Sword of Ice
And Other Tales Of Valdemar
Edited by Mercedes Lackey
Copyright 1997
version 2.0 minor format changes, spell
checking, fixed without original document. finished October 23, 2003
Sunlancer © 1997 by Philip Austin and Mercedes Lackey
The Demon's Den © 1997 by Tanya Huff
Ironrose © 1997 by Larry Dixon and Mel. White
Babysitter © 1997 by Josepha Sherman
The Salamander © 1997 by Richard Lee Byers
A Child's Adventures © 1997 by Janni Lee Simner
Blood Ties © 1997 by Stephanie Shaver
... Another Successful Experiment © 1997 by Lawrence Schimel
Choice © 1997 by Michelle Sagara
Song of VaWemar © 1997 by Kristin Schwengel
The School Up the Hill © 1997 by Elisabeth Waters
Chance © 1997 by Mark Shepherd
Sword of Ice © 1997 by Mercedes Lackey and John Yezeguielian
In the Forest of Sorrows © 1997 by John Heifers
Vkandis' Own © 1997 by Ben Ohlander
A Herald's Honor © 1997 by Mickey Zucker Reichert
A Song for No One's Mourning © 1997 by Gary Braunbeck
Blue Heart © 1997 by Philip Austin and Mercedes Lackey
Contents
Introduction by Mercedes Lackey
Sunlancer by Philip M. Austin and Mercedes Lackey
The Demon's Den by Tanya Huff
Ironrose by Larry Dixon and Mel. White
Babysitter by Josepha Sherman
The Salamander by Richard Lee Byers
A Child's Adventures by Janni Lee Simmer
Blood Ties by Stephanie D. Shaver
... Another
Successful Experiment by Lawrence Schimel
Choice by Michelle West
Song of Valdemar by Kristin Schwengel
The School Up the Hill by Elisabeth Waters
Chance by Mark Shepherd
Sword of Ice by Mercedes Lackey and John Yezeguielian
In the Forest of Sorrows by John Heifers
Vkandis' Own by Ben Ohlander
A Herald's Honor by Mickey Zucker Reichert
A Song For No One's Mourning by Gary A. Braunbeck
Blue Heart by Philip M. Austin and Mercedes Lackey
Introduction
My very first published story, in 1985, was a piece for Marion Zimmer
Bradley's "Friends of Darkover" anthology, Free Amazons of
Darkover. At the time, although I was working on what would become the
first of a series of fifteen novels (with no end in sight), I never thought
that I would be in the position to do as Marion had done, and open up my world
for other professionals to tinker with.
And yet, ten years later, here it is, the Friends of Valdemar anthology.
Some of the stories here are by names you will recognize, some by authors you
will not, but the one thing that unites them all is that somewhere along the
line, they actually enjoyed my work enough to want to add their own touches to
the world that I created. Several of the authors in this book are protege's of
mine and have cowritten other things with me; some are proteges of mine and
have had work published that I had no hand in, which is, to any teacher, a
source of great pleasure. You always hope that the "student" goes
beyond what you can teach and finds his or her own way, own voice, and own
creations that you have no direct part in.
And it is entirely possible that one or more of the authors in this
volume will one day find him- or herself playing host and editor to a book of
stories set in a world he or she has created.
And when that happens, I hope that they think of me, and ask me
to come play, too!
Sunlancer
by Philip M.
Austin and Mercedes Lackey
Philip Austin writes,
"Misty Lackey is the one who made this story come alive. She deserves the
majority of the credit and all my thanks. [She] has been a good friend and
mentor. She's been helpful in so many ways. Through her good offers, I've been
able to dream of a future. A creative future. That dream is worth more than any
monetary reward."
Mercedes Lackey was born in
Chicago, and has worked as a lab assistant, security guard, and computer
programmer before turning to fiction writing. Her first book, Arrows of the
Queen, the first in the Valdemar series, was published in 1985. She won the
Lambda award for Magic's Price and Science Fiction Book Club Book of the
Year for The Elvenbane, co-authored with Andre Norton. Along with her
husband, Larry Dixon, she is a Federally licensed bird rehabilitator, specializing
in birds of prey. She shares her home with a menagerie of parrots, cats and a
Schutzhund trained German shepherd.
Clarrin Mul-Par knelt below his open window
and raised his face to the rising sun; he closed his eyes and felt the warmth
of its rays against his cheeks, watched the inside of his eyelids turn as red
as the robes of Vkandis' priests. The sun was a pressure against his skin, as
real as the pressure against his heart.
Vkandis! Sunlord! he prayed. Hear me, and guide me in what
I must do. Red-priestess Beakasi tells us we do your will and bidding—should
I believe her? She tells me "that it is your will that we take the
young ones, that your miracles show her the ones to test for your service. Must
I believe her? Sunlord, all life comes by your gift; to live in your light
is the old teaching, passed from generation to generation. But is this what
you meant? Vkandis! Sun-lord! What must I do? Give me a sign!
He lowered his outstretched arms, letting
the rays of the sun bathe him. But although they warmed his body, they did not
touch the cold in his heart, nor did they ease his worry and confusion.
For the first time in his life, he doubted.
No, he told himself firmly. No, I do not doubt
the Sunlord. I doubt those who speak in His Name. I doubt that what they call
upon me to do is truly His Will
And he knew exactly where to place the
blame for that doubt—if "blame'" was precisely the right thing to
call it.
Squarely in the lap of that scholar-scribe
with the terrible eyes: the guest of his grandfather, and as such, sacrosanct.
The man had been there when he arrived last
night; they seemed to be old friends, and Grandfather had introduced him as
such. Clarrin found the man to be a fascinating storyteller, and the three of
them had conversed long into the night, in the garden pavilion, where—now that
he thought about it—no one could creep up upon them to listen without being
seen.
And it was the scholar's questions that had
made him doubt....
"Captain Clarrin Mul-Par is a wise
man, I have no doubt," the scribe said in accentless, flowing Karsite that
even a priest would envy. "As well as a man trusted in the Temple's
service. I value wisdom, and I seek answers, answers to questions a man such as
the Captain may be able to give me."
As he sat there, completely at ease in the
low couch, boots crossed at the ankles and elbows resting on knees, his eyes
never left the face of the Captain of the Temple Lancers. Clarrin wondered what
in heaven or earth he was reading there. He never had learned to completely
school his expression.
But he had tried not to betray his
uneasiness. "What are your questions, good sir?" he replied, forcing
himself to return the scribe's direct gaze. "Although you grant me more
wisdom than I would claim, I will do my best to answer you."
"My first question is this—and pray,
do not take offense, for I am a foreigner, and I mean none," the scholar
said, with a smile that looked honest, leaning forward a little to
speak. "Are the miracles performed by your priests and priestesses true
miracles, or are they actually magic?"
Clarrin licked his lips, and answered
carefully. "Vkandis forbids the practice of magic," he replied
sternly. "It was by his will that magic was driven out of the land.
His miracles ensure that we of Karse need no magic, and aid his holy ones to
keep magic from our borders."
The scribe did not seem particularly
disturbed by the implied rebuke. He sipped at the pleasant, fruity wine with
appreciation, examined the crystal goblet that contained it for a moment, then
looked up through the latticework of the pavilion's roof at the stars. Only
then did he look back at Clarrin.
"Spoken as a true warrior of the
Temple," he said, with another of those enigmatic smiles. "Yet—I have
been in other lands. Rethwellan, Hardorn, even Valdemar. I have seen those who
claim to be practitioners of magic perform feats precisely the same as
those that Vkandis' priests perform. Does the Sunlord grant these people the
power to work miracles as well?"
Clarrin carefully set his goblet down on
the low table they all shared, heated words rising in him. "I have not
seen these marvels that you claim to have seen, scribe," he
replied, his anger giving his voice a distinct edge, "So I may make no
judgment."
But his grandfather frowned. "Sharp
words!" he chided. "Grandson, you come close to dishonoring my
granted guest-right with your sharp tongue!"
Clarrin flushed, this time with
embarrassment. He might be thirty summers old, but this was the man who had
raised him, and the bright-eyed old fellow did right to remind him of the
courtesies owed a guest of the house.
"I am well rebuked, old owl," he
replied, with a bow of apology to the scribe, and a smile of affection for the
wizened old man. "You remind me of the proper way to answer our
guest."
He turned to the scribe. "I apologize
for my discourteous reply, sir. And to answer your question with strict truth,
I do not know. I have no knowledge of magic and have never seen any who
practice it; we are taught that it is all trickery in any case, that the miracles
of Vkandis alone are no deceit. The priests would tell you that this magic you
have seen is nothing more than cleverness and misdirection."
The scribe smiled, giving Clarrin the
slight bow of scholar-to-scholar, wordlessly telling Clarrin that he had shown
wisdom by admitting his ignorance. Clarrin flushed again, this time feeling
pleased and flattered.
"Now this—" the scribe
said lightly. "This is a moment of true men's pleasure: to sip good wine,
in a beautiful garden, on a clear summer's night, discussing the mysteries of
the world. Among men who can face truth and enter debate with open minds, no
apologies are needed, for all three of us are men who can acknowledge that we
can speak the truth only as we see it. And the truth is a crystal with
many facets."
A night bird began a liquid, plaintive song
just as the scribe finished speaking. The scribe half-closed his eyes to
listen, and out of courtesy, all of them remained quiet until it had finished
and flew away.
"The ovan has other pleasures in mind,"
Tirens Mul-Par, Clarrin's grandfather, said wryly. "He calls a mate."
Clarrin and the scribe both chuckled.
"Ah," the scribe replied. "And have you never heard the tale of
the 'scholar's mate'?"
Both indicated ignorance, and he told them
a roguish story of a priestly scholar who so loved to read in bed that he
filled half of his bed with books and heavy scrolls every night, leaving an
impression on the mattress that looked as if someone had been asleep there.
This continued until his superior spied upon him to catch him in the act of
bringing in a (prohibited) female, and caught him only with a
"mistress" made of paper.
With the atmosphere lightened, the scribe
leaned forward once more, and Clarrin told himself to keep his temper in check,
anticipating another unpleasantly direct question.
He was not wrong.
"Another question comes to my
mind," the scholar said. "The faithful are granted healing of ills
and new injuries in the Temple, and it is true healing, for I have seen the
results of it. This is said to be another miracle of the Sunlord, is this not
true?"
Clarrin nodded warily. "Yes. I have
received the Sun-lord's Gift myself. As a young lancer I was arrow-struck
during our foray into Menmellith to relieve the true believers trapped
there." He tapped his left leg to indicate the site of the old wound.
"One of the priests laid hands upon the wound and drew out the arrow, and
there was neither blood nor wound after, only a scar, as if the injury had
occurred weeks in the past."
"I am glad that you were healed that
you may still serve," the scribe replied. "Yet—forgive me, but in
other lands, there are healers as well. In fact, in every land I have ever been
or even read of, there are healers of the flesh. In Valdemar, they are even
gathered together at an early age, and taught at a great school called a Collegium."
"We gather those granted the healer's
touch by the Sunlord and teach them in the Temple—" Clarrin began, but
stopped when the scribe held up a finger.
"True enough, but the healers in
Valdemar are not taught in a temple, for there are many beliefs in their
land, not one," the scribe said earnestly. "When these healers are
proficient in their work, they are given green clothing to wear so that they
may be recognized and heeded. They go where they are needed, and all may
come to them for aid, even the lowest and the poorest. So, here again, I must
ask you—if there are true healers elsewhere, does the Sunlord grant them this
miracle of healing as well as he does here?"
Clarrin sighed. "Your question marches
with the one before," he replied. "In truth, I cannot answer."
He picked up the pitcher, hoping to stave
off more questions. He poured his grandfather another goblet, offered wine to
the scholar and was politely refused, and filled his own glass. And in truth,
he felt the need of it. This scribe had a way of demanding answers to questions
he had rather not think about.
"I only have one more question,
Captain," the scribe said, chuckling when he saw damn's expression of
resigned dismay. "Though it could be seen as more than one."
"A puzzle, then? Or a riddle?"
Clarrin hoped so. He and his grandfather had often traded riddles long into the
night.
"Perhaps, yes!" the scribe
agreed. "A puzzle of questions."
Clarrin waited while the breeze stirred
scent up from the night-blooming flowers around them, and made the wind-chimes
play gently. "Your puzzle, then?" he prompted.
"Only this; why are the young ones
chosen by the priesthood taken from their homes at night? Why are they tested,
cleansed of all ties of kinship, and never seen again by their kin except at a
distance? Why are those that cannot be cleansed of kin-ties in your temple, or
those who fail the testing, cleansed instead by burning in the fire of Vkandis?
Why does the Sunlord, the giver of all life, require the death
of children? Is it the cleansing and sacrifice of kin-ties that give the
priests and priestesses the power to perform the Sunlord's miracles, or could
they perform them if they never set foot in the temple or donned robes?"
Clarrin shifted uncomfortably in his seat,
but the scribe was not yet done with him.
"Is it possible," he continued,
leaning forward so that his terrible, knowing eyes bored into Clarrin's,
"that the ones who are fire-cleansed are destroyed because their powers are
too strong, too strong to permit their minds and hearts to be cleansed
of the love of their kinfolk, and that if they lived, they could rival the
priests and priestesses without ever having to wear a robe?"
His eyes seemed to penetrate right into
Clarrin's mind, as if he were daring Clarrin to find the true answers to this
"puzzle" of his. And there was something lurking in the depths of his
gaze; a hint of pain, of loneliness, of half-madness that made Clarrin finally
shiver and turn away.
"I—have no answers for you at all, sir
scribe," he replied, rising to his feet, quickly. "I am only a poor
lancer, with no head for such an elevated discourse. I will have to leave these
things to men of wisdom, such as you and my grandfather. Now, if you will
forgive me—" he ended, hastily, already backing away, "I have duties early
in the morning. Very early—"
And with that, he beat a hasty retreat.
Tirens Mul-Par also faced the sun this
morning, but not to pray. His prayer had been answered last night, and that in
itself was proof enough of the Sunlord's power—and that His power, like the
light of the sun, granted blessings and prayers in every land and not just in
Karse.
Instead, he watched as his servants
secretly readied all the horses in his stable for a long journey, and his
thoughts, too, returned to the previous evening's conversation.
Clarrin beat a hasty, but tactically sound,
retreat from the garden. He did not—quite—run, but it was plain enough from his
posture that he wished he could. It was too bad for his peace of mind that he
would never be able to run fast enough or far enough to escape those questions
the scribe had placed in his thoughts.
Tirens watched him go, and hid a smile.
This was not the first time that he had entertained the scholar who called
himself "Brekkan of Hawk's Rest," but it was the first time he
had been utterly certain of what this "Brekkan" really was.
"I fear I may have upset your
grandson, Tirens Mul-Par," the scribe said softly. "It was not my
intention."
The old man snorted. "It was always
your intention—Valdemaran," he said, and watched with interest as the
scribe's hand twitched a little. Interesting. A sleeve-dagger? "You Heralds
of Valdemar do not care to see folk become too complacent, do you?"
He saw the man's eyes widen just a trifle,
and smiled.
"I think you are mistaken—" the
so-called "scribe" began.
Tirens held up a finger, cautioning him to
silence. "If I am mistaken, it is only in thinking that a Herald would not
resort to a hidden dagger up a sleeve." His smile broadened as the Herald
twitched again. "But I did not make any mistakes in giving you my
hospitality, nor in bringing my grandson here for you to disturb with
your questions. He is old enough, and well-placed enough, to make a difference
in this sad land."
Again the Herald moved as to protest, and
again he silenced the man with a single finger.
"Your questions deserve answers, not
platitudes or religious cant. But he must decide for himself what is right. I
cannot give him answers, nor can you." He shrugged expressively.
"I do not know what his answers will be, nor can I say what he will do
once he finds them. That will come as Vkandis wills."
The Herald watched him with narrowed eyes,
gray eyes, which matched well with his straight brown hair, the color of old leaves.
You would never notice him in a crowd, so long as he was not wearing the
expression he bore now. Which, Tirens supposed, was the point....
"How did you know?" the Herald
asked, his voice low and potent with threat.
"That you are a Herald?" The old man
grinned. "I did not know it until this visit, when I had need to
know. I have the sight, at need. At those times, I can sense
things that are not apparent."
His guest was not in the least mollified.
"Why did you grant me guest-right, Tirens Mul-Par, if you knew what I
am?" he demanded harshly.
Tirens sipped his wine. "I have a
granddaughter," he said. "A little above Clarrin's age. She has
a daughter, a lovely child in my eyes, who laughs at the stories of her
greatgrandsire, and who loves him as much as he loves her. She is only nine
years old. A dangerous age, in Karse."
The Herald relaxed, just a trifle.
"They test children in the temple at their tenth birthdays...."
"Exactly so." He allowed his
smile to fade. "She tells me stories as well, of dreams in the night. At
times, those dreams come to pass."
The light of understanding blossomed in the
Herald's eyes. "Dreams can be dangerous—in Karse."
The old man nodded, curtly. "I wish
her and her mother to be taken someplace where dreams are not so dangerous.
Before we have visitors in the night."
The Herald tilted his head to one side.
"Her father may have something to say about that," he ventured.
Tirens waved his hand in dismissal.
"Only if he chooses to return from the hosts at Vkandis' right hand, where
the priests pledge me he has gone," he replied.
The Herald chuckled at that, and relaxed
further. His hand made an interesting little movement, that told Tirens
the dagger had returned to its home. "When?" he asked only.
"Tomorrow," the old man said
firmly. "I have already made the arrangements. My granddaughter is privy
to them, and just as anxious as I for her daughter's safety. They will not
inconvenience you. In fact," he allowed a twinkle to creep into his eyes,
"a prosperous scholar, with a Karsite wife and child, returning from
visiting relatives, is not likely to be questioned by anyone, so long as be is
careful to stay within law and custom. Which his Karsite wife will be sure to
impart to him."
The Herald coughed gently. "I
can—ah—see that."
Tirens still had not heard the promise he
wanted.
"Please," he said, resorting to
beggary. "Please, take them to safety. You will have no cause to regret
this."
But the Herald had not been reluctant after
all. "Of course I will," he said, a little embarrassed. "I
was just—thinking for a moment! Rearranging my trip to account for a new wife
and child!" But at Tirens' chuckle, his gaze sharpened. "But what of
you, old owl?" he asked, using the name Clarrin had used in affection.
The old man leaned back in his seat on the
couch and sipped his wine. "Oh, I shall enjoy my garden until I die,"
he said casually. "Life has been... interesting. But I do not fear to
leave it." And before his visitor could ask anything more, he leaned
forward with an eagerness that was completely genuine. "And now, Herald of
Valdemar, since your other tales have been so fascinating—tell me of the land
that my dear ones will live in!"
Clarrin put aside his doubts long enough to
bid farewell to his family. It would be many more months before he had another
chance to visit them, and without a doubt, by then his niece Liksani would be
almost a woman. Already she had the look of his sister Aldenwin about her, and
he could not help but remember all the times when it had been Aldenwin who
clung to his stirrup and begged him to stay "just one more day."
But when he told Liksani, with a playful
shake of his head, that there were no more days left in the visit, she let go
and let him mount.
"Uncle Clarrin," she said, her
pretty, dark-eyed face solemn, "I almost forgot. I dreamed a tale for you
this morning, in the women's garden after sunrise prayers."
He bent down to ruffle her hair. "And
what did you dream, little dreamer?" he asked, lightly, thinking it would
be a request for a doll, or some such thing.
"I dreamed that a man in armor so
bright I could not look at him told me to tell you something," she laughed
up at him.
Clarrin went cold inside but managed to
keep smiling. "And what thing was that?"
"He said to tell you that—" she
screwed her face up in concentration. "—that 'the light is the life and
the breath, the flame is the blessing and not life's-ending'..." she
faltered for a moment, then smiled, "...and that 'children should live and
laugh and play!' Then he told me to go and play in northern flowers!" she
finished, giggling.
A weirding chill raised the hackles on his
neck, but somehow Clarrin managed to lean down from his saddle to hug her
firmly, lifting her right off her feet as she put her arms around his neck.
"Be happy, Liksani," he ordered
gently. "Live and laugh and play, like the shining man told you."
"I'm always happy, Uncle
Clarrin. You know that," she giggled as he set her back down on the
ground.
Sunlord, keep her happy, he prayed silently, turning his horse to
the gate, and leading his seven guards back toward his duty. Sunlord, keep
her always happy.
Tirens watched as his grandson rode off
down the road to the south. And two candlemarks later, he watched as his
granddaughter, Liksani, and six of his seven servants rode off down the road to
the north and west. With them, rode the Herald, whose true name Tirens still
did not know.
He knew that the Herald was a man of honor.
That was all he needed to know.
The sun was directly overhead, the birds
singing all about his favorite pavilion, as his one remaining servant served
him his finest wine from a fragile crystal goblet. He sipped it with
appreciation as he turned the crystal to admire the way it sparkled in the
sunlight. This had been one of a set of two, from which he and dear Sareni had
drunk their marriage-wine. The shards of the other lay with Sareni in her
grave.
Sareni would have approved, he thought, as
he drank the last of the wine, and slipped his frail old hand into the bowl of
figs where a tiny, rainbow-striped snake was curled. He stirred the figs until
he felt a slight sting on his hand, then a sudden lethargy. The goblet fell
from his nerveless fingers and shattered on the pavilion floor. He lay back in
his couch, watched the snake slip away under the rosebushes, and wondered if
Vkandis liked gardens.
Clarrin stirred his noodles with his fork,
and stared at nothing at all.
"Captain!" his Corporal-Orderly
said sharply, making him jump.
"Yes, Esda?" he replied,
wondering if he looked as guilty as he felt.
Evidently not. Esda pouted at him, hands on
side-cocked hips, a petulant expression on his face. "Captain," he
complained, "you've hardly touched your meal, and I worked very hard
making it! What is bothering you?"
Clarrin grinned in spite of himself at the
burly corporal's burlesque of a spoiled girl. "Esda, you lie! You never
work hard at anything. Not in the ten years you've served me,
anyway!"
Esda grinned back. "Too true, Captain.
That's why I picked you for my officer."
Clarrin shook his head at his Orderly's
unrepentant grin. "Here," he said, shoving the plate of noodles
across the table toward Esda. "Sit down, finish my meal for me, and let me
use your common sense." He made it less of an order, and more of an
invitation.
Esda's grin faded immediately, and the
grizzled veteran's expression was replaced by one of concern. "You are troubled,
Captain," he observed, taking the seat, but ignoring the food, his eyes
fixed on Clarrin's.
Clarrin shrugged. "I have some
questions to repeat to you—and a dream to tell you about," he said,
slowly.
"A dream!" Esda lost every trace
of mockery. "Dreams are nothing to disregard, Captain." Esda had
served the Temple for longer than Clarrin had been alive—he had seen three Sons
of the Sun come and go. And he was both a skeptic and a believer; if anyone
knew where Temple politics began and true religion ended, it would be Esda.
"Yes, well, see what you think when I
am done."
For the next candlemark, Esda sat and
listened without interruption as Clarrin recounted the discussion in the garden
and little Liksani's dream.
"You know we serve at the
Cleansing," he finished.
"Aye, and I know you mislike the
assignment," Esda replied gruffly. "But—is it Vkandis you blame
for—"
"No!" Clarrin exclaimed, cutting
him off with a slam of his open palm on the wooden table. "Never! I cannot
believe that the Lord of all Life would ever countenance taking life,
that is all! It is the priests and their minions that I mistrust and fear! I
believe they serve themselves, not Vkandis! And I fear that they use magic,
and call it 'miracle,' to order to puff up their own importance!"
"Well, then bugger them all,
Captain!" Esda grinned, like the sun coming out from behind a cloud.
"Whatever you decide to do, just remember that poor, overworked, old
unappreciated Esda will be there to pick up your soiled linen!"
The roar of laughter that followed made the
rest of his personal guards turn their heads, wondering what outrageous thing
Esda had said to him this time.
Esda moved quietly among the guards,
speaking with them one at a time, over the next two days, while Clarrin
pretended that he did not notice. And over the next two days, every one of his
men approached him quietly, one at a time, to offer their personal fealty
to him. Clarrin was touched and humbled by their trust. But he still did not
know what he was going to do. In ten days, Clarrin was back in command of his
troop of Temple Lancers. In fifteen days, they paraded for the Ceremony of
Cleansing, conducted by Red-priestess Beakasi. The Temple square was crowded
with worshipers and spectators at two sides, behind the lines of the temple
guards. Clarrin's Lancers closed the third side of the square. The low Sun
Altar, flanked by priests and priestesses in order of rank, filled most of the
fourth side.
At Clarrin's signal, the lancers knelt as
one at their horses' heads, lances grounded, with the shafts held stiffly
erect. The red pennons at the crossbars moved lazily in the warm afternoon air.
Red-priestess Beakasi, flanked by her
torch-bearers, mounted the altar-platform, and turned to face the crowd and the
setting sun behind them. Her arms stretched out toward the sun, and her red
robes matched the red clouds of sunset.
At that signal, lesser priests brought the
two who were to be cleansed to the steps: a boy who looked to be in his early
teens, and a girl somewhat younger, dark-haired, with a pretty, gentle face.
Clarrin's breath caught in his throat. She
could be Liksani, he thought in anguish. The words of his niece's dream
kept repealing, over and over, in his head.
The flame is the blessing and not life's
ending. Children should live, and laugh, and play,
The boy was shoved forward onto the
platform. He stood there looking frightened and confused.
"Vkandis! Sunlord!" Beakasi sang.
"Grant your miracle! Cleanse this tainted one with your holy fire!"
She brought her hands together over her
head, closing them on the iron shaft of a torch held there by a Black-robed
priest. He let it go, and she held it high above her head, flame flickering.
"Witness the Sunlord's miracle!"
she sang. "Tremble at his power!"
The torch flame flared, and grew suddenly
to man-height, then bent toward the boy. He started to scream, but remained
where he was, frozen with fear. Another Red-robed priest pointed, and the boy's
scream was cut off; he remained where he was, a wide-eyed, open-mouthed, living
statue. Flames flowed from the torch to the boy, arching overhead like water
from a fountain, in a long, liquid stream. They touched him, then engulfed him,
turning him into a column of searing, white-green fire that grew to three times
the boy's height. A vaguely human-shaped form turned slowly in the upper half
of the column of fire, as if bathing in it.
Clarrin's heart spasmed, and his gorge
rose.
Slowly the flames diminished and flowed back
into the torch, until it burned normally once again.
The boy was gone, and there was only a
small pile of ashes to mark where he had stood.
The priestess waited until the original
bearer had his hands on the torch, before she removed hers, spreading her arms
wide. Looking somewhere above the heads of the onlookers, she called out into
the silence.
"Hail Vkandis, Sunlord!"
"Hail Vkandis, Sunlord!"
the crowd roared in response. Beakasi signaled for the girl to be brought
forward.
'The flame is the blessing and not
life-ending," Clarrin murmured, his eyes bright with tears. "Children
should live, and laugh, and play!"
He was standing now, moving to his saddle
in slow, sluggish motion, warring within himself.
The flame is the blessing, and not
life-ending. He reached
for the saddle-bow and swung up into place, feeling as if he were trapped in a
fever-dream. Children should live, and laugh, and play!
His hand was on his lance; his horse jerked
its head up in astonishment at the tightening of his legs, then stepped
forward.
He kicked it, startling it into a gallop.
"The flame is the blessing, and not
life-ending!" he screamed, the words torn from his throat in torment.
His lance swung down, into the attack position. "Children should live,
and laugh, and play!"
Red-priestess Beakasi swung around in
surprise. Her face mirrored that stunned surprise for a few moments, then
suddenly began chanting in a high, frightened voice, words Clarrin could not
understand. Her hands moved in intricate patterns, tracing figures in the air.
Clarrin's superbly-trained mount, the
veteran of many encounters, plunged up the stairs at the gallop, never missing
a step. "The flame is the blessing, and not life-ending!"
Clarrin roared as a warcry. "Children should live, and laugh, and play!"
The priestess held up her hands, as if she
could ward off the lance with a gesture. The long, leaf-shaped blade impaled
one of those outstretched hands, nailing it to her chest as it struck her
heart.
She shrieked in anger, shock, and pain. The
crossbar behind the blade slammed into her hand and chest. Clarrin took the
impact in his arm, lifting her up off her feet for a moment, as he signaled his
horse to halt. He dropped the point of the lance, and the priestess' body slid
off the blade, to lie across the altar.
Clarrin leaned down as he wheeled his horse
and started back down the stairs, sweeping the young girl into his arms without
slowing. The horse plunged down the steps at the back of the altar, and they
were away, the child clinging desperately to him. Clarrin held her protectively
to his chest, and urged his mount to greater speed.
So far, they had escaped, but their luck
could not last for much longer.
He heard horses behind him. Close, too close.
He looked back, his lips twisting in a feral snarl, ready to fight for the
child's life, as well as his own.
The snarl turned to a gape, and the gape to
a grin that held both elation and awe.
His own personal guard and fifty of his
lancers, those that had served with him the longest, were following. Esda in
the lead. Many had blood on their blades.
Clarrin slowed just enough for the rest to
catch up with him. Esda waved an iron-banded torch—just like the ones carried
by the priests. As they galloped past a rain-swollen ditch, Esda tossed the
torch into the water. Green-yellow smoke and steam billowed up in a hissing
roar as they passed the place, and a vaguely man-shaped form twisted and jerked
in the heart of the smoke, as if it were on fire.
Clarrin and Esda spat, and rode on, letting
the evening breeze carry the smoke away in their wake.
The pursuit, when it finally came in the
wake of blame-casting and name-calling, was vicious. Clarrin felt extremely
lucky that they crossed into Rethwellan with twenty-six still alive.
Or rather, twenty-seven. Twenty-six men,
and one special little girl, who could now live, and laugh, and play in the
warm morning sun. Without fear, and without threat.
Fifteen days later, Clarrin crossed back
into Karse, his men with him, all disguised as scholars. They quickly dispersed,
each with provisions and a horse, and a series of uncomfortable questions.
There were more young ones to save.
And after all, at the right time and place,
a question was more deadly than any sword.
The Demon's Den
by Tanya Huff
Born In the Maritimes,
Tanya Huff now lives and writes in rural Ontario. On her way there, she spent
three years in the Canadian Naval Reserve and got a degree in Radio and
Television Arts which the cat threw up on. Although no members of her family
are miners, "The Demon's Den" is the third story she's written about
those who go underground, and mines have been mentioned in a number of her
books. She has no idea where it's coming from, but decided not to fight it. Her
last book out was No Quarter (DAW, March 1996), the direct sequel to Fifth
Quarter (DAW, August, 1995) and her next book will be Blood Debt (DAW,
April 1997), a fifth Vicki/Henry/Celluci novel.
The mine had obviously been abandoned for
years. Not even dusk hid the broken timbers and the scree of rock that spilled
out of the gaping black hole.
Jors squinted into the wind, trying and
failing to see past the shadows. :Are you sure it went in there?:
:Of course I'm sure. I can smell the blood
trail.:
:Maybe it's not hurt as badly as we
thought. Maybe it'll be fine until morning.: His Companion gave a little buck. Jors clutched at the
saddle and sighed. :All right, all right, I'm going.:
No one at the farmstead had known why the
mountain cat had come down out of the heights—perhaps the deer it normally
hunted had grown scarce; perhaps a more aggressive cat had driven it from its
territory; perhaps it had grown lazy and decided sheep were less work. No one
at the farmstead cared. They'd tried to drive it off.
It had retaliated by mauling a shepherd and
three dogs. Now, they wanted it killed.
Just my luck to be riding circuit up here
in the Great White North. Jors
swung out of the saddle and pulled his gloves off with his teeth. :How am I
supposed to shoot it when I won't be able to see it?: he asked, unstrapping
his bow.
Gevris turned his head to peer back at his
Chosen with one sapphire eye. :It's hurt.:
:I know.: The wind sucked the heat out of his hands and he swore
under his breath as one of the laces of his small pack knotted tight.
:You wounded it.:
:I know, damn it, I know!: Sighing, he rested his head on the
Companion's warm flank. :I'm sorry. It's just been a long day and I should
never have missed that shot.:
:No one makes every shot, Chosen.:
The warm understanding in the mind-touch
helped.
The cat had been easy to track. By late
afternoon, they'd known they were close. At sunset, they spotted it outlined
against a gray and glowering sky. Jors had carefully aimed, carefully let fly,
and watched in horror as the arrow thudded deep into a golden haunch. The cat had
screamed and fled. They'd had no choice but to follow.
The most direct route up to the mine was a
treacherous path of loose shale. Jors slipped, slammed one knee into the
ground, and somehow managed to catch himself before he slid all the way back to
the bottom.
:Chosen? Are you hurt?:
Behind him, he could hear hooves scrabbling
at the stone and he had to grin. :I'm fine, worrywart. Get back on solid
ground before you do yourself some damage.:
Here I go into who-knows-what to face a
wounded mountain cat, and he's worried that I've skinned my knee. Shaking his head, he struggled the rest of
the way to the mine entrance and then turned and waved down at the glimmering
white shape below. :I'm here. I'm fine.: Then he frowned and peered down
at the ground. The cart tracks coming out of the mine bumped down a series of
jagged ledges, disappeared completely, then reappeared down where his Companion
was standing.
:I don't like this.:
If he squinted, he could easily make out
Gevris sidestepping nervously back and forth, a glimmer of white amidst the
evening shadows. :Hey, I don't like this either, but...:
:Something is going to happen.:
Jors chewed on his lip. He'd never heard
his usually phlegmatic Companion sound so unsettled. A gust of wind blew cold
rain in his face and he shivered. :It's just a storm. Go back under the
trees so you don't get soaked.:
:No. Come down. We can come back here in
the morning.:
Storm probably has him a bit spooked and he
doesn't want to admit it. The
Herald sighed and wished he could go along with his Companion's sudden change
of mind. :I can't do that.: As much as he didn't want to go into that
hole, he knew he had to. :I wounded it. I can't let it die slowly, in pain.
I'm responsible for its death.:
He felt reluctant agreement from below and,
half wishing Gevris had continued to argue, turned to face the darkness.
Setting his bow to one side, he pulled a small torch out of his pack, unwrapped
the oilskin cover, and, in spite of wind and stiff fingers, got it lit.
The flame helped a little. But not much.
How am I supposed to hold a torch and aim a
bow? This is ridiculous. But
he'd missed his shot, and he couldn't let an animal, any animal, die in pain
because of something he'd done.
The tunnel slopped gently back into the
hillside, the shadows becoming more impenetrable the farther from the entrance
he went. He stepped over a fallen beam and a pile of rock, worked his way
around a crazily angled corner, saw a smear of blood glistening in the
torchlight, and went on. His heart beat so loudly he doubted he'd be able to
hear the cat if it should turn and attack.
A low shadow caught his eye and against his
better judgment, he bent to study it. An earlier rockfall had exposed what
looked to be the upper corner of a cave. In the dim, flickering light he
couldn't tell how far down it went, but a tossed rock seemed to fall forever.
The wind howled. He jumped, stumbled, and
laughed shakily at himself. It was just the storm rushing past the entrance; he
hadn't gone so far in that he wouldn't be able to hear it.
Then his torch blew out.
:Chosen!:
:No, it's okay. I'm all right.: His startled shout still echoed, bouncing
back and forth inside the tunnels, :I'm in the dark, but I'm okay.: Again,
he set his bow aside and pulled his tinderbox from his belt pouch with
trembling fingers. Get a grip, Jors, he told himself firmly. You're a
Herald. Heralds are not afraid of the dark.
And then the tunnel twisted. Flung to his
knees and then his side, Jors wrapped his head in his arms and tried to present
as small a target as possible to the falling rock. The earth heaved as though a
giant creature deep below struggled to get free. With a deafening roar, a
section of the tunnel collapsed. Lifted and slammed against a pile of rock,
Jors lost track of up and down. The world became noise and terror and certain
death.
Then half his body was suspended over
nothing at all. He had a full heartbeat to realize what was happening before he
fell, a large amount of loose rock falling with him.
It seemed to go on forever; turning,
tumbling, sometimes sliding, knowing that no one could survive the eventual
landing.
But he did. Although it took him a moment
to realize it.
:Chosen! Jors! Chosen!:
:Gevris...: The near panic in his Companion's mind-touch pulled
him up out of a gray-and-red blanket of pain, the need to reassure the young
stallion delaying his own hysteria. :I'm alive. Calm down, I'm alive.: He
spit out a mouthful of blood and tried to move.
Most of the rock that had fallen with him
seemed to have landed on his legs. Teeth clenched, he flexed his toes inside
his boots and almost cried in relief at the response. Although muscles from
thigh to ankle spasmed, everything worked, :I don't think I'm even hurt very
badly.: Which was true enough as far as it went. He had no way of telling
what kind of injuries lurked under the masking pressure of the rock.
:I'm coming!:
:No, you're not!: He'd landed on his stomach, facing up a
slope of about thirty degrees. He could lift his torso about a handspan. He
could move his left arm freely. His right was pined by his side. Breathing
heavily, he rested his cheek against the damp rock and closed his eyes. It made
no difference to the darkness, but it made him feel better. :Gevris, you're
going to have to go for help. I can't free myself, and you can't even get to
me.: He tried to envision his map, tried to trace the route they'd taken
tracking the cat, tried to work out distances. :There's a mining settlement
closer than the farmstead, just follow the old mine trail, and it should take
you right to it.:
:But you...:
:I'm not going anywhere until you get
back.:
I'm not going anywhere, he repeated to the darkness as he felt the
presence of his Companion move rapidly away. I'm not going anywhere. Unfortunately,
as the mountain pressed in on him and all he could hear was his own terror
filling the silence, that was exactly what he was afraid of.
It was hard to hear anything over the storm
that howled around the chimneys and shutters, but Ari's ears were her only
contact with the world and she'd learned to sift sound for value. Head cocked,
tangled hair falling over the ruin of her eyes, she listened. Rider coming.
Galloping hard. She smiled, smug and silent. Not much went on that she
didn't know about first. Something must've gone wrong somewhere. Only reason
to be riding so hard in this kind of weather.
The storm had been no surprise, not with
her stumps aching so for the past two days. She rubbed at them, hacking and
spitting into the fire.
"Mama, Auntie Ari did it again."
"Hush, Robin. Leave her alone."
That's right, leave me alone. She spat once more, just because she knew
the child would still be watching, then lifted herself on her palms and
hand-walked toward her bench in the corner.
"Ari, can I get you something?"
Sometimes she thought they'd never learn.
Grunting a negative, because ignoring them only brought renewed and more
irritating offers, she swung herself easily up onto the low bench just as the
pounding began. Sounds like they didn't even dismount. I can't wait.
"Who can it be at this hour?"
Her cousin, Dyril. Answer it and find
out, idiot.
"Stone me, it's a horse!"
The sound of hooves against the threshold
was unmistakable. She could hear the creak of leather harness, the snorting and
blowing of an animal ridden hard, could even smell the hot scent of it from all
the way across the room—but somehow it didn't add up to horse.
And while the noises it was making were
certainly horselike...
From the excited babble at the door, Ari
managed to separate two bits of relevant information; the horse was riderless
and it was nearly frantic about something.
"What color is it?"
It took a moment for Ari to recognize the
rough and unfamiliar voice as her own. A stunned silence fell, and she felt the
eyes of her extended family turned on her. Her chin rose and her lips thinned.
"Well?" she demanded, refusing to let them see she was as startled as
they were. "What color is it?"
"He's not an it, Auntie Ari, he's a
he. And he's white. And his eyes are blue. And horses don't got blue
eyes." Young Robin was obviously smarter than she'd suspected. "Of
course they don't. It's not a horse, you rock-headed morons. Can't you
recognize a Companion when you see one?"
The Companion made a sound that could only
be agreement. As the babble of voices broke out again, Ari snorted and shook
her head in disbelief.
"A Companion without a Herald?"
"Is it searching?"
"What happened to the Herald?"
Ari heard the Companion spin and gallop
away, return and gallop away again.
"I think it wants us to follow
it."
"Maybe its Herald is hurt, and it's
come here for help."
And did you figure that out all on your
own? Ari rubbed at her
stumps as various members of the family scrambled for jackets and boots and
some of the children were sent to rouse the rest of the settlement.
When with a great thunder of hooves, the
rescue party galloped off, she beat her head lightly against the wall, trying
not to remember.
"Auntie Ari?"
Robin. Made brave no doubt by her breaking
silence. Well, she wouldn't do it again.
"Auntie Ari, tell me about Companions."
He had a high-pitched, imperious little voice. "Tell me."
Tell him about Companions. Tell him about
the time spent at the Collegium wishing her Blues were Gray. Tell him how the
skills of mind and hand that had earned her a place seemed so suddenly unimportant
next to the glorious honor of being Chosen. Tell him of watching them gallop
across Companion's Field, impossibly beautiful, impossibly graceful—infinitely
far from her mechanical world of stresses and supports and levers and gears.
Tell him how she'd made certain she was
never in the village when the Heralds came through riding circuit because it
hurt so much to see such beauty and know she could never be a part of it. Tell
him how after the accident she'd stuffed her fingers in her ears at the first
sound of bridle bells.
Tell him any or all of that?
"You saw them, didn't you, Auntie Ari.
You saw them up close when you were in the city."
"Yes." And then she regretted
she'd said so much.
:Chosen! I've brought hands to dig you
out!:
Jors
released a long, shuddering breath that warmed the rock under his
cheek and tried very, very hard not to cry.
:Chosen?:
The distress in his Companion's mind-touch
helped him pull himself together. :I'm okay. As okay as I was, anyway. I
just, I just missed you.: Gevris' presence settled gently into his mind,
and he clung to it, more afraid of dying alone in the dark than of just dying.
:Do not think of dying.:
He hadn't realized he'd been thinking of it
in such a way as to be heard. :Sorry. I guess I'm not behaving much like a
Herald, am I?:
A very equine snort made him smile. :You
are a Herald. Therefore, this is how Heralds behave trapped in a mine.:
The Companion's tone suggested he not argue
the point so he changed the subject. :How did you manage to communicate with
the villagers?:
:When they recognized what I was, they
followed me. Once they saw where you were, they understood. Some have returned
to the village for tools.: He
paused and Jors had the feeling he was deciding whether or not to pass on one
last bit of information. :They call this place the Demon's Den.:
:Oh, swell.:
:There are no real demons in it.:
:That makes me feel so much better.:
:It should,: Gevris pointed out helpfully.
“Herald's down in the Demon's Den."
The storm swirled the voice in through the open door stirring the room up into
a frenzy of activity. All the able-bodied who hadn't followed the Companion ran
for jackets and boots. The rest buzzed like a nest of hornets poked with a
stick.
Ari sat in her corner, behind the tangled
tent of her hair, and tried not to remember.
There was a rumble, deep in the bowels of
the hillside, a warning of worse to come. But they kept working because Ari had
braced the tunnels so cleverly that the earth could move as it liked and the
mine would move with it, flexing instead of shattering.
But this time, the earth moved in a way she
hadn't anticipated. Timbers cracked. Rock began to fall. Someone screamed.
Jors jerked his head up and hissed through
his teeth in pain.
:Chosen?:
:I can hear them. I can hear them digging.:
The distant sound of metal
against stone was unmistakable.
Then it stopped.
:Gevris? What's wrong? What's happening?:
:Their lanterns keep blowing out. This
hillside is so filled with natural passageways that when the winds are strong,
they can't keep anything lit.:
:And it's in an unstable area.: Jors sighed and rested his forehead against
the back of his left wrist. :What kind of an idiot would put a mine in a
place like this?:
:The ore deposits were very good.:
:How do you know?: Their familiar banter was all that
was keeping him from despair.
:These people talk a great deal.:
:And you listen.: He clicked his tongue, knowing his
Companion would pick up the intent if not the actual noise. :Shame on you.
Eavesdroppers never hear good of themselves.:
Only the chime of a pebble, dislodged from
somewhere up above answered.
:Gevris?:
:There was an accident.:
:Was anyone hurt?:
:I don't... no, not badly. They're coming
out.:
He felt a rising tide of anger before he
"heard" his Companion's next words.
:They're not going back in! I can't make
them go back in! They say it's too dangerous! They say they need the light! I
can't make them go back in.:
In his mind Jors could see the young
stallion, rearing and kicking and trying to block the miners who were leaving
him there to die. He knew it was his imagination, for their bond had never been
strong enough for that kind of contact. He also knew his imagination couldn't
be far wrong when the only answer to his call was an overwhelming feeling of
angry betrayal.
The damp cold had crept through his
leathers and begun to seep into his bones. He'd fallen just before full dark
and, although time was hard to track buried in the hillside, it had to still be
hours until midnight. Nights were long at this time of the year and it would
grow much, much colder before sunrise.
Ari knew when Dyril and the others returned
that they didn't have the Herald with them. Knew it even before the excuses
began.
"That little shake we had earlier was
worse up there. What's left of the tunnels could go at any minute. We barely
got Neegan out when one of the last supports collapsed."
"You couldn't get to him."
It wasn't a question. Not really. If they'd
been able to get to him, they'd have brought him back.
"Him, her. We couldn't even keep the
lanterns lit."
Someone tossed their gear to the floor.
"You know what it's like up there during a storm; the wind howling through
all those cracks and crevasses...."
Ari heard Dyril sigh, heard wood creak as
he dropped onto a bench. "We'll go back in the morning. Maybe when we can
see...."
Memories were thick in the silence.
"If it's as bad as all that, the
Herald's probably dead anyway."
"He's alive!" Ari shouted over
the murmur of agreement. Oh, sure, they'd feel better if they thought the
Herald was dead, if they could convince themselves they hadn't left him there
to die, but she wasn't going to let them off so easily.
"You don't know that."
"The Companion knows it!" She
bludgeoned them with her voice because it was all she had. "He came to you
for help!"
"And we did what we could! The
Queen'll understand. The Den's taken too many lives already for us to throw
more into it."
"Do you think I don't know that?"
She could hear the storm throwing itself against the outside of the house but
nothing from within. It almost seemed as though she were suddenly alone in the
room. Then she heard a bench pushed back, footsteps approaching.
"Who else do you want that mine to
kill?" Dyril asked quietly. "We lost three getting you out. Wasn't
that enough?"
It was three too many, she wanted to say. If you think I'm
grateful, think again. But the words wouldn't come. She swung down off her
bench and hand-walked along the wall to the ladder in the corner. Stairs were
difficult but with only half a body to lift, she could easily pull herself,
hand over hand, from rung to rung—her arms and shoulders were probably stronger
now than they'd ever been. Adults couldn't stand in the loft so no one bothered
her there.
"We did all we could," she heard
Dyril repeat wearily, more to himself than to her. She supposed she believed
him. He was a good man. They were all good people. They wouldn't leave anyone
to die if they had any hope of getting them out.
She was trapped with four others, deep
underground. They could hear someone screaming, the sound carried on the winds
that howled through the caves and passages around the mine.
By the time they could hear rescuers
frantically digging with picks and shovels, there were only three of them still
alive. Ari hadn't been able to feel her legs for some time, so when they pried
enough rubble dear to get a rope through, she forced her companions out first.
The Demon's Den had been her mine and they were used to following her orders.
Then the earth moved again and the passage
closed. She lay there, alone, listening to still more death carried on the
winds and wishing she'd had the courage to tell them to leave her. To get out
while they still could.
"Papa, what happened to the
Companion?"
"He's still out there. Brandon tried
to bring him into the stable and got a nasty bite for his trouble."
Ari moved across the loft to the narrow
dormer and listened. Although the wind shrieked and whistled around the roof,
she could hear the frenzied cries of the Companion as he pounded through the
settlement, desperately searching for someone who could help.
"Who else do you want that mine to
kill?"
She dug through the mess on the floor for a
leather strap and tied her hair back off her face. Her jacket lay crumpled in a
damp pile where she'd left it, but that didn't matter. It'd be damper still
before she was done.
Down below, the common room emptied as the
family headed for their beds, voices rising and falling, some needing comfort
and absolution, some giving it. Ari didn't bother to listen. It didn't concern her.
Later, in the quiet, she swarmed down the
ladder and hand-walked to where she'd heard the equipment dropped and sorted
out a hundred-foot coil of rope. Draping it across her chest, she continued to
the door. The latch was her design; her fingers remembered it.
The ground felt cold and wet under the
heavy calluses on her palms, and she was pretty sure she felt wet snow in the
rain that slapped into her face. She moved out away from the house and waited.
Hooves thundered past her, around her, and
stopped.
"No one," she said, "knows
the Den better than I do. I'm the only chance your Herald has left. You've
probably called for others—other Heralds, other Companions—but they can't be
close enough to help or you wouldn't still be hanging around here. The temperature's
dropping, and time means everything now."
The Companion snorted, a great gust of
warm, sweetly-scented breath replacing the storm for a moment. She hadn't
realized he'd stopped so close, and she fought to keep from trembling.
"I know what you're thinking. But I
won't need eyes in the darkness, and you don't dig with legs and feet. If you
can get me there, Shining One, I can get your Herald out."
The Companion reared and screamed a
challenge.
Ari held up her hands. "I know you
understand me," she said. "I know you're more than you appear. You've
got to believe me. I will get your Herald out.
"If you lie down, I can grab the
saddle horn and the cantle and hold myself on between them." On a horse,
it would never work, even if she could lift herself on, she'd never stay in the
saddle once it started to move; her stumps were too short for balance. But
then, she wouldn't be having this conversation with a horse.
A single whicker, and a rush of displaced
air as a large body went to the ground a whisker's distance from her.
Ari reached out, touched one silken
shoulder, and worked her way back. You must be desperate to be going
along with this, she thought bitterly. Never mind. You'll see. Mounting
was easy. Staying in the saddle as the Companion rose to his feet was another
thing entirely. Somehow, she managed it. "All right." A deep breath
and she balanced her weight as evenly as she could, stumps spread.
"Go."
He leaped forward so suddenly he nearly
threw her off. Heart in her throat, she clung to the saddle as his pace settled
to an almost gentle rocking motion completely at odds with the speed she knew
he had to be traveling. She could feel the night whipping by her, rain and snow
stinging her face.
In spite of everything, she smiled. She was
on a Companion. Riding a Companion.
It was over too soon.
* * *
:Jors? Chosen!:
The Herald coughed and lifted his head.
He'd been having the worst dream about being trapped in a cave-in. That's
what I get for eating my own cooking. And then he tried to move his legs and
realized he wasn't dreaming. :Gevris! You went away!:
:I'm sorry, heart-brother. Please forgive
me, but when they wouldn't stay....: The thought trailed off, lost in an incoherent mix of
anger and shame.
:It's all right.: Jors carefully pushed his own terror back
in order to reassure the Companion. :You're back now, that's all that
matters.:
:1 brought someone to get you out.:
:But I thought the mine was unstable, still
collapsing.:
:She says she can free you.:
:You're talking to her?: As far as Jors knew, that never happened.
Even some Heralds were unable to mind-touch clearly.
:She's talking to me. I believe she can do
what she says.:
Jors swallowed and took a deep breath. :No.
It's too dangerous. There's already been one accident. I don't want anyone dying
because of me.:
:Chosen...: The Companion's mind-touch held a tone Jors had never
heard before. :I don't think she's doing it for you.:
When they stopped, Ari took a moment to
work some feeling back into each hand in turn. Herald's probably going to have
my finger marks permanently denting his gear. Below her, the Companion
stood perfectly still, waiting.
"We're going to have to do this
together, Shining One, because if I do it alone, I'll be too damned slow. Go
past the mine about fifty feet and look up. Five, maybe six feet off the ground
there should be a good solid shelf of rock. If you can get us onto it, we can
follow it right to the mouth of the mine and avoid all that shale shit."
The Companion whickered once and started
walking. When she felt him turn, Ari scooted back as far as she could in the
saddle, and flopped forward, trapping the coil of rope under her chest.
Stretching her arms down and around the sleek curve of his barrel, she pushed
the useless stirrups out of her way and clutched the girth.
"Go," she grunted.
He backed up a few steps, lunged forward,
and the world tilted at a crazy angle.
Ari held her uncomfortable position until
he stopped on the level ground at the mouth of the mine. "Remind me,"
she coughed, rubbing the spot where the saddle horn had slammed into her
throat, "not to do that again. All right, Shining One, I'll have to get
off the same way I got on."
His movement took her by surprise. She
grabbed for the saddle, her cold fingers slipped on the wet leather, and she
dismounted a lot farther from the ground than she'd intended.
A warm muzzle pushed into her face as she
lay there for a moment, trying to get her breath back. "I'm okay,"
she muttered. "Just a little winded." Teeth gritted against the pain
in her stumps, she pushed herself up.
Soft lips nuzzled at her hair.
"Don't worry, Shining One."
Tentatively she reached out and stroked the Companion's velvet nose. "I'll
get your Herald out. There's enough of me left for that" She tossed her
head and turned toward the mine, not needing eyes to find the gaping hole in
the hillside. Icy winds dragged across her cheeks, and she knew by their touch
that they'd danced through the Demon's Den before they came to her.
"Now, then..." She was pleased to
hear that her voice remained steady. "...we need to work out a way to
communicate. At the risk of sounding like a bad Bardic tale, how about one
whicker for yes and two for no?"
There was a single, soft whicker just above
her head.
"Good. First of all, we have to find
out how badly he..." A pause. "Your Herald is a he?" At
the Companion's affirmative, she went on. "...how badly he's hurt. Ask him
if he has any broken bones."
:I don't know. I can't move enough to
tell.:
Ari frowned at the answer. "Yes and
no? Is he buried?"
:Only half of me.:
:Chosen, I have no way to tell her that.:
:Then, yeah, I guess I'm buried.:
"Shit." There could be broken
bones under the rock, the pressure keeping the Herald from feeling the pain.
Well, she'd just have to deal with that when she got to it. "Is he buried
in the actual mine, or in a natural cave?"
:She seems to think it's good you're in a
natural cave.:
Jors traced the rock that curved away from
him with his free hand. His fingers were so numb he could barely feel it. :Why?:
:I can't ask her that, Chosen. She wants to
know if you turned left around a corner, about thirty feet in from the entrance
to the mine.:
:Left?: He tried to remember, but the cold had seeped into his
brain and thoughts moved sluggishly through it.
"I—I guess so."
"Okay." Ari tied one end of the
rope around her waist as she spoke. "Ask him if the quake happened within,
say, twenty feet of that corner."
:I don't know. I don't remember. Gevris,
I'm tired. Just stay with me while I rest.:
:No! Near-brother, do not go to steep. Think, please, were you
close to the corner?:
He remembered seeing the blood. Then
stopping and looking into the hole in the side of the tunnel. :Yes. I think
no more than twenty feet.:
"Good. We're in luck, there's only one
place on this level where the cave system butts up against the mine. I know
approximately where he is. He's close." She reached forward and sifted a
handful of rubble. "I just have to get to him."
A hundred feet of rope would reach the
place where the quake threw him out of the mine, but, after that, she could
only hope he hadn't slid too deep into the catacombs.
Turning to where she could feel the bulk of
the Companion, Ari's memory showed her a graceful white stallion, outlined
against the night. "Once I get the rope around him, you'll have to pull
him free."
He whickered once and nudged her and she
surrendered to the urge to bury face and fingers in his mane. When she finally
let go, she had to bite her lip to keep from crying. "Thanks. I'm okay
now."
Using both arms at once, then swinging her
body forward between them, Ari made her way into the mine, breathing in the
wet, oily scent of the rock, the lingering odors of the lanterns Dyril and the
others had used, and the stink of fear, old and new. At the first rockfall she
paused, traced the broken pieces, and found the passage the earlier rescue
party had dug.
Her shoulder brushed a timber support and
she hurried past the memories.
A biting gust of wind whistled through a
crack up ahead, flinging grit up into her face. "Nice try," she
muttered. "But you threw me into darkness five summers ago and I've
learned my way around." Then she raised her voice. "Shining One, can
you still hear me?" The Companion's whicker echoed eerily. "You don't
need to worry about him running out of air, this place is like a sieve, so
remind your Herald to keep moving. Tell him to keep flexing his muscles if
that's all he can do. He's got to keep the blood going out to the
extremities."
:What extremities?: Jors heard himself giggle and wondered what
there was to laugh about.
:Chosen, listen to me. You know what the
cold can do. You have to move.:
:I know that.: Everyone knew that. It wasn't like he hadn't been
paying attention when they'd been teaching winter survival skills, it was just,
well, it was just so much effort.
:Wiggle your toes!:
Gevris somehow managed to sound exactly
like the Weaponsmaster, and Jors found himself responding instinctively. To his
surprise, his toes still wiggled. And it still hurt. The pain burned some of
the frost out of his brain and left him gasping for breath, but he was thinking
more clearly than he had been in some time. With his Companion's encouragement,
he began to systematically work each muscle that still responded.
The biggest problem with digging out the
Demon's Den had always been that the rock shattered into pieces so small it was
like burrowing through beads in a box. The slightest jar would sent the whole
crashing to the ground.
Her eyes in her fingertips, Ari inched
toward the buried Herald, not digging but building a passageway, each stone
placed exactly to hold the weight of the next. Slowly, with exquisite care, she
moved up and over the rockfall that had nearly killed Neegan. She lightly
touched the splintered end of the shattered support, then went on. She had no
time to mourn the past.
Years of destruction couldn't erase her
knowledge of the mine. She'd been trapped in it for too long.
"Herald? Can you hear me?"
Jors turned his face toward the sudden
breeze. "Yes..." :Gevris, she's here!:
:Good.: Although he sounded relieved, Jors realized the
Companion didn't sound the least bit surprised.
:You knew she'd make it.:
Again the strange tone the Herald didn't
recognize. :I believed her when she said she'd get you out.:
"Cover your head with your hands,
Herald."
Startled, he curved his left arm up and
around his head just in time to prevent a small shower of stones from ringing
off his skull.
"I'm on my way down."
A moment later he felt the space around him
fill, and a rough jacket pressed hard against his cheek.
"Sorry. Just let me get turned."
Turned? Teeth chattering from the cold, he strained back as
far as he could but knew it would make little difference. There wasn't room for
a cat to turn let alone a person. To his astonishment, his rescuer seemed to
double back on herself.
"Ow. Not a lot of head room down
here."
From the sound of her voice and the touch
of her hands, she had to be sitting tight up against his side, her upper body
bent across his back. He tried to force his half-frozen mind to work.
"Your legs..."
"Are well out of the way, Herald.
Trust me." Ari danced her fingers over the pile of rubble that pinned him.
"Can you still move your toes."
It took him a moment to remember how.
"Yes."
"Good. You're at the bottom of a
roughly wedge-shaped crevasse. Fortunately, you're pointing the right way. As
soon as I get enough of you clear, I'm going to tie this rope around you, and
your Companion on the other end is going to inch you up the slope as I uncover
your legs. That means if anything's broken, it's going to drag, but if we don't
do it that way, there won't be room down here for me, you, and the rock. Do you
understand?"
"Yes."
"Good." One piece at a time, she
began to free his right side.
:Gevris, she doesn't have any legs.:
:I know.:
:How did she get here?:
: brought her.:
:That's impossible!:
The Companion snorted. :Obviously not.
She's blind, too.:
"What!" His incredulous
exclamation echoed through the Demon's Den.
Ari snorted and jammed a rock into the
crack between two others. It wasn't difficult to guess what had caused that
reaction, not when she knew the silence had to be filled with dialogue she
couldn't hear. She waited for him to say something Herald-like and nauseating
about overcoming handicaps as though they were all she was.
To her surprise, he said only, "What's
your name?"
It took her a moment to find her voice.
"Ari."
"Jors."
She nodded, even though she knew he
couldn't see the gesture. "Herald Jors."
"Are you one of the miners?"
Why was he talking to her when he had his
Companion to keep him company? "Not exactly." So far tonight, she'd
said more than she'd said in the five summers since the accident. Her throat
ached.
"Gevris says he's never seen anyone do
what you did to get in here. He says you didn't dig through the rubble, you
built a tunnel around you using nothing but your hands."
"Gevris?"
"My Companion. He's very impressed. He
believes you can get me out."
Ari swallowed hard. His Companion believed
in her. It was almost funny in a way. "You can move your arm now."
"Actually," he gasped, trying not
to writhe, "no, I can't." He felt her reach across him, tuck her hand
under his chest, and grab his wrist. He could barely feel her touch against his
skin.
"On three." She pulled
immediately before he could tense.
"That wasn't very nice," he
grunted when he could speak again.
She ignored his feeble attempt to tug his
arm out of her hands and continued rubbing life back into the chilled flesh.
"There's nothing wrong with it. It's just numb because you've been lying
on it in the cold."
"Oh? Are you a Healer, then?"
He sounded so indignant that she smiled and
actually answered the question. "No, I was a mining engineer. I designed
this mine."
"Oh." He'd wondered what kind of
idiot would put a mine in a place like this. Now he knew.
Ari heard most of the thought and gritted
her teeth. "Keep flexing the muscles." Untying the end of the rope
from around her own waist, she retied it just under the Herald's arms. It felt
strange to touch a young man's body again after so long. Strange and uncomfortable.
She twisted and began to free his legs.
Jors listened to her breathing and thought
of being alone in darkness forever.
:I'm here, Chosen.:
:I know. But I wasn't thinking of me. I was
thinking about Ari... Ari...:
"Were you at the Collegium?"
"I was."
"You redesigned the hoists from the
kitchen so they'd stop jamming. And you fixed that pump in Bardic that kept
flooding the place. And you made the practice dummy that..."
"That was a long time ago."
"Not so long," Jors protested
trying to ignore the sudden pain as she lifted a weight off his hips. "You
left the Blues the summer I was Chosen."
"Did I?"
"They were all talking about you. They
said there wasn't anything you couldn't build. What happened?"
Her hands paused. "I came home. Be
quiet. I have to listen." It wasn't exactly a lie.
Working as fast as she could, Ari learned
the shape of the stone imprisoning the Herald, its strengths, its weaknesses.
It was all so very familiar. The tunnel she'd built behind her ended here. She
finished it in her head, and nodded, once, as the final piece slid into place.
"Herald Jors, when I give you the
word, have your Companion pull gently but firmly on the rope until I tell you
to stop. I can't move the rest of this off of you so I'm going to have to move
you out from under it."
Jors nodded, realized how stupid that was,
and said, "I understand."
Ari pushed her thumbs under the edge of a
rock and took a deep breath. "Now."
The rock shifted, but so did the Herald.
"Stop." She changed her grip.
"Now." A stone fell. She blocked it with her shoulder.
"Stop."
Inch by inch, teeth clenched against the
pain of returning circulation, Jors moved up the slope, clinging desperately to
the rope.
"Stop."
"I'm out."
"I know. Now, listen carefully because
this is important. On my way in, I tried to lay the rope so it wouldn't snag,
but your Companion will have to drag you clear without stopping—one long smooth
motion, no matter what."
"No matter what?" Jors repeated,
twisting to peer over his shoulder, the instinctive desire to see her face
winning out over the reality. The loose slope he was lying on shifted.
"Hold still!" Ari snapped.
"Do you want to bury yourself again?"
Jors froze. "What's going to happen,
Ari?"
Behind him, in the darkness, he heard her
sigh. "Do you know what a keystone is, Herald?"
"It's the stone that takes the weight
of the other stones and holds up the arch."
"Essentially. The rock that fell on
your legs fell in such a way as to make it the keystone for this cavern we're
in."
"But you didn't move the rock."
"No, but I did move your legs, and
they were part of it."
"Then what's supporting the
keystone?" He knew before she answered.
"I am."
"No."
"No what, Herald?"
"No. I won't let you sacrifice your
life for mine."
"Yet Heralds are often called upon to
give their lives for others."
"That's different."
"Why?" Her voice cracked out of
the darkness like a whip. "You're allowed to be noble, but the rest of us
aren't? You're so good and pure and perfect and Chosen and the rest of us don't
even have lives worth throwing away? Don't you see how stupid that is? Your
life is worth infinitely more than mine!" She stopped and caught her
breath on the edge of a sob. "There should never have been a mine here. Do
you know why I dug it? To prove I was as good as all those others who were Chosen
when I wasn't. I was smarter. I wanted it as much. Why not me? And do you know
what my pride did, Herald? It killed seventeen people when the mine collapsed.
And then my cowardice killed my brother and an uncle and a woman barely out of
girlhood because I was afraid to die. My life wasn't worth all those lives. Let
my death be worth your life at least."
He braced himself against her pain. "I
can't let you die for me."
"And yet if our positions were
reversed, you'd expect me to let you die for me." She ground the words out
through the shards of broken bones, of broken dreams. "Heralds die for
what they believe in all the time. Why can't I?"
"You've got it wrong, Ari," he
told her quietly. "Heralds die, I won't deny that. And we all know we may
have to sacrifice ourselves someday for the greater good. But we don't die for
what we believe in. We live for it."
Ari couldn't stop shaking, but it wasn't
from the cold or even from the throbbing pain in her stumps.
"Who else do you want that mine to
kill?"
"This, all this, is my responsibility.
I won't let it kill anyone else."
Because he couldn't reach her with his
hands, Jors put his heart in his voice and wrapped it around her. "Neither
will I. What will happen if you grab my legs and Gevris pulls us both
free?"
He heard her swallow. "The tunnel will
collapse."
"All at once?"
"No..."
"It'll begin here and follow us?"
"Yes. But not even a Companion could
pull us out that quickly."
:Gevris...: Jors sketched the situation. :Do you think you can
beat the collapse?:
:Yes, but do you think you can survive the
trip? You'll be dragged on your stomach through a rock tunnel:
:Well, I'm not going to survive much longer
down here, that's for certain—I'm
numb from my neck to my knees. I'm in leathers. I should be okay.:
:What about your head?:
:Good point.: "Ari, you're wearing a heavy sheepskin coat, can
you work part of it up over your head."
"Yes, but..."
"Do it. And watch for falling rock,
I'm going to do the same."
"What about your pack?"
He'd forgotten all about it. Letting the
loop of rope under his armpits hold his weight, he managed to secure it like a
kind of crude helmet.
"Grab hold of my ankles, Ari."
"Ari, I can't force you to live. I can
only ask you not to die."
He felt a tentative touch, and then a
firmer hold. :Go, Gevris!:
They stayed at the settlement for nearly a
week. Although the Healer assured him that the hours spent trapped in the cold
and the damp had done no permanent damage, Jors wore a stitched cut along his
jaw as a remembrance of the passage out of the Demon's Den.
Ari was learning to live again. She still
carried the weight of the lives lost to her pride, but she'd found the strength
to bear the load.
"Don't expect sweetness and light,
though," she cautioned the Herald as he and Gevris prepared to leave.
"I was irritating and opinionated before the accident." Her mouth
crooked slightly, and she added, with just a hint of the old bitterness,
"I expect that's why I was never Chosen."
Jors grinned as Gevris pushed his head into
her shoulder. "He says you were chosen for something else."
"He said that?" Ari lifted her
hand and lightly stroked the Companion's face. She smiled, the expression
feeling strange and new. "Then I guess I'd better get on with it."
As they were riding out of the settlement
to take up their interrupted circuit again, Jors turned back to wave and saw
Ari sketching something wondrous in the air, prodded by the piping questions of
young Robin.
:I guess she won't be alone in the dark
anymore.:
Gevris tossed his head. :She never had
to be.:
:Sometimes it's hard for people to realize
that.: They rode in
silence for a moment, then Jors sighed, watching his breath plume in the frosty
air. :I'm glad they found the body of that cat—I'd hate to have to go back
into the Den to look for it: Their route would take them nowhere near the
Demon's Den. :That was as close to the Havens as I want to come for a
while.: And then he realized.
:Gevris, you knew Ari wanted to die down
there!:
:Yes.:
:Then why did you let her go into that
mine?:
:Because I believed she could free you.:
:But...:
:And,: the Companion continued, :I believed you could free
her.:
Ironrose
by Larry Dixon
and Mel. White
Larry
Dixon is the husband of Mercedes Lackey, and a successful artist as well as
science fiction writer. Other stories co-authored by him appear in Dinosaur
Fantastic, and Deals With the Devil. He and Mercedes live in
Oklahoma.
Mel.
White is an accomplished writer whose work also appears in Witch Fantastic and
Aladdin: Master of the Lamp.
The tiny forge's flames comforted Ironrose.
Its presence was a constant in his life; not always a focus of his attention,
but there. Its fingers were of flame, which didn't caress him as a lover or
massage him, but still provided comfort to him. The spring which fed water to its
mechanical bellows was another constant, shaped by Adept magic to a simple
water funnel that split off for quenching and tempering.
Tempering was another constant in
Ironrose's life. He had always tempered himself, reciting oaths silently when
upset, bringing his spirits up with songs when saddened. Sadness, though, had
come to perch on his forge like a wingbroken vulture of late. His hard work was
valued by the Clan, and his skills were ranked well above the average for
Artificers. He was also well-thought-of among his Hawkbrother brethren—when he
was thought of at all. And that was why sadness was making his temper brittle.
"Ironrose? I've brought your
game."
He turned from the forge and laid down his
tools. It was Sunrunner, the lithe, strong hunter, only two-thirds his height,
half his weight, and utterly unattainable. She set down an overstuffed game bag
on a chipped worktable, and a sack of greens and wild herbs a moment later. She
looked at him expectantly.
"Ah. Sunrunner. Ah, thank you,"
he stammered. How foolish he must look! The largest of his Clan, all callused
fingers and strong arms, intimidated by this young hunter. And surely she knew
it. How could she not? His sweating certainly wasn't from the forge's heat. He
caught himself staring at her as she stood in a shaft of the late afternoon
sunlight, with dust motes dancing all around her. A sudden fire burned in the
pit of his stomach and he wiped his sweaty palms on his thick apron, trying to
calm the sudden thunder of his heart. It was all too embarrassing, and he tried
to cover it by searching for the arrowheads and bow fittings he'd made for her.
They'd been put somewhere. Sunrunner stood, looking quietly at him.
Where was Tullin when he was needed?
Tullin was, in fact, behind the forge
polishing an iron ring with a small file. Absorbed in his task, he hadn't
noticed the hunter's entry, but he did notice when Ironrose's hammer blows
stilled. That meant a visitor; someone to pick up an order or barter for the
smith's services. The small hertasi cocked his head and flicked his
tongue to taste the air. The scent identified the late afternoon visitor as the
hunter, Sunrunner. Lately Ironrose had reacted like a spooked rabbit every time
she visited the forge building. Ghosting up behind the smith, he tasted the air
again to catch the nuances of Ironrose's scent. No doubt about it—courting
pheremones. He bunked his large gold eyes in delight as he studied the scene.
The lonely human had finally selected a mate: the hunter that his own mate
served.
"Tullin!" Ironrose turned and
found the small hertasi standing beside him, silently holding half a
dozen arrowheads and the bow-fittings toward him. The smith accepted them with
a growl and turned back to Sunrunner as Tullin collected the game bag and
herbs. He identified the contents—rabbit, a tiny marshbuck, and tubers from the
southern marsh—more than enough to feed the smith for two days. The hunter kept
her bargain well.
Tullin watched Sunrunner trace a careful
finger over the sharp edges of an arrowhead. She was a good provider: a quiet
woman who appreciated well-crafted things. According to his mate, Coulsie,
Sunrunner was also very even tempered. Emotionally, she was well suited to live
with the shy metalsmith.
Critically, Tullin eyed her figure. Her
legs were strong; her hips deep and wide; adequate for large babies—perhaps a
bit too large for hertasi standards, but necessary for a woman of the
Hawkbrothers. Tullin picked up the two bags of food and ghosted toward the rear
door of the smithy. "You and she will be a very good match," he
observed casually as he headed toward the kitchen. "When will you offer
her a love token?"
"TULLIN!!!" Ironrose
wheeled, gaping after him in outraged indignation. Sunrunner stood frozen in
surprise. But all they saw of the hertasi was the mischievous flick of a
silvery-scaled tail as Tullin vanished through the doorway.
Tullin's mate, Coulsie, was tall and
stocky, with an air of quiet competence about her. She bobbed her head
affectionately in greeting as he trotted in. He nuzzled her snout, tasting her
warm, enticing scent.
"You take care of the hunter,
Sunrunner, don't you?" he asked as he set down the bag with the rabbits.
She nodded, handing him a sharp knife for skinning before selecting a knife for
herself.
"My Ironrose is most interested in
her. I think he needs to take her as his mate."
She slid her eyes toward him, her nostrils
flared with surprise. "She is one who walks alone. She does not need a
mate."
"Nonsense. Have you tasted their body
scents when they are near each other? I have. They have a hunger for each
other—and we both know how lonely they are. The only thing that keeps them from
courting others is their own belief that no one would want such as they for a
mate. This sorrow over their inner selves is only an old path that they tread.
Mated, they will overcome these things."
She gave a quick head jerk in protest, but
he nuzzled the point of her jaw and whispered softly, "Besides, what finer
service can we offer than to bring the Hawkbrothers that which they most
desire?"
Sunrunner's day had been as bad as the
previous ten. Her hunting had been dismal, but she stayed by her barter with
the ironcrafter and gave him the best she'd taken. The weather had been cold
and damp. The seasonal dance was tonight, and she was one of the few hunters
and scouts who wouldn't be going. She cloaked herself in bravado among her
peers, taking this night on watch "so they could enjoy themselves,"
but the truth of the matter was that when it came to celebrations, she was a
gray sparrow, as exciting as tree bark. So it had always been.
It didn't make sense, she repeated in her
mind, as she had hundreds of times before. It didn't make sense. She was
attractive enough; a hard worker, and responsible. Yet where were her suitors?
Some of the scouts were like the rabbits they hunted, yet she was never offered
a trysting feather.
It was a vicious trap—they didn't pursue
her, so she stayed away from where they might. She left scout meetings early,
avoided celebrations and gatherings, and became part of the forest at the
slightest indication of direct attention from a potential lover. Besides, just
any lover wasn't really what she wanted in her heart.
It didn't make sense, she thought, for yet
another time.
But what could be done?
There was no doubt in Tullin's mind what
needed to come next. The next step, of course, was to work on Ironrose, who was
as stubborn as the mountains and as open to subtle hints as the rocks
themselves. It would take a direct line, Tullin decided as he reentered the
forge room. The smith was hammering away furiously on an arrowhead. He was
putting too much force into the blows.
"Is that your love token for her?
Usually they like something a little less practical," he observed, his
tailtip twitching with amusement.
The smith turned, scowling. "I am in
no mood for hertasi jokes," he thundered.
Tullin raised his chin, baring his throat
in a submissive gesture. "I had no intent to offend," he said gently.
"Only, you were in a bad mood today and so was she, and I thought that it
might do you both good to go to the dance together tonight. But you would not
ask, so I thought I'd prod you into action."
"I don't need your help."
"True, but you do need a bath. I will
have a hot soak ready for you in a hawk's stoop," Tullin said before
Ironrose could muster a decent protest. "I can see tension in your neck
and shoulders, and that makes for poor work. And it's irritating your
bird."
In response, Ironrose's bondbird, a very
old tufted owl, opened one eye for almost an entire minute.
"I don't do poor work, Tullin, and I
don't need a soak right now. I've got bow-fittings to design for Tallbush.
Folding bow springs and runners, white to red and un-tempered. I have his
drawings right here...."
"Nonsense. You are tense. Your muscles
are like ropes and the air tastes of your weariness. There is no one at the
pools right now. You can soak for a finger's width of the moon's path and come
back to work after that. It will give me time to restock the forge and to bring
you the dinner that Coulsie has fixed. When you've eaten and rested, your
hammer will ring truer."
Ironrose hesitated and Tullin offered his
clinching argument. "Besides, a certain hertasi has prepared the
third pool to your liking and has sent for a mug of wanned truespice tea and
towels by way of an apology to you. It would be a shame to have them go to
waste, you know."
Ironrose stared at him for a long moment
and then, outsmarted, began removing his apron.
Sunrunner tallied her aches and bruises as
she slogged down the path to the bathing pools. She'd almost gotten caught by a
damned wyrsa while she was out today, and had scrapes and scratches that
stung even after being bandaged and salved. She'd also lost three of her new
arrowheads somehow, before they were even fletched onto shafts. Now she'd have
to barter with the iron-crafter again. If she wasn't so sure that hertasi were
infallibly trustworthy, she'd almost think Coulsie had taken them. Coulsie had
only clucked when asked about them, though, and shooed Sunrunner off to the hot
spring, promising to bring the hunter her evening meal while she rested and
bathed.
She sniffed the humid air of the bathing
pools appreciatively. Surely things were going to get better. She sat on a pad
of moss beside a steaming pool and wearily removed her stained and sweaty
clothes.
Ironrose yawned sleepily. The heat and the
wine had relaxed him, and he was reluctant to go back to work in the forge.
There was a slight rustle of leaves from the far edge of the pool. Tullin was
announcing his presence, he thought with a grin. Usually the hertasi moved
silently as the night, but Tullin seemed to be more aware of human needs and
occasionally made small noises to alert Ironrose to his presence. He opened his
eyes and met the gaze of Sunrunner.
She entered the water unselfconsciously,
then paused when her eyes met Ironrose's. "I... hope you don't mind,"
she faltered. "Coulsie said this bath would be unoccupied tonight. I guess
she didn't speak to your hertasi."
"Err... no. I didn't mean to stay so
long," he fumbled. "Fell asleep in the water." Ironrose reached
nervously for his clothes, but found them missing. "Tullin!" he
hissed.
"Is something wrong?" Sunrunner
asked, splashing water over her sun-browned arms.
He sighed. "Only that the hertasi are
being entirely too efficient tonight. It seems Tullin thought that my taking a
bath would be the perfect chance to take my clothes to be washed and
mended."
"I can pick another pool," she
said with a smile.
"I'm afraid it's too late," he
said wryly.
"You mean...?"
Ironrose nodded. "Efficient hertasi.
I just saw your clothes vanish. Nothing to do for it but wait till they
decide to bring them back."
She glowered at the bushes, then slipped
farther into the water. "Oh, well. I'm glad enough to find you here. I've
lost some of my arrowheads and need to barter for more of them. Don't know what
I did with them; I didn't lose that many arrows hunting."
He scrubbed at his arms with a small pumice
stone. "I've got some extras at the shop. You could come by in the morning
to pick them up," he offered.
"I'll need three of them," she
said. "I'm down to six good arrows now and that's not enough for anything
more than small game. I promised Winterstar a marsh-buck in exchange for a
winter blanket. I'm surprised to find anyone here," she added. "I
thought everyone would be at the dance."
He lowered his eyes to his forge-stained
fingers, thick from years of hammering metal. "Great clumsy thing like me?
At a dance?" he said wryly. "I'd terrorize the dancers and fall on
the musicians. You never saw someone so awkward and untalented in your
life."
"That's hard to believe,"
Sunrunner said as she palmed warm water onto her face. "You create some of
the most beautiful metalwork. I remember that metal buckle in the shape of a
lizard that you made for Starhawk."
He groped for conversation, finding that he
enjoyed talking to her, desperate for an excuse to prolong the meeting. A soft
rattle at his elbow alerted him that Tullin had returned and he turned to speak
to the hertasi. But Tullin had vanished, leaving behind a platter of
steaming rabbit and herbs—and two plates.
He filled one plate and shyly pushed it
toward Sunrunner. "Please... won't you join me? There's more than enough,
and Tullin brought an extra plate."
She reached for it, smiling her thanks.
From his vantage point in the bushes,
Tullin blinked his eyes in amusement. Things were going splendidly.
"Move over!" Coulsie hissed,
sliding into place beside Tullin. Tsamar and Shonu eeled through the bushes
behind her.
"Anything happening?" Shonu
whispered though whispers were not necessary. The hertasi language
sounded like a series of hisses and snorts to the untrained human ear, and
blended in with the rustle of the leaves in the wind.
"They're sharing food," Tullin
said with satisfaction. "And they're talking, too, about things other than
hunting and metalsmithing. It's going splendidly."
Shonu snorted softly. "Splendidly? He
misses her signals completely! Look, there, how she hoods her eyes and how her
hand signals 'come closer' each time she says something to him. He sits there,
nostrils dilated, ready for her, frozen like a statue, afraid to move. This
isn't 'splendid,' Tullin. Perhaps we should..." A long, clawed hand
reached out and wrapped itself around Shonu's snout.
"I remember the last time you had a
good idea," Tullin said with ironic humor. "We spent three weeks
trying to explain the situation to the Hawkbrothers and getting them all
settled down again. Bluethorn didn't speak to me for five days. I don't think
we need any suggestions about Ironrose and Sunrunner."
"But... but just look at them. At that
pace, our children's children will be having children before those two do more
than say 'good morning.' Those two need help."
"I remember how well Icefalcon and
Eventree fared with your help."
Shonu closed his mouth with a snap. Tullin
blinked his amusement and turned back to watch the two in the pool.
"But it all grew back," Shonu
protested in vain.
Tullin entered the smithy, blinking
contentedly in the early morning sunlight. Ironrose was already there, stoking
the fires of the forge. He tasted the air out of habit, noting that the smith
was in a good mood this morning. Gliding over to the worktable, he examined the
sketches that Ironrose had left. Today they'd begin on the new bow fittings for
Tallbush. He eyed the design critically. They'd need a fairly flexible blend;
one that could take a lot of stress... probably one of the eastern Blend Eight
ingots. As he turned back toward the ingot storeroom, a scrap of parchment on the
floor caught his eye. He bent and picked it up.
It was a drawing of a rose, caught at the
earliest flush of bloom; a graceful spiral of stem and petals reaching upward
like a promise. He studied it speculatively for a long moment, then tucked it
into his tool pouch. He hefted an ingot of Blend Eight and then, on a sudden
impulse, added a quarter-ingot of Blend Two to his load.
"Where are the drawings?"
Ironrose frowned, pawing through the nominally organized litter on his
worktable.
Tullin blinked innocently. "I set them
down there, on the corner of your worktable next to the other project. It's
still there. Perhaps you picked it up and put it somewhere else?"
Ironrose moved aside the metal bar of Blend
Eight. "Not under them. I promised him the fittings would be finished in
the next two days," he fretted. "I can't imagine what I've done with
them."
"Why don't you work on your love token
for Sunrunner while I look for them," Tullin suggested.
"Love token?"
Tullin pointed to the scrap of paper with
the rose, lying pinned by the quarter ingot of Blend Two. "A fitting
symbol; a gift more enduring than the feather, a thing of inner grace and
beauty with a strong outer form. Like yourself, or like the hunter."
Ironrose stared in astonishment.
"Really, she's not..." he began.
"...interested in you? Your eyes fail
to see what hertasi eyes see—how the hunter laughs with you as she does
with no other; how her eyes follow you sadly when you leave. Human eyes may not
note, but the hertasi do. Offer the token. It will not be refused."
He leaned back, resting his weight on his tail, a casual pose belied by the
interest in his wide eyes.
Ironrose hesitated. "If you think I am
wrong, make the rose anyway. If she refuses it as a love token, say that it was
only made as a gift."
"You have nothing to lose," he
added, closing in for the verbal kill. "If nothing else, she'll probably
give you a return gift of a marshbuck quarter."
Ironrose weighed the ingot in his large
hand. Tullin blinked mildly and picked up a lightweight hammer from the
workbench, silently offering it to the smith. Ironrose scowled and took the
hammer and turned back to the forge, grumbling, the design for the rose in his
hand.
As soon as the smith's head bent over the
design, Tullin darted for the back door.
Coulsie flicked her tailtip in satisfaction
as she took the day's kill from Sunrunner. Tullin slithered in the doorway
behind Sunrunner, carrying two arrowheads for the hunter's bow. He nodded and
touched muzzles with his mate, then handed the arrowheads to Sunrunner.
"I see you've had good hunting,"
he said. "Here are the three arrowheads you asked for—and two more, as a
gift."
Sunrunner took them, bewildered but
pleased. "For me? A gift?"
Tullin nodded knowingly. "I think
Ironrose is very interested in you. He would like to offer you a courtship
token, I think, but he is too afraid you will reject him—as the others have. So
I bring these to you for him, though I know he would rather send his heart. He
is afraid of love, but would welcome your friendship."
Coulsie hissed at him, shocked at his
boldness. Tullin blinked one eye at her, his claws flexing with repressed
mischief.
"Ironrose surprises me," Coulsie
murmured in the hertasi tongue. "It is a good move, but one I
thought he was too shy to make."
"I didn't say he SENT the two extra
arrowheads, now did I?" Tullin said straight-faced. "Nor did I say
that he made them. I said that they were a gift—and so they are. I made them
for her myself."
Coulsie flicked her tongue over her muzzle
thoughtfully. The Hawkbrothers relied on the truthfulness of the hertasi folk,
and while Tullin hadn't lied, he hadn't told the full truth, either.
"Tullin..." she murmured.
"Trust me," Tullin whispered.
"I have a plan."
"Move over, Coulsie! I can't
see!" Tullin prodded. "You're blocking the view!"
She looked at him speculatively. "Is
Ironrose coming?"
He nodded, wiggling to a comfortable
position next to her.
"And—?"
"He finished the token. It took me a
long time to talk him into bringing it with him. I came ahead to check on things
here and make sure that everything was prepared."
"Shonu's got dinner for two set up.
H'shama and Huli have the kitchen relay ready and Tsamar is cooling the ashdown
tea over in the stream."
"Good. Good," Tullin said with
satisfaction. "There's Ironrose now. He's slow tonight."
Coulsie looked sympathetically at the tall
form of the smith. "More awkward than usual, and stiffer in his
movements—if that's possible," she noted as the smith began undressing.
"Look how carefully he folds his clothes, taking his time. This was a hard
decision for him. He looks scared."
Tullin wiggled, rubbing shoulders with her.
"No more scared than I was when I danced my courting dance for you. But I
had tasted your scent and knew what the answer would be. Poor taste-blind Hawkbrother
only has what his eyes and his heart tell him. The eyes and the heart are
notorious liars. Not like the tongue. You cannot lie to the tongue." He
slithered down from his perch. "I don't see the love token he made,"
Tullin sniffed critically.
"The rose?" Coulsie said.
"Yes. It's not in his clothes
either," Tullin said, rocking back on his heels. "He must have been
afraid to bring it after all. I'll have to fix the oversight. Start the food
and drinks; I'll be back in a moment!" he whispered as he slid through the
leafy undergrowth.
The hunter toyed with the lacings of the
smith's apron she had bartered a moon's hunting for. Tallbush had managed to
keep it a secret; he was certain Ironrose would like it very much. She was not
so sure, considering the circumstances her heart told her it should be given
in.
Well. If he didn't seem receptive to a
courting gesture, then it wasn't really one at all. Just a gift to a skilled
artisan to thank him for his work. Nothing more. Easy to explain away.
Sunrunner smoothed down the outfit Coulsie
had prepared for her. It seemed entirely too soft, and it fit the contours of
her upper body perfectly. Below that, it draped like a hawk's tail when she
walked.
At least it wasn't in some shocking color
like a festival costume. It was a comfortable warm gray, speckled and
smooth-seamed. The most confounding thing about it, she'd realized after it was
on, was that it had lacings on the back that she couldn't reach herself. How
odd.
Ironrose cursed himself for his ineptitude.
If only he was more romantic, like his brethren, he wouldn't feel like he was
stumbling naked into a thornbush. He'd made the rose, thinking of her the whole
time, crafting the petals with his most beloved tools. He had cooled it with
his own breath, felt its heat radiating to his lips, and imagined Sunrunner's
kiss. When he had polished it, he'd imagined Sunrunner's body, smoothed under
his hands. And he had imagined her smile.
But now, he was as nervous as he had ever
been in his life. He had mustered enough bravery to come here and meet her, but
he didn't have the courage to go any further than that.
Then she appeared. He looked longingly at
her, drowning in her hint of a smile, wishing that he could say or do
something.
"Sunrunner. Good evening. Please. Join
me."
She looked for all the world like a gray
falcon flying along the ground as she came closer. When she slowed her walk,
her clothing billowed around her legs like a falcon spreading its tail to land.
She was grace itself in his eyes.
She gingerly laid down a pack and pulled
back a few strands of hair from her eyes. "I wanted to thank you for the
arrowheads. And for everything. I hope you like this."
"A... gift? For me?"
Her face flushed red. She nodded, then
looked away.
Oh, stars above, she... how could I have
missed this opportunity? I'll look like a fool, and she won't know that I....
A small, taloned hand reached out and
gently touched the smith's elbow. He turned. On a towel by the pool lay the
iron rose, gleaming softly in the starlight.
Babysitter
by Josepha
Sherman
Josephs Sherman is a
fantasy writer and folklorist whose latest novels are the historical fantasies The
Shattered Oath and Forging the Runes. Her latest folklore book is
entitled Trickster Tales.
Thunder shook the earth and lightning
seemed to shred the sky apart, and Leryn, crammed into this barely dry little
cave in the middle of the gods-only-knew-where, thought wryly:
Of course. Why should my luck change now?
The whole expedition had been a farce from
the start; he acknowledged that now with flawless hindsight. He was a city man,
curse it, a settled gem merchant with a settled business. What in the name of
all the powers had possessed him to up and leave it? To start over as a
wandering merchant? (Elenya, lost Elenya—No!) Bad enough to go
traveling among the more-or-less civilized peoples. But why had he ever been
mad enough to come up here, to this cold, rocky, godsforsaken wilderness north
of Lake Evendim? (Elenya, his mind insisted, his dear one, and the
panicky flight from a grief that would not let him rest—No! He would not
think of that!) Had he actually expected to start a profitable enough trade
with the scattered little hunting parties, their furs for his pretty gems?
Furs, ha! What did he know of furs? Of
course he'd failed! The locals had, as the saying went, seen him coming. And no
one had thought to warn him about the bandits who called the wilderness home.
Leryn shivered. Of his troop, only he
remained alive, and that only because he'd been lucky enough to outrun those
bandits.
Lucky. He was alive, yes—but thoroughly
lost in the wilderness with nothing more than his belt knife and the clothes on
his back. Yes, and with a storm like the end of the world raging all about him.
And did you want to live? a voice deep within his mind
wondered. Wouldn't it have been better to die at once and rejoin Elenya!
"No," Leryn said aloud, then
laughed without humor.
What difference did it make? He'd probably
wind up dead anyhow, more slowly, of starvation or cold.
At least the horrendous storm seemed
finally to be wearing itself out. A few more rumbles, one last flash of light,
a final burst of rain, then... silence.
Almost too stiff to move, Leryn uncurled
out of his cramped shelter, stretching complaining muscles. And for all the
burden of chill fear within him, he stood looking about for a moment, almost in
wonder. Gods, it was beautiful out here, even in the middle of all his trouble,
he had to admit that: rocks and sturdy northern forest all clean-washed and
glittering in the first rays of sunlight breaking through the dissipating
clouds. The air was so clear and cold it made him cough.
Eh, well, all this nature worship was fine,
but it wasn't helping his plight a bit. He had a goodly way till sundown,
judging from what he could see of the sun, and Leryn shrugged in wry bravado.
If he headed due south, he must, eventually, come out on the shores of Lake
Evendim, and from there, eventually, if he followed the lake along eastward,
maybe some friendly settlement.
And if he didn't, well, at least moving was
better than standing around waiting to die!
But Leryn hadn't gotten very far before he
let out a startled yelp and dove in the prickly shelter of a thicket. What was that?
Something large, tawny-gold... a gryphon? Had he actually seen a gryphon?
Leryn freely admitted he knew next to nothing about the magical, intelligent
beings, other than what probably fantastic stories the locals had told him. All
he could remember right now was that gryphons were definitely carnivorous!
But the gryphon ahead of him wasn't moving
in the slightest, and after a wary moment, Leryn struggled out of hiding. And,
much to his surprise, he heard himself gasp aloud in pity.
What a beautiful creature this was, all
lovely, graceful sleekness—or rather, what a beautiful creature it had been.
The poor beast must have been caught in the
storm. Either the lightning struck it, or the winds dashed it to the ground.
But why would such an experienced flyer
(judging from its enormous wings) have taken such risks? Leryn saw the carcass
of a deer still clutched in the gryphon's claws, and realized with a shock that
it—she? The gryphon was slender enough to be a she—she, then, could only have
been bringing food to her offspring. But where was her mate? Didn't gryphons mate
for life?
Ah well, there wasn't anything he could do.
Even if he could, by some wild chance, find where she'd hidden her young, there
wasn't any way he could help them. Leryn shook his head (his own loss, his
Elenya, and the child who had died with her—No!) and turned
brusquely away. But then he turned again and hesitantly approached the dead
gryphon.
"I hate to rob you, but I need this
more than you."
His belt knife wasn't the best tool for the
job, but at last, wincing at the messiness of the whole process (remembering
days at home, when servants bought and butchered and served his meat to him),
Leryn managed to cut off a good hunk of venison. What could he wrap it in?
Leaves, yes, nice broad leaves like these... there. It made a squishy package,
slung over his back like this, but at least he wasn't going to starve right
away.
Feeling a bit foolish, Leryn saluted the
gryphon. "Thank you. You've given me life."
He headed on, picking his careful way
through a tangle of rocks.
But then something wriggled away from him.
Something screamed in alarm, a long, shrill skree of fright that shot right
through Leryn's head.
"What in the name of—"
The terrified screaming broke off abruptly
at the sound of his voice. A bright-eyed, curved-beaked little head poking up out
of the rocks. "A gryphon!" A gryphon cub, rather, or pup or—or
whatever the babies were called. "You belonged to that poor creature,
didn't you?" Leryn murmured, and the baby stared. "Poor little one,
you can't possibly understand that she's dead."
The baby trilled softly, such a quick,
inquisitive little sound that Leryn smiled in spite of himself. "You've
never seen a human before, have you? No, you're probably far too young for
that. Probably never even left the nest before—before this."
The gryphon trilled again, impatiently this
time. I'm hungry! the sound seemed to say. I'm hungry and lonely, and
what are you going to do about it?
What, indeed?
You shouldn't feed it, Leryn warned himself. You'll only be
postponing the inevitable.
But the baby trilled yet again, wriggling
out of the rocks. Leryn froze, enchanted. What a funny, chubby, furry little
thing! It was about the size of a hunting hound—though no hound ever bore those
silly little downy wings or that spotted, striped, yellow-brown-tan baby fuzz.
The gryphon must be very young, indeed, because it was still just a touch
unsteady on its too-big-for-its-body paws.
Damn. I can't just walk away. "Uh, well, I do
have some meat," Leryn told the baby. "I only hope you can eat solid
food."
Gryphons didn't nurse their young, did
they? No, not when even the babies sported those sharp, curved beaks! Leryn
unwrapped the slice of venison, and the baby let out its ear-splitting scream.
"Hey, stop that! I'm moving as fast as
I can!" Using his belt knife, Leryn cut off a tiny sliver of meat,
wondering aloud, "I hope you don't need your food regurgitated, the way
birds feed their chicks. There are limits."
Judging from the way the little gryphon
practically tore the sliver of meat from his hand, that wasn't going to be a
problem. It paused only long enough to gulp down the fragment, then started to
scream again.
"Hey, hey, I told you, I'm cutting it
up as fast as I can!"
That didn't stop the ear-splitting
complaint. Leryn tapped the baby gently on the beak with the tip of his knife,
and the astonished gryphon fell silent, staring at him in innocent wonder. The
man winced.
"Oh, don't look at me like that. I'll
give you a good meal, but that's it. After this, you're on your own."
The baby continued to stare.
"Stop that! Don't you understand? I
can't stay here to take care of you, and I can't take you with me; you'd never
be able to keep up. Ha, you can barely walk steadily as it is!"
But the gryphon continued to watch him even
as it gulped down meaty sliver after sliver. At last it seemed to be full, its
little belly gently rounded. With a satisfied little churr, the baby collapsed
on Leryn's feet, staring adoringly up at him.
"Wonderful. Just wonderful. Now what
am I going to do with you?"
He reached a tentative hand down to the
spotted baby down, wondering if the little beast would let him touch it. When
it didn't even flinch, he stroked the gryphon gently, enjoying the fuzzy feel
of it. The baby smelled faintly of spices—cinnamon, was it?—and of that
delicate newness that all young things seem to have in common.
And for a moment, Leryn's hand paused in
its stroking as he remembered another baby, and Elenya—
Not I will not—No! "Ah, gods," Leryn murmured to the
gryphon. "I can't leave you here to die."
The baby churred again, almost as though it
understood, and Leryn sighed. Maybe this would work. The little thing was about
dog-sized, after all, and he doubted it weighed much more; a creature meant for
flight couldn't be too heavy. Leryn sighed again, knowing he'd already come to
a decision.
"All right, baby. We travel together,
at least till I can find an adult gryphon to take care of you. Assuming the
creature doesn't try to rend me apart first as a baby-thief!"
Ah, well, one problem at a time. The
gryphon had curled up on his feet, sound asleep. Leryn continued to stroke the
warm, fuzzy fur. And after a time, he realized, much to his astonishment, that
he was smiling.
He stopped smiling about midway through the
next day. The gryphon had tagged along after him nicely enough for a while, but
it was a baby, with a baby's limited attention span and lack of sense. First,
Leryn had to rescue it from a pond into which the little thing had fallen while
chasing a butterfly. Then he had to pry it out from between two rocks which were
just a bit too close together to allow the gryphon to pass. In between, the
baby would plop itself down with a baby's suddenness, instantly sound asleep,
or complaining with ear-splitting pathos that it was hungry.
Leryn glanced at the rapidly diminishing
chunk of venison and winced. It wasn't going to stay fresh much longer or, for
that matter, judging from the gryphon's appetite, last much longer.
And what do I do when it's gone? I'm no
hunter; I'm not even carrying a decent knife! Gods, I don't even have any way
of starting a fire!
At least, now that that spectacular, deadly
storm was past, the weather remained dry. But the air was cold, and it grew
colder as night fell. Leryn tried to sleep curled up in as tight a ball as he
could manage, struggling to ignore his aching, hungry body, but the earth was
as chill as the air. And for all his weariness, he couldn't get comfortable
enough to sleep.
But then a fuzzy little body, warm as a
furnace, pushed itself against him: the gryphon, whimpering softly. Leryn drew
the baby to him, glad of its warmth, and the two lonely beings at last slept
* * *
Leryn sank wearily to a rock, head down.
The gryphon pushed against him, trilling anxiously, but the man ignored it, too
worn to care.
How many days had it been of endless
walking, of hunger and aching muscles and skin chafed raw from the clothes he
couldn't change? How many nights of broken sleep and cold, never-ending cold?
The last scraps of the by-now-barely-edible meat had been devoured by the baby
a day ago, and though the gryphon had managed to snap up enough bugs along the
way to feed it—or at least keep it from that ear-splitting complaining—there
hadn't been anything for a human to eat. Leryn had tried to fill his
complaining stomach with spring water, but the water had been so cold it
chilled him to the bone.
You knew it was going to come to this
sooner or later. You knew you didn't have a chance of surviving....
"I just didn't know it was going to
take so long."
The gryphon cut into his bitterness,
pushing anxiously against him, trilling and trilling in panic till at last
Leryn roused himself from thoughts of death. He stared at the small, frantic
baby. And slowly it came to him that he couldn't die, not yet, not while this
small, so-very-alive creature was depending on him.
Leryn reached out a weary hand to ruffle
the gryphon's fur, then staggered to his feet.
"Come on, baby. We'll see how much
farther we can get."
The gryphon shrilled in sudden alarm. Leryn
stumbled back, staring blankly at the men who'd come out of hiding and into
whose arms he'd almost walked.
For a moment Leryn's mind simply refused to
function, noting only that these strangers were warmly clad, and looked
well-fed. But the gryphon continued its shrill screaming, stubby wings
fluttering, trying its baby best to defend him against:
Bandits, Leryn realized through the haze of weariness. Maybe
even the same who attacked me the first time.
What difference did it make? He certainly
didn't have anything on him of value, and if they just waited a bit, he'd
probably die of hunger or exhaustion and save them the trouble of—It was the
gryphon they wanted. They were going to kill his little friend for its fur, or
carry it off to captivity.
"Like hell you are!" Leryn roared
(or at least thought he roared), and charged.
The first bandit was so astonished by this
rush of strength from such a worn-out creature he didn't defend himself in
time. Leryn tore the club from his hands and laid about with it with
half-hysterical fury. The gryphon baby, shrilling a childish battle scream,
fought with him—small, sharp beak nipping, small, sharp talons scratching. But
of course they hadn't a chance of winning, not one weary man and one little
gryphon.
At least this'll be faster than dying of
hunger, Leryn thought
wryly.
Thunder deafened him, wild wind buffeted
him. For a dazed moment, swathed in sudden shadow, Leryn could only wonder how
a storm could have struck so swiftly.
But the storm was moving, shrieking, and
all at once he realized that what was looming overhead was a gryphon, two
gryphons, and he forgot all about the bandits as he stared in wonder at the
living golden wonders soaring down at him.
The bandits didn't waste time in staring.
They scattered in all directions, racing off into the underbrush like so many
terrified rabbits, and Leryn could have sworn he heard one of the gryphons hiss
in soft, fierce laughter.
They landed in a wild swirling of wind and
dust. The baby gryphon let out one startled little yelp and ducked behind
Leryn, then took a wary step out from hiding, gaping, every line of its small
body rigid with astonishment. For a long moment, Leryn stood frozen as well,
staring, too weary for fright, at the savage, splendid, vibrant size of them,
at the wise, keen, alien eyes watching him, at the beaks, wickedly elegant as
curved swords, that could snap him in two, at the gleaming talons that could
rend him apart as easily as he might tear worn-out fabric. He should be
afraid, Leryn thought, he really should.
But the last of his desperate strength was
ebbing from him. Leryn felt his exhausted body crumple to its knees.
And then he knew nothing at all.
He woke slowly, languorously, to warmth,
wonderful, spicy-scented warmth. Meat was being pushed at his lips, and if that
meat was raw, at least it was fresh and full of the promise of life, and he
chewed and swallowed without protest, feeling the dawn of strength returning to
him.
Then Leryn came to himself enough to
realize he was cradled like a baby against a gryphon's side, a golden wing
sheltering him, and it was a deadly beak so gently offering him food. The
beings must have known he was half-dead for want of food and warmth.
Ah, warmth, yes... it was so good to be
warm again... warm and fed and cozy...
...cozy as he'd been with Elenya, his
own sweet wife cuddled beside him in their bed, and the promise of new life
growing inside her.
The promise that had gone so terribly
wrong.
The memories hit him without warning, hit
him so hard that Leryn, still too weak to control his will, broke as he had not
during all the long, empty, dry-eyed days of mourning. Broke and wept against
the warm, tawny side, sheltered under the soft, golden wing while the gryphon
churred ever so softly, stroking his hair with a gentle beak as though he were
her child.
Her. He had no doubt of his protector's
gender. And Leryn heard, or felt, or sensed, he couldn't have said how, the
gryphon's own grief. She who had died in the storm had been this one's sister,
long lost from the nest: too proud, too sure of herself, heeding no one's advice,
taking an aging mate, one who'd died and left her and her young one alone.
Race, species were forgotten in their
mingled grief. And out of mingled grief came at least the seeds of healing.
"Eleyna, Eleyna, I still miss you, and
shall miss you all my life. But... I am alive. And I must go on being alive."
He could almost have sworn that somewhere,
far beyond space and time, she'd heard, somewhere she'd smiled.
Leryn sat bolt upright. The gryphon raised
her wing to free him, and he found himself staring into the wise, amused eyes
of her mate.
"ssso. You live."
"You speak!" Leryn reddened.
"I—I mean, of course you speak, it's just—I didn't expect—I don't know
what I expected."
The gryphon chuckled. "We hardly
expected you to ssspeak our tongue."
"Uh, no. I... uh... I'm not familiar
with your kind." Leryn glanced about, seeing a neat-walled cave—no, not a
cave, a ruin of some sort, human-built but plainly now the gryphon pair's nest.
"But the baby!" he suddenly remembered. "The little gryphon.
Where is—"
A small thunderbolt sent him staggering
back into the side of the female gryphon. The baby leaping at him, churring
with delight, wriggling like a happy puppy, until a quiet word in the gryphon
tongue made it reluctantly settle to the floor.
"You've brought my sssissster's child
to me," the female gryphon murmured. "For that we thank you."
"You kept the little one alive,"
said the male. "And that," he added with a chuckle as the wriggling
baby eyed then pounced on his tufted tail, "could have been no easssy
thing. For that we thank you, too."
"I could hardly have let a—a child
die!" A little shiver ran through Leryn at the memory of his own son,
who'd never known the touch of life, but he continued resolutely,
"Besides, the child kept me alive!" It was true enough.
"Without this little ball of fur, I would have given up a long time
ago."
"Yesss, but now the quessstion isss:
What do we do with you?"
"Ah." What, indeed? No funds, no
weapons, not even a change of clothes. "I don't know. In my home town, I'm
a merchant of gems, but—"
"Gemsss? The pretty ssstonesss you
humansss like? Then thessse mussst belong to you."
"My gem pouches! Where did you—"
The male gryphon licked his talons with a
lazy tongue. "I chasssed the banditsss," he murmured, eyes glinting
dangerously. "It wasss good sssport. And asss they fled, they dropped
everything they bore."
Leryn stared at the fortune glittering in
his hands. His gems, returned to him. Ah, gods, now he could start over, and
not waste the life he'd been given!
Suddenly it was all too ridiculous. Leryn
burst into laughter, gasping, "I—I've come a long way just to find the—the
path back to myself. And I could have managed without the hardships, thank you!
But," he added, bending to stroke the baby's furry head, "I think
everyone's happy with how things worked out."
"Everyone sssave the banditsss,"
the gryphons murmured, and gave their churring laugh.
The Salamander
by Richard Lee
Byers
Richard Lee Byers worked
for over a decade in an emergency psychiatric facility, then left the mental
health field to become a writer. He is the author of 7776 Ebon Mask, On A
Darkling Plain, Netherworld, Caravan of Shadows, Dark Fortune, Dead Time, The
Vampire's Apprentice, and several other novels. His short fiction has
appeared in numerous other anthologies, including Phobias, Confederacy of
the Dead, Dante's Disciples, Superheroes, and Diagnosis: Terminal. He
lives in the Tampa Bay area, the setting for many of his stories.
By my reckoning, the arsonist might strike
in any of fifteen places. It was sheer luck, if that's the right term, that I'd
chosen to guard the right location.
When it happened, it happened fast. One
moment, I was prowling the cramped recesses of the tiring house of the Azure
Swan Theater. Painted actors frantically changing costume squirmed past me,
glaring at the intruder obstructing the way. Their ill will didn't bother me
half as much as the flowery rhetoric being declaimed on stage. That night's
play was The Bride and the Battlesteed, a tragedy that blends mawkish
sentimentality with a flawless ignorance of life on the Dhorisha Plains.
Suffering through a particularly lachrymose soliloquy, I wished that the
theater would catch fire, just to terminate the performance.
Try not to think things like that. One
never knows what gods are listening.
An instant later, I heard a boom. Some of
the audience cried out, and the forty-year-old ingenue ranting on stage
faltered in mid-lament. Something began to hiss and crackle. I scrambled to the
nearest of the rear stage entrances, looked out, and saw that a patch of thatch
on the roof of the left-hand gallery was burning.
Then the straw above the royal family's
empty box exploded into flame. The two fires raced along the roof like lovers
rushing to embrace. At the same time, they oozed down the columns into the
topmost of the three tiers of seats. I peered about, but could see no sign of
the enemy I'd been hired to stop.
Shrieking people shoved along the galleries
toward the stairs. Others climbed over the railings and dropped into the
cobbled courtyard, where they joined the stampede of groundlings driving toward
the exit at the rear of the enclosure. In half a minute, the passage was
jammed.
It was plain that not everyone would make
it out that way. There was a stage door in the back of the tiring house, but
none of the audience had come in that way, nor was it visible from any of their
vantage points, so none of them thought to use it.
Abandoning my efforts to spot the
incendiary, I ran forward past two wooden columns painted to resemble marble to
the foot of the stage. Though the blaze had yet to descend past the highest
gallery, I could already feel the heat. "This way!" I shouted.
"There's another exit!"
Nobody paid the least attention. Perhaps,
between the roar of the fire and the panicky cries, no one heard.
I jumped off the platform, grabbed a
strapping, tow-headed youth with bloodstained sleeves—a butcher's apprentice, I
imagine—and tried to turn him around. "Come with me!" I said.
He snarled and threw a roundhouse punch at
my head. I ducked and hit him in the belly. He doubled over. I manhandled him
toward the stage. "I'm trying to help you," I said. "There's
another way out. Go behind the stage. The door will be on your right. Do you
understand?" Evidently he did, because when I let him go, he clambered
onto the proscenium.
I induced several other people to head
backstage. Eventually, others noticed them going, and followed.
Which soon threatened to create a second
crush, at the rear stage doors. I sprang onto the platform and dashed back
there to manage the flow of traffic as best I could, with pleas when possible
and my hands when necessary.
By now the air was gray with smoke. I kept
coughing. The Heavens—the machine room above me, the underside of which was
painted to resemble the sky—started burning. Sparks and scraps of flaming
debris rained down.
At last the stage was clear. My
handkerchief pressed to my face, I scurried toward the exit. The ceiling burst.
A windlass, used to lower the actors portraying gods and their regalia,
plummeted through the breach and struck where I'd just been standing. The
impact shattered the floorboards.
When I escaped the playhouse, I trotted
some distance away, not only to make sure that I was out of danger but to
better survey the overall situation. Turning, I noticed something strange.
Fortunately, the Azure Swan stood on a spit
of land that stuck out into the river. It wasn't close to any other structure.
For a while, the flames enveloping the building swayed this way and that, as if
groping for some other edifice they could spread to. At times they appeared to
move against the breeze.
Two candlemarks later, those of us who had
sought to defend the theater regrouped in a private room in a nearby tavern.
This council of war included several blades of the Blue political faction,
which vied with the Reds, Yellows, Blacks, and most bitterly with the Greens
for control of Mornedealth, an equal number of their retainers, Draydech the
sorcerer, and myself. And a singed, grimy, malodorous, and surly lot we were,
too. Also present was Lady Elthea, widow of a middling prominent Blue leader,
owner of the three businesses that had thus far burned, and my employer. Though
elderly and infirm, she'd insisted on venturing forth from her mansion to view
the site of the latest disaster.
"All right," I said, "we
searched the Swan beforehand, without finding any incendiary devices. Did
anyone see a figure on the roof? Or any flaming missiles?" The other men
shook their heads. "Then it's magic kindling these fires, Lady Elthea.
That's the only logical explanation." I looked at Draydech. "Do you
concur?"
The warlock was a short fellow in his late
thirties, younger than I, though with his wobbling paunch, graying goatee, and
the broken veins in his bulbous nose, he looked older. He'd served his
apprenticeship living rough with the nomadic Whispering Oak wizards of the deep
forests. Afterward, he'd embraced the amenities of civilization with a
vengeance. I'd never seen him eat a raw piece of fruit or vegetable, drink water,
or go out in inclement weather. Nevertheless, he'd lost none of the skills he'd
mastered in the wilderness. He was particularly adept at sniffing out mystical
energies, and, despite his exorbitant fees and extortionate habits, I retained
him whenever that kind of witchy bloodhound work seemed likely to be in order.
Now, however, raising his eyes from the
chunk of amber he'd been staring into while the rest of us glumly guzzled our
wine, he said, "Certainly it's magic. Judging from the appearance of the conflagration,
someone's conjured a salamander, a being from the Elemental Plane of Fire, to
do the job. But I can't find it."
I scowled. "Old friend. This is not
the time to angle for more gold."
Lady Elthea extended her trembling hand.
Her skin was like parchment, her knuckles, swollen with arthritis.
"Sorcerer, I beseech you. Some of our fellow citizens died tonight. More
could perish tomorrow. If you can help prevent this, don't hold back."
Jarnac, one of the Blue blades, rose from
the trestle table. "I'll take care of it, Lady Elthea," he said. He
was a lanky, sandy-haired youth, dressed lavishly but not tastefully in a
sapphire- and ruby-studded particolored doublet with intricately carved ivory
buttons. At his side hung the latest rage, one of the new smallswords, this one
sporting a golden hilt. Smallswords looked elegant, and were adequate for
fighting another gentleman similarly equipped. But they were apt to prove too
flimsy against a heavier weapon or an armored foe, which was why I was still
lugging my broadsword around.
As might have been inferred from Jarnac's
ostentation, he was New Money, with a parvenu's eagerness to parade his wealth
and sense of style; unlike most of his cronies in the room, he couldn't claim
kinship with one of the Fifty Noble Houses. Not that that mattered to me. My
birth was considerably humbler than his.
He dropped a fat purse on the table. Coin
clinked. "Take it, magician," he urged. "And rest assured,
there's plenty more where that came from."
Draydech gazed longingly at the money. I
fancy he came close to licking his lips. But at last he shook his head and
said, "I can't take it, sir, because I'm not sure I can earn it. Despite
Master Selden's slander—" he shot me a reproachful glance, which, given
our shared history, failed to inspire any remorse, "—I wasn't trying to
inflate my price. Rather, I was attempting to explain that something odd has
happened.
"We all should have seen the
salamander. They're not invisible, quite the contrary. Even if its summoner
veiled it in a glamour, I should still have spotted it. But I didn't.
"What's more, I've been sitting here
scrying, and I can't pick up its trail. Apparently someone's developed a
cunning new type of cloaking spell."
Sensing that he was telling the truth, I
said, "And until you work out how to pierce the charm, you can't banish
the spook, or guide us to its master either. Is that about the gist of
it?"
"I'm afraid so."
I sighed. "What more can you tell us
about salamanders?"
"A sorcerer enlists the aid of an
elemental by opening a Gate to its home plane, then bartering for its services.
It was probably fairly easy to recruit a salamander to start fires. They love
to do it anyway. The trick will be to keep it under control, to make sure it
only burns what the summoner wants it to."
Fire is a threat to any town. In
Mornedealth, built all of wood, the menace was all the greater. Remembering how
the theater blaze had flowed against the wind, the beginnings of a headache
tightening my brow, I wondered how our problem could get any worse. The answer
was immediately forthcoming.
Pivor, Lady Elthea's grandnephew and
closest living kin, sprang up from his bench. He did belong to the Fifty, and
no mistaking it. He had the kind of exquisite features and supercilious
carriage that only generations of controlled inbreeding can produce.
"Enough of this prattle," he said. "The mage has already
admitted he can't aid us, so we'll have to help ourselves. We know who to blame
for our troubles: the Greens." The company murmured agreement. They'd all
seen the unsigned threat, written in emerald ink, that someone had tacked to
Lady Elthea's door the night before the first fire. "So I say we strike
back at them at once."
"No," Lady Elthea said. "I
don't want—"
Pivor ignored her. "A lot of them drink
at The Honeycomb. We can lie in wait in the alley that runs—"
"That's a bad idea," I said.
"My gut tells me that not all the Greens are involved in this. We need to
identify the ones who are. Indiscriminate slaughter would only compound our
difficulties."
"If we kill enough of them, the ones
who remain will be afraid to send the spirit out again."
"No, they won't," I said.
"They'll merely seek to butcher you in turn."
Pivor's lip curled "I heard that when
you founded your fencing academy, you swore your days as a hire-sword were
over."
"You heard correctly," I said.
"Twenty-five years of soldiering was enough. Unfortunately, I have a
penchant for losing horses and needy friends. When the combination depletes my
coffers, I accept commissions of a certain sort. Pray tell, why are we
discussing this?"
"I was just conjecturing that you gave
up the mercenary life because you've turned coward. For, truly, you seem afraid
to fight."
No doubt he said it to shame me into
supporting his strategy. But of course there was only one proper response to
such an insult, and that wasn't it. Simply because Jarnac was near me, I turned
to him. "Sir. Would you do me the honor of acting as my second?"
One of Pivor's friends said, "That
figures. One base-born fellow looks to the other."
Jarnac colored. "It would be better if
you asked someone else, Master Selden, because I agree with Pivor. Not in his
assessment of your character," he added hastily, "but about what's
best to do. We shouldn't waste time trying to ferret out one man from the mass
of our foes. We should wage war on them all."
Balm, one of my more promising students,
said, "I'll stand for you, Master Selden."
"Thank you," I said. I gave Pivor
my best killer's glare. "Then perhaps we can arrange this
straightaway."
I'll give him credit, I couldn't stare him
down, but he grew pale, no doubt in belated remembrance of my reputation.
"Verrano, will you act for me?" he stammered.
"Stop this!" Lady Elthea said.
"Didn't you all come here for the same purpose? To succor a poor old woman
who needs your help desperately? Then I beg you, please, don't fight among
yourselves!"
This time, Pivor chose to heed her.
"You're right, of course. Moreover, this is your affair, and if you think
this man should be in charge, so be it." He bowed to me. "Master
Selden, for my grandaunt's sake, I apologize."
I bowed back. "And for her sake, I
accept."
"If we aren't going to massacre the
Greens, what are we going to do?" Draydech asked.
"The gentlemen of the Blues will keep
guarding my lady's properties," I said. "Perhaps one of them will
spot our human foe, lurking about the scene. You'll try to devise a magic that
will locate the salamander. I'll nose around and see what I can uncover through
more mundane channels. And by working together, we'll put an end to this
outrage." I wished I were as confident as I was trying to sound.
I contrived to approach the house from the
rear, then hid behind the stable. After a while, a maid trudged out the back
door and started tossing feed to the chickens. The birds were plump and lively;
she, thin and lethargic. Their feathers shone white in the morning sunlight,
while her gown was drab and threadbare. In short, they looked better cared for
than she was.
Which was more or less what I'd expected.
Her employer was famous for the sumptuous banquets he gave for his fellow
Greens, but, provided one talked to the poor as well as the prosperous, equally
notorious for his miserly treatment of his servants.
I checked the windows of the four-story
dwelling, making sure no one was peering out, then stepped from concealment.
"Hello," I said.
The girl jumped. "Who are you?"
"A friend." I showed her the
trade-silver in my hand. "With a proposition."
She looked yearningly at the money,
reminding me fleetingly of Draydech. But then she scowled and said, "I'm
not that kind."
"You mistake me," I said. "I
just want to ask you some questions, about things you may have noticed or
overheard. Though I must admit, there's a chance that something you say could
embarrass your master. So I'll understand if you decline."
She glanced over her shoulder at the house,
then snatched the coin. "What do you want to know?"
The racket in The Honeycomb was deafening.
The tavern was packed, most of the patrons were roaring drunk, and two lunatics
were playing bagpipes. We lads at the corner table had to bellow with the rest
to make ourselves heard.
"And that was that," said one of
my companions, a burly hire-sword with a forked beard, a broken nose, and a
Green favor pinned to the sheepskin collar of his jacket. "When they saw
that, armed only with a soup ladle, I'd killed eight of their band in half as
many seconds, the rest of the bastards turned tail."
"Amazing," I said. I was trying
to sound admiring, and truly, I was impressed by his powers of invention. I
stroked my false whiskers the way I always do when I wear them, to make sure
they aren't failing off. "Of course, if what we hear in Valdemar is true,
it's no wonder you men of Mornedealth are master warriors. Folk say you keep in
constant practice fighting one another. For instance, you Greens are at odds
with the Silvers, isn't that so?"
"The Blues," someone corrected.
"Pardon me, the Blues. What's that all
about, anyway? And who's winning?"
Smiling slyly, the fellow with the broken
nose said, "I'm afraid that's a very long story. And my throat's already
parched."
Taking the hint, I waved for the barkeep to
bring another jug.
Lithe and lightning-quick, Marissa flowed
through the gloomy practice hall, a dagger flashing in either hand and her
short black hair flying about her head. When she finished the exercise, I said,
"Your high guard is a hair too high."
"Says you," she replied. If she'd
kept to her usual schedule, she'd been practicing hard for a candlemark, but
she wasn't even slightly winded. "Good evening, Selden. Stop by to sign up
for some lessons?"
"Who could afford your rates?" I
said, sauntering from the doorway into the hall. "Well, perhaps I could if
I could stay away from the hippodrome, but that's by the by. I need information
about the Greens."
She shrugged. "I don't belong to any
faction, any more than you do."
"But most of the Greens who study
swordplay do so under you, just as the majority of the Blues train with me. I
know you hear things."
"Suppose I do. Why would I betray my
students' confidences to the likes of you?"
"To prevent a full-scale blood-feud.
To keep the city from burning down. Either one would be bad for trade."
She smiled crookedly. "Why not say, to
keep the sun from turning to dung while you're at it? You'll have to do better
than prophecies of doom."
I put my hand on my purse. "How much
do you want?"
"At present, I don't need money. It's
been a good season. But is it true that you learned sword-and-cape fighting up
north?"
I winced. A fencing master needs to hold
onto a few martial secrets if he hopes to shine among his rivals. "You're
a bloodsucking bitch, Marissa. You know that, don't you?" I unfastened my
cloak. "All right, grab a wrap and a longer blade, and I'll give you a
lesson."
And so it went. As myself or in disguise, I
roamed the city, gossiping, flattering, cajoling, bribing, and occasionally
threatening. Questing for information. Coming up empty. Meanwhile, Lady Elthea
lost a lumberyard and a warehouse full of bolts of linen. The latter fire
spread to a pair of tenements belonging to an inoffensive gentleman of the
insignificant Reds. Another thirteen people died.
Finally, reluctantly, I went to my
employer's home in the Old City to describe my lack of progress.
This time the council of war convened in Lady
Elthea's bedchamber, a high-ceilinged, dimly-lit room hung with somber
tapestries. Though clean, it smelled of her long illness. She lay in a canopy
bed, her shoulders propped by a mound of pillows. She seemed even gaunter and
frailer than the last time I'd seen her, as if some of her strength had burned
along with her properties. Jarnac sat on a stool beside her, holding her hand.
He looked haggard, too. Evidently the nights of futile, sleepless sentinel duty
were wearing him down.
"All I'm certain of," I said,
concluding my dismal excuse for a report, "is that there's no grand
conspiracy among the Greens. When they discuss striking at you Blues, they talk
about maneuvers in Council, sharp business practice, and the occasional duel,
not magic and arson. Indeed, most of them would never even consider a tactic
that could endanger the entire town. More than ever, I'm convinced that we're
up against one man, acting without the knowledge of his fellows. Unfortunately,
I still don't know who he is."
"And I still can't find the
salamander," Draydech said morosely. "It ought to light up the
psychic landscape like a bonfire. Even if they're sending it back to its own
plane after every chore—and that's unlikely, given the amount of energy
required—I should be able to sense the opening and closing of the Gate. And
yet..." He spread his pudgy hands.
"Still, we're grateful to you
gentlemen for your efforts," said Pivor with leaden sarcasm. He turned to
his grandaunt. "Now can we try my plan? If we just keep bleeding Greens,
we're bound to come to the fire-starter eventually."
"No," said Lady Elthea with
unexpected firmness. "I'd rather burn in this bed, if it comes to that,
than send you into the streets to slaughter people at random."
"But we can't bear to see you hurt any
further," Jarnac told her.
"No," Lady Elthea repeated.
"I forbid it. There has to be a better way."
"As a matter of fact," I said,
"I'm not done yet. I began by making inquiries about the Greens rather
than Mornedealth's community of sorcerers because the latter are proverbially
closemouthed. But now it's time to look at them. After all, one of them had to
conjure the spook. The question is, which?"
"Probably one of the Green House
mages," said Pivor impatiently. "Or if not, any one of a host of free
lances."
"No," said Draydech thoughtfully.
"The sorcerers hereabouts aren't saints. In truth, a few are scoundrels.
Still, we have an understanding. Certain tacit, self-imposed prohibitions. Now
that I think about it, I don't believe that anyone I know would unleash a
salamander inside the city walls."
"Then our man is a clandestine
practitioner," said I, my pulse ticking faster. "A rogue neither your
fraternity nor the authorities would tolerate if they did know about him. We
can conjecture that he generally sells his services to criminals. That he lives
in a bad part of town. That he hasn't been here long, or you would at least
have heard rumors of his presence."
"You're about to propose another
search, aren't you?" Jarnac said. "Well, I for one don't see the
point. You've already turned the city upside down."
"But this time, I'll have a clearer
image of what I'm hunting," I said. "Trust me, that makes a
difference."
Lady Elthea said, "I believe Master
Selden can find the wretch. Let's let him try."
"Grandaunt," Pivor said,
"you have to understand. Devoted as we all are to your wishes and your
welfare, this affair encompasses other issues. If an insult to you goes
unavenged for any length of time, that reflects on the honor of all the
Blues. And if we can't find a specific culprit to punish, it's better to
chastise all the Greens than do nothing. Selden can search if you want him to,
but we're not going to wait on the result."
"Year in and year out, I've watched
this stupid feud claim too many lives," Lady Elthea said. "I won't to
be the cause of it flaring up again. Please, child, hold off. I'm dying, you
know. This is likely the last favor I'll ever ask of you."
Pivor grimaced. "Very well. I'll give
Selden until midnight tomorrow. After that, the Blues will take to the streets
and settle matters our way."
"Fair enough," I said. I turned
to Draydech. "Finish your wine and come on. If I'm going to stalk a mage,
I want you with me."
A few blocks west of Stranger's Gate, the
streets narrow to twisting alleys, and the cobbles turn to muck beneath one's
feet. When the City Guards patrol the area, which is seldom, they go in twos
and threes, and as often as not, ignore the screams that ring from the shadowed
courtyards.
Draydech and I had been prowling this
warren since our departure from Lady Elthea's mansion the previous evening. A
weary ache in my joints attested to the fact that it was harder for me to do
without sleep than it used to be.
Still, I was in good spirits. Peering up at
the narrow strip of sky visible between the steeply pitched rooftops, gauging
the position of the waning moon, I judged that I had three candlemarks till
midnight. Time enough to forestall Pivor's assault, if, as I hoped, I was about
to net my quarry.
I pointed at a sagging post-and-beam tenement.
It had a cobbler's shop and a bakery on the ground floor, apartments above.
"If the kidnapper spoke true, that's the place. Can you sense
anything?"
Draydech squinted. After a moment, he said,
"Yes. The top story has a nasty sheen to it. Someone's worked magic up
there, some of it involving torture, sacrifice, and the Abyss."
"Sounds like our lad," I said.
"Is he at home?"
"I can't say. The residue of his
sorcery masks any other impressions."
"Well, there's an easy way to find
out. Come on." We slunk up the street, through a doorway that stank of
urine, and climbed four creaky flights of stairs.
I didn't see any point in giving the man we
were after a chance to ready a spell. I drew my sword and kicked his door. It
flew open and I rushed through.
My violent entry served no purpose. The
warlock was home, but in no condition to harm me. A bald, hooknosed man in a
hooded robe, he lay sprawled on a dark stain in the middle of the floor. The
reek of feces filled the air.
I knelt beside him, and, examining him by
the wan light that spilled through the open shutters, found a narrow slit on
each side of his throat. I tried to flex his cool, waxy-looking arm. It
resisted, but it bent.
Behind me, Draydech muttered an
incantation. A globe of sickly green foxfire appeared in the air. Its glow
revealed that the one-room apartment had been ransacked. A chest stood open,
and clothing lay scattered across the floor. Codices and pieces of parchment
were strewn about.
"Damn!" said Draydech. "The
Luck Lords hate us! Damn, damn, damn!" He kicked a stool across the floor.
Grasping at straws, I said, "Can we be
certain that this man is the mage?"
"Yes. I can tell from the lingering
traces of his aura."
"Shit," I said. "Well,
perhaps it isn't all bad. If the bastard's dead, he can't lead us to his
employer. But on the other hand, if the magician's gone, the salamander's gone,
so at least we don't have to worry about the town burning down. Right?"
"Wrong. The creature's probably still
around. No reason it shouldn't be. I suspect the mage commanded it to obey his
patron. Otherwise, Mornedealth would already be in flames. But without the
wizard's power bolstering the Green's control, the elemental could slip its
reins at any time. The threat of a conflagration is actually greater than
before."
"Wonderful," I growled, rising.
"We'd better search this place ourselves. I don't know what the murderer
was looking for, but—"
"Watch out!" Draydech cried. To
this day, I don't know what he could have seen or heard that I missed; it must have
been his mystical senses that alerted him. He sprang at me and knocked me away
from the window.
An instant later, there was a quarrel in
his back. He tried to speak and then he was gone, just like that, death's
ghastly conjuring trick that stuns and appalls no matter how many times one
sees it played on a friend.
Fortunately, though my thoughts were
frozen, my reflexes weren't. I threw myself to the floor. Another bolt whizzed
through the air above me. The marksman, who must be shooting from the window
directly across the street, had had at least two crossbows loaded and ready.
I didn't see much reason to stand back up
and find out if he had a third. It would be wiser to slip out of the apartment.
I crawled to the door.
Onrushing footsteps clattered up the
stairs. The cross-bowman's colleagues, without a doubt. It sounded as if there
were half a dozen. Long odds even for a fencing master, especially if one had
to worry about taking a quarrel in the back while one fought.
I wished I could lock the door. That might
at least buy me a few seconds. But, cunning fellow that I was, I'd broken the
latch. And as long as I was taking stock of my ill fortune, it was a pity I was
too high to leap from the window to the street. If I tried to climb down the
wall, the marksman would shoot me for certain.
I crawled back to the window, pulled off my
cloak, stuck it on the end of my sword, and raised it. Another bolt thrummed
overhead. Instantly, discarding the makeshift lure, I scrambled up onto the
windowsill and leaped.
Though the street was narrow, it was an
awkward jump, and I didn't land gracefully. I slammed down on my belly on the
marksman's windowsill, half in and half out, legs dangling. My attacker, a
skinny, coppery-bearded fellow, smashed an arbalest over my head.
For a moment, I blacked out. When I came
to, he was pushing me backward.
I grabbed the windowsill with one hand and
whipped out my dagger with the other. I thrust. The blade scraped a rib, then
plunged deep into the marksman's chest. He groaned and flopped on top of me.
I shoved him off, then hauled myself into
the empty apartment he'd been shooting from. When I examined him, I saw that
Draydrech was avenged.
My knees were weak, my crown throbbed, and
blood trickled down my forehead. I wanted to sit and rest, but I knew I mustn't
give my remaining assailants a chance to figure out where I'd gone and tree me
again. I dragged my dagger out of the redhead's breast, then hurried out the
door.
By the time I reached Lady Elthea's
mansion, I felt a little better. Perhaps in recognition of the noblewoman's
disapproval, Pivor's miniature army, if one cared to dignify it with that name,
was awaiting midnight outside in her garden. He'd gathered about a hundred men,
those who'd stood watch over his kinswoman's holdings plus some new recruits.
Casks of ale and wine sat on trestles beside a dry fountain, and the cool night
air smelled of drink.
Working my way through the throng, I
spotted Pivor drinking from a tankard. "Good evening," I hailed him.
He pivoted. Squinted. "You're
hurt."
"A scratch," I said. "You
can send the mob home."
He frowned. "Are you saying you found
the magician?"
"More or less. I'm sure you can
appreciate that no one should hear my tidings before my employer." I waved
down a passing footman. "Please tell your mistress Selden is here."
I thought he'd return and usher me into her
presence, but instead, leaning heavily on a gleaming bronzewood staff, she
hobbled out onto the marble steps beneath the porte-cochere. At her appearance,
a hush settled over the crowd.
I bowed. "My lady. I know your enemy's
name." The Blue blades jabbered excitedly. "I deduced it not a
candlemark ago. Truth to tell, I should have realized before, but I'm like
everyone else in Mornedealth. I'm so wearily familiar with the enmity between
Blue and Green that it was difficult to think beyond it."
Pivor gaped at me. "Are you saying the
incendiary isn't a Green? What about the threat?"
"Anyone can buy green ink. The letter
was merely a ruse to divert suspicion from the real culprit. Think about it:
Lady Elthea isn't active in public life. Even her late husband didn't make
himself any more obnoxious to the Greens than many another member of your
faction. Why, then, would a Green choose to persecute her and her alone of all
your number? Wouldn't it make more sense to attack a genuine Blue leader such
as you?"
Pivor opened his mouth, then closed it
again.
"While you ponder that," I
continued, "you can chew on this as well. Lady Elthea, we all worried that
you would indeed burn in your bed, but, in point of fact, the salamander never
came here. Instead, it devoted its attentions to your commercial ventures. Once
again, if your foe intends your destruction, one has to wonder why.
"Here's what I think. You have a
wealthy friend. Like me, he started common and shinned his way up into the
lesser gentry. Unlike me, he yearns to rise higher still. In Mornedealth, that
isn't easy, so he decided to ruin you, then offer to cover your losses if you'd
adopt him. Or perhaps he wouldn't have been so crude; he might have relied on
your gratitude. Either way, he expected to gain a title and membership in one
of the Fifty Noble Houses." I turned. "Isn't that right, Master
Jarnac?"
Jarnac glared at me. "This is
absurd."
"Is it? Once we started standing watch,
every building that caught fire did so while you were guarding it. Moreover,
Draydech and I found the mage who conjured the salamander slain. By a thrust
from a thin blade like yours. No Green knew we were hunting the warlock, but
you did. You were here when we hatched the plan. Since the man could identify
you, you got to him first, silenced him, and ransacked his quarters to make
sure that he hadn't written your name down anywhere. Afterward, you found you
were still afraid. Maybe you were worried that your search had missed
something, or that Draydech's sorcery could make a dead man speak. In any
event, you hired a band of assassins to lie in wait for us. Perhaps, in the
moments of life remaining to you, it will console you to know that only I escaped."
Pivor said, "Hold on. How do you know
that the fire wizard died after you left here yesterday?"
"As a corpse cools, it stiffens,"
I replied. "But after the better part of a day, it starts to go limp
again. The body was at that stage when I found it."
Jarnac's forehead glistened with sweat. His
voice breaking, he said, "You can't prove a single thing against me."
"True," I said. "Not to the
satisfaction of a court of law. But I don't have to. I've cast aspersions on
your honor, and you're supposed to call me out. If you don't, I'll challenge
you, and you'll still have to fight. It's time you learned: there are drawbacks
to being an aristocrat."
He turned. "Lady Elthea, I
swear—"
Her old eyes glittered. "You vile thing."
Jarnac's face crumpled. "All right. I
confess. I surrender. Send for the City Guards."
I couldn't help feeling disappointed.
Though I was confident that the authorities would behead him in due course, I
wanted to kill him myself. But I also figured we needed him alive for the
nonce, to help us deal with the salamander. "Tell us about the
elemental," I said.
"As you wish," he said. He opened
his collar and pulled out a round brass medallion on a chain. "That will
be the true consolation, getting rid of the beast." He lifted the chain
over his head. "You can't imagine how it's been. I didn't mean to harm
anyone. But the thing kept pushing and squirming—"
His sandy hair burst into flame.
An instant later, fire blazed out of his
eye sockets and silently screaming mouth. His skin shone dazzling white, like
molten metal, and wisps of blackened cloth flew away from his body. Crying out
in shock and terror, the men around him recoiled. For a moment, he reeled about
in manifest agony, then dropped into a truculent crouch.
At last, too late, I understood why
Draydech had never been able to find the spirit. Its summoner had somehow
hidden it inside Jarnac. And now, seizing control, it had transmuted
their mingled substance into something more nearly resembling its native form.
I drew my dagger and lunged. Heat seared
me. My point plunged into the salamander's breast. Seemingly unhurt, it lifted
one fiery hand to seize me.
I sidestepped its grab and slashed at its
other hand. The dagger snagged the chain, and I ripped it out of the
elemental's grasp.
Evidently, it had been a good idea, because
the salamander snarled and tried to snatch the medallion back. I surmised that
in the hands of a mage, it might have the power to subdue the creature.
Wishing that I were a sorcerer, wincing at
the blistering touch of the metal, I gripped the chain securely in my fist,
wheeled, and ran. The panicky Blues parted before me, clearing my path to the
street. The salamander lumbered in pursuit.
After a few steps, it became apparent that
the creature couldn't catch me. Perhaps it would have been slow in any world,
in any form, but more likely it was clumsy using Jarnac's legs. Foolishly, I
imagined that for the next little while, my primary problem might be making
sure that it didn't abandon the chase.
The air around me grew warmer. I glanced
back, but the salamander, now entirely enveloped in a corona of hissing blue
flame, was still several yards back. For another heartbeat, I still failed to
grasp what was happening. Then I remembered how the spirit had kindled fire at
a distance, simply by willing it.
I dodged, an instant too late. The blast
hurled me through the air and smashed me down on the cobbles. Though stunned, I
started to scramble up, then noticed that my left sleeve was on fire. I rolled
over and over till the blaze went out, then jumped to my feet and dashed on.
From then on, my progress was a nightmare.
Explosions blinded and deafened me. Gasps of hot air charred my throat. By
zigzagging, I managed to prevent the salamander from centering a blast on me,
but only at the cost of eroding my lead. All things considered, I was
reasonably certain that I'd never reach my destination.
But I was wrong. Eventually I staggered
around a corner and there it was, the ground on which I'd chosen to make my
stand. I ran a few more feet, drawing the salamander to where I wanted it. Then
I sucked in a deep breath, spun, and charged.
Perhaps the maneuver surprised it, because
it didn't even try to get out of my way. I grappled it and bulled it backward.
It wrapped its blazing arms around me.
The next moment seemed to last an eternity.
I felt my skin crisping, my tunic, breeches, and eyebrows catching fire. Then
the salamander and I plunged off the river-bank.
As I'd prayed, the elemental's halo of
flame went out when we splashed into the stream. But its flesh was still hot.
The water around it started to boil. I imagined that in time it could cook me
like a crayfish.
But now that I had the elemental submerged,
I wasn't about to give it a chance to come up for air. Clinging to it, I stabbed
it again and again. As far as I could tell, these new wounds didn't trouble it
either. Meanwhile, it tried to thrust me away.
Though no one could have seen much in the
dark water, I still sensed my vision fading. My ears rang and my chest ached,
the compulsion to gulp a breath becoming insupportable.
And then the salamander stopped struggling.
Its body turned soft, crumbled and dissolved in the current, as if it had
burned itself to ash.
I dropped the knife and amulet, then, with
the dregs of my strength, floundered to the surface. After filling my lungs
several times, I paddled to the shore, only to discover that my arms were too
feeble to drag me out of the river.
Gauntleted hands gripped my wrists and
hauled me onto the grass. "I came after you," Pivor said.
"I'm afraid you missed all the
fun," I wheezed. "They're dead, the spook and Jarnac both." I
started coughing. I wondered vaguely if it was from swallowing smoke or water.
"You need a Healer!"
"That would be nice. Not that I'm
dying, but I could definitely use some ointment for my scorched parts. Just let
me lie here a minute, and then, I think, I'll be able to walk."
After a pause, Pivor said, "Thank you
for bringing us the truth. I keep thinking about things my grandaunt has always
said. And all the blood I nearly shed, for nothing. Do you think there might be
an honorable way to end the feud? I mean, without killing all the Greens."
I smiled, which hurt my face. "It's
worth considering," I said.
A Child's
Adventures
by Janni Lee
Simner
Janni Lee Simner grew up in
New York and has been making her way west ever since. She spent nearly a decade
in the Midwest, where the recent floods formed some of the background for this
story; currently she lives in the much drier Arizona desert. She's sold stories
to nearly two dozen anthologies and magazines, including Realms of Fantasy
and Sisters in Fantasy 2. Her first three books, Ghost Horse, The
Haunted Trail, and Ghost Vision, have been published by Scholastic.
When the Companion first appeared in the marketplace,
Inya hoped it had come for one of the grandchildren. Such a thing wasn't
unheard of, even in a village as small as River's Bend. Companions were said
not to care about rank, or about where people were born.
The people milling around the square froze
at the sound of those bridle bells, at the sight of the graceful white
creature, too perfect to be a horse, trailing silver and sky-blue trappings.
The Companion had no rider, and everyone knew what that meant. She had come
searching, maybe for one of them.
Lara fidgeted at Inya's side, and Inya
squeezed the girl's hand. Mariel stood beside them, large-eyed and still. Lara
was too young, but Mariel, just sliding into the awkward lankiness between
childhood and adulthood, was not. Companions came for children Mariel's age all
the time. Anyone who spent an evening listening to a tavern minstrel knew that.
The Companion tossed her head, mane falling
down her back like soft winter snow, sapphire eyes scanning the crowd. Then she
started forward, bells jingling, steps light and quick. Inya heard Mariel catch
her breath. After all, she'd heard the minstrels, too.
But maybe, just this once, the stories
would turn true. The Companion stepped toward them, until Inya saw her breath,
frosty in the late autumn air. Another step, and she would be within reach.
Another step—
A wet, silky muzzle nudged Inya's chest.
She looked down, startled. The Companion looked back at her, through eyes
bright and very deep. Inya felt herself falling, drowning in that endless blue.
At the bottom waited friendship, and welcoming, and a life without loneliness.
The world tilted crazily around her, but for a long moment she didn't care.
The moment ended. Inya pulled herself away,
flinging the Companion's reins to the ground. She hadn't even realized she was
holding them. The ground steadied beneath her; the world came back into focus.
The Companion kept staring at her.
Something brushed Inya's mind, soft as a feather. :I Choose you:, a
voice whispered. :After all my searching, I Choose you:.
As a child, Inya had dreamed about hearing
that voice. But that was a long time ago. She didn't have time, now, for a
child's adventures. She had a farm to keep up. She had grandchildren to raise.
And someone had to look after the girls' father, too. The Companion had made a
mistake. Inya couldn't run off, not now.
"Go away," Inya whispered. She
twisted a gray strand of hair between her fingers. "I'm too old. You're
too late. Go away."
The Companion shook her head. :You:.
"Take one of the children. They're who
you're looking for, not me."
The Companion snorted, a surprisingly
horselike sound. She knelt beside Inya, inviting her to mount.
"No!" Inya turned from the
Companion's sapphire eyes. Her foot slipped on a loose stone, and pain shot
through her knee, so sharp she caught her breath. She stood still for several
minutes, waiting for the pain to fade.
Even if she could leave her home and her
family, she couldn't follow the Companion. Who ever heard of a Herald with bad
knees, with joints that ached whenever it rained?
She felt warm breath on her neck. The
muscles down her back tensed. "Go away. You've made a mistake."
"I wish mistakes like that would
happen to me."
Inya turned to see Mariel standing beside
her, the bag with their purchases swinging from one shoulder. The girl's face
had a twisted, angry look. :You should have come for Mariel:, Inya
thought again. She sighed, taking Mariel's hand. She had to get home, to start
on dinner, to clean the house. Whatever dreams she'd had as a child, she didn't
have time, now, to argue with Companions.
Lara came up at Inya's other side, and Inya
took her hand, too. People lingered in the square, staring. Inya ignored them.
She started past the jumble of stalls and vendors, toward home.
Lara twisted around and looked over her
shoulder. "She's following us." The girl giggled, as if the idea were
terribly funny.
Mariel dropped Inya's hand, turning to look
for herself. "You have to stop," she said. "You can't just leave
her there." Mariel's voice was fierce. "You can't."
"It's not your place to tell me what I
can or can't do," Inya said sharply. "Now come along."
She kept walking. Mariel followed, but she
wouldn't take Inya's hand again.
All the way home, Inya didn't turn around.
Even though she heard the Companion's steps, light as snowfall, behind her.
By the time they got home, an icy rain was
falling, turning the dirt road to mud. Inya shivered, dropping Lara's hand to
pull her cloak close around her shoulders. Over the steady patter of the rain,
Inya no longer heard the Companion's hoofs. Maybe she had finally gone away.
Lara started to run, and Inya, unable to
keep up, let her. Mariel followed her sister, the two of them racing for the
house.
Inya skirted the edge of the fields, where
the girls' father was working. Jory nodded as she walked past. He was
splattered with mud, brown curls plastered to his face. Beside him a dappled
brown horse was hooked to the plow, deep in mud itself.
Beyond their land, through the trees, Inya
saw the dark band of the river. Even from where she stood, she could tell the
water was rising. Tongues of water lapped at the trees.
Inya kept walking, past a battered barn and
on to the house. She started a fire in the kitchen hearth, and made the girls
change into dry clothes.
Mariel avoided Inya's eyes. She wouldn't
talk to her, and she ran back outside as soon as she'd changed, muttering
something about helping her father. Inya sighed.
She started on dinner, Lara by her side,
trying to help but mostly just getting flour in her face and short curls. The
fire quickly took the chill from the room, and the smell of simmering soup made
the cold outside feel even farther away. Inya kneaded the smooth, hard dough
beneath her fingers, trying to forget the Companion's bottomless eyes, trying
to forget the silky whisper in her head.
Jory and Mariel came in just after dark.
They ate in silence. Jory wolfed down his food, face tired and tight. Mariel
didn't eat at all, just stared at Inya with an unreadable expression. Outside,
the wind picked up, whistling through the gaps around the door. One of the
hinges was wearing loose. Inya needed to fix it before winter.
Jory looked up. "I spoke to old Caron
today." Jory's tangled curls fell into his face. Lara looked a lot like
him. Mariel was the one who looked like their mother—Inya's daughter. She
couldn't believe Anara had been gone almost a year.
Inya fixed her gaze on Jory. "What'd
Caron say?"
"He offered me half again what he'd
offered before—more than this farm's ever going to make on its own." Jory
buttered a thick slice of bread. "I said I'd think about it."
Inya stiffened. "It's not your
decision to make." The farm had been in her family for generations, since
before River's Bend was more than a few scattered houses, before the village
even had a name.
"Well, maybe you should think about
it, too," Jory said.
They'd had this discussion before. Caron
had first approached Jory nearly two years ago. The farm, once a candlemark's
walk from the next nearest house, was now close to the village. The merchant
wanted to build a tavern there, and maybe a couple of shops.
At first Jory had refused, just as Inya
expected him to. Then Anara had died, giving birth to a child who died a few
hours after her. After that, Jory took Caron more seriously. "My heart
isn't in this place anymore," he'd told Inya once.
Jory's family had moved to River's Bend
when he was a child. He didn't know what it was like to be in a place for
hundreds of years, to stay with it through good times and bad.
"We could move up to Haven." Jory
had finished the bread and reached for the ale pitcher. "With what Caron's
willing to pay, we could start all over again."
"This is our home."
"Anywhere can be home." Jory's
voice rose. "Unless you're too foolish to let it be."
"Jory." Inya kept her own voice low.
She wouldn't yell in front of the children. "What would you do in the
city? You're a farmer."
"My grandfather worked leather. It's a
trade I could learn, if I set my mind to it."
"We belong here."
"You always say that!" Suddenly
Jory was standing, yelling across the table. "We belong where we can make
a living!"
Mariel silently left the kitchen. Lara
followed her into the bedroom. Inya let them go. It was bad enough they'd lost
their mother. They shouldn't have to worry about losing their home, too.
"You're a fool," Jory said, but
he didn't say anything more. Somehow, with the children's leaving, the argument
had ended.
For now. Inya sighed and started clearing
the table.
She'd just finished the dishes when the
door flew open and Mariel staggered in. Her clothes were soaked through; water
streamed from her hair. She shivered. Thunder rumbled outside.
Inya hurried her to the hearth. She hadn't
seen Mariel leave; the girl must have climbed out one of the bedroom's
shuttered windows. Inya winced. Had the argument with Jory upset her so much
that she didn't want to go through the kitchen again?
Mariel stared at the flames. Her face had a
strange look, eyes very large and dark. Inya hoped she hadn't caught a chill.
She put water on for tea.
"What do you think you're doing,
running around in the rain like that? You'll make yourself sick."
"I had to feed the animals."
Mariel's teeth chattered.
"Your father would have done
that."
"I had to do it."
The tea boiled. Inya poured Mariel a
steaming mug of it, then added a spoonful of honey. Mariel took the cup
eagerly. Inya poured herself a cup, as well. Just listening to the wind made
her shiver. Her joints were stiffening with dampness; she knew she wouldn't
sleep well.
She sipped the hot tea, staring at Mariel
over the cup's rim. Mariel's clothes and hair were drying; she'd stopped
shivering, too.
She looked a lot like her mother had at
that age, from the dark eyes to the long, stringy hair. For a moment Inya
thought she saw Anara sitting there, not a married woman but a girl, halfway
between childhood and adulthood, staring at her through serious eyes.
"Grandma? Are you all right?"
Mariel's voice brought Inya back to the present.
Inya brushed a hand across her face.
"I'm fine. Are you warmer now?"
Mariel nodded.
"Why don't you go on to bed,
then?"
"Come with me." Mariel sounded
suddenly young.
"I'll be along in a moment." Inya
watched as Mariel left the room. Then she stood, wincing at the weight on her
knees. She walked slowly to the door, examining the worn-out hinge. She felt a
tingling at the base of her skull. Some instinct made her undo the latch. She
opened the door, staring out into the cold, wet night.
The wind had died. The moon shone through
the dark clouds, lighting the field. And something stood beneath that moon, too
perfect to be a horse. Its white hide shone, brighter than any moon.
Inya slammed the door shut again. The hinge
creaked in protest.
She realized she was crying. :I can't
follow you. Don't you understand?:
The Companion didn't answer, and Inya didn't
open the door again. She banked the fire and stumbled into bed.
That night she dreamed of half-grown
children—Mariel, Anara, even herself as a girl. Only all the girls had blue
eyes, bright as sapphire. Inya knew that wasn't right, though in the dream she
couldn't think why.
Inya woke in the dark, not sure what had
stirred her. Rain crashed against the roof; thunder rumbled. She crawled out of
bed. The dirt floor was cold and damp beneath her feet, even through heavy
socks. Her knees and ankles ached. She walked slowly toward the kitchen.
Jory stood by the door, holding a lantern.
The yellow light cast shadows on his face. His shoulders were tight, hunched
together. He looked tired.
Inya tensed. "What's wrong?"
"It rained harder than I thought last
night. The river's rising fast. If it doesn't crest by the end of the week, the
farm'll flood out. Sooner, if the rain keeps up."
Inya bit her lip. She'd known the water was
high, but she'd thought they had more time.
There hadn't been a flood since she was a
girl. People had come from the village, then, helping her parents build
floodwalls of mud and wood. Together, they'd held the water back.
Jory ran a hand through his hair.
"Soon as the sun's up, I'm going to start digging."
Inya nodded, suddenly wide awake.
"I'll send the children into town with word that we need help."
Jory nodded. He opened the door again. The
sky was dark, still more black than gray. Rain fell in icy sheets. There was no
moon, no Companion standing in the field. Perhaps she had given up and gone
away.
Jory stepped back out, closing the door
behind him. Inya went to wake the children.
Mariel was already up. Lara poked out from
under the blankets, yawning and rubbing her eyes. Inya explained, as quickly
and calmly as she could, while the sun rose and thin light crept around the
shuttered windows.
"Will we have to swim?" Lara
sounded so worried that Inya didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
"Of course not." Inya spoke as
gently as she could. "We're going to sit down and have breakfast, same as
always. Then I'm going to send you into town with a message for the
mayor." As a child, Inya had taken a similar message to the mayor's
grandfather. River's Bend hadn't had a mayor back then, but there had been a
village council, and he'd been on it.
While the girls munched on reheated soup
and cold bread, Inya wrote the message. Then she bundled Lara and Mariel into
warm clothes and followed them outside. The rain had let up, and pale yellow
light filtered through the clouds. The warm rays felt good on Inya's face.
She didn't have time to stand around,
though. The dishes needed washing, and the door needed mending. She had to
check for new leaks in the roof, too. And with Jory and the girls out all
morning, she needed to make something warm for lunch.
She went back inside, closing the door
behind her.
* * *
The rain started again soon after the girls
left. No thunder this time, and not much wind; just a steady drizzle that stole
all the warmth from the air. Inya found herself shivering, even inside. She worked
slowly, knees and ankles complaining as she did.
Lara didn't return until well past noon.
She pulled off her boots, sat down by the hearth, and stretched out her feet to
warm them. "Where's Mariel?"
"She's—" Lara hesitated.
"She's outside helping Dad."
Inya nodded. She put water on for tea, then
sat down beside Lara.
"They made me wait a long time,"
Lara said. "They wouldn't let me see the mayor, but they took the note to
him, and came back with an answer. It's in my pocket." Lara pulled out a
sheet of wet, crumpled paper. The ink ran, but Inya could still make out the
writing. She read the letter slowly. Then she read it again, unable to believe
the words.
Much of it was formal, meaningless prose,
thanking her for writing and expressing concern for her family. But two lines
told her what the message really meant.
While we share concern for your property
and safety, the village has not gone unaffected by this rain, and our own
affairs occupy most of our time. I can make no promises, though we will send
what help we can, when we can.
Anger blurred Inya's sight. What help we
can, when we can. That meant there'd be no help at all. And, our own
affairs. That meant the farm's affairs were not the village's affairs, not
their concern at all.
Things had been different when Inya was a
girl. The farm and village had worked together; in her grandmother's day, the
farm had even been the larger of the two. There'd been no question, then, about
whether the villagers would help hold the water back. They had helped. Just
like Inya's family had helped the villagers, during hard winters, supplying
food and charging only what they could afford.
Inya wondered when things had changed. She
wondered why she hadn't noticed. She'd been busy—raising children, raising
grandchildren, working on the farm—but how could she have missed what was
happening around her?
She threw the message into the fire. The
wet paper hissed, then burst into flames, turning to ash as she watched.
She found Jory by the river, ankle-deep in
mud, leaning on his shovel and staring at the water. A wall of dirt and wood
began upstream, beyond the house, and extended to where he stood.
The current swirled swiftly by, carrying
tree branches, loose reeds, clumps of grass. Something that looked like a
broken chair floated past. Inya shuddered.
Jory shook his head, splattering water
around him. "I can save the house," he said. His voice was hoarse.
"But not the barn and the rest of the land. Not without help."
"There won't be any help." Inya
told him about the mayor's note.
Jory brushed a hand across his
dirt-streaked face. "Doesn't surprise me. That's how people are, you know.
Watch out for themselves first, and for everyone else if they have any time
left over."
But people weren't like that, Inya thought.
Not everywhere. They hadn't been in River's Bend, not when she was a girl. She
stared at Jory, not sure what to say. If he assumed people only cared about
themselves, no wonder he wanted to move. One place was the same as another, if
you saw the world like that.
An awful thought crossed Inya's mind. If
the people in River's Bend didn't care, did that mean it was time to leave, to
find a place where they did?
"I'll finish securing the house
tonight," Jory said. "And see what I can do about the fields in the
morning."
Inya nodded. "At least you've had
Mariel helping you."
"Mariel?" Jory squinted. "I
haven't seen her all day."
"What do you mean?" Ice trickled
down Inya's spine. "Lara said she was with you."
Jory shook his head. "I'll go look for
her. You talk to Lara."
Inya hurried toward the house, boots
squishing in the mud. She slowed down when her legs began to ache. Sweat
trickled down her face, in spite of the cold. She threw the door open and went
inside. Lara still sat by the fire.
"Where's your sister?"
Lara started. "I promised not to
tell."
"Lara—"
"She's in the barn." The girl's
words tumbled over one another. "It's not my fault. She made me
promise."
Relief washed over Inya. Of course Mariel
was all right. She'd been silly to think otherwise. The girl had probably run
off to be alone. Anara had done the same at Mariel's age.
"How long has she been there?"
"All day."
Well, Inya would have to talk to Mariel
about that. The girl had no right to send Lara into town alone.
"Don't tell her I told," Lara
begged.
Inya didn't answer. She gulped down a
mouthful of warm tea and went back outside.
She found Jory in the barn, staring at the
ground. Mariel was nowhere in sight.
"Look at this." Jory's voice was
strained.
Cold dread settled in Inya's stomach. She
followed his gaze.
The muddy barn floor was covered with
Mariel's boot prints. But there was a second set of prints, too, and those
weren't human.
Hoof prints. Inya knelt to have a closer
look. The prints were large, larger than any horse Inya had owned. She examined
a print more carefully. Short, white hairs were scattered in the mud. They were
bright and fine, and even in the mud hadn't gathered any dirt.
Inya caught her breath. The Companion had
left—and had taken Mariel with her. Inya smiled, though she felt a tinge of
sadness, too.
"You see anything down there?"
"Yes." She told Jory about the
Companion, leaving out her own role in the tale. It was Mariel's story now,
after all. As it should be.
Jory didn't smile. In a thin voice he
asked, "Do you think she's all right?"
Mariel was Chosen, Inya thought; of course
she was all right. But she realized she didn't really know what happened after
someone was Chosen. The Companion would head to Haven and the Collegium, but
that was more than a week away. What would Mariel eat? Did she have warm
clothes? Why had she left without saying good-bye?
Inya examined the prints again. They led
out of the barn, toward the river. Mariel never mounted, just continued
alongside the Companion. Didn't Heralds always ride?
Probably everything was all right. Probably
Inya was just a crazy old woman, worrying too much. But probably wasn't enough.
"We have to find her. Bring her some
food. Make sure she's all right."
Jory nodded. But then he looked back toward
the river, and Inya knew what he was thinking. If he went after Mariel, they
might lose the farm.
"I'll go," Inya said.
"That's crazy." Jory brushed his
hands against his breeches.
"No it isn't." Inya spoke fast,
afraid she might believe him if she didn't. "On horse I can make decent
time, even with my knees. What I can't do is keep the farm from flooding out.
You can."
"It'll be dark soon."
"I'll bring a lantern. I can carry it
and walk, once the sun goes down." Inya didn't know how long she could
manage on foot, but she'd worry about that later. She stared at Jory, hoping
he'd see that she was right.
"I don't like it." Jory looked at
Inya through tired eyes. He needed to rest, much more than Inya did. He'd been
building walls all day, after all. "I'll take another look around the
farm," he said. "Maybe she hasn't gone all that far."
"I'll start packing," Inya told
him.
By the time she was ready to leave, the sun
was low, casting gold light through the drifting clouds. Jory hadn't found
Mariel—both her boot prints and the Companion's hooves followed the river,
disappearing upstream.
Jory didn't argue any further. He saddled
the dappled horse and helped Inya mount. Her knees ached, unused to being
twisted out for riding, but she gritted her teeth and ignored the pain. Her
hips complained, too, at the way they stretched across the saddle.
Inya reminded Lara to listen to her father,
reminded Jory that there was some reheated soup on the fire. Then she left,
following the tracks past the edge of the farm.
The sun soon dipped below the horizon, but the
light stayed with her for a while. The moon rose above pink and orange clouds.
Inya's breath came out in frosty puffs.
The scattered trees grew thicker beyond
their land, until Inya rode at the edge of a forest. The mud deepened, and she
had to slow down.
Inya stopped just as the last light faded.
She didn't want to dismount, but she needed to rest and get something to eat.
Better to go slow than to wear herself out.
She eased herself out of the saddle. Her
legs wobbled as she hit the ground. She hadn't realized that getting off would
hurt more than getting on.
She ate by yellow lamplight, munching on
some bread while the horse grazed nearby. By the time she was ready to move on,
the moon had slipped behind a cloud.
Taking the horse's reins in one hand and
the lamp in the other, she started walking.
Inya tired much more quickly on foot. Every
candlemark, it seemed, she had to stop, rest, and eat something.
Small swirls of water appeared in the mud,
and the swirls turned into puddles. Mud coated her boots; water soaked through
her socks. Cold air numbed her face and fingers. She pulled out the scarf and
gloves she'd packed. The next time she stopped, she'd change her socks as well.
She was glad she'd packed extra clothes. When she was younger, she probably wouldn't
have bothered. But back then she could have managed, in spite of her
foolishness. She didn't have that luxury now.
The puddles widened, until Inya had to veer
into the woods to get around them. She lost track of how long she walked.
Then she saw that the sky had turned from
black to dark gray. It was almost morning. The very thought made her tired. She
stopped to rest, wondering how much farther Mariel had gone.
The gray sky lightened; a thin band of
color appeared along the horizon. Birds chirped across the treetops. There was
another animal, too, farther away, but Inya couldn't hear it as well. It made a
low sound, more like a cry than anything else.
A child's cry.
Fear tingled down Inya's spine.
"Mariel!" She took off upstream at a run.
Her legs protested, but she ignored the
pain, shut it away to deal with later. In the growing light she saw that the
ground had turned uneven. In spots the water surrounded small islands of land.
She found Mariel on one of those islands.
The girl stared at the water, eyes wide.
Her clothes were rumpled and muddy, as if she'd slept on the damp ground. The
water wasn't very wide, but it was still—and therefore deep.
"Grandma!" Mariel looked up,
red-eyed. "I fell asleep. There wasn't any water when I fell asleep."
Inya wanted to reach out and hug her.
Instead she just called out, "I'm here, Mariel," as calmly as she
could. A distant corner of her mind wondered where the Companion had gone.
She'd worry about that later, after she got Mariel off the island.
"You'll have to swim. You can throw
your shoes across to me first; that'll make it easier."
"I can't." Mariel choked on a
sob.
"Of course you can. I'll be right
here, waiting for you."
"No." Mariel began to cry.
"I can't swim. I don't know how."
For a moment Inya didn't believe her; she
was sure she'd taught Mariel to swim herself. But no, Anara was the child she'd
taught. She'd assumed Anara had taught her children in turn.
Inya might be able swim to the island
herself, but she couldn't make it back, not while carrying someone. And the
damp logs on the ground were too soft and slippery to walk across.
In the distance, the dappled horse let out
a nervous nicker. If the horse could swim, it could carry them both across, but
the mare had a terror of water that no one had broken.
"Grandma?" Mariel shivered,
drawing her arms around herself. Inya felt cold too—frozen, unable to move,
unable to think what to do next.
Her skull tingled. There was a sudden flash
of sapphire, bright and deep, gone before Inya was certain she saw it. The sky
was gray, with pale streaks where the light filtered through.
Somehow, that flash of blue unfroze her,
allowed her to think again. She couldn't use the dappled mare, but maybe she
could call someone else. Someone who had no right to have left Mariel in the
first place, but she'd worry about that later.
:Thea.: Inya didn't know where the name came from, but she
knew it was right. :Thea, I call you.:
For a moment the air was still, the birds
in the tree-tops silent. Then Inya heard a sound—like a nicker, only higher,
lighter, more graceful. Hoofs hit the dirt lightly, with only the faintest
whisper of noise.
And the Companion stood before her. Mud
splattered her saddle, but the white coat was bright. Beneath the overcast sky,
the creature seemed to glow. And her eyes—
No, Inya wouldn't look into her eyes. She
wanted to be able to let her go when she was through.
The Companion snorted, pawing one foot
against the ground. She almost seemed impatient.
All right, then. :Thea. You're the one
who left Mariel stranded. Now you're going to help get her out.:
:I did not leave her. She ran away on her
own. I only followed because I was worried about her safety.: But Thea knelt, inviting Inya to mount.
The Companion was larger than the dappled
horse, and wider; Inya's hips stretched painfully across the saddle. Yet Thea
moved more smoothly than any horse; when she stepped forward, Inya barely felt
the motion.
She almost didn't notice when Thea stepped
into the water, not until the water came up to her feet and soaked through her
breeches. Water sloshed over the saddle, and the Companion used her strong legs
to swim. Inya clutched the wet mane, drew her legs more tightly around the
saddle.
Then the water turned shallow again. Thea
stepped up onto dry land, and Inya shivered as the air hit her wet clothes.
"Grandma!"
Inya eased her way out of the saddle and
took Mariel in her arms.
"She wouldn't take me," Mariel
sobbed. She buried her face in Inya's shoulder. "She was in the barn, and
you didn't want her anyway, but she wouldn't take me."
Inya whirled to face the Companion,
glaring. "How dare you get a child's hopes up like that? How dare you
follow her this far and not Choose her? You lied to her, that's what you
did!"
:No. I never claimed to Choose her, though
she begged me to. I did not know my presence on the farm would bother her so. I
did not know she would run away. I went after her, but I could not persuade her
to return.:
:So Choose her now. It's not too late.:
:No. I Choose you.:
:Damn you!: Inya turned away, facing Mariel again. :She's still
young—young enough for a child's adventures. She has an entire life in
front of her.:
:There is no right or wrong age for such
things.:
Inya laughed, a bitter sound. :You don't
know much about the responsibilities that come with adulthood, then. Or about
the ailments that come with old age.:
Thea snorted. :I know that you've had
the strength to keep your family together, through death and hard times. You've
had the strength, too, to travel through the night, steadily and in spite of
pain, to rescue a child. These are not small virtues. They are virtues that
would serve a Herald well.:
:That's not enough,: Inya said.
The Companion stamped a foot; it squished
against the mud. :I know, also, that you're more sensible than a child would
be. You packed extra supplies, made sure you stopped to rest before you
collapsed from exhaustion. You would never die for the stupid reasons young
people die. Your age makes you more likely to be taken seriously, too, in
negotiations and other diplomatic matters. There are a thousand reasons. Need I
list them all?:
Inya felt anger again, not for Mariel's
sake, but for her own. She brushed hot tears aside with one hand. :Why in
all the Havens didn't you come sooner? Why didn't you come when I could still
leave?:
Thea came up behind Inya, leaning a silky
muzzle against her neck. Inya turned to look at the Companion.
And made the mistake of meeting her eyes.
She felt herself falling, drowning in a field of endless sapphire blue.
:I Choose you. Don't you understand? Now
neither of us will ever be alone.:
:I need to take care of Jory and the
children. I can't just follow you away.: She knew, though, that Jory would welcome the chance
to move to the City. And the villagers would hardly notice they were gone.
:I couldn't come sooner. I was not yet in
this world, and then I was too young. I've come now. Will you have me?:
Inya took a deep breath. Her next words
surprised her. "I don't know."
"Don't know what, Grandma?"
Inya looked down to see Mariel staring at
her. She hadn't realized she'd spoken aloud.
:I can wait while you decide.:
There was the farm to take care of. The
water to hold back. And the land had been in her family for so long. No matter
how hard the villagers turned their backs, Inya wouldn't walk away without
thinking a good, long time. :How long are you willing to wait?:
:As long as you need.: Thea met Inya's eyes again, but this time,
Inya didn't drown in them. Instead, something rose up from the Companion, a
warmth that surrounded her, made her understand what it truly meant to never be
alone. She was crying again, but this time she didn't even wipe the tears away.
She knew, then, what her answer to the
Companion would be. She'd wait a while to give it, but she knew.
"Grandma? Are you okay?"
:Your grandmother is fine.:
"Grandma!" Mariel's face lit up.
"She spoke to me! Did you hear? She wouldn't Choose me, but at least she
spoke. That's something, isn't it?"
"Yes, that's something." :You
should have taken Mariel,: she thought again, but she didn't know whether
she meant it. Something brushed her mind, feather-light. Inya smiled. She
reached out and hugged Mariel.
Thea did not speak again, not then and not
for a long time afterward. The Companion knelt down, letting Inya and Mariel
mount.
The three of them crossed the river, and
together began the long journey home.
Blood Ties
by Stephanie D.
Shaver
Stephanie Shaver is a
twenty-something writer living in Missouri. In her spare time, she works on the
obligatory novel and short stories, but most of her time is taken up attending
school, where she's majoring in Computer Science, and writing code for an
online games company. She has worked at Marion Zimmer Bradley's Fantasy
Magazine, and considers it one of the great experiences of her life. Of this
story, she says, "I wrote this story for the anthology a long time ago,
back when I was still in my 'Angry Young Woman' phase. Misty has always been a
strong force in my life, beginning at the age of thirteen. I can only thank her
for introducing me to a world of magic and wonder, a feeling I hope to someday
breathe into my own works."
Dedication:
to Mr. Brian Devaney—
respected teacher, good friend,
and one of the few true Heralds in this
world
"Rivin."
From where he sat at the table, the boy
looked up at his father. He had been rubbing his fingers—near to blistering
from chopping wood all day—trying to get the ache out of them.
Holding so hard to the ax handle I forgot
how to let go, he thought,
reminding himself of a quote his older sister, Sattar, was fond of.
Rivin looked around to see Sattar clearing
the wooden trenchers for washing, Danavan—his younger sister—smiling her sweet,
undefiled smile and vanishing after Sattar, and Nastasea squalling as she tried
to catch up with her two older siblings. In his concentration on his pain, he
had forgotten that dinner was over.
"Is—something wrong, sir?"
For a small man, Delanon Morningsong had an
enormous presence about him. Strict and solemn, dedicated to purist beliefs, he
was a refugee of the famine that had caused his family to flee from their
native land of Karse.
Rivin had not been part of the flight that
had carried his father, mother, and their extended families to Valdemar, but he
had heard enough stories about it to be happy to no longer live in Karse. While
he had been pelted with his father's beliefs since before he could speak, his
daydreaming and slightly absentminded attitude had mostly helped him to escape
the rigid mind-frame of most of his father's teachings—and had also caused him
great bodily harm in the area of thrashings and penance.
"You chopped that wood?"
"Aye, sir." Rivin smiled, not
wincing as he ran a hand through his short black hair. His eyes were gray, like
his mother's.
"All of it?"
"Yes, sir."
The dark brown eyes of his father
flickered.
"Good," he grunted at last.
"I have another task for you."
Rivin groaned inwardly. He had estimated
one week until he began planting in the fields—usually that week was a lazy,
vacationlike existence where he performed menial tasks and occasional chores, a
break before the longest season. But Delanon had been piling jobs on him since
weather had permitted, and Rivin feared his father might be trying to put the
yoke of "responsible manhood" upon him.
Well, I am nearly thirteen... I suppose he'll be thinking
about marriage, too, soon.
Outwardly, Rivin's face remained neutral,
neither smiling idiotically nor showing contempt toward further work. One would
have been considered mockery, the other insubordination.
But the words Delanon had to say were hardly
what his son expected, and it was all the boy could do to keep the shock and
joy from showing on his face.
"I want you to go into town and buy
some things. Sacks, candles, Sattar says she needs a new spindle as well."
His serpentine eyes turned thoughtful as he appraised his son. Rivin blinked in
surprise. This was no chore! He was going into town! Away from the farm!
Away from work! Freedom and fresh air!
"In addition to that, Sattar and I
have decided that we can no longer support having Nastasea and Danavan. I
talked to my sister, and she said she'd be more than happy to take them—she
being no longer capable of having littles and all."
Surprise again, and relief as well. Rivin
and Sattar had been conspiring long and hard to get Nastasea and Danavan out of
the house, if only to avoid having to endure a life of poverty and their
father's harsh rules... now it seemed their plans would come true.
"After all, they'd only be a dowry fee
and a nuisance," he added casually. "And we don't have the money your
aunt does."
Probably because Aunt has the sense to let
some of her fields lie fallow, while you plant more than you could ever hope to
harvest! Rivin had heard
his father's excuses and complaints many times, and had long ago stopped
believing them.
Delanon raised a glass filled with water to
his lips and drank. His father had long ago forsworn spirits and beer, sticking
to clean water and berry juice, or cow's and goat's milk.
"Any questions?" the older man
asked, wiping his mouth.
Rivin shook his head, and then said,
"No, sir."
"Then get to bed. You'll be leaving in
the morning."
Rivin bowed his head. "Thank you,
sir."
The soft pad of his feet as he left the
house for the stables was all the sound Rivin could make to express his joy.
Though clouds had built up the night
before, the promise of rain had not come through. Rivin awoke in the barn,
surprised to find the hay he was lying in (with a scrap of cloth thrown over to
take away the itch) was not damp with early moisture. Indeed, the day was clear
and the sky blue as the Morningsong excursion began—Nastasea and Danavan behind
and Rivin leading in a steady walk. In a way, he was grateful for the clear
weather. It meant that the trek would be easier. But dry weather wouldn't make
planting less difficult, and he hoped that it would cloud over after he dropped
off Nastasea and Danavan with Aunt Rianao.
I don't care if I get drenched, but the
girls are still too delicate. They'd probably die of pneumonia, and gods know
what hells I'd go through trying to forgive myself—as well as the suffering Father'd put me through. Not like he'd
need to do anything. I'd probably kill myself if I let one of them die.
Time whittled away as they moved, Rivin's
feet taking well to the walk. He glanced back only once, when they got to the
top of the hilly slope that overlooked the farm. He thought he saw Sattar
standing in the doorway, hands tucked into her apron, the wind stirring her
hair lightly. She was a mirror of their father—dark and sharp—except that her
eyes were not solemn, they were sorrowful. Ever since their mother had died a
month after Nastasea's birth, she had taken on the tasks of housewife and
sister, moving like a steady ghost through the house and tending to their
needs. He felt a stab of sadness as he disappeared over the ridge, as if he
were leaving her forever....
But I'll be back before the moon turns
full. Why do I feel this way?
Sunzenith rose over the windy farmlands,
and Rivin took the time to rest and feed his sisters on bread and cheese and
cool water. He himself fasted, knowing that in three candlemarks there would be
a good meal waiting at Rianao's. Besides, he would need to keep a tight watch
on his rations if he were to make it to Kettlesmith and back.
By a candlemark and a half, he was carrying
Nastasea, who had begun complaining—"feet!"—to mean that her
feet hurt. Though nearly five years old, she still talked like one of the
littlest littles. Sattar said that they had all been like that, and that this
would pass.
Aye, just like the fears of monsters in the
well and colddrakes in the dark. And me—with my fear of the barn. Still get
kind of nervy when I go in there at night to sleep. Ah, well, time will cure.
A thread of wind tickled his face, and
Nastasea giggled a little, playing with a digit of his hair.
Rivin nodded to himself. Time always has
before....
Rivin rubbed his shoulder—weary from
holding the burden of his younger sister—trying to massage the pain out of it.
His back leaned against the wood-built wall of his aunt's fore-room, his left
side toward the cheery fire that was burning steadily in the hearth. He took a
long drink from his milk-filled tin cup, grateful for the cool liquid, and
smiled when Rianao walked by.
His aunt's establishment was larger than
his home, being the dwelling of numerous children (called Rianao's Brood) as
well as a crew of work hands, seven large wolfhounds, and five cats.
On the other side of the room was an
enigma. Seated in a high-backed, armless wooden chair and dressed in white
tunic and side-split, white leather riding skirt was Lisabet Morningsong, the
Herald-Mage of the family, and distant cousin to Rianao. She didn't look much
like a mage—with needlework on her lap and her face lost in concentration as
she pulled up a knot—but there was a slight aura about her that spoke of
control, restrained power, and authority.
She looked up at him upon noticing his eyes
on her, and smiled slightly, inclining her head at him just a little before
reaching into the basket at her side and hunting for a new color of thread.
"She's here on vacation," he
heard a voice say, and looked up at the looming form of Rianao's
fifteen-year-old son Tileir, who had met the Morningsong pack as they arrived
at Rianao's farm. "Some vacation—haw!" The older boy shook his head
as he slid down on the floor next to Rivin. "She's just 'bout as old as Ma
an' looks like she was Ma's daughter! They say," his voice grew to an
undertone, "that it's the magic tha' does't."
"I never heard of magic doing
that," Rivin murmured back.
"Neit'er I until m'cousin Kentith told
me."
"And what does Kentith know?"
Rivin had only met Kentith once or twice, but had, from first encounter,
disliked the boy for some strange reason.
Tileir gave a braying laugh. "Why,
boy, didn't ya hear? Kentith's been Chosen, too!"
Rivin went silent with shock.
"Kentith? Kentith Ravenblack? Our cousin?"
"Why are ye so surprised? If Lisabet,
why, then, whyn't another?"
Rivin shrugged. "Do'know. It's
just..." he trailed off, shook his head. "Never mind." He could
see Tileir was going to push the subject, so he said, "Where am I sleeping
tonight?"
Tileir considered for a moment, his caravan
of thought rerouted with this new line of questioning. "Why—most prob'bly
wi' me."
Rivin winced, feeling a strange panic build
inside. Panic not so much of having to sleep with Tileir, but of what Tileir
might do to him.
Why am I thinking like this? he rationalized to himself in bewilderment.
Tileir wouldn't do anything to me! Lady—I think I'm going mad!
Across the room Lisabet's head lifted, and
she cocked her head to one side, as if trying to hear something she couldn't
quite catch. She swept the room with baffled eyes, pausing only momentarily to
look at him before going on.
It was then that Rivin heard the thin wail
coming from outside.
"...No! no! no! no!... won't!
won't! won't!... DON'T WANT BATH!"
Rivin ran outside, stopping when he saw
Rianao standing over Nastasea. The child was snarling up at her aunt, her
little face streaked with tears and broken with anger.
"Won't, won't, WON'T!"
"Now, 'Stasea—" Rianao said
soothingly, moving forward.
"NO!" the child shrieked, hands
curled into white-knuckled fists at her sides, eyes squeezed shut.
"Aunt—here, let me." He moved
forward, past the round, horse-faced body of his aunt, and knelt in front of
Nastasea.
"'Stasea," he said, touching her
fists.
"No!"
His ears rang as her scream echoed around
him. In a soft voice he gentled her, watching as her short-lived tantrum
drained away, her expression remolding again, except now it was confused and
tear-filled.
"Want Mamma," she
whimpered, using her word for Sattar.
"Mamma's not here anymore, 'Stasea.
Rianao's going to be your new mamma."
"No!" The shriek went up again.
"Yes," he said firmly, pulling
her into his arms. "Yes."
He stroked her hair lovingly as she sobbed
against his shoulder, stuttering out "Mamma" every third word.
He could feel Rianao's curious gaze on him as he spoke to his sister. He kept
his own eyes fixed on the steaming tub in front of him.
"Let Ria give you a bath?" he
asked at last, patting her back with a note of finality.
She sniffed and nodded, her eyes downcast.
"Good." He turned to his aunt.
"All yours."
She looked a bit shocked as he handed her
his sister. "I thank ye," she said, blinking owlishly at him as he
stood.
"Twas nothing," he said as he
walked away from them, going back into the house, masking his face with false
cheer.
But between his brows was a headache,
between his shoulders tight muscles, and his arm once more hurt from holding on
too hard to his sister.
Night!
He woke with a start, his breath heavy as
his eyes strained to adapt to the absence of light. Next to him, Tileir dreamed
on, his heavy snoring sending discordant ripples into the pearly pre-dawn
silence of the room.
Rivin wiped his hands over his brow,
surprised to find it dry. He had been flushed a moment ago, he was sure of it
The room must have been stifling hot—
But it wasn't. The window was open, letting
the cool air in, letting the hot air out. Slowly, so as not to wake Tileir,
Rivin stood. He picked up his belongings, cast one last unnecessary,
fear-inspired glance back, and then exited.
Rianao's home was silent save for the sound
of the sleepers. The chairs were empty, the sewing set aside, and Rivin found
himself thinking, I guess mages sleep, too.
He purloined a loaf of the oldest bread he
could find, then moved outdoors and filled his leather skin with water from the
well. His aunt wouldn't mind, he knew, but she would probably be disappointed
when she found him gone before she woke. So would Nastasea and Danavan. Rivin
had to remind himself that they were only half a day's ride from his father's,
and that it would be easy to come and visit... just as soon as he finished
planting... and harvesting... and trading... and planning for winter... but
then they would be snowbound for all the winter, and then....
Rivin realized with a sinking heart that it
would be a very long time before he saw his sisters again.
Silent with guilt, he loped down the road.
Two days later, he was ruing his wish for a
storm. While the precious items he had bought in town were securely wrapped in
layer upon layer of lavishly waxed skins, he had no such protection, and
was drenched to the core when finally he reached home, letting himself into the
barn to change and then go via the adjoining, dry overhang into the
house proper.
"Rivin?" he heard, low and soft
from his right, and he spun—panic catching him off guard—only to see Sattar,
sitting in a golden pile of hay with her knees drawn to her chest and her arms
wrapped around her legs. She looked up at him, and he noticed the dark rings
around her eyes.
Somewhere inside him, despite her
appearance, he felt a deep weight lifted, and relief flooded every pore.
She's alive, he found his mind sighing.
"Sattar—" He swallowed. "You
scared me."
She nodded, and he noticed a haunted look
in her eyes.
"What's wrong?" he asked,
kneeling next to her. Concern tinged his voice.
She flinched as he touched her, her muscles
clenching spasmodically, and then the emotion smoothed away as she took rigid
control of her body. She smiled at him, her lips tight, if not pained. One hand
sought his hair and the other went around his shoulder in a gesture that
reminded him keenly of his mother.
"Sa... sa... sa," she murmured.
"How was your trip, Rivin?"
He shrugged, wrapping his arms around her
and placing his cheek against her shoulder.
"How did you convince Da about the
girls?"
"Twas nothing. Da is very easy to talk
to if you—catch him in the right mood."
He heard loss and something he knew but
could not name lace her words, but he ignored it, instead closing his eyes and
being content to listen to her heartbeat.
"You know I would've rather
stayed—" he started.
"Sa, sa," she interrupted.
"We all must have our freedoms, fledgling. I would not limit you
yours."
He sat up, shaking droplets from his hair.
"Look, I'm soaked. How about I put on some of my dry things and you take
the packs inside?"
She nodded, smiling. "I'll get to
stoking the fire—Father can complain if he wants, but the rain is a good omen
and you're cold. The wood is worth it."
With brisk efficiency, she took the packs
and went inside.
It took him a while to realize that she had
never told him what was wrong, and he cursed himself for not recognizing the
same tactics he had used on his cousin.
Rivin watched the scythe slide over the
grain, listening to the whisper of the wheat as it cut. He blinked rapidly,
exhaustion blurring his vision. He had been working sun up to sun up for the
past two days, with one more day to go. Harvest week was crucial to the prosperity
of the crop—if they didn't reap it in time, the wheat would spoil along with
their profits.
While he was used to this sort of work, he
wasn't so sure of his sister. She was some hundred yards away, working her
section of the field, cutting with slow, even strokes. In the past months since
the planting season had started, she had grown more and more anxious—worried
almost—with lines of fatigue growing around her eyes. Rivin had no idea why she
felt this way—the crop was growing well, and they should be able to harvest
enough to make a large profit. But, still, the state of desperation—almost
depression—she had fallen into made him wonder, and agitated him no small
amount.
He did not know what made him stop and look
up. He thought that he heard a soft voice call his name like a lost spirit on
the breeze, but he was never sure. One moment he was biting his lip to keep
himself awake, the next his head had snapped up and trained on Sattar, who had
fallen motionless in the field.
"Sattar?" he called, dropping his
scythe and running over.
Rivin knelt when he came to the body of his
sister, and was shocked to see blood staining the heavy layers of her skirts. A
claw of pure fear gripped his heart, and he glanced toward the scythe she had
been using, fearing that she had fallen on it.
But, no, the blade shone like a clean moon,
the silver edge dulled, perhaps, by the work it had been doing, but not bright
red with fresh gut-blood. Than what...?
"Move away, boy!" Delanon
roared, coming out of nowhere, and Rivin was pushed back by surprisingly strong
hands.
"Sattar?" he heard his father
say, panic in his voice. The man shook her, rolling her over and staring into
her pale face. Even from where he lay in the ripe crop, Rivin could see the
sweat on her clammy skin, could almost feel the chill coming off her cool body.
"Should I—should I get the
Healer?"
"Yes! Now!" his
father roared, picking her up and cradling her tenderly, like a lover. His jaw
was clenched tight, his eyes downcast, and Rivin could clearly hear him say,
"Don't die, girl. Papa loves you. Don't die now. Not yet."
And then the boy was running—not for his
life, but his sister's.
"Let me see," said the Healer,
his face blank as he bent over the unconscious form of Sattar.
Rivin was still breathing heavily as he
leaned against the doorway to his sister's room. The Healer lived a full hour
down the road, but it had seemed to Rivin to be a thousand miles he traveled
before he finally arrived at the old man's house, banging on the door and
screaming at the top of his lungs as if the Hounds of Hell were on his heels.
It had taken another thousand years to saddle the Healer's horse, and then a
thousand leagues to ride back, with Rivin gasping the whole way.
Now, safe at home, he watched in anxious
concern as the Healer drew back the covers and examined his sister.
After a moment he looked up, giving Rivin
and Delanon a severe look and saying, "Please leave the room."
The two men filed out, Rivin panting now
from increased fear as well as exertion.
The door shut with an ominous thud.
Rivin waited, shifting nervously from foot
to foot. After a moment, he felt an iron hand on his shoulder, and turned to
look into Delanon's dead eyes.
"Go," he said, pointing out the
door, toward the fields.
Rivin's jaw dropped, and it took all his
will not to scream, You've got to be joking!
"Now," Delanon
said, leaving no question of authority.
Rivin submissively lowered his head and
walked out the door.
In the field, he picked up his fallen
scythe, looking at the only-half-harvested crop, blind to the fact that the
profits this year would be slim.
The silent whisper of the scythe was the
only sound he heard, gasping like the laboring death-rattle of a dying person.
"Ho—boy."
Rivin stopped his work, dumbly turning
toward the Healer who was standing in the stubble of wheat-trail that Rivin had
made.
"We must speak.'"
Mute still, and shivering from sweat-chills
and weakness, Rivin leaned on his scythe, waiting.
"How is she?" he asked bluntly.
The Healer shook his head. "There is a
sore deep inside her that my Gifts and knowledge can't seem to reach. I am
going to try and summon help, but I fear I may not be quick enough."
Rivin scrubbed his face, pretending that
the dampness this action left on his hand was sweat, and not tears.
"Why has this happened?"
The Healer frowned, a line of worry between
his brows. "Did not you know, boy? She has miscarried. The babe could not
survive the strain of the work she was doing. Some can, but she was too
frail." A note of disapproval entered the man's voice.
Rivin blinked, the chill in his body
suddenly concentrating and finding a focus in his breastbone.
"Do you know the father?" the
Healer went on.
Rivin stared at the man, feeling a numb
balm wash him. In that moment, he felt separate—from his body, from the
situation, from the questions the old Healer asked. He was above it all—all
laws and vows, all beliefs and blood ties that had bound him to his family and
his father. The chill in his heart began to radiate outward, and he felt it
enter his gaze.
The Healer must have seen it, for his own
blue eyes widened and he stepped back, slowly, first one step, then another.
"I—" the old man began, and then
broke into a run, waddling flat-footed toward his horse, mounting, and
galloping off into the night.
In his belly—even apart—Rivin felt a
colddrake uncoil, stirring.
Go, the Rivin that walked apart from Rivin thought. Summon
your Healers. They may be able to help my sister, but there is none who can
save my father.
Carefully, Rivin felt himself lay the
scythe down. He would not need its edge. He turned to the farm, and took one
step—
The movement was like a trigger. He Felt
the tremble of inner blocks crack, fracture, and start to collapse.
Revulsion, that sense of broken trust, panic—the source of all those emotions
had overflowed its dam. The walls disintegrated—
And... he remembered....
So long ago, as a child—a baby. The warm trust and love he had
once held for the man who loomed above him, who he called Da. He remembered the
day he had been playing in the barn and his mother had been down at Rianao's,
on an errand with Sattar, heavy with Danavan. He remembered looking up, and
seeing Delanon—
He remembered pain, and screaming. He
remembered the ripping sound of his clothes as they were torn from him, and he
remembered begging, pleading,
"No—no—please, Da, no—"
He remembered being beaten, and then told
that if he told anyone, anyone,
his father would kill him—or kill Sattar. And it would all be Rivin's
fault if that happened.
And he had made himself forget. To keep
that from happening, he had built up walls, drowned the memory, weighted it
with stones and thrown it down a well—
But now he knew. Now he was soaked with
memory. All the groundless fears had a base. His vision was clear. The denial
was gone. Now he knew—
His father had raped him.
The door to the farm did not open, it exploded.
He Felt himself reaching for the chill fire that had now spread to his
palms, and he Felt it buoy his spirit higher. He Felt the hunger for revenge—cleansing
at last!—sweep him as he opened the door to Sattar's room, and stared down
at his father.
Who was sitting in a stool, holding his
daughter's hand, bent double.
There was no pity, no remorse at that
moment. There was no doubt as to who was the father of Sattar's baby. He had
heard the unknown element in Sattar's voice that rainy night he had returned
from his excursion to the city, and now he knew a name for it.
Shame.
Delanon stood, a frown on his brow, his
eyes dark. With a sweep of his hand, Rivin felt raw power roar through his body
and pick his father up, slamming the older man against a wall.
There was a crack and a scream as
Delanon's rib cage broke and his pelvis shattered, and Rivin felt a rivulet of
sheer exhilaration trickle into him. Retribution, he thought, and Reached
for more.
"No!" the disembodied boy heard. He saw
realization in his father's eyes, a desperate plea—horror—fear—good!—"Stop!
Please—oh—gods—I'm sorry—"
Rivin did not waste the breath to tell his
father that there was no way he could excuse what he had done, nor words enough
to apologize. There wasn't even the time for words. Only the time for
destruction. Only—the solution—
Fire exploded from the boy, smoking through
his body and out of his hands in a burst of light and energy. He Felt the
agony as his father screamed, writhing and twisting. The fire sloughed off
flesh, burned away blood, burrowed into marrow and bone. Rivin screamed his
hatred—his burden of shame—into the winds he had summoned, feeling his
mind snap and crackle beneath the new burden of magic.
And then it was over, leaving behind only a
char-black, greasy smear on the wall, and ashes on the floor. Rivin swayed,
staring down at his hands, amazement in his eyes.
With a popping sound akin to that of a
dislocated joint being reset, he came back to himself.
What have I done?
He sank to his knees, sanity returning, the
cold banished, weakness and a strange inner emptiness making him tremble. The
air was stifling. He felt flushed. When he ran his hand over his forehead, he
pulled sweat away from his face.
What have I done?
Slowly, he stood, turning his eyes from the
glassy-slick mark on the far wall, turning to the shutters of the window,
fumbling to open them, to let this foul, foul air out—to purify—deep, clean,
breaths—clean, cleansing air.
His body was racked with sobs when he
finally pushed the shutters open and nearly collapsed against the windowframe.
He was a murderer—a killer of men—he was foul—slimy—caked in dirt—stained in
blood—blackened by ash.
He was just like his father.
Like father. Like son.
:No.:
The voice was assertive, female. He
trembled, fear consuming him again, making a fist around his belly. He shook
his head against the voice, choosing to disbelieve.
Killer. Defiler. Damned. What have I
become?
:No!:
The voice again, and he screamed in the
silence of his soul, Don't you see what I just did? Don't you know what I
have done? Don't you understand?
:I see. I know. And I understand.:
He looked up, for a moment blinded by a
light akin to the sun, though it was an hour until dawn. And then he saw
her—the graceful line of her white neck, the glancing blue-stream brilliance of
her eyes—like fire, but kinder.
Shock gathered him up in its prickly folds,
and then plunged him into an endless field of blue that was as textured and
soft as a satin robe, and as all-encompassing as the closing surface of water.
But he had no fear of drowning. Nor did he want to. All he felt—was—her—
And her name was Derdre, and he was her
Chosen.
Lisabet gently pulled the covers over the
bed that had held the corpse of the girl, tucking everything into neat order.
The undertaker had carried the body of Sattar Morningsong off two days ago, and
buried it yesterday. They had had to wait that long just to let Rivin rest from
the exhausted state he had fallen into.
The man that the regional Healer had
brought from Maidenflower stared at the bed and then turned away. He had stayed
around in case any other—accidents—had occurred.
"It didn't have to end like
this," he murmured, glancing out the window toward the boy, leaning
against his Companion, head buried in her slender neck.
"It didn't have to start either,"
Lisabet replied grimly, glancing at the mark on the wall that no amount of
washing had removed. "Gods damn it—I should have known!"
The Healer, a man by the name of Yiro, put
a hand on her shoulder and shook his head. "Stop it now, Herald. Sometimes
it's almost impossible to tell. Even Delanon's sister said that she thought he
was a tad harsh, but never... well...."
"Those kids carried that secret
well."
"Or else they thought it was normal to
be treated that way."
They stood in silence for a time. Then:
"Why would someone do that to their own children?" she whispered.
"I've asked myself that same question
before. The best answer I have is that they like the... power. The pleasure of
a helpless victim. The dependence. They get a feeling of control. Some even
think they're doing the child a favor. If nothing else, they try to justify
their actions."
Quiet. Outside, the Herald could hear
Derdre take fidgety steps, the tall grass whispering softly. Then, "And
the other two?" she asked.
"I've already called in one of the
best MindHealers in this district. She'll check them out, live with them for a
while. They're young. With luck, she'll be able to Heal them."
After a moment, Yiro clasped her in a quick
hug. "Cheer up, sister. Things'll get better. The boy will most likely
heal, if not today, then tomorrow. If not tomorrow, then the next day. It will
take a lot of time, but hopefully, it'll happen. He'll realize... and then
maybe he'll even forgive."
"But not forget."
"No. He already forgot once, from what
we got out of him. He must have blocked that incident for years. I've heard of
it."
But the Healer's words were fading away as
Lisabet moved out of the room and toward the figure in the fields.
Gently, she placed a hand on his shoulder,
remembering what she had seen from her view out the window of her cousin's home
when Nastasea's bathtime had come up. A child comforting a child.
And now I am doing the same. Aren't we all
just children at heart?
She enclosed him in her arms, petting his
hair, holding him as he began to cry.
"Sattar," he whispered, weeping
into her shoulder.
"She's gone," Lisabet replied.
"Want Sattar," he said,
echoing Nastasea's words.
"Sattar's gone now. It's time to let
go, Rivin."
The boy neither agreed nor rejected her
words. Instead, he turned and mounted his Companion, his face a cast-granite
mask of sorrow. Lisabet checked the shields around him, looking for leaks and
holes. No use letting that powerful a new-born Mage-Gift get out of
hand.
Satisfied, she called Raal over, and pulled
herself into her own saddle. With one trembling hand on her Companion's neck,
she led the way down the road toward Haven.
Gods—mage-power coming to life like that scares me. The
boy didn't even know what he was doing—didn't even realize it was magic—until
it was too late. It was only luck that this was my circuit and that I was close
by when he first Reached. I don't think that I would have wanted a stranger
taking care of him. She shivered. There was so much anger in
him....
:Thus, the nature of madness,: Raal said, his voice heavy and dusky in her
mind.
:I'll never figure it out.:
:Some things we were never meant to figure
out.:
:Like Companions?: Lisabet asked slyly.
She heard a dry chuckle. :Like
Companions.:
A wind chuckled by, catching her hair. She
saw Rivin's head jerk up, as if he had heard something, and then he shook
himself, falling back into his mournful brooding.
It was then—when he lifted his head—that
she noticed the worryline now chiseled between his brow. She noticed his taut
neck muscles, the lines around his eyes. But most of all, she noticed the way
he held his arm and rubbed his shoulder as if it ached with the pain of a hard
grip that had, for a long while, forgotten how to let go.
...Another
Successful Experiment
by Lawrence
Schimel
Lawrence Schimel is the
co-editor of Tarot Fantastic and Fortune Tellers, among other
projects. His stories appear in Dragon Fantastic, Cat Fantastic III, Weird
Tales from Shakespeare, Phantoms of the Night, Return to Avalon, the Sword
and Sorceress series, and many other anthologies. Twenty-four years old, he
lives in New York City, where he writes and edits full-time.
They resembled nothing so much as
ill-proportioned hammers, but Chavi was pleased with them. No, he decided as he
held one aloft and the weight of the tiny head on the end of the
broomstick-length handle caused it to quiver slightly, he was more than just
content.
"They're perfect!"
Gathering the other five from his bed, he
tucked them all under one arm and went in search of his year-mates.
Chavi had spent the last week hidden in his
room constructing these strange items. An air of mystery had naturally
developed around them as Grays and sometimes even full Heralds stood outside
his door listening to the curious sounds of their creation. Locking himself
into his room was always the first clue that mischief was afoot, and that
another of Chavi's (in)famous experiments would soon be unveiled. Therefore, as
Efrem wandered down the hallway and noticed the door ajar, he could not resist
the temptation to peek inside, hoping for a glimpse of the latest invention.
Finding it empty, not only of marvels, but of the mischief maker himself, he
went in search of him, knowing it would be worth his while, in laughter if
nothing else.
Whether it was simply a lucky guess, or the
fervent hope that Chavi was not foolish enough to premiere one of his
experiments indoors again, his search led him—after a brief stop in the kitchens—to
Companion's Field, where Chavi and his Companion Tecla waited for his
year-mates to arrive.
The first person to show up was not,
however, one of Chavi's year-mates. A tall, lanky man in the red-brown of a
Bardic trainee came by and leaned against a tree, facing Chavi and Tecla. Chavi
was of a mind to ask him to "Move along," then decided it might be
good to have a Bard on hand to immortalize his success. He was sure it would be
a success, too, and did not even consider that the experiment might fail.
The second arrival, however, gave Chavi
pause. Efrem was a fellow Gray, who had been chosen two years before him. While
Chavi did not at all dislike the Herald (he doubted it was even possible for a
Herald to actively dislike another Herald), his presence made Chavi nervous.
Had he been wandering by and noticed them, Chavi wondered, or had he
known to come to Companion's Field now? If one of his year-mates had let slip
that they would unveil his latest experiment....
Just then, Gildi arrived with her companion,
Fedele. With them came an older woman in Healer's green, her hair just turning
to frost.
"I knew it," Chavi
admonished, even as he hugged his year-mate in greeting. "I told you not
to tell anyone." He glanced meaningfully from the Healer to Efrem and the
Bard.
"I've been part of your experiments
before, Chavi, and felt having a Healer on hand was a precaution worth taking.
But I didn't tell anyone."
"Someone must have" he
said, glaring at the pair of bystanders.
"Oh, don't sulk, Chavi. What harm is there
in having spectators to revel in your latest crowning glory?"
He grinned at her. "Well, when you put
it that way...."
Tecla warned him that he was in for a
surprise when he turned around. Nervously, Chavi looked behind him. His
year-mates Some and Grav had arrived with their Companions.
:That's not it,: Tecla told him.
Chavi looked again, and this time saw what
Tecla had meant: a group of three full Heralds coming toward them.
"Aaaarrgggh! Why me? Why? All I ask for is a little peace and quiet in my
life!"
Gildi could not stop laughing at that last
comment until the three Heralds had reached them. Their Companions had come in
from the Field to greet them. That must be how Tecla had known they were
coming, Chavi realized.
"So who told you?" Chavi asked with
a small grin, by way of greeting to the three Heralds.
All three of them laughed. "I'm afraid
you can't keep a secret that involves six Companions," one said.
Chavi looked sternly at Tecla, about to ask
her if she had told, but then decided he really didn't want to know. He was
sure she had read his thoughts and knew what he had meant to ask, but she kept
silent, aside from her usual comforting presence at the back of his mind.
Chavi sighed. While he was interrogating,
he might as well do them all. "And how did you find out?" he
asked the Bardic trainee.
"One of the servants told me."
One of the servants, Chavi thought. And how
did they know? Did he have no privacy whatsoever around here, or what?
Chavi turned to Efrem. "You?" He
was getting very tired of this question very quickly.
"No one."
"No one?"
"We all knew you were making something
in your room, since you could hear the noise even from the cellar, practically.
When I noticed your door was open again at last, but the room empty, I knew
there was a sight to be seen somewhere, if only I could find it. One worth
risking Mero's wrath by skipping out on preparation." Efrem smiled.
"But I found a way around that."
"Oh?" Chavi asked, very curious
as to any new techniques he might learn, for getting out of chores. "Pray
tell, how was that?"
Before Efrem had a chance to explain, the
answer walked into sight. Mero carried a basket stuffed with food in each hand,
the three Grays in tow carried chairs and a table. They would work outside, and
therefore all get the chance to watch the spectacle.
"This is ridiculous!" Chavi
exclaimed as they began setting up the table and chairs. "You'd think I
had invented entertainment for the first time."
Kem and Fiz chose that moment to show up
with their Companions. "Are we charging admission or something?" Fiz
asked.
"Then neither of you told?"
"Chavi. Really." Kem struck a
melodramatic pose. "That you could even doubt us."
Chavi turned to Gildi. "Now you see
why I didn't want spectators? Put him in front of a crowd and he's
incorrigible."
"You're just jealous of my charm and
good looks," Kem replied.
In answer, Chavi picked up one of his
inventions and held it aloft. Advancing on Kem he said, "I can take care
of those looks."
But once his actions had gotten enough
laughter, Chavi lowered the creation again and turned serious. He turned to
face the crowd. "I'll bet you're wondering why I've brought you all
here," he began, earning boos and catcalls from his year-mates. Chavi
looked down his nose at them, even though he was shorter than all save Grav.
"Now where was I...? Oh, yes, today's demonstration. You are very
privileged to witness here today the birth of a new sport. A game of skill that
will enchant spectators, and also," Chavi turned toward the three Heralds,
"help train the participants in equitation and combat."
"You don't intend to spar with those
things while riding Companions?" one of the Heralds asked.
"Hear me out." Chavi turned to
his year-mates and began passing out his creations, one to each. "The
rules are simple. Mount your Companions and I shall explain."
As they climbed into their saddles, Chavi
whispered to his year-mates, "Now I have no idea if this is going to
work." Gildi and Kem exchanged knowing glances, for Chavi never made
disclaimers like that unless he was sure of success. "But let's at least
put on a good show, eh?"
Switching back into a performer's voice,
Chavi continued explaining the rules. "I'm sure you are all familiar with
the games of stickball and football played by children? What we are about to
play is a mix of both." From one of Tecla's saddlebags he brought forth a
small wooden ball wrapped in leather and tossed it to the ground. "That is
the object of our pursuit. To manipulate it, we use these." Chavi held
aloft his creation in demonstration and, swinging down, gave the ball a solid
crack which sent it rolling off through the grass. There was a burst of
applause from the audience, in response to which Chavi stood in his stirrups
and bowed to them, before continuing.
"The game is played by two teams of
three players each. Why this number? Because more Companions and Heralds than
that on the field of play at once would be disaster." He smiled.
"There are also that number among my year-mates and myself, and since I am
inventing this game, that is what I decided. Besides, it takes forever to make
the mallets.
"Some, Kem, and Gildi are one team;
your goal is those two trees over there marked with yellow ribbons. Grav, Fiz,
and myself guard the goal on the other side of the field marked by blue
ribbons. Points are scored by knocking the ball through the opposing team's
goal." Chavi paused to let all this information sink in and smiled out at
the assembled crowd. They were listening raptly for his every word, and Chavi
exulted in the sensation while his year-mates made practice swings with their
mallets, testing the distance between themselves and the ground.
"Are there no precautionary
rules?" the Healer nervously asked at last, breaking the silence.
Chavi smiled kindly at her, wondering what
Gildi had told her of his earlier experiments. "Indeed there are. While
our Companions are quite capable at taking care of themselves, and us, we shall
not put them at unnecessary risk. No hitting Companions or riders with your
mallets or fists, although I would hazard to say that leaning heavily against
someone as you rode them off would be fair, so long as your hands stayed over
your own saddle. No sticking your mallet under or between the legs of a
Companion, even for the sake of hitting the ball. Furthermore, no lifting the
mallet head higher than your shoulder, so you don't endanger those of us
topside. And finally, the rider who has control of the ball (with his
mallet—touching the ball at any time with your hands will result in a penalty)
the rider who has the ball, also has the right of way to follow after it for a
second swing. This means you cannot ride in front of him, in a perpendicular
path, and stop there. The object of the game is not to get injured, nor to wind
up with all our Companions smacked into each other.
"Now, is everyone set on these
rules?" His year-mates nodded, and the Healer looked content. "Then
let's play ball."
Chaos quickly descended upon the field, and
had it not been for the precautionary rules (which the Companions remembered,
reminding their riders whenever they forgot) all six players would have wound
up in the House of Healing after the first five minutes of practice, never
having the chance to move into full fledged play. Grav's first swing at the
ball was so wild he fell from the saddle. He turned as scarlet as a Bard's
garb, but climbed back on and tried again.
"If you stand up in the stirrups like
this," Chavi advised, "and lean from the waist, you should find it
easier to keep your seat." Chavi had, of course, taken all his tumbles
days ago when no one was around to see them.
Grav followed Chavi's instructions and gave
the ball a nice, solid whack, knocking it over the bystanders' heads.
"Careful there!" the Bardic
trainee shouted as he ducked the projectile.
Grav apologized, but he was feeling smug as
he turned to Fiz and said, "Your turn."
Fiz fared slightly better than Grav, in
that he did not fall off his horse on his first swing. However, he did not hit
the ball. After his seventh missed swing, the crowd was wild with laughter that
far exceeded what Grav's fall had earned. The expression of frustration on
Fiz's face each time he swung was enough to redouble their mirth. As he was
winding up for an eighth swing, Fedele brought Gildi alongside of him and she
blocked his mallet's arc with her own.
"I would have hit it that time!"
Fiz screamed, sending the crowd of onlookers into hysterics.
Gildi merely gave him a sarcastic look and
tapped the ball out of Fiz's reach. However, when Fedele walked up to it and
she took a second swing, she missed too. Grav lost no time in riding behind
her, standing up in his stirrups as Chavi had told him, and giving the ball
another good, solid crack. It sailed into the audience once more.
"That's twice," the Bardic
trainee said as he ducked again.
Just then, Efrem lost control of the potato
he had been peeling, and it slipped out of his hands. With a mixture of shame
and curiosity he watched its arc as it left his hands and knocked the trainee
in the back of the head, where he knelt in "safety" behind a bush.
"Herald, thy days are numbered,"
the Bardic trainee thundered as he turned to face his assailant-from-behind.
"Thy lack of skill with a blade shall henceforth go down in the annals of
history in the 'Ballad of How Efrem Lost the Battle of Potato Picnic.' Let thy
infamy precede thee wherever thou go." He sat down with his back to a
nearby tree and began composing verses as he watched the rest of the game.
"You know, he's right," Eladi
told Efrem after they had all laughed heartily. She handed him some of her
carrots to peel, hoping he would have more luck with them. "I mean, if
Alberich had seen you—" She shuddered, the thought too unpleasant to
contemplate.
"What do you mean if?" a
voice behind them asked. Eladi turned to find the weapon's master standing
behind them. Efrem did not need to look to know who it was; the overwhelming
feeling of impending doom was enough.
The game was as exhilarating as Chavi
imagined it would be, once everyone had mastered the rudiments of play and the
actual game was underway. It moved at a remarkably fast clip, the entire thrust
shifting to the other side of the field as a backhand swing sent the ball
arcing toward the other goal.
Gildi served as a highly efficient captain
for her team, masterminding a myriad of strategies which Chavi took careful
note of. She was less concerned with scoring the most points herself than in
helping her team to the most points. Her favorite tactic was to ride up
alongside someone as he was about to take a shot and block his mallet with her
own. Then, one of her team mates, who had been instructed to follow her, took
the ball back toward the other goal. Through Mindspeech, team members were only
a thought away as strategy decisions were relayed to them by their Companions.
Fiz proved to be an excellent backhand,
although he still had difficulties with his forward shot. Grav was the
powerhouse hitter, often sending the ball arcing out of bounds (usually toward
the audience). Kem and Some were both adequate players, but they never really
excelled at anything in particular. Chavi kept worrying that they weren't
enjoying themselves.
:You're daydreaming again: Tecla warned him. :Keep your eyes on the
ball. We're going for the shot.:
Chavi relinquished his musings to the game.
He focused on the ball, stood up in his stirrups, and swung. He connected, and
a moment later whooped with delight as the ball rolled into the unprotected
yellow goal.
Chavi held one of his creations aloft and
decided that, yes, he was more than just pleased with them. He was elated. The
game was seen as a general success by one and all. The Bardic trainee had begun
a second ballad about the day's events, featuring Chavi as its hero. Chavi was
grateful that he had changed his mind before asking the man to "Move
along." As the game progressed and she was not called upon in her official
function, the Healer let herself relax enough to enjoy the sport. Word had
spread quickly once the game was underway, and the audience had swelled to five
times its original size. Even the Queen herself showed up to watch. Aside from
thinking it looked like fun, Heralds were interested in the game for the combat
training and equitation skills it provided.
Everyone wanted a mallet of their own.
Chavi was beside himself with pleasure.
As his tired but happy year-mates
dismounted and relinquished their mallets to other Heralds who wished to try
them, Chavi began congratulating himself. "Yes, yet another successful
experiment brought to you by the one and only Chavi the magnificent, inventor
of innumerable wondrous inventions, including the—"
Gildi Mindspoke to Fedele, who passed the
message on to Tecla, who dumped Chavi into the river.
"All right, all right," Chavi
said, as he dragged himself, soaking wet, onto the shore, where his year-mates
waited, ready to toss him back in depending on his attitude. "So I had a
little help from my friends."
Choice
by Michelle West
Michelle West has written
two novels for DAW, Hunter's Oath and Hunter's Death, and, with
any luck, is finishing her third, The Broken Crown, by now. She likes
the Heralds, but couldn't imagine being one—she's the only fantasy writer she
knows who's never been up on the back of a horse for fear of breaking her arm
in three places when she came off it. Not that she lets cowardice rule her
life, of course. Well, not often.
When Kelsey saw the white horse enter the
pasture runs, she stopped breathing for a moment and squinted into the
distance. Then she saw the Herald Whites of the man who walked just beside it,
and with a pang of disappointment she continued across the green toward the
inn. Shaking her head, she grimaced just before she took a deep breath and
walked through the wide, serviceable doors.
"Kelsey, you're late. Again."
"How can you tell?" She pulled
her dark hair back from her square face, twisted it into a makeshift coil, and
wrapped it up with a small swathe of black silk—a parting gift from a friend
who'd left the town to join a merchant caravan. It was the finest thing she
owned, and the fact that she used it in day-to-day wear said a lot about her.
Not, of course, that she had very many other places to wear it.
"Don't get smart with me," Torvan
Peterson snapped, more for show than in anger. He had very little hair left,
and professed a great resentment for anyone who managed to retain theirs, he
was obviously a man who liked food and ale a little overmuch, and he owned the
very practically named Torvan's Tavern. Children made games with that name, but
not often in his presence. "Not," he added, "that I would
disparage an improvement in your intellect." He stared at her expectantly,
and she grimaced. "Well, out with it, girl. If you're going to be late,
you can at least amuse me with a colorful excuse."
She rolled her eyes, donned her apron, and
picked up a bar rag. "We've got a Herald as a guest."
"Chatting her up?"
"He, and no."
"Hardly much of an excuse, then. All
right. The tables need cleaning. The lunchtime crowd was rather messy."
She could see that quite clearly.
On normal days, it wasn't so hard to come
and work; work was a routine that added necessary punctuation to her life. She
saw her friends here—the few that still remained within reach of the inn—and
met strangers who traveled the trade routes with gossip, tales of outland
adventures, and true news.
But when a Herald rode through, it made her
whole life seem trivial and almost meaningless. She worked quickly, cleaning up
crumbs and spills as she thought about her childhood dreams, and the woman who
had—while she lived—encouraged them.
"You can be whatever you choose,
Kelsey," her
grandmother was fond of saying. "You've only to put your mind and your
shoulders to it, and you'll do us all proud."
Kelsey snorted and blew a strand of hair
out of her eyes. I can be whatever I choose, but I'll never be Chosen. In her
youth she'd believed that to be Chosen by one of the Companions was a reward
for merit. She'd done everything she could think of to be the perfect, good
little girl, the perfect lady, the little hero. She had forsworn the usual
childhood greed and the usual childhood rumbles for her studies with her
grandmother; she had learned, in a fashion, to wield a weapon, and to think her
way clear of troublesome situations without panicking much. Well, except for
the small stampede of the cattle back at Pherson's, but anyone could be
expected to be a little bit off their color in the midst of their first
stampede.
She had done her best never to cheat or
lie—excepting those lies that courtesy required; she shared every bounty she
was given; in short, she had struggled to lead an exemplary life.
And for her pains, she had drifted into
work at Torvan's Tavern, listening to her friends, encouraging and supporting
their dreams, no matter how wild, and watching them, one by one, drift out of
her life, either by marriage, by childbirth, or by jobs that had taken them out
of the village.
She had her dream, but it was a distant one
now, and it only stung her when she came face to face with the fact that
someone else—some other person, through no work, no effort, no obvious virtue
of their own—was living the life that she had dreamed of and yearned for ever
since she could remember.
Still, if the Heralds—they never traveled
alone—came in for a meal and left their Companions in the pasture runs, she
could sneak out for a few minutes and watch them, and pretend. Because no
matter how stupid it was, she couldn't let go of her dream.
It was clear from the moment he walked into
the tavern that something was wrong. Heralds were able—although how, she wasn't
certain—to keep their Whites white and in very good repair, and this Herald's
Whites were neither. He was pale, and the moment he stepped out of the glare of
the doorway, she saw why; his arm was bound, but bleeding, and his face was
scraped and bruised.
"Excuse me," he said, in a very
quiet, but very urgent voice, "I need help. My Companion is injured."
Heralds seldom traveled alone. Kelsey
tucked her rag into her apron pocket and made the distance between the table
and the door before Torvan had lifted the bar's gate.
"What—what happened?"
He shook his head, and it was obvious, this
close up, that he was near collapse. She put an arm under his arms—she was not
a weak woman—and half-walked, half-dragged him to a chair. "Don't worry
about me," he said softly, his face graying. "She's hurt, and she
needs help."
"Why don't I worry about both of
you?" Kelsey replied, mimicking the stern tone of her grandmother in
crisis. "Torvan—send Raymon for the doctor, and send Karin for the
vet!" The Herald started to rise, and she blocked him with her arm.
"And where do you think you're going?"
He opened his eyes at the tone of her
voice, and studied her face as if truly seeing her for the first time. Then he
smiled wanly. "Nowhere, ma'am," he replied. It was then that she
realized that he was probably twice her age, with gray streaks through his long
braid and two faded scars across his neck and cheek. His features were
fine-boned, unlike her own; he looked like the son of a noble, except it was
obvious that he was used to doing his own work.
"Good. What are you smiling at?"
"You. You remind me of my
grandmother." The smile faded as he winced; his expression grew distant
again. She knew that he was seeing not only the loss of the Herald he traveled
his circuit with—for she was certain that that Herald must be dead—but also the
fear of the loss of his Companion.
She brought him an ale and made him drink;
he finished most of it before the doctors—human and animal—arrived.
"If you make her travel on the leg,
you can probably get a few more miles down the road, but you'll lame her,"
the vet said, staring intently at the cleaned gash across the knee. "I
don't know much about Companions—but I do know that if she were a horse, she
would never have made it this far." That he didn't offer more, and in the
lecturing tone that he was wont to use, showed his respect for the Herald.
The Herald—who called himself Carris,
although that was clearly not his full name—nodded grimly and wiped the sweat
absently from his forehead with a handkerchief. His uniform was safely in the
tub in Kelsey's room, and he wore no obvious weapons, although a sword and a
bow were in easy reach. "How long will it be until she can travel
safely?"
"Hard to say," the older man
replied.
Cams nodded again, absorbing the words. The
doctor had been and gone, and Kelsey had been forced to rather harsh words with
both doctor and Herald before an uneasy truce had been reached between them.
"You don't interfere with His
Majesty's business," she'd snarled at Dr. Lessar. "And you—what did
you think we called the doctor for? He'll bind and treat that arm—and those
ribs—even if you feel it's necessary to go out and break them again. Is that
clear?"
The doctor laughed. "And you're
telling me how to talk to a Herald?"
Oddly enough, the Herald laughed as well.
And he did submit to the doctor's care, electing to more quietly ignore most of
the doctor's subsequent advice.
Torvan accepted Kelsey's desertion with as
much grace as he could muster during the season when the trade route was at its
busiest and the tavern could be expected to have the most traffic. She did what
she could to lend a hand between the doctors' visits with Carris and his
Companion, but it was clear that she felt them both to be her concern, and
clearer still that the Herald was almost in bad enough shape to need it, so he
gruffly chased her out of the dining room and told her to finish off her
business.
Her business took her to the stables,
where, in the dying light, the orange flicker of lamps could be seen through
the slats of the door. That's odd, she thought, as she lifted her own
lamp a little higher. It wasn't completely dark by any means—but the stables
tended to need a little light regardless of the time of day—and she shone that
light into the warm shadows.
Carris was kneeling at the feet of a pinto
mare, gently probing her knees. She nickered and nudged him, and he nearly fell
over as he spun quickly to face Kelsey.
"What are you doing here?" they
said in unison.
Then Carris smiled. "You know,
lass," he said, although she'd passed the age of "lassdom" five
years back, "you should consider a career in His Majesty's army. You've
the makings of a fine regimental sergeant."
"Thanks," she replied, feeling
that he meant to tease her, but not seeing anything in his words that could be
viewed as perjorative. "You haven't answered my question."
He chuckled, and it added wrinkles to his
eyes and mouth that suggested he often laughed. "No, lass, I haven't. What
do you think of her?"
"Of—" She looked at the horse,
and then realized that it wasn't. A horse. "That's your Companion."
"If she forgives me for the indignity
and the desertion, then, yes, she is."
"Why—why have you done that?" She
lowered her lamp, as if to offer the Companion a little more privacy. Her tone
made it clear that she thought it almost sacrilegious.
"Don't you start as well," Carris
said, mock severely. "I've done it," he added, his voice suddenly
much more serious, "because I've a message that must be delivered—and I
can't take her with me, but to leave her here, as an obvious Companion, is to
risk her life."
Kelsey let the seconds tick back while she
figured out exactly what he meant. Then she lifted the lamp again. "Are
you crazy?" she said at last. "You can't ride with your arm like that
and your ribs broken—you'll pierce your lungs for certain!"
The Companion bobbed her lovely head up and
down almost vigorously.
"Don't start," Carris said again.
"We've already covered that ground, and I've made my decision. She knows
it's the right one." He stood slowly, but winced with pain just the same
as if he'd jumped up. "Kelsey, you've done as much as any girl can to help
me—but I've one more favor to ask of you."
"W-what?"
"I want you to take care of her."
"Of... her?"
"My Companion, yes," he replied.
"Her name is Arana." He waited for her to answer, and after five
minutes had passed, he said, "Kelsey?"
She couldn't even speak. Instead, she
walked past him, holding the lamp as if it were a shield. She approached the
dyed Companion, met her eyes, and held them for a long time. Finally, she
remembered that she wasn't alone, and had the grace to blush.
"I meant to tell you that dinner's
been laid out for you. It's probably cold, but you should still get to it while
you can."
"Kelsey?"
"I'll have to think about it,"
she replied, not taking her eyes off of Carris' Companion.
That night, with the moon at half-mast, it
was dark enough that she stubbed her toes twice on the path to the stable. The
lamp that she held was turned down as low as possible—she didn't want to
attract attention from the field mice and the rats.
She wanted to look at Arana again, without
Carris intruding upon the privacy of her old dreams and her old desires. Could
she watch the Companion. Could she take care of her. Ha!
She opened the doors, paused as the smells
of the hay and the horse scent hit her nostrils, and made her way in. Usually
Companions weren't stabled like this—but Carris had insisted that Arana be as
horselike as possible.
"Does she like sugar?"
Carris had laughed. "As much as a real
horse."
She hadn't snuck into stables since she was
child, but she'd lost none of her old instincts. She made her way, unerringly,
to Arana's stall.
She wasn't particularly surprised to find
Arana waiting for her. "Hello," she said softly. The Companion, as
expected, didn't answer. A pang of disappointment, like a slightly off-key
chord, rippled through her and vanished. "I'm Kelsey."
Arana lifted her head and nodded.
"I suppose you've met a lot of people
like me. I—I always wanted to be a Herald. I've always prayed that one day, a
Companion would Choose me. It's never happened," she added ruefully.
"And I don't suppose you'd be willing to tell me why."
Arana put her head over the stall's door
and let Kelsey scratch her. It was easier than scratching a normal horse; the
Companion seemed to be more sensitive. "Doesn't matter. Carris wants me to
stay here, with you, while he does some fool thing on his own, injured, without
anyone to look after his back. What do you think of that?"
Arana said absolutely nothing, but she
became completely still. Kelsey shook her head and lowered the lamp.
"That's what I thought as well. Here. I brought you some sugar."
"Where do you think you're
going?" Carris, dressed like a well-to-do villager, frowned as Kelsey let
her backpack slide off her shoulders to land on the ground with a thump.
"Talked it out with Torvan," she
replied, around her last mouthful of bread and cheese, "and he says it's a
go." She swallowed, wiped her hands on her pants, rolled her hair into its
familiar bun, and shoved her coin bag into the inner reaches of her shirt.
"What's a go?" Carris asked,
suspicion giving him an aura of unease that made Kelsey want to laugh out loud.
"I'm going with you, Carris." She
checked her long dagger, and then picked up her wooden bat. Made sure she had a
hat, and a scarf to keep it attached to her head.
"That's preposterous," he
replied. "You are doing no such thing."
She shrugged. "Whatever you say."
"Kelsey—"
"Look—what did you think you were
going to do? Dress like that, but pick up a fast and fancy horse that'll take
you to the capital?"
He looked taken aback.
"You'll stand out like a scarecrow.
You're afraid that someone following you would recognize Arana, and if that's
the case, you'll be recognized if you travel as you'd planned. Trust me."
"I wasn't aware that you'd studied the
arts of subterfuge. You certainly haven't mastered the art of subtlety."
"Ho ho ho." She bent down and
picked up her pack; slung it over one shoulder, and then bent down for his.
"Don't argue with me," she said, not even bothering to look up.
"I'll take the packs. You take your arm and your ribs. Oh, damn."
"What?"
"I almost forgot."
"What?"
"The hair. It has to go."
Carris was in a decidedly less cheerful
mood when they finally departed the inn. "Look, Kelsey," he said
tersely. "You may not believe this, but that hair was my single
vanity."
"A man your age shouldn't be beholden
to a single vanity," she replied sweetly. "Now come on. You've come
at a good time—I've a friend who guards one of the caravan routes, and they're
always looking for new hands."
"As a caravan guard in this
territory?" Carris raised an eyebrow. "You do realize that with the
upsurge in banditry lately, he's just asking for trouble?"
Something about the way he said the word
"banditry" caught her attention; she pursued it like a cat does a
mouse. "What do you know about the bandit problems?"
He didn't reply.
"This have something to do with the
message you need to deliver?"
He nodded, but no matter how she pressed
him, he would say nothing else.
Well, it's King's business, not mine, Kelsey thought. And probably better that
I don't know. She knew enough, after all, to know that as a Herald he was
trustworthy, and that anyone who tried to kill him was as much the King's
enemy—and therefore her own—as a stranger could be. Still, she felt a twinge of
envy; she knew that were she a Herald, they'd talk openly of their mission—like
equals. Comrades.
As if he could read her thoughts—and it was
rumored that some Heralds could—he said, "It isn't that I don't trust you,
Kelsey."
"Don't bother with explanations. I can
come up with a dozen good ones on your behalf and you don't even have to open
your mouth." She paused, and then stopped. "You can wield that thing,
can't you?"
"Both of them, yes," he replied,
smiling.
"Good."
"What did you intend as a
weapon?"
"This." She pulled her bat out of
her pack and swung it in a wide circle. "I call it a club."
"You're going to sign on as a caravan
guard wielding a club?"
"You've never seen me wield a club
before," she assured him. Then she laughed. "You should see your
face. Yes, I intend to sign on, but I'll probably do it as cook or a handler.
If a person's willing and able to work, there are always jobs on the trade
routes. Especially now." She started to say something else, and then
stopped. "Are you in pain?"
"Yes," he said, but the word was
so soft it was a whisper.
She studied his pale face for a moment and
then grimaced. The death of his friend wasn't real for him yet, but in bits and
pieces it was becoming that way. Kelsey was almost glad that she wouldn't be
with him when he finally completed his mission—because she was certain that
when he did, he'd collapse with grief and guilt.
She'd seen enough hurt men and women come
through Torvan's place to know the look of it.
"That's the life of a Herald,
dear," her
grandmother would tell her.
"I know," she told her grandmother's memory. "But
I want it just the same."
David Fruitman had the look of a barbarian
to him. His face was never closely shaven, but never full-bearded, his brown
hair was wavy—almost scruffy—and long, and his carriage gave the impression not
only of size, but of the ability to use the strength that came with it to good
advantage.
Kelsey waved and shouted to catch his
attention.
When he saw her, he rolled his eyes.
"What, you again?"
Carris hung back a bit, unsure of the
larger man's reception, but Kelsey bounded in, slapped him hard on the upper
arm, and then dropped the two packs she carried to give him a bear hug. She
called him something that was best left in the tavern among friends who had had
far too much to drink, and then swung him around.
"Carris, get your backside up here.
David, this is Carris. Carris, this is David. He's what passes for a guard
captain around here."
David looked at Carris, raised an eyebrow,
and then looked down at Kelsey. "There's a problem, Kelse," he said.
"What?"
"His arm's broken."
"So? It's not his sword arm."
Carris and David exchanged raised brows.
"Shall I explain, or shall you?" Carris said.
"You do it. I'm not getting enough
danger pay as is."
"Very funny, both of you. David—can I
talk to you in private for a minute or two?"
"Is this like last time's
private—where you shouted loudly enough that this half of the caravan lost most
of their hearing for the next two weeks?"
"Very funny." She scowled,
grabbed his arm, grabbed her packs, and nodded frantic directions to Carris. It
all came together somehow, and they made their way to the wagon that David
called home while he was recruiting.
"Well?"
"Carris is a Herald," she said,
dispensing with pretense and bluster—although the latter was hard to get rid
of. "His partner's dead, his Companion's injured, and he's got a message
that he's got to get to the capital as fast as possible. He can't ride—don't
argue with me, Carris, you heard what the doctor said—and he's being
hunted."
"Hunted by who?"
"He can't say."
"I can't hire him, then."
"David—he's a Herald."
"That doesn't mean the same thing to
me as it means to you," David replied. "Look—the people who hunt the
type of guards I hire are cutthroats that I know how to deal with. The people
who hunt a Herald..."
"David!" She reached out, grabbed
the front of his surcoat, bunched it into two fists and pulled. Even Carris
recoiled slightly at the intensity of her tone. "You-are-going-to-hire-us-both."
He raised a brow, not in the least put out.
"Or?"
"Or I will tell Sharra about the time
that—"
He lifted both of his hands in mock
surrender, and than his expression grew graver. "Is it that important,
Kelse?"
"More. Trust me. We need you."
"All right. Let go of my surcoat and
pray that the entire encampment didn't just hear that. I'll take Carris on—but
we've got to strap a shield to that shoulder."
"Can't you just say he was injured in
the line of duty?"
"Sure. But who's going to ask me? Most
of the guards here are the same as I started with, and they'll know he's a
stranger if they're asked. We've hired five men here, and he'll just be another
one of those—but he's got to look the part, even if he's not going to act it.
Clear?"
She said something extremely rude.
"Yes. Clear."
"Good."
"Captain?" Carris said softly.
"What?"
"Thank you."
"Don't. Thank her. I owe her, and it's
about time she started calling in her debt."
"I hope you appreciate this,"
Kelsey said to Carris as they set up their tents. Her hands were stiff and
chapped, and she was busy nursing a blister caused by peeling carrots and
potatoes for a small army. When he didn't answer, she looked across the fire.
"What's wrong?"
"It's Arana," he replied at last,
weighing his words. "You travel for this long with a—a very dear friend,
and you really notice when she's gone."
"You aren't used to being
separated?"
"No. I'm used to being able to hear
her no matter where I am." He was quiet, and she let the silence stretch
between them, wondering when he would break it. Fifteen minutes later, she
realized he wasn't going to.
"Is it everything they say it
is?"
"Pardon?"
"Being a Herald. Having a Companion.
Is it everything it's cracked up to be?"
He smiled. "It's harder than I ever
imagined," he replied, leaning back on his elbows, and then wincing and
shifting his weight rapidly. "And it's the most rewarding thing I could
ever dream of doing." He laughed, and the laugh was self-deprecating.
"It wasn't what I'd intended to do with my life—and both of my parents are
still rather upset about it, since it significantly shifts the family
hierarchy."
"Do you know why you were
Chosen?"
"Me?" He laughed again. "No.
If I had to Choose, I'd be the last person I'd ask to defend the kingdom with
his life." He sobered suddenly. Rose. "Kelsey, I don't know how to
thank you for everything you've done, and I know that leaving you to the
campfire alone isn't the way to start."
She waved him off. "Everyone needs a
little space for grief," she told him firmly. "Even a Herald.
Especially a Herald."
But after he was gone, she stared at the
fire pensively. By his own admission he'd done nothing to be considered a
worthy candidate—why had he become a Herald? Why had he been Chosen? Don't
start, Kelsey, she told herself sternly, or you'll be up at it all
night.
"You look awful," David said, as
he ducked a flying handful of potato rinds.
"I didn't sleep very well," she
replied. "Are you here to annoy me, or should I just assume that you
already have?"
He laughed. "I wanted to see how you
were faring. The caravan's got a few extra mouths this time round; if I was
going to choose KP, I wouldn't have done it for this stretch of the
route."
"Thanks for the warning," she
said, and heaved another handful of rinds. Then she wiped her hands on her
trousers, set her knife aside, and stood. "Why is the caravan so bloody
big this time?"
"It's well guarded," David
replied, lowering his voice. "Well guarded. We've done our buying for the
season, and we're doing our damned best to protect our investment."
"How bad has it been? We'd heard
rumors that—"
"It's been bad." His face lost
all traces of its normal good humor. "If you hadn't insisted, Kelse, I
wouldn't have taken your friend on. There's a very good chance he'll get to see
action whether he's up to it or not."
"Oh." She blew a strand of dark
hair out of her eyes. "Is there some sort of drill?"
"Meaning?"
"What should the noncombatants do if
the caravan is attacked?" She waited for a minute. "Look, stop
staring at me as if I've grown an extra head and answer my question."
"Well," he replied, scratching
his jaw, "if I were in that position, I'd probably hide under the
wagons."
Great. "If I'd wanted an answer that
unreal, I'd have asked a Bard." She picked up her knife and went back to
potatoes, carrots, and onions. Onions. That was the other thing she was going
to have to find a way around.
Carris took to taking it easy about as well
as a duck takes to fire. He was grim-faced and impatient, and he watched the
road and the surrounding wooded hills like a starving hawk. David had decided
that the best watch for Carris was the night watch; under the cover of shadow
and orange firelight, he could pass for a reasonably whole guard. He carried
his sword and his bow—although Kelsey pointed out time and again that the bow
was so useless it was just added encumbrance—and wore a shield that had been
strapped to his front as well as possible given the circumstances.
What he did not do well was blend in with
the rest of the guards. It was his language, Kelsey reflected, as she listened
to him speak. He didn't have the right cadence for someone who had fallen into
the life of a caravan guard. Never mind cadence, she thought, as she dove into
the middle of a conversation and pulled him out—whole—he didn't have the
vocabulary, the tone, the posture. He did, having been on the road without
being able to shave himself, have the right look.
"Stop being so nervous," she
said, catching his good arm in hers and wandering slightly away from the front
of the caravan.
"Kelsey, do you know what this caravan
is carrying?"
"Nope. And I don't want to."
"Well, I do. We're going to see
action, and I can't afford to see it and not escape it alive. We've lost four
Heralds to this investigation, not including Lyris, and we'll lose more if I
don't get word back."
"We'll get word back," she said,
assuring him. But she felt a twinge of unease when she finally left him.
Dammit, he's even got me spooked. She went to her pack, found her bat, hooked
it under her left arm, and walked quickly back to her place among the cook's
staff.
* * *
"What is that?" A familiar voice
said.
"Don't ask her that." Marrit, the
older woman who supervised the cooking, looked a tad harried as she glared in
David's general direction.
"It's a bat."
"I know what it is."
"Then why did you ask?"
"Don't be a smartass, Kelse. Why are
you carrying it around?"
"It's as much a weapon as anything
else I own."
"And you need a weapon on kitchen
duty?" David laughed. "Marrit, I didn't realize that you'd become such
a danger over the past few days."
"Look—don't you have something to
do?"
"I'm off duty. I've got nothing to do
but sit and visit." He smiled broadly and took a seat. He even managed to
keep it for five minutes. Marrit didn't say one disparaging word about her
cook's lax work habits when Kelsey dropped her knife into the potato sack,
turned, and pushed him backward over the log.
Two days passed.
Carris was edgy for every minute of them,
except when he spoke of Lyris. Then his emotions wavered from guilt and grief
to a fury that had roots so deep even Kelsey was afraid to disturb them by
asking intrusive questions that stirred up memories too sharp and therefore too
dangerous. This didn't stop her from listening, of course. She managed to infer
that Lyris was the Herald who had traveled with Carris, and further that Lyris
was young, attractive and impulsive. She knew that he had come from the wrong
side of town, just as Carris had come from too far into the right side, as it
were.
Never anger a noble, her grandmother used
to say. Especially not a quiet one. Although it was a tad on the obvious side,
it was still good advice.
"Kelsey, why must you take that club
everywhere you go?"
Given that she'd just managed to hit his
rib with the nubbly end, it was a reasonable enough question—or it would have
been had she not heard it so often. "Don't start. I thought if there was
one person in camp I'd be safe from, it'd be you. Why do you think I'm carrying
it?"
He shrugged. "I don't know. Everyone
here seems to have their pet theory."
"What do you mean, everyone?"
"Guards," he said, offering her
the gleam of a rare smile, "have very little to talk about these
days."
She blushed. "I'd better not catch
them talking about me, or I'll damned well show them what I'm carrying it
for."
Carris actually laughed at that. Then he
stopped. "I know I'm unshaven and unkempt, but have I done something else
to make you stare?"
"Yes," she replied without
thinking. "You laughed." She regretted her habit of speech without
thought the moment the words left her lips; the clouds returned to his face,
and with them, the distance.
"And there's not much to laugh about,
is there?" He said softly, his right hand on his sword hilt.
Kelsey was at the riverside, washing more
tin bowls than Torvan owned, when she heard the screaming start. A silence fell
over the men and woman who formed Marrit's kitchen patrol. Fingers turned white
as hands young and old clenched the rims of tin and the rags that were being
used to dry them. No one spoke, which was all the better; Kelsey could hear the
sound of hooves tearing up the ground.
Horses, she thought, as she numbly gained her feet. The
bandits have horses!
"Kelsey!" Marrit hissed.
"Where are you going?"
Kelsey lifted her fingers to her lips and
shook her head. She motioned toward the circular body of wagons. Marrit paled,
and mouthed the order to stay by the riverside, where many of the cooking staff
were already seeking suitable places to hide.
It was the smartest course of action. Of
course, Kelsey thought, knees shaking, that's why I'm not doing it. She
swung her bat up to her shoulder and began to run.
In the confusion and chaos, panic was king,
and the merchant civilians his loyal subjects.
The wagons, circled for camping between
villages too small to maintain large enough inns and grounds, provided all the
cover there was against the attackers. People—some Kelsey recognized, and some,
expressions so distorted by fear that their faces were no longer the faces she
knew—ran back and forth across her path, ducking for cover into the flapped
canvas tents, the wagons, or the meager undergrowth. The guards on watch had
their hands full, and the guards off duty were scrambling madly to get into
their armor and join the formation that was slowly—too slowly—taking shape.
She counted forty guards—there were
forty-eight in total—as she scanned the circular clearing searching desperately
for some glimpse of Carris. No sign of him; maybe he'd finally shown some
brains and was hiding somewhere under the wagons.
Ha. And maybe the horses she heard were a
herd of Companions, all come to ask her to join them. She took advantage of a
scurry of panicked movement to take a look under a wagon. She saw the horses
then.
Funny thing, about these bandits. They
weren't wearing livery, and they weren't wearing uniforms—but they looked an
awful lot like a Bardic description of cavalry. The horses were no riding
horses, and no wagon-horses either. She didn't like the look of them at all,
and she loved horses.
They sure make bandits a damned sight
richer than they used to, she
thought, clenching her teeth on the words that were choking her in a rush to
get said. And a damned sight more organized. She had a very bad feeling
about this particular raid. And when the blood spray of a running civilian hit
the grass two feet from her face, she knew that if there were any survivors to
the raid at all, it was going to be a minor miracle.
A flare went up in front of the lead wagon;
fire-tipped arrows came raining from the trees, and shadows detached themselves
from the undergrowth, gaining the color and height of men as they came into the
fading daylight.
Kelsey knew she should be cowering for
cover somewhere, but the tree that she'd managed to climb was central
enough—and leafy enough—that it gave her both a terrific vantage point and a
false sense of security. She counted the mounted men; there were ten. She
couldn't get as good a sense of the foot soldiers—bandits, she corrected
herself—but she thought there weren't more than thirty. So if one didn't count
the cavalry as more than a single man each, the caravan guards outnumbered
them.
It made for a tough fight, but the horses
were too large to be easily maneuvered around the wagons, and if the merchants
and their staff were careful, the caravan would pull out on top. She smiled in
relief, and then the smile froze and cracked.
For on horseback—a sleek, slender riding
horse with plaited manes and the carriage of a well-trained
thoroughbred—unarmored and deceptively weaponless, rode a man in a plain black
tunic. At his throat, glowing like a miniature sun, was a crystal that seemed
to ebb light out of the very sky.
This was the threat that Carris wouldn't
speak openly of. This was what he had to reach other Heralds to warn them
about. This was the information that the King needed. Kelsey gripped both her
bat and the tree convulsively as the Mage on horseback drew closer to where she
sat, suddenly vulnerable, among the cover of leaves.
His was a power, she was afraid, that
dwarfed the power of all save a few Heralds—and she was certain that Carris was
no Herald-Mage, to take on such a formidable foe.
Damn it, she thought, holding her breath lest a whisper rustle
a leaf the wrong way. Carris was right. I shouldn't have brought him along
with the caravan. Then, And he'll probably die just like the rest of us—they
won't know he's their Herald, and they won't care.
One of the mounted soldiers rode up to the
Mage.
"That wagon," he said, pointing.
"Food supplies, but nothing of more value."
"Good." The Mage gestured and
fire leaped up from the wagon's depths, consuming it in a flash. The circle was
broken, and the ten mounted horseman, pikes readied, charged into the
encampment.
She heard the shouts and then the screams
of the guards and the civilians they were to protect. People fled the horses
and the hooves that dug up the ground as if it were tilled soil. They didn't
get far. Kelsey saw, clearly, the beginning of a slaughter.
Sickened, she shrank back, closing her
eyes. There's nothing you can do, some part of her mind said. Hide
here. Maybe they won't notice you.
"Captain! 'Ware—they've got a Mage at
the center of their formation!" It was Carris' voice, booming across the
panicked cries and painful screams of the newly dying. In spite of her fear,
she gazed down to see him, sword readied, shield tossed aside and forgotten.
The blade caught the fire of the camplight, and it glowed a deep orange.
You see? Another part of her taunted. You wouldn't have made
a decent Herald after all. She hid in the trees, and Carris, broken arm and
cracked ribs forgotten, stood in the center of the coming fray, his sword
glowing dimly as it reflected the light of the fires.
No. She took a deep breath. Watched.
The guards met the bandits, but the bandits
attacked like frenzied berserkers, and it was the caravan guards that took
casualties. Kelsey could not make out individual faces or fighting styles—and
she was thankful for it. What she could see was that somehow, the blows that
the caravan guards landed seemed to cause no harm.
It was almost as if the enemies were being
protected by an invisible shield. Magic. Magic.
Another horseman rode in, and stopped three
yards from the mage. "Sir," he said. "We've got a group of them
hiding by the riverside. Possible one or two have managed to cross it."
The Mage cursed. "Get the archers out,
then," he snarled. "We can't afford to have anyone escape."
"Can't you—"
"Not if you want to be safe from steel
and arrow tips," he replied grimly. "Go." He gripped the crystal
around his neck more tightly.
Get down, Kelsey. She shivered as she saw the Mage close his
eyes. Now's your chance. Get down. But her legs wouldn't unlock. Her
hands shook. She watched the ground below as if the unfolding drama was on a
stage that she couldn't quite reach.
Carris came out of the wings. She saw him,
close to the ground, and nearly cried out a warning as the mounted soldier
departed. But she bit her lip on the noise. He used the shadows, Carris did,
and he moved as if he had no injuries. An inch at a time, he made his way to
the Mage who sat on horseback, concentrating.
The horse shied back, and the Mage's eyes
snapped open. Carris leaped up from the ground, swinging his sword. It whistled
in a perfect arc; the Mage didn't have time to avoid it. The sword hit him
across the chest and shimmered slightly. That was all.
The man laughed out loud. "You
fool!" He cried. "Did you think to harm me with that?" Carris
swung again, and again the Mage did nothing to avoid the strike. "Why, I
think I know you—you're the little Herald that escaped us. It's probably best
for you—you wouldn't have enjoyed the fate that you consigned your friend to
suffer alone."
Carris' next swing was wild, and it was his
last; three foot soldiers came up, slowly, at his back. But the Mage lifted a
hand, waving them off. "No, this one is mine, gentlemen. Unfinished
business." He smiled. "Don't you have merchants to kill?"
The soldiers nodded and stepped back almost
uncertainly. If Kelsey had to guess, the Mage had probably killed one or two of
them to keep them in line; they weren't comfortable with him; that much was
clear.
"You can't think that you'll get away
with this," Carris said. It was, in all, a pretty predictable thing to
say—and not at all what Kelsey would have chosen as her last words.
Something snapped into place for Kelsey as
she thought that. I can't let him die with that for an exit line, she
told herself, and very slowly, watching her back as much as possible, Kelsey
began to shinny down the tree.
"I know we will," the Mage
replied, all confidence. "Are you sure you don't want to continue your
futile line of attack? It amuses me immensely."
Carris lowered his sword.
"You could try the bow—you can wield
it, can't you? It would also amuse me, and perhaps if I'm amused, you'll die
quickly. I was embarrassed by your escape," he added, his voice a shade
darker. "And have much to make up for to the Baron."
Carris said nothing.
"Come, come. Why don't you join me? We
can watch the death of all of your compatriots before we start in on yours. You
see, you have a larger number of guards—but they aren't, like my men, immune to
the effects of sword and arrow. It's a lovely magic I've developed, and it's
served me exceptionally well. Come," he added, and his voice was a
command.
Like a puppet, Carris was jerked forward.
"Watch."
It was almost impossible not to obey his
commands. Kelsey looked up—and what she saw made her freeze for a moment in
helpless rage. David was fighting a retreat of sorts—but he was backing up into
another cluster of the enemy. He seemed to understand that the swords that the
caravan guards wielded were only good for defense, for he parried, but made no
attempt to strike and extend himself to people who didn't have to worry about
parrying anymore.
A guard went down at David's side.
Kelsey bit her lip.
And then, because she was her grandmother's
daughter—and more than that besides—she swallowed, took a deep breath, and
crawled as quickly as possible to where the Mage sat enjoying the carnage.
She wanted to say something clever or witty
or glib—but words deserted her. Only the ability to act remained, and she
wasn't certain for how much longer. She lifted the bat, and, closing her eyes,
swung it with all the force she could muster.
She had never heard a sound so lovely as
the snapping of the Mage's neck. She would remember it more clearly than almost
any other detail of the attack. Almost.
He toppled from his horse as the horse
reared. She watched him crumple and fall, watched his body hit the ground. Then
she lifted the bat and began to strike him again and again and again. Carris
shouted something—she couldn't make out the words—as she began to try to
shatter the crystal that hung at the Mage's neck.
Then she felt a hand on her arm, and swung
the bat round.
"Kelsey, it's me!" Carris' face was
about two inches away from hers. There was a bit of blood on it—but she thought
it wasn't his. Couldn't be certain. "You did it," he said. He tried
to pry the bat out of her hands, but her fingers locked tighter around it than
a merchant's around his money chest. He let go of her hands and smiled. The
grin was wolfish.
"We've got them, Kelsey. Thanks to
you, they don't know that they can die yet—but they're about to find out the
Mage is gone." His teeth flashed. "And they've been walking onto our
swords because there's no risk to them."
"Remind me," she said faintly,
"not to make you mad."
He looked down at the corpse at her feet.
Laughed, loudly and perhaps a little wildly. "You're telling me
that?"
An hour later it was all over. People lay
dead in pockets of blood across the width of the encampment. The merchants
buried and mourned their own, but they left the bandits for carrion. The
mounted men had fared the best, once they realized that they were vulnerable,
and three at least had fled the arrows and bolts that the guards used against
them. The rest joined their unmounted counterparts.
David, injured, was still alive. Kelsey was
glad of it. She watched his wounds being bound by the doctor—the merchant Tuavo
always traveled with a good physician as part of his caravan—and swung her bat
up onto its familiar shoulder-perch. "Hey," she said.
"I know, I know. So we never make fun
of strange barmaids who carry bats around the kitchen. Okay?"
She smiled. "That's not what I'm here
for. It's about my position as a caravan guard."
"As a what?"
"Look, I'm a bit of a hero for the
next hour, and I'll be damned if I don't use it to get out of peeling potatoes
and onions for the next two months. You're going to vouch for me—is that
clear?"
He laughed. "As a bell."
"Hello," Kelsey said, as she
caught Carris' shadow looming over her shoulder. "Aren't you late for your
shift?"
"The captain excused me. I've
been," he added, lifting his arm, "injured in action." He
grinned and Kelsey laughed. She'd done a lot of that lately.
Carris returned her laugh with a laugh of
his own. He seemed both taller and younger than he had when she'd first laid
eyes on him in Torvan's place. A little more at peace with himself.
Still, there was something she wanted to
say. "I—I've been meaning to apologize to you."
"To me? For what?"
"The Mage." She looked up, and
her eyes, dark in the fading day, met his.
Carris shook his head almost sadly.
"Was it that obvious?" He took a deep breath, and ran his fingers
through his short, peppered hair. Very quietly, he gave her her due. "I've
never wanted to kill a man so badly in my life."
"I would've felt the same way."
"You got to kill him." He looked
into the fire, and she knew he was seeing Lyris. She reached up and caught his
hand, felt his fingers stiffen and then relax as she pulled him down to the
log.
"Tell me," she said, in the
softest voice he had yet heard her use. "Tell me about Lyris."
He did. He talked for hours, letting his
tears fall freely at first, and then returning to them again and again as an
odd story or an old, affectionate complaint brought the loss home. He talked
himself into silence as the fire lapped at the gravel.
Then he did something surprising. He turned
to her in the darkness and said, "Now tell me about Kelsey."
She was so flustered, she forgot how to
speak for a moment—and Kelsey was not often at a loss for words. Well, she
thought, as she stared at the crackling logs beyond her feet, what do you
have to say for yourself? About yourself?
His chuckle was gentle. "Should I start?"
"Go ahead."
"Kelsey is a young woman who, as a
child, very much wanted to be a Herald."
It was dark, so he couldn't see her blush.
"H-how did you know that?"
"It's a... gift of mine. And as a
Herald, you get used to spotting people who hold the Heralds in awe. Or
rather," he added wryly, as he touched his short hair again, "hold
the position in awe."
She shrugged.
"You asked me if I knew why we were
Chosen—but what you really wanted to know was why you weren't."
She couldn't answer because every word he
spoke was true.
"I don't know why." He slid an
arm around her shoulder and it surprised her so much she didn't even knock him
over. "But having met you, I can guess."
Here it comes. "What? What would you
guess?"
"Kelsey—I told you that I was the son
of a noble, and as it's not important, I won't tell you which one. But if Arana
hadn't come to me, hadn't Chosen me, I would have become embroiled in the
politics of the nobility, and would have done very little of any good to the
people of the Kingdom as a whole. I like to think I would have ruled my own
people well, but... it's not easy.
"And Lyris? Much as I love him, he'd
have probably wound up as a second-rate thief—or a corpse. Not much good there
either."
She was very quiet.
"You don't have a Companion, yet if
not for you, the people of this caravan would have been slaughtered like sheep
at the Crown Princess' wedding." He caught one of her hands in his good
one. "I've got to get some sleep, if I can. So do you. But think about
it."
"I will."
Kelsey had spent many sleepless nights in
the cold of a dying fire, and this one was to be no exception. What did it
mean? What did it really mean? She looked at her hands, seeing both the
calluses and the dried blood of the injured that she'd helped the doctor with.
They were good hands, strong enough to do what was necessary.
I'm not a Herald, she thought, as she stared at them. And
I never will be. She turned it over in her mind, and for the first time in
her life, she accepted it without sorrow. I never will be Chosen.
She stood up as the embers faded. But if
I can't be one of the Chosen, I can be one who chooses. And 1 choose to do what
I must, when I'm needed.
Heralds couldn't do everything for
themselves; she knew how to run an inn—maybe, if she proved worthy of it, she'd
be allowed to run a school. Everyone needed to eat—surely the Heralds would
need a cook? And that close to the thick of things—that close to Heralds,
Companions, possibly the King himself—there was certain to be a lot for Kelsey
to do.
She smiled; the sun was on the fringe of
the horizon.
"Carris!"
If she expected him to be sleeping, she was
wrong; he was awake, and a strange little smile hovered around the corner of
his lips. "Yes?"
"I'm coming with you to the capital,
and I won't take no for an answer. You're still injured, you probably still
need someone to watch your back, and you—"
"And I'd love your company."
He didn't, come to think of it, look at all
surprised. Made her suspicious, but it also made her, for the first time that
she could remember, completely happy. She had done with waiting; it was time to
start the life that her grandmother had always promised her she could choose to
live.
Song of Valdemar
by Kristin
Schwengel
Kristin Schwengel is an
avid fan of Mercedes Lackey's work, and leaped at the opportunity to write
about Valdemar. This story is her first published work. She lives in Green Bay,
Wisconsin with her fiance, John Heifers, whose work also appears in this
collection. They have no cats (yet), but they do have a collection of wolf and
wildcat paraphernalia, which will have to do for now.
"Revyn," Eser called quietly,
"I need some more of those bandages over here. And a splint."
The young trainee trotted over to the
Master Healer, arms full of soft fabric, fingertips barely clutching the
smoothly carved pieces of the splint. Eser took the wood from his hands just
before he dropped it, smiling gently.
"Now, lad, I don't need you bringing
so much that you lose it before you can do any good with it," he teased, a
smile lighting his faintly lined face. Revyn smiled thinly back at him,
acknowledging the mild rebuke, and watched with feigned disinterest as the
Healer carefully set the broken leg.
"Do you think you could do the same,
hmm?" Eser asked when he had finished, glancing up at his pupil.
Revyn avoided Eser's eyes as he lifted his
shoulders slightly, carefully hiding the surge of affirmation that raced
through him.
"I—I'm not sure. It seems easy enough,
but... I wouldn't want to cause more harm than is already done." He spoke
awkwardly, trying to seem all nervousness and uncertainty.
Eser's lips thinned as he stood smoothly,
stretching his back to straighten out the knots that he got from hunching over
the pallet. He still moved with a fluidity and grace belying his forty years,
but every so often his body chose to remind him of his true age. He studied
Revyn's averted face carefully. What was wrong with the young man? Was there
more than he himself was aware of? Eser shrugged mentally, knowing that answers
would come eventually, one way or another. Now, they had more important things
to take care of. Eser gestured to his apprentice to follow him and moved down
the halls of the House of Healing to the storeroom.
"Well, Revyn, you're going to set a
leg now. Teral wasn't the only one caught in that rockslide. More bandages and
another splint, lad, and follow me."
Revyn nearly gasped aloud at Eser's words,
staring at the older man's parting back. What if he finds out? he
thought frantically. I can't hide much longer, but I can't keep refusing
either. Taking a large breath to relax his nerves, he scurried along the
halls of the House of Healing after his teacher, nearly spilling the extra
bandages again in his haste.
Finally, Eser stopped and gestured for
Revyn to precede him into the sickroom. Revyn paused in the hall-way to allow
his heightened breathing to slow to a normal pace. "Never enter a
sickroom in a hurry or in obvious panic," he heard Eser's voice in his
head, "for that is the best way to hinder the Healing you wish to encourage."
Gently, he laid his hand on the door and slowly pushed it open. The
well-oiled hinges made barely a sound as the two of them slipped into the room
and closed the door carefully behind them.
Glancing at the blanket-covered figure on
the low pallet, Revyn was barely able to contain a low gasp of shock and
surprise. It was just a boy! A boy, no older than his sister Chylla. The lad
was clearly fevered, for he tossed his head restlessly under the effects of the
herbs that had taken away his pain and put him to sleep so that the Healers
could work on him. Looking uncertainly up at Eser, Revyn received no
encouragement other than a small nod. Taking a deep breath, he knelt on the
floor by the side of the pallet and lifted the blanket from the boy's thin legs.
Carefully, Revyn moved his hands gently
over the skin of the broken leg, exploring the shape of the bone and
determining how much movement would be needed to line up the two edges so that
the splint and bandages could do their work. Thankfully, he had just to pull
slightly on the boy's foot to straighten the bone, and the pieces moved easily
into place, seeming to straighten almost of their own accord. Silently, Eser
crouched next to him and maintained the tension on the foot so that Revyn could
place the splint and swiftly bandage the leg tightly, making sure the bone
would heal as straight as before. Standing, he met the Master Healer's eyes and
was surprised and intensely pleased by the approbation he saw there.
"He will sleep easier now that his bones
are in line, and the healing herbs can take better effect. Well done,"
Eser said softly. "We are finished here, but I would speak with you."
Revyn was no stranger to the sudden sinking
feeling in his stomach. He had often felt this way before one of his older
brother Myndal's chastising sessions—those that had involved swift beatings and
usually the destruction of at least one of his own precious treasures, few
though they were. He had thought he had done well with the young boy's leg—no,
he knew he had done well. Eser's own words had told him that. What could
have gone wrong? He followed the Healer out of the House, trying to control his
concern.
Eser slowly shut the door to his room and
turned to face his student, a swift touch to his temples easing the tension
headache that was already building.
"Why, Revyn?" he asked. "We
both know that you have a strong Healing Talent. Why do you resist it so?"
Revyn looked down at the floor, shuffling
his feet slightly. How could he put it so that the Healer would understand? He
didn't want to be a Healer, at least he hadn't wanted to until—He
broke off his thoughts and tried to answer.
"I—I don't know. I just don't want
to... hurt anyone when I try to help them. And I seem so clumsy sometimes that
it seems that all I can do is just to make a mess of what I put my hands to,
and..." The hurried flow of his speech stopped as he ran out of words, and
he glanced uncertainly up at Eser. The older man had turned to look out the
window at the autumn golds and reds in the garden, just visible beneath the
dusting of the second snow.
"Revyn, you've been here at Haven for
almost a year now, and most of that time you have spent with the Healers. You
should be farther along in your studies than you are now. Your skill today,
handling that broken leg without even asking advice, proves that you are not as
clumsy as you say. Yes, I know you nearly dropped the splint this
afternoon," Eser laughed, holding up a hand to stop his student's protest,
"but that was only because you took more than you could easily carry,
through no fault of your own."
The Healer paused for a moment, thinking,
then turned to look his student straight in the eye. "Just because one
dream won't come true for you doesn't mean that you should stop dreaming,
should stop thinking of the good you can do for yourself and others." He
would have continued, but Revyn, choking as if the words he wanted to say were
stuck in his throat, had already turned and fled.
How can he know? Revyn thought furiously. He's just a
Healer. He ran to his room, paused only to snatch his letters from his desk
and stuff them inside his tunic, and hurried out to the garden. He only
knows Healing. He wouldn't know who has the Gift and who doesn't. "But
Bard Keryn would," a small voice in his head reminded him, a voice
that he crushed as he had so many times before. Keryn could be wrong, he
told himself. Sometimes Gifts don't show until later, like with the Heralds.
Some of them aren't Chosen until they're older than I am. There's still a
chance that I could have a Bardic Gift, he told himself, refusing to listen
to the voice that told him otherwise.
Revyn settled himself in a private grotto
in the garden, the one farthest from the buildings, and pulled the two letters,
each with the seal of Hold Elann, from the front of his tunic. Even though he
had been receiving these letters roughly every month since he had come to
Haven, each time he opened them his heart raced in anticipation.
My dear son,
It is
good to hear that you have learned so much in your time in Haven. Perhaps soon
you can return to us. Your brother Myndal seems to have come to terms with your
leaving, as he allows us to write to you openly now. If you come back to us,
surely he would respect your skills with your professional training.
Your sister writes you as well, so I will
not speak to you of her, save that she misses you greatly. We are all well here
in Hold Elann, though we miss your music. Myndal begins to speak of finding a
wife and raising children to carry on the mastery of Elann. He hopes for a
daughter of one or another of the nearby landowners. Young Aislynn, whom you
surely remember, grows ever prettier. If you were to return soon, before
someone else snatches her up, I think the two of you could make a match of it.
The dogs are well, though Tygris is aging.
I fear she has raised her last batch of pups this summer, for she will likely
not survive the coming winter. I run out of paper, and so I close with best
wishes for your continued health and hope that you return soon, the Bard I
always knew you could be.
Your loving Mother
Revyn bit his lip, wishing that there were
some way he could tell his family what his situation truly was. How could he
say that he was no longer a Bardic student? That he was now in the Healer's
Collegium? Chylla would be so disappointed. She had always wanted him to
compose a song for her when he tried to reach Master Bard rank. She wanted him
to write a ballad about Valdemar, a song that put everything that was best
about their homeland into words. On his journey to Haven he had begun a draft
of it, but ever since that interview with Bard Keryn he had tried to forget
about it, the sheets of paper covered with his brief notations buried in the
back of his desk.
His mind flashed back to that day Keryn had
spoken with him, only a few weeks after he had come to Haven and been brought
from an inn to the Bardic Collegium by Keryn herself.
"Revyn, you'll make a superb Minstrel,
better than most even here in Haven. You're one of the most talented students
we've ever had. But I'm afraid that you don't have the Bardic Gifts. Some of us
think that you might be Gifted in Healing, however, and... Revyn, I'm
sorry," Keryn had said softly.
The hurt of hearing Keryn's words still
tasted bitter in his mouth, even months later. She had tried to be kind, tried
to tell him about his Healing Talent, but it had all added up to the same
thing. He could never be a Bard. Those first few weeks of living and studying
in the Bardic Collegium had easily been the happiest time of his life. Hearing
Keryn affirm his worst doubts and fears had torn his joy away from him, leaving
an aching empty spot where his long-cherished dream of being a Bard had been, a
spot he had thought could not be filled. And then Eser had come and taken him
to the House of Healing....
Revyn brought his mind back to the present
with a quick mental shake, avoiding the thought of being a Healer as he had
tried to avoid it for the past year. He broke the seal on the second letter
with a smile, thinking of his fair-haired sister, and her laughter that sounded
like summer's golden sunshine would.
Revy—Oh, how I miss you still. Hold Elann isn't the
same without you. You probably said that when Minstrel Des died, didn't you?
Well, now I know how you feel. Did Mother tell you? Myndal is letting us write
you openly. Maybe that means you can come back soon.
Speaking of Myndal, that oaf actually
thinks he can find a girl stupid enough to marry him. He tried for Aislynn, but
she had too much sense for him. Besides, she told me she wanted to wait for you
to come back. Even though she's two years older than me, she doesn't act like
it, and we're still friends.
1 think Myndal also wants to set up a
marriage for me, it being as I'm getting to be old enough. Think of it, Revy,
your Chylla the matron of a household—at fourteen and a half! Sometimes I can't think of
it for laughing. I hope he goes to Hold Gellan. Edouard, the younger son, is
unmarried and only a few years older than you are, so he's not too old for me.
And he's handsome, too!
Your horse misses you, the dogs miss you
(Tygris has faded in health ever since you left), Mother misses you, and I miss
you most of all. I hope you get to Journeyman rank soon, so you can come to see
us.
Love and hugs, your own Chylla
Revyn leaned back against the sun-warmed
stone of the grotto, closed his eyes, and smiled, laughing with his merry
sister. He could see her now, just the way she had been on the day he told her
he was leaving Hold Elann.
"But what will Mother and I do without
you?" Her lips were quivering, and she bit them so hard he was sure she
would cut them. She looked at the ground then, turning away from him so he
wouldn't see her tears.
"You'll have to take care of Mother
for me, Chylla. You know how hurt she'll be when you tell her where I've
gone." He smiled and gently touched her thin shoulders. She turned
abruptly back to him, taking a deep breath.
"Take me with you, Revy. Please. I can
cut my hair. You can tell the traders I'm your little brother. Please don't
leave me here, not alone with Myndal."
"Better that you stay with
Mother," he had answered gravely. "Mother will need you more than you
will need me. Besides," he said, smiling cheerily, "I'll come back
for you, little one. You know I will, and everything will be fine."
If only she could be here with him now,
everything would be fine. She would understand about him being a Healer
if she just saw him, if he could just talk to her and show her how he felt, but
he didn't know how he could write it to her. It seemed to him that to tell his
family would make everything just that much more final. Telling them that he
wouldn't be a Bard would mean that he would have to give up his dream and
become a Healer.
"You know you want to be a Healer,
too," came the
insistent voice in his head, the second self that chose times like this to
scold him. This time, however, he didn't slap it away as he would a biting
gnat. "You have Talent. You know it, Eser knows it, the rest of the
Healers know it, too. You're just afraid."
Revyn thought about that one for a while. What
would I be afraid of? he asked himself.
"You're afraid of losing your last
hope of being a Bard. As long as you stay in the House of Healing without
making any progress in using your Healing Talent, there's a chance that a Bardic
Gift might show up. If you become a full Healer, you might have to leave Haven,
and you couldn't continue your musical studies like you have been. Like Eser
and Keryn have indulgently allowed you to."
The voice was a sting of conscience,
sharply reminding him of how ungrateful he had been to those who were trying to
help him and teach him. He squirmed suddenly, trying to avoid his
self-recrimination. But the voice, once unleashed, refused to be fettered
again.
"You know it's just your own pride.
Keryn said you could be a good Minstrel—and you already are one, even if it is 'just'
around the circle of other Healing students. And a Healer who can play music to
soothe and calm the nerves is a rare thing. You're just too stubborn to accept
that. You won't accept being anything less than the best, anything less than
what you decided you had to be without even knowing what you could and couldn't
be. You—"
Enough! he "shouted" at the voice, squelching it
into silence. You've made your point. Leave me alone for a while. I just
need to think, to figure out what I want.
Some weeks later, Revyn hurried down the
hallway of the House of Healing ahead of Eser, anxious to get to young Seldi's
room for a few quick minutes of conversation in the course of the morning rounds.
The boy's broken leg had been healing well, and Revyn expected that Eser would
soon allow the lad to return to his family's holding with his older brother,
who had arrived in Haven this day to fetch him.
"Good morning, Seldi," he said
cheerfully as he entered the room, smiling at the first patient he had ever
treated on his own.
"Hi, Revyn," the younger boy
said, grinning. "I hear my brother's come t' pick me up. 'S it true? Will
I be goin' home soon?"
Revyn glanced in mock warning at the door.
"I wouldn't say that too loudly when you know Healer Eser is coming. He's
liable to keep you here just to dash your hopes."
Eser smiled at the sound of the two boys'
laughter as he entered the sickroom.
"Well, Seldi, how do you feel
today?"
"I'm itchin' t' go home, Healer Eser,
sir. I hear m'brother has come t' fetch me."
"He has, and he'll be in to see you
soon. But it seems you might not be getting away from us for good, after
all."
Revyn shot Seldi a quick
"I-told-you-so" look, then turned his attention to what the Master
Healer was saying.
"You, my boy, have a slight Talent for
Healing. Not enough to make you a Master Healer, so don't worry about being
trapped in my job," Eser said, smiling at his own expense. "But what
you have, if trained, would be very useful back on the farm to help with the
livestock and small injuries."
"What, me, a Healer?"
Seldi gaped at Eser, eyes wide with disbelief.
"Yes, in certain things, if you choose
to come back when you're a little older, for training. You probably wouldn't be
strong enough to save lives, but you could save a good deal of the pain from
small things—the little hurts that you get often enough on a farm. And you
could learn to set legs, too."
"In case anyone else is fool enough t'
go climbin' the crag so soon after the first snow, y'mean?" Seldi grinned.
"Something like that," Eser
smiled. "Would you like to be able to do that?"
"Would I! Ma 'n' Da are allus sayin'
how much we need a Healer down nearer t' the village—we can't allus be runnin'
t' Haven. An' if I could take care of what we need, well, that'd save us time
and gold. Sure I'd come back!"
Eser smiled again at Seldi's infectious
enthusiasm.
"Well, then, we'll just have a look at
your leg and I'll talk with your brother and we'll see if we can get you sent
off home to finish knitting up that bone." He turned and nodded at Revyn,
who slipped quietly into his accustomed place beside the cot, lifting the
blankets and laying his hands gently over the bandages.
Carefully, he let his mind sink into the
leg, beneath the bandages and the splint, until he could See the white of the
bone buried deep within the flesh. The joining of the two pieces was a
complete, though fragile, network of bone and ligaments. The break had healed
straight and clean. He withdrew his awareness and looked up at Eser, nodding
slightly.
"It's clean," he said quietly.
Eser bent down and touched the leg briefly, checking Revyn's Sight against his
own, and nodded back at his student.
"Well, Seldi, you're doing fine. I'll
just have a word with your brother and we can send you home in good health.
Mind you don't try walking too soon, now, or you might bend the bone."
"Thank you, Healer Eser, sir,"
Seldi murmured breathlessly. "I'll be back before you know't."
Eser slipped out the door, leaving Revyn alone
with the younger boy.
"I'm t' be a Healer like Eser an' like
you, Revyn. Can you believe't?"
Revyn grinned at his friend, sharing his
delight.
"Who'd've thought this would come of
me breakin' me leg tryin' t' get me Mum the last of the ferril flowers?"
"Was that what you were doing, Seldi?
You never said."
"Oh, aye, a stupid enough thing, eh? I
allus promise t' pick the last ferril flowers I can find for me Mum, and I
hadn't gone and got 'em this year. So after the first snow, I decided to take a
last look up the crag t' see if'n I could find some. When the snow started
again, Teral came up to look for me, an' we both went down in that
rockfall." Seldi became quiet and looked down at the blanket, absently
picking at its weave.
"Well, you never can tell when good'll
come to you, right?" Revyn asked cheerily, standing and heading toward the
door to join Eser and continue the morning session.
"Nay. Sometimes, good comes even when
you don't get what you want—or when you don't even get what you promised yourself
an' somebody else, too."
Revyn turned suddenly, staring at Seldi in
shock. Sometimes, good comes even when you don't get what you want, he
repeated to himself. Havens, I think I must be the fool here. Seldi's
climbing the crag to pick flowers for his mother is no stupider than what I've
been doing here for the past year.
He smiled and said his farewells to the
young boy without really paying attention to what he was doing, his mind still
repeating what the lad had said. Without even knowing it, Seldi had done more
for him than a year of Eser's teachings.
Passing into the hallway, Revyn nearly ran
into the Master Healer, who was just returning, a tall strapping youth with a
striking resemblance to Seldi following in his wake.
"Ah, Revyn, there you still are. I
will just take Derem in to see his brother and we can finish visiting our
patients. I know you'll be in a hurry now."
Revyn gave his teacher a questioning glance
and saw the smile crinkling the corner's of Eser's eyes.
"I have letters for you from Elann,"
he said, opening the door to Seldi's room and gesturing for the other boy to
enter, then going in after him.
Revyn stared at the closing door, then
turned and hastened down the hall to the next occupied sickroom, not even
bothering to wait for Eser to finish talking to Seldi.
Revyn took the two letters from Eser's hand
and hurried out to the garden, ignoring the midwinter cold. He always read
letters from home in the privacy of what he had come to consider
"his" grotto, bad weather notwithstanding.
Brushing the snow off of the small bench,
he sat down and studied the envelopes. The first he recognized as his mother's
handwriting, and he expected the second to be from Chylla.
Revyn nearly dropped the second letter in
surprise when he saw that the second letter was addressed in the awkward,
blocky script of his brother. Why hadn't Chylla written him? Why would Myndal,
of all people, write to him? He decided to read Myndal's letter first—it
would surely be the shorter, and would probably only be a tirade against him
anyway.
Revyn—
Your sister took
sick a fortnight ago, going outside in the snow like the fool she was. She said
she was going to find you, but I think she was running away from the decent
marriage I had arranged for her. Anyway, she took sick real badly after we
found her and brought her back. She died last week at a candlemark before
midnight. I thought you ought to know, but we don't expect you back soon, so we
buried her right away.
Myndal
Hot tears flooded from Revyn's eyes as he
read the last lines, trying to force his mind to accept them. Chylla, his
beloved golden sister—gone! No, it wasn't true. It couldn't be true.
Gods, why Chylla? Why couldn't it have been—he stopped that thought before it
completely formed. No. He couldn't wish death on anyone, even Myndal. Healers
weren't allowed—again, he stopped his thoughts before he touched that which he
feared and wanted so much. He folded the page before his tears splotched the
ink beyond legibility, tucking it absently into his tunic. Hurt raged inside
him as his mind cried her name in agony.
Long minutes later, he broke the seal of
his mother's letter and slowly unfolded it.
My poor, dear son—
I weep as I write this, weep for your poor
sister, and weep for your foolish brother. Ah, if the gods only knew how I
suffered. I am sure Myndal has told you what has happened, but I doubt me that
he told you all. He had arranged a disagreeable marriage for poor Chylla,
wanting to wed her to a rich man my own father's age, simply to combine our
lands. I could do nothing to stop his plans, nor could your poor sister. Ah,
me, how foolish I was. I should have dissuaded her from her attempt to flee to
you. She left just before a great storm came up. Myndal was furious and set out
with hounds and men after her. They brought her back half-frozen and sick. The
fever set in, and Myndal refused
to send for any Healers, saying Chylla would be fine and that she deserved a
little sickness for her disobedience. I sent for the herb-healer, but she was
helpless. Finally, Myndal sent to Hold Gellan, for they have a full Healer, but
by then it was too late. Ah, poor Chylla. My heart grieves for her, my son, as
it does for you. As soon as you are able, come home to me, for I fear I need
you more than ever.
Your ever-loving Mother
Revyn's tears began again, but this time he
felt awash in a feeling of guilt. If only he hadn't stayed to be trained and to
continue his Bardic schooling. If only he'd gone home when he knew he couldn't
be a Bard, Chylla would still be alive. He could have stopped Myndal from
marrying her off to an old weakling. He could have helped her. He should have
brought her to Haven with him. He should have—A sudden thought struck him, and
he turned back to the letter. Yes, his mother had said that Myndal had refused
to get a Healer until it was too late. Gods, his fault again!
He'd been resisting the Healers, holding
back on his training, trying to give any Bardic Gift at all as much chance to
emerge as possible, hoping against hope that he could still be a Bard. If he
had taken the training as it had come, maybe he could have been home, and if
Chylla had gotten sick anyway, he could have Healed her. He had a strong enough
Gift, he now knew that instinctively. Now he accepted it, now that it was too
late for Chylla. Twice and three times a fool! Twice and three times his fault!
He tucked his mother's letter next to the
other inside his tunic, folded his arms across his knees, bent his head down,
and wept furiously, shaking with sobs as he reviled himself for his stupidity.
He grieved for his sister and blamed himself for his grief. The tears soaked
the arms of his winter cloak, chilling him as the snow seeped into his bones,
but he didn't care. Chylla was dead, and it was all his doing. Nothing would
ever matter again, not without Chylla there for him.
Much later, Revyn was only vaguely aware of
Eser and some other Healers running toward him with blankets. They snatched him
up and brought him in, warming him and giving him the Healing teas that he had
so often helped to brew. Thoughts of Chylla raced through his fevered mind,
until finally he slept.
He was back at Elann, standing outside the
gardens on a foggy spring day. Hazy clouds swirled around him, and his head
throbbed painfully. Somewhere, he heard music. Then he heard the golden music
of Chylla's laughter. A sharp pain stabbed deep into his heart when he heard
the joyous sound.
"Chylla!" he cried, "I'm
sorry!" He ran into the garden maze, calling her name, following the
laughter that rang in his head. "Chylla, come back to me!"
Suddenly, he rounded a corner, and there
she was, rosy as ever, her golden hair spilling over her shoulders, her bare
feet buried in the fresh green grass.
"Chylla," he gasped, "I'm
sorry, so sorry. It's all my fault."
"Oh, be quiet, Revy," she said
affectionately. "Maybe Myndal was right, maybe we are both fools."
"But, if I could have been there, I
could have Healed you, if I'd accepted my training..." Her laughter rang
out again.
"If you'd been there, it would have
happened differently. But don't you see? It doesn't matter now. The Havens are
so bright, so wonderful. They sent me back to wake you up. It's not your fault,
silly. I'll be fine."
"But, Chylla..."
She stepped forward and put a golden
fingertip across his lips. "No more of that, now. Tell Mother I love her,
and that I'm happy. She always worried about the ending of life. Tell her it's
just a new beginning." She danced backward and began to head toward
another of the maze pathways. Just before she disappeared, she turned to face
him.
"And, Revy, don't worry about that
song you were going to write for me. Just keep Healing. It's a different music,
but it's all connected." She slipped back into the maze, and the shrubs
began to disappear into the haze around him. Rooted to the spot, he cried out
her name, trying to bring her back to him.
"Revyn, wake up," Eser murmured
again, holding the student's head in one hand and a mug of tea in the other.
"Eser?" Revyn said, wonderingly,
turning his head slightly to look at his teacher.
A smile lit the Healer's face as he raised
the cup to Revyn's lips. "Drink," he said, "and rest. Your
mother only needs to grieve for one child at a time."
Revyn nodded and drank obediently, then
slipped back down under the quilts. The dream of Chylla was still so strong, so
clear in his mind and his heart.
Eser smiled again and nodded to himself.
The lad would heal soon, and then they could talk again about his resistance to
the training. He stood and slowly headed towards the door. A weak voice stopped
him.
"Eser? How long before I can resume my
training in the House of Healing?"
The Healer tried unsuccessfully to hide the
happiness in his voice as he turned to the bed again. "You won't be able
to visit the sickrooms for at least another week, until your strength is back.
We can still give you some lessons here in your room, though. Would you like
your lute? You can begin to practice again in a few days."
"No, I don't think so," Revyn
said drowsily. "Chylla told me I was better off playing a different kind
of music."
The School Up the
Hill
by Elisabeth
Waters
Elisabeth Waters sold her
first short story to Marion Zimmer Bradley for The Keeper's Price, the
first of the Darkover anthologies. She has sold short stories to a variety of
anthologies. Her first novel, a fantasy called Changing Fate, was
awarded the 1989 Gryphon Award, and was published by DAW in 1994. She is a
member of the Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers of America and the Authors
Guild. She has also worked as a supernumerary with the San Francisco Opera,
where she has appeared in La Gio-conda, Manon Lescaut, Madame Butterfly,
Khovanschina, Das Rheingold, Werther, and Idomeneo.
The voices were particularly loud today.
All day the instructions, unspoken and impersonal, were dinned into her brain.
"This is how to make it rain... now you do it." She spent the
entire day resisting, trying to block them out.
These voices weren't so bad, though; at
least they weren't men wanting her to do things she had no desire to do—men who
saw her as a thing, not a person with feelings.
Then twilight came. She had always hated
twilight, when her mother's customers started arriving. She had never liked her
mother's customers and had resolved at a young age that she was going to find
some way to live without selling her body. And that was before she
started hearing what they were thinking.
Some of the customers wanted her in
addition to her mother—or instead of her mother. And when her mother started
thinking that it was time she began earning her keep, she ran away, as far and
as fast as possible, until she found a place where she felt safe.
But still twilight made her uneasy, and her
resistance to the commands weakened....
Myrta lay back in the tub in her room and
relaxed. Maybe it was a bit self-indulgent, but she really enjoyed a bath in
the early evening, before she had to busy herself with the rush of customers
the inn got every evening, particularly in the bar. The town of Bolthaven had
been built around the winter quarters of a mercenary troop. When the Skybolts
moved out, their garrison had been taken over by a mage-school, the largest
White Winds school in Rethwellan. Now instead of drunken mercenaries, the bar
got student mages.
Sometimes this created problems: a
mercenary could be asked to leave most of his weapons back at the barracks, but
a mage's abilities were always with him. And if the mage was young enough for
practical jokes and/or foolish enough to get too drunk.... Well, the school had
a policy for that; they'd send down a teacher to stop whatever was going on,
and the school would pay for any damage done.
Myrta heard running footsteps in the hall
and a quick tap on her door. One of the barmaids dashed into the room before
Myrta had time to say "enter."
"Excuse me, Mistress, but it's raining
in the kitchen!"
Myrta surged out of the tub, splashing a
fair amount of water around the room as she half-dried herself, threw on the
nearest garment, and ran for the kitchen.
It was indeed raining in the kitchen. A
thin layer of cloud had formed just below the ceiling, and rain dripped
steadily from it. Fortunately, the brick floor in the kitchen sloped slightly
to a drain in the center, so that water was running out as fast as it fell; and
the stew for tonight's dinner was cooking in the fireplace, so the rain wasn't
falling into it. But the floor was getting rather wet and slippery, and the
biscuits the cook had been rolling on the center table were a total loss. The
table's surface was being rapidly covered with flour-and-water paste, and the
cook was cursing steadily. Serena had been a Skybolt until an injury left her
with a permanent limp. Myrta counted herself very fortunate to have Serena in
the kitchen; she was a wonderful cook, and she wasn't frightened by the
occasional magical mishap. Frequently angry, but never frightened. The new
scullery maid, on the other hand, was cowering in the corner by the fireplace.
She looked wet, miserable, and terrified.
Poor girl, thought Myrta, she's not used to the hazards of
Bolthaven yet, and she can't be more than thirteen years old—if that. "Serena,
I think both you and Leesa had best go get into dry clothes. I'll send up to
the school and have them deal with this."
Serena stalked out, still grumbling. Leesa
scuttled after her, hugging the wall, trying to stay as far as possible from
everyone else. Myrta closed the door behind them, sent the barmaid back to her
regular duties, and went out to the stables.
"Ruven!"
"Yes, Mistress?" The stable boy,
a stocky lad of seventeen, appeared from one of the stalls.
"I need you to run up to the school.
Present my compliments to Master Quenten, and tell him it's raining in our
kitchen."
"Raining in the kitchen, right."
Ruven wasn't terribly bright about anything but horses and mules, and thus he
tended to accept everything, however outrageous, as normal.
He dashed off, and Myrta returned to the
bar to wait for help to arrive.
Elrodie, one of the teachers at the school,
was there within half an hour. In addition to being an earth-witch, she was
also an herbalist. "Master Quenten wasn't certain how much salvage would
be required for tonight's dinner," she explained, greeting Myrta.
"Let's go see the damage."
The two women stood in the doorway. It was
still raining, but the fire under the stew still burned, and the stew did not
seem to Myrta to have scorched.
"I think the stew will be all
right," Elrodie said, confirming Myrta's opinion, "assuming I can get
the rain stopped quickly." She sighed. "That shouldn't be too
difficult; the apprentices have been practicing weather magic all week. By now
I think I could stop rain in my sleep."
"Thank you, Elrodie," Myrta said.
"I'll leave you to work in peace, then. I'll be in the bar when you're
ready for me."
Elrodie nodded absently, already rooting in
her belt-pouch for supplies.
The rain was stopped in short order, the
kitchen cleaned up, and Serena even managed to finish a new batch of biscuits
in time for dinner. Myrta went to bed in the early hours of the next morning
believing that life was back to normal.
This belief lasted until the next evening,
when she was interrupted just as she was about to get into the tub.
"Mistress?"
"What is it, Rose? It's not raining in
the kitchen again, is it?"
"No, Mistress." The barmaid took
a deep breath and said nervously, "This time it's fog."
Myrta put her gown back on and went down to
the kitchen. Everything was normal in the other rooms, but at the kitchen
doorway the air turned misty gray. The visibility in the kitchen was less than
an arm's length, as Myrta discovered when she stuck her arm into the fog and
her hand vanished. Cursing from the center of the room informed her that Serena
was still managing, after a fashion. "I'll send for help," she
informed the cook.
Elrodie arrived and surveyed the scene with
a teacher's eye. "Yes, this is today's apprentice lesson, all right. And
someone has done a very nice job of it."
"But why is it in my kitchen?"
Myrta asked.
Elrodie sighed. "Either it's a
practical joke, or we've got an apprentice whose control needs more work. I'll
clear this up for you, and then I'll have Master Quenten put a shield around
your building for a few days so that no external magic can get in here. That
should give us time to sort through the new apprentices and find out who's
doing this. I'm truly sorry for the inconvenience, Mistress Myrta."
Myrta shrugged. "These things happen,
and it could be a lot worse. Just fix it, so that the cook can see what she's
doing. A shield around this place should certainly take care of the
problem."
She broke out of his grip and ran,
terrified, into the first hiding place she could find. What he wanted was only
too clear—he wanted her to do what her mother had done, but he wasn't even
planning to pay her. She remembered what her mother had said to her when she
was a little girl, the one time she had spoken of wanting to do something else
when she grew up. "What else are you good for?" her mother had asked.
Mother had been so angry that she had never mentioned the subject again, but
she had resolved that she would rather die than be a harlot.
But maybe she was one; maybe if your mother
was, you didn't have any choice, no matter how hard you tried. After all, why
else would he treat her like that? It must be her fault somehow.
The air around her was turning colder and
darker. Now snow was starting to fall. She huddled against the wall, her face
pressed into her knees, and just let the snow cover her as the tears froze on
her face.
Myrta walked into the bar to find Ruven
complaining to Rose and Margaret.
"... I don't know what she made such a
fuss about—I barely touched the girl. I wasn't going to hurt her."
What girl! Myrta wondered. Please don't let it be anyone with
protective or influential parents.
"Ruven," Rose said patiently,
"you scared her. And you were going to hurt her."
"What do you mean?" Ruven asked.
"I never hurt you two."
Margaret sighed. "Rose is eighteen and
I'm nineteen. Leesa is twelve, much smaller than you, and a virgin. You were
going to hurt her if you continued with what you were doing."
Myrta's relief that this problem was confined
to her own household was cut short by a stream of curses coming from the
kitchen.
She hurried there at once. The kitchen
looked normal enough, but when she joined Serena at the entrance to the pantry,
she saw a great cloud of white before her eyes. For an instant she thought that
someone had dropped a bag of flour, but then she realized that all the white
stuff was coming straight down from the ceiling and it was cold.
"Ruven!" she called. "Go
tell Master Quenten that it is snowing in my pantry, and I would greatly
appreciate it if he would give the matter his personal attention, since this
appears to have come through his shields!"
Ruven ran out immediately, but it took a
while for Master Quenten, who was not a young man, to come down the hill. By
the time he arrived, everything in the pantry was covered with six inches of
snow.
"I apologize for the delay, Mistress
Myrta," he said mildly. "I stopped to check my shields on the way
here, and they are intact. It's beginning to look as though whatever is causing
this is here, not at my school."
"Here?" Myrta said incredulously.
"Do you think I hire mages to wait on my customers?"
"Not knowingly, I'm sure," Master
Quenten replied. "But tell me, who was in the building when this
started?"
"I was," Myrta said, "along
with the two barmaids, the cook and the scullery maid—and I believe that Ruven
was indoors at the time as well."
Ruven looked as if he would rather not have
been anywhere near the house. "I didn't do anything to her, honest!"
"To whom?" Master Quenten
inquired, raising his eyebrows.
Ruven stared at him dumbly, and Rose
answered for him. "The scullery maid. It seems that Ruven fancies her, but
she doesn't fancy him."
"Indeed?" Master Quenten turned
his attention to Rose. "How old is this girl, and how long has she been
here?"
"She's twelve," Rose said,
"and she's been here about three weeks."
Master Quenten looked around the kitchen.
"And where is she now?"
Margaret looked worried. "I thought
she was in here. She ran out of the bar crying when I came in and Ruven let her
go."
Myrta silently resolved to pay a lot more
attention to Ruven's activities in the future.
Serena frowned, trying to remember.
"She ran in here crying, and... I think she went into the pantry."
Master Quenten hurried into the pantry. The
snow stopped falling as soon as he crossed the threshold, and the clouds just
below the ceiling thinned and vanished. The snow on the floor melted away from
his feet as he walked the length of the room and reached down to grasp what
appeared to be a sack of grain covered in snow—until he pulled the girl to her
feet and began gently brushing snow off her hair and shoulders. "I think
we've found our mage," he said calmly.
Leesa looked even more incredulous than
Myrta had at the suggestion. "That's silly," she said. "There
aren't any mages—except in old ballads. My mother said so."
"Indeed?" Quenten asked.
"Where are you from, child?"
Leesa looked at the floor.
"Haven," she said softly.
"Valdemar," Master Quenten said.
"That explains a lot. Until recently there were no mages in Valdemar; it
was certainly the most uncomfortable place for a mage to be." He shuddered
at the memory. "I was there once, briefly, and as soon as I crossed the
border it was as if there was something watching me all the time. I got out as
soon as I could."
He looked Leesa over carefully. "So if
you were born in Valdemar with a Mage-Gift, which you were—believe me, anyone
with Mage-Sight can see it—you would never know you had it as long as you
stayed there. But when you came to Rethwellan, whatever it is that inhibits
magic in Valdemar would stop affecting you."
"If it's so obvious that I'm a
mage," Leesa said disbelievingly, "then why didn't that teacher who
came here the last two days notice it?"
"That is a good question," Master
Quenten said approvingly. "Elrodie has no Mage-Sight, so she would not
have noticed—and I imagine you kept out of her way as much as possible, didn't
you?"
"Yes," Leesa admitted.
"Being around mages makes me feel funny—they're so noisy, yelling about
how to make it rain, or how to make fog, until I feel like my head is going to
burst."
"You heard the instructions on how to
make rain two days ago and how to make fog yesterday, right?"
Leesa nodded. "I don't like hearing
voices all the time. It was nice when they stopped."
"So you didn't hear anything
today?"
Leesa shook her head. "No. Not until
Ruven came in and grabbed me. Then I could hear him really loud." She
shuddered. "At least my mother's customers paid her to do stuff like
that!"
Master Quenten turned a measuring eye on
Ruven.
Myrta glared at the boy. "Can't you
tell when a girl is not interested?" she asked. "Or don't you
care?"
"He doesn't care!" Leesa said,
suddenly furious. "I told him to stop and I tried to get away from him,
but if Margaret hadn't come in then..."
"You probably would have killed
him," Master Quenten finished calmly, "and quite possibly leveled the
entire building while you were at it."
Leesa looked at him uncomprehendingly.
"I'm not a harlot," she said. "I'd rather die than be one."
"Well, that explains the snow,"
Master Quenten said.
"What do you mean?" Myrta
demanded.
"She turned her perfectly justifiable
anger at what was being done to her inward instead of outward. Part of her
wanted to die, and part of her put the weather lessons of the last two days
together. Precipitation and a low enough temperature generally produce
snow."
"Lessons?" Serena said.
"Leesa," Quenten said, "fog
occurs in nature when—"
"—the ambient temperature approaches
the dew point." Leesa finished the sentence automatically, with the air of
a student who had heard the lesson more times than she wanted to.
"You're a quick study," Master
Quenten said approvingly.
Leesa just shrugged. Compliments made her
feel uneasy. Since her own mother had never seen anything to praise in her, she
figured that anyone who was nice to her wanted something in return. But she
couldn't read this man; he didn't broadcast his thoughts the way most men she
had encountered did. "What do you want?" she asked him suspiciously.
"I want you to come up the hill to my
school, to live and study there, so that you can learn how to use your
abilities without hurting anyone."
"I haven't hurt anyone!" Leesa
protested.
"You're hurting yourself," Master
Quenten pointed out. "You are standing here in dripping wet clothing, and
by my reckoning this is the third day you've managed to soak yourself to the
skin. Keep this up and you'll be sick. Do you have any dry clothes left?"
"Well, no," Leesa admitted after
a moment's thought. "Everything I own is still damp."
"Come on upstairs," Margaret
said, "and Rose and I will find something to fit you. We weren't in the
kitchen during any of the incidents, so our spare clothes are dry."
"Good idea," Rose agreed. She
glanced at Master Quenten to see if he had any objections, then took Leesa's
hand. The three girls went up the stairs to the large attic room they shared.
"What you said about her leveling the
building," Myrta said as soon as the girls were out of earshot, "you
were exaggerating, weren't you?"
"No," Quenten said, as Serena
shook her head. "She really could have done it. It's fortunate for all of
us that the lessons the last few weeks have been basic weather magic, rather
than say, how to summon a fire elemental." He looked at Ruven. "You, young
man, have had a very narrow escape. And I wasn't joking about her killing you.
If you hadn't let her go, if she had felt truly cornered and desperate, you would
be dead by now. Think about that next time you're tempted to treat a girl
worse than you would treat a horse."
"But horses are different!" Ruven
protested.
Serena snorted. "Yes, they're bigger
than you are, and they kick harder. Go back to the stables, Ruven."
"Shouldn't he apologize to her?"
Myrta asked.
"Not if she can read thoughts,"
Serena said. "That's why I always say exactly what I'm thinking—I spent
enough of my time in the Skybolts around Master Quenten and his mages to learn
that you're much safer around mages if your behavior matches your thoughts.
Since Ruven obviously doesn't understand what he's done wrong, any apology he
attempted to make would be perceived by Leesa as an insult—and he's insulted
her more than enough already."
"I see your point," Myrta said.
"Ruven, you can go back to the stables now, and I suggest that you stay
there."
Ruven, still looking bewildered, shrugged
and went out.
Meanwhile Quenten was conferring with
Serena. "You've worked with her for several weeks. What's your
impression?"
"She's smart, determined, and a hard
worker," Serena replied promptly. "I'll be sorry to lose her; it's
not often you get help that diligent. But she's running scared from
something—probably her mother's way of life."
"'I'm not a harlot,'" Myrta
quoted softly. "'I'd rather die than be one.'"
"Exactly," Serena said. "And
if 'I'd rather die' had been 'I'd rather kill,' we'd have a real mess on our
hands. The sooner she's moved up to the school, the better."
"You're sending me away?" Leesa
stood in the doorway, looking stricken. The fact that she was wearing clothes
too large for her made her look even more like a helpless and frightened child.
To Myrta's astonishment, for Serena had
never struck her as the motherly type, Serena limped over to Leesa and held out
her arms, and Leesa took the step that closed the small distance between them
and clung to Serena.
"Master Quenten is an old friend of
mine," Serena said quietly. "We were Skybolts together, and I've
trusted him with my life many times."
"Almost as many as I've trusted you
with mine," Master Quenten pointed out.
Serena ignored him. "He's good people,
and the school he runs is one of the best. You'll have a room of your own
there, with a lock on the door—"
Leesa looked sideways at Master Quenten,
who nodded.
"—and you'll have people to teach you
how to use your powers. There are a lot of jobs that mages can do, and I think
that you're going to be a very good mage."
"I think so, too," Quenten said,
smiling at her.
"What's the catch?" Leesa asked,
still suspicious. "Am I going to be a prisoner up there?"
"No, you won't be a prisoner,"
Master Quenten assured her. "Students are not allowed to leave the school
grounds without permission, but permission is routinely granted when you have
free time." He chuckled. "How many of our students do you get in your
bar here every night?"
"Quite a few," Myrta said,
"and even more on holidays."
"And I'll come up and visit you,
too," Serena said reassuringly. "You're not going to vanish into a
dungeon. Once you reach Journeyman status, you can go out and get a job if
you're tired of studying. And by then, you won't have to worry about anyone's
trying to rape you—you'll be able to defend yourself from idiots like
Ruven."
Leesa looked up at her. "Truly?"
Serena nodded. "Truly."
"And you promise you'll come visit
me?"
"I promise."
Leesa chewed on her lower lip, then
decided. "All right, I'll go."
"Excellent," Master Quenten said.
"You can share my horse on the ride uphill."
Leesa's eyes sparkled. Riding a horse was a
real treat.
"But promise me one thing,
Leesa," Serena said. "Even when you've learned how, don't turn that
idiot Ruven into a frog. It's a waste of energy."
Leesa laughed. "I promise."
Chance
by Mark Shepherd
In 1990 Mark Shepherd began
collaborating with Mercedes Lackey in the SERRAted edge urban fantasy series
with the novel Wheels of Fire, (Baen Books). Also available from Baen is
another collaboration with Mercedes, Prison of Souls, and a solo
project, Escape from Roksamur, both novel tie-ins based on the
best-selling role-playing computer game Bard's Tale. His first published
solo work, Elvendude, appeared on the Locus bestseller's list In the
works is a sequel, Spiritride, to be published in 1997.
He is not what I expected, and everything I
expected, Guardsman Jonne
thought as he made his way back to the camp. What I didn't expect was that
he would look so tired.
It had been a candlemark since making the
acquaintance of Herald-Mage Vanyel, and already Jonne was convinced that the
gods had sent him to this place for a reason.
It certainly took Haven long enough to send
a Mage; here on the Karsite border the battle had been raging for some time,
and until recently had been limited to the more "conventional"
elements of warfares arrows, swords, knives. These were the things Jonne knew
well. Levin-bolts and mage-lightning, these were better left to the magicians.
But Vanyel, he is no mere magician. If the
stories I've been hearing are true, he could level the entire town of Horn with
a glance.
Jonne walked with a lightness in his step
and a gladness in his heart, both of which were unfamiliar feelings in this war-torn
land. He'd grown up in the area, with Karse just on the other side of the
valley, and he'd become accustomed to the Karsites' occasional war threat. But
Jonne and his family, comrades in arms and friends, had never felt as
vulnerable as they had this war. Jonne's family owned a good piece of the land
bordering Karse, including a number of crystal mines that were relatively
untouched, so he had a personal interest in defending the border, as well as a
patriotic one; lately the war had gone badly, and this was most certainly one
of the reasons why Vanyel the Herald-Mage had been sent.
Perhaps there was another reason, which had
nothing to do with the war, the Kingdom, or even with Vanyel's magical
abilities.
Perhaps, Jonne thought, we were simply meant to meet.
There were other stories, about Vanyel's
lovers, one in particular. They said he was shay'a'chern, that his loves
were all young men. Jonne was in his thirtieth summer, had never married, but
had also been drawn to the males of his village from an early age. He knew what
he was long before puberty breathed new life into his body while torturing it
with growth, but only recently he'd had a name for it: shay'a'chern. His
experiences in youth and early adulthood were awkward, brief, and scarce, and had
never grown into anything other than fumbling adolescent experiments. The last,
of a few years before, with a young farmer having marital problems, might have
become more than a single night. But the farmer had second thoughts, guilty
thoughts connected to his religion, and had pushed Jonne out of his life and
declared the whole affair a moment of weakness that he would not repeat.
Jonne accepted the reaction, and his fate, resigned to a life of loneliness.
Then he started hearing stories about
others, this Herald-Mage in particular, and he began to wonder if perhaps he
might meet someone like himself, who would want more than a single night
of physical pleasure. When his captain asked for volunteers to be the
Herald-Mage's guide, he raised his hand immediately. Given Vanyel's mysterious
and frightening reputation for destroying armies at a glance, no others offered
their services. Which was just as well, as Jonne was the only one who knew the
area, having grown up in this very forest.
Vanyel and other important Valdemaran
officers had made camp on a hillside. Jonne looked back at the camp, now
visible as a campfire in the forest; when Jonne had asked them why the camp was
so far from the troops, Vanyel had replied that it was to draw any magical
attack toward him, the Herald-Mage, and away from the troops, who were ill
equipped to deal with such an attack. Jonne thought this a great act of
bravery, or stupidity; since he had little experience in magical warfare, he
withheld judgment. After all, he was a mere country lad, trained as a soldier,
whereas Vanyel was a full Herald, and a Mage to boot, educated at the Collegium
and, it was rumored, a close friend of the King himself.
Vanyel has survived many battles, magical
and otherwise. He must know what he's doing, Jonne reasoned. Or he would not be here, filling in
for five Herald-Mages.
After his brief introduction to Vanyel, the
guardsman sensed something familiar behind the younger man's eyes. It was a
look, a spark of recognition, that Jonne had seen maybe a dozen times in his
life. It was a lingering gaze, normally brief between most men, but between shay'a'chern
the gaze lasted a moment longer, just long enough to let the other know
that yes, I know you, too. We are both... different.
The Guardsman also felt Vanyel's power
behind the sexuality; Jonne had a slight Gift for Empathy and Mind-speech, but
it was so unpredictable that he did not qualify for training. Occasionally the
Gift would surface when his emotions were charged, as they were this evening.
Jonne bid him good evening with promises to
return the next day. Yes, he knows. He is, he thought, trying not to let
his joy show to the others gathered there.
The next day they would properly scout the
Karse border, and perhaps catch a glimpse of the enemy, way off in the
distance. War seemed to be a distant prospect now, as more pleasant thoughts
occupied his mind as he made his way back to his company. Nearby was a system
of caves he would show the Herald-Mage.
The path Jonne had taken passed along a
ridge, below which was a sea of tents housing Valdemar's forces. Here and there
was the occasional revelry, as this was Sovvan, which some insisted on
celebrating despite the circumstances. The tents looked like shingles on a
tiled roof, reflecting pale light from a full harvest moon. His own tent was
down there somewhere, and as he began the descent to the valley, he even
fantasized that some night very soon he may not be sleeping in it alone.
So long, Jonne thought. So very long. The Guardsman
didn't want assume too much. After all, Jonne was no spring chicken anymore,
and he had no way of knowing if the Mage would find an older man attractive,
even if he was only five years his senior. Many years of sword training and a
dislike for wine left him leaner and younger than his years; he made a point of
staying in shape, not only to maintain his strength and stamina, but to keep
himself physically appealing for that special man, wherever and whenever he
might happen along. Jonne wanted so much to believe that Vanyel was that man.
The path led downward, into a thicker part
of the forest where the shadows darkened. Jonne hesitated before starting down
it. Something felt wrong, very wrong... the hair on his neck stood up.
Above the hill where Vanyel's group was
camped, a dark stormcloud blotted out the moon. Lightning raced from it,
striking the ground, rippling through the sky. There had been no sign of rain a
mere hour before; wind whipped up from the south, racing up the valley and
through the forest. Trees swayed around him, and he felt a surge of magic, evil
magic, coming from Karse.
Jonne saw the magic for what it was, an
attack from the south. On this night, of all nights, when we would least
expect it, he thought in panic.
His first duty was with the company, but
the rest of the army was still some distance away, and Vanyel's tent was much
closer. Something called to him, drawing him back the way he came. From the
thunderclouds came another streak of lightning, followed by an enormous
fireball, which struck the hillside, sending a cloud of sparks high in the air.
Gods, was that their camp? Jonne thought, breaking into a run. Have
they been destroyed?
He didn't want to consider the possibility
that Herald-Mage Vanyel was injured. But when he reached the camp, he knew someone
had been hurt. Three of the tents were ablaze, and other Guardsmen were
scurrying about, trying to put out the fires. The hair on the back of his neck
raised again. Guardsman Jonne dropped to the ground and covered his head.
The concussion hammered through the ground
he lay against. A wave of heat blazed over him, scorching the back of his hands
covering his head. Behind him someone was screaming; another Guardsman was on
fire, and others tried to wrestle him to the ground.
"Lord and Lady, what is attacking
us?" someone shouted, but in the chaos Jonne didn't see who.
Jonne started to get up, but before he was
fully on his feet, a voice resounded in his head: :Guardsman, come help us,:
came the distraught words. In the shadows cast by the flickering flames,
Jonne saw a shape, which moved toward him. What he first took for a large man
in Herald Whites turned out to be a white horse.
No, not a horse, Jonne thought. That is a Companion.
He knew enough about the Heralds and their
partners to know that this was no mere horse, and was as intelligent as any
man.
:Vanyel is injured,: the words sounded. :Come help us now.:
At the mention of the Herald's name, Jonne
stood straight up.
"Vanyel?" he called out.
"Where is he?" Then he knew he was speaking to the Companion.
:This way,: the Companion answered, moments before the next
explosion hit.
Jonne heard nothing as a flash of light
illuminated the entire area. The light came from behind him, as it cast his
long shadow on the ground before him. The explosion threw him forward, into his
own darkness.
Something solid nudged him solidly in his
ribs. When he opened his eyes, the Companion was standing over him, looking
down.
:You survived,: the Companion Mindspoke. :You, and
Vanyel. The others are dead.:
Again, Jonne got up. The camp had been
leveled by whatever struck them last. All that remained of the tents were wisps
of burning fabric. A forest fire raged, spanning outward, burning away from
them, filling the air with thick smoke. The Companion appeared to be singed,
and smelled of burned hair, but for the most part unhurt. Items of Jonne's own
clothing continued to smolder, and the Guardsman batted them out. He moaned
when he touched the back of his neck and hands, the only parts of him that were
burned.
"The others," Jonne murmured,
then he saw them. Burned, unmoving bodies lay about like discarded
dolls. Then, "Vanyel. Where is he?"
:This way,: the Companion said, and led Jonne to a clearing just
beyond the tents. Above, lightning continued to flash, casting brief moments of
visibility on the area. Still, no rain had fallen, but threatened to at any
moment. Vanyel lay in the center of the clearing, and the Companion went to
him, nudging with her nose.
:He's alive,: the Companion Mindspoke. :But he is injured. Help
him onto my back. This is not a safe place anymore.:
The Guardsman sniffed the smoky air,
remembering that whatever sent that last blast was still out there, somewhere,
and was probably getting ready for another attack.
Jonne easily picked up the Herald, noting
his slight weight as he propped him up on the beast. Vanyel muttered something
unintelligible as he found his balance on the saddle.
:He can ride,: the Companion told him. :Take us to safety, please,
Guardsman.:
Lightning struck the campsite, several
paces behind him. The blast spattered them with dirt and pebbles, and in reflex
Jonne shielded his face with his arm.
Time to go. Now.
"There are caves nearby," Jonne
offered. "Will that—"
:Take us to them,: the Companion ordered. :While you still
can.:
Jonne led the Companion and her barely
conscious rider to the mouth of one of the hidden caves. In the distance, he
heard battle, and felt an urge to go join it. Torn between his duty to his
company and his new assignment to Vanyel as his guide, he had little trouble
choosing his course of action.
This Herald is injured, and if I don't take
him to safety, we will lose him, and all will be lost, the rational part of Jonne's mind told him.
But beyond his duty, he felt a link to Vanyel, as if they were part of the same
brotherhood: the brotherhood of shay'a'chern.
Jonne had chosen this cave because it had a
hot spring pool near the mouth, and also because it had a few provisions they
would need, which he'd stored down here in case of an emergency. The Guardsman
led the Companion a few paces into the cave, where he paused to light a torch
mounted on the cave wall. The sudden light revealed a pair of straw mattresses,
lanterns, candles, and a cabinet which, assuming it hadn't been disturbed, had
medicines and supplies he would need.
As he helped Vanyel down, he saw, in the
blazing torchlight, the burns. They were three lines, slicing through his
Herald Whites, reaching from his neck down past his waist. Jonne gently cradled
Vanyel in his arms, hoping he wasn't injuring him more by moving him.
Lord and Lady, what did this to him? he thought, but deep inside he already
knew. Mage-lightning. What was he taking on, out there in that clearing? As
he lowered him to the mattress, Vanyel opened eyes wide with alarm.
"Easy, easy," Jonne said,
suddenly concerned for his own safety. "I'm Guardsman Jonne, and I'm here
to help you:"
The brief words seemed to do the trick.
Vanyel visibly relaxed, and allowed the Guardsman to ease him onto the
mattresses.
Vanyel's Whites practically fell apart as
he lay him on the mattress. The mage-lightning had sliced through his clothes.
Jonne reached into the cabinet for some ointment he hoped was still in there;
it was, and when he opened the ceramic jar, Jonne found Vanyel eyeing him with
a mixture of admiration and, something else, an emotion Jonne couldn't readily
identify.
"We were under attack," Vanyel
said. "The camp..."
The Companion stepped forward, nuzzled
Vanyel affectionately, and the Herald looked directly into her deep blue eyes.
"All of them?" he asked sadly.
Jonne realized they were communicating, and the Companion had just told him
about the camp. Then, "I have no energy left, Yfandes." A pause.
"Yes, I will stay put—ouch!"
Vanyel had moved sideways on the mattress,
raking his arm across his burns. He looked down at his ruined Whites, "I
guess this uniform's had it," he said. "That makes the second this
month."
Vanyel sat up on an elbow, regarding Jonne
thoughtfully, wincing at the evident pain. "Where is this?" he said,
looking around the cave.
"This mine belongs to my family,"
Jonne said, kneeling down beside Vanyel. "We are safe for the time being.
How do you feel?"
Vanyel shrugged, leaned back on the
mattress. "Dreadful, after that last round," he said. Jonne waited
for him to continue. "I wasn't ready for that attack. We had no idea Karse
had mages that powerful."
"Those burns look nasty," Jonne
said, looking over Vanyel's mostly naked body. "Mage-lightning?"
"The worst," Vanyel said, but his
tone had changed, from that of a powerful man to a meek boy. "It got
through my shields somehow. Just wasn't ready."
"Lean back," Jonne said,
"I'll put some of this on."
Jonne smoothed the ointment on, starting
from his neck and working down to his ankles. Vanyel looked down at himself,
then gave an embarrassed laugh.
"Don't take offense," Vanyel
said, through obvious embarrassment. Jonne tried not to laugh, and continued to
ignore Vanyel's excitement. "I'm shay'a'chern," he said,
flustered. "Sometimes I don't have any control over it."
"Don't worry about it," Jonne
said, suppressing a grin. "So am I."
Vanyel sat up. "You're what!"
"I'm shay'a'chern, too,"
Jonne said, but Vanyel still looked stunned.
"Are you sure?"
"I'm thirty years old," Jonne
said, as he continued spreading the ointment. "I should think I would know
by now, wouldn't you?"
Vanyel looked too tired to discuss it
further. "I would never have known," the Herald said distantly.
"And neither would I, if your
reputation hadn't preceeded you. But, given your condition, I doubt you're
feeling very romantic," Jonne said reluctantly. "I'm not suggesting
anything. At the moment."
Vanyel reached over and touched his wrist.
"But I am."
Some time later they had submerged
themselves in the hot springs near the mouth of the cave; Van took a little
more time to get in, wincing as the waters touched his wounds, but in moments
he had surrendered to the pool's warmth, and allowed Jonne to wrap his arms
around him. The shallow pool was only waist deep, but had a smooth rock surface
beneath, and a natural bench for them both to recline on. Steam rose from the
surface of the water, forming clouds around their heads.
If my life ended right now, I would
consider it fullfilled, Jonne
thought as he held Vanyel closer to him, avoiding the worst of the burns.
Fortunately, the injuries were bad only above the waist.
"I should feel guilty about leaving
the war right now, but I don't," Vanyel said, snuggling closer to Jonne.
Yfandes had politely excused herself before things had gotten too involved, and
Vanyel said he was keeping in touch with her. The Companion had recently
returned from a brief recon of the area, and her news had been good. All
magical attacks had ceased, and the regular army was on alert, ready for any
conventional invasion.
"The Karsite Mages may think I'm
dead," Vanyel said casually. "In which case, I had better keep my
head low, and in this cave. I suspect this place is shielding me from
them." He shook his head. "All those men, dead. Why was I the only
one to survive?"
Jonne didn't know how to answer him, so he
remained quiet. Something dark and sinister haunts this man, and if I pry
too much, he's likely to shut me out completely, Jonne reasoned. He will
tell me when he is ready. If that time ever comes.
"You survived so you could be with
me," Jonne teased, and nibbled on his right ear. "Otherwise, who
would I have had to sleep with? My horse?"
"Your horse," Vanyel said,
with a smirk, "would have had more meat on his bones than I. Not to
mention... well." Van turned, and gave him a long, slow kiss. Afterward,
he proceeded to wrap Jonne's arms around him again, holding them tightly.
"How can you find me attractive?" Van said, after a long pause.
"I've lost so much weight in the last year, I'm practically a
skeleton."
The question confounded Jonne. How can I
find him attractive? How can I not! I haven't felt this good bedding someone
since I was twenty.
"You are a most beautiful man,
Vanyel," Jonne said. "I suspect that you're not very good to
yourself." The Guardsman almost regretted saying that last; this was
getting into an area Vanyel probably didn't want to explore. But Van said
nothing, at first.
"Savil would agree," Vanyel said
at last. "Tell me, Jonne, have you ever had a lover?"
What, exactly, does he mean by lover? he wondered, and since he didn't want to
seem thick, he didn't ask. A one night fling, or a year-long relationship? The
farmer he'd known was the closest thing to being a lover, his marriage to a
lady notwithstanding. Jonne told Vanyel about him, and the day or two they'd spent
in each other's intimate company.
"It was not what I would have
preferred," Jonne added. "But it was what was available." He
held Van tighter, as if to emphasize their present situation. "It was
better that, than nothing at all." Jonne hoped that he didn't sound cheap;
it was how he felt, and he assumed honesty is what Vanyel wanted.
"Then I suppose I must consider myself
fortunate, to have had Tylendel as long as I did," Vanyel said, with only
a hint of sadness. "This is Sovvan. The anniversary of his death."
That was his lifebonded, Jonne thought. The one he lost. The pain
must have been.... He searched, but could not find the words to describe
what he though Van might have felt.
"It was a long time ago, but it still
feels like a part of me left when he did. I don't expect to replace him—"
"But you don't have to be alone the
rest of your life either," Jonne blurted, uncertain where his words were
coming from. "I don't know what the gods have in mind for me, but I do
believe we were meant to be together tonight, and perhaps tomorrow night as
well."
"And after that?"
Jonne carefully turned Vanyel around and
looked directly into his eyes. "Does anyone know?"
Afterward they slept, and when they woke
Yfandes had returned well fed from another trip. The enemy had left the area,
as near as she could tell, but Van was uncertain. The brief time he'd spent
with Jonne had helped him recover more energy than he said he'd expected, and
he appeared to be ready to take on the entire Karsite army.
"As you are a mage, there is something
I must give you," Jonne said, pulling on the last of his clothes. They had
made temporary repairs to Vanyel's Whites, but he would still have to replace
them as soon as they got back to the camp. "But you must promise to tell no
one about this place, because this mine is a family secret, and needs to remain
that way. If Karse knew what was down here, they would have invaded in force
long ago."
"Mine?" Vanyel said absently, but
Jonne had already ducked back into one of the dark tunnels. Moments later he
reappeared, concealing something wrapped in cloth.
I don't know if I'll ever see him again, Jonne thought, even though he doubted last
night would be a one night stand. The Fates can be tricky sometimes.
Vanyel opened the cloth, revealing a massive,
perfectly formed rose quartz crystal the size of his fist. The Herald-Mage
stared at its perfection for a long time before saying anything.
"This is the largest rose quartz
crystal I've ever seen," he said. "Are you certain you want to part
with it?"
Jonne beamed with pleasure. "I'm
certain, Herald-Mage. Just, whenever you see it, think of me, would you?"
Vanyel looked like he was about to cry.
Instead, he took Jonne's hand in his own, then wrapped his arms around him in
the tightest embrace yet.
"I will never forget you,
Guardsman," the Herald-Mage whispered in his ear.
Sword of Ice
by Mercedes
Lackey and John Yezeguielian
Hailing from the Chicago
area, John Yezeguielian began his writing career at 14, when an article of his
was published in a local paper. Since then he's written a music review column
and various other pieces of journalism. This short story marks his first
published fiction. Previously he has worked in fast food, owned and operated
three businesses, trained animals, programmed computers, and been a bodyguard
to celebrities and princesses. His hobbies include sailing, scuba diving,
motorcycling, aviation, Aikido, and falconry. (Yes, he's a real-life
Hawkbrother.) Prose and music, however, remain his highest passions. He lives
near Tulsa with a cougar, a bobcat, two German shepherds, and, of course, a
mews full of hawks and falcons.
:Downwind,: the voice in Savil's head demanded, and Savil followed
in the direction of the falcon as it changed trajectories. The huge bird pulled
its wings in tightly now, an arrow slicing through the sky.
:Hurry!: the raptor pleaded, and Savil felt the urgency in the
falcon's mental message.
If only it could give me more than vague
concepts. Savil mumbled
imprecations under her breath as she scrambled over yet another boulder in this
miserable craggy landscape.
All at once, as if in answer to her
unspoken wish, Savil's mind flooded with images. Sensations of speed
overwhelmed her as her vision was superseded by the bird's point of view as it
twisted and gyrated, plummeting recklessly from the heavens. Vertigo swept
Savil's footing from beneath her. She scrambled blindly now, her fingers
clawing desperately at the granite face, struggling for purchase as she slid
down the side, dangerously close to a ledge.
Shut it down. Center, she reminded herself. This is novice
stuff. Regain control. In an instant, Savil was back in charge of her
perceptions. Then she slowly let the bird's sendings back in, until they were
vaguely superimposed on her true sight.
She couldn't see a man yet, but from the
bird's eyes she could see what lay over the next rise. Rock scorched and
molten, trees burst, their trunks still smoldering. The scene was one of
rampant havoc, implying power turned loose to run wild in a way that sent atavistic
chills up her spine. And then the falcon swiveled around one last boulder.
Kicking its feet out before its body, the bird flared its long, pointed wings
and set down gently upon firm ground.
Or what? In her mind's eye, Savil could see
the falcon looking in what must be her direction, the raptor's sure, steady
gaze finding her amidst the mass of upthrown debris, still quite some distance
off. But the bird's vision was wavering, rising and falling. And then the
falcon cast its gaze downward, and Savil saw the burned face of a man.
The rising and falling must mean she's
perched atop his chest. He's alive and breathing, though the gods only know
why.
Her resolve hardened, Savil reached out
with her special Gifts, locating the man and probing swiftly and delicately at
his mind. Gently, she pulled back a layer of unconsciousness, moving deeper,
and pulled back as if stung. This man, this strange one somehow linked with a
hawk, was able to function while the full, raw power of a major node of magical
energy flowed in and through his body. Though still young, Savil was decidedly
a master, a full Herald-Mage, and she could not do that for even an instant. He
must be like a sword of ice to channel such power and still be alive, Savil
thought to herself.
Still wondering what peculiar sort of being
it was which she was being called to aid, Savil scrambled across the tops of
the last few boulders and began climbing down into what used to be a mountain
glade.
:Tayledras, beloved,: Savil's Companion spoke into her mind. :This
is a Hawkbrother.:
Until Kellan had Mindspoken, Savil had all
but forgotten her Companion amidst the excitement and shock of a bird's-eye
view of flight. As she was reminded, Savil realized Kellan's voice had been
conspicuously absent during the usurpation.
:I was blocked,: Kellan pouted, feigning a sulk, :by your
whirlwind rapport with that bondbird creature.:
Oh? Really? And just how did that come
about? Savil thought to
question her Companion further, but the descent was over and she had other concerns
now. Before her were the charred, breathing remains of the only Hawkbrother she
had ever seen.
So badly wounded was he that Savil was
barely certain where to start. Something had ripped down the Hawkbrother's
side, scorching and cauterizing flesh as it apparently continued from his
shoulder to the ground. It seemed to be a lightning strike, but that was simply
not possible. No man could have survived even that one blow, let alone the
other tears and rips in this man's flesh and the agonizing burns across his
skin.
As Savil's hands cleared his clothing from
the wounds, her mind sent him energy—healing energy essential to his survival,
though she was no Healer. The going was slow as she gingerly pulled the fabric
from the Hawkbrother's devastated form. The power was still flowing through him
somehow, and Savil knew better than to attempt to touch him or his fragile,
dangerous mind again.
Without warning, the bird let out a scream
from deep within its throat. Startled, Savil pulled away and turned to look at
the huge falcon. When she looked back again, the Tayledras' eyes were open,
breathtaking ice-blue eyes surrounded by a mass of seared flesh which was
healing, changing right before her eyes. The Hawkbrother's gaze met hers for a
brief moment, then his eyes closed again. Through the aura of pain which she
now realized she'd been feeling from him the entire time, she could have sworn
she'd felt the faintest of smiles.
A myriad of sendings from the bird
confirmed what Savil had begun to suspect—that the Tayledras could heal himself
better if she'd just remain to protect him and continue to transfer energy to
him.
"Well," she said aloud, looking
down at him. "It looks as though you and I are going to be together for a
while. At least I was ahead of my schedule and there won't be anyone missing me
for a couple of weeks." Then she waited for Kellan to catch up with her,
picking his own way through the rocks, and prepared for a long vigil.
Throughout the rest of that day and the
next, she remained close to the stranger, imparting as much healing energy as
her own reserves would allow. She left his side only to gather wood for the
nighttime fires, and to step behind a boulder to relieve herself.
She could see a gradual but marked
improvement over that first day. By the end of the second, she sensed he had
recovered enough for her to bathe him. Savil's gentle hands lifted the
Hawkbrother's head and washed his neck and face with the meager supply from her
water-skin. Even more carefully did she move his body from side to side to wash
it, removing his tattered garb and replacing it with a clean set of Whites of
her own. At no time during those two days did the Hawkbrother make movement or
sound, and his eyes remained shut, as if he were locked in a very deep sleep.
Early in the morning of the third day,
Savil's routine of preparing breakfast was interrupted once more by the
falcon's scream. When she looked over at the Tayledras, he was struggling to
rise to his elbows. Savil rushed to help him.
:Thank you, but you have already done more
than enough,: the
Tayledras said to her in clear and coherent Mindspeech. Then, though not
entirely steady in his movements, the Hawkbrother rose carefully to his feet.
His bondbird began chittering pleasantly at him. His eyes closed again for a
moment, and he nodded, a warm smile upon his lips.
:My friend has been telling me of your
vigilance these past few days. It would seem that I am in your debt....: It was a question phrased as a statement.
The Tayledras were reclusive by nature, even
hostile toward strangers. That she knew, though little else. Even though Savil
had helped him, and perhaps she had even saved his life, he would probably be
suspicious of her motivations.
By the customs of some of the strange
people who dwelled in this wilderness, the fate of one not of one's own tribe
was usually left to the gods; it was not for anyone else to interfere or
concern themselves with what happened to strangers. That might be the case with
the Hawkbrother. It could be that while he was grateful for her assistance, he
would also wonder why she had done so, and be suspicious of her motives.
Savil noticed his wary mood, and was quick
to recognize the skepticism in his tone of voice.
:You may start your repayment by telling me
the name by which I am to call you,: she said, smiling, knowing that to some folk, asking
for a personal name was tantamount to asking for a weapon to use against them.
:I am called Starwind,: he said with much dignity, :And the
falcon you have been in rapport with is my bondbird; you might refer to her as
my familiar.:
Savil stole a quick glance in the direction
of the bird and thought to herself that she wished she'd had some bit of meat
to offer the hawk. As if it had heard her, the bird launched itself from the
stone it had been perched on, taking to the sky with swift, powerful beats of
its wings. Soon it was circling high above them. Then, all at once, the
bondbird dropped its head, folded its wings, and fell, scorching straight
downward from the sky toward the quarry its powerful vision had spied. Excited
by the hunt, the impressions the bird sent were intense. Once again, Savil was
swept up in the bird's aerial pursuit.
But not enough so that she was unaware of
her companion. Starwind, too, appeared caught up in the bond-bird's sendings.
His eyes narrowed, a hint of fiery temper behind the hooded lids, as he watched
through the bird's keen eyes. When the falcon made impact with the prey,
Starwind's fingers clenched just as the bondbird's talons closed on the duck's
neck. For another few moments, Savil knew that she and Starwind were sharing in
the bloodlust the falcon felt in the kill. She found she was salivating along
with the bird, in anticipation of the rich, red feast quivering beneath the
falcon's talons.
This was such a unique experience, that
Savil allowed herself to remain caught up in it a little longer. Starwind was
first to break from the trance, and as she slowly disentangled herself, she
noted by his reaction that he had suddenly realized that Savil had been linked
with the bird during the kill as well as he. At the same time, his knees gave
out, and he sat down abruptly on the boulder beside him.
She made no move to help him, as it was
possible that such a movement could be misinterpreted. He stood up again,
slowly, clearly taking stock of himself. Then, as though he'd decided something
of great importance, Starwind gathered himself and faced Savil directly.
:If I may trouble you a bit more, Sister,: Starwind said, looking deeply into Savil's
eyes. :I fear I am yet too weak to return to my ekele without help.:
:That's hardly surprising,: Savil said gently as she looked back,
awestruck by the strange beauty of this man. :I'm more than a little amazed
that you are able to stand at all. And I'd be happy to help you get to
your...?:
:My ekele? My home.: Starwind confirmed her guess.
:Your ekele, then,: Savil continued, :and you need
not call me "Sister" to convince me to do so.: She flushed a
little, wondering how he was reacting to her. :In fact, I'd rather that you
not... think of me... as your sister.:
Though hardly innocent, Savil had never
been so forward with any man before. But there was something about this one,
something exotic and compelling about this Starwind that had her heart beating
fast, her palms breaking a sweat. She supposed she'd seen it in him the first
time he opened his eyes, but she'd been too busy tending to his wounds then to
pay it any heed. Now, though, his face all but healed, his elegant movements,
those ice-blue eyes, and that mane of snow white hair combined to make an
irresistible package.
Or perhaps it was just that she had been
out on circuit for a very long time. Or perhaps—
Starwind seemed very well aware of her
reaction. :It is the fever of the bondbird, Sister,: he said gently, but
firmly. :And I would call you otherwise, if I had your name.:
She sighed—but made a little resolution
that the game was not over yet. :I am Savil, Herald-Mage of Valdemar, Chosen
by Kellan... and at your service—:
Over the next couple of days, Starwind and
his bond-bird, Savil and Kellan wove their way carefully through the mountains
back to Starwind's home, the place where his Tayledras clan lived. When they
finally arrived, they were met by a small group of Tayledras, Starwind's
people, all similarly exotic, most with the same white hair and ice-blue eyes.
They greeted Starwind with warmth and relieved enthusiasm, obviously glad for
his safe return, but kept Savil at a goodly distance. Starwind spoke with them
in a light, musical language at once similar and different to the few words of
Shin'a'in she knew, apparently explaining how he'd come to be hurt and how
Savil had rescued him. At one point in his telling of the tale, he must have
said something shocking, because all of the welcoming party turned at once to
look at her, their eyes wide in disbelief. The group then quickly disbanded,
leaving the four of them alone again. On the way to Starwind's home, Savil had
explained the nature of the relationship between Heralds and Companions.
Starwind had not seemed overly surprised, explaining that his people had
stories of Valdemar and even kept some fluency in the tongues of other peoples.
Accordingly, Starwind directed Kellan toward a meadow rich with herbs and
grasses for him to eat before accepting Savil's assistance in the monumental
ascent to the Hawkbrother's home.
That home! It was lodged somewhere up in the branches of a tree
so huge she could hardly believe her eyes, and to reach it, one had to clamber
up a contrivance that was more ladder than staircase. Savil's one real fear was
of heights, but somehow she managed to put on a brave front, showing no signs
of her fear in climbing up into the ekele. After only one look out the
window though, she decided she'd prefer to seek lodgings on firm ground. The
vertigo she experienced while in the lofty ekele was simply too much for
her.
Starwind chuckled quietly, but unkindly.
:You have the Tayledras' ability at
rapport, but not our love of the heights? It is merely foreign to you. Remain
here a few days, and you will come to cherish the here—above as we do.:
The mere idea was appalling. :A few
days? If I remain here a few days, I'll be in worse shape than you were when we
met!: Savil was already quite dizzy from the climb, and getting more
nauseous by the moment. She could not help it; now that she was no longer
moving, she felt a jolt of fear each time the ekele moved with the wind.
Starwind took pity on her, probably because although she could conceal the more
obvious signs of fright with jokes, she could not conceal her increasing
pallor.
:As you wish, then. I would not care to
dwell in a deep cave below-ground either,: he said. :The hertasi keep some rooms
here—below, and you are welcome to make your stay in one of them. There are
some matters I must attend to—affairs of my people.:
With that, Starwind guided her back down
from the ekele and to an oddly constructed building surrounding the
trunk of the huge tree, which somehow incorporated a warm spring and much green
foliage. As they walked, Starwind explained to her about the hertasi, and
how the sentient, elusive lizard-people tended to the Tayledras' needs in
exchange for protection. Then he left her to her own devices, promising to
return within a couple of candlemarks.
Savil used the time to rest and think, to
take in and shelve away all of the strange wonders she'd discovered in the past
few days. She Mindspoke with Kellan about it all. While he carried on a lively
conversation with her, Savil made note that her Companion didn't seem unduly
surprised by any of this.
:There are a great many things we know of,
my love, which we are not at liberty to share with you before it is time to do
so,: he said, in that
infuriatingly patronizing tone he very occasionally used with her. It reminded
her of her father and brother—and how they used to pat her on the head and tell
her that she would be told about something "when she was old enough."
And then, of course, having dismissed the mere female, they would go on about
their business and never tell her anything at all.
Savil was about to send Kellan a scorching
retort when all of the exertions of the last few days caught up with her. It
seemed like far too much effort to go to, and besides, she wasn't in the mood
for an argument. So instead of retorting, she ignored him, even to the extent
of partly blocking him out of her mind while she searched for a place to lie
down. It didn't take long to find a kind of couch, built among all the leaves
and foliage, and she fell into it, and then into a deep and sudden sleep.
The meeting of the Tayledras clan had been
going on for hours. Starwind had been severely chastised for having brought
Savil into the midst, not only of k'Treva's holdings, but into the very heart
of the Vale. Outsiders were never brought this far; at the most, one
allowed them a little way into the fringes of Clan territory before dismissing
them. It had caused no small commotion when Starwind had argued that he'd done
no such thing since Savil was not an outsider, but one who deserved the title
of Wingsister. The elders had called it nonsense, and accused Starwind of
making up such an outrageous claim to justify his actions, claimed his desire
for this Herald was the true cause of his behavior.
While Starwind did have strong feelings for
Savil, it was not the lust the elders suspected, although he himself could not
have explained the insistent feeling that he must bring this stranger
into the very center of k'Treva. He could only feel it, and without facts to
bolster the feelings, could only rely on thin logic to convince the others.
"I bring this woman," he cried
out defiantly, "because she is one of us. Have I not told you of
her rapport with my bondbird? What greater testimony can there be than this?
Tell me, when has such a thing happened before?"
There began a quiet murmuring amongst the
elders. Though relatively young, Starwind had proven himself and his worth on
numerous occasions. He could only hope that they would decide that it would be
unfair to take his word lightly.
"It is not that we do not believe
you," one elder finally confessed, "but that we have no precedent for
such a thing. We are an ordered people, as well you know. Never has anyone who
was not of our cousin-Clans, the Shin'a'in, ever been granted the title of
Wingsib. This woman has not even a drop of shared blood with us!"
He set his jaw. "Do we share blood
with hertasti? With tervardi or kyree? With dyheli? Yet
all of these are welcome here!"
The elder sighed. "Starwind, you are
young and eager for a change that you see as a clear necessity, but we are not
comfortable when someone wishes to make things change so suddenly. This makes
us unwilling to accept that which brings changes, and... it frightens us to
think of how different we may one day become."
The honest wisdom of the elder held them
all in silence for some time. Starwind's mind was running the whole while. He
had seen inside of Savil, knew her good heart. How could he convince them of
this, or even get them to depart from the strictness of their ways long enough
to look at her objectively? The silence was deafening. Starwind knew if he did
not speak up, convince them somehow, that they would retreat back into the
safety of their routines.
"Savil should be—no, is!—Wingsister
to k'Treva. She has proven her worth with her rapport with my bond-bird, and
earned her place by the acts of charity she performed for this member of the
clan. I speak for her in claiming that place, and challenge you to examine her
spirit and say why this should not be so."
How could he tell them the things he only
felt, but had no reason to feel? That he knew, without doubt, that this
stranger would be important to the future of k'Treva, and that k'Treva would be
instrumental in shaping, not only her future, but that of many, many people
outside of the Hawkbrother lands, people that Starwind would never see and who
would probably never even dream that Tayledras were anything but a fable. He
had never shown any trace of ForeSight; never been able to look into the future
without the aid of one who did have that talent. He knew he was taking a chance
that all of his actions for many years to come would be regarded with suspicion
and mistrust if he could not convince them. But he knew what he was doing was
right, and trusted in the wisdom of the elders to overcome their fears.
"How can we know that you are not
simply seeing what you wish to see?" the first elder asked.
"She sleeps, and she is too weary to
awaken if you do not alarm her," Starwind said. "She trusts us. You
may touch her mind now, and from there see into her heart. Read what you see
there, see what it is she represents for her own great Clan k'Valdemar, and
then tell me if she is not indeed worthy to be named our Wingsister."
"Even if we find it so," another
elder spoke, "what difference will it make? Tell me, Starwind k'Treva, why
we should bring her into our clan? She has people of her own, and the Heralds
of Valdemar are different from us in more ways than they are similar. We do not
eat the same foods, speak the same tongue—we do not even swear by the same
gods!"
"She should be made one of us because
she is one of us, she and her kind differ from us only in the names by which we
swear, not to the spirit behind those names," he replied stubbornly.
"And because we can learn much from each other, the k'Treva and this
Herald-Mage. In many ways, our magic is much greater than theirs. Yet there are
things they can do which we cannot. It is my belief that what we learn from
each other—the combination—will be greater than any that we can each of us
perform apart."
Another long silence followed. Each of the
elders was considering what Starwind had said. Surely they knew he was right
that the k'Treva could not live isolated in the Pelagirs forever. There had
even been visions, ForeSight some of them had experienced, which suggested that
events in the future would require that they learn to broaden their ways.
Finally, the first elder spoke.
"It will cost us nothing to look at
this Savil you bring us. We must at least look before we judge."
Savil's sleep was interrupted by dreams,
memories, and nightmares. In them, she relived experiences from the years since
she had first donned Whites, the moment that Kellan had Chosen her, battles
fought in the service of Valdemar, even passionate feelings for those loved and
lost. Then came a dream of a test—a decision she was forced to make three
times, one which left her frightened, exhausted, and drained. Countless
hopeless scenarios presented themselves to her. Over and over again she was
forced to decide how to react. Just as her decision was made, the scene would
fade, and another would take its place. Each was progressively worse than the
last, more hopeless, more futile, and in it she and those around her were
suffering greater and greater loss. Only when the scenario required that she
sacrifice Kellan, her Companion, did she wake from the nightmare, unable to
make the impossible choice.
She woke with a start, her own voice
screaming to be left alone, tears streaming down from eyes wide open in the
darkness.
:It was only a dream, dearheart,: Kellan consoled her,
:A hideous, ugly, necessary dream. I am
fine. Return to your sleep.:
She was too sleep-fogged to take in
anything except Kellan's reassurance, too exhausted to question anything Kellan
said. Relieved to have Kellan's voice in her mind, she fell back into the
embrace of the strange bed, and slept until morning. If she continued to dream,
she didn't remember any of it.
When she awoke, she found Starwind sitting
beside her, his hand resting gently on her shoulder. She could feel the soft
tingle of power as it flowed through him to her.
:Good morning, Wingsister,: he said cheerfully. :Wind to thy wings.:
:Wind to thy wings, Starwind k'Treva,"
she answered
automatically, her head throbbing. She wished, vaguely, that he wasn't being so
damned cheerful. :Gods, but I've one miserable headache!:
He sobered, and looked both contrite and a
little guilty. :Forgive me, Wingsister. The elders felt it was necessary.:
She frowned. :What have the elders to do
with my headache?: Then she sat up, her own suspicions flaring. :Were
your people messing about in my head?:
Starwind closed his eyes and spoke quietly
into her mind. :Remember all, little sister. There is nothing to fear.:
With that touch, Savil suddenly recalled
the dreams and sendings she'd gotten after the nightmare of sacrificing Kellan,
the knowledge slowing coming forward to her consciousness. In a single flash,
she knew as much about the Tayledras as they knew themselves, as if she had
studied them and their ways all her life.
The history of the k'Treva, their
philosophies, their purpose as entrusted to them by their Goddess, their
mysterious bond with their birds, everything given to her, including Starwind's
own memory of the meeting last night, every newly gifted memory, all rose up
and became a part of her. As they did, her headache dulled and then faded.
Savil lay there unmoving, sharing Starwind's loving gaze for quite some time.
They may have lain there for hours longer, basking in the communion, if a hertasi
had not crept in quietly to bring them some fruit.
Without conscious thought, she thanked the hertasi
(who was already leaving,) in Starwind's own tongue. Then she laughed out
loud of the pleasure and strangeness of it all.
Once before in her life she had known the incredible,
indescribable joy of finding that she belonged somewhere, that there
were people in the world who welcomed her as one of their own. That had been
when she became a Herald—and now it had happened again.
"So this is what it means to be one of
you," she whispered.
"Not entirely, shayana," Starwind
replied, "but you now share the most of it."
Savil's eyes had been alight with the joy
of the newfound knowledge and abilities of these strange and wondrous people
she knew she could now call her own. She was overwhelmed by the all-pervasive
sense of the peace of this place, of the serenity of those who lived
here. After all the conflicts within and besetting Valdemar, k'Treva Vale
seemed like a vision of paradise, and she wanted to remain here forever.
And as soon as she had that thought, she
knew it was impossible. For a moment, her eyes stung with tears.
"You know I can't stay. You must know
that I'm a Herald first, and always will be so."
"Of course, ashke, of
course," Starwind patted her hand to console her. "It was that which
finally convinced the elders of the trueness of your heart."
"But I want to," she
confessed desperately, as Starwind's elegant fingers brushed a tear from her
cheek. "I want to stay here, live here in this peace."
"We each have our duties, Wingsister.
Mine is to the land, yours to your people. Neither of us can fully understand
the other, yet it is so. But we can revel in that which we share. I believe
that this sharing, this exchange between us, will be of great importance in times
yet to come."
Savil nodded, understanding, remembering
the certainty she held in memories now her own, shared with him. Neither of
them knew why—but the certainty was there, as real as if they had absolute
facts to prove it to be true.
"There is much yet to learn,
Wingsister, and far too little time to learn it in. We are now your clan, as
you are one of us. Every member of k'Treva will do what he can to help you gain
the skills that are ours, and we know you will share willingly of your ways as
well. And I feel this will not be the last time that those of k'Treva and
k'Valdemar will share their wisdom."
She thought about her duty—but she had been
far ahead of her schedule, and there was time. A little, but there was time.
"Where do we start?" Savil asked. "With your lessons, or
mine?"
He smiled. "Where both our powers flow
from, at the nodes."
Then Starwind took her hand, guiding her to
her feet, and their journey toward knowledge was begun.
In the Forest of
Sorrows
by John Heifers
This story marks John
Heifers' fourth fiction sale. Other stories of his can be found in Phantoms
of the Night, Future Net, and A Horror Story A Day: 365 Scary Stories. When
he's not writing or editing, he enjoys role-playing games and disc golf. He
lives in Green Bay, Wisconsin, with his fiancee.
Treyon scrambled over the top of the small
foothill and raced down the other side, never once glancing back. He could hear
the sounds of pursuit behind him, the shouts of men and thuds of galloping
horses growing louder.
The forest loomed before him, a thick green
mass of trees and underbrush. Treyon ran for the treeline, his side aching.
Seconds later, he heard a shout from the foothill.
"There! There he goes!" The
hoofbeats started pounding again, and Treyon knew he was down to his last bit
of luck. The brigands seemed to be right behind him, and that thought drew a
bit more energy from his nearly exhausted body. The dull ache in his ribs grew
as he increased his speed. With a surge of energy, he dove into the brush and
started crawling deeper into the forest. Behind him, he could hear the horses
panting and neighing with fear as they stopped short of the trees. The voices
of the men were fading as Treyon extended his lead, but he could still hear
them.
"What's the matter? Get in there after
'im!"
"The Hells I will, that's the Forest
of Sorrows, ya stupe!"
"You idiot, it's just a piece'a woods.
Nothing gonna happen in there except he's gonna get away. You know what
Ke'noran'll do if we don't bring him back. Would'ja rather face her?"
"I'm telling ya, I ain't going
in."
"Look, it's possible
death in there, or death for sure if we come back without him. Now let's give
the others a chance t'catch up and we'll go in together. Boy's moving so fast
he'll leave a trail any moron could follow. We'll grab him and be gone before
anybody even knows we're here."
The voices grew fainter as Treyon pushed
deeper into the woods. It grew darker as he pressed onward, the trees dwarfing
him and swallowing the available sunlight until it seemed he was walking in
twilight. When he could hear no sounds of pursuit, Treyon paused for a minute
to catch his breath, leaning wearily against one of the huge trees surrounding
him. Looking around, he wasn't surprised to discover he had no idea where he
was.
Better lost and alone than found by them, he thought, shivering as he remembered
their conversation. Although he didn't know any more about the forest than the
bandits did, he knew one rumor they didn't.
"Only those with no evil intention may
enter the Forest of Sorrows and live." He repeated this to himself like a mental prayer,
almost trusting his belief in the legend to keep him safe more than the legend
itself.
"All right, Treyon, enough of this.
Time to find your way out of here." Hearing his own voice, even whispered,
heartened him. Looking up, he tried to find the sun to figure out which
direction he had to go. Unfortunately, the trees were blocking most of the
available light, making the attempt impossible. Shrugging his shoulders, Treyon
found a suitable tree and began to climb. Well, at least I'm not scouting
trade caravans for them anymore, he thought, that having been his primary
job with the bandits, besides general whipping boy.
A few minutes later, he was among the
topmost branches of the tree he had been leaning against, feeling the cool wind
on his face and looking in every direction.
Once he had gotten his bearings, he started
down. About halfway to the ground, his foot slipped and, as he was already
committed to his next step, he started to fall. Suddenly, his feet landed on a
thick branch, the jarring stop giving him enough time to wrap his arms around
the tree trunk and stay there until his heart stopped threatening to leap from
his throat.
Once he had calmed down, he looked at the
branch he was standing on. Although this was the route he had used on the way
up, he didn't remember this limb at all. Shrugging, he continued downward. The
surest thing now; he thought, is to get my feet, as well as the rest of
me, back on the ground and get moving.
Shinnying down the tree trunk, he jumped
the last few feet—and landed to stare at the battered boots of Caith, the
leader of the trackers who had been chasing him. The bandit had stepped around
from his hiding place behind the tree and, before Treyon could move, grabbed
his tattered shirt and drawn him close.
"Little coney sprouted wings and tried
flyin' to the trees, eh? Not good enough. I've pulled the same trick myself a
couple o' times." Keeping a tight hold on Treyon, he raised his head and
whistled a series of notes twice. Within minutes, the rest of the brigands had
rejoined their leader.
"Found the little bastard. Now let's
go, Ke'noran ain't gonna be pleased with the delay." Making sure Treyon
was in front of him, Caith pushed him forward and the group began retracing his
path back out of the forest.
The forest was ominously silent, making
everyone more nervous than they already were by just being in the supposedly
cursed woods. They had been traveling for a while when Caith's advance scout
held up his hand. The brigand group froze immediately, each hand on a weapon,
every ear and eye alert for danger. Despite himself, Treyon craned his head to
try and see what was going on. Soren, the bandits' best scout, crept back to
Caith and whispered, "Horse in the clearing up ahead."
"What in the Hells is a horse doing in
these woods? One of ours?"
"Not hardly. Snow white and clean as a
stew bowl after dinner. Looked right at me."
"This doesn't sound right. Forest dead
as a grave and now a horse comes out of nowhere? I want a look." Taking a
stiletto from a sheath behind his neck, Caith put it to Treyon's throat.
"One sound outta you, boy, and I'll open yer neck where ya stand. Now
move." Pulling Treyon along, the bandit leader moved silently up to the
head of the column.
In a small clearing about ten paces ahead
was an animal that took Treyon's breath away. The scout's description did not
even begin to do it justice. Its coat was the color of new-fallen snow, with a
mane and tail that shone even in the wan sunlight. The horse's light-blue eyes
regarded its audience with amusement, but it didn't take flight or move at all,
except to lower its head to crop at the strangely lush grass.
Caith crouched down, dragging Treyon to the
ground with him. Motioning the other bandits closer, he whispered hurriedly,
"Here's our chance to make up for losing the runt. A horse like this 'un
will hopefully make Ke'noran more forgiving. Toren, circle round that way, yer
brother will take the other side, and get yer lariats ready."
The two scouts looked at each other, then
at the horse, nodded, and slipped into the brush like ghosting deer. Despite
his fear, Treyon wondered for an idle second what kind of ability the brothers
had that let them communicate without speaking like that. His attention was
quickly drawn back to the ambush before him.
The brothers made no more noise than the
slight breeze rustling the leaves, and Treyon quickly lost sight of them, so
well did they blend in with the trees and bushes.
The horse was munching a thick clump of
grass, seemingly unconcerned about the huddled group of ragged men nearby.
Treyon couldn't help wondering what it would be like to ride such an animal,
sitting on its sleek back as it raced full out across the plains. It would
probably be the closest thing to pure freedom he could imagine. Thinking about
what Ke'noren would do to it made him almost ill. At that moment, Treyon knew
he had to warn the horse somehow.
Looking up, he saw Caith was watching his
two men who were almost in position. His dagger, although still under Treyon's
chin, had relaxed its pressure a bit, allowing him to swallow without feeling
the scrape of cold steel.
Noticing a large dead branch next to him,
Treyon subtly shifted his position until he had moved the branch under him. Pretending
to overbalance, he stepped directly on it, bearing down with all his weight.
The branch snapped loudly, causing everyone
to freeze for a moment. The horse's head jerked up, looking directly at Treyon,
who wanted to scream at it to run, get away, escape. He remained silent,
however, locked into the animal's stare, watching as it did a very strange
thing.
It winked at him.
Before Treyon could wonder what this meant,
he was rocked by a blow that came out of nowhere. Already overbalanced after
stepping on the branch, he swayed dizzily after the punch, held up only by
Caith's grip on his shirt. Looking up again, he saw Caith glaring at him, his
mouth curled in a feral snarl.
"By the Gods, boy, if you cost us that
horse, I'll take it out o' yer hide."
Treyon just hung there limply, knowing the
brigand didn't make idle threats.
The two turned their attention back to the
horse, Caith keeping a tight hand on the boy's shirt. The bandit waited
patiently, knowing the brothers would spring their trap with perfect timing.
And so it would have been, if not for their
target. As one, the two men flicked out their loops of tough woven rope, their
hands steady, their aim true, both lassos flaring out to settle around the neck
of their quarry.
Or would have, if the horse hadn't danced out of the way
of the snares with a graceful ease, as if it had known exactly where they were
all the while. Treyon exhaled in relief. Caith, noticing the boy's reaction,
cuffed him again.
The horse neighed, the noise sounding like
laughter in the silence, then turned and slowly trotted off through the trees.
Caith stood up, grimacing, and called out
"By the Hells, I want that horse! Toren, Soren, take two men and run it
down, damn it. Don't come back without it." Another fool's errand to send
them off on, just like finding the boy, he thought.
The twins stood, one of them pointing to
two other men, and the foursome set out after the shrinking white figure. Caith
put his back against a tree as he waited with the last two bandits. He looked around,
then snorted, "Don't know why that horse is here when our own horses
wouldn'a come in. Haunted forest, my arse."
One of the other men, a newer arrival whom
Treyon didn't know, spoke up, "Maybe it's a Companion."
"Oh? Is it? Where's the bleedin' Herald?
Hells, no," Caith snorted again, "Just got a little more horse sense
than usual. Living in the wild'll do that to an animal sometimes. What better
place for a horse to live than here, eh?"
"Breeze's dying down." the other
bandit remarked.
Treyon had been standing as well, pulled to
his feet when Caith had risen. Looking around, he also noticed the lack of
wind. Which made what else he saw even more unusual, easily passing into
terrifying.
With barely a rustle, the trees around the
bandits were slowly bending their branches down toward each of the men's heads.
Treyon remained motionless, not wanting to attract any attention to himself.
Caith and his men continued their idle conversation, unaware of the movement
until Caith looked again at Treyon.
"Here now, what are you lookin—"
His voice trailed off as he followed Treyon's gaze to the surrounding foliage,
which quivered, then suddenly lashed out.
Caith, his reflexes quicker than the other
two, released Treyon and dove to the ground, thinking to find safety there.
When he hit the ground, thick roots erupted all around him, completely wrapping
his body in brown tendrils and drawing him slowly underground, his screaming
face the last thing to vanish.
The other men, caught completely by
surprise, fared just as badly. One never got a chance to move, impaled by a
thick limb that burst from his stomach like a third arm. The other managed to
get his dagger out before several tree branches wrapped around his neck and
jerked him, struggling and strangling, into its leaves, his knife arm flailing
uselessly as he disappeared from sight. A few seconds later, the dagger
skittered down the tree trunk and fell to the ground underneath it.
Treyon watched all this without moving,
without even blinking. He just stood there, until the screams finished echoing
through the woods. Finally, all was silent again, the only sign of disturbance
being the impaled bandit's body still standing grotesquely upright. Treyon
straightened up and took a hesitant step forward, then another, then another,
and took off again, running through the forest until his legs would carry him
no farther. Sinking to the ground under another large tree, heedless of the
cursed forest and what might happen to him, Treyon fell asleep almost before he
hit the ground.
The cracks and pops of a fire slowly woke
Treyon. The first sensation he had was of pleasant warmth surrounding him. The
second was the unmistakable smell of something cooking, making his stomach
clench with hunger.
Treyon slowly blinked the last bits of
sleep away, aware that he was still tired, but too concerned with trying to
figure out where he was to rest any more. He flexed his hand slowly, feeling
the mat of dry grasses he was laying on. Overhead, a canopy of trees blocked
out the sky.
Meaning I'm still in the forest, Treyon thought. Moving his head slowly to
the side, he looked first at the trees which surrounded him, trees that grew so
close together they made natural walls encircling the small clearing, although
here and there small gaps of darkness showed through. Treyon shuddered as he
remembered the attack of the forest again.
The only opening was a small break on the
opposite wall of trees, past the fire in the middle of the room and the cloaked
form crouched in front of it.
Treyon gasped in surprise, for his
bandit-trained senses hadn't noticed the figure until just a few seconds ago.
Sitting upright, he tensed to bolt for the small exit. A few steps and a dive
and he would be free.
"Finally awake, I see?" the
indistinct shape said in a clear, gentle voice, still facing away from him.
"If you wish to leave, by all means, there is no one here to stop you. Of
course, there is no one here who wishes you harm, either."
Treyon flattened himself against the tree
wall, his eyes still upon the figure who had appeared seemingly out of nowhere.
The bandit part of his mind was still screaming that this was a trap. The being
continued, apparently unmindful of Treyon's fear.
"Of course, I'd rather you stayed a
bit and dined with me. It has been far too long since a stranger found his way
to my doorstep, such as it is. And it would be a shame to waste most of this
stew."
At the mention of food the rich stew smell
floated into Treyon's nose again, reminding him how painfully hungry he was. It
had been so long, if ever, since he had eaten a meal that was more than scraps
and leavings from the brigands. The part of his mind that was still wary of a
trap was quickly being overpowered by the demands of his stomach, but, Treyon
thought, if—whatever it is—had wanted to, it could have done anything
to me while I slept. I should have woken up bound or held somehow. Hells, even
if this is a trap, it'll be worth it for a full stomach.
Summoning up the scraps of manners he knew,
gained mainly from watching the bandits beg and scrape to Ke'noran, Treyon got
up from the bed of grass and stood. "Can I have some food, then?"
The figure turned toward him, pushing back
its hood and Treyon saw a man, his face unlined yet somehow looking very old,
framed by a mane of fine silver hair. The ageless face smiled gently, and the
man extended an already full wooden bowl. "Of course, child."
Snatching it away, Treyon hunched over the
bowl protectively and tried to scoop out a handful, only to yelp in pain as he
burned his fingers. The man winced as Treyon blew on his injured hand and held
out a spoon-shaped piece of wood, not carved, but looking like it had been
naturally formed. "Try this."
Gingerly Treyon took the spoon, scooped up
some of the stew and blew on it for a few seconds, then popped it into his
mouth. Chewing fast, he sucked in air to further cool the hot food. All the
while, his arm was curled protectively around the comfortably warm bowl.
The stranger said nothing, just watched him
eat and refilled his bowl when it was held out. After Treyon had finished his
third helping, he belched and asked for something to drink, receiving another
bowl already filled with clear spring water.
His stomach full and ready to face whatever
was asked of him, knowing it would be easier to take if he was prepared, Treyon
squared his shoulders and looked at the man. "What do you want?"
The man looked up from stacking the bowls
in a corner, the question clear from the expression on his face.
Treyon continued, "For the food and
shelter. Work, or anything else you want. It's all right, I'm used to it. Just
tell me."
The man's head lowered again, his shoulders
shaking silently. Treyon thought he might have been laughing, but when he
raised his head again the tears on his cheeks gleamed in the firelight. "By
the Gods, boy, you're only twelve or thirteen at the most. What has been done
to you?" Taking a deep breath, he wiped his face. "I don't ask
anything of you other than your company." Seeing the look on Treyon's
face, he added hastily, "Just talk, that's all."
"Oh." The word turned into a yawn
as his comfortably full stomach and the warmth of the fire made Treyon sleepy.
"Why don't you rest some more, and we
can talk in the morning." The man said quietly. Treyon found himself
growing sleepy just listening, but he wasn't convinced of his safety quite yet.
"What about the trees?" he
mumbled as his eyelids drooped.
"Nothing will harm you, not while
you're with me." the man replied, turning back to the fire.
Feeling he had nothing to lose anyway, and
now wanting to sleep more than he ever had in his life, Treyon crawled over to
the grass mats and was soon curled up, breathing rhythmically in slumber.
The stranger stood, stretched, and walked
to the wall near the small opening. He looked back to ensure that the boy was
sleeping soundly. Satisfied, he walked straight through the trees, his body
encountering no resistance from the wood. Once outside, he looked up through a
break in the trees at a small patch of night sky.
"Over thirty years in the forest now,
and I'm still finding boys in trouble."
Treyon awoke to dappled sunlight streaming
in through the small gaps in the trees. He blinked several times, unsure if he
was awake or still dreaming. When no coarse shouts or heavy kicks jerked him
out of bed, he relaxed a bit, remembering where he was.
Breathing deeply, Treyon felt the bite of
the crisp morning air on his face. The rest of his body, however, was
comfortably warm, mostly because of the gray woolen cloak covering him.
Throwing it aside, Treyon got up and stretched, trying to get moving before the
cold could soak into his bones. He walked toward the opening to the small
tree-shelter and crawled out, freezing in place as soon as he was outside.
Directly in front of him, the white horse
was grazing contentedly. Even though Treyon thought he hadn't made a sound, the
horse raised its head and looked at him. Caught in its gaze as he had been the
day before, Treyon felt like the animal was reading his mind. He didn't move a
muscle, content to hold its eyes with his own steady stare. He felt proud that
he wasn't compelled to look away in fear or submission. It was almost as if the
horse were evaluating him, and apparently liking what it saw.
The horse looked beyond him for a moment,
then neighed, wheeled around, and cantered off through the woods again, only
this time with no bandits in pursuit.
A noise behind him made Treyon whirl in a
defensive crouch before he could stop himself. The silver-haired man held his
hand up in a calm gesture. "Good morning."
Straightening, Treyon mentally cursed his
reflexes. "Hello."
The man gestured toward the horse's
retreating back. "What do you think of her?"
Treyon turned to look at the horse again.
"She's beautiful. Yours?"
"Not exactly. We're very good friends,
though."
"I'd give anything to ride something
like that."
"Well, I don't know. You'd have to ask
her. Her name's Yfandes."
Treyon looked up at the man who had come up
beside him, and was now watching him without a trace of humor on his face, as
if talking to horses was something he did every day. Not knowing quite how to
respond, Treyon kept silent. There was a not-quite-awkward silence for a few
seconds until the man spoke again, "Are you hungry? I'm afraid all I can
offer is more of the same as last night, if you don't mind."
The memory of the savory vegetable stew
brought a smile to Treyon's face, "Fine, if you have enough."
"Always." The man started to go
inside, then paused, "I'm sorry. I've fed and sheltered you and I don't
even know your name."
Treyon paused before heading back into the
shelter. "It's Treyon."
The man nodded. "And you can call me
Van."
Treyon's head snapped up. "As in
Vanyel Demonsbane?"
The man smiled as if he heard that question
a lot.
"The name is similar, but the
Herald-Mage Vanyel has been dead for over thirty years. He died around here, as
a matter of fact."
"You know of him?"
Van grinned. "Bits and pieces I've
heard here and there. After all, I haven't lived my whole life here. Come
inside and I'll tell you more over a hot meal."
Treyon hurriedly scooted through the break
in the trees. Van started to follow, but stopped for a moment as a familiar
voice carried clearly in his mind.
:Don't embellish too much while telling
your "bits and pieces" now.:
:'Fandes, I'm shocked you would even accuse
me doing something like that. If he wanted embellishment, he should talk to
Stefen. But I do think he should get his information straight from the
"legend's" mouth, don't you?:
:As long as I get to correct you on parts
you may be a bit fuzzy on. Deal?:
Van smiled. :Deal. Except I wish I had
his gift with children. He's much better with them than I am.:
:Well, dear, if wishes were Companions,
then everybody would have one. You'll just have to make do.:
:Yes, yes, but... I have the feeling that
this boy is a harbinger of something evil to come. You sensed him, didn't you?:
:Of course. Why do you think I went after
him?:
:All right, all right, Van grinned again, Pardon me for trying
to figure out your mind.:
Van could almost see Yfandes' smile. :Over
five decades together and you're still learning, dear. Are you going in? That
boy needs to talk:
:Right away. Keep watch for anything
unusual, particularly from the North. This may take a while.:
Understood.:
"...and that was how Vanyel earned the
name "Shadow-Stalker." Van leaned back against the wood of the
shelter, watching Treyon finish the last of his meal.
"Boy, it sure must have been
exciting." Treyon said after he had swallowed the last mouthful.
"Riding all over Valdemar, protecting those who needed help, battling evil
wherever it appeared."
A wry grin appeared on Van's face. "I
don't know. I doubt it was all adventure and romance. I mean, you're from
around here, right?" Treyon nodded. "So you know how cold it gets at
night, how hard the winters are. I'm sure Vanyel spent many days cold, hungry,
and tired while he was protecting those who needed him."
"Yeah, but he was the most powerful
magician of all. He leveled armies, battled hundreds of demons at once, cut
through mountains like they were soft butter. He could do anything. Why would
he be cold and tired when he didn't have to be?"
:Funny, that's what his Companion said more
than once.: Yfandes
Mindspoke, along with a gentle laugh. Shaking his head at both of them, Van
continued.
"Treyon, it wasn't, and still isn't,
that easy. Often times Vanyel was probably battling other mages, with power as
strong, or even stronger, than his. Sure, he could have used magic to keep
himself warm and fed, but that would have been just like sending a signal to
the other mages, telling them where he was, like a torch on a dark night."
"Oh. You seem to know a lot about
magic." The statement was meant as just that, but Van inferred something
more behind it, as did Yfandes, who commented, :The boy's quick.:
"Well, before I settled down here, I
picked up some training in it. But times changed, and I ended up here, where
I've been ever since."
"Oh." Treyon stared into the fire
for a time, then said quietly, "It's too bad Vanyel isn't still around.
But that's just wishful thinking, I guess. I mean, why would a legend concern
himself with one person?"
Since Treyon was still looking at the fire,
he didn't notice Van stiffen at his tone, or the pained expression on his face
as he replied.
"Well,. Treyon, I'm sure if Vanyel was
still alive, he would still be helping those who needed him."
At those words Treyon looked at the older
man sharply. Seizing the moment, Van continued, "Treyon, why were you in
the forest?"
After a long silence. "I was running
away."
"From whom?"
"Bandits. I was sold to them a long
time ago, I don't even know who my mother and father are." Under Van's
level gaze, Treyon felt compelled to tell him as much as he could.
"So you didn't want to be a
bandit?"
"No, of course not. Running and hiding
all the time, never sure where your next meal is coming from, always in fear of
your life." Treyon paused as a thought struck him. "Maybe Vanyel and
I had more in common than I thought."
The boy is quick, Van thought as Treyon continued.
"But I didn't see any way out of it. I mean, I don't know anything other
than banditing. Sure, I could go to a city, but what would I do there but end
up stealing to eat again. So I thought banditing was what I was gonna do
forever, till Ke'noran came along."
"Ke'noran?"
"Yeah, she's a wicked Woman if'n I
ever saw one. Knows lots 'bout magic, too. She took over the group by killing
Trold, who'd been the leader. She appeared one night, said she was leading us
now, I mean, I was still with them then. Trold got up and started walking
toward her, talking 'bout how no woman was taking over his band. She just
looked at him, and he started bleedin' everywhere, his eyes, nose, ears, and
mouth. He ran into the woods, 'n we never saw him again. She's led ever since,
and now most of the men actually respect her. Not just because she could kill
anyone who opposed her, but she actually made life a bit better for us. We even
ate pretty regularly after she took over."
"Did she make you leave?"
"Yeah, but she didn't kick me out or
nothing. When she first saw me, it was like she was looking into my head. She
always gave me the creeps. Well, one night I had a dream, and in it I was tied
to this big rock, and Ke'noran was standing over me with this sharpened stick
with strange marks carved on it. She was leaning over me and saying something,
bringing the stick closer to my head, and then I woke up. I don't know how to
explain it, but I knew that if I stayed there any longer, what I saw was gonna
happen to me. So that night I headed for the border, hoping to get to a town or
city somewhere. Just as I got out of the mountains, they caught up with me. I
ran for the woods, and here I am." Treyon said, omitting the part about
the trees.
:Did you catch all that, dear?: Vanyel asked.
:Yes, Van. Sounds like a textbook
blood-magic sacrifice to me, just as Treyon's dream sounds like ForeSight. But
what's puzzling is why she would take him so soon. I mean, Treyon has the
potential for two, maybe three Gifts, but he hasn't even been trained in them
yet. What could she want with this boy, when an ordinary peasant would power
the blood-magic just as well?: Yfandes replied.
:There must be a reason. Perhaps she's
found a way to tap into the magical energy of another's mind and use that as
her own, as well as the life forces. It would be a powerful augmentation,: Vanyel thought worriedly.
:Hmm, that's very possible. But what you
said about augmentation gives me an idea. What if she's found a way to take
untrained Gifts into herself, and use them as if they were her own?:
:Which could only be accomplished by the
sacrifice of the victim, ensuring the magic is released for her to absorb at
the moment of death. Yfandes, I think you've got it.: Vanyel was careful to keep his face calm as
the conversation continued.
:Well, I guess we'll know soon enough. We
didn't get all of the bandits. One of the group that was chasing me managed to
get away, and I'm sure is warning his leader by now.:
:Why didn't you tell me this before?: Vanyel asked, a hint of anger coloring his
thoughts.
:Vanyel, dear, we've had bandits crawling
around the borders of these woods for so long, another group just didn't seem
very important However, once this came to light...: 'Fandes trailed off.
:Of course, 'Fandes, I'm sorry. Well, that
means she'll probably be on her way here. Good. To be perfectly honest,
fighting the same bandits all the time gets rather boring.:
:It sounds as though you miss the old
days.:
Vanyel thought for a few seconds before
answering. :I don't know, sometimes it just doesn't feel like we do enough
for Valdemar here. I mean, I don't regret my choice, but after the Battle of
the Ice Wall, there hasn't been much of anything from the North, even in the
past few years.:
Yfandes sent an image of herself snorting
in amusement. :I don't think I would try anything, even years after
word of what happened got back.:
:Anyway, if we're right, and this Ke'noran
can do what we think, then she's a threat that must be dealt with.:
:Vanyel, a mage-battle could destroy a
large part of the forest. While bandits may be boring, they also don't have the
power to level acres of trees. It could get out of hand if you're not careful.:
:True, very true. Well, we'll just have to
contain her as much as possible. Most likely she's more educated about the
"legends" of the forest, and will be more loath to come in here.: Vanyel replied.
:We'll see. You had better warn Treyon
about this. He's not going to like it.:
:No doubt. By the way, beloved, I'm sorry
for referring to you as a horse in front of him, but it seems easier than
trying to explain what we really are.:
Yfandes smiled in his head. :Understood
and accepted. He's waiting, I think.:
The Mindspoken conversation had only taken
a few seconds, so Treyon hadn't even guessed at what was going on. Van looked
at him again, smiled, then began speaking calmly.
"Treyon, Ke'noran is going to come
after you here. Apparently one of the bandits got away and has most likely
warned her by now. If she Gates in, she could be on the edge of the forest
already—"
"No, no, she'll kill me! Please,
you've got to hide me, help me get away from her!" Treyon was frantic with
fear, looking around as if they were already surrounded by her men.
Realizing he had said too much too fast,
Vanyel tried a different approach. "Treyon, I'm going to help you. She's
not going to take you back, I promise."
But now fear had taken hold of Treyon
completely, and he stared at Vanyel wildly. "You, you're just one man.
She's got a dozen with her. She's skinned them alive for failing her, or burned
them to ashes. I've seen it happen. What can one man do against that?"
"And a horse, don't forget."
The statement was so ridiculous that it
broke through Treyon's fear and made him look at Vanyel as if he wasn't sure
which one of them was crazier. Vanyel broke the silence.
"She won't take you, Treyon, I swear
it."
The words hung in the air, Vanyel's silver
eyes meeting Treyon's brown ones, with the promise between them. Finally, he
slowly sank to the ground and nodded. "I believe you. I don't even know
why, but I do."
"All right. You should know why she
wants you so badly. First, you have potential for Gifts in you—"
"Me?" Treyon's incredulous snort
interrupted Vanyel, who nodded.
"Everyone has it, buried deep inside
their minds, but not everyone has the ability to bring the power to the surface
and use it. Your powers, as I said before, lie in the area called Gifts, which
are more or less mind-powers, contacting people with your thoughts, bringing
objects to you just by thinking about them moving, and so on. Ke'noran wants
those untapped abilities, we—I think, to use for herself. And that's why we
have to stop her."
"Because if she does that to me, she
could do it to others?"
:When this is done, this boy's
Haven-bound,: Yfandes
thought.
Nodding to both statements, Vanyel said,
"Exactly. I think the safest thing to do will be to keep you here while I
go find Ke'noran—" He trailed off, seeing Treyon shake his head.
"I don't want to be left alone if
she's anywhere nearby."
"Treyon, I can protect you much better
if you're in the middle of the forest—"
"What if she does this Gate thing into
the forest and grabs me while you're someplace else, huh?"
Vanyel started to reply, then stopped,
aware that he couldn't answer the question in a way that would satisfy the boy.
Or himself, now that Treyon had exposed the flaw in his plan. As long as he had
Gift potential, she could eventually find him. And a mage would have ways
around the forest's defenses.
:Most probably starting by burning the
place to a cinder,: Yfandes
Mindsent.
Sighing in defeat, Vanyel turned his
attention back to the conversation. "All right, you're coming with me. But
you must do exactly what I say. Yfandes and I should be able to shield
you magically, but if she has those brigands or constructs looking for you,
it's vital that you stay hidden, exactly where I place you, understand?"
Treyon thought for a moment, nodded, then
asked, "Constructs. What're those?"
"Cruel mockeries of life, created by
magicians and fueled by magic. They can be given limited powers by their
creators, but are still dangerous." Vanyel fell silent as he remembered
one of the few he had ever seen, the raven-beast that had killed his Aunt Savil
decades ago. The form of that particular monster was still clear in his mind,
as if he had seen it yesterday. His thoughts were interrupted by Treyon.
"I... think Ke'noran has one."
"Oh? Have you seen it?"
Treyon shrugged, trying to put what he knew
into words. "I'm not sure. Sometimes, when she's talking to the men at
night, I catch a glimpse of something behind her, in the shadows. Man-sized or
a little shorter. It never comes into the light and she never refers to it, but
something's there, all right." A sudden thought occurred to Treyon while
they were on the subject. "Van, what if she's got things huntin' in the woods
right now?"
Vanyel shook his head. "Don't worry,
there aren't. If there were, they'd have been dealt with long before they got
here. My guess is that she wants to be here to recover you personally, since
the bandits couldn't finish the job. No doubt she probably also wants to
investigate the forest, to see if there is anything here she can use for
herself."
:Man-sized, eh? This one must have a fair
amount of power, to keep something that big alive.: Yfandes thought worriedly.
:Yes, I know.: Vanyel thought back distractedly.
"But you're going to stop her,
right?" Treyon asked, a familiar light in his eyes.
Vanyel smiled. "Yes, I promise."
The sun was just below midpoint among a
scattering of clouds when Vanyel, Yfandes, and Treyon reached the northern edge
of the forest. From their vantage point in the treeline, they could see up and
down the border of the forest. As expected, there was a contingent of men
waiting about a hundred paces away. Most were dressed much like Treyon, in
ragged shirts and vests, tattered and patched breeches and wearing shapeless,
well-worn boots, rough sandals, or nothing on their feet at all. The force of
men was split into two groups, about half a dozen on each side of the central
figure, who had to be Ke'noran.
She stood at least a hand-span over most of
her men, more in some cases, less in others. Unlike the bandits, she was
dressed well against the cold fall afternoon, in dark gray robes and a dazzling
white fur cloak, complete with the claw-studded paws of whatever animal the
pelt had come from holding the cloak in place on her shoulders. Her skin
matched the tone of the fur, stark white, with red-irised eyes like ruby chips
glittering in a snowdrift.
She was standing near a cairn of stones
piled long ago by someone who had buried another while traveling in or out of
Valdemar. As he looked at the scene before him, Vanyel hoped he wouldn't have
to make another smaller pile before the day was out.
:A Cheldaran.: he heard Yfandes muse, :I didn't think they came
down this far.:
Vanyel squinted, trying to examine her more
closely. :I've never seen anything like that before. What do you know of
them?:
:Just that you should be wary, beloved. She
may be more formidable than you think.:
Vanyel focused his Mage-Sight on the tall
woman for a minute, than replied, :Actually, I don't think she's formidable,
I know she is. Look for yourself.:
Yfandes silently stepped up beside him and
stared for a second, her blue eyes widening in disbelief. :Does she have
what I think she does?:
Vanyel nodded. :She's found a way to tap
the Mage-Gift as well. She's connected to a node out there.: He tried not
to think of what else she could have waiting and addressed Yfandes again. :Do
you know anything else?:
:Just rumors, that's all. Supposedly one of
the many barbarian groups to the far north. But it's said that of outland
magicians, these white-skins are more closely attuned to their powers than
most.:
:Thanks for the confidence builder.: Vanyel groaned in his mind.
As if she could hear their conversation,
the pale woman called out, "Spirit of the Forest, hear me. One of my own
has become lost in your woods. I know of you and what you are. Return him to
me, and the forest will be left unharmed. Hide him from me, and I will find
him, no matter what it takes. I will not wait long upon your answer, for I know
you are nearby."
Her gaze swept the line of trees, pausing
for a moment as her eyes passed over the three figures in the treeline,
invisible to all save her. A humorless smile creased her mouth, then
disappeared as she crossed her arms and waited.
Vanyel contacted Yfandes. :I'm going
out.:
:Van, you can't. What about Treyon?: :
:Someone has go out and give her what she
wants, or she'll make her threat real. You're going to have to stay here and
watch over him. 'Fandes, you're my back-up. If that construct is out here,
you'll have to guard Treyon while I deal with her.:
:Well, what if something gets by both of
us?:
:Then we'll just have to play it by ear, I
guess. This could take a while, she's stored up a lot of power, both in
blood-magic and from the node.:
:Worried?:
:No, just angry at all that destruction.:
:Vanyel... be careful.:
:Always.:
Turning from them, Vanyel started to step
around a tree, but was stopped by a hand on his arm.
"Where are you going?" Treyon
whispered.
"To face her."
"Alone? Are you crazy? You're one
against more than a dozen."
"No, this will be between me and her.
Stay here with Yfandes."
"What do you want me to do if...
something bad happens?"
Van looked at him. "I don't suppose
you can ride?" Treyon shook his head. Vanyel thought for a moment, than
continued. "If something does go wrong, I want you to run into the forest
as fast and as far as you can. Yfandes will stay with you as long as possible,
but you should be safe enough until I can find you afterwards, just keep
moving. And no matter what happens, I'll make sure Ke'noran can't come after
you, all right?"
Treyon nodded, looking past him at Ke'noran
and her brigands, "Van, I don't see the construct anywhere."
Van nodded, pleased the boy was still able
to think clearly, even when so obviously frightened. "I don't either, but
I don't sense him anywhere as well. Either she's not using it for this, or it's
shielded so well I can't sense it. Either way, trust Yfandes to protect you,
for she will, with her life if necessary."
Treyon nodded silently as the silence of
the forest was cut by the sorceress's voice. "Spirit, I grow weary of
waiting for you. Return him, or I will begin the search. And I will leave no
rock unmoved, no tree living where I look."
Vanyel winked at Treyon, then stepped
around a large oak and disappeared. Treyon looked for him walking through the
forest, but in vain. A gentle touch on his cheek from Yfandes' warm nose
brought his attention back to the plains and the bandits before him.
Suddenly, there he was, standing just
outside the forest's boundary, the sunlight making his silver hair flash and
glitter. All was quiet save the two magicians, so their conversation easily
carried to Treyon and Yfandes.
"I am here." Vanyel said.
The Northern sorceress' ice-blue eyes
narrowed for a moment, then she smiled again. "You are not a simple forest
spirit. There is much power within you. But I am sure neither of us wishes for
conflict, so I will be blunt. You have what I want, forest-walker. Give him to
me and I will leave in peace. Deny me, and be destroyed."
Both Treyon and Yfandes watched silently,
hanging on every word. Vanyel was impassive. "If I give my life in defense
of another, so be it. What you want from this forest you shall not have, for he
is under my protection."
"Then once you and this forest fall,
he shall have no protection." With that Ke'noran swept her arms outward
and a wall of mage-fire appeared, not anywhere near Vanyel, but for dozens of
paces on either side of the two mages. Driven against the wind into the forest,
the blue-green flames began to grow rapidly as they licked at the trees and
underbrush.
Surprised by the unorthodox attack, Vanyel
hesitated a bit before beginning his defense. Quickly he weather-magicked the
nearby clouds to grow, making them suck up the water vapor in the atmosphere,
swelling into gray thunderheads that covered the sky. With a flick of his hand,
the water poured down, drowning the flames in the forest. Fully on guard now,
Vanyel went on the offensive, calling all of the power at his command and
sending it at the woman before him.
As soon as Treyon saw the flames appear at
the forest's edge, his bandit's intuition knew that a trap had been laid and
they had walked right into it.
A whinny of alarm turned his head toward
Yfandes, just in time to see a dark, blurry shape, all claws and teeth, leap
out of the surrounding woods at him.
:VANYEL!:
"Van!"
Until he heard the mind-cry and shriek of
terror simultaneously, Vanyel had actually been enjoying the battle. Ke'noran
was extremely strong, but it was the strength of blood-magic, easily gained and
stored, but not so easily replenished once used. Eventually, if he and Yfandes
had read her right, the Mage-Gift she had Siphoned from some unfortunate soul
would eventually be exhausted, and he could make her forget all about using
blood-magic forever. That had been the plan, but Ke'noran had seen fit to
change the rules.
Boosting his shields enough to hold off
Ke'noran's next assault, Vanyel turned at both cries, one of alarm, one of pure
terror, and saw something explode out of the forest in a spray of leaves and
branches. It would have been as tall as a man, save for its hunched back. It
moved as fast as a wyrsa, but on two legs, and appeared to be a mix of
human, bear, and wolf, with ursine features and thick, gray-brown fur. What was
most frightening was what it carried in its mouth. Treyon, the collar of his
shirt tangled in the beast's teeth, was being borne toward the battle with
magic-fueled speed.
Behind the beast, but at a safe distance,
galloped Yfandes. Vanyel thought he had never seen her look so frustrated.
:Vanyel, she's going to get him.: she sent angrily.
:Can't you stop it from reaching her?: Vanyel asked.
:No,: came the fear-tinged reply, :I can't even get close
to it. She's laid a trap-shield on the construct, and now Treyon's inside, so
it's around him as well.:
:Trap-shield?: In that instant Vanyel realized just how ruthless
Ke'noran really was, remembering that if any magical or physical attack was
directed at the construct, the shields would react instantly, destroying
whatever they surrounded by lethal backlash. :Great good Gods, maybe I can
Fetch...:
:No, Vanyel, any Gift will set it off, even
mind-magic!: Yfandes sent.
:Hells, that thing moves fast. Come to me
then. She may have the ability to steal these powers, now let's see if she
knows how to use them:
In the time the two had Mindspoken this
much, the construct had already reached Ke'noran, and had been admitted inside
her shields. Vanyel bit his lip in frustration and he saw Ke'noran take the boy
as she snapped a guttural word at the construct, causing it to sit back on its
haunches, its hooded eyes becoming glassy. With his Mage-sight, Vanyel saw the
sorceress' shields flare even brighter now as she added the power the construct
had been using to her own protections.
By this time, Yfandes had swung away from
her pursuit and ran over to Vanyel, coming around to stand behind him. Vanyel
put one hand on her mane as he watched the barbarian.
:Get ready to give me power on my signal,: he sent to her.
:I hope you know what you're doing.:
:Now that she has him, it's the only way. I
just need a little more time.:
Ke'noran slammed Treyon down on the cairn,
knocking the wind out of him and effectively preventing any struggle. Holding
him down with one hand, she reached underneath her cloak with the other and
brought out a dagger-sized wooden wand covered in rough runes and glowing
brightly with power. Ripping open Treyon's shirt, she touched the focus to
Treyon's chest, outlining his heart, the wand leaving a glowing trail wherever
it touched the boy's skin. Looking up, Vanyel once again saw her feral smile as
she said, "Spirit, you have defied me, and for that you will be destroyed.
Once I have taken this one's Gifts, I will take everything else you hold
dear."
"Ke'noran, hold!" Vanyel threw
out his hand as if offering it to an unseen person. Recognizing the gesture,
Ke'noran looked down at Treyon, who was still lying motionless beneath her. Her
head snapped up to look at the silver-haired mage before her. At that moment
she felt her shields actually buckle as the impact of Vanyel's magic hit them.
For a moment, everything stopped as the two mages' gazes met. Vanyel smiled as
he saw the sorceress' eyes widen as she realized what was about to happen.
Ke'noran recovered quickly, however.
Raising the wand about her head, she screamed the final word of the spell out
as she plunged the stake down at Treyon's unprotected chest.
The wand ripped through the empty air where
Treyon's body had been a moment before to shatter on the rocks of the cairn.
Now uncontrollably released, the magic contained by the wand surged back though
Ke'noran's body. Held in by her shields, it redoubled in intensity, arcing and
snapping as it contacted the restraining magic walls. Ke'noran didn't even have
tune to scream. In seconds the wild energies had destroyed everything in the
area of the sorceress' shields. As her protections vanished, all that remained
was a circle of burned ground and two small piles of ash and bone.
Vanyel watched, unblinking, cradling Treyon
to his chest, burying the boy's head in his chest to prevent him from watching.
When it was over, Vanyel just held him while glaring at the brigands, who had
watched the fight at a safe distance. Under his stare, they quickly broke and
left for the hills, and silence once again fell over the Forest of Sorrows and
the small plain.
"Vanyel... I can't breathe."
Treyon gasped from his shirt. Standing up, Vanyel slowly let go of Treyon,
watching all around him as if waiting for Ke'noran to suddenly appear from the
grave and wreak more havoc. When nothing happened, his shoulders slumped as he
relaxed, slowly fading into translucence.
Seeing this happen, Treyon quickly stepped
over to Vanyel, meaning to hug him. But when he tried to wrap his arms around
the other's slim body, he met nothing but air. Off balance, Treyon just managed
to avoid falling over. Before Vanyel could speak, Treyon waved an arm through
the middle of Van's body, watching it pass through the misty form as if there
was nothing there at all.
Treyon was hesitant to say it, but he did
anyway, "What happened... I thought you defeated her." His eyes
overflowed with tears again as he thought he realized what had happened.
Vanyel, realizing what Treyon was thinking,
was quick to correct him. "No, no, Treyon, that's not what happened. Using
so much power so quickly can drain even a legend for a time." Seeing
Treyon's expression as comprehension dawned, he added, "Yes, I am the
Vanyel of the legends and songs. I have been like this," he pointed a hand
toward his insubstantial body, "for decades. I have been a part of this
forest for over thirty years, guarding the northern border against bandits and
mages like Ke'noran. In a way, I am the forest around me, every tree,
every plant, every gust of wind that moves through the brush, I feel it, react
to it, as far as I can see. And to things that enter the forest. Ke'noran
couldn't kill me or Yfandes, not without destroying every last bit of the woods
around us, and that, I think, is next to impossible. But she almost got you,
and that was something I never wanted to happen. I had no plans to put you in
danger. You deserve better than that."
"Why?"
"Why? Just because of who you
are."
"What, I'm just a boy, that doesn't
make me anything special."
"Well, then, how about what you can
give back to Valdemar."
"As what, a brigand? Vanyel, how can I
help Valdemar?" Treyon was growing more and more exasperated.
"As a Herald," came the soft
reply.
"What? A Herald? Me?" Treyon's
mouth was gaping like a fish.
For the first time since the battle had
ended, Vanyel smiled. "Don't you remember me telling you about your Gifts?
You need training to use them effectively, and, as you happen to be about the
right age to begin, you should get started right away. There's a way station
about a half-day's journey from here. Usually a Herald passes by every few
days, on patrol for the outlying villages, and he can take you to Haven."
"Training? Haven? Gifts? But I don't
know anything about anything. How can I be a Herald? Who's going to believe
that I can be anything but a brigand?"
Vanyel let his hand drop to Treyon's
shoulder, and for several seconds, the boy actually felt the older man's hand
steadying him. "I do. Treyon, you can't stay here, not with us," he
said, cutting off Treyon's startled protest. "You need to be around
others, to learn all that Yfandes and I don't have time to teach you. Besides,
Haven is the place where you're needed, not here."
"That's all well and good, but what
about my needing someone?" Treyon said, sniffing back his tears and
looking away at the ground.
Vanyel knelt down beside him, catching the
boy's downcast stare with his own gaze. "I'm not going anywhere. Granted,
Haven is far away, but if your Gifts manifest like I think they will, pretty
soon you'll be able to Mindspeak with me as if I were standing beside you. And
by that time, maybe you'll have been Chosen by a Companion of your own."
Treyon was silent for several seconds, then
raised his head again, feeling truly hopeful for the first time since he had
entered the forest. "I guess we'd better get going, then."
"Let's not rush off quite so quickly.
You'll stay with us another night, and we'll set off in the morning."
Vanyel said, smiling.
Treyon smiled in return, and the trio
walked into the forest, leaving the charred patch of dirt, and the new leaves
of grass that were already sprouting behind.
Vkandis' Own
by Ben Ohlander
Ben Ohlander was born in
Rapid City, South Dakota, and has since lived in eight states and three foreign
countries. He graduated from high school in 1983, after spending a period of
time in military school for various infractions. He enlisted in the Marines,
where he served for six years as an intelligence analyst and translator in such
places as Cuba and Panama. He has since completed a degree in International
Studies, been commissioned as an Army Intelligence Officer, and works as a
freelance writer. His hobbies include chess, rugby, fencing (the kind not
involving stolen goods), and politics. He has coauthored novels with David
Drake and Bill Forstchen for Baen Books, as well as several short stories. He
is currently developing several independent projects.
Author's Note: This story takes place after the
events chronicled in Arrow's Fall and before Storm Warning.
Colonel Tregaron, commander of His
Holiness' Twenty-First Foot, was hot, tired, and very pleased as he surveyed
the long line of marching infantry. The regiment had made good time, in spite
of a sun hot enough to boil a man's brain inside his skull, thick clouds of
choking dust that rose with every step, and short water rations. It pleased him
that he had yet to lose a single trooper to the heat, even after nine days
crossing the badlands, and another twenty trekking from the Karse-Rethwellan
border. Most caravans, fat with water and rich food, couldn't make that claim.
He shook his head, grimly amused that His Holiness would transfer regiments in
High Summer when "Beastly" was the gentlest adjective useful in
describing the heat. Still, when the Son of the Sun called, the army marched.
An infantryman, seeing him grin, hawked and
spat. "You like eatin' dust, Colonel?"
Tregaron raised his hand, one soldier to
another. "It can't be any worse than your hummas, Borlai. I'm
surprised your squadmates haven't strung you up as a poisoner." The
troopers around the luckless soldier laughed as he mimed taking an arrow in the
chest. "I'm struck!" Borlai cried.
Tregaron made a mental note to eat with
First Battle that evening, the better to ensure no lasting insult came from his
ribbing. Morale had remained high, in spite of the miserable conditions, and he
had no desire to see even a small wound fester for want of tending.
He glanced over each rank as it passed,
looking for the small signs and minute sloppiness that marked declining morale
or increasing fatigue. Some pikes sloped a little more loosely than the
prescribed thirty-degree angle and an occasional head drooped, but that was to
be expected, considering each soldier carried, in addition to a full
fifty-pound kit, three days' extra field rations, water, extra throwing spears,
and either a mattock, pick, or shovel to dig fortifications. It was no wonder
Karsite soldiers called themselves "turtles," for they all carried
their houses on their backs.
Several veterans, seeing Tregaron, raised
their fists in salute as they passed. A weak cheer rose from the ranks as he
doffed his plumed helmet and returned the gesture.
"Aye, lads," he said. "Save
your wind for the walk. We've a bit to go before you can laze about." That
drew a laugh. There was trouble on the Hardorn border, bad trouble, and even
the rawest recruit had heard the rumors of massacred caravans and slaughtered
villages. He knew, sure as night followed day, that there would be hard
fighting along the frontier before the fall rains swelled the Terilee River and
blocked passage. Vkandis willing, he thought, we'll make the Terilee
by nightfall and be dug in before the bastards know we're there.
He unrolled the grimy travel map he used to
plot their daily course. Its scale was too small for any real detail now that
they were close to their destination, but the scouts had provided good reports
of what lay ahead.
He ran one dirty finger across his short,
pointed beard as he studied the map. The Terilee River, hardly more than a
stream this time of year, marked the border between beloved Karse and Ancar's
Hardorn. It had seen its waters colored red more than once in the past year as
the Usurper's bandits raided across its brackish waters. Bodies from those
fights were said to have floated as far as Haven, in distant Valdemar.
His staff, walking alongside the regiment,
joined him as he rerolled the small map and bent to pick a stone out of his
sandal. Cogern, the Twenty-First's Master of Pikes and responsible for the
order of the regiment, stopped beside him. Tregaron saw backs stiffen and pikes
straighten. They might respect him, but they feared Cogern.
It was well they did. The sergeant had a
truly horrible visage. The Pikemaster had been lucky his helmet's gorget and
bar nasal had deflected the Rethwellan's blow, or he'd have received more than
a maiming and a harelip. Tregaron, then a green lieutenant, had fully expected
the Master to feed the sacrificial Fires. He remembered his quiet amazement
when the old soldier had not only recovered, he'd returned to duty.
He shook his head. That fight had
been almost twenty years ago. He would never see the south side of forty
again. Cogern had fifteen years on him, yet the older man did his daily twenty
miles, hit the pells, and led the charges with more energy than men half his
age. Tregaron had no doubt that twenty years after he was worm-food, Cogern
would still be offering tithes to Vkandis Sunlord and defeating Karse's
enemies.
The Commander and the Pikemaster stood
silently together a long moment, while the staff waited patiently. Their
horses, led by cadets, shifted and fidgeted in the hot, dry air.
"They look good," Tregaron
ventured.
Cogern spat and grinned. "They'd
better," he lisped, "if they know what's good for 'em." He took
off his helmet and ran his hand over his scarred head. Runnels of sweat,
trapped by the helm's padding, ran down his face, cutting tracks in the caked
dust. Drops fell from his chin to stain his rich scarlet sash. "What idiot
moves a regiment across the northlands in summer?" he asked scornfully.
Tregaron smiled. "When the Son of the
Sun says 'March,'" he started.
Cogern snapped his fingers. "Bugger
the Son of the Sun," he snorted. "The fat bastard's lapping up
chilled wine and making doe eyes at the acolytes while we grunt along out
here."
Tregaron laughed at the aptness of the
blasphemy. "You'd best lose that notion before a priest hears you."
"Bugger them, too," Cogern
repeated, but softly and with a quick look around.
"How are the recruits holding
up?" Tregaron asked, moving the conversation back onto safe ground.
Cogern rubbed his forehead. "This
stroll's melted the city fat offa'em faster than drill and pells." He
paused, weighing his words. "Their weapons drill ain't upta' par, but it
ain't bad either. Not for pressed troops, anyway."
Tregaron didn't envy the
"recruits" who filled out the Twenty-First's ranks. They'd used their
victory parade through Sunhame to "volunteer" some of the capital's
less wary citizens into Vkandis Sunlord's service. Many of the newest lambs had
lost their stunned expressions and had settled into the regiment's training
routine, which for them included fighting drills and weapons practice after marching
a full day and after building the night's camp and surrounding
fortifications.
Two lambs had keeled over dead so far, and
Cogern had reported they'd probably lose another before they got to the border.
The press-gangs were supposed to only draft hale men and a few women, but were
also given quotas and limited time. Occasionally, they cut corners, placing the
burden on the trainer. The training process usually weeded out the hopeless
cases before the fracas started. It pained him to lose troops for any reason,
but having them die due to sloppy recruiting rankled him.
One cadet holding the horses mumbled to
another. They laughed together. Tregaron stared at him a moment before he
remembered the lad's name. The boy, Dormion, was the son of a southlands freeholder
sent to the army to avoid the Tithe and, very possibly, the Flames.
"Eh?" Cogern snapped, "what
was that?"
"Urn, I said," said the lad,
visibly unhappy to have drawn the Pikemaster's undivided attention, "that
they don't, uhh, have press-gangs in Valdemar." He paused uncertainly.
"Sir," he concluded lamely, after the silence lengthened.
Cogern feigned a look of utter surprise.
"How would you know anything about Valdemar?" He stared at Dormion
with the horrified intensity of a man watching a large and potentially deadly
insect crawling up his arm.
The other cadets sidled away, leaving
Dormion, gulping and pale, alone. "I read it, Pikemaster, in the
Chronicles."
"In Val-de-mar," Cogern said,
drawing out each syllable sarcastically, "they don't have to fight. That
gives them certain luxuries we can't afford." He looked disgusted. "A
reading cadet. What will they think of next?" The old sergeant glared at
the boy with an expression fierce enough to cow the bravest veteran. "This
ain't Valdemar, boy, and you'd best get that through your head! Now get back in
your place."
Dormion, pleased to have escaped with
little more than a tongue lashing, scuttled away to rejoin the other cadets.
"I'm surprised you let him off so
easily," Tregaron said softly. "Usually you just cuff them
flat."
Cogern scratched his nose with one ragged
nail. "Most of 'em 'are fish. Not real bright, and just waitin' for hooks
in their mouths and knives in their guts. Once't a while you get one who sees
beneath things. Them's worth keepin' an eye on." He sighed. "I just
wish't I could keep him out of the damned books. He's got too much to learn in
too little time for that folderol."
He met Tregaron's eye. "I saw the same
thing in another lad some years back. Even took a sword for 'im, just to give
'im a chance't grow up."
Tregaron, embarrassed, took the worn rope
reins from the cadet and led the gelding toward the standards that followed the
lead battle. The regiment's flags marked both the commander's location in the
formation and the relics that were the unit's pride.
The lacquered ivory boxes contained the
femur of the regiment's first commander, a lock of hair from Torlois the
Prophet, and a finger bone from Vkorion, who, before he had become Son of the
Sun three centuries before, had struck off his own hand as a tithe for Vkandis.
Each relic box also contained a certificate of authenticity signed by a senior
priest. Tregaron suspected one pedigree was more the result of bribery than
accuracy; Vkorion would have to have had at least a dozen fingers on the
severed hand alone to accommodate all of the "verified" relic bones.
Pride stirred in his chest when he saw the
regiment's stained and tattered banner. The standard, a gold sun bursting on a
scarlet background with the number 21 in blue thread stitched across the
center, was flanked by the smaller gold, scarlet, and blue guidons of the
regiment's three battles. A fifth bearer carried the pole to which the tokens
and names of the Twenty-First's thirty-odd victories had been affixed.
Behind that, by itself, came the Oriflamme,
the cloth-of-gold standard that was the mark of His Holiness' favor. The
regiment had paid in blood for the right to carry the 'Flamme, but it was a
distinction that Tregaron would just as soon have forgone.
Beneath Vkandis' Stainless Banner clustered
three flint-eyed Sun-priests, the Oriflamme's guardians when it went into the
field and the source of Tregaron's worries. Two were from the capital, sent as
much to counter Hardorn's magic as they were to protect the flag from dishonor.
They wore full priestly regalia, their golden Sun-in-Glory medallions glinting
against their black court robes.
The third was a woman, a fact itself of
some note in Vkandis' patriarchal priesthood. She wore the simple red cassock
that marked her a common parish-tender, even though she was alleged to be at
least as powerful a mage as the Black-robes.
Tregaron knew little about her—only that
she had been a provincial prefect drafted when the third member of the
capital's troika had died of apoplexy. Darker campfire rumors suggested he had
died while demon-summoning, a common enough practice among the Black-robes,
even if Tregaron didn't believe the story. The Black-robe Priests had warded
the northern borders with summoned creatures until Ancar's magi had driven them
back.
The tension between the woman and the
Black-robes from Sunhame was thick enough to slice and serve on flatbread. He
knew the church hierarchy was rife with factional strife, but seeing it made
him nervous. All three were above his authority, and he had no doubt that each
had the clout to forward a report that, if bad, could cost him his regiment, if
not his life.
His worst nightmare was that if the woman
reported well of him, the others might speak poorly, to spite her, or vice versa.
In either case there would be a black mark against him with His Holiness, and
no amount of military skill or booty would erase the stain. He hoped they would
judge him only by how he did his duty, but he couldn't be certain their
acrimony wouldn't affect their judgment where he was concerned.
He nodded to the three. The woman
pleasantly returned his greeting, making a small gesture of blessing. He found
her handsome, though with a mannishly square jaw and sharp features. Her eyes,
though not as soft as liked, were warm and friendly, and her generous mouth
seemed more given to smiles than frowns.
The Black-robes, by contrast, looked
stonily forward, their expressions set in harsh disapproval. Tregaron kept his
face expressionless. In small things could big things be judged. The provincial
had been arguing with her counterparts. Again. Great, he thought dryly, and
I thought the army would keep me OUT of politics. Fool. He felt like the
man in the proverb who, when caught between fire and flood, ran back and forth,
unable to decide whether to burn or drown.
"I still don't see how all of this
skulking and sneaking benefits Karse," the woman said waspishly,
continuing what Tregaron was certain was a long-running argument. "Ancar's
troops raid us at will, and we do nothing!"
The Fighting Twenty-First isn't
"nothing," lady, Tregaron
thought, even though generally he agreed with her. Hardorn had been
testing them, and their response so far had been tepid. It seemed a bit
inconsistent that a raid from Rethwellan merited a six-month campaign by a
dozen regiments while Hardorn earned—one footsore command.
The older Black-robe made a rude face.
"His Holiness predicted peace, Solaris," he said to her, as though
addressing a small child. "So peace there shall be!"
"You know as well as I that Lastern
couldn't scry for a sunny day, much less Ancar's intent," Solaris replied,
her voice dripping scorn. "It's a meaningless augury and a meaningless
peace. Ancar's eventually going to conclude we're too timid to fight—and then
you'll have a full scale war. Try to hide that under a proclamation!"
"You go too far!" Havern hissed.
"Continue your blasphemy and I'll have you before an Ecumenical
Court."
Tregaron, overhearing more of the exchange
than he wanted, blanched. She had spoken treason, and his life might very well
stand forfeit for it. She could have him killed to cover her lapse, or Havern
might order him executed to snuff the chance he'd repeat what he'd heard. Fire
and flood indeed, he thought grimly, flaying and the rack is nearer the
mark. Cogern turned away, mumbling something about adjusting the
trumpeters. Tregaron followed, but wasn't quite quick enough to miss Solaris'
quiet laugh.
"I'm sorry, Havern," she said,
her voice quiet in what might charitably be called contrition had her voice not
dripped scorn. "I overstepped myself." Her speech changed, becoming
singsong as she recited the liturgy of the Word and Will of Vkandis. "His
Holiness is His Holiness, anointed by the hand of Vkandis, and is the Son of
the Sun, and His avatar on earth." Tregaron guessed her retreat to the
liturgy had more to do with survival than religion. Still, the very
effusiveness of her recitation argued that even in this, she was poking fun.
Havern appeared unconvinced. He peered at
her a long moment, as though trying to see inside her soul. "You country
priests have had it too much your own way for too long. I see that certain,
ah... distortions and baseless rumors have taken root in the provinces. Come to
my tent this evening and I will instruct you in the methods by which you might
return to orthodoxy."
Solaris shook her head ruefully. "I'm
sorry, Havern. I've already promised to minister to the Third Battle this
night. I gave my word to the Colonel."
Tregaron wasn't happy she had brought up
his name, especially as she had promised to do no such thing. He sighed to
himself. No matter how hard he tried to remain neutral, it seemed they were
determined to draw him into their feud.
Havern shrugged. "Well," he said
easily, as if the matter were of no importance, "I'd like to be reassured
of your orthodoxy before I make my report to His Holiness. Perhaps we can work
something out." Tregaron backed away, trying to put distance between
himself and the three priests. Vkandis' servants were under no obligation of
celibacy, but hearing what amounted to extortion embarrassed him.
Solaris flushed, two spots of color forming
high on her cheeks. She opened her mouth to speak when a distant shout and
pounding hooves drew their attention.
Tregaron, relieved at the distraction,
trotted toward the regiment's standards. The mounted scout galloped down the
line and reined in his horse with such savagery that stones and grit sprayed
from beneath its hooves and flecks of foam flew from its lathered sides.
"Report!" Tregaron snapped,
pleased to turn his attention to a problem he could handle.
"Cavalry, soir!" the scout
replied, his upcountry accent emphasized by his stress. "Two full
regiments, soir, less'n half an hour north of here, 'an movin' toward us."
Tregaron took a single deep breath, calming
himself and giving him a moment to order his thoughts. "Do they know we're
here?"
The scout looked chagrined. "Aye, more
likely than not. We tripped over three o' their outriders while we was on our
way back. We got two. The third gave us the slip."
Tregaron sucked air though his teeth, a
southlands expression of disapproval. "Well," he said, "what's
done is done." He ignored the excited chatter as word of the approaching
enemy made its way along infantry column. His staff clustered close, eager to
hear the report. "Did you see who they were?"
"One regiment had a boar's head
mounted on a pole, soir, with ribbons hanging from its tushes. I din't see the
second."
"That would be Reglauf's lot,"
Cogern said. "He led a regiment under Ancar when they made their try
against Valdemar. Word has it he didn't do much except plunder farms."
It didn't occur to Tregaron to question
Cogern. The sergeant was supposed to know such things. "Word also
has it," the old man lisped, "that he cut out early, before they'd
properly lost."
"How many troops?" Tregaron asked
the scout.
The man pulled a string out of his tunic
and counted the knots. "Five battles, soir, about three hundred riders
each. I'd guess about the same in the t'other regiment."
"Three thousand cavalry," Cogern
spat, "two-to-one, or thereabouts."
"Just like Selenay in Valdemar,"
Dormion chirped, earning a black look from Cogern. "From the Battle of
Border, in the Chronicles. Ancar had them two-to-one as well, and they whipped
him."
Cogern sighed, the air of man beset by
fools.
The brat doesn't know when to shut up, Tregaron thought.
Cogern growled something obscene and
crooked his finger at Dormion. "Come here, child. It's high time I took a personal
interest in your education."
Dormion swallowed heavily, his mobile
features still. "Um, Pikemaster..." he began. He looked at Tregaron.
"You tickled the bear, Ensign,"
Tregaron laughed. "Now you dance with him."
"Selenay," Cogern said with heavy
dignity as he ticked off points on his fingers, "had the advantages of
Mindspeaking Demon horses, superior terrain, time to pick her battlefield,
better-trained troops, and Ancar for an opponent. Not to mention her troops
were defending their homes and were backed by a substantial number of defectors,
including Hardorn's best Guardsmen."
He paused to switch hands, having long
since run out of fingers. "Ancar only had numbers. He needed at least
three to one to beat her on open ground, and probably six to one to best
them on that turf. He had, maybe, three to two, and most of them were
rabble, not real soldiers a'tall. Hell, only about half his force even had the
gumption to attack."
He closed his fist an stuck it in Dormion's
face. "Ancar," he finished, "didn't have a prayer. So don't draw
false comparisons, especially ones gleaned from books written by the winning
side." He exhaled heavily. "Here endeth the sermon. Now get back to
your units. All of you."
The cadets scattered.
Tregaron looked at Cogern. "Do you
think he heard you?"
"Damn that Bard-written tripe,"
the Pikemaster replied, "Selenay could have held that hilltop with a
company of recruits and a detachment of washerwomen. Demon horses, magic, and
good writing don't make up for sound tactics and superior strategy."
"I don't know," Tregaron said, "Selenay's
done all right for herself, by all accounts."
"Not you, too!" Cogern snapped,
his expression torn between shock and betrayal. He crossed his arms across his
chest, muttering about tyros who read more books than was good for them.
Tregaron, laughing, mounted his horse and scanned the field for a good place to
make his stand.
"There's a shallow stream up ahead,
soir," the scout said, pointing. He had wisely kept his mouth shut while
Cogern ranted. "It's about five-hundred paces from here."
"Do you want to form behind the water
course?" Cogern asked, his voice and manner now all business.
Tregaron considered a moment before
answering. "No, I don't want to give them any excuse to go toward our
flanks. A nice long feature like that might encourage them to get
creative."
"You're expecting them to come right
for us?" Cogern asked in a neutral voice.
"Yes," Tregaron answered.
"When Ancar assassinated his father, he put Alessander's generals to the
sword as well. He lost anybody he had with troop-handling skills, and the
rabble he recruits aren't much for the discipline that goes with good
tactics." He smiled sourly. "Not that they've needed it. They've been
riding right over the local militia for a while now. I'm betting it's been a
while since they've faced regulars. They'll go straight for our throats."
He straightened his shoulders. "We'll
put the stream hard by our right and use it to anchor our flank on that side.
We'll assume an open field defense and meet them in that high grass over
there." He pointed to the open area beside the streambed.
"All right," Cogern said, turning
to the cluster of runners and trumpeters, "what are you waiting for?"
The staff members scattered to execute the
orders. Horns blared. Under officers shouted as the lead battle, company by
company, shifted their pikes and picked up a clumsy trot. The regiment's
company of mounted skirmishers thundered past, their riders adjusting bows,
quivers and heavy sacks. They disappeared in a trice over a low brow to contest
the Hardornans' passage.
Tregaron knew a hundred archers weren't
enough to stop the invaders by themselves, but he hoped they'd be enough of an
irritant to make Reglauf deploy his forces prematurely.
The vanguard had just drawn even with the
streamlet when a single horn blew in the distance. Tregaron followed the sound
and saw a thin dust plume rising above the bluffs. "That would be our
guests," Cogern said, his flat voice calm. Tregaron studied the thin brown
column. Infantry dust tended to spread as it rose, making a ground-hugging haze
rather than a rising tail. Yes, definitely cavalry.
He turned in his saddle to address the
trumpeters. "Play: Form line of battle—left."
The horns skirled. Trumpeters farther down
the line answered the calls, acknowledging the orders.
"Front Northwest!" Cogern
shouted, his bass voice cutting the din. In such moments all hint of his lisp
vanished. "Debouch by companies!"
The battles' officers and sergeants
amplified the commands as the regiment dropped its packs and began to smoothly
deploy into the serge alongside the dusty road. Tregaron heard the crack of a
whip and snapped his head around to see one sergeant coiling his badge of
office back into his hand. He rode over as the man raised it for another blow.
"You are a fine sergeant, Gren," Tregaron said through clenched
teeth, "but you are no longer in the Seventeenth. If you raise that
starter to another one of my lambs without good cause, I'll have you flogged
back to your old regiment. Is that clear!"
The sergeant, his face pale, nodded silently.
Tregaron jerked his horse's head around and rode to take his position with the
standards, by then positioned on the left-center of the line. The battles'
guidons had long since returned to their units.
Front-rankers aligned the regiment into
four neat rows, using pikestaves as guideposts. The pikemen in the first two
ranks took their intervals, setting their shields between them to provide cover
if the cavalry stormed them with arrows. The rear ranks, composed of swords-men
each equipped with two heavy javelins, marked off their running distances and
prepared their gear.
The javelins were cunning weapons. The
swordsmen wrapped lanyards around the middles, which, when held between the
casters' fingers when throwing, imparted a spin on the spear. Spinning spears
flew farther and more accurately than straight-thrown, though no one knew why.
The javelins' heads were attached to the
shafts with weak glue or brittle pins. When the weapon hit, the glue usually
failed or the pin broke, making the thing useless for a return throw.
The regiment's longbow company moved
quickly out in front, ready to act as skirmishers and contest the ground in
front of the regiment with long range fire. Two scouts galloped across the
field, plunging whitewashed stakes into the ground at hundred-pace intervals to
mark the bowers' ranges.
The farthest scout turned, and using his
last stick as a goad, pounded back toward the readied regiment.
Cogern cantered up beside him. "As for
tactics, sir," he asked, "butterfly wings?"
Tregaron nodded. "If they let us. Have
Luhann double her leftmost companies. If they try to turn our flank, her
side'll be the most likely place they'll try."
Cogern passed the instruction to a runner.
Most battlefield situations were too complex for trumpets. Runners gave more
precise messages, but were slow and often got lost or were lost.
Cogern smiled the easy grin of man with a
secret. Tregaron rarely saw the Pikemaster as happy as he was before a fight.
Vkandis knew his guts always knotted up beforehand.
"Your horse, sir," Cogern said.
Tregaron dipped his head and dismounted. Mounted officers made easy targets.
They gave their animals to an orderly to
take behind the line.
"Where's the damned Oriflamme?"
Tregaron snapped. "It should be here."
"Here, Colonel," Solaris said,
stepping through the ranks to join them. Tregaron saw she wore no mail and
carried no weapon.
"Where are your cohorts?" he
said, a little more harshly than he'd intended, but only a little.
She made a wry face. "They've decided
to support your fight from back there." She pointed toward the area behind
the regiment, where the horses, gear, and a few noncombatants waited.
"That'll do 'em no good a'tall if n
they get behind us," Cogern said. He looked at Solaris. "Do you have
a weapon?"
She held up the Oriflamme. "I have
this."
Cogern looked closely at her a long moment.
"Then what are you waitin' on, girl?" He pointed to the Stainless
Banner. "Show 'em what we're fightin' for."
She grinned and hefted the pole, raising
the 'Flamme high above their heads. She waved it about, swirling its
swallowtail in a gentle arc. The center battle cheered. The shouting built as
each battle fought to outdo the others.
The skirmishers' reappearance quieted the
noise. The horsemen paused at the hill crest to fire one final volley at their
pursuers, then fled across the open ground. They opened the sacks tied to their
saddles and tossed handful after handful of small black objects into the grass
behind them.
"What are those?" Solaris asked,
lowering the 'Flamme and grounding the haft.
"Caltrops," Cogern said with
malicious glee, "four sharpened pieces of iron welded together. No matter
how they fall, one prong always points up—a little dainty for a horse's
hoof."
The first mass of Hardornan cavalry crested
the hill, a black tide that quickly covered the facing slope. Tregaron heard
the thin voice of the archers' commander. "Take your aim—four hundred
paces. Loose!" A thin iron sleet rose and fell. Some arrows struck home,
here and there felling a horse or rider. The range was a bit long for accurate
fire, but Tregaron hoped the harassment would goad the Hardornans into leaving.
The mass reacted by spurring their horses
and charging.
"They've got no order at all!"
Cogern sniffed, sounding offended. Tregaron knew he hated inefficiency, even
when displayed by an enemy.
"Three hundred paces!" the archer
leader yelled, timing his fire so the riders would cross the stake just as the
arrows arrived. "Loose!"
The toll grew heavier as arrows found their
marks or pierced armor. Horses pulled up and fell, screaming and thrashing, as
the cruel iron caltrops pierced their hooves. Most riders scrambled to their
feet, but here and there one lay still, either knocked witless or themselves
victims of the spikes hidden in the grass.
"Two hundred!" More riders fell.
The Karsite horse archers added to their toll with their shorter-ranged bows as
they moved to the flanks to cover the ends of the formation. Here and there a
Karsite fell, arrowstruck, but the Hardornens' volleys were erratic and largely
ineffective. The cavalry's thunder grew louder as they galloped down onto the
waiting Karsite line.
"One hundred!"
Cogern turned, cupped his hands around his
mouth, and bellowed. "Set to receive cavalry!"
With a wordless shout, six hundred pikes
came down in a single glittering arc, their bitter edges bright in the noonday
sun. The rear ranks gave way a pace, ready to hurl their javelins on command.
The archers scampered for the rear.
Cogern grabbed the regimental standard and
raised it over his head. At the instant he dropped it, the battles' commanders
dropped their swords and six hundred javelins smashed into the onrushing
horses. The cavalry slowed, their charge blunted by the heavy spears. A second
volley crashed home an instant later, cutting down the lead ranks like a scythe
through wheat. The rear ranks piled over the dead and dying and pressed home
the attack.
The crash of the horsemen hitting the
readied pikes roared over Tregaron like a tide of sound, a breaking wave of
iron-shod hooves and slashing, cursing soldiers. His world retreated to a
circle five yards across. A Hardornen, her horse gutted by a pikeblade, bowled
over the front ranks and plowed into the command party. One orderly slashed the
animal across the knees, bringing it down and throwing the rider. Two officers
plunged their blades into her before she could rise, the second twisting his
weapon to gore her before withdrawing it She collapsed, dead, blood fountaining
from her mouth and nose.
The lead Hardornen was dead, but the gap
she'd forced in the line filled quickly with other horsemen, slashing and
stabbing as they tried to widen the breach. Horns blew in alarm on either side
of the command party as squads detached from the flanking units to help seal
the break in the line. Tregaron, looking for more troops to throw at the
Hardornens, whipped his head around and saw Solaris using the Oriflamme's staff
to fend off one horseman while Cogern moved to his flank. The Pikemaster
stabbed deep, driving his sword deep into the horse's barrel, dropping it in
its tracks. He then brained the rider with his sword pommel and ran him through
with a quick thrust as he tried to rise.
Karsite swordsmen flooded the area,
surrounding the horse troops and attacking from all sides. Their grim intensity
and lacquered red-and-black armor made Tregaron think of ants swarming a moth.
Distant horn calls announced the arrival of
the second regiment. He craned his head toward the sound and saw it advancing
over the hill crest in slightly better order than the first. The newcomers made
a token effort to dress ranks, then charged across the caltrop-littered ground.
A few fell to the hidden spikes, but the charge went home almost unblunted.
Pikemen fell, lanced through or scattered
like ninepins as the horsetroops plowed into the center of the Twenty-First's
line. Swords slashed and stabbed. The din drew louder and the center units,
beset by the fresh Hardorn regiment, sagged under the pressure. Trumpets blew
frantically as under officers fought to hold the line. The battle hung in the
balance, a race between whether the pikemen could reknit their formations or
the Hardornens could split the regiment and roll it up.
Cogern took half the remaining swordsmen in
the command party and went to shore the line where the fighting was thickest.
Solaris followed, keeping the Oriflamme aloft. The soldiers, seeing the woman
and the banner, both now stained with blood, fought harder. The pressure
intensified, the battle growing more desperate as units lost cohesion. The thick,
coppery smell of blood, mixed with the stink of loosened bowels and horsedung,
threatened to overwhelm Tregaron, as did the clouds of dust as thick as smoke
that obscured much of the field.
Twice the pressure on the command party
built, and once Tregaron himself had to swing his sword against the enemy. More
horncalls sounded from the right, calling for assistance. Tregaron looked
around frantically. The entire right half of the line was engulfed and all
reserves on that side were already committed. He had to launch a counter,
something to take the pressure off the beleaguered center and right before it
cracked under the Hardornens' hammerblows.
"This'll have to work," he said
to himself as he summoned his remaining trumpeters. Most were dead, killed
defending the relics. He pointed to two. "Go to Captain Luhann. Tell her
to prepare to attack en echelon. She's to commence when she's ready.
Don't wait for a signal. We're counting on her to take 'em in the flank and
grind 'em into powder. Repeat."
The runner cleared his throat. "Attack
en echelon when ready. Don't wait for signal." Tregaron checked the
message with the other runner, then sent them to the left. He repeated the same
message with two more and dispatched them to the right, though he doubted that
wing of the regiment could comply.
He fretted in the minutes that followed,
afraid his order had come too late, or that the Hardornens would break the
line. He peered anxiously to where he could see the Oriflamme, still bravely
waving. He worried about what was going on there even as a Battle or two of
horsetroops made another try for the regiment's banner. More blood and more
dead followed in a sharp little fight.
The Hardornens finally broke, driven from
the standards by a volley of arrows fired from across his line of sight.
The dust cleared and he saw the archers on the extreme left complete the
echelon movement that gave them a clear shot along the regiment's long axis.
Each pike company stepped off in turn, marching forward a few paces, then
wheeling to the right. In the distance, Luhann made it look like a parade
ground maneuver. He distantly heard her voice through the din, using a leather
megaphone to yell orders to her troops. Her voice didn't have Cogern's carrying
power, but she compensated well.
He considered Luhann his best triumph. The
army, the fighting arm of a very male god, was as thinly populated by
women as the priestly ranks. He remembered the laughter of his counterparts
when he'd accepted her as a cadet. The crisp precision of her troops was all
the proof he'd ever need that he hadn't been daft in appointing her to command.
A runner panted up to him. "Pikemaster
Cogern sends 'is respects, sir, and asks if you're ready to close the wings
yet? He says he's hanging on by 'is teeth."
Tregaron gathered his thoughts a moment
before answering. "My compliments to the Pikemaster. Tell him the left has
already started. He's to lure them deeper, if he can." The runner repeated
the message and scampered away.
Tregaron had little to do but fret. Victory
and defeat looked a lot alike in those moments, while the center remained
vulnerable and the flank attack developed. His smaller force was strung out
around three-quarters of the compass while a numerically superior enemy held
the center. His regiment could be easily shattered and there was not a damned
thing he could do about it.
He sent several squads he couldn't afford
to give up to back Cogern, who had began a slow retreat in the center. The
Hardornens pressed forward, sensing victory. Just when he thought the battle
could get no louder, he heard a crash and clatter on the far right. The sounds
of fighting there intensified. A slight breeze stirred, moving the thick dust,
but not clearing it. Had the Hardornens broken through? Was all lost?
Distant trumpets sounded. The trumpeter
beside Tregaron closed his eyes, listening intently to the distant signal.
"First Battle reports: Attacking en echelon, Left Wheel, sir."
Tregaron tried not to whoop with glee.
More trumpets blew, this time on the left.
Luhann's entire battle, pikes in hand and its blood up, finished pivoting on
its right heel, paused, aligned its ranks, and charged.
They crashed into the disordered
Hardornens, crushing one side of the mass and working a fearful slaughter as
the cavalry tried to flee. The horse archers, briefly visible though the murk,
rushed to seal the trap, covering the opening between the two wings like a lid
on a pot.
The bulk of two regiments were trapped.
Tregaron knew his own forces were spread much too thin to hold the enemy
inside, so it was time to kill as many as they could before the Hardornens
broke free.
"Sound General Advance," he
yelled at the remaining trumpeter. The boy nodded, blatted into his horn a few
times, then sent the final command in pure ringing notes. The troops on either
side of Tregaron advanced, carrying with them their standards and cheering.
They smashed the weakening resistance, killing horses and riders with equal
abandon.
A portion of the rear regiment cut through
the thin screen of horse archers and burst out of the trap. The Hardornens
scattered like wind-blown leaves as each rider fled to preserve life and
health. A hot gust of wind swept the dust away, giving Tregaron a glimpse of
the carnage. The entire field before him was littered with dead and dying
horses and soldiers, piled three deep in some places. Hardornens cried for
succor in a dozen languages.
He saw, as he walked forward across the
torn and bloody field, that the leading regiment had gotten trapped between
Cogern's and Luhann's units. Badly weakened by the javelins, robbed of its
momentum and best fighters, it was caught in the jaws of an implacable foe. He
looked at the trumpeter. "Play: No Mercy." The boy looked grim, but
complied.
Ancar took no prisoners in Karse and showed
no mercy. Now the favor was returned. Luhann gave the final command and
Reglauf's regiment vanished under a wall of pikes.
Later, Tregaron walked among the troops
laid out in groaning, screaming rows where the regiment's hedge-wizards labored
to save as many as they could. He adjusted his turban, his one concession to
the heat, while his helmet hung from his belt. Many of the soldiers, busy
tidying the battlefield or finishing the wounded Hadornens, had also removed
their helms. Even Cogern, who normally would have blistered the troops for such
a lapse, kept his silence. He also, Tregaron noted wryly, kept his helmet.
He glanced back at the wounded. The
regiment had suffered three hundred casualties, a twenty-percent loss. It was a
light butcher's bill considering the desperate nature of the fight, but still
far too heavy. Tregaron took each dead and wounded soldier as a personal
failure, his losing Karse's most precious resource.
The Hardornens had lost much worse than he,
at least five times his numbers killed, one regiment destroyed, and another
scattered. Still, Hardorn recruited the scum of five countries, and such losses
were easily made good.
He bent to help one man who begged for
water, taking his own canteen and holding it to the man's lips. Tregaron held
the man's head while he sipped. He caught a whiff of punctured bowel. This
soldier would never recover. His end would be agonizing as his own waste
poisoned his body cavity.
"Do you wish mercy?" Tregaron
asked, his voice gentle.
The soldier, perhaps only then realizing
what he faced, sobbed once and nodded. "Hagan," the dying man
whispered, "send Hagan. Third Battle, fifth company. He'll do it."
Tregaron stood and summoned an orderly who sprinted to fetch the man's friend.
Havern waited at the end of the row. He
seemed positively cheerful as he looked around at the long rows of gored and
wounded soldiers. "Can I help you?" Tregaron asked, realizing as he
looked at the man just how bone tired he felt.
"We'll have the Fires ready within the
hour, Colonel," the Black-robe said.
"Must it happen now?" Tregaron
replied.
"The Word and Will calls for a victory
sacrifice as soon as the battle is won, Colonel. You know that."
"I know that the Battle Tithe plays
merry hell with morale, sir," Tregaron said wearily. He held up his hand.
"You may have the mercied men for your Fires, but only after their friends
have released them from their pain."
Havern's face fell, falling into the mask
of disapproval he wore when debating Solaris. "What the priests do in
Rethwellan is one thing, Colonel, but here we follow the Word and Will
literally. Those men too wounded to travel or otherwise unlikely to survive
will go to the flames. Alive. Vkandis takes no pleasure in cold flesh."
"I never understood why Vkandis took
pleasure in any flesh," Solaris said pleasantly.
Havern rounded on her. "Your deviance
from the Word and Will has been repeatedly noted. After I'm through with you,
Solaris, you'll be lucky to preside over an outhouse, much less an abbey."
Tregaron, recalling her rallying the
regiment with the Oriflamme, felt his temper heat. "The Sun-priestess held
her place and inspired the regiment. What did you do?"
Havern didn't bat an eye. "We got out
of the way. We were the wrong tool for the job. You were the right one. We
deferred to you on the matter of how best to conduct the fight. Now," he
said maliciously, "you will defer to us on how to conduct the Fires. The
army was given its dispensation to sacrifice those who would die anyway, rather
than the hale. I will accept no compromise on that point."
Solaris quietly slipped away and knelt by
the gut-stabbed man, who still begged for water. She uncorked Tregaron's water
bottle and gave him several small sips. Tregaron listened to the Sun-priest's
tirade about duty and responsibility while trying vainly to hold onto the
scraps of his self-possession.
Solaris stood and walked to the next
soldier, who bled her life away from a gaping thigh wound. It wasn't until the
gutted man sat up and felt his middle that Tregaron realized something bizarre
had happened. Something far more important than the Black-robe's prating.
He turned his back and walked away from
Havern as Solaris stood and went to the third man. The woman, who moments ago
had been unconscious, moaned weakly and sat up. Tregaron caught a glimpse of
Solaris' eyes as she knelt and placed her blood-covered hands on the man's
exposed skull. Her gaze was far away, locked on a distant horizon, and she
whispered to herself as she healed. Each time she knelt, her pupils shone with
a golden glow and her hands were suffused in a warmth that looked like fire,
but brought health, not hurt. Soon a dozen of the regiment followed her,
whispering in hushed tones at the miracles as she healed each of the dying.
The story spread like wildfire through the
regiment. By the time she finished, a thousand men and women were crowded
around her, eager to see the prodigy. They stood silently, giving her space to
work as she knitted flesh, healed bones, and restored health. After what seemed
like an eternity she stood from beside the last. The silent regiment gave way,
opening before her to let her by. A few, braver or more foolhardy than the
rest, reached out tentative hands to touch her cassock as she passed. Tregaron,
trailed by the stunned and silent Black-robes, followed her as she took shaky
steps toward the more lightly wounded.
She placed her hands on a man's slashed and
splinted arm. Nothing happened. "It's gone," she said in a confused
voice, "it's gone now."
"It's all right, mum," said the
trooper, who looked old enough to be her father, "I saw what you done for
the others. I'll heal all right by m'self."
She turned back toward the regiment.
Tregaron saw the glow had faded from her eyes. Her self-possession seemed to
return and she looked at Havern. "Now you have none for your Fires,"
she said in a weary voice. "The dispensation protects the rest."
Tregaron, overcome by the miracles and the
restoration of those he thought he would see consumed, drew his battered sword
and knelt before her. The regiment, following his cue, knelt as well.
"Command us, Lady," he said,
"we are yours."
"No, sir," she replied with a
soft, sweet smile. Her expression seemed transformed, as though she were in
ecstasy. "You are not mine. You are Vkandis'. If He has chosen to work
through me, it is through the worthiness of the cause, not of the vessel."
Havern cleared his throat.
"Ahmmm..." he began, "I know we all think we saw
something...." He trailed off as a thousand hostile faces focused on him.
"Um, yes," he concluded and retreated.
"Please rise, sir," Solaris said,
her expression still beatific, "I am not the Son of the Sun."
Not yet, anyway, Tregaron thought as he rose. Not yet.
A Herald's Honor
by Mickey Zucker
Reichert
Mickey Zucker Reichert is a
pediatrician whose twelve science fiction and fantasy novels include The
Legend of Nightfall, The Unknown Soldier, and The Renshal Trilogy. Her
most recent release from DAW Books is Prince of Demons, the second in The
Renshal Chronicles trilogy. Her short fiction has appeared in numerous
anthologies. Her claims to fame: she has performed brain surgery, and
her parents really are rocket scientists.
Rain pattered to the roof of the way
station, rhythmic beneath the low-pitched howl of the winds. Herald Judaia
stared into the hearth, watching twists of flame flicker through their collage
of yellow and red. Though her eyes followed the fire, her mind traced every
movement of her mentor, Herald Martin. Already, he had curried his Companion,
Tirithran, till the sheen of the stallion's white coat rivaled the moon. His
sword and dagger held edges a razor might envy, and he had soaped his tack
until Judaia feared he might wear the leather thin as sandal bindings. The
image made her smile through a longing that had sharpened to pain. She imagined
him struggling to buckle a back cinch the width of a finger and mistaking
Tirithran's bridle for a boot lace. Judaia turned. For an instant, her dark
eyes met Martin's gray-green ones and she thought she saw the same desire in
him that goaded her, as burning and relentless as the hearth fire. He glanced
away so quickly, his black hair whipped into a mane and every muscle seemed to
tense in sequence. Movement only enhanced his beauty, and the sight held Judaia
momentarily spellbound. Her mind emptied of every thought but him. The rigors
of her internship faded, insignificant beneath the more solid and cruel pain of
Martin's coldness. Unable to resist, Judaia glided toward him, loving and
hating the feelings his presence inspired.
Apparently sensing her movement, Martin
tensed. Suddenly, he took several quick strides toward the door. "I'm
going to check on Tirithran and Brayth." He fumbled with the latch,
uncharacteristically clumsy. The door swung open, magnifying the drumlike beat
of rain on the way station's roof. Beneath an overhanging umbrella of leaves,
Tirithran and Brayth enjoyed the pleasures of stallion and mare, their grunts
punctuating the sounds of wind and rain. Caught between Judaia and an even more
obvious passion, Martin froze in the doorway.
Judaia brushed back a strand of her
shoulder-length hair, wishing it looked less stringy and unruly. Its sandy
color seemed out-of-place framing dark eyes nearly black. Still, though not
classically beautiful, Judaia did not believe herself homely either. She had
kept her body well-honed, even before the rigors of Herald training. Her
features, though plain, bore no deformities or scars. Other men had found her
attractive enough. Yet other men had not mattered to Judaia since she had met
Martin at the Collegium three years past. They had begun their training
together, year-mates, yet Martin had passed into full Herald status and gone
out on circuit a year before her. Now, she learned from him. And maybe, if he
could turn his eyes and mind from preparations for an instant, she might teach
him something as well.
Martin remained still and silent for some
time, seemingly oblivious to the rain that slanted through the open door frame
and left damp circles on his Herald whites.
Judaia studied Martin in the moonlight
trickling between clouds and over the threshold. The first half of their
circuit had passed with routine ease, yet the Martin she had seen direct
tribunals, chastise embezzlers, and calmly settle disputes seemed to have
disappeared, replaced by an awkward child scarcely into his teens. The
transformation seemed nonsensical. She had never heard of a chaste Herald. She
had lost her virginity even before Brayth had spirited her from Westmark to
begin her training. A handsome child of local nobility, Martin surely had had
his share of women, and Judaia had heard Lyssa, one of the Seneschal's
granddaughters, bragging about Martin's prowess in bed. Why, then, has he
spent the past five months finding every excuse in the Sector to avoid me? This
night, Judaia decided, she would find her answer, one way or another.
"Ah," Judaia said, her soft words
shattering a long-held silence. "I didn't know staring at love-making
Companions could turn a man to stone."
Martin startled, suddenly and obviously
aware of his lapse. He closed the door with clear reluctance and turned to face
Judaia. Rain plastered black hair in ringlets to his forehead, and water
dribbled along the crest of one eyelid.
Martin looked so atypically undignified,
Judaia could not suppress a laugh. "I considered us lucky to get in before
the rain. I should have known Martin would find another way to get himself
soaked."
Finally, Martin smiled. He flicked away the
trickling raindrop and raked dripping locks from his forehead. He headed for
the fire, his wet Whites brushing Judaia's dry ones as he passed, leaving a
damp, darker line that the warmth would quickly dry. He sat in front of the
capering flames. Judaia took a seat beside him.
Martin fumbled dagger and whetstone from
his pocket, sharpening the blade for the twelfth time since its last use.
"Are you tired?"
"No. You?"
"Not yet," Martin admitted. The
conversation seemed to have come to an end, and he abruptly steered it in
another direction. Among strangers or while riding Companions, they always
chatted with an easy fluency that seemed to mock the choppy nervousness that
characterized their more private moments. "You're doing well, so
far." He scratched stone over blade.
"Oh, yes," Judaia said, not
bothering to hide her sarcasm. "I've gotten pretty good at riding around
watching you work. I'm probably the Heraldic expert at observing Martin."
Martin glanced at the stone and steel in
his hands as if noticing them for the first time. "I'm sorry. I guess I
haven't been giving you much responsibility, and you are ready for
it." Again, stone whisked over metal with a scraping hiss that set
Judaia's teeth on edge. "Next time, you get to check the tax
records."
Judaia had learned to care for her gear,
too, and she put the appropriate amount of time and effort into the task.
Martin's tending had become clearly excessive. "Tax records? Tax records
be hanged. Hellfires, Martin. I want to make a judgment. By myself. No
interference from you."
"A judgment?" Martin considered,
whetstone scouring steel a dozen strokes before he spoke again. "All right
then. The next judgment's yours and yours alone. I'd better warn you, though.
We're getting toward the Borderlands, and those people have a different idea of
justice and a woman's place."
"I can handle it." Though
excited, Judaia could not keep annoyance from her voice. Martin's long
closeness had fanned her desire from a spark to a bonfire. There could no
longer be any doubt about the source of that need. Lifebonded, no question. Yet
Martin seemed as oblivious to the ultimate sanction as he was to her readiness
for a more active role in their Sector patrol.
Another long silence followed, interrupted
only by the ceaseless gallop of the rain and the slash of stone against steel.
Judaia could avoid the need no longer. She
clasped a hand to Martin's arm to halt the sharpening, staring directly at him.
Martin stiffened, then ceased his work. His eyes darted from floor to dagger to
fire. Finally, he met her gaze.
All of the emotion Judaia had suppressed
came welling up at once. She did not waste words on caution or euphemism. Pent
up frustration burst forth at once, and she no longer cared if she hurt or
offended him. "What's wrong with you?"
"What?" Martin parted damp
strands of hair from his eyes. Startlement at her outburst quickly faded to
apology. "Look, I'm sorry. I guess I've been overprotecting you, but it is
your first patrol and—"
Judaia interrupted, "That's not what
I'm talking about, and you know it."
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about you so free and
confident out there." Judaia gestured vaguely northward, toward Haven and
the towns and cities they had policed. "Then, every time we're alone
together, you're currying Tirithran bald. Or you're cutting enough wood to fill
six way stations summer to summer." She released his arm so suddenly, the
whetstone tumbled from his fingers.
Now, Martin echoed Judaia's anger.
"Well excuse me for being thorough."
"Thorough?" Judaia leaped to her
feet. "Thorough! If you get any more thorough, you're going to
whittle that dagger to a toothpick. You're not just being thorough; you're
avoiding me."
Martin sheathed his dagger and put away the
whetstone. "Yes," he admitted.
A blatant confession was the last thing
Judaia expected to hear, and it completely arrested her train of thought.
"What?"
Martin rose, again meeting Judaia's eyes,
candor clear in his green-gray stare. For a moment, his shielding slipped, and
she caught a glimpse of deep struggle, honor against need. Then, he hurriedly
rebuilt his defenses. "Yes. I am avoiding you."
"Why?" Surprise dispersed
Judaia's anger, leaving only confusion in its wake. "I feel... I mean we
both know..." Words failed her, and she discovered an awkwardness as
petrifying as Martin's had seemed.
"That we're lifebonded? Yes, I
know."
Judaia could do nothing but stare, jaw
sagging gradually open without her will or knowledge. At length, she managed
speech. "You know? Then why are you avoiding me?"
"Because I made a vow to Lyssa that
she would be my one and only, that I would never sleep with another
woman."
Judaia did not know which shocked her more,
her own disappointment, the tie to Lyssa, or the promise like none she had ever
heard before. "Are you lifebonded with her, too?"
"No."
"Then why would you make such a
promise?"
Martin shrugged. "She wanted me to,
and I did. Lifebonds are uncommon enough I never expected to form one."
Judaia saw the hole in Martin's logic at
once. Lyssa, she knew, had slept with many others, as recently as the night
before Martin left to patrol the Sector. "Did she make a similar vow to
you."
"Yes."
Judaia considered a tactful way to inform
Martin of Lyssa's deceit and found none. Though she hated herself for the
cruelty she might inflict, she chose a direct approach instead. He deserved to
know the truth. "I'm sorry, Martin. Lyssa hasn't kept her vow."
Martin took the news too easily for it to
have been a surprise. "Lyssa is not a Herald."
Judaia stared, not believing what she was
hearing. More than anything in the world, she wanted Martin, and she knew now that
he felt as strongly for her. Yet, the pledge that shackled him had become
one-sided and the integrity of a Herald his undoing, as well as her own.
"But it's not right!" she shouted, the agony of the thwarted lifebond
writhing within her. "It's not fair."
Martin's eyes went moist, the green-gray
smeared to a colorless blur. "'Fair' is not the issue." Once again,
he looked away, and this time Judaia applauded his decision to dodge her stare.
"A Herald's vows," he said softly, "take precedence over desire.
Honor always over right."
Suddenly, Judaia felt very tired.
Stormy night passed to crystalline day,
free of humidity. Rainbows scored patches of sky and pooled along spiders'
webs, but their beauty did little to raise Judaia's mood. She rode at Martin's side
in silence. Overtended buckles and bridle bells reflected silver fragments of
sunlight; clean whites and curried Companions shed the brightness until it
seemed to enclose them like a divine glow. Birds flapped and twittered from the
forests lining either edge of the roadway, feasting on insects drawn by the
warm wetness following a gale.
Martin whistled a complicated tune written
by his Bardic brother. He seemed to have forgotten the events of the previous
evening, returning to his usual brisk confidence and grace under pressure. The
normality of his routine only amplified Judaia's pain. The lifebond, already a
noose, now felt like a noose on fire.
Brayth sensed the Herald's pain,
Mindspeaking with a tone pitched to soothe. :What's troubling you, little
sister?:
Judaia sighed, loath to inflict her sorrow
on another, yet glad for a friendly ear. :It's Martin.:
:What about Martin? He seems happy enough.:
Judaia patted the Companion's silky neck. :That's
exactly the problem. How can he be so oblivious when I'm so miserable? Can't he
feel the same pain, the same thwarted need?: In explanation, Judaia opened
her shields fully to Brayth, showing the mare the conversation in the way
station and the mass of conflicting emotions it had inspired, at least in
Judaia.
:The lifebond is as strong in him as you.
He feels it, too. But his honor is stronger even than the bond.:
Frustration made Judaia sullen, and her
next words came from superficial anger. :Lady take his damnable honor. I
hate it.:
:Do you truly hate his honor or the
situation to which that honor has fettered him?:
Uncertain of the question, Judaia gave no
reply; but she did feel guilty for her lapse. Companions chose only those pure
of intent, and devotion to duty came with the first Heraldic lesson.
Brayth continued questioning, :Do you
love Martin because of his honor or in spite of it? If he had made a similar
vow to you, would you expect him to keep it?:
The last, Judaia felt qualified to answer. :Well,
of course. But I'd never ask for such a vow. Or, if I did, I would keep my vow
as well. Blind loyalty to one who deceives is simply slavery. Honor it may be,
but an honor without justice.:
Brayth shook her head, her frothy mane like
silk on Judaia's fingers. :Tell that to Martin.:
:I already have.:
:Ah.: Brayth glanced back at her rider, a light dancing in
her soft, sapphire eyes. :Next time, sister two legs, you'll have to
convince him.:
As the Companion's words settled into
Judaia's mind, the approaching pound of hoofbeats drew her from deeper
consideration. She glanced at Martin, and the intensity of his focus on the
road ahead cued her that he had heard as well. He signaled Tirithran to a halt,
and Brayth stopped at the stallion's side. The broken pattern of the oncoming
hoof falls and lack of bridle bells told her, without the need for vision, that
the horse and rider were not Companion and Herald.
A moment later, a stranger appeared from
around a curve in the roadway. He rode a stocky Border pony, its dark hooves
drumming hard-packed roadway and its chestnut tail streaming. The thin man on
its back wore a well-tailored cloak and tunic of plain design. As he drew
closer, crow's feet and a shock of graying hair showed his age, and his
carriage revealed high breeding. The pony slowed to a walk as he came within
hailing distance. "Thank the Goddess, I've found you! Greetings, good
Heralds."
Judaia nodded and deferred to her mentor.
Anyone seeking would certainly have found them. They traveled the main roads.
Their circuit, so far, had remained tame and routine; and they had lost no
days, arriving in each town, village, and city at the expected time.
"What can we do for you?" Martin
asked, apparently sensing the man's distress.
Judaia exercised her Gift, though weak
compared with those of her year-mates, concentrating on the man's abstraction.
She Saw a birthing room filled with clean straw pallets. She found four women
in the picture. One clutched an infant tightly to her breast, gaze focused so
intently she seemed not to notice that two others argued vehemently, clothes
torn and arms waving. Another baby wailed, apparently frightened by the noise,
though both combatants took clear and obvious caution not to harm the child.
The fourth woman lay still on the straw, clearly injured; and two more infants
sprawled limply near a corner. Stung to action by what she saw, Judaia Sent the
image to Martin, bypassing the need for the stranger's slower, verbal
description. Martin had a strong Communication Gift, which made the Sending
easy, though he had little Sight to locate the knowledge for himself.
Still, though she formed an image, Judaia's
Gift brought picture without sound. The need for haste drove her to request the
important details first. Ordinarily, she would let Martin handle the situation;
but he had promised her the next judgment. Though he could not have guessed the
urgency that would accompany their next decision, Martin would not go back on
his word. Now, Judaia cherished the honor she had cursed moments before.
The stranger had already begun his story.
"... all giving birth on the same day—"
Judaia interrupted, delving for the
necessary. "The women's fight. It's over what?"
The man broke off into a startled silence.
Then, apparently attributing her understanding to Heraldic magic, he addressed
the question. "The argument is over who gave birth to one of the babies,
Herald."
Martin drew breath, but Judaia overran him.
"Doesn't the midwife know?"
"She apparently got hurt in the
struggle, Herald. She's unconscious, but alive. We have people tending her, but
she might need a Healer. I'm afraid this can't wait until she's well."
Anger rose in Judaia against the bitterness
that motherhood could inspire, every bit as strong as the bond of love so many
lauded between woman and child. Horror touched her then, along with a
possibility she did not have to know now but she asked for the sake of her own
conscience. "Did the babies get caught in the battle as well?"
"No, Herald." The stranger seemed
as horrified by the prospect. "Two stillborn."
Judaia had heard enough. "We'll meet
you there." She signaled Brayth, and the mare launched into a gallop
toward the Border Holding from which the stranger had come.
Not bothering to compete with the wind,
Martin Mindspoke with Judaia as they rode. :You took that over nicely.:
Judaia sensed a touch of displeasure,
though she could not feel certain. He hid it well behind a sense of pride at
her budding competence. :This one's my judgment, remember?:
Now, Martin's discomfort came through more
clearly. :Are you sure you want this one? Something less serious might do
for a start.:
Brayth flashed around the curve in a stride
and a half, neck stretched and head low for the straightaway. :Are you
breaking a promise?:
:Never.: Martin recoiled from the possibility, Tirithran
matching Brayth stride for stride. :Just giving you an out.:
:I don't need an out. I can handle this,
and the midwife needs you. The best I could do is carry her to a Healer.: Brayth whisked around another bend, and the
Borderland came into sight, a patchwork of large but simple homes to
accommodate the men with their multiple wives and myriad children. Crops and
pastures dotted the areas between homesteads, and a small but ardent crowd
surrounded a single building set off from the rest. Though Judaia's Sight had
shown her only the inside of the cottage, she knew this had to be the birthing
room. :With your Gift, you might draw the midwife back to consciousness or
stabilize her enough that a Healer isn't necessary. I can't do that.:
Either Martin saw the wisdom in Judaia's
words, or he simply bowed to his promise. Eyes locked on the approaching
building, he did not bother to reply.
As the Companions' silver hooves rang over
stone and earth, a few members of the crowd glanced over. These nudged more,
until every eye eventually turned toward the Heralds. A mass of voices rose in
question, conversation, or attempts to inform, the whole blending into a din
Judaia did not bother to decipher. Some slunk away, whispering among
themselves. Judaia knew that many of the Border Holdings considered Heraldic
Gifts unholy or the work of demons.
Judaia and Martin dismounted together,
leaving the Companions to tend themselves beyond the crowd. Ignoring the
huddled mass of comments, Judaia pushed through, the citizens parting to allow
a path for the Heralds to get to the doorway.
The midwife sprawled just outside the door;
apparently they had taken her from the crisis but feared to move her far in her
current state. Two men and a woman hunched over her. These moved gratefully
aside as the Heralds came forward. "Head wound," one said
unnecessarily. "Can you help her?"
Martin replied. "If I can't, I can get
her to help quickly." He gestured Tirithran vaguely, then inclined his
head to indicate that Judaia should take care of the problem inside.
Judaia reached for the portal, apprehension
finally descending upon her as she tripped the latch. In the heat of defending
her need to judge, she had found no time for self-doubt. Now finally on her
own, consideration of her weaknesses came unbidden. She had only the experience
of watching Martin when it came to justice. Her Gift of Sight would help her
little here; it would take a Communication Gift to delve into the complications
of situation and intention. Unlike Martin, Judaia could cast only the first half
of the Truth Spell; she could tell when a subject lied but could not force
honesty the way he and the more strongly Gifted could. She would have to rely
only on the first stage and on her own instincts, and the price for a mistake
might prove the breaking of family and the severing of a bond between mother
and child.
Too quickly, the door swung open. Again,
Judaia saw two women arguing heatedly, their screams drowning one another's
words so that the Herald could understand only a few broken phrases. The one
nearest the door looked robust, her brown hair neatly combed despite the
turmoil of childbirth. The other had curly locks hacked short, a hint of russet
amid the darker strands. A naked baby boy curled, asleep, in the straw, clearly
the object of their dispute. It pleased Judaia that they had taken care not to
let their blows go wild enough to squash or harm the child. Against the far
wall, a third female, more girl than woman, cradled another infant. The two
stillborn lay in a corner near the door.
"Stop!" Judaia said. Though she
did not shout, the authority in her voice silenced the women. She seized on the
hush. "My name is Herald Judaia, and I was sent to settle this
dispute."
"The boy is mine!" the
curly-haired one shouted.
"Liar!" The other lunged toward
her, fist cocked to strike.
Judaia snatched the descending wrist in
midair, wrenching the woman around to face her. "Rule one, no
fighting." She hurled the arm away, and the woman staggered several steps.
All three fixed their gazes on Judaia, the would-be attacker glaring.
"Rule two, no one speaks unless questioned by me. You may call me Herald.
Politeness has never displeased me." Judaia studied the women, guessing
she would get the most unbiased story from the satisfied observer. "You
there." She faced the quiet woman against the wall.
"Me, ma'am?" The youngster shook
back mousy looks, keeping a firm grip on the baby that supported its head. She
rose.
"What's your name?"
"Lindra, ma'am. Thirdwife of
Salaman." She avoided Judaia's eyes, keeping her gaze low, at the level of
the Herald's mouth.
"Is this your first baby?" Judaia
hoped Lindra would answer in the affirmative. She seemed no older than fifteen,
and Judaia hated to think the Holderkin stressed their women any younger.
"First live baby. Yes, ma'am."
Apparently Lindra finally absorbed Judaia's words, for she corrected. "I
mean, yes, Herald. I lost two others early."
"And you gave birth to the baby you're
holding?"
"Oh, yes, ma'am... Herald. I'm certain
of it."
The other two women fidgeted, obviously
fighting the need to hold their tongues. Lindra's response bothered Judaia. The
mention of certainty suggested exactly the opposite. A simple "yes"
seemed far more natural, so Judaia prodded for details. "What do you
remember?"
Now, Lindra met Judaia's gaze directly.
When it came to defending her child, she could clearly gather the gumption and
fire she otherwise lacked. "I carried twins; Herald. The first came out
easy, but he was dead." She gestured the bodies in the corner, tears
turning her muddy eyes moist. "She had to push around for the other. The
stress of the first, and the pain..." She winced. "I fainted. I
didn't actually see her take out my little girl, but I know she's mine, Herald.
A mother can tell." She hugged the child closer.
The nearby fight stole all veracity from
the latter statement, but Judaia let the observation lie. She saw no need to
use the Truth Spell here. She had more obvious subjects for it.
The curly-haired woman had picked up the
baby boy, clutching it with all the fierce tenderness that Lindra showed the
girl. The other woman balled her fists, obedient to Judaia's rules though she
clearly wanted to reclaim the child by violence.
Judaia placed a hand, both comforting and
warning, on the woman's empty arms. "I speak for the Queen now. My
decision here, no matter its end, will stand. Who holds the baby while we speak
will have no bearing on the judgment."
Judaia's words seemed to soothe the angered
woman. Her fingers uncurled, and her manner softened. Still, the took she turned
her curly-haired neighbor held venom.
Though she released her grip, Judaia kept
her attention on the empty-armed Hold woman. "Speak your name."
"I am Keefhar, Firstwife of
Kailer."
While the woman spoke, Judaia closed her
eyes, focusing on the verse she would need to run through nine times. She
pictured a fog with blue eyes, shaping the Truth Spell with a bent toward
muting it. Gradually, a blue fog took shape about Keefhar's head and shoulders.
As all subjects of the spell, she remained oblivious to it. Lindra seemed too
fixated on the baby girl to notice. The third women squinted, rubbing her eyes,
as if to blame the magical vapor on her own vision. Surely, none of them would
have seen such a thing before nor known its purpose. "Keefhar," Judaia
watched the blue fog closely. She had kept it sparse, which would make its
comings and goings more difficult to evaluate. She relied upon her Sight to
gauge the status of her spell. "Which baby did you bear?"
"The boy, Herald." Keefhar rolled
her gaze to the infant nestled in the others' arms. The blue haze dispersed,
indicating a lie. "The stillborn was hers." She jabbed a finger at
the curly-haired woman. The fog returned, as bright as at its casting. About
this, at least, she had spoken truth.
"She lies!" The woman indicated
screamed.
Judaia dropped the Truth Spell, swiftly
placing another on her only remaining witness. As weak as her power was, the
double casting would cost her a nasty overuse headache, but she pressed aside
consideration of consequences. She could tolerate pain as the price for a
competent first judgment.
"The boy is mine!" the
curly-haired woman shouted, the magical fog disappearing with her words. In her
rage, the Hold woman discarded Judaia's rules as well as her request for
manners. "The dead one is hers." Keeping one hand looped protectively
around the boy, she used the other to gesture disdainfully at her accuser. The
remnants of the Truth Spell did not return until after she finished speaking.
Clearly, she had spoken all falsely.
Judaia imagined the crisp, blue eyes of the
fog drawing closed, and the Truth Spell winked from existence. She kept her own
eyes open and alert for movement, not trusting the women to remain at peace
until she rendered her judgment. Her thoughts flew, bringing understanding of
the cause of the argument and why the girl-child had been spared from the tug
of war. The answer came with Martin's description: "Those people have a
different idea of justice and a woman's place." Others had told her that
the parents of girls paid dowries while a son's possessions and holdings
remained his own. Since men married many times, a son brought wealth to a
family, while daughters cost them dearly in wedding price.
The door opened, and Martin stepped inside.
"The midwife will live—"
Judaia waved him silent before he could
continue. The three Holderkin looked noticeably relieved, though whether glad
for the midwife's health or for escape from the punishment that would have come
with a charge of murder, she did not know or try to guess. She reached for the
baby boy, and the curly-haired woman relinquished him with obvious reluctance.
Keefhar smiled.
Judaia spoke. "In the name of the
Queen, I make the following judgment: The baby girl shall remain with
Lindra."
The women nodded, all apparently satisfied.
Martin stiffened, but true to his word, he said nothing.
Judaia continued. "As to the baby
boy..."
All eyes followed Judaia's every movement.
"... he was born to Lindra and will
remain with her." She handed the boy, too, to the youngest of the mothers.
Lindra smiled, cuddling the children, love
making her dark eyes sparkle. "But I thought..." she started.
Judaia did not let her finish. "Many
healthy babies are born floppy and blue." With no further explanation, she
left the birthing room to announce her decision to the elder whose slower pony
should have arrived in the time it took to hear and judge. She left Martin to
reinforce the finality of her decision. They would obey the word of a man in a
way they never would a woman, even a Herald.
The ride from the Borderland Holding
commenced in a silence far deeper than the previous one, but this time Martin
seemed the more pensive of the two. He did not hum or sing, and his eyes
remained fixed on the mound between Tirithran's ears.
Scarcely able to suppress a smile, Judaia
waited for Martin's inevitable assessment of her work. It did not come. In
fact, neither Herald passed a word until Martin drew rein in a quiet clearing
alongside the beaten track. He dismounted there, removing the bitless bridle
and bells from Tirithran's head. Judaia joined him, releasing Brayth as well.
The Companions grazed on the boughs and underbrush while Martin prepared a meal
in the same thoughtful hush he had assumed throughout the ride.
Finally, Martin broke the silence. "I
spoke in private with the midwife."
Judaia leaned against a thick, rough-barked
oak, nodding encouragement for him to continue.
"You gave only one of those babies to
its rightful mother."
Judaia nodded. "Lindra bore the boy.
The girl was Keefhar's baby."
Martin stared. "You knew?"
"Of course, I knew." Judaia met
Martin's green-gray stare that appeared even more muddled than usual.
Familiarity made the eyes beautiful, despite their indeterminate color. Guilt
twinged through Judaia for the pain his silence must have caused him in the
birthing room; he alone could have reversed her decision. But he had promised
not to interfere with her judgment, and his honor had held him to that vow as
strongly as to the other.
Martin seemed incapable of blinking.
"You intentionally gave a baby to the wrong mother? Are you insane?"
"Maybe." Judaia plucked at the
bark beneath her fingers, studying the fragments she pulled loose. "If you
find considering the welfare of the children insane. Having a womb doesn't make
a good or worthy mother. Bloodline isn't enough. No one, Martin, no one can
grow in the hands of a liar or in a home without honesty, loyalty, and trust.
As far as I'm concerned, Keefhar gave up her right to motherhood when she
knowingly traded her child for another." Once again, Judaia met Martin's
eyes, and she did not blink either. "Sometimes, Herald Martin..." She
grinned. "...sometimes what's right is more important than the truth or
any vow. Sometimes justice over honor."
Martin considered the words for some time.
Gradually, his lips framed a smile, and he pulled Judaia into a friendly
embrace that might become so much more. And all the awkwardness, at least, was
gone.
A Song For No
One's Mourning
by Gary A.
Braunbeck
Gary A. Braunbeck has sold
over 60 short stories to various mystery, suspense, science fiction, fantasy,
and horror markets. His latest fiction also appears in Future Net and Careless
Whispers. His first story collection, Things Left Behind, is
scheduled for hardcover release this year. He has been a full-time writer since
1992 and lives in Columbus, Ohio.
1
Sweat ran down the young man's back and his
ankle hurt severely—he'd leaped from the window on impulse and landed badly
after the scullery maid discovered him in the master's private chamber. She had
simply opened the door and walked in, her servant's eyes taking in
everything—the bags of silver coins clutched in his hands, the portrait set
haphazardly on the floor, the exposed secret cache in the wall, the
broken-locked, opened lid of the master's money box—before she thought to shout
an alarm to the others in the manor-keep, but by then the young man had tossed
a chair through the stained glass window, perched himself there like a raven
for only a moment before hearing other loud voices and footsteps thundering
toward the room, then jumped. Though careful to bend his knees, the impact was
nonetheless painful. It was a miracle he'd to made it to his horse without
losing more of the money, but make it to his horse he did, and Ranyart—as fierce
and strong a horse as ever the young man knew—galloped swiftly away from the
manor, through the streets, past the city gates where the guards and armsmen in
the towers, too busy with their own private Harvestfest celebrations, were
neither able to take up their crossbows nor lower the gate in time to stop him.
He hoped they heard his laughter as Ranyart carried him away into the darkness
of the forest road.
That had been several candlemarks ago, and
now both he and Ranyart were weary from the chase—and the armsmen had given
chase for a while before he lost them near the Westmark Hills. He was glad he
had been alone this time, claiming to be a simple minstrel who wished only to
entertain with song in exchange for a warm fire and a good meal; not only had his
being alone enabled him to flee quickly without having to make excuses to
anyone in whose company he might have been seen, but had such a disaster
occurred while he was with a troupe, the other members would now be suffering
for his actions.
And isn't that always the way, Father, he thought. Whenever the rich find
they've been bested by one of a "lower" heritage, they vent their
wrath on others whom they deem undeserving of mercy, or kindness or
understanding, let alone a chance to prove their innocence—and forget
about individual worth; in the eyes of the rich, we are all the same: valueless
fodder, so much human flotsam for them to treat with as much disregard or
contempt as they please. I remember the way Lord Withen Ashkevron of Forst
Reach treated you after those damned Herald-mages from Haven showed him what a
Gifted one could do with metalworking. I remember how the bastards all laughed
at you, and you were a good enough man to pretend you didn't hear the laughter
or see the smirks. But did any of the gentry, any of the courtiers ever bring
their trade to you again after that? No. Gods, how they killed your
spirit. Half my life you've been dead, and I miss you no less now than I did on
the day Mother and I had to watch the gravediggers toss your body in that foul,
disgraceful hole. Damn them! Damn then all!
The young man's name was Olias, a thief who
secretly possessed a meager measure of both the Bardic and Heraldic Gifts.
Often in his travels, when both money and food were running low, he would insinuate
himself into the good graces of various traveling minstrel troupes, enchanting
them with his storytelling and enviable abilities on the lute, rebec, and
cornemuse (his fiddle and pipe and tabor-playing, though not offensive to the
untrained ear, left something to be desired in his opinion); inevitably, the
leader of the troupe would invite him to travel and perform with them, which
Olias was more than pleased to do, accompanying them from city to village to
hamlet and hollow, playing for lords and ladies and peasants alike. Since he
never wished to endanger the members of the troupes (who were always kind to
him, despite their typically desperate circumstances), he took care to ensure
his thievery would appear to be the act of someone with whom the victim was
familiar. It seemed that every merchant and nobleman possessed their fair share
of enemies, and it was surprisingly easy to discover who among them was the
most envied or despised—as well as the names of those who harbored
resentment—and thus lay the groundwork for his deception. Sometimes it was as
simple as placing a few stolen coins outside the doorstep of his chosen
scapegoat (always another member of the gentry or a successful tradesman, never
one of the poor), making it appear that they, in their haste, had dropped some
of their ill-gotten treasure as they ran from the sight of their crime;
occasionally he would have to resort to more complex methods of duplicity in
order to avert suspicion from himself or the other players—employing his mild Gift
of Thought-sending to plant misgivings in others' minds—but the effect was
always the same: None had ever accused him or any member of his temporary
troupe of the robberies.
For Olias—lonely, angry, bitter, and
distrustful—it was a good life.
Good enough.
The road he now found himself traveling was
little more than a rutted tract of hard-packed dirt meandering through a
skeletal tunnel of near-barren tree branches. This Harvest had been an usually
cold one, and the trees, sensing this, chose to slumber earlier than many of
the people in Valdemar were accustomed to. Tendrils of mist snaked from between
the trees and lay across the road like a blanket of living snow, shifting,
curling, reaching upward to ensnarl Ranyart's legs for only a moment before dissolving
into nothingness. Overhead, the moonlight straggled through the branches,
creating diffuse columns of foggy light that to Olias' frayed nerves became
fingers of foggy light from a giant ghostly hand that at any moment would fist
together and crush him. He was aware, as if in deep nightmare, of shadows
following along from either side of the road—silent, misshapen things,
spiriting along with the mist for furlongs until he snapped his head toward
them. Then they would disappear in slow degrees, mocking his anxiety, melting
back into the darker, unexplored areas of the night-silent forest. These
shadows called to mind far too many campfire tales and old wives' stories of
the outKingdom and the Pelagirs, with its uncanny creatures—which was not all
that far from here.
Unhooking his armed crossbow from its
saddle-catch (were some of those shadows moving even closer!), the young
man wiped the sweat from out of his eyes, then leaned forward and whispered in
Ranyart's ear. "I can't speak for you, old friend, but I don't much care
for this stretch of road. I know that you're tired, but I promise you that if
you'll just quicken your pace and get us the hell out of here, the small bag of
sugar I have in my pouch is yours."
In answer, Ranyart broke from his amble
into a trot, then a gallop, and soon they passed through a clearing to emerge
on a more inviting expanse of road where the trees and mist and shadows were at
a comforting distance, and the moonlight shone all around, crisp and cold and
clean, forming no phantom fingers.
But there was in the air a strong stench of
burned wood and straw, of fire-scorched stone and something more; an odd,
thick, sickly-sweet aroma that—though it was not so mighty as to overpower the
other smells—seemed to be inexorably entwined with all the others.
Ranyart chuffed, shaking his foam-streaked
head.
"I know," replied the young man,
wrinkling his nose. "But we're both too tired to go any farther tonight,
and there is a mild wind blowing against us; at least that makes the
stink less offensive. We'll stop here until dawn and hope that the wind
continues to blow in our favor."
Beneath him, the muscles in Ranyart's back
rippled, as if the horse were shrugging its reluctant consent.
"Good. Then it's settled."
They made camp quickly, Olias taking care
to find a nearby stream so Ranyart could quench his thirst, then turning his
attention to building a fire and killing a pair of squirrels for this night's
meal. He arranged his ground-bedding under an imposing old sorrow tree (thus
called because its like, rare in these parts, was usually found in the distant
Forest of Sorrows), then lay the crossbow within easy reach before attaching
his dagger sheath to his uninjured ankle. As a further precaution, he slipped a
small stonecarver's blade beneath his sorry excuse for a pillow, then removed
the sugar from his pouch and gave it to Ranyart, almost smiling as he watched
his horse devour the brilliant-white chunks.
When Ranyart had finished, he stared at
Olias as if to ask, Is that all?
"I'm afraid there's none left, old
friend. You'd think after all these years, you would have learned a little
moderation."
Ranyart snorted once, loudly, then threw
back his head as if quite insulted, and stalked off to the side of the road
where he settled himself for the night.
"I'll remember this when you come
begging for your morning oats."
Ranyart snorted again, but this time less
indignantly—perhaps even with a touch of humility.
"You'll not charm me," said
Olias. "I've known you far too long to—"
The rest of it died in his throat when he
heard the sound of approaching hoofbeats, coming hard and fast from somewhere
down the ghostly road he'd left behind not half a candlemark ago.
The back of Olias' neck prickled and his
heart pounded against his rib cage. Somehow, the armsmen had found his trail.
2
"Hell to Havens!" he hissed, throwing aside his blanket and
grabbing up his crossbow, then rolling quickly to the right where a small,
downward-sloped patch of land created a furrow just big enough for a man to
hide himself. It was only after he was in position that he realized the sound
was that of a single horse, carrying a single rider (a sound he'd
trained himself to recognize). Perhaps one of the armsmen, in an attempt to
prove himself to the others, had stubbornly pursued him this far.
Olias looked at the crossbow in his grip,
and at the deadly, sharp, shiny silver tip of the arrow.
No. He wouldn't hurt this armsman, not in a
way that could either kill him or cripple him for life.
He held his breath, listening to the
near-frantic hoof-beats getting closer, and was wrenched from his concentration
when the campfire hissed, then snapped loudly, spitting sparks upward, a few of
which danced out into the center of the road, all but announcing his presence.
A careless fool's mistake, not dousing the
flames.
No time to worry about that now.
Pushing forward on his knees and biting
down on his lower lip to fight against the screaming pain of his wounded ankle,
Olias scrabbled on his belly like an insect up toward the campsite and grabbed
the quiver, slinging it over his shoulder and its strap across his chest, then
Sent a silent call to Ranyart, who was at his side in moments, bending low the
bulk of his massive body so Olias could snatch a coil of rope from one of the
saddle hooks. Craning to see if the rider was yet in sight, Olias quickly
disarmed the crossbow, slipping the silver-tipped arrow into the quiver and
removing a grapnel arrow in its stead. Tying one end of the rope to its stem,
he loaded the grapnel arrow into the crossbow and rearmed the firing mechanism.
That done, he took a deep breath, rolled twice to the left, came up on his
elbows, aimed at a large stone near the base of a tree across the road, and
fired.
The grapnel caught solidly, and from the
middle of the road it would be well-nigh impossible to see it unless one were
specifically looking for such a thing, which the armsman most likely would not
be, for—gods willing—he must be as tired as those he was pursuing.
Olias wound the remainder of the rope around
his right wrist, making certain that the portion lying across the road was flat
in the dirt and would not be seen until rider and horse were right on top of
it, and by then it would be too late.
Slipping back down into the cramped furrow,
Olias held his breath as the hoofbeats grew louder, closer, somewhat less
fierce and slightly slower than before; he wondered why the armsman wasn't
digging heels into the horse, forcing speed.
Still, it was running swiftly enough that
the rope, when he yanked it taut, should trip the horse and cause it to throw
its rider without permanently harming either of them.
The horse's hooves clattered against some
stones embedded in the hard-packed ground as it bolted from the forest and
neared the campsite. Olias grasped the rope with both hands now, winding it
once around his left wrist and threading it through his grip, then rose to his
knees and readied himself to pull—
—when the horse, nearly upon the trap,
stopped dead in its tracks, hooves sparking against stones, one front leg in
the air and bent at the knee—an almost absurd image, as if some wizard had
frozen the beast in mid-motion—then slowly, mist jetting from its nostrils,
began cantering backward.
The armsman had spotted the trap. Damn!
Disentwining his wrists from the rope as
quickly as he was able, Olias pulled another silver-tipped arrow from the
quiver and armed the crossbow, then struggled to his feet (Gods, the
pain in his ankle was agonizing!) and limped into the road, taking aim at the
rider.
"Let me see your hands, armsman, and
may the gods help you if—"
For the second time that night, the words
died in his throat.
The boy who sat upon the horse was no
armsman; he barely looked human. Even from this distance it was obvious to
Olias that the boy had been the victim of a brutal beating. Most of his face
and chest was covered in blood and wounds, his lower lip looked to have been
half-sliced away by a knife's blade, and one side of his face was so horribly
swollen that neither his eye nor part of his nose could be seen.
Olias snapped the crossbow to his side,
pointing the arrow toward the ground, and moved slowly forward, one hand
extended in a gesture of peace so as not to alarm the horse.
It was only as he came up beside the gray
mare that he saw the rest.
"Gods," he whispered. "Who did this to you,
boy?"
The rider made no reply.
Not only had the boy been beaten, not only
had he been cut and thrashed and (judging by some of the marks across his
exposed stomach) whipped until nearly dead, but someone had burned him, as
well. Clumps of ugly, flame-seared hair—looking more like pig's-bed straw than
anything that should be part of a human being's body—hung limply from the boy's
head, made all the more hideous by the contrast of its color against that of
the sickening, glistening, crimson—raw sections where his scalp had been either
sheared, pulled, or burned away from his skull.
Olias swallowed. Twice. Hard and loudly.
Over the years since his father's death,
Olias had worked feverishly toward hardening himself against others' pain and
misfortune. None had offered any comfort or sympathy to Father in his time of
need—nor to himself or his mother after Father's death—so he vowed that none,
no matter how pathetic, dire, or horrifying their circumstances, would ever
touch him that deeply again.
The next thought he blamed on weariness,
for this boy whom he had mistaken for an armsman nearly reached into his core
to wrest some small measure of tenderness... but Olias, well-practiced in this
particular art of self-defense, was able to quash the moment of vulnerability
by concentrating on the skill that had gone into securing the boy to his horse.
His hands had been bound tightly together
at the wrists and the bindings tied to the pommel of the saddle; there were no
stirrup irons but the stirrup leathers had been left in place, used to tie the
boy's calves to the saddle itself; he was belted thrice, two times at the
waist—once to the pommel, once to the high cantle, using rings on the saddle
meant for that purpose—and a third time around his neck. It was this last that
threatened to move something buried deep in Olias' heart, for the opposite end
of the leather strap had been split in two and each of the ends tied to the
boy's ankles, as if he were a hog being bound for slaughter.
Olias leaned closer, sniffing the leather.
Beneath the coppery scent of blood and the
charred aroma of flames and smoke, the scent of drenched hide drying was
unmistakable. Whoever had bound the boy to this horse had soaked the leather
straps, knowing damned well that as it dried it would shrink, tightening itself
around the boy's neck and slowly crushing his throat.
Why didn't you just kill him? thought Olias. What did this boy—barely
a boy, more child than boy—what did he do that was so unspeakable as to warrant
this kind of sick-making punishment, this... torture?
Olias was still lost along such paths of
thought when the boy turned his head downward—as much as the strap would allow
him to—and opened his undamaged eye, which was so startlingly silver Olias felt
a moment of awe tinged with fear.
"Ffrind-iau?" choked the boy. "Caredig
ffrind-iau?"
Olias puzzled over the words. He'd traveled
far through Valdemar, and had (or so he thought) encountered all of its various
languages—after all, Valdemar was a patchwork quilt of a dozen different
peoples escaping from a dozen different unbearable situations, and each of them
had their own unique tongue which naturally would undergo changes as the
various clans began to intermingle, but this boy was speaking in a language
Olias had never heard before. It might have been some kind of primitive hybrid
of Tayledras—Hawkbrother tongue (some of the inflections were similar)—but he
doubted it; Hawkbrother tongue didn't have so many guttural clicks, nor was it
nearly as musical as this boy's language. Under other circumstances, he
probably wouldn't have cared at all.
But despite his defenses, despite his not
understanding the words themselves, Olias Felt the pain and loneliness and fear
in the boy's plea.
He unsheathed his dagger and set about
cutting the straps, then lifted the boy (who was much, much larger than
he first appeared) from off the horse—and nearly collapsed to the ground when
the extra weight caused the bones in his wounded ankle to snap.
:Ranyart!: Olias Called, trying to balance himself on his other
leg.
Ranyart ran up beside him. Olias managed to
drape the boy over Ranyart's saddle, then guided both horses over to the
campsite where he promptly collapsed to the ground, clutching at his broken
ankle and snarling with pain.
The boy lifted his head, then pushed
himself up and slid slowly from Ranyart's back and stumbled over to Olias.
"Poen?" he asked, gently placing one of his scarred
and bloody hands on Olias's ankle "Cymorth poen?"
"Don't touch it!" shouted Olias, throwing back his head and
wincing. "Gods, please... please don't! I—"
The boy closed his good eye, then tightened
his grip. A strange bluish glow appeared under the boy's hand, quickly spilling
outward to encircle Olias' ankle. And before he could further protest or strike
out at the boy, Olias felt the broken bones and tendons instantly, painlessly
mend themselves. Moments later the boy helped him to his feet and Olias was
dumbstruck; the ankle was fine. The boy had healed him.
Looking up, he watched as the boy set to
work on his own wounds, the same bluish light emanating from his hands as he
touched first his head, then face, lip, throat, chest, and legs, finally
grasping each wrist in turn to remove the bruises and strap burns. Each time
his hands brushed over a different area, more of his body glowed with a
shimmering soft blue light until, for a moment at the end, he was encased in a
spectral luminance; but in an instant the light dissolved into his flesh and he
stood there, just a boy, far too large for his age but looking healthy and
unharmed... at least outwardly. Only time would tell how much damage had been
done to the boy's mind and spirit by whatever filthy, sadistic cowards had
unleashed their brutality on him.
No wonder they tied your hands so tightly, thought Olias. They couldn't chance your
healing yourself before the horse had carried you far away from them... that
is, if they even knew about your healing powers. Were they afraid of
something else, odd one? Were they aware of your powers, at all? Damn! What
does it matter and why should I care?
Still, the thought persisted: Why hadn't
they just killed him? Didn't it occur to anyone that some other traveler might
chance upon the boy and set him free? Wouldn't they know if that were to happen,
the boy might come back to seek vengeance?
The boy lifted his cherubic, smiling face
to Olias.
Gods, thought Olias, feeling almost silly: That was
not the face of one who would go seeking vengeance.
"Th-thank you," said Olias,
pointing down toward his ankle. "It feels... feels fine. It feels wonderful,
in fact."
The boy, his piercing, hypnotic silver gaze
never wandering from Olias's eyes, simply smiled more widely and nodded his
head.
"What's your name, child? Have you
a name?"
The boy cocked his head to the side, the
expression on his face puzzled.
Sighing, Olias stood up straight and patted
his own chest with both hands. "Olias. I am Olias." He
pointed at the boy. "What's your name?"
The boy grinned, then stood up straight,
patting his chest with both hands, and said, quite loudly, "Olias!"
Olias groaned, shaking his head. "No,
no, no! I am Olias. Me. That's my name!" He pointed
at the boy once again and raised his eyebrows in silent question.
The boy looked at him, opened his mouth to
speak but didn't, then snapped up his head, eyes widening with understanding as
he pointed to his chest and shouted, "L'lewythi!" Pressing his
hand against Olias's chest, the boy whispered, somewhat hesitantly: "Ffrind-iau.
Chi, ti L'lewythi's ffrind-iau, ydhuch?"
"Urn... yes," replied Olias,
nodding his head (for some reason, he sensed it was important to agree with the
boy at this moment). "Yes, of course. L'lewythi's ffrind-iau."
L'lewythi laughed, then embraced Olias
(nearly crushing his rib cage—gods, the child was strong!), patting his
back several times in a gesture of thanks and affection.
"You're... you're welcome. I
think," responded Olias, pulling himself away from the boy and checking
himself for internal bleeding, then pointing toward the fire where the squirrel-meat
was roasting on a spit over the flames. "Are you hungry?"
The boy furrowed his brow in confusion,
obviously no more familiar with Olias' language than Olias was with his.
Sighing, Olias rubbed a hand over his own
stomach. "Hungry? Do you want something to eat?"
The boy tilted his head to the side, then
shrugged.
His frustration growing, Olias took a
calming breath and said, "Rwy'n mynd I gael cinio. Gobeithio mai
ty-wydd braf gown ni?"
Then gasped and promptly covered his mouth
with his hand as the boy made a delighted sound, licked his lips, rubbed his
stomach, and nodded vigorously.
Did I just invite him to join me in his own
tongue? How in Havens could I do that—I've never heard this language before in
my life!
The boy, perhaps sensing the other's confusion,
touched a finger to his own mouth, then his head, then pointed toward Olias.
"You made me do that, didn't you?
You... you gave your language to me for that moment, didn't you?"
"Ydhuch! L'lewythi cymorth
ffrind-iau." He made
his way toward the campfire. "Bwuq!" he said, laughing as he
pointed to the roasting squirrels.
"Y-yes," stammered Olias. "Bwuq."
It seemed that was the boy's word for food.
He proved himself to be a most pleasant and
courteous meal companion, not taking more than his share of food and making
sure that Olias had all that he wanted. Though there had been only two
squirrels, it seemed to Olias that the layers of delicious meat on their
carcasses were enough to have come from ten squirrels.
A candlemark later, when both Olias and
L'lewythi were so full they couldn't eat another bite, it still looked as if
they had barely touched the food.
Adding more wood to the fire, then crawling
into his ground-bedding, Olias looked at L'lewythi and said (in his own
language), "I don't know where you came from or what, exactly, you are,
but I'm almost glad for your company—and believe me, I've not said that to
another human being in a long, long while. You're welcome to stay here with
Ranyart and me for the night."
The boy snuggled up against one of the
trees, folded his hands in his lap, and leaned back his head... but did not—or would
not, it appeared—close his eyes.
"I guess that means you're happy to
accept the invitation," whispered Olias under his breath, then lay back,
lute in hands, and strummed an old tune while staring up at the clear, starry
night.
From time to time, Olias would chance a
quick glance at his guest, and always the boy seemed to be fighting against
falling asleep.
Why do you not wish to rest? thought Olias. Are you frightened that
your dreams will force you to relive what they did to you? Or is it something
else, something you cannot express to me so that I'll understand?
He held his breath, momentarily opening his
senses to the night as the wind changed direction and the stench of fire,
smoke, and destruction grew stronger.
Out there, somewhere in the night, a great
violence had taken place. Olias was able to Feel the lingering resonance of the
destruction and brutality... and unspeakable terror. Closing his eyes and
focusing on the sentient threads, he Sensed the presence of something powerful
in slumber, something Otherworldly—no, not Otherworldly at all, but something
that came from beyond the Otherworld, something he couldn't quite grasp and
bring forward so that he might See and Understand.
Whatever it was, it was beyond any power
he'd ever encountered, and somehow it was connected to this boy.
What are you, my strange lostling... and
what did you do to deserve such a fate?
Then: You're nothing to me, so why
should I care? Each of us must deal alone with our demons. Don't count on
anyone's help, lostling, because you'll not get it. Tonight you were lucky, but
as far as I am concerned, come the dawn you are on your own.
As if he had both heard and comprehended
Olias' private musings, L'lewythi's face shadowed for an instant with a
soul-sick hurt that made him look even more helpless and pathetic and so very,
very sad.
Lest that look reach into his heart, Olias
turned his face away, returning his attention to his lute.
Alone, lostling, we are all alone, from
cradle to grave. Don't share your pain with me; I don't want to see it.
3
After a while—and without his being aware
of it—Olias had begun to play "My Lady's Eyes", a sentimental
song and one that he had always thought to be so much drivel, but it allowed a
minstrel to show off his fingering. It had been his parents' favorite song.
They had danced to it at their wedding.
Unexpectedly, Olias felt his throat
tightening as unwanted tears began to form in his eyes. Swallowing back the
emotions that were trying to surge to the surface, he laid the lute aside and
forced himself to think of his blunder earlier tonight in allowing the scullery
maid to panic him. He could have easily gotten past her and the others.
After all, he'd taken time to walk through the manor-keep and decide upon his
escape route, but for some reason, being discovered like that had unnerved him,
and that had never happened before. What did it matter, though? That fat,
arrogant, disgusting slug the servants called m'Lord was a lot poorer
now than he'd been before allowing the minstrel into his home. Though Olias
doubted the man would remain poorer for very long, he at least had the
satisfaction of knowing that the bastard was stewing in his own juices tonight,
cursing everyone and everything because he had been taken in by a common thief.
He sat up, rummaging around for the bottle
of wine, and took three deep swallows, then looked over at his companion.
L'lewythi, looking exhausted and
desperately in need of sleep, was still awake and staring at Olias, his face
betraying his concern.
Olias began speaking to the boy; he
couldn't stop himself. It was as if the spirits wandering this Sovvan-night
were forcing him to talk.
"I was thinking about—" No,
best not tell him what you were just this moment thinking about. After
all, a thief is a thief in any clan.
"I was thinking about my parents. My
mother was employed as an apprentice-seamstress at the manor-keep of Lord
Withen Ashkevron of Forst Reach. My father was the village metalworker and
blacksmith. I remember... I know this may sound odd to you—assuming you
understand a word I'm saying—but of all things, I remember his hands the best.
They were so large and powerful that when I was a child, I imagined that I
could curl up in either of his palms and sleep there. They were rough hands,
hard-callused and scarred, but his touch against my cheek was as gentle as
angel's breath. I remember the way he would come home after a day's labors and
scrub those hands until I thought he would scrape the flesh right off of them,
and whenever my mother would say to him, 'Why do you wash so angrily?' he would
show her one of his sad half-grins and say, 'It won't do for you to be touched
by anything so dirty and hard,' and my mother would laugh... oh, gods, I
miss hearing her laugh. If my father's hand so lightly against my cheek was the
touch of angel's breath, then my mother's laugh was their song. And the love in
their eyes whenever they would look at each other....
"Neither of them were Gifted in any
way; they weren't what I suppose you'd call particularly bright. They weren't
educated, but they were good people, fine people, decent and honest and
loyal. Don't misunderstand, each had their faults—Mother was often a little too
worrisome, which annoyed Father no end, and he, gods bless him, could
never seem to pay attention to anything besides his work for very
long—conversations with him were a test of your patience, trust me—the man
didn't know how to listen, and at times he and Mother argued over my
upbringing and how to manage their money well enough to keep the creditors at
bay... but they made certain that neither of them ever went to bed angry at the
other. I once asked my mother why, and she told me that Father had this fear
that were they to go to bed angry, one of them might die during the night and
the survivor would be left with unanswered questions and unresolved regrets. I
used to think that was funny until Mother told me that my father had once
exchanged harsh words with his father, then stormed out of the house
only to return the next morning and find that the old man had died in his
sleep. 'He never got the chance to apologize,' she said to me. 'He never got to
take it back. He's carried that sorrow with him for many years, and he wants to
make sure that none of us ever has to face that.'" Olias, shaking his
head, snorted a humorless laugh. "I always wondered why I never saw him
really smile. I don't think he felt he deserved to smile, not
after what happened with his father.
"Mother understood that about him, and
she accepted it as best she was able, and did everything she could to give his
heart some small measure of... of peace. Theirs was perhaps the most loving
marriage I have ever seen.
"Then one day some Herald-Mage-trainees
came to Forst Reach with Lord Withen Ashkevron's sister Savil. I found Savil
herself to be a remarkably kind and pleasant woman, but some of her trainees...
bah!—a more self-centered, arrogant bunch of brats I hope I never see!"
Absentmindedly, Olias picked up a nearby
stick and began tapping it against the neck of his lute. "Among those
Savil brought with her was a young man named Gwanwyn, who took great delight in
amazing the courtiers with his metalworking prowess—and as much as I hate admitting
it, his skill was impressive. Lord Ashkevron was suitably amazed that he
called for a contest between Gwanwyn and my father. 'I wish for a new sword,'
he said. 'One to rival even my armsmen's finest blades.' Until that night, my
father had fashioned most of the swords used by Lord Ashkevron's soldiers, so
few doubted that he would prevail. The only rule was that Gwanwyn could not employ
any magic during the competition.
"I remember all the people. I was very
young, so maybe there weren't as many as it seemed, but to my eyes half of
Valdemar turned out for the contest. My father—he'd never been comfortable in
large crowds—was nervous as a boy calling on his love for the first time, but
Mother... Mother eased his anxiety as well she could, telling him that no matter
the outcome, she would always love him. Dear, sweet, silly woman... as if love
could be enough.
"I'm not sure how it happened, but I'm
certain Gwanwyn cheated—he must have! He bested my father's efforts by
more than half a candlemark—no one could have fashioned a blade that
quickly without the use of magic, it just wasn't possible. Toward the
end, when he began to realize that Gwanwyn was winning, my father became
careless, and pulled his blade from the fire before it was ready for the
hammer, and the first strike snapped the metal in two. He'd never made that
mistake before, and I saw him die inside at the sight of those two halves lying
on the ground before him.
"The people watching all laughed. Gods,
I remember their laughter. It was such an ugly sound. Until that moment,
I'd never realized that people you called 'neighbor,' people you called
'friend,' could take such delight in your disgrace. Only the Heralds were
silent. My father was not a small man—he was perhaps one of the tallest men in
the city—but I could see him shrink under the weight of that ugly laughter.
"When he walked away that day, he was
looking at the ground. I don't believe I ever saw him look up again. They broke
his heart and crippled his spirit. After that day, none of the gentry ever
brought then' business to him again. By the time he died, he'd been reduced to
taking groom duties at one of the local stables. He never spoke much, except to
thank the stable-master for his position. Of all the pains that he had to
endure toward the end, the worst of it—though he would never say it aloud—was
the way people looked at him. With such... pity. Distaste and pity.
"Mother died shortly after we buried
Father. The grief and loneliness was too much for her. I tried, the gods know
how I tried, to fill the void left in her life by Father's death. I would play
for her at night—I'd always had a talent for music—but every song reminded her
of Father. There is some grief you never recover from, I guess.
"I took to thieving shortly before she
died. She'd become very ill and I knew she didn't have long left, and I was damned
if her body was going to be tossed into a pauper's grave like my father's,
I managed to steal enough to pay for a proper grave and marker, but I hadn't
enough for a new grave for my father. To this day his body still lies in that
pauper's field, and enough time has gone by that—though I can easily raise the
price asked by the grave-diggers—I have... forgotten the exact location of the
spot where his body was buried. I can't help but think that his spirit must be
saddened by that, for I know how much he wanted to rest by Mother's side."
He picked up the lute and stared at it.
"I will never forgive any of the gentry, any of the wealthy or the
highborn for what they did to my parents. Never. They think they are so far
above the rest of us, safe in their mansions. They are all the same in my eyes,
and I in theirs—who am I, after all? To them? No one. Well, damn them all to
hell, I say! I'll take from them what was denied my parents in life, and I'll
do with the money as I please. If I wish to spend it on food and drink and the
price of a woman in my bed, so be it. If I choose to give it away to beggars in
the street, then that is what I'll do! And may the gods pity anyone who
dares to try and stop me!" He angrily strummed the lute. "And
someday, I swear, I'll make Lord Withen Ashkevron suffer for his betrayal of my
father, and then I'll find Gwanwyn and I'll kill him. Slowly, so that he'll
know the pain my parents suffered because of his pride." He strummed the
lute once again, coldly and calmly, then lay the instrument aside lest he
damage it in his anger.
He looked toward L'lewythi. "Damn you,
as well, lostling. What is it about you that causes me to speak in an unknown
tongue? What is it that made me want to tell these things to you?"
L'lewythi only stared in silence, looking
more and more like some village idiot.
Olias groaned in frustration, then flipped
onto his side, facing away from his guest.
Gods! At times like this I wish there were
another place, another land, another world in another time where I could be rid
of them all, where I wouldn't have to look upon the faces of Valdemar and see
the ghost of my parents in everyone, in every place.
I wish. Gods, how I wish....
4
He awakened sometime later to the sounds of
rustling, and immediately drew his dagger from his ankle sheath and whipped
around, brandishing the weapon.
L'lewythi was standing by the tree, his
eyes closed, his arms outstretched, the fingers of his hands extending outward,
then curling toward him as if he were beckoning someone.
Olias watched dumbstruck as threads of thin
silver light danced around L'lewythi's fingertips, then reached out to encircle
a small bundle attached to the back of L'lewythi's horse. The ropes holding the
bundle in place untied themselves, the covering fell away, and the silver
threads wound themselves around something that looked like a glass pipe—only
this instrument was much larger than a pipe, easily the size of a man's
forearm, tapered at one end and open at the other. Inside, the glass had been
blown in such a way that several spheres, some larger than others, had formed
along its length. The instrument rose from the horse, cradled in silver
threads, and moved through the air to land gently in L'lewythi's grip. Smiling,
the boy sat down once again and rubbed his hands against a small patch of ice
near the base of the tree until the heat from his palms melted the ice
sufficiently to wet his fingers. Laying the glass pipe across his knee, L'lewythi
placed his fingers on the surface of the instrument. The spheres within began
to revolve and whirl, some slower than others, some so fast they could barely
be seen.
Olias couldn't tell how this was possible.
The spheres were obviously part of the pipe, yet each moved as if independent
of it.
L'lewythi began to finger the glass in much
the same way harp players plucked at the taut strings of their instruments, but
as he moved his fingers up and down the length of the pipe, each of the spheres
glowed—not any single color, but all colors, one bleeding into the next until
it was impossible to tell the difference between gold and red, red and gray,
gray and blue, and with each burst of color and combinations of colors there
came musical notes. The first was a lone, soft, sustained cry that floated
above them on the wings of a dove, a mournful call that sang of foundered
dreams and sorrowful partings and dusty, forgotten myths from ages long gone
by, then progressively rose in pitch to strengthen this extraordinary
melancholy with tinges of joy, wonder, and hope as the songs of the other
spheres and colors joined it, becoming the sound of a million choral voices
raised in worship to the gods, becoming music's fullest dimension, richest
intention, whispering rest to Olias' weary heart as the light moved outward in
waves and ripples, altering the landscape with every exalted refrain, voices a
hundred times fuller than any human being's should ever be, pulsing, swirling,
rising, then cascading over his body like pure crystal rain, and suddenly the
rain, the music, was inside of him, assuming physical dimensions,
forcing him to become more than he was, than he'd been, than he'd ever dreamed
of becoming. Olias dropped down to one knee, the sound growing without and
within him, and he was aware not only of the music and the colors and whirling
spheres of glass but of every living thing that surrounded him—every weed,
every insect, every glistening drop of dew on every blade of grass and every
animal in deepest forest, and as the song continued rising in his soul, lavish,
magnificent, and improbable, Olias Heard thoughts and Sensed dreams and
Absorbed myriad impressions as they danced in the air, passing from spirit to
mind to memory with compulsive speed and more sensory layers than he was able
to comprehend, lifting everything toward a sublime awareness so acute, so
alive, so incandescent and all-encompassing that he thought he might burst into
flames for the blinding want underneath it all.
It was the closest thing to splendor he'd
ever known.
L'lewythi lifted his hands from the pipe,
but the music didn't immediately stop; instead, it faded away in degrees, one
layer of sound absorbed into the next until, at the end, there was only the
original note, pure and easy, sighing release like a breath rippling by.
Olias covered his face with his hands and
took several deep breaths in an effort to still the pounding of his heart, then
lifted his head and opened his eyes to daylight.
Daylight.
In a place he didn't recognize, barren of
trees and bush. Ranyart was gone, as was L'lewythi's horse and the campsite,
even the road.
"W-what... what have you
done?" he croaked.
L'lewythi's only response was to smile,
then turn and walk away, gesturing for Olias to follow.
The ground—mostly sun-browned mud covered
in cracks—was much firmer than it appeared at first glance, though the terrain
was far from level. They began ascending a hill and were met by a strong,
steady wind soaring down, carrying with it the first stinging spatters of rain—yet
the sky above was blue, the clearest Olias had ever seen.
He doubled his efforts to catch up with
L'lewythi and continued climbing, blinking against the sea spray (not rain,
after all) until the ground leveled off and he found himself standing at the
top of a jagged overhang. Looking to each side, he was struck not only by the
vast expanse of the cliffs upon which they were standing, but by their beauty,
as well.
Silvery clouds rolled in above their heads,
twirling and turning like banners in a breeze, moving quicker than any cloud
formations Olias had ever seen, winding around one another and spinning in
place. He opened his mouth to speak, and L'lewythi silenced him by placing a
finger against his own lips. An odd noise caused Olias to shake his head: the
sound of a million insects buzzing. Here atop the cliffs, the buzzing merged
with the sounds of the sea and became clearer, more defined, not a buzz at all
but the combined whispering of a million different voices speaking in as many
tongues. Some were complex and excited, others low and monosyllabic, still
others a combination of vaguely recognizable words that degenerated into animal
clicks and whistling and yaps.
"What are those... those voices? Those
sounds?" shouted
Olias over the roar of the rushing waters below.
Again, L'lewythi raised a finger to his
lips, then pointed out to sea.
The waters rumbled and churned, crashing
against the base of the cliffs with the sound of shattering glass. The
vibrations rocked upward through layers of stone and sand, shaking Olias to his
bones.
Then, with stupendous force and thunderous
volume, the spinning tower of silver clouds shot down into the sea, churning as
it struck the surface and creating great, revolving waves of frothy spray
before vanishing beneath the waters. The froth left in its wake formed a circle
that spun around and around and around, its speed becoming frantic as it formed
an ever-widening and deepening whirlpool.
The atmosphere crackled with power.
Olias covered his ears against the
shrieking winds and watched as the whirlpool turned inside out, rising like a
geyser. Atop the foaming fount appeared a shining white stallion with an opal
mane, its front legs lifted high, heraldic, its belly the curve of the moon,
the rest a silken fish scaled from chest to tail like a shower of silver coins.
The churning fount surged across the sea,
the glorious creature riding the crest, its legs pumping, mane flowing in the
wind. As it neared the cliffs, the fountain of water slowed and began to curve
downward, the spray spinning off, lowering the creature until it hovered
directly at the edge of the overhang.
Olias couldn't speak; the eyes of the
creature demanded silence.
The creature threw back its head and opened
its mouth. A soft, nearly imperceptible sound rose from deep in its chest, a
clear, crisp ping! as if someone had flicked a finger against a crystal
goblet. The sound—so much like the music L'lewythi had played earlier—grew in
volume and, it seemed, even density, assuming a physical form invisible to the
eye yet filling the air, enveloping Olias in a liquid-armor numbness, drugging
him like a frosty sip from a Healer's herb cup but allowing him to maintain
wakefulness as the geysering fount slowly shifted sideways, moving the creature
until its face was inches from his own. The exalted sound, the wondrous lone
crystal note sung in response to the call from L'lewythi's glass pipe, filled
Olias' center, then suddenly split apart, becoming night stars that in turn
became a symphony of musical notes even more unbearable in their purity than
the music L'lewythi had created, and Olias realized that what he was hearing
was the second verse to L'lewythi's song, a song of mourning, and rejoicing, a
song meant for no one and everyone, but in that instant Olias chose to think of
it as his, this chaste glory, this innocence, this music. A song for no one's
mourning, sung only for him to honor the memory of his parents and all they had
dreamed of. He hugged himself, dropping to his knees and rocking back and
forth, the spuming foam covering him like lather. He was agonizingly aware of
the swirling voices, the unknown languages shifting forward, dislodging
themselves from his mind and themselves becoming tones. The first crystal note
the creature had sung swam forward until it found its matching language-tone,
and the two of them merged—a sharp sting in Olias' ears—and were
translated—
—"Pwy fydd yma ymhen can
mlynedd?"—
—into his own language—
—"Who will be here in a hundred
years?"
Olias' torso shot straight up, his eyes staring
into the unblinking golden disks of the creature's gaze.
"Gods" he whispered.
:Greetings, Olias.: said the creature. :My name is Ylem. You
should feel honored. L'lewythi doesn't bring many others to this place.:
:Where am I?: asked Olias silently.
:You are where you wished to be: another
place, another world, another time. You are in a place that lies between
Valdemar and the Otherworld, created by one who feels he has no place in
either; only here can he feel some sense of home. You needn't worry about
Ranyart. Were you able to cross through the veil that separates this world from
Valdemar, you would find him only a few feet away from you.:
:I don't understand.:
:Perhaps, in time....: But Ylem did not finish the thought.
After the first merging of tones, the
others happened quickly and easily. A note sung by Ylem would find its match in
a language-tone, the two of them merging and translating in Olias' mind until
he could not only hear the other languages spoken in their native tongue but
understand them, as well.
Ylem leaned to the side, kissed L'lewythi's
forehead, then whispered something in his ear.
Try as he did, Olias could not Hear what
the creature was saying.
Ylem was in front of him again, hooves
pressing against Olias' shoulder in a gesture of blessing. Then, releasing a
triumphant crystal cry, the creature spun around, its tail snapping in the air,
and sailed atop the fountain back out to sea, diving downward and disappearing
beneath the waters—
—but not before Speaking one last time to
Olias.
:Take care, Olias, and realize if you can
that you are not the
only one in this place who has known soul-sickness and grief. Keep your anger
near. You will need it—but not for the reasons you may think.:
For several moments afterward, Olias could
only kneel there, shaking.
Then a voice, a small, quiet child's voice
asked, "Are you all right?"
Olias looked up as L'lewythi placed a hand
upon his shoulder.
"Are we speaking in my language, or in
yours?" asked Olias.
"Can you understand me?"
"Yes."
"Then what does it matter?"
Olias struggled to his feet, gasping for
breath. "Where are we?"
"In the Barrens of my world,"
said L'lewythi, pointing first to his head, then his heart, then spreading his
arms in front of him. "I made it, I dreamed it. Do you like it?"
Olias rubbed his forehead. "I... I
don't know. But so far, what I've seen has been... gods...."
L'lewythi, now looking more like an
overgrown child than ever, laughed a child's laugh, grabbed Olias' hand, and
led him away from the cliffs. They stumbled down a sharp slope toward a pampas
of richly green grass leading to a field where tall corn stalks brushed back
and forth through the air. To Olias, everything smelled like lavender—which to
him had always been the scent of his mother's skin, left there by the soap she
bought from a local tradesman.
They moved toward the entrance to a grove,
but as they neared it, Olias saw there were no trees beyond the few dozen that
rose before them, arranged in two opposing rows, between which stood a stained
glass archway.
Olias slowed his steps.
Something about this was familiar, but he
didn't know why.
The trees were as tall as a castle's tower,
each with a thick black trunk. The branches of each tree were obscured by onion
layers of bleak blue leaves which collectively blossomed into human faces, each
one turned skyward and staring up through milky, pupilless eyes. Every face
wore the pinched, tight expression of concentrated grief, and as the wind
passed through the trees, the faces opened their mouths and moaned deeply,
steadily, mournfully.
L'lewythi looked upon them as if they were
old friends.
Olias whispered, "They sound as if
they're in pain."
"They are, but they're used to it.
They're Keening-woods, and this is what they do."
Keeningwoods, thought Olias.
And then: the Forest of Sorrows!
Looking backward, he began to see a
pattern. L'lewythi had taken various parts of Valdemar and transposed them into
this place the same way a skilled musician would transpose one theme into
another. The Barrens could very well have been L'lewythi's version of the
Border—Ylem's uncanny form attested to that, and Ylem itself could very well
have been based partly on the legends of the Border's creatures, and partly on
the Companions, the sea taking the place of Companion's Field, and here the
Keeningwoods replaced the Forest of Sorrows.
It both made sense and did not.
Of course a child like L'lewythi would have to build upon things
he already knew, and who in Valdemar didn't know of the Companions or their
field, or the Forest of Sorrows, or countless other beings and places? (Some
part of him shuddered inwardly at the thought of what a child might do with the
concept of the outKingdom or the Pelagirs.)
Pointing toward the Keeningwoods, Olias
asked L'lewythi, "Why do they make such an anguished sound?"
"To remind all travelers that there
are only three things that really matter, people you love, your memories, and
sadness." Such a wistful look in his silver eyes as he said this!
They passed under the Keeningwoods and
through the archway, emerging on the threshold of a resplendent stone city
where a raucous band of black-winged children flew past them, all smiling and
greeting L'lewythi by name.
"They're my friends," said
L'lewythi. "I like having friends. Even if I had to... make them up...."
Just outside the city, they came to an
ancient bridge made of sticks and bones. When they reached the middle,
L'lewythi stopped and pointed over the side.
Beneath the clear, stilled surface of the
turquoise water was a series of evenly spaced, hollowed boulders, each with a
transparent sheet of glass attached to the front. Inside each of the
boulders—which weren't boulders at all, Olias saw upon closer examination, but
glass spheres like those within L'lewythi's strange pipe, only covered in moss
and isinglass—sat a claylike lump. Some were shapeless blobs, others more human
in shape, some were skeletal, others so corpulent their forms could barely be
contained. Still others were merely hand-sized, featureless fetuses. All of the
figures huddled with knees pulled up tightly against their chests.
None of them seemed complete. Their dark,
sunken eyes stared blankly at the floating weeds and golden fish swimming by.
"You see them?" asked L'lewythi.
"Don't they look safe?"
"No," whispered Olias. "They
look imprisoned."
"Oh, no, no, I'd... I'd never do
anything like that. I don't like feeling lonely, and I know that they
feel the same way, so I made sure that the water is filled with stories and
music to keep them company."
"Why do you want them to feel safe?"
"Because it's... it's nice to feel
that way. I don't want them to be lonely. Lonely is cold. I don't like the
cold. There's so much cold, sometimes. Don't you ever feel cold?"
"Most of my life."
"That's sad."
"No, it isn't. It's just the way that
is. Your Keeningwoods weep; I feel cold."
"But not here?"
Olias shrugged. "No, this is... this
is fine." He looked down once more at the beings in the water. "How
long will you keep them this way?"
L'lewythi stared down at his feet. "I
guess... I don't—I mean, until...."
"Until when?"
"Until I decide what to make out of
them."
Olias stared at his companion, then said,
very slowly, very carefully, "How did you come by this power? I've heard
of no Herald-Mage who possesses such abilities. What... empowered you?"
"I don't know. My dreams, I guess. I
dream a lot. Sometimes... I don't have a mother or father. If I ever did have,
I can't remember. Mostly I live in the stables of my village. The grooms there
are kind to me. They make sure that I have food and blankets." He stood a
little taller, a little prouder. "I sweep up after the horses. I do a good
job, the stable-master says so. I have a fine feather pillow. The
stable-master's wife made it for me. She says I'm a nice boy, and it's a shame
the other children won't... won't play with me."
Olias almost laughed at L'lewythi's
referring to himself as a child. Perhaps in his mind, yes, but his body was
that of the strongest armsmen. A child's mind in a warrior's body.
But... a stable-hand? Gods! Were they in a
place such as Haven, a boy with L'lewythi's Gifts would be treated with the
deepest respect and awe. No one would dare think to make a Gifted one sleep
among the horses.
"L'lewythi," said Olias, slowly
and carefully, "why were you made to sleep in the stables?"
"Because no one would take me into
their home."
"Even though they knew of your
powers?"
L'lewythi stared at him for a moment, then
looked down at the ground and shook his head. "I never... never understood
why I could do some of the things I could—can do. I thought they might be bad
things, some of them, so I never... told anyone. I never showed them."
"But certainly there must have
been..." Olias sighed, puzzling for a moment over how to say this.
"There must have been people in your village who suffered, either from
sickness or injury. Children, gods save us! Certainly there must have
been children who fell ill and might have died if—"
"Oh, yes! There was one child, a
little girl, who became so sick with fever that no one thought she would live
if a Healer were not sent for. But I made her better."
"How, if no one knew?"
A bird—strangely metallic in coloring—flew
overhead at that moment, and L'lewythi waved his hand toward it. Its wings went
limp and its body began to plummet toward the ground, but a few seconds before
it would have struck the earth L'lewythi waved his hand once again and the
bird—wrenched from its trance—frantically flapped its wings and, screeching,
flew away.
"That's how I did it," said
L'lewythi. "I can make people sleep, or not see me. That's how I got into
the little girl's bedroom and made her all better. Everyone in the village,
they said it was a miracle, a blessing from the gods."
"And anytime someone in the village
needed healing, you... you made them sleep or not see you?"
"Yes."
Olias nodded his head. "Did you cast
this spell over only those you helped, or did you—"
"The whole village."
"Everyone?"
L'lewythi nodded his head.
"That way I'd be sure no one
could see me."
"Ah."
"I like helping them and no one
knowing. It gives me nice dreams sometimes, and sometimes when I feel lonely,
I'd think about the little girl and smile. And it's nice in the stables,
really, it is. I like it."
"I'm sure you're a fine
stable-hand." Surprisingly, Olias found that he meant it.
"But the other people in the village,
they don't... they don't talk to me. The other children tell me that I'm too
big and... and ugly, and no one wants to play with a foundling—that's what I
am. It makes me feel... feel bad sometimes because I don't know where I came
from or... or anything. So when I finish sweeping at night, I like to dream,
even when I'm awake. And if I dream hard enough, the dreams, they sometimes
come out of my head and become real. And the people in my dreams, they're
always my friends. Except for Gash—you don't want to meet him. He's mean. And
he always wants me to tell him what he is. He says that if I can ever do that,
if I can tell him what he is, then he'll go away and never come back. I try to
guess, but I'm never right, and then he destroys things. Don't be scared,
though, because he's never come around these parts."
Oh, you poor, simple-minded thing, thought Olias. Has the world treated you
so wretchedly that even in your dreams you invent one who torments you, who
makes you feel so alone and sad and worthless? Gods—did you do so out of
choice, or has your heart been so brutalized that you simply think it's natural
for someone to abuse you?
Unable to find the words which would
adequately express what he was feeling, Olias reached out and placed his hand on
L'lewythi's shoulder.
Smiling, L'lewythi placed his hand atop
Olias' and asked, "Are you... do you like it here?"
"Yes, L'lewythi. I think it's very
nice. I think it's splendid."
The boy's face beamed at this mild praise. "Really?
Would you like to see more?"
"Very much so, yes."
"Are you... do you want to be... I—I
mean—"
"Yes," whispered Olias. "I
will be your friend."
He could have swum a hundred raging rivers
then on the memory of L'lewythi's smile. How strange it was, to feel an
attachment after so many years done; how strange to feel some of the
soul-coldness fading away.
But somehow, here in L'lewythi's odd
world-within-a-world, it seemed... right.
How strange, to feel affection for another
human being.
How strange, indeed.
Dear Father, dear Mother, what would you
think of your boy now if you could see him? Lost in a place that doesn't really
exist, befriending a simpleton in whose hands his destiny evidently rests?
What would you think?
5
Once over the bridge the land became flat
and hard and dusty. As they walked beside one another, Olias and L'lewythi
spoke of their childhoods, of games and tales and small wonders, of the animals
they'd played with and the places they'd seen, and it seemed to Olias that, as
they spoke, some part of the world sang a song of rejoicing, of second chances
and hope renewed, a Bardic ballad of two lifebonded friends meeting for the
first time, and of the simple, untainted glory of learning to trust.
"I can see why you like it here so
much," said Olias. "It must be difficult for you to leave."
L'lewythi touched his head, then his heart.
"I don't leave, ever. It's always here, with me. Even when I'm gone."
The abstract wisdom in those words caught
Olias by surprise. Could it be that L'lewythi was not as dim as people thought?
They came then to another section of the
shoreline. The sea lapped at the edge of their feet, playfully, as if
acknowledging their new bond and giving its blessing.
They came to rest on a large boulder, worn
down by time, sea, and the seasons until its shape bore a humorous resemblance
to a giant king's throne. Lying back, Olias allowed the sea mist to anoint his
face, and felt even more at home.
"L'lewythi?"
"Hm?"
"Could you please tell me what
happened to you—I mean, who... who hurt you? Who tied you to that horse?"
L'lewythi stared out at the sea, then
looked down at his hands. "I... I don't know why I can do these things. I
just know that I can. I play my glass pipe, and the music brings me here. It's
so nice here, everyone's so good to me, they're... they're happy to see
me. No one in Valdemar treats me this way, that's why I come here all the time,
that's why I made this place, so I could go somewhere where people would be
nice to me."
"I know, I understand that much,
but—"
"I didn't mean for it to
happen!" he shouted, eyes filling with tears. The sudden violence of
his emotion shocked Olias, who was so startled he nearly cried out.
As L'lewythi spoke, his voice became louder
and even more childlike. Beneath every word his pain, deeper than Olias had
imagined, came snarling to the surface. It was the panicked voice of a child,
lost in the night, hands outstretched in hopes that someone kind would take
hold of him and protect them from the darkness and pain and make the fear go
away, a pain that asked, in its own way: Please, please show a little
kindness, a little tenderness.
"S-s-somet-times, when I'm asleep,
sometimes the dreams, they come out of my head and I can't make them do what I
want because I'm asleep and I don't know that they've come out! I
d-don't mean for it to happen, but it just happens sometimes. It's never been a
bad thing before, but the other night... I was so tired! I'd worked hard
and... and I was so tired! And when I fell asleep, Gash came out—and he's so
mean! He hurt a lot of people in the village. He burned down some of the
other stables and killed the horses, and th-th-then he, he started killing
everyone. I woke up when I heard the screaming, but it was too late. I
couldn't stop him from killing everyone because I was asleep! That's never
happened to me before. When I woke up, Gash went back into my head, but he'd
been so mean by then. And the people, they knew that it was me that had brought
Gash into the village because a... a Herald was there, and he said he
sensed that Gash had come from me. He... he tried to make them all understand,
but they didn't. They all came after me and they... they hurt me! I
mean, I've been hurt before—some of the other stable-boys, they like to hit me
and call me names—but this time it w-was different. The Herald tried to stop
them but there were too many. They hurt me for so long, and they screamed at
me, and some of them even laughed like they were enjoying it. I tried to tell
them that I'm not a bad boy, I'm not, I didn't mean for it to happen, but they
wouldn't listen to me, they just kept hitting and spitting and then they burned
me and... and..." He doubled over, clutching at his stomach, the sobs
racking his body—deep, soul-shattering sobs as the grief and fear and confusion
dragged rusty steel hooks across his body all over again. Then he fell
backward, pulling his knees up to his chest and wrapping his arms around his
knees, convulsing.
Olias climbed over to him, taking L'lewythi
in his arms as the boy wept even harder, his next words coming in broken
bursts: "I didn't... mean to h-hurt anyone... I d-didn't... I
didn't...."
"I know," whispered Olias,
stroking L'lewythi's hair. "I know."
"I j-just wanted them to know... I
wouldn't have... have done any of it... I wouldn't have dreamed another world
l-like this if... if I could just tell Gash what he is, he'd go away, you see?
And th-then m-maybe I could have a friend... just one, that's all... just one
friend—"
"You have one now. I will be your
friend for the rest of our days, L'lewythi. There, there, take deep breaths,
deep, there you are, hold onto me, that's it, hold on, I won't let go, I won't
leave you alone, ever, I swear it on my parents' graves, I swear it!
You'll never be lonely again, never—and no one will ever harm you from this day
forward, not while I'm around... it's all right, shhh, there, there, go on, go
on and cry, that's right, let it go, let it go..."
He leaned down and kissed L'lewythi's
sweat-soaked forehead, then brushed back his hair and held him even tighter,
rocking back and forth, feeling strong—and it was good to feel this way for
someone after so long. The sudden rush of affection was dizzying, almost
overpowering, but he didn't care. He could protect this boy, this sad, gentle
boy who wanted nothing more than acceptance, something Olias himself had
secretly wished for since the day he buried his mother—but instead of trusting
others he had foolishly chosen to hide his loneliness behind a scrim of anger
and bitterness.
It was then that Olias looked behind them
and saw the wall of stone, an ancient ruin nearly overgrown with moist red
vines. Sculpted into the wall was a woman's face. Her eye sockets were empty,
raven-black ovals, and her mouth, opened as if calling out for some long-lost
love, was the entrance to a cave. It was a face which held so much unspoken
pain and grief that her expression alone would have been enough to move even
the hardest of hearts, but that is not why Olias' eyes began to fill with
tears.
The face was that of his mother.
Turning away, he stared into the distance
and realized that they had walked a straight path since leaving the Barrens. He
knew this because he could still see the Keeningwoods from here. As he stared
at them, they seemed so much closer—at least in his mind's eye—and his troubled
heart grew even heavier, for now all of them wore his father's face—and not the
face he'd known as a child, not the robust, labor-reddened, strong face of a
hearty man. No, this face was the same one he'd put on the day of his defeat by
Gwanwyn and never taken off, even in death. This was the face of a
broken-hearted, disgraced man whose value had been diminished even in his own
eyes.
Why, dear gods; can you tell me why even
here our grief haunts us? Can you make me understand why our souls cannot find
a measure of peace?
As if in answer, a great rumbling came from
the depths of the dark cave.
Then the echo of even darker laughter.
"...Gash..." whispered L'lewythi,
clutching Olias' arm.
There was no time to run. Already Olias
could see the thing's shape shifting forward from the depths of the earth,
moving toward the light, and bringing with it a smell that was at first musty
and stale like the odor from a long-closed chest whose lid has suddenly been
forced open. The odor grew ever stronger, rancid and sickening, the stench of
bloated carcasses rotting under a blazing sun.
Its step shook the ground, and when it at
last emerged from the cave, it had to bend over, it was so tall, thrice the
size of the tallest tower.
It was worse than any nightmare.
Gash was not one, but two soldier-creatures
fused together. The first walked on reed-thin legs while the other grew out of
its back, a torso whose head sat far above that of its carrier, with one
twisted, grotesquely long arm that reached nearly to the ground, its misshapen
bulk held upright by a pulsing black sack growing from between the carrier's
shoulders. The shimmering gray skin had the jagged texture of rough stone,
though not as dark. Its legs scraped together as it walked, loosing small
clouds of chalk dust. The weight of the thing growing from its back forced the
carrier to walk hunched over and in obvious pain. The bodies looked to have
been once covered in armor that some terrible conflagration had melted to their
skin.
The carrier looked at Olias and smiled, its
pulverized lips squirming over rotted needlelike teeth. Its face was an
abomination of all nature. Countless boils and leaking, diseased wounds covered
its cheeks, and the sunlight reflected against the stone-sized tumors that
buried its left eye. Its entire face was covered in a maze of something that
looked like a spiderweb of hairless flesh.
When it spoke, it was in a voice filled
with phlegm and corruption.
"Ah, a brave one," it spat.
"I do so like brave ones. They die so well."
Olias couldn't move. L'lewythi had gone
into some form of seizure, his body stone-rigid and still, his eyes rolled back
into his head, exposing only the whites.
Olias thrust out his dagger, the only
weapon he had. Against Gash's colossal form, it looked pathetic, a sad joke.
"You'll not need that if you can tell
me what I am."
Olias gently set L'lewythi aside, then
stood. "And if I cannot?"
Gash tossed back both its heads and
released a mad, high-pitched, cackling laugh, then balled one of its hands into
a fist and threw forth a fireball that slammed into the sea, hissing.
"Then the next one will be for you. Now, look me in the face, boy, and
tell me what I am."
Olias stared, long and hard and
unblinkingly.
It seemed to him that both parts of Gash
were as familiar as everything else he'd encountered thus far. The
carrier—brutal, cold-hearted—could well have been a perverted form of himself,
of his soul, of what it might some day become; the other—so blank-eyed and
vacant—very easily might be another form of L'lewythi.
But not one of his choosing, came the thought. No; that is how others
have seen him, how they have made him feel inside; hideous and freakish. The
boy is Gifted, after all; those Gifts are raw and undisciplined, so he would be
susceptible to others' unspoken perceptions. Is it so hard to imagine that some
secret part of himself has come to view himself as other have—and not
only that, but has done so without his even being consciously aware of it?
If that is so, then why do you see yourself
in the carrier? What is it about that thing, this place, the faces of Mother
and Father that—
—he lowered the dagger to his side—
—as around him he heard the distant echoes
of L'lewythi's song, plaintive and sorrowful and simmering with ethereal
beauty—
—and like a seed becoming a root becoming a
sprout becoming a blossom, the answer came to him as, one by one, the pieces of
L'lewythi's painful puzzle fell into place.
"I know what you are," said Olias
through clenched teeth. "You are loneliness, and grief, and the death of
dreams. You are the sickness which taints the spirit, and the helplessness
which breaks the heart. You are fear and cold darkness, doubt and regret. You
are envy and avarice and the lies we tell ourselves to excuse our cowardice or
selfishness. You are every cruel word, every unkind thought and act of violence
ever brought into the world. You are the weeping of mothers over the bodies of
their children, the blood of soldiers spilled in battle, the last gasp of the
starving in the streets. You are this boy's misplaced anger and confusion, and
you feed on his sadness. You are my father's disgrace and the thing which
swallowed my mother's laughter. You are the blackness of my soul, all of my
hate and lust for vengeance come to life, and in your diseased gaze I can see
what my spirit might one day become. You are my weakness and failures—all weakness
and failure... but most of all, you are jealous."
Gash snarled. "Jealous? Of whom?
And why?"
"You are Pain, and you are jealous of
us—not just the boy and me, but any human being who can forget for a while that
you are real. You might be a part of our lives, but we can sometimes forget you
exist. We can listen to music, or tell our tales, or dance in the waters as
they lap the shoreline, or we can steal from the wealthy, or flee into the
night where we meet a new friend. We can drink wine and eat fine food and sleep
with chambermaids who pleasure us beyond imagining... or we can simply lie back
and stare into the flames of a campfire and revel in the unadorned glory of the
night stars. Ah, yes, we can forget about you and still go on living, but you,
Gash, who are Pain and Grief and Loneliness, you can never, for one
moment, forget about us! You wish you could, but you can't, no matter how much
you try.
"And that is why you hate us so, and
why you are jealous!"
"Go away," said Olias, dismissing
the monstrosity with a wave of his hand. "You no longer have any hold over
this boy or me."
"Damn you, thief!"
"But a thief no more. From this day, I
will protect this boy, and I will provide for him as best I can with what
meager Bardic and Herald Gifts I possess, with honor and honesty, hurting no
one. And if I can somehow make myself worthy, I will travel to Haven and ask
the Herald-Mage Savil to teach me discipline so that I in turn might teach it
to my friend.
"And you can be certain, Gash, that
neither I nor L'lewythi will think of you very much at all."
Gash turned around and stormed back toward
the cave, but with each step it took, some part of its body fell to dust.
"I am not the last of my kind,"
it screamed back at him. "What created me can easily create others. You
would do well to remember that, thief!" Then, turning to face him as its
legs exploded into rubble, it gave one final, hideous grin, and hissed, "I'll
remember you to your mother and father. I have them in my belly."
"No, you don't," said Olias.
"But you wish I believed that."
What remained of Gash froze, unmoving,
unspeaking, then cracked, broke apart, and fell to ruin.
When the sand and dust clouds died down,
Olias looked to see that the woman in the wall was gone.
In the distance, the Keeningwoods were
simply trees. No faces, no anguished sounds.
L'lewythi was still unconscious, but the
seizure had passed. Olias knelt down and gently lifted his friend, carrying him
as he would a newborn baby, walking slowly along the shoreline toward the
bridge which would take them back through the stone city, then to the Barrens
and cliffs beyond.
In his heart, he knew they could not stay
here, no matter how much they might wish to. This had been a hiding place, a
sanctuary of sorts for their wounded souls. Now that they had each other,
neither would ever need it again.
But the ability that went into the creation
of such a place—a world between worlds—that was desperately needed in
Valdemar. To think of the suffering such a Gift could erase...!
Olias leaned down his head, pressing his
cheek against L'lewythi's.
"You'll be safe now," he
whispered. "I promise. We've done it, don't you see? In each other, we
have found Home."
And I've not forgotten, dear Father, dear
Mother; I've not forgotten how to care, how to love... nor how to fondly
remember you, without rancor or regret.
I will make amends, somehow, for all the
wrong I've done. I will honor the memory of your lives by living my own as well
as I can, and with my friend by my side, I think that may be very well, indeed.
As the echo of L'lewythi's song found them
once again, Olias couldn't help but notice there were two additional tones
joining in the glory. One, sharp, loud, and steady, was the sound of a
blacksmith's hammer striking down, proudly and confidently shaping steel into
blade, and the other, so pure and easy and light, was that of a good woman's
laughter, dancing across the heart, leaving warmth and affection in its wake.
L'lewythi awoke soon after, and with silver
threads beckoned his glass pipe come.
His song—what Olias had thought of as a
song for no one's mourning—was even more transcendent than the first time, and
when they found themselves back at the campsite where Ranyart and L'lewythi's
horse were waiting patiently, it was with renewed hope that they readied
themselves for their journeys—for there would be many, of that there was no
doubt.
They had much to do, and learn, and teach.
Climbing onto Ranyart, Olias looked at his
new friend, his dearest and most loving friend, and thought that theirs would
be a good life.
Good enough.
6
They say that if you travel the road
between Haven and the Forest of Sorrows on Sovvan-night, when the Otherworld is
so near, you might chance upon a pair of riders resting at a campfire; they may
invite you to join them for their evening meal (which will be plentiful, for
none ever leaves their camp hungry), and later, if you are so inclined, they
will take up lute and pipe and sing to you of another place, another land,
another world in another time where two broken souls found friendship, and
acceptance, and redemption.
They say you can see the spirits dancing as
the riders sing.
They say you can hear the sound of the sea
come so close you swear it's right behind you.
They say you can hear a blacksmith's hammer
striking anvil, and a woman's laughter ghosting happily through the trees.
But most of all, they say, you will leave
these riders as more than you were before, as if every sadness had been lifted
from your eyes.
And their wondrous song will rest in your
heart forever, as all true music should.
In loving memory of Edward King Shaw
Blue Heart
by Philip M.
Austin and Mercedes Lackey
Philip M. Austin is
currently an inmate at Soledad prison in California. About this story, he
writes, "Misty Lackey is the one who made this story come alive. She
deserves the majority of the credit and all of my thanks, [She] has been a good
friend and mentor. She's been non-judgmental and helpful in so many ways.
Through her good offers I've been able to dream of a future. A creative future
without walls and bars. That dream is worth more than any monetary
reward."
"There's a Herald to see you, Your
Majesty," the page called quietly from the doorway of the Queen's private
suite.
Selenay sighed and put down the silver
pencil she had been using to scribe a design for an illuminated initial.
"Can it wait until tomorrow?" she asked without hope. She was
technically supposed to be asleep, not getting her fingers paint- and
ink-stained, copying one of Daren's favorite poems. She cherished her time
alone; all too rare and much needed. She understood why Elspeth needed that
shed out in the back gardens, and the feeling of clay under her fingers. Her
own hobby of calligraphy and illumination was very similar, intensely physical
and requiring complete concentration, and gave her brief respites when she
could forget the responsibilities of crown and country.
"He says to say that it's your shadow,
Majesty," the page replied, clearly baffled by the enigmatic message.
But if the page was baffled, Selenay was
not. She sat up quickly and put away her implements. "Tell him to come in,
and see that we're not disturbed."
"Her shadow" was an enigma; a
Herald who never, if he could help it, appeared as himself. Very few
people—Kerowyn, Alberich, her own husband Daren—even knew he existed, much less
what he really looked like. This was a necessary precaution for his special and
demanding duties. He, like Skif, was a spy and an assassin... her own special
tool to use as needed, and always with reluctance.
When she did not need him, he sometimes
requested leave—a day, a week, a month. She never asked him why. Usually it was
innocuous, and he returned with tales of his Companion's doings—for it was
often his Companion who wanted the leave, and not him. Sometimes,
though, it was not; and when he reported for duty, his eyes told her she did
not want to know what he had been doing, despite the fact that she must hear
it. Whatever he did, he did it because she needed it done, whether or not she
knew it. Never had she found a reason to even rebuke him for his private
missions, and she knew that agonizing over whether to tell her before or after
the fact must often cause him sleepless nights. He had requested leave some few
weeks ago, and she searched his expression for some clue as to his mood.
But this time, he came as himself, an
ordinary man with a pleasant face, unmarked and unremarkable, except for his
haunted eyes. She relaxed as she read relaxation in his posture. So; it had
been a true holiday, then, and not some secret mission of his own.
"Come in, sit down," she invited,
brushing a strand of hair out of her eyes, and forced down the shiver that
always came when he looked at her. She did not know his history; she did not
know if anyone knew it. But whatever his past had been, it had left
dreadful scars on his soul. "I hope you enjoyed your Midwinter
holiday."
"Pilane appreciated it as much as I,
if not more," he said with a smile, as he gracefully lowered himself into
the chair. "He indulged himself in his passion almost as
much as he wanted to!"
Selenay laughed. "Sometimes I think he
Chose you because you are the only Herald in Valdemar willing to sit and turn
pages for him—and to take dictation from him and be his hands! But he is
a most remarkable writer. I have copies of all of his books in my personal
library, in fact." She relaxed a little more, sitting back in her chair.
"I fear, though, I pay far more attention to the drawings and
illustrations than I do to his scientific discourse."
"I won't tell him, Your Majesty,"
the young man laughed. "He does take his hobby quite seriously."
Selenay chuckled. "I'm sure he, does.
But what brings you here? Especially so late at night? You could—should!—have
given yourself an evening of rest before reporting to me."
"I have a story to tell you, Your
Majesty."
Selenay stiffened, folding her hands in her
lap to hide their sudden trembling. She'd half expected to hear those words.
Too often, the story he had to tell was the
dark and deadly result of what he was. For some reason, he preferred to give
his reports as "stories." It was as if he tried to maintain some kind
of fiction that she was innocent of his actions. She was not, and
could never be. She gave him orders and the freedom to act; she was as culpable
as the archer who looses an arrow. That she did not always know where it would
land made her more responsible, not less.
"I thought—on a night like this one,
in the deeps of winter—you would enjoy this," he continued, and smiled.
"It is the story of the Blue Heart, Your Majesty; a regional legend
of the mountains near White Foal Pass."
Selenay sighed, and relaxed again. Just a
story, after all—
And oddly enough, she was suddenly in a
mood to hear a story.
"In those mountains," the Herald
continued, "there is a small and isolated village. Its population is less
than two hundred, and most of them make their living from the fine wool of the
long-haired goats they raise."
"I know that wool!" the Queen
said in surprise. "Very soft and fine, and very expensive."
The Herald nodded. "It is indeed. And
it is with that wool that the story begins...."
The trader examined the sample of wool
cloth with pleasure and delight. It was soft as a puff of down, warm and light
as a purring kitten, and a lovely shade of blue-gray. He'd never seen such
cloth, nor anything of so fine a weave. Plush was the word he'd put to
it, and he was already calculating his profits. He already had a customer in
mind, a man of wealth and power in military and secular service of Sunlord
Vkandis. Baron Munn—who had led his own private, household troops against the
Unbelievers, and as a consequence was high in the favor of the Son of the Sun.
The Baron made no attempt to conceal his fondness for luxuries, and he was a
good, if choosy, customer.
"It will be hard to find customers for
so unusual a weave, but I can take all you have at ten coppers the bolt,"
he said, expansively, with a condescending smile as if he were doing the rustics
a favor.
But the village headman only shook his head
sorrowfully. "Oh, Trader Gencan, that giving a mood we're not in," he
said, just as condescendingly, and sighed. "It's a been a hard year, that
it has. We need so many things, so many things, or there'll be no wool
for next year, for we'll have had to eat our goats to stay alive." His
voice hardened as he bent to the bargaining. "Thirty coppers it'll have to
be, or nothing at all."
"What?" Gencan
yelped, taken by surprise. Why—that was exactly what he'd expected to sell the
stuff for! These mudfoots weren't nearly so green as they looked!
And neither was his former competitor, from
whom he'd stolen—ah—acquired this trade route. Perhaps this was why he
had not fought to retain it. There was nothing worse than a tradesman who knew
the value of his goods!
He bent to the bargaining with a will, and
sweated until he'd brought them down to something reasonable.
Something a man could make a decent profit
on. Sixteen coppers a bolt was one copper more than he'd wanted to pay, but at
least it allowed him a profit margin....
They had just settled on that price, when
he happened to look out the window and froze in surprise at what he saw
wandering by.
"Who is that?" he gasped,
wondering if he had somehow stumbled on a creature like one of the fabled
Hawkbrothers. The headman followed his gaze and smiled.
"Our lovely butterfly," he said,
with a smile of pure pleasure. "That's our butterfly."
"She's your daughter, then?" the
trader replied, unable to take his eyes from the girl.
But the headman laughed. "No. Oh, no,
Trader. In a way, she belongs to the whole village."
Now Gencan spared him a sharp glance.
"The village? What's that supposed to mean?"
But now the headman frowned, just a little.
The girl drifted out of sight, and Gencan was able to gather his scattered wits
about him again. "It's a strange story, Trader," the headman said at
last. "And not altogether a happy one."
Gencan pursed his lips and nodded sagely.
"Well, then," he replied. "What say we drink to our bargain and
you can tell me her story." He signaled to his servant to bring in the
wine. "Nothing makes a bitter story more palatable than a good wine!"
He poured the headman a cup of the strong,
smooth wine, then settled in to listen with as good a will as he'd bargained.
Leaving his caravan in the charge of his
most trusted assistant, he rode out that very night, pushing hard for Karse.
Eight days later he was kneeling, forehead to the floor, before Baron Munn. The
cost of a private audience had been steep, but the results of this audience
could make him wealthy beyond the income brought by any trade route. He would
be able to retire and hire others to lead his caravans, while he directed them
like a great lord with his retainers.
Baron Munn sucked at a plum pit, and looked
down at him out of one half-lidded eye. The Baron was a massive, bulky man, but
his face and limbs showed only the barest hint of the fat of soft living. He
had been called "The Bull of the Sun," and he looked like his namesake
in every way, down to the expression in his face. "Rise," he said at
last, waving a hand languidly. "State your business."
Gencan only removed his forehead from the
floor so that he could watch the Baron's expression. "I thank the great
and wise Baron Munn for granting me an audience," he said, with every
token of humility. "I am not even worthy to scrape the bottoms of the
great one's—"
"Fine, fine," the Baron
interrupted. "Get on with it." He selected another fruit and bit into
it, licking the juice from his fingers.
"I have come to tell you of a young
woman, Great Lord," Gencan said, quickly.
Baron Munn looked up from his half-eaten
peach, pale eyes bright with interest.
"She is barely fourteen summers
old," Gencan continued, "And just coming into the full bloom of
womanhood. Her hair is the white of snow, of clearest ice, a waterfall of
molten silver. Her eyes are the blue of a clear sky, of the finest sapphire.
Her skin is as flawless as cream from the cattle of the Temple. Her face and
her form are as perfect as that of a young goddess."
The Baron was truly interested now; he
licked his lips and set his fruit aside. Oh, he was feigning indifference, but
Gencan had not been a trader all his life without learning how to read people.
He played his winning card. "Such a lovely creature could only have been
created by the Sunlord himself," Gencan continued piously. "And in
the wisdom of the Sunlord, he has balanced all her virtues, by a single defect.
He has given her the mind and heart of a child of no more than eight years. So
she is now, and so shall she remain all of her life. Innocent, simple,
trusting, and loving! She cannot know a lie, cannot tell one. She cannot
understand any but the simplest of commands, or do more than care for herself
as a child would. Her needs are those of a child, her joys and fears those of a
child, and she will do anything she is told to do by an adult."
Baron Munn straightened in his thronelike
chair. Gencan watched as the light of interest and curiosity in his eyes turned
to the flames of desire, a desire that turned his strong face into a caricature
of himself. Now he looked even more like a bull—a bull scenting a heifer. And
Gencan knew that the whispered rumors he had heard about the Baron were true.
Baron Munn composed himself after a moment,
pulling a mask of indifference over his features. He stared at Gencan as if he
were deciding on what he meant to order for dinner. But his ragged breathing
gave him away.
"Tell me where this girl is,
Trader," the Baron said harshly. "I will send my people to see if all
you have told me is the truth." His hand, the strong hand that had swung
an ax it took two ordinary men to wield, clenched on the arm of his chair. That
ax itself hung behind his chair in a jeweled sheath, lest anyone forget what it
was that had brought the Baron to power. "If it is true, and I may
have her, you will be rewarded."
His hand clenched again, and Gencan
blanched, remembering how many heads the Baron had removed with that ax, to the
greater glory of the Sunlord. "If you lie," he continued, "I
will make you my slave. My emasculated, deaf, and dumb slave."
Gencan's mouth was suddenly very dry.
"It is all true, Great Lord, I swear it!" He ran his tongue over his
lips, and tried to keep from trembling with fear as he was led away to wait.
In twenty days, the spies returned. Their
reports of the girl were even more enthusiastic than the trader's. Baron Munn,
in a fit of joy and generosity, rewarded the trader with gold, gems, and spices
from the South.
Spices so rare that Gencan had never tasted
them, and could not resist trying them in his own celebratory feast.
Gencan died that night, a rich and happy
man, never knowing that he had been poisoned by those spices from the South at
the Baron's orders. There were other rich, powerful men who had the same
appetites that the Baron had. The Baron did not intend Gencan to increase his
profits by selling his knowledge to them as well. Gencan's own people, and all
the Baron's spies but one, followed the trader into the arms of Vkandis.
Guided by his spy, the Baron led a
handpicked company of men out of Karse and into the mountain lands disputed by
his land and the land of Valdemar. Baron Munn did not trust any man to steal
this girl for him. There was too much chance that she could be sold to another,
taken away, or tampered with.
The late fall wind had a bite to it, here
in the mountains. It whipped up the canyons and fled crying over the village
with a hundred mournful voices, circling around the goat pens until the goats
added their own plaintive bleats to the wind's cries.
And yet, compared to the mountains above,
the village itself was relatively calm, protected by the mountains themselves
and the trees that had been planted to shelter it from biting winds. The
villagers were used to the winds, used to the deceptive cries. There was no
reason to stop work from being done, not even a reason for children to stop
their games. People simply wrapped themselves and their children a little
tighter in their coats and narrowed their eyes against the blast. It was not
even a reason to keep Mikhal from taking the older children up onto the slopes
for their daily lessons in herbcraft and woodscraft.
But all work stopped when young Deke, the
Watch-Boy, came pounding up the dirt street, arms and legs flailing, yelling
that soldiers were coming—
—fast, on horseback—
—and lots of them.
The headman listened to Deke's breathless
gasps of warning, his mind rolled with shock and confusion. Soldiers? he
thought desperately. Why? Who would be sending soldiers? There's no reason
for soldiers to come here!
"They—they—they're coming from
Karse!" Deke gasped around his panting.
And that was not good news. Soldiers from
Karse were often no better than bandits. As the leader of the village, his was
the decision; he had to do something, and quickly.
It was too late to get the people out of
the village. He'd protect what he could.
"Run as fast as you can, Deke, up
where the wild apples grow," he said. "Tell Mikhal to hide the
children, and you stay with 'em. Don't you come back. You tell him not to bring
the younglings back till he thinks it's safe and the soldiers are long gone.
You tell him to hide good, you understand? Like the time we was looking
for him, and he didn't want to be found. You tell him—tell him—we don't
want to know where they are." He grabbed the boy's shoulders, and
shook him once, and Deke's eyes got even bigger.
"You understand?" he said
fiercely. "You understand?"
The boy's chin quivered, his eyes so big
they filled his face. He nodded, bobbing his head on his thin little neck.
"Good!" the headman let him go.
"Now go! Run!"
Deke was off, pelting away as fast as he
could go, fear adding to his speed. As he vanished, the headman heard the
pounding of hooves, and turned to see the first of the soldiers riding into the
village. He stepped out to meet them.
Mikhal was the oldest man in the village;
no one knew exactly how old he was, and he didn't even know himself. He was the
village teacher and had been for more than forty years. Not the kind of teacher
the priests were, in the ways of books and classrooms, but in the things a
youngling in a mountain village needed, the ways of the mountains, the wild
things, and the goats. Today, he'd brought the children up here to pick the
last of the wild apples, making a game of it, but making sure they learned as
well, and not just the acts, but the reasons behind them. Seeing that they took
only half the apples on the trees, and none at all from the ground telling them
how the wild things, the ones that stayed awake for the winter, would need what
they left.
But that lesson was shattered when Deke
came pelting up the mountain path.
Mikhal listened carefully to Deke and saw
the sense in the headman's orders. Calmly, methodically, and without any fuss,
he gathered up the children, including the childlike butterfly, and led them
away, down paths only he and the goats knew.
Then, down paths only he and the wild
things knew. Only then did he tell them, in simple words they could understand,
why he had hidden them away, and why they must stay hidden.
Even the wind shuddered away from the
scream, a shriek of agony that went on and on forever before it finally died to
a sobbing whimper. The headman's wife sagged back into the arms that held her
firmly erect.
Baron Munn handed the hot iron back to the
Captain of his Household Cavalry, and turned back to the headman. Four more men
held him tightly, forcing him to kneel in the dirt but holding his head up by
the hair so that he could not avoid watching.
"Now," the Baron said pleasantly.
"Tell me where the girl is. No more lies. No sending my men off on
wild-goat chases to look where she isn't."
"I don't know! I swear it!" the
headman sobbed desperately. "I told old Mikhal to hide them all, and I
don't know where he went! No one knows, no one can know, he's gone where
only the wild things are! Please, by the gods, you must believe me!"
The man wept, great, racking sobs that
shook his body.
"Oh, I do believe you," Munn said
and smiled. "But one of these others may know what you don't."
He waved a hand at the villagers gathered
under the swords of his men. They winced away.
"So, in case there is someone who
knows, this entertainment will go on until I am certain that you are correct.,
And when your dear wife can bear no more, I shall choose someone else."
He
signaled to his Captain, who handed him the iron, reheated to whiteness.
"As pleasant a diversion as this is, my objective is still the same. I
want the girl."
The headman's wife began to scream again,
before the white-hot iron even touched her.
Hands on her ears, the girl crouched on her
haunches, rocking back and forth. She tried to shut out everything, words,
thoughts, all—
"They killed Headman Cracy an' his
wife last night," Deke sobbed, his voice full of anguish. "Hurt 'em real
bad. afore they killed 'em."
She knew that. She'd known that long before
Deke learned it. She could still feel the pain that had sent her to huddle in
the back of the cave, racked with agony she could not explain.
Deke hugged his skinny arms to his chest,
pausing now and then to wipe his nose and eyes with the back of his hand.
"They started on my pap and mam
this morning!" Deke continued, his face screwing up into a mask of grief
and bewilderment.
She knew that, too. And she knew that
Deke's momma was only heartbeats from that same darkness that had taken Momma
Cracy and Headman Cracy.
"Why they like that, Mikhal?" the
boy sobbed, finally flinging himself into Mikhal's arms. "Why they gotta
hurt and kill people? We never done nothin'! Why they gotta hurt my mam and
pap?"
Mikhal pulled the boy to him, holding him
close to his chest in a sheltering embrace. While the boy sobbed, Mikhal cursed
under his breath.
The girl knew why. Mikhal cursed himself
for sending Deke to spy on the village. Mikhal thought he should have gone
himself.
"It's 'cause they're bad, Deke,"
Mikhal murmured between curses. "It's 'cause they want what we got, an'
just 'cause they like to hurt folks, an' this's a good excuse to make
somebody hurt. None of it's our doin', Deke. None of it."
The old man kept his voice high enough for
the other children to hear. He was a teacher; even in the midst terror, he
would teach.
"Ain't none of it our fault," he
said, and the girl felt his eyes probing the darkness, looking for her.
"We just gotta get through this, an' make sure it don't happen
again."
They hurled Momma Cracy an' Poppa Cracy,
hurted 'em an' kilt 'em. The
girl's thoughts were filled with confusion, terror, and anguish. They hurted
'em, but it's 'cause they want me. They gonna hurt Deke's momma an'
poppa, they gonna hurt everybody till they get me!
She rocked back and forth, tears burning
down her cheeks, trying to work out reasons and answers. But there were no
reasons, and she had never in her life touched minds like these. Mikhal was
right. Mikhal was right.
But these horrible people wanted her. These
people were all her family, every adult was her Momma and Poppa, every
youngling a brother or sister. They all loved her, and she loved them all. It
was all she had ever known, that love, that cherishing.
They're getting hurted, an' it's 'cause of
me! She buried her face in
her arms, and faced the inescapable. If—if I go to 'em, they might hurt
me... if I don't, they gonna hurt everybody, an' maybe kilt 'em, too.
Her traumatized mind kept trying to resolve
the questions, and finally she groped her way through the fog to an answer, and
a decision.
She loved them. They loved her. They were
being hurt because of her. She could not bear that. And there was only one way
to stop the hurt.
She slipped away, as quietly as a mouse,
running down to the village to make the bad men stop.
Baron Munn stared at the lovely girl,
completely enthralled. She was more beautiful than he dreamed, more vulnerable
and tender, and her terror only served to make her lovelier in his eyes. That
terror fed the hunger within him in a way that even the dying pain of her
elders had not done.
She was perfect in every way.
She cowered at his feet, where she had
thrown herself, weeping, placing herself between him and the woman he had been
torturing, trying to hold him off with her soft little hands. Hands like
fluttering doves, like white butterflies.
He took her face in his hands, carefully,
and raised her eyes to his. Even weeping could not make her less than lovely.
Her eyes were as blue as the sky in winter,
as a bottomless lake.
"The eyes are said to be the vision of
the heart, and your heart is a heavenly blue," he said, running a hand
over her molten silver hair. "What is your name, little, dove?"
"P-P-Pilane," she choked out,
silver tears coursing sweetly down her cheeks.
He smiled.
He ordered the villagers to make a cage in
which he would carry her back to Karse. He ordered it carved and painted, and
lined in layers of the village's fine wool, to keep her warm and sheltered and
safe.
He had captured the butterfly. Now he would
bring his prize, his Pilane, back to his barony for all to see,
see and lust after, but never to touch. Only he would savor that touch, at his
leisure, and savor what came after touching.
The villagers made his cage in a day and a
night, all of them laboring until they dropped from exhaustion. He left as soon
as it was completed, under cover of the first snow of winter. He headed for
White Foal Pass at a forced march, driving his own men as hard as he had driven
the villagers. He wanted the journey to Karse, to safe-haven, to be as quick as
possible.
Behind him, the remaining villagers could
only gather to mourn their dead, and to pray to the gods for their special
daughter. They held no illusions about what was to befall her, her beauty would
serve to enchant him only for so long—and when it palled, he would feed his
desires in other ways. They prayed, then, for something, someone, to send her
quick release—through rescue, or painless death.
When the stranger rode into the village, it
seemed that their prayers had been answered, and a rumor that he was the
messenger of the gods went through the village on the wings of the wind.
He certainly looked anything but human,
riding a tall, handsome white horse with strange, knowledge-filled blue eyes.
And he himself was garbed in pristine white, his face heartstoppingly handsome
beneath silver-streaked hair. But most startling of all were his silver eyes,
as filled with knowledge, sorrow, and understanding as those of his steed.
What else could he be? And even though he
protested otherwise, they knew he was goddess-sent.
He listened carefully to their story with a
troubled and angry face.
"I can stop them," he said, in a
clear, edged voice, as sweet as springwater and as sharp as a blade of ice.
"I can stop them. But the danger is great, and there is a chance
that your Pilane will not survive."
"Better that than a life as that man's
toy!" Mikhal snarled bitterly. "Her life will be short enough in any
case in his hands!"
Behind him, the rest of the villagers
nodded or spoke their agreement. Some wept, but all agreed. Baron Munn's
actions had left them no illusions.
"Go to White Foal Pass, then, as soon
as the snow stops," the stranger told them.
And then, he rode away.
That night, the light snow turned into a
full winter storm, a blizzard the likes of which no one, not even Mikhal, had
ever seen. Snow fell so thickly and heavily that it was a struggle just to get
from house to house within the village.
Then it became too cold to snow; the wind
strengthened, and whipped the snow already fallen into huge drifts. The cold
grew deeper and deeper.
The blizzard lasted until moonrise the next
night, then died.
At first light, the villagers put on their
snow-staves, loaded up their sleds, and followed old Mikhal along the
goat-tracks to the pass.
They found the Baron's soldiers and horses,
frozen, as if they had been struck down by a cold more deadly than any man
could imagine, and all in a single moment. They found the Baron with his hands
frozen to the bars of the locked cage, his dead eyes staring into it, as if he
had seen something he could not understand.
But Pilane was gone, without a trace.
They never found her.
The Queen wiped her tears away, and waited
for her Herald to say something more. But as he sipped his tea, she shook her
head.
"Is that all?" she demanded.
"Just that? A mystery?"
"There is a little more," the
Herald said, putting down his own cup. "One version of the story tells
that the messenger took their prayers to the goddess, and it was She who made
the storm and took the girl to her side. Another says that the man was only a
man, but also a great and powerful mage, who used his magic to bring the storm
and save the girl, and that he took her to his palace to live in peace. The
last version says also that the man was a mage, but that he was heart-friends
with the strange and mysterious Tayledras—that he begged their help, and it was
they who sent the storm and took the girl to their homes above the trees,
where she was loved, protected, and happy for the rest of her days."
"Tayledras?" the Queen replied.
And she wondered; did Elspeth know of this legend? She was with the Tayledras,
even now. Did she know the real ending to the story?
"The one thing that all three legends
agree upon," the Herald continued, "is that whether it was a goddess,
a mage, or the Tayledras, whoever took Pilane created a butterfly to take her
place and remind those who loved her of her beauty, her goodness, and her own
sacrifice to save them. They call it the 'Blue Heart' and it is a butterfly,
they say, that lives only in early winter, after the first snow and only during
the full moon. And they say this was done so that the memory of Pilane and all
she was would never be lost to the mountains."
He sighed, and was quiet for a few
heartbeats.
"And that ends my story, Your
Majesty," he said at last.
"It's a lovely story," Selenay
replied, lost in thought for a moment. Then something occurred to her, and she
sat straight up in her chair. "The girl's name—it was Pilane! and
that's your Companion's name!"
The Herald grinned a little shamefacedly.
"It means 'butterfly' in a very old mountain dialect," he chuckled.
"Which may be the reason why he has made himself into an expert on the
little creatures."
But Selenay had another reason for
laughter. "You mean that he had you two out in the snows of the mountains
chasing a legend!" she laughed. "A butterfly—that is only a
legend—out in snow and moonlight—in White Foal Pass?"
When she finished, tears of laughter were
bright in her eyes, and she was holding her side.
"You—the most dangerous man in the
Circle—chasing snow-butterflies in the moonlight!"
He hung his head sheepishly. "I am
afraid so, Majesty," he replied. "And with your leave, I really must
go.”
The Queen waved her answer weakly from her
chair, laughing soundlessly.
As he stood and turned to leave, the Herald
placed a small package on the table beside her cup. "A gift, Your
Majesty," he said. Then he was gone, the door closing behind him.
After several moments, the Queen wiped her
eyes, and got herself back under control. She picked up the package, curiosity
overcoming her laughter. The Herald's gifts were rare, but fortunately were
seldom as sinister as his "stories" could be.
Inside a wrapping of soft gray woolen cloth she found a carved,
wooden presentation case for a hand-sized book, a case she opened with the key
taken from the ribbon tied around it.
In the right side was a black-velvet-lined
recess, containing a thin book. In raised silver letters on the elegant white
leather cover were the words, The Blue Heart and beneath them, C.
Pilane.
In the left side of the box was a
glass-covered velvet-lined display case.
Positioned carefully on the black velvet
was a butterfly. Each wing was no larger than her two thumbnails together. The
wings were the color of molten silver, with an oblong blue spot on either side
of the creature's slender body. Those marks, when seen with the wings fully
opened as they were displayed, made the shape of a heart.
A heart as blue as a Companion's eyes, or
the color of the clear winter sky.