*Balancing and Redefining Yourself* Q: Let's see -- I have a question that's sort of two fold... B: All right. Q: ... two things that are both related. B: What is the first fold? Q: The first fold is: I, about six months ago, was dealing with having periods every two... or let's say twice a month. B: Yes. Q: And you told me that my body was pretty much changing over to (a?) glandular system, and that it would speed up and then it would spread out to a point to where I wouldn't have periods anymore. B: It was a high probability, not an absolute. Q: Okay. Well, that started to happen. B: Yes. Q: It started to come like every month and a half, then every two months... B: Yes. Q: Okay. I went to a herbalist and she told me that I was dealing with, sort of, the last vestiges of detoxifying. B: Yes. Q: And that it was a hormonal imbalance, and so on and so forth. What I would like from you is some input as to what's going on in me -- or what this is a symbol of. What's this... B: You mean aside from detoxification? Q: Yes. Why am I manifesting this? B: To some degree, you are going back to ground, as you say in your society. You are forming reconnections with the fertility power of your planet Earth. You are now reconnecting in many ways to some ancient symbolism in your society. And you are re-gathering ideas you have found in some American Indian cultures that you have lived in many times. Q: God, I've been thinking about that: American Indian past lives. B: Yes. Well, you see, you are sensitive to the track you are on; all you need to do is trust it. Q: Mhmm. B: You are simply re-forming and giving back to the earth. In a ritual format, you are, in a sense, allowing there to be a reconnection between the nurturing aspect, the birthing aspect, of your entire planet and yourself. As soon as you balance and blend that connection, it will stop. And you will then sustain yourself from a flow of energy from the earth itself. And you will become, in a sense, highly magnetic; and start to attract many, many, many different kinds of scenarios that will allow you then to use what might be colloquially called that old shamanistic power. Q: Okay, great. Because that brings up the next point, which is that I very much feel like I'm going through a second coming, in a sense. B: Yes. Well, you know that is what the second coming is all about. Q: Yes. B: It is not the embodiment of the Christ consciousness in a single individual; it is the awakening of the Christ consciousness in /all/ of you. Q: Okay. What that leads into has to do with what excites me the most. B: Yes? Q: Okay. What excites me most is working as an actress. B: All right. Q: For the last seven years I've been dealing with coming extremely close to getting work as an actress... B: All right. Q: ... and then not getting it. B: May I interrupt you? Q: Yes. B: Will you answer a question for me? Q: Sure. B: Without thinking about it, the first thing that pops into your mind -- yes or no. Q: All right. B: Are you ready? Q: I'm ready!! B: Are you an actress? Q: Yes. B: Thank you. Are you acting like one? Q: Ah ha! Ha, ha. B: Are you doing the things an actress does? Or are you doing the things a person who is not quite sure she's an actress does? Q: I'm doing more of the first lately. B: More of it, yes. All right. Q: Yes. B: But if there is still doubt, that's enough to hold it all back. Q: Yes. No, I understand that there are a lot of self-worth issues here. B: All right. Q: What's interesting though, for me, is that on a very deep level I have a lot of confidence and security about my abilities. B: Oh, on a very deep level, all right. What about out here? Q: Yeah. Well, yeah, that's the whole point. And what's funny is that I will get... I've gotten... I've done very well with interior decoration, with designing jewelry, with doing a lot of things that are very creatively oriented. But they don't excite me any more than acting. B: All right. Q: And I feel like I'm on the verge of something very big again. B: Well, you are. All you have to do is take the step over the verge. Q: Ha, ha, ha. B: And start acting like an actress -- fully, one hundred percent. Remember: all you are is a one hundred percent idea. Q: Right. Okay. I guess my confusion with that -- acting like an actress -- is that I have had a lot of judgment about the film industry. Having had success, having been with sort of the upper echelon of very successful people in the business... B: Yes? Q: And seeing how... B: Some. Q: ... phony... B: Some. Q: ... a lot of them can be, and how... B: /You/ don't have to be. Q: No, I don't. B: And you don't have to be afraid that you will be. Q: I've had a big fear of that. B: Yes. Q: You hit it on the but... B: Because that's what brings many of you back again. Q: Yeah. B: I want to be successful, BUT I believe that successful people are not worth being. Q: Right. Right. Well, I know that's not true, but I've definitely dealt with those fears. B: But you are redefining your old beliefs, and you are working them out. As soon as you redefine them all to your satisfaction and start acting like the new definitions you have given yourself, you will have the life that is reflective of the new person you are being. Q: Uh huh. B: Just be clear about what your definitions are; and you will know why what is happening in your life is happening. It is as plain and simple as that. If you do not believe that you want to be the type of person that is typically successful, then you will prevent your own success. If you can understand that you can be successful in whatever way you prefer to be, you will not stop yourself. And what anyone does with success will not affect you. Q: Mhmm. What do you have to say to attracting projects into my life where I can make a lot of money and... B: I will say only this... Q: ... be working, but that they're things that I just can't possibly do. B: That is not true. Otherwise you wouldn't attract them. Q: Yeah. But then why... B: One more. Q: ... why have such an aversion to... B: One more. One more. Listen carefully. When you act, at any point -- all of you -- on anything that excites you the most that you are capable of acting on, you will always attract yourself into the circumstances and situations to give you the capability to act on anything else that excites you that you may not be immediately capable of acting upon. Because all excitement is a thread that leads you into all greater excitement; so act upon what you are capable of acting on, that excites you the most, and you will grant yourself the capability, by experience, to be able to act upon anything else that does excite you that you have attracted. And once again: if you've attracted it, being able to attract it is a sign that you are, in essence, capable of acting upon it. All you have to do is start believing that you are that capable, and you will see that they will come to fruition. Only your disbelief that you're that capable keeps it at bay. Understand? Q: So, you're saying that therefore I can attract the things that I do want to do. B: Absolutely. Why not? Q: Yeah. I agree. B: Everything else is pointless. Q: I know that intellectually. It's like, okay, I know this... B: Do not make the separation. Q: I know it's not separate, too. But somehow I still feel like there's a knowingness... B: Remember, remember: what you choose to feel is based on what you choose to believe. All feelings are reactions to beliefs. You never just have a feeling for no reason. If you feel a certain way, if you feel hesitant about something, if you feel there's a separation between your so-called intellectuality and your so-called emotionality, you are /choosing/ to believe there is a separation. And that's what creates the scenario you get. Q: Right. B: So use the feeling to determine what you believe. If you don't prefer that definition, change the belief. The feelings will automatically change, and so will the reality. Keep it simple. All right? Q: Great. Okay, great. B: Thank you. Q: I just want to ask one other... B: Thank you. Q: Okay. B: You have what you need. Understand that all of these separate questions are not separate questions. Start learning how to integrate what have always appeared to be fragments that you think have nothing to do with one another. They are all one idea. Q: Great. Okay. B: All right? Q: Thank you. B: Do not fear; do not fear. Just act. Be! Trust! Step over the verge; you will be supported. It can happen no other way. And there are no exceptions -- not even you. Thank you! Q: Thank you. B: Sharing! ... one moment, please... Remember also, all of you, allow yourselves to open up, and the information that you need, to continue to do what you want to do, will always come to you in whatever way represents the path of least resistance. If that is your dream state, then trust when you wake up in the morning, you will have what you need whether you intellectually know it or not. The more you act, and the more you trust your actions, the more you will see, coming out through the actions, that you already knew what to do. But you have to act before you will discover that. Continue.