Getting the Big "C" - Cancer Q: I was creating my reality... B: Was? Q: Was... well, this was a, quote/unquote, past situation... B: Yes. Q: I, in going to use some... fill in some generals for the specifics. Say someone tells me I'm going to get cancer if I do such and such thing. And I say, "no I'm not," and I choose to consciously create that I don't create things like that in my life. And I get it anyway. B: All right. May I remind you that many times, first of all again, these things are opportunities to truly recognize what level of self-empowerment you know you have. For if you have co-created that idea, and create it for yourself, in that way, it is, again, an opportunity to recognize now much power you do have in creating a scenario to begin with, and in recognizing you can create the scenario in another way. But the idea also is to recognize that the way you usually respond to individuals who offer you these suggestions is indicative that you do actually have a fear and a belief in the reality of that idea more than any other. So the idea of your response, "no I don't," in a sense, is a conflictive one, rather than the idea of pulling out of them why they believe in that reality, and assisting them to change that belief -- which will then change you. But just to say, "no, I don't," many times is an indication of the fear you actually have -- because you are reacting. You are being conflictive in your response, which is an indication that you actually are, perhaps, buying into what they have offered to you as a suggestion. Otherwise you would not need to recoil from it; you would dive headfirst into it. "How fascinating that you should think so. Why do you think so? What has created this belief within you?" And so forth. To explore full- speed ahead, head first as you say, the idea of why you should attract in your life someone whom would even suggest that idea to you. For again, many times the attraction of an individual into your life who would make that suggestion is an indication of beliefs that you do have within you. But in no way, shape or form does that mean that it must remain so. And you can look at it from the positive point of view -- that having attracted an individual into your life who might suggest that to you is an opportunity to show yourself that you perhaps do, in fact, have those beliefs, or you would never probably have had to have heard that individual say that to you. Now it is your opportunity, therefore, to recognize that the belief system has been brought to the surface, that it has been pointed out; and now you can deal with it. Again, the situations that happen in your life are not there to show you you are stuck; they are not there to show you you are a failure. They are there to show you what the beliefs are you have, so that you can know what they are -- so you can change, so you can change the reality that they have shown you exists within you. You follow me? Q: Yeees. B: Yeees? Q: Well, it's first Iike... well, I was pretty sure that I didn't have a belief in a certain situation, and then I see that situation... B: All right. All right. But again, you are acting as if you think you have failed. Change that attitude. Listen to yourself: "I was petty sure." Q: Well, it really broke my confidence, I'd been sailing along pretty quick. B: It did not break your confidence. Nothing can break your confidence but you. And again, you are looking at it from a judgmental point of view, as if there was the idea that your confidence could even be broken, as if you had to have the idea of confidence so that it could be broken. Knowingness is knowingness. Many times when individuals in your society talk of confidence, they talk about it as something that might be able to be broken. You talk about it as a wall, rather than a foundation, rather than an understanding. You talk about it as a tenuous thing. You talk about confidence as if you are walking a tightrope. "Please don't do anything to upset my confidence." You follow me? Q: Yes. B: If you watch yourself; if you are watching for when situations might break your confidence, then, in a sense, all you are saying is that you really have never allowed yourself to simply know what is true for you. And this is an opportunity to recognize that that may be what you have been doing. So that you can dispense with the idea of needing to "maintain" confidence. But rather you can simply "live" your life in a knowing way. There is a difference, a profound difference, between the two. Again, each and every one of these scenarios is yet another opportunity to realize how many layers of beliefs you have created for yourselves. You are peeling yourself like the proverbial onion; you are discovering that you have wrapped yourself in thousands of cloaks. You think you are dealing, many times, with the foundational ideas, but yet again you discover that you have wrapped yourself with another illusion. And so you will always peel them away, giving yourself an opportunity to explore these ideas. Now you have an opportunity to understand that you have been dealing in the idea of confidence as if it were something that someday might let you down, might break down -- that you might not be able to hold it up. You are treating it as if it were something that you had to carry through life, that you had to watch out for, every step, otherwise there might be something out there lurking in the darkness, lurking in the shadows -- that might pop out and someday break the confidence. Many times when you talk about confidence, that's the definition you give it. Now you have given yourself a prime example, a prime opportunity to realize that that is the definition you gave to confidence. So now you can change the idea; you can use this, like anything, as an opportunity. Recognize, the universe, yourself, the idea of infinite creation -- never, ever, ever, is there a scenario created in your life that is too much for you to handle. Never! In a sense, you are being paid a compliment. For in this way, the amount of the idea that you think you must now deal with is directly representative of the actual strength you have to deal with it. So lighten up. Lighten up. You can, if you are willing to, laugh it completely away. Q: That sounds like a good way to do it B: The curtain is up; this will be a comedy. Q: Definitely. B: If you are going to think - if you insist upon thinking - of the idea of cancer with a capital C, at least let the C stand for comedy. Q: Okay. B: And also for catharsis. For that is what it is for many individuals -- a gate and a doorway to walk through, so that in one sense, in the old sense, you will recognize that you, as the person you have been, will, in a sense, die. But you do not have to physically die to be born as the new person you prefer to be. If you use the idea of cancer as comedy and catharsis, then you will allow yourself to become the person in whose definition there is no need for that tool or disease. But that will invoke from you a willingness to be that new person. And that new person is one who enjoys life itself. You follow me? Q: Yes. B: Thank you very much. Q: I have another quick one. B: Brief. Q: In Maui I asked you about my camera. I asked you specifically if you could tell me if the camera was in the house... B: Yes. Q: And you said, "yes." B: Yes. Q: Were you saying, yes, you could tell me, or yes the camera was in the house? B: Why are you still concerned? Q: I'm still looking for it. B: More C: camera, concern... Q: I love 'em, crystals. B: Crystals. Does everything, to you, have to be, in your estimation, picture perfect before you will allow it? Q: Very much not. B: All right. Then for now, perhaps, you do not need to focus on that. Q: Well, it's just like, for some reason it's always there in my mind. I'd Iike to just forget about it, but it's just part of my life that it seems -- I just wish I knew where it was. B: I'll tell you exactly where it is. Q: Oh, good. B: It is within you. Listen carefully, it is you; you are the camera for now. You! Remember what we have been saying to many of you, your recording devices are an externalized idea. Many of will now find your recording devices disappearing and, in your terms, malfunctioning. Because you are now going to function as the recording device. You are now going to take the pictures, and create the pictures to be what you will know will be the life you prefer to be. You take the picture; you make the picture; you are the camera now -- for now. You will find it again physically -- after you become it first. Makes you "shutter," doesn't it? Q: No. Thank you. B: Understand the idea in a very literal sense, in a very literal sense, we are not simply being philosophical, when we say you are the camera, we mean it. Take me literally and start acting like it. Then you will see a difference. Q: I Iike the way that sounds, because a camera just takes each second and holds each second, right? B: All right. But you do not have to hold on to it. The idea is that you will always be existing in a new second; the idea is not so much to collect images of the past. You follow me? Q: I do. I Just like to collect the images, even though I don 't do anything with them. I just like collecting them. B: It is representatives of an idea that you say you are attempting to change for now. Let it slide. Q: Collecting: another C. Thank you. B: Thank you.