Redefining Depression/Aloneness Q: I was discussing something during the break that is a shared common experience here.... B: Yes, more synchronicity, all right. Q: This is only the second time I've been here, and both times I've sensed a feeling of... during both your sessions, that... to say depression would be a generalization because it is not really a depression... B: It is a going inward. Q: Yes and it's very disquieting emotionally. B: Why are you judging? Q: I'm just not feeling it. B: Why are you judging? Understand, you do not feel without having first judged. Your emotions are the product and the result of your beliefs. Now, the idea is that many times the energy of the interaction can allow an individual to recognize that they have been, perhaps, searching for answers outside themselves, and in this interaction they may give themselves the opportunity to recognize the answers are all within, so they will go within. It is what your society usually calls depression but it is only meditation. When it becomes negative, you are simply judging the meditation. It is going where you know the answers are, and in being in this interaction, because it is our premise that you know all you need to know and you have all the answers, you may simply be acting according to the energy that you feel to be the product of the interaction between us, and doing what comes naturally, going within. It may simply be that you are now touching portions of yourself that you have not touched in this life and some of them may, in that way, disquiet you because you are not used to meeting those portions of yourself and you are unsure as to what they mean and you may carry small beliefs within you that they can be something negative, but they do not have to be. It is only the disquiet of the exploration of what to you is still being allowed to be an unknown, but that is all it is. You follow me? Q: Uh, yes. B: Uh? Are you sure? Q: No, I'm not sure. B: All right. Continue if you wish to explore this idea. Q: Well, it is just that... B: All right, let me ask you a question, may I? Q: Oh good. B: In your wildest imagination, what do you imagine, if you went far enough inward, you might find? Do you wish me to put it another way? Use your imagination to imagine what could be the possible worst thing you could find if you explored the interior of your being. What would make you the most jittery? The most unquiet? Now, now, we are only playing a game. Q: Oh good. B: What would represent something you could not /bare/ to think you contain? You would just die. Q: That there would be.... B: Would you like some assistance? Q: Yes. B: All right, I'll pose some suggestions. You say, yes or no. Let us say you found out you were a murderer, would that do it? Q: Yes. B: All right. What, in your estimation would be more negative than that, now that I've given you direction? Q: That I didn't exist, if there was nothing. B: That you didn't exist? If you didn't exist how could you go and find out if you existed or not? Q: Yeah, yeah. [laughs] B: You may take it for granted that you exist, otherwise you would not be able to pose the search. Therefore that is out of the way, what else? Is that the worst thing? Is that it? Q: It is a very alone feeling. B: A very what? Q: Alone. B: Alone, alone, yes. You are completely your own universe, at the same time there is no such thing as only one side of a coin. You can not be your own universe, alone, without also being surrounded by an infinity of consciousness. You have to have both sides. So whenever you feel alone, simply recognize the other side of the issue and you will be surrounded by more beings that you can shake a stick at, (Audience laughs) or a scepter. What do you think about my suggestion? Can you invent one from your imagination that might suit you more likely? Q: Not at this time. B: Not at this time, all right, how about now? (Audience laughs) Q: I can make a concerted effort, yes. B: Oh, I am not asking you make any type of effort at all, I am asking you to play. Do you not want to play with me? (Audience laughs) Q: I'll play, I'll play. B: Oh, don't let me force you. Q: I'm afraid! B: Afraid! That's a good game; we can play that game. Understand something: the so-called /worst/ thing that you could possibly discover would never, never, never be negative enough to make All That Is revoke your existence. All That Is knew what it was doing, you know, when it created all of us. Do you not think All That Is is not aware of all the potential ideas of negativity that exist within it? Do you think that it was not aware for a second? Do you think you can come up with something that All That Is could not have possibly conceived of, and that you could do something that would make All That Is say, "Oh, I didn't plan for that, you're out"? Do you think that when it come right down to it, you could possibly do /anything/ that would make All That Is want to revoke your right of existence? Why would All That Is want to do that to Itself? Because you are All That Is. All That Is cannot extricate a portion of itself into some outside realm because All That Is is literally, by definition, All That Is and there isn't anything else. So there is no where for All That Is to get rid of any portion of Itself to. So where do you think you could get stuck? You could always wind up being somewhere within All That Is. Now, what do you think about that suggestion? Q: I think that it is a reaffirming concept. B: All right. Then if you find joy within it, allow yourself to partake of your share of ecstasy, for recognize that when you find yourself to be alone, so to speak, since that is also only a concept, then that is a perfect opportunity to take advantage of recognizing your unique relationship with All That Is, now that you have a moment of privacy. You follow me? Q: Yes. B: Then revel in it and be ecstatic explosion that will result from your communication with All That Is, with the rest of yourself, in that way, will immediately populate your universe with an infinite number of experiences and relationships. That is how it works -- one always feeds the other. That is what creation is all about; it is self-supporting, self- creating. Being alone will automatically generate a plentitude; being in the plentitude will automatically generate solitude, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. You follow me? Q: Yes. B: You are never one without the other, cannot be. Thank you very much. Q: Thank you.