Lord of the Storm

Justine Davis

Chapter 1

The fact that she was exhausted colored Shaylah's reaction as she stepped out of the Sunbird. Her frown as she hit the wall of humid heat outside the ship's pressure lock was involuntary; she only knew the expression had flitted across her face by the pull of the neuskin graft over the almost healed wound at her temple.

" 'S a killer, all right, Cap'n. Twin suns make it like walkin' into a Zap cooker."

Shaylah glanced at the smartly uniformed landing bay attendant. "Exactly," she agreed. She dug into the pocket of her uniform tunic and pulled out a gleaming coin. She flipped it toward him; he caught it, then stared when he saw what it was.

"A withal!" he exclaimed. "A Romerian withal!" He gaped at her. "That where you been, Cap'n? Ship looks a bit…"

His voice trailed off, as if he feared insulting her. She smiled wryly as she glanced back at the battered, delta-winged Starfighter. "Yes, it does, a bit. You get her back in shape while I'm here, and there'll be another one in it for you."

His eyes lit. "Yes, ma'am! I'll have her so perfect you won't even recognize her yourself!"

Since the ship had never been perfect to begin with, Shaylah overlooked that piece of exaggeration and trusted to the glow of greed in the man's eyes to get the job done. She handed him the recorder with the list of needed repairs and walked off the suspension dock toward the Carelia port captain's office.

Shaylah only vaguely recalled the captain from her last stop here, what seemed like eons ago, but the woman seemed to recognize her immediately.

"Captain Graymist! Welcome back!"

"Thank you."

"We heard all about the battle, about how you went up against three Romerian starcruisers and won. And got another medal."

Shaylah shrugged, embarrassed. The victory had been, she knew, largely a matter of luck, a well-trained crew, and the fortunately plodding battle tactics of the Romerian forces. The Sunbird had swooped in, disabled, and boarded them before the three commanders had even been able to identify their foe. None of those ships would attack a Coalition colony again anytime soon, she thought with satisfaction.

"You're becoming quite the hero," the port captain said. "First the Andarians, now this."

"Heroics," she said dryly, "are tiring."

She took Shaylah seriously. "Oh, I'm sure. Is that why you're here? For a rehab visit?" She glanced at Shaylah's forehead. "Were you seriously hurt?"

"No, it's fine. I'm just here to visit an old friend." She smiled wryly. "I've been ordered to relax."

"Good," the port captain said brightly. "You deserve a rest." The woman lifted a brow. "You're alone?"

Shaylah smiled wryly. "My crew has other ideas about relaxing. They're at the Legion Club on Alpha 2."

"Hmmph." The port captain sniffed. "Rowdy place."

Shaylah's smile became a grin. "I have a rowdy crew."

The woman smiled back. "How long will you be staying?"

Shaylah shrugged again. "Until they order me back, I suppose." Or until the ship was repaired and she could get flying again, she thought. "I've ordered some work on my ship. Will you-"

"Of course," the woman said, eagerness taking any rudeness out of her interruption. "I'll see that everything's handled. Can I get you an aircab?"

She'd intended to walk-Califa's residence wasn't far-but the hot, wet air was more than Shaylah wanted to deal with, so she nodded. "Please."

"Certainly." The woman pressed a button, and within moments an aircab appeared. The exterior of the small transport was battered, but it sounded smooth enough, and the guide smiled engagingly.

"Thank you," Shaylah said.

"Of course. Have a nice stay, Captain." Then, almost as an afterthought, came the required words. "Long live the Coalition."

"The Coalition," Shaylah muttered under her breath as, after throwing the port captain a halfhearted salute, she climbed into the aircab. The blessed, almighty, all-consuming Coalition.

She sighed inwardly. She had learned to keep her unpopular views to herself over the years. Early on she had arrived at a very simple realization: One only stayed in the Coalition Legion if one toed their line. And since the thing she wanted most in life was to fly, she had little choice. She could have turned to commercial work, but jockeying the heavy cargo ships through the crowded traffic lanes, or passengers on the multitude of milk runs between colonies, wasn't her idea of flying. She wanted a fast ship, open space, and a star to shoot for, not a slow, lumbering craft that couldn't get out of its own way. She didn't like the fighting aspect of her career, but she tried to look at it as the price of flying a Rigel starfighter.

But if was a price that took its toll, Shaylah thought as she got out of the aircab, in pressure as well as blood. She flashed her identification seal at the driver, who nodded as he made note of the number to bill the Legion. Then he hovered, motionless, as she grabbed her small bag and climbed out of the cab. And still waited as she straightened up. Some things, she thought wryly, never change no matter what world you're on. She tossed him a token and he smiled, threw her a salute, and roared off.

Shaylah wondered if the attention she was getting as she strolled up the marble walkway was because of her uniform or just natural curiosity about any visitor to the big dwelling. She'd thought about changing into citizen attire, but she'd been in a hurry, yearning for a long, soothing soak in the massage pool waiting in the quarters Califa always held for her.

A young cadet in Academy uniform opened the door, smiling shyly as he ushered her inside. Califa always had a few cadets in residence; she was renowned for her knowledge of battle tactics, and often served as tutor for the more promising students at the Academy. Acting as door monitors was considered a small price to pay.

"Captain Graymist, we've been expecting you."

The young cadet, whose class insignia told Shaylah he was about sixteen, was looking at her with the kind of awe that reminded her of herself, years ago. Just seeing in the flesh one of the pilots, admirals, and warriors she'd spent so much time studying had fired her enthusiasm for her chosen career; the day the renowned Commander Larek had walked up to her post at the Academy was a day she'd never forgotten in the seven years since. So she smiled at the young man as she walked past him into the foyer.

Califa had remodeled since she'd last been here, she thought. The smooth white floor and the equally white table just inside the front door were both new. Not quite understanding the urge that made her do it, she reached out to run her hand over the table. The surface felt cool and solid and oddly comforting beneath her fingers, and she looked at it more closely. Stark, pure white, massive, and beautifully carved, it was, she realized with a shock, pure Triotian marble.

She jerked her hand away, her fingers curling as if they'd been burned. Embarrassed at her instinctive reaction, she relaxed the fist she'd involuntarily made, thankful that the cadet hadn't seemed to notice. Anyone watching would have thought the marble had suddenly run red with the blood it had cost to bring it here.

"Everything's ready for you, Captain. All outer doors have been keyed to your palm print, and your private quarters to the usual retinal scan."

The cadet's look of reverence was barely hidden by his determination to remain professionally composed. Shaylah remembered the feeling exactly.

"It's an honor to meet you." He handed her the system card that would activate all the apparatus in her quarters.

"Thank you-" she glanced at his name insignia. "Cadet Brakely."

A slight tinge of pink rose in his fair cheeks- with his dark hair, pale skin, and bright blue eyes, she guessed he was Arellian, like she herself-and she was glad of the vow she'd made all those years ago that if she ever made it to the exalted status of pilot and warrior, she would take the time to do what so few had ever done for her: acknowledge the existence and dreams of the ones who would someday take her place.

"Any connection to Captain Braylon Brakely?" she asked.

The pink became red as the boy nodded. "My father's brother," he admitted. The pride was there, under the blush, and Shaylah smiled.

"I served with him on the Brightstar, along with Major Claxton. He taught me a great deal. If you've half his brains and courage, you'll go far."

"Thank you, Captain! I hope so. I want to fly a RigeL like you, and-"

"Shaylah! They told me you were here!"

Shaylah turned to see a tall, slim woman approaching, the limp from her stiff left leg barely noticeable. Califa Claxton had lost none of her flair for the dramatic, Shaylah thought; that flowing black dress made the most of her coloring and stood out like an ominous dark flame in the glistening white of the foyer. At her waist, her control belt glowed with lights; amber, blue, and the more malevolent red. Shaylah ignored the qualm that swept her at the sight of it. It had always bothered her, but there was nothing she could do about it.

"Hello, Califa," she said as the woman enveloped her in outstretched arms. "It's good to see you."

"You're late. You didn't run into any of those dreadful sky pirates, did you?"

Shaylah lifted a dark, silky brow. "No. I hadn't heard they were in this sector."

"Oh, the devils are everywhere. They're getting so brazen, it's not safe anywhere."

Califa gave Shaylah another hug, then released her and stood back, eyeing her critically. "You're too thin, again. We'll have to fatten you up, I've got the perfect dinner planned for us, and I've been saving the most wonderful bottle of Carelian brandy, and we can-"

"Slow down," Shaylah said, grinning at her outburst; Califa's ability to talk at a few knots above light speed hadn't changed, either. "All I want right now is a soak and some rest. Give me that, and we can talk all night."

Califa sighed. "Oh, all right. I've waited nearly a year to see you. I suppose I can wait a bit longer. Come, I'll walk you to your quarters."

Shaylah nodded and picked up her bag. The cadet jumped. "I'll carry that-"

"No, thanks. I can do it; it's not much." He looked disappointed, and she smiled at him. "Good luck, Brakely. I hope you get your star-fighter someday."

He flushed again, but looked so pleased that Shaylah didn't even mind when, as they walked away, Califa began to nag in that old, too-familiar way.

"Really, Shaylah, I don't know why you bother. They're just cadets. And they're supposed to be here to learn. They can't toughen up if you're soft on them."

She shrugged. There was no point in arguing; this was old ground between them. Although she and Califa had been drawn together because they were both Arellian and had served together for several tours before injuries had forced Califa into retirement from active duty, Shaylah wasn't blind to the differences between them. Among other things, Califa was, at heart, a bit of an elitist. And that, too, was old ground.

"It's easy for you," Califa had said once when Shaylah had called her that after she'd lambasted a young ensign who'd inadvertently spoiled her toss of the dice in a game of chaser. "You were born to royalty. I've had to work for it."

"Don't be silly," Shaylah had said, startled; she'd never known Califa felt that way. "There hasn't been such a thing as royalty for years."

Since Coalition forces had wiped out the royal family of Trios, she added silently, then pushed away the grim memory. She took no pride in the slaughter that the conquest of that lovely planet had become. She was, perhaps cravenly, grateful that she had been still in her last year at the Academy when that campaign had been launched.

"Well, if there was, you'd be part of it," Califa had shot back. "Your family's been a moving force on Arellia for decades."

That, at least, was true, so she kept silent, and Califa let it drop. It was only one of the contrasts between them that had arisen over the years, but for the sake of the friendship, they chose not to dwell on any of them.

As they passed through the first of the doors separating the foyer from the residence itself, Shaylah mentally braced herself. She was not, she ordered herself, going to let the facts of life bother her. She was tired, her head was beginning to ache beneath the gash her medical officer had repaired, and she had no energy to spare at the moment. Especially for useless battles.

Still, as the door silently slid shut behind them, she found herself looking away from the man who stood silently at attention on the other side, his eyes appropriately downcast. The bronze collar that encircled his neck marked him as a third-level slave, barely a step above laborer. A spot of amber glowed unblinkingly at the center of the metal band, the single light indicating the simplicity of third-level control; pain was both quick and effective.

"… love the dinner I've ordered," Califa was saying. "And," she added with a sideways look that held a glint of a teasing leer, "do I have a surprise for you for dessert."

"Califa," Shaylah began warningly, recognizing her friend's tone.

"You're here for R and R, remember? A good, pleasurable mating and you'll be a new woman. I've just bought a very special-"

"You know how I feel about that." In fact, it turned her stomach, although she knew that others took advantage of Califa's generosity with her slaves.

"Shaylah, I swear you're from the Creonic Age. I thought you'd learned your lesson after that battlecruiser captain of yours took off galaxy hopping with that little Omegan. Don't tell me you still believe in that bonding for life fantasy."

Shaylah sighed. She knew that in her friend's eyes she was an aberration, a believer in a custom not even of her own world, but of old Trios, where mating had meant something more than a mere physical act done only for bodily pleasure. In this time, and throughout the Coalition, she was sadly out of place. Bonding-that joining of two souls, hearts, and minds as well as two bodies-was a myth as ancient as that of the Arellian Sunbird she had named her ship after.

"My parents did," she said quietly. "They would have had it, if she hadn't been killed."

"Maybe. You don't know that," Califa returned. "I suppose that's why you're infected with this ridiculous idea that died out-and rightfully so, I must say-eons ago. Eos, I thought my parents were bad, naming me after some foolish old Triotian legend. Can't you just relax and have some fun?"

"Califa, please. I just want to rest."

She gave up, for Califa, gracefully. They stopped at the door to Shaylah's quarters.

"All right, hero," Califa said teasingly. "Rest until dinner. I'll send someone at dusk to help you dress."

"No," Shaylah said hastily. "I'll just meet you in the dining room."

Shaylah saw Califa's brows lower, and wondered if Califa guessed that she couldn't bear to spend any more time than necessary with the silent, collared people who were slaves no matter what euphemistic names the Coalition gave them. She sighed inwardly. Califa saw nothing wrong with the system; it took a lot of work to run this big domicile the Coalition provided for her small school; the slaves they also provided did that work. And, Shaylah thought with a qualm, subtly indoctrinated the cadets in the attitude that this was the normal and right way of life.

"All right," Califa agreed after a moment. "I know how you are about your privacy. I'll see you at dinner, then."

"Yes." Shaylah smiled. "I presume you still preside over the awed cadets at the head table."

"Of course." She grinned. "It's en a dais now. One must remind them of their lowly place, mustn't one?" She winked at Shaylah. "Check the storage bay," she said, then turned and strode unevenly down the long hall.

* * *

The massage pool worked its magic, and Shaylah fell so deeply into sleep on the wide, body-conforming bed that even her ever-reliable inner alarm barely woke her just before dusk. She rose quickly, feeling at least physically better. Yawning, she walked over to the counter that held her bag, and tugged out the gleaming antique silver hairbrush that had been her mother's. It always took a while to undo the tangle of her hair and smooth it to its usual shining black mass, but it felt so good to have it down and flowing free instead of mashed under her combat helmet that she didn't mind.

She went to the storage bay and pulled it open. Califa had hinted at something, but still Shaylah was surprised at what she pulled out. The soft material of the gown gleamed gold, and she smiled. The first time she'd visited Califa, right after she'd first been given the Sunbird, Califa had left her a plain white gown, in honor of the new ship. When she'd come after her first real fight, it had been bronze. Then, after her first medal, silver. The gold, she supposed, was in honor of the last battle. She had, it seemed, arrived at last, in Califa's eyes. And as anyone in the Coalition from cadet on up knew, that was an accomplishment not to be taken lightly.

Shaylah slipped the dress on with a sigh. Once, achieving this status had meant everything to her. Now she felt nothing except a weariness that sleep could not assuage. It showed in her eyes; even she could see it: The usually bright blue looked dull and flat.

She studied herself critically in the mirror. She had lost weight, but it only seemed to make the dress cling more closely to what curves there were. The low neck revealed more of the pale skin of her breasts than she would have liked-it was more Califa's taste than her own-but the cool, smooth fabric felt wonderful and set off her ebony hair.

Making her way to Califa's table was an ordeal; she had become, she realized, somewhat of a public figure. She was recognized by the cadets, who began to chatter about the "great victory" she had achieved for the Coalition. She supposed she should be flattered, but all she wanted was to forget about it.

"By Eos," she muttered as she sat down and Califa waved the crowd of admirers into silence, "this hero business is a nuisance."

Something flickered in Califa's eyes, and Shaylah wondered if her friend resented her, or at least the fact that she had continued with the Legion while Califa had been forced to retire. Then it was gone, so quickly she began to doubt if she'd seen it at all. Besides, Califa was more famous now than she had ever been as a Legion pilot, not to mention having been promoted to full major for her accomplishments here.

"Gold looks wonderful on you," Califa said, eyeing the dress. "And you've earned it. And I see you're still turning every male head in the place," she added with a grin. "Long legs, black hair, and big blue eyes do it every time."

"Look who's talking." Shaylah grinned back. "You've got the same coloring as I do."

Close, she amended to herself. Califa's paler blue eyes were much more conspicuous beneath her short-cropped hair, and cold become almost icy when she turned her cool regard on something.

They talked of old times for a while, Academy days and their first missions together, while they ate the meal that was everything Califa had promised.

"I haven't had a brollet steak since I left home," she said at last, after swallowing the last tender bite.

"Too bad they can't seem to live anywhere but on Arellia" Califa said.

"Well, they do well enough there to make up for it," Shaylah said wryly. "The growers spend more time chasing them off than growing their crops." She smiled at Califa. "But it was wonderful. Thank you."

"You're quite welcome. It's the least I can do. I mean, I never would have been able to convince Legion Command to start this place if you hadn't volunteered the land."

Shaylah merely shrugged. It had seemed a small enough thing at the time; her family had owned but never used the plot. She'd never expected it to turn into anything as exalted as this.

Califa looked over her shoulder then and nodded. Something flickered in her eyes as she said, "Wait until you taste the brandy."

"I can't wait. I haven't had Carelian brandy in ages." She felt suddenly ungrateful. "You've gone to a lot of trouble, Califa. My favorite foods from hom'e, and now this."

"It was nothing," Califa assured her, that odd glint still in her pale eyes. "No, really, it was-"

Shaylah stopped dead as the heavy decanter of brandy appeared on the table before her, placed there carefully by a strongly muscled arm that was nearly as golden as the liquid itself. Her gaze jerked upward.

He was, without a doubt, the most incredible male she had ever seen, and over the years and the worlds, she had seen a few. He was golden, from the sleek skin rippling over taut muscle to the thick, shaggy mane of hair that hung past his shoulders, hair that was every color from flaxen to deep, rich amber-blond. His shoulders were wide and strong, his naked chest was broad and smoothly hairless, giving emphasis to the scattering of fine golden hairs below his navel.

That scattering of hair thickened as it trailed down below the edge of the trewscloth he wore. She felt an odd flush of heat as she looked at the full, masculine contours the brief garment barely covered. He seemed to gleam in the soft light.

Were his eyes golden as well? she wondered. She couldn't tell; he was staring at the floor as he stood quietly by the table as if awaiting orders.

Orders. She sucked in her breath as the realization hit. Her gaze snapped to his neck, and something painful coiled and shifted inside her.

He was a slave. Only now did it hit her, the sum of all the details she'd seen but hadn't registered in her perusal. His wrists bore the mark of chains long worn. Her eyes flicked down the long, leanly muscled legs to his feet; the marks were there, too, around the ankles, the scars that marred the beautiful golden skin.

She vaguely heard Califa giggle. "Like him? I knew you would."

Shaylah didn't answer. She looked up once more, feeling foolish as she realized she was hoping she was mistaken, that the golden band around his neck was merely decoration of some sort. But there was no denying the purpose of the thick, heavy collar; the glowing system lights told her more than she wanted to know.

No simple, single control for this one. This was the golden collar, the highest level, with all systems implanted. The pain light was there, yellow and unblinking. But the blue was there too, the brain wave synchronizer, the device that kept all but the most recalcitrant of slaves cooperative.

Its glow was faint, indicating that only the mildest regulation was being used now. A monitoring, really, the system activated only so that any abnormal activity-such as an urge for freedom, she thought sourly-would be sensed and stopped at once. At the other extreme she knew the system produced a kind of hypnosis, an adjusting of brain activity that was directed by whoever held the control unit set to that individual frequency. The possessor of that unit literally controlled the slave's mind and could make him think, do, or say whatever the controller wished.

She knew she was dwelling on these ugly facts in order to avoid looking at the third light on the collar. It wasn't lit at all, but she knew it was red. The malignant, glowing red that meant that at any moment his life could be snuffed out by one tiny move of a finger on a control unit. Her stomach knotted painfully.

"Dazzling, isn't he? Not my type, of course. I prefer Omegans, myself. But I may try him myself one day soon. He's only just arrived. His first service was at the Legion Club on Clarion, and they train them well there."

Shaylah sucked in a breath at Califa's words. She had forgotten the other purpose of the blue, hypnotic system. Somehow that was the worst, and that tight, hurting knot in her belly cramped again. That this beautiful, powerful creature should be forced to turn that magnificent body over to whoever held the controller, for that person to use for his or her own pleasure, sickened her. She had to look away.

"I've heard some… rather incredible stories," Califa was saying. "He's quite something in the stamina department, I hear. And I can vouch myself for the fact that he is, shall we say, amply endowed?"

Not for the first time Shaylah cursed her pale Arellian skin; she could feel the blush creeping up her throat.

"Califa," she said, her eyes flicking back to the man who stood motionless beside the table, still staring compliantly at the floor, as if his most intimate actions and parts were not being discussed in front of him.

"Really, Shaylah," she said. "You're much too sensitive. I had to inspect him, didn't I? I paid dearly to get him. They're very rare, you know."

She looked back at Califa. "They?"

"Why, I thought you guessed. He's a Triotian." Shaylah nearly gasped. Her head snapped around again, and she knew her jaw had dropped as she stared again at the golden man.

She could see it now, the legendary beauty of Trios in his build, his fitness, his coloring. Legendary, and practically extinct. It was like looking at the last surviving Arellian lion, tawny-gold and sinuously graceful, his wild spirit restrained only by the collar that bound him, a beautiful, sad example of the last of his breed.

"Triotian," she whispered. Rare was not the word for it; if there were a handful of survivors from the Trios massacre scattered throughout the system, she would be surprised. "His eyes," she murmured, not realizing she'd spoken aloud. Somehow it seemed imperative that she see his eyes. She had to know if they were like the lion's, not in the matching golden color, but in the look of resigned fury at his captivity.

Califa had heard her. "You may raise your eyes," she intoned to the slave. When he didn't move, her hand went to the controller on her belt. Before Shaylah could protest, it was too late; she sensed the sudden tensing of his muscles as the pain jolted through him.

"Raise your eyes," Califa said; it was unmistakably an order this time.

Slowly, the golden head came up. Shaylah's breath caught in her throat. His eyes, set in a sculpted face that rivaled the incredible body in pure male beauty, were nothing like the lion's. They were green, brightly, vividly green, the green of an Arellian starflower, the green of the grass she had heard once covered the rolling landscape of Trios. And there was nothing of resignation in them, nothing of a caged restraint. His body might be chained, but Shaylah knew with that first look that this spirit would never submit.

And then, so completely that she wondered if she'd imagined it, the life in those green eyes was gone. In its place was the flat, dull, lifeless look of the slave, of the deadened soul, the cold ashes of a crushed fire.

"Introduce yourself," Califa commanded.

There was a perfectly timed pause, just long enough to create the speculation he might refuse, yet too short for Califa to resort to the controller. Then he spoke, in a low, rough voice that sent a shiver racing up Shaylah's spine.

"I am called Wolf."

"Called?" she asked softly. Not named, called. She saw something flicker in those green eyes, but it was gone too quickly for her to name it.

"Show her why we call you that."

Shaylah smothered her irritation at Califa's tone; when dealing with slaves, Califa's superior attitude truly came to the fore.

There was that moment of delay once more, and Califa's brows furrowed. But in the moment when she moved her hand toward the controller at her belt, the man called Wolf lifted his left arm. His chiseled face expressionless, he turned his hand palm up in front of Shaylah. This time her gasp escaped. The inner surface of his wrist was a mass of scar tissue, thick and shiny. It explained, she guessed, why the two outer fingers on that hand were frozen in a slight curl, while the others moved normally.

"Do you remember the old Triotian legends?" Califa asked. Unable to tear her eyes away from the grisly sight, Shaylah shook her head numbly. "You should; we studied them enough at the institute. And you used to tease me about the one I was named after. Don't you remember about the wolf, that mythical creature of Trios that would gnaw off his own paw rather than stay trapped?"

"Eos." Shaylah whispered the oath in awe.

"He did it on Clarion. Used the edge of the wristcuffs, sharpened on the stones of the market wall. If they hadn't discovered it, he could have slipped the loose end of the chains through the ring on the wall and been gone."

"Minus his hand," Shaylah hissed through teeth clenched against the nausea that rose in her at the thought.

"As it was, he nearly bled to death. And he did lose the use of two fingers." Califa shrugged. "It was a good thing for me, though. The Club wanted to be rid of him, because he was too much trouble. And since he was maimed, I got him for a lot less than he would have cost if he'd been perfect."

For the first time Shaylah wondered just how deep that coldness she had occasionally sensed in her friend ran. Califa herself was not "perfect," and if anyone had suggested her wound made her less desirable, Shaylah was certain Califa would slice that person's tongue out. But the man called Wolf was, after all, Califa would say, only a slave.

Reluctantly, but somehow unable to stop herself, she lifted her gaze once more to his eyes. She knew by the flash in the green depths-a flash of puzzlement, surprise, or sardonic amusement, she couldn't tell-that her emotions must be showing in her face.

"Perhaps, then," she said softly to Califa, all the while never looking away from him, "it's just as well."

She was sure of his reaction this time; one golden brow lifted in surprise.

"Wolf!"

Califa snapped the word out, her hand hovering over the amber button on the controller. He continued to look at Shaylah for that perfectly timed instant, then lowered his eyes submissively. Shaylah knew slaves were not allowed such liberties as expressing emotions. They spoke only when spoken to, looked at you only when given permission. And answered, not asked, questions. But anyone, she thought, who thought this man broken was a fool. "Go now," Califa ordered. As his head moved in an obedient nod, Shaylah saw his eyes flick to her once more. The surprise had faded, to be replaced by a look that made her feel oddly warm. Then the man called Wolf turned and left them. Shaylah watched him go, admiring the strong, graceful stride, heating up again at the taut, muscled curve of his buttocks flexing in the trewscloth that barely covered the essentials. At the same time that cold, hard pain that had taken up residence in her at the first realization that he was a slave tightened another notch at the degradation of this proud, magnificent male animal.

"Sometimes I wonder if he's worth so much trouble," Califa said with a sigh. "No wonder the Club got rid of him. Do you know he tried to rip the collar off, once? I don't think he even realized it was surgically implanted."

It was all Shaylah could do not to throw her glass of the precious brandy. "Pardon him," she said tightly, "for not knowing the intricacies of enslavement."

"Would you rather he be treated like the rest of the Triotian survivors?" Califa said defensively. "Worked to death in the mines or the labor camps?"

"He might think it a better bargain than prostituting himself."

"Perhaps," Califa said, sounding stung, "you think I should have left him on Clarion. Kryos, the slave trader, was ready to put his eyes out."

Shaylah shut her own eyes against the images those words brought to her. She'd offended her friend, she knew, but somehow she just couldn't take things like this as lightly as she used to. Maybe she'd seen too many people fighting and dying to save their homes and families, like the Triotians had. Maybe she'd seen too many brave men and women who had been herded away to the camps Califa spoke of.

Maybe, she thought wearily, she was just too damn tired to think straight. She shouldn't be taking it out on an old friend who was trying to make the best out of what was left to her after her flying career had been abruptly ended.

"I'm sorry," she said. "I'm still wound up, I guess. You didn't make this world, and it's not your fault that I don't like it much."

Califa was instantly sympathetic. "I understand. I know it's tough to unwind after a battle. Here, try the brandy."

It went down smooth and hot and fast, and Shaylah welcomed the spreading warmth. But she excused herself after the second glass, thanking Califa again and promising to meet her for firstmeal at dawning.

Back in her quarters, Shaylah changed into the robe she took with her everywhere. It had been her mother's, brought home from a trip to pre-Coalition Trios, along with a multitude of amazing stories, not the least of which was the tale that the delicate blue fabric had been woven with threads made by the larvae of some Triotian insect. Shaylah was almost certain that story had been invented to amuse a child sulking at being left behind while her parents went off to the most popular vacation port in the sector.

And soon afterward-too, too soon-her mother had been dead. Shaylah sighed and wandered over to the entertainment wall. Nothing particularly interested her; public information reports were too regularly depressing, she didn't want to watch any of the several cineplays available, and she certainly wasn't hungry. Maybe she would just go to bed. Even with her long nap, she could certainly use some more sleep. She could-

The buzz at the door interrupted her thoughts. Califa, she thought, wanting to see if she was truly asleep or available for a late night chatter session. She crossed the room and slid open the door.

"Still a night owl, I see-"

She broke off, staring at her visitor. It wasn't Califa. It was Wolf.

Chapter 2

"I… What are you doing here?"

Eyes appropriately downcast, he murmured in that rough voice, "I am honored to be chosen, Captain."

Shaylah stared at him blankly. "Chosen? For what?"

"To pleasure you."

"What?" she yelped, startled.

"There is a message," he said in explanation.

Startled, Shaylah glanced at the communicator beside the door. The message light was, indeed, blinking. Wondering how she had missed its beep, she reached over and pressed the button beside the flashing light. Immediately Ca-lifa's recorded image filled the small screen. She was laughing.

"I promised you dessert, remember? Give it a try, my friend. You might be surprised at what it will do for you."

The image flickered and was gone; Shaylah groaned. Embarrassedly aware of her flaming cheeks, she turned back to the golden figure in her doorway. He was, she noted grimly, as beautiful as she had thought the first time. It made the cuffs and chain that bound his wrists together seem obscene.

"Er… Wolf," she began, then faltered. It was impossible, she thought, to talk to someone who wouldn't look at you. Especially when all you could see of his eyes were long, thick, gold-tipped lashes shadowing high, almost regal cheekbones. She wondered what those lashes would feel like brushing her skin, then felt herself heat at the thought.

He moved then, extending one chained hand.

She looked and saw the controller resting on his palm.

"Eos," she whispered, "they make you carry your own cross?"

His head came up then, sharply, and green fire sparked as he looked at her, obviously startled that she knew the old savior legend. He searched her face with an intensity that astonished her; she realized that this was incredibly audacious behavior for a slave. He seemed to realize it even as she did and quickly lowered his eyes.

"No," she said, the protest breaking from her without thought. "Don't do that."

His head came up again, and this time the slave looked at her from those green eyes. There was the briefest hesitation as his gaze slid over the thrust of her breasts beneath the blue silk of her robe, but he said nothing, merely once more held out the small power unit to her.

She knew, from the requisite instructions given to all Coalition warriors in handling slaves, if she took it she would quite literally own him. Each unit was programmed to the specific brain waves of the slave it was designed for and could alter those waves in any way the possessor of the unit wished. All she had to do was take it, activate it with her systems card, and this magnificent creature would be hers to command. He would clean her flight boots, brush her hair, or kiss her with machine-induced passion. If what Califa had said was true, he would mate with her until she was limp with physical satiation and still be ready at her command.

She could even use the brain-wave system to achieve the simulation of bonding if she wished. She could turn the man called Wolf into her dream lover, who would say exactly what she wished to hear, do what she wished him to do, touch her exactly as she wished to be touched, and declare himself hers forever out of love. She could have her dream. But it would be only that, a dream.

She stared at him, knowing that he knew as well as she did what surrendering the controller meant. Something shifted beneath the flat, dull gaze of the captive, as if he knew also of the vivid images that had swamped her. The pictures she'd conjured up left her breathless; the method left her feeling slightly ill.

"No," she said again, backing away from him a step in the manner of one recoiling from a temptation for something she knew would destroy her. "I can't do this."

Puzzlement flashed across his face. She could

see the question in his eyes, knew he didn't dare ask it.

"Please, I… it's not… just go," she ended desperately.

The puzzlement deepened as he looked at her for a long moment. At last he spoke, carefully making the words not a question. "Major Clax-ton said… you wanted me."

I do, Shaylah thought, still feeling breathless. Eos help me, I do. And I can't have you. Not like this. It would go against everything I've ever believed, everything my parents taught me. But, oh, the temptation, to have this golden man touch her with even the simulation of love was-

Impossible, she told herself sternly. "I'm sorry," she said briskly. "This is all a mistake. Please go now."

He drew back a little. "But-" He cut himself off sharply, and she saw his jaw tighten as he squared his broad shoulders.

His head lowered as he assumed the subservient posture again.

"As you command." He gave the traditional slave's response in a voice that clawed at something deep inside Shaylah. She felt a shiver ripple through her as she watched him walk away, every muscle in his near-naked body glistening in the lights of the passageway. He'd been prepared for her, she realized with a little shock his hair freshly cleansed, his powerful body oiled, and wearing a new trewscloth of some soft, clinging material that emphasized rather than concealed the masculine contours. Were there slaves who prepared the slaves? she wondered dazedly.

Restlessly she paced her quarters, her arms wrapped around herself as if it could ease the strange feelings churning inside her. When at last she slipped off the robe and retreated to the bed, she feared she would never sleep.

When she did, her dreams were haunted by a golden image rising above her, soothing her battle-weary body, teasing her with delicate touches to a delicious frenzy. He came to her with desire in his face, need in his body, love in his vivid green eyes. And without the golden collar around his neck.

* * *

"Something big must be on!" "I saw three cruisers leave port yesterday." "I wish they'd tell us what's happening." Shaylah heard the youthful voices as she walked down the hall to the dining room. When she turned the corner and came upon the group of cadets, they snapped immediately to attention and moved respectfully out of her way, lining up against the wall as if she were about to inspect them.

"At ease, troops," she said with a friendly laugh; a couple of them smiled back at her tentatively, and the girl at the end of the row threw her a snappy salute.

"Do you know what's going on, Captain?" she asked.

"No," Shaylah said, "afraid not."

They looked disappointed.

"No one ever tells us anything," Brakely, the cadet who had met her at the door, complained.

"They don't tell anyone anything," Shaylah said dryly. "It makes them feel important."

The cadets were still laughing as she waved and continued on her way to the dining room. She shook off a familiar qualm as she passed the female slave at the door. Despite a lingering weariness after a restless, dream-filled night, she had found it an unexpectedly relaxing day. The humidity had broken, and a cool breeze had blown in from the mountains to the west. A walk in the extensive gardens had soothed the disquiet in her soul, and another long soak in the massage pool had soothed her body. In fact, it had been a most peaceful day, marred only by the habit she couldn't seem to break of scanning her surroundings constantly for a glimpse of light gleaming on a golden mane of hair.

She wouldn't ask where he was, she told herself as she joined Califa for dinner. She was better off not knowing. And if she didn't see him again before she was recalled, she'd be better off for that, too, she added with emphasis.

When Califa suggested more brandy, Shaylah opened her mouth to say no. But no words came, and she found herself nodding her head instead. Califa waved a signal.

She sensed his approach and made herself study the table before her as if it held one of her navigational star charts. The decanter came into her line of vision. It was set down rather heavily, but she didn't look up. Then the glasses appeared, clinking together. Odd, she thought. He'd done it so quietly yesterday.

Her forehead creased as she looked at the hand that had set down the glasses. It was shaking. Even as she watched, the long, strong fingers curled into a fist, as if to hide the trembling. It only sent the tremor rippling up his arm.

Shaylah couldn't help herself. She looked up-and for the third time since she'd been here, gasped at the sight of him. He looked dreadful. He was ashen beneath the gold tint of his skin, and his jaw was clenched tightly, as if only sheer force of will were holding him upright. Little shudders, barely visible, swept him as she watched.

The question escaped her before she could stop it. "What's wrong?"

"Go now, Wolf." Califa's words came sharply.

"Wait," Shaylah said, reaching out to touch his hand. Instinctively he looked up, and she gasped again. His face was haggard, almost gaunt, his eyes darkly shadowed and bruised-looking. Pain and exhaustion stared back at her from beneath the gold-tipped lashes, the vivid green turned gray and muddy. His wrists and ankles were raw, as if he had strained against his chains for a long time.

"By Eos," she whispered, "what happened?" Something akin to bitterness flickered in his eyes, then died, as if he had no energy to sustain it.

"Go, Wolf," Califa snapped.

Shaylah's throat constricted until she could barely breathe as he walked away. The smooth, graceful stride was gone, distorted into a shambling, painful gait that made her own body ache as she watched.

"I'm sorry," Califa said. "I'd forgotten how sensitive you are about some things. I should have had someone else bring the brandy."

"What- " She had to stop, swallow, and try again. "What happened to him?"

"I'm afraid Marcole got a bit carried away with the punishment." Califa shrugged. "He does enjoy his work."

"Punishment? What punishment?"

"Usually it would be just a night spent with the pain system activated to the second level. But Marcole insists Wolf needs special attention. Anything less than fourth level doesn't seem to have much effect."

Shaylah stared at her friend, wondering how she could talk about nothing less than torture so casually. "Much effect?" she finally managed to say, the memory of those haunted, pain-filled eyes stark in her mind.

Califa shrugged again. "Marcole threw in a few jolts of five level, just to emphasize the price for failure."

"Failure? What did he fail to do to deserve that?"

Califa looked surprised."To please you, of course."

Shaylah let out a startled cry. "What?"

"His orders were to pleasure you. He failed to carry them out."

"But… I sent him away."

Califa nodded. "Obviously he did something to offend you. He knows the penalty for that."

"But he didn't! You knew I didn't want… that!"

"If he'd pleased you enough, you would have changed your mind. But he failed," Califa explained patiently. "You can't let a slave get away with that, Shaylah. Even you should see that. He had to be punished."

A memory flashed through her mind, quick, vivid, and razor sharp. That second of hesitation, the protest he had cut off sharply just before leaving her… He had known what he would be going back to. He had let her send him away, knowing what he would face when he returned so quickly, obviously not having done what he was sent to do.

It was her fault he had suffered such hideous punishment. She hadn't understood, hadn't known what her rejection would mean. But he had. Yet he had said nothing, had not uttered the slightest protest that might have saved him. Because had she known, she would never have sent him away. They would not have mated as expected, but no one would have known. He would have been safe.

"Don't feel bad," Califa was saying in soothing tones. "It's not your fault. After the way you looked at him last night, I assumed you had changed your mind about a mating."

Shaylah shuddered. She had much to answer for; in her determined ignorance of the system she so hated, she had brought disaster down on a man who had already seen far too much of it. And Califa… she saw nothing amiss in the logic that allowed her to punish a slave for not doing something he hadn't been ordered to do in the first place.

"Was he uncooperative, or something?"

"No." It came out as a tight little whisper.

"Then why? I do need to know, Shaylah, before I send him to someone else."

"Someone else?"

"Yes. Krel-you remember my old navigator, don't you?-has had her eye on him, but I was saving him for you. You outrank her, after all, and besides, she tends to claw up the merchandise a bit. You know how Carelians are." Califa looked suddenly thoughtful. "But that might be good for him, teach him a lesson. She'll be back tonight, so-"

Loathing, violent and corrosive, bubbled up inside Shaylah. Loathing for this system, for the cowardly euphemisms that tried to hide the reality, and, in this moment, loathing for the friend who supported and encouraged it. She scrambled to her feet; Califa stared at her.

"I want him," she said harshly. "Tonight, and from now on while I'm here. No one else is to have him, for anything."

Califa looked stunned. "But I thought-"

"Can I have him, or not?"

"Well, of course. It's what I'd planned, anyway, but I thought you didn't-"

"I do." Short and sharp, her words cut Califa off. Shaylah stared at the woman who'd been her friend for so long, wondering if she'd ever really known her.

"I'll send him to you," Califa said, eyeing Shaylah a little warily.

"Thank you." She turned on her heel, conscious of Califa's stare but not caring.

Back in her quarters, she paced the floor with short, quick steps. Even though she'd been expecting it, waiting for it ever since she'd left the dining room, she still jumped when the buzzer sounded.

She had hoped that she'd been mistaken, that he didn't look as bad as she'd thought. She knew she was wrong the moment the door slid open, If anything, the softer lights of the dining room had masked the true extent of the damage. He swayed slightly as he stood there; she saw him struggle to control it. She dreaded the moment when he would look up and she would see those eyes again.

"Why?" she whispered. "Why didn't you tell me?"

His head came up then. He met her troubled gaze, and beneath the pain and exhaustion she saw her answer.

"Pride is a costly thing for a slave," she said softly.

He lowered his eyes once more. Bracing his unsteady right arm with his half-functioning left hand, he once more held out the control unit. This time, although she had no intention of using it, she took it. A tiny breath, barely noticeable, escaped him.

Voices echoed in the passageway, and Shaylah glanced up to see two cadets approaching, involved in animated speculation about the recent exodus of Coalition vessels. Quickly she stepped aside, clearing the doorway. Wolf took her hint and stepped past her into the room, out of sight from the corridor. The two cadets saluted respectfully as they passed; she nodded, then shut the door and turned around.

He was standing beside the bed, his feet apart slightly as he braced himself against the tremors that still shook him. His unsteady fingers were plucking at the ties of his trewscloth, and color rose in her cheeks as she realized he was about to take it off.

"Don't," she said quickly.

His head came up. He said nothing, but stopped. He lowered his hands to the traditional clasped, submissive position before him, his only choice because of the chains.

"Please, sit down, before you fall down," she said urgently; he looked even paler than he had before.

He sat on the edge of the bed. She saw the skin around his mouth tighten as the metal cuffs tugged at his wrists.

Shaylah swore, low and harsh. She looked at the controller, trying to remember her single long-ago training experience with one. She had tried it, because she'd been ordered to, but she hadn't really believed it truly worked, that anyone would invent something so horrible. She'd been cruelly convinced in short order.

She walked quickly to the counter and picked up the system card. She inserted it into the controller with a hand that was almost as unsteady as his had been. The lights flashed on, glowing steadily. She walked back to him, but after a few fruitless moments, she swore again.

"Eos, I can't remember!" She looked at him. "Tell me."

His voice was flat when he answered. "The blue one."

Flushing, her gaze shot to his face. "Not that."

That bitterness flashed in his eyes again. "Then perhaps you want the yellow one."

She nearly dropped the controller. "Why in Hades would I want that?"

He just looked at her.

"Why would you think I want to cause you more pain?" she demanded.

"Because you asked for me this time. When I am… like this."

"You think I enjoy it? That seeing you like this… excites me?"

"There are those to whom it brings pleasure."

"I sent for you," she said fiercely, "because they were going to give you to a local Carelian tonight. For mating. I've seen what they do to those they mate with. And this one… she is, particularly vicious."

"Degrees of Hades," he said, with that look again, flat, dull, resigned. Shaylah felt as if her heart had been ripped open, and she struggled with the controller once more. At last, in desperation, she turned it over. Something about the odd-shaped button on the underside triggered a memory, and she quickly pushed it.

The snap as his chains unlocked startled her, but it was clearly nothing compared to his astonishment. He stared at her as the cuffs fell away from his wrists, revealing reddened, raw bands of skin.

"You… wish me unchained?"

"Of course, or I wouldn't have done it," she retorted, relieved that she had found the right switch. She picked up the fallen cuffs and chain with a grimace and stuffed them out of sight beneath the bed. Only then did she realize he had actually voiced a question. He must have been truly startled, she thought grimly.

He was staring at her in bafflement. Shaylah let out a compressed breath; this was going to pie more difficult than she had expected. Even seated he was looking paler by the moment, and she was afraid for him.

"What I wish," she said, "is that you lie down."

After a barely perceptible pause, he bowed his head. "As you command." He reached once more for the ties at his hip.

"Don't," she repeated hastily.

He looked up, clearly puzzled. "You asked Major Claxton for rile," he said slowly, again careful not to actually voice a question. "You wish me unchained. You wish me to lie down. But you do not wish me naked." Her color deepened, but faded as something that could have been apprehension flickered in his eyes. He went on in a low voice, "My appearance displeases you."

"Eos, no," she exclaimed. "You're the most-" She stopped, knowing she would sound like a giddy cadet if she told him what she really thought of his wild, golden looks. She took a breath and began again.

"Wolf, listen," she explained, "I do have… some wishes, but now is not the time. We'll talk about them later. Now you need rest. Sleep." "You wish me to sleep… here?" She'd startled' another question out of him, Shaylah thought. Progress indeed. "Where else?"

"Usually, if I'm told to stay…" His glance went to the floor beside the bed. There was a metal clasp set into the wall just above the floor, at just the right height to hold a chained slave.

"Well this is not 'usually,' " she said, her voice sharp with anger.

He stared at her. "No, it is not," he said softly. Something in that look warmed her, and her voice was gentler when she went on. "You won't

get the kind of rest you need on the floor. Lie down, Wolf."

Slowly, he did, the effort it took for him to lift his legs onto the bed making her own muscles ache anew. She noticed again the raw, red skin of his wrists and ankles, and went to her bag for the healer's spray she always carried in case of injury. As she recrossed the room she noticed a small, dark spot on the floor. Then another, closer to the door, then another. She leaned over to look closer, then wheeled around and strode quickly back to the bed.

"You're bleeding," she exclaimed, her eyes searching him for the fresh wound. "It's on the floor."

He lifted himself shakily to one elbow. "I will clean it." He started to rise, but Shaylah stopped him.

"Don't be silly. Where is the wound?"

"I don't- " He broke off as she looked at him sternly. "Right ankle, I believe.".

She looked and quickly found the laceration. "They keep you in leg irons?" she asked, her voice quavering.

"Only at night."

"Or when administering punishment?" she guessed, and knew she was right when he looked away. She bit her lip as she sprayed on the combination disinfectant and cell renewal formula. "I'm sorry, Wolf. I didn't know this would happen."

He went rigid, and when she looked up he was staring at her. This went beyond surprise; he was stunned. "You are apologizing? To a slave?"

"To a man," she said softly, as she recapped the spray.

He was silent for a moment. "I don't understand you."

She smiled wryly. "Funny, most of my friends say the same thing." She straightened up. "Sleep. Then we will talk of… my wishes, all right?" He looked at her warily, and she sensed he was looking for the trap. "No catch, Wolf. Just rest." He didn't believe her, and she couldn't blame him. For now, at least, she was going to have to pull rank. "Close your eyes, Wolf," she ordered.

"As you command," he muttered. The gold-tipped lashes lowered, but Shaylah knew he was far from sleep. Resignedly she reached for the controller. The training was coming back to her now, and she was able to find the blue setting she wanted. In seconds she saw his body slacken as his brain-wave pattern changed to match that of the transmitter, sending him into sleep.

Shaylah watched him for a long time before she finally switched off the controller. He slept on, a deep, natural sleep now, and she nodded in satisfaction as she curled up on the padded bench built into the wall next to the bed.

When she woke hours later, she saw the light blinking on the communicator and realized the beep had been what awakened her. She lowered the volume so it wouldn't disturb the sleeping Wolf, then played the message. It was Califa.

"I trust you're sufficiently entertained, since you missed firstmeal," she said, with a teasing glint in her eyes. "I can have midday sent to your quarters if you like. And dinner as well, for that matter." The image giggled. "Just let me know. Enjoy, and later you can tell me if he's as good as they say. Perhaps I'll have to try him myself sooner than I had planned."

The message wound to a stop, and Shaylah stared at the frozen image. Who was she, this woman she had flown with and fought beside? This woman whose life she had once saved, and who had once returned the favor? This woman who so casually accepted-or perhaps even ordered-the torture of a chained man until he could barely stand?

"Have you always been like this and I just didn't see it?" she muttered softly.

She tried to tell herself it was the custom. The use of slaves, either in private homes or in the Legion Clubs scattered throughout the colonies, as solution to the physical needs of the various members of the Coalition Legion was an accepted practice. The Legion members were warriors and had earned such tribute, was the consensus. And if Shaylah hated the system, if she was uncomfortable with that portion of Coalition history which had brought those slaves from all of the far-flung worlds the Coalition had conquered, she knew it was she who was out of step.

Moving suddenly, she snapped off the receiver and turned on the transmitter. The message she recorded was short to the point of curtness, but she didn't care.

"Please have meals delivered to my quarters until I advise differently. And see that we're not disturbed."

She sent it, then turned the unit off with a sharp, angry snap of her wrist. Aware of the tightness of muscles that had cramped on the small bench, she stretched to loosen them. Another hot plunge sounded appealing, she thought. She turned to go for her robe.

He was awake, and watching her. He looked better, she thought. Much better. The shadows beneath his eyes had faded, and he was much steadier. He said nothing.

She didn't know how long he'd been awake, but from the way he looked from the now inactive communicator to her, she guessed he had heard enough. Remembering Califa's closing words, she was embarrassed. It was an uncomfortable feeling, being ashamed of a friend.

"I'm going to soak," she said. "Food should be here soon. We'll talk then."

When she emerged from the pool, she dressed quickly in a comfortable jumpsuit; the luscious odor of food was making her empty stomach growl. She came into the room to find a big table laden with covered dishes, and a silent Wolf sitting on the edge of the bed, staring at the floor.

She walked quickly to the table and lifted one of the thermal covers. The steaming aroma of spicy rockfowl met her nose, and she smiled when she heard Wolf's stomach growl. There was a lot of food, but oddly, only one empty plate. She solved the problem by dividing the rockfowl and using its plate as a second. She began to fill the plate, lifting the other thermal covers as she went around the table.

"You must be starving; your stomach's growling," she said. "Why didn't you start?"

His head came up. "You wish me to eat… with you?"

Shaylah sighed. "Yes. I wish you to eat with me. I wish you to quit looking at the floor. I wish you to quit acting like you've broken the fifth stellar law if you ask a question. I wish- Never mind. Later. Eat."

As if on cue, his stomach gurgled again, and Shaylah grinned. She added a helping of steamed organics and held the plate out to him. He stared first at the food, then at her face, his eyes wide with shock. The irony of it hit her; the master, for all intents and purposes, serving the slave.

"Eat," she said again. He moved as if to reach for the plate, then stopped, still eyeing her warily. "Look," she said quietly, "I know you don't trust me. You have no reason to. I can only promise that I won't consciously do anything to get you in trouble again. Please eat."

At last he took the proffered food. Shaylah couldn't help noticing that, despite his obvious hunger, he had better table manners than most pilots she knew. They ate in silence, finishing virtually everything on the table.

"I must have been really hungry," she said as she wiped her fingers. "I usually can't finish one of Califa's meals."

Wolf's plate hit the table with a thud.

"What?" she asked. He didn't answer. "You're staring at the damn floor again. What did I say?"

"I wasn't expected to eat with you."

"Of course you were. Califa knows you are here. Why would you think that?"

"One plate. And nothing left."

Shaylah's brow furrowed; he was right. "But… she can't have expected me to eat all this and not share it with you."

"She expected," he said slowly, "that you would give me your leavings."

Shaylah sighed again, deeply. "I think," she said, "it's time to talk about those wishes of mine."

"As you command," he answered reflexively, resuming the submissive posture.

"That," Shaylah said, "is first on my list. I don't want to hear that anymore. I don't want you to… to stand like that anymore. Or to choke on your questions. Got it?"

"As you- " He caught himself. "If you wish."

"I do. And I don't want you staring at the floor unless you've lost something." His head came up. "Very good. Now relax." Something flickered in his eyes, and Shaylah smiled wryly. "Can't order that, can I?"

"You did last night." He looked surprised that he'd said it, and drew back a little as if he expected her to retaliate somehow. He glanced around the room, and it took her a moment to realize what he was looking for.

"Yes, I did order it last night," she agreed mildly. "You needed the rest, and you didn't trust me enough to do it. And if you're looking for the control unit," she added, glancing at her flight bag, "I put it away."

He met her eyes then. "Why?"

"Just put it down to one of my wishes."

The green eyes were filled with weary speculation. "You've said what you don't want. What do you want from me?"

"I want you to forget the chains for a while. I want you to move freely, to say what you want, to look me in the eye and not think you'll be punished for it." Shaylah took a deep breath. "I only have a short leave. I'd like you to stay here for that time. Away from…" Her voice trailed off, and she gestured vaguely toward the door. "Away from all that," she finished rather lamely.

One golden brow lifted. "You wish me to stay there-" he looked around at the spacious quarters, "with you? All the time?" She nodded. "Without chains? Without the control unit?" She nodded again.

He studied her for a long moment. And then, in a voice that held nothing of the submissive slave and everything of a strong, dangerous man, he said softly, "Then tell me, Captain Graymist, what's to keep me from killing you and escaping?"

Chapter 3

"You could try, I suppose," she said calmly. Shaylah wasn't surprised; she'd known from the first that this man was not beaten. Wolf stared at her; she met the steady green gaze levelly. After a long, silent moment he spoke again, in that same curious voice..

"Somehow I don't think it would be easy."

"No," Shaylah agreed without conceit, "it wouldn't."

"So, Captain. One of those questions you don't want me to choke on. Why are you doing this?"

She sighed. "That's… complicated."

"Too complicated for a slave to understand, I presume."

Shaylah eyed him wryly. "I know you don't have a high opinion of the Coalition, but don't think that I'm a fool. You're hardly stupid."

"High praise, from a Coalition hero." Shaylah studied him for a moment. His tone had been undeniably mocking. The change in him was dramatic; it was almost as if he was intentionally goading her, for a reason she didn't quite see. True, she had unchained him, but he still wore the collar, and the control unit, while out of sight, was not out of reach.

"All right, then," she said slowly, "I'm, doing this because I hate what they've done to you. Because I hate the fact that they hide the reality of slavery behind fancy names. Because I hate the thought of what they make you do."

"So you thought you'd… what, be kind to a slave for a while, to ease your conscience?"

"I have nothing to feel guilty about, nothing to do with this system," Shaylah snapped. "I just thought you might welcome a few days of freedom, of doing and saying what you wish, of no one controlling you, of no one jolting you with pain to keep you properly in your place."

"And what do you gain?"

Was it only moments ago she'd been wanting him to ask questions? Shaylah wondered. "I want someone to talk to who doesn't run and tattle if I don't spout the Coalition rhetoric," she said impulsively, aware her words could get her into, trouble.

"Then perhaps you should get a pet." Wolf lifted a brow. "Or is that what you're doing?"

Stung, Shaylah opened her mouth for a sharp retort. Then she shut it again, her brows furrowing as she studied him for a long, silent moment

"You're doing this on purpose, aren't you? You're trying to make me angry. Why?"

Surprise showed in his face, as if he hadn't expected her to realize that, but he merely shrugged wordlessly.

"What were you trying to accomplish? To make me so angry that I would… what? Put you back in your chains? Use the controller on you? Change my mind and throw you out again?" His face didn't change this time, but Shaylah caught the flicker in his eyes. Bewildered, she shook her head. "Why?"

He only looked at her.

"Wolf, I know you have no liking for the Coalition, and Eos knows you have reason-"

"I abhor the Coalition," he said flatly, "but that is only to be expected from one enslaved by it. It has nothing to do with this."

Shaylah was startled when he interrupted her, yet she welcomed it as a sign that he was growing to realize he could trust her not to punish him for speaking. Or, she thought glumly, he'd decided he was already in so much trouble a bit more didn't matter.

"Then what?" she asked. "Am I so… repulsive to you that even freedom is not worth spending time in my company?"

Something odd came into his eyes then, something she didn't recognize. "You're hardly repulsive," he said softly, paraphrasing her own words.

More relieved at that than she cared to admit, Shaylah repeated her question. "Then why?"

He let out a long breath. When he spoke, his words were strangely gentle. "You left one thing out of your tempting offer, Captain."

"What?"

"What do I do when you leave?"

Shaylah looked at him blankly. "I don't understand."

"You are a woman of strong emotion, Captain," he said in those same gentle tones. "Can't, you imagine what it would feel like to have a taste of freedom, knowing you will be cast back into Hades afterward, knowing that taste is alt you will ever have?" Shaylah stared at him, wide-eyed. "Wouldn't you wonder if maybe you would be better off not having that taste at all?"

"Wolf," she breathed, staring at him with horror-filled eyes. "I'm so sorry. I never thought- I didn't understand. I never meant… Eos, I'm such a fool."

"No. You're many things, Captain Graymist, but never a fool."

Shaylah drew herself up, straining for control. She gulped in a breath of air to steady herself. "I'm sorry," she repeated, formally this time. "I didn't realize the horrible position I was putting you in. You may go."

He watched her for a long moment. He looked bemused, but Shaylah got the impression it was at himself rather than at her.

"Is that… an order?" he finally asked.

"I thought it was what you wanted," she said, confused.

His mouth twitched, and Shaylah could have sworn it had nearly been a smile. "Are you saying I have a choice?"

"Of course you do. I wouldn't… force you, one way or the other."

"I've not been confronted with choosing what I want for some time," he said slowly. "Perhaps I should make sure I know exactly what I'm choosing between."

"Meaning?"

"If I stay… exactly what will you expect of me?"

"I told you. I expect you to do- or not do-whatever you wish."

"But not to pleasure you."

Damn, she thought as color flooded her cheeks again, why did she have to blush so easily, especially with this man? In her discomfiture, her words came out sharper than she intended.

"I'm sure that will be a great relief to you."

"Not necessarily." He looked at her steadily. Then, consideringly, as casually as if he were discussing the meal they'd just finished, he said, "What if that was what I wished to do?"

Shaylah's chin came up. She might be feeling I like a flustered schoolchild, but she was also a captain in the Coalition Legion, and it was time that self-discipline was exercised.

"All things considered," she said as coolly as he had, "I'm sure that is not the case. And I find I have an excess of pride in this area. Forcing someone to mate with me is not my idea of pleasure."

He shrugged, seemingly unruffled by her tone. "It would not be any hardship to pleasure you, Captain. You are very beautiful." He lowered his gaze for the first time since she had told him she had put away the controller. "And I think you would be… gentle. Not like the Carelian."

"Stop it," Shaylah grated, that subservient tone scraping over her nerves. He looked at her, and something she saw there widened her eyes. "You did that on purpose again. You knew how I would react. Is that your way of making sure I won't change my mind and force you?"

He didn't deny it. But before he looked away, a strangely pensive expression crossed his face. "It might be… nice to mate in freedom, even if only for a while."

Her legendary Coalition calm was having trouble coping with the images his words brought to her. In desperation, she seized on something that had piqued her curiosity.

"Could you?"

His head came up. One corner of his mouth twisted as he looked at her. "I've been trained well, Captain. The Coalition has developed whoring to a high level."

Shaylah recoiled at the bitter answer to what had been an innocent, instinctive question. "I only meant… I thought Triotians didn't mate outside of bonding."

His gaze sharpened as the bitter smile deepened. "True. I'd be in a great deal of trouble if my world still existed, wouldn't I?"

"Of course not. I'm sure you couldn't be blamed for what you were… forced to do."

His level expression reminded Shaylah with painful effectiveness that that was exactly what had happened when she'd forced him to leave her last night.

"Besides," he said when he saw that she had realized the irony of her own words, "haven't you heard? Bonding is a myth, a fantasy. One male, one female for life is an official Coalition impossibility."

Involuntarily she shook her head. "No."

He lifted a brow. "You… believe it exists?" he asked.

"I know it does. My parents were bonded."

She knew she'd truly startled him then. He stared at her. "But you're not… Triotian."

"No." She smiled. "Well, not exactly."

"Not exactly?"

"Not unless being… conceived on Trios counts." She blushed, feeling it stain her ivory skin, despairing of ever learning to control it. "But no, I'm not Triotian. Not like you are."

Pain flickered in his eyes in the instant before he lowered them again to hide it. "I was Triotian. I don't know what I am now."

She tried to smother the pang that shot throug her at his words; she'd seen him in pain, she'd see him debased, she'd seen him surprised, but she'd never seen him so close to defeated.

"Wolf…"

She reached out tentatively. Her fingers countered the bare, sleek skin of his shoulder. She sensed him stiffen, but only vaguely; swas too fascinated by the odd little jolt that ha gone through her at the contact, making fingers tingle.

She drew back her hand, looking at it as if;

could find an explanation for the sensation there. She raised her gaze to him; he was sitting rig idly straight.

"If you want to go," she began, "I understand.'

"Do you?"

There was something in his voice that set o a warning signal inside her, and she'd learned the hard way not to ignore such signals.

"What is it that I don't understand?"

"Nothing. What is your command?"

"I told you, the choice is yours."

"Choice?"

It came out sharply, as if against his will. alarm clamored again, louder. She thought] again, not sure why, of that moment before he'd] turned and left her that first night, that moment when he'd almost told her what would happen] to him if she sent him away.

"Wolf? Nothing will happen. I will tell Califa that you… pleased me."

He looked at her silently, but Shaylah was beginning to learn to read him now, despite his carefully schooled impassiveness.

"What's wrong?" she demanded.

"What is your command?" he repeated flatly, dully.

Frustration exploded through Shaylah. "Damn it, Wolf! Do I have to order you to answer me?"

He shrugged.

"I will get an answer," she warned vehemently.

He got up, walked stiffly to the counter, reached into her bag, and pulled out the controller. Without a word he turned back and held it out to her.

"No!" She struck out, sending the unit flying off of his palm to bounce across the foot of the bed. Her stomach churned. "I won't use that. I hate it. And I won't make the choice for you, either."

Silence spun out between them; green eyes held blue, searching. At last, so softly she could barely hear the words, he spoke.

"There is no choice, Captain. There never was. You made sure of that."

"What do you mean?" Shaylah's eyes widened. "What do you think we've been talking about?"

"I only pursued it because I was curious about why you wanted me here. If you send me back now-"

"But I said I'd tell Califa you pleased me, that

I just changed my mind about the rest of my leave."

"Major Claxton will presume you did so because I displeased you in some way. A second failure."

"But it's not true!"

"Was it true the first time?"

"No, but…" The nausea that had been threatening rose in her throat. "You can't mean you'll be punished like that again?"

"No."

Shaylah let out a sigh of relief. Wolf just looked at her, much as her father used to when she said something exceptionally naive. Foreboding swamped her.

"What… is the penalty for a second failure?"

He held her gaze for a long, silent moment.

"Wolf?" she whispered.

"Death," he said flatly.

* * *

Shaylah shifted on the bunk, curling her legs up under her as she leaned against the wall. She looked at Wolf, who was watching her intently.

"You must be enjoying this," she muttered, taking another gulp of air to try to steady herself;

she was more than a little embarrassed at her outburst, especially when she'd blurted out the ridiculous order that he stay here or she'd kill him herself.

"A Coalition captain-a medaled hero, at that-in tears?" His mouth quirked wryly. "I should be enjoying it, I suppose."

She wiped at her eyes again. "But you aren't?"

He let out a long breath. "If you were a typical Coalition captain, I'd be having the time of my life." His mouth moved again into that odd expression that could almost have been a smile. "But then, a typical Coalition captain wouldn't be crying in the first place."

"You don't have to remind me."

"No," he said softly, "a typical Coalition captain attacks without a qualm, slaughters an entire race without blinking, and wouldn't cry at the destruction of an entire world, let alone the plight of a lowly slave."

"The Coalition hasn't destroyed anything for years," she said defensively, not mentioning the fact that it hadn't had to because no one had had the strength to fight back for long.

Wolf's voice was deceptively casual. "Five years, to be exact."

Shaylah flinched. "I was still in the Academy then. I wasn't part of the Trios campaign."

"No. You just keep the system going now that there's no one left to fight back."

"I…"

Her voice trailed off. He had echoed her own thoughts, and she could think of nothing to say. They sat for a long time in silence, Wolf rubbing at his wrists-healing now, thanks to her treatment-Shaylah staring at his bowed golden head.

"Wolf?" she said at last, tentatively.

He looked up.

"If you knew what would happen if I sent you away again, why did you try so hard to make me do it?"

He looked away again, staring at his wrists as if they'd changed in the space of seconds.

"You were testing me, weren't you?" she asked softly. "To see if I meant what I said?"

He shrugged.

"You thought I was… tricking you? That I was lying about why I wanted you here?"

"I've seen cleverer traps," he agreed, "but none baited so temptingly."

Beyond the flush of pleasure at the implicit compliment, something else struck Shaylah. Something about the way he spoke, the way he looked at her. It all came together for her then, all the images of him she'd been receiving since the first time she'd looked up and his presence had slammed into her soul.

"Who are you, Wolf?" she whispered.

He raised his head, and for the briefest of moments she saw something flash in his eyes, something vital and alive and oddly noble. Then it was gone, and he was saying mechanically, "I am called Wolf. I am conquered, a slave of the Coalition."

"You may be enslaved," she said slowly, "but you're not conquered."

He drew back, one hand lifting to touch the golden collar. Shaylah saw the movement and shook her head.

"If they think implanting that has beaten you, then they're fools."

He lowered his hand sharply, as if he hadn't realized he'd moved to touch it. "In that case, I am fortunate that most of the Coalition forces are not so… astute."

Shaylah studied him for a moment. "You're doing this on purpose, too, aren't you? Letting them think you're broken, that you have no real fight left? Until you can… do something?"

His eyes narrowed. "If that were true, I would be the fool if I admitted it. Especially to a Coalition captain."

Shaylah scrambled off the bed, her bare feet making little sound on the floor as she began to pace. She had never felt So utterly confused. When her mother had died, her father's presence had given her direction. When she had gone off to the Legion Academy and flight school, her drive to become a pilot had been her life. But now she was face-to-face with the dark side of the career she'd chosen, and she didn't know how to deal with it.

Wolf had made her face it. Just by his existence, in this place, with that cruel band about his neck, he had made her face it. And it did nothing to ease her confusion that he was the first person she'd actually wanted to talk to in eons. The first person who'd said anything other than what a good Coalition citizen was supposed to say. The first person in so very long who had challenged her, made her think. And he was a slave, a captive, all that was left of a race of beautiful, intelligent, peaceful people whose lives and world had been destroyed by the Coalition.

"All I wanted to do was fly," she murmured as she came to a halt before the large mirror.

"And now you don't like the price?"

She whirled back to face him. "I don't like the fact that you, and others like you, have paid it." She crossed the room and stood before him. "Please, Wolf, just for this time… forget what I am. I want no past, no rank, no Coalition to be part of this."

"If that is your command."

All of Shaylah's newly awakened sensibilities rebelled at his resumption of the old, subservient tone. "No commands," she said harshly. "No orders. Just a request between… friends."

One golden brow lifted sardonically. "Friends? It would not be wise to let that radical idea become known, Captain."

"It's not radical," she ground out. "It's the way it should be." Her gaze fastened on the gleaming collar. "If I could, I'd-"

"You'd what? Free me? You can't."

"I know," she said miserably. She turned away, walking back to the mirror. She stood there, head down, unable to face her own reflection.

"It seems I have a choice after all," Wolf said after a moment. "Whether to spend this time as slave to a Coalition Captain… or to spend it living an illusion of freedom."

Shaylah lifted her head, catching his reflection in the mirror. He was watching her, his vivid green eyes alight with something she didn't recognize. His hair fell in a shaggy mass, golden and gleaming, down to the broad, strong shoulders. His face was more taut somehow; he reminded her once more of that last lion, caged but not defeated, captured but not mastered,

Perhaps she was a fool, she thought suddenly, uncertain why it occurred to her now, except that it had something to do with that look in his eyes. A fool to pass up the chance to have this man, for however short a time, under whatever circumstances, in her bed.

Certainly no male she'd ever met before, on any world, had had this incredible effect on her, making her heart pound and her blood race at the very sight of him. A mating with him would be fierce, intense, and maybe a little wild, and she felt her body respond to just the thought. The rest of the cosmos thought nothing of mating so casually; why should she?

No, she told herself, looking away from that reflected golden image. Not that way. If she never had him at all, it would be better than having him because he had no choice. Wouldn't it?

He was behind her, close, heat radiating from his body, and she hadn't even heard him move. She smothered a startled cry and spun around to face him. That avid look was gone now, but she had the oddest feeling it was only hidden, concealed easily by a man who had been forced to become expert at burying himself alive.

As he looked at her, Shaylah felt as if she were waiting for something much more momentous than a simple decision on how these days would be spent. And when his answer came, her joy was all out of proportion to the simple words.

"If you're no longer a captain, what am I to call you?"

"My name is Shaylah," she said, and she couldn't stop her smile as she looked up at him.

* * *

Shaylah drew in a deep breath of the air tinged with the sweet scent of blue Triotian roses. Another spoil of war from a destroyed world, she thought, then pushed away the bleak thought.

They'd done well, these past few days, keeping to their bargain and avoiding any mention of the Coalition. Or of its prisoners. Only at night did it come back to her, when Wolf quietly took his chosen spot on the floor beside the bed. She hated it, but she didn't know what to say. She'd tried to get him to take the bed while she slept on the padded bench, but he refused, saying he was used to the floor.

"Good night, Shaylah," he would say, and she would curl up in the big, lonely bed and hug the sound of her name on his lips to her as if it alone could keep her warm.

There was, of course, another solution, but even the idea of sharing the bed with him caused such a maelstrom of emotions within her that she could barely breathe, let alone speak. She had set the limitations of their relationship; she couldn't change them now because she felt this inexplicable need to have him just hold her.

Now, in the garden, she turned her head to look at Wolf. He was sitting barely a foot away from her, his legs crossed, his elbows resting on his knees. The slight breeze stirred his thick hair, the light from the twin suns gleaming on the lightest strands, forming a golden halo around his head. His body was beautiful even at rest, she thought, long, leanly muscled, broad shouldered, and narrow hipped. She dragged her eyes away before they went any farther; that damn trewscloth didn't do much to hide what little she hadn't seen of him.

She saw him yawn, and stifled a smile. They'd gotten little sleep, although not for the reason everyone-especially Califa-assumed. Even the cadets smiled knowingly as they passed on the garden path. Thinking, Shaylah assumed bitterly, of their own future days, when they, too, would have the slaves of the Coalition at their disposal.

But all those assumptions were wrong. She and Wolf had been talking, for hours, in a way Shaylah had never known since she'd left home and the long, far-reaching conversations she'd had with her father. For her it was a wonderful release; what it was for Wolf, she could only guess. He answered her questions, although sometimes with vague, evasive words that made her chafe with frustration. Eventually he even asked a few of his own, about her home, her family, and how her parents had come to be bonded.

"They met on an excursion to Trios," she'd explained, "but it didn't occur to them then. It was only after they'd been together for some time that they realized what they'd seen between bonded pairs on Trios was how they felt about each other. So they went back."

"It's not easy for outworlders to get permission for a Triotian ceremony," he'd said; the habit of carefully phrasing questions as merely observations was apparently hard to break. Small wonder, Shaylah had thought, considering the punishment. Again, she'd pushed aside the bleak thought.

"No, it's not. They had to apply, and remain there for months for observation while the council decided."

"Not many outsiders would think it worth all that."

"My parents did. They were already planning on me, and they wanted the bonding before that."

He smiled, and Shaylah caught her breath; even though he did it occasionally now, it still overwhelmed her.

"They even followed that tradition?" he asked.

"My father was fascinated by Triotian legend. My mother just liked the idea of it."

Remembering that conversation now made Shaylah realize how little she had been able to get him to say about his own family. Her curiosity was immense, but the knowledge of how painful it must be for him kept her from prying too determinedly. She only hoped that eventually he would trust her enough to speak of it.

She watched him move his hand over the cool, thick grass-another piece of Califa's Triotian loot-that grew here by the garden pond. He touched it lightly, almost caressingly, and turbulent sensations welled up inside her: compassion for the way he stroked this reminder of his home, and a sudden, fierce desire to be touched by him in the same way.

The combination stole her breath, and she had to look away. She raised her knees and wrapped her arms around them to steady herself. It was a long moment before she had herself in hand enough to speak.

"Wolf?"

He stopped the motion of his hand and looked up.

"Do you come here a lot?"

"I've never been here."

"Why?" Stupid, she told herself the instant the question was out. Because it's too painful a reminder, of course.

"It is not permitted."

She remembered then the look the slave at the gate had given him as they had entered the garden. Wolf had been reluctant, but she had insisted; this was the first time they'd been outside, and she could see he had missed the open air.

"Do you want to leave?" she asked. "I didn't realize… most of this is Triotian, isn't it?"

He nodded, then let out a short, compressed breath. "I will just consider it… part of the fantasy. Perhaps if I try hard enough, I can make myself believe it's real."

Shaylah looked around at the lush greenery, the bright, scented flowers, the cool, inviting pond. "Is it really like this? On Trios?"

"It was. It's nothing but a wasteland now."

"All of it?" She knew even as she asked that the question was pointless; the Coalition was nothing if not thorough.

His eyes went distant, unfocused. "As they dragged me away in chains, there was nothing left but a wall of fire and smoke. The last thing I heard were the screams of my people dying. The last thing I saw was the headless body of my father, hanging in front of the Sanctuary of the Sojourner." His mouth curved bitterly. "The Sanctuary was sacred, dedicated as a resting place for travelers. Our laws forbade us to turn away sojourners. So we welcomed the first from the Coalition."

Shaylah made a tiny sound as her arms tightened around her knees. "They were the scouts," she said dully.

Accounts of the "glorious victory" had been required reading for all Legion cadets, including the self-congratulatory chronicles of the Coalition's cleverness in using the Triotians' own laws and innate kindness to destroy them.

"Yes."

He said it flatly, without emotion. Shaylah couldn't look at him, couldn't bear to see the horror of remembrance in his eyes. But he'd never spoken of it before, and she had to know.

"The rest of your family… were they captured, too?"

"No. They were luckier than I."

Her head came up then. "They escaped?" Possibilities raced through her mind; if he had someone to go to, could she help him? Califa might sell him-to her, at least-if she signed over her ownership of this land, but the Coalition would never allow-

"They're dead."

The harsh, unconditional declaration shattered her silly thoughts. Once again he'd dragged out reality and thrown it in her face, once again showing her she'd been living the life of a hypocrite. She'd pretended she had nothing to do with the uglier side of Coalition; as part of the defense force, she flew only against those who attacked Coalition colonies, not as an aggressor. But Wolf had made her face the fact that she was supporting the system that enabled the atrocities to go on.

"I'm sorry, Wolf," she moaned, burying her head against her raised knees. "Eos, I'm sorry."

He didn't laugh at her, he didn't call her sorrow the pathetic, useless thing that it was. He merely said softly, "I know," and succeeded in ripping apart something deep inside her. She couldn't bear this, she couldn't-

"Well, isn't this picturesque? The mighty Captain Graymist and her love slave."

Shaylah's head snapped up. Her eyes narrowed; a Carelian, clad in a Coalition navigator's uniform, stood before them. She hadn't seen her for a long time, but Shaylah knew instantly; this was Krel, the one who wanted Wolf. She scrambled to her feet.

Shaylah glanced at Wolf. He, too, had risen, and was standing with his eyes carefully downcast, She had gotten used to directness from him, and this reminder of his true status clawed at her already lacerated emotions.

"Did you want something?" she asked the other female coldly.

"I did, but you got him first." The Carelian's naturally pinkish skin made it hard to determine if she was as angry as she sounded. "But I'll forgive that for the pleasure of seeing the pious Graymist at last down here with the rest of we mortals. Although if he's good enough to make even you admit you're a woman, I'm sorry I missed out. This time," she added pointedly.

"You'll never touch him," Shaylah ground out recklessly.

"Oh, I'll do more than touch him. And although he won't be nearly as pretty when I'm through, from what I hear I'll be quite… content. Tell me, is he as tireless as they say? And as… well, I suppose I can find that out for myself, can't I? You won't mind if I take a look, since I'll be claiming him as soon as you leave?"

The Carelian's hand moved, her long, bony fingers extending as she reached for the ties of Wolf's trewscloth. Shaylah saw him tense, knew he didn't dare move; it would cost him his life to lay a hand uninvited on his owner's guest. Instinctively Shaylah moved, her hand clamping on the Carelian's wrist and holding fast.

The woman cried out in rage, and her other hand came up fast, curling into a vicious claw as she unsheathed her sharp, curved, and pointed nails and drove them at Shaylah's face. Shaylah threw up her other arm. Hot, sharp pain shot through her as the talons caught her flesh.

Before the woman had a chance to deliver another blow, Wolf was on her, and she shrieked as he flipped her backward through the air as easily as if she'd weighed no more than a petal from one of the roses on the bush she landed in.

"You dare touch me, slave?" She scrambled to her feet, bleeding slightly from several scratches from the bush. "I'll have you whipped, do you hear me? I'll have you gelded! Then I'll claw your skin off myself, piece by piece!"

"I think you had better spend your time thinking up an explanation for why you attacked a superior officer," Shaylah said coldly. "I believe you'll find in the Articles of Coalition that it is an offense punishable by banishment to the outer colonies, or death-at the discretion of the victim."

The woman went as pale as a Carelian could. "You wouldn't…" She trailed off as Shaylah's icy gaze never faltered.

"I won't," Shaylah said ominously, "unless you give me reason."

"So," the Carelian sneered, reduced to words as her only weapon, "the great warrior lets a slave do her fighting for her now?"

"He's worth a dozen of you, Carelian."

Fury flared in the pink eyes as the woman got slowly to her feet. "We'll see about that. You'll be gone soon, and when I get through with him, he won't be worth shipping to Ossuary to sell."

"You go near him, and that will be the reason I'll be looking for. And I promise you, if anything happens to him-or me-those that need to know what happened here will know."

With a snarled Carelian curse that Shaylah was thankful she didn't know the meaning of, the woman tugged at her thorn-ripped uniform and fled.

Chapter 4

Shaylah didn't notice how very silent Wolf was until they were almost back to her quarters.

"What's wrong now?" she snapped, the pain in her arm beginning to make itself felt now that the hot tide of anger was receding.

"I'm not used to having others fight my battles for me."

"I'd say," she retorted as she turned her face to the panel for the retinal scan, "that you got your turn in. Besides," she added, "I would have thought you'd enjoy it."

"Seeing you get clawed by that… creature?"

"No," she said as the scan verified her identity and the door slid open, "having two women fighting over you."

She stepped inside, turning back to look at him when he didn't follow. He was standing stock-still in the doorway, quite literally gaping at her. She'd never seen him so at a loss. And then, unexpectedly, impossibly, he was laughing. A hoarse, rough laugh, like the creak of a hatch opening after being rusted shut, but a wonderful laugh nevertheless. It made Shaylah want to laugh, too, but instead she found her eyes brimming with tears at the sound.

Wolf's eyes narrowed and the laugh died away. "Your arm?" he asked, stepping inside and going to her. "Are you sure you won't go to the infirmary?"

She shook her head. It wasn't that bad, but it was easier to let him think it was than explain the real reason behind her tears. She wasn't sure she could explain it, anyway.

She was stunned when he reached out and cradled her arm in his big hands; he'd never initiated any contact between them. Her sleeve was in shreds, and blood was beginning to saturate the fabric.

With gentle but firm pressure he urged her into the soaking room. She sat rather suddenly on the edge of the small pool, wondering why she hadn't noticed how shaky her legs were before. Silently he grasped two pieces of the sleeve and tightened his fingers. It split easily before his strength.

He cleansed the wounds, three long, ugly slashes that fortunately were not excessively deep. Still without a word, he retrieved her healing spray and applied it generously. The bleeding slowed, then stopped; he wiped her arm and sprayed it again.

"Unless the cat is infected with something, you should be fine."

Shaylah looked at him sharply. His voice had been so level she wasn't sure if he'd been joking or not. Only when she saw his eyes was she certain. She couldn't stop the grin that curved her lips.

"She did spit a bit, didn't she?"

"Only after you blunted her claws with the Coalition rule book."

"She deserved it." And the bitch wanted Wolf, Shaylah thought. And she would use those claws on him, doubtless while he was chained and helpless. She shuddered at the thought of that sleek, golden skin ripped to ribbons.

"It still pains you?"

It took her a moment to realize he meant her arm. "No, it's fine. I…" Her voice trailed off. What could she say? The grim truth of his earlier words was haunting her now: What would he do when she was gone? She couldn't keep him from the likes of the Carelian forever.

Trying not to think about it, Shaylah glanced at her arm, saw that the spray had dried into its protective coating. She stood up, swayed on her feet, and muttered a sour oath under her breath. Wolf reached out to steady her with a hand on her shoulder; the contact nearly made her gasp. She hadn't imagined it, she thought, that little shock that went through her at his touch. Her gaze flew to his face.

He looked as disconcerted as she felt. He pulled back his hand, his fingers curling as if they were tingling the way hers had when she'd touched him.

Shaylah sucked in a quick breath. His eyes were searching hers, as if seeking some clue. Then he turned and left the room, and she released the breath she only now realized she was holding. She didn't understand what happened when they touched, but it eased her confusion somewhat to know that it appeared to affect him, too.

She heard the sounds of the evening meal arriving in the other room. Slowly, and somewhat gingerly because of her arm, she shed her clothes and slipped on the long, blue silk robe, drawing it tight around her waist. She padded out of the soaking room on bare feet.

Wolf was sitting at the table, waiting; she still couldn't get him to start before her. "Manners," he'd said when she brought it up, "not orders."

It was a silent meal, Shaylah still wrestling with her own grim thoughts. She didn't know if Wolf was responding to her own lack of conversation or if he was having some bleak thoughts of his own. When the food was gone and the table removed, they lingered in continuing silence over the sweet lingberry liquor Califa sent every night.

"It was meant for you," Wolf had said the first time Shaylah poured a portion for him without a word.

"I know. To relax me, no doubt, knowing Califa. She must think I can't… function without something like this."

Wolf had looked away then, saying nothing, but Shaylah knew what he was thinking. "You're right," she said, "it's better than a collar around my neck to make me… perform. At least I have a choice about whether I drink it or not."

He'd looked startled then, as if surprised at her perceptiveness. He hadn't said anything, he'd been still wary of talking to her then, but she had known she'd been right.

The beep of the communicator made them both jump and startled Shaylah out of her reverie. The green light was blinking, indicating a live message. She was halfway to if before the thought that it might have something to do with the Carelian navigator occurred to her. The female was, after all, Califa's friend.

Her stride faltered. She glanced at Wolf; he was looking at the communicator as if he'd been thinking the same thing. Taking a breath, she reached out and turned the unit on.

Califa's face came into focus a few seconds before she spoke. "Well, so you are alive! Just checking, dear. I presume everything is going marvelously?"

The leer was conspicuous. Shaylah ignored it. "Fine, thank you."

"I must say, you've surprised me, my friend. I think I should get a medal for getting you to actually… enjoy yourself for the first time since I've known you. Wolf must live up to his billing."

Shaylah's gaze flicked to Wolf in silent apology. He lowered his head in that way she'd come to hate, as if Califa's image had reminded him of his place outside this room.

"He's… very special," Shaylah said.

"Well, when your approval becomes known, I shall be quite the envy of the sector! Everyone knows you're, shall we say, excessively selective?"

Pain lashed through Shaylah, harsh, biting. "Thank you for saving him for me," she said, her words suddenly sharp.

"Now, don't get in a fume," Califa soothed. "You have to admit this is unusual behavior for you."

Shaylah was about to disconnect abruptly when she remembered. "Califa, about your friend Krel," she began.

"Oh, she left this morning."

"She did?" Shaylah tried to sound surprised.

"Yes. Her crew had been recalled. I wonder what's up? That's the fourth crew this week that I've heard about."

"I don't know." Shaylah was wondering herself, wondering if the Sunbird would be next. "Has her ship cleared yet?"

Califa nodded. "An hour ago." The image smiled, the leer apparent again. "I think she must have found one of her own kind last night. She was scratched up a bit when she left."

Shaylah bit her lip to keep from smiling wickedly. "Could be. Er, I'll talk to you later, Califa."

"All right. Enjoy. And try to wear Wolf out, will you? Perhaps it will humble him, so he'll remember his place."

It was all Shaylah could do to keep her voice steady. "Good night, Califa." She snapped off the unit.

She was slow to turn around, dreading the look she expected to see on Wolf's face. Instead he wore that blank, expressionless mask. It was worse than the pain she had anticipated. She had grown used to seeing him without that shuttered look, and its return sent her already churning emotions into a rapid boil. She took three rapid steps toward him, then stopped. She shivered, then set her jaw.

"The Carelian's gone," she said, desperately trying to keep a grip on that feeling of rage.

"I heard." His voice was flat, dead, and his face never changed.

"Wolf," she cried out, unable to stop it, "what can I do? I swear, I'd buy you if it was allowed, but it's against regulations."

He never even blinked at her offer. "I don't believe you could afford me." The words came in that same indifferent voice. "I'm told I'm quite valuable."

"Damn it, don't do this." Shivering, Shaylah sank down on the edge of the bed.

"I'm sony. I'm not supposed to disturb the fantasy, am I?" In that flat, bland voice, the mocking words bit even deeper.

"You know that's not what I meant!"

"Then why are you upset?" His tone changed then, turned goading. "Oh, I see. Your reputation is in ruins, is it not? 'The pious Graymist at last down here with the rest of we mortals' was how it went, wasn't it? With your love slave-"

"Stop it!".Shaylah leaped up and flew at him, fists raised. "Stop it!"

She struck at him, heedless of the tears that had broken through at last, pounding at his chest with fierce, sharp blows. He made no move to stop her, absorbing the not insubstantial blows with little more than a wince. She kept on, sobbing now, broken words of denial spilling out as rapidly as the tears.

At last, exhausted, she sagged against him, weeping blindly. His arms lifted then, coming around her and enveloping her in warmth and support. How could he hold her like this, she wondered, when he must hate her? He must hate her, if he thought that she would care what anyone thought of her when he'd just been reminded so brutally what awaited him after she was gone.

Of course he hated her, she told herself. She was an officer of the Coalition, the force that had taken his world from him, that had subjugated him, chained him, and turned him into something his Triotian soul must recoil from in abhorrence. Yet he was holding her, tightly, and she felt his hand move to stroke her hair. She didn't understand.

"Let it out, Shaylah. It makes you no less strong."

His words were soft, soothing, and so unexpected she wasn't certain she'd heard them correctly. Then she realized she didn't care. She wanted to have heard them, just as she wanted him to keep holding her, just as she felt impossibly comforted by the touch of his hand on her hair.

"I hate it," she mumbled brokenly, "I hate it all."

"I know. If I wasn't certain of that, I wouldn't be here."

"I hate it," she repeated, "but I can't do anything about it. It feels horrible, like being crushed and torn apart at the same time."

She heard him let out a short, compressed breath. "I know.".

Of course he did. -Who knew better? She pulled back then to look up at him. "How do you stand it?" she whispered.

For a moment, just one flashing instant, she saw it all in his eyes, the pain, the anguish, the pure torture of his existence. Then he was back in control, looking down at her calmly. She was nowhere near calm herself, and she didn't know if she ever would be again.

"Oh, Wolf," she moaned, "there has to be something we can do! Maybe I can smuggle you out-"

"Don't be foolish. You know every Coalition ship is inspected nose to tail before it clears local airspace. They'd execute both of us."

"But I could-"

"Right now," he interrupted softly, "you need rest, or that arm won't heal for days."

He moved as if to release her. A quick, instinctive protest broke from her, and she clung to him, burying her face against his chest. He hesitated, then swung her up into his arms and put her gently down on the bed. As he tried to straighten up, Shaylah again clung to him.

"Please," she whispered, "just hold me for a while?"

Again he hesitated. Then he slowly lowered himself down beside her. He slipped one arm around her, and Shaylah burrowed close to his side. She knew he had to feel the little tremors rippling through her, but she couldn't seem to stop them. The last of her Coalition pride deserted her.

"Why are you doing this? You must despise me."

"I don't despise you, Shaylah. It's not your fault."

"But I'm part of the Coalition-"

"But you're an innocent in their true ways. At least, you were."

"Because I refused to see the truth." Her voice was harsh with self-disgust. She shuddered again, trying to bite back a fresh outbreak of weeping.

"It's all right, you know," Wolf said mildly. "If you don't let it out, it will choke you."

Something in his voice made her lift her head to meet his eyes. Realization dawned in her, and a rueful acknowledgment that she should have known by now.

"You did it on purpose," she breathed. "You meant for me to blow up, didn't you? That's why you kept acting like that, kept prodding me…"

"I know how it feels to try and hold in something that won't be held. Something that will claw its way out, somehow; and tear you apart in the process."

Shaylah sagged back against him. "Dear Eos," she breathed. "How can you… be like this? You have every right to be as cold and hard as… Triotian marble. Why aren't you?"

"I am, Shaylah. Don't ever doubt it." His voice, harsh and implacable, changed suddenly, softened into bemusement. "Except with you, it seems."

She didn't know what to say to that. She didn't know much of anything right now, she thought in weary frustration. Helplessness was a foreign emotion to her, and she wondered how anyone survived it, let alone a man as strong and proud as Wolf.

She couldn't think about it anymore. It was too much, too horrible, and she couldn't deal with it right now. Maybe Wolf was right. She needed rest; her arm was aching steadily. But she knew sleep was impossible. She was wound far too tightly.

"Wolf? Would you… talk to me?"

"About what?"

"Anything. Whatever you want."

He was silent for what seemed like forever, although Shaylah knew it was only moments.

"Do you still not trust me, then?" she asked quietly.

"It's not that. It is that… the only thing I can think to speak of is the one thing I've had to bury for so long…"

"Trios?" she guessed.

He nodded. "Home. As it was before, not…"

Shaylah slid one arm around him to hug him as best she could. "Was it really that beautiful? Like in the garden?"

"It was. All kinds of beauty. Wide, open plains, covered with grass. Tall, rugged mountains, fresh with the scent of the trees. Even the drylands had their own special beauty, especially at day's end, when the light would paint it with all the colors of the spectrum."

Shaylah snuggled closer as he went on, his quiet words made all the more eloquent by the knowledge that they hadn't been spoken for five years. He told her of all the places he'd been, until she was amazed anyone so young could have seen it all. He told her also of the places he hadn't seen, that he'd hoped to see. Places, she thought with acrid bitterness, that didn't exist anymore.

"My family had a dwelling in the mountains," he told her. "My father-" There was the slightest of pauses before he. steadied himself and went on. "My father designed it. On a cliff, looking down across a green valley, and the deepest, bluest lake you've ever seen. It was a place of quiet, except for the cry of the birds and the howl of the wild things. It was the only place I ever found absolute peace."

"It sounds… perfect."

He laughed, a little roughly. "It was far from that, but it was as close as we could make it. As was Trios itself. We were like any other race, Shaylah. We had our skalworms, our bad ones, just as every place does. But we tried, and we came close." She felt a little shiver run through him. "And we never appreciated what we had when we had it."

She didn't want to think about that; she wanted him to keep talking. His voice was doing oddly pleasant things to her, warming the places that had been so chilled by reality. Or perhaps it was being here like this, she thought, so close, her head resting on his shoulder, her hand on his naked chest…

"On Arellia," she said hastily, aware of the sudden heat that had flooded her, "there's a high place near my home. On it you can look out over the settlement for miles. At night, when the lights are on, it's beautiful. I go up there when I need to know that… everything's not rotten. I can stand up there, a part of it, yet above it, and tell myself that we've produced this, so we can't be all bad… Do you have a place like that, Wolf?"

"I did. It was by the mountain house, near that lake I told you about. There was a small cove, where a stream fed into the lake from the tableland above. It formed a waterfall that ran the seasons round. The trees were thick there, and it was always cool and sheltered. I went there often as a boy, and later, Brielle and I-"

He broke off suddenly, and when Shaylah looked up at him his eyes were closed and his jaw set. Her mind warned her she did not want to hear this, but her foolish heart forced the question to her lips anyway.

"Who is Brielle?"

She thought he wasn't going to answer. When at last he did, she wished he hadn't.

"My mate."

Her breath seemed to lodge in her throat. "You are… bonded?"

"I was."

The meaning in those death-knell words hit Shaylah like a physical blow. "Her, too?" she whispered.

"She was the last. I almost saved her, almost got her into the hills, before they caught up with us." He shuddered. "Beautiful, delicate Brielle. She was a tiny thing, so fragile. She trusted me to protect her…"

"Oh, Wolf… You're sure? She wasn't just… captured, as you were?"

He went rigid. "I'm sure. She's dead."

"But maybe-"

"I'm sure," he interrupted her harshly, "because I killed her myself."

Shaylah gasped.

"She begged me to. We'd seen what the brave men of the Coalition had done to other Triotian women. She would never have survived it. When we knew we were trapped, when they were closing in, she pled with me to save her from that."

Shaylah moaned low in her throat. She felt him shiver again.

"Do you know what she told me? At the end? That it was better this way, that she knew I could never bear to watch what they would do to her. That it would drive me mad, and that couldn't be, because I had to be strong enough to come back and-" He shuddered violently, the words ending in a strangled sound. For a long time, neither of them spoke.

"She must have loved you very much," Shaylah said at last, shaken by his words in a way she'd never known.

"She was my mate," he said simply.

"Is that… what it's like? To be bonded?"

"It's like nothing else in the universe," he said softly. "To put another above all else in your life, and know that she does the same. To know that it is forever. To be so much a part of someone that you are only half alive when you are apart…" he took a ragged breath, "and to mate with your perfect match… is to reach a place others only dream of. It's to know what glorious sensations your body is capable of, and then go beyond. And once you have, you are never the same again."

Shaylah stared at him through the tears that were beginning again. She was one of those others, she thought, one of those who only dreamed of the kind of mating he spoke of, in which the physical act was nothing compared to the joining of mind, soul, and heart. He'd known it, that dream, he'd lived it. And had it brutally snatched away by the crudest of fates, a fate that had forced him to destroy with his own hands the woman he loved above all else.

Shaylah's heart ached into the night, long after Wolf, drained by his painful recounting, slipped into sleep. The pain stayed with her in the days that followed, although Wolf never mentioned that night again. On the surface they slipped back into their old ways, but the memory of his horrible story haunted Shaylah until she could think of nothing else.

After that night, he returned to sleeping on the floor. It was part of the new reserve she sensed in him, and she wondered if he regretted baring so much of his soul to her. She missed his warmth and wondered how she could have grown so used to it after only one night.

The message came three nights later, while Wolf was in the soaking-pool. She'd had to work to convince him to use it instead of his usual washes in icy water; he had warned her that if it was ever found out she'd let a slave use it, even Califa would never forgive her.

"I'm not sure I care anymore," she'd said, and meant it.

When she answered the. door to find Cadet Brakely, she was startled. Until he handed her the coded message case.

"Looks like orders, Captain. Think you're the next call-out for whatever it is?"

"I don't know," she said numbly, barely remembering to thank him before shutting the door.

She carried the case to her bag and dug into the side pocket to bring out her Coalition identification seal. When she realized her hands were shaking, she sucked in a deep breath and steadied herself. She'd known this would come eventually, but she'd tried desperately to put it out of her mind; she'd succeeded too well, it seemed.

With a sharp, forced movement, she inserted the seal in the lock of the case. The lid flipped open, and the small cinescreen lit up.

"Good day, Captain Graymist." General Corling smiled at her benevolently. She nearly threw the case away from her in repulsion; he'd been the one in charge of the Trios campaign. "I'm sorry to advise you that due to-" he coughed, "a temporary crisis condition, your leave must be interrupted. You will report to your ship at first light and proceed out of the sector, where you will receive your orders. You will then pick up the rest of your crew and set a course for your assignment immediately." The screen blanked out.

It was over. Shaylah felt an odd numbness overtake her. It stayed with her throughout the evening, deadening her every action until Wolf asked, with more than a little concern, if she was all right.

It stayed with her until she crawled into bed and Wolf took his place on the floor. As if the sound of his quiet breathing was the key, the floodgates opened, and she was swamped with a pain unlike anything she'd ever experienced. A deep, clawing, wrenching pain that ripped at something vital inside her, leaving it torn and bleeding.

She would leave here tomorrow. She would leave here, and Wolf would return to his abyss of misery. She might never see him again. He would hate her for abandoning him to his fate, even though he had told her there was nothing she could do.

She would leave here, and there was a very real possibility she might never return. She could be killed in this "temporary crisis." She could die, never having reached that dream, never knowing what it would be like to touch or be touched by someone who loved her enough to pledge the rest of his life to her.

An image came to her, vivid and ugly, of Wolf crushed into submission once more, of him turned over to another, of him driven into mindless lust by a machine, of him chained and taken like the lowliest of whores. This, for a man who had once experienced the most incredible of matings, who had once loved beyond anything the twisted minds of the Coalition could comprehend.

She couldn't bear it. She hurt inside for both of them until she wanted to scream with it. She sat up in a rush, biting her lip until it bled to keep back the cry that rose from deep within her. She looked around the room wildly, as if there were something there that could ease her rising hysteria.

Her gaze fell on the controller, set aside and determinedly ignored since the day she'd struck it from Wolf's hand. She leaned forward and picked it up, staring at it as if it held the answers she sought. She tried to rally all her arguments, all her reasons for not doing this, but they were nothing against the overwhelming weight of pending loss that threatened to crush her. She slid out of bed.

She knelt beside the sleeping Wolf. With a trembling finger she flicked the blue switch on the controller. The light blinked coolly in the darkness. Slowly, she moved the dial until she heard his breathing change, become deeper. She waited until the blue light glowed steadily, then, smothering the last of her qualms, bent over him.

She whispered soft words, gentle words, words meant to take him back to a happier time, back to the world and life he'd lost. She whispered of the place by the waterfall, of the woman he'd lost, and the love they'd shared. And at last, of the mating that was so extraordinary. When at last he stirred, when the vivid green eyes fluttered open, she knew from his first words that she'd succeeded.

"Brielle?" His slightly unfocused gaze fastened on her. "Bree," he whispered, reaching for her. He pulled her down to him, a low groan escaping from his throat. "God, Bree, it's been so long."

At the last second Shaylah's nerve shattered, and she tried to pull away. But he had a grip on her now, and he was too strong. His hand slipped behind her head, fingers threading through her hair as he pulled her mouth down to his.

At the first touch of his lips on hers, Shaylah lost any thought of resisting. All her reservations vanished in the instant flare of warmth and sensation. He was heat and light in her darkness, and she melted before his fire.

She'd never known, only dreamed of this, only hoped that it existed, and that she was capable of it. It was what she'd waited for, this inferno of pleasure; it was what had kept her from joining the rush to easy pleasure common in all the Coalition colonies.

His mouth was gentle yet firm, coaxing, and when he ran his tongue over her lips, she parted them for him without a thought. He plunged deeply, eagerly, and Shaylah moaned at the sweet invasion.

His arms tightened around her, and he shifted until she was sprawled on top of him. His hands began to move, smoothing her body through the blue silk, searching out every curve as if he'd loved her forever.

When his hands slid around to cup her breasts, his fingers caressing her nipples to tingling, taut peaks, Shaylah lost the last remnant of reality. This was no longer a man controlled, a man in a machine-induced hypnotic dream; this was the lover she'd always imagined, the man she'd always longed for.

She twisted sinuously, arching to thrust her breasts harder into his hands. She heard him groan as he lifted his hips, and she felt the aroused length of him pressed against her belly through the trewscloth.

Wild with this newfound need, she rolled to one side and plucked at the ties at his hip. The cloth fell away, and he sprang unfettered into her waiting hands, hot and smooth and massive.

The moment her fingers touched him she heard him gasp, and his hips bucked sharply, driving that swollen male flesh hard against her palm. Instinctively her fingers curled around him, stroking, caressing.

"Yes," he hissed out between clenched teeth, "yes!"

It happened quickly then, so hot and fierce Shaylah's senses reeled under the impact. He tugged off the blue robe and rolled her beneath him, his mouth seeking out every tender place, every sensitive spot on her body. At her slightest moan he lingered in the place that had produced it, driving her to the brink of madness. He whispered to her, hot vivid words of love and need. Pleasure went through her in waves, rippling, making her every muscle ripple in turn.

"Please," she moaned, "oh, please."

He slid between her thighs, pausing only to tease and suck each nipple with his tongue and mouth. "Now?" he breathed against her quivering flesh. "Now, Bree?"

Shaylah was so frantic she barely noticed the name. "Yes," she gasped, "oh, yes, now."

And then he was in her, high and tight and driving hard. She gasped at the shock of it, at the sheer, rending pleasure of it. It was too much, she couldn't take so much, he was filling her to bursting, impaling her, plunging fiercely. He was golden and beautiful and utterly male as he loomed above her, his body thrusting into hers.

She gripped his shoulders, her nails digging at rock-solid flesh as she writhed beneath him, certain she was dying. Nothing else could explain this incredible reaching inside her, this impossible pressure that was sending her spiraling upward toward a pleasure she couldn't even imagine. And then she was there, crying out as her body convulsed, then erupted into searing flares of heat.

She heard him echo her cry, felt his body arch above her as he drove himself home one last time. Then he collapsed upon her, his breath coming in ragged gasps in her ear. It was a long time before he rolled to one side, keeping her close as he did.

"Bree?" he murmured sleepily.

"Sshh," Shaylah said, even now unable to regret what she'd done. "Sleep now." She reached over and shut off the controller. And with her curled tight to his side, he slept.

* * *

Shaylah folded the robe and put it neatly in her bag. Then followed the golden gown. It was hers to keep now, ironically, a badge of achievement that had lost much of its appeal for her. Except for her brush, that was the last of it, she thought. It was nearly dawning. Nearly time to leave.

Drawn by a force she couldn't resist, though she tried, she turned around. Wolf was still asleep, lying sprawled on the floor, his golden body barely covered by the thermoactive cloth she'd pulled over them. Last night was almost like a dream to her; it seemed impossible that this magnificent man had mated with her so sweetly, so powerfully, no matter what the circumstances. With a heavy sigh, she turned back to the mirror. She finished brushing her hair, then fastened the collar of her flight uniform.

Something made the skin at her nape prickle. She whirled. Wolf was awake, and staring at her. She'd hoped to be gone before this, fearing she wouldn't be able to bear a good-bye; a weeping pilot would not help the Coalition image.

"I meant to be gone," she said, biting her lip.

"I'm sure you did, after last night."

Startled by his unexpected ferocity, Shaylah took a step back. "Wolf, I… I got my orders last night. I don't know what's going on, but it must be bad. I'm leaving."

"Damn you." His voice was cold, icy cold, and his eyes glittered green fury.

She tried to make him understand. "Wolf, please. I might not come back. If it's a battle…" She bit back the words that sounded so fearful and finished simply, "I couldn't leave, and… and never know."

He was on his feet now, his naked body taut with rage. Shaylah had expected him to be upset that she had broken their agreement, but she hadn't expected this fury. Yet despite it, she couldn't help looking at him hungrily, from the broad shoulders that still bore the faint marks of her nails, to the sleek, smoothly muscled chest, to the flat belly, and to the thatch of golden curls below it, surrounding his potent manhood.

"Damn you," he spat out again. "You played me like an airharp, didn't you? And I believed it, all of it, the tears, the sincerity-"

"Wolf- "

"So tell me. Captain. Did I live up to my reputation? Was I as good as all your others?"

Shaylah jerked as if he'd slapped her. "There have been no… 'others,' save one," she said huskily, then wished she hadn't when the quiet confession only seemed to make him angrier.

"Then why?"

"Why what? What are you talking about?"

"You know what I'm talking about, Captain. Was it a challenge for you? Were you coached? Did you do it as a favor to your friend Major Claxton?"

"Califa? What's she got to do with it?"

"Didn't she tell you exactly why the Club kept me for so long, even with all the problems I caused them? Didn't she tell you why I was so valuable?"

"What- "

"Would you like to know?"

"No- "

"She told you to try and wear me out, remember? Because no one else ever has. In all the time I was enslaved at the Legion Club, I pleasured whoever they ordered me to, whenever they ordered me to, for as long as they ordered me to."

"Stop it."

He went on as if she hadn't spoken. "My reputation for stamina? It's true."

He wasn't just angry, Shaylah realized. He was hurting inside, he was in agony, and he was striking back the only way he knew how. And it was working; the cold words in that lashing whip of a voice were killing her.

"Wolf, please-"

"I can pleasure someone all night long and into tomorrow, Captain. Because I have taken the Club's training a step further than they expected. It is the one thing I can control. The one thing that they hadn't counted on, the Triotian part of me they couldn't command."

"What?" She asked, knowing she couldn't stop him now.

"My own release."

"Your own…?" Shaylah's brow furrowed, then cleared as her eyes widened. "You mean you don't…?"

"Never."

When she thought about it for a moment, she began to see what it would mean to him. "You hold back… because it takes away from their mastery."

"They can force me to speak, to move, to act. But they can't force a Triotian… to feel." For the first time his expression changed, his mouth twisting bitterly. "It isn't much, but it's all I have. Or all I had. But you took that away last night, didn't you? And you took it with deceit."

Shaylah gasped in sudden understanding. He knew what she'd done. He remembered exactly what had happened; she could see it in his face. He wasn't supposed to-. _

Dear Eos, she'd forgotten. She hadn't completed the hypnotic instruction, hadn't planted the forgetfulness that should have come after-ward, the absence of details, leaving only vague memories and a sense of fulfillment.

"Wolf, I- "

"You took what I told you in trust and you, used it against me. You did what no one else has done in five years, Captain. You brought me to my knees-or should I say to climax? I hope you're proud."

"No," Shaylah whispered. "I never meant to-"

"You don't have to play the role anymore, Captain. You're leaving now. You did what you came to do. You tamed the Wolf. I'm sure Major Claxton is grateful. Perhaps she'll sell me back to the Club, now that you've given her the key. Now that I'm… domesticated."

"No! It wasn't like that; I'm not like them-"

"No, you're not like them. You're worse."

"Wolf!"

"They only took my body. You took my soul, Captain."

He turned his back on her, only now reaching for the trewscloth to cover his nudity. He swiftly tied it on, but remained with his back to her.

"Your ship is waiting, Captain Graymist," he said coldly.

Shaylah grabbed her bag, started to run, then stopped at the door and turned back.

"No matter what you think, Wolf, it wasn't like that. Yes, I was selfish. I was afraid I would never feel like you made me feel again. I had to know if it was true, if mating could really be something more. I was afraid I would die not knowing." She took a gulping breath. "And you… I know what you have to go back to, after I leave. I thought maybe if I… if I gave you something back… one last time with the woman you loved…"

He flinched as if she'd struck him.

"I'm sorry Wolf. You weren't supposed to remember. But even if you hate me for what I did last night, believe this: None of what happened between us was a lie. None of it."

On a choking sob, she turned and ran out of the room.

* * *

Shaylah had no idea how long it had taken, had no memory of clearing port, passing the Coalition inspection, and setting course out of the sector. Only when the alert call on the headquarters frequency went off did she come out of her numbness long enough to react.

"Captain Graymist." The general again, she thought dully. "Captain," he repeated. "Is there a problem, Captain?"

Wake up, she snapped at herself. This is supposed to be a two-way conversation, remember? She reached for the transmitter button and opened the channel.

"My apologies, sir, I was just… updating my log. I'm ready for orders."

The general nodded. "Very well. Your coordinates have been transmitted to your navigational computer on four."

She turned to the navcom and spoke. "Captain Graymist, Coalition Tactical Defense Wing Three, Identification Number 883157."

"Acknowledged," the computer returned.

"Confirm receipt of transmission from Coalition Headquarters, secure navigational frequency number four."

"Confirmed and locked in."

Shaylah turned back to the comscreen. "Confirmed, sir."

"Good. After picking up your crew, you will rendezvous with TacWings two and five."

"Yes, sir. May I ask what the situation is?"

"A small problem. A minor rebellion, although I hesitate to dignify it with that word."

If it's so minor, Shaylah thought grimly, why is it taking three wings? And those pilots who had left last week had been offensive, not defensive.

"Where, sir?"

The general coughed. He shifted in his seat. And at last he answered.

"Trios," he said.

Chapter 5

"I tell you, I have to admire those guys, but they're a damned pain in the backside!"

Shaylah looked at the man who had spoken. It was Krayton, an older pilot she knew slightly. He'd waved her down the moment she walked into the Darkstar's briefing room just before dawning.

"Cut your leave short, too,, huh?" was all he'd said before starting his harangue.

"Admire who?" she asked now. She had arrived at the general's flagship only minutes before and had heard none of the usual rumblings.

"Those damn Triotians."

Shaylah cringed inwardly. "Is there really a rebellion going on? I didn't think there were… any of them left."

"That's what the general thought, too. No sign of them for years. Thought they were wiped out."

Shaylah forced herself not to shudder. "But now?"

"Appears some of them survived. At least, Legion Command thinks they're Triotians."

"Nobody's seen 'em. They come and go like a whisperbird, not a sound, no traces left." Krayton shrugged. "Started with a few little forays here and there, a little sabotage, an assault on a supply caravan, but nothing to make Command sit up and notice. Until last week." "What happened last week?" "They captured a communications station." "Captured?"

"Took it quiet as you please, never even fired a disrupter. Let the staff go, too. Said they had no interest in holding non-Coalition personnel prisoner."

The Coalition, Shaylah thought bitterly, would have murdered them all, regardless. It was the standard solution to any potential problem, and Shaylah herself had been in deep murk more than once over her refusal to follow that policy to the letter. Only her sterling record saved her from disciplinary action; they couldn't very well call her soft when she had more medals and commendations than anyone else in the Third Tactical Defense Wing.

"Why are they in a fume over one com station?"

"Because this com station was the storage annex for a whole damn cargo load of hand communicators. And a base station transmitter."

Shaylah's eyes widened in realization. "Then they have communications."

"And a full range of frequencies to play tag with."

Shaylah let out a low whistle. "If they're careful about any long transmissions, they could run for quite a while before anyone could get a fix on them."

The older pilot nodded. "And they know it. And they know the terrain and they move fast. They disappear before we can react. And they have weapons of some kind."

"And now communications."

Krayton nodded. "All the necessities for combat."

Shaylah nodded slowly. "If they are Triotian-" she swallowed tightly and went on, "then why now? Why did they wait so long?"

"Maybe it took them this long to regroup." Krayton shrugged again. "Rumor has it the heart went out of them when the royal family was eradicated. Triotians set a lot of store by them. Some of them even risked death to try and retrieve the king's body after General Corling had him executed. Doesn't make sense to me. Every other figurehead like that was done away with eons ago."

"The Triotian king wasn't just a figurehead," Shaylah said. "He actually ran things, along with a council of elders."

"Oh?" Krayton looked at her curiously.

"And judging from the kind of world they had, I'd say he did a pretty good job."

The pilot glanced around warily. "Better not let anyone hear you talking like that, Graymist. Sounds a little too close to treason."

"Do they- " Shaylah broke off as a nattily uniformed young aide tapped for attention.

"People, please. Quiet for General Corling."

A silence as weighty as the man himself came down upon the room. He looked almost benign, Shaylah thought, like the rotund patriarch of some clan in the historic days when the unit of family was.the cornerstone of life. He certainly didn't look like a man who would order a wholesale slaughter of an entire planet's population.

The general began to talk. Odd, she mused. These briefings, heralding an upcoming mission, used to be life's blood to her. She had reveled in them, thrilled to be a part of it all, to be in the same room with some of the names that had rung heroically in her ears for so long, conscious with her every breath that she had achieved her life's dream, to belong in this room with them. What had happened to that joy, that electrifying excitement?

You know what happened, she told herself grimly. A golden man, chained but not bound, enslaved but not beaten, held up the ugly truth and made you look at it. Made you see the Coalition for what it is.

We aren't all like that, Wolf, she cried inwardly. We aren't all brutal and heartless. I'm not, and I know there are others. I'm not one of the cruel ones, the takers-

Wasn't she? It hit her with the force of a disrupter on full stun. Hadn't she been as cruel as it was possible to be, using emotions shared in trust for her own gain? Hadn't she taken what she needed, what she had to have, hiding the fact behind a half-truth, convincing herself that she was doing it for him as well as for herself?

Had she really just simply forgotten to add the words that would have left him unaware of the truth of what had passed between them? Or had it been some trick of her own ego, wanting to leave him with the memory of having mated with her, not the long-dead Brielle? She didn't know; she wasn't certain of anything anymore, except that she had never, ever meant to hurt him.

"Lucky you."

"What?" She looked up at Krayton, startled.

"Better you than me," he said. "It might be an honor, Captain, but I sure wouldn't want to ferry the general around."

Shaylah's head snapped around just in time to see the young aide disappearing through the doorway after Corling. Part of her brain must have been paying some kind of attention to the briefing, because she could hear the words echoing in her head as if they'd been recorded. The Sunhird, quicker and more maneuverable than the heavy Darkstar, was to be the temporary flagship for the initial reconnaissance before the search-and-destroy mission.

"Oh, no," Shaylah whispered.

"Amazing what beating four or five Romerian cruisers will do for your career," Krayton said, digging at her with an elbow.

"It was only three," she responded automatically, her mind racing, looking for some way, any way out. There was none, she knew. It was considered an honor, and she didn't dare refuse.

At least this meant she wouldn't be directly involved in "the action, she fold herself desperately. She wouldn't have to fire on the sad remnants of a once proud, peaceful people. It was small comfort, but all she had. She didn't know what she would have done had she been confronted with the order to attack Wolf's people. Her mind, her training, might tell her to obey, but to her heart it would be like firing at Wolf himself.

So instead, she thought sourly, you play shuttle jockey for the man who would direct that attack. The man who was bent on pursuing what little was left of the Triotian people to the death. The man who had rained destruction down upon them in the first place. The man who had cast Wolf into perdition.

But what else could she do? That helplessness flooded her again, and nausea rose in her throat. Short of murdering the man herself, which would end both her career and her life and do nothing to change the Coalition's determination, there was nothing she could do.

No one stood against the Coalition and lived to tell the story. Trios was proof of that. Fiercely independent, the Triotians had steadfastly declined the invitations to join the Coalition, which had its eyes on the rich resources of the planet- especially, with the Coalition's own mine petering out, the rich field of the pure quartz crystals that controlled the propulsion systems of the Legion. The invitation became an order; Trios had refused to obey. And then the delegation that had delivered that order had revealed their true function as scouts for the massing Coalition forces.

She fought the unwinnable battle all the way back to the Sunbird. Keleth Swift, her young first officer, lit up at her news.

"Flagship for the general? Really?"

"Yes. Call Lieutenant Sarleck, will you, and let him know I'll be bunking in his sick bay for a while."

"You can have my cabin, Captain," the first officer said quickly, his excitement still obvious.

"Thanks, Keleth, but no." I'd rather be at the other end of the ship, she thought grimly, even if it did mean braving the Sunbird's medical officer's irascible personality.

"I'll pick up what I need from my quarters," she told him. "Then have somebody go in and give it the once-over, will you?" She managed a rueful smile. "I'm no slob, but I doubt if it's up to the general's standards."

"Right away, Captain."

"You'll be in charge of the general's communications."

"Me?" He drew himself up, smoothing the perpetually tousled silver hair that marked him as a native of Zenon, and sounding so pleased she could hardly look at him.

"I'll appoint you as his aide, if you like." The young man's jaw dropped. Shaylah smiled, a little wearily. "Make your points while you can, Keleth. He's all yours."

"Thank you, Captain!"

Keleth would make a good captain himself someday, she thought as he hurried away. He had all the traits: drive, intelligence, common sense, the ability to think on his feet; he even looked the part, tall, handsome, and proud. And he was still young enough to believe in the glory of the Coalition. As she had been, not so very long ago.

By the time the general came aboard, Shaylah had herself under control. She was able to greet the man with the appropriate deference and ignore the fact that it was nearly choking her. They went through the protocol of transferring the command of the Sunbird; officially it was now the general's ship, although she doubted if he'd flown anything himself for decades. In fact, she thought, if she recalled correctly, he'd never gotten beyond helmsman on a transport cruiser in his flying days. He'd maneuvered his way up the ranks from there. She didn't let herself think about how he'd probably done it.

"Fine job you did with those Romerians, Captain," the man was saying briskly. "Feel quite safe in your hands."

"It's an honor to have you aboard, sir." She wondered if he would notice the flatness of her voice, but he never wavered in his practiced cheer as he greeted Keleth and the rest of the crew gathered for the momentous occasion.

When he was done, he turned back to Shaylah. "Sorry to cut your leave short, Captain. I'll see that you get the rest of it when we've wound up this little problem."

She went cold inside. This little problem. The extermination of whatever remained of the Triotians. "Thank you, sir," she said stiffly.

She'd been right, she found as the days dragged by. She saw and heard little of what was going on; her job was to fly the general where he wanted to go, nothing more, nothing less. While they were in orbit, maintained by the ship's computers, there was little for her to do. With Keleth in charge of communications, it wasn't difficult to maintain her blissful ignorance. She managed to keep her days full by clearing out the backlog of recordkeeping; her nights were full with no effort at all.

Every night he came to her, sometimes as she'd first seen him, shuttered and controlled. Sometimes it would be the other Wolf, smiling, relaxed, as he had been in those last days. Sometimes it would be the grim, caged Wolf who haunted her dreams. And on the nights when she awoke with a scream of protest echoing in her throat, it was Wolf as she'd left him, fiercely angry and hating her.

She'd lost track of how long they'd been circling Trios. She'd taken to spending hours on end here in the observation port, staring at the planet below. From here, safely distant, it looked like any other planet. But nothing could erase what she'd seen after the briefing, as dawning had spread light over the remains of Trios.

The Coalition weapons had reduced the rich, fertile earth to ash, incapable of supporting life. The waters were murky, clogged beyond redemption with rubble and cinders. Somewhere, perhaps, there was still life, but looking at the area around the Coalition mining outpost in this crystal-rich sector, it seemed impossible.

"Captain?"

She looked over her shoulder to see her first officer, looking as if he were relieved to have found her. She hadn't seen much of him lately- he'd been kept quite busy by the general-and Shaylah wondered if he missed, as she did, the long, rambling conversations they used to have, she enjoying his quick intelligence, he soaking up everything she could tell him with an avidity that reminded her of herself.

"Yes, Keleth?" she prompted.

"I think you'd better come to the con."

She got to her feet. "What is it?"

"We just got a report from ground units."

She led the way into the corridor. "And?"

"It seems the Triotians have a fusion cannon."

Shaylah stopped midstride. "They what?"

"Yes," Keleth said grimly. "Last night the surveillance scans picked up a ripple in the energy field. They got a second, stronger reading a while ago, and the results are positive."

Shaylah let out a breath, then started to walk again. "How on earth did they manage to get a fusion cannon?"

"That's what the general wants to know."

The chaos in the conroom made it clear that Corling more than wanted to know, he was demanding an explanation. And whatever Legion Command was telling him over the scrambled channel was not what he wanted to hear.

"We have no choice! With a fusion cannon, they could destroy an entire squadron with one shot!"

Shaylah couldn't hear the response, but it was clear the general didn't like it.

"I know it's impossible, but I've got the proof, I tell you!" Corling broke the connection with a furious slap of his hand on the control panel. "Fools," he snarled.

He whirled around, and when he saw Shaylah he began to snap out orders. "Set a direct course for sector twelve. I'll smack some sense into those idiots at Command."

"A direct course, sir?"

"That's what I said, Captain."

"A direct course would take us through Romerian airspace."

"The Romerians can spit in the wind. The sooner I get this data to those simpletons, the sooner I can get back and do what must be done. We'll stop this if I have to blow up the damn place! We can mine crystal on an asteroid as well as a planet,"

Shaylah choked back a sound of horror. "But sir-"

"Do it, damn it! That's an order!"

Any doubts Shaylah had about his capacity for savagery vanished. This was the man who had overseen the bloody subjugation of Trios and was ready now to finish the job by blasting it out of existence. And ready to enjoy doing it, as well. Shaken, she nodded to Keleth, who walked to the navcom station and set in the course.

"Maintain second-level watch," she ordered. They might get lucky and slide through the Romerian sector without contact, but she doubted it. She'd fought Romerians before and won-it was what had gotten her into this mess to begin with-but she wasn't looking forward to it again. She sat down at the con, then nodded at Keleth.

"Engage, Mr. Swift."

He nodded, and she felt the tug of the ship coming to life as she took over the controls; even the seconds it would take to recover manual control from the computer-set course could make the difference if they encountered a Romerian patrol ship. It was hardly worth the small amount of time they would save. At least, to her it wasn't.

She glanced at Corling, who was pacing the conroom restlessly. He was glaring at nothing in particular, and she knew it was not the time to bring up the small matter of the treaty with the Coalition that marked out sovereign Romerian airspace. True, the Romerians had violated it themselves on occasion, such as the time she'd found them mounting an attack on Zenon, but that was no excuse for the Coalition to return the favor. As if the Coalition needed an excuse, she thought bitterly.

They nearly made it. The sector boundary was on the scope when the sensors clamored. "Target ninety degrees," the weapons officer said, and she knew their luck had run out.

"Level one alert," she barked out. The crew in the conroom began to scramble. "Mr. Swift, try to raise them on ship-to-ship."

"We don't have time for that," the general countermanded sharply, his pacing stopped. "Stay at present course and speed. Prepare to fire if they try to stop us."

"We're in their territory," Shaylah said tightly.

"It's only their territory because the Coalition allows it. Maintain."

"Yes, sir." She tried to control the snap in her voice. "With your approval, I would like to continue the attempt to establish contact, however."

"Very well," Corling said impatiently.

Keleth quickly turned back to the comstation. Shaylah heard him speaking, although she couldn't make out the words over the commotion in the conroom. She watched the sensors, following the blip on the screen that was the Romerian patrol ship as it closed with them.

"I have contact, Captain!" Keleth exclaimed, one hand on the headset he held, the other on the frequency selector. "They're ordering us to come about and prepare for boarding."

"Absurd," the general spat out. "How dare they give orders to a Coalition vessel? Ignore them."

"A trespassing Coalition vessel," Shaylah muttered under her breath.

"They're within firing range, Captain." The weapons officer's voice was deceptively calm. "And bringing photon torpedos to bear."

The General's pacing stopped once more. For the first time Shaylah saw a flicker of hesitancy in his expression. For one split second, just long enough for the thought to form, she thought of solving a whole cluster of problems by just letting the Romerians fire.

"They're arming the torpedoes, Captain."

If it had been just herself and the general, it would have been a solution she could live-or die-with. But she had an entire crew to think of, and she had no right to condemn them to death because she'd had a rude awakening.

"Prepare to return fire, Ensign. Advise when you have the coordinates. Mr. Swift, maintain contact. Explain to them why we're here." Shaylah turned to the general before he could protest. "We'll be considerably more delayed if we have to stop and fight them, sir, than if we can talk them into letting us pass," she said coolly.

"Then fire first," Corling ordered. "Destroy them, so we can get on our way."

Shaylah stared at him. "That would surely be considered an act of war against the Romerians!"

"I have more important things to worry about than-"

"Captain! The Romerians are responding!"

Shaylah's head snapped around. "Identify, and explain why we're here."

Keleth nodded and pressed the earpiece of the comstation headset to his ear. "This is the Coalition starfighter Sunbird. We are en route Coalition Legion Command-" he broke off, brows furrowing. "That's affirmative, the Sunbird, under Captain Graymist. We are acting as-"

Keleth stopped, staring at the comstation.

"What is it, Mr. Swift?" she asked quietly.

"I don't understand. They just said 'Pass,' and the channel went dead."

"Captain," the weapons officer exclaimed, "the torpedoes have been disarmed and the Romerians are pulling away. They're retreating, Captain."

Keleth stared at Shaylah, a grin breaking out on his young face. "By Eos, Captain, they're running! They found out they were up against the Sunbird, and they couldn't get out of here fast enough! I didn't even get a chance to tell them we were only here acting as the general's flagship."

"It seems your reputation is well established in this area, Captain," Corling said, sounding pleased. "You should have advised me your plan was to scare them off."

I couldn't, Shaylah thought, because it never occurred to me that they'd just cut and run. "Yes, sir," was all she said. She turned back to Keleth. "Resume course, Mr. Swift. All speed."

Shaylah never left the Sunbird when they reached Legion Command. She paced the con-room, Corling's orders to stand by and await his return still ringing in her ears.

"I'll need you to get me back through Romerian space after I've gotten Command to see reason. By the time we return to Trios, the Darkstar will have arrived. After that, you may join us or complete your leave, as you wish, Captain. You've earned it. Never have I seen a fully armed Romerian ship turn and run the moment they discovered who they were confronting!"

There had been a time, Shaylah thought as she paced, when even if she hadn't wished to, she would have joined the battle, knowing it would enhance her record and advance her career. But what had once been so very important to her mattered little now, and she had no doubt what her choice would be.

When the general returned, Shaylah found herself holding her breath as she waited for him to speak.

"Set direct course back for Trios. They won't let me blow the damn planet to bits, but I have a free hand to do whatever is necessary to find that cannon and destroy it, and those damn rebels along with it."

Shaylah pushed the Sunbird to the limit; she wanted this man off her ship. They encountered no delays this time and were back in Triotian airspace in record time.

"Very good. Captain. Prepare my shuttle for the jump to the Darkstar, if you please. I will direct the campaign from my own war room. Will you be joining us? "

Join a man who was willing to start a war to save a few minutes? Who was willing to attack without warning, atomizing a ship that was well within its own airspace-not to mention its rights?

"I think not, General," she answered stiffly.

Corling looked surprised. "I see."

"I am very weary, and, I'm afraid, not at my best. I would hate to be… a hindrance to the operation." When did I become such a liar? Shaylah wondered ruefully.

"Of course," the general said. "I understand." Shaylah glanced at Keleth; he looked so disappointed she had to bite her lip to keep from shaking her head sadly. "Any of my crew who wish to stay may do so, of course," she said after a moment. "And I would like to offer the services of my first officer as your aide, sir. I believe you have already found him quite efficient?"

"Absolutely," Corling said. "I would welcome him. My own aide is busy down at the outpost."

"Thank you, Captain!" Keleth smiled eagerly.

"Take care, Keleth," she said softly, wondering if she would ever see the young Zenonian again. She felt a pang that surprised her; she'd come to like her young colleague, and would miss him. She watched him follow Corling away, then went to order the shuttle prepared for the general's departure.

* * *

Shaylah found it difficult to face Califa; the woman who had been a friend seemed so foreign to her now. She'd always been aware of a cold streak in Califa, had seen cruelty from her on occasion when they'd served together, but had excused it because she'd known Califa had had to fight every step of the way to get where she was. And after Shaylah had saved her life at Darvis II, Califa had seemed to go out of her way to restrain her more malignant urges in Shaylah's presence.

Even the fact that she, in turn, owed her life to Califa's quick reactions after an explosion aboard ship when they'd both served aboard the Brightstar didn't ease the conflict within her now. They were only halfway through dinner and already she was anxious to be away. She wondered if it was obvious. It must be, Shaylah finally decided, for Califa seemed as ill at ease as she was.

Shaylah caught herself glancing around the dining room again and resolutely turned her eyes back to her untouched meal. She didn't know what she'd been thinking of, coming back here. She wasn't comfortable with Califa, and it was certain Wolf would have no desire to set eyes on her again.

Of course, she could ask for him again, and he would have no choice. Yes, she muttered silently, and what would you have? You'd have that blank stare, that submissive posture, and a man who would do whatever you said because he had no choice. Just as you gave him no choice that night…

She could, she thought, order him to at least listen until she could make him understand why she'd done it. Would he? Could he possibly understand? He'd understood so much, could he possibly understand what had driven her to using the controller that night, why she'd had to know if the bonding she yearned for was truly only a myth?

Even if he could, she thought bleakly, how could she ever explain her certainty that only he could teach her, when she couldn't explain it to herself? No, from his point of view, she had used him, just like all the others.

"So," Califa was saying, "what was all the fuss about? They called back two more crews after you left. I didn't expect you back so soon."

Although Califa generally knew more than most, she no longer had active top clearance, so Shaylah answered carefully. "I ended up playing ferry driver for the general."

"Oh." Califa looked disappointed. "Well, it's an honor, at least, even if nothing happened."

"He insisted on invading Romerian airspace on the way to Legion Command," Shaylah said dryly. "That was quite enough, thank you."

That sent Califa off into a discourse about foolish commanding officers they had known, and Shaylah sat back, relieved.

Her relief was short-lived. There was something else to deal with: this crazy urge she had to find Wolf and tell him that his people had not been wiped out, that some were alive and fighting. But what would it accomplish other than to send him over the precipice into unrelieved rage at his own powerlessness? If it was hard for him to survive his enslavement now, how much harder would it be knowing he was chained here, helpless, while his people fought a valiant battle?

Even knowing it was hopeless, Shaylah knew where Wolf would be had he the choice. She didn't know who Wolf had been on Trios, but there was one thing she had known from the first moment she'd seen him; he had the heart of a warrior.

Again she caught herself scanning the room, eyes searching for a gleaming, golden mane of hair, for a strong, muscled body. He was nowhere in sight, and Shaylah wondered with a sudden rush of queasiness if he had been sent to someone for the night. The images that flashed through her mind then, visions of Wolf with someone else, giving that woman the sweet pleasure, touching that woman with hands that were gentle yet arousing, surrendering his golden body to that woman's control, made her shiver in repudiation.

It wouldn't be the same for him as it had been with her, she knew, because only she held the secret of his prowess. And only she had the weapon to unlock that secret'. Did that make her different, or did it only make her even more of a user, a taker than the others?

If she had not used the controller, if she had merely asked him to pleasure her, would she have been just another of the nameless, faceless bodies who had taken him? The fight raged within her, and at last, as if her brain had little energy left to keep up its guard, the question slipped out.

"Where is Wolf?"

Califa's brandy glass hit the table sharply.

"Wolf?"

Fear shot through Shaylah then. Eos, had the Carelian dared to come back for him? Was she even now sharpening her talons on him?

"Is he… with someone?" she asked sharply.

"No," Califa said slowly.

"Then where is he?"

"Shaylah, I had no choice. He went… crazy after you left. He fought with everyone. He wouldn't obey. Even Marcole couldn't control him."

A wave of cold swept Shaylah, unlike anything she'd ever known, because it came from within her. "Where is he?" she repeated.

"No amount of punishment seemed to affect him." Califa's tone was placating. "We had to use the highest blue and yellow levels together just to keep him from attacking. It was charring his brain. I had to stop Marcole before he killed him."

Shaylah closed her eyes as the chill settled in and turned her rigid. When she repeated her question for the fourth time, her voice was like chips of ice from the glacial cold that had enveloped her.

"Where is he?"

Califa looked at the table. She picked up her glass of brandy. She set it down without drinking. And at last she looked at Shaylah.

"I sold him."

Chapter 6

Shaylah's nose wrinkled involuntarily, as it had frequently since she'd arrived on Daxelia. She supposed she should be grateful it was so dark; she didn't really want to see whatever it was that made this place smell like-like just what it was, she thought, the dregs, the asylum for the silt of this planet's population, the place where the slowest, heaviest, and most useless came to rest.

And the most helpless. They didn't call this grim colony Ossuary for nothing; it was indeed the burying ground for many who had lost the will to fight for their own lives.

Wolf. She nearly cried out, the pain was so fierce. No, she told herself, he would never give up. He would never quit fighting, in whatever way he could, be it overtly or with a carefully Grafted mask of subservience that merely hid the blazing spirit of the man behind it.

And that could spell his doom. For besides being the lodestar for the slimy residue of Daxelia, Ossuary was also the last brutal marketplace for slaves, the dumping ground for those who were too old, too stupid, or too weak to work in the better places. Such slaves were sold for simple, cheap menial labor, to be worked without rest until they dropped and were replaced with another.

And it was also the final breaking ground for those who were too intractable. For those who refused to submit, those who would never surrender. They were sent here to be broken. Like Wolf.

Her stomach roiled at the thought of him here, dragged by his chains to the auction block, stripped and put on display, to be sold to anyone who had the price. There were many who would pay nicely-by Ossuary standards-for a slave trained by the Legion Club. Just owning a collared slave was a status symbol of sorts, and a gold-collar slave was the epitome. There were always those eager to buy. And willing to do whatever it took to keep their recalcitrant property in line.

Wolf would fight, Shaylah realized grimly, to the death. Perhaps he already had. She shivered, refusing to believe it. He couldn't be dead. Not Wolf. He'd survived the destruction of his world. He'd survived the annihilation of his family. He'd survived having to kill the woman he loved to save her from a worse fate. He'd survived the pain, the desolation, the humiliation of slavery. He wouldn't succumb here, in this pit of degradation. He wouldn't.

The words became a litany, a chant, providing the rhythm for her steps. She avoided the shadowy figures who approached her with sordid offers of wild pleasure or the state of intoxication she imagined was necessary to exist in this place. She was intent on her goal, the high-walled, hulking compound she'd seen earlier, its walls darkly slimy even in the light of day.

It had been all she could do to wait until morning, after wringing the information out of Califa that she had indeed sent the defiant Wolf to Ossuary,

"I had no choice," she had insisted.

"So you sent him to the tamers?" Shaylah ground out.

"No one else would touch him! Word was getting around about how much trouble we were having with the Triotian. That we couldn't control him."

"Why didn't you just kill him? It would have been more merciful."

"He's a slave, Shaylah, what did you expect? We couldn't have him around, infecting the others."

"The only thing that's infected around here are the people who see nothing wrong with this sick, unnatural system," Shaylah ground out.

She said no more, but she knew that her relationship with Califa would never be the same again. The fact that she felt more relief than anything else told her exactly how brittle that relationship had become.

So now she was skulking around in the dark, in a place she had never thought to set foot in, searching for one lone man in this mass of miserable beings. She had forced herself to attend the daily auction this afternoon, although the sight sickened her. She got through it by constantly reminding herself that she could walk away; Wolf was helplessly trapped by shackles not of his making.

She had begun with some vague idea of buying him. It would cost her dearly, but she could, she thought, sell her air rover back home; she was rarely home long enough to use it anyway. She had dressed carefully with that thought in mind, in her best civilian-this was hardly the place to stand out in Coalition uniform-clothing, simple but of good quality; they wouldn't believe she could pay if she didn't look the part.

But the moment she heard the gavel fall on the final bid for a collared house servant, she knew there was no use. The bronze-collared servant had brought more than her rover was worth;

she would never be able to touch the price a gold collar would bring. Especially when a specimen like Wolf was wearing it.

Jostled by the crowd that consisted, by the smell of it, of a large number of long-unwashed Sowerths, Shaylah had been acutely aware of the looks she was getting. When a slightly less noxious member of the clan that didn't believe in soaking shouldered his way up to her, she tried to ignore him.

"Must be here for one of the big houses, eh?" he said, eyeing her garb. "Looking for something special?"

Shaylah looked at him, trying her best to look upper rank and offended.

"You know, I could save you a lot of time. I'm here every day, know exactly what they've got-and what they're holding back, waiting for just the right buyer, if you get my meaning," he said.

Shaylah's eyes narrowed as she looked at him. He was grubby and unshaven, thin to the point of being cadaverous, and she wouldn't trust him to pour an honest drink, but maybe…

"Just how long have you been coming here?" she asked.

The man took this as a signal of success and grinned, showing three broken teeth. "Oh, a long time now. Name's Wartly," he said, sticking a grubby hand out at her. He seemed willing to overlook it when she pretended not to see it; she soon found out why. "I can find out anything you need to know about this market, that's certain. For a fee, of course."

"Of course," Shaylah said with a wry grimace. "I hardly thought you'd be in this out of the goodness of your heart."'

The irony was lost on Wartly. "That's what I like, someone who understands the cost of doing business. So, do we have an agreement?"

"Perhaps," Shaylah said. "If you can convince me you truly know the… market."

"Oh, I do, none knows it better. I can tell you things they wouldn't want you to know, things they try to keep quiet until after the sale."

"Prove it."

The rather wild brows furrowed. "What?"

"Tell me something. Say, for example, something that won't cost you anything, but will show me you know what you say you do."

"Like what?"

Shaylah pretended to consider. She glanced up at the block where the bronze-collared slave was being led off, his steps short and hampered by his leg irons. She swallowed back the burning bile that rose in her throat as she imagined Wolf's strong, graceful stride reduced to that rattling shuffle.

She gestured in the direction of the block. "I'm not, but let's say I was interested in a collared servant."

"I don't know," Wartly said doubtfully, studying her as if he suspected he was being tricked somehow.

"Since I'm not interested, you have nothing to lose, do you? And you have everything to gain by showing me how much you know."

It seemed to make sense to him, for he nodded. "Well, they don't come 'round often, you know. Too expensive."

"I… heard a rumor," Shaylah said carefully, "that they had a special one here. A gold collar."

Wartly's eyes widened. "The Triotian? Oh, woman, you don't want to mess with that one. He's caused more trouble here than all the rest put together."

Shaylah took a deep breath. She didn't dare scare Wartly off, not when it seemed he could tell her what she needed to know. "I don't intend to, remember? You're just proving that you know as much as you say you do."

"Of course I do," Wartly retorted, as if she'd impugned his honor. "I know that he's been here nearly a month and hasn't seen the block yet. They're afraid he'll go crazy, and they don't want to medicate him. It'd bring down the price, and they paid a lot of funds for him."

Shaylah tried to look only mildly curious. "So what will they do?"

Wartly shrugged. "The tamers'll keep working on him-for a while, anyway."

Shaylah hoped her grimace would be taken for one of worry for her own safety. "I hope they keep him well guarded. Why, if he were to escape-"

"Not much chance of that." Wartly chortled. "They got a man posted on him all the time. How do you think I get my information? The night guard's an old drinking… associate of mine. Hates this post, too. Stinking old building, he says." Wartly snorted. "Can't treat 'em like that anymore. Fools think it makes a difference to slaves if they got a window or a dry cell."

"Just one guard?" Shaylah affected doubt.

"Way that Triotian's chained up, and the shape he's in, don't need any more."

It took every ounce of her will to say briskly, "Well, I wouldn't want to deal with that kind of problem." Then with silent, sardonic thanks to Califa, she added, "He could infect all the slaves with silly ideas, unless you kept him locked away from the others. They are doing that, aren't they?" Her inflection rose in a credible semblance of concern.

"Sure they are. Got him all by himself back in the old section." Wartly gestured toward the darkest section of the crumbling edifice. Then he grinned. "But not so far that the others can't hear him scream."

Shaylah covered the violent shudder that took her then with the motion of her arm as she flipped the man a coin.

"Nice," the thin man said as he snagged it. "Now, what can I help you with?"

All Shaylah wanted was to be out of here, but she didn't want to rouse the suspicions of a man she was certain wouldn't hesitate to sell the knowledge of the presence of someone who had been asking about the troublesome Triotian.

"I…" she began awkwardly; this wasn't her territory, and she hadn't quite thought this through when she'd seized upon the chance that this unsavory person might be able to tell her what she needed to know. Throw him off, she told herself, without having the faintest idea how. Then the words came out without thought.

"What do they have in the way of females?" She lowered her eyes as if embarrassed. "I'm looking for a… personal servant, if you get my meaning."

Wartly's bushy brows rose. "Oh?" Then he shrugged, the differences of a vast and varied population clearly of no concern to him, except as it might bring him some profit. "Well, now, there are some possibilities…"

Shaylah pretended to listen, but she was intently studying the area of the building Wartly had pointed to. It indeed looked older; moss climbed more than halfway up the sides. Windowless sides, she thought grimly; trust fate to make this as difficult as possible. The place would be damp, cold, and dark, and the thought of Wolf trapped there infuriated her even as it made her nauseous.

Her estimate, she realized now as she sidled through the darkness toward her target, had been high on the comfort side. The place wasn't just damp, cold and dark, although it carried those miserable conditions to new heights. Here, in the unrelieved blackness of Daxelia's forever moonless night, it looked nothing short of evil.

Shaylah shifted the small pack she carried, digging into it and removing two items. One she wedged behind the belt she'd put on over the black, skin-tight jumpsuit, usually worn under her heavier, protective flight suit. The other she held in her right hand as she slid her arms through the straps of the pack, then settled it on her back.

It was easier than she expected, but no less adrenaline-inducing. She'd been trained for stealth ground missions, but it had been too long ago, and her fighting since had been from the con of a starship. She knew she was rusty, but that knowledge was nothing next to the need to get Wolf out of this place.

The worst part was the waiting: for the area surrounding the slave market to empty of people, for the lights in the main building to go out, for the guard to change. The new sentry was as round as Wartly was thin, she noticed as the departing guard handed him what looked like a code key. Shaylah held her breath as, after exchanging a brisk greeting with the man he was replacing, the rotund man stuffed the code key into his belt, made two circuits of the perimeter, and then settled into the chair just inside the iron gate that looked older than the building itself.

She waited, ears straining for any sound, for what seemed like forever. At last she moved, slinking silently up to the wall, each step carefully chosen to avoid any sound; with the puddles of stagnant water that dotted every few feet of the uneven ground, it was a time-consuming, teeth-gritting process.

At last she was close enough. She leveled the disrupter in her right hand, letting all the breath out of her lungs in a long sigh as she aimed it with precise care. Even set merely on stun, the thing would make a hideous noise if the beam hit one of the gate's bars. Whispering a silent prayer to Eos that there would be a dawn for both her and Wolf, she fired.

She heard the hiss of the man's breath leaving in a rush, then he slumped over in the chair. Shaylah thought she'd fluffed it when he started to topple the wrong direction, but she managed to get an arm through the bars of the gate and grab the man's sleeve before he fell out of reach. She pulled him back, balanced him in the chair, and reached for his belt, her slender fingers tugging loose the code key.

She stared at the thing, dread filling her. Eos, she should have known. The building might be old, this gate might look like it was falling off its hinges, but slaves were valuable property, and this lock was the newest and best. She could stand here all night trying to get the right combination. Except that it was no doubt wired to set off an alarm at the third false try, as most of these were.

She nearly slammed her fist against the gate in frustration. Only the probable noise stopped her, the ancient thing would rattle like thunder.

The ancient thing. Shaylah caught her breath. She backed up a step. She stared at the antique, rattletrap gate, secured incongruously with the newest of coded locks. Then she moved swiftly, sliding the pack from her back and digging inside it until she had found the long, slim tool she'd thrown in for no more concrete reason than that she'd hate herself if she hadn't and it turned out that she needed it.

She worked quickly, as silently as possible, prying at the bolts that held the gate to its hinges. The guard wouldn't be out forever, and precious seconds were ticking away. The protesting creak of old metal as the bolts slid free froze her for a moment, but the guard never stirred, and the silence settled in again. Jaw clenched, straining under the weight, she lifted the heavy gate free of its hinges and edged it open just far enough to slip through.

She paused long enough to pull the other item she'd taken out of the pack from behind her belt. She uncapped the small flask and sprinkled some of the potent, aromatic Carelian brandy over the unconscious guard. She tucked the flask in his limp hand, then reached back into the pack and pulled out the small cellight she'd brought.

No matter how silently she tried to walk, her steps seemed to echo hollowly in the long, dank corridor. The beam of her cellight reflected eerily off the wet walls, and she heard the occasional drip of oozing water into the pools scattered over the uneven floor.

The corridor was lined with small barred cells, grim in their unrelieved bareness except for the bleak gleam of metal shackles on the walls. She kept on, passing cell after empty cell, trying to shake off the sensation that she was hearing the pitiful cries of endless years of slaves, as if the sounds had soaked into the sodden walls.

Shaylah stood at the end of the mucky passage, staring at the last of the empty cells. She'd never felt anything like the devastation that filled her. Had they moved him? Had Wartly lied? Had he gotten suspicious after all and told someone?

She turned swiftly on her heel and started back. And stopped short as the other possibility stabbed through her. Was she too late? Had the tamers at last gone too far? Had Wolf's indomitable spirit finally given out? Dear Eos, was he dead?

Shaylah smothered a tiny cry, her steps quickening as she raced back, double-checking each of the cells. Almost to the gate, she saw what she'd missed before, a single cell in the opposite direction, just beyond the gate, closer to the unconscious guard. She broke into a run.

Her heart plummeted as she stared into the cell, her last hope fading. Then, in the darkest, dampest corner, her tiny beam of light slid over a long shape crumpled on the floor.

It was filthy, covered with dark smears of the slime from the walls and floor, barely recognizable as a man, lying up against the wall with his back to her. But Shaylah knew that figure, knew the strong frame, despite the weight he'd lost. She knew the mane of hair, despite the fact that it looked, not golden, but a dull, dingy brown.

"Wolf," she whispered, knowing even as she stared at his frighteningly still form that he was far beyond hearing her.

Her gaze snapped to the door of the cell. The lock was as antique as the rest of the building, a simple electronic scanner. Conscious of the time sliding away, she didn't bother trying to think of a way to trick it, but merely set her disrupter on the lowest level and aimed it at the lock. There was a squeal as the lock's workings were scrambled, but it was so brief she didn't worry about it. The door swung open.

He hadn't moved. As she moved closer, the beam of light wavering as her hand shook, she saw that he couldn't have, he was chained so tightly and so close to the wall. But even had he been free, she doubted if he could have budged. He hadn't just lost weight; she could count virtually every bone. And those dark smears weren't all from the walls; bruises, dark and ugly, marred large sections of his golden skin. The dark, crusty patches that circled his wrists and ankles near the shackles made her cringe inwardly. For the first time she was grateful for the darkness.

She knelt beside him, shaking. "Wolf? Can you hear me?"

Nothing, Terrified now, she reached out to search for a pulse. She smothered a cry; he was like ice. But she found it, a faint, thready beat barely perceptible in the hollow of his throat.

Shaylah knew what she had to do, even as she knew the risk of it. But it was the only chance she had to get him out of here; no matter how much weight he'd lost, she couldn't carry him. He had to leave under his own power, and right now that was clearly beyond him. She reached into her pack one more time and withdrew the medicator she'd brought from the sick bay of the ship. She was grateful now that she'd thought of it, but the risk made her shiver.

As weak as he was, it could kill him, she knew. The jolt of the adrenaline-based stimulant could be too much for a system so debilitated. Yet she was certain Wolf would rather die trying to escape than rot away in this place for another second. She administered the drug before she could talk herself out of it by remembering that she'd thought she had known what he would want once before, on their last night together.

She leaned over his gaunt body to aim her disrupter at the lock of the chains that bound his hands, then stopped. With the infusion of new strength he was liable to come awake fighting, and if he moved too soon he could end up in the firing line of the weapon. She made herself wait, tension winding tighter and tighter inside her as second after second ticked by.

Her breath, already forced and shallow, caught in her throat when she heard him groan. Low and harsh, and full of a pain she couldn't begin to imagine, it dug into her like a red-hot claw. "Wolf?" she whispered, leaning over him. He came up off the dank floor in a rush, the medicine-induced strength allowing him to vent his fury. Shaylah gasped as his chained hands shot up to grasp her throat; she'd gotten too close. She grabbed his hands, even now aware of his raw, bleeding wrists. She heard her own choking gurgle as she tried to speak. Then all she heard was a ringing in her ears as his fingers cut off her air. Her vision began to blur, tiny flashes of light sparking in the darkness.

Then, suddenly, she could breathe again, his grip loosening, although his hands never left her throat. She gulped deeply of the damp air. She blinked once, then gulped air again until the spots of light faded away.

"Shaylah?" His voice was raspy, faint, and thick with bewilderment.

"Wolf," she whispered, that claw gripping her turning white-hot now, searing her with a pain so great she didn't think she could bear it. His face, that beautiful, chiseled, noble face, was swollen and battered, yet a further testament to the primitive methods the tamers had resorted to. "Oh, Wolf."

After a moment his hands dropped from around her neck. She wanted to touch him, to comfort him, to tell him he was safe now. She had time to do none of it, and she was by no means sure it was true anyway. With a swiftness ingrained by years of training, she steadied herself.

"Quickly," she said in a low voice, "we haven't much time."

She lifted the disrupter and was startled when Wolf scrambled away. He backed up against the wall, bracing himself against it, looking at the weapon in her hand. She realized with a little shock that he expected her to use it on him.

"Wolf, no!" She bit her lip against the surge of pained emotion once more. "We're getting out of here. Now. But you've got to help me."

He stared at her. Only then did he seem to realize the oddness of her clothing. His eyes flicked to the gate and widened when he saw the slumped figure of the guard.

"He won't be out for long," Shaylah warned. "We have to get moving."

He shook his head slowly, as if to clear a fog. He stared down at his chained hands, the hands that had been so close to choking the life out of her.

"I… I feel… strange."

"I know. I gave you a stimulant." His gaze snapped back to her face. "I had to, Wolf. I can't get you out of here alone. We've got to get to my shuttle before it wears off."

"Your… shuttle?"

"Wolf, please," she urged, "I swear I'll answer all your questions later, anything you want, but please, we have to go now!"

She reached for his hands. He stiffened, but when she carefully angled the disrupter toward the thick manacle that banded his wrist, he didn't stop her. She couldn't do it without hurting him a little, but he never even blinked. She supposed a small, burning twinge was nothing compared to what he'd been through here.

She made herself stop thinking about it. She had to. If she dwelt on what he'd been through, she'd be unable to function. She shifted to the other wrist, and after a moment the chains fell away.

She glanced at his face as she went to work on the shackles that fettered his ankles; realization that she meant what she'd said was beginning to dawn there. He never moved as she freed him from the last of his chains. He just stared at her with a carefully blank expression that never wavered until she gathered up the chains and stuffed them into her pack. She knew what he was thinking, that she herself intended to use them on him later, but she didn't have time to deny it now.

"Can you get up?"

He hesitated, as if assessing the extent of his newly acquired strength, then nodded. He had to use the wall for balance, and swayed slightly until he was able to steady himself, but he was up and mobile. For now, Shaylah thought. She didn't know how long it would last, especially since she would have to push for as much speed as he could manage for them to make it before he collapsed.

She saw him turn his head as they passed the guard, saw his nostrils flare slightly as the heavy odor of brandy reached them. Shaylah started to walk past the unconscious guard toward the gate, but Wolf had stopped at a small metallic door set in the wall opposite the slumped sentry. She looked at him over her shoulder.

'Wolf," she said, her voice sharp with tension, "we have to go, now!" He didn't speak, just kept trying to force that door. "Wolf, listen to me. If we don't make my timetable, we're dead. We'll never make it to the ship."

"If I don't get this open, I'm dead anyway."

She gaped at him. "What?"

"The controller," he said shortly, trying to force the lock.

"Damn the controller," she snapped.

His head swiveled around, and his hollow, weary eyes met hers. "You really don't know, do you?" he said after a moment.

"Know what?" Shaylah cried in exasperation.

"It's been adjusted to the size of this place. If I get out of range of the transmitter, it triggers an explosion."

"So the damn thing blows up! So what?"

His swollen mouth twisted in a grim mockery of a smile. "Not the controller. The collar. Its core is solid photon propellent igniter."

Shaylah gasped. It would rip his head off. She didn't want to believe it, but it was just the sort of thing the Coalition would do. Without another word, she turned the disrupter on the lock of the metal door, and after a high squeal, it swung open. Shaylah tried not to look at the other things in the cabinet, the evil-looking instruments whose purpose she couldn't begin to imagine.

She saw Wolf shudder slightly as he reached past them for the controller, and guessed with grim certainty that he knew exactly what those malignant, tools were for.

"Hurry," she said, holding out the pack.

He hesitated, his fingers tightening around the device that subjected him to whoever held it. "Trust me, Wolf," she begged. "We're running out of time."

He looked at her for a long, silent moment, searching her face. His eyes closed briefly, and she saw him draw in a deep breath. When he opened them again, he dropped the controller into the bag.

He said nothing else. He also said nothing when she stopped to wrestle with the heavy gate, but merely helped her when he saw she was intent on putting everything back as she'd found it.

"This way," she whispered in the darkness, gesturing toward the knoll behind the ugly, hulking building.

They went through the shadows at a trot, the fastest pace they could manage with any kind of silence. They were over the small rise and down the other side before she slowed to a walk. She flicked on the cellight and glanced at her chronometer. Then she looked at Wolf, who still hadn't said a word.

"The shuttle's just over the next hill. We'll have to hurry if we're going to make it in time." He didn't ask her in time for what. His silence was beginning to worry her, but she didn't have time to push it now. "Wolf, that stuff I gave you could wear off in anywhere from fifteen minutes to an hour. We've got to be at the ship when it does. I can't carry you."

He looked at the steeper, larger rise of ground, then back at Shaylah. He closed his eyes, as if inwardly assessing his remaining energy. Then, still without a word, he started up the hill.

The shuttle looked undisturbed. It sat in a small gully between two steep hills, hidden- although it was unlikely that anyone would pass this barren spot-by a tall outcropping of rock. It was the smaller and faster of the Sunbird's two shuttles, and Wolf had to duck to go through the hatchway.

"Sit down," she said unconscious of how, now that she was back in her element, it sounded like an order.

He looked at her steadily for a moment, then sat in the copilot's seat she had gestured at. He still didn't speak, but when she glanced at him he seemed to be holding up well enough for now. She flipped on the shuttle's computer quickly, knowing she had no time to waste. Not only did they have to make it in time to the coordinates she'd preprogrammed, but when the medication wore off he would crumble like a sand tower in the heavy gravity of Omega.

He watched her in silence, sitting in such rigid stillness that fear shot through her; was the stimulant wearing off even now? She hadn't let herself face the possibility that the dosage had been wrong, too little, or worse, too much for his weakened system. The chance that in rescuing him she might just have killed him lashed at her, lacerating nerves already stretched taut.

With quick, sharp movements she began the initiation procedure. The control panel lights came on, readouts glowing softly in the darkness. She rechecked the coordinates in the navigation computer, locked them in, and set the self-pilot controls to take over the moment she flipped the switch. Then, taking a deep breath, she reached for the ignition activator.

The change in the controls was barely perceptible, but Shaylah felt it as strongly as if the ship had leaped to life beneath her hands. Her fingers feathered over the power throttle, bringing the drive to the highest power possible while still allowing her to hold the shuttle in place. Then she glanced at the silent Wolf.

"You'd better harness up," Shaylah said, securing her own safety restraints. "We're going to have to take off fast. Just take the top strap-"

She broke off as he reached behind him and deftly fastened the rather tricky harness without a moment's hesitation or fumbling. Before she could dwell on it, the maximum power indicator flashed and she had to turn back to the con.

Shaylah tapped a few keys on the computer, then checked her chronometer reading against the results. Then she reached for the stabilizer control with one hand and the engage lever with the other. She watched the numbers on the computer screen change rapidly downward, her fingers flexing on the controls.

Zero flashed on the screen. With another brief prayer directed at the goddess of the dawn, Shaylah cut the shuttle loose. They were slammed back into the seats as the small craft leaped upward, the ion drive catapulting them free of the rocky gully.

Shaylah drug in a forced breath, straining against the force of the rapid acceleration and takeoff. Everything depended on the hurried but painstaking set of calculations she'd made last night. If she'd been wrong, if she'd underestimated by a fraction-

She couldn't bear to think about it. Perhaps she'd been a fool, perhaps incredibly arrogant, to risk his life along with her own, but she didn't know what else she could have done. Fighting the pressure that forced her head back against the cushions of the command chair, she turned her head to look at him.

She wanted to tell him she'd only meant to help, that she'd had to come back for him, that she couldn't leave him in that place and live with herself. She wanted to tell him she was sorry for not giving him a choice. That she knew she'd had no right to make this decision for both of them, just as she'd had no right to do what she'd done with their last night together. She wanted to tell him so much… yet when her eyes met his, she had the oddest feeling that he already knew, that he'd read in her face, in her eyes, all the things she'd wanted to say.

She wished he would speak, would say something, anything. Anything except just sit there and look at her with that expressionless mask hiding whatever he was thinking. She couldn't bear to look at it, and turned away.

She fastened her gaze on the computer and the navigational readout. At any moment she would know if her calculations had been correct, if this rash gamble she'd committed them both to would pay off or send them hurtling down to the surface, killing them both.

The figures flashed on the screen, nearing the instant of truth. Then the numbers stopped. The shuttle's coordinates matched the coordinates she had programmed into the big ship's computer. It was now or never. Suppressing a ripple of misgiving, Shaylah did what she had to do.

She turned the shuttle's power off.

Chapter 7

Shaylah had Wolf's complete attention now. As the low hum of the power unit abruptly stopped, he stared at her. She didn't dare spare him more than a glance; she was watching the one all-important register too intently. It flickered, the glowing readout jumping, then settling, indicating a strong magnetic pull. She bit her lip as she shifted her eyes to the speed indicator. They were still moving forward. Slowly, but steadily. She let out a long, relieved sigh. It had worked,

She felt Wolf looking at her. She turned to him. She had time now; they were locked in and there was nothing for her to do but hope her hastily devised ruse had worked. She could explain, convince him she was here to help him, wipe away the look that had come into his eyes when she had kept his chains.

But before she could speak a word, he shifted his gaze. His eyes flickered over the instruments, as if checking each readout. As if he knew exactly what to look for, she thought. As if-

"A tractor beam," he breathed, the first words he'd spoken since they'd left his prison. Surprised, she nodded as he turned his steady green gaze on her again. And said simply, "Why?"

Shaylah blinked. "It was the only thing I could think of. They don't routinely scan for tractor beams, but they do check any unauthorized departures from anywhere but the spaceport. So we don't dare fly all the way to the ship under the shuttle's power. The ion drive would register on their scopes."

"That's not what I-" He paused, as if reconsidering his words. When he began again, Shaylah was certain the words weren't what he'd started to say. "Your ship?"

"I took her out past the inspection point yesterday. She's at the max tractor range that's still in local airspace."

"Your crew… knows about this?"

She flushed and looked away. "They're… not aboard. Some are on another assignment, the rest are back on Alpha 2, finishing their leave, I told the checkpoint I was going to do some solo flying before I went to pick them up." She shrugged. "I've done it before."

He lifted a golden brow. "You left your ship in unattended orbit?"

"The computer will hold her until we get aboard."

"Assuming no one monitored your flight down to the surface."

"They couldn't have. I came in the same way, on the tractor beam, reversed. With the power shut down. I programmed the Sunhird's computer to revert the beam to normal operation after I landed."

"So all they'll get is a short, low-altitude flight reading."

Shaylah nodded, pleased, but on some other level not surprised that he'd understood so quickly. "From the end of the tractor's range to the surface and back. I hope they'll think it was just somebody local out for a ramble."

It came to her again, suddenly, the memory of that look in his eyes when she had picked up his chains and put them in the pack. And that moment of hesitation before he had surrendered the controller.

"I would never use those chains, Wolf." Her voice was fervent. "I just didn't want to leave any clues behind. If the guards assume you are still fettered, they will probably look in the immediate area, thinking you couldn't get far. And I wanted to leave as little sign as possible. If it takes a while for them to realize you had outside help, it will slow them down."

"I'm… impressed, Captain." The cool formality of his voice made her stomach knot. "I would not like to go up against you in battle. The sheer force of the Coalition is a formidable thing-that force used with cleverness and ingenuity is unbeatable."

"This wasn't for the Coalition, damn it!"

"No, it wasn't, was it? I doubt that using one of their ships-and their tactical training-to steal one of their own slaves is in their rule book. Which brings me back to my original question. Why?"

Her forehead creased in puzzlement. "I told you-"

"I didn't mean the tractor beam. You've risked your life, your ship, your career to do this. Why?"

"Did you think I could leave you there, once I found out they'd sold you into that-that pit?" she asked incredulously.

For a moment something flickered in his chilly gaze, something hot and bitter. "At least in Ossuary they are honest about what they're doing. They don't put any pretty names on it. They don't try to hide the fact that I am a slave and their job is to break me."

"Oh, Wolf…"

He ignored the plaintive note in her voice. "Why?" he repeated harshly.

Stung, Shaylah pulled herself up straight, pride reasserting itself. Obviously he wanted no emotion from her. She couldn't blame him, she thought, not after what he'd been through. She would tell him, and she would tell him the truth, whether he wanted to hear it or not. But not until she was certain she could match his cool, level tone. It took her a moment for that. At last the words came.

"Do you think I don't know that I'm responsible for this? That because I selfishly took what I wanted I hurt you unbearably, made you angry, too angry to quietly bear your situation any longer?"

She shivered slightly in the face of his implacable, unchanging expression. Her courage nearly failed her, but the cold, merciless knowledge that she owed him this made her go on.

"I was selfish. I pretended I was doing it for a good reason, for you as well as me. But if that had been really true, I never would have forgotten to speak the words that would have erased the memory for you. I wanted you to remember that it was me you mated with. I wanted it to be… as extraordinary for you as it was for me."

A muscle twitched along his jaw then, but he said nothing, merely kept that steady, compelling gaze fastened on her. She had to fight to keep from looking away.

"I had no right," she said, her voice husky now despite her efforts. "I hate the system of enslavement and everything it stands for. I even hate my friends for supporting it, for believing in it. Yet I used it just as they do."

She swallowed tightly. "I had always prided myself on not being a hypocrite like so many are, on not trumpeting the glory of the Coalition when there was so much of it I didn't like. But I proved myself worse than any of them that night."

She couldn't look at him anymore, couldn't stop the quaver that crept into her voice. And suddenly she didn't care.

"I know that I ruined what we had built in those days together," she whispered, staring out the viewport, vaguely aware that the Sunbird was now looming up ahead, "all because I wanted a precious taste of something I had come to fear no longer existed, something everyone told me was a myth I was foolish to believe in. I.know that you don't trust me, that you hate me, and you have every right. I don't care much for myself right now. I'm doing this so I can… live with myself."

She shuddered, steadied herself, and made herself look at him, even knowing he couldn't fail to see the unshed tears shimmering in her eyes. He looked at her steadily, and despite his bruises, despite his swollen, battered face, despite the grime that disguised his golden looks, he was still the most beautiful male she had ever seen. Even enslaved, there was something regal about him, like that last lion. Pacing his cage, it was true, but with his head held high. She drew in a shaky breath.

"But know this, Wolf," she said softly. "No matter what you believe, I never, ever meant to hurt you."

After a long, silent moment during which his steady gaze never wavered, Wolf seemed to go slack, his breath rushing out of him in a long, weary sigh. His shoulders slumped, and the rigid expression gave way to one of near-exhaustion. He closed his eyes.

"I know," he said, so quietly she wasn't certain she'd heard it.

"You… do?"

The golden lashes lifted. His eyes were vivid with pain in his too-gaunt face. "I knew it that night," he said. Shaylah smothered a little gasp, and his lips twisted in a swollen grimace of ruefulness. "If it wasn't true," he said wryly, "you would have killed me right there, for speaking to you as I did. A slave does not curse a Coalition officer and live to tell about it."

A shudder rippled through him. He shook his head as if in that way he could shake off the exhaustion that was rising in him. Shaylah glanced up at the Sunbird; she could see now the welcoming glow of the open landing bay. She prayed to Eos that they would reach the ship before the stimulant wore off completely and he collapsed,

"I was angry," he said softly, musingly, almost as if he weren't aware of speaking out loud. "At first it was because you'd used what I'd told you, that you'd used Brielle's memory to defeat me."

He shuddered again. It was wearing off too soon, Shaylah thought desperately, but then she was caught by his next words, and there was no room for any feeling except a wave of stunning astonishment.

"It wasn't until the first time I was… sent to someone else that I realized there was more to it than that. She treated me no differently than anyone else had before you. Yet I was furious. So furious I was able to resist the collar systems." He smiled, a twisted, humorless smile. "Marcole did his work well that night. But in the last moments before I lost consciousness, I remember realizing that Brielle wasn't the only reason I'd been so angry at you."

He seemed to sag in the chair, and his voice became more distant. Shaylah wanted to tell him not to talk, to rest, but she had to hear it, had to know, and she held her breath, silently begging him to go on.

"She… wasn't?" she prodded gently at last when he seemed to be slipping too far away.

"No," he muttered. "I was angry because… I wasn't enough for you. You wanted… a dream." He shook his head again, but it was a halfhearted effort. He was starting to sound very groggy. "Not me. A dream."

Shaylah's heart was hammering in her chest. She couldn't believe… But surely he was too exhausted to lie? Don't be an idiot, she ordered herself. He's so drained he doesn't even know what he's saying. Reading anything into his words was a fool's act, and she'd been the fool more than enough lately.

The cabin of the shuttle brightened suddenly, and Shaylah knew they had reached the ship. The tractor beam drew them inside the bright shuttle bay and set them down with a gentle thump. Any other time she would have grinned in self-satisfaction at the accuracy of her calculations, but there was no place in her now for pride. All she wanted to do was get out of this sector and get Wolf well. She had no idea what would come after that.

* * *

Shaylah watched the man who still lay deeply asleep in the bunk in her quarters. She'd spent hours doing just this, watching him, only occasionally leaving to check the ship. The computers were working flawlessly; she'd set a course for one of the most deserted sectors she knew of and locked the ship on to it.

Wolf had barely made it out of the shuttle after the docking bay door had slid shut behind them. She'd known he was on the verge of collapse, and he had leaned on her heavily until he had toppled onto her bunk.

She had cleaned him up as best she could, gritting her teeth at the reminder of the conditions he'd been living in. She lost her control when she began to search out and treat his many wounds: cuts, bruises, burns, and the marks of a primitive lash marring the golden perfection of his body. She had finished the grim job with tears streaming unchecked from her eyes.

He had stirred once, suddenly, as if a final spurt of the drug had hit him. The green eyes snapped open, and his body went rigid as he looked at the unfamiliar surroundings.

"It's all right," she said swiftly. "You're safe."

"Shaylah? Where…"

"You're in my quarters on the Sunbird."

"Your…?"

"It's the most comfortable bed." The tightness of her throat marred her attempt at lightness. "Besides, it's closest to the con, and somebody has to fly this thing."

"Fly… where?"

She smiled ruefully. "The middle of nowhere, I hope."

He opened his mouth, but the effort appeared to be too much, and he drifted away from her once more.

When she'd done all she could for his injuries, she had done what she'd been craving to do; she washed the golden mane of his hair. It was an awkward task, but she hadn't been able to look at it dimmed by the residue of that awful place. She looked at it now, thick and gleaming in even the low light of her cabin, and was glad.

When her chronometer warned her that the Sunbird had reached the barren sector she'd designated, she reluctantly returned to the con. She activated the scanners in all directions and studied the scopes carefully. It took her a long time to find what she wanted, a desolate asteroid large enough for the ship to safely maintain an orbit around.

The scanners showed nothing else moving in the vicinity, but she fixed the alarms just in case, setting them at maximum range. She wanted plenty of warning if anyone showed up in this deserted place; she didn't believe in that much coincidence.

She thought there was a decent chance no one at the Ossuary port would connect the disappearance of a prime slave with her departure the previous day, but Califa was another matter. When she heard, as no doubt she eventually would, after Shaylah's reaction to the news of Wolf's sale, it wouldn't take much for her to figure it out, and Califa was more than clever enough. However, after she had calmed down, Shaylah had told Califa about her plans for a long, solo flight, hoping the smokescreen might cast just enough doubt for Califa to hold her tongue.

Califa had merely smiled; she'd never understood Shaylah's need to be alone in space, free to fly where she would, free to put the Sunbird through its paces and push the quick, agile ship to the limit. But once Califa heard of Wolfs escape, Shaylah knew she would wonder. Whether she would wonder enough or feel it her duty to inform the Coalition or the Sector Patrol, Shaylah couldn't guess. Once she would have staked her life on Califa's loyalty and friendship, but their relationship had been strained lately. But, she thought grimly as she left the con, you staked your life on it anyway. Your life and Wolf's.

In the unrelieved darkness of space, held in orbit through no effort of her own, Shaylah lost track of how long they'd been there. Time was marked only by the changing color of the ugly bruises that marked Wolf's face and body, and she lost track as well of how long she'd done little more than sit at the end of her bunk near Wolf's feet, her legs curled up under her, watching him quietly sleeping.

She didn't mind; it was much better than helplessly listening to the groans of pain he had tried, even in sleep, to bite back. It was better than watching him thrash in the grips of a fierce fever that defeated even the strongest medication she'd dared to give him, when all she could do was sponge him down with cool water and hope it would break.

It was better than hearing him cry out for the dead Brielle, for his dead family, for his dead world.

Shaylah wasn't aware she'd dozed off until she came awake with a little start, startled to feel the hard wall of the bulkhead at her back and to feel Wolf's steady, expressionless gaze on her face.

He was propped up on the cushions behind his back, his arms crossed casually across his torso. This was not the pain-weakened, exhausted Wolf she'd pulled from the grim darkness of his prison cell. This was the Wolf she'd first seen at Califa's, proud despite his chains, his green gaze cool, assessing, and utterly insolent for a slave. Especially in the way his eyes lingered over the thrust of her breasts, nipples too prominent beneath the shimmering blue silk of her mother's robe.

The cool, steady look made her uneasy, yet at the same time, knowing the strength he must have regained to present it to her, she rejoiced. The second feeling soon overpowered the first, and she couldn't stop the smile that curved her mouth.

His head drew back a little, as if she'd startled him. "You are… amused?"

She shook her head, the smile widening. Yes, her self-possessed, aloof Wolf was back. "No," she said softly. "Just glad to see you back to normal."

His forehead creased. "I am… feeling better."

"That wouldn't be hard," Shaylah said, her smile breaking free into a grin. "But I meant I'm glad to see you back to your prickly self."

Surprise flickered in his eyes. He shifted one leg beneath the thermoactive cover she'd put over him. The silvery fabric slipped downward, drawing her glance as it slanted across his naked hip. Shaylah looked away, too aware of the heat that flooded her at the memory of what that silver cloth was so precariously covering.

"Embarrassed, Captain?" The title grated on her, a feeling she'd never thought to experience. "Odd, since you've already seen… all I have to offer." Her flush deepened. "Don't worry about it, Captain," he said bitterly. "I've been poked and examined and paraded around naked so much and in front of so many, it barely registers anymore."

"Stop calling me captain," she hissed.

She truly had startled him then; it flashed across his face, but he recovered quickly. He glanced around her small yet comfortable quarters, and she saw his eyes pause on the set of exquisite antique drawings hanging on the bulkhead directly over her desk. She knew he had to recognize the vivid colors and details of Triotian roses, but he said nothing.

His gaze snagged again on the hologram that was carefully fastened to the table beside the bunk. He studied the images there, and Shaylah instinctively knew he was searching for any resemblance to her. She also knew he would find them; she had her mother's sleek mass of long, black hair, and her small, delicate features. But her eyes were her father's, seemingly passed on direct and undiluted, bright, vivid, snapping blue fringed with thick, dark lashes. She also knew no one could miss the emotion, the love, that fairly crackled between her mother and father, even in a mere holographic image.

"Your parents," Wolf said at last, an observation, not a question.

She nodded. "I have a cinefilm of them that I found after my father died. They made it after I was born and added to it as I grew up. I can't… look at it very often, but I had that made from it."

"At least you have that," he said quietly, then stiffened as soon as the words were out, as if he regretted saying even that much.

"Yes," she agreed. "But my memories are much dearer, much more clear to me than a few minutes of a hologram. And no one can ever take those from me."

For an instant his eyes closed, as if against great pain. Then, slowly, the golden lashes lifted and she felt the intensity of his green gaze once more.

"I suppose you expect me to thank you," he said, his voice much too flat to be anything but grudging.

"No."

One brow quirked upward. "No?"

"You don't owe me any thanks." One corner of Shaylah's mouth twisted bitterly. "You were enslaved by the Coalition I represent, the Coalition I've Worked for and fought for. That was bad enough, but then you wound up in that… hole because of me. I'm the one who owes, Wolf. You owe me nothing, except perhaps your hatred."

"You know," he said conversationally, as if discussing nothing more than an asteroid shower viewed at a safe distance, "you make it very hard for me to hate you."

He uncrossed his arms and seemed to unbend slightly before he went on. His tone had changed, to something gentler, something that reminded her of the days they'd spent together before that wonderful, disastrous night. "Moreover, I think you're hating yourself enough for both of us."

Shaylah stared at him, scarcely daring to believe the undertone of forgiveness she heard in his words. She shook her head in wonder, at a loss for words. Wolf smiled, an odd, pensive little curve of his lips.

"I had a lot of time to think in that cell," he said, not a trace of irony in his voice. "It helped take my mind off of… things."

"You mean what they were doing to you?" Shaylah asked harshly.

Wolf shrugged. "That was only bodily pain. You… you invaded my mind. I couldn't get rid of you, so I tried to put myself in your place. I realized you had no malicious intent, that you truly thought you could… give us both some moments of peace, of pleasure… to forget the reality."

Shaylah held her breath, not daring to look at him. Did he remember what he had admitted to her in those moments when the remnants of the stimulant had been warring with his overwhelming exhaustion? Had those words been born of a real need to be wanted by her for himself, or had it been merely bruised masculine ego?

But he had had years of being used only as an object of others' pleasure, she thought suddenly. Why would he care why she had wanted him? She risked a quick glance at him and saw realization flood his face the moment he saw her expression.

"I told you, didn't I?"

She didn't try to pretend she didn't understand. She nodded silently. Wolf let out a compressed breath. "It seems I can't keep my silence around you."

He shifted in the bunk sharply, as if angry with himself. He winced, and sucked in a short breath. She saw him clench his jaw against any sound, and he blinked as if his vision had blurred.

"Don't try to move yet," she said, reaching out, then drawing her hand back uncertainly; just because he didn't hate her didn't mean he wanted to be touched by her. "You need to take it easy awhile longer."

He looked at her, his expression as level as if that instant of pain had never been. "How long…?"

Shaylah smiled ruefully. "I don't know. I kind of lost track. I could look it up in the ship's navcom, but…" She shrugged. "It didn't seem to matter, at the time."

"Where… are we?"

"Orbiting an asteroid in Sector Theta 22. The emptiest place I could find."

He frowned. "Beyond Antares?"

One dark, silky brow lifted. "Yes. You know it?"

He shrugged. "Of it. Tough place. I've heard that skypirates have found it… hospitable." At her look of surprise, he said wryly, "Few people worry about speaking freely in front of slaves."

Shaylah winced inwardly. Was it always to be there between them? Yet how could it not be? She sighed. "We shouldn't get any casual visitors way out here. If anybody sets off the scanner alarms, then we'll know we've got unwelcome company."

He studied her for a moment. "You're not talking about just pirates, are you?"

"Let's say I'd just as soon not run into any of my Coalition colleagues at the moment, either."

Wolf stared at her, then lowered his eyes. His hands flexed atop the thermoactive cover. He studied them as if he'd never seen them, then rubbed at his scarred left wrist.

"I'm sorry," he said at last. "I was so intent on understanding why you came for me at all that I didn't think until now about what you have risked to do it. If you are found out-"

"I don't want to talk about it. I don't even want to think about the Coalition, or anything connected with it. Not now." Her voice was sharp and he raised his head. "Anything," she repeated flatly, her glance skittering away from the collar that banded his neck. "Especially…"

Her voice trailed off, and Shaylah shook her head sharply. "Not now," she repeated. "I'll fix some food. You must be hungry. All you've had is some rockfowl broth."

A golden brow lifted again. "You… fed me?"

"Well, you couldn't do it yourself," Shaylah pointed out as she slid off the bunk, her back to him, irritated at his surprise that she had done the simplest of compassionate things for him. "And fun it was, a drop at a time."

"Now who's being prickly?"

She jerked around to stare at him, brows furrowing as she searched his face. She found no clue in his expression. Then she looked at his eyes and it was there, a glint of humor that lit the green depths. Even after what he'd been through, he could laugh.

An emotion she'd never known before flooded Shaylah. She didn't even know what it was, only that it made her want to throw her arms around him and hug him fiercely. As if he'd read the urge in her, the harsh line of his mouth softened. One comer curled, barely enough to be called a smile, but it was enough to make Shaylah turn and dart out of the room before she gave in to that unfamiliar urge.

* * *

Wolf began to regain his strength with the first meal of solid food. Shaylah could see that he didn't have much appetite, but he acknowledged the necessity of it and forced himself to eat. Of course, she admitted wryly, his reluctance could be due to the fact that the prepackaged, precooked, Zap-heated meals didn't exactly blow reveille for your taste buds.

When Wolf was able to walk, Shaylah found a flight suit that he could wear, although it was a little snug across his broad chest and shoulders, and he had to leave it open at the top. She found the expanse of chest left bare distracting, but much. less so than the skimpy, revealing trewscloth.

She showed him the Sunbird, proud of her ship, if not who she flew it for. He listened and looked around with obvious interest, asking questions that surprised her with their astuteness and understanding.

When they reached the shuttle bay, he stared as if he wasn't sure he'd seen it before, a measure of just how near the edge he had been when they had at last made it here. Instinctively she omitted the weapons stations from the tour; only when she felt Wolf's steady, emotionless gaze fastened on her did she realize that he knew perfectly well what she was doing.

"You seem familiar with the workings of a fighter," she said, an edge creeping into her voice. She was only taking normal precautions, she told herself. There was no reason to feel guilty about it.

Wolf shrugged. "I've never been on one of these," he said, answering yet not answering her implied question.

Shaylah didn't bother to pursue her curiosity; she knew from experience that when he didn't want to talk, he just reverted to that submissive, slavelike silence that drove her so quickly to fury. She knew as well that he did it intentionally; whether because he liked to see her get angry or because it successfully changed the subject, she didn't know.

When she offered him his choice of the empty cabins, he eyed her speculatively. "You would let me out of your sight… aboard your ship?"

"Maybe I just want my quarters back," she snapped. "Besides, where would you go?"

Unexpectedly he smiled, albeit ruefully. "An excellent point, Captain." '

"I said don't call me that," she grated. She took a deep breath and tried again. "If you don't trust me by now…" Her words trailed off. She sighed. "I just wanted you to have your own place… by choice this time. A place to come and go from, as you wish. Freely."

And I want you out of my bed, she added to herself grimly. It was all right when he'd been so weak, but this recovering, stronger Wolf was a potent, golden temptation, a lure she wasn't certain she could resist. But not for her life would she force him to her again. She was relieved when he merely nodded toward Keleth's empty quarters. The young first officer would probably be enraged if he were ever to find out, but Shaylah doubted that would happen; never before had she been so uncertain about the future.

They spent the days in quiet conversation, although once again it seemed to Shaylah that she did most of the talking. She told him of her dream of flying, the encouragement of her parents, and the pure joy she found in charting her own swift course in a star-filled sky. And carefully avoided any mention of the means by which she did it.

They kept carefully apart, touching only by accident, and then one or both of them recoiling as if burned. If memories of that last night burned in Wolf's mind as they did constantly in Shaylah's, he never gave her an inkling.

As on Carelia, only rarely did they tread on shaky ground. There were moments when, sitting in the observation port, they would look at each other and know that they were merely delaying the inevitable; they couldn't stay here forever. And once, when he found Shaylah staring at her framed Coalition Commission, which hung near the hatchway to the conroom, he came silently up behind her.

"Perhaps you should have left well enough alone."

She whirled, startled. "What?"

"You should have left me there. I had decided to stop fighting. To let myself be sold. It would-"

"No!" A vivid image of the slave market, of beaten, chained souls paraded naked before a shouting crowd flashed through her mind and seared her soul. "No," she said again, shakily, her voice breaking. "No."

"Sshh," he said, for the first time reaching out to touch her, to gently grip her shoulders and steady her. "I only meant it might have been possible for me to escape from… whoever bought me."

His gentleness broke her. Smothering a sob, she buried her face against his chest. "Oh, Wolf, I'm so sorry."

He tensed, moving as if to push her away from him. Then, with an odd little sound, his arms went around her and he held her close.

"I know, Shaylah. I know."

He stood there holding her, and for a moment Shaylah let herself forget about the hopelessness of their situation.

Chapter 8

He came to her that night. Shaylah was lying awake in her bunk, staring at the object in her hands. She had been doing so ever since she had at last emptied the pack she'd used the night she'd come for him. She had put away everything but the chains and the controller she held now;

the shackles would find their way into deep space tomorrow, she had decided. The controller would have to stay until they found a way to disarm the explosive that made the golden collar lethal.

As she had so often lately, she found herself drifting off, her mind wandering as she sat there motionless, holding the device that had both made real her dreams and destroyed them. Wolf, his body teaching hers how to fly on its own, making her long for him now with a power that nearly frightened her.

A whisper of movement in the open doorway brought her out of her reverie. The only light beyond the small halo from the bunk lamp was the reddish glow of the hatchway illuminators, but it was enough to see the puzzled expression he wore.

"Wolf?"

He stepped into the room. He glanced at her desk, at the chains that gleamed even in the faint light, then back at her. And at the controller she held. When he spoke, there was an undertone in his voice she couldn't name. An odd tone, a mixture that sounded part disbelief, part acceptance, all of it tinged with a sour note of pain that she didn't understand.

"You… were waiting for me?"

Eos, had he somehow read her mind, sensed her erotic thoughts? Shaylah sat up straighter, pushing aside the absurd thought as she quickly set the repulsive piece of equipment she wished she could destroy on the shelf above her head. She felt herself color as Wolf looked at her, very conscious that she wore only a short, filmy gown she'd picked up on a trip home to Arellia, its gossamer weight like a caress against her skin.

She clutched the thermoactive cover and pulled it up to hide the swell of her breasts as he walked toward her. He stopped at the edge of the bunk. He was wearing only his old trews-cloth, as clean as it could be made now, but still a bloodstained reminder of his imprisonment. And he was, she couldn't help but see, aroused.

Shaylah took in a quick, gasping breath. He wanted her! He had come to her, of his own will, to her, not to the long-dead Brielle, not under the control of that damned lust-inducing machine.

Joy poured through her, and she bit back a cry of shock at the strength of what she was feeling. Never had she reacted like this; never had any man made her feel this all-consuming need. Only that unmistakable note of resignation and pain in his voice gave her pause; she lowered her eyes, afraid of what he might read there.

Wolf let out a breath, long and low and sounding very much like a sigh. "It's all right," he said at last. "I understand." She saw his mouth twist wryly. "And I can't say that I mind."

Shaylah held her breath when he came down on the bunk beside her. She shivered as he pulled her to him, threading his fingers through the dark silk of her hair. His thumb traced the full curve of her lower lip, so lightly it made her tingle down to her toes.

"Wolf- "

"Sshh," he whispered. "I'm glad, really. It's been eating me alive, wondering what it would be like… "

"Oh, Wolf," she breathed, "it has me, too."

He glanced up at the shelf where she had put the controller. Then Wolf studied her for a moment before he said slowly, "Only you and me, Shaylah. No hypnosis this time. No ghosts."

"Yes," Shaylah said recklessly, damning the consequences even as she knew she was so far out of control she might lose herself forever. "Just you and me."

She didn't care if she was being a fool. He was here, where she had dreamed him, wished him, and he was hot and hard and real. Then he was kissing her, his lips gentle, coaxing, and she let out a shimmering little sigh of pleasure. It changed to a gasp when his tongue flicked over her lips, then between them. Without a thought she opened her mouth to him; it was the only thing possible for her to do.

She felt 'the hot, wet velvet of him probing, tracing the ridge of her teeth, sending a rolling wave of heat through her. Then, as he plunged forward and stroked her tongue with the tip of his own, that heat became a billowing wave that forced his name from her on a rush of breath.

"Wolf!"

He drew back a little. Tell me what you wish," he said a little thickly, his lips brushing against her cheek. "What do you want me to do?"

Annoyance crinkled Shaylah's brow for an instant; he was speaking as if he were still the slave and she the master, holding that damned controller over him. "I want you to do what you wish."

"Ah, Shaylah, you give me too many choices. It would take days to do everything I wish with you."

Heat flooded her. anew. "Then take days," she said huskily.

He smiled at her then, a slow, lazy smile that sent her heart swiftly toward light speed. He began to touch her, his hands sliding over her with exquisite care, testing, stroking, searching for the places that made her gasp.

In her exultation that he had come to her, Shaylah gave herself over to him with a kind of abandon she'd never known. Gave herself up to the endless gentle fondling of his hands, followed by the hot, searing caress of his mouth on her body.

He cupped her breasts through the thin gossamer of her garment, cradling and lifting their full roundness with his palms. His fingers flexed, as if savoring the softness of her, and Shaylah let out a tiny moan.

"Such a blending," Wolf murmured. "Every inch the consummate woman, yet with the soul and heart of the bravest of heroes…"

The pleasure that rose in her at his words collided with the pleasure of his hands on her, and she could only make an inarticulate sound of delight.

"Do you not know how beautiful you are?" He squeezed her gently again, his fingers slipping ever closer to the sensitive peaks that rose tautly against the sheer fabric. "Have you been too long the officer, and not long enough the woman?"

"Wolf," she gasped, "please…"

"Please?"

He looked puzzled at the word. Shaylah guessed he hadn't heard it very often, especially under these circumstances, but she didn't want to think about that. She couldn't think about it,

"This is us, Wolf," she whispered, lifting a hand to trail her fingers lightly over his jaw. "It's different. Isn't it?" She heard the plea in her voice, but could neither stop it nor care.

His eyes flicked once more to the controller, then back to her face. After a moment he said softly, "Yes-. Somehow, it is different."

Then his fingers moved, to catch and caress nipples already straining for his touch, and Shaylah gasped as fire shot through her as if from Carelia's twin suns. He toyed with the rigid peaks until she was breathless, arching her back, thrusting her breasts to him for more.

Shaylah knew from the new heaviness of his breathing that he was not unaffected himself, but she could only welcome the knowledge and soar onward beneath his hands. There was something about his touch, a tenderness that had been missing in that urgent, frenzied coupling she had induced.

Then, with a swift movement that stole every bit of breath from her lungs, he took one nipple with his lips and flicked it with his tongue through the thin cloth, and Shaylah was lost in an inferno that made her cry out his name.

Instinctively her hands came up, to grasp his head and hold it to her trembling flesh, to ensure that he wouldn't stop that alternately gentle, then fiercer suckling that was making her body draw the heat from his mouth and send it racing down to some swirling, molten place deep inside her. But when her slender fingers threaded their way through the long, thick mane of his hair, she forgot her original intent. Her fingers flexed, moved, loving the feel of the heavy golden silk sliding across her fingers, the feel of it as it brushed featherlight over her body.

The need to feel his hair trailing over her naked skin seized her irresistibly. She wriggled, tugging at the sheer gown that was no more than a nuisance now. When he realized what she was doing, Wolf moved away just far enough for her to shed the offending garment, then lowered his mouth to the other breast *to repeat the attentions that had nearly driven her to madness.

Her fingers digging into his shoulders, Shaylah moaned her pleasure as he suckled her deeply once more. She felt the heat of his hand slide down her side and over her belly, as if he were trailing fire from his fingertips. Then his fingers were parting the soft curls between her thighs, searching, until that fire leaped from him to her as he found the very core of her, and every nerve in her body leaped to life.

Shaylah bucked helplessly beneath his probing fingers, arching, reaching, caught between the stroking of his fingers and the suckling of his mouth. Her hands slid down his back, her trembling fingers plucking desperately at the ties of his trewscloth.

"Help me," she said sharply, needing, having to have him naked against her.

For an instant Wolf froze. Dazed with pleasure, Shaylah could only look back at him, her lips parted for her gasping breaths. His face went very still, and he nodded once before rising to his knees on the bunk beside her. Methodically, eyes lowered, he unfastened the ties and pulled off the brief, cloth, baring himself to her hungry gaze.

Shaylah stared at his jutting, engorged flesh, wondering that she had ever taken it inside her. The memory made her quiver, and she felt the warm wetness begin to flow within her. Tentatively she reached out, her fingers barely brushing the swollen tip, already moist with need. Wolf jerked sharply, but stayed where he was. When she looked up at him, his eyes were closed, his jaw tightly clenched.

She reached out again, fingers curling around him, marveling at the sleek smoothness of male flesh. She saw a shudder go through him, but still he remained kneeling before her. She deepened the caress, stroking him from tip to base, her fingers tangling in the thicket of golden curls. When she heard his sharp intake of breath, she did it again. When he moved sharply, as if involuntarily, parting his muscled thighs, she slid her hand farther down, cupping him gently in her palm.

He groaned, low and harsh and deep in his throat. It was a thick sound of pleasure mixed with anguish; she reveled in the one without understanding the other. He was shuddering under her caresses when at last he grabbed her wrist and stopped her.

"If you needed to prove you're in command here," he said hoarsely, "you've done it."

Shaylah stared at him, bewildered. He had changed somehow, since the moment she had pleaded for help with his trewscloth, and she didn't know why. "What's wrong, Wolf? You don't want…?" Her words trailed away; she didn't know if she couldn't say it because she was too embarrassed or because she didn't want to hear the answer.

Wolf laughed, a short, rasping sound that held no humor. "I want. I want, and I can't have." He shrugged. "I'm used to that. But I'm forgetting what I'm here for."

Before she could react to his harsh tone, he had come down upon her, his mouth taking hers fiercely as his hands stroked, probed, and plundered her body. The heat began to flow again, hotter than ever, as if the brief respite had only served to build up more fuel to feed it.

When his hand slid down her body once more, his fingers gentle yet determined as he searched out that tingling center, Shaylah clung to him. Shiver after shiver of sensation took her as he caressed her, until the heat inside her felt like some pool of molten liquid building behind a fragile barrier only he had the power to release.

She gasped when his finger slid farther, dipping inside her, then withdrew. She could feel her own wetness by the ease of his finger's entry, and she flushed when she realized that that was what he'd been doing: testing her readiness for him.

Shaylah moaned when he levered himself over her, and thrilled at the feel of his weight. She parted her legs willingly, and he slipped between them. She sucked in a breath and held it as she felt the hot, blunt tip of him probing against her.

"Is this what you want?" he grated out, staring down at her. "Or do you wish me to pleasure you another way?"

Lost in a fog of rippling sensation, Shaylah couldn't interpret the edge in his voice. She knew something was wrong, in the words he spoke and the way he was acting, but her body was crying out for him and she could do nothing more than whisper entreatingly, "Please, Wolf."

He moved then, quickly, almost roughly, thrusting into her in one long, deep stroke. She felt the impact as he drove home, and cried out as a fierce swell of pleasure swept her at the sweet invasion. When he made as if to withdraw, she held him, her hands sliding down his back to clutch at the taut curve of his buttocks.

"Wait," she said breathlessly. "I… want to feel you."

"You have… great faith in my abilities," he muttered, "but as you wish."

Shaylah felt him tremble with the effort to. remain motionless. That edge remained in his voice, but she still couldn't grasp its meaning through the shimmering haze of pleasure he'd put her in. All she knew was she'd never felt anything in her life like the sheer, overwhelming sensation of having him 'buried deep inside her. He was filling her, stretching her, making her body expand to accommodate him, yet still she wanted more.

Tentatively, experimentally, she shifted her hips. She felt him slide even deeper, touching the very heart of her, and she gasped at the sensation. She did it again, and again. He shuddered, she felt it ripple through him, but he didn't move. Her hands came up to clutch at his shoulders; they were damp with sweat. Her fingers tangled in the golden strands of the hair falling around his face.

"Oh, Wolf, I didn't know. Does it feel as wonderful to you?" she asked anxiously.

He made a low, harsh sound that could have been a laugh or a groan. "You're not supposed to worry about how I feel."

"But of course I do. I… it's so incredible, when I move, to feel you inside me…" Her voice went lower, suddenly restrained. "It… isn't like that, for you? You don't want to… to move?"

"You- " he sucked in a breath as she moved beneath him again, "told me not to."

Shaylah flushed. "But I didn't mean-" She broke off, her breath caught in her throat like a physical thing when he moved his hips, pulling back slightly and then pushing slowly into her again.

"More?" he said, his voice oddly thick as he repeated the movement, harder this time.

"Oh," Shaylah gasped.

It seemed all she could say, and she was grateful he took it as assent. He withdrew even farther, only to plunge forward with a fierce suddenness that drew another moan from her. In moments she was writhing beneath him, her legs lifting to wrap around him and hold him to her as if she would never release him, yet then letting him withdraw so that she could have the sheer pleasure of his swift, hot, thick invasion once more.

The tension built in her, intense, demanding, until she was clawing at him from the pressure. Her fingers dug into his shoulders, his back, his buttocks, as he drove into her. Tiny cries burst from her; it was unbearable, it was killing her. "I can't," she gasped out. "I can't stand it."

"All right," he said, "now, then."

Shaylah wondered how he could sound so calm; it was all she could do to keep from flying apart. And then Wolf shifted, changed the angle of his body until his rigid, swollen flesh stroked across the very heart of her with every thrust, creating a sweet, hot friction that made her half mad with fiery need. It was as if he'd lit the fuse on some primitive explosive, and Shaylah knew that the detonation would change her forever.

Fear spiked through her, fear of the unknown, and of what would be left of her afterward. But then she felt Wolf's mouth at her breasts, suckling each rosy crest in turn as he continued to stroke her from within, and there was nothing left at all but swelling, rising pleasure that spread to the limits of her body, then rebounded with twice the force. It seemed to feed upon its own energy, growing, expanding until she could no longer hold it and exploded in a convulsion of heat and light and sensation. His name ripped from somewhere deep inside her, leaving her lips in a fierce cry of pleasure.

Is this how a star feels, dying? she wondered, awestruck. Expending all its light and heat in one last burst of life? She could feel her body surging, rippling, every nerve seemingly intent on conveying to her the incredible sensation of stroking the hard, thick, male length inside her. Then, from the dizzying height, she became aware of something else.

She looked dazedly up at Wolf's face; it was contorted into an expression that was as much pain as it was extraordinary pleasure. His muscles were taut, trembling, but she couldn't tell if it was from an effort to move or to remain still.

Another quiver shook him, and she felt the answering sensation deep inside her as her feminine flesh rippled around him once more, coaxing, drawing, as if she wanted to pull him inside her forever. And she did, she thought as she shivered anew at the sight of his naked, golden beauty.

"No," Wolf groaned. "No."

She heard the denial, wondered at it, but lost the thought as, despite his words, he arched above her, driving himself to the hilt into that urgently caressing flesh. He closed his eyes as he threw his head back, the gleaming mane of his hair rippling down his back, the strong cords of his neck straining against the collar that bound him. "No," he protested again as he ground his hips against her.

He sucked in his breath with a strangled sound. A cry broke from him, a throttled shout of pleasure that seemed to coalesce into her name. Shaylah echoed it with her own cry of his name as she felt him shudder violently, pouring his heat and light and life into her.

"Wolf," she moaned, knowing that this time it was she he had given this to, not the ghost of his dead mate.

He collapsed atop her, then slid weakly to one side, the harsh, heavy sound of his breathing distinct in her ears. His arms were still stretched across her body, his legs still entangled with hers, and she savored every bit of contact, every echoing shudder that rippled through him, setting up an answering shudder of her own.

At last Wolf's breathing slowed, and Shaylah sensed the tension that began to flow back into him. He pulled away from her, rolling to his back, freeing his arms and legs. His eyes stayed closed, tightly as if he were fighting some inner battle.

"Wolf?" she whispered, biting her lip as a tide of apprehension rose in her, sending the last lingering remnants of pleasure skittering away before it. "Wolf, what's wrong?"

He made a sound, a flat, harsh sound that had no meaning, yet conveyed everything. His words, when they came, were just as jarring. "Are you… finished with me?"

Shaylah raised herself on one elbow. "What?"

"May I go?"

"Go?" Shaylah stared at him, pain stabbing at her. He just lay there, eyes closed, one forearm resting on his forehead, hand palm up. The left hand, with the scarred wrist plainly visible. She shuddered. He never moved.

"You were… satisfied, were you not?" His tone was mockingly humble, that of a slave pleading for approval.

Shaylah knew she was gaping, but she was so stunned she couldn't help it. The vibrant golden lover who had just taught her more about life and love and her own body than she'd ever known was gone; this was, not the slave he was portraying, but the man who knew so well how to make her angry.

"Stop it! Just-" her voice caught on a sudden, choking sob, "just stop it, damn you!"

"As you command," he said flatly. He moved then, sitting up on the edge of the bunk, obviously choosing to take her words as permission to leave. He was on his feet and two strides away before she found her voice again.

"Wolf!"

He stopped, and she saw his tension in the rigid muscles of his naked back. She saw, too, the new marks on him, only now beginning to fade. And the old ones, the shiny bands of skin at wrists and ankles. Something knotted up tight in her chest, a cold, pressing pain she couldn't bear. It colored her words as she whispered, "Wolf, what did I do?"

The golden mane of hair slid over his shoulders as he turned his head to look at her. "You broke me, Captain," he said coolly. "You own me as no one has. You should be proud."

* * *

Shaylah spent the next day alone in the observation port; she saw nothing of Wolf. She dozed occasionally; she had slept little after Wolf's departure, despite the sated weariness of her body. She didn't understand what had happened, and after hours of lying awake in the darkness of her quarters trying to figure it out, she was no closer to an answer.

His protest in those final moments, as his body erupted inside hers, made no sense to her. He had come to her of his own will, her battered heart insisted. Surely he had not meant to just fulfill the slave's duty, pleasuring her while withholding himself?

He had agreed it was different between them. Didn't that mean he knew that he no longer had to prevent his own pleasure? Didn't he know that surrendering to it gave her her no power over him, that if anything, the beauty of it increased his power over her?

He had come to her, yet when it was done he acted as if she were nothing more than another of those who had used him. As if she had gained some victory over him, as if she had forced him as all the others had. In fact, he was only slightly less angry than he had been the night she bad used the controller.

She stared out at the dark sphere of the asteroid, feeling as barren as it was, as lifeless. Empty, except for a burning knot of pain deep inside. And at last she began to realize that there had been no other way for it to be, that there never had been. The Coalition and what it had done to him would forever stand between them.

Shaylah had never been one for analyzing her own actions; she based her decisions on her own personal code and tried not to think about the things she had no control over. But now she wondered, rather acidly, if she had merely been avoiding the unpleasant truth of what her life had become. Avoiding the acknowledgment that her life, her career, helped cast men like Wolf into slavery.

She could not, she knew, change the system that was so much larger than herself. But she could change her support of it. She could do one small thing, save one victim of Coalition arrogance. She only had to think of a way. And when she did, she would walk away and leave him in peace, with no reminders to spark the ugly memories. And she tried not to think of what it would do to her, knowing she would never see him again. Tried not to think of what the ache inside her told her about her feelings for this golden man.

* * *

Shaylah was stunned when he came to her again that night. She had been sitting cross-legged on her bunk, scanning a star chart, trying to think of someplace far from the Coalition where he would be safe and free, when the whisper of sound made her look up.

He stood in her doorway, a look of utter resignation on his face. The light from the corridor haloed his naked body, giving him a strangely spectral look. She had the sudden thought that it was as if he were indeed a phantom, the embodiment of all the souls of a lost race, contained in this one lithe, graceful, golden body, the one last lion left to represent them all.

He moved, the halo shifting around him as he crossed the room, and she saw that again he was coming to her fully aroused. For an instant the sight took her breath away, but then the reality of what had happened between them rose to shatter the golden vision.

Shaylah tugged the blue silk robe tighter around her as she slid from the bunk and stood facing him. No matter what her feelings, she told herself firmly, she was not going to let him destroy her composure again. And she would start, she added with an inner ruefulness, by not trying to speak in a voice she was certain would waver. She just looked at him in wary silence.

"I tried to resist," he said slowly. "But I seem to have forgotten how. All I can think of is… my need for this."

Shaylah colored, not at his nakedness or his fierce arousal, but at the confession that he needed her. The rest of his words troubled her, though, and she said stiffly, "If you are thinking to repeat last night's… performance, I found the price too high, thank you."

"No. It did me no good, changed nothing."

"Then why are you here?"

His mouth twisted wryly. "I find myself in the position of a child who wants one thing above all else, yet whose instinct is to rebel when he is ordered to take it."

Ordered? The word stung. Had she somehow made him feel like the slave he'd been? Had she done something to make him believe she thought of him that way?

"This time," he said, "all will be as you command."

As you command. Shaylah went utterly still. She knew now she'd been right. This was not her Wolf, not the proud, aloof man who made her feel sensations unlike anything she'd ever known. This was the slave, the ever-obedient servant. The man who had no choice. The man who had been brutally trained to be an instrument for her pleasure.

She remembered it then, the moment last night when she had demanded his help with his clothing and he had gone so startlingly still. It was then he had seemed to change from generous, tender, fierce lover to cool, uninvolved participant. She remembered her other fevered demands, and she understood that he had thought of them as orders, like so many others. And at last she understood his groaning protest when he found himself unable, in the end, to maintain that coolness, to withhold himself from her as he had with all the others.

"Don't," she whispered, blinking at the tears that were suddenly brimming in her eyes. "It's not like that, not with us. Please, don't."

He just looked at her.

"Wolf," she said urgently, "I didn't… I never meant to… order you. I just… please, I need you, so much."

The wetness in her eyes spilled over now, tracing a silent path down her cheeks. She didn't sob, didn't have the breath to truly weep. And suddenly, as if her tears had brought him to life again, her Wolf was back, his green gaze warm as he looked down at her, his arms gentle as they came up to hold her.

"Ah, Shaylah," he murmured. "It's been a very long time since I've heard words that sweet. You make me want to believe."

"It's true!" She protested his doubt. "I mean it."

"I believe that you believe you mean it now."

"I do mean it," she insisted. "Why is that so hard to accept?"

He sighed, the exhalation stirring the dark silk of her hair. "Perhaps I don't have it in me to believe anymore."

From some deep place within her, some never-tapped wellspring, determination rose in her. Determination and faith. Any man who could survive what he'd been through with any warmth left at all, let alone the feelings he'd shown her, had to have held on to some capacity to believe, to have faith. He did have it in him, somewhere, and she would prove it to him.

"Lie down." He blinked at the abruptness of it. "You promised all would be as I command, did you not?"

Warily, he stretched out on the bunk, his eyes searching her face as if for some clue to what she was thinking. She joined him, kneeling in almost the exact position he had taken last night. For a long, silent moment she just looked at him, the long, lean lines, the taut curves and ridges of muscle, the golden sheen of him. She shivered slightly in anticipation as her gaze lingered for an instant on the swollen shaft, and she saw his stomach muscles ripple as if she'd touched him.

Good, she thought. I will teach you about orders, my prickly Wolf.

"I have only one more command." Her voice was low, throaty, and she saw him swallow tightly.

"Which is?" he rasped out.

"That all commands henceforth shall be yours."

He blinked. "What?"

"I was not clear?" she asked in mockingly innocent concern. "Let me explain, then. My orders are that you shall give the orders."

He stared at her, brow furrowed as if he knew she was up to something, but he couldn't begin to imagine what.

"What happens between us will be up to you," she said, as if he had asked for clarification. "I will do exactly as you command, no more, no less."

She threaded her fingers together and rested her hands primly atop her thighs as she knelt at his side. Her knees were tightly together, and with her hair tied neatly at the back of her neck, only the sensuous fabric of the blue robe as it clung to her body distorted the image of a prim and proper young woman of an ancient era. She waited in silence, just looking at him.

"Shaylah," he began at last.

"Yes?" she answered promptly, not moving.

"What game is this?"

"No game, Wolf," she returned, all mockery gone from her voice, "I meant exactly what I said."

His eyes narrowed as he studied her. "What are you trying to do?"

She shrugged, much as he did when he was about to give an answer cloaked in mock obedience. 'Whatever you wish me to do."

It was the slave's answer, and she saw the speculation in his face. "If this is to teach me something, I must warn you, you make a very poor slave."

"So do you."

"So that is what you're trying to do?"

"I'm trying to do as you wish."

"It won't work," he warned. "You were not cut out for a submissive woman, Shaylah."

"Nor you for a submissive man, Wolf. But that is what I wish to do. Submit to your command. Now, what do you wish me to do?"

She saw the muscle jump in his jaw, saw the taut ripple as his stomach muscles contracted. She kept her smile of satisfaction turned inward. "You're playing with fire, Captain," he said, the stern warning diminished a little by the taut hoarseness of his voice.

"I hope so," Shaylah murmured under her breath.

She hadn't thought he could hear her, but she saw him take in a quick, short breath as if he had. He lifted one hand, reaching over to rest it on her leg, palm over her bent knee, fingers splayed over her lower thigh. Shaylah felt heat from his touch begin to radiate across her skin. Wolf watched her carefully; she held scrupulously still.

He flexed his fingers, the tips digging slightly into the muscle of her leg. In spite of herself her breathing quickened under his touch, but she resolutely maintained that same prim posture. His hand slid up her thigh, up to the soft, tender flesh on the inner side. She shivered as her pulse began to race, but by biting the inside of her lip, she managed to stay still.

The sight of his chest rising and falling with his own suddenly accelerated breathing helped her steady herself, keep herself from begging him to move his fingers just a little more, to that already heating place that recognized this man all too well.

"Shaylah," he growled, his voice low and harsh.

"You- " her voice caught, but with an effort she went on smoothly, "wish me to do something?".

"Damnation, I-" He stopped abruptly, his eyes narrowing as he looked at her. The vivid green turned hot, glowing, as if he were daring her to continue with this. She knew she'd guessed right when, lifting a hand to the sleeve of the lustrous robe, he said flatly, "Take this off."

There was no mistaking the challenge in his voice, even masked by a hoarseness that belied the coolness of his tone. Praying to Eos that she hadn't started something she would forever regret, Shaylah unfastened the robe and let it fall from her shoulders. It slithered off the bed, leaving her clad only in the sheer, short swath of the pale blue gown.

He just looked at her, so steadily that she would have thought him unaffected except for the way his lips parted slightly as he took in a long, deep breath. She knew too well the effect he was having on her; the moment his gaze lowered to the full curves of her breasts, she felt her nipples draw up into tight little buds. She wanted to pull the sheer cloth away from her body so that he couldn't see her instant response, but the vow she'd made to turn the tables on him kept her motionless.

And silent. She saw his brows lower and knew he wasn't convinced of how far she'd take this. She could almost see him make the decision, when still she didn't speak, to push a little further.

"This, too." He touched the filmy fabric. Shaylah quivered inwardly, her stomach knotting. But she moved, her hands going with trembling slowness to the hem of the gown. She'd gone up against a squadron of starfighters with less trepidation than this. But then, she thought shakily, she had only been risking her life. Now she was risking her heart.

Her heart? For the briefest of moments she paused, wondering where that had come from. Was she truly so fascinated, so captivated by this man? Startled by the thought, her gaze flew to his face, just in time to see his expression change to one of cynical understanding.

He thought she was stopping, she realized, changing her mind, as he had expected her to all along. With a defiantly fierce motion, she jerked the gown over her head and tossed it to the floor. Her breasts swayed with the movement, and Wolf made an odd sound. She turned her head back to face him, forcing herself not to succumb to the instinctive urge to cover her nakedness with her hands.

The rapid rise and fall of his chest stopped for an instant as he stared at her, looking stunned. Shaylah lowered her eyes so he wouldn't see the flash of triumph in them; she renewed her vow to show him that she'd meant exactly what she had said. Now, and before.

When she dared look at him again, his shock had been replaced by a look of pure challenge. "All right, we'll play your game, Captain," he said, and she knew by the intensity of his gaze that he was gauging her response to the taunt of her title. She kept her expression carefully even.

He reached out once more, sliding his hand slowly from her knee upward. Shaylah struggled to control the quiver of her flesh and bit back a moan as he again came to a halt with his fingers heating the tender flesh of her inner thigh.

"Part your legs," he rasped out, his eyes fixed, not on the triangle of dark curls just at the tip of his fingers, but on her face. She tried desperately not to react as she silently did as he asked.

She couldn't stop the shiver that ran through her when she felt his hand move, felt the first tentative probing of his fingers. She could feel her own heat and knew that when he reached his goal he would find her wet and ready. Yet she could never have predicted his reaction when he did.

He shuddered as he encountered slick, hot flesh, and even as she gasped at the sudden, fierce sensation that pierced her at his touch, the words that broke from him astonished her.

"Thank God." he breathed.

"Wolf…?"

"I didn't think you… I thought you were trying to show me you were in control, felt nothing unless you wished to."

"As you never did?" she asked softly, as steadily as she could with his fingers moving gently over soft feminine flesh. "This has nothing to do with control, Wolf, or with all the times your body was forced to feel things your mind and heart fought against. Do you think I wanted that, you doing only as ordered? A forced mating is a barren, useless thing."

His fingers stopped. His gaze flicked up to the shelf above her, where the controller sat. "You… believe that?"

"I know that. The thought of you being with me only because you have no choice is…" She took a deep breath, smothering a shiver, and not just at her own words. He might not be caressing her, but the heat of his hand pressed so intimately against her body was making her want to squirm.

"Then why…" He stopped, but Shaylah had caught his glance at the controller.

"Take the damn thing. Wolf. I hate the sight of it."

She felt his tension in the sudden tautness of his fingers. "You would give the key to the chains to the slave who wears them?"

"And that," she said softly, "is what else this has to do with. It has to do with you believing I mean what I say."

His eyes widened slightly, and she saw him take in a deep breath. "Shaylah…"

It was soft, low, and held some vibrant undertone she'd never heard from him before. She took in a quick breath of her own, nerving herself to pound the point home.

"I await your commands," she said, in an eerie echo of his own practiced, mocking tone of humble respect.

"I have… only one," he said, his voice catching.

"Which is?"

"Make love to me.".

Shaylah's breath died in her throat at the beauty of the way he said the ancient Triotian words. Only from her parents, steeped in Triotian tradition, had she heard the word love, and she knew that no Triotian of blood would use it lightly. It made her fairly quiver with the need to do just that, and to show him that she truly knew the difference between a mating by force or by choice.

And she did. She used every bit of knowledge she had gained last night, kissing, stroking, petting, moving over his golden body like a priestess at a temple of worship. He tried to remain still as she ministered to him, but the heat grew so fiercely, so swiftly that, with a growl worthy of his mythical namesake, he began to move.

He tugged at her bound hair until it fell free, tumbling in a silken mass to trail over his body as she trailed another line of sweet, tiny kisses over his chest. When her lips found his nipples and her tongue began to probe, his hands shot up to cup her head and hold her there.

Shaylah heard him groan as the golden-brown disks of flesh tightened under her mouth. His fingers, threaded through the dark fall of her hair, tightened as he started to move, then stopped. She felt the movement with a shock of recognition; such had been her own need to heighten his touch on her by moving her own body against him.

More confident now, knowing he was responding, she felt a dart of hope that she could make him feel what she felt, could really succeed in making it as incredible for him as it was for her. When she moved her mouth along a long, slow path down to his belly and he shuddered, muscles rippling beneath her lips, she knew she could. It would be a bonding as deep as any he'd ever known.

It flared out of control then, and Shaylah knew nothing but the raging heat of need, needing to touch him as much as she needed his hands on her, needing to kiss and lick at him as much as she needed his mouth on her. She fairly writhed in the effort to do both, and Wolf rose to the challenge as if she'd voiced it. His hands, his mouth were everywhere in return, and when at last his body slid home, she couldn't have said who had moved to join them.

It was fierce, hot, and more than a little wild, and Shaylah gloried in it. And when the tide became unstoppable and he rose above her with his face drawn taut with pleasure, only one thing marred the sweetness of it: that tiny, barely perceptible hint of resignation in his vivid green eyes.

And then nothing mattered but the surging, rippling waves that swept her, hot, steady pulses of pleasure that made her cry out his name again and again. And then he was with her, his hands gripping her with a sweet possessiveness as he held her for his final thrust, her name breaking from his lips with a guttural, harsh sound as his body went rigid, arching against her.

Savoring his weight as he collapsed, panting, upon her, Shaylah knew she had never felt so drained, so sated, so warmly satisfied. Only the memory of that glitter in his eyes marred her contentment, but she refused to think about it now, when she was so replete. She just wanted to lie here, holding him on her and within her, and drift forever.

"Wolf?" she murmured.

"Mmm."

It was low, faint, no more than an acknowledgment that she had spoken. It somehow added to her pleasure to know that this strong, indomitable man was as spent as she was.

"We must talk." She felt him try to move, then give the effort up with a groan. "Later," she amended with a smile she didn't try to hide.

"Mmm."

Her smile widened as his breathing slowed, deepened; Wolf would not be leaving her this night. She gave herself a few more moments, savoring the feel of him in her arms, before she followed him into sleep.

Hours later, Shaylah woke with her heart hammering in her chest. It came again, the shrill beeping that had awakened her. The scanner alarms.

They had been found.

Chapter 9

Shaylah activated the computer with a quick command.

"Ready, Captain," the oddly genderless voice said after running the voice scan. Shaylah glanced over her shoulder as Wolf joined her in the conroom, fastening the flight suit she'd found for him. He glanced at the scanners, and she saw his eyes narrow at the size of the blip that had activated the alarms. She turned back to the computer.

"Quick scan. Identify and give coordinates on intruder," she said.

"Working." A pause. "Cruiser weight, Diaxin class. Range, one thousand twenty stellar miles and closing. Speed sublight, acceleration factor five."

"Eos," Shaylah whispered.

"Verify request?" the computer asked politely.

"Armament," she snapped.

"Full standard range, plus four photon torpedo bays, one laser gun. Six Y-class fighters indicated."

"A laser gun," Wolf said slowly. "Not a Coalition vessel, then."

"No," Shaylah agreed, "we did away with those years-" She broke off, and her head swung around as she looked at him. "How did you know that?"

He shrugged. "I must have heard it somewhere."

A nice, vague nonanswer, Shaylah thought again. He had them perfected. It irritated her, but she didn't have time to dwell on it now. She turned back to the computer.

"Affiliation?" she asked, although she knew it was probably a wasted effort.

"None apparent," the voice returned.

"Of course not," she muttered. There was only one answer, and the moment she raised her gaze to Wolf, she knew that they both knew it.

"Skypirates," he said flatly.

"Yes," she said grimly. "And a ship that size must have a crew of over a hundred. Even if my crew were here, we'd still be outnumbered five to one."

"And outgunned."

"Against four photon torpedoes? That's putting it kindly."

Wolf glanced out the viewport at the barren expanse of the asteroid. Then he looked at the computer's ongoing flow of information, reporting the big cruiser's steady, unwavering approach. Then he turned back, his gaze intently on Shaylah.

"No course change," he said.

"I won't ask where you learned to read instruments," Shaylah said dryly.

He shrugged, the flight suit tightening across his broad shoulders. "Do you think they've detected us?"

"Probably not, at least not yet. They couldn't be expecting anyone to be here, and our quick scan shouldn't have registered long enough for them to be sure, if they weren't looking for it."

He glanced out the viewport again. "That's a… sizable rock," he said.

Shaylah followed his glance, then her gaze shot back to his face. He was watching her, waiting. She got it then, and moved quickly to disengage the self-pilot.

"It won't help for long," she warned. "They're going to register the ion drive when they get close enough."

"Yes. But if we can keep the asteroid between us, maybe they won't know we're here until it's too late. It takes a while to turn a ship that big around."

"And we're faster," she acknowledged. "We can make a run for it around the other side."

Shaylah made a delicate adjustment in the controls as they slid into the shadow of the asteroid. It would be a tricky proposition, keeping the mass of rock between them and the approaching cruiser as long as possible, but it was their only chance. She feathered the power from the port engine to the starboard, turning the ship, all the while wondering where Wolf had learned such tactics.

"We can run," Wolf said, watching her. "But we'd better be ready to fight, too. They may send out those fighters, and we can't outrun them."

Shaylah shot him a glance. "Without a crew, I can't fight and fly at the same time, Wolf. I've automated all the systems I can, but in a fight the con and the weapons station both have to be manned."

Wolf looked at her steadily. For a long moment he didn't speak. Then, in an inflectionless voice, he said, "I don't know your weapons systems."

Shaylah's jaw clenched. "I know, I didn't show you, but even if I had, there's no way you could have learned it fast enough. It's a full-time course in the Academy."

"I know. So you must handle the weapons."

Shaylah stared at him. He knew? How? Then the meaning implicit in his words struck her. "Wolf, holding us behind this asteroid is not something I can turn over to the self-pilot. It would take too many delicate adjustments. It can't-"

"I know."

It was flat, inflectionless again, and at last it got through to her. She gaped at him. "You mean- You don't mean…?"

"It has been a very long time, but…" He shrugged. "Some things you don't forget."

"You can fly? The Sunbird?"

His steady gaze never wavered. "I can."

It went against every tenet that had been pounded into Shaylah's psyche since her first day at the Academy to turn command of her ship over to an unknown, untried pilot. Yet she had no choice, and no time to dwell on the decision or to wonder when and how he had learned to fly; the steady advance of the threatening cruiser proved that. And as she looked at Wolf's impassive, chiseled face, she suddenly had no doubts that he could do exactly as he said.

"Who are you?" she whispered once more, bewildered anew by this man she knew so well and yet not at all.

"Right now, the only help you have," he said.

Shaylah hesitated a second more, doubt warring with instinct, then reached into the console beside the con. She took out a headset for the ship's intercom system and held it out to him. He moved to take it, his fingers brushing hers. His hand stopped, maintaining the contact. Shaylah couldn't tear her hand away, and reached with the other to activate the Sunbird's shields.

"She's all yours," Shaylah whispered. He moved then, just the slightest shifting of his fingers, moving over the back of her hand in a way that was oddly reassuring,

"No, Captain," he said, for the first time using her rank without that sour, sardonic tone. "She's yours. But I'll take care of her for you."

As she made her way to the main weapons station, all Shaylah could think about was the almost tender way he had taken over the controls, and the glow that had lit his eyes, as if he were reunited with a friend long missed.

She felt a few sideways slips of the ship as she went, but she knew it would be the same with any pilot the first few moments with a new craft. The movements stopped as she settled down in the weapons seat, and she knew he had already gotten the feel of the controls. It didn't surprise her to see that they were holding steady in the shadow of the asteroid; she was learning rapidly not to underestimate the man called Wolf.

She put on her own headset and tuned in to the con frequency.

"'Wolf?"

"Here."

"Any change?"

"Still closing. No sign of a scan yet."

"How long?"

There was a pause. "It appears they'll be close enough to pick up the ion reading in… five minutes."

"You have a course laid in to take us on the far side as they go by?"

Another pause; Shaylah could almost see his wry smile. "Yes, Captain." The bite was back in the word, but it seemed more amused than acid. Shaylah armed her weapons: short-range cannon, laser tracers, and the torpedoes for the Sunbird's single photon gun. She activated her targeting computer, loaded the first rounds in each of the weapons, and fastened her harness. Then she took a deep breath.

"Wolf?"

"Yes, Captain?"

"I… I'm sorry I got you into this."

She heard him expel a compressed breath. "No, Shaylah. I would rather die fighting than locked up in a cage. Besides," he added, and she could virtually hear his smile in his voice, "don't be in such a hurry to wipe us from the history disk."

She wondered at his generosity in not pointing out that if she hadn't brought them to this sector, they would probably not be facing the pirates who traversed it regularly. Yet she hadn't really had much choice; this was the only place she had been able to think of not routinely patrolled by Coalition vessels who would find the presence of one of their own far too interesting to pass up without a thorough investigation.

It struck her then, the oddity of it, of hiding in the shadow of a barren piece of space debris to avoid not only the raiders that were approaching, but her own kind, her colleagues, the people she'd fought for and with, the coalition of colonies she had sworn to lay down her life for, if necessary.

How had she come to this? She had broken enough Coalition regulations to get her cashiered and sent to a labor colony. Not even her record could get her out of this one. For the first time she truly realized that she had done something irrevocable and that if she was found out, her career, if not her life, was as good as over.

She searched within herself, looking for some sign of panic, of sun-shattering remorse. She couldn't find it. Regret, yes, deep and yawning as she thought of never flying free through the far reaches again, but not enough to make her wish she hadn't done it. Even had she known she would never fly again, she couldn't have left Wolf in that place.

The knowledge frightened her, never in her life had anything outside her family been more important to her than flying. Even when she began to see that the Coalition wasn't quite the spotless bastion of glory she'd been taught, she remained because it gave her the chance to fly. She'd known of the slaves and had still tried to walk away, to go on as before so that she could fly.

Then she'd met Wolf. And risked it all-in fact, perhaps thrown it all away-because she couldn't bear to see him chained and beaten. Why had he affected her this way? Why had she been able, despite her aversion to the system, to walk away from the countless others she'd encountered throughout the Coalition colonies? Why this one man? Had she become a slave herself, to her own unexpected needs, played on so sweetly by this scarred yet oddly noble man? Had she-

Her tangled musing was interrupted by Wolf's voice in her headset..

"Computer registering a scan. They've picked up a read on the ion drive."

This is it, she thought. "Copy. I turned off the identifier, so they can't know who we are yet. Hold position until we're certain they've decided to come after us. Then hit the-" She broke off. "Never mind. You know what to do then."

"Yes, Captain." The smile came through again, and she was seized with the wish to be able to see it. "An ancient Triotian phrase about bats out of Hades comes to mind."

He was loving this, Shaylah thought. And she couldn't blame him for savoring the freedom after years of hellish captivity. Yes, Wolf would rather die young, free, and fighting than live to old age in servitude.

"They're slowing."

The ominousness of the words did nothing to mask the exuberance of his tone. He was ready to fight, free to fight, and sounded alive as she'd never heard him before. This, at least, she had given him; she tried to take some small comfort from that.

She felt the acceleration as the Sunbird began the arc that would take them around the far side of the asteroid, keeping the barren mass of rock between them and the pirates. She wondered if the raiders would continue if they discovered their bogey was a Coalition ship, but knew as soon as she thought it that it was a moot point; the Sunbird couldn't wait to find out.

"Starting their turn."

He was keeping her posted as well as the best-trained of her crew, and holding the ship's course better than most. Had he flown in the service of Trios, in the small force they had maintained? She spared a brief, wondering thought about what kind of pilot he must have been before, if he was this good now, after years away from a con. Then she settled herself further in the seat, rechecking her weapons.

The waiting was always the worst, she thought. When the fight was on, things were generally happening too fast to think about things like the possibility of incineration. It was afterward that the shock always hit her, made her tremble with the knowledge of another near-miss collision with death. She'd learned to conceal the reaction that would be viewed as unacceptable in a Coalition officer.

Wolf's voice again, sharp and quick. "Getting a reading. They've launched a small craft… no, two. Stand by for a quick scan…" She waited, holding her breath. "Fighters, Captain. Short-range but heavily armed. Photon guns, midsize cannon.

"Copy."

"Coming in bearing three five. Weapons armed."

"Copy," Shaylah repeated.

She knew they would probably make a pass first, trying to identify the Sunbird, and she had little time to decide whether to fire first. There was always the chance they might cut and run when they saw the Coalition insignia, a chance Shaylah didn't dare pass up. She kept her weapons at the ready in case they were coming on with orders to shoot, but set herself to hold unless they fired first.

She saw them then, two small, Y-wing fighters of the type the Coalition had discarded in favor of the predecessor of the Sunbird. Shaylah had flown one at the Academy and remembered it well. The three-man ship was small, solid, and fast, but what it gained in speed it lost in maneuverability; she would never forget the instant in training when she feared she hadn't compensated enough for the lack of agility and they were going to crater into a cliff.

They were coming at her head-on now, clearly visible from the viewport here at the top of the ship. It was time to level out the Sunbird's arc, to give her a steady platform from which to fire if she had to. She opened her mouth to tell Wolf, then shut it when the ship slowed and stabilized; he'd beaten her to it.

The two fighters zipped overhead, so close she could see the blotches where their original insignia had been removed. As if they knew she wasn't going to fire on this pass, they came in at perfect target angle, then disappeared on the other side of the ship.

Shaylah started to speak, to tell Wolf to track them and tell her if they turned back toward the Sunbird. Then she stopped. He would tell her. He knew what he was doing. And again she wondered how.

It came as soon as she expected. "Banking," he said crisply. "Both coming in for another pass. Bearing… two ten."

"Copy."

"They're splitting. I'd say they're serious this time."

She swiveled around to face the new approach. She dialed in the targeting computer to track the pair. Her finger tensed on the trigger release of the cannon. She saw the sudden flash from the lead fighter just as she heard Wolf's warning.

"Incoming!"

Shaylah saw the approaching blast, a fiery nimbus in the darkness of space. Then another, from the second fighter, from slightly above. They had fired early, she thought, giving her too much time; she'd make sure they regretted it. She knew the shields would hold; the trick was in timing her return fire before the Sunbird took the impact, ruining her shot. She was cool and impassive now, doing the mental countdown she'd done so many times before.

Beat… beat… beat… fire.

The cannon hurled out its pulse of pure thermal energy. A fraction of a second later, as the first fighter's blast hit, the Sunbird shuddered, then steadied. Light and debris erupted above as Shaylah's shot hit home. The blast from the second fighter hit, but again the shields held.

"Nice shooting, Captain."

Wolf's tone warmed her; it told her he had expected nothing else. "Find me that second one again," she said, swiveling around again to prepare.

"I'm sure he'll find us," Wolf drawled. Shaylah couldn't help but smile; this was a Wolf she wanted more of. Then, briskly: "Coming around, bearing two two three."

"Copy."

He was waiting this time, no doubt knowing that a closer shot would weaken their shields. Shaylah zeroed in the computer.

"Another launch from the mother ship," Wolf warned. "Four this time. Bearing four eight."

"Copy," Shaylah said. Her gaze was still riveted on the second fighter; she knew she had a few precious seconds before the second wave hit. The moment she was sure of him, she fired. In that moment she saw the burst from the other vessel and knew what was going to happen. Instantly she adjusted the aim on the cannon and fired another round.

The Sunbird rocked from the concussion as her first shot and the fighter's round collided. Wolf steadied her instantly. The oncoming fighter veered out of the way of the fireball… and right into her second shot.

"My compliments, Captain."

"Thank you." She knew she was grinning at his praise, but she couldn't help it.

"But there are those other little problems," he said casually.

"I don't see them yet."

"They should be coming around the rim of the asteroid right… about… now."

"Got them," Shaylah announced as the four fighters popped into view. They divided, two heading sharply to the Sunbird's stern, the others coming straight on.

"They're splitting up," Wolf observed. "This could get interesting. Take the head-ons, I'll see if I can amuse the other two for a bit."

"Copy."

The attackers were playing it safer this time, she realized as the two fighters set up for their run. They were both coming in at the same time, from different angles. With a full crew of four weapons officers, it would have been a snap to take all four of them at once; now she'd be lucky to get them one at a time-if she lasted that long.

She armed a second cannon swiftly, watching the fighters close on the Sunbird. She risked a quick shot on the lead craft. It hit, but the craft only wobbled for an instant. Too far, she thought, and reloaded. She waited, that mental pacing echoing in her head again.

Beat… beat… beat… fire.

She was right on. The computer chirped the hit. And the fighter kept coming.

A dud, she realized in consternation. The Sunbird bucked as she took hits from both fighters. Shaylah heard the damage alarms sound and swore softly, fervently. Damn that last load of ammunition! Every fifth round was useless-had been through the whole batch-and it was going to get somebody killed. She just hoped that somebody wasn't them.

She gasped when a flare of light made her jerk her head around to look toward the stern. Had the other two gotten off hits as well? She hadn't felt the familiar shudder. The shields would only hold so long, and those last two hits had weakened them. Then she saw a small, scorched object drift away from the tail of the Sunbird.

"Clumsy of him," Wolf's voice drawled in her ear. "Imagine coming so close when we were about to test the thrusters."

"Test the…?" Her jaw dropped. Then she laughed, short but joyous. "You toasted him?"

"He toasted himself. I just tested the thrusters. In case we need them," he explained with mock patience. And a grin that came through even over the headset. "But your friends are making their turn, Captain. Try a round that explodes this time."

"Just shut up and fly," she said, failing utterly in making the order sound intimidating. His enthusiasm was infectious; she was starting to enjoy this.

"Yes, Captain," he returned blandly, and she knew he'd read her mood perfectly.

She was enjoying this. They were outgunned, outnumbered, and could easily die at any moment, yet she'd never felt so exhilarated. It wasn't just the adrenaline rush of battle; she'd experienced that enough to know that this was different. And it didn't take much effort to realize the difference was Wolf.

She settled in for the third run. She wouldn't waste any shots this time; she would wait until they were well within range. She had to take them both, and fast. Wolf hadn't said anything about the shields, but she knew how much they could absorb before they started to weaken.

She was intent on the two she'd missed the first time, but when the third ship, now sans his singed companion, suddenly appeared at close range, she tried to quickly adjust her guns. "Stay locked in. I'll take him." Wolf's words startled her, but she instinctively obeyed, holding back her hasty shot. The Sunbird slowed, then rotated slightly in her flat plane of flight. Shaylah held her breath. What on earth was he doing? Then she heard another sound that made her suck in an astonished breath. He was lowering the port shields!

"Wolf!"

Nothing. She stared out the viewport. The third fighter suddenly diverted to the port side. He'd spotted the sudden vulnerability and was closing in for the killing blow.

"Wolf!" she yelled again.

Still nothing. Desperately she started to swivel around, trying to get a shot off before the fighter disappeared off the port side, even knowing it would put her hopelessly out of position for the other two craft that would be in range in mere seconds.

"Hold steady, Captain,"

He didn't say "Trust me," but it was there in his tone. For a fraction of a second she hesitated. Then she returned to her former position and set up on her original target. And waited, every muscle taut with tension.

She sat rigidly upright when the Sunbird jerked, snapped into a sharp cant down to starboard, then back, so swiftly it seemed impossible it had happened at all. Then, through the viewport, she saw the third fighter careening out of control, tumbling into space.

"By Eos," Shaylah breathed. "You sideswiped him!"

"I did not," Wolf said, his voice echoing with mock outrage. "I just… nudged him."

Shaylah laughed out loud; she couldn't help it. This was the Wolf she'd longed to see, just as she'd always longed to see that last Arellian lion running wild and free.

"Nudged him?" she exulted. "You lured him in with the downed shields, then knocked him to Antares!"

"Which is where we're going to be, Captain," he warned, and Shaylah jerked back to the matter at hand as she heard the port shield snap back on. The two oncoming fighters were building speed and already firing, for a fast, shooting-all-the-way pass, and Shaylah knew this was going to be tough.

The fighters would have to break over the top of the ship, she thought. Going beneath would put them in a direct line for the asteroid, and those old Y-wings would never pull out in time at that speed. Quickly she calculated their probable course. They would split, she thought, peeling off in opposing directions, to make it as difficult as possible for her to get them both. She set her guns, one on the lead fighter, the other on the path she guessed the other would take over the top.

She felt the quiver in the ship as the rounds began to hit. She made herself wait. The targeting computer flashed its readiness; they were in range. Still she waited. She could sense the shields weakening; the ship was vibrating under the constant fire.

In the instant when her fingers tightened on the trigger, the lead ship broke to sail over her. She adjusted instantly, then fired. She didn't wait to watch the explosion; she knew it was a hit. She snapped around to fire the second round. And saw it disappear into empty space.

Incredulously, she realized that the impossible, the insane, had happened. The second pilot, in the instant of decision, had chosen certain suicide. He had broken downward, for the belly of the Sunbird. And in the last instant before he hurtled past on his deadly dive to the asteroid, he fired two parting shots. The first destroyed the Sunbird's shields. The second plowed into the weapons station.

The Sunbird lurched violently, jolted by the blow. The destruction of the last fighter, shattered against the unforgiving asteroid, registered on the targeting computer, but the readout was barely visible through the smoke and debris.

Shaylah tried to move, tried to unfasten the harness that was holding her pinned in the crumpled weapon command seat, but her fingers didn't seem to work right. She was only vaguely aware that the ship's emergency systems had worked, sealing off the compartment from the deadly vacuum of space the moment the hit became inevitable. It maintained the integrity of the ship's pressurization, but it also contained- and magnified-the effect of the blast.

She tried to look around, but dizziness made her vision blurry. She felt oddly removed from the blaring of alarms, the smoke, the dust, and the twisted wreckage of the guns.

And the voice. Calling, saying something familiar. She should answer, she thought. Something about that voice made her want to answer, but her voice didn't seem to be working any better than her fingers.

She tried to move. Pain shot through her, wringing a sharp gasp from her lips. Her ears rang from it, making even that oddly alluring voice fade. She fell back against the crushed seat.

There was a leak somewhere, she decided. Something wet was running down her face. And that voice was louder now, sharper. It was hurting her head. Please, don't shout, she said. Or tried to; she realized after a moment nothing had come out. She turned her head, trying to see.

They were defenseless now, she thought fuzzily. Full of ammunition, but no guns to fire it with. She should be worried. She should do something. Move. Or answer the voice that was anxiously calling… what? Her name? Was that why it seemed familiar?

Something clicked then, Snapped into sharp focus amid the murky confusion. An image, tall, strong, and golden.

"Wo…" She tried again, a bare whisper of sound. "Wolf?"

"Shaylah! God, are you all right? The hit registered dead center in the weapons station!"

Yes, she thought. Shaylah. That was her name. He had been calling her. Wolf had been calling her. Her Wolf. Brave, clever, noble Wolf. Prickly Wolf. Loving Wolf.

She nodded, pleased with her own quick-wittedness. The movement sent pain rippling through her again. Despite herself, she cried out. Her mind began to fog once more, to turn gray and confused.

"Wolf," she whispered again. Then she slipped into unrelieved blackness.

Chapter 10

When she surfaced this time, Shaylah decided to stay; the pain wasn't nearly as bad as it had been. And the light seemed fainter, not the painful glare that had driven her back to the seductive darkness. Tentatively she opened her eyes.

She was in her quarters. She was pleased that she was so certain of that, a vague memory of wandering lost and confused in some strange place of twisting pathways, searching endlessly for some unknown golden prize, haunted her. But she knew now she was in her bunk, warm, dry, and comfortable, and she drowsily considered going right back to sleep. Then another memory flickered in the back of her mind, and her eyes snapped open. Her voice was a barely audible whisper of sound.

"Wolf…"

She felt a movement near her feet, and her gaze shifted in that direction. He was there, uncoiling from where he had been sitting cross-legged on the foot of the bunk, much as she had when he'd been lying here. He was still clad in the flight suit, although it was looking much the worse for wear at the moment. And he was, she realized now, the golden image that had haunted her fevered dreams.

"Shaylah," he said, his voice taut with an undertone she didn't recognize.

"Wolf," she said again, stronger this time. "What…? Where…?"

"It's all right," he said soothingly as he moved to the head of the bunk. "We're safe for now." She tried to sit up, but sank back down when her head began to spin. "Just rest. We're all right," he repeated, sitting on the edge of the bunk at her elbow.

Shaylah turned her head-slowly-to look at him. He looked tired, his eyes dark-circled, as though he hadn't slept for days. Another question came to her, and she decided to try her voice again. It was steadier this time. "How long… have I been out?" He gave her a wry half smile. "I'm not sure. As someone else once said, I lost track. I've been… a little busy."

"Wolf, what happened?"

"It doesn't matter now. Rest. That explosion laid you out flat."

"But the pirates-"

"Far behind us."

"How? After that hit-"

"It didn't damage anything but the weapons systems. And you," he added.

Shaylah grimaced. "I should have had him. It just never occurred to me that he'd fly straight into the asteroid to get us."

"You got half of them," Wolf said. "Four, really, since he cratered because he couldn't get past you any other way. Now will you rest?"

"But how did we get away? Did they back off? Where are we? How bad is the ship?"

Wolf let out a sigh. "I guess that answers that. All right, Captain." He began to tick off the items like a dutiful ensign giving a report. "The structural damage is minimal, although the weapons systems are almost a total loss. The pressure seals worked perfectly, securing the compartment before it could depressurize."

Shaylah felt a chill ripple through her; the Sunbird had saved her life once more. She shifted, carefully so as not to rouse the pain that seemed to be easing. And colored when she realized she was naked beneath the thermoactive cover. Don't be ridiculous, she told herself. He's certainly seen everything you have before. There's no reason to get in a fume because he stripped you while you were unconscious. Especially when you did the same to him.

"What about the pirates?" she asked hastily.

Wolf's eyes narrowed at her blush, but he went on as if he hadn't noticed. "After the last fighter went down-after the hit-I cut her loose." He nodded in the direction of the con. "She's a pretty quick little ship, Captain. We left them in our ion trail."

"They didn't follow? After we wiped out their fighters?"

He shrugged. "I, er… gave them a little diversion to worry about." He hurried on before she could question that. "As to our position, we're somewhere off the shipping lane for Boreas."

Shaylah stared at him. The ice planet. Not only could, he fly like her ship's namesake, he obviously could also navigate, and had managed to think of one of the safest refuges there could be for them within Coalition boundaries. The knowledge that they were indeed probably safe, for at least a while, left her oddly drained.

"I wish I'd thought of that," she said tiredly. "I'd forgotten that with winter setting in on Boreas and the crystal fields shut down, it's virtually deserted."

"Except for the occasional Coalition patrol," Wolf said dryly.

"Yes." She tried to force her eyes to stay open against the lassitude that was stealing over her. "But they only come out here once every month or two in the winter."

"That's what I was hoping. Will you rest now?" Something about the entreaty in his voice made her want to say yes. She wondered at that, and while she was pondering the odd effect his voice seemed to have on her, she slipped back to sleep.

When she awoke again, she was feeling much better. And Wolf was there, with a cup of fragrant liquid that made her stomach growl. At the sound he grinned at her, and she nearly forgot how to breathe. He held the cup for her, and as she sipped the broth she watched him, savoring the change in him more than the nourishment she needed.

She sat up when she had finished, gingerly at first, then more easily when she realized the sharp pain had receded into a dull, bearable ache. Questions bubbled up inside her, so many that she didn't know where to begin. As if he knew her predicament, Wolf spoke, that undercurrent of reckless amusement detracting from his dutiful tone.

"Still no sign of another ship of any kind. We're on minimum acceleration, just short of drifting. The shields are recharged. I pieced together one cannon that's operational, although I doubt if the targeting computer's worth anything anymore. It's not much, but it's better than no defenses at all."

Who are you? Only the certainty that she would again get no answer kept Shaylah from voicing the question again. Then something he'd said before came back to her, and she had to ask.

"What kind of a diversion, Wolf?"

It came out of context, as if they were merely continuing the earlier conversation, but he knew immediately what she meant. An odd expression flickered across his face, surprise tinged with guilt, and then he looked away.

"I… It was just something to keep them busy. I wasn't sure how badly damaged we were, or how much speed we'd be able to make."

"It's all right, Wolf. What was it?"

He met her eyes then. "I had to get us out of there, fast," he said, his voice tight. "I couldn't get to you until we were clear. I didn't know how bad the hit was, and I couldn't raise you anymore on the headset… I thought…"

He stopped, shaking his head. Shaylah knew what he had thought. It was in his face, in the sudden tightness of his jaw. He'd thought she was dead. Just the knowledge that that disturbed him made her heart quiver in a way she'd never known. Was it possible that she wasn't alone in this craziness, that the dizzying reaction she had to him was shared? Beneath the shell of impassive control he had had to build to survive, did he feel it, too?

She realized she was staring at him and repeated quickly, "It's all right; I know you had to do whatever it took. Why are you worried about it?"

"Because," he said grimly, "I had to use the main shuttle to do it."

She blinked. "The shuttle?"

He let out a compressed breath. "It was the only thing I could think of. After the hit, I shut the ship down, all but the reactor for the ion drive and minimal life support. I wanted them to think we were dead, a sloeplum for the picking. I used the drone setup so I could run the shuttle from the con's computer. When they started to close in, I launched it."

"So they'd think we were abandoning ship?"

Wolf nodded. "I was hoping they would decide they could board and loot a dead ship anytime, and concentrate on the shuttle. If I were them, I'd want the people who'd just wiped out my fighter force first, and I'd want them badly."

"And they did?"

"They locked on to it with a tractor beam the minute it cleared the ship." His mouth quirked. "If they'd bothered to scan it before, they would have realized there was no one aboard."

"And they couldn't scan it afterward because of the interference of the tractor beam." Shaylah's brow furrowed in disbelief. "Are you saying they were so intent on the shuttle that they just let the Sunbird slip away?"

"Not exactly."

She waited; Wolf's mouth twisted wryly again. "Well?" she prodded.

"When they locked on to it," he explained after a moment, "I reversed the shuttle's power, as if whoever was aboard was trying to resist."

Shaylah nodded. "A normal reaction. Futile, but normal."

"I know. I pushed it up to full power. On a shuttle that size, that's a lot. I wanted them to have to use maximum tractor power to hold it."

"But that wouldn't affect their other systems," Shaylah said, puzzled. Whatever his plan had been, it had obviously worked; they were here. But she didn't see how. "All they would have to do when they saw the Sunbird start to move was shut off the tractor and go after us."

"I know. So I kept her dead until they had the shuttle nearly aboard."

He stopped again, and a frustrated Shaylah had to prompt him once more. "And then?"

He shrugged. "I blew it up."

She gaped at him. "You what?"

"The shuttle. I blew it up." He grimaced. "I knew you'd be angry."

Shaylah stared at him. "You blew up the shuttle while they had full tractor beam power on it?"

He nodded, giving her a wary sideways look.

"Eos," she murmured in awe. "They must have thought they'd been hit by a fusion cannon. All that debris, in big pieces, coming in at full tractor power…"

Wolf was watching her carefully. "You're not… angry?"

"Angry?" she said incredulously. "Wolf, you're a genius!"

Seemingly relieved at her reaction, he grinned again, sending her heart tumbling as thoroughly as he had sent an enemy fighter. This was the Wolf she'd heard over the headset during the battle, the Wolf whose blood was high, the Wolf who was ready to fight, to die, as long as both were done freely. This was the Wolf she loved.

She smothered a gasp. Eos, had she truly thought that? Was that the explanation for her response to his touch, to his presence, to his very existence?

A memory knifed through her mind with startling clarity. A thought, barely sane in the midst of passion. Even then she had thought of it, not as merely mating, but as bonding, as the joyous union between two beings destined for each other, for all time. And she realized then that she had loved him for a long time.

His smile faded as he looked at her. He lifted one hand toward her, reaching out to gently brush her cheek with the backs of his fingers.

"I'm not much of a doctor, though. I'm afraid you'll have a scar."

Heat rippled through her at his touch. "I… It's all right, I don't mind." Did he? she wondered breathlessly. Did it even matter to him at all? Did she? She needed to know, had to know, but shivered as she fought her reluctance to ask, afraid of the answer she might get.

"God, Shaylah," he said softly, tightly, "I heard your voice, after the hit… you sounded so faint, so weak… then nothing. I thought you were dead."

She tried to stop the question that rose to her lips. This feeling was new and strange, and made her feel fragile and utterly vulnerable. She'd never known anything could feel so good and so frightening at the same time. The question broke from her anyway.

"Would it… have mattered so much?"

"Of course it would."

Shaylah swallowed tightly. "Why?"

He drew back a little, golden brows furrowing as he looked at her.

"Tell me why!" She realized too late, in the moment his face stiffened into that impassive mask, that her urgency had made it an order.

"Why, Captain? I should think that would be obvious," he said formally. "I need you, and your position as a Coalition officer,"

Pain much harsher than that from her body lanced through her. Was he just responding to her tone, or was that all she really meant to him? Desperately she tried again.

"You could have left," she said in a low voice, struggling not to add a forlorn little "me" to that statement.

"And risk the skypirates myself? I heard they specialize in selling prisoners to the Halberds. Becoming a eunuch is not my idea of escape."

Shaylah cringed inwardly, both at his words and his cool tone. "But there was the other shuttle. It's fast, and has range. You could have made it to a settlement."

"And done what, Captain?" He lifted a hand, his fingers rubbing at the collar that branded him. "Wearing this, I'm just a runaway slave. In most places, that's a signed death warrant."

"So that's… why you stayed?"

He seemed to hesitate, as if something in her low, quiet question had pierced that deliberate facade. Then, after another flick of his fingers over the golden band, he said flatly, "Why else?"

Shaylah gritted her teeth against the hurt that welled up inside her. Fool, she told herself. What did you expect him to say? That he stayed for your sake? That he gave up a chance at freedom because he couldn't leave you to die? Did you expect him to say he loved you?

She smothered the tiny cry of anguish that rose to her lips. She felt much closer to dying than she had when that blast had come ripping into the Sunbird, but she would be damned before she'd let him know, let him guess what a fool she'd been.

"Why else, indeed?" she grated.

He was looking at her strangely, and she had the horrible idea that he could truly read her every witless thought.

"Shaylah…" he began slowly.

For the first time, she wished he had called her captain; her name sounded too good, too intimate in that rough, low voice. Before he could say any more, she burst out with the first thing she could think of.

"How did you blow up the shuttle?"

"What?" He seemed startled by the turn of her thoughts.

"How did you blow up the shuttle? I thought the weapons systems were out."

"They are," he said, diverted, "I put a photon torpedo aboard before I launched it."

Despite the wretchedness she was feeling, this answer caught Shaylah's attention. "But that's an impact round. It only detonates on contact."

"I know."

"Then how…?"

"I put it in the pilot's seat. When the shuttle was close enough-" he shrugged, "I rolled her over."

"And it fell out of the seat," she breathed.

He nodded. "Impact," he said simply.

So very elementary, she thought. But perfectly effective. And utterly ingenious. Then, as another fact came to her, her brows lowered sharply.

"You can't arm one of those by hand," she said.

Wolf shifted uneasily. "I know."

"They can only be armed in the gun itself."

"That part was still working."

"Are you saying," Shaylah said carefully, "that you hand-carried an armed photon torpedo from the weapons station to the shuttle bay, put it in a very precarious place, and stayed in the bay to launch the shuttle?"

"No, you are," Wolf said, eyeing her warily.

The possibilities for disaster swamped her. On top of the vicious hurt she was feeling, it was too much. Her control snapped, and her emotions raged free.

"I don't believe you! One misstep, and you could have blown us all to Hades! I've seen those shells go off when someone sneezes! And you carried the thing through the ship? And left it rolling around in an empty chair?"

"Shaylah- "

"It's nothing less than a miracle that thing didn't go off the instant the shuttle started to move! You could have killed yourself, me, the Sunbird- You're crazy, do you know that? Eos, maybe the Halberds are right! At least a eunuch would be controllable!"

Wolf stiffened. "I'm quite controllable, Captain," he said flatly. "And you have the means at your fingertips. Or had you forgotten?"

He reached up, took the controller unit from the shelf, and dropped it into her lap. Then, as she stared at the thing, he turned on his heel and left her.

Shaylah wanted to go after him, to tell him her anger was only at his own recklessness, endangering himself in his effort to save her and the Sunbird. Except that those hadn't been his reasons; he had saved her only for his own sake, because he needed what protection her position could give him. And that hurt beyond bearing.

She sat for a long time, holding the control unit in a painfully tight grasp. She battled with feelings new and strange to her, trying to sort out her tangled emotions. Her mind seemed to leap from thing to thing, refusing to settle and work out any one. It seemed like hours before she arrived at the final, bottom line.

She loved him. He hated her. Whether it was she herself he hated or what she stood for, what she was, no longer mattered. What mattered was that it was immutable; he would never see her as anything other than a symbol of his degradation, a reminder of his slavery. There was nothing she could do to change that.

But there was, she thought, something she could do to make up for what the Coalition had done to him. It was, in fact, the only thing she could do. It was risky, and would end any hope of salvaging her career, but she had no choice.

The Coalition, not she personally, owed Wolf, but only she would ever pay the debt. And pay it she would, no matter the cost to herself. She could do nothing less. And if the price was high, she would count it part of the cost of loving him, for she discovered in the long hours of reflection that, even had she been able to, she never would have changed having met him. Or having loved him. And if it tore deeply into her vitals to have to say it in the past tense, well, that was part of the price as well.

The decision made, she made herself relax into sleep, knowing she would need to be back at full strength when she rose next. They had a long flight ahead of them.

* * *

Shaylah set in the course for Alpha 2 mechanically, the familiar task taking little concentration. She had checked out the ship and, other than the ravaged weapons station, found little damage. Using the mechanical repair arm, she had ripped away the ragged, damaged metal; the drag from the trailing edges was making the Sun-bird tend to slip sideways under power. Then she had headed for the con,., determined to carry out the decision she'd come to.

She had not seen Wolf. The door to Keleth's cabin was closed, and she assumed he was there, since she had covered most of the rest of the ship.

The course set, Shaylah took over the controls and released the self-pilot. She half expected Wolf to appear when the Sunbird began to move, but the hatchway to the con room remained empty. Thinking he'd be no more than a slave wherever they went, perhaps it didn't matter to him where they were going, she thought rather grimly.

It was a silent flight, the hours ticking off on the elapsed time clock one after the other as she flew seemingly alone through a darkness broken only by the glow of occasional planets or the bright fire of a distant star. She kept the controls on manual. She told herself it was because she needed to at least feel like she was doing something, not because she feared it might be her last flight if her plan didn't work. Or even if it did.

When the planet of Alpha 2 came into view, Shaylah began to tense up despite herself. She was taking a great risk of discovery, but she was more determined than she had ever been in her life. When the standard identification request came crackling over the port frequency, she took a breath and answered in the steadiest voice she could manage.

After advising the port that the Sunbird would not be docking-she didn't dare risk the questions the ship's battle damage would raise-she informed them she would be descending to the surface via shuttle, then proceeding to the Legion Club.

She settled the Sunhird neatly into orbit, set the computers to hold her there, and at last stood up to leave the con. And came face-to-face with Wolf.

He was standing just inside the hatchway, his arms crossed over his chest, his face impassive as he looked at her. "Feel better back in your world, Captain?"

The last word was in that biting tone, and Shaylah's chin came up. She might have been fool enough to fall in love with this man, but she wasn't fool enough to let him see it when he so obviously wanted nothing to do with her.

"How I feel," she said shortly, "is none of your concern."

He lifted a brow at her tone, but nothing else in his expression changed. "Will I be coming with you, or will you be sending them for me?"

He said it so casually that it took her a moment to grasp his meaning, that he assumed she was here to turn him in. Fury spurted through her that he would think that after… everything.

"Damn you," she snapped. "Just stay here. And you can consider that an order, if that's what it takes."

She swept past him and strode toward the shuttle bay. She tried to reason with herself, to rationalize that he had no reason to trust anyone, but her emotions were running too hot to be easily banked. All she could think was that she'd given more of herself to this man than she'd ever given to anyone, but never had he done the same; always, even in their most passionate moments, he had held something of himself back. They had shared the most intimate moments possible, yet he still didn't trust her.

Well, she thought as she hastened down the corridor to the shuttle bay, she would show him. If he needed more proof, she would give it to him. And then, no matter how much it hurt, she would walk away and pick up what was left of her life. If there was anything of it left, after she was finished here.

She settled herself in the remaining shuttle, smothering a pang as she remembered what had happened to the other. It had been a stunt worthy of the most famous of Coalition warriors; for that alone, for saving both her and the Sunbird, whether it had been his intention or not, she owed him this.

For a moment she wondered if he would try something foolish, like taking the Sunbird and making a run for freedom. He wouldn't, she thought. He had to know they would be after him in an instant, and when he didn't turn back they would blow him to bits. Or would he, thinking a fiery death preferable to returning to enslavement? Eos, she thought, he just might. Especially if he thought her capable of turning him back over to the Coalition.

She had avoided an inspection of the Sunbird by putting her in a wide orbit safely outside the port's immediate airspace, explaining that she would be here far too short a time to bring the bigger ship in to dock. But she had no choice once the shuttle was within their limits. The inspection was, fortunately for the sake of her nerves, quick;

there was no place to hide anything or anyone on the small two-passenger craft.

The Legion Club on Alpha 2 was considerably less elegant than others in the system. Here everything was a bit uncivilized, a bit more savage. The crews who came here had two things on their minds: getting thoroughly intoxicated and relieving long bouts of celibacy.

Paradoxically, as if in an effort to balance the disorder, the Legion Club here had one of the most extensive archives in the system, an impressive collection of records, documents, and micro-books from all of the Coalition colonies. Shaylah had seen it once, back when she had been able to ignore the twinge she felt while looking at some of the artifacts from the worlds that had been forced into the Coalition by threat of annihilation.

It was the Archive Building she was headed for, knowing she would find her medical officer there. Lieutenant Sarleck had a long-standing acquaintance with the proprietor of the museum, and while the rest of the crew was doing what people on shore leave had done for centuries, he spent his leave with his old friend.

Shaylah had met the woman once, found her coolly gracious if not overly friendly, and she had wished them both well. It was not, she realized, a usual time of day to come calling, although it never really got quiet here. But she had no choice, and she wasn't about to wait for a more convenient time.

When the archive caretaker opened her door, she was fully dressed and immaculately groomed despite the hour, and Shaylah couldn't help remembering the jokes made by the rest of her crew about the kind of relationship Sarleck had with the caretaker. They spent, the crew speculated, all their time poring over those boring chronicles, never once noticing that he was male and she was female. Shaylah hoped they were right and that Sarleck had been too engrossed to have heard any stories of an escaped slave.

Shaylah hadn't expected the woman to recognize her, but to her surprise, she did immediately.

"Captain Graymist, is it not?"

"Yes, Caretaker. I apologize for the intrusion-"

"That's quite all right, Captain. I presume you are here to see Graon?"

"Yes, please. I wouldn't disturb you, but it is rather urgent."

"They're not recalling you again, I hope?"

"No, but I do have to… borrow him for a while. A short while, I assure you."

"Very well."

The woman stepped aside and gestured Shaylah through the door. She led the way to a large, comfortable, well-lit room, where Graon Sarleck was indeed poring over some ancient-looking document spread out on a table. He looked up as he came in, his flat-featured face registering surprise. The caretaker discreetly left them alone.

"Captain," he said. "I had heard you had taken off on another of your well-known solo jaunts."

Shaylah had lain awake many long hours planning this, and her answer came easily. "That's what you were supposed to hear."

"Oh?"

"Yes. Now I'm afraid I must impose on you for a small medical chore. You may return for the rest of your leave immediately afterward, of course." Sarleck eyed her up and down. "Except for those bruises you look healthy enough, if a bit tired, so I presume my talents are needed for someone else?"

"Yes. Someone most important to the Coalition."

"I see. And where is this someone?"

"Aboard the Sunbird. She's in orbit. I have the shuttle waiting."

"Now?" He sounded surprised.

"I'm afraid so. It's imperative that I… deliver him as soon as possible."

Sarleck considered this in his methodical manner, then nodded. "Very well. What is required? Shall I need anything not already aboard in sick bay?"

This was it, Shaylah thought. Keeping her tone carefully casual, she said, "I don't think so. It is a simple thing. The removal of a slave collar."

Sarleck stared at her. "Captain, that requires formal Coalition proceedings. It hasn't been done in years."

Damn, she thought. He might be the best medical officer in the service, but he was so by the book…

"They are waiving it in this special case," she explained, calmly enough, she thought. "No time. As I said, it seems this slave is very important to them."

"You are certain this is what they wish?"

She saw the disbelief in his face. She had to divert it before it became suspicion. "I told them you should know why," she said, working to put just the right amount of disgust with her superiors into her voice. "But no, they insisted you don't need to know."

Sarleck snorted. "Of course they did. Don't they always?"

Shaylah looked around stealthily, as if making certain they were alone. "I think you have a right to know. After all, you're the one they're calling on in the middle of the night."

"Yes, I am."

Shaylah heard the note of thinly disguised arrogance in his voice and knew she almost had him. "The slave is a Triotian."

"A Triotian!" he echoed in astonishment.

"Yes. And he's agreed to make contact with the rebels and pass information to the Coalition."

"A spy? A Triotian turning on his own? Hard to believe."

"They've promised him his freedom in return."

"Ah." Sarleck's expression cleared. "And of course, the rebels would never believe him if he were marked as a Coalition slave."

"Exactly," Shaylah said, careful to appear suitably impressed with his cleverness.

It worked. Within moments, the man was hurrying along beside her. They reached the shuttle quickly. When the inspector arrived once more, she gave them a rather garbled story about bringing someone aboard for repairs, and when Sarleck looked at her, she smiled conspiratorially at him. He smiled unexpectedly back, and she felt triumph. It was going to work, she thought.

She pushed aside the fact that success would mean the end of her way of life. Sooner or later, someone was going to put some pieces together, realizing that she had taken a medical officer, not an engineer, aboard. That would lead to Sarleck, who eventually, when he realized she had lied to him, would spill the whole story. Her only hope was that by then Wolf would be safely away, out of their reach.

She breathed a silent sigh of relief when the Sunhird loomed into sight; he had stayed. He must have realized that trying to escape aboard her would be suicide. Or perhaps, somewhere deep inside, he had found a grain of trust.

Fool, she said scathingly to herself. Still looking for a miracle.

She took them carefully around to the far side; she didn't want to have to explain the damage to the ship to Sarleck. As they neared the shuttle bay, Shaylah sensed Wolf was there. She wasn't sure how she knew, but she could feel him there as surely as she could feel the controls beneath her hands as the small craft settled neatly into its docking bay.

As they exited the shuttle, Shaylah looked out and saw him in the shadows near the hatchway. Wondering, I suppose, she thought bitterly, who she had brought to take him back. Well, she would have her vindication soon. Unfortunately, it would come too late to salve her battered heart.

She couldn't bear to look at him, not when she knew he thought she could betray him. She could barely speak, so merely gestured sharply at Sarleck.

"Go with him," she said, not caring that it sounded harsh, demanding, and unmistakably an order from master to slave.

Wolf drew himself up, looking at her steadily. Then he slumped, and for the first time in a long time, she saw him assume the docile, submissive posture of the slave.

"As you command," he said obediently. Shaylah didn't stay to see them go. She headed for her quarters, shivering a little as she sat down to wait. A dart of fear shot through her. This was a delicate operation, much more so than the insertion of the collar probes into the brain. Damage could easily be done. Wolf could be left crippled, or that quick, sharp intelligence severely impaired. She'd known this, but hadn't really thought it through in her anxiousness to free him. Did she have the right to make this decision for him?

Of course not, she thought. She'd done that once before, and it had destroyed what little faith he'd had in her. She leaped to her feet. But before she could get the door open to run to the sick bay, the intercom crackled.

"Captain! You'd better get down here, before this maniac tears your ship apart!"

Chapter 11

Sarleck had exaggerated, but not by much, Shaylah thought as she skidded to a stop inside the sick bay. The medical officer was backed up against a wall, pinned by an overturned table. His gaze was glued warily on Wolf, who was holding him there by threat of mayhem administered with a heavy piece of metal apparently broken from the table's base.

"Wolf?" she said softly.

His head snapped around. He was breathing hard, and she saw nothing less than desperation in his face. The expression changed as he looked at her, and when he spoke, his tone was one she'd never, ever thought to hear from him.

"Please, Shaylah," he beseeched her, "don't do this. I know you're angry with me, but…"

She stared at him in bewilderment. "What's wrong? I thought… you would welcome this."

His eyes widened in shock. "Welcome… mutilation?"

"Muti- Wolf, what are you talking about?"

"I know you said a… eunuch would be more controllable, but… I thought you were just angry."

"Eos," Shaylah breathed, then whirled on Sarleck. "What in Hades did you tell him?"

"Nothing!" Sarleck protested, still eyeing Wolf. "I merely said I was here to operate on him."

"Did you bother to explain?"

"Explain?" Sarleck drew himself up. "I'm not in the habit of explaining myself to slaves!"

"Perhaps if you were," she said coolly, "you wouldn't find yourself backed into a corner by one."

"Really, Captain," he said indignantly.

"Leave us, Lieutenant. Now. I will send for you."

Sarleck made an effort at a dignified retreat, but it was marred by his frantic glance at Wolf as he sidled out of the sick bay.

When he was gone, Shaylah turned back to Wolf. Still breathing hard, he was watching her nearly as warily as Sarleck had watched him. When she spoke, she made no effort to hide her pain; she was beyond that now.

"I can't believe that you really thought-" She broke off, swallowing a sob. "Eos, how you must hate me."

His chest rose and fell sharply, as if he were struggling to control the burst of adrenaline that had enabled him to rip the metal from the table.

When he didn't deny her words, Shaylah bit her lip and steadied herself.

"I brought him here for just one thing, Wolf. To take that damned collar off."

Wolf stared at her, clearly stunned. One hand crept up to his neck, to finger the imprisoning band. "Off?"

"Yes. In truth, you've been free since we got to the Sunhird, but I can't seem to convince you any other way. It is a dangerous procedure, since the probes are embedded in the brain. You could be damaged, even die, but… I thought you would find it worth the risk. Sarleck is very good with a laser scalpel, despite his… attitude."

"My God," he whispered.

"It's your decision, Wolf. Do you wish him to proceed?"

She waited. He continued to stare at her, as if afraid to believe. Shaylah felt the pain she'd been carrying dig deeper, grip tighter. She couldn't take this much longer.

"I've done everything I can to make you believe that I mean what I say," she said, her voice stiff. "It is up to you now. Shall I call him back?"

Slowly, letting out a long, shaky breath, Wolf nodded.

"Very well." She turned to go, then stopped to look back over her shoulder at him. "I apologize for once more making a decision I had no right to make. I'm sure you are happy to realize this will be the last time that will ever happen." She started toward the hatchway.

"Shaylah," he began, but she kept walking. It was finished. Soon the slave Wolf would be no more, and the free Wolf-or whoever he was- would certainly want nothing to do with her. He'd made that abundantly clear.

When she reached her quarters she curled up on her bunk, positive that she would spend the next few minutes battling not to cry. She was wrong. She felt like crying, her eyes were stinging, but the tears would not come. She just lay there quivering helplessly, unable even to find that small release for the anguish weighing so heavily inside her.

* * *

"He'll be out for a while," Sarleck reminded her as he climbed out of the shuttle. "But all went well. There should be no damage at all. But I hope they don't regret this. He seems far too unpredictable and dangerous to be let loose."

"Fortunately, that's not our problem, is it?"

Sarleck looked at her sharply, as if searching for some sign of sarcasm. Shaylah just looked back with that flat, weary expression that was all she could muster since she'd realized how completely Wolf distrusted her.

"I suppose. Good-bye, Captain. I imagine I'll be seeing you when we get our new orders?"

Imagining, she thought grimly, is as close as it will get. "Enjoy the rest of your leave, Lieutenant," she said, avoiding a direct answer.

"Yes. Good luck on your mission." He started to go, then issued a caution. "Don't turn your back on that wild man."

That, she thought as he walked away, was irony in its purest form. She should have turned her back long ago, the moment she had first found herself captivated by the golden man wearing the golden collar.

After the final inspection, she returned to the Sunbird and docked the shuttle. She closed and secured the shuttle bay doors, then made her way to the sick bay once more.

He was, as Sarleck had said, still unconscious. He was lying on his stomach, the thick mane of his hair covering the signs of the surgery on the back of his neck. He was stable, Sarleck had told her; she could proceed at any time. He would come around before they got to Legion Command, he'd said.

Shaylah had merely shrugged, knowing he was fishing for confirmation of their destination. The man already knew too much; he had looked at her altogether too speculatively after Wolf's impassioned-and too personal-plea.

She returned to the con, contacted port control, and announced her departure. Holding her breath, at every second expecting disaster, expecting to be found out, she eased the Sunbird out of orbit. She stifled the urge to throw the ship into light speed; that would only get them noticed.

The minutes passed, and Shaylah gradually accepted the incredible fact that she had pulled it off. Instead of triumph, she felt only an odd numbness that made it difficult to function. When she felt safely clear of Alpha 2, she set a course to return to the Boreas shipping lanes, turned on the self-pilot, and sank wearily back in the command chair.

Only when they reached the sector around the winter-deserted crystal mining colony did Shaylah surrender to her body's clamoring need for rest. She dragged herself to her quarters, peeled off her flight suit and left it heedlessly tumbled on the floor, collapsed on her bunk, and fell into a deep, dreamless sleep.

Once again, she awakened to find Wolf there. She sat up with a start, staring at him as he stood towering over her. He still wore the borrowed flight suit, and an utterly bemused expression on his face.

She was relieved to see him up and moving; Sarleck had promised there would be no ill effects, but there was always the chance of some unnoticed damage. Her gaze was irresistibly drawn to his throat; nothing now marred the strong, corded strength there. There was a mark where the collar had been, and she supposed there would be a scar at his nape, but it would soon fade. His slavery would be a dim, unpleasant memory. As would she. Misery welled up in her anew, and she spoke hastily in an effort to fend it off.

"Ho- " Her voice broke with the huskiness to deep sleep. She cleared her throat and tried again. "How do you feel?"

One hand went to the back of his neck, the fingers flexing at the novelty of feeling nothing but his own skin. "I.., Strange."

"No pain? Numbness? Headache? Dizziness?"

"No."

She didn't know what else to say; his steady gaze disconcerted her. At last he lowered his hand, and without a word, sat on the edge of the bunk beside her.

"Why, Shaylah?"

She bit her lip; even now he questioned her motives. Her throat was suddenly far too tight for speech.

"I don't understand," he said. "You could have saved your career by turning me in. You could have told them I escaped and you were bringing me back. But you've brought someone else into it, another Coalition officer. There's no way out for you now. Why?"

Misery sharpened once more into pain. "If you don't know by now," Shaylah whispered, "I could never explain."

"Is this… to prove something, again? That you mean what you say, about hating the system that allows slavery?"

Shaylah felt something break inside her. It had obviously never occurred to him that her actions stemmed from something on a much more personal level. No doubt because he felt nothing for her on that level.

"Of course," she said mechanically, dully.

But he had come to her of his own will, here aboard the Sunbird, hadn't he? He had, if nothing else, wanted her. Or had that just been the novelty of mating out of desire rather than demand'? Yet he was Triotian, bound to only the one who was or would be a bonded mate. But he had touched her with such fire, such intensity…

She had been so certain, on that last night, before the pirates came, that he truly felt something for her. Now she was sure of nothing, except that this was tearing her apart. She felt her eyes begin to sting. Furious, she blinked rapidly. She would not cry. Perhaps she had nothing left but her pride, but she would keep that, never letting him know just how foolish she had been. She curled one hand into a fist, nails digging into her palm, concentrating on the pain as she fought her tears.

A shiver of tension rippled through her. The movement sent the thermal cover sliding. She grabbed at it, aware that she was naked beneath it. It slipped past her breasts before she could stop it, and Wolf went very, very still. She caught the cover and tugged it back, avoiding looking at him.

"Shaylah." His voice was soft as he reached out to her. She pulled away, still avoiding his gaze. He drew back his hand, and she could feel him watching her. After a moment he asked quietly, "Are you still angry with me for thinking you meant to have me gelded?"

"No." It was the truth; she was far beyond anger. She wished she could be angry. It would help to fight the pain. She took in a breath and tried to pull herself together. "For you, it was… a logical assumption, after what I said."

"For me?"

"For… a slave."

"A slave who didn't know he was about to be freed…" He studied her for a moment. "It takes a Coalition order to unband a slave. I doubt you had one. What did you tell him?"

"Sarleck?"

Shaylah tried to gather her wits. She couldn't tell Wolf what she had told Sarleck without him realizing there was need for a spy on Trios- which would tell him she had been part of the renewed campaign against his home. Somehow, on top of everything else, she couldn't bear for him to know that.

"I told him that I was under Coalition orders." She smiled grimly, sardonically. "There are many forms of slavery, it seems."

Her sarcasm didn't divert him. "Why didn't you tell me why you brought him here?"

Shaylah laughed, a short, harsh sound completely without humor. "I have learned that words seem to have little effect on what you believe."

"Perhaps that is true of all slaves," Wolf said gently. "We have much experience with people who say what others want to hear, then do as they please."

She sighed heavily. "I suppose."

He reached out again, and this time she didn't move. It seemed beyond her; although she had just slept for hours, she felt as weary as if she had not closed her eyes at all. She felt his hand close gently over hers, warm, strong, and so very tempting.

Despite her emotional exhaustion, his touch had the same effect as always: Heat, radiating in rippling waves, spread through her. His fingers moved, brushing the sensitive back of her hand in feathery strokes. The heat flared into a blaze, and she shivered despite herself. She looked at him then, too weary to hide, too tormented to deny her anguish.

"Wolf," she whispered, her eyes shimmering with wetness, "what do you want from me?"

"What do I want…"

His tone was odd, more revelation than question, and when she realized it was at the wonder of actually being free to decide what he wanted, Shaylah felt a sudden pang. Such a simple thing, yet lost to him for so long… Could she truly blame him for not trusting?

"I want," Wolf said at last, his eyes glittering green even in the dim light of her cabin, "you."

Shaylah's breath caught. Her heart leaped, twisting joyously in her chest.

"I want to remember," he said slowly, his hand moving to catch her wrist and lift her palm to his lips, "what it's like to mate freely, honestly, not because of a machine that… controls me. I want to know…"

His voice trailed off, and Shaylah shivered as he softly pressed a kiss into her palm. Her body was awakening rapidly, recognizing his touch, his mouth. Already she could feel the heat pooling deep inside, gathering, readying her. But his words puzzled her.

"But… you do know," she said, even as her body urged her to quit talking and kiss him back.

"That was in another life," he murmured, trailing kisses up the softness of her inner arm.

Brielle, Shaylah thought, smothering a sigh. Always Brielle. She could never, ever compete with the precious memory of his dead mate.

As if he'd felt the change in her, Wolf lifted his head. His eyes were cooling rapidly as he looked at her. "I see. You do not want a free man.

Shaylah stared at him, her hurt suddenly swamped by confusion. "What?"

He sat up straight, stiff, taking his hand from her. "Pardon me. I had not thought you were a woman who had to be in control. You seemed," he said in a voice laced with mockery, "to surrender it easily enough with me before."

Shaylah felt the rush of color to her face. "Wolf-"

"But perhaps you are only capable of that with a man who is there by your command, a slave to your desire instead of driven by his own."

Shaylah drew back as if he'd slapped her. This was too much, cut too deep, and the unfairness of it spurred her. "You came to me, remember?"

His mouth twisted in an acid mockery of a smile. "Oh, yes, I remember. I remember fighting the summons even as I welcomed it, fool that I am, because I wanted it at the same time I hated being ordered to it."

He had said something like that before', she thought dazedly. Something about feeling like a rebellious child refusing what he wanted most because he'd been ordered to take it.

"I never… ordered you," she said.

He shrugged; she was getting weary of the evasive gesture. "Small difference," he said. "Convenient, isn't it, Captain? Just push a button, and I arrive, already hot for you-"

Shaylah's gasp of shock cut him off. Realization, fiery, piercing, and furious, slashed through her.

"Damn you! How dare you say that?"

He drew back, startled. In some part of her mind not consumed by her rage, that puzzled her; what did he have to be surprised about? Then she saw his gaze flick to the controller that still sat on the shelf behind her.

"Wolf," she breathed, "you think I used that thing on you? Even after that first night?" His gaze came back to her face, and despite his studiedly even expression, she saw her answer in his eyes. "Eos, you do believe it!"

"It's all right, Shaylah. I understand. I was glad you had sent for me. And I was glad that you weren't using the deep hypnosis system any longer." His mouth quirked wryly. "Not that you needed it. By the night the pirates hit, I didn't even care any longer that it- was… the controller."

The heat drained from her face, leaving her pale, almost ashen. "You think I did it… every time? That I used the controller to force you to come to me? To mate with me?"

"You had it in your hands the first time." He shrugged. "And it is always here."

"How could you, Wolf?" Her voice was tremulous, but she was too shaken to care. "Do you think I didn't know what I did to us that first time on Carelia? Do you think I didn't realize that I… I took something so very precious to you and… dirtied it?"

"I know you never meant to-"

"But you still think I would, knowing what it did to you to have no will of your own, knowing now what it means to be a slave… You really think that I would do it again?"

Wolf shifted uneasily, staring at her like a man who has just realized he might have made a grievous mistake. Vaguely, Shaylah registered that the pain was gone. The ache she had carried since she'd admitted she loved him was gone, replaced by a numbing cold that left no room for anything else.

This explained it, then, the feeling she had always had that, even in those most intimate moments, he was holding something back, keeping something of himself from her. It explained the odd things he'd said, things that had bothered her but that she had ignored in the heat of her passion, her need for him. She lowered her head, unable to look at him.

"I never had a chance, did I?" Her voice sounded as cold as the knot in her belly. "You never believed me, never trusted me at all, did you?" He started to speak, but she cut him off with a sharp shake of her head. "Stop. It doesn't matter, not anymore. I have only one thing to say to you; then I want you to leave."

"Shaylah…"

She raised her head then, her face bleak, her eyes gone suddenly as hollow as she felt. Whatever he'd been going to say died unspoken.

"I never touched the controller, except to see if I could disarm it to free you. I realize now you won't believe me. But I don't care anymore if you do. I know it's true, but if you choose to believe I'm like all the others, there's nothing I can do to change that. Eos knows I've tried." She took a shaky breath. "What you felt was real, Wolf. As real as what I felt. When you came to me, it was because you wanted to. And nothing you can do can change that."

And I'll live on it for the rest of my life, she added silently, wondering just how long that would be when this blessed numbness wore off. Wolf just sat there, staring at her. She had never seen an expression of such utter confusion. She couldn't seem to care.

"Leave now," she said flatly. "When you've decided what you want to do, I will take you wherever you want to go. The Coalition owes you that much, at least."

"Shaylah," he began, his voice full of his obvious bewilderment.

"Captain," she corrected, not feeling one bit of satisfaction in the way he winced. "And make no mistake, I am still captain of this ship, for now. And I wish you to leave my quarters. Now."

Somewhat to her surprise, he did. Even her numbed, weary mind registered that he was shaken. Gone was the smooth, graceful stride she'd thrilled to; he moved toward the door as if he were feeling as paralyzed as she was.

Shaylah sat there staring after him for a long time. At last she lay back in her bunk, clinging to the oddly distant feeling that had enveloped her; she was terrified of what would happen when at last this frozen impassiveness melted away. She held on to it, and it lasted just long enough for her to slip into a troubled. Wolf-haunted sleep.

* * *

Shaylah walked the corridors of her beloved Sunhird. With the ship set for night now, the passageways were only dimly lit. Not that it mattered much, she thought gloomily. Boreas was so far from the twin suns, the light was little more than a hunter's moon on Trios.

The old phrase, drawn up out of some old childhood memory of fanciful stories told by her parents about the place they had so loved, gave her pause. She hadn't realized how much of her childhood was tied up with the legends and history of Trios. She had merely accepted it as a fascination of her parents, much as she accepted her mother's predilection for old books and her father's fascination with the tedious process of preparing one's own food.

It had been part of the fabric of her life, yet a part easily pushed aside when she had realized the truth about the Coalition's conquest and subjugation of the world that had enriched all others. But now there was Wolf, and he would not be easily pushed aside.

She knew were it not for the numbness that still held her mercifully in its grip, she would be feeling a stab of pain; as it was, she felt merely a distant sadness. She hadn't slept for long after Wolf had left, and after awakening to those same deadened emotions, she began to wonder if they would ever thaw, if she would ever feel anything again, other than the chilled blankness.

As she did whenever she was troubled, she made her way to the observation port. It always soothed her, whether she looked out at the smooth, untroubled sphere of a planet or the distant, star-spotted reaches of space. She was two steps up the ladder to the platform when she realized it would not soothe her tonight; Wolf sat in the farthest chair, staring out into the spangled night.

Shaylah hesitated, frozen on the steps. But then she saw him go still as he realized she was there, and her pride wouldn't let her retreat. This was still her ship, and she wouldn't be denied any part of it by anyone.

Slowly, she clambered up the rest of the steps, wishing she had put on her flight suit rather than just slipping on the golden gown she'd brought from Califa's. She wondered, in a brief moment of uncharacteristic self-analysis, if she'd done it intentionally, albeit subconsciously. Did she see it as armor of sorts, reminding Wolf-and herself-who she was? Or was it an attempt to do the impossible, to go back to the time before… before what? Before she'd met Wolf? Or before she'd ruined any chance at gaining his trust by tampering with his precious memories?

He didn't look at her as she sat in the narrow viewing chair opposite him. He continued to stare out the viewport, elbows propped on his knees, and his chin braced on his upraised, interlaced hands. Yet she knew he was aware of her, vividly aware; she could see it in the sudden tautness of his body, in the slight tightness in his jaw.

She was a little taken aback that he was clad only in the old trewscloth; after her thoughts about why she had worn the golden dress it was a bit unnerving. More unnerving was her own response to his near-naked state; she had thought this emotional chill would damp that instant, heated reaction, yet her nerves were leaping to life with startling quickness. She tried to control it, reminding herself sternly that this was the man who thought so little of her as to believe that she would manipulate his mind in order to force him to mate with her against his will.

Shaylah sat silently, watching him as he watched the expanse beyond the port. She said nothing for a long time, simply because there was nothing more to say.

She shifted her gaze to the vastness that spread out before them, finite yet limitless, a concept that had baffled her even as it fascinated her. Here and there a particularly bright star glimmered, and Shaylah wondered why people had ever thought that reaching the stars would rob them of their romance when there were more, always more, untouched and unexplored, just beyond their reach.

There was, it occurred to her, one more thing to say. She turned back to Wolf.

"Have you decided where you wish to go?"

He seemed to stop breathing; then she saw one corner of his mouth twitch as he let out a short, compressed sigh.

" 'Decided,' " he quoted slowly. "It's been five years since I've decided anything for myself," His hand touched his throat, as if he still could not believe the collar was gone.

"That is over now."

"Yes." He turned his head, his gaze unreadable as he looked at her. "Thanks to you."

"It is payment of a debt," she said stiffly; she could deny it was anything more just as well as he could.

"A debt owed by the Coalition, not you."

She shrugged; she could use that gesture as well as he could, too, she decided. "I am part of the Coalition."

"Now, perhaps. But not when they find out what you've done, Captain. Sooner or later, someone will begin to add things up, which will lead them to your medical officer, who will have no reason to lie to them."

"That is my problem."

"So what will you do?"

Do I have a choice? she thought. She smothered the words that rose within her, pleading words, words that would ask him to take her with him, wherever he decided to go. Why would he say yes, when he believed her capable of such betrayal? Or worse, what if he did agree, out of gratitude for his freedom? Perhaps she had too much pride, but she could never accept that.

"Well, Captain? Will you just wait for them to find out, live looking over your shoulder for them to come for you?"

"I could always turn myself in and get it over with," she muttered.

"Throw yourself on the Coalition's mercy?" His laugh was harsh. "You would end with a collar around your neck."

It was a measure of how much she had learned, how clearly she now saw the truth, that she didn't deny his words.

"You know," he said softly, "when they first put that collar on me, I didn't understand. I thought it was merely a brand, a marker to identify me as Coalition property. I even tried to tear it off. When I realized it meant they owned my mind as well as my body, that they could make me do, feel, think what they wished and that I would think it was my own idea, I wished that I had forced them to kill me."

Involuntarily Shaylah's gaze fell to his left wrist and the heavy scar tissue that marked it. He saw her look and nodded. He held up that hand, flexing it. His thumb, index, and middle fingers curled smoothly toward his palm, the outer two stayed unmoving in a slight, frozen curve.

"I thought it worth losing this hand, and much more. But I kept passing out from the loss of blood. They found me, and I lost much more than my hand."

Shaylah shuddered, rubbing her hands over her arms at the sudden chill. She bit back the cry that was trembling in her throat; she would not let him see her break again. He turned to look back out the viewport.

"You can't know," he. said, his voice so soft she had to strain to hear it, "what it's like to not have one single thought, not one urge, not one idea, that you're sure is your own, that you're sure hasn't been planted by whoever happens to have control of you. Or to come out of that control and remember things that sicken you… and know that they had made you believe you had wanted it."

Shaylah made a tiny sound, unable to stop it. He went on as if he hadn't heard, although she knew from his quick glance that he had.

"Oh, yes, for every one who erased the memories for their own privacy, there was one who wanted me to remember what they had done to me, and made me do."

Shaylah broke then, a strangled sob escaping. How could she ever begin to understand what had been done to him? How could she ever have expected him to trust her, to trust anyone, after what he had been through? It was too much to ask of anyone, especially a strong, proud man like Wolf.

"I'm sorry," she whispered. "Oh, Wolf, I'm so sorry."

He looked at her then, and if he was pleased he had once more shattered her composure, it didn't show in his face.

"Don't be, Shaylah," he said, dropping the taunting "Captain." He let out a breath. "You gave me back myself."

"You never lost yourself," she choked out. "Through it all, you never truly lost yourself. You shame me with your courage, Wolf."

He shook his head. "I merely survived. If you wish to speak of courage, speak of the courage to learn to see the truth even when it destroys your perception of your whole world. Speak of risking your very life, and the position you've spent that life attaining, to free one slave. That is true courage."

Shaylah had never felt less courageous, and shook her head in denial. "I'm not…"

"Of course you are. But then, I knew that before I ever saw you for the first time."

She drew back a little, blinking. "What?"

"Even the slaves knew of the celebrated Captain Graymist. Of her exploits, her heroism." His mouth quirked into a crooked smile at Shaylah's wry expression. "And her fastidiousness. It was one of Major Claxton's favorite subjects, this oddity of yours. She couldn't understand why you never-"

He broke off suddenly, staring at her. "My God," he whispered, a look of stunned realization dawning on his face.

Shaylah stared at him. "What?" she prompted, wondering what had just struck him speechless.

"You didn't ask for a slave for mating," he said, his eyes wide with astonishment. "So there was no reason for Major Claxton to use the controller…"

Shaylah's brow furrowed. "Of course not. She knew I had no interest in… that."

"My God," he repeated, suddenly breathing as if he were having trouble drawing in enough air. "Then it was real." He shook his head as if dazed, then repeated, "It was real."

"Wolf," she began, but stopped when his gaze suddenly focused on her. Something lit his eyes, something she'd never seen there before. She couldn't name it, but it took her breath away.

"That first night," he said, "when I knew I was to serve your table. I wondered what the famed Captain Graymist would look like. I had envisioned someone older, more battle-worn, as I thought one would have to be to have achieved such success in the Coalition. When I saw you there, in that dress… I had to revise my vision. When I saw your eyes, I had to throw it out altogether."

Shaylah knew she as staring at him, but she couldn't look away. She was caught and held inexorably by this new, strange emotion that was lighting the vivid green of his eyes. It seemed to echo in his voice as he went on.

"From your reputation I knew that you were brave and clever. I had heard from the other slaves that you were kind and gracious, I hadn't expected you to be so beautiful… or so compassionate."

Shaylah blushed. "Wolf, what are you trying to say?"

He let out a long breath. "That I thought you-or Major Claxton-were using the controller."

"Then?" She stared at him, astonished.

He nodded. "It was the only explanation. I thought."

"Explanation?"

"Of what I was feeling."

Her eyes widened in shocked understanding. '"You mean… even then…?"

He nodded. "The moment I saw you, sitting there in that dress, your eyes so blue and soft with concern-for a slave-I was lost." He took in a long, deep breath. "I knew what I was feeling, but… I couldn't tell the difference anymore, Shaylah. It felt real, but… I couldn't be sure. I could never be sure."

"Oh, Wolf…" She swallowed. "And I thought I was crazy. That first night, when you came to my quarters at Califa's, I wanted so badly to…"

She trailed off, the glow that came into his eyes then making it impossible for her to go on. All her doubts, all her reservations faded away in the face of the knowledge that this time he wanted her, only her, so undeniably that the need in him was nearly palpable. It no longer mattered why, or that it was only for the moment, to test his freedom.

"Shaylah?" he said softly. "I'm… sure now."

He lifted his hand, held it out to her. With a little cry she went to him, gladly, eagerly. She felt his already aroused flesh beneath her thighs as he tugged her down on his lap, twisting her around to face him. His hands shot upward, cupping her face between them as he pulled her down for his kiss. Her fingers threaded through his hair as she met him, her mouth seeking his.

The kiss was a fierce, vibrant thing, the spark to the fuel they'd been hoarding. The fire flared anew, so high, so quick that it left her shaken. She heard Wolf make a low, growling sound, felt his hands tighten around her head as he plundered the waiting heat of her mouth with his tongue.

His hands moved, but she was so consumed with the feel of his mouth on hers that she was barely aware of him sliding the thin straps of the golden gown down over her shoulders, letting the cloth slide down to her waist. She cried out, breaking the kiss unintentionally when his hands cupped her breasts. His fingers caught and tugged at her nipples, sending a sudden rush of heated sensation tumbling to the molten pool beginning to pulse deep inside her.

"Wolf," she gasped out, arching her back to thrust her breasts toward him.

"So beautiful," he muttered, lifting the full, soft feminine flesh to his mouth. One after the other he caught the rosy peaks with his lips, flicking them with his tongue. Shaylah moaned his name, twisting sinuously on his lap. She felt his hips shift beneath her, felt the heat and rigid length of him, barely restrained by the trews-cloth, and she couldn't resist the urge to shift herself until the curve of her buttocks slid over him.

"Stop," he hissed suddenly, his hands going tensely still. Shaylah drew back to look at him, hurt at his sudden, sharp command flickering in her eyes. "Shaylah," he grated out, making an obvious effort at control, "I'm not… fighting this any longer. So if you keep moving like that, we'll end up making love right here in this chair."

She blushed, partly at his words, partly at the fact that she could see so very clearly his hands on her breasts, golden against her pale skin. Her nipples were wet from his mouth… and suddenly his words weren't embarrassing, they were arousing. And it seemed right somehow, that this place that had seen so many of her varied moods should be the site of her greatest joy.

"Yes," she said huskily. "Right here, right now,"

Wolf swore, low and deep and harsh. He reached for the golden gown and tugged at it. She lifted herself to help him, and it slithered over her hips to puddle on the floor, baring her to his heated gaze.

He groaned, the sound rising from deep in his chest. He reached for the ties of the trewscloth, but Shaylah beat him to it, her slender fingers pulling them loose swiftly. He lifted himself this time, so she could tug away the brief cloth that restrained him. As his engorged flesh sprang free, Shaylah felt his hands grip her waist, and he lifted her to straddle him. Her long legs parted to slide down past his hips to either side of the narrow seat, and her hands went to his shoulders as she felt the first probing touch of him between her thighs,

He paused, holding her suspended, waiting, empty. "Shaylah?"

She heard the question, and gave him the only answer she could; she freed one hand and moved to guide him home. He began to impale her slowly, inching her down onto his swollen shaft, his arms trembling with the effort.

"Wolf," she moaned, "please!"

He slammed her down then, driving himself into her, and his groan mingled with her sudden cry of delight. She rocked on him, flexing, feeling him stroke her to the core, savoring his low, growling sounds of pleasure. But soon that gentle rocking was not enough, and she began to move faster. He seemed to catch her urgency and began to arch upward, driving into her.

Shaylah felt like some kind of wild thing, twisting, writhing, clawing, but she couldn't help it. This was a course she'd never flown, a course that couldn't be charted. She'd been merely a dying star before; now she was a new one, being born. She knew that she had all of him now, that he was holding nothing back from her this time, and it fired her as nothing ever had. She had thought nothing could surpass what she'd felt before with him, but this, this was fierce, it was hot, it was… flying.

She felt his hands leave her hips and realized he was bracing himself with his hands on the sides of the seat so he could raise himself to plunge harder, deeper. She rode him joyously, against the backdrop of the stars, reveling in his strength as he lifted her with the force of his thrusts, building the pressure growing within her.

"Shaylah," he said gutturally. "I… I can't…"

His body bowed beneath her, his head arching back, the corded muscles standing out at his throat as he fought for control. His beautiful, bare throat, Shaylah thought through the haze of rising sensation, of unbearable pressure. Free, unmarked, uncollared. Impulsively, she leaned forward to press her lips to the faintly lighter band of skin.

The movement shifted his hardened flesh inside her and brushed her rigid nipples against his chest. Wolf groaned, his face contorting with unrestrained, exuberant pleasure as he exploded in her in a fierce burst of pulsing sensation. The mere sight of him unleashed the flood within Shaylah, and she followed him with a joyous cry of his name spinning from her lips.

* * *

It was a week she treasured, hoarding it like the most precious of jewels, the week that they stole. She had asked him for it, a week with past hurts forgotten, a week without thought of decisions to come. It was all she dared; they would be looking for her soon.

"You know we're just… postponing it, don't you?" he'd asked gently.

"I know. I don't care. No matter what happens, I want this. Just this time, Wolf. For both of us."

"All right, Shaylah. You're not a captain facing Coalition punishment, I'm not a liberated slave with nowhere to go. No past, no future, just now. Just us."

It was sweet, it was hot, it was much, much too short. They talked, Shaylah of her parents, her childhood, and Wolf of his, and of Trios before the Coalition. Shaylah smothered her qualms at the secret still held within her; she would not risk this precious, unshadowed time with him for anything.

And one day, with a vindictive pleasure she didn't try to disguise, she put the chains and the collar into the air lock and blasted them out into space. She shivered when the scanners registered the explosion as the collar, out of range of the controller, detonated. Wolf stared impassively at the screen, but she saw one hand steal upward to rub at the healing scar at the back of his neck. When the debris had scattered, she handed him the controller.

"I thought… you might like to do this."

Their fingers touched as he took it from her, and when it followed the chains into the darkness, it was Shaylah he was looking at.

They made love-Shaylah had long since ceased to call it merely mating-whenever the need overcame them, which was often. Especially when Wolf saw no need to wait until the artificial night set by the ship.

"You're the captain," he said as he played with the silken strands of her hair, worn constantly free now. "You decide when it's night."

She inevitably agreed, and they retired to her quarters. Except, she thought with a blush, the times they hadn't made it that far. The galley once, the observation port again, and once, frantically, up against the wall of a corridor. And tonight, at the end of the last day of their allotted week, in the command chair on the con.

"I find," he'd said as he'd knelt before her there, "your competence, your abilities, very… arousing."

And proceeded to arouse her, with his hands, his mouth, his body, stripping away her control as easily as he had stripped away her flight suit. And she knew that even if by some miracle she was able to keep the Sunbird, it would never be the same to her again. Never again would she sit in this chair without thinking of Wolf, of his strong, lean body gleaming naked and golden as he took her on the highest flight of her life.

In the morning, she knew the moment she found him in the observation port, leaning against the bulkhead as he stared out at the expanse of stars, that their stolen time was over. She bit her lip, but it didn't help steady her voice.

"Whe- " She swallowed. "Where do you want to go?"

He turned his head to meet her gaze. She knew he saw her tears brimming, her lip trembling, but she couldn't help it.

"Shaylah, you knew this was coming."

"Yes." I love you, she cried silently. Don't ask me to leave you joyfully, even if it is what you want. "Where do you wish me to take you?"

He looked back to the viewport, as if he couldn't bear to see her pain any longer. After a long, silent moment, he said, almost reluctantly, "I've thought about it for a long time. I know it's futile, and probably crazy, but there's only one place I want to go."

Shaylah's breath caught as dread closed her throat. "Where?" she whispered.

He turned back to her once more, his mouth twisting ruefully. He shrugged and said simply, "Home."

Chapter 12

"Trios?" It came out on a gasp of shock.

"Yes."

Dear Eos, Shaylah swore silently. "You can't go back to Trios. There's… nothing there, nothing left for you."

"I know. But I have to see it again." His jaw tightened. "Even if it's only to wipe out the memories, to replace them with the reality. I can't go on with my life until I'm truly convinced it's gone forever."

"The Trios you knew is gone forever," she said urgently. "I'll take you wherever you want, Wolf, right now if you want, but please, not there."

"I must," he said patiently.

"Wolf, you can't!"

Her desperation got through to him then, for his brows lowered as he looked at her. "Shaylah, what is it?"

She tried to speak calmly. "Please, Wolf. Keep your memories. The reality is too ugly, too monstrous to bear."

His eyes narrowed. "And how would you know?"

"I…" Shaylah's mind was racing, frantic to stop this. He would die if he went back to Trios. "I've seen what the Coalition leaves behind. Too often."

"So have I. But I can't believe even the Coalition destroyed all the beauty that was Trios."

"They did," she said flatly. "They always do."

If he noticed how completely she had separated herself from the Coalition, he didn't remark on it. He was, she saw with a rapidly sinking heart, too intent on her extreme reaction to what must seem to him a harmless, if perhaps foolish request.

"Shaylah," he said slowly, "if there's nothing left, why are you so adamant?"

Her usually quick mind failed her, and she knew it was because she hated lying to him. All she could seem to do was look at him, misery in her eyes as she felt everything she'd gained with him slipping through her desperately clutching fingers.

"My God," Wolf breathed, "there is something left. Isn't there?"

"Wolf, please-" She stopped short when he grabbed her, his fingers digging into her shoulders.

"Tell me." She'd never heard that tone from him, that voice laced with the whip of command. It startled her, so much that all she could do was gape at him. "Tell me," he repeated, sharper still, in the tone of nothing less than an order. "What is happening on Trios?"

Shaylah crumpled before his forcefulness; she couldn't lie to him any longer. "A rebellion," she said dully.

Wolf stared at her. She felt the tremor that swept through him in the sudden flexing of his hands on her shoulders.

"A rebellion?" he whispered in shock. Shaylah saw the green eyes lose their sharp focus, as if his gaze had turned inward, to some vivid memory. "They're alive…? My God, my people are alive?"

"Some," she said in that same flat tone. "Enough to force the Coalition to send three tactical wings. They've surrounded the capital."

"Triotia," he breathed. That unfocused look lasted only another split second. Then he was back, his eyes piercingly sharp. "You knew this," he said in shocked disbelief. "You knew my people were alive and fighting… and you didn't tell me!"

"Wolf, the Coalition is there in force," she said, her tone urgent. "What good would it have done? There's nothing you can do. You would only have felt more helpless."

"I see," he said. "You decided I didn't need to know?"

"I didn't mean-"

"I've spent five years thinking I was the last, that I was alone, that the people and history of Trios would die with me…" His grip on her shoulders tightened to the point of pain. "How long have you known?"

Shaylah winced under the pressure. "Wolf, please, I would have told you if-"

"If you hadn't been busy making my decisions for me? I find I'm growing very weary of that, Captain." His voice sharpened once more. "Did you know when you came to Major Claxton's?"

Shaylah sighed wearily. "No."

His unwavering stare was almost painful to her. She could see him thinking, knew he would soon reach the only possible answer. When she saw his brows lower, then lift as his eyes widened, she knew he had gotten there.

"That last day… you said you were recalled…"

She just looked at him. He let out a small breath, a compressed sound of shock.

"You went to Trios. That was your recall, wasn't it?"

"I didn't know," Shaylah said tiredly. "Not until I was clear of Carelian airspace."

He let go of her shoulders abruptly, as if he could no longer bear to touch her. Shaylah swayed slightly at the sudden release.

"So, Captain," he said in a voice laced with acid, "how many of my people did you kill?"

"No!" she protested instantly. "I didn't even get close. All I did was carry the general around. And to Legion Command and back. We were never in battle."

Wolf's mouth twisted ironically. "You do that well, Captain. You don't believe in slavery, just fight for the system that enforces it. You didn't kill the last of my people, just helped the man who will."

Shaylah drew herself up. It took every bit of her flagging courage to face him, but she did it.

"Everything you say is true. I can't deny it. And it's nothing I haven't already said to myself." Her voice was taut, bitter. "Perhaps I should have followed my first instinct and blown the Sunbird, the general, and myself to Hades." Something flickered in his eyes that could have been admiration, but it was gone too quickly for her to be sure. "But it wouldn't have stopped anything. If anything, it would have made things worse. I withdrew the first moment I could."

"And came back for me."

"Yes."

"Why? Did it amuse you to toy with me, all the while keeping from me that some of my people had survived, were fighting back?"

"I never- " She bit back the fierce protest; it didn't matter now. He would never believe it, anyway. "No."

"Why didn't you tell me? Did you hope that thinking I was the last of my kind alive would make me… dependent on you?"

Somewhere deep inside her, anger flickered. "If I'd wanted you dependent," she said harshly, "I would have left that collar on you. And used it."

He seemed to consider this. "That is true, I suppose. So why remove it, then? An act of atonement? For hiding the truth?"

The anger flickered again, then caught, flaring, giving her strength and rekindling her pride. "I have explained myself to you repeatedly. I will not do so again." She paused, then realized she had nothing left to lose. "Except know this, Wolf. What I did, I did for one reason. I love you," She saw the shock register on his face. "I have never said that to any man, not that it will matter to you. Nevertheless, it is true. You may do with that what you wish."

She turned on her heel and strode toward the observation port steps.

"Captain!"

She looked back at him. His face was impassive; if he truly had been take aback by her brusque declaration, he had recovered quickly. Why not, she thought, when it mattered so little to him?

"There is the small matter of your promise."

"My… promise?"

"To take me wherever I wished to go."

"Except Trios."

"That was never mentioned."

"Because it is impossible," she said flatly. "All of the ports are surrounded. They will be running regular patrols over the entire planet. There is no way past the Coalition blockade."

"You think not?"

"You think so?" she countered.

"I know so. There are places on Trios the Coalition would never find."

"Perhaps. But you'd have to get there first."

He lifted a mocking brow at her. "Afraid of a challenge, Captain? Or of committing treason?"

"Do you think I care about that?" Her indignation died as soon as the words left her lips. "Never mind. Of course you do. With what you think of me, how could you not?"

"I'm not certain what I think of you any longer, Captain. But that doesn't matter now. Will you set the course for Trios, or shall I?"

"Wolf, we can't-"

"We will leave immediately."

Shaylah bristled at his tone. "The Sunbird goes nowhere unless I command it."

"The Sunbird," he said, in that masterful voice that had so startled her, "will go where I fly her."

She had been wrong, Shaylah thought, stunned. She did indeed have something left to lose.

* * *

She had given up without even a whimper, Shaylah thought in amazement as she watched Wolf at the controls of the Sunbird. He had commandeered her ship, and she had let him with barely a protest. And now she was getting a taste of what it felt like to have your decisions made for you, and she didn't like it one bit.

She should have fought him, she thought in the oddly detached, analytical manner that seemed to have overtaken her, but she hadn't been able to quite muster the energy. Or the desire. In fact, she couldn't seem to do anything but sit here in the con room and watch the man who had taken her place aboard the Sunbird.

"If you're thinking of ways to warn your colleagues," Wolf said conversationally, "don't."

It should hurt, Shaylah thought, that he still lumped her with the Coalition forces. But it didn't. Nothing did.

"I wasn't," she said lifelessly.

"It would do no good in any case. We'll be well out of range of the forces guarding Triotia."

"They'll have at least a full detachment orbiting," she said in that same, passive tone, wondering why she bothered at all.

"I know. We'll slip in between their orbits. They won't linger on the dark side."

She knew he was right, so said nothing. She sat at the navigation station with her hands folded primly on her knees, staring at the floor as if she'd never seen it.

"You don't seem disturbed by… er, mutiny, Captain."

"It doesn't matter."

"And flying to Trios'?"

"Or into the sun." She shrugged. "It doesn't matter."

He made an adjustment on the controls, then turned to study her. "I never would have thought you would hand over your precious ship so easily, Captain."

"Captain Graymist would not have. She would have died before giving up the Sunbird. But I'm not sure that's who I am anymore."

"Then who are you?"

"I don't know. Someone who tried to do what she thought was right… and ended up doing everything wrong." She got to her feet; she couldn't bear this a moment longer. She started toward her quarters, then stopped and looked back over her shoulder at Wolf.

"May I leave?" He looked startled at the question. "You are in charge now. I thought it might give you pleasure to have me beg permission."

For some reason, he looked angry. "When I want pleasure from you," he 'said heatedly, "I will ask for it."

Shaylah flushed and hurried away, her humiliation complete. Yet even that seemed removed, as if she had somehow withdrawn from herself and watched her own emotions from a safe, unfeeling distance.

She didn't know how long she had been lying on her bunk when she felt the change in the Sunbird's movement. She sat up, concentrating on the change in the angle of flight. She started to rise, then stopped. She should just stay here, she told herself. She had nothing to do with this. The Sunbird wasn't hers anymore. She wasn't worthy of her, not after surrendering her without even a protest.

But she couldn't just wait here, not knowing. If they were about to die, she wanted, however irrationally, to be with Wolf. She scrambled into her flight suit and raced to the con.

They were indeed on the dark side. They had flown from day into night and were heading swiftly straight at the planet that loomed large through the viewport. Wolf was staring at his ravaged home as he handled the Sunbird with a born pilot's touch. He glanced at her, but said nothing. His jaw was rigid, his expression unreadable as they neared the surface.

He had obviously done exactly as he'd said and timed their descent perfectly between the orbiting patrols. Only a man who knew his destination intimately, who knew exactly where he was going, would have been able to do it.

"They'll have picked you up on their scanners." She was unable to stop her words, although she knew her warning would be superfluous; there was little that Wolf didn't think of.

"Yes," he said, "but we'll be down before they can pinpoint us. I don't think they'll risk searching until dawning, and we'll be long gone by then."

We? He was planning on taking her with him? Shaylah wanted to ask, but doubted that she would like the answer. So she decided to beat him to it.

"If you're planning on using me as some kind of hostage, it wouldn't do any good. The Coalition doesn't much care what happens to traitors."

"I'll keep that in mind," he said coolly, never looking away from the viewport and the navigation screen before him. What else did you expect him to say? she asked herself bitterly.

Then they were into the darkness, and Shaylah was amazed at his sureness. After five years away, even from her own home, she would have been hard-pressed to find her way in this kind of blackness. Yet he never faltered.

As her eyes grew accustomed to the dimness, Shaylah realized with a little shock that they were flying along a jagged, rocky range of mountains. He seemed to thread them with ease, although she would have sworn that there were moments when the clearance was bare inches. She could hear the whoosh of the ion drive echoing from the steep walls that threatened to abruptly end this crazy headlong flight.

"Wolf," she began.

"Not now." It was sharp, short, and she realized then the effort he was expending, even though he was making it look so easy.

By the time she could make out the level clearing he was headed for, they were already on top of it. And heading straight for a massive wall of solid rock. Her stomach tumbled as he flared the Sunbird sharply. Her heart lurched when he cut the power. They set down with a sharp thud. Intact, Shaylah thought incredulously. And, she saw with a shudder of awe, wingtips a mere arm's length from that unforgiving barrier.

They had barely settled, and she was still gaping out the viewport, when he reached for the hatch controls. He released the main outer door, then shut down every system on the ship with quick, efficient movements, as if he knew the Sunbird as intimately as she did. As if he knew it as intimately as he did her.

He stood up. "Let's go."

Shaylah's head snapped around. "What?"

"Let's go," he repeated, moving toward the hatchway. "I want to put some distance between us and the ship, fast."

"You're just going to… leave her?"

He turned back to look at her with a wry, mocking expression. "This is a dead planet, remember? If anyone finds her, it will be the Coalition. And she is theirs, after all."

Shaylah winced. She looked around at the now darkened ship she so loved. How could she just walk away? "Wolf," she began, her voice quavering, echoing the pleading tone that had rung in his own voice in the sick bay.

"I can't let you stay," he said, his voice unexpectedly gentle. "There is so much metal in these mountains, they'll never get an accurate reading on her as long as she stays dead. But it gets cold up here, Shaylah, and if you stayed, you'd have to use the ship's systems. They'd get a reading on you the instant the next patrol goes over. I can't afford for them to find where we came down, not yet."

The gentleness did nothing to disguise the unbending strength beneath the words. Shaylah knew suddenly that she was seeing the real Wolf, the man he had been before the Coalition destroyed his life and his world. She should fight him, she thought again, fight the abandonment of her ship. And again couldn't find the strength.

"Let's go, Captain. You'll need lightweight boots and your flight jacket." He paused, the softness in his voice reaching his eyes for a moment. "And bring anything you want to keep. I don't know if we'll get back here."

Her lips tightened, but she held back the sound that rose in her throat. She'd already bared her soul and her feelings to a man who felt nothing for her in return; she'd be damned if she would do it again.

"Yes, sir," she snapped.

When she got to her quarters she grabbed the now-empty pack. She stuffed in her recorded captain's log, some durable clothing, unfastened and added the holograph of her parents, and, after some thought, the delicate drawings of Triotian roses. An odd feeling struck her when she realized there was really nothing else she wished to take, even knowing she might never see the Sunbird again. But made herself reach for one last item, tucking her small personal weapon into a pocket of the silver thermal jacket.

She met him at the main hatch. He still wore the flight suit, but he'd stripped all Coalition insignia from it. He'd found a large pack, and it was obviously full. Her gaze caught on the bulky object strapped to one side of it: the functional cannon he had pieced together from the ruins of the weapons station.

He said nothing, just lifted the pack-easily, she thought wryly, even though it was probably more than she could push across the floor-and led the way down the outer ramp.

At the bottom, Shaylah turned and looked back at the Sunbird. She sat faintly silver in the darkness, quiet, already looking abandoned. The damage the pirates had done stood out as a large black shadow. With a catch in her throat she released the recoil latch on the ramp and watched as it retracted and the hatch swung closed.

She saw then exactly how close they were to the cliff; it would take some very fancy flying to ever get the Sunbird out of here. But she had no time to dwell on it; Wolf was already walking away. The irony of it hit her; she was leaving her world in the moment when he was returning to what was left of his.

If Shaylah had been amazed at his accuracy on their flight through the midnight darkness, she was stunned by his unerring certainty as they struck out on foot. She could barely see to put her feet in front of her, yet he was moving as easily as she did through the passageways of the Sunbird. Only the ache that began to grow in her knees told Shaylah they were heading downward.

She could hear the sound of their feet on the rocky surface, and every now and then a current of air brought her a scent she'd never smelled before; something fresh and clean that made her involuntarily inhale, deeply. But she could see nothing of her surroundings, nothing except varying degrees of darkness, and she wished briefly for that Triotian hunter's moon. He was more like that lion than she'd thought, she thought wryly; he must have cat's eyes to be able to see a thing.

"I didn't know Triotians could also see in the dark," she muttered after stumbling over a stone for the third time. She heard Wolf chuckle. The sound seemed to wrap around her heart and squeeze; it was the first time there had been no undertone to his laugh, no bitterness, no mockery.

"I've walked every inch of Trios in my mind countless times in the last five years. No matter what the Coalition has done, it is home. I could not get lost."

Shaylah left off talking and concentrated on staying upright on the unseen trail. She didn't know how long they'd been walking, but she felt as if it were hours, and as if this night would go on forever. She was carrying a mere fraction of the weight he was, yet she was nearing exhaustion; Wolf just kept going, his strides unfaltering. She wondered how much of his endurance was from sheer strength and how much stemmed from just being home.

She stumbled once more, steadied herself, made it a few more minutes, then stumbled twice: in rapid succession. She stopped dead. Wolf went on a few more steps before he halted and turned to look back at her.

"If this is some kind of test," Shaylah ground out, "I willingly concede that I've failed. I can't go another step."

"Getting soft, Captain?"

"I'm a pilot, not a ground trooper," she snapped.

He smiled suddenly; she could see the white glint of his teeth. "Now that's the captain I remember."

Startled, Shaylah stared at him. Had he done it on purpose, pushed her to the limit of her endurance in an effort to prod her out of the numbness that had enveloped her? Before she could decide, he was speaking again, the smile gone from his face but not his voice.

"There is a place just ahead. We can stop there." He turned and started off again, leaving Shaylah wondering wearily what he meant by "just ahead" as she followed.

Just as she was about to make an acid comment on his judgment of distance, he suddenly left the path.

"Careful," he warned, "you have to step down."

His shadowy, packed-burdened bulk disappeared, dropping out of her line of sight. The suddenness of it made.her waver. Then, unexpectedly, he was reaching up, steadying her. His hand slid down the length of her arm to her hand. She tried not to shiver as his fingers closed around hers to help her down the drop, but she was so weary the effort was useless. What did it matter, anyway? she thought dully. He already knew how she felt; she'd made it embarrassingly clear.

She would have stumbled, misjudging the depth of the step in the dark, had it not been for the strength of his grip. He led her a few wobbly steps, then stopped. When she had her balance back, she just stood there, unable to move. She felt as if the only part of her that was functioning was the hand he held. It was functioning all too well, sending little ripples of sensation through her, hot amid the chill, making the chill seem even fiercer.

Why didn't he let go? Why did he just stand there, her hand trembling in his? Shaylah shivered again. Perhaps he enjoyed feeling her shake at his touch, she thought despondently. Perhaps he was savoring her weakness, getting some kind of vengeful pleasure from knowing he had brought at least one member of the Coalition to her knees.

Abruptly, without a word, he let her go. "Sit down before you fall down," he said gruffly, and began to remove his own pack.

She sat, but with the realization that it was more the fall he had mentioned than any controlled action on her part. She didn't understand it. She'd been through worse than this, Shaylah thought. In battle she'd gone days on mere moments of sleep. So why was she so exhausted? Could the emotional ups and downs of the past few days have drained her so?

She slid the pack off of her shoulders, letting it rest where it landed at her back. Her hands brushed something oddly soft beneath her, and she froze. The ground itself was soft… no, not the ground… Grass, she thought in amazement. Triotian grass, the living carpet that was a novelty in other places, an oddity kept in private gardens or artifact houses. Yet here it was, delicate and tender, in this wild, rocky place that had been laid waste by Coalition weapons. She touched it gently, marveling at the thin, pliable blades.

"We can rest, but only until first light. I want to be moving again by dawning."

"Mmmm," she mumbled, still entranced with the wonder of finding what was, to her, such an exotic thing as Triotian grass growing wild.

Triotian. The name rang in her mind. Odd, it hadn't really struck her until this moment that she was actually on Trios, the place she had grown up constantly hearing about, the place her parents had met, bonded… and conceived their daughter.

"Are you all right?"

She looked up. "The grass, it's just… growing here."

"It generally does, Captain." He sounded amused.

Stung by his constant use of her rank, reminding her harshly how things had changed between them, she said sharply, "Maybe you can take it for granted, but I can't."

"Believe me," he said, all amusement having vanished from his voice, "I take nothing about Trios for granted. Nothing. Not anymore."

He turned away, and she was aware of his movements as he bent over his pack and took something out. He came back and sat beside her, and she saw the sheen of silver as he unfolded a thermoactive cover.

"We'd better get some sleep while we can," he said.

Shaylah stared at him. Did he expect her to share the cover with him? It was big enough, but only if they lay close together. Very close. She doubted if he was feeling that friendly toward her, so she tugged her jacket closer around her and started to lie down.

"Captain." His voice sounded very dry as it came to her out of the dark. "You're going to freeze your bottom off out there."

"I…" She stared at the faint shimmer of silver as he held up one side of the cover for her. "I didn't think…"

"Don't think, Captain. Just sleep."

Just sleep. Was that his way of letting her know he wanted nothing more from her? Had her deception killed even that in him, destroyed the fierce, hot need she'd gloried in?

"Now, Captain. We don't have that long. And I promise you, now that we've stopped moving, you'll feel the cold very quickly at this altitude."

She knew he was right; already it was seeping into her, stiffening her muscles on its way to becoming bone deep. Reluctantly she slid under the cover, carefully facing away from him, instantly feeling the heat of him warming her back.

Mercifully, he said no more. In moments she heard his breathing deepen, and her humiliation was complete. Nothing, she thought, biting her lip against the ache that throbbed in her, could be as painful as wanting so badly, and not being wanted in return.

Memories flashed in her mind, of a week of mornings waking up beside him, of having him turn to her with the heat of need and desire lighting his eyes, his body hard and ready for her. Painful memories, she added silently. Especially when you know so intimately what you're missing. Especially knowing you had destroyed it yourself, by one foolish decision made because you thought it was best. One foolish decision you had no right to make, she admitted with grim acknowledgment of his right to spurn her.

"I'm sorry, Wolf," she murmured to the man whose long, muscled body warmed her. It was far too low for him to hear, even if he'd been awake. It did nothing to ease the ache inside her. It changed nothing, made nothing all right again. But she'd been no more able to hold it back than she'd been able to challenge his appropriation of the Sunbird. It was a long time before she at last fell into a troubled sleep.

She awoke to a lessening of the darkness, the precursor of dawning. And to the shock of feeling Wolf pressed tightly to her back, his arm around her and pulling her into the curve of his body. Had she unconsciously been drawn to his warmth in the cold blackness? Or had he claimed her in sleep as he refused to do when awake?

She stayed motionless, afraid to move for fear of waking him, knowing the moment he came back to himself he would withdraw. And gradually she became aware of something else; heat flooded her in a rush as she recognized the insistent hardness that pressed against the curve of her buttocks.

He murmured something then, soft and low, something she didn't understand, had never heard before. Probably some Triotian endearment he had called Brielle, she thought bitterly. Now that he was home, his thoughts would all be of his dead mate, the woman he had loved, had bonded with, and the one he would no doubt die still longing for.

A sound echoed sharp in the stillness. Instinctively Shaylah stiffened; she didn't know enough about the wild things of Trios not to worry about what it might be. Oddly, that was the first thing that occurred to her; the thought that they had been found by the Coalition didn't come until Wolf's body went rigid behind her.

He seemed to know instantly that she was awake, for he hissed a warning to be quiet. As if I wouldn't, she thought, irritation sparking inside her. Just because I seem to do everything wrong when it comes to you, she told him in silent annoyance, doesn't mean I've forgotten all my training.

As the darkness waned, the certainty waxed; there was someone-or something-out there.

"We're being watched," he whispered at last.

"I know that," she snapped under her breath.

"Up there, I think," he said, looking upward toward the trail they had been following.

Shaylah followed the direction of his look. Trees, she thought, in the same shock she'd felt when she'd first touched the grass. Real trees. She could see them now in the gray light. Was that the source of that fragrance she'd scented earlier? She seemed to vaguely remember the one time she'd seen trees like this, that even the dry, preserved branches had held a-much fainter-version of this fresh, clean smell. That they still flourished here, amid the destruction, the barren landscape of tumbled rock, stunned her.

"I'm going to try for my pack and the weapon," Wolf whispered, snapping her back to the disaster at hand.

"Why don't you just announce what you're going to do?" she whispered back furiously. "That thing's the size of a… a cannon."

"I don't see any alternative at the moment. I can't risk assuming he's one of mine. Or they," he amended.

"Yours?" Did all Triotians have this odd "my people" habit? she wondered. "Never mind." With a sigh, she reached into her jacket pocket. "Here," she said, handing him the small, handheld disrupter.

Wolf stared at it in the gray dawn light. 'You… had this all along?"

She read his surprise. "What did you expect me to do, use it on you?"

"The Sunbird… I would have thought you would have…"

"I should have," she repeated tiredly. "But I didn't have the energy anymore."

He shifted his steady gaze to her. After a long, silent moment, he said softly, "Have I defeated you, Shaylah?"

The unexpected use of her name put a quaver in her voice, making the spiritlessness of her voice even more obvious. "I defeated myself. Fools usually do."

And I am a fool, she thought. For handing you my ship, for hoping you might forgive me. For even thinking there was a chance that you could forget the five stolen years of your life that hang between us.

"You are many things," Wolf said quietly, "but you are not a fool."

And then he moved, sliding out from under the silver cloth with a swift, smooth uncoiling of his body, the small weapon concealed in his hand.

"Hold!"

Wolf froze in a crouch, and Shaylah's heart leaped in dread; he was in the open, exposed, vulnerable. It wasn't until Wolf looked back at her, a puzzled expression on his face, that she realized that the voice they'd heard had been young. Very young.

"Don't move! I've got a blaster, and I'll use it!"

Yes, very young; Shaylah confirmed her impression.

"Unless the Coalition is taking on children these days," Wolf said in low tones that would carry only to her, "I think we can eliminate that possibility."

He straightened up and casually stuffed his hands in his pockets, discreetly hiding the disrupter in one of them.

"I said don't move!"

Wolf pulled his hands-now empty-out of his pockets and shrugged elaborately.

"Whatever you say," he called out agreeably. "I'm not about to go up unarmed against a man with a blaster."

There was a pause; then, in the same young voice, "You'd better not. I've got you both dead center in my sights."

Shaylah almost smiled despite herself. There had been unmistakable pride in those words;

Wolf's deliberate use of the word man had had the desired effect. She heard the sound of cautious movement toward them.

"You've got us, all right," Wolf agreed again. "What are you going to do with us?"

Another pause, a sudden halting of footsteps. Then, with some of the pride shaken, "You'll find out."

"Then I guess we'd better get ready to move." Wolf's voice held a credible note of resignation. "I suppose you're going to want to show off your prisoners to your clan."

Shaylah registered the use of the traditional Triotian word even as she realized that Wolf had planted the suggestion intentionally.

"You bet I am." The pride was back with the resilience of the young. "You just stay right where you are."

There was more movement, then a scrambling sound over rocks. And then, through the belt of trees, popped a figure that made Shaylah smother another smile. And made Wolf, for some reason, suck in a long, harsh breath.

He was, if she guessed generously, maybe ten years old. He was as tall as perhaps her waist; he barely came to Wolf's hip. The old, battered blaster he held looked as if it hadn't fired a round in years. His eyes, very wary, and much too old-looking for his young face, were green. Not the vivid, grass green of Wolf's, but a lighter shade flecked with gold. His hair, shaggy and nearly as long as Wolf's, was as brown as the soil that graced his golden skin.

Golden. That beautiful shade that was not white, yet not brown, nor red, nor yellow, but a glowing combination of them all. Shaylah knew then. The boy was Triotian.

She also knew then what had made Wolf take that deep breath; after five years of thinking himself the last of his kind, it had to be a shock to be face-to-face with living evidence to the contrary.

The boy, it seemed, had reached the same conclusion. "You're Triotian!" He stared at Wolf accusingly.

"Yes."

"Then what are you doing with this Coalition trash?"

Shaylah winced. They began young here, she thought. But why not? The Coalition deserved the hatred of these people. She glanced at Wolf;

would he, too, be calling her that and worse, now that he was here on what was left of his home?

"Perhaps," Wolf said mildly, "she is my prisoner."

And that, Shaylah thought grimly, answered that. Telling herself it was no more than she deserved, she forced herself not to react. Wondering what, if anything, the future held for her, she looked away from Wolf.

The boy was still eyeing them suspiciously, but Wolf tactfully maneuvered him toward what he wanted: to lead them to his people. The boy hesitated at first, casting a doubtful look at the cannon strapped to Wolf's pack. Wolf unfastened it and handed it to the boy.

"Smart man. Never leave a stranger armed until you're sure of his affiliation."

A look of dismay crossed the young face at the weight of the weapon. Carrying it would, Shaylah realized, keep him too busy to fire that blaster. If, of course, the thing would fire at all.

At last, convinced it was the only thing to do, the boy let them pick up their things, then turned and led the way out of the small clearing. It was more of the same, a long, painful trek down the steep trail. She felt fairly rested, but this was still tough going. Shaylah groaned inwardly as her knees began to ache again. Then, abruptly, they turned and started upward.

Occasionally she glanced around, although on the steep, narrow trail it was wiser to pay attention to your footing. The view was unsettling;

areas of stark desolation, left in rubble by Coalition attacks, alternated with patches of determined, soft greenery. The stillness of dawning was disturbed only by their passage, and an infrequent sound of some animal she didn't recognize.

They walked on, twisting, turning. Shaylah would have been long lost by now, but the boy- and Wolf-moved with unerring certainty. Did he know where they were going as well as the boy did?

They came to a sudden stop. Well, she thought wryly, if Wolf had known where they were going, she bet he was confused now; they had come up against a solid rock wall.

"Now what?" she asked.

Wolf silently studied the barrier before them for a moment. Then he grinned. "Up and over, if I'm not mistaken."

"Are you crazy?" Shaylah stared at him, then the blank face of stone. Well, almost blank. When Wolf gestured, she saw a vertical row of small pockets carved in the stone.

"Females first," Wolf said, still grinning. "I'll hold your pack and then pass it up to you."

"Up?" She realized he meant her to climb the rock, using those tiny pockets as hand- and footholds. She rounded on him. "I told you I am not a ground trooper. Nor am I a… a…"

"A mountain goat?"

Shaylah scowled at him. She didn't know what a mountain goat was, but she didn't like the sound of it. And Wolf was just a bit too smug.

"You can do it, Captain," he said in clearly mocking encouragement.

Stung, Shaylah fell into his trap even knowing that was exactly what it was. "Of course I can. The question is, will I?"

Wolf glanced at the boy beside them, who was still clutching at both heavy weapons, although he looked decidedly weary of them both. "I don't see that we have much choice."

And so Shaylah found herself clambering up a sheer face of Triotian rock. It was easier than she had thought; whoever had carved the pockets had spaced them perfectly. Just at the top, she reached backward; Wolf handed her her pack and started up himself. Shaylah scrambled up the last step, looked around, and nearly groaned aloud. Before her was a narrow passageway between two towering walls of rock, and as she peered down it, it seemed endless.

"Great," she muttered. "I suppose we have another league or two to go."

"That depends," Wolf said blandly as he came up beside her. "Is a league still three miles or so?"

Shaylah scowled at him again. "Triotians never did adapt well to the advances of the rest of the cosmos."

"Maybe we were happy with what worked for us."

"And look where it got you."

The words were out before she thought about it; she regretted them the moment she saw the flare of anger in his face and in the tension of his body.

"I'm sorry, Wolf," she said softly as the boy neared the top of the climb.

"Why? You're quite right."

With that he turned his back to her, leaning over to extend a hand to the weary child. After a moment's hesitation the boy took it, and Wolf lifted him the rest of the way with an ease that made Shaylah wonder if there wasn't something magic in this place for him, something that made him draw an incredible strength from the land itself.

Then, suddenly, something he'd said registered. "Do you mean you know where we're going?"

"I think so." He looked at the boy. "The/re in the caves, aren't they?" Panic flashed in the child's face. "You've done your job, son," Wolf said soothingly. "You've brought the intruders in, as well as any man. Now let's go the rest of the way. You can make a grand entrance."

The child perked up, nodded, and turned to dart down the narrow passageway. Shaylah stared at Wolf; he'd been gentle, almost tender with the child. As he'd been with her once, when she had cried in his arms. The combination of gentleness and strength called to something deep inside her, and she knew that the love she'd felt for him before had changed, deepened. And she knew as well it was only more hopeless.

They had barely entered the passage when they were confronted in the darkness by two men. Apparently warned by the boy, they said nothing, but there was no mistaking the weapons they held: much more functional-looking versions of the boy's blaster. The men nudged them inside. She could hear the boy's voice, high-pitched with excitement.

"… right there, Grandfather! I rounded them up and brought them to you all by myself."

"A dangerous thing, but a brave one, Pavel," an unseen man answered.

"Glendar," Wolf breathed, his body gone rigid.

"You know him?" Shaylah asked in a whisper.

"I know him," Wolf said, his voice vibrant with anticipation. He stepped forward, still in the shadows yet able to see into the interior of the cave, which was lit, Shaylah saw, with some primitive sort of live flame device encased in a clear bubble.

"Let's see this Triotian of yours," the man said.

"He's right here, Grandfather."

The man turned, and Shaylah could see that he was older; his hair, once the same color as the boy's, was thick with gray. His face was lined with strain, and she knew this was a man who had carried a heavy burden for a long time.

She waited for Wolf to do something, to call out to this man he said he knew. But Wolf, oddly, hesitated beside her. She could feel his tension, feel it coiling inside him. Then, without a word, he stepped forward. Into the light.

The older man paled. He stared, obviously in shock. Gasps echoed in the cave from unseen watchers. A long, silent moment spun out before the old man found his voice.

"My God!" he rasped out. "Dare, my God, we thought you were dead!"

Shaylah saw Wolf's taut body relax, and realized he had feared the man would not recognize him.

"You know me, then," Wolf said, beginning to smile.

"Of course I do," the old man said, offended dignity overcoming his shock. "I helped raise you from a pup, didn't I?"

"I have not forgotten, Glendar. But I am much changed. It has been a long, hard time."

The weary, lined face moved oddly, and Shaylah realized the old man was fighting tears. "Too long," he whispered. "Welcome home, Your Highness."

Chapter 13

Shaylah sat in the tiny alcove, barely aware of the guard stationed outside the makeshift barred entrance. It was about four feet square, barely more than a cage. It was far too small for her to stand upright, and the rough stone floor was cold and uncomfortable. She wondered vaguely what they were going to do with her, but, with the numbness of a brain that had absorbed one shock too many, she wasn't sure she cared.

This dazed feeling had enveloped her as soon as the band of people in the cave had enveloped Wolf, crying out their joy and amazement. Wolf obviously had forgotten her existence in the joy of reunion, never even turning to look at her. She could have escaped then, she realized now, but where would she have gone? She was used to navigating from above, not amid the twisted wreckage of this rocky place. She never would have found her way back to the Sunbird. And then the idea had become academic as the two guards who had accompanied them down the dark passage, for the first time seeing her in the light of the cave, recognized her Coalition flight suit.

The bigger of the two had wanted, unmistakably, to kill her on the spot. The other restrained him, saying it was not for them to decide. They had, none too gently, shoved her down a side tunnel that looked like it had been hand carved in the wall of the cave, and into this small, barred alcove. With a few vicious curses thrown in after her.

"You Coalition scum will learn that we have not been beaten," one of them sneered at her. "With Prince Dare to lead us now, we will take back that which has been stolen from us!"

Prince Dare. His Royal Highness Prince Darian of Trios. Eos, Shaylah thought as she huddled in the corner. It explained so much. That odd air of regalness she had noticed about him, even in chains. The habit he had of referring to Triotians as "my people." That snap of command in his voice that had so astounded her after the humble manner of the slave. It even explained his ability as a pilot; the royal heir would of course have access to any vessel in Trios's small but modern fleet.

She had even, she realized with another stunning flash of realization, seen him before. Years ago, and not in person, but on a cinefilm her parents had brought home from Trios when she was a child. In it had been a segment on the royal family, and even then Shaylah had been caught by the novelty of a boy, only a few years older than herself, who would someday rule a world.

She had studied that boy, already tall and lithe, and looking as if he would much rather be out causing mischief than standing at some ceremony in formal regalia. And even as a boy, he had shown great presence, combining the best aspects of the king and his queen, in both looks and personality. He had been, oddly enough, the first person Shaylah had thought about when her exultant flight instructor in the Academy had proclaimed to the class that Trios had been "accepted into the Coalition."

She could see, now that she knew, traces of that boy in Wolf: the golden mane of hair, the determined jaw, and the promise of great strength in his young body. But the look of carefree youth that had lit childish green eyes was long vanquished, replaced by the formidable strength of one who has seen too much, endured too much to ever be truly young again.

"Wolf," she whispered to herself. He would always be Wolf to her, in her mind and in her heart. When she heard her own soft uttering of the name, Shaylah realized that, despite her self-castigation, despite her acknowledgment of her own folly, she had not quite given up all hope that there might yet be a future for them. And realized now that giving up was exactly what she must do.

She had called herself fool before, for falling in love with a slave who would forever blame her for his years of enslavement. How much more of a fool was she for falling in love with a prince, much less a prince who would blame her for the loss of his home, his birthright, his family… his kingdom?

Nausea rose in her as she remembered the stories of the butchering of the Triotian royal family. The old king, beaten, flogged, and then beheaded, his body left hanging as a warning for all who would resist. The queen, who after being stripped and raped again and again by the glorious victors, had had the audacity to commit suicide and put an end to their fun. And Brielle…

Shaylah shuddered, righting the revulsion that flooded her at the thought of Wolf having to kill the mate he loved, to give her a quick, painless end, to save her from the fate of his mother. And for the first time, she thought of Wolf's mate without a trace of jealousy, merely with sadness, for Brielle, for what had been taken from her, and for herself, for what Brielle had taken with her.

"At least you had his love for a while," she said inwardly. "I only wish you hadn't taken his heart with you when you died."

A memory came to her, of Wolf's harsh voice, telling her of the moment when Brielle had begged him to kill her before the rapacious troops were upon them, before they could torture him with the sight of what they would do to her.

"You have to be strong," he'd quoted from her last words. "Because you have to come back…"

She realized now what Brielle had meant. Shaylah knew that if she had had to witness Wolf's brutalization while he'd been a captive in Ossuary, it would have incapacitated her, destroyed her. Brielle had given up her life so that Wolf would be strong enough to lead his people against the terror that had destroyed their world, It was an act of courage and sacrifice almost beyond Shaylah's comprehension, and she doubted if she would have had the fortitude for it. Or the nerve to do what Wolf had done. Perhaps, she thought dully, there really was something to the notion of royal blood.

She didn't know how much time had passed when at last they came for her. She had heard shouts of triumph, of joy, of welcome echoing down the tunnel, and gathered that, ragtag band or not, the Triotians were throwing quite a party for their prodigal prince. It was just beginning to quiet down when the larger of the two who had put her into the tiny cell arrived. He unlocked the small cage door and yanked her out.

"You will come with me," he said coldly, clearly still wishing to eliminate the problem of her existence in his own way. "The prince has sent for you."

Shaylah winced at the painful grip on her arm. She wondered if she was about to take the brunt of Trios's vengeance against the Coalition. Would he really do it? Would Wolf throw her to them, perhaps as a welcome-home present of his own? She couldn't believe it, yet how could she think she knew this man when he had kept this secret from her?

The big man grinned at her, an evil, leering grin that told her more than words could how much enjoyment he was getting out of her alarm. Shaylah stiffened her spine. Her chin came up. Regardless of her status in the Coalition at the moment of her position as a prisoner here, she was Shaylah Graymist, of the Graymists of Arellia, and she would not show fear to bullies.

"If your beloved prince wishes to see me, then he can come here, where he can see what accommodations you provide for his guests."

The big man's hand moved swiftly. Shaylah's ears rang, and her head reeled with the force of the slap he administered.

"You are insolent! No one speaks of Prince Darian in that tone! And you are not a guest," he added with a sneer. "You are a prisoner of the Triotian army."

"Army? Is that what you call this group of brigands?"

She tried to dodge him this time, but the back of his hand caught her full across the mouth. Pain lanced through her face. She felt her lower lip split, then felt the trickle of blood.

"You will obey," he warned. Then came the leering grin again. "We have few women here. And they are Triotian women, deserving of respect. I'm sure the prince will wish you to service him before he executes you."

Those words echoed again and again in her spinning brain. She was still a little dizzy when he began to drag her down the tunnel. She vaguely noticed that there were many small rooms carved out of the side walls, apparently serving as lodging for the group. Some held merely bedding, some makeshift furniture.

When they reached the main room, Shaylah saw that it was nearly empty now. But those who were there stopped in their tracks to watch the guard haul her past; their stares were cold and suspicious. Despite her pain, she forced herself to hold her head up and return their stares levelly.

They started down another corridor, this one larger. The quarters here were larger, too, actually separate rooms, many with doors. When they came to a halt before a door at the end of that long tunnel, Shaylah could hear voices from the other side, voices that stopped when the guard knocked. Glendar, she thought. And, of course, Wolf.

At least, she thought it had been Wolf. When the guard opened the door at the command from inside and she got her first look into the well-lit interior of the surprisingly large chamber, she wasn't sure anymore.

She barely spared a glance for Glendar. She was staring at the man who turned to look as the door swung open. A tall, strong man, clad in black leggings and shirt that set off his coloring and made the blond mane of hair look like spun gold. The clothing was adorned with intricate stitching in metallic gold thread, a precise reproduction of the royal crest of Trios, repeated countless times down the long sleeves of the open-throated shirt and the side of the leggings down to where they disappeared into soft yet sturdy black knee-high boots. He looked, Shaylah thought, more stunned by his appearance than by the guard's blow that had split her lip, like the royalty he was.

The big guard planted a hand in the middle of her back and gave her a rough shove. She stumbled into the room, but recovered herself quickly, in time to see Wolf stiffen, then turn and stride across the room. His gaze was fastened on the guard, who took a step back long before Wolf even got close.

Wolf's long stride faltered, then changed direction in the instant after he glanced at her. He came to a halt in front of her and lifted a hand to her chin. With a firm yet exquisitely gentle touch he tilted her head.

His eyes widened, then narrowed as he stared at her bruised, bloody face. He spun around on one booted heel, his fists clenched as he glared at the guard.

"Who did this?".

"I…" The big man gulped. "She refused to come, my lord. She spoke of you impertinently. I-"

"So you struck her? A woman half your size?"

"She's a prisoner," he protested.

"And what makes you think that?" Wolf's voice was dangerously casual.

The big man stared at Wolf. Shaylah watched, fascinated; he looked like nothing more than a delinquent son called to task before a stern patriarch.

"I… She's a Coalition officer…"

"She is also," Wolf said in cool, measured tones, "the sole reason I am alive. She is a guest, not a prisoner. But even if she were, that kind of treatment would not be tolerated. I will not have Trios become no better than her enemies."

The man flushed. "I only meant to hurry her, but she refused to leave the cage."

"Cage?"

The man's color deepened; he obviously regretted his words. "I… It's where we keep…"

"It is our only means of securing prisoners, Dare." It was the first time Glendar had spoken, and his tone was mildly rebuking. "She is in Coalition uniform. Renclan had no way of knowing the woman was… not a prisoner."

Shaylah saw his jaw tighten, then relax. "Very well. But mind this, Renclan. In the future, we shall treat prisoners as we would wish our own to be treated. That they are not is irrelevant. We will not sink to the level of our enemies. If we ever wish to regain our world, we must live by the rules that governed it so well for so long."

"Yes, my lord," the man said humbly.

Spoken like a true prince, Shaylah thought, staring at Wolf as if she'd never seen him before. His gaze flicked to her, and she saw that muscle along his jaw pump as his eyes fastened on her bruised cheek and swollen, bloody mouth. He looked back at the guard.

"And be sure the others know," he ground out, "that she is to be treated as you would treat any other that had saved my life and brought me home. You may go now."

The man scuttled hastily out the door, shutting it behind- him. Shaylah saw Glendar looking from Wolf to her and back, rubbing one weathered hand at his silver-bearded jaw. Then she had eyes only for Wolf as he took her elbow and led her across the chamber to a large bed, piled high with pillows and covered with a sumptuous quilt of a fabric she'd never seen, but recognized as the wondrous velvet her mother had spoken of long ago. Not everything in the royal family place had been destroyed, it seemed.

"Sit," Wolf ordered gently. "You need tending."

"I am fine," she said stiffly, though she wanted nothing more than to do as he ordered. She thought again of his once likening himself to a child ordered to take what he already wanted;

she'd never understood the feeling so clearly as she did now.

He had been obviously upset by her injuries, but his words to the guard made Shaylah wonder about the reason; was it because she was hurt or because of the actions of one of his men? She was afraid she knew the answer.

"You should lie down. You are bleeding," he said when she still refused even to sit.

"It is less than a Coalition prisoner would suffer, And much less than a Coalition slave, as you very well know."

Wolf glanced quickly at Glendar. The old man had gone pale. "Glendar-"

"Is it true?"

"It is over, Glendar. It does not matter."

"My God, that they dared to-" The man crossed to Wolf and grabbed his shoulders. "What did they do to you? You must tell me!"

"So you can be eaten up with hatred and the need for vengeance? Not a pretty gift for an old, old friend."

"I am your only surviving relative, Dare. By adoption, it is true, but nevertheless-"

"You know that means nothing to me. You are uncle to me just as you were brother to my father."

"Then do not keep me in the dark."

"Do you want the whole ugly story of my degradation?" Wolf snapped. Then he sighed, lifting one hand to place it on the older man's arm comfortingly. "Glendar, I was a collared slave for five years. It was… ugly, brutal, and degrading. It is something I will never forget, but not something I wish to discuss."

Glendar paled even more. "A… collared slave?"

"Yes." His hand went reflexively to his throat. "And were it not for Captain Graymist, I would be still wearing the badge of Coalition property. Or I would be dead, my body probably still rotting in a cell at Ossuary."

Glendar gasped at the dreaded name and turned to stare at Shaylah. He studied her for a long moment. Shaylah returned his gaze steadily, her back still stiff, her head still high.

"It seems," the older man said at last, "that I am in very great debt to you, for the life of this reprobate youngster."

"You owe me nothing, sir." Shaylah told herself she added the appellation out of respect for his age, not because she was grateful there was still someone Wolf loved, and whom he would allow to love him back. "Nor does… your prince. What I did, I did of my own will. Except," she said wryly, glancing at Wolf, "to bring him here to what I thought was certain death."

"I can see that Dare has gained great wisdom during his ordeal," Glendar said, rubbing at his bearded chin once more. "But there are those who will say their prince is soft, that he has been broken by the Coalition," the older man said thoughtfully. "What say you, Captain?"

Shaylah shrugged. "I say that there are fools among every people."

Unexpectedly, Glendar laughed. His eyes, yet another shade of Triotian green, this time the deeper green of the odd, needle-shaped leaves of the trees she'd marveled at-had it only been this morning?-glittered with amusement.

"I see," he said, and Shaylah had the oddest feeling that he indeed saw much more than she had intended.

"I will speak with you later, Glendar," Wolf said, as if made uneasy by this exchange. "Please, leave us now."

The older man hesitated, looking at Wolf as if loath to let him out of his sight. But at last he nodded. "Later, then."

When he had gone, Wolf turned to Shaylah "Now will you lie down?"

"Is that an order… Your Highness?"

Wolf sighed. "No. Stand until you fall over, then."

"Very well."

He tried again. "I am sorry about Renclan. He will be disciplined."

She shrugged. "He is your minion. Do with him as you wish, but not on my account."

Wolf let out an exasperated breath. "He struck you."

"He thought it appropriate. How was he to know his newly returned prince thought differently about the treatment of prisoners?"

"You're not a prisoner," Wolf grated out.

"So you've said… my lord."

He let out another compressed breath at her last words. "Stop that."

"What?"

"I am the same man I was when you called me Wolf."

"No," Shaylah said, shaking her head. "You are not. You are every inch the prince now."

Wolf smiled wryly. "Then why can't I get you to lie down on that bed?"

Shaylah stiffened. "Is that… what you wish?"

"I told you-" He stopped, his eyes narrowing. "What do you mean?"

"I was told that you would… wish me to service you before…"

"Serv- " He broke off swearing sharply. "Is that why you refused to come? To leave that… cage?"

Shaylah shrugged. "Which did you prefer, slave? Your own cage or being ordered to someone's bed?" He drew back sharply. "That's what I thought." Then she shrugged again. "But it might be interesting. I suppose not many women can claim to have mated with both a slave and a prince."

"Interesting?" Wolf's voice had taken or tnat dangerous calm again. "Is that what you call it, Captain? Is that your word for what happens between us? For how we go up in flames the moment we touch? For. what we did in the observation port, when you rode me as if I were an Arellian steed?"

His words set off an explosion within her and left her so thoroughly aroused she shook with it. He Was advancing on her, and Shaylah shook again at the quick, flashing glint in his eyes, and at the memory of those frenzied moments he spoke of.

"You had another word for it aboard the Sunbird," he said softly. "You called it love."

She rued those words as she did no others. Desperate, knowing that if he touched her she would be lost, she summoned up a retort; she could not lose herself again to the man who just might be planning her execution.

"You were Wolf then. Not… Prince Dare."

"I'm Wolf now. A part of me always will be."

For you. Shaylah gasped. She knew he hadn't said the words, but they echoed in her head as strongly as if he had. And then all words vanished, along with her will, as he grabbed her fiercely, possessively.

Shaylah had thought nothing could ever surpass the wildness they had found together on the Sunbird. She knew in the first instant she was wrong. This was more than wild, it was a savage, driving thing that swept them both along with a power and strength that surpassed their own combined. The only trace of control was in the gentleness of his lips against the swollen side of her mouth.

They went down to the bed together, clawing at each other's clothing, pushing aside then tearing away interfering cloth. Shaylah's need for his nakedness beneath her hands seemed matched by his need for hers, and his groan met her sigh of pleasure when she at last had nothing but golden skin to caress.

He was everywhere, stroking her with hands and mouth and body, and she was panting, gasping out his name, begging him to take her long before he finally did. It was fast and hot and hard, unlike anything she'd known, even with him. She knew it was only for the moment, that when it was over she would have to face the fact that he had no need or desire for her beyond this, but for now the hungry male flesh thrusting into her was enough, because it was Wolf. For now, at least, he wanted her.

He drove deep one last time, shuddering violently as he growled out his pleasure. His guttural cry sent her over the precipice. She clung to him, riding out the surging convulsion of her body, aware that the cries of pleasure she heard were her own, but only caring she would have one more precious memory to keep safely stored against the time when she would lose him. If he let her live to remember.

It was a long time before he moved, sliding off of her and pulling up a pillow to cushion his head. "Interesting?" he asked, one brow lifted.

"Very," Shaylah murmured.

Reality came flooding back, and she felt the pressure of it crushing the lingering sweetness of the pleasure he'd given her. It wound tightly inside her, until she couldn't look at him. She struggled to regain her composure, to reestablish the distance between them that enabled her to survive the knowledge that her love was not returned. When he reached out to lift her chin to make her face him, she lowered her eyes.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"I know you were… satisfied, Shaylah." He smiled, a smile she'd never seen before, a smile of infinite masculine confidence. "I felt it."

She shrugged; she was growing fond of the gesture. "Then why ask, my lord?"

"Damn," he muttered. "You are the most obstinate, contrary, prickly woman-"

He stopped suddenly as the word he'd used registered. His eyes widened as he stared at her. "My God," he said. "Is this what I was like?"

Shaylah shrugged once more. "You were much better at it. But with every right. I find I understand it better now… my lord."

His mouth twisted ruefully at the repeated designation. "I think I know now why my calling you Captain all the time irritated you."

Again she shrugged. And again his mouth twisted, as if he knew perfectly well where she had picked up the habit.

"Does it make you so very angry that I didn't…tell you?"

She thought about that for a moment. "No. I can see that you couldn't risk it becoming known at the Club. Or even Califa's. If word got out that you were… who you are…"

He nodded. "I believe that's why Corling didn't order me killed."

Shaylah blinked. "General Corling?"

Wolf's gaze hardened. "Yes. He ordered me collared personally and watched with great enjoyment. He liked the thought of the prince of Trios in the worst kind of slavery. Anyone else he would have sent to the labor camp. Or executed."

Shaylah stiffened at the word, her doubts returning with the reminder. Surely he wouldn't, not after… this. And she had, in fact, saved his life. But she was still a Coalition officer, and the Coalition had nearly wiped out his entire race. Would it not be the sweetest of revenges to remind her what a fool she was, then make her pay the full, ultimate price for it?

Beside her, Wolf sighed. "What's wrong now?" "Shall I dress?" she asked carefully. "Why?" Wolf drawled, running a hand over her hip in a caress that made her shiver. Even now, she thought in amazement, while she was wondering if he intended to murder her, he could make her want him again.

"I've… fulfilled the first part of what I was told you would want-"

"Shaylah," he interrupted warningly.

"-I understand the next step is my execution."

He swore, short, sharp, and crude. "Renclan. That's where you're getting this, isn't it?"

"Does this mean you've changed your mind?" "I never made it up to that," he spat out, "and you know it. Or you should, damn it."

"How could I? All I knew was that you hated me for-" she glanced around the chamber, "keeping knowledge of this from you."

His expression softened. "I talked to Glendar, Shaylah. He told me what it was like here. What it's been like for the last five years. You had every reason to believe it would be a death trap." He let out a breath. "I still wish I had known that some had survived… but you were right. If I had, it would have been worse, knowing I could do nothing."

Shaylah didn't know if he had truly forgiven her or if he was just so glad to be home that it didn't matter to him anymore. He stretched, his lean, naked body beautiful and gleaming gold against the lustrous, soft black cloth. Shaylah felt heat spiral up inside her as she watched taut muscle ripple beneath golden skin. She fought it down. She wasn't about to humiliate herself once more by admitting that she wanted him again already. He had said nothing about the two of them, or their future, or even acknowledged that there was a "them." In fact, she thought grimly, he'd done little but tell her that he wasn't going to have her executed.

It sounded absurd even as she thought it. Her mind was still having difficulty with the transition from Wolf, the slave, to Dare, the prince, with the power and authority to do just that.

Yet there was no doubt in her mind that it was true; he looked at home amid all the rich trappings. Glancing around, she saw the gleam of gold, the soft sheen of hand-stitched tapestries, and the glitter of crystal. On one wall of the chamber hung a painting-an actual oil painting, she realized in amazement-draped in black cloth. It was of the old king. Wolf's father. Whose body had been the last thing Wolf had seen as they dragged him away in chains… She looked away.

"How did these things get here?" she asked at last, running a hand over the soft nap of the cloth beneath her, noticing with interest how the shading changed as her finger trailed over it.

He'd been staring at the movements of her hand, and it took him a moment to answer. "Glendar." He shrugged, as if embarrassed. "I don't know how he did it. He set this room up as sort of a… shrine, I guess. No one's ever used it."

"But the royal son is home now," she said softly, changing the direction of her fingers, watching the darker trail left in the soft nap. "What will you do now?"

"Go mad," he said, a little thickly, "if you don't stop petting that velvet." She froze. He reached over and took her hand, lifted it, and placed it on his belly. "Pet me instead," he suggested, his voice husky.

She realized then that he was already half aroused, and felt a little thrill as he began to grow harder the moment her fingers touched his skin. It was much later before she again voiced her question.

"What will you do now?"

Wolf yawned. "I have ordered a briefing for this afternoon. Glendar has several small patrols out, due back by then. I must know where we stand, our strength and equipment. Glendar is conducting an inventory now." He looked at her with an oddly intent expression. "It will be an ugly fight, Shaylah. Even if the Coalition were to pull out tomorrow, it would be decades before life here was anything but hard and brutal."

She had the feeling he was telling her, specifically her, something important, but the weariness that was evident in him as he yawned again stopped her from asking.

"Now," he said, "I think we could both use some sleep."

Shaylah would have sworn that, despite her sated body, she had far too much on her mind to sleep, but found the warmth of Wolf's body beside her lulling. She fell asleep while dwelling on the absurdity of the fact that she was sleeping with a prince.

* * *

The days after that settled into a sort of routine that Shaylah found amazing considering the circumstances. They were in the center, the hub of a rebellion, and yet each day seemed much like another. Wolf spent the mornings assessing the resources and looking at what had been done so far. In the afternoon he talked to the people, quizzing them on where they had escaped from and what had been still standing when they had left; he was, as any leader must, planning for the future as if he were certain they would have one.

He sent out scouts to gather all the grim information possible on what was left of Trios's infrastructure. It had once been a marvel of technology mixed with tradition; it was all in ruins now. Gradually he put together a map that was as precise and accurate as he could make it, based on the gathered data.

Shaylah was banned from the council room, although Wolf told her-surprisingly, she thought-it was for the peace of mind of his aides, not himself. And at night, sometimes late, sometimes not until the hours just before dawning, but always, he came to her. It was those nights that gave her hope, a foolish hope that always evaporated in the first light of day.

Most of the inhabitants of the caves treated Shaylah with careful politeness. She knew some watched her with suspicion; a Coalition officer was a Coalition officer, no matter that she was under the protection of their prince. And in his bed, she thought with a pang; that was hardly a secret. That it was only temporary seemed obvious as well, as Renclan took pains to point out to her.

"If you think to replace Princess Brielle, think again. She was Triotian, and she will always be the true princess. No one will accept an outworlder, especially Darian, even if, for now, he lets you share his bed."

She supposed some thought less of their prince for consorting with her when in their eyes he was bonded to the dead Brielle, but not for anything would she give up those nights when he would come to her weary from a day of frustrations and seek solace in her arms. In the sweet, quiet aftermath he would talk to her, telling her more than she expected, but less than she wanted to know. Then she didn't care what the wary ones thought.

But others, few at first, but more as they became used to her presence, approached her with quiet thanks for the life of their beloved Dare. And he was beloved by them, Shaylah realized. She was learning that the old king had been much more than an absolute monarch. He had had great love and respect for his people and for the wisdom found among them. He had curried it, catered to it, until all people of intelligence on Trios knew they had a chance to achieve whatever they wished in their world. And those of lesser intelligence lived happily, knowing that they would be treated fairly and could make the most of what they had. And the old king had taught his son well.

She liked the Triotians, she realized one morning with a little shock. She had awakened alone in the big bed; Wolf-Dare, she corrected herself, thinking it was time she should-had again slipped quietly out without waking her. She had missed him, as she always did, yet found herself looking forward to rising anyway.

In the mornings she had taken to visiting Lisaire, the plump, gray-haired woman who was guardian of what vestiges of Triotian history and culture the rebels had managed to save, and she looked forward to learning even more of the world that had been Wolf's-Dare's-and that had been so beloved by her parents. Lisaire was favorably inclined toward anyone with an interest in her precious artifacts, and welcomed her.

This morning, Shaylah startled the woman by telling the story of her parents' courtship and their bonding here on Trios.

"Twenty- eight years ago? In the shrine at Triotia?" she asked with raised brows.

"Yes. And I was conceived in the guest lodge there two years later."

The woman turned away and began to dig through the stack of books Shaylah had noticed before. She'd never seen so many of the ancient things before, even in her mother's extensive collection. Now Lisaire withdrew one, paged through it for a moment, then stopped, a smile spreading across her round face. She reversed the book in her hands and held it out.

"Here, child."

Shaylah leaned over, looking to the line Lisaire was pointing at. Her breath caught in her throat, and her eyes stung with the beginning of tears;

there, in her father's bold scrawl and her mother's delicate filigree hand, was the chronicle of their bonding.

It took her a while to make the connection between that moment and the change that occurred afterward. The remaining suspicion seemed to fade, and the Triotians treated her with a kindness bordering on respect and stopped freezing all conversation whenever she came into a room.

She made a few friends: Cyrian, the man who ran the kitchen with a quiet efficiency she admired and told her bluntly but with a smile to never plan on making her living as a cook; Alcaron, the slim, attractive young woman who provided her with a few changes of clothing, managing a smile as she patted a belly swollen with a child who would never know his father, killed in one of the first rebel raids; and even the boy Pavel, who was won over when she gravely complimented him on his prowess as a scout.

But it wasn't until one tall, imposing older man approached her, saying rather gruffly that he knew her father, liked and respected him, and had indeed been present at the bonding ceremony, did she realize what had turned the tide; Lisaire had apparently wasted no time in spreading Shaylah's story.

The tall man, who introduced himself as Freylan, was clearly saddened by the news of her father's death.

"I think he was glad to go," Shaylah said softly. "My mother's passing took the heart out of him, and… I think what happened here took the spirit."

"He was a good man, and true. He should have been a Triotian."

She already knew that as praise of the highest order, and her throat was tight as she answered. "I think he thought of himself as more Triotian than Arellian."

Regardless of the new welcome offered her, Shaylah was restless. She was not used to doing nothing, and the mornings spent in study with Lisaire were not filling the needs of a mind trained to quick thinking and challenging decisions. She wandered toward the council room, wondering if her new acceptance would extend this far.

They didn't notice her at first-not surprising, she thought, the way they were shouting. She stopped just inside the entrance, listening.

"We must take action!"

"How long are we going to just sit here?"

"You say wait, my lord, but for what?"

"Yes, for what? We have left them in peace too long!"

It was all directed at Dare, and she began to see that there were some drawbacks to this method of ruling; it would be easier to just order them to do as he said. But it was not his way, not the way of Trios, and she knew he would not do it. He had, he'd told her one night, been too long without choices to take them from someone else. No wonder he was looking so utterly tired lately, she thought.

"We will move," he said, "when we can be sure of maximum effect with the least damage."

"But we have given them time to amass, to prepare," one of the men protested.

"Yes," put in a short, stocky woman across the table, "and even now you know they are searching for us."

Dare nodded. "Then they will be in our territory and will have to fight on our terms."

"Unless they just decide to blow the mountain to Hades."

"I think not. We are too close to their precious mine here."

The first man swore vividly. "It's that snake Corling," he muttered. "He's as evil as they come."

"He's a snake, all right," Glendar put in. "It is too bad that we can't just chop off his head."

"Yes," another of the group said fervently. "That would make them think twice."

"It would," Dare acknowledged, "make them drop back to regroup. He is the commander of all the Coalition forces in this sector. But it's futile to dwell on it. We can't get to him."

Shaylah stepped forward at last. All heads snapped toward her, staring. She took a deep breath. Then spoke.

"I can," she said.

Chapter 14

"What?"

"It's an old Triotian legend," Shaylah explained to the group still gaping at her. It had taken a few moments for them to accept her presence, until Glendar asked pointedly who knew better how to deal with the Coalition than one of its own? There had been doubts, with Renclan the most vocal.

"If she will betray the Coalition, what makes you think she won't betray us as easily?"

They had turned to their prince for the answer to that. He stood silently for a long moment, studying Shaylah through eyes dry with fatigue. "I think," he said, "her allegiance to the Coalition was given up long ago. And it was not done easily, was it, Shaylah?"

It was the first time he'd used her name before them, and his tone was so gentle she had to bite back a sob. She lowered her eyes. "No," she whispered. "It was not."

"What old legend?" Glendar repeated now, looking at her with interest. She turned to face him and the others,

"Of an ancient battle, a siege of an impregnable fortress. The army outside had fought for weeks, with no advance. At last they built a huge mobile structure, a statue of some kind-the archives don't say what-and presented it as if it were a tribute. The men of the fortress were curious and opened the gates to take it in." She shrugged. "The army's best men were inside it, and the battle was won."

"That's fine," Renclan said sourly, "but we have no such mobile structure to send to Corling's ship."

Shaylah took a deep breath. "No. But I do."

She heard Wolf-Dare-make a sound, and at last she turned to look at him.

"The Sunbird?" His voice was low. She nodded. His green eyes were fastened on her intently. "I would not ask it of you, Shaylah."

"You did not. I offered her."

"The Sunbird," Glendar said, "is your ship?"

Shaylah looked at the older man and nodded again. "A starfighter of the Rigel class. Her weapons are damaged, but she is otherwise intact. If," she said dryly, "we can get her out of that canyon your prince parked her in."

"I can get her out," Dare said. "I've taken bigger ships than the Sunbird in and out of there."

"It might work," Glendar said, wonder in his voice. "It just might work."

"Yes," Dare agreed. "It is simple, yet brilliant. Congratulations, Shaylah. Just where did you learn of this legend that so many of even our own know nothing of?"

"Your own," she said wryly, "spend too much time plotting vengeance and impossible battles instead of remembering the treasures of this world that has given so much to all other worlds."

Dare blinked. The others gasped at her impertinence to their monarch. Only Glendar smiled. And then, suddenly, Dare laughed, for an instant wiping the exhaustion from his face. "I stand educated," he said ruefully, "and justly so. What good is the battle if we forget why we are fighting?"

The room buzzed with voices as they began to plan. No one asked her to leave, so she stayed, nursing the warmth of their approval. She felt no guilt at her action. Dare had been right; she had surrendered her fealty to the Coalition long ago, when she had at last seen it for what it was.

Their discussion of weapons brought back a memory. "What of the fusion cannon?" she asked.

Dare lifted his head, raising his gaze from the map on the table to her face. "The what?"

"When I was… recalled here, they said the rebels- They said you had somehow gotten a fusion cannon."

Dare's brows lifted. He looked at Glendar. The older man spoke hastily. "We don't really have one." He smiled. "But it's nice to know they thought we did. That means it worked."

"What worked?" Shaylah asked, forehead creasing. "I saw the readouts, and the disturbance in the energy field was the exact type and frequency caused by a fusion cannon."

"And that's all it was." Glendar shrugged. "A disturbance in the energy field." His gaze went to Dare's face. "Remember old Paraclon and his experiments?"

Dare grinned. "I remember that they never worked."

"Well, this one didn't, either. At least, not the way he wanted. He was trying to build an anti-gravity lift that could convert directly to horizontal energy."

"An airspeeder with no power source necessary?"

Glendar nodded, smiling. "You always were quick, boy. Anyway, as usual, it didn't work, but it did have one interesting side effect."

"Let me guess," Shaylah said, amazement widening her eyes. "It produced a ripple in the energy field that reads like a fusion cannon."

"Exactly," Glendar said, for some reason looking as pleased with her as he had with Dare.

"My God," Shaylah murmured, unconsciously adopting the now familiar words native to Trios.

Dare wore an odd expression, his eyes gone vaguely distant, as if he were deep in thought.

"What is it?" Glendar asked. "I recognize that look, Dare. You're up to something."

"I wonder," Dare answered slowly, "is this thing of Paraclon's transportable?"

Glendar looked puzzled, but nodded. "It's up in one of the side caves a few miles from here. We didn't want it too close, in case they were able to pinpoint the source of the ripple. It's not that big at all. Two men could carry it easily. Why?"

"If you could move it around fast enough… and activate it from many different places, just long enough for it to register…"

Shaylah guessed his plan immediately and let out a low, compressed breath. "They'd think you had a squad of them," she said, staring at Dare. Pride filled her. Her idea had been merely borrowed; his had come from the quick and agile mind she'd always known he possessed.

"But we have no transport of that kind," said the stocky woman who had been silently listening.

"Perhaps we do," Dare said, looking at Shaylah.

It took her a moment. "The small shuttle," she breathed. "It's quick and maneuverable… You could take it anywhere."

"Ingenious," Glendar crowed in triumph. "We'll have them so busy chasing phantom cannons, they won't know what to do!"

"More important," Dare said, "they won't pay as much attention to the arrival of an unexpected Coalition vessel."

He bent over the map, along with Glendar, to begin planning the stops for the shuttle.

"Wolf?" The name she held in her heart slipped out despite her resolution to change. The others looked at her oddly, then with surprise as Dare answered without lifting his head.

"What?"

"You will need two pilots,".she said. ·

"Yes," he said absently, still intent on the map.

"They will do a voice print before they will let the Sunbird into the Darkstar's docking bay. I will have to be aboard her."

He still didn't look up. "I assumed as much."

"The shuttle has… some eccentricities. I will need to teach whoever is to fly it."

His head came up then. "What makes you think I won't fly it myself?"

Shaylah stared at him. "But… that would leave the Sunbird to me."

"Are you saying I cannot trust you, Shaylah?"

She colored fiercely. "I know you can. I did not think you knew it."

Something soft, warm, and wonderfully intimate came into his eyes then. "I know it," he said quietly. "But I will be with you, nevertheless. I will take that much satisfaction for myself, to meet face-to-face the man who destroyed my life and my world. Glendar can fly the shuttle, can't you, Uncle? I will allow time for some instruction."

The older man sniffed. "I've not forgotten everything, you know. Of course I can." He cast Shaylah a smile. "With your assistance, Cap- Shaylah. If I may call you that?"

"Of course," she said instantly. She had come to like this man, for his own sake as well as his love for Dare. And his words were a passage of sorts for her, the official abandonment of her rank. It hurt-not the loss of the title, but the acknowledgment that a great part of her life had been not the glorious adventure she'd thought it, but years spent in support of an evil sham.

The planning went on into the night. Unlike the commanders of the Coalition, Dare solicited the suggestions of his people and deferred to a better idea when it was raised. He detailed the timing down to milliseconds, knowing that it was essential.

"They must be so wrapped up in tracking down the source of the fusion reading that they aren't as security conscious aboard the flagship, yet we must not delay too long or they might find the shuttle and discover the trap."

At last the mission was set, and Dare ordered all those involved to their quarters for rest. It would begin in the darkness after midnight, giving another slight advantage to the Triotians, who knew the terrain so well.

"You are quiet," Dare remarked to Shaylah as they retired to the chamber Glendar had set up as a shrine, never thinking the rightful occupant would inhabit it.

She shrugged. "I always am, before a mission." She did not want him to know what was truly on her mind: the grim knowledge that the end was rapidly approaching. No matter what happened. The possibility that they would be killed was very real; there was no guarantee that the ruse would work. And if they were captured, her fate would be the same; she would be put to death for treason. Even if they succeeded, if by some miracle this ragged little band could take on the Coalition and win, her time with Dare was ticking away.

She knew he had nothing more to offer her than what they had now; as Renclan had said, Brielle had been his choice. And she knew as well that she could not settle for this even if he asked; knowing she only had a small part of him, that she was forever his second choice, would drain the life out of her as surely as a direct hit to the heart.

When he slid into bed beside her and pulled her to him, she turned, as always, to begin the slow, sweet stroking that aroused him and so pleased her, her fingers tingling as they touched him. But this time he stilled her hands.

"I am sorry, Shaylah," he said, the weariness she'd seen in his face echoing in his voice. "I don't think I can." She stiffened. "I don't think I've ever been so tired."

Her heart seemed to melt and run warm and liquid inside her, spreading the ache of compassion until she nearly cried at the force of it. She had wanted him, on this night that could be their last, but nothing mattered now except lightening the burden he carried.

She slipped her arms around him and cradled his head against her shoulder. The thick mane of his hair slid over her breasts, teasing her sensitive nipples. She moved one hand to gently stroke the thick, heavy silk of it, savoring the feel of it as it slid over her fingers.

"They all lean on you so much," she said softly.

"They have a right," he told her, stifling a yawn. "They have given my family the gift of power and authority for generations. It is little enough that in return I should carry as much of the burden as I can."

"But you've carried so much already." She pressed a kiss against his hair. "And I can't help but wonder how they survived when they thought you dead."

"Glendar held them together. He's a tough old man."

Shaylah smiled. "I quite like him."

"The feeling is mutual. He likes you, too." He must have felt her start of surprise, for he added, through another yawn, "Called you a woman of rare intelligence and courage, and he is not a man to hand out praise lightly. Believe me, I know. I tried hard enough to earn it from him as a boy."

She told him then of the cinefilm she'd seen as a child. He chuckled ruefully. "You're right. It was the last place I wanted to be, and all dressed up in that royal garb. I had just gotten my first airspeeder, and… well, you can guess the rest."

He yawned again, and Shaylah resumed her stroking of his hair. It always seemed to relax him, and tonight was no different; he soon slipped into sleep. She was glad that she had held back all the questions burning within her, questions of the future. If they died tomorrow, then at least she could die without having forced him to tell her the truth. She could die believing there had been a chance for them. And if it was a coward's approach, she no longer cared.

In the still of the night she dreamed, as usual, of Dare turning to her, caressing her first with those strong, gentle hands, then the fiery heat of his mouth. She moaned softly in her sleep, twisting as the heat built in her, even dreaming that she spread her legs for him, urging him to join them this one last time.

"Wake up, Shaylah."

His voice came hot and thick in her ear, and she raised eyelids heavy with sleep and passion. In the instant her eyes met his and focused, he slid his swollen manhood into her to the hilt.

Shaylah gasped out his name in sudden, fierce delight. She clutched at him, her fingers digging into the taut curve of his buttocks as she held him to her. Her legs came up, clamping around his narrow hips, as if she wanted to hold him within her forever. He urged her on with hot, deep strokes, grinding his hips against her as if he thought to climb inside her.

There was something different this time, in his urgency, in the soft, sweet words he whispered to her. And when it ended, in a firestorm of heat and light, and he collapsed atop her with a low moan of her name, she knew what it was. When at last he lifted his head to look at her, he didn't deny the knowledge he saw in her eyes.

"I know," he said softly. "I wanted it, too… just in case."

Before she could speak, before she could give in to the urge to once more declare her love, Glendar's voice came through the closed door, telling them it was time.

* * *

Shaylah was grateful for the task of flying; it distracted her from the incredible vision that stood beside her.

It had been a long trip back to the Sunbird, although it seemed shorter than the trip to the caves had been. She had given Glendar a quick course in the foibles of the small shuttle; he had been quick to understand. She had wished him a sincere good luck, and he had returned the sentiment. Then, unexpectedly, he had taken her hand in his.

"Whatever may happen," he said solemnly. "I am thankful you are with him. You will keep him from being too rash."

"And how am I to accomplish that?" she had muttered as the older man walked toward the shuttle to begin his mission.

They had waited then, the ten hand-picked men who accompanied them looking over the Sunbird with a sort of awe, and at her with a new respect. Dare, having taken the rather mysterious package he'd brought along to her quarters, had paced the conroom as the minutes on his timetable ticked by.

The time came. Dare picked up the communicator he'd brought-one of those taken from the raided station she'd heard about on the Darkstar, Shaylah guessed-and had called Glendar. The older man had answered, rather gleefully, that all was well.

"They should be going just about crazy by now."

"Then it begins," Dare shut off the communicator and ordered his men to secure themselves for takeoff.

He had been true to his word and lifted the Sunbird out of the chasm as easily as if she were half her actual size. Once clear of the mountains, he put her at full thrust to get quickly out of range of the Coalition scanners, which were, he hoped, already occupied with Glendar's diversion. When they were out of local airspace, he had turned the con back to Shaylah, telling her to set her own course to intercept the Darkstar and handle the approach as she would any other time. Then he had disappeared until just a few moments ago.

Shaylah slid him another sideways glance now; she still couldn't believe it. He caught her look and grimaced.

"It was Glendar's idea," he said ruefully. "He thought I should… look the part."

"Well, you certainly do." She looked him up and down. He wore the black boots, pants, and shirt, with the emblems of his nobility gleaming golden against the dark cloth. At his lean waist was a heavy belt, with a gold buckle that repeated the emblem. Suspended from it, at his left side, was a golden ceremonial sword with a jewel-encrusted hilt. An heirloom of the royal family handed down for centuries, he explained.

But for Shaylah, the crowning touch was the rich, full sweep of the cape that swung from his shoulders, softly sumptuous in black velvet lined with some matching polished cloth and trimmed as well with the golden royal crest. It fell nearly to his heels, making him look even bigger, stronger, and undeniably regal. He might joke, she thought, but he did look every bit the part. She had to drag her eyes away from the imposing sight and turn her attention back to the con.

"It must be working," she said after a moment. "They should have challenged us by now."

"Stay on course."

She nodded. "I'll come in fast, as if it's urgent."

She had already told him her ruse would be a pressing message for General Corling. Since the Coalition often wanted no official record of its most outrageous orders-trying to maintain the illusion of its glory, she supposed-a message by personal courier wasn't unfeasible. She hoped her reputation-which had little time left- would decide them.

They were well within firing range when at last the general's flagship hailed them; the Sunbird could have blasted him out of the sky, if that had been their wish. And been flamed in return, she thought, all too aware of the squadron of vessels that always accompanied the general.

In the end, the docking went so smoothly Shaylah almost forgot to remind the men to stay put until she signaled them on the communicator. She had drawn a rough sketch of the Dark-star, labeling the general's grand quarters, where he would be awaiting this urgent message.

She nearly forgot how to breathe when she stepped out of the Sunbird to find the general- and his retinue-barely ten feet away. Damn, why did the man have to vary his routine this time? She sucked in a breath, then hailed him loudly, making sure her voice carried back to the ship.

"I'm on my way to Legion Command, Captain, so make it quick. What is this all about?"

Shaylah's mind raced. "I'm afraid it is for your ears only, sir." The respectful tone nearly choked her, but she got it out.

"Really, Captain-"

"I'm sorry, sir. Legion Command was quite adamant."

A gleam came into the man's dark, malicious eyes. "Have they finally realized that I'm right? That the only way to end this farce is to blow this place to Hades?"

Nausea churned in her; she managed to turn it into a half smile that she hoped would make him think he was right. "I'm afraid I can't say, sir." She looked pointedly at the group of armed men behind the general. "The message was to be delivered only to you." She gestured at the Sunbird, toward the blackened scar of the damaged hull. "As you can see, I was ordered not to stop even for repairs."

"Oh, very well." He turned to the men. "Go. I will send for you when I'm finished here." They seemed reluctant to leave, but slowly shuffled out.

"If you like, sir," Shaylah said politely, "you may view the message aboard the Sunbird. It would save you time."

"Hmph. I suppose. Better than lugging it to my quarters, if it's so damn confidential. Lead on, Captain."

God, she hoped they were ready inside; she hadn't really expected him to take the bait. This had been the last alternative plan they had made, never dreaming that the man would be foolish enough to leave himself unguarded.

She heard the faint sound of footsteps as she neared the open hatch. A quick glance as she stepped inside assured her they had heard and were out of sight. She stepped aside as if to usher the general in with all expected respect and ritual, while in actuality she was counting the seconds before she slammed the hatch shut after him. When she did, he turned to look at her, brows lowered.

"Well?" he snapped. "Let's see this damned message. If it's not what it had better be, then I have things to do."

Shaylah couldn't hold back the question. "You expect to be given permission to destroy Trios completely?"

"I do. It should have been done five years ago. I told them that." He waved a hand impatiently. "Play the message."

"No." Satisfaction warmed her at his look of shock. "This is a message that must be delivered personally."

She looked toward the back of the conroom, a small smile curving her lips. Corling gaped at her, dumbstruck, then automatically followed the direction of her gaze.

Dare strode into the room with a swirl of the black cape, a living image of male pride and power, of natural-born royalty. Shavian's heart swelled; he'd lived the part of the wolf, when he'd had to stay alive, but now he was every inch the royal lion, and the lion was free at last.

"What is going on here?" Corling sputterd, gaping at Dare. "Who are you?"

Dare came to a stop before the astonished officer, who seemed to shrink by comparison. "I'm not surprised you don't remember me, Corling," he said coldly. "The last time you saw me, your men had beaten me so badly that my own mother wouldn't recognize me. Of course, that didn't matter, since your men had already raped her and driven her to suicide."

"Darian." It was a shocked, unbelieving whisper.

"At your service," Dare said, with mocking deference.

"So it's true. I had heard you escaped, but I didn't believe it." So Califa had not turned her in, Shaylah thought in relief. "No one has ever escaped," Corling added in shock.

"I did. And came looking for you."

His eyes wide with panic, Corling turned on Shaylah. "Captain, what is the meaning of this? What have you done?"

Before she could speak. Dare cut her off. "Do not blame your captain, General. She had no choice."

Stunned, Shaylah stared at him. What was he doing? Why was he looking at her like that, so impersonally, as if he'd never seen her before this moment? And then it came to her, words spoken into the silence of the night, I've been too long without choices to take them from someone else.

He was, she thought incredulously, giving her a way out. Even now she could claim duress, that he had taken over and forced her to bring him here. She could salvage her career, or at the least be able to continue to fly.

And he would be the price. She would never see him again… unless, she thought with a shudder, she was ordered to fight him. And his people. The people she had come to know and care for. The people who had never given up despite the odds, people with courage of a kind the Coalition would never understand. Glendar, Lisaire, the boy Pavel… and Alcaron, with her unborn child, a life begun to replace a life lost, awaited by all with joy.

"He is right," she said suddenly, firmly. "I had no choice. Not once I saw the Coalition for what it truly is, an evil, malignant thing, spreading its ugly tentacles across a universe, destroying all good and innocence in its path."

"This is treason, Captain! I'll see you dead for this!"

Corling was sputtering, his face turning red, but Shaylah had eyes only for Dare. In the moment she had spoken, she had seen him swallow tightly, and for the briefest of moments he had closed his eyes. Then, letting out a breath, he was once more the imposing prince, once more the man whose sheer impact kept a Coalition general from even looking at the door, let alone trying to make a break for it. She knew what would come next, and moved to the con to fulfill her part of the plan. She had heard the sounds coming from amidships and knew that Dare's men were fulfilling theirs.

"You'll see no one dead, Corling," Dare said coldly, in that voice of command that left no room for equivocation. "Except perhaps yourself, if you fail to do as I say."

"My men are just outside-"

"And mine are inside."

On the cue, the ten men he'd brought, armed with the best of the rebels' weapons and clad in the uniforms Alcaron and her helpers had been all night making out of whatever fabric they could find and dye to the royal black and gold of Trios, stepped into the conroom. They bore no resemblance to the shabby band they had been mere hours ago; they looked, as they were intended to, like part of a well-supplied and outfitted army.

Corling gaped at them in shock. "This is impossible. And here, aboard my own flagship-"

"Are you truly so oblivious?" Dare asked with a brow raised in mild curiosity. "We have long left your flagship, Corling. You have no one to save you now."

The man whirled, staring out the viewport where the Darkstar was shrinking in the distance. He really hadn't noticed that they were moving, Shaylah thought incredulously. Well, perhaps she should make it clearer. Her hands moved on the controls, and the Sunbird shot forward with a burst of speed that made them all sway. And the Darkstar became a distant shadow in the viewport. The bluster seemed to drain out of Corling; he sank down into the navigator's chair.

Dare nodded at Shaylah, and she set the Sunbird on self-pilot and moved to the communications station. When she was ready, she nodded back at him.

"You will order your forces to withdraw, Corling."

The man stared up at Dare in shock. "What?"

"You heard me. If you wish to live past this moment, you will order all men and equipment to vacate Triotian space immediately."

"You can't-"

"I have."

Corling's face blanched when Dare's hand came to rest on the hilt of the golden sword; it might be ceremonial in intent, but the blade was still deadly.

"It will do you no good," Corling said with an attempt at his former swagger. "They will be back, and this time there will be nothing left of your planet but stellar dust."

"If they come back," Dare said calmly, "they will be blasted out of the sky. Your entire Legion could be wiped out with just five fusion cannons. We have ten,"

Shaylah saw the general's eyes widen. "So it's true," he hissed. "You do have them!"

"As you well know. The readings must be obvious, even to you. My people have always had them." Dare spun the fabrication as smoothly as the silk of Shaylah's robe. "But they could not find the armory that held the others amid the rubble you left behind." He smiled icily. "I did."

Corling went even paler. Dare advanced until he was a bare foot away, towering over the now broken man. "It is only out of respect for the traditions of my world that I give you this chance to save your forces. And yourself. Give the order, or I will destroy them all right now."

My God, Shaylah thought, he was overpowering. I almost believe him myself. That Corling did became evident in the next seconds; he took the headset she had dialed in on the Coalition battle frequency, and gave the order,

"We will take you to Legion Command now." Corling stared up at Dare in surprise at the words. "My men loaded aboard a small shuttle from your flagship. We will release you, out of range of Command security ships. If you can remember how to fly-if you ever knew-you should make it."

"Fly?" Corling looked aghast at the idea.

"You will deliver this message: If they wish to try again, my warriors-and cannons-will be ready and waiting."

"I can't do that! They will call me treasonous! They will say I should have fought you…" Corling stopped, his face coloring with the truth of his own words.

"If you insist," Dare said, more than a hint of eager zeal in his voice, "that can be arranged. There is nothing I would like better than to personally pay you back for what you did."

Corling's color faded; this time he went ashen. And said nothing more.

"That's what I thought," Dare drawled out.

He turned to Shaylah. "Set course for Legion Command, Captain."

One corner of his mouth twitched in a triumphant grin he was trying to suppress. His eyes were brightly, vividly green, his body straight and proud, and Shaylah knew she was seeing the man he'd been born to become. Moisture pooled in her eyes, and she turned to follow his command while she could still see.

* * *

Dare paced the room restlessly. They had returned to Triotia early this morning, to assess the damage and begin repairs. This room, once his father's office, had been converted to a bedchamber, the Sunbird reduced to cargo ship to transport the furnishings from the caves. The other room they had first made habitable was the council chamber next door; the rest of the Senate building would take much more work.

Dare made a pretense of looking at the plans spread across the table in one corner. After repairing the damaged warning systems, they were already salvaging parts to replicate Paraclon's failed experiment that had become their savior; they could do that a lot sooner than they could come up with the cannons themselves, Dare had explained. Then he would begin work on the huge shields, the field of protection that had been opened in innocence to let the Coalition in.

His pretense didn't last long, and he was soon pacing again. Shaylah could feel his tension, but couldn't begin to guess at the source. His colossal bluff had worked-the Coalition had pulled out-and while there was no guarantee that it wouldn't return and try to fulfill Corling's wish of total destruction, for now, it seemed, they were safe. And if the Coalition did come back, Shaylah had no doubt that Dare would manage to come up with a plan to stop them. What she didn't know was if she would still be here to see it. But surely they wouldn't force her to leave now, knowing that, branded as traitor to the Coalition, she had nowhere else to go.

"Dare, what is it?" she asked at last.

"Nothing," he growled, a lie so obvious he looked sheepish even as he said it.

He made another circuit of the room, stopped again at the table, then, with a sharp, abrupt movement, swept the plans to the floor with a violence that startled her.

"Damn, but I hate this! I swore I would never be helpless again, yet here I am, powerless, waiting for a decision I have no part in making."

Shaylah looked at him wearily, then at the door to the council room, where several of the men had disappeared as soon as it was pronounced fit. "Do you mean the meeting of the council?"

"Yes, damn it."

"But… what are they deciding?"

"Only the rest of my life," he said grimly.

Shaylah's brows furrowed. "I don't understand. What-"

"My lord?" The respectful voice accompanied a tap on the door. Dare was across the room in an instant, yanking it open. It was Renclan. "They are ready for you now," His gaze flicked to Shaylah. "And you as well."

Startled, Shaylah followed Dare into the council room. As she passed him, Renclan murmured to her, so softly Dare could not have heard.

"I am sorry. I was… wrong about you." Shaylah had no time to react to the surprising words; she was ushered into the council room. A long, makeshift table had been set up, and five men, with Glendar in the center, sat behind it. Most of the rest of the surviving Triotians were also gathered in the room. As Dare, then Shaylah, came to a halt before the table, Glendar rose. He cleared his throat impressively.

"We have reached a decision on your request, Prince Darian."

Dare drew himself up, not looking at Shaylah. "I thank the council for its time, regardless of the judgment," he said stiffly, as if fulfilling a ritual.

Glendar nodded with equal formality. "Yes. Hmm. Well, we have taken into consideration many factors. That the subject, Shaylah Gray-mist"-Shaylah's breath caught in her throat as Glendar said her name; had they been deciding what to do with her?-"was an officer in the Coalition. That she aided, if not participated directly in, the new campaign against us."

Shaylah's heart sank. They were going to banish her.

"However," Glendar continued, "we have also taken into consideration that she saved the life of the rightful heir to the throne of Trios, brought him out of slavery, risking her life to do so, and brought him home to lead his people to victory and freedom. And that she was an instrumental part of that victory, and in the process rejected an opportunity to return to the Coalition and her former life." He cleared his throat once more. "When all is weighed and measured, we find there is no decision we can reach but one."

He turned to Shaylah and, dropping the formality, smiled at her. "Welcome to Trios, Shaylah. Your home, if you wish it."

She made a tiny sound, and felt her knees wobble. She would have slipped to the floor had not Dare's strong arm come around her, supporting her. She buried her face against its muscled strength, only able to murmur a soft "Thank you" over and over. Dare pressed a swift kiss upon her hair.

"Well," Glendar said in barely concealed amusement as he watched them, "I can see that we'd best hurry with the rest of this."

There was laughter around the table and the room. Shaylah heard it and lifted her head, not understanding.

"So," Glendar said in those formal tones again, "as to the other part of your petition, while we agree that Princess Brielle was in law your bonded mate and that she died in a noble and true Triotian manner, we also agree that sufficient time of mourning has passed. While by Triotian law she must be always remembered, we hereby release you from that bond."

Dare let out a long, shuddering sigh. Shaylah felt his body go slack, much as hers had at the news she was not to be sent away. "Thank God," he murmured.

"So, my boy," Glendar said with a wide grin, "what do you say? Shall we plan a dual coronation? A new king and a new queen at the same time?"

A cheer rose from the group gathered behind them. Shaylah stared at Dare in bewilderment.

"What's this?" Glendar said, watching her face. "Don't tell me you haven't even asked the girl yet."

"I didn't feel I had the right," Dare said, grasping Shaylah's shoulders and turning her to face him. He glanced at the crowd in the room, all of whom were watching with obvious enjoyment. "This is not how I would have wished it done, Shaylah… "

"Wished… what done? I don't understand."

"I have told you what lies ahead," he said softly. "It will not be easy." He took a deep breath. "Brielle will always mean a great deal to me. Yet she was a fragile thing, and I fear what faces us now would have been too much for her. But not you, Shaylah. You are the bravest, strongest… and most stubborn woman I have ever known."

Shaylah blushed furiously under this open, public praise. "Dare, I don't… What are you saying?"

"Yes, Dare," Glendar chimed in teasingly, "what are you saying? It's not like you to be so… indirect."

"Quiet," Dare snapped. "There is something she must know, and I don't care to tell her in front of a crowd."

Chastened by their prince, the group divided to let them pass as Dare took her wrist and led her forcefully back to his quarters. He shut the door behind them. Then he turned her to face him.

"You must know the extent of what I am asking, Shaylah. Queen of Trios is much more than just a title, it is work, hard work, and it will be much more now, with all that's to be done, and… What's wrong?"

She knew she was gaping at him, but she was so utterly stunned she couldn't help it. "Que- queen of Trios?" she whispered. "You are asking me to… bond with you?"

"Of course," he said impatiently. "What do you think this was all about?"

"I… didn't know."

"You had to have known by now."

"No. You never told me."

"I couldn't. I had to be lawfully released by the council, and there was always a chance they would say no, a chance that they could not forgive your having once been an officer of the Coalition."

"Can you?" she whispered, all her uncertainty clear.

He stared at her. At last, in a warm, vibrant voice she'd never heard from him except in the sweetest moments of passion, he spoke. "Ah, Shaylah, I've truly made a muddle of this, haven't I?" He drew in a deep breath. "I spent a long time trying to explain away how I felt about you, telling myself it was gratitude, admiration, or just plain lust. And I was just too stubborn to realize why it never worked. Then, when I saw what Renclan had done to you, saw that my own people were ready to treat you as I had been treated…" He shook his head. "I knew then it was much more than that."

"Oh, Wolf…" The name slipped out, and Dare smiled.

"I will always answer to that, for you," he said, and Shaylah knew then that she had only heard those last two words before because he had said them in his heart. She lifted her hands to slip them around his neck, but he grasped her wrists and stopped her.

"There is one more thing you must know before you answer," he said rather grimly. She looked up at him, and, amazingly, he looked away, lowering his head so that she could not see his eyes.

"What is it?" she asked softly.

"I may not…" He stopped, then finished in a rush. "I may never be able to give you children. The drug they gave me to keep me sterile… I don't know if it's… permanent."

Shaylah smothered a tiny sound at the desolation in his voice. That there might be no heir to Trios, no livewire little boy, no younger, prickly Wolf like the one she'd seen on cinefilm, left a hollow ache inside her. But she could live with that, she thought. With him.

"Do you think that matters?" she asked softly. "There are children enough here that have no parents. I would take any of them, or all, if you wish. That is not the one thing I must know."

His head came up then. "No? Then what is?"

"The one thing you have not said, Prince Darian."

He looked at her blankly. Then his eyes widened in realization, "I'm sorry," he whispered. "I didn't feel I dared say it, not when I could not… promise you anything. Besides, I thought it was… obvious."

"Perhaps it was… had I dared believe it. But now…"

It came instantly, fervently, and sent a sweeping tide of joy through her. "I love you, Shaylah. I love you."

He kissed her then, long and hot and hard, so fiercely she never heard the door swing open.

"That's my boy," Glendar said with a laugh, making them separate with a startled jump. "Go straight to the most convincing argument!"

Shaylah felt herself color deeply, and buried her face against Dare's chest. But it was hard not to smile at the round of raucous cheers that echoed from the council chamber.

Epilogue

"What do you think of Lion?" Shaylah asked.

"What?" Dare said rather vaguely, still intent on the map before him. They had repaired the shields, repaired much of the town, built ten of Paraclon's phantoms, and with the help of the remnants of the Sunbird's weapons, put together an actual fusion cannon to bolster the bluff if it was ever called. It had been a productive year, if a hard one.

"I said. King Dare, what do you think of Lion?"

He looked up then, puzzled. "What?"

"Ah, have you become so bored already, Your Majesty, that you pay me no attention?"

"I would think," he drawled out, "that last night would have convinced you of the ridiculousness of that thought."

Shaylah blushed; it had been an amazing night. She didn't even care that the others had smiled knowingly as their king and queen, after a particularly heated look across a room crowded with royal guests, had disappeared for the rest of the anniversary party.

"Then tell me what you think," she said, recovering her poise. "I think it most appropriate. I always thought of you like that, like the last Arellian golden lion, captured but never conquered. Or perhaps Lyon, with a 'y'?"

Dare made a low, growling sound and pulled her down on his lap. "Now, my queen, will you please make sense?"

"I was making sense," she said in mock protest. "I think it has a nice ring to it, don't you? 'Prince Lyon of Trios,' " she quoted grandly.

Dare's golden brows furrowed. "Prince? I don't-" He broke off, staring at her. "Shaylah," he whispered, "you don't mean…?"

She reached for his hand and placed it on her still flat belly. A wide, loving smile flashed across her face. "You can tell Glendar to quit nagging you about producing an heir, my love."

He clutched at her, burying his face between her breasts. "I didn't think… didn't dare hope…"

"I know," she said gently. "That's why I waited until I was certain. And until Alcaron told me I was safely past the most critical time."

"God, Shaylah…" She heard him swallow thickly. "My father always used to say he wished for me, not the glory of the throne, or the power, but something much more important. To love as he loved my mother, I don't think I ever understood that… before you. But I know now that he was right."

"As will our son," Shaylah whispered. "And what better gift could we give him?"

Close in each other's arms, they lingered a moment to savor it between them before they announced to their regained world that the next generation would have its leader.

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