally carried her stocky body upstairs, getting back downstairs
at two-thirty a.m. The hard-faced female singer said, "He
told me to tell you that he had a cold but that he'd be back tomorrow night if
it killed him. I don't know his name either. He said he didn't have time to
line up a replacement and that you should just go to bed, unless you want to
hear me sing."
"No,"
said Mr. Ordz. "I don't care what you do. I'm not going along with this. I
just want to see how far the whole thing carries."
"Oh,
that's right, you're the one who wanted acrobats. Do you think I'd do this
crummy show if I had something else? But I figure one exposure is better than
none and you might have some connections. I also do figure modeling. We're skipping
the news tonight. Since you don't want me to warble a few, I have a modeling
date tonight. I only do work for legit photogs."
In
the morning, Mr. Ordz called in his secretary and said, "It's in defense
bonds, savings stamps and cash, but it works out to six thousand dollars and I
want my wife to get it."
"So
just give it to her then," said the girl. "I don't know what you
mean."
"I
want you to know that it's for her if something happens to me."
"Don't
you feel well, Mr. Ordz?" asked the girl. "You're supposed to put
that in a will and it doesn't mean anything if you just tell it to a
person."
"I'm
not bothering around with any wills. I told it to you and you know it and
that's all."
"But I can't enforce
anything," said the girl.
"Don't argue with me.
You just know."
The
m.c. was wearing an intern's costume when the show came on much later, and was
blowing his nose. "It was a pip all right. I used to get one a winter and
I guess I still get them. All right then, now that it's come down to the wire
I'd be teasing if I didn't admit it had crossed my mind that your heart might not stop and here I'd be without a sponsor. Research did tell me about the
pain in the belly though, and of course that did relax me. You're on your way.
I get your life tonight, Ordz. Now look, this is the equivalent of your smoking
a last cigarette. You're sick of me, I'm sick of you. If you go upstairs right
this second and drink a bottle of iodine, the deal is you don't have to sit
through the whole damned show. Fair enough?"
Mr.
Ordz dropped his cheesettes and said, "So help me God I'm getting mad."
"And
believe me," said the m.c, "the show stinks tonight. I do a whole series of morbid parodies of songs, real bad ones like Ghoul That I Am, and we've got a full hour of on-the-spot
coverage of a children's school bus combination fire and explosion. Go
upstairs, get yourself a regimental tie or two . . ."
"I'm getting to the crazy point where I can spit in death's eye," said Mr. Ordz, rising from his chaise.
".
. . Rig them up noose-style to the shower nozzle, slip your head in there
snugly and we'll all go home early."
"I'll get you," shouted Mr. Ordz. And with
that he smashed his hand through the television screen, obliterating the
picture and opening something stringy in his wrist. Blood spurted out across
Mr. Ordz' six volumes of Churchill's war memoirs, sprinkling The Gathering Storm and completely drenching Their Finest Hour. Mr. Ordz studied his wrist and, until he
began to feel faint, poked at it, watching it pour forth with renewed frenzy at
each of the pokes. On hands and knees then, he went up to his sleeping wife and
clutched at her nightgown. "I erupt,
I erupt," she said, in a stupor, and then
opened her eyes. "Jeez," she said, "are they open at the hospital?"
She got on a robe, and by this time Mr. Ordz had lost consciousness. Blood
soaked Mrs. Ordz' nightgown as she gathered her husband up in her stocky arms
and said, "God forgive me, but even this is sexy." She got him into
the car, relieved to see some twitching going on in his neck, and at the
hospital a young doctor said, "Get him right in here. I've treated bee bites before. Oh, isn't he the bee-bite man?"
Mrs.
Ordz said, "I
could just give interns a
good pinch. That's how cute they are to me."
The doctor finally got a
tourniquet and bandage on Mr.
Ordz,
who miraculously regained consciousness for a brief moment and peeked quickly
under the bandage. "There are still people I have to get," he said.
But then a final jet of blood whooshed forward onto the hospital linoleum and
then Mr. Ordz closed his eyes and said no more.
When
he began to see again, people were patting lotions on his face. "You're
getting me ready for a pine box," he said, but there was no reply. More
solutions were patted on his face. He was helped into a tuxedo and then lugged
somewhere.
Out
of the corner of his eye he saw his m.c. and two distinguished executive-type
gentlemen soar out of the top of the building or enclosure he was in. The
executives were holding the m.c. by the elbows and all three had sprouted
wings. Then Mr. Ordz was shoved forward. Hot lights were brought down close to
his face and cameras began to whir. A giant card with large words on it was
lowered before his eyes and one of the lotion people said, "Smile at all
times. All right, begin reading."
"I
don't want to," said Mr. Ordz, "and I'm getting angry enough to spit
in all your eyes, even if I am dead."
But no sound came from his mouth. The lights got hotter. Then he looked at the
card, felt his mouth force into an insincere smile and heard himself saying to
a strange man who sat opposite him in a kind of living room, munching on some
slices of protein bread, "All right now, Simons, I've got exactly one week
to kill you. And I'm not using entertainment talk or anything. I really mean
take your life, stop you from breathing. There's nothing personal about all
this. It's just that I've got to get a sponsor. But before we go any further,
for your viewing entertainment, the Tatzo Trapeze Twins."
I REMEMBER BABYLON
BY ARTHUR C. CLARKE
Arthur
C. Clarke is a pleasantly schizoid Englishman: one side of him writes strictly factual material on
astrophysics, missiles and rocketry {example: "The Exploration of Space," a Book-of-the-Month Club
selection); the other writes imaginative science fiction about the shape of things to come {example:
"Childhood's End" a classic in the field). He succeeded in merging
his two professional personalities in the following story, a disturbing piece
in which fact and fiction are inextricably mingled. It is told in the
first-person singular by a man named Arthur C. Clarke. It takes place in
Ceylon, where Clarke lives. In it, a couple named Mike and Liz appear —Clarke
knows such a couple. When "I Remember Babylon" first appeared, in
the May 1960 playboy, the editors remarked, "We call Clarke's
piece 'fiction,' though it may be only a matter of time—and a short time, at that—before it becomes disastrous
fact." In July of 1962, it did
become fact, if not as yet disastrous
{touch wood)—for that month saw the
launching of Telstar.
MY
NAME is Arthur C. Clarke, and I wish I had no connection with the whole sordid
business, but as the moral —repeat, moral—integrity of the United States is
involved, I must first establish my credentials. Only thus will you understand
how, with the aid of the late Dr. Alfred Kinsey, I have unwittingly triggered
an avalanche that may sweep away much of western civilization.
Back
in 1945, while a radar officer in the Royal Air Force, I had the only original
idea of my life. Twelve years before the first Sputnik started beeping, it
occurred to me that an artificial satellite would be a wonderful place for a
television transmitter, since a station several thousand miles in altitude
could broadcast to half the globe. I wrote up the idea the week after
Hiroshima, proposing a network of relay satellites 22,000 miles above the
equator; at this height, they'd take exactly one day to complete a revolution, and
so would remain fixed over the same spot on the Earth.
The
piece appeared in the October 1945 issue of Wireless World; not expecting that celestial mechanics
would be commercialized in my lifetime, I made no attempt to patent the idea,
and doubt if I could have done so anyway. (If I'm wrong, I'd prefer not to
know.) But I kept plugging it in my books, and today the idea of communications
satellites is so commonplace that no one knows its origin.
I
did make a plaintive attempt to put the record straight when approached by the
House of Representatives Committee on Astronautics and Space Exploration;
you'll find my evidence on page 32 of its report, The Next Ten Years
in Space. And
as you'll see in a moment, my concluding words had an irony I never appreciated
at the time: "Living as I do in the Far East, I am constantly reminded of
the struggle between the western world and the U. S. S. R. for the uncommitted
millions of Asia. . . . When line-of-sight TV transmissions become possible
from satellites directly overhead, the propaganda effect may be decisive. . .
."
I still stand by those words, but there were
angles I hadn't thought of—and which, unfortunately, other people have.
It
all began during one of those official receptions which are such a feature of
social life in eastern capitals. They're even more common in the west, of
course, but in Colombo there's little competing entertainment. At least once a
week, if you are anybody, you get an invitation to cocktails at an embassy or
legation, the British Council, the U. S. Operations Mission, L'Alliance Française, or one of the countless alphabetical agencies
the UN has begotten.
At
first, being more at home beneath the Indian Ocean than in diplomatic circles,
my partner and I were nobodies and were left alone. But after Mike godfathered
Dave Brubeck's tour of Ceylon, people started to take notice of us—still more
so when he married one of the island's best-known beauties. So now our
consumption of cocktails and canapés
is limited chiefly by
reluctance to abandon our comfortable sarongs for such western absurdities as
trousers, dinner jackets and ties.
It
was the first time we'd been to the Soviet Embassy, which was throwing a party
for a group of Russian oceanographers who'd just come into port. Beneath the
inevitable paintings of Lenin and Stalin, a couple of hundred guests of all
colors, religions and languages were milling around, chatting with friends, or
single-mindedly demolishing the vodka and caviar. I'd been separated from Mike
and Elizabeth, but could see them at the other side of the room. Mike was doing
his "There was I at fifty fathoms" bit to a fascinated audience,
while Elizabeth watched him quizzically, and more people watched Elizabeth.
Ever
since I lost an eardrum while pearl diving on the Great Barrier Reef, I've been
at a considerable disadvantage at functions of this kind: the surface noise is
about six db too much for me to cope with. And this is no small handicap, when
being introduced to people with names like Dharmasirawar-dene, Tissaverasinghe,
Goonetilleke and Jayawickrame. When
I'm
not raiding the buffet, therefore, I usually look for a pool of relative quiet
where there's a chance of following more than 50 percent of any conversation in
which I may get involved. I was standing in the acoustic shadow of a large
ornamental pillar, surveying the scene in my detached or Somerset Maugham
manner, when I noticed that someone was looking at me with that "Haven't
we met before?" expression.
I'll
describe him with some care, because there must be many people who can identify
him. He was in the mid-thirties, and I guessed he was American; he had that
well-scrubbed, crew-cut, man-about-Rockefeller-Center look that used to be a
hallmark until the younger Russian diplomats and technical advisers started
imitating it so successfully. He was about six feet in height, with shrewd
brown eyes and black hair, prematurely gray at the sides. Though I was fairly
certain we'd never met before, his face reminded me of someone. It took me a
couple of days to work it out: remember John Garfield? That's who it was, as
near as makes no difference.
When a stranger catches my eye at a party, my
standard operating procedure goes into action automatically. If he seems a
pleasant enough person, but I don't feel like introductions at the moment, I
give him the Neutral Scan, letting my eyes sweep past him without a flicker of
recognition, yet without positive unfriendliness. If he looks a creep, he
receives the couf
d'oeily which
consists of a long, disbelieving stare followed by an unhurried view of the
back of my neck; in extreme cases, an expression of revulsion may be switched
on for a few milliseconds. The message usually gets across.
But
this character seemed interesting, and I was getting bored, so I gave him the
Affable Nod. A few minutes later he drifted over and I aimed my good ear toward
him.
"Hello,"
he said (yes, he was American), "my name's Gene Hartford. I'm
sure we've met somewhere."
"Quite
likely," I answered, "I've spent a good deal of time in the States.
I'm Arthur Clarke."
Usually that produces a blank stare, but
sometimes it doesn't. I could almost see the IBM cards flickering behind those
hard brown eyes, and was flattered by the brevity of his access time.
"The science
writer?"
"Correct."
"Well,
this is fantastic." He seemed genuinely astonished. "Now I know where I've seen you. I was in the
studio once, when you were on the Dave Garroway show."
(This
lead may be worth following up, though I doubt it; and I'm sure that "Gene
Hartford" was phony—it was too smoothly synthetic.)
"So
you're in TV?" I said. "What are you doing here— collecting material,
or just on vacation?"
He
gave me the frank, friendly smile of a man who has plenty to hide.
"Oh, I'm keeping my eyes open. But this
really is amazing;
I read your Exploration
of Space when it came out back
in, ah----- "
"1952;
the Book-of-the-Month Club's never been quite the same since."
All
this time I had been sizing him up, and though there was something about him I
didn't like, I was unable to pin it down. In any case, I was prepared to make
substantial allowances for someone who had read my books and was also in TV;
Mike and I are always on the lookout for markets for our underwater movies. But
that, to put it mildly, was not Hartford's line of business.
"Look,"
he said eagerly. "I've a big network deal cooking that will interest
you—in fact, you helped to give me the idea."
This
sounded promising, and my coefficient of cupidity jumped several points.
"I'm glad to hear it.
What's the general theme?"
"I
can't talk about it here, but could we meet at my hotel, around three
tomorrow?"
"Let me check my
diary; yes, that's OK."
There
are only two hotels in Colombo patronized by Americans, and I guessed right
first time. He was at the Mount Lavinia, and though you may not know it, you've
seen the place where we had our private chat. Around the middle of The Bridge on the River Kwai, there's a brief scene at a military hospital,
where Jack Hawkins meets a nurse and asks her where he can find Bill Holden. We
have a soft spot for this episode, because Mike was one of the convalescent
naval officers in the background. If you look smartly you'll see him on the
extreme right, beard in full profile, signing Sam Spiegel's name to his sixth
round of bar-chits. As the picture turned out, Sam could afford it.
It
was here, on this diminutive plateau high above the miles of palm-fringed
beach, that Gene Hartford started to unload— and my simple hopes of financial
advantage started to evaporate. What his exact motives were, if indeed he knew
them himself, I'm still uncertain. Surprise at meeting me, and a twisted
feeling of gratitude (which I would gladly have done without) undoubtedly
played a part, and for all his air of confidence he must have been a bitter,
lonely man who desperately needed approval and friendship.
He
got neither from me. I have always had a sneaking sympathy for Benedict Arnold,
as must anyone who knows the full facts of the case. But Arnold merely betrayed
his country; no one before Hartford ever tried to seduce it.
What dissolved my dream of dollars was the
news that Hartford's connection with American TV had been severed, somewhat
violently, in the early Fifties. It was clear that he'd been bounced out of
Madison Avenue for Party-lining, and it was equally clear that his was one case
where no grave injustice had been done. Though he talked with a certain
controlled fury of his fight against asinine censorship, and wept for a
brilliant—but unnamed—cultural series he'd had kicked off the air, by this time
I was beginning to smell so many rats that my replies were distinctly guarded.
Yet as my pecuniary interest in Mr. Hartford diminished, so my personal
curiosity increased. Who was behind
him? Surely not the BBC . . .
He
got round to it at last, when he'd worked the self-pity out of his system.
"I've
some news that will make you sit up," he said smugly. "The American
networks are soon going to have some real competition. And it will be done just
the way you predicted; the people who sent a TV transmitter behind the Moon can
put a much bigger one in orbit round the Earth."
"Good
for them," I said cautiously. "I'm all in favor of healthy competition.
When's the launching date?"
"Any
moment now. The first transmitter will be parked due south of New Orleans—on
the equator, of course. That puts it way out in the open Pacific; it won't be
over anyone's territory, so there'll be no political complications on that
score. Yet it will be sitting up there in the sky in full view of everybody
from Seattle to Key West. Think of it—the only TV station the whole United
States can tune into! Yes, even Hawaii! There won't be any way of jamming it;
for the first time, there'll be a clear channel into every American home. And
J. Edgar's Boy Scouts can't do a thing to block it."
So
that's your little racket, I thought; at least you're being frank. Long ago I
learned not to argue with Marxists and Flat-Earthers, but if Hartford was
telling the truth I wanted to pump
him for all he was worth.
"Before
you get too enthusiastic," I said, "there are a few points you may
have overlooked."
"Such as?"
"This
will work both ways. Everyone knows that the Air Force, NASA, Bell Labs, I. T.
&T. and a few dozen other agencies are working on the same project.
Whatever Russia does to the States in the propaganda line, she'll get back with
compound interest."
Hartford grinned
mirthlessly.
"Really, Clarke!" he said (I was
glad he hadn't first-named me). "I'm a little disappointed. Surely you
know that the States is years behind in pay load capacity! And do you imagine
that the old T.3 is Russia's last word?"
It
was at this moment that I began to take him very seriously. He was perfectly
right. The T.3 could inject at least five times the payload
of any American missile into that critical 22,000-mile orbit—the only one that would deliver a satellite apparently fixed
above the Earth. And by the time the U. S. could match that performance, heaven
knows where the Russians would be. Yes, Heaven certainly would know . . .
"All
right," I conceded. "But why should fifty million American homes
start switching channels just as soon as they can tune into Moscow? I admire
the Russian people, but their entertainment is worse than their politics. After
the Bolshoi, what have you? And for me, a little ballet goes a long way."
Once
again I was treated to that peculiarly humorless smile. Hartford had been
saving up his Sunday punch, and now he let me have it.
"You
were the one who brought in the Russians," he said. "They're
involved, sure—but only as contractors. The independent agency I'm working for
is hiring their services."
"That," I
remarked dryly, "must be some agency."
"It
is; just about the biggest. Even though the States tries to pretend it doesn't
exist."
"Oh," I said,
rather stupidly. "So that's your sponsor."
I'd
heard those rumors that the U. S. S. R. was going to launch satellites for the
Chinese; now it began to look as if the rumors fell far short of the truth. But
how far short, I'd still no conception.
"You
are so right," continued Hartford, obviously enjoying himself, "about
Russian entertainment. After the initial novelty, the Nielsen rating would
drop to zero. But not with the programs I'm planning. My job is to find
material that will put everyone else out of business when it goes on the air.
You think it can't be done? Finish that drink and come up to my room. I've a
highbrow movie about ecclesiastical art that I'd like to show you."
Well,
he wasn't crazy, though for a few minutes I wondered. I could think of few
titles more carefully calculated to make the viewer switch channels than the
one that flashed on the screen: aspects of
thirteenth century tantric
sculpture.
"Don't
be alarmed," Hartford chuckled, above the whir of the projector.
"That title saves me having trouble with inquisitive Customs inspectors.
It's perfectly accurate, but we'll change it to something with a bigger
box-office appeal when the time comes."
A
couple of hundred feet later, after some innocuous architectural long-shots, I
saw what he meant . . .
You
may know that there are certain temples in India, covered with superbly
executed carvings of a kind that we in the west scarcely associate with
religion. To say that they are frank is a laughable understatement; they leave
nothing to the imagination—any imagination.
Yet at the same time they are genuine works of art. And so was Hartford's
movie.
It
had been shot, in case you're interested, at the Temple of the Sun, Konarak.
"An awkward place to reach," Hartford told me, "but decidedly
worth the trouble." I've since looked it up; it's on the Orissa coast,
about 25 miles northeast of Puri. The reference books
are pretty mealy-mouthed; some apologize for the "obvious"
impossibility of providing illustrations, but Percy Brown's Indian Architecture minces no words. The carvings, it says
primly, are of "a shamelessly erotic character that have no parallel in
any known building." A sweeping claim, but I can believe it after seeing
that movie.
Camera
work and editing were brilliant, the ancient stones coming to life beneath the
roving lens. There were breathtaking time-lapse shots as the rising sun chased
the shadows from bodies intertwined in ecstasy; sudden startling close-ups of
scenes which at first the mind refused to recognize; soft-focus studies of
stone shaped by a master's hand in all the fantasies and aberrations of love;
restless zooms and pans whose meaning eluded the eye until they froze into
patterns of timeless desire, eternal fulfillment. The music—mostly percussion,
with a thin, high thread of sound from some stringed instrument that I could not identify—perfectly fitted the tempo of the cutting. At one
moment it would be languorously slow, like the opening bars of Debussy's L'Afres-midi; then
the drums would swiftly work themselves up to a frenzied, almost unendurable
climax. The art of the ancient sculptors, and the skill of the modern
cameraman, had combined across the centuries to create a poem of rapture, an
orgasm on celluloid which I would
defy any man to watch unmoved.
There
was a long silence when the screen flooded with light and the lascivious music
ebbed into exhaustion.
"My
God!" I said, when I had recovered some of my composure. "Are you going to telecast that?"
Hartford laughed.
"Believe
me," he answered, "that's nothing; it just happens to be the only
reel I can carry round safely. We're prepared to
defend it any day on grounds of genuine art, historic interest, religious
tolerance—oh, we've thought of all the angles. But it doesn't really matter; no
one can stop us. For the first time in history, any form of censorship's become
utterly impossible. There's simply no way of enforcing it; the customer can get
what he wants, right in his own home. Lock the door, switch on the TV set to
our—dare I call it our blue network?—and settle back.
Friends and family will never know."
"Very
clever," I said, "but don't you think such a diet
will soon pall?"
"Of
course; variety is the spice of life. We'll have plenty of conventional
entertainment; let me worry about that. And every so often we'll
have information programs—I hate
that word propaganda—to tell the cloistered American public what's really happening in the world. Our
special features will just be the bait."
"Mind
if I have some fresh air," I said. "It's getting stuffy in
here."
Hartford
drew the curtains and let daylight back into the room. Below us lay that long
curve of beach, with outrigger fishing boats drawn up beneath the palms, and
little waves falling in foam at the end of their weary march from Africa. One
of the loveliest sights in the world, but I couldn't focus on it now. I was
still seeing those writhing stone limbs, those faces frozen with passions which
the centuries could not slake.
That slick voice continued
behind my back.
"You'd
be astonished if you knew just how much material there is. Remember, we've
absolutely no taboos. If you can film it, we can telecast it."
He
walked over to his bureau and picked up a heavy, dogeared volume.
"This
has been my bible," he said, "or my Sears, Roebuck, if you prefer.
Without it, I'd never have sold the series to my sponsors. They're great
believers in science, and they swallowed the whole thing, down to the last
decimal point. Recognize it?"
I
nodded; whenever I enter a room, I always monitor my host's literary tastes.
"Dr. Kinsey, I
presume."
"I
guess I'm the only man who's read it from cover to cover, and not just looked
up his own vital statistics. You see, it's the only piece of market research in
its field. Until something better comes along, we're making the most of it. It
tells us what the customer wants, and we're going to supply it."
"All of it? Some people have odd tastes."
"That's
the beauty of the movie you just saw—it appeals to just about every
taste."
"You can say that
again," I muttered.
He saw that I was beginning
to get bored; there are some kinds of single-mindedness that I find depressing.
But I had done Hartford an injustice, as he hastened to prove.
"Please
don't think," he said anxiously, "that sex is our only weapon. Exposé
is almost as good. Ever see the job Ed Murrow did on the late sainted Joe
McCarthy? That was milk and water compared with the profiles we're planning in Washington Confidential.
"And
there's our Can
You Take It? series,
designed to separate the men from the milksops. We'll issue so many advance
warnings that every red-blooded American will feel he has to watch the show. It
will start innocently enough, on ground nicely prepared by Hemingway. You'll
see some bullfighting sequences that will really lift you out of your seat —or
send you running to the bathroom—because they show all the little details you
never get in those cleaned-up Hollywood movies.
We'll
follow that with some really unique material that cost us exactly nothing. Do
you remember the photographic evidence the Niirnburg war trials turned up?
You've never seen it, because it wasn't publishable. There were quite a few
amateur photographers in the concentration camps, who made the most of
opportunities they'd never get again. Some of them were hanged on the testimony
of their own cameras, but their work wasn't wasted. It will lead nicely into
our series Torture
Through the Ages—very
scholarly and thorough, yet with a remarkably wide appeal . . .
"And
there are dozens of other angles, but by now you'll have the general picture.
The Avenue thinks it knows all about Hidden Persuasion—believe me, it doesn't.
The world's best practical
psychologists are in the
east these days. Remember Korea, and brainwashing? We've learned a lot since
then. There's no need for violence any more; people enjoy being brainwashed, if
you set about it the right way."
"And
you," I said, "are going to brainwash the United States. Quite an
order."
"Exactly—and the country will love it,
despite all the screams from Congress and the churches. Not to mention the
networks, of course. They'll make the biggest fuss of all, when they find they
can't compete with us."
Hartford glanced at his
watch, and gave a whistle of alarm.
"Time
to start packing," he said. "I've got to be at that unpronounceable
airport of yours by six. There's no chance, I suppose, that you can fly over to
Macao and see us sometime?"
"Not
a hope; but I've got a pretty good idea of the picture now. And incidentally,
aren't you afraid I'll spill the beans?"
"Why
should I be? The more publicity you can give us, the better. Although our
advertising campaign doesn't go into top gear for a few months yet, I feel
you've earned this advance notice. As I said, your books helped to give me the
idea."
His
gratitude was guite genuine, by God; it left me completely speechless.
"Nothing
can stop us," he declared—and for the first time the fanaticism that
lurked behind that smooth, cynical fagade was not altogether under control.
"History is on our side. We'll be using America's own decadence as a
weapon against her, and it's a weapon for which there's no defense. The Air
Force won't attempt space piracy by shooting down a satellite nowhere near
American territory. The FCC can't even protest to a country that doesn't exist
in the eyes of the State Department. If you've any other suggestions, I'd be
most interested to hear them."
I
had none then, and I have none now. Perhaps these words may give some brief
warning before the first teasing advertisements appear in the trade papers,
and may start stirrings of elephantine alarm among the networks. But will it
make any difference? Hartford did not think so, and he may be right.
"History
is on our side." I cannot get those words out of my head. Land of Lincoln
and Franklin and Melville, I love you and I wish you well. But into my heart
blows a cold wind from the past; for I remember Babylon.
WORD
OF HONOR
by robert bloch
With his novel "Psycho," Robert
Bloch reinforced the enviable refutation he had established some years earlier
by his famous short story, "Yours Truly, Jack the Ripper." In between
these two landmarks of his career, he turned out a wealth of cunning fiction,
and ever since "Psycho" became a landmark of Alfred Hitchcock's
career as well, Bloch has been lucratively busy writing for the motion picture
and television screens, in addition to fashioning fiction for playboy.
He also finds time to be an
incorrigible punster, a pungent raconteur, and an in-demand after-dinner
speaker at meetings of organizations such as The Count Dracula Society.
"Word of Honor" puts a few new kinks in a question that has troubled
mankind at least as far back as jesting Pilate: "What is truth?"
AT
2:27 IN THE AFTERNOON, Homer Gans, cashier, entered the office of his employer,
the President of the First National Bank.
"I've got something to tell you,"
he murmured. "It's about the reserve fund. I'm into it for 40,000
dollars." "You're whatV
"I embezzled from the reserve
fund," Homer said. "Been doing it for years now, and nobody ever
caught on. Some of the money went to play the races, and a lot of it has been
paying somebody's rent. You wouldn't think to look at me that I'd be keeping a
blonde on the side. But then, you don't know how it is at home."
The
President frowned. "Oh yes I do," he answered, taking a deep breath.
"As a matter of fact, I happen to be keeping a blonde myself. Though to
tell the truth, she isn't a natural blonde."
Homer
hesitated, then sighed. "To tell the truth," he said, "neither
is mine."
Between
2:28 and 2:43, quite a number of things happened. A model nephew told his rich
and elderly uncle to go to hell and quit trying to run his life. An equally
model husband told his wife he had hated her and their children for years and
frequently wished they'd all drop dead. A star shoe salesman told a female
customer to quit wasting time trying on small sizes and go out and buy a couple
of rowboats. At one of the embassies, a visiting diplomat paused in the midst of
a flattering toast and abruptly emptied the contents of his glass upon the bald
head of the American Ambassador.
And-----
"Holy Toledo!" howled Wally
Tibbets, Managing Editor of the Daily Express. "Has
everybody flipped?" Reporter Joe Satterlee shrugged.
"In
nine years on this rag, I've never pulled that 'Stop the presses!' stuff. But
we're standing by for a replate right now— and we're going to stand by until we
find out what gives. Got enough lead copy for a dozen front pages right now,
and none of it makes sense."
"Such as?" Satterlee gazed calmly
at his boss.
"Take
your pick. Our senior Senator just issued a statement of resignation—says he's
unfit to hold office. That labor leader who built the big new union
headquarters uptown went and shot himself. Police headquarters can't keep up
with the guys who are coming in and confessing everything from murder to
mopery. And if you think that's something, you ought to hear what's going on
down in the advertising department. Clients are canceling space like mad. Three
of the biggest used<ar dealers in town just yanked their ads."
Joe Satterlee yawned.
"What goes on here?"
"That's
just what I want you to find out. And fast." Wally Tibbets stood up.
"Go see somebody and get a statement. Try the University. Tackle the
science department."
Satterlee nodded and went
downstairs to his car.
Traffic
seemed to be disrupted all over the city, and something had happened to the
pedestrians. Some of them were running and the others moved along in a daze or
merely stood silently in the center of the sidewalk. Faces had lost their usual
mask of immobility. Some people laughed and others wept. Over in the grass of
the University campus, a number of couples lay locked in close embrace,
oblivious of still other couples who were fighting furiously. Joe Satterlee
blinked at what he saw and drove on.
At
3:02 he drove up to the Administration Building. A burly man stood on the curb,
doing a little dance of impatience. He looked as though he wanted either a taxi
or a washroom, but fast.
"Pardon me," Satterlee said.
"Is Dean Hanson's office in this building?" "I'm Hanson,"
the burly man snapped.
"My name's Satterlee, I'm with the Daily Express---- "
"Good Lord, do they
know already?"
"Know what?"
"Never
mind." Dean Hanson shook his head. "Can't talk to you now. Got to
find a cab. I suppose I'll never get to the airport."
"Leaving town?"
"No. I've got to get my hands on Doctor
Lowenquist. He's
at the bottom of all this--- "
Satterlee
opened the door. "Come on, get in," he said. "I'll drive you to
the airport. We can talk on the way."
A
wind came out of the west and the sun disappeared to cower behind a cloud.
"Storm
coming up," Dean Hanson muttered. "That damned fool better land
before it hits."
"Lowenquist,"
Satterlee said. "Isn't he head of the School of Dentistry?"
"That's right,"
Hanson sighed. "All this nonsense about
mad scientists is bad enough, but a mad dentist "
"What did he do?"
"He
chartered a plane this afternoon, all by himself, and took it up over the city.
He's been spraying the town with that gas of his," Hanson sighed. "I
don't know anything about science. I'm just a poor University Dean, and my job
is to get money out of rich alumni. But the way I hear it, Lowenquist was
monkeying around with chemical anesthetics. He mixed up a new combination—like
pentothal sodium, sodium amytal —only a lot stronger and more
concentrated."
"Aren't
those used in psychotherapy, for narcohypnosis?" Satterlee asked.
"What they call truth serums?"
"This isn't a serum.
It's a gas."
"You
can say that again," Satterlee agreed. "So he waited for a clear,
windless day and went up in a plane to dust the city with a concentrated truth
gas. Is that a fact?"
"Of
course it is," Hanson replied. "You know I can't lie to you." He
sighed again. "Nobody can lie any more. Apparently the stuff is so
powerful that one sniff does the trick. Psychiatry department gives me a lot of
flap about inhibitory release and bypassing the superego and if a man answers,
hang up. But what it all boils down to is the gas works. Everybody who was outside, everybody with an
open window or an air-conditioning unit, was affected. Almost the entire city.
They can't lie any more. They don't even want to
lie."
"Wonderful!"
Satterlee exclaimed, glancing up at the gathering storm clouds.
"Is it? I'm not so sure. When the story
hits the papers, it'll
give the whole school a bad name. I shouldn't even have told
you, but I can't help myself. I just feel the need to be frank
about everything. That's what I was telling my secretary,
before she slapped my face- "
Satterlee
wheeled into the airport. "That your boy up there?" He pointed
upward, at a small plane careening between the clouds in the sudden gale.
"Yes," Hanson shouted. "He's
trying to come in for a
landing, I think. But the wind's too strong- "
A
sudden lance of lightning pierced the sky. The plane wobbled and began to spin.
Satterlee
gunned the motor and turned off onto the field. In the distance a siren wailed,
and through the rushing rain he could see the plane spiraling down in a crazy
dive . . .
Wally
Tibbets leaned back and pushed his chair away from the desk.
"That's how it happened," Satterlee
told him. "The poor guy was dead before they pulled him out of the wreckage.
But they found the tanks and equipment. He had the papers on him, and I
persuaded Hanson to turn the stuff over to me; he was in such a daze he didn't
even think to object. So now we can back up the story with proof. I've got
copies of the formula he discovered. I suppose we'll feed the dope in to the
wire services, too."
Tibbets shook his head. "Nope, I'm going
to answer all
inquiries with a flat denial."
"But the story-------- "
"Isn't going to be any story. All over
now, anyway. Didn't you notice how people changed after that storm hit? Wind
must have blown the gas away. Everyone's back to normal. Most of them have
already convinced themselves that nothing ever happened."
"But
we know it did! What about all those story leads you
got this afternoon?"
"Killed.
Ever since the storm, we've been getting denials and retractions. Turns out the
Senator isn't resigning after all —he's running for Governor. The labor boy's
shooting himself was an accident. The police can't get anyone to sign their
confessions. The advertisers are placing new copy again. Mark my words, by
tomorrow morning this whole town will have forgotten—they'll will themselves to forget. Nobody can face the truth and remain sane."
"That's
a terrible way to think," Satterlee said. "Doctor Lowenquist was a
great man. He knew his discovery could work—not just here, but everywhere.
After this trial run he meant to take a plane up over Washington, fly over
Moscow, all the capitals of the world. Because this truth gas could change the world. Don't you see that?"
"Of course I see it.
But the world shouldn't be changed."
"Why
not?" Satterlee squared his shoulders. "Look here, I've been
thinking. I have the formula. I could carry on where Lowenquist left off. I've
saved some money. I could hire pilots and planes. Don't you think the world
needs a dose of truth?"
"No.
You saw what happened here today, on just a small scale."
"Yes.
Criminals confessed, crooks reformed, people stopped lying to one another. Is
that so bad?"
"About
the criminals, no. But for ordinary human beings this could be a terrible
thing. You don't see what happens when the doctor tells his patient that he's
dying of cancer, when the wife tells her husband he's not actually the father
of their son. Everybody has secrets, or almost everybody. It's better not to
know the whole truth—about others, or about yourself."
"But look at what goes
on in the world today."
"I
am looking. That's my job—to sit at this desk and watch the world go round.
Sometimes it's a dizzy spin, but at least it keeps going. Because people keep
going. And they need lies to help them. Lies about abstract justice, and
romantic love everlasting. The belief that right always triumphs. Even our
concept of democracy may be a lie. Yet we cherish these lies and do our best to
live by them. And maybe, little by little, our belief helps make these things
come true. It's a slow process, but in the long run it seems to work. Animals
don't lie, you know. Only human beings know how to pretend, how to make
believe, how to deceive themselves and others. But that's why they're human
beings.'1
"Maybe
so," Satterlee said. "Yet think of the opportunity I have. I could
even stop war."
"Perhaps.
Military and political leaders might face up to the truth about their motives
and change—temporarily."
"We
could keep on spraying," Satterlee broke in, eagerly. "There are
other honest men. We'd raise funds, make this a long-term project. And who
knows? Perhaps after a few doses, the change would become permanent. Don't you
understand? We could end war!"
"I understand," Tibbets told him.
"You could end war between nations. And start hundreds of millions of individual wars instead. Wars waged in human minds and
human hearts. There'd be a wave of insanity, a wave of suicides, a wave of
murders. There'd be a tidal inundation of truth that would drown the home, the
family, the whole social structure."
"I realize it's a
risk. But think of what we all might gain."
Tibbets
put his hand on the younger man's shoulder. "I want you to forget this
whole business," he said, soberly. "Don't plan to manufacture this
gas and spray it over the Capitol or the Kremlin. Don't do it, for all our
sakes."
Satterlee was silent, staring out into the
night. Far in the distance a jet plane screamed.
"You're
an honest man," Tibbets said. "One of the few. I dig that, and I
admire you for it. But you've got to be realistic and see things my way. All I
want is for you to tell me now that you won't try anything foolish. Leave the
world the way it is." He paused. "Will you give me your word of
honor?"
Satterlee
hesitated. He was an honest man, he realized, and so his answer
was a long time coming. Then, "I promise," Satterlee lied.
JOHN GRANT'S LITTLE ANGEL
BY WALT GROVE
Walt
Grove's "tremendous vitality" has been commended by no less a
colleague than Nobel Prize-winner John Steinbeck. He was born in Dallas, and
during World War Two saw service in the Arctic, the setting of his famous first novel,
"Down," which The Atlantic
called a "tense,
irresistible adventure." Grove is the author of numerous playboy stories. Of
them, one of the most affeating is
this modern fantasy about an ad exec who has a guardian angel. In the hands of television's situation-whimsy hacks,
such a theme could be unbearably coy and cloying. But in the hands of Walt Grove, it is a bright and bittersweet
cautionary tale.
WHEN
GRANT got off the 10:05 from Stamford, at Grand Central, he walked out the
Lexington exit, but instead of going to his office, he went to a bar on Third
Avenue. He had a bad hangover and felt guilty as hell. All the way in town, on
the train, he had kept thinking, What in God's name am I going to do? The night
before, in one impetuous, passionate moment, he had thrown away his entire
future.
"Black
and White, and soda," he said to the bartender, and his fingers trembled
as he took out his wallet. He drank down the Scotch and said, "Make it a
double this time, in a tall glass with lots of ice."
"Yes, sir."
Grant
picked up a dime from the change lying on the bar and walked back to the
telephone booth. He called his office and asked for his secretary. "Ruby,
don't let on who this is, don't say my name, but has Fred been in yet this
morning?"
"Yes,
sir," Ruby said. She was quite a bit older than the other girls and,
possibly because of that, intensely loyal to Grant. "He's out now, though,
with a client. Then he's got a lunch date. He'll be back around three."
Grant
licked his dry lips. "Well, has Jack Regal called me this morning?"
"No, sir."
"Well,
has he called Fred? This is very important to me, dear. I've got to know if
Jack Regal has tried to get in touch with Fred, in any way, this morning."
"I don't know."
Grant
was sweating, and it wasn't only because he was in a phone booth. "Listen,
try to find out. But be discreet. I don't want Fred, or anyone, to know I'm
trying to find out. And, Ruby, would you mind sticking around until I come in?
You can go out to lunch at one o'clock or so."
"Oh, of course."
Grant
went back to the bar. Fred would never have done anything so foolish, he was
thinking; Fred would never do what I did with a prospective client's wife. He
told himself he would not be surprised if Fred wanted to dissolve the partnership.
They owned, jointly, what Grant called "the world's smallest advertising
agency." It was really not that small, but if the agency did not survive
and prosper, there would be only two mourners at the deathbed: Fred and
himself—and, of course, their wives and children. And if they didn't survive,
Grant knew it would be his fault.
For six months he had been trying to get the
account of Regal Frocks. They created, manufactured and distributed clothing
for girls ten years old and younger. ("A Regal Frock belongs on your little princess.") The
corporation was run by Jack Regal, a young, muscular, aggressive man who was
rapidly growing bald. The Regal account was a big account, a national account,
and Grant and Fred had nothing like it. For six months Grant had slaved to get
it, and then the night before had thrown it all away.
Jack
Regal and his wife Jackie—her name was Judith, but everyone called her
Jackie—had invited Grant and his wife Edith to dinner at their home in the
Riverdale section of the Bronx. It was on nearly an acre of ground, a big,
comfortable house. As soon as Grant and Edith had arrived, Jack had taken them
down to the playroom where he had his electric trains. There was a bar,
comfortable chairs and sofas, and everything was monogrammed J & J. Jack
made martinis in a pitcher only slightly smaller than an umbrella stand and
they had several before Jackie, who had been with the children, came down.
When
Grant looked at her he experienced a sudden burst of sexual feeling, of a sort
he couldn't remember having had since college days. He was surprised, because
she was not unusual in appearance: too short to be beautiful, too rounded to be
chic. But when they were introduced, and Grant took her hand, he felt her
fingers tremble in his. For a second she looked into his eyes, and he saw the
same desire that he was feeling.
Grant had not had an affair since he had been
married;
when
he'd had chances he hadn't wanted to take time from work. He hadn't cared that
much. If someone had asked his opinion about it, he would have said casually,
"Oh, I imagine it's the rare couple who spend their adult lives together
without something of that sort happening." But when he looked at Jackie
Regal, what he felt was far from casual.
If
it hadn't been for the damn martinis. Three times the maid came downstairs to
ask if she should serve. And each time Jack had said no, they'd have a couple
more. And they all four had got drunk.
Grant
remembered getting up, with the honest intention of finding a bathroom. He
could not remember if Jackie had left the playroom before he had or not. But he
did remember encountering her in a butler's pantry, a small room with swinging
doors. He had held out his arms, and she had come into them, and they had glued
themselves together. Then the door behind him had swung open, and someone had
said, "Oh, sorry," and the door had closed.
Jackie
had jumped away, but too late. "I don't think he saw," she said
huskily, looking at him and licking her lips as if he would be delicious to
eat. "You go wash your face."
But
Grant had known that only a blind man would not have seen. And, standing in the
butler's pantry, he had known, too, that he had lost what he had worked for so
hard. "All right, I'll wash my face," he had said mournfully, and he
had.
When
Grant returned to the playroom he saw the stiffness, felt the silence, of the
three of them sitting there. Jack had seen and, obviously, had told Edith.
Grant's memory of dinner was of drinking as much wine as he could, to blot out
horror. He could not remember saying good night, nor driving back to Stamford.
Edith had driven in to New York to meet him; perhaps she had driven them home.
She had been asleep when he left that morning, but she would certainly be awake
when he got home that night.
Oh, God, Grant thought,
what am I going to do?
"Don't worry," someone said in a
soft voice. "Things will work out much better than you imagine."
Grant
turned. A girl was sitting on a bar stool next to him; he hadn't seen her come
in, he'd been so sunk in himself. She could not be older than 21, he knew, and she was wearing the feminine version of the classic
Chesterfield and carrying an ebony stick with a plain ivory head. Grant had
never seen so young a girl carry a stick, and he thought for a moment she had a
disability, perhaps a twisted ankle from a skiing weekend, but no, her legs
appeared to be in excellent condition. She wore no hat and her hair was
golden, not blonde, but a gold that glowed in the darkness of the bar.
What
she said had startled Grant—and then angered him; he felt it an invasion of
privacy for someone to read his mind. "I beg your pardon?" he said,
sounding cool.
"I
said, the first one of the day," the girl said, smiling. "There's
nothing like the first drink of the day." Without taking off her glove she
lifted her glass.
"Are you sure that's what you said?" Grant asked.
"Of course," she
said. "What did you think?"
Grant
shook his head. If he was having auditory hallucinations he wasn't going to
talk about it in bars, he was going to a doctor.
"Well,
happy days," the girl said, and she drank, then sighed with pleasure.
Quite abruptly, she blushed. "Oh, I don't ordinarily drink at this time of
day, but, you see, for me it's really five o'clock." She pushed back the
right sleeve of her coat and glanced at a large, practical-looking wrist watch.
"Eight minutes past, to be exact."
Grant
stared at her. "You don't wear two wrist watches, do you?"
"Why, how did you know?" she said.
"Yes, one on my left
wrist, with local time"—she showed him. "And this other one,
with----- "
"Greenwich mean
time," Grant finished for her.
She hesitated. "Well, no. It has the
time where I came from. But the idea is the same. How did you know?"
"I
knew a pilot," Grant said. "He made that long flight to Australia and
back. He got in the habit of wearing two watches. You aren't a pilot?"
"Well, I fly."
"But, I mean, not a
transport pilot."
"No,
they don't let me transport groups of people," she said, and she sounded
rather sad.
"Well,
that's not unusual," Grant said. "I'd be very surprised if an airline
did hire you."
"Oh,
you say that only because I'm female," she said, her lovely little chin
rising. "If you had read history, you'd know that both males and females were involved in transporting people by air—frequently large groups of people—from the earliest days."
It
seemed to Grant he had read a newspaper item about a woman back in the Twenties
who'd flown copilot for a New England airline. "You're involved with
flying, then?"
"Oh,
yes. I fly all over the world, all the time. But I fly alone."
"You mean you pilot a plane-- "
"Oh,
no," she said quickly. "I simply meant I fly alone, by myself. But
someday," she added softly, "someday I'm going to transport groups of
people. Someday they'll let me."
"The people you work
for? How do you know?"
"The
higher-ups," she said, nodding and looking into the distance. "Oh, I
know they will. You see, that's what I was made for, really."
Grant couldn't picture her daintiness at the
controls of a
Mach Three jet transport. It was impossible. "Well, a lot of us
feel we have talents we don't possess. It's only when we test
our desires in reality-- "
"I
tell you, I was made for it," the girl said. "It's the thing I was made for. But I've got to convince the higher-ups now."
"Show them you can,
you mean?"
"Oh,
they knovz I can," she sajd. "No, I have to prove I'm worthy. You
see, when I was younger, I got into trouble. I got drunk in Chicago."
Grant smiled. "Most
kids get tight sometime."
"But
I was drunk from the night before Thanksgiving until two days after New
Year's Eve," she said. "Does that shock you?"
"It surprises
me," Grant said.
"I
was just a baby then," she said, explaining. "I was so new. I got drunk and lived in expensive hotels and bought marvelous
clothes and went on the town every night and spent all the gold they'd given me
and charged things and ran up enormous bills. And twice I picked pockets."
"Really," Grant
said.
She
leaned close to him and whispered, "It's not hard. Want me to show
you?"
"No," Grant said.
"I don't think so."
"Well, here's your wallet, anyway,"
she said, handing him his wallet; it had been in his jacket pocket.
"No wonder you got in trouble,"
Grant said. "Drinking that
way and spending company money and stealing." He looked at
her closely. "There was a man involved, too, wasn't there? A
handsome, no-good, worthless- "
She
blushed a pretty, rosy pink. "That is none of your concern," she said
stiffly. "And you are no one to lecture me, John Grant. You drink that way,
too, sometimes. And you have been involved with women."
"Oh,
that's a cute trick," Grant said. "But I'll tell you how you did it.
My name's in my wallet. And you know I've been drunk because that's only human.
And, as for women, well, you're guessing."
She
giggled. "Oh, that's the easiest of all. You're a man. It's bound to
happen."
Grant smiled. "Your
headquarters in New York?"
194 JOHN GRANT'S LITTLE ANGEL
"No, they're elsewhere. But I come here
often. I like it. There's so much life, so many people." She hesitated.
"You'll probably think I'm crazy, but you know what I do when I'm here? I
go down to the Bowery, and if I find someone who's really down and out, and
sick, I buy him a drink, and get him a meal and a place to sleep. I always do.
You probably think I'm crazy."
"No,
that's a kind thing to do," Grant said seriously. "I think that's a
real act of kindness."
"Oh,
do you really?" she said, looking at him with her eyes shining. "I'm so glad you told me that. You see, I'm not very good at denning
things."
"It's an act of
kindness," Grant said stoutly.
"Well,
I'd like to tell you something else," she said, and she leaned closer to
him. "I'm not a nut or anything, I don't want you to think that, but I
meditate."
"You meditate?"
he said.
She nodded. "Yes, I do. Now and then.
Pretty frequently, actually. And I'd like to tell you about it." "All
right," Grant said.
"Some
people think you have to go to a chapel or temple, some place that's got a sign
that says open daily for rest,
meditation and prayer.
But you don't. I find sacred places. I mean, I could sit down in that booth and meditate, but it's better in a sacred place."
"A sacred place?"
he said.
"You
find them when you're closest to nature. Perhaps at the shore, at night, with
phosphorescence coming in with the waves. Or alone in the stillness of a pine
forest. I recommend those places to you. It's an experience that will be
beneficial and rewarding for you."
"Well, I like
nature," Grant said.
She
glanced at her watch, the large one on her right wrist. "Oh, I must fly.
But I'll buy you one quick drink," she said, signaling the bartender.
"No, I'll buy
you."
"Oh, no," she said. "I have
to." She lifted the fresh glass and smiled at him. "Happy days."
"Amen to that," Grant said.
She put her gloved hand on his shoulder, then
lightly against his cheek. "Bless you," she said. "What?"
Grant said.
"I
said goodbye to you. Tell me, do you have some problem with your hearing?"
"Oh, no. No,"
Grant said firmly.
She
walked to the door, then suddenly turned back. She was carrying the ebony stick
in her right hand and she lifted it, gesturing at him. "Oh, there was one
other thing. You're to take very good care of your women." Then she
laughed, winked at him and walked out.
Oh,
hell, I forgot to ask her name, Grant thought. He went to the door, glanced
down the street, then across the block. She was gone. She had probably got
right into a cab. Grant walked back to the bar, smiling. What a charming girl,
he was thinking. A real little angel. His hangover seemed to be cured.
Grant left the bar and walked uptown. He did
not want to go to his office. At 51st Street he turned and walked east to the
river. He leaned against a railing, staring at the water, standing so still a
sea gull circled twice over his head before deciding Grant was not edible, or
would not make a firm perch. It had been years since he had stood there. When
he had first worked in New York he had gone there almost every day. He had
stared at the water and planned what he would accomplish. Sometimes he had told
Frances. She was his girl then. A Greenwich Village girl with a copy of
something by Sartre under her arm, talking to people instead of going to her
classes at the New School. They had lived in one room with an electric hot
plate and no refrigerator, and they had washed dishes in the bathroom. Sundays
she got up before he did, walked to Sutter's and bought pastry for breakfast.
When she returned, it would still be warm. The sea gull alighted on the
railing.
"I'll
tell you something, bird," Grant said. "It's a long way from an
electric hot plate to Stamford, Connecticut. And I don't plan on losing any of
it. Not one lousy dandelion, not one miserable crab-grass seed.
Understand?"
The sea gull screamed in
horror and flew off.
Grant
stared into his palm, as if his life rested there. Two full acres of Fairfield
County with an authentic 19th Century house and an authentic 20th Century
swimming pool; a full-time maid who slept in, and a part-time gardener; a Buick
station wagon, a Porsche, an old Morgan he tinkered with on weekends; soon he
would buy a boat—his son was seven, old enough to learn to sail; the children
went to the proper schools in winter, and in summer to proper camps; a
full-time wife, Edith, who also slept in; she was always doing something for
the League of Women Voters or something; she had got him to adopt the Greek
girl—oh, you didn't really adopt them, you only sent money and wrote letters;
and he had his partnership with Fred.
Grant
closed his hand, as if he had seen the future. My God, it's only one account, he thought. If I've lost it, I've lost it. There are other
accounts; And Edith will have to understand that I was tight, that's all. She knows that.
Grant
walked back across town. He saw a cigar store and went inside and telephoned
Jack Regal. The secretary asked him to hold, please.
In
seconds Regal was on the line. "Grant? Jesus, buddy, you still alive today?"
"Well,
I spent the morning curing a hangover," Grant said. "Do you know, I
don't even remember leaving your house? I don't remember driving to
Stamford."
"Listen,
I don't remember dinner"
Jack said. "The last I
remember was sitting, laughing and drinking it up in the playroom. Then, boom! it's nine o'clock this morning and Jackie's giving me hell for getting
us stinking. Listen, did we ever have dinner?"
My
God, he doesn't remember, Grant thought. He doesn't remember me with his wife;
he was too drunk! "I'll put it this way, Jack. From what I remember the
wine was excellent. But, why I called. Could I buy you a lunch?"
"Not
today, buddy. I got long-distance calls hanging on right this minute. Let's
make it lunch tomorrow and I'll pick you up, because we got to discuss details.
I decided I want you and Fred to handle my account. I decided you and Fred will
devote the time and energy to my account that I want devoted to it."
I
got it, Grant thought. I got it, after all! "Jack, that's wonderful,"
he said. "We appreciate that very much. Both Fred and I appreciate it very
much."
"So I got to go now,
buddy. Calls waiting."
"Lunch tomorrow,"
Grant reminded him.
He was still smiling when
he walked into his office.
His secretary took off her glasses and
pinched the bridge of
her nose, something she did when she was nervous. "Mrs.
Grant is in your office, Mr. Grant. She wanted to wait for you.
She, well, she seemed upset, so "
"That's
all right, Ruby," Grant said. But he thought, Damn it, not here. He
couldn't afford a scene in the office; he'd get her into a cab, take her to
lunch. He went briskly into his office, said, "Hello baby," to his
wife, and kissed her.
Edith
was tall, blonde, and always immaculately groomed. But she looked as if she had
just dashed from catastrophe, flinging herself into clothes as she ran. He knew
that Jack Regal might not remember seeing, but that Edith remembered hearing,
or something.
"Are
you as hung over as I am, doll?" he said. "I had a couple, but I'm
going to have one more. How about you?"
Edith closed her eyes, as
if she couldn't bear to look at life.
"I
should be in bed, but I had to talk to you. I had to talk to you face to face,
not over a phone."
Oh,
God, Grant thought. He walked to a small bar in the corner of the room.
"I'll make some highballs. And tell you some good news. I got Jack Regal's
account."
Edith
took a deep drink from her glass. "I don't like some things you have to do
to get accounts."
"Mixing
business with our social life?" Grant said. "Oh, I'll be able to hire
a bright young man to do that now."
"Oh,
I don't understand how you can be so calm!" she burst out. "You know what happened last night. I don't see how you can stand there and look
at me so calmly! Don't you care? Don't you care about anything but the
agency?" And she began to weep.
"Let
me fix you another drink, baby," Grant said heavily. "And I'll try to
explain."
When
Edith did weep, which was seldom, she went all out, sobbing, hiccuping, her
nose running, strangling for breath. After the second drink she gained some
control. "Never in my life have I felt so ashamed and embarrassed, so
deeply, deeply ashamed and embarrassed."
"Well," Grant
said, taking a long breath.
"Oh,
I would have told you about it," Edith said. "Even if you hadn't
walked in and seen
me with that horrible
little man. I would have told you about it."
Grant lifted his glass
carefully and drank.
"It
was bad enough what I did. Letting him paw me like that. I mean, this morning
when I realized I'd let him, not even saying no. Oh, my God. Then you walked in and there we were, sprawled on that sofa . . ." She began to sob
again.
When
the hell did that happen, Grant thought. He did not remember anything about
that.
"Oh,
how can you stand me?" she wept. "I've never done that since we've
been married. I feel so ashamed."
"Now cut that out," Grant said,
rather automatically. "That's not getting us anywhere."
The phone on his desk buzzed. He had forgot
to tell Ruby no calls. "Yes?" he said into the phone.
"There's
a woman calling who won't give her last name. I thought it might be a friend,
from Stamford or someplace. She said to tell you Jackie."
Grant
felt the skin on the back of his neck prickle. Her name brought back her image.
He could remember her fingers trembling in his palm, kissing her and the taste
of perfume.
"Get the number,"
he said. "I'll try to call back."
As
he put the phone down he thought, Maybe she saw
Edith with Regal, maybe she's going to make trouble. But how could she cause
trouble? Regal ran the corporation. And then another thought occurred to Grant:
But perhaps Regal's wife runs him. Oh, Goddamn, Grant thought. Now I'll have to
call her back, I'll have to see her.
"I'll go," Edith
said. "I'm interrupting."
"No,
stay," he said quickly. He smoothed her forehead with his hand and smiled.
"Look, you never saw that guy before. You haven't been having an affair
with him. You got a little tight at a party, a little affectionate."
"I went pretty
far," Edith said soberly.
"Listen, you know when a person gets
loaded the censor in
his mind relaxes. Last night Regal reminded you of something
subconscious. Some old, atavistic thing, connected with your
past, perhaps your father-- "
"Oh, no! Daddy's a
tall man."
"That doesn't matter. As far as you and
I are concerned,
Jack Regal is a father figure. An authority figure. Because he
controls the money, money that I want. And so you are bound
to react as if he was-- "
Edith
shook her head. "No. It's simpler than that, I'm afraid. I didn't want to
go to dinner there, I didn't like him or his wife. I was leading him on,
really. Just so that, finally, I could say no to him. To put him down, to put
him in his place. I was being a bitch."
Grant saw she no longer felt so bad.
"Look, do you want another drink? Because I want you to get on a train and
go home and sleep. I want dinner in tonight, not out."
"No,
not another," Edith said. She kissed him goodbye quickly. "See you
later," she said, smiling at him as if she were promising him something.
Grant
gave her ten minutes to go downstairs and get a cab for Grand Central. Then he
put on his topcoat and went out to his secretary. "Ruby, dear, this isn't
my day. Something's come up about the children. Will you stay until Fred gets
back? Then take the rest of the day off."
"Oh,
I'm sorry you have an emergency. But what about the woman who called?" She
handed him a slip of paper.
Grant
stared at the telephone number. It was in Manhattan. He memorized it, then
tossed the paper into the wastebasket. "It's not important. Some charity
thing."
He rode the elevator down to the lobby and
telephoned.
"Hey, Jackie?----- "
"Yes, this is Mrs.
Regal. Is that you, Mr. Grant?"
Damn,
she is going to cause trouble, Grant thought. "Yes, it is, Mrs. Regal.
John Grant."
"Are you in the
office, Mr. Grant?"
"No. I'm in a
telephone booth."
"Oh,"
she said, and her voice relaxed and became warm. "I just didn't want a
bunch of secretaries listening to our conversation. Listen, why I called. He
didn't see a thing. I thought you might worry, so I called as soon as I
could."
"Are you
certain?" Grant asked.
"Listen,
he drinks three martinis and everything's blank. Nobody knows, he looks the
same. I asked him this morning, and the last thing he remembers is me coming
downstairs. And that was right at first, if you recall."
Grant
realized she hadn't seen Edith and Regal, or else she didn't care. You're out
of the fire now, boy, he told himself. From now on there was one rule he was
going to obey: Leave the clients' wives strictly alone.
"Hey, you there or
what?" she said.
Her
voice was husky. He could picture her holding the phone, moistening her lips
with the tip of her tongue. Oh, Goddamn, he thought, I shouldn't do this. He
took a deep breath. "Listen, Jackie. I want to see you very much."
"Well,
me, too. It's what I came to Manhattan for. You got a pencil? Take down an
address."
It was in the East 70s.
"It's an apartment of a girlfriend of
mine," she said. "Jack doesn't know I know her anymore. He doesn't
know who she's married to. Well, they went to South America and left me the
key, so I could look in. There's no doorman. The elevator's automatic. You
coming now, or what?"
"I'll
be right over," Grant said. He decided he would stop by Sherry's and buy
some champagne.
The
elevator door opened into the apartment, but it could only be opened from the
inside. Grant buzzed and saw her face looking through the small window, then
she opened the door. "OK. Everybody out of the elevator. Everybody into
the apartment."
Grant
put his hat and the package from Sherry's on a small table. She had walked into
the living room. He went after her and put his arms around her; he tried to
turn her around, so she faced him—she struggled away.
"Wait
a minute, wait. You got on your topcoat still. I got to talk to you."
"Oh,
there's no need for talk," Grant said, kissing her neck and shoulders, and
feeling for a zipper.
"Cut' that out, you're driving me
crazy," she said. "Listen, I
got to talk, this is very serious what we're involved in, you and
I. I had two girlfriends involved in this very same thing and it
ruined their lives. Ida------ "
"Oh, don't worry, darling," Grant
said, struggling to get a
firm grasp on her wrists. "There's nothing to- "
"But let me tell you
about Ida Glass! She could never make
202 JOHN GRANT'S LITTLE
ANGEL
up
her mind, if it was right or not. She never did and she had a breakdown, a
complete breakdown!"
"You
see?" Grant said, searching for the zipper again. "That's what
frustration can do to you."
"But
what about Bernice?" she cried. "Bernice did. She went wild for this guy. She ran off with this guy, left her kids,
everything. Then the guy left her. Poor
Bernice. She's on her sixth marriage."
Grant
forgot that such a thing as a zipper had ever been invented. "Who's
talking about anything like that?" he said. "Who's said anything like
that?"
"Me,
me. It's what I'm talking about," she said distractedly.
"I mean, look, I never thought I was sexy. I never did. But last night you
made me feel
so sexy, just looking at
you. I got a passion for you, a real passion. Oh, I want to absorb you or
something. But that's all.
I mean, why can't I have it
without interfering with my life? Why can't I? So I have to know, what do you expect? I mean, for instance, you got a happy home life, or what?"
"Oh,
it's delightful," Grant said, and he wrapped his arms around her and they
fell together upon the sofa. "This is all I expect. This."
"Oh, I like it,"
she said in his ear. "I like it."
At four o'clock the city sky outside the
windows was darkening. Grant thought she was asleep and he started to get up.
She put out her hand and opened her eyes.
"Hey, you leaving me?
Where you going?"
"Make a drink. Want
one?"
"Uh-uh.
Listen, I'm hungry. Make me a sandwich. There's turkey in the fridge. With lots
of Russian."
The
apartment felt cool to Grant and as he walked into the living room he turned up
the heat. He stood staring out the window, standing so that anyone looking in
would not see him.
It
had been the strangest day he had ever spent. That terrible hangover, the
feeling he had lost everything. Then he had talked with that charming girl. He
smiled. A real little angel.
He
realized what his choice of words had been, and he frowned. He had never used
that phrase before except to describe a young girl child, and the girl in the
bar had not been that young. After all, she'd been drunk in Chicago, she'd
spent . . . "And spent all the gold they'd given me," she had said.
She had said it; she had said gold!
"But you can't spend gold in
Chicago!" Grant cried.
"Yeah?"
a voice in the bedroom said. "Honey, you take me to Chicago and I'll show
you. In the meantime, how about my sandwich? With plenty of Russian."
Grant said, "You want
a pickle?"
"No, honey. No
pickle."
Of
course, Grant thought, as he opened the refrigerator, gold is slang for money,
like bread. That must be it. But she was certainly a little angel.
His
mind stumbled again over that word. Oh, cut it out, he told himself, or you'll
start having auditory hallucinations again . . . But perhaps he hadn't; perhaps
she had blessed him.
Grant
sat on the kitchen stool and stared at the Russian dressing.
She
had suddenly appeared
in the bar. Her hair had
glowed, actually glowed. "Well, no. It has the time where I came
from." Where had that
been? "No. I simply
meant I fly alone, by myself." Without a plane} "I have to prove I'm worthy," she
had said, too. So when she came to New York she found someone down and out, and
bought him a drink. And I was certainly down and out, emotionally, Grant
thought, and she did buy me a drink. Then disappeared. Vanished. And he had
walked uptown, gone to the river. What had she said about meditating? Sacred
places were found close to nature, or
204 JOHN GRANT'S LITTLE
ANGEL
something.
That spot by the East River had been a sacred place of his youth. What had she
said? "It's an experience that will be beneficial and rewarding for
you."
But
why me} Grant thought. I am no more worthy than
anyone else, no more deserving, and certainly no better.
He
took the sandwich into the bedroom and Jackie sat up, sitting cross-legged on
the bed, to eat it. She stared at him. "You got the funniest look on your
face," she said, chewing. "What happened to you?"
"I don't know,"
John Grant said.
In the days that followed, he decided he had,
accidentally or by some plan, seen and talked to an angel. He knew he could not
prove it, he could not prove angels existed. But logically he could not prove
they did not exist. So he chose to believe he had talked with a little angel.
The fact that he had seen her in a bar was explained by her being a fallen
angel, but one who had not fallen too far. She had to go into bars, of course,
to prove that she was worthy, that she could resist temptation. And she had
conducted herself like a perfect lady: two drinks and no more. The hardest
question Grant had to answer was the one concerning his own worth: Why had she
visited him? The answer, when he thought of it, was quite simple. There are
angels going about every day, looking much like people. We see them when we are
ready to, or perhaps when we need to—but they are always among us.
In
the days that followed, Grant watched for her. He went to that same bar, but
she never came in. Once he followed a blonde three blocks up Madison before she
paused to glance in Abercrombie's windows, and he saw she was no angel. And
more than once he went down to the Bowery.
"Friend
of mine comes down here," he would say. "Small girl. Blonde. Wears a
black coat. Ever see her?"
The
bums were kind to him, because he was obviously squirrelly; they accepted his
dollars, said they would sure watch for her, they would sure let him know.
In the days that followed, Grant found a sacred spot in the wood lot behind his Fairfield County home. A large stone on which he sat. His meditations, he knew, might be called reflections by others. No great truths were ever revealed to him. He thought of the past, what had happened, and then he thought of the future, what he could do. Then he would rise, with a quiet feeling, and rejoin his family.
And, in the days that passed, John Grant prospered, and so Fred prospered, too. Grant became known, locally around Stamford, for his kindness to children, to small birds and to the elderly. He became a more gentle lover—oh, Jackie Regal could have written books about it; and, when he did have hangovers, which was seldom, they were always mild, and finished and done with by nine o'clock of a morning.
THE FIEND
BY FREDERIK POHL
Frederik
Pohl, literary agent emeritus, current editor of Galaxy magazine, author of superior science fiction, gentleman of erudition and
charm, "is not afraid of emotion, so that his stories have a drive and
power enviable in any writer, especially in one whose main outlet is science
fiction." So says The
New York Times. His
books include the stimulating collections "Tomorrow Times Seven" and
"The Case Against Tomorrow," the novel "Slave Ship," and,
with the late C. M. Kornbluth, such novels as "Gladiator-at-Law"
"Search the Sky" and "The Space Merchants," an admonitory
satire on future ad-men, which Anthony Boucher calls "a book so rewarding
that it should henceforth show up on all lists of science-fiction 'classics'"
which Kingsley Amis says "has many claims to being the best
science-fiction novel so far," and which, as this anthology goes to press,
has been purchased by the movie moguls for a whopping five-figure sum. In his playboy
story, "The
Fiend" Pohl takes a standard sci-fi staple—suspended animation of space
passengers during long interstellar voyages—and brings to it a fresh idea and a
surprising twist.
HOW
BEAUTIFUL she was, Dandish thought, and how helpless. The plastic
identification ribbon around her neck stood out straight, and as she was just
out of the transport capsule, she wore nothing else. "Are you awake?"
he asked, but she did not stir.
Dandish
felt excitement building up inside him, she was so passive and without defense.
A man could come to her now and do anything at all to her, and she would not
resist. Or, of course, respond. Without touching her he knew that her body
would be warm and dry. It was fully alive, and in a few minutes she would be
conscious.
Dandish—who
was the captain and sole crew member of the interstellar ship without a name
carrying congealed colonists across the long, slow, empty space from the Earth
to a planet that circled a star that had never had a name in astronomical
charts, only a number, and was now called Eleanor—passed those minutes without looking
again at the girl, whose name he knew to be Silvie but whom he had never met.
When he looked again she was awake, jackknifed against the safety straps of the
crib, her hair standing out around her head and her face wearing an expression
of anger. "All right. Where are you? I know what the score is," she
said. "Do you know what they can do to you for this?"
Dandish
was startled. He did not like being startled, for it frightened him. For nine
years the ship had been whispering across space; he had had enough loneliness
to satisfy him and he had been frightened. There were 700 cans of colonists on
the ship, but they lay brittle and changeless in their bath of liquid helium
and were not very good company. Outside the ship the nearest human being was
perhaps two light-years away, barring some chance-met ship heading in the other
direction that was actually far more remote than either star, since the forces
involved in stopping and matching course with a vessel bound home were twice as
great as, and would take twice as much time as, those involved in the voyage
itself.
Everything
about the trip was frightening. The loneliness was a terror. To stare down
through an inch of crystal and see nothing but far stars led to panic. Dandish
had decided to stop looking out five years before, but had not been able to
keep to his decision, and so now and again peeped through the crystal and
contemplated his horrifying visions of the seal breaking, the crystal popping
out on a breath of air, himself in his metal prison tumbling, tumbling forever
down to the heart of one of the 10,000,000 stars
that lay below. In this ship a noise was an alarm. Since no one but himself was
awake, to hear a scratch of metal or a thud of a moving object striking
something else, however tiny, however remote, was a threat, and more than once
Dandish had suffered through an itch of fear for hours or days until he tracked
down the exploded light tube or unsecured door that had startled him. He
dreamed uneasily of fire. This was preposterously unlikely, in the steel and
crystal ship, but what he was dreaming of was not the fire of a house but the
monstrous fires in the stars beneath.
"Come out where I can
see you," commanded the girl.
Dandish
noted that she had not troubled to try to cover her nakedness. Bare she woke
and bare she stayed. She had unhitched the restraining webbing and left the
crib, and now she was prowling the room in which she had awakened, looking for
him. "They warned us," she called. " Watch the hook!' 'Look out
for the space nuts!' 'You'll be sorry!' That's all we heard at the Reception
Center, and now here you are, all right. Wherever you are. Where are you? For
God's sake, come out so I can see you." She half stood and half floated at
an angle to the floor, nibbling at imperceptible bits of dead skin on her lips
and staring warily from side to side. She said, "What was the story you
were going to tell me? A subspace meteorite destroyed the ship, all but you and
me, and we were doomed to fly endlessly toward nowhere, so there was nothing
for us to do but try to make a life for ourselves?"
Dandish watched her through the view eyes in
the reviving room, but did not answer. He was a connoisseur of victims, Dandish
was. He had spent a great deal of time planning this. Physically she was
perfect, very young, slim, slight. He had picked her out on that basis from
among the 352 female canned colonists, leafing through the microfile
photographs that accompanied each colonist's dossier like a hi-fi hobbyist
shopping through a catalog. She had been the best of the lot. Dandish was not
skilled enough to be able to read a personality profile, and in any event
considered psychologists to be phonies and their profiles trash, so he had had
to go by the indices he knew. He had wanted his victim to be innocent and
trusting. Silvie, 16 years old and a little below average in intelligence, had
seemed very promising. It was disappointing that she did not react with more
fear. /'They'll give you fifty years for this!" she shouted, looking
around to see where he could be hiding. "You know that, don't you?"
The
revival crib, sensing that she was out of it, was quietly stowing and rearming
itself, ready to be taken out and used again. Its plastic sheets slipped free
of the corners, rolled up in a tight spiral and slid into a disposal chute,
revealing aseptic new sheets below. Its radio-warming generators tested themselves
with a surge of high-voltage current, found no flaws and shut themselves off.
The crib sides folded down meekly. The instrument table hooded itself over. The
girl paused to watch it, then shook her head and laughed. "Scared of
me?" she called. "Come on, let's get this over with! Or else,"
she added, "admit you've made a boo-boo, get me some clothes and let's
talk this over sensibly."
Sorrowfully
Dandish turned his gaze away. A timing device reminded him that it was time to
make his routine half-hour check of the ship's systems and, as he had done more
than 150,000 times already and would do 100,000 times again, he swiftly scanned
the temperature readings in the can hold, metered the loss of liquid helium and
balanced it against the withdrawals from the reserve, compared the ship's
course with the flight plan, measured the fuel consumption and rate of flow,
found all systems functioning smoothly and returned to the girl. It had taken
only a minute or so, but already she had found the comb and mirror he had put
out for her and was working angrily at her hair. One fault in the techniques of
freezing and revivification lay in what happened to such elaborated structures
as fingernails and hair. At the temperature of liquid helium all organic
matter was brittle as Prince Rupert's drops, and although the handling
techniques were planned with that fact in mind, the body wrapped gently in
elastic cocooning, every care exercised to keep it from contact with anything hard
or sharp, nails and hair had a way of being snapped off. The Reception Center
endlessly drummed into the colonists the importance of short nails and butch
haircuts, but the colonists were not always convinced. Silvie now looked like a
dummy on which a student wigmaker had failed a test. She solved her problem at
last by winding what remained of her hair in a tiny bun and put down the comb,
snapped-off strands of hair floating in the air all about her like a
stretched-out sandstorm.
She
patted the bun mournfully and said, "I guess you think this is pretty
funny."
Dandish
considered the question. He was not impelled to laugh. Twenty years before,
when Dandish was a teenager with the long permanented hair and the lacquered
fingernails that were the fashion for kids that year, he had dreamed almost
every night of just such a situation as this. To own a girl of his own—not to
love her or to rape her or to marry her, but to possess her as a slave, with no
one anywhere to stop him from whatever he chose to impose on her—had elaborated
itself in a hundred variations nightly. He didn't tell anyone about his dream,
not directly, but in the school period devoted to practical psychology he had
mentioned it as something he had read in a book and the instructor, staring
right through him into his dreams, told him it was a repressed wish to play
with dolls. "This fellow is role playing," he said, "acting out
a wish to be a woman. These clear-cut cases of repressed homosexuality can take
many forms . . ."; and on and on, and although the dreams were as
physically satisfying as ever, the young Dandish awoke from them both reproved
and resentful.
But Silvie was neither a dream nor a doll.
"I'm not a doll!" said Silvie, so sharply and patly that it was a
shock. "Come on out and get it over with!"
She
straightened up, holding to a free-fall grip, and although she looked angry
and annoyed she still did not seem afraid. "Unless you are really
crazy," she said clearly, "which I doubt, although I have to admit
it's a possibility, you aren't going to do anything I don't want you to do, you
know. Because you can't get away with it, right? You can't kill me, you could
never explain it, and besides they don't let murderers run ships in the first
place, and so when we land all I have to do is yell cop and you're running a
subway shuttle for the next ninety years." She giggled. "I know about
that. My uncle got busted on income-tax evasion and now he's a self-propelled
dredge in the Amazon delta, and you should see the letters he writes. So come
on out and let's see what I'm willing to let you get away withl"
She
grew impatient. "Kee-rist," she said, shaking her head. "I sure
get the great ones. And, oh, by the way, as long as I'm up, I have to go to the
little girls' room, and then I want breakfast,"
Dandish
took some small satisfaction in that these requirements, at least, he had
foreseen. He opened the door to the washroom and turned on the warmer oven
where emergency rations were waiting. By the time Silvie came back biscuits,
bacon and hot coffee were set out for her.
7
"I
don't suppose you have a cigarette?" she said. "Well, I'll live. How
about some clothes? And how about coming out so I can get a look at you?"
She stretched and yawned and then began to eat. Apparently she had showered, as
was generally desirable on awakening from freeze-sleep to get rid of the
exfoliated skin, and she had wrapped her ruined hair in a small towel. Dandish
had left the one small towel in the washroom, reluctantly, but it had not
occurred to him that his victim would wrap it around her head. Silvie sat
thoughtfully staring at the remains of her breakfast and then after a while
said, like a lecturer:
"As
I understand it, starship sailors are always some kind of a nut, because who
else would go off for twenty years at a time, even for money, even for any kind
of money? All right, you're a nut. So if you wake me up and won't come out,
won't talk to me, there's nothing I can do about it.
"Now,
I can see that even if you weren't a little loopy to Start with, this kind of life would tip you. Maybe you just want a little
company? I can understand that. I might even cooperate and say no more about
it.
"On
the other hand, maybe you're trying to get your nerve up for something rough.
Don't know if you can, because they naturally screened you down fine before
they gave you the job. But supposing. What happens then?
"If you kill me, they
catch you.
"If
you don't kill me, then I tell them when we land, and they catch you.
"I
told you about my uncle. Right now his body is in the deepfreeze somewhere on
the dark side of Mercury and they've got his brain keeping the navigation
channels clear off Belem. Maybe you think that's not so bad. Uncle Henry
doesn't like it a bit. He doesn't have any company, bad as you that way, I
guess, and he says his suction hoses are always sore. Of course he could always
louse up on the job, but then they'd just put him some other place that
wouldn't be quite as nice— so what he does is grit his teeth, or I guess you
should say his grinders, and get along the best he can. Ninety years! He's only
done six so far. I mean six when I left Earth, whatever that is now. You
wouldn't like that. So why not come out and talk?"
Five
or ten minutes later, after making faces and buttering another roll and
flinging it furiously at the wall, where the disposal units sluiced it away,
she said, "Damn you, then give me a book to read, anyway."
Dandish
retreated from her and listened to the whisper of the ship for a few minutes,
then activated the mechanisms of the revival crib. He had been a loser long
enough to learn when to cut his losses. The girl sprang to her feet as the
sides of the crib unfolded. Gentle tentacles reached out for her and deposited
her in it, locking the webbing belt around her waist. "You damned
fool!" she shouted, but Dandish did not answer. The anesthesia cone
descended toward her struggling face, and
she screamed, "Wait a minute! I never said I wouldn't-- ";
but
what she never said she wouldn't, she couldn't say, because the cone cut her
off. In a moment she was asleep. A plastic sack stretched itself around her,
molding to her face, her body, her legs, even to the strayed towel around her
hair, and the revival crib rolled silently to the freezing room. Dandish did
not watch further. He knew what would happen, and besides, the timer reminded
him to make his check. Temperatures, normal; fuel consumption, normal; course,
normal; freezer room showed one new capsule en route to storage, otherwise
normal. Goodbye, Silvie, said Dandish to himself, you were a pretty bad
mistake.
Conceivably later on, with
another girl . . .
But
it had» taken nine years for Dandish to wake Silvie, and he did not think he
could do it again. He thought of her Uncle Henry running a dredge along the
South Atlantic littoral. It could have been him. He had leaped at the
opportunity to spend his sentence piloting a starship instead.
He
stared out at the 10,000,000
stars below with the
optical receptors that were his eyes. He clawed helplessly at space with the
radars that gave him touch. He wept a 5,000,000-mile stream of ions behind him from his jets. He
thought of the tons of helpless flesh in his hold, the bodies in which he could
have delighted, if his own body had not been with Uncle Henry's on coldside
Mercury, the fears on which he could have fed, if he had been able to inspire
fear. He would have sobbed, if he had had a voice to sob with.
HARD BARGAIN
BY ALAN E. NOURSE
Alan
E. Nourse was an intern when he wrote this story, but he is now a full-fledged
M.D. and a contributor to medical journals as well as to a volume called
"Great Science Fiction About Doctors." There are no doctors in
"Hard Bargain"} in fact, the contractual hair-splitting perpetrated
herein is more characteristic of the legal profession than the medical. It is
a crafty confection about a man who has sold his soul to Satan in return for an
unlimited supply of girls, but whose appetite grows more and more jaded, until.
. . .
ON
TUESDAY, Preisinger saw the Devil's face in the mirror just as he finished
shaving.
It
might have seemed odd, but with Preisinger it was an old story. Every Tuesday morning,
there it was, regular as daylight. This morning he regarded the face coldly.
"You," he said, "had better drop by for a chat, I think."
"Really?" said
the Devil.
"Really,"
said Preisinger. "We're supposed to have a bargain, you know. And you're
not holding up your end at all. You'd better stop by, or I'm afraid the deal is
off."
He
finished his shave, and walked into the solarium to ring for breakfast. Only
three years gone, he mused. Seven years to go. And seven years was really quite
a long time.
He
was finishing his orange juice and coffee when the Devil stepped through the
wall into the room. The Prince of Thieves smelled slightly of sulphur and
scorched cloth. He was tall and handsome in his sleek black Homburg and fine
black Chesterfield. In his hand was a slender ebony walking stick.
"Now
what is this foolishness," he said, "about canceling our bargain?
Just three years gone, and already you're complaining?"
"I've
a perfect right to complain," said Preisinger coolly. "You're
slipping. You haven't been doing right by me. You aren't keeping your end of
the bargain at all. Not at all."
The
Devil glanced around the room. "Well, now," he said. "You seem
to be doing quite well. The finest penthouse apartment in the city. Ample funds
to maintain it. Hardly my taste in clothing, but that's your business." He
looked sharply at Preisinger. "You do look a trifle peaked, though. Hard
night last night?"
"Not the most
gratifying night imaginable," said Preisinger.
"Really? Something
wrong with the supply?"
"Oh,
no," said Preisinger. "Quite the contrary. They flock to me.
Everywhere I turn there are girls, dozens of girls."
"Ah!" The Devil
frowned slightly. "Are they unwilling?
Do
they reject your attentions? Or perhaps they're a bit too bold, eh?"
Preisinger shook his head. "No, no.
Nothing like that."
"Well,
then! Has the variety been unsatisfactory? Do you find them unattractive?
No?" The Devil shrugged. "Then you disqualify your own claim. What
more could you ask? You have seven years to go—but I've kept my part of the
bargain."
"The
letter, perhaps," said Preisinger. "Not the spirit. Your part of the
bargain was to please me completely, and I've never quite been pleased.
Something has been missing from the start."
"If
you're talking about love, I can't help you there," said the Devil.
"It's quite out of my line, you know."
"Nothing
so maudlin as that," said Preisinger quickly. "No, it's much harder
to define." He leaped to his feet, groping for words. "These girls
are too—how can I explain it?—too knowledgeable. There's nothing for them to
learn. Yes, that's it! They seem so—experienced"
"I
thought that was considered a virtue," said the Adversary dryly.
"But can't you see?" said
Preisinger. "They know all the
rules! They perform like puppets on a string. There's no
feeling of achievement, no sense of awakening "
But
now the Devil's eyes gleamed with understanding. "You mean it's innocence you want!" He guffawed. "You come
to me in quest of innocence? How delightfully
naive! Think of it! For ten earthly years I must supply you with unlimited ease
and wherewithal plus the loveliest girls in the world to satisfy your most
extravagant whim. In return I am to receive from you an insignificant trifle
that you don't even believe exists—your soul." The Devil roared with
laughter. "And now you demand innocence as well!" He paused. "An
intriguing idea, but ridiculous. Quite ridiculous."
"You mean you can't do
it," said Preisinger.
"I mean nothing of the
sort," snapped the Devil. "A completely innocent maiden, untouched by
human hands "
He
stroked his chin. "Difficult. Incredibly difficult."
"But
could you?" demanded Preisinger. "If you only realized how fearfully
dull these others are—could you possibly do it?"
"Hardly,"
said the Devil, "under our present contract. This would take work, time,
the greatest delicacy. The price would be high." He looked at Preisinger.
"Would you give me your remaining seven years?"
Preisinger's
face grew pale, but he nodded slowly. "Anything," he said.
The
Devil beamed. "Then it's done. You'd have one night with her only, of
course. More would be unthinkable."
Preisinger's
fingers trembled. "She must be perfect. It must be worth a hundred
thousand other nights."
"You have my
word," said the Devil.
"I must be the first man, absolutely the
first, even in her
mind---- "
"That is
understood."
"And if you fail—the
entire bargain is off."
The Devil smiled "Agreed. And if I
succeed-------- " He
touched
the coffee cup with his ebony stick and it turned glowing red. "One
night," he said, and vanished through the wall.
For five days Preisinger
waited.
Before,
he had been sated and dulled; now he was vibrant with anticipation. But as the
days passed he grew jumpy and irritable. Each new face he saw on the street he
scanned eagerly, then turned away in disappointment. His nerves grew taut. His
body and mind were filled with an uncommon yearning.
On the sixth day he found her, late in the
afternoon, in the basement gallery of a small art museum. She was tall and
slender. Her hair was ash blonde, her mouth full. She walked with grace,
inconspicuously conspicuous, self-contained, an island to herself. She was
cool as a March breeze, and warm as laughter by the fireside. She was
delightful.
He
followed her, and spoke to her, and she smiled at him without suggestion. They
moved through the gallery together. Her laughter was cheerful; her eyes warmed
as she looked at him.
He learned that her name was Moira and that
she was 19 years old. He learned many other things that did not interest him in
the least. They left the gallery and walked in the park and looked across at
the city and talked.
Preisinger
suggested cocktails.
"Fine,"
said the girl. "But Pve never had a cocktail."
"Incredible," said Preisinger. "But true," said the girl.
They
had two cocktails, but no more. They talked about art and music and books, and
her understanding was gratifying. They talked about love and desire and
fulfillment, and her innocence was disarming.
Presently they ate and danced on a roof
garden high above
the city. She danced with ease and innocence. Preisinger
steeled himself as her cheek touched his and her body moved
close to his. Control,
he told himself, patience. She was the
one, she was what he had sought for so long, but it was too
soon, too soon---- "
She was delighted by the lights of the city
below. She breathed deeply of the night air, and her nearness to him was overwhelming.
"There is a better view where I live," he said. "We could have
some music, perhaps a little wine."
She
smiled up at him. "Yes," she said. "That would be good. I'd like
that."
The
view was better from his windows. The colors below
were breathtaking. The music took on new meanings; the wine was his finest
stock, its color delightful, its flavor superb. They talked and laughed softly,
and then they were silent. The lights dimmed gently, the firelight glowed. She
was sublime.
He did not realize until
later that he had not been the first.
The
Devil had failed, after all, and he was free. The thought caressed him as he
slept with his head on her shoulder.
•
• •
In
the morning she was gone, and the Devil stood by the window, twirling his ebony
stick with impatience.
Preisinger
saw him and burst out laughing. "You fool," he cried. "You
couldn't quite bring it off, and yet I didn't mind a bit. You didn't keep the
bargain, but you gave me what I had to have, all the same."
The Devil just looked at
him.
Preisinger
stopped laughing. "Well? Why are you waiting? We're finished, get out! The
bargain is void."
"Not
quite," said the Devil. "I gave you what you requested."
"But not to the letter," cried
Preisinger. "I was not the first.
Another man was before me- "
And
then the Prince of Liars was laughing as smoking tears poured from his eyes.
"And you call me a fool," he said. "Did you really
think I could command innocence without blemish? Ridiculous. I never could. Of course there was another—but the Devil is the Devil,
not a man."
And
with a roar of laughter he led Preisinger through the wall into the furnace.
THE NAIL AND THE ORACLE
BY THEODORE STURGEON
Theodore
Sturgeon is the science-fiction and fantasy writer's science-fiction and
fantasy writer. Ray Bradbury readily admits that, when he was younger, he
"looked upon Sturgeon with a secret and gnawing jealousy." James
Blish flatly calls him "the finest conscious artist science fiction has
ever had." A writer of blinding
brilliance and unbridled imagination—such books as "Some of Your Blood," "More Than
Human" and "E Pluribus Unicorn" are classics in the field—he is
also "a manicured nudist" (in a friend's literal description) and an
original thinker who gets of good
ones like this observation on sex: "The definition of perversion is anything done to the exclusion of everything else—including the normal
position." It has been said that Sturgeon harbors a "positive and
pure loathing for all
wheelers-and-dealers." This is evident in many of his stories, and never more so than in the following tale of chicanery on a very high level.
DESPITE
THE IMPROVEMENTS, the Pentagon in 1970 was still the Pentagon, with more places
to walk than places to sit. Not that Jones had a legitimate gripe. The cubical
cave they had assigned to him as an office would have been more than adequate
for the two-three days he himself had estimated. But by the end of the third
week it fit him like a size-6 hat and choked him like a size-12 collar. Annie's
phone calls expressed eagerness to have him back, but there was an edge to the
eagerness now which made him anxious. His hotel manager had wanted to shift his
room after the first week and he had been stubborn about it; now he was
marooned like a rock in a mushroom patch, surrounded by a back-to-rhythm
convention of the Anti-Anti-Population Explosion League. He'd had to buy
shirts, he'd had to buy shoes, he'd needed a type-four common-cold shot, and
most of all, he couldn't find what was wrong with oracle.
Jones
and his crew had stripped oracle down to its mounting bolts, checked a
thousand miles of wiring and a million solid-state elements, everything but its
priceless and untouchable memory banks. Then they'd rebuilt the monster,
meticulously cross-checking all the way. For the past four days they had been
running the recompleted computer, performance-matching with crash-priority
time on other machines, while half the science boys and a third of the military
wailed in anguish. He had reported to three men that the machine had nothing
wrong with it, that it never had had anything wrong with it, and that there was
no reason to believe there ever would be anything wrong with it. One by one
these three had gone (again) into oracle's chamber, and bolted the door, and energized
the privacy field, and then one by one they had emerged stern and disappointed,
to tell Jones that it would not give them an answer: an old admiral, an ageless
colonel and a piece of walking legend whom Jones called to himself the
civilian.
Having sent his crew home—for thus he burned
his bridges
—having
deprived himself of Jacquard the design genius and the 23 others, the wiring
team, all the mathematicians, everyone, Jones sighed in his little office,
picked up the phone again and called the three for a conference. When he put
the instrument down again he felt a little pleased. Consistencies pleased
Jones, even unpleasant ones, and the instant response of all three was right in
line with everything they had done from the time they had first complained
about oracle's inability to answer their questions, all
through their fiddling and diddling during every second of the long diagnostic
operation. The admiral had had an open line installed to Jones' office, the
colonel had devised a special code word for his switchboard, the civilian had
hung around personally, ignoring all firm, polite hints until he had turned his
ankle on a cable, giving Jones a reason to get him out of there. In other
words, these three didn't just want an answer, they needed it.
They
came, the admiral with his old brows and brand-new steel-blue eyes, the colonel
with starch in his spine and skin like a postmaneuver proving grounds, the
civilian limping a bit, with his head tilted a bit, turned a bit, a captivating
mannerism which always gave his audiences the feeling that history cared to
listen to them. Jones let them get settled, this admiral whose whole career had
consisted of greater and greater commands until his strong old hand was a
twitch away from the spokes of the helm of the ship of state; this colonel who
had retained his lowly "rank as a mark of scorn for the academy men who
scurried to obey him, whose luxurious quarters were equipped with an iron
barracks bed; and this civilian with the scholarly air, with both Houses and a
Cabinet rank behind him, whose political skills were as strong, and as deft,
and as spiked as a logroller's feet.
"Gentlemen,"
said Jones, "this may well be our last meeting. There will, of course, be
a written report, but I understand the—uh—practicalities of such a situation
quite well, and I do not feel it necessary to go into the kind of detail in the report that is possible to us in an informal
discussion." He looked
at each face in turn and congratulated himself. That was just right. This is
just between us boys. Nobody's going to squeal on you.
"You've
dismissed your crew," said the civilian, causing a slight start in the admiral and a narrowing
of the colonel's eyes and, in Jones, a flash of admiration. This one had
snoopers the services hadn't even dreamed up yet. "I hope this is good
news."
"Depends,"
said Jones. "What it means primarily is that they have done all they can.
In other words, there is nothing wrong with oracle
in any of their
specialties. Their specialties include everything the computer is and does. In
still other words, there's nothing wrong with the machine."
"So
you told us yesterday," gritted the colonel, "but I got no results.
And—I want results." The last was added as an old ritual which,
apparently, had always gotten results just by being recited.
"I
followed the procedures," said the admiral, intoning this as a cardinal
virtue, "and also got no results." He held up a finger and suspended operations in the room
while he performed some sort of internal countdown. "Had I not done so, oracle
would have responded with*
an 'insufficient data' signal. Correct?"
"Quite correct,"
said Jones.
"And it didn't."
"That
was my experience," said the civilian, and the colonel nodded.
"Gentlemen,"
said Jones, "neither I nor my crew—and there just is not a better one—have
been able to devise a question
that produced that result."
"It was not a
result," snapped the colonel.
Jones
ignored him. "Given the truth of my conclusion—that there is nothing wrong
with the machine—and your reports, which I can have no reason to doubt, there
is no area left to
investigate but one, and that is in your hands, not mine. It's the one thing
you have withheld from me." He paused. Two of them shifted their feet. The
colonel tightened his jaw.
The admiral said softly, but with utter
finality, "I cannot
divulge my question."
The colonel and the civilian spoke together: "Security---------- "
and "This is a matter------- " and then both fell silent.
"Security." Jones spread his hands.
To keep from an enemy, real or potential, matters vital to the safety of the
nation, that was security. And how easy it was to wrap the same blanket about
the use of a helicopter to a certain haven, the presence of a surprising little
package in a Congressional desk, the exact
relations between a certain officer and his------------- arghl This,
thought Jones, has all the earmarks of, not our security, but of three cases of my security
. . . I'll try just once more.
"Thirty years ago, a writer named
William Tenn wrote a brilliant story in which an Air Force moon landing was
made, and the expedition found an inhabited pressure dome nearby. They sent out
a scout, who was prepared to die at the hands of Russians or even Martians. He
returned to the ship in a paroxysm, gentlemen, of laughter. The other dome
belonged to the U. S. Navy."
The admiral projected two loud syllables of a guffaw and said, "Of
course." The colonel looked pained. The civilian, bright-eyed, made a
small nod which clearly said, One up for you, boy.
Jones put on his used-car-salesman face.
"Honestly, gentlemen, it embarrasses me to draw a parallel like that. I
believe with all my heart that each of you has the best interests of our nation
foremost in his thoughts. As for myself—security? Why, I wouldn't be here if I
hadn't been cleared all the way back to Pithecanthropus erectus.
"So much for you, so much for me. Now,
as for oracle, you know as well as I do that it is no
ordinary computer. It is designed for computations, not of math, specifically,
nor of strictly physical
problems, though it can perform them, but for the distillation of human
thought. For over a decade the contents of the Library of Congress and other
sources have poured into that machine—everything: novels, philosophy,
magazines, poetry, textbooks, religious tracts, comic books, even millions of
personnel records. There's every shade of opinion, every quality of
writing—anything and everything that an army of over a thousand microfilming
technicians have been able to cram into it. As long as it's printed and in
English, German, Russian, French or Japanese, oracle
can absorb it. Esperanto is
the funnel for a hundred Oriental and African languages. It's the greatest
repository of human thought and thought-directed action the world has ever
known, and its one most powerful barrier against error in human affairs is the
sheer mass of its memory and the wide spectrum of opinion that has poured into
it.
"Add
to this its ability tt> extrapolate—to project the results of
hypothetical acts—and the purposely designed privacy structure—for it's
incapable of recording or reporting who asked it what question—and you have oracle, the one place in the world where you can
get a straight answer based, not in terms of the problem itself, but on every
ideological computation and cross-comparison that can be packed into it."
"The
one place I couldn't get a straight answer," said the civilian gently.
"To
your particular question. Sir, if you want that answer, you have got to give me
that question." He checked a hopeful stir in the other two by adding
quickly, "and yours. And yours. You see, gentlemen, though I am concerned
for your needs in this matter, my prime concern is oracle. To find a way to get one of the answers
isn't enough. If I had all three, I might be able to deduce a common
denominator. I already have, of course, though it isn't enough: you are all
high up in national affairs, and very close to the center of things. You are
all of the same generation" (translation: near the end of the road)
"and, I'm sure, equally determined to do the best you can for your
country" (to get to the top of the heap before you cash in). "Consider
me" he said, and smiled disarmingly. "To let me get this close to the
answer I want; namely, what's wrong with oracle, and then to withhold it—isn't that sort of
cruel and unusual punishment?"
"I
feel for you," said the civilian, not without a twinkle. Then, sober with a
coldness that would freeze helium into a block, he said, "But you ask too
much."
Jones
looked at him, and then at the others, sensing their unshakable agreement.
"OK," he said, with all the explosive harshness he could muster,
"I'm done here. I'm sick of this place and my girl's sick of being by
herself, and I'm going home. You can't call in anyone else, because there isn't
anyone else: my company built oracle and my men were trained for it."
This
kind of thing was obviously in the colonel's idiom. From far back in his
throat, he issued a grinding sound that' came out in words: "You'll finish
the job you were ordered to do, mister, or you'll take the consequences."
Jones
shouted at him, "Consequences? What consequences? You couldn't even have
me fired, because I can make a damn good case that you prevented me from
finishing the job. I'm not under your orders either. This seems a good time to
remind you of the forgotten tradition that with this"—he took hold of the
narrow lapel of his own sports jacket—"I outrank any uniform in this whole
entire Pentagon." He caught the swift smile of the civilian, and therefore
trained his next blast on him. "Consequences? The only consequence you can
get now is to deny yourself and your country the answer to your question. The
only conclusion I can come to is that something else is more important to you
than that. What else?" He stood up. So did the officers.
From his chair, the civilian said sonorously,
"Now, now . . . gentlemen. Surely we can resolve this problem without raising
our voices. Mr. Jones, would the possession of two of these questions help you
in your diagnosis? Or even one?"
Breathing hard, Jones said,
"It might."
The civilian opened his long white hands.
"Then there's no
problem after all. If one of you gentlemen- "
"Absolutely not,"
said the admiral instantly.
"Not
me," growled the colonel. "You want compromise, don't you? Well, go
ahead—you compromise."
"In
this area," said the civilian smoothly, "I possess all the facts, and
it is my considered judgment that the disclosure of my question would not
further Mr. Jones' endeavors." (Jones thought, the admiral said the same
thing in two words.) "Admiral, would you submit to my judgment the
question of whether or not security would be endangered by your showing Mr.
Jones your question?" f
"I would not."
The
civilian turned to the colonel. One look at that rock-bound countenance was
sufficient to make him turn away again, which, thought Jones, puts the colonel
two points ahead of the admiral in the word-economy business.
Jones
said to the civilian, "No use, sir, and by my lights, that's the end of
it. The simplest possible way to say it is that you gentlemen have the only
tools in existence that would make it possible for me to repair this gadget,
and you won't let me have them. So fix it yourself, or leave it the way it is.
I'd see you out," he added, scanning the walls of the tiny room, "but
I have to go to the John." He stalked out, his mind having vividly and
permanently photographed the astonishment on the admiral's usually composed
features, the colonel's face fury-twisted into something like the knot that
binds the lashes of a whip, and the civilian grinning broadly.
Grinning broadly?
Ah well, he thought,
slamming the men's-room door behind him—and infuriatingly, it wouldn't slam—Ah
well, we all have our way of showing frustration. Maybe I could've been just as
mad more gently.
The
door moved, and someone ranged alongside at the next vertical bathtub. Jones
glanced, and then said aloud, "Maybe I could've been just as mad more
gently."
"Perhaps
we all could have," said the civilian, and then with his free hand he did
four surprising things in extremely rapid succession. He put his finger to his
lips, then his hand to the wall and then to his ear. Finally he whisked a small
folded paper out of his breast pocket and handed it to Jones. He then finished
what he was doing and went to wash up.
Shh. The walls have ears.
Take this.
"All
through history," said the civilian from the sink, his big old voice
booming in the tiled room, "we read about the impasse, and practically
every time it's mentioned, it's a sort of preface to an explanation of how it
was solved. Yet I'll bet history's full of impasses that just couldn't be
solved. They don't get mentioned because when it happens, everything stops.
There just isn't anything to write down in the book anymore. I think we've just
seen such an occasion, and I'm sorry for each of us."
The
old son of a gun! "Thanks for that much, anyway, sir," Jones said,
tucking the paper carefully away out of sight. The old man, wiping his hands,
winked once and went out.
Back in his office, which seemed three times
larger than it had been before the conference, Jones slumped behind his desk
and teased himself with the small folded paper, not reading it, turning it over
and over. It had to be the old man's question. Granted that it was, why had he
been so willing to hand it over now, when three minutes earlier his refusal had
been just about as adamant as—adamant? So, Jones, quit looking at the detail
and get on the big picture. What was different in those three minutes?
Well,
they were out of one room and into another. Out of one room that was damn well
not bugged and into one which, the old man's pantomime had informed him, may
well be. Nope—that didn't make sense. Then—how about this? In the one room
there had been witnesses. In the second, none—not after the finger on the lips.
So if a man concluded that the civilian probably never had had an objection to
Jones' seeing and using the question, but wanted it concealed from anyone
else—maybe specifically from those other two . . . why, the man had the big
picture.
What
else? That the civilian had not said this, therefore would not bring himself to
say it in so many words, and would not appreciate any conversation that might
force him to talk it over. Finally, no matter how reluctant he might be to let
Jones see the paper, the slim chance Jones offered him of getting an answer
outweighed every other consideration—except the chance of the other two.Jinding
out. So another part of the message was: I'm sitting on dynamite, Mr. Jones,
and I'm handing you the detonator. Or: I trust you, Mr. Jones.
Sobeit, old man. I've got
the message.
He
closed his eyes and squeezed the whole situation to see if anything else would
drip out of it. Nothing . . . except the faint conjecture that what worked on
one might work on the other two. And as if on cue, the door opened and a
bland-faced major came in a pace, stopped, said "Beg pardon, sir. I'm in
the wrong room," and before Jones could finish saying "That's all
right," he was gone. Jones gazed thoughtfully at the door. That major was
one of the colonel's boys. That "wrong room" bit had a most unlikely
flavor to it. So if the man hadn't come in for nothing, he'd come in for
something. He hadn't taken anything and he hadn't left anything, so he'd come
in to find something out. The only thing he could find out was whether Jones
was or was not here. Oh: and whether he was or was not alone.
All Jones had to do to
check that out was to sit tight. You can find out if a man is alone in a room
for now, but not for ten minutes from now, or five.
In two minutes the colonel
came in.
He
wore his "I don't like you, mister" expression. He placed his scarred
brown hands flat on Jones' desk and rocked forward over him Eke a tidal wave
about to break.
"It's
your word against mine, and I'm prepared to call you a liar," grated the
colonel. "I want you to report to me and no one else."
"All
right," said Jones, and put out his hand. The colonel locked gazes with
him for a fair slice of forever, which made Jones believe that the Medusa
legend wasn't necessarily a legend after all. Then the officer put a small
folded paper into Jones' outstretched palm. "You get the idea pretty
quick, I'll say that, mister"} he straightened, about-faced and marched
out.
Jones looked at the two scraps of folded
paper on the desk and thought, I will be damned. And one to go.
He
picked up the papers and dropped them again, feeling like a kid who forces
himself to eat all the cake before he attacks the icing. He thought, maybe the old
boy wants to but just doesn't know how.
He
reached for the phone and dialed for the open line, wondering if the admiral
had had it canceled yet.
He
had not, and he wasn't waiting for the first ring to finish itself. He knew who
was calling and he knew Jones knew, so he said nothing, just picked up the
phone.
Jones said, "It was
kind of crowded in here."
"Precisely
the point," said the admiral, with the same grudging approval the colonel
had shown. There was a short pause, and then the admiral said, "Have you
called anyone else?"
Into
four syllables Jones put all the outraged innocence of a male soprano accused
of rape. "Certainly not."
"Good man."
The
Britishism amused Jones, and he almost said Gung ho, what?; but instead he
concentrated on what to say next. It was easy to converse with the admiral if
you supplied both sides of the conversation. Suddenly it came to him that the
admiral wouldn't want to come here—he had somewhat farther to travel than the
colonel had—nor would he like the looks of Jones' visiting him at this
particular moment. He said, "I wouldn't mention this, but as you know, I'm
leaving soon and may not see you. And I think you picked up my cigarette
lighter."
"Oh," said the
admiral.
"And
me out of matches," said Jones ruefully. "Well—I'm going down to oracle
now. Nice to have known
you, sir." He hung up, stuck an unlit cigarette in his mouth, put the two
folded papers in his left pants pocket, and began an easy stroll down the
catacombs called corridors in the Pentagon.
Just
this side of oracle's dead-end corridor, and not quite in visual
range of its security post, a smiling young ensign, who otherwise gave every
evidence of being about his own business, said, "Light, sir?"
"Why, thanks."
The
ensign handed him a lighter. He didn't light it and proffer the flame; he
handed the thing over. Jones lit his cigarette and dropped the lighter into his
pocket. "Thanks."
"That's all
right," smiled the ensign, and walked on.
At the security post, Jones
said to the guard, "Whoppen?"
"Nothing and nobody,
Mr. Jones."
"Best
news I've had all day." He signed the book and accompanied the guard down
the dead end. They each produced a key and together opened the door. "I
shouldn't be too long."
"All
the same to me," said the guard, and Jones realized he'd been wishfully
thinking out loud. He shut the door, hit the inner lock switch, and walked
through the little foyer and the swinging door which unveiled what the crew
called oracle's "temple."
He
looked at the computer, and it looked back at him. "Like I told you
before," he said conversationally, "for something that causes so much
trouble, you're awful little and awful homely."
oracle did not answer, because it was not aware of
him. oracle could read and do a number of more complex
and subtle things, but it had no ears. It was indeed homely as a wall, which is
what the front end mostly resembled, and the immense size of its translators,
receptors and the memory banks was not evident here. The temple—other people
called it Suburbia Delphi—contained nothing but that animated wall, with its
one everblooming amber "on" light (for the machine never ceased
gulping its oceans of thought), a small desk and chair, and the mechanical
typewriter with the modified Bodoni type face which was used for the reader.
The reader itself was nothing more than a clipboard (though with machined
guides to hold the paper exactly in place) with a large push button above it,
placed on a strut which extended from the front of the computer, and lined up
with a lens set flush into it. It was an eerie experience to push that button
after placing your query, for oracle scanned so quickly and "thought" so
fast that it was rapping away on its writer before you could get your thumb off
the button.
Usually.
Jones
sat at the desk, switched on the light and took out the admiral's lighter. It
was a square one, with two parts which telescoped apart to get to the tank. The
tight little roll of paper was there, sure enough, with the typescript not
seriously blurred by lighter fluid. He smoothed it out, retrieved the other
two, unfolded them, stacked them all neatly; and then, feeling very like
Christmas morning, said gaily to the unresponsive oracle:
"Now!"
Seconds later, he was breathing hard. A flood
of profanity welled upward within him—and dissipated itself as totally
inadequate.
Wagging
his head helplessly, he brought the three papers to the typewriter and wrote
them out on fresh paper, staying within the guidelines printed there, and
adding the correct code symbols for the admiral, the colonel and the civilian.
These symbols had been assigned by oracle itself, and were cross-checked against the
personnel records it carried in its memory banks. It was the only way in which
it was possible to ask a question including that towering monosyllable
"I."
Jones
clipped the first paper in place, held his breath and pushed the button.
There
was a small flare of light from the hood surrounding the lens as the computer
automatically brought the available light to optimum. A relay clicked softly as
the writer was activated. A white tongue^of paper protruded. Jones tore it off.
It was blank.
He
grunted, then replaced the paper with the second, then the third. It seemed
that on one of them there was a half-second delay in the writer relay, but it
was insignificant: the paper remained blank.
"Stick
your tongue out at me, will you?" he muttered at the computer, which
silently gazed back at him with its blank single eye. He went back to the
typewriter and copied one of the questions, but with his own code
identification symbols. It read:
the
elimination of what single man could result in my presidency?
He dipped the paper in place and pushed the
button. The relay clicked, the writer rattled and the paper protruded. He tore
it off. It read (complete with quotes):
"john
doe"
"A wise guy," Jones growled. He
returned to the typewriter and again copied one of the queries with his own
code:
if i eliminate
the president, how
can
i assure personal control?
Wryly, oracle
answered:
don't
eat a bite until your execution.
It actually took Jones a couple of seconds to
absorb that one, and then he uttered an almost hysterical bray of laughter.
The
third question he asked, under his own identification, was:
can my support of henny
bring peace?
The answer was a flat no, and Jones did not laugh one bit. "And
you don't find anything funny about it either," he congratulated the
computer, and actually, physically shuddered.
For
Henny—the Honorable Oswaldus Deeming Henny— was an automatic nightmare to the
likes of Jones. His weather-beaten saint's face, his shoulder-length white hair
(oh, what genius of a public-relations man put him onto that?), his diapason
voice, but most of all, his "Plan for Peace" had more than once
brought Jones up out of a sound sleep into a cold sweat. Now, there was once a
man who entranced a certain segment of the population with a slogan about the
royalty in every man, but he could not have taken ever the country, because a
slogan is not a political philosophy. And there was another who was capable of
turning vast numbers of his countrymen—for a while—against one another and
toward him for protection: and he could not have taken over the country,
because the manipulation of fear is not an economic philosophy. This Henny,
however, was the man who had both, and more besides. His appearance alone gave
him more nonthinking, vote-bearing adherents than Rudolph Valentino plus
Albert Schweitzer. His advocacy of absolute isolation brought in the right
wing, his demand for unilateral disarmament brought in the left wing, his credo
that science could, with a third of munitions-size budgets, replace foreign
trade through research, invention and ersatz, brought in the tech segment, and
his dead certainty of lowering taxes had a thick hook in everyone else. Even
the most battle-struck of the war wanters found themselves shoulder to shoulder
with the peace-at-any-price extremists, because of the high moral tone of his
disarmament plan, which was to turn our weapons on ourselves and present any
aggressor with nothing but slag and cinders— the ultimate deterrent. It was the
most marvelous blend of big bang and beneficence, able to cut chance and
challenge together with openhanded Gandhiism, with an answer for everyone and a
better life for all.
"All
of which," complained Jones to the featureless face of the computer,
"doesn't help me find out why you wouldn't answer those three guys, though
I must say, I'm glad you didn't." He went and got ihe desk chair and put
it down front and center before the computer. He sat down and folded his arms
and they stared silently at each other.
At
length he said, "If you were a people instead of a thing, how would I
handle you? A miserable, stubborn, intelligent snob of a people?"
Just
how do I handle people? he wondered. I do—I know I do. I always seem to think
of the right thing to say, or to ask. I've already asked oracle
what's wrong, and oracle
says nothing is wrong. The
way any miserable, stubborn, intelligent snob would.
What
I do, he told himself, is to empathize. Crawl into their skins, feel with their
fingertips, look out through their eyes.
Look out through their
eyes.
He
rose and got the admiral's query—the one with the admiral's own identification
on it—clipped it to the board, then hunkered down on the floor with his back to
the computer and his head blocking the lens.
He was seeing exactly what
the computer saw.
Clipboard. Query. The small bare chamber, the
far wall. The . . .
He stopped breathing. After a long astonished
moment he said, when he could say anything, and because it was all he could
think of to say: "Well I . . . be . . . damned . . ."
The
admiral was the first in. Jones had had a busy time of it for the 90 minutes
following his great discovery, and he was feeling a little out of breath, but
at the same time a little louder and quicker than the other guy, as if he had
walked into the reading room after a rubdown and a needle-shower.
"Sit down,
Admiral."
"Jones, did you---- "
"Please, sir—sit
down."
"But surely----- "
"I've
got your answer, Admiral. But there's something we have to do first." He
made waving gestures. "Bear with me."
He wouldn't have made it, thought Jones,
except for the
colonel's well-timed entrance. Boy oh boy, thought Jones, look
at'm, stiff as tongs. You come on the battlefield looking just
like a target. On the other hand, that's how you made your
combat reputation, isn't it? The colonel was two strides into
the room before he saw the admiral. He stopped, began an
about-face and said over his left epaulet, "I didn't think- "
"Sit
down, Colonel," said Jones in a pretty fair imitation of the man's own
brass gullet. It reached the officer's muscles before it reached his brain and
he sat. He turned angrily on the admiral, who said instantly, "This wasn't
my idea," in a completely insulting way.
Again the door opened and old living history
walked in, his
head a little to one side, his eyes ready to see and understand
and his famous mouth to smile, but when he saw the tableau,
the eyes frosted over and the mouth also said: "I didn't
think---- "
"Sit
down, sir," said Jones, and began spieling as the civilian was about to
refuse, and kept on spieling while he changed his mind, lowered himself
guardedly onto the edge of a chair and perched his old bones on its front edge
as if he intended not to stay.
"Gentlemen,"
Jones began, "I'm happy to tell you that I have succeeded in finding out
why oracle was unable to perform for you—thanks to
certain unexpected cooperation I received." Nice touch, Jones. Each one of
'em will think he turned the trick, singlehandedly. But not for long. "Now
I have a plane to catch, and you all have things to do, and I would appreciate
it if you would hear me out with as little interruption as possible."
Looking at these bright eager angry sullen faces, Jones let himself realize for
the first time why detectives in whodunits assemble all the suspects and make
speeches. Why they -personally
do it—why the author has
them do it. It's because it's fun.
"In
this package"—he lifted from beside his desk a brown paper parcel a yard
long and^ 15 inches wide—"is the cause of all the trouble. My company was
founded over a half century ago, and one of these has been an appurtenance of
every one of the company's operations, each of its major devices and
installations, all of its larger utility equipment—cranes, trucks, bulldozers,
everything. You'll find them in every company office and in most company
cafeterias." He put the package down flat on his desk and fondled it while
he talked. "Now, gentlemen, I'm not going to go into any part of the long
argument about whether or not a computer can be conscious of what it's doing, because
we haven't time and we're not here to discuss metaphysics. I will, however,
remind you of a childhood chant. Remember the one that runs: 'For want of a
nail the shoe was lost; for want of a shoe the horse was lost; for want of a
horse the message was lost; for want of the message the battle was lost; for
want of the battle the kingdom was lost —and all for the want of a horseshoe
nail.'"
"Mr. Jones," said the admiral,
"I—we—didn't come
here to----- "
"I just said
that," Jones said smoothly, and went right on talking until the admiral
just stopped trying. "This"—he rapped the package—"is oracle's
horseshoe nail. If it's no
ordinary nail, that's because oracle's no ordinary computer. It isn't designed to
solve problems in their own context; there are other machines that do that, oracle
solves problems the way an
educated man solves them—by bringing everything he is and has to bear on them.
Lacking this one part"—he thumped the package again—"it can then
answer your questions, and it accordingly did." He smiled suddenly.
"I don't think oracle was designed this way," he added
musingly. "I think it . . . became . . . this way . . ." He shook
himself. "Anyway, I have your answers."
Now
he could afford to pause, because he had them. At that moment, the only way any
of them could have been removed was by dissection and haulage.
Jones
lined up his sights on the colonel and said, "In a way, your question was
the most interesting, Colonel. To me professionally, I mean. It shows to what
detail oracle can go in answering a wide theoretical
question. One might even make a case for original creative thinking, though
that's always arguable. Could a totally obedient robot think if you flatly
ordered it to think? When does a perfect imitation of a thing become the thing
itself?"
"You're
not going to discuss my question here," said the colonel as a matter of
absolute, incontrovertible fact.
"Yes I am," said Jones, and raised
his voice. "You listen to me, before you stick that trigger finger of
yours inside that tunic, Colonel. I'm in a corny mood right now and so I've
done a corny thing. Two copies of a detailed report of this whole affair are
now in the mail, and, I might add, in a mailbox outside this building. One goes
to my boss, who is a very big wheel and a loyal friend, with as many contacts
in business and government as there are company machines operating, and that
puts him on the damn moon as well as all over the world. The other goes to
someone else, and when you find out who that is it'll be too late, because in
two hours he can reach every paper, every wire service, every newscasting
organization on earth. Naturally, consistent with the corn, I've sent these out
sealed with orders to open them if I don't phone by a certain time—and I assure
you it won't be from here. In other words, you can't do anything to me and
you'd better not delay me. Sit down, Admiral" he roared.
"I'm certainly not going to sit here and-- "
"I'm
going to finish what I started out to do whether you're here or not."
Jones waved at the other two. "They'll be here. You want that?"
The admiral sat down. The civilian said, in a
tolling of
mighty sorrow, "Mr. Jones, I had what seemed to be your
faithful promise--- "
"There
were overriding considerations," said Jones. "You know what an
overriding consideration is, don't you, sir?" and he held up the
unmistakable oracle query form. The civilian subsided.
"Let
him finish," gritted the colonel. "We can—well, let him finish."
Jones
instantly, like oracle, translated: We can take care of him later. He said to the colonel, "Cheer up. You can always deny everything,
like you said." He fanned through the papers before him and dealt out the
colonel's query. He read it aloud:
" 'if i eliminate the
president, how can i assure personal control?' "
The colonel's face could have been shipped
out, untreated, and installed on Mount Rushmore. The civilian gasped and put
his knuckles in his mouth. The admiral's slitted eyes went round.
"The
answer," said Jones, "makes that case for creative thinking I was
talking about, oracle said: 'detonate
one
bomb within underground h.
q. spend your subsequent tenure looking for others.' "
Jones put down the paper and spoke past the
colonel to the other two. "Get the big picture, gentlemen? 'underground
h. q.' could only mean
the centralized control for government in the mountains. Whether or not the
President— or anyone else—was there at the time is beside the point. If not,
he'd find another way easily enough. After that happened, our hero here would
take the posture of the national savior, the only man competent to track down a
second bomb, which could be anywhere. Imagine the fear, the witch-hunts, the
cordons, the suspicion, the 'Emergency' and 'For the Duration' orders and
regulations." Suddenly savage, Jones snarled, "I've got just one more
thing to say about this warrior and his plans. All his own strength, and the
entire muscle behind everything he plans for himself, derives from the finest esprit de corps the world has ever known. I told you I'm in a
corny mood, so I'm going to say it just the way it strikes me. That kind of esprit is a bigger thing than obedience or devotion
or even faith, it's a species of love. And there's not a hell of a lot of that
to go around in this world. Butchering the President to make himself a little
tin god is a minor crime compared to his willingness to take a quality like
that and turn it into a perversion."
The
civilian, as if unconsciously, hitched his chair a half inch away from the
colonel. The admiral trained a firing-squad kind of look at him.
"Admiral,"
said Jones, and the man twitched, "I'd like to call your attention to the
colonel's use of the word 'eliminate' in his query. You don't, you know, you
just don't eliminate a live President." He let that
sink in, and then said, "I mention it because you, too, used it, and it's
a fair conjecture that it means the same thing. Listen: 'what
single man can i eliminate to become president?' "
"There could hardly be any one man," said the civilian thoughtfully, gaining Jones' great respect
for his composure. Jones said, "oracle thinks so. It wrote your name, sir."
Slowly the civilian turned to the admiral.
"Why, you sleek old son of a bitch," he enunciated carefully, "I do believe you could have made it."
"Purely a hypothetical question," explained the admiral, but no one paid the least attention.
"As for you," said Jones, rather surprised that his voice expressed so much of the regret he felt, "I do believe that you asked your question with a genuine desire to see a world at peace before you passed on. But, sir—it's like you said when you walked in here just now—and the colonel said it, too: 'I didn't think . . .' You are sitting next to two certifiable first-degree murderers; no matter what their overriding considerations, that's what they are. But what you planned is infinitely worse."
He read, "'can my support of
henny bring peace?' You'll be pleased to know-^-oh, you already know; you were just checking, right?—that the answer is Yes. Henny's position is such right now that your support would bring him in. But— you didn't think.
That demagog can't do what he wants to do without a species of thought policing the like of which the ant-heap experts in China never even dreamed of. Unilateral disarmament and high morality scorched-earth! Why, as a nation we couldn't do that unless we meant it, and we couldn't mean it unless every man, woman and child thought alike— and with Henny running things, they would. Peace? Sure we'd have peace! I'd rather take on a Kodiak bear with boxing gloves than take my chances in that kind of a world. These guys," he said carelessly, "are prepared to murder one or two or a few thousand. You," said Jones, his voice suddenly shaking with scorn, "are prepared to murder every decent free thing this country ever stood for."
Jones rose. "I'm going now. All your answers are in the package there. Up to now it's been an integral part of oracle
—it was placed exactly in line with the reader, and has therefore been a part of everything the machine has ever done. My recommendation is that you replace it, or oracle
will be just another computer, answering questions in terms of themselves. I
suggest that you make similar installations in your own environment . . . and
quit asking questions that must be answered in terms of yowrselves. Questions
which in the larger sense would be unthinkable."
The
civilian rose, and did something that Jones would always remember as a decent
thing. He put out his hand and said, "You are right. I needed this, and
you've stopped me. What will stop them?"
Jones
took the hand. "They're stopped. I know, because I asked oracle
and oracle
said this was the way to do
it." He smiled briefly and went out. His last glimpse of the office was
the rigid backs of the two officers, and the civilian behind his desk, slowly
unwrapping the package. He walked down the endless Pentagon corridors, the skin
between his shoulder blades tight all the way: oracle
or no, there might be
overriding considerations. But he made it, and got to the first outside phone
booth still alive. Marvelously, wonderfully alive.
He
heard Ann's voice and said, "It's a real wonderful world, you know
that?"
"Jones,
darling! . . . you certainly have changed your tune. Last time I talked to you
it was a horrible place full of evil intentions and smelling like feet."
"I
just found out for sure three lousy kinds of world it's not going to be,"
Jones said. Ann would not have been what she was to him if she had not been
able to divine which questions not to ask. She said, "Well, good,"
and he said he was coming home.
"Oh, darling! You fix
that gadget?"
"Nothing to it,"
Jones said. "I just took down the
~THINK
J J
sign."
She said, "I never know when you're
kidding."
AFTER
BY HENRY SLESAR
Henry Slesar is an advertising executive who, somehow, finds time to write great quantities of highly ingenious fiction. Exciting long stories he has done in abundance—several novels (one of which earned him the Mystery Writers of America Award); movie and television flays; the dramatic "A Cry from the Penthouse," which appears in "The Playboy Book of Crime and Suspense"—but, these longer successes notwithstanding, he has a particularly happy knack for devising the short-short story, and even the short-short-short story. It is a difficult form, demanding tremendous control of one's craft and a thorough knowledge of that economy whereby maximum effect is achieved by minimum means. His ironic "After" is a quartet of such miniatures —four fables of the post-bomb world.
DOCTOR:
The employment advisor exchanged his professional calm for unprofessional
exasperation. "There must be something you can do, Doctor," he said,
"a man of your educational background. The war hasn't made savages out of
all of us. If anything, the desire for teachers has increased a thousand times
since A-day."
Dr.
Meigham leaned back in the chair and sighed. "You don't understand. I am
not a teacher in the ordinary sense; there is no longer a demand for the
subject I know best. Yes, people want knowledge; they want to know how to deal
with this shattered world they inherited. They want to know how to be masons
and technicians and construction men. They want to know how to put the cities
together, and make the machines work again, and patch up the radiation burns
and the broken bones. They want to know how to make artificial limbs for the
bomb victims, how to train the blind to be self-sufficient, the madmen to
reason again, the deformed to be presentable once more. These are the things
they wish to be taught. You know that better than I."
"And
your specialty, Doctor? You feel there is no
longer a demand?"
Dr.
Meigham laughed shortly. "I don't feel, I know. I've tried to interest
people in it, but they turn away from me. For twenty-five years, I have trained
my students to develop a perfect memory. I have published six books, at least
two of which have become standard textbooks at universities. In the first year
after the armistice, I advertised an eight-week course and received exactly one
inquiry. But this is my profession; this is what I do. How can I translate my
life's work into this new world of horror and death?"
The
employment advisor chewed his lip; the question was a challenge. By the time
Dr. Meigham left, he had found no answer. He watched the bent, shuffling figure
leave the room at the end of the interview, and felt despair at his own
failure. But that night, rousing suddenly from a familiar nightmare, he lay
awake in his shelter and thought of Dr. Meigham again. By morning, he knew the
answer.
A
month later, a public notice appeared in the government press, and the response
was instantaneous.
hugo meigham, ph.d.
Announces
an Accelerated 8-week Course "how to
forget" Enrollment
begins Sept. 9.
LAWYER:
"I'll be honest with you," Durrel said to his client. "If times
were any different, if A-day had never happened, I could guarantee you-i
verdict no worse than manslaughter. But
with things as they are--- "
He dropped a weary hand on the
young
man's shoulder. McAllister might have been a statue for all the response he
got.
"So
what happens now?" he said bitterly. "Do they throw the book at
me?"
"Try
and understand the way the court feels," the lawyer said. "Since the
war, the population has been reduced by ninety percent. Even worse, the
female-to-male ratio is almost eight hundred to one and not getting any
better." He arched an eyebrow. "There is no official statute
regarding it, but I can tell you this—if it was a woman you'd killed in that brawl, the judgment wouldn't be nearly so harsh.
That's the way the world is, son. That's what we've come down to."
"Then I don't have a
chance? I get the full penalty?"
"That's
up to the jury, of course, but I wanted to warn you in advance. When you go
back into that room, I want you to be prepared for the worst."
The
door opened, and the square face of the bailiff appeared. "Jury's in,
McAllister. Come on."
The lawyer shook his hand,
without speaking.
The verdict was: guilty of
murder in the first degree.
Sentence
was announced immediately by the judge, in order that no time be wasted in its
execution. The following day, McAllister, his teeth clenched and his face
blanched, was married in civil ceremony to his victim's 18 wives, giving him a
total of 31.
MERCHANT:
Swanson came into the board room, sustaining an air of executive nonchalance
that even his enemies found admirable. It was common knowledge that this was
the day he would have to answer for his failure as President of the United
Haberdashery Corporation. But Swanson was at ease; even if his opposition knew
his attitude to be a pose, they stirred restlessly at his casual manner.
The
Chairman began the meeting without fanfare, and called at once for a report
from Sales. They all knew the contents of the report; it had been circulated
privately to each member. Instead of listening to the dreary recitation of
losses, the board watched the face of Swanson to see his reaction to this
public accusation of his poor management.
Finally, it was Swanson's
turn to speak.
"Gentlemen,"
he said, without a tremor in his voice, "as we have heard, haberdashery
sales have been crippled badly since the war. The loss of revenue has been no
surprise to any of us, but it is not this loss which concerns us today. It is
the prediction that sales will decline even further in the future. Gentlemen, I
contest the prognostication of the Sales Department; I contend that sales will
be greater than ever!"
The
board buzzed; at the end of the long table, someone chuckled dryly.
"I
know my prediction sounds hard to credit," Swanson said, "and I
intend to give you a full explanation before we leave this room today. But
first, I wish you to hear a very special report from a very special man,
Professor Ralph Entwiller of the American Foundation of Eugenics."
For the first time, the pale-cheeked man
sitting in the chair of honor beside the President rose. He nodded to the assemblage,
and began speaking in a voice almost too low to be heard.
"Mr.
Swanson asked me to speak to you today about the future," he said
hesitantly. "I know nothing about the haberdashery business. My field is
eugenics, and my specialty is the study of radiation biology . . ."
'Would you be more
specific?" Swanson said.
"Yes,
of course. I deal with mutations, gentlemen, mutations which will soon become
the norm of birth. Already, the percentage of mutated births is close to
sixty-five, and we believe it will increase as time goes by."
"I
don't understand this," the Chairman growled. "What does all this
have to do with us?"
Swanson
smiled. "Ah, but a great deal." He held the lapel of his jacket, and
surveyed the curious, upturned faces around the table. "For one thing,
gentlemen, we're going to be selling twice as many hats."
CHIEF:
Mboyna, chieftain of the Aolori tribe, showed no fear as the longboat
approached the island. But it was more than the obligation of his rank which
kept his face impassive; he alone of his tribesmen had seen white men before,
when he was a child of the village half a century ago.
As
the boat landed, .one of the whites, a scholarly man with a short silver beard,
came toward him, his hand raised in a gesture of friendship. His speech was
halting, but he spoke in the tongue of Mboyna's fathers. "We come in
peace," he said. "We have come a great distance to find you. I am
Morgan, and these are my companions, Hendricks and Carew; we are men of
science."
"Then
speak!" Mboyna said in a hostile growl, wishing to show no weakness before
his tribe.
"There has been a great war,"
Morgan said, looking uneasily at the warriors who crowded about their chief.
"The white men beyond the waters have hurled great lightning at each
other. They have poisoned the air, the sea ancLthe flesh of men with their
weapons. But it was our belief that there were outposts in the world which war
had not touched with its deadly fingers. Your island is one of these, great
chief, and we come to abide with you. But first, there is one thing we must do,
and we beg your patience."
From
the store of supplies in their longboat, the white men removed strange metal
boxes with tiny windows. They advanced hesitatingly toward the chief and his
tribesmen, pointing the curious devices in their direction. Some of them
cowered, others raised their spears in warning. "Do not fear," Morgan
said. "It is only a plaything of our science. See how they make no sound
as their eyes scan you? But watch." The white men pointed the boxes at
themselves, and the devices began clicking frantically.
"Great
magic," the tribesmen whispered, their faces awed. "Great
magic," Mboyna repeated reverently, bowing before the white gods and the
proof of their godhood, the clicking boxes. With deference, they guided the
white men to their village, and after the appropriate ceremony, they were beheaded,
cleaned and served at the evening meal.
For
three days and nights, they celebrated their cleverness with dancing and bright
fires; for now, they too were gods. The little boxes had begun to click
magically for them, also.
DECEMBER
28TH
BY THEODORE L. THOMAS
Many
animals are fighters, stalkers, killers, but the only gratuitously cruel animal
is man. Since his beginning, man has been punishing his fellow man, quite
legally, by putting him to torture and/'or death via stoning, burning, boiling,
crucifying, racking, impaling, garroting, decapitating, disemboweling,
hanging, electrocuting, gassing, and other "cruel and unusual"
methods. What forms will legal chastisement take in the future? Will it be
eliminated? Made more humane? Or will it, through the evil ingenuity of dark minds and in the name of humanitarian reform, attain the hideous
refinement so chillingly depicted here by Theodore L. Thomas?
WHY
MUST THEY DO If on December 28th? John Stapleton considered the question. That
was the worst part of it, the date. December 28th, tucked neatly between the
brightest holidays of the year.
Stapleton
spun from the .-r.?1! window in a characteristic rush of motion.
Hands locked behind him, he stared at the door. In the back of his mind he knew
there was a good reason for the date. They had picked the anniversary of the
day he and Ardelle had married, a day of special gladness, in the heart of the
holiday season. Yes, December 28th was a time for many things, but it was not a
time for a hanging.
In
three steps Stapleton was at the door; he took the bars into his two great
hands. Understanding the reason for the date did nothing to sap his anger at
it. Most of the world celebrated, and it seemed to Stapleton that this
universal jubilee was at his expense. The world danced at his hanging.
Stapleton
somberly began his exercises. The guards saw, and looked at each other
uncomfortably. Stapleton took the pencil-thin bars into his two hands and
methodically tried to pull them apart. First, the right hand directly in front
of the massive chest, the left hand off to one side. The tendons stretched
audibly. Then the hands were reversed, and again the tightening of great
muscles. Then both hands on a single bar, and both feet on another. The soft
grants and the low rumbles deep in the throat echoed in the chamber as
Stapleton worked on the bars, worked until his body was covered with a fine
sweat. Stapleton knew, and the guards knew, that the thin shafts were of an
alloy capable of withstanding the best efforts of ten men such as Stapleton.
Yet the slow and careful straining, the deliberate and intense attack on the
bars by the massive man created the illusion that he was able to rip them out
of their moorings. Twice a day Stapleton took his exercises on the bars, and
twice a day the guards watched with a fear that knowledge could not dispel.
Stapleton finished. He stood at the door
breathing deeply,
252 december 28TH
his
hands clenching and unclenching, the fingers making a scraping sound as he
forced the tips across the callused and furrowed palms. The guards visibly
relaxed and turned away. Stapleton looked at the clock and grunted. It was
almost time. In a few moments now they would come for him.
He
grunted louder. Let them come. Ardelle was dead, Ardelle and that other. And no
matter what they said or did, it was right it should be that way. There are
things a man knows who has been one with a woman like Ardelle. Between such a
man and such a woman there could be nothing concealed, not for long. How
strange that she should have tried.
But
the time came when he looked at her with a mild question in his eyes. The
response—the incredible, soul-shaking response—was a flicker of the panic of
discovery. Just a brief flash in her eyes, but he read it well; it was enough.
Ardelle
was silent throughout all that followed. She understood this man of iron and
fire, and so through it all she made no sound, no moan. With the other it was
different. The other had been playing a kind of game, and he was not at all
prepared to pay the price of losing. He died badly.
And
Stapleton? There was an enigma. Here and now, when men need no longer die for
their crimes, was a man who refused to admit that a crime had been committed.
So little was needed to save him, but that little he refused to give. Here and
now, a man need only cry out, "Forgive me, I was wrong. Forgive me,"
and he was saved.
Stapleton
turned to watch as the outer door opened to admit a tall gray-haired man. With
measured strides the man came close to the bars and looked through at
Stapleton. The pain was as strong in his face as ever, the sorrow and pleading
as eloquent. His words when he spoke were husky with suffering. "John
Stapleton, how say you? Have you erred?"
Stapleton
looked at him and said, "I have not erred. I did what had to be done,
nothing more."
The man with the gray hair
turned away. The walk back to the door was solemn, for his head was bent and his shoulders trembled.
Then he was gone.
There
was a stirring and a shuffling of many feet outside the outer door. Stapleton
knew they were coming for him, and he stepped back to the center of the cell.
He knew how this would be. They would come into his cell fearful that he would
unleash his physical might, yet they would be unable to look at him. He would
wait a moment, then laugh, then lead the procession to the gallows chamber. He
would stand with his head in the enfolding blackness, feeling the snug rope
around his throat and the knot behind his left ear. When the moment came there
would be no sensation of falling; there would be a mere lightening of pressure
against his feet. And the thudding shock and the searing flash of light. Then
blackness.
These
things he knew well, but there were other things. There was the doctor who stood
by to pronounce him dead at the earliest possible moment; the oxygen-carrying
blood must not be kept from the brain longer than 4.3 minutes. Once dead the
intravenous needles were inserted and the pumps took over where the heart had
failed.
The
surgeons came on next. With high dexterity they repaired the broken cervical
vertebra, the torn muscles, the crushed veins and arteries. When they were
finished they placed the head and neck in a cast, and turned their attention to
the restoration of the heartbeat. This was soon accomplished and, unconscious,
Stapleton was wheeled to his cell.
Usually
he recovered consciousness during the middle of January. By March he was out of
bed, still wearing his cast. In June he started his exercises, for he insisted
on being strong. In August he put aside his cast. All during the fall he grew
strong in order that the cycle might begin again on December 28th. How many
times had it been since that first time back in 1997? Fourteen? Eighteen? One
loses count, but no matter. If this is what they must do, let them.
But why must they always do it on December
28th?
SPY STORY
by robert sheckley
Some
pages back, in introducing "Love, Incorporated," we quoted Kingsley
Amis' description of Robert Sheckley: "science-fiction's premier gadfly."
He is a gadfly whose sting does not spare science fiction itself or the people
who write it. Says Sheckley: "S-f seems to be a haven for skilled,
artistically-inclined people who are satisfied with a low level of aspiration.
They dream of truth and splendor, then sit down and turn out a silly little
story about a robot who's lost his best friend. Bold experimentation, in the
world of s-f, is the weary old notion of dispensing with plot. When it gets
literary, it is often precious. Its greatest fault is that it maintains so many
deadly illusions about itself." Not surprisingly, Sheck-ley's own work is
wellf lotted, free of precious-ness and pomposity, lean, astringent, and
lightly brushed with a tint of satire that disguises the often mordant social
commentary lying just beneath the entertaining surface. These qualities are
diver tin gly demonstrated in "Spy Story."
I'M
REALLY IN TROUBLE now, more trouble than I ever thought possible. It's a little
difficult to explain how I got into this mess, so maybe I'd better start at the
beginning.
Ever
since I graduated trade school in 1991 I'd had a good job as sphinx valve
assembler on the Starling Spaceship production line. I really loved those big ships,
roaring to Cygnus and Alpha Centaurus and all the other places in the news. I
was a young man with a future, I had friends, I even knew some girls.
But it was no good.
The
job was fine, but I couldn't do my best work with those hidden cameras focused
on my hands. Not that I minded the cameras themselves j it was the whirring
noise they made. I couldn't concentrate.
I
complained to Internal Security. I told them, look, why can't I have new, quiet
cameras, like everybody else? But they were too busy to do anything about it.
Then
lots of little things started to bother me. Like the tape recorder in my TV
set. The F.B.I, never adjusted it right, and it hummed all night long. I complained a hundred times. I told them, look,
nobody else's recorder hums that way. Why mine? But they always gave me that
speech about winning the cold war, and how they couldn't please everybody.
Things
like that make a person feel inferior. I suspected my government wasn't
interested in me.
Take
my Spy, for example. I was an 18-D Suspect—the same classification as the
Vice-President—and this entitled me :o part-time
surveillance. But my particular Spy must have thought he was a movie actor,
because he always wore a stained trench coat and a slouch hat jammed over his
eyes. He was a thin, nervous type, and he followed practically on my heels for fear of losing me.
Well,
he was trying his best. Spying is a competitive business, and I couldn't help
but feel sorry, he was so bad at it. But it
was embarrassing, just to be associated with him. My friends laughed themselves
sick whenever I showed up with him breathing down the back of my neck.
"Bill," they said, "is that the
best you can do?" And my girl friends thought he was creepy.
Naturally,
I went to the Senate Investigations Committee, and said, look, why can't you
give me a trained Spy, like my friends have?
They
said they'd see, but I knew I wasn't important enough to swing it.
All
these little things put meiin edge, and any psychologist will tell you it
doesn't take something big to drive you bats. I was sick of being ignored, sick
of being neglected.
That's
when I started to think about Deep Space. There were billions of square miles
of nothingness out there, dotted with too many stars to count. There were
enough Earth-type planets for every man, woman and child. There had to be a
spot for me.
I
bought a Universe Light List, and a tattered Galactic Pilot. I read through the
Gravity Tide Book, and the Interstellar Pilot Charts. Finally I figured I knew
as much as I'd ever know.
All
my savings went into an old Chrysler Star Clipper. This antique leaked oxygen
along its seams. It had a touchy atomic pile, and spacewarp drives that might
throw you practically anywhere. It was dangerous, but the only life I was
risking was my own. At least, that's what I thought.
So
I got my passport, blue clearance, red clearance, numbers certificate,
space-sickness shots and deratification papers. At the job I collected my last
day's pay and waved to the cameras. In the apartment, I packed my clothes and
said good-bye to the recorders. On the street, I shook hands with my poor Spy
and wished him luck.
I had burned my bridges
behind me.
All that was left was final
clearance, so I hurried down to the Final Clearance Office. A clerk with white
hands and a sun lamp tan looked at me dubiously.
<rWhere did you wish to go?" he asked me.
"Space," I said.
"Of course. But where in space?"
"I
don't know yet," I said. "Just space. Deep Space. Free Space."
The
clerk sighed wearily. "You'll have to be more explicit than that, if you
want a clearance. Are you going to settle on a planet in American Space? Or did
you wish to emigrate to British Space? Or Dutch Space? Or French Space?"
"I didn't know space could be owned," I said.
"Then you don't keep up with the
times," he told me, with a
superior smirk. "The United States has claimed all space
between coordinates 2XA and DB2, except for a small and
relatively unimportant segment which is claimed by Mexico.
The Soviet Union has coordinates 3DB to L02—a very bleak
region, I can assure you. And then there is the Belgian Grant,
the Chinese Grant, the Ceylonese Grant, the Nigerian
Grant----- "
I stopped him. "Where is Free
Space?" I asked. "There is none."
"None at all? How far do the boundary
lines extend?" "To infinity," he told me proudly.
For
a moment it fetched me up short. Somehow I had never considered the possibility
of every bit of infinite space being owned. But it was natural enough. After
all, somebody had to own it.
"I
want to go into American Space," I said. It didn't seem to matter at the
time, although it turned out otherwise.
The
clerk nodded sullenly. He checked my records back to the age of five—there was
no sense in going back any further— and gave me the Final Clearance.
The spaceport had my ship all serviced, and I
managed to get away without blowing a tube. It wasn't until Earth dwindled to a
pinpoint and disappeared behind me that I realized that I was alone.
Fifty hours out I was making a routine
inspection of my stores, when I observed that one of my vegetable sacks had a
shape unlike the other sacks. Upon opening it I found a girl, where a hundred
pounds of potatoes should have been.
A stowaway. I stared at
her, open-mouthed.
"Well,"
she said, "are you going/lo help me out? Or would you prefer to close the
sack and forget the whole thing?"
I helped her out. She said,
"Your potatoes are lumpy."
I
could have said the same of her, with considerable approval. She was a slender
girl, for the most part, with hair the reddish blonde color of a flaring jet, a
pert, dirt-smudged face and brooding blue eyes. On Earth, I would gladly have
walked ten miles to meet her. In space, I wasn't so sure.
"Could
you give me something to eat?" she asked. "All I've had since we left
is raw carrots."
I
fixed her a sandwich. While she ate, I asked, "What are you doing
here?"
"You wouldn't
understand," she said, between mouthfuls.
"Sure I would."
She walked to a porthole and looked out at
the spectacle of stars—American stars, most of them—burning in the void of
American space.
"I wanted to be
free," she said.
"Huh?"
She
sank wearily on my cot. "I suppose you'd call me a romantic," she
said quietly. "I'm the sort of fool who recites poetry to herself in the
black night, and cries in front of some absurd little statuette. Yellow autumn
leaves make me tremble, and dew on a green lawn seems like the tears of all
Earth. My psychiatrist tells me I'm a misfit."
She closed her eyes with a weariness I could
appreciate.
Standing
in a potato sack for 50 hours can be pretty exhausting.
"Earth was getting me down," she
said. "I couldn't stand it
—the regimentation, the discipline, the privation, the cold war,
the hot war, everything. I wanted to laugh in free air, run
through green fields, walk unmolested through gloomy
forests, sing---- "
"But why did you pick
on me?"
"You
were bound for freedom," she said. "I'll leave, if you insist."
That was a pretty silly idea, out in the
depths of space. And I couldn't afford the fuel to turn back. "You can
stay," I said.
"Thank you," she
said very softly. "You do understand."
"Sure, sure," I said. "But
we'll have to get a few things
straight. First of all----- "
But she had fallen asleep on my cot,
with
a trusting smile on her lips.
Immediately
I searched her handbag. I found five lipsticks, a compact, a phial of Venus V
perfume, a paper-bound book of poetry, and a badge that read: Special Investigator, FBI.
I
had suspected it, of course. Girls don't talk that way, but Spies always do.
It
was nice to know my government was still looking out for me. It made space seem
less lonely.
The ship moved into the depths of American
Space. By working 15 hours out of 24,1 managed to keep my spacewarp drive in
one piece, my atomic piles reasonably cool, and my hull seams tight. Mavis
O'Day (as my Spy was named) made all meals, took care of the light
housekeeping, and hid a number of small cameras around the ship. They
buzzed abominably, but I pretended not to notice.
Under
the circumstances, however, my relations with Miss O'Day were quite proper.
The
trip was proceeding normally—even happily—until something happened.
I
was dozing at the controls. Suddenly an intense light flared on my starboard
bow. I leaped backward, knocking over Mavis as she was inserting a new reel of
film into her number three camera.
"Excuse me," I
said.
"Oh, trample me
anytime," she said.
I
helped her to her feet. Her supple nearness was dangerously pleasant, and the
tantalizing scent of Venus V tickled my nostrils.
"You can let me go
now," she said.
"I know," I said, and continued to
hold her. My mind
inflamed by her nearness, I heard myself saying, "Mavis—I
haven't known you very long, but- "
"Yes, Bill? "she
asked.
In
the madness of the moment I had forgotten our relationship of Suspect and Spy.
I don't know what I might have said. But just then a second light blazed
outside the ship.
I
released Mavis and hurried to the controls. With difficulty I throttled the old
Star Clipper to an idle, and looked around.
Outside,
in the vast vacuum of space, was a single fragment of rock. Perched upon it was
a child in a spacesuit, holding a box of flares in one hand and a tiny
spacesuited dog in the other.
Quickly we got him inside
and unbuttoned his spacesuit.
"My dog------ " he
said.
"He's all right,
son," I told him.
"Terribly sorry to break in on you this
way," the lad said. "Forget it," I said. "What were you
doing out there?" "Sir," he began, in treble tones, "I will
have to start at the start. My father was a spaceship test pilot, and he died
valiantly,
trying to break the light barrier. Mother recently remarried. Her present
husband is a large, black-haired man with narrow, shifty eyes and tightly
compressed lips. Until recently he was employed as a ribbon clerk in a large
department store.
"He
resented my presence from the beginning. I suppose I reminded him of my dead
father, with my blonde curls, large oval eyes and merry, outgoing ways. Our
relationship smouldered fitfully. Then an uncle of his died (under suspicious
circumstances) and he inherited holdings in British Space.
"Accordingly,
we set out in our spaceship. As soon as we reached this deserted area, he said
to mother, 'Rachel, he's old enough to fend for himself.' My mother said,
'Dirk, he's so young!' But soft-hearted, laughing mother was no match for the
inflexible will of the man I would never call father. He thrust me into my
spacesuit, handed me a box of flares, put Flicker into his own little suit, and
said, 'A lad can do all right for himself in space these days.' 'Sir,' I said,
'there is no planet within two hundred light years.' 'You'll make out,' he
grinned, and thrust me upon this spur of rock."
The
boy paused for breath, and his dog Flicker looked up at me with moist oval
eyes. I gave the dog a bowl of milk and bread, and watched the lad eat a peanut
butter and jelly sandwich. Mavis carried the little chap into the bunk room and
tenderly tucked him into bed.
I
returned to the controls, started the ship again, and turned on the intercom.
"Wake up, you little
idiot!" I heard Mavis say.
"Lemme sleep,"
the boy answered.
"Wake
up! What did Congressional Investigation mean by sending you here? Don't they realize this is an FBI case?"
"He's
been reclassified as a 10-F Suspect," the boy said. "That calls for full
surveillance."
"Yes, but I'm here," Mavis cried.
"You didn't do so well on your last
case," the boy said. "I'm sorry, ma'am, but Security comes
first."
"So they send you," Mavis said,
sobbing now. "A twelve-
year-old child--- "
"I'll be thirteen in
seven months."
"A twelve-year-old child! And I've tried
so hard! I've
studied, read books, taken evening courses, listened to
lectures---- "
"It's
a tough break," the boy said sympathetically. "Personally, I want to
be a spaceship test pilot. At my age, this is the only way I can get in flying
hours. Do you think he'll let me fly the ship?"
I
snapped off the intercom. I should have felt wonderful. Two full-time Spies
were watching me. It meant I was really someone, someone to be watched.
But
the truth was, my Spies were only a girl and a twelve-year-old boy. They must
have been scraping bottom when they sent those two.
My government was still
ignoring me, in its own fashion.
We managed well on the rest of the flight.
Young Roy, as the lad was called, took over the piloting of the ship, and his
dog sat alertly in the co-pilot's seat. Mavis continued to cook and keep house.
I spent my time patching seams. We were as happy a group of Spies and Suspect
as you could find.
We
found an uninhabited Earth-type planet. Mavis liked it because it was small and
rather cute, with the green fields and gloomy forests she had read about in her
poetry books. Young Roy liked the clear lakes, and the mountains, which were
just the right height for a boy to climb.
We landed, and began to
settle.
Young
Roy found an immediate interest in the animals I animated from the Freezer. He
appointed himself guardian of cows and horses, protector of ducks and geese,
defender of pigs and chickens. This kept him so busy that his reports to
the
Senate became fewer and fewer, and finally stopped altogether.
You really couldn't expect
more from a Spy of his age.
And
after I had set up the domes and force-seeded a few acres, Mavis and I took
long walks in the gloomy forest, and in the bright green and yellow fields that
bordered it.
One
day we packed a picnic lunch and ate on the edge of a little waterfall. Mavis' unbound
hair spread lightly over her shoulders, and there was a distant enchanted look
in her blue eyes. All in all, she seemed extremely un-Spylike, and I had to
remind myself over and over of our respective roles.
"Bill," she said
after a while.
"Yes?" I said.
"Nothing." She
tugged at a blade of grass.
I
couldn't figure that one out. But her hand strayed somewhere near mine. Our
fingertips touched, and clung.
We
were silent for a long time. Never had I been so happy.v
"Bill?"
"Yes?"
"Bill dear, could you ever--- "
What
she was going to say, and what I might have answered, I will never know. At
that moment our silence was shattered by the roar of jets. Down from the sky
dropped a spaceship.
Ed Wallace, the pilot, was a white-haired old
man in a slouch hat and a stained trench coat. He was a salesman for Clear-Flo,
an outfit that cleansed water on a planetary basis. Since I had no need for his
services, he thanked me, and left.
But
he didn't get very far. His engines turned over once, and stopped with a frightening
finality.
I
looked over his drive mechanism, and found that a sphinx valve had blown. It
would take me a month to make him a new one with hand tools.
"This is terribly awkward," he
murmured. "I suppose I'll have to stay here." "I suppose
so," I said.
He
looked at his ship regretfully. "Can't understand how it happened,"
he said.
"Maybe
you weakened the valve when you cut it with a hacksaw," I said, and walked
off. I had seen the telltale marks.
Mr.
Wallace pretended not to hear me. That evening I overheard his report on the
interstellar radio, which functioned perfectly. His home office, interestingly
enough, was not Clear-Flo, but Central Intelligence.
Mr. Wallace made a good vegetable farmer,
ev^n though he spent most of his time sneaking around with camera and notebook.
His presence spurred Young Roy to greater efforts. Mavis and I stopped walking
in the gloomy forest, and there didn't seem time to return to the yellow and
green fields, to finish some unfinished sentences.
But
our little settlement prospered. We had other visitors. A man and his wife from
Regional Intelligence dropped by, posing as itinerant fruit pickers. They were
followed by two girl photographers, secret representatives of the Executive
Information Bureau, and then there was a young newspaper man, who was actually
from the Idaho Council of Spatial Morals.
Every
single one of them blew a sphinx valve when it came time to leave.
I
didn't know whether to feel proud or ashamed. A half-dozen agents were watching
me—but every one of them was a second rater.
And invariably, after a few weeks on my planet, they became involved in
farmwork and their Spying efforts dwindled to nothing.
I had bitter moments. I pictured myself as a
testing ground for novices, something to cut their teeth on. I was the Suspect
they gave to Spies who were too old or too young, inefficient, scatter-brained,
or just plain incompetent. I saw myself as a sort of half-pay retirement plan
Suspect, a substitute for a pension.
But
it didn't bother me too much. I did have a position, although it was a little
difficult to define. I was happier than I had ever been on Earth, and my Spies
were pleasant and cooperative people.
Our little colony was happy
and secure.
I thought it could go on
forever.
Then, one fateful night, there was unusual
activity. Some important message seemed to be coming in, and all radios were
on. I had to ask a few Spies to share sets, to keep from burning out my
generator.
Finally
all radios were turned off, and the Spies held conferences. I heard them
whispering into the small hours. The next morning, they were all assembled in
the living room, and their faces were long and somber. Mavis stepped forward as
spokeswoman.
"Something
terrible has happened," she said to me. "But first, we have something
to reveal to you. Bill, none of us are what we seemed. We are all Spies for the
government."
"Huh?" I said,
not wanting to hurt any feelings.
"It's true," she
said. "We've been Spying on you, Bill."
"Huh?" I said
again. "Even you?"
"Even me," Mavis
said unhappily.
"And now it's all
over," Young Roy blurted out.
That shook me. "Why?" I asked.
They
looked at each other. Finally Mr. Wallace, bending the rim of his hat back and
forth in his callused hands, said, "Bill, a resurvey has just shown that
this sector of space is not owned by the United States."
"What country does own
it?" I asked.
"Be
calm," Mavis said. "Try to understand. This entire sector was
overlooked in the international survey, and now it can't be claimed by any
country. As the first to settle here, this planet, and several million miles of
space surrounding it, belong to you, Bill."
I was too stunned to speak.
"Under
the circumstances," Mavis continued, "we have no authorization to be
here. So we're leaving immediately."
"But
you can't!" I cried. "I haven't repaired your sphinx valves!"
"All
Spies carry spare sphinx valves and hacksaw blades," she said gently.
... *
Watching
them troop out to their ships I pictured the solitude ahead of me. I would have
no government to watch over me. No longer would I hear footsteps in the night,
turn, and see the dedicated face of a Spy behind me. No longer would the whirr
of an old camera soothe me at work, nor the buzz of a defective recorder lull
me to sleep.
And
yet, I felt even sorrier for them. Those poor, earnest, clumsy, bungling Spies
were returning to a fast, efficient, competitive world. Where would they find
another Suspect like me, or another place like my planet?
"Goodbye Bill,"
Mavis said, offering me her hand.
I
watched her walk to Mr. Wallace's ship. It was only then that I realized that
she was no longer my Spy.
"Mavis!"
I cried, running after her. She hurried toward the ship. I caught her by the
arm. "Wait. There was something I started to say in the ship. I wanted to
say it again on the picnic."
She
tried to pull away from me. In most unromantic tones I croaked, "Mavis, I
love you."
She was in my arms. We
kissed, and I told her that her home was here, on this planet with its gloomy forests and yellow and
green fields. Here with me. She was too happy to speak.
With
Mavis staying, Young Roy reconsidered. Mr. Wallace's vegetables were just
ripening, and he wanted to tend them. And everyone else had some chore or other
that he couldn't drop.
So
here I am—ruler, king, dictator, president, whatever
I want to call myself. Spies are beginning to
pour in now from every
country—not only America.
To
feed all my subjects, I'll soon have to import food. But the other
rulers are beginning to refuse me aid. They think I've bribed their Spies to desert.
I haven't, I swear it. They just come.
I can't resign, because I own this place. And I haven't
the heart to send them away. I'm
at the end of my rope.
With
my entire population consisting of former government Spies, you'd think I'd have an easy time forming a government of my own. But no, they're
completely uncooperative. I'm
the absolute ruler of a planet of farmers, dairymen, shepherds and cattle raisers,
so I guess we won't starve after all. But that's
not the point. The point is: how in hell am I supposed to rule?
Not a single one of these
people will Spy for me.
PUNCH
BY FREDERIK POHL
Mr.
Pohl's gleaming accomplishments are listed earlier in this book, apropos of his
rather solemn story, "The Fiend." Pohl's "Punch," which indeed
packs a punch, displays another facet of his talent, a facet The Hartford Courant recognized when it said of him: "He has
the rare gift of combining fantasy and science fiction with cutting satire and
humor—with a wonderful result."
THE
FELLOW was over seven feet tall and when he stepped on Buffie's flagstone walk
one of the stones split with a dust of crushed rock. "Too bad," he
said sadly, "I apologize very much. Wait."
BufEe
was glad to wait, because Buffie recognized his visitor at once. The fellow
flickered, disappeared and in a moment was there again, now about five feet
two. He blinked with pink pupils. "I materialize so badly," he
apologized. "But I will make amends. May I? Let me see. Would you like the
secret of transmutation? A cure for simple virus diseases? A list of twelve
growth stocks with spectacular growth certainties inherent in our development
program for your planet Earth?"
Buffie
said he would take the list of growth stocks, hugging himself and fighting
terribly to keep a straight face. "My name is Charlton Buffie," he
said, extending a hand gladly. The alien took it curiously, and shook it, and
it was like shaking hands with a shadow.
"You
will call me 'Punch,' please," he said. "It is not my name but it
will do, because after all this projection of my real self is only a sort of
puppet. Have you a pencil?" And he rattled off the names of 12 issues Buffie had never heard of.
That
did not matter in the least. Buffie knew that when the aliens gave you
something it was money in the bank. Look what they had given the human race.
Faster-than-light space ships, power sources from hitherto non-radioactive
elements like silicon, weapons of great force and metalworking processes of
great suppleness.
Buffie
thought of ducking into the house for a quick phone call to his broker, but
instead he invited Punch to look around his apple orchard. Make the most of
every moment, he said to himself, every moment with one of these guys is worth
ten thousand dollars. "I would enjoy your apples awfully," said
Punch, but he seemed disappointed. "Do I have it wrong? Don't you and
certain friends plan a sporting day, as Senator Wenzel advised me?"
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PUNCH
"Oh, sure! Certainly. Good old Walt told
you about it, did he? Yes." That was the thing about the aliens, they
liked to poke around in human affairs. They said when they came to Earth that they
wanted to help us, and all they asked of us in return was that they be
permitted to study our ways. It was nice of them to be so interested, and it
was nice of Walt Wenzel, Buffie thought, to send the alien to him. "We're
going after mallard, down to Little Egg, some of the boys and me. There's
Chuck—he's the mayor here, and Jer—Second National Bank, you know, and
Padre/-—"
"That is it!" cried Punch. "To
see you shoot the mallard."
He pulled out an Esso road map, overtraced with golden
raised lines, and asked Buffie to point out where Little Egg
was. "I cannot focus well enough to stay in a moving vehicle,"
he said, blinking in a regretful way. "Still, I can meet you
there. If, that is, you wish--- "
"I
do! I do! I do!" Buffie was painfully exact in pointing out the place.
Punch's lips moved silently, translating the golden lines into polar space-time
coordinates, and he vanished just as the station wagon with the rest of the
boys came roaring into the carriage drive with a hydramatic spatter of gravel.
The boys were extremely impressed. Padre had
seen one of the aliens once, at a distance, drawing pictures of the skaters in
Rockefeller Center, but that was the closest any of them had come. "God!
What luck." "Did you get a super-hairpin from him, Buffie?"
"Or a recipe for a nyew, smyooth martini with dust on it?" "Not
Buffie, fellows! He probably held out for
something real
good, like six new ways to--- Oh, excuse me,
Padre."
"But seriously, Buffie, these people are unpredictably generous. Look how
they built that dam in Egypt! Has this Punch given you anything?"
Buffie
grinned wisely as they drove along, their shotguns firmly held between their
knees. "Damn it," he said mildly, "I forgot to bring cigarettes.
Let's stop at the Blue Jay Diner for a minute." The cigarette machine at
the Blue Jay was out of sight of the parking lot, and so was the phone booth.
It
was too bad, he reflected, to have to share everything with the boys, but on
the other hand he already had his growth stocks. Anyway there was plenty for everyone.
Every nation on Earth had its silicon-drive spaceships now, fleets of them
milling about on maneuvers all over the Solar System. With help from the
star-people, an American expedition had staked out enormous radium beds on
Callisto, the Venezuelans had a diamond mountain on Mercury, the Soviets owned
a swamp of purest penicillin near the South Pole of Venus. And individuals had
done very well, too. A ticket-taker at Steeplechase Park explained to the
aliens why the air jets blew up ladies' skirts, and they tipped him with a
design for a springless safety pin that was earning him a million dollars a
month in royalties. An usherette at La Scala became the cosmetic queen of
Europe for showing three of them to their seats. They gave her a simple painless
eye dye, and now 99 percent of Milan's women had bright blue eyes
from her salon.
All
they wanted to do was help. They said they came from a planet very far away and
they were lonely and they wanted to help us make the jump into space. It would
be fun, they promised, and would help to end poverty and war between nations,
and they would have company in the void between the stars. Politely and
deferentially they gave away secrets worth trillions, and humanity burst with a
shower of gold into the age of plenty.
Punch
was there before them, inspecting the case of bourbon hidden in their blind.
"I am delighted to meet you, Chuck, Jer, Bud, Padre and of course
Buffie," he said. "It is kind of you to take a stranger along on your
fun. I regret I have only some eleven minutes to stay."
Eleven
minutes! The boys scowled apprehensively at Buffie. Punch said, in his wistful
voice, "If you will allow me to give
272 punch
you
a memento, perhaps you would like to know that three grams of common table salt
in a quart of Crisco, exposed for nine minutes to the radiations from one of
our silicon reactors, will infallibly remove warts." They all scribbled,
silently planning a partnership corporation, and Punch pointed out to the bay
where some tiny dots rose and fell with the waves. "Are those not the
mallards you wish to shoot?"
"That's right," said Buffie glumly.
"Say, you know what I
was thinking? I was thinking—that transmutation you men-
tioned before—I wonder-- " ■**-
"And
are these the weapons with which you kill the birds?" He examined Padre's
ancient over-and-under with the silver chasing. "Extremely lovely,"
he said. "Will you shoot?"
"Oh, not now," said Buffie, scandalized. "We cah't do
that.
About that transmutation-- "
"It
is extremely fascinating," said the star-man, looking at them with his
mild pink pupils and returning the gun. "Well. I may tell you, I think,
what we have not announced. A surprise. We are soon to be present in the flesh,
or near, at any rate."
"Near?"
Buffie looked at the boys and the boys looked at him; there had been no
suggestion of this in the papers and it almost took their minds off the fact
that Punch was leaving. He nodded violently, like the flickering of a bad
fluorescent lamp.
"Near
indeed, in a relative way," he said. "Perhaps some hundreds of
millions of miles. My true body, of which this is only a projection, is at
present in one of our own interstellar ships now approaching the orbit of
Pluto. The American fleet, together with those of Chile, New Zealand and Costa
Rica, is there practicing with its silicon-ray weapons and we will shortly make
contact with them for the first time in a physical way." He beamed.
"But only six minutes remain," he said sadly.
"That transmutation secret you mentioned------- " Buffie
began, recovering his voice.
"Please,"
said Punch, "may I not watch you hunt? It is a link between us."
"Oh, do you
shoot?" asked Padre.
The
star-man said modestly, "We have little game. But we love it. Won't you
show me your ways?"
Buffie
scowled. He could not help thinking that 12 growth stocks and a wart cure were small pickings from the star-men, who
had given wealth, weapons and the secret of interstellar travel. "We
can't," he growled, his voice harsher than he intended. "We don't
shoot sitting birds."
Punch
gasped with delight. "Another bond between us! But now I must go to our
fleet for the . . For the surprise." He began to shimmer
like a candle.
"Neither do we,"
he said, and went out.
THE
CROOKED MAN
BY CHARLES BEAUMONT
A
few months before the birth of playboy, a then-fledgling writer sold a story to what,
at that time, was the nation's leading magazine for men. The story's premise
was simple: What if, under the pressures of overpopulation, homosexuality
became the social norm and heterosexuality the deviation? What if "the
heteros" were the persecuted minority? The story neither condemned nor
condoned homosexuality—its message was nothing more revolutionary than
"Live and Let Live"—and yet the magazine, after buying the story,
refused to publish it. It was considered dangerous, controversial. The writer,
understandably annoyed, battled long and bitterly with the editors and finally
asked them to return his manuscript. They did, and it was immediately published
in playboy. The story was Charles Beaumont's "The
Crooked Man."
"Professing
themselves to be wise, they became fools . . . who changed the truth of God into a lie . . . for even their women did change the natural
use into that which is against nature: and likewise also the men, leaving the
natural use of the woman, burned in
their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly . .
."
{St.
Paul: Romans, I)
HE
SLIPPED INTO a corner booth away from the dancing men, where it was quietest,
where the odors of musk and frangipani hung less heavy on the air. A slender
lamp glowed softly in the booth. He turned it down; down to where only the
club's blue overheads filtered through the beaded curtain, diffusing, blurring
the image thrown back by the mirrored walls of his light thin-boned
handsomeness.
"Yes,
sir?" The barboy stepped through the beads and stood smiling. Clad in
gold-sequihed trunks, his greased muscles seemed to roll in independent motion,
like fat snakes beneath his naked skin.
<rWhiskey,"
Jesse said. He caught the insouciant grin, the broad white-tooth crescent that
formed on the young man's face. Jesse looked away, tried to control the flow of
blood to his cheeks.
"Yes,
sir," the barboy said, running his thick tanned fingers over his solar
plexus, tapping the fingers, making them hop in a sinuous dance. He hesitated,
still smiling, this time question-ingly, hopefully, a smile filled with
admiration and desire. The Finger Dance, the accepted symbol since 2648,
stopped: the pudgy brown digits curled into angry fists. "Right away,
sir."
Jesse
watched him turn; before the beads had tinkled together, he watched the
handsome athlete make his way imperiously through the crowd, shaking off the tentative hands of
single men at the tables, ignoring the many desire symbols directed toward him.
That
shouldn't have happened, Jesse thought. Now the fellow's feelings were hurt. If
hurt enough, he would start thinking, wondering—and that would ruin everything.
No. It must be put right.
He
thought of Mina, of the beautiful Mina. It was such a rotten chance: it had to go well!
"Your
whiskey, sir," the young man said. His face was like a dog's face, large,
sad; his lips were a pouting bloat of line.
Jesse
reached into his pocket for some change. He started to say something, something
nice.
"It's
been paid for," the barboy said. He scowled and laid a card on the table
and left.
The
card carried the name e. j. hobart, embossed, in lavender ink. Jesse heard the
curtains tinkle.
"Hello,
there! I hope you don't mind my barging in like this, but—well, you didn't seem
to be with anyone . . ."
The
man was small, chubby, bald; his face had a dirty growth of beard and he looked
out of tiny eyes encased in bulging contacts. He was bare to the waist. His
white, hairless chest drooped and turned in folds at the stomach. Softly, more
subtle than the barboy had done, he put his porky stubs of fingers into a
suggestive rhythm.
Jesse
smiled. "Thanks for the drink," he said. "But I really am
expecting someone."
"Oh?" the man
said. "Someone—special?"
"Pretty
special," Jesse said smoothly, now that the words had become automatic.
"He's my fiance."
"I
see." The man frowned momentarily and then brightened. "Well, I
thought to myself, I said, 'E. J ., you don't actually think a beauty like that would be unattached,
do you?' But, it was certainly worth the old college try. Sorry."
"Perfectly all right," Jesse said.
The predatory little eyes were rolling, the fingers dancing in one last ditch
attempt. "Good evening, Mr. Hobart."
Jesse
felt slightly amused this time: it was the other kind, die intent ones, the
humorless ones like the barboy, who revolted him, turned him ill, made him want
to take a knife and carve unspeakable ugliness into his own smooth, aesthetic
face.
The
man shrugged; "Good evening!" and waddled away, crabwise.
Now
the club was becoming more crowded. It was getting later and heads full of
liquor shook away the inhibitions of the earliest hours. Jesse tried not to
watch, but he had long ago given up trying to rid himself of his fascination.
So he watched the men together. The pair over in the far corner, pressed close
together, dancing with their bodies, never moving their feet, swaying in slow,
lissome movements to the music. . . . The couple seated by the bar: one a
Beast, the other a Hunter. The Beast old, his cheeks caked hard and cracking
with powder and liniments, the perfume rising from his body like steam; the
Hunter, young but unhandsome, the fury evident in his eyes, the hurt anger at
having to make do with a paid companion, and such an ugly one. From time to
time the Hunter would look around, wetting his lips in shame. . . . And those
two just coming in, dressed in Mother's uniforms, tanned, mus-tached, proud of
their station . . .
Jesse
held the beads apart. Mina
must come
soon! He wanted to run from this place, out into
the air, into the darkness and silence.
No.
He just wanted Mina. To see her, touch her, listen to the music of her voice .
. .
Two
women came in, arm in arm, Beast and Hunter, drunk. They were stopped at the
door. The manager swept by Jesse's booth, muttering about them, asking why they
should want to come to the Phallus when they had their own sections, their own
clubs . . .
Jesse pulled his head back inside. He'd
become used to the light by now, so he closed his eyes against his multiplied
image. The disorganized sounds of love got louder, the singsong syrup of
voices: high-pitched, throaty, baritone, falsetto. It was crowded now. The
Orgies would begin before long and the couples would pair off for the cubicles.
He hated the place. But close to Orgy-time you didn't get noticed here; and
where else was there to go? Outside, where every inch of pavement was patrolled
electronically, every word of conversation, every movement recorded, cataloged,
filed?
Damn
Knudsen! Damn the little'man! Thanks to him, to the Senator, Jesse was now a
criminal. Before, it hadn't been so bad: not this bad, anyway. You were laughed
at and shunned and fired from your job, and sometimds kids threw stones at you,
but at least you weren't hunted. Now—it was a crime. It was a sickness.
He
remembered when Knudsen had taken over. It had been one of the little man's
first telecasts j in fact, it was the platform that had got him the majority
vote:
. .
Vice is on the upswing in our great city. In the dark corners of every Unit
perversion blossoms like an evil flower. Our children are exposed to its stink,
and they wonder—our
children wonder—why
nothing is done to put a halt to this disgrace. We have ignored it long enough!
The time has come for action,
not mere words. The
perverts who infest our land must be flushed out, eliminated completely, as a threat not only to public morals but to
society at large. These sick people must be cured and made normal. The disease
that throws men and women together in this dreadful abnormal relationship and
leads to arts of retrogression—retrogression that will, unless it is stopped
and stopped fast, lead us inevitably back to the status of animals—this is to
be considered as any other disease. It must be conquered as heart trouble,
cancer, polio, all other diseases have been conquered . . ."
The Women's Senator had taken Knudsen's lead
and issued a similar pronunciamento and then the bill had become law and the
law was carried out.
Jesse sipped at his whiskey, remembering the
Hunts. How the frenzied mobs had gone through the city at first, chanting,
yelling, bearing placards with slogans: "Wife out the het-eros!" "Kill the Queers!" "Make our
city clean again!"" And how they'd lost interest finally after the passion had worn down and
the novelty had ended. But they had killed many and they had sent many more to the hospitals . . .
He
remembered the nights of running and hiding, choked dry breath cutting his
throat, heart rattling loose. He had been lucky. He didn't look like a hetero.
They said you could tell one just by watching him walk—but Jesse walked
correctly. He fooled them. He was lucky.
And
he was a criminal. He, Jesse Martin, no different from the rest, tube-born and
machine-nursed, raised in the Character Schools like everyone else—was terribly
different from the rest.
It
had been on his first formal date that he became aware of this difference, that
it crystallized. The man had been a Rocketeer, the best high quality, and
frighteningly handsome. "Mother" had arranged it, the way he arranged
everything, carefully, proving and re-proving that he was worthy of the
Mother's uniform. There was the dance. And then the ride in the space-sled. The big man had put an arm about Jesse and— Jesse knew. He knew for certain and it made him very angry and very sad.
He
remembered the days that came after the knowledge: bad days, days fallen upon evil, black desires, deep-cored frustrations. He
had tried to find a friend at the Crooked Clubs that flourished then, but it
was no use. There was a sensationalism, a bravura to these people that he could
not love. The sight of men and women together, too, shocked the parts of him he
could not change, and disgusted him. Then the vice-squads had come and closed
up the clubs and the heteros were forced underground and he never sought them
out again or saw them. He was alone.
The beads tinkled.
"Jesse."
He looked up, quickly,
afraid. Then his fear vanished.
A
figure stood outlined against the curtains, quietly. A small, soft, clean
figure, a softness there, and a cleanliness^ cutting and dissipating the dark
asylum of his memories like sudden sunlight, with all the good warmth of
sunlight, and all the brightness. Mina.
She
wore a loose man's shirt, an old hat that hid her golden hair: her face was
shadowed by the turned-up collar. Through the shirt the rise and fall of her
breasts could be faintly detected. She smiled once, nervously.
Jesse
looked out the curtain. Without speaking, he put his hands about her soft, thin
shoulders and held her like this for a long minute.
"Mina----- "
She looked away. He pulled her chin forward
and
ran a finger along her lips. Then he pressed her body to his, tightly, touching
her neck, her back, kissing her forehead, her eyes, kissing her mouth.
She
pulled her head back and sat down, staring at the table. "Don't do that,
please don't," she said.
Jesse
opened his mouth, closed it abruptly as the curtains parted.
"Order, sir?"
"Beer," Jesse said, winking at the
barboy, who tried to come closer, to see the one loved by this handsome
stranger. "Two beers. Yes, sir."
The
barboy looked at Mina very hard, but she had turned and he could see only the
back. Jesse held his breath. The barboy smiled contemptuously then, a smile
that said: You're insane—I was hired for my beauty; I know that I am beautiful,
hundreds would be proud to have me, and you turn me down for this bag of bones
. . .
Jesse winked again, shrugged suggestively,
and danced his fingers: Tomorrow,
my friend. I'm stuck tonight. Can't help it. Tomorrow.
The
barboy paused a moment, grinned briefly with understanding, and left. In a few
minutes he returned with the beer. "On the house," he said, for
Mina's benefit. She turned only when Jesse said, softly:
"It's all right. He's
gone now."
He
looked at her, at the pain in her face, and the fear; hard lines that lied
about the love that was between them and had been for all these months. He
reached over1 and took off the hat. Long tresses of blonde hair
spilled out, splashing over the rough shirt.
She
grabbed for the hat. "We mustn't," she said. "Please. What if somebody
came in?"
"No one will come in.
I told you that."
"But
what if someone does? I don't know, I don't like it here. That man at the door,
he almost recognized me."
"But he didn't."
"Almost,
though. And then what?" "Forget it. Mina, for God's sake. Let's not
quarrel." She shook her head. "I'm sorry, Jesse. It's only that
meeting you like this makes me feel . . ." "What?"
"Dirty."
She spoke the word defiantly, and lifted her eyes to his.
"You don't really
believe that, do you?"
"No. I suppose not: I don't know, any
more." She hesitated.
"Maybe if we could be alone together, I- "
Jesse
took out a cigarette and began to use the table lighter. Then he cursed and
threw the phallic object under the chair and crushed the cigarette. "You
know that's impossible," he said. The idea of separate Units for homes had
disappeared, of course, to be replaced by giant dormitories. There were no more
parks, no country lanes. There was no place to hide at all now, thanks to
Senator Knudsen, to the little spearhead of these great new sociological
reforms. "This is all we have." Jesse threw a sardonic look around
the booth, with its carved symbols and framed pictures of entertainment
stars—all naked and leering.
They were silent for a time, hands
interlocked on the
tabletop. Then the girl began to cry. "I—I can't go on like
this," she said. "I can't. Jesse, listen; I came here tonight to
tell you----- "
"I
know. I know how awful it is for^sou. But what else can we do?" He tried
to keep the hopelessness out of his voice.
"We could----- " the girl started, and seemed to change her
mind.
"Maybe we should have gone underground with the rest, right at the
first."
"And hide there, like
rats?" Jesse said.
"We're
hiding here, aren't we," Mina demanded, adding, "like rats!"
He
sighed. He could not remember seeing her quite so unhappy. Things had never
been exactly right, never perfect, because she had always seemed to fight her
instincts. Even her affection for him, since that first time when he made her
admit it, pried it loose from her. But he had thought this could be conquered ... No; don't think about it. Think about
now, and how beautiful she is, how warm and vibrant and soft.
"It's
necessary," he said. "Parner is getting ready to crack down. I know,
Mina: I work at Centraldome, after all. In a little while there won't be any
underground. He has a list of names a mile long already."
Then, suddenly, the girl said, "I love
you," and leaned
forward, parting her lips for a kiss. "Jesse, I do." She closed
her eyes. "And I've tried to be strong, just like you told me to
be. But they wouldn't leave us alone. They wouldn't stop. Just
because we're qu-- "
"Mina!
I've said it before—don't
ever use that word!" His voice was harsh; he pushed her away. "It
isn't true! We're
not the queers. You've got
to believe that. Years ago it was normal for
men and women to love each other: they married and had children together;
that's the way it was. Don't you remember anything of what I've told you?"
The
girl stared downward. "Of course I do. I do, really. But it was such a
long time ago."
"Not
so long! Where I work—listen to me—they have books. You know, I told you about
books? I've read them, Mina. I learned what the words meant from other, books.
It's only been since the use of artificial insemination—not even five hundred
years ago."
"Yes," the girl
said, sighing, "I'm sure that's true."
"Mina,
stop it! We are not the unnatural ones, no matter what they say. I don't know exactly how it happened—maybe as women gradually
became equal to men in every way—or maybe solely because of the way we're
born—I don't know. But the point is, darling, the whole world was like us,
once. Even now," he said, desperately, "look at the animals."
"Jesse,
don't you dare talk as though we're like those horrible little dogs and cats
and things."
Jesse
took a deep swallow of his drink. He had tried so often to tell her, show her,
make her see. But he knew what she thought, really. She thought she was exactly
what the authorities told her she was.
God,
maybe that's how they all think, all the Crooked People, all the "unnormal
ones" . . .
The
girl's hands caressed his arms and the touch of them became strange to him. / love you, Mr. Martin, even though you do have
two heads . . .
Forget
it, he thought. Never mind. She's a woman, a very satisfying, desirable woman,
and she may think you're both freaks, but you know different, indeed you do,
you know she's wrong, just as they're all wrong . . .
Or, he wondered, are you the insane person of
old days who
was insane because he was so sure he wasn't insane because
"Disgusting!"
It
was the fat man, the smiling masher, E. J. Hobart. But he wasn't smiling now.
Jesse got up quickly and stepped in front of
Mina. "What
do you want?" he said. "I thought I told you---- "
The
man pulled a metal identification disk from his trunks. "Vice-squad, my
friend," he said. "Better sit down."
The
man's arm went out through the curtain and two other men came in, equipped with
weapons.
"I've
been watching you quite a while, Mister," the man said. "Quite a
while."
"Look,"
Jesse said, "I don't know what you're talking about. I work at Centraldome
and I'm seeing Miss Kirkpatrick here on some business."
"We know all about
that kind of business," the man said.
"All right—I'll tell you the truth. I
forced her to come her.
She didn't want to, but I--- "
"Mister,
didn't you hear me? I said I've been watching you. Let's go."
One
man took Mina's arm, roughly; the other two began to propel Jesse out through
the club. Heads turned. Tangled bodies moved embarrassedly.
"It's
all right," the fat man said, his white skin glistening with perspiration.
"It's all right, folks. Go on back to whatever you were doing." He
grinned and tightened his grip on Jesse's wrist.
Mina,
Jesse noticed, did not struggle. He looked at her and felt something suddenly
freeze into him. She had been trying to tell him something all evening, but he
hadn't let her. Now he knew what he had feared. He knew what she had come to
tell him: that even if they hadn't been caught, she would have submitted to the
Cure voluntarily. No more worries then, no more guilt. No more tender moments,
either, but wasn't that a small price to pay, when she could live the rest of
her life without feeling shame and dirt? Yes. It was a small price, now
that
the midnight dives and brief meetings were all they had left.
She
did not meet his look as they took her out into the street. He watched her and
thought of the past when they had been close, and he wanted to scream.
"You'll
be okay," the fat man was saying. He opened the wagon's doors.
"They've got it down pat now—couple days in the ward, one short session
with the doctors j take out a few glands, make a few injections, attach a few
wires to your head, turn on a machine: presto! You'll be surprised."
The
fat officer leaned close. His sausage fingers danced wildly near Jesse's face.
"It'll make a new man
of you," he said.
Then they closed the doors
and locked them.
WHO SHALL DWELL
BY H. C. NEAL
This
is a strongly pacifist story. The knowledge that it was written by a man who
spent ten years of his life in the army as a paratrooper, making combat jumps
in Germany and Korea, only increases its power. Mr. Neal's life is quieter now —he
is the news editor and prize-winning columnist of two small-town Oklahoma
weeklies. In "Who Shall Dwell," he says more about the need for
brotherhood among the earth's peoples than any amount of pious rhetoric, and he
does it by use of a device the effectiveness of which is matched by its utter
simplicity.
IT
CAME on a Sunday afternoon and that was good, because if it had happened on a
weekday the father would have been at work and the children at school, leaving
the mother at home alone and the whole family disorganized with hardly any hope
at all. They had prayed that it would never come, ever, but suddenly here it
was.
The
father, a slender, young-old man, slightly stooped from years of labor, was
resting on the divan and half-listening to a program of waltz music on the
radio. Mother was in the kitchen preparing a chicken for dinner and the younger
boy and girl were in the bedroom drawing crude pictures of familiar barnyard
animals on a shared slate. The older boy was in the tack shed out back,
saddle-soaping some harnesses.
When
the waltz program was interrupted by an announcer with a routine political
appeal, the father rose, tapped the ash from his pipe, and ambled lazily into
the kitchen.
"How
about joining me in a little glass of wine?" he asked, patting his wife
affectionately on the hip.
"If
you don't think it would be too crowded," she replied, smiling easily at
their standing jest.
He
grinned amiably and reached into the cupboard for the bottle and glasses.
Suddenly
the radio message was abruptly cut off. A moment of humming silence. Then, in a
voice pregnant with barely controlled excitement, the announcer almost shouted:
"Bomb
alert! Bomb alert! Attention! Attention! A salvo of missiles has just been
launched across the sea, heading this way. Attention! They are expected to
strike within the next sixteen minutes. Sixteen minutes! This is a verified
alert! Take cover! Take cover! Keep your radios tuned for further
instructions."
"My
God!" the father gasped, dropping the glasses. "Oh, my God!" His
ruggedly handsome face was ashen, puzzled, as though he knew beyond a shadow of
doubt that this was real—but still could not quite believe it.
"Get the children," his wife
blurted, then dashed to the door to call the older boy. He stared at her a
brief moment, seeing the fear in her pretty face, but something else, too,
something divorced from the fear. Defiance. And a loathing for all men involved
in the making and dispatch of nuclear weapons.
He
wheeled then, and ran to the bedroom. "Let's go," he snapped,
"shelter drill!" Despite a belated attempt to tone down the second
phrase and make it seem like just another of the many rehearsals they'd had,
his voice and bearing galvanized the youngsters into instant 'action. They
leaped from the bed without a word and dashed for the door.
He
hustled them through the kitchen to the rear door and sent them scooting to the
shelter. As he returned to the bedroom for outer garments for himself and his
wife, the older boy came running in.
"This
is the hot one, Son," said his father tersely, "the real one."
He and the boy stared at each other a long moment, both knowing what must be
done and each knowing the other would more than do his share, yet wondering
still at the frightening fact that it must be done at all.
"How much time we got,
Dad?"
"Not
long," the father replied, glancing at his watch, "twelve, maybe
fourteen minutes."
The
boy disappeared into the front room, going after the flashlight and battery
radio. The father stepped to the closet, slid the door open and picked up the
flat metal box containing their vital papers, marriage license, birth
certificates, etc. He tossed the box on the bed, then took down his wife's
shortcoat and his own hunting jacket. Draping the clothing over his arm, he
then picked up the metal box and the big family Bible from the headboard on the
bed. Everything else they would need had been stored in the shelter the past
several months. He heard his wife approaching and turned as she entered the
room.
"Ready, Dear?"
she asked.
"Yes, we're ready now," he replied,
"are the kids gone in?"
"They're
all down," she answered, then added with a faint touch of despairing
bewilderment, "I still can't believe it's real."
'We've got to believe it," he said,
looking her steadily in the eye, "we can't afford not to."
Outside,
the day was crisp and clear, typical of early fall. Just right for boating on
the river, fishing or bird shooting. A regular peach of a day, he thought, for
fleeing underground to escape the awesome hell of a nuclear strike. Who was the
writer who had said about atomic weapons, "Would any self-respecting
cannibal toss one into a village of women and children?" He looked at his
watch again. Four minutes had elapsed since the first alarm. Twelve minutes,
more or less, remained.
Inside
the shelter, he dogged the door with its double-strength strap iron bar, and
looked around to see that his family was squared away. His wife, wearing her
attractive blue print cotton frock (he noticed for the first time), was
methodically checking the food supplies, assisted by the older son. The small
children had already put their initial fright behind them, as is the nature of
youngsters, and were drawing on the slate again in quiet, busy glee.
Now it began. The waiting.
They
knew, the man and his wife, that others would come soon, begging and crying to
be taken in now that the time was here, now that Armageddon had come screaming
toward them, stabbing through the sky on stubbed wings of shining steel.
They
had argued the aspects of this when the shelter was abuilding. It was in her
mind to share their refuge. "We can't call ourselves Christians and then
deny safety to our friends when the showdown comes," she contended,
"that isn't what God teaches."
"That's nothing but religious pap,"
he retorted with a degree of anger, "oatmeal Christianity." For he
was a hard-headed man, an Old Testament man. "God created the family as
the basic unit of society," he reasoned. "That should make it plain
that a man's primary Christian duty is to protect his family."
"But
don't you see?" she protested, "we must prepare to purify ourselves ... to rise above this 'mine' thinking and
be as God's own son, who said, 'Love thy neighbor.'"
"No,"
he replied with finality, "I can't buy that." Then, after a moment's
thought while he groped for the words to make her understand the truth which
burned in the core of his soul, "It is my family I must save, no one more.
You. These kids. Our friends are like the people of Noah's time: he warned them
of the coming flood when he built the ark on God's command. He was ridiculed
and scoffed at, just as we have been ridiculed. No," and here his voice
took on a new sad sureness, an air of dismal certainty, "it is meant that
if they don't prepare, they die. I see no need for further argument." And
so, she had reluctantly acquiesced.
With
seven minutes left, the first knock rang the shelter door. "Let us in! For
God's sake, man, let us in!"
He
recognized the voice. It was his first neighbor down the road toward town.
"No!"
shouted the father, "there is only room for us. Go! Take shelter in your
homes. You may yet be spared."
Again came the pounding.
Louder. More urgent.
"You
let us in or we'll break down this door!" He wondered, with some concern,
if they were actually getting a ram of some sort to batter at the door. He was
reasonably certain it would hold. At least as long as it must.
The seconds ticked
relentlessly away. Four minutes left.
His
wife stared at the door in stricken fascination and moaned slightly. "Steady,
girl," he said, evenly. The children, having halted their game at the
first shouting, looked at him in fearful wonderment. He glared at his watch,
ran
his hands distraughtly through his hair, and
said nothing. Three minutes left.
At
that moment, a woman's cry from the outside pierced him in an utterly
vulnerable spot, a place the men could never have touched with their desperate
demands. "If you won't let me in," she cried, "please take my
baby, my little girl."
He
was stunned by her plea. This he had not anticipated. What must I do? he asked
himself in sheer agony. What man on earth could deny a child the chance to
live?
At
that point, his wife rose, sobbing, and stepped to the door. Before he could
move to stop her, she let down the latch and dashed outside. Instantly a
three-year-old girl was thrust into the shelter. He hastily fought the door
latch on again, then stared at the frightened little newcomer in mute rage,
hating her with an abstract hatred for simply being there in his wife's place
and knowing he could not turn her out.
He
sat down heavily, trying desperately to think. The voices outside grew louder.
He glanced at his watch, looked at the faces of his own children a long moment,
then rose to his feet. There were two minutes left, and he had made his
decision. He marveled now that he had even considered any other choice.
"Son,"
he said to the older boy, "you take care of them." It was as simple
as that.
Unlatching
the door, he thrust it open and stepped out. The crowd surged toward him.
Blocking the door with his body, he snatched up the two children nearest him, a
boy and a girl, and shoved them into the shelter. "Bar that door," he
shouted to his son, "and don't open it for at least a week!"
Hearing
the latch drop into place, he turned and glanced around at the faces in the
crowd. Some of them were still babbling incoherently, utterly panic-stricken.
Others were quiet now, resigned, no longer afraid.
Stepping to his wife's side, he took her hand
and spoke in a warm, low tone. "They will be all right, the boy will lead
them." He grinned reassuringly and added, "We should be together, you
and I."
She
smiled wordlessly through her tears and squeezed his hand, exchanging with him
in the one brief gesture a lifetime and more of devotion.
Then
struck the first bomb, blinding them, burning them, blasting them into
eternity. Streaking across the top of the world, across the extreme northern
tip of Greenland, then flaming downrange through the chilled Arctic skies, it
had passed over Moscow, over Voronezh, and on over Krasny to detonate high
above their city of Shakhty.
The
bird had been 19 minutes in flight, launched from a bomb-blasted,
seared-surface missile pit on the coast of California. America's retaliation
continued for several hours.
DOUBLE TAKE
by jack finney
Jack
Finney is the author of the novels "Five Against the House"
"Good Neighbor Sam" "The Body Snatchers," "The House
of Numbers" and "Assault on a Queen"—every one of which became
a film, the last-named starring Frank Sinatra Ingenious" The New York Herald Tribune said of the book, and The Baltimore Sun praised the swashbuckling plot as "a
piece of piracy Blackbeard would boggle at"). His short-story collections,
"The Third Level" and "I Love Galesburg in the Springtime,"
are treasure troves of delightful reading. He has a gentle touch with fantasy
not quite like any other storyteller around. Of
his playboy work, we are particularly fond of "Double Take," and we invite
you to share this fondness right now.
WHEN
JESSICA WALKED into the club car, everyone knew with one startled glance that
this was somebody special, someone important, and I sat watching their eyes and
mouths pop open. Out of the world's three billion people there can't be more
than, say, a hundred women like Jessica Maxwell. Her red-brown hair was thick
and shining with health, her brown eyes magnificent, her complexion so flawless
your fingers ached to touch it, her figure marvelous. But that doesn't tell you
how beautiful she was; I can only say that if you were staggering toward a
hospital with three bullets in your chest, you'd stop and turn to stare after
Jessica if she walked past.
She
said, "Hi, Jake," smiled so that an actual chill ran up my spine, and
sat down beside me. People sat sipping drinks, glancing out windows, turning
pages and sneaking looks, but I was pretty sure no one actually recognized her.
She'd been in only two pictures, in small parts; on the screen less than a
minute in one of them. But of course they knew she almost had to be in
pictures; we were out of Los Angeles station only 20 minutes, and with looks
like hers what else could she be?
We
talked, I made a joke or so, she laughed delightedly, and every man in the car
sat sizing me up, eyes narrowed, resentful, wondering who the- hell
I was to be with a girl like Jess. Well, I wondered, too. I work for the same
studio, and was in love with Jessie or close to it, but who wasn't? I didn't
even know her well—just through this one picture—and I'm only a dialog
director. Eventually I'll be a director, maybe a very damn good one, but no one
else knows that, and right now I'm not much in job or looks, either. I'm only
average height, skinny, 26, name of Jake Pelman, and slightly homely. I freely
admit I'd rather be handsome, taller, heavier, the world's finest rumba dancer,
and a master with foil and epee. But
as things stood, I had to wonder why a girl like Jess had asked me, even urged
me, to take the train with her. We were going to New York on location to make a
few last scenes for the picture, most of which had already been ¿lmed at the studio, and everyone else in the unit
was flying, of course; it's a long trip. So with Jess and me alone, and nothing
else to do but get better acquainted, my hopes were high.
"Jake,
would you like to come back to my bedroom?" Jessie said after ten minutes
or so, and I allowed as how I would, and stood up. A minute later she was
unfastening her bag, handing me a script and explaining that three uninterrupted
days on the train were a wonderful chance to get her New York scenes to
perfection. Would I mind helping? Read through the scenes with her, and coach
her? It was why she'd wanted me to come along, she explained innocently; at
least I think it was innocently.
After
a few stunned seconds in which I stood hooting with inaudible invisible jeering
laughter at myself and my hopes, I said I'd be glad to, and we settled down to
work on Jessie's scenes for most of the next three days. I didn't blame her;
these final few scenes were the biggest of the picture for Jessie. One in
particular—we worked on it through Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania, and
almost to Grand Central Station—was her chance to be noticed, and she knew it.
Maybe every actor or actress has a part like this early in his or her career;
the big one, the one that counts if only you recognize it. Jessie did; she
understood instinctively that this particular scene in this particular picture
was her first step, and one she had to take, toward stardom or oblivion.
We
worked. We also had an occasional drink in the club car, ate our meals
together, sat and talked or read, even played a little gin, and got to know
each other. But mostly we worked on that scene. In the picture Jess was the
daughter of a woman speak-easy owner in New York, played by the star; like most
other studios these days, we were making a picture set in the 1920s. In her big
scene, Jess was in love with a much older man, and was heartbroken when he left
her. An hour and a half out of New York, Jessie laid her script on the seat
beside her and said, "I'm not getting it, am I, Jake? I'm no closer than
the day we started," and the truth was no; she wasn't getting it at all.
But
I wasn't that truthful. I shrugged, looked thoughtful^ then said, "It
still needs work, Jess, but it'll come. Right now, though, let it alone; drop
it. Forget it till you work out in New York with the actor. Ernie'll be there;
he'll help." Ernie Wyke was the director, a good one; I'd learned from him
and would learn more. But I knew he wasn't going to be able to help Jessie.
I
knew it because now I knew something else; that she didn't give a damn about
me. She was a beautiful girl, and a nice one; I'd have liked Jess if she'd been
homely. She had none of the arrogant defensiveness of so many very good-looking
women. But now I knew she was selfish. Not in an unpleasant way; she liked me,
she liked most of the people around her, out of her own naturally cheerful
nature. But all she was really interested in was her own ambition and self. And
why not? She was only 20; plenty of child in her yet. When she'd lived longer I
was certain she'd change; she was warmhearted and there were reserves of
sympathy and understanding still untouched in her. But before she changed, her
career could be finished. Sometime tomorrow she'd have to seem before the
camera what she might need years to become, and I knew she couldn't do it.
She
wasn't getting this part because she didn't understand it. She couldn't feel
what the character she was playing felt, which was love. She could play young
love. On the screen with a young handsome man, all Jessie had to do was say she
loved him and the audience believed her; they did her work for her. But now she
had to show them that she was in love with a man more than old enough to be her
father, be heartbroken when he left her, and make the audience believe every
word and moment. And because this career-anxious 'girl had never let herself
know what love was, she couldn't imagine or feel it now. Riding along beside
the Hudson talking with Jessie, pretty sure I was in love with her now, I knew
she was going to flop and that there was nothing to do about it. She didn't
know, though; Ernie was going to show her how.
In New York, Al Berg, the unit manager, had
booked Jessie for the Plaza, and had me miles away, at the Gramercy Park. Al
had also found an empty two-story brownstone house just off lower Fifth Avenue,
the street on which all our shooting would take place. He'd rented the house as
a unit headquarters for our day of filming, so after I checked into the hotel
and changed into wash slacks and a checked shirt, I walked over.
It
was a fine spring night, temperature about 70. Passing Gramercy Park on the way
to Fifth, I could smell cut grass and see the new green of the tree leaves in
the light from the street lamps. Then, walking down the east side of Fifth
toward Washington Square, I saw why we were filming down here. This part of
Fifth Avenue hadn't really changed too much since the Twenties. Some of it had
changed, of course; there were big new apartment buildings. But the location
department had found stretches of several blocks that still looked, so they
said, very much as they had in the middle Twenties. It's a nice part of town,
usually quiet and—it's always seemed to me—a little separate from the noisy,
always-changing rest of New York.
Our
headquarters, I saw when I got to the old house, would do very well for a short
scene we had: Jessie walking down the front steps pulling on a pair of gloves.
And I knew Al probably had a use for every room inside. In the living room he
had some rented furniture, and four members of the unit were sitting around
talking; the front door and all windows were wide open and, because there were
no screens, the lights were out, though there was a fair amount of light from a
street lamp just outside. Sitting there drinking coffee or soft drinks were
Alice Weeks, Oscar Jorgensen, a girl I didn't know and a young guy in a T-shirt
who was a camera assistant. I nodded at him and spoke to Alice, who was in
charge of our costumes—a tall thin woman in her 40s wearing a summer dress.
Oscar, who was in shirt sleeves, was our property man—thin, middle-aged, bald
and permanently worried. He introduced me to the girl, who was sitting sideways
on a window ledge, one of her feet up on the sill. She was wearing black
stretch pants and a very loose hip-length blouse with big wide horizontal
stripes. As I thought, she was an actress, an extra hired here in New York for
a walk-on part.
I
sat down, and took some kidding about having come to New York by train; this
was mostly speculation over whether my reason was cowardice about flying,
lechery for Jessie Maxwell, or both. This was the lull before the storm, and I
sat enjoying having nothing to do. The following morning the rest of the unit
would arrive and the work and confusion would begin. Some 30 to 40 people would
be here: carpenters, electricians, grips and gaffers, a cameraman who did not
operate the camera, camera operators and assistants who did, a sound mixer,
boom man, recorder and cableman, make-up men, hairdressers, special-effects
man, a check woman, script girl, and a dozen others including a couple of
whistlemen and wigwags, who are the guys who blow whistles and wave flags to
keep people from walking onto sets after shooting starts. All these people with
all their equipment, including a few hundred miles of cable, would begin
getting in one another's way, apparently. Actually they'd be working together
in that amazing cooperation of a hundred disparate skills that gets the little
tiny pictures onto the little squares of film.
Oscar Jorgensen hadn't said much, and pretty
soon he walked to one of the open windows and stood there, hands in pockets,
staring out. The camera assistant, whose name, I remembered now, was Joe Lani,
said, "Don't worry, Oscar; if we have to, we'll push it for you."
Oscar just, said,
"Yeah," without turning around.
I said, "What's the
trouble?"
"He's worried about the bus."
"Didn't it get here?" For a moment
I was panicky; we had to use this bus in our two biggest scenes. "Oh, it
got here all right," Oscar said. "Is it OK?"
"Sure.
We lashed it to a flatcar with cable, covered it with plastic sheeting and put
a waterproof tarp over that. I saw to it myself; it got here OK."
I
smiled, thinking about the bus. This was one of the old, blunt-nosed, green-and-cream
Fifth Avenue buses with open-air seats up on a top deck that you reached by
climbing a winding staircase at the back. For all I knew, this was the only one
left in the world; they'd last used them in New York years ago. The studio had
bought it then, directly from the bus company; it still had its original 1926
license plates. They'd shipped it 3000 miles to Hollywood and used it on an
indoor street-set in a picture about New York of the time. Now, 30-odd years
later, for a picture about that same but now-vanished New York, they shipped
the bus back to be filmed on the streets. Hollywood has changed a lot, but in
some ways it never disappoints you. I said, "Where is it now?"
"Half
a block from here. There's a new apartment building near University Place, not
quite finished, no tenants in yet. Al rented the garage in the basement, and
it's in there. We trucked it over covered with the tarp, so we wouldn't get a
crowd."
"Then what's the
trouble?"
"It came a day late;
less than two hours ago. I wanted to drive it, test it out in the railroad
yard. It's got to work tomorrow morning for absolute sure." He shrugged,
worriedly. "It's probably all right. I had it in perfect shape when we
left; no reason it shouldn't be now."
"Couldn't
you drive it now, Oscar? Around the block a couple times just to be
certain?"
Alice
said, "The cops, Jake, boy. They'd yak if it drew a crowd, and hand us a
ticket for expired license plates."
I
nodded. In most cities the police will let a movie company do almost anything:
block off streets all day and paint the city hall in stripes. But movie
companies are no novelty or joy to the New York cops, and if you mess up
traffic by not following their orders, they'll throw you out. I said,
"What about later tonight? There wouldn't be enough people out to get a
crowd."
"I'd
like to," Oscar said, turning around. "Hell, I've got to. You think it's OK, Jake?"
"Sure, if you wait till after
midnight." I smiled with sudden pleasure. "And when you do, I want to
ride along. That'll be a sight, an old double-decker trundling down Fifth
again. You won't get a crowd, but a few people will see us and think they're
out of their minds."
Everybody
smiled, and Joe Lani said, "Hey, Alice; you brought uniforms, didn't you?
Bus driver and conductor?"
"Of course."
"Well,
if a couple of us put them on, that'd really be a sight!"
Even
Oscar grinned, against his will, and the girl on the window sill said, "If
my costume's here, too, can I come along?"
And
that set us off. Everybody in the room was putting down his cup or pop bottle,
then we all piled upstairs. Alice had her costumes in an empty bedroom, locked
in their stenciled, olive-drab, heavy plywood shipping cases. Then, cautioning
us, warning us what she'd do if we damaged or lost a thread of her costumes,
cursing us out in advance, she handed them out: conductor's uniform and fare
collector for Joe; a suit, white shirt, bow tie and black shoes for me; a pair
of dresses, hats and purses of the Twenties for herself and the girl; and of
course Oscar took the bus driver's uniform for himself; no one else was going
to drive that bus. During this —I heard the cab door slam downstairs—Jessie
arrived, heard us, came up, and we briefed her on what was going on, and of
course she wanted to go, too.
Alice
gave her, along with the full set of warnings she'd given us, one of the three
costumes Jessie would wear during filming; then we all went to the dressing
rooms—two bedrooms fitted out with portable make-up tables and lighted mirrors.
My outfit was too big, and Joe's uniform too small, so we traded and I became
the bus conductor. I was just as glad. The 1926 suit was authentic but not much
different from Ivy League suits of today, and I thought I cut a more
interesting figure as the conductor.
Downstairs
we looked one another over. The women looked great. They wore the kind of
costumes we've all become pretty familiar with lately: the short skirts, oddly
placed hiplines, the tight-fitting felt hats. Jessie looked terrific; it's hard
to believe that a fallible, mortal human being could be so beautiful. She has
spectacularly handsome legs, and of course this outfit showed them off; I think
that's one reason she got the part. Her dress and hat, which were powder blue,
had been made especially for her, and in some way I don't understand they'd
been subtly modernized. They were like the others, yet not quite, so that Jess
didn't really look strange or old-fashioned, but just magnificently beautiful.
The other two—the girl in a peach-colored dress and Alice in tan—looked OK, and
so did Joe. Oscar and I didn't look like much of anything in a couple of
worn-looking blue uniforms and caps with shiny black peaks.
We had to wait for over an hour; Oscar
wouldn't start till
12:30.
So we sat around downstairs talking, excited, laughing a lot. Alice wouldn't
let us smoke for fear of burning a hole in one of her costumes, and whenever
one of us went to the kitchen and came back with coffee, she made him drink
standing up and leaning forward so as not to spill a drop on her outfits.
At
half past 12 we all walked half a block east and across the street to the new
apartment building, then down a ramp of new white concrete, and through the
entrance to the basement garage; it was high-ceilinged just here, designed so
that a moving van could back right in and up to the doors of a service
elevator. Oscar snapped on a light switch, and there she stood like a great
square elephant covered by a big brown-canvas tarpaulin. Joe and I helped Oscar
drag it off, then I stood smiling with pleasure. I'd been a little kid when I'd
last seen one of these, but I remembered everything I saw now: the boxlike
metal hood over the motor, surmounted by a radiator cap; the green metal-spoked
wheels and hard-rubber tires; the upward-slanting sides, the rattly wood-framed
windows; and way up on top, the metal-grilled wooden-railed fence enclosing the
outdoor seats of varnished wood. They were fine old buses, a joy to ride, even
if a shade less profitable than the miserable monsters they have now, and I was
glad to see one again.
She
started up quickly enough, Joe cranking the engine after Oscar showed him how.
For maybe a minute Oscar idled the motor, then he smiled and beckoned us in. I told
Joe to turn off the garage lights; he obeyed automatically, and while he was
doing that I got into the bus and sat down next to Jessie. We smiled at each
other, the garage lights went off and Oscar turned on his headlights. He
shifted gears, Joe hopped on and Oscar pulled up the ramp in low. We drove west
three quarters of a block to Fifth, Oscar listening to the engine with his head
cocked. It sounded fine, the chain drive grinding away smoothly just as I
remembered.
At Fifth Oscar stopped, and a very nice
coincidence happened, one that pleased us all. A car drove past the front of
the bus, and it was one of those magnificently restored old cars, a handsome
square-topped sedan looking as good as the day it was new, which was probably
when this bus last rolled along Fifth, and we all smiled with pleasure. Then
Oscar snapped on the inside lights and we all looked around: at the wooden
seats, at one another in this strange environment, at the old advertisements
above the windows. One was for Fels-Naptha, but it was for yellow bars of soap,
not granules in a package; another showed a drawing of a handsome young
dimple-chinned man wearing a high stiff Arrow collar.
Oscar
shifted, let out the clutch and turned south onto Fifth Avenue, and there was
not a soul in sight as far as we could see in either direction, and I felt a
stab of disappointment. We wanted to startle a few people; we were out to play
a joke. It wasn't a practical joke; to my mind that phrase means cruelty, a
joke that is no joke but an embarrassment, annoyance, shock, or even injury to
someone. We intended the opposite; I was entirely certain that to anyone seeing
the incredible vision of this lighted old bus, our costumed selves inside it,
wheeling slowly along Fifth Avenue in the middle of the night, it would be an
astonishing sight and pleasure never forgotten.
We
were disappointed as kids, and I'm sure that's why Oscar drove farther than he
meant to; someone just had to see us. He drove through one block, then
another and into a third, along the deserted late-at-night street, and we
didn't see a person or a car. Then a woman walked out of a doorway with an
Airedale on a leash. The dog stopped, the woman stood waiting, and as we rolled
past she glanced up at us. There was no change of expression on her face, she
showed absolutely no interest, and as her dog moved on, so did she without a
backward glance. "She's from out of town," Joe said. "She thinks
it's a regular bus."
Alice
said, "Did you see her dress and hat? Hell, half the women in the country
are wearing cloche hats and short dresses these days; we're no surprise to her,
we're the latest style!"
Oscar
was pulling to the curb; 50 feet ahead under a street light, two men frowning
in conversation stood waiting for a bus, and he was going to oblige. He yelled,
"On your feet, conductor!" and as I got up quickly and walked to the
rear of the bus, Oscar slowed and stopped.
The
two men stepped up onto the back platform without a break in the sound of the
older man's voice, a gray-haired man of 60 in a wide-brimmed Panama hat and a
snow-white suit. The younger man, who wore a gray business suit, stood
listening, his eyes never leaving the older man's face. The man in white
brought change from his pocket, and held out his hand, still talking. I lifted
my fare collector, a little nickel-plated contrivance with a slot in the top,
and he turned just long enough to push two dimes, one after the other, into the
slot, and a chime sounded each time. Then I reached overhead, tugged at a rope,
a bell tinkled over Oscar's head, and he pulled out from the curb. Our two
passengers stood where they were, on the back platform, and the older man's
voice—urging, selling, persistent—never stopped once, and now I was aware of
what he was saying..
I
don't really know anything about stocks or the stock market, but Pve taken a
small flyer now and then. Sometimes I've made a little, more often I lose, but
I'm always hoping for hot tips. Now I seemed to be hearing some, and I stood
making an effort to remember them. "Buy any of them, Géorgie," the older man was saying for at least the
second time. "It doesn't matter which, I guarantee you can sell out at a
profit in a month. You won't want to, though. You'll thank me, and ask to buy
more. But right now, start small and convince yourself. Buy a hundred RCA at
around forty-four for a starter. A little New York Central at one-thirty, and some General Motors at a hundred and forty-one." Listening to this money talk, watching those two anxious profiles, I knew they could have stepped onto a red-white-and-blue bus manned by a crew in clown suits without noticing it, and I glanced at the others, all looking back here anxious to be noticed, and shrugged.
At the beginning of the next block Oscar pulled to the curb again, and a boy and girl got on. Neither was more than 19, and they climbed the narrow stairs to the next deck holding hands—no easy trick. I followed, my fare collector ready, and on the top deck they sat way up front in the first seat. The girl's head found the boy's shoulder, his arm went around her, and I dropped the fare collector in my pocket. I didn't bother wondering why they'd showed no surprise about the bus they'd boarded; they were aware of only themselves, and I stood there envying them. It was wonderful up here under the summer stars, the air balmy, and I wished Jessie and I were up here as they were. A buzzer sounded, the bus swung to the curb, and I looked downstairs to see the two men, the older one still talking, step off and walk away into the night, and I went downstairs again to sit next to Jessie.
Half a dozen yards from the Washington Square arch, Oscar slowed and stopped at the curb. He'd lived in New York once, and he remembered; this was where the old buses always waited for a few minutes before swinging in a half circle to head north again. "We're some big surprise to the natives, aren't we?" Joe said sarcastically; he and the girl were sitting together now, up near the front of the bus.
She said irritably, "What's the matter with people, anyhow?"
"Well, what did you expect?" Alice Weeks said, across the aisle. "After all, this is New York. I once saw twenty-five elephants walking west on Fifty-seventh Street at three o'clock in the morning; absolutely silent, walking trunk to tail, on their way to Madison Square Garden where the circus began next day. And a guy on a street corner
never stopped reading his paper. You can't surprise them; they don't believe
what they see. They think we're advertising something."
"Or making a
movie," Jessie said, smiling.
We
sat waiting, not quite knowing why. Then, just as Oscar shifted gears and began
pulling away, a man in a light summer suit came walking out from under the
arch, saw the bus, ran for it, and I stood and walked up front; the conductor
shouldn't be seen sitting next to a passenger. He hopped on, walked down the
aisle, saw Jessie, and I was instantly sorry I'd stood.
Because
he was a very handsome guy—lean-faced, blue-eyed, wavy black hair—and he
stopped motionless, staring down at Jess. Then, slowly, not taking his eyes
from that wonderful face, he sat down beside her, and something I've never
before actually seen happened under my eyes. Jessie saw it, too; she turned and
saw a man falling in love with her.
We've
all heard love at first sight discussed; usually it's a debate about whether
it's possible. But I think it happens all the time. A man and woman meet, and
something often happens right then and there, for one or both of them. But
usually weeks or months have to pass before they admit what it is. Meanwhile,
that instantaneous burst of feeling is called most anything else. But the truth
remains that people often fall in love in a single look; the only thing rare
about it is people who recognize it.
Jessie
did. She saw it in his face, but whether he knew it himself I don't know. I
walked down the aisle and stood listening; I couldn't help it. His voice was
low, meant only for Jessie, but I heard. With absolute simplicity he said,
"Look, I don't know what to do. I'll never again see a girl like you as
long as I live. I don't know what to say, but I can't just sit here and let you
go. I've got to know your name and see you again, I've got to. You must know that?"
There
was no mistaking the quiet passionate truth in his voice, and I hated to look
Jessie full in the face for fear of what I'd see there, too. But I did, and I
saw that she was pleased—not because he was handsome, I thought; she saw
handsome men every day of her life—but because a response like his couldn't
help but affect her or any other woman, I suppose. But she hadn't fallen in love
with him; Jessie wasn't falling in love with" anyone just now. She
smiled—pleasantly, sweetly; Jessie's a nice girl—and actually reached out and
patted his hand. "No," she said kindly. "I don't live here; I'll
be gone in a day or so."
"But where----- "
"No,"
she repeated, still nicely but with an edge of finality, and turned away from
him.
He
sat staring at her; his mouth opened to speak once or twice; then he suddenly
swung away, standing up, and walked fast down the aisle to the back of the bus,
and hopped off. I was staring after him, so was Jess, so were the others; they
hadn't heard what had been said, they were too far front, but they knew
something had happened. Out on the street, dwindling behind us, he stood on the
asphalt paving of Fifth Avenue in the summer night staring after us. Then he
turned abruptly to the curb, stepped up, and was gone.
We
drove straight back to the garage; the young couple on the top deck was gone
when I checked. In the garage we covered the old bus with the tarp, then walked
back to the house and changed to our own clothes. Nobody had much to say; our
little joke hadn't really worked out. I was going to offer to take Jessie to
her hotel, but when I came out of the dressing room she was gone.
Work started at eight sharp the next morning,
and Jessica's big scene was the first thing Ernie Wyke had scheduled. Until
noon we had the two blocks we'd asked for on lower Fifth Avenue; barricaded at
both ends and at the side-street entrances, a cop at each barrier detouring
traffic and keeping spectators at bay. We had the two blocks again in the
afternoon from two until four, then we had to be finished and off the street
for good. Out of camera range stood a generator truck, a sound truck, a
motorized camera dolly, a motorized sound-boom dolly, a sprouting of reflectors
on stands and other odds and ends of equipment, and a scattering of people of
the unit standing around or sitting on the curb. Out in the street stood three
period cars Al Berg had located here and rented, and our bus. All four motors
were running, costumed drivers at the wheels, and inside the bus sat half a
dozen men and women in Twenties costume, including Jessie in the light-blue
outfit she'd worn the previous night.
Before
he began filming, Ernie sent them through the scene. On a street corner just
beyond the waiting cars and bus, an actor stood waiting for his cue; he was a
friend of Ernie's, a middle-aged New York actor who was in a play here, and who
had occasionally played small picture roles. This was the man, in the story,
whom Jessie was in love with; a man very nearly three times her age. In the
story he was important and frequently referred to, but he actually appeared
only three times, each briefly, and it was really a small part. There'd been no
need to bring anyone from Hollywood for it; any competent actor of his type and
age could handle it, and I was seeing him now, waiting there on the corner, for
the first time. My only criticism of him was that he looked like an actor: the
plentiful crisp gray hair, at least part of which was probably an expensive
hairpiece; the good but blurred profile; the not-too-portly figure, because
he'd had to keep in reasonable shape to get work; the magnificent tailoring. He
didn't look quite real.
Ernie
said to him, "All right, Frank, let's go through it," and Frank began
slowly pacing his street corner, glancing often at his watch. Ernie beckoned, and now
the waiting automobiles drove past Frank one at a time, passing between him and
the camera out in the middle of the street. The camera was centered on Frank,
though it wasn't turning. A moment after the third car passed, the bus came
along, drawing toward the curb, and it stopped at the street corner cutting
Frank from view. Just behind the bus, and just out of the scene, the motorized
camera dolly and sound-boom dolly had followed along. On the other side of the
bus, just out of the previous shot, another camera was centered on Frank and
the rear exit of the bus, and I knew Frank was standing there, a gentle smile
on his face, offering a hand to Jessie as she stepped off the bus.
I
walked around the two dollies to watch the rest of the scene. Frank was
speaking a phrase of greeting, Jessie smiling tremulously in response, and the
bus was moving on up Fifth, still in the scene as Frank took Jessie's arm and
they began to walk ahead. Now the two dollies in the street began to follow,
keeping abreast, the microphone on its boom suspended over their heads just
out of camera range—and the cars and bus, out of the scene now, U-turned and
came back; the sounds of their motors as they passed would be picked up as
appropriate street noise.
I
won't repeat the dialog as they walked along those two blocks of Fifth Avenue,
but the point of it was that Frank told Jessie he was not going to see her
again, that he was too old for her. It went on longer than that, but that was
the gist of his speech: He loved her and would never stop, but he was plainly
too old for a young girl, it had to be recognized and he was doing so, even if
she refused to face it.
Jessie
argued with him, pleaded, and finally begged. But he could not be changed, and
presently he left her, walking toward the side street just ahead, then turning
the corner out of the scene. As he disappeared—and this was the big point of the
scene, this was the scene, the climax—the camera turned full on Jessie's face, and her face had to
show what she felt. This was tragedy, a truth to be accepted, as she knew, but
the most sorrowful moment of her life. Jess had to show that. During the rest
of the scene, her face filling the screen, she had to make the audience know it
was true; that this young and beautiful girl genuinely loved this man so much
that his leaving her life broke her heart.
And
she showed nothing of the sort. With Ernie, I stood beside the camera watching
her—and her hands rose as though to reach after him, her mouth opened as though
to call, then her face assumed an expression of sorrow. And you didn't believe
it, because neither did she. She couldn't show what she'd never felt herself.
Ernie
said, "Fine, Jess, you're getting it. Let's try again." Frank came
back around the corner, and Ernie took Jessie's arm and began to talk as we all
walked back toward the beginning of the scene, trying to find a way to make her
feel it.
It was the worst morning I ever went through;
if I could have, I'd have just walked away, and kept on walking for a long
time. I'd hoped Ernie would find the key for Jess, though I didn't think he
would, and he couldn't. After a while he began filming; he had to get the scene
in the can. If anything, Jessie got worse; trying the scene in a variety of
ways, as an actor who isn't getting it will sometimes do, hoping to somehow get
it on film by accident.
At
11 o'clock Ernie told her that any of several versions we'd filmed were great,
and it was time to go ahead with the rest of the schedule. Then he went on to
clean up several short takes, including the one of
Jessie leaving her house, coming down the front steps pulling on her gloves. We
picked up on those again at 2 o'clock, and were finished by 3:15. Ernie looked
at his watch. "All right," he called, keeping his voice calm,
"as long as we have time, let's try the big scene once more. We'll take it
from Jessie stepping off the bus."
Frank
and Jessie walked to their street corner, the bus moving into position, and
Ernie and I went along. This take, somehow, had to be at least acceptable; the
others flatly would not do, and Ernie knew that. But he spoke quietly. He said,
"Jess, Frank's an old-timer, he might have a thought for you while they're
setting up." Then he left to give Frank a chance to say anything he could
think of that might help. It was all Ernie had left to try; he'd said all he
knew how to say, and by the time we shot this one last take, we'd have to pack
up and clear the street.
Jessie
looked at Frank. "Well?" she said sardonically; she knew as well as
the rest of us how badly she was doing.
Frank
wanted to help, tut didn't know how, either. He quirked his mouth, annoyed at
the situation, and said, "I don't know what to say," and for a reason
I couldn't pin down, the words were familiar, and I saw Jessie's eyes widen as
though she recognized them, too. For a moment she stared at Frank's face, then
her eyes narrowed, studying it feature by feature, and I stepped over beside
her and saw what she saw.
I
have no explanation for this; I simply don't know how or why it happened. All I
can say is that in a single instant of understanding I suddenly knew why a woman had stood with her dog at the curb the night
before watching without interest as our bus drove past her. I knew why she wore
a fringed knee-length dress and a felt hat like a helmet; and I understood why
a young couple in their teens climbed to the upper outside deck of a Fifth
Avenue bus as though they'd done it many times before. And that evening, in the
New York Public Library, I proved by the flaking brown-edged back files of the Times what I already knew. Listed in the market quotations were the stocks the
man in white had
mentioned, and the prices he'd quoted were correct—not for today, but for June
15, 1926. In some way beyond explaining or understanding, the conditions for
this were precisely right; and in our ancient two-decker bus with the 1926
plates, dressed as we were then, that is the time—that is the lost June night
and Fifth Avenue—that Oscar somehow drove into. And it was Frank, just outside
Washington Square, who had stepped onto that bus and sat down next to Jessie.
I
knew it now, and so did Jess as she stared at Frank's face —slashed with lines
now, no longer lean and tight to the bones, and 38 years older—but the same
face past all doubt. She said, "Frank? Did you ever get on a bus like
this?"—she pointed to it at the curb beside them—"late one night in 1926?
And see a girl like me, dressed as I am now? And you sat down beside her, and
fell in love at that moment?"
He
smiled, and with an old-style actor's gallantry, said, "No, because if I
had, how could I ever forget it?" and there was no memory at all in his
eyes.
Ernie
called out, Jessie stepped onto the bus platform, the cameras turned, and they
moved through the scene once again. At the street corner, just as he had in so
many other takes, Frank turned to leave, saying, "I'm going. I won't come
back. But I'll never forget you. Remember that; I'll never forget." And as
Jess stared after him, her hands rose like claws toward her open mouth, and
that beautiful face suddenly distorted into a grimace of terrible forsaken
loneliness, and genuine tear? streaked down through her make-up in a look
that—real as her feelings were, Jessie's an actress and never forgets the
camera—may damn well bring her next year's Oscar as best supporting actress.
It
raised the hair on my neck, that long look after Frank, and for a moment I
thought it was grief for the vanished young Frank who had once fallen in love
with her. But it wasn't for him at all, and it wasn't grief. I think it was
shock, I think it was fright. She was crying for herself because suddenly she understood that love will not
wait. It cannot be postponed; it dies instead. She suddenly knew that she
couldn't continue to deny it, and deny herself—fending love off till her career
was established—and then hope to find it and her capacity for it still
patiently waiting. Jessie had had a glimpse of the future, her own future in
which she stood forgotten by the man—whoever he might still be—who could love
her forever, given the chance.
She
knew it then, standing before the turning camera, shocked at her own
loneliness. And she knew it, the filming over, in the lounge of the Plaza
having a drink with me. Because she said, "Are you going back by train,
Jake?"
I said, "I don't know;
why?"
"Because
if you are, I'd like to go with you." And I knew that on the long
leisurely trip back, whatever might have happened between us before and hadn't
been allowed to, was going to have its chance.
EXAMINATION
DAY
by henry slesar
There
is a kind of story one does not exactly "enjoy." It cannot, with
accuracy, be called "entertaining." Its fur-pose is to provoke
thought, and it does so relentlessly, without frills, stunning the reader with
the force of a karate chop to the base of the skull. "Examination
Day" is such a story. It is also a story that would be vitiated by
prolonged prefatory comment. So we will say only that it is a picture of what
education may become in the future, if censorship and thought control go unchecked.
HENRY
SLESAR 315
THE
JORDANS never spoke of the exam, not until their son, Dickie, was 12 years old. It was on his birthday that Mrs. Jordan first mentioned the
subject in his presence, and the anxious manner of her speech caused her
husband to answer sharply.
"Forget about
it," he said. "He'll do all right."
They
were at the breakfast table, and the boy looked up from his plate curiously. He
was an alert-eyed youngster, with flat blond hair and a quick, nervous manner.
He didn't understand what the sudden tension was about, but he did know that
today was his birthday, and he wanted harmony above all. Somewhere in the
little apartment there were wrapped, beribboned packages waiting to be opened,
and in the tiny wall-kitchen, something warm and sweet was being prepared in
the automatic stove. He wanted the day to be happy, and the moistness of his
mother's eyes, the scowl on his father's face, spoiled the mood of fluttering
expectation with which he had greeted the morning.
"What exam?" he
asked.
His
mother looked at the tablecloth. "It's just a sort of Government
intelligence test they give children at the age of twelve. You'll be getting it
next week. It's nothing to worry about."
"You mean a test like
in school?"
"Something
like that," his father said, getting up from the table. "Go read your
comic books, Dickie."
The
boy rose and wandered toward that part of the living room which had been
"his" corner since infancy. He fingered the topmost comic of the
stack, but seemed uninterested in the colorful squares of fast-paced action. He
wandered toward the window, and peered gloomily at the veil of mist that
shrouded the glass.
"Why
did it have to rain today}"
he said. "Why couldn't
it rain tomorrow?"
His father, now slumped into an armchair with
the Government newspaper, rattled the sheets in vexation. "Because it just
did, that's all. Rain makes the grass grow."
"Why, Dad?"
"Because it does,
that's all."
Dickie
puckered his brow. "What makes it green, though? The grass?"
"Nobody
knows," his father snapped, then immediately regretted his abruptness.
Later
in the day, it was birthday time again. His mother beamed as she handed over
the gaily-colored packages, and even his father managed a grin and a
rumple-of-the-hair. He kissed his mother and shook hands gravely with his
father. Then the birthday cake was brought forth, and the ceremonies concluded.
An
hour later, seated by the window, he watched the sun force its way between the
clouds.
"Dad," he said, "how far away
is the sun?" "Five thousand miles," his father said.
Dick sat at the breakfast table and again saw
moisture in his mother's eyes. He didn't connect her tears with the exam until
his father suddenly brought the subject to light again.
"Well,
Dickie," he said, with a manly frown, "you've got an appointment
today."
"I know, Dad. I hope---- "
"Now
it's nothing to worry about. Thousands of children take this test every day.
The Government wants to know how smart you are, Dickie. That's all there is to
it."
"I get good marks in
school," he said hesitantly.
"This is different. This is a—special
kind of test. They give
you this stuff to drink, you see, and then you go into a room
where there's a sort of machine- "
"What stuff to
drink?" Dickie said.
"It's nothing. It
tastes like peppermint. It's just to make sure you answer the questions truthfully. Not that the Government
thinks you won't tell the truth, but this stuff makes sure?''
Dickie's face showed puzzlement, and a touch
of fright. He looked at his mother, and she composed her face into a misty
smile.
"Everything will be
all right," she said.
"Of
course it will," his
father agreed. "You're a good boy, Dickie; you'll make out fine. Then
we'll come home and celebrate. All right?"
"Yes, sir,"
Dickie said.
They
entered the Government Educational Building 15 minutes before the appointed hour. They
crossed the marble floors of the great pillared lobby, passed beneath an
archway and entered an automatic elevator that brought them to the fourth
floor.
There
was a young man wearing an insignia-less tunic, seated at a polished desk in
front of Room 404. He held a clipboard in his hand, and he checked the list down to the Js
and permitted the Jordans to enter.
The
room was as cold and official as a courtroom, with long benches flanking metal
tables. There .were several fathers and sons already there, and a thin-lipped
woman with cropped black hair was passing out sheets of paper.
Mr.
Jordan filled out the form, and returned it to the clerk. Then he told Dickie:
"It won't be long now. When they call your name, you just go through the
doorway at that end of the room." He indicated the portal with his finger.
A
concealed loudspeaker crackled and called off the first name. Dickie saw a boy
leave his father's side reluctantly and walk slowly toward the door.
At five minutes of 11, they called the name of Jordan.
"Good
luck, son," his father said, without looking at him. "I'll call for
you when the test is over."
Dickie walked to the door and turned the
knob. The room inside was dim, and he could barely make out the features of the
gray-tunicked attendant who greeted him.
"Sit
down," the man said softly. He indicated a high stool beside his desk.
"Your name's Richard Jordan?"
"Yes, sir."
"Your classification
number is 600-115. Drink this, Richard."
He lifted a plastic cup from the desk and
handed it to the boy. The liquid inside had the consistency of buttermilk,
tasted only vaguely of the promised peppermint. Dickie downed it, and handed
the man the empty cup.
He
sat in silence, feeling drowsy, while the man wrote busily on a sheet of paper.
Then the attendant looked at his watch, and rose to stand only inches from
Dickie's face. He undipped a pen-like object from the pocket of his tunic, and
flashed a tiny light into the boy's eyes.
"All right," he said.
"Come with me, Richard."
He
led Dickie to the end of the room, where a single wooden armchair faced a
multi-dialed computing machine. There was a microphone on the left arm of the
chair, and when the boy sat down, he found its pinpoint head conveniently at
his mouth.
"Now
just relax, Richard. You'll be asked some questions, and you think them over
carefully. Then give your answers into the microphone. The machine will take
care of the rest."
"Yes, sir."
"I'll leave you alone now. Whenever you
want to start, just say 'ready' into the microphone." "Yes,
sir."
The man squeezed his shoulder, and left.
Dickie said, "Ready."
Lights
appeared on the machine, and a mechanism whirred. A voice said:
"Complete this
sequence. One, four, seven, ten .
Mr. and Mrs. Jordan were in the living room,
not speaking, not even speculating.
It
was almost four o'clock when the telephone rang. The woman tried to reach it
first, but her husband was quicker.
"Mr. Jordan?"
The voice was clipped; a brisk, official voice.
"Yes, speaking."
"This
is the Government Educational Service. Your son, Richard M. Jordan,
Classification 600-115, has completed the Government examination. We regret to
inform you that his intelligence quotient has exceeded the Government
regulation, according to Rule 84, Section 5, of the New Code."
Across
the room, the woman cried out, knowing nothing except the emotion she read on
her husband's face.
"You
may specify by telephone," the voice droned on, "whether you wish his
body interred by the Government or would you prefer a private burial place? The
fee for Government burial is ten dollars."
THE MISSION
by hugh nissenson
Hugh Nissenson, who was a Wallace Stegner Fellow at Stanford University, is known to readers of Commentary
as the man who perceptively covered the trial of Adolf Eichmann for that magazine. For his short stories, collected under the title "A Pile of Stones," he received the 1965 Edward Lewis Wallant Book Award. Of "The Mission" which follows, Nissenson says, "Just about the first story I ever wrote, in the summer of 1946, was about a group of savages in a world devastated by atomic war. 'The Mission* (1964) was the first science fiction I'd written since then. I like to believe my technique improved, but my inspiration to write it, a profound horror at the prospects of such devastation, remains the same."
Sixth day
INTELLIGENCE
WAS RIGHT. DeWitt is to be congratulated. They have a woman here, there's no
doubt of it. For almost a week now, I've been afraid that we were making the
long march for nothing, but now that we are here, late this afternoon, during a
break in the preliminary negotiations with the little brutes, I was permitted
to look at her through the cracks in the clapboard walls of the hut where she
is kept, the only normal-sized structure of any kind in the whole settlement;
just a glimpse as she was being bathed, but reassuring just the same. As I
watched, two of their females washed her in a rusty tub of galvanized metal
probably scavenged from the ruins of the fair-sized town we passed the day
before yesterday, about 30 miles due south of here— leveled by an airburst,
from the looks of it, but definitely "cold" according to my counter,
and now marked accordingly on my map . . . But the woman; how can I put it? Magnificent
is the only word to describe her. What luck for Wilson, damn him! Without so
much as a word, a faint smile on her lips, hardly deigning to even glance at
the little horrors, she permitted them to dry her off and comb out her long
blonde hair which almost reaches the small of her back. She's young, too, about
16 would be my guess, certainly nubile, with ample breasts and rounded
hips, perfectly, absolutely perfectly formed, as far as I could see, and
good-looking to boot, with beautiful white teeth and very fair skin, flushed
cheeks from the steaming water which they heat up with hot stones. Of course, I
must make a much more detailed examination before I can definitely commit
myself, but on the evidence so far, I've begun to bargain with the
"mayor" here, as he calls himself, who is adamant in his demands for
at least eight of our M-ls, plus a hundred rounds of ammunition apiece.
"Impossible," I tell him.
"Ah then, Captain, I am sorry, too, more
than I can say,"
he
shrugs, dapping his hands for one of his females who brings us an earthenware
plate heaped with fresh fruit—his daughter, I think, or maybe one of his wives;
who can tell for sure? In any case, certainly as hideous as he, and about the
same height, not more than 30 inches at the most, with the same kind of head of
reddish hair, and almost identical wizened, hairless face, and enormous head
and torso in proportion to her stunted limbs. "Yes, it's too bad," he
repeats in his surprisingly deep voice, biting into a crab apple. Perched on
his head and looking so absurd that I have to control myself from laughing in
his face, is an ancient battered, black-silk top hat, found who knows where. It
is apparendy the badge of his "office" which is hereditary, he has
confided in me, and passed on through matrilineal descent for three generations
now. "Yes, yes, a real shame . . ." He scratches his neck, then his
hairless chest covered by a ragged flap of the stinking hide of a wild dog
which is slung over one shoulder and tied about the waist with a rawhide strip.
The stench is unbelievable. Sergeant Thurmond tells me it's because the only
way they have discovered to tan hides is with a solution of their own feces— huge
pots of which he has come across in one of their mud and watde huts, or rather
mounds, I suppose, would be the best way to describe them. There must be over a
hundred in the walled compound where we squat, none higher than a human's
chest, and all overgrown with grass and peculiar pale blue flowers with huge
fleshy petals and jointed stalks— mutations, too, of some kind or another,
unless I miss my guess. They have no odor, but grow everywhere, springing up in
the heaps of rubbish that litter the ground, the piles of broken pottery, rags
and gnawed bones—I hold one in my hand, the bleached femur of a large dog—all
sorts of decaying filth covered with buzzing clouds of flies that rise in the
air and settle again as he raises his arm to take another bite of the apple
with his ydlow teeth.
"Yes, a terrible shame. What a waste to
think that you've come all this way for nothing. Still . . . that is to say, at
least you ought to have a closer look at her. She's a virgin, of course, as you
can see for yourself any time you want . . ."
"When?"
"Soon. I know how impatient you must be.
Very soon, I promise."
"All right, then, first let me get it
all straight. You say her parents are dead, is that right?" "Yes.
Years ago." "How did it happen?"
"Sad.
Very sad indeed. They had no luck. The mother got sick right after the child
was born, some kind of a fever, and died within a few days, a week at the very
most."
"And the father?"
"Killed."
"How?"
"On
a hunt right after that. The wild dogs." "But they were both
human." "Yes, of course." "Both perfectly formed."
"Perfectly. You have my word on it." "Where are they buried, do
you know?" "Ah, now that's sad, too. Their bodies were burned and the
ashes scattered." "Why?"
"We
had no choice, Captain. It's the same with all of our dead, if you'll forgive
the comparison. No matter how deep we dig the graves, the dogs always dig them
up."
"In other words, there
are no skeletons I can examine."
"Not so much as a
bone, no, I'm sorry to say."
"I see."
"But you have my word on it, Captain.
Both were absolutely perfectly formed. I swear to it." He kisses the tips
of his fingers and rolls his eyes to the sky
—which
in the past few minutes has become much darker, a deep, purplish blue, streaked
with green, red and yellow in the west, over the hills, where the sun has begun
to set. Standing guard a few paces away, his gun in his hand, Thurmond
nervously sniffs the air, drawing his cloak closer over his shoulders, his face
strangely luminous in the fading light, confounded, in spite of himself, I
know, by the prospect of another night on the surface, under the open sky.
"Where did you find
them?" I continue.
"Who?"
"Her parents, of
course."
"We
didn't. They found us. It was during a very bad winter, the worst in years, if
you remember it, the time of the really big snow from the mountains that came
just after the leaves fell and lasted until they were back on the trees. A
terrible time. One morning they were here, just like that, outside the wall, a
man holding the woman in his arms, and begging to be let in to at least warm
themselves by the fire. We hardly had enough food for ourselves, you
understand, but what could we do? My mother was alive then. TVe can't just let them
die,' she tells me. 'Hermann, let them in.' The dogs were after them. We could
hear them howling in the woods."
"So
you saved them out of the kindness of your hearts." "It's nice of the
captain to put it that way." "The man wasn't armed?"
"No."
"That's a lie. He had
a rifle or a revolver and you know it."
"No, I swear it."
"I want to know the
truth."
". . . Yes," he
says, after a pause.
"Which was it?"
"He had a rifle."
"That's better. Where
is it now?"
"Ah, broken, I'm sad
to say. Broken a long time ago."
"Go on . . ."
"There's nothing more to tell. The woman
gave birth and died, and then the man was killed, as I've already told you,
torn to pieces by the wild dogs."
"You just said he had
a rifle."
"So he did, but there
were too many of them."
"I
see." Thurmond coughs impatiently, and is right; we ought to be getting
back to camp. "One thing more . . ."
"Anything,
Captain."
"What made you decide
to keep the child?"
"Captain,
I know my duty. She's human, after all, perfectly formed, as you've seen for
yourself, only fitting for an officer's wife."
"Then
you also know your duty is to surrender her to me immediately."
"And so I will. You can count on
it." "For eight of our M-ls."
"And
a hundred rounds of ammunition apiece," he nods, grinning from ear to ear,
as I stand up at last and stretch my stiff legs. A cold autumn wind has sprung
up, and with the sun gone, the sky is much darker than before, but completely
clouded over, without a star. The odor of burning fat hangs in the air. Here
and there in the compound about us, a fire has been lit for the evening meal,
tended by the females, some of whom hold a naked brat to their bare dugs, even
more hideous than the adult of the species, all huge head and wizened face—the
likes of with which she, too, must have been suckled, if any of the
"mayor's" story is true. How horrible . . . The man, of course, was
murdered for his gun, that's perfectly obvious, but the chances are that the
rest of the tale may be more or less accurate. In the last ten or twelve years,
I've known something like it to have happened at least two or three times; a
human family, driven by despair to take refuge among mutants who murder them
but save the child to be traded to the garrison of the silo. Major
James'
second wife is a case in point, and Miller's, if I remember correctly, both of
whom were discovered in circumstances very much like these. No, come to think
of it, I'm wrong. It was Major James' and Major Preston's wives. Miller's was also found among mutants,
but hanged, for race pollution. As a matter of fact, she was discovered to be
pregnant just in time, a week or so before the wedding, and confessed that she
had consorted carnally with at least two of the males from the tribe that had
brought her up, the clam-diggers, as I remember, who are congenitally blind
from cataracts, and who live along the coast about 80 miles north of here. Yes,
it all comes back to me now, even her name, Amelia, "Emmy," also about
16 or so, maybe even younger, with dark hair and long, curling eyelashes, not
bad-looking at all. My God, what a mess—a reminder that I must be doubly
careful when I do get around to examining this one, which will probably not be
before the day after tomorrow, if today's session is any indication of how long
this whole business is going to take.
"Yes,
well, good enough," I finally tell him with a yawn, which Thurmond takes
as a signal for our departure for camp, undisguised relief on his face.
"We'll talk about it again tomorrow."
"Of
course, Captain. You've come a long way, and you must be very tired. Forgive
me." He claps his hands again— for a male, this time, with an enormous
tumor at the nape of his neck, who accompanies, us out of the compound, carrying
a spear twice his height, tipped with what looks to me like the blade of a
butcher knife, which flashes in the light of the blazing torch he holds in his
other hand.
Later
... As usual, Thurmond has done a good job. We
are encamped on a hill that commands the settlement from the southeast, steep
and easily defensible, just in case they have any ideas about rushing us in the
dark, and with a stream close by, in a copse of pine trees, a hundred yards or
so away.
"Tennison
and Witcomb are on first watch with the BAR," he reports, throwing a
blanket over my shoulders.
"Good.
Tell them to keep the fire going, and their eyes peeled. Any sign of funny
business, anything at all, and they're to shoot to kill, and ask questions
afterward, do you understand?"
"Yes, sir." He
salutes. "Good night, sir."
"Good
night, Sergeant," I tell him, wrapping myself up in the bedroll he has
laid out for me near the fire, around which the eight other men of the squad
have bedded down for the night. The ground is damp. Witcomb throws an armful of
brush and a log or two on the flames which leap up and crackle, exploding in a
shower of sparks. Above me now, in the depths of a rift in the clouds, a few
stars shine, first one, then another, and still a third, so disquieting in
their intimation of infinitude that I actually shudder, my heart beating like
a hammer against my ribs, and my throat constricted and dry. Despite myself, I
must look away, and fix my eyes on the branches of a pine tree growing nearby.
They say nothing, but the other men feel it, too, I know it, like Thurmond,
when it is growing dark, the same nameless anxiety. I can hear them restlessly
turning this way and that on the pine needles, speaking together in hushed
tones, born and bred underground like myself and suffering accordingly, under
the reaches of the open sky. What's the word again? Acrophobia? I forget.
DeWitt says that in another generation or two, this fear of open space,
particularly the sky at night, will render us unfit for anything but life in
the silo, concrete ceilings over our heads, unless we begin at once to
condition our young to the rigors of a surface existence. He has a point, I'm
afraid, if you can go by any of us here, right now. What an irony it would be
if we succeed in our mission to preserve the purity of the race, only to fail
in its corollary of regaining our rightful domination of the earth because we
can't bear the sight of a few stars at night. An awful thought. DeWitt is right
j something must be done about it, and soon, and it's up to the officers to
take the initiative. Literally gritting my teeth, grinding them together, I
force myself to tear my eyes away from the branch of the pine tree and look up
again, for a full minute, counting slowly to 60, while my heart goes at it again
like a hammer, and the roof of my mouth dries up, a peculiar, cloying taste on
my tongue . . .
Still later
. . . Cloudy again. The stars have all gone.
Perhaps it will rain. Unable to sleep, I scribble a few more words in the log .
. . Whispering to my left. Silhouetted against the fire, I recognize Pfc.
Roscower's unmistakable profile—his hooked nose, gojd ring glinting in his ear,
as he bends over to whisper something in the ear of the man to his right, Pfc.
Feeney.
Seventh day
. . . More palaver with the little beast over
lunch—a dog stew, served with crab apples dipped in wild honey, and delicious,
I have to admit, after a week now of C rations; but no progress whatsoever with
the bargaining.
"Eight, plus
ammunition."
"No."
And
so it goes, on and on, while we eat and sip a raw liquor they distill from the
apples, a pale gold color, with quite a kick. The "mayor" is slightly
tipsy, a little thick-tongued and bleary-eyed, looking more ridiculous than
ever with the top hat cocked over one eye. He's crawling with lice, and quite
unconcernedly picks them out of his head, crushing them between a thumb and forefinger
with a grin—an inescapable, calculated insult, no matter how you cut it, and
about which I can do nothing until the woman has been secured.
"Eight
plus a hundred rounds apiece," he repeats for the umpteenth time, wiping
his greasy lips on the back of his hand.
"Four."
"Ah, now Captain . . ." He wags a finger under my nose.
What's
most infuriating of all is the thought that, say, 40 years ago, or even less, when I was a boy, it would have been
unthinkable for any perfectly formed human to have entered into any social
relationship with the animals, much less even consider putting firearms into
their hands. Has our general situation deteriorated to such an extent?
Fortunately, most of the mutant species we encounter in this area, anyway, are
so deformed as to pose no real threat to the human population; the blind
clam-diggers, for example; but still, at the rate at which these reproduce—they are sexually mature at eight or nine, by the way, and live till 40 or so—it will be a real struggle to extirpate them
when the time comes, a fight to the death, no two ways about it, and for which
we must be fully prepared. Yes, there must be two or three hundred of them in
this settlement alone, all breeding true to type, as far as I can see, but
suffering, I notice, from a proliferation of tumors, particularly the males,
who must be the ones who scavenge for workable metal in ruins which are
probably considerably more radioactive than the one we passed. (A smart move,
incidentally, and for which I must thank Thurmond again, who suggested at the
outset that we conceal our Geiger-Müller
counters from them. On
their own, they apparently have no way of detecting radiation.)
Later
. . . Good news, if it's true. The
"mayor" informs me that in all probability the woman will have her
period in another day or so, assurance that she hasn't been polluted recently,
anyhow. Accordingly, I've had a conference with Thurmond who agrees that if
worst comes to worst, we could spare five of our M-ls, and perhaps 60 rounds of
ammunition apiece, which would still leave us amply armed for the march home,
with the BAR, the Thompson, in addition to my sidearm, the .45, and the five
remaining M-ls. What worries me, though, is that whatever we give them is
irreplaceable. Through this kind of trading and normal wear and tear, and
general deterioration, particularly of the cartridges, the stockpile at the
silo is getting dangerously low. What will happen in the next generation?
DeWitt again, who is supervising the preparation of a new manual of arms,
seriously suggests that we ought to begin the manufacture of bows and arrows,
and instruct the enlisted men in their use; also spears. The thought makes me
ill, actually sick to my stomach; all I can think of is the brute who
accompanied us back to camp last night. Spears! ... A ruckus just before sundown. "Kill 'em. Stamp 'em
out," shouts Roscower at the top of his lungs. He's gotten his hands on
some of the booze and staggers about the compound waving his arms, trailed by a
horde of the females who, hardly reaching up to his waist, jump up and down,
clutch at him and make obscene gestures with their hands. "Kill 'em all, I
tell you," he screams, as Thurmond and Feeney drag him back to camp.
Abruptly sobered up by all the racket, the "mayor" puts aside his cup
and scrutinizes me with narrowed, glittering eyes, all black pupils, an
incomprehensible expression on his face that's as wrinkled and hairless as a
dried plum . . . Oh, Roscower, how right you are; how I only wish we could . .
.
Eighth day
. . . Another restless night, filled with
half-remembered dreams, nightmares as I haven't had them since I was a boy and,
in the waking interludes, countless stars, shining in a perfectly cloudless sky
. . . It's a mournful lack of self-discipline, I know, but the thought of
Wilson's impending good fortune torments me more than I dare admit. Seniority
demands that the next woman brought back to the silo is for him—heaven knows,
he has waited long enough—what is it now? Eight years? But then, so have I, and
I'm younger than he," 36 to
his 47, in the prime of my life. I keep daydreaming
that we will return with her to find that he has since died of a heart attack,
and she'll be mine . . . How strange j now I can remember one of the dreams. I
must have been thinking about the death of Miller's wife, hanging, or whatnot,
because it concerned the execution of an officer by the name of Grenfield, a
captain, too, as I remember, who was convicted of consorting with a mutant more
than a dozen years ago, a female with four nipples, and hanged for race
pollution. I could see it as vividly as if it had happened yesterday: the
gallows erected on the grassy knoll near the silo's egress number three, his
pale face shining with sweat as the wire noose was slipped around his neck, and
the chair kicked from under his bare feet. He takes God only knows how long to
strangle, forever, or so it seems, with his still-pink tongue protruding
between his lips, and his pale blue eyes not yet glazed, but fully cognizant.
As is required by the order of the day, the entire garrison files by, officers
and men. A stiff wind is blowing, billowing out his unbuttoned tunic stripped
of all insignia, which turns his body slowly on its axis, from right to left.
Face to face with him for a moment, just an instant, he gazes at me, and with a
smile, baring his teeth, winks his left eye . . .
Night
. . . "Yes, yes, Captain, tomorrow
morning, for sure," my "mayor" has promised me, at last.
"Tomorrow morning, first thing, you can examine her to your heart's
content." He is worried about something, preoccupied, and along about an
hour before sundown, I can hear why—the savage baying of a pack of wild dogs in
the scrub forest less than a quarter of a mile away to the east, which has
apparently run down a hunting party sent out from here early this morning to
secure some fresh meat. Too terrified to do anything to help, the little brutes
crowd the catwalk that runs along the top of their nine-foot wall of sharpened
stakes, brandishing their knives and spears, while the females lacerate their
bare chests and forearms with their long fingernails, and wail. By an hour
after dark, it's all over; silence, not a sound in the night, but the
occasional hoot of an owl, or the squeak of a bat. It's an omen, I can't help
feeling, a good sign; the man—whoever he was, the father who will not be
forgotten, has been paid back, and in the same coin . . . The men feel it, too;
Thurmond, who is busy shining my boots for the morning, whistles under his
breath as he works.
Ninth
day; dawn
. .
. With everything else I have to worry about this morning, Feeney and Roscower
have had a lovers' spat, the latter accusing the former of being unfaithful to
him with Sergeant Thurmond, of all people, who says nothing, but chews on a
blade of grass, one of the strange blue wild flowers stuck behind one ear,
evidently enjoying himself hugely, a wicked gleam in his eye. If it's true,
then he's broken the unwritten rule that prohibits an N. C. O. from forming a
relationship with an enlisted man, but under the circumstances, Thurmond being
as fine a soldier as he is, I have decided not to interfere. He's a handsome
man, I must admit, with a curly blond beard and dark eyes, a perfect build,
powerful shoulders and chest, no hips. Rescower sulks around, his lower lip
stuck out a mile, glowering petulantly, while an unattached Pfc. by the name of
Harris makes calf's eyes at him, and "sighs ... all very complicated . . . Who was it, again? The ancient
Germans? What I need is a refresher course in my military history. No, the
Spartans. Yes, I remember, the 300 at the bridge, or wherever it was, and damn
fine soldiers, too, who based their army on the same principle that has
spontaneously risen among our garrison in the silo because of the lack of
enough perfectly formed women to go around. In combat, or in general, for that
matter, the system works admirably, lovers willing to make any sacrifice for
each other; but I sometimes wonder what the final result will be of providing
wives for the hereditary officer class first. The population of our enlisted
personnel has already begun to decline almost three percent a year, if I recall
the latest figures, and is falling all the time. What I simply can't understand
is why the top brass didn't station women in the silo in the first place,
before the war. DeWitt maintains that it's because the silo's primary function
was not the preservation of racial purity, but simply an invulnerable launching
pad for the ICBMs, the rockets with which the four-hour war was apparently
fought, and which none of us has ever seen. No, I can't believe he's right.
It's just too much to swallow that the top brass, with all of its intelligence
and resources, was unable to anticipate the extent of racial pollution that the
war was to bring. I refuse to accept it as doctrine, and yet, the historical
fact remains that from the very beginning, right after the war more than 80
years ago, the garrison had to provide women for itself from the surface, and
at very great risk to the personnel. What child doesn't remember the story of
Lieutenant Devlin's self-sacrifice, or Pfc. Gold, who brought back the Gary
sisters? To be perfectly honest, the whole business is beyond me, a complete
mystery . . . But enough for now. The sun is up— another good omen? It's a warm,
particularly beautiful day, with a sparkling blue sky, not a cloud to be seen,
the warmest it's been for almost a week now, as if the summer has returned ... I must get a move on with Thurmond and
Feeney, the two others who must witness the formal examination as required by
the law . . .
Later
. . . Crowned by a wreath of the blue
flowers, a rope around her neck, she is stripped naked and led through a
curiously silent, jostling crowd of the females by the "mayor" in his
top hat, who brings her into the hut where we have been compelled to wait for
almost an hour until the ceremony —whatever it was, and which we were forbidden
to attend—is through. A yank on the rope, and she stands perfectly still, her
hands by her sides . . . She has not—I repeat, not— begun menstruating, as was
anticipated; but as far as Thurmond and I can determine, the membrane is
intact. Lovely she is, there's no doubt of it, with even more beautiful hair
than I remembered, honey-colored, dazzling in the sunlight, thick with dust, that
streams through the cracks in the wall; her body, all of her perfectly formed,
absolutely without a blemish, except for a large mole on her left breast, near
the armpit, and another on the back of her right hand. Thurmond reads off the
check list and Feeney and I turn her this way and that, while she giggles and
squirms under our hands, her nostrils dilated, greenish-gray eyes opened wide.
"Ten fingers . .
."
"Ten, yes, check . .
."
"Ten toes."
"Right. Check."
And so on, everything perfect, as she giggles
uncontrollably, a strand of that beautiful hair in her eyes. "Well?"
the "mayor" wants to know.
"One thing at a time . . . What's-your
name, girl?" "My name?"
"Yes. What do they call you?"
She
makes an abrupt movement to brush the hair out of her eyes, and the blanket
falls to the ground.
"Take
your time. Take your finger out of your mouth and answer me. You needn't be
afraid."
"Her name is Lila," says the
"mayor" in his deep voice.
"Is that what they call you?"
"Lila," she repeats, after a pause,
blinking her eyes.
"Take your time. Do you know what I am,
Lila?" I ask.
"Lila."
"Yes,
yes. You told me. But what about me? Do you know why I'm here? I've come to
take you away. You're to be the bride of an officer, Lila, do you know what
that means?"
"Lila . . ."
"Yes,
that's right. Your name is Lila. Very good. But do you know what an officer is?
He's a man, a perfectly formed human being, just like yourself. You will be his
wife, and bear his children, as befits you, as is your duty. Can you understand
that?"
She
turns away. "Well, Captain?" asks the "mayor" again, when
we are outside.
"We'll
see . . ." He waddles by my side in silence, with the peculiar rolling
gait characteristic of the species. A peal of high-pitched laughter comes from
the interior of the hut, reverberating in the stifling, dusty air that shimmers
from the heat of the sun. We squat in the shadow of the wall. Once again, even
louder than before, she laughs . . .
Later
. . . We leave tomorrow, first thing. The men
are preparing a litter in which to carry her, a hammock made out of a blanket
to be slung between two poles cut from the pines.
They
curse from the effort of packing up all the gear, irritable from the
unseasonable heat and, although they say nothing, of course, the prospect of
making the long march back home inadequately armed—responsibility for which I take
entirely upon myself. Thurmond and Feeney are witnesses. Under the
circumstances, after arguing for more than four hours in the broiling sun,
there was nothing I could do but yield to his insistence and make the trade on
his terms, or not at all, for eight of the M-ls and a hundred rounds of
ammunition apiece. "Take it or leave it, Captain, that's it . . ."
"I
wouldn't worry too much about it, sir," Thurmond assures me. "With
the BAR and the Thompsons we'll be all right. The only thing we have to watch
out for is the wild dogs, and what's a few dogs . . ."
This
in a voice loud enough for all the men to hear. He may be right, at that;
still, what haunts us all is the possibility of betrayal, that somewhere
between here and the mountains, they'll ambush us with our own weapons to get
the lot—which Thurmond admits in confidence is a possibility, particularly at
night, although he seriously doubts it— they as well as we having to contend
with the roving packs of dogs in more or less unfamiliar terrain.
"No,
I don't think they'd dare," he chews on the ragged ends of his beard,
poring over the maps I have spread out on the ground. So far, anyway, the
lookouts I have posted report that there's no unusual activity in the compound,
although Thurmond and I agree that if they did intend to send out an ambush
party to steal a march on us, they'd do it after dark.
"A
chance we'll just have to take," says Thurmond with a smile that crinkles
up his eyelids, glancing at the girl who has curled up on the pine needles,
covered by a blanket, with one hand under her cheek and the thumb of the other
in her mouth. Is she sleeping? Her eyes are closed. The lids quiver.
Thurmond
holds on to the rope which is" still looped about her neck. Now,
apparently bothered by the buzzing flies, she opens her eyes and sits up, her
long, tangled hair flowing over her naked shoulders, covering one breast. Her
nipples are an orange brown.
"Lila Lila Lila
Lila," she laughs, drawing up her legs.
Wilson
Wilson Wilson Wilson is all I can think of. I can picture DeWitt at the wedding
in the officers' mess in section five, peering at her over the tops of his
rimless glasses, as he makes the usual speech in his soft voice that is just
barely audible over the whir of the ventilator fans.
".
. . Perfectly formed . . . pure and undefiled ...
a fitting vessel for the perpetuation
of the race which will one day soon regain its rightful domination . . ."
etc. etc. while Wilson fidgets impatiently in front of him, pulling at the
collar of his dress uniform which is too tight for his fat neck, licking his
dry lips as he reaches for her hand, the son of a bitch.
How lucky can you get?
WASTE
NOT, WANT NOT
BY JOHN ATHERTON
"Think
big" would seem to be the axiom of science-fiction writers, for the
customary stuff of sci-fi is vast and glamorous—space travel, time travel, the
fourth dimension, humanoid robots, the totalitarian technocracies of the far
future. John Atherton chose to be different and selected a homelier subject for
the following story: trash disposal.
JOHN ATHERTON 339
THE
SIX MEN FILED IN. Barnes, of the Interior. Hoop, representing Asio-Africo.
Gosboy, of the Russkers Group. A stringly little gnome from the Arctic
Combines. Edestone, Commerce. The chairman, Leader Maskisson of the
Amerrikabloc, started at once.
"I have evidence, gentlemen, of dumping in the Indian
Ocean. Leader Hoop's beach plants are flooding "
Everyone
stared at the ceiling in agonized embarrassment. Always The Problem. Never a
solution.
"You
know," Maskisson went on, "that this has been coming upon us for
years, ever since Ben Salter, on that memorable day in April 1997, found that
every razor-blade slot in his house was overflowing."
The
other men nodded glumly. As if they didn't know when The Problem first began.
"And
now there just isn't any more room," Maskisson continued, "and we,
the Leaders, must find a way. But, as we well know, it is our duty to foster
short-life permanent-expendables."
All
the men stood up together and murmured reverently, "Bless Waste."
Then
they all sat down and shook their heads. All except Barnes, of the Interior. He
waved his hand to attract the chairman.
"I
have a contractor. I have proof. He will get rid of it all," he broke out.
He seemed oblivious to the hostile stares of the others, who remembered that
Barnes had tried this stunt before. That "contractor" had tried to
resell waste. He had been given 20 years for seven counts of extended overuse,
and The Problem was worse than ever. Now here was that fool Barnes with another
one.
But
even before Maskisson could protest, Barnes had swung open the door to the
conference room and led in a little, smiling, plump man in a sparkling
weldcloth suit.
"Now, Leaders, Mr. Gripfiler will show you," he said proudly.
Mr.
Gripfiler smiled still more. He snapped open his eternametal handcase and
revealed a beautifully constructed device made of transparent life-rock and
polished durametal. In its center, cradled in a mesh of platinum filament
wires, was a hollow durametal hopper, with a clamshell mouth.
"This,
sirs, is my Wondergrinder," said Mr. Gripfiler. "It will dispose of
anything. Permanently, and with not a trace of vapor, smog, residue or
sludge."
"Even
an absoblade?" smiled Hoop, trying to make a dismal joke. Everyone knew
that nothing made by man's perfect technology was more difficult to dispose of
after its time than one of these deadly little shining blades. Made of special
alloy eternametal, they never lost their cutting edge, and with the recent up
in quotas for the Absoblade Combine no one was permitted to use one for more
than a single shave. Any such reactionism would start a dangerous autocycle.
"Do you have one
handy?" asked Mr. Gripfiler.
A
blade was found in the stainless flint tile washroom just off the conference
chamber. Flicking open the tiny clamshell jaws with a chubby finger, Mr.
Gripfiler dropped the absoblade in the hopper. The jaws snapped shut. Mr.
Gripfiler twisted a knob. The filament wires glowed red for a second, then
faded to a dull white.
Mr.
Gripfiler flicked open the jaws of the hopper. The absoblade was gone. Each
Leader felt that he had witnessed some expert sleight-of-hand. So they gave him
pocket tissues, folding knives, watches—all the intricate little articles they
would soon have to drop into waste-chutes and replace with new models. And each
time, no matter how full they stuffed the little hopper, Mr. Gripfiler made
them vanish. Without a trace.
Maskisson broke the silence. "I'm
convinced," he said,
"but I should get the feeling of the others- "
The Leaders looked at him.
They nodded.
"Take it," said Gosboy.
"Sign paper now," urged the Arctic
Leader.
They
accepted Mr. Gripfiler's terms. He was as good as his word, and soon 500
full-scale Wondergrinders were operating in each disposal sector of World-fed,
obediently swallowing every shred of rejected waste.
But no one thought to ask
Mr. Gripfiler where it went.
No one cared. The Problem
was solved.
Blurro IV sat gracefully on a magnesium,
bench and indolently arranged his fibroid toga. In Blurro's world of 80,704
there were no problems. Progress had outmoded itself at least 30 thousand years
ago, largely due to the Wonder-grinder, reputed to have been created out of the
mud of the Nile in the Year of Troubles, 2080, or thereabouts. No one cared
much for history. They only knew that those blessed machines with their
clamshell jaws took care of all the junk that man could produce. It all went
into the Divine Wonder-grinder and vanished. Blurro's world was tidy and at
peace. There were no problems.
But
now, on this day of June 80,704, the air before Blurro's eyes seemed to become
pregnant. It struggled to give birth to an object. Then, with a tiny -plop of gratified release, a small object fell at Blurro's feet. He picked it
up, and promptly cut his finger. Then other objects fell, like solid rain. Two
tiny ticking machines. Some crumpled pieces of paper. A folding knife.
In
a month the garden world of the year 80,704 was a mess. An ugly and dangerous
mess, for everywhere came the steady shower of deadly sharp absoblades.
It
took the wisest thinker, Clarol III, to solve the problem. With a stroke of
mind as brilliant and as irresponsible as the original Gripfiler's, Clarol not
only reset, but reoriented, the
Wondergrinders.
Now they sent the junk on, not only In time, but also in space.
No
one asked Clarol where it went. No one cared. The Problem was solved.
Thirty
million light years away, on the grubby little planet Omicron, the last
remaining pair of great scaled Longfipes dragged their 80 feebly twitching legs
across the bone-strewn wastes of granite and basalt. Death faced this pair, for
they had eaten the last loose chunks of metallic ore they could paw from the
ground.
The
huge male could only belch a feeble smoke puff from his cavernous mouth. Then
something flickered in the air before the tired female's half-shut eye. Then
another flicker, and she caught the morsel with her upper feeder palp. It was tiny,
but it crunched with metallic promise. More shreds fell. She nudged her vast
mate. He opened one of his five eyes to see manna falling from heaven.
When
the four yellow moons had circled Omicron again, the two Longfipes were
browsing contentedly through a vast stack of non-refillable metabotts,
stainless durametal cans, and permanent metaloid furniture which fell in a
steady stream from the upper stratosphere. Their digestive fires flared with a
healthy crackling roar, and as the male raised his huge upper jaw, a long
swirling blast of white flame seared the enamel from a pile of old autobodies
before him.
Gamboling
clumsily behind their parents were two Long-fipe cubs, scooping up mouthfuls of
the shining absoblades which covered the plain like petals from a metallic
flower.
And
they didn't stop to ask where this blessed provender came from.
They didn't care—they just
ate and were content.
THE
DOT AND DASH BIRD
BY BERNARD WOLFE
Hollywood
has been good to Bernard Wolfe— unwittingly. The film city and its fantastic
fauna have furnished him with rich grist for his fiction mill. His corrosively
acerbic playboy stories of Hollywood writer Gordon Rengs must
be ranked with Nathanael West and Evelyn Waugh in the literature of filmdom:
When Walter Wanger read them under the collective book title of "Come On
Out, Daddy," he said, "Wolfe's Hollywood is one of the most amazing
I have encountered." The fantasy which follows is not a Gordon Rengs
story, although its principal character is a Hollywood writer—one Walter Jack
Commice. Wolfe assures us that any resemblance between Commice and himself is
purely coincidental. There is also very little resemblance between this
bracing dash of bitters and "The Never Ending Penny," the amiable
Wolfe story that appears earlier in these pages, for "The Dot and Dash
Bird" is comedie
noire at its deepest, most
ebon shade of noire.
THE
MYNA, in black pomposity of feathers, with chief justice's leveling eyes,
worked at its chuffy song, gurrah, gurree, gruh-greeg. Walter Jack Commice
ticked out the beat on the surface of his free-shape pale-lemon Formica desk,
bop, bop, bop-bop.
When
he became aware of what his fingers were doing, he looked up quickly from the
puce-colored IBM typewriter to study the dark presiding figure in its curlicued
brass cage.
"I spit on your
trivialized smut guts, too, scum eyes."
He
was not pleased with himself for hating a small incarcerated animal. But facts
were facts. Small black magisterial clump of nothing with a sheen of no
sympathy in the eye and answering to the name of Jonnikins.
"Jonnikins,
your Jerkiness. You and your witch friend Daisy-Dear. Long-term mononucleosis
to you both."
Neither
did he enjoy malicious thoughts about his mother-in-law. He never laughed at
mother-in-law jokes, because he sensed in them a displeasure with women which
he believed more suited to fairies, whom he truly hated. Yet how deny he had a
mother-in-law who doted on the name Daisy-Dear and insisted on keeping a filthy
rotten myna bird she insisted on calling Jonnikins? Keeping the miserable
squawker in his study, at his elbow? Not bad enough she had to live here. She had to buddy up to rotten filthy birds that eyed
you and made nasty Huntley-Brinkley commentaries you couldn't understand about
you and yours. Birds that sat on a stack of statute books handing down
sentences and making mucoid rock 'n' roll in their throats. In his study. At his elbow.
"Jonnikins,
if you want to know what I think, I think you're a fairy, a feather-bearing
damn fairy. I would dance in the streets to see you stretched out conclusively
dead with your ugly claws sticking straight up. As for your side-kick and bird
of a feather, Daisy-Dear . . ."
Drawing
back from the darkening thought, he shifted his eyes to the picture window to
consider the sunny spread of
West
Hollywood and Beverly Hills below. From his rose-carpeted and rose-draped study
here high over Coldwater Canyon he could make out all the landmarks of the
sprawled enterprise called Walter Jack Commice, the California Bank Building,
where agents sat collecting his moneys, the Sunset Tower, where business
managers were busy disbursing his moneys, the Beverly Hilton, in whose
penthouse Escoffier Room he met regularly with television producers and story
editors to firm up new assignments, the Park La Brea Towers, where his
secretary was at this moment typing up his last script for the Yucca Yancy series, the Bekins warehouse, where he was
obliged to store his many bound volumes of old television scripts now that
Daisy-Dear insisted on using the closet of his study for Jonnikin's feeds and
vitamins and assorted goodies. About him this network of institutions operating
on the premise that his hands would continue to fly plottingly and dialogingly
over the puce IBM, but when he looked down at a wide city dependent on his ten
fingers, the fingers went truant and jogged the myna's growling rhythms.
Bop, bop, they went. Bop,
bop-bop.
Daisy-Dear
came in slapping her too-large fluffy mules and crossed to her darling's cage.
"Don't
mind me," she said, as usual. He was again struck by how much she sounded
like her feathered friend, a rasper, a growler. He kept expecting her to grow a
beak; she already had the beadiness of eye. "Just want to see how Boy-Boy
is."
Sometimes
it wasn't Jonnikins. When that love welled up it could be Boy-Boy.
"It
would be easier to not mind you," he said, not loudly, "if you didn*t
start yapping the minute you came in." He added with no loudness at all,
"Easier still if you took a slow train to Anchorage."
But
by this time she was crooking her finger through the brass bars at Jon-Boy-Boy
and saying in a coo, "Are you maybe under the weather, little man? You
look peak-ed, definitely."
He felt peak-ed, definitely. He imagined his
head was peak-ed and pointy and begging for dunce caps. He stared with
disenchantment at the page in his typewriter and forced his eyes to follow the
words again:
quarles {lazily): What makes you think I'm your man, sheriff?
sheriff slate (readying hands at holsters): Scar over right eye. Third finger of left
hand missing down to second knuckle. You're the one gunned down Farrow, all
right. I'd know you anywheres.
quarles (placidly downing drink in shot glass): You can get in a whole mess of trouble going
round making big accusations
like that.
sheriff slate (fingers stiffening near holsters): You're the one's in trouble,now, Quarles.
Either you come along quiet . . .
quarles (pitting shot glass down deliberately): Now, you couldn't rightly expect me to do
that, sheriff. I don't do things quiet. I'm a loud man. I do everything real
loud . . .
Daisy-Dear
reading today's immortal prose over his shoulder. Projecting the editorial
lower lip, beaklike. Inanely reporting, "He was saying he's a loud man
this morning at eleven. It's three in the afternoon now."
"I've
asked you roughly a hundred times not to come in here when I'm working, Daisy.
I've asked you maybe two hundred times not to read over my shoulder when you do
come in, Daisy."
Eyes
slotting now. Two Daisies bereft of their honeying and kissy Dears. She knew
when she'd been slapped in the face twice in two sentences.
"Walter.
Really. You know I can't go all day without peeking in to see how Jonnikins
is."
"And how my script
isn't?"
"Now, Walter. You know you're just
grumpy because it isn't going well. Two pages in five hours . . ."
A
double accusation behind that. It was her theory that his study was the best
place for Jonnikins because the sound of typing gave him something to think
about and generally soothed him. When there was this sound: It was her further theory that her son-in-law was a no-good
lazy bum who sat all day counting his fingers and thinking about strip-teasers,
and that the lack of busy noises was what made Jonnikins feel neglected and got
him under the weather and peak-ed, definitely.
"Five
hours is right," he said. "Five full hours of Feathers over there
concertizing in my ear. He's in fine, phlegmy voice today."
The
thing was that the longer Walter sat, trying to get Killer Quarles to put that
shot glass all the way down and draw on Sheriff Slate to force the shoot-out,
the more the goddamn prosecuting attorney of a black bird kept throwing the
book at him. This sheeny black mess of a black hoppy animal was
conviction-happy D. A., rigged jury, hanging judge, and firing and blackballing
story editor in one dirty, black ball.
Walter
was terrified of getting fired from Yucca Yancy and
blackballed from the industry as a deadline misser. He was already three days
overdue on this assignment and Quarles was still so disinclined to draw that
Sheriff Slate's fingers were^oing stiff with neuralgia there by his holsters.
'Write,
Walter," Daisy-Dear said. "It'll be good for your nerves and for
Boy-Boy's, too. Get them six-shooters a-shootin' like sixty!"
She padded out on her
sloshing mules.
Gurree,
gruh-greeg, admonished the scummy bum of a blackhearted bird.
Bop, bop-bop, went his fingers.
Bump, bump-bump?
What?
Duh, duh-duh?
That
little fairy with the celluloid letter opener for a nose? Mm?
Soon as he heard the station wagon hit the
gravel he headed down to the carport. Immediately he was leading her over to a
safe conference spot near the hibachi patio grill, close by the vermiform
aquamarine swimming pool, saying too fast, "She's your mother and my
nemesis. She was in every hour on the hour today, making time with that
undernourished vulture and cracks about my work. Get Daisy-Dour for a
mother-in-law and you don't need any Romanians. Chris, I swear, if she's going
to keep busting into my room with blue pencils going counterclockwise in her
eyes . . ."
Chris
put her shopping bags on the barbecuing machine and said, "Wally. Honey.
She's been giving you a workout, I know." She raised up to kiss him on the
cheek. "I'll have one last talk with her. If it doesn't do any good, she
doesn't live here anymore, that's it. She carried me for nine months, but that
doesn't give her any call to needle you for nine years. You forget about it,
hon. If I've got to choose between her and you, it's no contest. I know what
side of my bread the jam's on."
She
kissed him on the neck, over to the left, near the scar where the carbuncle had
been cauterized off. Daisy-Dear had insisted on the carbuncle going, because
she saw potentialities for cancer in all unusual blooms except her own bloating
tongue.
Chris
was his one ally. He knew he could count on her against all the editor-eye
vultures. Immediately he felt better.
"You're a girl and a
half," he said, and meant it.
"I'd better make
tracks and a half. Six-fifteen. Oo, oo. Mix the onion dip and get martoonis in
the fridge. How're you doing
with the Yancy?"
"Nnnh. Quarles's an
old chimney. Not drawing properly."
"Ho,
ho. Never you mind, hon. You're the A-one chimney sweep in these parts."
His
eyes followed with approval as she gathered up the groceries and went off
toward the all-electric kitchen, haunch-high, ample, still a curvy and superior
bundle. If at times he felt he was a prisoner in the enemy camp, she at least
was there with him, tapping out messages of solidarity on the cell wall.
He thought of Henny Juris. While Chris and
her mums were off doing last-minute things in the kitchen, Walter Jack Commice
adjusted his legs on the leather hassock, sipped at his panatela, and thought
about Henny Juris, wondering why. He had not seen or considered Henny for 16
years, since the Navy. His fingers were making rhythms on the martini glass. He
let his eyes go to the glass patio doors, to the well-lit landscaping beyond.
In this town you paid high for your red and blue banana trees. But, he told
himself, he did not mind. Nothing comes free of charge. Even when you jump for
joy you're using up your legs some. All of which did not tell him why his mind
was suddenly going back to Henny Juris. Or his fingers jumping on the martini
glass, not for joy. He was now on his third martini, not for joy.
The
ladies came out to announce that dinner was ready and in a minute they were
seated and the maid was serving.
"Chris,"
Walter said over the jellied madrilene, "you majored in psych.
Stimulus-response, reflexes, things of that order. Tell me, do you think
animals, the higher animals below humans, are capable of hate?"
"There's
the danger of anthropomorphism," Chris said. "Attributing to them
specifically human qualities, like being vain about your figure and liking to
see your name in the papers and wanting to be at the head of the class. But,
yes, I'd give them hate. When the hippopotamus is dismembering the white hunter
I don't think his head's full of rosy Christian thoughts."
"You
speak of the hippopotamus. What about, specifically, birds?" He kept his
eyes carefully away from Daisy-Dear, but he saw the alerted look Chris gave him
across the table. "You suppose birds, domesticated birds, can hate other
creatures—people?"
"Well,
we don't know too much about birds." Chris tasted her Chablis
and grimaced approval.
"Birds are descended from the reptiles. We don't know a damned thing about
what goes on in a snake's head. They're too cold-blooded. Where do your
hostilities and resentments trend when your blood stream's down to seventy
degrees Fahrenheit?"
"I
don't know about snakes, but I can tell you when birds hate you,"
Daisy-Dear said. Now Chris was giving her warning
looks, but she paid no attention. "It's when you hate them.
You can't blame them.
They're sensitive little fellows and they feel things."
"Listen,
Daisy." Walter was not inclined to dapple his talk with falsifying
Dearies. He knew he should not have had that third martini, but there was no
stopping now. "I'll tell you something about that sensitive little
chum-buddy of yours. He hates me and everything about me. He even makes fun of
my writing, if anybody took the trouble to decipher his stenchy warbles.
Exactly like his feeder and fancier. You don't
need deciphering. Come clean, now. Don't you make
fun of my writing?"
"I
think it would be better not to go into literary matters," Chris said
cautioningly. Her words were meant for her mother, but Daisy-Dear was too
interested in rising to the occasion, the beam of battle was in her eye.
"Since
you ask me, Walter," she said happily, full of anticipation, "since
you seem to want my opinion, I'm no critic, but I can tell you this, I think
it's a shame and a disgrace for a grown man to be spending his life trying to
get
srmtty little outlaws and sheriffs to shoot bullets into each
Dther. There are other things in life besides guns
and gore
znd men with two-year-olds' itches talking tough and with
barks at each other. Besides, you can't even get your
itchy
men to reach for their guns. You get them talking tougher
md tougher and longer and longer and "
No
telling how far she would have gone if the maid had not just then come in with
the steaming roast beef on a platter. They sat with petrified eyes until the
maid was gone again. Then Chris looked directly at her mother and said,
"Mother, let's understand one thing. Walter is my husband. I love him and
love and approve of everything he does, and if anybody feels differently about
it, there's no room for such a person in this house. Is that clear?"
Before the old lady could open her mouth
Walter said,
"I'm glad you said what you did, Daisy, very glad. It's good
to get these things out in the open. Let me just inform you,
for your information, that by writing about people who talk
tough and itchily reach for their guns, as you so choicely put
it, I make over thirty thousand dollars each year after taxes.
Some people may have very highly developed critical minds
and see what's less than perfect in everything, but if you look
at their tax returns---- "
"Thank
you very much, Walter," Daisy-Dear said. "Thank you for reminding me
that I'm a helpless old woman who can't earn her keep anymore and has to depend
on the charity of people who don't want her around. I'm well aware of the fact
that I'm a pauper and have to live where I'm not wanted. For your information, your toughies with all their itches aren't reaching so much
for their guns lately. You're days late with this Yancy and you still can't get Mr. Quarks to stop talking long enough to take a
gun to Mr. Slate."
"All
right, Mother," Chris said with the firmness of ultimatum. "I think
that does it. I think that's just about it. You've been making life miserable
for Walter long enough, and my first loyalty is to my husband. You won't be a
pauper, Daisy-Dear. We'll see to it that you never want for anything, but you
can't stay here. I suggest you go to your room and start packing. We'll make
the necessary arrangements in the morning."
"I'll
be happy to leave this house," Daisy-Dear said. She stood up with dignity.
"I don't care to be in a place where a soul can't speak her mind." She left the room without a look back.
Walter
called exultantly after her, "And Daisy-Dear, take iddums Jonnikins with
you! Tell him about Dostoievsky!"
He
was feeling taken care of and vindicated. The feeling increased when Chris came
over and kissed him on the head, saying, "It'll be all right now, darling.
This was coming for a long time. I just had to handle it my own way and in my
own time."
He patted
her hand with all affection. "Thanks, honey. I really mean it. These are
the moments that count, when you're tapping strong on the cell wall."
Chris
went back to her seat as he said with all heartiness, "Mothers-in-law
should be hurried and not seen. You know." But Chris didn't laugh, and
Walter couldn't bring himself to laugh either. He knew damned well he was no
fairy, but here he was making one of those misogynistic mother-in-law jokes
that had fairy overtones. He said as he bent to carve the rib, holding the
tools before him like lances, suddenly gloomy, "Damn it. I swear, by
midnight Quarles's going to be letting loose at Slate with both barrels."
Then his fingers were throbbing obscure semaphore and he was exclaiming,
"Henny Juris! Of course! Hon, what we were saying about animals and hate,
listen, I just came in mind of a proof! Rumpy! The scratcher, the chuckler,
Rumpy!"
"Translate,
please," Chris said.
It
was all back in Walter's mind: "My God, yes. The squirrel." Around
the edges of the memory he was aware of his fingers going faster against the
tabletop. "This was a little beast one of the lieutenant jg.s in Newport
News had. Lieutenant Quarles, come to think of it, that was his name. I guess I
never told you. This Rumpy was, generally speaking, an affectionate little
bugger, he really liked people, all kinds, he was forever nuzzling and making
up to everybody. The only one he wouldn't kiss and mush up to was Henny Juris.
Oh, how that little so-and-so hated Henny's insides. He made Henny's life
miserable, I'm telling you. Henny's got scars from where that animal bit his
fingers to the bone. Once they had to tear Rumpy off Henny because he was
trying to scratch Henny's eyes out. He saw red whenever Henny was in the
neighborhood. Spitting and clawing was his one hello. What Rumpy felt for that
man wasn't anything as soft as hate. It was homicide, pure and simple."
His
fingers were on the speed-up. He was sitting straight, aware of how his
breathing had speeded up, too.
"Right!"
he said. "Absolutely! Not a word of exaggeration in that! How that
squirrel went out of his mind and screamed like a banshee every time Henny came
near! You know what his favorite trick was, Chris? He used to go to the
bathroom on Henny's desk, on his bedclothes, his shoes, his head, even. He
would scamper about, and go to the bathroom all over poor Hen!" Walter
moved his hands from the table to his knees, but the fingers went on working.
"Henny had a theory about that squirrel. It had to do with the little
bugger's owner, Lieutenant Quarles. Quarles loathed and abominated the sight of
Henny. It was Henny's thought that he represented everything that went against
Quarles' grain and tastes. Henny outdid this guy in officers' training, talked
louder and faster, was bigger and stronger, his parents had the standing
Quarles' didn't, there were a whole lot of things. What Quarles felt for Henny
was one headful of murder!"
"Do
I understand you?" Chris said slowly. "You're saying when a human
feels something very strongly it can get communicated to an animal?"
"Can and does!" Walter said
excitedly. "And it's for the precise same reason that Jonnikins has that
baleful look when I'm around that he'd like to do me in! That kind of
concentrated venom and bad feeling has to come from somewhere! We know its
source!"
"Well,"
Chris said, "be that as it may. I don't think we know enough about animals
to get that detailed about what they feel or don't feel. Anyhow, you won't be
bothered by Jonnikins anymore. Or Daisy-Dear. Whatever the ESP between them.
We're going to have a life of our own around here, a little peace and quiet
once more, thank the Lord. I've been meaning to ask you, hon, why do you keep
drumming with your fingers that way?" Walter's hands were back on the
table.
"Oh,
I guess it just comes from working at the typewriter all day," Walter said
neutrally. "Writer's tic, or something. Writer's tock. Let me ask you
something, Chris. They gave you Morse-code training in the WAVES. You make
anything of this?" He repeated the beat with his fingers, dup, dup,
dup-dup.
"Search
me," she said. "I don't remember my dots and dashes. It's been a long
time."
"Eighteen
years," Walter said, drumming. "A lot goes. Sounds to me like there's
a pattern there, but I can't get it. I'll have to look it up."
"Where's
it from?" Chris said. "The way Daisy-Dear slaps around in her
slippers or clears her throat? In that case, maybe you better not do any
looking up. What you don't know can't go to the bathroom on you. You
know." She said "Ha, ha" at him hopefully, but he ignored the
call to lightness.
"It's
from an animal," Walter said. "A cold-blooded reptilian bird of my
acquaintance. I think he's trying to say something to me, but I'm not
sure."
When
Chris went to the bedroom to undress, Walter followed her here and there.
"Tell me the truth,
hon," he said after a time. "Do you agree with any of the things
Daisy was saying about me, I mean, really? Don't you ever get any secret sour
thoughts about me because I've given up my ideas of writing novels and just bat
out these Yancys and drivel like that? I wouldn't blame you if
you had some reservations, sweets, but I'd like to know. We've never really
talked about it."
"Oh,
dear, darling, dotable Walt, of course I don't have any reservations. Whatever
you do is what I want you to do. Walt, I'll tell you this one last time. I
think you're a marvelous writer, a beautiful writer, and I think everything you
write is perfect. And I'm glad we finally had the blowup with Daisy-Dear.
You'll see. Once she's gone the atmosphere around this house is going to get
very clear and friendly. Very, very friendly."
It
was true. She kept tapping on the prison wall, spelling out messages of comfort
and chin up. He kissed her lingeringly and with full conviction.
"Going
to get another hour of work in, sweets. If Juridical Jonny hasn't gone to the
bathroom on my IBM. Sleep tight. Love you fulsomely."
Two
hours later Killer Quarles was still proclaiming what a loud man he was and
Sheriff Slate's hands were still hovering like trapped mynas over his holsters.
As' Walter's hands hovered like trapped and irreverently screeching mynas over
his typewriter. He had placed the night covering over the cage and Jonnikins
was tomb still, but Walter was excruciatingly aware of the bird, heard its
roaringly silent comments on the state of letters in the nation and the
accumulation of clanking deadlines for the grubs. Below, deep down from these
Santa Monica hills, in the valley of collectors and disbursers who had come to
a standstill waiting for Walter's new script, the valley which, like an
impervious mouth breathed with chesty beggings for more Yancy shoot-downs, all the lights were blinking in a rhythm Walter took to be
one, two, one-two. Over the typewriter keys Walter's fingers twitched, one,
two, one-two.
There
was nothing for it. He got up with a growl, crossed the room, whipped the
covering from the cage.
Immediately
the bright pellet eyes were on him and the festering black throat was going
strong, one, two, one-two. Then other throaty pulses. Highs, lows, chirpy
middle-range tones.
Walter
reached for a pad and pencil and began to make notations, dots for the short
and hyphenated sounds, dashes for the sustained ones.
The bird sang, the pencil
flew.
When
the sheet was half covered with these markings, Walter went to the bookcase and
ran his finger along the shelf with the Encyclopaedia Britannica. He took down the "M" volume. He sat at the desk and opened
this volume to the entry for "Morse Code." There it was, from A to Z.
He
wrote for a bit, put shaking hand to wet forehead, said, "My God, my
God," and wrote some more.
The bird sang, gruh-greeg,
gurree.
In
a husky, strangulated voice, Walter began to read the words on his pad:
"Call
yourself a writer? You haven't got one drop of talent. You're an uninspired
hack. You couldn't write your way out of a paper bag. Your badmen and sheriffs
are all finger-crooking fairies pretending to talk tough. Fairies who can't
stop talking garbage and for once reach for their guns . . ."
The bird stared bold and
sang, gurree, gurrah.
"Oh,
my living, forgiving God," Walter whispered. "It is high time that
woman left this house. The malice, the malice she bears me."
Then
he was filled with a fury. He was remembering what Henny Juris had done to the
squirrel that night he came back to quarters and once again found his sheets,
his shirts, the letters from his fiancee and his money indiscriminately gone to
the bathroom on. Henny had taken Rumpy up by the neck and thrown it from the
barracks and far into the night.
At this moment Walter felt that he had been
gone to the bathroom on from head to foot.
He
went to the cage, opened it and reached in for the sooty concertizer. He got
his hand firmly on the black, rotten throat, but he could not squeeze, he
couldn't. He took his enormous compact burden to the picture window and cranked
open the mobile pane to one side and pushed the outside screen open. He held
the struggling, fluttering bird out through the window, toward the blue and red
banana trees.
"Back
where you came from," Walter whispered. "Even if you have to change
trains."
He
loosened his fingers. Jonnikins flew off in a whir of foul feathers, singing
festeringly, gurrah, gurree.
Walter
stared after him, breathing heavy. He felt full of felony but there was relief
in it, release. At last he took up his pencil and pad from the desk, along with
the volume of the Britannica,
and started down the hall
to the bedroom, down past Daisy-Dear's room from which came the sounds of
histrionic humming and drawers being slammed.
Walter
had the strong feeling that here now was something tangible that Christine
should know. Her horizons were not wide enough, praise be, to allow for the
full working out of truly poisonous processes. She had to know how far
Daisy-Dear had overstayed her human welcome, how close to absolute crisis
they'd all come.
He
stood over her bed and said softly, "Chris? Hon? Hear me? Something you
should see."
He
listened to her weighty, troubled breathing. She was not snoring, really, but
there was this low rasping and catching in her throat. Irregular. Sometimes
slow, sometimes hurried. Vague, dissipating smile on her face.
He stiffened.
Listened more carefully to the smothered
sounds. What?
One, two . . . ?
He listened some more.
He
sat down on the edge of the bed and began to make notations, dashes for the
long rasps, dots for the short, run-together ones. His hand was shaking so much
that at one point the pencil slipped from his fingers.
He
flipped open the reference volume and tried to focus his eyes on the chart.
Forced his rebellious hand to write, letter by letter, word by word.
When
he had enough lines transcribed, Walter Jack Com-mice held the pad up and began
to read with disheveled lips, feeling that he had been gone to the bathroom on
by the world's population of squirrels, birds and wives:
"Who
ever said you're a writer? There's not a drop of talent in your veins. You're
the hack of hacks. You couldn't write home for money. All your tough guys are
absurd little fairies and that's why . . ."
My God . . .
Chris
breathed suckingly, snugly, privately, smilingly, one, two, one-two ...
THE SENSIBLE MAN
BY
AVRAM DAVIDSON
Avram
Davidson is a winner of science fiction's highest honor; the Hugo Award (named
for sci-fi pioneer Hugo Gernsback), as well as the Mystery Writers of America
Award. He is a -past editor of the respected Magazine of Fantasy and Science Fiction. His story which follows, "The Sensible
Man," was published in the February 1959 issue of playboy,
two years before the first
human being orbited the earth in a space capsule. The story, by thus graduating
from science fiction to science-fact through the courtesy of history, gains new
dimensions without losing any of its original irony and Davidsonian bite.
ED
BAKER STAYED DUMB, though puzzled, to the last —which was when Randal Wilcox
put the last can of microfilm in the suitcase. Randal had to lift up the sheaf
of papers to fit it in, and Baker recognized the one on top and he gave a
startled
squeak. He put out one hand. "The Project Director-- " He
said
that much before Randal Wilcox shot him.
It
was only in fiction, Wilcox thought, as he finished packing, that the
man-about-to-kill gave a full résumé
of his reasons to the
victim-select. But there really wasn't enough time, so poor Ed Baker had to die
only partly informed. The glimpse of the top paper, the one on the liquid
oxygen gauge, had told him a lot. And he wouldn't have come all the way up here
after his lab partner in the Project if he hadn't suspected —well, something.
"Randy," he'd said, half-arguing,
half-pleading, "this is no
time for you to go off like this—fishing?—you
heard the news
—the Russians--- "
Wilcox
at first thought to bluff him, tell him he needed at least a short vacation
before the satellite program—Project Moonbeam—went into accelerated activity,
as it was bound to do with the Sputnik beeping away like an alarm bell in the
night. Let Ed think that the suitcase open on the bed meant he was still ««packing. But then he realized, with one of the
intuitive flashes which so often came to help him in tight places, that there
was a better way. He continued packing.
"You
haven't even asked the Project Director for a leave of absence," Ed
stumbled on. A good scientist, Ed—but awfully slow about everything else.
"Or he'd have asked me.n
So
Randal said nothing further to his lab partner. He just shot him.
Wilcox got across the border with no
difficulty, of course. The Embassy in Ottawa hadn't expected him, but they at
once provided a car which took him directly to Halifax, where there was a
Russian ship. No tiresome business about passports or anything of that sort. A
week later he was in Moscow.
Grisha
Ivanov said to him, "Of course you are very'welcome, Mr. Baker. But would
you mind telling us where your partner, Mr. Wilcox is? The disappearance of
both of you has been
noted, but it would seem
that only you have left the United States."
"That is true—but I am Wilcox. I thought
that if we both vanished and I posed as Baker it would confuse things at that end. Which would,help things at this end," Randal said. And he told the Soviet science chief that Ed Baker was in his, Wilcox', car,
under the waters of Lake Tippset.
Ivanov didn't even blink. "It is too
bad," he said, "that you
weren't able to convince Mr. Baker to accompany you.
However---- "
"There was no time." Randy was
somewhat nettled. "And Ed doesn't—didn't—convince so easily."
The
Russian nodded. "And what's, ah, 'convinced' you, Mr. Wilcox? You are known to us only as a scientist—not as a Leninist
scientist."
Wilcox
smiled on one side of his face. It was a young face— young and smooth—but hard.
"My politics are those of any sensible man—of every sensible man. For most of my life the democracies—pardon me—the
capitalist nations—were in the lead. So I was with them. Now the lead has
passed to you, so I am with you." He smiled again, the same way. "If
you'll have me . . ."
The
Russian smiled, too, this time. A fleeting-swift smile. His face was neither as
young nor as smooth as the American's, but it was just as hard. "We are
very glad to have you ... I have been able to give the information
you brought with you only the most hasty examination, but—tell me: Can you
build a satellite to hold a man—keep him alive while he circles between Earth
and Moon and observes both—and then return him safely?"
"No," said
Wilcox.
"Neither can we . . . that is, not until
now. Your information, it would seem, supplies the elements missing in mine.
Together . . . but now let us get to work."
Wilcox had nothing to complain of in his new
life. If he asked for personnel, he got personnel. If he requested materials,
he received materials. At no time was there any talk of "economy" or
"budget" or "making do." As for his private comforts, they
were so well provided for that he never asked.
It
was only a few months from his arrival in his new homeland—the homeland of
"every sensible man"—that the Wilcox-Ivanov artificial satellite was
ready. He wondered, briefly, how far Project Moonbeam had gotten, with two of
its best teammates no longer with it. Still not off the drawing board,
probably. He said as much to Grisha Ivanov as they approached the take-off
area. The Soviet scientist only grunted.
"Our
man will be rather cramped in his moon," Randal observed, looking inside.
"How long will he stay up, do you suppose?"
Ivanov
shrugged. "Who knows? Two weeks? Six weeks? We shall see."
Wilcox
nodded. Cramped . . . more cramped than Ed Baker, in his, Randal's, car under
Lake Tippset. Poor old foolish Ed. Had they found him yet? Nothing was said
about it here . . . Suddenly Randal's eyes fell upon a space in the maze of
dials and devices. He frowned. "Where is the control to start him back to
Earth?" he asked.
"Removed," said
Grisha, crisply. "Decided against."
"Who 'decided'?" Wilcox demanded, angry. "I--- "
"You?
You have nothing to
say." Grisha's voice was cold. Wilcox looked at him, astonished. "You
joined us from opportunism only. Yesterday you betrayed your own country.
Tomorrow—and they will very certainly catch up with us, if
not
tomorrow, then the day after—in which case you will betray us—for the same reason. So you are not trusted. You have nothing to say.
The man stays up."
Wilcox
started to speak, thought better of it. The sensible man never argues.
"Very well . . . who is the man, by the way?"
"You," said
Grisha Ivanov, calmly.
The
Red guards seized Wilcox. "We are giving you the chance to test your own
work—the device you enabled us to build. Much of the information will be sent
automatically, but some of it you will
send. The human brain is by no means obsolete. As long as you send, you will be
fed. How long will the food supply last? Who knows how much a man in cislunar
space requires? That is part of the experiment . . . No, I do not think you will court suicide by refusing to report. You are,
after all, a sensible man."
Randal Wilcox speeds around the Earth faster
than any human has ever sped before. It is very cramped in the satellite he
helped build, but it is dangerous for him to try to move, anyhow: he is studded
with attachments—needles, tubes, wires, catheters, electrodes, which spring
from his flesh. He travels from the southeast in a rapid orbit and sees the
planet which was his former home turn and spin beneath him. It is a splendid
sight. Meteors dart past him—none, so far, have hit him—but every so often he
sends in reports about them. About them and about gamma rays and light
refraction and sundry other matters. Whenever his report is transmitted, a light
flashes and a fresh supply of liquid food is allowed to drip into his veins.
The
stars blaze hugely. Cloud masses drift across the face of Earth. But very
oftlen he can make out clearly the country he betrayed . . . the Gulf, the
Rockies, the Great Lakes . . . Whenever he passes over it, he sends out a
signal of his own, over and over, until the turning planet tilts and turns its
other face to him and shows the ice-capped poles, the Urals, the Caucases . . .
Everyone hears it. Blip blip blip beep beep beep blip blip blip . . . Everyone knows it is Randal Wilcox,
sending out his SOS. But of course no one can help him at all.
Even if anyone wanted to.
SOUVENIR
BY J. G. BALLARD
J.
G. Ballard was born in Shanghai in 1930, was interned by the Japanese during
World War Two, repatriated to England in 1946, studied medicine at Cambridge,
became a copywriter for a London ad agency, an RAF pilot and a science-fiction
author. His novels include "The Drowned World" and "The Wind
from Nowhere," and among his short-story collections are "The Voices
of Time," "Billenium" and "Passport to Eternity."
"Souvenir" defies pigeonholing. Is it fantasy? Is it science
fiction? Does it matter? It doesn't, of course. All that matters is the quiet,
thoroughgoing art Ballard brings to this study of the fate inevitably met, in
this imperfect world, by that which is too great, too Godlike, too far beyond
our understanding.
ON
THE MORNING after the storm the body of a drowned giant was washed ashore on
the beach five miles to the northwest of the city. The first news of its
arrival was brought by a nearby farmer and subsequently confirmed by the local
newspaper reporters and the police. Despite this the majority of people, myself
among them, remained skeptical, but the return of more and more eyewitnesses
attesting to the vast size of the giant was finally too much for our curiosity.
The library where my colleagues and I were carrying out our research was almost
deserted when we set off for the coast shortly after two o'clock, and
throughout the day people continued to leave their offices and shops as
accounts of the giant circulated around the city.
By
the time we reached the dunes above the beach a substantial crowd had gathered,
and we could see the body lying in the shallow water 200 yards away. At first the estimates of its size seemed greatly
exaggerated. It was then at low tide, and almost all the giant's body was
exposed, but he appeared to be little larger than a basking shark. He lay on
his back with his arms at his sides, in an attitude of repose, as if asleep on
the mirror of wet sand, the reflection of his blanched skin fading as the water
receded. In the clear sunlight his body glistened like the white plumage of a
sea bird.
Puzzled
by this spectacle, and dissatisfied with the matter-of-fact explanations of the
crowd, my friends and I stepped down from the dunes onto the shingle. Everyone
seemed reluctant to approach the giant, but half an hour later two fishermen in
wading boots walked out across the sand. As their diminutive figures neared the
recumbent body a sudden hubbub of conversation broke out among the spectators.
The two men were completely dwarfed by the giant. Although his heels were
partly submerged in the sand, the feet rose to at least twice the fishermen's
height, and we immediately realized that this drowned leviathan had the mass
and dimensions of the largest sperm whale.
Three fishing smacks had arrived on the scene
and with keels raised remained a quarter of a mile, offshore, the crews
watching from the bows. Their discretion deterred the spectators on the shore
from wading out across the sand. Impatiently everyone stepped down from the
dunes and waited on the shingle slopes, eager for a closer view. Around the
margins of the figure the sand had been washed away, forming a hollow, as if
the giant had fallen out of the sky. The two fishermen were standing between
the immense plinths of the feet, waving to us like tourists among the columns
of some water-lapped temple on the Nile. For a moment I feared that the giant
was merely asleep and might suddenly stir and clap his heels together, but his
glazed eyes stared skyward, unaware of the minuscule replicas of himself
between his feet.
The
fishermen then began a circuit of the corpse, strolling past the long white
flanks of the legs. After a pause to examine the fingers of the supine hand,
they disappeared from sight between the arm and chest, then re-emerged to
survey the head, shielding their eyes as they gazed up at its Grecian profile.
The shallow forehead, straight high-bridged nose and curling lips reminded me
of a Roman copy of Praxiteles, and the elegantly formed cartouches of the
nostrils emphasized the resemblance to sculpture.
Abruptly
there was a shout from the crowd, and a hundred arms pointed toward the sea.
With a start I saw that one of the fishermen had climbed onto the giant's chest
and was now strolling about and signaling to the shore. There was a roar of
surprise and triumph from the crowd, lost in a rushing avalanche of shingle as
everyone surged forward across the sand.
As
we approached the recumbent figure, which was lying in a pool of water the size
of a field, our excited chatter fell away again, subdued by the huge physical
dimensions of this dead colossus. He was stretched out at a slight angle to the
shore, his legs carried nearer the beach, and this foreshortening had disguised his true length. Despite the two
fishermen standing on his abdomen, the crowd formed itself into a wide circle,
groups of people tentatively advancing toward the hands and feet.
My companions and I walked around the seaward
side of the giant, whose hips and thorax towered above us like the hull of a
stranded ship. His pearl-colored skin, distended by immersion in salt water,
masked the contours of the enormous muscles and tendons. We passed below the
left knee, which was flexed slightly, threads of damp seaweed clinging to its
sides. Draped loosely across the midriff, and preserving a tenuous propriety,
was a shawl of heavy open-weave material, bleached to a pale yellow by the
water. A strong odor of brine came from the garment as it steamed in the sun,
mingled with the sweet, potent scent of the giant's skin.
We
stopped by his shoulder and gazed up at the motionless profile. The lips were
parted slightly, the open eye cloudy and occluded, as if injected with some
blue milky liquid, but the delicate arches of the nostrils and eyebrows
invested the face with an ornate charm that belied the brutish power of the
chest and shoulders.
The
ear was suspended in mid-air over our heads like a sculptured doorway. As I
raised my hand to touch the pendulous lobe, someone appeared over the edge of
the forehead and shouted down at me. Startled by this apparition, I stepped
back, and then saw that a group of youths had climbed up onto the face and were
jostling each other in and out of the orbits.
People
were now clambering all over the giant, whose reclining arms provided a double
stairway. From the palms they walked along the forearms to the elbows and then
crawled over the distended belly of the biceps to the flat promenade of the
pectoral muscles which covered the upper half of the smooth hairless chest.
From here they climbed up onto the face, hand over hand along the lips and
nose, or forayed down the abdomen to meet others who had straddled the ankles
and were patrolling the twin columns of the thighs.
We
continued our circuit through the crowd, and stopped to examine the
out-stretched right hand. A small pool of water lay in the palm, like the
residue of another world, now being kicked away by the people ascending the
arm. I tried to read the palmlines that grooved the
skin, searching for some clue to the giant's character, but the distention of
the tissues had almost obliterated them, carrying away all trace of the giant's
identity and his last tragic predicament. The huge muscles and wristbones of
the hand seemed to deny any sensitivity to their owner, but the delicate
flexion of the fingers and the well-tended nails, each cut symmetrically to
within six inches of the quick, argued a certain refinement of temperament,
illustrated in the Grecian features of the face, on which the townsfolk were
now sitting like flies.
One
youth was even standing, arms wavering at his sides, on the very tip of the
nose, shouting down at his companions, but the face of the giant still retained
its massive composure.
Returning
to the shore, we sat down on the shingle and watched the continuous stream of
people arriving from the city. Some six or seven fishing boats had collected
offshore, and their crews waded in through the shallow water for a closer look
at this enormous storm catch. Later a party of police appeared and made a
halfhearted attempt to cordon off the beach, but after walking up to the
recumbent figure, any such thoughts left their minds, and they went off
together with bemused backward glances.
An
hour later there were a thousand people present on the beach, at least two
hundred of them standing or sitting on the giant, crowded along his arms and
legs or circulating in a ceaseless melee across his chest and stomach. A large
gang of youths occupied the head, toppling each other off the cheeks and
sliding down the smooth planes of the jaw. Two or three straddled the nose, and
another crawled into one of the nostrils, from which he emitted barking noises like a demented dog.
That
afternoon the police returned and cleared a way through the crowd for a party
of scientific experts—authorities on gross anatomy and marine biology—from the
university. The gang of youths and most of the people on the giant climbed
down, leaving behind a few hardy spirits perched on the tips of the toes and on
the forehead. The experts strode around the giant, heads nodding in vigorous
consultation, preceded by the policemen who pushed back the press of
spectators. When they reached the out-stretched hand the senior officer offered
to assist them up onto the palm, but the experts hastily demurred.
After
they returned to the shore, the crowd once more climbed onto the giant, and was
in full possession when we left at five o'clock, covering the arms and legs
like a dense flock of gulls sitting on the corpse of a large fish.
I next visited the beach three days later. My
friends at the library had returned to their work, and delegated to me the task
of keeping the giant under observation and preparing a report. Perhaps they Bensed my particular interest in the case, and it
was certainly true that I was eager to return to the beach. There was nothing
necrophilic about this, for to all intents the giant was still alive for me,
indeed more alive than many of the people watching him. What I found so
fascinating was partly his immense scale, the huge volumes of space occupied by
his arms and legs, which seemed to confirm the identity of my own miniature
limbs, but above all, the-mere categorical fact of his existence. Whatever else
in our lives might be open to doubt, the giant, dead or alive, existed in an
absolute sense, providing a glimpse into a world of similar absolutes of which
we spectators on the beach were such imperfect and puny copies.
When I arrived at the beach the crowd was
considerably smaller, and some two or three hundred people sat on the shingle,
picnicking and watching the groups of visitors who walked out across the sand.
The successive tides had carried the giant nearer the shore, swinging his head
and shoulders toward the beach, so that he seemed doubly to gain in size, his
huge body dwarfing the fishing boats beached beside his feet. The uneven
contours of the beach had pushed his spine into a slight arch, expanding his
chest and tilting back the head, forcing him into a more expressly heroic
posture. The combined effects of sea water and the tumefaction of the tissues
had given the face a sleeker and less youthful look. Although the vast
proportions of the features made it impossible to assess the age and character
of the giant, on my previous visit his classically modeled mouth and nose
suggested that he had been a young man of discreet and modest temper. Now,
however, he appeared to be at least in early middle age. The puffy cheeks,
thicker nose and temples and narrowing eyes gave him a look of well-fed
maturity that even now hinted at a growing corruption to come.
This
accelerated post-mortem development of the giant's character, as if the latent
elements of his personality had gained sufficient momentum during his life to
discharge themselves in a brief final résumé,
continued to fascinate me.
It marked the beginning of the giant's surrender to that all-demanding system
of time in which the rest of humanity finds itself, and of which, like the
million twisted ripples of a fragmented whirlpool, our finite lives are the
concluding products. I took up my position on the shingle directly opposite the
giant's head, from where I could see the new arrivals and the children
clambering over the legs and arms.
Among
the morning's visitors were a number of men in leather jackets and cloth caps,
who peered up critically at the giant with a professional eye, pacing out his
dimensions and making rough calculations in the sand with spars of driftwood. I
assumed them to be from the public works department and other municipal bodies, no doubt wondering
how to dispose of this monster.
Several rather more smartly attired
individuals, circus proprietors and the like, also appeared on the scene, and
strolled slowly around the giant, hands in the pockets of their long overcoats,
saying nothing to one another. Evidently its bulk was too great even for their
matchless enterprise. After they had gone the children continued to run up and
down the arms and legs, and the youths wrestled with each other over the supine
face, the damp sand from their feet covering the white skin.
The following day I deliberately postponed my visit until the late afternoon, and when I
arrived there were fewer than 50 or 60 people sitting on the shingle. The giant
had been carried still closer to the shore, and was now little more than 75
yards away, his feet crushing the palisade of a rotting breakwater. The slope
of the firmer sand tilted his body toward the sea, the bruised swollen face
averted in an almost conscious gesture. I sat down on a large metal winch which
had been shackled to a concrete caisson above the shingle, and looked down at
the recumbent figure.
His
blanched skin had now lost its pearly translucence and was spattered with dirty
sand which replaced that washed away by the night tide. Clumps of seaweed
filled the intervals between the fingers and a collection of litter and
cuttlebones lay in the crevices below the hips and knees. But despite this, and
the continuous thickening of his features, the giant still retained his
magnificent Homeric stature. The enormous breadth of the shoulders, and the
huge columns of the arms and legs, still carried the figure into another
dimension, and the giant seemed a more authentic image of one of the drowned
Argonauts or heroes of the Odyssey than
the conventional portrait previously in my mind.
I stepped down onto the sand, and walked between the pools of water toward the giant. Two small boys
were sitting in the well of the ear, and at the far end a solitary youth stood
perched high on one of the toes, surveying me as I approached. As I had hoped
when delaying my visit, no one else paid any attention to me, and the people on
the shore remained huddled beneath their coats.
The
giant's supine right hand was covered with broken shells and sand, in which a
score of footprints were visible. The rounded bulk of the hip towered above me,
cutting off all sight of the sea. The sweetly acrid odor I had noticed before
was now more pungent, and through the opaque skin I could see the serpentine
coils of congealed blood vessels. However repellent it seemed, this ceaseless
metamorphosis, a macabre life-in-death, alone permitted me to set foot on the
corpse.
Using
the jutting thumb as a stair rail, I climbed up onto the palm and began my
ascent. The skin was harder than I expected, barely yielding to my weight.
Quickly I walked up the sloping forearm and the bulging balloon of the biceps.
The face of the drowned giant loomed to my right, the cavernous nostrils and
huge flanks of the cheeks like the cone of some freakish volcano.
Safely
rounding the shoulder, I stepped out onto the broad promenade of the chest,
across which the bony ridges of the rib cage lay like huge rafters. The white
skin was dappled by the darkening bruises of countless footprints, in which the
patterns of individual heel marks were clearly visible. Someone had built a
small sand castle on the center of the sternum, and I climbed onto this partly
demolished structure to get a better view of the face.
The
two children had now scaled the ear and were pulling themselves into the right
orbit, whose blue globe, completely occluded by some milk-colored fluid, gazed
sightlessly past their miniature forms. Seen obliquely from below, the face was
devoid of all grace and repose, the drawn mouth and raised chin propped up by
gigantic slings of muscles resembling the torn prow of a colossal wreck. For
the first time I became aware of the extremity of this last physical agony of
the giant, no less painful for his unawareness of the collapsing musculature
and tissues. The absolute isolation of the ruined figure, cast like an
abandoned ship upon the empty shore, almost out of sound of the waves,
transformed his face into a mask of exhaustion and helplessness.
As
I stepped forward, my foot sank into a trough of soft tissue, and a gust of
fetid gas blew through an aperture between the ribs. Retreating from the fouled
air, which hung like a cloud over my head, I turned toward the sea to clear my
lungs. To my surprise I saw that the giant's left hand had been amputated.
I
stared with shocked bewilderment at the blackening stump, while the solitary
youth reclining on his aerial perch a hundred feet away surveyed me with a
sanguinary eye.
This was only the first of a.sequence of
depredations. I spent the following two days in the library, for some reason
reluctant to visit the shore, aware that I had probably witnessed the
approaching end of a magnificent illusion. When I next crossed the dunes and
set foot on the shingle, the giant was little more than 20 yards away, and with this close proximity to the rough pebbles all
traces had vanished of the magic which once surrounded his distant wave-washed
form. Despite his immense size, the bruises and dirt that covered his body made
him appear merely human in scale, his vast dimensions only increasing his
vulnerability.
His
right hand and foot had been removed, dragged up-the slope and
trundled away by cart. After questioning the small group of people huddled by
the breakwater, I gathered that a fertilizer company and a cattle-food
manufacturer were responsible.
The
giant's remaining foot rose into the air, a steel hawser fixed to the large
toe, evidently in preparation for the rz-zving day.
The surrounding beach had been disturbed by a scire of workmen, and deep ruts marked the ground where the and foot had been
hauled away. A dark brackish fluid -tsisd from the stumps, and stained the sand
and the white r:-es of the cuttlefish. As I walked down the shingle
I noticed tis: a number of
jocular slogans, swastikas and other signs had resn cut into the gray skin, as
if the mutilation of this — Dtionless colossus had released a sudden flood of
repressed spite. The lobe of one of the ears was pierced by a
spear of timber, and a small fire had burned out in the center of the ¿7 est, blackening the surrounding skin. The fine wood ash was still being scattered by the wind.
A
foul smell enveloped the cadaver, the undisguisable signature of putrefaction,
which had at last driven away the usual gathering of youths. I returned to the
shingle and climbed up onto the winch. The giant's swollen cheeks had now
almost closed his eyes, drawing the lips back in a monumental gape. The
once-straight Grecian nose had been twisted and flattened, stamped into the
ballooning face by countless heels.
When
I visited the beach the following day I found, almost with relief, that the
head had been removed.
Some weeks elapsed before I made my next
journey to the beach, and by then the human likeness I had noticed earlier had
vanished again. On close inspection the recumbent thorax and abdomen were
unmistakably manlike, but as each of the limbs was chopped off, first at the
knee and elbow, and then at shoulder and thigh, the carcass resembled that of
any headless sea animal—whale or whale shark. With this loss of identity, and
the few traces of personality that had clung tenuously to the figure, the interest
of the spectators expired, and the foreshore was deserted except for an elderly
beachcomber and the watchman sitting in the doorway of the contractor's hut.
A loose wooden scaffolding had been erected
around the
carcass, from which a dozen ladders swung in the wind, and the surrounding sand
was littered with coils of rope, long metal-handled knives and grappling irons,
the pebbles oily with blood and pieces of bone and skin.
I
nodded to the watchman, who regarded me dourly over his brazier of burning
coke. The whole area was pervaded by the pungent smell of huge squares of
blubber being simmered in a vat behind the hut.
Both
the thighbones had been removed, with the assistance of a small crane draped in
the gauzelike fabric which had once covered the waist of the giant, and the
open sockets gaped like barn doors. The upper arms, collarbones and pudenda had
likewise been dispatched. What remained of the skin over the thorax and abdomen
had been marked out in parallel strips with a tarbrush, and the first five or
six sections had been pared away from the midriff, revealing the great arch of.
the rib cage.
As
I left, a flock of gulls wheeled down from the sky and alighted on the beach,
picking at the stained sand with ferocious cries.
Several months later, when the news of his
arrival had been generally forgotten, various pieces of the body of the dismembered
giant began to reappear all over the city. Most of these were bones, which the
fertilizer manufacturers had found too difficult to crush, and their massive
size, and the huge tendons and discs of cartilage attached to their joints,
immediately identified them. For some reason, these disembodied fragments
seemed better to convey the essence of the giant's original magnificence than
the bloated appendages that had been subsequently amputated. As I looked across
the road at the premises of the largest wholesale merchants in the meat market,
I recognized the two enormous thighbones on either side of the doorway. They
towered over the porters' heads like the threatening megaliths of some
primitive druidical religion, and I had a sudden vision of the giant climbing
to his knees
~s?on these bare bones and striding away through the streets of tie city,
picking up the scattered fragments of himself on his return journey to the sea.
A
few days later I saw the left humerus lying in the entrance to one of the
shipyards. In the same week the mummified right hand was exhibited on a
carnival float during tie annual pageant of the guilds.
The
lower jaw, typically, found its way to the museum of natural history. The
remainder of the skull has disappeared, but is probably still lurking in the
waste grounds or private gardens of the city—quite recently, while sailing down
the river, I noticed two ribs of the giant forming a decorative arch in a
waterside garden, possibly confused with the jawbones of a whale. A large
square of tanned and tattooed skin, the size of an Indian blanket, forms a back
cloth to the dolls and masks in a novelty shop near the amusement park, and I have
no doubt that elsewhere in the city, in the hotels or golf clubs, the mummified
nose or ears of the giant hang from the wall above a fireplace. As for the
immense pizzle, this ends its days in the freak museum of a circus which
travels up and down the northwest. This monumental apparatus, stunning in its
proportions and sometime potency, occupies a complete booth to itself. The
irony is that it is wrongly identified as that of a whale, and indeed most
people, even those who first saw him cast up on the shore after the storm, now
remember the giant, if at all, as a large sea beast.
The
remainder of the skeleton, stripped of all flesh, still rests on the seashore,
the clutter of bleached ribs like the timbers of a derelict ship. The
contractor's hut, the crane and scaffolding have been removed, and the sand
being driven into the bay along the coast has buried the pelvis and backbone.
In the winter the high curved bones are deserted, battered by the breaking
waves, but in the summer they provide an excellent perch for the sea-wearying
gulls.
PUPPET SHOW
BY FREDRIC BROWN
When
Fredric Brown feels a novel coming on, he climbs aboard a Greyhound bus and
takes a long cross-country ride. When he gets to the end of the line, he turns
around and comes back. During his trip, he does not see his fellow passengers
or the stunning scenery rolling by his window; he sees the characters of the
novel-to-be and the shifting scenes against which their drama is played.
Journey over, he sits down at the typewriter and transcribes the book that is
already written in his mind. Author of more than 300 stories and over two dozen
novels {some book titles: "The Lights in the Sky Are Stars"
"What Mad Universe," "The Fabulous Clipjoint," a winner of
the Mystery Writers of America's Edgar Allan Foe Award), he is also a regular
contributor of pungent playboy prose like the following excellent,
corkscrewy bit of science fiction, "Puppet Show."
HORROR
came to Cherrybell at a little after noon on a blistering hot day in August.
Perhaps
that is redundant; any August day in Cherrybell, Arizona, is
blistering hot. It is on Highway 89, about
40 miles south of Tucson and about 30 miles north of the Mexican border. It
consists of two filling stations, one on each side of the road to catch
travelers going in both directions, a general store, a beer-and-wine-license-only
tavern, a tourist-trap-type trading post for tourists who can't wait until they
reach the border to start buying serapes and huaraches, a deserted hamburger
stand, and a few 'dobe houses inhabited by Mexican-Americans who work in
Nogales, the border town to the south, and who, for God knows what reason,
prefer to live in Cherrybell and commute, some of them in Model T Fords. The
sign on the highway says, cherrybell, pop. 42, but the sign exaggerates; Pop died last
year—Pop Anders, who ran the now deserted hamburger stand—and the correct
figure should be 41.
Horror
came to Cherrybell mounted on a burro led by an ancient, dirty and gray-bearded
desert rat of a prospector who later gave the name of Dade Grant. Horror's name
was Garvane. He was approximately nine feet tall but so thin, almost a
stick-man, that he could not have weighed over a hundred pounds. Old Dade's
burro carried him easily, despite the fact that his feet dragged in the sand on
either side. Being dragged through the sand for, as it later turned out, well
over five miles hadn't caused the slightest wear on the shoes—more like
buskins, they were—which constituted all that he wore except for a pair of what
could have been swimming trunks, in robin's-egg blue. But it wasn't his
dimensions that made him horrible to look upon; it was his skin. It looked red, raw. It looked as though he had been skinned alive, and
the skin replaced raw side out. His skull, his face, were equally narrow or
elongated; otherwise in every visible way he appeared human—or at least
humanoid. Unless you count such little things as the fact that his hair was a
robin's-egg blue to match his trunks, as were his eyes and his boots. Blood red
and light blue.
Casey,
owner of the tavern, was the first one to see them coming across the plain,
from the direction of the mountain range to the east. He'd stepped out of the
back door of his tavern for a breath of fresh, if hot, air. They were about a
100 yards away at that time, and already he could see the utter alienness of
the figure on the led burro. Just alienness at that distance, the horror came
only at closer range. Casey's jaw dropped and stayed down until the strange
trio was about 50 yards away, then he started slowly toward them. There are
people who run at the sight of the unknown, others who advance to meet it.
Casey advanced, slowly, to meet it.
Still
in the wide open, 20 yards from the back of the little tavern, he met them.
Dade Grant stopped and dropped the rope by which he was leading the burro. The
burro stood still and dropped its head. The stick-man stood up simply by
planting his feet solidly and standing, astride the burro. He stepped one leg
across it and stood a moment, leaning his weight against his hands on the
burro's back, and then sat down in the sand. "High gravity planet,"
he said. "Can't stand long."
"Kin
I get water fer my burro?" the prospector asked Casey. "Must be purty
thirsty by now. Hadda leave water
bags, some other things, so it could carry---- " He jerked a
thumb
toward the red-and-blue horror.
Casey was just realizing that it was a horror. At a distance the color combination seemed only mildly
hideous, but close up —the skin was rough and seemed to have veins on the
outside and looked moist (although it wasn't) and damn if it didn't look just like he had his skin peeled off and put back on
inside out. Or just peeled off, period. Casey had never seen anything like it
and hoped he wouldn't ever see anything like it again.
Casey
felt something behind him and looked over his shoulder. Others had seen now and
were coming, but the nearest of them, a pair of boys, were ten yards behind him
"Muchachos" he called out. "Agua for el burro. Un fozal.
Pronto."
He
looked back and said, "What-- ?
Who----- ?"
"Name's
Dade Grant," said the prospector, putting out a hand, which Casey took
absently. When he let go of it it jerked back over the desert rat's shoulder,
thumb indicating the thing that sat on the sand. "His name's Garvane, he tells me. He's an extra
something or other, and he's some kind of minister."
Casey ncdded at the stick-man and was glad to
get a nod in return instead of an extended hand. "I'm Manuel Casey,"
he said. "What does he mean, an extra something?"
The
stick-man's voice was unexpectedly deep and vibrant. "I am an
extraterrestrial. And a minister plenipotentiary."
Surprisingly,
Casey was a moderately well-educated man and knew both of those phrases; he was
probably the only person in Cherrybell who would have known the second one.
Less surprisingly, considering the speaker's appearance, he believed both of
them.
"What
can I do for you, Sir?" he asked. "But first, why not come in out of
the sun?"
"No,
thank you. It's a bit cooler here than they told me it would be, but I'm quite
comfortable. This is equivalent to a cool spring evening on my planet. And as
to what you can do for me, you can notify your authorities of my presence. I
believe they will be interested."
Well,
Casey thought, by blind luck he's hit the best man for his purpose within at
least 20 miles. Manuel Casey was half Irish, half
Mexican. He had a half-brother who was half Irish and half assorted-American,
and the halfbrother was a bird colonel at Davis-Monthan Air Force Base in
Tucson.
He
said, "Just a minute, Mr. Garvane, I'll telephone. You, Mr. Grant, would
you want to come inside?"
"Naw,
I don't mind sun. Out in it all day ever' day. An' Garvane here, he ast me if
I'd stick with him till he was finished with what he's gotta do here. Said he'd
gimme some-
thin' purty vallable if I did. Somethin'—a 'lectrononic "
"An
electronic battery-operated portable ore indicator," Garvane said. "A
simple little device, indicates presence of a concentration of ore up to two
miles, indicates kind, grade, quantity and depth."
Casey
gulped, excused himself, and pushed through the gathering crowd into his
tavern. He had Colonel Casey on the phone in one minute, but it took him
another four minutes to convince the colonel that he was neither drunk nor
joking.
Twenty-five
minutes after that there was a noise in the sky, a noise that swelled and then
died as a four-man helicopter sat down and shut off its rotors a dozen yards
from an extraterrestrial, two men and a burro. Casey alone had had the courage
to rejoin the trio from the desert; there were other spectators, but they still
held well back.
Colonel
Casey, a major, a captain and a lieutenant who was the helicopter's pilot all
came out and ran over. The stick-man stood up, all nine feet of him; from the
effort it cost him to stand you could tell that he was used to a much lighter
gravity than Earth's. He bowed, repeated his name and the identification of
himself as an extraterrestrial and a minister plenipotentiary. Then he
apologized for sitting down again, explained why it was necessary, and sat
down.
The
colonel introduced himself and the three who had come with him. "And now,
Sir, what can we do for you?"
The
stick-man made a grimace that was probably intended as a smile. His teeth were
the same light blue as his hair and eyes.
"You
have a
cliché, 'Take
me to your leader.' I do not ask that. In fact, I must remain
here. Nor do I ask that any of your leaders be brought here to me. That would
be impolite. I am perfectly willing for you to represent them, to talk to you
and let you question me. But I do ask one thing.
"You
have tape recorders. I ask that before I talk
or answer questions you have one brought. I want to be sure that the message
your leaders eventually receive is full and accurate."
"Fine,"
the colonel said. He turned to the pilot. "Lieutenant, get on the radio
in the whirlybird and tell them to get us a tape recorder faster than possible. It can be dropped by
para----- No, that'd take longer, rigging it for a
drop. Have
them
send it by another helicopter."
The lieutenant turned to go. "Hey," the colonel said. "Also 50
yards of extension cord. We'll have to plug it in inside Manny's tavern."
The lieutenant sprinted for
the helicopter.
The
others sat and sweated a moment and then Manuel Casey stood up. "That's a
half-an-hour wait," he said, "and if we're going to sit here in the sun, who's for a bottle of cold beer? You,
Mr. Garvane?"
"It is a cold beverage, is it not? I am a bit chilly. If you have
something hot--- ?"
"Coffee, coming up.
Can I bring you a blanket?"
"No, thank you. It
will not be necessary."
Casey
left and shortly returned with a tray with half-a-dozen bottles of cold beer
and a cup of steaming coffee. The lieutenant was back by then. Casey put the
tray down and served the stick-man first, who sipped the coffee and said,
"It is delicious."
Colonel
Casey cleared his throat, "Serve our prospector friend next, Manny. As for
us—well, drinking is forbidden on duty, but it was 112 in the shade in Tucson,
and this is hotter and also is not in
the shade. Gentlemen, consider yourselves on official leave for as long as it
takes you to drink one bottle of beer, or until the tape recorder arrives,
whichever comes first."
The
beer was finished first, but by the time the last of it had vanished, the second
helicopter was within sight and sound. Casey asked the stick-man if he wanted
more coffee. The offer was politely declined. Casey looked at Dade Grant and
winked and the desert rat winked back, so Casey went in for two more bottles,
one apiece for the civilian terrestrials. Coming back he met the lieutenant
arriving with the extension cord anc' returned as far as the doorway to show
him where to plug it in.
When he came back, he saw that the second
helicopter had brought its full complement of four, besides the tape recorder.
There were, besides the pilot who had flown it, a technical sergeant who was
skilled in its operation and who was now making adjustments on it, and a
lieutenant-colonel and a warrant officer who had come along for the ride or
because they had been made curious by the request for a tape recorder to be rushed to
Cherrybell, Arizona, by air. They were standing gaping at the stick-man and
whispered conversations were going on.
The
colonel said, "Attention" quietly, but it brought complete silence.
"Please sit down, gentlemen. In a rough circle. Sergeant, if you rig your
mike in the center of the circle, will it pick up clearly what any one of us
may say?"
"Yes, Sir. I'm almost
ready."
Ten
men and one extraterrestrial humanoid sat in a rough circle, with the
microphone hanging from a small tripod in the approximate center. The humans
were sweating profusely, the humanoid shivered slightly. Just outside the
circle, the burro stood dejectedly, its head low. Edging closer, but still about
five yards away, spread out now in a semicircle, was/the entire population of
Cherrybell who had been at home at the time; the stores and the filling
stations were deserted.
The
technical sergeant pushed a button and the tape recorder's reel started to turn.
"Testing . . . testing," he said. He held down the rewind button for
a second and then pushed the playback button. "Testing . . .
testing," said the recorder's speaker. Loud and clear. The sergeant pushed
the rewind button, then the erase one to clear the tape. Then the stop button.
"When
I push the next button, Sir," he said to the colonel, "we'll be
recording."
The
colonel looked at the tall extraterrestrial, who nodded, and then the colonel
nodded at the sergeant. The sergeant pushed the recording button.
"My name is Garvane," said the
stick-man, slowly and clearly. "I am from a planet of a star which is not
listed in your star catalogs, although the globular cluster in which it is one
of 90,000 stars is known to you. It is, from here, in the direction of the
center of the galaxy at a distance of over 4000 light-years.
"However,
I am not here,as a representative of my planet or my people, but as minister
plenipotentiary of the Galactic Union, a federation of the enlightened
civilizations of the galaxy, for the good of all. It is my assignment to visit
you and decide, here and now, whether or not you are to be welcomed to join our
federation.
"You
may now ask questions freely. However, I reserve the right to postpone
answering some of them until my decision has been made. If the decision is
favorable, I will then answer all questions, including the ones I have
postponed answering meanwhile. Is that satisfactory?"
"Yes,"
said the colonel. "How did you come here? A spaceship?"
"Correct.
It is overhead right now, in orbit 22,000 miles out, so it revolves with the
earth and stays over this one spot. I am under observation from it, which is
one reason I prefer to remain here in the open. I am to signal it when I want
it to come down to pick me up."
"How
do you know our language .so fluently? Are you telepathic?"
"No,
I am not. And nowhere in the galaxy is any race telepathic except among its own
members. I was taught your language for this purpose. We have had observers
among you for many centuries—by we, I
mean the Galactic Union, of course. Quite obviously, I could not pass as an
Earthman, but there are other races who can. Incidentally, they are not spies,
or agents; they have in no way tried to affect you; they are observers and that
is all."
"What
benefits do we get from joining your union, if we are asked and if we
accept?" the colonel asked.
"First, a quick course
in the fundamental social sciences which will end your tendency to fight among
yourselves and end or at least control your aggressions. After we are satisfied
that you have accomplished that and it is safe for you to do so, you will be
given space travel, and many other things, as rapidly as you are able to
assimilate them."
"And if we are not
asked, or refuse?"
"Nothing. You will be left alone; even
our observers will be withdrawn. You will work out your own fate—either you
will render your planet uninhabited and uninhabitable within the next century,
or you will master social science yourselves and again be candidates for
membership and again be offered membership. We will check from time to time and
if and when it appears certain that you are not going to destroy yourselves,
you will again be approached."
"Why
the hurry, now that you're here? Why can't you stay long enough for our
leaders, as you call them, to talk to you in person?"
"Postponed.
The reason is not important but it is complicated, and I simply do not wish to
waste time explaining."
"Assuming
your decision is favorable, how will we'get in touch with you to let you know our decision? You know enough about us, obviously, to know that / can't make
it."
"We
will know your decision through our observers. One condition of acceptance is
full and uncensored publication in your newspapers of this interview, verbatim
from the tape we are now using to record it. Also of all deliberations and
decisions of your government."
"And
other governments? We can't decide unilaterally for the world."
"Your
government has been chosen for a start. If you accept, we shall furnish the
techniques that will cause the others to fall in line quickly—and those
techniques do not involve force or the threat of force."
"They must be some techniques," said the colonel wryly,
"if
they'll make one certain country I don't have to name fall into line without
even a threat."
"Sometimes the offer of reward is more
significant than the use of a threat. Do you think the country you do not wish
to name would like your country colonizing planets of far stars before they
even reach the moon? But that is a minor point, relatively. You may trust the
techniques."
"It
sounds almost too good to be true. But you said that you are to decide, here
and now, whether or not we are to be invited to join. May I ask on what factors
you will base your decision?"
"One
is that I am—was, since I already have—to check your degree of xenophobia. In
the loose sense in which you use it, that means fear of strangers. We have a
word that has no counterpart in your vocabulary: it means fear of and revulsion
towards aliens.
I—or at least a member of
my race—was chosen to make the first overt contact with you. Because I am what
you would call roughly humanoid—as you are what I would call roughly humanoid—I
am probably more horrible, more repulsive, to you than many completely different
species would be. Because to you I am a caricature of a human being, I am more
horrible to you than a being who bears no remote resemblance to you.
"You
may think you do feel horror at me, and revulsion, but believe
me, you have passed that test. There are races
in the galaxy who can never be members of the federation, no matter how they
advance otherwise, because they are violently and incurably xenophobic; they
could never face or talk to an alien of any species. They would either run
screaming from him or try to kill him instantly. From watching you and these
people"—he waved a long arm at the civilian population of Cherrybell not
far outside the circle of the conference—"I know you feel revulsion at the
sight of me, but believe me, it is relatively slight and certainly curable. You
have passed that test satisfactorily."
"And are there other
tests?"
"One other. But I think it is time that
I-------- " Instead of
finishing
the sentence, the stick-man lay back flat on the sand and closed his eyes.
The
colonel started to his feet. "What in hell?" he said. He walked quickly around the mike's
tripod and bent over the recumbent extraterrestrial, putting an ear to the
bloody-appearing chest.
As
he raised his head, Dade Grant, the grizzled prospector, chuckled. "No
heartbeat, Colonel, because no heart. But I may leave him as a souvenir for you
and you'll find much more interesting things inside him than heart and guts.
Yes, he is a puppet whom I have been operating, as your Edgar Bergen operates
his—what's his name?—oh yes, Charlie McCarthy. Now that he has served his
purpose, he is deactivated. You can go back to your place, Colonel."
Colonel Casey moved back
slowly. "Why?"
he asked.
Dade
Grant was peeling off his beard and wig. He rubbed a cloth across his face to
remove makeup and was revealed as a handsome young man. He said, "What he
told you, or what you were told through him, was true as far as it went. He is
only a simulacrum, yes, but he is an exact duplicate of a member of one of the
intelligent races of the galaxy, the one toward whom you would be disposed—if
you were violently and incurably xenophobic—to be most horrified by, according
to our psychologists. But we did not bring a real member of his species to make
first contact because they have a phobia of their own, agoraphobia—fear of
space. They are highly civilized and members in good standing of the
federation, but they never leave their own planet.
"Our
observers assure us you don't have that phobia.
But they were unable to judge in advance the degree of your xenophobia, and the
only way to test it was to bring along something in lieu of someone to test it
against, and presumably to let him make the initial contact."
The
colonel sighed audibly. "I can't say this doesn't relieve me in one way. We
could get along with humanoids, yes, and we will when we have to. But I'll
admit it's a relief to learn that the master race of the galaxy is, after all,
human instead of only humanoid. What is the second test?"
"You are undergoing it now. Call me--- " He snapped his
fingers.
"What's the name of Bergen's second-string puppet, after Charlie
McCarthy?"
The
colonel hesitated, but the tech sergeant supplied the answer. "Mortimer
Snerd."
"Right. So call me Mortimer Snerd, and
now I think it is
time that I----- "He lay
back flat on the sand and closed his
eyes
just as the stick-man had done a few minutes before.
The
burro raised its head and put it into the circle over the shoulder of the tech
sergeant.
"That
takes care of the puppets, Colonel," it said. "And now, what's this
bit about it being important that the master race be human or at least
humanoid? What is a master race?"
THE ROOM
BY RAY RUSSELL
Ray
Russell is "a writer with a strong sense of the metaphysical ultimates of
life" according to a review of one of his books; while, on the other hand,
"Mr. Russell's forte is the lampoon," according to a review of
another of his books— testimonials to his protean range, or what Russell
himself calls "the curse of versatility." Curse or blessing, he
assuredly is one of the most versatile and productive of playboyV
contributors, having
written upward of a half-hundred novelettes, short stories, satires, articles
and verse features for our pages, both during and after his seven-year tenure
as Executive Editor of playboy. His books include "The Case Against
Satan" "Sar-donicus and Other Stories," "The Little Lexicon
of Love" and "Unholy Trinity," a group of three short Gothic
novels. Since 1961, he has also written for most of the major Hollywood studios,
among them, Metro-Goldwyn-Mayer, 20th Century-Fox, Columbia, Universal, Warner
Brothers. His stories have appeared in three of Judith Merril's annual volumes
of "The Year's Best Science Fiction." The following story is Russell
at his most ingeniously compact and enormously effective.
CRANE
AWOKE with the Tingle Toothfoam song racing through his head. Tingle, he
realized,, must have bought last right's Sleepcoo time. He frowned at the
Sleepcoo speaker in the wall next to his pillow. Then he stared at the ceiling:
it was =¿11
blank. Must be pretty
early, he told himself. As the Cc£zz slogan slowly faded in on the ceiling, he
averted his eyes and got out of bed. He avoided looking at the printed messages
on the sheets, the pillowcases, the blankets, his robe, ird the innersoles of
his slippers. As his feet touched the floor, the TV set went on. It would go
off, automatically, at ten p.m. Crane was perfectly free to switch channels,
but he saw no point in that.
In
the bathroom, he turned on the light and the TV's audio was immediately piped
in to him. He switched the light off and performed his first morning ritual in
the dark. But he needed light in order to shave, and as he turned it on again,
the audio resumed. As he shaved, the mirror flickered instantaneously once
every three seconds. It was not enough to disturb his shaving, but Crane found
himself suddenly thinking of the rich warm goodness of the Coffizz competitor,
Teatang. A few moments later, he was reading the ads for Now, the gentle
instant laxative, and Stop, the bourbon-flavored paregoric, which were printed
on alternating sheets of the bathroom tissue.
As
he was dressing, the phone rang. He let it ring. He knew what he would hear if
he picked it up: "Good morning! Have you had your Krakkeroonies yet?
Packed with protein and
----- " Or, maybe, <cWhy wait for the draft? Enlist now in
the
service of your choice and cash in on the
following enlistee
benefits------ " Or:
"Feeling under the weather? Coronary dis-
ease kills four out of five! The early symptoms are--------------------- "
On
the other hand, it could
be an important personal
call. He picked up the phone and said hello. "Hello yourself,"
answered a husky, insinuating feminine voice. "Bob?"
"Yes."
"Bob Crane?" "Yes, who's
this?"
"My name's Judy. I know you, but you
don't know me.
Have you felt logy lately, out of sorts---- "
He put down the
phone.
That settled it. He pulled a crumpled slip of paper from his desk drawer. There
was an address on it. Hitherto, he had been hesitant about following up this
lead. But this morning he felt decisive. He left his apartment and hailed a
cab.
The
back of the cab's front seat immediately went on and he found himself watching
the Juice-O-Vescent Breakfast Hour. He opened a newspaper the last passenger
had left behind. His eyes managed to slide over the four-color Glitterink ads
with their oblique homosexual, sadistic, masochistic, incestuous and autoerotic
symbols, and he tried to concentrate on a news story about the initiating of
another government housing program, but his attempts to ignore the Breeze
Deodorant ads printed yellow-on-white between the lines were fruitless. The cab
reached its destination. Crane paid the driver with a bill bearing a picture of
Abraham Lincoln on one side and a picture of a naked woman bathing with
Smoothie Soap on the other. He entered a rather run-down frame building, found
the correct door, and pressed the doorbell. He could hear, inside the flat, the
sound of an old-fashioned buzzer, not a chime playing the EetMeet or Jetfly or
Krispy Kola jingles. Hope filled him.
A
slattern answered the door, regarded him suspiciously, and asked,
"Yeah?"
"I—uh—Mrs.
Ferman? I got your name from a friend, Bill Seavers? I understand you—" his voice dropped low "—rent rooms."
"Get outta here; you wanna get me in
trouble? I'm a
private citizen, a respectable "
"I'll,
I'll fay. I have a good job. I-- "
"How much?"
"Two hundred? That's twice what I'm
paying at the housing project."
"Come
on in." Inside, the woman locked, bolted and chained the door. "One
room," she said. "Toilet and shower down the hall, you share it with two others. Get rid of your own garbage.
Provide your own heat in the winter. You want hot water, it's fifty extra. No
cooking in the rooms. No guests. Three months' rent in advance, cash."
"I'll
take it," Crane said quickly; then added, "I can turn off the
TV?"
"There ain't no TV. No
phone neither."
"No
all-night Sleepcoo next to the bed? No sublims in the mirrors? No Projecto in
the ceiling or walls?"
"None of that
stuff."
Crane
smiled. He counted out the rent into her dirty hand. "When can I move
in?"
She
shrugged. "Any time. Here's the key. Fourth floor, front. There ain't no
elevator."
Crane left, still smiling, the
key clutched in his hand.
Mrs.
Ferman picked up the phone and dialed a number. "Hello?" she said.
"Ferman reporting. We have a new one, male, about thirty."
"Fine,
thank you," answered a voice. "Begin treatment at once, Dr.
Ferman."
DIAL
"F" FOR FRANKENSTEIN
BY ARTHUR C. CLARKE
Stories
by Arthur C. Clarke have an unsettling habit of coming true. {See his "I
Remember Babylon," earlier in this volume.) "Dial 'F' for Frankenstein" is his contribution to
science fiction's vast corpus of work on the revolt of the machines, a theme
that was first explored in 1920 by Czech playwright Karel Capek in his
"fantastic melodrama" {his own description), "R.U.R.,"
wherein the word "robot" was first used in the meaning of a
mechanical man. But Capek, writing before the advent of today's transistors
and highly sophisticated data processing systems, was interested in political
allegory, not firmly fact-based prophecy, and although his theatrical novelty
titillated, nobody believed it for a moment—probably not even Capek. The following story
is all too believable. It is the final story in this book, and it begins in the
same way as the first story with the omen-laden ringing of a telephone bell. If you never feel quite the same about
telephones again, blame Messrs. Lange-laan and Clarke, who, like the other
authors represented between these covers, are masters of disquietude and science-fictioneers par excellence.
A
QUARTER OF A BILLION people picked up their receivers, to listen for a few seconds with annoyance or
perplexity. Those who had been awakened in the middle of the night assumed that
some far-off friend was calling, over the satellite telephone network that had
gone into service, with such a blaze of publicity, the day before. But there
was no voice on the line; only a sound that to many seemed like the roaring of
the sea—to others, like the vibrations "of harp strings in the wind. And
there were many more, in that moment, who recalled a secret sound of
childhood—the noise of blood pulsing through the veins, heard when a shell is
cupped over the ear. Whatever it was, it lasted no more than 20 seconds; then it was replaced by the dialing tone.
The
world's subscribers cursed, muttered "Wrong
number" and hung up. Some tried to dial a complaint, but the line seemed
busy. In a few hours, everyone had forgotten the incident—except those whose
duty it was to worry about such things.
At
the Post Office Research Station, the argument had been going on all morning,
and had got nowhere. It continued unabated through the lunch break, when the
hungry engineers poured into the little cafe across the road.
"I
still think," said Willy Smith, the solid-state electronics man,
"that it was a temporary surge of current, caused when the satellite
network was switched in."
"It
was obviously something
to do with the
satellites," agreed Jules Reyner, circuit designer. "But why the time
delay? They were plugged in at midnight; the ringing was two hours later—as we
all know to our cost." He yawned violently.
"What
do you think, Doc?" asked Bob Andrews, computer
programmer. "You've been very quiet all morning. Surely you've got some
idea?"
Dr.
John Williams, head of the Mathematics Division, stirred uneasily.
"Yes," he said.
"I have. But you won't take it seriously."
"That
doesn't matter. Even if it's as crazy as those science-fiction yarns you write
under a pseudonym, it may give us some leads."
Williams blushed, but not very hard. Everyone
knew about his stories, and he wasn't ashamed of them. After all, they had been collected in book form. (Remainder at five shillings; he still had
a couple of hundred copies.)
"Very
well," he said, doodling on the tablecloth. "This is something I've
been wondering about for years. Have you ever considered the analogy between an
automatic telephone exchange and the human brain?"
"Who
hasn't thought of it?" scoffed one of his listeners. "That idea must
go back to Graham Bell."
"Possibly;
I never said it was original. But I do say it's time we started taking it
seriously." He squinted balefully at the fluorescent tubes above the
table; they were needed on this foggy winter day. "What's wrong with the
damn lights? They've been flickering for the last five minutes."
"Don't
bother about that; Maisie's probably forgotten to pay her electricity bill.
Let's hear more about your theory.*'
"Most
of it isn't theory; it's plain fact. We know that the human brain is a system
of switches—neurons—interconnected in a very elaborate fashion by nerves. An
automatic telephone exchange is also a system of switches—selectors, and so
forth— connected together with wires."
'
"Agreed,"
said Smith. "But that analogy won't get you very far. Aren't there about
fifteen billion neurons in the brain? That's a lot more than the number of
switches in an autoexchange."
Williams'
answer was interrupted by the scream of a low-flying jet; he had to wait until
the café had ceased to vibrate before he could
continue.
"Never heard them fly that low," Andrews grumbled. "Thought it was against
regulations."
"So
it is, but don't worry—London Airport Control will catch him."
"I
doubt it," said Reyner. "That was London
Airport, bringing in a Concorde on Ground Approach. But I've never heard one so
low, either. Glad I wasn't aboard."
"Are
we, or are we not,
going to get on with this
blasted discussion?" demanded Smith.
"You're
right about the fifteen billion neurons in the human brain," continued
Williams unabashed. "And that's the
whole point. Fifteen billion sounds a large number, but it isn't. Round about
the 1960s, there were more than that number of individual switches in the
world's autoexchanges. Today, there are approximately five times as many."
"I
see," said Reyner, very slowly. "And as of yesterday, they've all
become capable of full interconnection, now that the satellite links have gone
into service."
"Precisely."
There
was silence for a moment, apart from the distant clanging of a fire-engine
bell.
"Let
me get this straight," said Smith. "Are you suggesting that the world
telephone system is now a giant brain?"
"That's
putting it crudely—anthropomorphically. I prefer to think of it in terms of
critical size." Williams held his hands out in front of him, fingers
partly closed.
"Here
are two lumps of U 235; nothing happens as long as you keep them apart. But
bring them together"—he suited the action to the words—"and you have
something very
different from one bigger
lump of uranium. You have a hole half a mile across.
"It's
the same with our telephone networks; until today they've been largely
independent, autonomous. But now we've suddenly multiplied the connecting
links—the networks have all merged together—and we've reached
criticality."
"And
just what does criticality mean in this case?" asked Smith.
"For want of a better
word—consciousness."
"A weird sort of consciousness," said Reyner. "What would it use
for sense organs?"
"Well,
all the radio and TV stations in the world would be feeding information into
it, through their landlines. That should give it something to think about! Then there would be all the
data stored in all the computers; it would have access to that—and to the
electronic libraries, the radar tracking systems, the telemetering in the
automatic factories. Oh, it would have enough sense organs! We can't begin to
imagine its picture of the world; but it would be infinitely richer and more
complex than ours."
"Granted
all this, because it's an entertaining idea," said Reyner, "what
could it do except think? It couldn't go anywhere; it
would have no limbs."
"Why
should it want to travel? It would already be everywhere! And every piece of
remotely controlled electrical equipment on the planet could act as a
limb."
"Now
I understand that time delay," interjected Andrews. "It was conceived
at midnight, but it wasn't born until 1 :jp
this morning. The noise that woke us all up was—its birth cry."
His
attempt to sound facetious was not altogether convincing, and nobody smiled.
OverEead, the lights continued their annoying flicker, which seemed to be
getting worse. Then there was an interruption from the front of the café, as Jim Small of Power Supplies made his usual
boisterous entry.
"Look
at this, fellows," he grinned, waving a piece of paper in front of his
colleagues. "I'm rich. Ever seen a bank balance like than"
Dr.
Williams took the proffered statement, glanced down the columns, and read the
balance aloud: "Credit £999,999,897.87."
"Nothing
very odd about that," he continued, above the general amusement. "I'd
say it means the computer's made a slight mistake. That sort of thing was
happening all the time, just after the banks converted to the decimal
system."
"I know. I know," said Jim,
"but don't spoil my fun. I'm going to frame this statement—and what would
happen if I drew a check for a few million, on the strength of this? Could I
sue the bank if it bounced?"
"Not
on your life," answered Reyner. "I'll take a bet that the banks
thought of that
years ago, and protected
themselves somewhere down in the small print. But by the way—when did you get
that statement?"
"In
the noon delivery; it comes straight to the office, so that my wife doesn't
have a chance of seeing it."
"Hmm—that
means it was computed early this morning. Certainly after midnight . . ."
"What are you driving
at? And why all the long faces?"
No
one answered him; he had started a new hare, and the hounds were in full cry.
"Does
anyone here know about automated banking systems?" asked Willy Smith.
"How are they tied together?"
"Like everything else these days,"
said Bob Andrews.
"They're all in the same network—the computers talk to one
another all over the world. It's a point for you, John. If there
was real trouble, that's one of the first places
I'd expect it.
Besides the phone system itself, of course." 11
"No
one answered the question I asked before Jim came in," complained Reyner.
"What would this supermind actually do} Would
it be friendly—hostile—indifferent? Would it even know that we exist, or would
it consider the electronic signals it's handling to be the only reality?"
"I
see you're beginning to believe me," said Williams with a certain grim
satisfaction. "I can only answer your question by asking another. What
does a newborn baby do? It starts looking for food." He glanced up at the
flickering lights. "My God," he said slowly, as if a thought had just
struck him. "There's only one food it would need—electricity."
"This
nonsense has gone far enough," said Smith. "What the devil's happened
to our lunch? We gave our orders twenty minutes ago."
Everyone ignored him.
"And
then," said Reyner, taking up where Williams had left off, "it would
start looking around, and stretching its limbs. In fact, it would start to
play, like any growing baby."
"And babies break things," said someone, very softly.
"It
would have enough toys, heaven knows. That Concorde that went over just now.
The automated production lines. The traffic lights in our streets."
"Funny
you should mention that," interjected Small. "Something's happened to
the traffic outside—it's been stopped for the last ten minutes. Looks like a
big jam."
"I guess there's a
fire somewhere—I heard an engine."
"I've
heard two—and what sounded like an explosion over toward the industrial estate.
Hope it's nothing serious."
"Maisie!!!
What about some candles? We can't see a thing!"
"I've
just remembered—this place has an all-electric kitchen. We're going to get cold
lunch, if we get any lunch at all."
"At
least we can read the-newspaper while we're waiting. Is that the latest edition
you've got there, Jim?"
"Yes—haven't had time to look at it yet.
Hmm—there do
seem to have been a lot of
odd accidents this morning—railway
signals jammed—water main blown up through failure of
relief valve—dozens of complaints about last night's wrong
numbers---- "
He turned the page, and
became suddenly silent.
"What's the
matter?"
Without
a word, Small handed over the paper. Only the front page made sense. Throughout
the interior, column after column was a mass of printer's pie—with, here and
there, a few incongruous advertisements making islands of sanity in a sea of
gibberish. They had obviously been set up as independent blocks, and had
escaped the scrambling that had overtaken the text around them.
"So this is where long-distance
typesetting and autodistribution have brought us," grumbled Andrews.
"I'm afraid Fleet Street's been putting too many eggs in one electronic
basket."
"So
have we all, I'm afraid," said Williams, very solemnly. "So have we
all."
"If
I can get a word in edgeways, in time to stop the mob hysteria which seems to
be infecting this table," said Smith loudly and firmly, "I'd like to
point out that there's nothing to worry about—even if John's ingenious fantasy
is correct. We only have to switch off the satellites—and we'll be back where
we were yesterday."
"Prefrontal
lobotomy," muttered Williams. "I'd thought of that."
"Eh?
Oh yes—cutting out slabs of the brain. That would certainly do the trick.
Expensive, of course, and we'd have to go back to sending telegrams to each
other. But civilization would survive."
From not too far away,
there was a short, sharp explosion.
"I
don't like this," said Andrews nervously. "Let's hear what the old
B.B.C.'s got to say—the one-o'clock news has just started."
He
reached into his briefcase and pulled out a transistor radio.
"—unprecedented number of industrial accidents, as well as the unexplained
launching of three salvos of guided missiles from military installations in the
United States. Several airports have had to suspend operations owing to the
erratic behavior of their radars, and the banks and stock exchanges have closed
because their information-processing systems have become completely
unreliable." ("You're telling me," muttered Small, while the
others shushed him.) "One moment, please—there's a news flash coming
through . . . Here it is. We have just been informed that all control over the
newly installed communication satellites has been lost. They are no longer
responding to commands from the ground. According to . . ."
The B.B.C. went off the air; even the carrier
wave died. Andrews reached for the tuning knob, and twisted it round the dial.
Over the whole band, the ether was silent.
Presently
Reyner said, in a voice not far from hysteria: "That prefrontal lobotomy
was a good idea, John. Too bad that baby's already thought of it."
Williams rose slowly to his
feet.
"Let's
get back to the lab," he said. "There must be an answer somewhere."
But
he knew already that it was far, far too late. For Homo sapiens, the telephone
bell had tolled.
INDEX OF AUTHORS
Atherton, John |
338 |
Ballard, J. G. |
365 |
Beaumont, Charles |
40, 274 |
Bloch, Robert |
179 |
Bradbury, Ray |
75 |
Brown, Fredric |
378 |
Clarke, Arthur C. |
166, 394 |
Davidson, Avram |
359 |
Finney, Jack |
293 |
Friedman, Bruce Jay |
61, 155 |
Grove, Walt |
187 |
Langelaan, George |
1 |
Neal, H. C. |
286 |
Nissenson, Hugh |
320 |
Nourse, Alan E. |
215 |
Pohl, Frederik |
206, 268 |
Purdy,KenW. |
140 |
Russell, Ray |
390 |
Sheckley, Robert |
46, 254 |
Slesar, Henry |
244, 314 |
Sturgeon, Theodore |
221 |
Tenn, William |
101 |
Thomas, Theodore L. |
250 |
Webb, Leland |
130 |
Wolfe, Bernard |
84, 343 |