Natural Anger

Q:  I think one of the most creative things is to raise a child.

B:  Yes.

Q:  And I think kids' vibrations are wonderful, but sometimes it doesn't
match with mine and we struggle.

B: Yes.

Q: I like my kids and I do my best to be a wonderful parent but sometimes I
get angry, raise my voice and spank them.

B: Anger.  All right.  Anger.  Now first, natural anger does not last more
than 10 to 15 seconds.  If it lasts longer than that it is denial; it is
definition; it is criticizing; it is punishing; it is expectations.  It is
all sorts of other things but it is not true anger.  True anger is
clarifying, it is aligning.  It aligns you so you know, "All right, this is
my reality. This is the reality I prefer. What I'm seeing is not
representative of the reality I prefer."  Yet, as you choose the reality
you prefer, you can still respect that another's choice of the reality they
prefer in no way has to impinge on what you need to accomplish in your
reality.

So, what is it within yourself that you are not coming to terms with? What
is it that is touched within you in those circumstances?  What anger do you
have within you?  Are you simply reacting to belief systems that you also
bought into when you were a child and think that you should pass on?  Are
you angry the child might remind you of things within yourself that you
yourself do not prefer?  I ask a lot of questions, don't I?  Can you answer
any of them in any way?

Q: Well, I have my own pace, and if I don't finish my work for today then I
won't be able to sleep tonight.

B: Why?

Q: Well, the next day I have to work.  I have to do my laundry today. So I
can't just take care of my kid.

B: So, what you are saying, as I suggested, is that what you are angry with
is fitting into a schedule that is not a schedule that you prefer, a
schedule that you believe you have to buy into.  You understand?

Q: Yes.

B: So, once again the question is, regarding your job, are you doing what
excites you the most?  Because you're only making ends meet? Because if you
do what really excites you the most, you will automatically create a
schedule that will allow for the perfect pacing for everything that is
truly important in your life to occur.

Is there something that excites you that would allow you to work out of
your home so that you can be with the child in the way you wish to be?  Is
there a situation that would excite you the most that would create a
schedule or attract someone into your life where the child could be, while
you go and do what you need to do?  All the components of whatever schedule
you create will work together in perfect harmony if you are doing the thing
you truly love to do.

But if you are forcing yourself to do something that is really not
representative of what excites you, then, of course, the only schedule
that's created will be a schedule that does not work for you.  If a
schedule doesn't work for you smoothly and effortlessly that's a sure sign
that it's not your schedule, but someone else's schedule buried in your
subconscious teachings.  It might be the schedule of your parents, might be
the schedule of your society, but if it doesn't work for you, it isn't your
schedule.  If it's not your schedule you'll never have enough time.  If it
is your schedule everything will happen in perfect timing. Is this a clear
concept to you?

Q: Yes. You're right on.  I think the kid cannot really resonate with me so
I have to resonate with his vibration.  But is there any way that I can be
on his level?

B: You are missing the point.  The child chose to be born to you. Whatever
the true vibration of the child is, whatever the true vibration of you
happens to be is automatically synchronized if you are being the true you.