*Life Lessons* Q: Good evening. Back in 1979 I had a very serious head trauma, an accident; I was struck by a truck and it was a very serious accident and I almost died. After that time I began to take life for granted, thinking that if I could outlive something like that, I could outlive anything. B: You /do/ outlive everything. Q: And I was becoming very reckless in all the things that I did, and I thought it was an accident and I was playing the victim for many years - well, for about five years. Then about two weeks ago, when I thought my life was running real smoothly and I was very happy in my life, I had a biking accident. I tore the ligaments in my shoulder and I don't know the reason that that happened, and I wanted to ask if you knew why? B: All right, allow us in this way to talk about the idea, the notion, that was, as you say, deep within you, about "getting back on track," and creating a mirror reflection, a mirror circumstance, a mirror situation to compensate for what you believe was an over-compensation. Now, even though it seemed as though you have been running smoothly along, to some degree, you gave yourself an opportunity to recognize that you did not necessarily have to be bound by any of the previous boundaries. But that still within you there may have existed - and this is not the whole story - several parameters, deep within you, that allowed you to continue to believe as if you had not necessarily gotten back on, what you perceive to be, your original track. You can remove and can soften the idea of any ligament damage, but let us begin from another direction: what is it that you /are/ in your life? Who and what is the idea that you /are/? Q: (Pauses) B: Can you answer? Q: Aah... I'm real new to this awareness of myself... and I'm becoming more aware of me and searching that out. B: Have the so-called accidents given you an opportunity to do this? Have they focused you in certain ways you may not have focused if you had not given yourself those experiences? Q: Aah... B: How have they served you? What have you learned about yourself by creating these scenarios? Q: I don't believe they've served me. B: Everything serves you. And unless you are willing to believe /that,/ then you will not extract the positive service that they can be to you. Now, we are /not/ suggesting that it has to happen again, but individuals - and this is one of the primary reasons for what you perceive to be a re-occurrence - individuals who do not learn what they need to learn the first time something happens may create a repeat performance until they are willing to believe that it does serve a purpose. Not that you have to have done it that way at all. And you can learn many things without having to go through the idea of struggling and suffering. By all means, you do not need to struggle or suffer. But if you created a scenario, to begin with, in which you created the idea of the suffering and refused to believe that it had anything at all to do with your life or any place in a positive sense, in what you needed to learn in life, and refused to acknowledge and learn from it then, many times, when you are coasting right along, you will re-create that event to give yourself another opportunity to look at the things you refused to look at the first time. Q: If this was five years ago, I wouldn't have taken responsibility for this. I have now taken responsibility for it, but at this time I'm not aware of what it is I'm supposed to learn from this incident. B: I have simply asked, how has it served you? In the sense of: what are the things that you are now exploring that are different? What are the ways that you are looking at life, /now/, that are different than what you called /before/ the accident? Q: I'm not sure what those things are, but I am aware that I had a lot of self-esteem issues, self-confidence issues in my life. B: All right. Q: And it was pointed out to me that maybe, because I was having - prior to both these accidents I felt like my life was at its prime, you know, running smoothly - and maybe that I subconsciously created the accidents because I don't feel that I deserve for things to run so smoothly for myself? B: Do you believe that? Q: Yes. I just thought that maybe there was possibly some other reason? B: What better reason need there be? Q: None. B: The ultimate understanding in life is that you do in fact deserve all the happiness you can imagine. And that there is no such thing as something that is too good to be true. And therefore, if there is something in your life that is going very well, there doesn't have to be the belief that is it too good to last; and that any changes that occur in life do not have to be, in your terms, negatively drastic, in order for you to look at other things. However, there may have been certain circumstances within your attitude that simply, perhaps, would not have been willing to understand those things, until you gave yourself the opportunity to do it in this way. Now you do not have to create the idea of any physiological suffering again if you are willing to understand that you do deserve ecstasy, and that you can, in a sense, cruise along smoothly. And that if something wishes to get your attention it doesn't have to do so in such an overt manner. Do you follow me so far? Q: Yes. B: Is it still an issue with you that you do not feel you deserve happiness? Q: No, it's not at all. B: All right. What is it in life that excites you that you like to do? Q: Exactly what I've been doing. B: Which is? Q: I'm new to my career. I'm a computer analyst. B: All right. Q: And I really enjoy my career, and I enjoy doing physical activities that I've been participating in. B: All right. Why do you enjoy what you do? Q: Because it excites me. I can't tell you why. B: Yes, you can. Q: Aah... it just brings myself great pleasure. B: What kinds of connections do you find yourself able to make? Do you pay attention to your imagination? Q: Not always. B: All right. Do you find yourself - if you had to describe yourself in any particular way - that you are far more analytical than intuitive? Q: Yes. Well, no... I'm very intuitive but I don't always follow that. B: Why not? Q: I don't know. That's something for me to look at. B: It is an opportunity to blend and balance the idea of analytical thought with intuitive feeling. Because you may find also that one of the things your intuition was /attempting/ to show you is that there may have been signals and symbols leading up to the accidents that you simply patently ignored and, in a sense, rationalized them away. It is an opportunity to look back, to examine certain feelings - not that you have to necessarily delve all that strongly - but the idea is to pay attention to certain things that occur within you, that you have been taught to ignore in your upbringing. And that these things do carry information that is vital to you, that is necessary to you. And that when you begin to listen to these subtle codes and cues, you will understand that you have an opportunity and an awareness of exactly what is going on, on the path you are traveling at any given moment, and there do not have to be negative surprises. Although there can always be positive ones. So, in your excitement, in working with your computer, allow yourself to remember the direction that your computers in your civilization are headed. You are, many of you, working on what you call programs to promote artificial intelligence, do you understand? Q: Yes. B: Do you find this exciting? Q: I do, but that's not what I do. B: I understand, but recognize that even in the form that you are using it, it is all part and parcel to understanding consciousness itself. And when you create the idea of your so-called artificially intelligent computers, what you will discover is that all you have done is create a mechanical symbol that makes it all right for you to actually carry on a conversation with what you call your Higher Self. And you are exploring /your/ part of that awareness. The connection and the programming that you are doing is allowing you, in your own way, to make the connections between your analytical self and your intuitive self, so that you will, in your estimation, walk and ride a /balanced/ path. And not one so thin and so narrow that you may find yourself, from time to time, falling off of it and getting "scraped up." It is a very wide and stable path, and the more you balance and blend the analysis and the intuition, the wider and more stable it will become. If you walk the razor's edge, you have to expect to get cut. So, do not forsake the keenness of your analysis, do not forsake the keenness of the edge of your perception, but allow yourself - it is simply our suggestion, you do not have to do it just because we say so - to soften that edge with intuition when you need to. We understand that for some individuals intuition does not seem comfortable because in fact it is so fuzzy, it is so soft. But when you balance and blend the two you will have all the awareness you need in a very crystal clear and sharp way; but it will be connected in a very broad pattern, and not just limited to one particular focus or direction. Do you follow me? Q: Yes. B: Does this work for you? Q: Yes, it does. Thank you very much. B: Then, our wishes with you are: fly fast and free, in an open way, loving all that you encounter, both individuals and circumstances, for you create your reality and you do so for a reason. Pick yourself up laughing and you will re-balance and be on your way in no time. Deny the experience and you will sit there and bleed in a pool of self-pity. This is simply a general, symbolic reflection. Thank you, very much! Q: Thank you!