TRUE CHANGE B: Write on your list, to be me, to be me, that's the only thing that appears on your list. Q: I know that's all I have to do; I just still physically want things. B: To be ME! Write it on the list, to be me. Q: Got it. B: All right, now, listen: all the things that you refer to as your career, they are not your career. Any goal you want, that you have listed before, it is not your goal. Projects, things, whatever they may be, they are not what you want. You have only one career, you have only one goal, and that is to be you. THAT is your career, that is your *purpose*, it is your mission, it is your path, it is the ONLY thing that you need to do, is to be you. Now how you choose to express being you, may be many of those things you wrote on that list. To sing, to act, to do this, to do that, to do this project, to do that project, so on and so forth, but they are not your goals, they are not your career. You are your career, you, you, you, that's it; it is the only one you have ever had, have now or will ever have. All of you, it's the only career you have, the only point in being this you is to be this you as fully as you can. So all of these ideas that you typically call careers, goals, these are simply /modalities/ of expressing the career of being you, that's your career. These are just ways of expressing it, that's all they are, that's all they are; they are not things to be attracted, they are modes of expressing the joy of being you. There is no reason to do them other than that, there is no reason to do them because you think that doing it will bring you something. That is short-circuiting their ability to do so. You do not do the things you do because they will have an effect; you do the things you do because they are the result, they are the effect of being fully you. Q: Well, I guess what it is is that I want a life that is different than doing anything mundane whatsoever... B: Listen to your /definition/; there is no such thing as a boring situation. Q: I know it's my perception of it. B: Yes it is, and I understand what you mean, but all you have to do is just be you, believe me, knowing you, it will be unlike anything else's likeness. So if you spent the time and energy worrying that you might accidentally do something that is mundane, where do you think all of your energy is going? Into being mundane. Q: Into being mundane. B: Yes, and that is still only being created by your definition of it, it still only /appears/ to be mundane because that is where your focus is. So let all that go, you don't have to /try/ to avoid being mundane, just be yourself and you'll be ecstatic and everything in your life will be reflective of being ecstatic. It can not be by definition any other way if you're just being you, the true you cannot, by definition, be mundane to you. The only way you can experience the so-called block or, what you are calling, stretches of mundane time are because you are trying to avoid creating them and thus, paradoxically, you fill your life with that. Q: I know. B: Because you are thinking that you have to cross that gulf to get to /something/ that represents an ability to finally express who and what you are; when all you have to do is just express who and what you are in whatever way you want to. But don't make those things the goals, it is not a goal to be able to express yourself that way, it is your natural spin-off expression of just being you, it will unfold naturally if you just be you. And every moment, whatever situation is presented to you, just be YOU as best you can in that situation, and everything will spin off and unfold and opportunities will come to you that will allow you to continue to express yourself in ways that are representative of YOU! Q: Actually I do that a lot of the time and there are a lot of wonderful things happening. B: I know that you have chosen to do that, the question is, why don't you allow yourself to always do that? Because you have a definition that says there should be gaps. You have a definition of things that creates the appearance of gaps, blocks, whatever you want to call them. Q: I have to work hard to pay for the things that I want, probably? B: Did I say that? Q: No, but I'm saying... I'm trying to think what that block or belief might be. B: All right, you are attempting to define the idea. Q: I couldn't just manifest that without some work, you know some ethic involved or something. B: Remember this, again, whatever classically, colloquially might, oh well, by some people on your planet, perish the thought, be defined as work and might actually be enjoyable to you, sometimes. Q: It is. B: Then trust that only those forms of work that won't be "work" to you will be what your kit contains. Again, you are attempting to think of yourself as a collection of parts that have to somehow be forced together to work correctly, when you already work flawlessly if you would just let yourself do so. By discontinuing to assume that you could contain something superfluous that gets in your way, an extra component that would force you to have to do something that isn't natural to get what is naturally yours, that doesn't make any sense. You understand? Q: Yes. B: It does not make "creational" sense that you would have to do something that isn't part of your ecstasy to create ecstasy in your life. It makes no sense. Q: I know and I just can't make that shift, that little.... B: Yes, you can. Q: Well, I WILL. You bet I will. B: I'm not going to bet on it. The idea is, however, is that you need to really see every single moment as a part of your ecstasy and not an interruption in it, no matter how it appears. Remember the first, as you say, rule of thumb, you can not discern that you have changed by keying off how your reality looks, you have to determine you have changed by how you respond to your reality, no matter how it looks. Then is when you will allow your reality to *reflect* the true change that you are willing to demonstrate, by responding according to way you prefer to, no matter how it works, that's the paradox. If you really keep reacting the same way because it keeps looking the same, you haven't really changed. But if you choose to respond differently, because you know you are different, that is what makes the difference in reality, that's what allows it to shift. But, as soon as you say, "Oh, I didn't get what I expected, I thought I was different, I thought I had changed, but I didn't see what I wanted to see, OUT THERE." Q: No, I realize the world of effect, and believe me there have been some major changes in terms of my perception... B: Oh, I believe you. Q: ...and I just have more work to do that's all. B: I am not discounting what you have been able to understand, but you are the one that raised the issue. Q: I want it /all,/ that's all. B: You are all of it, you are all of it, notice the differentiation, I didn't say, "you have it all." Q: No. B: I said, "you are all of it." You have to allow, here's the paradox, you have to allow /what is/ to be perfect before /what is/ can become something more. If you don't love yourself as you are, TOTALLY, UNCONDITIONALLY, you cannot become the next you. And, unconditional doesn't mean unconditionally except for this one condition. It means unconditionally, you must accept what is, before what is can transform into what will be, or what the next what is, can be. Q: OK, thank you so much. B: We thank you.