Wildcards VIII: One Eyed JacksOne Eyed Jacks
Book 8 of Wildcards
Edited by George R.R. Martin
ISBN: 0-553-28852-0


Nobody's Girl
by Walton Simons
The late-afternoon sunshine warmed them. She lay naked on the bed, hands folded 
on her stomach, eyes closed. He looked down the outline of her body, trying to 
hold on to the ecstasy and contentment he'd felt with her only moments before. 
But it was already slipping away. Women kept it a bit longer. Afterglow. But 
they lost it, too.
"You could stay awhile," Jerry said. He tried to make the four words sound like 
it would be more fun than two people could stand. Not that they'd been pushing 
the limit in that area lately.
"Nope." Veronica opened her eyes and sat up, her long, sweat-soaked brown hair 
plastered to her face and neck. Jerry hoped it was his technique and not the 
August heat seeping in. She waited a few seconds, then stood and walked into the 
bathroom, closing the door after her. "Call me a cab."
"Okay, you're a cab." Jerry hadn't expected a laugh and wasn't disappointed. He 
heard her turn on the shower. He pulled on his shorts and walked across the 
carpeted floor into the next room. A five-hundred-dollar bill was in the top 
drawer of the mahogany bedroom dresser. Along with a new pair of black silk 
panties and matching underwire bra with cutout front. It was their ritual. Maybe 
she'd wear the lingerie next time, maybe not.
He picked up the phone and paused for a second, stopping his finger from making 
a rotary motion. He hadn't adjusted to push buttons yet. Twenty-plus years as a 
giant ape could do that to you. A cold, sick feeling spread through him. Even 
Veronica couldn't help when it hit him. He tried hard to push the thoughts away, 
but that only made it worse when they finally broke through. The world had 
changed during those years, drastically and unalterably. His parents had moved 
to Pass Christian, Mississippi, and been killed in Hurricane Camille. Some idiot 
psychic had told them he'd been kidnapped and taken there. The bodies wound up 
in a tree three miles inland. All the time he was in Central Park Zoo, fifty 
feet tall and covered with hair. He bit his lip and punched in the numbers.
"Starline Cab," said a bored voice on the other end of the line.
"Thirteen East Seventy-seventh Street. A lady will be waiting."
A pause. "That's Thirteen East Seventy-seventh. Five minutes. Thank you." Click.
Jerry walked back into the bedroom and stretched out on the bed. The sunshine 
drove the cold from his skin, but not his insides.
Veronica stepped out of the bathroom. She picked up her clothes and pulled them 
on in a quick, awkward manner.
"It's not against the law for you to stay sometime," he said. "We could go out 
to dinner every now and then. Or a movie."
"If it's not illegal, I don't bother with it." She turned her back on him to 
button her blouse.
"Yeah." He rolled over on his stomach, not wanting her to see the pain on his 
face. She could be a real bitch at times. Most times, nowadays.
"Sorry" She ran a finger down his calf. "I'll see what I can work out, but no 
promises. I'm a busy girl."
The intercom buzzed.
Jerry sat up straight. Almost nobody ever visited him here, except Veronica. He 
ran across the apartment to the intercom and pushed the button. "Hello."
"Jerry, this is Beth. I'll bet you forgot about the fundraiser tonight. You 
can't abandon me to all those lawyers and politicians."
"Oh, Jesus. I did forget. Hold on. I'll be right down." Jerry walked quickly 
over to the closet and snatched out a shirt and pants. "My sister-in-law. You 
should meet her. You'd like her."
"A lawyer's wife?" Veronica shook her head. "You must be kidding."
"You might be surprised. She's really terrific."
"I'm out of here," said Veronica, heading for the door. Jerry struggled into his 
alligator shoes and hopped across the carpet after her. "Okay, I love you."
Veronica waved without turning around and closed the door behind her.
Jerry sighed and went into the bathroom. He combed his too-red hair and dabbed 
on a few drops of cologne. He heard the elevator stop. He waited a few seconds 
until it headed back down. It wouldn't do for Beth to see him with Veronica, 
who'd probably just say something snotty.
He checked to make sure he had his wallet and keys, then hustled out into the 
hall and punched the elevator button.
Beth was waiting for him downstairs. She was wearing a floral print shirt and 
light blue pants. Her blond hair hung just past her shoulders.
"Let's get moving, bro. I'm double-parked." She grabbed him by the elbow and 
guided him toward the door. "I just saw a cute little brunette number leave." 
She arched an eyebrow. "Anybody I should know?"
He did his best to look shocked. "Nope. Anybody I should know?"
Beth smiled. "You could do a lot worse. You probably have too."
"A safe bet. Let's go and get this over with."
The ballroom was filled with smoke and noisy, rich Democrats, most of them 
trying not to appear drunk. Yet. Koch and Jesse Jackson had appeared together 
earlier in the day to show Democratic solidarity, such as it was. There was a 
rumor that Jackson might show up to speak, but it wasn't in the itinerary. Jerry 
hated going anywhere he was required to wear a tux, but Beth had promised him 
three movie dates in return.
The three of them were the only ones at their table. Kenneth had his arm around 
Beth, whose shoulders were bare except for the thin straps of her blue silk 
dress. Jerry was jealous. He and Veronica were never to appear in public 
together. Veronica had made that much clear.
"I can't believe the party nominated Dukakis," Kenneth said. "Even Richard Nixon 
could beat him into the ground."
"Bad luck'at the convention," Beth said. "Hartmann might have had a chance."
"Then again he might not. Public opinion on wild cards being what it is. That 
issue would probably have sunk him. You should be glad you're not a well-known 
ace." Kenneth stood. "There's a few people I need to talk to. Back in a minute." 
He kissed Beth on the forehead and made his way into the crowd.
"I'm not an ace at all, anymore." Jerry took a large swallow of wine. "Which is 
for the best, I guess." Hello, Mrs. Strauss. A young man stood behind Kenneth's 
empty chair. He was tall, blond, and could probably have passed for a Greek god 
even in good light. Jerry hated him instantly.
"David." Beth smiled and motioned to the chair. "I didn't know you were going to 
be here. How nice to see you. Do you know Kenneth's brother, Jerry?"
"No." David extended his hand.
"Jerry, this is David Butler. He's the intern working with Mr. Latham. Even St. 
John is impressed with him. Has David working all hours."
Jerry shook his hand. There was an almost palpable energy in David's touch. 
Jerry withdrew and managed a smile. "You do what, David?"
"Whatever Mr. Latham requires." David smiled at Beth. "You look lovely tonight. 
I can't imagine your husband being foolish enough to abandon you."
"Oh, I'm well taken care of, David." Beth put her hand on Jerry's sleeve.
David gave Jerry half a glance and drummed his fingers on the table. "I'd better 
be going. Mr. Latham expects me to mingle with the heavy hitters. Says it should 
be good for me." He got up, rolling his eyes. "Nice to see you, Mrs. Strauss." 
David left.
"He must be gay," Jerry said. Beth chuckled. "I don't think so."
"Is he rich, then?"
"I'm afraid so."
"There is no God." Jerry emptied his wineglass and looked for a waiter.
"You don't need to be jealous, Jerry." Beth adjusted the straps on her gown. 
"Just because he's young, rich, and gorgeously handsome."
"I'm rich and young, sort of." Jerry hadn't aged physically in the twenty years 
he'd been an ape. Legally, though, he was in his forties.
"Feeling sorry for yourself again?" Kenneth said, reappearing and sitting back 
down.
"Constantly," Jerry said.
"Right. Did you ever contact any of those film people I mentioned your name to? 
You have talent. Beth and I are both impressed with your abilities."
"I'll get around to it. I have a lazy muse," Jerry said. "I know you went to a 
lot of trouble."
"Not as much trouble as proving that you weren't legally dead when you showed up 
last year." Kenneth smiled. "Nobody wanted to believe you'd been a giant ape for 
over a decade. Too many precedents."
Jerry sighed. "Sorry I was so much trouble."
"It's not that and you know it. When you're born into wealth like we were, 
there's a larger obligation to society that comes with it."
Jerry shrugged. "I like to think I'm keeping my bank from going under. It's the 
romantic in me."
Beth smiled, but Kenneth shook his head. "The romantic in you is going to get 
you into trouble someday. You can pay people to not call you Mr. Strauss, but 
you can't make them give a shit when it's crunch time. People don't love you for 
money, they love you in spite of it."
Jerry didn't need to hear this right now. He turned to Beth. "Why did you marry 
this guy?"
Beth smiled and held up her hands, palms about a foot apart.
"Nasty girl," Jerry said. " I guess it runs in the family." Kenneth fingered a 
cuff link. "I don't want to be a pain, but you can count on me keeping after you 
about this. You need to find something to do with your life."
There was a burst of applause and people began standing. Jesse Jackson was 
making his way slowly from the back of the room, shaking hands as he went.
"I suppose we can expect a speech now," Jerry said, rubbing the back of his 
neck. "I'd rather be home watching a movie."
"Democracy is hell, bro," Beth said.
"I'll drink to that." Jerry snagged a waiter's arm and indicated he needed more 
wine. The only thing that numbed his butt quicker than politics was alcohol.
After rubbing elbows with the rich and powerful, he felt like staying up late. 
Jerry split time between his apartment and his room at the family house on 
Staten Island where Kenneth and Beth lived. He'd had to overhaul the place when 
he got back. His sixteen-millimeter projectors were shot and the neglected cans 
of film had gotten brittle with age. He'd replaced them with a largescreen TV 
and videotape. Nobody collected actual films anymore. But there was no romance 
in video. It was cheap and easy. He was hardly in a position to be judgmental 
about people who went that way, though, considering his relationship with 
Veronica. Although she wasn't cheap and was getting less easy all the time.
He was watching Klute. It was a bad choice. At least Veronica didn't wear a 
watch while they did it. She probably never came either, though.
There was a soft knock at the door and Beth stuck her head in. Jerry paused the 
tape and motioned her in. "Entrez. I'm watching Klute. Ever seen it?"
"Twice, at least." She sat down on the sofa next to him. " I love the scene 
where she licks the spoon after eating the catfood." Beth licked her lips.
"You're sick."
"Afraid so." She picked up two other tapes off the table. "What have we got 
here? Irma La Douce and McCabe and Mrs. Miller." She paused. He knew she 
expected him to say something.
"Yeah, well. I like to mix it up, you know. Murder mystery, period piece, 
comedy. I try to get a bit of everything." He shrugged. "I've got lots to catch 
up on."
She patted him on the shoulder. "You don't want to talk about it. I can tell. I 
always feel better when I talk about things. If I hadn't had some good friends 
and a decent analyst a few years back, Kenneth and I would have wound up 
divorced."
"I didn't know you two had any problems."
She laughed. "It's tough being married to a lawyer. You always have the feeling 
that anything you say can and will be used against you. And sometimes he did. I 
know he didn't mean to, or at least I hope that, but at the time it was hard to 
tell. You can't ever be another person and know how they really feel. That's 
kind of scary. But eventually you just decide to believe in them or not. I 
decided to believe in Kenneth and I'm not sorry"
"I'm glad." The words sounded flatter than he'd intended. "Really. You've been a 
big help to me. I know I'm not adjusting very well, but I will."
Beth kissed him on the cheek. "You can talk to me any time you feel like it." 
She pointed to the TV screen. "Want to know who the killer is?"
"No, thanks. I don't want to cheat myself out of guessing wrong and then feeling 
stupid."
"Good night." She closed the door.
Jerry shut off the TV and VCR. He didn't much like the way this one was headed, 
anyway. He crossed the floor to his dressing room. It hadn't changed much in 
thirty years. Back when he was the Projectionist, he'd practiced his Humphrey 
Bogart and Marlon Brando in front of the same mirror. Bogart died even before 
Jerry had drawn the wild card, and Brando was old and fat. He sat down, opened a 
drawer, and pulled out a picture of Veronica and a wig. The hair was as close a 
match as he could find for hers.
He stuck the picture in the corner of the mirror and looked at it for a second 
or two, then at his own reflection. His features began to change; his skin 
darkened. Hair was still a problem. He couldn't quite get it to do what he 
wanted yet. In the old days he could actually have turned into a woman, but that 
had always made him feel weird. He pulled on the wig and closed his eyes, waited 
a moment, then reopened them.
"I love you."
It was even less convincing than the few times Veronica had said it herself. He 
pulled off the wig and changed back. Beth was right, you couldn't know what 
another person was thinking or feeling. Couldn't ever actually be them. He 
tossed the wig and picture into the drawer and slammed it shut.
Who the hell would want to, anyway?


Luck Be a Lady
by Chris Claremont
Once they heard where she was going, nobody would take her. Some cabbies were 
apologetic, others curtly dismissive, a couple offered rude gestures and ruder 
words.
If the plane had arrived on time, when the dispatchers were on duty, she might 
have fared better-but mechanical delays and rotten weather en route had delayed 
the flight so long it was well past midnight before she finally landed, and 
there was nobody official to turn to.
One asked point-blank why Cody was going there and, hoping it might persuade him 
to change his mind, she told him: "A job interview"
"Where fo'?" he asked, "ain't nobody hirin' down there."
"The clinic," she said.
"Shit, missy, you got better places to go an' better things to do wit'chu life 
than waste it down 'at shithole, trust me."
"Absolutely," a friend chimed in, his accent so thick Cody barely understood the 
word.
"Decent lady got no bizness goin' there," the driver continued, hands weaving a 
fascinating pattern in the air before him as he spoke, took a sip of coffee, 
spoke, took a drag on a Marlboro, without ever missing a beat. "Shit, nobody 
human got any bizness there. Unless. .." Suspicion dawned and he looked narrowly 
toward her. "Maybe you're one of 'em."
The way he asked, far too deliberately casual, trying to mask the sudden burr of 
fear and hostility barely hidden underneath, caught Cody's attention and she 
tilted her head to give her one eye a better view of him.
"One of what?" she asked, genuinely confused. "Them," as if that was the most 
obvious reference in the world. "Jokers, aces-whole fuckin' crowd."
"I'm a doctor."
"Cops got a name for their precinct down there, `Fort Freak.' Fuckin' fits, 
y'know. Ain't there enough sick people needful amongst your own, why you gotta 
go take care o' them? Pardon me for sayin', lady, but you ain't got the look o' 
no Mutha Teresa, know what I mean?"
"Absolutely," his friend chimed in.
"Look. . ." She sighed, fatigue from her trip combining with apprehension to put 
steel in her voice, an edge that made the cabbie stiffen ever so slightly and 
take a reflexive half step backward. "All I'm looking for is a way into the 
city. If none of you will take me, can you at least point out some other way?"
"Sure," the other cabbie said, striking out with some humor of his own, "walk." 
Nobody laughed, and when Cody turned her eye on him, with a look she'd learned 
within forty-eight hours of landing in Vietnam and perfected over twenty years 
as a surgeon, he promptly wished he'd resisted the impulse.
"Hey, life's a bitch. Only other option's, you take the Q33 transit bus over to 
Roosevelt Avenue/Jackson Heights, then catch the F take you right into 
Jokertown."
"F what," she asked.
"F you," muttered the jokester, but she ignored him. "Subway," said the first 
man. "Sixth Avenue line, that's what the letter stands for, take it downtown."
"Thank you," she told him, hefting shoulder bag and briefcase and following his 
pointed direction along the sidewalk to the bus stop.
"Better watch your step, Doc," he called after her, "they're animals down there, 
you got no idea." (And you do, she thought.) "They see a nice piece like you, 
sonsabitch freaks'll prob'ly eat 'chu!" And on cue, came his friend's stolid 
"Absolutely!"
Cody didn't argue. For all she knew he might be right.
At the station she scrambled into the next-to-the-last car, surprised to find it 
crowded. Where'd all these people come from? she wondered. The bus driver said 
this station's supposed to be one of the main ones on the line and there 
couldn't have been more than a half dozen of us waiting. She shrugged. Isn't my 
city, this could be the only train they run this time of night. The thing was, 
as it had rumbled past her into the station, the other cars hadn't registered as 
being so full.
It was standing room only-there was room to move, but not much else-the 
passengers about as wide and wild a mix as could be imagined, the night people 
of this city that loved boasting to the world that it never slept, everyone 
locked tight in their own miserable little private worlds, not caring a damn 
about what was outside and praying with all their hearts to be left alone. No 
one looked her way. No one knew she existed, or cared. Good. Right now, 
anonymity was a most valued friend.
She twisted a little sideways to get more comfortable and caught a glimpse of 
herself in the door glass, turned black by the dark tunnel roaring by outside. 
Tall, too tall for a woman, her height and the power of her rangy frame working 
against the clothes she was wearing, the only thing in her wardrobe that 
qualified as a power suit. First time she'd worn anything like it in years. 
Christ, she wondered, sifting back through the years, was it when Ben died, has 
it really been that long? In-country, she'd gotten into the habit of fatigues 
and T-shirts, of dressing for comfort rather than fashion-if for no other reason 
than what sweat didn't ruin, the blood surely would-and one of the things she'd 
loved about Wyoming was the casual nature of the people. They took her as she 
was-at least, she thought with sudden bitterness, when it came to how I looked. 
And here she stood, trading that in for a world where the package was at least 
as important as what was inside. Wha' fuck, she shrugged, a small smile twisting 
the corner of her mouth at how easily she adopted the cadence of the taxi 
driver, maybe the change'll do me good. Except, perhaps, for the effing heels. 
Too long in hiking boots and sneaks; dress shoes were going to take some getting 
used to. And she eased one foot free to rub-massage the arch on the opposite 
shin.
Automatically, she continued her inventory, hoping her brief visit to an airport 
washroom had repaired most of the damage done by the seemingly endless flight. 
The hair was black, except for a smattering of silver splashed above her right 
eye, unruly as ever despite her best efforts with hairspray and comb. The years 
had taken the harshest edge off her scars, but to Cody they still stood out in 
stark contrast to her tanned skin, one running across the crest of the right 
cheekbone and up beneath the patch, where it branched to three that continued up 
into her hairline. The round should have taken her head of-f-but she'd flinched 
a split second before it hit, without knowing why, the firefight had been total 
chaos, shells and shrapnel tearing the night to shreds, coming from every 
direction, things so crazy you didn't know where to duck. So instead of her 
life, she'd only lost the eye. Lucky, they'd told her in Da Nang-and later, in 
the big Pacific Hospital at Pearlfantastically fucking lucky. She hadn't thought 
so then, she wasn't convinced now.
That side of her head throbbed like the devil-always happened when she was 
stressed, no matter that the cause was, probably psychosomatic-rubbing it didn't 
help, but it was better than nothing. She curled her hand into a half fist and 
pressed the heel gently against patch and empty socket. She'd never been 
beautiful and the wound had made sure she'd never get the chance.
The brakes came on too hard at Queens Plaza-there was a cry of pain as someone's 
body wouldn't give, a curse as someone else got stepped on-she heard a 
smattering of apologies, saw a lot more rueful grimaces, this was no surprise to 
these people, the grief came with the ride. Then, the doors popped wide and Cody 
struggled out of the way, to let passengers pass.
Out of the corner of her eye, she noticed the people waiting by the last car 
suddenly rush toward the front of the train. A few who'd stepped inside quickly 
retreated, faces twisting in embarrassment and disgust. As the tide of 
passengers turned and those waiting on the platform bulled their way aboard, 
Cody twisted, snaked, finally shoved her way back to the rear connecting door. 
To her amazement, the car was empty-except for a gray, shapeless mass plopped on 
the bench seats, halfway along the right-hand side. At first, she thought it was 
a derelict.
As the train pulled out of the station, it bounced across some switches, 
sashay-swaying from side to side and a tentacle dropped out from under the rags.
Without thinking, Cody yanked open her door and stepped across the tiny platform 
into the rear car. The smell was like a wall, blocking her way. She remembered 
Firebase Shiloh, that last morning, waiting for the dust-off choppers, the air 
filled with blood and rot, gasoline-soaked smoke and charred flesh. She'd taken 
a twelve-gauge and one of the walking wounded and searched the compound, making 
as sure as she could they wouldn't leave any breathers behind. She'd been fine 
until they reached divisional headquarters. She'd spent a month in a charnel 
house but it wasn't until she walked into the mess hall and smelled fresh food 
that it finally struck home how unutterably awful it had been. Two steps in the 
door, one decent breath, and she'd doubled over onto her knees, puking her guts 
bloody.
This was worse.
The joker made a gargly hiss with each breath, and when it rolled over in its 
sleep, she saw that it was naked and male. The legs were more like stumps, 
ending in viciously twisted scar tissue, and she realized that they were really 
flippers, worn down by years of trudging across concrete and asphalt. The skin 
was mottled gray and blue black, gleaming with oily secretions, with two sets of 
tentacles attached to the shoulders. The primary was thick as a human arm, but 
half again as long, broadening at the end into a flat pad whose inner surface 
was covered with cephalopod suckers. Nestled in each armpit was a secondary nest 
of limbs, a half dozen each side, shorter and much thinner than the main 
tentacle, constantly in motion, writhing among themselves, picking at whatever 
came in reach, almost as if they had minds of their own. Its head was little 
more than a bump growing out of the top of the torso, but the jagged teeth she 
saw when it snored convinced her this was as close as she wanted to get. The 
eyes were closed, and for that she was thankful. Maliciously, after twisting so 
much else, Tachyon's virus had spared the genitalia; the joker had a very human 
penis.
Without realizing it, Cody had slumped down on her heels, unconsciously making 
herself as small and inconsequential as possible, afraid without knowing why 
when her rational self told her that all she should be feeling for this poor 
creature was pity. Over the rumble of the train, she heard rude 
voices-passengers in the car ahead, looking through the window as she'd done, 
making fun, demanding action.
As the train trundled down into the tunnel beneath the East River, the joker 
stirred. Perhaps, Cody thought, he senses the presence of the water? What's he 
doing still on land, anyway-unless, my God, to give him a body designed for an 
aquatic environment without the gills that would enable him to live there! Not 
the cruelest joker deal by far, she knew, but it still provoked a silent snarl. 
Hell, even if he is amphibian-if he was an adult when the virus activated, who's 
to say he could hack abandoning the world he knew, friends, family, job, 
everything that's familiar, that gives his existence purpose and meaning, for a 
new world. As unknown and alien as another planet, where he'd be all alone. 
Could I go, if he was me?
And her thoughts turned to Dr. Tachyon, the man--and she laughed softly, 
bitterly at that, because Tachyon was less of a 'man' in any human sense than 
she-responsible for the wild card. Whose people had sent it to Earth and turned 
humanity inside out. She wondered if she should hate the little geek for what 
he'd done? And yet, hadn't he spent the forty-odd years since trying to make up 
for that, fighting for the health and welfare of the 'people' his virus had 
created? There were probably worse fates than working by his side.
It helped, of course, that she needed the job.
His eyes were open. Black eyes, a shark's eyes, no depth, no emotion, flat, 
opaque plates, bright as gleaming lacquer except that they absorbed everything 
they gazed upon. Looking at Cody. She shifted on her feet, figuring to stand and 
slip back the way she came, into the comparative safety of the next car. But 
when she moved, so did he. Not much, just enough to let her know he was aware of 
her intention. Shit. She had a gun-a service .45 she'd carried ever since the 
'Nam-but it was locked in its case at the bottom of her carryall. Useless. Her 
shoulder blades contracted, as if she had an itch down her spine, and she 
crossed her wrists beneath her breasts, huddling close about herself. A vague 
glitter drew her eyes downward and her breath caught ever so slightly as she saw 
her skin glisten like the joker's. For the briefest moment, flesh and bone 
seemed to flow together, twisting and curling where it once was straight, 
tentacle instead of arm. When she looked back at the joker, he was showing 
teeth.
"Stop it," she hissed. "Leave me alone!"
Something wriggled beneath her blouse, an itching, tickling sensation under the 
armpits that set her to looking frantically about the car for a weapon.
"Damn you," she snarled, "leave me alone!"
A bounce and a jerk and a screech heralded their arrival at Lexington Avenue, 
the first stop in Manhattan, and the brakes snagged again, as they had in 
Queens, pitching Cody forward on hands and knees, sending her sprawling full 
length. The joker had anchored himself with one tentacle, was reaching for her 
with the others. Baring her teeth, she groped for her foot, coming up with a 
shoe-thankful now it had a heel-swinging as hard as she could toward the 
creature's face. It was like hitting sponge rubber, the flesh simply gave 
beneath the impact. But the joker howl-yowled in surprise and pain and rage, 
flinching away from her, gathering one set of tentacles protectively around its 
face while the other reached again for her, snagging hold even as Cody spasmed 
reflexively backward against the doors, which miraculously-a split second too 
late-opened. She heard a cry of rage and alarm, sensed rather than saw a pair of 
dark blue trousers step over her into the car, heard a sharp thwack as a 
nightstick connected with the creature's arm. There was no outcry this time, but 
he let her go. A black, oily liquid spread across the seat beneath it, filling 
the car with a smell beyond anything Cody had ever imagined. A breath, she knew, 
would kill her and her savior both. Hands helped her up-she registered a woman's 
features and thought, absurdly, So young, almost a baby-a uniform as well, 
Transit Police, thank God, and a pair of neck chains, the one a crucifix, the 
other a St. Christopher medal hooked to a miniature representation of her 
shield. An electronic chime announced the imminent closing of the subway doors, 
and the woman shouldered Cody outside onto the platform, handing out her bags to 
her.
"You all right?" she asked, continuing after a fractional pause. "You look 
pretty shaken, I'll radio for some help, you just wait here or, if you can 
manage, head upstairs to the token booth."
She'd blocked the door with her leg so it couldn't fully close.
"What," Cody stammered, "you?"
"I'm the only cop on the train," the woman said matter-of-factly.
And she stepped back aboard.
"No," Cody yelled, lunging forward to the door even as the train started moving. 
"No!" She was screaming, staggering along the platform, trying to hold on, keep 
pace, as the train gathered speed; she had no chance, less strength, tripped and 
fell crashing to the platform, her final cry-as the taillights disappeared into 
the darknessmore of a sob. "No!"
A flight of filthy stairs led up from the platform. She collapsed before she'd 
gone halfway, back against the banister, teeth chattering, good eye staring 
straight ahead at the long empty station as though it was the jungle and, any 
second now, she expected a VC attack to come boiling her way, the classic 
"thousand-yard stare" that one of the paramedics-another vet-who eventually came 
in answer to the policewoman's radio call, instantly recognized. He asked if she 
was okay and she nodded, not really hearing, or caring what he said, mostly 
ignoring what was happening around her, hands tucked tight under her armpits, 
making sure the flesh beneath was still her flesh and not some changeling 
nightmare, while she rocked panting back and forth, back and forth, thinking of 
nothing save those awful doll-face lacquer eyes and what they'd almost done to 
her. No joker, she realized, but an ace. A monster. And, whoever he was, 
whatever he was, he was still loose, and still hunting. And the next woman he 
found might not be as lucky. And she thought of the policewoman-and her low, 
keening wail built up into a cry of feral rage that filled the station and 
turned heads and made people step smartly away from her. Madness, she thought, 
not even noticing the sting of the needle as the medic shot a dose of sedative 
into her arm, madness!
I've become Dante, was her last awareness as oblivion claimed her...
... and my world, my home, is Malabolge.
She knew where she was without opening her eye, hospitals have that kind of 
smell and emergency rooms most of all. Problem was, when she opened her eye, she 
didn't believe it. Two men stood over her.
"You okay, miss?" asked the one to her left. "Everybody's favorite question," 
she managed to croak, thankful the rawness of her throat masked the sheer 
amazement that she felt.
He was a centaur, a glorious palomino who looked like he'd just leapt out of the 
"Pastorale" sequence of Disney's Fantasia. The golden coloring carried over to 
his human skin, which gave the impression that he had the most magnificent tan, 
complemented by ash-blond hair and tail. There was a boyish exuberance to his 
face and manner only slightly countered by his concerned expression and the 
surgical scrub shirt and physician's lab coat. Stitched onto the left breast 
pocket was the seal of the Blythe van Renssaeler Memorial Clinic, and pinned 
over it was his ID card.
"Dr. Finn," she finished, reading the name off his tag. "And who are you?" was 
his reply.
"Cody Havero."
"D'you know what day it is?"
"Wouldn't that depend on how long I've been unconscious? It was Thursday-no." 
She rubbed an aching forehead. "That's wrong, isn't it? The plane landed after 
midnight, so I suppose it must be Friday."
"Still is," Finn said cheerfully, making a note on his chart. "No evident 
impairment of cognitive faculties."
"Why should there be?" she muttered, with an undertone of asperity. "I'm 
suffering, if anything, from shock, not a concussion."
"Now, miss..." he began. "Doctor," she corrected. "Yes," Finn replied, thinking 
she'd addressed him. "No," she continued patiently, "I'm a doctor."
"Hiya, Major," the other man said from her blind side, and she rolled her head 
to get a better view. At first glance the joker looked normal. Most people, 
surprisingly, never noticed his affliction right off-even though, in a very real 
sense, it was as plain -as the nose on his face. He had no eyes. Not simply 
eyeless sockets, but no sockets at all, a smooth curve of solid bone from the 
crown of his head to the nasal cavity. But there'd been a compensation, a nose 
that Jimmy Durante would have been proud of, possessing a sensitivity that would 
put a bloodhound to shame.
"Been an age, Sergeant," Cody acknowledged, levering herself up as he bent over 
to give her a rough embrace. "Too fuckin' long, an' that's a fact."
"You two know each other, Scent?"
"Goin' on twenty, Doc," the blind joker replied. "Meet the only woman combat 
cutter in U.S. Army history."
"You were in Vietnam?" Finn asked her. "The Joker Brigade," he added with 
disgust.
"Gotta understand, Doc," Scent said to the young centaur, "there was a lotta 
rationalization back then. Nobody gave a rat fuck about us. Attitude was, we get 
killed, that's one less freak fouling the gene pool. Usual pattern, if a joker 
got medivac'd to an aid station, he'd hardly be there more'n a day before some 
REMF in razor-creased tiger stripes'd slick up from Saigon to collect him. 
Standard excuse was to evac him to a special joker medical facility. Made sense 
actually-at least, most bought it since our regular quarters were in quarantine 
zone. Problem was, this `facility' seemed to be located an hour's flight out 
across the South China Sea. No muss, no fuss, just a thousand-foot-high dive 
into a telegram home to Momma. 'Cept Cody, she didn't buy it. Man showed up on 
her doorstep, she told him to fuck off. Man brought some Saigon khakis to back 
him up..." Finn looked confused.
"Upper-echelon staff officers from MACV headquarters," Cody told him.
"... damn if she didn't have a couple of network camera crews on hand doing 
interviews. Made sure they got pictures of the Man, made sure they had her 
records of the casualties. Any funny business, no way could it be kept quiet. 
Man backed down, did a rabbit. After that, you were a joker and you got hit, you 
moved heaven and earth to get to Cody's doorstep. It was like she was 
magic--nobody ever died on her table."
"I'm afraid, Scent, that string's gone down the drain." Along, she thought, with 
a lot of other things. "I don't mean to sound ungrateful, but why am I here? 
Maybe I'm confused about my New York geography but from what I remember of the 
subway map, isn't Blythe klicks from that station I was in? Aren't there closer 
hospitals?"_
Finn spoke: "All 911 was sure of was some sort of wild-card activity at the 
Lex-Third Avenue station. And, I'm afraid, your reactions to the medics sort of 
spooked them. They figured they had a manifestation on their hands. Procedure in 
those cases is, everything comes to Blythe."
"You were on your way here anyway, right?" Scent chimed in.,
"Lucky me," Cody agreed, but with a bite to her words. Scent chose not to take 
the hint.
"That's right, Major. If there was ever a right move to make, you made it. 
That's luck in my book."
"The train, Finn." He looked quizzically at her. "There was a transit officer," 
she explained, "a woman, who helped me. . ."
"Haven't heard any reports, but there's no reason why we should. I can run a 
check, though."
"Please, do. There was a... creature on the train. Looked like a joker, but. . 
." She paused, shuddering at the memory. "I don't know, I keep thinking there 
was a sense of something...." Her voice trailed off and for a moment she felt 
lost, trying to sort images and memories that refused to stay still, conscious 
only of a need to run that bordered on panic.
"Can I get out of here, please?" she asked. "And if possible, is there someplace 
I can tidy up before I see Dr. Tachyon?"
"Residents have a crash pad, upstairs," Scent said, not giving Finn a chance to 
answer, "where they grab some stray z's when they're tannin' long shifts-I'll 
take you."
"There really is trouble, Scent," she told him as they rode the elevator up two 
flights.
"Ain't that the Lord's gospel--careful," he cautioned suddenly, but Cody was 
already in the process of a quick and nimble two-step over a body that looked 
made from limp spaghetti, spilling out of its chair and partially across the 
hallway. `Nice move.
"That touch, at least, I haven't lost."
"If you'd been a guy, the NFL woulda been your fame an' fortune."
There was no air-conditioning-the system had been overwhelmed by the summer's 
murderous heat, Scent told her, and there simply wasn't money in the budget for 
repairs-and the atmosphere was rotten. The sky outside the windows was only 
beginning to hint at the approaching dawn, heaven help them once the sun 
actually came up. New York, she knew, didn't suffer summer gladly, and this 
August appeared worse than most.
"Scent, something is out there."
"A lotta shit's out there, Cody. An' it's all startin' to come down-hard."
"Shiloh."
"That's right, you were there. Yup"-he sighed"Shiloh. Or worse. Here's the 
hooch. It's a mess, but that's the way you docs seem to like, I guess...."
"When were young and broke and working ninety-six hours at a stretch."
"Break my heart. Anyway, you hungry after, I know a nice diner, coupla blocks' 
walk, serves finest-kind breakfast."
"I'll let you know"
"Take care, Major."
"Thanks, Sergeant. This is one I owe you."
Tachyon's office, surprisingly, was nothing special, standard bureaucratic box 
with a view of the river and the Brooklyn waterfront. One wall of bookshelves 
full of medical texts, a pair of computer terminals on a table underneath 
littered with disks. Tachyon's desk angled so he could look out the windows 
without turning his back on any visitor. It was an antique; she didn't know 
enough to name the period or style, only that it was as magnificent as the small 
sideboard tucked into the corner behind it. The window was wide open, covered 
with a screen, with piles of documents stacked haphazardly on the sill. The sky 
was dark and a whisper of wind stirred the papersstorm signs, a nasty one, and 
she reacted instinctively, stepping behind the desk to shift the material to the 
floor below and lever the window partially closed. Made the room that much 
warmer, by cutting down the admittedly minimal circulation, but at least 
everything in it wouldn't end up drenched. She hoped the rain would mean the end 
of the heat wave, but doubted it. Drought had scarred most of the country this 
summer, days of three-figure temperatures everywhere you went-there was talk up 
and down the Midwest of a return to the Depression dust bowl-and she knew 
firsthand what the weather had done to her beloved mountains. There'd been 
another report on NPR's Morning Edition about the Yellowstone fires, memory 
filling her nostrils with the acrid tang of pine smoke.
"I hope, Dr. Havero, this interview suits you as much as my office clearly 
does."
She jumped, taken by surprise, realizing that she'd sunk down into the chair 
behind the desk-automatically making herself at home-and cursing the fact that 
the door was to her right, her blind side. Began to stammer an apology, vetoed 
the thought, tried instead to pass the faux pas off with a shrug and a smile.
The voice had the natural elegance of a classic noble vampire-which made her 
smile easier-and the man himself was everything his office was not, cut from a 
mold uniquely his own. She found herself looking down at him as they sidled past 
each other, exchanging positions. He was a head shorter. Her left hand went out 
in greetingwhich was when her conscious mind twigged to what her unconscious had 
already registered, that Tachyon's right arm ended at the wrist.
He responded with a soft left-handed handshake, the slightest of smiles 
acknowledging and appreciating her courtesy.
"A meeting I've been looking forward to, actually, for quite some time. Scent -I 
don't know if you're aware, but he's the director of our Vietnam Veterans 
Outreach Program has been singing your praises to these many years." He motioned 
her to take a chair. She'd seen pictures of him, of course, but on paper-and 
especially,- the tube-it was easy to dismiss his eccentric costumes as just 
that, costumes, the man himself trivialized into a character from some tacky 
teleplay.
"But I suspect," he continued, "the anticipation is not quite mutual."
"Is it that obvious," she replied, thinking deliberately loudly, or did you read 
my mind to discover it?
In person, his appearance was no less outrageous, but far more effective. Living 
embodiment of an eighteenthcentury aristo. Plum trousers tucked into gray suede 
buccaneer boots, ruled green shirt beneath orange, doublebreasted waistcoat, the 
effect actually enhanced by its contrast with the white hospital-issue lab coat 
that stood in for the burgundy frock coat hung on a corner rack.
He motioned toward the papers she'd moved. "Much appreciated," he told her, 
ignoring her inner and outer response. "It's often far too easy to be 
overwhelmed by the clutter here. As you might have guessed, I am far from the 
most organized of souls. And good secretaries, especially in Jokertown, are 
damnably hard to find."
The pieces of his face didn't fit together in any manner that might be 
considered classically handsome, yet the sum of the parts was undeniably 
attractive. The same description had often been applied to Cody. Though the end 
result in his case is, she thought, somewhat more delicate. A sling cradled his 
right arm, the stump swathed in fresh bandages, a recent wound. There'd been no 
hint of this in the letter he'd sent inviting her to New York. Wonder what I've 
missed fighting fires in the boonies? she thought. It also helped explain the 
fragility in his manner, she'd seen it herself too often in casualty wards. And 
she remembered her own reactions, coming out of anesthetic to discover her right 
eye gone.
"That what you want from me?"
"Hardly, given your resume." He looked quizzically at her. "Are you always this 
direct?"
"Yes," she said simply.
A sudden shadow crossed the inside of his eyes and she knew somehow she'd 
slipped through his barriers, touched a memory as painful as her own. Her face 
flushed, with anger and resentment, and she didn't bother masking her exultation 
at this small, trivial score. Who the fuck do you think you are, cock? she 
snarled silently, hoping he was listening. What the hell right do you, does 
anyone, have to pick someone else's brain, goddammit, isn't anything private 
anymore?
"Truthfully," he continued, as though nothing untoward had happened, and Cody 
found herself admiring his damnable alien poise as much as she was infuriated by 
it,
"I'd forgotten all about my letter in the press of recent events. I never 
expected an answer."
"Desperation has a way of overcoming even the most primal terrors."
"How clever. I only caught the one news broadcast. What exactly happened?"
She shrugged. "I shot my mouth off, got my ass shot off in return."
"Uncomfortable."
"I should introduce you to my kid, he has exactly the same opinion."
"I'd like to meet him. I have a grandson myself."
"Congratulations."
"Thank you. A true blessing, actually.". From the way he spoke, the faintest 
coloration to his tone, she wondered if that was as true as he obviously wanted 
it to be.
"I'm glad for you."
"And I am still curious."
"Well"--she sighed--"after Chris was born, I packed in city life and headed for 
the high country. My folks left me their ranch-not really much as spreads go, 
nowhere near big enough to support itself, but heaven to live on-so I based 
myself there and hung out my shingle. Small-town GP, doing emergency surgery on 
the side. Figured there'd be the end of things. Until the fires."
"They're still burning. Last spring, hardly anyone knew what we were in for. 
Forest Service followed policy and let the lightning strikes burn uncontested. 
But the weather turned vicious-no rain, sun baking the woods tinder dry, winds 
whipping the flame front into firestorms. Alarm went out to damn near every 
fire-fighting outfit in the country. Indians handled the brunt of the work, 
about the best there are at this business."
"You ever wonder, Doc, if your virus affects the inanimate substance of the 
earth itself? Some of those Indians do. You value your hide, steer well clear of 
Apaches and the Cheyenne. They view the world as a living being, as much so as 
humanity itself. They see what the wild card does to people, they wonder if it 
can twist-even murder-the planet the same way."
"That's preposterous." He was genuinely shocked. She barely noticed. She was in 
the center of a broad mountain meadow with a beaten crew-most so tired they 
couldn't stand, much less run for their lives-staring in horror at a wall of 
flame two hundred meters away, where five minutes before there'd been a stand of 
magnificent timber.
"Maybe. Fires sure seemed alive to us. Sneaky and intelligent, and vicious as a 
bear trap. Forest Service brought in some joker crews to handle the scutwork 
cleanup in the low-intensity areas. They should have been fine. Probably, in any 
other fire, any other summer, they would have. I'm sure you can guess the rest."
"How bad was it?"
She met Tachyon's gaze. "Backfire caught a joker team, tore 'em up pretty badly. 
I was running the aid station inside Yellowstone. Seven came in still alive. All 
critical, badly burned, but they had a chance. We bundled 'em all into a Huey 
and sent it to our main receiving hospital. They turned 'em away. Said they had 
no bed space. Bullshit, of course, we'd transferred half their patients 
precisely so there would be room for our casualties. But they were adamant, no 
admittance. Three other hospitals on our list, got the same response from each. 
Pilot had to bring 'em back. I was running an aid station-the whole point of our 
existence was to get our injured into the air and out to a proper full-care 
facility as fast as humanly possible. I didn't have the staff, I didn't have the 
equipment, to cope with anything more. Took 'em two days to die. For one, in the 
end, drugs didn't help. He was screaming, like a baby-this high-pitched shriek, 
somehow he made himself heard even over the roar of the fire-I found myself once 
looking around for an ax or shovel, cursing myself for not having my gun handy. 
I wanted to smash that poor creature's head in, just to shut him up. I lost it, 
totally, I think by then I was more than a little crazy myself. I found a 
network crew, gave 'em a live interview on morning television."
"I saw that. You were quite impassioned."
"Lot of good it did me. Hospitals had covered themselves perfectly. They hit 
back with loads of righteous indignation. By the time they were through, they'd 
made a plausible case it was my fault. All things considered, it wasn't the best 
of times to take a stand for joker rights. I'd grown up there." A softness had 
crept into her voice, an eerie echo of what she'd heard earlier in Tachyon's, as 
though neither could still quite believe what had happened to them. "I'd made 
that place my home, it was where I raised my son-and five minutes on the Today 
show burned it up as completely as the North Fork fire did the Gallatin Range. 
Forest Service"-she made a face-"shipped me out on the next chopper. Got home, 
discovered my attending privileges at the local hospitals had been revoked. 
Within a week, I started losing patients. Within a month ..."
"Sent out job applications, word got passed back that I'd been blackballed. I 
was a troublemaker, nobody wanted a thing to do with me."
"No one stood by you?"
"You don't know how afraid people are" of your damned virus, she finished 
silently.
There was a twist to his eyes, a small, sad smile, a flash of pain desperately 
masked that told Cody he knew far more than he dared let on.
"So," he said softly, finally, "you're here. . ." She filled in the rest: 
because you have no choice.
"I'm a doctor, this is a hospital. And I need the job."
"I have doctors, Cody, I don't need a doctor. I need my right arm." He made a 
small gesture with it, and didn't bother hiding the flash of pain in his eyes. 
There was a tentativeness now to his voice and manner that seemed to Cody like 
nothing so much as shame.
"We Takisians are so proud a species. We promote an ideal, in thought and deed 
and self. Deformity is cast out. Yet now, as you see, I am deformed. As unworthy 
in flesh to hold my name and rank as I've proved myself so eloquently in deed. 
Perhaps my ultimate penance for bringing the wild card to Earth."
She said nothing.
"I need someone I can trust to help me run this clinic."
"Why me?" she asked.
"Mostly..." He paused a moment, and she wondered whose thoughts he was 
collecting, his own or hers. That was what made this so damnably infuriating-not 
knowing whether he was inside her head or not. And then she thought of what he 
might see-advertently or otherwise hard as it was for her to deal with the nasty 
nooks and crannies of her psyche, how much worse for him? And she had just 
herself to worry about; he was privy to everyone's secret selves. Might be a bit 
much, for even the most hardened voyeur. Then twisted herself back into focus, 
to catch what Tachyon was saying.
"It was Scent who told me about you," he said. "I am a proud man, Cody, but even 
I can't deny anymore my need for help. Or theirs."
She sighed, taking refuge in the view out the window. The sky was more black 
than blue; the storm was about to break.
"I don't know," she said finally. "Then why did you come?"
"I thought..." What? she asked herself. A wayward gust filled the room, carrying 
a stale salt sea smell off the river, and before she was even aware she'd moved, 
she was on her feet, two steps toward the door, hand grabbing instinctively for 
the .45 tucked in the bottom of her purse.
She couldn't move. Stood like a dumbfounded statue, while Tachyon came out from 
behind his desk, violet eyes mixing shock and concern as he gently took the Colt 
from her hand, her purse from her shoulder. They went on the desk. Still frozen, 
she watched him pour a stiff cognac into a cut crystal snifter. Then, he 
released the mind lock.
She didn't fall--though she dearly wanted to-but didn't hit him, either.
She took a cautious sip, the cognac burned deliciously. "That encounter this 
morning must have made quite an impression," he said quietly.
"Seems so," she agreed, trying to will her hands to stop shaking. "I gave as 
complete a description as I could to Dr. Finn."
"I saw. The joker you encountered isn't in our files, but that's hardly 
surprising." It isn't a joker, she screamed silently, don't you understand?
And said instead, as she set down the glass, "This was a mistake, Doctor, I 
think we both know that. I shouldn't have come here. I'm sorry."
"Actually, I think you're right. They're lepers-aces as much as jokers, though 
too many think their powers make them somehow immune. More and more, it seems as 
though every hand is turning against them. People you know suddenly become total 
strangers, people you trust betray you-or, worse, believe you've betrayed them. 
The work we do here is as much psychological as physical; we can't afford such 
ambivalence-and latent hostility-even on a member of the regular staff, much 
less my alter ego."
She started to say, "I know you'll find someone," but left the words silent in 
her throat, because she and he both knew they'd be a lie.
She was almost out the clinic's main foyer-painfully conscious that aside from 
the occasional staff member, she was the only person she saw with anything 
approaching a normal appearance, every so often catching a whispered curse and 
not-so-whispered taunt when Scent caught up with her.
"Sorry to see you didi maul Major," he said.
"Win some, lose some, Scent. We should be used to that."
"This summer--after that fuckin' convention--I feel like we're bein' fuckin' 
overrun. Prob'ly makin' the smart play, buggin' out while you can."
"Yeah."
"Look, that ain't why I'm here. The joker you ran into--I can't say for sure 
since I can't see to make sure, but I think they just brought it in, DOA."
"Where?"
"Morgue."
"Can you show me?"
No attendants in the body shop, only a single pathologist on duty, a nat, more 
than willing to give full vent to his anger at the city medical bureaucracy for 
sending him to this gulag. He knew of Cody, figured that made them kindred 
spirits; they both stood up to the system and got royally screwed. She figured 
him for a jerk, but wasn't about to let on with him in a mood to help.
The corpse lay on the examining table and Cody was surprised to discover it no 
less disturbing dead than alive. "Pretty fucking gross," the pathologist agreed.
She didn't reply at first as she continued her examination, mentally comparing 
the body before her with the one imprinted in her mind's eye. "Ever see anything 
like it?" she asked, at last.
"You kiddin'? Jeez, I hope not. B'sides, I thought each manifestation of the 
virus was unique."
"That's the theory," she agreed. "Any chance of a positive identification?"
"Not a fucking prayer, pardon my French. Other than the fact it's female."
"Female?" she asked sharply.
"Yeah." He shrugged. "Take a look. No tits to speak of, but what appear to be 
appropriate genitalia. I suppose, during the post, I can check to see if the 
internal plumbing matches."
"Do it." She spoke with such an automatic, offhand voice of command that he 
responded by writing the order down in his workbook, assuming she was senior 
staff. "About the ID?"
"No hands, which means no fingerprints; no way we'll get retinagrams from those 
eyes; and dental records ... ?" He pointed to the sawtooth fangs filling the 
partially open mouth. "This is a complete physical metamorphosis--'cept, of 
course, bein' a joker, nothing works like it's supposed to. So you got an 
aquatically configured creature who can't live in water. Flippers for swimming, 
but no gills."
Cody looked at the thickly massive, almost elephantine flippers that were the 
creature's "feet."
"What can you tell me about these?" she asked. "Whaddya mean"-he stifled a 
yawn-"other than what I already said?"
"Any wear and tear?"
"You can see that for yourself. Same kinda shit you'd have on your feet, you 
walked around barefoot. Especially in this town."
"Hasn't been doing it long, then?"
"Doubtful. Any real amount of time, they'd develop rough, horny calluses, scar 
tissue from the constant pounding and abrasion. Probably compression of the 
legbones, as well-y'see, these really aren't feet in any sense that we mean it, 
they aren't designed for walking. Nah, y'ask me, Doc, this baby's right outta 
the box."
"And somebody sure as shit wasn't happy to see her." He pulled aside the sheet 
that covered the joker's torso, revealing a pair of fearful wounds. "You ever 
see jaws," he asked, and as Cody nodded, "when I was in med school, we got some 
poor sumbitch, did a dance with a tiger shark. Same kinda bite structure. 'S 
funny." He stepped away from the table, gave the corpse a long look-and Cody 
revised her opinion of the man; for all his annoying behavior, he appeared to be 
good at his job. "If I didn't know better, I'd almost say the joker did this to 
herselfsimilar bite radius, actually a little larger, same kind of teeth 
structure. But no way could her mouth reach around to make those wounds."
"Maybe-twins?"
"You serious? Jeez, I hope not."
She looked at the creature's shoulder. The bite there had splintered bone and 
savaged the network of vessels leading out from the heart. "Cause of death?"
"Cardiac arrest, due to loss of blood, directly resultant from extreme, violent 
physical trauma."
"Who found her?"
"Work crew, I think. Transit. Scared 'em outta two lifetimes' growth, I hear. 
Shit. I do not understand how they get anyone to work down in those holes."
"Where?" Cody asked as he paused for breath.
"Got me there." He looked at his notes. "We don't have the full sheet yet, 
prob'ly at the precinct or en route, I only know the who 'cause the EMS crew was 
griping about coming here while the other ambulance got to transport the live 
ones to Bellevue. I guess that at least places it in Manhattan. What you got, 
Doc, something?"
"Not sure. Pair of tweezers."
"Here go. Looks shiny. Piece of chain, maybe, wedged into the wound. Holy shit," 
he exclaimed as Cody worried free both the chain and the medal it was attached 
to. There was almost nothing left of the miniature shield, but the St. 
Christopher medal was pretty much intact. Pity it hadn't protected the wearer.
"Doc, you all right? You look awful gray, want some water?"
She waved him back, one hand clenched tight into a fist, supporting her weight 
on the table while the other held the tweezers. Poor woman, she thought, 
completed the transformation barely begun with me. Not just an ace, the son of a 
bitch is a predator.
"Draw a blood sample. I want a test for the presence of the wild card."
"Why waste the time? Open your eyes an' take a look. She's a joker, that much is 
obvious."
"Humor me." She gave him a look, for additional inspiration; he got the message. 
"Quick as you can, please," she told him, "and send the results to Tachyon."
She sat at Tachyon's desk, trying to push thoughts onto paper, mostly staring at 
the blank legal pad in front of her, twirling the fountain pen she'd found. Fine 
point, with a clear, elegant line-got the job done but with a special little 
flourish if you wished. Like Tachyon. She hoped Tachyon was a southpaw, or 
possibly ambidextrous; it would be hell retraining to use the lesser side, the 
writing technique would never be as fluid, each word a reminder of-how had he 
put it?-his "deformity."
She thought of her own loss and wondered why it hadn't crippled her. By rights, 
she should have been finished as a surgeon-there was no depth perception with 
one eye, no way to tell precisely how far away things were, yet she never had a 
problem. She always seemed to know where to reach, was always a split second 
ahead of the people around her, somehow sensing what they were going to do, 
where they'd be. Folks always interpreted it as luck-and so did she, to an 
extent, on the rare occasions when she actually thought about it.
She made a rude face and ruder noise-if it were truly luck, she should be a lot 
better off than she was-and started scribbling notes. According to Brad Finn, 
Tachyon had been summoned to the local precinct "Fort Freak." Cody wondered if 
that had anything to do with the policewoman, wondered further what kind of 
effect her own news would have. A predator ace was bad enough, but one who went 
around transforming nats into jokers was everyone's worst nightmare, a return to 
the panicked days of last spring, when Typhoid Croyd roamed the city, and 
Manhattan had been placed temporarily under martial law. She'd thought of 
confiding in Finn-she liked the centaur-but didn't know him anywhere near well 
enough to trust him. The memory of what happened in Wyoming was still too raw; 
people she'd known had lied, those she'd trusted had turned away from her. She 
was determined never to be that vulnerable again. Scent, whom she'd trust with 
her life, was long gone home.
She considered sticking around till Tachyon's return, but found she couldn't 
stay still. Rain was sheeting downbad sign, since the long breaks between 
lightning flash and thunder indicated the heart of the storm had yet to 
arrive-but the violent weather did nothing to ease the oppressive atmosphere. 
Quite the opposite. She prowled the office, without a clue as to why she was on 
edge, wary in ways she hadn't been since the 'Nam. Easy to be confused, hot rain 
and steamy air more common to the Mekong Delta than Manhattan. It was like this 
at Shiloh, in the evening twilight, when everyone knew Charley was in the jungle 
beyond the wire, waiting for full night before he came visiting.
She sealed her report and the evidence in a manila envelope, left it on 
Tachyon's desk, decided to call it quits while she hopefully was ahead.
The illusion lasted as far as the clinic's main entrance, where a laugh of 
genuine amusement greeted her query about the possibility of getting a taxi. The 
guard let her use his phone to try to call a radio cab. Most of the numbers got 
her a busy signal and the few companies she actually reached--after what seemed 
like an age on holdhung up the moment she gave the address. A local gypsy cab 
pulled up, dropping off a joker. The driver was another one. But when Cody 
dashed to the curb, and he saw she was a nat, he gave her the finger with a hand 
shaped like a bird's claw and sped away, plowing though the biggest puddle at 
hand in the bargain, to add insult to injury.
"Fuck this," she muttered wearily, as furious with the growing joker prejudice 
as she was with its nat counterpart. Maybe she'd do better back in Chinatown or 
Little Italy. At least there she could get herself a meal; she hadn't eaten 
since the pathetic excuse for supper served by the 'airline on her flight in.
Streets were deserted, everyone with sense taking refuge under cover till the 
brunt of the storm passed. It was a true monsoon, water descending in an almost 
solid mass, overwhelming the capacity of the drains and turning most corners 
into ankle-deep ponds. The streets here dated back to the nineteenth century, 
like the buildings, cobblestone supposedly covered with asphalt. But no repairs 
had been made this summer, which meant that in a lot of places the asphalt had 
been worn down to the original pavement, which made the footing treacherous.
She thought she was going the right way, following the directions the guard had 
given her, but the streets didn't make sense. Most of Manhattan was laid out on 
a grid system, with streets running east west and northsouth. It took real 
effort to get lost. Not so down here. Some of the streets were more like alleys 
and they canted off in wild directions from the main avenues, which themselves 
followed the natural curve of the island. The buildings were old and looked it, 
mostly constructed in the last half of the last century, walk-up tenements that 
had never seen better days and probably weren't likely to. She smiled to 
herself-but only half in jest, another part of her took this perfectly 
seriously-and imagined the wild-card virus turning these old tenements into 
living beings, who played musical chairs with each other to confuse any 
visitors. Were the windows eyes, watching her every move, the doorways mouths? 
If she ducked into one to get out of the rain, would she be eaten? She scoffed, 
but edged out toward the middle of the street, rationalizing it by telling 
herself that this was the best place to flag down any cruising cab. Sumbitch 
would have to run her down to get by. Assuming, of course, one ever came. She'd 
walked more than far enough, she should have reached the periphery of Jokertown, 
but there wasn't a Chinese store sign in sight.
Then, on the corner, she saw a bright green globe set on a dirty green 
railing-she remembered that meant a subway station. What the fuck, she thought, 
and was down the steps in a flash, shaking herself like a half-drowned pup to 
get the worst of the wet off her before fumbling in her bag-which she'd had 
sense enough to wear under her slicker-for a dollar for a token. When she asked 
the clerk for directions, she found she was on the wrong platform. This was the 
downtown side, the trains here would take her under the East River to Brooklyn.
"Is there an underpass?" she asked, not terribly enthusiastic about the prospect 
of going back out into the storm, even if only to cross the street.
"Wouldn't matter if there was," the clerk-to Cody's surprise, another 
joker-replied, passing a copper token through the tiny slot. "Platform's closed, 
Us doing work on those tracks."
"Wonderful."
"They're s'posed to be finished by now, that's why the work's done mostly at 
night so the lines and stations are open for day traffic, 'specially at rush 
hour, but the storm's probably got 'em backed up some. Some serious rain," he 
added sympathetically.
"And then some," she agreed. "So could you tell me, at least, which line am I 
on, I didn't see the sign outside."
"This is the F ma'am. IND Sixth Avenue local." Cody didn't really hear the last 
line, she was making a slow, careful turn toward the station, sweeping the 
platform the same as she would a hostile tree line. She shook her head 
violently, chiding herself for reacting like a baby. Jokertown may well be 
strange country, but she was no cherry; she knew how to handle herself, and it 
wasn't like this.
"How do I go uptown, then?" she asked, satisfied that so far as she could 
eyeball-she was alone outside the booth.
"Take the F to Jay Street Borough Hall, then hoof it up the stairs, over to the 
uptown platform. Got your choice there, miss, between the F and the A.F.'ll take 
you straight up the middle of the island, but the A makes better connections. 
You want a map?"
She'd mislaid the last one. "Thanks," with a smile. "What we're here for. Got a 
rash or somethin'?" And when she responded with a confused look, wondering what 
he was talking about: "Been scratching your hand pretty hard, must itch awful 
bad."
She looked down, she hadn't been aware she was doing it-was the skin numb? and 
she went cold, inside and out. The back of her hand glittered impossibly in the 
fluorescent light, with the faintest silvery cast.
She looked toward the stairs. Water was pouring down-an impressive cascade, as 
good as many fountainsthe stream flowing past her down the slightly angled 
platform, through the gates, toward the tracks. She could hear other waterfalls 
inside, from the ventilation and maintenance grids set into the sidewalk above.
She'd been saved last time. And the policewoman had paid the price. Is that my 
fault? she asked herself. How could I have known? But what's the link now? And 
comprehension narrowed her eye. Perhaps that was the keyshe was the one that got 
away. An ace that looks like a joker, with the power to transform people into 
beings like himself. No, she realized, with a flash of inspiration, not 
people-women! The wild-card deck deals only one of a kind, each victim is forced 
to live their life unique and alone. And someone as awful as that ace, he 
wouldn't have even a hope of normal companionship. But if his power is to make a 
companion ... ? Fair enough-the lady cop was proof of that. Cody didn't have to 
imagine how the ace's victims felt-some awful instinct told her that she and the 
policewoman hadn't been the first. But if so, she thought, why hasn't anyone 
noticed; if there are others, what happened to them?
As she worked through all this, she began walking forward, head tracking slowly 
back and forth, giving her eye a clear field of everything in front of her. The 
turnstile sounded surprisingly loud as she passed through--everything did, her 
senses were operating at a peak they hadn't achieved since the war. So far as 
she could see, the platform was empty.
Keep putting the pieces together, she told herself, see what you build. Okay, 
the ace transforms women-perfectly understandable, he's alone and lonely, he 
wants a mateonly they don't like it. And she remembered the bite marks on the 
dead policewoman, and let her head loll back against the tiIe wall behind her. 
Is that it, has to be, explains why there've been no sightings-he kills them. 
She held up her hand, trying to tell herself the silver sparkles weren't 
flashing a fraction more brightly. She was unfinished business. Moby Dick, 
perhaps, to his Ahab.
Tachyon had broken down the gun when he took it away from her; she checked the 
clip to make sure it was full, then shoved it into the butt of her .45. She 
pulled the slide to chamber a round, snapped on the safety, and tucked the heavy 
automatic behind the small of her back, under her belt. Not the most comfortable 
of improvised holsters--especially given the guns weight--but she wanted to be 
able to get at it in a hurry without having to fumble with her bag. The bag, 
though, was another problem, an encumbrance she could do without.
There was a rush of air from the tunnel, two spots of light off in the distance 
that slowly rocked toward her for what seemed like the longest time before 
suddenly exploding out of the darkness, revealing the sleek, graymetal box shape 
of the subway train. As the train slowed, she peered through each window, hoping 
for a sight of the ace-but all the cars that passed had people in them. She 
dashed for the next one in line, the conductor-not wanting to spend any more 
time than necessary at this particular stop-closing the doors just as she snaked 
through. A few passengers gave her the eye, probably wonderinglike the cabbie 
this morning, seemed to Cody like another age, another world-what she was, 
whether she was one of them. She met their gazes, same as she had after 
returning from the 'Nam, while moving the length of the car, automatically 
checking every seat. She tried the connecting door, but unlike on the train 
she'd ridden that morning, these were kept locked. Damn, she snarled silently, a 
complication she didn't need. At least, she could see through the grimy window 
that the next car had people in it, she could bypass it and go on to the one 
beyond.
She got that chance at York Street, on the fringe of Brooklyn Heights, ducking 
out the doors the moment they opened and sprinting fast as she could to the ones 
she wanted. There was the normal flow of passengers here, she had time to reach 
them. Problem was, her shoesperfectly adequate for job interviews-were not cut 
out for this kind of work. No support, less traction. Couldn't be helped, she 
had to manage with what she had, wouldn't be the first time.
This car was fine, too, and the one beyond, and the ones beyond that, as the 
train trundled through Jay Street and then Bergen. She was beginning to feel 
more than a little silly, dashing about like a madwoman, armed to the teeth, 
chasing a creature that could be anywhere along the subway systems hundreds of 
miles of tracks. There were no odds for her catching up with him-what made her 
think he'd be on this train, or even this line?-and if she did, she wondered 
wryly, would that be the best of luck, or the worst? And yet this was where he'd 
made his last attack, better than nothing to go on. Why her, though? Wasn't her 
job, or her nature--she was neither cop nor hero. Just stubborn.
The fiery numbness had spread up her forearm. Is that a function of proximity, 
she asked herself, does it mean we're coming closer? Sign on the wall read 
CARROLL
STREET. She made her move, as usual, as the doors opened, but she slipped on the 
rain-slick platform, bags unbalancing her enough so she couldn't recover, went 
down hard on one knee, pain splintering her concentration for a moment. She 
tried to lever herself up as she heard the door chime, called hoarsely to the 
conductor to wait as she tried for the nearest door, but he had his schedule to 
keep and they closed in her face. "Damn," she said over and over again as the 
train rumbled on its way, "damn damn damn damn damn!"
Nothing for it, she knew, but to wait for another one. There was some blood on 
her knee, small firebursts of pain as she gingerly put her weight on it-and a 
nasty tear in the already ruined panty hose-but as she lifted up to her full 
height, she found it would bear her weight, no problem. Thank heaven for small 
favors, she thought. And then she breathed the smell of a marshy shore at low 
tide.
Oh shit, she thought, reacting simultaneously, faster than she ever dreamed 
possible, starting a twisting dive that would buy her some distance and allow 
her to bring her gun to bear. The move was just enough to save her-the blow that 
should have knocked her senseless clipping the back of her skull, showering her 
thoughts with stars-but there was no grace to her landing, an awkward belly flop 
that left her sprawled on the slimy concrete. She rolled desperately sideways, 
managing to get off a shot her bullet spyanging uselessly off the ceiling-before 
a massive tentacle slapped the gun from her hand, the force of the blow tumbling 
her off the platform and onto the track bed. As she landed, she heard a sharp 
clatter, her gun falling to the tracks a level below, where another line ran 
parallel to this one.
She pushed herself out of the muck, her mouth full of the oceanic garbage-dump 
stench of the ace, so thick each breath made her gag; she knew it was her he 
wanted, had no illusions as to what would happen then. Even if she survived, 
that prospect was too horrible to contemplate. So she ran.
The track bed seemed to angle upward as it left the station, and not far away 
she thought she saw a glow that perhaps meant open air. Sure enough, the tunnel 
rose out of the ground. The rain hadn't let up, it was like running into the 
ultimate bathroom shower, the drops striking with such force they actually hurt. 
There was a wind here as well, blowing off the harbor, trying to shove her back 
underground. She staggered to the wall that flanked the tracks, tried to clamber 
over, couldn't get a decent grip, yelped as her scrabbling hand snagged one of 
the strands of barbed wire hung along the top.
A rumble-felt as much as heard-heralded the passage of a Manhattan-bound F on 
the opposite track. Her brain was totally fogged, as though she'd been drugged; 
the reality of the train didn't even register until it was too late for her to 
try to get the driver's attention. And though she waved, called, none of the 
passengers appeared to notice. But following the tracks as they curved along the 
viaduct, she dimly made out the lights of a station at its crest, the next one 
on the line. Not so far away, she thought, I can make it, easy. Tossed her 
remaining shoe, ignored the pain as stones and worse poked at her feet.
Did all right at first, no worse than a morning jog up a mountain road, wasted 
no effort looking over her shoulderthe ace was either there or he wasn't-better 
to assume the one than confirm the other. Rain tasted surprisingly sweet, for 
all its elemental fury, but that was the only sensation it sparked in her. She 
couldn't feel it strike her skin, it was as though she'd been wrapped in some 
impermeable membrane, mind suddenly disassociated from her body. A bellowed 
cry-rage and futile protest, the animal in her snared by an unbreakable 
trap-erupted from her gut as that awful, remembered tickling danced against the 
underside of her skin. The flesh she could see wasn't tanned anymore, the 
silver'd turned gray and oily, the arms (Illusion, she gabbled silently, dear 
Christ let this be my imagination) no longer quite as firm as once they'd been, 
seeming to flex and curve with a horrible, boneless grace. Her teeth didn't fit 
and every part of her body felt ready to explode, skin stretched, shrink-wrapped 
impossibly, unbearably taut over bones that had turned to razor blades. Each 
step became an efort. Her legs hadn't changedexcept to acquire the same 
opalescent sheen as her armsbut they felt petrified. The joints wouldn't bend-at 
knees or hips-she had to swing her entire body to shift them. She was near the 
crest of the viaduct, better than six stories up, no buildings close enough to 
risk a jump-even if she was capable of trying. The station was her only hope.
He caught her.
With the casual roughness of someone supremely confident of his strength, he 
wrapped a tentacle around her neck and yanked her flat; the impact shocked her 
breathless, she couldn't move. He dropped heavily on her, main tentacles pinning 
each arm, while the secondary nests scrabbled at her blouse, popping the 
buttons, shredding it and the bra underneath. There was a broad concrete median 
separating the tracks, that's where they'd fallen-easily spotted from the 
station on any sort of decent day, impossible in this gale. His penis lay like a 
bar across her belly as he shifted position, releasing one arm so he could tear 
her skirt and panties out of the way. She hit him, hard as she could; all she 
did now was hurt her hand. She tried for his eyes but the ace was ready for her, 
caught her arm, forced it back down.
New voice, making itself heard inside her head, through the shrieking berserker 
rage, calling her name. "Tachyon," she screamed, without knowing if she used her 
voice or mind or both.
Where are you? Were the words really his, or was this some psychotic trick her 
own mind was playing, giving her one last imaginary reed to hold on to?
There's no time, was her reply. She was boiling inside, all the elements of her 
self seething, bubbling, losing cohesion. He had her, the transformation was 
approaching critical mass; she knew that in a matter of minutes, it would be 
done.
Help me, then, Tachyon told her. Open your mind, Cody, of I'm to do anything, I 
have to see him!
Come, she thought. And nothing happened. No sense of trespass, or of another 
presence. None of the imagery she'd read of in a thousand books and comics.
But there was a glaze to the ace's eyes, and his body had gone rigid.
He's frozen, Cody, Tachyon said, but I'm not sure how long I can hold him.
She wriggled arms free of his tentacles, tucked her legs up as best she could, 
refusing this last time any of her body's protests as she forced it to move, 
then heaved as hard as she could. He shifted, started to stir in response she 
didn't need Tachyon's frantic mental cry to know what that meant-bellowed like a 
weight lifter for a final effort, arms starting the ace on his way, legs doing 
the bulk of the work, shunting him back and sideways, he rolled sort of like a 
Humpty-Dumpty toy, so much weight so low on his body that he couldn't get a 
decent balance until he came to rest. The scene was splashed by blinding light 
-a train pulling out of the station, headlamps illuminating the scene-and then 
there was a brighter flash, sparks and flame and a shriek of agony as a flailing 
limb slapped the third rail. The ace bounced and spasmed and roared as 
electricity ripped through him-and for a moment Cody thought he might pull free 
and somehow escape. But she'd reckoned without the train. The engineer applied 
his brakes the moment he saw them, but he had too much momentum on the slope and 
the rain had made the rails slick, and even as it shrieked to a stop, the lead 
bogies crushed the creature to bloody pulp.
As the train crew scrambled to her aid, she heard the electronic whoop of police 
sirens, converging faintly from all sides-before long, the viaduct was thick 
with blue rain slickers, the distant platform spotlit by TV minicam news crews. 
She hadn't moved-didn't have the strength-she just lay in a half sprawl, on her 
side, staring at the smoking remains, ignoring the shocked, scandalized, 
fascinated stares of the passengers.
Now, there was a presence in her mind-Tachyon's thoughts with hers even as he 
pounded up the flights of stairs from Smith Street far below. He drew a psychic 
setting from the places she loved best, and was kind enough not to react when 
that turned out to be Firebase Shiloh, in Vietnam's central highlands. Her 
physical appearance was the same here as in objective reality-no idealization to 
her mental image of herself-but there was a relaxed, confident strength to her 
that gave the feeling she was a rock, to which anyone could anchor and be 
protected. Tachyon allowed himself to be blended into the psiscape-muttering 
with characteristic dismay at the ultimate lack of style embodied in military 
combat fatigues (the color scheme was utterly awful-and then, slowly, gently, 
began to integrate Cody's mental imagery back into the real world outside. So 
that by the time he slipped free of Cody's awareness, she was over the shock of 
the moment, centered once more in mind, if not body-which, pushed far beyond its 
brink, promptly collapsed.
She awoke in a top-floor single at Blythe-she figured that out from the view-and 
at first luxuriated in the simple ecstasy of being human. She flexed her 
fingers, watching the glow of the morning sun on her arms, and marveled that the 
only sheen was due to honest, human sweat.
"Sleep well?" Tachyon asked from a chair against the wall, stretching with a 
small groan to ease the stiffness in his back.
She answered with a smile and marveled a little at how relaxed it felt. Didn't 
think she had that in her anymore, shocking in retrospect to discover how deeply 
the tension of the past few months had left its mark. How delicious she felt to 
be free of it.
She started to form a question, but he answered before the thoughts had even 
coalesced.
"Yes, I've been here all night."
She wondered if she should be angry-obviously the mind link had left its own 
mark, a duality of being that might well make both their lives miserable-decided 
it was a pointless exercise. What was, was; what mattered was dealing with it 
and moving on.
"Admirable philosophy," Tachyon agreed, laughing at her sharp sigh of asperity. 
"Actually, though, things aren't as bad as all that. I've been monitoring you 
while you slept."
She couldn't help a giggle at the thought of him walking sentry, marching back 
and forth across the gateway to her consciousness. The image was strong enough 
to bring a chuckle to his lips as well.
"Making sure," he finished, "there was no residue from your encounter with 
Sludge."
"How'd you learn his name?"
"Any psychic contact involves entering into a degree of rapport. I can't help 
learning some things. In Sludge's case"-he shrugged, mixing dismissal and 
disgust "the thoughts were relatively simple, desire-oriented. He was not an 
intellect, by any stretch of the imagination. Cunning more than intelligence. 
`Sludge' was the name he chose for himself."
"He was an ace?"
"Autopsy confirmed that analysis of his blood just as it revealed the body in 
our morgue to be a nat. As near as we've been able to determine, he's been 
roaming the subways and other tunnels beneath the city for quite some time, 
preying mostly on runaways and the homeless, the underclass who'd never be 
missed. And none of us realized-"
"How many?"
"Victims?" He sniffed, gazing out the window-but she knew he was looking back 
through the ace's memories. "Impossible to know. Sludge had very little 
cognitive capacity. Quite a few, I suspect."
"He killed them all."
"He ate them."
They were silent a long while. Faintly, Cody heard a page over the hospital's PA 
system. Gritting her teeth against the possibility of pain or weakness, she 
levered herself to her feet. There was an IV running in her left arm; she 
pinched off the junction and popped the tube, then hobbled the half-dozen small 
and gingerly steps to Tachyon. He seemed so small before her, yet the image she 
remembered from her mind was as strong and resilient as she imagined herself to 
be. She pressed her body against his back, wrapping her arms around his 
shoulders, resisting the temptation to set her chin atop his head. He reached up 
to take her wrists in his good hand and rest his chin on them. She didn't need 
to see his eyes to recognize the sober, haunted expression in them. She'd seen 
the same in hers, too often, when she'd lost a patient that she believed could 
have been saved.
"A new twist," he said, allowing a faint edge of bitterness to the words, "on 
the old expression `you always kill the one you love.'"
"Not to mention," Cody couldn't help responding, " 'you are what you eat.'"
He laughed, a spontaneously explosive snort that caught them both by surprise, 
then turned somber again: "Why did you go haring off like that?"
"Impetuous broad, that's me. I gather you got my message."
"Brad Finn came over to the precinct in person. I just missed you, evidently. 
Captain Ellis had squad cars cruising Jokertown looking for you. We heard the 
report of a shot fired at Carroll Street..."
" ... and then I heard your outcry."
"Thanks for listening."
He turned to face her. "You don't understand. In a city this size, a telepath 
has to maintain. fairly strong shields simply to keep from being overwhelmed by 
the sheer volume of psychic `noise.' I have to be attuned to a person to `hear' 
them; that almost never happens after a single, casual encounter."
"Perhaps it wasn't so casual, then."
"Apparently not."
"Tachyon, whatever the reason, I'm grateful for it."
"In time-fairly short order, actually-we won't resonate on quite so common a 
frequency. I'll still be unusually sensitive to you, but it will take a 
conscious effort to scan your thoughts."
"Over what range?"
"To be honest, I've no idea. This has never happened with anyone, in quite the 
same way. I'm sorry."
"For what, saving my life?"
"I created that monster. Those poor women Sludge slaughtered, their deaths are 
on my conscience."
"Welcome to the club."
"You don't understand."
"I'm a surgeon. I spent three years as a combat cutter. I do understand. So 
what?"
"It's my responsibility."
"Fine." She deliberately took him by his maimed right arm. "Be responsible. You 
can't change the past, any more than I can resurrect the patients I've lost--or 
the people I've actually killed. Yeah"-she nodded-"there's blood on my hands, 
too, it was a war, it came with the territory. And if there's a hereafter, maybe 
I'll get to deal with it then. Who cares? It's done. But at least I've come to 
terms with it. Taken my terror out of the closet, where I've been denying it 
even existed, and hung it out in the open with the other nightmares, where I can 
get a good look at it, see it for what it is-and me for what I am. Doesn't mean 
that doesn't hurt, and won't for a long time yet to come. But it's there. I can 
deal with it. Try that yourself, might be in for a surprise."
"You're needed, Cody," he said simply. "I'm a doctor, Tachyon, not a crutch."
He half raised his stump in its sling, then let it fall, his shoulders slump. 
"So you'll be going, then," he said. "Gotta find someone to look after the 
ranch---couple o' guys I know in Colorado, vets, could do a fair job, give 'em a 
call before I fly out spring the news on Chris, pack up the place, find a decent 
rack here in town." He looked at her in amazement, not altogether sure he was 
hearing right. "Assuming, of course"-the deliberate seriousness in her voice 
belied by the lop-sided smile at the edge of her mouth-"we can agree on a 
salary"
Tachyon had the decency to cough. "I'm, ah, sure we can work something out," he 
hazarded.
"Let's not presume too much, shall we?" Cody said, giving the smile full rein.
She held out her hand.
And Tachyon, his own smile a match for hers, took it.


Nobody Knows Me Like My Baby
by Walton Simons
The left side of Tachyon's desk was littered with charts and paper. The right 
was almost bare. Jerry was trying hard not to look at the prosthetic hand, but 
his perverse side demanded a glance or two. Tachyon hadn't caught him at it. 
There was a visible hardness to the plastic that was out of place on the alien, 
and the color was a flesh tone or two off.
"How is your adjustment coming, Jeremiah?" Tachyon looked at Jerry and then 
glanced out his office window into Jokertown.
"Fine. I mean, there's rough spots here and there." Jerry smiled. Tachyon looked 
even more tired than usual. His already pale skin had less color and his red 
hair was dull and poorly kept, at least for Tachyon.
"You're sure. You seem a bit... withdrawn."
Jerry always felt as transparent as Chrysalis' skin when talking to Tachyon. But 
Chrysalis was dead. So was Jerry's pretense that life was wonderful. "Well, I 
just, you know, sometimes I think I don't relate well to women. They make me 
feel inadequate. Worse than that, they make me feel needy. I'd give my-" Jerry 
caught himself in time. "I just want somebody to see me the way I am and love me 
for it."
Tachyon nodded slowly. "Only what we all want, Jeremiah. I suspect you are, in 
fact, very well loved. Perhaps you're simply unaware of it. Try to temper your 
patience with the knowledge that love often comes when you've tired of looking 
for it. As for alienation from the opposite sex, we all deal with that, too. I 
seem to have specialized in it myself. Of course, being from Takis, I have my 
own built-in excuse."
It wasn't what Jerry wanted to hear. He was tired of trying to be patient. But 
he hadn't expected Tachyon to turn over his little black book either. Not that 
any woman could keep him from thinking about Veronica. "Sounds like good advice, 
I guess. Easier to say than do, though." Sirens passed by outside. Jerry 
glimpsed red light flashing on the side of a building the next block over. 
Tachyon looked, too. Jerry had never seen the blinds closed on that window, even 
though the only things visible were beat-up buildings, garbage, the occasional 
car, and jokers. Jerry only came to Jokertown to visit the clinic once a month.
"Something else," Jerry said, trying to regain Tachyon's attention. "My power is 
coming back."
Tachyon looked at him for a long moment. "It never went away, Jeremiah. You were 
traumatized so severely that you ceased to trust it. That trust must be coming 
back for your shape-changing ability to be manifesting itself again. If you're 
pleased, then I'm pleased for you. The current political climate being what it 
is, you might do well to keep this to yourself. The public thinks your ace is 
gone. Maintaining that image is in your best interest, believe me."
"Right." Jerry could tell Tachyon was ready for him to leave. He reached in his 
coat pocket and pulled out a check, then placed it carefully on the left side of 
the desk. "Here's September's donation."
Tachyon picked up the folded-over check and clumsily opened it with his one good 
hand. He nodded and smiled. "This does more good than you know, Jeremiah. A few 
dozen more like you and the clinic might actually cover expenses."
"I'm glad to do it," Jerry said. It was true. There were so few places where he 
knew his money was well spent, and two thousand a month was a drop in the 
Strauss family bucket.
The door opened and a woman in a lab smock walked in. She had dark hair and a 
patch over one eye. She looked past Jerry at Tachyon. "Two more beatings," she 
said. Her voice was restrained, but angry. "One of them might make it. The 
other..." She rubbed her forehead. Jerry backed away and moved around her toward 
the office door. Tachyon motioned him to wait.
"Jeremiah, this is our new chief of surgery here, Dr. Cody Havero. Doctor, meet 
a friend of the clinic." He held up the check. "And a patron as well, Jeremiah 
Strauss."
Cody turned and looked at him. She was very pretty, for an authority figure. 
Cody offered a hand and a strained smile. Jerry shook her hand and smiled back. 
Her grip was strong and sure. Exactly the way he imagined a doctor's hands 
should be.
"Nice to meet you, Mr. Strauss."
"My pleasure, Doctor." Jerry was pleased he'd called her by her title. She was 
both threatening and comforting, and certainly physically attractive in spite of 
the eye patch.
He damn sure didn't want her first impression of him to be a rich, sexist jerk.
"See you next month, Jeremiah," Tachyon said. "Unless you need me for anything. 
If so, just give me a call."
"You'll be at Aces High next week, won't you? It's my first chance to go to one 
of Hiram's Wild Card Day dinners."
Tachyon sighed. "Yes, for Hiram's sake, I'll be there. Although I can't imagine 
it will be a very festive occasion." Jerry nodded and backed out the door, 
closing it behind him. He got the impression that Tachyon wanted to be alone 
with Cody. Not that Jerry blamed him. He imagined Veronica on black silk sheets, 
wearing an eye patch and nothing else.
Stop it, he thought. She's canceled out on you two of the last three times. Just 
find somebody else. Somebody you don't have to pay. How hard can it be?
"As hard as me, kid," said a Bogart voice in his head.
Aces High was a smorgasbord of sight and sound. The smells of fresh bread, fine 
meat in wine sauces, and expensive perfume assaulted his nostrils. The people 
were out of the ordinary, too. But that was always the case at Hiram's Wild Card 
Day dinner. They'd gotten there early. Both he and Beth had wanted to see all 
the notables make their entrances. Kenneth hadn't been particularly happy about 
Jerry borrowing Beth for the evening, but refused to come with them, saying 
there was too much work at the office.
Jerry stood up. "Want anything in the way of an appetizer?"
Beth sighed. "No. I'll save it for the main course." She waved him away.
Jerry wandered slowly over to a large table covered with salads, pates, breads, 
and a few things he didn't recognize as food. There was a crystal mobile of the 
Four Aces and Tachyon over it. There were also holograms of many of the more 
famous aces on the walls. Jerry knew better than to look for an image of 
himself. He picked up a plate and eased in across from Fantasy, who had a young 
man on either arm. Jerry had met her on the Stacked Deck world tour. Although 
his memory of that period was fuzzy, he did recall Fantasy as one of the most 
obviously sexual women he'd ever seen. Tonight she was wearing a long, 
pearl-colored skirt and matching semitransparent top. The dark nipples on her 
small breasts were all Jerry could see when he looked in her direction. He hoped 
Beth hadn't noticed him staring at the glamorous ace. Jerry put some pasta salad 
on his plate and turned to get some spinach quiche.
A brown-haired man with quick eyes and an easy smile leaned in next to him. 
"Real men don't eat quiche. At least real men who want to impress Fantasy."
Jerry put the serving spoon back in the quiche and looked down the table at the 
rest of the spread. "Thanks, I guess."
The man set down his plate, which was piled high with a little of everything, 
and offered his hand. "Jay Ackroyd."
Jerry shook it. "Jerry Strauss." Ackroyd looked like he couldn't place the name. 
"I used to be the Projectionist, then I turned into the giant ape. Now, I'm just 
rich." Ackroyd grinned. "Rich is plenty in this town." He reached in his pocket 
and pulled out a card. "If you ever need any PI work done, let me know. I could 
use a rich client for a change. Good luck with Fantasy if you decide to be that 
brave. I'd almost be afraid to get lucky with her myself."
Jerry took the card and slipped it into the jacket pocket of his tux. The room 
became suddenly quiet. A man walked in slowly, limping a bit. He looked fairly 
normal, but Jerry heard the word "joker" whispered by someone, followed shortly 
by the name "Pretorius." The buzz of conversation that started up had an edge of 
hostility. Jerry took advantage of the distraction to fill his plate, then he 
slipped back to his table, where Beth was still going over the menu.
Jerry hadn't seen Hiram yet, but that was no surprise. Killing Chrysalis, the 
Mistress of Jokertown, had kept his name in the news. The joker community had 
lined up against Hiram immediately. The media were being less than kind as well. 
The mood was ugly, and the trial hadn't even started yet. Still, it was unlikely 
that this Wild Card Day dinner would turn out as badly as the one two years 
before, when the Astronomer had crashed the party. Jerry was definitely glad to 
have missed that one.
A cool, unsteady breeze blew in off the terrace. Jerry set his menu to one side. 
Being rich and touched by the wild card had its advantages.
"I think I'm going to go with the filet mignon," he said. "How about you?"
Beth looked up, chewing her lip. She was wearing a black calf-length skirt and 
lavender blouse. "I see looking at Miss Tits over there has you in the mood for 
red meat."
"God, can't I get away with anything around you? If you were a guy, you'd look!"
Beth smiled. "I'm a woman and I still looked. Just jealous, I guess. I wish I 
had the body and the attitude to wear that kind of outfit." She set down the 
menu. "I think I'll pass on the main course and just wander over for a fruit 
salad. Fear of cellulite is a terrible thing. Lesser women have been broken by 
it, believe me."
"You have to have dessert, though."
"Well, if you insist. But don't tell Kenneth. He still has illusions of me 
regaining my schoolgirl figure."
"You look terrific." Jerry was about to be more specific when he saw a couple 
being seated a few tables away. The man was tall and thin, with dark hair. His 
eyes were luminous and the air seemed to swim around him. The woman with him was 
wearing a red silk dress that looked spray-painted on. She was gorgeous. It was 
Veronica. Jerry turned his chair away from them. It obviously wasn't that 
Veronica didn't want to get fucked. She just didn't want to get fucked by him.
"You okay?" Beth touched his hand.
"Yeah. I was just thinking about some stuff. You know, I have to do something 
with my life."
"Right," she said.
He knew she wasn't fooled, but appreciated that she just let it go.
They held the ceremonies for Tachyon. Jerry was surprised the woman with him 
wasn't Cody. Maybe it was just a professional relationship. There were empty 
tables.
As far as Jerry knew, that was a first for a Wild Card Day dinner. Shortly after 
Tachyon's arrival Hiram made his entrance. He was wearing a magnificently 
tailored dark blue suit, but looked thinner than when Jerry had seen him on the 
tour.
Hiram raised his glass and paused for a moment, waiting for his guests to follow 
suit. "To Jetboy," he said. "To Jetboy," Jerry and Beth said along with all the 
others. They clinked glasses and drank the toast.
Jerry heard Veronica laugh. She was probably doing it just to annoy him. No. 
More likely she was so busy thinking about sucking her date's prick that she 
hadn't even noticed him.
"Thank you all for coming," Hiram continued. " I hope you all enjoy your meal, 
on this, our special day. May be the coming year be kind to us all."
There was a smattering of applause. Hiram walked over to Tachyon's table, shook 
the alien's good hand, then went into the kitchen.
"Doesn't he usually float up to the ceiling or something?" Beth asked.
"Yeah. Maybe he just doesn't feel like it's appropriate. I think Hiram's a bit 
concerned what people are thinking of him right now," Jerry said. "The whole 
Chrysalis thing has to be a nightmare for him."
"Worse for her, bro. She's the one who got turned into pate."
Jerry started to say something, but Beth interrupted. "No. You don't have to say 
it. I feel bad already. He seems like a very nice man. But aces aren't always 
good guys, you know"
"I know"
"Bush is going to win the election, and if you think things are hard on wild 
cards now, just wait. Wild-card chic is going to be stone-cold dead before his 
term is over."
"It could be worse than the fifties." Beth reached over and touched his face. 
"With your history, I just don't want you to get hurt."
Jerry smiled. He ate it up when she acted concerned over him. If only Veronica 
cared even half that much. "Thanks. I think I'll be okay."
Their waiter walked over. "What will you have tonight, madam?"
" I think I'll have the fruit salad," Beth said.
He'd promised himself he wouldn't think about veronica. Three nights after the 
party he was sitting at home. Kenneth and Beth were chewing over the 
implications of a Bush presidency. Dukakis' pardon of Willie Horton, a joker 
who'd been convicted of rape, seemed to be the final nail in the coffin. The 
revolving-door ad, showing homicidal jokers being spilled out into the street, 
had been a master stroke. The Democrats were indignant, but the ad affected the 
public in the desired fashion. Jerry found it all too depressing. He called up 
Ichiko and Veronica was available.
Jerry was sure she hadn't recognized him. He'd thought of giving himself a 
male-model look, but settled on a more rugged face. His hair was dark and 
straight; he could do that now, too. Veronica looked almost the same as before. 
Her white cotton dress revealed just enough to get a man's attention without 
telling him too much. Jerry knew what she looked like naked, but remembering 
wasn't enough. Not tonight. Tonight he wanted to be inside her.
Taking her to a movie was probably a mistake. If anything could tip her to who 
he was, that was it. Still, he wanted to see Demme's Joker Mama on the big 
screen. He was sick of video.
"A friend of mine recommended you," Jerry said. "You were at the Wild Card Day 
dinner with him. He said you were terrific."
"You know Croyd?"
"Slightly," Jerry said. Croyd had to be Croyd Crenson, the Sleeper. Jerry had 
heard a few things about him, mostly bad. Obviously, Veronica wasn't looking for 
a nice guy.
On the screen a tight-knit group of jokers in human masks was holding up a bank, 
only to be interrupted by a duck-faced and mouse-faced duo with the same idea.
Jerry put his arm around Veronica and gave her shoulder a squeeze. She flinched. 
After a long moment she reached up and started stroking his hand.
She knows it's me, he thought. Her brain may not have figured it out yet, but 
her body knows it's me. He felt a chill, like something had gone bad inside him.
"Excuse me," he said, leaning in close. Her perfume was different from the 
expensive French stuff he'd bought her. "I'm not feeling well. I'd like to take 
you home."
Veronica looked up, surprised. Jerry pressed two hundred-dollar bills into her 
palm. Her hand was cold. "For your time," Jerry said, in a voice too close to 
his own. "I'm sorry."
He took her by the hand and led her out of the theater. Gunshots came from the 
screen behind them. The lobby smelled of overly buttered popcorn and stale 
candy. He excused himself, went into the men's room, and vomited as quietly as 
possible.
She was gone when he came back out.


Horses
by Lewis Shiner
The woman on the other side of the coffee table had a blond crewcut and 
wire-rimmed glasses. She was around forty. No makeup, a man's gray sportcoat 
over a white T-shirt, loose drawstring pants. Dyke, had been Veronica's first 
impression, and so far nothing had changed her mind. "Things are just a little 
out of control right now," Veronica said. "It's not my fault. I need a little 
time."
The woman's name was Hannah Jorde. She sighed and said, "I'm so sick of hearing 
the same old shit." She put her glasses on the table and rubbed her eyes. 
"You're an addict, Veronica. I would have known that in two seconds, even if 
Ichiko hadn't told me. You've got every symptom in the book." She put her 
glasses back on. "I'm going to get you in a program. Methadone. It'll make you 
feel better, and keep you alive, but you'll still be an addict. Only you'll be 
addicted to methadone instead of heroin."
Veronica said, "I can quit-"
"Please," Hannah said. "Don't say it. Don't make me listen to it. I just want to 
tell you a couple of things, and I want you to think about them. That's all we 
can get done this first time anyway."
"Fine," Veronica said. She put her hands under her thighs because they had 
started to shake a little.
"You're an addict because you don't want to deal with what's going on inside 
you. You're not just killing yourself, you're already dead." She let the words 
hang for a second and then said, "What is it you do for Ichiko?"
"I'm a-" She stopped herself before she could say "geisha," Fortunato's approved 
term. "I'm a prostitute." Suddenly Hannah smiled. She could be pretty, Veronica 
thought, if she made a little effort. The right clothes, makeup. A wig for that 
awful haircut. What a waste. "Good," Hannah said. "The truth, for once. Thank 
you for that." She filled out a slip of paper and handed it across. "Start your 
methadone and I'll see you tomorrow"
A van with a loudspeaker passed her on Seventh Avenue. The recorded message 
reminded her that it was Election Day and she should exercise her constitutional 
freedom. Doubtless paid for by the Democrats. Everyone expected a landslide for 
Bush after the Democrats' disaster in Atlanta.
A man leaned out of the van and said, "Hey, baby, did you vote today?" She 
showed him the manicure on her right middle finger. That went for the American 
political system, too. What kind of freedom was it when the only people you 
could vote for were politicians?
She got in line outside the methadone clinic, pulling her coat tighter around 
her. It was embarrassment as much as cold. She didn't know which was worse, to 
be surrounded by so many junkies or to be taken for one of them. They mostly 
seemed to be black women and white boys with long greasy hair.
At least, she thought, she was still on the street. Ichiko had given her three 
choices: check into a detox center, see Hannah, or look for another job.
Her turn came and the woman at the window handed her a paper cup. The methadone 
was mixed in a sweet orange-flavored drink. Veronica drank it down and crumpled 
the cup. The black hooker behind her teetered up to the window on impossibly 
high heels and said, "Weeee, law, give me that jesus jizz."
Veronica threw the cup on the street and looked at her watch. Time enough to get 
uptown to Bergdorf s before her dinner date.
She should have guessed from the name he'd used to make the dinner reservation: 
Herman Gregg. But she didn't figure it out till she got to the table.
"Holy shit," Veronica said. The subdued light of the restaurant was enough, even 
for Veronica, to know the face. "Senator Hartmann," she said.
He smiled weakly. "Not senator anymore. I'm just an ordinary citizen again. But 
you can see why I didn't want to be alone tonight. You know what they say about 
politics and strange bedfellows."
"No," Veronica said. "What do they say?"
Hartmann shrugged and put the menu down. "How hungry are you?"
"I don't care. If you just want to go upstairs, that's fine." He'd already told 
her he had a room upstairs at the Hyatt. "Don't feel like you have to buy me 
dinner, like this is a real date or anything."
"Somehow this isn't quite what I expected. I'd heard so much about Fortunato and 
his extraordinary women."
"Yeah, well, Fortunato's gone. Things have fallen off a bit. If you're not 
happy, you don't have to go through with it."
"I'm not complaining. I guess you're more human than I expected. I kind of like 
that."
Veronica stood up. "Shall we?"
He was very quiet in the elevator, didn't touch her or anything. Just one hand 
on the elbow as they got out, to point her toward the room. Once inside, he 
locked the door and turned the TV on.
"We don't need that, do we?" Veronica asked.
"I have to know," Hartmann said. He took his jacket off and folded it over a 
chair, then untied his shoes and put them neatly underneath. He loosened his tie 
and sat on the end of the bed, his tiredness visible in the curve of his spine. 
"I have to know just how bad it is."
When Veronica came out of the bathroom in her bra and panties, he was in the 
same position. Bush was running almost two to one ahead of Dukakis and Jackson. 
Concession speeches were expected momentarily. She helped Hartmann off with the 
rest of his clothes, put a condom on him, and got him under the covers.
He didn't want anything fancy, just got right down to business. As he rocked 
against her, the election returns continued in a steady stream: "Texas now shows 
Bush with a staggering fifty-eight percent of the vote, and that's with 
thirty-seven percent of the precincts reporting." Hartmann's spasm happened 
quickly and left him on the edge of tears. Veronica stroked the small of his 
back, where the sweat had just broken, and made soothing noises. Just as he 
rolled off her, one of the TV reporters said his name and he sat up guiltily.
"Many of us must be asking ourselves the same question tonight," the reporter 
went on. "Could Gregg Hartmann have beaten Vice-President Bush? It was just two 
and a half months ago that Hartmann withdrew from the race after his loss of 
composure at the Democratic National Convention in Atlanta. That convention will 
long be remembered, not only for its bloodshed, but as a turning point in the 
nation's attitude toward victims of the wild-card virus."
She carried the used condom into the bathroom, knotted it, wrapped it in toilet 
paper, and threw it away. The odor of sperm almost gagged her. She sat on the 
edge of the tub and washed herself and then brushed her teeth, over and over, 
telling herself she didn't need a shot, not yet.
It was after two when Hartmann turned the TV off. Bush was a joke, Hartmann told 
her. His campaigning against drugs was sheerest hypocrisy, given what his CIA 
had done in Central America. His cabinet officers would never live up to his 
claims of ethics, and his "kinder, gentler" America would have no room for aces 
or jokers.
The wild-card issue meant little to Veronica. Fortunato, the man who had brought 
her in off the streets, was an ace. Her mother had been one of Fortunato's 
geishas and had meant for Veronica to have a college education and a real 
career. But Veronica had turned tricks anyway. The money was easy and it was 
easy as well to think of herself that way, as a whore. Together Miranda and 
Fortunato had decided that if she was going to sell her body, she might as well 
do it right. Fortunato had brought her back to his apartment and tried, 
unsuccessfully, to make her into one of his ideal women. She loved him in the 
way that people loved something sweet and not entirely of this world.
Because of Fortunato she'd met and had sex withother aces and jokers. None of 
them had seemed quite real to her either. There weren't even that many of them, 
not compared to unwed mothers or the homeless or old people, not enough to 
deserve all the attention they got. And it wasn't like it was a disease that 
other people could catch, like AIDS or something.
That thought gave her a chill. For a while the wild card had been contagious, 
and her sometime boyfriend Croyd Crenson had been spreading it. She'd been 
exposed to him but fortunately nothing had happened. She didn't want to think 
about it.
Eventually Hartmann fell asleep, the soft flesh of his stomach shaking with 
muffled snores. Veronica lay awake, counting all the many, many things she 
didn't want to think about.
She didn't sleep even when she got back to Ichiko's, around dawn. This time it 
was the idea of seeing Hannah again that kept her turning from side to side, 
chills moving up through her from her stomach.
She got up around noon and made a breakfast she couldn't eat. Ichiko walked her 
out to the cab or she might not have made it. Even then she tried to tell the 
cabby to stop, to let her out, but she couldn't find her voice. It was like 
being back in convent school, being sent to the principal, the oldest, scariest 
nun in the world.
She walked up the stairs and into Hannah's office. She couldn't feel her legs. 
She sat in the middle of Hannah's square, gray couch. Today Hannah wore jeans 
and a man's dress shirt and a cardigan with interwoven gold thread. Veronica 
couldn't take her eyes off the sparkles of gold.
"Did you have a chance to think?" Hannah asked her.
Veronica shrugged. "I've been busy. I don't spend a lot of time thinking."
"Okay, let's start with that. Tell me about the things you do."
Without meaning to, Veronica found herself talking about Hartmann. Hannah kept 
asking for details. What did he look like naked? What exactly was the taste in 
her mouth afterward? She sounded like she was only mildly curious. What was it 
like when his penis was inside her? "I don't know," Veronica said. "It didn't 
feel like anything."
"What do you mean? He was inside you, but you couldn't feel it? Did you have to 
ask him if he was in yet?" Veronica started to laugh, and then she was crying. 
She didn't know how it happened. It seemed to be somebody else. "I didn't want 
him there," she said. Who was that talking? "I didn't want him in me. I wanted 
him to leave me alone." Her whole body shook with sobs. "This is ridiculous," 
she said. "Why am I crying? What's happening to me?"
Hannah moved over next to her and wrapped her arms around her. She smelled like 
Dial soap. Veronica buried her head in the golden fibers of her sweater, felt 
the softness of the breast underneath. Everything gave way then and she cried 
until she ran out of tears, until she felt like a wrung-out sponge.
Standing in line, Veronica tapped her foot nervously on the sidewalk. One of the 
long-haired boys behind her sang a song about shooting up in a low, monotonous 
voice. "You know I couldn't find my mainline," he sang. He didn't seem aware he 
was doing it.
Veronica wanted the methadone, wanted it badly. What do they put in that stuff? 
she thought, and stopped herself before the laughter turned into the other thing 
again.
She put her hand into her purse and held on to a folded piece of paper with 
Hannah's phone number on it.
Veronica came in on a blast of cold air and stood for a second, rubbing her 
hands together.
"Flowers for you," Melanie said. She had a Russianlanguage textbook open while 
she watched the phones. Melanie was new. She still believed in Fortunato's 
program, that they were geishas not hookers, that men actually cared how many 
languages they spoke and whether or not they could discuss postmodernist 
critical theory. When she finished her telephone shift, she would be off to 
cooking class or elocution lessons. Then, that night, she would spread her legs 
for a man who only cared that she had lots of red-blond hair and big boobs.
"Jerry again?" Veronica asked. She threw her coat on the couch and collapsed.
"I don't see what you have against him. He's sweet."
"I don't have anything against him. I just don't have anything for him either. 
He's a nobody."
"A nobody with a ton of money, who thinks the sun rises and sets on you. Anyway, 
I've got him down for you tonight, from ten o'clock on."
"Tonight?" The walls seemed to close in around her. She couldn't breathe. "I 
can't."
"You have a date you didn't put on the computer?" Ichiko had bought a Macintosh 
over the summer and had computerized everything. The girls were responsible for 
keeping their own schedules current, and if one of them screwed up they all got 
yelled at.
"No, I... I'm sick."
"He's already paid and everything."
"Call him back. Will you? I have to go upstairs." She staggered up to her room 
and got in bed with her clothes on, doubled up, clutching a pillow to her 
stomach. From there she watched the street outside turn dark and the headlights 
of the cars sweep past. Liz, her chubby gray cat, climbed onto the' peak of her 
hip and began to knead the covers, purring loudly. "Please shut up," Veronica 
said.
Liz was another reminder of Fortunato. She had been Veronica's to start with, 
though she hadn't cared that much about her. Then Fortunato had formed some kind 
of bond with the cat. Liz used to follow him around his apartment, crying, and 
would get into his lap whenever he sat down.
When Fortunato left for Japan, it seemed like the cat was all Veronica had left 
of him.
Finally the cat settled down and started to snore softly. Veronica couldn't 
relax, and soon she was trembling. It wasn't like the shaking that came when she 
needed a shot. That part of her was quiet. This was something else. She wondered 
if it was the methadone, some bizarre allergy. The longer it went on, the more 
out of touch she became. She couldn't stop shaking. Was she dying?
She fumbled the phone off the hook and dialed Hannah's number. "It's Veronica," 
she said. "Something's wrong."
"I know that," Hannah said. "Why don't you come over?"
"Come over?"
"To my apartment."
"I don't know if I can make it. I feel so weird."
"Of course you can. Stand up."
Veronica stood up. Somehow it was all right. "Are you standing?"
"Yes," Veronica said.
"Good. Write down this address."
A few minutes later Veronica was in a cab. She looked down at her legs, saw her 
wool-knit A-line skirt wrinkled beyond hope. She got a mirror out of her purse 
and looked at her smudged eyeliner and bloodshot eyes. "I can't help it," she 
said out loud, and the words almost started the flood of tears again.
She knew she was on the edge of something. She didn't have the strength to keep 
herself from being pulled into it, but she could feel the depth of the chasm in 
the pit of her stomach.
Hannah lived on the third floor of a building on Park Avenue South that had 
escaped remodeling. The varnish was worn off the center of the stairs and the 
landings were raw concrete. Hannah met her at the door of her apartment. "You 
made it," she said. She seemed relieved and happy to see her.
Veronica could only nod. The apartment was two rooms and a kitchen. There was 
almost no furniture, only tatami mats and pillows, and an expensive stereo with 
huge speakers that sat in the middle of the floor. Japanese pen-and-ink drawings 
hung in cheap Plexiglas frames on the wall. The Oriental simplicity of it 
reminded her of the apartment she'd shared with Fortunato.
"Settle down anywhere," Hannah said. "I'll bring you some tea."
The music on the stereo was instrumental, one of those New Age things. It was an 
acoustic guitar in a weird tuning over lots of percussion. Like the rest of the 
room, like Hannah herself, it suggested a serenity that Veronica couldn't feel. 
Hannah brought her tea in a small, thick cup with no handle. The tea was green 
and vaguely sweet.
Hannah sat cross-legged on the couch next to her. "You look like you haven't 
been sleeping."
"I'm all knotted up inside. Maybe it's the methadone."
"It's not the methadone. It's three years of feelings trying to get out."
"Is it cold in here?"
Hannah touched her hand. The shaking got worse. "No," Hannah said. "It's not the 
methadone and it's not the temperature. It's just you." And then she leaned 
forward slowly and kissed Veronica on the lips.
It was gentle but not sisterly, warm but not demanding. Veronica shivered and 
held herself, feeling like she was fighting to keep from drowning. "You're 
confusing me...."
"You were already confused. When was the last time you enjoyed making love? When 
was the last time you lay next to somebody and got comfort out of it? When was 
the last time you thought you deserved to be happy? You don't have to answer me. 
I already know"
She stood up and took Veronica's hand. Veronica followed her, not to the 
bedroom, like she expected, but to the bath. Hannah started the water running 
and undressed her, carefully, not touching her more than she had to. The room 
began to fill with steam. "Get in," Hannah said, and Veronica got in the tub. 
The hot water stung her, made her face flush. "Your body is still very 
beautiful," Hannah said. "You've been careful with the needle." Veronica nodded. 
The hot water stopped her shaking and helped her relax. She felt drugged. Had 
there been something in the tea?
Hannah took her own clothes off and put her glasses on the edge of the sink. She 
was a little heavy in the waist, and her stomach curved without jeans to hold it 
in. Her underclothes left red lines around her waist and under her breasts. 
Still, she seemed beautiful to Veronica, her pale nipples, the discreet tangle 
of hair between her legs. Veronica found herself about to reach one hand out to 
touch Hannah's body, then stopped herself, ashamed and confused.
Hannah poured oil into the tub. It foamed and colored the air with the heavy 
green smell of wildflowers. Then she knelt beside the tub and kissed Veronica 
again. Veronica's mouth opened, against her will, and she tasted the mint tea on 
Hannah's breath. "What are you doing to me?" she whispered.
"Seducing you," Hannah said. "If I do anything that scares you or you don't feel 
comfortable with, just say so." She put her hands on Veronica's cheeks, then 
slowly ran them down her neck and shoulders. Veronica leaned back against the 
tub, eyes closed, her breathing coming raggedly. Hannah's small, soft hands 
moved to her breasts. "Oh," Veronica said. She was melting. Her entire body was 
liquid. She couldn't tell where it ended and the bathwater began.
This time when Hannah kissed her she leaned into it and put both arms around 
her.
By the time Hannah helped her into bed Veronica had no will of her own. She had 
no strength, no intelligence, only sensation. Hannah was slow and gentle and 
unafraid. She knew where to touch her and how much pressure to use. The first 
climax was the most intense Veronica had ever felt. It had been so long she 
barely recognized the feeling. There were others. They blurred into a continuum 
of pleasure.
And at the end of it came sleep.
Sunlight woke her. Her eyes opened and saw dark green sheets. The rest of it 
came back and she sat up quickly, holding the sheet against her. Hannah lay on 
her side, watching.
"What did you do to me? What was in that tea?"
"Nothing," Hannah said. "What happened was that we made love."
"This is too weird. I have to get out of here." She looked around the room for 
her clothes, reluctant to get out of bed naked with Hannah there.
"Wait," Hannah said. There was a stillness about her that Veronica found 
inescapable. "I know what's wrong with you. I'm an alcoholic. I was drunk for 
ten years and now I've been sober for six. I was married to a man that I hated, 
and I hated him just because I didn't want to have sex with him. It wasn't his 
fault, it was the way I am. Only nobody could tell me that was the reason."
"What's that got to do with me? Are you saying I'm queer?" There was a towel on 
the floor next to her. She wrapped herself in it and looked in the bathroom. Her 
clothes were folded neatly on the floor.
"Maybe you're not gay." Hannah raised her voice just enough for Veronica to hear 
her. "Though I believe you are. That doesn't matter. You hate yourself for what 
you're doing with your body. It makes you feel helpless. And helplessness is 
what addiction is all about."
Veronica buttoned her rumpled silk blouse and brushed at the creases in her 
skirt. "I got to go."
"I've got three o'clock set aside for you. If you want to talk some more."
"Just talk? Or do you fuck all your patients?"
There was a short, hurt silence. "You're the first. I suppose I should feel like 
I've pissed away all my ethics, but I don't."
Veronica opened the door. "I'll think about it," she said. Then she belted on 
her coat and ran down the stairs.
Jerry was waiting for her when she got back to the brownstone.
"Melanie said you were sick," he said. "I wanted to see if I could help."
"No, Jerry. It's sweet of you and all, but no."
"Where were you? Did you go out on another date?"
Veronica shook her head. "I've been to the doctor, that's all."
Jerry looked her up and down. obviously made the decision not to call her out. 
He sat on the sofa and looked at the flowers he'd sent her the day before, still 
on the desk by the phone, the card unopened. "I'm wasting my time, aren't I?"
"Jerry. What do you want me to say? You shouldn't have fallen in love with a 
hooker. I mean, what were you thinking about? Did you think I was available on a 
Rentto-Own plan?" She sat down next to him, touched his face. "You're a sweet 
kid, Jerry. Women should go nuts for you. Real women. That's what you deserve. 
Not some half-breed Puerto Rican junkie hooker."
Junkie, she thought. She'd actually said it.
"You're the one I want," Jerry said, looking at the floor.
"You don't even know me. You've got no idea. You're trying to catch up on twenty 
years overnight, and you see me as some kind of shortcut. Nothing happens that 
fast. Give yourself some time."
"Can I see you tonight?"
"No. Not tonight." She paused, got up her nerve. "Not ever. Not anymore."
"Why? I love you."
"You don't know what love is. You don't know what you're talking about. You've 
got some kind of stupid romantic ideas from all those movies you watch and they 
don't have anything to do with real life. I can't stand it. I don't want to be 
the only thing propping up this makebelieve world of yours. I'm not strong 
enough."
She stood up. "Veronica, please!"
She couldn't look at him. His face was all twisted, like he was trying not to 
cry. "I'm sorry, Jerry" she said. "You'll find somebody. You'll see." She ran 
upstairs.
It wasn't even noon, but she was wide-awake, her head clear. It made her nervous 
to feel as good as she did. She showered and put on jeans and a sweater and went 
downtown for her methadone. Okay, she thought, standing in line, feeling the 
November sun warm her hair. You can admit you're a junkie. You can admit you're 
tired of iturning tricks. What does that leave you?
All the girls had savings accounts in Ichiko's name. Half their earnings went 
into the fund every month, carefully monitored by the new computer. If Veronica 
gave up the Life, she could collect the money. It would keep her alive for at 
least a couple of years. Then what? Find some poor sap like Jerry and settle 
down to have kids?
She got to the head of the line. A boy in a white lab coat behind the window 
glanced at her card and gave her the dose. She drank it and threw the cup at an 
overflowing trash can. It wasn't enough. It wasn't enough not to hurt, not to 
have the need. Heroin was more than that, more than an end to pain. It was the 
rush, the joy, the way the cool fire went through her like God's love.
She took a battered list of phone numbers out of her purse and started dialing. 
Twice she left messages on phone machines and the third time she got lucky. 
"Croyd?" she said.
"Himself. Where are you, darlin'?" His words ended with muffled clicks. She 
hadn't seen him in three months. He'd obviously slept, and woken in a distorted 
body. That was okay. Veronica could see past the surface.
"Chelsea," she said. "Want to get high?"
He was near the East River, in the waterfront apartment where she'd first spent 
the night with him, two years before. That was Wild Card Day, when the 
Astronomer had killed Caroline, and Fortunato had left for Japan.
When she was high, those memories never bothered her.
Croyd answered the door and Veronica stood and stared at him for a long moment. 
"I'd kiss you," Croyd said, "but I'm afraid I might hurt you."
"That's okay, I'll pass." The clicking she'd heard on the phone came when he 
shut his beak at the end of a word. He was over seven feet tall and covered with 
feathers. A thin membrane linked his arms to his sides. "Can you fly?"
He shook his head. "Too heavy. Shame, isn't it? I can glide a little, dive out 
of a second-story window. So it's not a complete loss."
His eyes were shiny black and the wrinkled feathers above them gave him a look 
of fierce intelligence. "I may be wasting my time," she said.
The beak opened into a smile. "The wings may not be functional, but the rest of 
me is."
Veronica shook her head. "I'm in trouble, Croyd. Have you got any coke?"
They sat at his kitchen table, a slab of pine with cigarette burns and peeling 
varnish. Veronica did two lines then passed the straw to Croyd. He snorted his 
into the small black holes at the base of his beak. Veronica wiped the mirror 
down with her index finger and rubbed it into her gums. "Better," she said.
"You sure you don't want to finish this conversation in bed?"
She shook her head. "I need a friend right now. Weird shit is happening to me. I 
can't get a handle." She told him about Hannah, about nearly throwing up after 
her last "date."
Croyd listened intently. At least he looked intent. When she finished he said, 
"It's probably stupid for me to say this. I mean, this is not in my best 
interest. But you can't go against what you feel. You need to see this woman 
again, in the light of day, and make up your mind about her. Maybe you are gay. 
So what? Do you really care what a bunch of square assholes think about your sex 
life?"
"I feel like I'm fourteen," Veronica said. "All these emotional roller coasters. 
I can't keep up."
"You want my advice, don't even try. Let it happen. And if you get in trouble, 
you can call me." It sounded like they were finished, but Croyd hesitated, like 
there was something else he had to say. "There's nothing else happened, right? I 
mean, no ... no symptoms."
He was talking about that whole Typhoid Croyd business. She shook her head. "No. 
No sudden ace powers, no flippers on the ends of my legs. I don't think it did 
anything to me at all."
"It's just-I feel responsible, that's all."
"Don't worry about it."
He walked her to the door and she hugged him tight, despite the peculiar acid 
smell of his feathers. His hands rested flat against her back. "I have to be 
careful," he said.
"If I bend my fingers too much, these claws come out." He showed her the claws. 
There was a light of pleasure in his eyes when he looked at them.
"So long, Croyd," she said. "Thanks for everything."
She got to Hannah's office just before four. "I'm late," she said.
Hannah held the door for her. "It doesn't matter. There's nobody else scheduled 
for this afternoon." Then she said, "I'm glad you came."
Veronica was giddy from cocaine and nerves and couldn't sit down. Hannah took 
her usual position, in the chair across the table from the couch.
"How's the methadone working out?" Hannah asked. "Fine," Veronica said. "It's 
great." She walked behind the couch, turned around, leaned into the back of it. 
"No, it's not great. It's not enough. I still want to get high. I need it."
"Why?"
"Why? What a stupid fucking question. Because I like to feel good. Because when 
you're high, you don't care about wading through all the world's shit--"
"What shit?" Hannah said. "What shit are you living in that you didn't put 
yourself into? You've got everything backward. You think you can control your 
drug habit and you can't control your life. It's the other way around, you just 
don't know it. You have no control over heroin. It owns you. They call it horse, 
but it's really riding you. That's step one of what they call the Twelve-Step 
Plan. You have to admit you are powerless to control your addiction. And then, 
later on, you can learn to take responsibility for the rest of your life. As in 
'the ability to respond.' Not blame, not control, but responsibility. Something 
you can live with."
Veronica shook her head. "That's all easy for you to say. But I don't have any 
kind of life. My mother is a washed-up whore who's pimping me now. I never knew 
who my father was, and I don't think my mother did either. I got no brothers or 
sisters to turn to. I learned all that shit Fortunato taught us, but it's not a 
college diploma. It's not going to get me _a soft job someplace. Look at the 
odds. I'm going to end up like the kids I went to school with. Fat and old, 
either divorced or married to a husband that beats me up on weekends." It was 
hard to believe. She'd actually talked herself right out of her cocaine high.
"So what is it you want?"
"Escape. I want a good-looking man with a fast car and a lot of money to come 
and take me away someplace."
"And then what?"
"Then we live happily ever after."
"That's bullshit, Veronica. You know better than that. If all you want is some 
man, you could have had plenty. What's the difference whether you're dependent 
on a drug or dependent on a man? There isn't any, and you know it." Veronica 
thought of Jerry, who would take her away if she would only let him. "Why do you 
care what happens to me?"
Hannah walked over to the window and looked out at the street. "When you walked 
in here I saw myself, six years ago. There's a fire in you. A heat. Sexual, 
emotional, spiritual. It's been too much for you, all your life. You had to use 
heroin to keep it from eating you up." She turned and looked Veronica in the 
eyes. "I want that fire. I want all you have. The two of us, together, burning 
until we burn each other up."
Veronica could not get her breath. She stood up, feeling the fabric of her 
sweater move against her tight, aching nipples. She walked to the door and 
locked it. The pressure of her jeans between her legs was maddening. She kicked 
off her shoes and pulled the sweater over her head.
"Show me," she said.
At fifteen she'd been in love with an eighteen-yearold pachuco, had fucked him 
at every possible opportunity, in the backseat of his car, in the park, once in 
the stairwell of her high school. It was always quick and brutal, and afterward 
she went home to her empty room.
There she could think about the boy and make herself come with her fingers, the 
way she could never come when he was inside her.
Since then she'd had sex with hundreds of men. None of them had made her come 
either, not even Fortunato, and as for love, she'd convinced herself it was just 
another he.
Hannah changed all of that. They made love five or six times a day. It was all 
so equal. For everything of Hannah's there was something of Veronica's. 
Afterward they slept in each other's arms. Under Hannah's gentle hands and 
tongue, Veronica found a responsiveness she didn't think was possible, not for 
anyone.
"Women don't come from having men inside them," Hannah told her. "I've read in 
books that we're supposed to, I've heard there are women who do. But I've never 
talked to one of them. Every woman I've ever talked to needs something more."
"More," Veronica said. "I want more."
She only left Hannah's apartment long enough to score her daily methadone. She 
wore Hannah's clothes, when she bothered to wear clothes at all. She did what 
Croyd had told her to. She stopped fighting and immersed herself in sensation: 
the smell and feel and taste of Hannah's body, the exotic foods and teas that 
Hannah prepared for her, the long nights of physical and emotional intimacy 
where nothing was forbidden.
Almost nothing, anyway. Veronica found herself talking for hours about her 
childhood, the terrors of Catholic school, the tangled genealogy of her aunts 
and uncles and cousins, the hypocrisy of Catholic sexuality in which teenaged 
girls routinely gave blow jobs but recoiled in horror from the thought of losing 
their sacred virginity.
It was Hannah that held back. She talked about her childhood, her ex-husband, 
her parents. She was an imaginative and enthusiastic lover, afraid of nothing. 
She had Veronica reading about addiction and feminism and Marxism and 
vegetarianism and everything else that was a part of her life. But she never 
explained the transition, the years between her drunken marriage and her sober 
counseling job.
There were hints. She had been part of some kind of radical feminist group. She 
never mentioned the name. "They believed in a lot of things I wasn't comfortable 
with," was all she would say.
"What sort of things?"
"Things that might appeal to somebody who was still full of anger and 
bitterness. Things you have to outgrow if you're going to get anywhere."
Veronica assumed she was talking about violence. Bombing or assassination or 
something else illegal. And because Hannah didn't want to talk about it, 
Veronica left it alone.
Veronica was the first to say "I love you."
It was dawn. They lay side by side, their hands between each other's legs, lips 
just touching. The pleasure was so strong that the words came out without her 
quite meaning them to. Hannah held her tightly and said, "It scares me when you 
say that. People use the word 'love' on each other like a weapon. I don't want 
that to happen to us."
"I love you anyway. Whatever you say. Whether you like it or not."
Hannah pulled far enough away to look into her eyes. "I love you, too."
"I want to kick the methadone. I want to get clean."
"Okay."
"I mean now. Starting today."
"It'll be ugly. I can get you drugs to help, but it's going to tear you apart. 
Are you sure you're ready for that?"
"It's what I want."
"Give it one more week. We need to get out a little, get you back into the 
world. If you still want to do it next week, then we'll try it."
"I guess that's what I'm saying."
"I think I would like to do that," Veronica said. She dabbed at her eyes with 
her napkin. They both pretended not to see the tears. "What do I tell Ichiko?"
"I don't know. What do you think?"
"You're going into counselor mode again." Hannah shrugged.
"I guess I tell her I'm moving out. That I'm through. I think she's probably 
figured that out already."
In fact Ichiko had. "I hope you will be very happy," she said. She hugged 
Veronica. "I can see already that you are. Here's a little money to make things 
easier." The amount on the check was larger than Veronica had any reason to 
expect. "Your trust fund, plus a little extra from me."
"I don't know...."
"Take it," Ichiko said. "Times are changing. I don't feel so good about this 
business, the way I used to. I look around, I see all this hatred. They hate 
jokers and aces. When I first came to this country, they hated me for being 
Japanese. Fortunato's father had to hide us during the Pacific War so they 
wouldn't put us into camps. People afraid of each other, hurting each other. My 
geishas don't help that anymore. When a man uses a woman, it doesn't make him a 
better man. Any more than having black people for slaves made white people 
better. In the end they only come to hate each other."
"What are you saying? Are you going to close down the business?"
Ichiko shrugged. "It's something I think about, more and more. There is all this 
pressure on me, these gangsters and big-money men wanting to take over the 
business. If I close down, they will go away and leave me alone. I have enough 
money. Who cares about money anyway?" She pushed the check toward Veronica 
again, and this time Veronica took it. "You go and be happy and find love where 
you can."
Veronica went upstairs and finished packing. Eventually she knew she couldn't 
put it off any longer and knocked on the door of her mother's room.
That afternoon they went to a movie together. They held hands like teenagers. At 
dinner afterward, over Chinese food, Hannah said, "I think you should bring some 
of your things over. Clothes and things. You know. And your cat."
"You mean move in."
Miranda had heard most of it from Ichiko, and what she hadn't heard she'd 
figured out for herself. She took Veronica's hands and held them both for a long 
time without saying anything. Finally she said, "You know I don't care that 
you're in love with a woman and not a man. You know I'm happy you're giving up 
... the Life. I never wanted that for you in the first place." She sighed. "Just 
be careful, darling, please. You've only known this woman for what, not even two 
weeks?"
Veronica pulled her hands away and stood up. "Mother, for God's sake."
"I'm not trying to rain on your parade-"
"Yes, you are. That's exactly what you're trying to do."
"I'm just saying you don't know her very well. I want this to work out for you, 
really I do, but it may not, and-"
"Save it," Veronica said. "I don't want to hear it. Just once, be happy that I'm 
happy. And if you can't, then keep your mouth shut about it." She walked out and 
slammed the door and took her things down to the cab where Hannah waited.
On the ride home, with Liz huddled nervously on her lap, Veronica started to 
shake.
"Are you okay?" Hannah asked her. "Did you get your methadone today?"
"I took it," Veronica said. "It's not that." Though the symptoms were much the 
same. She felt clammy and her bowels were knotted up. "I'm scared, that's all."
Hannah put her arms around her. "Scared? What are you afraid of?"
"I have my whole life in front of me. It's just out there, waiting. I don't know 
what to do with it."
"You live it," Hannah said. "That's all. One day at a time."
The next afternoon they walked down Fifth Avenue, looking in the windows. 
Veronica stopped in front of a blue-sequined strapless gown in the window of 
Sak's. "God," she said. "How gorgeous."
Hannah took her arm and led her away, smiling. "And how politically incorrect. 
That's just a harness men put you in. Come on. Let's get this money of yours in 
the bank before it turns to fairy dust or something."
They walked down to the Chase Manhattan and went in. There was a single line, 
marked off with red velvet ropes, far the Paying and Receiving tellers. Veronica 
stepped up to the back of the line, already six people long, and two more moved 
in behind her.
"I'm going to walk around," Hannah said. "I hate lines. They make me 
claustrophobic."
There was a nervousness in Hannah's eyes Veronica had never seen before. She 
remembered what her mother had said, realized how little, in fact, she knew this 
woman she was in love with. "You're not kidding, are you?"
"No," she said, her smile flickering like a bad fluorescent bulb. "I'm not." She 
stepped over the velvet rope and wandered off into the open part of the lobby. 
Veronica couldn't help noticing a good-looking blond kid a few feet away from 
her, filling out some kind of form at the service counter. Hannah saw him, too, 
and turned for a second look.
Veronica felt a stab of jealousy. The kid was in his late teens, dressed in 
expensive khaki pants, loafers, and a V -necked sweater with nothing underneath. 
He had a long black coat draped casually over one arm. His hair fell over his 
ears and collar and he had the start of a five-o'clock shadow. There was an 
effortless sexuality about him that was obvious to everyone around him.
Hannah smiled and shook her head. It looked like she was smiling at herself 
rather than the kid. She started to walk away. The man in line behind Veronica 
cleared his throat noisily. Veronica looked up, saw the line had moved, took up 
the slack. She looked back at Hannah just in time to see her stagger.
"Hannah ... ?" Veronica said.
Hannah caught her balance and took a couple of hesitant steps. It was like her 
shoes had heels that were too high for her. But Hannah never wore high heels. 
She turned and looked at Veronica.
Her eyes were wrong. There was something crazy in them, and in the way she 
smiled. Veronica looked at the long line that stretched out behind her. She 
didn't want to lose her place, but if something was really wrong... Suddenly 
Hannah began to run.
It was clumsy and slow, but it took the security guard by surprise. Hannah had 
the gun out of his holster and pointed at his head before he knew what was 
happening. "Hannah!" Veronica screamed.
The gun kicked in Hannah's hand. The shot boomed off the marble walls and the 
room went silent for a long second afterward. The bullet threw the guard against 
the wall, his face collapsed around the black hole in his cheek. He left a long 
red smear against pale stone of the wall as he slumped to the floor.
Veronica tried to jump the velvet rope and caught her foot. Hannah turned toward 
her as she fell and fired again, the bullet howling over Veronica's head. The 
silence gave way to screams and shouts of panic. An alarm went off, barely 
audible over the rest of the noise. The customers, most of them men in dark 
suits, ran for the doors. Hannah spun around to watch, a hideous joy on her 
face.
Veronica got her legs under her and ran at Hannah. Guards converged from all 
over the building, guns out. One of them shouted at Veronica, something like, 
"Hey, lady, stay down!" Another guard fired a shot over Hannah's head and Hannah 
fired back at him, twice.
By then Veronica was in the air.
She tackled Hannah around the waist and they slid across the polished floor. The 
gun came loose and skittered away. With the strength of absolute fear she pinned 
Hannah's arms above her head. "It's me, goddammit!" Veronica yelled. "What's 
wrong with you?"
Across the lobby a body hit the floor.
It was the blond kid in the sweater. He seemed stunned, paralyzed, as if he'd 
had a stroke. His face was distorted with terror and something else, some kind 
of alien presence. He started to raise one hand to his face, then jerked forward 
like a fumbled puppet.
And then, just as the guards swarmed over them, Veronica saw the light come back 
into Hannah's eyes. Her mouth moved, but no sound came out. Two pairs of hands 
pulled Veronica away. Two more bank guards and an NYPD cop shoved gun barrels 
into Hannah's face, screaming at her not to move. In seconds they had her in 
handcuffs and out the door.
Veronica tried to get loose and the guards tightened their hold. She strained to 
find the blond kid in the crowd. He was gone.
They took her to the precinct station in a squad car. At first they just wanted 
her story, over and over. Veronica told them she and Hannah were roommates, told 
them about the heroin, about the check she'd been taking to the bank. When they 
asked her what happened there, she told them she didn't know. "It wasn't 
Hannah," she said. "We've got a dozen witnesses that say it was."
" I mean, it wasn't her inside her body. It was like she was ... I don't know. 
Possessed."
"Possessed? The devil made her do it?"
" I don't know."
She told the story again and again, until the words lost all meaning.
Then a cop in a suit came out of the darkness and said, "What do you know about 
a bunch that calls itself WORSE!"
" I never heard of them. Can I have a glass of water?"
"In a minute. Can you tell me what the initials stand for?"
"I told you, I never-"
"Women's Organization to Reach Sexual Equality. Now does it ring a bell?"
"No, I--"
"Last year there was a riot outside an abortion clinic. These people from WORSE 
sent five protesters and a cop to the hospital."
"Good for them," Veronica said.
"The cop died. Now do you think it's funny? There's at least seven incidents in 
the last year where these women have provoked violence in the streets. One of 
the people they've got it in for is your old employer. Fortunato."
"What's that got to do with Hannah?"
"Not much. She's only the president."
"What? That's impossible."
"I guess you know everything about her, right? How long did you say you've known 
her? Ten days?"
"She said she had nothing to do with those people anymore."
"You just said you'd never heard of WORSE."
"She never mentioned the name. She said she used to be part of some radical 
organization, but she didn't agree with their methods. She said it was over a 
long time ago."
A little man with pattern baldness and glasses said, "She's clean, Lou. She's 
telling the truth." The man was a low-grade ace, the weakest sort of telepath. 
The cops had ten or fifteen on staff to use as lie detectors.
"To hell with it then," the man in the suit said. "We're cutting you loose. But 
I don't want you away from a phone where I can find you for more than an hour at 
a time. You got that?"
"I want to see her," Veronica said.
"Forget it. Her lawyer's there. That's all she gets."
"Who's her lawyer?"
The man in the suit sighed. "Bud?"
One of the cops looked through the file. "Lawyer's name is Mundy." He whistled. 
"From Latham, Strauss. Hot stuff."
"Now get out of here," the man in the suit said. Two uniformed cops gave her a 
ride home, then followed her inside. They had a warrant, signed and sealed. She 
sat on the floor and watched them as they took the apartment apart. One of them 
found the sexual toys in the drawer by the bed. He held up the wooden ben wa 
balls for his partner to see, then looked over at Veronica. "Fuck you," Veronica 
said, blushing, close to tears. "Leave that stuff alone."
The cop shrugged and put the balls away. Finally they left. Veronica had watched 
them carefully. There was nothing in the apartment, not a single piece of 
evidence, to connect Hannah to WORSE.
As soon as they were gone, she called Latham, Strauss. The answering service 
took her number. She hung up and moved restlessly through the house, putting the 
Plexiglas framed drawings back on the walls, refolding clothes and putting them 
in the drawers, wiping down the cabinets. The phone rang.
"Veronica? This is Dyan Mundy."
"Thank God."
"I was about to call you when I got your message. Hannah asked me to. She wanted 
you to know she's okay, they haven't hurt her." The woman's voice exuded 
confidence, control, a kind of artificial warmth. Veronica visualized 
chin-length blond hair, gold rings, three strands of pearls. "There's no way I 
can get you in to see her just now. She understands that, and sends you her 
love."
Tears ran down Veronica's cheeks. "What happened? Did she say what happened?"
"She tried to explain, but frankly, her story doesn't make much sense. She 
apparently had some kind of out-of-body experience. She felt this shock and 
disorientation and then she was suddenly off to the side somewhere. Watched 
herself shoot the guard as if from a great distance. I don't know how well 
that's going to play in court. Do you know if she's ever been treated for an 
emotional disturbance? Is there any history of it in her family?"
"There's nothing the matter with Hannah," Veronica said. "Somebody else was in 
her body when the guard was killed. It wasn't Hannah."
"That's what she said."
"What about the blond kid?"
"What blond kid?"
"When Hannah got... taken over, or whatever it was, there was this blond kid. He 
just keeled over, like a zombie. Then at the end Hannah was back in her own body 
and I couldn't find the kid anywhere."
"I don't understand. What are you trying to make out of this?"
"I don't know. But I think that kid was involved somehow"
A long pause. "Veronica, I know you're upset. But you have to trust me. She's in 
the hands of the best law firm in the city. If anybody can save her, we can."
She couldn't sleep. She thought of Hannah alone in a damp and stinking cell, 
claustrophobic, terrified out of her mind. Nothing Veronica could do would 
convince the police-or even Hannah's lawyer-of what she knew to be the truth. 
Something that wasn't Hannah had pulled the trigger.
She called all of Croyd's numbers, with no luck. Jerry would gladly help, but 
what could he do? His brother's law firm was already on the case. And what good 
were lawyers against an entire bank lobby full of eyewitnesses? Hannah's smell 
was still in the sheets. It made Veronica crazy with longing. It was like a 
heroin habit, tearing up her guts. She couldn't lie there any longer. She put on 
running shoes and went out onto the street.
It was nine o'clock on a Friday night. The life of the city went on without her, 
as it always did. She drifted toward the light and noise of Broadway, hating the 
faces she saw around her, wanting to throw herself into the river of yellow cabs 
and pound on them and scream until the world stopped what it was doing and came 
to help. New York was the best city in the world to be happy in, and the worst 
if you were desperate. It towered over the helpless, sped by them in clouds of 
monoxide. It shoved past them on the street without apology, and left its 
garbage all around them to wade through.
Life meant nothing without Hannah. Without Hannah she would end up back on the 
needle, would find herself giving blow jobs on car seats for ten dollars a pop. 
Anything would be better.
That was when she saw the gun.
It was inside the glass display case of a pawnshop, just visible behind the 
guitars and stereos in the window. It was chrome-plated and heavy and spoke the 
word "power" to her.
She went inside. The man behind the counter was fifty going on twenty-two. 
Veronica had had too many tricks just like him. His hairpiece wasn't even the 
same color as the fringe around his ears. His polyester shirt was green, with 
horses on it, ten years out of fashion. It was unbuttoned to show his chest hair 
and gold chains.
"How much is that pistol?" Veronica asked him. "Now, what would a sweet little 
number such as yourself want with a big, nasty Smith and Wesson .38?" He crossed 
his arms over his chest and leaned back against the wall behind the counter. On 
the TV over his shoulder, two football teams smashed into each other.
"I'm not in the mood for bullshit, pal. How much is the gun?"
The man shook his head, smiling. " I see it all the time. Sweet little thing 
gets a little upset with her sugar daddy, maybe catches him with his hand in the 
wrong cookie jar, and suddenly she's got to blow him away. This is what 
television has done to modern society. Everybody wants to blow everybody else 
away."
"Look, pal-"
The man leaned forward. "No, you look. The law says I'm responsible for what I 
sell. I don't like your looks, I don't have to sell you shit." He straightened 
up and his voice softened. "So why don't you be a good little girl and run along 
home to Papa?"
In that moment Veronica saw her entire life as one humiliation after another, 
all at the hands of men, all of whom felt they were privileged to decide her 
destiny.
From the father who never acknowledged her, to Fortunato who told her how to 
dress and how to smile, to Jerry who expected her to love him just because he 
loved her, to the countless men who'd used her and walked away. She was sick of 
it. For once she wished she had Fortunato's power, could reach out with her mind 
and crush this pompous, ugly little man to jelly.
The fluorescent lights overhead flickered. It should have distracted her, but 
instead she felt connected. The lights flashed with the rhythm of her breathing 
and she knew she was the cause. She felt the power flowing through the wires, 
flowing out of the grid and into her mind. The wild card. Croyd. It was 
happening. The picture on the TV rolled, then turned to snow. The second hand on 
the big electric clock next to it stopped, then swung back and forth like a 
pendulum, keeping time with the flashing lights. The man started to turn toward 
the TV and then went pale. He sat down slowly, his arms crossing tighter, as if 
he were cold. Sweat beaded his face.
"Are you hurt?" she asked him.
" I don't know" His voice was weak, and higher than it had been.
She hadn't crippled him, apparently. Beyond that she didn't care. "Give me the 
gun."
"I ... I don't know if I can."
"Do it!"
He got onto his hands and knees, fumbled a key into the lock, slid the back of 
the display case open. He had to use both hands to lift the gun onto the 
counter. Veronica reached for it, then realized what she'd done. Why did she 
need a gun?
She ran into the street, waving for a cab.
She got as far as the holding tank on nerve alone. The beefy, red-haired guard 
outside the lockup refused to let her any farther and Veronica tried to do to 
him what she'd done in the pawnshop. Nothing happened.
She felt a surge of panic. She had no idea what the power was or how it worked. 
What if she couldn't use it again right away? What if she needed something that 
had been in the pawnshop as a catalyst?
"Lady, I told you, this is a restricted area. Now, are you going to get out of 
here or do I got to call somebody?" Panic turned to helplessness, helplessness 
to anger. What good was this power if she couldn't use it to help Hannah? And 
with the anger it came. The lights flickered and the music from a TV inside the 
lockup dissolved in static. Suddenly she could hear the prisoners screaming. The 
man staggered, leaned forward to support himself on his desk. "Jesus Christ," 
the man said. "Jesus Christ."
"Where's the keys?"
"What'd you do to me, lady? I can't lift my fuckin' arms."
"The keys."
The man slumped into his chair, unsnapped the keys from his belt, and slid them 
across the desk. Behind Veronica a man's voice said, "Charlie?"
Veronica concentrated on the voice without turning around and heard the man 
slump to the floor. The third key she tried fit a control panel next to the 
steel lockup door. A motor wheezed and the door bucked but didn't open. She 
realized she was still disrupting the electricity and forced herself to relax.
The door slid back. There were four cells inside. Three of them held drunks and 
addicts and derelicts. In the fourth were four black prostitutes, and Hannah. 
All of them but Hannah were screaming for help.
Hannah hung from a pipe in the ceiling by her trousers. Her face was swollen and 
purple and her tongue stuck straight out of her slack mouth. Her eyes bulged. A 
patch of hair had been ripped out by the zipper in her pants and a drop of dried 
blood still clung to her scalp. Veronica threw herself at the bars, her screams 
lost in the voices around her. She felt the keys tugged out of her hand and one 
of the hookers opened the cell from inside. Veronica ran to Hannah and held her 
with one arm around her waist, the other hand tugging at the knotted pant leg 
around her neck.
She refused to think. Not yet. Not while there was still something left to try. 
She laid Hannah's body out on the sticky gray floor of the cell. She pushed the 
swollen tongue aside and dug vomit out of Hannah's throat with her fingers. She 
blew air into her lungs until she lost all breath herself.
One of the prostitutes had stayed behind. She looked at Veronica and said, "She 
a wild woman before she die. Bitch went completely crazy. Never saw anything 
like it. We couldn't get near to her."
Veronica nodded.
"I tried to stop her, but there weren't no way. Girl was crazy, that's all."
"Thank you," Veronica said.
Then the cell was full of police, guns drawn, and there was nothing she could do 
but raise her hands and go along with them.
She waited until she was alone with two detectives before she used her power 
again. She left the two of them barely conscious on the floor of the 
interrogation room and walked out into the night.
The street was headlights and horns honking, blaring jam boxes and shouting 
voices, all of it too bright, too loud, too overwhelming. Inside her it was the 
same. Her mind would not shut up. Hannah was her life, the only thing that 
mattered. If Hannah was dead, how could she still be alive?
The thought was white-hot, too painful to touch. Better, she thought, to just 
think of herself as already dead. She watched a bus roar past her and wondered 
what it would feel like to go under its wheels.
Then she remembered the look on Hannah's face as she lay on the floor of the 
bank, as her consciousness came back into her. She remembered the prostitute in 
the cell. Crazy, wild woman, the prostitute had said.
Someone had done this to Hannah. Somewhere in the city there was someone who 
knew what had happened, and why.
Not dead, Veronica thought. Hannah is dead, and I'm not. Someone knows why.
It turned into a refrain, a mantra. It brought her back to Hannah's apartment, 
took her inside. She lay down in Hannah's bed and held one of Hannah's shirts to 
her face and breathed the smell. Liz crawled up onto the bed next to her and 
started to purr. Together they lay there and waited to, see if the sun would 
ever rise.


Mr. Nobody Goes to Town
by Walton Simons
Jerry pushed the intercom button and stared up at the closed-circuit TV A cold 
wind whipped at him, stinging his-face and ears. Overeating at Thanksgiving 
dinner hadn't given him much in the way of winter fat. But it was only early 
December, he could keep working on it. "Who is it?" said a polite female voice 
over the intercom.
Jerry recognized Ichiko. "Jerry Strauss. I'd like to come up and talk to you 
about Veronica. Or, at least, get warm."
There was a buzz and the automatic door bolt clicked open. Jerry pushed his way 
in and walked into the sitting room, rubbing his hands. A woman sat on the low 
couch. She was tall, with long brown hair, distant eyes, and soft features. She 
stared past Jerry toward the street. Jerry walked to the door of Ichiko's office 
and knocked. "Come in."
Jerry slipped in and sat down in the chair opposite Ichiko's desk. The office 
was more high tech than Jerry had expected. There was a computer on her credenza 
and a bank of TV screens showing the outside of the building and the sitting 
room. Jerry had only seen the one camera; the rest must be hidden. Ichiko was 
wearing a dark blue dress. Her eyes looked tired, but she managed a smile. 
"Thanks for seeing me," Jerry said. "I was just wondering if you had any idea 
how I could find Veronica, or even contact her."
Ichiko shook her head. "She moved all her belongings out a few weeks ago. She 
didn't tell me about her future plans."
"Do you have any ideas at all?"
"No." Ichiko pressed her fingertips together. "Really. Would you like to try 
someone else as a companion?"
"No. I don't know how I got into this situation in the first place. It's not 
really like me. Veronica was special, I guess."
All women are special. Men as well, I suppose.' Ichiko stood. "I'm sorry I've 
been unable to help you, Mr. Strauss."
"It was just a shot," Jerry said, standing and taking a step toward the door.
Ichiko looked up at the monitors. A red light was flashing under one of them. 
Two young Oriental men were staring up at the screen. One of them pulled out a 
can of spray paint. He held it up to the camera. The screen went dark. "Damn," 
Ichiko said. She pushed the intercom to the sitting room. "Diane, get in here 
now."
Jerry heard footfalls outside and the door swung open, almost hitting him. The 
young woman shut the door behind her. Her already pale complexion had gone 
white. "They're at the outside door," she said. "Two Egrets."
"What's going on?" Jerry backed away from the door and stood behind the desk 
with Ichiko and Diane. "Immaculate Egrets. Street thugs," Ichiko said. "We've 
refused to pay them protection money. I used to be able to threaten them with 
the return of my son, but it's been so long."
"Fortunato?" Jerry asked.
"No, Santa Claus." Diane's voice was trembling, but she managed a quick stare 
that made Jerry feel like a six-year-old.
Jerry looked at Ichiko's desktop. There was a picture of Fortunato. He picked it 
up and sat in the chair, studying the photograph.
"What are you doing?" Ichiko's voice was calm and curious.
"The best I can," said Jerry. "Either one of you got a mirror?"
Diane fumbled in her purse and handed him a compact. Jerry stared into it and 
started changing his features and skin tone.
"Jesus," said Diane. "No wonder Veronica was spooked by you."
Jerry ignored the comment and handed her back the compact. He turned to Ichiko. 
"How do I look?"
"A little more forehead," she said.
There was a pounding at the office door, then laughter. "Diane, let them in," 
Jerry said, trying to force authority into his voice.
The girl opened the door and stood back. The two Egrets walked into the room 
like foxes entering the henhouse. They saw Jerry and stopped.
"What do you want?" Jerry said.
"Pay up," said the larger of the two kids. He took a step forward. Jerry stood 
up slowly. He could only make himself a little taller, but he'd pushed the 
limits.
"Get out, scum." Jerry folded his arms into what he hoped was a mystical-looking 
position. "Get out, or I'll turn you into something like this."
Jerry let his facial features go completely. He let his jaw sag and rolled out a 
huge, blue tongue. He flattened his nose and elongated his ears. Flaps of skin 
from his forehead began to melt over his brow.
The Egrets ran, bouncing off each other in the office doorway. A gun popped 
loose and skidded across the floor. Jerry walked around the desk and picked it 
up. It was cold, blue, and heavy. He tucked it into his coat.
"They might be waiting for me outside," he explained. "Your face," Diane said, 
wincing. "Fix it or something." Jerry closed his eyes and let his body image 
take his face back to normal.
"You have done me a great service," Ichiko said. "If you truly wish to find 
Veronica, a group called WORSE may be hiding her. However, I suggest you hire a 
professional to take up the chase. They're dangerous women from what I hear."
Jerry nodded. "Thanks." He stared at Diane. She looked away. Scaring her was 
more fun than he wanted to admit. He blew her a kiss and walked slowly out of 
the office and into the cold streets.
Ackroyd sat behind the cluttered desk, a manila folder conspicuous in the 
center. His right eye was slightly swollen and dark. "Want a drink?" he asked as 
Jerry sat down. "It's all part of the service."
The old metal chair creaked as Jerry settled into it. "No. Oh, well. Don't want 
to be a bad guest."
Ackroyd opened a drawer and pulled out a glass and bottle of scotch. He wiped 
out the glass with a tissue. "Straight up all right?"
"Sure. A little week-before-Christmas cheer can't hurt." Jerry needed it for his 
nerves. The folder was pretty thick. Maybe there was a lot more to know about 
Veronica than he suspected. "Not going to indulge yourself?"
Ackroyd shrugged. "I've got a bit of a headache today."
"I noticed your eye. I hope you didn't get it while you were working, you know, 
doing what I asked." Jerry picked up the glass and took a larger-than-normal 
swallow.
"Jokertown's getting tougher and tougher. Mostly nats stirring up trouble. It's 
kind of open season on wild cards nowadays." He opened up the folder. "Which 
brings us to your little lady Veronica."
"She's not exactly my lady." Jerry wasn't sure what Veronica was to him anymore, 
whether he really cared or she was just a lingering obsession.
"Whatever. To start where you lost track of her, she got involved with a woman 
named Hannah, who just happened to be involved in a rad-fem group."
"WORSE," Jerry said.
"Real good." Ackroyd stroked his chin. "You kept that to yourself. It'll help if 
you tell me everything you know from now on. Anyhow, whether there was anything 
sexual between Hannah and Veronica isn't clear. You heard about the bank murder 
not long back?"
"I think so. Woman shot a guard to death or something, then killed herself in 
jail." Jerry pictured Veronica with another woman, then took another stinging 
mouthful of scotch.
"That was Hannah. Veronica broke into the precinct and found the body. 
Apparently, she has the power to make men sick. I've known a few women like that 
myself."
"Anyway, that's how she got past all the cops. After that she went to ground. 
Rumor is that Hannah's buddies are hiding her out. I could try to infiltrate 
WORSE, but I don't think I'd get past the physical. Did you ever feel sick 
around her?"
"Not the way you're meaning it." Jerry exhaled slowly. "If she had some kind of 
ace, she never used it on me."
"Just curious." Ackroyd gingerly fingered the mouse under his eye. "An 
interesting sidebar to this. There's a rumor that Hannah was possessed or 
something when she shot the guard. Could be nothing. Could be an ace power."
"Then maybe Hannah didn't really commit suicide." The scotch was kicking in and 
Jerry was fighting off the image of Veronica's head between her lover's legs.
"Hard to say. I'll keep my ear to the ground." Ackroyd picked up the bottle. 
"Cash customers get a second shot if they want it."
"No thanks. Keep looking for Veronica." Jerry straightened his shoulders. "I 
think I'll look into Hannah's murder myself. Who's the officer in charge of the 
investigation?"
"Lieutenant King, homicide. Don't get in his way." Ackroyd cocked his head to 
one side. "I like you. Why don't you leave the detective work to me? I'm a 
trained professional. Years of rigorous study in detective school. Well, weeks 
anyway. I know my way around. You-"This is something I really want to do. I 
found out about WORSE, you know." Jerry felt focused for the first time in 
weeks. It might be real purpose and it might be just the scotch. "How tall is 
King?"
"Just under six feet." Ackroyd gave Jerry a long, slow look. "I know a little 
about your history. This may or may not apply to you, but it's not a good time 
to be a public wild card."
"Mine doesn't play anymore, Mr. Ackroyd. If you do know my history, you should 
be aware of that."
"Whatever you say. I'll let you know if I turn up anything on Veronica." Ackroyd 
smiled, his mouth hard and small. "And be careful."
The office wasn't exactly what Jerry had anticipated. The cream wallpaper and 
walnut wainscoting were an unexpected relief in the otherwise deprived depths of 
Jokertown. Pretorius was an unusual lawyer, though. Successful, too, or Hiram 
Worchester wouldn't have hired him.
"Mr. Strauss. Thank you for coming." Pretorius extended a large hand. Jerry 
shook it and sat down. Pretorius ran a hand through his white hair and leaned 
back in the chair. "As you know I've been hired to defend Hiram Worchester. 
Since you were on the world tour with him, I thought we might use you as a 
character witness."
"Well, I can't say that I know Mr. Worchester very well. I was having problems 
myself then, you know. Dr. Tachyon had just gotten me out of my ape body. The 
people who knew him said Hiram was acting in a very strange manner, especially 
in Japan. That's kind of secondhand information, though." Jerry extended his 
palms. "The few occasions I've seen Hiram since, he's been very courteous and 
decent. I don't know if that's any help to you."
"Hard to say. You build a case in little ways, sometimes. We might need your 
testimony, and we might not." Pretorius pushed his wire-rim spectacles up the 
bridge of his nose. "Are you planning on taking any sort of vacation or business 
trip in the near future?"
"No," Jerry said. "Not as far as I know"
Pretorius nodded. "Good. I appreciate your time. We'll contact you if the need 
arises."
"Just out of curiosity, how are you going to plead? My brother's a lawyer," 
Jerry explained, "he'd be disappointed if I didn't at least ask."
"Well, in the interest of professional courtesy, I'll tell you that we're 
pleading not guilty." Pretorius took a deep breath. "Diminished capacity. Not an 
argument I care for much, but this is a unique case." He snorted laughter. "Of 
course, they all say that."
"Thanks. Let me know if you need me." Jerry stood and headed for the door. He 
didn't want Pretorius to walk him. He'd heard about the leg. "And good luck."
Pretorius stayed behind the desk. "Thank you, Mr. Strauss. We are most certainly 
going to need it."
Jerry leaned against the railing and stared west at Ellis Island. The Staten 
Island Ferry was one of the few things that hadn't changed in the time he'd been 
an ape.
Kenneth stood silent behind him, his collar turned up against the chilling 
breeze that ran across the water, churning the surface into whitecaps.
"Winter already," Jerry said.
"Yeah. I suspect it's going to be a hard one."
"Got your shopping all done?" Jerry asked.
" I still have a little wrapping left to do. You?"
"Believe it or not, I actually got it done." Jerry held his gloved palms to his 
face and blew into them, trying to warm his nose. " I hope Beth likes what I got 
her. I didn't really know what to get the woman who already has everything."
Kenneth made a face Jerry couldn't quite read. It didn't look happy. "I'm sure 
whatever you got her will be fine," he said, still staring at the water.
Jerry waited a long moment before speaking again. "Did it bother you that Mom 
and Dad made such a fuss over me?"
Kenneth turned and looked into Jerry's eyes. " I hated you for it. At the time. 
They just never had much use for me, but they died trying to get you back."
"Oh." Jerry looked away.
"It's not that way now. You didn't cause them to ignore me. They chose to. I was 
afraid to hate them, so I hated you instead. I was into hate when I was 
younger."
"Self-righteous anger gives such an uncluttered perspective of the world. Makes 
life simple. I guess we need that when we're young." Kenneth put his hand on 
Jerry's shoulder. "But believe me, I'm tremendously happy to have you back. You 
make us feel more like a family." Jerry shrugged. "If you'd wanted a kid, you'd 
have had one, I figure. Now you're saddled with me. I'm supposed to be your 
older brother and I feel like such a burden."
Kenneth raised an eyebrow. "You know better than to fish for compliments with a 
lawyer, even if he is your brother. But in the interest of your constant need 
for reassurance, I'll confess that you're a welcome addition to the household." 
He paused. "And Beth loves you very much."
Jerry wished Kenneth seemed as glad to say it as he himself was to hear it. 
"Thanks. She's really great. I don't know what I'd do without her."
"That makes two of us."
Jerry leaned in. "I'm not sure she knows that."
"I think she does. Work is important to me. But Beth is always at the center. I 
found that out when she left me a few years back." Kenneth exhaled slowly, his 
breath condensing into mist. "I thought I was tough. I learned otherwise. No, I 
don't think we have any misunderstandings in that area anymore."
"Speaking of work, how is that going?" Jerry felt a twinge of nausea.
Kenneth paused. "It's not what I expected when I was in law school. There's more 
compromises than you might expect. I defend big-money clients. Justice is 
purchased at least as often as it's served, but we do what we can within the 
system. Fifteen years ago I might have been representing the joker squatters 
over there." He pointed. The ferry was at the point of its nearest approach to 
Ellis Island.
Jerry didn't think Kenneth wanted to talk about his work. He almost never did. 
"God, I feel like garbage all of a sudden." His stomach was knotting worse than 
before.
Kenneth put a hand over his mouth. "Me too. I hope it's not the flu. Christmas 
is no time to be sick."
"Amen to that, brother," Jerry said. "Let's find a place to sit down."
Jerry swallowed hard. He wasn't sure he could pull this one off. He hadn't 
figured on Lieutenant King being black. Changing his skin color and hair texture 
was no problem, but inside he knew he was still pure whitebread. That was going 
to be hard to hide.
King always took a long lunch on Thursday. Jerry would have at least half an 
hour before the man he was impersonating came back. He bit his lip and walked 
into the room.
Everyone he could see snapped to look at him. Many were reading books or 
newspapers, which they immediately put down or hid away. The office clattered to 
life with the sound of fingers on keyboards and paper shuffling. People were 
afraid of King. That was good. Jerry could use that. A short young man wearing 
glasses walked up to him quickly.
"You're back early, sir," the young man said. "Anything up?"
"You have to ask?" Jerry managed to sound tough. He tried to relax enough to 
enjoy his own ability to intimidate. "Get me the file on Hannah Jorde."
The man jerked his head back like someone had shoved a bee up his nose. "But. . 
."
"Do it now. I'll be in my office." Jerry turned away, his hands shaking 
slightly. Ackroyd had reluctantly given him the layout of the room and Jerry 
headed over to King's office. The door was closed. Jerry turned the knob. It was 
locked.
Jerry's stomach went cold and he sagged against the solid oak door. Shit, he 
thought, what now? He fumbled in his pocket for his own keys and got them out, 
then pressed the end of his finger against the lock. He made the flesh and bone 
softer and began to push them inside. It felt like the bone was going to tear 
through the skin at the tip of his finger, but he shoved it in further. He 
hardened up a bit and turned his hand. The lock clicked. Jerry softened up and 
withdrew his aching misshapen finger, then quickly re-formed it to its original 
shape. He opened the door.
The office didn't look big enough to belong to a lieutenant. Jerry sat behind 
the desk and looked it over. There was a stack of paperwork, a few files, and a 
gold pen-and-pencil set for fifteen years of service to the force. Jerry leaned 
back in the massive rolling chair. The young man walked in, set down the file, 
and gave him an expectant look. "Will that be all, sir?"
Jerry nodded. "Close the door on your way out. And no calls."
"Yes, sir." The man slipped out and closed the door quietly behind him.
The file was about twenty pages or so thick. There was a transcript of Hannah's 
interrogation, which Jerry only skimmed. She'd said someone traded bodies with 
her long enough to kill the guard, and the police didn't buy it. Neither side 
backed off during the conversation, but Hannah didn't sound hysterical or near 
suicide. Not to Jerry anyway. He flipped quickly past the photos of her dead 
body. Even alive, she wouldn't have been that pretty. He couldn't figure out why 
Veronica would have slept with her. At the end of the file was a composite 
drawing labeled "possible suspect." The young mans features looked familiar, but 
Jerry couldn't place him for a moment or two. Then it clicked.
"David too-fucking-good-to-be-true. St. John Latham's boy wonder," he said 
softly.
Maybe there was a God, and Jerry was getting a late Christmas present.
The street was cold, windy, and poorly lit. Jerry pushed his gloved hands into 
the pockets of his leather bomber jacket as far as they would go. He needed some 
thing to occupy his time. Kenneth and Beth had been cuddling on the couch, and 
he didn't particularly feel like watching foreplay. He figured following David 
was likely to be anything but boring. Besides, if he had something to do with 
Hannah's murder, Jerry could find him out and look like a hero. Jerry had 
started out the evening as a pretty boy, figuring David would be hanging out 
with the beautiful people. There weren't many that fit that description in 
Jokertown, and that was where they were now. Jerry had bought a beat-up hat off 
a hatchet-faced joker to hide his nat features.
David was about thirty yards ahead of him on the other side of the street. Jerry 
didn't want to get too close. Not yet, anyway. The police-sketch resemblance to 
David was probably a coincidence. Then again, anything could happen, especially 
in Jokertown after hours.
David slowed his pace and stopped in front of an alley mouth, turning to look 
inside. He paused a second, then went in. Jerry cut across the street. A gust of 
wind whipped a Jokertown Cry up off the pavement and into his face. Jerry pulled 
it away and trotted into the alley. He heard footfalls ahead. David's, he 
figured. He could also hear muted laughter and what sounded like a scream.
Jerry's mouth went dry. This wasn't really how he'd planned to spend the 
evening. An Adonis like David should be out picking up gorgeous girls, or boys 
at least.
Jerry took a deep breath, chilling his throat, then walked in.
Jerry saw the light when he stepped around the dumpster. David was just stepping 
inside. Jerry walked up slowly, trying to appear casually interested. The 
entrance looked like it had been stuck onto the garbage-stained bricks of the 
alley wall. A joker stood at the door, looking silently at him. He wore a black 
silk garment that fully covered his shapeless body. His smiling face was 
peculiarly stiff.
Jerry tried to step past and get inside. The joker grabbed him by the shoulders 
and pivoted him around. "No," the joker said softly. "This is a private club." 
Jerry turned to give an indignant look, but there was another scream from 
inside. He took a step back and wandered off down the alley. Jerry looked at the 
dumpster as he walked past it. A torn-up gray coat stuck out slightly from 
inside. Jerry laughed to himself. He was rich and not used to being kept out of 
any place. He tucked his bomber jacket carefully under some of the less 
repulsive garbage and pulled out the coat. He shrugged it on and winced. In 
Jokertown, even frozen garbage stank. Jerry uglied himself up by enlarging his 
ears and nose and giving himself fleshy whiskers all over his face. No way that 
sack-of-potatoes doorman would recognize him now.
Jerry shortened one of his legs and loped down the alley toward the club 
entrance.
He was almost inside when the doorman started tittering and pulled him back out. 
Jerry's deformed jaw dropped.
"You didn't really think a few cosmetic alterations would get you in, did you?" 
The doorman waved him off. "As I said, our clientele is very special."
Jerkoff asshole, Jerry thought, then wondered if the joker could read his mind. 
He trotted back down the dumpster to retrieve his jacket and headed home.
The phone message from Ackroyd was brief.
"I figure you already know this, but Hannah was supposed to be defended by one 
Dyan Mundy of Latham, Strauss. Nothing new on Veronica. Somebody more crass 
would mention money, but I know you're good for it. still. . ."
Jerry had been out trying to pick up a waitress at his favorite seafood 
restaurant. Her lack of positive response had prompted him to have several shots 
of whiskey before starting on his flounder. He'd put on a pot of coffee when he 
got home and had downed half of it before heading to the law office.
He'd seen Dyan Mundy a few times and pretty much stayed out of her way. She was 
easily six feet tall, built like an Eastern European athlete, and had her brown 
hair slicked back. A pair of glasses and a no-nonsense attitude completed her 
ensemble. She was between meetings when Jerry got to the office. Her desk was 
uncluttered. There was a picture of her family on one corner. She was as large 
as her husband and two children combined. A row of dying plants sat on the 
windowsill.
"What can I do for you, Mr. Strauss?" She seemed somewhat nonplussed at his 
request to see her.
"It's about the Hannah Jorde case," Jerry said. "I understand you were her 
attorney-briefly, of course." Dyan leaned back in her chair and tapped her 
fingertips together. "I suppose there's no harm in telling you what little I 
know. She was arraigned on a charge of first-degree murder. I spoke to her 
briefly about the case. She was very confused, but lucid. Completely committed 
to this body-switching story. Her suicide surprised me. It seemed inconsistent 
with her overall attitude. I guess you can never predict those things."
Jerry nodded. "You saw her alone?"
"Yes. No. David came along at Mr. Latham's request. But he got sick just before 
we got to her cell and had to leave."
There was a sharp knock at the door. It opened before Dyan could say anything. 
Latham stepped in and closed the door behind him.
"Ms. Mundy, even an attorney of your limited experience knows better than to 
discuss a case in such a casual manner. I suspect Mr. Strauss is doing nothing 
more than gathering gossip for party chatter." He stared hard at Jerry. "I'm 
sure Ms. Mundy has business to attend to and would appreciate your leaving."
Jerry stood. "I'm sorry if I created any kind of problem." He brushed quickly 
past Latham, who closed the door behind him. Latham's voice sounded like a buzz 
saw cutting into soft wood. It was going to be a long afternoon for Dyan Mundy.


Snow Dragon
by William F. Wu
... And this was for her father and this was for her brothers if she has 'em, 
and this was for her mother, and this and this was for her Nordic grandfathers 
...
Underneath Ben Choy, on the squeaking narrow bed and rumpled sheets, the large, 
round tits of the cute white girl jiggled rhythmically. Her pale blond hair was 
splayed out over the sweat-stained pillowcase, her eyes now squinted shut 
against the glaring bare light bulb overhead as her breath came faster. Outside 
the little room, down the hall, someone flushed the community toilet.
... And this was for every one of her white relatives, and this was for the KKK, 
and this was for Leo Barnett, and this was for the father of every white girl he 
had ever liked. This was his revenge against all of them. And this and this and 
this.
Later, his breath regained, Ben sat up between Sally Swenson's spread legs. He 
turned sideways to lean back against the peeling yellow paint of the thin 
interior wall, one of her legs under his lower back. Then he extended his own 
legs under her other knee, to hang over the edge of the bed. The sheet had 
fallen to the floor.
She roused herself enough to prop his two pillows under her head and looked at 
him with big, guileless blue eyes.
"Is it always this hot in here?" she asked. "Even this time of year?"
"Yeah." Ben glanced at the one window in the room. On the outside surface, 
misshapen ice rippled the glow from the streetlights below. On the inside, a 
mist of condensed moisture had been streaked by drips running down the wooden 
sill.
He turned to look at her. A sheen of sweat still covered her heart-shaped face 
and she smiled slightly, uncertainly, as he looked at her. She had liked what he 
had just done to her. That was for her father, too, whoever he was.
"Don't you pay a lot more for the heat?"
"No." He swung the pendant on his neck chain back to the front, from where it 
had slipped over his shoulder. It was an old Chinese coin his grandfather had 
sent him, held by the chain strung through the square hole in its center.
"Is it included with the room?"
"Yeah." Idly, Ben slid a hand up her inner thigh to twirl her blond pubic hair 
around one finger. A real blonde. "It's a cramped, disgusting little room, but 
the landlord pays the heat. The radiator is hard to control, so I'd rather have 
it too hot than freeze to death."
"Makes sense to me."
He studied the skin over her pelvis and upper thighs. She was so white that she 
didn't have even the slightest hint of an old tan. Maybe she couldn't tan at 
all.
"What's downstairs? It was dark when we came in."
"Grocery store." And she didn't seem to mind lying there talking while still 
spread wide open. She was really white. And cleanly, purely pink.
"A Chinese grocery store?"
"Sure." He shrugged. "You can get anything there, really."
"Do you mind my asking questions?"
"No."
"Doesn't this room bother you? I mean, it's so small. You don't even have a 
phone, do you?"
"I hang out in the Twisted Dragon. Anybody wants me, they come there. Or call. I 
just sleep here."
"Or screw girls here." She giggled playfully, quivering her tits.
"Yeah." He had picked her up a few hours ago in the Twisted Dragon. She had 
wandered in alone, wide-eyed and curious, her vulnerability plain to see. Among 
the street toughs and jokers, this slightly chubby and very attractive nat had 
turned most of the heads in the place but Ben was under no illusion that she was 
very bright.
Another victim. Ben, do you simply hate all women? Or just yourself, even more?
Ben clenched his teeth against his sister Vivian's accusation. It seemed to echo 
in his mind. She had made it many times.
"I've never been to Chinatown before," Sally said shyly.
"Or Jokertown."
She shook her head tightly, with a self-conscious smile, her big eyes glowing.
"And you want someone to show you around." Ben gave her a cynical smile.
Her face was pink now, too.
You like them dumb and helpless, don't you? Vivian had said that plenty of 
times, too. Not to mention the impressive bra size.
"I want a drink." Ben pushed Sally's outside leg away and got up. Even the aged 
hardwood floor was fairly warm. He picked through the clothes he had scattered 
earlier and found his underwear. It was the Munsingwear brand, with the pouch in 
the front. He began to dress. Ben put on a black turtleneck over a gray thermal 
shirt and blue jeans and black boots. As an afterthought he added a light blue 
sweater. Once he was dressed, he pulled a small piece of white paper wrapped in 
a wad of tissue out of his pants pocket.
It was an intricately folded sculpture, one he had been practicing more often 
lately, representing a Chinese dragon. Satisfied that it was in good condition, 
he stashed it again and picked up a brush from the little table that had come 
with the room. He paused when he saw her looking at him. She hadn't moved.
"Do you want me to go with you?" she asked.
"Don t care." He turned away to face the small mirror standing on the table and 
brushed his hair back into place. "Do you want me to stay here?"
"Don't care."
"Can I sleep here tonight?"
"Don't care."
He tossed down the brush and shrugged into his padded brown stressed-leather 
jacket. JETBOY STYLE! the poster for the jacket had said. Fadeout's money had 
paid for it after a recent job.
"Why do you wear those baggy pants?" She giggled again.
Ben's jaw tightened. "I'm going down to the Twisted Dragon."
Stung, she watched him, only her blue eyes moving as he stomped to the door.
He knew his lack of interest hurt her more than any rejection would have; he 
didn't care about that, either. Nothing of value was in the room for her to 
take. He left the door standing open without looking back.
Ben paused just inside the door of the Twisted Dragon to brush snow off his 
shoulders and to shuck his leather jacket. The snowfall outside was gentle and 
the breeze not too cold, really, but he was so used to his overly heated room 
that the night seemed colder than it was. Anyhow, the twinkling, colorful 
Christmas lights over the stores and other decorations in their darkened windows 
had put him in a bad mood. It was a white people's holiday that had nothing to 
do with his heritage.
I like Christmas, anyway. Vivian always answered his objections the same way, 
every year.
Even in the Twisted Dragon, a tape of instrumental versions of Christmas carols 
was playing faintly in the background. A two-foot green plastic Christmas tree 
on one end of the bar blinked red and green lights. He started down the aisle 
away from it.
"Hey, Dragon."
Ben turned again.
"You know Christian? He wants to see you." Dave Yang, a short, stocky Immaculate 
Egret with a frequent but forced smile had come down the aisle behind Ben and 
now jerked his thumb back over his shoulder.
Ben studied the phony smile carefully. Then he glanced at the tall British 
mercenary with pale blond hair who was lounging on a bar stool. He faced this 
way with a smirk as he leaned back against the bar. Christian was a new player 
in the Shadow Fist organization.
"I met him once; that's all." Tingling with tension, Ben followed Dave back up 
to the bar and eyed Christian without a word.
"And what do you drink, Mr. Dragon?" Christian raised an eyebrow.
"Baileys on ice." Ben did not relax.
The bartender nodded and turned to get it.
"A sweet tooth, eh?" Christian laughed, crinkling his lean, weathered features. 
"The mercs I know would call that a lady's drink, but no fear. You require a new 
twist on the old joke: `What does a man drink, who can turn into a tiger or 
dragon or any other animal at will? Answer: Anything he wants to.'"
Ben clenched his jaw. Under the smooth words, the Britisher's tone was taunting.
"So," Christian continued. "Have you reversed your name Chinese-style? Is it Mr. 
Dragon or Mr. Lazy?"
"What did you want to see me about?" Ben demanded. "And they say we Brits have 
no sense of humor. Ah, well." Christian sipped his drink, then turned to the 
Immaculate Egret as he swirled the ice in his scotch and water. The bottle of 
Glenlivet was on the bar behind him. "What are you drinking? Plum wine or some 
such?"
"Bourbon and water," said Dave, grinning again. "You buying?"
"One Beam's Choice and water," said Christian over his shoulder. He did not 
bother to make sure the bartender heard him. "You mustn't be so vague, or people 
will hand you cheap goods. Now, then." His tone hardened. "Leave us."
Without taking his eyes off Christian, Ben saw that the Immaculate Egret walked 
away without a word. He hated to see the arrogant white man assume that kind of 
power here in Chinatown. Christian had all these Immaculate Egrets, members of a 
Chinatown street gang, doing his bidding without question. Still, the move told 
Ben how much power Christian had here. He would not be a man to cross in a room 
full of Immaculate Egrets.
"Sit down, Dragon. We have business."
Ben hesitated. Since joining the Shadow Fist organization, he had taken all his 
orders from Fadeout. He had never worked for anyone else.
"You have heard, haven't you, that I am an authoritative member of the umbrella 
organization that runs this part of town?"
Ben's jaw tightened again. Christian might be drawing him away from Fadeout or 
this might be some kind of loyalty test Fadeout had set up. For that matter, 
with Fadeout's ace ability to turn invisible, he could be sitting undetected on 
the damn bar right now observing Ben's every move.
Ben shrugged elaborately and sat down, patting the pocket with his paper 
sculpture and Cub Scout knife out of nervous habit. He would have to watch 
himself very carefully.
Christian spun his stool and set down his glass, hunched confidentially over the 
bar. "I want you to take a package out to Ellis Island. You are not to report 
this message or this instruction to anyone at all. Understood?"
Ben nodded, staring at the bar in front of him. He understood; whether or not he 
would obey was another matter. When the bartender brought his drink, he left it 
untouched.
"And you will get it from the Demon Princes."
Ben looked at him in surprise. "You're doing business with a joker street gang?"
"They hit a Shadow Fist courier this afternoon and took our package."
"So you want me to clean up your mess."
"Indeed." Christian snickered and ran a callused hand through his pale blond 
hair. "Our Immaculate friends think of themselves as tough, but they are really 
just a well-armed adolescent mob. I'm told the Demon Princes are the largest and 
meanest independent gang in Jokertown."
"That's right." Ben knew they allowed only jokers in their gang and were led by 
a guy named Lucifer. They were involved in petty crime and small protection 
rackets, but had a code of no violence against jokers.
"Our amateur commandos can probably take them, but one never knows. You do it 
instead."
"What kind of package am I looking for?"
"A padded manila envelope with blue powder in plastic bags inside." He gestured 
with his hands, indicating a size that would just fit into the patch pockets of 
Ben's jacket.
It was probably the new designer drug called rapture, Ben guessed.
A drug runner, Vivian's voice said disgustedly. "Where are the Demon Princes?"
"Your problem, mate."
"How do I get to the island?"
"Am I your mum? Make like a birdie and fly, for all I care. Or swim like a fish, 
but mind the pollution." Ben's stomach tightened at the man's sneering tone, but 
he said nothing.
"You haven't touched your drink."
"Have we finished business?"
"That we have."
Ben shrugged and took a swallow. He tried to think of something to say; if he 
could draw Christian out, he might learn more about where he stood. However, he 
couldn't think of anything.
The big problem was that he didn't know exactly how powerful Christian really 
was. He certainly didn't doubt that the man was a major player in the Shadow 
Fist organization. Of course, no one could force Ben to follow his orders 
tonight, but he had no idea what the consequences would be if he refused.
Christian seemed to have all the Immaculate Egrets here now jumping to do his 
bidding; if he decided to eliminate Ben, he seemed to have plenty of soldiers to 
pull it off. On the other hand, the courier job sounded nasty, too. Finally he 
decided that he would definitely be better off doing the job and keeping an eye 
on the newcomer in the future. At least, it was the better of two bad options.
"I must confess to a certain fascination with your name," said Christian. 
"Picked it yourself, I assume?"
"Yeah. I took it from a guy out of Chinese literature. He was a thief, but sort 
of a good guy."
"Ah! A kind of yellow Robin Hood."
Ben smiled slightly. Some knowledge of his heritage was one of his few sources 
of pride. Even most of the Chinatown people around him didn't know the origin of 
his nickname.
If only you lived up to the original Lazy Dragon, Vivian said with a sneer in 
his mind. You don't deserve your name.
"Enough chitchat." Christian drained his glass and set it down with a decisive 
clunk. Without another word, he got up and sauntered into the back, toward the 
storerooms and kitchen.
Ben wouldn't learn anything more from Christian tonight. He took one more gulp 
of his drink and slid off the stool, moving to the rest room. His face and 
throat were warm with the liqueur.
Inside, he took the small oblong piece of soap from the dirty sink and wrapped 
it in toilet paper. Then he stuck it into another pants pocket. Supplied with 
potential reinforcement, he returned to the bar to pull his jacket on again.
More than a few of the Immaculate Egrets glanced up at him from their booths and 
tables, but no one moved or spoke. Ben knew from their studied reserve that they 
were aware he was doing Christian's bidding. He had no idea if they approved or 
not.
If not, they might express their opinion with Uzis sometime later tonight.
Ben stepped outside and drew in the sharp, cold air as he glanced around. Only a 
few people were in sight, all of them down the street toward other Jokertown 
nightspots. The snow was falling softly in big, wet flakes. A light film of 
white snow covered the sidewalk and street, darkened by occasional footsteps and 
the streaks of tire tracks.
The snow on the sidewalk just outside the Twisted Dragon was stamped to water by 
many feet, but one very large pair of footprints was accompanied by the twin 
tracks of a small two-wheeled cart. The Walrus, who had his newsstand over on 
Hester and the Bowery, was making his nightly rounds of Jokertown bars, hawking 
papers and magazines. He wasn't far ahead, by the look of the tracks, and he 
often stopped to talk affably with his customers.
Ben hurried after him.
No one can save you from yourself, Ben. Vivian's voice had thankfully been out 
of his mind while he had been measuring Leslie Christian. Now it came back with 
a reminder no less condescending than Christian himself. His sister had never 
approved of anything he did.
"Shut up," he muttered out loud as he walked down the deserted sidewalk.
Ben was in a vise; he had no question about that. Fadeout, for whom he had been 
a top aide for some time now, was on one side. The other side remained a 
mystery.
Get out, Ben. Get out of this life right now. Just run for it. They'll never 
know what happened to you. Vivian had said that more than a few times, too.
"I'm no coward," Ben muttered aloud. It came out in more of a whine than he had 
intended.
It's not cowardice. It's the smart thing to do.
Ben gritted his teeth and tried to shut out the voice as he walked faster. He 
failed.
If Fadeout is testing your loyalty, then he represents both sides and you'll 
pass the test by reporting this mission to him right away.
"Obviously," Ben growled under his breath.
If Christian is testing your loyalty to Fadeout for someone else, or for his own 
purposes, you flunk the test by reporting to Fadeout.
Ben hurried faster; he was almost running now from the insistent voice.
Then again, someone might have decided to take you out completely by sending you 
on an impossible mission, or a setup of some kind.
The mission could be suicide ... reporting to Fadeout could be suicide; so could 
not reporting it.
Fadeout could be watching right now.
Suddenly panicked, Ben whirled and looked around. Fadeout could turn invisible, 
but he couldn't avoid leaving footprints in the snow. None had followed Ben out 
of the Twisted Dragon.
The sound of Vivian's giggle echoed in his mind. "Shut up!" he shouted aloud to 
the empty street. Angry at himself now, Ben spun again and strode fast through 
the falling snow. Nobody was going to scare him off. He would eat Demon Princes 
for a late-night snack. He finally spied the Walrus at Chatham Square, waddling 
out of the offices of the Jokertown Cry. As always, he was in shirt sleeves, a 
rotund figure of oily blue-black flesh barely more than five feet tall: Tonight 
he wore a red Hawaiian shirt with orange, blue, and green birds of paradise all 
over it and he pulled his little wire cart behind him toward Ernie's.
Get out while you can, Ben. If you die, I die, too. Ignoring Vivian s voice in 
his mind, Ben jogged carefully after the Walrus in the snow. He didn't know him 
well, but they had spoken a few times. The Walrus was an endless font of jokes 
and gossip; everyone, including Ben, liked him.
"Hi," Ben said breathlessly as he slowed down to fall in step alongside the 
Walrus. The Walrus knew him only as a frequent patron of the Twisted Dragon, in 
his human form.
"'Evening, Ben," said the Walrus, looking at him from under a battered porkpie 
hat. Tufts of stiff red hair stuck out from under it. Twin tusks curved down 
around his mouth. "I sold all my Chinese papers back at the Twisted Dragon. May 
I interest you in something else?"
"Forget it; I cant read Chinese, anyway. But, uh, I need to find some Demon 
Princes."
"Mmm, well. They aren't exactly customers of mine. I don't know as how they 
read. No, sir."
"Come on, Walrus. You hear everything."
"An urgent matter, eh? You're running around on a snowy night like this, during 
the holidays and all."
"Look, I don't have a lot of money. Right now, that is. But my time always 
comes."
"I'm just a talkative cuss making rounds. No money necessary" The Walrus nodded 
pleasantly. "But I don t know that I can help you, Benjamin."
Ben shrugged, trying hard to come up with something he could trade.
"I see the Twisted Dragon has a new regular," said the Walrus airily, looking up 
at the swirling snow. "English, by his accent."
That was what he wanted. Ben hesitated; talking about the Shadow Fist Society 
was never a good idea. Then he decided to take the risk-he was in serious 
trouble anyhow, and wasn't even sure just how bad it was. "Leslie Christian. 
Highly placed, just moved right in. Word is he tells stories of being a merc all 
over the world."
"And I hear a note of disapproval."
Ben shrugged.
"I tried selling papers tonight at Hairy's Kitchen. Business was bad, though. 
Most of the patrons were illiterate, I think."
No, Ben. You don't owe Christian anything. "Thanks, Walrus." Ben grinned and 
spun in a little twist of snow. As the Walrus continued to pull his little cart 
down the sidewalk, Ben jogged the other way.
Ben, stop. I'll stop you. Somehow, someway, I'll stop you. If not tonight, 
someday. Stop ruining our life and our home
Ben had heard it all before. He jogged on down the cold streets. For now, at 
least, the voice stopped. Outside Hairy's Kitchen, Ben slowed down to let some 
pedestrians go by and then looked in the big picture window. Eight Demon Princes 
were lounging around a big round table at the back. Lucifer himself wasn't 
there; the guy in charge had a head that looked like it was covered with purple 
grapes, except for dark circles for his eyes and mouth, and he wore an expensive 
black leather jacket. Next to him, a companion with a flattened fish head like 
that of a flounder stuffed pizza into his mouth with hands shaped like split, 
mitten-shaped fins.
Empty plates were piled up on the table. The joker gang members were laughing 
and poking fun at each other. Their weapons. AK-47s, Uzis, and AR-15s, were 
casually slung around the backs of their chairs.
The rest of the place was deserted. Even Hairy and his help had retreated to the 
kitchen. The Demon Princes had been bragging, and no one, including them, 
doubted that a response was due from the Shadow Fists.
Without backup, negotiation was out of the question for Ben.
On missions for Fadeout, he had always had protection for his comatose body. Now 
he was on his own. Ben walked briskly around the corner into an alley and took 
the folded paper dragon out of his pants pocket.
In the alley, he stopped next to a dumpster with an open lid. There he unwrapped 
the dragon carefully; finding it in good condition, he dropped it to the layer 
of snow. Then he grabbed the top of the dumpster and jumped to get one leg over 
it. With a rolling motion, he fell gently into a foul-smelling pile of 
cardboard, newspaper, and garbage. Only the cold made the stench bearable. Be 
careful, at least, Vivian said reluctantly.
Ben wriggled around until he was lying on his back in a reasonably comfortable 
position. Then he closed his eyes and concentrated on the folded paper lying 
outside the dumpster.
In a second, he could feel himself growing.
As the folded paper became massive reptilian flesh and organs and scales, Ben 
looked out with the dragon's eyes at the mouth of the alley. Ben walked his 
forty-foot long, four-footed, wingless body forward on short legs. No one saw 
him cross the cold, broken pavement toward the sidewalk.
When he turned the corner of the building, pedestrians on the sidewalk suddenly 
scattered into the street. Even the most hardened denizens of Jokertown didn't 
want to cross him. Ben's clawed feet could not work a door latch, so he coiled 
himself outside the door.
Through the glass, he saw grapehead suddenly rise half out of his chair, 
pointing at him. Ben shot forward, smashing his massive head through the door; 
as he raced down the aisle inside the restaurant, the door snagged on the 
thickest part of his neck and ripped from the wall. In front of him, the Demon 
Princes grabbed their assault rifles and fired as they dove for cover.
Ben felt line after line of bullets tear into him, but the size and speed of his 
dragon body carried him forward, crashing into the table. The remains of the 
door hung around his neck like a collar. He snapped twice at the stunned jokers 
in a blood fury, biting one in half each time. More bullets ripped into him, but 
now the Demon Princes were running for the door, firing wildly.
He struck after them like a giant rattlesnake and bit the legs off grapehead, 
leaving stumps that spurted jets of blood over the smashed table. Then he darted 
forward again and snapped the fish head off that joker's neck. As he spat out 
the head, he heard heavy footsteps thumping through the doorway.
As pain dulled his vision, Ben saw the remaining Demon Princes scramble past a 
large figure cloaked in a black velvet cape and hood. The intruder, gigantic for 
a human but much smaller than Ben's dragon, wore a fencing mask under the black 
hood and marched forward angrily.
It was the joker known as the Oddity, in its winter attire.
Ben had never met it before, but he knew the approach of an enemy when he saw 
it. He clawed his body around to face his adversary. Pain shot throughout his 
long torso. His coordination was off and his body slow to respond. Though his 
cold-blooded reptilian constitution was tough, the bullets had torn flesh away 
from the bone up and down his body and he could no longer move properly.
"This is Jokertown," the Oddity intoned fiercely, in the harshest of its three 
voices. "You have no business here, ace. Not even with a street gang."
Ben could see the shapes moving and shifting underneath the black velvet cloak. 
The Oddity had once been three people who were now fused together and whose 
parts were forever mixing and matching in painful motion. He tried to talk back, 
but only hissed and growled in his dragon throat.
"Is that you, Lazy Dragon?" The Oddity lumbered toward Ben and reached out with 
one heavy, muscular white arm and one slender, feminine arm-both its hands were 
masculine but artistic and sensitive. "I've heard rumors about you on the 
street. But whoever you areyou need to learn to leave jokers alone."
Ben gathered himself and struck forward again, snapping his jaws. He missed the 
Oddity, who threw its arms around Ben's clamped jaws and squeezed like an 
alligator wrestler. The arm that had been soft and smooth was slowly gaining in 
weight and thickness; soon both its arms would be heavy and muscular. One hand 
had started to become feminine. Ben tried to wrench his jaws open again, but 
they were held fast.
Now Ben rolled, thrashing wildly; the tables and chairs shattered around him. 
What was left of the door broke and fell from his neck. Glasses, mugs, and 
dishes tinkled to shards. The Oddity was flung loose, its own great body adding 
to the destruction in a swirl of black velvet stained with the shiny blood of 
Demon Princes and Ben himself.
Anxiously, watching the Oddity, Ben struggled to untwist his long body. His 
short legs scrabbled helplessly for a moment on the debris as he tried to stand. 
To one side, the Oddity had lumbered to its feet and was clumsily advancing 
through the smashed furniture.
The Oddity reached out with its arms again just as Ben felt his claws gain some 
traction. He opened his jaws and darted downward to the Oddity's legs, but his 
failing neck muscles were slow and crooked. As Ben's teeth clacked hard on empty 
air, the Oddity again caught his mouth shut in an iron embrace.
Ben's dragon body was slowly dying. His vision was a blur as he squirmed and 
convulsed to buck the Oddity off his face, but his movements were even more 
painful now and less in control. The Oddity continued to ride him, even when 
they slammed into a wall, smashing the wallboard and splintering the support 
beams.
With a sudden searingly hurtful convulsion of his entire length, Ben flipped his 
long tail around and knocked the Oddity's ankles out from under it. The Oddity 
crashed onto its back, releasing Ben, and crunched broken dishes and glasses 
even further. Ben opened his jaws again and snapped wildly, getting no more than 
a mouthful of black velvet.
Shaking free of the cloth, Ben scratched again for a brace under his feet and 
tried one more time to slash the Oddity's torso with his fangs. He was slow and 
clumsy now, disoriented and frustrated by his inability to move his huge body 
the way he wanted. The Oddity again wrapped up his long snout in arms that were 
slick and shiny with sweat and blood. This time it was the Oddity who pushed off 
the floor with one massive leg, rolling to one side.
Ben felt a thrill of fear as he was flipped onto his back by brute strength; the 
lights spun above him in streaks. Suddenly the Oddity got new purchase against 
the floor and heaved to one side, the fencing mask an expressionless mock before 
one of Ben's eyes as the Oddity's arms twisted Ben's dragon neck. He heard a 
loud snap... and found himself lying in the cold dumpster outside, surrounded by 
trash and garbage.
Ben did not dare attract the Oddity's attention now. The bar of soap he had 
taken from the Twisted Dragon had not been carved; if the Oddity or anyone else 
came after him, he had no protection. He waited, listening.
The night had turned much colder. The snow fell heavily in fine white flakes 
that came swirling endlessly out of the night sky on a wind growing harsher as 
he lay there. Occasionally a car swished through the slush on the street, but 
the slush was hardening to ice. Everyone was quiet in the presence of slaughter.
From the sound of voices murmuring cautiously, he knew that a small crowd had 
gathered outside the door of Hairy's Kitchen. From the footsteps and the shift 
in the voices, he knew when the Oddity had made its way out of the wrecked 
establishment and wandered down the street to the depths of Jokertown. Ben 
climbed out of the dumpster, dropped to the ground, and peered around the 
corner.
The crowd was already breaking up. Now that Ben's dragon was again a scrap of 
paper and the Oddity gone, the spectacle had ended.
Glancing about alertly for Demon Princes, he slipped through the shattered 
doorway and hurried past the wreckage in the aisle to the remains of the table 
where they had been carousing. So far, Hairy and his staff were still holed up 
in the back or maybe off the premises completely. He could not help seeing some 
of the remains of the jokers he had so easily torn apart a few minutes before.
Ben stepped over a blood-red chunk of human flesh and felt a sudden gag in his 
throat. He stifled it, looking away. In the heat of the struggle, in dragon 
form, he had fought desperately, biting and slashing Demon Princes with abandon. 
He had felt different, somehow, at the time. The fight had been necessary, and 
as a dragon, he had fought the way a dragon must.
Now it was hard to believe he was the same person, inside, as the one who had 
slaughtered these people so quickly and easily.
It was you, all right, Vivian said with quiet anger. Ben had killed before in 
his animal forms and would do so again. In most cases he had never faced the 
remains in human form afterward. Now, however, the bloodshed sickened him. It 
just hadn't seemed the same a few moments ago.
He clenched his human jaws this time and forced himself to keep searching.
Ben couldn't be sure the package was here; one of the Demon Princes might have 
had it on him or they might have stashed it earlier this evening. It might have 
been carried by one who got away. As he looked around, gusts of cold wind blew 
through the restaurant, rattling dishes and debris and sending napkins flying. 
After a moment of picking pointlessly through the pieces of furniture and broken 
dishes, he turned to the torso of the grape-headed joker.
Ben winced and tried to look only at the shiny black leather jacket, adorned 
with fancy zippers and silver studs, not at the stumps of the joker's legs or 
the spray of blood all around him. Quickly he patted down the joker and felt a 
bulge in a large zippered pocket. Gagging from the smell of blood, he retched 
once.
You have no right to be sick at this, Vivian said accusingly. You caused it.
Ben called up enough saliva to spit and wiped his hand on his sleeve. Then he 
unzipped the pocket. Holding his breath against the bloody stench, he pulled out 
a small padded manila envelope.
A siren wailed in the distance, coming closer. That was fast for the Jokertown 
Precinct. Still, even Fort Freak had to respond when someone made a mess this 
loud and public.
Ben had to be sure. He pulled open the flap of the envelope and looked inside. 
The envelope was stretched to its limit by plastic bags jammed with blue powder, 
sealed by cellophane tape. It was rapture, a designer drug from the labs of 
Quinn the Eskimo-a Shadow Fist product that was sheer poison.
A drug runner, Vivian said, sneering with hatred and contempt.
He closed the flap, secured the envelope in one of the big patch pockets on his 
leather jacket, and walked briskly out of Hairy's Kitchen into the worsening 
storm.
Ben had forgotten about Sally Swenson until he was walking down the filthy 
hallway to his door. Hoping she had changed her mind and left, he unlocked the 
door and slipped inside the stifling heat of the room. By the slant of light 
from the door, he could see her blond hair still splayed out on the pillow much 
as it had been when he had left. In the heat, though, she had kicked off the 
sheet, which lay rumpled at the foot of the bed. She was breathing slowly and 
deeply.
"Sally." He reached down to wake her and then stopped. Overall, she had seemed 
harmless enough, and he expected to be back well before dawn. The last thing he 
needed now was a hassle with her.
He turned on the lamp and set the door carefully so that it was in the jamb but 
not latched. The door was warped and the irregular shape helped hold it in 
place.
Then he set the knob to lock. Tonight he would have to do without the dead bolt.
You can still get out of this, Vivian said quietly, hopelessly.
"Hope this works," he muttered to himself, ignoring her voice. He took the 
manila envelope out of his jacket and put it on the floor. Then he undressed, 
before he began to sweat in the warmth. When he was naked, he took out his Cub 
Scout knife and the bar of soap he had taken from the Twisted Dragon.
He paused. A cold-blooded creature like a dragon was too vulnerable on a winter 
night like this. He needed a creature that could tolerate the weather, cross the 
water to Ellis Island either by air or water, and still hang on to the package. 
It also had to be a creature that could intimidate the unknown persons he would 
meet; that was a given on a mission like this.
"Now, then," he whispered, mostly just to hear a friendly voice. He got to work. 
When he had finished, he set his soap carving in the middle of the floor and 
slipped into bed next to Sally. She did not stir. He pulled up the sheet, closed 
his eyes, and concentrated on his carving of a polar bear.
In a few seconds, Ben stood up on all fours, raising an ursine body of 
considerable bulk under a heavy layer of white fur. He took the doorknob gently 
in his teeth and walked backward, pulling the door all the way open. Wondering 
if he could actually get out of the room, he picked up the manila envelope 
gently in his mouth. Then he squeezed his furry weight through the doorway with 
effort. He heard the aged wood crack as he pushed free into the hallway.
The hall was almost too narrow for him to turn, but he managed. He dropped the 
drug packet for a moment and pulled the doorknob until he heard the latch snap 
into place. Satisfied that his human body was as safe as it could be, he picked 
up the package and padded downstairs. The streets were even colder and more 
blustery than before. Fine snowflakes fell fast, swept by the gusts of wind. The 
snowfall had become a blizzard that had nearly cleared the sidewalks of lower 
Manhattan. Even so, Ben was completely comfortable in this body.
A polar bear was not the strangest sight most people had ever seen in or near 
Jokertown. As Ben padded along Canal Street at a soft jog through the whipping 
snow, the few pedestrians still hurrying for shelter gave him a wide berth, but 
that was all the reaction he got. Right now, his biggest worry was some street 
punk with a powerful gun who would shoot him on impulse.
Finally, Ben thought to himself as he reached the Lexington Avenue subway. He 
hurried down the steps, out of the harrowing wind. At the bottom, he trotted 
past the token booth and hopped over the turnstile.
A cop standing to one side put a hand on his sidearm, but it was only a 
defensive move. Ben trotted to the platform, scattering a small crowd of people 
who gasped in surprise. He glanced them over, saw no one reaching for a gun, and 
relaxed.
"It's real," one lady whimpered. "Somebody call the cops. Damn, I hate these 
subways nowadays."
"Bet it's an ace," said an older man.
"Looks more like a joker," snickered a teenaged boy. "Quiet; he'll hear you," 
hissed the first lady.
" I knew it was cold out, but this is ridiculous," said another man. "Say, 
what's he got in his mouth?"
"You ask him," said the teenager.
Ben ignored them. When the train stopped and the doors opened, a small knot of 
people froze in place, staring at him. Then they hurried to exit from other 
doors and Ben boarded.
He had to sit down in the center of the aisle just inside the doors; even so, he 
blocked the way. No one else entered his car, and several of those already there 
suddenly got out at this stop after all, through other doors. The rest simply 
stared impassively at him.
Ben was relieved when the train began to move. At each stop on the way to the 
southern tip of Manhattan, he glared out as soon as the doors opened. The people 
on the platform all flinched and either found another car or decided not to ride 
the subway tonight at all. Not very many people were out at this hour, on a 
night like this.
Finally, at Battery Park, he stepped off the train and hurried away. He knew he 
was too long to fit through the exit turnstile, however, and had to leave by 
jumping the entryway again. Then he trotted up the steps and back out into the 
storm.
In the park itself, Ben leaned into the icy, gusting snowfall as he trotted 
toward the water. He figured this was as close to Ellis Island as he could get 
on land, since a passenger ferry stopped here during the day between trips to 
Liberty Island and Caven Point, New Jersey. The bitterly cold wind off the 
Hudson River where it opened into the Upper Bay blew into his face, and he knew 
he had chosen well. The heavy fur and layer of fat insulated him just fine.
Now for the fun part, he thought to himself. He set the manila envelope down in 
the snow and picked it up again, this time completely enclosed in his mouth.
Ben inhaled deeply through his nose and plunged into the freezing waters. He was 
relieved to find that he was still comfortable. In fact, he could swim just 
fine, paddling with all four legs and holding his eyes and nose above the 
surface.
Behind him, the lights of Manhattan glowed with spectral white beauty through 
the blizzard. He didn't lift his head to look forward toward New Jersey and the 
various islands, fearing that he would need all his energy to swim the distance 
to Ellis Island. He only focused on the lights of Ellis Island itself. The waves 
splashed against his face, making it hard to see, but he was able to blow out 
any water that got in his nose.
The polar-bear body was powerful and suited to a long swim in frigid waves. He 
just kept paddling through the darkness. Though he couldn't judge the distance 
very well, he was pleasantly surprised that he wasn't tiring.
Suddenly, however, he felt a tremendous desire to give up, to turn around. It 
surprised him; he fought it, focusing his eyes on the lights ahead. The very 
water seemed thicker, the waves stronger, the wind harder.
Maybe he was getting tired, after all. He tried to guess how far he had to go. 
It might have been several hundred yards, but suddenly it looked like more. He 
forced himself to keep swimming.
It's farther to go back now anyway, he told himself. Actually, he didn't really 
feel tired at all. He just felt a compulsion to turn around and swim away.
Leslie Christian wouldn't think much of that.
Ben churned his legs in the water, harder and harder.
Suddenly a wave. of fear swept over him, making his stomach muscles clench. It 
came without thought or logic; he felt a primal panic rising in him, lifting the 
ursine hackles on the back of his neck and shoulders. He kept swimming, but his 
legs were reluctant, weakening with dread.
Another crest of fear rose in him, and he stopped swimming. His huge body bobbed 
in the tossing waves, held aloft by his fur and layer of fat. Ellis Island, no 
more than a light or two in the distance, filled him with revulsion. As he 
looked at it through the blizzard, the island grew blurry and seemed to shift 
even farther away from him.
Ben blinked a splash of water out of his eyes, trying to focus. Even the falling 
snow ahead of him seemed to turn oddly in his vision. He was disoriented, 
scared, and wanted to go home.
He forced his legs to start kicking again, in a dog paddle. Instead of turning, 
though, he paddled straight ahead. He concentrated on his legs, just to keep 
them moving. The island, the fear and dread of the unknown he would meet there, 
and this strange panic that had struck him were still present, but he ignored 
them. Two legs at a time, pushing against the water, filled his mind. That was 
all: one, two; one, two.
Ben kept swimming.
The trip seemed to take forever. At last, however, he entered a cone of bright 
light and dared to look up. It was a single powerful lamp on one of the 
buildings; others near it were burned out. Ellis Island was a rectangle, with a 
ferry slip in one long side that created a horseshoe shape. The 'island was 
smaller than he had expected, maybe less than two city blocks.
Now that he knew he was going to make it, he slowed down, looking for signs of 
life. Only certain windows illuminated from inside suggested anyone was here, 
but in this weather that was no surprise. He paddled into the ferry slip, still 
looking around, and finally reached up to the dock with his front legs and 
pulled himself out of the water.
On an impulse, he shook himself, spraying icy water in all directions.
As he got his bearings, he became aware of an unpleasant smell. It reminded him 
of garbage barges, but the smell was more varied, and worse. Fortunately, the 
hard wind was blowing it away from the island.
He squinted his bear's eyes into the rush of snow against his face. The main 
building was maybe six stories' worth of brick and limestone trim, considerably 
longer than a football field from left to right as he faced it. At each corner, 
copper-domed observation towers stood another forty feet higher than the roof 
against the storm. The building had an old look, as though it was from the turn 
of the century, but Ben was no student of architecture.
An eerie feeling of being watched from behind ticked the back of his neck. He 
turned to look as his hackles rose, but nothing was behind him except the water. 
The sensation persisted and he looked up, to see only the heavy snowfall 
swirling down at him.
A movement in the shadows to his left caught his eye. He turned, tensing. 
Someone took a wary step forward. "What do you want?" a woman's voice demanded. 
Ben hadn't expected anyone to be outside here. Also, he couldn't talk as a bear. 
He only watched as the speaker came forward another step. She walked upright, at 
least six feet tall. Her face was that of a ferret: black nose, wedge-shaped 
head with round ears, and a black mask around her eyes over buff fur. Her fur 
shifted toward silver on her abdomen. Most notably, two-inch fangs curved 
downward from her mouth.
"Careful, Mustelina," said a young man's voice. " I never saw him before."
Ben looked at him. He was a strange bushy bundle of average height for a man, 
steely gray in color.
"Shut up, Brillo," said Mustelina. "A joker's a joker. What's your name?"
Ben shook his head and tried to shrug, still watching them suspiciously. At 
least he understood what Mustelina was doing out here; she was made for this 
weather, nearly as much as he was. She probably handled the blazing, humid New 
York summers better than he would in this form. Brillo, too, was apparently warm 
enough out here. "What if he's not a joker?" Brillo yelled harshly against the 
wind. "What if he's a real polar bear?"
"Oh, get off it, will you?" She took another step toward Ben. The wind rippled 
her white fur. "Can't you talk at all?"
Ben carefully swayed his head from side to side in a definitive gesture that 
Brillo could not deny. Then he inclined his head toward the main doors of the 
big building. His mouth was still clamped shut.
"Bloat better meet him," said Mustelina firmly. "Come on." She walked along the 
ferry slip toward the main doors with a springy, prancing step, her head bent 
against the wind.
Ben padded after her, keeping an eye on Brillo. Brillo stayed away from him, 
though, as they both approached the entrance.
As Ben drew closer to the building, he looked up at the huge triple-arched doors 
that reached up into the second story. Over them, snow lay on some kind of 
concrete birds flanking an insignia in relief. Thousands of people could be in a 
building this size.
"Bloat runs things here," said Mustelina as she pulled open the heavy door.
An incredible stench hit Ben's sensitive ursine nose. He forced himself to walk 
inside, his stomach rebelling. Mustelina and Brillo followed him.
Ben blinked in the light of the huge room, which had apparently been a lobby at 
one time. Then he stopped in surprise as the door slammed shut behind him. He 
was staring face-to-face with the most repulsive joker he had ever seen.
Bloat was monstrous in size, a gross mountain of flesh maybe fifty feet wide and 
eight feet high. His head and neck looked normal enough at the top and his 
shoulders and arms were ordinary, but they stuck out uselessly from the 
incredible mass of his body. Five inlet pipes of some kind jabbed into his body. 
The stench originated with a resinous black sludge that had accumulated around 
him on the floor.
Several jokers were hanging around, of all shapes. Some were nearly lost in the 
shadows at the edges of the big room. At this hour, most of them were probably 
asleep. Those who were here turned to look with suspicion and hostility at Ben.
"Bloat," said Mustelina, with a fervent awe in her voice. "This joker just swam 
all the way out here to join us and climbed out of the water. He can't even 
talk."
"Really?" Bloat's voice was a thin squeak. "Another guest? Welcome, my friend." 
Bloat peered down at him from his greater height. His expression revealed a 
leering suspicion his voice had not conveyed.
Ben nodded his bear's head in greeting, feeling a tingle of alarm. He really 
didn't know much about this place at all.
Mustelina had said Bloat ran the show here, but Ben wished Leslie Christian had 
told him exactly who should receive the drug packet. And if he had to defend 
himself, he would have to drop the packet in order to bite anybody. "He's no 
joker!" Bloat shrieked. "He's an ace of some kind!" Suddenly he glowered sternly 
at Ben. "You're no glamour boy, though, are you?"
Ben froze, his pulse racing, wondering how Bloat knew all this. Maybe the 
rapture was for him, after all. "That's right," Bloat shouted gleefully. "That 
packet's for me! Hand it over!"
Ben tensed, looking up at Bloat's face, suddenly realizing that the huge joker 
was reading his thoughts. The jokers around them turned expectant, their hostile 
eyes fixed on Ben. Ben shuffled around to keep them all in his vision. From what 
he could see, he could defend himself, but a fight wouldn't help him complete 
his mission. "Watch him," Bloat warned in his high voice. "Don't let him get 
away."
"May I?" a commanding male voice asked. A youngster strode out of the shadows 
with a springy step. He was slender and vibrant, bristling with energy-maybe 
seventeen years old, dressed in jeans and an oversized purple turtleneck 
sweater. A short, dark-haired teenage girl stood behind him.
Ben looked from him to Bloat and back.
"Oh, all right, David," Bloat said with exaggerated indulgence. "Make sure. But 
I've already read his mind, so I know. So there."
David pranced right up to Ben. He grinned with large, even teeth in a handsome 
face that needed a shave. His blond hair was shaggy and one shock of it fell 
into his face over bloodshot, watery eyes. He held out one hand. Ben hesitated, 
studying David's confident, self-mocking smile. Without the power of speech, 
surrounded by unknown jokers, he saw little choice of action. He opened his 
mouth and let the envelope slide forward a little, smelling beer on David's 
breath as he did so.
He heard shuffling feet and nervous, high-pitched laughter high above him. As 
David, still grinning, edged forward carefully and took the package, Ben looked 
up and saw an observation gallery at the third-floor level over the main floor. 
The people up there were only shadows. "Ugh," said David, laughing too hard. 
"Polar-bear saliva."
At first no one laughed. Then Bloat's high giggle pierced the air and the jokers 
laughed along with him. David was no joker, though. Neither was the girl behind 
him.
"So you don't know who he is," Bloat gloated at Ben. "Well... I'm not going to 
tell you!" He laughed again at his own cleverness.
Ben glanced at the door. His chances of running were negligible. His paws 
couldn't even work the doorknob. David drew out a packet of the blue powder. He 
tore a hole in the plastic with the tip of his little finger and then stared at 
the tiny blue stain on his skin with a sudden fascination.
"Well, David?" Bloat squeaked impatiently.
"That's the stuff, all right," David said softly. "Rapture." He grinned 
crookedly at his finger and then looked up at Bloat with glowing eyes. "Let's 
just say I wanted to make sure we get credit for the rent we pay."
"David," Bloat whined. "I don't cheat my friends." He looked around and spotted 
a tall, slender woman cowering in the shadows. "Giggle, you cutie. This is the 
one I promised you. Give her some, David."
Giggle crept forward carefully. She wore loose, bulky winter clothes and soft 
shoes, but as she moved, she laughed quietly. Yet the expression on her face was 
one of torture and anguish.
"Everything tickles her," Mustelina said softly to Ben. "Even the feel of 
clothes on her body and the floor when she walks. Every sensation makes her 
laugh, but she hates it."
"It's called rapture," said David, holding out the packet. "It activates on 
contact with the skin ... and it's strongest locally."
Giggle ventured forward slowly and stuck an index finger into the hole in the 
plastic. She drew it out and looked at it. First she smiled shyly. Then she 
snatched the packet out of his hands, giggling helplessly at her touch on the 
plastic. She poured the powder into her palm and smeared it on her face and 
neck. Gasps and laughter rose up on all sides.
"It's Bloat's," said David warily. "And very expensive." Bloat laughed in 
shrieking delight, however, entertained by the spectacle as Giggle dropped the 
packet on the floor and stripped off her bulky sweater and the blue T-shirt 
under it. She knelt and began desperately rubbing the rapture all over her bare 
arms, shoulders, breasts, and stomach.
"You won't stop feeling tickled," said David. He leered at her obvious pleasure, 
idly rubbing the blue stain on his finger with his thumb. "But you'll love it 
now"
As everyone watched Giggle, Ben glanced around carefully. He couldn't get out 
without help.
Giggle had stripped naked and was squatting on the floor, smearing rapture on 
her thighs. She giggled at the sensation, but no longer looked tortured. Now her 
face had a dreamy glow.
Ben watched her in a kind of detached horror. Rapture was a nasty drug and she 
was drenched in it. Still, he was in too tight a spot to worry about some 
stranger.
Bloat was laughing louder than ever and his joker followers imitated him. David 
watched Giggle with rapturous enjoyment. The young woman who had entered behind 
him was now standing alongside him, looking at Giggle with wistful amusement in 
her pretty blue eyes. "David," she said softly, twisting a finger around one of 
her black curls of hair. "Who's the polar bear?"
"You got me, Sarah," said David, his eyes still glowing at Giggle.
"I want to jump him," said Sarah. "I wonder what rapture feels like to a bear."
Ben's ursine ears caught her words even through the riot of other voices. No one 
else had heard her.
Ben backed away a step, wondering what she meant. If she just wanted a ride, Ben 
could do that. If she meant sex, she was really crazy. Ben looked around 
quickly, sure that he was physically stronger than anyone he could see. That 
told him nothing about what ace abilities might be present here.
Giggle was dancing, naked and smeared with blue, inside a circle of jokers. They 
were clapping in rhythmic unison, still laughing and shouting encouragement as 
the rest of the packet of rapture was passed around. Bloat hooted and laughed 
and wiggled his stubby appendages helplessly.
Suddenly Giggle spotted Ben. Swaying from side to side and giggling, she pranced 
toward him, her smile white inside her blue face. The circle around her parted, 
still clapping, and she came to Ben, still dancing and twirling.
The circle re-formed to surround both of them. Someone started a chant to go 
with the rhythmic clapping: "Bear! Bear! Bear!" Giggle laughed and grabbed Beds 
ears, dancing from side to side.
David and Sarah were now in the front of the circle, still within Ben's hearing. 
The blond youth studied Ben with his watery, bloodshot eyes. Then he put his arm 
around Sarah and shrugged. "Go ahead, for all I care."
Ben tensed, watching Sarah, ready to leap forward to attack or to dodge away, as 
necessary.
She didn't move. Suddenly a force struck Ben's mind, sending him reeling-shoving 
him out of the polar bear. In his vision, the swaying blue shape of Giggle 
rippled and blurred. The clapping and chant of "Bear!" overwhelmed him.
Disoriented, he pushed back, growling almost without meaning to. He was hot now 
beneath his fur and fat inside this place and he did not understand what the 
force was. The room suddenly seemed to tilt as the mysterious force pushed him 
away from the sight, hearing, and tactile feeling of the bear.
Ben was lost in a blur of closing darkness, just barely able to make out Sarah 
seeming to grow larger in his mind. Panicked, unable to hang on to the bear, he 
focused his concentration on his human body back in Chinatown. He pictured his 
room, his bed, his nude body in the bed next to Sally. He concentrated harder 
and finally, belatedly, spun dizzily back into familiar darkness.
Vivian felt Ben's confusion. She had been sleeping in the dark room, grateful 
for the rare solitude, but her mind came awake suddenly. Ben's mind, disoriented 
and not present, was no longer controlling their body. The feeling was 
intuitive, but reliable.
Vivian's mind came instantly awake. She eagerly hurried to blink their eyelids, 
move their arms and legs, to make them hers, not theirs-or his. She came awake, 
took control of their body, and felt the change once again.
It didn't hurt at first, exactly, but her adrenaline flowed into her bloodstream 
and the shifting of blood from the change caused throbbing in her head, her 
chest, and her pelvis. Her bones ached as their shape and size altered, her 
pelvis growing and her shoulders and rib cage narrowing. Her head and face hurt 
sharply as their shape changed. She felt some of the sensation of an elevator 
dropping suddenly or a roller coaster suddenly starting a steep downgrade.
The shifting of soft tissue was less intense, but it rippled and moved on her 
chest, between her legs, on her face, through all of her muscles. Then the 
physical changes stopped and left her breathing hard on the bed in Ben's room. 
She opened her eyes. The layer of ice on the window softened the glow of light 
from outside.
Carefully, as she always did after changing from rider to driver in their body, 
she slid one hand to her chest. Her breasts were small but certainly female. At 
the same time, her other hand moved between her legs, where she found what she 
expected. She was Vivian, as Ben still called her from childhood-or Tienyu, as 
she called herself now.
She cleared her throat softly. It was her voice.
She could feel Ben's presence now, too. He had probably been killed in his 
animal, she guessed, and his mind was reeling from the surprise. That's what 
would have caused him to lose control of their body momentarily.
For an indefinite period, however, he would now be riding in their body while 
she did what she wanted. Like she had done as a rider, he could communicate 
conscious, direct thoughts to her, but they could not read each other's minds 
unless the message was deliberate and willful on the part of the sender.
Right now Ben apparently had nothing to say.
Next to her, Sally stirred languorously and turned on her side toward Vivian. 
Vivian remained motionless, not wanting to wake her. Sally's hand eased across 
her waist, however, in a casual caress and slid down between her legs.
Vivian tensed, then gently moved to get out of bed, away from Sally's hand. She 
was hoping Sally was still mostly asleep. However, as Vivian sat up and put her 
feet on the floor. Sally raised up one elbow.
"Who are you?" she said sleepily. "Where's Ben?" Vivian got up and moved away 
from the bed. "I'm Ben's sister. Ben's gone."
"Gone? Jeez, why didn't hey, what were you doing in bed with me?"
For a moment Vivian stood uncertainly in the steamy room, naked except for the 
coin on her neck chain. She toyed nervously with it. Then she switched on the 
lamp.
Sally flinched, squinting in the sudden light, and pushed herself up into a 
sitting position.
"Get out," said Vivian.
"What? Come on, Ben said he didn't care if I spent the night. What time is it, 
anyway?"
"I said get out." Vivian glanced around for Sally's clothes and snatched up her 
big flesh-toned bra, stiff with its underwire. "Here." She threw it at Sally.
Sally pulled it away from her face, fumbling for something to say and not 
thinking of anything.
Then, as Sally began putting it on, Vivian picked up Ben's pouched briefs and 
looked at them, making a mental note to buy something that would fit better 
tomorrow. At least he had kept to their basic bargain; the jeans were baggy on 
him, but would fit snugly around her pelvis. The thermal undershirt, turtleneck, 
and heavy winter socks, of course, were gender neutral, and she had never 
bothered to own a bra. Ben's boots were always a little loose on her, but not 
much; their feet only altered a little during the change and the socks made up 
some of the difference.
Sally's face was bright red and taut with anger, but she had nothing to say. 
Once her bra was on, she kicked away the sheet and stood up, turning her back to 
Vivian as she finished getting dressed.
Tomorrow morning Vivian would find the building manager, pretending to know 
nothing of Ben's whereabouts. She would play the role of Ben's worried sister 
and take over the rent. From what she remembered when Ben first took the room, 
the manager wouldn't care if she lived there as long as the rent came on time.
Bundled up in her scarf and winter coat, Sally glanced back over her shoulder. 
"Thank you for being so considerate," she snapped. "If I don't get killed out 
there at this hour, I'll freeze to death." She yanked open the door and stomped 
out, her blond hair swirling.
Vivian suppressed a twinge of guilt. If Sally was old enough to get picked up in 
the Twisted Dragon, she was old enough to get home at night. As Vivian closed 
the door and locked it, she grudgingly decided she couldn't blame her brother 
too much. Sally did look very nice and, of course, she had been willing.
"Say good-bye, Ben," she taunted in a whisper. Good-bye, Ben muttered sourly in 
her mind.


Nobody Knows the Trouble I've Seen
by Walton Simons
The courtroom was jammed with people. There seemed to be almost as many 
reporters as had been at Bush's inauguration two weeks before. The rest were 
friends, or enemies, of Hiram's, or just the idly curious. There were no jokers 
in the room, Pretorius being a notable exception. Kenneth had managed to get 
Jerry a seat.
"All rise."
The judge walked in and the noisy courtroom grew silent. The old magistrate made 
her way to the bench and sat down slowly.
The judge cleared her throat. "In the case of the People of the State of New 
York v Hiram Worchester, I understand that the prosecution has seen fit to 
reduce the charge to involuntary manslaughter. Is that correct?"
The prosecutor rose. "Yes, your honor."
"And how does the defense plead?" the judge asked. Pretorius arose. "Guilty, 
your honor."
"A plea bargain, as anticipated," Kenneth said, above the muttering of the 
courtroom crowd.
"Mr. Worchester," the judge said, "please rise." Hiram complied, standing as 
straight as his size would allow.
"Given your stature in the community and the unusual circumstances involved in 
this case, I see no real benefit to yourself or society in imprisoning you. 
Therefore, I sentence you to five years probation. Any use of your wild-card 
ability during that time will constitute a violation of your probation. An 
individual with your unique gift should be ashamed that it was used to take 
another life. Society has grown tired of such foolishness. Hopefully, in the 
future you will be a positive example for us all. If not, you will find the 
court unsympathetic."
Hiram nodded weakly and wiped his brow. Pretorius stood and put his arm around 
him.
The heavy wooden doors slammed open at the back of the room. A four-armed joker 
man pushed his way inside. "Murderer. You're nothing but a rich murderer."
Two officers grabbed the joker, pushed him to the floor, and cuffed him.
"We're going to get you, Worchester," the joker screamed as they dragged him 
from the room. "We're going to see you dead, just like Chrysalis."
"Jesus." Jerry nudged Kenneth. "Chrysalis is dead and it was an accident. Don't 
they know that? Hiram was crazy. He's suffered enough."
"Possibly," Kenneth said. "Though the people who cared about Chrysalis might 
disagree with you. As they say, it depends on whose ox is getting gored."
Pretorius and Hiram began pushing their way through the crowd toward the 
doorway. Reporters clustered around them like sperm on an unfertilized egg.
"I wouldn't want to be in Jokertown tonight," Kenneth said.
"No kidding," Jerry said.
David Butler was driving a beat-up old Chevy. That was weird enough. Jerry 
hadn't intended to end up in Jokertown and certainly wasn't happy about it. 
Neither was his cabbie. He'd decided this was a good time to check up on David 
again. Jerry had tailed him a couple of times since losing him at the peculiar 
club, and had wound up bored to death. Once he'd even ended up at the opera.
They passed a building with a big red heart painted on the wall. Valentine's Day 
was less than three weeks away and the only person he wanted to give flowers or 
candy to was Beth. That would just piss Kenneth off. Not that anything had been 
said along those lines, but he'd detected a touch of resentment from his brother 
every now and then. That was the least of his worries now. He was tailing a 
possible murderer through Jokertown in an off-the-meter cab. Besides, it was 
beginning to snow.
He'd almost decided to give up and tell the driver to take him home when a car 
at the far end of the street exploded into fire. David's car skidded to a stop, 
straddling the curb. Jerry's driver slammed on his brakes and crashed into a 
light post. Steam began hissing from under the car's hood. Debris from the 
flaming car clattered onto the cab. A large group of jokers poured out of a side 
street. Several of them noticed the cars and pointed.
"Holy shit," Jerry said. "Get us the hell out of here." The cabbie turned the 
key. There was a brief clicking sound, then nothing. "She's shot. We'll have to 
run for it." Jerry clambered out of the car. David had abandoned the Chevy and 
was ducking down a side street. The group of jokers was moving toward them. 
Jerry couldn't understand what they were saying, but from the tone it wasn't 
friendly. He sprinted after David. A knot of jokers moved to cut him off, but 
Jerry turned the corner a good ten yards ahead.
He began to change. Jerry thickened his brow ridge and lumped up his skull a 
bit. He put ugly knots on the backs of his knuckles. It wasn't much, but should 
keep him from being taken for a nat.
David, still running, turned and saw Jerry and the pursuing jokers. David 
stepped it up and began to put some distance between them. Jerry gritted his 
teeth and ran harder. The cold air stung his throat and chest, and he had to be 
careful to keep his Italian leather shoes from slipping on the ice-slicked 
pavement. The snow began to thicken and swirl in the wind.
There were screams up ahead. David rounded a corner and disappeared from view. 
Jerry kicked hard after him with the last of his strength. He slipped down as he 
turned the corner and found himself at the edge of a crowd. There were at least 
two or three hundred jokers jamming the street. Several cars were on fire, 
casting a flickering glow against the surrounding buildings. A large, 
overstuffed dummy was being thrown around and torn at. Worchester in effigy, no 
doubt.
Jerry couldn't see David, but there was an open alley mouth nearby. Jerry walked 
over and slipped into the alley. It was empty. At least as far as he could tell. 
A few feet down there was a door hanging halfway off its hinges. Jerry pushed it 
open and stepped inside. He waited a few moments for his eyes_ to adjust, but 
still couldn't make out much. He stepped out of the dimly lit doorway and 
strained to hear any movement inside the room, but there was only a faint 
dripping noise. After a few long moments, Jerry turned back to the door and was 
about to push it open when a group of nats walked past. There were five of them, 
two boys and three girls. They were young, barely twenty, if that. One of the 
women had spiky dark hair, the other was shaved bald. They were flanking the 
blond boy who was obviously their leader. David.
The crowd of jokers roared. Jerry peered over the kids and saw the mob part. A 
nine-foot-tall joker with green skin moved toward the .center of the mob. It was 
Troll, and perched on his shoulders was Tachyon. There were a few angry shouts, 
but most of the jokers got quiet. Jerry heard a growling noise behind him. He 
turned and saw a pair of green eyes staring at him. They were too far apart to 
belong to a house cat. Jerry lengthened and pointed his own teeth. If there was 
a fight, he wanted to have some kind of weapon. One of his fangs cut painfully 
into his lower lip.
"Listen, my friends," Tachyon shouted. Jerry could barely make out the words, 
but calling the jokers his friends was being a little presumptuous after what 
had happened with Hartmann in Atlanta. "I understand your anger, but this is not 
the answer. The fires you're starting here will only burn down your own homes 
and kill your own people. Hiram Worchester is not your enemy. Ignorance and 
blind prejudice are the true foes every joker must face. And the only way to 
defeat them is through decency and dignity."
"Let's have some fun," David whispered.
"Go back to your homes now," Tachyon continued. "Set an example for everyone, 
whether they're jokers, nats, or aces." Tachyon raised his arms in a pleading 
manner. David's two girls grasped him tightly by the shoulders and his body 
shuddered.
Troll laughed. He picked Tachyon up by the back of his lab jacket and let him 
dangle, feet kicking. The crowd began to yell.
"Troll," Tachyon screamed. "What are you doing?" Troll tossed Tachyon 
cartwheeling into the mass of jokers. Tachyon landed amid a tangle of bodies. 
Jerry could see him struggling to get back up.
"Let's build a fire the Fatman can see all the way up at Aces High," Troll 
shouted. The crowd howled its approval and fists punched the air.
Jerry heard another growl behind him, closer this time. He took a deep breath 
and bolted from the door, slamming into David and the two girls, knocking all 
three of them out into the street. Troll saw the commotion at the edge of the 
crowd and looked directly at them, his face showing panic. The giant joker 
swayed for a moment, then collapsed.
The girl with the spiked hair helped David up. "Let's get the fuck out of here."
Jerry rolled over and saw the bald girl standing over him. She raised her leg to 
kick him in the face. Jerry twisted out of the way and took the blow on his 
shoulder, then bit through her blue jeans into her calf. The girl screamed and 
tore away from him, then turned and limped after her retreating friends. Jerry 
spat the taste of blood from his mouth and struggled to his feet. Jokers were 
running everywhere. The fires were spreading. Troll wobbled into a standing 
position and moved toward Tachyon, who was still shielding himself with 
mind-controlled jokers. Troll cut his way through to the Takisian and gently 
lifted Tachyon up onto his shoulders. Tachyon gave him a questioning look, then 
motioned him to get moving. Troll shouldered his way back through the dispersing 
crowd. The clinic was only a few blocks away. Jerry figured it was the safest 
place to be and began plowing through the jokers after Troll.
Jerry heard sirens from several different directions, all getting closer. He 
bounced his way to the edge of the mob and onto the sidewalk just as a police 
car swung into view. A bullet slammed into the brick wall behind him, spraying 
him with tiny rock fragments. Jerry didn't know who'd fired the shot and didn't 
want to find out. He dodged down a side street and headed for the clinic.
Blaise made Jerry nervous, scared him even. The red-haired boy stayed at the 
window for half an hour, watching the rioting with a smile on his face. Sirens, 
both police and ambulance, had been passing by all night. Once, Blaise turned to 
Jerry and said, "Fire and blood. So much of it. So beautiful." Other than that 
particular twisted observation, he'd seemed to regard Jerry as invisible. Jerry 
sat there in silence, folding and unfolding his check.
It was 2:00 A. M. before Tachyon got back to his office. The right side of his 
face was bruised and puffy and his good arm was in a sling. "You should have 
waited, Jeremiah," he said as he collapsed into his chair. "On a night like 
this, money is less of a concern."
"It's not about money." Jerry handed the check over. "But I might as well give 
it to you anyway. I was doing something else down here. How is Troll, by the 
way?"
"Confused and embarrassed. He doesn't remember throwing me. I went into his mind 
and there's simply a blank spot during that period. Like he was blacked out."
Tachyon touched the purple skin above his eye and winced. `The timing for such 
an incident couldn't have been worse.
"Could we talk alone for a few minutes?" Jerry looked over at Blaise.
Blaise glanced hatefully at Jerry, then looked at Tachyon, who was pointing to 
the door. The younger Takisian stood his ground for a moment, then stalked out 
of the room.
Tachyon sighed. "Now, what is it you want to discuss?"
"What happened to Troll was no accident. He wasn't in his own body when it threw 
you. Somebody else was."
"You've heard the reports about people having their bodies switched with someone 
else? There was a bank robbery-"
"Yes," Tachyon interrupted. "We have a mother and daughter in our psychiatric 
ward who claim their minds were somehow switched by a third party. Do you 
believe that's what happened to Troll?"
"I know it," Jerry said. "And I think I know who's behind it, too."
"Who?" Tachyon snapped out of his exhausted state. "David Butler. He works at my 
brother's law firm, Latham, Strauss." Jerry leaned forward in his chair. "I've 
been tailing him off and on, and he was at the riot tonight with some of his 
friends."
Tachyon sighed and nodded. "A year ago I might have been tempted to intervene 
myself, but I've seen the folly of that. I think our best course is to turn Mr. 
Butler in to the authorities. You're not making any of this up?"
"Of course not," Jerry said. "I don't go around accusing people of being 
criminals unless I'm sure of it. My brothers a lawyer."
Tachyon pushed the intercom button on his phone. "Could you get me Lieutenant 
Maseryk?"
Jerry wasn't sure this was such a good idea, but Tachyon seemed sold on it. What 
kind of prison could hold David anyway?
Jerry was sitting on the couch outside his brother's office. Presumably, he was 
there to have lunch with Kenneth. But he was really there to see the look on 
David's face when the police came for him. He'd made Tachyon find out for him 
where and when the arrest would be made. It was a small price to pay for the 
information he'd provided. Seeing the young Adonis arrested would provide him 
with some much-needed satisfaction.
He was thumbing through a copy of Aces. There was a paragraph on him in the 
"Where Are They Now?" section. They'd also printed a picture of Jerry as the 
giant ape with the word "retired" underneath. Little did they know.
The doors opened and two detectives walked in. At least Jerry assumed that was 
who they were.
"Could you ask David Butler to come out and see us?" the older of the two asked 
while flashing a badge. "It's an official matter."
The secretary made a quick call and David appeared moments later. He stopped 
short and frowned when he saw the policemen, then recovered.
"David Butler?"
"Yes, how can I help you?"
"We'd like to ask you some questions." The policemen walked up to him. "If 
that's all right with you?"
"Certainly," David said stiffly. He turned to the secretary. "Tell Mr. Latham I 
may be out all afternoon."
"Of course," she said.
"Shall we go?" David asked.
The detectives stood on either side of David and walked him from the room.
Jerry sighed. He'd hoped that David would react a little more, not that he'd 
expected him to break down and confess. But a little whimpering would have been 
nice.
Hopefully, that would come later. Jerry was only sorry he wouldn't be there to 
see it.
He was asleep when the phone rang. Jerry picked it up and yawned into the 
receiver. "Sorry, hello."
"Jeremiah." It was Tachyon. His voice was somber."I 'm afraid I have some bad 
news."
Jerry sat up. "Not too bad, I hope. I'm not sure I'd be up for that."
"David has escaped."
"What?" Jerry yelled without meaning to. "How did it happen?"
"The police were interrogating him and getting nowhere, so they decided to call 
in a skimmer, someone who can pick up surface thoughts." Tachyon paused. "David 
panicked and switched bodies with one of the officers. He made the man knock out 
his partner, then returned to his own body. The officer blacked out from the 
shock. Then, apparently, David just walked out. No one has seen him since."
"Great, Doc." Jerry didn't want to sound angry, but he was. "Thanks for 
calling."
"I'm sorry, Jeremiah. I did what I thought was best."
"I know. Good-bye. " Jerry hung up and flipped through his Rolodex for Jay 
Ackroyd's number. Maybe Jay could get a lead. If not, it was out of Jerry's 
hands.
Jerry sat on the couch in his projection room, massaging his crotch. He'd 
watched the first half of Jokertown, but had stopped when Nicholson got his nose 
slit. It was just too damn depressing. He'd popped in a porn video, but it 
wasn't doing much for his morale, either. He had another porn movie, jokers and 
Blondes, but that might be a little weird for his taste.
He turned off the TV and sighed. He'd had a couple of shots of whiskey and his 
brain felt as soft as his penis was hard. He thought of Kenneth and Beth 
upstairs, probably fucking like weasels. "Enjoy yourselves. Don't think of poor, 
old Jerry. Have an orgasm for me."
He'd considered sneaking up to their bedroom door and listening on several 
occasions, but had never actually done it. Maybe tonight would be the night. He 
got his feet under him, wandered into the living room and up the stairs. He 
stopped at the top and steadied himself on the banister. Beth was probably a 
great fuck. It would be consistent with her character. She was great at 
everything else. He took a step toward their bedroom door.
No, he thought, you're not that far gone yet. It's none of your damn business. 
Shame on you.
Jerry turned and headed for the upstairs bathroom. He quickly stripped and 
turned on the shower. The water was cold, like the air outside, but it didn't 
seem to help.


Nowadays Clancy Can't Even Sing
by Victor Milan
The tall man opened his mouth and said, "Beware. There is danger here."
Mark Meadows swayed like a radio mast in a high wind, sat down on the hood of a 
black stretch limo parked in front of the store to wait the dizziness out. It 
had been a woman's voice, tinted with Asian accent like ginger flakes.
The slim, blond twelve-year-old girl with him watched him closely, concerned but 
not afraid. She'd seen these spells before.
He looked up and down the block. Fitz-James O'Brien Street was about the same as 
always. This fringe of the Village had grown rougher the last few years. But so 
had the world. And people left him pretty much alone.
He had friends.
You guys are getting pretty restless, he thought. He felt furtive stirrings in 
the back of his brain, but no more words came unbidden.
Deciding her father was all right, the girl began to swing pendulumlike on her 
father's arm, chanting, "We're home, Daddy, we're home." Her voice was that of a 
four-year-old. The rest of her was twelve.
He gazed down at her. A rush of love suffused him like a hit of windowpane. He 
pulled her close, hugged her, and stood.
"Yeah, Sprout. Home." He opened the door beneath the smiling hand-painted sun 
and the legend COSMIC PUMPKIN-FOOD FOR BODY, MIND & SPIRIT.
Inside was cool and almost dark. It used to be sunny in here on spring days like 
this, but that was when there was still plate glass in the windows instead of 
plywood sheets. The sound system was on, tuned by one of his clerks to one of 
those New Age easy-listening stations popular with people who spend their 
evenings watching Koyaanisqatsi on remote-programmable VCRs. A little thin for 
even Mark's blood, but at the moment better than the usual fare: Bonnie Raitt, 
something recent with a soft ska beat.
Good business for midafternoon, he thought, with the reflex twinge of guilt he 
got any time he had such commercial thoughts. A small guy with a fleshy, pointy 
nose and a silklike jacket with a strip-club logo on the back was haunting the 
glass-top counter that displayed the dope paraphernalia the Pumpkin was carrying 
until the inevitable Crusading DA finally got around to cracking down. He seemed 
to be thinking of hitting on one of Mark's stumpy, brush-cut clerks, who was 
sweeping the floor behind the deli counter with muttering bad grace and shooting 
him hate looks. She gave Mark one, too, when she noticed him. He was a man; this 
was all his fault.
A handful of even less descript types sat at tables hunched over racing forms 
and steaming cups of Red Zinger tea. A tall dark-haired woman stood at the comic 
rack with her back to him, looking at a reprint of an early Freak Brothers 
classic. The DA was after those, too. Mark put a hand back around to where his 
long blond hair, more ash now than straw, was gathered into a blue elastic tie. 
It was too tight, and pulled at random patches of his scalp like doll hands. 
Nineteen years this spring he'd been wearing his hair long, and he still hadn't 
gotten the hang of tying back a ponytail.
Absently he noticed that the woman was well dressed to be grazing the 
undergrounds. Usually the customers in pricey threads scrupulously confined 
their attentions to his sprouts-and-tofu cuisine.
His daughter chirped, "Auntie Brenda," and went running back to give the clerk a 
hug. The tall man smiled ruefully. He could never tell his clerks apart. They 
both thought he was a weed, anyway.
Then the well-dressed woman turned and looked at him with violet eyes and said, 
quietly, "Mark."
It felt as if one of the youthful football jocks who had been the curse of his 
adolescence had just chop-blocked his pelvis out from under his spine.
"Sunflower," he managed to say through a throat gone as pliable as an airshaft.
He heard the squeak-scruff of his daughter's sneakers on stained linoleum behind 
him. A moment of silence hung in the air, stretching gradually, agonizingly, 
like a taffy strand. Then Sprout boiled past and threw herself at the woman, 
hugging her with all the strength of her thin arms.
"Mommy."
The rat-faced man slid out of the booth and walked up to Mark. He had 
wet-looking black eyes and a mustache that looked as if it had been carelessly 
dabbed on in mascara. Mark blinked at him, very carefully, as if his eyes were 
fragile and might break.
The smaller man thrust a packet of papers into his hand. "See you in court, 
buppie," he said, and sidled out the door.
Mark stared down at the papers. Freewheeling, his mind registered 
official-looking seals and the phrase determine custody of their daughter, 
Sprout.
And the other customers came boiling up from their checkered cheesecloth tables 
as if tied to the same string, stuck big black cameras in Mark's face, and 
blasted him back into the door with their strobes.
His vision full of big swarming balloons of light, Mark staggered into the 
little bathroom and threw up in the toilet beneath the Jimi Hendrix poster. 
Fortunately the poster was laminated.
Kimberly Anne slid into the limousine by feel, watching the Pumpkin's front door 
with bruised-looking eyes. Around the fringes of the plywood she could see the 
photographers' flashguns spluttering like an arc welder.
"Poor mark," she whispered. She turned with mascara beginning to melt down one 
cheek.
"Is it really necessary to put him through all this?" The backseat's other 
occupant regarded her with eyes as pale and dispassionate as a shark's. "It is," 
he said, "if you want your daughter back."
She stared at fingers knotted in her lap. "More than anything," she said, just 
audibly.
"Then you must be ready to pay the price, Mrs. Gooding."
"My advice to you, Or. Meadows," Dr. Pretorius said, leaning back and cracking 
the knuckles of his big, callused hands, "is to go underground."
Mark stared at the lawyer's hands. They didn't seem to fit with the rest of him, 
which was a pretty unorthodox picture to start with. You didn't expect hands 
like that on a lawyer, even a long-haired one, especially not resting above a 
gold watch-chain catenary on the vest of a thousanddollar charcoal-gray suit. 
They jarred. Just like fording the cream wallpaper and walnut-wainscoted 
elegance of Pretorius's office in a second-floor walk-up in what the tabloids 
liked to call the festering depths of Jokertown. Or like the strange tang like 
pus-filled bandages that seemed to stick in the back of Mark's nose.
Mark couldn't evade the issue any longer. "I beg your pardon?" he said, blinking 
furiously. Behind his chair Sprout hummed to herself as she studied the array of 
insects mounted under glass on the walls.
"You heard me. If you want to hold on to your little girl, the best advice I can 
give you as a lawyer is to go underground."
"I don't understand."
""Oh, my God,"' Pretorius quoted, ""you're from the sixties.' Doesn't ring any 
bells? You didn't see that movie they made out of W E Kinsella's autobiography? 
No, of course not; chewing up a blotter and sitting through a revival of 2001 
three times is more your speed in movies."
He sighed. "Are you telling me you don't know what 'going underground' means? 
You know-Huey Newton, Patty Hearst, all those fabulous names of yesteryear."
Mark glanced nervously back at his daughter, who had her nose pressed to the 
glass over some kind of bug that looked like a ten-inch twig. Mark had never 
realized before just how nervous insects made him.
"I know what it means, man. I just don't know-" He raised his own hands, which 
in the somewhat stark light began to look to him like specimens escaped from 
Pretorius's cases, to try to draw communication out of himself, out of the air, 
whatever. Outside of one area of life he had never been much good at getting 
ideas across.
Pretorius nodded briskly. "You don't know if I'm serious, right? I am. Dead 
serious."
He let his hand drop forward onto his desk, onto the copy of the Post Jube had 
given Mark. "Do you have any idea who you're dealing with here?"
A blunt finger was tapping Kimberly Anne's face where it peered over Sprout's 
shoulder. "That's my ex-old lady," Mark said. "She used to call herself 
Sunflower."
"She's calling herself Mrs. Gooding now. I gather she married the senior partner 
at her brokerage firm."
He stared almost accusingly at Mark. "And do you know whom she's retained? St. 
John Latham."
He spoke the name like a curse. Sprout came up and insinuated her hand into her 
daddy's. He reached awkwardly across himself to put his free arm around her.
"What's so special about this Latham dude?"
"He's the best. And he's a total bastard."
"That's, like, why I came to you. You're supposed to be pretty good yourself. If 
you'll help me, why should I think about running?"
Pretorius's mouth seemed to heat-shrink to his teeth. "Flattery is always 
appreciated, no matter how beside the point."
He leaned forward. "Understand, Doctor: these are the eighties. Don't you hate 
that phrase? I thought nothing was ever going to be as nauseous as the cant we 
had back in the days when Weathermen weren't fat boys who got miffed at Bryant 
Gumbel on the morning show. Oh, well, wrong again, Pretorius." He cocked his 
head like a big bird. "Dr. Meadows, you claim to be an ace?"
Mark flushed. -"Well, I..."
"Does the name `Captain Trips' suggest anything?"
"I-that is-yes." Mark looked at his hands. "It's supposed to be a secret."
"Cap'n Trips is a fixture in Jokertown and on the New York ace scene. And does 
he ever wear a mask?"
"Well ... no."
"Indeed. So we have a fairly visible but apparently minor ace, whose, ahem, 
`secret identity' is a man who follows a rather divergent life-style in a day 
when `the nail that stands out must be hammered down' is the dominant social 
wisdom. St. John Latham is a man who will do anything to win. Anything. Do you 
see how you might be, how you say, vulnerable?"
Mark covered his face with his hands. "I just can't... I mean, Sunflower 
wouldn't do anything like that to me. We, we're like comrades. I knew her at 
Berkeley, man. The Kent State protests-you remember that?" His confusion came 
out in a gush of reproach, accusation almost. He expected Pretorius to bark at 
him. Instead the attorney nodded his splendid silver head. The perfection of his 
ponytail filled Mark with jealous awe.
"I remember. I still walk with a limp, thanks to a National Guardsman's bayonet 
in my hip-among other reasons."
Pretorius sat back and gazed at the ceiling. "A radical in '70. An executive in 
'89. If you knew how anything but uncommon that story is. At least she's not 
with the DEA."
"And while we're on that subject, I have formed the impression you don't say no 
to recreational chemistry"
"It doesn't hurt anybody, man."
"No. Ain't nobody's business but your own; couldn't agree more. Being a Jew in 
Nuremberg in the thirties didn't hurt anybody either."
He squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head. "Doctor, you are a big, soft, 
inflated Bozo the Clown doll in the climate of today, and Mr. St. John 
Motherfucking Latham is going to knock you all over the courtroom. So I say to 
you, Run, baby, run. Or be prepared for a sea change in your life."
Mark made a helpless gesture, started to stand. "One more thing," Pretorius 
said.
Mark stopped. Pretorius looked to Sprout. She was a shy child, except with those 
close to her, and the lawyer had an intimidating way-he intimidated her dad, 
anyway. But she faced Pretorius, solemn and unflinching.
"The question that needs to be asked is, what do you want, Sprout?" Pretorius 
said. "Do you want to live with your mommy, or stay with your father?"
"I-I'll abide by her wishes, man," Mark said. It was the hardest thing .he'd 
ever said.
She looked from Pretorius to Mark and back. "I miss my mommy," she said in that 
precise, childish voice. Mark felt his skeleton begin to collapse within him.
"But I want to stay with my daddy."
Pretorius nodded gravely. "Then we'll do what we can to see that you do. But 
what that will be"-he looked at Mark-"is up to your father."
Seven o'clock turned up on schedule. Susan-he was fairly sure it was 
Susan-marched to the front door to flip over the sign to SORRY--WE'RE CLOSED 
just as a woman materialized and pushed at the door from outside.
Susan resisted, glaring. Mark came around the counter wiping his hands on his 
apron and felt his stomach do a slow roll.
"It's okay," he managed to croak. "She can come in." Susan turned her glare on 
Mark. "I'm off now, buster." Mark shrugged helplessly. The woman stepped agilely 
inside. She was tall and striking in a black skirt suit with padded shoulders 
and a deep purple blouse. Her eyes had grown more violet over the years. The 
blouse turned them huge and glowing.
"This is personal, not business," she said to Susan. "We'll be fine."
"If you're sure you'll be okay alone with him," Susan sniffed. She launched a 
last glower at Mark and clumped out into the Village dusk.
She turned, Kimberly, and was in Mark's arms. He damned near collapsed. He stood 
there a moment with his arms sort of dangling stiffly past her like a 
mannequin's. Then he hugged her with adolescent fervor. Her body melted against 
his, fleetingly, and then she turned and was out of his arms like smoke.
"You seem to be doing well for yourself," she said, gesturing at the shop.
"Uh, yeah. Thanks." He pulled a chair back from a table. "Here, sit down."
She smiled and accepted. He went around behind the counter and busied himself. 
She lit a cigarette and looked at him. He didn't point out the LUNGS IN UsE-No 
SMOKING, PLEASE sign on the wall behind her.
She wasn't as willowy as she had been back in the Bay days. Nor was she blowsy 
from booze and depression as she had been when their marriage hit the rocks and 
she self-destructed at the first custody hearing, back in '81. Full-figured was 
what he thought they, called it, glancing back as he waited for water to boil, 
though he had it in mind that had become a euphemism for "fat". She wasn't; 
voluptuous might have put it better. Whatever, she wore forty well.
... Not that it mattered, not really. He was still as desperately in love with 
her as he'd been the first time he saw her, thirty years and more ago, 
tricycling down their southern California tract-home block.
The lights were low, just a visual buzz of fluorescents above the deli counter. 
Mark lit candles and a sandalwood stick. The Windham Hill mob was history. The 
tape machine played real music. Their music.
He brought an earthenware pot and two matching mugs on a tray. He almost tipped 
the assembly onto the floor, slopping fragrant herbal tea on the red-and-white 
checkered tablecloth as he transferred the pot to the table. Kimberly sat and 
watched him with a smile that held no mockery.
He spilled only a little of the pale amber liquid as he poured and handed her a 
mug. She sipped. Her face lit. "Celestial Seasonings and old Bonnie Raitt." She 
smiled. "How sweet of you to remember."
"How could I forget?" he mumbled into the steam rising from his mug.
A rustle of beaded curtain, and they looked up to see Sprout standing in the 
gloom at the back of the store. "Daddy, I'm hungry-" she began. Then she saw 
Kimberly and came flying forward again.
Kimberly cradled her, telling her, "Baby, baby, it's all right, Mommy's here." 
Mark sat, absently stroking his daughter's long smooth hair, feeling excluded.
At last Sprout relinquished her hold on Sunflower's neck and slid down to sit 
cross-legged on the scuffed linoleum, pressed up against her mother's 
black-stockinged shins. Kimberly petted her.
"I don't want to take her away from you, Mark." Mark's vision swirled. His eyes 
stung. His tongue knotted. "Why-why are you doing this, then? You said I was 
doing well."
"That's different. That's money." She gestured around the shop. "Do you really 
think this is any way for a little girl to grow up? Surrounded by smut and hash 
pipes?"
"She's all right," he said sullenly. "She's happy. Aren't you honey?"
Wide-eyed solemn, Sprout nodded. Kimberly shook her head.
"Mark, these are the eighties. You're a dropout, a druggie. How can you expect 
to raise a daughter, let alone one as ... special as our Sprout is?"
Mark froze with his hand reaching for the pocket of his faded denim jacket-the 
one that held his pouch and papers, not the one with the Grateful Dead patch. It 
came to him how great the gulf between them had become.
"The way I've been doing," he said. "One day at a time."
"Oh, Mark," she said, rising. "You sound like an AA meeting."
The tape had segued to Buffalo Springfield. Kimberly hugged Sprout, came around 
the table to him. "Families should be together," she said huskily in his ear. 
"Oh, Mark, I wish-"
"What? What do you wish?"
But she was gone, leaving him and her last words hanging in a breath of Chanel 
No. 5.
The stuffed animals sat in a rapt semicircle on the bed and in shelf tiers along 
the walls. The light of one dim bulb glittered in attentive plastic eyes as the 
girl spoke.
Mark watched from the doorway. She had not pulled the madras-print cloth to, 
indicating she didn't want full privacy. She spoke in a low voice, leaning 
forward. He could never make out what she said at times like this; it seemed to 
him that the length of her sentences, the pitch of her voice even, were somehow 
more adult than anything she managed in the world outside her tiny 
converted-closet bedroom, in the presence of anyone but the Pobbles and Thumpers 
and teddy bears. But if he tried to intrude, to come close to catch the sense of 
what she was saying, she clammed up. It was one area of her life Sprout excluded 
him from, however desperately he wanted to share it.
He turned away, padded barefoot past the dark cubicle where he had his own 
mattress on the floor to the lab that took up most of the apartment above the 
Pumpkin.
Red-eye pilot lights threw little hard shards of illumination that ricocheted 
fitfully among surfaces of glass and mechanism. Mark felt his way to a pad in 
the corner beneath a periodic table and a poster for Destiny's gig at the 
Fillmore in 1970's long-lost spring and sat. The smell of cannabis smoke and the 
layers of paint it had sunk into enfolded him like arms. His cheeks had become 
wet without his being aware.
He pushed a cabinet on casters away from the wall, untoggled the fiberboard rear 
panel. The compartment hidden inside contained racks of vials of various colored 
powders: blue, orange, yellow, gray, black, and silver that swirled together 
without mixing. He stared at them, ran a finger along them like a stick along a 
picket fence.
A long time ago a skinny kid with a crew cut and highwater pants, who had just 
dropped LSD for the first time ever, had stumbled into an alleyway in horror, 
fleeing a People's Park confrontation between National Guardsmen and students in 
the dark angry days that followed Kent State. Moments later a glowing beautiful 
youth emerged: an ace for the Revolution. Together with Tom Douglas, the Lizard 
King and doomed lead singer for Destiny, he had stood off the Guard and the 
Establishment ace Hardhat, and saved the day. Then he partied the night away, 
with help from the kids, Tom Douglas, and a beautiful young activist called 
Sunflower. He called himself the Radical.
In the morning the Radical disappeared. He was never seen again. And a certain 
nerd biochem student stumbled back out of the alley with a head full of the 
strangest memory fragments.
Becoming the Radical again-if he'd ever really been the Radical-had become 
Mark's Holy Grail. He had failed in that quest. The brightly colored powders 
were what he had found instead. Not what he was looking for-but a means to 
acceptance all the same. To having, at least for one hour, a dose, what a 
long-dead Egyptian scribe once prayed for as "effective personality."
He felt stirrings down around the back of his skull, like the voices of children 
on a distant playground. He pushed them back down, away. From below the racks he 
took a bong with a cracked, smoke-stained stack. Right now he needed chemical 
sanctuary of a more conventional kind.
He soared upward from the roof, upward from the smog and squalor into blue 
morning sky that darkened around him as he rose. The Village dwindled, was 
subsumed into the cement scab of Manhattan, became a finger poking a blue ribbon 
between Long Island and the Jersey shore, was lost in swirls of cloud. Clouds 
hid the shitbrown garbage bloom from the bay into the Atlantic: a blessing in 
his present mood.
He rose higher, feeling the air chill and attenuate around him until it was 
gone, and he floated in blackness, with nothing between him and the hot healing 
eye of the sun.
He stretched, feeling his body fill with the wild energy of the sun, the 
lifegiver He was Starshine; he needed no air, no food. Only sunlight. It hit him 
like a drug--though he knew the rush of cocaine and sizzle of crystal meth only
at one remove and unwillingly, through the experiences of Mark Meadows.
From the Olympian height of orbit you could barely see what a splendid job man 
was doing of fouling his own nest. He ached to spread the word, the warning, to 
help the world to its senses with his poems and songs. But the moments of 
freedom were too few, too few....
He felt the pressure of other voices within, dragging him back to Earth, in 
thought if not yet in body. Meadows had a problem, and he knew that this brief 
liberation was Mark's way of consulting him. As he would the others.
Changes are due in your life, Mark Meadows, he thought. But what might those 
changes be? If he himself could do no more, he wished Meadows at least would 
involve himself more in the world, take a stand. He wished Mark would give up 
his habits of drug abusethough he couldn't escape irony there, since if Mark 
went completely straight, it would be in effect the end of him, of Starshine in 
his golden body stocking, floating up above the world so high.
He gazed off around the molten-silver limb of the world. A gigantic oil spill 
was fouling the coast of Alaska; for all his powers, what could he do? What 
could he do to halt acid rain, or the destruction of the Amazon rain forest?
That last he'd even tried, had flown to Brazil on wings of light, begun 
destroying bulldozers and work camps with his energy beams, putting the workmen 
to flight, burning the rotor off a Gazelle gunship that had tried to drive him 
away-though begrudgingly he had caught it before it crashed, and eased it to a 
soft landing on a sandbar. Unworthy as they were, he didn't want the crew's 
deaths weighing down his soul.
He had gotten so engrossed in his mission, in fact, that he'd overstayed his 
hour, stranding Mark in a smoldering patch of devastation in the middle of the 
Amazon basin with a whole regiment of the Brazilian army closing in and mightily 
pissed off. Even with his other friends to call on, Mark had some bad moments 
getting back to the States. He'd been so miffed he hadn't summoned Starshine for 
six months afterward.
It did no good, of course. The Brazilian government borrowed more money from the 
World Bank and bought more and bigger earth-raping machines. The destruction 
went on with barely a hiccup.
The truth is, the world doesn't need more aces, he thought. It doesn't need us 
at all. We can't do anything real.
He looked into the sun. Its roaring song of life and light blinded him, suffused 
him. But for all his exaltation, he was a mote-a spark, quickly consumed.
And he knew that he had come to his truth.
Dr. Pretorius leaned back in his swivel chair and crossed hands over his hard 
paunch. His suit was white today. He looked like a hip Colonel Sanders.
"So, Dr. Meadows, do you have a decision for me?" Mark nodded, started to speak. 
A door opened behind Pretorius and the words stuck tight in Mark's throat. A 
woman had slipped silently into the room--a girl, maybe; she looked more like a 
special effect than a human. She was five and a half feet tall, inhumanly slim, 
and blue-blue green, actually, gleaming in the same shade as the dyes used in 
blue ice. The room temperature, already cool, had dropped perceptibly.
"You haven't met my ward, have you? Dr. Meadows, let me present Ice Blue Sibyl."
She looked at him. At least she turned her face toward him. Whatever she was 
made of looked hard as glass, but seemed constantly, subtly to be shifting. Her 
features seemed high-cheekboned and forward thrusting, though it was hard to be 
sure. Her body was attenuated as a mannequin's and almost as sexless; though she 
appeared to be nude, the tiny breasts showed no nipples, nor did she display 
genitalia. Still, there was some alien, elflike quality to her, something that 
caused a stirring in Mark's crotch as she looked at him with her blue-glass 
stare.
She turned her face to Pretorius, tipped it attentively. Mark got the impression 
that some communication passed between them. The lawyer nodded. Sibyl turned and 
walked to the door with sinuous inhuman grace. She stopped, gave Mark a last 
glance, vanished.
Pretorius was looking at him. "You've decided?" Mark reached out and hugged his 
daughter to him. "Yeah, man. There's only one thing I can do."
"Hello? Is anyone here?" Dr. Tachyon stepped cautiously through the open door. 
Today he wore an eighteenthcentury peach coat over a pale pink shirt with lace 
spraying out the front of a mauve waistcoat. His breeches were deep purple 
satin, caught at the knee with gold rosettes. His stockings were lilac, his 
shoes gold. Instead of an artificial hand, he wore a lace cozy on his stump, 
with a red rose sprouting from it.
Amazement stopped him cold. The Pumpkin was gutted. Tables were overturned, the 
counter torn up, the magazine racks lying on their backs, the psychedelic-era 
posters gone from the walls. Somewhere music played.
"Burning Sky! What's happened here? Markl Mark!" Through a doorway at the back 
that looked curiously naked without the beaded curtain that had always hung 
there stepped a remarkable figure. It wore torn khaki pants, a black 
Queensrykche T-shirt stretched to the bursting point across a disproportionately 
huge chest. With a narrow head and finely sculpted, almost elfin features set on 
an inhumanly squat body, the newcomer looked the way pretty-boy movie 
martial-artist Jean Claude Van Damme would if they put him in a hydraulic press 
and mashed him down him a foot or so.
He stopped and turned a cool smile on Tachyon. "So. The little prince." His 
English had a curious, almost Eastern European accent. Just like Tachyon's.
"What have you done to Mark?" Tachyon hissed. His flesh hand inched back toward 
the little H&K nine-millimeter tucked in a waistband holster inside the back of 
his breeches.
The other put fist to palm and flexed. Cloth tore. "Served loyally and without 
stint, as befits a Morakh." Being destroyed as an abomination befits a Morakh, 
Tachyon thought. He was about to say so when an equally outlandish apparition 
loomed up behind the creature. This one had a gray sleeveless sweatshirt and 
paint-splashed dungarees hung on a frame like a street sign and graying blond 
hair clipped skull close. He seemed to consist all of nose, Adam's apple, and 
elbows.
"Doc! How are you, man?" the scarecrow said. Tachyon squinted at him. "Who the 
hell are you?" The other blinked and looked as if he were about to cry. "It's 
me, man. Mark."
Tachyon goggled. A blond rocket in cutoffs shot out the door, hit the Morakh in 
the middle of his broad back, scaled him like a monkey, and seated itself with 
slim bare legs straddling his rhinoceros neck.
"Uncle Tachy!" Sprout chirped. "Uncle Dirk is giving me a piggyback ride."
"Indeed." Ignoring the Morakh's scowl, Tach stepped close to kiss the girl on 
her proffered cheek.
Durg at-Morakh was the strongest non-ace on Earth: no Golden Boy or Harlem 
Hammer, but far stronger than any normal human. He was not human; he was 
Takisian--a Morakh, a gene-engineered fighting machine created by the Vayawand, 
bitter enemies of Tachyon's House Ilkazam. He had come to Earth with Tachyon's 
cousin Zabb, a foe of a more intimate nature.
Now he served Mark, having been defeated in unarmed combat by Mark's "friend" 
Moonchild. He and Tachyon tolerated each other for Mark's sake.
Tachyon gripped his old friend by the biceps. "Mark, man, what has happened to 
you?"
Mark grimaced. Tachyon realized he had never seen his chin before.
"It's this court thing," Mark said, glancing at his daughter. "They start taking 
depositions soon. Dr. Pretorius said I needed to, like, straighten up my image."
Taking his cue, Durg patted Sprout's shins and said, "Let us go for a walk, 
little mistress." They went out into the sunlight on Fitz-James.
"`Dr. Pretorius,"' Tachyon repeated with distaste. The two regarded each other 
like a pair of dogs who claim the same turf. "He thinks you should then give in, 
change the way you lives--the way you wear your hair?"
Mark shrugged helplessly. "He says if I challenge the system, I'll lose."
"Perhaps if you had a more competent lawyer."
"Everybody says he's the best. The legal version of, like, you."
"Well." Tach fingered his narrow chin. "I admit I've no cause to believe that 
your justice' is aptly named. What are you doing to your store?"
"Pretorius says if I go in as a head-shop owner I'll get blown out of the water. 
So I'm selling off the paraphernalia and letting Jube take the comix as a lot. 
I'm making the Pumpkin into more a New Age place. Gonna call it a `Wellness 
Center' or something."
Tachyon winced.
"Yeah, man, I know. But it's, like, the eighties."
"Indeed."
Mark turned and went into the back, where he had boxes of refuse piled to go 
into the dumpster in the alley. Tachyon followed.
"What music is this?" he asked, gesturing to a tape player with a coat-hanger 
antenna.
"Old Buffalo Springfield. "Nowadays Clancy Can't Even Sing."' He dabbed a 
fingertip at a corner of his eye. `Always has made me cry, darn it."
"I understand." Tach plucked a silken handkerchief from the sleeve of his stump 
and dabbed at the sweat that daintily beaded his eyebrows. "So Pretorius thinks 
changing your life-style at this late date will impress the court? It seems a 
childishly obvious expedient."
"Appearances count for a lot in court, he says. See, the judge decided to hold 
open hearings at the end, not just take depositions and briefs like they usually 
do in custody cases. And Doc Pretorius says Sun-Kimberly's attorney's trying to 
get the press in, and they'll play it up big; the ace thing and all. You know 
how popular we are now. So this image thing, it's like, if a biker gets busted 
for murder or something, they shave off his beard and put a suit on him for 
trial."
"But you are not on trial."
"Dr. E says I am."
"Hmm. Who is the judge?"
"Justice Mary Conower." He bent, picked up a box, and brightened. "She's 
supposed to be a liberal; she was, like, a big Dukakis supporter. She won't let 
all these ace haters trash me. Will she?"
"I remember her from the campaign. Last fall I'd have said you were correct. 
Now... I'm not so sure. It seems we have few friends on any side."
"Maybe that's why Dr. E told me to go underground instead ' of doing the court 
thing. But I always thought being a liberal meant you believed in people's 
rights and stuff."
"A lot of us thought that, once." Something stuffed in a box caught Tach's eye. 
He stooped like a hawk. "Mark, no!" he exclaimed, brandishing a crumpled purple 
top hat.
Mark stood holding the box and avoiding his eyes. "I had to straighten up. Stop 
doing drugs. Pretorius said they'd ream me out royally if I didn't. Might even 
go to the DA and get me busted."
"Your Sunflower would do this to you?"
"Her attorney would. Dude named Latham. They call him, like, Sturgeon or 
something."
" `Sinjin.' Yes. He would do that. He would do anything." He held up the hat. 
"But this?"
The tears were streaming freely down Mark's shorn cheeks now. "I decided on my 
own, man. After the vials I got now are all used up, I'm not making any more. 
There's just too much risk, and I gotta keep Sprout. No matter what."
"So Captain Trips-"
"Has hung it up, man."
"Have you ever used drugs, Dr. Meadows?"
With effort Mark pulled his consciousness back to the deposition room. The oak 
paneling seemed to be pressing him like a Salem witch. His attention was showing 
a tendency to spin around inside his skull.
"Uh. Back in the sixties," he told St. John Latham. Pretorius opposed conceding 
even that much. But this new Mark, the one emerging from a cannabis pupa into 
the chill of century's end, thought that would be a little much.
"Not since?"
"No."
"What about tobacco?"
He rubbed his eyes. He was getting a headache. "I quit smoking in '78, man."
"And alcohol?"
"I drink wine, sometimes. Not too often."
"You eat chocolate?"
"Yes."
"You're a biochemist. It surprises me you aren't aware these are all drugs; 
addictive ones, in fact."
"I do know" Very subdued.
"Ah. What about aspirin? Yes? Penicillin? Antihistamines?"
"Yeah. I'm, uh, allergic to penicillin."
"So. You do still use drugs. Even addictive drugs. Though you just now denied 
doing it."
"I didn't know that's what you meant."
"What other drugs do you use that you claim you don't?"
Mark glanced to Pretorius. The lawyer shrugged. "None, man. I mean, uh, none."
When they got back to the Village from Latham's office, Mark could tell Sprout 
was tired and footsore, simply because she wasn't bouncing around in the usual 
happy-puppy way she had when she was out somewhere with Daddy. She wore a 
lightweight dress and flats, and her long straight blond hair was tied in a 
ponytail to keep it off her neck. Mark fingered his own nape, which still felt 
naked in the sticky-hot spring-afternoon breeze, rich with polynucleic aromatic 
hydrocarbons.
A couple of kids in bicycling caps and lycra shorts clumped by on the other side 
of the street. They watched Sprout with overt interest. She was just falling 
into adolescence, still skinny as a car antenna. But she had an ingenue face, 
startlingly pretty. The kind to attract attention. Reflexively he tugged her 
closer. I'm turning into an uptight old man, he thought, and tugged again at the 
loosened white collar of his shirt. His neck felt ropeburned by the tie now 
wadded in the pocket of his gray suit coat.
The light of the falling sun shattered like glass on windshields and shop 
windows and filled his eyes with sharp fragments. Even in this backwater street 
the noise of nearby traffic was like a rocker-arm engine pounding in his skull, 
and each honk of a horn threatened to pop his eyes like a steel needle.
For years Mark had lived in a haze of marijuana smoke. He dabbled in other 
drugs, but that was more in the nature of biochemical experimentation with 
himself as subject-such as had called up the Radical, and subsequently his 
"friends." Grass was his drug of choice. Way back in those strange days of the 
late sixties early seventies, actually, but the sixties didn't end until Nixon 
did-it seemed a perfect solace to someone who had come to terms with the fact 
that he was doomed to disappoint everyone who expected anything of him. 
Especially himself.
Now he was emerging from the cushioning fog. Off the weed, the world was a lot 
more surreal place to be. Someone stepped from the doorway of the Pumpkin, 
features obscured by the broad straw brim of a hat. Mark's hand moved to the 
inside pocket of his coat, where he kept a set of his dwindling supply of vials.
Sprout lunged forward with arms outspread. The figure knelt, embraced her, and 
then violet eyes were looking up at him from beneath the hat brim.
"Mark," Kimberly said. "I had to see you."
The ball bounced across the patchy grass of Central Park as though it were 
bopping out the lyrics to a sixties cigarette-commercial jingle. Sprout pursued 
it, skipping and chirping happily.
"What does your old man think of all this?" Mark asked, lying on his elbows on 
the beach towel Kimberly had brought along with the ball.
"About what?" she asked him. She wasn't showing her agency game face this 
afternoon. In an impressionistic cotton blouse and blue jeans that looked as if 
they'd been worn after she bought them instead of before, knees drawn up to 
support her chin and hair hanging in a braid down her back, she looked so much 
like the Sunflower of old he could barely breathe.
He wanted to say, "about the trial," but he also wanted to say, "about you 
seeing me," but the two kind of jostled against each other and got jammed up 
like fat men trying to go through a men's room door at the same time, and so he 
just made vaguely circular gestures in the air and said, "About, uh, this."
"He's in Japan on business. T. Boone Pickens is trying to open up the country to 
American businesses. Cornelius is one of his advisers." She seemed to speak with 
unaccustomed crispness, but then he'd never been good at telling that kind of 
thing. It had been one of their problems. One of many.
He was trying to think of something to say when Sunflower-no, 
Kimberly---clutched his arm. "Mark, look--" Their daughter had followed the 
bouncing ball into the middle of a large blanket and the Puerto Rican family 
that occupied it, almost bowling over a stout woman in lime-green shorts. A 
short, wiry man with tattoos all over his arm jumped up and started 
expostulating. Half a dozen children gathered around, including a boy about 
Sprout's own age with a switchblade face.
"Mark, aren't you going to do something?"
He looked at her, puzzled. "What, man? She's okay."
"But those ... people. That is, Sprout ran into them, they're justifiably 
upset-"
He laughed. "Look."
The Puerto Ricans were laughing, too. The fat woman hugged Sprout. The tough kid 
smiled and tossed her the ball. She turned and came racing back up the slope 
toward her parents, graceful and clumsy as a week-old foal.
"See? She gets along pretty well with people, even if..." The sentence ran down 
uncompleted, as they usually did on that subject.
Kimberly still looked skeptical. Mark shrugged, then by reflex touched the 
pocket of the denim jacket he wore despite the heat.
Maybe he did rely on the implicit promise of his 'friends' too much. He'd have 
to go cold turkey from that, too, one of these days. He wasn't calling up the 
personae too often. Occasionally he felt the peevish pressure in his brain, like 
heckling from the back of an old auditorium, though he had explained to his 
'friends' what he had to do and thought most of them accepted it. But eventually 
the powders would be gone.
As it was, Pretorius would kill him if he knew he still had any of them. 
Pretorius thought a raid was a real possibility, and the vials contained a wider 
variety of proscribed substances than a DEA agent was liable to resell in a 
year.
But what am I supposed to do? Pour them down the drain? That felt like murder.
Then Sprout's arms horseshoed his skinny neck and they went over, all three of 
them, in a laughing, tickling tangle, and for a moment it was almost like real 
life.
The Parade of Liars, as Pretorius called the succession of expert witnesses he 
and Latham took turns deposing, trudged on from spring into summer. The 
Twenty-eighth Army taught the students in Gate of Heavenly Peace Square what the 
old dragon Mao had told them so often: where political power springs from. Nur 
al-Allah fanatics attacked a joker-rights rally in London's Hyde Park with 
bottles and brickbats, winning praise from Muslim leaders throughout the West. 
"Secular law must yield to the laws of God," a noted Palestine-born Princeton 
professor announced, "and these creatures are an abomination in the eyes of 
Allah."
A skinhead beat a joker to death with a baseball bat. The media swelled with 
indignation. When it turned out that the chief of staff of the House Democratic 
Steering and Policy Committee had tried the same thing back in '73, liberals 
called it "a meanness out there, a feeding frenzy" when people took him to task 
for it. After all, he had helped to pass some very caring legislation, and 
anyway the bitch survived.
Kimberly flitted in and out of Mark's life like a moth. Every time he thought he 
could catch hold of her, she eluded him. She seldom kept a date two times 
running. But she never stayed away long.
The hearings began.
Pretorius turned up precious few character witnesses for Mark. Dr. Tachyon, of 
course, and Jube the news dealer; Doughboy, the retarded joker ace, broke down 
and sobbed mountainously as he recounted how Mark and his friends had saved him 
from being convicted of murder- and, incidentally, saved the planet from the 
Swarm. His testimony was corroborated by laconic Lieutenant Pilar Arrupe of 
Homicide South, who chewed a toothpick in place of her customary cigarillo. 
Pretorius wanted to bring on reporter Sara Morgenstern, but she had dropped from 
sight after the nightmare of last year's Atlanta convention.
No aces testified on Mark's behalf. The Aces High crowd was laying low these 
days. Besides, most of them seemed embarrassed by Cap'n Trips and his plight.
He just wasn't an eighties kind of guy.
"Dr. Meadows, are you an ace?"
"Yes."
"And would you mind describing the nature of your powers?"
"Yes."
"What do you mean by that?"
" I mean, -I, uh--I would mind."
"Your honor, I ask that the court take notice of the witness's lack of 
cooperation."
"Your honor-"
"Dr. Pretorius, you needn't gesticulate. You and Mr. Latham may approach the 
bench."
Pretorius always thought the rooms of the New Family Court on Franklin and 
Lafayette had all the human warmth of a dentist's waiting room. The too-bright 
fluorescents hurt his eyes.
The media were back in force, he noted with displeasure as he gimped to the 
bench. After the publicity that attended Mark's getting served, the press had 
lost interest; lots of nothing visible had happened for a while.
"Dr. Meadows is refusing to answer a vital question, your honor," Latham said.
"He can't be compelled to answer. Indiana v. Mr. Miraculous, -I964. Fifth 
Amendment protections against self-incrimination apply."
With blue eyes and blond hair worn in a pageboy cut, judge Mary Conower looked 
more pretty than anything else-ingenue, belying her reputation as a hard-ass. A 
slight dry tautness to her skin gave her the appearance of a cheerleader gone 
sour on life.
"This isn't a criminal trial, Doctor," she said. Pretorius bit down hard on 
several possible responses. He was getting kind of old to pull another night in 
the Tombs for contempt.
"Then I object on the grounds that the line of questioning is irrelevant."
Conower raised an eyebrow at Latham. "That seems valid."
"Mrs. Gooding contends that the fact of her former husband's acehood constitutes 
a threat to the welfare of her daughter," Latham said.
"That's absurd(" Pretorius exclaimed.
"We intend to demonstrate that it is not at all absurd, your honor."
"Very well," Conower said. "You may attempt to so demonstrate. But the court 
will not compel Dr. Meadows to describe his powers."
Latham stood a moment before Mark, staring holes in him with reptile eyes. In 
the audience someone coughed. "You have friends who are aces, Dr. Meadows?" Mark 
glanced at Sprout, busy drawing doodles on one of Pretorius's legal pads, at 
Kimberly, who was dressed like the centerfold in Forbes and wouldn't meet his 
eye. Finally he looked to Pretorius, who sighed and nodded. "Yes."
Latham nodded slowly, as if this was Big News. Mark could feel the press begin 
to rustle around out there like snakes waking up among leaves. They sensed he 
was getting set up; he sensed he was getting set up. He glanced at Pretorius 
again. Pretorius gave him a drop-'em-and-spread-'em shrug.
"It's been suggested that you play a sort of Jimmy Olsen role to several of New 
York's most powerful aces. Is that a fair assessment?"
Mark tried to keep his eyes from sidling to Pretorius yet again. He didn't want 
Conower to think he was shifty-eyed. This justice trip was a lot more 
complicated than he ever thought.
... It came to him he had no idea how to answer the question. Other than, No, 
more of a Clark Kent role, which he badly did not want to say. He turned red and 
stuttered.
"Would it be fair," Latham continued, with a fractional smile to let Mark know 
he had him right where he wanted him, "to say that you are on intimate terms 
with certain aces, including one who variously styles himself Jumpin' Jack Flash 
and JJ Flash?"
"Um ... Yes."
"Briefly describe Mr. Flash's powers for us, if you will. Come, there's no 
reason to be coy; they're not exactly a secret."
Mark hadn't been being coy. Latham's smug unfairness didn't make it easy to 
answer.
"Ah, he, ah--he flies. And he, like-I mean, he shoots fire from his hands."
Plasma, schmuck, a voice said in the back of his skull. I just pretend tit's 
fire. Jesus, you're making a royal screw-up out of this.
He looked around, terrified he had spoken aloud. But the mob showed blank 
expectant faces, and Latham was turning back from his table with a manila folder 
in his hands.
"I'd like to call the court's attention," Latham said, "to this photographic 
evidence of the damage done by just such a fire-shooting ace."
In the crowd somebody gasped; someone else retched. Latham pivoted like a 
bullfighter. Mark felt his stomach do a slow roll at the sight of the 
eight-by-ten photo he held in his hand. Judging from the skirt and Mary Janes, 
it had been a girl not much older than Sprout.
But from the waist up it was a blackened, shriveled effigy with a hideous grin.
Pretorius's cane tip cracked like a rifle. "Your honor, I object in the 
strongest possible termsl What the hell does counsel think he's doing with this 
horror show?"
"Presenting my case," Latham said evenly. "Preposterous. Your honor, this 
picture is of a victim of the ace the press dubbed Fireball, a psychopath 
apprehended by Mistral this spring in Cincinnati. Whatever his relationship to 
Mark Meadows, JJ Flash had no more to do with it than you or I or Jetboy. To 
show it here is irrelevant and prejudicial."
"Do you suggest I might be swayed by evidence not germane to this case?" Conower 
asked silkily.
"I suggest that Mr. Latham is attempting to try his case in the press. This is 
rank sensationalism."
Conower frowned. "Mr. Latham?"
Latham spread his hands as if surprised. "What am I to do, your honor? My 
opponent avers that ace powers are harmless. I demonstrate the contrary."
"I aver no such damn fool thing."
"Perhaps he would put it, Ace powers don't kill people--people kill people. I 
intend to demonstrate that the destructive potential of these powers is too 
enormous to be dismissed with a flip syllogism."
Pretorius grinned. "I have to hand it to you, St. John. You are stone death 
walking to straw men."
He shifted weight to the cane from his bad leg and turned to the judge. "Mr. 
Latham is trying to drag in atrocities with no connection to JJ Flash other than 
that they were committed by an ace with fire-related powers. And even if Flash 
were involved, to indict Dr. Meadows on that account smacks of guilt by 
association."
"If Dr. Meadows commonly associated with known members of the Medellin Cartel," 
Latham said ingenuously, "would your honor say that fact lacked relevance to his 
suitability as a parent?"
Conower squeezed her mouth till her lips disappeared. "Very well, Mr. Latham. 
You may present your case. And may I remind you, Dr. Pretorius, that I'm the one 
charged with evaluating the evidence?"
Mark felt more exposed and humiliated than he ever had in his life. This was 
worse than one of those balls-outon-Broadway dreams. All his life he'd shunned 
attention, in his own persona at least. Now all these strangers were looking at 
him and Sprout and thinking about those awful pictures.
Pretorius turned away from the bench. His eyebrows bristled over blue-hot eyes. 
Latham approached the witness stand with a look like an Inquisitor with a 
fresh-lit torch.
Kimberly was studying her fingernails. Mark looked at Sprout. Seeming to sense 
his attention, she looked up into his eyes and smiled.
He wanted to die.
"We need to do more, Mrs. Gooding," St. John Latham said.
"Such as what? You seem to be doing a marvelous job of emasculating my 
ex-husband as it is."
Latham stood. She sat on the couch, to the extent sitting was possible on a 
chrome-framed Scandinavian slab. It was more a matter of trying not to slide off 
onto the black marble floor. If the lawyer noticed the bitter sarcasm in her 
voice-as if she and Mark were on one side and he on the other-he didn't 
acknowledge it.
"Dr. Pretorius is a chronic romantic, and his notions of human nature and 
interactions downright quaint. Nonetheless, he is not a total fool. He is 
cunning, and he knows the law. And you are not without your vulnerable points." 
She threw her cigarette half-smoked into her drink and set the tumbler down on 
the irregular glass coffee table with a clink. "Such as?"
"Such as your breakdown in court during the first custody hearing. It lost the 
case for you then. It cannot help you now"
The two exterior walls that met at one corner of the Goodings' living room were 
glass. Kimberly gazed out over Manhattan and thought about how much the view 
reminded her of a black velvet painting. Apartments with panoramic views like 
this one always came off better in the movies, somehow.
" I was under a lot of stress."
"As are you now. It is not inconceivable that Pretorius might try to reduce you 
to another such breakdown on the stand."
She looked at him. "Is that what you'd do in his place?"
He said nothing.
She lit another cigarette and blew smoke toward him. "Okay. What did you have in 
mind?"
"A concrete demonstration of your husband's ace powers. Or solid evidence of the 
actual nature of the connection between him and Flash and Moonchild and the 
rest, if he is no more than a Jimmy Olsen figure."
Her eyes narrowed. "What are you saying."
"If your former husband loves your daughter as much as he claims, a perceived 
threat to her would certainly lead him to employ any powers he might have."
She went white, tensed as if she were about to leap up and attack him. Then she 
settled back and elaborately studied her manicure.
" I shouldn't be surprised that you're a bastard, Mr. Latham," she said. "After 
all, that's why I hired you. But it occurs to me-"
She lowered her hand and gave him a smile, poisonous and V -shaped. "It occurs 
to me that you're insane. You want me to use my daughter for bait?"
He didn't flinch. Didn't even flicker.
"I said perceived threat, Mrs. Gooding. I am talking about a set-piece-a 
stratagem. There would be no real risk."
Showing as little emotion as he, she picked up her glass and threw it hard at 
his head. He shifted his weight. The glass sailed past to shatter against the 
window. In New York, people who live in glass houses have to have stoneproof 
walls; it's in the building code.
"I'm paying you to win this in court, you son of a bitch. Not to play games with 
my daughter's life."
He showed her the ghost of a smile. "What do you think the law is but playing 
games with people's lives?"
"Get out," she said. "Get out of my house."
"Certainly." Calm. Always calm. Infuriating, impermeable, irresistible. 
"Anything the client desires. But reflect on this: Not even I can get your 
daughter for you if you don't want her badly enough to sacrifice."
Sprout clung tightly to her parents' hands. "Mommy and Daddy, be nice to each 
other," she said solemnly. "In that court place, everybody always sounds mad all 
the time. It makes me afraid."
She clouded up and started to sniffle. "I'm afraid they'll take me away from 
you."
Her mother hugged her, hard. "Honey, we'll always be with you." A hooded look to 
Mark. "One of us will. Always."
Sprout let Kimberly lower her onto the mattress among the stuffed toys and gazed 
up with wide eyes. "Promise?"
"Promise," her mother said.
"Yeah," Mark said around an obstruction in his throat. "One of us will always be 
around. We can promise you that much."
Kimberly sipped Chianti from her jelly jar. "Your room looks so naked without 
all the psychedelia." Candlelight struck half-moon amethyst highlights off her 
eyes. "I mean, who'd -imagine you without that huge poster of Tom Marion over 
your bed?"
He smiled ruefully. "The worst part is this futon I got in place of my old 
mattress. It's like nothing at all sometimes. I wake up with sore patches on my 
knees and elbows from the floor."
Kimberly drank wine and sighed. Mark tried hard not to think about the way her 
breasts rode up inside the thin cotton blouse. He'd been alone too long.
"Oh, Mark, what happened to us?"
He shook his head. His eyes grew misty. Way back and down, he felt derisive 
sounds coming out of Flash and Cosmic Traveler, sitting like hecklers in the 
cheap seats of his mind. It was rare enough they agreed on anything. He felt 
wordless care and concern from Moonchild, nothing at all from Aquarius. 
Starshine was vaguely disapproving. He was probably afraid Mark was going to 
have fun. It wasn't socially conscious.
She moistened her lips. "I know St. John is being awfully hard on you. I wish it 
didn't have to be this way." He looked at her with eyes that felt as if they had 
no moisture in them, parched by each random breath of air. It was strange, 
considering how close he was to tears. Would it do me any good to beg? he 
wondered. Oh, please, the Traveler said.
She settled back on his pillow. Even in the eighties a man got to have a pillow. 
For a moment she half lay that way, one leg cocked, her hair hanging in her eyes 
and around her shoulders with just a little bit of perm kink still in it. He 
thought she'd never looked so beautiful. Not even when she was carrying Sprout 
and they were both breaking their necks to make believe that everything was 
going to work out.
She sighed again. "All my life I've had this feeling of shapelessness," she 
began.
Mark's mouth said, "Oh, baby, don't talk that way, you're beautiful," before he 
could stop it. Flash and Traveler hooted and twirled noisemakers. Even Moonchild 
winced.
Kimberly ignored him. "It's like I've always been searching for landmarks to 
define myself by: jocks, radicals." A smile. "You."
She smoothed her hair back and let her head drop toward one shoulder. "Does any 
of this make any sense?" Mark made earnest noises. She smiled and shook her 
head.
"After we split I spent a few years in heavy therapy. I guess you knew about 
that, huh? Then one day I decided it was time to try something new, just 
completely different from anything I'd done before. I did the furthest-out thing 
I could think of set out to become a by-God businesswoman, a real hard-charging 
lady entrepreneur. Entrepreneuse. Whatever. Is that strange, or what?"
She laughed. "And I did, Mark, I did it. I do it. Racquetball and power lunches. 
I even have a muscular male bimbo for a secretary, even if he is gay. You can't 
imagine what this is costing me in lost time, aside from dear St. John's 
astronomical fees."
Mark looked away and felt selfish for reflexively thinking of what all this was 
costing him, and not at all in terms of money.
"Then I met Cornelius. He's really a wonderful man."
"I'm sure you'd like him if you got to know him. Only you and he are ... worlds 
apart."
She poured them both more wine. "Domestic little creature, aren't I? I'm 
starting to have the horrible suspicion that no matter how liberated I think I 
am, my gut notion's Norman Rockwell. You know, all those Saturday Evening Post 
covers when we were kids-don't make faces like that, I know it's silly. But I 
want to capture that feed."
She leaned toward him. He ached to stroke her hair. "Anything you want is fine. 
I want you to be happy." She smiled at him, sidelong. "You really mean that, 
don't you? In spite of what's going on."
He wanted to say-well, everything. But the words tried to come so fast they 
jammed tight in his throat. She brought her face close to his. Her mass of hair 
shadowed both their faces.
"Remember that guy I went with in high school? The big guy, blond, captain of 
the football team?"
Mark winced at long-remembered pain. "Yeah."
She laughed softly. "About three weeks after he broke your nose, he broke mine." 
She set the jelly glass down beside the futon and kissed him lightly on the 
lips.
"Funny how things turn out sometimes, huh?"
His lips were numb and stinging all at once, as if somebody had punched him in 
the mouth. She slipped her hand behind his head, drew his face to hers. Almost 
he hung back. Then their mouths touched again, and her tongue slid between his 
lips, teased across his teeth. He grabbed her like a drowning man and clung, 
with his hands, his lips, his soul.
In her sleep, in her room, Sprout cried out.
They were both on their feet at once. Mark just beat Kimberly through the door 
of his microscopic bedroom. Lying on her own lumpy mattress, Sprout murmured to 
herself, hugged her Pooh-bear closer to herself, and rolled over and back deeper 
into sleep. Mark and Kimberly watched her for a moment, not speaking, barely 
breathing. Kimberly disengaged, went and sat on the futon. Mark practically 
melted beside her, reaching for her. She was tense, unyielding.
"I'm sorry," she said without looking at him. "It won't work. Don't you see? 
I've tried this. I can't go back."
"But we can be together I'd do anything for you--for Sprout. We can be, like, a 
family again."
She glanced at him over her shoulder. Her eyes gleamed with tears. "Oh, Mark. It 
can't be. You're too much the free spirit. "
"What's wrong with freedom?"
"Responsibility took its place."
"But I can be what you wannl I'll do anything for you. I can help give you 
shape, if that's what you need." Smiling sadly, she shook her head. She stood 
up, faced him, took his face in her hands. "Oh, Mark," she said, and kissed him 
lightly but chastely on the lips, "I do love you. But really, it's all you can 
do to get up feet-first in the morning."
She was gone. Mark lurched to his feet, but her Reeboks were already doing a 
muted Ginger Baker number down the stairs. He hung there in the door frame, 
heart pounding. He could feel it especially in the scrotum; his belly and inner 
thighs ached and trembled with frustrated tension.
He had almost forgotten what the blue balls felt like. This shit, JJ Flash said, 
has got to stop.
"Dr. Pretorius, what do you mean by appearing in my court like this?"
"You mean this, your honor?" He gestured at his right leg. The immaculately 
tailored trousers ended at the knee. The limb below was black and green and 
wanted like a frog's. Yellow pus oozed from a dozen lesions. Judge Conover's 
nose wrinkled at the smell.
"This is my wild card. It makes me a joker-except the condition is spreading 
upward by degrees, and when it reaches my torso, it will kill me. So I suppose 
it also qualifies as a Black Queen, albeit slow"
"It's disgusting. Do you intend to make mockery of this court?"
"I intend to display only what exists, your honor. Be it the physical 
disfigurement of a joker or the emotional and mental disfigurement of bigots who 
would condemn people for having drawn a wild card."
"I am tempted to find you in contempt."
"You can't make it stick," he said affably. "Jokers may not be enjoined from 
public display of their traits, unless these conflict with indecent-exposure 
laws. That's state and federal law; would you like citations?"
Her cheeks pinched her nose. "No. I know the law" He turned to Kimberly, who sat 
in the box as if she'd just been carved from a block of ice.
"Mrs. Gooding, you've been to court before to get custody of Sprout. What 
happened the first time?" Anger flared in her eyes. He let himself show a slight 
smile. Good Elizabeth Taylor. Before her John Belushi days, of course.
"You know perfectly well what happened," she said crisply.
"Please tell the court anyway." He let her see him glance toward the 
press-packed courtroom. He and Mark had awakened to headlines screaming TRIPS 
CUSTODY CASE LAWYER EQUATES ACES, DRUG LORDS and ACE POWERS KILL, ATTORNEY SAYS. 
He wanted her and Latham to know he intended to share the joy.
There was also an article that said President Bush, after specifically pledging 
not to do so during his campaign, was considering calling for a revival of the 
old Ace Registration Acts. Didn't have anything to do with this, of course. Just 
another sign of the times.
She folded her hands before her. "I was under an enormous amount of stress at 
the time. There was our daughter's condition, and marriage to Mark was not 
precisely easy on me."
Touche, he thought, not that it'll do you any good. "So what happened?"
"I broke down on the stand."
"Went to pieces is more like it, wouldn't you say?" Her mouth tightened to a 
razor cut. "I was ill at the time. I'm not ashamed of that, why should I be? 
I've had treatment."
"Indeed. And how else have circumstances changed from that time?"
"Well-" She glanced at Mark, who as usual was gazing at her like a blond basset 
pup. "My life has become much more stable. I've found a career, and a marvelous 
husband."
"So you would say that you can offer a far more stable home environment to 
Sprout than you could before?" She looked at him, surprised and wary. "Why, 
yes." He expected Latham to object right then, on GPs, just to break the rhythm 
of questioning even or maybe especially if he didn't know where it was headed. 
You aren't infallible after all, are you, motherfucker?
"So you are saying that now you are a suitable parent because you're richer? 
What you're saying, then, is that rich people make better parents than poor 
ones?"
That pulled Latham's string. He actually jumped to his feet and raised his voice 
when he objected. Conower was pounding her gavel to restore order. She was going 
to sustain, no doubt about it. But he'd seen the flicker in her eyes. He'd 
gotten the point home. Punched her liberal-guilt button with his customary 
sledgehammer subtlety.
Christ, I hate myself sometimes.
After lunch break Pretorius asked, "Have you ever used illegal drugs, Ms. 
Gooding."
"Yes." She was forthright, meeting his eyes, not trying to evade an allegation 
she knew he could prove. "A long, long time ago. It was in the wind." A half 
smile. "We weren't as wise back then."
Nicely done. "And did you ever try LSD-25?" A pause, then, "Yes."
"Did you use it frequently?"
"That depends on your definition."
"I'll trust your judgment, Ms. Gooding."
She dropped her eyes. "It was the sixties. It was the thing to do. We were 
experimenting, trying to liberate our consciousness as well as our bodies."
"And did you ever stop to consider the genetic damage such experimentation might 
be doing?" He let it ring: "Did you not consider the welfare of your future 
children, Ms. Gooding?"
The courtroom blew up again.
After Conower called recess Mark was waiting for Pretorius, kind of hopping up 
and down without leaving his horrible chair, ergonomically designed to conform 
perfectly to the mass man but to fit no individual. He looked as if his ears 
were made of iron and had been stuck in a microwave.
"What was all that bullshit about?" he hissed at Pretorius. "Acid isn't a proven 
teratogen. Not like, like alcohol."
"Alcohol isn't the issue. They haven't gotten around to reprohibiting it yet, at 
least not in time for the morning editions. Latham wants to make an issue of 
drugs. So we'll give him drugs good and hard."
For a moment Mark could only sputter in outrage. "Wuh-what about the truth?" he 
finally managed to get out.
"Truth." Pretorius laughed, a low, sour sound. "You're in a court of law, son. 
Truth is not the issue here."
He sighed and sat. "Never believe that the days of trial by combat are over. 
Trials are still duels. It's just that the champions wised up and rewrote the 
rules. Now we fight with writs and precedents instead of maces, and instead of 
risking our own lives, all we risk is our clients' money. Or lives or freedom."
He rested both hands on the gargoyle-head knob of his cane. You don't like what 
I'm doing. Son, I don't either. But I take my role as your champion seriously. 
If I have to wallow in shit to win your case for you, that's what I do.
"These are witch-hunt times. You want to challenge that essential fact; hell, so 
do I. But if that's all I do, you lose your daughter. That's why they call it 
the system, Mark. Because like it or not, it's the way things work. Defy it too 
openly, it grinds you up and spits you out."
Mark and Kimberly had a date for that night, Friday. She didn't keep it. He 
wasn't surprised. He didn't even blame her. He felt dirtied by the way Pretorius 
had treated her, ashamed.
What was worst in his own mind was that he hadn't stopped him.
Saturday the guilty depression got to be too much. Mark closed the Wellness 
Center early. There was something he had to do. A matter of voices in his head.
The small man stood with one red Adida on the roof parapet, looking at the 
stop-and-go Third World traffic of jokertown a dozen stories below. He wore a 
red jogging suit over an orange T-shirt. His face was narrow, foxlike, with a 
sharp prominent nose and a sardonic bend to the eyebrows. Russet hair blew like 
flames in the stinking breeze.
He held a hand out before him. A jet of flame spurted from the forefinger tip. 
It became a ball, jumped from one finger to the next. He rolled the hand palm 
up. The flame swelled to baseball size, settled in the palm. For a moment it 
burned there, pallid in the sunlight, while he stared at it, as if fascinated. 
Then with a roar it shot into the high haze on a gusher of fire that seemed to 
spring from his palm.
He watched the flame dissipate. Then he drew a deep breath, let it sigh out 
through a lopsided grin.
"About fucking time," he said, and stepped into space. He let himself fall about 
fifteen feet, far enough to see a startled face flash by in a window. Then he 
straightened his body and put his arms out before him like a swimmer in a racing 
dive and took off flying. No point freaking the citizenry too much. The poor 
schmucks in J-town had enough on their plates already.
He flew north, toward the park, thinking Mark's really. put his foot in it this 
time. At least the poor fool hadn't quite had the nuts to make a clean break 
with the past. Didn't have a cold enough core to pour out his remaining vials of 
powder and see his other selves swirl away down the drain.
Thank God. It was chafing enough, the half-life he and the others led, like 
spectators at the back of an old and cavernous movie house where the film kept 
breaking.
He hated that he only existed on sufferance, only knew his own body, his own 
flesh, the feel of flight and the wind in his hair, in sixty-minute increments. 
For a man as full of life as he, that was hell.
Hell was a cold place, for him. The life that roared inside him, he expressed as 
flame.
A helicopter vaulted off a building top to his left. He angled toward it. When 
he was a thousand yards away, he kicked in some flame, went streaking for it 
like a SAM.
He threw himself into a corkscrew, drawing a spiral of orange fire into which 
the chopper flew.
It was a traffic chopper. The crew knew him; the announcer grinned and waved 
while his assistant pointed a live-action minicam at him.
JJ Flash, superstar. He grinned and waved. The pilot's face was as white as a 
brother's ever gets. He obviously hadn't run into Jumpin' Jack before.
That was fine, too. Flash had a certain amount of mean in him, that needed some 
harmless outlet.
. . About then he realized where he was heading. He smiled again, wolfishly. His 
subconscious knew what it was doing.
Kimberly Ann Cordayne Meadows Gooding looked up from her magazine. A man was 
floating outside the glass corner of her penthouse, tapping with one finger.
She gasped. Her hand reached up to twitch her indigo robe a little more closed 
over the sheer lilac negligee. He made urgent gestures for her to open the 
window. She bit her lip, shook her head.
"It doesn't open," she said.
"Fuck," his mouth said soundlessly. He pushed away about six feet, rolled out 
his hand palm up, as if introducing his next guest on late-night TV Orange fire 
jetted out and splashed against the window.
Kimberly recoiled. Almost she screamed. Almost. The window wavered, melted in a 
rough oval. A breath of warm diesel-perfumed wind washed in. The man in red 
stepped through.
"Sorry about the window," he said. "I'll pay for it. I had to talk to you."
"My husband's a rich man," she said. Her voice caught, like a hand running over 
silk.
"I'm JJ Flash."
"I know who you are. I've seen you on Peregrine's Perch."
Without asking, he dropped onto a merciless white chair. "Yeah. And you've seen 
those pictures your fuck lawyer flashed around. Some poor teenybopper pan-fried 
by a psycho in a town I've never even been to."
She glanced at the window. The wind was blowing her hair. "Maybe Mr. Latham's 
the one you should be visiting."
"No. You're the one I want. Why are you jacking Mark Meadows around?"
She leapt up. "How dare you speak to me like thad" He laughed. "Can the 
indignation, babe. All your life ... as long as you've known him, it's been the 
same. You tantalize and glide away. He's a putz in a lot of ways, but he 
deserves better."
He tipped his head sideways and looked more like a fox than ever. "Or are you 
just setting the boy up?"
For a moment her eyebrows formed fine arches of fury above eyes that had gone 
meltwater pale. Then she stood and spun, walked a few steps away. He watched the 
way her full buttocks moved the heavy cloth of the robe. "He must tell you a lot 
about himself," she said tartly. A grin came across Flash's face. He held up 
crossed fingers. "We're like this." The grin hardened, set. "Answer the 
question, babe."
She stood by the melt-edged hole. "Do you think it's easy for me?"
"From where I sit," he said, "it looks like the easiest thing in the world."
"I love Mark. Really," she said in a clotted voice. "He is the kindest man I've 
ever known."
"Or the biggest schmuck. Because you equate kind with weak, don't you?" He was 
on his feet now, in her face.
Weeping, she started to spin away. He caught her by the shoulder and made her 
face him. Small flames danced around his fist.
"Too many women," he said, "are afraid of themselves. They buy the old 
Judeo-Christian rap that they're innately wicked, tainted. So they look for a 
man to abuse them. Give them the punishment they deserve. Like that jock who 
busted Mark's beak and then yours. Is that your gig, Ms. Kimberly Perfect?"
She gasped. Smoke wisped up around the curve of one nostril, and suddenly her 
gown flashed into flame. Kimberly shrieked, tried to run. Flash held her. His 
free hand tangled the burning synthetic, pulling with surprising strength. Robe 
and gown tore away.
She slumped to the floor, sobbing in terror. Flash methodically wadded the 
burning garment, almost seeming to wash his hands with it. The fire diminished, 
went out. He tossed the half-molten mass in the corner and knelt beside her.
She clung to him. For a moment he held her, absently stroking her hair. Then he 
pushed her away.
"Let's see what kind of shape you're in, while I can still do you some good."
Ignoring her attempts to marshal belated modesty and indignation, he looked her 
over. She seemed unharmed, except for a reddening glare of burn stretching from 
her left shoulder to breast. He laid a hand over the angry patch, began to run 
it down.
She tried to jerk back. "Just what the hell do you think you're doing?"
"Drawing the energy out," he said, preoccupied. "It's like hitting a minor burn 
with a piece of ice. If I get to it quickly enough, there's no harm done."
She looked at him. "I thought fire was your element," she said from somewhere 
down in her throat.
"It is." He cupped her breast. Where his hand had passed, the skin was white, 
unmarked. "Just a little parlor trick."
"You're a dangerous man to be around, Mr. Flash." His thumb stroked her nipple. 
She gasped, stiffened. The nipple rose. Her eyes held his. Her lips were moist. 
"I'm not an eighties kind of guy," he said huskily, "any more than Mark is. He's 
a gentle flake from the sixties. `And I'm a bastard for the nineties."
She grabbed the back of his neck and pulled his head down.
In an alley behind an elegant Park Avenue high rise Mark Meadows sat with his 
knees up around his prominent ears.
How long has it been, that I've dreamed of that? Of holding her, feeling her, 
tasting her, seeing the way her eyes go dark and then pale, the way she tosses 
her hair and clutches and moans....
He felt two-timed. He felt like a voyeur. He felt like a fool.
He put his face in his spider hands and cried.
That night Mark sat up and killed a bottle of wine. Sprout played with her 
Tinkertoy set. Kimberly never came.
Eventually Mark got down on the new white linoleum he and Durg had laid and 
helped Sprout build an airplane with a propeller that really spun. It never got 
off the ground.
"I'll do it," she said.
He looked at her the way a cobra looks at you through the glass in the zoo. 
Without interest, without sign of even seeing.
"Do what, Mrs. Gooding?"
"What whatever you ask me to. To make sure I keep her."
She stood there, her whole body clenched, holding a breath inside until it 
threatened to burst her rib cage. Just daring him to ask what caused her change 
of heart.
He didn't give her the satisfaction. He just nodded. And she found herself 
hating his certainty as desperately as she needed it.
Sunday the front doorbell rang just as the sun was checking out. Mark came and 
stared through the replacement glass for a long moment before unlocking the 
door.
She had a flushed, bright-eyed, breathless quality, as though there was frost in 
the air. She wore a loose dark smock over blue jeans tonight.
"Feel like a walk?" she asked.
"You mean, after what happened the other day? You can still, like, talk to me?"
She recoiled a fraction of an inch. Then she went to the toes of her fashionable 
low-top boots and kissed his cheek. "Of course I can, Mark. What happens in 
court ought to stay there. Let's go."
Afterward he never could remember what they talked about. All he could remember 
was feeling that, despite it all, she might really be coming back this time.
Then they turned a corner and stopped. A pair of NYPD motorcycles were drawn 
across the street. Down the block a building waved flags of flame against the 
night.
Fire trucks were drawn up in front, arcing jets of water into the blaze. As he 
watched, one pulsed once spastically and died.
He drifted forward, pulling away from Kimberly's hand that clutched his sleeve. 
He felt the flames on his face. At the far end of the block a knot of skinheads 
cheered and jeered. One was just darting back into their midst, pursued by a 
fireman clumsy in his big boots. In horror Mark realized the skin had just 
slashed a hose.
"What's happening, man?" he asked a bystander. "Somebody torched an old 
apartment. Chink family on the third floor was trying to start some kind tailor 
shop." He spat on the sidewalk. "Slopes got it coming, you ask me. Tryin' to 
mess with our rent control, sneak the place into bein' commercial property. They 
in it with the landlord, that's for sure."
A line of cops crowded the skins, pushing them back. Mark ran forward. Sprout 
screamed, "Daddy!", broke Kimberly's grip, and lunged after him. Kimberly 
followed, trying to grab her arm.
Am ambulance was parked this side of the blaze. Beside it cops were trying to 
keep back an Asian family. A man and woman were wrestling with the officers and 
firemen who hemmed them in, howling and windmilling painfully thin arms. A man 
in an asbestos suit was hanging on the end of a ladder; a truck was trying to 
bring him into position to get inside a window, but huge bellows of flames kept 
lashing out at him, driving him back despite his protective clothing.
Several other men in inferno suits stood in a puddle on the street with helmets 
off. "You gotta get in there," a florid-faced man with a chiefs badge on his 
helmet yelled. "There's still a little girl inside."
"It's suicide. Fucking roofs going."
Mark was fumbling in his Dead patch pocket. Kimberly caught up with Sprout a few 
feet away.
"Mark! What's happening?"
He shook his head, unheeding. Black and silver-no. Yellow: useless. Gray, worse 
than. In his haste he discarded them. His lives fell in glittering arcs to 
shatter on the asphalt.
"Mark, what what in God's name are you doing?" The last two. One blue-and, thank 
God, an orange. He stuck the blue vial back in his pocket. Then he tossed the 
orange one's contents down his throat.
Kimberly saw him stagger back. And then he changed. The familiar gawky outlines 
blurred, shifted, condensed. A different man stood there, with film-star looks, 
a Jewish nose, a devil's grin. And a red sweatsuit, worn over an orange T-shirt.
JJ Flash tipped a one-finger salute to Kimberly. "Later, toots. Take care of the 
kid."
He launched himself into the sky.
The man on the ladder said a couple of Had Marys and prepared to jump through 
the window. He was going to his death. But that was better than hearing the 
little girl in there crying every time he closed his eyes for the rest of his 
life.
He jumped. Something grabbed the back of his protective hood, bought him up 
short, and hung him on the end of the ladder.
"Just trying to save you from yourself, pal," said the man hovering next to him 
in midair. "Better leave this one to the professionals."
"Jumpin' Jack Flash!" the fireman gasped.
The ace put a finger beside his nose. "It's a gas-gasgas," he said, and darted 
into the heart of the fire.
JJ Flash was on fire.
But his flesh didn't blacken and crackle, his eyeballs didn't melt. His 
blow-dried hair wasn't even mussed. In the midst of hell, he was in heaven.
E J. O'Rourke heaven, in fact the fire felt like sitting in a Jacuzzi with a 
couple of lines up each nostril and a teenage girl by your side eeling out of 
her string bikini and getting ready to audition as a sword-swallower for Barnum 
& Bailey. This was fine.
Best of all, he could still hear the little girl crying. "Where are you, honey?" 
he yelled. She didn't seem to hear, just kept bawling, but that was enough. He 
went down a short hallway wallpapered in big batts of flame, gave a wall a jolt 
so hot the inferno around him seemed tepid. It went away in a puff of yellow 
incandescence.
She was sitting in about the only square yard of the whole fucking building that 
wasn't on fire, a little girl in pigtails and smoldering pj's with Yodas all 
over them. He walked up to her, knelt, and smiled.
The roof fell in.
Even the firemen gasped when they heard the thunderous series of cracks and saw 
a fresh spray of sparks shoot up through the column of smoke. Sprout screamed, 
"Daddy!" and threw herself forward.
A Puerto Rican cop in a riot helmet grabbed her arm. "Hold on, little lady," he 
said. "Your daddy'll be fine." The wet lines on his cheeks made a liar of him.
JJ Flash lay on his side with the little girl beneath him and an elephant on 
top. He moved, felt the raw ends of ribs grate against each other.
The girl was still alive, sheltered by his body. A miracle she hadn't seared her 
lungs. He looked up. There was still more building to fall on him, and while the 
flame couldn't harm him, a structural member could damn well snuff his lights. 
And there was only so long before the little girl breathed in the flames that 
were crowding around like teenyboppers at a Bon Jovi concert.
"As Archbishop Hooper said," he grunted, " `More fire' " Hugging the girl to 
him, he reared up. The flame rushed in with a joyous greedy roar. He thrust his 
arm down its throat.
It wasn't fire that almost nailed the poor son of a bitch working his futile 
hose from the end of the ladder. It was a jet of incandescent gas and vaporized 
cement and steel, bright as the sun and a couple degrees cooler. For a heartbeat 
the inferno died back to a few stray flickers.
A man flew out of the hole the jet had made. Flames wreathed his body and the 
little girl he hugged against him. They were absorbed into his body as he landed 
lightly next to the frantic family.
"Here you go, ma'am," JJ Flash said, handing the girl to her mother. "Better let 
the medics look her over before you hug her too tight."
He turned away before they could try hugging him, scanning the crowd for Sprout. 
All Mark's personae shared his overriding imperative love for her; they couldn't 
help it. Plus he just plain liked the kid.
"Madre de Dios," the Puerto Rican cop said, staring at Flash.
Kimberly Gooding reeled away. Her mind was spinning. Unraveling as it went.
And then she saw him. Standing at the end of the block, immaculate in his 
camel-hair coat. He caught her eye and nodded.
For the first time since she'd known him, St. John Latham was showing something 
like emotion. He was showing... triumph.
She knew, then, what she had been a party to. Kimberly put her hands to her 
cheeks and dug in, slowly and deliberately, until the nails drew blood from just 
beneath her eyes.
"Mr. Latham," Judge Conower asked gravely, "where is your client?"
"She has been released to the custody of a private mental-health clinic."
"And her condition?"
Latham paused just a sliver of a second. "She is in a fragile state, your 
honor."
"Indeed. Mr. Latham, Dr. Pretorius, kindly step forward."
The house was packed today, and Pretorius was expending lots of effort not to 
have hackneyed thoughts about bread and circuses. He glanced aside at Mark, who 
sat beside him wearing a lightweight buff blazer over the bandages wrapped 
around his upper body. JJ Flash or Mark A. Meadows, his ribs were cracked just 
the same. Mark only had eyes for his daughter, sitting at the table in the 
center between the opposing camps, directly facing the bench.
"This court is compelled to find that Ms. Gooding is clearly too unstable to be 
entrusted with custody of Sprout Meadows."
Pretorius caught his breath. Could it be--
"On the other hand," the judge said, turning to him, your client is in fact an 
ace-perhaps several aces, whose names have been linked to extremely risky and 
irresponsible behavior. Moreover, he seems still-and in spite of his sworn 
testimony-to be a user of dangerous drugs, if the preliminary tests conducted on 
the vials recovered from the street at the site of last night's fire are any 
indication. In fact, at the close of these proceedings, Dr. Meadows will be 
remanded to the custody of the Drug Enforcement Agency.
"With these facts in view I cannot in conscience award him custody of the girl 
either. Therefore I declare Sprout Meadows to be a ward of the state, and remand 
her to a juvenile home until arrangements can be made for a foster family."
Pretorius slammed down his cane. "This is monstrous! Have you asked the girl 
what she wants? Have you?"
"Of course not," Conower said. "We are acting on the advice of a qualified 
expert in children's welfare. You could hardly expect us to consult a minor in 
matters this important, even if the minor in question were not... special." 
Sprout leapt to her feet. "Daddy! Daddy, don't let them take rne away!"
With a wordless bellow Mark jumped onto the table. Bailiffs with sweat moons 
under their arms were on him like weasels, pulling him back down. A couple of 
men in suits stepped off from the rear wall and began making their way 
purposefully through the crowded courtroom.
Mark managed to get a hand inside his blazer. It came out with something, darted 
to his mouth.
"Stop him!" the judge screamed. "Cyanide!" Another bailiff threw his bulky body 
across the table at him. And through him, into the front row, scattering TV 
cameras and onlookers and a portable spotlight array. The two bailiffs who had 
been wrestling with Mark fell against one another and rolled back to the floor.
In Mark's place a glowing blue man stood atop the table. He wore a black hooded 
cloak; stars seemed to glow within its folds. He shot the court the finger, 
wrapped the cloak about him, and sank with all deliberation through the table 
and the floor.
Dr. Pretorius thumped the bottle of Laiphroaig down on the table and measured by 
eye how much of it he'd killed at a shot. About a quarter, he thought; about 
right. He passed the bottle across the desk to Mark.
"We fucked up," he announced as Mark's prominent Adam's apple worked up and 
down.
"No, Doc," Mark said breathlessly, wiping his lips with the back of his hand. 
"It wasn't your fault."
"Bullshit. I told you to run; I should have stuck to my guns. Now you're on the 
run without the girl ... sorry; shouldn't have reminded you."
Mark shook his head. "It's not like you did remind me," he said quietly.
Pretorius sighed. "You know what we did, Mark? We compromised. You cut your 
hair. I went against the wishes of a client because I thought it was for his own 
good. An aging hippie and an old libertarian: we sell out and for what? To screw 
the pooch."
He took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes. The door opened and lee Blue Sibyl 
came in to massage his shoulders with her blue-ice fingers.
"What will you do now, Mark?" he asked.
Mark gazed out the window at the darkness that lay over Jokertown. "I have to 
get her back," he said. "But I don't know how"
"I'll help, Mark. Anything I can do. Even if I have to go underground myself." 
He grabbed a pinch of belly. "I'm getting flabby. Spiritually as well as 
physically. Might do me good to go on the run. And in this kinder, gentler 
America, I suspect it's what I'll have to do, soon or late." But Mark said 
nothing. Just stared out the window. Somewhere out there, beyond the open wound 
of Jokertown, his daughter was crying.


You're Nobody Till Somebody Loves You
by Walton Simons
Aces High was as close to deserted as Jerry had ever seen it. Two-thirds of the 
tables were empty, and there was nobody whom Jerry recognized as a celebrity. 
There was an aura of tense quietness, almost expectancy, about the place. Hiram 
was nowhere to be seen. Luckily, it didn't affect Jerry's appetite.
Jerry had eaten the shrimp and other goodies out of his salad and was ready to 
move on to his steak. Jay Ackroyd, whom Jerry had paid off, was happily chewing 
away at his lamb, occasionally pausing to wipe a drop of gravy from the corner 
of his mouth with a silk napkin. "You're not still stuck on Veronica, are you?" 
Ackroyd asked.
"Nope. I'm giving up destructive women for Lent. Hopefully, it's a habit I won't 
get into again." Jerry sliced into his steak. It was deliciously pink and oozed 
juice. He stared at it a moment, then set down his knife and fork and took a 
large swallow of wine. "Besides, I don't care about her anymore." He'd been 
practicing the lie for weeks. "Now, about our other friend?"
"Right." Ackroyd pulled a file from his briefcase and handed it over to Jerry. 
"Here's everything I could find on Mr. David Butler. It's mostly background. 
He's rich, well schooled, good family, good future. He has a wild streak, but 
most rich kids do. Lots of clubbing, probably bisexual. But this is New York."
Jerry took the file and ipped through it. "Don't know where he is now, though?"
"Nope." Ackroyd chewed and swallowed. "You seem to specialize in people that 
disappear, don't you?"
"I guess." Jerry didn't bother to try to hide his disappointment. If he hadn't 
let Tachyon talk him into going to the police, Jerry might have nailed David 
himself. "Any hunches?"
"There's something going on at Ellis Island. Gangs of kids, some dangerous 
jokers, maybe even an ace hiding out there. They call it the `Rox.' Only 
teenagers could come up with a name like that. Probably as safe a place as any 
for a kid wanted by the law. Cops don't go out there anymore." Jay grabbed a 
waitress as she walked past. "See if Hiram will visit with us, will you? Tell 
him it's Jay. If not, well, let me know when you get off." He gave her a wink 
and slipped her a ten.
"You're acting like a man who's just been paid," Jerry said.
"I always act this way," Jay said. "You seem a little down. Better cheer up or 
I'll start telling you my knockknock jokes."
"Sorry. Normally, I'm better company than this. Must be the weather," Jerry 
said. It was partly true. The late-winter sky had been gray for days on end. 
Sunshine always made the world feel nicer. Without it, even the good things left 
a little to be desired. "Is that all?"
"Of course not. There's weeks of work in that file," Ackroyd said. "One very 
important fact that came out is that for several of the jumper' incidents, David 
Butler had a well-substantiated alibi."
"Which means?"
Ackroyd paused a second, as if waiting for Jerry to answer his own question. 
"There's more than one of them. And nobody knows how many more there might be."
"Just great," Jerry said. "That's all the world needs."
"Something else bothering you?" Ackroyd rubbed his chin. Jerry was silent. 
"Knock, knock."
"All right. Things are tense at home. I live with my brother and sister-in-law, 
you know. And Kenneth seems to resent me for spending time with his wife, even 
though he's usually too busy to pay her much attention." Jerry shrugged. "It's 
not like she's interested in me. I doubt she'd date me if I were the last man on 
Earth." .
Ackroyd sat quietly for a moment. "Hopefully, the sun will start shining again 
soon. In the meantime, you might want to consider moving into your own place. 
Might defuse the situation. just a thought."
"Right." Jerry looked away. Hiram stepped out of his office and wove his way 
through the tables toward them. His charcoal suit, as always, was exquisitely 
tailored, but the man inside looked worse for wear. There were deep lines in his 
face, especially around the eyes.
"Hiram," Jay said, "sit down with us. Have dessert and an after-dinner drink. 
We're boring the hell out of each other."
Hiram smiled weakly and looked around, his head moving in a quick, jerky manner. 
"Thank you, really, but no. There's so much to catch up on, with all the other 
business that's been going on." He paused. "And, well, it might not be a good 
idea to be seen with me now. Guilt by association, you know"
"We're not worried," Jay said. "In fact-"
There was a thunderous noise from the kitchen and fire leapt out from the 
doorway. Jerry was knocked from his chair and into the next table. His elbow 
smashed into one of the table legs, shooting pain up his arm. Smoke churned into 
the dining area.
Jerry dragged himself into a standing position. Jay and Hiram were already 
making their way toward the kitchen. Customers, those that could, were picking 
themselves up and pushing out of the restaurant. The injured were moaning or 
screaming. Jerry heard the sound of fire extinguishers from the kitchen.
"Hit the exhaust fans," Hiram directed. He pushed his way into the kitchen. Jay 
was right behind him. Jerry followed slowly, coughing from the heavy smoke. He 
walked across the restaurant and stuck his head into the kitchen. One of the 
swinging doors had been torn from its hinges. Hiram was kneeling next to 
someone, lifting their head.
"I'm sorry" Hiram said. "I'm so sorry"
Jay pulled his friend up. "Hiram, call Tachyon. Tell him we have several 
severely injured people coming his way. Do it now"
Hiram nodded and walked out of the kitchen. Jerry stepped back. He could see the 
pain and anger in Hiram's eyes. It made his self-pity over Veronica seem 
selfish. Jerry stepped into the kitchen.
"Anything I can do?" he asked Jay.
"Not unless you're a doctor." Jay pointed his finger. There was a pop. A moaning 
man vanished. There were two more pops. Jay knelt down next to the final body in 
the room and shook his head. "It's too late for this one."
"If those other people make it, it'll be because of you," Jerry said.
"More because of Tachyon," Jay said, wiping his eyes. "But you have to do as 
much as you can. There's no excuse for doing less."
"Nope," Jerry said, thinking of David. "No excuse at all."
He could have asked Kenneth to bring home David's file, but that would have 
tipped his brother about Jerry's suspicions. Besides, the file was probably in 
St. John's office. Latham, Strauss was very selective about who it hired; 
hopefully there would be some clue as to David's whereabouts. It could be a 
starting point, anyway.
The door to Latham's office had been tougher than Lieutenant King's and his 
finger bone had poked painfully out through the skin. Jerry kissed a 
salty-tasting drop of blood off his fingertip and went inside. He turned on the 
desk lamp. The fluorescent bulb crackled to life and greenish light covered the 
desk. He looked about the dimly lit office. It was oppressively neat and boring. 
No plants, no personal photographs, no clutter, nothing to give it any semblance 
of life. Jerry tried the desk drawers, but they were locked. He figured what he 
wanted would be in the file cabinet anyway, but the key to it was likely in the 
desk.
Jerry crossed the room to the file cabinet. He blew on his hands. The heat was 
turned way down and even double-paned glass let some cold air seep in. The 
drawers were locked here, too. Jerry didn't want to tear up his fingers, but it 
looked like the only way he was going to get anywhere.
He heard a noise outside and froze. He'd known this was a possibility, but had 
trusted to luck that it wouldn't happen. After a moment's hesitation he changed 
his looks to mimic Latham's. Cold and impersonal, he thought, trying to make 
everything go dead inside him. He took a deep breath, turned off the lamp, and 
headed for the door. If it was anyone but Latham, he'd be okay.
She met him at the door. She was wearing a tight blue off-the-shoulder designer 
dress. Her carefully combed hair hung past her shoulders. She smelled as 
beautiful and expensive as she looked. After an instant Jerry recognized her. 
Fantasy, or Asta Lenser, and she was definitely no dog. Much closer to Myrna 
Loy, in fact.
He interrupted the silence with a cough. "How can I help you?"
She sighed. Jerry thought he smelled wine on her breath. Her eyes were so 
dilated he couldn't tell what color they were. "Just looking for company. Rumor 
has it that you're, shall we say, more accessible to the temptations of the 
flesh these days."
Jerry tried not to act excited. Not only was he not going to get caught, he was 
likely going to get laid. Still, he had to play it cool, or she'd know he wasn't 
the genuine Latham. "That might be possible. Using my residence is out of the 
question, though."
She twined her fingers in his necktie, gracefully pirouetted, and pulled him 
toward the office door. "I love it when nasty rumors turn out to be true."
Her penthouse was huge, with high ceilings and expensive modern decor. There was 
less black and silver on a sports car lot than in her living room. She dimmed 
the lights and kicked off her shoes.
"Let's see now, counselor. Bedroom number one, two, or three for you?" Fantasy 
put a finger to her red lips for a moment. "No. Don't tell me. Bedroom number 
three. My instincts are never wrong."
"I'm sure that will be satisfactory" Jerry was having trouble maintaining his 
Latham act. He wanted to get to the sex so he wouldn't have to talk anymore.
Fantasy half walked and half danced to the bedroom doorway, then lifted her chin 
and stepped inside.
Jerry struggled out of his coat and tossed it on the nearest chair, then 
followed. She was standing next to the large brass bed, pulling her dress off 
over her head. All she had on underneath was a pair of tie-on black satin 
panties. She undid them with dramatic flair and let them drop to the floor, then 
did a slow half turn so he could see her from behind.
Jerry just stared. Her body was flawless, at least no imperfections showed up in 
the dimmed light. She was small-breasted, but he preferred that. "You're very 
admirably proportioned."
She walked over to him and began unbuttoning his shirt. "You know, if Kien finds 
out about this, we're both in for hell on earth."
"Really?" Jerry didn't know who Kien was and frankly didn't care. It would be 
Latham's problem if they were found out. Right now he was deciding what size to 
make his penis. Asta undid his belt and began slipping his pants down. He 
quickly decided on a Penthouse Forum model. She cracked a pill under his nose as 
they sat down, naked on the bed. Jerry's head jerked back. His nose stung for a 
second, then everything was fine. "Actually, Kien wouldn't do anything to you 
right now. He's too interested in your teen groupies."
Jerry figured this might have something to do with David, so he filed the 
information away for future use. She put her mouth on his. He was buzzing with 
pleasure and didn't want to do anything but fuck. She opened her mouth and 
worked her tongue over and around his. Jerry lay down and pulled her with him, 
running his hands over her soft flesh. He couldn't feel any imperfections, 
either.
Her kisses were intense and aggressive. She ran her fingers across his chest and 
abdomen, sometimes touching him delicately with the tips and sometimes digging 
in slightly with her nails. She reached down between his legs and traced the 
underside of his penis with her fingernails. In spite of its size, Jerry had no 
trouble getting it up. He ran his fingers through her pubic hair, twisting it 
lightly here and there.
She pinched the tip of his penis, almost hard enough to hurt him.
"Jesus," he said.
"Why counselor, I didn't know you were a religious man." She pulled his hand 
away and kissed it. "You have a nice, light touch, but I've got something a 
little more intimate in mind. Any objections?" Silence. "I'm ready to call my 
first witness."
Asta straddled him, facing his feet, and lowered herself onto his mouth. Her 
scent overpowered the expensive perfume she'd doubtless dabbed on her inner 
thighs. He ran his tongue up and down, separating her already moist labia. He 
decided to put his tongue into her as far as he could; given his power, that was 
all the way.
Fantasy gasped, then looked down at him. It was the most sincerely hedonistic 
expression he'd ever seen.
" I know a lawyer's greatest weapon is his mouth," she said, "but I wasn't aware 
just how dangerous it was."
"A lawyer's greatest weapon is his desire not to lose," Jerry said. Whatever 
she'd popped under his nose was kicking in, and he felt powerful and in control.
"Here's to the winners," Asta said, tossing her hair back and lowering herself 
back onto his mouth.
Jerry whipped his tongue lightly across her, then pointed it and pushed in 
again. Fantasy breathed heavily for several moments then leaned forward, taking 
him into her mouth. Pleasure spread through him. Veronica had plenty of oral 
technique, but not the enthusiasm Asta had shown with only a few strokes. Jerry 
exhaled slowly and put his tongue on autopilot. She made a muffled laugh. This 
had to be as good as it got.
He was two-thirds of the way through both The Big Sleep and his bottle of 
peppermint schnapps when he heard a knock on the door.
"Come in," he said, pausing the VCR.
Beth sat down next to him and looked disapprovingly at the bottle.
"I'm depressed, so I'm drinking," Jerry explained. "It's a time-honored 
tradition."
"What are you depressed about?"
Jerry thought a moment, then told her everything. Told her about Veronica, and 
the return of his wild-card ability, his night with Fantasy. He left out his 
suspicions about David. She'd probably just write it off as jealousy. Beth sat 
there the entire time with her hand on her chin. "You know what's funny," Jerry 
said. "The sex with Asta was the best I've ever had, maybe the best I'll ever 
have, and it just depressed me. You know why? Because it wasn't for me. It was 
for Latham and I was just a stand-in. Nobody would ever want to fuck me like 
that."
"Maybe. Maybe not." Beth shook her head. "Does it make that big a difference?"
"Hell, yes. What's the measure of success nowadays? For a man it's how much 
money you make and how many women want to ball your brains out. I'm already 
rich, so the only area I can make good is with women."
"Jesus, Jerry, you don't have to buy into that crap. You're the one who decides 
what is or isn't a useful and happy life. Don't let Madison Avenue or anyone 
else tell you."
Jerry leaned away from her. "That's easy for you to say. You're married and 
happy. You've got what you want."
"Yes, because I know what I want and I worked hard to get it. Nobody did it for 
me."
"So, I'm just lazy. That's it." Jerry turned back to the TV.
"You're not just lazy, you're an emotional six-year-old. You don't see anyone's 
feelings or needs but your own. And you'll never get along with women as long as 
they're just something you do to make yourself feel more adequate." Beth paused. 
"It makes me wonder how you feel about me."
"I'm wondering about it right now, too." Jerry turned and looked at her. He 
could see the hurt in her eyes. The line was crossed, he might as well get his 
money's worth.
"I trusted you with all my secrets, and all you can do is criticize. Why don't 
you just leave me alone. Go off and suck Kenneth's dicks"
Beth stood slowly, left the room, and closed the door quietly behind her.
"I'm sorry" Jerry said, when he was sure she couldn't possibly hear. He took 
another slug of schnapps from the bottle. Bogart wouldn't have handled it this 
way. "Jesus, on top of everything else, I'm turning into an asshole."
He unpaused the VCR. He hoped Bogey and Baby would tell him otherwise, but they 
only had eyes for each other.
Jerry carried a stack of boxes to the van. The air was cold and damp. Easter was 
just around the corner. Jerry thought of celebrating by biting the heads off 
chocolate bunnies. Misery loved company. He glanced up at the second-story 
window to Kenneth and Beth's bedroom. Beth looked down at him for a moment, then 
turned away. The finality of the gesture was crushing. Jerry felt like something 
inside him just died.
Kenneth walked out carrying a pair of suitcases. He set them carefully in the 
back of the van and closed the doors.
"This isn't really what you want to do," Kenneth said. "Cut your losses. 
Apologize to her and she'll meet you halfway. Trust me, I'm speaking from 
experience."
Jerry stared hard at Kenneth. "You know. My main reason for leaving is that both 
of you think I'm too stupid to handle my own life. That gets a little tiring 
after a while."
"Dumb, and proud of it. That's you," Kenneth said, turning away angrily. "Do 
what you have to do."
Jerry got in the van and turned the key. The engine sputtered to life. They'd be 
sorry soon enough. He'd already figured out how to make sure of that.
The early-dawn light filtered through the mist over the water. Jerry sat at the 
powerboat's wheel, trying to figure out how to start it. The gun he'd gotten 
from the Immaculate Egret was in his pocket. He'd done his best to clean it. It 
wouldn't do to have it explode in his hand. David was on Ellis Island, the Rox. 
Jerry was willing to stake his life on that. He'd head out to the island and gun 
David down, die a hero's death. There was a note in his apartment explaining 
everything. He hoped that Beth was the one to find it.
Jerry started the engine. Fumes boiled up from the boat's stern. Jerry cast off 
the lines and carefully backed out of the slip. He'd rented the boat. No point 
in buying one, since it was going to be a one-way trip. Once he was clear of the 
dock, Jerry stopped backing the engines and started moving forward. He spun the 
wheel and pushed the throttle. The eighteen-foot boat bounced out through the 
waves toward Ellis Island. Cold spray stung his face. Jerry wished he'd taken 
some Dramamine. His stomach was in less than great shape. But it usually acted 
up when he was scared. Still, facing David had to be easier than facing Beth. At 
least with David he had a chance of winning.
A tug passed by in front of him. Jerry took its wake at high speed and bounced 
out of his seat. He hit his mouth on the dash and split his lip.
"Shit," he said. "Can't I get anything to go right?" He pointed the nose of the 
craft toward Ellis Island and pushed the throttle all the way forward.
About a half mile away, his stomach knotted up and he felt his breakfast at the 
back of his throat. Jerry bent over and put one hand to his mouth. His brain 
flashed sparks.
The sky above seemed to change color, from blue to green to purple. Jerry felt 
like iron hammers were pounding his flesh. He felt a cold spasm in his gut and 
fell over, the wheel spinning out of his grasp. White noise hissed in his ears. 
He stretched his arm out toward the throttle and pulled it back, then blacked 
out.
There was a harbor patrol boat next to his when he came to. A man in a yellow 
poncho was chafing his wrists. Jerry sat up slowly, his ears ringing.
"You all right?" the man in the poncho asked.
"I've been better, but I'll live." Jerry slowly sat up and looked over his 
shoulder. He'd drifted away from Ellis Island.
"You were headed to Ellis? That place is a rat's nest now" The man shook his 
head. "Are you crazy?"
"No. Just enthusiastic." If the man caught his reference to King Kong, he didn't 
comment on it.
"Want a tow back in?"
"Yeah, thanks," Jerry said. "If you don't mind."
This had obviously been a bad idea, but hindsight was always twenty/twenty.
Jerry's instincts told him to stake out Latham's penthouse. There was no 
particular logic to it, but a good detective always trusted his guts. At least, 
that was what he'd read and seen in the movies. For once, he'd been right.
A car pulled up right before midnight and a young man got out. Jerry recognized 
him in an instant. David had an arrogance to his walk that didn't change even 
when he was being hunted. Latham met him at the door. They hugged, and then St. 
John talked while David listened and nodded. The conversation was brief. Jerry 
couldn't be sure, but he thought they actually kissed lightly before David 
trotted back down the steps to the car.
Jerry tailed David to Central Park. He knew it was dangerous to walk in the park 
at night. Even back before he'd turned into a giant ape, that was a bad idea. 
David was about twenty yards ahead of him and walking fast.
On the other side of a wooded hill was the Central Park Zoo, where he'd been the 
feature attraction for over twenty years. Maybe as a giant ape he'd have been 
able to take David with no trouble. As it was, he'd have to rely on his ability 
with his stolen gun and a little luck.
A cool wind stirred the hair on the back of his neck, tickling it. He'd made 
himself look tough by giving his facial disguise a few scars. Jerry knew he 
could die doing this, but at this point there just wasn't anything else in his 
life. If he could cash it in trying to make a positive difference in the world, 
maybe people wouldn't remember him too badly. Beth, especially.
David stepped off the path and up into the trees.
Jerry walked forward slowly, staring at the shadows for some hint of movement. 
When he reached the point where David had disappeared, Jerry paused, then moved 
quietly into the trees. He headed off the path at a right angle, putting his 
feet down carefully to avoid making much noise. An empty beer can glinted in the 
moonlight not far ahead. Jerry took a few more steps and found himself at the 
edge of a tiny clearing. He reached inside his coat to make sure the gun was 
still there. An arm caught him from behind and pushed hard against his windpipe, 
and he felt a forearm against the back of his neck. Jerry felt a hand yank the 
gun from his shoulder holster. He sucked hard at the air, but hardly any made it 
to his lungs.
"What have we here?" David asked, stepping into view. Jerry recognized him by 
his voice. There wasn't much light to see by, and his vision was blurring.
Jerry tried to gasp out an answer, but could only manage a choked hiss.
"Let's sink him in the pond," a young female voice said.
"That may not be necessary, Molly," David said. He leaned in close to Jerry. 
"We're going to let you go for a second and you're going to tell me why you were 
following me." David held up the gun. "With this, no less."
The arms came loose from either side of Jerry's neck and he fell to his knees, 
gasping. A simple lie would probably be best. Not that it would matter. "I ... 
just wanted your... money."
Several of the kids laughed. David shook his head. "You were going to rob me? 
What a piece of shit you are. You have no idea who you're dealing with, little 
man." David's voice was cold, yet he looked strangely beautiful in the pale 
light. Jerry figured it was the last face he'd ever see.
"Do him," said a husky female voice from behind. "I'll snap his neck if you 
don't want it to look suspicious." A long, quiet moment passed. "I think not," 
David said. "He truly is beneath us, and I can't see much entertainment value." 
David grabbed Jerry's face. "Look at me, thief. Remember my face. I'm going to 
be famous soon. People everywhere are going to be afraid of me. It's only your 
insignificance which saved you. Find a hole and pull it in after you. If any of 
us ever sees you again, you're dead. Understand?"
Jerry nodded. He felt sick. Maybe they were just setting him up and were going 
to kill him anyway. David popped the clip from Jerry's gun and tossed it into 
the trees, then smashed the handle of the gun into Jerry's head. Jerry collapsed 
to the ground, his forehead banging with pain.
"Here's your gun back, thief," David said.
Jerry felt it land on his back. He heard David and the others make their way off 
through the brush. He lay there panting for a moment, then wobbled into a 
sitting position and pulled a leaf from his mouth. He'd almost died. Could have. 
Maybe should have. All of a sudden the hero's death had lost its appeal. He 
picked up and holstered the gun. He staggered in the opposite direction David 
and his friends had taken. If his life were a movie, it would need a serious 
rewrite.


Sixteen Candles
by Stephen Leigh
Three blocks away from the Dime Museum, the clock tower of the Church of Christ 
the joker tolled midnight. "Happy birthday to us, happy birthday to us. Happy 
birthday, dear Oddity, happy birthday to us."
The voice was off-key and cracked. "Look at the present I brought us," it said.
A fencing mask lent a shimmering distance to the heavy .38 cupped in Oddity's 
hand. Flecks of reflected light from the Jetboy diorama ran along the barrel and 
glimmered wildly from the mask's steel mesh. The interference shattered the 
harsh brilliance like a cheap spectroscope into pale, weak colors.
Evan could look at the gun and pretend the weapon was just a fantasy, something 
seen on television. He could almost imagine someone else was lifting it.
[Sixteen years. Sixteen years of pain in this monstrosity of a body, ] Evan said 
in his interior voice.
[Evan, please don't do this.] Patty's voice. She was Sub-Dominant at the moment, 
Oddity's eternal pain dampened slightly for her. [I'm asking you to please just 
let it go. I'll take Oddity for you until John's ready. You can be Passive and 
rest.]
Evan ignored her. Far below, she could hear John the third of the trio of 
personalities who were Oddity. John was Passive at the moment, down in the 
depths of the strangely-woven mind where Oddity's agony was a faint tidal wash. 
The passive personality could hear but couldn't intrude. Passive could open the 
torrent of his thoughts to the others or shield them; the others could listen or 
not as they wished. The fact that John made no effort to conceal his feelings 
now spoke more than the thoughts themselves.
[ ... goddamn asshole can't stand the pain like me no courage at all fucking 
artistic sensibilities Patty may like it but I'm damned tired of the complaining 
it hurts all of us not just him can't he see the power we wield ... ]
[No, John,] Evan sent down to him. [I don't see power, and I don't care. I want 
to be alone. Alone. I love you both, but being locked in here-]
Evan stopped. Oddity was sobbing with the emotional undercurrents. Evan raised 
Oddity's left hand. It was mostly John's, though past the lumpy interface the 
little finger looked to be Patty's and the thumb had Evan's coffee-and-cream 
coloring. The hand resisted him-Patty, trying to shove him from Dominant and 
take the body. Evan concentrated his will. The hand came up and slipped back the 
heavy cowl of Oddity's hood. As Oddity moaned, the fingers curled painfully with 
tendons crossed and overstretched, and lifted off the fencing mask.
The feathery touch of air-conditioning on Oddity's cheeks hurt, like everything 
else. The chill felt like ice water on a broken tooth. Without the mask, the gun 
in Oddity's other hand was very present, sinister and compelling all at once. It 
smelled of oil and cordite and violence.
Three hours past closing, the Jokertown Dime Museum was silent except in 
Oddity's head, and dark except in front of the Jetboy diorama, pinned in bright 
Fresnels with colored gels. Jetboy was caught in midstruggle. Evan had done most 
of the waxwork sculpture for that exhibit, working in those few hours when he 
was Dominant and both hands were mostly his own. Though Patty and John insisted 
it was all psychological, Evan couldn't work with Patty's hands or John's. They 
didn't have the touch.
Rare moments, those, when Evan could almost ignore Oddity's slow, continuous 
transformation as bits and pieces of their three merged bodies came and went, 
when he could almost believe he was one person again.
[Alone,] Patty echoed sympathetically. [I know, Evan. We'd all like that, but it 
can't be.]
Evan opened Oddity's mouth. The lips were thin and harsh: John's. Evan placed 
the barrel of the .38 there and closed John's mouth around it. The burnished 
metal was a sharp tang against the tongue.
Evan wondered what it would feel like to pull the trigger.
"Oddity-Evan. . ."
The voice was soft and came from behind Oddity. Evan ignored it and struggled to 
curl Oddity's finger around the forefinger. It wouldn't require but a fraction 
of Oddity's enhanced strength. Just the smallest tithe of it. Just the tiniest 
movement and Evan could find oblivion. Solitude.
[Evan, I love you. No matter what, remember that. I love you; John loves you, 
too.
"Evan, I think that's my gun you have. I bought it for protection, not this."
[ ... can't even pull the trigger, can't even do the one thing he really wants 
to do ... ]
Evan gave a heaving inner sob. Oddity's mouth opened. The hand holding the gun 
dropped to the side of the massive body.
Oddity turned to face Charles Dutton, who stood in the archway of the Jetboy 
room. Evan knew what the joker was seeing: the melted-wax cheeks, the patchwork,
lumpy face that was part Evan, part Patty, part John. The skin would be moving 
like a veil of cheesecloth laid over a mass of seething maggots. The face would 
be changing even as he watched, features collapsing and melting back into the 
pasty sagging flesh. The only unity to it at all would be that each and every 
one of those mismatched, overlaid parts would be twisted and taut with the 
torture of the slow, restless transformation.
Dutton didn't even blink. But then Dutton had to face his own living 
death's-head face in the mirror every single day.
"Dutton," Oddity gated out. Even the voice was harsh and shattered, like some 
B-movie creature. "It just hurts so much. . ."
Evan could feel moisture on the ruined cheeks. The left hand (Patty's entirely, 
now), came up and brushed at it.
"I know it does," the owner of the Dime Museum said. "I know and I sympathize. 
But I don't think you really believe this is the way. May I have my weapon back, 
please." The cadaverous joker held out his hand.
Oddity looked at the gun once more. Evan hesitated, playing with the control of 
the shifting, powerful muscles. He could still bring the gun up, place the 
muzzle against Oddity's horrific, deformed temple, and do it. He could. Patty 
tried to force him to give the gun to Dutton. Evan continued to hold it, though 
it remained at Oddity's side. Dutton shrugged.
"I saw the Atlanta diorama this evening," he said. "It's excellent work, 
especially what you did with the Hartmann figure. I like the hands even more 
than the face, the way the fingers grip the podium even though Hartmann's 
ignoring the carnage behind him. They lend a tension to the entire scene."
The hand that was Patty's twitched involuntarily. An elbow tore from Oddity's 
chest, ripping muscles and prodding the front of the cloak before subsiding 
again. "They broke him," Oddity's grating, slow voice declared. "They conspired 
against him. It wasn't the senator's fault. He wanted to help. He cared, he was 
just ... fragile, and they knew it. They did what they had to do to break him."
"Who, Evan?"
"I don't know!" Oddity's muscular arm swung wide. Dutton took a half step 
backward. A blow from that hand could kill. "Barnett, maybe. That Judas Tachyon, 
certainly."
"Maybe some conspiracy of the right-wing joker haters. I don't know. But they 
brought the senator down."
The gun beat against Oddity's thigh again. Dutton watched it. "There's nothing 
but pain, Dutton," Evan continued. "Every damn joker's life is nothing but 
unrelieved, bitter blackness. Jokertown bleeds and there's nothing and no one to 
bind the wounds. I-we-hate it."
"You're one of the few who have done any good, Evan-you and Patty and John."
Oddity gave a short, ironic laugh. "Yeah. We've done a lot of good." The 
weapon's barrel glinted as Oddity started to bring it up again, then let it drop 
once more. "Is this what Patty wants, or John?"
Oddity snorted. A glob of mucus spat from one nostril onto its cheek. "John's a 
martyr. He's almost delighted that Oddity suffers, since it makes us such a 
fucking noble figure. And Patty"-Oddity's voice softened, and the mouth almost 
seemed to smile for a moment "Patty holds on to hope. Maybe Tachyon will find a 
cure in between his sabotage of the jokers he claims to love. Maybe the virus 
will go into remission. Maybe there'll be another secondary outbreak like 
Croyd's to pull us apart again."
Oddity seemed to laugh, but there was no amusement in the sound at all. The gun 
beat against the heavy cloth of Oddity's thigh.
"It's all bullshit, Dutton. You know what the trouble is? There aren't any happy 
endings in Jokertown. No happy endings at all."
Oddity shuddered. The huge, misshapen figure brought the cowl up over the face 
before bending down to retrieve the fencing mask. Oddity placed the mask over 
its face and stared at the Jetboy diorama.
"It all started here. The hero's supposed to win. What a shame. What a horrible, 
awful shame."
Oddity seemed to notice the gun once more. The hand came up, held the weapon 
before the fencing mask. "I didn't finish Hartmann's figure," Evan said.
"He can wait. I've been contacted by a source who claims to have Carnifex's 
actual fighting suit from that night. If I can buy it. .." Dutton shrugged.
"You're ghoulish, Dutton."
Dutton almost smiled. "So is the public."
"A ghoul and a cynic," Oddity said, and its voice was higher and less raspy.
The hand holding the gun trembled, then reversed its grip. "Charles..."
Dutton reached with a thin, bony hand and placed the gun in his suit pocket.
"Thanks, Patty," he said. "Where's Evan?"
"Passive," Oddity replied. "We'll keep him down there for a few days if we can. 
He's tired, Charles, very tired." Shapes humped along Oddity's back and a soft 
moan came from behind the mask. Then Oddity sighed. "All of us are tired. But 
thank you for listening and for helping."
"I didn't want to lose my artist."
Oddity gave a dry, rasping chuckle. "I know better. And I think it's time to go. 
Evan probably won't be back for a while."
Shadows flowed over the black cloak as Oddity turned to leave.
"Patty?"
Steel mesh glinted; the head looked back to Dutton but they didn't speak. Oddity 
lurched heavily away. Dutton watched until she/it/they (Dutton was never sure 
which pronoun was appropriate) closed the door of the rear entrance. The joker 
looked back at the Jetboy exhibit, brilliant in the darkness.
"They're right, you know," he told Jetboy. "You were supposed to win and you 
fucked up."
Dutton turned off the exhibit's lights with a savage swipe of his hand and went 
back to his office.
He locked the gun in the museum safe.
It was a cool night for May. Oddity's heavy, black ankle-length velvet cloak was 
comfortable. A cold front had swept the late-spring humidity and smog out to 
sea.
The air was crisp and crystalline. Patty could see the light of the Manhattan 
towers between the older, lower, and far grubbier buildings of Jokertown.
May 14, 1973, had been a gorgeous night as well, in its own way.
Patty sighed with the orgasm, her eyes closed. "Yes. . ." Evan whispered in her 
ear, and John laughed in satisfaction, lower down. When the long, shuddering 
climax had passed, Patty hugged both of them to her.
"God, you two are lovely." Then, giggling, she flung
Evan aside and bounded from the bed. Naked, she padded across the room and flung 
open the doors to the balcony. A breeze lifted her hair, fragrant with a warm, 
sweet-tasting rain that was scrubbing the city clean. Twenty floors below, New 
York spread out in noisy brilliance. Patty opened her arms wide and let the 
night and the elements take her, joyous. Droplets shimmered like crystal in her 
hair, on her skin.
"Jesus, Patty, anyone could see us..." John came up behind her, also naked, 
hugging her. Evan stroked the two of them in passing and went to the railing. 
"It's wonder ful," he said. "Who cares what they see, John. We're happy."
Evan smiled at them all. They melded into a long triple embrace, kissing and 
touching as the rain slicked their bodies. When it seemed to be time, they went 
back inside and made love again....
They'd gone to sleep that night, but they'd never awakened. Not really. It was 
Oddity who had opened its eyes on the fifteenth. Oddity, the horror. Oddity, the 
wild card's mockery of their relationship. Oddity, the torturer. Gone forever 
were a social worker named Patty, a rising black artist named Evan, and an angry 
young lawyer named John. Like a thousand jokers before them, they disappeared 
into the warrens of Jokertown.
Oddity looked at the brilliant concrete spires of Manhattan and moaned, as much 
from the memory as the physical pain.
[At least in Jokertown it's harder to feel sorry for yourself, when every day we 
see the other horrors, the ones who are helpless. Oddity's body has strength to 
match that of the aces.] John.
[Bull shit, it's all bullshit rationalization.... ] Evan screamed back, down 
below. [It hurts, it hurts.... ] [Rest,] Patty told Evan. [Rest for a few days 
while you can. We'll be needing you to take over again soon enough.] John 
scoffed. [I'm not rationalizing. It's the truth-in Jokertown Oddity can do some 
good.] John especially seemed to enjoy the role of vigilante. Oddity: protector 
of jokers, the strong right arm of Hartmann.
Hartmann's defeat still hurt. John especially throbbed with bitterness. But John 
was strong; Evan wasn't. Patty sent her thoughts down to him.
[I understand, Evan. John does, too, when he takes the time to think about it. 
We understand. We do. We love you, Evan.]
[Thank you, I love you, too, Patty. ... ] Evan could have said it only to Patty, 
but he left himself open to both of them, deliberately.
John was surly; Patty knew he'd noted Evan's intentional snub. [He has a hell of 
a way of showing his affection, doesn't he?]
[John, please ... Evan needs the rest more than us. Have some compassion.]
[Compassion, hell. He almost killed us. I'm not ready to die, Patty. I don't 
give a shit how much it hurts.] [Evan doesn't really want to die either, or he 
would have gone ahead. I couldn't have stopped him, John. This was a gesture, a 
plea. He wants to be free of it. Sixteen years is a long time to be in a room 
you can't leave. I can't blame him for feeling that way.]
[He's come to hate me, Patty.]
[No.] But that was all she said. John scoffed at her. "Y'know, if you ignore the 
fact that there's three of us, we're almost staid," John said one night as they 
lay on the couch, sipping at glasses of cabernet. "We don't swing, we don't 
sleep with other people. Within the triangle, we're as monogamous and 
conservative as some married couple in Podunk, Iowa."
"You complaining, John?" Patty teased him, running a finger along his upper 
thigh and watching what that did to his face. "You getting tired of us?"
John groaned, and they all three laughed. "No," he said. "I don't think that's 
ever going to happen."
[Okay, maybe "hate" is a little strong,] John said. [But he doesn't love me or 
like me anymore. Not for a long time. Do you, Evan?]
[Damn egoist, no, I want out, I just want to be alone.... ] Then, the barest 
echo: [John I'm sorry I'm sorry. ... ] [This might have happened anyway,] Patty 
said to both of them. [Even without Oddity. Those were different times. 
Different moralities than now.]
[Sure. But there's no divorce from Oddity, is there?] [Which is all the more 
reason we all need empathy and understanding-all of us.]
[You always were the goddamn saint, Patty] [Fuck you, John.]
[I wish I could, Patty. God, I wish I could.]
Jokertown had always been a night town.
A little past midnight, the main Jokertown streets were still busy. Darkness hid 
or amplified deformities as needed. Night was the best mask of all.
Not many nats traveled to J-town in the last several months. Tourism was 
something done in daytime, if at all. The streets had become too unfashionably 
dangerous.
At night, Jokertown was left alone like a bad dream. Still, the locals were out 
and Oddity decided to keep to the plentiful back alleys. John might find some 
small enjoyment in being public, in the respect and sometimes outright adulation 
of the jokers, but Patty didn't. Patty could forgive John's egotism-it was 
little enough balm for the pain-but she didn't need it or want it herself, 
especially not tonight.
They were a few blocks from the ruins of the Crystal Palace, in the back alley 
where Gimli's inexplicably empty skin had been found. The Oddity stared at the 
stained concrete where Tom Miller's body had lain: another death, another 
nameless violence. Patty was certain Gimli had been assassinated by a rogue ace, 
Evan thought that maybe Gimli had been an early victim of the Croyd outbreak, 
John (always the skeptic) thought maybe Hartmann had arranged it. [And good 
riddance, too,] John added in counterpoint to Patty's thought.
The Oddity shuffled on, limping because one leg seemed to be mostly Patty's and 
was attached at a decided angle to the hip. Moving it hurt like hell. The Oddity 
moaned and moved on.
"Shit, man. She's just a toy. Ain't worth wasting time on taking."
"Yeah, but that cunt'd be nice and tight, wouldn't it?" Voices stopped suddenly 
as the Oddity turned a corner into another alley. There were three of them, all 
male, none of them looking more than sixteen or seventeen and dressed in grimy 
leathers. One was prepubescent and childlike; another had a blotchy face 
peppered with angry blackhead acne. But it was the kid in the_ middle that made 
Oddity hesitate for a moment. He was tall and fair-skinned. Under the torn 
leathers and dirty Levi's he had a fighter's body, lean and hard-muscled. The 
youth was handsome in a feral way, with intense light eyes half-hidden behind 
straggling blond bangs. He was almost pretty, until they noticed the bloodshot 
eyes and the fidgety restlessness. The kid was pumped up, high and dangerous.
The joker Oddity knew as Barbie was sobbing on the ground between the three-a 
perfectly formed woman with adult features but barely two feet tall. Her face 
was caught in a perpetual smile. She saw Oddity; her mouth grinned 
incongruously, but the blue china eyes were pleading.
A quick anger raged through John; Patty could feel its red heat. "Hey!" Oddity 
shouted, their huge fists knotting. "Leave her the hell alone!"
"Shit," Pimpleface said. "You gonna let a fucking joker talk to us like that, 
David? Maybe it'd be fun, too. Big enough, ain't it? Maybe it's strong, too."
The leader-David-regarded the Oddity, hands on hips. Patty felt John trying to 
take control. [Just charge the bastards. Beat the kid's head in before he 
decides to move. ]
Patty didn't need much encouragement. Oddity moved, roaring and lumbering toward 
the trio like a banshee. The gang suddenly flashed steel. Seeing the knives, 
Oddity screamed and tore a No PARKING sign from the asphalt. They swung the pole 
like a flail, it made a deep rumble as it whipped through the air.
There was nothing subtle about their attack. The massive body plowed into the 
gang like a careening truck. The sign caught Pimpleface and slammed him back 
against a wall; whipping it around again, they held the other two back. "Get out 
of here! Now!" Oddity barked at Barbie. The doll-like joker struggled to her 
feet. She ran, taking staggering, tiny baby steps.
Oddity spun to find David, figuring that if they took out the leader, the others 
would crumple. They launched themselves at the leering kid.
They were far too late. David's body slumped as if struck. Blackhead caught him 
before he fell.
[Patty... ?]
At the same moment John and Evan felt Patty's presence ripped away from the 
Oddity. In place of her was someone cool, sinister, and smug: David. For just a 
second he was Dominant, crowing his triumph inwardly. Then the pain hit him.
Oddity screamed, loud and long and tormented. The sign and the twisted pole 
dropped from their hands, clanging on the pavement like an alarm.
John and Evan had had sixteen years to learn the neural mazes of Oddity's odd 
group mind. They knew all too well the searing agony that assaulted this 
intruder. Their shared response was almost instinctive: John sent his will 
surging to the high place they thought of as Dominant, pushing aside the 
screaming, frightened ego of David.
(Hands grasped at Oddity and a blade ripped cloth: Blackhead, attacking again 
after shaking off the first blow. Intent on the interior struggle, Oddity simply 
howled and flung the punk aside once more. The voices of reality seemed to be 
distant. "Goddamn, something's happened, man. David's screaming. Shit!"
"Fuck, it's gone wrong, it's gone wrong.."
Blackhead grabbed at their sleeve. Oddity roared and whirled; he heard a body 
fall hard on the concrete. ("The fucker's too strong! Grab David's body. Let's 
get back to the Rox.")
They knew it was wrong, John and Evan. "Patty!" they cried together, and the 
fury gave John enough mental strength to snatch the screaming David from control 
of Oddity's mind.
As John threw the jumper from the mental ramparts, Evan attempted to slide from 
Passive to Sub-Dominant. That was more difficult. David could feel himself 
losing control, and as Oddity's pain became more distant, his will began to 
assert itself once more.
For a moment both Evan's and David's minds were entirely open to each other as 
they moved, caught somewhere in the limbo between Passive and Sub-Dominant. Evan 
knew David in that instant, and he hated the mind he encountered. He could feel 
the jumper snatching at his emotions, his thoughts, his memories, and the 
feeling of violation gave Evan the power to throw David down again.
Evan screamed with David, thrusting himself past until the jumper tumbled down 
to helpless Passive. [John?]
[I've got Oddity, Evan. Just keep that bastard down in Passive. ]
Oddity looked around. "Shit. Shit!"
The kids were gone. They couldn't even hear the sound of their retreating 
footsteps. The interior battle might have taken minutes-it was impossible to 
tell.
[Patty?] Evan queried softly, hopefully, into the matrix of Oddity.
There was no answer but soft, mocking laughter from Passive.
Oddity howled in the darkness of the alley.
She didn't hurt. That was the first thing she noticed. For sixteen years there 
had been constant pain. For sixteen years there had been tearing agony as 
ligaments shifted, muscles were stretched to their limit, and bones scraped 
against each other in the cage of Oddity's flesh. She didn't hurt. And she was 
alone.
There were the six or seven kids-nats, as far as she could tell-in the filthy 
room with her, but she was alone in a single body.
The others were arguing, but she paid little attention to the words.
"Hey, man, what you're describing is the Oddity. So the Oddity took David. He's 
gone, man."
"You don't mean that, Molly."
" I don't? Well, he sure couldn't control the fucker, could he?"
"If David's gone, everything's up for grabs. And there's gonna be some people 
who like that idea. You remember that, Molly. In fact, I'll bet you're thinking 
the same, too." There was rough laughter, footsteps, a slamming door.
The voices were outside. There were no voices in Patty's head.
[Evan? John?] No answer-only silence and her own thoughts.
Patty brought her hands up to her face and marveled. "Shit, she ain't supposed 
to be able to do that." Blackhead stared at her with an expression caught 
somewhere between fear and hatred on his pimply face. Patty ignored him, 
concentrating on the hands and wiggling the fingers, turning them around to see 
the calluses.
These weren't the hands she dimly remembered from the early seventies. But 
neither were they the patchwork, marbled, knobbed things at the end of Oddity's 
arms. The fingers were long, with dirt snagged under the chewed nails and 
callused hard tips on the left hand that told her the jumper played guitar, for 
Patty had once had similar calluses.
She could smell the body's own rank sweat, and the dirty, knee-torn Levi's were 
tight at her crotch. She looked down and saw the bulge of a penis. She could 
feel the cock, part of her. She could make it twitch.
She laughed because that startled her, and her voice was deep and very male. 
"What's the matter, assholes?" she said with a bravado she didn't feel. "Weren't 
expecting me to wake up?"
She'd heard the news reports. Everything that had happened tonight added up to 
the same conclusion: The kids were jumpers. The jumpers' victims had all said 
the same thing: For the duration of the jump, they'd been in a coma. Patty 
assumed the jumper's companions had guarded the body until the jumper returned 
and transferred back. Certainly the transfer was a horrible shock to the victim; 
it was undoubtedly what drove them into unconciousness.
Patty had felt very little of it. Patty was used to existing in a strange body; 
she was familiar with the sensation of her awareness shifting place. She'd 
recovered quickly and she knew exactly where she was. Even though the journey 
here had seemed fantasy (was there really a living, gelatinous globe in which 
they rode?), she knew where they'd taken her.
Ellis Island. The Rox.
The remembrance sobered her quickly. Depending on who you listened to, the Rox 
was a refuge where jokers helped one another, or it was a gaping sore, a 
dangerous seeping wound where the worst of those touched by the wild card had 
gathered.
YOU HAVE TO DIE TO GO TO THE Box. Patty had seen that spray-painted in garish 
colors on the walls of J-town. SEND US YOUR HUDDLED MASSES-WE NEED THE FOOD. 
Slogans of the Rox had appeared by the hundreds in the past few months. From 
what she'd heard, death was common and varied here. The bodies floated ashore 
in. Jersey or were found out in the bay.
Patty no longer felt pleased. Refuge or hell, the air of the Rox smelled of 
garbage and shit and corruption. [My loves ... ] And she was alone. That was 
worst of all.
The room itself was a hovel, as bad or worse than anything she'd seen in her 
years with Welfare Services: corrugated aluminum sides that looked like they'd 
been pieced together from old awnings, a stained concrete floor, the only light 
a bare bulb hanging from a frayed extension cord. The door was a piece of warped 
plywood with a rope handle. Patty was sitting in the one piece of furniture in 
the room: a Laz-E-Boy recliner, the black Naugahyde hopelessly shredded and 
soiled with nameless stains.
Patty tried standing. Despite the dirt, despite the neglect, despite the 
halitosis and the crud in the lungs and the leftover crack buzz, this was a 
gorgeous body: sleek and powerful and lean. Still, it was an effort. Her knees 
wobbled and she sat again quickly. Patty forced herself to smile, to look as 
smug and arrogant as this guy had appeared to be.
The punks stood on either side of the exit, scowling. There were three now; the 
others seemed to have left. She recognized the one who had been with David. 
Blackhead had a huge welt on his leg and a bloody nose; a remnant of the fight 
with Oddity. His face and upper arms were scraped raw and the left side of his 
head was puffy and discolored. Standing next to him was a slight and pretty girl 
who looked to be at the most thirteen, with breasts just budding under the tank 
top she wore. The girl stared wide-eyed at Patty. Her face was round, with a 
fragile attractiveness. Blackhead had his arm around her; his fingers stroked 
her right nipple. She scowled at him and moved out from under his arm. She 
continued to gaze strangely at Patty.
The last of the group was a young woman with a scowl on her face, her arms 
akimbo over a dirty T-shirt. The way Blackhead looked at her, it was obvious he 
deferred to her. "Who the fuck are you?" she said.
Patty found that she didn't want them to know she was a woman. "Part of Oddity" 
she said at last. "You can call me ... Pat." She laughed mockingly again at 
that, hearing the strain in the sound. [Ah, Evan, too bad it wasn't you who was 
Dominant. You'd have to put up with being a honky, but at least you'd be the 
right sex. You'd be out. ]
She was almost startled that there was no answer in her head.
[Alone. God, it feels so strange.]
"Molly, we gotta tell Bloat," Blackhead said.
"Not yet. Not yet, man. Maybe David'll be back." She didn't look that pleased at 
the prospect, but she shrugged. "He knows where we went, huh? He'll come here."
Patty stood again, and this time stayed up. Blackhead blinked hard, scowling at 
Patty with his right hand fisted around a piece of iron pipe. "We shoulda 
fuckin' tied him up, Mol'. David's gonna be pissed if we have'ta fuck up his 
body."
"What makes you think David's coming back?" Patty asked. [God, such a rich 
voice. A politician would die for it. What do you think, John?] Then: [I have to 
stop this. There's no one there.] "Hey, I have two other friends in Oddity, 
assholes: Looked to me like they were in charge when you punks ran, not David."
It was a bluff. Patty had seen the battle for control raging in Oddity after the 
jump. There hadn't been anyone
Dominant; Oddity had simply been flailing wildly, out of control. The kids had 
grabbed her and run before the fight had been won one way or the other. Patty 
had no doubt John was strong enough to be Dominant quickly, but poor Evan--
She didn't know what might have happened. If David had won, then Oddity could be 
in J-town at the moment, doing things she'd rather not think about.
[There's nothing you can do about it. Just stay alive. Try to get out of here. ]
"He'll be back, and you're strain' till he does," Blackhead said nervously, 
licking his lips and looking at Molly for confirmation. The girl beside him was 
still staring, silent. "You don't know David. He gets what he wants. He's 
strong. He's got ways. And you-you're in the Rox. You're meat."
"David doesn't know what he hit in Oddity," Patty bluffed. "He may never get 
out. I rather like this body." Blackhead glanced at Molly. The other girl 
stared. "What?" Patty asked. "What's the problem?"
Molly just shrugged, but Blackhead snorted. "He's never been away for more'n a 
few hours. No one's sure what happens when you stay in someone else's body too 
long."
"Maybe Bloat'd know," Blackhead said.
Molly scoffed. "And why the hell would you think that? You think Bloat jumps?"
"He reads minds, don't he?"
Molly just scowled harder. "This ain't got nothin' to do with Bloat."
"Everything in the Rox has to do with Bloat," Blackhead insisted. The kid 
sniffed and wiped his arm, across the back of his nose. Snot mixed with the 
blood on his cheek.
Molly sighed. "All right. Maybe we should let Bloat know what's going on. Hell, 
he probably knows already. Can you handle this?"
Blackhead scowled. "Shit," he said. "Sure. Me'n Kelly'll stay here and take care 
a'things."
Kelly's intense gaze had never left Patty. Her eyes were somewhere between blue 
and gray, and very open.
"You see how she's watching you?" she whispered teasingly to Evan, giggling with 
the wine. John's fundraising party for Gregg Hartmann's first senatorial 
campaign was a noisy swirl around them. "The willowy one with too much makeup, 
over in the corner by your sculpture. She hasn't taken her eyes off you since 
she came in :"
"Jesus, Patty, you have a filthy mind. That's the Salchows' daughter. She's 
still in high school. I sold her father two paintings last month."
"I was her age once, too. That's a teenage crush if I ever saw one. I've been 
there, too. The hormones just run away with your mind. How about it, Evan? She's 
young, rich, probably willing if a bit inexperienced. White and curious about 
how it'd be with a big black stud like you. "
"Patty-"
Patty laughed and kissed Evan. The girl's face had gone almost angry as she 
turned away....
Patty gave Runt a half smile. The girl seemed startled; then slowly, behind 
Blackhead, she smiled back, almost shyly.
[Have to get out of here. Have to find John and Evan. ]
Patty knew in that moment how to escape. She hated herself for the knowledge, 
but she knew.
[You want out I know you do I can feel it and I can do it for you I have the key 
but it has to be soon I can take you to the Rox but SOON.... ]
They were standing in front of the Dime Museum. A poster was stapled inside a 
case next to the door, a garish drawing of the Syrian exhibit. A waxen Senator 
Hartmann was gesturing for the others to retreat, his jacket bloody from the 
gunshot wound. Guards with Uzis gazed at the dais where the Kahina slit the 
throat of her brother the Nur al-Allah. Braun glowed in a golden spotlight; 
Carnifex gleamed in his white fighting suit; Tachyon clutched his head and 
crumpled on the ground.
John wasn't sure how they'd ended up there. For most of the last hour, they'd 
reeled through the streets of J-town blindly, trying to find the punks and 
slowly realizing that the quest was useless.
Their fists clenched and unclenched-the right hand Evan's and the left John's. 
There wasn't much of Patty surfaced in Oddity at all. It seemed that her body 
had become sluggish since the loss of her presence.
[We've got to go get her, John. David says they'd've taken her to the Rox. He 
says we have to find Patty quickly. He's afraid. I can feel it. He's scared of 
what might happen if he's out of his own body for too long. Patty might be 
trapped.]
[I don't hear him, Evan. We smashed him down to Passive. Stuck him in the 
basement and locked the door. We can't hear the fucker at all.]
[Don't tell him Evan I can get you out I can give you the release you want just 
help me out of here quick I know you I know you.. . . ]
David broadcast the plea desperately, constantly. Evan knew the truth. John was 
tiring already; Evan knew that his own will could not hold David down alone if 
John fell from Dominant. The jumper knew that, too. Since then, Evan had heard 
David's voice. Constantly. At Sub-Dominant, Oddity's eternal purgatory sluiced 
over Evan's soul, and he could hear the words promising a salvation.
[You want out I know you.... ] Yes, David knew Evan's weaknesses. He knew too 
well how Evan kept listening and wondering.
A violent shudder racked their body; they could see the right arm shorten and 
change color as they watched. The torment was worse than either John or Evan 
remembered, as if they had also taken Patty's share of the agony. The fingers 
curled with pain, the nails digging into the palm. When the fists opened again, 
the hand was a piebald mixture of John and Evan.
[How long can you stay Dominant?] Evan gasped with the transformation. [John, 
the only thing that's kept any of us sane was being able to go down to Passive 
and rest. Even Sub-Dominant hurts too much. John ... please ... ]
[I'll jump someone else someone you'll loathe some- one neither you or John can 
stomach at all and you'll be left in the body with them without Patty without 
any chance of ever getting out at all unless you help me NOW ...]
[Patty's in the Rox,] Evan said. [In the Rox. My God-]
[We haven't any plan. We don't know what we're running into or how to handle it 
once we do find her.] [Let's just get there. Now, John. Before it's too late.] 
Oddity moaned. The pain redoubled as the body shifted again. Oddity screamed 
this time, grasping the fire hydrant in front of the museum and wrenching upward 
as if they could drive away the torture with violence. The top of the hydrant 
gave way under their assault with a metallic shriek. Water cannoned in a 
gushing, two-story-high fountain, soaking their black cloak and turning the 
gutters into dark, trash-filled rapids. Water cascaded over the front of the 
Dime Museum.
Underneath, David laughed and whispered to Evan. [When we get there I can do it 
I can give you the body you want whatever you want just help me.... ]
"What's it feel like to be a man?"
"Huh?"
Patty kissed Evan and pulled him deeper into her with her hands, wrapping her 
legs around his back. Next to them, John snored, asleep.
"You know," she insisted, giggling. "To penetrate instead of being penetrated. 
To feel a woman's heat around your cock. To ejaculate. To have one short 
blinding spasm instead of a long extended one!"
"Is that what you're thinking about?" Evan pretended to be offended and Patty 
slapped his buttocks, rolling him over until she straddled him. She traced the 
tight black curls of hair on his dark chest. "So you want to be a man, eh, 
virile and masterful."
"To surrender my brain to a penis," she retorted. "C'mon, Evan, haven't you ever 
wondered what it feels like to be a woman?" Evan tried to shrug and she shook 
her head at him. "Come on now. Admit it!"
"Okay," he said. "Maybe a little. But there's no way to ever know, is there?"
But there was, now.
Moving an arm was ecstasy. Feeling the stubble on her cheek was glory The touch 
of jeans along her legs was a caress. The tepid beer that Blackhead gave her was 
a gastronomical delight. Despite all her worries about John and Evan, despite 
her fear of the Rox, Patty couldn't help but marvel at the wonder of being in 
this body. She'd forgotten how good it was. It didn't matter that she was male 
or that she very likely had a crack addiction or worse-she was free, able to 
walk alone and talk alone and not feel anyone else inside her.
[This body's wanted for questioning in New York, and that may not be the worst 
of it. What if he's got AIDS, what if the wild card has done other hidden things 
to him or if he's syphilitic or has cancer? What about sex? What if after a few 
experiments you find that you're still attracted only to males? What about John 
and Evan, trapped in Oddity with that punk?]
But the objections didn't totally convince. She was here, in David's teenage 
body, and Patty had to admit that she enjoyed the sensation. She drank again, 
savoring the coolness, the odor of the hops, the yeasty taste.
Kelly watched her, always, while Blackhead worried near the door.
"Why do you keep staring?" Patty asked, and the rich, deep voice was a joy.
Blackhead answered for her. "Kelly? She's new. She's got the hots for David but 
he ain't laid her. She'd love to go down on him, to have him spread her legs-"
Kelly whirled around, stabbing a forefinger at Blackhead. "You shut up, hear? 
You're just mad 'cause I won't do you."
Blackhead laughed. "Shit," he told Kelly. "That's crap. You'd sure lay down and 
spread 'em with a smile to get initiated. You ain't really part of us until you 
can jump, and you can't jump until you get laid by Prime, and that might not be 
for a while, since he don't get out here that often. So don't give me that shy 
virgin shit. Maybe it don't have to be Prime, Kelly. And you're wasting your 
time waiting for David. He can fuck anyone he wants. He don't need you. I'd do 
just fine."
"I want more than a pencil," Kelly spat. She huddled on the floor near Patty, 
arms around knees while Blackhead chortled near the entrance to the ramshackle 
room. "Son of a bitch," she muttered. Her face was flushed from anger and 
embarrassment.
"I was her age once .... I've been there too ."
"I'm sorry" Patty said softly to Kelly, and meant it. The girl thanked Patty 
with her eyes, and Patty had to smile again. But Blackhead's words had caused 
other reactions, too. "What's it feel like to be a man?" she'd asked Evan long 
ago. Now she knew part of it. There was a heat, and her jeans were suddenly 
tighter in the crotch. "You're very pretty" she said softly so that only Kelly 
could hear. Though the words sounded strange and awkward, Kelly gave a half 
smile at them.
Patty hated the rest of what she was going to do. "Kelly, I can give you David, 
if that's what you want." She whispered it so that Blackhead couldn't hear the 
words.
"You ain't David," she answered, but without anger. "No," Patty admitted. "But 
maybe when David comes back, his body will remember...."
"You were ugly. I saw the Oddity once in Jokertown. No one would go to bed with 
you the way you were."
"You're a gorgeous woman, Patricia," John said. It was the anniversary of the 
first time they'd made love as a trio. Their 'birthday,' they'd jokingly called 
it. Evan had made a cake. John decorated the apartment with balloons and crepe 
paper. They'd stuck a silly hat on her head and a champagne glass in her hand 
when she walked in. "A wonderful person. I can't imagine loving anyone else, and 
I know Evan feels the same way. We're both very lucky." Patty nodded, feeling 
the tears in her eyes and fighting them back. She could feel Kelly's gaze on 
her. "No," Patty said. "Not for a long time. A long time." Kelly's hand reached 
out and touched Patty/David's. There was a softness in her gaze, a sympathy that 
made Patty like Kelly despite the hard exterior she tried to maintain. She 
smiled at Patty and Patty smiled back, feeling the strangeness of David's face.
"Okay," Kelly whispered. "Maybe..."
Kelly rose to her feet and went over to the makeshift door of the hut. She spoke 
to Blackhead in an intense whisper. "I ain't leavin'," Blackhead said loudly.
"Where the hell is he gonna go? This is the Rox, asshole. You can stay outside 
if you want."
"Maybe I'll stay and watch, huh?"
"You can diddle yourself outside." Kelly shoved Blackhead, opening the door.
Blackhead snorted. He gestured with the pipe toward Patty. "I'll be right there. 
You stick your head out and I'll take it off." He looked from Patty to Kelly, 
laughed again, and left.
Kelly didn't look at her for a long time. She stayed by the piece of plywood 
that was the door, facing away. Then she seemed to sigh.
It was Patty who came to her, by the door. She opened her arms and hugged Kelly. 
It felt strange to be so much taller. Patty was very aware of Kelly, of the 
breasts pressing against David's chest, of the smell of her hair, of the way her 
hips pressed against her body. Kelly's hands came around Patty's head and 
brought it down to her.
They kissed, softly and tentatively, then Kelly's mouth opened. [Very strange 
... ] Patty felt her [his] body responding. She leaned into Kelly, pulling her 
tight. Close. She could feel the unbidden erection aching to be loosed. [Ah, 
Evan, so very, very strange ... ]
"So urgent," she breathed. "Impatient."
"What?" Kelly asked.
"Nothing." She hugged Runt again.
There was an insistence to her arousal that differed from anything she'd known 
before. Maybe it was the years since she'd experienced desire, maybe she'd just 
forgotten, but this seemed more volatile and dangerous. It wasn't Kelly-Patty 
had never been particularly sexually attracted to women despite some minor 
experimentation. Patty shuddered as she ended the embrace, as she raised her 
head from Kelly's lips and held the girl at arm's length. She slipped the shirt 
over Kelly's head, unbuckled the jeans. Kelly was attractive, Patty thought 
clinically. Very pretty in a young way. Patty stroked her tentatively, then with 
more passion, her hands going from Kelly's breasts to the fleece between her 
legs as Kelly closed her eyes.
They sank together to the floor. Kelly's legs wrapped around Patty, her hands 
sought to unzip her jeans and pull out that odd hardness throbbing there.
Holding back was far, far more difficult than Patty had imagined it would be. 
Runt's lips and hand were insistent; she seemed to feel the heat coming from 
both of them. Patty wanted to do this, wanted to plunge her erection into 
Kelly's moist heat ....
"I'm sorry" she whispered. Rising up, Patty drove David's fist in a vicious cut 
across her chin. There was a lot of wiry strength in her new body. Her fist 
snapped against Kelly's jaw.
Kelly grunted; her eyes closed as blood drooled over cut lips. Her legs and arms 
went limp around Patty. Patty got to her feet. She called to Blackhead, outside 
the door. "Hey, man! How about joining us?"
The door opened; Blackhead stuck his head in and saw Kelly's naked body 
spread-eagled on the floor. He gaped.
Patty hit the kid in the back of the head with doubled, fisted hands. Blackhead 
staggered and doubled over, and Patty brought her knee up into his face. She 
heard the nose break.
As Blackhead fell, Patty pulled on the rope handle and flung open the door.
Patty darted through the opening and into the darkness of the Rox.
Ellis Island was a quarter mile from the shipyards of the Jersey shore and a 
little over a mile from Battery Park at the southern tip of Manhattan Island.
But you couldn't get to Ellis from either of those places. Certainly some could 
(and had) tried, but they were invariably curious nats, and nats who went to the 
Rox were treated rudely, violently, and sometimes fatally. The authorities had 
passed control of Ellis like a legal hot potato from the National Park Service, 
to the New Jersey authorities, to the New York City police, who had given up any 
pretext of actual control of the island months ago.
Still, patrol boats vigilantly intercepted anyone trying to swim or boat to the 
Rox. The authorities might not be able to shut down the Rox itself, but they 
could and would control traffic to and from the island.
Those who went to the Rox knew that to get there safely you had to see Charon, 
and Charon could only be found on the East River, where the edge of Jokertown 
touched water.
Oddity could hear the waves slapping the pilings under the rotting wharf. They'd 
placed a kerosene lantern at the end of the dock-it hissed at their feet, the 
mesh filament gleaming erratically in the breeze off the river.
Inside, David yammered at Evan, shielding his mindvoice from John.
[Any fuckin' body you want man any fuckin' one just point at it and it's yours 
free at last just help me when we get to the Rox fast fast fast.... ]
[I don't see anything, ] John's usually powerful Dominant voice was weak, but it 
still drowned out the jumper's constant wheedling. [Maybe Dutton was wrong, 
Evan.]
[No not wrong Charon will come take us to the Rox that's where they'd've taken 
her. ... ] David whispered it to Evan alone.
[Charon will be here,] Evan told John. [Be patient.] Even as he said it, he knew 
how impossible it was. One way or another, this had to be resolved soon. Being 
Dominant was exhausting and John had only gone down to Passive the day before. 
It had been hard enough for Evan to move to Sub-Dominant with no rest. John 
wouldn't be able to hold on much longer. When that time came, Evan would have to 
take Dominant; if he couldn't or wouldn't hold it, David would. If that 
happened, they'd lost everything.
John knew it, too. His anger lashed at Evan.
[How can we be patient? God knows what's happened to Patty. If they've hurt her, 
I swear I'll kill every last one of them. ]
[They haven't hurt her, John. She's in David's bodythey'll be careful with it.] 
Then: [John, what if she wants to STAY?]
John wouldn't even consider that. Evan could hear mental doors slamming. [No. 
Patty wouldn't want that.] A boot scraped wood, a breath hushed in darkness. 
Oddity turned sharply, their heavy cloak swirling. Four youths came from behind 
a stack of crates. Jumpers. One, with a shock of orange-red hair, held an 
aluminum baseball bat. Another swung a chain softly at his side. The other two 
had knives-switchblades. "What the hell do you want?" Oddity growled.
"David?" Chains asked.
Oddity gave a laugh that was mostly grunt. "Dave's not here," the harsh voice 
said. The bitter laugh sounded again. "So fuck off before you get hurt."
Chains looked at Red, who shrugged. "David's been in there three, four hours," 
Chains said.
"Hell, that's a long time, ain't it?" Red grinned. He was missing teeth. "Almost 
as bad as jumping a bar of soap, huh?" He laughed.
Down in Passive, David struggled. [I wonder if Molly sent them or if they came 
on their own she might like me gone forever I'll fucking kill her if she did.... 
]
"Hey, man, can David hear me?" Red asked Oddity. He slapped the end of the bat 
against his open palm. ""y? 
"'Cause I thought I should tell him a few things. Things he'd like to know"
"So talk."
Red grinned. "Tell David there ain't no reason to go to the Rox, man. We're 
gonna take care of his body." The words sent a shock through Oddity, stunning 
them all. For a moment they felt nothing. "Now we came to take care of the rest, 
huh? Just to make sure."
With that, Red took a leaping step forward, swinging the bat like an outfielder 
swinging for the fences.
He hit the Oddity square in the side of the head. Oddity staggered and nearly 
fell. The pain was a burning lance. Oddity screamed, their throat tearing with 
the sound. John's control tottered, but neither Evan nor David could take 
advantage. Then John's fury took hold fully. As Red brought the bat back for the 
next blow and the other three closed in, Oddity forced himself up. A hand caught 
the bat as it began the downswing; a savage, powerful twist wrenched it from 
Red's hands-Red's wrist snapped and the kid howled.
Oddity swung now, the bat making an audible and sinister whuff through air. Only 
the fact that Red had crumpled to the ground saved the kid. Chains whipped his 
steel links in a dangerous arc; Oddity caught them and pulled, catapulting 
Chains into the pile of crates. The jumper didn't move again.
The remaining two had already fled. Red, cradling his hand to his waist, was 
limping after them. Oddity screamed again and flung the bat after Red. It 
clattered into darkness.
[They've killed her! They've killed Pattty!] John shouted inside, raving.
[No!] Evan shouted back. [No! I don't believe that. It had to be a bluff, a 
deception. John, please!]
A soft splash cut off any further discussion. A glowing apparition came up from 
the filthy water around the dock, garlanded with a bald tire, two green Hefty 
bags, and a used Pamper. Except for the garbage snagged around the body, it was 
almost pretty. The thing was a gelatinous hollow sphere eight feet in diameter, 
nearly transparent except for translucent bands of muscle. Ribbons of light 
rippled along jellyfish flesh, sparking soft green, yellow, and blue. Near the 
top of it were two very human eyes and a mouth. It bobbed in the slight swell.
Charon.
"Fee?" it croaked.
[Evan?] John's rage had not abated. It had merely gone cold and dangerous.
[Must find out ... ] David seemed stunned, bewildered. Frightened.
[All right, John,] Evan told him. [We won't know anything unless we go.]
Oddity picked up two shopping bags next to the lantern. Approaching Charon, they 
showed the joker that they were full of groceries and canned goods. "Fine," 
Charon said. "Put them inside."
Oddity shoved the bags into the slimy flesh between the muscle. The flesh was 
cold and wet; it yielded under their pressure, stretching until suddenly the 
skin parted and they could place the bags on the gellid "floor" of Charon. 
Underneath the flattened bottom of the joker, they could see hundreds of 
wriggling cilia.
"You want to go to the Rox? You're certain?" Charon asked.
"Yes."
"Then get in. " Charon paused. It snorted air from a blowhole atop the sphere 
and it bobbed lower in the water. "You've got David with you."
"How did you know that?" Oddity grunted.
"I can feel the child's black, wretched soul. Get in." Charon would say nothing 
else.
Oddity stepped forward, pushing their way into Charon's body and hating the feel 
of the clinging, damp flesh. They sat down inside the joker as it began to sink 
into the waters of the East River. On the muddy, garbage-strewn bottom, in the 
dim light of the creature, they could see the cilia stirring dark clouds as 
Charon began the long crawl.
Hidden and silent, they moved south and west into the bay toward Ellis Island 
and the Rox.
Movement was exhilaration. The running... Ah, the running...
The wind, the pounding in the lungs and chest, the racing heartbeat the joy was 
almost enough to make her forget a groggy Blackhead shouting alarm behind her 
and to erase the sight of the hovels of the Rox.
Almost.
In the days before Oddity, Patty had devoured Victorian novels with their London 
slums, the poor waifs, and the quirky, grimy sense of realism. The Rox had the 
same Dickensian sense of gloom, the same chiaroscuro shades, but here the 
reality was harsher-edged. Makeshift dwellings clung like fungus to and between 
the decaying buildings of Ellis island; the lanes between them were muddy, 
rutted, and filthy under Patty's feet.
Dickens in hell.
In the early morning the lanes were mostly empty. The few inhabitants she 
glimpsed told her that the Rox was Jokertown distilled, Jokertown boiled down to 
the raw, bitter dregs. The jokers Patty saw here were the most deformed, the 
ones just hanging on the edge of what might be called human.
"Where you gonna go, Pat? There ain't no place to hide." Blackhead and Kelly 
shouted behind her, their voices echoing between the shacks. They hadn't stayed 
down very long at all. [Your own fault. They're just kids; you didn't want to 
hurt them too badly.... ] Patty could hear the jumpers' pursuit. She turned left 
blindly, seeing the lights of Manhattan and the gleam of water through two 
drunken-angled buildings. A few lights were coming on around Patty as Blackhead 
and Kelly continued to fling taunts and warnings at her.
Turning the corner, she blundered into someone whose skin felt like soaked 
velvet. She caught a glimpse of yellow, faceted eyes. "Sorry" she said, and 
thrust herself away, her hands dripping with whatever oozed from that skin. Two 
heads leaned curiously from a nearby window, joined at the throat into one bull 
neck. Something without legs slithered across the lane in front of her, leaving 
behind a scent of lavender that suddenly turned sour and bitter. A voice roared 
from the darkness between two buildings, but the words were incomprehensible, 
hopelessly slurred.
A hand caught at her from behind and Patty screamed. The arm to which the hand 
was attached stretched like taffy, the hand-clawed like a dog's, but undeniably 
human still clutching her biceps. The arm stretched taut and as thin as a 
pencil, turning her; then the hand let go and she spun and almost fell from the 
shock of release.
Patty didn't look back to see what or who had tried to stop her. She kept 
running.
She'd been to Ellis, years ago. She remembered a U-shaped, tiny island, with 
docks along the central waterway. The administration building dominated one side 
of the island; the buildings used for holding detained aliens filled the other. 
Patty could see the administration building on the far side. She could smell the 
bay. David's body was beginning to pant from the exertion now, but she seemed to 
have outdistanced the others.
She broke into the open, looking for a rowboat, a dinghy, anything. If she had 
to, she'd try swimming-she could swim, and this body was stronger than her own 
had been. Manhattan and New Jersey loomed achingly close.
"Bloat says to ask what good it will do you to be captured by the police 
patrols, Patty"
Patty stopped. A figure had stepped out between her and the bay. She squinted at 
it. It looked like a walking, man-sized roach. There were two others with him; 
jokers, armed with what looked like a shotgun and a small-caliber hunting rifle. 
The roach-man held up a cheap plastic walkie-talkie. "Bloat sent me to get you."
From the shadows of the buildings, Blackhead and Kelly came panting out. "Hey-" 
Blackhead shouted. Patty started to run. There was room. Maybe the insectlike 
joker would be unable to move quickly. Maybe the jokers with the guns might 
miss. Maybe she could dive into the water and be gone.
Maybe.
The roach's radio crackled. "Bloat says that the water's still very cold this 
time of year. You'll cramp up and drown before you get halfway there. He says he 
has a solution for you."
Blackhead and Kelly were very close. She had to move now.
"Bloat doesn't hurt jokers, Patty. He says to remember that you asked Evan not 
to waste his life." The roach's voice was almost a sigh, laced with a strange 
sadness.
The words were a slash, a mortal wound. Patty's intake of breath was half sob at 
the memory. And then it was too late. Blackhead grabbed her arm roughly; Kelly, 
dressed only in her jeans, blocked Patty's path, her eyes accusing, hurt, and 
cold.
"This is a jumper problem, Kafka," Blackhead said gruffly to the roach-man. The 
two jokers with Kafka stepped forward threateningly, but Kafka waved them back.
"Not anymore," Kafka answered, softly and almost shyly. "Bloat's seeing her. You 
want to continue to live on the Rox? Then think about what you want to do here. 
You're renters; you're here only because you pay Bloat for the privilege."
"We don't take orders from Bloat," the jumper blustered.
Kafka just waited. Blackhead's hand dropped to his side.
What looked like a smile went across the inhuman face under the carapace. "Good. 
We really don't need this unpleasantness. Please ... follow me," Kafka said. The 
joker guards took up escort positions around Patty and the others. Kafka nodded. 
Scuttling ahead of them with a rustling sound, he led them to the administration 
building. And Bloat.
THE ROX CAN'T SINK; BLOAT FLOATS. THE GREAT WALL OF BLOAT. Patty'd seen those 
graffiti, too.
Patty's first thought was that Bloat resembled nothing more than a mountain of 
filthy, uncooked bread dough into which some irreverent child had stuck 
toothpicks. Bloat filled the vast foyer of the administration building. 
Juryrigged steel supports jutted through the sagging floor alongside him; 
concrete pipes stabbed into that monstrous pile of flesh like gigantic IVs. The 
size of him was almost too much to comprehend; his shapeless flanks receded into 
darkness and back corridors. His head was a wart nearly lost on the massive 
body. The shoulder and arms were almost vestigial, stick thin and too short, 
overwhelmed in the rolling hills of flesh. Bloat could not move, could not be 
moved.
And the stench. It was as if Patty had fallen headfirst into a midden. She 
gagged.
Bloat's eyes were black and amused.
"A mountain of uncooked dough. . ." he said. His voice was a thin, prepubescent 
squeak and the words tumbled out in a rush. His statement startled her. "I 
suppose that's kinder than most, Patty. But then you always considered yourself 
an understanding woman."
"You mean this one's a fuckin' cunt?" Blackhead guffawed behind her. "Hey, 
Kelly, you almost lost your cherry to a chick." Kafka motioned. One of the joker 
guards hit Blackhead swiftly and casually in the stomach with the butt of his 
shotgun. Blackhead groaned and threw up noisily on the tiIe floor.
"You should be quiet when the Governor's talking," Kafka said gently.
Blackhead spat. "Hey, fuck you, Roach."
Kafka looked at Bloat, who gestured. The guard hit Blackhead again. The youth 
went to his knees in the puddle of his vomit.
Bloat watched the violence greedily. His ludicrously small hands clenched and 
twitched and he smiled.
"Yes, I know he's just a child, but he's a vicious, dangerous one," Bloat said, 
and Patty's intake of breath was audible, for Bloat had once again spoken her 
thoughts. "For that matter, he's not much younger than me."
Bloat didn't stop talking, didn't stop to take a breath. His monologue rolled on 
like a freight train without brakes. "There are those who need reminding who 
controls things here. The Rox is still too anarchic. There's too little 
direction, too little real leadership. We have potential here, nearly unlimited 
potential and real power. David's group is just one example, even if they're 
wild and untamed. Still, I've been here less than a year."
The lecture spewed nonstop in Bloat's high voice. He spoke quickly, loudly, 
giving Patty almost no chance to interrupt the torrent of words.
"What-"
"Do I want from you?" Bloat interrupted, finishing the thought for her. "That's 
very simple. Oddity. I want the Oddity."
"I don't know where Oddity is."
Bloat's eyes closed. "I do. They're very close. They're coming here now" The 
eyes opened again and he smiled at Patty. "Such a childish image that puts in 
your head," he said, the words rushing past pasty lips. "The Noble Rescue. The 
Happy Ending. But you haven't thought past that, have you? You haven't thought 
about what happens then. I have. A strength like the Oddity's could be useful. 
Not essential, mind you, but I could utilize it. The Oddity has been a friend to 
Jokertown for years. I appreciate that; it makes us siblings."
"I doubt it."
He nodded, more to her thoughts than her words. "In the Rox, jokers try to help 
jokers. We do what's best for those the wild card has nearly destroyed."
"No matter who it hurts."
Bloat grimaced. "If nats or aces get hurt, I don't care. Fuck them. If that's 
what it takes, I'll even encourage it. I have my own dreams, dreams of the Rox 
expanding. We've only this little island, twenty-seven lousy acres built on 
abandoned ship ballast that's filling up quickly. There's a bigger island I'd 
like to claim."
Bloat took a breath, and Patty plunged into the brief space. "New York? That's 
impossible."
"Not impossible. Not at all. And spilling nat blood now will save a lot of joker 
blood later."
Patty saw the attendants listening attentively. Alongside her, Kafka was rapt.
Bloat continued. "The reprisals will be brutal, in any case. I have my dream 
every night, Patty. The dream tells me that the nats are destined to taste the 
fruits of their own hatred and bigotry. To fulfill that dream, I need more than 
the jokers and ragtag gangs. We already have a few renegade aces and jokers with 
useful powers in residence. We can use more. You have some sympathy with our 
cause, even if you don't agree with my tactics."
He wouldn't let her speak. The diatribe poured out from him, gasping. "Oh, yes, 
Patty, I hear your thoughts. `The Oddity is different.' You're essentially 
lawful-you helped Hartmann, after all. You think that no one would want to 
endure the pain of being the Oddity"
Bloat grinned humorlessly. "They don't have to. David, the one whose body you're 
holding at the moment, our David and his jumpers can transfer people in and out, 
can't he?"
"Then why haven't you done it? Why haven't you left that." Patty gestured at the 
helpless, endless bulk behind him.
The head, so tiny against the body, wrinkled in a grimace. He didn't have to 
speak for Patty to know that he'd tried it, that it hadn't been successful. 
Bloat's face suffused with remembered anger. When he spoke, his voice was 
sharp-edged. "I already know that one new person can be in Oddity and the body 
still functions. Perhaps two can be gone, or even all three. Perhaps not. 
Perhaps at least one of the original components must always be in Oddity's mind. 
I don't know. But I will find out. I'll find out in any way I have to."
[John, Evan, what do I do now?] The silence inside her head was mocking and 
Patty felt frightened and very alone. The isolation hurt more than anything she 
remembered from Oddity.
Bloat had paused. In the silence, a soft and prolonged squilching sound 
reverberated across the lobby, like someone rolling across a half-filled water 
bed. Gelid, dark masses erupted from pores all along Bloat's body, which rippled 
around the large pipes impaling him. The black goo rolled, thickened, and then 
dropped from the slope of Bloat's flanks, leaving behind umber smears. The 
clumps piled around Bloat, and Patty saw that the tiles around the huge joker 
were hopelessly stained.
The horrid stench hit her a second later: the odor of concentrated raw sewage. 
Patty nearly gagged; around her, Kafka and the others struggled to remain stoic. 
Joker attendants wearing masks came from an alcove and scurried about removing 
the filth, shoveling it up and placing it in carts. Others toweled Bloat's side.
"They call it bloatblack," he told Patty, answering the question in her mind. "A 
body this large requires a corresponding amount of intake. The wild card has 
made it easier-I can digest anything organic. Anything at all. Kafka has made it 
simple; these pipes connect directly to the Rox's sewer system. But every body, 
no matter how efficient, has to excrete waste material."
Patty could not keep her thoughts hidden.
"You're disgusted," he said in his choirboy's tenor. "Don't be. It's what the 
wild card gave me. Is it my fault that this body needs so much, that I must take 
in everyone else's shit and spew it out again?" The voice had gone strident. He 
looked at Patty. "Yes. I'm trapped, trapped the way you were trapped in the 
Oddity. And I don't need your fucking sympathy, you hear! I'll stuff it back 
down your fucking throat!"
Patty choked and forced the bile back down. She lifted her chin defiantly to the 
joker. "We won't run Oddity for you. Not me, not John or Evan. Not for what you 
want it for."
"We'll see, won't we? Maybe we don't need any of you. Serve, or be served," 
Bloat commented, and suddenly giggled.
" I won't do it," Patty said flatly. "None of us would." Again Bloat's lids 
flickered down over the satin pupils. "David's the key, not you. He's only 
interested in his own ego, but I can convince him. From what I sense of John, he 
might enjoy life on top for once and kicking some nat ass. Evan ...Well, maybe 
your friends will be interested. After all, David and his people supply 
rapture."
"I don't know...."
"Show her," Bloat said, gesturing to one of the joker guards. He came forward; 
on the doglike face, Patty could see that the lips, gums, and nostrils were 
stained blue. The joker took out a small penknife. He snapped open the blade and 
Patty took an involuntary step backward. The joker ignored her, however. Holding 
out his left arm, he plunged the blade into his forearm to the hilt and as 
quickly wrenched it out again. Blood pulsed sluggishly from the deep wound.
The joker grinned. He leaned his head back and laughed.
Patty gasped.
"Rapture makes everything feel good," Bloat was saying as she stared at the 
joker. "You could cut your own hand off and it would feel like the most 
wonderful orgasm. Every sensation is transmuted into bliss, at least for a 
while. With long-term use, unfortunately, it finally dulls the senses 
completely, until it is hard to feel anything at all, but that's hardly a 
problem for a joker, is it? Imagine Oddity's pain transformed into a nearly 
sexual pleasure, and then, slowly, slowly, deadened so you can't feel it at all. 
Would that be something you might like, or if not you, John or Evan?"
Bloat laughed and smiled grimly at the expression on Patty's face. "Yes, you're 
thinking it, too. Evan wants out, and I can offer him freedom one way or the 
other. Are you so sure now, Patty? No, I thought not."
[Evan ... ]
"You're terrified, aren't you, Patty? You hate the separation from your lovers. 
You listen and there's no one there. But you enjoy being alone, don't you? You 
wonder if you could stand being in Oddity once again. You wonder if you 
shouldn't do all you can to stay in David's body. Well, I tell you, you cant. I 
need David. But I'm not evil, Patty. I don't intend you harm at all. In fact, 
I've a gift for you. Kafka?"
Kafka nodded. Rustling, he scurried into an adjoining room and came back pushing 
a wheelchair. Seated in the chair was a teenager, dark-haired and rather pretty: 
Her eyes were open, but when Patty looked at her, it was like looking into the 
face of a dead girl. There was nothing behind her eyes, nothing at all. The body 
breathed, but whoever had once inhabited that shell was gone. Blackhead sniffed 
behind Patty; Runt gave a cry of recognition.
"I've been saving this," Bloat said. "The girl jumped a polar bear, which turned 
out to be an animated bar of soap. Unfortunate. But it has left us with an empty 
body."
Patty glanced at the body, at Bloat. She tried again to blank her thoughts, to 
make her mind as empty as the girl in front of her so Bloat couldn't steal her 
thoughts, but Bloat chuckled. [Evan, John ... I'm sorry, but ... ]
"It is tempting, isn't it? Our jumpers could do it for you. Presto! There you 
are, a woman again. By yourself. And young, too. You wouldn't be so old."
"I'm not old. I'm only forty."
Bloat chuckled. "So easily offended. Think about it, Patty. We can do it right 
now. I help you; you help me. Think about it."
Outside the milky, translucent body of Charon, the green depths of the bay were 
revealed. [John, those are bones out there! Dead people ... ] Down below, David 
only laughed. John didn't answer.
Oddity moaned. John had paid scant attention to Charon or the ride to Ellis, too 
intent on the interior struggle and the pain.
Evan could feel John tiring rapidly. Nothing of Oddity seemed to be Patty 
anymore. Her body was submerged and what remained seemed to hurt them more than 
ever before, as if they were both taking on the portion of the suffering that 
once was allotted to her. The boundaries between Dominant, Sub-Dominant, and 
Passive were growing weak and tenuous. Worse, like some residue of the transfer 
process, parts of David's memory were drifting loose.
[The killing was a kick better than crack man all the nats running and screaming 
through Times Square.... ] [Evan, this is what he'd do to us. We can't let him 
take Oddity. ]
Evan wasn't listening to John but to David. [I can let you out Evan let you out 
and and free of Oddity I can do it.... ]
[What's he saying to you, Evan? He's trying to block me, but the shields are 
falling apart, too. I can almost hear him.]
Mockingly, more of David's reverie intruded. [With the priest I took the gun he 
had in his desk and made one of the nuns get down on her knees and suck his cock 
until he shot his holy wad in her mouth then I made the other one take the 
barrel in her mouth like it was a dick "make it come, too" I said and when it 
did it blew the whole fucking back of her head away and then I jumped when the 
cops broke the door down.... ]
[Just more of the same garbage. John, you have to listen to me. What if Patty 
doesn't want to come back in? What then, John? We can't keep David down forever. 
When he's Dominant, he'll make us do something, something awful, and then he'll 
jump. He'll jump and leave us with someone else, someone who'll hate Oddity, 
someone we don't know or love or even like.]
With the thought, their attention was brought back to the outside world. Charon 
was moving through the sunken graveyard. Many of the bodies still had ribbons of 
clothing, shreds of flesh. Fish swarmed around the cages of ribs, nibbling and 
biting; eels swarmed in eye sockets and wriggled from open jaws like obscene 
tongues.
And something, someone was pushing at them, pressing Oddity's back against the 
cold, clammy wall of Charon's interior, the flesh beginning to stretch around 
their back as Charon continued its slow passage. An invisible hand was thrusting 
at their chest, refusing to let them go any farther even though Charon plodded 
on. Oddity struggled weakly, but it would not let them loose. [Bloat's Wall 
Bloat's Wall ... ] David yammered from Passive. [It's you Evan, it's you. ]
With the physical pressure, Evan could also feel a mental lassitude. He no 
longer wanted to go to the Rox. This quest was useless. Even if Patty were 
alive, it was futile. They could do no good there. John tried to force Oddity 
through the unseen barrier as they felt the cold waters through Charon's back, 
but Evan only watched from Sub-Dominant.
"Stop!" Oddity's broken voice shouted. Charon paid no attention.
[Dammit, Evan. Help me!] Charon's flesh was beginning to thin dangerously. The 
skeletons outside grinned mindlessly at them, waiting.
[This might be better, John. It would be over. Finished.] [No no no please Evan 
I'll get you out I will.... ] [You still want us dead. That's it, isn't it, 
Evan? That's what you're really saying.] Oddity struggled, took a step forward, 
but that barely made a difference. The back of their cloak was chill and damp. 
Charon's flesh bulged dangerously around them.
[You're just barely holding us together, John. I can't keep David back when you 
fall. He's strong and this time he'll be expecting the pain. He'll know that 
when it's too much for him, he can just jump. ]
[If we're on the Rox, he'll jump back to his own body, Evan. Which puts Patty 
back with us.]
[I'll have Oddity initiated make you all jumpers so you can get out.... ]
[Is that fair, John? Are you so possessive of her that you'd punish her like 
that when she's free? What's betterto let this bastard loose again or to make 
the sacrifice? We can keep Patty free and take the SOB out with us. What's 
better, John?]
[I'm Dominant] And with that there was a flailing resurgence of will. Oddity 
managed two lurching steps back toward the center of Charon. The chill receded. 
[I'll stay Dominant until we find Patty.]
[And what then, John? What then? It's been sixteen years, John. Long enough.]
[John I'll help you too just don't let him kill us.... ] David's panic loosed 
adrenaline. Oddity screamed as John forced them forward once more, trying to 
keep pace with Charon's slow movement. Fish swirled away from their grisly 
feast, disturbed by the movement inside Charon's body.
Suddenly they were through. Oddity stumbled and fell as the resistance vanished. 
Outside, the skeletons were behind them; ahead there were weedy mud flats and 
the beginnings of a rise. Charon moved between piles of discarded ship ballast 
as Oddity's lungs heaved and the agony of change lanced through them all. David 
tried to rise from Passive once more; John only barely managed to keep him down.
He said nothing to Evan. Evan said nothing to him. Charon hissed. Bubbles rose 
around them and the body began to rise alongside a rust-stained concrete pier. 
John forced Oddity to its feet and pushed his way through the body angrily, 
hating the feel of the wet, cold flesh. There were corroded steel rungs set in 
the concrete seawall. Oddity swung out of Charon and climbed to the top.
They were waiting for him, a ring of jokers armed with a ragged assortment of 
weapons. Oddity howled in frustration.
"What an interesting mind," Bloat commented, but his tiny face was pained and 
drawn. "The pain makes it unpleasant even for me. Still, the complexity of a 
shared consciousness is fascinating."
"Where's Patty?" Oddity grated out. Their voice was barely more than a whisper. 
Most of John's concentration was utilized in staying Dominant against David's 
mental pushing. They looked from the guards-standing well back from Oddity-to 
Bloat, gauging distances as the cloak humped and folded over their madly 
changing body. Bloat chuckled.
"Oh, by the time you got halfway to me, they'd have shot you dead, but then 
you've already figured that out, haven't you, John? It is John, isn't it?" Bloat 
shook his head. "You should lay down the burden for now, John. It's David I want 
to speak with."
"No!" Oddity tried to shout; it came out more grunt. "Not until we see Patty."
" I don't think that's a good idea." [It's a stalemate, John. You see?]
[You give up too easily.] John's ego weakened with each moment, his hold on 
Dominant crumbling. Desperation colored his thoughts. Oddity gave a tremulous 
sigh.
Underneath both of them but rising, rising, David whispered only to Evan. [Look 
at all the bodies here you can have any one of them no need to play goddamn hero 
just let me past let me take Oddity and I'll set you free I promise don't let us 
die.... ]
"We'll see her," Oddity said, "or we'll see how close we get to you. You kill us 
or you die. It really doesn't matter. One way we get what I want, the other way 
what Evan wants. Either way, you lose."
Bloat sighed. "Such a waste." He sighed, then gestured with one tiny hand. " I 
didn't care to show my hole card so quickly, but I suppose it can't be helped. 
Bring her in," he said, then nodded to Oddity. "You need to understand the 
situation. Can David hear me?"
The fencing mask nodded under the hood.
"Good. It's important he does. David, even if you can, don't jump back yet. Ah, 
here she is..." Somehow, thinking of Patty alone in one body had given them a 
vision of her as she once had been: dark brown hair swirling around her 
shoulders and wearing the denim skirt she liked so well with a blouse of 
unbleached cotton. But the person who stepped from the side doorway was in 
soiled Levi's and a leather jacket. The body was distinctly male, a youthful, 
handsome face topped with blond and unruly hair.
"John? Evan?" he [she?] said, and the voice was deep. " I love you both. I miss 
you."
Patty said the words, and felt the truth of them with the tears they set off in 
her eyes. Behind her, rubber wheels squeaked against tile. She glanced back at 
the joker pushing the wheelchair with a young jumper's body. The bait. The 
temptation.
[Yours. It can be yours.] The knowledge tore at her, and she looked back at 
Oddity, remembering the pain and the hurt and the feeling of being imprisoned.
"Patty?" Bloat said, and her gaze went grudgingly to the joker. "I need to know. 
Now. Will you cooperate with me? Do it for yourself. Do it for all jokers. Do it 
for the rapture. Help me."
Patty looked again at the young woman, at the empty, wonderful body. She also 
saw Oddity watching and she knew that John and Evan could guess her thoughts as 
well. Faintly, she saw the fencing mask that was Oddity's face nod, as if in 
forgiveness. [Go on,] she could almost hear John and Evan saying. [We 
understand.]
Patty reached out and stroked the girl's face with a yearning wistfulness. The 
skin felt soft and smooth. She knew she would remember that softness forever.
She turned, trying to remember it all. Trying to pack into these few seconds all 
the sensations of being alone, of being one.
She shook her head.
"No," she told Bloat, not caring that David's body was weeping openly now. "I 
hate Oddity, but I love Evan and John. You only want Oddity as a weapon, and I 
won't be a part of that. I'd rather be with my lovers again, as we were."
"I'd rather be with my lovers again, as we were." Patty's words startled all of 
them. Evan could feel the surprise loosen what little hold he had.
Oddity screamed.
All at once, everything inside the Oddity had become fluid. The mind barriers 
crumpled and went to dust. [John?]
[I've lost Oddity, Evan. You have to-]
The person in David's body was running to them, and his [her?] arms were around 
them, hugging them and not caring that the body was changing underneath the 
embrace. Oddity stood there, the arms half up as if unsure whether or not to 
return the embrace....
[Evan, hold David back.... ] [I'm trying, John.]
For a moment, Evan was in control of Oddity as Patty [David?] stared up into the 
bowl of the fencing mask. "My God, Patty. . ." he moaned. "We love you so 
much...."
"Evan? It's so lonely out here. I miss you, Evan, John. Please... I want back 
in." She was crying, clutching tighter to Oddity as the powerful, piebald arms 
went around her at last.
"But you're free," Oddity said, and the voice was slurred, confused. "I don't 
understand-"
[Hold him, Evan, hold him.... ]
[Now, Evan. Let me have Oddity] David insisted. David's will shoved at Evan's 
weak resistance. Laughing, David shoved past Evan and into the Dominant 
position. Immediately the Oddity groaned as the full impact of the pain hammered 
at the youth. Yet this time, prepared for the torture, David clung to Dominant.
Evan did nothing. Nothing.
He let David have Oddity without a struggle.
[You promised me,] he said to David. [Remember what you promised me.]
[Goddamn son of a bitch, Evan ... ] "Fucking Christ, Bloat, this hurts!"
"Davvd!" Bloat sounded pleased. "Good. Now that you control Oddity, I can say 
more." He looked down at Patty, who struggled in Oddity's grasp. "I'd continue 
to hold on to your body. I'd hate to see Patty damage it, which is what she's 
considering at the moment."
Patty cursed, glaring at Bloat.
Oddity's grip on Patty tightened. "Say it quick, Bloat. I know it ain't your 
style, but I ain't staying here long." Bloat smiled. "In a nutshell, then. It's 
time for us to organize. It's time for the jumpers to help the Rox." Oddity 
chuckled, then groaned as another shift in the mutable body racked them. "That's 
what you were telling Patty. So what? You upping the rent?"
Bloat shrugged, the tiny shoulders lifting helplessly in the immense body. "I 
imagine there are any number of jokers who would like to be aces, especially 
here in the Rox. A few judicious triple jumps ...Imagine what a dozen or so 
jokers-turned-aces might be able to accomplish."
"Especially with Bloat telling us what to do."
"Especially." Bloat smiled.
[Evan, you can't allow this.... ]
Evan ignored John's pleading. [David, you promised me. Right?]
[Hey, man. I keep promises. Don't worry.] [Then go ahead and jump. I'll take 
Dominant.] Patty struggled in their arms, biting and clawing uselessly against 
Oddity's compelling strength. "We'll talk, Bloat," Oddity said. "Maybe you're 
right. Maybe it's time to organize a little. But in a second, when I'm back in 
my own skin."
"What about Oddity?" Kafka interjected, looking worried.
"I agree with my counselor, David," Bloat said. "I thought Patty would help us 
control it. Perhaps Oddity's simply too dangerous."
[Evan?]
[Just give me a body, David. Like you promised.] "It'll be cool," David told 
them. "Don't worry about Oddity."
Inside Oddity, there was a moment of chilling vacancy [ ... Evan! ... ] and then 
Patty was back, stunned and falling almost immediately to Passive as John made a 
last desperate attempt to take Dominant.
Evan shoved him back contemptuously. David's eyes had closed. Now they opened 
again and looked up at Oddity and the hidden face behind the mesh. "Hey, man. 
You can let me go now."
[John? Patty? I love you both. I'm sorry.] [Evan-]
[We understand we do.... ]
Oddity's hands came up. One was Patty's now, one John's. In a swift movement 
they grasped either side of David's head.
With all of Oddity's power they twisted savagely. The snap of the neck breaking 
was very loud. Oddity let the body crumple to the floor. They spread their hands 
wide, closing their eyes for the last time and waiting for Bloat to give the 
order, waiting for the bullets to shred their shared body.
[Good-bye Patty, John. I do love you.] It never happened.
Bloat was staring at David's body. Kafka watched Bloat. The joker guards' 
weapons were pointing at them, ready.
Bloat only gave a brief sigh.
"David was my key. He was willing to listen to me, to share in my dream. If you 
were Golden Boy or Peregrine or just another ace, I wouldn't hesitate," he told 
them, still looking at David's body. "But not the Oddity. Not people who know 
the pain of being a joker."
The tiny head on the mounded body closed its eyes. The body rippled and more 
bloatblack oozed from the body. The smell of corruption was strong in the room.
"Get out," Bloat told them savagely. "Get out before I change my mind."
Dutton finally opened the back fire door and stood blinking into the Jokertown 
dawn. The noseless, living skull face yawned. He tugged the cord of his silk 
bathrobe tightly around his waist.
" Oddity." He sounded relieved. "I was worried. I'd called some people I knew--"
"We came to work."
"Evan?" Dutton glanced at the hands-for the most part, they were chocolate brown 
and long-fingered. Dutton stepped away from the door and let the cloaked figure 
enter, then shut and locked the door behind them. The museum seemed gloomy after 
the sunshine. "It's six in the morning. What happened? Where's Patty?"
"Here. Passive for the moment. John's with us, too. It's over, Charles. 
We--I-was wrong. We wanted to tell you."
"Wrong?"
"About endings. Maybe things do occasionally work out. The leader of the jumper 
gang's dead, Charles." Behind the mask, Oddity laughed, full and loud. The 
gaiety sounded very strange to Dutton. "It doesn't solve everything," Oddity 
continued. "Probably not much at all."
"But it's one little change for the good. A few less atrocities the nats will be 
able to blame on us, one less excuse they can use to oppress people affected by 
the wild card."
"And you? What about Oddity?"
"It still hurts. But one of us got out, at least for a bit. We can think of that 
and hope that maybe-someday-the rest will change."
Oddity sighed.
Under the heavy cloak, shapes came and went.
"You got any cake, Charles?" they said. "It's our birthday."


My Name is Nobody
by Walton Simons
Jerry walked up the stone steps into the Church of St. Ignatius Loyola. He 
hadn't been inside a church in over thirty years. His parents had exposed him to 
their religious preference, which was Episcopalian, but had let him stop going 
after he continually went to sleep during the service. David had been Catholic, 
though. At least the building had a late-Renaissance look that was less 
forbidding than the usual Gothic stuff.
Jerry slipped in and sat behind Kenneth and Beth. They wouldn't recognize him, 
though. He was wearing an old look, with sagging flesh, bad posture, and gray 
hair. Jerry hoped he could pick up a comment from Beth saying she missed him, 
but they sat silently through David's eulogy. Jerry wanted to stand up and tell 
everyone that the man they were mourning was a bad one by anyone's standards, 
let alone a devout Catholic's. That David was behind the "jumper" crimes and 
deserved exactly what he got. Jerry wanted to, but he didn't. First off, if 
there was a God, he/she/it would not be impressed. Second, he didn't have any 
proof. That chapped him plenty. All those months of detective work and he had 
nothing to show for it. Nobody except Tachyon would ever know he'd found David 
out, and Tachyon was all for secrecy.
Jerry glanced across the aisle at St. John Latham. The attorney put his hand to 
his mouth and coughed. There was strain in his neck and his face was pale. He 
was breathing in an even, but forced manner. Latham shook his head, then reached 
in his coat pocket and dabbed at his eyes. Jerry wanted to bend over the pew and 
get Kenneth and Beth to look Latham's way. They wouldn't believe the tears any 
more than Jerry did. St. John was the original iceman.
Latham stood, left his pew, and headed for the back of the church. Beth and 
Kenneth were still focused on the minister. Jerry hobbled after Latham down the 
church's central aisle. He had to move slowly to stay in character and Latham 
was nowhere to be seen when he entered the foyer.
A young kid stood at the door to the men's room. He was wearing a new black suit 
and had obvious blackheads all over his face. Jerry headed for the men's room, 
wheezing.
"Sorry, old man," the kid said as Jerry approached the door. "It's occupe right 
now"
"My medication," Jerry said, beginning to shake. "I'll die."
The kid made an unhappy face. "Oh, all right. But don't be long."
Jerry heard a man sobbing in one of the stalls as he stepped in. He didn't have 
to see the face to know who it was. Latham was blubbering like he'd lost his own 
son. Jerry began running water to wash his hands. The crying tapered off. After 
a few moments the person inside blew his nose. Jerry turned off the water and 
reached for a towel. Latham stepped out of the stall.
"He was a fine boy," Jerry said.
"Yes, very fine indeed." Latham turned on the faucet and splashed water on his 
face. His eyes were completely bloodshot. He left before Jerry could say 
anything else.
Jerry stepped outside in time to see him leaving with the kid.
Something was definitely up.
Jerry savored his last bite of Imperial Duck, chewing it slowly. He'd had to let 
his belt out a notch already, and it was getting tight again.
"God, that's good," Jerry said.
Kenneth nodded. "Oh, yeah. I'm glad you didn't back out at the last minute."
"It's not you I'm mad at." Jerry took a sip of his hot tea and reached for his 
fortune cookie.
"Do you enjoy being mad at her?" Kenneth asked, his voice flat and 
nonjudgmental.
"I don't know. I just feel like she came down unnecessarily hard on me. I don't 
need that right now" Jerry cracked open his cookie and pulled out the fortune. 
He paused a moment to read it.
"What does it say?"
"'You will overcome many hardships,"' Jerry said. " I don't think I like that. 
It means I'll have to deal with them."
"On the plus side, maybe it means you and Beth will get things sorted out. That 
would certainly go a long way toward making me happy." Kenneth read his fortune 
and wrinkled his brow.
"How about yours?" Jerry asked. "'Babes in abundance will beat a path to your 
door'?"
" A good man has few enemies; a ruthless man has none.' "
Jerry made a face. "Fortunes for the eighties. Get yours and take out anyone who 
gets in your way. That's real encouraging."
Kenneth paid the bill and the brothers walked out into the crowded streets of 
Chinatown. The spring air had a freshness that even the smell of garbage 
couldn't cling to.
"Let's walk awhile," Kenneth said, heading toward Canal.
"Okay by me." Jerry patted his `stomach. " I need a little exercise or I'll lose 
my schoolboy figure."
"Beth told me she called you last week. She said you hemmed and hawed, but 
promised you'd call her back soon." Kenneth turned and looked at Jerry. "Are 
you?"
"Yes, she called. And yes, I'm going to call her back when I feel damn good and 
ready." Jerry knew it was shitty to put her off, but felt like letting her twist 
in the wind for a while. He really wanted his pound of flesh. " I don't want to 
talk about this anymore. How about those Knicks, eh?"
"Whatever you say. Just don't lie to her, she hates that." Kenneth looked at his 
watch. "Maybe we have time to pick up some canoles."
"Time is something I got plenty-" Jerry heard gunfire from inside one of the 
buildings and flinched. Kenneth pulled him to the pavement as three kids in ski 
masks and blue satin jackets charged out of an antique shop. All three had guns 
drawn. They stopped in front of Jerry and Kenneth. Jerry saw two cold brown eyes 
meet his. The kid's gun swiveled over and past him. Another kid said something 
in Chinese. The group sprinted off down the street and ducked into an alley. 
Jerry recognized the bird on the back of their jackets.
"Egrets," he said.
Jerry stood, then helped Kenneth to his feet. Someone wailed inside the antique 
shop. "What did you say?" Kenneth looked at him hard.
"Immaculate Egrets. They're a street gang. I saw a TV special on them." Jerry 
smiled. "Nothing like a little mayhem to get your blood going. Should we call 
the police, or something?"
"I'm sure they've already been contacted. I don't recall any TV special on that 
particular gang." Kenneth started walking Jerry down the street. "Look, I've 
heard rumors that you've been doing some detective work. Certain individuals 
take that sort of thing very personally. So if it's true, I'd advise you to stop 
it. Now"
Jerry couldn't imagine how Kenneth had found out. Beth wouldn't talk, even 
though she was mad at him. Maybe someone had tipped him about Jerry having hired 
Ackroyd at one point. But he'd been checking out David, and David was gone. 
Jerry decided to do a little fishing. "Who's Kien?"
Kenneth blanched. "So. It is true. You don't want to know, Jerry. Latham is much 
more dangerous than you can imagine. He's been losing his grip lately, so stay 
out of his way." Kenneth glanced at his watch again. "I need to get home."
"Latham's got something on you, doesn't he?" Jerry couldn't imagine his brother 
this scared for any other reason.
"Let's just say the situation is balanced, but very precariously." Kenneth 
grabbed Jerry by the elbow. "Don't upset the balance. You could get us all 
killed."
A police car squealed around the corner and bounced down the street, its siren 
and rotating reds going. "You head on home, Kenneth. Don't worry about me. I'm 
going to stick around and tell the cops what I saw here." Jerry would also 
memorize the cops' faces and badge numbers. That could come in handy later, too.
Kenneth gave Jerry a look of troubled resignation. "Watch out for yourself. If 
you get into trouble with this, I might not be able to get you out. I'd try, of 
course."
"I know. Tell Beth I really will call her sometime." Jerry waved his brother 
off. "And don't worry about me. There's more here than meets the eye."
Kenneth gave a weak waist-high wave and turned away. It began to rain softly. 
Jerry walked down toward the police car. If Latham was putting the squeeze on 
his family, Jerry was going to dig something up and squeeze back, hard. Thunder 
rumbled across the sky in the distance.
Jerry sat in the lobby, paging through the sports section of the Times. He'd 
changed his eyes and hair to brown and darkened his skin. His bone structure was 
thicker. The Knicks were definitely going to make the playoffs. As long as they 
didn't wash out in the first round, especially to Boston, he could live with 
whatever happened.
He hadn't turned up thing one on Latham. St. John didn't even have a police 
record, so he was obviously as sharp as Kenneth said. Might as well shadow him 
and see if he could come up with something. Anything Jerry could uncover he'd 
turn over to Kenneth. That way, if Latham decided to up the stakes, Kenneth 
could match him.
The elevator pinged softly. Latham stepped out of the car, alone. Jerry 
carefully folded up his paper, stood, and followed him into the street.
It was warm and breezy outside. The sky over Manhattan was clear. The sidewalks, 
unfortunately, were not.
Latham was walking fast and Jerry had to push and shove to keep him in sight. 
Latham crossed the street at the corner, trotting out onto the asphalt just as 
the sign across the street started blinking DON'T WALK. Jerry knifed through the 
crowd, but before he could get across, the traffic surged in front of him.
Jerry stood at the corner, bouncing up and down on his toes. Latham got into a 
black Cadillac parked in a tow-away zone. There were two young boys in the front 
seat, and a girl in the back with Latham. The girl had spiky black hair and 
looked vaguely familiar, but at this distance most people did. She put her arms 
around his neck and kissed him. They were still kissing when the light changed 
and the Caddy whipped out into the street. It was gone before Jerry could get a 
license-plate number.
He changed back in the first-floor men's room. Nobody noticed that the person 
who went in didn't look at all like the person who came out. Nobody ever 
noticed. That was one good thing about present-day New York. He checked himself 
in the mirror on the way out. "Just call me Mr. Nobody," he said. The name felt 
more appropriate than he wanted it to.
Tachyon was giving Blaise a lecture of some sort. The boy looked like a pit bull 
who'd just taken a beating from his master, mad and ready to get even.
"Not now, Jeremiah," Tachyon said. "Family discussion." Blaise gave Jerry a 
contemptuous look. "Yeah, you don't belong here."
Tachyon reached over with his good hand and grabbed Blaise by the chin. "That 
will be quite enough. Apologize to Mr. Strauss."
Blaise set his jaw and stared at his grandfather in hateful silence.
"I'll see you some other time," Jerry said, backing out.
Tachyon turned Blaise loose and shook his head apologetically. "Soon, I hope. 
You've just caught me at a bad time."
Jube the Walrus was standing by the curb when Jerry stepped outside the clinic. 
His Hawaiian print shirt was a recognizable beacon against the gray of 
Jokertown.
"Did you hear the one about the guy who played center on the joker basketball 
team?" the Walrus asked. "Nope," Jerry said.
"He was a seven-footer, but only five feet tall." Jube smiled around his tusks. 
"Want a Cry?"
Jerry had started to shake his head when he saw the DOUBLE JUMPER INCIDENT 
headline. He'd been so involved with snooping on Latham that he hadn't paid 
attention to what was going on in the world. "Sure." He dug out his wallet and 
handed Jube a twenty. "Don't bother with the change. What do you know about 
these jumpers?"
Jube shrugged. "Nothing that isn't in the paper. There hadn't been an incident 
in a while, I thought maybe we were through with those kids."
"Me too," Jerry said.
"Sure you don't want your change?" The Walrus hadn't tucked the bill away yet.
"Nah. Just let me know if you hear anything else. I know where to find you." 
Jerry raised his arm as a cab rounded the corner.
"Will do. Did you hear the one about the joker cabdriver?"
"No." Jerry had a feeling he was going to.


The Devil's Triangle
by Melinda M. Snodgrass
Her fingers twined, warm and a little dry, through his. Each undulating rise and 
fall of the horse pulled them apart. Skin sliding on skin. Then the midpoint 
when for an instant they were side by side, poised in the moment with no 
retreat.
Tachyon half opened his eyes and watched the colored lights of the carousel 
whirl past. The music was a little sharp, a little tinny, but it was a waltz.
And in his dreams they were dancing.
He cautiously turned his head, and with that unspoken communication that had 
arced between them from the moment of their first meeting, she, too, was turning 
her head. The fine bones of her face were etched in the lights of a Coney Island 
ride, the eye patch a dark scar on that beautiful face. A deformity, yes, but an 
honorable one. A wound won in battle. Even on Takis one might be tempted to keep 
the scars, not replace the missing eye.
The music was slowing, the horses' eager spring dying to an awkward sad sigh as 
the ride came to an end. Without thinking, Tach patted the arching neck of his 
steed. His artificial hand struck the wood of the carousel horse, producing an 
ugly hollow tone.
The violence of his reaction was wearily familiar.
Stomach closing into a tight ball, jamming itself against the back of the spine, 
nausea like a physical pain. Cody's hands cupped his face, but there was no 
gentleness in the touch.
"Cut it out. You lost a hand. He could have gutted you. I lost an eye. The 
bullet could have blown my damn head off. If you're smart, you're grateful to 
just fucking be alive."
"I'm sorry, I'm not normally a whiner."
"Yes, you are." She smiled to take away the sting. "You're always agonizing 
about what can't be fixed. The past is dead, and the future ain't here yet. The 
best we can do is live for the moment, Tachyon."
They started walking down the midway. The air was redolent with the smell of 
stale grease, corn dogs, cotton candy. Overhead the sky was a diffuse milky 
white as the high clouds reflected back the lights of New York. Barkers squalled 
from their cheap and gaudy arcades.
"See Tiny Tina, the world's smallest horse."
"Three balls for a dollar. Knock over the milk bottles, and a prize is yours."
Screams from the more garishly neon-decorated rides ripped the night air. The 
Parachute jump blossomed like an exotic lily against the night sky. Tiny figures 
plummeted toward the ground only to be caught by the billowing of a parachute. 
There was something almost grotesquely maternal about the gigantic ride dropping 
its little chutes like seedlings around its looming bulk.
Tachyon tore his gaze away from the jump and asked, "where did they say they 
were going?"
"The Zipper," Cody said. "Dreadful."
"They're boys."
The couple stopped at the entrance to the ride. Rock music assaulted the ears, 
the bass line vibrating in the ground itself. The little cars were opening, 
spilling their stumbling, tottering passengers like peas from a pod. Blaise had 
his arm around Chris. The human boy was staggering, but Blaise, his hair almost 
scarlet under the lights, was fully in control. There was a wild light in his 
dark eyes, and his teeth gleamed.
"What did you think?" asked Blaise.
"Damn ... that was awesome," replied Chris. Tachyon and Cody exchanged glances 
at the way the child had awkwardly prefaced the sentence with the cuss word.
Boys into men, thought Tachyon. So difficult a transition.
"Chris is what? Thirteen?" he asked. "Yes," said Cody.
"At thirteen I was just emerging from the women's quarters."
"That's lousy planning. Just when a boy wants to be around girls, you separate 
them." She studied her adoles cent son now exchanging playful blows with Blaise. 
"On second thought, considering the raging hormones at that age, maybe it's a 
good thing-before any ad hoc biology lessons can begin."
"We have toys for that."
"'What!"
He caught her thought of outrageous sexual implements. "Not those kind of toys, 
living toys."
"I think that's worse."
She walked away to join her son, and Tachyon chewed on his lower lip. She was a 
strong woman with strong attitudes. Had his flippant remark offended her? Made 
her think that he regarded her as a toy? He hurried after the threesome 
wondering how to make amends.
The boys were walking across each other's lines, each trying to draw Cody's 
attention. Blaise danced out in front of her, walking backward with easy 
hip-swinging grace, somehow avoiding the oncoming crowds.
Maybe he has more telepathy than I think, Tachyon mused as he studied that lean 
figure. At fourteen Blaise was already three inches taller than his grandsire, 
and already showed signs of developing a linebacker's shoulders, and the 
whip-lean hip of the true athlete.
And you're having a hell of a time taking him during your karate workouts, a 
disquieting voice reminded him. Tachyon shook off the worry. Blaise had been 
much better since Cody had entered their lives. Putting aside that it was a 
celibate relationship, it had all the qualities of a marriage. Cody alternately 
scolded and mothered Blaise, and he loved it. Her interest in the boy had 
soothed his mercurial disposition. In fact, it had been months since Tach had 
felt actively afraid of his grandchild.
"Cody," Blaise was saying. "Would you like me to win you a stuffed toy? I can do 
it." He jerked his head toward the shooting gallery.
Tachyon stepped up to join them. Cocked a grin up at Cody. "Perhaps you better 
rely upon me. I've been at this a little longer than he has."
Blaise frowned, and Tach felt a flare of embarrassment. Prancing and snorting in 
front of his fourteen-yearold grandson. Who was in competition with whom?
The woman sniffed. "Thanks boys, but I'll win one for myself." She allowed her 
fingers to rule lightly across the curls on the top of his head. Tach felt as if 
his lungs had been replaced with stones. It was tough to draw a breath. "A 
contest," said Blaise, his eyes bright.
The three males followed Cody to the gallery and laid down their money. She was 
already testing the weight of the weapon. Tach hefted the rifle. It was awkward 
lefthanded. Despite his thrice-weekly sessions at the range he still had much to 
relearn.
The operator fired up his machine, and a line of rampant bears trundled across 
the back wall. Blaise and Chris blazed away. Blaise was better than the human 
boy, but neither of them succeeded in scoring the requisite number to continue. 
Blaise threw down the rifle and backed off, muttering petulantly in French.
Tachyon and Cody stepped up to the counter. Began firing. The operator stared 
openmouthed at their competence. Charging bears fell supine onto all fours and 
were swept away. The numbers mounted. Chris's cheeks were red with excitement. 
He hung close to his mother's left side. Blaise's glance was smoldering fire 
between Tachyon's shoulder blades.
Tachyon had missed two shots. Cody only one. One more and he was out. He 
sighted, drew in a breath, held it, squeezed the trigger. The bear remained 
smugly, stubbornly upright. It seemed to be sneering as it rounded the corner. 
Tachyon laid down the rifle. Cody kept shooting. It took five more minutes 
before she had finally missed three shots.
The man pulled down an enormous white tiger and handed it with a bow to Cody. 
Tach as a consolation prize got Roger Rabbit.
The man and woman, with their children in tow, headed back into the shifting 
color of the midway. "Aren't you ashamed of yourself?" Tachyon scolded as they 
waited for Blaise and Chris to buy cotton candy. "For what?"
"Demolishing my fragile Takisian ego."
"Takisian, my aunt Betsy. Male ego." She gave him an ironic glance out of her 
one eye. "Going to win a prize for the little lady," she mocked.
"Be kind, I am a one-handed shootist."
"And I'm a one-eyed shootist. So much for excuses." But Tachyon had lost his 
taste for the banter. He was reliving a nightmare. Blood and bone fragments 
fountaining into the air. Agony, agony, agony!
Her cheek was warm against his. Her arm a welcome support.
"What is it? What's wrong?"
"Memory" he forced out. "We remember more clearly than you humans. It's our 
curse." He drew his thumb across his forehead. It came away wet. "Oh Ideal, I am 
sorry, it is passing now"
Her hand slid down and gathered his prosthetic hand into hers. "You remember the 
pain ... ?" Her voice trailed away in a question.
"As if it were yesterday."
"Oh, God, I'm sorry"
Her lips were against his cheek. Whispering the words. The warm breath puffed 
against his chilled skin, and suddenly Tachyon realized he was in the circle of 
her arms. Since that day at the clinic they had never done more than touch 
hands. Now her arms were around him again. Their thighs were lightly touching, 
and he had a full erection.
Simultaneously they began muttering apologies and inanities and backed away from 
each other. Cody hurriedly swept up the boys. Tachyon went in search of a men's 
room.
"Meet you at the car," he called to them as he fled in search of cold water to 
splash on his face and a long pee to relieve the pressure-sort of.
Roger Rabbit sprawled on the sofa in the office. The tensor lamp threw an almost 
painful yellow light across the welter of papers on the desk. The rest of the 
room was in shadow. Tachyon rubbed gritty eyes, picked up his fountain pen, and 
laboriously scrawled his signature across the bottom of a grant request. His 
prosthetic right hand was serving as a paperweight at the top of the page.
Most of the grants had dried up after the bloody events at the Democratic 
National Convention last July. This grant was for fifteen thousand dollars from 
the greater New York Franco-American society. Fifteen thousand dollars would 
keep the Blythe van Renssaeler Memorial Clinic open and operating for about two 
hours and twentyseven minutes, but all the little thousands added up to joker 
lives saved.
Tachyon heard the distinctive quick tap of her heels in the hall outside his 
office. The door opened, and Cody was there, backlit by the fluorescent bulbs in 
the hall.
"What in hell are you doing here? It's two A.M."
"And why are you here, Madam Surgeon?"
"I had patients to check on."
"As do L"
"Those-" she waved a hand toward the paperwork"are not worth killing yourself 
over." She crossed to the desk. "People we either cure or bury These"-she swept 
up a handful of paper from the desk, crumpled them and dropped them into the 
trash can-"we handle in a different way."
"Cody, behave yourself." Tachyon dug out the abused paperwork.
She cocked a hip up onto the desk. Tachyon's mouth went dry. At the amusement 
park she had been wearing blue jeans: now, unaccountably, she had changed into a 
skirt. Her pose left a lot of thigh visible. Tachyon was noticing.
She noticed him noticing and smiled. With the eye patch and the scar it gave her 
a dangerous predatory look. But sexy: God, she was sexy.
"You had one hell of an erection at the carnival," she said conversationally. 
"Made me realize just where I stood with you."
After swallowing his stomach, Tach forced his voice into the same matter-of-fact 
tone she had used. "Cody, we have been working together for almost a year. 
Frankly I'm surprised at my forbearance, and I can hardly be blamed for my 
body's betrayal."
"I'm a professional. Soldier, doctor, your chief of ,surgery"
"And a woman," he reminded softly. "And you want me."
"I would be a liar if I denied it." He picked up his hand and fitted it onto the 
stump of his right arm. "Could you ever want me?"
"I don't know. I'm nervous about getting too close to you."
"Why?"
"You've had too many women. I don't want to be just another notch on your gun."
"You make me sound very spoiled ... heedless."
"You are. In some ways you're a real user."
"As long as we're being this honest you should know that I have been incredibly 
forbearing and patient with you. I have been willing to wait-"
She slid off the desk. "Yeah, but I'm worth it," she interrupted.
"God damn it, woman. I want you!"
"Tough. Until you lose the revolving door, I'm not interested. If I walk through 
your bedroom door, I better be the only one."
"What are you asking for?"
"Commitment. It's an important word to me. I'm the most loyal friend you'll ever 
have, Tachyon. But if you betray me I'll kill you. Are you still certain you 
want me walking through that bedroom door?"
"I don't know. You frighten me ... a little."
"Good. The game's not big enough if it doesn't scare you."
She suddenly leaned in and kissed him quick and hard on the lips.
"What was that for?" Tachyon asked.
"For being man enough to admit that we women really are the more dangerous sex."
He combed back his hair. "You have me totally confused."
"Good."
The door closed softly behind her.
Tiny, gaudily dressed figures whirled past in a kaleidoscope of colors. The 
rifle butt was slick against his cheek. Her eyes warm on the back of his neck. 
He squeezed convulsively and bullets sprayed like light rays from the barrel of 
the gun. Tiny Tachyons shattered and died.
The man was handing down a gigantic toy. He turned to face her. Her expression 
of pride and love warmed him. Her hand reached out, and stroked down his cheek, 
unzipped his pants, pulled out his penis. Her lips were hot on the head of his 
cock. His heart squeezed into a tight painful ball.
Sperm jetted hot and sticky across his belly. Blaise sat up in bed, breath 
coming in hoarse gasps.
Cody, Cody, Cody.
Cody was just leaving as Blaise and Chris arrived at the apartment. She kissed 
Chris on the cheek, lifted Blaise's Dodgers cap, and ruled his hair. Fire shot 
through him, and he stared at her with hot, suggestive eyes. Blaise noticed with 
satisfaction that she turned away quickly to gather up her purse and briefcase.
"Okay, outlaws, I'm off to the hospital. There's a chocolate cake on the counter 
and Coke in the fridge, so no excuses for not studying. The sugar rush ought to 
be enough to propel you into next week."
"Okay, Mom," said Chris.
"Blaise, are you all right?" Cody asked, a hand on the doorknob. "You keep 
staring at me like a boy with acute constipation."
Blood flamed in his cheeks, and Blaise's fantasies deflated like his suddenly 
flaccid penis. "I'm fine," he muttered.
The door closed behind her, but the scent of her perfume still lingered in his 
hair.
Chris was already in the kitchen hacking off two enormous slabs of chocolate 
cake.
"Algebra," he said as Blaise walked in. "Do you understand it? And why do we 
have to understand it?"
"You might not have to, but I do. It's the first step to calculus and trig, and 
you have to have all three for astrogation. I've got a spaceship that's going to 
be mine someday. I have to know how to navigate her."
"That is so neat," Chris mumbled around a gigantic mouthful. "A spaceship, and a 
granddad who's an alien."
"It's not so great."
Chris gaped at him. "You gotta be kidding. What could be better?"
"The life I had before." Blaise carefully cut away the icing, and mashed it with 
his fork. "No school, no homework, no clean up your room. My father did that. 
Uncle Claude said I was too important to be irritated by the mundane."
"You've got a father?" asked Chris in honest amazement. "Yes, of course."
"So... where is he?"
"In a French prison."
"How come?"
"He's a terrorist. Tachyon put him there."
"That's good."
"Why?" asked Blaise.
"Because ... well ... because-"
"Chris, it's fun to be a terrorist."
"Yeah?"
"You're always on the run. Always changing houses. Passwords, meeting arms 
dealers at night on the river. Always a step ahead of the stupid flies. You're 
always walking a step to the left of ordinary people. They have to work or go to 
school. We watched the artists in Montmartre, ate pastries in cafes on the Left 
Bank. We walked through the museums and he told me all about the painters, our 
history. 'Vive la France,' he would say, and then he would laugh and hug me."
"Who?"
"Uncle Claude."
"And was he a terrorist, too?"
"Yes."
"What happened to him? Is he in prison like your dad?"
Very levelly Blaise replied, "No, he's dead." Blaise mashed cake, and watched 
icing erupt through the tines of the fork. "I think my grandfather killed him."
"Blaise!" Chris's eyes were wide, and he had chocolate icing around his mouth. 
It made him look absurdly young, and really stupid.
"Your mother really likes me," Blaise said, changing the subject abruptly. He 
was tired of the past. Thinking about it made him sad. Made him mad.
"Huh?"
The younger boy's incomprehension infuriated Blaise. Gripping Chris by the hair, 
he yanked back the human boy's head.
"She wants me! She's in love with me!"
"You're crazy!" yelled Chris. "You're just a kid. Like me. You're like my 
brother, except I don't want you for a brother when you act crazy."
"We'll never be brothers." Blaise's tone was quiet, dangerously rational. "For 
us to be brothers ... that would imply that Cody and my grandfather-"
"It could happen."
Blaise was on Chris again, his long, slim hands closing around the boy's throat, 
but he exerted no pressure. "No," he said softly. "That is not going to happen."
He released Chris, and walked out of the apartment.
"Tachyon, we've got to talk."
The alien looked up from the microscope. Blinked to clear the moisture from his 
eyes brought about by tooclose concentration. The woman's agitation beat at him 
despite her level tone and calm expression.
"Cody."
He held out his artificial hand. She laid her hand on his forearm where the 
prosthesis met flesh.
"What happened to Chris?" Tachyon said.
"Damn." She bit her lip. "Why has this happened?" Humbly he said, "I do not mean 
to read your thoughts. They are just there for me."
"I'm my own woman, Tachyon," she warned.
"I know" He cocked an ankle onto his knee. "Now, tell me what happened."
"I'm concerned about my son, but the reason for my concern is Blaise."
Tachyon knew his expression had grown wary. He fiddled with the focusing 
mechanism on the microscope. You may hide it from yourself, but the world sees, 
mocked a little voice.
The Takisian steeled himself.
Cody continued. "Blaise scared Chris half to death last night."
"Did he mind-control him?"
"No, but he wrapped his hands around my kid's throat. He made some crazy remarks 
about me." Cody made a weary gesture. "Now it sounds so stupid, but I saw the 
fear in Chris's eyes."
"Blaise is ... erratic at times. In the months since you've been here I've seen 
an improvement in him. You've been the mother he never had, and he wants to 
please you. There is less anger in him-"
"It's not the anger that worries me. There's a coldness in Blaise that's almost 
inhuman."
"He is inhuman. He's a quarter Takisian."
"That's bullshit, and you know it. Genetically humans and Takisians are 
identical. Maybe you were our ancient astronauts-I don't know, and none of this 
is relevant. The point is that-"
She broke off abruptly. "Say it, Cody."
"Tach, he needs help."
"I can help him."
"No. You're the problem."
He rose and walked away from the truth of that statement.
Spinning back to face her, he said, "You have to understand. What he's been 
through. The horrors he has seen and endured." Tach was nervously washing his 
hands. He noticed and forced himself to stop.
"His childhood was spent in the hands of a violent revolutionary cell in Paris. 
Then last year he became a host for a hideous creature. While in its thrall, he 
experienced his first sexual encounter. He mind-controlled a joker and forced 
the wretch to literally tear himself to pieces."
Her hands closed about his, and he looked up into that single fierce dark eye.
"Tachyon, I'm willing to be understanding. This is all very sad, but it doesn't 
alter the relevant, dangerous fact. Blaise is a sociopath, maybe even psychotic. 
People are going to continue to get hurt."
"I am willing to take that risk."
"Fine! But you don't have the right to place others at risk."
"What can I do! With his mind powers do you really think he's going to submit to 
analysis?"
A new, worrisome thought intruded. He watched it etch itself momentarily on her 
face. Concern rose in the back of his throat, snatching the breath from his 
lungs, and Tachyon realized it was her emotions he was feeling. She was afraid 
for him.
"Tachyon, you can control him, can't you?"
"For now."
"What does that mean, for now?"
"As he matures, he gains power. I've taken to maintaining shields against him 
constantly."
"How hard are these shields to ... ?"
"To break?"
"Yes."
"Exceedingly," he soothed. "I'm afraid."
"Don't be. I will protect you." Her hair was soft against his fingertips as he 
brushed it back from her forehead.
Sharply. "I don't need your protection!"
Startled, he pulled back. "I meant no offense. I assumed you would be a shield 
to my back as well," he stuttered, backpedaling frantically. The militant light 
died from her eye.
"Damn it!"
"What?"
"It's so damn hard to hold my own against you."
"Why must you?"
"Because you're too fucking seductive. Too glib. Too polished. Too attentive. I 
won't-"
She whirled and was out of the lab as if every ancestor ghost in her pedigree 
was on her heels.
The bright June sunlight spilled into the gloomy interior of the Jokertown Dime 
Museum and set dust motes to spinning. Blaise liked that. Had they been there 
all along, he wondered, just waiting in the darkness for his coming? Or had his 
arrival created them?
Do other people think those kinds of thoughts? Blaise mused as he sauntered past 
the "Hideous Joker Baby" display and the Jetboy diorama. Cody was standing in 
front of the waxwork figure of his grandfather. Blaise felt a flare of 
irritation.
The woman thoughtfully stirred her cup of Italian lemon ice and took a bite.
"How young he looks," Blaise heard her say.
"No different than now," said Dutton, owner of the Dime Museum.
The joker was standing behind her, hands hidden in the folds of his cloak. The 
hood was back, revealing the death's-head. Blaise wondered if the man was trying 
to shock Cody, or if this was a measure of how well accepted she had become?
Cody was speaking again. "No, that's an illusion. When I look at him, I see 
every one of those forty-three years etched in his face."
"You care for him," suggested Dutton.
"I'm fascinated by him," Cody corrected, then added: "It's the face of a 
dissipated saint."
"I'll leave you to a contemplation of a face for which you care ... er.. . with 
which you are fascinated."
"What lovely grammar you have," said Cody dryly as Dutton retreated back into 
his office.
The stones were a sharp, hard pressure against his thigh. Blaise cupped his hand 
protectively about the bulge and moved swiftly to intercept Cody as she moved to 
survey the Syria diorama.
"Hi, Cody."
"Oh, God, Blaise, you startled me."
She had pressed her hand against her throat. He could see where her tan ended 
and the milk white of her breast began. He noticed she was wearing a thin gold 
chain. He liked the way it echoed the gold of her skin. Maybe colored stones 
didn't suit her? Maybe she didn't like them? Oh, God, I love you so much!
But what he said, in a voice jumping with nervousness was, "I got something for 
you."
He dug into his pocket, the supple leather of the pouch was soft against his 
hand. The knobby bundle pulled free and Blaise tugged open the drawstrings. With 
a sound like hail on glass the gemstones spilled across the surface of the 
diorama console. Emeralds formed a drift about the button controlling Sayyid. A 
diamond skittered hysterically toward the edge of the console, and Cody 
automatically caught it. Her fingers closed tight about the jewel. Slowly she 
raised her hand to eye level and cautiously unfolded her fingers, as if fearful 
of what her hand contained.
Blaise frowned down at the rainbow spill and worried his lower lip between his 
teeth. The sapphires looked almost fake-too blue. The rubies weren't bad, but 
the topaz was best. The boy swept up a golden topaz the size of a small robin's 
egg and held it against the hollow in Cody's throat. A nervous pulse was 
hammering there. Blaise liked that.
"Here, this suits you best. I know it's only semiprecious-"
"Where did you get these?"
Her voice was rough, commanding, not the breathless excited coo he had expected. 
Blaise flinched, felt stomach acid starting to churn.
"You don't ask about a gift, you just accept it."
The jewels rattled as Cody began sweeping them into a pile. She twitched the 
leather pouch from his hand and began shoveling in the gems. "Blaise, you're in 
big trouble. Tell me where you got these. Maybe we can work out something 
without your grandfather having to find out. You are a minor-"
"Cody! They're for you!"
"I don't want them. I don't want stolen gifts."
"I just wanted to make you happy," said Blaise. "Well, you've managed to achieve 
just the reverse."
"Cody." His voice was a plaintive whine. "I love you." Her hand was soft on his 
head, the fingers stroking through the rough short ends of his brush cut. "Every 
kid feels that way. I feel madly in love with my high-school history teacher. 
It's something we do when we start to notice there's a difference between boys 
and girls. When you're a teenager, everything seems so insecure. If we can fall 
in love with an older person, it helps give a sense of order to a very uncertain 
world."
"Don't talk down to me!"
"I'm not. I'm trying to show you that I do care. I do understand, but 
understanding is not permission."
His power was beating against the confines of his skull. His entire body was one 
great pressure-filled ache. He wanted to explode, to lash out.
"I love you." The words had to squeeze past clenched teeth.
"I don't love you."
"I can make you!"
For the first time he saw a reaction. A flicker of alarm in that single dark 
eye. But her voice was cold and dead level as she said, "That's not love, 
Blaise, that's rape."
His arm executed a wide, uncontrolled arc. "It's him! It's him, isn't it?"
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm better than he is. Younger, stronger. I can give you everything. Anything 
you want I can give you. I can take you anywhere."
He began to pace, long agitated strides that carried him across the narrow 
confines of the aisle and back again. Cody was so still it was frightening.
"Anywhere in the world," he continued. "Off the world. And Chris is okay, he can 
come, too. You don't want him pawing at you. You don't want the stump rubbing 
your boob, or feeling you up-"
The blow was so unexpected that it stopped the words in his throat and rocked 
him back on his heels. Cody slowly lowered her hand. Blaise could feel the 
stinging imprint of her palm on his face. A pressure was building in his chest 
as if all the unspoken endearments, curses for Tachyon, descriptions of prowess 
were piling up like cars on a gridlocked beltway.
"Now, you listen, and you listen good! I have allowed you to ramble on in this 
very silly and very immature fashion out of concern and love for your 
grandfather, and out of consideration for your youth and folly."
Each word struck like a lash, and Blaise writhed under the withering scorn in 
the deep, husky voice. His love was curdling until it lay like an oily 
foul-tasting slick on the back of his tongue.
Cody continued. "But I'm out of time, and I'm out of patience. Somewhere out 
there"-her arm swung in a wide arc encompassing the city-"there's a lovely young 
girl who's learning to prove geometry theorems, or cut out a dress pattern, or 
play tennis, and someday the two of you are going to meet and be very happy 
together. But that girl isn't me."
She hefted the pouch of jewels and stared sternly down at him.
"Now, tell me where you got these, and I'll see if I can keep you out of reform 
school. And you keep your mouth shut to your grandfather. I won't tell him what 
a fool you've been if you'll work with me and we get these jewels back to their 
owner."
"I hate you!"
A mocking little half smile curved her lips. "I thought you loved me."
He backed away, held out a shaking hand. "I ... will ... show... you."
The Tachyon waxwork was directly opposite him.
Blaise coiled and lashed out with a spinning back kick. The head flew off the 
wax figure, and it toppled to the floor. Then quickly and methodically he kicked 
it to pieces. Dutton ran out of the office.
"Hey!"
His voice trailed away as he looked from Blaise to Cody, who was standing as 
still as one of the waxwork figures surrounding her.
"I'll ... show... you," Blaise said again, and strode out of the museum.
"It should have sounded silly and melodramatic. Hell, it did sound silly and 
melodramatic, but frankly it scared the pee out of me."
Tachyon pressed a glass into her hands. Folded her chilled fingers about it.
"And when he kicked that waxwork to pieces..." Cody took a long swallow of the 
brandy.
Tachyon returned to the bar and poured himself a drink.
"Are you sure you are not overreacting?" he asked. "No!"
He held up a placating hand. "All right."
Cody tugged a pouch from her purse and flung it down on the coffee table. It 
landed with a sharp crack. "And I know for damn sure this isn't an 
overreaction."
Tach shook out the contents and stared in amazement at the multicolored gems 
that glittered against the crimson of his glove. His eyebrows flew up 
inquiringly.
"I called the police and pretended to be a journalist," Cody said. "Nobody has 
reported a jewel theft."
"I will handle him," said Tachyon. "You need be afraid no longer."
Cody joined him on the sofa. "Tachyon, you moron. I'm not worried about me. I'm 
worried about you. What I saw in Blaise's face was-"
She broke off and bit down on her lower lip. Tachyon tried to reschool his 
features. He sensed that he looked like a stricken deer.
"He hates you."
There it was-bald, ugly, stark, the truth. He had been hiding from it for over a 
year.
Her shoulder was close. He laid his head against it. Cody's arm went around his 
shoulder.
"What am I going to do?"
"I don't know"
Like a shadow's vomit. Children in the darkness. Following. Watching. Blaise 
whirled, lips drawn back in a snarl. They retreated. For an instant he 
considered reaching out with his power. Coercing one of them. Shredding his 
mind. Finding the answer. Who are you? What do you want? But one thing life with 
Tachyon had taught himcaution. There were too many of them. He might hold eight 
or even ten, but their sheer numbers would beat him down.
Blaise ducked into a Horn and Hardart. Bought a sandwich and coffee. Cody had 
kept his jewels, God damn her. But maybe that wasn't so bad. He had taken them 
for her. Let her keep them and consider what she had rejected. She'd pay soon 
enough.
And money was better than jewels anyway. He had mind-controlled a limousine 
driver and the elegantly attired passenger. That had netted him almost a 
thousand bucks. He could go a long time on a thousand bucks. But the jewels 
would have been better.
The turkey sandwich was dry, the bread forming a soggy expanding mass on the 
back of his tongue. Blaise choked it down and wondered again where the fat old 
joker news vendor had come by a fortune in precious gems. Maybe he should go 
back to Jube's apartment and make him tell?
A slim form slid onto the stool next to him. Blaise tensed. Studied her out of 
the corner of his eye. He didn't bother to slide a hand down to the .38 tucked 
into the waistband of his pants. His mind powers could subdue her faster than a 
gun could fire.
The girl was young. Fifteen, sixteen with spiky multicolored hair, deliberately 
tattered blue jeans, unlaced high-top sneakers.
"We've been watchin' you."
"Yeah, I know. Any particular reason why?"
"You look like you need a place to go."
"I've got plenty of places to go," said Blaise.
The girl popped gum. "What are you gonna do when you get there?"
"Take care of myself."
"Think you can?"
"Know I can." And there was something in his face that made the girl edge as far 
away as the stool would allow.
"I'm not sayin' you can't," she said. She thrust out a hand. Blaise noticed she 
had bitten the cuticles into the quick. "Molly Bolt."
Blaise ignored the outthrust hand. "What do you want?"
She pulled back her hand, thumb rubbing lightly across the tips of her other 
fingers as if she were startled to find the hand at the end of her arm.
"Just this. You need a place to go. You ever need a team ... people to handle 
something;.. come to pier eleven on the East River. We'll find ya."
The cold coffee had a slick oily taste. "I'll keep it in mind."
"Fine."
She was gone as quickly as she had appeared. Suddenly the well-dressed 
businessman seated a table away stood up, unzipped, pulled out his cock, and 
pissed down his own leg.
Blaise left. The food wasn't very good. And he'd lost his appetite with the 
realization of just who or rather what he had been dealing with.
Jumpers.
Jumpers were after him.
"Would you stop worrying? Go already. Go to Washington, and bring back that 
grant. Mama needs a new laser surgery center."
The connection on the car phone was terrible. Cody sounded like she was calling 
from the center of an electrical storm. Tachyon pictured her: hair brushed back, 
one hand thrust into the pocket of her lab coat, knee jiggling as she longed to 
get back to her patients. For an instant his concern and fear for Blaise 
receded. He laughed. "What are you chortling about?" Cody's voice was sharp with 
suspicion.
"You. How many times per second is your foot tapping?" "You are interrupting 
me."
"Take the time. I'm worth it."
A slight choke of laughter as he threw her words back at her.
"Prove it to me," Cody said. "Get down to Washington, and lobby like hell." She 
added, "It really is a shame about Senator Hartmann. He might have been a loon, 
but at least he was our loon."
The missing hand flared in agony as Tachyon remembered the bite of the 
assassin's buzz-saw hand. An assassin sent by Senator Gregg Hartmann, Democratic 
presidential candidate. Or at least the candidate for a day until Tachyon had 
destroyed forever Hartmann's political ambitions. But Cody did not know-could 
never knowany of this.
"Tach, are you still there?"
"Yes, yes, sorry. Take care of yourself. I'll see you Monday." He started to 
hang up, then hurriedly added, "Please, please, be cautious. Be careful."
A disconnected buzz was all he got back. Had she heard? Did she understand? 
Tachyon stared out the windows of the gray limousine at the city like a jeweled 
ship sailing away from him in the darkness. Blaise was out there somewhere.
The thought chilled him.
Troll was propping his nine-foot length against the front reception desk, 
chatting up the Chickenfoot Lady when Blaise entered. The joker straightened 
abruptly, his face twisting into an expression of surprise and concern. It 
looked like tectonic plates in motion.
"Blaise, your granddaddy's been worried sick. Where the hell have you been? I 
ought to whip your ass." Troll suddenly turned, lowered his head, and ran full 
tilt at the far wall. He struck with a sound like a cannonball crashing into a 
fortress battlement and went down in a heap. Chickenfoot let out a hysterical 
cackle and ran through the big double doors leading to the emergency room.
Blaise walked on, brows knitted in a frown of concentration, hands thrust deep 
into his pockets.
Cody wasn't in her office.
She wasn't in surgery. Finn was, and he shouted from behind his mask about the 
sterile integrity of the room and advanced on dancing pony feet on Blaise. 
Blaise didn't fuck with Finn's head. He kind of liked the pony-sized centaur.
Cody was in the morgue. What appeared to be an enormous wasp was on the table. 
Blaise watched as she carefully cut open the joker's chest cavity and surveyed 
the lungs. Cody then leaned over a small tape recorder. Her voice was so low he 
couldn't distinguish the words, just the soft, husky timbre like a chuckling 
brook. The sound made him shiver, but whether with anger or desire he couldn't 
say.
Suddenly Cody looked up and stared directly at him through the tiny window in 
the morgue door. Blaise jumped, hating that she had thrown him off balance. He 
stiff-armed the heavy door, and it flew open. She didn't retreat before his 
furious entrance. And that, too, made him angry.
"Hello, Blaise. Had a good time for the past week?"
"I've come for two things. My stones and you."
Her smile was crooked and a little hateful. "Your problem, my son, is that 
you've always thought your stones were bigger than they are."
" I can make you love me!" Blaise cried.
"No, you can make me hate you. Love you have to earn."
Cody was standing stock still. A pillar of ice and darkness. Blaise ran his eyes 
down that slim tall form. Noted her hand tucked into the fold of her lab coat. 
The glint of the scalpel between her fingers. He smiled.
"Cody, you're so stupid," Blaise crooned. The scalpel fell from nerveless 
fingers. "I don't give a fuck how you feel."
The coat fell with a sigh to the linoleum floor.
"Because I can. . ."
The blouse joined the coat on the floor. ". make you. . ."
She stepped out of her skirt. "... love me."
Had it connected, the blow would have ruptured a kidney.
But Blaise's karate training gave him a split-second warning. The young man spun 
away from Tachyon's thrust kick and caught his grandfather by the ankle. Floor 
met chin with head-ringing force, and Tachyon tasted blood as his teeth snapped 
shut on his tongue. He rolled to the side. Blinked in consternation as the heel 
of Blaise's boot slammed into the floor where his head had rested only a second 
before. Tachyon got his legs beneath him and bounded to his feet. Blaise 
charged, and the older man fended him off with the artificial hand. The digits 
couldn't be bent to form a proper spear hand, but the hard plastic fingers still 
managed to sink a satisfying distance into the teenager's solar plexus.
Blaise let out a sound like a dying air brake, and Cody lunged for her surgical 
gear as Blaise's mind control broke. "Would you fuck this macho bullshit!" she 
screamed. "And just mind-control him!"
For an instant Tachyon was distracted by the sight of the completely naked Cody 
snatching up and wielding a chest separator like a modern-day Hippolyte.
First rule of combat never, never, never get distracted. Blaise landed a palm 
strike to the face. With a dreadful mushy sound the cartilage in Tach's nose let 
go, and blood fountained over his chest, forming a red bib on the elaborate 
peach-colored coat.
Belatedly the Takisian brought up his hands in defense. He and Blaise circled 
each other warily.
Feint, feint. Tachyon lashed out with his mentat's power and struck the 
glass-smooth surface of Blaise's shields. Struck again and a tiny cobweb of 
cracks appeared in the structure. At this rate it was going to take until next 
Tuesday to breach the boy's shields. And Tach didn't have that long.
Too much booze and not enough exercise was taking its toll. He was panting like 
a ruptured hog. Blaise landed a body blow that resurrected memories of broken 
ribs from the year before.
Suddenly Cody was there. With a deft twirl of the chest separator she landed a 
walloping blow to the back of Blaise's head. He staggered, but then Cody froze 
and began advancing stiff legged on Tachyon.
"You see, Granpere." Blaise's smile was feral. " I can control her and fend you 
off. Mentally and physically. All at the same time."
Blaise's coercive ability was the most powerful Tach had ever confronted, but it 
was brute force. The subtleties of high-level mentatics were beyond him. 
Contemptuously Tachyon batted aside Blaise's grip on Cody. Interposed himself 
between the teenager and the woman. His mental shields enfolded her close as an 
embrace.
Cody was raging. Her thoughts ripped off her like sparks off a shorting fuse.
Damndamndamn. Stags. Runtingbedamnedstags. Me a damn shuttlecock. Notatoy! 
Releaselmakefree!
Cannot. Dare not. Tachyon sent to her. Help me, he begged.
Tachyon licked blood from his upper lip and endured three punishing body blows 
as he closed with Blaise. Clawlike, the artificial hand closed about Blaise's 
arm just above the elbow. It could exert enough pressure to crush a metal cup. 
Its effect on human tissue was also quite satisfying. Blaise screamed, and 
Tachyon's nostrils flared with wild, joyous pleasure as he slammed his left hand 
over and over again into Blaise's face.
Touch her, will you? No! None but me! She is mine! Mine! MINE!
Blaise tried a ball shot, but Tach was too quick for him. The blow landed on his 
thigh. The older man responded with a hammer blow to the boy's nuts. A scream 
ripped through the morgue.
Tachyon could feel Blaise's mind control scrabbling at his shields, but the 
teenager was in too much pain, too disoriented by hate and interrupted lust to 
muster any effective challenge to Tach's power.
Suddenly there were hands tearing at his shoulders. "Stop it! Stop it! You're 
going to kill him."
Tach snarled, ignored her, continued the pleasurable business of reducing his 
enemy to a bloody pulp. The hands were gone. Tach heard the slap of Cody's bare 
feet on the tile as she ran.
Agony! The formaldehyde burned like acid in the cuts on his face, his eyes. Tach 
and Blaise both fell back. And at last it penetrated. Blood lust, the killing. 
He had been on the verge of murdering his own grandchild. Horrified, Tachyon 
stumbled back, lost his footing in the slick blood, and went windmilling to the 
floor.
Blaise, his face a mask of blood, cradling his mangled arm, snarled down at 
Tachyon. "You're dead!"
Crablike, Blaise scuttled for the door. Flung it open and bolted from the 
morgue. Tachyon shook off the fear that held him and struggled to his feet.
"Where are you going?" cried Cody. "Must... catch him. Apologize. Help him."
"It's too late for that!"
Tach tottered for the door, but the pain from his broken nose made him dizzy. 
Tach sent out a telepathic bellow for Troll and was amazed when the 
nine-foot-tall joker appeared a second later.
"Doc, are you okay?" the security guard asked. "Of course he's not okay," 
snapped Cody.
Troll opened and closed his mouth several times as he contemplated the 
stark-naked chief of surgery.
"Blaise," Tach mumbled around a split and rapidly swelling lip.
"He lit out of here like a scalded cat," said Troll, then added ruefully. "Sorry 
I'm so late getting here, but I knocked myself clean out."
"Help me get Dr. Tachyon to emergency," Cody ordered. "We've got to fix that 
nose."
"Put on some clothes," ordered Tachyon.
"What's the matter? You've never seen a naked woman before?"
"I do not wish the entire world to see my woman." "Your woman? Your woman?"
Tach retreated from her acid laced thoughts. "Slip of the tongue," the Takisian 
muttered weakly.
"Owwwww! What are you using?" Tachyon complained nasally. Cotton wadding and 
splints clogged his nose, and his throat was becoming sore as he struggled to 
breathe through his mouth. "An entrenching tool?"
"Don't be such a baby." The probe hit the steel tray with a metallic clatter. 
"You're going to need a new nose. Any preference?"
"How about just like the one I had."
"Don't waste a golden opportunity"
"Why should I change it?" It annoyed him that she didn't like his nose.
"It was trifle on the long side," Cody said coolly. "It was patrician and 
aristocratic."
"It was a honker."
Tach absorbed this. Reluctantly admitted, "My 
great-great-great-great-great-great-great-grandmother always hated my nose."
"Then allow me to be creative."
"All right."
Cody worked in silence for several minutes, then a little gruffly she asked, 
"How did you know?"
"We were halfway to Tomlin International when I realized I had forgotten a grant 
application."
"The one from HEW?" she interrupted. "Yes."
"I've got it. I inadvertently picked it up when I was in your office this 
afternoon. I'm sorry."
"Sorry? You should thank whatever ancestors guard your back. So fortuitous a 
gift should not be demeaned. Anyway, Riggs started back, and at about Fifth 
Avenue I heard you screaming your head off. Riggs spared no effort, and as a 
result we had a police escort all the way to the clinic."
"Well ... thanks." She made a minute adjustment, and Tach sucked in a pained 
breath. "I seem to be making a habit of having you rescue me."
"It is my pleasure."
"Well, it's no pleasure for me. I'm accustomed to taking care of myself."
"You would do the same for me," said Tach gently. Cody prefaced her words with a 
long sigh as if she regretted the emotion that drove the response. " I suppose I 
would."
That girl was back. Lips skinned away from his teeth at Blaise whirled on her.
"Why the fuck are you following me?"
"You look like you need that place to go." The angle of her cigarette as it hung 
limply from her lips seemed to mock him.
"I don't need dick from you."
" I can show you something you'll like," Molly Bolt said.
Blaise smiled. "You're a really skinny, ugly little runt. I doubt your pussy's 
going to be much nicer."
The girl's face closed down like a series of slamming doors. "You're so fucking 
stupid. Okay, fine, we'll show you."
He felt the pressure of a mind. Then a second, a third, more and more joined in 
a desperate attempt to do something to him. Molly's tough-girl act was starting 
to fray at the edges. Blaise grinned at her. Reached out and closed his power 
about the watchers in the shadows. Last of all he took Bolt. It felt sweet to 
save her until last. Blaise commanded, and eight kids walked out of the shadows 
of the alley. Stood shoulder to rigid shoulder with their leader. Molly's eyes 
raged at him.
"What are you?" whispered a girl whose white-blond hair formed a shimmering 
nimbus about her little face. Blaise considered the question for a long time. It 
deserved a lot of consideration. Finally he said, "Inhuman." Blaise patted down 
Molly Bolt and pulled out a package of cigarettes. Lit one. Took a long drag. 
"Now, what was it you wanted to show me?"
"Read my mind," spat Molly.
It angered Blaise that he couldn't. Tachyon would have been able to. That 
cranked the anger a little higher. "What are you going to do with us?" Molly 
asked.
"Sell you as lawn jockeys." The laugh emerged as a tight little whinny.
"Let us go ... please," cried the blond girl. "You wont fuck with me?"
" I swear it," said Molly, pleading a little now. "We need you. Now I know why."
"What were you going to show me?"
"Let us go."
Blaise released them. Truth was, his overstretched mental powers were starting 
to quiver like a too tightly wound guitar string. But his little humans never 
suspected.
Molly ran a hand across the spikes of her multicolored hair. Sauntered to the 
mouth of the alley. The sidewalks were filled with rush-hour humanity. The sun 
sank like a bloated red sack into an ocean of brown-green smog. In the canyons 
between the buildings night had already fallen. "So, pick one," said Molly.
"One what?" asked Blaise.
"Person," said a skinny kid whose face seemed to be one angry blackhead.
"For what?" Blaise asked. He hated to ask. It made him look stupid.
"To humiliate," said the blond teen in her soft littlegirl voice.
"Or kill," offered another of the gang.
Blaise scanned the crowds. Listened to the blare of car horns. The thrum and 
rumble of hundreds of tires racing across the uneven asphalt of Broadway.
"Hurry" prodded Molly Bolt.
Blaise ignored her. Eventually he spotted what he was looking for. A carefully 
combed head of carrot-red hair, a business suit on the inexpensive side of nice. 
Not too tall. A little too slim.
An incline of the head. "Him."
"And do what?" asked Molly. "Kill him."
" I am fine. It is just a broken nose. I do not need to be in bed."
Cody ignored him. Folded back the comforter. " I must reach Washington."
She stripped him out of the blood-covered coat. "I must locate Blaise."
She unbuttoned his shirt.
"Make up your mind," Cody said. "Blaise or Washington."
Tach considered. "Washington."
"Fine. You'll fly tonight. Dita's already rescheduled your tickets."
"Damn it," he raged. "Don't manage my life."
She pushed his shirt off his shoulders. "Somebody has to." She pointed at his 
pants. "Finish. I'll get you some water so you can wash down these pain pills."
It's useless arguing with a shut door. Meekly Tach stripped off his pants and 
shorts and crawled beneath the sheets. Cody returned with the glass and an ice 
pack. Tach obediently swallowed the pills.
"I'm sorry," he said quietly.
"Now what are you apologizing for?"
"Mind-controlling you. I know how fiercely independent you are, but I could not 
effectively protect-"
"I know why you did it. Let's just drop it, okay?"
"Nonetheless, your reaction shamed me. Cody, please understand and do not reject 
me. My defense of you is not meant to demean you."
"I know"
"Perhaps it manifests as somewhat proprietary, but that is because I am still 
hoping-"
"Tachyon, would you just shut the fuck up."
"But I do not want you angry-"
"You know what your problem is? You talk too goddamn much!"
Black, oily. The water looked really disgusting. And the smell...
Blaise swallowed hard. Wished his elbow didn't hurt so bad. Out in the bay a 
police patrol boat droned past, spotlights sweeping across the choppy waters.
Blackhead--Blaise had discovered his name was Kent set down the bags of 
groceries on the end of the pier. Molly knelt and lit a kerosene lantern.
"One if by land?" asked Blaise sarcastically.
Molly didn't reply, for there was rippling in the dark water and a thing rose up 
from the water.
"Shit!"
"No, Charon."
Kent thrust the bags of groceries through the semitransparent body wall. 
Blaise's initial disgust was passing. It was just another version of Baby, 
Tachyon's living spaceship. Blaise took a step toward Charon. Molly held him off 
with a hand to the chest.
"How bad do you want it?" asked Molly sternly. Blaise remembered. Shrill 
screams. The wailing of sirens forming a frantic counterpoint. The small 
redheaded man pinned against the wall of the cleaners. Vomiting his blood across 
the hood of the big Caddy.
"Enough to do anything to get it."
"Then ya gotta trust us. You gotta be one with us."
"And if I don't?"
"You can't make us give you the power," the blond girl said. "You can only scare 
us so much."
Blaise slid his eyes toward her. "And do I scare you?"
"Yes."
Startling in its simplicity and honesty. Blaise took another look at her. 
Fine-boned. A few pimples on her chin, but otherwise unflawed. Fawn's eyes, but 
smoky gray with a dark circle surrounding the iris. The pale hair hung below her 
hips; it stirred softly in the breeze off the river.
"What do I have to do?" Blaise asked, turning back to Molly.
"Die."
"Huh?"
"Symbolically speaking," Kent explained. "This is bullshit."
"No," said Molly. "This is real." She lifted a long chain with shackles attached 
to the end. "You walk behind Charon. We've got the end of this." She shook the 
chain. "Eventually we pull you in."
"Eventually." Blaise turned the word over and over in his mouth.
"You have to trust us to pull you in before it's too late," said the blonde.
"What's your name?" Blaise asked abruptly.
She was surprised and replied without thinking. "Kelly."
"Stop farting around," interrupted Molly. "Have you got the guts for it or are 
you a jerk off and a coward?"
"Try saying something like that after all this bullshit is over," warned Blaise. 
"And just what is the point of this bullshit?"
"You have to die to live with us," a boy called out. "Great," muttered Blaise. 
"This is so stupid."
"In or out, Blaisy Daisy," crooned Molly.
Tachyon vomiting blood. Cody, eyes wide with terror and desire. Her body fiery 
hot beneath his. Bloody froth on her lips as his fingers sank deep into her 
neck.
Blaise thrust out his hands. The shackles closed around his wrists. Blaise eyed 
Charon. The two small eyes regarded his thoughtfully, closed in a slow blink. 
Blaise laughed as a white-hot surge of lust and anticipation shot through him. 
This was going to be fun.
They had clipped a heavy diver's belt about his waist, replaced his tennis shoes 
with lead-soled boots. Charon had slid beneath the water, Blaise plummeting like 
a stone behind him.
Blaise concentrated on the thousands of wriggling cilia that propelled Charon 
across the muddy bottom. How long could he last? How long until the last stale 
bits of air exploded from his aching lungs and the filthy waters of the river 
rushed in?
Charon's body cast a greenish glow into the dark waters. Occasionally a fish 
brushed against Blaise's body, fluttered hysterically away. His feet tangled, 
and Blaise fell to his knees. Almost ... almost he gasped. His foot had caught 
in the rotting rib cage of a body. There was a jerk of the chain, the shackles 
biting into his wrists. Awkwardly Blaise staggered to his feet. Hurried to catch 
up with Charon.
There was a roaring in his ears, and his lungs were laced with fire. His eyes 
focused desperately on the chain. Noted how the vaguely defined bands of muscle 
in Charon's body closed lovingly about the metal links. Blaise fought the urge 
to reach out and seize control of Molly.
No! He'd fucking die before he'd break.
And that was beginning to seem very likely. Blaise lifted his hands and pressed 
them against his nose and mouth. Suddenly the slack was taken up on the chain, 
and he was being reeled toward Charon's glistening body. He struck and began 
flailing desperately at the rubbery wall. It stretched reluctantly open. Water 
and Blaise poured into the slimy interior.
Kelly was yanking him up out of the water, which washed sluggishly across the 
floor of the joker's body. Air. Gulp it down, taste it, revel in the cool rush 
that filled his starved and aching lungs. Molly unlocked the shackles. They were 
cheering, laughing, suddenly he was captured in their embrace. A ten-headed 
animal with twenty arms holding and- caressing him. Blaise realized he was, 
crying and he couldn't figure out why. But it must have been okay because 
several other jumpers were crying, too.
Blaise became aware of a mental barrier. It whispered of terror, death, loss, 
loneliness. He blocked it. The jumpers were shifting nervously. Molly soothed 
them with a constant soft murmur.
"Just a little more. Almost there."
"What the fuck is that?" asked Blaise. "Bloat," came the terse reply.
Kent suddenly jumped to his feet. He was whispering as he shuffled toward one 
moist gelatinous wall. Blaise grabbed his wrist, forced him down next to him.
"Sit down! You can take it. It's just a stupid mind power. And a pretty wimpy 
one at that."
The jumpers were regarding him with awe. All except Molly. She looked pissed.
"No wonder the Prime wanted you," breathed Kelly. "Who's the Prime?"
Bolt tersely replied, "You'll find out. Someday. Maybe." Charon gave a little 
lurch as if all the thousands of cilia had pushed against the muddy bed of the 
river. They were rising. Water cascaded off Charon's back. They had arrived.
Once on shore, Blaise folded his arms across his chest and gazed across Ellis 
Island. The trees covered it like spikes on a dinosaur's back, and above the 
shadowy foliage loomed massive buildings topped with turrets and fanciful 
cupolas. It reminded Blaise of the Takisian fairy tales Tachyon used to tell. 
Lost kingdoms that existed only in the clouds and mist. Elaborate palaces that 
lured a man to explore their treasuries and ballrooms only to fall to his death 
with the sunrise.
But it wasn't a palace. It wasn't even livable. At least Blaise didn't think so. 
They had led him through the darkness to the main immigration center, and now 
they stood in one of the side rooms. There were, a couple of cots, and twenty or 
thirty sleeping bags. Some were rolled like somnolent caterpillars against the 
walls, others were spread out on the stained and buckled tile floor. Candy 
wrappers, crumpled snack-chip sacks, empty Vienna sausage cans littered the room 
and formed junk drifts in the corners.
Gray-green paint peeled like a bad sunburn from the wooden walls. High overhead, 
filthy windows barely indicated the presence of a waxing moon. Some were broken, 
the shattered glass like jagged fangs embedded in petrified jaws.
"Pick a place," said Molly with a broad, gracious sweep of the arm.
"Do I get a sleeping bag?" asked Blaise.
"You can share mine," offered Kelly as she sidled up next to hirn. "Until we can 
get one for you," she hastened to add, wilting a bit under his cold stare.
"Better rest, Blaisy Daisy," said Molly. "You're gonna need it."
Blaise pivoted slowly to face her. "Don't... ever... call me that ... again."
Arms militantly akimbo, Molly sneered in a singsong tone, "Or what?"
"I'll kill you."
The matter-of-fact tone left the girl gaping. She suddenly recalled herself. The 
watching jumpers, eyes bright like a hunting rat pack, eagerly waiting for the 
fight. Molly tossed her head and laughed.
"You'can try, Blai-" The word cut off and she whirled and exited.
"She's a quick learner. I like that in a slit."
The boys laughed. The girls shifted uncomfortably and exchanged glances.
Yes, Blaise decided. This was fun.
The lights made interesting effects on her face. At times it seemed as still as 
a white marble effigy. At others it was soft and vulnerable.
Tach hugged his briefcase to his chest. Winced as a bus released its air brakes 
with a sound like a dying pig. "This was not necessary. Riggs could have driven 
me."
"I wanted to," said Cody.
She drove as smoothly as she did everything else. No wasted movement, hands 
lightly gripping the wheel, the tiniest wrist movements as she wove through the 
beltway traffic.
" I wanted to make sure you got on that plane," she continued, and Tach forced 
himself back from a rapt contemplation of her hands.
"I'm not going to collapse from a broken nose."
"It's not your health that concerns me."
"Thank you." A little ironic and she caught it. She cocked her head to get a 
better look at him out of her one eye. "Should you be driving?" Tachyon suddenly 
asked.
"Little late to worry now. And as for the plane. I was afraid you'd take it into 
your head to go looking for Blaise, and frankly, funding the clinic is a hell of 
a lot more important."
"You can be very cold."
"No, I just know when to cut my losses."
The cars up ahead suddenly braked and the red flare of their taillights 
punctuated and underscored Tach's sharp reply. "I don't think he's a loss!"
"Then you're a delusional fool."
Tachyon dropped his head briefly into his hand. "All right, I don't want to 
think that."
Cody spun the wheel and they shot up the ramp and under a sign marked DEPARTING 
PASSENGERS.
"Better. God damn it, Tachyon, in maybe twenty or thirty years I'll have you 
past the guilt, out of the wallow of self-pity, and you'll have figured out when 
to shut up."
"Thank heaven I'm a big enough man to listen to this catalog of my flaws."
Cody's eye raked his diminutive form. "Well, your ego is big enough to handle 
it."
"I'm also highly encouraged."
"By what?"
"That you are willing to devote your life to the reclamation of my mind, body, 
and spirit."
The seat belt nearly cut Tach in half as Cody slammed on the brakes in front of 
the terminal.
"I don't think my original statement went quite that way."
"It was implicit."
Tach closed the prosthetic hand around the handle and pushed open the door. Cody 
moved to the trunk and pulled out his two big suitcases.
"How long are you going to be gone?" she asked. "Three days."
"You've got enough here for a round-the-world cruise."
"But, my dear, one must dress."
He was smiling bravely up at her, but inside he suddenly felt like he was filled 
with broken glass. Tears sprang to his eyes, and he muttered a curse.
Cody laid her hands on his shoulders. "What is it? You look stricken."
"I don't know. Nothing." Tach shook his head. "I am suddenly just so very, very 
unhappy."
For a long moment she looked at him, then bending down, she placed a soft 
feather-light kiss at the corner of his mouth. Tachyon stared at her in 
amazement.
"Smile for me, kid," she said, a crooked smile curving her own lips.
Tachyon burst out, "Cody, come with me to Washington."
"What? You're crazy. I've got no ticket, I don't have any luggage, what about my 
kid-" She paused for breath. "And who's going to run the clinic?"
People were shouldering past them as the couple blocked the automatic doors into 
the terminal.
"Please, I am frightened for you."
"I'll holler if I need you."
"It will be too far to come."
"You're hysterical. It's the pain pills talking."
"Cody, he means to harm us."
"Do you or don't you want me to call the police and have them search for 
Blaise?"
"No." Tach stared seriously up at her. "For if he's found, I shall surely have 
to kill him."
When you're stark naked and dressed only in a scarlet robe that had obviously 
been ripped off from some local Episcopalian church choir, you can feel like a 
real dork.
Add to that the fact that nerves were giving Blaise the most amazing hard-on it 
had ever been his pleasure to experience. Or maybe he just got off on big black 
candles and a droning tape of Tibetan monastery chants, he thought ironically as 
Molly led him into the dark, echoing room. Molly glanced down at his penis 
thrusting aggressively from between the folds of his gown, and grinned. "You're 
gonna do just fine," she muttered as if to herself, but intending for Blaise to 
hear.
He didn't respond. This and anything that followed could be endured. The 
ultimate prize was too great to blow it with a fit of temper now.
Jumpers lined the walls. Blaise did a quick head count. Forty-two. But many of 
those weren't jumpers. You couldn't jump until you'd been initiated. Most, like 
Kelly, were still waiting. Blaise noted that two-thirds were boys. Why? Did it 
whatever it was-affect males more strongly than females? How did one make a 
jumper?
A lurid green pentagram had been painted on the stained tile floor. On the walls 
were painted other occult symbols. The swastika, a leering goat's head, 666. The 
enormous room was lit by a score of black candles, but they did little more than 
chase the shadows into the corners of the roof where they hung like brooding 
bats.
In the center of the pentagram was a low table. It was an odd height if it was 
meant to serve as an altar. And the three red satin pillows tossed on its 
polished black surface really ruined any hope of suggesting blood sacrifices.
Molly closed her fingers around Blaise's left wrist and led him three times 
around the pentagram. At the eastern point they stepped into the figure, and the 
jumpers let out a weird, undulating cry. Blaise had to bite back a laugh. Then 
from the darkness a man's voice asked, "Who comes to be made?"
"Only one, Prime," called Molly. "Is he worthy?"
"He is brave. He is trustful."
"Will he serve?"
Molly nudged Blaise.
"I'll serve," the boy replied. Apparently it was the right answer.
Molly signaled and Kent hurried forward to pull off the choir robe. They were 
all staring at him. Kelly especially. Blaise ran a hand across his chest. 
Noticed that he was starting to grow hair. He had become a man. He could 
pinpoint the moment. He had gone into that morgue a child. Emerged a man.
"Lie down on the table," whispered Molly. "With your stomach on the pillows."
For a moment he bridled at the undignified positionhis bare ass thrust 
aggressively skyward.
Patience. Patience.
Tachyon vomiting his life out across the hood of his limo. No, even better 
across Cody's lap.
Paper-dry hands cupped his rump, and Blaise almost lost it.
Didn't take a genius to figure out what was coming. Parted his buttocks.
Oh, I'm gonna get you for this, Grandpa! Tearing pain as the man thrust deep 
within him.
A lifetime later and it was over. Blaise rose stiffly from the table. There was 
blood on his ass and legs.
The man gestured a broad sweeping motion that set the hanging sleeve of his gown 
to swaying. "Reach out. Seize one of them. Trade with them. For you it should be 
child's play."
Yeah, snarled Blaise internally, and he reached out for the man.
Nothing happened. Behind the mask the man's eyes glittered. The mouth twisted 
stiffly into a smile.
"You beautiful bastard," the Prime said. "You would try to fuck with me. Forget 
it, I can't be jumped."
"Can you be killed?" Blaise asked sweetly. From behind him he heard Molly gasp.
"Oh, yes, but without me there are no more jumpers. Don't shoot yourself in the 
foot, Blaise, in a fit of pique." The hem of the gown whispered about his feet 
as the Prime turned and slunk back into the shadows.
Blaise turned back to his peers. They peered back at him like bright cardinals 
in their scarlet robes.
"Come on, let's play," said Molly.
And Blaise reached out. Seemed to bounce out of his skin. Shoot like liquid 
fire. He came to rest in Kent's body. He looked out at the world from new eyes. 
Glancing down, he studied the overly long thumbnail on the right hand, the 
callused finger pads. Would the body remember how to play guitar? Blaise 
wondered. Then he was on to other sensations. Like the fact that Kent smelled 
funny. Blaise looked across to his body. Molly and Kelly were easing it to the 
floor. It... he ... Kent-damn!-seemed to be conscious, but frozen in some kind 
of fugue state.
Blaise made the jump back. Shook off Kelly's patting hands. Climbed to his feet. 
Raucous laughter rang through the rafters, skittered among the shadows. The 
jumpers stood in shocked silence.
Blaise threw back his head and screamed like a banshee.
"Oh, Tachyon! You're going to wish I had only killed you!"


Nobody's Home
by Walton Simons
Kenneth was late. Central Park baked in the August heat. Most of the animals in 
the zoo were napping. Jerry sat in front of the seventy-five-foot-tall cage that 
had been his home back when he was a giant ape. A lone pigeon walked up to him, 
head bobbing. Jerry shooed it away.
He felt a strong hand on his shoulder.
"It's just me," Kenneth said, sitting down beside him. "Sorry I'm late."
"What's up? You sounded pretty mysterious on the phone."
Kenneth nodded. "It's Latham. He's going around the bend, I think. He's involved 
in more than you can imagine. For years he's been a major figure in the Shadow 
Fist Society. Which includes everyone from punks like the Immaculate Egrets and 
Werewolves up to very respectable businessmen. And Latham's in it up to his 
neck."
"But he's got something on you, too. Right?" Jerry leaned forward. He'd been 
trying to come up with material on Latham for months, and hadn't turned up 
anything other than a few interesting reports from his time in Vietnam.
Kenneth looked away. "There are some things I'd rather Beth didn't know about. 
Other women. We've made such progress since almost getting divorced. I don't 
want to jeopardize my marriage. Latham has some pretty graphic evidence. One of 
the women I saw was working for him." He turned back to Jerry. "This isn't to be 
repeated, you understand."
"Only under torture," Jerry said. "Who's Kien?"
"You're better off not finding out, but it may come to that soon."
"What do you mean?" Jerry wiped his sweaty forehead. "Latham knows I have 
information on him. He wants to trade it for what he has on me." Kenneth shook 
his head. "But I've known St. John a long time. He'll hold back something to 
keep me in line."
"So what are you going to do?"
"Give you my file on Latham, if you'll have it. He's made some threats lately. I 
wouldn't put it past him to break into the house trying to get them. Beth might 
get hurt. This way I can let it drop that the papers are no longer in my home. 
He'll suspect you might have them, of course."
Jerry shrugged. "The day a native New Yorker is scared of some high-class thug 
from Beantown will never come." Jerry paused. "Well, maybe he does make me a 
little nervous."
"Good, because he's a very dangerous man." Kenneth looked straight at Jerry. 
"You're sure you don't mind?"
"Nope. Look over there." Jerry pointed at the chimp cage. One of the apes was 
high in a tree, throwing its shit at another on the ground. "That's what we'll 
be doing to Latham soon."
"I'll settle for a return to the established balance of fear," Kenneth said.
"We'll manage," Jerry said, putting his hand on his brother's shoulder.
"Thanks." Kenneth opened his briefcase. "Now, let's discuss what you're going to 
do about your appointment with the city officials next week."
"Right." Jerry sighed and stared back at the chimp cage. Sometimes the shit got 
thrown at you, as well.
Jerry sat on the worn, orange couch, shifting his weight. It was hot outside and 
his sweaty legs stuck to the cushion through his pants. The waiting room was 
quiet, except for the male secretary's fingers on the keyboard, muffled voices 
from inside the offices, and the breathing of the joker woman sharing the couch 
with Jerry.
Kenneth had shown him what to sign and told him what to say. He'd even offered 
to come along as legal representation. Jerry said no. It was time he started 
taking care of a few things on his own. Still, the back of his throat was dry. 
Several trips to the water cooler hadn't helped. City officials could do that to 
you. Especially in New York.
He turned to the joker, who was normal except for her grotesquely overmuscled 
jaws and mouth. "Did you sign them?" he asked.
She shrugged. "Do I have a choice?" Her voice was soft. Talking seemed awkward 
for her.
"Always." He straightened his shoulders. "I'm not going to."
The joker nodded, but didn't seem impressed. "You an ace?"
"I was once, but not anymore." The lie needed all the practice Jerry could give 
it. "You remember the big ape in Central Park?"
"Yeah. They took it away to make a movie or something. Right?"
"Right. That was me." Jerry felt a chill crawl halfway up his spine. "Dr. 
Tachyon cured me, but my power doesn't work anymore."
"Too bad," she said.
"Not really," Jerry said. "It'll keep the government goons off my back. Why are 
they interested in you?" The woman smiled, revealing two rows of large teeth 
like polished marble. "I'm what's classified as a type-two joker."
"What's that?"
"Any joker who's something other than just ugly, I guess. My teeth and jaws are 
pretty strong. I can bite through almost anything." The joker looked around, 
presumably for something to demonstrate on.
"That's okay, I believe you." Jerry unstuck his legs from the couch. "What do 
they call you?"
"Susan," she said. "How about you?"
"A long time ago I used to be called the Projectionist," Jerry said. She looked 
at him with polite blankness. "That was before your time, I'd imagine. Now I'm 
nobody. People just call me Jerry"
"Regular names are best, anyway," Susan said.
The office door opened across the room. A man in a suit showed a visibly shaken 
six-legged joker out. "Mr. Strauss?"
Jerry nodded and stood.
The man let him go inside first. He was middle-aged and slightly overweight. His 
hair was thin and gray. His eyes brown. He took Jerry's hand. Jerry shook it and 
squeezed hard. The man squeezed even harder.
"Sit down, Mr. Strauss. I'm William Karnes."
Jerry sat. Karnes eased into his chair behind the well-ordered desk. He put a 
finger to his mouth and opened a file. "I see you failed to sign forms fifteen 
and seventeen-a. Why is that Mr. Strauss?"
"Well, I'm no longer an active wild card," Jerry said, "so I don't see why I 
should be subject to conscription in the event of a national emergency. And I 
believe the other one said I was to notify your office if I were to take any 
kind of extended vacation. It just seems unnecessary" Karnes rubbed the end of 
his bulbous nose. "The government has its reasons, Mr. Strauss. Failure to 
cooperate now may mean some very serious inconveniences for you later on. You're 
aware of the rumblings in Congress about reinstating some of the old Exotic 
Powers laws."
Jerry took a deep breath. He didn't want to let Karnes get under his skin. That 
had been Kenneth's advice. "Yes. I do keep up with current events. But, as I 
say, I'm no longer a wild card, except in the most technical sense. I believe 
you have a medical report from my physician to that effect."
Karnes stared at Jerry. "From Dr. Tachyon. We can hardly give that much 
credence. If you want to undergo testing by some of our staff I might agree to 
that. But we don't pay much attention to alien quacks."
Jerry could feel the blood hammering inside him. "I don't think I have anything 
else to say to you, Mr. Karnes." He stood.
"Sit down, sir." Karnes pointed to the chair. "I can make more trouble for you 
than you can imagine. I have a job to do, and none of your kind is going to stop 
me."
Jerry felt something go hard inside him. "Really? Well, let me clarify something 
for you, Mr. Karnes. You're a low-level bureaucrat with a stick up his ass. I'm 
a multimillionaire with lots of very powerful friends. If I were you, I'd be 
extremely careful who I threatened. If you're lucky, I'll only come after you 
with lawyers. Do you feel lucky, punk?" Jerry quoted a cop movie he'd just seen. 
Karnes opened his mouth. Shut it.
"Stay out of my hair, then." Jerry left the office, shutting the door loudly. He 
walked over to Susan, who was still sitting miserably on the couch. "He's an 
asshole. Don't trust him."
"I don't trust any nats," Susan said. "Not anymore. It's just that I can't find 
a way around them."
Jerry patted her on the hand. "Right. Well, good luck, then."
Susan smiled. It wasn't pretty. Maybe she'd bite a hole in Karnes's desk. 
Probably not, though. That kind of thing only happened in the movies.
Jerry sat on the bed, oiling the pistol. He'd bought and read a couple of books 
on gun care. If he was going to have a weapon, he was going to take care of it. 
He'd been target shooting for a few weeks and the pistol no longer felt awkward 
in his hand.
There was a sharp knock at his apartment door. Jerry put the automatic in his 
dresser drawer under some T-shirts and crossed the room. He peered through the 
peephole and saw a middle-aged man in maintenance clothes. He opened the door.
"I'm here to get you plastered," the man said, smiling. "Right. Just follow me." 
Jerry closed the door and led the man to where his wall safe had been installed. 
All it needed was plaster, paint, and something to put in front of it.
The man walked to the wall and looked it over. "Nice safe," he said. "This whole 
building could burn down and anything inside would be fine. Yes, sir. I kind of 
hate to be working on the anniversary of the King's death, though. I'll drink a 
few beers for him later on. Are you a fan?"
"I'm not sure I know what you mean?" Jerry said. "Elvis. The King. He died 
twelve years ago today. I remember that summer. We had the second big blackout. 
You remember that?"
"No. I was around for the first one, though." Actually, Jerry had caused it, but 
didn't feel like telling this guy the story. "I liked Elvis when I was younger."
"Can't stop liking the King just because you get older. That's no kind of fan to 
be. I listen to Elvis every night before I go to bed with the wife. Makes it 
just that much more exciting."
"You mind if I watch TV while you work?" Jerry asked.
The man shrugged. "Don't see why not. You're the one spending a fortune to live 
here." He spread out a piece of canvas on the carpet in front of the wall and 
sorted through his spatulas.
Jerry picked up the remote control and punched up the local news.
". . . another apparent jumper crime. A mime says someone else entered his body 
while he was performing in Central Park, removed his clothing, and inserted a 
chrysanthemum in his anus. The jumper then paraded the mime around the park and 
made obscene gestures at passersby."
"Jeez," the maintenance man said. "That's three in the last two weeks. When are 
the cops going to do something about those jumper assholes?"
"Maybe they're scared," Jerry said.
"I can understand that. It's a sorry day when New York's finest can't handle a 
few snot-nosed kids, though. Even if they are aces."
"You like aces?" Jerry turned away from the TV and looked over at the man.
"Hell, no. Can't stand them. Put them all in prison." He pointed a spatula full 
of plaster at Jerry. "That's what they should have done to the fat guy, even if 
it was just a joker he killed."
"There's two sides to everything," Jerry said.
"Yep, and the lines are getting drawn. If you're for aces and jokers, you're 
looking for trouble. And a young man like you doesn't need any trouble."
Jerry considered telling the man that they were probably the same age, but that 
would just make him curious. He turned off the TV and picked up his 
Cosmopolitan. He was trying harder to understand women, but just couldn't seem 
to turn the corner. Maybe Irma Kurtz could enlighten him.
Kenneth was expecting him for lunch, but this time it was Jerry who was late. 
Traffic was at a standstill on Third Avenue. He'd paid off his cabbie and 
started walking uptown. Within two blocks his shirt was soaked in sweat. He'd 
started out walking fast, but had gotten stitches in his sides and was just 
keeping pace with the tide of bodies on the sidewalk.
Kenneth hadn't actually said so, but Jerry figured his brother was going to turn 
over the material on Latham. He'd mentioned several times that Jerry shouldn't 
cancel out. That had to mean something. Kenneth didn't waste words.
He was in the same block as the restaurant when his right leg cramped up. Jerry 
leaned against a wall and rubbed the back of his calf. The searing pain began to 
go away after a minute or two. Every other person that walked by looked at him 
and shook their head. He reached down and pulled the toe of his shoe toward him, 
stretching out the muscle. The pain lessened. He started limping toward the 
restaurant. Ahead, he saw three people go in. They were young and well dressed, 
but their clothes seemed wrong on them. They looked like kids playing dress-up. 
Jerry only saw them for a moment, but they seemed familiar. One of the girls was 
wearing a wig. Jerry had a few of his own and could spot one a mile away. He 
tried his bad leg and it quickly cramped up on him again. He started hopping 
slowly down the sidewalk. He started walking again when he stepped inside the 
restaurant. His leg was sore as hell, but there was. nothing he could do about 
it. The cool air inside chilled his sweaty back. He smelled sauerkraut and 
schnitzel.
They were sitting in a booth. The girl in the wig and the boy held on to the 
other girl. She looked passed out. A body brushed past him. Jerry saw his 
brother leave the restaurant.
"Kenneth?"
There was no answer. Jerry hobbled out after him. He grabbed Kenneth as they 
neared the sidewalk and tried to turn him around. Without looking, Kenneth threw 
an elbow that caught Jerry in the chest and knocked him backward. Jerry fell 
onto the sidewalk skinning his hands. Kenneth stepped out into the traffic.
"No," Jerry screamed, and struggled to his feet. Kenneth turned, looking 
disoriented, just like the girl inside had. He snapped his head around at the 
sound of squealing brakes. The car turned sideways. Its right fender slammed 
into Kenneth, knocking his body up and back. Kenneth screamed. Jerry heard the 
crunch of glass. Kenneth bounced off a parked car and slid down into the street. 
Jerry ran over, the pain in his leg forgotten. Blood was coming from Kenneth's 
nose and mouth. His body was twisted in a way that meant a broken back. Jerry 
knelt down next to him. "Kenneth, it's me. Don't try to move." He turned to the 
gathering crowd. "Somebody call an ambulance, now"
"Jerry" Kenneth's voice was garbled by the blood in his throat. "They did it to 
me. Switched bodies. So ... weird. " He closed his eyes, reopened them. "Hurts 
so much. Had to be ... Latham behind it. Tell Beth..." His body shuddered and 
then was still.
"No," Jerry said quietly. He held his brother's hand for a moment, then let it 
go and stood. He looked up and saw the trio of kids disappear around the corner. 
The boy was carrying a large folding envelope. Jerry ran a couple of painful 
steps, then stopped. "No."
Someone took Jerry by the shoulders and guided him back into the restaurant. He 
could tell they were saying something consoling, but he couldn't pick out the 
words.
They sat him down. A waiter put a glass of water and a shot of whiskey in front 
of him. "You wait here until the police arrive, sir. If there's anything you 
need, just ask."
Jerry downed the whiskey without feeling it and clenched his hands into fists. 
Underneath the disbelief and the pain, there was something cold growing inside 
him.
Something that would have to be taken care of sooner or later.
Jerry thought about Beth and slumped in his chair. She wasn't up to this, 
couldn't be. He'd been a shit to her for so long, it wasn't likely he could be 
much of a comfort now. But he was damn sure going to try.
Jerry heard sirens approaching. He raised his hand for another drink, then 
reconsidered and waved the waiter away. This wasn't the time.
They were alone on the couch. After the funeral Jerry had hustled the friends 
and relatives out of the house as soon as courtesy would allow. Beth had held up 
well, but he could tell she needed another big cry soon.
"I know we haven't had time to talk about it, but I want to apologize for the 
way I've acted the past few months. I know I hurt your feelings, and you didn't 
deserve that." Jerry sniffed. Beth wasn't the only one with a cry coming on. 
"I'm really sorry, and if you'll give me another chance, IT never let you down 
again." He touched her tentatively on the shoulder.
Beth put her hand on his and looked over at him. "Oh, Jerry, that doesn't 
matter. I know you're not really hateful. Sometimes these things just happen. 
What's important is that you're here for me now." She scooted across the couch 
and put her head in the hollow of his neck. " I need people around me who I can 
trust, who I can be myself with."
Jerry put his arms around her. He couldn't tell if he started crying first or if 
she did. They held on to each other, hard. After they were both done, he went 
and grabbed a box of Kleenex. They blew their noses together and Beth managed a 
smile.
"I really do love you, sis," he said. "Sometimes I just don't show it very well. 
It's one of the things I'm working on. I'm trying not to drink so much anymore, 
either."
She nodded, then dabbed at her eyes. "I'm proud of you for that."
"Are you going to stay here?" Jerry was afraid to hear the answer.
"My brother said he'd be glad to put me up for a while. I haven't been back to 
Chicago for years. I'm probably due for a visit."
Jerry nodded. He looked at her, but it felt like she was already gone. "That 
might be best for you."
She took his hand. "It'll only be for a while. I'll be back."
"I'll be waiting," he said.
Tomlin was packed wall to wall with bodies. It was still summer-vacation time 
for a lot of people and everyone seemed to be trying to get into or out of New 
York on the same day. He and Beth sat next to each other in plastic row chairs. 
She hugged her gray carry-on valise and stared out the window at the taxiing 
airliners. She was quiet. He couldn't imagine how she felt. As terrible as his 
pain and loss were, hers was worse.
"Eastern flight 178 now boarding for Chicago, with connections to St. Louis and 
Atlanta," came a soft voice over the public address.
Beth stood and fished her boarding pass out of her purse. She set down her 
valise and hugged Jerry tight. He knew he was going to cry again, but figured 
that if he started now, Beth would, too. She didn't need to be a wreck getting 
onto the plane.
"Good-bye, bro. I'll be back soon, I think. I just have to get out of here for a 
while. I'll keep in touch."
Jerry picked up her bag, put his arm around her, and steered her toward the 
boarding entrance. "God, I'm going to miss you. You're all I've got left."
"That's not true, or I wouldn't leave you." Beth kissed him on the cheek.
Jerry handed her the valise. "Call me when you get in."
"Absolutely. Good-bye." Beth turned and handed the man her boarding pass. He 
took it and smiled at her. Then she was gone.
Jerry sat back down and stared out the window at the plane. He rubbed his eyes 
and tried to think of his favorite song. Nothing came to mind. He watched until 
her plane taxied out of sight.


Dead Heart Beating
by John J. Miller
"It'sss the General'ssss order, Fadeout," Wyrm hissed, his foot-long tongue 
lolling out disgustingly over his chin, his eyes as expressionless as a pair of 
cuff links stuck through the sleeves of a frayed, cheap shirt.
"Since when have I had to be frisked before seeing the old man?" Philip 
Cunningham asked Kien's loyal watch joker.
"Ssssince the General ordered it." Wyrm's stare was unrelenting.
Cunningham gave his best put-upon sigh. "All right," he said, good-naturedly 
raising his hands over his head as Wyrm patted him down.
But the easy smile and air of practiced indifference hid the sudden unease 
running through Cunningham's mind. He knows, Cunningham thought. Somehow the old 
bastard found out about New Day. That's why he called me in to see him.
Wyrm grunted, stood back. "Okay," he said almost grudgingly. "You can go in."
Cunningham hesitated. He was sure that an angry Kien was waiting for him beyond 
the closed door to his private office, an angry, vengeful Kien, ready to 
confront Cunningham with his knowledge of the scheme that would have put 
Cunningham in his place as head of the Shadow Fists. Cunningham wondered briefly 
who had betrayed him to Kien, but decided to worry about that later. Now he had 
something more basic on his mind. Survival.
He could try to make a break for it, or he could bull his way through by putting 
the blame for New Day on someone else. Loophole, maybe. Or Warlock. That might 
be his best bet.
He squared his shoulders and opened the door to Kien's inner office. Inside, it 
was quiet and dimly lit. The only illumination came from the shaded lamp on the 
edge of Kien's desk. The room's atmosphere was dark and sepulchral, with the 
glass cases housing the fabulously expensive antique Orientalia scattered around 
the room playing the part of the grave offerings.
"You wanted to see me?" Cunningham asked as he entered the room. He stopped, 
frowning. "Kien?"
The shadowy figure sitting behind the huge teakwood desk was only dimly lit by 
the small lamp. Cunningham stepped forward cautiously, then suddenly realized 
that the Shadow Fists would have a new master much earlier than even he'd 
anticipated.
Kien was dead.
If that indeed was Kien seated behind the desk. Cunningham approached slowly, 
disbelievingly, wondering if his boss was playing some kind of macabre gag. But 
it wasn't anywhere near April 1 and Kien wasn't the type to pull practical 
jokes. The body slumped behind the desk was headless, but Cunningham could tell 
it was Kien from the half hand flopped carelessly in the fine blue powder 
scattered on the desk surface. And Kien wasn't the only deader in the room. The 
watchdog joker that Kien normally kept in a jar on his desk was pinned to the 
desktop with Kien's platinum letter opener, horribly marring the wood's glossy 
finish.
Cunningham gingerly leaned over the desk, first shifting the lampshade to throw 
a little more light on the body. Carefully keeping clear of the blue powder 
sprinkled on the desktop that had mixed with a massive quantity of congealing 
blood, he reached out cautiously and laid two fingers on the back of Kien's 
whole hand. The flesh was still warm and pliable. Kien's fingertips were stained 
blue, and more of the powder clung to the front of his bloodsoaked shirt.
"Rapture," Cunningham said to himself, stepping back from the desk. The blue 
powder was manufactured in Kien's own Shadow Fist labs. It enhanced the pleasure 
of anything, turning food into ambrosia, a simple touch into an orgasm. It also 
had some unfortunate side effects. In a way, Cunningham thought, it was ironic 
justice rarely seen out of bad television shows that Kien had been using his own 
wares.
Cunningham didn't think of himself as a stuffed shirt, but he was old-fashioned 
in his choice of recreational vehicles. He stayed away from the pernicious new 
stuff, with the often correct notion that he wasn't going to fool around with 
any kind of chemical until it was proven relatively safe by countless others. He 
was too bright to be anyone's human guinea pig.
The thing of it was, though, Cunningham could have sworn that Kien had a more 
conservative attitude toward drugs. When Kien played Kubla Khan In His Pleasure 
Dome, he would occasionally indulge in a pipe of opium, which had a long history 
of acceptance in Chinese culture. But that was it. He used no other drugs and 
was only a light drinker. It was a surprise to discover that Kien was a rap 
head.
Or was he?
Cunningham carefully considered the death scene. Why would Kien kill his own 
watchdog joker? And if Kien hadn't killed the sorry little bastard, who had?
The person who had taken Kien's head as a souvenir. But why steal the head of a 
dead man?
To keep the memories locked in Kien's dead brain away from Deadhead.
Perhaps. If that were the case, then this was an inside job. Knowledge of 
Deadhead's unique ability to access the memories of dead brains wasn't exactly 
widespread outside the Shadow Fists.
Cunningham tugged the letter opener from the batrachian joker's chest, then set 
it aside. A small box stuffed with elegant wrapping paper sat on the edge of 
Kien's desk. The box was stamped with the name "Lin's Curio Emporium," an 
expensive antique store that was part of Kien's far-flung commercial empire. 
Besides importing costly Asian antiquities, Lin's was also a high-class 
drugstore where well-heeled clientele could pick up anything from marijuana to 
heroin. To rapture.
Cunningham put the jokers body in the box. The joker might be dead, but that 
didn't mean he couldn't be questioned. Not as long as Deadhead was available.
Cunningham took a long, careful look around the room. There were no windows and 
the room's only door led to the antechamber guarded by Wyrm. He sighed. It 
looked like a classic locked-room mystery. Too bad he never read Agatha 
Christie.
Only the door to the office wasn't locked. It suddenly opened and Wyrm stuck his 
head in, saying, "Excussss..." and stopped before he got the first word out.
Leslie Christian stood behind Wyrm. Cunningham didn't like the weathered-looking 
British ace who'd appeared from nowhere the previous year and had somehow 
stepped right into the Shadow Fist Society as Kien's personal confidant. He was 
a smug, supercilious bastard who stank of unsavory secrets.
The two in the doorway stared at the scene inside Kien's office, then Christian 
said laconically, "So, finally made your move, old boy?"
There was a moment of shocked silence, then Wyrm howled in anger as Christian's 
words finally penetrated his stunned brain. The joker rushed into the room, his 
foot long tongue whipping back and forth, his fangs bared and dripping poison.
Wyrm wasn't very bright, and he was intensely loyal to his master. When he got 
an idea through his skull, it tended to stay there. And now he had the notion, 
neatly planted by Christian, that Cunningham had killed Kien. Cunningham knew he 
wouldn't have the opportunity to talk things over with the insanely jealous 
joker.
He faded. Fading made Cunningham as blind as he was invisible, but his other 
senses had been sharply honed by continual practice. He called a picture of 
Kien's office onto the video screen of his mind, and moved around a freestanding 
glass case that contained a selection of delicately inlaid and enameled snuff 
bottles. He headed out of Wyrm's path and to the office door.
But Wyrm's angry screams got closer. Rapidly. Cunningham ducked and there was a 
loud crash as Wyrm hurled himself forward, barely missed, and smashed through 
the front of the display case. The angry joker floundered through shards of 
shattered glass and broken bits of priceless antiquities, hot on Cunningham's 
trail despite his total invisibility.
What the hell was going on? Cunningham thought, then felt on his face the wet 
caress of Wyrm's ultrasensitive tongue. The bastard can smell me, Cunningham 
realized. Then Wyrm was on him.
He twisted away as the, joker grabbed at him and one of his flailing hands 
caught in Cunningham's shirt. Wyrm pulled him close. Cunningham could picture 
the wide gaping mouth, sharp fangs running with saliva like the drool of a mad 
dog.
He was no match, Cunningham knew, for Wyrm's wild-card-enhanced strength.
He faded in his eyes to see Wyrm ferociously biting empty air and brought his 
right knee up hard between Wyrm 's legs.
Wyrm screamed and Cunningham pulled away, glancing quickly around the room. That 
bastard Christian had disappeared, pulling the office door shut behind him. 
Crossed on the wall near the door were a pair of antique ceremonial daggers, 
their hilts encrusted with pearls, rubies, and emeralds. Cunningham sprinted 
across the room, cursing Wyrm under his breath as the joker hobbled after him. 
He ripped the daggers from their wall mounts. Wyrm's hot breath was on the back 
of his neck as he faded again, taking the daggers with him to invisibility.
Wyrm slammed into him, smashing him hard into the wall. The breath exploded from 
Cunningham's lungs as he turned and slashed with both daggers. But the weapons, 
centuries-old antiques, were no longer useful for anything but show. One glanced 
harmlessly off Wyrm's forearm, the other snapped on his rib cage.
Cunningham wanted to swear, but he couldn't catch his breath. Wyrm caught his 
face with one of his inhumanly strong hands, his clawed fingers raking furrows 
on Cunningham's cheeks. One of the joker's fingers found its way into 
Cunningham's mouth, and ace bit down hard.
He tasted blood in his mouth as Wyrm screamed and instinctively pulled away. His 
lungs laboring for air, Cunningham staggered back across the room to where he 
remembered seeing a viable weapon: the letter opener he'd put down next to the 
lamp on Kien's desk. He faded in his eyes just as he ran into the desk. Pain 
flashed through his knees as he bashed them against the edge of the desk, then 
he skidded across the stinking, sticky mixture of congealed blood and blue 
powder. He slid over and off the polished surface and landed on the desk chair 
and Kien's cooling corpse. Somehow he managed to grab the letter opener as he 
went sailing by.
Wyrm followed him, leaping over the desk with outstretched talons and dripping 
fangs. Cunningham thrust out his right hand, holding the letter opener, as Wyrm 
slammed into him, flipping the chair, Cunningham, and Kien's corpse all to the 
floor.
Cunningham was stunned by the double impact of colliding with Wyrm and smashing 
into the floor. It took him a moment to realize that he was still holding the 
letter opener and that something wet and sticky was running down his hand. The 
letter opener, he finally realized, had penetrated Wyrm's throat, angled upward 
through the joker's mouth and into his brain. The joker's blood was pulsing 
thick and warm on his hand.
Cunningham lay there for a moment breathing in the cloud of swirling blue 
powder.
It tasted so good to be alive.
Kien's chair felt comfortable against Cunningham's body. It was soft and plush 
and swiveled silently on well-oiled casters. Cunningham spun around in it idly, 
knowing that he should get going, that Christian could return at any moment with 
a goon squad, but somehow he just couldn't help savoring the feeling of complete 
triumph over his onetime boss. He stopped twirling around in the chair and 
rested one foot on Kien's headless corpse, another on Wyrm's rapidly cooling 
body.
So this is what it felt like to be head of the Shadow Fists. It was a heady 
mixture of power and mastery flavored with the anticipation of sweet riches to 
come. Of course, Cunningham realized, some of this flight of fancy had been 
caused by the rapture he'd breathed. He had to get it in gear. He couldn't 
afford to get _caught napping now.
He reached out gingerly, careful not to disturb any more of the fine blue powder 
that had settled back down upon the desktop, and picked up the telephone hanging 
precariously on the desk's edge. He dialed.
"Fadeout," he said into the phone. "Put me through to Warlock."
He hummed as he waited for his co-conspirator, the head of the Werewolf street 
gang, to get on the line. Warlock was tall and strongly built; no one, not even 
Cunningham, knew what form his jokerhood took. He always wore a mask. The 
Werewolf custom of wearing a common mask originated with him, as his followers 
aped whatever celebrity mask he wore for however long he chose to wear it.
"This is Warlock." The head Werewolf s voice was deep and emotionless, though 
there was something of cold, dispassionate danger in it. The Werewolves were, in 
Cunningham's opinion, mainly just a bunch of jokers with delusions of toughness. 
Warlock, though, was authentically dangerous. Even his ace power, which Warlock 
called his death wish, was eerily perilous.
Warlock would simply wish a target dead, and within twenty-four hours he'd get 
his wish. Sometimes the victim's heart would give out, or a blood vessel would 
burst in his brain. Sometimes they'd be in the wrong place at the wrong time and 
a runaway taxi would do the job. Once one of Warlock's victims had had the 
cosmically bad luck to be drilled between the eyes by a micrometeorite. No one 
knew how he did it, but Warlock's death wish never failed. He was a man to be 
cautious around.
"New Day is on," Cunningham told him with raptureinduced exuberance in his 
voice. "Now"
"Already?" Warlock asked thoughtfully. "It wasn't scheduled until next week. No 
one's in place-"
"We have to move now," Cunningham interrupted, and told Warlock about Kien's 
death. "I don't know who did it or why, but Christian's got to be involved 
somehow," he finished. "He showed up here too damn conveniently, and left after 
sitting Wyrm on me."
"What's his motive for wanting Kien dead?" Warlock asked.
"I don't know," Cunningham admitted. "But we'll find out when we get ahold of 
him. Right now we've got to move. Fast. He's already tried to pin the killing on 
me once. I figure he might bring Sui Ma in next."
Warlock made a sound deep in his throat and Cunningham knew that he'd pushed the 
right button. Even though both gangs belonged to the Shadow Fist Society, there 
was no love lost between the Werewolves and the Immaculate Egrets. The Wolves 
were jokers. They had the smell of the street on them. The Egrets were nats, for 
the most part smug, snotty nats. Though they worked the streets like the 
Werewolves, somehow they thought themselves superior to their brothers in the 
Fists, an attitude actively encouraged by their leader Sui Ma, Kien's sister.
"Put the Wolves on alert," Cunningham said. "Find Chickenhawk. Contact the 
Whisperer. I have a feeling idea we may need him before this shakes out."
"Lazy Dragon?" Warlock asked.
"Still missing," Cunningham said. "Last time I checked his place his sister was 
living there, and she hadn't heard from him in months. I'm afraid that 
Christian--or whoever's behind Kien's killing-might have already taken him out."
"What about Loophole?"
Cunningham made a dismissive gesture. "Leave him for now. He probably knows 
where a lot of the bodies are buried, so he may be useful later. But I can't see 
how he can hurt us now. He's just a lawyer."
"All right," Warlock said. "You want me to send a few of the brothers along to 
keep an eye on you?"
"That's a good idea," Cunningham said. He looked at the box with the tiny joker 
body in it. "I'm going to head for the Lair, but first I have to find Deadhead. 
I've got a little something for him here."
Fortunately Cunningham knew just where to look.
Cunningham knew the rapture was still playing tricks with him when he had to 
fight down the urge to buy half a dozen sandwiches at the Horn and Hardart at 
Third Avenue and Forty-second Street. He walked firmly through the food line, 
reminding himself that he was there looking for someone and not to stuff himself 
with mystery-meat sandwiches.
Although the eatery was crowded, Cunningham spotted Deadhead sitting by himself 
in an otherwise deserted corner. It was as if the automat's patrons-not usually 
considered a finicky crowd-were instinctively avoiding the half-mad ace. 
Cunningham couldn't blame them. At the best of times Deadhead was a repellent 
figure. His clothing was one step up from a bum's, his hair hadn't been washed 
since the Reagan presidency, and his corpsewhite face was continually dancing 
with nervous twitches and tics that made him look like he was suffering through 
electroshock therapy.
"Hello, Glen," Cunningham said carefully as he approached Deadhead's table. He 
looked at the empty plate before Deadhead and sighed. The deranged ace was often 
difficult to handle after a meal. "What'd you have to eat, Glen?"
"Not much," Deadhead said defensively. He refused to look Cunningham in the eye. 
"I can feel the sun and see the rolling plains. The grass tastes good."
"Christ," Cunningham muttered. "You didn't have a hamburger, did you?"
"Mooo," Deadhead said, loud enough to make people stare.
Cunningham pasted a smile on his face and put a hand on Deadhead's arm, lifting 
him from his seat. "We have to go now," he said. "I have something for you to 
do," he added quietly.
Deadhead nodded and got down on all fours.
"Up we go," Cunningham said in a voice that tried to be casual. "Time to go 
home."
"Mooo," Deadhead replied.
Cunningham kept a smile on his face, but leaned down and whispered fiercely, 
"Get ahold of yourself. I'm not going to drag you to the damn car."
Deadhead nodded and stood, straightening his clothes as best he could. His eyes 
darted around the automat. "I'm fine. Really. Just wait a moment."
He went to the cash register and bought a pack of gum. He unwrapped all the 
sticks with shaking hands and popped them into his mouth one by one. He let out 
an ecstatic sigh and chewed contentedly. Cunningham flashed a knowing smile at 
the cashier and led him out of the automat.
"Come on," he said, pulling him down the street to the parking garage where he'd 
left his Maserati. Deadhead followed him meekly, his eyes fastened on the 
faraway scenes playing in his brain as he relived the life of the cow who'd been 
part of his lunch. At least, Cunningham told himself, counting his blessings, 
Deadhead hadn't collapsed into an insensate stupor like he often did after 
ingesting meat.
He deposited Deadhead in the passenger's side of his Maserati, locked the door, 
and stood. A man was standing in front of his car. He hadn't been there a moment 
ago. He was Asian and wore mirror shades that gave his youthful face a blank, 
hard-edged look. His hands were in the pockets of his satin jacket that 
Cunningham just knew had a large white bird embroidered on the back. He could 
afford to act casual. The two similarly attired thugs standing behind him were 
carrying Uzis.
It took Cunningham a moment to put a name to the face: Jack Chang, a lieutenant 
in the Immaculate Egrets. He smiled at Cunningham. "Sui Ma," he said, "wants to 
see you. It's about her brother's missing head."
"Careful," Cunningham said as Chang parked the Maserati by carelessly wedging it 
between a pair of overflowing garbage cans in a narrow Chinatown alley. "You'll 
ruin the paint job."
The Egret grinned. "What's the matter? Don't you have insurance?"
Cunningham didn't like Chang's attitude, but he kept quiet about it as they got 
out of the car and waited for the other Egrets to show. Macho posturing was a 
waste of breath. He preferred to remember insults, mark them down, and act on 
them later under the proper circumstances. And Chang had just made his list.
The Egrets following in the van screeched to a halt right behind Cunningham's 
Maserati. The driver laughed as he tapped Cunningham's car with the van's 
bumper, pushing it forward gently against the brick wall in front of it. 
Cunningham kept his expression impassive, but added another to his list as the 
Egrets piled out of the van, laughing. Two dragged a stupefied Deadhead by his 
arms. His payback list, Cunningham thought, was going to be very long before 
this day ended.
"Let's go," Chang said. "Little Mother is waiting." Like her late brother, Sui 
Ma was something of a sinophile. In her case, she made the Egrets who guarded 
her headquarters wear costumes out of what looked to Cunningham like the road 
show of Anna and the King of Siam. Though, Cunningham noted, discreetly 
holstered opposite the guards' stubby-bladed Chinese swords were very 
modern-looking machine pistols.
Sui Ma's headquarters always made Cunningham feel uncomfortable, and it was not 
just because of the feeling that he was entering the den of the Dragon Lady. 
Behind the staid brick facade that was the outer wall was a fantasy land of 
silken tapestries and screens, electric torches glittering in wall sconces, and 
the heavy scent of incense billowing on the air.
Sui Ma herself was waiting for them in her reception room, sitting on her 
intricately carved wooden throne that was decorated with hundreds of peacock 
feathers. She wore robes of dark blue silk embroidered with the dazzlingly white 
birds that were the sigil of the Egrets. She was a short woman, rather plain and 
chubby, just coming into middle age. But her mild appearance masked a powerful 
mind as ruthless as her brother's. And right now she didn't look exactly pleased 
to see Cunningham.
"Your ambition," she said coldly to Cunningham, "has finally driven you too far. 
Not only have you slain my brother and his faithful bodyguard, but you then 
mutilated my brother's corpse. You'll pay for both acts."
Cunningham couldn't tell if she sincerely believed that he had killed Kien or if 
she was just using the circumstances as a convenient excuse for taking him out. 
He shook his head. "I'll take the blame for Wyrm, but it was self-defense. 
Christian sicced him on me. I'll give you even money that he was the one who 
told you that I'd killed Kien."
An expression flitted across Sui Ma's face that told Cunningham he'd given her 
something to think about. He spoke rapidly to press his advantage. "If I killed 
the General, what did I do with his head?"
She smiled. "You took it to feed to that disgusting creature of yours to learn 
all the secrets of the Shadow Fist Society."
"That's a fine theory," Cunningham admitted, "if I had the head in my 
possession. I don't."
"Then why," Sui Ma asked triumphantly, "did you go immediately from my brother's 
murder to pick up Deadhead at the automat?"
"Because I had something else for him," Cunningham explained. "The body of the 
watchdog joker that Kien had kept in a jar on his desk. The murderer killed the 
joker to keep it from blabbing about Kien's death. Someone seems to be running 
around behind the scenes trying to pin the blame on me."
"Christian," Sui Ma said thoughtfully. She gazed off into the distance for a 
long moment as Cunningham felt something like hope sweep over him for the first 
time since he'd been brought into her presence. "Where's the body of this 
joker?" she asked him.
"In a box in the glove compartment of my car," Cunningham said. Sui Ma glanced 
at Chang and nodded. He gestured at one of his goons, who immediately left to 
fetch it.
"And Deadhead?" Sui Ma asked.
"We have him in the antechamber," Chang said. "Bring him."
Chang nodded and also left, leaving Cunningham alone with Sui Ma and the 
half-dozen impassive guards who stood behind and around her peacock throne. She 
continued to stare silently at him, as -if weighing the value of his life. He 
decided that now wasn't the time to annoy her with idle chitchat.
The goon returned with the joker in the box. He presented it to Sui Ma. She 
looked in the box, nodded, and gave it back to the Egret who placed it at her 
feet on the upper tier of the throne's dais. A moment later there was another 
short, respectful knock on the door, and Chang led in two Egrets dragging 
Deadhead between them.
The disheveled ace stared around the room with his dark, confused eyes, mumbling 
something to himself that no one else could understand. He looked at Cunningham, 
nervously licking his lips. "You have a job for me?" he finally asked.
Sui Ma nodded and pointed at the box. "In there." Deadhead stepped forward and 
removed the box's lid with shaking hands. "It's so little," he said. Cunningham 
nodded. "Consider it an appetizer." Deadhead's smile turned broad and fixed. A 
line of spittle ran down his chin as he reached into his pocket and took out a 
small leather case. Inside were a number of small, shiny, sharp implements. He 
chose one and began to saw, humming to himself. Cunningham looked away as 
Deadhead cut through the tiny skull. Sui Ma watched fixedly.
It took Deadhead only a few moments to cut away the top of the joker's skull. He 
glanced furtively at Cunningham and Sui Ma as he finished, then hunkered over 
the body. Half hiding his actions, he scooped out the joker's brain and popped 
it in his mouth. He chewed hastily, noisily, then swallowed. He knelt on the 
middle step of the dais before Sui Ma with a dreamy smile on his face, the tics 
and spasms that usually contorted his features subsiding into satiated serenity. 
His eyes closed.
"How long will this take?" Sui Ma asked with more than detached interest.
"It depends," Cunningham said. "The corpse was rather ... fresh ... so that 
should cut down on the time it takes him to assimilate the memories."
It took a few moments, but then Deadhead finally began to groan and squirm. 
"Noooo!" he cried, twisting as if to avoid a fatal blow.
Cunningham leaned forward eagerly. "Who killed you?" he asked.
"Red hair," Deadhead panted in his trance. "Smiling face. The boy likes it, he 
does." He squirmed again and let out a long, keening cry.
"Is he alone? Is there another in the room?" Deadhead whipped his head back and 
forth. "Another. Too far back. Blurry. Can't see who-"
Cunningham cursed to himself. The joker who'd guarded Kien's desk had been 
terribly myopic. "What about Kien? Is he in the room?"
"At his desk."
"What's he doing?"
"He is afraid. He opens the box, though he doesn't want to. He is saying, `Why 
are you doing this to me? I don't want to. Don't make me do this.' He puts his 
face down in the box-"
Cunningham and Sui Ma looked at each other. "Mind control," Cunningham said, and 
Sui Ma nodded. "Someone-the redhead-made him inhale enough rapture to kill a 
whole platoon of r-heads."
"Redhead," Sui Ma said. "Mind control."
"Dr. Tachyon," they said together.
Sui Ma frowned, shaking her head. "I don't get it," she said. She looked 
critically at Deadhead, who was panting like a dog and tossing and jerking 
spasmodically on the floor, caught up in the aftereffects of brain-eating. "Why 
would Tachyon make Kien kill himself?"
"Maybe it wasn't him. Maybe it was some other redheaded mind-control artist." 
Cunningham shrugged. "Deadhead can draw a picture of our man when he comes out 
of it." He looked at Sui Ma. "You can see, anyway, that I was telling the truth. 
I didn't have anything to do with your brother's death."
Sui Ma again looked into the distance. "That may be true," she admitted, "but 
since when did truth have anything to do with deciding upon the proper course of 
action?" She looked at Cunningham. "My brother is dead and I shall be the new 
supreme power in the Shadow Fist Society. I do not think that you'd care to work 
for me, Fadeout, and frankly I don't think that I would trust you."
"So I'm still dead," he said with as much flippancy as he could muster.
"Let us say that the firm is eliminating your position," Sui Ma said with a 
smile.
"Okay," he said. "In that case, fuck it."
He faded to total invisibility. He didn't know the layout of Sui Ma's room as 
well as he did Kien's, but he'd done his best to memorize it in the last few 
minutes. He hit the ground, rolled, and came up dodging as he heard Sui Ma shout 
and her guards blunder around the room. There was a short burst of gunfire, an 
anguished scream, and then Sui Ma shouted, "Use your swords, idiots, and guard 
the door!"
He moved 'toward the sound of her voice, and stumbled over what sounded like a 
moaning Deadhead. He landed silently, rolled, stood, and bumped into someone 
else. His hand slashed out and sunk into firm, muscular flesh, and he felt 
sudden, searing pain as a sharp blade chopped down into his upper thigh. He 
stifled a scream, and struck up at where he judged the sword wielder's wrist 
would be.
He struck flesh again, and pulled away. The blade came with him, still lodged in 
his thigh. He set his teeth together and yanked the sword from his leg, fading 
it out. Clasping both hands around the hilt, he swung in a great figure eight, 
feeling it slice through meat like a hot knife through butter.
Sui Ma shouted again at her guards, and that was a mistake because now he knew 
where she was. He started to circle toward her, holding the invisible sword out 
before him like a blind man might hold out his cane, and to the confusion and 
panic running through the room something new was suddenly added.
There were deep, hoarse shouts in new voices, and the sound of gunfire blasted 
deafeningly through the chamber. Cunningham risked fading in his eyes for a 
moment and had to stifle a cry of relief as he saw that the cavalry had arrived 
in the form of a Werewolf squadron led by Warlock himself.
There were more than a dozen Wolves wearing leathers and delicately featured 
Michael Jackson masks, and armed to the teeth with automatic weapons and combat 
shotguns. One of them had a portable boom box, and the song "I'm Bad" was 
blasting through the chamber louder than the reports of their weapons.
Sui Ma was standing before her throne, more anger than fear on her face, braced 
by two of her guards, who were dropping their swords and fumbling for the guns 
holstered at their sides. Cunningham gauged the distance between them and 
slipped back into total invisibility. He lunged forward silently, swinging his 
razor-sharp blade.
He felt something warm and sticky splatter on his face and faded in his eyes, 
knowing that the mask of blood he was now carrying would give him away anyway.
One of the guards was down, but the other was turning toward him, gun up and 
ready. Cunningham tensed to dodge, but before the Asian could fire, a shotgun 
blast from the hands of a Werewolf cut him down. He fell forward, thudding down 
the steps of the dais, and Sui Ma was standing unprotected and alone before her 
throne.
She looked at Cunningham. "You seem to have won for now," she said, almost 
graciously.
He nedded. "You were right," he said. " I could never work for you. And I don't 
think that you could ever work for me."
He thrust the blade up and into her stomach, and she gasped, collapsing backward 
onto her chair. She looked at him for what seemed a long time before her eyes 
glazed over. Cunningham sighed and turned away. He'd killed before, but it made 
him feel funny to kill a woman like that. He couldn't totally console himself 
with the thought that she'd been prepared to do the -same for him.
In the rest of the chamber the Werewolves were wrapping up the last few of their 
surprised, outnumbered foes. Warlock stepped over Deadhead, cowering on the 
floor, and came up to join Cunningham at the top of the dais.
"Got here as soon as we could," he said, "after one of the brothers spotted you 
being hustled out of that laundromat. Finally figured, what the hell, bust in 
and-"
He stopped and stared at Cunningham. Cunningham supposed that he was quite a 
sight. His leg was throbbing like hell. The sword cut he'd taken on the thigh 
was bleeding like a goddamn river, and the blood of the guard he'd killed was 
splattered all over his face. Warlock was staring at his face. From the look in 
his eyes, peering through his Michael Jackson mask, he looked like he'd seen a 
ghost. The blood, Cunningham realized, must make him look like he'd taken a bad 
head wound.
"Don't worry"-he laughed-"I'm all right. This isn't mine." He wiped at the 
blood, smearing it but managing to remove some of it from his features.
Warlock seemed to catch himself. "Right," he said. "Glad you're okay. But we'd 
better move it before more of these damned gooks show up." He gestured at Sui 
Ma's corpse. "They're not going to like that."
"Okay," Cunningham said. He looked away from the corpse-littered room. Most of 
the bodies were Egrets, but a few Werewolves had gone down at the hands of Sui 
Ma's men. "It's back to the Lair. We've got to figure out where that damned head 
is."
But despite the death surrounding him, despite the pain he himself felt, 
Cunningham couldn't keep back a wide smile. It was over. The New Day had come. 
He was the new head of the Shadow Fists.
In the far-gone days when the Bowery had been noted for its fashionable 
nightspots, the decrepit building now known as the Werewolves' Lair had been a 
famous luxury hotel. When things started going bad for the neighborhood, the 
hotel had been turned into apartments. When the neighborhood really hit the 
skids, it had degenerated into a flophouse, then been abandoned for well over a 
decade, sinking even further into pathetic decrepitude before the Werewolves 
took it over as their headquarters.
They'd made some effort to clean it up, though Werewolf sanitary standards were 
not exactly those of the Ritz.
It was a smelly warren of dirty little rooms the heart of which was Warlock's 
Sanctorum. This was a large chamber behind double wooden doors that had a crude 
pentacle surrounded by the legend 666: LAIR OF THE BEAST Sloppily lettered on 
them in drippy red paint. It was dimly lit and cluttered with books overflowing 
their shelves and piled against the walls and sitting on the dusty furniture 
where they competed for space with occult gimcracks ranging from real human 
skulls to bundles of dyed chicken feathers that looked like they'd come from 
Auntie Leveaux's Hoodoo and Love Potion Shoppe.
Cunningham had co-opted Warlock's normal seat behind a desk piled high with more 
occult stuff, under a rather badly executed portrait of a bald and jowly 
Aleister Crowley, Warlock's patron saint. Warlock sat in a chair across the desk 
that was usually reserved for visitors. He was watching Cunningham closely. The 
ace sat with his bandaged leg held stiffly in front of him, his voice low and 
thoughtful as he mused on the day's wild events.
"It's Christian," he muttered, "it's got to be Christian. But how did that limey 
bastard think he was going to get away with taking over? He's too much of an 
outsider in the Shadow Fists to have a real power base."
"Unless he was conspiring with Sui Ma," Warlock suggested.
Cunningham shook his head. "She seemed genuinely surprised that her brother was 
dead. I think she really thought that I did it."
"There's Loophole," Warlock said. "He might figure in somewhere."
"He might," Cunningham agreed. "That's why I sent a few of the brothers to his 
office to pick him up. Maybe he can clear up some of the mystery." He fingered a 
sheet of paper lying on the desk in front of him. "Like who the hell this is."
It was a sketch done in colored pencil of the redhaired mind-control artist 
who'd killed Kien's watchdog. Deadhead was really a talented artist, and he'd 
caught an expression of cruel delight in the kid's smile that was doubly 
horrific on such a young, otherwise sweet face. There was a respectful knock on 
the Sanctorum's double doors, and Cunningham looked up from the sketch to see 
two Werewolves come in with Edward St. John Latham between them.
Latham was a lean, handsome man in a dark gray Brooks Brother suit with a light, 
almost imperceptible purple pinstripe. His face had no expression at all as he 
entered the room and nodded at Cunningham. He ignored Warlock as he sat down in 
the chair next to him, crossing his leg casually, ankle over knee. "I suppose 
congratulations of a sort are in order," he said.
"Thanks, Sinjin." Cunningham knew that Latham disliked being called Sinjin as 
much as he could be said to dislike anything. He was an emotionless, supposedly 
utterly loyal bastard. It was hard to see where he'd fit into a conspiracy 
against Kien. "But there's still some things I'd like to clear up."
"Such as?"
"Such as are you with me and Warlock, or the general and his sister?"
Latham smiled without humor. "I've already heard about the late general and his 
late sister. There's not much of a decision to make, is there?"
"I'm glad to see that you're being sensible. Tell me. What do you know about 
Leslie Christian?"
"Christian?" Loophole frowned. "Why?"
"He's the missing ace from the deck. I've got, the Werewolves scouring the city 
for him, but he seems to have disappeared. Not, however, before trying to pin 
Kien's murder on me."
Loophole looked faintly surprised. "Then you didn't kill Kien?"
Cunningham shook his head. "No. Would I do a thing like that? I figure Christian 
had to have been involved in the killing somehow. He showed up right after I'd 
found the body and tried to frame me, then he disappeared."
"Why would Christian kill Kien?" Latham asked.
"I don't know. But what do we really know about him?" Cunningham asked, ticking 
the points off one by one on his fingers. "He's an ace of some kind. He's 
foreign. He drinks. Somehow he wormed his way into Kien's confidence. He could 
have half a million reasons for wanting Kien dead, but we don't know enough 
about him to guess what they might be."
"Whereas," Latham said dryly, "you just had one reason for wanting the general 
dead."
"Okay," Cunningham conceded. "We're being honest with each other. I admit it. I 
wanted to be head of the Shadow Fists. I had ... plans. But I didn't kill Kien." 
He reached across the desk and handed Latham the drawing of the youthful 
mind-control artist that had skewered Kien's batrachian watchdog. "He did."
Latham took it, glanced at it. Something flickered across his face, and for a 
moment Cunningham could swear that the usually unflappable lawyer was unsure of 
himself.
"The joker saw this kid mind-control Kien and make him shove his face into a bag 
of rapture. Then the kid killed the joker."
"Interesting," Latham murmured.
"You have any idea who this could be?"
Latham looked at him a long while, then said, "Perhaps. "
"Do you want to let me in on it?"
Latham considered it for another long moment, then nodded. "In the interest of 
truth," he said without a trace of irony in his voice, "and justice."
Cunningham suppressed a smile, but Warlock let out an audible snort.
"He runs with a street gang that's done some work for the Shadow Fists," Latham 
said. "His name is Blaise. He is Dr. Tachyon's grandson."
A half-dozen derelict jokers were sitting around the entrance to the boarded-up 
old movie theater in the heart of the Bowery, sharing a bottle wrapped in a 
brown paper bag and soaking up the last rays of the autumnal sun like a clutch 
of bloated lizards.
"How's it going, fellows?" Cunningham asked the bums. A few looked up as he 
spoke. "Maybe you guys could help me. I'm looking for someone. This kid." He 
waved Deadhead's drawing. "I heard he hangs out here with a gang." He pulled a 
roll of bills from his pocket and peeled off a twenty. That elicited a little 
more interest.
One of the joker's eyes rotated forward like a chameleon's and focused on 
Cunningham. "You a cop or something?"
"That's right," Cunningham told him.
"You look like a cop. Kind of clean-cut, anyway. A cop on television. That 
right, boys?" There was general murmured assent, and Cunningham decided that 
he'd better bring the conversation back on track.
"What about the kid?"
"That bratty asshole. Him and his gang of assholes. The theater used to be ours 
before they moved in. Now it's loud music every time of the day and night and 
you really gotta be careful. They know when the welfare money comes in and 
they'll take it right from you."
"Is he inside now?"
"Yeah," the joker said. "Him and his expensive clothes. You can tell he's rich. 
He don't need to hang out here. He should give it back to us and go home to 
Manhattan. Him and all those brats."
Cunningham smiled, and dropped the twenty-dollar bill. It fluttered onto the 
bum's lap and he grabbed at it as the other derelicts surged to their feet. 
Cunningham watched them scramble for the loot, and then weave and stagger to the 
liquor store across the street in the wake of the lucky stiff who'd grabbed it.
He crossed the street himself and looked into the window of the car idling at 
the curb. Warlock was driving. Deadhead was in the seat next to him, looking 
jittery and unsure as always. Latham was in the backseat, flanked by a pair of 
fierce-looking Werewolves. There were three cars parked at discreet distances 
behind this one. All were loaded with heavily armed Werewolves.
"Okay," Cunningham said. He took a deep breath. "This looks like a job for 
Fadeout." He smiled. "I'm going to try the back door. I want you guys to wait 
here for now" Warlock nodded. "Be careful," he said.
"I will. Trust me on that." He-nodded to the Werewolf and recrossed the street.
The theater's back door was locked, but the lock was old and cheap and yielded 
easily to Cunningham's probe. The door opened into musty darkness, a dank, 
garbage-choked passageway that apparently led behind the movie screen, then 
forked into the auditorium. Cunningham froze in his tracks as the sound of 
gunfire suddenly blasted through the theater. He crouched in the darkness, 
listening. The sound had an unreal quality to it. The voice shouting over it was 
familiar and almost inhumanly loud. There was a thundering crash, the sound of 
roaring engines, and the plaintive cry, "I can't die. I haven't seen The Al 
Jolson Story yet!" and Cunningham suddenly realized what was happening.
Someone was screening a movie, apparently the hideous remake of Howard Hawkes's 
classic Thirty Minutes Over Broadway. Cunningham waited in the darkness as the 
sound of a plane going down filled the theater. There was a loud explosion as it 
crashed on the Manhattan shoreline, then cheers and whistles from the audience. 
There were apparently few Jetboy fans in attendance.
Cunningham went on down the passageway. He brushed past a thick, dusty cloth 
hanging and found himself in the auditorium. It wasn't crowded. There were 
twenty, maybe twenty-five kids sitting close to the screen in the center 
section. Few seemed very interested in the images flickering before them. Some 
were gorging themselves on candy and ice cream, others were making out though 
making out was a rather tame term for some of the acts Cunningham witnessed in 
the light reflected from the huge white screen.
One boy, though, was riveted to the action on the screen, despite the underaged 
siren rubbing up against him like an affection-starved cat. Even in the 
darkness, Cunningham could make out his gorgeous red hair and delicately 
handsome features. It had to be Blaise, the kid Latham had identified as 
Tachyon's grand-brat.
His eyes were glued to the screen, where people were now turning into rubber and 
plastic monsters courtesy of cheap special effects as the wild-card virus rained 
down from the sky. There was a scene cut, and Dudley Moore was suddenly 
strutting across the stage in a grotesque parody of Tachyon, wearing a ghastly 
red wig and an outfit that would have done justice to a drag queen.
Moore clutched at his hair as if he were searching for cooties. "Burning sky!" 
he swore. " I warned them! I warned them all!" Then he broke into an hysterical 
fit of weeping.
Blaise stood, throwing aside the girl who had been squirming against him and 
licking his ear, and drew a handgun he'd had holstered at his side. Cunningham 
shrank back against the wall as Blaise squeezed off a round. The report was 
startlingly loud within the confines of the auditorium, making the soundtrack 
explosions sound like harmless popguns in comparison.
But Blaise wasn't shooting at Cunningham. He hadn't even seen him. He'd put a 
bullet through the screen right between Dudley Moore's eyes. The ragtag audience 
of juvenile delinquents cheered, and Blaise sat down, a malevolent smile on his 
lips. In that moment Blaise looked as hardened and evil as the most twisted 
characters Cunningham ever had to deal with in the Fists. It was frightening to 
see such an expression on such a young face.
Cunningham shuddered, and moved on.
The lobby was dirty, dark, and deserted. The afternoon's last light filtered in 
through the cracks between the plywood boards haphazardly placed over the 
theater's glass doors. The concession stand was empty and dusty, though fresh 
popcorn was in the popper and cardboard boxes half-full of candy treats were 
stacked atop the counter. The confections all looked recent, probably brought in 
by the gang to devour while watching the main feature. They had, Cunningham 
remembered, also been eating ice-cream bars.
He went to the portable ice-cream cart parked next to the candy counter and 
opened the door in the top. He looked in it for a long moment. There, nestled 
among a couple dozen ice-cream sandwiches, was Kien's head, raggedly cut off at 
the neck.
Cunningham found himself oddly reluctant to touch the cold, dead flesh. He 
wasn't squeamish, and he'd had no great love for Kien when the general had been 
alive, but there was something ghastly about his manner of death that disturbed 
him. He looked down at the glassily staring eyes and sighed.
There was no way he was going to get any answers unless he got the head to 
Deadhead. He picked it up. It was cold as a block of ice. Somehow he felt better 
after he'd dumped a box of candy bars behind the counter, put the head in the 
box, and faded it all to invisibility.
He peeked into the auditorium. The movie had progressed through the scene where 
Tachyon had saved Blythe van Rennsaeler from a gang of crazed joker lootersto 
accompanying hisses and boos from the watching gang. They were just raggedy-ass 
kids. Sure, some were armed and Tachyon's grand-brat was a mind-control artist, 
but Cunningham had a couple of carloads of Werewolves outside waiting for his 
call. He crept back into the lobby and set the box with Kien's head in it on the 
candy counter. He went up to the lobby doors. They were pulled shut with a chain 
looped around their bars. with an open padlock dangling from the chain. He 
creaked the doors open cautiously and peered out the front of the theater.
The bums were back, but they were too engrossed in squabbling over the newly 
purchased bottle of booze to even notice Cunningham. He gestured at the cars 
parked at the curb across the street, waving vigorously, and doors opened and 
Werewolves got out. They crossed the street. The derelicts noticed them and 
realized at last that something was about to happen. They moved off silently 
down the street, clutching their paper-bag-wrapped bottles as if afraid the 
Werewolves were going to try to take them away.
"What is it?" Warlock asked as they approached. "It's Blaise and his fellow 
delinquents, all right. Round 'em up, but don't start anything rough. Watch out 
for Blaise. He's got a gun and some kind of mind-control powers, but he should 
be smart enough not to start anything when he sees there's a bunch of us. And 
Deadhead." The insane ace looked almost guiltily at Cunningham. "I've got 
something for you."
"The head?" Warlock and Latham asked at the same time.
Cunningham nodded.
The Werewolves filed silently through the lobby. There were a dozen of them, 
big, tough mothers dressed in leather and armed to the teeth with automatic 
weapons and shotguns. Cunningham was at their head, after showing a happily 
drooling Deadhead the cardboard box on the candy counter and leaving him to it.
"Remember," he warned the Werewolves, "keep it quiet, but if that Blaise brat 
tries to start anything, blow him loose." He turned to the Werewolf leader. 
"Warlock, stick close to Latham. Make sure he behaves."
"You heard him," Warlock said. "Let's do it."
Inside the auditorium the movie had progressed to the famous scene between 
Dudley Moore as Tachyon and Pia Zadora as Blythe van Rennsaeler, with Moore, 
rose in mouth, playing an elephantine melody on the piano while Zadora sang of 
"alien love" and the audience roared with laughter.
Time to end this, right now, Cunningham thought. He stepped into the auditorium, 
drew his pistol, and fired off a round into the ceiling.
That got everyone's attention. Candy and popcorn went flying as the teenage 
delinquents leaped to their feet and made abortive attempts to flee.
"Hold it, everyone!" Cunningham shouted in his best authoritative voice. Either 
his tone of command worked or the sight of a dozen heavily armed Werewolves did. 
Everyone froze. Everyone but Blaise.
He stood slowly, and faced Cunningham from across the auditorium. "What do you 
want?" he shouted over Zadora's sudden squeals of ecstasy as Dudley Moore had 
his way with her on the piano bench.
"Just to talk," Cunningham said. "There's nothing to fear."
"Sure," Blaise said. He sauntered up slowly to the head of the auditorium, fully 
aware that everyone's eyes were on him and playing his role as gang chieftain to 
the hilt. "What do you want to talk about?" he asked Cunningham casually.
Cunningham jerked his head back to the lobby. "In there." He looked at the 
Werewolves. "You five keep an eye on the kids. The rest of you come with us."
The Werewolves followed Cunningham, Blaise, Warlock, and Latham back into the 
lobby. Deadhead looked around guiltily. "Chinese food," he said through a full 
mouth, and turned back to his task.
Blaise frowned. "Oh," he said. "I see you found it. Too bad. He said I could 
have it."
"He?" Cunningham asked, leaning forward eagerly in anticipation.
"Me," a new voice drawled.
Everyone turned to look at the stairs leading up to the projection booth to see 
a middle-aged, blond, weatherbeaten man standing there, smiling. Something in 
his smile made Cunningham feel cold.
"Christian," he said, swiveling his gun toward the British ace. "I knew itl Why 
did you do it? Why did you kill Kien?"
Christian's sardonic smile widened as he ambled casually down the remaining 
stairs and joined the others on the floor of the lobby. "But I didn't," he 
protested.
"You can't deny that you were this brat's accomplice."
"I'm not denying that at all," Christian said blandly. "I'm simply denying that 
we killed Kien."
"What?" Cunningham asked.
As if on cue, Deadhead suddenly moaned and turned and faced them. "Why are you 
doing this to me?" he whined. "Why are you stealing my body? Why, Kien?"
A cold wind blew through Cunningham. "Kien?" he repeated softly.
Christian leaned against the candy counter. "Of course," he said with a sardonic 
smile on his tanned features. "You've been plotting and planning to take my 
place for a long time. I got sick of it. I decided to flush all the conspirators 
into the open, using," and he nodded at Blaise, "my jumper friend here to 
provide me with a perfect cover."
"No," Deadhead whined. "Please, no. I've been loyal..."

"Jumpers?" Cunningham said. The realization that Blaise and the others were 
jumpers made him turn cold. "You changed bodies with Christian and faked your 
own murder?"
"Exactly. Latham had brought the jumpers into our sphere of influence some time 
ago. I decided, however, to bypass him this time and approach Blaise directly. I 
used him to switch bodies. Since then I've been using Christian's astral 
projection to keep track of you and the others."
That explained a lot, Cunningham thought, grateful that he was surrounded by a 
band of friendly Werewolves. "Too bad, in the end, you miscalculated." He turned 
to Warlock. "Waste him," he said.
Warlock's face was unreadable behind the Michael Jackson mask. He lifted his 
pump shotgun, then turned and placed its barrels directly under Cunningham's 
chin. "Sorry," he said.
Christian--Kien--laughed. "Splendid!"
"What are you doing?" Cunningham demanded. "Kill him! Kill him and it's all 
over."
"It is over," Warlock said gently. "You see, my power allows me to see death on 
people's faces. I saw it this morning on yours at Sui Ma's. I knew then that you 
would die before the day ended."
Cunningham felt sudden sweat spring up on his forehead. "But kill him! All you 
have to do is kill him!" Warlock shook his head and Kien laughed and laughed. 
Cunningham turned to face him. "You were dead. I thought you were dead-" he 
started, but Kien held up his hand, stopping him.
"No excuses. No lies. I have flushed out a traitor, but find myself trapped in 
an old, badly abused body. I think," he said, looking hard at Cunningham, "that 
I would like to trade it in on a younger model."
"No!" Cunningham screamed. He tried to fade and run, but he heard high, 
tittering laughter from Blaise and a hand of cold metal clamped down on his 
naked brain. The room spun and he was somewhere else. His legs were young and 
strong, but everything was whirling about, making him dizzy and nauseated, and 
he couldn't get them to work. His perspective shifted again almost immediately 
and he'fell against the candy counter. He bounced, hit the floor, and started to 
crawl away, but his body was old and tired and his head was swimming and 
confused.
He heard faraway laughter, and an eager young voice said, "Let me!"
Someone turned him over and he saw blazing red hair and a young, horrible grin, 
but most of all he saw a huge gun barrel pointing right at his face.
He closed his eyes and tried to speak, but no words would come. He may have 
heard the horribly loud, terribly frightening explosion. But that was all.


Nobody Gets Out Alive
by Walton Simons
Jerry stood across the street from Latham's apartment building. A cool wind 
stirred up the dry leaves around his feet. The late-September heat had given 
way, at least temporarily, to the first cold snap of the season. He was dressed 
in a maintenance man's outfit. The steel blue .38 was tucked away in his work 
box, along with a few other things. He was as ready as he was going to get. He 
waited for the light to turn and walked across the street.
He showed the doorman a fake work order he'd manufactured. The doorman was more 
bored than suspicious and let him in. Jerry walked quickly to the far elevator 
and put an oUT of oRDER sign over the button, then pushed the button and stepped 
into the waiting car. Latham, naturally enough, had the penthouse apartment. Of 
the two cars, this was one that went all the way to the top. One of the things 
Jerry had learned about in the last month was how elevators worked. He opened 
the control panel and set the car to go all the way up. His knees almost gave 
way as the elevator started. Jerry made his features and skin tone Oriental. He 
pulled his change of clothes from his work box. It was mostly leather. The 
finishing touch was a fake immaculate Egrets jacket. He'd had it made from the 
videotape he'd gotten from Ichiko.
Once fully dressed, he tucked the gun into his jacket. The car stopped. Jerry 
clipped one of the wires. For now, the elevator was going nowhere. He could rig 
a bypass in a hurry if it came to that.
Jerry stepped out and walked to Latham's door. He fingered the lock and let 
himself in, closing the door softly behind him. The penthouse was quiet. Except 
for a light in what appeared to be the bedroom, it was dark as well. Jerry took 
a deep breath, padded across the carpeted floor to the lighted doorway, and 
stepped in.
Latham was lying naked on the bed. His body was covered with sweat and his hair 
was a tousled mess. The sheets were knotted on the floor with a red robe. Latham 
looked lost in a moment of private satisfaction. He glanced up and saw 
Jerry-the-Egret. His narrow smile slipped. "Who sent you? How the hell did you 
get in?" Latham's voice lacked the assurance Jerry was used to hearing.
Jerry pulled the .38, but didn't point it. "I'll ask the questions. Tell me 
about the jumpers." He had to have the truth before he could shoot Latham. He 
wouldn't be able to deal with killing him otherwise.
A young naked woman stepped out of the bathroom. It was the bald-headed girl. 
She had powerful, welldefined muscles, almost to the point of being 
unattractive, and bikini-waxed blond pubic hair. Jerry leveled the gun at her 
chest. He'd been watching for two hours and hadn't seen her go in. He didn't 
know if he could kill a girl. Even if she did have a part in Kenneth's death.
"He made us," she said. "All of us. With that." She sat on the bed, bent over, 
and kissed Latham's flaccid penis. It twitched under her tongue.
"Not just yet, Zelda. Business first." Latham put his hand under Zelda's chin 
and pointed her face at Jerry. Jerry felt something that might have been pain if 
it had lasted more than a few seconds. His vision blurred for an instant. When 
it cleared, he was looking down at Latham's penis. There was a pleasant warmth 
between his legs, like nothing he'd ever felt before. He tried to sit up, but 
his body felt heavy and clumsy. A hand grabbed him by the hair and pulled his 
head back.
There was an Egret in the doorway pointing a gun at him. Jerry felt his hands 
being twisted behind his back. Cold metal surrounded his wrists, and he heard 
twin clicks. He opened his mouth to speak, but it was his Egret body that 
screamed.
The Oriental face began to melt and flow. The Egret tore at the satin jacket and 
shirt, exposing his chest. Breasts began to form there. Jerry's pirated body 
closed its eyes and screamed again. He felt another moment of vertigo and found 
himself staring at Latham and a handcuffed Zelda. She was still screaming. The 
lawyer pushed her off the bed. Jerry brought his body under control and squeezed 
his trigger finger, but Zelda had dropped the gun. He ran.
He dove into the elevator and pulled a bypass from his work box. It slipped from 
his sweaty fingers. He picked it up and clipped it into place, then punched the 
ground floor. He looked up. Latham had the gun pointed at him. Jerry dove to one 
side and heard the shot at the same time. The bullet tore into the car wall 
behind him. The doors closed and it started down.
Jerry changed his clothes and appearance back to the maintenance worker. His 
insides tingled and his skin was cold. He straightened hImself and took several 
deep breaths.
It didn't help. He was still shaking when the elevator doors opened on the 
ground floor. He walked in measured steps across the lobby and out into the cool 
New York night.
He stopped at a bar near his apartment and ordered a double. He figured he 
needed it. Jerry knew he'd been lucky. He hadn't counted on Zelda being there. 
But she hadn't counted on not being able to control his shapechanging ability. 
Jerry was so used to it himself that he didn't have to think about it anymore. 
Without that, he'd have wound up like Kenneth and the rest. Latham probably 
wouldn't figure out exactly what happened, but he'd damn sure be paranoid from 
now on. That would make him even harder to get to.
"Have another?" The bartender looked down at Jerry's empty glass.
"Why not?" Jerry slammed the whiskey down before the glass could make a ring on 
the polished wood bar.
He sat down next to the grave and tossed pebbles into the newly cut grass. He 
didn't look at Kenneth's headstone. It made talking to his dead brother seem 
more stupid than it already was.
"Sorry, I screwed up again," Jerry said quietly. "I don't know what to do now. 
Got any ideas?"
The wind gusted in the treetops, tearing loose leaves with a whistling clatter. 
He heard a car pull up down the hill. A car door shut. He turned. Beth was 
walking slowly up the hill. She waved from below the shoulder. It looked like it 
took all her strength. Jerry stood and started down to meet her. When he reached 
her, they hugged silently.
"You didn't answer at home or at the apartment, so I figured you might be here." 
The wind whipped her hair into her face; she pushed it back and held it.
"I wish I'd known you were coming. I'd have done something special," Jerry said.
"I'm not up to anything special right now" She shivered. "I'm not up to staying 
at the house yet, either. Can we go to your apartment?"
Jerry blinked and opened his mouth, but said nothing. "It's not that," Beth 
said. "I just want to be with somebody who cares about me. I just want to be 
held." Jerry nodded, both disappointed and relieved. She'd given him a big 
compliment if he was willing to see it that way. "Let's go," he said.
Jerry did his best to clean up the apartment while Beth unpacked her luggage. He 
tossed all the dirty clothes in the hamper and stacked his film magazines and 
books at right angles. Beth opened a drawer and giggled, then held up a pair of 
crotchless, tiger-print panties. "What's this?" Jerry covered his mouth for a 
moment, then recovered. "Relics of a bygone age." He sighed, remembering. 
"Veronica."
Beth set them back into the drawer. "Did you really love her?"
"I thought I did. I obsessed about her. I wanted to make her happy. I damn sure 
wanted to fuck her." He shrugged. "I've learned just enough about love to be 
very confused about it. Maybe I've got ape residue in that part of me, or 
something."
Beth smiled. "I think that part of you is fine. You just don't know what to do 
with it."
"Neither does anybody else, apparently. I haven't had a date in months." Jerry 
sat down on the couch. He and Veronica had used it often. He tried not to think 
about that.
"Give it time." Beth sat down on the edge of the bed and shook her head. "Way to 
go, Beth. Say one thing and do another."
"What are you talking about?"
"Well, when I was in Chicago, I spent some time with an old boyfriend and we 
wound up in bed together. I think he was just trying to make me feel better." 
She bit on an already ragged fingernail. "I knew it wouldn't help, but I guess I 
had to prove it to myself anyway. The sex was nice, but it really didn't matter. 
When it was over, Kenneth was still gone. And I'll never get him back."
Jerry got up quickly and walked over to her, but she was already crying. He 
didn't want to start himself. He wanted to be strong for her. "I wish. . ." 
There was nothing he could say that would comfort her, and he knew it.
Beth leaned into him and held on tight. He could feel the warmth of her tears 
through his shirt. "There are some things you can't really share, and I have to 
sweat out the worst of this on my own. But, Jesus, I'm glad you're here." Jerry 
held her for a few minutes, stroking her hair, not saying anything. She stopped 
crying and looked up at him with puffy eyes.
"You want a Coke, or something?" He needed something himself, but wasn't going 
to drink in front of her. "No." Beth pulled away from him, picked up her 
overnight bag, and headed into the bathroom. "I just need to go to bed. It's 
been a long day."
"It's been a long year," he said. "And I could use some sleep, too."
Jerry told her his entire supply of stupid jokes before they got into bed. He 
was tense and wanted to defuse the situation if he could. It had been months, 
since Fantasy, since he'd actually been in bed with a woman.
Beth turned out the lights and curled up facing away from him. She pulled his 
arm around her and kissed him lightly on the back of the hand.
"I love you a lot, Jerry."
"I love you, too, sis." She'd never felt more like family to him than now.
Beth slipped into sleep quickly. Jerry had tried for hours, but just couldn't 
manage to relax. His penis had gotten hard a couple of times, but he clamped 
down on it with his legs until it calmed back down.
Finally, he went to the bathroom for a couple of sleeping pills. He washed them 
down with a drink of water and looked at himself in the mirror. His face was the 
same. It hadn't shown a day of age since Tachyon saved him from apehood. He felt 
changed, though. Felt like he finally had something to offer people, like his 
affection and caring made a difference to them. Maybe this was what growing up 
was.
He resisted the temptation to change his face to Bogart's and said, "Here's 
looking at you, kid." He flipped off the light and went back to bed.
He settled carefully in between the sheets. Beth moaned and jerked her free arm. 
Jerry took her gently by the wrist and pulled it down to her side, then kissed 
her on the back of the neck. She quieted and her breathing became even again. He 
looked outside. The sky was turning dull red behind the curtains. He hadn't 
realized it was that late. Jerry pressed his body close to Beth, closed his 
eyes, and gave sleep another try.
