SLIPPERY TRACKS 10-86 Q: I need some assistance in transforming a situation I created myself in... B: Speak up so that all may share Q: OK. I need some assistance in transforming a situation that I've put myself into. B: All right. Q: And it has to do with the ... I have allowed myself to be put into a situation where I'm being required to deliver a sum of money to a person. And if I don't do that, being threatened with some dire consequences, which I have assigned dire consequences, which I have assigned and don't want to occur, and want to transform the thing. I've been having a hell of lot of trouble with it. A lot of fear, up all night, terror, things of this sort. Racked myself with this kind of situation; haven't done this in quite long time. And I just came to you to get some assistance. B: All right. First of all, face your fear squarely. Q: Ok. B: In your terminology, what is, in your terms, starting from beginning, the worst thing that possibly occur? Q: The... that's fascinating, it alters as I look at it. B: Oh, very good. Q: It changes. But basically it is an on-going apparently uncontrollable terror and effect point, and constantly being put at effect (allowing myself to be put at effect) with apparently ongoing negative feelings and sensations on an on-going basis, and being constantly, over a long period of time, being trapped into this thing. B: Allow us to ask you in a very colloquial way, are you in any immediate physical danger? Q: No, not immediate physical danger. B: Have you run through different conversations, different interactions, and different communications that you might be able to co-create with all the other individuals involved that may all allow a different outcome to occur? Q: Thousands of them. In fact, some of it totally on automatic, occurring. I seem to become the loser in these conversations. In this particular reality, when I went to put forth the conversation, the reflection was that none of it was being willing to be received, and so I just continued to be there, and allowing the person to be right in their reality. B: All right. Why do you choose to place yourself in this situation? Q: I love the people, and I want to be of service. B: How do you wish to be of service? Q: I want them to transform into a broader, saner, more loving, least fixed viewpoint, if they choose to. B: Would you please say that once again. Loudly. Q: I would like them to transform into a more loving, expansive, least fixed point of view, if they choose to; which I'd think they would choose to... B: If they choose to. Q: Yes. B: If they choose to. Why is it so important to you that they do choose it? Q: Because it appears that if they don't . . . B: Yes. Q: I am the effect of their holding that viewpoint because I hold myself into... B: Why do you have anything at all to do with what they choose to do? Q: Because I put myself into that situation. B: Talk to me about physics. How do you actually have, in any way, shape, or form anything at all to do with what they choose to do? Are you responsible for their choices? Q: No. B: Then how does anything you do determine what they choose to do? Q: It doesn't determine what they choose to do. B: All right. Then you are not the cause of what they are experiencing. Q: I never considered that I was. B: All right. Q: I'm the cause of what I'm experiencing. B: Oh, yes. Q: I'm trying to transform my own... B: Yes. You are the cause of what you are experiencing primarily, in a sense, because you think you have to be the cause of what you want them to experience other than what they are already experiencing. Q: Once again. Sorry. Didn't duplicate. Once again. B: All right. You are the cause of what you are experiencing, as we perceive it so far in this conversation, primarily because you also desire to be the cause of what they may choose to do or not do. If you recognize that you are not the cause of what they choose to do, then how can you be the cause of anything else that they might choose to do? Q: I'm sorry. I tracked with you right up to the last... B: All right. These tracks are slippery, aren't they? (Aud. laughs) Q: Apparently so. Apparently so. B: All right. You say you recognize that you are not responsible for the decisions, yes? Q: Yes. B: Then if you are not responsible for their decisions, then that goes both ways. Though you may reflect to them your reality, the idea of your desire for them to choose to share your reality is indirectly a desire for you to be responsible for them to choose something. To base it on you, to be responsible for their decision. Q: I see. B: Which your aren't. Q: True. B: The consternation within you is simply that you do, in fact, wish to be responsible for their decision. Q: That's correct. B: In a positive way. Q: That's correct. B: But you will never will be. You will be responsible for your decision. They will be responsible for their decision, and you can be responsible to them, and allow them to perhaps, if they choose to, share certain ideas within the decision you have made; but you are only responsible to them by being responsible for yourself and not for them. Q: I understand. B: Now, if you are basing your understanding of your own worth upon whether or not they choose to understand you, then you are only basing your worth upon the decisions they may or may not make. And this can cause a great deal of consternation within you, because you are not determining what your worth is for yourself. But letting them decide what you are worth by saying that whatever they decide to do will be how you choose to determine what is real for you -- in terms of your feelings about the situation. You follow me? Q: I do, Bashar. B: The idea is a paradoxical one to some degree; for you will find that the idea of the individual who is truly living the life they know to be true for them has a very strong compassion that other individuals can find out what they know to be true, and can create the same peace in their lives. But paradoxically, along with that comes the wisdom and knowledge that there is in no way, shape, or form that you can show that to them until they're ready to see it. So, the best way to be assistance is to simply continue to constantly be that idea, so you will always be around to look at, should they make the decision to find someone to look at that which represents that idea. But it will be of no concern to you whether they choose it now, ten years from now, a hundred years from now, a hundred lifetimes from now, because to you it's all one and the same. Now is now. If you're living your life as now, is now, then you will not care when they change, and you will not make it a point of contention within you that will stretch out your existence interminably. You are creating more sense of time for yourself by focusing upon the amount of time they are creating for themselves to make a change. And thus, you are sharing their misery in that sense. You follow me? Q: Yes, I do. B: If you live in the now, you will not experience the time in the time way. You will simply seek changes when and where they occur, as they interact with you, whenever they do, will be just fine with you. Whenever that might be. And you will simply lead the life you know to be true for you, and not concern yourself as to when they may or may not make the decision to share that said same idea with you. For to you it is all infinite and it's all now and one and the same thing, and you understand that they are learning what they need to learn, and you are learning what you need to learn, and everyone is doing just fine. Because everyone is their own unique path. And again, paradoxically, the moment you stop waiting for them, then lo and behold, before you know it, there they will be. Time will have passed, as you say, (snap of fingers) like that. You follow me? Q: I do. And this is very helpful, Bashar. I haven't fully handled it yet, but you've definitely given me a way to do so. My attention seems to go back to the mechanics of... I've made an agreement to call tonight with the money or these things -- this individual will do these things. B: What things? Q: Order me into a trial situation. B: All right. So what? Q: Yeah. B: Big deal. Can you not explain yourself, to the best of your ability, in ways that would simply allow you to then attract to yourself whatever situations, whatever objects, whatever symbols, whatever tools are necessary in your life to allow the situation to become alleviated? Q: Providing I cease creating individuals in that situation that will not listen. B: Will not listen to what? Q: To my sharing. B: Why do they have to listen to your sharing? Q: I didn't duplicate what you said then. I went off on an incorrect... B: Recognize that what you have to say you will say from your heart because you believe it to be true. Q: Yes. B: As long as you believe that you are functioning within your integrity then the idea of the situations you attract to yourselves can all be seen, no matter what their previous definition, to be opportunities of positive light for you. Do not imagine that the scenario you are co-creating with them has to be negative, and then it won't turn out to be. You follow me? Q: I sure do. B: Go through it. Live through it. If that is what you create, then live through it, knowing that you are exploring exactly what you want to explore. The more you continue to deny it, and attempt to remove it from you, the less you will allow yourself to learn from it in a positive way. You follow me? Q: I do. B: It will change and it will transform, only if you go along with the flow. If you fight it, that is what wears you out. That is what makes it seem as if you are not heard. What it is that needs to hear you will always hear you. Always. Q: When you say go along with the flow, you don't mean necessarily, that I would comply with their demands. B: Depends on the idea as to whether their so-called demands are in line with the reality and the choices you have given to yourself. Q: They are not. B: If their demands represent the only opportunities or the only paths you feel that are open to you, then obviously they are in line. If you find that you have attracted other opportunities in your life, still functioning within your integrity, then they are available to you and take them. But if you find that you have no other choice other than to go the path that their demands represent, then why not simply assume that that is your choice as well, and go with it? Q: OK. B: Let it flow. Flow with it. Only when you flow with the energy can you change it. No one is listening because you are fighting the energy. If you flow with the energy, then you are traveling at the same rate and changing it is no big deal, because everything that is moving at the same rate relative to yourself, seems to be standing perfectly still. So you can move anything, anywhere. If you fight it, then it seems as if events are washing over you, overwhelming you, going faster than you can handle. And then it doesn't seem as if you can change it to the way you desire to be. But that is because you're not operating on the same rate or wavelength, you are not going with the circumstances. Q: OK. And I follow you. Now, let me see if I translate this right, when I go, if I'm flowing with it and this person says you deliver this money tonight or... and I deliver that money; but if I don't really... B: If you know in your openness that if that is what is really necessary in your life, then you will attract a situation wherein you will have the money. If you are open in that way, in love and light, and act upon whatever opportunities present themselves to you, and none of those opportunities bring what that individual believes to be what they need, then simply trust it does not need to be there, and whatever the consequences of that manifestations, it will still represent the flow as you need to follow it. Q: The truth is I don't, in my integrity, want to flow that money. B: Do you have it to flow? Q: No, I do not. B: All right. Q: But I could engage in actions to get it, to borrow it. B: All right. Q: I don't wish to, but I also don't wish to counter the individual, and say, "No, I'm not going to do this." Because. . . B: Do you believe that the transfer of, what you are terming, the money from you to this individual is or is not representative of the maintenance of the integrity of an agreement you have made? Q: I'm not sure Bashar. I go back and forth on that one. I don't...at times I don't feel that it's in alignment with my integrity at all, and other times I feel that it is, and I flip back and forth. I feel that the greatest good, at times, would be to flow it, and other times I go, "it's out of integrity, and it's unethical to flow." And I tend to flip back and forth. B: All right. Can you understand, however, that the idea, now we are not saying this is the case, but we are simply setting up a generalized example... that sometimes even flowing money or any idea to another individual, even if, in your estimation, on their side, it may be supporting something that does not function within integrity, can actually allow integrity to become in existence? Q: Definitely. That's why I consider doing it. B: All right. At any given moment, as you simply perceive the two ideas, relax into yourself and simply allow yourself to come, not make, not force, allow yourself to come to the decision as to which one truly represents the idea of your integrity. Q: Lovely. B: Then simply act upon that. If at any given moment you find that the other idea truly, truly, truly, truly with all honesty with yourself, represents a more full comprehension of your integrity, then begin to act on that. This is not to say it will necessarily, in your terms, complete itself in the way you think it might have to. Q: And if I vacillate back and forth, as long as that's my integrity that's fine. B: Yes. You are exploring what you need to, and you may simply find that in doing that, each and every component, what you are perceiving to be a component of this overall idea is, in and of itself, its own complete idea. Q: Yes. One of the things I did is that I judged myself negatively for not coming to a conclusive flow. B: All right. Then your first step, obviously, is to cease invalidating yourself for whatever it is you are doing, and begin doing what you need to do. Q: Lovely as always. B: Let it work out. Q: OK. (laugh) B: Thank you. Q: Thank you, baby. (Aud. laughs)